I am going to go ahead and turn it back on so we can
hear you.
Hey!
How are you doing?
Here you are.
Good.
How are you?
I am in Houston.
She said the Internet can be spotty in here.
She is not here right now.
When she left she let me know the Internet can be
spotty.
This is the spot I need to sit in.
Sometimes I can get better reception outside.
Right when I was going to go outside because I thought I
would not get a chance inside, they decided to do yard
work.
It is not the way.
That will happen here too when I am about to do a live
video or record some stuff.
Somebody is out there mowing the lawn or some house is
getting renovated.
Interesting.
I know.
Plan B.
You will have to let me know how it is.
She said sometimes Zoom can be spotty.
I am choosing that I have dominion.
You have dominion over Zoom.
Yes.
Your speed of talking is fine but you are moving a little
slow sometimes.
A little glitchy.
That is okay.
I will let you know if it gets distracting.
I can hear you.
Since I can hear you, we are fine.
Okay.
Good.
Maybe after a bit if you say you still notice some issues,
I can see if they are down with the yard work and I move
outside.
How have you been?
Good.
You?
Doing good.
Doing really good.
That is awesome.
I wanted to talk about a couple things today.
First of all,
which one do I start with?
Probably the one that has been on my mind the most.
I had a really interesting experience yesterday.
I have not talked to anybody about it because it is not
something I would probably talk to people about because I don't
know how to explain it.
I thought you might be a good person to give me some insight
around it.
We have neighbors behind us and neighbors beside us.
The three families are close.
All our kids play together.
There are six kids between the three families.
They are always hanging out.
Our neighbors behind us, the girl I have gotten close to,
she has been through a lot of trauma in her past as well.
She is not a Christian.
She and I talk a lot and have gone really deep,
which I always like.
She was telling me about this coach she had,
which she has spoken highly of.
I didn't know much about her except she has been really helpful
with social media stuff and coaching her and everything else.
Yesterday,
everyone came over to our house to swim.
This girl walks in.
I didn't know who she was at first.
I knew she was staying with them.
I knew she was very immunocompromised with COVID and stuff.
I didn't know much about her, though.
Anyway,
I asked the husband.
This girl,
Sabrina,
who is she?
He told me it was her coach.
She was kind of sitting there.
She came in and was sitting on one of our loungers eating an apple.
I got,
it was energetically,
I got this weird vibe.
Then,
I kind of checked myself.
I thought,
why am I feeling this way?
I don't feel this way about people very often.
I recognized
I felt this way about
the woman,
Jamie,
who ran the cult group.
I had a very similar reaction to her
when I first met her
with this
weird
resistance,
but also open
to be wrong about the resistance,
which is strange.
You froze a little bit.
Can you still hear me?
I can.
Okay, beautiful.
Anyway,
she
is sitting.
I'm kind of watching her a little bit at this point.
Again, she has come to our house.
She hasn't really introduced herself or anything,
so I don't know much about her.
I'm kind of asking Amanda and Lenny about her.
She is sitting with someone else.
chatting and I'm kind of watching her and she's got like tattoos all over and
you're still frozen. I don't know if um you want to like turn your video off and
on again or something.
There you are you just moved but like for a second
there you are um and so anyway I was like we could also
just try well I guess it wouldn't make a difference I would say we could try
FaceTime but I don't think that'll even make a difference if it's the internet
um I just don't know if you can hear me because
you're you're not moving and like I don't know if you've frozen or I've
frozen. Yeah no you're great I can I can
literally hear everything that you're saying
and your video is pretty smooth. Okay beautiful okay
So so anyway I realized after a little while
that she has very similar features to Jamie.
She's got dark hair and darker features but Jamie has a very
chiseled face and it's very um she and I look alike but my face is
not as chiseled it's like more like high high cheekbones and
the certain smile very big almost like um
uh trying to remember the character if it was like Alice in Wonderland with a
really big smile but anyway um and like big eyes very
very pretty the cat yeah Cheshire cat is that it yeah
like that like not a lot of people look like
that and so this girl shows up and she walks like her
she is very charismatic um darker features lots of tattoos very
thin immune issues just like Jamie had um
and here she is at our house and I felt this like I wanted her to leave like
and I don't get like that with people I'm very accepting but I was like okay
it's probably about me but I didn't want to
I wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt but I didn't want her around
and I noticed that I was very resistant to her
I was trying to still be nice and then my brother was there too and he was kind
of like interested in her because she's very attractive
and so he was like oh she's really pretty and I'm like no
but then I thought is she like I don't know of what I was picking up on
in her if it was the trauma that she's been through
or if it was because she was so similar to Jamie
there was something about her she was very confident very charismatic
and I was very much like in this space of wanting to create
boundaries and wanting her to just go away
and again this is not typical of me I am very
welcoming very understanding um but she like freaked me out and so
I don't know what was happening and I wondered if you had any insight on that
well I don't know um and let me know if you if I break up in and how I'm talking
but um because even though periodically you
would freeze I could I could hear everything you were saying
I just can't see you moving so I think that's a little tough because you're
just you're frozen in your video let me know if I break up
and what I'm saying you can't hear me um but
oh okay all right yeah you're breaking up a little it's a problem then I can
just turn off my video and then you just see
my face okay yeah um just let me see if they're
done outside and if I
just if I can just take this outside okay
so
um
all right how it is and also
you can't hear me you can't hear me very okay
sorry I I know you said something
But I didn't really hear it. Oh, now you're outside. Okay, beautiful.
Yeah. Yeah.
You hear me okay or do I need to go get my little blue
I can hear you fine. Um, we'll just hopefully the freezing will get a little bit better. But yeah, I can hear you. I think pretty well.
Okay, and as long as we get the audio. That's, that's
Important thing. Yeah, for sure.
Here. Okay. So anyway, I don't know what was going on. I mean, a couple of different things could be. I mean, yes, it could be a, it could be a trigger, but often
Often, you know, the trigger, you're going to be inside, you're going to be more especially it's self aware as you are, you're going to be more
Likely to, you're going to be likely to recognize it. You're going to be like, okay, it's really it's me as opposed to questioning and and thinking, well, this is probably me and I give her a second chance, etc, etc. So you're more like you're
Sorry.
You know,
Can I stop for a sec. Is it possible for us just like like do a regular phone call because I get it's really hard to catch what you're saying, because it's kind of like going in and out a little bit. Is it possible to just like do a phone or
Yes, do you have
We have each other's. Yeah, we have each other's phone numbers. Right.
Yeah, like I can call you
I can call you from Google Hangouts, maybe, um,
And see, or we could do like
No, I think it's the same issue because it's that because I think it would be the same.
I think it'd be the same issue because it's still the internet. We were going to need to use and cellular data as opposed to the internet.
In order to get this to work better.
Okay.
So, um, yeah. The one thing is I like to make sure I record these because sometimes because I need them as well as other people sometimes
So I'm trying to think about. I know that I can do it on my phone without me my my computer. Oh, dear. Without. So in other words, let me call you, but give me just a few minutes.
Yeah, absolutely.
Okay, just that.
Okay, thank you.
You're welcome.