Welcome to Supernatural Saturday.
If you're new to Supernatural Saturday, if you're new to last year's single, we just
want to welcome you.
This is our corporate time every week here on the weekend, Saturday and Sunday, when
we gather as a community and we look to the Lord.
There is current prophetic reality available for us today.
You know, beyond whatever it is that God is teaching us individually, He has a word for
us corporately, and we receive that word on Supernatural Saturday and we activate it
on Activation Sunday.
And so if you can't come to Activation Sunday, don't worry, there'll be another one the next
Sunday, but Supernatural Saturday is recorded.
So if you ever have to miss, you can just hear it in replay.
And I'm always amazed at what God gives us on these Saturday mornings when we come together.
He tells us and promises us really that when we gather together, He will be in the midst
of us.
And that means in a new way.
I want you to take that in.
God is always with you.
You are in Him.
You are never separate from Him.
The Bible says that in Him we move and we breathe and we have our being.
We're in Him.
And He's in us.
My friend yesterday, we were shooting a podcast and she said, yeah, you know, God's ahead
of us.
He's behind us.
He's beside us.
He's in us.
Obviously, you're all encompassed by God, but He promises us in His Word that when we
gather together, when we partner together in His name to seek Him, that He's in the
midst of us, meaning in a new way.
His presence is visiting us in a new way.
Isn't that amazing how God can be with us all the time, which sounds pretty ordinary,
right?
It's like an everyday common thing.
But then we can have an uncommon visitation of Him where He's visiting us in a new way.
I think that's pretty cool.
And so let's remember that when we're gathering together today, that we're never going to
be exactly like this again.
The exact people that are here are never going to be the exact people that are here.
There'll always be one less or one more.
And so what God's going to do here is very special.
It's very unique.
And it's very unlike anything that's ever going to happen again in our lives.
Isn't that incredible?
So let's reverence the moment for a moment.
Let's just bask in the glory of the moment that the God of all creation, the God of the
universe, of the cosmos, of every beautiful thing that takes our breath away has decided
to meet with us this morning in a new way.
Thank you, Lord.
Just breathe that in.
Just take in a nice big breath and then exhale that breath.
Breathe in His goodness and His presence and His supernatural glory right now.
And then exhale anything that isn't that.
Go ahead and take a second to do that.
I want to take just a couple of minutes to remember that God is good here at the beginning
because I'm going to release a message over us that I believe God has put on my heart
that if you have any kind of religious background or you're still really struggling with the
effects of religion, meaning condemnation and legalism, you might try to take this the
wrong way.
And I want you to know that it's being delivered to me and then delivered to you through grace
and love.
So if you're not hearing it that way, if it's not hitting that way, if it's hitting differently
than that, then that is pointing directly to what needs to be released because God is
a good God.
And I want you to hang on, even if you feel some kind of way, even if it starts poking
at some of your wounds, some of the things that you don't understand about your relationship
with God and the things that have happened in your life.
I want you to hang on until the end because I promise you we'll have some breakthrough
at the end.
Okay?
So today I'm going to talk to you a little bit about tests, T-E-S-T, tests, kind of hard
to say with my little congestion, the little S at the end.
I want to talk to you about being tested.
Does God test us?
Yeah, he does.
A lot of people get offended.
there. We get offended right there. Wait, what do you mean God will test us? See what happens when
we come out of religion and I can attest to this because, get it, attest, huh? I can attest to this
because I came out of religion and when I came, when you come out of religion, man, your pendulum
swings the other direction and you just don't want to believe anything that you don't want to believe
about God. You don't. And for a minute that's okay because you've been so deep in the thick
of it on the other side where, you know, God is mad and we're sinners in the hands of an angry God
and we're God's, you know, the kid with the magnifying glass on the anthill. You know,
we spend so much time believing that God's character is, you know, not kind and not
benevolent and not love. God doesn't just have love, friends. He is love. But depending on your
origin, family, and your relationship with mother and father and authority, you know, you can get
that real twisted real fast. And so a lot of times we'll swing all the way to the other side.
We're like, uh, you know, God's just one big warm bear hug. It's just one big sloppy kiss
all through life. And yeah, I think that maybe you need to stay there for a second because things
need to balance out. But eventually your pendulum comes back to the middle where you understand that
as God's children, he wants to give us opportunity. He wants to bless you.
Write that down on your paper. God wants to bless me more than I want to be blessed.
He wants to promote you. He wants to accelerate you.
We are Jesus in the earth right now, y'all. Okay. With the help of Holy Spirit, we are walking out
the rest of the story. And so that takes a maturity process. That takes stretching. It takes
refining and defining. Take some identity tests where we come more and more and more ourselves
and less and less and less the orphans that the curse tried to make us. Religion will keep you
an orphan, just so you know. You'll never be a son or a daughter. You'll never be in charge.
You'll never have authority. A precious few people that stand on platforms and are called preachers
with pulpits, they'll have the authority, but you won't. And God doesn't want to keep you like that.
But you don't give your keys to the car to your six-year-old. You don't even give them to your
10-year-old. I know a couple 12-year-olds that you would probably give them to safely.
But you know, there's a process. And a lot of us try to skip the process because we hate process,
and I get it. But then we stay immature. Then we stay people who, yeah, we can inherit the
promise, but we can't sustain it. Write that down. And then we stay people who, yeah,
we can inherit the promise, but we can't sustain it. Write that down.
We can inherit it, but we can't sustain it, which means that we're not going to be able
to pass it on to our children's children because we're going to squander it right here, right now with us.
So God loves us. And as a good father who wants to give good gifts to his children,
there are some stretching moments. And that's what these tests are.
These are stretching moments. These are maturing moments.
And God loves us. And as a good father who wants to give good gifts to his children,
these are maturing moments.
Everyone in this community is here because they desire marriage. Marriage is hard.
I will tell you, I've been married twice. And in total, the totality of the two times,
I've been married for 30 years of my 50-year life. I'm going to turn 50 next week, y'all.
That's what's going to happen. All right.
I've learned a lot of what not to do.
But marriage, it's a make you or break you situation. It can be the best thing in your life.
God's maturity plan for mankind, for you, stretching you, refining you,
helping you to become a better and better and better version of yourself.
You know, more and more of that authentic garden, you. And yeah, I mean garden of
I mean the original design you, or it can just be chaos and confusion to the place where
some people walk away from their faith, to the place where some people are flat on their
back in traction healing for years, maybe even decades.
So what a steward, what I believe is original design, what I believe is the promise of God
in our design.
God didn't need to promise you marriage, it's promised in your DNA.
Do you understand that?
We are better together.
And the curse is the only thing that separated us.
So even in the New Testament where you see that there's some benefit to being single,
it's only the curse that has separated us.
And those benefits only are there because we're not fully originally in our design.
So let's talk about a few different types of tests.
Can we do that?
I just, I jotted some down here.
Test number one, let's call this the new difficult task or opportunity test.
And this comes when God, it seems like God's telling you to do something that is impossible.
A lot of times we'll talk ourselves out of this particular test because it's so hard
at times that we think maybe God is not with us in it.
Maybe we think we're doing it in our own power and you know what, you might be.
It might be a situation where you've been invited into this opportunity for stretching.
Yes, it is a task that is bigger than you, but you are still trying to do it yourself
and you have not invited God in it to help you.
You're trying to white knuckle it.
You're trying to do it yourself.
This test, you will have many opportunities to quit whatever it is you're doing.
So maybe it's losing weight.
Maybe this is year and I have several clients like this.
God has invited them into taking care of their bodies.
They have been neglecting their bodies for a long time, not just for a couple of weeks,
not just for a couple of months, but for years.
They've been neglecting their bodies and now they're living in the aftermath of that.
They're tired.
They're old before their time.
They have health conditions that are definitely linked to obesity and inactivity.
Did you guys know that people are like, don't smoke.
Make sure you don't smoke.
God forbid.
Do not smoke.
I mean, I wish they would have told previous generations that, but now there's all kinds
of warnings.
Make sure you don't do this because it's really bad for you.
It's going to almost certainly cause detrimental effects in your body, but you know what the
new smoking is?
The new smoking is sitting, being sedentary, the S's, not smoking with an S, but it's different
S's.
So the new smoking is sedentariness or sitting.
Sugar is another new smoking.
Guys, sugar will kill you.
I don't want to turn this into a health and wellness call, but sugar will kill you.
Sugar is not good for you in any of its forms.
Fruit, fructose, okay.
As long as you get it organic and it's not sprayed with all those pesticides and herbicides.
But sugar, refined sugar in those snacks, in those sweets, in that candy, in the bread,
in the flour, in the pasta, it's not good for you.
It isn't.
It's wreaking havoc on your body.
So sitting and sugar and stress is the other S.
This is the new smoking, y'all.
The three horses of the new apocalypse are sitting, sugar, and stress.
So maybe God is challenging you in this new year, hey, I've got things for you to do in
your life.
This timeline that you're living on earth, this very limited timeline that you have here,
I have really amazing things that I want to bless you with, that I want to give you access
to, but your body can't take you there.
Do you know that some of you, because this test is not being passed in this area of your
health, you're actually not getting access to some of the things that God wants for you
because he knows that it would be the tipping point for your body and it would do you in.
Jesus, do you feel Holy Spirit on that?
I do.
Please listen.
We are killing ourselves with our forks.
Please listen.
I mean, let's go like screw tape letters, you know,
C.S. Lewis, let's go.
I mean, if you were the enemy in a modern culture
like 2025 where everyone knows who you are, Lucifer,
wouldn't you do something sneaky like that
to destroy people?
I mean, you're not gonna show up at the front door
in a little red costume with horns and a tail.
No one's gonna let you in.
But possibly you're gonna show up in people's grocery cart.
Through processed food, through sugar addictions.
And even those of you that don't eat sweets
and you're like, oh, I'm safe,
I don't have a sugar addiction.
You probably do.
My husband and I are just finding this out about ourselves.
I thought I was a clean eater,
but there's so much hidden sugar.
And you don't have to take one big giant leap
into making all your food from home
and, you know, making your own sourdough
and planting a garden.
If you wanna do that, great, go for it.
But you can take baby steps
into less and less processed food.
Guys, these are tests.
God wants to see, do you love your body?
Do you love this vehicle
that he's given you to ride around in?
Are you going to take care of it?
Some of you, it's not even the food.
It's the people pleasing.
You can't say no to save your life.
And because you can't say no,
God can't let you have access to what he has for you
because he knows that you are going to literally say yes
yourself into the ground.
Because you don't have any boundaries.
God loves you.
He loves you.
Did you know that those little white lab rats,
I hate to call them lab rats
because they're not meant to be lab rats,
but they use them a lot, those little white ones, right?
If they have an unlimited food source,
do you know that they will eat until they die?
That's crazy.
But some of us, if we have access to something,
God knows us better than we know ourselves.
If we have access to something,
and listen, I just want to let you know,
God's not controlling you, okay?
Just because he's not giving it to you
doesn't mean you can't go get it.
And he knows that.
And a lot of you have been jumping over baby gates.
You have been jumping over baby gates.
God puts up gates of protection
to try to keep you from the thing
that you just will not stop partaking of
until it kills you, whatever that thing is.
He tries to put up boundaries for you
and baby gates for you.
You guys remember baby gates?
We put them up to keep our children out of places
that they're not mature enough to handle.
Out of the kitchen because of the hot stove,
because we know that they don't understand that concept yet.
Off the stairs because they can't navigate the stairs yet.
But when those children show us
that they are mature enough to handle those areas,
we take down those gates.
But instead of letting God take down those gates,
you're jumping over them like little baby Houdini.
And that's why you keep getting yourself hurt and in trouble.
Not in trouble with God, in trouble with consequences,
the natural consequences of life.
God has so much grace for you and so much love for you.
And you gotta trust him on the timing of those things.
But God is inviting you into a new and difficult task.
I remember God invited me to produce a film festival
for the creators of Lollapalooza.
It's a huge film festival out west.
I mean, sorry, it's a huge musical festival
out west and it's debauchery, y'all.
It's not Christian at all.
But long story short,
because I can't tell you the backstory,
I was chosen to be the executive producer
as soon as I moved to Texas,
the executive producer for the film version of Lollapalooza,
which is called Life Art Festival.
So I'm surrounded by debauchery.
I'm surrounded by people who are not believers.
I'm surrounded by people who are not even American.
Very thick, heavy, heavy, heavy, heavy,
okay, very thick, heavy, you know, Israeli accents
and, you know, just a lot.
And I wanted to quit.
Remember I said, this is the test
where you're gonna wanna quit a lot.
And after like the fifth time of being cussed out,
just F, F, F, F, I was like, okay, I quit.
I call uncle, I quit.
So we're at the film festival.
Everything has been set up.
I've been working for months on this.
And you guys know that there were forums at this festival,
like talking forums, like lecture forums.
And the experts that I chose for each of those forums
were believers.
I chose a believer for each of those forums.
Of course, they're at the top of their game.
Guys, please don't believe that you're gonna get access
to your field if you're not the top of your game.
God can give you favor,
but you have to study to show yourself approved.
Come on, don't just think you're just gonna walk in there and fall on the ground and flop
around like a fish, but because you have the Holy Spirit, you're gonna get the job.
Let's apply some wisdom here.
So these people are at the top of their game.
I got them to come the day before the festival.
We're doing a walkthrough of a $30,000 venue.
It's a $30,000 a day venue.
Okay, I have secured it.
The festival's set to go.
The founder of the festival, I'm meeting him for the first time.
He flies in.
Y'all, he's a piece of work, okay?
He cussed out everybody at the venue, the executive director of the venue, because it
was kind of like a museum, all the things.
And by the end of the day, I was like, look, you can't talk to people like this.
And he was like, you're fired.
I was like, gladly.
I left.
I went back to my hotel room.
All night long, I tossed and turned like, God, what do you want me to do?
What the heck is going on here?
I put together this festival.
I don't even know how they could pull it off without me, because this guy just arrived
in town.
He doesn't know anything that's going on.
I have to be there for day of flow.
And so the next day, I'm standing outside of his hotel.
And I'm supposed to be at the final walkthrough of the venue, which is right across the street
from his hotel.
I can see the venue from where I'm standing.
And I'm staring at the venue, and I'm praying, and I'm like, God, because you guys, I could
have just went home.
All right?
Ain't nobody got time for that.
I could have just went home.
I don't even want the job.
I can't tell you the back story, but I didn't apply for the job.
Y'all, I didn't ask for the job.
The job came to me, and I actually tried to turn it down.
And every time I tried to turn it down, it just kept coming back.
And God's like, you take it.
And I'm like, oh.
So I did.
So I'm standing there.
I'm looking at the venue.
And I'm like, God, what do you want me to do?
And I promise you, a box truck pulled up in front of me at the light.
It's blocking my view of the venue.
And on the side of the box truck, all it says, remember, I'm the executive producer.
All it says is produce.
And you know what?
Yes, it was the word produce.
And yes, it was the fruit truck.
But you know what?
I'll take it.
It's still spelled the same.
So I walked across the street, and I saw the founder of the festival.
And I yelled out to him.
I said, hey, do you need me?
Because remember, he fired me the day before.
And he motioned, yes, come.
And so I went, and I came.
And I want to tell you, that festival was amazing.
And it was powerful.
And the people, even though they weren't talking about Christian things, those believers,
in their wheelhouses, speaking on those subjects, people were trying to help.
People were transformed, to the point that this non-Christian, non-practicing Jewish
man, who owns the festival, came to me afterwards.
And he said this to me.
He said, you know, he said, I don't like you.
He said, but I like you.
Something about you, I like.
I like you.
And these speakers, he's like, I don't like them.
But I like them.
He was sensing it.
And can I tell you, to this day, I can call him any time for anything.
He's a very, very influential man.
He's like, from this day forward, you are family.
And you know why he said?
I will tell you what he said.
He said, you could have given up on me, but you didn't.
What was he doing?
He was testing me.
You're fired.
Get out of here.
But I didn't.
And I wanted to.
But God's like, no, go.
These are the tests, guys.
These are the tests.
People will test you.
And God will test you through people.
Are you going to believe what God said?
Are you going to follow through with what God told you to do?
Or are you going to let people pull you off track?
All right.
So that's the first test.
So I don't know what it is.
Go back to school.
Lose weight.
Whatever it is that you think is really hard, that you feel like you're being invited into.
Yeah, it's going to be hard.
It doesn't have to be easy.
Remember, it has to be worth it.
And you'll have opportunities to quit and talk yourself out of it.
Don't.
Keep going.
Follow through.
Finish.
All right, test two.
You're like, whoa, there's more, Jackie?
Yeah, there's more.
If we can get through them, there's six.
Just, yeah, I mean, I'm sure there's more, but.
Okay, so test one was a difficult task.
A new thing that God's inviting you into that feels impossible and hard.
Test two is a major change.
Let's call this the where test.
Some major change happens.
A lot of times we weren't looking for it.
It just showed up.
and now you don't have any idea where God is taking you.
Everything that you were basing your future on,
your plan on, that's like a rug being pulled out
from under your feet, and you do not know
what's going on or what to do next.
It's the wear test, right?
And you guys might see yourself in a hybrid of these tests,
and if you're not in any of them,
I'm just gonna tell you, when you're up for promotion,
there's always a test, isn't there?
There's always a test.
So, major change shows up, we don't know.
Maybe God tells you to do something crazy
like sell the house.
Well, where am I gonna live?
I don't know, sell the house.
Maybe you feel like it's time to move away from the job.
Guys, one of my students, when she first started
working with me, she works in politics here in Texas,
and she actually had breakdowns, meltdowns,
when anyone suggested to her
that she may not be doing this job for always.
She wanted to do this job for always,
and she wanted to move up in the ranks,
and she wanted to actually be in Texas government.
She'd been doing this all her life.
She's a military kid, this is what she wanted.
I actually match made her.
She's someone that I physically match made,
introduced her to her husband, officiated their wedding.
They become kind of spiritual children of mine now.
And I wanna tell you, not only is she not doing
the job that she was doing in politics,
in PR and politics anymore,
when I met her, she had written 23 books,
fantasy romance books, okay?
And didn't have any kind of following for that.
No one was buying these books.
It's just, she's just a talented writer,
and she was writing and writing and writing and writing them.
Instead of working in politics now,
because she was obedient to where the Lord
was asking her to do, he said, hey, I want you to,
I want you to start weaning off this job in politics,
and I want you to focus on your writing.
But Lord, where's the money gonna come from?
Remember, it's that where question,
where, where, where, where?
And I've had this question lots of times
in my walk with God.
But she was obedient and she did it.
And can I tell you now,
she has hundreds of thousands of followers on Instagram,
and she makes over six figures on her books.
She makes way more money doing what she loves,
because she said yes.
And it wasn't easy.
I watched that transition.
I was there for it.
Remember, it's not about easy.
When God told David and I to move to Austin,
he didn't tell us where,
and he obviously didn't tell us why.
Actually, I still don't know why, just so you know.
Both, two of my three children
met their significant others here,
so maybe that's part of the reason why.
I'm sure it is.
But he didn't tell us where.
You guys, we, he told us when, over past, over 2018.
He said, go now.
It's like, you need to go, right now, over Passover.
We packed up the U-Haul.
We drove to Austin with no place to live.
Within 24 hours, we had secured an apartment
and we started our life here.
And part of the reason why we had to go right then
is because I was about to get hired
to do that film festival,
and I didn't know any of that yet.
But I had to be here, because it was in Texas.
I had to be here for that.
So it's that where question.
You don't know where God is taking you,
but I promise you this, he's taking you somewhere great.
And it might not be a smooth road to get there,
but you gotta start walking.
Test three.
This is one we hate, okay?
What seems like, and I'm gonna say what seems like,
because God lives outside of time.
What seems like a delayed promise.
Let's call this, I'm sorry.
Let's call this the when test.
When God, when.
You guys, this might not be very encouraging,
but there are promises,
and these are not all the promises in your life.
There are promises that you are going to experience
the goodness of God here in the land of the living.
You are going to live in that fulfilled promise.
You're gonna walk out that fulfilled promise.
Some people go sit in waiting rooms,
and that is why their promise is delayed.
God's not delaying it, you are.
Because we want the finished product.
We want to show up.
up at what God promised, we don't remember there's a process.
God never gives a promise without a process.
Every promise has a process.
And for the ones that you are going to fulfill, you're going to walk it all the way out in
your lifetime.
You got to get moving.
You can't just go sit in a corner somewhere and wait for God to deliver it to you fully
formed.
If he promised you something that, oh, please don't do this, but I've seen people do it.
If he promised you something that requires education, you better go get enrolled.
Because if you think that God's going to let you circumvent the process of that, just because
he promised it to you and you're not going to have to go through all of the hoops that
everyone else went through, yeah, you'll go through them with grace, but you'll still
go through them.
Please do not think that you are going to just miraculously, and I know that people
testify about things like this.
I heard a testimony once of this pastor, he said, you know, he showed up for this.
God told him to apply for this engineering job.
He was not qualified for it in any way, shape or form.
It had this lengthy test that you had to take to even get the interview.
And he just went in and started filling in circles on the test.
It was like one of those tests where you fill in the circles kind of thing that the computer
reads the results.
And he passed the test with flying colors and ended up getting hired at the job.
That seems foolish to me.
I'm not saying that God didn't do that.
I'm not saying that God can't continue to give you information about a job that you're
working on every day that you're unqualified and not educated in.
I'm just saying that is a very rare and interesting and unusual circumstance.
Please do not believe that that is what's going to happen to you.
Get trained.
Get prepared.
Get educated.
If God promised you something, go after it.
This group that you're in right now, God promised you marriage.
That's why you're here.
Don't just sign up.
Show up.
Take the courses.
Listen to the classes.
Come to prayer.
Do the things that God is doing to prepare you for what it is that he said he would give
you.
I know a lot of people are like, well, Jackie, I don't even understand how this is preparing
me for marriage.
Yeah, you know, I understand that.
And I can't tell you how many times in my life I felt like Daniel's son in Karate Kid
with Mr. Miyagi being God and God waxing on and waxing off in my life.
And if you don't know that movie, Google it.
Mr. Miyagi, who is this, you know, ancient teacher of the martial arts, old guru dude,
is teaching this kid skills that this kid doesn't even know he's learning.
Through everyday situations like cleaning his deck and painting his fence and washing
his car.
He's learning skills.
He's learning discipline.
He's learning moves without knowing it.
And I can't tell you how many times I've looked back in my life and I'm like, God, Mr. Miyagi
me.
I had no idea how that random thing that you told me to do fit into my life.
Everyone else, you just did something because God told you to and it was so random.
You went and worked someplace or you took a class or you did something and it just seemed
so random.
Like where's this going to fit?
And then nothing happened afterwards.
So it wasn't like you did it and then it opened up this huge opportunity and then you understood
like you'd still don't maybe even understand.
I promise you one day that skill, that class, that obedience, it will come into play and
you'll be like, Oh, I see.
You might've met a key person there, right?
You might've experienced something or been in proximity to something that you learned
that you're going to need where you're going.
We get Mr. Miyagi so often you guys, by God.
And I think it's because if he just told us, Hey, you're going to do this.
We'd be like, no, we're not.
No, we're not.
Sometimes he has to sell us what we want to give us what we need.
Amen.
So I know that some of you feel like God tricked you into coming in here.
God tricked me into starting this movement.
Okay.
In a lot of ways.
And I'm telling you, we all got Mr. Miyagi.
So 1600 plus people getting married in four years is proof that it's supernatural.
So keep going because I promise you, you're learning more here than just how to be married
and sustain marriage.
And that's another question you can ask when you're in this delayed promise category.
First of all, ask yourself, am I delaying the promise?
Am I sitting in a waiting room?
And the question that you should ask along with that is, Hey, if this thing is not ready
or ripe.
yet for the picking?
How can I nurture it?
How can I grow it?
That's what you're doing in this community.
You're nurturing and growing this promise in your life so that when it is ripe for the
picking, you can pick it and you can eat that fruit.
But what can you be doing in the meantime?
That's what you should ask yourself about any other promise anywhere else that you have
in your life that hasn't fully matured or manifested.
What can I be doing in the meantime?
You know, if you, that promise, whatever it is, if you put the pot on the stove and
you turn on the heat and you put water in the pot, don't stand there and wait for it
to boil.
Don't stare at it.
Start making the other things that go along with it.
It's going to boil.
God's not a man that he should lie, but there's other things.
So pray and say, Hey God, what are the other things that I can be doing?
I really want this thing that you told me I could have, what should I be doing to prepare
for it?
Now, obviously for marriage, you're already doing that.
You're here.
So make sure you're showing up in this new year.
Some of you haven't shown up in a long time.
And so welcome back.
Remember Abraham, Isaac and Jacob.
God gave Abraham a promise.
Abraham made great sacrifices for that promise.
He left everything he knew.
And I know a lot of times in our modern culture, people leave everything they know and they
go and they live on the other side of the country from their family and all the things.
But you guys, back in the ancient days, people didn't do that.
That tribe that you were born into, that family you were born into, it was a lot bigger than
just an origin nuclear family.
It was a whole huge tribe of people.
And you didn't leave that tribe.
You didn't leave your, your father's people, your grandfather's people.
You did not leave that lineage.
You did not forge out on your own.
It's a big, huge thing that he did.
And you know what?
The city that God said he would show him whose foundations were of God, you know, whose maker
was God, he didn't, he died in that promise.
And that's why in Hebrews 11, you'll see him as the great father of faith.
He didn't make all the right decisions.
We see him making wrong decisions throughout his lifetime because you guys, it's not about
that.
You are going to fall.
This is your childhood.
This life on earth is your childhood.
You're supposed to mess up.
That's how you learn.
You're going to fall.
You're going to scrape your knees and a loving father is going to pick you up and he's not
going to punish you.
He's going to correct you in the way of showing you, Hey, there's a better way to do this
than the way you were doing it.
Let me show you how.
And he's going to lovingly give you another chance to get on that bike and ride again.
Now with new information, better information so that you can be successful.
And that's what repentance looks like.
You guys recognizing that we don't have the information that we need and that our way
is not good and that God's way is better and turning to him and asking him to forgive us
for doing things our own way, like orphans and asking him to show us his way.
That's all.
That's it.
But Abraham didn't get to see that city whose builder and maker was God and neither did
his kids, Isaac or Jacob.
You guys, some of the promises that you're carrying, not all of them, but some of them
are for you to steward well and hand down to the next generation.
See, that's part of our orphanhood.
We only live for ourselves, what we can have, what we can experience.
So many people are not living for their children and their children's children.
And some of you are like, well, Jackie, I don't have any children while there are children
that God wants you to mother and father, spiritual children, possibly natural children.
Some of you, God has given you this desire to be mothers or fathers and it's back to
that test one.
It's a difficult task.
It seems impossible because you don't have a mate or partner yet and you're past the
age of natural childbearing.
Well, I'm going to tell you, I think the last time I looked, there were like 20 million
kids in the system in America alone that need adopted.
Go get you one.
You're like, Jackie, that's going to be hard.
That's going to be expensive.
That's where God comes in.
You're like, well, that child deserves a two parent family.
Yeah, they have no parents now.
So I think one parent's better than none.
Let's do the math on that.
As a former foster care kid, abandoned into, you know, bad places, I'm going to tell you
right now, I would have loved to have a caring parental figure in my life that loved me.
Would have changed a lot of things in my early life.
All right.
Delayed promises, you guys, seemingly delayed because remember, God lives outside of time.
A lot of times the promises hasn't shown up because we haven't shown the maturity to steward
it.
The Bible says in Proverbs that God's increase comes without sorrow.
Oh, meaning he's not going to give us what we're not ready for.
Yeah.
We can jump the baby gate and go get it.
I'm going to tell you, I just, I just got off the line with one of my early
students from early in this movement that has never submitted to this process.
Really, really wants to be married, but never has submitted
to the process of inner healing.
And this movement has been around for four years and this individual has now
been part of two failed marriages and two failed engagements in four years.
Y'all two broken engagements and two divorces in four years.
You can jump the baby gate if you want to, or you can do the work.
God's going to hand you the keys.
You don't have to go and take them off the hook in the middle of the night.
I promise you that.
All right.
And here's the thing.
Here's the thing.
I want to say this.
I feel Holy spirit on this, that individual that I just said, guess what?
They don't, they don't, they get a do over.
If they, if they do the work and, and they surrender to God, they actually
might end up getting married to someone amazing, even before you.
Does that offend you?
You know, we've been doing all the right things and be inhave ourselves
and not jumping the baby gates and someone who's been doing all that.
It's kind of a story of the elder brother and the prodigal, right?
I say that to say this, not that they would have a do over before you, but
that God is a giving and loving God.
And I'm not saying that you can't do it.
I'm saying that you can't do it.
God is a giving and loving God.
If you screwed up, you can have another chance, but you're going to screw up
again in life in general, you will, but you don't have to screw up in the same
ways because you can try again with new information and new healing in your heart.
All right, let's go on here.
So test four is an unsolvable problem.
This is what I call the how test.
Like how, how, how am I going to do this?
How is this going to be fixed?
And this is where you put that on your Jesus cares board.
You show God that you trust him.
Instead of going out and trying A, B, C, D, L, M, N, O, P.
You don't just have plan A, you have B, C, D, E, F, G, L, M, N, O, P.
Instead of that, did you guys know that they took L, M, N, O, P out of the
alphabet song?
No longer do we get to sing L, M, N, O, P.
Nope.
They changed it.
Why do I know this?
Because I have two-year-old grandbabies and I'm like horrified.
You have changed the song and it's terrible.
It is terrible.
But anyway, you have all of those plans instead of just going to God and listen,
God will let you have all those plans.
Okay.
He will let you have those plans.
And it's okay to have plans.
See, people will hear this message and they'll sit down in the corner in the
waiting room and they won't have a plan at all.
Have a plan, submit it to God.
The Bible says that we have plans and God orders steps.
But some of us have plans that don't include God ordering steps.
Some of us have plans in our own strength because we don't want to bother God.
He's busy.
Just like your earthly father who never had any time for you or who died when you
were young or was emotionally or physically absent.
God is available to you 24-7.
He delights in you.
He wants to hear your voice.
He wants you to come boldly to his throne of grace.
He wants you to crawl up on his lap and tell him all of your cares and concerns.
I don't know if you've been living in a family where there's old, older, older
people, my family wasn't like this, but I know of families where a 70-year-old
daughter still crawls up in the lap of her 90-year-old mother.
That chokes me up.
Why?
Because that 70-year-old woman will always be that other woman's child.
And so no matter how old you get on this earth, you're not going to be able to
And so no matter how old you get on this earth, y'all a lot younger than God.
And we're always going to be his children throughout eternity.
Right?
I remember when I had a how test, guys, I was facing some serious warfare in the
form of a lawsuit, and this may help those of you that are dealing with a lawsuit.
You guys, it was keeping me up at night.
I was being wrongfully litigated.
I did not do what I was being accused of.
was with a former employer, and this person was a powerful person, and their lawyers were
harassing me because of information that I had that I was unwilling to divulge because
it was none of their business.
I didn't have to say, harass, harass, threatened, harassed.
This is where the Jesus Cares board came from, by the way, you guys, because it was in the
middle of this year-long harassment that was stealing my mental health.
I was not sleeping.
I was skin and bones.
I was just a mess, you guys, because of the constant accusation and harassment and threats
of litigation and financial loss and all of the things that were happening, and I didn't
have money, money for my own lawyer.
And in the middle of the night, God just said, hey, Jackie, who do you belong to?
And I said, you, and he said, who does this problem belong to?
And I said, me, because you guys, I knew not to take this job.
I felt it in my gut, but I wanted it.
I wanted to work for this person.
I wanted the prestige of that.
I wanted the proximity of it, and I didn't listen, and now I'm in what God was trying
to actually save me from.
God saw this coming.
He knew what this person was like.
He knew their character.
He knew.
He tried to show me at the very beginning before I said yes to the job, but I ignored
it, y'all.
I drove through all of those stop signs, all of those red lights, okay, and so did my husband.
He also didn't give me wise counsel.
He regrets this too.
Both of us are like, man, we were orphans.
We wanted significance.
We wanted to work for this spiritual father, and we were willing to just basically give
up our mental health for it, and we did.
It was during this time that God said, if you belong to me, this problem belongs to
me, and guess what, Jackie?
I don't have any problems, and that is where the Jesus Cares Board was born.
I was so ... I had so much anxiety, you guys, that the only way that I could get it off
of my body was to physically get it off of my body by writing it down and putting it
on a place, a prophetic place where God has promised to care for me and my cares when
I cast them upon him.
I took them off myself and put them on him physically, and it changed my life.
I pray and hope that it's changing your life too as you are obedient to making it, right?
It's part of that beginning of this whole process, so don't sleep on that, okay?
So those unsolvable problems, you know where to put them, and it's either going to become
a non-problem.
That's what happens to my Jesus Cares Board.
It becomes a non-problem because I was making it into a problem apparently, and it really
wasn't a problem, right?
Not that, but I'm just saying the things on my Jesus Cares Board, and then some of them
just get solved like this one.
For those of you who are like, hey, what happened?
What happened?
I prayed to God.
He told me, gave me instruction.
Sometimes you put something on the Jesus Cares Board, you'll get instruction, and I did.
He said, do not answer any more emails from these lawyers.
You guys, that sounded like bad advice.
I mean, these people are threatening me and accusing me, and if I stop responding to them,
oh, you guys, I can't tell you how much anxiety that gave me in my mind, but in my heart,
I had peace.
I was going to trust the Lord, and I knew that I had heard from him, because trust me,
I would never come up with a crazy scheme like that.
And so I did.
I stopped responding, and I stopped responding, and I stopped responding, and I stopped responding,
and little by little, the emails stopped coming, and of course, in my mind, I'm like, oh, no.
They're plotting.
The lawsuit's gone forward.
I'm going to get served papers any day.
They're not threatening anymore.
Now they've taken action, and then I got one last email, and it wasn't from the lawyers.
It was from someone else in this situation that had proximity and power, and they said,
hey, listen, tell me the whole story, and I told them the whole story, because I felt
led to because they had proximity and power to the situation, and I never heard from anybody
ever again.
That ended it.
That was the end.
I told the truth.
I told the whole truth and nothing but the truth, and finally was able to share the truth
with the right person.
I didn't want to tell just anybody that, and guess what?
It ended.
It ended, y'all.
It ended.
Praise God.
It ended.
All right, test five, a senseless loss, or I'm going to call this test Y.
How many of you have gone through the Y test?
Y, Y, Y, Y, Y, God, Y, Y, Y, Y, Y.
And this could be someone that you love who passed away, you don't understand.
And remember, God didn't take them.
You know, God doesn't ever visit evil upon people, just so you know.
If religion taught you that, it lied to you.
Okay, God doesn't tempt us.
He tests us.
It's very different.
And God never tests people with sickness or disease, sin.
He doesn't do that, you guys.
That is not biblical.
God did not give you cancer to test you.
He didn't give it to your mother or father or your kid to test you.
He didn't take your child from you to test you.
He did not.
There's evil in the world.
There's evil in the world, okay?
I remember there was this really popular Christian song back when I was just coming out of religion,
y'all, just coming out of religion.
This is like 20 years ago.
And this song, you guys might have heard it.
The chorus or the hook, the refrain of it is, God gives and takes away.
He gives and takes away.
But I will always say, blessed be the Lord.
Blessed be the name of the Lord.
Remember that song?
Okay.
So I would get to, I was going through a hard time, y'all, hard time.
My pastor went to prison.
I was in the middle of a divorce.
And I would get to, like, I remember one day I was scrubbing the bottom of the shower and
that song was on.
And I'm just scrubbing.
I'm like, I'm crying.
I'm like, you know, yes, God gives and he takes away, but I'm going to still praise
you, God.
I'm still going to be faithful.
And you know, and the message in that is, I'm going to be faithful, God, even when you're
not faithful, right?
Even when you slay me like dope, I'm going to praise you.
No, y'all, that story is mistaught everywhere.
And that's when God stopped me.
He's like, oh, little girl.
I got to stop you right there because I never took anything good away from you.
He's like, I'm the giver of good gifts, not the taker of good gifts.
Okay.
He's like, I have given you peace and joy.
Maybe you haven't picked it up at will call, but I have given you, you know, the Bible
says that every good and precious gift comes down from the father of light.
All of it.
If it's good, it's from God.
If it's not good, guess who it's not from.
It's not from God.
Now you found yourself in it somehow.
God didn't take it away from you, but you might've lost it somehow.
It might've been stolen by the enemy somehow, but he didn't take it.
You know what he does take away?
Your sin and your guilt and your shame.
Come on, put a list right now in the comments, the things that God takes away, takes away
your fear, takes away chaos.
When he gives his peace, he says, I don't give my peace the way the world gives it.
Cause that's conditional peace, temporary peace.
He said, I give it so that it devours chaos.
That's what the word peace in the original text of that scripture means.
It means the devourer of chaos.
He is.
My peace doesn't just come.
It devours all the things religion doesn't want us to know right now, today, this morning.
So yes, we have these senseless loss, meaning that we can't make sense of it.
We don't know why it happened to you guys.
Some of those answers may not come until we are fully actualized in this other dimension
that we call heaven.
We might not know fully.
I asked God the other day, why can I not stop grieving my mom after five years?
And he said, because you still feel sorry for her.
I was like, what?
And he's like, you're grieving her because you feel like something horrible has happened
to her.
And you feel sorry for her because she died and something horrible, you know, like she
died.
That's horrible.
He said, and you will not stop grieving her until you get a revelation of heaven.
He goes, she's in a much better place.
He's like, you should stop pitying her and you should pity yourself.
He just means it's a lot better what she's doing than what you're doing.
And until I get that out of that revelation, you guys, I'm still going to feel so sad and
I'm still going to like replay the last moments of her life when he didn't win.
She didn't get to stay on earth and she suffered and she passed.
And I know y'all, her suffering has ended forever more, forever more.
And she did win.
She won the best prize.
But when we don't have a revelation, when our only revelation is temporary, and that
is this world, then we will.
Look at things through the wrong lens, you guys.
We will, and I do, and I'm here to admit that.
I'm here to confess that.
So last test, prolonged pain.
Some of you have been in pain in your flesh
for a prolonged period of time,
whether it's some kind of disability,
whether it's some kind of family problem,
some kind of thorn in the flesh problem,
something that continues.
You know, some of you are going through long, long,
drawn-out legal battles with your former spouses
in custody situations.
I understand, I have been there.
I went through a battle with my mental health
to the point of people wanted to institutionalize me,
and this is after I knew Jesus, you guys.
This is not pre-Jesus, this is after Jesus.
And I remember just thinking,
hey, you know, this is probably the way
I'm gonna have to live,
and I'm just gonna have to trust the Lord,
and if this is my life, then this is my life.
If I have to live with a broken mind that cannot be fixed,
then this is my life,
and I'm just gonna have to make peace with it
after struggling with this acutely, you guys,
for more than a decade,
meaning that I could not function.
Couldn't function.
It's part of the reason why my first marriage ended,
because when people cannot handle
being in relationship with people
that are clinically unstable, like in pain,
like when you're with someone who's in pain,
whether it's physical or mental,
for long periods of time,
it's very, very, very debilitating
for that other person, too,
and some people become abusive in that situation,
because there's so much fear,
and there's so much anger,
and there's so much confusion.
They don't mean to.
My former spouse is not a horrible monster of a person,
and he's happily remarried to someone
who doesn't have those issues,
but when we're in relationship with someone
who has chronic health issues or mental health issues,
and they're always in pain,
it's very difficult to be that spouse,
especially when you're young.
We were in our 20s.
We were young, okay?
But I'm here to tell you guys
that I don't have those issues anymore,
but maybe you're in the test of how long,
how long, God?
How long?
I was in that test.
How long?
And I will tell you,
and maybe this is helpful for some of you,
I had to let go of some other things
in order to get the healing that was already there for me.
I needed to change locations
in order to get the healing that was there for me,
and there's some changes that needed to happen
that I was resisting
because of bad information
in order to get the healing that was there for me, okay?
Yeah, I would love it if I would've went to an altar
and someone laid hands on me and one and done,
and I would've just been healed,
and sometimes that's how things happen,
but oftentimes it's not.
Oftentimes, the problem that you're having
that has you in prolonged pain is connected.
It has tentacles, and it's tethered
to all kinds of other things
that need to change in your life.
So instead of asking God for healing,
ask him for wisdom.
Instead of asking God for deliverance
from the situation with a person
that is tormenting you in a lawsuit
or whatever the prolonged pain is,
ask God for wisdom.
Ask God to show you what you can do
every single day towards what he has for you
because some of us are suffering needlessly.
We're in prolonged pain,
but we don't need to be there anymore.
All right, and just sum it up tonight.
You got today, you guys,
and you can go tomorrow night to activate this.
God doesn't tempt us, but he does test us.
Remember, he never tests us with sin,
sickness, or disease, any of those things.
He does give and take away,
but he never takes anything good from you.
It may have been lost or stolen,
but then you can ask for it to be returned
because I don't think that it's an accident
that Joel 225 or 2025,
Joel 225 is I will restore the years
that the locusts have eaten.
Come on, y'all.
That means restoring time and fruit,
not just fruit, but time,
not just the things that were lost,
but the time that was lost,
the potential that was lost.
I feel like we're in a Joel 225 year.
And remember, the Bible says,
when troubles of any kind come your way,
this is James 1.
It says that they're gonna come.
Jesus promised us they would come.
He said, in this wife, you're gonna have trouble.
He told us.
And then James is saying, when they come,
not if they come, but when they come,
any kind, doesn't matter what kind they are,
kinds that you created for yourself,
kinds that other people created for you,
kinds that just come because of the curse on the earth,
when troubles of any kind come your way.
Now when God sends them your way,
God doesn't send you into trouble, you guys.
Jesus already told you, if you live in this world,
you're gonna have it.
It's everywhere.
James says, consider an opportunity for great joy,
for you know that when your faith is tested,
your endurance, it will be fully developed
and you will be perfect, lacking and needing nothing.
We know that our faith is tried in the fire,
none of us like that.
But we also know that God doesn't bring us to those fires,
but he brings us through those fires.
Which reminds me, please continue to pray
for our friends in California.
God did not do this, God is not judging people, you guys.
He's not, don't believe stuff like that.
In fact, they think this is arson.
So today for the divine exchange, for the activation,
because he does give and he does take away,
I want you to decide what you're going to give to him
that you want him to take away.
Remember, he promises this beauty for ashes.
And yes, we're all being tested, we're all being tried,
but we're all passing those tests.
And I wanna end with this, I know we're one minute over,
but just stick with me for one second.
God gave us the ability to live in this world
and I want you to stick with me for one second.
God gave me a vision in my mind's eye of myself
when I was a little girl.
This is a true story that really happened,
but I forgot about it.
And God dug it out of my memory, my core memories,
and he brought it up to the surface for this call.
And I'm very careful not to release words
over other people that are just for me.
And I know that this word is for me,
but I never wanna release words
that are not for everybody else.
Because sometimes God will give you stuff
that's just for yourself.
And so I don't wanna release stuff over y'all
and give you inappropriate understanding
of what God might be doing or telling you
when it's not for you.
But I do feel like I can release this.
And so when I was little,
and you guys, for those of you that are older,
you know that Gen X and the baby boomer generation,
we just were different, okay?
We didn't have parental supervision all the time.
And so when I was about seven years old,
between first and second grade,
our neighborhood had a pool and I rode my bike to the pool
and went swimming there every day.
There were lifeguards, don't worry, there were adults,
just not any adults that were related to me.
Because when you were a kid, you were allowed to do that.
I think if you were over five,
you were allowed to go to the pool by yourself.
Okay, so I wanted to go into the deep end of the pool.
And at this pool, they gave you an ankle bracelet
that was red, it had a red stop sign on it,
it was a little red bungee cord,
you put it on your ankle, it had a red stop sign,
and that told the lifeguards
that you were not supposed to be anywhere
but the shallow end of the pool, okay?
But during break time, when all the lifeguards
would take a break, everyone had to get out of the pool,
they would do swim tests,
where if you swam the entire length
of the Olympic-sized pool without stopping,
you would be able to get your white ankle bracelet,
which said that you had access to the whole pool.
And this particular day, I'm riding my pink,
white banana seat bike fast to the pool
because I'm gonna get there right in time for break time
because I'm gonna take the test,
and I'm gonna get my white bracelet
so that I can go in the deep end with my friends.
And you know what, I did.
I swam like a little guppy across the entire pool,
I got my white bracelet and I got all access to the pool,
and God reminded me of that.
And then he said to me, he said,
Jackie, he said, you passed the test.
He said, I'm promoting you to all access.
And I won't tell you what tests I passed
because I asked him, and you can ask him too.
I said, God, what test was I taking
and what did I pass and what do I have access to now?
I encourage you to dig in with God on that.
You can come tomorrow night and activate that with the group.
You can share if you get information on that
based on what it is that God's saying to you.
But I just wanna encourage you that God is saying
that we are passing tests, that we are.
We are passing them.
So for those of you that this whole phone call
made you feel like a total failure
that's never passed a test in your life,
you're wrong, it's not true.
And I wanna encourage you to pray into that little vision
I had of little Jackie passing her swim test
and ask God, hey, what tests have I been passing
and what do I have access to?
You guys, I have a lot of different memberships
and different things for different things
and I don't know all the benefits to all the memberships.
And that's dumb of me.
You know why?
Because I have access to those things
but I don't know what they are.
And so you gotta be praying and asking God
what you have access to as a member of the family of God,
as his child and also as the person
who has passed whatever test it is in your life
and now there could be all this stuff
just waiting for you to enjoy that you're not enjoying
because you simply don't know it's there.
And so Father God, I thank you.
Thank you for this word.
I pray that you would seal it in,
that you would cause all of us
to take a deeper, introspective look
at the things that you've blessed us with,
the things you've given us access to.
Tell us about the test that we're taking now
or the test that we've already passed
and help us to enjoy the benefits
that you have given us through your son, Jesus Christ.
Amen.
Love y'all.
Happy Saturday.