WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:10.000 I am going to go ahead and turn it back on so we can 2 00:00:10.000 --> 00:00:12.000 hear you. 3 00:00:12.000 --> 00:00:14.000 Hey! 4 00:00:14.000 --> 00:00:16.000 Hey! 5 00:00:16.000 --> 00:00:18.000 How are you doing? 6 00:00:18.000 --> 00:00:20.000 Here you are. 7 00:00:20.000 --> 00:00:22.000 Good. 8 00:00:22.000 --> 00:00:24.000 How are you? 9 00:00:24.000 --> 00:00:26.000 I am in Houston. 10 00:00:26.000 --> 00:00:30.000 She said the Internet can be spotty in here. 11 00:00:30.000 --> 00:00:32.000 She is not here right now. 12 00:00:32.000 --> 00:00:36.000 When she left she let me know the Internet can be 13 00:00:36.000 --> 00:00:38.000 spotty. 14 00:00:38.000 --> 00:00:40.000 This is the spot I need to sit in. 15 00:00:40.000 --> 00:00:42.000 Sometimes I can get better reception outside. 16 00:00:42.000 --> 00:00:46.000 Right when I was going to go outside because I thought I 17 00:00:46.000 --> 00:00:50.000 would not get a chance inside, they decided to do yard 18 00:00:50.000 --> 00:00:52.000 work. 19 00:00:52.000 --> 00:00:54.000 It is not the way. 20 00:00:54.000 --> 00:00:58.000 That will happen here too when I am about to do a live 21 00:00:58.000 --> 00:01:00.000 video or record some stuff. 22 00:01:00.000 --> 00:01:04.000 Somebody is out there mowing the lawn or some house is 23 00:01:04.000 --> 00:01:06.000 getting renovated. 24 00:01:06.000 --> 00:01:08.000 Interesting. 25 00:01:08.000 --> 00:01:10.000 I know. 26 00:01:10.000 --> 00:01:12.000 Plan B. 27 00:01:12.000 --> 00:01:16.000 You will have to let me know how it is. 28 00:01:16.000 --> 00:01:20.000 She said sometimes Zoom can be spotty. 29 00:01:20.000 --> 00:01:24.000 I am choosing that I have dominion. 30 00:01:24.000 --> 00:01:26.000 You have dominion over Zoom. 31 00:01:26.000 --> 00:01:28.000 Yes. 32 00:01:28.000 --> 00:01:32.000 Your speed of talking is fine but you are moving a little 33 00:01:32.000 --> 00:01:34.000 slow sometimes. 34 00:01:34.000 --> 00:01:36.000 A little glitchy. 35 00:01:36.000 --> 00:01:38.000 That is okay. 36 00:01:38.000 --> 00:01:40.000 I will let you know if it gets distracting. 37 00:01:40.000 --> 00:01:42.000 I can hear you. 38 00:01:42.000 --> 00:01:44.000 Since I can hear you, we are fine. 39 00:01:44.000 --> 00:01:46.000 Okay. 40 00:01:46.000 --> 00:01:48.000 Good. 41 00:01:48.000 --> 00:01:54.000 Maybe after a bit if you say you still notice some issues, 42 00:01:54.000 --> 00:02:00.000 I can see if they are down with the yard work and I move 43 00:02:00.000 --> 00:02:02.000 outside. 44 00:02:02.000 --> 00:02:04.000 How have you been? 45 00:02:04.000 --> 00:02:06.000 Good. 46 00:02:06.000 --> 00:02:08.000 You? 47 00:02:08.000 --> 00:02:10.000 Doing good. 48 00:02:10.000 --> 00:02:12.000 Doing really good. 49 00:02:12.000 --> 00:02:14.000 That is awesome. 50 00:02:14.000 --> 00:02:16.000 I wanted to talk about a couple things today. 51 00:02:16.000 --> 00:02:18.000 First of all, 52 00:02:18.000 --> 00:02:20.000 which one do I start with? 53 00:02:20.000 --> 00:02:24.000 Probably the one that has been on my mind the most. 54 00:02:24.000 --> 00:02:28.000 I had a really interesting experience yesterday. 55 00:02:28.000 --> 00:02:32.000 I have not talked to anybody about it because it is not 56 00:02:32.000 --> 00:02:36.000 something I would probably talk to people about because I don't 57 00:02:36.000 --> 00:02:38.000 know how to explain it. 58 00:02:38.000 --> 00:02:42.000 I thought you might be a good person to give me some insight 59 00:02:42.000 --> 00:02:44.000 around it. 60 00:02:44.000 --> 00:02:46.000 We have neighbors behind us and neighbors beside us. 61 00:02:46.000 --> 00:02:48.000 The three families are close. 62 00:02:48.000 --> 00:02:50.000 All our kids play together. 63 00:02:50.000 --> 00:02:52.000 There are six kids between the three families. 64 00:02:52.000 --> 00:02:54.000 They are always hanging out. 65 00:02:54.000 --> 00:02:58.000 Our neighbors behind us, the girl I have gotten close to, 66 00:02:58.000 --> 00:03:02.000 she has been through a lot of trauma in her past as well. 67 00:03:02.000 --> 00:03:04.000 She is not a Christian. 68 00:03:04.000 --> 00:03:06.000 She and I talk a lot and have gone really deep, 69 00:03:06.000 --> 00:03:08.000 which I always like. 70 00:03:08.000 --> 00:03:10.000 She was telling me about this coach she had, 71 00:03:10.000 --> 00:03:12.000 which she has spoken highly of. 72 00:03:12.000 --> 00:03:16.000 I didn't know much about her except she has been really helpful 73 00:03:16.000 --> 00:03:18.000 with social media stuff and coaching her and everything else. 74 00:03:18.000 --> 00:03:20.000 Yesterday, 75 00:03:20.000 --> 00:03:22.000 everyone came over to our house to swim. 76 00:03:22.000 --> 00:03:24.000 This girl walks in. 77 00:03:24.000 --> 00:03:26.000 I didn't know who she was at first. 78 00:03:26.000 --> 00:03:28.000 I knew she was staying with them. 79 00:03:28.000 --> 00:03:32.000 I knew she was very immunocompromised with COVID and stuff. 80 00:03:32.000 --> 00:03:34.000 I didn't know much about her, though. 81 00:03:34.000 --> 00:03:36.000 Anyway, 82 00:03:36.000 --> 00:03:38.000 I asked the husband. 83 00:03:38.000 --> 00:03:40.000 This girl, 84 00:03:40.000 --> 00:03:42.000 Sabrina, 85 00:03:42.000 --> 00:03:44.000 who is she? 86 00:03:44.000 --> 00:03:46.000 He told me it was her coach. 87 00:03:46.000 --> 00:03:48.000 She was kind of sitting there. 88 00:03:48.000 --> 00:03:52.000 She came in and was sitting on one of our loungers eating an apple. 89 00:03:52.000 --> 00:03:54.000 I got, 90 00:03:54.000 --> 00:03:56.000 it was energetically, 91 00:03:56.000 --> 00:03:58.000 I got this weird vibe. 92 00:03:58.000 --> 00:04:00.000 Then, 93 00:04:00.000 --> 00:04:02.000 I kind of checked myself. 94 00:04:02.000 --> 00:04:04.000 I thought, 95 00:04:04.000 --> 00:04:06.000 why am I feeling this way? 96 00:04:06.000 --> 00:04:08.000 I don't feel this way about people very often. 97 00:04:08.000 --> 00:04:10.000 I recognized 98 00:04:10.000 --> 00:04:12.000 I felt this way about 99 00:04:12.000 --> 00:04:14.000 the woman, 100 00:04:14.000 --> 00:04:16.000 Jamie, 101 00:04:16.000 --> 00:04:18.000 who ran the cult group. 102 00:04:18.000 --> 00:04:20.000 I had a very similar reaction to her 103 00:04:20.000 --> 00:04:22.000 when I first met her 104 00:04:22.000 --> 00:04:24.000 with this 105 00:04:24.000 --> 00:04:26.000 weird 106 00:04:26.000 --> 00:04:28.000 resistance, 107 00:04:28.000 --> 00:04:30.000 but also open 108 00:04:30.000 --> 00:04:32.000 to be wrong about the resistance, 109 00:04:32.000 --> 00:04:34.000 which is strange. 110 00:04:34.000 --> 00:04:36.000 You froze a little bit. 111 00:04:36.000 --> 00:04:38.000 Can you still hear me? 112 00:04:38.000 --> 00:04:40.000 I can. 113 00:04:40.000 --> 00:04:42.000 Okay, beautiful. 114 00:04:42.000 --> 00:04:44.000 Anyway, 115 00:04:44.000 --> 00:04:46.000 she 116 00:04:46.000 --> 00:04:48.000 is sitting. 117 00:04:48.000 --> 00:04:50.000 I'm kind of watching her a little bit at this point. 118 00:04:50.000 --> 00:04:52.000 Again, she has come to our house. 119 00:04:52.000 --> 00:04:54.000 She hasn't really introduced herself or anything, 120 00:04:54.000 --> 00:04:56.000 so I don't know much about her. 121 00:04:56.000 --> 00:04:58.000 I'm kind of asking Amanda and Lenny about her. 122 00:04:58.000 --> 00:05:00.000 She is sitting with someone else. 123 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:04.640 chatting and I'm kind of watching her and she's got like tattoos all over and 124 00:05:04.640 --> 00:05:09.120 you're still frozen. I don't know if um you want to like turn your video off and 125 00:05:09.120 --> 00:05:12.080 on again or something. 126 00:05:12.640 --> 00:05:19.440 There you are you just moved but like for a second 127 00:05:19.760 --> 00:05:25.200 there you are um and so anyway I was like we could also 128 00:05:25.200 --> 00:05:27.920 just try well I guess it wouldn't make a difference I would say we could try 129 00:05:27.920 --> 00:05:31.760 FaceTime but I don't think that'll even make a difference if it's the internet 130 00:05:31.760 --> 00:05:36.160 um I just don't know if you can hear me because 131 00:05:36.160 --> 00:05:39.520 you're you're not moving and like I don't know if you've frozen or I've 132 00:05:39.520 --> 00:05:45.200 frozen. Yeah no you're great I can I can 133 00:05:45.200 --> 00:05:47.280 literally hear everything that you're saying 134 00:05:47.280 --> 00:05:51.760 and your video is pretty smooth. Okay beautiful okay 135 00:05:51.760 --> 00:05:57.440 So so anyway I realized after a little while 136 00:05:57.440 --> 00:06:01.280 that she has very similar features to Jamie. 137 00:06:01.280 --> 00:06:05.520 She's got dark hair and darker features but Jamie has a very 138 00:06:05.520 --> 00:06:11.840 chiseled face and it's very um she and I look alike but my face is 139 00:06:11.840 --> 00:06:17.360 not as chiseled it's like more like high high cheekbones and 140 00:06:17.360 --> 00:06:21.040 the certain smile very big almost like um 141 00:06:21.040 --> 00:06:25.600 uh trying to remember the character if it was like Alice in Wonderland with a 142 00:06:25.600 --> 00:06:30.640 really big smile but anyway um and like big eyes very 143 00:06:30.640 --> 00:06:35.760 very pretty the cat yeah Cheshire cat is that it yeah 144 00:06:35.760 --> 00:06:39.680 like that like not a lot of people look like 145 00:06:39.680 --> 00:06:43.920 that and so this girl shows up and she walks like her 146 00:06:43.920 --> 00:06:49.840 she is very charismatic um darker features lots of tattoos very 147 00:06:49.840 --> 00:06:54.400 thin immune issues just like Jamie had um 148 00:06:54.400 --> 00:06:59.760 and here she is at our house and I felt this like I wanted her to leave like 149 00:06:59.760 --> 00:07:04.160 and I don't get like that with people I'm very accepting but I was like okay 150 00:07:04.160 --> 00:07:08.080 it's probably about me but I didn't want to 151 00:07:08.080 --> 00:07:11.840 I wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt but I didn't want her around 152 00:07:11.840 --> 00:07:15.360 and I noticed that I was very resistant to her 153 00:07:15.360 --> 00:07:19.280 I was trying to still be nice and then my brother was there too and he was kind 154 00:07:19.280 --> 00:07:22.160 of like interested in her because she's very attractive 155 00:07:22.160 --> 00:07:25.280 and so he was like oh she's really pretty and I'm like no 156 00:07:25.280 --> 00:07:30.640 but then I thought is she like I don't know of what I was picking up on 157 00:07:30.640 --> 00:07:33.280 in her if it was the trauma that she's been through 158 00:07:33.280 --> 00:07:36.560 or if it was because she was so similar to Jamie 159 00:07:36.560 --> 00:07:40.880 there was something about her she was very confident very charismatic 160 00:07:40.960 --> 00:07:46.640 and I was very much like in this space of wanting to create 161 00:07:46.640 --> 00:07:50.800 boundaries and wanting her to just go away 162 00:07:50.800 --> 00:07:54.720 and again this is not typical of me I am very 163 00:07:54.720 --> 00:08:02.800 welcoming very understanding um but she like freaked me out and so 164 00:08:02.800 --> 00:08:10.080 I don't know what was happening and I wondered if you had any insight on that 165 00:08:11.840 --> 00:08:18.640 well I don't know um and let me know if you if I break up in and how I'm talking 166 00:08:18.640 --> 00:08:22.640 but um because even though periodically you 167 00:08:22.640 --> 00:08:25.840 would freeze I could I could hear everything you were saying 168 00:08:25.840 --> 00:08:29.280 I just can't see you moving so I think that's a little tough because you're 169 00:08:29.280 --> 00:08:33.440 just you're frozen in your video let me know if I break up 170 00:08:33.440 --> 00:08:37.760 and what I'm saying you can't hear me um but 171 00:08:38.559 --> 00:08:42.559 oh okay all right yeah you're breaking up a little it's a problem then I can 172 00:08:42.559 --> 00:08:46.000 just turn off my video and then you just see 173 00:08:46.000 --> 00:08:50.720 my face okay yeah um just let me see if they're 174 00:08:50.720 --> 00:08:54.160 done outside and if I 175 00:08:55.280 --> 00:09:00.800 just if I can just take this outside okay 176 00:09:07.800 --> 00:09:10.800 so 177 00:09:32.800 --> 00:09:35.800 um 178 00:09:37.760 --> 00:09:40.760 um 179 00:09:42.160 --> 00:09:45.760 all right how it is and also 180 00:09:51.760 --> 00:09:56.240 you can't hear me you can't hear me very okay 181 00:09:57.920 --> 00:10:01.760 sorry I I know you said something 182 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:02.800 But I didn't really hear it. Oh, now you're outside. Okay, beautiful. 183 00:10:04.320 --> 00:10:05.840 Yeah. Yeah. 184 00:10:07.840 --> 00:10:10.800 You hear me okay or do I need to go get my little blue 185 00:10:12.080 --> 00:10:20.480 I can hear you fine. Um, we'll just hopefully the freezing will get a little bit better. But yeah, I can hear you. I think pretty well. 186 00:10:22.960 --> 00:10:27.320 Okay, and as long as we get the audio. That's, that's 187 00:10:27.320 --> 00:10:29.480 Important thing. Yeah, for sure. 188 00:10:32.280 --> 00:10:43.800 Here. Okay. So anyway, I don't know what was going on. I mean, a couple of different things could be. I mean, yes, it could be a, it could be a trigger, but often 189 00:10:44.680 --> 00:10:56.960 Often, you know, the trigger, you're going to be inside, you're going to be more especially it's self aware as you are, you're going to be more 190 00:10:57.800 --> 00:11:14.720 Likely to, you're going to be likely to recognize it. You're going to be like, okay, it's really it's me as opposed to questioning and and thinking, well, this is probably me and I give her a second chance, etc, etc. So you're more like you're 191 00:11:15.360 --> 00:11:15.960 Sorry. 192 00:11:16.280 --> 00:11:16.600 You know, 193 00:11:18.400 --> 00:11:33.920 Can I stop for a sec. Is it possible for us just like like do a regular phone call because I get it's really hard to catch what you're saying, because it's kind of like going in and out a little bit. Is it possible to just like do a phone or 194 00:11:35.720 --> 00:11:37.480 Yes, do you have 195 00:11:38.800 --> 00:11:41.480 We have each other's. Yeah, we have each other's phone numbers. Right. 196 00:11:41.880 --> 00:11:42.880 Yeah, like I can call you 197 00:11:43.640 --> 00:11:46.360 I can call you from Google Hangouts, maybe, um, 198 00:11:47.960 --> 00:11:49.240 And see, or we could do like 199 00:11:49.280 --> 00:11:54.040 No, I think it's the same issue because it's that because I think it would be the same. 200 00:11:55.680 --> 00:12:03.040 I think it'd be the same issue because it's still the internet. We were going to need to use and cellular data as opposed to the internet. 201 00:12:04.040 --> 00:12:05.560 In order to get this to work better. 202 00:12:06.120 --> 00:12:06.360 Okay. 203 00:12:06.360 --> 00:12:15.640 So, um, yeah. The one thing is I like to make sure I record these because sometimes because I need them as well as other people sometimes 204 00:12:16.480 --> 00:12:29.320 So I'm trying to think about. I know that I can do it on my phone without me my my computer. Oh, dear. Without. So in other words, let me call you, but give me just a few minutes. 205 00:12:29.800 --> 00:12:30.760 Yeah, absolutely. 206 00:12:31.000 --> 00:12:31.760 Okay, just that. 207 00:12:32.040 --> 00:12:33.000 Okay, thank you. 208 00:12:33.000 --> 00:12:33.840 You're welcome.