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Hello. Welcome. Happy Monday evening, everyone. I hope you had a great day. I know some of

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you are like maybe 5 p.m. dinner time where you're at, so I hope that you'll either have

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a wonderful dinner before or after you came on tonight. I'm Bethany Cooper. I'm one of

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the Master Heartwork Coaches here in the community. We have Annette Lewis joining us tonight as

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one of our peer coaches as well. So welcome to Annette Lewis, and we're so glad to have

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you joining us. If there's anyone that is new, this is your first live session with

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us. We would love for you to put that in the chat so we can welcome you for your first

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time, and then also welcome back to my ladies who have been here before. So glad to see

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your faces and to connect with you again tonight. God has great things in store for us. I'm

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going to go ahead and pass it over to Annette. She's going to cover a couple housekeeping

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things and then pray us in, and then we'll jump right into the content for this evening.

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Yep, you're muted. Sorry. It's always helpful if you unmute. Good evening, ladies. It's

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so good to be here with you again tonight. I look forward to this time on Monday evenings,

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and it's great to see everyone's beautiful faces. That's one thing that I've learned

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since I started. When I first started, I just had whoever was speaking on my screen, but

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now I can see everyone, so I like that. We want to encourage you all to, if you are able

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to, turn on those cameras and let us see your beautiful faces. Even when we get a smile

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or some kind of visual of you and how you're taking it in, it helps us to connect with

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you and interact and be able to just step into whatever God's trying to do in your heart.

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We want you to be seen. We want you to post in the group. We always get to your posts

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as soon as we can. Sometimes it takes us a little longer than others because life just

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happens, but what you have to say is important to us and we want to connect with you. This

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is a good time to show up for yourself and all that God has for you in this time. Finally,

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on this heart healing journey, check in with yourself and with your heart from time to

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time. I know when I was in heart work, sometimes I'd read something and I'd think,

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oh, I'm good. I'm good there. Yeah, I got that one down. God would put a little check

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in my heart and say, do you? Do you really? You're checking the box, but have I checked

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the box for you? I found that when I remain teachable and give him opportunity and check

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in with him first, rather than running out in front, thinking I've got it covered. Um,

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it's, it goes much better. It's good to let him take the lead. And he always lovingly

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and gently, um, wants to reveal things to you to help you be your most authentic self.

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So with all of that said, I'm going to pray and we're going to get started this evening.

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Dear heavenly father. Thank you. Thank you for each and every woman represented here tonight

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and for the work that you want to do in her heart and in her lives in each one of our hearts and

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each one of our lives. I pray that we would be teachable, that we would come out of hiding,

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that we would be seen and heard because we're valued. And God, you have so much that you've

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put into each one of us. And we are a gift to our communities and to the world around us.

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When we step into our most authentic selves and all that you have for us to do,

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ask your Holy spirit to just be present tonight, teach us, grow us, heal us, and show us

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how we can honor and glorify you with our lives in your name. I pray. Amen.

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Amen. Thank you so much. And that appreciate you and ladies, uh, as she was saying, part of the,

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the coming out of hiding, the reason we emphasize the turning on your cameras. Again, some of you

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are driving, some of you are at work or eating totally fine. If everyone can't turn your cameras

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on, but we want you to kind of plan for it. You don't have to always have your makeup done or any

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of those things, but it's about showing up and allowing us to see you. Cause here's the thing.

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Um, if you're afraid to turn on the camera here, you're going to be afraid to turn on a camera

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for a video date at some point. Okay. So let's practice showing up here and being seen, allowing

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yourself to be known and heard. Some of you all need to strengthen in your ability to share your

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heart, to share your voice, to share your even opinions and doing that here in a safe space

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where you can continue to grow in that is going to prepare you for that in a relationship.

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Right, super important.

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No hat for Annette Lewis tonight.

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I love it, I love her curls.

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So even that sometimes, you know what, it's interesting.

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Sometimes I will come on like prayer

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or if I really have had a super busy day

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and I don't have time to do my hair, I'll wear a hat.

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But for the most part,

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there's times I've wanted to wear a hat

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and the Lord has said, not when I'm coaching heartwork.

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And it's just something between the Lord and I,

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but sometimes when I'm wearing a hat,

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I feel like people can't maybe see my eyes clearly.

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And so y'all can totally wear hats.

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Okay, I'm not saying that,

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but it's something I've thought about.

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Like if you guys can't fully see my eyes,

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can you see my full expression?

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Can you see compassion in my eyes when I have that for you

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or whatever that case might be?

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And so it's interesting

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because I lead other sessions and I wear hats sometimes

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and this is just one of those times

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God has said that to me.

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And so be praying about that even for yourself.

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Are there times that you cover yourself up,

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whether with clothes, extra baggy,

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because you're afraid to allow yourself

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to be seen in some way, or maybe it is a hat,

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or, hey, is that something we revert to

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when something is happening in our physical realm

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and it's causing insecurity on the inside of us?

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So again, show up, be seen,

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allow yourself to be known and loved fully.

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And ladies, we don't have to be perfect, okay?

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Even myself, I'm gonna make mistakes,

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and I'm okay with admitting that.

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I'm okay knowing that there are times where

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I feel more anointed than others

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and all the kind of things.

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But if we just allow ourselves to be known fully

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and even in the mistakes to be known,

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even in your complete insecurities,

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or, hey, man, I don't know if y'all saw,

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but in our community group,

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we've had some women share some really intimate things

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that they went through, like hard stuff.

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and that's something that they're working through,

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some things that were done to them in life,

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but God is connecting dots for them.

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And when you show up as your authentic self,

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and even in those vulnerable moments,

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I want you to know that we, as Annette was saying,

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we absolutely care about your heart and what you're sharing.

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And I don't take that lightly,

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and my team doesn't take that lightly.

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And so know that we're praying for you.

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And I just wanna cheer you on and say, way to go.

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You're coming out of hiding,

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and it's so, so seen, and God sees you too.

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All right, so tonight we're talking

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about overcoming fear and anxiety.

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And so I wanna go ahead and activate you all in this.

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I would love for you to put something in the chat

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that you have in some way personally.

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So not because, and y'all, I know there's a lot going on

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in the world, but I'm asking about you personally.

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What is something that has happened in the last week or two

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that brought up fear or anxiety in you?

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That happened to you personally

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that brought up fear or anxiety in you?

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Put that in the chat for me.

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And I'm gonna read those out loud

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as you all begin to share those with us tonight.

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While y'all are doing that,

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I saw Nadine put in there,

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sometimes she hides behind her glasses.

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I think that's so true too.

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Sometimes y'all, I have these blue,

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they're supposed to help with blue light

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because I look at the computer so much.

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My eyes have been getting some fatigue.

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And some days when I don't wanna wear makeup,

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I've been wearing these now.

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So I can relate.

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I don't know, Nadine, if that's why you said it,

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but that stood out to me as I read your comment there.

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All right.

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So Erica said an interaction with a person

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I cut things off with,

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trying out a new Bible study,

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work, seeing my mom get older.

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Nadine said yesterday,

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major fear of driving of human sex trafficking

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happening around you,

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a fear of going to hell.

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Okay, well, if we're saved,

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we've given our life to Jesus Christ,

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we're not gonna go to hell, you all, okay?

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So make sure that the enemy isn't lying to you

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and deceiving you in some way there.

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All right, work situation,

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my mom getting older and health concerns.

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I have a key employee leaving feeling I can't do this.

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Glenn, I can understand that.

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Megan says situation with my housing

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that means more costs and I can't afford it,

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working through some of this material.

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Yes, ladies.

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Okay, that's awesome.

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That happens, doesn't it?

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Sometimes just even the fear

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of facing the things we've been through

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or like the material itself,

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how can we process it?

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What is God saying to us?

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Maybe we're not sure what God is saying to us.

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I know some of you are like even,

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sometimes people will say.

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do I know for sure if I'm ready to leave the heart work and all

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of those kind of things. So totally a lot of people feel in

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that as well. Scheduling an upcoming knee surgery. All

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right, so fear can happen. Yeah, anytime we have a health thing.

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I'm a decision of traveling to visit my daughter staying home

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for a moment. Being in dark spaces while I'm doing heart

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work. I feel like I get scared, discouraged and my emotions just

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go. Yeah. Waiting to hear about a new job. Okay, dream that

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happened. All right. Yeah. Sometimes, you know, keep in

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mind, the enemy can also assault you in your dream space. So not

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every dream is from the Lord, ladies. So make sure that you

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know, you're asking the Lord number one, do we look at our

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dreams through a fear lens? Because a lot of things we've

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had experienced in the world have been fearful. And then also

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God is this dream from you? If it's not, you know, really ask

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the Lord just to protect your mind while you're sleeping

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because we don't have to be afraid. But understand that the

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enemy will try to, you know, at times attack you there. All

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right, had a scary lab report. Who was that Jody W. All right,

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we'll be praying for you about that. All right, Mika said,

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Dr. Singh, I'm sorry, regarding dad's treatment options. So

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dad's facing health things there. Y'all, these are all so

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real roommate wants to move out financial worries, heart issue

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with a guy. I just as a reminder to during heartwork,

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we do ask you all if you didn't come into heartwork in a long

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term relationship already, then we do ask you to press pause on

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relationship. And what do I mean by long term relationship? Well,

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we had a woman this afternoon, she's been seeing a guy for

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almost 16 to 18 months now, well, we're not going to ask

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you all to just break up with people, okay. But we are going

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to ask you to, you know, create space in your heart, let them

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know you're maybe not going to talk to them quite as much as

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you normally do while you process the heartwork, make

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space for yourself. And some of y'all might come into this

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heartwork dating someone and realize they're not healthy.

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That happens. All right. So just be completely open. But we don't

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want you to try to meet new guys while you're in this. So

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encourage y'all and that might have happened even just

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accidentally you met someone, you know, so I know that those

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things aren't always intentional. But the enemy does

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use that to distract people from finishing their heartwork

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and staying in like engaged and what is happening. All right,

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Kim said I had a fear around staying where God has asked me

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to stay and missing out on closeness with my family.

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Finding out someone that I'm struggling with relationship

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will be at a meeting. Okay. Yeah, running into people that

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you're just, you know, not comfortable around that stuff.

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I went to a new church group and had to put myself out there in a

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new environment. Yeah, stretching, getting

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uncomfortable. All right, I'm going to try to get through more

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of these. I'll probably hit on some of these when we circle

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back as I'm coaching through because there's so many more

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things that we want to talk about tonight. But ladies, if

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you think of other things, put those in the chat because we're

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going to do something with them in a little bit. All right. So I

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want you to be thinking about as you're even thinking about the

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ones you've already put in the chat, that our hearts are highly

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impressionable. So everything that we listen to everything

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that we see the people that were around are influencing us. So

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during this heartwork season, and this heart healing journey,

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I want to encourage you all to consider watching less TV to

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watch the news less to really pull back on how much you know,

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you're being kind of pounded on in your mind and in your heart

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by the things around you. Proverbs 423 in the ESV version

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says keep your heart with all vigilance for from it flows the

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springs of life. Vigilance here is actually the quality or state

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of being vigilant, which actually means alertly watchful

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to avoid danger. Jackie talks in some of the videos about how so

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many times we have, you know, locks on our phones, we've got

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locks on our doors, we've got locks, you know, on our cars.

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heart. Now, we don't want to have a bunch of walls up where

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God can't come in and other people can't come in. But we

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also don't want to allow every single thing in the world just

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to come right into our hearts. And we're not processing that

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through. Hey, Lord, is this something that I need to be

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receiving into my spirit? Or Hey, think about this. If you

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are somebody that's really empathetic, empathetic, you're a

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big feeler. I would say this for everyone, but especially if

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that's you, I want to highly recommend that you would also

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guard the types of shows that you watch. You know, if you

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struggle with lust, ladies, let's not watch shows that have

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a bunch of lust in them. Let's let's really work on self

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control and pulling back those things that maybe we might have

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passed and been like, Oh, it's no big deal.

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might get heightened during those times that we're watching those kinds of shows.

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if we're having nightmares, if we're having negative things happening, is there anything

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that we started doing, you know, recently that we maybe hadn't been doing before?

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Remember, I said earlier, the enemy does attack us and he tries to come against us.

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So discerning that and growing in that will be a good thing as you all move forward.

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Fear is false evidence appearing real.

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So I want you to think about what you put in the chat.

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And I want you to ask yourself, what was the false evidence appearing real?

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So we broke this down a little bit earlier today.

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So for example, one of the ladies said this afternoon that she had some, I can't remember

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if she said fear or anxiety, but one of those regarding dropping her kids off to her ex

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and he was taking them on a trip.

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And so one of the ways I broke this down is that false evidence appearing real, okay?

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The reality is, is there's probably a reason that she has concern about sending her kids

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on a trip with this person.

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But what are the lies we're hearing?

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A lot of times anxiety is actually what fuel anxiety, excuse me, is fueled by fear.

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And what if thoughts?

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So what if this, what if that, what if this, especially, Hey, let's, let's just think about

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especially if we had a bad situation with our, our ex spouse, or we know something that

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they exposed our children to in the past, and we're afraid that's going to happen again.

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But again, this is where it's really important to even, you know, Hey, on that, you know,

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that trip's coming up, put that on your Jesus cares board.

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And you're saying, Jesus, I'm, I'm going to trust you with my kids, and I'm going to watch

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my mind and I'm going to really guard the thoughts that I'm having so that I don't get

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caught up in all this fear and anxious thoughts and, and allow the enemy to run away with my mind.

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And then a lot of times, ladies, that's not only impacting our mind and our heart, it's

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I don't know if you all ever have encountered where your whole body kind of seizes up and,

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you know, goes through something.

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But I'm going to give you all an example from my life, something that literally just happened

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And we were driving to our other church that because we now have a second campus and Brian

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was going to be preaching there and we were on our way there was really sunny and beautiful.

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he had to kind of put it all the way because the sun just kept kind of coming right in

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his eyeshot.

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And we were driving and we were praying on the way there.

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And I, as I was praying, I didn't just pray for the service.

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I felt led to pray because not only myself and Brian, but we had other team members driving

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there just to pray for the safety for everyone.

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But not only that, I prayed, I felt led to pray for God's angels to usher us there and

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back and to protect us and surround us completely.

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It's just what I felt led to pray.

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So as we're driving, the sun is shining right in his face.

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I look up because I was doing something.

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I, a lot of times y'all I work on my phone when we drive to and fro, it's just kind of

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the way it is.

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And I looked up and the light was red and Brian was still going.

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I knew that at that point he, he didn't, he didn't either know that red light or something.

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So I was like, it's red, it's red.

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And at that point, like he, it was too, he was going too fast.

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Like he tried to stop, but there was no way we weren't going through that light.

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Thank God I looked in the, there were cars like to turn, but y'all is one of those things

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that after it happens, you're like, oh my gosh, like God just kept those cars from going

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through that.

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Cause I don't know if y'all have ever been in Florida, but people drive crazy here.

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I've been in California.

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People drive crazy.

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They go through lights all the time.

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People go before the lights turn green.

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People go after, you know, we were one of those people, unfortunately yesterday, accidentally

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going through a light that's red, but God had us and he protected us.

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But here's why I'm sharing that for you or with you.

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I went into a full physical, like I couldn't talk for like 10 minutes.

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Like I just need it because my family has been hit by a drunk driver.

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My brother had two other accidents.

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Like so there's just been a lot of accidents in my family and in my life, but not only

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This was something before I was saved. I was a young girl, went to a friend's house, and they had a Ouija board.

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I didn't know anything about it, and we were playing it, and you know, whatever, they were acting like it's a game.

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And the Ouija board supposedly told me that I was going to die in a car accident when I was 16.

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I wasn't 16 at the time. 16 came and went. That did not happen.

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But what I realized yesterday, y'all haven't thought about this in forever.

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And I can remember, I've broken all the soul ties, I've done all that, but for whatever reason yesterday,

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that came up in my spirit, because I was kind of like,

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okay, Lord, I don't want to be afraid every time something happens in the car.

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Like, what is this? You know, like I was having a fool, like I had to like,

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okay, calm my body down, we're on the way to church, like get control of myself, you know, all this calming thoughts.

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So what I believe God has shown me is subconsciously that fear and that lie was still lingering underneath the surface there.

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And I got triggered by that happening yesterday.

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and we have a physical response to right now, it is because of that situation,

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but it's also because of other things that we've experienced before,

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that are underneath the surface that are getting connected and triggered and all kind of shaken up, if you will.

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And so maybe that's something that you're dealing with right now.

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Trauma that happened to us isn't what stops us from living an amazing life.

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It's the lies we believe as a result of the trauma.

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Here's the reality. When I was young, and I played that game, you know what, I believed it.

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I remember being afraid to drive in my car for months after that.

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So we have to get a hold of these lies and, you know, not only cast them out, but we need to replace them with the truth.

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Obviously, I'm still here.

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Praise the Lord.

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God's protecting me.

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God's providing for me.

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And so we need to cut the fears off at the heels, if you will.

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So what are the fears, anxiety, and lies that you've been struggling with and believing?

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These often also point to problem areas, or what we say in this community a lot of times, areas where we're stuck.

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Maybe you've been stuck for a long time, or maybe you just got stuck recently,

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and you don't even know what you're, like, what's getting you hung up on it.

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Like, why are you struggling and going back into that place?

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These are all signal areas to lies that we're believing in these areas.

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So if you, for example, that happened to me, I was having that physical response,

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that is not necessarily, like, I'm always stuck in that regard,

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but I have noticed that, okay, I'm a passenger princess now, most of the time.

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And I've noticed that when I'm not driving, I have more fear because someone else is in control, okay?

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And so then when something happens, it's triggering some of those old things.

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Again, letting go of control.

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When someone else has control and something happens, you know, that's bad.

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Well, guess what little lies percolate to the surface?

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I need to be the one to drive.

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I can't trust them.

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All these things, and that isn't true.

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So we got to catch those things.

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Catch the little foxes, right, before they run and create a bunch of other foxes in your vineyard, all right?

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So I'm going to read something to you from the HeartWork book.

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This is in Chapter 5 in the section called The Biggest Lie.

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This is what it says.

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But not everyone sees the dysfunction in their life as a problem.

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The biggest lie that you may believe in life is that your life is normal.

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Many people that live broken lives believe that it's reasonable to live that way.

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They have inherited that emotional debt or trauma from their family,

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and they think it's normal to be overweight and unhappy, to be unfaithful,

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to be in a relationship where someone mistreats you, or to be sick all the time.

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They think it's okay to have massive amounts of debt and spend all of their energy trying to figure out how to pay the bills.

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Or even more severe deception, like it's normal to abuse and hurt others or yourself.

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I knew someone like that.

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They thought it was normal to be molested by family members because it's all they had ever known.

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When they were confronted by an outsider about the abuse, they said,

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that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it?

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No, it does not.

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Maybe you have been confronted by people in your life, friends, co-workers, or even family,

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that are trying to get you to see how dysfunctional an area of your life has become.

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I have done this for people over the years.

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Some people call it...

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an intervention. It's a reality check when someone is so deep

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in a lie that their behavior has become dangerous to others or

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themselves. The desired outcome is that the person will wake up

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and see what they are doing and ask for help. And so ladies, I

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want to encourage you that God doesn't he didn't create us to

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live a life filled with fear and anxiety. Okay. So tonight, I

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hope will be kind of like a wake up call for us to wake up to the

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areas where the enemy is tormenting us. And he's trying

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to lead us into these fearful places. When you go through a

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situation where fear and anxiety is present, I want you to kind

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of pause, slow down and ask yourself two things. Number one,

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what are the facts? What are the facts in that situation? Okay.

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Number two, what is true? Okay, a lot of times, you know, again,

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our emotions and our feelings and our bodies kicking into

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gear, but what is the truth? What are the facts and what is

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true, we can overcome fears, the more we heal and become more

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rooted in God's love and faithfulness to us. I want you

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to be thinking about the fact that, you know, if you're if

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you're experiencing all kinds of fear, like I used to also

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have a lot of fear of the dark, massive you all even as a young

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adult would run up the stairs because I was so afraid of the

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dark would run through my kitchen because I had a fear of

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people looking in the windows. And a lot of that was tied back

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to the abuse I went through. And you all I can't tell you how

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many times when I hear ladies go to share and they're like, I

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know this sounds weird, but I used to be that person too. But

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now I don't feel that way. I don't feel shame for the fact

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that I ran from one side of my house to the other because I was

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afraid people were looking in the windows at me. I'm not

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weird. I went through terrible things as a child that I should

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have never gone through. And that caused me to live in fear

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of all kinds of things. But God didn't have that for me. And

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he's healed me and he continues to heal me. And he continues to

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bring me out of that. And he can do the same for you. Are you

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someone who is always waiting for the other shoe to drop? What

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I mean by that is every time something starts to go good in

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your life, you're just waiting bam for that shoe to drop for

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that part that rug to get pulled out from under you that person

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to leave because everybody leaves at some point, right? We

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believe these lies. It's not truth. Not everybody leaves.

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All right. Maybe you're someone who tends to think the worst

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case scenario instead of the best case scenario. When

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something happens, do you believe the worst? Do you

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believe that person's lying to you? Because someone else lied

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to you? Do you believe that, you know, they have it out for you

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that they're never, you know, they don't have anything good in

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mind regarding you. It shows up in all kinds of ways, ladies,

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like maybe you hear a siren and you think something happened

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immediately, your first thought is something happened to a loved

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one. That is the enemy working and bringing fear and panic and

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dread into your spirit. That's what's happening. But a lot of

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times those are tied back to other things in your life and in

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your heart that need healing. Maybe, you know, we live in the

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society now, we text someone, we text them. And what do we expect

460
00:28:40.140 --> 00:28:43.720
now? For the most part, I'm not saying we all do. But a lot of

461
00:28:43.720 --> 00:28:48.340
us, what do we expect? An immediate response, right? I

462
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know y'all can kind of only see it's a little blurry. But um, we

463
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live in this society where there's just there's no patience

464
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anymore for people to respond. And we believe the worst. And

465
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this is what some of the things sound like. If they don't

466
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respond in the timeframe that we have set for them, we have these

467
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expectations immediately as we send that text, whether we

468
00:29:07.420 --> 00:29:10.420
verbalize it or not. If they don't respond in that timeframe,

469
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they're mad at me, they don't care about me. He if it's a guy,

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hopefully not during heartwork. Remember, ladies were pressing

471
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pause on that during heartwork. But maybe it was before

472
00:29:20.920 --> 00:29:24.100
immediately, if it was a guy, he's talking to someone else.

473
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I'm not good enough. I'm not pretty enough. And but like, you

474
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see how they like all this stuff starts to happen in our minds.

475
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And people will get into a panic. One lady I know

476
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literally, will text me. And then I know this because I've

477
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talked to the people that it's happened with. But we'll then if

478
00:29:44.700 --> 00:29:46.860
she doesn't get an immediate response, we'll text someone

479
00:29:46.860 --> 00:29:48.820
else. And then we'll text someone else will text someone

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else. And sometimes they just do it anyways, whether they get a

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response. There's this deep significance that they need to

482
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hear from people in leadership. Y'all that's not healthy.

483
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If that is where we're at, we need to understand that there's something driving us to do those

484
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things. And it's called a hole that can only be filled by God. Our identity is from Him.

485
00:30:13.480 --> 00:30:18.420
If we don't have peace with, if we're not messaging a bunch of people to get their

486
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opinions about something, then we need to do a deeper look on the inside in our heart. And like,

487
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where are we getting our identity? Do we actually believe that the things that we think and say

488
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have value? Because to me, the people that do that, they actually struggle to believe their

489
00:30:38.060 --> 00:30:43.520
own thoughts are worth something. And so they're going to everybody else to get their thoughts or,

490
00:30:44.000 --> 00:30:47.260
you know, something happens with someone and there's this panic mode. And so they,

491
00:30:47.700 --> 00:30:52.400
they feel like they got a message everybody. No, let's step out of that kind of stuff. And again,

492
00:30:53.280 --> 00:30:58.360
if you guys struggle with that, I'm not making fun of it. I understand what drives those people

493
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genuinely. And I hate that to see them go through that, but we have to choose to step

494
00:31:04.240 --> 00:31:11.660
out of those anxious places and like, okay, Lord, I know you have them. And I know you're

495
00:31:11.660 --> 00:31:17.260
going to take care of me. And if I send this text and I don't hear back from them, Lord, Hey,

496
00:31:17.260 --> 00:31:25.100
maybe they're just busy. You know, why is it automatically that they don't like us

497
00:31:25.120 --> 00:31:30.660
or care about us? All right. Let's, let's think about even, hopefully some of y'all are thinking

498
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about ways that that's even happened in your heart and life. And it's also in our posts that

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00:31:36.580 --> 00:31:40.880
people are putting up on social media. You know, we're so driven on the likes, the comments, all

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00:31:40.880 --> 00:31:47.240
the things y'all I've caught myself there as well. So I'm not, I'm not pointing fingers there. I'm

501
00:31:47.240 --> 00:31:57.340
Our kids are dealing with it on a massive level program to think that their popularity or,

502
00:31:57.520 --> 00:32:03.840
you know, instant success is based on these things. First John 4, 18, and the amplified

503
00:32:03.840 --> 00:32:09.760
version says this, there is no fear in love. Dread does not exist, but perfect, complete,

504
00:32:09.940 --> 00:32:16.440
full-grown love drives out fear because fear involves the expectation of divine punishment.

505
00:32:16.440 --> 00:32:23.380
Some other versions say fear, you know, has to do with torment. Right. But this one says

506
00:32:23.380 --> 00:32:29.840
involves the expectation of divine punishment. So the one who is afraid of God's judgment is

507
00:32:29.840 --> 00:32:35.760
not perfected in love, has not grown into a sufficient understanding of God's love.

508
00:32:35.980 --> 00:32:41.720
So if we are constantly in fear, again, I'm not saying we can't have a situation in the moment

509
00:32:41.720 --> 00:32:47.700
that is like, man, that was scary. Okay. We just went through this red light and that was scary.

510
00:32:49.360 --> 00:32:57.860
But if I live and remain and stay in a state of fear, then I am now choosing to live outside of

511
00:32:57.860 --> 00:33:09.940
God's love. Do you see how that works? We're not staying rooted in the love of the father. His

512
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King James version says this, for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son,

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that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. He gave his son because

514
00:33:22.800 --> 00:33:29.360
he loves us and nothing can separate us from his love. Ladies, nothing, not one thing that you go

515
00:33:29.360 --> 00:33:35.880
through, not one fear that you have, not one anxiety that rises up, nothing can separate you

516
00:33:35.880 --> 00:33:42.300
from the love of God in Christ Jesus and through Christ Jesus for you. There's a song called

517
00:33:42.300 --> 00:33:48.540
Fear is a Liar by Zach Williams. I always recommend it when I do this lesson, even if you've heard it

518
00:33:48.540 --> 00:33:54.220
before, I would encourage y'all to listen to it this week, tonight, tomorrow, whenever y'all can.

519
00:33:54.560 --> 00:34:02.860
I am going to read a couple of the lyrics to you because I think it's really effective.

520
00:34:03.420 --> 00:34:09.080
Sorry, I was just getting really dry. Here's what it says, when he told you you're not good enough,

521
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when he told you you're not right, when he told you you're not strong enough to put up a good

522
00:34:14.659 --> 00:34:19.440
fight, when you're told you're not worthy, when he told you you're not loved, when he told you

523
00:34:19.440 --> 00:34:28.380
you're not beautiful, you'll never be enough. Fear, he is a liar. He will take your breath,

524
00:34:28.380 --> 00:34:34.900
stop you in your steps. Fear, he is a liar. He will rob your rest, steal your happiness,

525
00:34:35.699 --> 00:34:41.760
cast your fear in the fire, because fear, he is a liar. When he told you you were troubled,

526
00:34:41.920 --> 00:34:47.460
you'll forever be alone. When he told you you should run away, you'll never find a home. When

527
00:34:47.460 --> 00:34:52.540
he told you you were dirty and you should be ashamed, when he told you you could be the one

528
00:34:52.540 --> 00:34:59.520
that grace could never change. Oh, fear, he is a liar. He will take your breath, stop you in your

529
00:34:59.520 --> 00:34:59.980
steps. Fear, he is a liar. He will rob your rest, steal your happiness, cast your fear in the fire,

530
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Here, he is a liar.

532
00:35:01.800 --> 00:35:04.320
He will rob your rest, steal your happiness,

533
00:35:05.260 --> 00:35:09.280
cast your fear in the fire, because fear, he is a liar.

534
00:35:10.580 --> 00:35:13.180
You know, the Bible talks, ladies, about casting off

535
00:35:13.180 --> 00:35:15.620
every weight that so easily ensnares us

536
00:35:15.620 --> 00:35:18.980
to press on toward the high calling of God for our lives.

537
00:35:19.400 --> 00:35:22.820
And part of those weights that we need to cast off tonight

538
00:35:22.820 --> 00:35:23.520
is fear.

539
00:35:23.860 --> 00:35:26.060
And we need to cast the fear in the fire.

540
00:35:26.060 --> 00:35:28.940
Some of you, you know, you're here,

541
00:35:30.060 --> 00:35:32.020
and you're here for the hard work.

542
00:35:32.360 --> 00:35:35.060
You kind of believe that God has a spirit mate for you,

543
00:35:35.100 --> 00:35:36.440
but you teeter back and forth.

544
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I'm going to tell you one of the biggest things that's

545
00:35:39.200 --> 00:35:41.220
going to help you in your process as you move forward

546
00:35:41.220 --> 00:35:44.840
is to partner with I Believe Help My Unbelief.

547
00:35:44.980 --> 00:35:47.940
If you have areas that you are struggling, God understands.

548
00:35:48.460 --> 00:35:50.740
But let's look at what's fueling the fear.

549
00:35:51.220 --> 00:35:53.400
What is causing the fearful thoughts in you

550
00:35:53.400 --> 00:35:54.400
regarding a spirit mate?

551
00:35:54.400 --> 00:35:56.580
And ladies, I'm telling you, we've

552
00:35:56.580 --> 00:35:58.460
had ladies that have never been married that

553
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are getting married.

554
00:35:59.300 --> 00:36:01.240
We have ladies that have been married multiple times that

555
00:36:01.240 --> 00:36:01.820
are getting married.

556
00:36:02.160 --> 00:36:03.080
We have young ladies.

557
00:36:04.280 --> 00:36:06.460
You know, it doesn't, like, God's

558
00:36:06.460 --> 00:36:07.980
not a respecter of persons.

559
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What God has done for another, he can do for you.

560
00:36:12.580 --> 00:36:15.400
A lot of times, it's us getting in our own way

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and self-sabotaging at times even.

562
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You know, sometimes some of you all

563
00:36:20.200 --> 00:36:22.680
have amazing men that come into your life,

564
00:36:22.680 --> 00:36:25.820
but you don't allow yourself to receive them

565
00:36:25.820 --> 00:36:26.800
because you're scared.

566
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And God wants to help you come out of that.

567
00:36:29.680 --> 00:36:33.080
He's inviting you tonight and in the days ahead

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00:36:33.080 --> 00:36:34.460
to come out of that.

569
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All right?

570
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Hebrews 12.1 says, therefore, since we

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are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses,

572
00:36:40.180 --> 00:36:42.500
let us throw off everything that hinders

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and the sin that so easily entangles us

574
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and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.

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So I'm going to pass it over to Annette at this time.

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She's going to share some fears or anxious things

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00:36:54.780 --> 00:36:56.840
that God has helped her overcome as well.

578
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And then after that, we're going to get

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ready for the breakout session tonight.

580
00:37:01.820 --> 00:37:02.320
OK.

581
00:37:04.020 --> 00:37:06.160
Well, there are multiple that God

582
00:37:06.500 --> 00:37:09.880
has worked on in my heart and in my life

583
00:37:09.880 --> 00:37:11.760
since I came into heart work and some

584
00:37:11.760 --> 00:37:12.920
that he's still working on.

585
00:37:13.360 --> 00:37:16.600
A few things that came to mind as I was thinking

586
00:37:16.600 --> 00:37:17.880
about what I wanted to share.

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00:37:18.800 --> 00:37:21.440
When Bethany is talking about you send a text

588
00:37:21.440 --> 00:37:25.460
or you send an email and crickets,

589
00:37:26.540 --> 00:37:29.620
honestly, sometimes even with my kids and I'll say,

590
00:37:30.900 --> 00:37:34.020
well, I don't think they love me like I love them.

591
00:37:34.160 --> 00:37:36.500
I don't think that they there's thoughts

592
00:37:36.500 --> 00:37:38.340
that come into your head.

593
00:37:38.880 --> 00:37:42.180
And when you stop them in their in their tracks

594
00:37:42.280 --> 00:37:47.940
and replace them with the truth, it really is life changing

595
00:37:47.940 --> 00:37:50.660
because it allows me to, for example,

596
00:37:50.660 --> 00:37:53.520
I had sent an email just last week

597
00:37:53.520 --> 00:37:57.360
and haven't heard anything back from them.

598
00:37:58.040 --> 00:37:59.420
And that's OK.

599
00:37:59.540 --> 00:38:05.020
What I decided is if God has a response for me from them,

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00:38:05.320 --> 00:38:09.460
I'll get it and I'll get it on time because I'll get it

601
00:38:09.460 --> 00:38:13.200
on God's timeline, not my timeline or not my expectation.

602
00:38:13.860 --> 00:38:18.840
And so when I lean into that and step out of the fear

603
00:38:18.840 --> 00:38:21.400
of coming into alignment with the fear or the doubt

604
00:38:21.440 --> 00:38:24.320
or the anxiety around, do they not like me?

605
00:38:24.480 --> 00:38:27.120
Did I say something that maybe offended them?

606
00:38:27.980 --> 00:38:31.120
When I put it back, the ball back in God's court,

607
00:38:31.220 --> 00:38:35.960
so to speak, and just stand on him as my foundation

608
00:38:36.200 --> 00:38:40.380
rather than that person's response, then my trust

609
00:38:40.380 --> 00:38:42.560
and my faith is placed where it needs to be.

610
00:38:42.740 --> 00:38:44.040
It's placed on them.

611
00:38:44.240 --> 00:38:47.700
The other thing that especially when I was in heart work

612
00:38:47.700 --> 00:38:51.880
and and I was dating before we got married,

613
00:38:53.020 --> 00:38:58.260
if there was a community event or something to go to

614
00:38:58.260 --> 00:39:01.900
and I couldn't go, I was like, no, no, it has.

615
00:39:02.320 --> 00:39:05.380
What's going to happen if I'm not there and my spirit mate is there?

616
00:39:06.100 --> 00:39:10.520
And when I also stepped back and thought about the truth

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and something that I still apply even to this day, God knows.

618
00:39:14.140 --> 00:39:16.140
And we've heard Bethany say it.

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00:39:16.140 --> 00:39:17.480
God knows who you are.

620
00:39:18.180 --> 00:39:21.360
God knows where you are and he knows how to get you what you need.

621
00:39:22.800 --> 00:39:27.100
And when I speak that truth over myself.

622
00:39:27.720 --> 00:39:33.880
Over the situations and again, take it back to the truth of God's word.

623
00:39:33.920 --> 00:39:35.120
Him is my foundation.

624
00:39:35.460 --> 00:39:38.900
I will never miss anything that he has for me.

625
00:39:39.040 --> 00:39:42.220
And if I do happen to miss it because.

626
00:39:43.420 --> 00:39:45.020
That can just be me sometimes.

627
00:39:45.820 --> 00:39:50.460
He's always going to get me what I need and what he has for me

628
00:39:50.980 --> 00:39:53.700
and what he calls me to.

629
00:39:54.100 --> 00:39:56.820
He equips me for and it'll happen.

630
00:39:57.260 --> 00:39:59.800
There has been so much freedom that has come for me.

631
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:07.060
In being able to rest in that and trust in that because I trust in him and I trust his

632
00:40:07.060 --> 00:40:10.220
love for me is greater than anything I've ever known.

633
00:40:11.880 --> 00:40:16.320
So, and I want all of you to experience that same level of trust.

634
00:40:17.880 --> 00:40:18.880
So good.

635
00:40:19.220 --> 00:40:21.120
Y'all that's so much truth.

636
00:40:21.120 --> 00:40:25.040
Tuck that away, you know, wrap it up and keep it because you're going to need that in the

637
00:40:25.040 --> 00:40:25.540
future.

638
00:40:26.340 --> 00:40:31.380
The reality is, you know, I've told, uh, told this story a little bit before I wasn't, I

639
00:40:31.380 --> 00:40:32.260
wasn't going to move.

640
00:40:32.320 --> 00:40:37.900
I wanted to stay by my spiritual daughters and that was kind of my heart posture, but

641
00:40:37.900 --> 00:40:41.020
you all, God had a different plan for me.

642
00:40:41.800 --> 00:40:47.760
Brian was four and a half hours away and God brought us together through a means that I

643
00:40:47.760 --> 00:40:48.600
said I would never do.

644
00:40:48.600 --> 00:40:51.940
I said I was never going to get back on dating apps because I had a bad experience.

645
00:40:51.940 --> 00:40:56.620
That's how I met my spiritual fathers or my spiritual daughters, dad, and he was horrible.

646
00:40:56.780 --> 00:41:00.400
And so I just was like, everyone on these are going to be horrible.

647
00:41:01.560 --> 00:41:05.580
Well, God had a plan and he wanted to redeem that.

648
00:41:05.580 --> 00:41:11.980
He wanted to show me something different and he led me to Brian and I'm so grateful that

649
00:41:11.980 --> 00:41:17.620
I surrendered the pen fully to the Lord and I let go of my fears of moving away from my

650
00:41:17.620 --> 00:41:18.000
girls.

651
00:41:18.340 --> 00:41:19.200
It's hard.

652
00:41:19.540 --> 00:41:20.860
Yes, it's super hard.

653
00:41:20.860 --> 00:41:24.080
And now that was only four and a half hours away.

654
00:41:24.080 --> 00:41:26.760
And then God led Brian and I to Florida.

655
00:41:27.140 --> 00:41:31.920
And now we're like many, many hours away, y'all lots of hours.

656
00:41:32.420 --> 00:41:36.920
And so, you know, I'm not saying that that is always going to be like God's plan for

657
00:41:36.920 --> 00:41:37.180
you.

658
00:41:37.220 --> 00:41:43.100
But the reality is, is if I live in fear, I wouldn't follow the Lord into the blessings

659
00:41:43.100 --> 00:41:44.440
that he has for me.

660
00:41:45.020 --> 00:41:50.560
And so for those of you, um, that, you know, you're just really afraid all the time of

661
00:41:50.560 --> 00:41:51.080
these things.

662
00:41:51.560 --> 00:41:58.080
Um, now if you have a, an agreement with, you know, your children's dad, then you, you

663
00:41:58.220 --> 00:42:02.140
unfortunately most of the time, I'm not saying never, cause we, y'all will meet when you

664
00:42:02.140 --> 00:42:03.700
go into phase two, you'll meet Carla.

665
00:42:03.760 --> 00:42:05.060
She's one of our coaches there.

666
00:42:05.420 --> 00:42:10.620
Um, she had an arrangement with the dad of her son and for a long time, didn't think

667
00:42:10.620 --> 00:42:11.500
she was going to be able to move.

668
00:42:11.700 --> 00:42:13.680
But one day, you know what?

669
00:42:13.980 --> 00:42:16.820
God moved on the dad and had him move.

670
00:42:16.820 --> 00:42:21.120
And then when that happened, she was free to move you all.

671
00:42:21.500 --> 00:42:22.280
So things can happen.

672
00:42:22.360 --> 00:42:22.900
You never know.

673
00:42:23.480 --> 00:42:27.340
And so just trust the Lord in the process of your life and your journey.

674
00:42:27.740 --> 00:42:28.100
All right.

675
00:42:28.120 --> 00:42:31.520
So here is your question for the breakout session tonight.

676
00:42:33.260 --> 00:42:33.740
Oh, sorry.

677
00:42:34.140 --> 00:42:39.180
Let me just, you thought if for the breakout session, what fear are you going to ask God

678
00:42:39.180 --> 00:42:40.080
to help you with tonight?

679
00:42:40.560 --> 00:42:41.080
All right.

680
00:42:41.080 --> 00:42:48.320
So as you share this, share it from the positive perspective, you know, not so much, um, from

681
00:42:48.320 --> 00:42:50.320
a fear and trepidation perspective.

682
00:42:50.320 --> 00:42:51.320
Does that make sense?

683
00:42:51.340 --> 00:42:52.300
Everyone where you're sharing?

684
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685
00:42:52.580 --> 00:42:56.820
This is, this is a fear I'm, I've been struggling with, but I'm going to trust God with this.

686
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I'm going to ask God to help me with this.

687
00:42:58.180 --> 00:43:02.120
And you're sharing more from that kind of lighthearted side of things.

688
00:43:02.320 --> 00:43:02.720
All right.

689
00:43:03.720 --> 00:43:04.120
Okay.

690
00:43:04.120 --> 00:43:06.140
So I have the rooms already ready to go.

691
00:43:06.220 --> 00:43:06.620
Go ahead.

692
00:43:06.700 --> 00:43:08.900
I'm going to, those should be up on the screen for you.

693
00:43:09.140 --> 00:43:10.240
Click to join those.

694
00:43:10.240 --> 00:43:14.920
Lisa and iPhone, I will get you situated in a room really quickly here as well.

695
00:43:15.100 --> 00:43:20.540
Just give me a minute to these ladies to get in their rooms because it bounces around a

696
00:43:20.540 --> 00:43:20.540


697
00:43:20.600 --> 00:43:22.220
So I won't be able to do yours yet.

698
00:43:23.560 --> 00:43:25.360
And then I'll do some time of prayer.

699
00:43:25.480 --> 00:43:26.740
It's going to be awesome.

700
00:43:33.880 --> 00:43:34.280
All right.

701
00:43:44.020 --> 00:43:45.220
All right.

702
00:43:45.420 --> 00:43:48.200
Father, thank you so much for everything that you're doing.

703
00:43:48.980 --> 00:43:52.760
God, thank you for the divine conversations that are going to happen in the breakout sessions

704
00:43:52.760 --> 00:43:53.260
tonight.

705
00:43:54.000 --> 00:44:00.800
Thank you that you are revealing areas for healing, that you're helping us to recognize

706
00:44:00.800 --> 00:44:06.140
that the areas and the ways that the enemy kind of at times get his tentacles caught

707
00:44:06.140 --> 00:44:09.620
in us in this fear that just keeps us bound from moving forward.

708
00:44:09.860 --> 00:44:16.100
We thank you God for revealing areas for healing where, Lord, we just don't even know why we're

709
00:44:16.100 --> 00:44:16.520
stuck in.

710
00:44:16.720 --> 00:44:18.100
There's something that we can't see.

711
00:44:18.320 --> 00:44:21.760
So Lord, I thank you that you would bring things out of the rear view mirror, out of

712
00:44:21.760 --> 00:44:27.580
the blind spots and bring those into the forefront so that we can see them, God, that we can

713
00:44:27.580 --> 00:44:33.360
not only see them, but that we can surrender those over to you for revealing, for healing

714
00:44:33.360 --> 00:44:38.260
and to trust God that you are working all things together for good in our lives, that

715
00:44:38.260 --> 00:44:45.880
you are working and moving and you are going to save us from those situations in the sense

716
00:44:45.880 --> 00:44:47.560
that you are going to set us free.

717
00:44:47.580 --> 00:44:53.780
You are going to restore all the broken and fallen places in our lives, God, that you

718
00:44:53.780 --> 00:44:59.900
are going to help us to hear what your spirit is saying, that you are going to lead us into

719
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.420
A land flowing with milk and honey God that we can trust that you have good things in store for us

720
00:45:05.420 --> 00:45:07.440
Lord, I thank you that we would um

721
00:45:08.060 --> 00:45:11.020
I just keep hearing the lord say not go off to the left or the right

722
00:45:11.020 --> 00:45:13.840
But that we would stay on the pathway that you have for us god

723
00:45:13.840 --> 00:45:18.500
I thank you that you would put a guard over our hearts our minds our bodies our spirits and our souls

724
00:45:18.740 --> 00:45:22.680
God that you would help us to take captive every lie of the enemy

725
00:45:22.680 --> 00:45:30.340
And that we would cast those down and believe rather what the word of god is saying about you god about us about other people

726
00:45:30.460 --> 00:45:33.060
God that we would believe the best

727
00:45:33.740 --> 00:45:40.020
God that we would always think the best before we think the worst lord that we would come from a place of being secure

728
00:45:40.020 --> 00:45:41.180
in you father

729
00:45:41.860 --> 00:45:47.140
Yes, lord. I pray that you would help all of these ladies become more secure in their identity in you

730
00:45:47.240 --> 00:45:48.180
every day

731
00:45:48.180 --> 00:45:52.040
God that they would become rooted and grounded in your love

732
00:45:52.040 --> 00:45:59.060
that their roots would grow down deep into the love of the father a fresh revelation of father god and

733
00:45:59.820 --> 00:46:06.160
Papa and daddy and that they would grow in an intimate relationship with you in a fresh way lord

734
00:46:06.160 --> 00:46:10.100
We just know that that brings revelation. It brings truth. It brings freedom

735
00:46:10.100 --> 00:46:16.600
We know that where the spirit of the lord is there is freedom and liberty for the captives and that that is the the truth

736
00:46:16.600 --> 00:46:19.060
Is what sets us free and so lord we just thank you

737
00:46:19.280 --> 00:46:24.500
For leading us into the fullness of your plan emily. Hi, were you having trouble getting into the room?

738
00:46:24.880 --> 00:46:27.440
Uh, no, I was just by myself in the room

739
00:46:27.840 --> 00:46:28.720
Oh, you know what?

740
00:46:28.900 --> 00:46:32.600
I saw the room that you were in and the other lady was there by by herself for a while

741
00:46:32.600 --> 00:46:36.920
I will put you in a different room because I have one room that only has two

742
00:46:38.600 --> 00:46:39.480
ladies, um

743
00:46:40.240 --> 00:46:44.100
Because I had moved her out because I didn't see you joining so I thought maybe you couldn't

744
00:46:44.100 --> 00:46:50.260
Oh, I would yeah, okay. I'll switch you over there right now. You're welcome. Thank you

745
00:46:53.120 --> 00:46:58.420
So lord we just thank you, um also for helping us to just um

746
00:46:59.960 --> 00:47:03.800
Remember that you prepare a table for us in the presence of our enemies and our enemies

747
00:47:04.120 --> 00:47:10.500
Sometimes are things like spirits of fear, you know anxiety spirits of dread spirits of worry

748
00:47:10.500 --> 00:47:17.700
So we thank you jesus by the power of your blood that you you literally bind and break these spirits and you cast

749
00:47:17.720 --> 00:47:21.680
Like cast them into the pit of hell where where they cannot return

750
00:47:21.680 --> 00:47:25.160
And so lord we thank you that you would just work in our lives in this way

751
00:47:25.160 --> 00:47:27.600
And we thank you that you would help us to remember

752
00:47:27.880 --> 00:47:33.840
That by the power of your blood and through the name of jesus that you also lose the spirit of love and of power

753
00:47:33.840 --> 00:47:35.040
and of a sound mind

754
00:47:35.040 --> 00:47:39.300
Over us and into us that we would walk in the the all the fruits of the spirit

755
00:47:39.300 --> 00:47:43.820
And also that we would walk in the spirit of forgiveness and peace and reconciliation

756
00:47:44.240 --> 00:47:46.640
that that would be our lot that we would be

757
00:47:46.760 --> 00:47:52.660
Be people that would walk into the fullness of the plan of god for our lives that we would walk unhindered

758
00:47:53.380 --> 00:47:59.560
I just heard that in my spirit unhindered which means not held back by anything. There wouldn't be even one

759
00:47:59.560 --> 00:48:05.520
Little thing trying to grip us and pull us backwards that in the spirit realm tonight

760
00:48:05.520 --> 00:48:12.960
God is literally severing all of those all of those issues all of those ties and no matter what we think or feel

761
00:48:13.140 --> 00:48:19.600
In jesus name. I declare that god is writing a new story that he's writing a new path that he's doing a new thing

762
00:48:19.600 --> 00:48:26.400
No matter what has happened before that a new thing is springing up. Can we not perceive it? Do we perceive it?

763
00:48:26.400 --> 00:48:31.100
Do we believe it by faith? Do we stand in the gap on behalf of ourselves and our families?

764
00:48:31.980 --> 00:48:37.800
And uh declare god's goodness over us just like years ago. God led me to I am a bride

765
00:48:38.400 --> 00:48:43.480
Declaring and partnering with that not just because I wanted to say it but because god

766
00:48:43.480 --> 00:48:47.060
Gave me an impartation of faith to believe

767
00:48:47.840 --> 00:48:50.240
Supernaturally that I already was

768
00:48:50.400 --> 00:48:51.720
What I wanted

769
00:48:52.200 --> 00:48:55.940
And I had to start seeing that and confess that out. So

770
00:48:56.400 --> 00:48:59.620
Maybe there's something that god is leading you into that

771
00:48:59.620 --> 00:49:06.280
maybe god is asking you to step forward in faith into a new job a new situation and

772
00:49:06.380 --> 00:49:11.580
Seeing ourselves as the fullness of who god called us to be in those dynamics

773
00:49:11.580 --> 00:49:16.400
And to know that god's spirit enables us and equip it and equips us

774
00:49:16.400 --> 00:49:19.880
To do everything that it calls us to and he will give us favor

775
00:49:19.880 --> 00:49:27.320
As we do it as we do the work as unto the lord there will be favor there will be blessing and there will be

776
00:49:29.100 --> 00:49:29.660
um

777
00:49:29.660 --> 00:49:31.020
an abundance of joy

778
00:49:31.440 --> 00:49:35.560
Unspeakable and full of his glory first. John 1 9 says if we confess our sins

779
00:49:35.560 --> 00:49:39.960
He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all

780
00:49:41.360 --> 00:49:41.920
unrighteousness

781
00:49:41.980 --> 00:49:44.840
Ladies tonight and those that are watching the replay

782
00:49:44.840 --> 00:49:49.800
If there is any sin in your heart in your mind in your life, I want to encourage you to

783
00:49:51.220 --> 00:49:52.180
repent to confess

784
00:49:52.520 --> 00:49:58.220
That to the lord and at times if god leads you to you know, confess that into our group

785
00:49:58.400 --> 00:49:59.980
So that that stuff does not

786
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.280
Hold you bound, but you can move forward psalm 51 10. It's one of my favorite scriptures

787
00:50:05.280 --> 00:50:09.900
This is from the new king james version and this is my favorite version of this verse

788
00:50:10.100 --> 00:50:14.060
This is what it says created me a clean heart. Oh god

789
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And renew a steadfast spirit within me

790
00:50:18.460 --> 00:50:22.600
Creating me a clean heart. Oh god and renew a steadfast spirit within me

791
00:50:22.600 --> 00:50:27.060
We can all get clogged up in our heart just like drains can get clogged up

792
00:50:27.060 --> 00:50:32.100
You know a lot of hair gets down in there. Sometimes it gets all clogged up and we got to clean that stuff out

793
00:50:32.100 --> 00:50:36.700
Well the lord and the holy spirit and jesus they're coming into our lives and they just want to you know

794
00:50:36.700 --> 00:50:40.120
Clean all the things out that are never intended to be there

795
00:50:40.720 --> 00:50:46.740
And and make us where the water will just flow freely and we'll be able to experience the fullness of the holy spirit in a fresh

796
00:50:46.760 --> 00:50:47.240
way

797
00:50:47.280 --> 00:50:50.900
Romans 8 28 in the passion translation says this so

798
00:50:51.020 --> 00:50:56.080
We are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually woven together

799
00:50:56.080 --> 00:51:01.560
To fit into god's perfect plan of bringing good into our lives for we are his lovers

800
00:51:01.660 --> 00:51:04.700
Who have been called to fulfill his designed?

801
00:51:05.340 --> 00:51:05.720
purpose

802
00:51:06.620 --> 00:51:10.100
So ladies, let's believe that god is is doing things

803
00:51:10.100 --> 00:51:16.340
He's working behind the scenes whether we can feel it or see it or experience it in every moment

804
00:51:16.680 --> 00:51:23.660
He is doing things. He's shifting things. He's putting you on people's minds that you don't even know yet. He is good

805
00:51:23.660 --> 00:51:27.240
All right, so we're going to partner with that tonight welcome back everybody

806
00:51:27.600 --> 00:51:29.600
Our break I almost said our breakout

807
00:51:30.020 --> 00:51:31.700
um our activation for this week

808
00:51:31.700 --> 00:51:34.480
I want to give that to you before we do the group coaching part

809
00:51:34.480 --> 00:51:37.420
But if you are willing to share with the ladies in the group

810
00:51:37.460 --> 00:51:42.140
What you shared in your private breakout would love for a couple of you to put your hands up tonight

811
00:51:42.760 --> 00:51:45.780
um, I probably will start to like

812
00:51:45.780 --> 00:51:52.280
Monitor how many people raise their hands and just I know i'm kind of gauging how many I can actually get through now

813
00:51:52.840 --> 00:51:59.140
And the amount of time that we have left which is why I tend to go way late and I just want to really start

814
00:51:59.420 --> 00:51:59.860
to

815
00:52:00.020 --> 00:52:04.180
Shift that a little bit. I know I said that last week and the week before and then I kept going

816
00:52:04.380 --> 00:52:10.620
But here's the reality if I do it too long. I start to get tired and I don't want to like coach out of my

817
00:52:11.420 --> 00:52:11.860
um

818
00:52:11.860 --> 00:52:17.160
My flesh I want to really partner with the holy spirit and I want to make sure I don't wear out

819
00:52:17.260 --> 00:52:20.540
By the time the last person goes ladies. Okay, so

820
00:52:21.580 --> 00:52:27.340
We are going to do that here in just one minute the activation for this week is called letting go

821
00:52:27.600 --> 00:52:33.220
It's going to be amazing. So the point of this activation is what are the fears that you're going to let go?

822
00:52:33.560 --> 00:52:36.740
But not only that I don't know if you all know but rasha shana

823
00:52:37.360 --> 00:52:40.460
That started this weekend. I think it's actually today

824
00:52:40.620 --> 00:52:43.140
Yesterday, I forget the exact actual date

825
00:52:43.320 --> 00:52:49.520
But it's it's a letting go of everything in the prior years last year years before

826
00:52:49.520 --> 00:52:53.960
That you're saying. Okay. I'm not taking this into the new year with me

827
00:52:54.400 --> 00:52:56.800
It's not taking me into the new year

828
00:52:57.100 --> 00:53:04.000
I'm letting these things go and so as you're letting it go, I believe in partnering and doing something to activate it

829
00:53:04.000 --> 00:53:09.320
So here are a couple of examples for you. I'm going to share my screen and show you

830
00:53:09.320 --> 00:53:16.300
For this one. I have a picture of another sister in our community. It's um a beloved, uh sister. Yamina

831
00:53:16.620 --> 00:53:19.260
She did what is called our balloon release

832
00:53:20.120 --> 00:53:22.880
So we incur I want to encourage you to get some balloons

833
00:53:23.140 --> 00:53:29.100
Pray about how many hers there were four and there was a reason there were four and there was a reason that she picked blue

834
00:53:30.760 --> 00:53:35.540
And you're going to write for both all of the activations you're going to write on a piece of paper

835
00:53:35.540 --> 00:53:39.160
What it is that god is asking you to let go of so you're praying god

836
00:53:39.160 --> 00:53:41.520
What do you want me to let go of you're writing that out?

837
00:53:41.620 --> 00:53:45.420
And then on the balloon release I kind of encourage you all to rip the paper

838
00:53:45.420 --> 00:53:50.700
Not attach it to your balloons because if you let it go and it lands in your neighbor's yard or something

839
00:53:50.740 --> 00:53:55.440
You know, then they might know something. You don't want them to know. Okay, but um, yeah

840
00:53:55.440 --> 00:53:58.740
So this was very freeing for her. This was something that you know

841
00:53:58.740 --> 00:54:00.240
She did just in march

842
00:54:00.620 --> 00:54:08.100
And god did all kinds of stuff in her the day of as well as many days after and so that's called our balloon release

843
00:54:08.480 --> 00:54:11.580
Another one is to in a safe place

844
00:54:11.580 --> 00:54:19.300
You know you've written out your list and then light that on fire and watch it burn and pray over it as it's burning

845
00:54:19.380 --> 00:54:22.760
And we have a sister. I wish I had her video for you all

846
00:54:23.260 --> 00:54:28.040
But I could not find it in the app. Um, but when she did this she was praying

847
00:54:28.180 --> 00:54:35.120
And she the paper was burning and as she was praying and saying god I released this all of these things into your care

848
00:54:35.120 --> 00:54:40.320
I'm, not kidding you all it was all on video this the wind kind of picked up and just

849
00:54:40.880 --> 00:54:46.320
Like took the ashes of that paper away and it was really really cool. It was all caught on camera

850
00:54:46.320 --> 00:54:53.700
So that was really beautiful. And then this afternoon one of our sisters was saying part of the jewish, you know traditions of what they do

851
00:54:53.900 --> 00:54:59.980
Is they believe in like throwing a rock into the water and if i'm saying this wrong, i'm, sorry, but I this is what

852
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:09.820
I took from what she was saying this afternoon for everything they're releasing their they're throwing a stone into the water or the pond so if somebody knows better how that goes, you can put it in the chat.

853
00:55:09.860 --> 00:55:23.700
But that's a third idea if you're not into the balloon release or the fire lighting the paper on fire, and you could do that as well alright so i'm going to go ahead and start with the coaching Erica had her hand up first so Erica you can go.

854
00:55:26.540 --> 00:55:28.620
hi woman oh.

855
00:55:29.300 --> 00:55:32.340
Wait come on come on computer let's be nice.

856
00:55:34.780 --> 00:55:37.100
it's okay you can't get the camera on you can just talk.

857
00:55:37.760 --> 00:55:40.200
Okay, well, I was eating something i'm so sorry I was just eating.

858
00:55:41.300 --> 00:55:42.340
Okay, so.

859
00:55:44.060 --> 00:55:54.620
i'm sorry something that I was thinking about for myself, specifically it's I fear so much about timing and when Annette was talking it really brought me home right.

860
00:55:55.620 --> 00:56:10.860
I have so much fear about when god's going to bring my person, how long it's going to take how I can do and i'm learning i'm learning and i'm being humbled in each and every single way.

861
00:56:12.560 --> 00:56:20.140
But I pray that I get over the fear of wanting to control.

862
00:56:21.240 --> 00:56:36.800
If that makes Ali, please stop, thank you, like I just went to a Bible study for the first time on Tuesday and the whole thing was talking about the fruits of the spirit right the fruits and the roots, it was an ax i'm pretty sure.

863
00:56:37.700 --> 00:56:42.920
Anyway, I was just thinking in my head wow that's really connecting to what i'm doing here and wow.

864
00:56:44.680 --> 00:56:49.320
I need to just not control and I pray about it all the time and it's so hard.

865
00:56:49.920 --> 00:56:58.980
Yes, yes, and you're not alone, I mean there's a lot of ladies who else can relate raise your hand if you can relate to Erica on this.

866
00:56:59.600 --> 00:57:10.980
Anyone else struggle with fear of control or trying to figure it out, or know all the answers y'all it's very common, and so I just want you to know you're in good company Erica there you go, I see you.

867
00:57:11.380 --> 00:57:14.680
Hello, and that's the thing I feel like.

868
00:57:15.080 --> 00:57:16.640
We I cut you off i'm sorry.

869
00:57:17.040 --> 00:57:17.880
You know it's okay go ahead.

870
00:57:18.560 --> 00:57:30.760
I feel like, and you guys can tell me if you're wrong or like if you felt as well, so the devil does certain things to block you like, for example, first off i've taught on zoom I don't know why I couldn't get my camera on that just like something like.

871
00:57:31.900 --> 00:57:45.020
But also when I was trying to get to that Bible study on Tuesday right it literally was like two blocks away from where I used to teach, but it took me an hour and a half to get there, the map quite literally put the directions in the wrong place.

872
00:57:45.020 --> 00:57:52.020
And I was just about to be like Lord maybe you want me to go home because i've been driving around for 45 minutes and this place just isn't here it's just not.

873
00:57:53.180 --> 00:58:02.160
And once I said I bind to rebuke you Satan go away go away the map changed on the like on iPhone and i'm from New York so i'm pretty good with directions.

874
00:58:03.200 --> 00:58:03.640
yeah.

875
00:58:04.480 --> 00:58:05.180
So I.

876
00:58:05.780 --> 00:58:06.820
yeah go ahead.

877
00:58:07.820 --> 00:58:26.820
So I just don't understand, and maybe it's a me controlling thing maybe I should just looked at it, but I know that's something I don't like timing, I just want to meet them and when it doesn't come in my way man i'm humbled one and two I think I I don't know.

878
00:58:26.820 --> 00:58:50.260
Well, and this is part of you know when when we put up that permission slip and we fill that out and we've hanged that up and we pray that every day it's a reminder that we are choosing to surrender daily we're choosing to surrender sometimes yeah moment by moment because God's plan is always better it's always better and.

879
00:58:50.260 --> 00:59:04.180
And when we have a fear of how is God going to bring them when is he going to bring them let's let's go back to the revealing for healing cycle, where is that coming from is it just that we struggle with timing.

880
00:59:05.580 --> 00:59:18.020
Or is it insecurity or a lack of believing that God will actually provide inside of us, you know we're yeah we're we're looking at okay God do I really believe that you're good.

881
00:59:18.580 --> 00:59:21.400
Do I really believe that you're good to me.

882
00:59:22.840 --> 00:59:32.500
You know and we're really unpacking those heart boxes and the things that are living inside of there from the past and and ladies sometimes you know.

883
00:59:32.600 --> 00:59:39.120
i'm just going to tell you, sometimes it takes a couple times through the heart work, because some of you have so many layers.

884
00:59:39.680 --> 00:59:59.980
And it doesn't mean that you have to stay here forever you guys can continue to do heart work, as you move forward you're going to continue to do it in every phase, some of you are going to feel led to stay here longer than five weeks, because there are so many things you're working through there, and that is totally okay, but you know again surrendering reading that prayer.

885
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:07.680
over yourself, um, asking the Lord to reveal the root of, you know, the lie potentially

886
01:00:07.680 --> 01:00:12.500
that God doesn't come through for you or trusting that God will be good to you.

887
01:00:12.500 --> 01:00:15.240
And let's see where that, that takes you this week.

888
01:00:15.380 --> 01:00:15.900
Okay.

889
01:00:15.960 --> 01:00:17.180
Another question quick.

890
01:00:17.180 --> 01:00:18.980
And then you could tell me like, cut it off.

891
01:00:19.820 --> 01:00:22.800
Um, I feel like sometimes I get so busy.

892
01:00:23.040 --> 01:00:27.180
I forget to work through this or pray for this every single day.

893
01:00:27.180 --> 01:00:31.220
This has probably been the busiest year of my school career ever, which doesn't make

894
01:00:31.220 --> 01:00:31.820
it an excuse.

895
01:00:31.940 --> 01:00:37.160
And I know that's a devil distraction and I'll like write it on my agenda, but then

896
01:00:37.460 --> 01:00:41.780
I have slides to make or a test to make or an assessment to make or like app.

897
01:00:41.780 --> 01:00:45.540
How do I focus on that besides my ADHD?

898
01:00:46.740 --> 01:00:51.400
Like for me, I, that's why I print things out and I hang them up.

899
01:00:51.400 --> 01:00:57.080
Like I, for me personally, if there's something I'm really wanting to pray over myself, like

900
01:00:57.080 --> 01:01:02.800
one of my big prayers that I partnered with a lot before I met Brian and in my healing

901
01:01:02.800 --> 01:01:09.740
process was I come out of agreement with independence and come into agreement with interdependence

902
01:01:09.740 --> 01:01:10.440
on you, God.

903
01:01:10.440 --> 01:01:13.940
And that was something that Jackie said that really resonated in my spirit.

904
01:01:14.120 --> 01:01:19.260
And I put that on a post-it note and I hung it up in my bathroom because every morning

905
01:01:19.260 --> 01:01:21.120
I get ready for work.

906
01:01:21.120 --> 01:01:23.880
And so I'm in my bathroom or, you know, to go to the bathroom.

907
01:01:23.880 --> 01:01:29.180
And so I would see that there all the time versus like putting it on my phone.

908
01:01:29.380 --> 01:01:32.640
I mean, there's, yeah, I get on my phone a lot, but there's so many other things.

909
01:01:33.080 --> 01:01:37.580
Sometimes I'll actually get on my phone to do work and then I get distracted because

910
01:01:37.580 --> 01:01:39.920
there's other notifications, social media.

911
01:01:40.260 --> 01:01:44.960
And so I think the same thing, be careful and not saying don't use your phone for the

912
01:01:44.960 --> 01:01:49.000
hard work or these reminders, but it might be better, especially if you are someone that

913
01:01:49.060 --> 01:01:55.800
does get distracted by things to put it up on a piece of paper or a post-it note or something

914
01:01:56.040 --> 01:01:57.160
in your bathroom.

915
01:01:57.200 --> 01:02:01.960
Or I also tend to do it by my sink where I wash dishes or things like that.

916
01:02:02.180 --> 01:02:02.660
Yeah.

917
01:02:02.760 --> 01:02:04.900
So I would try something like that, Erica.

918
01:02:05.700 --> 01:02:06.180
Okay.

919
01:02:06.180 --> 01:02:06.780
Thank you.

920
01:02:07.020 --> 01:02:07.360
You're welcome.

921
01:02:07.820 --> 01:02:08.520
Thank you for sharing.

922
01:02:08.920 --> 01:02:09.440
You're welcome.

923
01:02:11.100 --> 01:02:12.060
Tatiana, go ahead.

924
01:02:13.020 --> 01:02:13.500
Okay.

925
01:02:13.500 --> 01:02:18.120
First of all, me and Erica were in the same breakout and I love how expressive you are.

926
01:02:18.120 --> 01:02:18.980
I love how you talk.

927
01:02:19.420 --> 01:02:24.060
Like I could just listen to you talk forever, but, okay.

928
01:02:24.080 --> 01:02:29.620
So I had put this in, I had put this in like a post.

929
01:02:29.720 --> 01:02:34.920
I had made a post about this a while ago that I had a professor in one of the classes I'm

930
01:02:34.920 --> 01:02:42.240
taking right now and that the atmosphere in that room just felt very dark and it kind

931
01:02:42.240 --> 01:02:44.100
of just like threw me off.

932
01:02:44.100 --> 01:02:54.840
And I was at the point in the heart work where like I like emotionally felt very just light

933
01:02:56.100 --> 01:02:59.320
and I feel like I'm a big feeler.

934
01:02:59.940 --> 01:03:04.460
And so then going into that atmosphere, it just like, it was heavy.

935
01:03:04.960 --> 01:03:15.020
And I feel like I, I got scared that it was going to somehow knock my progress because

936
01:03:15.020 --> 01:03:17.240
I have to be in that class for the rest of the semester.

937
01:03:17.260 --> 01:03:20.180
And I don't know if I'm going to have that teacher again in the future.

938
01:03:21.820 --> 01:03:27.360
And so I just got scared because I was like, well, is like, is this it?

939
01:03:27.360 --> 01:03:30.880
Like, is it just going to feel like this for until December?

940
01:03:32.860 --> 01:03:34.940
And, and then I just got discouraged.

941
01:03:35.400 --> 01:03:40.280
And I feel like I haven't felt like that lightness that I had before.

942
01:03:40.600 --> 01:03:42.160
And it just makes me sad.

943
01:03:42.420 --> 01:03:47.480
And I feel like this is a, like a pattern I've seen in my life.

944
01:03:47.540 --> 01:03:54.000
Like if something feels too big for me to handle, I'm just like, oh, okay, that's, that's it then.

945
01:03:57.140 --> 01:04:02.160
I think some, some of this Tatiana will come with time, genuinely.

946
01:04:03.240 --> 01:04:07.980
You know, one of the things that I remember chatting with you about before is some of

947
01:04:07.980 --> 01:04:10.200
the things you're facing are like generational.

948
01:04:10.520 --> 01:04:15.040
It's not just you as it's things that have come down through your family line.

949
01:04:15.080 --> 01:04:21.140
And so even though you're talking about this professor in the class, this pattern that

950
01:04:21.140 --> 01:04:25.920
you're starting to recognize, I feel like God is using that even though it didn't feel good.

951
01:04:25.920 --> 01:04:32.380
He's using it to reveal some things to you where you might go into a situation or environment

952
01:04:32.380 --> 01:04:36.980
or how you said, if something feels too big or overwhelming that these kind of things

953
01:04:36.980 --> 01:04:38.560
get triggered in you.

954
01:04:38.860 --> 01:04:44.840
And so I want to encourage you to, there's several scriptures that talk about, you know,

955
01:04:44.840 --> 01:04:50.440
not only Jesus being the light of the world, but how he's called us to be a light and how

956
01:04:50.440 --> 01:04:54.420
if there is darkness, the reality is this.

957
01:04:54.980 --> 01:04:58.120
As soon as the light enters the room, it has to flee.

958
01:04:58.660 --> 01:04:59.980
Now, sometimes.

959
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.460
We are still gonna feel that if you are a feeler,

960
01:05:02.620 --> 01:05:06.320
if you walk in discernment or any kind of those giftings,

961
01:05:06.320 --> 01:05:07.320
you might feel it,

962
01:05:07.320 --> 01:05:09.900
but the reality is we don't need to be afraid.

963
01:05:10.200 --> 01:05:12.580
We're on the offensive, we're not on the defensive.

964
01:05:13.020 --> 01:05:15.580
And so where we recognize

965
01:05:15.580 --> 01:05:18.100
that we're fighting from victory, not for it.

966
01:05:18.200 --> 01:05:19.860
Jesus died to give you victory

967
01:05:19.860 --> 01:05:22.320
over whatever it is that you feel in that room.

968
01:05:22.440 --> 01:05:24.380
And again, I'm not saying it's easy,

969
01:05:24.680 --> 01:05:27.060
but the reality is the same power

970
01:05:27.060 --> 01:05:30.420
that rose Jesus Christ from the dead is living in you.

971
01:05:30.900 --> 01:05:33.640
And so when you walk into that room,

972
01:05:34.820 --> 01:05:37.920
things have to shift, they have to,

973
01:05:38.600 --> 01:05:40.460
because you're carrying that power with you.

974
01:05:40.680 --> 01:05:42.440
And so I would encourage you,

975
01:05:43.540 --> 01:05:47.100
you might even feel led to go in that room and pray one day,

976
01:05:47.280 --> 01:05:48.480
just not that, you know,

977
01:05:48.720 --> 01:05:51.560
I used to do that kind of stuff you all years ago,

978
01:05:51.580 --> 01:05:52.640
I haven't thought about this

979
01:05:52.640 --> 01:05:53.980
or talked about this in a long time,

980
01:05:53.980 --> 01:05:57.360
but I was having all kinds of problems at my job.

981
01:05:58.660 --> 01:06:00.480
A lot of like women just kind of bickering

982
01:06:00.480 --> 01:06:03.160
and kind of backstabbing stuff and it just wasn't good.

983
01:06:03.520 --> 01:06:06.160
And so I decided, like I prayed

984
01:06:06.160 --> 01:06:09.940
and God led me to go to work early before people came

985
01:06:10.180 --> 01:06:13.480
and just walk around the office and pray over the cubicles.

986
01:06:13.640 --> 01:06:14.680
And that's what I did.

987
01:06:15.060 --> 01:06:17.180
And I didn't tell people I was doing it.

988
01:06:17.520 --> 01:06:20.320
I just prayed quietly, but I was praying

989
01:06:20.320 --> 01:06:22.280
and I was declaring things over people

990
01:06:22.280 --> 01:06:25.200
that like sat in those cubes and praying over the people

991
01:06:25.200 --> 01:06:27.920
for them to be saved and all kinds of stuff.

992
01:06:27.920 --> 01:06:32.100
And so there's a movie called Facing the Giants.

993
01:06:32.220 --> 01:06:32.940
It's a Christian movie.

994
01:06:33.020 --> 01:06:34.080
I don't know if you've ever seen it,

995
01:06:34.080 --> 01:06:37.420
but there's an old man that was walking in this movie,

996
01:06:37.620 --> 01:06:41.060
praying over the lockers that the kids, you know, would use.

997
01:06:41.200 --> 01:06:42.880
And that comes to mind as well.

998
01:06:42.920 --> 01:06:45.440
And so I'm not saying that that is possible

999
01:06:45.440 --> 01:06:47.340
in your school situation,

1000
01:06:48.260 --> 01:06:51.140
but maybe it is praying for that professor,

1001
01:06:51.140 --> 01:06:53.440
praying for people in the room before you go in,

1002
01:06:53.440 --> 01:06:54.680
putting on the armor of God.

1003
01:06:54.880 --> 01:06:57.880
Always, ladies, if we go into rooms and spaces

1004
01:06:57.880 --> 01:06:59.180
where we feel that way,

1005
01:06:59.180 --> 01:07:02.880
we need to make sure we have the armor of God on.

1006
01:07:03.180 --> 01:07:05.620
So praying that Ephesians six over yourself

1007
01:07:05.620 --> 01:07:06.900
and you're going into that room

1008
01:07:06.900 --> 01:07:10.040
covered in the armor of God, declaring that over yourself,

1009
01:07:10.580 --> 01:07:12.840
knowing that God has already gone before you

1010
01:07:12.840 --> 01:07:14.000
into that classroom.

1011
01:07:14.220 --> 01:07:16.680
And so basically what I'm saying is

1012
01:07:17.380 --> 01:07:19.980
you're gonna have to talk to your spirit here.

1013
01:07:19.980 --> 01:07:22.880
Okay, so like David talked to his spirit.

1014
01:07:22.920 --> 01:07:23.800
Why are you downcast?

1015
01:07:23.960 --> 01:07:25.100
Oh, my soul, hope in the Lord.

1016
01:07:25.260 --> 01:07:29.500
There's times where we actually have to talk to our spirit

1017
01:07:29.500 --> 01:07:32.060
and get our spirit to line up with the truth

1018
01:07:32.060 --> 01:07:34.740
of the power of Jesus Christ and who he is

1019
01:07:34.740 --> 01:07:36.880
and what he's enabling us to do.

1020
01:07:37.080 --> 01:07:40.440
And because you're overcoming some of these things before,

1021
01:07:40.560 --> 01:07:42.560
it doesn't mean you won't feel that lightness.

1022
01:07:42.580 --> 01:07:43.800
The lightness that you were feeling,

1023
01:07:43.820 --> 01:07:46.500
if I remember that came after you forgave your dad.

1024
01:07:46.500 --> 01:07:51.700
And so I want to encourage you to forgive this professor

1025
01:07:51.700 --> 01:07:55.780
because I know he said some things that caused some of this,

1026
01:07:56.260 --> 01:07:57.880
if I remember correctly from your post.

1027
01:07:58.500 --> 01:08:01.200
And so I would say even do a forgiveness prayer sheet,

1028
01:08:01.840 --> 01:08:02.620
forgive this professor

1029
01:08:03.000 --> 01:08:05.240
because I don't think he knows what he's doing.

1030
01:08:05.340 --> 01:08:08.540
I don't think he knows the level of his impact fully.

1031
01:08:08.820 --> 01:08:10.820
And remember people that are deceived

1032
01:08:10.820 --> 01:08:13.160
do deceiving kind of things, okay?

1033
01:08:13.360 --> 01:08:14.940
And they say things that are not healthy.

1034
01:08:14.940 --> 01:08:17.359
And so I hope that's helpful for you.

1035
01:08:17.580 --> 01:08:19.760
I believe that you're gonna overcome this.

1036
01:08:19.939 --> 01:08:22.200
I don't, I think that you're gonna break this pattern.

1037
01:08:22.600 --> 01:08:25.399
You've been called to be a kinsman redeemer in your family.

1038
01:08:25.399 --> 01:08:28.000
I have no doubt about that for you.

1039
01:08:28.140 --> 01:08:29.880
I believe that for everyone in here,

1040
01:08:30.100 --> 01:08:33.680
but Tatiana, I even, I responded on one of your things.

1041
01:08:33.760 --> 01:08:35.580
I heard a prayer that you prayed on Saturday

1042
01:08:35.580 --> 01:08:40.200
and I was like, ooh, God is working in her and I can tell.

1043
01:08:40.500 --> 01:08:42.520
And so I want you to stand in the authority

1044
01:08:42.520 --> 01:08:46.319
God has given you, confess those things,

1045
01:08:46.819 --> 01:08:48.660
declare those things and walk in.

1046
01:08:48.779 --> 01:08:50.520
If you're already secure in the Lord

1047
01:08:50.520 --> 01:08:53.540
before you walk in that room, you might feel that stuff,

1048
01:08:54.000 --> 01:08:57.680
but it most likely will not cause you to kind of back down

1049
01:08:57.680 --> 01:09:00.479
or cower down in fear on the inside.

1050
01:09:00.779 --> 01:09:01.680
Does that make sense?

1051
01:09:02.200 --> 01:09:02.520
Yeah.

1052
01:09:02.720 --> 01:09:06.340
Yeah, you've got this and we're gonna be praying for you,

1053
01:09:07.399 --> 01:09:10.720
but also ask the Lord if there's any wounds

1054
01:09:10.720 --> 01:09:13.020
that need healed that are getting triggered

1055
01:09:13.680 --> 01:09:16.520
by this environment and this person as well.

1056
01:09:16.880 --> 01:09:19.840
Because this is a guy in leadership, as I was saying,

1057
01:09:20.279 --> 01:09:22.979
authority over you, so there could be some connections

1058
01:09:23.460 --> 01:09:25.220
there regarding that.

1059
01:09:25.660 --> 01:09:25.859
Okay.

1060
01:09:26.600 --> 01:09:28.279
Yeah, thank you for sharing.

1061
01:09:28.859 --> 01:09:29.660
Thank you so much.

1062
01:09:31.700 --> 01:09:32.460
Hilda, go ahead.

1063
01:09:39.180 --> 01:09:39.760
Hi.

1064
01:09:39.760 --> 01:09:40.460
Hi, Bethany.

1065
01:09:40.880 --> 01:09:41.240
Hi.

1066
01:09:41.740 --> 01:09:42.279
How are you doing?

1067
01:09:43.100 --> 01:09:46.060
So I don't know if this is like a fear, I guess,

1068
01:09:47.640 --> 01:09:51.880
but I don't know, I just kind of not like

1069
01:09:53.600 --> 01:09:55.280
fully feeling like in limbo.

1070
01:09:55.820 --> 01:09:58.700
And so there's fear of uncertainty,

1071
01:09:58.700 --> 01:09:59.980
like when is...

1072
01:10:02.500 --> 01:10:09.540
what do you call it, dating, relationships, getting out there.

1073
01:10:10.340 --> 01:10:19.900
I went and put my first profile out and I went to meet with this person and then they

1074
01:10:19.900 --> 01:10:26.240
just disappeared and ghosted and it just pretty much re-triggered everything again, like the

1075
01:10:26.550 --> 01:10:37.390
not moving forward. I haven't done anything. I froze after that and so I've just been very

1076
01:10:38.210 --> 01:10:44.850
discouraged and it's also at work too because I don't see the needle moving.

1077
01:10:48.050 --> 01:10:55.290
My birthday's this week and so I am blessed. I'm happy for another birthday. I'm healthy,

1078
01:10:55.290 --> 01:11:02.570
thank God. I'm going to celebrate with some friends this week, but it still bothers me,

1079
01:11:02.890 --> 01:11:06.970
so I don't know if you have anything that you can share to help me.

1080
01:11:07.330 --> 01:11:11.290
Remind me, Hilda, are you in phase two right now? Are you here in heartwork?

1081
01:11:12.610 --> 01:11:17.290
I finished. I see the phase two.

1082
01:11:19.370 --> 01:11:19.650
Yeah.

1083
01:11:19.950 --> 01:11:24.210
That's okay. I'm asking for clarity just because you were mentioning about

1084
01:11:24.210 --> 01:11:29.670
your dating profile and that might confuse some of the ladies, so I know that sometimes

1085
01:11:29.670 --> 01:11:36.890
we have ladies. We can come back and do heartwork. It's totally fine, but I just want to make sure

1086
01:11:37.290 --> 01:11:41.730
that if you're all finished with heartwork, that's totally fine that you've moved into that,

1087
01:11:43.110 --> 01:11:48.290
but ladies, this is where even I've said before that a lot of times even trying to step into

1088
01:11:48.350 --> 01:11:53.130
dating is going to bring things to the surface for revealing, for healing, and so

1089
01:11:53.770 --> 01:11:58.610
I would encourage you, you know, like you started talking to this person and then they ghosted you,

1090
01:11:58.890 --> 01:12:04.650
like asking the Lord, like, what is the fear? What's the fear that got surfaced there?

1091
01:12:05.190 --> 01:12:11.190
Is it just that you're not moving forward or is there another lie that you were hearing?

1092
01:12:12.750 --> 01:12:20.430
Yeah, I think what happened was that everything sounded, you know, you're talking about

1093
01:12:20.430 --> 01:12:26.410
scripture and you're speaking, you know, he was praying and doing all this stuff and then all of

1094
01:12:26.410 --> 01:12:31.510
a sudden they just disappear, so I'm like, it's like, so my thing, my idea was like,

1095
01:12:32.190 --> 01:12:39.050
are there really any really truthful, godly men, like spiritual partners that

1096
01:12:39.050 --> 01:12:46.770
really are healed or what do you call it, you know, are safe, right? Like they're,

1097
01:12:47.730 --> 01:12:54.310
they say what they really are and they are, you know, is it, so I think that's what it is,

1098
01:12:54.330 --> 01:13:00.630
it's like the disappointment of like not having, like I'm trying not to have the spirit of scarcity

1099
01:13:00.790 --> 01:13:06.190
but I've struggled a lot with the spirit of scarcity because I just don't see a lot of,

1100
01:13:07.590 --> 01:13:13.890
so then I've always, you know, that's kind of like I've been, you know, that was kind of like

1101
01:13:13.890 --> 01:13:19.430
the core of heart work was that spirit of orphan spirit, yeah. Yeah, and that's very telling about

1102
01:13:19.430 --> 01:13:24.030
even the thing that you're saying about work and so to me, even though you've already done a lot

1103
01:13:24.030 --> 01:13:32.250
of heart work about that as you went through this journey about the spirit of scarcity and lack and

1104
01:13:32.890 --> 01:13:38.270
getting to the core of that is going to be key for you and not only getting to the core of the

1105
01:13:38.270 --> 01:13:50.490
lie but understanding that God literally has blessings waiting for you but part of the things

1106
01:13:50.490 --> 01:13:57.590
that have to happen is we have to get in alignment to receive them and so one of the things God did

1107
01:13:57.590 --> 01:14:03.550
in me before I started receiving the blessings that he had for me is I had a vision board that

1108
01:14:03.550 --> 01:14:12.870
literally on it, I had felt led in the year prior, there was this area and this door was open and it

1109
01:14:12.870 --> 01:14:18.330
was in my God area and one day I was praying over the board and God said to me, my door

1110
01:14:18.330 --> 01:14:28.490
is always open to you and when he said that to me, you know, I had to face the reality that there

1111
01:14:28.490 --> 01:14:33.590
were times that I actually before that thought that there were times that God was not accessible

1112
01:14:33.590 --> 01:14:39.910
for me, that his blessings weren't accessible to me and that God wasn't going to come through for

1113
01:14:39.910 --> 01:14:44.210
me. There were things that were still sitting under the surface in the layers of my heart deep

1114
01:14:44.210 --> 01:14:51.790
in there subconsciously that were surfacing because that was a time when I was, I mean,

1115
01:14:51.790 --> 01:14:56.610
I was working a lot of jobs but I was helping my spiritual daughters a lot and, you know,

1116
01:14:56.930 --> 01:14:59.890
there were times where I was doing for them.

1117
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:10.900
And then maybe didn't have money for all the groceries I needed because I was trying to make sure that they were taken care of because their dad wasn't filling the house with groceries and they didn't have food that they needed.

1118
01:15:11.160 --> 01:15:28.680
And so there were times where I just didn't understand, but the more that I looked at that and prayed about it, it was really core things from childhood that I still was believing that on some level, I felt like I was on the outside trying to reach in.

1119
01:15:28.680 --> 01:15:34.260
Like I was on the outside of this gate and God was on the other side and I was locked out.

1120
01:15:34.620 --> 01:15:36.420
That was actually what was in my heart.

1121
01:15:37.000 --> 01:15:38.580
But that isn't the truth.

1122
01:15:38.640 --> 01:15:40.040
I was not locked out.

1123
01:15:41.360 --> 01:15:49.580
And then what I started having was God started changing that vision and I saw it changed one day and the gate was open.

1124
01:15:51.220 --> 01:15:58.160
Not only was that picture on my vision board, but God was speaking to me and he shifted the way I was looking at something in my heart.

1125
01:15:58.560 --> 01:16:05.240
And then when I realized the gate was open, the reality was all I had to do was come in.

1126
01:16:06.380 --> 01:16:11.280
And I know that might sound really simple to some of you, but it was a big shift for me.

1127
01:16:11.480 --> 01:16:15.600
Like knowing that God wasn't blocking me out.

1128
01:16:15.600 --> 01:16:23.220
He wasn't like, oh, here I am with all my other people, blessing all of them and you just get the scraps, Bethany.

1129
01:16:24.480 --> 01:16:30.580
That isn't who God is, but that is what I was believing when I really was honest with myself.

1130
01:16:30.580 --> 01:16:43.060
And so the more that I let those things go and believe what God was telling me, that he's a good dad and he is always available to me and that his door is always open to me.

1131
01:16:43.580 --> 01:16:47.960
That I can come in and I can talk to him and he hears me and he cares.

1132
01:16:48.180 --> 01:16:51.840
And not only that, but that he wants to answer me.

1133
01:16:52.480 --> 01:16:54.260
He wants to bless me.

1134
01:16:54.280 --> 01:16:55.780
He wants to bless you.

1135
01:16:57.080 --> 01:16:58.960
That started changing everything.

1136
01:16:59.160 --> 01:17:08.080
And I will say to you, the shift for me also was instead of saying, are there really any good men out there?

1137
01:17:08.720 --> 01:17:20.420
To God, thank you so much that you are raising up men of honor that walk in all the fruits of the spirit every day and that you're going to lead me to my spirit mate who walks in the fruits of the spirit too.

1138
01:17:20.620 --> 01:17:23.820
And I just, I shifted out of these begging prayers.

1139
01:17:24.200 --> 01:17:25.460
God, please do this.

1140
01:17:25.460 --> 01:17:26.440
God, please do that.

1141
01:17:26.700 --> 01:17:27.420
Are there any of this?

1142
01:17:27.640 --> 01:17:35.840
Are there any, you know, where we literally are begging and pleading for God to do something that he already said in his word he would do.

1143
01:17:36.440 --> 01:17:42.380
So I started praying, God, thank you for sending good men my way on the apps.

1144
01:17:42.480 --> 01:17:46.080
God, thank you for helping me have a good encounter with a new friend.

1145
01:17:46.180 --> 01:17:48.820
And I just started thanking God for this stuff.

1146
01:17:49.060 --> 01:17:52.040
And that was another big change for me too.

1147
01:17:52.040 --> 01:17:53.460
And so I want to encourage you.

1148
01:17:53.740 --> 01:17:56.680
I know it's hard, but take the lies.

1149
01:17:56.760 --> 01:17:59.100
So you ended up saying, are there really any good men?

1150
01:17:59.720 --> 01:18:03.440
Take that and flip it and start writing declarations.

1151
01:18:03.620 --> 01:18:11.940
And like I said to Erica, put those up where you can see them and really start meditating on the truth that God is good and he's good to you.

1152
01:18:12.420 --> 01:18:15.760
He is excited to bless you with a healthy spirit mate.

1153
01:18:15.760 --> 01:18:24.740
And ladies, I said this afternoon, you know, we have to have a spirit where we're not just like, and I don't mean this like that.

1154
01:18:24.740 --> 01:18:26.020
You are just quick to give up.

1155
01:18:26.300 --> 01:18:33.240
But I'm saying this over everyone that we, we are, you know, the Bible says, set our faces like Flint.

1156
01:18:34.180 --> 01:18:36.860
Like that, we won't give up on our promise just like that.

1157
01:18:36.880 --> 01:18:38.720
When one guy goes to us, guess what?

1158
01:18:38.760 --> 01:18:42.080
Your God defended that guy might've been a smooth talker.

1159
01:18:42.080 --> 01:18:43.400
He might've been a love bomber.

1160
01:18:43.400 --> 01:18:47.220
We don't know, but God was protecting you and defending you.

1161
01:18:47.740 --> 01:18:52.620
And that's the truth, but it's whether or not we believe that.

1162
01:18:53.340 --> 01:18:54.760
Does that make sense everyone?

1163
01:18:55.820 --> 01:18:57.240
Yeah, that makes, yeah, that makes sense.

1164
01:18:57.320 --> 01:18:58.700
I think I, that's what I was doing.

1165
01:18:58.740 --> 01:19:02.380
It's just kind of like, I feel like I'm like exactly what you said.

1166
01:19:02.440 --> 01:19:05.620
Like just the, the, the pleading and the begging.

1167
01:19:05.620 --> 01:19:10.600
And it's like, it's like the energy, it's like so much energy towards that.

1168
01:19:10.600 --> 01:19:12.860
I'm like, then I pushed, then I do the opposite.

1169
01:19:13.140 --> 01:19:15.160
I'll just, then I'll just push completely away.

1170
01:19:15.160 --> 01:19:17.600
And then I'm like, then I feel how I feel.

1171
01:19:18.140 --> 01:19:19.600
Yeah, because what's happening.

1172
01:19:19.660 --> 01:19:20.540
I love this.

1173
01:19:20.640 --> 01:19:24.560
I love that you just said that because ladies hear what she just said.

1174
01:19:24.760 --> 01:19:28.180
When something like this happens, she's pulling back.

1175
01:19:28.260 --> 01:19:30.260
Well, what's happening when we do that?

1176
01:19:31.100 --> 01:19:32.180
We're disengaging.

1177
01:19:34.640 --> 01:19:37.940
We're disengaging and we're isolating and we're pulling back.

1178
01:19:37.940 --> 01:19:43.080
When actually what we need to do is say, okay, well, if he wasn't my spirit mate,

1179
01:19:43.080 --> 01:19:44.060
thank you so much.

1180
01:19:44.160 --> 01:19:47.940
I'm one step closer to my spirit mate and we keep moving forward.

1181
01:19:48.680 --> 01:19:51.220
We stay engaged and you all discouragement.

1182
01:19:51.220 --> 01:19:52.820
I'm going to tell you, it's going to come.

1183
01:19:53.100 --> 01:19:54.120
I promise you.

1184
01:19:54.680 --> 01:19:58.180
But when it comes, know who you're standing in.

1185
01:19:58.180 --> 01:19:59.360
Who is your strength?

1186
01:19:59.440 --> 01:19:59.980
Who is your.

1187
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:04.920
defender, who is your provider? Is God good? Is he always good?

1188
01:20:05.440 --> 01:20:08.840
Or only some of the times good? I mean, the more that we really

1189
01:20:08.840 --> 01:20:12.660
believe that he is good, I'm telling you it like it's a game

1190
01:20:12.580 --> 01:20:17.040
changer. God rewriting the story on the inside of our hearts that

1191
01:20:17.040 --> 01:20:21.920
we tell ourselves it and here when something negative happens

1192
01:20:21.940 --> 01:20:26.000
is is gonna change everything. It'll change trajectory, truly.

1193
01:20:26.680 --> 01:20:33.580
And so instead of scarcity, I want you to also Hilda and

1194
01:20:33.580 --> 01:20:36.860
anyone else that this is speaking to. I've been given

1195
01:20:36.860 --> 01:20:39.300
these assignments and has been helping people break through. So

1196
01:20:39.300 --> 01:20:41.920
I'm just going to give some more of them. But Hilda and anyone

1197
01:20:41.920 --> 01:20:45.200
else this is resonating with take an eight and a half by 11

1198
01:20:45.200 --> 01:20:49.020
sheet of paper. And instead of scarcity, what I want you to do

1199
01:20:49.020 --> 01:20:52.200
is I want you to ask God to show you what abundance looks like in

1200
01:20:52.200 --> 01:20:55.900
your life. Okay. And then I want you to start putting phrases and

1201
01:20:55.900 --> 01:20:59.200
pictures on this eight and a half by 11 of what abundance for

1202
01:20:59.200 --> 01:21:02.400
a Hilda looks like. So maybe there's pictures of stuff that

1203
01:21:02.400 --> 01:21:05.920
you have always wanted to go do, that you've kind of said, I

1204
01:21:05.920 --> 01:21:08.120
can't go do them because I don't have money, or I don't have this

1205
01:21:08.120 --> 01:21:10.700
or I don't have the time, whatever, whatever comes up in

1206
01:21:10.700 --> 01:21:13.020
your spirit that you just started. And if you want to do a

1207
01:21:13.020 --> 01:21:15.280
bigger sheet of paper, you can, but I just want you to at least

1208
01:21:15.280 --> 01:21:18.720
start with an eight and a half by 11. And like, literally, like

1209
01:21:18.720 --> 01:21:21.640
even pray like God, what are some phrases that are the

1210
01:21:21.640 --> 01:21:23.940
opposite of scarcity bit partnering with abundance, you

1211
01:21:24.060 --> 01:21:26.800
know, there might be scriptures, but just where you

1212
01:21:26.800 --> 01:21:31.440
start to like, maybe it's a woman laughing, and she's

1213
01:21:31.440 --> 01:21:34.620
balloons, and she looks free, or, you know, again, I'm just

1214
01:21:34.620 --> 01:21:38.240
trying to plant some seeds, but where you put that up, and you

1215
01:21:38.240 --> 01:21:41.180
look at that, and you you partner with that, that is your

1216
01:21:41.300 --> 01:21:45.560
life. Abundance is your life, the good, good life is Hilda's

1217
01:21:45.560 --> 01:21:50.920
life, not scarcity, not lack, not scraps. And the more you

1218
01:21:50.920 --> 01:21:53.920
partner with the good is available to you, and that is

1219
01:21:53.920 --> 01:21:56.600
your life, that is your lot, the more you're going to move

1220
01:21:57.140 --> 01:21:58.180
towards that.

1221
01:21:58.980 --> 01:22:00.160
Amen. Thank you.

1222
01:22:00.400 --> 01:22:03.560
Yeah, you're welcome. Ladies limiting belief systems, man,

1223
01:22:03.560 --> 01:22:06.780
they creep in through the things that we go through. It's so

1224
01:22:06.780 --> 01:22:11.560
common. It's so common. And so if you have belief systems that

1225
01:22:11.560 --> 01:22:16.540
you're living into that are limiting, like you hear a lot of

1226
01:22:16.540 --> 01:22:18.420
times, you're never going to be able to do this, you're never

1227
01:22:18.420 --> 01:22:20.500
going to be able to break through this is never going to

1228
01:22:20.500 --> 01:22:23.760
happen for you. Those are some of those kind of limiting

1229
01:22:23.760 --> 01:22:26.920
belief mindsets, but there's a lot of other ones. So just

1230
01:22:26.920 --> 01:22:30.460
really, again, catching the thoughts, taking them captive,

1231
01:22:30.920 --> 01:22:34.300
making them be obedient to Jesus Christ, but also living and

1232
01:22:34.300 --> 01:22:37.200
walking it out by activating it. Hilda, thank you for sharing

1233
01:22:37.200 --> 01:22:40.240
with us and letting us hear about kind of how you're doing.

1234
01:22:40.860 --> 01:22:43.060
Thank you. You're welcome. God bless you.

1235
01:22:44.300 --> 01:22:45.420
Gaston, go ahead.

1236
01:22:47.480 --> 01:22:54.320
Um, so mine is kind of similar a little bit, but I'm just with

1237
01:22:54.320 --> 01:23:01.100
the sense of lack. Over the weekend, I rent a room with

1238
01:23:01.100 --> 01:23:05.420
someone and they decided that I'm not paying enough and they

1239
01:23:05.420 --> 01:23:08.520
want to increase all this costs and stuff. And it's been a lot

1240
01:23:08.520 --> 01:23:13.280
of tension and the enemy has been really using this

1241
01:23:13.280 --> 01:23:19.680
relationship to really attack me. And I've been trying to come

1242
01:23:19.680 --> 01:23:22.940
at it and see them through a spiritual lens. And not being

1243
01:23:22.940 --> 01:23:25.820
like this person is this, this, this and this. But this is how

1244
01:23:25.820 --> 01:23:33.100
the enemy is coming at it. And it's been really hard because I

1245
01:23:33.100 --> 01:23:38.220
don't have the financial means to be able to do it. And so I'm

1246
01:23:38.220 --> 01:23:43.820
just struggling with like, just not being able to provide for

1247
01:23:43.700 --> 01:23:49.300
myself. And the big thing I've been really trying to claim is

1248
01:23:49.300 --> 01:23:55.140
just that God is my defender, my protector and my provider. And

1249
01:23:55.140 --> 01:23:59.320
I'm really trying to like, come at this in a spiritual sense and

1250
01:23:59.320 --> 01:24:04.680
not trying to like get caught up in all the emotions or like, get

1251
01:24:04.680 --> 01:24:09.180
super angry or, you know, cuss out the person or stuff like

1252
01:24:09.180 --> 01:24:14.020
that. But just to like, I've been even praying that God will

1253
01:24:14.020 --> 01:24:19.740
bless my roommate, even though that's really hard to do. So for

1254
01:24:19.740 --> 01:24:24.200
me, it's just like, finances is just a really big burden right

1255
01:24:24.200 --> 01:24:24.560
now.

1256
01:24:25.060 --> 01:24:28.380
Yeah. Well, Megan, thank you for sharing with us. I'm so sorry to

1257
01:24:28.380 --> 01:24:33.580
hear that that's happening. One of the things I do feel led to

1258
01:24:33.580 --> 01:24:33.580


1259
01:24:33.580 --> 01:24:34.960
what to say. But I just want to ask you, when is the first time

1260
01:24:34.960 --> 01:24:38.640
in your life that you struggled financially or your family? Like

1261
01:24:38.640 --> 01:24:40.880
when's the first time you remember ever?

1262
01:24:46.340 --> 01:24:51.780
Really? I was born into like poverty. My parents are really

1263
01:24:52.280 --> 01:24:55.720
okay now like they do very well for themselves. But when I when

1264
01:24:55.720 --> 01:24:58.460
they were starting out when I was born, I'm the oldest of

1265
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.900
were in a lot of poverty and lived with my grandparents for a

1266
01:25:04.900 --> 01:25:11.160
while. And it wasn't until I was about like, I'd say, eight or

1267
01:25:11.160 --> 01:25:16.820
nine, the things started to turn around for my family. But I

1268
01:25:16.820 --> 01:25:21.120
mean, I remember what it was like, in the poverty and such,

1269
01:25:21.220 --> 01:25:25.300
but they're not in that place now. But I have found that since

1270
01:25:25.300 --> 01:25:31.720
I moved to where I live now, I have faced a lot of poverty. And

1271
01:25:31.720 --> 01:25:35.240
it's been a lot struggle financially, in this place that

1272
01:25:35.240 --> 01:25:37.380
I'm in, too. So for me,

1273
01:25:37.820 --> 01:25:40.900
yeah, what are the lies that tend to surface for you? Like

1274
01:25:40.900 --> 01:25:43.600
when this happened? I know that you're saying that sense of

1275
01:25:43.600 --> 01:25:46.540
lack and you were explaining, but what were the lies that you

1276
01:25:46.540 --> 01:25:48.580
were hearing when this happened?

1277
01:25:49.820 --> 01:25:57.200
That I'm gonna be like homeless, that I can't get out. That I'm

1278
01:25:57.200 --> 01:26:01.240
like stuck in this toxic relationship and environment.

1279
01:26:03.100 --> 01:26:04.920
And just like, there's no way out.

1280
01:26:05.620 --> 01:26:10.920
Okay, I think that one's really resonating, no way out. So I'm

1281
01:26:10.920 --> 01:26:16.240
just curious, do you remember as a kid, like hearing things that

1282
01:26:16.240 --> 01:26:19.860
your parents said about money or like, I know, they're doing

1283
01:26:19.880 --> 01:26:22.440
better. And I started doing better when you were around

1284
01:26:22.440 --> 01:26:25.200
eight or nine. But you had a lot of formative years where you

1285
01:26:25.200 --> 01:26:29.060
might have been hearing things financially. So I'm just

1286
01:26:29.060 --> 01:26:32.580
curious, do you recall things that your parents said about

1287
01:26:32.580 --> 01:26:33.880
money or anything like that?

1288
01:26:35.240 --> 01:26:39.260
Not during that time? No, it would have been more like after

1289
01:26:39.260 --> 01:26:47.880
the fact. But just like, this may be some actions and stuff.

1290
01:26:47.880 --> 01:26:50.900
There's like one memory that always comes up is that when I

1291
01:26:50.900 --> 01:26:54.760
was a little girl, I was sick and my mom had to go pick up my

1292
01:26:54.760 --> 01:26:57.980
sister from school. So she left me home alone and I was still

1293
01:26:57.960 --> 01:27:02.320
asleep. Because they only had one car, my dad took the car. And

1294
01:27:02.480 --> 01:27:07.260
so I woke up petrified because I was all alone and I didn't know

1295
01:27:07.260 --> 01:27:08.200
where my mom was.

1296
01:27:09.000 --> 01:27:12.700
And so I came outside. And I was like crying on the street. So

1297
01:27:12.700 --> 01:27:16.880
when she came home, she was super embarrassed because I was

1298
01:27:17.480 --> 01:27:22.280
like, hyperventilating crying because I was abandoned. And she

1299
01:27:22.280 --> 01:27:26.980
just thought that was ridiculous when she felt she told me that

1300
01:27:26.980 --> 01:27:30.260
I you know, she was away, but I was only like five or six and

1301
01:27:30.260 --> 01:27:33.660
also had a high fever. So you know, you have that delirium

1302
01:27:33.660 --> 01:27:37.680
stuff going on. But that memory always comes up a lot.

1303
01:27:38.480 --> 01:27:43.060
Yeah, well, I will say this, okay. It's normal for a five or

1304
01:27:43.060 --> 01:27:45.820
six year old to be afraid if they wake up and no one's home.

1305
01:27:46.380 --> 01:27:51.360
Okay. So I understand if your mom, like had to do that, no

1306
01:27:51.400 --> 01:27:56.580
shame on on that decision. But I want you to feel validated and

1307
01:27:56.580 --> 01:28:01.760
what you felt. And that is normal to feel afraid when

1308
01:28:01.760 --> 01:28:04.500
something like that happens. But you said something really

1309
01:28:04.500 --> 01:28:09.820
key there. You said I felt abandoned. And I think that's

1310
01:28:09.820 --> 01:28:13.720
connecting to that I can't get out no way out. Those feel

1311
01:28:13.720 --> 01:28:16.800
connected in my spirit when I'm hearing you kind of share and

1312
01:28:16.800 --> 01:28:22.000
talk tonight. And so when we believe there's no way out, we

1313
01:28:22.000 --> 01:28:25.320
can't get out, it is truly at the core, we actually feel

1314
01:28:25.620 --> 01:28:31.360
abandonment, we feel neglect. And so um, have you ever done a

1315
01:28:31.360 --> 01:28:34.540
forgiveness prayer sheet for to forgive your mom for leaving you

1316
01:28:34.540 --> 01:28:39.120
home alone that day? Okay, cool. That's awesome. And I do want

1317
01:28:39.120 --> 01:28:42.680
you to pray more into this abandonment stuff to make sure

1318
01:28:42.680 --> 01:28:45.960
that that's still not underneath the surface. I'm connecting

1319
01:28:46.220 --> 01:28:50.740
with, um, you know, is it that you believe somewhere

1320
01:28:51.120 --> 01:28:54.420
subconsciously that God has abandoned you and there's like,

1321
01:28:54.420 --> 01:28:58.480
there's no way out because God isn't providing a way out. And

1322
01:28:58.480 --> 01:29:01.320
so let's just make sure you know, you're praying into that

1323
01:29:01.420 --> 01:29:05.620
and see what God might reveal to you through it about just where

1324
01:29:05.620 --> 01:29:11.040
your heart is at regarding his provision in general, not just

1325
01:29:11.040 --> 01:29:16.020
money, but his provision for your life. Um, but we you know,

1326
01:29:16.060 --> 01:29:19.740
we'll definitely I'll pray over people's finances. If I

1327
01:29:19.740 --> 01:29:22.220
remember if I forget, I'm so sorry, I'll say that in advance

1328
01:29:22.220 --> 01:29:24.700
because sometimes I say those things and then I log off and

1329
01:29:24.700 --> 01:29:28.200
then like, Oh, I said I was gonna do that. But I will try to

1330
01:29:28.200 --> 01:29:30.780
remember to pray over your all's finances. I know a lot of

1331
01:29:30.780 --> 01:29:34.300
people face that. One of the things I will say is that

1332
01:29:35.100 --> 01:29:39.660
Jackie, she was one of the first people that I ever heard say

1333
01:29:41.580 --> 01:29:45.580
that finances and doing like struggling all the time in our

1334
01:29:45.580 --> 01:29:50.160
finances is actually connected to heart issues. And I remember

1335
01:29:50.160 --> 01:29:54.440
like, whoa, like, huh, and started praying into that for

1336
01:29:54.440 --> 01:29:57.220
myself. And that's when I really started discovering all the

1337
01:29:57.220 --> 01:29:59.580
limiting belief systems and orphan mentalities that I'm

1338
01:29:59.580 --> 01:29:59.900
talking

1339
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:05.700
you all about tonight. And so while this is a really tough

1340
01:30:06.220 --> 01:30:09.120
situation, I believe it's going to reveal some additional things

1341
01:30:09.120 --> 01:30:11.340
for healing, but we're going to believe for we're going to

1342
01:30:11.340 --> 01:30:15.080
believe for provision for you as well. But be praying into those

1343
01:30:15.080 --> 01:30:17.620
couple things. And I look forward to hearing how it goes.

1344
01:30:17.560 --> 01:30:22.200
Okay. Thank you. Appreciate it. You're welcome. Renee, go ahead.

1345
01:30:25.740 --> 01:30:28.340
So I was trying to figure out what fears and something that

1346
01:30:28.380 --> 01:30:36.400
popped into my head was work. So I have this fear, maybe it's, I

1347
01:30:36.400 --> 01:30:40.400
guess, imposter syndrome or something, or I think I

1348
01:30:40.400 --> 01:30:42.920
shouldn't be there. I don't know enough, but I have the type of

1349
01:30:42.920 --> 01:30:47.760
job where you have to kind of test in. It's, it's, it's these

1350
01:30:47.760 --> 01:30:50.760
two series of tests, just to give you a background, where

1351
01:30:50.760 --> 01:30:54.480
they're like eight months, seven months long that you have to

1352
01:30:54.660 --> 01:30:59.840
pass in order to get to this particular level. And I passed

1353
01:30:59.840 --> 01:31:03.000
the test. And it's been years since I passed the test. And

1354
01:31:03.000 --> 01:31:06.840
still, when I go into the room, when I take my seat at the

1355
01:31:06.840 --> 01:31:10.700
table, I feel not confident. I don't want to say anything. I'm

1356
01:31:10.700 --> 01:31:14.640
afraid to say anything because I'll be wrong. I'm afraid I'll

1357
01:31:14.640 --> 01:31:18.300
make a mistake or something. And this happens in work. And it

1358
01:31:18.300 --> 01:31:22.380
also happens in, I have a side travel business. It's the same

1359
01:31:22.380 --> 01:31:25.180
thing. Every time I'm booking for a client, a client, I get

1360
01:31:25.180 --> 01:31:29.000
very fearful. Am I doing it right? Am I, am I going to make

1361
01:31:29.000 --> 01:31:31.920
a mistake? If I make a mistake, and then I'm, you know, judging

1362
01:31:32.000 --> 01:31:36.920
myself or, and it's really strong. I mean, I'm and then I

1363
01:31:36.920 --> 01:31:40.740
purposely put myself into positions at work that will help

1364
01:31:40.740 --> 01:31:46.260
me to grow or do something more. And then I then I just retreat.

1365
01:31:47.320 --> 01:31:51.380
Okay, so let me ask you this. Did you ever? Did you ever

1366
01:31:51.380 --> 01:31:54.320
experience like fearful things at the dinner table?

1367
01:31:57.160 --> 01:31:58.040
I can't remember.

1368
01:31:58.500 --> 01:32:01.180
Okay, I just wanted to see if there was any connection there.

1369
01:32:01.180 --> 01:32:04.480
Because some people when they go to sit at dinner, when they're

1370
01:32:04.480 --> 01:32:08.960
growing up, if their dad was domineering, and like, you know,

1371
01:32:09.120 --> 01:32:11.560
people couldn't talk at the table. And like, you know,

1372
01:32:11.660 --> 01:32:14.040
sometimes mental, you know, if they're not in a healthy

1373
01:32:14.220 --> 01:32:16.520
masculine, they'll pound on the table, and they'll scream at

1374
01:32:16.520 --> 01:32:18.980
people and that kind of thing. So I'm going to make I wanted to

1375
01:32:18.980 --> 01:32:21.300
make sure that wasn't a connection for you.

1376
01:32:21.900 --> 01:32:24.640
Let me just say this, my father was like, eat everything on your

1377
01:32:24.640 --> 01:32:27.380
plate, and you're not getting out. Is that what you're

1378
01:32:27.380 --> 01:32:27.700
talking about?

1379
01:32:28.260 --> 01:32:32.420
Well, that can be a part of it, too. You know, what you said was

1380
01:32:32.840 --> 01:32:36.240
really kind of stood out to me when I take my seat at the

1381
01:32:36.240 --> 01:32:38.540
table. Now that can be any table, like you're saying you

1382
01:32:38.540 --> 01:32:42.640
can do like even when you try to do the arrangements for the

1383
01:32:42.640 --> 01:32:47.840
travel, but I just thought that was a very poignant way to say

1384
01:32:47.840 --> 01:32:54.320
what you were saying. But one of the things for me, I used to

1385
01:32:54.320 --> 01:32:57.420
work in a company that was wealth and trust management, so

1386
01:32:57.420 --> 01:33:01.160
a lot of people that had high net worth. And I can remember

1387
01:33:01.160 --> 01:33:04.980
when we would have client events in the beginning, I would walk

1388
01:33:04.980 --> 01:33:09.740
into the room and feel out of place, insecure. But the

1389
01:33:09.740 --> 01:33:12.420
reality is kind of like what you're saying, I had the job

1390
01:33:12.420 --> 01:33:16.340
because I was capable. I was capable to work there. And I did

1391
01:33:16.340 --> 01:33:19.840
a good job. I was very good at talking to people, I just had to

1392
01:33:19.840 --> 01:33:24.780
press through. But I got tired of that feeling on the inside. I

1393
01:33:24.780 --> 01:33:27.080
didn't want to walk into the room with that feeling anymore.

1394
01:33:27.620 --> 01:33:32.180
And so part of it is that I believed I didn't belong there

1395
01:33:32.180 --> 01:33:37.680
in my mind before I went into the room. And so if you believe

1396
01:33:37.680 --> 01:33:40.140
even though you've passed the test in your mind, which

1397
01:33:40.140 --> 01:33:43.980
remember, the mind is connected to the heart, that you're not

1398
01:33:43.980 --> 01:33:47.100
actually qualified to be there, even though you've taken the

1399
01:33:48.460 --> 01:33:51.380
test, then you're going to walk into the room with that

1400
01:33:51.500 --> 01:33:54.560
insecurity kind of sitting on your shoulder, and it's going to

1401
01:33:54.560 --> 01:33:58.380
be there. And so I would encourage you to ask the Lord,

1402
01:33:58.620 --> 01:34:02.700
you know, there's a level of maybe a fear of not being

1403
01:34:02.700 --> 01:34:05.400
perfect, a fear of messing up. And you know, you're kind of

1404
01:34:05.400 --> 01:34:08.740
saying that a fear of making a mistake or something. You know,

1405
01:34:08.800 --> 01:34:13.060
why? Think about two, why do you not speak when you get in

1406
01:34:13.060 --> 01:34:15.220
there? Is it because you're afraid that if you say

1407
01:34:15.440 --> 01:34:18.100
something, that someone's gonna say it's not good enough,

1408
01:34:18.240 --> 01:34:21.260
someone's gonna make fun of you? Like, what are the fears that

1409
01:34:21.520 --> 01:34:24.440
you're internally hearing and thinking that are keeping you

1410
01:34:24.440 --> 01:34:27.740
from actually making, you know, a statement when you're in the

1411
01:34:27.740 --> 01:34:36.120
room and really owning the spot that you earned to be there? You

1412
01:34:36.120 --> 01:34:39.220
know what I'm saying? And so looking at internally, what is

1413
01:34:39.220 --> 01:34:43.540
it that is driving you to, again, that disengage comes up

1414
01:34:43.540 --> 01:34:46.740
in my spirit, like, where we're pulling back ladies in a

1415
01:34:47.480 --> 01:34:51.160
situation even even when we've earned our opportunity to be

1416
01:34:50.940 --> 01:34:59.320
there. So God had me, like some of the things I started doing

1417
01:34:59.320 --> 01:34:59.980
was

1418
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.300
as I'm practicing being around people that had money.

1419
01:35:05.440 --> 01:35:07.600
I started dressing a little differently,

1420
01:35:07.760 --> 01:35:09.720
so I felt more confident in my clothes.

1421
01:35:10.380 --> 01:35:13.480
Not like, it wasn't like I was spending tons of money,

1422
01:35:13.600 --> 01:35:16.660
but even that, I felt better.

1423
01:35:16.940 --> 01:35:20.120
But the reality is, is I had to do the work on the inside.

1424
01:35:20.380 --> 01:35:21.520
That was the key.

1425
01:35:22.500 --> 01:35:23.300
And so-

1426
01:35:23.300 --> 01:35:23.580
Yeah, go ahead.

1427
01:35:23.580 --> 01:35:24.240
I'm sorry to interrupt.

1428
01:35:24.320 --> 01:35:25.380
There was one instance,

1429
01:35:25.420 --> 01:35:27.200
and I think it kind of stems from this.

1430
01:35:27.200 --> 01:35:30.660
I took a job that I knew I wasn't really qualified for.

1431
01:35:31.700 --> 01:35:32.480
And it really-

1432
01:35:33.820 --> 01:35:34.300
When was it?

1433
01:35:34.680 --> 01:35:34.980
Yeah.

1434
01:35:35.800 --> 01:35:37.620
This was like 1999.

1435
01:35:38.320 --> 01:35:38.660
Okay.

1436
01:35:38.780 --> 01:35:42.280
And I was not, I was just out of like undergrad a few years.

1437
01:35:43.020 --> 01:35:46.300
And I thought I was able to do the job going in,

1438
01:35:46.340 --> 01:35:48.240
but then I realized I couldn't do the job.

1439
01:35:48.240 --> 01:35:50.520
And it kind of just blew up, you know, the people,

1440
01:35:50.720 --> 01:35:52.880
it was like all this, you know, the people,

1441
01:35:53.220 --> 01:35:55.940
it was a position where I was kind of over people

1442
01:35:55.940 --> 01:35:56.560
a little bit.

1443
01:35:56.560 --> 01:36:00.000
And so I did not, I just really didn't, I wasn't for it.

1444
01:36:00.020 --> 01:36:00.960
I'm just being honest.

1445
01:36:01.020 --> 01:36:03.020
I wasn't ready and I took the job anyway.

1446
01:36:03.240 --> 01:36:04.720
And it just kind of blew up.

1447
01:36:04.860 --> 01:36:08.560
It was, you know, I was talked about, it was, you know,

1448
01:36:08.780 --> 01:36:11.460
whatever, it was a lot of things around it

1449
01:36:11.460 --> 01:36:14.760
and very hurtful, very hurtful experience.

1450
01:36:15.440 --> 01:36:16.660
I'm wondering too,

1451
01:36:16.660 --> 01:36:19.440
cause that just popped into my head as you were talking.

1452
01:36:19.680 --> 01:36:21.680
And I said, I think that has something,

1453
01:36:22.120 --> 01:36:23.800
may have something to do with it.

1454
01:36:23.800 --> 01:36:25.020
Oh, I would agree with that.

1455
01:36:25.020 --> 01:36:26.560
And I think here, ladies,

1456
01:36:26.560 --> 01:36:27.980
this is why it's so important to talk

1457
01:36:27.980 --> 01:36:28.860
some of these things through.

1458
01:36:29.100 --> 01:36:31.440
I think doing forgiveness prayer sheets to forgive people

1459
01:36:31.440 --> 01:36:32.720
that said things about you,

1460
01:36:33.080 --> 01:36:35.720
to forgive yourself for taking the job.

1461
01:36:35.720 --> 01:36:37.580
If you weren't, didn't feel really ready,

1462
01:36:38.280 --> 01:36:40.220
but you know, here's the reality.

1463
01:36:40.380 --> 01:36:42.800
I'm not saying you made a wrong decision, okay.

1464
01:36:43.040 --> 01:36:45.360
But maybe the fear started to kick in

1465
01:36:45.360 --> 01:36:47.720
once you got in there and that caused a lot of shutdown,

1466
01:36:48.300 --> 01:36:49.640
you know, and if you were already feeling

1467
01:36:49.640 --> 01:36:52.360
like you weren't sure that could have like coupled with that

1468
01:36:52.360 --> 01:36:55.680
but, you know, because you're saying,

1469
01:36:56.860 --> 01:36:58.360
like when you describe that,

1470
01:36:58.940 --> 01:37:00.740
I really shouldn't have taken the job.

1471
01:37:01.020 --> 01:37:03.160
So maybe there is some forgiving yourself

1472
01:37:03.160 --> 01:37:04.900
that will help release you.

1473
01:37:06.360 --> 01:37:09.680
And knowing like what I wrote down is, you know,

1474
01:37:09.680 --> 01:37:13.920
a lot of times what will happen is we will internally

1475
01:37:14.200 --> 01:37:16.520
and subconsciously believe the lie

1476
01:37:16.740 --> 01:37:20.360
that this current job is gonna have the same outcome

1477
01:37:20.360 --> 01:37:21.340
as the other job.

1478
01:37:22.360 --> 01:37:24.320
Because in that job, you're saying,

1479
01:37:24.840 --> 01:37:27.820
I wasn't fully equipped and I went into that

1480
01:37:27.820 --> 01:37:29.760
and then this bad thing happened.

1481
01:37:29.920 --> 01:37:32.180
And so now even though you're qualified

1482
01:37:32.180 --> 01:37:34.140
and you took these tests and you're there,

1483
01:37:34.520 --> 01:37:37.100
your internal like psyche is telling you,

1484
01:37:37.260 --> 01:37:38.860
you're not qualified, you're not qualified.

1485
01:37:39.040 --> 01:37:40.620
You're not, you know, you're not good enough.

1486
01:37:40.680 --> 01:37:43.500
They're gonna say things and it's gonna be bad.

1487
01:37:43.720 --> 01:37:47.500
And so it's overcoming those lies from the past

1488
01:37:47.500 --> 01:37:49.680
and knowing that you're a different person now

1489
01:37:49.680 --> 01:37:52.220
and you can stand with your head high,

1490
01:37:52.780 --> 01:37:54.620
your shoulders back and be confident

1491
01:37:54.620 --> 01:37:56.760
and stand in who God has, you know,

1492
01:37:56.760 --> 01:37:58.080
created you to be in this job.

1493
01:37:58.740 --> 01:38:00.340
But forgiving those people,

1494
01:38:00.660 --> 01:38:01.880
healing from that past situation,

1495
01:38:01.880 --> 01:38:04.020
I do think will be really important to you.

1496
01:38:04.360 --> 01:38:07.280
And I think that's why it came up tonight, for sure.

1497
01:38:08.900 --> 01:38:09.120
Yeah.

1498
01:38:09.480 --> 01:38:10.200
Thank you.

1499
01:38:10.620 --> 01:38:11.040
You're welcome.

1500
01:38:11.240 --> 01:38:12.100
Thank you for sharing.

1501
01:38:12.920 --> 01:38:13.600
Damaris, go ahead.

1502
01:38:18.060 --> 01:38:20.420
And ladies, just before Damaris starts to share,

1503
01:38:20.580 --> 01:38:21.480
I know we're at 938.

1504
01:38:21.740 --> 01:38:23.240
So if anyone needs to jump off,

1505
01:38:23.720 --> 01:38:25.060
I wanna say, God bless you.

1506
01:38:25.200 --> 01:38:26.300
I hope you have a great night.

1507
01:38:26.380 --> 01:38:28.580
I am gonna let Damaris share and Rachel

1508
01:38:28.580 --> 01:38:30.940
and then we will close down for the night, okay?

1509
01:38:32.140 --> 01:38:33.080
Damaris, go ahead.

1510
01:38:34.660 --> 01:38:35.040
Yeah.

1511
01:38:36.380 --> 01:38:41.600
I was sharing one of the fears that I have

1512
01:38:42.580 --> 01:38:43.580
about, you know, like, you know,

1513
01:38:43.580 --> 01:38:51.240
like with a spirit mate is that I won't find someone that,

1514
01:38:53.180 --> 01:38:55.220
you know, with my expectations, you know,

1515
01:38:55.300 --> 01:39:02.700
I do pray about how Jackie told us about changing her palate

1516
01:39:02.720 --> 01:39:05.080
and stuff like that.

1517
01:39:06.360 --> 01:39:13.340
But, you know, I have some things that I am attracted to.

1518
01:39:13.580 --> 01:39:15.020
Some other things I'm not.

1519
01:39:15.200 --> 01:39:19.780
And also another thing is that I noticed that sometimes

1520
01:39:19.780 --> 01:39:24.720
I attract guys that are not doing really well financially.

1521
01:39:26.480 --> 01:39:29.340
And I know that with my ex-husband,

1522
01:39:29.580 --> 01:39:32.820
I struggled financially because he had debts,

1523
01:39:33.220 --> 01:39:35.440
child support for years that he never paid

1524
01:39:35.440 --> 01:39:38.300
because he was irresponsible.

1525
01:39:39.440 --> 01:39:41.800
And so it affected me.

1526
01:39:42.780 --> 01:39:45.280
It affected me because I was married to him.

1527
01:39:46.280 --> 01:39:50.480
And I'm, that's one, maybe it's one of my good things,

1528
01:39:50.740 --> 01:39:52.660
strength that I'm good about budgeting.

1529
01:39:53.060 --> 01:39:55.200
And, you know, I don't have a lot,

1530
01:39:55.460 --> 01:39:57.760
but I don't like to have debts.

1531
01:39:58.680 --> 01:39:59.980
And so I'm good.

1532
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:08.760
good about paying those things, you know, and I don't want that. I, I, like, I'm refusing

1533
01:40:08.760 --> 01:40:15.380
to be in that kind of relationship. Or, you know, at this stage of my life, I want someone

1534
01:40:15.380 --> 01:40:26.020
that is financially well, you know, and that like I had this ex boyfriend, you know, a

1535
01:40:26.020 --> 01:40:30.980
few years ago. And he, you know, I never felt like even though he treated me for dinner,

1536
01:40:31.160 --> 01:40:39.300
you know, stuff like that. If I have to see, I have to check or order something that he

1537
01:40:39.300 --> 01:40:43.980
was like, inexpensive because of comments that he will make. He never told me not to

1538
01:40:44.000 --> 01:40:50.860
get, you know, he always told me to get whatever I want, but that way he was and about money

1539
01:40:50.860 --> 01:40:56.440
and things like that. Or maybe, maybe today we should eat at home. You know, it's like,

1540
01:40:56.440 --> 01:41:02.080
I felt like I was limited. Like I always have to look at the price and I'm tired of looking

1541
01:41:02.080 --> 01:41:06.380
at the price. I don't want to be looking at the price. If I want to order these, I want

1542
01:41:06.380 --> 01:41:11.360
to order these, even if it costs. But I mean, that's just an example, but I don't know if

1543
01:41:11.360 --> 01:41:15.640
you understand what I'm trying to do. I do. I will tell you one of the guys I went on

1544
01:41:15.640 --> 01:41:21.880
a date with before I met Brian. I went on a couple dates with this guy. And every time

1545
01:41:21.880 --> 01:41:27.980
we would be on a date, he would talk about how, you know, he actually worked in, you

1546
01:41:27.980 --> 01:41:32.740
know, investments and stuff, but then he would like nitpick about money. And this one time,

1547
01:41:33.080 --> 01:41:41.960
we went on this date and I didn't finish my food because I was full. And he was like,

1548
01:41:41.960 --> 01:41:49.440
aren't you gonna finish that? And I said, No, I'm actually full. You can have it if

1549
01:41:49.440 --> 01:41:55.560
you'd like it. And he did eat my food, which you know, whatever, that's fine. But it made

1550
01:41:55.560 --> 01:42:01.320
me really uncomfortable because, you know, it was more about what he spent and like he

1551
01:42:01.320 --> 01:42:05.480
I don't think he liked that I didn't eat it. And I knew that that was not someone that

1552
01:42:05.480 --> 01:42:11.420
I was gonna end up with, because I'm not a wasteful person. But I also grew up where,

1553
01:42:11.920 --> 01:42:16.780
you know, I was told I had to eat everything on my plate all the time, even past point of

1554
01:42:16.780 --> 01:42:22.040
fullness, and that's not healthy. And so I do think that God is showing you some things

1555
01:42:22.040 --> 01:42:26.240
to Maris about these prior relationships. And I don't think it's, ladies, I don't think

1556
01:42:26.240 --> 01:42:32.940
it's wrong or bad. And we don't teach that you can't have expectations or desires. But

1557
01:42:32.940 --> 01:42:38.840
it's just like some things we have to be willing to get rid of our list where we're

1558
01:42:38.840 --> 01:42:45.140
just not willing to budge at all. And so, um, you know, I don't want you to panic and

1559
01:42:45.140 --> 01:42:48.880
think that God is going to ask you to be with someone that's financially unstable. And we

1560
01:42:48.880 --> 01:42:54.860
wouldn't actually encourage that either. But I will tell you that Brian was really good

1561
01:42:54.860 --> 01:42:59.140
is really good with his money was really good with his money. But he did have some school

1562
01:42:59.140 --> 01:43:04.540
debt, you know, and I have school debt. So we're paying on that. And we've paid off other

1563
01:43:04.540 --> 01:43:13.240
debts and things like that that we had. But I did not want to not be in the relationship

1564
01:43:13.240 --> 01:43:19.160
with him because of that. Now, I think there's a difference between making that decision

1565
01:43:19.160 --> 01:43:24.880
and him and I having a plan of how we're like, even for our wedding, we had a whole budget,

1566
01:43:24.880 --> 01:43:30.180
we decided how much we were willing to spend, we saved, we did not go into debt for our

1567
01:43:30.180 --> 01:43:35.760
wedding at all. We had a beautiful wedding. And that really meant something to both of

1568
01:43:35.360 --> 01:43:42.740
us. And so it doesn't mean that you need to, you know, end up with someone who is financially

1569
01:43:43.500 --> 01:43:49.540
not good at stewarding their money. There's a difference between someone having debt because

1570
01:43:49.540 --> 01:43:54.820
of a situation they went through, like an ex, you know, taking them to court for the

1571
01:43:54.820 --> 01:44:01.720
kids. And I mean, that's what my husband went through. He had debt from what his ex put

1572
01:44:01.720 --> 01:44:08.040
him through. And so he had been paying a lot of that off, it was almost paid off by the

1573
01:44:08.040 --> 01:44:13.940
time I met him. But if I had just, you know, kind of been like, yeah, I'm not going to

1574
01:44:13.940 --> 01:44:17.940
be with anyone, if they have any debt than that, then I would have missed out on him.

1575
01:44:17.940 --> 01:44:22.720
And I will tell you that I went through a lot of financial trauma with my ex-husband, as

1576
01:44:22.720 --> 01:44:28.700
well as the girl's dad. And so I understand what you're saying. I definitely knew I did

1577
01:44:28.700 --> 01:44:33.480
not want to be with someone who was financially irresponsible. Again, there's a difference

1578
01:44:33.480 --> 01:44:39.560
between being financially irresponsible, and having some debt because of a situation that

1579
01:44:39.560 --> 01:44:47.920
was out of your control, but you're paying on it and you're being responsible. Does that

1580
01:44:47.920 --> 01:44:56.340
do want to encourage you to continue to ask the Lord, you know, are there a, are there

1581
01:44:56.340 --> 01:44:59.980
lies that you're believing still that God can't provide you?

1582
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:07.580
a man that has, you know, is grown up, is mature and takes care of his finances, you know, and really

1583
01:45:07.580 --> 01:45:13.680
making sure that God is healing those past areas, you know, even with that ex, that guy you,

1584
01:45:13.680 --> 01:45:18.660
you know, dated and the ways that he was, the things that he was saying, where you don't carry

1585
01:45:18.660 --> 01:45:23.420
that into future relationships and fear that other guys are going to treat you the same way.

1586
01:45:24.820 --> 01:45:30.320
Okay. Yeah. Yeah. But thank you for sharing. And, and it's a very important thing for

1587
01:45:30.320 --> 01:45:37.600
all of you to be talking about and thinking about and make sure that you are praying and

1588
01:45:37.600 --> 01:45:42.280
thanking God for sending you a spirit mate again, that walks in all the fruits of the spirit. And

1589
01:45:42.280 --> 01:45:47.580
remember self-control is one of those and self-control isn't just like about physical

1590
01:45:47.580 --> 01:45:54.340
sexuality. It's also about us being self-controlled in eating, self-controlled in spending, you know,

1591
01:45:54.340 --> 01:45:59.980
being disciplined. And so believing that God will send you someone like that,

1592
01:46:00.120 --> 01:46:02.300
absolutely partner with that. It's really, really good.

1593
01:46:09.620 --> 01:46:14.640
Oh, you're breaking up there. Oh, can I share something else too?

1594
01:46:14.640 --> 01:46:22.980
Absolutely. Yeah. You were, I was mentioning that when you first asked about something that we were

1595
01:46:23.320 --> 01:46:30.380
anxious or kind of fearful about, and I was saying that my daughter's boyfriend, you know,

1596
01:46:30.700 --> 01:46:40.640
I was kind of an easy or a little anxious, not over it, but you know, he's been away from my

1597
01:46:41.520 --> 01:46:50.880
and, but he's coming back, you know, into the picture. And he came to my house last night to

1598
01:46:50.880 --> 01:46:56.360
give her some flowers, which of course she didn't tell me we were watching something with my

1599
01:46:56.360 --> 01:47:03.060
granddaughter and her, and she just got out. But I noticed later the card, and I knew that he was

1600
01:47:03.060 --> 01:47:11.480
here. And I just got kind of upset at her because I told her, you know, how he was, how, you know,

1601
01:47:11.480 --> 01:47:18.300
he's not even being responsible with what happened here. I mean, my wall, I'm still waiting for this

1602
01:47:18.300 --> 01:47:23.580
guy that told me he, he will do it, but he's doing other projects and my wall's still not

1603
01:47:23.580 --> 01:47:33.480
be taken care of. And, and I just felt like disrespect. I mean, is she living with you again?

1604
01:47:33.680 --> 01:47:41.400
No, she's not. She's, she's on her own place. But on Sunday, we, yesterday we went to church

1605
01:47:41.580 --> 01:47:47.400
together and she said that she doesn't want anything with him. But when she sees him,

1606
01:47:47.400 --> 01:47:53.560
I don't know something. And that's another fear I have that she will come back to him because

1607
01:47:53.580 --> 01:48:00.420
he starts talking sweet to her. And I, I don't know if she believes him and she tells me no,

1608
01:48:00.440 --> 01:48:08.200
but then some actions that she shows me that she gets excited. Like yesterday, she was taking

1609
01:48:08.200 --> 01:48:14.300
pictures with a flower, the roses. And, you know, it's like, did you forget all these things that

1610
01:48:14.300 --> 01:48:19.580
he did that he cheated on you as well, not too long ago. And all these things is like,

1611
01:48:19.580 --> 01:48:26.300
did you just forgot about all these things? And, but I don't say anything because I know

1612
01:48:26.300 --> 01:48:31.760
that he will end up in a big argument because my daughter, she, I know she will just

1613
01:48:32.260 --> 01:48:38.140
to tell me what she thinks, you know, but so that's the fear that I have that

1614
01:48:38.140 --> 01:48:44.780
I don't want him around my house, you know and I just get a little worry.

1615
01:48:44.780 --> 01:48:49.680
Yeah. And remember before when we prayed and he didn't come back for a long time.

1616
01:48:49.880 --> 01:48:55.760
So I want to encourage you just to continue to pray for God to like, even lead him away from

1617
01:48:55.760 --> 01:49:01.960
your place. You know, if you know, we, it doesn't sound like he's your daughter's spirit mate. We're

1618
01:49:01.960 --> 01:49:07.680
believing that he's not. And so Lord, you know, in Jesus name, help her, help him find someone

1619
01:49:07.680 --> 01:49:12.020
else attractive and go, go, you know, like literally you all, I will pray these things

1620
01:49:12.020 --> 01:49:17.600
and I'm not trying to manipulate, you know, but like, Hey Lord, if that's not my daughter's

1621
01:49:17.600 --> 01:49:22.020
spirit mate, I pray that you'll just like, I pray that over my youngest daughter, I pray that you

1622
01:49:22.020 --> 01:49:27.560
would just Lord, just help them both decide to break up. And you know, I don't feel bad about

1623
01:49:27.560 --> 01:49:32.560
that because guess what? She was with a guy that was really bad and he was talking bad to her and

1624
01:49:32.560 --> 01:49:37.140
they ended up breaking up. I for sure pray those things because I don't want my girls with people

1625
01:49:37.140 --> 01:49:42.420
that aren't good for them. And so for whatever it's worth, I don't know how you feel about that,

1626
01:49:42.440 --> 01:49:48.000
but I would pray protection around your home protection, you know, over her heart. I prayed

1627
01:49:48.000 --> 01:49:52.220
the armor of God on my family all the time. I plead the blood of Jesus Christ when I pray

1628
01:49:52.600 --> 01:49:57.760
for myself, for my family, call them by name. I do that all the time. I would recommend doing

1629
01:49:57.760 --> 01:49:59.800
that over yourself and your, your daughter.

1630
01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:04.640
and your granddaughter, and just really partnering

1631
01:50:04.640 --> 01:50:07.940
with God's protection and he's defending you all

1632
01:50:08.080 --> 01:50:11.360
and making sure that you continue to put your daughter

1633
01:50:11.360 --> 01:50:14.980
on your Jesus Cares Board and keep thanking Jesus

1634
01:50:14.980 --> 01:50:16.660
for taking care of her.

1635
01:50:17.680 --> 01:50:18.900
Okay, thank you.

1636
01:50:19.080 --> 01:50:19.520
You're welcome.

1637
01:50:19.860 --> 01:50:20.700
Thank you for sharing.

1638
01:50:21.300 --> 01:50:22.080
Rachel, go ahead.

1639
01:50:24.400 --> 01:50:28.920
Hi, I have a lot of fear and anxiety

1640
01:50:28.920 --> 01:50:34.220
around my body image, my physical appearance.

1641
01:50:35.180 --> 01:50:38.000
That started when I was a little girl

1642
01:50:38.000 --> 01:50:42.500
and I was teased in school for being too skinny.

1643
01:50:44.080 --> 01:50:48.200
And also my nose was too big.

1644
01:50:48.260 --> 01:50:52.200
So I got teased about that and I fixated

1645
01:50:56.080 --> 01:51:00.060
on all of my physical flaws, anything I didn't like.

1646
01:51:00.160 --> 01:51:05.540
I just fixated on it and it made me feel really insecure

1647
01:51:06.320 --> 01:51:13.700
all of my childhood and that has just stayed with me

1648
01:51:14.100 --> 01:51:16.120
pretty much my whole life.

1649
01:51:16.500 --> 01:51:21.740
And now that I'm in my fifties and things are changing,

1650
01:51:23.300 --> 01:51:27.160
and there's new flaws that I don't want.

1651
01:51:28.080 --> 01:51:37.480
So it has impacted me hugely as far as wanting to date,

1652
01:51:37.780 --> 01:51:43.160
wanting to find someone, but being terrified of being,

1653
01:51:44.480 --> 01:51:51.980
I don't know, feeling the rejection and it's crippling.

1654
01:51:51.980 --> 01:51:56.580
I know I've been stuck for a long time because of it.

1655
01:52:00.420 --> 01:52:02.700
And I've been working on the heart work

1656
01:52:02.700 --> 01:52:04.800
and that's something really, really big

1657
01:52:04.920 --> 01:52:06.600
that's been there all along.

1658
01:52:07.160 --> 01:52:08.180
It's really huge.

1659
01:52:08.460 --> 01:52:09.920
It feels insurmountable.

1660
01:52:11.420 --> 01:52:14.380
And even if it's not realistic,

1661
01:52:18.420 --> 01:52:19.680
it doesn't seem to matter.

1662
01:52:22.400 --> 01:52:24.240
I'm overwhelmed by it.

1663
01:52:25.500 --> 01:52:28.640
Well, and part of it, a lot of times that can happen,

1664
01:52:28.920 --> 01:52:30.120
Rachel, first, I wanna just say,

1665
01:52:30.220 --> 01:52:33.840
I'm really sorry that you were teased for being skinny,

1666
01:52:34.480 --> 01:52:36.400
about your nose, about anything,

1667
01:52:36.540 --> 01:52:38.920
about who you are when you were younger.

1668
01:52:39.120 --> 01:52:41.640
I know that was not God's heart for you

1669
01:52:41.640 --> 01:52:43.680
and I'm sorry that you went through that.

1670
01:52:44.380 --> 01:52:48.260
A lot of times the reason it can feel insurmountable

1671
01:52:48.500 --> 01:52:50.840
when we are going through that

1672
01:52:50.840 --> 01:52:52.680
is because when that happened,

1673
01:52:53.320 --> 01:52:57.020
the level of pain that we experienced was bigger

1674
01:52:57.020 --> 01:52:59.840
than what we were able to contain as children.

1675
01:53:00.540 --> 01:53:04.840
And so even though we're adults now,

1676
01:53:05.060 --> 01:53:07.200
we revert back on the inside

1677
01:53:07.200 --> 01:53:09.820
to how it felt when we were children.

1678
01:53:10.560 --> 01:53:15.440
And so one of the things that I wrote down

1679
01:53:15.440 --> 01:53:19.420
or in my spirit that I saw when you said insurmountable,

1680
01:53:20.880 --> 01:53:23.100
I saw a picture of like a mountain

1681
01:53:23.100 --> 01:53:26.540
and God taking a sledgehammer and just like

1682
01:53:26.540 --> 01:53:30.020
hitting the mountain and it just crumbling into pieces.

1683
01:53:30.820 --> 01:53:32.920
And I'm not saying it's gonna be easy,

1684
01:53:33.040 --> 01:53:35.340
but I feel like God wants to show you that

1685
01:53:35.380 --> 01:53:38.860
regarding this insurmountable mountain in your life.

1686
01:53:39.520 --> 01:53:41.020
And I said that in quotes

1687
01:53:41.020 --> 01:53:43.620
because I believe that God wants to change that

1688
01:53:43.620 --> 01:53:45.640
and he doesn't want it to feel overwhelming

1689
01:53:45.640 --> 01:53:47.640
and insurmountable for you anymore.

1690
01:53:48.240 --> 01:53:50.400
But part of that, how that's gonna happen,

1691
01:53:51.140 --> 01:53:54.660
it is praying, it is asking God to show you,

1692
01:53:54.900 --> 01:53:57.280
like to give you a vision of that actually,

1693
01:53:57.860 --> 01:54:01.380
of him coming in in whatever way,

1694
01:54:01.780 --> 01:54:04.380
like knocking that mountain down.

1695
01:54:04.920 --> 01:54:09.380
But I think how that's gonna happen first and foremost

1696
01:54:09.380 --> 01:54:12.780
is you asking God to give you a vision

1697
01:54:12.780 --> 01:54:15.120
when you were a little girl and that was happening.

1698
01:54:15.960 --> 01:54:19.140
Like I like to tell people to ask Jesus,

1699
01:54:19.440 --> 01:54:20.940
Jesus, where were you?

1700
01:54:21.000 --> 01:54:22.680
You know, let's say for example,

1701
01:54:22.800 --> 01:54:24.340
I'm just gonna make this up.

1702
01:54:24.640 --> 01:54:26.620
When someone was making fun of you

1703
01:54:26.620 --> 01:54:28.140
and they were saying something to you

1704
01:54:28.140 --> 01:54:29.800
and your feelings were hurt and you were crying

1705
01:54:29.800 --> 01:54:31.500
and you were in pain,

1706
01:54:33.440 --> 01:54:35.820
Jesus, where were you in this moment?

1707
01:54:36.760 --> 01:54:39.060
And Jesus, what do you want me to know

1708
01:54:39.060 --> 01:54:40.560
about your heart towards me?

1709
01:54:40.640 --> 01:54:43.440
What do you think about me in this moment?

1710
01:54:43.440 --> 01:54:45.460
Not now as Rachel adult,

1711
01:54:45.740 --> 01:54:48.660
but back then Rachel as a little girl

1712
01:54:48.960 --> 01:54:52.300
that was being tormented by the devil through people.

1713
01:54:52.800 --> 01:54:56.280
And, you know, the enemy loves to come after our identity,

1714
01:54:56.280 --> 01:54:59.980
our body image, because if he can get to our identity,

1715
01:55:00.000 --> 01:55:03.900
Identity ladies, man. He thinks he's one he does

1716
01:55:04.700 --> 01:55:10.480
but Jesus can come and bring the light and the truth into the core of that situation and

1717
01:55:12.880 --> 01:55:16.200
What I just heard the Lord say is take the stinger out

1718
01:55:18.620 --> 01:55:21.560
And what I mean by that is that the pain

1719
01:55:21.560 --> 01:55:28.420
You know a stinger is where the pain enters that source and literally take the pain out of that situation

1720
01:55:28.420 --> 01:55:30.620
As if it never existed

1721
01:55:31.780 --> 01:55:38.640
But Jesus is the one that can do that for you you Rachel can't accomplish that on your own and

1722
01:55:38.640 --> 01:55:40.280
That's why it feels insurmountable

1723
01:55:41.240 --> 01:55:46.420
Okay, but he wants to come in and he wants to remove all the pain out of that like

1724
01:55:47.420 --> 01:55:49.160
Have you ever heard of siphoning?

1725
01:55:50.760 --> 01:55:51.880
Yeah, yeah

1726
01:55:52.700 --> 01:55:58.360
Jesus knows exactly where to put the siphon in to siphon the poison out

1727
01:56:00.180 --> 01:56:01.300
okay, and

1728
01:56:01.300 --> 01:56:06.500
So asking him to come into those memories and show you like where were you Jesus?

1729
01:56:06.720 --> 01:56:13.320
What do you want me to know really asking him to help you see yourself through his eyes not your own eyes

1730
01:56:13.440 --> 01:56:19.520
You know because because of the things you were hearing and the way that you're being teased and the way that you described it

1731
01:56:19.520 --> 01:56:20.760
fixating on your body

1732
01:56:20.760 --> 01:56:21.580
and

1733
01:56:21.940 --> 01:56:23.260
seeing all the negative

1734
01:56:23.420 --> 01:56:30.440
we need to flip the script and help you see the beauty of who you are and the way that you were created and and

1735
01:56:31.180 --> 01:56:34.460
It's more than just memorizing scriptures ladies. I

1736
01:56:34.460 --> 01:56:36.120
It's a part of it

1737
01:56:36.120 --> 01:56:42.220
Memorizing the scripture that you're fearfully and wonderfully made. Of course. I'm gonna recommend that but

1738
01:56:42.980 --> 01:56:47.760
You need to know in the core of who you are that Jesus loved you

1739
01:56:47.760 --> 01:56:54.760
He created you he wants to heal the pain that you felt back then and he wants to take it away

1740
01:56:55.220 --> 01:57:00.680
He doesn't want you to move forward into the rest of your life having that pain at the core of who you are

1741
01:57:04.260 --> 01:57:10.400
Yeah, and so I want to encourage you to do that and then you know as you process that

1742
01:57:10.460 --> 01:57:14.520
Come in the group and post about it because there might be additional things that come up with this

1743
01:57:15.680 --> 01:57:16.720
and then

1744
01:57:19.860 --> 01:57:20.340
I

1745
01:57:20.340 --> 01:57:22.220
want to encourage you to

1746
01:57:24.260 --> 01:57:29.440
All right, some two other things just came up in my spirit and I'm gonna give these to you but also to everyone I

1747
01:57:31.040 --> 01:57:34.280
Want to encourage you I did this with one other lady. It's been a while

1748
01:57:36.240 --> 01:57:43.540
Whatever you tend to do to hide things about yourself that you don't like I want to encourage you to

1749
01:57:43.540 --> 01:57:49.140
Do something different. So for example this woman in particular that's coming to mind. She didn't like her arms and

1750
01:57:50.760 --> 01:57:56.260
So she hadn't even when it was really hot out. She hadn't worn a t-shirt or a tank top in years and

1751
01:57:58.100 --> 01:58:04.880
You know as God was healing her and I encouraged her even if she just started at home, okay

1752
01:58:05.260 --> 01:58:12.060
To start wearing something that she wouldn't normally wear and getting more comfortable with her body again

1753
01:58:12.060 --> 01:58:16.700
And so I want to encourage you to pray about that as well and ask the Lord what that is

1754
01:58:16.760 --> 01:58:20.780
Another lady that I did this with it was shorts. She didn't like her legs

1755
01:58:20.780 --> 01:58:26.860
So she never wore shorts and I've only done this really, you know, maybe a handful of times with people

1756
01:58:26.860 --> 01:58:34.380
But it's definitely brought breakthrough at the times that I've issued that challenge out for for you for you personally for you ladies

1757
01:58:34.380 --> 01:58:37.320
Anybody that that's resonating with absolutely run with it

1758
01:58:37.320 --> 01:58:41.180
But I want to encourage you to pray about that and see what God might have you do

1759
01:58:41.280 --> 01:58:45.380
What you might have you wear and and again, you can start at home

1760
01:58:45.980 --> 01:58:49.640
but then I do want to encourage you to at some point venture out and

1761
01:58:51.140 --> 01:58:52.740
and really just

1762
01:58:52.820 --> 01:58:58.480
Embrace who you are the second thing and I'm gonna give this to all of you. I

1763
01:58:58.480 --> 01:59:04.880
Give this assignment out every now and then I feel led to do it tonight before we close because of what Rachel shared

1764
01:59:04.880 --> 01:59:12.880
I think a lot of people well, I know a lot of people struggle with body image issues and body shaming and so

1765
01:59:13.360 --> 01:59:16.820
One of the things God had me do and I probably need to do it again

1766
01:59:16.820 --> 01:59:21.000
Actually as I'm giving you this assignment, so I will work on this this week as well

1767
01:59:22.220 --> 01:59:25.000
but to literally stand in front of a mirror and

1768
01:59:27.360 --> 01:59:29.320
Without a bunch of clothes on and

1769
01:59:30.200 --> 01:59:33.920
To start like if you don't like your legs ladies

1770
01:59:33.920 --> 01:59:40.220
Where you start putting your hands on your legs and thanking God for your legs in the way that your legs are shaped and made

1771
01:59:40.520 --> 01:59:43.480
If it's your breast thanking God for your breast

1772
01:59:43.480 --> 01:59:48.500
However, they are if it's your nose that you would touch your nose and you know

1773
01:59:48.500 --> 01:59:54.960
where you are actually embracing the parts of yourself that you have shamed yourself for for years and

1774
01:59:55.080 --> 01:59:59.980
That you would start thanking God and actually loving yourself in who

1775
02:00:00.000 --> 02:00:03.820
you are in the way that you're created. And it's very, very,

1776
02:00:04.080 --> 02:00:07.780
some people don't, they don't, it's very, like hard for them to

1777
02:00:07.780 --> 02:00:10.900
actually do it. But I want to encourage you guys to press

1778
02:00:10.900 --> 02:00:14.020
through the hard and do it anyways. Because here's the

1779
02:00:13.960 --> 02:00:18.360
reality. Again, same reason we asked you to come on camera, get

1780
02:00:18.360 --> 02:00:20.780
comfortable here in the heartwork during the heartwork,

1781
02:00:20.840 --> 02:00:23.720
do these kind of hard things that we're asking you to do.

1782
02:00:23.960 --> 02:00:29.320
Because one day, when you get married, you're gonna have sexy

1783
02:00:29.320 --> 02:00:33.180
time, you are, and you want to be comfortable in your body so

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that you can be free. And ladies, I want you to know that

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that is a process too. And you know, we talked about it this

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afternoon in the 1pm session. For any of you that are afraid

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about that, I want you to partner with the belief that God

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is going to send you a spirit mate that is going to love you,

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that is going to be patient with you, and is going to honor your

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body and love you the way that you're made, and that it will be

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a beautiful time of intimacy together. Y'all sometimes it's

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just awkward. I'm not gonna lie. Sometimes there's just weird

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stuff that happens. But it can be really awesome and beautiful

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too. And I never had that before in any relationship. You know,

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when my prior marriage is what I'm talking about horrible

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experiences. But I have an amazing relationship with my

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husband. And I'm so grateful for God blessing our intimate life

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as well. And I want to just encourage you that God has that

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for you too. Okay. And so we partner with faith, and we

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believe that God will will give us good gifts from heaven. So as

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we start to close, I am going to pray over finances. Thank you,

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my Lisa. I am gonna pray over finances. And I'm going to pray

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and close this out. But ladies, God is greater as he that is in

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us than he that is in the world. Okay, partner with that. Father,

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thank you so much for everything that you're doing.

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God, we thank you for everyone's finances here. But we also thank

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you for Megan, we thank you God that you would provide

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supernatural provision for her, God that you would, you know,

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even for other people that were talking about scarcity and, and

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the things that we struggle with God, we just ask you to come in

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and just break off those chains and mindsets where we have

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limiting belief systems, where we partner with scarcity, we

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partner with lack or fear or abandonment. God, we thank you

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that you would help us to become good stewards of the money that

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you give us God that we would be the be people that would get

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checks in the mail that we would have groceries dropped off on

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our, our doorstep or a friend just saying, Hey, I want to just

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bless you, can I take you to dinner and, and Lord that we

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would also be the kind of people that would do that for other

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people as well. God, we thank you that you're, you have

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abundance that everything in the kingdom of heaven, God that you

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want to bless us and give it to us. And Lord, it's not a name,

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it claim it, but God, I believe that's our inheritance. Help us

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to think like a princess, not that we would take advantage of

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that, but God that we would stand in the authority that

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you've given us that we are your beloved daughters in whom you

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are well pleased. And it's your honor and your love for us that

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you desire to bless us. So Lord, I pray that this week that you

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would guard and protect us that you would keep watch over us. I

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thank you that you declare that you never slumber or sleep, that

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your eyes are always honest and that you're working behind the

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scenes, even when we can't see it. God, we thank you for

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revealings, for healing and acceleration of supernatural

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healing and transformation on the inside out. We thank you God

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for divine appointments and divine connections. We thank you

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God, that in this situation, even with Tatiana and this

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professor, God, we ask for this professor to come to know you,

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to know Jesus as his Lord and savior. We thank you for shifts

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in that room and that atmosphere. We thank you God

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for continuing to work in our hearts and set us free from

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body image issues. I thank you God that you would help us to

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see ourselves the way that you've made us. And we would

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say it is good. We thank you father for everything you've

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accomplished tonight and all that you're going to do in the

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days ahead in Jesus name. Amen. God bless you everyone. Have a

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great night. We'll see you again soon. Bye. Amen.