WEBVTT 1 00:00:04.620 --> 00:00:11.740 Hi ladies. Welcome. Good evening. Good evening. Hoping some of you are able to come on camera 2 00:00:11.900 --> 00:00:17.880 to join me here. So I'm not just looking at myself. There's Annette. Hi. Anyone else able 3 00:00:17.880 --> 00:00:23.540 to come on tonight? I'm driving. I'm sorry. I'll get on when I get out of the car. That's 4 00:00:23.540 --> 00:00:28.760 totally fine. As always, y'all, if you're driving or you're not able to, that's okay. 5 00:00:28.760 --> 00:00:33.740 I'm just putting that kind of invitation out there for those that can. And yeah, if you're 6 00:00:33.740 --> 00:00:38.820 eating dinner, totally fine to wait, all the things. But we're going to talk a little bit 7 00:00:38.820 --> 00:00:43.040 tonight about coming out of hiding. So it felt like it was a good time to remind you all to 8 00:00:43.040 --> 00:00:48.140 come on camera every time that you can. And so glad that you're here joining us tonight. If you 9 00:00:48.140 --> 00:00:51.840 have not met me before, my name is Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the Master Heart Work Coaches here in 10 00:00:51.840 --> 00:00:56.740 the community. And we have amazing Annette Lewis with us tonight as well. She's one of our peer 11 00:00:56.740 --> 00:01:02.780 coaches. And just y'all will see her in the community group responding and all the things. 12 00:01:02.900 --> 00:01:06.800 But she's now been joining us for these live sessions, which I love. And I'm so glad that 13 00:01:06.800 --> 00:01:11.840 she's here. I have a couple housekeeping things tonight, super important ones I felt like. 14 00:01:12.060 --> 00:01:16.700 And then I'm going to have Annette do a few and pray us in, and then we'll go into the content. 15 00:01:16.800 --> 00:01:22.860 But some of the things God just was putting on my heart, this one's more of just an announcement, 16 00:01:22.860 --> 00:01:30.480 if you will. So we are officially going to be this week. Okay, don't worry. As soon as it's up, 17 00:01:30.480 --> 00:01:34.700 I will let you all know. But the Facebook group for this Phase 1 Community Heart Work, 18 00:01:34.880 --> 00:01:39.380 we call it the Heart Work, we're going to open that group back up. We are going to keep the 19 00:01:39.380 --> 00:01:43.980 community group on the app. So if you are not someone who likes Facebook at all, don't worry. 20 00:01:44.340 --> 00:01:48.800 You can still post in the app. Even if you're okay with Facebook, you can still post in the app. 21 00:01:48.800 --> 00:01:53.420 We will still be checking and responding to people there. But what we have found 22 00:01:53.420 --> 00:01:59.660 is since we brought everybody onto the app, people are communicating and doing a good job. 23 00:01:59.740 --> 00:02:03.660 But sometimes people aren't seeing the notifications when we respond to each other. 24 00:02:03.880 --> 00:02:11.660 Sometimes the engagement isn't there as much, like the camaraderie, everybody's supporting 25 00:02:11.660 --> 00:02:16.560 each other. I just have seen way higher levels of that when we used to be on Facebook. And so 26 00:02:16.560 --> 00:02:22.200 we are going to be posting a link under the Resources tab. Again, I will let you all know 27 00:02:22.200 --> 00:02:27.380 as soon as it's ready, I'll put a post up under that Announcements tab. And it will say, 28 00:02:27.780 --> 00:02:32.120 hey, the Facebook group is ready. You're going to go to the Resources tab and the link will be 29 00:02:32.120 --> 00:02:36.360 there. You'll click on the link and it will take you to the page that you will request to join. 30 00:02:37.140 --> 00:02:43.360 We are a team on the back end. We'll go through all of your requests. So don't freak out if it's 31 00:02:43.360 --> 00:02:48.220 approved right away, okay? Promise everyone. Everyone promise to be patient on this? Okay, 32 00:02:48.160 --> 00:02:53.700 awesome. Here's why. Our team on the back end has to go in and make sure that you are a paying 33 00:02:53.700 --> 00:02:58.260 member of our community so that they're pretty quick most of the time. But I just want you all 34 00:02:58.260 --> 00:03:03.320 to have the heads up. Don't worry. We'll get everybody in as quick as we can. And you won't 35 00:03:03.320 --> 00:03:08.580 miss out on anything because the app will always be up. You can go in there. All right, so that's 36 00:03:08.580 --> 00:03:14.300 all on that. Then I wanted to talk a little bit about this thing that we call FOMO. 37 00:03:15.560 --> 00:03:19.660 A couple years ago, well, maybe more than a couple years ago, but I remember like, 38 00:03:19.900 --> 00:03:24.080 what is FOMO? Like the first time I heard it. And so if you don't know what that is, 39 00:03:24.100 --> 00:03:28.520 it's the fear of missing out. I want to talk about this for a few minutes tonight, 40 00:03:28.560 --> 00:03:34.780 even before we start our content. But I do believe that it weaves into our content tonight as well. 41 00:03:34.780 --> 00:03:40.820 I don't want you all to have FOMO on anything. Okay. And so I want to encourage you in this 42 00:03:40.820 --> 00:03:48.660 hard work process and invite you all to come out of the fear of FOMO. So last week we talked about 43 00:03:48.660 --> 00:03:54.360 overcoming fear and anxiety. Well, FOMO is a real thing. What are some ways it shows up in your 44 00:03:54.260 --> 00:03:59.680 life? Okay. FOMO is fear of missing out. Well, what are you afraid of missing out on? I know 45 00:03:59.680 --> 00:04:03.620 people in this community that are afraid they're going to miss out on their spirit mate 46 00:04:04.420 --> 00:04:11.880 when I'm just going to call him Mr. John comes into the, onto the scene. And Mr. John is a 47 00:04:11.880 --> 00:04:17.839 smooth talker. And we're not really sure if he's a good guy and we're in heartwork, but I don't 48 00:04:17.839 --> 00:04:24.180 want to miss out on this guy because he could be the one. Well, here's one thing I can promise you 49 00:04:24.420 --> 00:04:31.780 this. God is not going to send most likely. I'm not saying it never happens, but I'm saying most 50 00:04:31.780 --> 00:04:37.940 of the time God does not send our spirit mate when we have just committed to join a heart 51 00:04:37.940 --> 00:04:43.340 healing process to clean out our heart so that we don't attract the wrong people. And when we're 52 00:04:43.340 --> 00:04:47.000 committing to like, Hey, I'm going to press pause on this and I'm going to take care of myself. 53 00:04:47.340 --> 00:04:52.560 He's just most times I've, I've very rarely seen him do that. And I've been doing this for four 54 00:04:52.560 --> 00:04:58.500 years. And so again, I'm not saying it can't ever happen. I'm just saying we can press pause on 55 00:04:58.500 --> 00:04:59.200 those people. 56 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:04.880 And say, you know what, if this is my guy, he's going to be there when I'm done. 57 00:05:05.840 --> 00:05:08.280 Because I'm not going to miss out on my spirit mate. 58 00:05:09.020 --> 00:05:10.780 We don't miss out on our spirit mates. 59 00:05:11.120 --> 00:05:12.940 So I want you to partner with God. 60 00:05:13.180 --> 00:05:14.780 I trust you in my process. 61 00:05:14.980 --> 00:05:17.000 I trust you in the timing of all things. 62 00:05:17.080 --> 00:05:19.760 Is there something else that you're afraid of missing out on? 63 00:05:19.840 --> 00:05:23.640 Is there any other areas where this is circling around in your life, where you 64 00:05:23.640 --> 00:05:27.720 see somebody else doing something and automatically now you feel like you're 65 00:05:27.840 --> 00:05:33.460 missing out? We're on this, uh, additional kind of extended spouses retreat. 66 00:05:34.060 --> 00:05:40.460 And last night, um, I, I was so blessed and honored to be able to help host our 67 00:05:40.460 --> 00:05:41.580 prophesy your year event. 68 00:05:42.160 --> 00:05:46.100 Well, Brian and the crew here, they all went for ice cream. 69 00:05:46.840 --> 00:05:47.360 Okay. 70 00:05:47.400 --> 00:05:51.640 In my heart, I was like, man, it'd be cool to hang out with that group of people 71 00:05:51.640 --> 00:05:54.380 tonight, but I can't be two places at once. 72 00:05:54.380 --> 00:06:01.380 So in my heart, I have to get myself into a good posture and know like, it's okay. 73 00:06:01.560 --> 00:06:05.900 And I'm not like, yeah, that would be cool to be there, but I I'm here and I'm 74 00:06:05.900 --> 00:06:09.580 just going to be really intentional, be present here and know that I'm not 75 00:06:09.640 --> 00:06:10.680 missing out. 76 00:06:11.540 --> 00:06:12.780 I'm right where I need to be. 77 00:06:12.840 --> 00:06:17.460 And I'm talking to you all about this as well, because I want to encourage you to 78 00:06:18.260 --> 00:06:20.780 expand your mind, expand your thinking. 79 00:06:20.780 --> 00:06:28.460 Like, and in this, I want you to ask God, what is heaven saying about men? 80 00:06:29.320 --> 00:06:33.020 What is heaven saying about men? 81 00:06:33.660 --> 00:06:36.520 What is heaven saying about your spirit mate? 82 00:06:37.340 --> 00:06:41.600 And do your thoughts align with the thoughts of heaven? 83 00:06:41.800 --> 00:06:44.020 And maybe you're like, well, I don't even know. 84 00:06:44.020 --> 00:06:47.220 I don't know what heaven is saying about men or my spirit mate. 85 00:06:47.480 --> 00:06:49.960 Well, here, I can tell you a good way to find out. 86 00:06:49.960 --> 00:06:54.800 Get into your Bible and start reading what the kingdom of heaven sounds like. 87 00:06:55.460 --> 00:06:58.280 And that's what heaven is saying over men. 88 00:06:58.400 --> 00:07:00.720 That's what heaven is saying over your spirit mate. 89 00:07:01.080 --> 00:07:05.980 Now there is a current present reality that we can lean into, you know, the 90 00:07:05.980 --> 00:07:09.580 prophetic reality or things like that, that God is speaking in a fresh manner. 91 00:07:10.000 --> 00:07:14.160 But even in that, we can lean on what the word of God says. 92 00:07:14.220 --> 00:07:19.460 And if your heart and your mindset about men and your spirit mate, aren't lining 93 00:07:19.460 --> 00:07:26.260 up with truth of God's word, I want to encourage you to ask the Lord to reveal 94 00:07:26.260 --> 00:07:31.160 the root of your unhealthy heart posture regarding men or your spirit mate. 95 00:07:31.220 --> 00:07:36.460 And that might include the fear of it's never going to happen for me. 96 00:07:38.140 --> 00:07:43.400 You're here and you're showing up and you know, you, you somewhere believe 97 00:07:43.400 --> 00:07:47.340 that God has this for you, or some people do just come here for 98 00:07:47.340 --> 00:07:48.880 heartwork and that's totally fine. 99 00:07:49.620 --> 00:07:54.620 But if you are in the camp that you're like, God, I do want this. 100 00:07:55.220 --> 00:08:00.160 I believe you have this for me, but you're still internally like, 101 00:08:00.560 --> 00:08:02.700 I just don't even think it's possible. 102 00:08:02.800 --> 00:08:05.180 I don't even know how it's going to happen because it hasn't 103 00:08:05.180 --> 00:08:06.080 happened for me before. 104 00:08:06.380 --> 00:08:07.580 So how is it going to happen now? 105 00:08:07.760 --> 00:08:12.820 And for some of you remember, you might've been what we would call in your, your 106 00:08:12.820 --> 00:08:15.420 mind, God hasn't come through for me in 30 years. 107 00:08:15.540 --> 00:08:17.600 Some of y'all haven't been dating in a long time. 108 00:08:17.600 --> 00:08:25.180 But the reality is it's not that God withheld that from you. 109 00:08:25.740 --> 00:08:29.480 Unfortunately, your counterfeit identities led you into the waiting 110 00:08:29.480 --> 00:08:32.580 room and, and unfortunately so did religion. 111 00:08:33.520 --> 00:08:34.100 Okay. 112 00:08:34.400 --> 00:08:39.400 So let's come out of alignment and agreement with God withheld this from me. 113 00:08:39.400 --> 00:08:42.100 I've been waiting and waiting and doing all the things and God's 114 00:08:42.100 --> 00:08:43.140 not coming through for me. 115 00:08:43.140 --> 00:08:45.120 And let's partner with, you know what? 116 00:08:45.120 --> 00:08:48.960 Yeah, I'm going to own my side of the street. 117 00:08:49.100 --> 00:08:53.760 I'm going to own where I allowed religion to back me into a corner, you 118 00:08:54.600 --> 00:08:58.820 know, all these things and, and let's focus on, I'm just going to move forward. 119 00:08:58.840 --> 00:09:00.280 I can't change that past. 120 00:09:00.380 --> 00:09:02.440 All I can do is change today. 121 00:09:02.440 --> 00:09:05.840 Ladies, all we can do is change now and move forward. 122 00:09:05.940 --> 00:09:11.120 And so I want to encourage you come out of focusing on what hasn't been, and 123 00:09:11.120 --> 00:09:14.940 let's focus on what can be, and that's where we're going to go tonight. 124 00:09:14.940 --> 00:09:19.640 We're going to go into the real you, who did God originally create you to be long 125 00:09:19.640 --> 00:09:23.700 before trauma or wounds ever entered your life and imagine it if you can. 126 00:09:24.360 --> 00:09:27.880 And it's so hard for some of us because trauma, it was like, it was there 127 00:09:27.880 --> 00:09:29.360 before we even came out of the womb. 128 00:09:29.820 --> 00:09:38.380 But if you can just imagine like heaven bliss, like abundance, hope, grace, joy, 129 00:09:38.380 --> 00:09:46.380 like complete innocence, even a glimmer of that understanding that is, that is 130 00:09:46.380 --> 00:09:50.620 literally what God designed for us before trauma or wounds ever entered. 131 00:09:50.820 --> 00:09:55.900 And he wants to every day help us to get a little bit closer to that fullness, 132 00:09:56.180 --> 00:09:58.600 that fullness of who he created us to be. 133 00:09:58.600 --> 00:09:59.920 Not these counterfeit identities. 134 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:03.420 It's not the lack places that we sometimes live in. 135 00:10:03.620 --> 00:10:07.460 And remember, His grace, it's sufficient for you. 136 00:10:08.420 --> 00:10:09.900 It's sufficient for you, 137 00:10:09.900 --> 00:10:12.760 no matter what has had you hung up, stuck, 138 00:10:13.240 --> 00:10:16.160 whatever it's been, and He's gonna come through for you. 139 00:10:16.260 --> 00:10:18.160 All right, I'm gonna pass it over to Annette. 140 00:10:18.220 --> 00:10:19.260 I'm gonna have her do, 141 00:10:19.500 --> 00:10:21.080 I'm priming the pump already, ladies. 142 00:10:21.500 --> 00:10:22.660 Can you feel it? 143 00:10:23.680 --> 00:10:27.840 God's got some great things in store for you tonight. 144 00:10:27.840 --> 00:10:30.560 Like, really continue to pass your heart. 145 00:10:31.760 --> 00:10:33.940 Like, everybody here can get an upgrade 146 00:10:33.940 --> 00:10:35.920 and massive breakthrough tonight, literally. 147 00:10:36.180 --> 00:10:37.600 And those watching the replay as well, 148 00:10:37.660 --> 00:10:39.540 we see you, even if you can't join us live 149 00:10:39.540 --> 00:10:40.540 and you're in another country, 150 00:10:40.600 --> 00:10:42.280 we love you, we're praying for you, 151 00:10:42.280 --> 00:10:44.480 and we're so excited for what God's doing in your life. 152 00:10:44.480 --> 00:10:47.580 Okay, Annette, I would love to hear what you have to say, 153 00:10:47.600 --> 00:10:49.900 and so excited to have you here again with us tonight. 154 00:10:50.720 --> 00:10:51.800 Thank you, Bethany. 155 00:10:51.840 --> 00:10:54.220 And those are such exciting words because it's true. 156 00:10:54.320 --> 00:10:56.480 Holy Spirit has shown up here with us tonight. 157 00:10:57.120 --> 00:11:00.560 And for ladies that can be on tonight 158 00:11:00.640 --> 00:11:03.340 or watching the replay, God is good. 159 00:11:03.540 --> 00:11:07.400 And I am a testimony to the work that He does 160 00:11:07.400 --> 00:11:09.300 through this course and through the heart work, 161 00:11:09.460 --> 00:11:11.860 and I'm blessed to be able to be here with all of you. 162 00:11:14.160 --> 00:11:18.360 Supernatural Saturday, it was so good this week, so good. 163 00:11:19.340 --> 00:11:21.920 If you weren't able to join live, 164 00:11:22.320 --> 00:11:23.860 I encourage you to listen to the replay. 165 00:11:24.100 --> 00:11:26.080 It's a great way to connect every week, 166 00:11:26.080 --> 00:11:29.360 to be fed spiritually, and just to be challenged 167 00:11:30.000 --> 00:11:33.160 in your walk with God and encouraged and inspired 168 00:11:33.420 --> 00:11:35.040 by so many things. 169 00:11:35.200 --> 00:11:38.320 The theme this week was the king is in the field. 170 00:11:38.700 --> 00:11:41.580 He's here, he's near us, he's in our lives, 171 00:11:42.120 --> 00:11:44.200 he's connected intimately to us. 172 00:11:44.580 --> 00:11:47.200 And so we wanna take advantage of that 173 00:11:47.820 --> 00:11:51.980 and walk with him and meet with him each day. 174 00:11:51.980 --> 00:11:57.420 So the next thing is also just a reminder 175 00:11:59.720 --> 00:12:04.300 that each week following each Sunday, 176 00:12:04.860 --> 00:12:06.860 then a post goes up where we ask you 177 00:12:07.000 --> 00:12:09.240 to jump in and share with us. 178 00:12:09.700 --> 00:12:11.240 Share with us how Supernatural Saturday 179 00:12:11.240 --> 00:12:13.420 has inspired you or encouraged you, 180 00:12:13.420 --> 00:12:16.980 or also let us know what you're facing this week 181 00:12:18.460 --> 00:12:22.500 and how you're progressing through the material 182 00:12:22.500 --> 00:12:25.480 for the heart work so that we can encourage you. 183 00:12:25.620 --> 00:12:27.640 If anything's coming up, please come in there 184 00:12:27.660 --> 00:12:31.980 and let us know so that we can encourage and support you. 185 00:12:32.420 --> 00:12:34.200 We're praying for you always, 186 00:12:34.960 --> 00:12:39.320 and really wanna see all that God has for each one of you 187 00:12:39.320 --> 00:12:40.960 in the days and the weeks ahead 188 00:12:41.020 --> 00:12:45.980 that you are a part of this group before you move on. 189 00:12:46.980 --> 00:12:49.340 And now we're going to pray. 190 00:12:51.360 --> 00:12:54.260 Was somebody able to help Eloise get in? 191 00:12:56.280 --> 00:12:57.800 She was asking about getting in. 192 00:12:58.140 --> 00:13:00.600 I did a message, but I see messages, but I don't wanna. 193 00:13:01.260 --> 00:13:03.200 Yeah, it's okay, go ahead and pray. 194 00:13:03.500 --> 00:13:05.960 Okay, all right, I'm gonna go ahead and pray us in. 195 00:13:07.420 --> 00:13:09.440 Dear Heavenly Father, we thank you for the blessing 196 00:13:09.440 --> 00:13:11.960 and the privilege to come together tonight before you. 197 00:13:12.240 --> 00:13:16.200 We thank you for what you've prepared already ahead of time. 198 00:13:16.200 --> 00:13:17.960 And we invite your Holy Spirit 199 00:13:18.600 --> 00:13:21.040 into every moment that we have together. 200 00:13:21.760 --> 00:13:24.420 Pray that you would anoint Bethany's words, 201 00:13:24.580 --> 00:13:25.920 that you would speak through her, 202 00:13:26.220 --> 00:13:27.960 that we would come out of agreement 203 00:13:28.300 --> 00:13:30.820 with lies and trauma from the past, 204 00:13:30.820 --> 00:13:33.740 and we would step into the truth of who you say we are. 205 00:13:33.800 --> 00:13:35.340 And we would come into agreement 206 00:13:35.340 --> 00:13:37.380 with the truth that's spoken over our lives 207 00:13:37.380 --> 00:13:39.200 and that has been spoken over our lives 208 00:13:39.200 --> 00:13:41.680 that you say about us. 209 00:13:42.360 --> 00:13:44.480 Continue to grow us, to change us, 210 00:13:44.760 --> 00:13:46.060 and to make us more like you 211 00:13:46.060 --> 00:13:47.520 so that we can step into the world 212 00:13:47.520 --> 00:13:49.500 as our most authentic selves 213 00:13:49.600 --> 00:13:53.820 and walk in confidence in the power that you give us 214 00:13:53.820 --> 00:13:55.940 when you are in our lives. 215 00:13:56.200 --> 00:13:57.600 In your name I pray, amen. 216 00:13:58.680 --> 00:14:01.420 Amen, amen, I love that, thank you so much. 217 00:14:02.440 --> 00:14:05.580 All right, ladies, so I wanna talk about the real you, 218 00:14:05.700 --> 00:14:08.620 like who is that, the true identity that God gave you 219 00:14:08.620 --> 00:14:10.140 as I was talking about before, 220 00:14:10.300 --> 00:14:11.440 the trauma, the wounds, 221 00:14:11.460 --> 00:14:15.060 or even the wrong perceptions from the world, okay, 222 00:14:15.060 --> 00:14:16.240 have entered your mind. 223 00:14:16.960 --> 00:14:19.240 And I'm gonna start with the phrase 224 00:14:19.240 --> 00:14:20.720 that I love to say this. 225 00:14:20.880 --> 00:14:22.120 This is one of my favorite things. 226 00:14:22.160 --> 00:14:23.380 I love coaching on all things, 227 00:14:23.460 --> 00:14:25.600 but this is probably one of my favorite ones. 228 00:14:25.820 --> 00:14:27.300 It's such a powerful week, 229 00:14:27.300 --> 00:14:30.140 and it's a week where really I'm hoping 230 00:14:30.140 --> 00:14:33.600 that you're gonna shift from over here to here, 231 00:14:33.600 --> 00:14:35.780 you know, and you're gonna just keep going and going. 232 00:14:35.900 --> 00:14:37.920 No matter what week in the content you're on, 233 00:14:37.920 --> 00:14:39.480 I believe this can be transformative. 234 00:14:39.980 --> 00:14:41.060 Here's the question. 235 00:14:42.320 --> 00:14:44.760 Who told you that you were naked? 236 00:14:46.780 --> 00:14:49.700 Who told you that you were naked? 237 00:14:50.180 --> 00:14:51.540 And what I mean by that, 238 00:14:51.860 --> 00:14:55.260 it's based on scripture from Genesis three, eight through 11 239 00:14:55.260 --> 00:14:57.900 and this is the, in the NIV version, this is what it says. 240 00:14:58.000 --> 00:14:59.940 Then the man and his wife heard the sound 241 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:02.060 The Lord God, as he was walking in the garden 242 00:15:02.060 --> 00:15:02.980 in the cool of the day, 243 00:15:03.080 --> 00:15:06.240 and they hid from the Lord among the trees of the garden. 244 00:15:07.040 --> 00:15:09.400 But the Lord called to the man, he called to Adam, 245 00:15:09.460 --> 00:15:10.880 and he said, where are you? 246 00:15:12.280 --> 00:15:15.260 He, Adam, answered, I heard you in the garden, 247 00:15:15.720 --> 00:15:20.120 and I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid. 248 00:15:20.920 --> 00:15:24.120 Verse 11, and he, God, said, 249 00:15:25.040 --> 00:15:27.940 who told you that you were naked? 250 00:15:27.940 --> 00:15:29.720 Have you eaten from the tree 251 00:15:29.720 --> 00:15:32.500 that I commanded you not to eat from? 252 00:15:34.040 --> 00:15:38.120 So who told you that you were not smart? 253 00:15:38.520 --> 00:15:41.140 Who told you that you couldn't find a spirit mate 254 00:15:41.140 --> 00:15:42.320 or ever get married? 255 00:15:42.860 --> 00:15:45.500 Who told you that you were, you know, not beautiful? 256 00:15:45.880 --> 00:15:47.200 Who told you that, you know, 257 00:15:47.200 --> 00:15:49.860 this is what I mean by the naked aspect. 258 00:15:49.920 --> 00:15:51.960 Who told you that you were damaged goods? 259 00:15:52.060 --> 00:15:54.740 Who told you that divorce had to define you? 260 00:15:54.760 --> 00:15:56.660 You know, these things that we believe 261 00:15:56.660 --> 00:15:59.020 and that we live into, where did they come from? 262 00:15:59.160 --> 00:16:01.040 Did they come from the lies we believed 263 00:16:01.160 --> 00:16:03.720 as a result of the trauma, the wounds that we went through? 264 00:16:03.800 --> 00:16:06.520 Or was it something someone said to us 265 00:16:06.600 --> 00:16:09.340 that we now we're just keep cycling it back through 266 00:16:09.340 --> 00:16:10.860 and back through and back through? 267 00:16:11.240 --> 00:16:13.000 And God is saying to you tonight, 268 00:16:13.060 --> 00:16:15.520 I want you to come out of the hamster wheel. 269 00:16:15.760 --> 00:16:18.440 I want you to come out of that place of repetition 270 00:16:18.920 --> 00:16:22.760 and the rewinding and reversing and rehearsing 271 00:16:22.800 --> 00:16:24.720 of the things that do not align 272 00:16:24.720 --> 00:16:27.360 with the kingdom of heaven over you. 273 00:16:29.140 --> 00:16:32.540 What is it and how is it that you got to the place 274 00:16:32.540 --> 00:16:35.500 where you look at yourself and you feel exposed, 275 00:16:35.840 --> 00:16:40.460 you feel bare, you feel totally like left out there 276 00:16:40.500 --> 00:16:42.540 with no one covering you? 277 00:16:44.140 --> 00:16:45.920 Who told you that you were naked? 278 00:16:46.740 --> 00:16:49.460 The reality is, is that God wants you to come out 279 00:16:49.460 --> 00:16:50.420 from under the rubble. 280 00:16:50.500 --> 00:16:52.260 He wants you to come out from under the mess 281 00:16:52.260 --> 00:16:55.860 and His loving kindness is daily leading you there. 282 00:16:56.120 --> 00:17:00.160 It's whether or not we accept the invitation to follow Him. 283 00:17:00.900 --> 00:17:03.480 And I'm not saying it's always easy ladies, okay? 284 00:17:03.480 --> 00:17:08.720 Cause it's remember, we're not just shifting our thoughts. 285 00:17:09.040 --> 00:17:13.680 We're trying to, in Jesus name, shift in our hearts. 286 00:17:14.260 --> 00:17:16.380 And that happens through the healing 287 00:17:16.900 --> 00:17:18.300 that takes place in our hearts. 288 00:17:18.900 --> 00:17:22.380 That's what enables our mind to be transformed, okay? 289 00:17:22.800 --> 00:17:25.540 Yes, it is reading scripture, but a lot of times, 290 00:17:25.660 --> 00:17:29.100 even when we read scripture, we tend to not believe it 291 00:17:29.340 --> 00:17:32.180 if our heart is telling us a different story. 292 00:17:32.780 --> 00:17:34.160 Do you see how that works? 293 00:17:34.760 --> 00:17:36.360 All right, I'm gonna keep going. 294 00:17:36.580 --> 00:17:38.160 So I wanna encourage you tonight. 295 00:17:39.260 --> 00:17:40.840 It's time to come out of hiding. 296 00:17:41.000 --> 00:17:42.260 What does this look like for you? 297 00:17:42.560 --> 00:17:44.920 It's time for you to show up fully in the world. 298 00:17:44.920 --> 00:17:46.720 And what does that look like for you? 299 00:17:46.720 --> 00:17:50.260 Some of you maybe, you know, are staying home. 300 00:17:50.400 --> 00:17:51.840 I said this this afternoon, 301 00:17:52.060 --> 00:17:53.720 so I'm not saying people are fat, 302 00:17:53.800 --> 00:17:55.000 but this is just what I'm gonna say. 303 00:17:55.400 --> 00:17:56.960 Sometimes we stay home in our, 304 00:17:57.420 --> 00:18:00.680 I'm gonna call it my fat jeans, my cozy pants, 305 00:18:00.680 --> 00:18:03.340 and my big sweatshirts, and I'm not going out and about. 306 00:18:03.380 --> 00:18:05.420 Y'all, I did it too when I was single, 307 00:18:06.920 --> 00:18:07.900 because you know what? 308 00:18:07.960 --> 00:18:10.180 There were times when I didn't like the attention 309 00:18:10.180 --> 00:18:12.560 I was getting when I did look good. 310 00:18:13.340 --> 00:18:15.060 And I'm not saying that in a prideful way. 311 00:18:15.060 --> 00:18:17.260 When the guys would whistle and stuff, 312 00:18:17.360 --> 00:18:18.580 man, I would just start to shrink 313 00:18:18.580 --> 00:18:20.320 and I would pull back into myself. 314 00:18:21.480 --> 00:18:24.000 That was one thing that caused me to do that. 315 00:18:24.500 --> 00:18:25.980 But here are some other things. 316 00:18:26.140 --> 00:18:28.500 Some of you all are staying in your homes 317 00:18:28.660 --> 00:18:32.820 and just binging on TV instead of actually going out 318 00:18:33.260 --> 00:18:34.560 and participating in the world. 319 00:18:35.260 --> 00:18:37.220 There's a big world out there. 320 00:18:37.840 --> 00:18:41.500 And we're literally missing amazing opportunities 321 00:18:41.500 --> 00:18:46.920 all the time because we are partnering with fear somewhere. 322 00:18:48.900 --> 00:18:51.340 Last week, we talked about overcoming fear and anxiety 323 00:18:51.340 --> 00:18:53.080 because I was prepping you all. 324 00:18:53.320 --> 00:18:54.500 And if you're brand new this week, 325 00:18:54.600 --> 00:18:56.580 this is your first night, which I forgot to ask, 326 00:18:56.980 --> 00:18:58.220 who's new joining us tonight? 327 00:18:58.600 --> 00:18:59.900 Welcome, I forgot to say that. 328 00:18:59.960 --> 00:19:01.140 I always say that at the beginning. 329 00:19:01.280 --> 00:19:03.240 And for my ladies returning, welcome back. 330 00:19:04.340 --> 00:19:06.600 But even if this is your first week, it's totally fine. 331 00:19:06.640 --> 00:19:09.260 You can go back and catch that replay from last week. 332 00:19:09.820 --> 00:19:12.600 But I did that to kind of help prep you all 333 00:19:12.600 --> 00:19:15.980 to receive the truth of stepping into the real you 334 00:19:15.980 --> 00:19:17.340 and coming out of hiding. 335 00:19:17.880 --> 00:19:19.520 And the way that we come out of hiding 336 00:19:19.520 --> 00:19:22.280 is that we literally overcome fear. 337 00:19:22.560 --> 00:19:24.080 We overcome anxiety and fear 338 00:19:24.080 --> 00:19:25.900 and all the things that have held us back 339 00:19:25.900 --> 00:19:28.840 and we press forward, we step into good things. 340 00:19:29.020 --> 00:19:31.040 Here's something I want you to be thinking about. 341 00:19:31.340 --> 00:19:34.620 These are some definitions of coming out of hiding. 342 00:19:35.320 --> 00:19:36.900 We're gonna be authentic. 343 00:19:37.380 --> 00:19:38.520 We're gonna be present. 344 00:19:39.120 --> 00:19:42.060 We're gonna be actually engaged in life. 345 00:19:43.200 --> 00:19:43.960 Think about that. 346 00:19:45.480 --> 00:19:47.080 What does it look like? 347 00:19:47.120 --> 00:19:49.620 What do you think heaven is saying to you tonight 348 00:19:50.060 --> 00:19:54.000 about being fully engaged in the life that's ahead of you? 349 00:20:00.660 --> 00:20:04.320 I'm pausing intentionally because I want you to think about it. 350 00:20:06.540 --> 00:20:15.760 What does it look like to live fully alive, fully engaged, having fun, connecting with people? 351 00:20:18.880 --> 00:20:23.560 Maybe it's you all are intentionally choosing to be fully present in a moment. 352 00:20:24.040 --> 00:20:28.580 You walk into a room and automatically you all, I know this happens because it happens, 353 00:20:28.580 --> 00:20:32.900 it's happened for me in the past. We walk in and we automatically start comparing 354 00:20:32.900 --> 00:20:37.460 ourselves to other women in the room. That links back to insecurity in us 355 00:20:38.980 --> 00:20:43.340 and comparison traps the enemy's trying to get us in because he doesn't want us to connect 356 00:20:43.720 --> 00:20:47.480 with other women because you know what happens when women connect with each other 357 00:20:47.480 --> 00:20:55.460 and grow in relationship? Just guess. Powerful things start to happen in the spirit realm 358 00:20:55.460 --> 00:21:02.660 because we were built for connection. So were men, but women, we carry this ability to 359 00:21:03.420 --> 00:21:08.820 awaken things within each other just by being with each other. If we're healthy people, 360 00:21:09.580 --> 00:21:14.980 some people that were around y'all, they're not super healthy and they're pulling you backwards 361 00:21:15.500 --> 00:21:18.860 as you're trying to go forward. They're just keep pulling you backwards. 362 00:21:19.240 --> 00:21:21.960 So some of y'all may need to make some shifts there, 363 00:21:22.700 --> 00:21:29.420 but also being fully alive and coming out of hiding is recognizing our true self. Who are we? 364 00:21:30.480 --> 00:21:35.740 What are the things that we love to do? So many people as I've been coaching in the heart work 365 00:21:35.740 --> 00:21:40.540 and in this community now again for four years, I can't tell you how many people, 366 00:21:40.740 --> 00:21:47.920 and this used to be me too, so there's no shame if this is you, but how many people don't even 367 00:21:47.920 --> 00:21:55.200 know what they like to do? And then they start trying to date and then everything 368 00:21:55.260 --> 00:22:00.780 becomes about what the guy likes to do and then that goes down a road that isn't good. 369 00:22:01.620 --> 00:22:08.480 But the problem is that the women, us, didn't even know what we liked to begin with. 370 00:22:09.540 --> 00:22:15.100 What makes us come alive? What brings fullness and happiness and joy and connection to us? 371 00:22:15.100 --> 00:22:22.060 What refreshes us? So I want you to be thinking about that and praying about it, asking God, 372 00:22:22.160 --> 00:22:27.160 if you don't know, God help me to know what causes me to come alive. You know how else we 373 00:22:27.160 --> 00:22:32.400 can figure that out? We just go do some stuff. And some of the stuff we do, we might be like, 374 00:22:32.480 --> 00:22:38.160 yeah, that was all right. And other stuff we might be like, man, that was so great. 375 00:22:38.580 --> 00:22:43.200 I'm so glad I went and did that. That's the stuff you should go do more of. 376 00:22:43.840 --> 00:22:46.860 And then go do some other new things that you haven't done yet. 377 00:22:46.980 --> 00:22:50.320 And this doesn't have to cost a lot of money, ladies. It doesn't. 378 00:22:53.020 --> 00:22:59.200 And then also actively participating in life with purpose and intention. What is God's calling on 379 00:22:59.200 --> 00:23:04.760 your life? Who has he called you to be? What are some gifts that he's placed inside of you 380 00:23:05.060 --> 00:23:09.220 that he's saying, hey, I want to breathe life into this. I want to see you, you know, 381 00:23:09.220 --> 00:23:15.240 start serving in the community and in the church or maybe at a nonprofit organization or whatever 382 00:23:15.240 --> 00:23:19.520 it is that you're like, your heart is just driven to passion regarding that thing. 383 00:23:20.120 --> 00:23:27.760 And here's another aspect, ladies, not holding anything back. How many of you here, I would love 384 00:23:27.760 --> 00:23:31.560 to see a raise of hands. You can do your digital hands or you can agree with me in the chat, 385 00:23:32.100 --> 00:23:35.000 whichever way is easier for you. And I want you to be really honest here. 386 00:23:35.720 --> 00:23:43.780 How many of you can say that today, if you were out in public, now, if you never left your house, 387 00:23:44.340 --> 00:23:49.040 it's totally different for you, that you were out in public interacting with people, 388 00:23:49.700 --> 00:23:55.980 maybe your job, wherever, and you didn't hold anything back. That's the caveat. You were fully 389 00:23:56.100 --> 00:24:02.900 there, fully engaged, not hiding any aspect of yourself. You were showing up and you were all 390 00:24:02.900 --> 00:24:09.200 in. You weren't hiding. You weren't pulling back. Okay. We have a couple people. That's awesome. 391 00:24:09.640 --> 00:24:15.720 That's really awesome. We have a lot of people typically, and some people that are here tonight 392 00:24:15.720 --> 00:24:24.280 that were like, yeah, I did hold something back. I maybe didn't say what was really on my heart 393 00:24:24.280 --> 00:24:31.240 and mind. Maybe I did let that person say something and it caused me to doubt myself. 394 00:24:31.240 --> 00:24:36.340 And I just started shutting down on the inside. This is where I want you all to continue to be 395 00:24:36.340 --> 00:24:41.740 really aware of what you're feeling, really aware of the lies that are surfacing because of what 396 00:24:41.740 --> 00:24:47.100 other people are doing and saying, as well as when you show up in a room, what's going on, 397 00:24:47.100 --> 00:24:53.360 on the inside of you. Shakira says she was a little spicy today. All right. I like spicy. 398 00:24:54.260 --> 00:24:58.680 Spicy can help us. You know, sometimes ladies, we get to that place because we were in such a 399 00:24:58.870 --> 00:24:59.830 broken place and we're 400 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:01.760 and to step further into the real us, 401 00:25:01.960 --> 00:25:03.560 and there's that transition period 402 00:25:03.560 --> 00:25:06.340 on the in-between and spicy, hey, even after that, 403 00:25:06.360 --> 00:25:07.740 it's kind of, it can be really good. 404 00:25:08.740 --> 00:25:10.960 But when we show up as our authentic selves, 405 00:25:11.040 --> 00:25:13.840 we often give permission to other people to do the same. 406 00:25:14.360 --> 00:25:16.380 I want you to know that God created us 407 00:25:16.380 --> 00:25:18.020 to have an impact in the world, 408 00:25:18.120 --> 00:25:20.440 to affect the people around us. 409 00:25:21.220 --> 00:25:23.340 I also want you to think about this. 410 00:25:23.660 --> 00:25:26.180 As Jackie has talked about for a while in the community, 411 00:25:27.780 --> 00:25:30.380 what we focus on increases. 412 00:25:31.900 --> 00:25:33.920 What we focus on increases. 413 00:25:34.460 --> 00:25:36.960 And not only that, I saw this quote today that said, 414 00:25:37.100 --> 00:25:38.660 not only what we focus on increases, 415 00:25:38.860 --> 00:25:42.040 but it also rewires our future. 416 00:25:43.780 --> 00:25:46.480 So I want you to think about the negative thoughts 417 00:25:46.620 --> 00:25:49.660 that the enemy has had you kind of thinking on 418 00:25:49.660 --> 00:25:50.560 in the last few days. 419 00:25:51.900 --> 00:25:53.760 And then I want you to think about 420 00:25:53.760 --> 00:25:56.380 how is that going to impact your future 421 00:25:56.380 --> 00:26:00.300 if you continue to think on that thing? 422 00:26:03.640 --> 00:26:05.900 Are you gonna be able to receive the fullness 423 00:26:05.900 --> 00:26:09.260 of God's promise for you if you keep believing the lie 424 00:26:09.260 --> 00:26:11.280 that God has withheld from you? 425 00:26:12.180 --> 00:26:14.540 Feel the Holy Spirit on this, I'm lingering. 426 00:26:17.280 --> 00:26:20.100 What is the lies that you've heard in the last few days 427 00:26:20.100 --> 00:26:24.800 that has caused you to doubt God's goodness 428 00:26:24.880 --> 00:26:28.620 towards you, not just other people, but towards you? 429 00:26:32.480 --> 00:26:34.740 We're all on a journey every single day 430 00:26:34.740 --> 00:26:37.900 to grow in our understanding of who we are in Christ, 431 00:26:37.900 --> 00:26:40.720 as well as who he originally created us to be 432 00:26:40.720 --> 00:26:44.480 before trauma or wounds ever entered our story. 433 00:26:46.280 --> 00:26:48.220 We're all in this together, ladies. 434 00:26:48.220 --> 00:26:50.220 Look around on this screen. 435 00:26:50.320 --> 00:26:52.640 This is why, man, I love seeing you all. 436 00:26:52.640 --> 00:26:55.600 I love seeing you, I love seeing the tender moments. 437 00:26:55.860 --> 00:26:56.980 Roseanne, I see you, girl. 438 00:26:57.900 --> 00:27:00.080 God's touching you all, and I'm so grateful. 439 00:27:01.100 --> 00:27:02.600 I'm grateful for what he's doing. 440 00:27:02.880 --> 00:27:05.220 And this is your sister squad. 441 00:27:05.300 --> 00:27:08.000 Now, some of you, you might track at different times 442 00:27:08.000 --> 00:27:10.020 because people came in the program at different times, 443 00:27:10.240 --> 00:27:13.620 but literally, we're in this together. 444 00:27:14.460 --> 00:27:16.380 So I want you to kind of imagine 445 00:27:16.600 --> 00:27:18.080 you're locking arms with each other 446 00:27:18.080 --> 00:27:19.980 and you're believing for each other, 447 00:27:20.100 --> 00:27:23.420 for breakthrough, for healing, for transformation, 448 00:27:23.660 --> 00:27:26.780 for God's promises to come to fulfillment in your life. 449 00:27:28.140 --> 00:27:30.560 I want you to think about this question as well. 450 00:27:31.780 --> 00:27:34.120 Is there any part of yourself 451 00:27:34.120 --> 00:27:38.060 where you do tend to hold back with people 452 00:27:38.100 --> 00:27:39.580 even when they're safe? 453 00:27:39.700 --> 00:27:41.020 Okay, now it's a different question 454 00:27:41.020 --> 00:27:42.380 than what I asked a little bit ago. 455 00:27:43.220 --> 00:27:47.440 Even with safe people, there's a part of yourself 456 00:27:47.440 --> 00:27:49.400 that you're holding something back. 457 00:27:50.560 --> 00:27:52.800 There was a story that someone shared this afternoon 458 00:27:52.800 --> 00:27:55.180 in the coaching setting, and it just came to mind. 459 00:27:55.340 --> 00:27:56.600 And so I feel led to share it. 460 00:27:57.220 --> 00:28:00.860 And if Jen, I think it was Jen, or Tiffany, it was Tiffany. 461 00:28:01.240 --> 00:28:04.060 If you're on tonight, I won't share the whole story, 462 00:28:04.180 --> 00:28:09.180 but she was sharing that her mom loved to do crafts 463 00:28:09.180 --> 00:28:11.740 and sometimes her and her brother would sit 464 00:28:11.740 --> 00:28:13.440 and do these crafts with their mom. 465 00:28:13.760 --> 00:28:14.720 But then all of a sudden, 466 00:28:14.720 --> 00:28:18.980 when they saw dad coming in the car, 467 00:28:20.180 --> 00:28:21.140 mom was like, hustle. 468 00:28:21.280 --> 00:28:23.300 And they all were hustling to put stuff away. 469 00:28:23.400 --> 00:28:24.740 They all went to their separate rooms 470 00:28:25.020 --> 00:28:29.140 because they were waiting to see how dad was gonna be 471 00:28:29.140 --> 00:28:30.180 when he came home. 472 00:28:31.500 --> 00:28:33.360 We ought to just think about that for a minute. 473 00:28:33.400 --> 00:28:34.920 And maybe that's not your story, 474 00:28:35.000 --> 00:28:36.700 but maybe there's a different way 475 00:28:36.700 --> 00:28:39.580 where there was something fun you were doing, 476 00:28:39.840 --> 00:28:43.060 maybe by yourself or with a parent or whatever, 477 00:28:43.180 --> 00:28:44.480 maybe with your siblings. 478 00:28:44.480 --> 00:28:47.960 And then all of a sudden you had to put that all away 479 00:28:49.240 --> 00:28:52.700 because somebody that wasn't approving of that behavior 480 00:28:52.700 --> 00:28:54.460 or those fun things or whatever, 481 00:28:54.860 --> 00:28:55.660 if it was a safe thing, 482 00:28:55.660 --> 00:28:57.340 I'm not talking about misbehaving 483 00:28:57.340 --> 00:28:58.560 and doing unhealthy things. 484 00:28:58.560 --> 00:29:00.840 I'm talking about doing things that are healthy. 485 00:29:01.180 --> 00:29:02.880 And then I want you to also think about 486 00:29:02.880 --> 00:29:05.360 if you are someone that has a bubbly personality, 487 00:29:05.740 --> 00:29:07.840 maybe you were really outgoing as a child, 488 00:29:08.200 --> 00:29:10.700 maybe you love to sing, I don't know. 489 00:29:10.700 --> 00:29:12.640 I just want you to be thinking about it. 490 00:29:13.200 --> 00:29:15.560 Were there times where you would be trying 491 00:29:15.560 --> 00:29:16.840 to do those things? 492 00:29:17.640 --> 00:29:20.660 And even if your parent didn't mean to hurt your feelings, 493 00:29:20.720 --> 00:29:23.100 because sometimes parents don't mean to hurt our feelings, 494 00:29:23.540 --> 00:29:24.840 but our feelings get hurt. 495 00:29:27.340 --> 00:29:29.020 And what they said, 496 00:29:29.100 --> 00:29:32.620 you just started to shut down a part of yourself. 497 00:29:34.640 --> 00:29:36.600 I want you to be thinking about these things. 498 00:29:37.120 --> 00:29:39.900 There's a song called Out of Hiding by Stephanie Gretzinger. 499 00:29:39.900 --> 00:29:42.080 Or no, I'm not gonna sing. 500 00:29:42.460 --> 00:29:43.500 I'm not gonna sing tonight. 501 00:29:43.620 --> 00:29:45.860 I just wanna say a couple of the lyrics over you all. 502 00:29:46.040 --> 00:29:46.880 This is really powerful. 503 00:29:46.960 --> 00:29:48.540 And I want you to just be thinking about, 504 00:29:49.440 --> 00:29:50.660 as I say this, 505 00:29:51.040 --> 00:29:54.300 as if God himself is talking to you through this tonight. 506 00:29:55.760 --> 00:29:56.980 This is what it says. 507 00:29:57.860 --> 00:29:59.060 Come out of hiding, 508 00:29:59.520 --> 00:29:59.980 you're safe. 509 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:07.500 here with me. There's no need to cover what I already see. You've got your reasons, but I hold 510 00:30:07.500 --> 00:30:15.000 your peace. You've been on lockdown, and I hold the key. Because I loved you before you even knew 511 00:30:15.000 --> 00:30:21.160 it was love. And I saw it all, so I chose the cross. And you were the one that I was thinking 512 00:30:21.160 --> 00:30:28.500 of when I rose from the grave. Now rid of the shackles, my victory is yours. I tore the veil 513 00:30:28.500 --> 00:30:35.180 so you could come close. There's no reason to stand at a distance anymore. You're not far 514 00:30:35.180 --> 00:30:42.260 from home. Ladies, first and foremost, before you step into relationship with your spirit mate and 515 00:30:42.260 --> 00:30:49.700 learn how to do that in a healthy way, getting your relationship right with the Lord is first 516 00:30:49.720 --> 00:30:56.640 and foremost most important thing that you can do. And when you do that, all the other things 517 00:30:56.640 --> 00:31:01.280 are going to start to fall in place. I promise. I'm not saying it's always going to be like 518 00:31:01.840 --> 00:31:06.580 automatic right real quick. Everybody's journey is different. But what I am saying is the spirit 519 00:31:06.580 --> 00:31:12.920 mate is the cherry on top. Your relationship, intimate connection, closeness with God, Jesus, 520 00:31:12.980 --> 00:31:20.960 and the Holy Spirit is so important. What you align with matters. What thoughts are you currently 521 00:31:20.960 --> 00:31:27.640 aligning with that, again, don't sound like heaven? You are a supernova. Did you know that? 522 00:31:28.180 --> 00:31:36.080 You were created to carry something amazing and release it into the world. And everybody does 523 00:31:36.080 --> 00:31:43.180 that differently. Do you believe that you have amazing, beautiful, powerful, creative, lovely 524 00:31:43.180 --> 00:31:48.160 things on the inside of yourself that God wants to help bring out into the world? This is what 525 00:31:48.380 --> 00:31:54.820 Matthew 5, 14 through 16 in the message version says. Here's another way to put it. You're here to be 526 00:31:54.820 --> 00:32:00.420 light, bringing out the God colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We're going public 527 00:32:00.420 --> 00:32:05.980 with this as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light bearers, you don't think I'm going to 528 00:32:05.980 --> 00:32:12.020 hide you under a bucket, do you? I'm putting you on a light stand. Now that I put you there on a hilltop 529 00:32:12.020 --> 00:32:21.640 on a light stand, shine, keep open house, be generous with your lives. By opening up to others, 530 00:32:21.740 --> 00:32:27.060 you'll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven. 531 00:32:28.720 --> 00:32:37.440 What does it mean for you to keep open house? Y'all, love is a risk, but it's a risk worth taking. 532 00:32:38.300 --> 00:32:43.680 Even if you've been hurt before. Another lady on this afternoon, and again, she might be here 533 00:32:43.680 --> 00:32:49.580 tonight, I'm not sure, but went through a divorce and then was dating someone for a while and he 534 00:32:49.580 --> 00:32:59.040 passed away. Two big losses. And so she's struggling a little bit to really open up to the idea of 535 00:32:59.040 --> 00:33:04.960 trying again. That's what came up today. And so sometimes, you know, these things come up and 536 00:33:04.960 --> 00:33:10.120 we're kind of like, whoa, where did that come from? You know? The reality is, is we have to 537 00:33:10.120 --> 00:33:17.060 give ourselves permission to move forward. And we also have to understand that God wants to write a 538 00:33:17.060 --> 00:33:23.880 new story now. And your story in the past does not have to determine the story in the future. 539 00:33:24.020 --> 00:33:28.620 But what gets tricky is when you have two back to back big losses like that, 540 00:33:28.940 --> 00:33:34.060 it's very easy for us to believe the lie that that's just going to happen again. 541 00:33:36.080 --> 00:33:41.360 Because that's what the enemy loves to tell us. You'll see. He'll say things like this. You'll see. 542 00:33:42.020 --> 00:33:46.900 Go ahead and find someone and then see what happens. You're going to lose them too. 543 00:33:48.260 --> 00:33:53.560 Those are the kind of things he says. But we have to choose to not believe that stuff. And your story 544 00:33:53.560 --> 00:33:58.000 might be completely different. I don't know what your story is, but if there's a lie that you're 545 00:33:58.000 --> 00:34:04.300 believing because something repetitively happened in your life, do you have a hard time making 546 00:34:04.300 --> 00:34:09.440 friends? Do you have a hard time actually believing that people want to be friends with you? 547 00:34:10.159 --> 00:34:18.060 Where did that start for you? Be generous with your lives, be generous with your heart. Now, 548 00:34:18.060 --> 00:34:21.940 obviously keep boundaries because, you know, we don't want to just give, give, give and be 549 00:34:22.120 --> 00:34:29.000 overextended and out of healthy guidelines and boundaries and be abused by people that are takers. 550 00:34:30.219 --> 00:34:37.800 Be generous with your lives with safe people, ladies. Romans 8, 37 through 39 says this. 551 00:34:38.800 --> 00:34:42.060 Know in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am 552 00:34:42.060 --> 00:34:46.380 convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, nor the present nor the future, 553 00:34:46.580 --> 00:34:53.080 nor any powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all of creation will be able to 554 00:34:53.080 --> 00:34:57.660 separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus, our Lord. So if that is true, 555 00:34:58.820 --> 00:34:59.980 think of this statement. 556 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.080 If God is for you, who can be against you? 557 00:35:05.920 --> 00:35:09.760 If God is for you, who can be against you? 558 00:35:11.000 --> 00:35:13.540 Now let's tweak that a little bit. 559 00:35:14.480 --> 00:35:18.800 If God is for your love story with your spirit mate, Laura, 560 00:35:20.460 --> 00:35:22.860 Laura C., I'm talking to you right now. 561 00:35:23.220 --> 00:35:24.220 God's highlighting you to me. 562 00:35:24.220 --> 00:35:27.500 If God is for you and your love story with your spirit mate, 563 00:35:27.580 --> 00:35:29.000 then who can be against you? 564 00:35:30.200 --> 00:35:31.660 He fights for you. 565 00:35:32.360 --> 00:35:34.040 He's fighting for you right now. 566 00:35:34.800 --> 00:35:38.680 Whether we can see it or not, God is working behind the scenes 567 00:35:38.680 --> 00:35:43.180 and he's leading us and he's guiding us and he wants to help us 568 00:35:43.180 --> 00:35:46.500 partner with the truth that he is warring on our behalf. 569 00:35:46.800 --> 00:35:47.580 It's time. 570 00:35:48.140 --> 00:35:49.300 You might say, for what? 571 00:35:49.800 --> 00:35:51.620 Well, I want you to say this with me. 572 00:35:51.620 --> 00:35:53.960 You don't need to unmute, but I want you to say it over yourself. 573 00:35:55.340 --> 00:35:56.700 It's your time, Mikayla. 574 00:35:57.020 --> 00:35:58.060 So I want you to say that. 575 00:35:58.200 --> 00:35:59.620 Like, it's your time, Mikayla. 576 00:35:59.680 --> 00:36:01.220 Like, you're talking to your spirit. 577 00:36:02.640 --> 00:36:04.180 It's your time, Rachel Temple. 578 00:36:04.620 --> 00:36:06.420 It's your time, Shakira. 579 00:36:07.940 --> 00:36:09.800 It's your time, Mary Lemons. 580 00:36:11.420 --> 00:36:13.620 Whatever your name is, like, it's your time. 581 00:36:13.860 --> 00:36:14.940 Again, time for what? 582 00:36:15.440 --> 00:36:18.160 It's your time to completely awaken. 583 00:36:19.140 --> 00:36:24.020 It's time for the princess inside of you to come out of hiding 584 00:36:24.020 --> 00:36:30.960 and fully awaken and for you to totally shift the way that you've 585 00:36:30.960 --> 00:36:31.860 been living your life. 586 00:36:32.680 --> 00:36:35.620 I'm going to give you activation number one for this week. 587 00:36:37.740 --> 00:36:40.960 I want to encourage you, again, it doesn't have to be expensive, 588 00:36:41.660 --> 00:36:47.320 to buy a tiara or some kind of crown or princess gear. 589 00:36:47.320 --> 00:36:50.060 If you have a different thing that you think represents princess when 590 00:36:50.060 --> 00:36:52.000 you see it, go for it. 591 00:36:52.700 --> 00:36:54.000 But here's why. 592 00:36:54.600 --> 00:36:55.960 I want you to wear it. 593 00:36:56.900 --> 00:36:59.380 I want you to look at yourself in the mirror with it on. 594 00:37:00.360 --> 00:37:01.600 And here's why. 595 00:37:01.800 --> 00:37:06.740 I want you to start partnering with what does a princess think like? 596 00:37:08.240 --> 00:37:10.140 How does a princess live? 597 00:37:11.100 --> 00:37:15.240 What are the perspectives of a princess, and do I have those? 598 00:37:15.240 --> 00:37:18.500 Do I believe that I am a princess? 599 00:37:21.200 --> 00:37:23.260 Do you know that, you know, like princesses, 600 00:37:23.320 --> 00:37:27.660 their dads would arrange, like, someone to take care of them. 601 00:37:28.480 --> 00:37:29.500 Why would they do that? 602 00:37:29.680 --> 00:37:32.740 Well, they wanted to make sure their daughters were taken care of. 603 00:37:34.500 --> 00:37:36.400 God is the king of kings. 604 00:37:36.820 --> 00:37:39.840 Do you think he doesn't want you to be taken care of, too? 605 00:37:42.640 --> 00:37:45.920 And if you're not sure, if your answer is, 606 00:37:46.080 --> 00:37:47.720 I don't know to that question, 607 00:37:48.220 --> 00:37:51.340 then there's some heart work that needs to be done around that. 608 00:37:53.720 --> 00:37:56.160 Some of you have taken care of yourselves for a long time. 609 00:37:56.600 --> 00:38:00.160 And so it's tough for you to believe that God is going to provide 610 00:38:00.160 --> 00:38:02.420 someone else for you to take care of you. 611 00:38:02.420 --> 00:38:04.600 And that doesn't mean you don't do anything, like you don't work, 612 00:38:04.640 --> 00:38:07.420 or that you just give up all, and the guy's just got to, no, 613 00:38:07.480 --> 00:38:09.820 but like genuinely that the guy is going to be taking care of you. 614 00:38:09.820 --> 00:38:12.700 He's going to be thinking about how can I take care of my family? 615 00:38:12.880 --> 00:38:15.480 How can I provide? How can I be a teammate with them? 616 00:38:15.580 --> 00:38:17.340 How can we do life together? 617 00:38:17.560 --> 00:38:19.440 They're going to be thinking about those things. 618 00:38:19.560 --> 00:38:23.020 And how can I tell you that? Because I'm living it. 619 00:38:23.040 --> 00:38:25.260 And that isn't what I used to experience. 620 00:38:29.600 --> 00:38:33.980 So for you, part of the activation is for you to partner with, 621 00:38:34.180 --> 00:38:38.320 I am a princess and I can walk in princess heavenly perspectives. 622 00:38:38.320 --> 00:38:44.500 I can believe that God has ordained me to be a helpmate, 623 00:38:44.580 --> 00:38:48.320 to help my husband, to step into divine, 624 00:38:49.080 --> 00:38:54.100 supernatural DNA with him and fulfill God's calling on our lives as a 625 00:38:54.100 --> 00:38:54.480 married couple. 626 00:38:57.080 --> 00:39:00.200 And I want to say one other thing, you know, in our society today, 627 00:39:00.200 --> 00:39:03.420 and I'm not knocking this. So if you've said this, please don't, 628 00:39:03.420 --> 00:39:04.860 please don't partner with offended. 629 00:39:05.980 --> 00:39:08.680 But in our society today, all the time, 630 00:39:08.800 --> 00:39:12.380 I see people calling so-and-so's a queen. You're a queen. I'm a queen. 631 00:39:12.520 --> 00:39:14.880 I'll, you know, and again, I'm not knocking that, 632 00:39:14.920 --> 00:39:16.400 but I want you to think about something. 633 00:39:18.000 --> 00:39:22.960 There's a lot of people claiming that they're Queens and they haven't even 634 00:39:22.960 --> 00:39:24.240 learned how to be a princess. 635 00:39:27.260 --> 00:39:31.240 So where are we trying to stand in a title that we actually don't even 636 00:39:31.240 --> 00:39:32.760 believe we have on the inside? 637 00:39:35.020 --> 00:39:38.900 Because we need to learn how to be a princess before we can be a queen. 638 00:39:40.300 --> 00:39:43.620 So that's why I want to guide you out in this, this week, 639 00:39:43.640 --> 00:39:47.660 and in the next few weeks ahead that you'll start to partner with this. 640 00:39:48.780 --> 00:39:52.700 And then after you get the tiara y'all guess what I want you to do. 641 00:39:53.100 --> 00:39:56.480 I want you to take a picture and I want you to put it in the group. 642 00:39:56.800 --> 00:39:58.800 Yes, I do. I want to see them. 643 00:39:58.800 --> 00:39:59.980 And for those of you that. 644 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:01.140 Step into courage. 645 00:40:02.140 --> 00:40:04.260 I know I'm gonna see your photo and I'm gonna love it. 646 00:40:04.420 --> 00:40:05.560 Look, Ashley's got one. 647 00:40:06.000 --> 00:40:07.080 Look, I love it. 648 00:40:07.100 --> 00:40:07.980 That's great. 649 00:40:09.040 --> 00:40:10.780 You can do a flower crown, Erica. 650 00:40:11.000 --> 00:40:12.140 Y'all pray about this. 651 00:40:12.220 --> 00:40:13.740 If there's something you feel led to do 652 00:40:13.740 --> 00:40:16.600 that is a part of your personality, go for it. 653 00:40:16.800 --> 00:40:19.820 This is about you awakening to your true self. 654 00:40:20.620 --> 00:40:22.060 Ephesians 5, 14 says, 655 00:40:22.140 --> 00:40:25.100 "'Awake, awake, O sleeper, and rise up from the dead, 656 00:40:25.140 --> 00:40:27.620 and Christ will shine on you.'" 657 00:40:27.620 --> 00:40:29.220 What are we being awakened by? 658 00:40:29.220 --> 00:40:31.680 Well, true love's kiss, the kiss of heaven, 659 00:40:31.800 --> 00:40:35.780 as well as a deeper understanding of God's love for us. 660 00:40:37.200 --> 00:40:38.680 God's love for us. 661 00:40:39.520 --> 00:40:41.800 God wants to awaken us to our true identity 662 00:40:41.800 --> 00:40:43.020 that was God given. 663 00:40:44.040 --> 00:40:45.720 He wants to awaken us to restoration 664 00:40:45.720 --> 00:40:48.060 and these big, bold, beautiful futures. 665 00:40:48.720 --> 00:40:51.880 And that means dreams awakening within us. 666 00:40:52.040 --> 00:40:53.400 Well, what kind of dreams? 667 00:40:53.780 --> 00:40:55.780 Well, maybe it is spiritual dreams. 668 00:40:55.920 --> 00:40:57.860 Some of y'all are already having that happening. 669 00:40:57.860 --> 00:40:59.440 You're dreaming in the nighttime, 670 00:40:59.620 --> 00:41:02.680 you're dreaming in the daytime, but also childhood dreams. 671 00:41:03.360 --> 00:41:05.960 You know, God comes in and he breathes on stuff 672 00:41:05.960 --> 00:41:06.540 and it's all of a sudden, 673 00:41:06.580 --> 00:41:08.320 it starts to come back alive in us. 674 00:41:08.920 --> 00:41:11.560 Some of you all literally had childhood dreams. 675 00:41:11.800 --> 00:41:14.820 Now, some, you know, we might not be able to fulfill. 676 00:41:15.460 --> 00:41:18.320 Okay, so one of my childhood dreams was, you know, 677 00:41:18.580 --> 00:41:20.760 to be on a college cheerleading squad. 678 00:41:21.260 --> 00:41:23.500 Okay, that could have been fulfilled years ago, 679 00:41:23.500 --> 00:41:24.900 but that's not gonna happen now. 680 00:41:25.820 --> 00:41:28.700 Okay, so I just want you to be real with this, 681 00:41:28.820 --> 00:41:33.040 but there's other things that I dreamed of as a kid 682 00:41:33.360 --> 00:41:35.700 that could still happen now. 683 00:41:36.100 --> 00:41:37.680 And maybe some of you all, 684 00:41:37.880 --> 00:41:39.020 you're gonna get some new dreams. 685 00:41:40.580 --> 00:41:43.020 Some of you during this time may feel 686 00:41:43.020 --> 00:41:44.360 led to go back to school. 687 00:41:44.760 --> 00:41:47.400 You might feel led to take a course 688 00:41:47.400 --> 00:41:49.380 that isn't like an accredited college, 689 00:41:49.460 --> 00:41:54.140 but maybe it's to learn how to cook or to bake something 690 00:41:54.140 --> 00:41:57.820 or to maybe you have always wanted to open a flower shop. 691 00:41:57.920 --> 00:41:59.900 I don't know what your dream is, 692 00:42:00.340 --> 00:42:04.040 but God does and he wants to help you step into it. 693 00:42:05.000 --> 00:42:09.140 We all have to choose what to believe. 694 00:42:10.260 --> 00:42:12.040 So what are you gonna believe tonight? 695 00:42:13.160 --> 00:42:16.380 In whose report will you believe? 696 00:42:16.980 --> 00:42:19.260 Will you believe the report of the Lord 697 00:42:19.620 --> 00:42:21.980 or are you gonna believe the report of the enemy 698 00:42:21.980 --> 00:42:24.480 who all he does is he prowls around 699 00:42:24.860 --> 00:42:27.400 looking and seeking for those he can devour, 700 00:42:28.800 --> 00:42:30.640 trying to sow seeds of hatred, 701 00:42:30.920 --> 00:42:32.520 trying to sow seeds of division, 702 00:42:33.600 --> 00:42:36.100 trying to sow seeds of you to get like hatred, 703 00:42:36.240 --> 00:42:37.700 to get you to hate yourself, 704 00:42:37.880 --> 00:42:42.160 all the things to minimize who you are. 705 00:42:43.760 --> 00:42:46.780 I heard the Lord say, we're gonna say one more thing 706 00:42:46.820 --> 00:42:49.220 because some of you here tonight don't believe it. 707 00:42:50.080 --> 00:42:51.660 I just heard the Lord say, 708 00:42:51.800 --> 00:42:54.160 they need to say over themselves, I. 709 00:42:54.880 --> 00:42:57.540 So say I, you don't have to unmute, but just say I, 710 00:42:58.060 --> 00:43:01.260 and then say your name and beautiful. 711 00:43:03.960 --> 00:43:07.540 I, say your name and beautiful. 712 00:43:08.840 --> 00:43:12.220 And I want you to be practicing that 713 00:43:12.220 --> 00:43:14.300 because some of you don't believe it. 714 00:43:14.660 --> 00:43:18.420 When you look in the mirror, you don't like what you see. 715 00:43:19.060 --> 00:43:20.700 Do you see how this can set you up 716 00:43:20.700 --> 00:43:22.120 for failure in relationship? 717 00:43:24.740 --> 00:43:28.380 God wants to help you see a whole different version 718 00:43:28.380 --> 00:43:30.660 of what you've been seeing when you look in the mirror. 719 00:43:31.220 --> 00:43:32.980 And it's not because he wants you 720 00:43:33.140 --> 00:43:35.180 to change everything about yourself. 721 00:43:35.820 --> 00:43:37.800 It's he wants to give you an upgrade 722 00:43:38.460 --> 00:43:41.500 to see in the spirit what he has always seen. 723 00:43:43.980 --> 00:43:49.560 He sees you as full and alive and beautiful and adorned, 724 00:43:49.580 --> 00:43:52.060 and your worth is far above Ruby's. 725 00:43:52.060 --> 00:43:54.040 I want you to think about something else. 726 00:43:54.420 --> 00:43:58.400 Do you think princesses allow guys 727 00:43:58.400 --> 00:43:59.700 to call them for a booty call? 728 00:44:01.340 --> 00:44:02.420 What do you think? 729 00:44:03.520 --> 00:44:05.200 I don't think so, do you? 730 00:44:06.040 --> 00:44:08.320 No, so why would we? 731 00:44:10.940 --> 00:44:13.720 And hey, maybe it's not a booty call in person, 732 00:44:13.860 --> 00:44:15.560 but maybe we're doing stuff online. 733 00:44:15.700 --> 00:44:17.440 And y'all, there's no shame if you've done this. 734 00:44:17.640 --> 00:44:18.240 I'm saying this, 735 00:44:18.260 --> 00:44:20.500 because this is how the enemy is tripping people up 736 00:44:20.500 --> 00:44:21.060 right now. 737 00:44:22.520 --> 00:44:24.720 Because we are afraid of being alone. 738 00:44:25.940 --> 00:44:29.720 Well, when you know your value and your worth 739 00:44:29.720 --> 00:44:32.120 and you live a happy full life, 740 00:44:32.260 --> 00:44:35.860 y'all, when we are fun and we are walking in those things, 741 00:44:35.880 --> 00:44:38.300 I promise you, we attract healthy people. 742 00:44:39.300 --> 00:44:41.500 And when we attract unhealthy, we're like, 743 00:44:41.780 --> 00:44:43.340 ooh, that doesn't look so good. 744 00:44:43.760 --> 00:44:45.580 Yeah, I'm gonna pass on that. 745 00:44:46.220 --> 00:44:47.680 We're not gonna be mean to the person, 746 00:44:48.140 --> 00:44:51.080 because as Jackie has said in this community for years, 747 00:44:51.600 --> 00:44:52.520 we're gonna do our best. 748 00:44:52.660 --> 00:44:53.760 We're gonna do our best. 749 00:44:53.900 --> 00:44:55.620 It's not always possible, okay? 750 00:44:55.780 --> 00:44:57.620 We're gonna do our best to leave people better 751 00:44:57.620 --> 00:44:58.540 than we found them. 752 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.500 That's what we're going to do. That's the call on this community. 753 00:45:03.180 --> 00:45:06.980 So even if someone's not a good connection with us, we're going to do our best to end that well. 754 00:45:07.340 --> 00:45:12.920 But sometimes people are so unhealthy, it's not going to go that way. But you can still 755 00:45:12.920 --> 00:45:16.320 bless them and block them, and you just move on. And you'll learn more about that in the 756 00:45:16.860 --> 00:45:22.100 additional phases of our community if you stay in the program. But I think it's important for 757 00:45:22.100 --> 00:45:29.540 y'all to really think about, do you believe that your value is above rubies? That you are worth 758 00:45:29.540 --> 00:45:34.660 more than that? Like a pearl of great price. 759 00:45:40.060 --> 00:45:44.640 I want you to keep thinking about that this week. And really, if you don't have that belief yet, 760 00:45:45.220 --> 00:45:48.880 ask the Lord to help you shift in your heart so that you can receive that truth. 761 00:45:49.700 --> 00:45:53.480 All right, I'm going to have Nanette share what God has put on her heart for tonight. 762 00:45:53.580 --> 00:45:56.680 And then after that, we're going to come back and do our breakout session. 763 00:46:01.460 --> 00:46:09.460 Okay, there we go. I'm unmuted. Tonight, as I was pondering and praying about what I was going to 764 00:46:10.160 --> 00:46:16.960 share, I'll be honest, there's times when I still fall back into it, and I am a work in progress. 765 00:46:17.360 --> 00:46:25.420 But it's something that God has done the greatest work in my life. And for a long time, years, 766 00:46:25.420 --> 00:46:34.140 I really fell into comparing myself to other people. It was a struggle, and it was something 767 00:46:34.140 --> 00:46:42.340 that I did so naturally, that I really didn't even know that I did it, because it had become 768 00:46:42.340 --> 00:46:48.480 so ingrained in me. And when I was in my heart work, what I realized was, I was constantly, 769 00:46:48.480 --> 00:46:56.100 when I went out, you know, oh, she's got a great outfit on, maybe I should have worn something 770 00:46:55.860 --> 00:47:03.320 different. She's thin, I bet she's well light. I mean, the thoughts and the comparisons were endless. 771 00:47:03.560 --> 00:47:10.540 And what I learned and what I realized was, it really stole my joy, because I was always looking 772 00:47:10.540 --> 00:47:18.820 at what I felt like everybody else had. And it left me feeling constantly like I didn't measure 773 00:47:18.820 --> 00:47:24.340 up. And I was never going to be enough. On a few occasions, if I would compare myself and think, 774 00:47:24.920 --> 00:47:30.300 oh, yeah, well, I'm doing something here, or I'm a little bit better there, 775 00:47:30.380 --> 00:47:36.260 then I'd have just a few moments where I felt like, okay, I'm okay. But it was so short lived, 776 00:47:36.260 --> 00:47:44.600 because I was in the comparison game for so many things. And God really, really brought me out of 777 00:47:44.960 --> 00:47:52.420 that, and has been done a huge work in my heart, because now, I'm not looking at what everybody 778 00:47:52.420 --> 00:48:01.140 else has. I'm stepping into what God has given me, my gifts, my talents, and I have a heart of 779 00:48:01.440 --> 00:48:14.440 gratitude and gratefulness for those, because I can be focused and be present when I am places, 780 00:48:14.960 --> 00:48:20.960 because I'm showing up as my authentic self and who God created me to be. My mind isn't consumed, 781 00:48:21.180 --> 00:48:26.900 you know, I'm out of my, I'm not in my head comparing myself to everybody, I'm present where 782 00:48:26.900 --> 00:48:37.060 I am. And I am able to encourage others, I'm able to speak light and life to them and show up to do 783 00:48:37.060 --> 00:48:45.480 what he wants me to do, and to be focused on what he has for me, versus a self focus, not thinking 784 00:48:45.480 --> 00:48:53.300 that I measure up. And it's really helped me to be, I'm extroverted anyway. So it's easy for me to 785 00:48:53.510 --> 00:49:01.710 people. But I can show up with Christ as my foundation, and I show up as a princess, 786 00:49:02.350 --> 00:49:09.350 because I am a daughter of the king. And that allows me to walk confidently in what he's called 787 00:49:09.350 --> 00:49:16.730 me to then is what he has equipped me for. And I have a life that has so much more hope, because 788 00:49:16.730 --> 00:49:23.370 it's not about me, it's about God, it's about what he's called me to where he wants me to go what he 789 00:49:23.370 --> 00:49:28.550 wants me to do. And that is my heart every morning. And I say, Okay, what are we doing today, 790 00:49:28.790 --> 00:49:35.230 God, don't let me miss a thing, which has enabled me to sometimes step out and take a really bold 791 00:49:35.230 --> 00:49:41.370 step of something in the day. Because if I feel the Holy Spirit nudging me, I'm going to do it, 792 00:49:42.450 --> 00:49:50.410 because God's on my side. He's got my back. And he knows, he sees me, he knows me, and he's equipped 793 00:49:50.410 --> 00:49:55.910 me. And that's, that's what I need. And that's the hope that I need. And that's the hope that 794 00:49:55.910 --> 00:49:58.570 I have now. And that has brought so much freedom. 795 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:06.660 to my life. So I don't know if that resonates with any of you, but if it does, I'm right there 796 00:50:06.660 --> 00:50:14.420 with you. And I'm here to tell you that there's hope and that God's got you. I love that. Yes. 797 00:50:14.420 --> 00:50:20.020 There's always hope ladies. And on that note, I think I want to just really quickly, I just saw 798 00:50:20.020 --> 00:50:27.140 in the chat there, uh, love that said not having a dad. I don't know what that feels like when I 799 00:50:27.140 --> 00:50:31.320 was, I think that was when I was talking about, you know, King providing for the princess. 800 00:50:31.740 --> 00:50:37.280 And I want you to know that I was in the same boat as you. And there are some scriptures that 801 00:50:37.280 --> 00:50:41.900 are very healing. Uh, one of them, I won't give them all, but this one is the one I feel led to 802 00:50:41.900 --> 00:50:49.140 share tonight. It says in Psalm 146, nine, the Lord watches over the sojourners. He upholds the 803 00:50:49.840 --> 00:50:58.200 and the fatherless. And I want you to know that I can speak from experience. God absolutely wants 804 00:50:58.200 --> 00:51:02.360 to teach you what it's like to have a good father. Cause you've always had a good father. 805 00:51:02.900 --> 00:51:07.400 It's just been your father in heaven, even though your biological father could not be 806 00:51:07.720 --> 00:51:13.500 to you or chose not to be to you the father that he was intended to be. And that broke God's heart 807 00:51:13.500 --> 00:51:20.940 for you. And so I want to encourage all of you to partner with the truth that God upholds the 808 00:51:20.940 --> 00:51:28.940 widow and the fatherless. He lifts you up and he cares about you. And he is fighting for you. I 809 00:51:28.940 --> 00:51:33.340 want you just to imagine the times I just heard the Lord. Some of y'all, there were times where 810 00:51:33.340 --> 00:51:38.760 you had games, some kind of sport, or maybe it was a play and you looked out in the stands and 811 00:51:38.760 --> 00:51:46.800 your dad wasn't there and that broke you. But I want you to know God was always sitting there in 812 00:51:46.820 --> 00:51:53.540 the stands cheering for you. And I know that doesn't replace the longing of having your physical 813 00:51:53.540 --> 00:51:59.060 dad there. Cause I've been there too. Even times my dad said he was going to come and then he didn't. 814 00:51:59.500 --> 00:52:08.740 And then I was like, he's a liar. Okay. But that's not who God is. That's not who God is. And he 815 00:52:08.740 --> 00:52:15.760 will lead you into all truth. He promises that. All right. So your breakout question for tonight 816 00:52:15.760 --> 00:52:24.060 is this. In what ways does the enemy challenge the real you? Does he often use comparison, 817 00:52:25.320 --> 00:52:29.780 competition, or imitation, or does he use all three or a combination of them? 818 00:52:30.720 --> 00:52:36.300 How do these tend to show up in your life? I'll repeat that again. In what ways does the enemy 819 00:52:36.300 --> 00:52:42.180 challenge the real you? Does he often use comparison, competition, or imitation, 820 00:52:42.440 --> 00:52:47.640 or all of them, a mix of them? And how does this tend to show up in your life? Everyone 821 00:52:47.640 --> 00:52:53.360 understand the question? Yeah. Okay. I just want to make sure. All right. Let me get these ready 822 00:52:53.700 --> 00:53:01.700 real quick. Chris, I'm glad that you're feeling like there's a lot of good stuff coming down. 823 00:53:03.040 --> 00:53:06.820 I'm really glad to see that. Okay. I'm going to try to put two people in a room because I want 824 00:53:06.820 --> 00:53:11.960 y'all to have some good time to talk about this. All right. So as long as people don't drop out, 825 00:53:12.220 --> 00:53:15.740 everyone should be good. Now, if anybody gets into a room and you're there by yourself, 826 00:53:15.940 --> 00:53:20.960 please just stay there because I'll move you around. Okay. Everyone here. All right. Awesome. 827 00:53:20.960 --> 00:53:24.660 So I'm going to give you six minutes. So if there's two of you, it should be like three 828 00:53:24.660 --> 00:53:30.240 minutes each. If I have to move people where there's three, keep in mind it's a minute or no, 829 00:53:30.240 --> 00:53:36.660 two, four, six. Yeah. Two minutes per person. If I could do math. All right. Here you go. 830 00:53:37.080 --> 00:53:39.340 Go ahead and jump in. Oh, that's totally fine, Michaela. 831 00:53:42.640 --> 00:53:45.000 Go ahead and click to join those as quick as you can. 832 00:54:00.460 --> 00:54:05.820 All right. Tammy, I can't see if you're able to join or not. Just let me know in the chat if you 833 00:54:06.740 --> 00:54:16.660 can. I have somebody else by themselves. 12. Sorry, you guys. Give me one minute and then I 834 00:54:16.740 --> 00:54:24.560 can pray. Just trying to make sure people aren't sitting by themselves. Another lady here. 835 00:54:39.000 --> 00:54:43.780 All right. Father, we just thank you so much. I pray that you'll help Sandra to get into this 836 00:54:43.780 --> 00:54:49.720 room that I'm inviting her to. There she goes. Thank you, Father, for caring about the little 837 00:54:49.720 --> 00:54:55.020 thing. Oh, go ahead. Sorry. A few, a few ladies in before we broke out and you may want to cover 838 00:54:55.020 --> 00:54:59.260 it when they come back. They're not understanding or they wanted examples of imitation. 839 00:55:00.980 --> 00:55:06.820 Yeah, it's okay. They're already in the room. But Damaris, I actually put Debbie right in 840 00:55:06.820 --> 00:55:12.240 your room. Can you go back into that room? Because she's there. Is she not talking? 841 00:55:17.240 --> 00:55:18.660 Oh, okay. 842 00:55:19.560 --> 00:55:21.680 Hi, this is Tammy. Hi, can you hear me? 843 00:55:22.140 --> 00:55:23.500 Hi, Tammy. Yeah. 844 00:55:23.520 --> 00:55:26.420 Hi, I just wasn't in a position to push the button. 845 00:55:26.640 --> 00:55:27.720 Oh, that's okay. 846 00:55:27.800 --> 00:55:28.580 Can you throw me in a group? 847 00:55:30.280 --> 00:55:34.960 Yes, you are in one. Can you click to join that group or no? 848 00:55:35.380 --> 00:55:36.980 I did and it didn't. 849 00:55:37.560 --> 00:55:40.820 Okay, let me try another one. Go ahead and click to join that one. Let's see what happens. 850 00:55:42.200 --> 00:55:43.120 All right. 851 00:55:46.800 --> 00:55:53.120 Father, thank you so much for just a reminder that you're a good father and that you lead 852 00:55:53.120 --> 00:55:58.180 us into the fullness of all your plans and promises for us even when we, God, can't see 853 00:55:58.180 --> 00:56:03.460 it because we're just really struggling to have the faith. God, I ask for a fresh impartation 854 00:56:03.660 --> 00:56:09.280 of the gift of faith into the hearts, minds, and spirits and souls of every woman that's 855 00:56:09.280 --> 00:56:14.280 a part of this heart work process in our entire community and all those that have gotten married 856 00:56:14.280 --> 00:56:18.280 and beyond, God, that you would give us all that fresh vision, that fresh understanding. 857 00:56:18.460 --> 00:56:22.740 But Lord, especially these ladies tonight and those watching the replay, God, I thank 858 00:56:22.740 --> 00:56:25.920 you that you would help them to hear what your spirit is saying about them and to them 859 00:56:25.920 --> 00:56:32.280 that you would help them to receive an upgrade to walk in the divine calling that you have 860 00:56:32.280 --> 00:56:38.440 on their lives, that they would begin to stand up a little taller, that they would walk with 861 00:56:38.440 --> 00:56:41.380 their chin up instead of looking down at the ground. 862 00:56:41.460 --> 00:56:46.820 The Lord just reminded me, like ladies way back, and I didn't even do this intentionally, 863 00:56:47.000 --> 00:56:51.720 but I would look down a lot. Like when people, when I would go to walk by people instead 864 00:56:51.720 --> 00:56:57.740 of looking them in the eye, my insecurities led me to look down a lot. And so some of 865 00:56:57.740 --> 00:57:00.940 you, I feel like that's kind of how you've been going through life. And God wants to, 866 00:57:01.160 --> 00:57:04.960 he's the lifter of our heads. And he's just saying, daughter, he's not doing it in a mean 867 00:57:04.960 --> 00:57:09.180 way, but he's just like, look up, look up and see what's around you. Look up and see 868 00:57:09.180 --> 00:57:15.540 all that I have for you that I don't have lack. I live in the land of plenty. It's flowing 869 00:57:15.540 --> 00:57:22.040 with milk and honey. God isn't afraid about where are all the good men at? Because guess 870 00:57:22.040 --> 00:57:27.800 what? He knows there's a lot of good men and he knows how to get them to us. Sometimes 871 00:57:27.800 --> 00:57:33.540 we have to shift and move and change things, but God is doing something and he's trying 872 00:57:33.540 --> 00:57:38.520 to lead us into that plan and the blessing that he has for us, but we have to choose 873 00:57:38.520 --> 00:57:43.460 again to receive it. And so I want to praise a couple of scriptures over us as well. Psalm 874 00:57:43.460 --> 00:57:49.020 147, three through four and the passion translation says this, he heals the wounds of every shattered 875 00:57:49.020 --> 00:57:55.160 heart. He sets his stars in place, calling them all by their names. Isn't that an intentional 876 00:57:55.380 --> 00:58:03.500 God? He called the stars by each one of their names. So would he not do the same for us? 877 00:58:04.100 --> 00:58:11.260 He knows the hairs on our head. He literally knows every single one of them. So do we believe 878 00:58:11.260 --> 00:58:17.800 that God is being intentional with us in this season? Matthew 7, 24 through 25 in the passion 879 00:58:17.800 --> 00:58:22.200 translation says this, everyone who hears my teaching and applies it to his life can 880 00:58:22.200 --> 00:58:27.180 be compared to a wise man who built his house on an unshakable foundation. When the rains 881 00:58:27.180 --> 00:58:31.680 fell and the flood came with fierce winds beating upon his house, it stood firm because 882 00:58:31.680 --> 00:58:37.540 of its strong foundation. Father, I thank you that tonight that you're going into areas 883 00:58:37.540 --> 00:58:42.640 of our hearts and our lives and you're restoring the foundations. You're restoring all the 884 00:58:42.640 --> 00:58:48.880 broken and fallen places, God, that even like in the times of Nehemiah, that you called 885 00:58:49.160 --> 00:58:56.680 Nehemiah to repair the temple, to rebuild the walls. So God, I thank you that you would 886 00:58:56.680 --> 00:59:02.920 help us to do our part, God, and trust that you'll do your part. God, to rebuild the walls 887 00:59:02.920 --> 00:59:09.480 in our heart, to not cause us to wall people out, but to have healthy hearts that can pump 888 00:59:09.860 --> 00:59:15.480 and function the way we were originally created and designed to process and live our lives. 889 00:59:15.560 --> 00:59:21.620 So Lord, I thank you that you'll help us to, yes, Lord, to partner with the truth that 890 00:59:21.620 --> 00:59:29.920 we can come into agreement with your blessings and the fullness, the land of overflow, God, 891 00:59:29.920 --> 00:59:37.100 that we aren't operating from a cup that's half empty, God, that we have a cup that's full. 892 00:59:37.620 --> 00:59:42.520 And it's not only full to the brim, it's overflowing. And it's overflowing with your love. 893 00:59:42.620 --> 00:59:47.180 So Lord, I pray that you would help the ladies to experience your love in a supernatural 894 00:59:47.440 --> 00:59:51.960 way tonight and in the days to come. God, help them to have encounters with your presence. 895 00:59:53.240 --> 00:59:58.580 Help them to tangibly understand your word in a fresh way that not only would they read 896 00:59:58.580 --> 00:59:59.980 the word, God, that they would... 897 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.920 live the word that they would experience the word of God, that 898 01:00:02.920 --> 01:00:05.720 it would be fresh in their spirit, God, that they would 899 01:00:05.720 --> 01:00:10.320 hear your heart crying out to them and calling to them and, and 900 01:00:10.320 --> 01:00:13.700 not only calling to them, but calling them up higher to step 901 01:00:13.700 --> 01:00:16.380 into everything that you have for them. So Lord, we just thank 902 01:00:16.380 --> 01:00:19.620 you for that. We thank you that you're leading us into the 903 01:00:19.620 --> 01:00:22.480 fullness of your blessings and your plan and Jesus name. 904 01:00:22.720 --> 01:00:25.760 Welcome back. So glad to have you all joining us. I'm going to 905 01:00:25.760 --> 01:00:28.740 show you really quickly the additional go ahead and mute for 906 01:00:28.740 --> 01:00:32.960 me ladies as quick as you can. Okay. Um, I'm going to show you 907 01:00:32.960 --> 01:00:36.380 the second activation as quick as I can tonight. Um, this one, 908 01:00:36.540 --> 01:00:40.420 I love to call the silhouette. It's one of my favorites. I love 909 01:00:40.420 --> 01:00:44.360 them all, but this is literally, it's a really amazing experience. 910 01:00:44.540 --> 01:00:48.260 If you will partner with it, I believe it'll transform you in 911 01:00:48.260 --> 01:00:51.220 really beautiful ways. And so I want to preface this before I 912 01:00:51.220 --> 01:00:56.740 share the screen. Okay. You can do this. However you feel led. 913 01:00:56.740 --> 01:00:59.680 Okay. I'm going to show you some pictures of what some other 914 01:00:59.680 --> 01:01:03.120 people did, but you don't have to do yours like there's the 915 01:01:03.120 --> 01:01:06.240 goal of the silhouette is for you to draw. Like if you were 916 01:01:06.240 --> 01:01:10.500 just tracing my body right now, like on this screen, do that 917 01:01:10.500 --> 01:01:13.200 like on a piece of paper for yourself, like draw an outline 918 01:01:13.200 --> 01:01:16.500 of yourself and, and you're going to do something with that, 919 01:01:16.560 --> 01:01:18.940 but it could be that simple. But if you feel led to do 920 01:01:18.940 --> 01:01:21.100 something more creative, you can, but here's what you're 921 01:01:21.100 --> 01:01:24.340 going to do with it. You're going to pray and you're going 922 01:01:24.340 --> 01:01:28.980 to ask God to help you hear what his spirit is saying about 923 01:01:28.820 --> 01:01:33.700 you. What are his thoughts towards you? What does God want 924 01:01:33.700 --> 01:01:37.320 you to know about yourself, about the real you? And I want 925 01:01:37.320 --> 01:01:40.740 you to write down anything that is positive that you hear 926 01:01:41.220 --> 01:01:44.880 phrases, words, scriptures, whatever comes up in your spirit 927 01:01:44.880 --> 01:01:48.820 that is positive. That's key. That goes on your silhouette 928 01:01:48.700 --> 01:01:52.260 paper. If you hear something negative, it is not going to go 929 01:01:52.260 --> 01:01:54.880 on that paper. You're going to get out another sheet of paper 930 01:01:55.260 --> 01:01:58.500 and you're going to write that on that paper, but you're not 931 01:01:58.500 --> 01:02:00.780 going to just write it there. You're going to cross it out 932 01:02:00.780 --> 01:02:04.800 because we know that negative is what? A lie of the enemy you 933 01:02:04.660 --> 01:02:07.840 all. That's where that's coming from because God doesn't speak 934 01:02:07.840 --> 01:02:11.320 negative things over you. You're going to cross that out and 935 01:02:11.320 --> 01:02:14.960 you're going to ask God to show you the truth to replace the 936 01:02:16.300 --> 01:02:19.060 lie. And then I want you to, you're going to do that on a 937 01:02:19.270 --> 01:02:21.630 piece of paper. Okay. You're going to do the, the silhouette 938 01:02:21.730 --> 01:02:24.510 activation on a piece of paper, and then you're going to take a 939 01:02:24.510 --> 01:02:26.550 screenshot of it and you're going to share that into the 940 01:02:26.550 --> 01:02:29.310 community group. Okay. Now I'm going to show you some examples 941 01:02:29.310 --> 01:02:31.910 again. I'm going to do this kind of quick because I don't want us 942 01:02:31.910 --> 01:02:36.190 to run out of time. Um, all right. I'm sorry. I had to, I 943 01:02:36.190 --> 01:02:38.530 got to, okay, here's my first one. And I want to just tell you 944 01:02:38.530 --> 01:02:41.450 a couple things about some of these, this young lady that did 945 01:02:41.450 --> 01:02:45.710 this silhouette, um, did not like the color of her hair. She 946 01:02:45.710 --> 01:02:48.930 didn't like her eyes. There were a lot of features about herself 947 01:02:48.930 --> 01:02:52.370 that she did not like or appreciate during the heart 948 01:02:52.370 --> 01:02:56.310 where God was helping her embrace the way that he made her 949 01:02:56.330 --> 01:02:59.130 and to really accept that she was fearfully and wonderfully 950 01:02:59.130 --> 01:03:02.130 made. And so the reason she felt led to do flowers over her eyes 951 01:03:02.130 --> 01:03:05.750 as she was declaring that she would start to flourish and the 952 01:03:05.750 --> 01:03:10.330 way that she would see herself. Okay. And so that's one example. 953 01:03:10.450 --> 01:03:12.730 Again, you guys don't have to do it like this, but these are just 954 01:03:12.550 --> 01:03:15.970 examples. Here's another lady. She really felt led to do the 955 01:03:16.090 --> 01:03:19.230 growth in the, you know, the plants coming out of her mind, 956 01:03:19.250 --> 01:03:22.450 because that was symbolic for her about her mind being 957 01:03:22.450 --> 01:03:25.470 transformed. And she wrote right on there, who am I? Who does God 958 01:03:25.470 --> 01:03:29.930 say I am? So that's what I want. God, who do you say that I am? I 959 01:03:29.930 --> 01:03:34.210 want you to be praying that this lady did a crown. Okay. She was 960 01:03:34.210 --> 01:03:37.730 partnering with the truth that we ladies, if you didn't know, 961 01:03:37.810 --> 01:03:42.390 we are a crown. If we are healthy, lovely, wonderful, you 962 01:03:42.390 --> 01:03:45.330 know, not completely healed because we're all in process. We 963 01:03:45.330 --> 01:03:48.410 are the crown to our spirit mates when they find us. We're 964 01:03:48.410 --> 01:03:52.410 the crown to our husband. And she loved red lipsticks. I love 965 01:03:52.410 --> 01:03:54.950 that she put her personality in here. Again, you guys do what you 966 01:03:54.950 --> 01:03:58.950 feel led. This one here, she titled it the real me. And she 967 01:03:58.950 --> 01:04:01.310 wrote all the words and phrases and things that God was saying 968 01:04:01.310 --> 01:04:05.050 to her. Here's another one. Again, it can be real simple, 969 01:04:05.250 --> 01:04:08.910 y'all see how this works. Do what you feel led to do. She 970 01:04:08.910 --> 01:04:11.390 didn't, she didn't draw eyes or mouth or anything. This is 971 01:04:11.390 --> 01:04:14.590 totally fine. Hers, she wrote words in different colors. And 972 01:04:14.590 --> 01:04:17.390 then there were two words that she highlighted. She did that 973 01:04:17.390 --> 01:04:21.450 because God was really emphasizing those words to her. 974 01:04:21.930 --> 01:04:24.350 Okay, so that all meant something to her. Here's another 975 01:04:24.350 --> 01:04:27.650 one. And she embraced her freckles and all the things. And 976 01:04:27.650 --> 01:04:31.810 then she wrote faith filled at the bottom. Here's another one 977 01:04:31.810 --> 01:04:34.790 daughter of the king. And then again, words are in different 978 01:04:34.830 --> 01:04:38.090 colors, even some of them are in pen, some of them are in marker. 979 01:04:38.410 --> 01:04:42.690 This, this all means stuff to these ladies. So again, you do 980 01:04:42.690 --> 01:04:46.390 your process, ask the Lord, like, is there a color I should 981 01:04:46.390 --> 01:04:49.770 write in? Is there a color I should draw in? Whatever, just 982 01:04:49.770 --> 01:04:52.690 go with the flow. And this will be a part of you practicing. Now 983 01:04:52.690 --> 01:04:55.870 this lady is an artist. So don't get intimidated. But it is 984 01:04:55.870 --> 01:04:58.750 beautiful and powerful. And I just wanted to share this with 985 01:04:58.750 --> 01:04:59.230 you all. 986 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:02.100 Actually, I think, yeah, this was Nadine. 987 01:05:02.880 --> 01:05:03.940 Nadine, for those of you that know, 988 01:05:04.000 --> 01:05:05.240 she just moved to phase two. 989 01:05:05.440 --> 01:05:06.800 She was in this heartwork group, 990 01:05:07.740 --> 01:05:08.920 and that was just recently. 991 01:05:09.100 --> 01:05:10.320 This is what she drew, 992 01:05:10.620 --> 01:05:12.200 and it's just powerful and beautiful. 993 01:05:12.360 --> 01:05:14.600 And so I wanted to share that with you 994 01:05:14.600 --> 01:05:15.920 and bless you with that tonight. 995 01:05:16.020 --> 01:05:18.300 So you do yours, okay? 996 01:05:18.300 --> 01:05:19.980 And then post it here in the group 997 01:05:19.980 --> 01:05:21.780 and let us see it and let us cheer you on. 998 01:05:21.960 --> 01:05:24.480 And again, you can post it. 999 01:05:24.780 --> 01:05:26.360 Ladies, just so you know, 1000 01:05:26.400 --> 01:05:29.320 the Facebook group is not gonna have your replays. 1001 01:05:29.320 --> 01:05:31.100 It's not gonna have your event calendar. 1002 01:05:31.600 --> 01:05:34.860 It's not gonna have the resource tab. 1003 01:05:34.940 --> 01:05:37.340 The only thing we're gonna do in the Facebook group 1004 01:05:37.460 --> 01:05:39.460 is have community, okay? 1005 01:05:39.460 --> 01:05:40.820 So just so everybody understands, 1006 01:05:41.020 --> 01:05:41.960 that's what's happening there. 1007 01:05:42.260 --> 01:05:45.080 And so if you have any other questions 1008 01:05:45.080 --> 01:05:47.020 about where to find anything else, 1009 01:05:47.720 --> 01:05:49.040 your links for the live sessions, 1010 01:05:49.260 --> 01:05:51.420 all of that is staying in the last year single app. 1011 01:05:51.440 --> 01:05:54.200 So you still need to keep the app, super important. 1012 01:05:54.380 --> 01:05:55.660 Your course is gonna be in there. 1013 01:05:55.660 --> 01:05:59.580 But when somebody just said something, 1014 01:05:59.720 --> 01:06:01.060 it made me think of that. 1015 01:06:02.420 --> 01:06:03.720 But yeah, oh, one other thing. 1016 01:06:04.320 --> 01:06:07.060 If you're gonna do posts, please only post in one place. 1017 01:06:07.140 --> 01:06:08.280 So what do I mean by that? 1018 01:06:08.740 --> 01:06:11.780 Don't post in both the app and the Facebook group, okay? 1019 01:06:11.780 --> 01:06:13.580 Because that will create double work for our team. 1020 01:06:13.600 --> 01:06:14.980 So just post in one place. 1021 01:06:15.180 --> 01:06:16.600 We'll get to you and we'll see you there. 1022 01:06:16.860 --> 01:06:19.720 All right, so some ladies already have their hands up. 1023 01:06:19.740 --> 01:06:20.260 Way to go. 1024 01:06:20.380 --> 01:06:23.120 If you're willing to share with the whole group 1025 01:06:23.240 --> 01:06:24.640 what you shared in your breakout, 1026 01:06:24.640 --> 01:06:25.640 you can raise your hand. 1027 01:06:25.800 --> 01:06:26.920 I am gonna go with Gail 1028 01:06:27.160 --> 01:06:31.080 and then I'll go to Leslie and then Lovette, okay? 1029 01:06:32.680 --> 01:06:35.500 Hello, thank you for asking me to speak. 1030 01:06:37.480 --> 01:06:40.320 My question came, it was from this afternoon 1031 01:06:40.320 --> 01:06:41.480 and it's still the same, 1032 01:06:42.260 --> 01:06:46.380 is my word in the breakout was comparison. 1033 01:06:47.000 --> 01:06:51.140 But it's very specific because I can be in a group of women 1034 01:06:52.220 --> 01:06:54.120 and totally enjoy their company. 1035 01:06:54.120 --> 01:06:56.220 And not compare. 1036 01:06:56.480 --> 01:06:59.080 And I also am not competitive at all. 1037 01:06:59.520 --> 01:07:05.180 I concede constantly, I don't, I give in. 1038 01:07:05.380 --> 01:07:09.640 So anyways, but my comparison really is 1039 01:07:09.720 --> 01:07:13.560 when I was with my exes. 1040 01:07:13.560 --> 01:07:18.680 I had two husbands and both of them were porn addicts 1041 01:07:20.860 --> 01:07:22.940 and cheated on me. 1042 01:07:23.900 --> 01:07:31.500 And my last ex constantly degraded my body. 1043 01:07:32.200 --> 01:07:35.420 So I would go into a group of women 1044 01:07:35.420 --> 01:07:36.780 and be happier than anything. 1045 01:07:36.940 --> 01:07:40.480 As soon as my then husband would come into the room, 1046 01:07:40.600 --> 01:07:44.080 I would automatically start looking around the room 1047 01:07:44.080 --> 01:07:46.340 like who is going to be attracted? 1048 01:07:46.920 --> 01:07:48.720 Who's he gonna be attracted to? 1049 01:07:48.900 --> 01:07:49.380 Who's he gonna? 1050 01:07:49.900 --> 01:07:52.640 So, I mean, I'm not dating now, 1051 01:07:53.280 --> 01:07:55.680 but how do I know, how do I make? 1052 01:07:56.580 --> 01:08:01.060 It's like, it's not gonna go away, I'm sure. 1053 01:08:01.900 --> 01:08:03.100 Well, it will, it can. 1054 01:08:03.540 --> 01:08:03.760 It can. 1055 01:08:03.800 --> 01:08:05.080 So I want you to know, Gail, 1056 01:08:05.120 --> 01:08:07.880 I resonate 100% with what you're saying. 1057 01:08:08.520 --> 01:08:12.060 Both my ex-husband and my spiritual daughter's dad 1058 01:08:12.640 --> 01:08:13.520 both cheated. 1059 01:08:14.340 --> 01:08:16.220 And my spiritual daughter's dad, 1060 01:08:16.220 --> 01:08:19.200 he was massively addicted to pornography. 1061 01:08:19.840 --> 01:08:21.359 I mean, like didn't just cheat with one person, 1062 01:08:21.560 --> 01:08:24.840 had multiple women he was having side relationships with. 1063 01:08:25.040 --> 01:08:27.240 And so I felt very similar to you. 1064 01:08:27.240 --> 01:08:30.540 I was very insecure when other women would come around 1065 01:08:30.540 --> 01:08:33.240 or even he would say something to a woman on social media 1066 01:08:33.300 --> 01:08:35.080 or any of those kinds of things. 1067 01:08:35.520 --> 01:08:38.720 And I wondered if that would ever be gone too. 1068 01:08:38.740 --> 01:08:40.600 Like even if we went to the pool or the beach, 1069 01:08:40.779 --> 01:08:43.580 I literally, it was like painful for me. 1070 01:08:43.920 --> 01:08:44.859 It was not fun. 1071 01:08:45.740 --> 01:08:50.779 And so I didn't know until I found out 1072 01:08:50.779 --> 01:08:52.840 that I could actually live completely differently. 1073 01:08:53.399 --> 01:08:55.319 And part of that is because when you're secure 1074 01:08:55.319 --> 01:08:58.560 in a relationship, like you have security in yourself 1075 01:08:58.560 --> 01:09:01.260 and you're healthy and you like go through 1076 01:09:01.260 --> 01:09:02.200 this healing process. 1077 01:09:02.260 --> 01:09:06.080 But then also like I had to work through body image issues 1078 01:09:06.080 --> 01:09:09.920 that I had that were definitely increased 1079 01:09:09.920 --> 01:09:11.100 because of all of that. 1080 01:09:11.279 --> 01:09:13.640 I already had existing body image issues, 1081 01:09:13.640 --> 01:09:15.920 but they got heightened because of all that. 1082 01:09:16.420 --> 01:09:19.120 But then when I stepped into a healthy relationship 1083 01:09:19.120 --> 01:09:24.680 with a man that literally, like I don't ever have fear 1084 01:09:24.680 --> 01:09:27.540 that he's gonna look at a woman and lust after her. 1085 01:09:27.740 --> 01:09:28.540 Like I don't. 1086 01:09:29.479 --> 01:09:33.240 And I never even knew I could get to that point. 1087 01:09:34.200 --> 01:09:37.819 But part of that is because Brian is a man of honor 1088 01:09:38.279 --> 01:09:40.040 and he's a man of character. 1089 01:09:40.399 --> 01:09:42.500 And he walks in the fruits of the spirit, 1090 01:09:42.500 --> 01:09:43.720 including self-control. 1091 01:09:43.859 --> 01:09:45.779 And you know what, he also walked in that 1092 01:09:46.020 --> 01:09:47.819 regarding protecting the covenant 1093 01:09:47.819 --> 01:09:49.600 of our marriage bed with me. 1094 01:09:50.620 --> 01:09:52.580 We did not have sex before marriage. 1095 01:09:52.640 --> 01:09:55.040 And that was something we both fought for and protected. 1096 01:09:55.200 --> 01:09:56.160 And that's huge. 1097 01:09:57.240 --> 01:09:59.900 And you know, this isn't... 1098 01:09:59.900 --> 01:09:59.940 Yes. 1099 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:03.080 He's a pastor, but this isn't just a him thing. 1100 01:10:03.100 --> 01:10:05.560 We have a lot of men that have come through our community 1101 01:10:05.560 --> 01:10:07.140 that have actually, I mean, again, 1102 01:10:07.140 --> 01:10:08.980 I've been coaching in this community for four years. 1103 01:10:09.180 --> 01:10:12.620 We've had men that have said, man, I'm trying to date 1104 01:10:12.620 --> 01:10:14.980 and I'm trying to not have sex before marriage, 1105 01:10:15.080 --> 01:10:17.920 but I'm going out and these women are trying to seduce me. 1106 01:10:19.080 --> 01:10:21.000 Ladies do it too, you know? 1107 01:10:21.500 --> 01:10:23.920 And so I want you to have hope 1108 01:10:24.140 --> 01:10:26.600 that you can meet someone healthy 1109 01:10:27.180 --> 01:10:29.600 and someone that walks in all the fruits of the spirit 1110 01:10:29.660 --> 01:10:31.860 and that you can start to, 1111 01:10:32.060 --> 01:10:35.940 the words that come to mind is be at ease within yourself. 1112 01:10:36.420 --> 01:10:38.380 That is something that is possible. 1113 01:10:38.520 --> 01:10:40.860 And I believe that God wants to give that to you 1114 01:10:40.980 --> 01:10:44.520 and to anyone else that this resonates with tonight. 1115 01:10:45.260 --> 01:10:47.520 You know, God cares about the brokenness 1116 01:10:47.520 --> 01:10:50.060 that you've walked through and he wants to restore 1117 01:10:50.220 --> 01:10:53.060 and bring restitution to all of those places. 1118 01:10:53.660 --> 01:10:57.200 And so I want to encourage you to partner with 1119 01:10:57.200 --> 01:10:59.740 what has happened does not have to be 1120 01:10:59.740 --> 01:11:03.340 what will always happen, okay? 1121 01:11:03.700 --> 01:11:07.480 Now, I will also tell you that God was challenging me 1122 01:11:07.480 --> 01:11:09.940 as well with some things. 1123 01:11:10.060 --> 01:11:14.580 So for example, he had me stand in front of a mirror 1124 01:11:14.800 --> 01:11:16.700 and love on my body, 1125 01:11:16.760 --> 01:11:19.260 like even the parts of myself that I didn't like. 1126 01:11:19.300 --> 01:11:21.260 And I'm just going to be real honest with you all. 1127 01:11:21.260 --> 01:11:25.140 So growing up, my brothers were my main abusers. 1128 01:11:25.300 --> 01:11:26.600 So they sexually abused me. 1129 01:11:26.880 --> 01:11:29.460 And one of the things that they also did 1130 01:11:29.460 --> 01:11:32.660 is they made fun of me because I didn't have big boobs. 1131 01:11:32.760 --> 01:11:34.800 And that became this big joke. 1132 01:11:35.220 --> 01:11:37.580 Well, like at Christmas time, you know, 1133 01:11:37.580 --> 01:11:39.600 we would be sitting around opening presents 1134 01:11:39.600 --> 01:11:42.280 and my mom would buy me like bras and underwear 1135 01:11:42.280 --> 01:11:45.240 and like make me open them 1136 01:11:45.240 --> 01:11:47.320 and like hold them up and everything. 1137 01:11:47.380 --> 01:11:49.660 It was literally horrible. 1138 01:11:51.260 --> 01:11:53.360 And then my brothers would tease and all this stuff. 1139 01:11:53.380 --> 01:11:54.500 And that just made all that worse. 1140 01:11:54.600 --> 01:11:55.760 Why am I saying that? 1141 01:11:56.060 --> 01:11:58.180 Well, I'm saying that because one of the areas 1142 01:11:58.180 --> 01:11:59.640 that I tended to compare myself, 1143 01:12:00.180 --> 01:12:03.120 especially when I saw some of the stuff that, you know, 1144 01:12:03.120 --> 01:12:04.560 they were looking at online. 1145 01:12:05.040 --> 01:12:08.060 Well, then every time someone got like around me 1146 01:12:08.060 --> 01:12:10.540 and I was, you know, smaller than them 1147 01:12:10.540 --> 01:12:11.840 and that woman, I would look at them 1148 01:12:11.840 --> 01:12:13.800 and just think they were so much better than me 1149 01:12:13.800 --> 01:12:17.340 because their body was, they had big boobs and I didn't. 1150 01:12:17.680 --> 01:12:18.720 And so that made them better. 1151 01:12:19.340 --> 01:12:21.600 Now that wasn't true, but I'm just being real. 1152 01:12:21.760 --> 01:12:24.180 Like this is stuff we deal with, you know, 1153 01:12:24.180 --> 01:12:26.960 but I needed to ask the Lord to go in 1154 01:12:26.960 --> 01:12:29.420 and heal those areas from when I was younger 1155 01:12:30.660 --> 01:12:33.480 and honestly like love who I am. 1156 01:12:33.500 --> 01:12:35.600 And so if that means y'all, 1157 01:12:35.680 --> 01:12:37.460 and I'm not saying a weird way, okay, 1158 01:12:37.460 --> 01:12:40.320 but like standing in the bathroom and just like, 1159 01:12:40.400 --> 01:12:42.400 God, thank you for the way that you made me, 1160 01:12:42.960 --> 01:12:46.420 like genuinely believing that and partnering with that. 1161 01:12:46.420 --> 01:12:49.760 Even before I felt it, I had to partner with it. 1162 01:12:49.960 --> 01:12:52.340 So if some of y'all don't like your legs 1163 01:12:52.340 --> 01:12:53.440 or don't like your arms, 1164 01:12:53.520 --> 01:12:56.860 I've had women literally get breakthrough from that. 1165 01:12:57.100 --> 01:12:59.600 Start wearing shirts, if it's not too cold for you, 1166 01:12:59.620 --> 01:13:03.820 that show your arms and get out of that box 1167 01:13:04.060 --> 01:13:06.960 and embrace who you are, okay? 1168 01:13:07.460 --> 01:13:09.000 Okay, thank you. 1169 01:13:09.720 --> 01:13:09.900 You're welcome. 1170 01:13:10.220 --> 01:13:12.240 I look forward to hearing testimonies from this, 1171 01:13:12.340 --> 01:13:14.840 from you and others in the days to come for sure. 1172 01:13:14.840 --> 01:13:16.300 Absolutely, thank you. 1173 01:13:16.320 --> 01:13:17.000 I appreciate that. 1174 01:13:17.020 --> 01:13:18.720 Thanks for trusting us and sharing, yeah. 1175 01:13:18.820 --> 01:13:19.740 Thank you. 1176 01:13:20.200 --> 01:13:21.360 Okay, Leslie, go ahead. 1177 01:13:22.180 --> 01:13:22.880 Okay, hi. 1178 01:13:23.120 --> 01:13:23.460 Hi. 1179 01:13:25.060 --> 01:13:28.200 So when you said comparisons, 1180 01:13:28.980 --> 01:13:32.680 my story is very similar to the last lady's. 1181 01:13:34.100 --> 01:13:37.800 Where my comparisons come in is with my peers 1182 01:13:37.800 --> 01:13:40.600 when I'm hanging out with them and we're all, 1183 01:13:40.600 --> 01:13:42.840 you know, there's a lot of people around. 1184 01:13:45.120 --> 01:13:48.220 Men, I noticed when men pay more attention 1185 01:13:48.540 --> 01:13:54.880 to other women than to me and that bothers me. 1186 01:13:56.000 --> 01:13:57.300 So let me ask you this. 1187 01:13:57.300 --> 01:13:59.720 Did you see your dad doing that too when you were younger? 1188 01:14:00.600 --> 01:14:01.060 No. 1189 01:14:01.500 --> 01:14:04.000 Okay, so when was the first time this showed up for you? 1190 01:14:07.420 --> 01:14:09.100 Oh, really good question. 1191 01:14:12.820 --> 01:14:13.820 I don't know. 1192 01:14:14.060 --> 01:14:18.860 Would it go all the way back to like when... 1193 01:14:20.480 --> 01:14:22.680 I'm thinking, I don't know. 1194 01:14:22.780 --> 01:14:24.480 This is the only thing that's coming to my mind 1195 01:14:24.480 --> 01:14:28.680 would be like when I was real little 1196 01:14:28.680 --> 01:14:31.040 and another boy thought I was male. 1197 01:14:33.100 --> 01:14:34.620 Yeah, it totally could. 1198 01:14:34.960 --> 01:14:36.820 And then that theme continued. 1199 01:14:37.000 --> 01:14:38.760 Like that wasn't the only time. 1200 01:14:39.760 --> 01:14:42.600 You know, I remember being in McDonald's. 1201 01:14:42.660 --> 01:14:45.040 I can't, I don't know exactly my age, 1202 01:14:45.120 --> 01:14:49.040 but I wanna say somewhere around, you know, 1203 01:14:49.180 --> 01:14:51.360 probably eight, nine, 10 years old. 1204 01:14:51.680 --> 01:14:54.960 And I heard somebody saying, isn't he so handsome? 1205 01:14:56.540 --> 01:14:58.480 And I knew they were talking about me. 1206 01:14:58.480 --> 01:14:59.720 I had really short hair. 1207 01:14:59.800 --> 01:14:59.980 That's why. 1208 01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:01.240 I don't like short hair. 1209 01:15:02.640 --> 01:15:07.360 Yeah, that's okay. Yeah. Um, so here's the thing, it can 1210 01:15:07.360 --> 01:15:10.900 totally have something to do with that. Because even if you 1211 01:15:10.900 --> 01:15:15.400 knew that wasn't true, there might have been things in you 1212 01:15:15.400 --> 01:15:20.500 and lies that you heard that you didn't have the ability to, you 1213 01:15:20.500 --> 01:15:24.480 know, ward off and like keep off of your mind and heart. And so I 1214 01:15:24.480 --> 01:15:26.600 want to encourage you to remember the revealing for 1215 01:15:26.700 --> 01:15:31.220 healing cycle, Leslie, can want you to get that out this week. 1216 01:15:31.220 --> 01:15:33.380 And I want you to do the revealing for healing cycle 1217 01:15:33.380 --> 01:15:37.080 with these memories. And I want you to ladies, I want this to 1218 01:15:37.080 --> 01:15:43.720 be a really good example to you. Nothing is weird. Okay. And 1219 01:15:43.720 --> 01:15:47.380 nothing is insignificant. She's having this memory pop up from 1220 01:15:47.380 --> 01:15:50.540 when she was younger, when a little boy thought she was a 1221 01:15:50.540 --> 01:15:54.100 boy, and then the other memory popped up. And so this is how we 1222 01:15:54.100 --> 01:15:57.220 start on the path. And then as we go, God might show us 1223 01:15:57.220 --> 01:16:03.000 additional things. Okay. And so, you know, let's see what the 1224 01:16:03.000 --> 01:16:05.300 lies might have been. And then the other thing I'm hearing the 1225 01:16:05.300 --> 01:16:11.080 Holy Spirit say is also, was there any vows that you made 1226 01:16:11.080 --> 01:16:16.040 during those times that you've been partnering with that are 1227 01:16:16.220 --> 01:16:19.260 literally causing that same thing to keep happening in the 1228 01:16:19.380 --> 01:16:25.440 spirit? Also, did you ever hear mom or dad say they wanted a 1229 01:16:25.440 --> 01:16:25.440 1230 01:16:30.700 --> 01:16:36.780 No. But I, I remember, you know, like, I don't know why this 1231 01:16:36.780 --> 01:16:41.820 stands out either. But like, you know, your parents buy Raggedy 1232 01:16:41.820 --> 01:16:45.360 Ann and Andy, and then give them to you and your sister. And she 1233 01:16:45.360 --> 01:16:50.200 got the girl doll and I got the boy doll. You know, and the 1234 01:16:50.200 --> 01:16:54.060 little boy that came that he would come and play with me. He 1235 01:16:54.060 --> 01:16:59.860 was a neighbor kid. And I came home from I don't know where 1236 01:16:59.860 --> 01:17:05.060 school maybe. And he said to my mom, I didn't know boys were 1237 01:17:05.660 --> 01:17:09.160 dresses. And she said, Well, they don't. She's a little girl. 1238 01:17:09.160 --> 01:17:11.900 And he ran home and never came back to play with me. 1239 01:17:11.900 --> 01:17:15.880 Yeah, so I think I think I vaguely remember you mentioned 1240 01:17:15.880 --> 01:17:19.240 Yeah, story before. And so I do think this is a theme for you 1241 01:17:19.240 --> 01:17:24.460 that God wants to heal this area. Because that was like a 1242 01:17:24.460 --> 01:17:31.540 hit against your identity. From the beginning. Yes. And so I do 1243 01:17:31.540 --> 01:17:35.280 want you to go ahead and pray and just make sure that they're 1244 01:17:35.280 --> 01:17:39.900 you know, the Lord can show you okay. There was anything that 1245 01:17:39.900 --> 01:17:42.680 was in your parents where they really were partnering with 1246 01:17:42.680 --> 01:17:46.120 wanting a boy and I'm sure they were so blessed to have you. But 1247 01:17:46.120 --> 01:17:49.120 let's just make sure if if God doesn't show anything, don't 1248 01:17:49.120 --> 01:17:51.740 worry about it. Just move on into what you do see and what 1249 01:17:51.740 --> 01:17:55.000 you do know. And you've said several things tonight. So let's 1250 01:17:55.000 --> 01:17:58.100 do the revealing for healing cycle. I want I want to 1251 01:17:58.100 --> 01:17:59.820 encourage you to do a forgiveness prayer sheet. And I 1252 01:17:59.820 --> 01:18:02.800 think I mentioned this about the boy that said that regarding you 1253 01:18:02.800 --> 01:18:05.000 know, you in the dress, did you end up doing the forgiveness 1254 01:18:05.000 --> 01:18:07.140 prayer sheet regarding forgiving him? 1255 01:18:07.340 --> 01:18:08.480 No, I haven't done that yet. 1256 01:18:08.480 --> 01:18:13.720 Okay, yeah, let's do that. Okay. Okay. Because forgiving them, 1257 01:18:14.120 --> 01:18:16.700 you know, forgiving that boy is going to help you start coming 1258 01:18:16.700 --> 01:18:21.140 out of agreement more and more with the pain of that pain of 1259 01:18:21.140 --> 01:18:25.100 feeling like people think I'm a boy when you're a girl. And then 1260 01:18:25.100 --> 01:18:27.680 again, identifying those lies. And let's just see where the 1261 01:18:27.680 --> 01:18:31.480 Lord takes you from there. Okay. Okay. Awesome. Thanks for 1262 01:18:31.480 --> 01:18:34.960 sharing that with us. Thank you. You're welcome. live that go 1263 01:18:34.960 --> 01:18:35.240 ahead. 1264 01:18:39.060 --> 01:18:44.000 Sorry, you caught me off guard. Oh, that's all right. So in the 1265 01:18:44.000 --> 01:18:48.220 breakout, I will, I will have to say that I identify with all of 1266 01:18:48.220 --> 01:18:54.820 them a little bit. Probably more with the comparison aspect of 1267 01:18:54.820 --> 01:19:00.460 it. I was telling Sandra when it comes to like, men in my love 1268 01:19:00.460 --> 01:19:13.200 life, if I feel like I'm having to compete, I bow out. Um, so 1269 01:19:13.200 --> 01:19:16.620 tell me, when do you feel like you have to compete? Like what's 1270 01:19:16.620 --> 01:19:18.500 happening when that kicks in? 1271 01:19:23.520 --> 01:19:29.480 Um, when you know that they're talking to multiple women? Um, 1272 01:19:32.200 --> 01:19:32.840 um, 1273 01:19:34.460 --> 01:19:41.500 so let me let me ask you a question. Um, for example, I 1274 01:19:41.500 --> 01:19:47.000 talked to multiple men when I was dating. But I knew the one 1275 01:19:47.000 --> 01:19:48.480 that God led me to. And I was like, Oh, I'm gonna go with the 1276 01:19:48.480 --> 01:19:54.360 right. And he's a great match for me. Okay. And I knew that he 1277 01:19:54.360 --> 01:19:57.080 was getting to know a couple people in the beginning. Right. 1278 01:19:57.100 --> 01:19:59.980 And so my question for you is this is 1279 01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:03.480 is, is it that you don't know your worth and value? 1280 01:20:03.700 --> 01:20:05.460 And that's why you struggle with, 1281 01:20:05.460 --> 01:20:07.380 if someone talks to multiple people, 1282 01:20:07.460 --> 01:20:09.660 because ultimately you have a fear 1283 01:20:09.780 --> 01:20:12.220 that if that person doesn't choose you, 1284 01:20:12.260 --> 01:20:14.500 that you're not gonna find somebody. 1285 01:20:15.260 --> 01:20:17.060 Like there's that rejection and there's, 1286 01:20:17.840 --> 01:20:18.880 versus just standing in, 1287 01:20:19.040 --> 01:20:21.840 hey, this is a person I'm just having fun getting to know 1288 01:20:22.420 --> 01:20:26.220 and growing community and see if this is the direction 1289 01:20:26.220 --> 01:20:27.160 God wants to lead me. 1290 01:20:27.220 --> 01:20:27.860 And where there's this, 1291 01:20:27.860 --> 01:20:30.880 there's more of like an open hand and a freedom 1292 01:20:30.880 --> 01:20:33.460 versus I gotta cling to this person 1293 01:20:33.800 --> 01:20:36.020 and to be in panic and fear 1294 01:20:36.020 --> 01:20:37.600 if they're talking to other people. 1295 01:20:38.280 --> 01:20:38.660 Does that make sense? 1296 01:20:39.140 --> 01:20:41.780 Yeah, no, when I've online dated, 1297 01:20:42.140 --> 01:20:44.780 I mean, I was talking to multiple people as well. 1298 01:20:45.020 --> 01:20:48.280 Obviously it didn't go anywhere with any of them 1299 01:20:48.680 --> 01:20:50.180 after a period of time, 1300 01:20:50.480 --> 01:20:53.440 but I know that they're talking to multiple people, 1301 01:20:53.440 --> 01:20:58.260 but like the minute it's like slapped in your face, 1302 01:21:00.100 --> 01:21:00.380 like- 1303 01:21:00.380 --> 01:21:00.980 Tell me what that means. 1304 01:21:01.120 --> 01:21:02.220 Like, what do you mean by that? 1305 01:21:02.500 --> 01:21:04.520 When they like are upfront about, 1306 01:21:04.920 --> 01:21:07.240 oh, like I've been on dates with multiple people 1307 01:21:07.460 --> 01:21:09.360 and things of that sort. 1308 01:21:09.360 --> 01:21:13.480 I feel like they're wanting me to present a song and dance. 1309 01:21:13.580 --> 01:21:16.860 So I'm like, why should I pick you over them? 1310 01:21:17.240 --> 01:21:19.320 Okay, so let me ask you this. 1311 01:21:19.940 --> 01:21:23.760 You just said, I feel like they are doing it 1312 01:21:23.760 --> 01:21:24.660 for this reason. 1313 01:21:25.600 --> 01:21:29.880 So you're assuming something instead of just asking them. 1314 01:21:30.900 --> 01:21:33.780 Okay, do you all know the phrase, 1315 01:21:34.860 --> 01:21:37.640 what is assuming, what does it make out of us? 1316 01:21:37.760 --> 01:21:39.400 Does anyone, you don't gotta say it, 1317 01:21:40.000 --> 01:21:42.620 let's just raise our hands, okay? 1318 01:21:43.400 --> 01:21:48.060 Yep, it makes us become foolish, okay? 1319 01:21:48.060 --> 01:21:50.980 We start assuming things and then the rabbit trail 1320 01:21:50.980 --> 01:21:53.860 starts to, man, just the enemy will just run us down 1321 01:21:53.940 --> 01:21:57.320 a mile or two miles down the road, really far. 1322 01:21:58.060 --> 01:21:59.940 And then it's like, okay, 1323 01:22:00.940 --> 01:22:03.800 but I don't even know if this is really 1324 01:22:03.800 --> 01:22:05.040 why they're saying this. 1325 01:22:05.940 --> 01:22:10.020 And number two, if a guy has gotta be like, 1326 01:22:10.180 --> 01:22:12.020 hey, I'm going on all these dates, dah, dah, dah, 1327 01:22:12.220 --> 01:22:14.100 he's probably not the healthiest guy. 1328 01:22:15.020 --> 01:22:16.240 Well, that's where I, 1329 01:22:16.940 --> 01:22:18.560 that's kind of how I feel about it. 1330 01:22:18.940 --> 01:22:20.860 If he's wanting it, if it's just a conversation 1331 01:22:20.900 --> 01:22:24.620 because y'all know you're both dating, that's one thing. 1332 01:22:24.640 --> 01:22:26.580 But when you start talking about what you're doing 1333 01:22:26.580 --> 01:22:27.780 on dates with other people, 1334 01:22:28.940 --> 01:22:30.840 there's no reason for that. 1335 01:22:31.440 --> 01:22:37.800 So what in you then kicks in to cause you to feel 1336 01:22:37.800 --> 01:22:40.260 like you've gotta do some kind of song and dance 1337 01:22:40.260 --> 01:22:44.940 to make them choose you if they're A, not a healthy person 1338 01:22:44.940 --> 01:22:47.400 and B, why is this kicking in for you? 1339 01:22:48.200 --> 01:22:51.220 I don't, I bow out gracefully. 1340 01:22:51.340 --> 01:22:54.800 It's just like, they really kind of lose my interest. 1341 01:22:54.820 --> 01:22:56.120 It's like, that's fine if you're talking 1342 01:22:56.120 --> 01:22:58.000 to multiple people and I am too, 1343 01:22:58.220 --> 01:23:01.060 but I'm not gonna sit there on my dates 1344 01:23:01.060 --> 01:23:03.120 and talk about the date that I had last night 1345 01:23:03.120 --> 01:23:03.720 or what I did. 1346 01:23:04.060 --> 01:23:04.460 Do you tell them that? 1347 01:23:04.780 --> 01:23:05.680 No, I don't. 1348 01:23:06.200 --> 01:23:06.820 Yeah, at least. 1349 01:23:07.060 --> 01:23:08.480 And I wouldn't, so. 1350 01:23:08.480 --> 01:23:10.460 But why not? 1351 01:23:10.600 --> 01:23:12.780 I mean, you can say that in a kind way to someone. 1352 01:23:14.380 --> 01:23:16.200 And I think this is kind of the key here, Lovette, 1353 01:23:16.480 --> 01:23:20.000 is that you're bowing out, you're saying gracefully, 1354 01:23:20.400 --> 01:23:22.940 but really you're actually not using your voice 1355 01:23:22.940 --> 01:23:24.320 at a time when you need to. 1356 01:23:24.960 --> 01:23:26.660 And you can do that in a kind way and say, 1357 01:23:26.800 --> 01:23:28.720 you know what, it's been nice to get to know you, 1358 01:23:29.320 --> 01:23:31.920 but the way you're sitting here talking about going out 1359 01:23:31.920 --> 01:23:32.760 with these other people, 1360 01:23:32.760 --> 01:23:35.180 that's just not something I'm looking to do. 1361 01:23:35.620 --> 01:23:37.340 And so I just wanna bless you 1362 01:23:37.340 --> 01:23:39.040 and I hope all goes well with you. 1363 01:23:39.080 --> 01:23:40.320 And then you move on. 1364 01:23:40.700 --> 01:23:42.240 Do you see the difference there? 1365 01:23:42.760 --> 01:23:47.060 Because it's kind of like when that's happening, 1366 01:23:47.180 --> 01:23:50.960 you're partnering with, I'm not worthy of being chosen. 1367 01:23:51.180 --> 01:23:52.580 And so I'm just gonna, I'm just gonna, 1368 01:23:53.260 --> 01:23:55.400 I'm just gonna go the other way, 1369 01:23:55.420 --> 01:23:56.820 but that's really hiding. 1370 01:23:58.140 --> 01:24:00.020 You see how that works? 1371 01:24:00.820 --> 01:24:01.140 Yeah. 1372 01:24:01.540 --> 01:24:03.020 So, and again, it's not, 1373 01:24:03.100 --> 01:24:05.280 we don't have to be rude to people, okay? 1374 01:24:05.280 --> 01:24:06.620 And if there's a person, again, 1375 01:24:06.620 --> 01:24:09.420 if they're super on talk, like, let's say you do that. 1376 01:24:09.580 --> 01:24:11.880 And then they come back with a whole barrage of stuff. 1377 01:24:11.940 --> 01:24:14.740 You don't gotta say anything else, okay? 1378 01:24:14.740 --> 01:24:16.840 Cause you don't need to get into some kind of battle 1379 01:24:16.840 --> 01:24:19.420 back and forth, but you can say something kind 1380 01:24:19.420 --> 01:24:21.600 and just say, you know what, this is not, you know, 1381 01:24:21.980 --> 01:24:23.760 this isn't what I was looking for. 1382 01:24:23.780 --> 01:24:26.640 And I'm really looking for someone who, you know, 1383 01:24:26.640 --> 01:24:29.080 can just be focused on the two of us 1384 01:24:29.080 --> 01:24:30.240 getting to know each other tonight. 1385 01:24:32.040 --> 01:24:34.800 And because this is the thing, if someone is teachable, 1386 01:24:35.400 --> 01:24:37.540 they're gonna show you that in their response. 1387 01:24:39.300 --> 01:24:41.260 If they're not teachable, they're gonna react 1388 01:24:41.260 --> 01:24:42.740 and they're gonna blow it even bigger. 1389 01:24:43.200 --> 01:24:44.900 And they're gonna show you who they really are. 1390 01:24:44.900 --> 01:24:46.520 And then you'll know even more, 1391 01:24:46.820 --> 01:24:48.680 yeah, that's not a good person. 1392 01:24:49.560 --> 01:24:49.740 Right. 1393 01:24:50.140 --> 01:24:50.480 Okay? 1394 01:24:50.800 --> 01:24:54.360 And so I want you to look at what's causing you to feel, 1395 01:24:56.640 --> 01:24:58.620 you know, cause what you said is the comparison. 1396 01:24:58.720 --> 01:24:59.980 Like you have to compete. 1397 01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.200 I want you to ask the Lord, when is the first time that this showed up in me? 1398 01:25:05.140 --> 01:25:08.600 When is the first time I felt like I had to compete for someone's attention? 1399 01:25:08.800 --> 01:25:10.380 Was it in the romantic stuff? 1400 01:25:11.400 --> 01:25:12.740 Was it with your dad? 1401 01:25:15.180 --> 01:25:18.820 You know, trying to compete or get his attention at all. 1402 01:25:18.820 --> 01:25:21.440 Cause I saw your, you know, you mentioned in the chat earlier. 1403 01:25:22.440 --> 01:25:27.160 And so sometimes that might kick up because we didn't ever feel 1404 01:25:27.160 --> 01:25:28.280 like we got dad's attention. 1405 01:25:28.280 --> 01:25:31.180 So now we feel like we got to fight for the guy's attention. 1406 01:25:32.560 --> 01:25:34.840 As soon as we find out they're talking to other people, even 1407 01:25:34.840 --> 01:25:36.440 though we're talking to people. 1408 01:25:37.040 --> 01:25:37.480 Yeah. 1409 01:25:37.580 --> 01:25:40.640 And so let's, let's see where, where the Lord might want to take you with 1410 01:25:40.740 --> 01:25:43.360 that and, uh, we'll be praying for you. 1411 01:25:43.360 --> 01:25:46.300 I'm so glad that you shared this tonight, but practice using your voice. 1412 01:25:46.300 --> 01:25:49.380 Now, obviously you're not dating hopefully right now, but when you go 1413 01:25:49.440 --> 01:25:54.100 into that phase and in the future here, I really want you to 1414 01:25:54.640 --> 01:25:56.360 practice speaking up for yourself. 1415 01:25:57.620 --> 01:25:58.060 Okay. 1416 01:25:58.280 --> 01:25:58.920 Yeah. 1417 01:25:59.380 --> 01:26:00.140 All right. 1418 01:26:00.320 --> 01:26:00.820 Awesome. 1419 01:26:01.780 --> 01:26:03.460 Thanks for sharing Tatiana. 1420 01:26:03.760 --> 01:26:04.180 Go ahead. 1421 01:26:06.140 --> 01:26:06.980 All right. 1422 01:26:07.880 --> 01:26:12.740 So, um, last week I talked for fear and anxiety about, I mentioned 1423 01:26:12.740 --> 01:26:14.080 like the class wasn't the professor. 1424 01:26:14.280 --> 01:26:20.300 And then just throughout that week, um, I did my homework and then, um, I 1425 01:26:20.300 --> 01:26:24.460 kind of talked about how, like, there's a pattern here and I just realized 1426 01:26:24.460 --> 01:26:28.920 that I overthink, I overthink things and I let it get to the point 1427 01:26:28.920 --> 01:26:31.220 where it weighs me down emotionally. 1428 01:26:31.440 --> 01:26:38.300 So I feel like intimidation is the word I resonated with the most today, just 1429 01:26:38.360 --> 01:26:45.760 because I allow myself to get intimidated just in my head and then I just get stuck 1430 01:26:45.760 --> 01:26:52.720 there and it's like, the pattern is that I waited out, like whatever emotions I'm 1431 01:26:52.720 --> 01:26:59.300 feeling, um, whatever seems to be like the mountain, um, I just kind of like, 1432 01:26:59.340 --> 01:27:01.740 okay, I'm just going to wait until this gets better. 1433 01:27:02.280 --> 01:27:06.040 And then once those feelings are gone, I'm fine. 1434 01:27:07.400 --> 01:27:07.800 Yeah. 1435 01:27:07.800 --> 01:27:11.980 So what comes to mind Tatiana is, um, you know, we got to feel the feels so 1436 01:27:11.980 --> 01:27:14.740 that God can heal the fields, but we need to make sure the fields 1437 01:27:14.740 --> 01:27:15.940 don't get in the driver's seat. 1438 01:27:17.580 --> 01:27:17.980 Okay. 1439 01:27:19.040 --> 01:27:24.120 Here's why you, what you're having is a normal feeler reaction, okay. 1440 01:27:24.120 --> 01:27:28.680 To something that's hard, but I want you to know that you don't have to spiral 1441 01:27:28.680 --> 01:27:34.500 and feel depressed and weighed down every time that you feel something like this. 1442 01:27:34.580 --> 01:27:34.880 You know? 1443 01:27:35.360 --> 01:27:37.680 Um, and again, some of that will come with time. 1444 01:27:37.680 --> 01:27:40.820 I mean, and I don't mean this just because you're younger, but as you're, 1445 01:27:40.820 --> 01:27:45.200 you are younger, but as you keep growing some of this, I believe you'll learn 1446 01:27:45.200 --> 01:27:46.640 how to navigate it differently. 1447 01:27:46.640 --> 01:27:51.960 God will teach you how to, you know, feel that stuff, but know that 1448 01:27:51.960 --> 01:27:53.680 God is there protecting you. 1449 01:27:53.760 --> 01:27:57.140 And you'll start to let, just understand this stuff more and more. 1450 01:27:57.140 --> 01:28:00.300 And not that you don't already understand it, but I just want you to know, like 1451 01:28:00.300 --> 01:28:03.120 from my perspective, I gave my life to the Lord. 1452 01:28:03.380 --> 01:28:05.560 I was, you know, uh, how old 22. 1453 01:28:05.780 --> 01:28:09.020 So I was a little bit older than you, but started getting 1454 01:28:09.020 --> 01:28:10.720 used by the Lord very quickly. 1455 01:28:10.720 --> 01:28:14.220 And so I would go into places cause I'm a feeler too. 1456 01:28:14.220 --> 01:28:15.640 And I would, I would feel things. 1457 01:28:15.640 --> 01:28:20.600 I would sense things that were there and it would, I would feel it heavy and it 1458 01:28:20.600 --> 01:28:23.860 would burden me like to the point that I'm like, I got to get out of this room. 1459 01:28:25.140 --> 01:28:29.160 And God has really taught me how to carry the weight. 1460 01:28:30.060 --> 01:28:30.540 Okay. 1461 01:28:30.540 --> 01:28:31.180 Carry the weight. 1462 01:28:31.200 --> 01:28:33.120 It doesn't mean that that stuff comes on me. 1463 01:28:33.400 --> 01:28:35.760 I can feel it, but no, it's not affecting me. 1464 01:28:36.460 --> 01:28:37.520 That makes sense. 1465 01:28:38.200 --> 01:28:38.540 Yeah. 1466 01:28:38.860 --> 01:28:39.340 Yeah. 1467 01:28:39.420 --> 01:28:43.680 But let's start with, um, not letting the feelings get in the driver's seat. 1468 01:28:43.680 --> 01:28:49.880 So when those things are happening, um, remember like last week, we want to say, 1469 01:28:49.880 --> 01:28:50.940 God, what are the facts? 1470 01:28:51.080 --> 01:28:52.980 The facts is you're in a class. 1471 01:28:53.080 --> 01:28:56.880 The teacher's not healthy and God is protecting you. 1472 01:28:56.900 --> 01:28:59.360 And there's probably more, but those are three that just 1473 01:28:59.360 --> 01:29:00.260 came to me really easy. 1474 01:29:00.600 --> 01:29:00.960 Okay. 1475 01:29:01.440 --> 01:29:02.760 Those are the facts. 1476 01:29:03.140 --> 01:29:04.680 God is protecting you. 1477 01:29:05.260 --> 01:29:07.720 You can walk in the armor of God every day. 1478 01:29:08.200 --> 01:29:11.720 He can send angels to literally guard and protect you. 1479 01:29:12.540 --> 01:29:14.960 Those are the things that you want to partner with. 1480 01:29:14.960 --> 01:29:20.620 And so I want to encourage you when intimidation shows up again, I want you 1481 01:29:20.620 --> 01:29:32.540 to ask the Lord, you know, um, is this a familiar spirit Lord or is this something 1482 01:29:32.540 --> 01:29:37.240 that's trying to show and manifest itself differently, because what we need to find 1483 01:29:37.240 --> 01:29:41.680 out is, is this actually a familiar thing to what you were experiencing with your dad? 1484 01:29:42.660 --> 01:29:45.520 Or does it just feel like it is? 1485 01:29:46.740 --> 01:29:46.940 Yeah. 1486 01:29:46.940 --> 01:29:51.060 And I'm not saying it's not real, but I'm saying God will give you clarity on that. 1487 01:29:51.260 --> 01:29:54.860 I really believe that I think is going to continue to give you discernment to know 1488 01:29:54.860 --> 01:29:59.540 if it's the same spirit at work or if it's something different. 1489 01:30:00.860 --> 01:30:12.960 Yeah, I guess my thing is that I used to have OCD when I was younger and it was really bad. 1490 01:30:14.300 --> 01:30:15.640 So what did you do? 1491 01:30:16.040 --> 01:30:17.300 How did that show up for you? 1492 01:30:17.860 --> 01:30:19.360 Well, it showed up different. 1493 01:30:19.460 --> 01:30:23.500 When I was in elementary school, you know how they have you count on your fingers? 1494 01:30:24.160 --> 01:30:29.380 If I counted to five on one hand, I don't know why I want to cry, if I want to cry. 1495 01:30:29.800 --> 01:30:34.840 I would have to do that on the other hand, too, because if it wasn't even in my head, 1496 01:30:34.940 --> 01:30:37.880 I would just get so anxious, I don't know why I'm crying. 1497 01:30:39.420 --> 01:30:47.440 And then in middle school, that had gone away, but then I became a germaphobe. 1498 01:30:47.700 --> 01:30:50.420 I literally wouldn't open doors with my hands. 1499 01:30:51.700 --> 01:30:57.460 There was also a phase where if I was writing, and I remember one day being in an English 1500 01:30:57.460 --> 01:31:03.980 class and I was writing an essay, it was something really long, and I had a thought come to my 1501 01:31:03.980 --> 01:31:08.860 mind that I didn't like, and I just erased everything that I had just wrote because of 1502 01:31:08.860 --> 01:31:09.400 that thought. 1503 01:31:09.640 --> 01:31:14.280 It just bothered me so much, and I'm like, no, I don't know why, but I just erased everything. 1504 01:31:14.480 --> 01:31:18.920 I remember my English teacher looking at me like I was crazy, because she's like, you 1505 01:31:18.920 --> 01:31:22.080 just erased everything that you just wrote down. 1506 01:31:23.700 --> 01:31:32.760 And I feel like part of it in this intimidation is that coming back, it's like my mind obsesses 1507 01:31:32.840 --> 01:31:38.200 over something, and I just don't know how to make it stop. 1508 01:31:39.900 --> 01:31:40.240 Okay. 1509 01:31:41.280 --> 01:31:45.480 So, okay, we're going to go a little bit different route here because of what you just shared, 1510 01:31:45.480 --> 01:31:49.080 because that's a whole different layer to what we've been kind of chatting about. 1511 01:31:49.540 --> 01:31:52.780 And I just want you to know you're safe here, okay? 1512 01:31:53.740 --> 01:31:56.960 And not that you think this, but I'm just going to say it just in case. 1513 01:31:57.260 --> 01:31:57.940 You're not weird. 1514 01:31:58.220 --> 01:31:59.100 This is not weird. 1515 01:31:59.240 --> 01:32:01.280 I've heard this kind of stuff all the time. 1516 01:32:02.540 --> 01:32:09.480 People will tend to shift into OCD when their life around them feels out of control in some 1517 01:32:09.480 --> 01:32:10.060 kind of way. 1518 01:32:10.060 --> 01:32:15.560 And even if you had good parents, I know that you all, like you told me and told us that 1519 01:32:15.560 --> 01:32:19.400 you went through some things culturally that were hard. 1520 01:32:20.140 --> 01:32:23.480 And so there might've been things that kicked in because of that. 1521 01:32:24.220 --> 01:32:28.860 Maybe there was pressure on being like the other kids. 1522 01:32:29.380 --> 01:32:32.960 And I don't know if this applies or resonates to you, but I have some other friends that 1523 01:32:32.960 --> 01:32:40.400 when they came from Columbia, they came to the US, they didn't speak good English in 1524 01:32:40.400 --> 01:32:43.600 the beginning and people made fun of them, other kids. 1525 01:32:44.500 --> 01:32:46.640 And so that really impacted them. 1526 01:32:47.160 --> 01:32:51.320 And so again, yours might not be that, it might be something else, but typically the 1527 01:32:51.320 --> 01:32:58.900 OCD will show up when there's chaos or brokenness and we will try to do those things to gain 1528 01:32:58.980 --> 01:32:59.580 control. 1529 01:32:59.580 --> 01:33:06.740 And so when that's happening, I want you to, there's, and I'm not going to do this as a 1530 01:33:06.740 --> 01:33:10.300 counselor, but I just want you to have this tool to use it. 1531 01:33:10.300 --> 01:33:15.080 There's like a tapping mechanism that if you will just like, I know this sounds so simple, 1532 01:33:15.240 --> 01:33:18.200 but it, it literally does work because I've done it. 1533 01:33:19.240 --> 01:33:26.320 If you will have both of your feet on the ground, like flat and just tap your hand slowly, 1534 01:33:26.500 --> 01:33:28.600 not fast on your leg. 1535 01:33:28.600 --> 01:33:33.140 What this does, it's, it's helping your mind come back into center. 1536 01:33:33.500 --> 01:33:33.900 Okay. 1537 01:33:34.100 --> 01:33:38.680 Whether you realize it or not, ladies, like just doing something simple like that, or 1538 01:33:38.680 --> 01:33:43.360 you could even tap your foot if you don't want people to see you tapping your hand and 1539 01:33:43.360 --> 01:33:50.660 you want to make sure you do it slow because your mind is racing and you want to calm your 1540 01:33:50.660 --> 01:33:54.020 spirit and your, that kind of that racing feeling down. 1541 01:33:54.020 --> 01:33:58.000 And that's, that's one way that you can do that. 1542 01:33:58.080 --> 01:33:58.440 Okay. 1543 01:33:58.600 --> 01:34:05.120 And it, it might come like, you might need to not like intensely focus on it to practice 1544 01:34:05.120 --> 01:34:07.900 it, but just start practicing it. 1545 01:34:07.900 --> 01:34:11.740 When you feel that anxious, those anxious thoughts start to bubble up a little bit in 1546 01:34:12.360 --> 01:34:16.820 you just give it a try and see how it works. 1547 01:34:17.580 --> 01:34:23.760 But then I also want you to pray and ask the Lord the first time that this happened for 1548 01:34:23.760 --> 01:34:23.780 you. 1549 01:34:24.420 --> 01:34:24.980 Okay. 1550 01:34:25.800 --> 01:34:26.360 Okay. 1551 01:34:26.360 --> 01:34:27.880 And let's see what he shows you. 1552 01:34:27.880 --> 01:34:33.240 Like when is the first time you felt like your mind was racing and obsessing or, cause 1553 01:34:33.240 --> 01:34:36.700 I feel like that was probably happening before the OCD kicked in. 1554 01:34:37.000 --> 01:34:39.920 I could be wrong, but let's see what God shows you. 1555 01:34:39.920 --> 01:34:46.120 If the OCD patterns and the counting and that showed up first, then let us know that. 1556 01:34:46.120 --> 01:34:54.540 If the thoughts you might've done that counting to make sure to help calm your mind, but we 1557 01:34:54.540 --> 01:34:58.540 need to know which one came first and then come into the group and do a post to follow 1558 01:34:58.940 --> 01:34:59.980 up on that. 1559 01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.060 whenever you're ready. Don't feel like you have to rush because if you need time to pray about it, 1560 01:35:04.060 --> 01:35:09.740 that's totally fine. Okay. Okay. Because if this might, this might take us a couple times to 1561 01:35:09.740 --> 01:35:15.840 unpack this for you. Yeah. Thank you so much. And yeah, I feel like that definitely like with this 1562 01:35:15.840 --> 01:35:20.060 last week, like with what happened with my teacher, it was like bringing that to the surface. 1563 01:35:20.700 --> 01:35:25.960 So, okay. Yeah, you're welcome. And ladies, this is, this is really important. Okay. 1564 01:35:27.200 --> 01:35:32.160 Sometimes you're going to be in a session and you're going to get that revelation and you're 1565 01:35:32.160 --> 01:35:37.260 going to get set free right then from something. Okay. And other times we're going to have to walk 1566 01:35:37.260 --> 01:35:43.480 it out a little bit at a time because our bodies and our souls and our minds can only process so 1567 01:35:43.480 --> 01:35:51.840 much at a time. Okay. And so I just want y'all to have grace for yourselves and know that if 1568 01:35:51.840 --> 01:35:56.540 you need to cry, let yourself cry. I'm just reminding you all of that again tonight. 1569 01:35:57.180 --> 01:36:03.580 There is no shame in the emotions that you're having. Okay. Super normal. All right. Thank 1570 01:36:03.580 --> 01:36:10.540 you so much for trusting us. All right, Erica. And Oh, let me say this. It's nine 36. If anybody 1571 01:36:10.540 --> 01:36:15.940 needs to hop off, we love you. We are going to do, I'll do the supernova prayer over y'all at 1572 01:36:15.940 --> 01:36:19.520 the end. So you may want to come back and listen to that at the end of the replay. I did want to 1573 01:36:19.520 --> 01:36:24.220 hit a question real quick. And then Erica, I'm going to come right back to you. Um, I saw some 1574 01:36:24.380 --> 01:36:28.600 people were saying that they weren't in the Facebook group yet. Yeah. None of you are in 1575 01:36:28.600 --> 01:36:33.280 the Facebook group yet. Okay. This is brand new. And for those of you that are going to move to 1576 01:36:33.280 --> 01:36:38.000 phase two, we're going to be doing that in phase two as well. So there's a, there's a Facebook 1577 01:36:38.000 --> 01:36:42.500 group that's going to be for phase one. There's one for that we're going to be doing and reopening 1578 01:36:42.500 --> 01:36:47.760 for phase two, which is love story accelerator. And we, we already have one for our other group, 1579 01:36:47.760 --> 01:36:52.080 but you all won't go into that group because you're in heartwork. Do you see how that works? 1580 01:36:52.500 --> 01:36:57.080 You're going to stay with whatever group of course work you're in. All right. All right. I just wanted 1581 01:36:57.080 --> 01:37:01.720 to clarify that before anybody else jumps off, but Erica would love to hear what you have to say 1582 01:37:02.140 --> 01:37:06.820 as well. Okay. So I have like notes. So let me pull up my notes. Cause this has been 1583 01:37:07.040 --> 01:37:13.940 such a week for me. Um, such a week for me, which was honestly super surprising because it was sort 1584 01:37:13.940 --> 01:37:22.180 of a crazy week too. One minute. Okay. So first off, right. I noticed something I'm doing. I'm 1585 01:37:22.180 --> 01:37:26.540 getting better at the revealing for healing and I'm noticing it in like negative thoughts and all 1586 01:37:26.540 --> 01:37:31.180 of that stuff. However, there's one thing I'm struggling with and it's coming out of agreement 1587 01:37:31.180 --> 01:37:38.240 that I'm a little fuzzy on that. I'm going to be a hundred. So is that where like, I'll say, God, 1588 01:37:38.240 --> 01:37:44.600 I am not like that. It's more like, um, for example, one of the ones I used to put up, 1589 01:37:44.720 --> 01:37:47.920 I wrote it on a post-it note and I put it up on my mirror. When I was in the heartwork, 1590 01:37:48.300 --> 01:37:54.160 I come out of agreement with interdependence. I'm sorry. I come out of agreement with 1591 01:37:55.260 --> 01:37:59.300 independence. Sorry, y'all. I got to get it right in my head. And I come into agreement 1592 01:37:59.940 --> 01:38:06.240 with interdependence on you, God. So like whatever our struggle is. So one of my struggles, because I 1593 01:38:06.250 --> 01:38:12.250 had to take care of myself a lot as a young person was doing things by myself. I I've got 1594 01:38:12.310 --> 01:38:19.910 this. So I had to come out of agreement with independence with, I can do this without you, 1595 01:38:19.910 --> 01:38:24.610 Lord, or anybody else. Now I'm not saying I overtly was thinking those things, but subconsciously that 1596 01:38:24.610 --> 01:38:30.930 was in there. And so I needed to daily pray, God, thank you. I'm so thankful that you're helping me 1597 01:38:30.930 --> 01:38:37.290 out of agreement with independence and you're helping me come into agreement with interdependence 1598 01:38:37.290 --> 01:38:42.150 on you. Do you get it? Yes, I do. Cause like, I feel like I've been coming out of agreement 1599 01:38:42.150 --> 01:38:47.010 with things. Cause honestly, for someone who really struggled with control, I'm not having 1600 01:38:47.010 --> 01:38:54.250 that struggle very recently. Um, but as I'm working through these things, writing the letters, 1601 01:38:55.750 --> 01:39:02.350 I, I'm still struggling to know whether I'm okay to like move on or not. Like I'm thinking about it. 1602 01:39:02.350 --> 01:39:06.450 I've been praying about it. I've worked through the coursework. I've read through the chapters 1603 01:39:06.450 --> 01:39:12.790 more than once. I deeply journaled everything. Um, I noticed the one thing I'm still getting 1604 01:39:12.790 --> 01:39:18.370 stuck on though. Right. Comparing myself with my body. Right. I hate, I've hated the way that my 1605 01:39:18.370 --> 01:39:22.430 body looked and I'm getting better about it. I know that like the first time it happened, 1606 01:39:22.430 --> 01:39:27.950 it was my mom, right? My mom was really, really harsh on my body. My aunt had, um, 1607 01:39:27.950 --> 01:39:32.270 I remember when I was six told me that, um, she would punish me by not letting me eat. 1608 01:39:32.310 --> 01:39:38.690 And I think that that was, that hurt me. Right. And I guess ruined me in scarcity of food. So I 1609 01:39:38.690 --> 01:39:44.110 tied onto emotional eating. I prayed to God to come out of agreement. I prayed the forgiveness 1610 01:39:44.110 --> 01:39:51.610 prayer to forgive my mom. I do forgive my mom, but I'm struggling with coming out of agreement 1611 01:39:51.610 --> 01:39:56.630 with me being bigger. That's the only thing so far that I'm noticing, but I'm working on it every 1612 01:39:56.630 --> 01:39:59.350 day. My attitude is better. I'm not. 1613 01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:05.060 You know and you could probably tell just by the way that I'm talking because the first time I got on this like I was 1614 01:40:05.060 --> 01:40:06.800 A hot mess tears not everything 1615 01:40:07.740 --> 01:40:08.200 but 1616 01:40:09.060 --> 01:40:15.040 Yeah, I could tell a huge difference I can and so here here. Let me let me help you unpack this so 1617 01:40:16.200 --> 01:40:20.900 Ladies, we're not gonna be like completely healed in every single area 1618 01:40:20.900 --> 01:40:25.620 Okay, like you can still move forward and there's still gonna be heart healing that's gonna happen 1619 01:40:25.620 --> 01:40:30.860 I mean, even when people are in phase three that we now call the VIP area 1620 01:40:31.820 --> 01:40:35.440 Once a month I go in there or it might be other people in the future 1621 01:40:35.440 --> 01:40:41.260 But like do advanced heart work and we're doing helping people continue to unpack things that they're experiencing 1622 01:40:41.640 --> 01:40:48.640 So but what I want to say number one, let me just give some space to the fact that you were 1623 01:40:50.300 --> 01:40:53.120 punished and not allowed to eat 1624 01:40:53.120 --> 01:40:55.860 Well, let me be a hundred percent let me 1625 01:40:56.240 --> 01:41:01.500 Clarify it's it was a threat she used and my aunt is messed up in the head not judging 1626 01:41:01.500 --> 01:41:06.060 She has physical chemical imbalances from alcohol and drugs and stuff 1627 01:41:06.160 --> 01:41:12.320 so that's what I mean by messed up in the head like she you know, and I know that I just remember that and 1628 01:41:12.740 --> 01:41:19.540 You it's crazy how you were talking about comparison because I always compared myself so much and yes, I'm not perfect 1629 01:41:19.540 --> 01:41:22.860 I still do sometimes but I realize that I've been more healed 1630 01:41:23.720 --> 01:41:24.240 because 1631 01:41:25.420 --> 01:41:30.080 This year was the first year. I didn't get nominated for a Golden Apple, which is a teacher award 1632 01:41:30.080 --> 01:41:34.300 I've won awards before I would normally be devastated about that. I really 1633 01:41:35.040 --> 01:41:41.960 Am genuinely happy for everyone else and I don't mind so I know that that that healing is for me. I just 1634 01:41:42.340 --> 01:41:44.780 Want to make sure because this is a lifelong 1635 01:41:44.780 --> 01:41:49.960 Long process and I notice as I'm going more into God and this might sound crazy 1636 01:41:49.960 --> 01:41:54.240 the devil is coming not in more to me, but 1637 01:41:54.640 --> 01:42:00.100 Situations like for he's gonna raise rise up against you all for sure like on Friday 1638 01:42:00.120 --> 01:42:06.160 No, I understand. My dog got sick. My car didn't start. I went in for a breast scan 1639 01:42:06.160 --> 01:42:09.700 They found something on my jaw, which I'm but there were so many obstacles 1640 01:42:10.990 --> 01:42:12.030 Getting there 1641 01:42:12.410 --> 01:42:12.930 Yeah 1642 01:42:13.130 --> 01:42:20.170 the car not starting not being able to find my stepdad's keys my having to clean up after my dog driving from the West Coast and 1643 01:42:20.270 --> 01:42:21.990 I managed to get there in 1644 01:42:22.970 --> 01:42:28.150 Just the nick of time and you know, it's not cancerous or anything. They they caught it, but 1645 01:42:29.130 --> 01:42:35.410 Like it's just crazy the more that I walk into my faith the more I see him 1646 01:42:35.950 --> 01:42:36.470 one 1647 01:42:37.170 --> 01:42:38.850 And two were my other notes 1648 01:42:41.290 --> 01:42:41.750 You 1649 01:42:43.530 --> 01:42:50.230 How long so I do these revealing through healings and I think it's because I noticed every single time I have a negative thought 1650 01:42:50.230 --> 01:42:53.570 Like oh, I'm jealous. Oh, I'm being impatient. So I'm doing this 1651 01:42:54.670 --> 01:42:58.430 I'm like, oh crap. This is the devil and 1652 01:42:58.670 --> 01:43:03.290 I do the revealing in my head, but I feel like it takes like 10 minutes because I think okay 1653 01:43:03.290 --> 01:43:08.430 Well, I know that I was impatient because I was always worried that my mom would never get to me when I was a kid 1654 01:43:09.190 --> 01:43:13.170 I've prayed about that. I've confessed my sins to God. I 1655 01:43:13.590 --> 01:43:18.830 Written a forgiveness. No, my mom and I we've talked about this. We're like good now 1656 01:43:19.150 --> 01:43:26.730 But I still think about these things sometimes. Is that normal? Well, okay, let's just kind of unpack this a little bit 1657 01:43:26.770 --> 01:43:32.690 No, no, this is good. This is really good. You don't need to apologize. I want you all to remember 1658 01:43:32.870 --> 01:43:36.390 Let's let's just do something. I'm gonna be kind of silly here with this way. I think this will help 1659 01:43:36.390 --> 01:43:42.150 Can everybody just look at your hand and say hi flesh hi flesh 1660 01:43:42.770 --> 01:43:46.970 We all have flesh. It's okay that you are unneeded. We all have flesh 1661 01:43:46.970 --> 01:43:52.330 So the reality is is our flesh is always at war with the spirit, right? 1662 01:43:52.610 --> 01:43:53.570 So yes 1663 01:43:53.570 --> 01:43:58.010 Some of the things are because we have revealings for healing that need done and all of the things 1664 01:43:58.010 --> 01:44:02.610 but some of the things that we're experiencing is literally because our 1665 01:44:02.610 --> 01:44:09.530 Flesh is crying out for something that is opposite of the spirit. And so it literally can be 1666 01:44:10.610 --> 01:44:11.170 that 1667 01:44:11.690 --> 01:44:14.090 You know, um, no 1668 01:44:14.090 --> 01:44:19.130 When there are deeper things that we haven't processed yet, then that is different 1669 01:44:19.810 --> 01:44:26.830 And I can I like stay in the heart work and move on like just so I because honestly, I love this part 1670 01:44:26.850 --> 01:44:28.870 I love being able to connect with these women 1671 01:44:28.870 --> 01:44:33.430 I love being able to help my I heal myself just by hearing some of their things 1672 01:44:33.430 --> 01:44:36.530 Am I allowed to stay in both? Is that allowed? Well, so when? 1673 01:44:37.370 --> 01:44:42.170 So anybody that has that question, here's the thing everybody came in at different times 1674 01:44:42.170 --> 01:44:47.210 And so everybody has like some people have purchased different things than others 1675 01:44:47.210 --> 01:44:55.450 And so if you email admin at Jackie Dorman comm they can let you know the answer to that question for you 1676 01:44:55.450 --> 01:44:58.090 but I do want you all to know that 1677 01:44:58.630 --> 01:44:59.970 When you go into the next 1678 01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:05.660 phase under the courses tab the course material so the videos Jackie did and 1679 01:45:05.660 --> 01:45:10.860 all of that is in there for you. That does not have access to these live 1680 01:45:10.860 --> 01:45:15.820 sessions though okay but the team will clarify for you what you what you would 1681 01:45:15.820 --> 01:45:22.860 have access to and that's the quickest way for me to answer that question. Okay 1682 01:45:22.860 --> 01:45:30.700 I just I feel a big change in myself yeah I can see it and I don't want to 1683 01:45:30.740 --> 01:45:36.280 go not saying I will go back but I know me and my ADHD if I'm not constantly 1684 01:45:36.280 --> 01:45:40.600 reading something reminding myself of something looking at something it it's 1685 01:45:40.600 --> 01:45:46.000 sort of like object permanence where if you don't see it you forget it like I 1686 01:45:46.000 --> 01:45:49.820 don't know better here but just an example yeah and but here and I 1687 01:45:50.020 --> 01:45:54.520 understand what you're saying but I do also want you to partner with that God 1688 01:45:54.520 --> 01:46:00.520 can help you not just have to and then that's awesome you all I continue I mean 1689 01:46:00.520 --> 01:46:04.700 I still read the heart work I still go and watch the videos sometimes even 1690 01:46:04.700 --> 01:46:08.300 though I like I feel like I breathe it and eat it and live at you all literally 1691 01:46:09.340 --> 01:46:14.960 this is what I talk about all the time but like I want you to know that 1692 01:46:14.960 --> 01:46:20.800 literally at some points you will start to digest this stuff in such a way that 1693 01:46:20.800 --> 01:46:25.820 it will become like something that you know just like when we read the word and 1694 01:46:25.820 --> 01:46:31.220 we get revelation of the Word of God and we memorize scripture well what happens 1695 01:46:31.220 --> 01:46:36.420 that that gets written on our hearts right and then we can recall that when 1696 01:46:36.420 --> 01:46:41.900 we need it so Erica I want to encourage you if you know the healings gonna still 1697 01:46:41.900 --> 01:46:47.580 happen ladies things will come up as you move forward and God will help you but 1698 01:46:47.580 --> 01:46:50.800 I'm so glad to hear that you're feeling better that you've forgiven your mom for 1699 01:46:50.800 --> 01:46:55.180 these things that's huge and that you are doing the revealing for healing when 1700 01:46:55.180 --> 01:46:58.680 things are popping up so I love what you shared and I think that's super 1701 01:46:58.840 --> 01:47:02.780 encouraging and I see the growth in you and I'm glad you see the growth in 1702 01:47:02.780 --> 01:47:08.920 yourself to definitely for sure I just you're right it's flesh I struggle over 1703 01:47:08.920 --> 01:47:14.340 not struggle over and over like and I just I want to keep myself on my best 1704 01:47:14.340 --> 01:47:19.040 life going like I'm yeah and I'm reading the Word of God going to church doing 1705 01:47:19.040 --> 01:47:23.860 the things that you're doing and you know staying in the heart work and not 1706 01:47:23.860 --> 01:47:27.880 necessarily having to stay in this phase but I'm just saying staying in that vein 1707 01:47:27.880 --> 01:47:33.000 of like thinking on healing type things and really catching your thoughts will 1708 01:47:33.000 --> 01:47:36.480 all be really really good so I appreciate you sharing I'm gonna have 1709 01:47:36.480 --> 01:47:45.040 Jennifer share now and yeah we'll love to hear what you have to say I I 1710 01:47:45.780 --> 01:47:49.300 actually wanted to ask a different question because it's been coming up 1711 01:47:49.300 --> 01:47:55.240 recently what the homework is the the thought that keeps coming up repeatedly 1712 01:47:55.360 --> 01:48:01.820 is having once all the work is done with this program that no results will come 1713 01:48:01.820 --> 01:48:09.000 from it and trying to work through that yeah yeah I know this has been kind of a 1714 01:48:09.000 --> 01:48:16.540 thing that you've been battling a little bit what I can say is that again it's 1715 01:48:16.540 --> 01:48:21.260 allowing God to come into the root core place where you believe that lie and 1716 01:48:22.020 --> 01:48:29.680 bring his light into that place you know and so what I mean by that it is again 1717 01:48:29.680 --> 01:48:35.760 like when is the first time you believed that nothing would ever change 1718 01:48:37.260 --> 01:48:42.480 and asking God to come I mean Jesus is the light of the world so you're 1719 01:48:43.100 --> 01:48:47.640 inviting Jesus to come into that place and illuminate it and bring anything 1720 01:48:47.640 --> 01:48:51.600 that's in darkness to the light so that you can be healed and set free from that 1721 01:48:51.600 --> 01:48:58.640 thought and that lie because you know ladies I think what it is too is that 1722 01:48:59.420 --> 01:49:03.100 sometimes what will happen is you'll see someone else step into relationship and 1723 01:49:03.720 --> 01:49:09.920 automatically you think something's not working for you but what if it's all 1724 01:49:09.920 --> 01:49:15.660 aligning and God is you know aligning things up in the spirit realm for you to 1725 01:49:15.660 --> 01:49:20.420 meet your spirit mate at the the destined time because your spirit mates 1726 01:49:20.420 --> 01:49:29.220 also getting worked on and prepared you see like this isn't just like all about 1727 01:49:29.500 --> 01:49:34.460 us even though we are we are the ones in the program here right now but I can 1728 01:49:34.460 --> 01:49:41.140 tell you like you know Brian just shared on this love story that we did last week 1729 01:49:41.140 --> 01:49:46.260 in one of the other groups and he he did now I'm not telling when I say this I 1730 01:49:46.260 --> 01:49:53.840 don't want anyone to panic okay but Brian was in a process of healing and 1731 01:49:53.840 --> 01:49:59.140 preparation for six years and he said I'm so glad that I waited for her for me 1732 01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:04.700 glad that he waited for me. And I'm not saying you guys are going to have to wait for six years. 1733 01:50:04.940 --> 01:50:10.300 That's not what I'm saying. But what I am saying is he got to a place within himself that he wanted 1734 01:50:10.300 --> 01:50:15.860 to be with someone who was healthy and whole. And again, I'm not perfect. I still am healing, 1735 01:50:16.400 --> 01:50:22.180 but that I that would run the race with the Lord with him because he never had that before. 1736 01:50:22.440 --> 01:50:29.780 And he wanted to wait for that. And I wanted to wait for that. And so then when God brought us 1737 01:50:29.780 --> 01:50:35.860 together, genuinely, it was like the babies looked like, you know, like, like when Mary 1738 01:50:35.860 --> 01:50:42.040 and Elizabeth came together and John the Baptist left, you know, like God brought us together. 1739 01:50:42.040 --> 01:50:47.060 And that that that baby, the baby, the kind of things God was growing and preparing in us, 1740 01:50:47.680 --> 01:50:52.820 just like it met. And I'm not saying it was all like instant, everything hot, like, 1741 01:50:53.540 --> 01:51:00.580 so, you know, like, everything is different. But it's definitely been glorious and amazing. And so 1742 01:51:00.640 --> 01:51:07.080 I'm saying that to you to hopefully build your faith to that your past does not have to define 1743 01:51:07.080 --> 01:51:14.860 your future. But everything starts in our heart. Okay, our trend, our mind is, you know, 1744 01:51:14.920 --> 01:51:18.780 the Bible talks about that we would be renewed by the transforming of our minds. 1745 01:51:19.620 --> 01:51:25.440 All things would pass away and behold, everything would become new. Well, that happens when our 1746 01:51:25.440 --> 01:51:33.860 heart heals. Because we can read the Word of God, and we can read truth all day long, y'all. But 1747 01:51:33.860 --> 01:51:39.220 that doesn't mean we actually believe it in our heart. It's when we believe it in our hearts and 1748 01:51:39.220 --> 01:51:48.760 live it out, that everything will change, because then we'll think differently. You see how that 1749 01:51:48.760 --> 01:51:54.880 and Jesus and Holy Spirit to come into the place where you first had this thought that no matter 1750 01:51:54.880 --> 01:52:03.000 what I do, nothing ever changes, and bring light and truth and healing to that place. 1751 01:52:04.340 --> 01:52:08.720 Okay, and if you have a hard time identifying it, just be gracious toward yourself, 1752 01:52:08.840 --> 01:52:15.020 because sometimes ladies, when we go through things, we push them down real deep. 1753 01:52:16.120 --> 01:52:21.980 Okay, and so trust the timing of the percolating to the surface. I do believe you can absolutely 1754 01:52:22.520 --> 01:52:29.540 be set free from that. 100%. Okay. Yeah, but it's going to be walking it out. 1755 01:52:30.420 --> 01:52:36.880 Yes. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Makes sense. Yeah. Because like, it's like new programming. Okay. So like, 1756 01:52:37.080 --> 01:52:41.960 back in the day, this is going to date me. In order to watch a new VHS tape, you had to take 1757 01:52:41.960 --> 01:52:48.960 old one out. Yeah. For those of you that don't know what VHS tapes are, you can look it up 1758 01:52:49.860 --> 01:52:55.760 on Google. There might be some of you that don't, but like literally, like God wants to put a new, 1759 01:52:55.900 --> 01:53:02.920 he wants to put a new tape in, but we got to get the old tape out. Yeah. Okay. Thank you. 1760 01:53:03.220 --> 01:53:07.200 You're welcome. Let me know how it goes as you're praying about that. Okay. I will. Thank you. 1761 01:53:07.200 --> 01:53:13.660 You're welcome. All right, ladies, I for sure can take one more. I'm not sure if I will be 1762 01:53:13.660 --> 01:53:19.380 able to take another. Okay. I know Ashley had her hand up for a while. So I'm going to go with 1763 01:53:19.380 --> 01:53:30.700 Ashley first. Hi. Hi. My question is just, I feel like I'm struggling with knowing, 1764 01:53:31.180 --> 01:53:35.760 like how to process and like what that looks like. I know it looks like, 1765 01:53:35.760 --> 01:53:43.760 it looks differently for everyone, but just, I just like to unpack that a little bit more and 1766 01:53:43.800 --> 01:53:51.140 what that processing looks like and how we like knowing that since, you know, things can always 1767 01:53:51.140 --> 01:53:56.180 come up again later, come back, you know, what it like, how I know that like I've processed through 1768 01:53:56.520 --> 01:54:04.440 it fully at this, at this point. Yeah, that's okay. So is there something in particular that 1769 01:54:04.440 --> 01:54:10.340 you need help processing? Like give me an example of something. Well, this week, 1770 01:54:10.340 --> 01:54:17.900 I think I was probably doing a lot of distracting myself. I didn't really want to unpack any of it, 1771 01:54:17.920 --> 01:54:24.400 but also my kids were home. So there wasn't a lot of time to just sit and process that. 1772 01:54:25.360 --> 01:54:29.420 Like when you say that you were distracting yourself, cause you didn't want to unpack 1773 01:54:29.420 --> 01:54:33.500 anything. Was there something that you were working on that when it started to come up, 1774 01:54:33.500 --> 01:54:41.980 you felt that like, I don't want to go there right now? Um, when I, so, uh, Sunday morning, 1775 01:54:42.080 --> 01:54:46.100 I had a really great Saturday. That was when I posted all the pictures about all the things that 1776 01:54:46.100 --> 01:54:51.500 I did. Um, lots of time with Jesus, kids weren't home. Um, Sunday morning I woke up and I started 1777 01:54:51.500 --> 01:54:59.140 reading chapter seven. Um, and just those questions just downloaded like a massive, 1778 01:54:59.300 --> 01:54:59.980 like almost an 1779 01:55:00.000 --> 01:55:04.720 entire page of, um, not anything super drastic, but it was all like sexual 1780 01:55:04.880 --> 01:55:08.460 trauma related, not necessarily like trauma, trauma, but just like, that's 1781 01:55:08.460 --> 01:55:10.660 the easiest way to put it sexually related. 1782 01:55:10.780 --> 01:55:13.180 And I was like, Oh, well, that was a lot. 1783 01:55:13.700 --> 01:55:15.560 Um, that's going to be great. 1784 01:55:16.220 --> 01:55:18.820 Um, I want to make sure I get through all that. 1785 01:55:18.960 --> 01:55:24.640 I wasn't feeling a lot of fear about it at the time, but, um, I even had some 1786 01:55:24.640 --> 01:55:27.780 prayer about it at church and they just were like, it's just going to be easy. 1787 01:55:27.780 --> 01:55:29.820 Like, it's just going to be so easy. 1788 01:55:29.920 --> 01:55:34.200 And then we did a thing at church on Monday night for Rosh Hashan and 1789 01:55:34.200 --> 01:55:39.800 just prayer and worship, and it felt like I'd maybe done a good part of it then. 1790 01:55:41.120 --> 01:55:46.400 Um, but then just Monday and Tuesday, I was just like a mess Tuesday and 1791 01:55:46.400 --> 01:55:48.740 Wednesday, I mean, I was just kind of like a mess and just, I've just kind 1792 01:55:48.740 --> 01:55:50.260 of been all over the place all week. 1793 01:55:50.260 --> 01:55:54.120 So I feel like I've maybe been doing maybe some distraction and 1794 01:55:54.120 --> 01:55:55.940 thinking about other things instead. 1795 01:55:55.940 --> 01:56:01.220 Um, but also just like in the week before, I'm like, I don't know that I made it 1796 01:56:01.220 --> 01:56:02.640 through, like I went through it. 1797 01:56:02.640 --> 01:56:03.480 I think I'm okay. 1798 01:56:03.540 --> 01:56:04.000 I don't know. 1799 01:56:04.000 --> 01:56:10.680 Like what a, like a release feels like with it to be like, feel like that's finished. 1800 01:56:11.220 --> 01:56:13.240 So I'm just kind of get that process. 1801 01:56:16.040 --> 01:56:18.600 Um, just finishing week three. 1802 01:56:18.920 --> 01:56:19.360 Okay. 1803 01:56:20.020 --> 01:56:20.860 That's helpful. 1804 01:56:20.860 --> 01:56:28.460 Um, so what I will tell you is it sounds like you're numb a little bit. 1805 01:56:29.240 --> 01:56:29.720 Okay. 1806 01:56:30.020 --> 01:56:36.640 And so when people get to the end of week three, I think is when Jackie and her 1807 01:56:36.640 --> 01:56:44.340 video says, if you, um, are still feeling numb, you haven't had like a release. 1808 01:56:44.340 --> 01:56:46.560 You're not sure that this is working. 1809 01:56:47.120 --> 01:56:52.300 Um, we typically encourage people to go back and start at chap at the first week, 1810 01:56:53.160 --> 01:57:01.240 because sometimes when we come in, ladies, we have stuffed things for so long that it 1811 01:57:01.240 --> 01:57:05.420 takes a little while for us to actually start to feel again. 1812 01:57:05.420 --> 01:57:10.120 And even when we feel we, we might tend to push it back down, which is kind of 1813 01:57:10.120 --> 01:57:11.800 where, what you've done in the last week. 1814 01:57:11.800 --> 01:57:19.380 So that tells me that there is some fear around feeling, you know, what you're 1815 01:57:19.380 --> 01:57:19.920 facing. 1816 01:57:21.160 --> 01:57:26.680 Um, and one of the things you said that stood out is you said, that's a lot, you 1817 01:57:26.680 --> 01:57:34.180 know, and so in the, in, it might've been, but to me, when I heard that in the 1818 01:57:34.180 --> 01:57:40.160 spirit, it, it's almost like we feel like we're doing it by ourselves. 1819 01:57:42.540 --> 01:57:43.580 Does that make sense? 1820 01:57:43.700 --> 01:57:44.480 What I'm saying? 1821 01:57:46.360 --> 01:57:50.060 Um, yeah, I knew that I wasn't doing it by myself. 1822 01:57:50.580 --> 01:57:55.200 Um, and I've been meeting with our pastor's wife on Fridays to, for just a 1823 01:57:55.200 --> 01:57:57.500 little bit to get a little bit of chat time. 1824 01:57:57.960 --> 01:58:03.920 Um, so I knew I wasn't doing it by myself, but the, I think I was just surprised 1825 01:58:03.920 --> 01:58:12.460 this area was, was one that I, there's definitely more, um, like I knew it was 1826 01:58:12.460 --> 01:58:19.420 something that was going to have to come up at some point for healing, but I, um, 1827 01:58:19.640 --> 01:58:22.920 it was just a little bit more unsure about unpacking this one. 1828 01:58:22.920 --> 01:58:26.660 Like the other ones that have come up like a lot in my past. 1829 01:58:26.700 --> 01:58:28.000 And so those are all like, Oh, okay. 1830 01:58:28.320 --> 01:58:32.480 Well, nice to kind of get this, but like, just like kind of the process. 1831 01:58:32.480 --> 01:58:38.100 Um, you know, there's the, the forgiveness worksheets and the, and then 1832 01:58:38.100 --> 01:58:42.580 repentance and confession, but, um, just kind of like what else it looked like. 1833 01:58:42.620 --> 01:58:43.140 Yeah. 1834 01:58:43.900 --> 01:58:48.420 So I think if you can give me one example, you don't have to give me all, if you're 1835 01:58:49.200 --> 01:58:53.900 willing, of one of the sexual, sexually related things that came up. 1836 01:58:54.620 --> 01:58:55.140 Okay. 1837 01:58:55.140 --> 01:58:55.140 1838 01:59:01.760 --> 01:59:02.840 So, um, 1839 01:59:10.500 --> 01:59:19.580 remember just like an overall from it, like not being, being seen, um, or like, 1840 01:59:25.140 --> 01:59:29.480 it definitely stems from somewhere else, but the best example I can say about like 1841 01:59:29.480 --> 01:59:37.040 not being seen and, um, loved and valued for, for my body or being used for my 1842 01:59:37.040 --> 01:59:40.460 body, in other words, um, from my, from my ex, like, you know, when you're, you're 1843 01:59:40.460 --> 01:59:42.620 married and you're just screwing around with your husband, you're like, you flash 1844 01:59:42.620 --> 01:59:42.900 him. 1845 01:59:43.180 --> 01:59:47.480 Well, he was supposedly like always having eye pain and he would just either not, he 1846 01:59:47.480 --> 01:59:51.160 would pretend, I don't know if he was actually pretending, but he wouldn't see 1847 01:59:51.160 --> 01:59:51.920 me ever. 1848 01:59:54.360 --> 01:59:58.040 Um, and, um, there wasn't like a 1849 02:00:00.000 --> 02:00:02.160 excitement to want to have sex with me. 1850 02:00:04.520 --> 02:00:08.780 All right, so it sounds like there might be a little bit to 1851 02:00:08.780 --> 02:00:13.860 unpack there. So where I would start with that, Ashley is when 1852 02:00:13.860 --> 02:00:20.760 is the first time that your ex did not show excitement or 1853 02:00:20.900 --> 02:00:26.680 desire towards you physically? And what were the lies you were 1854 02:00:26.950 --> 02:00:33.750 hearing when that happened? Okay, so that would be like, 1855 02:00:34.310 --> 02:00:39.530 step number one. Then as you start to identify some of those 1856 02:00:39.530 --> 02:00:44.450 lies, I already know that you'll a forgiveness prayer sheet can 1857 02:00:44.450 --> 02:00:50.990 be done to forgive your ex for not showing you that desire and 1858 02:00:50.990 --> 02:00:54.830 love and affection the way that you needed it. Because ladies, 1859 02:00:54.830 --> 02:00:58.670 that is a part of the the husband protecting and loving 1860 02:00:58.670 --> 02:01:02.890 the wife. You know, I'm not saying like, we should always 1861 02:01:02.890 --> 02:01:06.030 every time every person wants it, we're always available no 1862 02:01:06.030 --> 02:01:11.590 matter what, like, reality. Sometimes sickness happens and 1863 02:01:11.590 --> 02:01:16.070 you just can't, okay. And you got to love each other through 1864 02:01:16.670 --> 02:01:21.290 that. Because marriage and love is so much more than sex. Okay. 1865 02:01:21.290 --> 02:01:27.810 But got part of God's plan is that the husband or the wife, 1866 02:01:28.130 --> 02:01:31.570 whichever one it is, will will care about the desires of that 1867 02:01:31.570 --> 02:01:38.010 other person and honor them. Okay, so there's some there's 1868 02:01:38.330 --> 02:01:45.230 some neglect in that. Okay. And so that's where I would 1869 02:01:45.230 --> 02:01:48.890 encourage you to start is those two steps is asking the Lord to 1870 02:01:49.030 --> 02:01:52.270 reveal the lies that you believed like when well, sorry, 1871 02:01:52.270 --> 02:01:57.470 step one is when is the first time that I wanted to be with 1872 02:01:57.470 --> 02:02:01.530 him or I showed like that desire and that was not 1873 02:02:01.950 --> 02:02:06.690 reciprocated. He was not showing me that he desired me as well 1874 02:02:06.690 --> 02:02:11.410 ask the Lord what that is. Then number two is what lies did I 1875 02:02:11.410 --> 02:02:17.630 believe in here during that time during that situation. And then 1876 02:02:17.630 --> 02:02:21.510 three, doing a forgiveness prayer sheet about that to 1877 02:02:21.510 --> 02:02:27.350 forgive him for not showing you the affection and love that you 1878 02:02:27.350 --> 02:02:28.310 needed in that way. 1879 02:02:31.810 --> 02:02:33.510 And like, is that it? 1880 02:02:33.510 --> 02:02:37.550 Yeah, yep. That's for now. Well, for now it is. Yeah. But as you 1881 02:02:37.550 --> 02:02:41.350 have stuff, as you have stuff coming up, and you're processing 1882 02:02:41.350 --> 02:02:44.050 this, I would encourage you to come in the group and tell me 1883 02:02:44.050 --> 02:02:47.490 what did God show you? I mean, my team will help too. But like 1884 02:02:47.490 --> 02:02:51.630 what it when when you prayed about this, or when you do pray 1885 02:02:51.630 --> 02:02:55.830 about it, what was the incident that happened? And what were the 1886 02:02:55.830 --> 02:02:59.470 lies you were hearing? Because there may be additional things 1887 02:02:59.470 --> 02:03:02.650 that we need to help you process from this. 1888 02:03:03.590 --> 02:03:05.550 Yeah, definitely didn't start with him. It was definitely 1889 02:03:05.550 --> 02:03:06.230 before that. 1890 02:03:07.450 --> 02:03:11.950 Okay. So yeah, start with whoever it was, who was who was 1891 02:03:11.950 --> 02:03:13.090 the starting point for you? 1892 02:03:15.770 --> 02:03:16.250 Um, 1893 02:03:22.490 --> 02:03:26.870 so I'm thinking about like, this was so such a weird thing that 1894 02:03:26.870 --> 02:03:30.590 God did. I don't understand it still. Mostly, I most I feel 1895 02:03:30.590 --> 02:03:35.010 like I sometimes have understanding of it. So I feel 1896 02:03:35.010 --> 02:03:37.510 like it has to do with like my first three boyfriends. 1897 02:03:39.310 --> 02:03:43.050 Packing like March, seriously, the first in order, my very 1898 02:03:43.050 --> 02:03:46.490 first boyfriend texted me totally out of the blue, he had 1899 02:03:46.490 --> 02:03:53.450 to search for me to find me. And then and then saw my second 1900 02:03:53.550 --> 02:03:56.970 boyfriend with my mom, we didn't talk to him, but saw him. And 1901 02:03:57.310 --> 02:04:01.530 then God absolutely told me to go. I was not going to go out 1902 02:04:01.530 --> 02:04:04.510 that night, because it was late. And it didn't make any literally 1903 02:04:04.510 --> 02:04:08.450 made no logical sense to go down there. And God was like, you 1904 02:04:08.490 --> 02:04:14.590 need to go. And I went and met my son, my third boyfriend, who 1905 02:04:14.590 --> 02:04:18.290 was like my first love. And his wife, they were on their 1906 02:04:18.290 --> 02:04:20.530 anniversary date. Oh, it's so interesting. 1907 02:04:21.890 --> 02:04:25.290 You saw all three of those different boyfriends recently? 1908 02:04:25.290 --> 02:04:26.270 Is that what I'm hearing? 1909 02:04:26.650 --> 02:04:29.490 Yeah. And like March, the first one just texted me. But what was 1910 02:04:29.490 --> 02:04:38.470 interesting is the first two. They, they didn't, you know, 1911 02:04:38.470 --> 02:04:41.630 they had touched me, but then the third one did. And then 1912 02:04:41.630 --> 02:04:44.830 until like, we'd been dating for out, no, we dated, like, at 1913 02:04:44.830 --> 02:04:49.670 least the whole school year. And, and then there was one 1914 02:04:49.670 --> 02:04:53.710 time where he, he did more than kiss me. And then I think, I 1915 02:04:53.710 --> 02:04:56.610 think it was him that broke up with me. And I think that kind 1916 02:04:56.610 --> 02:04:59.750 of set me on like, on the path where like, 1917 02:05:00.000 --> 02:05:07.140 well it wasn't this apparently this isn't what works like I don't know do 1918 02:05:07.140 --> 02:05:11.100 you mind if I ask for these first two boyfriends that didn't respect your body 1919 02:05:11.100 --> 02:05:18.400 how old were you 14 okay and and are you comfortable enough to tell us what that 1920 02:05:18.400 --> 02:05:24.640 means they didn't respect your body um just like in the chest just feeling my 1921 02:05:24.640 --> 02:05:29.800 you know feeling my boobs okay so they were wanting to do physical things with 1922 02:05:29.800 --> 02:05:34.660 you yes yeah yeah yeah physical all right did you use your voice and tell 1923 02:05:34.660 --> 02:05:39.800 them that you didn't want them to do that no shame okay I'm just I want to 1924 02:05:39.800 --> 02:05:44.120 kind of better understand kind of what you were going through okay so no no 1925 02:05:44.360 --> 02:05:49.700 what's interesting about that is when we talk about voice this also came up in 1926 02:05:49.700 --> 02:05:53.460 the same list was in sixth grade a girl choked me when I used my voice and told 1927 02:05:53.460 --> 02:05:57.260 her not to write on my school book she literally turned around and choked me 1928 02:05:57.980 --> 02:06:02.420 and I feel like that was revealed that like that was when my voice got lost I 1929 02:06:03.180 --> 02:06:09.640 would say a hundred percent yeah um so did you forgive that did you do a 1930 02:06:09.640 --> 02:06:15.380 forgiveness prayer sheet for that girl I did yeah good all right so the reason 1931 02:06:15.380 --> 02:06:19.360 I'm asking some of these questions is and this is how the unpacking that you 1932 02:06:19.360 --> 02:06:25.600 were asking about earlier that the processing is we ask just like I'm 1933 02:06:25.600 --> 02:06:33.220 you questions to discover more that we would ask God good questions too so when 1934 02:06:33.220 --> 02:06:37.720 this stuff is coming up okay they didn't respect my body but it's not just on 1935 02:06:37.720 --> 02:06:43.800 them and again now if someone forces us ladies totally different okay if you 1936 02:06:43.800 --> 02:06:48.260 felt forced in that then that's something that we need to forgive those 1937 02:06:48.260 --> 02:06:55.260 people for as well if you just kind of froze because you didn't know what to do 1938 02:06:55.260 --> 02:06:59.460 you you didn't do anything wrong but you might need to forgive yourself for 1939 02:06:59.740 --> 02:07:07.840 freezing but also let's ask the Lord Lord why did I freeze because there 1940 02:07:07.840 --> 02:07:14.080 might be something else to that I'm not saying there has to be I'm just 1941 02:07:14.080 --> 02:07:17.980 saying that typically when we don't use our voice and we just go into freeze 1942 02:07:18.160 --> 02:07:21.820 mode it could be that we've never had an experience like that before and we don't 1943 02:07:21.820 --> 02:07:28.100 know what to do totally could be that but it also could be that something and 1944 02:07:28.100 --> 02:07:34.860 happened before that point and that incident is triggering the other thing 1945 02:07:34.900 --> 02:07:38.860 and I'm not saying that's true for you I'm just I just and I don't want you to 1946 02:07:38.860 --> 02:07:44.660 be afraid I just we have to get to the root of what's going on here and it's 1947 02:07:44.660 --> 02:07:49.680 just gonna take some time so come into the group as you keep praying we now 1948 02:07:49.680 --> 02:07:53.700 know that these boys didn't respect your body the ones at 14 that's what we 1949 02:07:53.700 --> 02:08:00.300 know right now so let's start there with okay Lord why didn't I use my voice is 1950 02:08:00.300 --> 02:08:04.820 there anything else I'm not seeing that you want to show me and Lord was there 1951 02:08:04.820 --> 02:08:11.200 anybody before this time with these boys that I didn't feel my body was respected 1952 02:08:12.840 --> 02:08:16.980 and just see if anything comes up and again ladies stuff sometimes thing 1953 02:08:16.980 --> 02:08:20.920 things will come up right away and other times they won't it might come up 1954 02:08:20.920 --> 02:08:29.180 over time God loves you all of you and he knows the best pace for your healing 1955 02:08:30.940 --> 02:08:37.420 okay and so Ashley that's how we start unpacking this as you pray you come back 1956 02:08:37.420 --> 02:08:41.820 in the group and you tell me okay I prayed you're gonna either tell me one 1957 02:08:41.820 --> 02:08:45.880 of probably two things I prayed and it did start with these 14 year old boys 1958 02:08:45.880 --> 02:08:49.140 and this is some of the stuff God showed me about why I didn't use my 1959 02:08:49.140 --> 02:08:55.980 voice or whatever or I prayed and God showed me something before that time 1960 02:08:57.600 --> 02:09:01.600 okay and then I'm gonna I'm probably gonna ask you some questions back and 1961 02:09:02.300 --> 02:09:07.460 we're gonna process it or my team again Annette or Andrea one one of us will 1962 02:09:07.460 --> 02:09:12.400 respond to you and and start to help you unpack that more because we need more 1963 02:09:12.520 --> 02:09:16.360 information before we can actually coach you on how to move forward that 1964 02:09:16.940 --> 02:09:23.560 makes sense mm-hmm all right in the in the group when I've responded like to 1965 02:09:23.560 --> 02:09:28.820 your questions yeah I don't and I've hit like I've hit to reply to Bethany I 1966 02:09:28.820 --> 02:09:33.740 don't think you saw those well I was in I do have some work to do tonight but I 1967 02:09:33.740 --> 02:09:38.260 was in checking I got through all the ask a coach tab that I need to go 1968 02:09:38.260 --> 02:09:45.260 through the community tab just at all so I mean it was a while ago well I know 1969 02:09:45.260 --> 02:09:49.140 that someone else has said that and I hundred percent had responded to that 1970 02:09:49.140 --> 02:09:53.200 person so I don't know if you guys aren't seeing the responses or what is 1971 02:09:53.200 --> 02:09:58.600 happening but I know that all the like people that are responding they're 1972 02:09:58.600 --> 02:09:59.980 seeing my responses back because 1973 02:10:00.000 --> 02:10:01.560 they're actually saying stuff back to me. 1974 02:10:01.880 --> 02:10:03.920 And so I can go look for that. 1975 02:10:03.940 --> 02:10:06.020 I don't know what else to tell you right now. 1976 02:10:06.140 --> 02:10:07.820 Yeah, no, that's fine, that's fine. 1977 02:10:08.600 --> 02:10:11.440 It only goes back so far when I get on the site. 1978 02:10:11.600 --> 02:10:13.400 I can only get it to go down so far. 1979 02:10:13.620 --> 02:10:17.100 Like mine, I'd posted, I'd responded nine days ago 1980 02:10:17.100 --> 02:10:19.460 and it doesn't go back that far anymore when I get on the. 1981 02:10:20.080 --> 02:10:20.940 On the app? 1982 02:10:21.340 --> 02:10:22.320 On the app, yeah. 1983 02:10:22.880 --> 02:10:23.820 Or even on the website. 1984 02:10:24.400 --> 02:10:27.340 On your phone or on your computer into the app? 1985 02:10:27.340 --> 02:10:32.300 Both, I can't get it to go back down that far. 1986 02:10:32.400 --> 02:10:34.280 Yeah, so ladies, just as an FYI, 1987 02:10:34.460 --> 02:10:36.000 if you're on the app on your phone, 1988 02:10:36.120 --> 02:10:37.920 you can't do it with your desktop, only your phone. 1989 02:10:38.100 --> 02:10:41.180 And you're having an issue like that or any other tech issue, 1990 02:10:41.180 --> 02:10:44.520 if you shake your phone, this little thing will pop up 1991 02:10:44.520 --> 02:10:46.700 that you can report a bug, okay? 1992 02:10:46.900 --> 02:10:49.480 So I would love for you to report that bug 1993 02:10:49.480 --> 02:10:53.080 and let them know that it's not letting you see past, 1994 02:10:53.140 --> 02:10:53.880 you know, nine days, 1995 02:10:53.880 --> 02:10:55.920 because you should see further than that. 1996 02:10:55.920 --> 02:10:58.820 And that might be why you're not seeing my response. 1997 02:10:59.980 --> 02:11:00.000 Yeah. 1998 02:11:00.300 --> 02:11:01.180 Yeah, I think that's- 1999 02:11:01.180 --> 02:11:03.620 I thought it would pull back up in my notifications again, 2000 02:11:03.680 --> 02:11:05.360 but it didn't come back in my notifications. 2001 02:11:06.020 --> 02:11:08.980 And this is why we are doing the Facebook group. 2002 02:11:09.620 --> 02:11:11.920 This is a literal perfect example. 2003 02:11:12.500 --> 02:11:14.620 And so, but go ahead and report that bug 2004 02:11:14.620 --> 02:11:17.040 because we want them to fix that, okay? 2005 02:11:17.040 --> 02:11:19.920 And I would also encourage you to log out and log back in 2006 02:11:19.920 --> 02:11:23.000 and that might correct that a little bit too, all right? 2007 02:11:28.740 --> 02:11:30.760 Yeah, see, the thing is, is if we, 2008 02:11:31.180 --> 02:11:33.540 because even myself, ladies, I have to log out 2009 02:11:33.540 --> 02:11:35.420 and sometimes I have to click between tabs. 2010 02:11:35.480 --> 02:11:38.200 If I'm on my phone, I have to do a lot of clicking 2011 02:11:38.200 --> 02:11:40.180 back and forth to see even new posts 2012 02:11:40.180 --> 02:11:41.460 in the group all the time. 2013 02:11:42.220 --> 02:11:45.580 And so you all might need to log out 2014 02:11:45.680 --> 02:11:48.440 and kind of tap around on the tabs too 2015 02:11:48.440 --> 02:11:49.700 for it to refresh itself. 2016 02:11:49.800 --> 02:11:52.760 But again, some of the, a lot of this is gonna get resolved 2017 02:11:53.140 --> 02:11:54.120 in the Facebook group. 2018 02:11:54.140 --> 02:11:55.900 We're not gonna have as hard of a time seeing all of that. 2019 02:11:55.900 --> 02:11:56.400 Yeah, and I'm also, and I'm sure that some of you 2020 02:11:56.400 --> 02:11:56.400 2021 02:11:56.980 --> 02:11:59.720 So apologize if there's people that you're saying 2022 02:11:59.720 --> 02:12:03.600 you didn't get a response, but I clear out my queue 2023 02:12:03.920 --> 02:12:07.100 like on a daily basis, pretty much you all. 2024 02:12:07.620 --> 02:12:08.920 So let's make sure. 2025 02:12:08.940 --> 02:12:09.860 I know, I knew it was responding, 2026 02:12:10.060 --> 02:12:12.720 it was strange that I didn't, hadn't seen a response. 2027 02:12:12.900 --> 02:12:15.280 Yeah, so, and I'm messaging and responding 2028 02:12:15.280 --> 02:12:16.620 to some other people that I'm seeing there 2029 02:12:16.620 --> 02:12:17.340 in the chat as well. 2030 02:12:17.340 --> 02:12:20.260 So let's make sure that we're logging out and refreshing. 2031 02:12:20.260 --> 02:12:24.080 And so we're seeing the most current version 2032 02:12:24.080 --> 02:12:24.960 of what's in the app. 2033 02:12:25.200 --> 02:12:26.640 But Ashley, thank you for your courage. 2034 02:12:26.920 --> 02:12:28.600 Thanks for letting me ask you those questions. 2035 02:12:29.100 --> 02:12:31.340 Everyone else, thank you so much for sharing tonight. 2036 02:12:31.760 --> 02:12:33.760 Tammy and Lisa, please come into the group 2037 02:12:33.980 --> 02:12:37.000 and do a post so that I know what you wanted to share about 2038 02:12:37.020 --> 02:12:40.640 and myself or the team can respond to you as well. 2039 02:12:42.400 --> 02:12:44.100 Yes, to report the bug, 2040 02:12:44.140 --> 02:12:46.160 you're gonna do that on your phones, okay? 2041 02:12:46.800 --> 02:12:48.280 All right, let me pray over us. 2042 02:12:48.380 --> 02:12:49.860 Father, thank you so much for this night. 2043 02:12:49.860 --> 02:12:51.560 Thank you for everything that you've done. 2044 02:12:51.920 --> 02:12:54.980 Thank you for just the supernatural healings 2045 02:12:54.980 --> 02:12:56.040 that are gonna take place. 2046 02:12:56.340 --> 02:12:59.080 God, I thank you that even while the ladies sleep tonight, 2047 02:13:00.080 --> 02:13:02.920 God, I ask that you would meet them right where they're at. 2048 02:13:03.000 --> 02:13:05.340 God, that you would do supernatural heart surgery. 2049 02:13:06.240 --> 02:13:08.460 God, that some of them, they would go to bed tonight 2050 02:13:08.460 --> 02:13:11.980 and wake up tomorrow just feeling like different women. 2051 02:13:12.520 --> 02:13:13.960 God, we thank you that you would help us 2052 02:13:13.960 --> 02:13:15.940 to step further into the real us, 2053 02:13:16.000 --> 02:13:18.240 who you originally created us to be. 2054 02:13:18.800 --> 02:13:20.180 We thank you that you would remove 2055 02:13:20.420 --> 02:13:22.880 and heal any trauma from the past, 2056 02:13:23.000 --> 02:13:25.060 that you would reveal these areas for healing 2057 02:13:25.060 --> 02:13:27.260 so that we can step into your freedom and your truth. 2058 02:13:27.380 --> 02:13:28.080 We thank you, Father, 2059 02:13:28.180 --> 02:13:31.380 for your hedge of protection around us in this community. 2060 02:13:31.520 --> 02:13:33.660 We thank you that you guard and keep watch over us. 2061 02:13:33.720 --> 02:13:35.800 And we thank you that you are our defender 2062 02:13:35.800 --> 02:13:37.180 and we can trust you 2063 02:13:37.180 --> 02:13:38.980 and that you'll help us to believe that more 2064 02:13:39.060 --> 02:13:41.780 and more every day in Jesus' name. 2065 02:13:42.060 --> 02:13:43.220 God bless you all. 2066 02:13:43.260 --> 02:13:44.900 I'll see you guys in the group. 2067 02:13:44.900 --> 02:13:48.000 And as soon as we have that Facebook group ready, 2068 02:13:48.520 --> 02:13:50.260 I will put a post up in the app 2069 02:13:50.460 --> 02:13:51.860 and let y'all know it's ready. 2070 02:13:52.180 --> 02:13:53.260 And then we'll give you instructions 2071 02:13:53.260 --> 02:13:54.600 on what to do from there, okay? 2072 02:13:55.060 --> 02:13:56.200 Have a good night, everyone. 2073 02:13:56.480 --> 02:13:56.600 Bye-bye. 2074 02:13:56.960 --> 02:13:57.140 Good night.