Welcome to our July 7th heartwork, heart check in so glad to have you all joining us tonight.
My name is Bethany Cooper, I'm one of the master heartwork coaches here in the community.
And it's my pleasure to meet you if I've never met you before if you're here joining us for
the first time, as in like, this is your first live session, we'd love for you to put that
in the chat for us so that we can welcome you for those returning Welcome back.
Some of you I know are about in the end of your journey here in heartwork, you're in
your fifth week.
And I just want to say congratulations, you've been seeing this through all the way and God
is doing amazing things in your life.
And this is just this, this is just the beginning, there's so much greatness ahead for you.
I see a lot of first timers Welcome, Nadine, I'm not sure first name for Jockabed, but
welcome, Elizabeth, Karen, Jennifer.
And Jockabed.
Again, I don't know your first name, because it just says iPhone, but you're just finished
first week.
That's great.
First live check in Cassie.
Hello.
So welcome, everyone.
We're so glad to have so many joining us on this journey for the first time and you're
in your first week.
Sorry, y'all have a little tickle right in my nose.
I'm so sorry to do that on camera.
It just keeps kind of tickling right in there.
Anyways, we're so glad to have you here and just be excited about the journey that's ahead.
I want to just encourage you that there's so many blessings that are just left to be
unveiled for you in this journey.
If you continue to ask the Lord to reveal things for healing, for upgrades and understanding
and revelation and for enlightenment, every step of the way we can step further into revelation
and understanding.
Y'all, I knew God was a supernatural God years ago, but I definitely, that was one of the
things he said he was going to teach me in 2025, more about the supernatural realm.
And I've been praying into that and I'll tell you what, I've seen an acceleration in financial
blessings just coming out of nowhere.
Just things totally unexpected.
Even today, after literally 30 minutes after I finished this afternoon's live session,
Brian and I got a call from someone who they're feeling led to so into our journey to work
towards having a baby and it's just, God's just blessing our socks off.
So I just want to start tonight's session with that because it's no coincidence to me
what our content is tonight and what I was coaching on and talking about and helping
lead people into this revelation of who God is and to then turn around and have God in
all of his goodness.
Just bless me.
Right.
Like turn around.
It's just blessing flowing.
And maybe that's not where you've been because years ago, that's not how I felt.
I loved God.
I knew God was good, but I didn't, I didn't fully understand how much capacity I could
have to receive his goodness.
But I want you to know like so much has changed in just four years time of my life that I
know so much more about receiving the goodness and love of God in a fresh way than I did
four years ago.
And my life is radically different now and it continues to be so.
And that's why I'm saying that I feel like I even got another upgrade in that revelation
today.
And so that's why I want to give that to you, that he's good and he's always working on
your behalf.
He's fighting for you even when you don't know that he's fighting for you.
And so before I get too far into our session tonight, I just wanted to kind of plant that
seed.
I have a couple of housekeeping things to give you as well.
I want to encourage you, we have a couple of best practice things for the ladies that
are almost finished.
You've heard this a couple of times, but for our new ladies, I have to repeat it.
So a couple of things, you want to press pause on dating.
If you were in a serious relationship coming into this program, we're not saying you have
to break up with them, but what we are saying is you need to give yourself space and time
to focus on your heart healing.
If you've been on the dating apps or trying to meet guys, still, we want to encourage
you to press pause on that.
And here's why, you're going to really benefit yourself by doing that.
You're going to allow yourself to focus on yourself and your healing and allow the Lord
to give to you everything he's trying to get to you.
You came here because you needed healing and you're needing help in your romantic love
story.
One of the things that we have found is that when people come through the heart work and
they think they can juggle dating and heart work, y'all, it doesn't work.
They start dating people and then they get further down the road and then they have to
come back and do the heart work.
It happens time and time again.
So do yourself a favor, just focus on your heart work and your healing in this process.
And then also one week of content per week is what our recommendation is.
If you take longer than five weeks, that's totally fine.
We're not opposed to that at all, because again, you want to follow the Holy Spirit
in your process.
But the one thing that we are asking you is to not fly through the program, okay?
So we don't want you to be done before five weeks.
All right, let's see here.
Investing in your self-care during this journey is also going to be really important.
So move your body, drink a lot of water, eat really healthy, you all, and get extra rest.
Even if you're not a nap person, just laying down and allowing your body to physically
rest is going to be really important for you.
Why do these things matter?
Well, here is a really big reality.
As we're processing heart work, our body's releasing toxins into our system.
Or even if you're experiencing something challenging or things going on in your life, you want
to make sure that you're giving your body what it needs to process that stuff out so
that you can be healthy and be whole, more whole each step of the way as you're continuing
in this process.
I want to plug Supernatural Saturday.
Why are you suffering needlessly?
If you all haven't heard it, check it out.
It's really, really good.
I believe it's going to continue to set you free in conjunction with the heart work and
everything you're learning through that.
Again, if you're joining us for the first time, welcome.
If you're returning, we're so glad to have you back with us tonight.
All right, let me pray first, and we're going to dive right into the content.
Father, thank you for, Lord, just your goodness, just your faithfulness to us, Lord, even in
times of doubt or just being uncertain, God, that you're faithful and your amazing love
just continues to pursue us.
And I thank you, God, that even when we may not understand who you are, God, as love,
who you are as peace, who you are as kind.
God, I thank you that you remain the same.
I pray that you would reveal things for healing tonight, that you would enable every person
that's here to have the capacity to receive your truth, that you would bring fresh revelation
from heaven above and insight, that you would bring light into the darkness and that it
would shatter the darkness and expel it.
Lord, we know that light and dark cannot coexist, and we thank you that you sent Jesus as the
light of the world.
There is no darkness in him, and I thank you, God, that through your son, Jesus, that we
are set free.
We are given freedom, we're given life, we're given hope, and I pray that you would help
us to receive all of that and more tonight.
I pray that you would help me to hear what your spirit's saying throughout the session.
Even though I know the plan and I have the guideline, Lord, we want to hear what you
have to say, and so help us to hear, Father, in Jesus' name, amen.
And so tonight, I want to start our content area just kind of saying, hey, did anyone
notice it's 7-7-25 today?
That's a big number for me, as far as seven.
If you don't know the prophetic meaning, there's several, but some of the prophetic meanings
of the number seven is completion, spiritual wholeness associated with divine presence
and the culmination of God's work.
So today, no matter what you've been through up through this point, you came in tonight,
you're about to experience an upgrade and an experience with God's divine culmination
of his work in your life.
He's bringing everything together for good in your life tonight.
And so when we look at the word culmination, it's like that peak point, that change, that
high level of, you know, that place of meeting God in a supernatural way.
And so whether you knew that that's what you were walking into tonight, God has something
really amazing in store for you.
And so on that note, one of the things I pray a lot for myself and for other people is for
God to make us completely whole, lacking no good thing.
And so on 7725, may that be your prayer, that God would make you completely whole, lacking
no good thing, that he would make you whole physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually
and financially, that everything that you have need of would be given to you, but that
you would also partner with God in the process of transformation, transforming our minds,
you know, by what?
Through the renewing of our minds.
That means we have to be in proximity to revelation and understanding from heaven on a regular
basis.
Ladies.
Okay.
This is so important.
I can't emphasize it enough.
You need to know who God is for yourself.
You need to like read his word.
And this isn't about legalism or like religion, check something off a box, but like, father,
help me to hunger and thirst for your word, to know you, to really know you.
And in a way like I've never known you before, or even if I, I had this amazing relationship
with you before, but now there's a disconnect, Lord, help me to not just even reconnect to
what I knew before, but help me to connect in a healthier way.
And to understand that you're inviting me into intimacy, that he's asking us to come
closer.
And tonight we're going to talk about briefly the story of Candace for those of you that
just started.
this story and some of the videos, but the highlights of
this story is that there is this woman that God was talking to
Jackie about. And basically God was saying, Candace is going to
be there and she needs healing. Jackie was planning two
different conferences. This is years ago. And God kept talking
to her about Candace. Candace is going to be there and she needs
healing, but she didn't know who Candace was, y'all. She didn't
know who Candace was, but God knew who Candace was. God knew
where Candace was at and he knew how to get Candace what she
needed. There was a speaker on the docket for one of the
conferences who ended up not being able to come. So someone
had to take her place. Does anyone want to guess who the
person was? It was Candace. So Jackie didn't know that Candace
ended up being the speaker at this conference. So full circle
moment, as Jackie finds out who Candace is, they ended up
meeting and talking and Jackie's able to minister to her and is
able to basically be a vessel for God to work through to get
Candace the healing that she needed. And so tonight I want to
say to you that God knows what you need. He knows where you are
and he knows how to get it to you. Even when you don't know
how to help yourself, he knows how to help you. He knows how to
get you what you need. It's, it's the biggest part of all of
this, you all, is when we surrender and shift into
partnering with that truth that God loves you. He wants to get
you the things that you need. And sometimes there's things
that you think you want and need, but they're not good for
you. And so God in his love and his kindness towards you is
actually protecting you, but you believe he's withholding from
you. Okay. So some of you tonight, I'm asking God to help
you shift and to have an upgrade and understanding that he is
always working on your behalf to not only give you what you
need, but also some of the things that you want that
actually would be good for you. But so many of you actually
don't believe that God wants to bless you. I had one of the
ladies in the afternoon session she was sharing during the
coaching part. And one of the things that came out was that
she didn't really even think that God would want to spend
time with her. And so I want to put that out there tonight.
Let's just, let's just kind of activate you all for a minute.
I would love to see in the chat how many of you, you can relate
to that statement. You're just not even sure. Like you pray and
maybe you read your Bible, but you don't even really know,
like, does it matter to God if you spend time with him? Does
he care? Does he listen? Maybe you hear in ways like that. Go
ahead and put in the chat for me. You can just say agree if
that's something that you relate with. Is that something anyone
else here tonight? You've gone through that. That's something
that you feel or experience. And sometimes that causes you to
create distance between yourself and the Lord. All right, a
couple of you. All right. Yeah, there can be fear, Nadine.
That's what came up for her this afternoon as we were coaching.
And you all, I want to help you tonight understand that, and I
said it last week, the more honest we are with ourselves, as
well as with the Lord, the more the Lord is able to come in and
break down the lies that the enemy has been speaking to us to
keep us away from the Lord, to cause us to isolate, to pull
away and to self preserve and all these things that actually
don't help us, they're harming us. And they're not only
impacting our relationship with the Lord, but it's impacting our
relationship with other people. Yeah, Carmen, he does speak
through many ways. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So good. All right, Sarah
says not fear that he doesn't want to hear me but fear that it
won't matter or change things. Okay, so good. Okay, I'm loving
this. This is this is good, ladies. So on that, you know,
maybe it's that we think we have to convince God of something.
Are we trying to convince God of what is good for us? Are we
trying to beg for what the blessing is? Remember, we
talked a couple weeks ago, if you're brand new, you might not
have heard this session. But ladies, we're not we're not
beggars under the table. We're princesses, we're daughters. And
there's a seat at the banquet. It's not a table that's grubby
and dirty. There's a beautiful table set with food and and
beautiful things. And it's not about things, though. The thing
is, is that it's the abundance of the Lord that everywhere is
he everywhere he goes, there's just abundance. I just imagine
like, and this isn't this is not biblical, but in my head, you
know, just everywhere that he walks that just stuff grows,
just like every creation just responds to him because he is
God. It's kind of, this is, this is a bad analogy, but this is what's coming to my mind. Y'all. Now
you go to the grocery store and as you walk down the areas where the coolers are, you know, as
you're walking, the lights start turning on. I remember the first time I experienced that I was
like, Whoa, like, I didn't even know they were doing that, but it's like the light turns on as
you, as you walk there. Well, he is the light. So guess what? Everywhere he goes, there is light.
Can you imagine? There's literally no darkness. There's no fear. There's no pain. Everything is
good. Everything grows. There's life. There's joy. There's hope and abundance. And God wants to
invite us into those kinds of mindsets. It doesn't mean that we were absent of reality or that we
don't understand that we're going through hard times because we're all going to face hardship
and trials. Y'all. So it's not pretending that those things aren't there, but it's receiving
so much of the love of the father in the midst of them, that we are secure. We're secure in who he
is. We're secure in who we are in him. And we know that he's good no matter what. All right.
So we're going to keep going. So I'm asking God to reveal to all of you tonight that he is good
and that he will come through for you. Not just your sister, not just another person on this
screen here, not just somebody else in the community, but for you, Elizabeth, for you,
Jovita, for you, Janie, every lady on here, that God, he has a predestined plan for you.
And he has Jesus sitting at his right hand interceding for you to step into that a little
bit more tonight. The struggle is the letdowns, trauma, and unhealed wounds from the past.
Those cause us to view God and other people through filters and lenses. Remember last week
when I shared with the sunglasses? Again, if you're joining us new, there's a replay of last
week's session if you want to go listen to that. But I put on these sunglasses that had the
UV kind of protection. Well, they change the way everything looks. It's all different color than
when I don't have the sunglasses on. So just like unforgiveness, it changes the way we see God and
people, ourselves. It's the same thing about all these other letdowns and trauma and unhealed
wounds. So where we're going tonight is I want to unpack, A, that God cares about you,
including your broken promises. Yep, the broken promises, ones that you think that God didn't keep
for you, as well as other people where they hurt you because they didn't keep
promises. Maybe even you yourself didn't keep a promise to yourself,
and that hurt you in some way. And God wants to come in and heal those areas tonight. Numbers
23 19 in the message version says this, God is not a man when given to lies and not a son,
a man changing his mind. Does he speak and not do what he says? Does he promise and not come through?
I want you to be thinking about that. What do you really believe?
Do you believe that God is a man of his word? Do you believe that God keeps his promises?
Or deep down, subconsciously, do you believe that God is a trickster?
That he dangles things because you see it happen in other people's lives,
but never in your life? Are those things that you're partnering with in your mind?
You know, so start really asking yourself tonight, what is it that you really believe about the Lord
and his character? Who is he to you? Psalm 31 verse 16 says this in the NIV version says,
let your face shine on your servant. Save me in your unfailing love, which actually means for
thy mercy sake. Unfailing love in the Hebrew means this goodness, kindness, faithfulness,
and merciful. I'm going to read that scripture now to you again. Let your face shine on your
servant. Save me in your unfailing love, your goodness. Save me in your kindness. Save me in
your faithfulness, Lord. Save me in your mercy. Does that sound like a God that's a trickster to
you? It doesn't to me, but so often the enemy tries to come and offer this stuff to us,
especially when we're feeling weak. Have y'all ever noticed when you're sick,
when you're not feeling good, man, all the negative thoughts, like even when you can keep
them at bay for the most part, when you're not feeling well, it's a lot harder to fight that
stuff off, isn't it? Yeah, but what it does is it actually reveals to us what we're actually
partnering with at times, even in the times you're feeling good.
Now, sometimes it's just an attack of the enemy. It's just onslaught.
The Bible says he'll do that. But then there's other times where it's
just like, whoa, where did that thought come from? Oh, I think I've been
thinking about that this week. Have y'all ever had that happen?
That literally by the time you're not feeling well, it's like it's grown
because it's had time to grow.
So what we want to do is we want to catch it before it ever gets to that
point. And that happens through healing and allowing God to give us
upgrades in our revelation and our understanding of him.
Okay, next, next scripture. These are going to all kind of talk about
unfailing love, but I want to give you different glimpses of them.
Psalm 32 verse 10 says this many are the woes of the wicked, but the
Lord's unfailing love surrounds.
Do you hear it surrounds the one who trust in him unfailing love here
means mercy shall compass about him.
Well, what that means the word surround there and the Hebrews says to
turn turn about or around or aside or back or towards to go about or
around to surround to encircle.
God's unfailing love for those who trust in him.
Will literally encircle us.
Surrounding us on every side you all.
Can you kind of just imagine that right now? Like it's like a force
field. Let's just think superhero. Okay for a second.
It's like a supernatural force field. If we will rest in the ability to
trust him.
We can partner with the truth of what the word says there. That was
Psalm 32 10 Alicia.
And that's the NIV version that God's unfailing love literally
encircles us.
I imagine not much could get through that.
What do you think?
The Bible also says that perfect love cast out fear because fear
has to do with what torment punishment Jackie was just talking about
this.
So if we are living or walking or thinking in fear,
there's some part of us that is not rooted and grounded in love.
Him God, God is love.
All right.
Next one. Y'all there's so many scripts and I didn't even,
I didn't even do a whole search on this.
This just happened from my own devotion time in the last couple days.
I started just sealing seeing this phrase on failing love and failing
love.
And it's like over and over is just jumping out at me.
It said Psalm 33 verse five, 18 and 22.
I'm going to read all three of these to you.
The Lord loves righteousness and justice.
The earth is full of his unfailing love,
which it means of the goodness of the Lord verse 18.
But the eyes of the Lord are on those who fear him.
This is a different kind of fear. This is not being afraid.
This is reverence.
And those whose hope is in his unfailing love.
Is your hope in his unfailing love tonight?
If our hope is in things of the world or people, you all,
our hope will always fade.
It'll kind of go up and down with the flows of people in our lives.
But if our hope is in the Lord,
In his unfailing love, man, can you imagine?
It'll just rise from where you're at right now.
Here's the last one, verse 22.
May your unfailing love be with us, Lord.
Even as we put our hope in you again, that unfailing love.
It's that representation of mercy and goodness.
You know,
Elijah was running down the mountain and the goodness of God was
chasing him down. Y'all can look it up. It's in the Bible.
Why do we think that this stuff is reserved for people that were in the
Bible years ago? Do we believe the goodness of God can chase us down?
And this isn't a tormenting chase you all. I imagine it felt really good.
Have you ever been in the presence of the Lord? And it's just,
there's laughter and it smells amazing and there's joy and y'all it's
good. It's if you've never experienced, I hope you do.
I hope you do soon and very soon because he is amazing.
It's good. And there's just this immense love.
That's what's chasing us down.
If we believe that that can happen. All right.
I'm going to read a little bit from the song Sparrows to y'all.
I don't know if you've heard it in a while or not.
It used to be a really popular song by Corey Asbury,
but I feel like it's really fitting for this story and teaching tonight
about God's promises and his care.
for us. I want to encourage you to look this up this week and
listen to it and meditate in the truth of what it says. Here's
what it says. The sparrow's not worried about tomorrow, or the
troubles to come. The lily's not thinking about the seasons, the
drought or the flood. A tree that's planted by the water
isn't fazed by the fire. So why should I be? Because you take
good care of me. You take good care of me. You know what I need
before I even ask a thing. And you hold me in your hands with a
kindness that never ends. I'm carried in your love no matter
what the future brings. Yeah, you take good care of me. The
sun's not worried about the winter, because soon it will
pass. The light is not thinking about the darkness or the shadow
that it casts. A heart that's planted in forgiveness doesn't
dwell in the past. So why should I be? Because you take good care
of me. You take good care of me. You know what I need before I
even ask a thing. And you hold me in your hands with a kindness
that never ends. I'm carried in your love no matter what the
future brings. Yeah, you take good care of me. Do you believe
it tonight? That he's looking out for you and he's carrying
you in his love and that he has good things for you. Why is this
time different? We get that question all the time. Why is
this time any different? You know, and we hear that the enemy
kind of bombards you all with those kind of thoughts. And I
want you to know that this time is different because you're
becoming different. If you choose to be, you're not going
to be the same person even tomorrow that you were the day
you came into this community. 100%. It's very rare that people
leave unchanged. There's something supernatural happening
here. God's blessing and his grace is on this program, upon
the teaching, upon the words that are coming forth. And
people are being set free and delivered from things that
they've worked, tried to work through for years. It's not
about us. Thank God we get to be a part of it. It's amazing
blessing to get to be a part of this, but this is something God
is doing. And he wants you to be a part of it. You're becoming
someone new and you're also unbecoming the old counterfeit
versions of yourself. So you're literally going to be every day
stepping into this new version of yourself. So you have the
capability going forward to attract new kinds of people,
healthier kinds of people into your life, a spirit mate that's
healthy versus the people that you used to allow yourself to
date because you just thought you had to settle for less than
God's best. And Hey, you know, just, I don't even know if
anybody's going to come. So I better just date this guy.
Anyone else been there? And we allowed ourselves to be
mistreated and mishandled, but God has something better for
you. Ecclesiastes 3.1 in the message version says this,
there's an opportune time to do things a right time for
everything on earth. Hard change equals life change. You're about
to step into your new season. God in Isaiah 43.19, you know, I
quote this all the time, but I think we need to hear it all the
time. God says, I'm doing something new. Do you not
perceive it? I'm making streams in the, the, the wasteland and
rivers in the desert. And I might say this too backwards. I
don't really remember. I think that's how the, how it goes, but
y'all he's doing something new. Can we perceive it? And if we
can't perceive it yet, maybe we should ask him, God, can you
help me to perceive what you're doing new in my life? Some days
it's so hard, Lord, because I just see all the failures. I see
all the heartache and, and God, I just, I'm struggling to have
hope, but God, I want, I want to trust you. I want to believe
that you're good. And I want to see the new things that you're
doing. Help me to see through your eyes, Lord. Again, when we
get really humble and we really are honest with the Lord, he
knows all this stuff already, but he wants to know, are we
willing to surrender? Are we willing to surrender to seek
his will? Uh, Gabriella, yes. When you step into Love Story
Accelerator, that is when we encourage you all to potentially
enter dating if that is what you feel led to do at that time. Um,
but during the heart work, we, we encourage you to press pause
on that. Um, so that heart change equals life change. Real
and lasting change though is a process. Sometimes you all might
get delivered from stuff like immediately, but most of the
time.
You're going to have to go through a process and God's going to give you opportunities
all along the way for healing.
So one of the things I like to talk about here is that, you know, in our culture, uh,
you know, for forever, the microwave was the fastest thing, right?
In the most, you know, quick way to cook your food.
Now you got air fryers, right?
And things are getting faster and faster and faster.
We've got instant coffee, we've got instant this, we have food that literally you don't
even have to bake it anymore.
You just carry it around.
Everything's kind of quick and done, right?
Well, imagine how that impacts the way you show up with everything else.
Really?
We, we, we don't really think about this very often, but the culture that we live in, we
expect relationships to be like that too quick done.
I don't want, I don't want to have to work at this.
I don't want to have a preparation.
I don't want to have a process.
We just, we wanted everything done, done, done.
And I'm not saying, you know, I've been there too.
So no shame on, on any of us, but that isn't reality.
The healthiest food, guess what y'all takes time to grow it in a garden and invest in
it and then harvest it and then cook it healthy food for us.
It takes time.
So I want you to start shifting the way you're looking at life and the interactions and even
healing process.
Some of you, when you're going through this process might feel frustrated because you
want something to be quicker.
And some of you will try to fly through this program because you're just convincing yourself
that you already know all this stuff and you've already done all the healing things and other
groups and communities and you're good, but I'm going to tell you what, if that is your
heart posture, you're not good.
Whether you want to receive that tonight or not, but typically people that are in that
heart heart posture actually are not teachable.
They struggle with being teachable and actually hearing what God wants to say to them in this
new season.
I've been learning my whole life.
I'm about to be 47 at the end of this month and you all, I don't ever want to stop learning.
I don't ever want to stop growing and I don't want to ever get to the point that I think
I've arrived and that I don't need help.
So are you willing to ask for the upgrade tonight?
Where do you currently need an upgrade in your understanding of God's care for you?
That's what I want you to focus on this week as you're praying for revelation.
I want you to be asking the Lord, Lord, where do I currently need an upgrade in my understanding
of your care for me?
This is your broke, uh, your breakout question tonight.
It's based on the topic of broken promises.
This is what the question is.
When was a time someone broke a promise they made to you and how is that still affecting
you today?
I'm going to read it again.
When was the time someone broke a promise they made to you and how is that still affecting
you today?
When you pray about this, remember this isn't just to go like, okay, this is what it is,
but asking the Lord, Lord, what is the, where does someone break a promise to me that's
still affecting me today?
And don't, um, try to kind of, if you think of something that seems small, go with whatever
God is showing you.
Because sometimes ladies, it's small broken promises that are the root of our pain that
have led into these bigger issues that we struggle with.
And so we need to process whatever the Lord is bringing up for us.
Um, and I want you to know if you, any of you all, I saw, um, a couple of comments in
the chat.
If, if you're feeling led to cry or anything during these sessions, I want to encourage
you to let that stuff out.
Just allow yourself to process whatever comes up for you and don't try to hold it in.
It's really important to allow yourself the grace and space to do that.
All right.
So I'm going to get these breakout rooms ready.
I'm excited for where these conversations are going to go tonight.
I think it's going to be really great.
All right.
If you get into a room and you're sitting there for a little while and nobody's talking,
come back to the main room and I'll move you to a different room.
And also it sometimes delay internet delay can impact people getting in there.
So just hang out for a second.
I'll move people around if it's needed.
I'm giving you all eight minutes.
Okay.
Go ahead and click to join those rooms for ladies that are new.
That should pop up on your screen.
Go ahead and click to join the rooms and it'll take you automatically in there.
Uh oh.
Bethany, could you try again? I missed the. Yeah, it's totally fine. Yep. Let me. You're
welcome. All right, let me ladies, I'm going to start to pray as soon as I make sure everybody's
situated. I have a couple people in rooms by themselves right now. Jovita, are you able
to go into a room just so I know? I'm thinking maybe not. Totally fine if you can't. Is it
okay if I stay back here? You can. Yeah. I mean, I love for you all to go into the breakout
sessions if there's not a reason that you can't. Okay. Yeah, sure. I'll do it. Yeah.
I think it'll be good for you. Go ahead and go in there and then I'll have to move you
to a different room because I just bumped the other person out. All right. Let's see.
Is everyone else got a buddy? Okay, I'll put you into room four. That's going to be good.
So once you go in there, I can put you into room four. Actually, I'll pop that up for
you right now. Do you see that there? All right, I think we got Camille. Are you able
to go into a room? Yes. Okay, awesome. Let me go. I'll just put you right with them.
There you go. All right, Father, thank you so much for tonight. Ladies, pray for my voice.
I don't know what's going on. I'm starting to feel a little funny in my throat. Father,
thank you so much for tonight. Thanks for everything that you're doing. God, we thank
you for supernatural upgrades and revelation and healing. God, thank you that you would
give us a fresh revelation and insight regarding who you are, God, as love. God, that you would
come into all the broken places and spaces in our hearts, our souls, our minds, our bodies,
and our spirits. Lord, that you would place the balm of Gilead upon those areas where
we thank you for, yes, Lord, healing us from the inside out and for comforting the brokenhearted
and those who are crushed in spirit. Lord, anyone that, you know, there's just brokenness
from promises that, you know, someone made to them that they broke along the way and
that devastated them. And, you know, even when we're kids, when someone's saying they're
going to do something, or even what came out this afternoon during the afternoon session,
some one of the ladies had saved her money as a little child for this toy that she wanted
and gave the money to the stepfather and the stepfather never bought the toy. And so she
had to beg for it and beg for it. And finally the mom kind of intervened and he did end
up getting it, but he like threw it at her when he gave it to her. And so many things
like that impact the way we see the Lord. And so I just want to pray for anyone here
tonight that maybe a mother or a father or a stepfather or someone else that was caring
for you that they withheld something from you that's causing you to view God the same
way that he's withholding from you, that he's angry, that he's mean or abrasive. And so Lord,
we just thank you for, yeah, Lord, just healing broken hearts and, and these areas where parents
and people in authority over us have withheld things just because, and Lord, how it's caused
us to view you in ways that are not true about who you are. We just thank you, God, for opening
the eyes of our hearts so that we could see you more clearly tonight. And I see Sarah
just joined Sarah. Hi, I can put you into breakout. They're talking right now about
when was a time someone broke a promise they made to you and how is that still affecting
you today? Okay, great. I was on my phone and it just kept freezing. So I joined by
my computer. Okay. Hold on. Let me see where you, what room you were in then. Okay. Let's
see. I think it said room 12. It might've just bumped you out when you left. Okay. Let
me put you in there now. Okay. Thanks, Bethany. You're welcome. Thank you. And Brandy, I just
saw that you can't unmute. I'm not sure. Maybe the way you logged in when we log in, we have
to click to allow audio. So you can either just work on that for next week, or if you
want to log out and come back in, you can try and I'll be happy to put you in a breakout
room if you want to try again. So we just thank you for continuing to. Yeah, I just
keep hearing to the scripture that talks about how he would hide us in the cleft of the rock.
And so just pray for protection for anyone that's feeling just unsure God about situations
in their life, or they're going through circumstances where they
need your protection and I thank you God that you do hide us under the shadow of your wings
and in your presence.
I thank you that you hide us in the cleft of your rock when the enemy comes in like
a flood.
We thank you that you raise up a standard against him and I thank you God that you would
just continue to release your divine healing oil from heaven, that it would flow down over
our minds first and foremost, that it would transform us through that renewal that comes
through your healing waters and your river of living waters that flows into us and through
us and brings supernatural life and healing in Jesus name.
Hi Rhonda, they're in breakout sessions, I can put you in there.
They're talking about when was a time someone broke a promise they made to you and how is
that still affecting you today.
So if you want to accept that, you can join the ladies for their last couple of minutes
of conversation if you'd like.
And so just also thinking on Beauty for Ashes scripture and just meditating on the reality
that God can take everything that is broken, everything that's shattered and he can create
something beautiful and powerful out of that and we just thank you God for, yeah, that
you're just the master craftsman, that you're weaving a tapestry so beautiful.
Like on our side of things, sometimes ladies, it looks like, you know, have you ever looked
at a quilt, you know, on the top, the person's quilting or sewing any kind of cross stitch
or anything like that.
On the top, there's a picture, but when you flip the other side, it's just a bunch of
yarn and, you know, all mixed up and there's no pattern.
And sometimes when we're looking at what God is creating in our lives and doing, we're
looking from the ups, the part that's underneath, we're looking at that, but God is, he sees
what he's creating, he sees the masterpiece.
And so Lord, we just thank you for helping us tonight to trust you a little bit more.
We thank you God that as you heal our hearts and help us to understand who you are more
and more, God, that it would help us to, yeah, Lord, that we would grow in our ability to
take that step with you, Lord, into your presence, into your grace, that we would come out of
alignment and agreement with any lies, that even if we take a step, Lord, that you would,
what I'm seeing ladies is like, as the Lord would, like when someone would step out, that
the Lord would remove the beam that they would like be about to step on.
And I feel like someone here tonight, or that might hear this replay, that's how they kind
of view God, that he just pulls the rug out from under them.
And that's not truth.
So I want to encourage you and invite you into coming out of alignment and agreement
with those thoughts.
That's the enemy who comes to kill, steal, and destroy, but God is the one who comes
to give us life and give it to us more abundantly.
And so he's not going to come and pull the rug out from under our feet, or, you know,
again, trick us and like that there's nothing good that, you know, every time we get something
good that we can never hold on to it or any of that kind of stuff.
So we got to come out of mindsets like that and step further into his healing and his
life and his truth.
Welcome back, ladies.
We have like 30 seconds and then everyone will be back.
So good.
Tonight, God is doing some stuff.
So I just have that.
I'll tell you all this image I just saw as I was talking and praying.
It was like someone was going to step and they were going to step onto this beam, but
then their view is that God pulls the beam out.
And what I heard was that some people actually believe that God is going to pull the rug
out from under them that, you know, that thing that they think they can stand on, that they
can't and that God's the one doing that, but God's not the one.
The enemy is the devil is the one that prowls around like a roaring lion seeking whom he
might devour.
He's the one that tries to bring death, destruction, disease, disruption.
God is not the one who brings those things.
And so if we in some way have been partnering with the lie that God pulls the rug out from
under us, we're never allowed to have a blessing every time something's going good, something
goes bad.
And ladies, those are limiting beliefs and mindsets that we have to not partner with
anymore in order to receive all that God has for us.
All right.
And so I want to encourage you in the days to come.
If you struggle with those thoughts that you would ask God to, um, I just like got the
thought of like, Hey, let's just pray and thank him for brain surgery because he can
give us new mindsets.
He can do like literal work on our mind while we sleep, while we go about our way and, uh,
we can trust God for those things.
All right, y'all.
Good job.
It sounds like some people, Hey ladies, just so you know, breakout sessions.
It's a good.
practice on all for all of us, like kind of watching the time
and making sure that you're short, brief and powerful. So
everyone can go and it's not because I think anything
negative about what Pamela put in there. But like I remember
being in breakouts and having to learn like to really watch
because I'm a talker y'all. I could totally talk for the whole
time. And so just want y'all to know it can happen. But just be
blessed with that time together. Alright, so who's willing to
share with the whole group what you shared in your breakout
session tonight? Who's gonna be my Okay, awesome. Alexandra, go
ahead.
Oh, wow. I didn't expect so soon. Hello. Thank you. Um, so
it was really cool. Like right away, the Holy Spirit throughout
the heartwork has been just like dropping stuff. And for the
first moment, I'm always like, is that him? So I had that he
said, like Kimberly and my brother in law. And I've been
praying today specifically, this whole thing has been
speaking to me tonight about just like, how am I gonna heal?
Like, how, like, I see that I see the issues. And like, how am
I going to heal through this stuff? And specifically
friendship related and really all relationship related. And so
my best friend and my brother in law, I was in like middle
school, and he wasn't a safe person for me to be around. Like
he just wasn't a great guy. And you know, I was alone often with
him without my sister around and nothing thankfully happened. But
my best friend and him like decided I had said no to
something and they were like, they decided to like talk behind
my back. And I saw them like, conspiring something. But then
once she left, and I was alone with him, he pants me. And then
she, she ended up like coming back. This is a memory from a
long time ago. But I was so hurt, because I was like, you
guys were like, inspiring something against me. And like
this guy is not someone who I want to pants me. And I just
felt like so betrayed by her. And because she was supposed to
be like my best friend. So he brought that up to me tonight.
And I think maybe it's just a one of those things that I need
to let God into so I can heal with all relationships and trust
with other people.
Yeah, yeah, that's really good. I'm so sorry to hear that
happens. So you're saying that he came and pulled your pants
down. That's what you're expressing to us, right? Okay, I
just want to make sure I thought that's what you meant. But I
want to make sure I was hearing you correctly. Is this someone
that did you stay? Were you saying also, this is your
brother in law that did this?
Yeah, my Yeah, my sister's husband, they were both young,
like they're like, not that it makes it okay. But he's like,
because he's still not a great guy. But yeah, he's like, maybe
like 17 or 18. And I was like, 1110 or 11. And we were home
alone. Often with him, which wasn't good. And I thankfully
had a I had God's protection, I think in a lot of instances of
avoiding him. But I did not want to be pants by him at all.
Yeah, is this someone so do you have to see him a lot now today?
Yeah, when I go home, so God's taken me to Texas. And I think
I've had some like a lot of healing being away from my
family in California. But when I do go home, it's very stressful
because he's around he's caused a lot of issues in the family.
And just recently, when I was on my sister told me he wasn't
going to be home when I went to go visit her and the family.
And then she was like, Oh, you should come now at this time,
because Carl isn't going to be there because she knows I'm not
like a big fan. And then like mid conversation with her. He
like he walked in. And so I think she was a part of that as
well. Because she she knew what he was doing. So
okay, he's just not fun. Yeah. And so what this is causing
on just from listening to you, this is like a perpetual
breakdown of trust in relationships that you should be
able to trust people, like your best friend, a brother in law,
and now your sister. And so want to encourage you to really like
follow what the Lord is leading you. He brought this up for a
reason. But to pray for God to surround you with people that
you really start to know you can trust them where you're you
really feel safe, not just because you're their family, or
there's someone that you've been friends with before, but just
who are genuine people that you can be safe with and trust. And
literally, so that you start to learn more about God's trust
through them. But I believe God will also enable you spirit like
supernaturally to experience a fresh revelation.
of his trust through just experiences that you're going through and to also look back
kind of like what you're saying, like seeing how he protected you at times and, and did
keep you from things.
Have you ever, like, I'm assuming you've probably forgiven them for this before.
I am just now this year diving into more forgiveness.
And there's so many on my list.
So I'm going to add this.
Yeah.
Okay, that's really good.
And I would include the recent interaction with your sister telling you that he wasn't
going to be home.
And then he came home because I feel like it'd be really easy for the enemy to kind
of compound on top of the other things you've already processed when you know, the Lord's
wanting you to move forward.
So let's keep short accounts as you're going.
Does that make sense?
Yeah.
Forgive both.
Yep.
Yeah.
Thank you.
Yeah, you're welcome.
Are there any other things that related to him, where you haven't been able to trust
her?
Yeah.
I'm wondering if I should talk to her about it, but I guess I can, I don't, I'm like,
I was really hurt by it, but.
I would process the forgiveness first and be praying and asking the Lord if he thinks
you need to talk to her and he'll show you.
Yeah.
Thank you so much.
You're welcome.
I appreciate you sharing that with us.
Yeah.
You're welcome.
Teresa Thornton.
Go ahead.
Hi.
Okay.
So mine that I really did not remember till we talked in the group was my parents would
say they were going to be somewhere when I was growing up and very often would make excuses
and would not end up going, whether it be a concert or different things.
And it's happened throughout adulthood still, it happens.
Like if they say they're going to come visit me, I don't make plans until they're there
kind of thing.
And it was worse when it happened to my children because then to see their pain that that caused
was even worse.
And I was literally having discussions with God today, like hearing God say, do you trust
me?
Do you trust me?
And I'm saying yes, but I'm like, Lord, why is there this little pellet of fear?
Why do I have this fear packet going on?
So I think that is something I got to work through, but yeah.
And the reality of this is if our parents say they're going to show up and don't, then
guess who we actually believe will do the same thing.
Right.
Yeah.
You know, whether subconsciously, you know, whether we mean to or not, it's happening
in our subconscious that it's like, okay, God, like you're saying you're going to do
this for me.
You're saying you're leading me, like, I'm just going to give this as an example.
Not that you're thinking this, you're leading me into this program and I'm doing all this
work.
You're saying you promised me this, but can I really trust you to show up Lord?
You know, like we, we look through that lens because that's where the pain, and especially
like you said, like it's one thing when it happens to us, it's another thing when it
happens to our kids.
And we're watching them experience pain at the hands of the same thing that happened
to us.
And we can't, we can't, we can't always keep it from affecting them.
Right.
Yeah.
And so, um, two things, uh, not only forgiving your parents with the forgiveness prayer sheet,
you know, for yourself, but I also am hearing like where you've taken up a fence for your
kids.
Hmm.
Yeah.
You've taken up not only unforgiveness, but you've literally, literally maybe carrying
an offense towards your parents for hurting your kids the same way.
Yeah.
Um, I'm curious, um, have you ever talked to your mom about this specifically your mom?
I'm wondering, I heard, uh, like your mom's mom, did your mom's mom used to do the same
thing?
She, my mom's mom, my mom felt less important than her sisters, but I don't know that they
didn't show up.
They moved a lot.
There was a lot of trauma in the house.
What's the reason they give you when you, if you've ever, if they've ever like said
they would come and didn't come, what would be the reasons?
Um, somebody is sick or had to work late.
It, it just, it could have been somebody needed something.
It could be anything.
It's just, it could be a lot of different things, but it made me feel less important
than all of those other things.
Right.
And so it's interesting that you said your mom felt less important than her sisters.
And then what's happening is that's how you were feeling regarding the other things that
they were doing instead of coming to see you.
I feel like there's a pattern there potentially, and, and I'm not saying it's.
not with your dad too, but specifically I heard your mom's mom ask her about her mom's mom.
And so you may, I don't know, is your mom, someone safe that you can talk to her about things like
that? I think I can now. I think so. You may want to pray about doing that. I feel like that could
potentially open the door for you all to talk about some deeper things and there might be some
healing and know that sometimes too, like people get nervous when you start talking about stuff.
So she might open up a little bit and then coil back, but just keep praying. And let's just maybe
lightly see where this could go, but pray first. Do you forget, like just the same thing I just
said to Alexander, do the forgiveness first, pray. And then just, I think there could be something
good that could come from talking to your mom. No, I think that's, I think that's really good.
And I had never thought about the offense I had for my children. So that's good. Thank you.
You're welcome. Yeah. We carry a lot of baggage. When we, even our friends, if we see our friends
going through hurt, we see our friends sick or someone we love sick. We take up offense towards
God when people get sick, even you all, dare I say, it's such a tragedy what's happened in Texas, right?
There's people all over the world taking up offense for those kids right now. They don't
understand, you know, and they question, they're questioning how, like, how can God allow that,
you know? And I don't want to feed into that tonight, but I think it's worth mentioning.
So I want to encourage you all. I know it's hard and it's, it's just heartbreaking,
but don't take up offense towards God because of what's happened. Remember the devil is the
devil is the one that comes to kill, steal and destroy. Okay. This was a disaster. This was not
God doing this to these people. Okay. All right. Teresa, thanks for sharing that with us. Appreciate
that. Helen. Hi. Hi. How are you? I don't know what I'm going to do without you. No unhealthy
attachment here. Y'all, this is my last, my last, what do you call this thing? Heartwork
break-in session, breakout session, whatever it's called. You're going to do great, but we're also
talking about maybe, maybe opening it up where phase two people can come back for heartwork if
they need to. So we're, we're praying and talking about that right now, but you're going to be
amazing, but go ahead. What do you have for us tonight? Everybody. I love Bethany. So what came
up during our breakout thing was, so you asked about broken promises, right? I went on a mission
trip in 2018 to Thailand. And I had always heard about, you know, as far as your spirit mate,
husband, whatever thing you're going to, you're going to be like pursuing Jesus, running after
Jesus. And you look at who's, you know, running next to you and that's the person, whatever.
So there was this guy on the trip and there was this connection. I don't think I imagined it. I
don't know. It was, it was there. And then he lives in a different, I don't know where he lives now,
but he lives in a different state. I live in California. He lived in Oklahoma, but we were
under like the same church movement, like same church leadership. And so I left Thailand before
he did. He was there for a longer time than I was. And when I came back, there was a group
text with everybody's number. And he had called me during the trip, like about the ministry,
whatever. So it wasn't like I phished his number. Anyway, I texted him when I got back. I was like,
Hey, how are you? Blah, blah, blah. And, and before I left, we had a conversation and he said,
I would love to see you again. So I'm thinking this is like legit. So again, I waited two months
though, cause I was afraid and of being rejected, but I did. And then his reaction was completely
unexpected. He was so cold. He was like, where did you get my number? And I remember thinking
everybody has, everybody had everyone's number on the WhatsApp group. And you had called me during
the trip. Like I never got your number from a strange place. Like we all had each other's
number. It was such a opposite reaction from what I expected. He did say he had looked for me on
Facebook, but I, I don't know. I didn't understand why he was so cold towards me. I did do a
forgiveness worksheet. I had never thought about doing that. So I did do one this, you know,
during this heartwork and I felt really, I've released him, but I guess it came back when you
asked the question about broken promises, because there was the implication that, yeah, let's
connect, you know, when I get back to the States, which that group did after a couple of months. So
yeah. Yeah. And I think underlying under that Helen is what you said in the beginning.
I think the broken promise that you feel is underlying there.
is that people told you that if you are serving the Lord
and you look over and that person's serving to you,
that's your spirit mate.
And while like you all,
that is something that actually helped me choose better
this last time around, in addition to Jackie's coaching.
It's not just that everybody, I definitely,
there was multiple people that I went on dates with
that were totally in ministry.
And yeah, they were serving the Lord,
but their spiritual DNA did not match mine, okay?
And there were unhealthy things and flags,
that I noticed with a couple of them.
And so I think just the miss,
like it's not that the teaching was totally bad,
but maybe how it was conveyed,
that that is for sure the person, you know?
And so maybe just consider that
that could be a part of the broken promise too.
Does that make sense?
And then the second thing with the guy,
is there any, you didn't do anything wrong,
but one of the things that I feel led to ask you is,
was there any like,
did you feel mad at yourself for calling him?
Because the way he reacted,
was there any, how have you felt towards yourself?
Are you proud of yourself for putting yourself out on a,
like out on that limb and going for it,
even though he didn't react well,
like have you processed that?
Like, that's really amazing
that you had all that courage to do that,
even though he didn't respond in a healthy way.
I was mad at myself,
one, because I waited for so long
and two, because I was so fearful.
And one of the reasons I did reach out to him
was my support system, my closest friends at the time,
it's the one who had a stroke and his wife,
but he was like, if you don't let him know,
you never know what you're missing out on.
And that's kind of some of the teaching,
some of the feedback I've gotten from people,
not just them, these are my best friends, I love them.
They were just trying to look out for me,
but what I heard is sometimes you have to initiate,
sometimes you have to reach out
because of the culture that we're in.
We're not in the guy pursues girl
and wears her down age anymore.
Yes.
You have like maybe nudge, you know, or whatever.
And so I was like, dang, like I finally did it,
two months of being so scared, did it,
and then this is how he reacted.
And so, no, I was completely mad at myself.
I was like, and that's not the first time
this has happened to.
Yeah, I think that's why it's coming back up tonight.
You didn't do anything wrong,
but forgiving yourself in the sense of like
not being mad at yourself, but being proud of yourself.
Even though it took you a few months,
you still did it.
And a lot of people wouldn't, you know?
And I almost forgot this afternoon,
I started this session with celebrating your wins
and talking to everyone a little bit about
the importance of like, just taking some time,
like how many of you have actually paused at some point,
if you just started the hard work,
go ahead and do this, you know, this week,
but how many of you have actually like
applauded yourself for the work that you're doing?
Not being proud in an unhealthy way,
but just really like being proud of yourself.
Like you're investing in your heart healing
in this journey that's changing your life.
And there's some people that will never do this,
that will never invest in themselves in this way.
And yet we tend to partner with what isn't happening
in our minds and our thoughts,
and we don't celebrate our wins.
Like, you know, so I wanna encourage you all this week
to like, look in the mirror at yourself
and like, literally tell yourself, I am proud of you.
I'm proud of you for, you know, pushing forward
and, you know, allowing God to heal,
like whatever you need to say to yourself,
and Helen, this might be a big thing for you.
Like Helen, just like looking at yourself,
Helen, I'm so proud of you for calling that guy
and putting yourself out there.
I forgive you for being mad at yourself.
Like literally talking to your own self,
but like that you're forgiving yourself
for being mad at yourself,
because that's like, that's actually tying you
to that situation still.
I still struggle too with,
you mentioned the dangling the care thing,
or maybe, I can't remember.
But I've, it's something through the hard work
it's being like dealt with,
but I've struggled with like, God, why do you,
why do you bring this situations to be
and it doesn't work out?
Like, you know, like I'm serving you.
I'm not like, this isn't going to a bar
and trying to hit on guys or trying to,
you know what I mean?
It's like serving God and like traveling
and being on this.
in all these ministries and it seems like it's going to work with somebody and it doesn't.
And I don't, I just don't understand. Wow.
Yeah. Well, here's the thing. This is going to be a shocker. I'm sure I'm teasing, but
not everybody that goes to church is healthy.
No. Yeah.
Not everybody. And I know it's kind of mind blowing a little bit. It is.
You would think that anybody that goes on a mission trip, like they're sacrificing time
and they're serving, they're, they gotta be healthy, right? Y'all let me just tell you a
story. You know, the, the girl's dad, my spiritual daughter's dad that I've told you all about
before cheated on me with multiple people, just lied, deceived left and right. You all
lived a total double life. And I'm not saying this to judge him, but y'all, he went to church
every week. He and I went on the same mission trip together and you all, he was so mean to
me on that mission trip. It was literally embarrassing. So tell me that there's not
unhealthy people that are going on these things, right? That's amazing that they're going and
they're serving. That's wonderful. But I think that's the tricky thing is that
unfortunately we believe that if someone is at church or on a mission trip or whatever, that
well, they just must be good. And that's not always the case. So I don't know anything about
this guy, but I can tell you that his reaction wasn't healthy. I mean, so when you, when you
brought up like, Hey, yeah, I just got your number from the group chat or you called me,
you know, when we were on the trip and I still had it, you know, like, what was his response?
How into that? He, he, he was just like, like, Oh, um, and I did look for you in Facebook as
well. So like he acknowledged, he kind of acknowledged that, Oh, right. There was the
group text with everybody's number. And then a few more texts him and there. And then I, I,
I stopped texting him cause I'm like, this, this isn't, this isn't, this is way beyond what I
ever thought. I didn't, even though he wasn't, he may not have been interested, which again,
I was like taken off guard by, he's not being interested. I didn't expect an unloving, um,
reaction like that. I, that completely off guard. Well, I think that is a case of God defended,
in my opinion, in this, in this community, we talk about that a lot, you know, that, you know,
when things like this happen, trusting that God is defending you and protecting you from someone
that's not healthy, even if you can't see it. Um, so just want to encourage you to celebrate
your wins, look at yourself, release yourself from, you know, being upset that, you know,
it took two months, you know what, in the future, it might not take you that long because God's
helping you overcome fears and all kinds of stuff. So go ahead and let that go, forgive yourself and
move on. Yeah. Thank you so much. I'm excited. And I'll see you in the other phases for sure.
I pop in there too. You'll see me. Do you do one-on-ones real quick question?
Um, sometimes I do right now I am coaching a bunch of coaches, so I'm not taking any one-on-ones at
this time, but we do, we did release a services page where there are other people that are doing
one-on-ones at this time. Gotcha. Yep. Thank you. Yeah. At some point in the future, I'll do them
again. Um, but great, great share. Awesome. Renee. Hi.
Hello. Sorry. I can never find my, um, you know, it's so funny. I was on earlier today and when
you, I couldn't join the, the, uh, rooms, but the question I was like, Oh, I don't,
I can't think of any promises. So when I entered this evening, I was like, you all go ahead.
And Helen was in the, in with me as well. And then I thought of something, I guess I wasn't
thinking about it in the right context, but basically my father, um, was not married to
my mother. I grew up in New York and my father, he remarried and, um, had my step siblings here
in Florida. And, um, I would visit. So he's always in my life. I always knew who my brothers and
sisters were. Well, there was this instance where, when I went to college, um, I didn't
have a vehicle and I, it was like my second year. So I asked him if he would get me a car
and he was like, no. Well, my sister, who's like two years younger than me had had two vehicles.
One, she blew the engine, the other, whatever crashed or whatever the case may be.
But he said no to me about the car. So I'd stopped speaking to him. I had come down to Florida. I was
like, um, you know, I had been talking to him about it. He was hemming and hawing. And then he
just, when I got here.
Um, at the time I was in Baltimore and when I came down, he was like, no, I
can't do it, whatever.
And I was like, what do you mean?
You can't do it.
You know, my sister has had two cars and I have nothing and I'm in college and
she's still in high school.
What's, you know, what's going on here.
I need transportation.
So basically I left and, uh, I just stopped speaking to him and for about six
months and then like probably about the sixth month he sends, he's, he calls me
up and like, I'm going to send you a check for at least a down payment for a
vehicle.
Um, and then he sends me this check and it took a while for us to kind of start
talking again.
And I didn't initially, I was like, is this a broken promise?
But then I was like, it is because I mean, even though there was nothing
verbally said, how is it that my sister gets to get two cars and I get nothing?
And I told him, I said, I'm out of sight.
You don't see me.
So my siblings are getting the benefit, the financial benefit of you being there
and everything.
And I'm with a single mother who can't, she can't provide those things to me.
So, um, yeah.
And I was like, oh, we were, we, uh, a group agreed.
I needed to unpack that some more because, because I hadn't really thought about it.
I knew we kinda, you know, we, we got past it, but I won't forget it.
It's kind of one.
Let let's look at this a little bit more.
I think the broken promise isn't just about the car.
I think it's about, he didn't marry your mom and he's down with them taking care of
them.
You just said it really very clearly.
You said out of sight, I was out of sight.
You don't see me.
You don't kind of, they basically kind of, I'm going to riff off of that.
You don't see my needs.
I'm here.
They're there, you know?
Um, and so that got me to thinking about, okay, wait out of sight, you don't see me.
Well, you said right at the beginning, my father wasn't married to my mother.
And so, I mean, how did that feel for you as a kid, knowing that your dad didn't stay
with you?
Um, no, no, because he was around when I was young, young, he was around, uh, cause he
didn't get married until maybe I was five or six.
So he was, he was always around.
So I, cause he wasn't always just in Florida and I knew his family.
So I was always around his family up north.
So it wasn't, even though they weren't together, I don't think in my mind, I knew
they weren't together til I was a little older because he was always around.
Essentially, let me just say this.
My sister is like two years younger than me.
At that point, he was still with my mother.
So I know there was something crazy going on there, but I try not to think on those
things because, you know, I'm like, not my issue.
But I mean, maybe there is something there.
I hadn't really thought about it.
Well, okay.
So my next question is this, and maybe you didn't, but did you ever see your mom sad
or crying or upset because of anything going on with her and your dad?
Yes.
So here's the thing.
I think it would be good for you to look at this and I hear what you're saying.
You know, it wasn't your situation, but it is your situation because you were the
kid that was caught in the middle of it.
And while you can't control, you can't change that past, but you processing it
and actually really asking God to help you remember, how did I feel as a kid?
Not to get stuck in sadness, but you all, we need to know what we felt and what we
thought because how can we process something and heal from it if we don't even know what
it was?
Right.
And, and I think while, yes, it was about the car, I think God brought the car situation
up so that it would lead to me asking you these other questions because the car is a
symbol of other things underlying.
Cause what you said, you kept saying you got her two cars and I, I don't have anything.
And so right there, I'm, I, my first thought was starting to like, okay, what's going on
with the dynamics there?
Is there more attention?
And then I looked back at my notes and you, and when I wrote down that, when you said
my father wasn't married to my mother, and then you said that, okay, the other siblings
don't live there, you know, so you start to piece some things together and that's what
led me to ask you those questions.
Yeah.
I never just delved into that, their relationship.
Cause I felt like it wasn't, I hate to say none of my business, but.
And I guess whatever transpired between them, I just see it as that's between you all that
has no bearing on the relationship that I want to have with my father.
Yeah.
And it doesn't have to change the way you have a relationship with your dad.
But I do think looking at how you felt as a kid, not having your mom and dad in a home
together and married.
I mean, you basically kind of alluded to, okay, your sister's, you know, is two.
So you kind of knew something was going on.
I mean, that's a tough thing for a kid.
I'll give you an example.
My spiritual daughters, after I broke off things with their dad and was in my healing
process, we, she became 18 at that time.
And so she's growing up, you know, there's things that she's asking me and I, we would
talk about things that we had never talked about before, not in great depth, because,
you know, I don't think you got to share everything with everybody, even, even the kids.
But one of the things she said to me is we were at this restaurant the one night, all
of us together.
And she saw a text pop up on her dad's phone from another woman.
And she carried so much guilt for that.
Because we were all there together.
But yeah, he's getting text messages from another woman.
She saw, you know, text messages show you a little bit of what they're saying, right?
So she saw what it said.
And she was old enough at the time to know what the text meant that she saw.
And so there's a lot of things that kids see, and it does impact them and they carry the
weight of that, whether they know it or not at that moment.
So just given that to you for food for thought, again, it doesn't have to change your relationship
with your dad or, you know, mom or anybody, but I think for you to continue to be set
free so that you can move forward, and really be like not carrying those kinds of things
into relationships with other people, it'll be really, really good for you to take some
time with this.
Fair enough.
Okay.
All right.
And if you come to the group, if you start praying about it, and the Lord starts showing
you things, feel free to post in the group and we can help you process that more.
Okay.
Thank you.
Thank you for sharing.
Brandy, go ahead.
Hello.
Can you see me?
Hear me?
Hi.
I was having some mic difficulties, so I didn't get to do the breakout group.
But right as I was trying to sort that out, I had asked, you know, God, the question you
mentioned.
And the first thought was, well, your dad, because he lived on the opposite side of the
nation while I was a child.
And so I thought it was that.
But then I said, No, God, I don't want to, because you said, Hey, wait, really ask God.
So I went back again.
And God shared, it was actually my mom, because growing up, my mom really struggles with alcoholism.
And she would make promises that she's going to be clean and sober, she's gonna, you know,
do all the things that parents ideally would do.
And then she took until I was well into my adult life to like, achieve sobriety, which
is great.
And we have a great relationship, or we're working on it now.
But there was a lot of broken promises in my childhood around my mom.
And you know, that resulted in like, me and my sisters went to foster care and all that
stuff for a little bit, too.
But I think like, that's a relief to just know, like, that's the root or the beginning
of where I found this.
And I did a forgiveness sheet for my dad already.
But I realized from today, just kind of talking through this, that I need to do one for my
mom and maybe pray over that a little bit.
Yeah, totally.
And you know what, you're the first person to bring this kind of promise up, you know,
with a parent that struggles or has struggled, excuse me, with addiction, and then promising
to get clean and then, you know, not.
And so I'm really thankful that you shared that, because it brings a whole nother layer
to this conversation tonight, you know.
Even I think of mental health issues that people are, you know, a lot more it's diagnosed
today, but, you know, some people that would not get themselves the help that they needed,
and it was impacting their kids and their families.
And so yeah, definitely encourage you to do the forgiveness prayer sheet for that stuff
with your mom.
And then I also just like, I'm curious, I feel like to ask you a question.
So when that was all happening, and you said there was you and your sister, are you the
older sister?
I'm the middle.
So I have an older and younger sister.
Okay.
And so when mom was...
um when mom was maybe not doing well who was taking care of who um well my older sister
has kind of been like i've worked really hard in my adult life not to treat her like a
mini mom you know a lot of times all the siblings kind of get that role um so i've been very
conscious of that in adulthood and trying to have better boundaries with that but it was probably
my older sister in a lot of ways or just me a lot of times just sorting it out on my own
okay because that's what that specifically came up in my spirit too is something you might want to
look into um so i don't know if i specifically had the impression that you helped take care of
some things and so i don't know if there's something where you kind of the connection
that's happening in my spirit as i'm talking to you is like um maybe a broken promise could also
be ladies when there's something that we really wanted to go do but we couldn't because we had
to take care of responsibilities at home that our parents weren't taking care of and so while that's
not a broken promise per se but if that's something we really wanted or i mean it could
have even been something that we were involved in at school but then we couldn't show up for that
you know and so technically when we if we gave our word to something but then couldn't show up
to it because of something our parents did we're breaking a promise and we're breaking our word but
it's actually because of someone else do y'all see how this works um but that can wear away at us as
as children and teenagers when because we you know we are the ones that have to basically pay for that
essentially or feel embarrassment or whatever the case may be and so i don't know if that
happened for you but that definitely um yeah okay yeah it actually came up quite a bit not getting
to do activities i would sign up for specifically and um wanting certain things like i really wanted
braces as a kid and then like my mom was never able to really take me yeah um so just these
moments where you know the things that were tied to the promise weren't fulfilled or i had to go
like clean it up myself it was like oh well i couldn't make it something came up because you
know it's rather embarrassing for a young person to say well my mom wasn't feeling well so yeah
well yeah and a lot of times with uh i had uh just so you know so my dad was an addict and so i have
a lot of understanding of things you're sharing uh you know we often don't want anybody to know
you know it's such an embarrassment that we go through as children on a lot of levels at least
for me not that that's how you felt but for me i didn't want anyone to know what was going on in
our house um and so there were things you know that i had to process in regards to like what
you're saying like even things that we needed health-wise like you know thankfully my my dad's
parents like pitched in and took us to the dentist the i really believe to this day the reason that
we have that i have even helped somewhat healthy teeth is because my grandparents took us to the
dentist and they paid for all that you know but um i want to encourage you to really uh lean into
this area where even these activities or things that you actually needed wanted them but you
needed them like i'm sure you were okay but some kids really need braces so i don't know what your
teeth were like when you were younger um but the reason i think this is so important is because
you just said something really really important for your own life here you said if you know i
basically had to go clean it up myself and so i wonder do you struggle with thoughts like
i have to do this myself if it's going to get taken care of like today in your life
yeah i mean since you know finding a great relationship with god like i've really surrendered
quite a bit of that but i still have to be mindful of it so i know there's still some growth to be
done but definitely up until like you know finding god at the level i have um it's been
interesting but yeah i would say most of my life yeah yeah so the wanting braces and not getting
them and things like that just make sure you're praying and forgiving your mom uh and maybe even
your dad for that too um because they both could have helped you with that um because that can
impact your view of god today as well okay yeah so ladies do you see how there's so many layers to
stuff
There's so many layers that we just need to unpack. And this is why heart work is so important.
Okay. So my next lovely lady, please tell me how to say your first name. Cause I don't want to mess
it up. Sure. It's like, okay. Yes. I think you read my mail though. I was not going to talk about
uh, my mom. Um, but yeah, my mom's been like, she's, my parents got divorced when I was 14.
Um, but my mom at that point was suicidal and I kind of, um, intervened.
So we wouldn't be taken like to foster care or something. Cause that was like the first thing
that popped in my mind. Um, because it was, she had like several attempts and, um,
and then she would like snap out of it. Right. Um, but yeah, many times she was out of it
completely. And, um, and I had to, I was the oldest, so I had to take care of my siblings
who were younger. Um, and yeah, I think a lot of things that I had to, um, I had to drop off.
Um, later when I was 26 is kind of already older, but I, um, dropped ministry school because I
moved out of state and, um, she, every time I would call her, she would tell me that she wanted
to, um, that she wanted to commit suicide. So, um, I think I even heard this message by a chaplain
that said that sometimes people that wanted to commit suicide would tell their family members
and they didn't believe them. So, um, I think that was, and I just ran out of money and felt like,
like I had to come back, um, to Texas, but that was, I think I, I felt a big resentment for a
while for having to come back. Yeah. I can imagine. I'm so sorry that you went through all that,
um, having to intervene for your parent that is talking about suicide and that's a big burden
to carry. And I'm confident that that was breaking God's heart for you too, you know?
And so as you're continuing through this journey, even though you've, you know,
processed some forgiveness before, I just want to encourage you to go ahead and be open to,
I was telling the ladies today in the afternoon session, just reminding them of the word that I,
that God gave me for our prophetic ministry night at the end of June. And it was that he was going
to remove, and this, this word was over our whole community for the month of July, basically the next
month from the night it was released and in the days to come for sure, but that God was going to
remove band-aids. And in that process, he was going to lovingly come in and go deep into the
inner, like inner areas and start stitching up things. And so I want you all to understand that
that is God's heart. Like he's wanting to come into the places that, you know, we did our best
in the past to kind of bandage things up and keep moving, but that bandage isn't serving us well,
because that wound is still unhealed under there. And so he's removing the bandage because
he wants to come in and actually do the repair work that will enable us to heal
supernaturally from the inside out. And so, you know, just continuing to process forgiveness
through the forgiveness prayer sheets towards your mom, and maybe even, you know, I'm not sure if you
ever felt this way, but a lot of times when, when older children have to take care of younger
children, they resent the younger kids. And so if there's any kind of resentment or unforgiveness
for having to take care of the younger siblings, you may want to process that out as well.
And then the last thing I wanted to say to you is that I 100% believe that God can
redeem and restore the time that was lost for you in all of that. So the having to leave ministry
school, putting your life on hold to any degree, and really allowing God to come in and bring life
and bring truth and that he can come in. And it's not like we will forget that it happened to us,
but we will be in a place where the pain, it just will feel like it never happened.
Does that make sense? Like we'll know that it happened. We won't forget that stuff, but the
pain, the sting of death, you know, that comes from these situations will continue to be removed.
and taken out. Um, and so we're going to be praying for you. Um,
you know, I'm just curious, um, do you have daughters? Do you have children?
Children? Okay. Okay. All right. Well,
go ahead and start praying now that that would not fall follow through to
generations. You know, you don't have to be afraid of it,
but just be aware of it. Uh,
and the reason I say that is my grandfather on my mom's side actually did
commit suicide.
And so when I became a believer and started learning some of the dynamics of
generational curses, there's also generational blessings.
And so you can pray, you know,
for God to protect you and any children or grant, you know, anything,
anybody that would be connected to you in any way,
even if you don't want to have kids, I don't know what your desire is there,
but that just the blessings would follow you all the days of your life.
I have a uterine fibroids and I just had a, a UFE.
So I'm going to go back to the doctor and see how I'm doing.
Okay. Well, and that's okay.
I think the key is just the blessings are going to surround you and can also
surround your children, but you want to partner with that.
You want to start praying into that and partnering with that. Um, because,
you know, suicide is also like all the thoughts that people have like that.
Those are spirits. Those are spirits that are,
um, tormenting people. Um, and it is mental health. You know,
I know there's a tricky line there, but I just,
it is stuff that the enemy's doing to assault, but.
She still has her moments that she does, um, say things and,
you know, they don't make any sense. And, um,
you know, she will not, she doesn't want to get treatment.
Yeah, that's okay. I know that's, I mean, it's not okay. Ultimately,
of course we would believe for healing and you know what, Hey,
let's just start praying for her now. What is your mom's name?
Uh, Maria Magdalena Jimenez.
Okay. So tonight before we log out, we're going to pray for Maria.
I'm not,
I'm probably not going to say her whole name cause I might mess it up,
but God knows who she is. We're going to pray. I believe that, you know,
God can meet people anywhere.
He can meet them in the depths of their situation and change that around.
Um, let me give the activation and then, um,
just in case if anybody needs to jump off and then Kim, I will let you share,
but I won't be able to take anyone else after Kim tonight. Okay.
So the activations for this week, ladies is called.
Never will I ever you're never will I ever list.
So you're going to work on making a list. Okay.
And I'm going to explain to you what I mean by never will I ever,
never will I ever date blank, fill in the blank.
Why won't you date them? Okay.
So I'm going to give you some more information and examples. No, this,
these are often trauma informed statements and vows that we've made internally
that you're going to need to come out of alignment with in order to continue to
heal and step into everything that God has for you.
These can also come from our preferences or unhealthy heart postures.
These are not typically God non-negotiables. Okay.
We do encourage you to have God non-negotiables. So like, for example,
that someone would love Jesus live for him fully,
not just with words,
but in their actions that they would walk in all the fruits of the spirit.
I hope that is one of your God non-negotiables. Okay. Um,
Oh, sorry. I was just seeing something in the chat there. Um,
and so here are some examples that we have heard and there's so many more,
but these are just a few to kind of get you thinking never will I ever date a
man who's been divorced.
Never will I ever date a man who has kids.
Never will I ever date a man who doesn't have a lot of money.
Never will I ever date someone I'm not sexually attracted to.
Never will I ever, um, date a pastor or someone that's in ministry.
Never will I ever date someone that's been in the military or a police officer.
Maybe it's this never will I ever date a man named John or Mark or whatever
their name might be because somebody that you dated or married had that name
and they hurt you. We don't, what if,
what if God sends your spirit to someone who's not sexually attracted to you?
We don't. What if,
what if God sends your spirit mate and their name is John or Mark,
right? All right. I used to have something like that.
My oldest brother, who was my main offender,
he was one of the biggest perpetrators in the sexual abuse. His name is Brian.
Y'all better believe I had that conversation with the Lord when he sent me,
Brian, my now husband, like, Lord,
couldn't.
You have sent me some, like him with a different name.
Like, how am I going to handle this?
You know, I had to surrender that pen because Brian's amazing.
My husband, Brian, and you know what?
God used him to redeem that name for me.
So just want to put that out there.
God can redeem a name.
All right.
So I want to give you an example also about, uh, maybe yours is never, well, I
did, uh, someone that is of a certain age.
Okay.
And we're not going to get into dating coaching around age stuff tonight.
You guys will learn a lot more about that.
What our recommendations are, um, when you get into phase two and
beyond, uh, that love story accelerator.
But I want to give you an example.
This woman, um, she was married before and her ex was 14 years older than her.
So when they went through the pain of what they went through, she decided
she was never going to marry someone that was her senior anymore.
That was that, you know, much older than her.
Well, all these years later, she's gone through heartwork and all this
stuff and, and she's in community.
She has some good friends and her good friends are trying to hook her
up with, like, to connect with this guy.
And she had kind of met him at some of the church things and things that they
were going to this group of friends.
And she said, he did seem nice, but she said, I remember thinking he's too old for me.
He thought she was nice too.
And she was pretty and all this stuff.
But guess what he was saying?
She's too young for me.
Well, you all, after about a year, they were around each other a lot,
really enjoyed each other's company.
They weren't just hanging out solo, but just, they were in these group environments.
Uh, then they went to this dance and they started realizing that I think
I like being around this person.
And so guess what they both had to surrender and, and move off of
their never will I ever list the age stuff and you all they're married.
Now they just got married in March and God is blessing their
relationship in their life.
I'm not saying to you that God's going to ask you to marry someone.
That's a lot older than you are a lot younger than you.
But what I am saying is that God wants us to be open.
Okay.
Are we willing to be open to who he sends us?
No, actually we have a lot of women that try to date men way younger than them.
And so we don't actually encourage that.
But y'all, there are going to be some people that, that you're, you're going
to be the one that's not the standard.
Does that make sense?
God might lead you to someone because that's what you
need for different reasons.
All right.
So I want you to write your list.
Now, let me say this.
You do not have to write on this list.
Never will I date someone that's abusive?
We don't want you to date someone that's abusive.
So yeah, hopefully that is within you somewhere, but that's not what
we're looking for on this list.
You don't have to say never will I ever date someone that's an, a current addict.
Now, if yours is never will I ever date an addict like anyone that's ever been an
addict, maybe that's something you need to work through, right?
Okay.
All right.
So create your list, put them in the group for us, and then you all will be surprised.
You might get some heart healing out of just this list alone.
If you're willing to put that in there for us and we'll give
you some feedback on that.
All right.
So if you need to hop off, I understand, but I'm going to go ahead and let Kim
share, and then after I give some feedback to her, I'll pray us out for the night.
I actually just raised my hand because Jessica Quinn wanted to say something
and she didn't know how to raise her hand.
So that's for Jessica.
All right.
Jessica Quinn.
Look at your sisters looking out for you.
I love it.
Jessica, go ahead.
Do you know how to unmute yourself?
Okay.
Sorry.
It's all right.
Okay.
Let me, let me not check savvy.
It's all right.
Just so y'all know.
So if you hover over the bottom of your screen on your phone or your laptop,
there, it shows up a couple of different ways.
For me, the raise hand is right there because I've used it before, but you
might see a button that says reactions or more, and when you click on
more, it might be there for you.
It's totally fine that you didn't know how to do it.
If y'all ever do struggle with that, I do try to watch the chat as much as
I can when I'm coaching, but just let me know, but I would love
to hear what you have to say.
Literally.
I looked and I can, I can see every other emoji, but a raised hand.
So I don't know what the problem is, but thank you, Kim.
I so super appreciate it.
Can I tell you real quick before I had this problem for two weeks and that
y'all probably got sick of me because I couldn't figure out, I.
figured out if I do this on my screen it starts figuring it out and then it holds my hand up for
me. That's the only way I can do it. Oh my gosh. Okay there you go. Awesome. That's awesome.
Can you hear me? Yes. Okay so I wasn't going to share this my first time but
I thought it was interesting that not one person shared about a spouse and kind of the most
important promise that those of us who have been married have received and most important and
damaging one when it's broken for various things but for me it was the promise to be faithful and
the promise you know better for worse all of that and my situation was that I
was married for a very long time. Married in 1996. 12 years ago my husband left almost exactly to
the day and I just believed that God would restore and walked through that and I clearly there were
we both you know did things wrong and all that and I believed for a really long time
so we didn't actually get divorced until about two and a half years ago although you know that
was just a long process for me and I'd been on my own for or with my three kids for a long time
but what I realized after the breakouts when we were back in here just in what I've done a lot
of healing I still kind of grieve the you know the kind of perfect family idea that I had you
know with my kids and just all the things that we kind of lost there and that really honestly
more than anything what my kids lost because they were 9 11 and 13 when he left and the hardest
thing is to watch your kids you know not have that so anyway that was really hard but what I
realized once we were all talking in the way that that it still affects me today and I realized just
in the going towards the future is the fear of that happening again right just trusting
because you do trust that you're going to go into a marriage and you're going to make those promises
but when you've walked through it and when you've really done everything you could
and you were still powerless because it's somebody else's decision that's that's a hard thing so I've
not gone to that point of I've done very little dating and not long enough to get to that point
but like imagining getting to that point of like okay I'm gonna have to make this decision to to
trust so I want you to get there before you meet the person honestly because and some of that will
happen as you're in relationship hurt in relationship healed in relationship it's very
real and you know I think one of the biggest things too here is I just was reading something
the other day that most women even after they get married internally want their husbands to
tell them again how much they're you know so glad to be with them basically that recommitment
that they're not going to leave and I was telling Brian uh yeah like yeah this is true especially
because my dad left you know my dad left my um ex-husband you know while he uh like came home
most of the time sometimes he didn't but like there was a lot of neglect so he emotionally
left the marriage and there was just all kinds of stuff and so um even though Brian is super safe
and I know I can trust him internally like one day I had a bad day and I then I started I felt
like found myself having fear that he didn't like me and he'd leave but that's not true it's just
like the enemy was trying to push on old wounds you see and so it's important to process like
you know forgiving him for leaving uh kind of similar to what I was talking to um
Teresa Thornton about actually about the offense for her kids I think that also applies here for
you um yeah you know really choosing to forgive him for leaving is a big part of it and it's
for you, but also forgiving him for the offense and the, the pain of what you watched your kids
go through. And even the, the pain of the idea of that, that perfect quote unquote, you know,
family and marriage and, and whatnot, um, and really releasing him from any chains and bonds
that you've put on him. Um, the other thing is also, uh, I'm just curious. Um, are there any,
I mean, you've done a lot of healing, you've done a lot of processing, you've had time,
but I'm just curious, are there any lies that you still battle regarding?
Like him leaving of not enough, you know, any of that kind of stuff that's still hanging out.
I don't think I am as far as him leaving. Um, there are, there are things that I battle now.
It's been so long, just as far as insecurities and things like that. Uh, they may have some
root in it. Um, and I've walked through really deep forgiveness where I actually am part of a
ministry that one of the biggest things we do is walk people through forgiveness. So I'm very
familiar. I do that regularly. Um, but I also know that there's still grief and things like that. And
I, I don't feel it on a regular basis, but yeah, when we're talking about it, that's like the thing
that comes up right in, in the memory. But, um, but what I have not done is walked into the new,
I don't know how I'll react in a new situation when I'm faced with that. And I can imagine it
is something that, um, would try to creep up. Oh, for sure. Yeah. It's probably going to try
to rear its head pretty early for you. So just be prepared. You don't have to be afraid of it,
but you just need to mentally process and heal enough. Um, so that you're ready to face it.
You might even want to start putting things up now, just writing it on like an index card or
a piece of paper and hanging it up where you're seeing it often, where it's just speaking the
truth to you about God's plans for you. And, you know, again, kind of what I was talking about
earlier, fear of that happening again. Well, if we have fear about something, well, then there's
more love of God that we can receive so that that would push that fear out because ultimately
if we're in God, then again, it kind of goes back to that being surrounded by his unfailing love.
Yeah. You know, um, hurt people, hurt people. Unfortunately, it sounds like he was in a place
where, um, he was hurting and was not capable of coming in and remaining in that relationship,
maybe even from his past. I don't know if his family stayed together or if they weren't,
but he might've been repeating some kind of cycle there. Um, I do want to kind of touch real quick
before we close tonight. You mentioned what you battle. Now you said more than other things is
insecurities. So can you tell us one, like, give us an example of an insecurity that, um,
might struggle with. Um, I've been dealing with a lot of insecurities regarding like my looks,
my weight, I I'm 50 years old, pretty much menopausal, all the things that we go through.
And, um, you know, when, when he left, I was real skinny and cute and, you know,
all these things. And so now I'm facing this with like feeling, um, yeah, just insecure about myself.
Hey, well, I am going to be praying and believing for God to really come in and just continue to
heal you in ways where you actually start to see the beauty in who you are, like inside and out,
including your body. Um, but also what can happen ladies is when we start to heal and have hope for
a relationship again, um, or even maybe for the first time for some of you, things are going to
come alive in you and you're going to want to, um, most likely this happened, doesn't happen
for everyone, but you're going to want to maybe start, you know, getting out there,
taking better care of yourself, you know, really allowing yourself to, um, you know,
go get a new shirt. Mom that takes care of three kids on her own probably didn't do that very often.
Right. And maybe, maybe you do like to shop, but some people when they're in that situation,
they put themselves last a lot. And so in this new season, I'm going to encourage you to really
invest in, actually, I'm giving you this assignment. I want you to pray about, uh,
going shopping and finding a new dress. I've been wearing dresses lately. I changed into jammy
clothes, but I do have to dress up for work. So this is like a date dress. Yeah. Okay. Not a word.
dress, a date dress, you're not going to wear right now because
you're in a heartwork. But when you get into the next season,
and the next phase, I want you to already like start preparing
to, you know, maybe you can wear that out when you go out with
some girlfriends, but just really getting back into the
groove of like, you know, I got mojo, I can do this, you know,
because guess what your spirit mate is going to see you and
they're going to know they found a good thing, Jessica.
Okay, thank you. You're welcome. That's Proverbs 1822, by the
way. Okay, our men's group, that's what we have them
standing on, ladies. All right. Your spirit mate, when they find
you that they will know they found a good thing. I'm going to
pray for us and close this out. Father, thank you so much for
everything tonight. God, thanks for man just being a good dad.
Thanks for reminding us of who you are. Help us to come out of
alignment with any lies and thoughts that we have that don't
look like or sound like you God where the enemies come in and
he's tried to kill steal and destroy and he's tried to lie to
us and convince us that you're a trickster that you're bad that
you withhold things from us that you're going to pull rugs out
from under us God that you won't come through for us or whatever
the scenarios are God we thank you for renewing us in our minds
that you again Lord just that you would wash over us tonight
even while we're sleeping that you would give us sailor rest
that we would wake up refreshed for the day tomorrow. God, we
thank you for, again, bringing things out of darkness into the
light so that we can be healed and restored and made new. God,
I thank you for
Zio's mom, Maria, we thank you God. You see all the situations
that have been going on for years regarding our mental
health and the struggle that she's had with depression and
suicide. And so many other things that are kind of going on
there, Lord, we just ask you to meet her right where she's at
and deliver her God that you would set her free from any kind
of spirits of suicide, death, depression, God, and we just
declare and bind those and break those in Jesus name and declare
and loose a spirit of healing a spirit of peace, a spirit of us
love and of a sound mind that that would come into Maria, God,
we thank you that you would meet her and reveal yourself to her
through your loving kindnesses that you would lead her to you,
Jesus, and that Jesus, you would then lead her to the Father. And
so we thank you, Holy Spirit, that you're working in our life,
and that you're working in this family. And we thank you, God,
for turnaround spirits, just like, you know, you came in that
Paul of Damascus, and he was someone who used to persecute
the church, and then he encountered him. And then you
literally, like, literally, he was transformed. God, we believe
that not only for our own lives, but for Maria, God, do what you
do best. We thank you for deliverance and healing and
resurrection power being manifest in this, this amazing
woman that you created in your image, God, so we ask you to
help her to even call out to you, and that she would come to
know you Jesus as her Lord and Savior, if she doesn't already
know you in that way. And we just thank you for all the work
that you're doing in all of our lives. God, do it again, do it
again, just all the things that you do so well, just do it
again. In Jesus name. Amen. God is good. Yes, it's good. Keep
clinging to that. Okay. I'll see you on the groups. And no, you
can post anything in there. We're going to see on the
groups. We'll answer you as quick as we can. And we're
praying for you and love you all very much. Have a good night,
everyone. Good night, y'all.