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Okay, welcome welcome to men's heart check in.

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This is July.

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The seven. Yes, the seven.

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And we're checking in with each other on Monday night so welcome everyone to the cooking class. I will not be giving any instructions on cooking.

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And, but if you have any tips, we'd love to have them shared with us here, and with anybody else that would like to take them down but good to see you guys we have Joel on here.

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James.

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This is quite new, David Kim, are you actually, this is actually your first time or now.

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First time, first time. I will you're, you're up, you get to introduce yourself and just tell two seconds, a little bit about yourself and where you're from what you do.

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Okay, yeah.

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David Kim.

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It's very common name out here in SoCal. It's the center of the Korean American universe down here.

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So I'm out I'm out in Orange County, and 47.

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And I, I, I met Jackie and David to a friend of mine who referred me to them.

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And then I randomly divine divine appointment, and ran into them at reading in this in the same restaurant but I, oh, oh, oh hi.

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It's strange we were literally just walking by and he was just like talking to somebody about us I think there was.

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And he's like, speak of which they're standing right in front of this restaurant right yeah yeah I was about to send a Facebook message I'm looking at my phone I'm looking up at the window and looking at my phone like I don't like.

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What are they doing here this is not Texas.

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And then I opened the door because they walked into the same restaurant that I was and I was like, Oh, hi.

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And I was like, Oh, nice to meet you.

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So that was the first time you have was first time in person basically right. Pretty much, and then, and then, and then Jackie's like, I'm like, yeah, I'm sending this message I was like, Oh yeah, I know your face got shoved in your face that's why I messaged you today I was

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like, Oh, here we are.

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What brings you, what brings you, what do you do David.

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So I, I've been in intellectual property. I'm a patent agent is kind of like being a patent attorney but I don't sue anybody.

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But I help people, you know, get patents, so it's kind of like a real estate agent you know they can help you with getting a house but you know you want to see your neighbor you should call a lawyer.

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So, roughly speaking, I do that, I mean to some entrepreneurship so I've been doing.

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Yeah, did that for about 20 years.

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Awesome.

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What are you looking forward to last year single.

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Well because I'm looking forward to my last year single.

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Ah, hey, good answer. Yeah, yeah yeah well clearly when I read it to you guys it was very obvious I was like, Okay, there are divine forces that are conspiring for me not to be single anymore.

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So inspiring yeah yeah yeah so it was a divine conspiracy.

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I said okay I can go along with this.

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I'm Joel.

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This isn't your first time isn't.

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No I've been on a few times. That's right. I just don't recognize the background that's all.

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backgrounds I'm like oh that's the background.

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Um, that's cool. Good. Well welcome welcome.

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I'm just want to get into whatever you want to get into tonight.

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I do want to talk a little bit about, um, kind of what I feel like the Lord is doing in the season.

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And kind of invite you all into it because I really feel like God's doing some long game strategy with his sons and daughters right now.

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Not the least of which is doing what we're.

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doing a six month reset challenge. We've been promoting that check is going to be a coach on that. You can get information on that you can join that if you want to.

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But prior to that it was just, you know, very prophetic in our hearts that you know we were really saying no we were supposed to be in California for a whole month of June and we came home early, because we just felt like God was inviting us to, for lack of a

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better word, a reset.

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And he's sort of pulling back in order to go forward.

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forward and really seeing this next season, three, six months,

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as an opportunity to really, truly press in strategically

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and literally become and step into something we've never,

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never been before, something that we've never seen

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personally in our lives.

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Go to a new level if you want to, Javier.

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Whatever success term you want it to be,

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but this is supernatural.

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This isn't anything like, hey, we're

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going to do a reset so that we can have a better

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business or whatever.

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But this is a total reset in our relationship with the Lord,

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our relationship with each other, our business,

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our life's purpose, all of that.

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And so kind of want to know what your guys' thoughts are

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regarding this, because we're in Texas here

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where those floods just happened.

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There's a lot of chaos and turmoil.

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There's a lot of things happening,

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depending on sort of like where you stand socially,

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economically, politically, all that kind of stuff.

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You can be like hurraying, or you could be like, oh, no.

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And so there's just a lot of things happening,

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and none of it's stable.

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That's the thing that's interesting about it.

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It's just like I think everybody's experiencing

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shifting and very little stability.

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And if you're internalizing it, you

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might be wondering, is there something wrong with me?

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Am I going to lose it?

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Are things in my life just getting worse just

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because of whatever reason, whatever you're

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trying to push it on, blame it on, anything like that?

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But truthfully, I think if you sort of like picked your head

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up a little bit, and you kind of looked around,

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and you were just like listening to some other people

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within your community and around you,

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and especially prophetic voices, and really

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trying to press and hearing the voice of God,

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this shifting and shaking is divine.

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Am I saying that floods killing dozens of children is divine?

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I'm not saying that.

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I'm saying this world is rocking and reeling,

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just like in scripture in Romans, where it says,

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the world literally is groaning and aching for the sons

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and daughters to reveal themselves.

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And we're nowhere near, guys.

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And this isn't a defeatist message,

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but we're nowhere near what God had intended for us

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to be as sons and daughters.

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And I don't mean that like in this community,

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or just like in your life, or my life, or just like, I mean,

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like overall.

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There's like a whole supernatural prophetic paradigm

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that is shifting.

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And we're preparing to shift with it.

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We're telling everybody that we know, hey,

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let's shift into this.

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Let's not see things as business as usual.

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Let's not just see things as like, oh, things are OK,

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or they're kind of bad right now, or rough right now,

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but they'll get better.

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And seeing it through the same lens as the way

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you've always seen it, now is an invitation right now

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in this season to shift into a next level.

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Matter of fact, we're going to a personal development.

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We're going to do the same thing that a lot of people

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are doing in this program.

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We sign up for stuff, and we go things, and we get coaching.

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We get inspiration.

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We get information.

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And we're going to go to a thing this weekend

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called Next Level.

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Michael Hyatt, I don't know.

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Some of you probably have heard about it.

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Maybe some of you have even gone to one of those.

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We're going to do a Next Level this weekend.

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Jackie and I need that for the purposes of shifting us.

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We're going to submit to a process.

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We're going to submit to a thing.

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We're familiar with it.

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We've probably heard a lot of the stuff

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that's going to be shared there.

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We probably even know some of the people that are there,

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which is fine.

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I'm not looking necessarily for new information.

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I'm not going to try to like, oh, let me learn something

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I don't know.

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What I'm trying to do is put myself and yield myself

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to a new experience.

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And I'm going to put myself and yield myself

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to a process, to an instrument that will bring about change,

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that will bring about whatever is in me.

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I have a friend of mine that told me, he says, yeah,

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you know, there's lots of times.

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And he's a successful dude.

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We hang out with a lot of successful people,

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a lot of kingdom people, a lot of spiritual people

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are like, prophetically inclined, they know what's up,

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that are in the business.

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And I'm like, yeah, I'm going to do that.

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they know what God's doing, they got the resources,

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I'm going to do that.

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they're making a difference in the world.

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And they're like, yeah, there are some things,

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several things, lots of times where you can,

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you yourself can do about 80% of it.

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Like you can bring yourself, white knuckle it,

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you can, you know, buckle down,

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you can, you know, seek to fix your life, change your life,

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get yourself educated, get yourself

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into relationship coaching.

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Like there's a lot of it,

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like you can do a lot of the work yourself, 80%,

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go online and, you know, watch a bunch of YouTube videos.

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But there's about 20% that you need that extra push.

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You need somebody else, you need somebody,

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you need a coach, you need a system,

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you need an experience, you need a from without.

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That's not inside of yourself,

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that's outside of yourself to help you shift

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into that next thing.

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And that's why that's obviously goes

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to the biblical precedent of, you know,

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we need each other, we do.

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We need each other, we need community,

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we need people who are going to like reach out

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and bring us up.

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We need people who are gonna edify us,

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we need people who are gonna call out, you know,

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the riches with inside of us

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that we may not even know that we're there.

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And so that's what this season about,

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we really feel strongly about it.

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And we're inviting everybody we know

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into basically this next half of this year,

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the rest of this year,

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to make a strong commitment to a reset.

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Sometimes maybe it's just for,

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maybe for some people, it's just one thing.

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Maybe it's not like a total life reset,

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maybe it's just one thing you've been struggling with,

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one thing you've been like kicking up

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against the ceiling against, you know,

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and you wanna break through that ceiling.

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You know, maybe it's relationships,

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maybe it's not the relationships,

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maybe it's the thing that's going

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to bring the relationship.

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Maybe it's physical, maybe it's financial,

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maybe it's, you know,

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maybe it's a spiritual gifting

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that you've been really wanting to step into,

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but you've just never, you know,

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cleared your schedule enough

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or taken the time to say,

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you know what, I'm doing a reset.

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I'm gonna like, like if you were married,

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I would also talk to you,

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I would talk to the married folks

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and I'd say, maybe it's time for you

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to have the marriage you've never had before.

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You know what I'm saying?

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But that kind of level of reset.

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So let me get some reaction to you guys.

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Who is feeling this?

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Who is already on this journey?

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Who is this being a confirmation for

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in terms of like where you're feeling,

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where you're going, what you're doing?

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Who wants to be like, yeah, you know,

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it's time to level up.

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It's time to like make a shift.

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It's time to, I mean, I know David

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is in the midst of like a little life shift right now.

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He's moving and he's switching careers,

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doing a lot of things.

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So he's moving around.

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So I mean, it's pretty obvious.

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I was gonna say, what part of this looks like Vegas?

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Yeah, I know.

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So like, so there's that, you know,

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that's pretty obvious.

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But I just kind of want to open this up to you guys

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and just let you react

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and just let you collect,

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maybe even like ask questions.

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You don't have to always have the answer, guys.

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Well, lots of times asking the questions

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that's going to like lead you into the knowledge

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and understanding that you need next.

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So it's an answer and a question for me, David.

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David here now in a lovely Davenport, Iowa

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with all this green stuff,

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just tearing down trees and shrubs.

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But so Holy Spirit told me to slow down recently in dating,

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like not stop all out,

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just kind of the person that I was pursuing

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that I was pursuing her with the wrong heart.

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And also things in our relationship

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were kind of escalating and not in a good way.

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But I guess it turned out for the better

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in the sense of a lot of immaturity on her end of things

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that she's not a bad person.

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She's just kind of probably not the best fit for me

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in the long run.

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But it's weird because I'm not even focused

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on getting into another relationship

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or chasing down someone else.

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I actually went out to two churches this weekend

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and it's like the first time

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that I can actually make a choice

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between the two different churches.

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Like, I like the.

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both and it was it was more of a I liked the transition between the churches like if you ever

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get silly and stupid over or childish over just like being focused on like a country drive that

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just lifts your spirits and fills you up and just gets you in tune for being in that

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so almost like tunnel vision about just oh really looking forward to the worship music at this

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church too uh so for you the reset is like cutting back simplifying like reducing like

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stepping back and seeing something that maybe wasn't there before

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yeah like stuff that used to be there and then I kind of lost focus on it

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um and like shifted in a way that I wasn't supposed to shift in the first place now I'm like

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shifting back to what matters and yeah I think a lot of the I think a lot of the reset

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ideology is not only stepping into something it's kind of like oh I've always wanted to do that

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it's also a little embracing a little something of like I'm not so sure like I'm not like I'm not

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super excited about like doing with less or doing with something that I'm not familiar with

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you know like retooling in the sense of like it's one thing to get excited about like a new thing

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that you want to like learn and do and whatever it's another thing to like accept sort of like

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the greater a greater calling a greater good and I don't mean like your life sucks like you're like

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oh like you're signing up for like hey my life's gonna suck from now on I'm not talking about that

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I'm just talking about being willing to do the hard thing the difficult thing in order to have

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the better version of you the better next level of you yeah it's it's definitely a

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a little terrifying because like just a month ago like I was ready to marry this gal within a year

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and now it's like but holy spirit's telling me to do this and I'm not sure why and as I started

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slowing things down she started getting more upset and immature and I was telling one of the

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other guys in the men's heartwork group privately about some things that started off as yellow flags

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and then all of a sudden hey these yellow flags are becoming red flags which I never thought

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I would ever ever acknowledge a red flag being an anxious attacher but it's I don't know it's

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it's not like I'm focused on that dilemma or problem like there's like a concern of like

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well am I ever I guess the question is like will I ever get married but it's not even it's not a

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worry it's more like uh trying to understand like the bigger picture of things I guess

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and at the same time it's it's also one of those things where well maybe I'm not meant to understand

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that right now and just focus on on what's in front of me and like you said uh just like

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focus on the simplification of things that there's well largely just uh

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things that I've not really dealt with like yeah there's things that are being uncovered in

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heartwork and I've done I've gone through it two times but it's still kind of still there uh like

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uh lusting over someone that's not my wife yet and uh not even actions but even just the

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the thoughts like how Christ talks about if if we think about someone

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uh in a lustful way even if it doesn't lead to an action it's still a sin

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and I think that kind of goes right back to what Holy Spirit was talking to me about about pursuing

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someone with the wrong heart but she has wrong heart it's a right from the get-go

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yeah good stuff thanks for sharing David um we were kind of familiar kind of with where you're at

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in your in your journey and um

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And I appreciate you sharing what you're sharing in terms of like dealing with some of the stuff that's in you.

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I'm going through the same thing right now.

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Got some stuff revealing for healing was coming up in my life and my heart and taking action to, you know, to, to deal with that.

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And, and to, you know, it's what's part of this part of this reset is, is, is this, like, I'm finished being the old me I'm finished being the old version of me.

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You know, I want to come into another level of, you know, who's who God says I am.

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And so I'm taking a lot of steps and doing that.

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Anybody else got some comments questions

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talking about doing a reset life reset.

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There's a thing that we're promoting and I'm not trying to like talk about that right now I'm just trying to really get into the heart of that but promoting with a friend of ours called six month life reset.

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So it's kind of like the idea the concept is taking not just like oh I'm gonna take a week to do a reset.

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We're taking a time taking a season taking taking where we're at prophetically in the timeline of God prophetic realities you know what God's doing and really listening to the heart of God and going.

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Is there a reset that I need to take anybody else.

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I'm feeling this message feeling this call feeling that feeling a tug.

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What's going on with you all.

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I kind of want to hear from everybody at least something.

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Yeah.

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Just just quickly.

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Yeah, it definitely whole all of it resonates with me I've been fasting a lot just really seeking the Lord going through the heart work almost done got about a few days left might start dating again like mid to late July, but just one thing.

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Well, two things I'm starting I think a new career in the fall, teaching instead of being a school bus driver, so that's just kind of a step of faith been feeling the Lord's tug on that for a while now.

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I signed up for the class on prophecy, and I've done this before. It's been maybe like six years when I first got kind of introduced to it and walking in the prophetic but I'm actually in a way looking forward to taking this class I think we're starting it tomorrow and Tuesday evenings.

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Locally in Dallas, and it'll just be a good recap but also just learning a lot of wisdom behind the prophetic process because people can get really misled.

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For a lot of different reasons like their own flesh and when I say misled I'm talking about myself to like I've, I've been maturing in this process but definitely.

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I'm looking forward to the next few years to grow in that more like that gifting, like in learning how to receiving prophetic words but also testing everything, but also, I guess allow people to test what I'm saying.

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I don't really hear a lot of.

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There's only like one guy, I think within the last two years that told me hey bro that's that's not in line.

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And my heart kind of broke because I'm like, Oh, well I was off but

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I guess I just.

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Yeah, that's how I learned.

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Now that's good.

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So you're leveling up and like a spiritual gifting that you're going to.

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And that's awesome.

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Thanks for sharing that.

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Who's next, who's that who else.

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I know Joe you had your way you didn't erase your hand but you're like, I needed.

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Um, yeah, it's resonated with me as well.

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I've been thinking a lot lately, we are just on vacation with my family that's probably what my background was changing for you.

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At that time, I'd been thinking a lot about

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just some priorities and things in my own goals.

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And there had been some, you know,

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certain financial role that I had set for myself years ago.

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And recently it got derailed with a lot of repairs

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I had to make on my own house.

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And as I had this time off on vacation with my family

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and just thinking and praying and whatnot,

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I really felt like it was time to sort of pursue that again

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and try to get back on track with that goal.

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And I don't know, I feel like there may be,

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you know, in my spirit, some correlation with that,

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like, you know, that I want to,

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or I'm supposed to sort of get near that goal

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and meet that goal before I meet my wife.

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I'm not sure exactly about that, but anyway,

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that had been going on through my mind during vacation.

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And then when, afterwards, when Jackie started talking

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about the reset, that really resonated with me

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and sort of made me feel like that was something

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God was speaking to me as well.

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Good, good.

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So financial,

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reaching back into some financial stuff

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that you're like, okay, it's time.

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You know, a lot of this, in a lot of this kind of like,

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like in response to like that very phrase,

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you know, you journey in your life for a while

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and you're just trying to make it through,

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you're doing your thing, whatever, life's normal, whatever.

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And then you come to this moment where you're like,

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you know, I really ought to change that,

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or that really needs to shift,

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or that, you know, that part of me needs to die or whatever.

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And you're like, but you never really come to that moment

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where you say, it's time.

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Like, it's really time to like, let go of that,

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you know, do something different,

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move to a different city, you know,

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do a shift in your career, you know.

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I guess that's what I'm talking about.

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Like, that's the kind of the moment

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I feel like a lot of people are coming to

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is just like, it's time to make a shift,

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it's time to make a change, it's time to do this.

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So just kind of wondering who else is resonating with this.

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So Joel's talking about finances,

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Joshua's talking about spiritual giftings,

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David's talking about stuff in his personal life,

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cutting it back, reducing,

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he's even in the process of moving physically,

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a new career, all that kind of stuff.

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David, can you get your hand raised?

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Go ahead, brother.

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Yeah, when I ran into you guys in Orange County,

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I was like, oh, it's my time, it's reset time.

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Yeah, about time.

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Oh, okay, funny meeting you guys here.

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Okay, this seems to become a pattern.

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So it looks like something's gonna happen in my life.

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So I confirm that.

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Confirm that, yeah, that's good.

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Who else?

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Can you guys hear me?

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Yeah.

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Okay, I'm driving and my video's not playing.

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I'm driving and my video's not working, I guess,

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but I'm driving and I got a paddleboard

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hanging out the back of my vehicle,

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so it's a little windy, but if you can hear me, okay?

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Yeah.

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Yeah, I mean, I guess I'm in a reset.

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I mean, just going through what I went through last year

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and continue to walk through.

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It's kind of, yeah, yeah, I'm in a reset right now.

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And it's interesting you guys are talking

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about the six month thing or whatever,

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but I mean, I'd like to learn more about

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what that program is that you're talking,

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or when does it start?

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Well, it started today, but I mean, it's-

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Can you hear me?

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I can hear you.

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It started today, but again,

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it's something that can be progressive.

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It's gonna be progressive, you know?

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But yeah, I can share that with you.

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I can share a link with you or whatever.

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Okay, yeah, yeah, it's, I don't know.

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Yeah, I know, Jesse, I mean, you reached out to me in email.

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I shared my email, I think last week or the week before.

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You guys, if you wanna reach out to me in email,

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that's fine.

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It's fine if you don't wanna do that too,

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but I'm just, Jesse had reached out to me several times

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and kind of just gave me an update on his situation.

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And so yeah, it's definitely an opportunity for a shift.

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after reset a change, like a challenge, if you will, like a,

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like a challenge you to like, think of what it would, what

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would your life be like? What would impact what you have? If

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you were the person you've always wanted to be? Is that

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kind of like, these are like big, you know, questions, and

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they don't have to be so like,

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big and fearful sounding, they can be

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big and inviting, challenging, you know, that way. Yeah. And

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and with with a little dose of like, hey, this is actually

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possible, instead of just like, you know, trying to like, oh,

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this is kind of a pipe dream. So that's kind of like, kind of

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like what this after? Who else has got questions, comments?

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resonating with this?

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Yeah, I think for me, it's like the past, you know, like,

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uh, 45. And when I was in my days, I cracked out an

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alcoholism, working in tech, and I lost my job. And it just kind

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of destroyed who I thought I was. And, you know, I went into

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the health and healing services, feel the right heal

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thyself. And it was like, a lot of my friends, you know, I was

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just working on talking and being around people again, after

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like, getting sober. And a lot of my friends are going to

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Google and Facebook and stuff after leaving Microsoft. And I

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had those opportunities. I just couldn't do it. Because of where

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I was, you know, emotionally, spiritually, like, I was pretty

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dead. So I guess, like, I don't know, man, I was like at church

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like a month ago. And this young dude is in front of me in his

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20s. And he stood up in church and like asked for prayer. I

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confirmed like 1000 people. And I could tell like, he's like,

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not a dude that just like, would want to be seen. But he

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was like, just like, hurting. And like, I just, I don't know,

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man, me and a few other guys, like put our hands over him and

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prayed man is something I felt something touched my back. It's

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like a warm hand. And no one was there. And it was like, Christ

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is like never come. Like I hear people talk about I'm like,

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yeah, I don't know. But like, it was like more real than

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anything I've ever experienced. And I think it's because that

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that faith is growing. It's like, nothing, I realized

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nothing's in vain, like nothing like, yeah, like, there's no

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regret. It's like, now I'm like doing. I've been asked to do

473
00:33:16.800 --> 00:33:20.440
like a mental health tech company. That's not like my

474
00:33:20.440 --> 00:33:24.920
design. Like, that's not what I planned for my life. And like

475
00:33:24.920 --> 00:33:27.520
these guys who are like, I grew up like broke, you know, like

476
00:33:27.520 --> 00:33:31.440
poor. And these guys are all like, you know, they're from

477
00:33:31.440 --> 00:33:34.600
like really wealthy families in New York and New Jersey. And

478
00:33:34.600 --> 00:33:38.400
they're like, have me out and like a week because they want to

479
00:33:38.400 --> 00:33:43.400
like invest in an AI tech company and had me like run it.

480
00:33:43.400 --> 00:33:48.240
And I'm like, so yeah, a lot of my old friends retired at 30.

481
00:33:48.600 --> 00:33:51.760
You know, they live like fat cats, you know, but I always had

482
00:33:51.760 --> 00:33:55.040
so much regret because I had to like, get sober. And like, I had

483
00:33:55.040 --> 00:33:59.600
to like, you know, work packing books and putting in void to

484
00:33:59.600 --> 00:34:02.400
like, learn how to be around people again after like getting

485
00:34:02.400 --> 00:34:07.680
sober. And just like, I just felt like, yeah, like that was

486
00:34:07.680 --> 00:34:11.280
my identity. And now I can like see, like Christ had a plan.

487
00:34:11.280 --> 00:34:14.159
Like I could never have dreamed that up. There's no way. There's

488
00:34:14.159 --> 00:34:18.719
no way. And yeah, I'm having to grow like I'm doing this Tony

489
00:34:18.719 --> 00:34:24.400
Robbins thing in Florida, like next month. And yeah, I'm like,

490
00:34:24.440 --> 00:34:27.920
it's hard for me to let that goodness in sometimes. But I'm

491
00:34:27.920 --> 00:34:31.760
just trying to like just trust and think just put one foot in

492
00:34:31.760 --> 00:34:34.960
front of the other. So yeah, yeah, it's good in the dating

493
00:34:34.960 --> 00:34:37.920
things like, you know, I usually date like younger women that are

494
00:34:38.760 --> 00:34:42.400
you know, I kind of like do everything, I guess you'd say.

495
00:34:42.800 --> 00:34:46.400
And I met a woman who's actually like a peer, you know, she's

496
00:34:46.400 --> 00:34:51.280
like a nurse. She's got like rental properties, you know, and

497
00:34:51.760 --> 00:34:57.120
she doesn't like require so much, you know, and she's, she's

498
00:34:57.120 --> 00:34:59.840
pretty, she's cool. And like, I'm just taking it really slow.

499
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:05.880
And I have no idea, you know, you're like, I never thought I never thought, right?

500
00:35:05.880 --> 00:35:11.680
Yeah, it's actually really call me, you know.

501
00:35:11.680 --> 00:35:17.120
So yeah, I appreciate you sharing their James, a couple things you said that kind of like

502
00:35:17.120 --> 00:35:23.600
just kind of piqued out me, it was like, I'm doing something you'd never wanted to do.

503
00:35:23.600 --> 00:35:30.960
You know, even though, you know, your background, your profession, you know, it, you have the

504
00:35:30.960 --> 00:35:37.440
skill set for it, maybe there's a little growth there that you've got to do in order to like

505
00:35:37.440 --> 00:35:39.840
step into it.

506
00:35:39.840 --> 00:35:44.720
And maybe even like, oh, all of my other friends are retiring, I could be retiring, but I'm

507
00:35:44.720 --> 00:35:49.320
not because of me being invited into this thing that I'm like, didn't think I was ever

508
00:35:49.320 --> 00:35:51.560
going to do or wanted to do.

509
00:35:51.560 --> 00:35:56.240
And the other thing was, is I have to grow.

510
00:35:56.240 --> 00:36:00.200
Like that's a that's a pretty, and like, and you're not saying that, you know, that from

511
00:36:00.200 --> 00:36:07.840
a defeatist standpoint, you're saying that from a viewpoint of like, I have this thing

512
00:36:07.840 --> 00:36:11.920
that's calling to me, I have this opportunity.

513
00:36:11.920 --> 00:36:17.240
You know, if you were looking at it opportunistically, that's one way, but I think a greater mature

514
00:36:17.240 --> 00:36:25.160
way is like, I almost have a opportunity to level up and grow and take a responsibility

515
00:36:25.160 --> 00:36:28.560
in whatever this is being asked of me to do this.

516
00:36:28.560 --> 00:36:32.560
And so therefore, I have to grow, which that's powerful.

517
00:36:32.560 --> 00:36:35.320
I mean, like, what an invitation.

518
00:36:35.320 --> 00:36:40.560
That's the kind of thing that I'm talking about, like, what is what is life, what what

519
00:36:40.560 --> 00:36:46.600
opportunity or what situation or what personal thing I'm asking everybody now in the group

520
00:36:46.640 --> 00:36:51.960
like, what is that thing that's asking you to grow?

521
00:36:54.000 --> 00:36:57.680
Right. What is that?

522
00:37:01.000 --> 00:37:06.680
That. I'm trying to think of a word to kind of just kind of, you know, it's something

523
00:37:06.680 --> 00:37:12.560
that's challenging you, what's the challenger, who's the challenger or what situation is

524
00:37:12.560 --> 00:37:14.360
the challenger in your life?

525
00:37:15.680 --> 00:37:18.800
Asking you the question, are you going to grow?

526
00:37:20.720 --> 00:37:22.760
Are you going to level up?

527
00:37:23.720 --> 00:37:32.120
Are you going to are you going to do this or are you just going to like do the same

528
00:37:32.120 --> 00:37:33.160
thing you've always done?

529
00:37:34.840 --> 00:37:39.880
Are you going to be, you know, the guy that's like, oh, just kind of like, yeah, I'm just

530
00:37:39.880 --> 00:37:42.800
going to go back and do the same thing.

531
00:37:44.680 --> 00:37:51.320
And it's not about it's not about like James is talking about, like being this, I think

532
00:37:51.320 --> 00:37:56.200
he said CEO, but like leading a company like that's like with a huge skill set and like

533
00:37:56.200 --> 00:37:58.280
a really amazing field.

534
00:37:58.640 --> 00:38:02.080
It's not about the difference of like where the field is.

535
00:38:03.240 --> 00:38:07.200
David Van Rooyen is moving to the middle, like flyover country to the middle, like

536
00:38:07.280 --> 00:38:14.080
Davenport, Iowa and like reducing, you know, but the value of what David Van Rooyen doing

537
00:38:14.080 --> 00:38:17.440
and James is doing is equally the same.

538
00:38:17.480 --> 00:38:19.120
It's not about like status.

539
00:38:19.120 --> 00:38:20.480
It's not about money.

540
00:38:20.480 --> 00:38:21.720
It's not about like amount.

541
00:38:21.720 --> 00:38:23.880
It's not like about the quantity.

542
00:38:24.120 --> 00:38:27.400
It's about the quality of what it is that you're being invited into.

543
00:38:27.400 --> 00:38:31.360
So don't compare yourself to somebody else who's not the leader of a company.

544
00:38:32.360 --> 00:38:38.240
You know, this dealing with like Fortune 500 situation, look at yourself and go, hey, what

545
00:38:38.240 --> 00:38:40.520
is it? It's in my life.

546
00:38:40.520 --> 00:38:41.960
Who is this in my life?

547
00:38:41.960 --> 00:38:46.800
What circumstance, whatever it is, whatever's on the inside of you, what is it that's

548
00:38:46.800 --> 00:38:51.400
calling out to you to say you got to grow?

549
00:38:53.040 --> 00:38:56.040
You got to you got to you got to move forward.

550
00:38:57.040 --> 00:39:01.360
And what's it going to require for you to to answer that call?

551
00:39:03.200 --> 00:39:07.640
You know, this happens a lot of times when somebody, you know, meets.

552
00:39:10.120 --> 00:39:13.680
Meets a child that needs to needs to be fathered, needs to be adopted.

553
00:39:15.080 --> 00:39:17.320
You know, the same type of scenario.

554
00:39:17.320 --> 00:39:18.640
Are you going to accept the call?

555
00:39:18.640 --> 00:39:20.200
This is this is like facing you.

556
00:39:20.760 --> 00:39:21.920
This is the situation.

557
00:39:21.920 --> 00:39:23.400
This is what's up in front of you.

558
00:39:23.400 --> 00:39:25.680
Like, are you going to do this?

559
00:39:26.600 --> 00:39:32.960
Even even just the call to like be married, like, are you going to step into, you know,

560
00:39:33.800 --> 00:39:35.080
what it means to be a husband?

561
00:39:37.000 --> 00:39:38.040
And all that entails.

562
00:39:39.040 --> 00:39:40.520
So I've been a husband for.

563
00:39:41.840 --> 00:39:44.880
18 and in my first marriage, it was 14.

564
00:39:44.880 --> 00:39:49.840
So I've been playing the husband role and the dad have been playing the dad role for 30

565
00:39:49.840 --> 00:39:59.600
years. Because my son's turning 30 this year and I've been playing the husband role for 30, whatever that is, 32 years.

566
00:40:00.880 --> 00:40:03.520
That doesn't mean that I'm a good husband.

567
00:40:05.600 --> 00:40:08.720
That means, that doesn't even mean that I'm like trying,

568
00:40:08.720 --> 00:40:11.280
I'm still, there's a lot of things I'm still trying to figure out.

569
00:40:13.200 --> 00:40:14.240
Playing the husband role.

570
00:40:16.720 --> 00:40:17.120
You know?

571
00:40:19.040 --> 00:40:20.480
Go ahead, Thomas, you got your hand raised.

572
00:40:22.320 --> 00:40:24.480
No, you said you wanted to hear from all of us, so.

573
00:40:24.480 --> 00:40:25.520
Yeah, yeah, I'd love to.

574
00:40:25.520 --> 00:40:34.320
Yeah, I mean, I feel like, first of all, I want to share that I'm excited for you, David.

575
00:40:34.320 --> 00:40:35.280
I think that's really cool.

576
00:40:37.120 --> 00:40:42.160
And I agree that it seems like there's a lot of change in the wind for a lot of people

577
00:40:42.160 --> 00:40:43.200
in some ways.

578
00:40:43.920 --> 00:40:54.480
I think for me, yeah, I've been, you know, I've been trying like as hard as I, you know,

579
00:40:54.480 --> 00:40:57.040
not, I mean, close to as hard as I know how.

580
00:40:57.040 --> 00:40:59.600
And I think it's an interesting question.

581
00:40:59.600 --> 00:41:02.160
How many kind of like G's can you pull in a turn?

582
00:41:02.800 --> 00:41:04.080
Yeah, that's good.

583
00:41:04.080 --> 00:41:08.800
That question of, you know, like, so like, you know, a couple months ago, I mean, I've been,

584
00:41:08.800 --> 00:41:12.560
I mean, I've been trying for decades, you know, a couple, but specifically recently,

585
00:41:12.560 --> 00:41:16.560
a couple months ago, hired a nutrition coach, working on my sleep schedule,

586
00:41:16.560 --> 00:41:18.480
getting back into scuba and sailing.

587
00:41:18.480 --> 00:41:21.760
I'm tracking every single expense in the last, you know, in the last month.

588
00:41:21.760 --> 00:41:29.040
Doing an envelope style, but on Google Sheets, but I have T accounts set up and everything,

589
00:41:29.040 --> 00:41:30.560
putting systems into place at work.

590
00:41:31.200 --> 00:41:42.240
But I think for me, it's a really interesting, painful thing, because I've tried so many

591
00:41:42.240 --> 00:41:45.600
times to create kind of new things.

592
00:41:46.560 --> 00:41:48.800
And like this time is going to be different.

593
00:41:48.800 --> 00:41:56.080
And I think I read the book a little while back, Adult Children of Emotionally Unhealthy

594
00:41:56.080 --> 00:41:56.880
Parents.

595
00:41:56.880 --> 00:42:02.880
And it talks about how there tend to be two types of people, one being internalizers who

596
00:42:02.880 --> 00:42:07.040
think if I can be good enough, that will fix everything.

597
00:42:07.040 --> 00:42:07.440
Yeah.

598
00:42:07.440 --> 00:42:12.400
And then others being externalizers who think if I can control other people, like that will

599
00:42:12.400 --> 00:42:13.200
fix everything.

600
00:42:13.200 --> 00:42:18.400
So I think for me, as someone who's tended to be an internalizer, who's thought if I

601
00:42:18.400 --> 00:42:22.640
could just get the system, like if I can just love it, I can just like make it work.

602
00:42:22.640 --> 00:42:22.880
Yeah.

603
00:42:24.320 --> 00:42:31.440
I feel torn because I'm actively wanting to do everything that I can to do that and to

604
00:42:31.440 --> 00:42:36.240
accomplish what feels impossible inside of my head that my heart wants so badly.

605
00:42:36.800 --> 00:42:37.200
Yeah.

606
00:42:37.200 --> 00:42:42.560
And then I also am remembering what, like John Ortberg says about that phrase, instead

607
00:42:42.560 --> 00:42:44.160
of trying harder, trying softer.

608
00:42:45.200 --> 00:42:45.920
Oh, wow.

609
00:42:45.920 --> 00:42:53.760
I feel like for me, it's a painful, painful mix of how do you try like as hard as you

610
00:42:53.760 --> 00:42:57.040
can, but also like as soft as you can, if that makes sense.

611
00:42:57.680 --> 00:42:58.160
And so.

612
00:42:58.160 --> 00:42:58.640
Yeah.

613
00:42:58.640 --> 00:42:59.280
Yeah, it does.

614
00:42:59.280 --> 00:43:05.520
Because like a lot of the feeling and a lot of the resonance around the six-month reset

615
00:43:06.240 --> 00:43:10.160
is not just trying to try again.

616
00:43:10.400 --> 00:43:13.360
It's not about like, oh, I've tried this before.

617
00:43:13.360 --> 00:43:15.120
Oh, we'll try it one more time type thing.

618
00:43:15.120 --> 00:43:15.760
It's not about that.

619
00:43:15.760 --> 00:43:23.040
It's about it is literally about seeing something you've never seen before and it being a true

620
00:43:23.040 --> 00:43:29.440
heart shift and not just like, oh, I'm trying a new program to be more successful.

621
00:43:29.440 --> 00:43:35.360
I'm trying a new thing to be more of the same thing I've always wanted to be like it's

622
00:43:35.360 --> 00:43:35.920
different.

623
00:43:35.920 --> 00:43:38.320
But that's what we've all been doing in here, I thought.

624
00:43:38.320 --> 00:43:39.040
Yeah, yeah, yeah.

625
00:43:39.280 --> 00:43:43.600
You know, is is seeking to do that.

626
00:43:43.600 --> 00:43:44.640
And I understand.

627
00:43:44.640 --> 00:43:49.600
But what I'm saying is that it's easy for me to get addicted to that approach to say

628
00:43:49.600 --> 00:43:56.080
this when I try to metamorphosis, I can do it in a way that's more meta and more deep

629
00:43:56.080 --> 00:43:57.280
and that will fix it.

630
00:43:58.160 --> 00:44:04.880
And I think for me, I'm also having to work really, really hard on patients, which.

631
00:44:04.880 --> 00:44:05.680
Oh, yeah, yeah.

632
00:44:07.600 --> 00:44:08.800
Requires a lot of patience.

633
00:44:09.600 --> 00:44:10.400
Jackie's here.

634
00:44:10.400 --> 00:44:12.240
I'm not going to show her that she didn't want her.

635
00:44:12.240 --> 00:44:13.600
She's like, don't show me.

636
00:44:14.640 --> 00:44:15.200
I got to go.

637
00:44:17.200 --> 00:44:19.600
Chicken and some girls to want some of it.

638
00:44:23.600 --> 00:44:27.360
Yeah, Thomas, I feel you when you say.

639
00:44:29.360 --> 00:44:30.160
Set patients, right?

640
00:44:33.360 --> 00:44:35.520
Yeah, I mean, as as as a part of it.

641
00:44:35.520 --> 00:44:36.080
Yeah, yeah.

642
00:44:36.240 --> 00:44:38.160
Yeah, that's that's super powerful.

643
00:44:38.880 --> 00:44:40.880
And I like that.

644
00:44:40.880 --> 00:44:42.880
Try don't try harder.

645
00:44:42.880 --> 00:44:43.440
Try softer.

646
00:44:45.840 --> 00:44:51.440
Because a lot of this to guys in terms of a six month reset is.

647
00:44:54.480 --> 00:44:55.040
It's a.

648
00:44:58.160 --> 00:44:58.720
It's a.

649
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:01.640
How was I, I was just, I just had the words.

650
00:45:00.720 --> 00:45:01.280
It's a.

651
00:45:01.640 --> 00:45:07.160
I was going to say it that softer part, you know, it's counterintuitive.

652
00:45:08.280 --> 00:45:12.360
It's not the old, uh, matrix of like, Oh, life change.

653
00:45:12.680 --> 00:45:13.840
Like, Oh, I'm going to do this.

654
00:45:13.840 --> 00:45:14.600
Got to get a program.

655
00:45:14.600 --> 00:45:15.240
Got to map it out.

656
00:45:15.240 --> 00:45:15.960
Got to buckle down.

657
00:45:15.960 --> 00:45:16.760
I got a white knuckle it.

658
00:45:16.760 --> 00:45:17.440
You know what I'm saying?

659
00:45:18.440 --> 00:45:22.800
Like, it's literally about seeing something different.

660
00:45:23.440 --> 00:45:28.080
Like the shift that I'm, I'm doing right now is about seeing something

661
00:45:28.080 --> 00:45:29.560
in me that I've never seen before.

662
00:45:30.960 --> 00:45:33.720
And seeing, seeing some things about my childhood that I've never seen

663
00:45:33.720 --> 00:45:39.640
before that I didn't understand because I had a certain, I said, I had a certain

664
00:45:46.560 --> 00:45:50.560
turned out and I was wrong in a lot of ways.

665
00:45:51.560 --> 00:46:01.760
And, um, it created in me a version of me that wasn't available, you

666
00:46:01.760 --> 00:46:05.320
know, emotionally, relationally.

667
00:46:06.120 --> 00:46:11.280
And, um, so I'm being challenged in that right now to see that differently.

668
00:46:12.400 --> 00:46:15.280
And, you know, telling me like Thomas probably would, would, would

669
00:46:15.320 --> 00:46:16.560
kind of like resonate with this.

670
00:46:17.520 --> 00:46:20.720
Somebody telling you, Hey, you got to change.

671
00:46:21.760 --> 00:46:26.920
You know, has anybody ever like had that thing where like somebody's looked at

672
00:46:26.920 --> 00:46:28.960
you say, dude, this is not good.

673
00:46:28.960 --> 00:46:30.000
It's got to change.

674
00:46:30.400 --> 00:46:34.040
And you're like, okay, that's cool.

675
00:46:34.120 --> 00:46:37.760
I'm not against changing, but like, what does that look like?

676
00:46:38.320 --> 00:46:39.640
Like, what do you mean?

677
00:46:40.120 --> 00:46:44.480
Like how like, and do what, you know,

678
00:46:45.000 --> 00:46:46.640
that's, that's difficult.

679
00:46:47.280 --> 00:46:53.120
That requires you to actually dig deeper and get that like next level of help.

680
00:46:53.120 --> 00:46:55.720
It's like, that's kind of like what I was talking about earlier is I, some

681
00:46:55.720 --> 00:47:01.720
things you can go about 80%, but in order to go that next or extra 20%, you need

682
00:47:01.720 --> 00:47:04.320
somebody else, you need some help.

683
00:47:04.520 --> 00:47:11.840
You need, uh, either coaching or you need like a friend or you need some sort of

684
00:47:11.880 --> 00:47:12.440
crucible.

685
00:47:12.440 --> 00:47:18.320
Sometimes these comes, these things come to you and, and, and a situation just like

686
00:47:18.320 --> 00:47:22.840
happens, you know, like, oh, this is, this is the thing that's actually requiring me

687
00:47:23.520 --> 00:47:26.360
to level up, requiring me to look at this differently.

688
00:47:27.200 --> 00:47:30.920
So lots of times it's very counterintuitive.

689
00:47:31.600 --> 00:47:33.680
It's not about like change for change sake.

690
00:47:33.720 --> 00:47:36.120
It's like, it's, it's true change.

691
00:47:36.440 --> 00:47:38.520
Seeing something that you've never seen before.

692
00:47:38.560 --> 00:47:40.560
That's why heartwork is so transformational.

693
00:47:40.560 --> 00:47:43.440
And I know a lot of you guys are going through that and have done that.

694
00:47:43.440 --> 00:47:47.520
And some of you guys are, are in the process even right now of doing that,

695
00:47:47.560 --> 00:47:48.480
which is so powerful.

696
00:47:50.280 --> 00:47:52.680
And, uh, so some other guys, you got your hands raised here.

697
00:47:52.680 --> 00:47:56.000
So I want to hear from you, Mike and Kenton and Andrew.

698
00:47:58.680 --> 00:48:00.920
So, sorry, I just dropped my phone.

699
00:48:02.640 --> 00:48:06.720
So one of the things, um, I've been stepping out of my comfort zone,

700
00:48:07.000 --> 00:48:12.480
um, I've been stepping into, which is not really been super comfy is I'm in a new

701
00:48:12.480 --> 00:48:13.720
church, right.

702
00:48:13.800 --> 00:48:20.400
And the temptation is to mute myself because nobody really has been able to

703
00:48:20.400 --> 00:48:20.920
handle me.

704
00:48:21.400 --> 00:48:21.840
Right.

705
00:48:21.920 --> 00:48:25.840
And, um, and I haven't wanted to come under the, I haven't wanted to talk to

706
00:48:25.840 --> 00:48:30.960
be nice, behave, you know, don't, don't, don't rock the boat, that kind of stuff.

707
00:48:31.600 --> 00:48:34.920
Well, yeah, because when I carry really kind of freaks people out sometimes even

708
00:48:34.920 --> 00:48:37.520
me, like, you know, honestly.

709
00:48:37.920 --> 00:48:41.800
And so, um, it's actually, it's ironic, the house that I've been called out as I

710
00:48:41.800 --> 00:48:45.240
was called out as a prophet again on Sunday, second time in this place.

711
00:48:45.920 --> 00:48:47.240
Um, and he nailed it.

712
00:48:47.320 --> 00:48:50.960
And I was like, um, so I've just, I feel like it's the time to walk into

713
00:48:50.960 --> 00:48:52.320
that, but I have to trust.

714
00:48:53.120 --> 00:48:58.960
So I actually, um, have a meeting set up with the, um, the, um, senior, the head

715
00:48:58.960 --> 00:49:06.600
pastor who was the, it was my attorney, the one who owned the, uh, it was, he was

716
00:49:06.600 --> 00:49:08.760
my, his associate was my attorney.

717
00:49:09.280 --> 00:49:13.240
Um, and I asked his daughter out, which is not awkward at all, but, uh,

718
00:49:13.880 --> 00:49:14.400
Oh, wow.

719
00:49:14.800 --> 00:49:15.320
Okay.

720
00:49:15.600 --> 00:49:17.440
And all these things update from last week.

721
00:49:18.080 --> 00:49:22.560
Well, no, I mean, I asked her out previously and then I just, but I did

722
00:49:22.560 --> 00:49:24.400
take a huge swing this week.

723
00:49:24.440 --> 00:49:29.240
Um, and I I'm learning some more of the story, but my whole thing is I had this

724
00:49:29.240 --> 00:49:32.400
fear, you know, you know, like you're talking about leveling up, right.

725
00:49:32.760 --> 00:49:37.920
It's like, you know, am I, do I even, am I going to let people, am I going to

726
00:49:37.920 --> 00:49:39.400
allow myself to be muted again?

727
00:49:39.760 --> 00:49:43.440
And like, I really don't think I've even got to the fullest of me because I've

728
00:49:43.440 --> 00:49:45.120
never really been allowed to be free.

729
00:49:45.760 --> 00:49:50.080
And, um, you know, and I gave a word on Sunday, which I mean rocks, you know,

730
00:49:50.080 --> 00:49:51.840
and I was able to saw people healed.

731
00:49:51.840 --> 00:49:52.560
It was pretty cool.

732
00:49:52.600 --> 00:49:57.640
Um, and so I'm just seeing the fullness, but it's scary because I'm like, wait,

733
00:49:57.760 --> 00:49:59.960
they haven't flinched and I'm.

734
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:02.000
kind of teeing off, right?

735
00:50:02.000 --> 00:50:04.560
And so, and like I say,

736
00:50:04.560 --> 00:50:06.560
so I didn't want to talk to the senior pastor

737
00:50:06.560 --> 00:50:09.800
because that's usually the ones that Hulk smash me

738
00:50:09.800 --> 00:50:12.260
and say, you know, they don't usually understand

739
00:50:12.260 --> 00:50:14.480
but I'm just trusting that the Lord has it.

740
00:50:14.480 --> 00:50:15.880
And, you know, so I have been,

741
00:50:15.880 --> 00:50:19.000
and I'm like, I took a swing with that gal

742
00:50:19.000 --> 00:50:21.960
and I'm like, yeah, the pastor's daughter, it's fine.

743
00:50:21.960 --> 00:50:22.800
Right?

744
00:50:22.800 --> 00:50:25.520
You know, and, you know, and we'll see how she responds.

745
00:50:25.520 --> 00:50:27.880
But like, you know, like stop,

746
00:50:27.880 --> 00:50:31.000
rather than playing it safe and trying to fit,

747
00:50:31.000 --> 00:50:33.120
I'm just walking in who I am

748
00:50:33.120 --> 00:50:35.700
and allowing people to love me for who I am,

749
00:50:35.700 --> 00:50:37.400
which I don't think I've ever done.

750
00:50:37.400 --> 00:50:39.740
And so I think a lot of times,

751
00:50:39.740 --> 00:50:41.100
I think it's really hard to,

752
00:50:42.760 --> 00:50:43.960
well, trust the Lord too.

753
00:50:43.960 --> 00:50:45.640
Well, and with that gal, the Lord's like, you know,

754
00:50:45.640 --> 00:50:46.640
trust, do you trust me?

755
00:50:46.640 --> 00:50:49.640
And I'm like, kinda, you know, like, you know,

756
00:50:49.640 --> 00:50:53.400
but I'll take the step out and even,

757
00:50:53.400 --> 00:50:56.560
and I'm in an even if season, am I calling it?

758
00:50:56.600 --> 00:51:00.920
Like even Lord, even if I crash and burn,

759
00:51:00.920 --> 00:51:03.720
I'll praise you and I know you'll heal my heart.

760
00:51:03.720 --> 00:51:04.800
I know you'll heal the wounds.

761
00:51:04.800 --> 00:51:05.840
I mean, you've done it before.

762
00:51:05.840 --> 00:51:09.600
And so, I mean, I just, it's like, even if, even if,

763
00:51:09.600 --> 00:51:12.900
like no matter what, I'm just going.

764
00:51:12.900 --> 00:51:15.200
And, you know, like without risk,

765
00:51:15.200 --> 00:51:16.480
it's impossible to be loved.

766
00:51:16.480 --> 00:51:18.080
Like, you know, without, there's no,

767
00:51:18.080 --> 00:51:20.120
and it's possible to have faith.

768
00:51:20.120 --> 00:51:21.840
Faith is spelled out.

769
00:51:21.840 --> 00:51:24.240
So I'm like, Lord, you put me here.

770
00:51:24.240 --> 00:51:26.280
There's a lot of things swirling in this house.

771
00:51:27.040 --> 00:51:27.880
There's so many things.

772
00:51:27.880 --> 00:51:29.560
I see how I'm perfectly set up.

773
00:51:29.560 --> 00:51:32.320
I mean, because I do a lot of deliverance things too.

774
00:51:32.320 --> 00:51:35.480
And it's just, not that I want to do all this stuff,

775
00:51:35.480 --> 00:51:38.480
but I'm just kind of, I'm pressing into areas

776
00:51:38.480 --> 00:51:43.480
that I've never frequented, though I have done them, right?

777
00:51:43.960 --> 00:51:47.680
And like, they asked me to be the intercessor

778
00:51:47.680 --> 00:51:50.280
for the worship team, right?

779
00:51:50.280 --> 00:51:52.220
And to keep the air clear.

780
00:51:52.220 --> 00:51:54.440
And I'm like, that's not typically something.

781
00:51:54.440 --> 00:51:57.080
So I'm trusting that,

782
00:51:59.360 --> 00:52:01.360
like I'm being led the right way,

783
00:52:01.360 --> 00:52:03.320
even though it's very different

784
00:52:03.320 --> 00:52:05.120
than what I would have chosen.

785
00:52:05.120 --> 00:52:07.660
You know, I think, I don't, I hate to speak for everybody,

786
00:52:07.660 --> 00:52:10.000
but, you know, we like stuff that's in our wheelhouse

787
00:52:10.000 --> 00:52:11.160
that we're really good at, right?

788
00:52:11.160 --> 00:52:14.320
Hey, take me, do the thing that I'm really good at, right?

789
00:52:14.320 --> 00:52:16.400
You know, and he's like, oh, I want you to be intercession.

790
00:52:16.400 --> 00:52:17.800
And I'm like, well, that's like something

791
00:52:17.800 --> 00:52:19.280
I really don't want to do.

792
00:52:19.280 --> 00:52:22.560
But he's like, you know, this house needs to be clear.

793
00:52:22.600 --> 00:52:24.520
And you have the discernment of spirit,

794
00:52:24.520 --> 00:52:27.280
so you can see it and you can clean it.

795
00:52:27.280 --> 00:52:28.820
So, but I have to get the authority

796
00:52:28.820 --> 00:52:32.800
from the senior pastor to do that, right?

797
00:52:32.800 --> 00:52:34.680
And so then I have to,

798
00:52:34.680 --> 00:52:37.760
so it's been a really huge growing week.

799
00:52:37.760 --> 00:52:39.880
And so like, the Lord told me, okay,

800
00:52:39.880 --> 00:52:41.200
so I just want to say,

801
00:52:41.200 --> 00:52:42.800
I don't know if this is a win or not.

802
00:52:42.800 --> 00:52:43.720
I mean, I did it.

803
00:52:43.720 --> 00:52:45.840
And like, so there's this guy,

804
00:52:45.840 --> 00:52:47.120
the Lord gave me a word for this gal

805
00:52:47.120 --> 00:52:50.440
when I was supposed to be with a mug, a card,

806
00:52:50.440 --> 00:52:52.280
the word was supposed to be on a purple card,

807
00:52:53.000 --> 00:52:53.840
in a purple bag.

808
00:52:53.840 --> 00:52:58.160
I've never had something so nauseatingly specific, right?

809
00:52:58.160 --> 00:53:02.440
And so Sunday, I was there and a friend of mine was like,

810
00:53:02.440 --> 00:53:03.760
you need to have it done.

811
00:53:03.760 --> 00:53:06.220
And so I had it ready to give to her.

812
00:53:06.220 --> 00:53:07.440
And I wasn't gonna, I was like,

813
00:53:07.440 --> 00:53:09.240
Lord, you have to give the opportunity.

814
00:53:09.240 --> 00:53:12.360
And towards the end of the night, or the morning,

815
00:53:12.360 --> 00:53:13.800
I was like, I just have to give it to her.

816
00:53:13.800 --> 00:53:16.160
And I walked back and she was just absolutely,

817
00:53:16.160 --> 00:53:18.360
she was sobbing on the floor.

818
00:53:18.360 --> 00:53:20.600
Like she was having a really rough day.

819
00:53:20.640 --> 00:53:23.480
And I just walked up and I realized,

820
00:53:23.480 --> 00:53:25.080
because really what the word was,

821
00:53:25.080 --> 00:53:28.040
prophesying freedom for her, right?

822
00:53:28.040 --> 00:53:30.840
And I didn't give it to her to actually get,

823
00:53:30.840 --> 00:53:32.920
the reason why I didn't wanna give her the gift,

824
00:53:32.920 --> 00:53:37.780
because I will never use my gift for favor.

825
00:53:37.780 --> 00:53:39.200
That's crap, right?

826
00:53:39.200 --> 00:53:43.040
You know, and so I fought the Lord for three weeks on it.

827
00:53:43.040 --> 00:53:44.440
But when I handed it to her,

828
00:53:44.440 --> 00:53:48.300
I could see it was the perfect opportunity.

829
00:53:48.300 --> 00:53:49.700
So I didn't wanna do it.

830
00:53:49.700 --> 00:53:52.780
I wrestled against it, but I was obedient.

831
00:53:52.780 --> 00:53:57.260
And it really did, I'm sure it's gonna have a huge impact.

832
00:53:57.260 --> 00:53:59.140
And whether we have a relationship or not,

833
00:53:59.140 --> 00:54:02.180
I don't, it's irrelevant to the equation.

834
00:54:02.180 --> 00:54:05.300
But like, I did what I was told.

835
00:54:05.300 --> 00:54:07.300
And I could actually,

836
00:54:07.300 --> 00:54:09.540
it's not often that you see the instant impact

837
00:54:09.540 --> 00:54:11.060
of what you're doing.

838
00:54:11.060 --> 00:54:12.340
But like even walking up, I said,

839
00:54:12.340 --> 00:54:13.580
I hope this is encouraging to you.

840
00:54:13.580 --> 00:54:14.900
She's like, even the purple,

841
00:54:14.900 --> 00:54:16.300
it's like, it's in a purple bag of,

842
00:54:16.300 --> 00:54:17.940
of course it's encouraging to me.

843
00:54:19.940 --> 00:54:22.620
And so anyway, so I just thought you guys,

844
00:54:22.620 --> 00:54:24.700
you know, if it's crazy and it's out there

845
00:54:24.700 --> 00:54:27.060
and it stretches you,

846
00:54:27.060 --> 00:54:31.300
I mean, you know, I took the swing and I did it.

847
00:54:31.300 --> 00:54:34.420
And I'm actually really grateful

848
00:54:34.420 --> 00:54:37.180
because I knew the Lord's like,

849
00:54:37.180 --> 00:54:39.220
you know, you're prophesying her freedom.

850
00:54:40.540 --> 00:54:41.380
It's good, it's good.

851
00:54:41.380 --> 00:54:42.820
And so I just, I just think, you know,

852
00:54:42.820 --> 00:54:44.840
so yeah, you gotta trust.

853
00:54:45.860 --> 00:54:46.700
Yeah.

854
00:54:46.700 --> 00:54:48.340
Now, if you, if you press them with your heart,

855
00:54:48.340 --> 00:54:50.260
which is the softer, like, I love that.

856
00:54:50.260 --> 00:54:51.100
When,

857
00:54:54.660 --> 00:54:57.380
that was shared, Thomas shared earlier,

858
00:54:57.380 --> 00:54:59.500
try, don't try harder, try softer.

859
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.200
with your heart. I really believe you cannot fail. Like, I believe like when you press in,

860
00:55:06.320 --> 00:55:13.760
you know, because of God, because of what God is nurturing you to do, you know, in your heart of

861
00:55:13.760 --> 00:55:19.600
hearts, that I believe you cannot fail, even though the outcome may be different than what

862
00:55:19.600 --> 00:55:24.640
you expected. I believe you can't fail. Let's go with Andy and then Kenton. Andy, what do you got?

863
00:55:25.440 --> 00:55:34.560
Hi. Hey, Andy. So, hi. So, I guess what resonated with me was the thing about doing something that

864
00:55:34.560 --> 00:55:43.200
you've never done before. And like, yeah, really, I'm feeling that way with the way I'm dating that

865
00:55:43.760 --> 00:55:49.600
girl from the Philippines. Like, yeah, I never thought I would.

866
00:55:57.120 --> 00:55:58.320
Uh, you're froze.

867
00:56:01.440 --> 00:56:10.960
I'm, is it okay now? It came back a little bit. Yeah, you froze there for a second. Okay.

868
00:56:11.920 --> 00:56:15.440
Yeah, I would say definitely that Philippines thing is for sure. Like,

869
00:56:15.440 --> 00:56:19.760
I've never done this before. So, you're literally walking that out for sure.

870
00:56:22.320 --> 00:56:27.280
Yep. And, you know, learning, learning a new culture and,

871
00:56:29.600 --> 00:56:32.160
and, you know, communication kind of stuff. I think it's like,

872
00:56:32.320 --> 00:56:41.840
um, it's the kind of thing that, um, I think it's, um,

873
00:56:50.560 --> 00:56:57.280
yeah, you're breaking up again. Don't know what else to talk about. Oh, come on. I don't know why

874
00:56:57.280 --> 00:57:02.480
I'm breaking up. Cause I'm like in good wifi right now, but yeah. Um,

875
00:57:05.280 --> 00:57:11.280
but yeah, we hear you. We, we, we hear you. And we're, we're, we're, we're with you on that new

876
00:57:11.280 --> 00:57:18.000
experience. We can imagine that, you know, that's definitely a, a game changer in one way or another

877
00:57:18.000 --> 00:57:27.120
for sure. And, uh, so we're like, since then I'm like, yeah. And of course I'm flying down there

878
00:57:27.120 --> 00:57:32.960
next week. So yeah. Yep. I'm flying down there next week. So, okay. Well, we definitely be

879
00:57:32.960 --> 00:57:40.480
praying for you and agreeing with you and adding our faith with you that everything will be, uh,

880
00:57:41.280 --> 00:57:47.360
turn out. All right. For you, Jesus name, Kenton, go ahead. Uh, you're the last one here. We're

881
00:57:47.360 --> 00:57:53.280
right up against the hour. Okay. Very good. Then I won't keep this too long. Um, I'm going to speak

882
00:57:53.280 --> 00:57:58.720
mostly out of my experiences, my age, which is 66. So I've got a few years under my belt here.

883
00:57:58.720 --> 00:58:02.560
Are you guys getting a, uh, an echo in here? Cause I can change rooms if you are.

884
00:58:03.120 --> 00:58:10.320
Hey, you're fine. You're fine. Okay. Good. Um, evaluation is going to be always in our life.

885
00:58:10.320 --> 00:58:16.080
Re-evaluating, re-evaluate. Every business does. Any smart business re-evaluates every six to two

886
00:58:16.080 --> 00:58:22.560
year to small increments, but our own personal lives, because what does the Lord really want?

887
00:58:22.560 --> 00:58:27.920
He wants basically to love him. And I had to learn that over the last six years. So not so

888
00:58:27.920 --> 00:58:35.600
much how to love him, but to allow him to give him permission to love me in return. And that's

889
00:58:35.600 --> 00:58:39.360
for somebody who's a people pleaser. That's a difficult thing because you always give out,

890
00:58:39.360 --> 00:58:44.960
give out, give out all the time and not expecting a lot back, even though you're craving for it,

891
00:58:44.960 --> 00:58:51.520
you're truly craving. So actually it's, it's can be a demonic thing because it's not what the Lord

892
00:58:51.520 --> 00:58:56.880
called us to do. He called us to love one another and to love him with all of our soul and mind in

893
00:58:56.880 --> 00:59:03.440
return. He's not a taskmaster. He's, he's a lover. And I had to learn that one. That was one of my

894
00:59:03.440 --> 00:59:08.720
first ones six years ago. I had to learn all over again, had learned for the first time actually.

895
00:59:08.720 --> 00:59:16.080
So the first order for myself was to re-evaluate how I loved myself by allowing God to love me.

896
00:59:16.080 --> 00:59:21.760
And that's a big one. The second one for me more recently is learning to trust in him. Mike,

897
00:59:21.760 --> 00:59:27.040
I hear what you're saying about the prophetic and changing churches and senior pastors, etc. Being

898
00:59:27.040 --> 00:59:33.280
a senior pastor myself with multiple staff and having to lead an apostolic church, it's not a

899
00:59:33.280 --> 00:59:39.520
lot of fun. It can be very tiring at times because you're talking about the prophets, the teachers,

900
00:59:39.520 --> 00:59:45.120
the pastors, evangelists, etc. And when you get them all in one, one roof, it's, it's like one

901
00:59:45.120 --> 00:59:52.640
big party, but also a lot of work. So in that realm, what I'm saying is that everything that

902
00:59:52.640 --> 00:59:59.840
God gives you, like Bob, Bob Jones often said, he, he turned off his telephone.

903
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.160
and he waited upon the Lord until he received the word. He didn't move forward. He lived life,

904
01:00:06.160 --> 01:00:10.080
just normal, like a normal person, to receive the Lord. Then he'd plug in his cell phone,

905
01:00:10.080 --> 01:00:14.960
call the person he's supposed to call, or do, or go to, whatever. And then he'd come home again,

906
01:00:14.960 --> 01:00:21.200
unplug his phone, and continue on with life. It should be that easy for you when you are

907
01:00:21.200 --> 01:00:26.640
constantly in his presence, constantly in his presence. And that's what he's looking for.

908
01:00:26.640 --> 01:00:31.360
He's looking for us to be with him. That's what we're made for. We're made to have fellowship

909
01:00:31.360 --> 01:00:36.800
with him, first and foremost. And then everything else flows out of that one. So, in the years of

910
01:00:36.800 --> 01:00:41.440
experience, I've learned that it's not an easy thing to do, especially for ADHD people like

911
01:00:41.440 --> 01:00:47.840
myself. But all at the same time, it's necessary. So the changes in my life that I'm finding ever

912
01:00:47.840 --> 01:00:52.880
since David informed me that there wasn't a match for me amongst all the ladies, and that kind of

913
01:00:52.880 --> 01:00:58.000
floored me for a few moments. But ADHD people always pick themselves up again and carry on.

914
01:00:58.640 --> 01:01:07.040
So I had to re-evaluate. There was a young lady that I was friends with, and so

915
01:01:08.880 --> 01:01:13.280
she's had her ups and downs and whatnot. And so she's now going to meet with Jackie and

916
01:01:14.000 --> 01:01:17.760
discuss all her fears of what she fears because of her past relationships.

917
01:01:18.400 --> 01:01:25.120
And guys, I'm going to tell you this. She was not, this kind of woman was not on my bucket list.

918
01:01:25.120 --> 01:01:32.160
She wasn't on that long list of things that I wished in a woman. No, I was not. Sorry. So I had

919
01:01:32.160 --> 01:01:37.600
to make some major changes over the last little while. And you know what? The thing that I found

920
01:01:37.600 --> 01:01:45.120
best about her is her heart, how much she loves. And that's the one thing I didn't get in my life,

921
01:01:46.000 --> 01:01:52.560
it was a lot of love. And it's so strange for me. So weird. It's like somebody actually loves me for

922
01:01:52.560 --> 01:01:59.840
who I am, not what can I give to them? What can I supply for them? And so I'm saying adjustments

923
01:01:59.840 --> 01:02:05.760
had to be made to my thinking, my list. But God knows best. If you wait upon the Lord,

924
01:02:06.480 --> 01:02:13.680
if you wait upon the Lord, as Joseph had to for 113 years, as Moses had to for 70 years,

925
01:02:14.000 --> 01:02:18.960
and it goes on for all the different people thought of Hebrew that we're our heroes.

926
01:02:20.800 --> 01:02:26.720
So your biggest adventure on life, I call it an adventure, because that's exactly what it is.

927
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This is finding that adventure, changing adventures, making new adventures, don't get

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stuck in a rut where you're at. Your lives are too short. They're only they're only spit in the

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bucket. Eternity waits for you. So my biggest question is, how am I influencing others for the

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kingdom of God? And that includes the girl I'm wanting to date and to move forward into marriage.

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How am I influencing her? She's my first disciple. In fact, if anything, she might be my only true

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disciple, which I have to raise up. But that means I've got to get my life in order in the sense that

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I've got to trust God. I've got to I've got to lean into him. I've got to always take her

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to Jesus when she asked me a question. I'll say, Well, what did Jesus say about that?

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For a while, it's like, she doesn't ask me many questions in work, and she knows I'm gonna ask

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her and then she comes back with the answer with Jesus, not me. And so we're realizing that Jesus

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has all the answers he did. And that's where we're leading our lives to that's not what we want.

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Our future wives in the future in the word, and with prayer. That's good. So I just want to

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encourage each and every one of your men, that in the next little while, things are going to change,

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you're gonna learn how to trust him more, you can log into love a future person through you.

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Because if you try to do it physically on your own, your human power, it can't be done, gentlemen.

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I've been asked to love this woman for two years, unconditionally. And it's been

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Oh, man, more trials and tribulations. Yeah, this it knocks the socks right out. Yeah.

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To the point you realize you come back to the Lord and say, Lord, you told me to do this. I can't do

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this. And he says, bingo, I've got I've got you. Now you know, you can't do it even when I asked

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you to. That's what it came down to. I said, Lord, I can't do this anymore. I can't because

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it's turning around. He says, Yeah, exactly. When anything you try to do on your own,

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and not in spirit, it will wear you out. And then you know, you're going down the wrong trail.

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You know, without a shadow of doubt. And so that's when you have to lean in and says,

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Lord, I'm going to be the imperfect future husband. I can't make her any promises. I can't

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make her any vows. Because I could probably get somehow screw up. But I can tell her this much,

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as long as I'm going after Jesus, after I love him, give him my all through he is going to minister to

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her through

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me at that time and that's where your biggest power is going to come from that's where eternity

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is going to you're going to meet christ at the beam of seed and he's going to say well

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done my good and faithful servant why because you looked after just one of my dams one of

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my sheep and you disciples for well by bringing her to me each time not trying this pop psychology

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today guys just it's it's it's nuts out there with all the psychology and sociology and

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humanism and darwinism and all that other crap out there i say crap it is just that

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and so and that's where i'm changing is like changing number one choosing a woman that

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i went to choice out of my list but god knew what i needed than i needed and that's more

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that's more important he had to finalize that to learn how to love her unconditionally but

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through a condition which god gives you not what you can do and so most of you know that

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i went bankrupt i basically went from riches to rags and now this woman is well oh she's

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got to realize i have nothing i could gain it all back that's not a problem but that's

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not the issue for her she's got other issues that she needs to look after that's why david

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i thank you for looking into uh getting a meeting with her for jackie that's going to

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be a real pivoting point for her thank you very much and uh we'll find out shortly if

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she wants to go forward after she spoke with jackie and uh but for her it'll be a change

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too because she's always said security she's one of these trophy wives that two men really

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abuse unnecessarily but she's not she doesn't know what real love is either and the lord

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has brought me to her to love her to love her through me and that was the assignment

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basically so in that same sense there's my changes so i'm looking at starting up a business

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i with laura says i want you to do it and min will say no it's not a good idea so what

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do you do so look at the lord so okay lord i'll wait upon you i'll wait upon you there's

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that word again i'll wait upon you and i won't move until you show me tell me inform me whatever

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you got to do but i'm tired of trying to do it on my way in my timetable so i'm beginning

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to lay back this adhd and just live life in the moment and enjoy that moment so that's

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the changes that's happening in my life and uh and all these things through lys it's just

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been uh so guys this is a good community i've been in a lot of communities but i've been

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nothing like this one because these people you people really care for each other and

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you see that in the prayer time moments in the in the sunday prayer times and the saturday

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meetings and the friday morning um jesus time every one of those moments these women that

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are on this community are women of god and they are going for it and i would choose any

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one of them anytime for what i've seen what's out there that's for sure that's powerful

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that's okay that's amazing yeah i thank you so much for kenton for sharing that um what

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you shared there is a mouthful and a heartful because you know if you're not really catching

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on to what kenton's been through and how he's processing it i know a little bit just because

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just working together but i i just um you know that he's saying so much in what he's

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saying here not just a good hey i'm 66 years old let me tell you some things that i've

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learned line it's more than that like he's really really being transparent and sharing

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how you know this whole season has changed but then even in the last minute this season

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has really shifted and that's and it's super powerful what's happening um it's and i can

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sense the anointing on and sense god all in it and and i just really feel like god's that

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you're really honoring the lord in that and that great things are going to happen through it

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because um it's not intuitive it's not what we think lots of times the answer isn't what we think

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it's gonna be or supposed to be or you know it's looking like it might be or whatever um so many

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people in this community just on meeting people have that testimony like i never thought i never

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thought this would be the person there was two there's a couple that just sat on our couch the

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other day uh on saturday and uh we know him but we're meeting her for the first time and they're

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engaged and they're gonna get married and they both said the same thing they had they had no

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idea they like like who would have thought that this this person this girl this guy would have

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been you know the one and um it's just that way it's just that way and so god is so good in that

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so thank you kenton for sharing thank you for

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being transparent. Thank you for being so honoring in that.

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And, and all the everybody that shared tonight, every single one

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of you is really revealing something even just sharing

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tonight. Yeah, you think you're sharing with us, but I really

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feel like just you getting it out there. God's allowing that

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and using that in your own light to reflect back to you, giving

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you some insight, giving you some affirmation, giving you

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confirmation, giving you a level of like, yes, thank you, my son,

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thank you for articulating it. Thank you for getting it out.

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Thank you for sharing. Because it's important that you do that

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not only for us, but for what God is doing in your life as

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well. So each one of you are very, very pivotal, powerful

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moments in your life. And we just want to celebrate that.

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Thank you all for sharing. Um, we're going to end this, but I

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am going to share the link that I mentioned before. So I'll

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share it in the comments. But it's also in just so you know,

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it's also in the resources section of the, of the, of the

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group of the app. There's a button, there's a tab at the top

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of the men's section on the app, last year single app. That app

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has a resources section. And in that resources section, there's

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a link to this, the same link. So if you missed this, but so

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want to bless you guys. Um, thank you for showing up

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tonight. Thank you for sharing. And we'll see you next time. God

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bless y'all.

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Take care.