Um, okay, so to lead into this week, I, so coming back from School of the Prophets, they,
a big thing, I was there as like a, um, I was there to be, uh, like I was not attending,
I was attending, but I was not going to attend, I was going to work, um, because we were offering
Emerging Prophets, which is, was my dad's, is now Chris Vallotton's, is, I am still working
for both.
So, uh, I was going to help with us offering this program to everyone at the school and
I was able to sit, I mean, I literally just sat at a table, like I got paid to sit at
the back of a table and listen to the, all the amazing things that they all have to share,
which was really incredible.
But this year, they really went into foundations.
So I feel like they used to, years ago, School of the Prophets has been going for 19 years.
Yes.
Um, School of the Prophets has been going for eight, 19 years and they all said 20 and
everyone from the stage was like, this is our 20th year and our 20th year and we were
like, that's going to be really hilarious.
Next year, it's going to feel anticlimactic when next year is actually the 20th year and
everything they spoke into was this year is the 20th year.
So we thought that was very funny.
Um, that's what happens when people who don't have a grid for time lead an event, but it
was, they, at the very beginning, Chris Vallotton has this workbook called the prophetic, um,
oh shoot.
I think it's the basic training of the prophetic ministry.
And it's a really incredible manual that they used to for School of the Prophets teach
out of like in depth all week long.
And they haven't done that for years.
And for years, it's been like a lot of really incredible teaching, but they felt this year
to go back to the foundations and the, like, I feel like that's been something that everyone
is like, it's kind of like, okay, let's go back to the basics.
Let's go back to the foundations.
What are we doing?
We're actually taking a step back from like high level thinking to let's go back to zero
and not, we're not taking a step back, but we're going and like actually creating a foundation,
even if things have been like cracked and just kind of like filling the cracks.
Um, and so this year they went into the foundations, they went back to that manual and were able
to actually, and as Chris has taken over emerging profits, that's what he's teaching in our
school now is the foundations.
And so I've been able to sit, I've sat in so many of these like foundational sessions.
And I think it's funny because Lindsay has been talking about, okay, let's look at our
prophetic words, which in a sense is like, okay, I'm actually going to pull back on what
you're doing.
And like, let's look at what God said about you, what God said is for you.
And what are like, what are the patterns you see?
What are the identity markers that come from the word?
And when is the actual season that the word, like those are the three things, the patterns,
the identity markers, and when is the season that the word is meant for?
And so I was really like blown away at looking at all of the, like, even for myself, okay,
I've been so challenged by going through and looking at, like, Sally, your prophetic identity
statement, I listened to it this last week when I've had a chance to catch up and like,
was beautiful.
I was so moved.
And then even going back and listening to the session yesterday, re-listening to last
week session and like, even hearing you share it with us live on the call, like, I feel
like that's not something that's necessarily easy.
Like, I think sometimes you can look at it as like, oh, it's fine.
I'm going to read it.
It'll be fine.
But like, it really is so powerful.
And like, our words have so much power and going in and it's really vulnerable.
Like I, this, during this have been reminded of my dad shares a story about their staff
when they were on staff at a church, maybe 10 years ago, they would do this thing where
they had all of the staff go and look and create identity statements for themselves.
And he had all of the staff come up in, in like a sequence of staff meetings, come up
and read their identity statements to the staff of like 30.
And my dad, one of his, one of his statements was I'm a prophet of fire and my family are
meant to be prophets of fire.
And it, he was like, I'm not saying that in front.
of all of these people who were like, who were our prophets and like hold such a high like they were his were are his mentors and people that he so looked up to and he was like, I'm not going insane.
I am a prophet for one, I'm a prophet. I'm a prophet of fire and my family is called to be prophets of fire and so he went up and like said it the first time and
very sheepishly declared it in front of on the podium and the pastor stopped him and goes, Keith, I'd like you to re say that. What are you, and so he had to be like, my dad is not a timid man.
If you know Keith, he's not a timid man.
And so just kind of like, I am a prophet of fire and like, as he said it, it like there's something that broke into when you're actually stepping into and like, even as Sally you were sharing and just the emotions that were brought into it of like, Oh, I'm actually, I am
declaring this and like this is shifting the authority that I have because there's something when someone else speaks it over you but now you're speaking it out of your own mouth and like our words have power.
This week, everyone asked me how I am and I'm like, I'm freaking tired. I'm like, I'm so tired and the Lord, this yesterday I was on a walk and I was like, Lord, I need help.
He's like, I want you to stop declaring over yourself that you're tired, because you are tired but like you keep declaring and people are asking how are you, how are you, how are you doing and like, I'm tired, he's like, no, stop declaring over yourself you're tired because you're not going to get out of the rut of being tired and going into rest like I'm working on rest.
stepping into that. But okay, looking at like okay I like taking back to I feel like there's a line, everyone's talking about kind of the foundations, what are our prophetic words.
That's the foundation that Lindsay's been like, who are we, the foundation of kind of what Lindsay has been talking about and speaking about.
So like, I, this is my first I'm like for myself.
I have not put together my identity statement, but just for an example, I am called to be creative.
I am called to be a leader and an influence to my generation so I've like even just looking at these are my like I not my identity markers, but the patterns that I've been seeing throughout literally every other word has a similar I'm like.
Okay, I'm called to be a leader. It's my generation.
I'm called to break new ground.
I'm called to be so I had one I'm called to break new ground. The next one was I'm called to be a pioneer haha how funny.
I'm called to model healthy family, which is funny because that's something my family has gone after so deeply, but also that I'm called to speak into those who did not have a healthy family, specifically pastors kids.
And then I'm called to be an Esther to this generation, which I feel like I'm like, I don't know what I feel like.
Esther's 414 I feel like is been such a everyone you're made for such a time as this you're made for such a time as this like that is something like even Sally said earlier, we are made for such a time as this and going into that so I'm like, okay, now taking this what words feel like there for this season.
And like coming back to if you look at the through the through line of all of your words, there is a like, okay, maybe like Lindsay was saying last week, she had the word about speaking to stadiums, and then it happened she started her podcast and COVID happened.
So like what stadium is she speaking into that, but then she was given a platform of X amount of people, which would like that's a lot of people so it's still like it's funny like that word seemed if we take it so literally she was met for a stadium but now is working in like with all of these people it's like, Oh, no, that is the word for this season, someone's delivery may not have been exactly how God meant it but it's how they interpreted it whenever they spoke it to you.
So it's like not taking things necessarily so literally, because I think we can take a lot of like a lot of the words we've said like I've had, I do have a lot of words about leading from a stage leading from a leading worship from a stage and I'm like, No, thank you but like this is my step at that this is currently.
This is not a stage that I'm standing on. Technically, I am. This is my, like, platform, so to speak, for the moment and the time being.
Picking the literals, like what is literal and what is not?
So what words are for this season?
And when I was thinking about it, I'm like, okay, what am I?
And then probably what are so many of us doing?
We have the word, we have the calling, we have the idea,
we have the education.
Like we're all here sitting in a place
to be helped along, educated.
We've all probably spent money into helping,
doing something to help you go step into your column,
doing something to help you.
Like, even if it's, you're paying for higher education,
you're going to college, you're paying for this education
that's supposed to help you get somewhere.
Like, okay, we have all of these things
and then we're not necessarily like, we're like,
okay, God, why am I stuck?
Why do I feel like I've done all the right things?
I have the word, I have the calling, I had the God idea
or like we're thinking it's a us idea.
And like you were saying, Jennifer, like, okay,
how can I be praying for,
like I'm praying specifically for the God ideas.
God show me what you are breathing life onto right now.
But like, why do I feel stuck?
Why do I feel like I cannot continue to move forward?
And it's, Lindsay talked about it again last week,
how she's like, okay, what are the patterns
that you're seeing?
You're seeing that like, oh, I'm getting to this point.
And once I get to this point,
like I always get to this point and never move any further.
What is our stuck point?
What is our, so that's why having a,
trying to keep us like, okay, let's think,
what is our win?
What is our stuck?
Where is our stuck point?
And I want to kind of pull back
and look at the broader picture.
Okay, why are we not starting communities?
Why do we feel like we're not going into,
like, why is our community not starting?
That's kind of everyone's like, okay,
we've done all the things, we have all the teaching.
The hardest part is getting my tribe to be started.
How do we actually get my people into what I'm doing?
So I think sometimes we sit and wait
and we're thinking like, okay, this is a prophetic word.
You have words, you have things people have shared with you.
And it's really like, it's not, we are not,
I'm not getting a word about speaking to people and leading
as I'm not just going to fall into leading people.
I'm not just going to trip in, I am now leading you.
But like, there is intentionality and like,
God is more so like our prophetic words are invitations
for us to partner with him and what he's doing.
And I know we know that.
And I'm like, I'm not, I am not speaking to you all
as if you do not know anything, I know we all know.
And like trying to be reminded,
because this last week and like even being,
okay, we're being brought back to foundations.
We are, I'm not like,
I think sometimes it's a good reminder
because we are looking at,
like, I know that we all know generally these things
and coming into, okay, let's just a reminder for myself.
My prophetic word is an invitation for me to step into
and partner with God and what he's saying,
my life will happen.
He's saying I'm called to, so how can I partner with him?
So, and I think I was thinking back to like,
David was anointed before he became king.
Noah got a word and then built the ark.
Like there's a lot of like, thus and then,
like they got the word and then it's not,
we were, oh, wow, you got this word.
And sometimes people have, they get a word for you
and it's something you're already doing.
It's more so they're picking up in the atmosphere of like,
oh, she's doing this and that's what they're sensing.
Rather than the foretelling.
So what I would like us to do,
and I wanna take a little bit of time to kind of backtrack
and like, what is it that you're believing
about what you're building, about who you are
or about your circumstances
that are keeping you from moving forward?
Because I think that we can believe like,
Marcella's doing the, all the inner healing.
Like, it's like, okay, what are we believing?
What does God say about it?
Or kind of, Xavier said it last week,
that that's kind of what the Lord is doing,
Him too is like, what is it that I'm believing?
What is it that God is actually saying about it?
Um, why haven't we moved forward and done X, Y, and Z if it's why haven't
you moved forward and publish your book?
Why haven't, which most of you have actually, but why haven't you moved
forward and started your community?
Why haven't you moved forward and hit publish on your post that
you're supposed to be posting?
Why haven't you moved forward and had made that phone call to that person
that God's been highlighting to you the past few weeks?
Um, so what I want to do is I want to take like five minutes and I'm
going to set the beloved timer.
And I want us to take five minutes and think, okay, God, what
is it that I'm wanting to build?
What is it that you've said?
I'm called to build what I'm called to do.
And why is it?
And what is the lie that I am believing about what I'm building?
What, what, like what I'm building is not good enough.
What I'm building, people are not going to come in and get free.
Um, who am I?
I'm not called to be a leader.
I'm not called to be like, you think of a lot of times your prophetic words
and the things that you're doing, those are your biggest insecurities.
Like for me, there's so many of my words that I'm called to lead people
called to speak called to blah, blah, blah, blah.
And I'm like, those are the things that I'm like, no, thank you.
I told Bruce earlier today, I was like, I'm good.
Thanks.
And he's like, that's really funny.
I'm like, well, shucks.
So what is it that like, who the lie you're believing about who you are, that's
keeping you from stepping into what you're doing, or what is it about your
circumstances?
Oh, I'm too busy.
I feel like that's like, usually busyness is our best excuse for moving forward.
Oh, I'm too busy.
Oh, I'm, I have this, this, and this, like we are, God has not given us, like,
he is not going to put something in your hands that you don't have capacity for.
So like, okay, where can I make room for, where can I make this capacity?
So does that make sense to anyone?
Does everyone, does anyone have any questions, comments, concerns?
Are you ready for me to set the beloved timer?
All right.
I'm going to put on music.
Sally, you can go ahead and mute me if you'd like.
Okay.
♪♪
Five minutes is up.
How did that go for everyone?
Does it feel like there was anything new that came up for anyone?
Or is it just kind of a, quote, reminder of kind of something you already knew and like, oh, yeah, I am believing that.
Would anyone like to share? You don't have to share. But if anyone felt inclined to share, they can.
I'll start. I have always been able to set goals.
I remember early in the 90s going to a class with Mark Victor Hansen who wrote Chicken Soup for the Soul.
And you had to go out to lunch and write 100 goals down for your life in an hour.
And so every year, well, I would, December, I would go out and set goals for the next year and write goals and everything.
So I've never had a problem with goal setting and making stuff happen at all.
But right now I'm sitting here. What am I called to? And I, you know, it's like I have blank.
I don't want to I don't want for Robin Butler to set the goals I want.
You know, for something that moves me, moves my heart, you know, to be there.
And so I'm just drawing a blank. So just be honest.
That's I think honestly, I think a lot of us are the place at least I'm in the place of like, I actually don't want to do this upon my goal.
I don't want to have to build something because I talked about maybe five weeks ago.
If it's not something that you feel like you're called to, but also that you love doing, like it's not sustainable.
It's not going to be something that you're going to end up building and like, OK, yes, this is something that seems really amazing.
But I can I like that, that you're at least being at the point of like, OK, actually, I don't feel like there's anything that necessarily moves me that I'm wanting to move forward with.
Because if it doesn't move you, it's not going to keep not going to keep moving you down the line.
So thank you for sharing. Does anyone else want to share?
I'll share.
there. So on the question, like I got what kept me what is
keeping me stuck, which is I can't trust myself. And it's
referring to how I interpret the prophecies God has given me.
Because I do have an instance where I very I misinterpreted a
very important promise that I felt God has given me. And so
that I've noticed that also by going through my journals. And
that is still 10 years later is still sticking in me. And I know
it's not the problem with God. And so if it's not the problem
with God, it's a problem with me. And so I don't trust me with
what God has given me. And yet, I feel that like God keeps
asking me to like, share the journey, while on the journey.
So even if I feel in the desert, or I don't, like I still have a
lot of questions about my faith, I have a hard time
bringing other people along the way. But while we were doing
this exercise, I was looking over I have it, I had it written
on my, on my wall. And there's this phrase, when we trust in
the nature of God, faith is easy. And so I feel like God
kind of already answered me, right at this moment. It's like,
okay, I understand you don't trust in you. But trust in my
nature. And I know God's nature. So I can actually do that I can
trust in God's nature. And it's okay. If I'm on the journey of
rebuilding trust with myself. And so it was, that was kind of
sweet to come to a full circle with that.
I love that. I love that he was able to actually take you
because the next step of that is what is the truth? What is the
truth? This is where I'm stuck, what I'm lacking for sense what
I'm not believing. And I think that even that you were able to
look up and be shown like naturally, he is the truth. He
is the like was the answer in this situation, and that he
actually brought you to full circle with that. And I think
thinking to these moments, okay, now you have a now you have
something to look back on now you have something to hold.
I don't trust myself. I don't trust like, okay, you
misinterpreted a word. Did you actually misinterpret the word?
Yes, I had to burn the word. Oh, no. Okay. Okay. But like, I
don't know until the end of my life. But what has to happen to
make that true, as I imagined it can't come to pass, it would be
horrible. So yes, I burned the word. Okay. Have you gone back
and looked at the original word? Yes. Yes. So there's for
sure truth in the word. But still, I must I overstepped or
something went wrong in me understanding the word. But I do
know that something was real in my encounter with God. Yeah, I
think as you like the very first time you said that when you
misinterpreted the word, I think go back and reread or re
like look at that word and you said you have but I want you to
actually go back and relook at it because sometimes I think
there's healing in like, it was a really strong I misinterpreted
that word. I burned the word I like and kind of moving forward
of like, I got it wrong. Sometimes we get it wrong. We
are people we are not perfect. And we get it wrong. But I
think look back at the original intent of what the wasn't an
encounter that you had. So I think look back at the
encounter and look back and just ask God like, okay, God, what are
you actually had? Like see what sticks out to you? What God what
are you highlighting to me? And what that encounter was? Because
I think there's going to be something healing in the process
of actually going back. Because I don't think you'd like you
didn't just imagine your encounter, like you did have an
encounter and he encountered you for a purpose. And it may not
necessarily be what you thought. But I think he is going to bring
some redemption to what you were, what you had thought or
what was from before. So yeah, I think look back at that. But
thank you so much for sharing. Thank you, of course. Okay,
would anyone else like to go before we wrap up today? No, no
one. Oh, Jennifer,
I can share one thing that's been coming up the last few
months, but came up kind of when I was doing this today, is that
similar to you, I'm called to create, I'm called to, you know,
lead be a CEO, like, you know, business. And then also I'm
called like a fusion 320 called to exceed.
But what's interesting is like every time I step out in something you know creative,
it's like book launching or a course or something, I'll get into it and then all of a sudden like I
have these like quantum leaps of like I'll be four weeks in and all of a sudden like God takes me to
a new level and then I'm a future version of myself and so then that content is almost like
not relevant anymore and it's not like this need for perfection, it's not like oh I wish I had a
different color or I wish this, it's like I'm a totally different me or how I'm seeing things or
the vision you know prophetic like I see possibilities. So what I'm recognizing is
it's like my creative ideas and even the tribes and courses and stuff that I'm trying to create
are almost like pulling me backwards from being able to run at the pace like God wants me to
and so like just this past week like I've had to just like I'm going to completely shut down
Broadway's and like just let everything go but it's like I need to step into a way, I'm still
asking him how do I create in a way that's like quick and easy and not in a way where like they're
becoming anchors versus like propellers like they're like do you understand what I'm saying?
So it's like creating in a way that's like lifting you forward versus holding you back
and so I think that's what I'm praying is like how to do that and how to release like
you know how to build a community but not based on like oh this is my anchor course because the
second I go and try to launch it like I have a whole new idea and a whole new course and it's
not just like chasing the shiny it's like part of who I am is to constantly be moving to the
next level in revelation and what he's calling me to do but I think that's what's been holding
me back is because like every time I take action I'm like a hundred steps ahead but I'm still here
trying to get this thing built. I think I don't think you're actually like and I was so let me
reel back my thoughts I you are a I feel like a visionary where you're coming in and like you're
saying is like oh I have all of these things like I would love to do this I would love to do this oh
but I actually I got to the point where I started building this and oh I want to do this and I want
to do this and you're kind of like you're almost you have someone and I think there's someone
that's going to come alongside you that's actually going to become the like you need when you have a
visionary you need someone who's a practical to kind of bring and I think there is a practical
side to you because there is like like you're saying like the the spreadsheets and the like
those types of things are practical sides of you but you at your I feel like are you at your fullest
self the visionary is that what you enjoy you enjoy being the person to cast vision to kind of
be in the like if we're thinking of it and like be in the heavenlies you're kind of like not a
mystic but that's the reference that I'm thinking right mind where you like being in the heavens and
you like oh my gosh I have this and I can do this and I can do this and you see the vision for
yourself and then you need someone to come in and help kind of like get here the tactics that you
can do to move forward that makes sense so me so what you're saying is like because I try to do it
myself versus in corporate I had a team of like 60 people underneath me right and because now
in business I'm trying to do all the things I'm going at too slow a pace versus if I could have
additional team members or delegate or figure out a way to use technology whatever uh in a quicker
way then I could be producing quicker and my creativity could keep up at the pace of my ideas
or my vision I think so I think we get to this point where like um because Pedro is who a lot of
us um have awareness of Pedro is a visionary Pedro is a and he's a verbal processor so he spits things
out and is like I don't know and he just like starts talking and then he kind of like he has
um Keith is a good anchor for him or Holly is a good Susette his wife is a great anchor for him
and is someone who is able to actually like center him into like okay let's actually pull those three
things were really great ideas now what can we bring alongside of you to keep doing it because
I don't think Jennifer that even though you're stepping into this new season and there are doors
opening for you I don't think you having the desire to speak to those CEO women those c-suite
women like and I don't think that is a desire that's going to go void I think that it's going
to be something that even if like you're saying maybe it doesn't look like the course is the anchor
maybe it looks like um I kind of maybe um I was telling Marcella even with like consulting and
throwing that out there of like you may think of consulting
And you're in that space.
So like, I feel like CEOs all the time are like, I'm going to pay this person
this amount to consult, help me situate my stuff, whereas you can actually bring
the, like, the, like, you can do something that is still going towards
that vision and that goal, but it is a little bit more easy to grasp
with how fast you're running.
Right.
You can keep running and you can choose to like, I'm going to sit and I'm going
to, instead of it being a group you're coaching, if you're doing one person
and you're running with this one person, or like, even you had a desire
for like events with women.
Okay.
What does that look like?
What if you did that once a year and like, you had this crazy, like this
crazy week with all of these women once a year that like set them for the
trajectory for the next year and really blew up their year.
So I think thinking in like, okay, how can I take the little scale
and how could I make it?
Like, I'm going to do one big thing.
So yeah, exactly.
And you're in alignment with what I'm already thinking is too.
I mean, I'm just going to rebrand under Jennifer Miller, which is what my LLC
is anyway, instead of my DBA.
And then just instead of trying to create a whole course program, like
just offer a cons, you know, consulting, coaching, uh, and then do more of
like short form content creation.
And then like, what I was as Ryan Brad, somebody who talked to us, um, just do
it more that way versus trying to create the tribe and the community, because I
think that's, what's holding me back from running as fast.
So yeah, no, I appreciate the confirmation there.
Yeah.
I think that I've even thought of like the idea of like, well, having W-2 income
again can just help me hire an assistant and get this off the ground.
And I like that part more than like doing all the work.
So yeah, I think it is helpful.
It's like even, um, that's why Keith brought me to do stuff with him because
he was running his business and then doing all the admin stuff on the one side.
And like, whenever your vision, you're trying to lead something, trying to do
the technical things on the side is not necessarily like, I think sometimes
to start, you have to, right.
If you can get to the point now you have a W-2, now there's a little extra
income of like, oh, I'm going to pay this person to do just a little bit of
like mundane things for you that are pulling you back.
Cause I think you start to do the tasks and then you're like, no, I have to
answer those five emails and set up this in this one schedule, these posts.
So yeah, I think not doing it alone.
I think is huge because like you said, we can do it alone and then be like, I
can't actually go fast enough for myself.
So, okay.
I've kept you all.
But we will see you all guys next week.
Jennifer, we will not, maybe not see you, but I'll try if I can.
It just depends if my daughter's goes, like if she has play practice, but if
she doesn't, then I won't be able to.
So we'll see.
All right.
Appreciate you guys.
Bye everyone.
Have a good week.
See you next week.