Hello, welcome, welcome, welcome. We're going to wait for a minute or two, probably one,
not two, for more of you to join. We're doing a one o'clock only today because of Memorial
Day. I hope that you all will take some time to thank someone who has served in our armed
forces and just remember that you're going to say something like thank you for your service.
Do we have anyone here today that has served in our armed forces on any level? Would love
for you to put that in the chat so we can just honor you for a minute if that is you.
We may or may not have anyone right now that has or is serving in the armed forces. Okay,
Alicia, thank you so much for your service. Super grateful for you. Felicia was in the
army. Awesome. Felicia, so glad and thankful for your service. Y'all, it's really important
to thank those. I was talking with my husband this morning just about my best friend's
brother and just really having watched him walk through his service and after service
and the things that they walk through and how different a day like Memorial Day is for
them. And so just, yeah, it's just super important. Just like we want to be seen, known, and loved,
I think this is one of the ways we can honor those who have served in our armed forces
and just make sure they are seen, known, and loved, and appreciated. And not only that,
but their families. I have another friend that her husband served in the Air Force and was gone a lot
and just the things that she went through as a wife and a mother at times when he was away
serving. And so just want to honor and give space to them today as well. If you're joining us for
the first time today, let us know that this is your first live session with us. We want to welcome
you and just give you a little shout out there. So again, if this is your first live session
with us, let us know that you're here. Ladies that have been here before, welcome back. We're so glad
that you're here. Love seeing you all. Want to encourage you if you're able. Yeah, you're welcome,
Alicia. If you're able, I think you all probably know what I'm going to say for those that have
been here before. Would love to see your smiling faces and just love seeing you. Jennifer, welcome
for your first time. Felicia. Yep. Thank you guys for supporting our ladies. Just seeing what's in
the chat there as well. My name's Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the master heartwork coaches here in
the community. It's my honor to get to be here with you all and just to partner with you on this
journey and amazing healing process that we call the heartwork. Robin and Sarah, welcome for your
first live session. Anyone else? Hi, Kelly Mason. I just responded to your post in the group a little
bit ago. Kelly's almost finished with her heartwork. Y'all, I know some of you are almost finished as
well. Just want to say way to go. Way to go that you didn't give up on yourself and you kept moving
even when it sometimes it was hard. We're going to talk about a couple things today, one of which
is distractions. So I want to just do a plug in our regarding our replays. If you didn't get to
hear Supernatural Saturday, definitely always want to remind you all to check that out, listen to it,
absorb the things that the Lord is saying to you through it. And then we did Prophetic Ministry
Night last night. So if you weren't able to join us live for that, that's also going to be in your
replays inside of the Last Year Single app. So check that out. We will not be live tonight at 8
p.m., okay, because of Memorial Day. We're just doing the one o'clock p.m. today only. We only do
this on occasion on a holiday, but I think most of you will be good to go since you're here, but want
to make sure you know that we are not going to be live this evening. All right, let me pray for us,
and then I'm going to do another little housekeeping, but it's going to go right into our content for
today. Father, thank you so much for, yeah, Lord, thank you so much for your daughters.
Thank you for my sisters that are here today. God, thank you for what you're doing in their lives. We
thank you for revealings, for healing that are happening, for supernatural shifts and transformations.
God, we thank you for more, Lord. We say more, Lord. We say more freedom, more life, more hope,
more grace, more mercy, that we would not only receive that, but we would be those that would
give it away. We thank you, God, for a fresh and filling of your Holy Spirit. We thank you that you
would remove more of the old, more of the chaff, and bring more of your life and your hope and
renewed mindsets, God, into our hearts, into our lives, Lord. I thank you that you would help us
to hear what your Spirit is saying, God. I thank you that I'm your vessel just for you to speak
through. So, Lord, I thank you that you would help me to yield to the power and the presence of your
Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit, we thank you.
Thank you that you're here.
We thank you that you're moving and living and alive
and you're helping us to hear
what the Father's heart is saying to us.
We thank you that you're our comforter,
you're our counselor, you're our guide,
that you're our ever-present help in time of trouble
and that we can walk with you every day.
We thank you for that gift.
Jesus, thank you for ascending into heaven
and sending the Holy Spirit to be here with us,
to help us to know you more, to know the Father more.
Yes, Lord, we step into a posture of receiving.
We thank you that you're gonna help us to,
yes, Lord, create more space in our spirits right now,
this day, to receive all that you have for us.
In Jesus' name, amen and amen.
Y'all, that's a word before we even step into
what the content is, that we would have hearts
that are capable of receiving.
Well, number one, how do we do that
if we've been hurt in the past
and we tend to shy away from receiving?
We shut down, well, we continue to heal
and ask the Lord to help us open up,
open up our hearts, our minds, our bodies,
and our spirits to receive everything he has for us.
Do you know that men are givers and we're receivers?
That's how we were created.
But a lot of society is like, no, men are takers.
Men are takers, they just take, take, take all the time.
Isn't that what society says?
And even in the church, you all,
a lot of us believe that kind of stuff.
So today I wanna encourage you, that's from the Lord.
If that's where you're at, there's no shame, okay?
Anything, when I say this stuff,
when it comes up in the Holy Spirit,
don't receive it through,
kind of see a picture of like earmuffs.
You know, sometimes we just receive things
through the filters of shame, guilt, and condemnation.
We don't have to do that.
We don't have to receive words through that.
If that's the way you hear it,
just know that the Father wants you to come out
from that shame and guilt and condemnation.
That's a heart posture that you've learned through trauma
and through probably verbal things
that you've experienced in your life.
And so I wanna encourage you to receive it with grace.
That if you have a heart posture that doesn't like men
and that thinks men are bad, all men, okay?
We know that some women are unhealthy
and some men are unhealthy.
Both, both can be unhealthy, you all.
But when we partner with all men do this,
when all men do that,
it can get us into a lot of trouble
and self-sabotage behaviors, mindset, heart postures.
So I wanna invite you to come out of those places
and step into the new that God has for you.
On that note, distractions are gonna come.
I just felt led to remind you of this,
but how do we press through?
How do we press through the distractions
when they come, you all?
Well, every day we make a choice, okay?
Myself included, whether it's heart work,
whether it's something else that God wants me to work on,
we need to press through what is causing the distraction.
So what I wanna encourage you all to even be thinking about
as I start today's content is asking the Lord
to reveal to you the root of why the enemy
has been able to trip you up with distractions.
It could be regarding the heart work.
It could be regarding moving forward in relationship.
It could be regarding work
or financially becoming a better steward,
learning how to grow and managing your finances
in a godly way, creating wealth.
This past week, I spent a lot of time
with my spiritual daughters
and my oldest spiritual daughter.
And y'all, if you don't know what that means,
I'm not biologically their mom,
but God brought me into their life years ago
and we just have an amazing relationship.
And so I have adopted them in the spirit.
That's what I'm saying to you.
My oldest spiritual daughter is just really struggling
with a lot of victim mentalities
and the ways that these invade,
it started showing up a lot in her communication
regarding like, people owe me.
They owe me this.
They got a lot of money.
They can just give it to me.
And she doesn't mean to be like that, y'all,
but that's how her parents have talked.
I heard a lot of her dad coming out and her this weekend.
And it's tough.
It's tough to watch.
And if you're a parent and your kids are going through that,
you send them around their dad
or their grandparent or whatever,
and they come home and they're kind of talking like them,
just keep praying.
Just keep praying because God has them too, okay?
And we are also influencing them.
And so praise the Lord,
we have an opportunity that we get to sow truth
into our kids, but it starts with us.
So how did I jump from distractions to there?
Well, I think that victim mentalities and mindsets
and scarcity and poverty mindsets
also cause us to get distracted
because we're always looking at how.
or can we blame someone else?
Whether we are doing that consciously or subconsciously,
who's to blame for the position and the posture
that I'm in right now, the life situation?
Y'all, and know that I'm saying this
from a heart and a place of, I used to be there.
I used to be there.
I used to, whether I meant to or not, blame other people,
even when I was in the relationship with their dad
that was really unhealthy.
I mean, he really mistreated me,
but I kept staying for valid reasons in my mind
at that time, but I still chose to stay.
God didn't do that to me.
God actually, the whole time,
was trying to lead me out of there.
And I kept choosing.
God in his grace and his goodness
showed me favor and kindness,
but also correction and redirection
the whole time I was in that relationship.
And it thankfully finally led me
to have the courage to leave that.
Okay, so I'm setting up today's content.
That's why I'm kind of dropping
some of these things in intentionally.
Today, we're gonna talk about identity a little bit more.
We started last week on this journey.
We're gonna go a little bit deeper into it.
Today, specifically, what we're gonna talk about
is where are you currently getting your identity from?
Like, what's informing your identity?
Who's informing your identity?
If you didn't see last week's session,
I wanna encourage you to watch that
because we talked about, you know,
towards the end, we went into the whole, the real you,
and what does it look like to live into the real you,
and that we were always princesses.
We were always created as daughter of the king.
So definitely check that out.
If you haven't done your silhouette yet, keep doing those.
Man, I don't know if y'all have noticed,
but there's some really powerful ones.
Y'all have been doing an amazing job.
Why does this matter?
Why do these activations matter?
Well, I'm gonna tell you what.
I think all of you can get amazing breakthrough,
but when you start doing the activation
and you start partnering your faith
with what you believe the works with your faith,
you know, you're walking that out,
it's going to literally cause you to face yourself.
Do you understand?
Like, we have to really be honest with where we're at
so that we can come out of that place
and step into the new that God has for us.
Who does God say you are?
And so last week I kind of gave you all the scripture,
and I'm not gonna read the whole scripture
so you guys can hear it from last week,
but it is from Genesis 3, 8 through 11,
where, you know, Adam and Eve had already sinned,
they ate of the fruit,
and then God is looking for them in the garden
and he can't find them,
which is kind of funny if you think about it,
because God always knows where we're at,
but yet God was like calling out to them,
like, where are you?
You know?
And so he then says, who told you that you were naked?
Who told you that you were naked?
Alina, thank you so much, that's very sweet.
And so I'm partnering with that again,
because it's still in the core of identity.
Who or what are you currently getting your identity from?
So I want you to think about, like, what have you eaten?
Just like in those situations,
Adam and Eve ate of the fruit, and then they hid.
Then they hid, okay?
Before that time, there was no shame.
There was no shame, there was no guilt,
there was no condemnation in the garden.
They walked freely throughout the garden,
and y'all, they were naked.
Can you imagine?
Like, just totally pure, totally innocent,
like, none of the harmful things that we know were there
until they ate of the fruit,
and then their eyes were opened,
and then that's when they got ashamed
and started covering up and hiding
and all of those things, okay?
So what have we eaten in life?
What have we taken in through trauma
or wounds and things that we've experienced or witnessed?
I want you to hear that, it's really key.
Sometimes we go through things directly,
and sometimes we go through things
because of someone else that we love,
they're going through it.
For example, when I was in fourth grade,
my mom, my oldest brother, and my sister
were hit by a drunk driver.
I was not in that car.
But y'all, I absolutely went through trauma
because of what they experienced.
My oldest brother was in a coma
for, I think, almost a month.
My sister had brain surgery,
and that's just scratching the surface, y'all.
It impacted our family for a very long time after that.
My mom had to leave.
I was left with my grandparents or friends or whatever,
because my mom had to leave and go to another town
very often, because that's where my brother got shipped to
after he came out of the coma
to go through a long, extensive rehab.
My sister started having seizures and things after that.
And it just, again, these are all little things,
but all of that, all of that stuff.
impacted me. And I was in fourth grade. I was nine years old at
the time. So whether I'm not saying that was again, that's
not God didn't cause that to happen. Who comes to kill,
steal and destroy y'all. The enemy does. Okay. So I want you
to be thinking about what have you eaten or taken in through
the trauma that you've experienced or witnessed that
was never originally intended for you. Also, what have people
said to you that has caused you to shrink back, question your
identity, doubt yourself in some way, shape or form, not show up
in the fullness of who you really want to be. I don't know
about you all, but I I've always loved being a silly, but when I
was in certain relationships, like I will literally shut down
those parts of myself, because I didn't really feel free to be
me. But the more and more and more that I'm in healthy
relationship, I got healed before I came into this
relationship with Brian, and I'm still continuing to heal in this
relationship with Brian. But y'all I mean, I do silly things.
I mean, I literally were I was just telling someone the other
day, I love to scare him. I've told this story before. For
those that have been here a while, you kind of know this is
just this is the quirky part. I love to jump out and scare him.
I literally was army crawling one time like literally trying
to crawl down on the floor to pop up and yes, that is me. I
like doing funny stuff like that. He doesn't think it's so
funny, but I think it's hilarious. But anyways, you all
so but like, those are things that I couldn't allow out with
other people. Okay, so I want you to be thinking about that as
well. Whatever relationships you're in, even with family,
friends, you know, who, who and what have they said to you that
has caused you to shrink back? Do you do need to consider like,
okay, is this a friend that I can really let that true self
out with? Are they a safe person? It doesn't mean that you
have to cut all these people out of your life. But I want you to
understand how things and people around you are impacting you.
Okay, who does the enemy say that you are like, are you
listening to tapes from the enemy instead of the voice of
the father? Now if you if you lean in and partner with that
silhouette activation from last week, I think you're going to
really start to hear more of what God says about you. Who
does God say you are, versus who is the enemy telling you
that you are? Is the enemy saying that you're shy? I know
that one that one always catches people because, you know, people
are like, well, I am shy. That's a part of who I am. Well, we
don't really believe in this community that everybody that is
shy, that that's just how they are. We actually think that and
again, it doesn't mean like everybody has different
characteristics and stuff. When I go into a room full of people,
y'all, I tend to like, look for the one or two that I think I
can connect with. And that's kind of where I start. And then
I'll make my way around the room. Essentially, I don't just
walk. I'm not an exhortative like, um, what what is it
called? Where you're introverted or extroverted? Like I'm not one
of those surprisingly, like I can speak, I can lead, I can do
all this. But I definitely am not one of those people that
just walks in and just lights up the whole room. Like I tend
to like like to have the one on one conversations. That's what
I'm trying to say. But I'm okay with that's who I am. But I'm
not shy. There's a difference. And so some of you have
partnered with I'm shy, because someone said things to you along
the way that caused you to not fully be yourself. Okay, I want
you to really be asking the Lord about these things. Alright, so
I want you to go ahead and put in the chat for me. Just
whatever comes to mind really quick. One, do two to three
words that come to mind right now about who you are. Just
whatever comes to mind, positive, negative, whatever
comes to mind, just put it in the chat there for me. Helen,
I'm both too. I am an intro and extra. All right, Anna says
funny and intelligent. I'm just gonna go ahead and read them.
Friendly, brilliant, dearly loved by God, genuine, funny,
loving, creative, powerful, reserved, patient, loving,
joyful, I am lovable, joyful, adventurous, love it, explore
patient. Let's see if I can keep up daughter of the king love
precious, compassionate, giving daughter, loved patient. Sorry,
I'm starting to miss some shy, kind, sweet, wise, considerate,
warm, creative. I'm going to keep going. But keep putting
them in there for me never met a stranger. Love that Eloise
intelligent, warm and creative, strong. All right, let those
keep bubbling up for you. As and I'm going to keep moving
forward. Look at Sarah warrior. Yes, you are. You are a
warrior. Now on the flip side of that. I'm not that this is bad.
I'm so glad you shared that Sarah, but it does automatically
as soon as I said that we are
warriors. But also sometimes, have y'all ever felt like
sometimes we're in warring mode so much that we forget how to
have fun. There's a lot of spiritual circles that actually
teach people just war, we're always at war, we're always at
war. Well, we are in a sense, because the spirit realm is
always there's always things going on up there. But we can
also rest and worship and worship and rest our warfare.
So I want y'all to grab on to that for whoever that's for
because as soon as I said it, I felt that come right up in my
spirit, like let him know they don't always have to be at war.
God is the one that can war on behalf of you, he can send his
angels to fight for you. If you weren't on last night, again,
for the prophetic ministry night, there was a word that
God had me release about there is a strong man and he's
standing on the hill, and he's going to help you overcome and
the Lord is that strong, man, he's fighting for you. All
right. So on the sense of what is your identity? Where are you
getting your identity from? I want you to be thinking about
what does your root system look like? You know, the Bible talks
about being like a tree planted by rivers of living flowing
water. Okay. And I, there's a whole, there's more scripture to
that. But I just that's what comes to mind. And it's not in
my notes. So I can look it up later. But, you know, that tree
is planted down in the river of living water. It's, its source
is good. So the things that are feeding into that tree are good.
But some of us, we have our root systems down into things that
are still trauma, wounds, lies that we're believing some, you
know, as you're going through this heart healing, hopefully
you're starting to see that you have some roots that are
healing. And there's good things coming out of there. Now you're
producing more fruit. But then there's these other areas that
still just need more healing, more life, more things infused
into them. So I want you to be thinking about not only what
does your root system look like, but where are you getting your
nutrients from? Like what's in your soil? What are you planted
by? Who are you planted in? Are you planted in the truth of the
Lord, things that are true, noble, lovely, and of good
report, things that are above only and not beneath? Are you
allowing God to come in and speak truth to you in the
morning when you wake up first thing? Or are you starting your
day and going all the way through it and then just really
getting beat up all day because the enemy came in quicker than
the Lord did. And again, there's no shame in this, y'all. I've
had days like that too. I get up and man, I got to get to work
quick or I woke up later, whatever the case, I don't
really wake up late too often. But I'm just giving y'all
examples. Sometimes on those days, I kind of get going and
then I'm like, oh man, I'm having a harder day. Why? Oh,
well, I allowed the enemy to inform me before I allowed the
Lord to inform me. Like subconsciously. I'm not saying
that's even something that's happening intentionally. So
what's in your soil? Well, what am I talking about? The soil of
your heart. The soil of your heart. Luke 6.45 in the NLT
version says this, a good person produces good things from the
treasury of a good heart. And an evil person produces evil things
from the treasury of an evil heart. What you say flows from
what is in your heart. I also want to add to that what we
think, what we say and what we think flows from what is in our
heart. So that's why even in the videos, Jackie talks about,
well, when we're being transformed by the renewing of
our minds, well, our minds and our hearts are connected. So the
more we heal in our hearts, the more you should start to think
healthier things. And for some of you, it might be a bigger
struggle because you've learned very habitual ways of thinking
negative a lot of your life. So I don't want you to be hard on
yourself. Some of you, you might get over those things quick. And
for others, it might be a little bit longer journey, but keep
walking out, keep casting those thoughts down and making them
obedient to Jesus Christ. You know, taking those thoughts
captive quickly. You know, I've talked about that. Because the
more you do it, the more you're going to retrain your brain on
what is truth, what is truth, you know, that you wouldn't
receive the lies of the enemy. Are your roots giving you life
or are they causing you to decay? Are they leading you
higher? Or are they leading you backwards? Do you have thoughts
often that say you're stuck, you're never moving forward,
you're never going to get what God has for you. This spirit
made is never going to come for you. Why are you even doing
this? Any of those kind of thoughts, you know, some of
those, as we've been talking about, even in the community as
a whole, are intrusive thoughts, the enemy tries to attack our
minds all of the time, that's frequent, frequent, he's always
trying to figure out how can he get in to your mind, because if
he gets into our mind,
and we meditate on that stuff,
then it connects down into our hearts.
Y'all see how that works?
All right.
So how can you tell what's in your roots?
Well, look at the fruit.
What fruit are you producing in your life right now?
Okay, and yes, this can be regarding your love story,
but it can be in every area of your life.
And I don't want you to get overwhelmed,
even for some of you when you step into week two
and you do the Hope Scale Worksheet and you're like,
man, I really don't have a lot of hope in some areas.
Some of you, it might look like you've got very little hope
in most of those areas,
but understand that as you continue to heal,
that is going to change.
You're here to heal.
So just be real with where you're at.
And then every day, remember,
Lord, what's one thing I can do today to move forward
in my heart healing journey and in relationship with you?
And y'all, he will take care of the other things.
When we partner with him, so much will change.
All right, I'm gonna read something really quick
from the Heart Workbook,
and then we're gonna get ready for breakouts.
We're gonna try to fit two breakout sessions in today,
you all.
All right, this is from the Heart Workbook.
It says this, fruits versus roots.
Fruits are the emotional or physical manifestations
and the subsequent actions you have been taking
as a result of what you believe in your heart.
We talked about believing last night
on the prophetic night too.
I'm gonna do a lot of plugs
because I'm seeing a lot of parallels here.
And I had planned this content two weeks ago for today.
So I feel like it was God's timing
that that also came up last night.
Let me keep going.
Fruits may include sickness, self-pity,
a victim mentality, despair, not sadness.
So we all can feel sadness,
but there are some people that are just living
in a place of despair,
suicidal tendencies, disgust, and judgment.
Just a side note,
if you have a problem with judging other people,
it's because you have a fragmented heart.
A judgmental heart is a hurting heart.
Some more fruits are obesity, perversion, addiction,
sexual dysfunction, hopelessness, hatred, and self-hatred.
Just so you know,
all forms of hatred begin with self-hatred.
You can't hate someone else without hating yourself.
So I don't know how you all are,
but that was another thing I noticed
with my oldest spiritual daughter.
I think she said four times on Saturday
in this mini, maybe half an hour conversation,
different things that she hated.
So that started standing out to me,
like, whoa, you hate a lot of things.
Now, I didn't say anything to her,
because sometimes you just got to give people
safe space to share without correcting them all the time,
because they just got to get that stuff out.
But I want you to really be paying attention to,
like, what is your heart really saying?
All right, I'm going to keep going.
Some other fruits, you know,
these can be the things that we notice are negative.
Again, if these are negative fruits that we're exuding
and living out in our life,
that means there's unhealthy roots
and lies somewhere down in there, okay?
I'm going to keep going.
Abrasiveness, short temper, irritability, jealousy,
envy, competitiveness, comparing, gossiping,
backstabbing, being unhappy, ungratefulness,
selfishness, having a poverty mentality.
If you are habitually negative, unfaithful,
or have any form of dis, including disease,
disconnection, discontent, and disappointment,
you are suffering from a broken heart.
Okay, so we want you to see that these are all fruits
that can get, like, displayed in our life
when we have unhealthy roots.
So that's why a lot of times in the heart work,
when you hear me say to you all, what's the root?
What's the first time you experienced feeling jealous?
When's the first time you started seeing bitterness
kind of rear its head and you got stuck there?
When's the first time you compulsively ate
to comfort yourself instead of actually allowing yourself
to feel the feels so God could heal them?
When's the first time
you started stuffing your emotions down?
Y'all, I'm just giving you ideas and examples
from those fruits we just talked about there.
So as you go into this first breakout session,
here is your question.
What is a negative root that you need to confess
and gain healing in today?
What is a negative root that you need to confess
and gain healing in today?
Again, remember the fruit and the roots are connected.
So if you're like, well, I don't know a negative root
for sure, what's the fruit in your life that's not healthy
that is manifesting?
And then that can help you identify the root
or potentially a lie that is causing that unhealthy root.
Everyone understand?
Yes?
Okay, I see some yeses.
If you're not a hundred percent sure,
just go in and just start sharing
whatever you feel led to share, ladies.
Okay, this is how it happens.
Sometimes you're gonna get reveled.
As you're sharing, sometimes you're going to get revelation as you hear someone else share. Okay, so just go in and be yourselves. If you've never joined a live session before we are doing these breakouts, I'm going to put you in the room, there's going to be a little digital room thing that's going to pop up on your screen.
And I want to encourage you all to go ahead and click to join those. And even if you're scared, do it afraid you all share afraid you're going to make some great connections. We have amazing women in this community. Okay.
All right, I'm going to give you eight minutes. Go ahead and click to join those. I'm going to be praying for you all while you're in there. Once everyone gets situated, I'll start that time of prayer for you. Go ahead and click to join those as quick as you can.
Susan, are you able to join? Eliabelle, are you able to join?
Okay, we got two in there at least.
Awesome. I think we've got a good amount in every room. Let me just move one person around here.
All right, Father, thank you so much for everything you're doing. God, we thank you for revealing for healings that's happening now. God, we pray that you would reveal root systems and areas in their hearts, their minds, their bodies, their spirits and souls that are not in alignment with your good, good plan for their life.
God, we thank you that you'll help them to even as they're talking have revelation and insight bubbling up to the surface. Hi, Jennifer, we just started breakout session. Did you get kicked out? Are you just joining us? It's okay. Either way, just that way. I know if I need to explain.
Yes, I just got kicked out.
Okay. All right. Do you know what room you were in?
Four. Yes, four.
Let me put you in there. Oh, yeah, I see you.
Okay, there you go.
Okay, thank you.
You're welcome. So we just thank you that you would continue to just as we were talking about transform us by the renewing of our minds that you would help all those old faulty mindsets and systems pass away. Hi, iPhone.
Did you just join us?
Hi, Bethany. Sorry, in my room, I joined late. So I just came a few minutes before the breakout. But in my room, people were also unsure about the question. So I volunteer to come.
That's fine.
Clarification and go back.
Yep. So you're just want to talk about a negative root that you need to confess and gain healing for. So what is it? Yep. What's a negative root that you're experiencing in life? And I was just sharing that if they don't know what the root is, you all want to think about what's the unhealthy fruit that you're exhibiting?
Does that make sense?
Yep. Yeah. Are you able to put me back in room 11?
Of course.
Thank you so much.
Well, let me see. I don't know. I think you just have to click on the thing below in your breakout rooms and rejoin it actually, because I won't be able to because you're not showing that you're not in the room.
Oh, really? Because I left the breakout room.
Yeah, I don't see a sign to join anywhere.
Let me see. I just don't think it's going to let me maybe let me bump you back to.
I'm going to bump you into one, but just don't don't accept it because I'm just going to bump you back to 11.
Okay, perfect.
There you go. Okay, thank you. Thank you.
All right, let's see here. Do I have anyone else? Lizzie, did you just join us or did you get kicked out of the room you were in?
Welcome. If you're just joining us.
They just started a breakout room so I can have you join one of those rooms if you are ready.
I had a room but I could not speak to them so I have to join.
Okay, I put another one back there for you. I think you were in room 12 as I look because there was only two people in there.
So you can rejoin that.
All right, so I'm going to keep praying. Father, thank you so much for continuing to manifest your goodness, your glory in our lives.
God, thank you for helping us to discern between the voice of the enemy, your voice, and even our own thoughts, patterns, and things that we've learned along the way that are not truth.
The ways that we have heard through the voice of man.
as well as just the pain and the trauma that we've been through,
the lies that we received as a result of those.
God, we thank you that you would just continue to,
yeah, just like I just saw an image of sifting sand,
that you would just continue to help us to sift through
all of those thoughts and anything that's not of you.
Lord, that we would cast those thoughts down,
that we would partner with the truth of heaven over our lives.
We thank you, God, for hope, for joy, for life.
I'm feeling also, let's see, Psalm 1 keeps coming to mind.
So I'm going to read that over us.
Blessed is the one who does not walk in step with the wicked
or stand in the way that sinners take or sit in the company of mockers,
but whose delight is in the law of the Lord
and who meditates on his law day and night.
That person is like a tree.
This is the scripture from earlier. Praise the Lord.
That person is like a tree planted by streams of water,
which yields its fruit in season and whose leaf does not wither,
but whatever they do prospers.
Praise the Lord.
I'm going to jump down to verse six.
It also says, for the Lord watches over the way of the righteous,
but the wicked I'm sorry, but the way of the wicked leads to destruction.
So that was Psalm 1, 1 through 3, and then also verse six.
So Lord, we thank you that we are receiving your delight,
that we are receiving your truth.
I thank you that we will be
daughters of the king who meditate on your word day and night.
God, that we would be like that tree
that's planted by streams of water that does yield its fruit in season,
whose leaf does not wither, but whatever we do, that it would prosper.
God, we thank you that you lead us in pathways of righteousness
for your namesake, that we will not go off to the left or to the right,
but we will stay on the pathway that you have for us, Lord.
I thank you that even when distractions and disruptions come, God,
we thank you that, yes, Lord, that we can lay aside every weight
that so easily ensnares us and we can press on
toward the high calling of God for our lives.
We thank you that we,
yes, are your daughters that hear just like your sheep.
We hear what your voice is saying and we obey all that you tell us to do.
We thank you that we will not fear nor be afraid.
We won't be discouraged because, Lord,
we know that you've gone before us into all things.
God, we thank you that you're making every crooked place straight
and you're helping us to know that path that you set before us,
that your word says that you are that voice behind us,
telling us the way to go and that you're also a lamp,
that you light the path, that we will know how to walk
and follow you all the days of our lives.
Hi, Laura and Sarah.
Did you all just join us or did you get kicked out of the room that you were in?
I got kicked out.
Okay.
Do you know what room you were in, Sarah?
Were you in 12?
I was with Lee and I was with Aurora or I didn't.
Naomi?
My microphone wasn't working, so I couldn't.
That's okay.
Let me just put you back in there.
I think you're from 12.
There you go.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
Oh, Laura, what room did you get kicked out of?
I don't know.
I was in 12.
What room did you get kicked out of?
I don't know what's happening today.
I don't see that you weren't in a room.
It's okay.
They're going to be back in like eight seconds.
So sorry about that.
I don't know what's happening.
Oh, your audio wasn't working either.
Okay.
I wonder if something's going on with Zoom today.
All right.
We trust the Lord in all of it, ladies.
I know technology can be tricky sometimes.
They're about to come back.
Welcome back.
Everybody will be here shortly.
Okay.
We have like 20 some seconds and then everyone will be back here.
All right.
Everyone's going to start to come back now.
Welcome back.
So glad to have you back with us.
All right.
Everyone's here.
Y'all, we have 43 ladies on today.
That's awesome.
I'm so excited about that.
All right.
Who is willing to share with the whole group what you shared in your breakout session?
I think Joy's got her hand up already.
She's ready to go.
Go ahead and if you put your hand up for me as well, Amy, I see you. So good. All right, Joy,
go ahead. All right. Thank you so much. Our group was the same. At the end is the same
conclusion. When I just said a prayer, then Holy Spirit immediately give me the light bulb on these
lies. Then cause the fear in my heart, in my mind. So that's the negative rules, one of the
negative rules. Then we discovered further together, three people, then we discover it's
unforgiveness. People hurt us. I say that we can do as Bethany told us, we write and speak the
thing and burn it or destroy it or put on a balloon that just fly away. I say then we thought
about it. Does sometimes it come back again? So we're going to deal with unforgiveness. We don't
want the devil continue to use his bait to fish us. It's not worth it, period, period.
And then I share why another sister said of unforgiveness. She said unforgiveness. I say
maybe in my mind, every time when the unforgiveness come up, thought about that scenario,
that person, and I immediately say, no, I choose forgive you. I choose to think the opposite about
you. I choose bless you, bless you. You got what you need to become the positive person. I bless
you with that. I choose forgive you. I choose bless you, love you in Jesus name. But then,
yeah. So I just, that's the thing. Yeah. I think it's unforgiveness.
That's so good, Joy. I love that. And I love that you're choosing to come out of agreement with the
unforgiveness. But one of the things I do want to make sure that you all take time for is to
actually process the feeling that's connected with the hurt. Because a lot of people will just
automatically, myself included, we're trying to always go to the good, which is a good thing.
But sometimes we can do that so quickly that we're shoving feelings down. Yeah. Remember that we all
need to feel the feels ladies so that we allow God to heal those places. Because yes, we can
partner with forgiveness. We can partner with loving people. We can partner with the truth
and move on from those things. But we absolutely need to heal so that that thing doesn't continue
to trip us up. If you have someone that you have already forgiven, but you continue to experience
like anger towards them. Exactly. Yeah. That's where you need to really like lean into,
okay, where is the anger coming from? Okay. Let's look at the emotion because anger,
if you remember is hurts body guard. So typically underneath of that is sadness,
pain, frustration, could be shame. There's all kinds of stuff. So absolutely choose forgiveness.
I love that y'all are doing that. We want you to do that, but don't, don't not take time.
Hopefully I said that right. To process it. Does that make sense? Everyone?
Nice. So, so, so good. I need to watch your replay. Yeah. Yeah. That's so cool. You hear the
nail. Come on. Talk it. That's it. Yeah. Thank you so much.
Welcome. You're welcome. Joy. Thank you for sharing. Amy, go ahead.
It's interesting in this, this course, cause I'm on week five. Um, I didn't realize there was a
trend that the Lord has been revealing to me. And the one thing that he was saying today was,
you know, we do have the fruit of obesity that comes out of our family because of shame and
not, uh, or feeling guilty, I think is one thing. And I remember I was trying to think of
the one thing where it started. Cause I know you always ask like, where was that first memory that
you were told something that kind of contributed to this? And I was reminded in high school,
my mom always said, you know, you have big bones. You're always going to be bigger than other girls.
Um, you will look like me when you're older. And then even as I, I got older, my mom would call me
fat and say that I was obese. And then in turn, I became obese because of that. And so then that
kind of produced a lot of shame for me and feeling like I was never going to be able to get married
because nobody would love someone who was obese or had a body image problems. And so it stemmed
from way young. I was very young when she told me that. And, um, my mom has done very extreme
dieting, you know, all of that in the nineties, the diet culture. So that's what God, I think is
healing for me, even in this last five weeks, it's like every week he brings it up the same things
with my mom and with my weight. Those are like the two things that he's reminding me that he can
me of my weight, of being able to lose weight and feel good in
my body. So I was just, I wanted to hear your thoughts on that
because I feel like it's a big thing that has dictated why I
haven't dated in the last five years.
100% I think that even myself, it's interesting, you have no
clue about this. But I literally this last two days was pondering
my own family line on my mom's side, because they were all
overweight. And I feel like there's been this constant back
and forth struggle even myself, like, I lose a lot of weight,
then I gain a lot back. And it's just been a cycle. But when I
tend to gain it back is when I'm feeling sad or eating my
emotions, or there's things kind of happening there. But one of
the things God has been leading me to do is to take communion
often and pray over my body physically, to help my body
release weight that I hold on to in my body because of pain.
Yeah. And so it's interesting that you're bringing that up,
because I do think that is a common reality. Now, here's the
other side, I need to move my body more because I work from
home. I like hardly ever leave my house during the week if
unless I'm intentionally going out to an appointment or other
things, like I could go a whole week you all and not leave my
house. That's kind of crazy to even say it out loud. So like
God's really challenging me like I got to get out and move
like I got to move like because I can't be sedentary. I can't
because my body just does not do well with that. Now. And what
led me to also think about this is what my best friend, one of
my best friends is very skinny, like just can eat whatever and
is very skinny. And so I just was thinking about her family
line and my family line and not in a like, Oh, poor me, like is
how I used to look at it. But just kind of like observing and
like, and then here you are talking about that. And so I
feel like it's an important thing to bring up today. You
know, as you all are thinking about these things, one of the
key things that you said there, Amy, is my mom said that you
will look like me. One day, my mom told me, like, this is your
body, this is how you're always going to be this is and that how
we live into often the things that are spoken over us, but
where can we own our side of the street? You know, and so again,
yes, horrible that that happened. Definitely forgive
your mom, like specific things. Okay. So as the Lord continues
to bring this up, even if you have to do a new forgiveness
sheet every day, until this stuff continues to process out
that you would write a forgiveness prayer about that
specific thing. And then also what's coming up in my spirit is
forgiving yourself, Amy.
Yeah.
For partnering with the lie. And living that out. Because I do
think that God can supernaturally cause us to shed
weight, I do. But I also think we have to partner with him. And
everything, everything I've ever gotten the most breakthrough in
my life with the Lord has always been believing the truth, God
doing something supernatural, but me also partnering and
walking that thing out. And so I just don't imagine that this
would be different for me or for anyone else. I think we have
to walk these things out. So how can we shift what we're thinking
and doing? Does that make sense?
Yeah, no, everything that you're saying you're validating what
God has already told me to do. I've done like five forgiveness
sheets for my mom already. My mom is still living. We have
talked about this as adults now. Things that come up and I told
her to her face, I forgive you. I know you did the best that you
could with me growing up. And there's still obviously some
things that come up on the day to day, but I've done I'm going
to do another one for this specific event. Because I
remember I was a cheerleader. And so you're wearing skirts,
you're you're doing the thing I was very, very athletic. So and
I am still very athletic. And it's really hard. And also our
family has, on my dad's side, they're very skinny. So it's
like this really this battle between this obesity and then
the the other side, which is a really big battle for our
family. So the Lord wants to heal it, I believe it. And he
did tell me, he's like, you don't need to do anything
extreme, like shots or weight loss pills or whatever. Trust
me. And you know, that's what I'm trying to do in this season.
I love that. And one of the other things I almost forgot
that came up when you were sharing is, and I feel like this
is important, not just for you, but for everybody. So when your
mom was saying those things, I want you to also understand that
it was self hatred that she had towards herself, that she was
projecting on to you. Because you struggling at some point,
whatever point that was with your weight reminded her of her
own struggles. I really believe that with all my heart. And so
at some point, maybe
pray about God, even opening the door for y'all to talk about it again, because I think there's
going to be more layers of freedom that are going to come to your family because of what you're
experiencing, the freedom that you're about. I already feel like you're stepping into it,
but I feel like you're going to have an accelerated phase of healing regarding your
body image and how you see yourself and how you will understand that you will find your spirit
mate and your spirit mate will love you. It doesn't mean, ladies, that I'm saying we should
just be like, oh, men should just like how I am, no matter if I take care of my body or not.
No, we don't partner with that ladies. Okay. Not that Amy does, but I'm just saying that because
I got to bring balance here, but here's the reality. I know without a shadow of doubt
that when you and your spirit mate find each other, he's going to see everything good about you.
That's what he's going to see. Okay. And so let's partner with that, that nothing can keep you from
your spirit mate. Nothing. Okay. I receive it. I receive it. Thank you so much. Amen. You're
welcome. I'm so glad this is helpful. Y'all. I see y'all in the chat. I see you. I see you. God
sees us. He sees every aspect of what we struggle with and he's bringing truth in life. Tiana, go
ahead. Hey, so the real quick thing is I injured myself on Saturday rock climbing. I indoor and
outdoor rock climb, but I was climbing indoors and I hurt my calf to the point that like I couldn't
walk on Saturday. And so basically I've had to like rest the last three days, which has been
very frustrating because I had things planned of what I wanted to do and accomplish. But that,
but there have, has been like fear and things coming up because I was in a really bad
motorcycle accident nine years ago that should have killed me.
And so there's just a little bit of fear on the physical side of things coming up.
But beyond that, even though I, I know enough cognitively about like physical rehab and all
the things, there's something else that's coming up and it's probably because of starting to do
this heartwork stuff. And why I say that is my friend and my climbing partner, we were had to
run to the store yesterday to get something for this project. And so we stopped to get food and
I can't, I honestly don't remember what he said in the Chipotle parking lot, but I started just
laughing because it was funny. And then it just got to the point where you're laughing so hard,
you can't breathe. And he was like, what is so like, why is this so funny? And I was like,
I don't know. And then all of a sudden I started breaking down crying and he's like, okay, what
just happened? Like, why are you? I'm like, I don't know why I'm crying. I don't know why I'm
laughing. Like, I don't know, you know, kind of a thing. And so all I can think of is like,
something's coming up. I don't have words yet to put to it, to identify the emotions and stuff,
to then figure out where they're coming from. But like, obviously finally stuff is finally
bubbling up to the surface, if you will. So, yeah, I love it. And you all, this is, this can happen
just so you know, this is very common. Um, and you know, just allow it to come out. Don't feel
like you, not that you did, but just for anybody else, like when that starts to happen, you can
just let those people know, like, Hey, I don't really fully know, but I'm going through this
heart healing process. So I think it just might be from that. And just, and they might ask you a
little bit more about it. Don't, and just be confident in the fact that, yeah, I just feel
led to invest in my healing and growth in this season. And, and don't feel like you have to
over-explain to people, but I do think that this is a part of that. I want to ask you a question
though, if you're willing to talk about the motorcycle accident. Sure. So what, what fears
came up from hurting your leg that are connected to that? Can you help me like to the motorcycle
accident? Sure. So, um, with that, the motorcycle accident, because of like how, um, okay, let me
give a little context. Uh, the motorcycle accident, like it destroyed me like literally physically,
um, as well as then emotionally, mentally, and spiritually. And so it's been a very long journey
of rebuilding all of that, um, and rebuilding my life from it. Um, but specifically, um,
I had a lot of, um, like nerve damage that I felt in my right leg. And so with how I've re injured,
um, for anyone who's ever had nerve pain, you know, that sensation. And so this being injured
has kind of like pulled on those nerve fibers so I can feel it again. And it's just this.
So it's more this worry of like internally where your body is going,
hey, we don't like this. We don't want to go back to this. And so everything you do,
your body is constantly like in this kind of perpetual state of like freaked outness, if you
will. Yeah. But what lies surfaced? Can you tell me, can you identify the lies that surfaced for
you? Like your body was definitely having a physical, you know, reaction and response to
injuring, but what lies were surfacing for you? It's okay if not, but that's where I want you.
Yeah. I guess if anything, I think the lie that surfaced is like, you're not really healed.
And that's not just on a physical front, but just everything else that came with that accident of
you're not really healed in all the different areas, as much as you think you have. And it's
like, obviously I haven't, like I'm in the process of doing this heart healing, you know? So it's
like, I know that there are still areas that haven't healed, but it's just this lie of like,
you haven't really healed and then therefore, oh, you haven't made as much progress as you think you
have. And so you're going to have to go back, you know, like you're really not as far on the
journey as you think you are. So. Interestingly enough, even before you just said what you said,
I wrote down, cause I heard setback, but I want you to know that's a lie from the enemy. He's
tried and convinced you that this is a setback for you. I actually think it's a setup because
one of the things that stood out to me, as you said, I had to rest. I had to,
I don't think God caused that injury like at all, but I think that there are times, I don't know
about you all, where when I'm sick and I actually have to rest, there's other things that happen
spiritually. God is speaking things to me that I can't hear him say in the busyness.
And so what I want to encourage you to do in this next week ahead, even as you take time to
even as you take time to repair, repair that leg, you might have to rest,
you know, I'm quoting that, but I want you to partner with, I get to rest.
Because I think that in this season, because you're getting these opportunities to rest,
even when that feeling of frustration or that tension rises up, look at that, like ask the
Lord, okay, show me like, and sometimes that's just cause we're active people and we want to go
whatever. But I also think that there's things under that, that we need to look at, you know,
what is really going on underneath the surface there? What, what lies are coming up when we
feel like we can't go? Do we feel like we're trapped? Do we feel, you know, like how you're
saying, like, this is a setback. I'm not moving forward. Like what, when we look at that, there's
so many layers to healing that can happen if we're willing to go there with the Lord. Yeah.
Really, really powerful, Tiana. And we'll be praying for your healing and just believing God,
his timing of complete wholeness. And that doesn't mean that you're not already healed.
It just means that maybe there's more healing. Yeah. It's really good. Y'all we're all going to
always be healing. If we really partner with that, you're not going to feel like, oh my gosh,
am I ever going to be healed enough to meet my spirit mate? Yeah, you are. You are. You're going
to be healed enough to meet someone great because you're becoming healthier, which means you can
attract a healthier person. But man, you all can keep healing together. It's really awesome.
So don't put yourself on the sidelines because you think like you can never be whole enough.
But also the flip side of that, some of you don't give yourself enough time to heal.
And you try to hurry, hurry, hurry into that relationship. And then there's all kinds of
red flags and you're still blowing past those things. Hopefully while you're in heart work,
you're taking a break from dating ladies. We encourage you to do that. If you didn't know
that already. Now, if you came into this, you know, with someone you're already seriously dating,
that is different. We're not asking you to break up with them, but we are asking you to create
space for yourself so that you can heal. Because when we're so focused on a relationship and a
person, guess what you all, we're not actually focusing on what we need to focus on in us.
Okay. All right, Julia, go ahead. Hi.
All right, here we go. Okay. Hello. Um, so I, uh, I did post and I saw that you responded,
um, to my post. I haven't looked, I need to look at it again, but, um, what God, I believe has been
showing me at the root, um, is a fear. And a lot of it is a fear of rejection. Um, and also like
a lot of my fear stems from what are people going to think?
what's gonna happen if I stand up and be bold
and say what I wanna say,
like what is that other person gonna do in front of people
to embarrass me or to, you know?
So maybe it's a pride issue too, right?
I don't know.
I don't think so.
I think that you went through so much
from what you've told me about your journey
that allowing yourself to thrive and shine,
and the enemy is trying to convince you
that you can't do that.
And when you do do that,
that there's gonna be people that will like rise up
against you to keep you from it.
And I just honestly, have you ever heard, excuse me,
Brit Nicole's song called Gold?
I think that's what it's called, something.
Brit Nicole.
I haven't thought of that song in a while.
You gotta look that song up.
I feel like that song is a prophetic word for you, Julia.
I think that you, all of you are created to shine,
but Julia, I think as you're moving forward,
part of what you've experienced in that fear of rejection,
the enemy, like, what are people gonna think about you?
Well, what are the good things people
are gonna think about you too?
You know, but we spend a lot of time believing
that people are gonna say bad stuff.
Well, maybe, but I've also gone through that.
Like, I can't tell you how many times
as I move forward to write my book,
how many times the enemy's like trying to convince me,
A, that I don't have anything valid to say,
and B, like, what are people gonna think
if you really tell your story?
Well, man, I think about how many people
God is using me to help in this community,
and I can help more people.
So let's partner with what are people gonna think
in a positive way?
Like, let's think about that.
And I know that's like,
sounds like such a small shift, ladies,
but if we will focus on, like,
the Lord's gonna cause people
to think good things about us.
Just like in Proverbs 18.22,
I think it says,
when a man finds a wife, he's found a good thing.
Do we believe that?
That when our spirit mate finds us,
he's gonna be like, whoa, man, she's good.
Because it can be possible, it is possible.
Yeah, so Julia, keep leaning into,
I wanna encourage you, like, that fear of rejection.
Let's ask the Lord, what else is partnering with that?
Because I think the fear of rejection is there for you.
I actually don't see you as a prideful person at all.
I mean, I know I don't know you in your everyday life,
but that, I don't know,
that just felt like a no for me for you.
And I think it's good to be open to look at that,
but I actually think maybe false humility
might be partnering with that fear of rejection,
which is the opposite of pride.
I mean, it kind of partners with it,
but false humility can cause us to think
that we're never humble enough,
and we have to just keep minimizing ourself,
minimizing ourself.
Does that make sense?
I think, yeah, I do see that in my pattern in my past,
just like, yeah, yeah.
Which I think is why the Lord led you
to write that song and sing it.
You were the one that did that, right?
Yeah, yeah. Yes, okay.
Yeah, God gave me those promises,
like, I won't sing it for you.
Yeah, your voice matters in this world,
and I feel like you're a force to be reckoned with,
and the enemy knows that.
And so he's trying to just hinder you a lot right now,
but you're moving forward,
and you're going to keep moving forward in Jesus' name.
Amen, yeah.
Amen, awesome.
Arianne, thanks for sharing, Julia.
Arianne, go ahead.
Hello?
Oh, you're muted.
There you go.
Yeah, thank you.
Okay, in the morning, I had a, by me, morning,
I had the sentence my mom used to say,
what you want is not possible.
And this could be for any daily, easy, you know,
I just took the example of taking five things
from upstairs, downstairs, and then, you know,
hassle with my hands full, or,
but it came up so often,
and I think I always tried to fight it,
I don't see me,
so I didn't agree with it,
but looking at the fruits in my life,
I see so many things that I didn't finish,
like schools, like, I don't have diplomas,
I don't have, whatever.
So, and then I felt frustrated, and kind of a self-hate,
so I could not do what people do expect it from me,
and then I don't keep up with the group,
I'm a slow eater, I'm latest with everything,
even in this course, but-
Well, I think that you're-
You're doing a good job, though. And I think this is really
important, because even Kelly Mason, I was encouraging her
today, in the group, I want you all to understand everybody's
pace is different. Some of you all need more time in here. And
it's okay. It's okay. And you look at you, you're still
showing up, Arianne, you're showing up, you're healing,
you're growing. You are I have no choice. Well, you're still
moving forward. That's forward movement. You are. Okay, so
here's what I'm hearing in my spirit to this is for Arianne,
but this is for everyone. If any of you struggle, put in the chat
for me. Do you struggle with the lie that you're not a finisher?
Let's see how many people can relate to what she said here.
Look at this several sisters struggling with the same thing.
All right, I'm glad I felt this come up. So we're just gonna
we're gonna partner with I am a finisher. I am a finisher. So I
want you guys to start in the next few weeks. Literally, you
all I'm a big person. I'll write this stuff out, put it up. And
every day come out of agreement. Like you can even write this on
the card. I come out of agreement with the lie that I'm
not a finisher. And I Ariane come into agreement with the
truth that I am a finisher. I am an overcomer. I accomplish
things. I finish things no matter what's happened in the
past. That's over. That's over. We can't go back and change
that. But what can we change? Well, today, today, what what
can we do to take another step forward towards finishing?
Because I do think that, you know, like what you're saying,
having people tell you all the time that things aren't
possible, well, of course, we're gonna struggle to finish
something then. Because all we have in our minds is someone
else that's told us over and over and over. You can't do
that. It's not possible. You know, so go ahead. I wasn't
even aware of it anymore. Yeah, that's okay. So it's very deep.
Yeah. Okay, good. Yeah, you're doing great. And remember, I
are on am a finisher. Every day, I'm taking a step towards
finishing anything that you can say to partner with the good in
yourself. Remember, I said before, I think the enemy is
always trying to get you to look at what's not good in you. And I
want to encourage you what's good in you, what's good in you
for those of you when you're doing even this activation for
this week, when you're looking at the roots and the fruit, I'm
not asking you to only look at what's negative. I want you to
look at what is the positive to what positive roots do you have?
100% you have positive roots that are taking root, you are
growing stronger, whether you realize it right now or not,
Arianne, you are going to look back on where you came from.
When you first entered this as a reminder, ladies, I love to
remind, like, in the beginning, she wasn't comfortable going
into breakout sessions. She wasn't always comfortable
turning her camera on. Look at you look beautiful. That pink
looks great on you. You're here and you're showing up. I want
you all to celebrate yourselves. Where are you winning in your
life right now? Even if it's just today, where did I win in
one decision today? Maybe the whole day didn't go great. But
what's one thing I did well today. Start there. And the more
you celebrate yourself in this small wins, the more you're
going to start to see that like momentum, like, Oh, my gosh, I
did that. God did that through me. Like, yes, we don't do it by
ourselves. But we are more than conquerors through Christ Jesus.
You are more than a conqueror, my friend. You are. Thank you
all are. Yes. Thank you for sharing. I get excited when I
see people growing and healing all of you like it's really,
really amazing to watch. And I hope that you all take time
today. And in the days ahead to really look at your growth.
Leanne, go ahead.
Hi. I'm actually gonna read what I posted. If that's okay.
Are you able to come a little closer to your computer? Yes.
Is that better? A little bit? Yeah. Okay. Um, I just lost it.
Anyway, there's been kind of two things that God has been working
on with me. You talked about distractions earlier. And I think
sometimes, I was distracted by everything being an abandonment
issue. So when these memories were coming up again, I was
like, but I've dealt with those over the last five to 10 years.
And it wasn't until you had said little girl, Leanne needs to
come out to play. Yeah, that it started coming back to I shrink.
That's one of the
root that has come out and also kind of coupled with poverty mentality. And it's been amazing
this week that everything I went to see the movie The Last Rodeo, if you haven't seen it,
go see it. It's great. But there were threads of that too, of the abundance mentality, and also
not shrinking, but coming out. So those are the type of things that I've been
looking at. And I am now realizing that trauma doesn't just cause one area
to be affected, but it can be layered.
Yeah, I want you to think about all of you, if you'll think about even the layers of tissue in
our body, and how like our skin is one of our biggest organs. And so everything we put on our
skin actually goes, it can go right into our bloodstream. And so I want you to kind of think
about trauma in a sense, in that way, same thing with healing. Like when we heal, it's working its
way down through the different layers of our skin, if you will. Okay. And so understand that if like,
okay, let's say the wound, I'm just going to use this as an example is down deep in the core.
Well, won't it take longer for that healing to trickle down into there?
So give yourself grace. And even if like, I understand what you're saying, like when you've
worked on something for years, and you're like, why am I still, you know, it's like that feeling,
why is this still coming up? Well, remember that healing happens in layers, forgiveness happens in
layers. Sometimes we have, we're in a new season. And so the Lord's like, okay, you're ready for the
next level of healing here, and revelation. So that's the one thing I want to say. And then also,
I don't remember who I said this to in the group today. But the examples coming up in my spirit,
again, but I want to encourage you all, if you struggle with a poverty mentality, you tend to
think that the basket's empty, that you always have to strive, you never have enough, you know,
that nothing's going to work out for you, everything's going to fall short, all that kind
of stuff. So I want you to be thinking about, hey, Brian, I don't know if he's right there,
I was gonna have him grab something for me real quick. I wanted to give you a visual example. But
if you think about a basket, that's empty, okay? I don't want you to look at how empty it is,
I want you to ask God to show you how he's gonna fill it. Because even a revelation shift like
that for some of you, like what is God saying about how he wants to fill your basket? And what
is that gonna feel like? What is that gonna look like? How is that going to impact every area of
your life as you start to receive his goodness into that basket? Guess what, y'all, you're the
basket. You're the basket. Our heart is that basket that can be filled with everything good
that he is. I feel the Holy Spirit on that. Just thinking on that just really can transform us.
And so if you struggle with like, man, everything's just empty, empty, empty, turns up empty. That is
that poverty, scarcity mentality. Now we can come out of that, but the healing on the inside
is what's gonna help us. But also hearing truth like this, where we can meditate on,
well, God, if something's empty, guess what? He's the best creator, filler of everything.
Like he took nothing and created all the beauty that we see in the world. He created that.
So can he not create and multiply what's in your basket?
Yeah. You know, I know that it can be hard when in the physical realm,
we're experiencing what we consider lack or frustration. Like I think Amy is the one that's
been interviewing and stuff. You know, when we're up against something that doesn't seem like it's
manifesting, but y'all yet, yet, maybe it's not manifested yet, but that doesn't mean it's not
going to. But if we partner with, oh, this is just hard. It's never going to work. I'm never going
to find, well, maybe God is using the current situation to heal you and shift you to prepare
you to go into something different that you wouldn't have even, even thought of or considered
before you healed. He's good. He's good. You all,
he says that in Psalm 23, that he will, you know, lead us beside those still waters
that he's going to help us to rest in fields that are like full of life, you all. And back then,
you know, there would be like a lot of desert and these be these little bushels of grass.
It's not like,
Like in Ireland, I don't know about you all,
but every time I think of Ireland,
I just think of these big luscious green landscapes, right?
Well, back in the day that the Bible was written
and that that scripture was recorded,
it was a desert and there were just little tufts
of grass here and there.
Think about that.
Well, we can see the desert,
or we can see the tuft of grass that's provided for us,
for us to lay down in and rest.
God is good.
God is good, you all.
He really, really is.
And I'm praying for more transformation for you all.
Thank you for sharing Leanne on that one.
Sorry, I had to think about who shared last.
Erin, hi.
Hi.
This is my first time sharing live.
Welcome.
Thank you.
So the negative root that came up for me was unworthiness.
And particularly, most recently, even today around rest
and being unworthy of rest and having to be doing
to have that worth.
So what you said about rest being more fair,
that was definitely resonating.
And I resonated with parts of what Tiana was saying as well,
even to the point where I've had a neck injury in October
that has taken me the better part
of six months plus a little bit to get over
and the struggle in having to rest through that.
Thank you for sharing that question for you
on the doing to have more worth.
Okay, so was there anyone in your life
that you felt like you had to always be doing something
to get their approval, their love?
I've thought about this question a lot
and I've always been, I think,
maybe a naturally driven person.
But in my home, I grew up with a very industrious mother
and she did not rest.
I think she just has like naturally a lot of energy.
I've always said that she can work circles around me,
her being 20 years older than me.
So she was also a young mom.
So I think it was, you know,
there wasn't a lot of rest built into our rhythms.
And this isn't judging your mom,
just so that we can unpack this a little more.
Would you say that your mom got her identity from her work?
I think she didn't work when we were young
outside of the home.
So, but yeah, home was extremely important to her
because she had a very like mobile childhood.
So yeah, I think that the homework
was extremely important to her.
So do you feel like you get your identity
from the work that you do?
A lot, yeah.
So tell me who you are, Amy, or Erin, excuse me.
Tell me who you are.
Are you like, what comes to mind for you right away?
Who are you?
Child of God, daughter of the king.
Anything else come to mind?
Just, you know, the word worthy.
So when you don't work, then what comes to mind?
Unworthy and what else?
Just, I guess I just feel like I'm getting behind
when I don't work.
Okay.
I just want to encourage you,
like it doesn't mean that you had a negative experience
but if your mom didn't know how to rest,
that could be an inherited like pattern.
And so when I encourage you to ask the Lord
to show you what his vision of you is when you're resting.
Thank you.
Because I think, yeah, I think you need just a shift
regarding not just like, okay,
I love that you thought of child of God, daughter of the king
that you are worthy as your identity.
But there's a part of me that feels like
if you're really hearing unworthy,
you're unworthy of rest, you're unworthy.
That to me links back to core identity struggle
that you feel validated by your work.
Does that make sense?
Oh, yeah.
And we want you to get to the place that,
and I'm not saying I wouldn't struggle with the same thing.
I love to do stuff, y'all.
I love to be busy.
But what I've had to learn
is my identity is not hardware coach.
My identity is not leader.
My identity isn't wife.
My identity is daughter.
It is loved.
It is chosen.
It is, you know, peace.
It is, you know, joy.
Like my identity is in Christ.
Nothing that I do is what is my identity.
isn't divorced. You know, let's look at the flip side of this. My identity isn't, you
know, for some people that have lost a child, isn't, you know, motherless or people that
are struggling to like, you want a baby, you know, we put our identity in these things,
parent, you know, and I'm not saying those aren't a part of who we are, but that isn't
our identity. And so some people get into relationship and they get so wrapped up in
the other person and they, they lose themselves completely because they didn't know their
identity before they went into relationship. Does that make sense? And so the more that
you get rooted in, who are you even when you're resting and let not just yourself inform that,
not just, and again, this is good, not just truth that you know, because you've heard
it for years in a Christian environment, but like, what is God want to show you? What does
Jesus want to show you about his vision of you when you're resting? And let's just see
what he brings up for you. I think it's going to be really good. Thank you. You're welcome.
Thanks for sharing Alina. Go ahead. Hi. Hi. Oh my gosh. I'm nervous. I'm going to say
no. Okay. I think I was writing down lies like in the last season just where I was kind
of felt out of place and was feeling small and insignificant and not seen and not good
enough. And like, I don't matter. And like, so I was feeling stuck. Like I can't get out
of stock. I can't do anything. And I'm not good enough. Like if somebody, if a guy tried
like being into me, I'd be like, well, why is he into me? Like, it would be like this
arguing in my head. Like, I'm no good. And like, I like, you know, it's like, I'm, I'm no good.
Why, why, why are you into me right now? I'm not in a good place. I am not accomplishing anything.
And I was just stuck and I need to get to a better place before you can like me. And just
because I wasn't around some people that I just felt really invisible around my sister. It was
just not my season to be there. And I was just kind of financially stuck there for a little bit
longer than I should have. We're sisters, but yeah. And so just be trying to come out of that
and realize that negative talk in my head and been trying to address it and be intentional.
And today before the call, I think I was feeling it in the spirit where you guys were praying
because I was like feeling like that was being pinpointed. Like God was trying to
challenge those lies. Like maybe I'm not stuck. Maybe I can do something.
And so every day we can all do one thing. Can everyone agree? We can every day just do one
thing. And if we'll, some of y'all are going to be able to do five, but let's just partner with,
okay, Lord, what's one thing I can do today to move my life forward in this healing journey.
And if you'll give yourself permission, even Alina just now, like he is the one that heals us,
redeems us, restores us, rebuilds us, renews us all of these things. Yes. You showed up for this
class, Amy. Yes, you guys did. Like you made the best investment. Look at what you've done today.
This is awesome. And so Alina, the more that you do, like, I love that you said to be intentional
that you're coming out of the negative talk. You're addressing these things. I've seen that
in you and you are continuing to show up and it's going to make an impact. You all, the more that
you keep showing up for yourself, catching those thoughts, taking them captive. Remember, we're
asking God, God, is this your thought? Is this my thought? Or is this a thought from the enemy?
You're discerning and growing in your discernment more and more every day, hopefully. And the more
that you read the word of God and hear it, you meditate on it. You're going to learn his voice
more and more and more. And that's going to help you step further into your identity in Christ,
because the more you know his voice, the more he's going to invite you into the good stuff.
He's always inviting us there, but we don't always hear the invitation. Do y'all understand that?
So I want to go ahead, Alina, thank you for sharing. It's going to weave really quick.
I want to share, we don't have time for another breakout, but I want to share the content on the
inner vows very quickly. So what are inner vows? Inner vows are a determination set in our minds
and hearts to protect us from pain. Okay, what does that mean? Well, it's when we say inside
of ourselves, when we go through hurt or pain, we make an agreement with ourselves to protect
ourselves from something.
I'm going to give you some examples. I'll never be able to make anyone happy. I'll never date or
marry a Larry or John, fill in the blank with the name, or someone of a certain ethnicity,
or a certain type of jobs. I have a lot of people where they were pastor's kids, or they were kids
that grew up with their parents in ministry, and so they've just, I'm never going to date or marry
someone in ministry. Or maybe their dad or someone they were married to in the past were in the
police force or in the army, and so they've partnered with this inner vow, like I'm never
going to date anybody like that again. I'm never going to trust anyone ever again. I'm never going
to let my guard down again. I'll never be like my mother or father. I'll never let anyone hurt
me again. These are all inner vows that we can make subconsciously when we go through pain or
trauma or any kind of just rough situations. Also, when we hear things and grow up under
generational, like that land of, you know, unhealthy, let's call it that versus the land
of blessing. Always or never statements are also cues for you all. I want you to be paying
attention. Do you say they're always like this, or I always do that, or this is never going to happen
for me? I'm going to give you some examples. They, I just said one, they always do that.
I always get passed over. Men never come through for me. Men never pick heavier women. They only
pick really skinny women. You know, here's another one. I'm never seen or noticed.
I want to tell you a quick story with this. Two women that have gone through the heart work
almost two years ago, both of them came into the program around the same time,
totally in different places in their hearts. Y'all, it's possible that you can continue to heal,
but you still may have a lot to come out of. The reason I'm bringing these two up is they went to
an event together and the one lady is just in a season of receiving. There's just a lot happening
for her. It's, and there's a lot happening for the other woman too, but she doesn't see it.
It is happening, but what's going on is this other one, they went to this event
and lady number one, won a flower bouquet that night. Lady number two, the whole way home,
basically was like, you keep having things happen for you. Why couldn't that happen for me? And just
really harped on being upset because lady number one won the flower bouquet and how it's not fair
and God never blesses her. Well, y'all, guess what? Partnering with that kind of stuff,
you're actually stopping the flow of the blessing. Do y'all understand that?
It's really important for you to catch this today.
It might be hard to see someone else get blessed, but when they get blessed, why is it hard for us?
What lie are we believing and what tapes are playing in our minds and our hearts
that cause us to not be happy for someone else, but instead be jealous and bitter and resentful?
I love both of those women, but that, that broke my heart for lady number one,
because she was like excited because this is a woman that went through years of watching her
husband die and pain caregiving for him. Don't you think she deserves a little bit of that too?
They both do. But man, like let's celebrate people. Let's celebrate their wins.
And guess what? What we choose to do for someone else, God will do for us.
Here's my other story. I used to say things similar years ago, man, I never win anything.
I always go to stuff and everybody like, how does that happen, Lord? And I remember
when the shifts were happening in me, I was in this course and God was healing stuff in me.
I remember the first thing I went to and I won same kind of thing, different events,
but I was at a work event and I won this bouquet and I was like, whoa, I never win anything.
Like, oh my gosh, I just won this bouquet. It was such a big deal. But do you know what
happened after that? Y'all, I started entering a season of this blessing starting to happen
where I started getting blessings showing up. It wasn't always that I won something,
but like just randomly these blessings would start showing up. Well, guess what?
It's because I started to partner with the story. Hey man, I win. I win. I win stuff.
I get stuff. God's blessed in my life. I'm receiving. The door's always open for me.
My dad's a good dad. And it's not always about like, I'm not saying you all,
it's always about getting something. But y'all, even in my heart,
stuff that I had been asking for, I started experiencing these supernatural shifts
and things and dots were being connected and breakthroughs were happening. And y'all,
ripple effects were coming behind me. And I was seeing the glory of God
being manifested in me and through me.
And just everything else started changing.
I started seeing colors differently.
And I started like, whoa,
the birds sound so much more beautiful.
And do you see where I'm going with this?
Lady number two can't hear the birds singing
as beautifully as lady number one right now
because of what her heart is postured in.
And I understand she's been through a lot of hard stuff,
but I'm gonna tell you what,
religion is a part of that.
A religious spirit is underlying in there as well.
So for those of you that are like,
well, how do I know if I have a religious spirit
that I'm, well, if you're always walking in jealousy,
or you're like always seeing some kind
of religious tone coming out,
like even, you know, maybe you interact with a guy
and he's just not spiritual enough
because he doesn't do what you do
and you're super spiritual.
Y'all, we got to get out of that stuff.
Men experience God differently than we do.
Trust me, I'm married,
and he definitely experiences God differently than I do.
He really like worships the Lord in his own way,
spends time with God in his own way.
He's a pastor, he's preparing messages.
Now that's different
than what might be somebody else's experience.
Some men go out in nature
and that's where they feel and experience God.
So why should we be so critical and judgmental of that?
Because they're not sitting down,
doing a devotional and journaling like we do maybe?
Well, we're not God.
And maybe God is looking on their heart
and actually thinking that's the better thing.
Mary and Martha both were loved by the Lord,
but guess what?
Mary chose to do the better thing.
And this isn't again,
I'm not trying to criticize someone who's busy doing work.
I tend to be busy too.
But I am saying that when we shift out
of judgmental heart postures and attitudes,
it can change a lot of stuff.
All right, I'm going to show something
on the screen real quick.
And I know that was a very quick blow through
of inner vows.
We can talk about it a little bit more next week.
If you have questions about it,
I encourage you to come into the group,
ask your questions, you know, anything.
There's never a dumb question, you all.
Here's your activation for this week.
Roots versus fruits, okay?
And I'm going to show you a couple different trees.
Again, this isn't about your artistic capability, okay?
This is just about getting out of you.
What's getting out of you onto paper, what's going on
so that you can start to really resonate and look at,
okay, where are you?
Where do you need God to continue to come in and heal?
But where are you also doing well?
Here's the first one.
You can kind of see her roots down there.
She's got, you know, good ones, healthy ones,
and unhealthy, all kind of mixed together.
And then she's got a tree that she drew.
Here's another one.
This one's a little more detailed.
She's got lies listed down here.
I don't know if y'all can see that very well.
That might be a little better.
Continual learning, growth mindset.
She's got relationship with Christ.
She's got things on the roots of the trees,
but then these lies are identified.
So if you feel led to identify the lies
that are connected to your roots, that's really awesome.
If you do this at all, that's a win.
Here's another one.
This lady felt really led to, she's a teacher, you all.
So I don't know if you see teacher in this,
but she is a teacher.
And so sometimes people are gonna feel led.
This is about you asking God what you should do
and do that, okay?
Don't compare yourself to other people.
Don't receive any of that.
Just step into what is God asking you to do.
Her three core things, well, her core lie down here.
You'll see it.
I am not worthy.
So Erin, this might relate for you a little bit.
She's got down under that childhood perfectionism,
childhood abandonment, childhood rejection,
and then she has things listed under those.
But then also adult perfectionism.
How does that show up?
Adult abandonment, how does that?
And I just thought this was really cool.
I've never seen anybody else do it like this.
And this is, I just like to give you all examples.
Here's a couple other ones.
This is a very beautiful yet simple one.
All are amazing, you all, okay?
That's what I want you to understand.
Whatever you feel led to do, do that.
Here's another example.
This one was done on a computer.
Again, great.
You can do it however you want.
So these were some of her roots and fruits
that she identified.
Another one here done on a computer.
And then this is actually a lady that just finished.
She's more artistic.
So I just want you guys to see that too.
I thought this was really cool.
She kind of showed the unhealthy fruit
and roots on the left side.
That's the ones that look kind of dead.
And then on the right side,
she's got the Holy Spirit water and then the healthy fruit.
And I just thought that was such a cool depiction.
Again, no, don't feel pressure.
Please just step into doing this stuff.
Do not allow some lie that.
You have to be perfect or do it a certain way to hold you back from doing this stuff.
As you all know, last week I said, you can literally just like lines, lines
with a pen and do it that way.
It can be very, very simple, but I did want you to see different examples so
that those of you that are more artsy, like, go for it, if that's what you want
to do, all right, let me pray for us.
Father, thank you so much for who you are.
God, we thank you for truth.
We thank you for life.
We thank you for joy.
Um, yeah, just joy being manifest in our hearts and our lives.
God, I thank you that you would just continue to reveal areas for healing.
Lord, even as we prayed over people's sleep last night, during the
prophetic ministry night, I just declare sailor rest, God, where
the enemy has come in like a flood.
God, we thank you that you would raise up a standard against him.
That you would help us to see ourselves through your eyes more
and more and more every day.
We thank you for where the spirit of the Lord is.
There is liberty.
There's freedom for the captives.
And I thank you that we are no longer slaves.
We are no longer slaves.
We are free.
We're free through the blood of Jesus Christ.
And, and Lord, we thank you that you'll show us how to apply the blood of
Christ, the truth that he brought, um, to every area of pain and brokenness
that you're making us completely whole, lacking, no good thing.
We thank you, God, that you'll help us to step further into daughter,
loved, blessed, chosen, wanted.
God, we thank you that you always wanted us.
I thank you that we are not orphans.
God, that we are, we are grafted into the family of God.
And we just thank you in Jesus name for that.
Bless them this week.
We thank you for supernatural acceleration and healing being
manifest in this group and in their lives more and more and more in the days to come.
Thank you.
Thank you, Lord.
In Jesus name.
Amen.
God bless you all.
I'll be seeing you in the group.
Have an amazing day, everyone.
Bye.