Hello, welcome.
Happy Monday.
So glad you all are here and that you're joining us tonight to make sure the notes thing if
y'all see that pop up I can turn that off that's not supposed to be on during our sessions
but are the AI from zoom keeps asking us about that but so glad that you're here and here
for another round of heart work and I'm so excited about what God has planned for tonight.
Just a couple few little housekeeping things to get us started.
Welcome as those are continuing to come in supernatural Saturday on Saturday was what
is your watermark and that's where some of y'all are going to be seeing posts from people
there's already people commenting and posting about this is their this is it statement.
If you don't know what they mean that's from supernatural Saturday definitely encourage
you all to check that out and just see what the Lord wants to say to you through that
and even if that really you were there live or heard the replay and it really blessed
you want to encourage you to listen to it again.
Even myself I felt like God was definitely calling not just me higher but our whole community
higher together and so I want to encourage you all to lean into what is God saying to
you in this season.
What is your this is it declaration and what is God saying to you about your future to
come and the days ahead.
If you haven't noticed in the app in the last year single app under the community tab
every Sunday we put up what we call a roll call post those are going to go up every single
Sunday that the kind of the goal of these it's a couple of things it's kind of morphed
over time it's number one is to check in on you how are you doing what week are you on
in the course.
Hey you all even if you're not where you want to be totally still check in it's okay tell
us about the frustrations the wins the you know where you need prayer whatever it is
that you feel like you want to share with us we want to hear it from you but also what
we've started doing is we're combining the content from Supernatural Saturday a little
bit we're not going to give it all to you but just to get you all to activate that Supernatural
Saturday very quickly because if you're not able to come to Sunday nights you know that
we don't record those y'all we do that for a reason because we do several breakouts and
there's a lot of sharing and I know we do that during this heart work but only the people
in heart work hear this replay okay that's a co-ed session that there's a lot of people
that would have access to that replay and in this season right now we're just not doing
that maybe we'll change our mind at some point but we believe that's the best decision for
the community at this time and so if you can't catch the replay one of the ways for Sunday
night one of the ways you can activate Supernatural Saturday with all of us here in this group
is to create a post about your this is it moment season and what are the declarations
that God is giving you to say okay hopefully that made sense but I just want to encourage
you all to partner with what's happening in the community and and you know if you had
to choose you know out of all the things obviously I think the heart work session live your your
actual heart work videos are super important but Supernatural Saturday y'all I'm telling
you game changer game changer I'm a strong advocate for our prayer if you didn't know
we have Monday through Thursday prayer with just women we just pray as sisters together
we pray for the community we pray for what God is saying over us we pray for the men
we pray for Jackie and David and the team and you all literally I'm here to tell you
that things we've been praying for for years we're seeing start starting to happen in the
community with even open doors and things that are happening for Jackie and David and
guess what everything that happens for Jackie and David happens for us as a community so
I hope that you all understand the impact of what God is doing in this time and season
and what does that mean for you here in the heart work well it means that we have more
things coming in that we can then provide for the people that are in heart work you
know additional coaches all kinds of stuff and so we're super excited about that we also
have faith Friday if you've never been to a faith Friday prayer call typically David
Jackie's husband leads those they're really really awesome I used to lead it until David
stepped in and started leading that so that I could kind of step in and do some other
things and just because he loves to be there and it's really awesome because it's it's
the one time we have you know a male leader praying and over the community and over the
women and with the men but we really take a time to brag on Jesus about what what he's
doing in our lives and so I want to encourage you all to join those when you can obviously
understand if you can't join all the time or if you're working and you're not able we're
so sorry about that but just join when you're able I used to work all the time and sometimes
I would listen in and even if I couldn't talk on occasion
So I believe that it will encourage you.
Faith Friday's for everyone.
Yep, it's on your calendar.
It's in the app on your event calendar, ladies, okay?
If you are in the HeartWork program,
then that is in your calendar, all right?
Awesome, so let me welcome you.
Do we have anyone new joining us?
This is your first session.
You've never been here for a live session before.
If so, put that in the chat for us
so we can welcome you.
We're so glad that you're here.
For all of my ladies joining,
again, you've been here before
and you're coming back for more.
I'm so, so glad to see you.
Love seeing all of you every single Monday.
And honestly, when you move into the other phases,
I miss you, you're my ladies.
And so it's so fun to see you in future parts of the program
as you all know, I think by now I'm leading
in different areas of the community all of the time.
Is it Jovanya, is that how you say your name?
Yes, that's correct.
Awesome, I'm so glad.
Welcome, we're so glad that you're here.
Thank you.
Yes, yes, yes, yes.
Anyone else joining us new for the first time tonight?
All right, put it in the chat for me so I can see you.
We're gonna get moving.
Let me pray for us.
Father, thank you so much.
God, just for the reminder that your grace is sufficient.
God, in every season, and even as these ladies
are walking through the heartwork,
sometimes the up moments, the tough moments,
the valley moments, God, and everything in between
each area and aspect of that, God,
we thank you that you would meet them in those moments
and you would bring relief, that you would bring rest,
that you would bring peace,
that you would breathe life into them in a fresh way.
God, we're asking you to come and do a supernatural work
in their hearts tonight.
God, we thank you for the word that you've prepared,
just the things you've put on my heart,
the things that even started coming to the surface
this afternoon as I led the other session.
Lord, we thank you, God, for bringing darkness to light.
Lord, help us to hear what your spirit is saying.
Help us to step into the truth and the hope
and the revelation that brings life.
Your truth is what sets us free.
So, Lord, we thank you that you would help us
to apply the blood of Jesus Christ and the truth
to every area where we need it.
Help us to, yeah, Lord, get out of our own way,
to humble ourselves under your mighty hand.
And we just thank you for deliverance.
We thank you for healing.
We thank you for righteousness and joy and peace
that is ours.
Not just, you know, one day, someday,
but God, that you're the God of peace
and that your peace will enter our hearts and our minds
and our spirits, our bodies,
even for those that have been afflicted by illnesses
and disease and sickness for years.
We just speak healing to their bodies.
In Jesus name, amen and amen.
I'm really excited tonight to be leading you all
through the real you and some of the things
that God has led me to put together
for our journey this evening.
If you don't know what that means,
one of the things we talk about in this community
is who God originally created us to be.
Like when he formed us and he created us in the beginning,
who did he originally create us to be?
And that we wanna step further into that every day
and come out of alignment and agreement
with any counterfeit identities
or anything that does not look like that original Sarah,
that original Lori, that original Karen
that he created us to be.
And he's saying, yes, I want you to step into this.
And so tonight we're gonna dive into like,
what does that look like?
What does that sound like?
What are some of the ways that we can actually step in
to the real us or hey,
how do we even know who the real us is?
I don't know about you all,
but when I went through this course,
I can remember thinking at times like,
how do I know to trust myself?
How do I know that that's the counterfeit
or what's real and all of those things,
the more that you heal,
the more that you will discern what is true,
noble, lovely and of good report,
the things that are above only and not beneath
as scripture declares,
the more you're gonna discern the voice of God
versus the voice of the enemy
and sometimes even our own thoughts.
If you all continue on in the program,
you will get to a point where you're in the community
where we have some of the teachings
that we've even been doing recently
about intrusive thoughts and taking people further
into the understanding of how those show up in our lives.
And so just want y'all to know,
there's a lot more content,
even beyond heart work that is waiting for you
as you continue and that you're gonna have support systems
and teachings and things to continue
to help you come into revelation
and understanding of all that God has for you.
And so I want you to know,
it's not gonna just stop here, okay?
From relationship stuff, to heart work stuff,
to mindset stuff, to graces on your face,
well, what does that mean?
You know, all these kind of things.
So you have so much to look forward to.
Tonight, as we step into the real you,
I want you to be thinking about
and asking God about your true identity.
But we're gonna start tonight
by talking about the story in Genesis very quickly.
When God and Adam were having a conversation
and God said to Adam, who told you that you were naked?
I'm gonna read it for you now.
Genesis 3, 8 through 11 says this.
Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God
as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day.
And they hid from the Lord God
among the trees of the garden.
But the Lord God called to the man, where are you?
Adam answered.
He answered, I heard you in the garden
and I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid.
I wanna pause there.
I didn't even catch this earlier.
Both Adam and Eve hid.
But in that moment, Adam is saying, I was afraid.
I was naked, so I hid.
Y'all, Eve went with him.
You know, I just, I kind of think about influence there.
And don't step into the being mad at men
when I say this, okay?
But men struggle too.
Do you see the dynamic here?
So can we have grace tonight
and understanding that sometimes men
have to carry the mantle and it's not always easy?
All right, I'm gonna keep going.
Adam's saying, I heard you in the garden
and I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid.
And he said, being God, saying to Adam,
who told you that you were naked?
Have you eaten from the tree
that I commanded you to not eat from?
I'm bringing this up tonight
because there are aspects in our lives,
things that have happened to us, things that we've done,
where when those things have taken place
or we've made those choices,
they have caused us in some way, shape or form
to go into hiding, to be afraid,
and to show up exactly how Adam and Eve did in the garden.
They spent so much time with God.
They knew him, they were close with him,
yet when they ate the fruit and their eyes were opened,
I believe, just this is my heart,
I don't know that I have scripture to support it,
but genuinely, if I'm just thinking through
the unfolding of this, what causes us to hide?
Well, I know in my life, shame, guilt, condemnation,
those are things that cause me to tend to wanna pull away
or go and hide from people or situations,
or I don't know about you all either on this,
but sometimes even, and my husband and I don't fight,
but on occasion, I feel like when we're both tired
or hungry, the little bit of tensions that pop up,
even that, I'm like, oh, I don't wanna look at him
for a little bit, not because I don't wanna look at him,
but what's going on in me?
There's something that happens in me
that when conflict happens,
I have a hard time reconnecting.
I grew up in a house where there was a lot of fighting,
there was a lot of hitting,
Brian doesn't hit me, just so y'all know,
there was a lot of hitting and all that kind of craziness,
and so even though it's not anything like that,
I still struggle to recover quickly on occasion.
Now, I still recover really actually pretty quickly,
but for me, I can tell there's still some healing
to happen there so that I can continue
to allow that to be transformed.
Y'all understand what I'm saying?
There's a part of me that still, even in my subconscious,
my body will tell me to do things that I don't need to do,
I don't need to hide, I don't need to avoid my husband,
he's one of the most loving people I know, genuinely,
he's the most forgiving, he is quick to,
literally, quick to apologize, humble himself,
bring reconciliation, bring closeness,
and I always respond to that, but even sometimes,
even when I'm responding to that, I feel the walls.
Can anyone relate to me right now?
Yeah, Katie, so what I'm saying is not staying mad
for a long time about things, whether, you know,
and again, we don't fight about a lot,
but even the little things sometimes can,
if we allow them, become, what is it,
mall hills into mountains?
Isn't that the saying?
Something like that, right?
And how do they become like that?
Well, some of it's because we hide,
we don't turn into relationship,
we turn away because we're angry or hurt or frustrated.
We all have feelings and emotions, but what do we do with them?
That's kind of the key.
And so the reason I'm kind of setting this stage a little bit tonight
is that I genuinely have been thinking about this a lot the last week or so,
because we had a situation that happened in the church
where somebody was just causing an issue over nothing, really,
and it was like this little scuttlebug.
They got on the phone, they started talking to a couple other people,
you know how that goes.
Well, it really hurt my husband. It hurt him.
Well, then when he got hurt, well, then I'm upset,
because I'm a protector, you all.
I am. I'm a mama bear, and I'm a protector for my husband.
And so, you know, praying and talking it through
and feeling frustrated and hurt as well myself.
And you want to know what I said?
And, y'all, I'm being fully transparent tonight.
I said, man, I just don't know that I'm just going to trust them very much now.
And I think we just need to have some walls up and be careful.
I said that.
Now, I'm not saying if they were repeatedly toxic, okay, at that point, yeah.
But this was, so far, a one-time thing.
And so thankfully, thankfully the Lord in His goodness towards me
was, like, talking to me, nudged me to read more in this book
that I'm reading about overcoming offense and not getting stuck in bitterness.
And I'm just kind of biting little bites of this book
because I'm digesting a lot at a time when I'm processing what it's saying.
And so I happened to read in the book in literally the three pages, y'all.
I only read three pages.
The bait of Satan is what it's called.
But I don't want you all to go and get that when you're in heart work,
because it's a lot, okay.
I want you to focus on heart work.
It's a lot in a good way.
After you're done with heart work, 100% go for it.
The bait of Satan.
Offense is one of the biggest things that the enemy will use
to try to take us out in the body of Christ, okay.
Yeah, I read it years ago, too, but God has me going back through it.
Jen, I loved it then, and I'm loving it again.
But let me not get too far off track.
I get distracted, little bunny trails here.
But the reason I'm saying that to you is that the Holy Spirit
was talking to me about keeping my walls down and keeping my love on.
That's another book.
And it really was challenging me to not go into hiding.
Interestingly enough, you all, I preached on Sunday,
and part of my message was about coming out of hiding.
And so as I was finishing the sermon and working on it,
God was healing me as I was writing and typing
and putting my heart out there.
And I meant it.
I meant what I was saying.
And so I was processing, like, you've got to hear your own words.
You've got to walk in this,
because you've got to walk in it before you can preach it, right?
Teachers and preachers are held to higher accountability.
And so I did.
And I processed that out.
And I told the Lord, like, you know, I, you know,
thankfully these people, a couple of them made it right with my husband.
So I got to see healing happening as we were praying
and chose not to get angry.
We just prayed.
We prayed together.
We talked and processed.
People asked for forgiveness to Brian.
And then the one person said, so how's Bethany?
Is she mad at me too?
This one person in particular, he was worried about was I mad at him too.
And when my husband told me, I said, well, I am mad, you know?
And I said, but I'll get there.
I'll get there.
And by Sunday, you all.
I think it was like two days later, even in the morning,
I really didn't want to have to see this person before I preached.
I just wanted to get up there and preach and release the message.
And it wasn't that I didn't want to see them in a mean way.
I just didn't want to have to deal with that before I had to go up and
preach.
But you know what?
I saw his wife.
And her and I got to talk in and she shared that she was worried.
I was going to be upset with her too, even though she hadn't done anything.
And my heart just, you know, softened a little bit more and talking to her.
And I kept thinking, okay, y'all, you know,
had a good conversation with her, but I'm still not Lord.
I'm not sure I still want to deal with this right now.
And you all, I went up in my seat and, you know,
We're getting ready to start worship. And, and the Lord just said, Bethany,
do it now, do it now.
So I walked over to him and I sat in front of him and I,
I grabbed his hand and I just said, Hey, we're good.
And he said, really? I said, yeah, we're good.
And you all in that moment, his look was like relief.
And I shared some other things with him that I don't need to go into tonight, but I want you to know in that moment, I chose to not go into hiding and I invited someone else to do the same.
It's up to them what they do with it, but we can invite people to not go into hiding as we come out of hiding, as we choose to resist to go into hiding and put walls up.
And, you know, understanding that people make mistakes. We all make mistakes.
And so now if it became a toxic behavior and that person did the same kind of things again, well, then that's a different story, maybe.
Okay.
But as you're hearing this, I want you to understand that God might be inviting you tonight to come out of hiding and different ways.
And maybe also ask someone else that, you know, to do the same when God opens the door for you to do so.
What does it mean to be, to come out of hiding?
It means to show up fully, fully, fully, fully, not holding anything back.
Can you imagine you're just heart wide open and you're just living big.
You're believing big, you're living big.
You're not hunched shoulders anymore, thinking that God's not looking out for you, that he doesn't have his best for you.
Like you're living intentionally, being authentic, present and engaged in your life.
You're intentionally choosing to be fully present in every moment, recognizing your true self and actively participating in life with purpose and intention.
Again, not holding anything back.
When you, when we show up, as I was saying, as, as our authentic, genuine, true self, we often give permission, give others permission to do the same.
So we're all on this journey every single day to grow in our understanding of who we are in Christ, as well as that original story that he wrote for us before trauma or wounds ever entered our life.
There was a book that I read years ago, too.
Y'all, I read a lot.
So I talk about books and movies a lot because I read a lot and I like movies and God talks to me through movies and music.
So you're going to hear me reference that kind of stuff often, but I almost wasn't going to say it again tonight, but it came back up in my spirit again.
So I'm going to mention it.
And it was about, I don't remember the title or I would tell you all, but the concept was very similar to what we're talking about, but it was in a, like about a war, war kind of torn area.
And the government was coming in and hurting families.
I'm going to give you guys the very edited version, uh, hurting families, you know, children, adults, all of it.
And, uh, they came into this one house and the two children got away, brother and sister.
They got away.
They ran into the woods.
Unfortunately, the parents didn't, um, they heard what was happening to their parents before they ran away and whatnot, but they go into the, they go into the forest and, uh, the brother and the sister are originally in there together.
I can't, I can't even remember what happened to the brother, but at some point he's no longer with her.
I can't remember if he ended up getting caught by the people, but this, this girl in the story is hiding.
And, uh, what was known kind of as a safe place for her in that time ended up becoming kind of like a prison in a sense, because she became so afraid to leave the woods, even long after these people were gone.
And, and that's kind of the, what I want you to be thinking about tonight.
Like maybe some of you all you're in a safe place inside of yourself.
Imagine the wooded area and God is actually coming.
People that actually came to help her later on family, other family members came to look for her and they were calling out to her and she wouldn't come out.
And I believe the Lord is calling out to some of us and he's like, it's safe.
It's safe now.
Like you can come out, but we're still afraid a little bit on the inside in some way, shape or form.
And, and he, he wants you to know that it's okay.
Like it's okay if that's how you feel, but don't stay there.
Admit that's where you're at so that God can help you come out of that place.
Is there any part of yourself where you tend to hold back with people, even when you are safe?
That's also where I'm going.
Or maybe you share part of your life, part of yourself with them, but you don't really feel like you can show them your true self.
Now y'all keep in mind.
I do think that, um, about a handful of people are who we can really cut up and be our, like the fool, silly leave, like no holds barred.
You know, those things that you reserve for just the people that really see you in the ins and outs of you every day.
Um, I'm not saying we have.
to show every single person in the world, every aspect of ourselves.
But what I am saying is that the coming out of hiding is even when you're safe,
even with the, when you're with those safe people, are there things in aspects
of yourself that you're not showing them for whatever reason, and that's what I
want you to be thinking about writing it down on your paper.
If something comes to mind, it's really interesting, Monica, because
I'm about to read those lyrics.
I'm not going to read the whole song, but this is a song that has really
ministered to me so much over the years.
It's called Out of Hiding by Stephanie Gretzinger.
Come out of hiding.
You're safe here with me.
There's no need to cover what I already see.
You've got your reasons, but I hold your peace.
You've been on lockdown and I hold the key.
I believe she's singing this.
It's a Christian song.
She's singing this as if this is the heart of the father singing to us.
She goes on, because I loved you before you knew it was love.
And I saw it all.
So I chose the cross and you were the one that I was thinking
of when I rose from the grave.
Now rid of the shackles.
My victory is yours.
I tore the veil for you to come close.
There's no reason to stand at a distance anymore.
You're not far from home.
I believe you all are not far from home.
And the Holy Spirit is speaking to you.
And he's, he's saying, there's no need to cover what we already see.
God, the father, Jesus Christ, and the Holy Spirit, they three
in one see everything about us.
They understand the reasons that we've shut down, where we've closed the door.
And just like, uh, what's coming to mind right now.
And, you know, anybody that lives in, in a state that can be impacted by
hurricane and, or, you know, ocean type storms, they put shutters and all this
stuff, now they have windows that are special, but a lot of times they put
all these shutters and these things over the windows to protect.
But some of us have done that in a sense and never taken the windows back off.
You're still in protection mode as if trauma is still happening.
And for some of you, maybe it is.
Hey, I don't know what all of you are dealing with every single day, but I
want to encourage you when you have a safe place to take those off because
it's blocking God from coming in.
And it's also blocking others from coming into your life.
And here's why here's, here's a really amazing thing.
Every single one of you are a supernova.
Did you know that you actually have a solution inside of yourself
to a problem in the world today?
And you don't have to think just big worlds.
You can think about your world, someone next to you.
And it's not just about what can God get from you, but the, the reality is, is
that you're carrying something that can change the world, you have amazing,
intricate, like you're woven just so perfectly and beautifully and wonderfully.
And, and God is like, he's like, yes, he put colors in you and there's
brightness and there's light and there's hope and there's joy and whatever the
good aspects that are in you that I hope that you can see in yourself, those are
there because God put them there to be on display for the world to be drawn to him.
Matthew 5, 14 through 16, the message version says this, here's another way to
put it, you're here to be light, bringing out the God colors in the world.
God is not a secret to be kept.
We're going public with this as public as a city on a hill.
If I make you light bearers, you don't think I'm going to hide you under a bucket.
Do you?
I'm putting you on a light stand.
Now that I've put you there on a hilltop on a light stand, shine, keep open house,
be generous with your lives by opening up to others, you'll prompt people to open up
with God, this generous father in heaven.
As I was preparing for tonight and I knew I was leading prayer this morning, I just
quickly was like, Lord, what do you want me to, you know, do for I'd normally just open
up and do a kickoff.
And I just was preparing at the same time as I kind of just really quickly, Lord, I
don't even know what I'm going to open with on prayer call this morning.
What do you want me to open with?
I just said it that simply.
And then I just went about my way, continuing to prepare and I'm flipping through.
I was looking for something and I just happened to come across that, that scripture
and that verse.
And the Lord was like, yep, open with that today.
So, y'all, we did open with that in prayer this morning.
And what came up as a part of the call today that I want to say tonight as well.
Is that, um, I don't even remember who on the call said it, but the lie that they were
stupid or that they were weird or defective, um, Helen opened up, she's might be on here
tonight and shared that sometimes, you know, even that thought of alien, because I don't
know if people said that to her, if that was the thing she went through, but y'all these
lies that we believe about who we are, you're not weird. Okay. You're not stupid. You're
not a defective. You're not missing something. You're not an alien. You are a beloved daughter
of the King, a daughter, a friend. And, and I want you to come out of alignment and agreement
with all of these things. The enemy has spoken over you through the words and, and ideas
in situations, uh, of other people, what they've said to you, the things that have happened
that have caused you to feel weird. Um, one of my, one of my dear friends, because of
the abuse that she had gone through, um, one of her coping mechanisms was to read a lot
when she was younger and kids used to call her weird just cause she didn't want to go
play with them. And she just wanted to sit and read her book. We all, there's nothing
weird about that. Okay. She didn't want to go run and play, but because kids don't know
any better. Okay. You know, we all make mistakes. These kids, kids are kids. And, but sometimes
kids say really mean things. Don't they sometimes, but she's not weird, but you know what that
kept showing up in, in things that she would say. And, and even in her interactions, sometimes
with me, she'd be like, I'm, was that really weird? I'm so sorry. Maybe I shouldn't have
said that. Like she would say really good stuff, but then kind of recoil. I'm like,
there's nothing weird about what you said. And so we did heartwork a couple of times
around that topic and multiple things came up. One of which is what I just shared with
you that when she was in elementary school, that, that kids used to call her weird for
reading and not playing with them. So I don't know if you all have been through any situations
like that, where people have said stuff to you, maybe even an ex-husband, maybe you
were different and maybe didn't do certain things that that person wanted you to do.
And they said something harsh or hurtful about you. That wasn't true, but you keep hearing
that that's not true about you. Okay. And so remember tonight, as we're stepping more
into the real us, we have to come out of alignment with the counterfeit identities. Some of those
counterfeit identities have been informed by statements like what I'm talking about.
Okay. Romans 8, 37 through 39 says this. No, in all these things, we are more than conquerors
through him who loved us. For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels
nor demons, nor the present nor the future, nor any powers, neither height nor depth,
nor anything else in all of creation will be able to separate us from the love of God
that is in Christ Jesus our Lord. So if God is for us, who can be against us? If God is
for us, who can be against us? Who can stop the plan of God for our lives? Well, the enemy
can try, but we know who has the victory. Or sometimes we can give up, can't we? Put
ourselves in the waiting room, believe the lie of the enemy and stop moving. But you
know what? In one moment, we can start to move forward again. So I don't want you to
shame, guilt, or receive any condemnation. If you stopped at any point, even in the heart
work, ladies, you're still here. Praise the Lord. You're still here and you're still trying
to move forward or you wouldn't be here. So let's kind of pat ourselves on the back
a little bit for just a moment right now. Celebrate yourself like you're showing up
for yourself. You're here. You're investing in your heart healing. You're trying to figure
out how to step into healthy relationship. And that is a win. That's a win every day
in my book. Even if you're just doing one thing every single day. Yeah, that's right,
I saw you put your hand. I mean, seriously, we don't celebrate ourselves very much, do we? Not
very often. So this is what we're going to do right now. I want you to go ahead and in
the last week, go ahead and put in the chat for me a win that you had something that
happened that was good for you. Maybe you experienced something good. When go ahead
and see those in the chat for anyone that feels led to share doesn't have to be long.
It can be something short, sweet, simple.
Karen, I see you, Karen Roa.
I know, girl, but you're doing good.
You're moving forward and you have gotten so much breakthrough.
All right, let me see what else these are saying here.
You went to get a massage, Laura?
I did too, first time in like four years.
It was a rough one, but it was good.
All right, awesome.
So good, so good.
Amy's worked out four times this week.
Woo-hoo!
All right.
I might not be able to read these very fast.
They're jumping around.
Okay, so if I missed you, please know God sees you and we will do our best to see you,
but if I don't say out loud, it's not intentional.
I'm just going to read a couple tonight.
All right, Yesenia, that's so good.
I'm so glad you're going to start living because tonight's the night of change for you.
All right, so Sarah went through the forgiveness work.
Somebody went and bought some new shirts.
Yes, love it because you're opening up to the new.
Affirmed by a supervisor.
Hope for future restored.
Spent time with son and his girlfriend.
Invested in new skin care.
God reveals I hadn't really healed from last abusive.
Okay.
Alana, that's okay because you're here now and you're in a great place to heal from all
of that stuff so that you can step into new.
Served at a church barbecue.
Got a haircut.
All right, Alana.
It's in a ponytail.
I can't see it really right now, but I'm sure it's amazing.
Super cute.
Look at her.
There she is.
Hi, beauty.
All right.
You looked beautiful with your hair in a ponytail too, but I just like to, I like to love on
you all.
I think it feels good.
Doesn't it feel good?
Man, I love it.
I like to do it.
All right.
Really embraced preparing as a bride.
Yes.
Love it.
Okay.
Getting on here.
Yes, Julia.
Sometimes it can be hard, but you're getting through it.
Went out and had fun with just my one-year-old granddaughter, Kristen said.
You went to the rodeo.
I haven't been to a rodeo before.
I would like to go sometime.
See buying flowers for yourself every week.
I love it.
That's a word for somebody else on here tonight.
You need to go buy yourself flowers this week.
And if your heart, you're like, Oh, if they, if you just felt that, even if it was like
a little twinge, like maybe it was a little baby one, like, Ooh, was that Lord, is that
for me?
Yep.
That's for you.
Sometimes they're little, sometimes they're big, but they can be all the Lord trying to
encourage you to do that.
And you all, one time I went to do that and I almost cried in the store long, a couple
years ago because it just was doing something in me.
It was a supernatural thing.
So understand God can work even in those small little things have been inspired to increase
my steps.
All right.
She's going out walking, increasing steps.
I love that you guys are taking care of yourselves.
Love it.
I'm trying to cut my meals in half when we get them anytime from a restaurant, I'm just
cutting them in half.
It's been helping a little bit.
All right.
I'm going to let those go.
Cause there's a lot more.
I love that you guys have so many wins.
Practice this every week.
What are your wins?
I want you all to take time every week, even if it's just one thing that you write down,
this is my win.
Maybe start accumulating a list of your wins.
Okay.
And then read over that.
Put that up where you can see it.
All right.
As a reminder, just from this last Saturday, it's time.
Time for what?
Well, this is your time.
This is it.
This is the day of turnaround.
This is the day of change, the day of transformation.
Every single day, we have an opportunity to heal more, to hear more truth, to step into
greater revelation and truth.
And it's also the time for all of the princesses within you to awaken.
Yes, that's right.
A princess.
I was talking this afternoon and you all, if you call yourself a queen, I hope this
doesn't offend you.
So please don't get offended.
But in the day in society that we're in, I noticed that a lot of people call themselves
queen.
Even men are just like, they're like, this is my queen.
And I think that's cool.
But at first I thought it was cute and all that.
And I'm still not saying it's bad, but one of the revelations, and this actually happened
live real time when I was coaching this session one other, like in the last few months.
And I knew as soon as I said it, it was from the Lord.
Some of us in the society, in this world are showing up and saying we're queens, but we
don't even know how to be a princess.
We don't even know how to be a daughter.
So how can we be a queen?
Think about that.
There's progression to become a queen.
We don't just arrive at queen.
we become a queen. So let's start at being a daughter and a
princess awakening. Okay? What does that look like? What does
that sound like? What does that feel like? Well, one of the
things that can happen is that maybe you go look for a tiara.
Maybe you get online and find a tiara order one for yourself. I
know this might sound silly for some of you. But it's brought
deep, deep healing for a lot of people. Like getting a tiara
and I even feel the Holy Spirit just thinking about even for all
of you, but Helen, I feel like that is a word for you. To
consider getting a tiara. And not just getting it, but putting
it on and looking at yourself in it. What does it mean for us to
like, stand up and be like on the inside a princess? Would a
princess let someone some guy beat her up? Would a princess
let a guy talk down to her all the time? I don't think so.
Would a princess talk down to herself all the time? I don't
think so either. Queen, the one queen that became our Esther
that became queen went through that whole season of
preparation. Not just beauty treatments. She was doing that.
But they were reading the word they were, you know, I think
back then they were called the Chronicles or something like
that. At least in one of the movies about Esther. That's what
it says. But y'all that she was preparing the inside too. So
what does it look like to prepare the inside and do
activations like that where you put a tiara on or put something
else on that makes you feel royal. If you see something in a
store, and it's just like, wow, that feels there feels really
special. There's something about that. I want you to start
trusting what the Holy Spirit is doing in you. And if you can
afford it, I don't want you to spend money you don't have. But
get that thing and put it on and wear it. And what does it feel
like to think of yourself sitting at the banquet table
with the king? Well, the king of kings is who I'm talking about.
Y'all one of the things the Lord had to help me really do was
shift out of mindsets like I was under the table begging for
crumbs. I didn't understand that there was a there was a
whole banqueting table and my father God the father had a
chair pulled out for me. Literally, this is what he said
to me, I have a chair pulled out for you. But you have to choose
to come out from under the table and get in the chair. So are you
going to get in the chair tonight? Do you believe that you
don't belong under the table, begging for crumbs? If you do
some somewhere still inside, again, there's no shame. We're
all being just real, because we're stepping into the real
us. So we're gonna be real about what's going on in us. If you
believe somewhere inside of yourself that you just always
get the leftovers. That's what's coming up in my spirit. I just
get the leftovers. I'm always having to work hard, hard, hard
and I never get what I want. God gives it to everybody else. Or
like you're just like, I don't know about you guys. There were
times that I literally on the inside of myself, I felt like
there was a gate. And I was like, I was just like reaching
through the gate, this stuff that I was asking God for, but
the gate was closed. And I couldn't get in. And so I was
reaching and striving on the inside. And then one day, God
just gave me this vision. And I realized the gate was open. And
you know what he said to me? He said, Bethany, I love you. The
gates always been open for you. But on my in my heart on the
inside, until that moment, I didn't believe that I didn't, I
couldn't perceive it. But the more I healed, I was able to
receive that revelation and that truth and it changed me in a
good way. I went literally and it was it was it wasn't like all
in sudden one day, but the work and the time and the prayer and
all the things all the all the steps that I had taken led me to
that moment. And I shifted from orphan to daughter. Right then,
as soon as that revelation came, and I realized that that gate
was open. And God was like, you can come in. Everything that's
mine is yours. And and I said it this afternoon, I know that a
lot of you are like, okay, but
Ah, but then why don't I have my spirit mate?
Or why don't I have the money that I need?
Or why y'all, I still had trouble in life because we still have an enemy.
Do you understand that the enemy can also try to block your spirit
mate from getting to you?
Yes, he can, but guess who's greater.
Jesus is the blood of Christ and our ability to partner with him every day.
Every day, just continuing.
Even when, even when we're still encountering people, Oh yeah.
I mean, I counter this person.
Yeah.
He kind of looks like something I used to fall for, but praise the Lord.
I'm seeing this guy's got a lot of baby mama drama and I
don't want that anymore.
Yes, you all.
I did say that about a guy I came into contact with.
He was a nice guy, but he had a whole lot of baby mama drama.
And I had already done that twice when I was married and my spiritual
daughter's dad, and I didn't want that back in my life again.
So while he was kind, I was just like, thank you so much for this date.
But I just, I'm not seeing that we're a match in this season.
And I kept moving forward and I ended up meeting Brian and
whoa, no baby mama drama there.
Now his kids are grown.
There might've been, if I had known him years ago, knowing about things
that he went through with his ex, but praise the Lord, he was out of that season.
So I didn't have to go through that.
It was great and glorious y'all.
Yes.
So I learned, do you see what I'm trying to convey to you?
When we step into the real us and we keep learning and we keep growing,
you can choose differently.
What does that mean?
What part, what part Sharon?
Baby mama drama.
Oh, well, I had been with a lot of guys.
Where their exes were just, it was a lot of fighting between
them and their exes constantly.
There was a lot of jealousy from that person to me, even when there was no
reason, like I never, like, I'm pretty, I'm a very respectful person about who
the mom is, even though I will step in and be like that mom on behalf of the
other person, when they can't be, I'm never going to call myself their mom.
I just don't do it.
They have a mom.
And so I'm very respectful, but, uh, doesn't always go that way with other
people, especially if they're struggling.
So yeah, there was just a lot of, a lot of things that didn't have to
happen that were going on there.
So that's why I called it that, but not all mamas, not all
mamas have drama you all.
Okay.
So please don't think I'm talking about you.
I'm not, but it was just a lot of craziness calling cops on, on their dad.
I mean, just nonsense stuff.
That's what I'm talking about.
Okay.
All right.
Let me keep moving.
Ephesians 5, 14, awake, awake, go sleeper and rise up from the dead and
Christ will shine on you and he will awaken you to true love's kiss, the
kiss from heaven and a deeper understanding of God's absolute love and adoration for
you.
He's also going to awaken you to that true identity in Christ, to restoration,
to big, bold futures, to dreams awakening within you.
And I believe that God wants to awaken childhood dreams and cause those to come
back to life as well as new dreams being given to you.
Are there dreams that you wanted to do when you were a child that you can
actually still take steps towards, but the enemy's just always trying to
convince you that you shouldn't.
God might be breathing right onto those dreams tonight and in this heartwork
process, and he might be saying, Hey, go try this, go enjoy this.
Hey, you wanted to do this when you were a kid.
You should, you should go do this.
Maybe it doesn't say it exactly that way, but there are going to be different ways.
It's going to come up in your spirit.
And I want to encourage you to take steps towards those things.
Maybe while you're in heartwork, you started thinking about going back to
school again, swing dancing.
Yes.
Go do it.
Basketball.
Yes.
Whatever you all love, go do it.
Salsa dancing, Leeanne still practicing or having fun.
And I love it.
I love it.
Yes, it can be scary, but you know what can, it can also be fun and free and
glorious.
You know what?
When we get on the other side of the fear, we typically experience so much more.
And I really, Alina, I want you to look at why, um, and not in a bad way, but
that same friend that I was talking to you about, she battled a lot of fear as
well.
And God kept nudging her to go do even she really.
she went to a speed dating events by herself.
And she would have never done that before you all,
but she went for it.
And it wasn't always easy,
but God really used that to help her again,
come up, overcome the fear.
But I really want to encourage you to ask the Lord,
what's feeding the fear?
Like what's making it scary?
And see what he reveals there,
because I believe he wants to help you overcome that.
And to see that you can go experience new, amazing things.
And overcome the fear of doing so.
Yeah.
It can be good.
You know, it happens one step at a time.
I'm not saying I never feel fear you all,
but I'm going to do it afraid.
I am.
I'm going to do it afraid.
Zip lining, parasailing.
Y'all, I still think,
I still think I want to go skydiving one day.
I don't know if I'll feel the same if I have a baby,
but it is still on my bucket list.
I am an adventurer.
I like to go do fun, really kind of,
not overly risky things, but I do like, you know,
I'm one of those people that gets up on one of those tall
rocks and jumps into the water.
Yeah.
I love that stuff.
I love it.
I'm afraid the first time, but once I do it and it's fun,
then I'm like back up there and I want to keep doing it.
Maybe that's not you.
And that's totally fine.
Maybe your thing is something that's still a big deal for
you to step out and go to a painting class or a pottery
class or like even a school class.
Maybe some of you want to learn how to learn,
like speak Spanish or French or, you know what I'm saying?
I'm just saying, go do the thing, whatever it is,
it's going to matter for you.
Okay.
All right.
Let me keep going.
So on that awakening to your true self,
I'm going to just very quickly,
there's a movie called Wreck-It Ralph.
I talked about it this afternoon.
I love to talk about it every time I do this session.
So if you've heard this, this real you,
some of this content before,
I did change it up a little bit tonight,
but if you've heard some of this before,
you've heard me talk about Wreck-It Ralph.
It is a kid's movie, but I recommend it.
Wreck-It Ralph was kind of about a, like a game.
So the whole little movie is about them inside of the game,
the people that are inside the game.
So Ralph is one of the people and he,
he's going in to wreck this, he's Wreck-It Ralph.
So he's going into, or maybe he's going in to fix it.
I don't remember, it's been so long,
but I just remember Vanellope
is one of the characters in this little movie.
Well, Vanellope, when we get introduced to her,
she's a glitch, she's glitching.
So if you can imagine your computers on the fritz
and it's like glitching out, yeah, that's like what she was.
And she's that way, almost the entire movie.
But the more the movie goes in, the more she's glitching,
the more it's happening.
And so that's a part of how the story unfolds
without giving you guys all of the details,
there's a bad guy in the movie too.
And we learn in the movie that she is that way
because the bad guy took a chip out of her.
He took something from her and it made her glitch.
So my question for you tonight is,
did the enemy take something from you
that has made you glitch?
That's made you in some way show up
what other people would think,
like you're missing something,
maybe you're thinking you're missing something,
maybe something isn't showing up the way you want it to.
You know, and so you're kind of like,
you keep going around the same mountain,
you're like, you wanna go through, you wanna go through,
but you just keep getting stuck in that same area.
That's a glitch you all.
It's an area where we're stuck
and that's a revealing for healing.
But the movie goes on from there
and it's really quite wonderful.
What ends up happening is they get that chip back for her
and then it ends up being revealed
that she was never a glitch,
she was actually a princess.
Yep, she was never a glitch.
She was always a princess,
but until that chip got put back in,
that did not get revealed.
She didn't even remember that she was a princess.
Yes, that's right, hun.
I feel that in the Holy Spirit.
Y'all just receive that.
You're not a glitch, you're not a mess up,
you're not a mistake.
Divorce doesn't define you.
Whatever your mistake is, it doesn't define you.
You are a princess.
Okay?
All right, we're about to go into breakout sessions.
Right before we do,
I want you to think about two other things.
I don't want you to dumb down your shine for other people.
What does that mean?
Well, we talked about it a little bit this afternoon.
and when you're really good at something and you shine bright and you feel like you have to like
cover that up or or pull that back or not not do that thing because it might draw attention
to you in some way and you're not sure if you're comfortable with that attention for some reason
this afternoon it came up that one of our ladies um she got really really great grades the only
one that she got a c in she got all a's and got a c in gym she didn't like gym but her parents
kind of harped on her about that well her brother didn't get super good grades and so even though
her parents harped on her for getting that c they then turned it around and harped on him
and kind of made him feel less than his sister and it became this whole thing
and so there were times where she would get awards for her grades you all and her she would come home
and her mom had put those awards up on the wall and she would take them down and put them in a
box and put them under the bed now again maybe that's not your story but some of you i believe
there's ways that you shine and have shined over the years but things you've gone through or things
that other people said or did have caused you to try to like put it under a bushel you know
what's that song this little light of mine i'm gonna let it shine don't put it under a bushel
no i'm gonna let it shine that just literally came to my mind i did not say that this afternoon but
that that's so like that's such a simple sweet song but if y'all think about it
like how do you need to shine like what is god trying to to say and do through you but you're
just you keep pulling back for some reason
and as you move forward yeah yeah don't let satan blow it out that's right it is i couldn't remember
all the verses of that that's so good and the last thing i'm going to say before you go into
breakout is this as you start to move forward y'all there's going to be potential crabs in the
bucket okay and crabs in the bucket what that means if there was one crab in the bucket it
talks about this in the heartwork book you guys can find it in there if you were just one crab in
the bucket by yourself you could actually crawl out but if you put a bunch of crabs in the bucket
none of them will ever get out because when one tries to get get out the others will pull it down
you might have some people in your life right now that when you try to move forward
they're not going to be comfortable with it and they're going to try to pull you back down
but you need to keep going just keep going you might need to find some other people to spend
some time with in the season doesn't mean you can you stop have to stop loving those people
doesn't mean you have to cut them out of your life unless the lord leads you to to kind of
maybe let that season end there but i want to encourage you to keep going okay sue it's okay
if you have to leave we love you so good to see you tonight all right we're going to do breakout
session this is your question in what ways does the enemy challenge the real you in what ways
does the enemy challenge the real you i'm going to give you three categories that we tend to see
this show up okay if you have others that's fine um comparison competition or imitation
could be all of them could be a couple of them could be one of them in what ways does the enemy
challenge the real you does he often use comparison competition or imitation and then
how does that show up in your life okay that's how this story came out about the other uh the lady on
the afternoon session with the grades have a great night jenny so glad you were here all right i'm
going to get these breakout rooms ready is everyone clear on what the question is and how to
how to talk about it um okay alina imitation would mean like uh i don't even know if this is
a fool the best explanation but i this afternoon i thought of the same thing keeping up with the
joneses so like what that means to me is that you know we're trying to imitate other people instead
of being ourselves like trying to trying to fit in all that kind of stuff like you just have to be
you you don't have to be like anybody else does that make sense everyone
all right we're gonna do seven minutes on this remember short brief and powerful
maybe i'm gonna do eight because some of y'all have i'm gonna do eight because some of you have
four people in a room if you get done talking about this get to know each other a little bit
all right here you go go ahead and click to join those i'm gonna be praying for you click to join
those as quick as you can
Okay.
Sharon, are you able to join the room?
I'm going to find somewhere to put her.
All right.
Father, thank you so much for this night.
God, we thank you for the truth of your word, the power of your presence.
God, we thank you that your spirit is what sets us free.
So, Lord, we just declare freedom over these ladies tonight.
I thank you for revealings, for healing that are happening.
God, I thank you that you're helping us to come out of hiding and come into the light, God,
that you're helping us to step further into the princess, the daughter position in our hearts,
that we have to first receive the revelation of that in our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits,
and our souls so that we can receive that revelation in our mind and fully walk in it.
God, we thank you that you have set us up for success.
God, that you have plans to prosper us, to give us a hope and a future.
We thank you that you have, in Psalm 139, excuse me, it's in verse 13 through 16, it says,
you made all the delicate inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb.
Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex.
Your workmanship is marvelous.
How well I know it.
You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.
You saw me before I was born.
Every day of my life was recorded in your book.
Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed.
God, we thank you.
You have fearfully and wonderfully made us.
God, we thank you that you intricately wove us together.
God, we thank you that you are the master craftsman, that you are the potter and wear the clay.
God, that you're molding us and making us brand new.
We thank you that you're healing us and restoring us, rebuilding us.
God, we thank you that you take all the broken and fallen places and you lift them up and you make them straight again.
I thank you, Lord.
Yeah, in Jeremiah 1.5 in the message version, this is what it says, before I shaped you in the womb.
This is even before he made us.
I knew all about you.
Before you saw the light of day, I had holy plans for you.
Ladies, he has holy plans for us.
We are special vessels that God has created for his glory to be displayed in this earth.
We thank you, Lord, for reminding us of who we are.
God, we thank you that you have made us to be a new creation in Christ Jesus from 2 Corinthians 5.17.
All the old has passed away and behold, everything has become new in you.
God, we thank you that you invite us into the more of God, the more of heaven, the good, good life.
We know that the enemy, Satan, the devourer has come to kill, steal, and destroy.
But we thank you that you sent Jesus and he chose to come to give us life and give it to us more abundantly.
And that he has defeated the devil and he has placed him under our feet.
We thank you that you're giving us the ability tonight to step further into the truth of who you originally created us to be
and who you're calling us into in the days to come.
Romans 8.30-32 in the Passion Translation says this,
Having determined our destiny ahead of time, he called us to himself and transferred his perfect righteousness to everyone he called.
And those who possess his perfect righteousness, he glorified with his Son.
So what does all this mean?
If God has determined to stand with us, tell me, who then could ever stand against us?
For God has proved his love by giving us his greatest treasure, the gift of his Son.
And since God freely offered him up as the sacrifice for us all, he certainly won't withhold from us anything else he has to give.
We thank you, God, for the truth that you don't withhold any good thing from us.
God, there are times where you don't open the door for us on something or someone because it's actually not good for us.
And I thank you for being a good father and protecting us, providing for us,
helping us to step further into the fullness of everything that you have for us.
I thank you that you would heal every wound and remove every lie that we've believed that has led us to think that you would dangle the cross.
like carrot in front of us to tease us, to torment us or anything that is like that,
your word declares that, you know, fear has to do with torment and punishment, but perfect
love casts out fear.
So Lord, I pray that you would help us to step further into the perfection of who you
are, God, as love tonight, that we would have a fresh upgrade in our understanding
of your love, of your truth, of your life, of your hope, that you would help us, Lord,
to hear the whispers, the still small voice.
Yes, Lord, help us to discern between the voice of the enemy and your voice.
Lord, I thank you for your word and your truth, and the more that we read your word and get
to know who you are through your word, the more that we will discern your voice, God.
We thank you that you call us into the secret places with you.
You love to spend time with us, and so Lord, I thank you that you'll help us to receive
that truth and to step further into that tonight.
Yes, yes, yes, Ephesians 3, 17 through 19, and the NLT version says this, then Christ
will make his home in your hearts as you trust in him.
Your roots will grow down into God's love and keep you strong, and may you have the
power to understand as all God's people should, how wide, how long, how high and how deep
his love is.
May you experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to understand fully.
Then you will be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from
God.
Yes, Lord, we thank you for the fullness of life that comes from God.
We thank you for leading us into your destiny and your plan for us, the higher reality than
we currently exist in.
We thank you, God.
Yes, Lord, that you would help us to come to you in every area we felt stuck and surrender
those things and those places and spaces to you and allow you to place the balm of Gilead
upon every single one of them.
God, we can't do this without you.
Apart from you, we can do nothing.
You're the vine where the branches.
Help us to surrender to your will, to your way.
I thank you, God, that you would help us to.
Yeah, remember that I just saw this in the heart workbook, ladies, it says another enemy
of the real you will that will come to challenge your new revelation of self is comparison,
competition and imitation.
That's why we're talking about what we're talking about in the breakout session.
So if you're catching this replay, I hope that you'll come into the group in the last
or single app group on the community tab and write a post about your takeaway regarding
how does the enemy try to challenge the real you?
Is it comparison, competition or imitation?
How does that show up in your life?
Just because you weren't able to be here for the live session doesn't mean we don't want
to hear from you.
We absolutely want to hear what you have to say and what God is showing you about your
situation in your life.
We believe that God has a turnaround story for every single one of you.
And it's so exciting to see it unfolding and the healing process that's playing a role
in all of that.
It's just an honor and a pleasure to see that part of your lives.
Revelation 12, 9 through 11 says this in the Passion Translation.
Then I heard a triumphant voice in heaven proclaiming, now salvation and power are set
in place in the kingdom reign of our God and the ruling authority of his anointed one are
established for the accuser of our brothers and sisters who relentlessly accused them
day and night before our God has now been defeated, cast out once and for all.
John 3, 16 says this, for this is how much God loved the world.
He gave his one and only unique son as a gift.
So now everyone who believes in him will never perish, but experience everlasting life.
Thank you, Father, for enabling us to experience everlasting life in Jesus name.
Welcome back.
So glad y'all are here.
Would love for some of you to share with the whole group what you shared in your private
breakout session.
Who would be willing to share that tonight?
Ruth, go ahead.
Thanks, Bethany.
I like sharing.
Mine, a big one, was comparison.
And Vern shared something powerful in our group and that really resonated with me too.
But yeah, just growing up and which most of my growing up was overseas and being the
oldest and just kind of in my family, like in my immediate family, I'm the oldest of
three.
So I have a younger sister and a younger brother.
Both of whom are married.
My sister, 12 years, three kids.
My brother, six and a half years, three kids.
But that's not even the main issue.
It's just even in my larger extended family.
So my mom is one of eight kids and, well, seven now.
My aunt's gone, but I was one of like 14 grandchildren
from my mom's parents.
And so we would spend like Christmas,
holidays, like so much together.
And even in that group, you know,
so it's like in my nuclear family and then extended family,
I was always kind of like the weird, quirky one.
Like I kind of matched to the beat of my own drum.
Just to give you a very basic example, that seems silly,
but it was always blown out of proportion.
I don't eat meat.
And that's something I haven't as a child,
like from when a child starts teething
or you're trying to feed them food.
And so I was like, what kind of, what weird child is this?
It doesn't eat meat.
And it wasn't said like, what child is this like that?
And what child is this?
Like, it wasn't like that.
It was like, this child is weird, you know?
And it was just like growing up with just different things.
And so I kind of just always, I think internalized that.
And it wasn't what was said in a very,
the times when it was said in non-malicious ways,
but just in different ways.
So comparison was a very big one for me.
And feeling like I had to dump down,
like what you said really struck me.
The two things you said, divorce doesn't define you
and don't dump down your shine for other people.
That really, because I always thought I was too much,
too exuberant, too extroverted, too,
I needed to like tone it down.
I was too much, you know,
children should be seen and not heard.
And I was just, I wasn't not just heard, I was seen.
I was like on fireworks, you know,
like girls should see at home.
And then I'm the girl outside climbing a tree
with the boys.
And it was just kind of like, yeah,
that was a big one for me.
Wow.
And I feel like this connects to,
was it last week that you shared something about
feeling something with your friends?
I feel like, right?
Wasn't that last week we were working on that a little bit
with heart work, maybe two weeks ago?
I think it might've been two weeks ago.
Yeah, I feel like there's a similar thread there, Ruth,
to what we were kind of working on
when we were talking about that,
because I feel like there was something
like you felt weird about that too, or something,
maybe that wasn't the word you used.
I wish I had my notes from that session in front of me.
But again, I feel like God wants me
to make that connection for you.
So if you took notes from that night when I,
and I'll see if I can find it
and maybe put something in the group for you.
But look for that,
because I think there's a connection here as well
with what you just shared.
So what would it look like for you
to just let yourself go and do and be
and come out of all of the,
whatever the weird, because you didn't want to eat meat
or you go to the beat of your own drum,
you wanted to go climb trees
and you didn't want to maybe do some of the other stuff.
What would it look like?
And not that you have to answer now,
but this is what I want you to work on.
What would it look like for you, Ruth,
to let yourself be fully free?
Just to be you, just to whatever that looks like,
sounds like, feels like, to live fully free.
And ladies, sometimes we might not know
how to put that into words.
And so I want to encourage you all,
even if you did just like an eight and a half
by 11 sheet of paper,
and you got a magazine and just started
picking out pictures that, man, when I see this,
this is how I feel free.
This is how I feel like myself.
Pictures that represent that on a paper.
Like giving yourself a visual
and then every time you look at that,
you're gonna be like, yeah, okay, that's what I love.
That's who I am.
This is who I want to live into.
Does everyone understand?
It gives you that kind of thing to grab onto.
And yeah, it's kind of like,
it is like a little vision board, yeah.
Like a, I call them vision boards,
but I had a coach years ago that asked me to do that
regarding the relationship that I officially wanted
and ministry in my career.
Well, like, where did I really want to see myself?
But like even doing it for something like this,
that's like regarding your identity,
man, I feel like that can be so powerful.
So powerful.
So I want to encourage you to do that.
Spend some time with the Lord
and just see what comes out onto that paper,
or you can write it, you can draw it, you can,
it doesn't have to be pictures.
I'm just trying to give you ideas as you're doing,
because sometimes people hear something
and automatically the blocks come up.
The enemy tries to tell you, you can't do this
because you're not an artist.
You can't do, and you might be an artist, Ruth,
I can't remember, but do y'all understand?
So find another way to be able to accomplish that
versus just giving in to that, I can't do it.
Does that make sense?
It does.
I do have a quick question though.
Right here, when you said about praying
as if you're a beggar,
I think you mentioned that at the beginning
and I kind of struggle with that,
where giving myself permission
even when it comes to doing things,
but I feel like, okay, even if I said it,
that God maybe won't answer or won't.
And once, you know, so like, that's kind of one of the ways to give yourself a visual.
I feel like sometimes the fear of the visual is that, well, why would I want to just set
myself up for failure or set myself up for disappointment?
Well, this is actually what's on the inside of you already.
So really, part of this process is, are you going to answer yourself?
Because God already put it in you, Ruth.
God's going to be a part of that process with you.
But this is more about letting the Ruth on the inside, the little girl Ruth that got
pushed down and pressed down, letting her out.
Does that make sense, everyone?
Is that helpful?
Now, you are going to pray and talk to God through that process.
But I want you to understand this is really about you partnering with yourself.
And owning who you are without hiding it.
Yeah.
I think it's going to be really good.
And to answer your actual question, though, about hearing from God, I was saying this
on the prayer call this morning.
You know, I think a lot of us, even myself years ago, I didn't know I was hearing from
God fully until people taught me.
Some of you are hearing from God right now, but you just think you're not because you're
looking for God to talk to you in the same way that is talking to someone else.
So I want you to just start encouraging yourself like, okay, Lord, I, if you have
that so small voice moment, like that you acknowledge that in yourself, like, okay,
Lord, I, if you have that so small voice moment, like that you acknowledge that in
yourself and not just think it's not, it's the pizza you ate or whatever, you know?
The other thing is this, y'all, I genuinely 100% believe that knowing God's character
and knowing the word helps, you know, who he is.
So it will help, you know, your voice, but I say this a lot too.
And this, I can't take credit for this.
This one impacted me deeply.
She said, put your hands on your ears.
So everyone do this with us.
We're going to all do this together.
Put your hands on your ears.
And you say, I am his sheep and I hear his voice.
And then you add your name into it.
I, Bethany Cooper, am God's sheep.
Yes.
And I hear his voice.
And you all I can remember doing that over and over and over again.
And there were times that I felt like I still didn't hear him, but you know, what
over time that started changing.
And I'm not saying I get it right all the time, but you all, I've, I feel like I'm
blessed.
Like I know that I hear him and it's not like an audible voice all the, you know,
like I've literally, I've heard God speak to me audibly like two times in my life.
And it like kind of freaked me out.
Cause I was dreaming and it like woke me up.
That's how I, that's how I recognize.
Like, I thought I, someone was in the room talking to me.
But for the most part, it is a still small voice.
And even when I, you know, at work in the bathroom and there's paper towels on the
floor that I didn't put on the floor and the Holy spirit saying to me, pick those
up and he's, it's, it's a thing to grow.
Am I going to listen to that?
Well, people could be like, well, what, what if that was just your own voice?
Don't you think that you're, you would tell yourself to do that?
Nope.
I sure wouldn't tell myself to pick up someone else's dirty paper towel.
I sure wouldn't.
Yo, I'm a nice person, but I don't want to touch someone else's dirty paper towel.
I don't know what's on that, but you know what, in that moment, because the Holy
spirit asked me, I didn't even think about that.
So I think the Holy spirit asks us to do good things all the time, but it's
acknowledging it and walking it.
So hopefully Ruth, I believe that's going to go really well, but you all
seriously, every day, do that.
If you're, I believe it will make a difference and out of the overflow of
our prayers, you know, God tips that out on us.
He does.
Leanne, go ahead.
Oh, you're muted.
Yes.
I'm still alive.
Can everybody hear me?
Cause I have a soft voice.
Sometimes it doesn't come across.
Um, one of the things we talked about in our group was, um, comparison for me and,
um, an incident popped in my head from when I was in high school, I was asked
by somebody, um, how I did on a test and I told them, and then they went around
and told people that I was.
bragging about it. And I remember from that point forward,
like,
I quieted myself down, like, I wouldn't let that shine, or let
people know I was excited about different things, because I was
afraid that that was going to happen again.
Yeah. Have you ever forgiven that person? Leanne?
I have.
Okay, that's really awesome. Yeah, that can be really tough.
And so one of the things this afternoon, and I will challenge
you all, maybe you didn't have the awards or things like that.
But if there are things that you hid, which is what that, that
lady was doing, God led me to say to her, like, first of all,
I asked her, does she have any of those awards still? And she
didn't. So I asked her, I said, I think you need to make one. I
think you need to make one and hang it up. So if you have kind
of dumbed down your smarts or anything, I want you to consider
kind of putting something back up to come back in convergence,
if you will converge back with that part of yourself, and
celebrate yourself. It's not being prideful. It's not
bragging. I think it's good for you to embrace who you are and
your abilities. And I believe that when you do that, there's
going to be some freedom and lightness that will come from
that. Liam, thank you for sharing that with us. Megan, go
ahead.
Hey. Okay, so I was thinking on this this morning on comparison
and competition, because I did read a little bit about that in
the heart work this morning. But what came up to me in my heart
was just bitter envy, like James how it talks about that. And it
made me want to just like, meditate on heavenly wisdom, you
know, what James talks about in that passage, but I was
surrendering that and like asking God to just help me to
like rest in his grace and shine in his light without comparing.
And like this verse I had read this morning song of songs to
the passion, the passion translation, part of it this
morning, but what stood out to me was like sitting under his
gray shadow, I blossom in his shade. And so that was kind of
standing out to me this morning, and I read the whole thing. And
then I was thinking on different stuff from forgiveness about I
mentioned some of that in the post today about like, forgiving
ex boyfriends for like not continuing to pursue me and I
felt like he was telling like just speaking to me about taking
me to a higher place. And like, his ways and thoughts are higher
than mine. He's taking me on a path where like they couldn't
keep up and be in step. And so it's basically like, oh, and
that song from Creed. Can you take me higher? That was like,
really like resonating in my heart. And I was that was kind
of make me laugh. So I was thinking on that. And then I
went back to song of songs too, because that was being
highlighted. And so this, I feel like it's really connected
with this being like shining and awakening, like you were saying.
So the one I love calls to me arise, my dearest hurry, my
darling, come away with me. I've come as come as you have asked
to draw you to my heart and lead you out for now is the time my
beautiful and the season season has changed. But it like goes on
and on. I don't know if I have time to read all of it. So
there's change in the air. Come away with me. And it's the
where was the part? Run with me to the higher place arise my
love, my beautiful companion and run with me to the higher place.
And and it's like, it ends with you must catch the troubling
foxes. And like, we will do this together. So the part that was
standing out to me was run with me to the higher place. And then
we will do this together. And I was like, it was just was
really resonating with me. And I went on this walk, because I've
been trying to increase my steps. And I feel keeps on
speaking to me on my logs. And I only had like a little bit of
time before this call. So I went to this one spot in that one
spot. It had this sign that said move to higher ground. And like
I took a picture of it because I was like, Oh my gosh, I feel
like the Lord was just confirming that and then all of
what you're sharing about just shining and like, not letting
your light dim, like it's just kind of hitting home for me. So
I appreciate all what you shared.
I love this. Yeah, it is how God can start connecting the dots. Do
you see how this is happening? But she's also she's also
trusting what he's showing her. Like some people would hear that
song bubble up in their spirit. And even though they're already
hearing that from the Lord in other places, they would
dismiss that. But that was a
part of what God was saying to her. He's connecting all these dots to encourage her
and speak to her about, come a little higher. Like it's an invitation. It's this fun,
it's playful. And God will show up in these fun ways, the more that we expect him to.
And we open the door to that. I'm telling you all, I literally, I would start seeing like
numbers on houses and God would start talking to me, like just things like license plates. And
he wants to be creative and speak to us in all different kinds of ways. He really, really does.
Megan, I love this. I love what God's doing. And I'm so glad that you also were willing to
surrender regarding bitter envy. And, you know, just make sure if that is still feeling like
there's any of that in there, just ask the Lord where that started. Remember to always ask him
where it started and process that out. But it sounds like you're doing a really great job.
Way to go. You're welcome. You're welcome. Amy, go ahead. I'm sorry. My lighting is terrible in
here right now, but so for me, I, every time I hear others talk about their stories, it just,
the Lord also validates like what I was planning on sharing too, but I come from a large family
and it was very competitive growing up and we would consistently compare ourselves to one another.
And I am a woman of many talents. I am very, very creative. And so I I've run multiple businesses
and done all that. And so I noticed it come out in like the corporate world where I'm extremely
competitive and then also compare myself with others. But the Lord today revealed to me,
and I'm also in week four, which is, it's just so beautiful how the Lord connects it because
I just did the forgiveness prayer for my mom, because I felt like I needed to,
even though she's still alive and I've, I've told her this in person, but it's like layers I felt.
So I felt like the Lord wanted me to forgive my mom because the way that our family dynamic worked,
it was very, very competitive for us children to seek the validation and love from our mother.
And so I, it's just very heartwarming the way that God connects the dots because I'm, I am in
week four and we just did the forgiveness prayer for that. And so that was one thing that I,
I noticed today. And I didn't even tell in my group that because it was just about business.
And then the Lord revealed to me, it's actually deeper than that. So good. And I want you you're
on you're you're, I think you're a hundred percent, right? I think there are additional
layers here that the Lord's healing. And remember to like, sometimes we will pray and say, Lord,
you know, I forgive my mom for hurting me. And I'm not saying that's bad, but we need to be
specific. Okay. So sometimes that additional layers, when we get more specific, like Lord,
you know, help, like, I forgive my mom for, you know, I'm just making this up as I'm going
create, creating and allowing an atmosphere where we as siblings competed with each other or
whatever the dynamic is. If moms or dads said something to you all that you would specifically
forgive them. If a teacher, anyone, you know, whatever was done that we would get very kind of
detailed about what we're forgiving them for. And then even when we do that, sometimes there's just
additional layers, you're in a new season, you're able to see something a little bit more.
And step into more healing and grace towards those that have hurt us and all of that. Amy,
thank you so much for sharing. That was so good. And Hey, this is why I love when y'all share in
breakouts and in this group coaching is because other people are getting free as you all are
sharing. Do you hear, do you hear that's basically Amy's like, Oh, I got revelation more because of
what other people were saying. This is why it's important. So y'all are doing a great job way to
go. Awesome. Karen, go ahead. Hey, so the comparison came to mind right away with my
sister growing up, but in a new light, Bethany, when you said about not hiding because of feeling
bad about somebody else, I never saw it that way until you said that, that I held back a lot because
of my not wanting to make my sister feel bad. Um, I tended to get she's older than I am.
Uh, I got straight A's. I tended to get attention from boys. Um, and she didn't as much. And her
dream was to be married with kids. And so even a guy that she really liked gave me a dozen roses
in college and never told her that. And I never reciprocated that interest because I know
she liked him.
And so I've kind of,
I didn't realize how much I've held back in my life
because I don't want her to feel bad.
Like she needs to get married first.
She needs to have kids first.
So that like I took on parenting her, I think.
Yeah, it sounds like you were more concerned
with her feelings versus your own for some reason.
Like I would go get a friend group when we moved a lot.
And I was fine going and trying things by myself
and getting a friend group and she wasn't.
So I'd go get a friend group.
She would start asking to join.
I'd feel claustrophobic.
So I would go get a new friend group
and let her have the first one.
And that was a pattern in our lives.
And somehow I've gone through a lot of counseling
through to see some of that,
but like I've never thought about it as a not shining light.
Like I feel badly when I, even now at work,
I'm succeeding and I feel bad about it.
You know, was it last week?
Y'all, I can't remember when I share stuff.
When I read that quote about our greatest fear
isn't that we're inadequate,
but it's actually that we are capable of greatness.
Yeah, I wanted to know where you,
I want to put that up in my house somewhere,
but I didn't know where.
Sarah Shell put it up in the group.
You might have to search,
but Sarah Shell put it up last week
after our afternoon live session.
But what comes to mind as well, Karen,
is like at some point you believed
that it would be a curse if you lived,
like not lived as in alive,
but just like that you fully let yourself.
And so definitely want to encourage you.
Like now this is it.
Now is the time for you.
So if you haven't heard Supernatural Saturday yet,
definitely, okay, this is it.
This is your time to like actually step
into being who you are and not feeling guilty
for being successful or having success
or experiencing blessings.
And you not having to leave, you know,
people and things behind
because you need to make sure someone else has it.
Like it's your time to like focus on you.
And the other thing that I heard the Lord say was just,
I mean, have you ever forgiven yourself
for, you know, laying all those people and things down
just so that you could like take care of her feelings
or her, you know, taking that responsibility on yourself?
No, I feel like I've wasted a lot of time.
Yeah, I think forgiving yourself
for doing those things is gonna be a game changer for you.
Because even though like genuinely,
I think you were trying to like, you know,
just be very caring and love and all of that,
but there's like self-deprecation in there,
you know, self-deprecating thoughts,
like that whole feeling guilty because of being successful.
And I'm just wondering like were either one
of your parents also like that?
I don't know for sure motivationally,
but maybe my dad a bit, I don't know.
Or they felt guilty if something good happened to them.
Not that I'm aware of.
Okay, that's okay.
You may wanna pray into that a little bit
and it could have just started with you,
but it's interesting to me that that seemed
to start pretty young in you.
And so-
It's like always been in me.
So yeah, I do wonder maybe.
So it makes me kind of think
that maybe it's a generational thing
and it could have been grandparents.
It doesn't have to be your biological parents.
And you can pray and ask the Lord to show you that.
And in time, you know, if that is something,
if there's something to that, he'll reveal that to you.
Yeah, my mom has said a lot like,
well, what's wrong with me?
You know, I know that was something that I think was said
this last Supernatural Saturday.
Your mom said that about herself or to you?
About herself all the time.
What's wrong with me?
Okay.
And it would always bother me.
Be like, nothing's inherently wrong with you, mom.
So was your mom really insecure?
Very.
Okay, so if you picked up on that, even as a kid,
you could have also been doing that with your mom
as well as your sister.
So just keep praying into that a little bit more.
I don't know about you all,
but when I'm around people that are really insecure,
it's really tough sometimes to actually just be yourself
because you're like, I think on,
especially like I'm a feeler.
So I feel things deep that other people are feeling.
And if my presence, just being myself,
if I start to feel someone else vibing.
I'm going to say vibing, like, but I'm just trying to give you an example.
Like if I feel that vibe coming weird from them or their insecurity starts
flaring up, I automatically am like, Oh, like on the inside.
And I try to just like care for them versus even myself.
I have to really watch that.
I don't, I don't pull back from who I am.
And that's something God's really, really been working with me on because I can go
into different denominations and feel like I need to shut off who I am
in different aspects and ways of myself.
And I don't need to do that.
I can learn how to respect that denomination and operate in my giftings
and respect and honor of the body and the people that I'm with at that time.
Does that make sense?
But that doesn't mean I have to turn off who I am.
It's a really fine line.
That's such a great explanation.
Yeah.
And I just heard the Lord say, as I said that, like for some of you, you need to
turn the switch back on, like instead of turning the switch off when you're around
people, you need to turn the switch on and be yourself to really be yourself.
Yeah.
So this is really good.
It's nine 36.
I want to make sure if people need to jump off so that you know what the
activation is for this week, but I am going to come to Yovana next.
Um, and we will try to finish out.
I have three people left.
Okay.
I'm going to let them share, please.
No one else put your hands up.
But I do want to give them the space to share.
Um, and if you do need to hop off, we totally understand everything that
everyone's sharing is really powerful.
Um, the activation for this week is the silhouette challenge.
You all.
Okay.
I want you to draw.
Okay.
You don't have to be a super fancy artist.
I'm going to put an example up in the group.
I'll put a couple examples so y'all can see them of different silhouettes that
people, you literally can like, I'm going to just do this real quick.
You can literally do, Oh, you guys can't see it.
Y'all see this.
All this is, is a little line that looks kind of like a head.
Okay.
You can do it like this, but if you're an artist and you want to draw
something really amazing, cool.
Okay.
Just no comparing each other.
Okay.
Everybody just be who you are.
If you want to draw something just like this, and I maybe like, maybe today I
want curly hair, you all, I might do this a little better than I am right now, but
I'm doing this because I want you to not be afraid.
Like, okay, there's my hair.
Great.
Put some eyes on.
Maybe, maybe not even put eyes on, but the point is this, this is the point.
I want you to pray and ask the Lord.
What does he say about you?
Who are you?
Who is the real you?
Not the counterfeit versions of you.
Who are you?
What is God saying about you?
Write down any phrases, any images, any words that you hear.
Okay.
If they are positive, they're all going to go on this.
And I want you to pray about where you need to put them on here too.
Okay.
God will start to show you, there's going to be different things that
he's going to put on there.
Have you put them in different places for a reason.
If you hear something negative, it does not go on here.
It goes on another piece of paper.
And then I want you to write it down and then cross it out.
And I want you to ask the Lord for the truth to replace the lie.
Nothing negative goes on this silhouette.
Okay.
You are a super Nova, a positive influence in the world.
Yes.
We all make mistakes and have shortcomings at times, but that
is not a part of your identity.
Do you understand?
All right.
And then I want to put them, I want y'all to put them up in the
group because we want to see them.
Okay.
And again, you can, you can make them fancy and artistic
or make them very simple.
I had someone the last time around that we did this.
Um, they, they actually literally put a picture of themselves on the
paper and then they put the words.
You can do that too.
The point is knowing who God says you are and walking in that and putting
it on that paper and then sharing it with these amazing sisters in our
community so that we can say, yeah, yes, I see that in you and we can
come alongside of you in that.
Does that make sense?
All right.
Awesome.
Yolanda, go ahead and share.
I would love to hear from you.
Okay.
Oh, learning how to raise my hand and lower it.
You're doing great.
I saw you.
That's awesome.
Ruth.
Thank you for helping her in the chat.
Yes.
Um, so what we talked about in our group, um, I was saying, um, usually
it shows up in imitation, but we were talking about how they kind of go together.
And so the other day, um, I was looking on Instagram around Mother's Day and I
saw this girl that I follow and she was posting all these pictures of her kids.
And I just got so upset and I was like, I thought I was fine.
But, you know, seeing that just really triggered.
like, I want that in my life. Am I ever going to get that? And I got angry. And I just shut off
social media. And I went immediately to talk to God. And I was like, Why am I feeling this way?
And he's like, because you've believed that lie that this can't happen for you. And so a day later,
I got back on social media, I felt like I needed to go on there for like a minute. And I saw that
same woman post something and she said, I've been where you've been. And I'm sure you've
saw those posts, you saw my post. And you want to be happy for people, you're like,
I'm trying to be joyful with you. But it just hurts. And she said, but God changed my perspective
when he showed me what you do for others, you can do for myself, for me. And that just
totally shifted something for me. And I was like, that's so simple. Yes, God can do it for me.
And then I saw Supernatural Saturday. And it's saying this is this is it or this is my time.
And God reminded me today of this movie. And in this movie, they're in Austria, I don't remember
the name. But it was during World War Two, and it was a very wealthy family. And these soldiers
were coming to take them away. But the parents stayed as a distraction and let the daughters
get away, or a daughter and son. And the whole time they're speaking in their language. And then
the father came to the daughter and said, he started speaking in English and said, from now on,
we speak the language of your future. And God reminded me today, he said, you've been declaring
stuff over yourself from now on, we start speaking in the kingdom language of your future.
And so hearing actually heard Supernatural Saturday replay today at work, and I was like,
but he was reminding me, I need to start declaring the truth over myself of who God says I am,
which goes along with what our activation is. But that is just replaying what God can do for
others he can do for me. And that I'm going to speak the language of the kingdom from now on.
That's my future language. That's so powerful, y'all. I don't know. Man, that was like,
we're staying for you all that was that was like, she's preaching. That was so powerful. I felt it
as you said it. From now on. I want this to be kind of like a banner for this group. This is where
you all every time I say this all the time, not like there will never be another night,
just like this night with all these people that are here right now in this moment.
Like you're all here hearing this statement. And if you grab on to that, I mean, there's a lot in
there tonight, but man, that revelation that she got from the Father from now on, we start speaking
the kingdom language of your future. What does that sound like? What does heaven have to say
about your future? And partnering with that instead of believing the lie that when we
see someone else happy that God doesn't have beautiful, amazing things for us to
again, that I will tell you, Yovana, that is a switch from orphan
to princess. It is a shift right there. Here I have my crown. Oh, there you go. I love it. I love
it. Girl, wear that crown and wear it often because you are a bride. You are a bride. You are
chosen. You are destined. God has amazing things in store for you. And don't you ever settle for
less than that? Yeah. I'm so excited for you. This is going to be, it's going to be literally
life-changing for you if you continue to partner with that. And everybody else here is now invited
into that party and that partnership. So it's up to you to choose to step into it. So powerful. I
love this. Joy, go ahead. Praise the Lord.
I was sharing in the group chat. So, okay. I mentioned about when you asked this question,
I thought about, wow, my sister in Christ. So she told another sister in Christ say that
I copied her something. I kind of, I don't know what, what did she actually copy her? I forgot
it's copy her to blow shofar or wear something nice clothing. I could not remember. All right.
God is still healing my brain, the blood circulation memory. So anyway, I, I was,
so I need to check it myself. Do I really copy her? I know myself, I'm still.
Try to discern where I'm what's going on with me
Actually, I I said to myself I check myself. I somehow yeah
I do like to see other people if it may be good to have a strength or anybody have a good strength
I like it. Yes. I want it. I want it. So I want to be like that, too
So is that a consider comparison or just or imitation whatever
and I I
Because I love to
Before and owe me I was not, you know, I did not spend the time to shopping
By good clothes put on that because I can see these luxury because I can see time is so invaluable
I don't want to spend time to shop
But then God changed my mindset when I see how people dress beautiful. I think I now I dress like scriptures
I want to always look for
Scripture dress put on myself. I just so beautiful people just unmind me and then also ask me where get a clothes. So
so
I just try to
Get a no more deeper by myself
Another day the one preacher was preaching. She was
So
Are you saying that I just want to get some clarity?
Are you saying that you struggle with comparing yourself to someone that you go to church with?
I
actually, I got a word from
The three sister. I wanted to say that another sister say I copy her
Okay, so one of your sisters like biological sisters or in Christ in Christ in Christ
Okay, so a woman that you go to church with said to you that you copy her
Yeah, I just she said it to another sister another sister is okay, okay
so now I found out I don't have to find out whether I really I compare myself with her or
What's going on with me? I want to know myself
Yeah
So because you asked that you said that you were asking God do you do I really copy her and so I was just
trying to follow kind of the story and
How it's impacting you today. So is this someone that you still spend time with?
This is this someone that's this is a current thing happening. Or is this something that happened before?
this is a happen before and
and
Sometimes when we blow chauffeur together in the church she blow first
Sometimes I blows first then if I she blow first if I blow second she may consider I copy her
I kind you know
So some something going on between me and her
So and she kind of put a wall between me and her
But I know myself I know that I want to dress for Jesus and
Also, I want to shine for Jesus. Also, I love to celebrate
Anybody's wing because I consider we're one if you better than me, I celebrate you
I'm really happy for you. But somehow if I heard this word from another sister somebody say I copy
None, I'll have to find out what's going on with me
Let me just say this though, okay, I think it's good that you're asking the Lord do I really do this and
And what is God saying to you when you ask him that?
Is he saying that you do
Mmm, I
Don't feel like she
God say to me but I like my personality is like the good thing or maybe I
Like good. I want to copy sometimes I do
If somebody really do very well, I said, oh, this is good. I like it. So I want to copy
Something
different about admiring things in people and wanting to walk in something that they that they do or have
I think the thing that's important here is for you to really start discerning
Who is joy?
Mm-hmm, and who does joy want to become as far as like like I
Can remember watching Joyce Meyer years ago like literally I'd be like man. I want to be like her someday
Yeah
Okay, but when I would say that I can remember not long after that Joyce would preach and she would say, you know
People people think they want to be like me
But do they want to go through what I have to go through to get here, you know?
And I remember like being convicted like it wasn't wrong for me
To want that because she had such an amazing impact on so many people for that
But I also wasn't going behind her and always doing everything she was doing.
Now, I never met Joyce Meyer either, I didn't go to church with her.
So if we're in close proximity to somebody, if they're feeling like that, I mean, did
you ever ask her, you know, like, Hey, I heard that you said this in, you know, I just want
to learn more.
Like, what am I doing that's causing you to feel this way?
Have you ever talked to her about it?
Seriously, I wanted to talk to her, but she kind of, kind of sometimes, we had one conversation
before.
If I said something, you know, frankly, I then she, she kind of avoid to admit that.
Because I said something, I said that I feel that way.
Okay.
So that's why I do not have very good communication.
Yeah, go ahead.
It's okay.
Yeah.
So I think the best thing that you can do is just you move forward and maybe create
some distance between you and this person for now.
And you really just ask the Lord who is joy, who God do, like, who do you want me to be?
Who am I?
And just keep living into that.
And people are going to say stuff about us at times you all and there's not a lot we
can do about that.
If you try to talk to her, and it didn't seem like that conversation was going anywhere
healthy.
The only thing you can do at that point is move forward, you can on, you know, just continue
to to shine in who you are, and be yourself.
And definitely just keep asking the Lord as you go, how you can keep living as joy and
not living as another person.
You know?
Yeah.
Thank you for your word.
If you don't want to quickly just want to share.
I need to have Sherita share just because we're already at 951.
Okay.
Yeah, just real quick.
Just as a word of God, before you give the just worship or donation, if anybody you see
are not reconciled, you need to go to a person, if I went to one, one time, maybe I should
go second time, third time to try to get
Hey, joy, I don't know what you're referring to right now.
Okay.
I'm going to have you hold that.
Can you put it in the group for me and the last single app and then I can respond to
you there.
Okay, thank you.
All right.
Thank you.
Sherita.
Go ahead.
Hi.
Can you hear me?
Okay, great.
Um, so this is kind of like a two parter.
I'm not going to try to take up much time, but, um, I was on the, um, her call with you
this morning.
Okay.
And I just want to kind of like, talk about a little bit of my emotions that I've that
I had when we were talking about the man and then I'll get to what we were supposed to
do for today.
But, um, I've never felt this before.
But when we were praying for the man, like, I immediately started to feel angry.
And that was that was new for me.
I've never felt that.
And I was kind of asking myself, I was like, Oh my gosh, what is this feeling?
And it Oh my gosh.
I didn't know that I had some bitterness.
Right.
And I know y'all said things are going to come up as we go, right?
And so I'm like, Oh, I don't know.
But yeah, it's coming up.
I was like, the bitterness is, it's like, okay.
I know that we're all like amazing ladies, right?
A lot of us are getting up in age, we want to have children, all these things, right?
And I think the bitterness was, and I'll say how it turned around, but it was like, wow,
you know, we were so committed to like our self development.
And you know, most, most of us women are like, we want to, you know, get better and all these
things.
And it's a fact that, you know, there's, there's not so much of a push for that with the man,
like most of the books are for women, it's women, what we can do better.
And it was just, I just felt that for a moment, I was, I was angry, because I was like, man,
if it was such a push on the other side, maybe I wouldn't still be single right now, right?
Like, we'd all have great, amazing guys.
And I remember, but you always say, I've heard you say this several times, what you look
for, you will find.
So I try to always turn it around positive, say, No, I'm not going to focus on that.
We're going to look for the positives, because I do see positive examples, because I was
looking for them.
Right.
And so I'm doing that little shift, I just wanted to share that quickly before I get
to what we were doing today, that I am just going through that shift of resetting my
mind, right on what to focus on.
And although we can find many examples of that, I feel like we can also find examples
on the other side.
And that's what I'm choosing to focus on.
So that's just a little break.
And it's first of all, my assignment.
for this evening, my words that I had come up
were the comparison and delay.
First, the comparison of just, you know,
getting older and wanting to be in a certain spot
at this point in my life.
And I'm sure we all feel that way.
You know, you wanna be married, you wanna have the house,
you wanna have the kids, you know, blah, blah.
And just going on my own timeline,
but that also plays into delay because,
and I'm so glad I get to finally share this
because I was, I tried to share this.
This is my second time talking
because I don't really, you know,
do the whole live talking thing.
And I didn't get a chance to share it, but I was,
basically I had this spiritual dream.
It was very, it's very spiritual.
And I know God was speaking to me through this dream.
I'll keep it short, but I was basically in a school,
like I was in like high school.
And I think one time I was like in college,
but anyway, I could never get to where I was going.
It was like, I was going around in circles.
I was going from one hall to the next
and I could never get there.
And a couple of weeks ago before I joined this program,
I had another dream where I finally got out.
I was conscious that I was in a dream.
I said, this is a dream.
And I finally got out.
And when I did try to share this on a Tuesday,
I forget the lady's name, I couldn't get it out.
I was just like, oh yeah, I finally got out,
but that wasn't it.
And I, and this is such a good message
because I want, you know,
everybody to be able to like take something from this.
The delay, God is,
sometime God is covering you in the delay
because when I finally got out of that school
and I was like, oh yeah, I'm out of here.
Guess what?
I felt, even though I was wearing clothes,
I felt naked.
And that's the spiritual part of the dream
that I didn't get a chance to share.
I felt naked.
There was some guy coming towards me.
I didn't know if he was going to hurt me.
He didn't, he was passing through.
I was looking at these other buildings,
but basically what I'm trying to say is that
I feel like that was part of a breakthrough in itself
and saying, hey, it's okay to get out of this cycle.
But once you're out of this,
you still have to be covered by Jesus.
You still have to be covered
because that's where the enemy can attack you
when you're uncovered.
So yeah, I just wanted to share that.
That's so good.
You know, ladies, a lot of times when,
especially if you're having these dreams
while you're in heartwork too,
or even if they were before
and then you started having dreams,
when there's any kind of dream that you have
when you're naked,
a lot of times it can represent that vulnerability,
a fear of like being fully seen and known and loved,
like what we talk about,
like being exposed,
people have fear of being exposed by people.
So maybe you have something that's like maybe a secret
that you haven't confessed.
Sometimes, and not that I'm saying that's for you, Sharita,
but I'm just saying,
giving you all different examples of
if you're naked in a dream,
those are some different things
that it can represent and mean.
But yeah, God is always our covering
and he's there for us in every moment, ladies.
He really, really is.
I am gonna pray for Ruth's dad really quick.
I just saw that in the chat.
And so we're gonna pray for her dad before we close,
but I'm also gonna read something over you all
from the heartwork book.
And this is the declaration about the real you, okay?
This is what it says.
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter,
a light bearer, a truth teller, and a hope dealer.
My heart is awakening.
It's my time to be made whole.
I contain the beauty of all creation,
the mysteries of the entire universe reside in me.
I am the image of the almighty God,
the offspring of the great I am.
I am a beloved daughter of God.
My original heart is one of love, joy, peace,
hope, and innocence.
I was created for community.
I am accepted in the family of God.
I have been created to prosper.
I will not be anyone besides who love,
which is God the Father has made me to be.
From this moment forward, every day,
when I look in the mirror,
I'm going to see more and more of what God sees,
more and more of what God sees.
Glenna, it's towards the end of the book.
My pages are gonna be different than your all's
because you guys have the ebook
and I have a physical copy,
but it's towards the end of the book in the chapter.
Let me see what chapter.
I think it literally is the last chapter,
but I'm just gonna tell you it.
In chapter 14, towards the end.
Thank you, Amanda.
It's powerful.
You all, I put that declaration up when I was in your,
like what we used to call bootcamp,
is now called heartwork, which is what you're in.
I put that declaration up.
I typed it out, put it up, and I read that.
the time and I spoke it out over myself. I want to encourage you to do that as well.
All right. I'm going to pray for us and I'm going to pray for Ruth's dad. We're going
to believe for healing and a supernatural miracle. God, if you, ladies, if you didn't
see it in there, that's, there's something happening here. Dad's in the ER. So it's kind
of an emergency. So just pray with us. Father, thank you so much for who you are. God, we
thank you that you are the great physician. We know that you can use doctors as well.
God, we just ask you to send your ministering healing angels to Ruth's dad. God, that you
would supernaturally work in this situation, God, that where the blood and all of the things
are happening, that pool of blood between his brain and the dura mater, God, that you
would just supernaturally begin to cause that to dissipate. God, whatever caused this, God,
that you would get to the root of the matter, that the doctors would be able to resolve
it quickly. God, we speak life. We speak healing. We speak hope over her dad. We thank
you that you're not finished with him yet. We thank you, God, that you would bring resurrection
power and healing power and virtue in this moment. God, we thank you for turnaround stories
and situations that are going to be manifested through this. God, we thank you for just comforting
her mom right now and Ruth and her family. God, we speak the God of peace being present
with them, that you would wash over them and just bring calm and knowing, God, that
you're with them in a tangible way. We just thank you in advance for it. God, I thank
you for everything that you've accomplished tonight on this call, on this live session,
Lord. We thank you for revealings for healing that have happened that are going to happen.
We thank you for dots being connected. God, we thank you that you're going to help every
one of these ladies, whether they're here live or hear the replay, to step further into
the version of who you originally created them to be. God, that they would not fear,
but they would live fully and free and vibrantly. God, that they would shine and shine bright
and not ever put it under a cover or a bushel, that they would literally allow the light
of Jesus Christ to shine through them. God, that they would, yes, Lord, that they would
laugh and enjoy the presence of your spirit in a supernatural, fun and fresh way, that
they are your sheep, God, and they hear your voice and Jesus name. Amen. God bless you
all. I'm so sorry we went so late, but there it is. Love you all. Have a great night.