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Right. Hi, welcome. It's so good to be here with all of you tonight. Welcome, welcome.

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Who is joining us for your first live session tonight? If you can put that in the chat for

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me, we want to welcome you. Totally fine. Sandy Zimmerman, if you're not able to participate

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a lot, we're just glad you're here. And sometimes I totally understand. We just need to listen

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in. Mandy Jacoby is new for the first time tonight. Welcome. Hi. And let's see. Christina

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Bernard's new tonight. Welcome. I'm looking for you on the screen. I know that your name

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is here. Oh, you're right at the top there. Hi, Christina. Good to see you. Anyone else

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new? You're joining us for the first time tonight. Emily, hi. Welcome. Kim is new for

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tonight. Anyone else? Welcome back for all my ladies that have been here before. Audrey,

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hi. Welcome. Sarah, yeah. Welcome back. Hi. Hi, ladies. All my ladies that have been

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here for a few weeks. Some of you may be a little longer. We trust God's process and

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the heart work, don't we? We trust him. And it's such a great thing. Katherine and I'm

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guessing that's Katherine Clark. You're new tonight. Let's see here. Oh, thank you, Helen.

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All right. For those that don't know me, I'm Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the master heart

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work coaches here in our community. Super excited to just be on this journey with all

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of you and get a little glimpse of what God's doing in your life in this season. We absolutely

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believe 100% that God has divinely led you here. And so we enjoy being here on this journey

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with you. Some days it's going to feel hard, ladies. I'm just going to let you know that's

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part of the process, but just don't give up. That's one very important thing in your process

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is to just never give up. So when you feel the feels, let yourself feel them. Even if

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it's anger, if it's tears, if it's just pain, just know that you're not going to stay there

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forever. One of the things I love to say in this journey is that you're not going to

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be in the ICU for long term. Some of you, that's what it's going to feel like. It's

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going to feel like you're having major surgery, but praise the Lord. The Lord is good all

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the way through. And some of that, he's going to do supernaturally while you're sleeping.

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Some of that, it's going to be on your way through the process. And so I want to just

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encourage you, if you are dealing with any of those kind of things, just know that it's

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very normal. Okay? And just come into the group, share with us. We can coach you through

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that. You're not alone. Really important that you know that. We're here to cheer you on,

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to pray for you, to coach you, to see you all the way through. A couple really quick

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announcements, housekeeping items for you all tonight. I want to, I did this earlier

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today. I shut the app down right before I logged in, but I actually need to show you

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something in it. So bear with me. I have a bunch of stuff open here. All right. Come on.

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Okay, when you all are in the HeartWork, now this is my desktop version, but you all will

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have this tab in your app as well. What I want to point out is this announcements tab.

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This tab is where we put anything that we want to make sure you know about right away.

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So if you didn't know that, that's an easy way to get to the roll call post that we put

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up every Sunday. What that's for is for us to get a weekly touch point with you. Like,

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how's it going? What week are you working on? What are you processing? All of those

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things. But we're also tying that into Supernatural Saturday when we put that up. So

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that hopefully helps you process that Supernatural Saturday content more. I put the

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reminder for our session up here every week. I take it back down after we're done on

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Mondays. But y'all, there's the video here from Jackie. You can see that under the

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community tab as well. But I want you to see that these are all here for you. So

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anything important that we are going to announce to your group or to the community, if

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it's being announced across every phase of our community, we will put it up and we'll pin

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it. And that's what you're going to see in the announcements tab. One of the other

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things just to familiarize yourself with our resources tab that does have the access to

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our last year's single affiliate program code. If you want to refer someone, we do have

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an affiliate program. That means that we give you money back for referring someone to us.

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And then also our last year single cruise. That's where you can sign up for that. And

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then when you complete the heart work, OK, that's key. It gives you the instructions of

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what to do there to move to phase two. So on that note, I want to encourage you all. I say

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this a lot. So my ladies that have been here for a while, bear with me, but it's important

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for all of our new ladies. Best practice is five.

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I have weeks for heart work, okay?

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You can take longer,

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but we don't really want you going faster.

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Now, we're not going to baby gate you.

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You have to do this yourself.

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We are going to try to encourage you.

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If you try to finish heart work in two weeks,

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we're gonna encourage you to stay.

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We are, but we can't force you.

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But we really believe in one week of content per week.

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No less than that is the recommendation.

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And here's part of the reason why.

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Even if you've done a heart healing

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for a very long time before you came here,

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that's what I did before I came into the program.

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We know that God is his supernatural hand

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and grace is on this movement

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and on this program and community.

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And you are going to get more breakthrough here

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if you will give yourself the grace

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and the space to receive it, right?

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So if we go through and we're like,

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yeah, I got that, I got that, I got that.

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you're watching the videos, you're reading,

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but you're going so fast

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that you're not allowing yourself time to process

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and digest like, what is God saying to you?

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if you've been going a little quick, slow down.

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We love you.

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that you get everything that God has for you in this season.

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And some people are really afraid

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they're gonna miss out on the men

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and they fly through heart work.

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and I told the afternoon group the same thing.

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I have seen so many people derail themselves by doing that,

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by going really fast through heart work

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and starting to date people while they're in heart work.

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and pursuing romantic conversations with men

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while you're here in the heart work.

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Here's why.

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Even if a really amazing guy comes into your life,

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if he's healthy,

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he will wait for you to finish the heart work.

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He will, I promise.

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And so you can kindly say, you're really awesome.

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I'm on this amazing journey called the heart work

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and I need, I'm taking some time for that.

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And so I really have enjoyed talking to you,

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but I would love to circle back

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and continue this conversation when I finished that journey.

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And if he's a healthy person, he's gonna respond.

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He's gonna be supportive.

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He's gonna think that's awesome

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because every healthy man wants a healthy woman, y'all.

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All right, so keep that in mind.

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Don't try to rush, take your time.

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And then also just wanna give you a heads up

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on Supernatural Saturdays up under the replay.

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If y'all haven't heard it yet, it's amazing as always.

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I'm not gonna go far into that

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because it's there, you can listen to it.

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Single city groups,

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when these are talked about during our all community stuff,

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so Supernatural Saturday is one of those things.

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Single city groups, we want anybody in heart work

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to wait until you get to the next phase

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to join those groups.

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It's not that we don't want you to have community.

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Okay, so don't believe any lies of the enemy.

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away from what God has you here for in the heart work.

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Okay, so if you all did request to join those groups

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and you're just now in heart work

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we're just gonna wait until you get to the next phase

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to approve those.

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And then the last one I have for you

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is some people have been really diving into scripture,

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which is amazing after Jackie releases

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some of those truth bombs like this last Saturday,

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you know, the thief comes to kill, steal and destroy

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and how she said, hey, y'all,

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did you know that's not about Satan, the enemy,

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it's actually about religious people.

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which is amazing.

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But here's the thing, do that.

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We want you to do that for yourselves.

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it's not just one,

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we've actually had it happen in all of our phases,

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but people are diving into scripture

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and then they're wanting to come

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and share those jewels with other people.

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but we don't have time to go through all of that

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and make sure it's actually 100% accurate

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and can be up in our community.

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if you have put up a post like that,

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we have had to take it down

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and it's not because we didn't love what you said

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or any of that kind of stuff,

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but that's just one of the guardrails

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we have in our community, okay?

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Jackie has said this even during the challenge

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and she'll say it throughout the program.

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that are in our all community group.

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Sometimes people are so busy helping everybody else,

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teaching, advising, coaching.

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but I just feel like it's a teachable moment, okay?

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I don't even remember, I apologize.

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I don't remember the name of the person

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that put it up in the heart work,

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but when we're so busy helping everyone else,

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a lot of time, we're not actually taking time

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to focus on our own.

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on heart work. And so when you all are in the heart work, we ask you to take off your

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helper hats, any coaching, advising, counseling, hats, leading, teaching, you all don't have

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to do any of that here. Okay. That's, that's what my job is. Okay. I can coach you. I can

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give you the, Hey, I encourage you to do these things, um, and teach. Um, but you guys just

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get to receive. That's what you're here to do, to receive and encourage one another and

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get to know these amazing sisters in your community, make friends. That's what you're

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here to do. Okay. So that is all of my housekeeping. Thanks for bearing with me. I try to do it

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as fast as I could. Let me pray for us, father. Thank you. Thank you for your grace. Even

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as I'm leading tonight, Lord, we need you. We can't do any of this without you apart

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from you. We thank you for your grace. We thank you for your vision. We thank you for

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new insights and revelation being unveiled and, and Lord, anything in darkness being

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brought to the light tonight so that we can hear what your spirit is saying. God, I thank

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you that you would remove barriers and, and obstacles and things that have kept us stuck.

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Lord, we thank you. Yes, Lord, that you're rewriting our stories and that you're making

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everything new. God, we thank you that the latter rain of our lives is going to be greater

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than the former. We thank you, God, that you're, you're even just pouring rain over

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our spirits and refreshing us from the inside out. Lord, we thank you that you would lead

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us into all truth and anoint us for all of our lives and walk in calling and lead us

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deeper into the revelation of who Jesus Christ is a little bit more tonight. Holy spirit,

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we thank you for your presence here. Come and have your way, move all about the conversations

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and about the room tonight and all those that would watch the replay. Lord, we just,

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Holy spirit, we just ask for your presence to be upon them as well. In Jesus name. Amen.

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Amen. Amen. So tonight we're talking ladies about confession and repentance. That's where

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we're going this evening. And so I'm really excited to start the conversation with something

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I heard before I got on tonight. I was praying. Uh, I actually wasn't feeling a hundred percent.

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I'm fine, but just female stuff. Wasn't feeling a hundred percent this afternoon. So just

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was really praying like, Lord, I need energy from the spirit. I need you. I need you to

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come in and just take control tonight and just, Lord, what do you have for the group

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tonight? And, and I heard him say, and I don't know if this is for one person or multiple,

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but this is what I heard him say. You don't have to keep the secret anymore. That's what

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I heard him say. And so I asked the Lord, I said, okay, Lord, is there anything else

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I need to know about that? And he just said, just tell them that they don't have the seat

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to, they don't have to keep the secret anymore, that it's okay to come out of hiding. And

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so I just, I'm releasing that out of obedience for whoever that's for. Again, it could be

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someone here live. It could be someone that's going to watch the replay, but if there's

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any area of your life where you've just felt a lot of shame, guilt, or condemnation or

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whatever has caused you to feel like you couldn't release that, God is saying it's

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safe to come out. It's safe to talk about it in a safe place. And I want to encourage

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you to step into that this week, tonight, start the process tonight. And on that note,

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where we're going after that is this. We don't always know why, the why behind the what.

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We don't always know why we do what we do. Paul talks about this in the Bible. He says,

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so many times, you know, I'm wanting to do one thing, but then my flesh is leading me

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to do something else and all of that. And so we feel that war between the spirit and

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the flesh, that constant tension. And y'all, that's a normal part of walking into being

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a Christian and walking as a disciple and becoming sanctified and set apart. You know,

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we give our lives to Jesus Christ and we become Christians in that moment, but so many people

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don't allow themselves to go through that healing and sanctification and that redemption

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process. And so I want to encourage you tonight that even if you've repented and confessed

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of things, confessed about things before, that there might be something new tonight

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that the Lord is going to show you that you may have even forgotten about. But the Lord's

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wanting to literally, I'm hearing in the spirit, He wants to lighten the load off of you. The

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things that you've been carrying that you were not intended to continue to carry long

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ago. And some may, might even be recent. It could have been a few days ago where maybe

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you said something that hurt someone's feelings and, and you're just like, man, I didn't mean

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to do that. I didn't mean to say that. And you just beat yourself up over it. And God,

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He's just saying, Hey, daughter, it's okay. Beloved, it's okay.

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Hey, like, I understand why you do what you do. But here's the

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thing. He doesn't want us to stay there. So tonight, we're

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not just talking about it. The goal will be to help you to come

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out of that. Yeah. And Catherine, you're not alone. I

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just want you to know that I want you to know that you're not

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the only one that feels anger and struggles to keep it in

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check. But I will give you some hope because the more that your

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heart heals, the more you are going to be able to walk more in

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the fruit of the Spirit of love, and of self control. Okay.

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We want to partner with the fruits of the Spirit. And we can

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ask the Holy Spirit to fill us afresh every day. But also, how

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we walk in the fruits of the Spirit, you all as we become

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more and more rooted and grounded in the love of the

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Father, and who he is and who we are in him. And then out of the

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overflow of the understanding of his love, we walk in the fruits

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of the Spirit. It's the same thing regarding repentance and

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confession. Y'all, we don't want you to just be on good behavior.

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We don't want you to short term, stop doing something just to

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please us. That's not what you're here for. That's not why

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we're even having this conversation. Why we're having

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this conversation tonight is so that you can literally be

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transformed by the renewing of your mind that all things would

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pass away, behold, everything will become new. But also, if

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you remember the mind, the thoughts that we have are also

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connected to our heart, the things that we think deep down

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in our soul, in our spirit, and the things that are causing us

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to get tripped up. So, I'm going to give you all some examples

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tonight. And just remind you that as I start giving the

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examples of kind of the why, the why we do what we do, I want to

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remind you that the Holy Spirit is your comforter. He's your

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counselor. He's your guide. He's your ever present help in time

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of trouble. Literally, he is there waiting for you to ask for

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his help every moment. You don't have to even confess and repent

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on your own. Like when Jesus ascended into heaven, him and

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the Father sent the Holy Spirit so that we would be empowered to

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be able to step into all the fullness of everything that

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Christ was. And he is forgiveness, you all. He is

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repentance. He literally, he didn't have to repent or confess

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but he represents all of the wholeness of what happens when

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we experience repentance and confession. We become completely

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free. He died and shed his blood for our freedom. But so many of

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us carry these things around and it's bogging us down and it's

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causing us to be able to not be able to soar, which is what we

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were all always intended to do. This afternoon, I was kind of

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talking, I probably went too long about the eagles and the

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chickens, but you all, one of the things that I think about a

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lot, and I think I actually heard it a long time ago about

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from Joyce Meyer, but she had this example of chickens versus

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eagles. And I remember just when she was saying it, I was like,

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yeah, I don't want to be a chicken. I want to be an eagle.

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Like I want to soar. I want to, I want to use the storms of life

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and allow God just to take me higher. I want to see God's

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perspective. I don't want to stay down on the ground and I'm

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not knocking on chickens because chickens are awesome for what

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their purpose is intended for. Okay. But they try, they can fly

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a little bit, but they can't go too high, can they? They can't.

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And I want to go high. I want to go up into everything that God

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has for me and all this plans and purposes to be fulfilled in

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my life. And so I want to encourage you to, to start to

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just really ask yourself, like, the reason I brought that up

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tonight is there are times where I believe that when we choose to

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not repent and confess that we are choosing a lesser form of

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what God intended for us. So choosing to, to be an eagle is

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what I'm encouraging you to move towards, because I think we're

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all created to soar. I do. And God wants to heal some of your

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wings. He wants to heal the inside so that you can, but

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until you get there, he's going to enable you. Does that make

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sense, everyone? All right. Awesome. So here are some of the

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why behind the what. These are just some, this is a small list

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tonight. Yours might be totally different, but I just want to

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say these to get you thinking. All right. Insecurity. We talked

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last week about, you know, being the real you, stepping into who

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that is, your identity in Christ. But a lot of times when

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people struggle with their identity and knowing who they

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are, they will often struggle with a lot of insecurity. And

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then sometimes people be like, oh, I'm not insecure. I'm

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confident.

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then some things will happen. And literally their life and

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their actions are actually saying something different. It's

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saying that they're very insecure, but yet they just

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don't even recognize it. And that's what happens when things

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are down in our subconscious layers of our soul, ladies, and

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things are happening. And it's where we're triggered, and we're

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doing behaviors and actions. And we're thinking things and saying

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things that align with insecurity, versus being

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confident and secure in Christ, okay? Self hatred. So maybe you

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don't think of yourself as someone who actually hates

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yourself. But a lot of times we love to talk about this here in

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the community. We can't hate someone else, without first

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hating ourselves, y'all. I know that kind of that kind of can

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hit hard, but let's, let's be willing to look at where we

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where are we really in within ourselves so that we can be

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honest enough with the Lord as well so that we can meet move

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forward. So we often project on to other people, what we feel on

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the inside. So if you're feeling hatred towards yourself or other

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people, I want to encourage you ask the Lord, where has this

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started? Where's this coming from? What's the root of what

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I'm feeling experiencing and even as Catherine was saying

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earlier, there's the struggle with anger. Remember that anger

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is hurts bodyguard. So underneath the anger, you're

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hurting somewhere. Even under frustration is hurt, sadness,

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grief. And when that stuff doesn't get taken care of, and

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it's not resolved, it's not healed. Again, we're not talking

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about a short, short term behavior change. We're talking

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about a long term heart change from the inside out. The heart

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changing will then again, out of the overflow of our heart, our

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mouth speaks same thing about our decisions. When we know how

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loved we are, ladies, we're going to act more like a

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princess. And I don't mean like a prissy princess, like you're

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being kind of, you know, snooty and all that. No, I'm talking

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about a beloved daughter who knows who her daddy is, and that

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she's royalty. And she lives her life like that. Okay, I'm going

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to keep going over eating. So this might look like you know,

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binging food, it might be comforting yourself with food

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instead of really addressing the loneliness or things you might

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be feeling gossiping, maybe you're gossiping or slandering

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someone else. Again, that kind of partners with we often

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project onto other people what we actually think and feel about

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ourselves. I think a lot of people that get caught up in

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gossiping and slandering, they actually they don't often have

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good security in Christ either. They have a lot of insecurity, a

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lot of really comparison struggles. And so they really

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get critical of other people because of that. And that's what

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can often cause them to get tripped up with those kind of

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sins, negative self talk and thought patterns. So maybe

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you're someone that you really just struggle to think

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positively about yourself about other people about situations,

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you tend to see the glass half empty versus half full most of

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the time. There's all different kinds of this, but I just wanted

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to mention a few sexual related struggles. So maybe sex before

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marriage, pornography, addictions, lusting after, you

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know, men and situations and things. I do want y'all to know

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that sometimes the enemy will attack people with these kind of

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thoughts. Okay, so don't don't, if that's what's happening,

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that's different. Okay. But what I'm talking about right now is

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if we have a sin cycle that is related to or connected to any

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form of lust. Okay. All right. Going on struggles with

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authority. So have you ever had struggles with rebelling against

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authority over you, whether it's a man, a woman or whatever? One

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of the things I was talking about this afternoon that I feel

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like is important for it to come out tonight is that, you know,

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sometimes people will come into the group in this community, and

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they they want everything that God has for them. And then we

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teach something or a coach says something that to them in the

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group, and they get really offended, to the point that even

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when we've tried to reconcile, like, we'll apologize. I mean,

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truly, it is always our intention to say things that

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are going to help all of you. 100%. I know from my heart, and

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I know Andrea, who coaches and Annette, we love you all. And

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genuinely, we're all only our goal is to help you and ask you

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questions that will hopefully move you towards freedom. Now, I

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understand not everybody is going to hear it through a lens.

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that's whole. So sometimes people get offended and we always try to make it

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right, not a handful, it's very little number of people that this has happened

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with, but it does happen where they weren't even willing to reconcile. They

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were so offended that they just left. That's heartbreaking. That's

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heartbreaking for us as coaches because we can't change it. We bless them as they

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go, but man, they're missing out. They're missing out on what God has for them.

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But here's the key. This is why I'm mentioning it tonight. If this is

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resonating for any of you, if you struggle to get offended with women a

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lot, okay, you have all women coaches in here and maybe you struggle with women.

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Maybe you have mother wounds and there's just not been, you know, just

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not a lot of healing there with mom. Well, guess what's going to happen.

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You're going to come in and potentially that's going to get triggered while

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you're here, whether it's in heartwork or face the next phase, love story,

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accelerator or beyond, or maybe outside of this group, but that can happen, but

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understand that those things are connected. All right. All right. Last

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one I have on the list, not just because of what Catherine or other people were

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mentioning in the chat, I saw a couple other people struggling with anger too,

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but angry inside. So sometimes we just have a lot of anger on the inside. Maybe

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we're not saying it, maybe we're not speaking it out or doing anything. So

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that also, y'all, we want to deal with that, that we don't want anger kept in

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either. That can do destructive things to your body and your emotions and your

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mind. And then guess what? It ends up coming out y'all like a volcano at some

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point. So that eruption is going to happen. But again, underneath the

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surface, there's something that needs dealt with there. All right. So

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repentance, what is it? We know in the church, a lot of people know this, but

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I'm just going over it for anybody that might not know what actually repentance

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means. Y'all it, it, it's not just about being sorrowful. Okay. Yes. There are

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times where we are going to truly feel sorrowful for our sin, for the things

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that we do or say that are not, they don't look like heaven or sound like

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heaven. And that is normal, but that isn't all that repentance is. Okay.

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Repentance is truly coming out of agreement with whatever, like that sin

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cycle or that unhealthy behavior. We're coming out of agreement with it. And

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we're actually saying like, if I was going left, okay, let's say I'm walking,

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my sin cycle is leading me this way. Well, literally choosing to come out of

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agreement and say, okay, I am not going to go this way anymore. I am going to

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literally turn and go in the other direction. I'm repenting and I'm walking

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away from that thing. And I'm walking towards Christ. I'm becoming more Christ

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like in my behavior. Again, my heart healing, and then that impacting all of

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the decisions and whatnot that I'm making. I want to read a couple things

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out of the heartwork book. And then we're going to start to get ready here

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and a little bit for the breakout session for tonight. True repentance

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will break the cycle and set us free from the mindsets that are behind these

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patterns. So again, heart healing is also connected to the mind. So if we're

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continuing to get caught up in a sin cycle or something where we're just

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getting tripped up with the same thing over and over and over, I don't know

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about you all, but having gone through abuse as a young girl, a little girl,

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little girl started it. I the earliest I can remember as I was five, went on for

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years. Y'all, I really struggled to have boundaries with sex as I got older. I

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didn't I literally, you know, just stepped right into that as a as a young

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teenage girl having sex and not even knowing what and then all this stuff

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started coming to the surface about what happened. I didn't even remember it

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until that point. So I was like all over the place. I was all over the place.

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But man, there's so much redemption. God is so good. I didn't have to stay in

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that. He taught me how to come out of that and walk in wholeness. But it took a

446
00:29:19.600 --> 00:29:24.400
while. It took a while. But the more that I learned how to grow in my

447
00:29:24.400 --> 00:29:27.960
understanding of God's love, what I was saying earlier to you, I've lived that

448
00:29:27.960 --> 00:29:32.080
out. I've had to really pray a lot like help me God to understand you more as

449
00:29:32.080 --> 00:29:36.760
love. Like help me understand. Like I pray that a lot even so now because I

450
00:29:36.760 --> 00:29:40.920
believe that I still I think God wants to show me more about his love every

451
00:29:40.920 --> 00:29:44.800
day. I don't ever want to get to the point that I think I know everything

452
00:29:44.800 --> 00:29:50.200
about the Lord because man, that's when we start falling down y'all. Pride.

453
00:29:50.960 --> 00:29:55.000
Pride is another why behind a what? Why do why do we have pride in our lives?

454
00:29:55.000 --> 00:29:58.040
What's up? Like what's underneath the surface of the pride?

455
00:29:59.480 --> 00:30:00.040
All right, I'm gonna

456
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.920
keep going. I'm not reading all this. This is just from a couple

457
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pages in the book. But I just want to point out a couple

458
00:30:06.840 --> 00:30:09.600
things. Repentance also includes turning around from whatever

459
00:30:09.600 --> 00:30:13.280
course we were following, as I was mentioning, and submitting

460
00:30:14.000 --> 00:30:17.520
to God's plans for our lives. I know a lot of people don't like

461
00:30:17.520 --> 00:30:20.000
the word submit, we're going to talk about submission on another

462
00:30:20.000 --> 00:30:23.920
night. But it isn't a bad thing. Okay, so I want to start to

463
00:30:23.920 --> 00:30:28.200
encourage you to come out of the unhealthy mindsets that you might

464
00:30:28.200 --> 00:30:32.640
be carrying regarding submission that that stuff is there because

465
00:30:32.640 --> 00:30:35.600
someone hurt you that was unhealthy and that was in

466
00:30:35.600 --> 00:30:39.280
authority over you, and they mishandled what submission

467
00:30:39.280 --> 00:30:42.720
actually means. Okay. So just want to encourage you, I want to

468
00:30:42.720 --> 00:30:45.280
invite you to come out of alignment with any kind of

469
00:30:45.480 --> 00:30:48.240
negative thoughts. And, and again, we'll go into it more

470
00:30:48.240 --> 00:30:50.840
another night. But let's just kind of plant that seed there

471
00:30:50.840 --> 00:30:54.280
for tonight. Repentance says stop, I'm getting out of this

472
00:30:54.280 --> 00:30:57.680
car. I'm getting out of this car that's driving down this dead

473
00:30:57.680 --> 00:31:00.960
end road. And it's going really fast. It's about to take me over

474
00:31:00.960 --> 00:31:04.440
the cliff. repentance is going to be an ongoing part of your

475
00:31:04.440 --> 00:31:09.720
life until every lie is found and replaced with truth. Think

476
00:31:09.720 --> 00:31:14.320
of it as a GPS that will continue to adjust and correct

477
00:31:14.320 --> 00:31:23.160
your course as you go. Okay. Have a couple more. All right, I

478
00:31:23.160 --> 00:31:28.440
want to let me think this is where I want to start. The Word

479
00:31:28.440 --> 00:31:31.840
of God says for the Lord corrects those he loves just as

480
00:31:31.840 --> 00:31:35.320
a father corrects a child in whom he delights. If you have

481
00:31:35.320 --> 00:31:38.520
only known punishment or harsh discipline from authority

482
00:31:38.520 --> 00:31:42.280
figures like parents, bosses, pastors, or even oppressive

483
00:31:42.280 --> 00:31:46.160
spouses, then let me tell you what a course correction from

484
00:31:46.160 --> 00:31:50.160
Father God via the Holy Spirit looks like and sounds like. It

485
00:31:50.160 --> 00:31:54.960
sounds a lot like this. Hey, baby girl, you're better than

486
00:31:54.960 --> 00:31:59.840
this. You don't have to live this way. This is not who I

487
00:31:59.840 --> 00:32:05.600
created you to be. Let me teach you something new. Sweetheart,

488
00:32:05.600 --> 00:32:10.720
you're taking the hard road. Take my hand and I will show you

489
00:32:10.720 --> 00:32:15.960
a better way. Daughter, you're headed for danger. Listen to me.

490
00:32:16.280 --> 00:32:22.680
Trust me. This road is a dead end. Stop the car and let me

491
00:32:22.680 --> 00:32:29.240
drive. I will get us to safety. I feel the Holy Spirit on that

492
00:32:29.240 --> 00:32:36.960
you all. Yeah. And I love that Jackie wrote that in a way that

493
00:32:36.960 --> 00:32:40.880
it didn't just say let me get you to safety or I you know,

494
00:32:41.240 --> 00:32:44.720
I'll go it's I will get us to safety to me God's like I'm

495
00:32:44.720 --> 00:32:48.920
riding with you in the car. He's not left you. He's not

496
00:32:48.920 --> 00:32:53.640
forsaken you. He's with you. Yeah, you are his baby girl,

497
00:32:53.640 --> 00:32:58.080
Amy, all of us we are. I think he wanted a lot of you all to

498
00:32:58.080 --> 00:33:00.800
remember that tonight. That's from the heartwork book. I'll

499
00:33:00.800 --> 00:33:03.280
tell you the chapter but you're all your pages are different

500
00:33:03.280 --> 00:33:06.720
because you have an ebook. It's in chapter nine, y'all can find

501
00:33:06.720 --> 00:33:10.520
it there. Okay. And I really want to encourage you all to to

502
00:33:10.520 --> 00:33:13.640
really meditate on that this week. Even if you just started

503
00:33:13.640 --> 00:33:16.560
the course, don't read all the chapters, but you can just go

504
00:33:16.560 --> 00:33:21.160
find that part that I read and kind of maybe take a screenshot

505
00:33:21.160 --> 00:33:24.840
of it. Focus on it this week, but still keep what week you're

506
00:33:24.840 --> 00:33:27.800
on. Don't skip ahead. But just go ahead. It's okay for you to

507
00:33:27.800 --> 00:33:31.120
do that. Because I feel like it's a timely word for everybody

508
00:33:31.120 --> 00:33:33.760
that's here, as well as those that are going to watch the

509
00:33:33.760 --> 00:33:39.320
replay for tonight. And this week. All right. James 516 says

510
00:33:39.320 --> 00:33:42.320
this, therefore confess your sins to each other and pray for

511
00:33:42.320 --> 00:33:44.960
each other so that you might be healed. The prayer of a

512
00:33:44.960 --> 00:33:50.040
righteous man avails much when we don't confess, we remain

513
00:33:50.040 --> 00:33:53.000
tethered to it. So I want you to understand a tether is like

514
00:33:53.120 --> 00:33:56.120
you're being bound to it. So when we don't confess our sins,

515
00:33:56.120 --> 00:34:00.080
when we don't repent, we stay bound to those things. And then

516
00:34:00.080 --> 00:34:04.240
sin that we don't repent for or confess also creates blind

517
00:34:04.240 --> 00:34:08.639
spots. So you know, when you're driving, when that car is right

518
00:34:08.639 --> 00:34:11.199
in that blind spot, that literally means you cannot see

519
00:34:11.199 --> 00:34:15.159
it. It's kind of behind you. And so there's a lot of us that,

520
00:34:15.400 --> 00:34:18.080
you know, maybe it wasn't even something you did recently. But

521
00:34:18.080 --> 00:34:20.400
maybe it's something you did a long time ago that you even

522
00:34:20.400 --> 00:34:25.480
forgot that you did. But it's down in your soul. And it is

523
00:34:25.480 --> 00:34:29.360
impacting you. You don't have to go dig. I want to remind

524
00:34:29.360 --> 00:34:32.199
everyone, nobody has to get their shovels out and go

525
00:34:32.199 --> 00:34:36.280
digging. We believe in allowing the Holy Spirit to reveal things

526
00:34:36.280 --> 00:34:39.639
for healing. So the whole time you're saying, you know, Lord,

527
00:34:39.639 --> 00:34:43.679
can you reveal this to me? Holy Spirit, can you help reveal if

528
00:34:43.679 --> 00:34:45.679
there's something that's in darkness that needs to be

529
00:34:45.679 --> 00:34:48.920
brought to the light? Is there any area that I need to repent

530
00:34:49.320 --> 00:34:53.320
or confess for something that I've done or said that's hurt

531
00:34:53.320 --> 00:34:59.840
anyone, even myself? So often we we forget ourselves, ladies.

532
00:35:00.840 --> 00:35:03.840
Some of you have committed your worst sins

533
00:35:03.840 --> 00:35:08.840
against yourselves, myself included in the past, okay?

534
00:35:09.080 --> 00:35:13.000
I harmed my own body by having sex before marriage

535
00:35:13.000 --> 00:35:18.000
and that damaged my emotions and my spirit, my confidence,

536
00:35:19.800 --> 00:35:22.880
but I had to learn that I was loved

537
00:35:22.880 --> 00:35:26.000
and I was worth more than my body.

538
00:35:26.000 --> 00:35:27.240
And so I wanna encourage you all,

539
00:35:27.240 --> 00:35:28.560
if that's something you struggle with,

540
00:35:28.560 --> 00:35:31.560
to also pray and lean into that a little more as well.

541
00:35:31.560 --> 00:35:33.960
I'm gonna share a couple of examples from my own life

542
00:35:33.960 --> 00:35:36.180
in addition to what I just shared,

543
00:35:36.180 --> 00:35:38.560
to hopefully help you kind of think of some things

544
00:35:38.560 --> 00:35:40.260
in your own life as well.

545
00:35:41.240 --> 00:35:43.120
These are some areas over the years.

546
00:35:43.120 --> 00:35:44.840
I mean, some of this is way back

547
00:35:44.840 --> 00:35:46.800
when I first gave my life to Christ.

548
00:35:46.800 --> 00:35:49.980
Some of it's from my heartwork process myself.

549
00:35:49.980 --> 00:35:51.320
I am one of the success stories

550
00:35:51.320 --> 00:35:52.760
that came through Jackie's program.

551
00:35:52.760 --> 00:35:55.520
I actually went through her program back in 2021

552
00:35:55.640 --> 00:35:58.600
and I've been coaching with her since 2021

553
00:35:59.520 --> 00:36:01.440
later in the year after I had gone

554
00:36:01.440 --> 00:36:03.100
through all of the process.

555
00:36:03.100 --> 00:36:06.840
And I'm super, super thankful for every opportunity

556
00:36:06.840 --> 00:36:09.240
I've had these last few years,

557
00:36:09.240 --> 00:36:11.040
but just want you all to understand the difference.

558
00:36:11.040 --> 00:36:12.800
There's some that are from way back when

559
00:36:12.800 --> 00:36:14.680
and some that are a little more recent.

560
00:36:14.680 --> 00:36:17.000
So one of the things I realized when I asked the Lord

561
00:36:17.000 --> 00:36:18.880
what he wanted me to say today

562
00:36:18.880 --> 00:36:22.240
regarding the repentance and confessions that I've done

563
00:36:22.240 --> 00:36:27.240
is trying to fill God-shaped hole in my heart with things,

564
00:36:28.440 --> 00:36:30.020
with things that were not good for me.

565
00:36:30.020 --> 00:36:31.920
So for example, food to comfort me.

566
00:36:31.920 --> 00:36:33.600
I mentioned that kind of earlier.

567
00:36:33.600 --> 00:36:35.000
I learned this from my mother.

568
00:36:35.000 --> 00:36:36.600
My sister did it too.

569
00:36:36.600 --> 00:36:39.040
A lot of people in my family did that kind of stuff.

570
00:36:39.040 --> 00:36:41.040
I learned this behavior

571
00:36:41.040 --> 00:36:44.960
and I still struggle with it from time to time.

572
00:36:44.960 --> 00:36:47.080
That's something that I'm working on.

573
00:36:47.080 --> 00:36:50.640
Binge watching too much TV to avoid loneliness or pain.

574
00:36:51.640 --> 00:36:53.240
And you all, it's not just food.

575
00:36:53.240 --> 00:36:56.620
I also need to mention sometimes people are taking pills.

576
00:36:56.620 --> 00:37:01.400
They're drinking alcohol to try to avoid pain.

577
00:37:01.400 --> 00:37:03.980
Feel like I need to mention that tonight as well.

578
00:37:05.240 --> 00:37:08.560
Maybe harmful thought patterns that were keeping me stuck.

579
00:37:08.560 --> 00:37:11.200
So I used to think a lot of negative things.

580
00:37:11.200 --> 00:37:12.640
I'm a very positive person,

581
00:37:12.640 --> 00:37:15.500
but I had a lot of orphan mentalities.

582
00:37:15.500 --> 00:37:19.120
I looked at things like that I was kind of always reaching

583
00:37:19.160 --> 00:37:22.120
and striving and I was never gonna get

584
00:37:22.120 --> 00:37:25.080
to really where God's blessings were.

585
00:37:26.000 --> 00:37:28.360
I believed it in my head, but in my heart,

586
00:37:28.360 --> 00:37:30.360
my heart was saying something different

587
00:37:31.560 --> 00:37:33.760
because I grew up in something different.

588
00:37:33.760 --> 00:37:36.200
I grew up, my parents, I mean,

589
00:37:36.200 --> 00:37:38.780
my dad left literally right after I was born.

590
00:37:38.780 --> 00:37:40.380
I'm not like literally not kidding.

591
00:37:40.380 --> 00:37:45.380
He left my mom without a car and she was in the hospital

592
00:37:45.980 --> 00:37:49.900
and he was just gone and she had four kids

593
00:37:49.900 --> 00:37:52.900
and they divorced when I was in ninth grade.

594
00:37:52.900 --> 00:37:53.740
I hardly knew him.

595
00:37:53.740 --> 00:37:57.380
He would come and go throughout the years,

596
00:37:57.380 --> 00:38:01.300
but understanding like that

597
00:38:01.300 --> 00:38:06.300
and looking through that lens, well, men always fail.

598
00:38:06.380 --> 00:38:07.300
Men always hurt me.

599
00:38:07.300 --> 00:38:09.140
I was sexually abused by my brothers.

600
00:38:09.140 --> 00:38:12.860
So there was no covering, there was no protection.

601
00:38:12.860 --> 00:38:17.220
My grandfather, thankfully, my dad's dad was good.

602
00:38:17.220 --> 00:38:20.620
Like he was a good man and he took care of our family.

603
00:38:20.620 --> 00:38:24.980
And so I did have some, that good example, thankfully,

604
00:38:24.980 --> 00:38:26.940
but there was a lot of negative examples.

605
00:38:26.940 --> 00:38:29.680
And so I partnered with, subconsciously,

606
00:38:29.680 --> 00:38:30.960
I didn't know I was doing it,

607
00:38:30.960 --> 00:38:33.020
but partnered with a lot of lies

608
00:38:33.020 --> 00:38:36.900
and just really harmful thought patterns

609
00:38:36.900 --> 00:38:39.180
that did keep me stuck for a long time.

610
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Not keeping boundaries in place.

611
00:38:40.940 --> 00:38:43.460
Okay, so again, as I mentioned earlier,

612
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having sex outside of marriage

613
00:38:45.140 --> 00:38:47.180
and all of that kind of stuff.

614
00:38:47.180 --> 00:38:50.580
I also wrote down, I had to repent

615
00:38:50.580 --> 00:38:55.580
for letting my values be lowered in a relationship, okay?

616
00:38:55.780 --> 00:38:59.320
So going against my own values and morals,

617
00:38:59.320 --> 00:39:00.940
even after I was a Christian,

618
00:39:00.940 --> 00:39:03.340
because I was in a relationship with a guy,

619
00:39:04.300 --> 00:39:06.880
when I talk about my spiritual daughters,

620
00:39:06.880 --> 00:39:09.980
their dad, this is who I'm talking about right now,

621
00:39:10.060 --> 00:39:12.140
he was very abusive, you all.

622
00:39:12.140 --> 00:39:16.180
And he knew that I did not want to have sex

623
00:39:16.180 --> 00:39:17.220
outside of marriage.

624
00:39:17.220 --> 00:39:20.340
And he did a lot of stuff to pressure me.

625
00:39:20.340 --> 00:39:21.900
I mean, he would scream at me.

626
00:39:21.900 --> 00:39:23.420
He would leave the house and peel,

627
00:39:23.420 --> 00:39:25.820
I mean, just terrible, terrible things.

628
00:39:26.700 --> 00:39:28.820
Show up naked, like it was weird.

629
00:39:28.820 --> 00:39:30.140
It was just weird stuff.

630
00:39:30.140 --> 00:39:33.220
He was putting me under so much pressure and stress.

631
00:39:33.220 --> 00:39:34.540
And there was so much guilt.

632
00:39:34.540 --> 00:39:36.540
And there were times you all, I hate to admit it,

633
00:39:36.540 --> 00:39:39.960
but I gave into him, but I felt terrible for doing it.

634
00:39:40.800 --> 00:39:42.900
Because that's not what I really wanted to do.

635
00:39:43.960 --> 00:39:47.520
And so how this changed was I changed.

636
00:39:48.640 --> 00:39:49.720
I changed.

637
00:39:49.720 --> 00:39:53.180
I started really leaning into understanding

638
00:39:53.180 --> 00:39:55.200
who I was called to be

639
00:39:55.200 --> 00:39:57.200
and the people that I was called to lead

640
00:39:57.200 --> 00:40:00.200
and knowing that if I was gonna lead to the best of my,

641
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.340
ability, I was going to lead myself well first. And I was

642
00:40:04.340 --> 00:40:08.340
going to stop allowing myself to be treated like, like I didn't

643
00:40:08.340 --> 00:40:11.580
matter that I didn't have value or that my morals didn't matter

644
00:40:11.660 --> 00:40:16.980
because they did. And so I started the journey to, I hadn't

645
00:40:16.980 --> 00:40:20.940
broken up with him yet. But I started that internal journey to

646
00:40:20.940 --> 00:40:24.060
parting ways in that relationship. And it started

647
00:40:24.060 --> 00:40:29.460
with me healing more and more and more. And I did a whole like

648
00:40:29.460 --> 00:40:32.700
vision board on what kind of relationship I wanted. And

649
00:40:32.700 --> 00:40:36.680
looking at that board and praying, I mean, partnership,

650
00:40:36.680 --> 00:40:41.640
teammate, true love, like, like words on that board that would

651
00:40:41.640 --> 00:40:46.200
help me remember, like, what did I really want? And that I would,

652
00:40:46.240 --> 00:40:49.320
I would keep moving towards that. And I just started

653
00:40:49.320 --> 00:40:52.600
valuing myself a lot more, I kept saying no. And even when he

654
00:40:52.600 --> 00:40:55.560
would get mad, and he would throw these tantrums and treat

655
00:40:55.560 --> 00:41:00.020
me horribly, I just was like, I'm sorry, I'm not doing that.

656
00:41:00.220 --> 00:41:03.140
I told you no. And I would just stand, I would just stand up

657
00:41:03.140 --> 00:41:06.180
for myself and stand up for myself. And that gave me more

658
00:41:06.180 --> 00:41:09.300
courage to stand up for myself the next time. And before long,

659
00:41:09.300 --> 00:41:12.620
you know, I broke that relationship off. Praise the

660
00:41:12.620 --> 00:41:17.580
Lord I did. And thankfully, the reason that I stayed in that not

661
00:41:17.580 --> 00:41:19.580
thankfully, the reason I stayed in that the reason I stayed in

662
00:41:19.580 --> 00:41:23.260
that for so long, was because I was terrified of losing the

663
00:41:23.260 --> 00:41:25.960
girls in that situation, because I had already lost my

664
00:41:25.960 --> 00:41:31.240
stepson. When I went through my divorce, my ex husband kept him

665
00:41:31.240 --> 00:41:34.520
from me, I hadn't, you know, seen him since he was 10 years

666
00:41:34.520 --> 00:41:37.040
old. And so when this person came into my life with my

667
00:41:37.040 --> 00:41:41.520
spiritual daughters, I got very connected to, to the girls very

668
00:41:41.520 --> 00:41:46.160
quickly, because I hadn't given myself enough time to heal from

669
00:41:46.160 --> 00:41:49.200
the loss of my stepson. See how that works. The enemy just, he

670
00:41:49.200 --> 00:41:52.040
kind of is like, here you go, puts the bait out there and

671
00:41:52.040 --> 00:41:55.760
reels us in. Now the girls are an absolute blessing to my life.

672
00:41:55.760 --> 00:41:59.840
I don't regret. I don't regret the decisions because they've

673
00:41:59.840 --> 00:42:03.580
made me who I am. I've learned a ton of stuff from the mistakes.

674
00:42:05.060 --> 00:42:08.420
So I can help other people now. Hopefully you all won't make the

675
00:42:08.420 --> 00:42:12.580
same mistakes. That's the goal. Okay. But we want to keep going.

676
00:42:12.580 --> 00:42:19.300
So I had to learn to not hate myself and forgive myself and

677
00:42:19.300 --> 00:42:22.420
all of those things. So I repented for the hatred I had

678
00:42:22.420 --> 00:42:26.320
towards myself and other people, including him when he mistreated

679
00:42:26.320 --> 00:42:29.560
me and cheated on me multiple times, all of the things, you

680
00:42:29.560 --> 00:42:32.640
know, just choosing to forgive, choosing forgiveness, choosing

681
00:42:32.640 --> 00:42:36.920
life, because I could stop looking backwards. I couldn't

682
00:42:36.920 --> 00:42:41.160
change any of that. Here's the reality, y'all. We don't know

683
00:42:41.160 --> 00:42:47.360
what we don't know until we know it. Okay. Even though I was a

684
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Christian, there were stuff from my past from the sexual

685
00:42:50.420 --> 00:42:54.460
abuse that still wasn't healed yet. And it was causing me to

686
00:42:54.460 --> 00:42:59.980
struggle. Now I'm not making excuses. That's just truth. And

687
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so some of you that might be where you've been, but you God

688
00:43:03.800 --> 00:43:06.900
has better for you. Just like that little thing I read, he's

689
00:43:06.900 --> 00:43:11.420
like, baby girl, I've got something so much better for

690
00:43:11.420 --> 00:43:15.140
you. You can come out of that lifestyle. You don't have to

691
00:43:15.140 --> 00:43:19.320
keep living that. And there is a good man for you that's going

692
00:43:19.320 --> 00:43:24.040
to fight for the covenant of the marriage relationship. And he's

693
00:43:24.040 --> 00:43:26.900
going to, he's going to fight to protect that. And y'all aren't

694
00:43:26.900 --> 00:43:29.720
going to have sex until you get married. And he's going to honor

695
00:43:29.720 --> 00:43:31.760
you. And he's going to value you, but you're going to do it

696
00:43:31.760 --> 00:43:36.600
too. Together, you're going to fight. And that's what exactly

697
00:43:36.600 --> 00:43:41.780
100% what happened with Brian and I had an incredible

698
00:43:41.780 --> 00:43:46.880
redemption journey with him. He fought with me for the covenant.

699
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Okay. All right. So that's what we want for you all. I want y'all

700
00:43:50.520 --> 00:43:54.080
to hear that and receive that tonight. But I had to forgive I

701
00:43:54.080 --> 00:43:57.240
had to forgive myself. I had to repent. I had to confess. We're

702
00:43:57.240 --> 00:44:00.800
going to talk about forgiveness more another week as well. The

703
00:44:00.800 --> 00:44:06.400
last one I wrote down is blowing past red flags. When I started

704
00:44:06.400 --> 00:44:11.060
dating their dad, right in the beginning, he seemed amazing.

705
00:44:11.680 --> 00:44:15.460
And I got caught up with I'm going to have a family again. I

706
00:44:15.460 --> 00:44:18.260
kind of got started fantasizing about the life we were going to

707
00:44:18.260 --> 00:44:20.940
have. He was a Christian and he went to church and he had a

708
00:44:20.940 --> 00:44:25.500
house and that was further along than I had gotten before. My ex

709
00:44:25.500 --> 00:44:30.540
didn't even we went from house to house to house. But God had

710
00:44:30.580 --> 00:44:33.860
something better for me. And I thought this guy was it. And

711
00:44:33.860 --> 00:44:37.080
then like literally, I'm not kidding. I think it was three

712
00:44:37.080 --> 00:44:39.320
weeks into that relationship. He started showing me who he

713
00:44:39.320 --> 00:44:44.480
really was. But I didn't believe him. Because I believe the first

714
00:44:44.480 --> 00:44:48.000
guy the first three weeks was who he really was. But it

715
00:44:48.000 --> 00:44:53.000
wasn't. So I kept waiting for that guy to come back. And he

716
00:44:53.000 --> 00:44:56.840
never did. Yo, I dated him for six years. That crazy. It's

717
00:44:56.840 --> 00:44:59.840
crazy. It's crazy when I say it out loud, but

718
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.920
Lord, God redeems time. God redeems time. I had to, I had to learn a lot of stuff during that time,

719
00:45:05.920 --> 00:45:11.520
but I blew past red flags. God was, was whispering me kind of like how I read that thing to you from

720
00:45:11.520 --> 00:45:17.840
the repentance. God was like, Bethany, you're not the woman at the well. Bethany, this guy's

721
00:45:17.840 --> 00:45:26.880
not for you. Bethany, this isn't your family. But I kept going. God in his goodness and his grace

722
00:45:26.880 --> 00:45:33.600
continued to pursue me lovingly, kindly. And yes, I had consequences I faced too, you all.

723
00:45:34.160 --> 00:45:38.640
There were a lot of things that I went through because I stayed. And I don't think God wanted

724
00:45:38.640 --> 00:45:47.600
that for me at all. But I chose, I chose. And so I had to repent for that. That was my side

725
00:45:47.600 --> 00:45:53.360
of the street. I chose to stay in something that was very unhealthy. And I chose to blow past red

726
00:45:53.360 --> 00:46:04.080
flags, even though I understand why now, why I did those things. I panicked. Part of me panicked,

727
00:46:04.080 --> 00:46:09.360
like, oh, it's, I can't even get better than this. Like I told, there were all these lies I was

728
00:46:09.360 --> 00:46:15.920
believing that led me, led me in that direction. Okay. So I want you all to understand like God's

729
00:46:15.920 --> 00:46:22.080
grace is sufficient for you, but he's inviting you to come out of the place that you've been in.

730
00:46:22.080 --> 00:46:29.200
He's inviting you into a new upgraded way of living, thinking, moving, have your being, everything

731
00:46:29.200 --> 00:46:36.320
being in him. Okay. So tonight's breakout session question is this. I'm about to put you in breakouts

732
00:46:36.320 --> 00:46:41.280
for those that are new. When I put up, put up the breakout thing, you're going to have something

733
00:46:41.280 --> 00:46:44.960
that's going to pop up on your screen. You're just going to click to join it. You're going to go into

734
00:46:44.960 --> 00:46:50.720
your room. Some of you aren't going to know anybody yet, but just go ahead with courageous or with

735
00:46:50.800 --> 00:46:58.720
courage and grace and be open and share and trust that we have created a safe environment here for

736
00:46:58.720 --> 00:47:04.400
you and know that God is going to work in what it, whatever it is that you share. Okay. Whatever

737
00:47:04.400 --> 00:47:10.800
you're comfortable with sharing, nobody's going to force anybody. Remember that it's totally fine,

738
00:47:10.800 --> 00:47:16.640
Sandy. You can stay here in the main room if you don't have audio or if somebody's working or that,

739
00:47:16.640 --> 00:47:24.320
those kinds of things. Okay. Don't send Sandy to in a room. Well, Sandy too will get invited to a

740
00:47:24.320 --> 00:47:33.120
room automatically. Just don't accept that one. Okay. All right. Or I'm sorry, Nancy too. I think

741
00:47:33.120 --> 00:47:39.840
I said Sandy. Sorry, I lost my train of thought. Your question for tonight is what do you need to

742
00:47:39.840 --> 00:47:45.840
confess? What do you need to confess? And I think what else I was going to say is that y'all don't

743
00:47:45.840 --> 00:47:50.960
have to advise each other, counsel each other. It's really important for me to remind you on all,

744
00:47:50.960 --> 00:47:56.880
every week, but especially when we have weeks like this, if someone cries, don't feel like you have

745
00:47:56.880 --> 00:48:02.320
to fix that. Just, you know, say to your sister, I'm going to use Emily. Emily, thank you so much

746
00:48:02.320 --> 00:48:08.160
for sharing your story with us. You know, we're so proud of you or thank you for opening up to us

747
00:48:08.160 --> 00:48:12.480
and trusting us. Maybe use that instead of being proud, but just you understand what I'm saying.

748
00:48:12.480 --> 00:48:16.320
Like, don't feel like you got to fix anybody. And then the next person can go on and share. Okay.

749
00:48:17.120 --> 00:48:25.520
Super important. Helen, great example. You can confess something that is current or in the past.

750
00:48:25.520 --> 00:48:29.840
If the Lord is bringing up something from the past, there may be a reason that he's wanting

751
00:48:29.840 --> 00:48:36.720
you to confess that tonight. Okay. So just trust that process. Where are my breakouts? Sorry,

752
00:48:37.280 --> 00:48:39.440
my screen's a little different tonight for some reason.

753
00:48:41.920 --> 00:48:45.040
All right. I'm going to put three of you in a room.

754
00:48:47.200 --> 00:48:51.520
For the most part, I might have to move a couple people around, but go ahead and click to join.

755
00:48:51.520 --> 00:48:56.880
And I am going to give you nine minutes. Okay. Go ahead and click to join those.

756
00:48:56.880 --> 00:49:07.840
Go ahead and click to join. I'm going to pray as soon as we get everyone kind of situated.

757
00:49:13.040 --> 00:49:13.920
All right. I've got two.

758
00:49:16.960 --> 00:49:19.600
Nancy, are you? Oh, that's right. Nancy, you're staying on there.

759
00:49:27.280 --> 00:49:37.040
You might want to join from both devices, Nancy.

760
00:49:42.640 --> 00:49:45.840
All right. Let me go ahead and pray. I think everyone's pretty much situated. Father,

761
00:49:45.840 --> 00:49:52.720
thank you so much for this night. Father, we thank you for what you're doing. So much of

762
00:49:52.720 --> 00:49:57.280
what came up even tonight, Lord, I didn't even know that you were going to have me share. So

763
00:49:57.280 --> 00:49:59.920
Lord, we trust you and everything that you're bringing to this.

764
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.600
surface. We thank you for the revealings for healing that are

765
00:50:03.600 --> 00:50:06.240
happening. Hi, Emily. Did you get kicked out?

766
00:50:07.400 --> 00:50:12.000
I did get kicked out. Let me see. I think I was in breakout

767
00:50:12.000 --> 00:50:16.000
room 15 is what it said. Okay, let me let me put you back in

768
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there. All right, that's there for you. Thank you. You're

769
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welcome. Lord, we just pray that you would comfort the ladies

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tonight as they're taking courageous steps to confess and

771
00:50:32.960 --> 00:50:39.240
to trust you in the process. We thank you God for helping them

772
00:50:39.240 --> 00:50:41.600
to receive everything that you have for them. I can't tell if

773
00:50:41.600 --> 00:50:44.680
Emily's stuck or if she can get in the room. Okay, there she

774
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goes. I'm sorry, that was distracting me. So Lord, we

775
00:50:48.760 --> 00:50:52.280
just thank you for continuing to minister grace and truth. We

776
00:50:52.280 --> 00:50:56.920
thank you God for Yeah, Lord, even just opening their spirit

777
00:50:56.920 --> 00:50:59.840
to hear what you're opening their spirit and their soul to

778
00:50:59.840 --> 00:51:03.160
hear what your spirit is saying to them. Lord that you are

779
00:51:03.160 --> 00:51:05.680
revealing these areas for healing. We thank you God that

780
00:51:05.680 --> 00:51:10.200
you are just ministering to their mind, their body, their

781
00:51:10.200 --> 00:51:13.200
spirit, their soul. We thank you God that you're bringing

782
00:51:13.200 --> 00:51:17.800
convergence into place tonight. And what I mean by that is that

783
00:51:17.800 --> 00:51:21.760
God, you're you're taking broken pieces and shattered pieces from

784
00:51:21.760 --> 00:51:24.720
the past and you're bringing them together to bring about

785
00:51:24.720 --> 00:51:29.160
more healing, more redemption, more reconciliation. I just keep

786
00:51:29.160 --> 00:51:32.440
hearing the Lord a lot tonight saying, even just regarding

787
00:51:32.440 --> 00:51:35.520
people towards themselves, like people being reconciled, even

788
00:51:35.520 --> 00:51:39.320
with that, with themselves forgiving and healing, and

789
00:51:39.360 --> 00:51:42.440
starting to love themselves more. So I just speak that into

790
00:51:42.440 --> 00:51:45.800
existence that, that we would be daughters of the king who would

791
00:51:45.800 --> 00:51:51.680
love ourselves better, more, that we would grow in the

792
00:51:51.680 --> 00:51:55.960
revelation of who God says we are, that when we look at

793
00:51:55.960 --> 00:51:59.440
ourselves in the mirror, that we would no longer see things that

794
00:51:59.440 --> 00:52:02.200
we don't like that we would see things that we love that we

795
00:52:02.200 --> 00:52:05.960
would see the glory of God being revealed through us. And that we

796
00:52:05.960 --> 00:52:09.720
would see all the beautiful ways he's created us and just thank

797
00:52:09.720 --> 00:52:15.160
him for those. And Lord, we just thank you that you would help us

798
00:52:15.160 --> 00:52:20.720
to step into that James 516, that we would confess our sins

799
00:52:20.720 --> 00:52:25.080
one to another in a safe place, Lord, so that we we can not only

800
00:52:25.080 --> 00:52:28.560
pray for each other, but that we can step into freedom. Isaiah

801
00:52:28.560 --> 00:52:32.600
61, three says to bestow on them a crown of beauty instead of

802
00:52:32.600 --> 00:52:38.520
ashes. So Lord, we thank you that you are bestowing on all of

803
00:52:38.520 --> 00:52:41.480
these ladies beauty where there's been ashes in the past,

804
00:52:41.480 --> 00:52:45.360
we thank you that you're taking all the broken and fallen pieces

805
00:52:45.360 --> 00:52:49.040
and you're bringing those together. And you're molding

806
00:52:49.040 --> 00:52:51.880
them, you're making them into a masterpiece. It makes me also

807
00:52:51.880 --> 00:52:54.640
think about when Jackie talks about in the heartwork book,

808
00:52:54.880 --> 00:52:58.440
about how when the vessels are put together, I forget what

809
00:52:59.560 --> 00:53:03.360
belief system that's in but they pour the gold in, I believe it's

810
00:53:03.360 --> 00:53:06.760
an Asian belief, but they pour the gold in and then the gold

811
00:53:06.760 --> 00:53:09.480
fills all the cracks. And so Lord, we just we thank you for

812
00:53:09.480 --> 00:53:13.720
filling all of our cracks in our foundation. In our soul, we thank

813
00:53:13.720 --> 00:53:16.200
you God that you're going to allow your glory to shine

814
00:53:16.200 --> 00:53:20.880
through those to reach people for Jesus Christ that our story

815
00:53:20.880 --> 00:53:26.960
matters. We thank you God that. Yeah, this is so good. Ephesians

816
00:53:26.960 --> 00:53:30.600
427. And the Amplified Version says this don't do not give

817
00:53:30.600 --> 00:53:33.680
place to the enemy. Don't give him legal access to your life

818
00:53:33.680 --> 00:53:37.280
and your family and do not give the devil an opportunity to lead

819
00:53:37.280 --> 00:53:40.720
you into sin by holding a grudge or nurturing anger or harboring

820
00:53:40.720 --> 00:53:44.440
resentment or cultivating bitterness. So Lord, I thank you

821
00:53:44.440 --> 00:53:50.000
that you would help us to have hearts that are soft and pliable

822
00:53:50.000 --> 00:53:53.840
to you, where we have hard, hardened stony hearts, Lord, I

823
00:53:53.840 --> 00:53:57.000
pray that you would remove those areas that you are doing heart

824
00:53:57.000 --> 00:54:00.320
surgery within us tonight. We thank you that you're giving us

825
00:54:00.320 --> 00:54:03.720
a revelation of heaven and what heaven thinks about us and says

826
00:54:03.720 --> 00:54:07.200
about us. We thank you for the plans and purposes that you have

827
00:54:07.200 --> 00:54:11.120
for us, and that you're helping us to step into the fullness of

828
00:54:11.120 --> 00:54:15.600
those plans and purposes and that. Yeah, Lord, we're not we

829
00:54:15.600 --> 00:54:19.800
didn't mess up too much and to miss out on your promises. The

830
00:54:19.800 --> 00:54:22.480
enemy is trying to convince somebody or some people that

831
00:54:22.480 --> 00:54:25.800
they've messed up too many times. And that's not true. And

832
00:54:25.800 --> 00:54:28.280
so Lord, we thank you for helping us to step into

833
00:54:28.280 --> 00:54:31.800
repentance and confession to receive the upgrade of your

834
00:54:31.800 --> 00:54:36.160
truth and your healing and your life, your joy unspeakable and

835
00:54:36.160 --> 00:54:41.680
full of your glory. Yes, Lord, we thank you, Lord, I feel led

836
00:54:41.680 --> 00:54:44.000
to read this, even though tonight's not about forgiveness.

837
00:54:44.000 --> 00:54:46.160
I just came across this in the heartwork book, and it just

838
00:54:46.160 --> 00:54:49.080
God's highlighting it to me. So as Father God, thank you for

839
00:54:49.080 --> 00:54:52.640
giving me a heart that's willing to forgive. I choose to obey

840
00:54:52.640 --> 00:54:57.040
your word and release those who have hurt me and owe me debts. I

841
00:54:57.040 --> 00:54:59.480
ask you to show me the areas where I have not forgiven

842
00:54:59.480 --> 00:55:00.120
myself.

843
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.400
others, or even you.

844
00:55:02.400 --> 00:55:05.440
Let them surface fully so that I can release them to you

845
00:55:05.440 --> 00:55:09.040
and be free in those areas to have an abundant life.

846
00:55:09.040 --> 00:55:12.200
Holy Spirit, come and plow every place in my heart

847
00:55:12.200 --> 00:55:16.000
that is barren right now because of hurt, shame,

848
00:55:16.000 --> 00:55:18.520
pain, anger, or bitterness,

849
00:55:18.520 --> 00:55:21.280
so that I can grow your fruit of peace,

850
00:55:21.280 --> 00:55:24.960
joy, and love in my life.

851
00:55:24.960 --> 00:55:27.320
Lord, I thank you that whoever needs that, God,

852
00:55:27.320 --> 00:55:30.200
that you would help them to receive your forgiveness

853
00:55:30.200 --> 00:55:33.080
so that they can give your forgiveness away,

854
00:55:33.080 --> 00:55:35.080
even towards themselves, that they would repent

855
00:55:35.080 --> 00:55:37.040
and confess for anything that they've done

856
00:55:37.040 --> 00:55:39.000
that's harmed their own bodies,

857
00:55:39.000 --> 00:55:41.680
harmed themselves, harmed other people.

858
00:55:41.680 --> 00:55:43.480
A lot of times we talk in the heartwork

859
00:55:43.480 --> 00:55:45.600
about other people that hurt us,

860
00:55:46.560 --> 00:55:49.240
but we don't always talk about,

861
00:55:49.240 --> 00:55:50.920
hey, have we hurt other people?

862
00:55:50.920 --> 00:55:53.000
We do that a lot in the forgiveness week,

863
00:55:53.000 --> 00:55:54.480
but that's coming up in my spirit

864
00:55:54.480 --> 00:55:56.320
a little bit right now as well.

865
00:55:56.320 --> 00:55:59.160
And so for those that are watching the replay

866
00:55:59.160 --> 00:56:00.880
or here in this room,

867
00:56:00.880 --> 00:56:03.440
just trusting that whoever needs to hear it will hear it,

868
00:56:03.440 --> 00:56:06.400
but that we would also repent and confess

869
00:56:06.400 --> 00:56:09.920
for anything that we've done that's hurt other people

870
00:56:09.920 --> 00:56:13.800
and step into freedom in that area.

871
00:56:13.800 --> 00:56:16.200
And one of the things, this is coming up too,

872
00:56:16.200 --> 00:56:18.400
I was talking with a friend this afternoon

873
00:56:18.400 --> 00:56:22.000
and just not really anything that she did that was massive

874
00:56:22.000 --> 00:56:24.440
that was potentially hurtful to someone else,

875
00:56:24.440 --> 00:56:26.440
but she's just processing.

876
00:56:26.440 --> 00:56:28.720
There was someone that she dated briefly

877
00:56:28.720 --> 00:56:32.680
and where she was at,

878
00:56:32.680 --> 00:56:37.680
she was not able to fully receive even his flirting with her

879
00:56:37.800 --> 00:56:40.760
or his desire to want to spend time with her.

880
00:56:40.760 --> 00:56:43.360
And so even though she really liked this guy

881
00:56:44.400 --> 00:56:46.200
and he made her feel very safe,

882
00:56:46.200 --> 00:56:49.560
she struggled to connect with him on a deeper level.

883
00:56:49.560 --> 00:56:51.480
And she was just saying she's feeling led

884
00:56:51.480 --> 00:56:55.440
to write him something to apologize.

885
00:56:55.440 --> 00:56:58.040
And one of the things that as I was praying for her

886
00:56:58.040 --> 00:57:00.860
that the Lord brought up is that,

887
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cause she's like,

888
00:57:01.700 --> 00:57:02.920
I don't even know if I have this number anymore

889
00:57:02.920 --> 00:57:04.280
and just how do I do that?

890
00:57:04.280 --> 00:57:07.660
And I said, well, pray first and ask the Lord,

891
00:57:08.760 --> 00:57:11.560
am I supposed to write a letter and send it to him

892
00:57:11.560 --> 00:57:13.980
or am I supposed to write a letter and burn it?

893
00:57:13.980 --> 00:57:16.960
Or what does the Lord want me to do with the letter?

894
00:57:16.960 --> 00:57:19.120
And so just wanna encourage you all,

895
00:57:19.120 --> 00:57:22.240
sometimes when we need to repent,

896
00:57:22.240 --> 00:57:24.280
there might need to be that release for you

897
00:57:24.280 --> 00:57:26.720
where you write it out in paper.

898
00:57:26.720 --> 00:57:28.920
And we talked about letting go activation

899
00:57:28.920 --> 00:57:29.760
a couple of weeks ago,

900
00:57:29.760 --> 00:57:31.320
but you can do it on this week too,

901
00:57:31.320 --> 00:57:33.160
where you write it out

902
00:57:33.160 --> 00:57:36.740
and you set that on fire in a safe place, of course,

903
00:57:36.740 --> 00:57:40.320
and you release that and you let it go completely.

904
00:57:40.320 --> 00:57:41.860
We do that with forgiveness week,

905
00:57:41.860 --> 00:57:42.880
we do that with other things,

906
00:57:42.880 --> 00:57:45.760
but you can also do that with repentance and confession

907
00:57:45.760 --> 00:57:48.100
where you are repenting.

908
00:57:48.100 --> 00:57:51.860
Now, we do wanna confess our sins one to another again

909
00:57:51.860 --> 00:57:53.020
in certain scenarios,

910
00:57:53.020 --> 00:57:55.620
because there is another level of healing and freedom

911
00:57:55.620 --> 00:57:57.580
that comes from doing that.

912
00:57:57.580 --> 00:58:00.820
But I also believe in that process for some of you

913
00:58:00.820 --> 00:58:03.540
that it's gonna bring a lot of freedom.

914
00:58:03.540 --> 00:58:05.400
Everyone's gonna start to come back shortly,

915
00:58:05.400 --> 00:58:06.700
they'll be here in 60 seconds.

916
00:58:06.700 --> 00:58:08.460
So I'm just gonna keep praying.

917
00:58:08.460 --> 00:58:10.460
So speaking truth over you all,

918
00:58:10.460 --> 00:58:14.920
we thank you Lord for continuing to bring us into,

919
00:58:14.960 --> 00:58:18.560
yeah, new upgrades, new levels, Romans 8, 28.

920
00:58:18.560 --> 00:58:21.040
We know that God causes everything to work together

921
00:58:21.040 --> 00:58:23.040
for the good of those who love God

922
00:58:23.040 --> 00:58:26.980
and are called according to his purpose for them.

923
00:58:26.980 --> 00:58:29.160
Genesis 50, 20 says,

924
00:58:29.160 --> 00:58:30.320
"'You intended to harm me,

925
00:58:30.320 --> 00:58:32.720
but God intended it all for good.

926
00:58:32.720 --> 00:58:34.400
He brought me to this position

927
00:58:34.400 --> 00:58:37.200
so I could save the lives of many people.'"

928
00:58:37.200 --> 00:58:40.800
As you know, Jackie was talking about that Saturday

929
00:58:40.800 --> 00:58:42.760
and even I think two weeks ago.

930
00:58:42.760 --> 00:58:44.840
But man, the power that can happen

931
00:58:45.660 --> 00:58:47.040
when we forgive and when we understand

932
00:58:47.040 --> 00:58:50.320
that God can use everything to bring about his plans

933
00:58:50.320 --> 00:58:51.720
and purposes in our lives,

934
00:58:51.720 --> 00:58:53.680
as well as the lives of other people

935
00:58:53.680 --> 00:58:56.800
and allow him to do that through surrendering.

936
00:58:56.800 --> 00:58:57.640
Welcome back.

937
00:58:57.640 --> 00:58:58.920
We have like five or four seconds

938
00:58:58.920 --> 00:59:00.940
and everyone will be back with us here.

939
00:59:02.480 --> 00:59:03.940
I think everyone's starting to come back.

940
00:59:03.940 --> 00:59:06.000
Welcome back, welcome back.

941
00:59:06.000 --> 00:59:07.040
All right.

942
00:59:07.040 --> 00:59:10.120
So we have half an hour to coach tonight.

943
00:59:10.120 --> 00:59:13.780
I went over this afternoon and I'm gonna be a good girl.

944
00:59:13.780 --> 00:59:14.620
I'm gonna be a good girl.

945
00:59:15.400 --> 00:59:16.460
We're gonna finish on time tonight.

946
00:59:16.460 --> 00:59:18.260
So what we do right now for you,

947
00:59:18.260 --> 00:59:20.060
for those that are joining us for the first time,

948
00:59:20.060 --> 00:59:21.780
when you come back, if you all can mute for me

949
00:59:21.780 --> 00:59:24.660
and grab those, that will be so much easier for me

950
00:59:24.660 --> 00:59:26.940
instead of me having to mute everyone.

951
00:59:26.940 --> 00:59:27.780
All right, awesome.

952
00:59:27.780 --> 00:59:29.220
Thank you so much.

953
00:59:29.220 --> 00:59:32.900
All right, so what we're gonna do is our group shares.

954
00:59:32.900 --> 00:59:37.460
And so we ask somebody, multiple people,

955
00:59:37.460 --> 00:59:39.260
hopefully, to share what you shared

956
00:59:39.260 --> 00:59:40.380
in your private breakout,

957
00:59:40.380 --> 00:59:41.660
and then we'll do some coaching.

958
00:59:41.660 --> 00:59:42.940
Ruth, I see you, girl.

959
00:59:42.940 --> 00:59:43.780
Go ahead.

960
00:59:43.820 --> 00:59:45.940
We'd love to have you share.

961
00:59:45.940 --> 00:59:47.020
Thanks, Bethany.

962
00:59:47.020 --> 00:59:48.220
Sorry, this is around on my side,

963
00:59:48.220 --> 00:59:51.300
but I was thinking about it from when it first started.

964
00:59:51.300 --> 00:59:53.500
I love that the army fatigue you're wearing,

965
00:59:53.500 --> 00:59:54.540
it's really cute.

966
00:59:54.540 --> 00:59:55.380
And you're really cute too.

967
00:59:55.380 --> 00:59:56.220
Sorry, wait, wait.

968
00:59:56.220 --> 00:59:57.060
Yeah, all right.

969
00:59:57.060 --> 00:59:57.900
You should be braver.

970
00:59:57.900 --> 00:59:59.860
Like, I have to dive that out.

971
00:59:59.860 --> 01:00:00.700
But.

972
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:05.600
Back to what I showed in the group, which I had an amazing group with Damaris and with Kim

973
01:00:06.360 --> 01:00:11.120
Was just what I found for me has been just what I had to confess the distraction

974
01:00:11.280 --> 01:00:15.520
And allowing myself and I gave the example of like it's like

975
01:00:16.080 --> 01:00:21.360
Experience I kind of see it as like it's it's a bait of Satan or it's a it's a ploy that he sees and I keep

976
01:00:21.360 --> 01:00:26.280
Falling for it. It's time because and a lot of times it's not like bad distractions or bad things

977
01:00:26.280 --> 01:00:30.160
It's like good things. I kind of said it as like if I were the devil

978
01:00:30.160 --> 01:00:30.640
Thank God

979
01:00:30.640 --> 01:00:36.920
I'm not if I were like and they wanted to get somebody off track like what better to do with them to just guys like

980
01:00:37.040 --> 01:00:41.280
To get them off course with what they should be focused on like let me give the example hard work

981
01:00:41.520 --> 01:00:43.680
You know that I said it in the group. I joined

982
01:00:44.280 --> 01:00:46.120
Last year single at the face one

983
01:00:46.120 --> 01:00:52.040
This was end of January and I still barely like in week one and I feel guilty about that because I've just allowed myself to

984
01:00:52.280 --> 01:00:55.880
Distracted so many times like I wouldn't drop off and and I

985
01:00:56.240 --> 01:00:57.800
It's not always been with back things

986
01:00:57.800 --> 01:01:02.640
I'm a bit of being with good things and I feel like well what better way for Satan to try to get me of course

987
01:01:02.640 --> 01:01:09.080
From focusing on what's most important by bringing things that are they're not bad, but they're not what another priority

988
01:01:09.080 --> 01:01:16.320
and so then that keeps me of course and you know, and I feel like that's trying to point out and highlight that I really need to

989
01:01:16.800 --> 01:01:19.160
to intentionally and to proactively

990
01:01:20.160 --> 01:01:22.760
Attack or or like be aware of

991
01:01:23.480 --> 01:01:30.240
distractions that when I find myself going down different rabbit holes of things where maybe somebody asked me to do something or even if

992
01:01:30.240 --> 01:01:31.200
It's something with church

993
01:01:31.200 --> 01:01:35.680
Let's extract myself from those situations because I need to have a bigger

994
01:01:35.680 --> 01:01:39.240
I have a bigger ball and have a bigger focus and the longer I delay with this

995
01:01:39.320 --> 01:01:44.240
There are things that you know times and seasons that God's working in and he wants me to be in alignment

996
01:01:44.640 --> 01:01:50.480
With what he's doing which that's my word for 20 25 with alignments and it's just weird that biggest thing

997
01:01:50.480 --> 01:01:56.320
I've been struggling with is distraction, which is get me out of trying to keep me out of alignment. So that's my share

998
01:01:56.360 --> 01:01:58.560
Thanks for listening. Oh, you're welcome

999
01:01:58.560 --> 01:02:03.840
It makes me think of my husband often says like when God leads him to preach about something

1000
01:02:03.840 --> 01:02:05.840
You often get tested in those things

1001
01:02:05.840 --> 01:02:09.620
And so I feel like that kind of aligns with what you're saying

1002
01:02:09.720 --> 01:02:12.960
Sometimes when we're trying to move forward in an area

1003
01:02:13.160 --> 01:02:15.160
I'm the opposite

1004
01:02:15.200 --> 01:02:21.840
We is what's happening or we're getting fed those kind of things the opposite and and I love the point that you brought up

1005
01:02:21.960 --> 01:02:23.480
Ruth about

1006
01:02:23.480 --> 01:02:24.920
You know

1007
01:02:24.920 --> 01:02:27.480
Distractions aren't always bad things that are happening

1008
01:02:27.560 --> 01:02:30.760
You know that the enemy is presenting good things to you

1009
01:02:30.760 --> 01:02:36.080
And so one of the things that I think is really good at least this is something that's been helping me lately

1010
01:02:36.080 --> 01:02:39.080
I'm not saying I always I always do it, but I'm

1011
01:02:39.800 --> 01:02:45.680
Asking myself, okay, is this the good thing or is this the great thing that I'm saying? Yes to and

1012
01:02:46.680 --> 01:02:52.360
And really committing to things that I like invest in so the heart work

1013
01:02:52.640 --> 01:02:53.280
You know

1014
01:02:53.280 --> 01:02:59.840
We believe that this is gonna set you all free in multiple areas of your life and that the spear mates the cherry on top

1015
01:02:59.840 --> 01:03:05.160
We say that a lot in this community. We really believe it and not only believe it y'all we see it

1016
01:03:05.880 --> 01:03:09.800
We see it so much people will get complete like healing in areas

1017
01:03:09.800 --> 01:03:12.760
They didn't even know they needed healing in and freedom and stuff

1018
01:03:12.760 --> 01:03:17.360
And and then they do, you know can step into those love stories and all the other things

1019
01:03:17.360 --> 01:03:22.400
But we have people stepping into new careers new new schooling and they're you know

1020
01:03:22.400 --> 01:03:27.960
Doing things that they have not done in years. I mean, it's just really beautiful process. And so I want to encourage you Ruth

1021
01:03:27.960 --> 01:03:30.760
I'm so glad that you confessed about that

1022
01:03:31.440 --> 01:03:34.800
But one of the biggest things that also came to mind is

1023
01:03:36.160 --> 01:03:40.680
Oftentimes we don't say yes to the thing that we really want to do

1024
01:03:41.360 --> 01:03:42.520
because

1025
01:03:42.520 --> 01:03:43.640
underneath

1026
01:03:43.640 --> 01:03:47.680
There's some level of procrastination because of something we fear

1027
01:03:48.760 --> 01:03:55.160
Like what does it mean for you to move forward to really give yourself like not just partial permission

1028
01:03:55.160 --> 01:04:03.120
But full permission to move forward in the heartwork and what I've uncovered with a lot of people is they're actually afraid to date

1029
01:04:04.760 --> 01:04:06.760
Yes, I think I

1030
01:04:06.960 --> 01:04:13.640
Yeah, I think I mentioned a couple of weeks ago that I live in Idaho and currently Dallas helping my family

1031
01:04:14.200 --> 01:04:17.480
So my dad has that brain bleeds which testimony about that

1032
01:04:17.480 --> 01:04:23.720
But anyway one day when I was praying and boy see like the Holy Spirit reveals to me that part of why he

1033
01:04:23.920 --> 01:04:30.800
is trying to move get me to move to Dallas, Texas is to finish my like not the hard work but like to complete the

1034
01:04:30.800 --> 01:04:34.880
rest of it and because after I move is when I'm going to make my spirit mate and that just

1035
01:04:35.640 --> 01:04:38.920
I don't say scared me because I was like

1036
01:04:38.920 --> 01:04:45.320
I don't know like after I went through what I went with my my my marriage and the abuse and all men are you know?

1037
01:04:45.320 --> 01:04:50.280
They can't be trusted or you know there you have to be on your guard because yeah

1038
01:04:50.600 --> 01:04:56.040
Yeah, you're not natural giver and everyone just they would just take especially men

1039
01:04:56.040 --> 01:05:00.000
They would just take and throw you away like he just started me and I was

1040
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:01.400
I just felt like that.

1041
01:05:01.400 --> 01:05:03.440
So I was like, oh God, I don't know if I'm ready for that.

1042
01:05:03.440 --> 01:05:05.520
Like, I want you to heal me, heal me fine.

1043
01:05:05.520 --> 01:05:07.920
But, you know, I don't know if I'm...

1044
01:05:07.920 --> 01:05:09.440
You're not, you don't know if you're ready

1045
01:05:09.440 --> 01:05:13.360
for the same thing to happen or something great to happen?

1046
01:05:14.280 --> 01:05:16.600
Well, I was just, part of it was like,

1047
01:05:16.600 --> 01:05:17.880
part of the abuse in my marriage,

1048
01:05:17.880 --> 01:05:21.320
it convinced me that the abuse was my fault.

1049
01:05:21.320 --> 01:05:25.200
I'm trying to get you to see what you said to us there.

1050
01:05:25.200 --> 01:05:27.400
You said, okay, so,

1051
01:05:27.400 --> 01:05:30.280
so basically what you're afraid of

1052
01:05:30.280 --> 01:05:32.400
is you're afraid of the same thing happening

1053
01:05:32.400 --> 01:05:35.840
as what happened before, which is very common for people.

1054
01:05:35.840 --> 01:05:38.040
But I wanna encourage you to come out of alignment

1055
01:05:38.040 --> 01:05:41.720
and agreement with that and partner with

1056
01:05:41.720 --> 01:05:46.320
that the more that I heal and listen to the Holy Spirit,

1057
01:05:46.320 --> 01:05:49.200
I can choose a healthy spirit mate

1058
01:05:49.200 --> 01:05:52.120
and my life can be happy and different.

1059
01:05:52.120 --> 01:05:53.720
But even to get there, Ruth,

1060
01:05:53.720 --> 01:05:55.680
one of the things I said this afternoon

1061
01:05:55.720 --> 01:05:58.400
to one of the ladies that I was coaching,

1062
01:05:58.400 --> 01:06:00.040
hers was regarding finances,

1063
01:06:00.040 --> 01:06:04.360
but the biggest thing is that when we get overwhelmed,

1064
01:06:04.360 --> 01:06:06.200
we shut down.

1065
01:06:06.200 --> 01:06:07.040
Yeah.

1066
01:06:07.040 --> 01:06:10.280
So instead of thinking about when you move

1067
01:06:10.280 --> 01:06:13.080
and hey, that might lead to your spirit mate

1068
01:06:13.080 --> 01:06:16.560
or like, I gotta do all this heartwork,

1069
01:06:16.560 --> 01:06:19.080
let's just take one bite a day.

1070
01:06:19.080 --> 01:06:22.400
One bite a day, what's one thing you can do today

1071
01:06:22.400 --> 01:06:24.160
to move forward in your heartwork?

1072
01:06:25.160 --> 01:06:28.400
Even if it's to read two pages of your book,

1073
01:06:28.400 --> 01:06:30.600
that's better than no pages.

1074
01:06:30.600 --> 01:06:31.440
Right, ladies?

1075
01:06:31.440 --> 01:06:32.280
Yeah.

1076
01:06:32.280 --> 01:06:35.680
Yeah, so if we just really every day,

1077
01:06:35.680 --> 01:06:37.800
like make it, even if it helps you,

1078
01:06:37.800 --> 01:06:40.360
I don't know about you guys, but I put Post-it notes up.

1079
01:06:40.360 --> 01:06:43.560
If I have a hard time remembering something for myself,

1080
01:06:43.560 --> 01:06:46.280
I'm trying to start putting things up to remind myself

1081
01:06:46.280 --> 01:06:48.440
of what do I need to do for me?

1082
01:06:49.880 --> 01:06:53.000
Because I'm busy, I coach all kinds of people

1083
01:06:53.080 --> 01:06:54.760
and I do a lot of work for here,

1084
01:06:54.760 --> 01:06:56.560
I do a lot for the church

1085
01:06:56.560 --> 01:06:59.160
and that's all amazing and beautiful,

1086
01:06:59.160 --> 01:07:01.920
but I have some books that God has given me to write

1087
01:07:01.920 --> 01:07:04.800
and I'm putting that off.

1088
01:07:04.800 --> 01:07:06.080
Why am I doing that?

1089
01:07:06.080 --> 01:07:07.080
Well, there's a lot of reasons.

1090
01:07:07.080 --> 01:07:09.640
Sometimes I don't have any more time in the day,

1091
01:07:09.640 --> 01:07:11.560
but God keeps saying to me,

1092
01:07:11.560 --> 01:07:13.680
Bethany, like even my husband was like,

1093
01:07:13.680 --> 01:07:16.480
even if you write two minutes a day,

1094
01:07:16.480 --> 01:07:18.760
you're moving forward on the book.

1095
01:07:18.760 --> 01:07:20.720
And I keep thinking of that.

1096
01:07:20.720 --> 01:07:22.560
I have it written on a thing

1097
01:07:23.120 --> 01:07:23.960
and I'm moving towards that.

1098
01:07:23.960 --> 01:07:25.760
But just, do you see how like minute,

1099
01:07:25.760 --> 01:07:29.360
like making it smaller can make it more doable?

1100
01:07:30.200 --> 01:07:31.920
Yeah, make it bite size.

1101
01:07:31.920 --> 01:07:33.640
Yeah, yeah, make it bite size.

1102
01:07:33.640 --> 01:07:36.960
So, so glad that you're gonna leave distraction behind

1103
01:07:36.960 --> 01:07:38.680
and you're gonna move forward

1104
01:07:38.680 --> 01:07:40.200
and you're gonna take bite sizes

1105
01:07:40.200 --> 01:07:42.440
and you're gonna step forward in your heart work

1106
01:07:42.440 --> 01:07:44.960
and you're gonna let God take care of the stuff

1107
01:07:44.960 --> 01:07:45.960
that's all the way down there

1108
01:07:45.960 --> 01:07:48.360
because we don't worry about tomorrow

1109
01:07:48.360 --> 01:07:50.160
because tomorrow will have its own troubles

1110
01:07:50.160 --> 01:07:52.320
and worries about itself, right?

1111
01:07:53.080 --> 01:07:53.920
I've been trying not to worry.

1112
01:07:53.920 --> 01:07:55.040
One of the bite sizes I took

1113
01:07:55.040 --> 01:07:56.760
was getting the hard copy of the book.

1114
01:07:56.760 --> 01:07:58.200
That's part of why I kept procrastinating.

1115
01:07:58.200 --> 01:07:59.960
It was very hard with the PDF.

1116
01:07:59.960 --> 01:08:01.200
And so I was like, okay, Ruthie,

1117
01:08:01.200 --> 01:08:02.680
you've got to get that excuse out.

1118
01:08:02.680 --> 01:08:03.880
I know I have to like,

1119
01:08:04.880 --> 01:08:06.400
like something about touching.

1120
01:08:06.400 --> 01:08:10.320
And so this way I can try to stay on top of it.

1121
01:08:10.320 --> 01:08:11.160
I love it.

1122
01:08:11.160 --> 01:08:12.000
I love it.

1123
01:08:12.000 --> 01:08:12.880
Way to go.

1124
01:08:12.880 --> 01:08:14.440
We look forward to hearing how that goes.

1125
01:08:14.440 --> 01:08:15.280
Okay.

1126
01:08:15.280 --> 01:08:16.640
Is it yanky?

1127
01:08:16.640 --> 01:08:18.319
Is that how you say it?

1128
01:08:18.319 --> 01:08:19.680
Help me.

1129
01:08:19.680 --> 01:08:21.240
Okay, awesome.

1130
01:08:21.240 --> 01:08:22.080
Go ahead.

1131
01:08:23.319 --> 01:08:25.680
Thank you for sharing your testimony.

1132
01:08:25.680 --> 01:08:27.080
So vulnerable.

1133
01:08:27.080 --> 01:08:30.359
But I have to confess,

1134
01:08:30.359 --> 01:08:31.960
release the secret,

1135
01:08:31.960 --> 01:08:34.040
is that I was,

1136
01:08:36.560 --> 01:08:39.800
it'd be just angry.

1137
01:08:39.800 --> 01:08:44.800
And because I had a,

1138
01:08:44.800 --> 01:08:48.040
I had a sexually,

1139
01:08:48.040 --> 01:08:50.319
I was my stepfather.

1140
01:08:50.720 --> 01:08:55.200
My mother did not protect me as well.

1141
01:08:56.880 --> 01:09:00.760
She was raped by own brother.

1142
01:09:02.600 --> 01:09:05.120
You sexually was abused,

1143
01:09:06.240 --> 01:09:08.240
harassed by your own brother.

1144
01:09:08.240 --> 01:09:12.200
So because I had the trauma,

1145
01:09:12.200 --> 01:09:16.479
that's why my brain sometimes could be numbness.

1146
01:09:16.479 --> 01:09:18.319
I know it was my first marriage.

1147
01:09:18.319 --> 01:09:21.080
I came out and my brain was numbed.

1148
01:09:22.359 --> 01:09:23.439
Could not think.

1149
01:09:23.439 --> 01:09:26.720
So it caused a lot of things happening.

1150
01:09:26.720 --> 01:09:31.319
Not have very good performance at jobs.

1151
01:09:31.319 --> 01:09:34.880
And even interaction with people.

1152
01:09:34.880 --> 01:09:37.160
And people sometimes misunderstood me

1153
01:09:37.160 --> 01:09:38.840
and hurt me and this and that.

1154
01:09:38.840 --> 01:09:42.200
And even the authorities and the spiritual authority

1155
01:09:42.200 --> 01:09:44.600
and even the authorities.

1156
01:09:44.600 --> 01:09:48.040
So anyway, they did not know my condition.

1157
01:09:48.880 --> 01:09:50.319
So I forgave them.

1158
01:09:50.319 --> 01:09:53.720
And then I was kind of angry at me sometimes.

1159
01:09:53.720 --> 01:09:57.960
I could not be the one God created me to be,

1160
01:09:57.960 --> 01:09:58.800
to more.

1161
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:12.000
Productive, efficient, punctual, and I struggle with procrastination and delay, and I think

1162
01:10:12.000 --> 01:10:13.640
it's because of fear sometimes.

1163
01:10:13.640 --> 01:10:16.240
I think I was not good enough.

1164
01:10:16.240 --> 01:10:22.560
My stepfather, I have not seen my family for over 20 years now because I don't want to

1165
01:10:22.560 --> 01:10:27.040
speak to my stepfather, and that's because he's the reason I don't want to go back.

1166
01:10:28.000 --> 01:10:33.280
Right now, my family, my mother, my brother, my background father, all gone.

1167
01:10:34.000 --> 01:10:40.160
Only he left, but he took good care of my brother and my mother.

1168
01:10:41.120 --> 01:10:47.360
I mean, I don't want to blame him because he's a familiar spirit, and also because my mom

1169
01:10:47.360 --> 01:10:49.520
was very cold on sex.

1170
01:10:49.520 --> 01:10:56.160
He was not satisfied, and he just loved me and took me to his bed.

1171
01:10:58.320 --> 01:11:05.520
So Joy, you're confessing the anger that you have still, or is this a prior anger?

1172
01:11:05.520 --> 01:11:07.360
I still have anger, I think.

1173
01:11:07.360 --> 01:11:14.160
I'm saying anger about a situation because I'm tormented and also anger about myself.

1174
01:11:14.800 --> 01:11:15.120
Okay.

1175
01:11:15.840 --> 01:11:16.240
All right.

1176
01:11:16.400 --> 01:11:21.600
Remember, ladies, when we have anger, as I mentioned earlier, we really want to look

1177
01:11:21.600 --> 01:11:24.000
at the sadness that's still underneath of there.

1178
01:11:25.200 --> 01:11:29.680
One of the ways that I encourage you all to do, and I think this is Joy that was talking,

1179
01:11:29.680 --> 01:11:30.080
correct?

1180
01:11:31.520 --> 01:11:33.520
I don't want people to call me Joy.

1181
01:11:33.520 --> 01:11:34.000
Oh, okay.

1182
01:11:34.640 --> 01:11:36.240
You had that on there this afternoon.

1183
01:11:36.240 --> 01:11:37.120
That's why I didn't know.

1184
01:11:37.760 --> 01:11:40.480
For the last several weeks, you've had that name on there.

1185
01:11:40.480 --> 01:11:40.800
All right.

1186
01:11:40.800 --> 01:11:45.600
Well, we'll call you Yankee going forward, but I just wanted to know if you were who

1187
01:11:45.600 --> 01:11:46.320
I thought you were.

1188
01:11:48.000 --> 01:11:54.960
Actually, I did not want people to know, so I just want to differentiate the real me.

1189
01:11:55.600 --> 01:12:02.960
Beneath that, there's some story I did not want to confess, but today I just obey God.

1190
01:12:02.960 --> 01:12:06.800
I want to confess because you said no more keep it a secret.

1191
01:12:08.560 --> 01:12:08.800
Okay.

1192
01:12:09.360 --> 01:12:10.480
Well, thank you.

1193
01:12:10.480 --> 01:12:11.920
Thank you for sharing that with us.

1194
01:12:12.560 --> 01:12:17.120
And remember that we want to love the little girl us.

1195
01:12:17.120 --> 01:12:17.760
Okay.

1196
01:12:17.760 --> 01:12:23.600
So with your situation, especially one of the things I want to encourage you to ask

1197
01:12:23.600 --> 01:12:30.480
the Lord to do is to help teach you how to love on the little girl you that was abused

1198
01:12:30.480 --> 01:12:34.400
and how does he want to come and minister to her?

1199
01:12:35.120 --> 01:12:41.280
Because we can do a lot of work as an adult on our heart currently, but we need to minister

1200
01:12:41.280 --> 01:12:47.600
to the one that got hurt years ago, the little version of us and minister, allow God to minister

1201
01:12:47.600 --> 01:12:48.560
to her.

1202
01:12:48.560 --> 01:12:52.640
And then as she heals, then what can happen is convergence.

1203
01:12:52.640 --> 01:12:57.440
I actually prayed about this when y'all were in the breakouts, the little girl, us converges

1204
01:12:57.440 --> 01:12:59.680
back with the adult version of us.

1205
01:12:59.680 --> 01:13:03.120
It's not like we're walking around separate people, like, you know, floating around or

1206
01:13:03.120 --> 01:13:03.360
anything.

1207
01:13:03.360 --> 01:13:09.040
I'm not saying anything weird, but genuinely like people within themselves, there, there

1208
01:13:09.040 --> 01:13:14.080
comes a disassociation, a separation, a breaking that happens.

1209
01:13:14.640 --> 01:13:20.480
And so as the little girl, us is healed and the adult version is healed.

1210
01:13:20.480 --> 01:13:23.280
We can start to converge and become more whole.

1211
01:13:24.640 --> 01:13:28.560
God wants us to be completely whole lacking, no good thing.

1212
01:13:29.440 --> 01:13:31.280
And so I want to encourage you all.

1213
01:13:31.280 --> 01:13:36.720
This is for her as well as anybody else that as you allow the Lord to heal those versions

1214
01:13:36.800 --> 01:13:40.080
of you so many great things can happen.

1215
01:13:40.080 --> 01:13:41.120
Thank you for sharing.

1216
01:13:41.120 --> 01:13:43.200
So courageous to share that with us.

1217
01:13:43.760 --> 01:13:45.120
I appreciate you so much.

1218
01:13:45.680 --> 01:13:47.120
Anna Smith, go ahead.

1219
01:13:50.560 --> 01:13:51.520
Hi, Bethany.

1220
01:13:52.880 --> 01:13:58.160
So I just wanted to confess it's similar actually to what Ruth was saying.

1221
01:13:58.160 --> 01:14:02.560
And I did end up buying a paper, is there a paper copy of the book?

1222
01:14:02.560 --> 01:14:09.200
Because I have been really procrastinating and half doing this course.

1223
01:14:10.400 --> 01:14:16.640
I think that, well, part of it is definitely because I was, I am still working through

1224
01:14:16.640 --> 01:14:23.280
my anger and my doubt.

1225
01:14:24.000 --> 01:14:33.600
And, yeah, so I am really trying to get to a place where I trust God and I believe the

1226
01:14:33.600 --> 01:14:37.040
things that he, the good things that he has for me.

1227
01:14:39.040 --> 01:14:45.200
So, yes, so I guess that's that's that's that's really good.

1228
01:14:45.200 --> 01:14:45.760
It's really good.

1229
01:14:45.760 --> 01:14:49.360
Anna, can you tell me what your anger is?

1230
01:14:49.440 --> 01:14:50.400
Connected to?

1231
01:14:50.400 --> 01:14:56.160
I mean, I am assuming because you want God's best for you, including the love story he

1232
01:14:56.160 --> 01:14:56.720
has for you.

1233
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:04.520
for you. But can you tell me specifically, because there was, you know, you had emotion

1234
01:15:04.520 --> 01:15:09.360
bubble up there. So I can tell there's some pain there. And so it might help me to coach

1235
01:15:09.360 --> 01:15:13.520
you a little bit more if I know what that's connected to.

1236
01:15:13.520 --> 01:15:22.600
I feel I feel forgotten in a lot of ways. I mean, you know, and this is this is probably

1237
01:15:22.600 --> 01:15:27.840
I just need to sit and really be grateful because there are avenues and areas of my

1238
01:15:27.840 --> 01:15:34.440
life where God has excelled me. But I feel like this particular area, it's just I just

1239
01:15:34.440 --> 01:15:41.200
feel like I'm stagnant and I'm slow when I'm delayed. And when we were in the breakout

1240
01:15:41.200 --> 01:15:48.780
session, we it was just me and Mandy and we were talking a bit about that. And just one

1241
01:15:48.780 --> 01:15:53.400
of the things that we were discussing is how, you know, God does things slowly because it's

1242
01:15:53.400 --> 01:15:59.840
not just about me. Right. He wants me to be well and wonderful and everything. But

1243
01:15:59.840 --> 01:16:06.600
he's also going to give me his son and I can't mistreat that person. And so I think I'm angry

1244
01:16:06.600 --> 01:16:11.620
because I'm like, OK, just whatever you need me to do to fix it, let's fix it. But it seems

1245
01:16:11.620 --> 01:16:18.840
like it just doesn't get fixed. So, yeah, there's so one of the things I want to point

1246
01:16:18.840 --> 01:16:24.720
out when you said that you feel forgotten, you kind of went right into I probably should

1247
01:16:24.720 --> 01:16:31.760
just sit and be grateful. And I'm 100 percent. I believe that you all the more that for those

1248
01:16:31.760 --> 01:16:36.720
of you that are new to the program, I'm a firm believer in our attitude of gratitude,

1249
01:16:36.720 --> 01:16:41.800
thanksgiving. But there's also times where I can just sense in my spirit that actually

1250
01:16:41.800 --> 01:16:47.400
that that probably isn't what you need to do right now, Anna. I think you actually need

1251
01:16:47.400 --> 01:16:55.120
to ask the Lord. When was the first time that you believed the lie that you were forgotten?

1252
01:16:55.120 --> 01:17:02.560
I think you need to feel the pain of whatever happened in that beginning place. Allow God

1253
01:17:02.560 --> 01:17:09.360
to heal that. So that you can move forward. This isn't about behaving good and just being

1254
01:17:09.360 --> 01:17:14.740
grateful even though you feel pain. Let's let's look at the the light that's on the

1255
01:17:14.740 --> 01:17:20.180
dashboard that's saying, hey, overheated, overheated, overheated. You know, that's

1256
01:17:20.180 --> 01:17:25.420
kind of what's happening. And so does anything come to mind when I say, like, when's the

1257
01:17:25.420 --> 01:17:32.260
first time you remember feeling forgotten? Very, very early. So my parents divorced when

1258
01:17:32.260 --> 01:17:41.700
I was two and my biological mother moved back to the Virgin Islands. And so I I started

1259
01:17:41.700 --> 01:17:46.060
traveling by myself. I mean, obviously, with the flight attendants, but I was probably

1260
01:17:46.060 --> 01:17:57.940
like four when I started flying alone. And I remember being there and being sad. And

1261
01:17:57.940 --> 01:18:16.980
just really wishing that I felt like my my mommy loved me. So probably definitely then.

1262
01:18:16.980 --> 01:18:22.660
I'm really sorry to hear that you went through that at such a young age, Anna. And I believe

1263
01:18:22.660 --> 01:18:28.260
that the Lord is wanting to come in and minister to that part of your of your heart. And I

1264
01:18:28.260 --> 01:18:34.420
know, ladies, like I want to encourage you to like sometimes God is slow. But sometimes

1265
01:18:34.420 --> 01:18:40.700
he's not. Sometimes it's just that we need to heal to receive what he's going to give

1266
01:18:40.700 --> 01:18:46.940
us. And I think it's easier for us sometimes to say, well, God's just holding out or he's

1267
01:18:46.940 --> 01:18:51.420
slow or he doesn't work in my life. You know, we don't mean to say those things, but we

1268
01:18:51.460 --> 01:18:59.260
actually that's what we believe. But those beliefs come from lies. Because of trauma. And

1269
01:18:59.260 --> 01:19:03.700
so we have to get to the root. And and ladies, sometimes you're not going to know if you're at

1270
01:19:03.700 --> 01:19:08.300
the root lie the first time, but we just go with what comes up. So tonight, that's what came up

1271
01:19:08.300 --> 01:19:13.940
for her. So that's where she's I would encourage her to start. And even if you've done work on

1272
01:19:13.940 --> 01:19:20.140
that before, Anna, I believe God wants to heal another layer of that tonight. And to the

1273
01:19:20.180 --> 01:19:25.180
point that I believe sincerely, and I don't, I wouldn't do this a lot. But I believe he's going

1274
01:19:25.180 --> 01:19:30.460
to bring someone into your life that's going to be a mom figure. She's not gonna be your mom. But

1275
01:19:30.460 --> 01:19:34.980
I believe she's gonna step in and she's gonna love you in a way that you need it in this

1276
01:19:34.980 --> 01:19:41.140
season. And I don't know how soon that will be. But I do feel like it's coming. And so just want

1277
01:19:41.140 --> 01:19:46.420
to encourage you before she even gets here, that you'll receive love from the Father in that

1278
01:19:46.420 --> 01:19:49.380
area so that you can even receive the blessing from her.

1279
01:19:50.980 --> 01:19:51.500
Thank you.

1280
01:19:51.940 --> 01:19:57.820
You're welcome. Ladies super important for us to love on these little kids that's coming up a lot

1281
01:19:57.820 --> 01:20:00.100
tonight two years old parents divorced

1282
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:03.600
just having to fly alone at four. That's a really big deal.

1283
01:20:04.360 --> 01:20:08.040
Right? So let's love on these little, little girls on the

1284
01:20:08.040 --> 01:20:11.600
inside. Let's give them some attention. I mean, literally, I

1285
01:20:11.600 --> 01:20:14.720
mean, I'm not asking you to sit and have a conversation with a

1286
01:20:14.720 --> 01:20:18.760
fake person there. You're just literally internally like, Hey,

1287
01:20:18.760 --> 01:20:21.320
like Anna, like you're just thinking about when you were a

1288
01:20:21.320 --> 01:20:29.560
little like, how can I love you today? I feel that in the Holy

1289
01:20:29.560 --> 01:20:35.400
Spirit to say in that out loud. Because that little girl needs

1290
01:20:35.400 --> 01:20:39.080
to know that was sitting in that airport alone that she's not

1291
01:20:39.080 --> 01:20:47.280
alone. And that God has always been there. And that God's heart

1292
01:20:47.300 --> 01:20:52.880
broke for her when she was sitting there crying. That's who

1293
01:20:52.880 --> 01:21:04.360
God is. Sometimes we just got to sit in some stuff, ladies, I

1294
01:21:04.360 --> 01:21:08.960
feel it. I just need this to linger for a minute. God, his

1295
01:21:08.960 --> 01:21:15.200
heart breaks when we break. When people do things or life happens

1296
01:21:15.200 --> 01:21:19.920
to us, and it hurts us. And he wants to come into those places

1297
01:21:19.920 --> 01:21:24.040
and set you free. But you have to give him permission to come

1298
01:21:24.040 --> 01:21:28.320
in. God is a gentleman, he doesn't force his way in. He will

1299
01:21:28.320 --> 01:21:33.360
not abuse you or mistreat you. He stands at the door of our

1300
01:21:33.360 --> 01:21:37.320
hearts and he knocks and you get to choose whether or not you're

1301
01:21:37.320 --> 01:21:40.440
going to let him come into that place that's vulnerable. I think

1302
01:21:40.440 --> 01:21:43.080
there's a lot of vulnerability. I felt it as soon as God said to

1303
01:21:43.080 --> 01:21:46.440
me to say, Hey, tell them they don't have to keep the secret. I

1304
01:21:46.440 --> 01:21:49.640
just had a feeling tonight was going to be a special important

1305
01:21:49.640 --> 01:21:53.640
night. So y'all just keep inviting the Lord in to show you

1306
01:21:53.640 --> 01:21:57.800
what you can't see, so that you can heal and step into freedom

1307
01:21:57.800 --> 01:22:02.280
and fullness. Okay. All right, Emily, go ahead. Anna, thanks for

1308
01:22:02.280 --> 01:22:02.920
sharing.

1309
01:22:05.240 --> 01:22:07.640
I had a great time with Cherry, it was just the two of us in our

1310
01:22:07.640 --> 01:22:11.000
group, and we both kind of mentioned something similar. The

1311
01:22:11.000 --> 01:22:14.520
way I phrased it was, I feel like I have a bit of a poverty

1312
01:22:14.520 --> 01:22:17.800
mindset when it comes to like being with the right person. And

1313
01:22:17.800 --> 01:22:20.920
part of it's because I just haven't really met anyone that I

1314
01:22:20.920 --> 01:22:24.520
could see myself with who kind of felt the same way. Like it

1315
01:22:24.520 --> 01:22:27.240
just feels like most of the people that are interested in me

1316
01:22:27.240 --> 01:22:31.200
I'm just not really, kind of really vibing with and the ones

1317
01:22:31.200 --> 01:22:35.360
that I, well, to be more specific, actually, the ones

1318
01:22:35.360 --> 01:22:40.240
who are interested in me are non believers, and 50 year old

1319
01:22:40.360 --> 01:22:46.160
creeps that are like much older than me. So you know, I would

1320
01:22:46.160 --> 01:22:51.520
never do any of that being a demonic person. And the ones I'm

1321
01:22:51.520 --> 01:22:54.160
interested in are either unavailable, or with other

1322
01:22:54.160 --> 01:22:58.080
people. So that's sort of been a bit of my student. Yeah.

1323
01:22:59.480 --> 01:23:05.280
Okay. All right. So I'm going to say something very similar as

1324
01:23:05.280 --> 01:23:10.040
far as you know, the first time that you dated someone that was

1325
01:23:10.040 --> 01:23:16.080
unavailable. So who's the first person that you dated that was

1326
01:23:16.080 --> 01:23:18.640
unavailable? Was it someone that you really like?

1327
01:23:18.640 --> 01:23:23.000
So I only did it once in my life. And that was eight years

1328
01:23:23.000 --> 01:23:28.720
ago. And I've been single and celibate since then. I don't

1329
01:23:28.720 --> 01:23:31.360
know if he was unavailable. It's more like he couldn't lead in

1330
01:23:31.360 --> 01:23:34.920
the relationship. And I made it very easy for him to access me.

1331
01:23:35.600 --> 01:23:39.720
And he's very much a player. And then, like the reason why we

1332
01:23:39.720 --> 01:23:42.200
kind of broke things off is because there is another girl

1333
01:23:42.200 --> 01:23:45.480
who kind of got in between us. And he let her get in between

1334
01:23:45.480 --> 01:23:50.640
us. So that was very painful for me. Because I thought we

1335
01:23:50.640 --> 01:23:53.640
were pretty serious. And he was like, you know, I'm wanting to

1336
01:23:53.640 --> 01:23:56.520
change wanting to get better. So I believed it and was willing

1337
01:23:56.520 --> 01:24:00.880
to help him. That's like a big ministry project. Yeah, for me

1338
01:24:00.880 --> 01:24:04.560
to Yeah, yeah. So I treated that way.

1339
01:24:05.120 --> 01:24:09.480
Sorry, was there a boy like in high school or somebody younger

1340
01:24:09.480 --> 01:24:13.920
that you had a crush on? Anything like that? Like when

1341
01:24:13.920 --> 01:24:16.040
you were younger, I keep feeling like there's someone

1342
01:24:16.040 --> 01:24:19.800
that no crush on anybody that you never felt like they saw

1343
01:24:19.800 --> 01:24:21.960
you, you didn't feel noticed by them?

1344
01:24:23.680 --> 01:24:26.720
Not not anyone I can think of really? Yeah.

1345
01:24:26.800 --> 01:24:30.040
Okay. I want you just to pray into that. I don't know if it is

1346
01:24:30.040 --> 01:24:32.600
for sure you or if I'm just picking up on something somebody

1347
01:24:32.600 --> 01:24:38.000
else's is processing here in the group tonight. But sometimes

1348
01:24:38.000 --> 01:24:43.680
what can happen is when we either have a crush on someone,

1349
01:24:44.000 --> 01:24:48.080
and we just never feel seen by them, we start to partner with

1350
01:24:48.280 --> 01:24:50.720
the fact that I'm never going to be able to find someone that

1351
01:24:50.720 --> 01:24:56.600
actually likes me too. Another, the flip side of that is

1352
01:24:56.600 --> 01:24:59.920
sometimes someone can say something over us and we

1353
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:02.320
believe the lie that's spoken through them.

1354
01:25:02.800 --> 01:25:03.260
Okay.

1355
01:25:04.000 --> 01:25:09.000
It can be like someone saying like, you're never going to find anybody or,

1356
01:25:09.000 --> 01:25:12.040
you know, you're not meant to be married or you're not made for marriage.

1357
01:25:12.040 --> 01:25:13.980
People say all kinds of like stuff.

1358
01:25:14.280 --> 01:25:17.140
And I don't know if any of that stuff has ever been said over you, but just

1359
01:25:17.140 --> 01:25:22.360
pray into kind of both of those types of areas and let's see if the Lord reveals

1360
01:25:22.360 --> 01:25:25.520
something, I'm not saying it's not the situation with this guy that you dated

1361
01:25:25.880 --> 01:25:29.900
eight years ago, there probably is some more healing to do there as well, because

1362
01:25:29.900 --> 01:25:36.440
it did come up, but I kept sensing something like a boy or someone that you

1363
01:25:36.440 --> 01:25:38.420
were connected to when you were younger.

1364
01:25:39.740 --> 01:25:42.580
So let's hang into that and see where the Lord leads.

1365
01:25:42.580 --> 01:25:46.000
It might end up not going anywhere at all, and I'm okay with that, but let's

1366
01:25:46.000 --> 01:25:50.760
just see if it brings anything up and, and ladies understand when I get, give

1367
01:25:50.760 --> 01:25:54.580
some of these things, um, it's okay if it doesn't come up right in the next few

1368
01:25:54.940 --> 01:25:54.940


1369
01:25:54.940 --> 01:25:55.340
Okay.

1370
01:25:55.340 --> 01:26:00.800
So just keep doing your heart work and, and see if something comes up along the

1371
01:26:00.800 --> 01:26:05.400
way, actually another thing, and this isn't just for Emily, but, um, something

1372
01:26:05.400 --> 01:26:09.900
just came up in my spirit when I saw Monica said the word renounce, um,

1373
01:26:11.020 --> 01:26:17.120
sometimes people even get crushes, um, with people that are like actors and they

1374
01:26:17.120 --> 01:26:23.020
start fantasizing and connecting with an actor, um, and actually kind of have

1375
01:26:23.020 --> 01:26:28.120
these soul ties that form that are emotional because of the fantasy world

1376
01:26:28.120 --> 01:26:29.860
that they're kind of thinking and living in.

1377
01:26:30.100 --> 01:26:33.500
I know that kind of sounds out there, but it, it does happen ladies.

1378
01:26:33.780 --> 01:26:38.280
And so, uh, if that is for anyone want to encourage you just to really come

1379
01:26:38.280 --> 01:26:40.180
out of alignment with that as well.

1380
01:26:40.540 --> 01:26:44.460
And we do have the breaking soul tie session as you go through the heartworks.

1381
01:26:44.460 --> 01:26:48.100
So you guys are going to understand more of what that means and the prayer for

1382
01:26:48.100 --> 01:26:49.300
every, this happens a lot.

1383
01:26:49.300 --> 01:26:54.380
A lot of people don't see when you click on the breaking soul ties session, the

1384
01:26:54.380 --> 01:26:58.860
prayer that she talks about in the video is actually right there underneath of the

1385
01:26:58.860 --> 01:26:59.420
video.

1386
01:26:59.620 --> 01:27:01.860
So if y'all are ever looking for that, that's where it's at.

1387
01:27:01.900 --> 01:27:02.340
Okay.

1388
01:27:02.660 --> 01:27:04.580
Emily, thank you so much for sharing.

1389
01:27:04.580 --> 01:27:05.340
Appreciate you.

1390
01:27:05.780 --> 01:27:07.820
Uh, so I'm Maureen.

1391
01:27:07.820 --> 01:27:09.180
I don't know if I'm going to be able to get to you.

1392
01:27:09.180 --> 01:27:12.340
Cause I have three more minutes and Lenina and Stephanie already

1393
01:27:12.340 --> 01:27:13.020
had their hands up.

1394
01:27:13.020 --> 01:27:16.820
So you, so if, if you can put it in the group for me, I can answer you

1395
01:27:16.820 --> 01:27:17.620
and respond to you there.

1396
01:27:17.620 --> 01:27:18.120
Okay.

1397
01:27:18.660 --> 01:27:19.100
All right.

1398
01:27:19.300 --> 01:27:21.500
Lenina, hopefully I'm saying your name, right?

1399
01:27:21.540 --> 01:27:22.620
Yes, that's right.

1400
01:27:23.140 --> 01:27:23.580
Okay.

1401
01:27:23.620 --> 01:27:24.140
Go ahead.

1402
01:27:24.740 --> 01:27:25.740
Um, okay.

1403
01:27:25.740 --> 01:27:30.020
So my confession was about, uh, forgiveness.

1404
01:27:30.660 --> 01:27:36.220
Um, I had a really, really deep betrayal by my sister.

1405
01:27:36.900 --> 01:27:42.980
Um, and I thought I had forgiven her, um, until doing the heartwork.

1406
01:27:43.380 --> 01:27:48.780
I realized that what I was really doing was putting up walls and keeping her at a

1407
01:27:48.780 --> 01:27:55.980
distance and away from my life to avoid being hurt by her again with, cause she

1408
01:27:55.980 --> 01:28:02.420
hasn't earned my trust and she continues, um, to hurt, but I really haven't

1409
01:28:02.620 --> 01:28:10.820
forgiven either because, um, it's not that I'm angry and I don't give her much

1410
01:28:10.820 --> 01:28:17.780
thought, but I know that this heartwork has stirred up some things and has really

1411
01:28:18.140 --> 01:28:19.940
shown me that I haven't forgiven.

1412
01:28:20.500 --> 01:28:25.900
I, I just haven't, the betrayal was deep and I don't want anything to do with her.

1413
01:28:26.020 --> 01:28:32.540
But the sad thing is that now my niece, um, is kind of stuck in the middle because

1414
01:28:32.540 --> 01:28:34.860
she wants me to go to her graduation party.

1415
01:28:35.460 --> 01:28:39.740
And I don't think I could bring myself to go because I know her mother will be there.

1416
01:28:41.300 --> 01:28:41.980
Okay.

1417
01:28:42.380 --> 01:28:46.100
So then that probably does mean there's definitely some more layers of forgiveness

1418
01:28:46.100 --> 01:28:47.820
and healing that needs to happen there.

1419
01:28:48.340 --> 01:28:51.900
Um, when I encourage you, if you haven't already done it with the new stuff

1420
01:28:51.900 --> 01:28:55.580
that's come into the surface, definitely get out the forgiveness prayer sheet

1421
01:28:55.580 --> 01:29:03.060
and work through that, um, and, and really ask the Lord, I know within your

1422
01:29:03.060 --> 01:29:09.300
own self that you might not feel like you can go, but what is the Lord?

1423
01:29:09.340 --> 01:29:12.660
Not that the Lord is going to ask you to go, but maybe the Lord would ask you to

1424
01:29:12.660 --> 01:29:14.540
take your niece to lunch or something.

1425
01:29:14.940 --> 01:29:19.340
You know, um, but just maybe he would ask you to go to the party.

1426
01:29:19.340 --> 01:29:22.820
Maybe he would ask you to ask your sister to get together beforehand

1427
01:29:23.340 --> 01:29:24.740
so y'all can work through some stuff.

1428
01:29:24.740 --> 01:29:27.980
I don't know, but just putting, dropping some seeds and I'm going to let you

1429
01:29:27.980 --> 01:29:30.700
pray into it and see what the Lord might lead you to do there.

1430
01:29:30.700 --> 01:29:31.220
Okay.

1431
01:29:31.620 --> 01:29:32.140
Thank you.

1432
01:29:32.420 --> 01:29:33.260
You're welcome.

1433
01:29:33.740 --> 01:29:35.060
Forgiveness is so important.

1434
01:29:35.060 --> 01:29:36.540
You all, it really, really is.

1435
01:29:36.540 --> 01:29:40.420
We got to let go of all the bitter roots that get stuck down in

1436
01:29:40.420 --> 01:29:41.740
when we don't choose to forgive.

1437
01:29:41.740 --> 01:29:45.860
And even sometimes when we do forgive and there's just those additional layers

1438
01:29:45.860 --> 01:29:47.860
that we just don't, we don't even know they're still there.

1439
01:29:48.260 --> 01:29:51.060
So lean into that and definitely let God heal.

1440
01:29:51.060 --> 01:29:53.700
If that applies to you, in addition to Lenina.

1441
01:29:54.020 --> 01:29:55.260
Stephanie, go ahead.

1442
01:29:57.180 --> 01:29:57.780
Hi.

1443
01:29:57.860 --> 01:29:59.980
Um, so.

1444
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:06.320
Thank you, Bethany, first off for being vulnerable and sharing your story, it definitely helped

1445
01:30:06.320 --> 01:30:08.800
with prompting how to do this.

1446
01:30:08.800 --> 01:30:17.560
And also thank you for encouraging me to speak on this one in the community as well.

1447
01:30:17.560 --> 01:30:26.780
So the big thing that I think that I need to confess or the big, I guess, series of

1448
01:30:26.780 --> 01:30:39.740
things is not forgiving myself for like bulldozing past the red flags that I've seen in men in

1449
01:30:39.740 --> 01:30:40.740
the past.

1450
01:30:40.740 --> 01:30:49.780
And then also allowing myself to cross boundaries physically that I shouldn't have even in my

1451
01:30:49.780 --> 01:30:59.020
last relationship, like going past those red flags and then also going past those physical

1452
01:30:59.020 --> 01:31:08.260
boundaries that I knew that I shouldn't have passed as well, just to please him and to

1453
01:31:08.260 --> 01:31:18.780
try to grasp for straws and hold on to a relationship that I know that wasn't healthy.

1454
01:31:18.780 --> 01:31:19.780
This is so good.

1455
01:31:19.780 --> 01:31:20.780
You did great.

1456
01:31:20.780 --> 01:31:21.780
You did a great job.

1457
01:31:21.780 --> 01:31:28.900
Y'all take so much courage to share and I appreciate every person that has shared tonight.

1458
01:31:28.900 --> 01:31:33.580
So one of the things when you were saying about the red flags that I just want to encourage

1459
01:31:33.580 --> 01:31:35.640
you for my own story as well.

1460
01:31:35.640 --> 01:31:39.540
I remember just, you know, because I spent six years with him and then went through so

1461
01:31:39.540 --> 01:31:44.260
much similar things to what you're explaining.

1462
01:31:44.260 --> 01:31:47.980
And I just felt like, man, I wasted all that time.

1463
01:31:48.660 --> 01:31:49.860
I lost those years.

1464
01:31:49.860 --> 01:31:51.820
I can't get that back.

1465
01:31:51.820 --> 01:31:57.740
And the Lord really ministered to me about how he can redeem the time.

1466
01:31:57.740 --> 01:32:00.780
Like he can give me that time back.

1467
01:32:00.780 --> 01:32:05.740
And sometimes those kinds of things are hard for our brains to comprehend because it's

1468
01:32:05.740 --> 01:32:07.820
a supernatural thing.

1469
01:32:07.820 --> 01:32:12.540
But genuinely the last two, I'm almost September will be three years.

1470
01:32:12.540 --> 01:32:13.540
I've been married.

1471
01:32:13.540 --> 01:32:16.420
It's crazy to even like, it's gone so fast.

1472
01:32:16.420 --> 01:32:24.460
But like my life is so different now that it just feels like that has been ages ago.

1473
01:32:24.460 --> 01:32:27.260
And so I just want to encourage you.

1474
01:32:27.260 --> 01:32:32.740
It started with me forgiving myself for blowing past those red flags sincerely.

1475
01:32:32.740 --> 01:32:38.860
And so I wouldn't have you this week to do one of those forgiveness prayer sheets specifically

1476
01:32:38.860 --> 01:32:45.580
towards yourself for that and for crossing the physical boundaries and not honoring yourself

1477
01:32:45.580 --> 01:32:47.020
the way that you really wanted to.

1478
01:32:47.020 --> 01:32:48.940
That's what I hear you saying.

1479
01:32:48.940 --> 01:32:57.860
And so even with that, ladies, just know like we can have a clean slate.

1480
01:32:57.860 --> 01:33:01.340
Like God removes our sins as far as, I always do this wrong.

1481
01:33:01.340 --> 01:33:02.860
The East, is this my East?

1482
01:33:02.860 --> 01:33:03.860
I don't know.

1483
01:33:03.860 --> 01:33:04.860
The East from the West.

1484
01:33:04.860 --> 01:33:07.780
It's my right and left, whatever, whatever direction it is.

1485
01:33:07.780 --> 01:33:10.660
But he removes them far away.

1486
01:33:10.660 --> 01:33:15.540
And then he says he'll take all of our sins that were crimson scarlet and make them white

1487
01:33:15.540 --> 01:33:17.060
as snow.

1488
01:33:17.060 --> 01:33:20.740
He removes that.

1489
01:33:20.740 --> 01:33:30.740
So when you repent and you're confessing that, he's making the slate clean tonight for you.

1490
01:33:30.740 --> 01:33:31.740
It's clean.

1491
01:33:31.740 --> 01:33:34.060
So you get a do over.

1492
01:33:34.060 --> 01:33:42.180
And I think from my own experience, it just takes really knowing who you are, knowing

1493
01:33:42.180 --> 01:33:44.620
what you want to fight for.

1494
01:33:44.620 --> 01:33:51.380
And sincerely, this last time around, what really helped me, I mean, Brian and I fought

1495
01:33:51.380 --> 01:33:55.540
for the covenant too, I mean, as I mentioned, but one of the other things that really was

1496
01:33:55.540 --> 01:34:02.420
fueling me in my boundary setting and really working on my self-control and growing in

1497
01:34:02.420 --> 01:34:12.500
my love for my own self and my body and loving everything, like protecting that was, I want

1498
01:34:12.500 --> 01:34:17.700
to break, I want to break, I already am, but I wanted to break the cycle of the spirit

1499
01:34:17.700 --> 01:34:22.580
of lust that had been attacking my family for generations.

1500
01:34:22.580 --> 01:34:27.600
And I wanted that to end and I didn't want that to pass to my kids.

1501
01:34:27.600 --> 01:34:33.160
And so when it got hard, because y'all, I had to put boundaries in place, even Brian,

1502
01:34:33.160 --> 01:34:36.980
we got closer and closer to getting it, or we were already engaged closer and closer

1503
01:34:36.980 --> 01:34:39.200
to the wedding.

1504
01:34:39.200 --> 01:34:41.040
We had to put all kinds of boundaries in place.

1505
01:34:41.040 --> 01:34:44.520
I couldn't even cuddle with him because I would want to do stuff.

1506
01:34:44.520 --> 01:34:46.200
That's how our flesh is.

1507
01:34:46.200 --> 01:34:51.400
And so we couldn't kiss, we couldn't cuddle, literally the one day I was like, get away

1508
01:34:51.400 --> 01:34:53.400
from me, get away.

1509
01:34:53.400 --> 01:34:59.320
We were joking about it, but like being serious at the same time, because like, it just was

1510
01:34:59.320 --> 01:35:00.000
the boundary.

1511
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:06.360
I had to put in place so that my body didn't bring up things that I didn't need to be thinking

1512
01:35:06.360 --> 01:35:09.400
about or going in that direction.

1513
01:35:09.400 --> 01:35:10.560
And he honored that.

1514
01:35:10.560 --> 01:35:15.900
And he, you know, like he respected those boundaries and he loved me.

1515
01:35:15.900 --> 01:35:21.720
And I remember the most pivotal conversation as I start to close tonight was when he reminded

1516
01:35:21.720 --> 01:35:27.920
me that he's like, Bethany, you're more than a body.

1517
01:35:27.920 --> 01:35:32.040
Like I love you.

1518
01:35:32.040 --> 01:35:35.280
It wasn't about just being sexual.

1519
01:35:35.280 --> 01:35:37.880
It was about loving me as a person.

1520
01:35:37.880 --> 01:35:42.040
Do y'all understand?

1521
01:35:42.040 --> 01:35:47.240
And I know that the world tries to cause you to believe that there's not enough good men

1522
01:35:47.240 --> 01:35:48.360
out there.

1523
01:35:48.360 --> 01:35:51.160
And even Christian circles, people are talking about that.

1524
01:35:51.160 --> 01:35:53.640
You are, you all, there are.

1525
01:35:53.640 --> 01:35:55.400
There are good men out there.

1526
01:35:55.400 --> 01:35:58.280
And there are enough of them.

1527
01:35:58.280 --> 01:36:00.120
God will lead you to your spirit mate.

1528
01:36:00.120 --> 01:36:03.920
He's going to help you if you will trust him in the process.

1529
01:36:03.920 --> 01:36:05.800
Yeah.

1530
01:36:05.800 --> 01:36:10.640
And so I want to encourage you to really just receive God's love and forgiveness for you

1531
01:36:10.640 --> 01:36:12.160
tonight and towards you.

1532
01:36:12.160 --> 01:36:17.360
He loves you and he wants to help you walk this out.

1533
01:36:17.360 --> 01:36:23.280
Sharon, no, you can hope, but let's step into, I believe, help my unbelief.

1534
01:36:23.280 --> 01:36:24.600
Let's partner with it.

1535
01:36:25.440 --> 01:36:27.240
Let's partner with this truth.

1536
01:36:27.240 --> 01:36:29.640
Let's allow ourselves to receive it.

1537
01:36:29.640 --> 01:36:35.120
God has good things for us and he wants to lead us there every step of the way.

1538
01:36:35.120 --> 01:36:42.400
So now I'm married and now the next good thing we're moving towards is baby and being older.

1539
01:36:42.400 --> 01:36:44.560
Of course, fear wants to set in.

1540
01:36:44.560 --> 01:36:49.600
Of course, we have weird things like we go to a doctor for my husband and has nothing

1541
01:36:49.600 --> 01:36:54.800
to do with having a baby and this doctor's telling me how they spend all this money and

1542
01:36:54.800 --> 01:36:57.320
on IVF and didn't get pregnant.

1543
01:36:57.320 --> 01:37:02.640
And I'm just sitting there like, y'all, if I thought my mouth dropped to the floor, literally,

1544
01:37:02.640 --> 01:37:04.240
I'm like, what is this doctor?

1545
01:37:04.240 --> 01:37:06.080
Why is he saying this right now?

1546
01:37:06.080 --> 01:37:14.360
Well, I know the enemy led this guy that had, we were not there for any of that.

1547
01:37:14.360 --> 01:37:17.160
That was the enemy trying to bring fear.

1548
01:37:17.160 --> 01:37:19.480
Do you see how this happens?

1549
01:37:19.480 --> 01:37:25.720
So here you all are, you're in the heart work, you're in the heart work and you're healing

1550
01:37:25.720 --> 01:37:30.240
and you want to move towards what God has for you, including your love story.

1551
01:37:30.240 --> 01:37:34.920
But he's going to constantly try to, the enemy is going to constantly try to convince you.

1552
01:37:34.920 --> 01:37:37.880
Well, can it really happen?

1553
01:37:37.880 --> 01:37:38.880
Will it really happen?

1554
01:37:38.880 --> 01:37:42.180
Do you, I don't really think there's good guys out there.

1555
01:37:42.180 --> 01:37:46.960
Whatever he can do to get you to partner with doubt, fear, unbelief, and the lies, he's

1556
01:37:46.960 --> 01:37:47.960
going to do it.

1557
01:37:47.960 --> 01:37:51.440
So whether or not we choose to take the bait.

1558
01:37:51.440 --> 01:37:55.520
And as Jackie's been talking, the presets, we, you know, understanding these things in

1559
01:37:55.520 --> 01:38:01.000
our subconscious that are causing us to be in a certain bent in the way that we think,

1560
01:38:01.000 --> 01:38:06.720
act and live and all of these things, ladies, so many good things can happen.

1561
01:38:06.720 --> 01:38:12.000
The more that we choose to think on things that are true and noble and lovely and of

1562
01:38:12.000 --> 01:38:17.640
good report, the things that are above and not beneath, what is heaven saying over your

1563
01:38:17.640 --> 01:38:18.640
life?

1564
01:38:18.640 --> 01:38:21.320
And even I see Sharon, I see you in the chat.

1565
01:38:21.320 --> 01:38:22.600
You might not need babies.

1566
01:38:22.600 --> 01:38:23.680
I get it.

1567
01:38:23.680 --> 01:38:28.320
But like, Hey, what is God trying to say to all of you tonight?

1568
01:38:28.320 --> 01:38:32.120
Like what is heaven trying to say?

1569
01:38:32.120 --> 01:38:38.480
Because heaven's trying to say something to you.

1570
01:38:38.480 --> 01:38:42.960
And I'm going to let the Lord tell you what that is, but we all can choose to step into

1571
01:38:42.960 --> 01:38:44.520
upgrade every single day.

1572
01:38:44.520 --> 01:38:45.520
All right.

1573
01:38:45.520 --> 01:38:46.520
I'm going to pray and close us out.

1574
01:38:46.600 --> 01:38:48.320
Father, thank you so much for this night.

1575
01:38:48.320 --> 01:38:50.960
We thank you for everything that you've done already.

1576
01:38:50.960 --> 01:38:53.480
I believe you're going to continue this work throughout the week.

1577
01:38:53.480 --> 01:38:58.240
Lord, help us to be daughters that are quick, keep short accounts with you that we repent

1578
01:38:58.240 --> 01:39:05.000
and we confess and we, we walk in love and the fruits of the spirit that are that joy,

1579
01:39:05.000 --> 01:39:11.200
that peace, that love, faithfulness, goodness, gentleness, self-control.

1580
01:39:11.200 --> 01:39:12.960
There might be another, but Lord, you know them all.

1581
01:39:12.960 --> 01:39:18.560
I pray these blessings, these fruits over every one of these ladies, God help them through

1582
01:39:18.560 --> 01:39:23.640
the power of your Holy spirit to step into freedom, to step into forgiveness, to choose

1583
01:39:23.640 --> 01:39:29.280
to let the past be in the past, that they would partner with the heaven mindsets over

1584
01:39:29.280 --> 01:39:30.280
their lives.

1585
01:39:30.280 --> 01:39:34.360
God help them to have your perspective, help them to see with your eyes, help them to hear

1586
01:39:34.360 --> 01:39:37.680
with your ears, what your spirit is saying.

1587
01:39:37.680 --> 01:39:42.400
We thank you for upgrades, revelation and insight from heaven coming fresh every day.

1588
01:39:42.400 --> 01:39:46.480
And Lord, I pray that even while they sleep tonight, that you would give them sailor rest,

1589
01:39:46.480 --> 01:39:50.480
that you would meet them where they're at and do supernatural heart surgery on them.

1590
01:39:50.480 --> 01:39:53.160
In Jesus name, amen.

1591
01:39:53.160 --> 01:39:54.160
Love you all.

1592
01:39:54.160 --> 01:39:58.220
I'll see you all in the group and we'll be seeing you again next week.

1593
01:39:58.220 --> 01:39:59.160
Have a good night, everyone.

1594
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:01.000
Good night.