Hi ladies. Welcome. Good evening. Good evening. Hoping some of you are able to come on camera
to join me here. So I'm not just looking at myself. There's Annette. Hi. Anyone else able
to come on tonight? I'm driving. I'm sorry. I'll get on when I get out of the car. That's
totally fine. As always, y'all, if you're driving or you're not able to, that's okay.
I'm just putting that kind of invitation out there for those that can. And yeah, if you're
eating dinner, totally fine to wait, all the things. But we're going to talk a little bit
tonight about coming out of hiding. So it felt like it was a good time to remind you all to
come on camera every time that you can. And so glad that you're here joining us tonight. If you
have not met me before, my name is Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the Master Heart Work Coaches here in
the community. And we have amazing Annette Lewis with us tonight as well. She's one of our peer
coaches. And just y'all will see her in the community group responding and all the things.
But she's now been joining us for these live sessions, which I love. And I'm so glad that
she's here. I have a couple housekeeping things tonight, super important ones I felt like.
And then I'm going to have Annette do a few and pray us in, and then we'll go into the content.
But some of the things God just was putting on my heart, this one's more of just an announcement,
if you will. So we are officially going to be this week. Okay, don't worry. As soon as it's up,
I will let you all know. But the Facebook group for this Phase 1 Community Heart Work,
we call it the Heart Work, we're going to open that group back up. We are going to keep the
community group on the app. So if you are not someone who likes Facebook at all, don't worry.
You can still post in the app. Even if you're okay with Facebook, you can still post in the app.
We will still be checking and responding to people there. But what we have found
is since we brought everybody onto the app, people are communicating and doing a good job.
But sometimes people aren't seeing the notifications when we respond to each other.
Sometimes the engagement isn't there as much, like the camaraderie, everybody's supporting
each other. I just have seen way higher levels of that when we used to be on Facebook. And so
we are going to be posting a link under the Resources tab. Again, I will let you all know
as soon as it's ready, I'll put a post up under that Announcements tab. And it will say,
hey, the Facebook group is ready. You're going to go to the Resources tab and the link will be
there. You'll click on the link and it will take you to the page that you will request to join.
We are a team on the back end. We'll go through all of your requests. So don't freak out if it's
approved right away, okay? Promise everyone. Everyone promise to be patient on this? Okay,
awesome. Here's why. Our team on the back end has to go in and make sure that you are a paying
member of our community so that they're pretty quick most of the time. But I just want you all
to have the heads up. Don't worry. We'll get everybody in as quick as we can. And you won't
miss out on anything because the app will always be up. You can go in there. All right, so that's
all on that. Then I wanted to talk a little bit about this thing that we call FOMO.
A couple years ago, well, maybe more than a couple years ago, but I remember like,
what is FOMO? Like the first time I heard it. And so if you don't know what that is,
it's the fear of missing out. I want to talk about this for a few minutes tonight,
even before we start our content. But I do believe that it weaves into our content tonight as well.
I don't want you all to have FOMO on anything. Okay. And so I want to encourage you in this
hard work process and invite you all to come out of the fear of FOMO. So last week we talked about
overcoming fear and anxiety. Well, FOMO is a real thing. What are some ways it shows up in your
life? Okay. FOMO is fear of missing out. Well, what are you afraid of missing out on? I know
people in this community that are afraid they're going to miss out on their spirit mate
when I'm just going to call him Mr. John comes into the, onto the scene. And Mr. John is a
smooth talker. And we're not really sure if he's a good guy and we're in heartwork, but I don't
want to miss out on this guy because he could be the one. Well, here's one thing I can promise you
this. God is not going to send most likely. I'm not saying it never happens, but I'm saying most
of the time God does not send our spirit mate when we have just committed to join a heart
healing process to clean out our heart so that we don't attract the wrong people. And when we're
committing to like, Hey, I'm going to press pause on this and I'm going to take care of myself.
He's just most times I've, I've very rarely seen him do that. And I've been doing this for four
years. And so again, I'm not saying it can't ever happen. I'm just saying we can press pause on
those people.
And say, you know what, if this is my guy, he's going to be there when I'm done.
Because I'm not going to miss out on my spirit mate.
We don't miss out on our spirit mates.
So I want you to partner with God.
I trust you in my process.
I trust you in the timing of all things.
Is there something else that you're afraid of missing out on?
Is there any other areas where this is circling around in your life, where you
see somebody else doing something and automatically now you feel like you're
missing out? We're on this, uh, additional kind of extended spouses retreat.
And last night, um, I, I was so blessed and honored to be able to help host our
prophesy your year event.
Well, Brian and the crew here, they all went for ice cream.
Okay.
In my heart, I was like, man, it'd be cool to hang out with that group of people
tonight, but I can't be two places at once.
So in my heart, I have to get myself into a good posture and know like, it's okay.
And I'm not like, yeah, that would be cool to be there, but I I'm here and I'm
just going to be really intentional, be present here and know that I'm not
missing out.
I'm right where I need to be.
And I'm talking to you all about this as well, because I want to encourage you to
expand your mind, expand your thinking.
Like, and in this, I want you to ask God, what is heaven saying about men?
What is heaven saying about men?
What is heaven saying about your spirit mate?
And do your thoughts align with the thoughts of heaven?
And maybe you're like, well, I don't even know.
I don't know what heaven is saying about men or my spirit mate.
Well, here, I can tell you a good way to find out.
Get into your Bible and start reading what the kingdom of heaven sounds like.
And that's what heaven is saying over men.
That's what heaven is saying over your spirit mate.
Now there is a current present reality that we can lean into, you know, the
prophetic reality or things like that, that God is speaking in a fresh manner.
But even in that, we can lean on what the word of God says.
And if your heart and your mindset about men and your spirit mate, aren't lining
up with truth of God's word, I want to encourage you to ask the Lord to reveal
the root of your unhealthy heart posture regarding men or your spirit mate.
And that might include the fear of it's never going to happen for me.
You're here and you're showing up and you know, you, you somewhere believe
that God has this for you, or some people do just come here for
heartwork and that's totally fine.
But if you are in the camp that you're like, God, I do want this.
I believe you have this for me, but you're still internally like,
I just don't even think it's possible.
I don't even know how it's going to happen because it hasn't
happened for me before.
So how is it going to happen now?
And for some of you remember, you might've been what we would call in your, your
mind, God hasn't come through for me in 30 years.
Some of y'all haven't been dating in a long time.
But the reality is it's not that God withheld that from you.
Unfortunately, your counterfeit identities led you into the waiting
room and, and unfortunately so did religion.
Okay.
So let's come out of alignment and agreement with God withheld this from me.
I've been waiting and waiting and doing all the things and God's
not coming through for me.
And let's partner with, you know what?
Yeah, I'm going to own my side of the street.
I'm going to own where I allowed religion to back me into a corner, you
know, all these things and, and let's focus on, I'm just going to move forward.
I can't change that past.
All I can do is change today.
Ladies, all we can do is change now and move forward.
And so I want to encourage you come out of focusing on what hasn't been, and
let's focus on what can be, and that's where we're going to go tonight.
We're going to go into the real you, who did God originally create you to be long
before trauma or wounds ever entered your life and imagine it if you can.
And it's so hard for some of us because trauma, it was like, it was there
before we even came out of the womb.
But if you can just imagine like heaven bliss, like abundance, hope, grace, joy,
like complete innocence, even a glimmer of that understanding that is, that is
literally what God designed for us before trauma or wounds ever entered.
And he wants to every day help us to get a little bit closer to that fullness,
that fullness of who he created us to be.
Not these counterfeit identities.
It's not the lack places that we sometimes live in.
And remember, His grace, it's sufficient for you.
It's sufficient for you,
no matter what has had you hung up, stuck,
whatever it's been, and He's gonna come through for you.
All right, I'm gonna pass it over to Annette.
I'm gonna have her do,
I'm priming the pump already, ladies.
Can you feel it?
God's got some great things in store for you tonight.
Like, really continue to pass your heart.
Like, everybody here can get an upgrade
and massive breakthrough tonight, literally.
And those watching the replay as well,
we see you, even if you can't join us live
and you're in another country,
we love you, we're praying for you,
and we're so excited for what God's doing in your life.
Okay, Annette, I would love to hear what you have to say,
and so excited to have you here again with us tonight.
Thank you, Bethany.
And those are such exciting words because it's true.
Holy Spirit has shown up here with us tonight.
And for ladies that can be on tonight
or watching the replay, God is good.
And I am a testimony to the work that He does
through this course and through the heart work,
and I'm blessed to be able to be here with all of you.
Supernatural Saturday, it was so good this week, so good.
If you weren't able to join live,
I encourage you to listen to the replay.
It's a great way to connect every week,
to be fed spiritually, and just to be challenged
in your walk with God and encouraged and inspired
by so many things.
The theme this week was the king is in the field.
He's here, he's near us, he's in our lives,
he's connected intimately to us.
And so we wanna take advantage of that
and walk with him and meet with him each day.
So the next thing is also just a reminder
that each week following each Sunday,
then a post goes up where we ask you
to jump in and share with us.
Share with us how Supernatural Saturday
has inspired you or encouraged you,
or also let us know what you're facing this week
and how you're progressing through the material
for the heart work so that we can encourage you.
If anything's coming up, please come in there
and let us know so that we can encourage and support you.
We're praying for you always,
and really wanna see all that God has for each one of you
in the days and the weeks ahead
that you are a part of this group before you move on.
And now we're going to pray.
Was somebody able to help Eloise get in?
She was asking about getting in.
I did a message, but I see messages, but I don't wanna.
Yeah, it's okay, go ahead and pray.
Okay, all right, I'm gonna go ahead and pray us in.
Dear Heavenly Father, we thank you for the blessing
and the privilege to come together tonight before you.
We thank you for what you've prepared already ahead of time.
And we invite your Holy Spirit
into every moment that we have together.
Pray that you would anoint Bethany's words,
that you would speak through her,
that we would come out of agreement
with lies and trauma from the past,
and we would step into the truth of who you say we are.
And we would come into agreement
with the truth that's spoken over our lives
and that has been spoken over our lives
that you say about us.
Continue to grow us, to change us,
and to make us more like you
so that we can step into the world
as our most authentic selves
and walk in confidence in the power that you give us
when you are in our lives.
In your name I pray, amen.
Amen, amen, I love that, thank you so much.
All right, ladies, so I wanna talk about the real you,
like who is that, the true identity that God gave you
as I was talking about before,
the trauma, the wounds,
or even the wrong perceptions from the world, okay,
have entered your mind.
And I'm gonna start with the phrase
that I love to say this.
This is one of my favorite things.
I love coaching on all things,
but this is probably one of my favorite ones.
It's such a powerful week,
and it's a week where really I'm hoping
that you're gonna shift from over here to here,
you know, and you're gonna just keep going and going.
No matter what week in the content you're on,
I believe this can be transformative.
Here's the question.
Who told you that you were naked?
And what I mean by that,
it's based on scripture from Genesis three, eight through 11
and this is the, in the NIV version, this is what it says.
Then the man and his wife heard the sound
The Lord God, as he was walking in the garden
in the cool of the day,
and they hid from the Lord among the trees of the garden.
But the Lord called to the man, he called to Adam,
and he said, where are you?
He, Adam, answered, I heard you in the garden,
and I was afraid because I was naked, so I hid.
Verse 11, and he, God, said,
who told you that you were naked?
Have you eaten from the tree
that I commanded you not to eat from?
So who told you that you were not smart?
Who told you that you couldn't find a spirit mate
or ever get married?
Who told you that you were, you know, not beautiful?
Who told you that, you know,
this is what I mean by the naked aspect.
Who told you that you were damaged goods?
Who told you that divorce had to define you?
You know, these things that we believe
and that we live into, where did they come from?
Did they come from the lies we believed
as a result of the trauma, the wounds that we went through?
Or was it something someone said to us
that we now we're just keep cycling it back through
and back through and back through?
And God is saying to you tonight,
I want you to come out of the hamster wheel.
I want you to come out of that place of repetition
and the rewinding and reversing and rehearsing
of the things that do not align
with the kingdom of heaven over you.
What is it and how is it that you got to the place
where you look at yourself and you feel exposed,
you feel bare, you feel totally like left out there
with no one covering you?
Who told you that you were naked?
The reality is, is that God wants you to come out
from under the rubble.
He wants you to come out from under the mess
and His loving kindness is daily leading you there.
It's whether or not we accept the invitation to follow Him.
And I'm not saying it's always easy ladies, okay?
Cause it's remember, we're not just shifting our thoughts.
We're trying to, in Jesus name, shift in our hearts.
And that happens through the healing
that takes place in our hearts.
That's what enables our mind to be transformed, okay?
Yes, it is reading scripture, but a lot of times,
even when we read scripture, we tend to not believe it
if our heart is telling us a different story.
Do you see how that works?
All right, I'm gonna keep going.
So I wanna encourage you tonight.
It's time to come out of hiding.
What does this look like for you?
It's time for you to show up fully in the world.
And what does that look like for you?
Some of you maybe, you know, are staying home.
I said this this afternoon,
so I'm not saying people are fat,
but this is just what I'm gonna say.
Sometimes we stay home in our,
I'm gonna call it my fat jeans, my cozy pants,
and my big sweatshirts, and I'm not going out and about.
Y'all, I did it too when I was single,
because you know what?
There were times when I didn't like the attention
I was getting when I did look good.
And I'm not saying that in a prideful way.
When the guys would whistle and stuff,
man, I would just start to shrink
and I would pull back into myself.
That was one thing that caused me to do that.
But here are some other things.
Some of you all are staying in your homes
and just binging on TV instead of actually going out
and participating in the world.
There's a big world out there.
And we're literally missing amazing opportunities
all the time because we are partnering with fear somewhere.
Last week, we talked about overcoming fear and anxiety
because I was prepping you all.
And if you're brand new this week,
this is your first night, which I forgot to ask,
who's new joining us tonight?
Welcome, I forgot to say that.
I always say that at the beginning.
And for my ladies returning, welcome back.
But even if this is your first week, it's totally fine.
You can go back and catch that replay from last week.
But I did that to kind of help prep you all
to receive the truth of stepping into the real you
and coming out of hiding.
And the way that we come out of hiding
is that we literally overcome fear.
We overcome anxiety and fear
and all the things that have held us back
and we press forward, we step into good things.
Here's something I want you to be thinking about.
These are some definitions of coming out of hiding.
We're gonna be authentic.
We're gonna be present.
We're gonna be actually engaged in life.
Think about that.
What does it look like?
What do you think heaven is saying to you tonight
about being fully engaged in the life that's ahead of you?
I'm pausing intentionally because I want you to think about it.
What does it look like to live fully alive, fully engaged, having fun, connecting with people?
Maybe it's you all are intentionally choosing to be fully present in a moment.
You walk into a room and automatically you all, I know this happens because it happens,
it's happened for me in the past. We walk in and we automatically start comparing
ourselves to other women in the room. That links back to insecurity in us
and comparison traps the enemy's trying to get us in because he doesn't want us to connect
with other women because you know what happens when women connect with each other
and grow in relationship? Just guess. Powerful things start to happen in the spirit realm
because we were built for connection. So were men, but women, we carry this ability to
awaken things within each other just by being with each other. If we're healthy people,
some people that were around y'all, they're not super healthy and they're pulling you backwards
as you're trying to go forward. They're just keep pulling you backwards.
So some of y'all may need to make some shifts there,
but also being fully alive and coming out of hiding is recognizing our true self. Who are we?
What are the things that we love to do? So many people as I've been coaching in the heart work
and in this community now again for four years, I can't tell you how many people,
and this used to be me too, so there's no shame if this is you, but how many people don't even
know what they like to do? And then they start trying to date and then everything
becomes about what the guy likes to do and then that goes down a road that isn't good.
But the problem is that the women, us, didn't even know what we liked to begin with.
What makes us come alive? What brings fullness and happiness and joy and connection to us?
What refreshes us? So I want you to be thinking about that and praying about it, asking God,
if you don't know, God help me to know what causes me to come alive. You know how else we
can figure that out? We just go do some stuff. And some of the stuff we do, we might be like,
yeah, that was all right. And other stuff we might be like, man, that was so great.
I'm so glad I went and did that. That's the stuff you should go do more of.
And then go do some other new things that you haven't done yet.
And this doesn't have to cost a lot of money, ladies. It doesn't.
And then also actively participating in life with purpose and intention. What is God's calling on
your life? Who has he called you to be? What are some gifts that he's placed inside of you
that he's saying, hey, I want to breathe life into this. I want to see you, you know,
start serving in the community and in the church or maybe at a nonprofit organization or whatever
it is that you're like, your heart is just driven to passion regarding that thing.
And here's another aspect, ladies, not holding anything back. How many of you here, I would love
to see a raise of hands. You can do your digital hands or you can agree with me in the chat,
whichever way is easier for you. And I want you to be really honest here.
How many of you can say that today, if you were out in public, now, if you never left your house,
it's totally different for you, that you were out in public interacting with people,
maybe your job, wherever, and you didn't hold anything back. That's the caveat. You were fully
there, fully engaged, not hiding any aspect of yourself. You were showing up and you were all
in. You weren't hiding. You weren't pulling back. Okay. We have a couple people. That's awesome.
That's really awesome. We have a lot of people typically, and some people that are here tonight
that were like, yeah, I did hold something back. I maybe didn't say what was really on my heart
and mind. Maybe I did let that person say something and it caused me to doubt myself.
And I just started shutting down on the inside. This is where I want you all to continue to be
really aware of what you're feeling, really aware of the lies that are surfacing because of what
other people are doing and saying, as well as when you show up in a room, what's going on,
on the inside of you. Shakira says she was a little spicy today. All right. I like spicy.
Spicy can help us. You know, sometimes ladies, we get to that place because we were in such a
broken place and we're
and to step further into the real us,
and there's that transition period
on the in-between and spicy, hey, even after that,
it's kind of, it can be really good.
But when we show up as our authentic selves,
we often give permission to other people to do the same.
I want you to know that God created us
to have an impact in the world,
to affect the people around us.
I also want you to think about this.
As Jackie has talked about for a while in the community,
what we focus on increases.
What we focus on increases.
And not only that, I saw this quote today that said,
not only what we focus on increases,
but it also rewires our future.
So I want you to think about the negative thoughts
that the enemy has had you kind of thinking on
in the last few days.
And then I want you to think about
how is that going to impact your future
if you continue to think on that thing?
Are you gonna be able to receive the fullness
of God's promise for you if you keep believing the lie
that God has withheld from you?
Feel the Holy Spirit on this, I'm lingering.
What is the lies that you've heard in the last few days
that has caused you to doubt God's goodness
towards you, not just other people, but towards you?
We're all on a journey every single day
to grow in our understanding of who we are in Christ,
as well as who he originally created us to be
before trauma or wounds ever entered our story.
We're all in this together, ladies.
Look around on this screen.
This is why, man, I love seeing you all.
I love seeing you, I love seeing the tender moments.
Roseanne, I see you, girl.
God's touching you all, and I'm so grateful.
I'm grateful for what he's doing.
And this is your sister squad.
Now, some of you, you might track at different times
because people came in the program at different times,
but literally, we're in this together.
So I want you to kind of imagine
you're locking arms with each other
and you're believing for each other,
for breakthrough, for healing, for transformation,
for God's promises to come to fulfillment in your life.
I want you to think about this question as well.
Is there any part of yourself
where you do tend to hold back with people
even when they're safe?
Okay, now it's a different question
than what I asked a little bit ago.
Even with safe people, there's a part of yourself
that you're holding something back.
There was a story that someone shared this afternoon
in the coaching setting, and it just came to mind.
And so I feel led to share it.
And if Jen, I think it was Jen, or Tiffany, it was Tiffany.
If you're on tonight, I won't share the whole story,
but she was sharing that her mom loved to do crafts
and sometimes her and her brother would sit
and do these crafts with their mom.
But then all of a sudden,
when they saw dad coming in the car,
mom was like, hustle.
And they all were hustling to put stuff away.
They all went to their separate rooms
because they were waiting to see how dad was gonna be
when he came home.
We ought to just think about that for a minute.
And maybe that's not your story,
but maybe there's a different way
where there was something fun you were doing,
maybe by yourself or with a parent or whatever,
maybe with your siblings.
And then all of a sudden you had to put that all away
because somebody that wasn't approving of that behavior
or those fun things or whatever,
if it was a safe thing,
I'm not talking about misbehaving
and doing unhealthy things.
I'm talking about doing things that are healthy.
And then I want you to also think about
if you are someone that has a bubbly personality,
maybe you were really outgoing as a child,
maybe you love to sing, I don't know.
I just want you to be thinking about it.
Were there times where you would be trying
to do those things?
And even if your parent didn't mean to hurt your feelings,
because sometimes parents don't mean to hurt our feelings,
but our feelings get hurt.
And what they said,
you just started to shut down a part of yourself.
I want you to be thinking about these things.
There's a song called Out of Hiding by Stephanie Gretzinger.
Or no, I'm not gonna sing.
I'm not gonna sing tonight.
I just wanna say a couple of the lyrics over you all.
This is really powerful.
And I want you to just be thinking about,
as I say this,
as if God himself is talking to you through this tonight.
This is what it says.
Come out of hiding,
you're safe.
here with me. There's no need to cover what I already see. You've got your reasons, but I hold
your peace. You've been on lockdown, and I hold the key. Because I loved you before you even knew
it was love. And I saw it all, so I chose the cross. And you were the one that I was thinking
of when I rose from the grave. Now rid of the shackles, my victory is yours. I tore the veil
so you could come close. There's no reason to stand at a distance anymore. You're not far
from home. Ladies, first and foremost, before you step into relationship with your spirit mate and
learn how to do that in a healthy way, getting your relationship right with the Lord is first
and foremost most important thing that you can do. And when you do that, all the other things
are going to start to fall in place. I promise. I'm not saying it's always going to be like
automatic right real quick. Everybody's journey is different. But what I am saying is the spirit
mate is the cherry on top. Your relationship, intimate connection, closeness with God, Jesus,
and the Holy Spirit is so important. What you align with matters. What thoughts are you currently
aligning with that, again, don't sound like heaven? You are a supernova. Did you know that?
You were created to carry something amazing and release it into the world. And everybody does
that differently. Do you believe that you have amazing, beautiful, powerful, creative, lovely
things on the inside of yourself that God wants to help bring out into the world? This is what
Matthew 5, 14 through 16 in the message version says. Here's another way to put it. You're here to be
light, bringing out the God colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We're going public
with this as public as a city on a hill. If I make you light bearers, you don't think I'm going to
hide you under a bucket, do you? I'm putting you on a light stand. Now that I put you there on a hilltop
on a light stand, shine, keep open house, be generous with your lives. By opening up to others,
you'll prompt people to open up with God, this generous Father in heaven.
What does it mean for you to keep open house? Y'all, love is a risk, but it's a risk worth taking.
Even if you've been hurt before. Another lady on this afternoon, and again, she might be here
tonight, I'm not sure, but went through a divorce and then was dating someone for a while and he
passed away. Two big losses. And so she's struggling a little bit to really open up to the idea of
trying again. That's what came up today. And so sometimes, you know, these things come up and
we're kind of like, whoa, where did that come from? You know? The reality is, is we have to
give ourselves permission to move forward. And we also have to understand that God wants to write a
new story now. And your story in the past does not have to determine the story in the future.
But what gets tricky is when you have two back to back big losses like that,
it's very easy for us to believe the lie that that's just going to happen again.
Because that's what the enemy loves to tell us. You'll see. He'll say things like this. You'll see.
Go ahead and find someone and then see what happens. You're going to lose them too.
Those are the kind of things he says. But we have to choose to not believe that stuff. And your story
might be completely different. I don't know what your story is, but if there's a lie that you're
believing because something repetitively happened in your life, do you have a hard time making
friends? Do you have a hard time actually believing that people want to be friends with you?
Where did that start for you? Be generous with your lives, be generous with your heart. Now,
obviously keep boundaries because, you know, we don't want to just give, give, give and be
overextended and out of healthy guidelines and boundaries and be abused by people that are takers.
Be generous with your lives with safe people, ladies. Romans 8, 37 through 39 says this.
Know in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. For I am
convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, nor the present nor the future,
nor any powers, nor height, nor depth, nor anything else in all of creation will be able to
separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus, our Lord. So if that is true,
think of this statement.
If God is for you, who can be against you?
Now let's tweak that a little bit.
If God is for your love story with your spirit mate, Laura,
Laura C., I'm talking to you right now.
God's highlighting you to me.
If God is for you and your love story with your spirit mate,
then who can be against you?
He fights for you.
He's fighting for you right now.
Whether we can see it or not, God is working behind the scenes
and he's leading us and he's guiding us and he wants to help us
partner with the truth that he is warring on our behalf.
It's time.
You might say, for what?
Well, I want you to say this with me.
You don't need to unmute, but I want you to say it over yourself.
It's your time, Mikayla.
So I want you to say that.
Like, it's your time, Mikayla.
Like, you're talking to your spirit.
It's your time, Rachel Temple.
It's your time, Shakira.
It's your time, Mary Lemons.
Whatever your name is, like, it's your time.
Again, time for what?
It's your time to completely awaken.
It's time for the princess inside of you to come out of hiding
and fully awaken and for you to totally shift the way that you've
been living your life.
I'm going to give you activation number one for this week.
I want to encourage you, again, it doesn't have to be expensive,
to buy a tiara or some kind of crown or princess gear.
If you have a different thing that you think represents princess when
you see it, go for it.
But here's why.
I want you to wear it.
I want you to look at yourself in the mirror with it on.
And here's why.
I want you to start partnering with what does a princess think like?
How does a princess live?
What are the perspectives of a princess, and do I have those?
Do I believe that I am a princess?
Do you know that, you know, like princesses,
their dads would arrange, like, someone to take care of them.
Why would they do that?
Well, they wanted to make sure their daughters were taken care of.
God is the king of kings.
Do you think he doesn't want you to be taken care of, too?
And if you're not sure, if your answer is,
I don't know to that question,
then there's some heart work that needs to be done around that.
Some of you have taken care of yourselves for a long time.
And so it's tough for you to believe that God is going to provide
someone else for you to take care of you.
And that doesn't mean you don't do anything, like you don't work,
or that you just give up all, and the guy's just got to, no,
but like genuinely that the guy is going to be taking care of you.
He's going to be thinking about how can I take care of my family?
How can I provide? How can I be a teammate with them?
How can we do life together?
They're going to be thinking about those things.
And how can I tell you that? Because I'm living it.
And that isn't what I used to experience.
So for you, part of the activation is for you to partner with,
I am a princess and I can walk in princess heavenly perspectives.
I can believe that God has ordained me to be a helpmate,
to help my husband, to step into divine,
supernatural DNA with him and fulfill God's calling on our lives as a
married couple.
And I want to say one other thing, you know, in our society today,
and I'm not knocking this. So if you've said this, please don't,
please don't partner with offended.
But in our society today, all the time,
I see people calling so-and-so's a queen. You're a queen. I'm a queen.
I'll, you know, and again, I'm not knocking that,
but I want you to think about something.
There's a lot of people claiming that they're Queens and they haven't even
learned how to be a princess.
So where are we trying to stand in a title that we actually don't even
believe we have on the inside?
Because we need to learn how to be a princess before we can be a queen.
So that's why I want to guide you out in this, this week,
and in the next few weeks ahead that you'll start to partner with this.
And then after you get the tiara y'all guess what I want you to do.
I want you to take a picture and I want you to put it in the group.
Yes, I do. I want to see them.
And for those of you that.
Step into courage.
I know I'm gonna see your photo and I'm gonna love it.
Look, Ashley's got one.
Look, I love it.
That's great.
You can do a flower crown, Erica.
Y'all pray about this.
If there's something you feel led to do
that is a part of your personality, go for it.
This is about you awakening to your true self.
Ephesians 5, 14 says,
"'Awake, awake, O sleeper, and rise up from the dead,
and Christ will shine on you.'"
What are we being awakened by?
Well, true love's kiss, the kiss of heaven,
as well as a deeper understanding of God's love for us.
God's love for us.
God wants to awaken us to our true identity
that was God given.
He wants to awaken us to restoration
and these big, bold, beautiful futures.
And that means dreams awakening within us.
Well, what kind of dreams?
Well, maybe it is spiritual dreams.
Some of y'all are already having that happening.
You're dreaming in the nighttime,
you're dreaming in the daytime, but also childhood dreams.
You know, God comes in and he breathes on stuff
and it's all of a sudden,
it starts to come back alive in us.
Some of you all literally had childhood dreams.
Now, some, you know, we might not be able to fulfill.
Okay, so one of my childhood dreams was, you know,
to be on a college cheerleading squad.
Okay, that could have been fulfilled years ago,
but that's not gonna happen now.
Okay, so I just want you to be real with this,
but there's other things that I dreamed of as a kid
that could still happen now.
And maybe some of you all,
you're gonna get some new dreams.
Some of you during this time may feel
led to go back to school.
You might feel led to take a course
that isn't like an accredited college,
but maybe it's to learn how to cook or to bake something
or to maybe you have always wanted to open a flower shop.
I don't know what your dream is,
but God does and he wants to help you step into it.
We all have to choose what to believe.
So what are you gonna believe tonight?
In whose report will you believe?
Will you believe the report of the Lord
or are you gonna believe the report of the enemy
who all he does is he prowls around
looking and seeking for those he can devour,
trying to sow seeds of hatred,
trying to sow seeds of division,
trying to sow seeds of you to get like hatred,
to get you to hate yourself,
all the things to minimize who you are.
I heard the Lord say, we're gonna say one more thing
because some of you here tonight don't believe it.
I just heard the Lord say,
they need to say over themselves, I.
So say I, you don't have to unmute, but just say I,
and then say your name and beautiful.
I, say your name and beautiful.
And I want you to be practicing that
because some of you don't believe it.
When you look in the mirror, you don't like what you see.
Do you see how this can set you up
for failure in relationship?
God wants to help you see a whole different version
of what you've been seeing when you look in the mirror.
And it's not because he wants you
to change everything about yourself.
It's he wants to give you an upgrade
to see in the spirit what he has always seen.
He sees you as full and alive and beautiful and adorned,
and your worth is far above Ruby's.
I want you to think about something else.
Do you think princesses allow guys
to call them for a booty call?
What do you think?
I don't think so, do you?
No, so why would we?
And hey, maybe it's not a booty call in person,
but maybe we're doing stuff online.
And y'all, there's no shame if you've done this.
I'm saying this,
because this is how the enemy is tripping people up
right now.
Because we are afraid of being alone.
Well, when you know your value and your worth
and you live a happy full life,
y'all, when we are fun and we are walking in those things,
I promise you, we attract healthy people.
And when we attract unhealthy, we're like,
ooh, that doesn't look so good.
Yeah, I'm gonna pass on that.
We're not gonna be mean to the person,
because as Jackie has said in this community for years,
we're gonna do our best.
We're gonna do our best.
It's not always possible, okay?
We're gonna do our best to leave people better
than we found them.
That's what we're going to do. That's the call on this community.
So even if someone's not a good connection with us, we're going to do our best to end that well.
But sometimes people are so unhealthy, it's not going to go that way. But you can still
bless them and block them, and you just move on. And you'll learn more about that in the
additional phases of our community if you stay in the program. But I think it's important for
y'all to really think about, do you believe that your value is above rubies? That you are worth
more than that? Like a pearl of great price.
I want you to keep thinking about that this week. And really, if you don't have that belief yet,
ask the Lord to help you shift in your heart so that you can receive that truth.
All right, I'm going to have Nanette share what God has put on her heart for tonight.
And then after that, we're going to come back and do our breakout session.
Okay, there we go. I'm unmuted. Tonight, as I was pondering and praying about what I was going to
share, I'll be honest, there's times when I still fall back into it, and I am a work in progress.
But it's something that God has done the greatest work in my life. And for a long time, years,
I really fell into comparing myself to other people. It was a struggle, and it was something
that I did so naturally, that I really didn't even know that I did it, because it had become
so ingrained in me. And when I was in my heart work, what I realized was, I was constantly,
when I went out, you know, oh, she's got a great outfit on, maybe I should have worn something
different. She's thin, I bet she's well light. I mean, the thoughts and the comparisons were endless.
And what I learned and what I realized was, it really stole my joy, because I was always looking
at what I felt like everybody else had. And it left me feeling constantly like I didn't measure
up. And I was never going to be enough. On a few occasions, if I would compare myself and think,
oh, yeah, well, I'm doing something here, or I'm a little bit better there,
then I'd have just a few moments where I felt like, okay, I'm okay. But it was so short lived,
because I was in the comparison game for so many things. And God really, really brought me out of
that, and has been done a huge work in my heart, because now, I'm not looking at what everybody
else has. I'm stepping into what God has given me, my gifts, my talents, and I have a heart of
gratitude and gratefulness for those, because I can be focused and be present when I am places,
because I'm showing up as my authentic self and who God created me to be. My mind isn't consumed,
you know, I'm out of my, I'm not in my head comparing myself to everybody, I'm present where
I am. And I am able to encourage others, I'm able to speak light and life to them and show up to do
what he wants me to do, and to be focused on what he has for me, versus a self focus, not thinking
that I measure up. And it's really helped me to be, I'm extroverted anyway. So it's easy for me to
people. But I can show up with Christ as my foundation, and I show up as a princess,
because I am a daughter of the king. And that allows me to walk confidently in what he's called
me to then is what he has equipped me for. And I have a life that has so much more hope, because
it's not about me, it's about God, it's about what he's called me to where he wants me to go what he
wants me to do. And that is my heart every morning. And I say, Okay, what are we doing today,
God, don't let me miss a thing, which has enabled me to sometimes step out and take a really bold
step of something in the day. Because if I feel the Holy Spirit nudging me, I'm going to do it,
because God's on my side. He's got my back. And he knows, he sees me, he knows me, and he's equipped
me. And that's, that's what I need. And that's the hope that I need. And that's the hope that
I have now. And that has brought so much freedom.
to my life. So I don't know if that resonates with any of you, but if it does, I'm right there
with you. And I'm here to tell you that there's hope and that God's got you. I love that. Yes.
There's always hope ladies. And on that note, I think I want to just really quickly, I just saw
in the chat there, uh, love that said not having a dad. I don't know what that feels like when I
was, I think that was when I was talking about, you know, King providing for the princess.
And I want you to know that I was in the same boat as you. And there are some scriptures that
are very healing. Uh, one of them, I won't give them all, but this one is the one I feel led to
share tonight. It says in Psalm 146, nine, the Lord watches over the sojourners. He upholds the
and the fatherless. And I want you to know that I can speak from experience. God absolutely wants
to teach you what it's like to have a good father. Cause you've always had a good father.
It's just been your father in heaven, even though your biological father could not be
to you or chose not to be to you the father that he was intended to be. And that broke God's heart
for you. And so I want to encourage all of you to partner with the truth that God upholds the
widow and the fatherless. He lifts you up and he cares about you. And he is fighting for you. I
want you just to imagine the times I just heard the Lord. Some of y'all, there were times where
you had games, some kind of sport, or maybe it was a play and you looked out in the stands and
your dad wasn't there and that broke you. But I want you to know God was always sitting there in
the stands cheering for you. And I know that doesn't replace the longing of having your physical
dad there. Cause I've been there too. Even times my dad said he was going to come and then he didn't.
And then I was like, he's a liar. Okay. But that's not who God is. That's not who God is. And he
will lead you into all truth. He promises that. All right. So your breakout question for tonight
is this. In what ways does the enemy challenge the real you? Does he often use comparison,
competition, or imitation, or does he use all three or a combination of them?
How do these tend to show up in your life? I'll repeat that again. In what ways does the enemy
challenge the real you? Does he often use comparison, competition, or imitation,
or all of them, a mix of them? And how does this tend to show up in your life? Everyone
understand the question? Yeah. Okay. I just want to make sure. All right. Let me get these ready
real quick. Chris, I'm glad that you're feeling like there's a lot of good stuff coming down.
I'm really glad to see that. Okay. I'm going to try to put two people in a room because I want
y'all to have some good time to talk about this. All right. So as long as people don't drop out,
everyone should be good. Now, if anybody gets into a room and you're there by yourself,
please just stay there because I'll move you around. Okay. Everyone here. All right. Awesome.
So I'm going to give you six minutes. So if there's two of you, it should be like three
minutes each. If I have to move people where there's three, keep in mind it's a minute or no,
two, four, six. Yeah. Two minutes per person. If I could do math. All right. Here you go.
Go ahead and jump in. Oh, that's totally fine, Michaela.
Go ahead and click to join those as quick as you can.
All right. Tammy, I can't see if you're able to join or not. Just let me know in the chat if you
can. I have somebody else by themselves. 12. Sorry, you guys. Give me one minute and then I
can pray. Just trying to make sure people aren't sitting by themselves. Another lady here.
All right. Father, we just thank you so much. I pray that you'll help Sandra to get into this
room that I'm inviting her to. There she goes. Thank you, Father, for caring about the little
thing. Oh, go ahead. Sorry. A few, a few ladies in before we broke out and you may want to cover
it when they come back. They're not understanding or they wanted examples of imitation.
Yeah, it's okay. They're already in the room. But Damaris, I actually put Debbie right in
your room. Can you go back into that room? Because she's there. Is she not talking?
Oh, okay.
Hi, this is Tammy. Hi, can you hear me?
Hi, Tammy. Yeah.
Hi, I just wasn't in a position to push the button.
Oh, that's okay.
Can you throw me in a group?
Yes, you are in one. Can you click to join that group or no?
I did and it didn't.
Okay, let me try another one. Go ahead and click to join that one. Let's see what happens.
All right.
Father, thank you so much for just a reminder that you're a good father and that you lead
us into the fullness of all your plans and promises for us even when we, God, can't see
it because we're just really struggling to have the faith. God, I ask for a fresh impartation
of the gift of faith into the hearts, minds, and spirits and souls of every woman that's
a part of this heart work process in our entire community and all those that have gotten married
and beyond, God, that you would give us all that fresh vision, that fresh understanding.
But Lord, especially these ladies tonight and those watching the replay, God, I thank
you that you would help them to hear what your spirit is saying about them and to them
that you would help them to receive an upgrade to walk in the divine calling that you have
on their lives, that they would begin to stand up a little taller, that they would walk with
their chin up instead of looking down at the ground.
The Lord just reminded me, like ladies way back, and I didn't even do this intentionally,
but I would look down a lot. Like when people, when I would go to walk by people instead
of looking them in the eye, my insecurities led me to look down a lot. And so some of
you, I feel like that's kind of how you've been going through life. And God wants to,
he's the lifter of our heads. And he's just saying, daughter, he's not doing it in a mean
way, but he's just like, look up, look up and see what's around you. Look up and see
all that I have for you that I don't have lack. I live in the land of plenty. It's flowing
with milk and honey. God isn't afraid about where are all the good men at? Because guess
what? He knows there's a lot of good men and he knows how to get them to us. Sometimes
we have to shift and move and change things, but God is doing something and he's trying
to lead us into that plan and the blessing that he has for us, but we have to choose
again to receive it. And so I want to praise a couple of scriptures over us as well. Psalm
147, three through four and the passion translation says this, he heals the wounds of every shattered
heart. He sets his stars in place, calling them all by their names. Isn't that an intentional
God? He called the stars by each one of their names. So would he not do the same for us?
He knows the hairs on our head. He literally knows every single one of them. So do we believe
that God is being intentional with us in this season? Matthew 7, 24 through 25 in the passion
translation says this, everyone who hears my teaching and applies it to his life can
be compared to a wise man who built his house on an unshakable foundation. When the rains
fell and the flood came with fierce winds beating upon his house, it stood firm because
of its strong foundation. Father, I thank you that tonight that you're going into areas
of our hearts and our lives and you're restoring the foundations. You're restoring all the
broken and fallen places, God, that even like in the times of Nehemiah, that you called
Nehemiah to repair the temple, to rebuild the walls. So God, I thank you that you would
help us to do our part, God, and trust that you'll do your part. God, to rebuild the walls
in our heart, to not cause us to wall people out, but to have healthy hearts that can pump
and function the way we were originally created and designed to process and live our lives.
So Lord, I thank you that you'll help us to, yes, Lord, to partner with the truth that
we can come into agreement with your blessings and the fullness, the land of overflow, God,
that we aren't operating from a cup that's half empty, God, that we have a cup that's full.
And it's not only full to the brim, it's overflowing. And it's overflowing with your love.
So Lord, I pray that you would help the ladies to experience your love in a supernatural
way tonight and in the days to come. God, help them to have encounters with your presence.
Help them to tangibly understand your word in a fresh way that not only would they read
the word, God, that they would...
live the word that they would experience the word of God, that
it would be fresh in their spirit, God, that they would
hear your heart crying out to them and calling to them and, and
not only calling to them, but calling them up higher to step
into everything that you have for them. So Lord, we just thank
you for that. We thank you that you're leading us into the
fullness of your blessings and your plan and Jesus name.
Welcome back. So glad to have you all joining us. I'm going to
show you really quickly the additional go ahead and mute for
me ladies as quick as you can. Okay. Um, I'm going to show you
the second activation as quick as I can tonight. Um, this one,
I love to call the silhouette. It's one of my favorites. I love
them all, but this is literally, it's a really amazing experience.
If you will partner with it, I believe it'll transform you in
really beautiful ways. And so I want to preface this before I
share the screen. Okay. You can do this. However you feel led.
Okay. I'm going to show you some pictures of what some other
people did, but you don't have to do yours like there's the
goal of the silhouette is for you to draw. Like if you were
just tracing my body right now, like on this screen, do that
like on a piece of paper for yourself, like draw an outline
of yourself and, and you're going to do something with that,
but it could be that simple. But if you feel led to do
something more creative, you can, but here's what you're
going to do with it. You're going to pray and you're going
to ask God to help you hear what his spirit is saying about
you. What are his thoughts towards you? What does God want
you to know about yourself, about the real you? And I want
you to write down anything that is positive that you hear
phrases, words, scriptures, whatever comes up in your spirit
that is positive. That's key. That goes on your silhouette
paper. If you hear something negative, it is not going to go
on that paper. You're going to get out another sheet of paper
and you're going to write that on that paper, but you're not
going to just write it there. You're going to cross it out
because we know that negative is what? A lie of the enemy you
all. That's where that's coming from because God doesn't speak
negative things over you. You're going to cross that out and
you're going to ask God to show you the truth to replace the
lie. And then I want you to, you're going to do that on a
piece of paper. Okay. You're going to do the, the silhouette
activation on a piece of paper, and then you're going to take a
screenshot of it and you're going to share that into the
community group. Okay. Now I'm going to show you some examples
again. I'm going to do this kind of quick because I don't want us
to run out of time. Um, all right. I'm sorry. I had to, I
got to, okay, here's my first one. And I want to just tell you
a couple things about some of these, this young lady that did
this silhouette, um, did not like the color of her hair. She
didn't like her eyes. There were a lot of features about herself
that she did not like or appreciate during the heart
where God was helping her embrace the way that he made her
and to really accept that she was fearfully and wonderfully
made. And so the reason she felt led to do flowers over her eyes
as she was declaring that she would start to flourish and the
way that she would see herself. Okay. And so that's one example.
Again, you guys don't have to do it like this, but these are just
examples. Here's another lady. She really felt led to do the
growth in the, you know, the plants coming out of her mind,
because that was symbolic for her about her mind being
transformed. And she wrote right on there, who am I? Who does God
say I am? So that's what I want. God, who do you say that I am? I
want you to be praying that this lady did a crown. Okay. She was
partnering with the truth that we ladies, if you didn't know,
we are a crown. If we are healthy, lovely, wonderful, you
know, not completely healed because we're all in process. We
are the crown to our spirit mates when they find us. We're
the crown to our husband. And she loved red lipsticks. I love
that she put her personality in here. Again, you guys do what you
feel led. This one here, she titled it the real me. And she
wrote all the words and phrases and things that God was saying
to her. Here's another one. Again, it can be real simple,
y'all see how this works. Do what you feel led to do. She
didn't, she didn't draw eyes or mouth or anything. This is
totally fine. Hers, she wrote words in different colors. And
then there were two words that she highlighted. She did that
because God was really emphasizing those words to her.
Okay, so that all meant something to her. Here's another
one. And she embraced her freckles and all the things. And
then she wrote faith filled at the bottom. Here's another one
daughter of the king. And then again, words are in different
colors, even some of them are in pen, some of them are in marker.
This, this all means stuff to these ladies. So again, you do
your process, ask the Lord, like, is there a color I should
write in? Is there a color I should draw in? Whatever, just
go with the flow. And this will be a part of you practicing. Now
this lady is an artist. So don't get intimidated. But it is
beautiful and powerful. And I just wanted to share this with
you all.
Actually, I think, yeah, this was Nadine.
Nadine, for those of you that know,
she just moved to phase two.
She was in this heartwork group,
and that was just recently.
This is what she drew,
and it's just powerful and beautiful.
And so I wanted to share that with you
and bless you with that tonight.
So you do yours, okay?
And then post it here in the group
and let us see it and let us cheer you on.
And again, you can post it.
Ladies, just so you know,
the Facebook group is not gonna have your replays.
It's not gonna have your event calendar.
It's not gonna have the resource tab.
The only thing we're gonna do in the Facebook group
is have community, okay?
So just so everybody understands,
that's what's happening there.
And so if you have any other questions
about where to find anything else,
your links for the live sessions,
all of that is staying in the last year single app.
So you still need to keep the app, super important.
Your course is gonna be in there.
But when somebody just said something,
it made me think of that.
But yeah, oh, one other thing.
If you're gonna do posts, please only post in one place.
So what do I mean by that?
Don't post in both the app and the Facebook group, okay?
Because that will create double work for our team.
So just post in one place.
We'll get to you and we'll see you there.
All right, so some ladies already have their hands up.
Way to go.
If you're willing to share with the whole group
what you shared in your breakout,
you can raise your hand.
I am gonna go with Gail
and then I'll go to Leslie and then Lovette, okay?
Hello, thank you for asking me to speak.
My question came, it was from this afternoon
and it's still the same,
is my word in the breakout was comparison.
But it's very specific because I can be in a group of women
and totally enjoy their company.
And not compare.
And I also am not competitive at all.
I concede constantly, I don't, I give in.
So anyways, but my comparison really is
when I was with my exes.
I had two husbands and both of them were porn addicts
and cheated on me.
And my last ex constantly degraded my body.
So I would go into a group of women
and be happier than anything.
As soon as my then husband would come into the room,
I would automatically start looking around the room
like who is going to be attracted?
Who's he gonna be attracted to?
Who's he gonna?
So, I mean, I'm not dating now,
but how do I know, how do I make?
It's like, it's not gonna go away, I'm sure.
Well, it will, it can.
It can.
So I want you to know, Gail,
I resonate 100% with what you're saying.
Both my ex-husband and my spiritual daughter's dad
both cheated.
And my spiritual daughter's dad,
he was massively addicted to pornography.
I mean, like didn't just cheat with one person,
had multiple women he was having side relationships with.
And so I felt very similar to you.
I was very insecure when other women would come around
or even he would say something to a woman on social media
or any of those kinds of things.
And I wondered if that would ever be gone too.
Like even if we went to the pool or the beach,
I literally, it was like painful for me.
It was not fun.
And so I didn't know until I found out
that I could actually live completely differently.
And part of that is because when you're secure
in a relationship, like you have security in yourself
and you're healthy and you like go through
this healing process.
But then also like I had to work through body image issues
that I had that were definitely increased
because of all of that.
I already had existing body image issues,
but they got heightened because of all that.
But then when I stepped into a healthy relationship
with a man that literally, like I don't ever have fear
that he's gonna look at a woman and lust after her.
Like I don't.
And I never even knew I could get to that point.
But part of that is because Brian is a man of honor
and he's a man of character.
And he walks in the fruits of the spirit,
including self-control.
And you know what, he also walked in that
regarding protecting the covenant
of our marriage bed with me.
We did not have sex before marriage.
And that was something we both fought for and protected.
And that's huge.
And you know, this isn't...
Yes.
He's a pastor, but this isn't just a him thing.
We have a lot of men that have come through our community
that have actually, I mean, again,
I've been coaching in this community for four years.
We've had men that have said, man, I'm trying to date
and I'm trying to not have sex before marriage,
but I'm going out and these women are trying to seduce me.
Ladies do it too, you know?
And so I want you to have hope
that you can meet someone healthy
and someone that walks in all the fruits of the spirit
and that you can start to,
the words that come to mind is be at ease within yourself.
That is something that is possible.
And I believe that God wants to give that to you
and to anyone else that this resonates with tonight.
You know, God cares about the brokenness
that you've walked through and he wants to restore
and bring restitution to all of those places.
And so I want to encourage you to partner with
what has happened does not have to be
what will always happen, okay?
Now, I will also tell you that God was challenging me
as well with some things.
So for example, he had me stand in front of a mirror
and love on my body,
like even the parts of myself that I didn't like.
And I'm just going to be real honest with you all.
So growing up, my brothers were my main abusers.
So they sexually abused me.
And one of the things that they also did
is they made fun of me because I didn't have big boobs.
And that became this big joke.
Well, like at Christmas time, you know,
we would be sitting around opening presents
and my mom would buy me like bras and underwear
and like make me open them
and like hold them up and everything.
It was literally horrible.
And then my brothers would tease and all this stuff.
And that just made all that worse.
Why am I saying that?
Well, I'm saying that because one of the areas
that I tended to compare myself,
especially when I saw some of the stuff that, you know,
they were looking at online.
Well, then every time someone got like around me
and I was, you know, smaller than them
and that woman, I would look at them
and just think they were so much better than me
because their body was, they had big boobs and I didn't.
And so that made them better.
Now that wasn't true, but I'm just being real.
Like this is stuff we deal with, you know,
but I needed to ask the Lord to go in
and heal those areas from when I was younger
and honestly like love who I am.
And so if that means y'all,
and I'm not saying a weird way, okay,
but like standing in the bathroom and just like,
God, thank you for the way that you made me,
like genuinely believing that and partnering with that.
Even before I felt it, I had to partner with it.
So if some of y'all don't like your legs
or don't like your arms,
I've had women literally get breakthrough from that.
Start wearing shirts, if it's not too cold for you,
that show your arms and get out of that box
and embrace who you are, okay?
Okay, thank you.
You're welcome.
I look forward to hearing testimonies from this,
from you and others in the days to come for sure.
Absolutely, thank you.
I appreciate that.
Thanks for trusting us and sharing, yeah.
Thank you.
Okay, Leslie, go ahead.
Okay, hi.
Hi.
So when you said comparisons,
my story is very similar to the last lady's.
Where my comparisons come in is with my peers
when I'm hanging out with them and we're all,
you know, there's a lot of people around.
Men, I noticed when men pay more attention
to other women than to me and that bothers me.
So let me ask you this.
Did you see your dad doing that too when you were younger?
No.
Okay, so when was the first time this showed up for you?
Oh, really good question.
I don't know.
Would it go all the way back to like when...
I'm thinking, I don't know.
This is the only thing that's coming to my mind
would be like when I was real little
and another boy thought I was male.
Yeah, it totally could.
And then that theme continued.
Like that wasn't the only time.
You know, I remember being in McDonald's.
I can't, I don't know exactly my age,
but I wanna say somewhere around, you know,
probably eight, nine, 10 years old.
And I heard somebody saying, isn't he so handsome?
And I knew they were talking about me.
I had really short hair.
That's why.
I don't like short hair.
Yeah, that's okay. Yeah. Um, so here's the thing, it can
totally have something to do with that. Because even if you
knew that wasn't true, there might have been things in you
and lies that you heard that you didn't have the ability to, you
know, ward off and like keep off of your mind and heart. And so I
want to encourage you to remember the revealing for
healing cycle, Leslie, can want you to get that out this week.
And I want you to do the revealing for healing cycle
with these memories. And I want you to ladies, I want this to
be a really good example to you. Nothing is weird. Okay. And
nothing is insignificant. She's having this memory pop up from
when she was younger, when a little boy thought she was a
boy, and then the other memory popped up. And so this is how we
start on the path. And then as we go, God might show us
additional things. Okay. And so, you know, let's see what the
lies might have been. And then the other thing I'm hearing the
Holy Spirit say is also, was there any vows that you made
during those times that you've been partnering with that are
literally causing that same thing to keep happening in the
spirit? Also, did you ever hear mom or dad say they wanted a
No. But I, I remember, you know, like, I don't know why this
stands out either. But like, you know, your parents buy Raggedy
Ann and Andy, and then give them to you and your sister. And she
got the girl doll and I got the boy doll. You know, and the
little boy that came that he would come and play with me. He
was a neighbor kid. And I came home from I don't know where
school maybe. And he said to my mom, I didn't know boys were
dresses. And she said, Well, they don't. She's a little girl.
And he ran home and never came back to play with me.
Yeah, so I think I think I vaguely remember you mentioned
Yeah, story before. And so I do think this is a theme for you
that God wants to heal this area. Because that was like a
hit against your identity. From the beginning. Yes. And so I do
want you to go ahead and pray and just make sure that they're
you know, the Lord can show you okay. There was anything that
was in your parents where they really were partnering with
wanting a boy and I'm sure they were so blessed to have you. But
let's just make sure if if God doesn't show anything, don't
worry about it. Just move on into what you do see and what
you do know. And you've said several things tonight. So let's
do the revealing for healing cycle. I want I want to
encourage you to do a forgiveness prayer sheet. And I
think I mentioned this about the boy that said that regarding you
know, you in the dress, did you end up doing the forgiveness
prayer sheet regarding forgiving him?
No, I haven't done that yet.
Okay, yeah, let's do that. Okay. Okay. Because forgiving them,
you know, forgiving that boy is going to help you start coming
out of agreement more and more with the pain of that pain of
feeling like people think I'm a boy when you're a girl. And then
again, identifying those lies. And let's just see where the
Lord takes you from there. Okay. Okay. Awesome. Thanks for
sharing that with us. Thank you. You're welcome. live that go
ahead.
Sorry, you caught me off guard. Oh, that's all right. So in the
breakout, I will, I will have to say that I identify with all of
them a little bit. Probably more with the comparison aspect of
it. I was telling Sandra when it comes to like, men in my love
life, if I feel like I'm having to compete, I bow out. Um, so
tell me, when do you feel like you have to compete? Like what's
happening when that kicks in?
Um, when you know that they're talking to multiple women? Um,
um,
so let me let me ask you a question. Um, for example, I
talked to multiple men when I was dating. But I knew the one
that God led me to. And I was like, Oh, I'm gonna go with the
right. And he's a great match for me. Okay. And I knew that he
was getting to know a couple people in the beginning. Right.
And so my question for you is this is
is, is it that you don't know your worth and value?
And that's why you struggle with,
if someone talks to multiple people,
because ultimately you have a fear
that if that person doesn't choose you,
that you're not gonna find somebody.
Like there's that rejection and there's,
versus just standing in,
hey, this is a person I'm just having fun getting to know
and growing community and see if this is the direction
God wants to lead me.
And where there's this,
there's more of like an open hand and a freedom
versus I gotta cling to this person
and to be in panic and fear
if they're talking to other people.
Does that make sense?
Yeah, no, when I've online dated,
I mean, I was talking to multiple people as well.
Obviously it didn't go anywhere with any of them
after a period of time,
but I know that they're talking to multiple people,
but like the minute it's like slapped in your face,
like-
Tell me what that means.
Like, what do you mean by that?
When they like are upfront about,
oh, like I've been on dates with multiple people
and things of that sort.
I feel like they're wanting me to present a song and dance.
So I'm like, why should I pick you over them?
Okay, so let me ask you this.
You just said, I feel like they are doing it
for this reason.
So you're assuming something instead of just asking them.
Okay, do you all know the phrase,
what is assuming, what does it make out of us?
Does anyone, you don't gotta say it,
let's just raise our hands, okay?
Yep, it makes us become foolish, okay?
We start assuming things and then the rabbit trail
starts to, man, just the enemy will just run us down
a mile or two miles down the road, really far.
And then it's like, okay,
but I don't even know if this is really
why they're saying this.
And number two, if a guy has gotta be like,
hey, I'm going on all these dates, dah, dah, dah,
he's probably not the healthiest guy.
Well, that's where I,
that's kind of how I feel about it.
If he's wanting it, if it's just a conversation
because y'all know you're both dating, that's one thing.
But when you start talking about what you're doing
on dates with other people,
there's no reason for that.
So what in you then kicks in to cause you to feel
like you've gotta do some kind of song and dance
to make them choose you if they're A, not a healthy person
and B, why is this kicking in for you?
I don't, I bow out gracefully.
It's just like, they really kind of lose my interest.
It's like, that's fine if you're talking
to multiple people and I am too,
but I'm not gonna sit there on my dates
and talk about the date that I had last night
or what I did.
Do you tell them that?
No, I don't.
Yeah, at least.
And I wouldn't, so.
But why not?
I mean, you can say that in a kind way to someone.
And I think this is kind of the key here, Lovette,
is that you're bowing out, you're saying gracefully,
but really you're actually not using your voice
at a time when you need to.
And you can do that in a kind way and say,
you know what, it's been nice to get to know you,
but the way you're sitting here talking about going out
with these other people,
that's just not something I'm looking to do.
And so I just wanna bless you
and I hope all goes well with you.
And then you move on.
Do you see the difference there?
Because it's kind of like when that's happening,
you're partnering with, I'm not worthy of being chosen.
And so I'm just gonna, I'm just gonna,
I'm just gonna go the other way,
but that's really hiding.
You see how that works?
Yeah.
So, and again, it's not,
we don't have to be rude to people, okay?
And if there's a person, again,
if they're super on talk, like, let's say you do that.
And then they come back with a whole barrage of stuff.
You don't gotta say anything else, okay?
Cause you don't need to get into some kind of battle
back and forth, but you can say something kind
and just say, you know what, this is not, you know,
this isn't what I was looking for.
And I'm really looking for someone who, you know,
can just be focused on the two of us
getting to know each other tonight.
And because this is the thing, if someone is teachable,
they're gonna show you that in their response.
If they're not teachable, they're gonna react
and they're gonna blow it even bigger.
And they're gonna show you who they really are.
And then you'll know even more,
yeah, that's not a good person.
Right.
Okay?
And so I want you to look at what's causing you to feel,
you know, cause what you said is the comparison.
Like you have to compete.
I want you to ask the Lord, when is the first time that this showed up in me?
When is the first time I felt like I had to compete for someone's attention?
Was it in the romantic stuff?
Was it with your dad?
You know, trying to compete or get his attention at all.
Cause I saw your, you know, you mentioned in the chat earlier.
And so sometimes that might kick up because we didn't ever feel
like we got dad's attention.
So now we feel like we got to fight for the guy's attention.
As soon as we find out they're talking to other people, even
though we're talking to people.
Yeah.
And so let's, let's see where, where the Lord might want to take you with
that and, uh, we'll be praying for you.
I'm so glad that you shared this tonight, but practice using your voice.
Now, obviously you're not dating hopefully right now, but when you go
into that phase and in the future here, I really want you to
practice speaking up for yourself.
Okay.
Yeah.
All right.
Awesome.
Thanks for sharing Tatiana.
Go ahead.
All right.
So, um, last week I talked for fear and anxiety about, I mentioned
like the class wasn't the professor.
And then just throughout that week, um, I did my homework and then, um, I
kind of talked about how, like, there's a pattern here and I just realized
that I overthink, I overthink things and I let it get to the point
where it weighs me down emotionally.
So I feel like intimidation is the word I resonated with the most today, just
because I allow myself to get intimidated just in my head and then I just get stuck
there and it's like, the pattern is that I waited out, like whatever emotions I'm
feeling, um, whatever seems to be like the mountain, um, I just kind of like,
okay, I'm just going to wait until this gets better.
And then once those feelings are gone, I'm fine.
Yeah.
So what comes to mind Tatiana is, um, you know, we got to feel the feels so
that God can heal the fields, but we need to make sure the fields
don't get in the driver's seat.
Okay.
Here's why you, what you're having is a normal feeler reaction, okay.
To something that's hard, but I want you to know that you don't have to spiral
and feel depressed and weighed down every time that you feel something like this.
You know?
Um, and again, some of that will come with time.
I mean, and I don't mean this just because you're younger, but as you're,
you are younger, but as you keep growing some of this, I believe you'll learn
how to navigate it differently.
God will teach you how to, you know, feel that stuff, but know that
God is there protecting you.
And you'll start to let, just understand this stuff more and more.
And not that you don't already understand it, but I just want you to know, like
from my perspective, I gave my life to the Lord.
I was, you know, uh, how old 22.
So I was a little bit older than you, but started getting
used by the Lord very quickly.
And so I would go into places cause I'm a feeler too.
And I would, I would feel things.
I would sense things that were there and it would, I would feel it heavy and it
would burden me like to the point that I'm like, I got to get out of this room.
And God has really taught me how to carry the weight.
Okay.
Carry the weight.
It doesn't mean that that stuff comes on me.
I can feel it, but no, it's not affecting me.
That makes sense.
Yeah.
But let's start with, um, not letting the feelings get in the driver's seat.
So when those things are happening, um, remember like last week, we want to say,
God, what are the facts?
The facts is you're in a class.
The teacher's not healthy and God is protecting you.
And there's probably more, but those are three that just
came to me really easy.
Okay.
Those are the facts.
God is protecting you.
You can walk in the armor of God every day.
He can send angels to literally guard and protect you.
Those are the things that you want to partner with.
And so I want to encourage you when intimidation shows up again, I want you
to ask the Lord, you know, um, is this a familiar spirit Lord or is this something
that's trying to show and manifest itself differently, because what we need to find
out is, is this actually a familiar thing to what you were experiencing with your dad?
Or does it just feel like it is?
Yeah.
And I'm not saying it's not real, but I'm saying God will give you clarity on that.
I really believe that I think is going to continue to give you discernment to know
if it's the same spirit at work or if it's something different.
Yeah, I guess my thing is that I used to have OCD when I was younger and it was really bad.
So what did you do?
How did that show up for you?
Well, it showed up different.
When I was in elementary school, you know how they have you count on your fingers?
If I counted to five on one hand, I don't know why I want to cry, if I want to cry.
I would have to do that on the other hand, too, because if it wasn't even in my head,
I would just get so anxious, I don't know why I'm crying.
And then in middle school, that had gone away, but then I became a germaphobe.
I literally wouldn't open doors with my hands.
There was also a phase where if I was writing, and I remember one day being in an English
class and I was writing an essay, it was something really long, and I had a thought come to my
mind that I didn't like, and I just erased everything that I had just wrote because of
that thought.
It just bothered me so much, and I'm like, no, I don't know why, but I just erased everything.
I remember my English teacher looking at me like I was crazy, because she's like, you
just erased everything that you just wrote down.
And I feel like part of it in this intimidation is that coming back, it's like my mind obsesses
over something, and I just don't know how to make it stop.
Okay.
So, okay, we're going to go a little bit different route here because of what you just shared,
because that's a whole different layer to what we've been kind of chatting about.
And I just want you to know you're safe here, okay?
And not that you think this, but I'm just going to say it just in case.
You're not weird.
This is not weird.
I've heard this kind of stuff all the time.
People will tend to shift into OCD when their life around them feels out of control in some
kind of way.
And even if you had good parents, I know that you all, like you told me and told us that
you went through some things culturally that were hard.
And so there might've been things that kicked in because of that.
Maybe there was pressure on being like the other kids.
And I don't know if this applies or resonates to you, but I have some other friends that
when they came from Columbia, they came to the US, they didn't speak good English in
the beginning and people made fun of them, other kids.
And so that really impacted them.
And so again, yours might not be that, it might be something else, but typically the
OCD will show up when there's chaos or brokenness and we will try to do those things to gain
control.
And so when that's happening, I want you to, there's, and I'm not going to do this as a
counselor, but I just want you to have this tool to use it.
There's like a tapping mechanism that if you will just like, I know this sounds so simple,
but it, it literally does work because I've done it.
If you will have both of your feet on the ground, like flat and just tap your hand slowly,
not fast on your leg.
What this does, it's, it's helping your mind come back into center.
Okay.
Whether you realize it or not, ladies, like just doing something simple like that, or
you could even tap your foot if you don't want people to see you tapping your hand and
you want to make sure you do it slow because your mind is racing and you want to calm your
spirit and your, that kind of that racing feeling down.
And that's, that's one way that you can do that.
Okay.
And it, it might come like, you might need to not like intensely focus on it to practice
it, but just start practicing it.
When you feel that anxious, those anxious thoughts start to bubble up a little bit in
you just give it a try and see how it works.
But then I also want you to pray and ask the Lord the first time that this happened for
you.
Okay.
And let's see what he shows you.
Like when is the first time you felt like your mind was racing and obsessing or, cause
I feel like that was probably happening before the OCD kicked in.
I could be wrong, but let's see what God shows you.
If the OCD patterns and the counting and that showed up first, then let us know that.
If the thoughts you might've done that counting to make sure to help calm your mind, but we
need to know which one came first and then come into the group and do a post to follow
up on that.
whenever you're ready. Don't feel like you have to rush because if you need time to pray about it,
that's totally fine. Okay. Okay. Because if this might, this might take us a couple times to
unpack this for you. Yeah. Thank you so much. And yeah, I feel like that definitely like with this
last week, like with what happened with my teacher, it was like bringing that to the surface.
So, okay. Yeah, you're welcome. And ladies, this is, this is really important. Okay.
Sometimes you're going to be in a session and you're going to get that revelation and you're
going to get set free right then from something. Okay. And other times we're going to have to walk
it out a little bit at a time because our bodies and our souls and our minds can only process so
much at a time. Okay. And so I just want y'all to have grace for yourselves and know that if
you need to cry, let yourself cry. I'm just reminding you all of that again tonight.
There is no shame in the emotions that you're having. Okay. Super normal. All right. Thank
you so much for trusting us. All right, Erica. And Oh, let me say this. It's nine 36. If anybody
needs to hop off, we love you. We are going to do, I'll do the supernova prayer over y'all at
the end. So you may want to come back and listen to that at the end of the replay. I did want to
hit a question real quick. And then Erica, I'm going to come right back to you. Um, I saw some
people were saying that they weren't in the Facebook group yet. Yeah. None of you are in
the Facebook group yet. Okay. This is brand new. And for those of you that are going to move to
phase two, we're going to be doing that in phase two as well. So there's a, there's a Facebook
group that's going to be for phase one. There's one for that we're going to be doing and reopening
for phase two, which is love story accelerator. And we, we already have one for our other group,
but you all won't go into that group because you're in heartwork. Do you see how that works?
You're going to stay with whatever group of course work you're in. All right. All right. I just wanted
to clarify that before anybody else jumps off, but Erica would love to hear what you have to say
as well. Okay. So I have like notes. So let me pull up my notes. Cause this has been
such a week for me. Um, such a week for me, which was honestly super surprising because it was sort
of a crazy week too. One minute. Okay. So first off, right. I noticed something I'm doing. I'm
getting better at the revealing for healing and I'm noticing it in like negative thoughts and all
of that stuff. However, there's one thing I'm struggling with and it's coming out of agreement
that I'm a little fuzzy on that. I'm going to be a hundred. So is that where like, I'll say, God,
I am not like that. It's more like, um, for example, one of the ones I used to put up,
I wrote it on a post-it note and I put it up on my mirror. When I was in the heartwork,
I come out of agreement with interdependence. I'm sorry. I come out of agreement with
independence. Sorry, y'all. I got to get it right in my head. And I come into agreement
with interdependence on you, God. So like whatever our struggle is. So one of my struggles, because I
had to take care of myself a lot as a young person was doing things by myself. I I've got
this. So I had to come out of agreement with independence with, I can do this without you,
Lord, or anybody else. Now I'm not saying I overtly was thinking those things, but subconsciously that
was in there. And so I needed to daily pray, God, thank you. I'm so thankful that you're helping me
out of agreement with independence and you're helping me come into agreement with interdependence
on you. Do you get it? Yes, I do. Cause like, I feel like I've been coming out of agreement
with things. Cause honestly, for someone who really struggled with control, I'm not having
that struggle very recently. Um, but as I'm working through these things, writing the letters,
I, I'm still struggling to know whether I'm okay to like move on or not. Like I'm thinking about it.
I've been praying about it. I've worked through the coursework. I've read through the chapters
more than once. I deeply journaled everything. Um, I noticed the one thing I'm still getting
stuck on though. Right. Comparing myself with my body. Right. I hate, I've hated the way that my
body looked and I'm getting better about it. I know that like the first time it happened,
it was my mom, right? My mom was really, really harsh on my body. My aunt had, um,
I remember when I was six told me that, um, she would punish me by not letting me eat.
And I think that that was, that hurt me. Right. And I guess ruined me in scarcity of food. So I
tied onto emotional eating. I prayed to God to come out of agreement. I prayed the forgiveness
prayer to forgive my mom. I do forgive my mom, but I'm struggling with coming out of agreement
with me being bigger. That's the only thing so far that I'm noticing, but I'm working on it every
day. My attitude is better. I'm not.
You know and you could probably tell just by the way that I'm talking because the first time I got on this like I was
A hot mess tears not everything
but
Yeah, I could tell a huge difference I can and so here here. Let me let me help you unpack this so
Ladies, we're not gonna be like completely healed in every single area
Okay, like you can still move forward and there's still gonna be heart healing that's gonna happen
I mean, even when people are in phase three that we now call the VIP area
Once a month I go in there or it might be other people in the future
But like do advanced heart work and we're doing helping people continue to unpack things that they're experiencing
So but what I want to say number one, let me just give some space to the fact that you were
punished and not allowed to eat
Well, let me be a hundred percent let me
Clarify it's it was a threat she used and my aunt is messed up in the head not judging
She has physical chemical imbalances from alcohol and drugs and stuff
so that's what I mean by messed up in the head like she you know, and I know that I just remember that and
You it's crazy how you were talking about comparison because I always compared myself so much and yes, I'm not perfect
I still do sometimes but I realize that I've been more healed
because
This year was the first year. I didn't get nominated for a Golden Apple, which is a teacher award
I've won awards before I would normally be devastated about that. I really
Am genuinely happy for everyone else and I don't mind so I know that that that healing is for me. I just
Want to make sure because this is a lifelong
Long process and I notice as I'm going more into God and this might sound crazy
the devil is coming not in more to me, but
Situations like for he's gonna raise rise up against you all for sure like on Friday
No, I understand. My dog got sick. My car didn't start. I went in for a breast scan
They found something on my jaw, which I'm but there were so many obstacles
Getting there
Yeah
the car not starting not being able to find my stepdad's keys my having to clean up after my dog driving from the West Coast and
I managed to get there in
Just the nick of time and you know, it's not cancerous or anything. They they caught it, but
Like it's just crazy the more that I walk into my faith the more I see him
one
And two were my other notes
You
How long so I do these revealing through healings and I think it's because I noticed every single time I have a negative thought
Like oh, I'm jealous. Oh, I'm being impatient. So I'm doing this
I'm like, oh crap. This is the devil and
I do the revealing in my head, but I feel like it takes like 10 minutes because I think okay
Well, I know that I was impatient because I was always worried that my mom would never get to me when I was a kid
I've prayed about that. I've confessed my sins to God. I
Written a forgiveness. No, my mom and I we've talked about this. We're like good now
But I still think about these things sometimes. Is that normal? Well, okay, let's just kind of unpack this a little bit
No, no, this is good. This is really good. You don't need to apologize. I want you all to remember
Let's let's just do something. I'm gonna be kind of silly here with this way. I think this will help
Can everybody just look at your hand and say hi flesh hi flesh
We all have flesh. It's okay that you are unneeded. We all have flesh
So the reality is is our flesh is always at war with the spirit, right?
So yes
Some of the things are because we have revealings for healing that need done and all of the things
but some of the things that we're experiencing is literally because our
Flesh is crying out for something that is opposite of the spirit. And so it literally can be
that
You know, um, no
When there are deeper things that we haven't processed yet, then that is different
And I can I like stay in the heart work and move on like just so I because honestly, I love this part
I love being able to connect with these women
I love being able to help my I heal myself just by hearing some of their things
Am I allowed to stay in both? Is that allowed? Well, so when?
So anybody that has that question, here's the thing everybody came in at different times
And so everybody has like some people have purchased different things than others
And so if you email admin at Jackie Dorman comm they can let you know the answer to that question for you
but I do want you all to know that
When you go into the next
phase under the courses tab the course material so the videos Jackie did and
all of that is in there for you. That does not have access to these live
sessions though okay but the team will clarify for you what you what you would
have access to and that's the quickest way for me to answer that question. Okay
I just I feel a big change in myself yeah I can see it and I don't want to
go not saying I will go back but I know me and my ADHD if I'm not constantly
reading something reminding myself of something looking at something it it's
sort of like object permanence where if you don't see it you forget it like I
don't know better here but just an example yeah and but here and I
understand what you're saying but I do also want you to partner with that God
can help you not just have to and then that's awesome you all I continue I mean
I still read the heart work I still go and watch the videos sometimes even
though I like I feel like I breathe it and eat it and live at you all literally
this is what I talk about all the time but like I want you to know that
literally at some points you will start to digest this stuff in such a way that
it will become like something that you know just like when we read the word and
we get revelation of the Word of God and we memorize scripture well what happens
that that gets written on our hearts right and then we can recall that when
we need it so Erica I want to encourage you if you know the healings gonna still
happen ladies things will come up as you move forward and God will help you but
I'm so glad to hear that you're feeling better that you've forgiven your mom for
these things that's huge and that you are doing the revealing for healing when
things are popping up so I love what you shared and I think that's super
encouraging and I see the growth in you and I'm glad you see the growth in
yourself to definitely for sure I just you're right it's flesh I struggle over
not struggle over and over like and I just I want to keep myself on my best
life going like I'm yeah and I'm reading the Word of God going to church doing
the things that you're doing and you know staying in the heart work and not
necessarily having to stay in this phase but I'm just saying staying in that vein
of like thinking on healing type things and really catching your thoughts will
all be really really good so I appreciate you sharing I'm gonna have
Jennifer share now and yeah we'll love to hear what you have to say I I
actually wanted to ask a different question because it's been coming up
recently what the homework is the the thought that keeps coming up repeatedly
is having once all the work is done with this program that no results will come
from it and trying to work through that yeah yeah I know this has been kind of a
thing that you've been battling a little bit what I can say is that again it's
allowing God to come into the root core place where you believe that lie and
bring his light into that place you know and so what I mean by that it is again
like when is the first time you believed that nothing would ever change
and asking God to come I mean Jesus is the light of the world so you're
inviting Jesus to come into that place and illuminate it and bring anything
that's in darkness to the light so that you can be healed and set free from that
thought and that lie because you know ladies I think what it is too is that
sometimes what will happen is you'll see someone else step into relationship and
automatically you think something's not working for you but what if it's all
aligning and God is you know aligning things up in the spirit realm for you to
meet your spirit mate at the the destined time because your spirit mates
also getting worked on and prepared you see like this isn't just like all about
us even though we are we are the ones in the program here right now but I can
tell you like you know Brian just shared on this love story that we did last week
in one of the other groups and he he did now I'm not telling when I say this I
don't want anyone to panic okay but Brian was in a process of healing and
preparation for six years and he said I'm so glad that I waited for her for me
glad that he waited for me. And I'm not saying you guys are going to have to wait for six years.
That's not what I'm saying. But what I am saying is he got to a place within himself that he wanted
to be with someone who was healthy and whole. And again, I'm not perfect. I still am healing,
but that I that would run the race with the Lord with him because he never had that before.
And he wanted to wait for that. And I wanted to wait for that. And so then when God brought us
together, genuinely, it was like the babies looked like, you know, like, like when Mary
and Elizabeth came together and John the Baptist left, you know, like God brought us together.
And that that that baby, the baby, the kind of things God was growing and preparing in us,
just like it met. And I'm not saying it was all like instant, everything hot, like,
so, you know, like, everything is different. But it's definitely been glorious and amazing. And so
I'm saying that to you to hopefully build your faith to that your past does not have to define
your future. But everything starts in our heart. Okay, our trend, our mind is, you know,
the Bible talks about that we would be renewed by the transforming of our minds.
All things would pass away and behold, everything would become new. Well, that happens when our
heart heals. Because we can read the Word of God, and we can read truth all day long, y'all. But
that doesn't mean we actually believe it in our heart. It's when we believe it in our hearts and
live it out, that everything will change, because then we'll think differently. You see how that
and Jesus and Holy Spirit to come into the place where you first had this thought that no matter
what I do, nothing ever changes, and bring light and truth and healing to that place.
Okay, and if you have a hard time identifying it, just be gracious toward yourself,
because sometimes ladies, when we go through things, we push them down real deep.
Okay, and so trust the timing of the percolating to the surface. I do believe you can absolutely
be set free from that. 100%. Okay. Yeah, but it's going to be walking it out.
Yes. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Makes sense. Yeah. Because like, it's like new programming. Okay. So like,
back in the day, this is going to date me. In order to watch a new VHS tape, you had to take
old one out. Yeah. For those of you that don't know what VHS tapes are, you can look it up
on Google. There might be some of you that don't, but like literally, like God wants to put a new,
he wants to put a new tape in, but we got to get the old tape out. Yeah. Okay. Thank you.
You're welcome. Let me know how it goes as you're praying about that. Okay. I will. Thank you.
You're welcome. All right, ladies, I for sure can take one more. I'm not sure if I will be
able to take another. Okay. I know Ashley had her hand up for a while. So I'm going to go with
Ashley first. Hi. Hi. My question is just, I feel like I'm struggling with knowing,
like how to process and like what that looks like. I know it looks like,
it looks differently for everyone, but just, I just like to unpack that a little bit more and
what that processing looks like and how we like knowing that since, you know, things can always
come up again later, come back, you know, what it like, how I know that like I've processed through
it fully at this, at this point. Yeah, that's okay. So is there something in particular that
you need help processing? Like give me an example of something. Well, this week,
I think I was probably doing a lot of distracting myself. I didn't really want to unpack any of it,
but also my kids were home. So there wasn't a lot of time to just sit and process that.
Like when you say that you were distracting yourself, cause you didn't want to unpack
anything. Was there something that you were working on that when it started to come up,
you felt that like, I don't want to go there right now? Um, when I, so, uh, Sunday morning,
I had a really great Saturday. That was when I posted all the pictures about all the things that
I did. Um, lots of time with Jesus, kids weren't home. Um, Sunday morning I woke up and I started
reading chapter seven. Um, and just those questions just downloaded like a massive,
like almost an
entire page of, um, not anything super drastic, but it was all like sexual
trauma related, not necessarily like trauma, trauma, but just like, that's
the easiest way to put it sexually related.
And I was like, Oh, well, that was a lot.
Um, that's going to be great.
Um, I want to make sure I get through all that.
I wasn't feeling a lot of fear about it at the time, but, um, I even had some
prayer about it at church and they just were like, it's just going to be easy.
Like, it's just going to be so easy.
And then we did a thing at church on Monday night for Rosh Hashan and
just prayer and worship, and it felt like I'd maybe done a good part of it then.
Um, but then just Monday and Tuesday, I was just like a mess Tuesday and
Wednesday, I mean, I was just kind of like a mess and just, I've just kind
of been all over the place all week.
So I feel like I've maybe been doing maybe some distraction and
thinking about other things instead.
Um, but also just like in the week before, I'm like, I don't know that I made it
through, like I went through it.
I think I'm okay.
I don't know.
Like what a, like a release feels like with it to be like, feel like that's finished.
So I'm just kind of get that process.
Um, just finishing week three.
Okay.
That's helpful.
Um, so what I will tell you is it sounds like you're numb a little bit.
Okay.
And so when people get to the end of week three, I think is when Jackie and her
video says, if you, um, are still feeling numb, you haven't had like a release.
You're not sure that this is working.
Um, we typically encourage people to go back and start at chap at the first week,
because sometimes when we come in, ladies, we have stuffed things for so long that it
takes a little while for us to actually start to feel again.
And even when we feel we, we might tend to push it back down, which is kind of
where, what you've done in the last week.
So that tells me that there is some fear around feeling, you know, what you're
facing.
Um, and one of the things you said that stood out is you said, that's a lot, you
know, and so in the, in, it might've been, but to me, when I heard that in the
spirit, it, it's almost like we feel like we're doing it by ourselves.
Does that make sense?
What I'm saying?
Um, yeah, I knew that I wasn't doing it by myself.
Um, and I've been meeting with our pastor's wife on Fridays to, for just a
little bit to get a little bit of chat time.
Um, so I knew I wasn't doing it by myself, but the, I think I was just surprised
this area was, was one that I, there's definitely more, um, like I knew it was
something that was going to have to come up at some point for healing, but I, um,
it was just a little bit more unsure about unpacking this one.
Like the other ones that have come up like a lot in my past.
And so those are all like, Oh, okay.
Well, nice to kind of get this, but like, just like kind of the process.
Um, you know, there's the, the forgiveness worksheets and the, and then
repentance and confession, but, um, just kind of like what else it looked like.
Yeah.
So I think if you can give me one example, you don't have to give me all, if you're
willing, of one of the sexual, sexually related things that came up.
Okay.
So, um,
remember just like an overall from it, like not being, being seen, um, or like,
it definitely stems from somewhere else, but the best example I can say about like
not being seen and, um, loved and valued for, for my body or being used for my
body, in other words, um, from my, from my ex, like, you know, when you're, you're
married and you're just screwing around with your husband, you're like, you flash
him.
Well, he was supposedly like always having eye pain and he would just either not, he
would pretend, I don't know if he was actually pretending, but he wouldn't see
me ever.
Um, and, um, there wasn't like a
excitement to want to have sex with me.
All right, so it sounds like there might be a little bit to
unpack there. So where I would start with that, Ashley is when
is the first time that your ex did not show excitement or
desire towards you physically? And what were the lies you were
hearing when that happened? Okay, so that would be like,
step number one. Then as you start to identify some of those
lies, I already know that you'll a forgiveness prayer sheet can
be done to forgive your ex for not showing you that desire and
love and affection the way that you needed it. Because ladies,
that is a part of the the husband protecting and loving
the wife. You know, I'm not saying like, we should always
every time every person wants it, we're always available no
matter what, like, reality. Sometimes sickness happens and
you just can't, okay. And you got to love each other through
that. Because marriage and love is so much more than sex. Okay.
But got part of God's plan is that the husband or the wife,
whichever one it is, will will care about the desires of that
other person and honor them. Okay, so there's some there's
some neglect in that. Okay. And so that's where I would
encourage you to start is those two steps is asking the Lord to
reveal the lies that you believed like when well, sorry,
step one is when is the first time that I wanted to be with
him or I showed like that desire and that was not
reciprocated. He was not showing me that he desired me as well
ask the Lord what that is. Then number two is what lies did I
believe in here during that time during that situation. And then
three, doing a forgiveness prayer sheet about that to
forgive him for not showing you the affection and love that you
needed in that way.
And like, is that it?
Yeah, yep. That's for now. Well, for now it is. Yeah. But as you
have stuff, as you have stuff coming up, and you're processing
this, I would encourage you to come in the group and tell me
what did God show you? I mean, my team will help too. But like
what it when when you prayed about this, or when you do pray
about it, what was the incident that happened? And what were the
lies you were hearing? Because there may be additional things
that we need to help you process from this.
Yeah, definitely didn't start with him. It was definitely
before that.
Okay. So yeah, start with whoever it was, who was who was
the starting point for you?
Um,
so I'm thinking about like, this was so such a weird thing that
God did. I don't understand it still. Mostly, I most I feel
like I sometimes have understanding of it. So I feel
like it has to do with like my first three boyfriends.
Packing like March, seriously, the first in order, my very
first boyfriend texted me totally out of the blue, he had
to search for me to find me. And then and then saw my second
boyfriend with my mom, we didn't talk to him, but saw him. And
then God absolutely told me to go. I was not going to go out
that night, because it was late. And it didn't make any literally
made no logical sense to go down there. And God was like, you
need to go. And I went and met my son, my third boyfriend, who
was like my first love. And his wife, they were on their
anniversary date. Oh, it's so interesting.
You saw all three of those different boyfriends recently?
Is that what I'm hearing?
Yeah. And like March, the first one just texted me. But what was
interesting is the first two. They, they didn't, you know,
they had touched me, but then the third one did. And then
until like, we'd been dating for out, no, we dated, like, at
least the whole school year. And, and then there was one
time where he, he did more than kiss me. And then I think, I
think it was him that broke up with me. And I think that kind
of set me on like, on the path where like,
well it wasn't this apparently this isn't what works like I don't know do
you mind if I ask for these first two boyfriends that didn't respect your body
how old were you 14 okay and and are you comfortable enough to tell us what that
means they didn't respect your body um just like in the chest just feeling my
you know feeling my boobs okay so they were wanting to do physical things with
you yes yeah yeah yeah physical all right did you use your voice and tell
them that you didn't want them to do that no shame okay I'm just I want to
kind of better understand kind of what you were going through okay so no no
what's interesting about that is when we talk about voice this also came up in
the same list was in sixth grade a girl choked me when I used my voice and told
her not to write on my school book she literally turned around and choked me
and I feel like that was revealed that like that was when my voice got lost I
would say a hundred percent yeah um so did you forgive that did you do a
forgiveness prayer sheet for that girl I did yeah good all right so the reason
I'm asking some of these questions is and this is how the unpacking that you
were asking about earlier that the processing is we ask just like I'm
you questions to discover more that we would ask God good questions too so when
this stuff is coming up okay they didn't respect my body but it's not just on
them and again now if someone forces us ladies totally different okay if you
felt forced in that then that's something that we need to forgive those
people for as well if you just kind of froze because you didn't know what to do
you you didn't do anything wrong but you might need to forgive yourself for
freezing but also let's ask the Lord Lord why did I freeze because there
might be something else to that I'm not saying there has to be I'm just
saying that typically when we don't use our voice and we just go into freeze
mode it could be that we've never had an experience like that before and we don't
know what to do totally could be that but it also could be that something and
happened before that point and that incident is triggering the other thing
and I'm not saying that's true for you I'm just I just and I don't want you to
be afraid I just we have to get to the root of what's going on here and it's
just gonna take some time so come into the group as you keep praying we now
know that these boys didn't respect your body the ones at 14 that's what we
know right now so let's start there with okay Lord why didn't I use my voice is
there anything else I'm not seeing that you want to show me and Lord was there
anybody before this time with these boys that I didn't feel my body was respected
and just see if anything comes up and again ladies stuff sometimes thing
things will come up right away and other times they won't it might come up
over time God loves you all of you and he knows the best pace for your healing
okay and so Ashley that's how we start unpacking this as you pray you come back
in the group and you tell me okay I prayed you're gonna either tell me one
of probably two things I prayed and it did start with these 14 year old boys
and this is some of the stuff God showed me about why I didn't use my
voice or whatever or I prayed and God showed me something before that time
okay and then I'm gonna I'm probably gonna ask you some questions back and
we're gonna process it or my team again Annette or Andrea one one of us will
respond to you and and start to help you unpack that more because we need more
information before we can actually coach you on how to move forward that
makes sense mm-hmm all right in the in the group when I've responded like to
your questions yeah I don't and I've hit like I've hit to reply to Bethany I
don't think you saw those well I was in I do have some work to do tonight but I
was in checking I got through all the ask a coach tab that I need to go
through the community tab just at all so I mean it was a while ago well I know
that someone else has said that and I hundred percent had responded to that
person so I don't know if you guys aren't seeing the responses or what is
happening but I know that all the like people that are responding they're
seeing my responses back because
they're actually saying stuff back to me.
And so I can go look for that.
I don't know what else to tell you right now.
Yeah, no, that's fine, that's fine.
It only goes back so far when I get on the site.
I can only get it to go down so far.
Like mine, I'd posted, I'd responded nine days ago
and it doesn't go back that far anymore when I get on the.
On the app?
On the app, yeah.
Or even on the website.
On your phone or on your computer into the app?
Both, I can't get it to go back down that far.
Yeah, so ladies, just as an FYI,
if you're on the app on your phone,
you can't do it with your desktop, only your phone.
And you're having an issue like that or any other tech issue,
if you shake your phone, this little thing will pop up
that you can report a bug, okay?
So I would love for you to report that bug
and let them know that it's not letting you see past,
you know, nine days,
because you should see further than that.
And that might be why you're not seeing my response.
Yeah.
Yeah, I think that's-
I thought it would pull back up in my notifications again,
but it didn't come back in my notifications.
And this is why we are doing the Facebook group.
This is a literal perfect example.
And so, but go ahead and report that bug
because we want them to fix that, okay?
And I would also encourage you to log out and log back in
and that might correct that a little bit too, all right?
Yeah, see, the thing is, is if we,
because even myself, ladies, I have to log out
and sometimes I have to click between tabs.
If I'm on my phone, I have to do a lot of clicking
back and forth to see even new posts
in the group all the time.
And so you all might need to log out
and kind of tap around on the tabs too
for it to refresh itself.
But again, some of the, a lot of this is gonna get resolved
in the Facebook group.
We're not gonna have as hard of a time seeing all of that.
Yeah, and I'm also, and I'm sure that some of you
So apologize if there's people that you're saying
you didn't get a response, but I clear out my queue
like on a daily basis, pretty much you all.
So let's make sure.
I know, I knew it was responding,
it was strange that I didn't, hadn't seen a response.
Yeah, so, and I'm messaging and responding
to some other people that I'm seeing there
in the chat as well.
So let's make sure that we're logging out and refreshing.
And so we're seeing the most current version
of what's in the app.
But Ashley, thank you for your courage.
Thanks for letting me ask you those questions.
Everyone else, thank you so much for sharing tonight.
Tammy and Lisa, please come into the group
and do a post so that I know what you wanted to share about
and myself or the team can respond to you as well.
Yes, to report the bug,
you're gonna do that on your phones, okay?
All right, let me pray over us.
Father, thank you so much for this night.
Thank you for everything that you've done.
Thank you for just the supernatural healings
that are gonna take place.
God, I thank you that even while the ladies sleep tonight,
God, I ask that you would meet them right where they're at.
God, that you would do supernatural heart surgery.
God, that some of them, they would go to bed tonight
and wake up tomorrow just feeling like different women.
God, we thank you that you would help us
to step further into the real us,
who you originally created us to be.
We thank you that you would remove
and heal any trauma from the past,
that you would reveal these areas for healing
so that we can step into your freedom and your truth.
We thank you, Father,
for your hedge of protection around us in this community.
We thank you that you guard and keep watch over us.
And we thank you that you are our defender
and we can trust you
and that you'll help us to believe that more
and more every day in Jesus' name.
God bless you all.
I'll see you guys in the group.
And as soon as we have that Facebook group ready,
I will put a post up in the app
and let y'all know it's ready.
And then we'll give you instructions
on what to do from there, okay?
Have a good night, everyone.
Bye-bye.
Good night.