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Hello, welcome, welcome, welcome. We're going to wait for a minute or two, probably one,

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not two, for more of you to join. We're doing a one o'clock only today because of Memorial

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Day. I hope that you all will take some time to thank someone who has served in our armed

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forces and just remember that you're going to say something like thank you for your service.

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Do we have anyone here today that has served in our armed forces on any level? Would love

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for you to put that in the chat so we can just honor you for a minute if that is you.

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We may or may not have anyone right now that has or is serving in the armed forces. Okay,

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Alicia, thank you so much for your service. Super grateful for you. Felicia was in the

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army. Awesome. Felicia, so glad and thankful for your service. Y'all, it's really important

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to thank those. I was talking with my husband this morning just about my best friend's

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brother and just really having watched him walk through his service and after service

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and the things that they walk through and how different a day like Memorial Day is for

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them. And so just, yeah, it's just super important. Just like we want to be seen, known, and loved,

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I think this is one of the ways we can honor those who have served in our armed forces

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and just make sure they are seen, known, and loved, and appreciated. And not only that,

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but their families. I have another friend that her husband served in the Air Force and was gone a lot

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and just the things that she went through as a wife and a mother at times when he was away

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serving. And so just want to honor and give space to them today as well. If you're joining us for

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the first time today, let us know that this is your first live session with us. We want to welcome

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you and just give you a little shout out there. So again, if this is your first live session

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with us, let us know that you're here. Ladies that have been here before, welcome back. We're so glad

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that you're here. Love seeing you all. Want to encourage you if you're able. Yeah, you're welcome,

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Alicia. If you're able, I think you all probably know what I'm going to say for those that have

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been here before. Would love to see your smiling faces and just love seeing you. Jennifer, welcome

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for your first time. Felicia. Yep. Thank you guys for supporting our ladies. Just seeing what's in

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the chat there as well. My name's Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the master heartwork coaches here in

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the community. It's my honor to get to be here with you all and just to partner with you on this

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journey and amazing healing process that we call the heartwork. Robin and Sarah, welcome for your

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first live session. Anyone else? Hi, Kelly Mason. I just responded to your post in the group a little

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bit ago. Kelly's almost finished with her heartwork. Y'all, I know some of you are almost finished as

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well. Just want to say way to go. Way to go that you didn't give up on yourself and you kept moving

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even when it sometimes it was hard. We're going to talk about a couple things today, one of which

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is distractions. So I want to just do a plug in our regarding our replays. If you didn't get to

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hear Supernatural Saturday, definitely always want to remind you all to check that out, listen to it,

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absorb the things that the Lord is saying to you through it. And then we did Prophetic Ministry

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Night last night. So if you weren't able to join us live for that, that's also going to be in your

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replays inside of the Last Year Single app. So check that out. We will not be live tonight at 8

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p.m., okay, because of Memorial Day. We're just doing the one o'clock p.m. today only. We only do

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this on occasion on a holiday, but I think most of you will be good to go since you're here, but want

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to make sure you know that we are not going to be live this evening. All right, let me pray for us,

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and then I'm going to do another little housekeeping, but it's going to go right into our content for

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today. Father, thank you so much for, yeah, Lord, thank you so much for your daughters.

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Thank you for my sisters that are here today. God, thank you for what you're doing in their lives. We

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thank you for revealings, for healing that are happening, for supernatural shifts and transformations.

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God, we thank you for more, Lord. We say more, Lord. We say more freedom, more life, more hope,

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more grace, more mercy, that we would not only receive that, but we would be those that would

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give it away. We thank you, God, for a fresh and filling of your Holy Spirit. We thank you that you

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would remove more of the old, more of the chaff, and bring more of your life and your hope and

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renewed mindsets, God, into our hearts, into our lives, Lord. I thank you that you would help us

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to hear what your Spirit is saying, God. I thank you that I'm your vessel just for you to speak

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through. So, Lord, I thank you that you would help me to yield to the power and the presence of your

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Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit, we thank you.

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Thank you that you're here.

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We thank you that you're moving and living and alive

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and you're helping us to hear

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what the Father's heart is saying to us.

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We thank you that you're our comforter,

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you're our counselor, you're our guide,

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that you're our ever-present help in time of trouble

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and that we can walk with you every day.

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We thank you for that gift.

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Jesus, thank you for ascending into heaven

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and sending the Holy Spirit to be here with us,

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to help us to know you more, to know the Father more.

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Yes, Lord, we step into a posture of receiving.

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We thank you that you're gonna help us to,

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yes, Lord, create more space in our spirits right now,

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this day, to receive all that you have for us.

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In Jesus' name, amen and amen.

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Y'all, that's a word before we even step into

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what the content is, that we would have hearts

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that are capable of receiving.

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Well, number one, how do we do that

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if we've been hurt in the past

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and we tend to shy away from receiving?

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We shut down, well, we continue to heal

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and ask the Lord to help us open up,

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open up our hearts, our minds, our bodies,

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and our spirits to receive everything he has for us.

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Do you know that men are givers and we're receivers?

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That's how we were created.

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But a lot of society is like, no, men are takers.

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Men are takers, they just take, take, take all the time.

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Isn't that what society says?

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And even in the church, you all,

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a lot of us believe that kind of stuff.

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So today I wanna encourage you, that's from the Lord.

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If that's where you're at, there's no shame, okay?

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Anything, when I say this stuff,

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when it comes up in the Holy Spirit,

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don't receive it through,

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kind of see a picture of like earmuffs.

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You know, sometimes we just receive things

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through the filters of shame, guilt, and condemnation.

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We don't have to do that.

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We don't have to receive words through that.

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If that's the way you hear it,

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just know that the Father wants you to come out

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from that shame and guilt and condemnation.

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That's a heart posture that you've learned through trauma

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and through probably verbal things

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that you've experienced in your life.

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And so I wanna encourage you to receive it with grace.

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That if you have a heart posture that doesn't like men

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and that thinks men are bad, all men, okay?

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We know that some women are unhealthy

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and some men are unhealthy.

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Both, both can be unhealthy, you all.

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But when we partner with all men do this,

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when all men do that,

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it can get us into a lot of trouble

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and self-sabotage behaviors, mindset, heart postures.

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So I wanna invite you to come out of those places

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and step into the new that God has for you.

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On that note, distractions are gonna come.

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I just felt led to remind you of this,

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but how do we press through?

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How do we press through the distractions

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when they come, you all?

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Well, every day we make a choice, okay?

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Myself included, whether it's heart work,

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whether it's something else that God wants me to work on,

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we need to press through what is causing the distraction.

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So what I wanna encourage you all to even be thinking about

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as I start today's content is asking the Lord

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to reveal to you the root of why the enemy

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has been able to trip you up with distractions.

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It could be regarding the heart work.

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It could be regarding moving forward in relationship.

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It could be regarding work

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or financially becoming a better steward,

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learning how to grow and managing your finances

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in a godly way, creating wealth.

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This past week, I spent a lot of time

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with my spiritual daughters

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and my oldest spiritual daughter.

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And y'all, if you don't know what that means,

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I'm not biologically their mom,

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but God brought me into their life years ago

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and we just have an amazing relationship.

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And so I have adopted them in the spirit.

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That's what I'm saying to you.

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My oldest spiritual daughter is just really struggling

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with a lot of victim mentalities

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and the ways that these invade,

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it started showing up a lot in her communication

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regarding like, people owe me.

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They owe me this.

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They got a lot of money.

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They can just give it to me.

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but that's how her parents have talked.

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I heard a lot of her dad coming out and her this weekend.

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It's tough to watch.

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you send them around their dad

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or their grandparent or whatever,

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and they come home and they're kind of talking like them,

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just keep praying.

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Just keep praying because God has them too, okay?

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And we are also influencing them.

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And so praise the Lord,

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we have an opportunity that we get to sow truth

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into our kids, but it starts with us.

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So how did I jump from distractions to there?

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and scarcity and poverty mindsets

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also cause us to get distracted

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because we're always looking at how.

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or can we blame someone else?

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Whether we are doing that consciously or subconsciously,

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who's to blame for the position and the posture

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that I'm in right now, the life situation?

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Y'all, and know that I'm saying this

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from a heart and a place of, I used to be there.

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I used to be there.

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I used to, whether I meant to or not, blame other people,

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even when I was in the relationship with their dad

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that was really unhealthy.

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I mean, he really mistreated me,

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but I kept staying for valid reasons in my mind

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at that time, but I still chose to stay.

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God didn't do that to me.

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God actually, the whole time,

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was trying to lead me out of there.

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God in his grace and his goodness

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showed me favor and kindness,

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but also correction and redirection

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the whole time I was in that relationship.

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to have the courage to leave that.

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Okay, so I'm setting up today's content.

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That's why I'm kind of dropping

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some of these things in intentionally.

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Today, we're gonna talk about identity a little bit more.

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We started last week on this journey.

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We're gonna go a little bit deeper into it.

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Today, specifically, what we're gonna talk about

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is where are you currently getting your identity from?

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Like, what's informing your identity?

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Who's informing your identity?

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If you didn't see last week's session,

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I wanna encourage you to watch that

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because we talked about, you know,

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towards the end, we went into the whole, the real you,

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and what does it look like to live into the real you,

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and that we were always princesses.

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We were always created as daughter of the king.

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So definitely check that out.

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If you haven't done your silhouette yet, keep doing those.

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Man, I don't know if y'all have noticed,

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but there's some really powerful ones.

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Y'all have been doing an amazing job.

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Why does this matter?

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Why do these activations matter?

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Well, I'm gonna tell you what.

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I think all of you can get amazing breakthrough,

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but when you start doing the activation

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and you start partnering your faith

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with what you believe the works with your faith,

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you know, you're walking that out,

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it's going to literally cause you to face yourself.

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Do you understand?

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Like, we have to really be honest with where we're at

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so that we can come out of that place

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and step into the new that God has for us.

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Who does God say you are?

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And so last week I kind of gave you all the scripture,

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and I'm not gonna read the whole scripture

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so you guys can hear it from last week,

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but it is from Genesis 3, 8 through 11,

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where, you know, Adam and Eve had already sinned,

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they ate of the fruit,

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and then God is looking for them in the garden

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and he can't find them,

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which is kind of funny if you think about it,

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because God always knows where we're at,

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but yet God was like calling out to them,

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like, where are you?

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Who told you that you were naked?

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Alina, thank you so much, that's very sweet.

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because it's still in the core of identity.

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Who or what are you currently getting your identity from?

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Before that time, there was no shame.

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there was no condemnation in the garden.

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and y'all, they were naked.

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like, none of the harmful things that we know were there

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until they ate of the fruit,

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and then their eyes were opened,

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and then that's when they got ashamed

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and started covering up and hiding

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and all of those things, okay?

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or wounds and things that we've experienced or witnessed?

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and sometimes we go through things

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because of someone else that we love,

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they're going through it.

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my mom, my oldest brother, and my sister

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were hit by a drunk driver.

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I was not in that car.

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for, I think, almost a month.

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and that's just scratching the surface, y'all.

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because my mom had to leave and go to another town

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very often, because that's where my brother got shipped to

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after he came out of the coma

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to go through a long, extensive rehab.

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but all of that, all of that stuff.

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impacted me. And I was in fourth grade. I was nine years old at

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the time. So whether I'm not saying that was again, that's

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not God didn't cause that to happen. Who comes to kill,

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steal and destroy y'all. The enemy does. Okay. So I want you

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to be thinking about what have you eaten or taken in through

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the trauma that you've experienced or witnessed that

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was never originally intended for you. Also, what have people

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said to you that has caused you to shrink back, question your

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identity, doubt yourself in some way, shape or form, not show up

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in the fullness of who you really want to be. I don't know

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about you all, but I I've always loved being a silly, but when I

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was in certain relationships, like I will literally shut down

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those parts of myself, because I didn't really feel free to be

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me. But the more and more and more that I'm in healthy

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relationship, I got healed before I came into this

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relationship with Brian, and I'm still continuing to heal in this

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relationship with Brian. But y'all I mean, I do silly things.

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I mean, I literally were I was just telling someone the other

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day, I love to scare him. I've told this story before. For

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those that have been here a while, you kind of know this is

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just this is the quirky part. I love to jump out and scare him.

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I literally was army crawling one time like literally trying

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to crawl down on the floor to pop up and yes, that is me. I

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like doing funny stuff like that. He doesn't think it's so

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funny, but I think it's hilarious. But anyways, you all

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so but like, those are things that I couldn't allow out with

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other people. Okay, so I want you to be thinking about that as

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well. Whatever relationships you're in, even with family,

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friends, you know, who, who and what have they said to you that

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has caused you to shrink back? Do you do need to consider like,

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okay, is this a friend that I can really let that true self

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out with? Are they a safe person? It doesn't mean that you

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have to cut all these people out of your life. But I want you to

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understand how things and people around you are impacting you.

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Okay, who does the enemy say that you are like, are you

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listening to tapes from the enemy instead of the voice of

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the father? Now if you if you lean in and partner with that

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silhouette activation from last week, I think you're going to

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really start to hear more of what God says about you. Who

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does God say you are, versus who is the enemy telling you

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that you are? Is the enemy saying that you're shy? I know

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that one that one always catches people because, you know, people

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are like, well, I am shy. That's a part of who I am. Well, we

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don't really believe in this community that everybody that is

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shy, that that's just how they are. We actually think that and

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again, it doesn't mean like everybody has different

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characteristics and stuff. When I go into a room full of people,

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y'all, I tend to like, look for the one or two that I think I

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can connect with. And that's kind of where I start. And then

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I'll make my way around the room. Essentially, I don't just

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walk. I'm not an exhortative like, um, what what is it

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called? Where you're introverted or extroverted? Like I'm not one

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of those surprisingly, like I can speak, I can lead, I can do

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all this. But I definitely am not one of those people that

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just walks in and just lights up the whole room. Like I tend

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to like like to have the one on one conversations. That's what

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I'm trying to say. But I'm okay with that's who I am. But I'm

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not shy. There's a difference. And so some of you have

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partnered with I'm shy, because someone said things to you along

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the way that caused you to not fully be yourself. Okay, I want

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you to really be asking the Lord about these things. Alright, so

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I want you to go ahead and put in the chat for me. Just

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whatever comes to mind really quick. One, do two to three

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words that come to mind right now about who you are. Just

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whatever comes to mind, positive, negative, whatever

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comes to mind, just put it in the chat there for me. Helen,

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I'm both too. I am an intro and extra. All right, Anna says

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funny and intelligent. I'm just gonna go ahead and read them.

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Friendly, brilliant, dearly loved by God, genuine, funny,

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loving, creative, powerful, reserved, patient, loving,

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joyful, I am lovable, joyful, adventurous, love it, explore

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patient. Let's see if I can keep up daughter of the king love

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precious, compassionate, giving daughter, loved patient. Sorry,

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I'm starting to miss some shy, kind, sweet, wise, considerate,

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warm, creative. I'm going to keep going. But keep putting

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them in there for me never met a stranger. Love that Eloise

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intelligent, warm and creative, strong. All right, let those

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keep bubbling up for you. As and I'm going to keep moving

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forward. Look at Sarah warrior. Yes, you are. You are a

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warrior. Now on the flip side of that. I'm not that this is bad.

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I'm so glad you shared that Sarah, but it does automatically

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as soon as I said that we are

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warriors. But also sometimes, have y'all ever felt like

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sometimes we're in warring mode so much that we forget how to

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have fun. There's a lot of spiritual circles that actually

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teach people just war, we're always at war, we're always at

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war. Well, we are in a sense, because the spirit realm is

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always there's always things going on up there. But we can

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also rest and worship and worship and rest our warfare.

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So I want y'all to grab on to that for whoever that's for

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because as soon as I said it, I felt that come right up in my

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spirit, like let him know they don't always have to be at war.

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God is the one that can war on behalf of you, he can send his

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angels to fight for you. If you weren't on last night, again,

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for the prophetic ministry night, there was a word that

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God had me release about there is a strong man and he's

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standing on the hill, and he's going to help you overcome and

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the Lord is that strong, man, he's fighting for you. All

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right. So on the sense of what is your identity? Where are you

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getting your identity from? I want you to be thinking about

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what does your root system look like? You know, the Bible talks

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about being like a tree planted by rivers of living flowing

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water. Okay. And I, there's a whole, there's more scripture to

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that. But I just that's what comes to mind. And it's not in

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my notes. So I can look it up later. But, you know, that tree

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is planted down in the river of living water. It's, its source

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is good. So the things that are feeding into that tree are good.

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But some of us, we have our root systems down into things that

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are still trauma, wounds, lies that we're believing some, you

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know, as you're going through this heart healing, hopefully

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you're starting to see that you have some roots that are

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healing. And there's good things coming out of there. Now you're

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producing more fruit. But then there's these other areas that

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still just need more healing, more life, more things infused

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into them. So I want you to be thinking about not only what

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does your root system look like, but where are you getting your

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nutrients from? Like what's in your soil? What are you planted

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by? Who are you planted in? Are you planted in the truth of the

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Lord, things that are true, noble, lovely, and of good

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report, things that are above only and not beneath? Are you

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allowing God to come in and speak truth to you in the

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morning when you wake up first thing? Or are you starting your

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day and going all the way through it and then just really

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getting beat up all day because the enemy came in quicker than

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the Lord did. And again, there's no shame in this, y'all. I've

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had days like that too. I get up and man, I got to get to work

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quick or I woke up later, whatever the case, I don't

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really wake up late too often. But I'm just giving y'all

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examples. Sometimes on those days, I kind of get going and

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then I'm like, oh man, I'm having a harder day. Why? Oh,

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well, I allowed the enemy to inform me before I allowed the

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Lord to inform me. Like subconsciously. I'm not saying

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that's even something that's happening intentionally. So

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what's in your soil? Well, what am I talking about? The soil of

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your heart. The soil of your heart. Luke 6.45 in the NLT

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version says this, a good person produces good things from the

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treasury of a good heart. And an evil person produces evil things

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from the treasury of an evil heart. What you say flows from

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what is in your heart. I also want to add to that what we

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think, what we say and what we think flows from what is in our

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heart. So that's why even in the videos, Jackie talks about,

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well, when we're being transformed by the renewing of

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our minds, well, our minds and our hearts are connected. So the

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more we heal in our hearts, the more you should start to think

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healthier things. And for some of you, it might be a bigger

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struggle because you've learned very habitual ways of thinking

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negative a lot of your life. So I don't want you to be hard on

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yourself. Some of you, you might get over those things quick. And

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for others, it might be a little bit longer journey, but keep

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walking out, keep casting those thoughts down and making them

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obedient to Jesus Christ. You know, taking those thoughts

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captive quickly. You know, I've talked about that. Because the

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more you do it, the more you're going to retrain your brain on

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what is truth, what is truth, you know, that you wouldn't

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receive the lies of the enemy. Are your roots giving you life

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or are they causing you to decay? Are they leading you

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higher? Or are they leading you backwards? Do you have thoughts

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often that say you're stuck, you're never moving forward,

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you're never going to get what God has for you. This spirit

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made is never going to come for you. Why are you even doing

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this? Any of those kind of thoughts, you know, some of

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those, as we've been talking about, even in the community as

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a whole, are intrusive thoughts, the enemy tries to attack our

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minds all of the time, that's frequent, frequent, he's always

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trying to figure out how can he get in to your mind, because if

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he gets into our mind,

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and we meditate on that stuff,

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then it connects down into our hearts.

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Y'all see how that works?

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So how can you tell what's in your roots?

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What fruit are you producing in your life right now?

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Okay, and yes, this can be regarding your love story,

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but it can be in every area of your life.

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even for some of you when you step into week two

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and you do the Hope Scale Worksheet and you're like,

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man, I really don't have a lot of hope in some areas.

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in most of those areas,

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00:25:34.960 --> 00:25:37.720
but understand that as you continue to heal,

476
00:25:37.720 --> 00:25:39.600
that is going to change.

477
00:25:39.600 --> 00:25:41.480
You're here to heal.

478
00:25:41.480 --> 00:25:44.040
So just be real with where you're at.

479
00:25:44.040 --> 00:25:46.000
And then every day, remember,

480
00:25:46.000 --> 00:25:49.600
Lord, what's one thing I can do today to move forward

481
00:25:49.600 --> 00:25:52.920
in my heart healing journey and in relationship with you?

482
00:25:52.920 --> 00:25:55.200
And y'all, he will take care of the other things.

483
00:25:55.200 --> 00:25:58.080
When we partner with him, so much will change.

484
00:25:58.080 --> 00:25:59.480
All right, I'm gonna read something really quick

485
00:25:59.480 --> 00:26:00.440
from the Heart Workbook,

486
00:26:00.440 --> 00:26:02.360
and then we're gonna get ready for breakouts.

487
00:26:02.360 --> 00:26:04.600
We're gonna try to fit two breakout sessions in today,

488
00:26:04.600 --> 00:26:05.960
you all.

489
00:26:05.960 --> 00:26:07.800
All right, this is from the Heart Workbook.

490
00:26:07.800 --> 00:26:09.880
It says this, fruits versus roots.

491
00:26:10.920 --> 00:26:13.960
Fruits are the emotional or physical manifestations

492
00:26:13.960 --> 00:26:17.600
and the subsequent actions you have been taking

493
00:26:17.600 --> 00:26:20.760
as a result of what you believe in your heart.

494
00:26:21.800 --> 00:26:23.560
We talked about believing last night

495
00:26:23.560 --> 00:26:24.520
on the prophetic night too.

496
00:26:24.840 --> 00:26:26.080
I'm gonna do a lot of plugs

497
00:26:26.080 --> 00:26:28.400
because I'm seeing a lot of parallels here.

498
00:26:28.400 --> 00:26:32.360
And I had planned this content two weeks ago for today.

499
00:26:32.360 --> 00:26:34.120
So I feel like it was God's timing

500
00:26:34.120 --> 00:26:35.720
that that also came up last night.

501
00:26:35.720 --> 00:26:36.840
Let me keep going.

502
00:26:36.840 --> 00:26:40.000
Fruits may include sickness, self-pity,

503
00:26:40.000 --> 00:26:43.080
a victim mentality, despair, not sadness.

504
00:26:43.080 --> 00:26:44.440
So we all can feel sadness,

505
00:26:44.440 --> 00:26:46.400
but there are some people that are just living

506
00:26:46.400 --> 00:26:47.920
in a place of despair,

507
00:26:47.920 --> 00:26:51.120
suicidal tendencies, disgust, and judgment.

508
00:26:51.120 --> 00:26:51.960
Just a side note,

509
00:26:51.960 --> 00:26:53.920
if you have a problem with judging other people,

510
00:26:53.920 --> 00:26:56.400
it's because you have a fragmented heart.

511
00:26:56.400 --> 00:26:59.400
A judgmental heart is a hurting heart.

512
00:26:59.400 --> 00:27:02.440
Some more fruits are obesity, perversion, addiction,

513
00:27:02.440 --> 00:27:06.880
sexual dysfunction, hopelessness, hatred, and self-hatred.

514
00:27:07.760 --> 00:27:08.640
Just so you know,

515
00:27:08.640 --> 00:27:12.840
all forms of hatred begin with self-hatred.

516
00:27:12.840 --> 00:27:15.880
You can't hate someone else without hating yourself.

517
00:27:15.880 --> 00:27:18.040
So I don't know how you all are,

518
00:27:18.040 --> 00:27:19.880
but that was another thing I noticed

519
00:27:19.880 --> 00:27:21.960
with my oldest spiritual daughter.

520
00:27:21.960 --> 00:27:25.320
I think she said four times on Saturday

521
00:27:25.320 --> 00:27:28.200
in this mini, maybe half an hour conversation,

522
00:27:28.200 --> 00:27:29.880
different things that she hated.

523
00:27:30.880 --> 00:27:32.240
So that started standing out to me,

524
00:27:32.240 --> 00:27:35.760
like, whoa, you hate a lot of things.

525
00:27:35.760 --> 00:27:36.880
Now, I didn't say anything to her,

526
00:27:36.880 --> 00:27:38.640
because sometimes you just got to give people

527
00:27:38.640 --> 00:27:41.600
safe space to share without correcting them all the time,

528
00:27:41.600 --> 00:27:43.480
because they just got to get that stuff out.

529
00:27:43.480 --> 00:27:47.240
But I want you to really be paying attention to,

530
00:27:47.240 --> 00:27:49.200
like, what is your heart really saying?

531
00:27:50.200 --> 00:27:52.280
All right, I'm going to keep going.

532
00:27:52.280 --> 00:27:54.480
Some other fruits, you know,

533
00:27:54.480 --> 00:27:56.720
these can be the things that we notice are negative.

534
00:27:56.720 --> 00:28:00.760
Again, if these are negative fruits that we're exuding

535
00:28:00.760 --> 00:28:02.200
and living out in our life,

536
00:28:02.200 --> 00:28:03.840
that means there's unhealthy roots

537
00:28:03.840 --> 00:28:06.080
and lies somewhere down in there, okay?

538
00:28:06.080 --> 00:28:06.920
I'm going to keep going.

539
00:28:06.920 --> 00:28:11.080
Abrasiveness, short temper, irritability, jealousy,

540
00:28:11.080 --> 00:28:14.800
envy, competitiveness, comparing, gossiping,

541
00:28:14.800 --> 00:28:18.200
backstabbing, being unhappy, ungratefulness,

542
00:28:18.280 --> 00:28:21.120
selfishness, having a poverty mentality.

543
00:28:21.120 --> 00:28:23.800
If you are habitually negative, unfaithful,

544
00:28:23.800 --> 00:28:27.120
or have any form of dis, including disease,

545
00:28:27.120 --> 00:28:30.120
disconnection, discontent, and disappointment,

546
00:28:30.120 --> 00:28:32.600
you are suffering from a broken heart.

547
00:28:33.720 --> 00:28:37.240
Okay, so we want you to see that these are all fruits

548
00:28:37.240 --> 00:28:39.880
that can get, like, displayed in our life

549
00:28:39.880 --> 00:28:41.720
when we have unhealthy roots.

550
00:28:41.720 --> 00:28:43.720
So that's why a lot of times in the heart work,

551
00:28:43.720 --> 00:28:46.560
when you hear me say to you all, what's the root?

552
00:28:46.600 --> 00:28:49.840
What's the first time you experienced feeling jealous?

553
00:28:49.840 --> 00:28:52.400
When's the first time you started seeing bitterness

554
00:28:52.400 --> 00:28:55.400
kind of rear its head and you got stuck there?

555
00:28:55.400 --> 00:28:58.400
When's the first time you compulsively ate

556
00:28:58.400 --> 00:29:01.800
to comfort yourself instead of actually allowing yourself

557
00:29:01.800 --> 00:29:04.520
to feel the feels so God could heal them?

558
00:29:04.520 --> 00:29:05.520
When's the first time

559
00:29:05.520 --> 00:29:07.480
you started stuffing your emotions down?

560
00:29:07.480 --> 00:29:10.080
Y'all, I'm just giving you ideas and examples

561
00:29:10.080 --> 00:29:12.640
from those fruits we just talked about there.

562
00:29:12.640 --> 00:29:15.720
So as you go into this first breakout session,

563
00:29:15.720 --> 00:29:17.560
here is your question.

564
00:29:17.560 --> 00:29:20.440
What is a negative root that you need to confess

565
00:29:20.440 --> 00:29:21.940
and gain healing in today?

566
00:29:23.280 --> 00:29:26.320
What is a negative root that you need to confess

567
00:29:26.320 --> 00:29:28.040
and gain healing in today?

568
00:29:28.040 --> 00:29:31.680
Again, remember the fruit and the roots are connected.

569
00:29:31.680 --> 00:29:34.160
So if you're like, well, I don't know a negative root

570
00:29:34.160 --> 00:29:38.420
for sure, what's the fruit in your life that's not healthy

571
00:29:38.420 --> 00:29:40.520
that is manifesting?

572
00:29:40.520 --> 00:29:43.080
And then that can help you identify the root

573
00:29:43.080 --> 00:29:47.000
or potentially a lie that is causing that unhealthy root.

574
00:29:47.000 --> 00:29:48.260
Everyone understand?

575
00:29:49.180 --> 00:29:50.020
Yes?

576
00:29:50.960 --> 00:29:52.680
Okay, I see some yeses.

577
00:29:52.680 --> 00:29:53.920
If you're not a hundred percent sure,

578
00:29:53.920 --> 00:29:55.920
just go in and just start sharing

579
00:29:55.920 --> 00:29:57.440
whatever you feel led to share, ladies.

580
00:29:57.440 --> 00:29:58.760
Okay, this is how it happens.

581
00:29:58.760 --> 00:30:00.520
Sometimes you're gonna get reveled.

582
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:15.000
As you're sharing, sometimes you're going to get revelation as you hear someone else share. Okay, so just go in and be yourselves. If you've never joined a live session before we are doing these breakouts, I'm going to put you in the room, there's going to be a little digital room thing that's going to pop up on your screen.

583
00:30:16.000 --> 00:30:26.000
And I want to encourage you all to go ahead and click to join those. And even if you're scared, do it afraid you all share afraid you're going to make some great connections. We have amazing women in this community. Okay.

584
00:30:26.000 --> 00:30:40.000
All right, I'm going to give you eight minutes. Go ahead and click to join those. I'm going to be praying for you all while you're in there. Once everyone gets situated, I'll start that time of prayer for you. Go ahead and click to join those as quick as you can.

585
00:30:40.000 --> 00:31:04.000
Susan, are you able to join? Eliabelle, are you able to join?

586
00:31:04.000 --> 00:31:10.000
Okay, we got two in there at least.

587
00:31:10.000 --> 00:31:23.000
Awesome. I think we've got a good amount in every room. Let me just move one person around here.

588
00:31:23.000 --> 00:31:39.000
All right, Father, thank you so much for everything you're doing. God, we thank you for revealing for healings that's happening now. God, we pray that you would reveal root systems and areas in their hearts, their minds, their bodies, their spirits and souls that are not in alignment with your good, good plan for their life.

589
00:31:39.000 --> 00:31:56.000
God, we thank you that you'll help them to even as they're talking have revelation and insight bubbling up to the surface. Hi, Jennifer, we just started breakout session. Did you get kicked out? Are you just joining us? It's okay. Either way, just that way. I know if I need to explain.

590
00:31:56.000 --> 00:31:58.000
Yes, I just got kicked out.

591
00:31:58.000 --> 00:32:01.000
Okay. All right. Do you know what room you were in?

592
00:32:01.000 --> 00:32:03.000
Four. Yes, four.

593
00:32:03.000 --> 00:32:08.000
Let me put you in there. Oh, yeah, I see you.

594
00:32:09.000 --> 00:32:10.000
Okay, there you go.

595
00:32:10.000 --> 00:32:11.000
Okay, thank you.

596
00:32:11.000 --> 00:32:29.000
You're welcome. So we just thank you that you would continue to just as we were talking about transform us by the renewing of our minds that you would help all those old faulty mindsets and systems pass away. Hi, iPhone.

597
00:32:30.000 --> 00:32:31.000
Did you just join us?

598
00:32:31.000 --> 00:32:42.000
Hi, Bethany. Sorry, in my room, I joined late. So I just came a few minutes before the breakout. But in my room, people were also unsure about the question. So I volunteer to come.

599
00:32:42.000 --> 00:32:43.000
That's fine.

600
00:32:43.000 --> 00:32:44.000
Clarification and go back.

601
00:32:44.000 --> 00:32:59.000
Yep. So you're just want to talk about a negative root that you need to confess and gain healing for. So what is it? Yep. What's a negative root that you're experiencing in life? And I was just sharing that if they don't know what the root is, you all want to think about what's the unhealthy fruit that you're exhibiting?

602
00:32:59.000 --> 00:33:00.000
Does that make sense?

603
00:33:00.000 --> 00:33:03.000
Yep. Yeah. Are you able to put me back in room 11?

604
00:33:04.000 --> 00:33:05.000
Of course.

605
00:33:05.000 --> 00:33:06.000
Thank you so much.

606
00:33:06.000 --> 00:33:19.000
Well, let me see. I don't know. I think you just have to click on the thing below in your breakout rooms and rejoin it actually, because I won't be able to because you're not showing that you're not in the room.

607
00:33:19.000 --> 00:33:22.000
Oh, really? Because I left the breakout room.

608
00:33:22.000 --> 00:33:28.000
Yeah, I don't see a sign to join anywhere.

609
00:33:28.000 --> 00:33:35.000
Let me see. I just don't think it's going to let me maybe let me bump you back to.

610
00:33:35.000 --> 00:33:40.000
I'm going to bump you into one, but just don't don't accept it because I'm just going to bump you back to 11.

611
00:33:40.000 --> 00:33:44.000
Okay, perfect.

612
00:33:44.000 --> 00:33:48.000
There you go. Okay, thank you. Thank you.

613
00:33:48.000 --> 00:33:58.000
All right, let's see here. Do I have anyone else? Lizzie, did you just join us or did you get kicked out of the room you were in?

614
00:33:58.000 --> 00:34:01.000
Welcome. If you're just joining us.

615
00:34:01.000 --> 00:34:17.000
They just started a breakout room so I can have you join one of those rooms if you are ready.

616
00:34:17.000 --> 00:34:25.000
I had a room but I could not speak to them so I have to join.

617
00:34:25.000 --> 00:34:31.000
Okay, I put another one back there for you. I think you were in room 12 as I look because there was only two people in there.

618
00:34:31.000 --> 00:34:36.000
So you can rejoin that.

619
00:34:36.000 --> 00:34:43.000
All right, so I'm going to keep praying. Father, thank you so much for continuing to manifest your goodness, your glory in our lives.

620
00:34:43.000 --> 00:34:55.000
God, thank you for helping us to discern between the voice of the enemy, your voice, and even our own thoughts, patterns, and things that we've learned along the way that are not truth.

621
00:34:55.000 --> 00:35:00.000
The ways that we have heard through the voice of man.

622
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.320
as well as just the pain and the trauma that we've been through,

623
00:35:03.320 --> 00:35:05.440
the lies that we received as a result of those.

624
00:35:05.440 --> 00:35:08.480
God, we thank you that you would just continue to,

625
00:35:10.240 --> 00:35:13.120
yeah, just like I just saw an image of sifting sand,

626
00:35:13.160 --> 00:35:15.600
that you would just continue to help us to sift through

627
00:35:16.080 --> 00:35:18.520
all of those thoughts and anything that's not of you.

628
00:35:19.480 --> 00:35:21.600
Lord, that we would cast those thoughts down,

629
00:35:22.080 --> 00:35:24.840
that we would partner with the truth of heaven over our lives.

630
00:35:24.840 --> 00:35:28.320
We thank you, God, for hope, for joy, for life.

631
00:35:29.040 --> 00:35:32.800
I'm feeling also, let's see, Psalm 1 keeps coming to mind.

632
00:35:32.800 --> 00:35:34.240
So I'm going to read that over us.

633
00:35:35.360 --> 00:35:38.120
Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked

634
00:35:38.120 --> 00:35:41.520
or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers,

635
00:35:41.520 --> 00:35:43.640
but whose delight is in the law of the Lord

636
00:35:44.000 --> 00:35:46.200
and who meditates on his law day and night.

637
00:35:46.200 --> 00:35:48.120
That person is like a tree.

638
00:35:48.120 --> 00:35:50.120
This is the scripture from earlier. Praise the Lord.

639
00:35:50.440 --> 00:35:53.400
That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,

640
00:35:53.400 --> 00:35:58.280
which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither,

641
00:35:58.520 --> 00:36:01.360
but whatever they do prospers.

642
00:36:01.880 --> 00:36:03.720
Praise the Lord.

643
00:36:03.720 --> 00:36:04.960
I'm going to jump down to verse six.

644
00:36:04.960 --> 00:36:08.400
It also says, for the Lord watches over the way of the righteous,

645
00:36:08.720 --> 00:36:12.120
but the wicked I'm sorry, but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.

646
00:36:12.120 --> 00:36:16.360
So that was Psalm 1, 1 through 3, and then also verse six.

647
00:36:16.360 --> 00:36:20.680
So Lord, we thank you that we are receiving your delight,

648
00:36:20.680 --> 00:36:22.240
that we are receiving your truth.

649
00:36:22.240 --> 00:36:24.720
I thank you that we will be

650
00:36:24.720 --> 00:36:28.200
daughters of the king who meditate on your word day and night.

651
00:36:28.200 --> 00:36:31.480
God, that we would be like that tree

652
00:36:31.480 --> 00:36:35.000
that's planted by streams of water that does yield its fruit in season,

653
00:36:35.000 --> 00:36:39.600
whose leaf does not wither, but whatever we do, that it would prosper.

654
00:36:39.600 --> 00:36:43.080
God, we thank you that you lead us in pathways of righteousness

655
00:36:43.080 --> 00:36:46.240
for your namesake, that we will not go off to the left or to the right,

656
00:36:46.440 --> 00:36:48.920
but we will stay on the pathway that you have for us, Lord.

657
00:36:48.920 --> 00:36:53.080
I thank you that even when distractions and disruptions come, God,

658
00:36:53.080 --> 00:36:56.520
we thank you that, yes, Lord, that we can lay aside every weight

659
00:36:56.520 --> 00:36:59.320
that so easily ensnares us and we can press on

660
00:36:59.320 --> 00:37:01.440
toward the high calling of God for our lives.

661
00:37:01.720 --> 00:37:02.920
We thank you that we,

662
00:37:04.280 --> 00:37:07.200
yes, are your daughters that hear just like your sheep.

663
00:37:07.200 --> 00:37:10.800
We hear what your voice is saying and we obey all that you tell us to do.

664
00:37:10.800 --> 00:37:13.200
We thank you that we will not fear nor be afraid.

665
00:37:13.200 --> 00:37:15.120
We won't be discouraged because, Lord,

666
00:37:15.120 --> 00:37:17.720
we know that you've gone before us into all things.

667
00:37:17.720 --> 00:37:22.360
God, we thank you that you're making every crooked place straight

668
00:37:22.560 --> 00:37:25.960
and you're helping us to know that path that you set before us,

669
00:37:25.960 --> 00:37:28.960
that your word says that you are that voice behind us,

670
00:37:28.960 --> 00:37:31.600
telling us the way to go and that you're also a lamp,

671
00:37:31.800 --> 00:37:34.760
that you light the path, that we will know how to walk

672
00:37:35.480 --> 00:37:37.800
and follow you all the days of our lives.

673
00:37:37.800 --> 00:37:38.840
Hi, Laura and Sarah.

674
00:37:38.840 --> 00:37:42.000
Did you all just join us or did you get kicked out of the room that you were in?

675
00:37:42.080 --> 00:37:43.080
I got kicked out.

676
00:37:43.080 --> 00:37:44.080
Okay.

677
00:37:44.080 --> 00:37:45.080
Do you know what room you were in, Sarah?

678
00:37:45.080 --> 00:37:46.080
Were you in 12?

679
00:37:46.080 --> 00:37:47.080
I was with Lee and I was with Aurora or I didn't.

680
00:37:47.080 --> 00:37:48.080
Naomi?

681
00:37:48.080 --> 00:37:49.080
My microphone wasn't working, so I couldn't.

682
00:37:49.080 --> 00:37:50.080
That's okay.

683
00:37:50.080 --> 00:37:51.080
Let me just put you back in there.

684
00:37:51.080 --> 00:37:52.080
I think you're from 12.

685
00:37:52.080 --> 00:37:53.080
There you go.

686
00:37:53.080 --> 00:37:54.080
Thank you.

687
00:37:54.080 --> 00:37:55.080
You're welcome.

688
00:37:55.080 --> 00:37:56.080
Oh, Laura, what room did you get kicked out of?

689
00:37:56.080 --> 00:37:57.080
I don't know.

690
00:37:57.080 --> 00:37:58.080
I was in 12.

691
00:37:58.080 --> 00:37:59.080
I was in 12.

692
00:37:59.080 --> 00:38:00.080
I was in 12.

693
00:38:00.080 --> 00:38:01.080
I was in 12.

694
00:38:01.080 --> 00:38:02.080
I was in 12.

695
00:38:02.080 --> 00:38:03.080
I was in 12.

696
00:38:03.080 --> 00:38:04.080
I was in 12.

697
00:38:04.080 --> 00:38:05.080
I was in 12.

698
00:38:05.080 --> 00:38:06.080
I was in 12.

699
00:38:06.080 --> 00:38:07.080
I was in 12.

700
00:38:07.080 --> 00:38:08.080
I was in 12.

701
00:38:08.080 --> 00:38:09.080
I was in 12.

702
00:38:09.080 --> 00:38:10.080
I was in 12.

703
00:38:10.160 --> 00:38:11.760
What room did you get kicked out of?

704
00:38:11.760 --> 00:38:16.880
I don't know what's happening today.

705
00:38:16.880 --> 00:38:22.600
I don't see that you weren't in a room.

706
00:38:22.600 --> 00:38:23.600
It's okay.

707
00:38:23.600 --> 00:38:25.200
They're going to be back in like eight seconds.

708
00:38:25.200 --> 00:38:26.320
So sorry about that.

709
00:38:26.320 --> 00:38:27.600
I don't know what's happening.

710
00:38:27.600 --> 00:38:29.560
Oh, your audio wasn't working either.

711
00:38:29.560 --> 00:38:30.560
Okay.

712
00:38:30.560 --> 00:38:33.440
I wonder if something's going on with Zoom today.

713
00:38:33.440 --> 00:38:35.000
All right.

714
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We trust the Lord in all of it, ladies.

715
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I know technology can be tricky sometimes.

716
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They're about to come back.

717
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Welcome back.

718
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Welcome back.

719
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Everybody will be here shortly.

720
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Okay.

721
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We have like 20 some seconds and then everyone will be back here.

722
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All right.

723
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Everyone's going to start to come back now.

724
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Welcome back.

725
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So glad to have you back with us.

726
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All right.

727
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Everyone's here.

728
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Y'all, we have 43 ladies on today.

729
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That's awesome.

730
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I'm so excited about that.

731
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All right.

732
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Who is willing to share with the whole group what you shared in your breakout session?

733
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I think Joy's got her hand up already.

734
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She's ready to go.

735
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.960
Go ahead and if you put your hand up for me as well, Amy, I see you. So good. All right, Joy,

736
00:40:04.960 --> 00:40:11.440
go ahead. All right. Thank you so much. Our group was the same. At the end is the same

737
00:40:12.080 --> 00:40:18.320
conclusion. When I just said a prayer, then Holy Spirit immediately give me the light bulb on these

738
00:40:18.320 --> 00:40:27.520
lies. Then cause the fear in my heart, in my mind. So that's the negative rules, one of the

739
00:40:28.160 --> 00:40:33.280
negative rules. Then we discovered further together, three people, then we discover it's

740
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unforgiveness. People hurt us. I say that we can do as Bethany told us, we write and speak the

741
00:40:41.360 --> 00:40:47.760
thing and burn it or destroy it or put on a balloon that just fly away. I say then we thought

742
00:40:47.760 --> 00:40:53.440
about it. Does sometimes it come back again? So we're going to deal with unforgiveness. We don't

743
00:40:53.520 --> 00:40:59.920
want the devil continue to use his bait to fish us. It's not worth it, period, period.

744
00:41:01.680 --> 00:41:09.200
And then I share why another sister said of unforgiveness. She said unforgiveness. I say

745
00:41:09.200 --> 00:41:13.600
maybe in my mind, every time when the unforgiveness come up, thought about that scenario,

746
00:41:13.600 --> 00:41:18.480
that person, and I immediately say, no, I choose forgive you. I choose to think the opposite about

747
00:41:18.480 --> 00:41:25.920
you. I choose bless you, bless you. You got what you need to become the positive person. I bless

748
00:41:25.920 --> 00:41:32.240
you with that. I choose forgive you. I choose bless you, love you in Jesus name. But then,

749
00:41:32.240 --> 00:41:37.600
yeah. So I just, that's the thing. Yeah. I think it's unforgiveness.

750
00:41:38.480 --> 00:41:44.240
That's so good, Joy. I love that. And I love that you're choosing to come out of agreement with the

751
00:41:44.240 --> 00:41:49.840
unforgiveness. But one of the things I do want to make sure that you all take time for is to

752
00:41:49.840 --> 00:41:57.200
actually process the feeling that's connected with the hurt. Because a lot of people will just

753
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automatically, myself included, we're trying to always go to the good, which is a good thing.

754
00:42:03.200 --> 00:42:10.080
But sometimes we can do that so quickly that we're shoving feelings down. Yeah. Remember that we all

755
00:42:10.080 --> 00:42:15.680
need to feel the feels ladies so that we allow God to heal those places. Because yes, we can

756
00:42:15.680 --> 00:42:19.920
partner with forgiveness. We can partner with loving people. We can partner with the truth

757
00:42:19.920 --> 00:42:25.520
and move on from those things. But we absolutely need to heal so that that thing doesn't continue

758
00:42:25.520 --> 00:42:32.640
to trip us up. If you have someone that you have already forgiven, but you continue to experience

759
00:42:32.880 --> 00:42:40.640
like anger towards them. Exactly. Yeah. That's where you need to really like lean into,

760
00:42:41.440 --> 00:42:46.800
okay, where is the anger coming from? Okay. Let's look at the emotion because anger,

761
00:42:46.800 --> 00:42:51.840
if you remember is hurts body guard. So typically underneath of that is sadness,

762
00:42:51.840 --> 00:42:59.360
pain, frustration, could be shame. There's all kinds of stuff. So absolutely choose forgiveness.

763
00:42:59.360 --> 00:43:04.960
I love that y'all are doing that. We want you to do that, but don't, don't not take time.

764
00:43:05.760 --> 00:43:10.240
Hopefully I said that right. To process it. Does that make sense? Everyone?

765
00:43:10.240 --> 00:43:15.520
Nice. So, so, so good. I need to watch your replay. Yeah. Yeah. That's so cool. You hear the

766
00:43:15.520 --> 00:43:20.240
nail. Come on. Talk it. That's it. Yeah. Thank you so much.

767
00:43:20.240 --> 00:43:23.440
Welcome. You're welcome. Joy. Thank you for sharing. Amy, go ahead.

768
00:43:24.320 --> 00:43:29.760
It's interesting in this, this course, cause I'm on week five. Um, I didn't realize there was a

769
00:43:29.760 --> 00:43:36.560
trend that the Lord has been revealing to me. And the one thing that he was saying today was,

770
00:43:36.560 --> 00:43:45.040
you know, we do have the fruit of obesity that comes out of our family because of shame and

771
00:43:45.040 --> 00:43:50.720
not, uh, or feeling guilty, I think is one thing. And I remember I was trying to think of

772
00:43:50.800 --> 00:43:55.760
the one thing where it started. Cause I know you always ask like, where was that first memory that

773
00:43:55.760 --> 00:44:01.120
you were told something that kind of contributed to this? And I was reminded in high school,

774
00:44:01.120 --> 00:44:07.360
my mom always said, you know, you have big bones. You're always going to be bigger than other girls.

775
00:44:08.240 --> 00:44:14.640
Um, you will look like me when you're older. And then even as I, I got older, my mom would call me

776
00:44:15.520 --> 00:44:24.160
fat and say that I was obese. And then in turn, I became obese because of that. And so then that

777
00:44:24.160 --> 00:44:29.840
kind of produced a lot of shame for me and feeling like I was never going to be able to get married

778
00:44:29.840 --> 00:44:36.080
because nobody would love someone who was obese or had a body image problems. And so it stemmed

779
00:44:36.080 --> 00:44:42.880
from way young. I was very young when she told me that. And, um, my mom has done very extreme

780
00:44:42.880 --> 00:44:48.720
dieting, you know, all of that in the nineties, the diet culture. So that's what God, I think is

781
00:44:48.720 --> 00:44:54.640
healing for me, even in this last five weeks, it's like every week he brings it up the same things

782
00:44:54.640 --> 00:44:59.680
with my mom and with my weight. Those are like the two things that he's reminding me that he can

783
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.040
me of my weight, of being able to lose weight and feel good in

784
00:45:05.040 --> 00:45:08.720
my body. So I was just, I wanted to hear your thoughts on that

785
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because I feel like it's a big thing that has dictated why I

786
00:45:13.000 --> 00:45:15.320
haven't dated in the last five years.

787
00:45:15.720 --> 00:45:18.680
100% I think that even myself, it's interesting, you have no

788
00:45:18.680 --> 00:45:22.160
clue about this. But I literally this last two days was pondering

789
00:45:22.160 --> 00:45:26.080
my own family line on my mom's side, because they were all

790
00:45:26.080 --> 00:45:29.200
overweight. And I feel like there's been this constant back

791
00:45:29.200 --> 00:45:33.800
and forth struggle even myself, like, I lose a lot of weight,

792
00:45:33.840 --> 00:45:37.240
then I gain a lot back. And it's just been a cycle. But when I

793
00:45:37.240 --> 00:45:40.640
tend to gain it back is when I'm feeling sad or eating my

794
00:45:40.640 --> 00:45:44.520
emotions, or there's things kind of happening there. But one of

795
00:45:44.520 --> 00:45:48.320
the things God has been leading me to do is to take communion

796
00:45:48.600 --> 00:45:53.480
often and pray over my body physically, to help my body

797
00:45:53.480 --> 00:46:00.400
release weight that I hold on to in my body because of pain.

798
00:46:01.120 --> 00:46:03.800
Yeah. And so it's interesting that you're bringing that up,

799
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because I do think that is a common reality. Now, here's the

800
00:46:06.360 --> 00:46:09.240
other side, I need to move my body more because I work from

801
00:46:09.240 --> 00:46:12.680
home. I like hardly ever leave my house during the week if

802
00:46:12.720 --> 00:46:15.520
unless I'm intentionally going out to an appointment or other

803
00:46:15.520 --> 00:46:18.840
things, like I could go a whole week you all and not leave my

804
00:46:18.840 --> 00:46:22.440
house. That's kind of crazy to even say it out loud. So like

805
00:46:22.440 --> 00:46:25.120
God's really challenging me like I got to get out and move

806
00:46:25.120 --> 00:46:29.440
like I got to move like because I can't be sedentary. I can't

807
00:46:29.440 --> 00:46:33.280
because my body just does not do well with that. Now. And what

808
00:46:33.280 --> 00:46:36.320
led me to also think about this is what my best friend, one of

809
00:46:36.320 --> 00:46:40.360
my best friends is very skinny, like just can eat whatever and

810
00:46:40.360 --> 00:46:44.760
is very skinny. And so I just was thinking about her family

811
00:46:44.760 --> 00:46:49.760
line and my family line and not in a like, Oh, poor me, like is

812
00:46:49.800 --> 00:46:53.080
how I used to look at it. But just kind of like observing and

813
00:46:53.080 --> 00:46:55.600
like, and then here you are talking about that. And so I

814
00:46:55.600 --> 00:46:59.600
feel like it's an important thing to bring up today. You

815
00:46:59.600 --> 00:47:02.000
know, as you all are thinking about these things, one of the

816
00:47:02.000 --> 00:47:07.720
key things that you said there, Amy, is my mom said that you

817
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will look like me. One day, my mom told me, like, this is your

818
00:47:12.360 --> 00:47:15.440
body, this is how you're always going to be this is and that how

819
00:47:15.440 --> 00:47:19.040
we live into often the things that are spoken over us, but

820
00:47:19.120 --> 00:47:22.920
where can we own our side of the street? You know, and so again,

821
00:47:23.240 --> 00:47:26.680
yes, horrible that that happened. Definitely forgive

822
00:47:26.680 --> 00:47:30.640
your mom, like specific things. Okay. So as the Lord continues

823
00:47:30.640 --> 00:47:32.960
to bring this up, even if you have to do a new forgiveness

824
00:47:32.960 --> 00:47:37.040
sheet every day, until this stuff continues to process out

825
00:47:37.040 --> 00:47:39.240
that you would write a forgiveness prayer about that

826
00:47:39.240 --> 00:47:43.880
specific thing. And then also what's coming up in my spirit is

827
00:47:43.880 --> 00:47:45.480
forgiving yourself, Amy.

828
00:47:46.680 --> 00:47:47.240
Yeah.

829
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For partnering with the lie. And living that out. Because I do

830
00:47:54.320 --> 00:47:57.680
think that God can supernaturally cause us to shed

831
00:47:57.680 --> 00:48:02.440
weight, I do. But I also think we have to partner with him. And

832
00:48:02.440 --> 00:48:05.280
everything, everything I've ever gotten the most breakthrough in

833
00:48:05.280 --> 00:48:09.640
my life with the Lord has always been believing the truth, God

834
00:48:09.640 --> 00:48:12.360
doing something supernatural, but me also partnering and

835
00:48:12.360 --> 00:48:15.720
walking that thing out. And so I just don't imagine that this

836
00:48:15.720 --> 00:48:18.240
would be different for me or for anyone else. I think we have

837
00:48:18.240 --> 00:48:22.040
to walk these things out. So how can we shift what we're thinking

838
00:48:22.440 --> 00:48:24.720
and doing? Does that make sense?

839
00:48:25.160 --> 00:48:27.880
Yeah, no, everything that you're saying you're validating what

840
00:48:27.880 --> 00:48:30.960
God has already told me to do. I've done like five forgiveness

841
00:48:30.960 --> 00:48:34.160
sheets for my mom already. My mom is still living. We have

842
00:48:34.160 --> 00:48:38.800
talked about this as adults now. Things that come up and I told

843
00:48:38.800 --> 00:48:42.760
her to her face, I forgive you. I know you did the best that you

844
00:48:42.760 --> 00:48:47.200
could with me growing up. And there's still obviously some

845
00:48:47.200 --> 00:48:50.640
things that come up on the day to day, but I've done I'm going

846
00:48:50.640 --> 00:48:53.440
to do another one for this specific event. Because I

847
00:48:53.440 --> 00:48:56.440
remember I was a cheerleader. And so you're wearing skirts,

848
00:48:56.440 --> 00:49:00.560
you're you're doing the thing I was very, very athletic. So and

849
00:49:00.560 --> 00:49:04.720
I am still very athletic. And it's really hard. And also our

850
00:49:04.720 --> 00:49:08.080
family has, on my dad's side, they're very skinny. So it's

851
00:49:08.080 --> 00:49:12.720
like this really this battle between this obesity and then

852
00:49:12.760 --> 00:49:16.160
the the other side, which is a really big battle for our

853
00:49:16.160 --> 00:49:19.480
family. So the Lord wants to heal it, I believe it. And he

854
00:49:19.480 --> 00:49:21.800
did tell me, he's like, you don't need to do anything

855
00:49:21.800 --> 00:49:26.440
extreme, like shots or weight loss pills or whatever. Trust

856
00:49:26.440 --> 00:49:29.760
me. And you know, that's what I'm trying to do in this season.

857
00:49:30.200 --> 00:49:32.640
I love that. And one of the other things I almost forgot

858
00:49:32.640 --> 00:49:35.760
that came up when you were sharing is, and I feel like this

859
00:49:35.760 --> 00:49:39.560
is important, not just for you, but for everybody. So when your

860
00:49:39.560 --> 00:49:42.320
mom was saying those things, I want you to also understand that

861
00:49:42.320 --> 00:49:45.960
it was self hatred that she had towards herself, that she was

862
00:49:45.960 --> 00:49:51.640
projecting on to you. Because you struggling at some point,

863
00:49:51.640 --> 00:49:54.920
whatever point that was with your weight reminded her of her

864
00:49:54.920 --> 00:49:59.080
own struggles. I really believe that with all my heart. And so

865
00:49:59.080 --> 00:50:00.120
at some point, maybe

866
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.040
pray about God, even opening the door for y'all to talk about it again, because I think there's

867
00:50:05.040 --> 00:50:08.960
going to be more layers of freedom that are going to come to your family because of what you're

868
00:50:08.960 --> 00:50:13.360
experiencing, the freedom that you're about. I already feel like you're stepping into it,

869
00:50:13.360 --> 00:50:18.800
but I feel like you're going to have an accelerated phase of healing regarding your

870
00:50:18.800 --> 00:50:24.560
body image and how you see yourself and how you will understand that you will find your spirit

871
00:50:24.560 --> 00:50:29.280
mate and your spirit mate will love you. It doesn't mean, ladies, that I'm saying we should

872
00:50:29.280 --> 00:50:33.520
just be like, oh, men should just like how I am, no matter if I take care of my body or not.

873
00:50:33.520 --> 00:50:37.840
No, we don't partner with that ladies. Okay. Not that Amy does, but I'm just saying that because

874
00:50:37.840 --> 00:50:43.920
I got to bring balance here, but here's the reality. I know without a shadow of doubt

875
00:50:43.920 --> 00:50:49.840
that when you and your spirit mate find each other, he's going to see everything good about you.

876
00:50:51.440 --> 00:50:57.760
That's what he's going to see. Okay. And so let's partner with that, that nothing can keep you from

877
00:50:57.760 --> 00:51:04.160
your spirit mate. Nothing. Okay. I receive it. I receive it. Thank you so much. Amen. You're

878
00:51:04.160 --> 00:51:09.280
welcome. I'm so glad this is helpful. Y'all. I see y'all in the chat. I see you. I see you. God

879
00:51:09.280 --> 00:51:15.600
sees us. He sees every aspect of what we struggle with and he's bringing truth in life. Tiana, go

880
00:51:15.600 --> 00:51:28.240
ahead. Hey, so the real quick thing is I injured myself on Saturday rock climbing. I indoor and

881
00:51:28.240 --> 00:51:35.280
outdoor rock climb, but I was climbing indoors and I hurt my calf to the point that like I couldn't

882
00:51:35.280 --> 00:51:40.000
walk on Saturday. And so basically I've had to like rest the last three days, which has been

883
00:51:40.000 --> 00:51:46.160
very frustrating because I had things planned of what I wanted to do and accomplish. But that,

884
00:51:48.000 --> 00:51:53.440
but there have, has been like fear and things coming up because I was in a really bad

885
00:51:54.720 --> 00:51:58.000
motorcycle accident nine years ago that should have killed me.

886
00:51:59.360 --> 00:52:03.920
And so there's just a little bit of fear on the physical side of things coming up.

887
00:52:04.480 --> 00:52:11.680
But beyond that, even though I, I know enough cognitively about like physical rehab and all

888
00:52:11.680 --> 00:52:16.720
the things, there's something else that's coming up and it's probably because of starting to do

889
00:52:16.720 --> 00:52:24.320
this heartwork stuff. And why I say that is my friend and my climbing partner, we were had to

890
00:52:24.320 --> 00:52:33.120
run to the store yesterday to get something for this project. And so we stopped to get food and

891
00:52:33.120 --> 00:52:38.320
I can't, I honestly don't remember what he said in the Chipotle parking lot, but I started just

892
00:52:38.320 --> 00:52:42.960
laughing because it was funny. And then it just got to the point where you're laughing so hard,

893
00:52:42.960 --> 00:52:48.240
you can't breathe. And he was like, what is so like, why is this so funny? And I was like,

894
00:52:48.240 --> 00:52:52.400
I don't know. And then all of a sudden I started breaking down crying and he's like, okay, what

895
00:52:52.400 --> 00:52:56.080
just happened? Like, why are you? I'm like, I don't know why I'm crying. I don't know why I'm

896
00:52:56.080 --> 00:53:03.600
laughing. Like, I don't know, you know, kind of a thing. And so all I can think of is like,

897
00:53:03.600 --> 00:53:09.360
something's coming up. I don't have words yet to put to it, to identify the emotions and stuff,

898
00:53:09.360 --> 00:53:14.560
to then figure out where they're coming from. But like, obviously finally stuff is finally

899
00:53:15.120 --> 00:53:21.360
bubbling up to the surface, if you will. So, yeah, I love it. And you all, this is, this can happen

900
00:53:21.360 --> 00:53:28.240
just so you know, this is very common. Um, and you know, just allow it to come out. Don't feel

901
00:53:28.240 --> 00:53:33.360
like you, not that you did, but just for anybody else, like when that starts to happen, you can

902
00:53:33.360 --> 00:53:37.600
just let those people know, like, Hey, I don't really fully know, but I'm going through this

903
00:53:37.600 --> 00:53:42.080
heart healing process. So I think it just might be from that. And just, and they might ask you a

904
00:53:42.080 --> 00:53:46.080
little bit more about it. Don't, and just be confident in the fact that, yeah, I just feel

905
00:53:46.080 --> 00:53:50.400
led to invest in my healing and growth in this season. And, and don't feel like you have to

906
00:53:50.400 --> 00:53:55.040
over-explain to people, but I do think that this is a part of that. I want to ask you a question

907
00:53:55.040 --> 00:54:03.840
though, if you're willing to talk about the motorcycle accident. Sure. So what, what fears

908
00:54:03.840 --> 00:54:10.160
came up from hurting your leg that are connected to that? Can you help me like to the motorcycle

909
00:54:10.160 --> 00:54:18.080
accident? Sure. So, um, with that, the motorcycle accident, because of like how, um, okay, let me

910
00:54:18.080 --> 00:54:25.200
give a little context. Uh, the motorcycle accident, like it destroyed me like literally physically,

911
00:54:25.200 --> 00:54:31.760
um, as well as then emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. And so it's been a very long journey

912
00:54:31.760 --> 00:54:38.480
of rebuilding all of that, um, and rebuilding my life from it. Um, but specifically, um,

913
00:54:39.440 --> 00:54:47.200
I had a lot of, um, like nerve damage that I felt in my right leg. And so with how I've re injured,

914
00:54:47.760 --> 00:54:53.280
um, for anyone who's ever had nerve pain, you know, that sensation. And so this being injured

915
00:54:53.280 --> 00:54:59.840
has kind of like pulled on those nerve fibers so I can feel it again. And it's just this.

916
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.480
So it's more this worry of like internally where your body is going,

917
00:55:06.400 --> 00:55:11.280
hey, we don't like this. We don't want to go back to this. And so everything you do,

918
00:55:11.280 --> 00:55:17.600
your body is constantly like in this kind of perpetual state of like freaked outness, if you

919
00:55:17.600 --> 00:55:24.240
will. Yeah. But what lies surfaced? Can you tell me, can you identify the lies that surfaced for

920
00:55:24.240 --> 00:55:30.560
you? Like your body was definitely having a physical, you know, reaction and response to

921
00:55:30.560 --> 00:55:37.200
injuring, but what lies were surfacing for you? It's okay if not, but that's where I want you.

922
00:55:38.080 --> 00:55:44.560
Yeah. I guess if anything, I think the lie that surfaced is like, you're not really healed.

923
00:55:44.560 --> 00:55:51.040
And that's not just on a physical front, but just everything else that came with that accident of

924
00:55:51.440 --> 00:55:58.560
you're not really healed in all the different areas, as much as you think you have. And it's

925
00:55:58.560 --> 00:56:02.080
like, obviously I haven't, like I'm in the process of doing this heart healing, you know? So it's

926
00:56:02.080 --> 00:56:08.720
like, I know that there are still areas that haven't healed, but it's just this lie of like,

927
00:56:08.720 --> 00:56:12.880
you haven't really healed and then therefore, oh, you haven't made as much progress as you think you

928
00:56:12.880 --> 00:56:17.520
have. And so you're going to have to go back, you know, like you're really not as far on the

929
00:56:17.520 --> 00:56:23.360
journey as you think you are. So. Interestingly enough, even before you just said what you said,

930
00:56:23.360 --> 00:56:29.840
I wrote down, cause I heard setback, but I want you to know that's a lie from the enemy. He's

931
00:56:29.840 --> 00:56:35.680
tried and convinced you that this is a setback for you. I actually think it's a setup because

932
00:56:35.680 --> 00:56:41.440
one of the things that stood out to me, as you said, I had to rest. I had to,

933
00:56:41.840 --> 00:56:46.960
I don't think God caused that injury like at all, but I think that there are times, I don't know

934
00:56:46.960 --> 00:56:54.640
about you all, where when I'm sick and I actually have to rest, there's other things that happen

935
00:56:54.640 --> 00:57:00.400
spiritually. God is speaking things to me that I can't hear him say in the busyness.

936
00:57:01.760 --> 00:57:07.760
And so what I want to encourage you to do in this next week ahead, even as you take time to

937
00:57:08.080 --> 00:57:13.120
even as you take time to repair, repair that leg, you might have to rest,

938
00:57:13.120 --> 00:57:17.760
you know, I'm quoting that, but I want you to partner with, I get to rest.

939
00:57:20.320 --> 00:57:24.960
Because I think that in this season, because you're getting these opportunities to rest,

940
00:57:24.960 --> 00:57:30.160
even when that feeling of frustration or that tension rises up, look at that, like ask the

941
00:57:30.160 --> 00:57:35.280
Lord, okay, show me like, and sometimes that's just cause we're active people and we want to go

942
00:57:35.280 --> 00:57:40.560
whatever. But I also think that there's things under that, that we need to look at, you know,

943
00:57:40.560 --> 00:57:46.000
what is really going on underneath the surface there? What, what lies are coming up when we

944
00:57:46.000 --> 00:57:51.760
feel like we can't go? Do we feel like we're trapped? Do we feel, you know, like how you're

945
00:57:51.760 --> 00:57:56.480
saying, like, this is a setback. I'm not moving forward. Like what, when we look at that, there's

946
00:57:56.480 --> 00:58:01.840
so many layers to healing that can happen if we're willing to go there with the Lord. Yeah.

947
00:58:02.640 --> 00:58:08.240
Really, really powerful, Tiana. And we'll be praying for your healing and just believing God,

948
00:58:08.240 --> 00:58:13.840
his timing of complete wholeness. And that doesn't mean that you're not already healed.

949
00:58:13.840 --> 00:58:21.040
It just means that maybe there's more healing. Yeah. It's really good. Y'all we're all going to

950
00:58:21.040 --> 00:58:26.400
always be healing. If we really partner with that, you're not going to feel like, oh my gosh,

951
00:58:26.400 --> 00:58:32.400
am I ever going to be healed enough to meet my spirit mate? Yeah, you are. You are. You're going

952
00:58:32.400 --> 00:58:36.320
to be healed enough to meet someone great because you're becoming healthier, which means you can

953
00:58:36.320 --> 00:58:41.840
attract a healthier person. But man, you all can keep healing together. It's really awesome.

954
00:58:41.840 --> 00:58:47.280
So don't put yourself on the sidelines because you think like you can never be whole enough.

955
00:58:47.280 --> 00:58:51.840
But also the flip side of that, some of you don't give yourself enough time to heal.

956
00:58:51.920 --> 00:58:56.400
And you try to hurry, hurry, hurry into that relationship. And then there's all kinds of

957
00:58:56.400 --> 00:59:00.400
red flags and you're still blowing past those things. Hopefully while you're in heart work,

958
00:59:00.400 --> 00:59:04.000
you're taking a break from dating ladies. We encourage you to do that. If you didn't know

959
00:59:04.000 --> 00:59:08.880
that already. Now, if you came into this, you know, with someone you're already seriously dating,

960
00:59:08.880 --> 00:59:15.280
that is different. We're not asking you to break up with them, but we are asking you to create

961
00:59:15.280 --> 00:59:21.760
space for yourself so that you can heal. Because when we're so focused on a relationship and a

962
00:59:21.760 --> 00:59:25.520
person, guess what you all, we're not actually focusing on what we need to focus on in us.

963
00:59:26.080 --> 00:59:29.360
Okay. All right, Julia, go ahead. Hi.

964
00:59:32.640 --> 00:59:39.920
All right, here we go. Okay. Hello. Um, so I, uh, I did post and I saw that you responded,

965
00:59:39.920 --> 00:59:46.320
um, to my post. I haven't looked, I need to look at it again, but, um, what God, I believe has been

966
00:59:46.320 --> 00:59:54.880
showing me at the root, um, is a fear. And a lot of it is a fear of rejection. Um, and also like

967
00:59:55.680 --> 00:59:59.840
a lot of my fear stems from what are people going to think?

968
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.840
what's gonna happen if I stand up and be bold

969
01:00:03.840 --> 01:00:05.240
and say what I wanna say,

970
01:00:05.240 --> 01:00:09.880
like what is that other person gonna do in front of people

971
01:00:09.880 --> 01:00:12.200
to embarrass me or to, you know?

972
01:00:12.200 --> 01:00:15.120
So maybe it's a pride issue too, right?

973
01:00:15.120 --> 01:00:16.400
I don't know.

974
01:00:16.400 --> 01:00:17.320
I don't think so.

975
01:00:17.320 --> 01:00:19.560
I think that you went through so much

976
01:00:19.560 --> 01:00:21.400
from what you've told me about your journey

977
01:00:21.400 --> 01:00:26.400
that allowing yourself to thrive and shine,

978
01:00:27.200 --> 01:00:29.680
and the enemy is trying to convince you

979
01:00:29.680 --> 01:00:31.240
that you can't do that.

980
01:00:31.240 --> 01:00:32.360
And when you do do that,

981
01:00:32.360 --> 01:00:35.480
that there's gonna be people that will like rise up

982
01:00:35.480 --> 01:00:37.480
against you to keep you from it.

983
01:00:37.480 --> 01:00:41.240
And I just honestly, have you ever heard, excuse me,

984
01:00:41.240 --> 01:00:44.840
Brit Nicole's song called Gold?

985
01:00:44.840 --> 01:00:46.360
I think that's what it's called, something.

986
01:00:46.360 --> 01:00:47.400
Brit Nicole.

987
01:00:49.320 --> 01:00:50.760
I haven't thought of that song in a while.

988
01:00:50.760 --> 01:00:51.780
You gotta look that song up.

989
01:00:51.780 --> 01:00:55.000
I feel like that song is a prophetic word for you, Julia.

990
01:00:55.000 --> 01:00:58.280
I think that you, all of you are created to shine,

991
01:00:58.280 --> 01:01:00.440
but Julia, I think as you're moving forward,

992
01:01:00.440 --> 01:01:03.120
part of what you've experienced in that fear of rejection,

993
01:01:03.120 --> 01:01:05.640
the enemy, like, what are people gonna think about you?

994
01:01:05.640 --> 01:01:08.440
Well, what are the good things people

995
01:01:08.440 --> 01:01:10.120
are gonna think about you too?

996
01:01:10.120 --> 01:01:12.400
You know, but we spend a lot of time believing

997
01:01:12.400 --> 01:01:13.860
that people are gonna say bad stuff.

998
01:01:13.860 --> 01:01:16.480
Well, maybe, but I've also gone through that.

999
01:01:16.480 --> 01:01:17.960
Like, I can't tell you how many times

1000
01:01:17.960 --> 01:01:19.800
as I move forward to write my book,

1001
01:01:19.800 --> 01:01:22.320
how many times the enemy's like trying to convince me,

1002
01:01:22.320 --> 01:01:24.360
A, that I don't have anything valid to say,

1003
01:01:24.520 --> 01:01:26.320
and B, like, what are people gonna think

1004
01:01:26.320 --> 01:01:28.120
if you really tell your story?

1005
01:01:28.960 --> 01:01:31.520
Well, man, I think about how many people

1006
01:01:31.520 --> 01:01:34.520
God is using me to help in this community,

1007
01:01:34.520 --> 01:01:36.600
and I can help more people.

1008
01:01:36.600 --> 01:01:39.920
So let's partner with what are people gonna think

1009
01:01:39.920 --> 01:01:41.000
in a positive way?

1010
01:01:41.000 --> 01:01:43.120
Like, let's think about that.

1011
01:01:43.120 --> 01:01:44.080
And I know that's like,

1012
01:01:44.080 --> 01:01:45.880
sounds like such a small shift, ladies,

1013
01:01:45.880 --> 01:01:48.480
but if we will focus on, like,

1014
01:01:48.480 --> 01:01:49.800
the Lord's gonna cause people

1015
01:01:49.800 --> 01:01:52.040
to think good things about us.

1016
01:01:52.120 --> 01:01:55.040
Just like in Proverbs 18.22,

1017
01:01:55.040 --> 01:01:55.880
I think it says,

1018
01:01:55.880 --> 01:01:58.240
when a man finds a wife, he's found a good thing.

1019
01:02:00.160 --> 01:02:01.760
Do we believe that?

1020
01:02:01.760 --> 01:02:03.440
That when our spirit mate finds us,

1021
01:02:03.440 --> 01:02:07.100
he's gonna be like, whoa, man, she's good.

1022
01:02:08.680 --> 01:02:11.420
Because it can be possible, it is possible.

1023
01:02:13.200 --> 01:02:15.400
Yeah, so Julia, keep leaning into,

1024
01:02:15.400 --> 01:02:18.260
I wanna encourage you, like, that fear of rejection.

1025
01:02:18.260 --> 01:02:21.240
Let's ask the Lord, what else is partnering with that?

1026
01:02:21.240 --> 01:02:24.720
Because I think the fear of rejection is there for you.

1027
01:02:24.720 --> 01:02:27.360
I actually don't see you as a prideful person at all.

1028
01:02:27.360 --> 01:02:29.320
I mean, I know I don't know you in your everyday life,

1029
01:02:29.320 --> 01:02:30.200
but that, I don't know,

1030
01:02:30.200 --> 01:02:32.240
that just felt like a no for me for you.

1031
01:02:32.240 --> 01:02:35.480
And I think it's good to be open to look at that,

1032
01:02:35.480 --> 01:02:38.000
but I actually think maybe false humility

1033
01:02:38.000 --> 01:02:40.260
might be partnering with that fear of rejection,

1034
01:02:40.260 --> 01:02:43.520
which is the opposite of pride.

1035
01:02:43.520 --> 01:02:44.780
I mean, it kind of partners with it,

1036
01:02:44.780 --> 01:02:46.960
but false humility can cause us to think

1037
01:02:46.960 --> 01:02:48.100
that we're never humble enough,

1038
01:02:48.100 --> 01:02:50.520
and we have to just keep minimizing ourself,

1039
01:02:50.520 --> 01:02:51.840
minimizing ourself.

1040
01:02:51.840 --> 01:02:53.080
Does that make sense?

1041
01:02:53.080 --> 01:02:57.280
I think, yeah, I do see that in my pattern in my past,

1042
01:02:57.280 --> 01:03:00.120
just like, yeah, yeah.

1043
01:03:00.120 --> 01:03:02.160
Which I think is why the Lord led you

1044
01:03:02.160 --> 01:03:05.640
to write that song and sing it.

1045
01:03:05.640 --> 01:03:06.720
You were the one that did that, right?

1046
01:03:06.720 --> 01:03:08.400
Yeah, yeah. Yes, okay.

1047
01:03:08.400 --> 01:03:10.520
Yeah, God gave me those promises,

1048
01:03:10.520 --> 01:03:13.160
like, I won't sing it for you.

1049
01:03:13.160 --> 01:03:15.360
Yeah, your voice matters in this world,

1050
01:03:15.360 --> 01:03:18.960
and I feel like you're a force to be reckoned with,

1051
01:03:18.960 --> 01:03:20.520
and the enemy knows that.

1052
01:03:20.520 --> 01:03:22.600
And so he's trying to just hinder you a lot right now,

1053
01:03:22.600 --> 01:03:24.320
but you're moving forward,

1054
01:03:24.320 --> 01:03:27.200
and you're going to keep moving forward in Jesus' name.

1055
01:03:27.200 --> 01:03:28.040
Amen, yeah.

1056
01:03:28.040 --> 01:03:29.800
Amen, awesome.

1057
01:03:29.800 --> 01:03:31.760
Arianne, thanks for sharing, Julia.

1058
01:03:31.760 --> 01:03:32.780
Arianne, go ahead.

1059
01:03:39.160 --> 01:03:40.120
Hello?

1060
01:03:41.200 --> 01:03:42.080
Oh, you're muted.

1061
01:03:45.480 --> 01:03:46.320
There you go.

1062
01:03:47.200 --> 01:03:48.040
Yeah, thank you.

1063
01:03:49.800 --> 01:03:52.440
Okay, in the morning, I had a, by me, morning,

1064
01:03:52.440 --> 01:03:56.600
I had the sentence my mom used to say,

1065
01:03:56.600 --> 01:03:58.720
what you want is not possible.

1066
01:03:58.720 --> 01:04:03.520
And this could be for any daily, easy, you know,

1067
01:04:03.520 --> 01:04:07.440
I just took the example of taking five things

1068
01:04:07.440 --> 01:04:10.280
from upstairs, downstairs, and then, you know,

1069
01:04:10.280 --> 01:04:12.960
hassle with my hands full, or,

1070
01:04:12.960 --> 01:04:15.240
but it came up so often,

1071
01:04:15.240 --> 01:04:18.280
and I think I always tried to fight it,

1072
01:04:19.920 --> 01:04:20.760
I don't see me,

1073
01:04:22.560 --> 01:04:24.400
so I didn't agree with it,

1074
01:04:24.400 --> 01:04:26.880
but looking at the fruits in my life,

1075
01:04:26.880 --> 01:04:30.360
I see so many things that I didn't finish,

1076
01:04:32.520 --> 01:04:35.920
like schools, like, I don't have diplomas,

1077
01:04:35.920 --> 01:04:38.440
I don't have, whatever.

1078
01:04:38.440 --> 01:04:43.440
So, and then I felt frustrated, and kind of a self-hate,

1079
01:04:43.640 --> 01:04:48.640
so I could not do what people do expect it from me,

1080
01:04:49.040 --> 01:04:52.000
and then I don't keep up with the group,

1081
01:04:52.000 --> 01:04:55.200
I'm a slow eater, I'm latest with everything,

1082
01:04:55.200 --> 01:04:58.040
even in this course, but-

1083
01:04:58.040 --> 01:04:59.440
Well, I think that you're-

1084
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.360
You're doing a good job, though. And I think this is really

1085
01:05:02.360 --> 01:05:05.040
important, because even Kelly Mason, I was encouraging her

1086
01:05:05.040 --> 01:05:09.160
today, in the group, I want you all to understand everybody's

1087
01:05:09.160 --> 01:05:13.720
pace is different. Some of you all need more time in here. And

1088
01:05:13.720 --> 01:05:18.440
it's okay. It's okay. And you look at you, you're still

1089
01:05:18.440 --> 01:05:21.640
showing up, Arianne, you're showing up, you're healing,

1090
01:05:21.680 --> 01:05:26.880
you're growing. You are I have no choice. Well, you're still

1091
01:05:26.880 --> 01:05:31.280
moving forward. That's forward movement. You are. Okay, so

1092
01:05:31.280 --> 01:05:33.520
here's what I'm hearing in my spirit to this is for Arianne,

1093
01:05:33.520 --> 01:05:37.800
but this is for everyone. If any of you struggle, put in the chat

1094
01:05:37.800 --> 01:05:42.080
for me. Do you struggle with the lie that you're not a finisher?

1095
01:05:42.520 --> 01:05:45.840
Let's see how many people can relate to what she said here.

1096
01:05:48.720 --> 01:05:52.520
Look at this several sisters struggling with the same thing.

1097
01:05:53.520 --> 01:05:56.440
All right, I'm glad I felt this come up. So we're just gonna

1098
01:05:56.440 --> 01:06:02.960
we're gonna partner with I am a finisher. I am a finisher. So I

1099
01:06:02.960 --> 01:06:06.960
want you guys to start in the next few weeks. Literally, you

1100
01:06:06.960 --> 01:06:11.200
all I'm a big person. I'll write this stuff out, put it up. And

1101
01:06:11.200 --> 01:06:14.240
every day come out of agreement. Like you can even write this on

1102
01:06:14.240 --> 01:06:17.280
the card. I come out of agreement with the lie that I'm

1103
01:06:17.280 --> 01:06:21.960
not a finisher. And I Ariane come into agreement with the

1104
01:06:21.960 --> 01:06:27.520
truth that I am a finisher. I am an overcomer. I accomplish

1105
01:06:27.520 --> 01:06:30.640
things. I finish things no matter what's happened in the

1106
01:06:30.640 --> 01:06:35.360
past. That's over. That's over. We can't go back and change

1107
01:06:35.360 --> 01:06:39.720
that. But what can we change? Well, today, today, what what

1108
01:06:39.720 --> 01:06:43.440
can we do to take another step forward towards finishing?

1109
01:06:45.080 --> 01:06:48.160
Because I do think that, you know, like what you're saying,

1110
01:06:48.840 --> 01:06:51.160
having people tell you all the time that things aren't

1111
01:06:51.160 --> 01:06:54.120
possible, well, of course, we're gonna struggle to finish

1112
01:06:54.120 --> 01:06:57.280
something then. Because all we have in our minds is someone

1113
01:06:57.280 --> 01:07:00.160
else that's told us over and over and over. You can't do

1114
01:07:00.160 --> 01:07:05.280
that. It's not possible. You know, so go ahead. I wasn't

1115
01:07:05.280 --> 01:07:11.560
even aware of it anymore. Yeah, that's okay. So it's very deep.

1116
01:07:11.600 --> 01:07:16.040
Yeah. Okay, good. Yeah, you're doing great. And remember, I

1117
01:07:16.080 --> 01:07:20.960
are on am a finisher. Every day, I'm taking a step towards

1118
01:07:21.000 --> 01:07:24.760
finishing anything that you can say to partner with the good in

1119
01:07:24.760 --> 01:07:27.320
yourself. Remember, I said before, I think the enemy is

1120
01:07:27.320 --> 01:07:30.440
always trying to get you to look at what's not good in you. And I

1121
01:07:30.440 --> 01:07:33.440
want to encourage you what's good in you, what's good in you

1122
01:07:33.440 --> 01:07:36.960
for those of you when you're doing even this activation for

1123
01:07:36.960 --> 01:07:39.880
this week, when you're looking at the roots and the fruit, I'm

1124
01:07:39.880 --> 01:07:43.160
not asking you to only look at what's negative. I want you to

1125
01:07:43.160 --> 01:07:47.840
look at what is the positive to what positive roots do you have?

1126
01:07:48.640 --> 01:07:52.240
100% you have positive roots that are taking root, you are

1127
01:07:52.240 --> 01:07:55.040
growing stronger, whether you realize it right now or not,

1128
01:07:55.040 --> 01:07:58.440
Arianne, you are going to look back on where you came from.

1129
01:07:58.440 --> 01:08:01.680
When you first entered this as a reminder, ladies, I love to

1130
01:08:01.680 --> 01:08:06.080
remind, like, in the beginning, she wasn't comfortable going

1131
01:08:06.080 --> 01:08:08.280
into breakout sessions. She wasn't always comfortable

1132
01:08:08.280 --> 01:08:10.960
turning her camera on. Look at you look beautiful. That pink

1133
01:08:10.960 --> 01:08:14.120
looks great on you. You're here and you're showing up. I want

1134
01:08:14.120 --> 01:08:19.200
you all to celebrate yourselves. Where are you winning in your

1135
01:08:19.200 --> 01:08:22.479
life right now? Even if it's just today, where did I win in

1136
01:08:22.479 --> 01:08:25.200
one decision today? Maybe the whole day didn't go great. But

1137
01:08:25.200 --> 01:08:30.399
what's one thing I did well today. Start there. And the more

1138
01:08:30.399 --> 01:08:33.640
you celebrate yourself in this small wins, the more you're

1139
01:08:33.640 --> 01:08:37.439
going to start to see that like momentum, like, Oh, my gosh, I

1140
01:08:37.439 --> 01:08:41.000
did that. God did that through me. Like, yes, we don't do it by

1141
01:08:41.000 --> 01:08:46.319
ourselves. But we are more than conquerors through Christ Jesus.

1142
01:08:47.920 --> 01:08:52.520
You are more than a conqueror, my friend. You are. Thank you

1143
01:08:52.520 --> 01:08:55.760
all are. Yes. Thank you for sharing. I get excited when I

1144
01:08:55.760 --> 01:08:59.600
see people growing and healing all of you like it's really,

1145
01:08:59.600 --> 01:09:02.920
really amazing to watch. And I hope that you all take time

1146
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today. And in the days ahead to really look at your growth.

1147
01:09:05.640 --> 01:09:06.800
Leanne, go ahead.

1148
01:09:10.439 --> 01:09:15.399
Hi. I'm actually gonna read what I posted. If that's okay.

1149
01:09:15.640 --> 01:09:18.720
Are you able to come a little closer to your computer? Yes.

1150
01:09:21.040 --> 01:09:26.359
Is that better? A little bit? Yeah. Okay. Um, I just lost it.

1151
01:09:26.800 --> 01:09:29.680
Anyway, there's been kind of two things that God has been working

1152
01:09:29.680 --> 01:09:34.120
on with me. You talked about distractions earlier. And I think

1153
01:09:34.120 --> 01:09:39.520
sometimes, I was distracted by everything being an abandonment

1154
01:09:39.560 --> 01:09:43.800
issue. So when these memories were coming up again, I was

1155
01:09:43.800 --> 01:09:48.960
like, but I've dealt with those over the last five to 10 years.

1156
01:09:49.560 --> 01:09:52.920
And it wasn't until you had said little girl, Leanne needs to

1157
01:09:52.920 --> 01:09:58.800
come out to play. Yeah, that it started coming back to I shrink.

1158
01:09:58.840 --> 01:09:59.680
That's one of the

1159
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:10.400
root that has come out and also kind of coupled with poverty mentality. And it's been amazing

1160
01:10:10.400 --> 01:10:16.400
this week that everything I went to see the movie The Last Rodeo, if you haven't seen it,

1161
01:10:16.400 --> 01:10:24.800
go see it. It's great. But there were threads of that too, of the abundance mentality, and also

1162
01:10:24.880 --> 01:10:30.160
not shrinking, but coming out. So those are the type of things that I've been

1163
01:10:32.480 --> 01:10:40.160
looking at. And I am now realizing that trauma doesn't just cause one area

1164
01:10:41.440 --> 01:10:43.920
to be affected, but it can be layered.

1165
01:10:46.400 --> 01:10:51.440
Yeah, I want you to think about all of you, if you'll think about even the layers of tissue in

1166
01:10:51.440 --> 01:10:57.840
our body, and how like our skin is one of our biggest organs. And so everything we put on our

1167
01:10:57.840 --> 01:11:02.240
skin actually goes, it can go right into our bloodstream. And so I want you to kind of think

1168
01:11:02.240 --> 01:11:08.960
about trauma in a sense, in that way, same thing with healing. Like when we heal, it's working its

1169
01:11:08.960 --> 01:11:15.120
way down through the different layers of our skin, if you will. Okay. And so understand that if like,

1170
01:11:15.120 --> 01:11:19.520
okay, let's say the wound, I'm just going to use this as an example is down deep in the core.

1171
01:11:20.480 --> 01:11:25.520
Well, won't it take longer for that healing to trickle down into there?

1172
01:11:27.920 --> 01:11:33.200
So give yourself grace. And even if like, I understand what you're saying, like when you've

1173
01:11:33.200 --> 01:11:36.400
worked on something for years, and you're like, why am I still, you know, it's like that feeling,

1174
01:11:36.400 --> 01:11:41.760
why is this still coming up? Well, remember that healing happens in layers, forgiveness happens in

1175
01:11:41.760 --> 01:11:47.040
layers. Sometimes we have, we're in a new season. And so the Lord's like, okay, you're ready for the

1176
01:11:47.040 --> 01:11:52.080
next level of healing here, and revelation. So that's the one thing I want to say. And then also,

1177
01:11:53.920 --> 01:11:59.040
I don't remember who I said this to in the group today. But the examples coming up in my spirit,

1178
01:11:59.040 --> 01:12:04.080
again, but I want to encourage you all, if you struggle with a poverty mentality, you tend to

1179
01:12:04.080 --> 01:12:09.600
think that the basket's empty, that you always have to strive, you never have enough, you know,

1180
01:12:09.600 --> 01:12:13.920
that nothing's going to work out for you, everything's going to fall short, all that kind

1181
01:12:13.920 --> 01:12:21.200
of stuff. So I want you to be thinking about, hey, Brian, I don't know if he's right there,

1182
01:12:21.200 --> 01:12:24.480
I was gonna have him grab something for me real quick. I wanted to give you a visual example. But

1183
01:12:24.480 --> 01:12:32.000
if you think about a basket, that's empty, okay? I don't want you to look at how empty it is,

1184
01:12:32.000 --> 01:12:40.400
I want you to ask God to show you how he's gonna fill it. Because even a revelation shift like

1185
01:12:40.400 --> 01:12:46.720
that for some of you, like what is God saying about how he wants to fill your basket? And what

1186
01:12:46.720 --> 01:12:53.360
is that gonna feel like? What is that gonna look like? How is that going to impact every area of

1187
01:12:53.360 --> 01:12:59.200
your life as you start to receive his goodness into that basket? Guess what, y'all, you're the

1188
01:12:59.200 --> 01:13:06.400
basket. You're the basket. Our heart is that basket that can be filled with everything good

1189
01:13:06.480 --> 01:13:12.480
that he is. I feel the Holy Spirit on that. Just thinking on that just really can transform us.

1190
01:13:12.480 --> 01:13:20.320
And so if you struggle with like, man, everything's just empty, empty, empty, turns up empty. That is

1191
01:13:20.320 --> 01:13:25.360
that poverty, scarcity mentality. Now we can come out of that, but the healing on the inside

1192
01:13:25.920 --> 01:13:30.080
is what's gonna help us. But also hearing truth like this, where we can meditate on,

1193
01:13:30.800 --> 01:13:36.400
well, God, if something's empty, guess what? He's the best creator, filler of everything.

1194
01:13:36.960 --> 01:13:43.360
Like he took nothing and created all the beauty that we see in the world. He created that.

1195
01:13:44.400 --> 01:13:48.640
So can he not create and multiply what's in your basket?

1196
01:13:52.000 --> 01:13:57.120
Yeah. You know, I know that it can be hard when in the physical realm,

1197
01:13:57.120 --> 01:14:03.200
we're experiencing what we consider lack or frustration. Like I think Amy is the one that's

1198
01:14:03.200 --> 01:14:07.920
been interviewing and stuff. You know, when we're up against something that doesn't seem like it's

1199
01:14:07.920 --> 01:14:15.360
manifesting, but y'all yet, yet, maybe it's not manifested yet, but that doesn't mean it's not

1200
01:14:15.360 --> 01:14:21.200
going to. But if we partner with, oh, this is just hard. It's never going to work. I'm never going

1201
01:14:21.200 --> 01:14:26.880
to find, well, maybe God is using the current situation to heal you and shift you to prepare

1202
01:14:26.880 --> 01:14:31.120
you to go into something different that you wouldn't have even, even thought of or considered

1203
01:14:31.840 --> 01:14:36.640
before you healed. He's good. He's good. You all,

1204
01:14:39.600 --> 01:14:46.320
he says that in Psalm 23, that he will, you know, lead us beside those still waters

1205
01:14:47.280 --> 01:14:53.520
that he's going to help us to rest in fields that are like full of life, you all. And back then,

1206
01:14:53.520 --> 01:14:57.200
you know, there would be like a lot of desert and these be these little bushels of grass.

1207
01:14:59.200 --> 01:14:59.680
It's not like,

1208
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:02.240
Like in Ireland, I don't know about you all,

1209
01:15:02.240 --> 01:15:03.520
but every time I think of Ireland,

1210
01:15:03.520 --> 01:15:07.320
I just think of these big luscious green landscapes, right?

1211
01:15:07.320 --> 01:15:09.480
Well, back in the day that the Bible was written

1212
01:15:09.480 --> 01:15:11.480
and that that scripture was recorded,

1213
01:15:11.480 --> 01:15:14.200
it was a desert and there were just little tufts

1214
01:15:14.200 --> 01:15:15.560
of grass here and there.

1215
01:15:16.780 --> 01:15:17.740
Think about that.

1216
01:15:18.640 --> 01:15:20.520
Well, we can see the desert,

1217
01:15:20.520 --> 01:15:23.160
or we can see the tuft of grass that's provided for us,

1218
01:15:23.160 --> 01:15:26.440
for us to lay down in and rest.

1219
01:15:27.440 --> 01:15:29.080
God is good.

1220
01:15:29.080 --> 01:15:31.040
God is good, you all.

1221
01:15:31.040 --> 01:15:32.620
He really, really is.

1222
01:15:32.620 --> 01:15:34.720
And I'm praying for more transformation for you all.

1223
01:15:34.720 --> 01:15:39.720
Thank you for sharing Leanne on that one.

1224
01:15:39.720 --> 01:15:41.320
Sorry, I had to think about who shared last.

1225
01:15:41.320 --> 01:15:42.880
Erin, hi.

1226
01:15:42.880 --> 01:15:44.440
Hi.

1227
01:15:44.440 --> 01:15:46.560
This is my first time sharing live.

1228
01:15:46.560 --> 01:15:47.400
Welcome.

1229
01:15:47.400 --> 01:15:48.220
Thank you.

1230
01:15:48.220 --> 01:15:53.220
So the negative root that came up for me was unworthiness.

1231
01:15:53.860 --> 01:15:58.860
And particularly, most recently, even today around rest

1232
01:15:59.220 --> 01:16:03.380
and being unworthy of rest and having to be doing

1233
01:16:03.380 --> 01:16:06.980
to have that worth.

1234
01:16:09.380 --> 01:16:11.940
So what you said about rest being more fair,

1235
01:16:11.940 --> 01:16:14.740
that was definitely resonating.

1236
01:16:14.740 --> 01:16:19.460
And I resonated with parts of what Tiana was saying as well,

1237
01:16:19.460 --> 01:16:23.940
even to the point where I've had a neck injury in October

1238
01:16:23.940 --> 01:16:25.860
that has taken me the better part

1239
01:16:25.860 --> 01:16:29.500
of six months plus a little bit to get over

1240
01:16:29.500 --> 01:16:33.420
and the struggle in having to rest through that.

1241
01:16:34.740 --> 01:16:36.660
Thank you for sharing that question for you

1242
01:16:36.660 --> 01:16:40.000
on the doing to have more worth.

1243
01:16:40.000 --> 01:16:42.460
Okay, so was there anyone in your life

1244
01:16:42.460 --> 01:16:45.860
that you felt like you had to always be doing something

1245
01:16:45.860 --> 01:16:48.220
to get their approval, their love?

1246
01:16:49.660 --> 01:16:51.260
I've thought about this question a lot

1247
01:16:51.260 --> 01:16:53.820
and I've always been, I think,

1248
01:16:53.820 --> 01:16:56.100
maybe a naturally driven person.

1249
01:16:57.180 --> 01:17:02.180
But in my home, I grew up with a very industrious mother

1250
01:17:02.420 --> 01:17:04.420
and she did not rest.

1251
01:17:04.420 --> 01:17:07.540
I think she just has like naturally a lot of energy.

1252
01:17:07.540 --> 01:17:10.740
I've always said that she can work circles around me,

1253
01:17:10.740 --> 01:17:12.900
her being 20 years older than me.

1254
01:17:12.900 --> 01:17:14.420
So she was also a young mom.

1255
01:17:15.700 --> 01:17:18.380
So I think it was, you know,

1256
01:17:18.380 --> 01:17:21.580
there wasn't a lot of rest built into our rhythms.

1257
01:17:24.060 --> 01:17:25.420
And this isn't judging your mom,

1258
01:17:25.420 --> 01:17:28.180
just so that we can unpack this a little more.

1259
01:17:28.180 --> 01:17:32.300
Would you say that your mom got her identity from her work?

1260
01:17:35.100 --> 01:17:38.700
I think she didn't work when we were young

1261
01:17:38.700 --> 01:17:39.660
outside of the home.

1262
01:17:39.660 --> 01:17:42.460
So, but yeah, home was extremely important to her

1263
01:17:42.460 --> 01:17:47.420
because she had a very like mobile childhood.

1264
01:17:49.380 --> 01:17:50.860
So yeah, I think that the homework

1265
01:17:50.860 --> 01:17:53.060
was extremely important to her.

1266
01:17:53.060 --> 01:17:55.300
So do you feel like you get your identity

1267
01:17:55.300 --> 01:17:56.660
from the work that you do?

1268
01:17:58.260 --> 01:17:59.860
A lot, yeah.

1269
01:17:59.860 --> 01:18:03.060
So tell me who you are, Amy, or Erin, excuse me.

1270
01:18:03.060 --> 01:18:03.900
Tell me who you are.

1271
01:18:03.900 --> 01:18:07.620
Are you like, what comes to mind for you right away?

1272
01:18:07.620 --> 01:18:08.580
Who are you?

1273
01:18:08.580 --> 01:18:11.180
Child of God, daughter of the king.

1274
01:18:14.460 --> 01:18:16.020
Anything else come to mind?

1275
01:18:17.020 --> 01:18:19.060
Just, you know, the word worthy.

1276
01:18:21.820 --> 01:18:26.100
So when you don't work, then what comes to mind?

1277
01:18:26.100 --> 01:18:27.580
Unworthy and what else?

1278
01:18:32.020 --> 01:18:36.420
Just, I guess I just feel like I'm getting behind

1279
01:18:36.420 --> 01:18:37.460
when I don't work.

1280
01:18:39.460 --> 01:18:40.300
Okay.

1281
01:18:41.940 --> 01:18:43.140
I just want to encourage you,

1282
01:18:43.140 --> 01:18:45.620
like it doesn't mean that you had a negative experience

1283
01:18:45.980 --> 01:18:49.020
but if your mom didn't know how to rest,

1284
01:18:49.020 --> 01:18:51.940
that could be an inherited like pattern.

1285
01:18:51.940 --> 01:18:55.020
And so when I encourage you to ask the Lord

1286
01:18:55.020 --> 01:18:58.980
to show you what his vision of you is when you're resting.

1287
01:19:00.300 --> 01:19:01.140
Thank you.

1288
01:19:01.140 --> 01:19:03.100
Because I think, yeah, I think you need just a shift

1289
01:19:03.100 --> 01:19:07.940
regarding not just like, okay,

1290
01:19:07.940 --> 01:19:10.780
I love that you thought of child of God, daughter of the king

1291
01:19:10.780 --> 01:19:13.020
that you are worthy as your identity.

1292
01:19:13.020 --> 01:19:15.100
But there's a part of me that feels like

1293
01:19:15.580 --> 01:19:17.180
if you're really hearing unworthy,

1294
01:19:17.180 --> 01:19:19.100
you're unworthy of rest, you're unworthy.

1295
01:19:19.100 --> 01:19:22.540
That to me links back to core identity struggle

1296
01:19:22.540 --> 01:19:26.340
that you feel validated by your work.

1297
01:19:26.340 --> 01:19:27.380
Does that make sense?

1298
01:19:27.380 --> 01:19:28.220
Oh, yeah.

1299
01:19:28.220 --> 01:19:29.980
And we want you to get to the place that,

1300
01:19:29.980 --> 01:19:32.220
and I'm not saying I wouldn't struggle with the same thing.

1301
01:19:32.220 --> 01:19:33.740
I love to do stuff, y'all.

1302
01:19:33.740 --> 01:19:35.100
I love to be busy.

1303
01:19:35.100 --> 01:19:36.460
But what I've had to learn

1304
01:19:36.460 --> 01:19:39.380
is my identity is not hardware coach.

1305
01:19:39.380 --> 01:19:41.300
My identity is not leader.

1306
01:19:41.300 --> 01:19:44.180
My identity isn't wife.

1307
01:19:44.220 --> 01:19:45.940
My identity is daughter.

1308
01:19:45.940 --> 01:19:46.860
It is loved.

1309
01:19:46.860 --> 01:19:47.980
It is chosen.

1310
01:19:47.980 --> 01:19:51.300
It is, you know, peace.

1311
01:19:51.300 --> 01:19:52.900
It is, you know, joy.

1312
01:19:52.900 --> 01:19:55.740
Like my identity is in Christ.

1313
01:19:55.740 --> 01:19:59.460
Nothing that I do is what is my identity.

1314
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:05.200
isn't divorced. You know, let's look at the flip side of this. My identity isn't, you

1315
01:20:05.200 --> 01:20:10.480
know, for some people that have lost a child, isn't, you know, motherless or people that

1316
01:20:10.480 --> 01:20:15.200
are struggling to like, you want a baby, you know, we put our identity in these things,

1317
01:20:15.200 --> 01:20:20.380
parent, you know, and I'm not saying those aren't a part of who we are, but that isn't

1318
01:20:20.380 --> 01:20:27.320
our identity. And so some people get into relationship and they get so wrapped up in

1319
01:20:27.320 --> 01:20:31.480
the other person and they, they lose themselves completely because they didn't know their

1320
01:20:31.480 --> 01:20:37.400
identity before they went into relationship. Does that make sense? And so the more that

1321
01:20:37.400 --> 01:20:44.840
you get rooted in, who are you even when you're resting and let not just yourself inform that,

1322
01:20:44.840 --> 01:20:48.800
not just, and again, this is good, not just truth that you know, because you've heard

1323
01:20:48.800 --> 01:20:53.480
it for years in a Christian environment, but like, what is God want to show you? What does

1324
01:20:53.480 --> 01:20:58.600
Jesus want to show you about his vision of you when you're resting? And let's just see

1325
01:20:58.600 --> 01:21:03.800
what he brings up for you. I think it's going to be really good. Thank you. You're welcome.

1326
01:21:03.800 --> 01:21:14.920
Thanks for sharing Alina. Go ahead. Hi. Hi. Oh my gosh. I'm nervous. I'm going to say

1327
01:21:14.920 --> 01:21:27.160
no. Okay. I think I was writing down lies like in the last season just where I was kind

1328
01:21:27.160 --> 01:21:32.720
of felt out of place and was feeling small and insignificant and not seen and not good

1329
01:21:32.720 --> 01:21:36.960
enough. And like, I don't matter. And like, so I was feeling stuck. Like I can't get out

1330
01:21:36.960 --> 01:21:45.920
of stock. I can't do anything. And I'm not good enough. Like if somebody, if a guy tried

1331
01:21:45.920 --> 01:21:50.960
like being into me, I'd be like, well, why is he into me? Like, it would be like this

1332
01:21:52.320 --> 01:21:59.840
arguing in my head. Like, I'm no good. And like, I like, you know, it's like, I'm, I'm no good.

1333
01:21:59.840 --> 01:22:05.200
Why, why, why are you into me right now? I'm not in a good place. I am not accomplishing anything.

1334
01:22:05.200 --> 01:22:11.520
And I was just stuck and I need to get to a better place before you can like me. And just

1335
01:22:11.520 --> 01:22:19.040
because I wasn't around some people that I just felt really invisible around my sister. It was

1336
01:22:19.040 --> 01:22:24.640
just not my season to be there. And I was just kind of financially stuck there for a little bit

1337
01:22:24.640 --> 01:22:37.360
longer than I should have. We're sisters, but yeah. And so just be trying to come out of that

1338
01:22:39.360 --> 01:22:45.840
and realize that negative talk in my head and been trying to address it and be intentional.

1339
01:22:45.840 --> 01:22:50.960
And today before the call, I think I was feeling it in the spirit where you guys were praying

1340
01:22:50.960 --> 01:22:55.680
because I was like feeling like that was being pinpointed. Like God was trying to

1341
01:22:55.680 --> 01:22:59.760
challenge those lies. Like maybe I'm not stuck. Maybe I can do something.

1342
01:23:01.760 --> 01:23:07.200
And so every day we can all do one thing. Can everyone agree? We can every day just do one

1343
01:23:07.200 --> 01:23:12.160
thing. And if we'll, some of y'all are going to be able to do five, but let's just partner with,

1344
01:23:12.160 --> 01:23:17.840
okay, Lord, what's one thing I can do today to move my life forward in this healing journey.

1345
01:23:18.800 --> 01:23:24.960
And if you'll give yourself permission, even Alina just now, like he is the one that heals us,

1346
01:23:24.960 --> 01:23:30.800
redeems us, restores us, rebuilds us, renews us all of these things. Yes. You showed up for this

1347
01:23:30.800 --> 01:23:35.840
class, Amy. Yes, you guys did. Like you made the best investment. Look at what you've done today.

1348
01:23:35.840 --> 01:23:42.880
This is awesome. And so Alina, the more that you do, like, I love that you said to be intentional

1349
01:23:42.880 --> 01:23:48.080
that you're coming out of the negative talk. You're addressing these things. I've seen that

1350
01:23:48.080 --> 01:23:52.560
in you and you are continuing to show up and it's going to make an impact. You all, the more that

1351
01:23:52.560 --> 01:23:58.000
you keep showing up for yourself, catching those thoughts, taking them captive. Remember, we're

1352
01:23:58.000 --> 01:24:02.880
asking God, God, is this your thought? Is this my thought? Or is this a thought from the enemy?

1353
01:24:03.520 --> 01:24:08.560
You're discerning and growing in your discernment more and more every day, hopefully. And the more

1354
01:24:08.560 --> 01:24:13.520
that you read the word of God and hear it, you meditate on it. You're going to learn his voice

1355
01:24:13.520 --> 01:24:18.240
more and more and more. And that's going to help you step further into your identity in Christ,

1356
01:24:18.240 --> 01:24:22.080
because the more you know his voice, the more he's going to invite you into the good stuff.

1357
01:24:22.640 --> 01:24:27.840
He's always inviting us there, but we don't always hear the invitation. Do y'all understand that?

1358
01:24:29.680 --> 01:24:33.360
So I want to go ahead, Alina, thank you for sharing. It's going to weave really quick.

1359
01:24:33.360 --> 01:24:37.440
I want to share, we don't have time for another breakout, but I want to share the content on the

1360
01:24:37.440 --> 01:24:44.400
inner vows very quickly. So what are inner vows? Inner vows are a determination set in our minds

1361
01:24:44.400 --> 01:24:53.120
and hearts to protect us from pain. Okay, what does that mean? Well, it's when we say inside

1362
01:24:53.120 --> 01:24:58.720
of ourselves, when we go through hurt or pain, we make an agreement with ourselves to protect

1363
01:24:58.720 --> 01:24:59.760
ourselves from something.

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01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:05.840
I'm going to give you some examples. I'll never be able to make anyone happy. I'll never date or

1365
01:25:05.840 --> 01:25:11.600
marry a Larry or John, fill in the blank with the name, or someone of a certain ethnicity,

1366
01:25:11.600 --> 01:25:16.720
or a certain type of jobs. I have a lot of people where they were pastor's kids, or they were kids

1367
01:25:16.720 --> 01:25:21.200
that grew up with their parents in ministry, and so they've just, I'm never going to date or marry

1368
01:25:21.200 --> 01:25:26.400
someone in ministry. Or maybe their dad or someone they were married to in the past were in the

1369
01:25:26.400 --> 01:25:31.600
police force or in the army, and so they've partnered with this inner vow, like I'm never

1370
01:25:31.600 --> 01:25:37.040
going to date anybody like that again. I'm never going to trust anyone ever again. I'm never going

1371
01:25:37.040 --> 01:25:42.320
to let my guard down again. I'll never be like my mother or father. I'll never let anyone hurt

1372
01:25:42.320 --> 01:25:48.000
me again. These are all inner vows that we can make subconsciously when we go through pain or

1373
01:25:48.000 --> 01:25:54.480
trauma or any kind of just rough situations. Also, when we hear things and grow up under

1374
01:25:55.200 --> 01:26:01.360
generational, like that land of, you know, unhealthy, let's call it that versus the land

1375
01:26:01.360 --> 01:26:07.600
of blessing. Always or never statements are also cues for you all. I want you to be paying

1376
01:26:07.600 --> 01:26:14.000
attention. Do you say they're always like this, or I always do that, or this is never going to happen

1377
01:26:14.000 --> 01:26:18.320
for me? I'm going to give you some examples. They, I just said one, they always do that.

1378
01:26:19.040 --> 01:26:26.320
I always get passed over. Men never come through for me. Men never pick heavier women. They only

1379
01:26:26.320 --> 01:26:32.400
pick really skinny women. You know, here's another one. I'm never seen or noticed.

1380
01:26:33.520 --> 01:26:39.040
I want to tell you a quick story with this. Two women that have gone through the heart work

1381
01:26:39.040 --> 01:26:42.800
almost two years ago, both of them came into the program around the same time,

1382
01:26:42.800 --> 01:26:47.680
totally in different places in their hearts. Y'all, it's possible that you can continue to heal,

1383
01:26:47.680 --> 01:26:52.320
but you still may have a lot to come out of. The reason I'm bringing these two up is they went to

1384
01:26:52.320 --> 01:26:58.480
an event together and the one lady is just in a season of receiving. There's just a lot happening

1385
01:26:58.480 --> 01:27:02.640
for her. It's, and there's a lot happening for the other woman too, but she doesn't see it.

1386
01:27:02.640 --> 01:27:06.480
It is happening, but what's going on is this other one, they went to this event

1387
01:27:07.120 --> 01:27:16.720
and lady number one, won a flower bouquet that night. Lady number two, the whole way home,

1388
01:27:17.760 --> 01:27:22.560
basically was like, you keep having things happen for you. Why couldn't that happen for me? And just

1389
01:27:22.560 --> 01:27:31.120
really harped on being upset because lady number one won the flower bouquet and how it's not fair

1390
01:27:31.120 --> 01:27:38.320
and God never blesses her. Well, y'all, guess what? Partnering with that kind of stuff,

1391
01:27:38.320 --> 01:27:42.000
you're actually stopping the flow of the blessing. Do y'all understand that?

1392
01:27:42.400 --> 01:27:44.480
It's really important for you to catch this today.

1393
01:27:46.880 --> 01:27:52.480
It might be hard to see someone else get blessed, but when they get blessed, why is it hard for us?

1394
01:27:54.640 --> 01:27:59.600
What lie are we believing and what tapes are playing in our minds and our hearts

1395
01:27:59.600 --> 01:28:06.080
that cause us to not be happy for someone else, but instead be jealous and bitter and resentful?

1396
01:28:06.080 --> 01:28:10.320
I love both of those women, but that, that broke my heart for lady number one,

1397
01:28:11.280 --> 01:28:17.360
because she was like excited because this is a woman that went through years of watching her

1398
01:28:17.360 --> 01:28:26.400
husband die and pain caregiving for him. Don't you think she deserves a little bit of that too?

1399
01:28:26.960 --> 01:28:32.640
They both do. But man, like let's celebrate people. Let's celebrate their wins.

1400
01:28:33.200 --> 01:28:37.440
And guess what? What we choose to do for someone else, God will do for us.

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01:28:38.320 --> 01:28:43.200
Here's my other story. I used to say things similar years ago, man, I never win anything.

1402
01:28:43.200 --> 01:28:47.840
I always go to stuff and everybody like, how does that happen, Lord? And I remember

1403
01:28:48.800 --> 01:28:53.520
when the shifts were happening in me, I was in this course and God was healing stuff in me.

1404
01:28:53.520 --> 01:28:58.320
I remember the first thing I went to and I won same kind of thing, different events,

1405
01:28:58.320 --> 01:29:04.240
but I was at a work event and I won this bouquet and I was like, whoa, I never win anything.

1406
01:29:04.560 --> 01:29:09.840
Like, oh my gosh, I just won this bouquet. It was such a big deal. But do you know what

1407
01:29:09.840 --> 01:29:15.680
happened after that? Y'all, I started entering a season of this blessing starting to happen

1408
01:29:15.680 --> 01:29:19.840
where I started getting blessings showing up. It wasn't always that I won something,

1409
01:29:19.840 --> 01:29:23.440
but like just randomly these blessings would start showing up. Well, guess what?

1410
01:29:23.440 --> 01:29:33.600
It's because I started to partner with the story. Hey man, I win. I win. I win stuff.

1411
01:29:34.000 --> 01:29:38.560
I get stuff. God's blessed in my life. I'm receiving. The door's always open for me.

1412
01:29:38.560 --> 01:29:42.160
My dad's a good dad. And it's not always about like, I'm not saying you all,

1413
01:29:42.160 --> 01:29:45.360
it's always about getting something. But y'all, even in my heart,

1414
01:29:46.080 --> 01:29:50.160
stuff that I had been asking for, I started experiencing these supernatural shifts

1415
01:29:50.160 --> 01:29:54.240
and things and dots were being connected and breakthroughs were happening. And y'all,

1416
01:29:54.240 --> 01:29:57.920
ripple effects were coming behind me. And I was seeing the glory of God

1417
01:29:57.920 --> 01:29:59.840
being manifested in me and through me.

1418
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:03.800
And just everything else started changing.

1419
01:30:03.800 --> 01:30:05.840
I started seeing colors differently.

1420
01:30:05.840 --> 01:30:07.280
And I started like, whoa,

1421
01:30:07.280 --> 01:30:09.320
the birds sound so much more beautiful.

1422
01:30:09.320 --> 01:30:12.020
And do you see where I'm going with this?

1423
01:30:13.200 --> 01:30:15.880
Lady number two can't hear the birds singing

1424
01:30:15.880 --> 01:30:18.080
as beautifully as lady number one right now

1425
01:30:18.080 --> 01:30:20.420
because of what her heart is postured in.

1426
01:30:22.500 --> 01:30:25.200
And I understand she's been through a lot of hard stuff,

1427
01:30:25.200 --> 01:30:27.040
but I'm gonna tell you what,

1428
01:30:27.120 --> 01:30:30.120
religion is a part of that.

1429
01:30:30.120 --> 01:30:33.680
A religious spirit is underlying in there as well.

1430
01:30:33.680 --> 01:30:35.280
So for those of you that are like,

1431
01:30:35.280 --> 01:30:37.320
well, how do I know if I have a religious spirit

1432
01:30:37.320 --> 01:30:41.540
that I'm, well, if you're always walking in jealousy,

1433
01:30:41.540 --> 01:30:43.680
or you're like always seeing some kind

1434
01:30:43.680 --> 01:30:45.480
of religious tone coming out,

1435
01:30:45.480 --> 01:30:47.760
like even, you know, maybe you interact with a guy

1436
01:30:47.760 --> 01:30:49.280
and he's just not spiritual enough

1437
01:30:49.280 --> 01:30:50.920
because he doesn't do what you do

1438
01:30:50.920 --> 01:30:52.540
and you're super spiritual.

1439
01:30:53.480 --> 01:30:55.120
Y'all, we got to get out of that stuff.

1440
01:30:55.120 --> 01:30:58.660
Men experience God differently than we do.

1441
01:30:59.760 --> 01:31:02.320
Trust me, I'm married,

1442
01:31:02.320 --> 01:31:05.280
and he definitely experiences God differently than I do.

1443
01:31:05.280 --> 01:31:08.540
He really like worships the Lord in his own way,

1444
01:31:08.540 --> 01:31:10.040
spends time with God in his own way.

1445
01:31:10.040 --> 01:31:12.360
He's a pastor, he's preparing messages.

1446
01:31:12.360 --> 01:31:13.360
Now that's different

1447
01:31:13.360 --> 01:31:16.240
than what might be somebody else's experience.

1448
01:31:16.240 --> 01:31:18.120
Some men go out in nature

1449
01:31:18.120 --> 01:31:21.080
and that's where they feel and experience God.

1450
01:31:21.080 --> 01:31:25.280
So why should we be so critical and judgmental of that?

1451
01:31:26.380 --> 01:31:27.960
Because they're not sitting down,

1452
01:31:27.960 --> 01:31:30.800
doing a devotional and journaling like we do maybe?

1453
01:31:31.960 --> 01:31:33.160
Well, we're not God.

1454
01:31:34.040 --> 01:31:36.360
And maybe God is looking on their heart

1455
01:31:36.360 --> 01:31:38.660
and actually thinking that's the better thing.

1456
01:31:41.280 --> 01:31:44.440
Mary and Martha both were loved by the Lord,

1457
01:31:44.440 --> 01:31:45.640
but guess what?

1458
01:31:45.640 --> 01:31:47.880
Mary chose to do the better thing.

1459
01:31:48.880 --> 01:31:49.920
And this isn't again,

1460
01:31:49.920 --> 01:31:52.960
I'm not trying to criticize someone who's busy doing work.

1461
01:31:52.960 --> 01:31:54.620
I tend to be busy too.

1462
01:31:54.620 --> 01:31:57.840
But I am saying that when we shift out

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01:31:57.840 --> 01:32:00.420
of judgmental heart postures and attitudes,

1464
01:32:00.420 --> 01:32:02.080
it can change a lot of stuff.

1465
01:32:02.080 --> 01:32:03.100
All right, I'm going to show something

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01:32:03.100 --> 01:32:04.200
on the screen real quick.

1467
01:32:04.200 --> 01:32:06.120
And I know that was a very quick blow through

1468
01:32:06.120 --> 01:32:07.280
of inner vows.

1469
01:32:07.280 --> 01:32:09.840
We can talk about it a little bit more next week.

1470
01:32:09.840 --> 01:32:11.240
If you have questions about it,

1471
01:32:11.240 --> 01:32:13.080
I encourage you to come into the group,

1472
01:32:13.080 --> 01:32:16.080
ask your questions, you know, anything.

1473
01:32:16.080 --> 01:32:18.080
There's never a dumb question, you all.

1474
01:32:18.160 --> 01:32:20.200
Here's your activation for this week.

1475
01:32:20.200 --> 01:32:22.400
Roots versus fruits, okay?

1476
01:32:22.400 --> 01:32:24.120
And I'm going to show you a couple different trees.

1477
01:32:24.120 --> 01:32:28.320
Again, this isn't about your artistic capability, okay?

1478
01:32:28.320 --> 01:32:30.560
This is just about getting out of you.

1479
01:32:30.560 --> 01:32:34.080
What's getting out of you onto paper, what's going on

1480
01:32:34.080 --> 01:32:36.720
so that you can start to really resonate and look at,

1481
01:32:36.720 --> 01:32:38.080
okay, where are you?

1482
01:32:38.080 --> 01:32:40.500
Where do you need God to continue to come in and heal?

1483
01:32:40.500 --> 01:32:42.280
But where are you also doing well?

1484
01:32:42.280 --> 01:32:44.000
Here's the first one.

1485
01:32:44.000 --> 01:32:46.180
You can kind of see her roots down there.

1486
01:32:46.180 --> 01:32:48.980
She's got, you know, good ones, healthy ones,

1487
01:32:48.980 --> 01:32:51.020
and unhealthy, all kind of mixed together.

1488
01:32:51.020 --> 01:32:54.140
And then she's got a tree that she drew.

1489
01:32:54.140 --> 01:32:55.260
Here's another one.

1490
01:32:55.260 --> 01:32:56.700
This one's a little more detailed.

1491
01:32:56.700 --> 01:32:59.060
She's got lies listed down here.

1492
01:33:00.140 --> 01:33:02.220
I don't know if y'all can see that very well.

1493
01:33:02.220 --> 01:33:03.580
That might be a little better.

1494
01:33:03.580 --> 01:33:05.260
Continual learning, growth mindset.

1495
01:33:05.260 --> 01:33:06.500
She's got relationship with Christ.

1496
01:33:06.500 --> 01:33:08.600
She's got things on the roots of the trees,

1497
01:33:08.600 --> 01:33:11.000
but then these lies are identified.

1498
01:33:11.000 --> 01:33:13.460
So if you feel led to identify the lies

1499
01:33:13.460 --> 01:33:15.940
that are connected to your roots, that's really awesome.

1500
01:33:16.700 --> 01:33:18.740
If you do this at all, that's a win.

1501
01:33:18.740 --> 01:33:19.580
Here's another one.

1502
01:33:19.580 --> 01:33:23.660
This lady felt really led to, she's a teacher, you all.

1503
01:33:23.660 --> 01:33:24.960
So I don't know if you see teacher in this,

1504
01:33:24.960 --> 01:33:26.140
but she is a teacher.

1505
01:33:26.140 --> 01:33:28.180
And so sometimes people are gonna feel led.

1506
01:33:28.180 --> 01:33:31.540
This is about you asking God what you should do

1507
01:33:31.540 --> 01:33:33.340
and do that, okay?

1508
01:33:33.340 --> 01:33:34.980
Don't compare yourself to other people.

1509
01:33:34.980 --> 01:33:36.620
Don't receive any of that.

1510
01:33:36.620 --> 01:33:39.020
Just step into what is God asking you to do.

1511
01:33:39.020 --> 01:33:42.880
Her three core things, well, her core lie down here.

1512
01:33:42.880 --> 01:33:43.720
You'll see it.

1513
01:33:43.720 --> 01:33:45.100
I am not worthy.

1514
01:33:45.100 --> 01:33:47.100
So Erin, this might relate for you a little bit.

1515
01:33:47.100 --> 01:33:49.780
She's got down under that childhood perfectionism,

1516
01:33:49.780 --> 01:33:51.860
childhood abandonment, childhood rejection,

1517
01:33:51.860 --> 01:33:54.020
and then she has things listed under those.

1518
01:33:54.020 --> 01:33:56.220
But then also adult perfectionism.

1519
01:33:56.220 --> 01:33:57.260
How does that show up?

1520
01:33:57.260 --> 01:33:59.340
Adult abandonment, how does that?

1521
01:33:59.340 --> 01:34:00.780
And I just thought this was really cool.

1522
01:34:00.780 --> 01:34:02.780
I've never seen anybody else do it like this.

1523
01:34:02.780 --> 01:34:04.800
And this is, I just like to give you all examples.

1524
01:34:04.800 --> 01:34:06.200
Here's a couple other ones.

1525
01:34:06.200 --> 01:34:09.740
This is a very beautiful yet simple one.

1526
01:34:09.740 --> 01:34:11.900
All are amazing, you all, okay?

1527
01:34:11.900 --> 01:34:13.620
That's what I want you to understand.

1528
01:34:13.620 --> 01:34:16.180
Whatever you feel led to do, do that.

1529
01:34:16.180 --> 01:34:17.960
Here's another example.

1530
01:34:17.960 --> 01:34:19.460
This one was done on a computer.

1531
01:34:19.460 --> 01:34:21.040
Again, great.

1532
01:34:21.040 --> 01:34:22.980
You can do it however you want.

1533
01:34:22.980 --> 01:34:25.820
So these were some of her roots and fruits

1534
01:34:25.820 --> 01:34:27.780
that she identified.

1535
01:34:27.780 --> 01:34:29.940
Another one here done on a computer.

1536
01:34:33.060 --> 01:34:35.860
And then this is actually a lady that just finished.

1537
01:34:35.860 --> 01:34:37.040
She's more artistic.

1538
01:34:37.040 --> 01:34:39.100
So I just want you guys to see that too.

1539
01:34:39.100 --> 01:34:40.280
I thought this was really cool.

1540
01:34:40.280 --> 01:34:42.240
She kind of showed the unhealthy fruit

1541
01:34:42.240 --> 01:34:43.540
and roots on the left side.

1542
01:34:44.380 --> 01:34:45.580
That's the ones that look kind of dead.

1543
01:34:45.580 --> 01:34:46.900
And then on the right side,

1544
01:34:46.900 --> 01:34:50.060
she's got the Holy Spirit water and then the healthy fruit.

1545
01:34:50.060 --> 01:34:51.940
And I just thought that was such a cool depiction.

1546
01:34:51.940 --> 01:34:54.900
Again, no, don't feel pressure.

1547
01:34:54.900 --> 01:34:57.340
Please just step into doing this stuff.

1548
01:34:57.340 --> 01:35:00.100
Do not allow some lie that.

1549
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.140
You have to be perfect or do it a certain way to hold you back from doing this stuff.

1550
01:35:04.440 --> 01:35:09.300
As you all know, last week I said, you can literally just like lines, lines

1551
01:35:09.300 --> 01:35:11.460
with a pen and do it that way.

1552
01:35:11.460 --> 01:35:15.740
It can be very, very simple, but I did want you to see different examples so

1553
01:35:15.740 --> 01:35:19.520
that those of you that are more artsy, like, go for it, if that's what you want

1554
01:35:19.520 --> 01:35:21.760
to do, all right, let me pray for us.

1555
01:35:21.760 --> 01:35:23.900
Father, thank you so much for who you are.

1556
01:35:23.900 --> 01:35:24.960
God, we thank you for truth.

1557
01:35:24.960 --> 01:35:25.940
We thank you for life.

1558
01:35:27.300 --> 01:35:28.540
We thank you for joy.

1559
01:35:28.680 --> 01:35:32.700
Um, yeah, just joy being manifest in our hearts and our lives.

1560
01:35:32.700 --> 01:35:36.160
God, I thank you that you would just continue to reveal areas for healing.

1561
01:35:36.480 --> 01:35:39.400
Lord, even as we prayed over people's sleep last night, during the

1562
01:35:39.400 --> 01:35:43.380
prophetic ministry night, I just declare sailor rest, God, where

1563
01:35:43.380 --> 01:35:44.860
the enemy has come in like a flood.

1564
01:35:44.860 --> 01:35:47.280
God, we thank you that you would raise up a standard against him.

1565
01:35:47.560 --> 01:35:50.360
That you would help us to see ourselves through your eyes more

1566
01:35:50.360 --> 01:35:51.580
and more and more every day.

1567
01:35:51.580 --> 01:35:53.840
We thank you for where the spirit of the Lord is.

1568
01:35:53.840 --> 01:35:54.600
There is liberty.

1569
01:35:54.600 --> 01:35:56.160
There's freedom for the captives.

1570
01:35:56.160 --> 01:35:58.160
And I thank you that we are no longer slaves.

1571
01:35:58.380 --> 01:35:59.700
We are no longer slaves.

1572
01:35:59.700 --> 01:36:00.620
We are free.

1573
01:36:00.820 --> 01:36:02.740
We're free through the blood of Jesus Christ.

1574
01:36:02.740 --> 01:36:06.040
And, and Lord, we thank you that you'll show us how to apply the blood of

1575
01:36:06.040 --> 01:36:10.580
Christ, the truth that he brought, um, to every area of pain and brokenness

1576
01:36:10.580 --> 01:36:13.700
that you're making us completely whole, lacking, no good thing.

1577
01:36:14.180 --> 01:36:17.300
We thank you, God, that you'll help us to step further into daughter,

1578
01:36:17.460 --> 01:36:21.580
loved, blessed, chosen, wanted.

1579
01:36:22.100 --> 01:36:24.500
God, we thank you that you always wanted us.

1580
01:36:25.220 --> 01:36:26.860
I thank you that we are not orphans.

1581
01:36:26.880 --> 01:36:30.080
God, that we are, we are grafted into the family of God.

1582
01:36:30.080 --> 01:36:32.160
And we just thank you in Jesus name for that.

1583
01:36:32.480 --> 01:36:33.480
Bless them this week.

1584
01:36:33.480 --> 01:36:36.840
We thank you for supernatural acceleration and healing being

1585
01:36:36.840 --> 01:36:41.480
manifest in this group and in their lives more and more and more in the days to come.

1586
01:36:41.760 --> 01:36:42.200
Thank you.

1587
01:36:42.200 --> 01:36:42.560
Thank you.

1588
01:36:42.560 --> 01:36:43.200
Thank you, Lord.

1589
01:36:43.200 --> 01:36:44.020
In Jesus name.

1590
01:36:44.040 --> 01:36:44.760
Amen.

1591
01:36:44.760 --> 01:36:45.520
Amen.

1592
01:36:45.700 --> 01:36:46.640
God bless you all.

1593
01:36:46.640 --> 01:36:47.800
I'll be seeing you in the group.

1594
01:36:47.880 --> 01:36:49.680
Have an amazing day, everyone.

1595
01:36:49.920 --> 01:36:50.600
Bye.