Hello. Welcome. Happy Monday evening, everyone. I hope you had a great day. I know some of
you are like maybe 5 p.m. dinner time where you're at, so I hope that you'll either have
a wonderful dinner before or after you came on tonight. I'm Bethany Cooper. I'm one of
the Master Heartwork Coaches here in the community. We have Annette Lewis joining us tonight as
one of our peer coaches as well. So welcome to Annette Lewis, and we're so glad to have
you joining us. If there's anyone that is new, this is your first live session with
us. We would love for you to put that in the chat so we can welcome you for your first
time, and then also welcome back to my ladies who have been here before. So glad to see
your faces and to connect with you again tonight. God has great things in store for us. I'm
going to go ahead and pass it over to Annette. She's going to cover a couple housekeeping
things and then pray us in, and then we'll jump right into the content for this evening.
Yep, you're muted. Sorry. It's always helpful if you unmute. Good evening, ladies. It's
so good to be here with you again tonight. I look forward to this time on Monday evenings,
and it's great to see everyone's beautiful faces. That's one thing that I've learned
since I started. When I first started, I just had whoever was speaking on my screen, but
now I can see everyone, so I like that. We want to encourage you all to, if you are able
to, turn on those cameras and let us see your beautiful faces. Even when we get a smile
or some kind of visual of you and how you're taking it in, it helps us to connect with
you and interact and be able to just step into whatever God's trying to do in your heart.
We want you to be seen. We want you to post in the group. We always get to your posts
as soon as we can. Sometimes it takes us a little longer than others because life just
happens, but what you have to say is important to us and we want to connect with you. This
is a good time to show up for yourself and all that God has for you in this time. Finally,
on this heart healing journey, check in with yourself and with your heart from time to
time. I know when I was in heart work, sometimes I'd read something and I'd think,
oh, I'm good. I'm good there. Yeah, I got that one down. God would put a little check
in my heart and say, do you? Do you really? You're checking the box, but have I checked
the box for you? I found that when I remain teachable and give him opportunity and check
in with him first, rather than running out in front, thinking I've got it covered. Um,
it's, it goes much better. It's good to let him take the lead. And he always lovingly
and gently, um, wants to reveal things to you to help you be your most authentic self.
So with all of that said, I'm going to pray and we're going to get started this evening.
Dear heavenly father. Thank you. Thank you for each and every woman represented here tonight
and for the work that you want to do in her heart and in her lives in each one of our hearts and
each one of our lives. I pray that we would be teachable, that we would come out of hiding,
that we would be seen and heard because we're valued. And God, you have so much that you've
put into each one of us. And we are a gift to our communities and to the world around us.
When we step into our most authentic selves and all that you have for us to do,
ask your Holy spirit to just be present tonight, teach us, grow us, heal us, and show us
how we can honor and glorify you with our lives in your name. I pray. Amen.
Amen. Thank you so much. And that appreciate you and ladies, uh, as she was saying, part of the,
the coming out of hiding, the reason we emphasize the turning on your cameras. Again, some of you
are driving, some of you are at work or eating totally fine. If everyone can't turn your cameras
on, but we want you to kind of plan for it. You don't have to always have your makeup done or any
of those things, but it's about showing up and allowing us to see you. Cause here's the thing.
Um, if you're afraid to turn on the camera here, you're going to be afraid to turn on a camera
for a video date at some point. Okay. So let's practice showing up here and being seen, allowing
yourself to be known and heard. Some of you all need to strengthen in your ability to share your
heart, to share your voice, to share your even opinions and doing that here in a safe space
where you can continue to grow in that is going to prepare you for that in a relationship.
Right, super important.
No hat for Annette Lewis tonight.
I love it, I love her curls.
So even that sometimes, you know what, it's interesting.
Sometimes I will come on like prayer
or if I really have had a super busy day
and I don't have time to do my hair, I'll wear a hat.
But for the most part,
there's times I've wanted to wear a hat
and the Lord has said, not when I'm coaching heartwork.
And it's just something between the Lord and I,
but sometimes when I'm wearing a hat,
I feel like people can't maybe see my eyes clearly.
And so y'all can totally wear hats.
Okay, I'm not saying that,
but it's something I've thought about.
Like if you guys can't fully see my eyes,
can you see my full expression?
Can you see compassion in my eyes when I have that for you
or whatever that case might be?
And so it's interesting
because I lead other sessions and I wear hats sometimes
and this is just one of those times
God has said that to me.
And so be praying about that even for yourself.
Are there times that you cover yourself up,
whether with clothes, extra baggy,
because you're afraid to allow yourself
to be seen in some way, or maybe it is a hat,
or, hey, is that something we revert to
when something is happening in our physical realm
and it's causing insecurity on the inside of us?
And so we pull back and we hide in some way.
So again, show up, be seen,
allow yourself to be known and loved fully.
And ladies, we don't have to be perfect, okay?
Even myself, I'm gonna make mistakes,
and I'm okay with admitting that.
I'm okay knowing that there are times where
I feel more anointed than others
and all the kind of things.
But if we just allow ourselves to be known fully
and even in the mistakes to be known,
even in your complete insecurities,
or, hey, man, I don't know if y'all saw,
but in our community group,
we've had some women share some really intimate things
that they went through, like hard stuff.
And they were honest,
and that's something that they're working through,
some things that were done to them in life,
but God is connecting dots for them.
And when you show up as your authentic self,
and even in those vulnerable moments,
I want you to know that we, as Annette was saying,
we absolutely care about your heart and what you're sharing.
And I don't take that lightly,
and my team doesn't take that lightly.
And so know that we're praying for you.
And I just wanna cheer you on and say, way to go.
You're coming out of hiding,
and it's so, so seen, and God sees you too.
All right, so tonight we're talking
about overcoming fear and anxiety.
And so I wanna go ahead and activate you all in this.
I would love for you to put something in the chat
that you have in some way personally.
So not because, and y'all, I know there's a lot going on
in the world, but I'm asking about you personally.
What is something that has happened in the last week or two
that brought up fear or anxiety in you?
That happened to you personally
that brought up fear or anxiety in you?
Put that in the chat for me.
And I'm gonna read those out loud
as you all begin to share those with us tonight.
Hmm.
While y'all are doing that,
I saw Nadine put in there,
sometimes she hides behind her glasses.
I think that's so true too.
Sometimes y'all, I have these blue,
they're supposed to help with blue light
because I look at the computer so much.
My eyes have been getting some fatigue.
And some days when I don't wanna wear makeup,
I've been wearing these now.
So I can relate.
I don't know, Nadine, if that's why you said it,
but that stood out to me as I read your comment there.
All right.
So Erica said an interaction with a person
I cut things off with,
trying out a new Bible study,
work, seeing my mom get older.
Nadine said yesterday,
major fear of driving of human sex trafficking
happening around you,
a fear of going to hell.
Okay, well, if we're saved,
we've given our life to Jesus Christ,
we're not gonna go to hell, you all, okay?
So make sure that the enemy isn't lying to you
and deceiving you in some way there.
All right, work situation,
my mom getting older and health concerns.
I have a key employee leaving feeling I can't do this.
Glenn, I can understand that.
Megan says situation with my housing
that means more costs and I can't afford it,
working through some of this material.
Yes, ladies.
Okay, that's awesome.
That happens, doesn't it?
Sometimes just even the fear
of facing the things we've been through
or like the material itself,
how can we process it?
What is God saying to us?
Maybe we're not sure what God is saying to us.
I know some of you are like even,
sometimes people will say.
do I know for sure if I'm ready to leave the heart work and all
of those kind of things. So totally a lot of people feel in
that as well. Scheduling an upcoming knee surgery. All
right, so fear can happen. Yeah, anytime we have a health thing.
I'm a decision of traveling to visit my daughter staying home
for a moment. Being in dark spaces while I'm doing heart
work. I feel like I get scared, discouraged and my emotions just
go. Yeah. Waiting to hear about a new job. Okay, dream that
happened. All right. Yeah. Sometimes, you know, keep in
mind, the enemy can also assault you in your dream space. So not
every dream is from the Lord, ladies. So make sure that you
know, you're asking the Lord number one, do we look at our
dreams through a fear lens? Because a lot of things we've
had experienced in the world have been fearful. And then also
God is this dream from you? If it's not, you know, really ask
the Lord just to protect your mind while you're sleeping
because we don't have to be afraid. But understand that the
enemy will try to, you know, at times attack you there. All
right, had a scary lab report. Who was that Jody W. All right,
we'll be praying for you about that. All right, Mika said,
Dr. Singh, I'm sorry, regarding dad's treatment options. So
dad's facing health things there. Y'all, these are all so
real roommate wants to move out financial worries, heart issue
with a guy. I just as a reminder to during heartwork,
we do ask you all if you didn't come into heartwork in a long
term relationship already, then we do ask you to press pause on
relationship. And what do I mean by long term relationship? Well,
we had a woman this afternoon, she's been seeing a guy for
almost 16 to 18 months now, well, we're not going to ask
you all to just break up with people, okay. But we are going
to ask you to, you know, create space in your heart, let them
know you're maybe not going to talk to them quite as much as
you normally do while you process the heartwork, make
space for yourself. And some of y'all might come into this
heartwork dating someone and realize they're not healthy.
That happens. All right. So just be completely open. But we don't
want you to try to meet new guys while you're in this. So
encourage y'all and that might have happened even just
accidentally you met someone, you know, so I know that those
things aren't always intentional. But the enemy does
use that to distract people from finishing their heartwork
and staying in like engaged and what is happening. All right,
Kim said I had a fear around staying where God has asked me
to stay and missing out on closeness with my family.
Finding out someone that I'm struggling with relationship
will be at a meeting. Okay. Yeah, running into people that
you're just, you know, not comfortable around that stuff.
I went to a new church group and had to put myself out there in a
new environment. Yeah, stretching, getting
uncomfortable. All right, I'm going to try to get through more
of these. I'll probably hit on some of these when we circle
back as I'm coaching through because there's so many more
things that we want to talk about tonight. But ladies, if
you think of other things, put those in the chat because we're
going to do something with them in a little bit. All right. So I
want you to be thinking about as you're even thinking about the
ones you've already put in the chat, that our hearts are highly
impressionable. So everything that we listen to everything
that we see the people that were around are influencing us. So
during this heartwork season, and this heart healing journey,
I want to encourage you all to consider watching less TV to
watch the news less to really pull back on how much you know,
you're being kind of pounded on in your mind and in your heart
by the things around you. Proverbs 423 in the ESV version
says keep your heart with all vigilance for from it flows the
springs of life. Vigilance here is actually the quality or state
of being vigilant, which actually means alertly watchful
to avoid danger. Jackie talks in some of the videos about how so
many times we have, you know, locks on our phones, we've got
locks on our doors, we've got locks, you know, on our cars.
But so often, we are allowing everything full access to our
heart. Now, we don't want to have a bunch of walls up where
God can't come in and other people can't come in. But we
also don't want to allow every single thing in the world just
to come right into our hearts. And we're not processing that
through. Hey, Lord, is this something that I need to be
receiving into my spirit? Or Hey, think about this. If you
are somebody that's really empathetic, empathetic, you're a
big feeler. I would say this for everyone, but especially if
that's you, I want to highly recommend that you would also
guard the types of shows that you watch. You know, if you
struggle with lust, ladies, let's not watch shows that have
a bunch of lust in them. Let's let's really work on self
control and pulling back those things that maybe we might have
passed and been like, Oh, it's no big deal.
But, you know, maybe we watch a lot of crime shows and then we're having nightmares or
something.
And even sometimes we have those when we're not watching those things, but we might, that
might get heightened during those times that we're watching those kinds of shows.
You know, we really need to pay attention to what is impacting us, what's causing, like,
if we're having nightmares, if we're having negative things happening, is there anything
that we started doing, you know, recently that we maybe hadn't been doing before?
And it's not always our fault either.
Okay?
Remember, I said earlier, the enemy does attack us and he tries to come against us.
So discerning that and growing in that will be a good thing as you all move forward.
Fear is false evidence appearing real.
So I want you to think about what you put in the chat.
And I want you to ask yourself, what was the false evidence appearing real?
So we broke this down a little bit earlier today.
So for example, one of the ladies said this afternoon that she had some, I can't remember
if she said fear or anxiety, but one of those regarding dropping her kids off to her ex
and he was taking them on a trip.
And so one of the ways I broke this down is that false evidence appearing real, okay?
The reality is, is there's probably a reason that she has concern about sending her kids
on a trip with this person.
Okay?
But what are the lies we're hearing?
And what is feeding the fear?
A lot of times anxiety is actually what fuel anxiety, excuse me, is fueled by fear.
And what if thoughts?
So what if this, what if that, what if this, especially, Hey, let's, let's just think about
especially if we had a bad situation with our, our ex spouse, or we know something that
they exposed our children to in the past, and we're afraid that's going to happen again.
And so that can feed that fear.
But again, this is where it's really important to even, you know, Hey, on that, you know,
that trip's coming up, put that on your Jesus cares board.
And you're saying, Jesus, I'm, I'm going to trust you with my kids, and I'm going to watch
my mind and I'm going to really guard the thoughts that I'm having so that I don't get
caught up in all this fear and anxious thoughts and, and allow the enemy to run away with my mind.
And then a lot of times, ladies, that's not only impacting our mind and our heart, it's
impacting our bodies.
I don't know if you all ever have encountered where your whole body kind of seizes up and,
you know, goes through something.
But I'm going to give you all an example from my life, something that literally just happened
yesterday.
And we were driving to our other church that because we now have a second campus and Brian
was going to be preaching there and we were on our way there was really sunny and beautiful.
And the sun was like shining in such a way that even though he had the visor down, like
he had to kind of put it all the way because the sun just kept kind of coming right in
his eyeshot.
And we were driving and we were praying on the way there.
And I, as I was praying, I didn't just pray for the service.
I felt led to pray because not only myself and Brian, but we had other team members driving
there just to pray for the safety for everyone.
But not only that, I prayed, I felt led to pray for God's angels to usher us there and
back and to protect us and surround us completely.
It's just what I felt led to pray.
So as we're driving, the sun is shining right in his face.
I look up because I was doing something.
I, a lot of times y'all I work on my phone when we drive to and fro, it's just kind of
the way it is.
And I looked up and the light was red and Brian was still going.
I knew that at that point he, he didn't, he didn't either know that red light or something.
So I was like, it's red, it's red.
And so y'all I'm like shouting in the car.
And at that point, like he, it was too, he was going too fast.
Like he tried to stop, but there was no way we weren't going through that light.
Thank God I looked in the, there were cars like to turn, but y'all is one of those things
that after it happens, you're like, oh my gosh, like God just kept those cars from going
through that.
Cause I don't know if y'all have ever been in Florida, but people drive crazy here.
Okay.
I've been in California.
I've been other places.
People drive crazy.
They go through lights all the time.
People go before the lights turn green.
People go after, you know, we were one of those people, unfortunately yesterday, accidentally
going through a light that's red, but God had us and he protected us.
But here's why I'm sharing that for you or with you.
I went into a full physical, like I couldn't talk for like 10 minutes.
Like I just need it because my family has been hit by a drunk driver.
My brother had two other accidents.
Like so there's just been a lot of accidents in my family and in my life, but not only
that.
This was something before I was saved. I was a young girl, went to a friend's house, and they had a Ouija board.
I didn't know anything about it, and we were playing it, and you know, whatever, they were acting like it's a game.
And the Ouija board supposedly told me that I was going to die in a car accident when I was 16.
I wasn't 16 at the time. 16 came and went. That did not happen.
But what I realized yesterday, y'all haven't thought about this in forever.
And I can remember, I've broken all the soul ties, I've done all that, but for whatever reason yesterday,
that came up in my spirit, because I was kind of like,
okay, Lord, I don't want to be afraid every time something happens in the car.
Like, what is this? You know, like I was having a fool, like I had to like,
okay, calm my body down, we're on the way to church, like get control of myself, you know, all this calming thoughts.
And that's the memory that popped up.
So what I believe God has shown me is subconsciously that fear and that lie was still lingering underneath the surface there.
And I got triggered by that happening yesterday.
And so I want to say to you all, sometimes the things that we are afraid of,
and we have a physical response to right now, it is because of that situation,
but it's also because of other things that we've experienced before,
that are underneath the surface that are getting connected and triggered and all kind of shaken up, if you will.
And so maybe that's something that you're dealing with right now.
Trauma that happened to us isn't what stops us from living an amazing life.
It's the lies we believe as a result of the trauma.
Here's the reality. When I was young, and I played that game, you know what, I believed it.
I remember being afraid to drive in my car for months after that.
So we have to get a hold of these lies and, you know, not only cast them out, but we need to replace them with the truth.
Obviously, I'm still here.
Praise the Lord.
God's protecting me.
God's providing for me.
And so we need to cut the fears off at the heels, if you will.
So what are the fears, anxiety, and lies that you've been struggling with and believing?
These often also point to problem areas, or what we say in this community a lot of times, areas where we're stuck.
Maybe you've been stuck for a long time, or maybe you just got stuck recently,
and you don't even know what you're, like, what's getting you hung up on it.
Like, why are you struggling and going back into that place?
These are all signal areas to lies that we're believing in these areas.
So if you, for example, that happened to me, I was having that physical response,
that is not necessarily, like, I'm always stuck in that regard,
but I have noticed that, okay, I'm a passenger princess now, most of the time.
And I've noticed that when I'm not driving, I have more fear because someone else is in control, okay?
And so then when something happens, it's triggering some of those old things.
Again, letting go of control.
When someone else has control and something happens, you know, that's bad.
Well, guess what little lies percolate to the surface?
I need to be the one to drive.
I can't trust them.
All these things, and that isn't true.
So we got to catch those things.
Catch the little foxes, right, before they run and create a bunch of other foxes in your vineyard, all right?
So I'm going to read something to you from the HeartWork book.
This is in Chapter 5 in the section called The Biggest Lie.
This is what it says.
But not everyone sees the dysfunction in their life as a problem.
The biggest lie that you may believe in life is that your life is normal.
Many people that live broken lives believe that it's reasonable to live that way.
They have inherited that emotional debt or trauma from their family,
and they think it's normal to be overweight and unhappy, to be unfaithful,
to be in a relationship where someone mistreats you, or to be sick all the time.
They think it's okay to have massive amounts of debt and spend all of their energy trying to figure out how to pay the bills.
Or even more severe deception, like it's normal to abuse and hurt others or yourself.
I knew someone like that.
They thought it was normal to be molested by family members because it's all they had ever known.
When they were confronted by an outsider about the abuse, they said,
that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it?
No, it does not.
Maybe you have been confronted by people in your life, friends, co-workers, or even family,
that are trying to get you to see how dysfunctional an area of your life has become.
I have done this for people over the years.
Some people call it...
an intervention. It's a reality check when someone is so deep
in a lie that their behavior has become dangerous to others or
themselves. The desired outcome is that the person will wake up
and see what they are doing and ask for help. And so ladies, I
want to encourage you that God doesn't he didn't create us to
live a life filled with fear and anxiety. Okay. So tonight, I
hope will be kind of like a wake up call for us to wake up to the
areas where the enemy is tormenting us. And he's trying
to lead us into these fearful places. When you go through a
situation where fear and anxiety is present, I want you to kind
of pause, slow down and ask yourself two things. Number one,
what are the facts? What are the facts in that situation? Okay.
Number two, what is true? Okay, a lot of times, you know, again,
our emotions and our feelings and our bodies kicking into
gear, but what is the truth? What are the facts and what is
true, we can overcome fears, the more we heal and become more
rooted in God's love and faithfulness to us. I want you
to be thinking about the fact that, you know, if you're if
you're experiencing all kinds of fear, like I used to also
have a lot of fear of the dark, massive you all even as a young
adult would run up the stairs because I was so afraid of the
dark would run through my kitchen because I had a fear of
people looking in the windows. And a lot of that was tied back
to the abuse I went through. And you all I can't tell you how
many times when I hear ladies go to share and they're like, I
know this sounds weird, but I used to be that person too. But
now I don't feel that way. I don't feel shame for the fact
that I ran from one side of my house to the other because I was
afraid people were looking in the windows at me. I'm not
weird. I went through terrible things as a child that I should
have never gone through. And that caused me to live in fear
of all kinds of things. But God didn't have that for me. And
he's healed me and he continues to heal me. And he continues to
bring me out of that. And he can do the same for you. Are you
someone who is always waiting for the other shoe to drop? What
I mean by that is every time something starts to go good in
your life, you're just waiting bam for that shoe to drop for
that part that rug to get pulled out from under you that person
to leave because everybody leaves at some point, right? We
believe these lies. It's not truth. Not everybody leaves.
All right. Maybe you're someone who tends to think the worst
case scenario instead of the best case scenario. When
something happens, do you believe the worst? Do you
believe that person's lying to you? Because someone else lied
to you? Do you believe that, you know, they have it out for you
that they're never, you know, they don't have anything good in
mind regarding you. It shows up in all kinds of ways, ladies,
like maybe you hear a siren and you think something happened
immediately, your first thought is something happened to a loved
one. That is the enemy working and bringing fear and panic and
dread into your spirit. That's what's happening. But a lot of
times those are tied back to other things in your life and in
your heart that need healing. Maybe, you know, we live in the
society now, we text someone, we text them. And what do we expect
now? For the most part, I'm not saying we all do. But a lot of
us, what do we expect? An immediate response, right? I
know y'all can kind of only see it's a little blurry. But um, we
live in this society where there's just there's no patience
anymore for people to respond. And we believe the worst. And
this is what some of the things sound like. If they don't
respond in the timeframe that we have set for them, we have these
expectations immediately as we send that text, whether we
verbalize it or not. If they don't respond in that timeframe,
they're mad at me, they don't care about me. He if it's a guy,
hopefully not during heartwork. Remember, ladies were pressing
pause on that during heartwork. But maybe it was before
immediately, if it was a guy, he's talking to someone else.
I'm not good enough. I'm not pretty enough. And but like, you
see how they like all this stuff starts to happen in our minds.
And people will get into a panic. One lady I know
literally, will text me. And then I know this because I've
talked to the people that it's happened with. But we'll then if
she doesn't get an immediate response, we'll text someone
else. And then we'll text someone else will text someone
else. And sometimes they just do it anyways, whether they get a
response. There's this deep significance that they need to
hear from people in leadership. Y'all that's not healthy.
If that is where we're at, we need to understand that there's something driving us to do those
things. And it's called a hole that can only be filled by God. Our identity is from Him.
If we don't have peace with, if we're not messaging a bunch of people to get their
opinions about something, then we need to do a deeper look on the inside in our heart. And like,
where are we getting our identity? Do we actually believe that the things that we think and say
have value? Because to me, the people that do that, they actually struggle to believe their
own thoughts are worth something. And so they're going to everybody else to get their thoughts or,
you know, something happens with someone and there's this panic mode. And so they,
they feel like they got a message everybody. No, let's step out of that kind of stuff. And again,
if you guys struggle with that, I'm not making fun of it. I understand what drives those people
genuinely. And I hate that to see them go through that, but we have to choose to step
out of those anxious places and like, okay, Lord, I know you have them. And I know you're
going to take care of me. And if I send this text and I don't hear back from them, Lord, Hey,
maybe they're just busy. You know, why is it automatically that they don't like us
or care about us? All right. Let's, let's think about even, hopefully some of y'all are thinking
about ways that that's even happened in your heart and life. And it's also in our posts that
people are putting up on social media. You know, we're so driven on the likes, the comments, all
the things y'all I've caught myself there as well. So I'm not, I'm not pointing fingers there. I'm
Our kids are dealing with it on a massive level program to think that their popularity or,
you know, instant success is based on these things. First John 4, 18, and the amplified
version says this, there is no fear in love. Dread does not exist, but perfect, complete,
full-grown love drives out fear because fear involves the expectation of divine punishment.
Some other versions say fear, you know, has to do with torment. Right. But this one says
involves the expectation of divine punishment. So the one who is afraid of God's judgment is
not perfected in love, has not grown into a sufficient understanding of God's love.
So if we are constantly in fear, again, I'm not saying we can't have a situation in the moment
that is like, man, that was scary. Okay. We just went through this red light and that was scary.
But if I live and remain and stay in a state of fear, then I am now choosing to live outside of
God's love. Do you see how that works? We're not staying rooted in the love of the father. His
King James version says this, for God so loved the world that he gave his only begotten son,
that whosoever believes in him should not perish, but have everlasting life. He gave his son because
he loves us and nothing can separate us from his love. Ladies, nothing, not one thing that you go
through, not one fear that you have, not one anxiety that rises up, nothing can separate you
from the love of God in Christ Jesus and through Christ Jesus for you. There's a song called
Fear is a Liar by Zach Williams. I always recommend it when I do this lesson, even if you've heard it
before, I would encourage y'all to listen to it this week, tonight, tomorrow, whenever y'all can.
I am going to read a couple of the lyrics to you because I think it's really effective.
Sorry, I was just getting really dry. Here's what it says, when he told you you're not good enough,
when he told you you're not right, when he told you you're not strong enough to put up a good
fight, when you're told you're not worthy, when he told you you're not loved, when he told you
you're not beautiful, you'll never be enough. Fear, he is a liar. He will take your breath,
stop you in your steps. Fear, he is a liar. He will rob your rest, steal your happiness,
cast your fear in the fire, because fear, he is a liar. When he told you you were troubled,
you'll forever be alone. When he told you you should run away, you'll never find a home. When
he told you you were dirty and you should be ashamed, when he told you you could be the one
that grace could never change. Oh, fear, he is a liar. He will take your breath, stop you in your
steps. Fear, he is a liar. He will rob your rest, steal your happiness, cast your fear in the fire,
Here, he is a liar.
He will rob your rest, steal your happiness,
cast your fear in the fire, because fear, he is a liar.
You know, the Bible talks, ladies, about casting off
every weight that so easily ensnares us
to press on toward the high calling of God for our lives.
And part of those weights that we need to cast off tonight
is fear.
And we need to cast the fear in the fire.
Some of you, you know, you're here,
and you're here for the hard work.
You kind of believe that God has a spirit mate for you,
but you teeter back and forth.
I'm going to tell you one of the biggest things that's
going to help you in your process as you move forward
is to partner with I Believe Help My Unbelief.
If you have areas that you are struggling, God understands.
But let's look at what's fueling the fear.
What is causing the fearful thoughts in you
regarding a spirit mate?
And ladies, I'm telling you, we've
had ladies that have never been married that
are getting married.
We have ladies that have been married multiple times that
are getting married.
We have young ladies.
You know, it doesn't, like, God's
not a respecter of persons.
What God has done for another, he can do for you.
A lot of times, it's us getting in our own way
and self-sabotaging at times even.
You know, sometimes some of you all
have amazing men that come into your life,
but you don't allow yourself to receive them
because you're scared.
And God wants to help you come out of that.
He's inviting you tonight and in the days ahead
to come out of that.
All right?
Hebrews 12.1 says, therefore, since we
are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses,
let us throw off everything that hinders
and the sin that so easily entangles us
and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us.
So I'm going to pass it over to Annette at this time.
She's going to share some fears or anxious things
that God has helped her overcome as well.
And then after that, we're going to get
ready for the breakout session tonight.
OK.
Well, there are multiple that God
has worked on in my heart and in my life
since I came into heart work and some
that he's still working on.
A few things that came to mind as I was thinking
about what I wanted to share.
When Bethany is talking about you send a text
or you send an email and crickets,
honestly, sometimes even with my kids and I'll say,
well, I don't think they love me like I love them.
I don't think that they there's thoughts
that come into your head.
And when you stop them in their in their tracks
and replace them with the truth, it really is life changing
because it allows me to, for example,
I had sent an email just last week
and haven't heard anything back from them.
And that's OK.
What I decided is if God has a response for me from them,
I'll get it and I'll get it on time because I'll get it
on God's timeline, not my timeline or not my expectation.
And so when I lean into that and step out of the fear
of coming into alignment with the fear or the doubt
or the anxiety around, do they not like me?
Did I say something that maybe offended them?
When I put it back, the ball back in God's court,
so to speak, and just stand on him as my foundation
rather than that person's response, then my trust
and my faith is placed where it needs to be.
It's placed on them.
The other thing that especially when I was in heart work
and and I was dating before we got married,
if there was a community event or something to go to
and I couldn't go, I was like, no, no, it has.
What's going to happen if I'm not there and my spirit mate is there?
And when I also stepped back and thought about the truth
and something that I still apply even to this day, God knows.
And we've heard Bethany say it.
God knows who you are.
God knows where you are and he knows how to get you what you need.
And when I speak that truth over myself.
Over the situations and again, take it back to the truth of God's word.
Him is my foundation.
I will never miss anything that he has for me.
And if I do happen to miss it because.
That can just be me sometimes.
He's always going to get me what I need and what he has for me
and what he calls me to.
He equips me for and it'll happen.
There has been so much freedom that has come for me.
In being able to rest in that and trust in that because I trust in him and I trust his
love for me is greater than anything I've ever known.
So, and I want all of you to experience that same level of trust.
So good.
Y'all that's so much truth.
Tuck that away, you know, wrap it up and keep it because you're going to need that in the
future.
The reality is, you know, I've told, uh, told this story a little bit before I wasn't, I
wasn't going to move.
I wanted to stay by my spiritual daughters and that was kind of my heart posture, but
you all, God had a different plan for me.
Brian was four and a half hours away and God brought us together through a means that I
said I would never do.
I said I was never going to get back on dating apps because I had a bad experience.
That's how I met my spiritual fathers or my spiritual daughters, dad, and he was horrible.
And so I just was like, everyone on these are going to be horrible.
Well, God had a plan and he wanted to redeem that.
He wanted to show me something different and he led me to Brian and I'm so grateful that
I surrendered the pen fully to the Lord and I let go of my fears of moving away from my
girls.
It's hard.
Yes, it's super hard.
And now that was only four and a half hours away.
And then God led Brian and I to Florida.
And now we're like many, many hours away, y'all lots of hours.
And so, you know, I'm not saying that that is always going to be like God's plan for
you.
But the reality is, is if I live in fear, I wouldn't follow the Lord into the blessings
that he has for me.
And so for those of you, um, that, you know, you're just really afraid all the time of
these things.
Um, now if you have a, an agreement with, you know, your children's dad, then you, you
unfortunately most of the time, I'm not saying never, cause we, y'all will meet when you
go into phase two, you'll meet Carla.
She's one of our coaches there.
Um, she had an arrangement with the dad of her son and for a long time, didn't think
she was going to be able to move.
But one day, you know what?
God moved on the dad and had him move.
And then when that happened, she was free to move you all.
So things can happen.
You never know.
And so just trust the Lord in the process of your life and your journey.
All right.
So here is your question for the breakout session tonight.
Oh, sorry.
Let me just, you thought if for the breakout session, what fear are you going to ask God
to help you with tonight?
All right.
So as you share this, share it from the positive perspective, you know, not so much, um, from
a fear and trepidation perspective.
Does that make sense?
Everyone where you're sharing?
This is, this is a fear I'm, I've been struggling with, but I'm going to trust God with this.
I'm going to ask God to help me with this.
And you're sharing more from that kind of lighthearted side of things.
All right.
Okay.
So I have the rooms already ready to go.
Go ahead.
I'm going to, those should be up on the screen for you.
Click to join those.
Lisa and iPhone, I will get you situated in a room really quickly here as well.
Just give me a minute to these ladies to get in their rooms because it bounces around a
So I won't be able to do yours yet.
And then I'll do some time of prayer.
It's going to be awesome.
All right.
Father, thank you so much for everything that you're doing.
God, thank you for the divine conversations that are going to happen in the breakout sessions
tonight.
Thank you that you are revealing areas for healing, that you're helping us to recognize
that the areas and the ways that the enemy kind of at times get his tentacles caught
in us in this fear that just keeps us bound from moving forward.
We thank you God for revealing areas for healing where, Lord, we just don't even know why we're
stuck in.
There's something that we can't see.
So Lord, I thank you that you would bring things out of the rear view mirror, out of
the blind spots and bring those into the forefront so that we can see them, God, that we can
not only see them, but that we can surrender those over to you for revealing, for healing
and to trust God that you are working all things together for good in our lives, that
you are working and moving and you are going to save us from those situations in the sense
that you are going to set us free.
You are going to restore all the broken and fallen places in our lives, God, that you
are going to help us to hear what your spirit is saying, that you are going to lead us into
A land flowing with milk and honey God that we can trust that you have good things in store for us
Lord, I thank you that we would um
I just keep hearing the lord say not go off to the left or the right
But that we would stay on the pathway that you have for us god
I thank you that you would put a guard over our hearts our minds our bodies our spirits and our souls
God that you would help us to take captive every lie of the enemy
And that we would cast those down and believe rather what the word of god is saying about you god about us about other people
God that we would believe the best
God that we would always think the best before we think the worst lord that we would come from a place of being secure
in you father
Yes, lord. I pray that you would help all of these ladies become more secure in their identity in you
every day
God that they would become rooted and grounded in your love
that their roots would grow down deep into the love of the father a fresh revelation of father god and
Papa and daddy and that they would grow in an intimate relationship with you in a fresh way lord
We just know that that brings revelation. It brings truth. It brings freedom
We know that where the spirit of the lord is there is freedom and liberty for the captives and that that is the the truth
Is what sets us free and so lord we just thank you
For leading us into the fullness of your plan emily. Hi, were you having trouble getting into the room?
Uh, no, I was just by myself in the room
Oh, you know what?
I saw the room that you were in and the other lady was there by by herself for a while
I will put you in a different room because I have one room that only has two
ladies, um
Because I had moved her out because I didn't see you joining so I thought maybe you couldn't
Oh, I would yeah, okay. I'll switch you over there right now. You're welcome. Thank you
So lord we just thank you, um also for helping us to just um
Remember that you prepare a table for us in the presence of our enemies and our enemies
Sometimes are things like spirits of fear, you know anxiety spirits of dread spirits of worry
So we thank you jesus by the power of your blood that you you literally bind and break these spirits and you cast
Like cast them into the pit of hell where where they cannot return
And so lord we thank you that you would just work in our lives in this way
And we thank you that you would help us to remember
That by the power of your blood and through the name of jesus that you also lose the spirit of love and of power
and of a sound mind
Over us and into us that we would walk in the the all the fruits of the spirit
And also that we would walk in the spirit of forgiveness and peace and reconciliation
that that would be our lot that we would be
Be people that would walk into the fullness of the plan of god for our lives that we would walk unhindered
I just heard that in my spirit unhindered which means not held back by anything. There wouldn't be even one
Little thing trying to grip us and pull us backwards that in the spirit realm tonight
God is literally severing all of those all of those issues all of those ties and no matter what we think or feel
In jesus name. I declare that god is writing a new story that he's writing a new path that he's doing a new thing
No matter what has happened before that a new thing is springing up. Can we not perceive it? Do we perceive it?
Do we believe it by faith? Do we stand in the gap on behalf of ourselves and our families?
And uh declare god's goodness over us just like years ago. God led me to I am a bride
Declaring and partnering with that not just because I wanted to say it but because god
Gave me an impartation of faith to believe
Supernaturally that I already was
What I wanted
And I had to start seeing that and confess that out. So
Maybe there's something that god is leading you into that
maybe god is asking you to step forward in faith into a new job a new situation and
Seeing ourselves as the fullness of who god called us to be in those dynamics
And to know that god's spirit enables us and equip it and equips us
To do everything that it calls us to and he will give us favor
As we do it as we do the work as unto the lord there will be favor there will be blessing and there will be
um
an abundance of joy
Unspeakable and full of his glory first. John 1 9 says if we confess our sins
He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all
unrighteousness
Ladies tonight and those that are watching the replay
If there is any sin in your heart in your mind in your life, I want to encourage you to
repent to confess
That to the lord and at times if god leads you to you know, confess that into our group
So that that stuff does not
Hold you bound, but you can move forward psalm 51 10. It's one of my favorite scriptures
This is from the new king james version and this is my favorite version of this verse
This is what it says created me a clean heart. Oh god
And renew a steadfast spirit within me
Creating me a clean heart. Oh god and renew a steadfast spirit within me
We can all get clogged up in our heart just like drains can get clogged up
You know a lot of hair gets down in there. Sometimes it gets all clogged up and we got to clean that stuff out
Well the lord and the holy spirit and jesus they're coming into our lives and they just want to you know
Clean all the things out that are never intended to be there
And and make us where the water will just flow freely and we'll be able to experience the fullness of the holy spirit in a fresh
way
Romans 8 28 in the passion translation says this so
We are convinced that every detail of our lives is continually woven together
To fit into god's perfect plan of bringing good into our lives for we are his lovers
Who have been called to fulfill his designed?
purpose
So ladies, let's believe that god is is doing things
He's working behind the scenes whether we can feel it or see it or experience it in every moment
He is doing things. He's shifting things. He's putting you on people's minds that you don't even know yet. He is good
All right, so we're going to partner with that tonight welcome back everybody
Our break I almost said our breakout
um our activation for this week
I want to give that to you before we do the group coaching part
But if you are willing to share with the ladies in the group
What you shared in your private breakout would love for a couple of you to put your hands up tonight
um, I probably will start to like
Monitor how many people raise their hands and just I know i'm kind of gauging how many I can actually get through now
And the amount of time that we have left which is why I tend to go way late and I just want to really start
to
Shift that a little bit. I know I said that last week and the week before and then I kept going
But here's the reality if I do it too long. I start to get tired and I don't want to like coach out of my
um
My flesh I want to really partner with the holy spirit and I want to make sure I don't wear out
By the time the last person goes ladies. Okay, so
We are going to do that here in just one minute the activation for this week is called letting go
It's going to be amazing. So the point of this activation is what are the fears that you're going to let go?
But not only that I don't know if you all know but rasha shana
That started this weekend. I think it's actually today
Yesterday, I forget the exact actual date
But it's it's a letting go of everything in the prior years last year years before
That you're saying. Okay. I'm not taking this into the new year with me
It's not taking me into the new year
I'm letting these things go and so as you're letting it go, I believe in partnering and doing something to activate it
So here are a couple of examples for you. I'm going to share my screen and show you
For this one. I have a picture of another sister in our community. It's um a beloved, uh sister. Yamina
She did what is called our balloon release
So we incur I want to encourage you to get some balloons
Pray about how many hers there were four and there was a reason there were four and there was a reason that she picked blue
And you're going to write for both all of the activations you're going to write on a piece of paper
What it is that god is asking you to let go of so you're praying god
What do you want me to let go of you're writing that out?
And then on the balloon release I kind of encourage you all to rip the paper
Not attach it to your balloons because if you let it go and it lands in your neighbor's yard or something
You know, then they might know something. You don't want them to know. Okay, but um, yeah
So this was very freeing for her. This was something that you know
She did just in march
And god did all kinds of stuff in her the day of as well as many days after and so that's called our balloon release
Another one is to in a safe place
You know you've written out your list and then light that on fire and watch it burn and pray over it as it's burning
And we have a sister. I wish I had her video for you all
But I could not find it in the app. Um, but when she did this she was praying
And she the paper was burning and as she was praying and saying god I released this all of these things into your care
I'm, not kidding you all it was all on video this the wind kind of picked up and just
Like took the ashes of that paper away and it was really really cool. It was all caught on camera
So that was really beautiful. And then this afternoon one of our sisters was saying part of the jewish, you know traditions of what they do
Is they believe in like throwing a rock into the water and if i'm saying this wrong, i'm, sorry, but I this is what
I took from what she was saying this afternoon for everything they're releasing their they're throwing a stone into the water or the pond so if somebody knows better how that goes, you can put it in the chat.
But that's a third idea if you're not into the balloon release or the fire lighting the paper on fire, and you could do that as well alright so i'm going to go ahead and start with the coaching Erica had her hand up first so Erica you can go.
hi woman oh.
Wait come on come on computer let's be nice.
it's okay you can't get the camera on you can just talk.
Okay, well, I was eating something i'm so sorry I was just eating.
Okay, so.
i'm sorry something that I was thinking about for myself, specifically it's I fear so much about timing and when Annette was talking it really brought me home right.
I have so much fear about when god's going to bring my person, how long it's going to take how I can do and i'm learning i'm learning and i'm being humbled in each and every single way.
But I pray that I get over the fear of wanting to control.
If that makes Ali, please stop, thank you, like I just went to a Bible study for the first time on Tuesday and the whole thing was talking about the fruits of the spirit right the fruits and the roots, it was an ax i'm pretty sure.
Anyway, I was just thinking in my head wow that's really connecting to what i'm doing here and wow.
I need to just not control and I pray about it all the time and it's so hard.
Yes, yes, and you're not alone, I mean there's a lot of ladies who else can relate raise your hand if you can relate to Erica on this.
Anyone else struggle with fear of control or trying to figure it out, or know all the answers y'all it's very common, and so I just want you to know you're in good company Erica there you go, I see you.
Hello, and that's the thing I feel like.
We I cut you off i'm sorry.
You know it's okay go ahead.
I feel like, and you guys can tell me if you're wrong or like if you felt as well, so the devil does certain things to block you like, for example, first off i've taught on zoom I don't know why I couldn't get my camera on that just like something like.
But also when I was trying to get to that Bible study on Tuesday right it literally was like two blocks away from where I used to teach, but it took me an hour and a half to get there, the map quite literally put the directions in the wrong place.
And I was just about to be like Lord maybe you want me to go home because i've been driving around for 45 minutes and this place just isn't here it's just not.
And once I said I bind to rebuke you Satan go away go away the map changed on the like on iPhone and i'm from New York so i'm pretty good with directions.
yeah.
So I.
yeah go ahead.
So I just don't understand, and maybe it's a me controlling thing maybe I should just looked at it, but I know that's something I don't like timing, I just want to meet them and when it doesn't come in my way man i'm humbled one and two I think I I don't know.
Well, and this is part of you know when when we put up that permission slip and we fill that out and we've hanged that up and we pray that every day it's a reminder that we are choosing to surrender daily we're choosing to surrender sometimes yeah moment by moment because God's plan is always better it's always better and.
And when we have a fear of how is God going to bring them when is he going to bring them let's let's go back to the revealing for healing cycle, where is that coming from is it just that we struggle with timing.
Or is it insecurity or a lack of believing that God will actually provide inside of us, you know we're yeah we're we're looking at okay God do I really believe that you're good.
Do I really believe that you're good to me.
You know and we're really unpacking those heart boxes and the things that are living inside of there from the past and and ladies sometimes you know.
i'm just going to tell you, sometimes it takes a couple times through the heart work, because some of you have so many layers.
And it doesn't mean that you have to stay here forever you guys can continue to do heart work, as you move forward you're going to continue to do it in every phase, some of you are going to feel led to stay here longer than five weeks, because there are so many things you're working through there, and that is totally okay, but you know again surrendering reading that prayer.
over yourself, um, asking the Lord to reveal the root of, you know, the lie potentially
that God doesn't come through for you or trusting that God will be good to you.
And let's see where that, that takes you this week.
Okay.
Another question quick.
And then you could tell me like, cut it off.
Um, I feel like sometimes I get so busy.
I forget to work through this or pray for this every single day.
This has probably been the busiest year of my school career ever, which doesn't make
it an excuse.
And I know that's a devil distraction and I'll like write it on my agenda, but then
I have slides to make or a test to make or an assessment to make or like app.
How do I focus on that besides my ADHD?
Like for me, I, that's why I print things out and I hang them up.
Like I, for me personally, if there's something I'm really wanting to pray over myself, like
one of my big prayers that I partnered with a lot before I met Brian and in my healing
process was I come out of agreement with independence and come into agreement with interdependence
on you, God.
And that was something that Jackie said that really resonated in my spirit.
And I put that on a post-it note and I hung it up in my bathroom because every morning
I get ready for work.
And so I'm in my bathroom or, you know, to go to the bathroom.
And so I would see that there all the time versus like putting it on my phone.
I mean, there's, yeah, I get on my phone a lot, but there's so many other things.
Sometimes I'll actually get on my phone to do work and then I get distracted because
there's other notifications, social media.
And so I think the same thing, be careful and not saying don't use your phone for the
hard work or these reminders, but it might be better, especially if you are someone that
does get distracted by things to put it up on a piece of paper or a post-it note or something
in your bathroom.
Or I also tend to do it by my sink where I wash dishes or things like that.
Yeah.
So I would try something like that, Erica.
Okay.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
Thank you for sharing.
You're welcome.
Tatiana, go ahead.
Okay.
First of all, me and Erica were in the same breakout and I love how expressive you are.
I love how you talk.
Like I could just listen to you talk forever, but, okay.
So I had put this in, I had put this in like a post.
I had made a post about this a while ago that I had a professor in one of the classes I'm
taking right now and that the atmosphere in that room just felt very dark and it kind
of just like threw me off.
And I was at the point in the heart work where like I like emotionally felt very just light
and I feel like I'm a big feeler.
And so then going into that atmosphere, it just like, it was heavy.
And I feel like I, I got scared that it was going to somehow knock my progress because
I have to be in that class for the rest of the semester.
And I don't know if I'm going to have that teacher again in the future.
And so I just got scared because I was like, well, is like, is this it?
Like, is it just going to feel like this for until December?
And, and then I just got discouraged.
And I feel like I haven't felt like that lightness that I had before.
And it just makes me sad.
And I feel like this is a, like a pattern I've seen in my life.
Like if something feels too big for me to handle, I'm just like, oh, okay, that's, that's it then.
I think some, some of this Tatiana will come with time, genuinely.
You know, one of the things that I remember chatting with you about before is some of
the things you're facing are like generational.
It's not just you as it's things that have come down through your family line.
And so even though you're talking about this professor in the class, this pattern that
you're starting to recognize, I feel like God is using that even though it didn't feel good.
He's using it to reveal some things to you where you might go into a situation or environment
or how you said, if something feels too big or overwhelming that these kind of things
get triggered in you.
And so I want to encourage you to, there's several scriptures that talk about, you know,
not only Jesus being the light of the world, but how he's called us to be a light and how
if there is darkness, the reality is this.
As soon as the light enters the room, it has to flee.
Now, sometimes.
We are still gonna feel that if you are a feeler,
if you walk in discernment or any kind of those giftings,
you might feel it,
but the reality is we don't need to be afraid.
We're on the offensive, we're not on the defensive.
And so where we recognize
that we're fighting from victory, not for it.
Jesus died to give you victory
over whatever it is that you feel in that room.
And again, I'm not saying it's easy,
but the reality is the same power
that rose Jesus Christ from the dead is living in you.
And so when you walk into that room,
things have to shift, they have to,
because you're carrying that power with you.
And so I would encourage you,
you might even feel led to go in that room and pray one day,
just not that, you know,
I used to do that kind of stuff you all years ago,
I haven't thought about this
or talked about this in a long time,
but I was having all kinds of problems at my job.
A lot of like women just kind of bickering
and kind of backstabbing stuff and it just wasn't good.
And so I decided, like I prayed
and God led me to go to work early before people came
and just walk around the office and pray over the cubicles.
And that's what I did.
And I didn't tell people I was doing it.
I just prayed quietly, but I was praying
and I was declaring things over people
that like sat in those cubes and praying over the people
for them to be saved and all kinds of stuff.
And so there's a movie called Facing the Giants.
It's a Christian movie.
I don't know if you've ever seen it,
but there's an old man that was walking in this movie,
praying over the lockers that the kids, you know, would use.
And that comes to mind as well.
And so I'm not saying that that is possible
in your school situation,
but maybe it is praying for that professor,
praying for people in the room before you go in,
putting on the armor of God.
Always, ladies, if we go into rooms and spaces
where we feel that way,
we need to make sure we have the armor of God on.
So praying that Ephesians six over yourself
and you're going into that room
covered in the armor of God, declaring that over yourself,
knowing that God has already gone before you
into that classroom.
And so basically what I'm saying is
you're gonna have to talk to your spirit here.
Okay, so like David talked to his spirit.
Why are you downcast?
Oh, my soul, hope in the Lord.
There's times where we actually have to talk to our spirit
and get our spirit to line up with the truth
of the power of Jesus Christ and who he is
and what he's enabling us to do.
And because you're overcoming some of these things before,
it doesn't mean you won't feel that lightness.
The lightness that you were feeling,
if I remember that came after you forgave your dad.
And so I want to encourage you to forgive this professor
because I know he said some things that caused some of this,
if I remember correctly from your post.
And so I would say even do a forgiveness prayer sheet,
forgive this professor
because I don't think he knows what he's doing.
I don't think he knows the level of his impact fully.
And remember people that are deceived
do deceiving kind of things, okay?
And they say things that are not healthy.
And so I hope that's helpful for you.
I believe that you're gonna overcome this.
I don't, I think that you're gonna break this pattern.
You've been called to be a kinsman redeemer in your family.
I have no doubt about that for you.
I believe that for everyone in here,
but Tatiana, I even, I responded on one of your things.
I heard a prayer that you prayed on Saturday
and I was like, ooh, God is working in her and I can tell.
And so I want you to stand in the authority
God has given you, confess those things,
declare those things and walk in.
If you're already secure in the Lord
before you walk in that room, you might feel that stuff,
but it most likely will not cause you to kind of back down
or cower down in fear on the inside.
Does that make sense?
Yeah.
Yeah, you've got this and we're gonna be praying for you,
but also ask the Lord if there's any wounds
that need healed that are getting triggered
by this environment and this person as well.
Because this is a guy in leadership, as I was saying,
authority over you, so there could be some connections
there regarding that.
Okay.
Yeah, thank you for sharing.
Thank you so much.
Hilda, go ahead.
Hi.
Hi, Bethany.
Hi.
How are you doing?
So I don't know if this is like a fear, I guess,
but I don't know, I just kind of not like
fully feeling like in limbo.
And so there's fear of uncertainty,
like when is...
what do you call it, dating, relationships, getting out there.
I went and put my first profile out and I went to meet with this person and then they
just disappeared and ghosted and it just pretty much re-triggered everything again, like the
not moving forward. I haven't done anything. I froze after that and so I've just been very
discouraged and it's also at work too because I don't see the needle moving.
My birthday's this week and so I am blessed. I'm happy for another birthday. I'm healthy,
thank God. I'm going to celebrate with some friends this week, but it still bothers me,
so I don't know if you have anything that you can share to help me.
Remind me, Hilda, are you in phase two right now? Are you here in heartwork?
I finished. I see the phase two.
Yeah.
That's okay. I'm asking for clarity just because you were mentioning about
your dating profile and that might confuse some of the ladies, so I know that sometimes
we have ladies. We can come back and do heartwork. It's totally fine, but I just want to make sure
that if you're all finished with heartwork, that's totally fine that you've moved into that,
but ladies, this is where even I've said before that a lot of times even trying to step into
dating is going to bring things to the surface for revealing, for healing, and so
I would encourage you, you know, like you started talking to this person and then they ghosted you,
like asking the Lord, like, what is the fear? What's the fear that got surfaced there?
Is it just that you're not moving forward or is there another lie that you were hearing?
Yeah, I think what happened was that everything sounded, you know, you're talking about
scripture and you're speaking, you know, he was praying and doing all this stuff and then all of
a sudden they just disappear, so I'm like, it's like, so my thing, my idea was like,
are there really any really truthful, godly men, like spiritual partners that
really are healed or what do you call it, you know, are safe, right? Like they're,
they say what they really are and they are, you know, is it, so I think that's what it is,
it's like the disappointment of like not having, like I'm trying not to have the spirit of scarcity
but I've struggled a lot with the spirit of scarcity because I just don't see a lot of,
so then I've always, you know, that's kind of like I've been, you know, that was kind of like
the core of heart work was that spirit of orphan spirit, yeah. Yeah, and that's very telling about
even the thing that you're saying about work and so to me, even though you've already done a lot
of heart work about that as you went through this journey about the spirit of scarcity and lack and
getting to the core of that is going to be key for you and not only getting to the core of the
lie but understanding that God literally has blessings waiting for you but part of the things
that have to happen is we have to get in alignment to receive them and so one of the things God did
in me before I started receiving the blessings that he had for me is I had a vision board that
literally on it, I had felt led in the year prior, there was this area and this door was open and it
was in my God area and one day I was praying over the board and God said to me, my door
is always open to you and when he said that to me, you know, I had to face the reality that there
were times that I actually before that thought that there were times that God was not accessible
for me, that his blessings weren't accessible to me and that God wasn't going to come through for
me. There were things that were still sitting under the surface in the layers of my heart deep
in there subconsciously that were surfacing because that was a time when I was, I mean,
I was working a lot of jobs but I was helping my spiritual daughters a lot and, you know,
there were times where I was doing for them.
And then maybe didn't have money for all the groceries I needed because I was trying to make sure that they were taken care of because their dad wasn't filling the house with groceries and they didn't have food that they needed.
And so there were times where I just didn't understand, but the more that I looked at that and prayed about it, it was really core things from childhood that I still was believing that on some level, I felt like I was on the outside trying to reach in.
Like I was on the outside of this gate and God was on the other side and I was locked out.
That was actually what was in my heart.
But that isn't the truth.
I was not locked out.
And then what I started having was God started changing that vision and I saw it changed one day and the gate was open.
Not only was that picture on my vision board, but God was speaking to me and he shifted the way I was looking at something in my heart.
And then when I realized the gate was open, the reality was all I had to do was come in.
And I know that might sound really simple to some of you, but it was a big shift for me.
Like knowing that God wasn't blocking me out.
He wasn't like, oh, here I am with all my other people, blessing all of them and you just get the scraps, Bethany.
That isn't who God is, but that is what I was believing when I really was honest with myself.
And so the more that I let those things go and believe what God was telling me, that he's a good dad and he is always available to me and that his door is always open to me.
That I can come in and I can talk to him and he hears me and he cares.
And not only that, but that he wants to answer me.
He wants to bless me.
He wants to bless you.
That started changing everything.
And I will say to you, the shift for me also was instead of saying, are there really any good men out there?
To God, thank you so much that you are raising up men of honor that walk in all the fruits of the spirit every day and that you're going to lead me to my spirit mate who walks in the fruits of the spirit too.
And I just, I shifted out of these begging prayers.
God, please do this.
God, please do that.
Are there any of this?
Are there any, you know, where we literally are begging and pleading for God to do something that he already said in his word he would do.
So I started praying, God, thank you for sending good men my way on the apps.
God, thank you for helping me have a good encounter with a new friend.
And I just started thanking God for this stuff.
And that was another big change for me too.
And so I want to encourage you.
I know it's hard, but take the lies.
So you ended up saying, are there really any good men?
Take that and flip it and start writing declarations.
And like I said to Erica, put those up where you can see them and really start meditating on the truth that God is good and he's good to you.
He is excited to bless you with a healthy spirit mate.
And ladies, I said this afternoon, you know, we have to have a spirit where we're not just like, and I don't mean this like that.
You are just quick to give up.
But I'm saying this over everyone that we, we are, you know, the Bible says, set our faces like Flint.
Like that, we won't give up on our promise just like that.
When one guy goes to us, guess what?
Your God defended that guy might've been a smooth talker.
He might've been a love bomber.
We don't know, but God was protecting you and defending you.
And that's the truth, but it's whether or not we believe that.
Does that make sense everyone?
Yeah, that makes, yeah, that makes sense.
I think I, that's what I was doing.
It's just kind of like, I feel like I'm like exactly what you said.
Like just the, the, the pleading and the begging.
And it's like, it's like the energy, it's like so much energy towards that.
I'm like, then I pushed, then I do the opposite.
I'll just, then I'll just push completely away.
And then I'm like, then I feel how I feel.
Yeah, because what's happening.
I love this.
I love that you just said that because ladies hear what she just said.
When something like this happens, she's pulling back.
Well, what's happening when we do that?
We're disengaging.
We're disengaging and we're isolating and we're pulling back.
When actually what we need to do is say, okay, well, if he wasn't my spirit mate,
thank you so much.
I'm one step closer to my spirit mate and we keep moving forward.
We stay engaged and you all discouragement.
I'm going to tell you, it's going to come.
I promise you.
But when it comes, know who you're standing in.
Who is your strength?
Who is your.
defender, who is your provider? Is God good? Is he always good?
Or only some of the times good? I mean, the more that we really
believe that he is good, I'm telling you it like it's a game
changer. God rewriting the story on the inside of our hearts that
we tell ourselves it and here when something negative happens
is is gonna change everything. It'll change trajectory, truly.
And so instead of scarcity, I want you to also Hilda and
anyone else that this is speaking to. I've been given
these assignments and has been helping people break through. So
I'm just going to give some more of them. But Hilda and anyone
else this is resonating with take an eight and a half by 11
sheet of paper. And instead of scarcity, what I want you to do
is I want you to ask God to show you what abundance looks like in
your life. Okay. And then I want you to start putting phrases and
pictures on this eight and a half by 11 of what abundance for
a Hilda looks like. So maybe there's pictures of stuff that
you have always wanted to go do, that you've kind of said, I
can't go do them because I don't have money, or I don't have this
or I don't have the time, whatever, whatever comes up in
your spirit that you just started. And if you want to do a
bigger sheet of paper, you can, but I just want you to at least
start with an eight and a half by 11. And like, literally, like
even pray like God, what are some phrases that are the
opposite of scarcity bit partnering with abundance, you
know, there might be scriptures, but just where you
start to like, maybe it's a woman laughing, and she's
balloons, and she looks free, or, you know, again, I'm just
trying to plant some seeds, but where you put that up, and you
look at that, and you you partner with that, that is your
life. Abundance is your life, the good, good life is Hilda's
life, not scarcity, not lack, not scraps. And the more you
partner with the good is available to you, and that is
your life, that is your lot, the more you're going to move
towards that.
Amen. Thank you.
Yeah, you're welcome. Ladies limiting belief systems, man,
they creep in through the things that we go through. It's so
common. It's so common. And so if you have belief systems that
you're living into that are limiting, like you hear a lot of
times, you're never going to be able to do this, you're never
going to be able to break through this is never going to
happen for you. Those are some of those kind of limiting
belief mindsets, but there's a lot of other ones. So just
really, again, catching the thoughts, taking them captive,
making them be obedient to Jesus Christ, but also living and
walking it out by activating it. Hilda, thank you for sharing
with us and letting us hear about kind of how you're doing.
Thank you. You're welcome. God bless you.
Gaston, go ahead.
Um, so mine is kind of similar a little bit, but I'm just with
the sense of lack. Over the weekend, I rent a room with
someone and they decided that I'm not paying enough and they
want to increase all this costs and stuff. And it's been a lot
of tension and the enemy has been really using this
relationship to really attack me. And I've been trying to come
at it and see them through a spiritual lens. And not being
like this person is this, this, this and this. But this is how
the enemy is coming at it. And it's been really hard because I
don't have the financial means to be able to do it. And so I'm
just struggling with like, just not being able to provide for
myself. And the big thing I've been really trying to claim is
just that God is my defender, my protector and my provider. And
I'm really trying to like, come at this in a spiritual sense and
not trying to like get caught up in all the emotions or like, get
super angry or, you know, cuss out the person or stuff like
that. But just to like, I've been even praying that God will
bless my roommate, even though that's really hard to do. So for
me, it's just like, finances is just a really big burden right
now.
Yeah. Well, Megan, thank you for sharing with us. I'm so sorry to
hear that that's happening. One of the things I do feel led to
what to say. But I just want to ask you, when is the first time
in your life that you struggled financially or your family? Like
when's the first time you remember ever?
Really? I was born into like poverty. My parents are really
okay now like they do very well for themselves. But when I when
they were starting out when I was born, I'm the oldest of
were in a lot of poverty and lived with my grandparents for a
while. And it wasn't until I was about like, I'd say, eight or
nine, the things started to turn around for my family. But I
mean, I remember what it was like, in the poverty and such,
but they're not in that place now. But I have found that since
I moved to where I live now, I have faced a lot of poverty. And
it's been a lot struggle financially, in this place that
I'm in, too. So for me,
yeah, what are the lies that tend to surface for you? Like
when this happened? I know that you're saying that sense of
lack and you were explaining, but what were the lies that you
were hearing when this happened?
That I'm gonna be like homeless, that I can't get out. That I'm
like stuck in this toxic relationship and environment.
And just like, there's no way out.
Okay, I think that one's really resonating, no way out. So I'm
just curious, do you remember as a kid, like hearing things that
your parents said about money or like, I know, they're doing
better. And I started doing better when you were around
eight or nine. But you had a lot of formative years where you
might have been hearing things financially. So I'm just
curious, do you recall things that your parents said about
money or anything like that?
Not during that time? No, it would have been more like after
the fact. But just like, this may be some actions and stuff.
There's like one memory that always comes up is that when I
was a little girl, I was sick and my mom had to go pick up my
sister from school. So she left me home alone and I was still
asleep. Because they only had one car, my dad took the car. And
so I woke up petrified because I was all alone and I didn't know
where my mom was.
And so I came outside. And I was like crying on the street. So
when she came home, she was super embarrassed because I was
like, hyperventilating crying because I was abandoned. And she
just thought that was ridiculous when she felt she told me that
I you know, she was away, but I was only like five or six and
also had a high fever. So you know, you have that delirium
stuff going on. But that memory always comes up a lot.
Yeah, well, I will say this, okay. It's normal for a five or
six year old to be afraid if they wake up and no one's home.
Okay. So I understand if your mom, like had to do that, no
shame on on that decision. But I want you to feel validated and
what you felt. And that is normal to feel afraid when
something like that happens. But you said something really
key there. You said I felt abandoned. And I think that's
connecting to that I can't get out no way out. Those feel
connected in my spirit when I'm hearing you kind of share and
talk tonight. And so when we believe there's no way out, we
can't get out, it is truly at the core, we actually feel
abandonment, we feel neglect. And so um, have you ever done a
forgiveness prayer sheet for to forgive your mom for leaving you
home alone that day? Okay, cool. That's awesome. And I do want
you to pray more into this abandonment stuff to make sure
that that's still not underneath the surface. I'm connecting
with, um, you know, is it that you believe somewhere
subconsciously that God has abandoned you and there's like,
there's no way out because God isn't providing a way out. And
so let's just make sure you know, you're praying into that
and see what God might reveal to you through it about just where
your heart is at regarding his provision in general, not just
money, but his provision for your life. Um, but we you know,
we'll definitely I'll pray over people's finances. If I
remember if I forget, I'm so sorry, I'll say that in advance
because sometimes I say those things and then I log off and
then like, Oh, I said I was gonna do that. But I will try to
remember to pray over your all's finances. I know a lot of
people face that. One of the things I will say is that
Jackie, she was one of the first people that I ever heard say
that finances and doing like struggling all the time in our
finances is actually connected to heart issues. And I remember
like, whoa, like, huh, and started praying into that for
myself. And that's when I really started discovering all the
limiting belief systems and orphan mentalities that I'm
talking
you all about tonight. And so while this is a really tough
situation, I believe it's going to reveal some additional things
for healing, but we're going to believe for we're going to
believe for provision for you as well. But be praying into those
couple things. And I look forward to hearing how it goes.
Okay. Thank you. Appreciate it. You're welcome. Renee, go ahead.
So I was trying to figure out what fears and something that
popped into my head was work. So I have this fear, maybe it's, I
guess, imposter syndrome or something, or I think I
shouldn't be there. I don't know enough, but I have the type of
job where you have to kind of test in. It's, it's, it's these
two series of tests, just to give you a background, where
they're like eight months, seven months long that you have to
pass in order to get to this particular level. And I passed
the test. And it's been years since I passed the test. And
still, when I go into the room, when I take my seat at the
table, I feel not confident. I don't want to say anything. I'm
afraid to say anything because I'll be wrong. I'm afraid I'll
make a mistake or something. And this happens in work. And it
also happens in, I have a side travel business. It's the same
thing. Every time I'm booking for a client, a client, I get
very fearful. Am I doing it right? Am I, am I going to make
a mistake? If I make a mistake, and then I'm, you know, judging
myself or, and it's really strong. I mean, I'm and then I
purposely put myself into positions at work that will help
me to grow or do something more. And then I then I just retreat.
Okay, so let me ask you this. Did you ever? Did you ever
experience like fearful things at the dinner table?
I can't remember.
Okay, I just wanted to see if there was any connection there.
Because some people when they go to sit at dinner, when they're
growing up, if their dad was domineering, and like, you know,
people couldn't talk at the table. And like, you know,
sometimes mental, you know, if they're not in a healthy
masculine, they'll pound on the table, and they'll scream at
people and that kind of thing. So I'm going to make I wanted to
make sure that wasn't a connection for you.
Let me just say this, my father was like, eat everything on your
plate, and you're not getting out. Is that what you're
talking about?
Well, that can be a part of it, too. You know, what you said was
really kind of stood out to me when I take my seat at the
table. Now that can be any table, like you're saying you
can do like even when you try to do the arrangements for the
travel, but I just thought that was a very poignant way to say
what you were saying. But one of the things for me, I used to
work in a company that was wealth and trust management, so
a lot of people that had high net worth. And I can remember
when we would have client events in the beginning, I would walk
into the room and feel out of place, insecure. But the
reality is kind of like what you're saying, I had the job
because I was capable. I was capable to work there. And I did
a good job. I was very good at talking to people, I just had to
press through. But I got tired of that feeling on the inside. I
didn't want to walk into the room with that feeling anymore.
And so part of it is that I believed I didn't belong there
in my mind before I went into the room. And so if you believe
even though you've passed the test in your mind, which
remember, the mind is connected to the heart, that you're not
actually qualified to be there, even though you've taken the
test, then you're going to walk into the room with that
insecurity kind of sitting on your shoulder, and it's going to
be there. And so I would encourage you to ask the Lord,
you know, there's a level of maybe a fear of not being
perfect, a fear of messing up. And you know, you're kind of
saying that a fear of making a mistake or something. You know,
why? Think about two, why do you not speak when you get in
there? Is it because you're afraid that if you say
something, that someone's gonna say it's not good enough,
someone's gonna make fun of you? Like, what are the fears that
you're internally hearing and thinking that are keeping you
from actually making, you know, a statement when you're in the
room and really owning the spot that you earned to be there? You
know what I'm saying? And so looking at internally, what is
it that is driving you to, again, that disengage comes up
in my spirit, like, where we're pulling back ladies in a
situation even even when we've earned our opportunity to be
there. So God had me, like some of the things I started doing
was
as I'm practicing being around people that had money.
I started dressing a little differently,
so I felt more confident in my clothes.
Not like, it wasn't like I was spending tons of money,
but even that, I felt better.
But the reality is, is I had to do the work on the inside.
That was the key.
And so-
Yeah, go ahead.
I'm sorry to interrupt.
There was one instance,
and I think it kind of stems from this.
I took a job that I knew I wasn't really qualified for.
And it really-
When was it?
Yeah.
This was like 1999.
Okay.
And I was not, I was just out of like undergrad a few years.
And I thought I was able to do the job going in,
but then I realized I couldn't do the job.
And it kind of just blew up, you know, the people,
it was like all this, you know, the people,
it was a position where I was kind of over people
a little bit.
And so I did not, I just really didn't, I wasn't for it.
I'm just being honest.
I wasn't ready and I took the job anyway.
And it just kind of blew up.
It was, you know, I was talked about, it was, you know,
whatever, it was a lot of things around it
and very hurtful, very hurtful experience.
I'm wondering too,
cause that just popped into my head as you were talking.
And I said, I think that has something,
may have something to do with it.
Oh, I would agree with that.
And I think here, ladies,
this is why it's so important to talk
some of these things through.
I think doing forgiveness prayer sheets to forgive people
that said things about you,
to forgive yourself for taking the job.
If you weren't, didn't feel really ready,
but you know, here's the reality.
I'm not saying you made a wrong decision, okay.
But maybe the fear started to kick in
once you got in there and that caused a lot of shutdown,
you know, and if you were already feeling
like you weren't sure that could have like coupled with that
but, you know, because you're saying,
like when you describe that,
I really shouldn't have taken the job.
So maybe there is some forgiving yourself
that will help release you.
And knowing like what I wrote down is, you know,
a lot of times what will happen is we will internally
and subconsciously believe the lie
that this current job is gonna have the same outcome
as the other job.
Because in that job, you're saying,
I wasn't fully equipped and I went into that
and then this bad thing happened.
And so now even though you're qualified
and you took these tests and you're there,
your internal like psyche is telling you,
you're not qualified, you're not qualified.
You're not, you know, you're not good enough.
They're gonna say things and it's gonna be bad.
And so it's overcoming those lies from the past
and knowing that you're a different person now
and you can stand with your head high,
your shoulders back and be confident
and stand in who God has, you know,
created you to be in this job.
But forgiving those people,
healing from that past situation,
I do think will be really important to you.
And I think that's why it came up tonight, for sure.
Yeah.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
Thank you for sharing.
Damaris, go ahead.
And ladies, just before Damaris starts to share,
I know we're at 938.
So if anyone needs to jump off,
I wanna say, God bless you.
I hope you have a great night.
I am gonna let Damaris share and Rachel
and then we will close down for the night, okay?
Damaris, go ahead.
Yeah.
I was sharing one of the fears that I have
about, you know, like, you know,
like with a spirit mate is that I won't find someone that,
you know, with my expectations, you know,
I do pray about how Jackie told us about changing her palate
and stuff like that.
But, you know, I have some things that I am attracted to.
Some other things I'm not.
And also another thing is that I noticed that sometimes
I attract guys that are not doing really well financially.
And I know that with my ex-husband,
I struggled financially because he had debts,
child support for years that he never paid
because he was irresponsible.
And so it affected me.
It affected me because I was married to him.
And I'm, that's one, maybe it's one of my good things,
strength that I'm good about budgeting.
And, you know, I don't have a lot,
but I don't like to have debts.
And so I'm good.
good about paying those things, you know, and I don't want that. I, I, like, I'm refusing
to be in that kind of relationship. Or, you know, at this stage of my life, I want someone
that is financially well, you know, and that like I had this ex boyfriend, you know, a
few years ago. And he, you know, I never felt like even though he treated me for dinner,
you know, stuff like that. If I have to see, I have to check or order something that he
was like, inexpensive because of comments that he will make. He never told me not to
get, you know, he always told me to get whatever I want, but that way he was and about money
and things like that. Or maybe, maybe today we should eat at home. You know, it's like,
I felt like I was limited. Like I always have to look at the price and I'm tired of looking
at the price. I don't want to be looking at the price. If I want to order these, I want
to order these, even if it costs. But I mean, that's just an example, but I don't know if
you understand what I'm trying to do. I do. I will tell you one of the guys I went on
a date with before I met Brian. I went on a couple dates with this guy. And every time
we would be on a date, he would talk about how, you know, he actually worked in, you
know, investments and stuff, but then he would like nitpick about money. And this one time,
we went on this date and I didn't finish my food because I was full. And he was like,
aren't you gonna finish that? And I said, No, I'm actually full. You can have it if
you'd like it. And he did eat my food, which you know, whatever, that's fine. But it made
me really uncomfortable because, you know, it was more about what he spent and like he
I don't think he liked that I didn't eat it. And I knew that that was not someone that
I was gonna end up with, because I'm not a wasteful person. But I also grew up where,
you know, I was told I had to eat everything on my plate all the time, even past point of
fullness, and that's not healthy. And so I do think that God is showing you some things
to Maris about these prior relationships. And I don't think it's, ladies, I don't think
it's wrong or bad. And we don't teach that you can't have expectations or desires. But
it's just like some things we have to be willing to get rid of our list where we're
just not willing to budge at all. And so, um, you know, I don't want you to panic and
think that God is going to ask you to be with someone that's financially unstable. And we
wouldn't actually encourage that either. But I will tell you that Brian was really good
is really good with his money was really good with his money. But he did have some school
debt, you know, and I have school debt. So we're paying on that. And we've paid off other
debts and things like that that we had. But I did not want to not be in the relationship
with him because of that. Now, I think there's a difference between making that decision
and him and I having a plan of how we're like, even for our wedding, we had a whole budget,
we decided how much we were willing to spend, we saved, we did not go into debt for our
wedding at all. We had a beautiful wedding. And that really meant something to both of
us. And so it doesn't mean that you need to, you know, end up with someone who is financially
not good at stewarding their money. There's a difference between someone having debt because
of a situation they went through, like an ex, you know, taking them to court for the
kids. And I mean, that's what my husband went through. He had debt from what his ex put
him through. And so he had been paying a lot of that off, it was almost paid off by the
time I met him. But if I had just, you know, kind of been like, yeah, I'm not going to
be with anyone, if they have any debt than that, then I would have missed out on him.
And I will tell you that I went through a lot of financial trauma with my ex-husband, as
well as the girl's dad. And so I understand what you're saying. I definitely knew I did
not want to be with someone who was financially irresponsible. Again, there's a difference
between being financially irresponsible, and having some debt because of a situation that
was out of your control, but you're paying on it and you're being responsible. Does that
do want to encourage you to continue to ask the Lord, you know, are there a, are there
lies that you're believing still that God can't provide you?
a man that has, you know, is grown up, is mature and takes care of his finances, you know, and really
making sure that God is healing those past areas, you know, even with that ex, that guy you,
you know, dated and the ways that he was, the things that he was saying, where you don't carry
that into future relationships and fear that other guys are going to treat you the same way.
Okay. Yeah. Yeah. But thank you for sharing. And, and it's a very important thing for
all of you to be talking about and thinking about and make sure that you are praying and
thanking God for sending you a spirit mate again, that walks in all the fruits of the spirit. And
remember self-control is one of those and self-control isn't just like about physical
sexuality. It's also about us being self-controlled in eating, self-controlled in spending, you know,
being disciplined. And so believing that God will send you someone like that,
absolutely partner with that. It's really, really good.
Oh, you're breaking up there. Oh, can I share something else too?
Absolutely. Yeah. You were, I was mentioning that when you first asked about something that we were
anxious or kind of fearful about, and I was saying that my daughter's boyfriend, you know,
I was kind of an easy or a little anxious, not over it, but you know, he's been away from my
and, but he's coming back, you know, into the picture. And he came to my house last night to
give her some flowers, which of course she didn't tell me we were watching something with my
granddaughter and her, and she just got out. But I noticed later the card, and I knew that he was
here. And I just got kind of upset at her because I told her, you know, how he was, how, you know,
he's not even being responsible with what happened here. I mean, my wall, I'm still waiting for this
guy that told me he, he will do it, but he's doing other projects and my wall's still not
be taken care of. And, and I just felt like disrespect. I mean, is she living with you again?
No, she's not. She's, she's on her own place. But on Sunday, we, yesterday we went to church
together and she said that she doesn't want anything with him. But when she sees him,
I don't know something. And that's another fear I have that she will come back to him because
he starts talking sweet to her. And I, I don't know if she believes him and she tells me no,
but then some actions that she shows me that she gets excited. Like yesterday, she was taking
pictures with a flower, the roses. And, you know, it's like, did you forget all these things that
he did that he cheated on you as well, not too long ago. And all these things is like,
did you just forgot about all these things? And, but I don't say anything because I know
that he will end up in a big argument because my daughter, she, I know she will just
to tell me what she thinks, you know, but so that's the fear that I have that
I don't want him around my house, you know and I just get a little worry.
Yeah. And remember before when we prayed and he didn't come back for a long time.
So I want to encourage you just to continue to pray for God to like, even lead him away from
your place. You know, if you know, we, it doesn't sound like he's your daughter's spirit mate. We're
believing that he's not. And so Lord, you know, in Jesus name, help her, help him find someone
else attractive and go, go, you know, like literally you all, I will pray these things
and I'm not trying to manipulate, you know, but like, Hey Lord, if that's not my daughter's
spirit mate, I pray that you'll just like, I pray that over my youngest daughter, I pray that you
would just Lord, just help them both decide to break up. And you know, I don't feel bad about
that because guess what? She was with a guy that was really bad and he was talking bad to her and
they ended up breaking up. I for sure pray those things because I don't want my girls with people
that aren't good for them. And so for whatever it's worth, I don't know how you feel about that,
but I would pray protection around your home protection, you know, over her heart. I prayed
the armor of God on my family all the time. I plead the blood of Jesus Christ when I pray
for myself, for my family, call them by name. I do that all the time. I would recommend doing
that over yourself and your, your daughter.
and your granddaughter, and just really partnering
with God's protection and he's defending you all
and making sure that you continue to put your daughter
on your Jesus Cares Board and keep thanking Jesus
for taking care of her.
Okay, thank you.
You're welcome.
Thank you for sharing.
Rachel, go ahead.
Hi, I have a lot of fear and anxiety
around my body image, my physical appearance.
That started when I was a little girl
and I was teased in school for being too skinny.
And also my nose was too big.
So I got teased about that and I fixated
on all of my physical flaws, anything I didn't like.
I just fixated on it and it made me feel really insecure
all of my childhood and that has just stayed with me
pretty much my whole life.
And now that I'm in my fifties and things are changing,
and there's new flaws that I don't want.
So it has impacted me hugely as far as wanting to date,
wanting to find someone, but being terrified of being,
I don't know, feeling the rejection and it's crippling.
I know I've been stuck for a long time because of it.
And I've been working on the heart work
and that's something really, really big
that's been there all along.
It's really huge.
It feels insurmountable.
And even if it's not realistic,
it doesn't seem to matter.
I'm overwhelmed by it.
Well, and part of it, a lot of times that can happen,
Rachel, first, I wanna just say,
I'm really sorry that you were teased for being skinny,
about your nose, about anything,
about who you are when you were younger.
I know that was not God's heart for you
and I'm sorry that you went through that.
A lot of times the reason it can feel insurmountable
when we are going through that
is because when that happened,
the level of pain that we experienced was bigger
than what we were able to contain as children.
And so even though we're adults now,
we revert back on the inside
to how it felt when we were children.
And so one of the things that I wrote down
or in my spirit that I saw when you said insurmountable,
I saw a picture of like a mountain
and God taking a sledgehammer and just like
hitting the mountain and it just crumbling into pieces.
And I'm not saying it's gonna be easy,
but I feel like God wants to show you that
regarding this insurmountable mountain in your life.
And I said that in quotes
because I believe that God wants to change that
and he doesn't want it to feel overwhelming
and insurmountable for you anymore.
But part of that, how that's gonna happen,
it is praying, it is asking God to show you,
like to give you a vision of that actually,
of him coming in in whatever way,
like knocking that mountain down.
But I think how that's gonna happen first and foremost
is you asking God to give you a vision
when you were a little girl and that was happening.
Like I like to tell people to ask Jesus,
Jesus, where were you?
You know, let's say for example,
I'm just gonna make this up.
When someone was making fun of you
and they were saying something to you
and your feelings were hurt and you were crying
and you were in pain,
Jesus, where were you in this moment?
And Jesus, what do you want me to know
about your heart towards me?
What do you think about me in this moment?
Not now as Rachel adult,
but back then Rachel as a little girl
that was being tormented by the devil through people.
And, you know, the enemy loves to come after our identity,
our body image, because if he can get to our identity,
Identity ladies, man. He thinks he's one he does
but Jesus can come and bring the light and the truth into the core of that situation and
What I just heard the Lord say is take the stinger out
And what I mean by that is that the pain
You know a stinger is where the pain enters that source and literally take the pain out of that situation
As if it never existed
But Jesus is the one that can do that for you you Rachel can't accomplish that on your own and
That's why it feels insurmountable
Okay, but he wants to come in and he wants to remove all the pain out of that like
Have you ever heard of siphoning?
Yeah, yeah
Jesus knows exactly where to put the siphon in to siphon the poison out
okay, and
So asking him to come into those memories and show you like where were you Jesus?
What do you want me to know really asking him to help you see yourself through his eyes not your own eyes
You know because because of the things you were hearing and the way that you're being teased and the way that you described it
fixating on your body
and
seeing all the negative
we need to flip the script and help you see the beauty of who you are and the way that you were created and and
It's more than just memorizing scriptures ladies. I
It's a part of it
Memorizing the scripture that you're fearfully and wonderfully made. Of course. I'm gonna recommend that but
You need to know in the core of who you are that Jesus loved you
He created you he wants to heal the pain that you felt back then and he wants to take it away
He doesn't want you to move forward into the rest of your life having that pain at the core of who you are
Yeah, and so I want to encourage you to do that and then you know as you process that
Come in the group and post about it because there might be additional things that come up with this
and then
I
want to encourage you to
All right, some two other things just came up in my spirit and I'm gonna give these to you but also to everyone I
Want to encourage you I did this with one other lady. It's been a while
Whatever you tend to do to hide things about yourself that you don't like I want to encourage you to
Do something different. So for example this woman in particular that's coming to mind. She didn't like her arms and
So she hadn't even when it was really hot out. She hadn't worn a t-shirt or a tank top in years and
You know as God was healing her and I encouraged her even if she just started at home, okay
To start wearing something that she wouldn't normally wear and getting more comfortable with her body again
And so I want to encourage you to pray about that as well and ask the Lord what that is
Another lady that I did this with it was shorts. She didn't like her legs
So she never wore shorts and I've only done this really, you know, maybe a handful of times with people
But it's definitely brought breakthrough at the times that I've issued that challenge out for for you for you personally for you ladies
Anybody that that's resonating with absolutely run with it
But I want to encourage you to pray about that and see what God might have you do
What you might have you wear and and again, you can start at home
but then I do want to encourage you to at some point venture out and
and really just
Embrace who you are the second thing and I'm gonna give this to all of you. I
Give this assignment out every now and then I feel led to do it tonight before we close because of what Rachel shared
I think a lot of people well, I know a lot of people struggle with body image issues and body shaming and so
One of the things God had me do and I probably need to do it again
Actually as I'm giving you this assignment, so I will work on this this week as well
but to literally stand in front of a mirror and
Without a bunch of clothes on and
To start like if you don't like your legs ladies
Where you start putting your hands on your legs and thanking God for your legs in the way that your legs are shaped and made
If it's your breast thanking God for your breast
However, they are if it's your nose that you would touch your nose and you know
where you are actually embracing the parts of yourself that you have shamed yourself for for years and
That you would start thanking God and actually loving yourself in who
you are in the way that you're created. And it's very, very,
some people don't, they don't, it's very, like hard for them to
actually do it. But I want to encourage you guys to press
through the hard and do it anyways. Because here's the
reality. Again, same reason we asked you to come on camera, get
comfortable here in the heartwork during the heartwork,
do these kind of hard things that we're asking you to do.
Because one day, when you get married, you're gonna have sexy
time, you are, and you want to be comfortable in your body so
that you can be free. And ladies, I want you to know that
that is a process too. And you know, we talked about it this
afternoon in the 1pm session. For any of you that are afraid
about that, I want you to partner with the belief that God
is going to send you a spirit mate that is going to love you,
that is going to be patient with you, and is going to honor your
body and love you the way that you're made, and that it will be
a beautiful time of intimacy together. Y'all sometimes it's
just awkward. I'm not gonna lie. Sometimes there's just weird
stuff that happens. But it can be really awesome and beautiful
too. And I never had that before in any relationship. You know,
when my prior marriage is what I'm talking about horrible
experiences. But I have an amazing relationship with my
husband. And I'm so grateful for God blessing our intimate life
as well. And I want to just encourage you that God has that
for you too. Okay. And so we partner with faith, and we
believe that God will will give us good gifts from heaven. So as
we start to close, I am going to pray over finances. Thank you,
my Lisa. I am gonna pray over finances. And I'm going to pray
and close this out. But ladies, God is greater as he that is in
us than he that is in the world. Okay, partner with that. Father,
thank you so much for everything that you're doing.
God, we thank you for everyone's finances here. But we also thank
you for Megan, we thank you God that you would provide
supernatural provision for her, God that you would, you know,
even for other people that were talking about scarcity and, and
the things that we struggle with God, we just ask you to come in
and just break off those chains and mindsets where we have
limiting belief systems, where we partner with scarcity, we
partner with lack or fear or abandonment. God, we thank you
that you would help us to become good stewards of the money that
you give us God that we would be the be people that would get
checks in the mail that we would have groceries dropped off on
our, our doorstep or a friend just saying, Hey, I want to just
bless you, can I take you to dinner and, and Lord that we
would also be the kind of people that would do that for other
people as well. God, we thank you that you're, you have
abundance that everything in the kingdom of heaven, God that you
want to bless us and give it to us. And Lord, it's not a name,
it claim it, but God, I believe that's our inheritance. Help us
to think like a princess, not that we would take advantage of
that, but God that we would stand in the authority that
you've given us that we are your beloved daughters in whom you
are well pleased. And it's your honor and your love for us that
you desire to bless us. So Lord, I pray that this week that you
would guard and protect us that you would keep watch over us. I
thank you that you declare that you never slumber or sleep, that
your eyes are always honest and that you're working behind the
scenes, even when we can't see it. God, we thank you for
revealings, for healing and acceleration of supernatural
healing and transformation on the inside out. We thank you God
for divine appointments and divine connections. We thank you
God, that in this situation, even with Tatiana and this
professor, God, we ask for this professor to come to know you,
to know Jesus as his Lord and savior. We thank you for shifts
in that room and that atmosphere. We thank you God
for continuing to work in our hearts and set us free from
body image issues. I thank you God that you would help us to
see ourselves the way that you've made us. And we would
say it is good. We thank you father for everything you've
accomplished tonight and all that you're going to do in the
days ahead in Jesus name. Amen. God bless you everyone. Have a
great night. We'll see you again soon. Bye. Amen.