Hello. Happy Monday night, everyone. Welcome for our 8pm session. I'm so excited to be
here. I want to welcome all of you, all of my ladies returning. Hello, welcome back.
Who are my new ladies? You've never been with us in a live session before. Tonight is your
first night with us. We'd love for you to put that in the chat for us so we can welcome
you. I'm not sure if we have any what I would call our newbies, but welcome if you are brand
new. We're so glad that you've joined us on this journey as well. All right, Ashley's
a newbie. Welcome. We are so excited to have you here with us. Angie's new. Awesome. Awesome.
Ladies that have been been here before, welcome the ladies, please. It always feels really
good when those that have been here already welcome those that are brand new. And so tonight
we have some great things in store. As always, I do want to remind you all a couple things
just I've been seeing and it's not bad or anything. No one's in trouble. But I always
love to bring this every couple weeks anyways, as a reminder, because ladies in general,
we tend to be helpers. Okay, that's a part of our calling to be the helpmate for our
spirit mate one day. But sometimes that can get out of alignment and get overextended
where we don't know how to turn that off. And when you're here in the heart work, journey
and course, we encourage you to be receivers to practice receiving everything that you need
to come in and cheer on your sisters, you can say, Hey, I'm going to pray for you. You can
say, man, I really loved what you shared in your post that really spoke to me or I got revelation
too. But we don't want you asking other women in the group questions. Okay? Those of you that are
taking the course, your role here is the receiver, not the helper, not the fixer,
not the coach, not the peer coach. That's my job. And that's Andrea's people that are on our team
here. And the reason I always love to remind all of you is some people are just natural helpers.
Some people have been or are currently coaches or counselors or leadership in ministry or just
really amazing leaders. And so some of you all have a hard time turning that off. And so this
is your friendly reminder to go ahead and turn that dial down and not step into that. This time
is again, for you to practice receiving and cheering people on without crossing that boundary,
because you're going to need to practice that even as you step into relationship with men,
practicing your boundaries here of not being the fixer, not being the helper, you know what you
need to find a man that doesn't need you to fix him and help him all the time. So this will be
really great practice for you. Because sometimes ladies, we just can't help ourselves. Can we?
We think it's our job to fix those men. And it's not. It's not our job. God is working in them.
And we can be the helpmate and the partner to cheer them on, to pray for them, to intercede.
And when God calls us to, to help them in the way that he asked us to. So for those of you that
struggle to turn that helper off, this is your time to practice. And I'm so excited to see you
make that shift. I'm going to go ahead and pass it over to Annette. Go ahead and do that additional
housekeeping for us and then pray ascend, please. Okay, sounds good. Welcome, everyone. It's good
to see you all tonight. Just a couple things, putting the plug in again for Supernatural
Saturday. This last week was unexpected in the direction that it went, but it was so, so good.
And one thing that really stood out to me this last weekend was when God's super meets our
natural. That has really stuck with me and blessed me this week. And I know that you will all be
blessed as well. If you weren't able to attend, listen to the replay. It's always rich in wisdom
and God's wisdom for us. So the last thing is we love your posts. We love getting into the group
and being able to respond and interact with you and give you feedback. Also, it's always exciting
to see how your sisters are encouraged by your posts and your, when you just step out, encourage
and share something that might be really difficult for you, but that also might be what triggers
one of your sisters or enables them to have the courage to be able to stand up and share
something that they're struggling with and that we can come in and coach you around and ask some
questions and maybe just go a little bit deeper. So keep showing up and keep dropping those posts
for us to be able to share with you. Okay. All right. We're going to go ahead and pray now and
get started. Dear heavenly father, I thank you for the blessing of this community in this group.
And I thank you for the privilege of being able to gather together tonight.
And your word says
that were two or more gathered in your name, you're there. And we welcome your Holy Spirit
to lead, guide, direct, to reveal powerful revealings, God, that help us to step into
alignment with the truth of who you say we are and what you say over the things that have happened
in our lives. And I pray that for each lady on the call tonight, that they would just be still
and hear your voice and come into agreement with what you're trying to teach them and show them.
Bless Bethany tonight as she speaks, may your words flow through her. In your name I pray. Amen.
Amen. Praise the Lord. Thank you so much, Annette. I'm so excited about where we are going
tonight. Always am. You guys, I love this. I love coming in here and releasing additional content
for you to meditate on and think on, but also for you all to get breakthrough. It's like one
of my favorite, favorite things. And so I'm believing for that tonight. I put in the reminder
in the app notification. I don't know if y'all saw it, but come expecting God to heal and to
receive something that you need to shift you into that additional upgrade that God has for you
tonight. So we're going to talk about identity tonight. And I want to right out of the gate,
get you all talking to me in the chat right now. So I'm going to ask you a question and I just want
you to fill in the blank. Now, when you fill in the blank, I don't want you to filter this.
I don't want you to put your, I have to be a good Christian girl pants on. Okay. Now, if you think
something that follows in that, you know, kind of falls in that area. Awesome. But if you don't,
what I'm trying to say is I don't want you to like, make something sound better. I want you
just to be real authentic and genuine. Okay. So here is the question. I'm going to say the question
and then I'm going to have you fill in the blank. So don't answer the question part, but I want you
just to fill in the blank. Okay. So I didn't want that to be confusing. Here's the question.
What do you tend to think about yourself? Fill in the blank. I am blank. What do you tend to think
about yourself? I am fill in the blank. And go ahead and put those in the chat for me as those
come up for you. Lisa says, I am beautiful. Anyone else? I am a woman who tries so hard and desperately
wants to be the best they can. I am quiet. I am hidden. Not getting it together. I'm never doing
enough. A quiet person. I am lost, meandering, quiet. Well, that's come up three times tonight.
I am not enough. I am undateable. Interesting. I am judgmental, reserved, chosen. I used to think
I am not enough, but I'm working on that. Awesome. I'm a good person. I'm broken and hypocritical.
I'm strong yet trying too hard to... I think she's probably finishing that thought. Too much.
I am me. I am creative. I'm worn out. I don't measure up. I am strong. I'm not confident.
I'm a work in progress, needy. Any others? You guys can keep putting those in the chat if those
come to you. I'm compassionate and feel hidden. I'm critical. I'm unlovable, even though my name
means the opposite. All right. I am not ready. I am caring. I am nice. I am too much. I'm going to
talk about the quiet one. Interestingly enough, while Annette was praying, I was writing some
things down on my paper as the Holy Spirit was giving me some things. So we're going to talk
about and unpack some things that you all are partnering with that I believe the Holy Spirit
has said tonight that He wants you to come out of agreement with. And this is what I wrote down.
Fat, stupid, weird, and shy. Those were the four words I heard in the Spirit. And not all of you
those things, but I feel like some of you might think one or two or maybe all of those things.
But the interesting thing about it is that it doesn't mean people can't ever have an introverted
personality where they might be more like they're the kind of person that needs some quiet time.
I actually am an introvert. I know you all might not believe it, but I love being with people. But
there are a lot of people that I've partnered with. I'm quiet. I'm shy. I'm, you know, these
kind of things that actually a lot of the reason that's happened and the reason they've become that
person is because something happened along the way and the enemy convinced them it was better to
pull back and be quiet and don't speak. Don't let your voice be heard. Don't let your heart be known.
Don't, don't be that bubbly version of yourself. You got to dial.
it down because you're too much. You know, all these kind of things, ladies. And then
I wrote down, I know this is not true, of course. But again, a lot of people struggling
with body image issues or the fat thing wanting to come up stupid and weird. I hear these
a lot. I want you to be thinking about as I'm continuing in the content tonight, how
many times have you had a thought like, Oh, that's so stupid that I thought that or I'm
so weird, you know, or I'm so awkward or any of those kind of phrases or thoughts that
you might have had along the way. God wants you to come out of agreement and alignment
with those things tonight because that is not who he has made you to be. And those are
not statements he wants you to be claiming over yourself. What thoughts are you currently
aligning with that are not God's truth over you or to you or for you? Something that came
up on the prayer call this morning as I was praying that I want to also release to you
all tonight is there are a lot of people that are struggling with, you know, we think sin
is always this overt, you know, stuff that, you know, the lust in the sex before marriage
and the drinking and the addictions. And yes, it is all of those things, ladies. But you
know what? There's these kind of unspoken sins that we don't talk about as much that
are really growing rampant all throughout the world. Sins like grumbling, complaining,
bickering, fault finding, being a negative person, having a critical attitude or mindset
or heart posture. And I want to encourage you this morning, the Holy Spirit led me to
call the women in this community to repentance to come out of those places and spaces because
God did not want us to be in those places. And so many of us, it's not even just us.
It's what's come down through our family line. Some of you don't even realize that you're
up against not only your own battle, but you're struggling with this stuff because it came
down. You heard it from mom or grandma or dad or, you know, your sisters or your aunts
or whoever it was. Maybe it was teachers. I don't know. But you've heard this stuff.
Maybe you've been listening to it for generations and not realizing that this is not a part
of who God originally created you to be. He's calling you to be a kinsman redeemer, that
person that is going to pioneer some change and transformation in your family. And sometimes
pioneering is like an outward, like we're just going and changing the landscape and
the space outwardly. But y'all, sometimes it's this quiet, inward choice and thing that
we're doing where we're saying, you know what? I don't want to continue to live in
this negative heart posture, this negative mindset, this critical attitude all the time.
I'm going to choose to come out of grumbling and I'm going to stop complaining about that
situation or that person or that thing. And I'm going to choose to see the gold in them.
I'm going to choose to see the gold in that situation. Now, I'm not asking you to go and
around toxic people. Don't misunderstand what I'm saying. I always feel like it's important
to bring that balance. But what I am saying is some of you, the fault finding, man, you've
just parked your RV there, if you will, and you're living there. But that is never where
God intended for you to be. And some of that fault finding is even towards yourself. And
so, really important as we dive more into identity tonight, for you to be thinking about.
Remember last week, I talked about Adam and Eve, you know, when they ate of the fruit.
Well then they knew that they were naked and God's like, who told you that you were naked?
Well, the reason I started doing that last week is to set up this week, because those
two weeks tie together the real you and your core identity. Who does Christ say you are?
And are you truly living into that identity? Who and what are you currently getting your
source from, your identity from? What you've eaten, is that where you're getting it from?
And what do I mean by that? Well, I mean this. We all have taken in trauma through things
that we've experienced. Some of us have chosen to step into sin and we've, so to speak, eaten
the fruit. And that's led us into hiding. That's led us into other things, other behaviors
and heart patterns and postures and the ways that we're thinking and feeling. And other
times, other people have done things to us. Or, here's another one, ladies. Sometimes
our family has gone through something and we've witnessed that thing. It has impacted
us and our families, but it didn't happen directly.
directly to us.
And the example I gave this afternoon
was when I was in fourth grade,
about eight or nine years old,
my mom, my oldest brother, and my sister
were hit by a drunk driver, and it was very serious.
My mom, thankfully, was okay.
My oldest brother was in a coma for months.
My sister had to have brain surgery.
It was a whole big thing.
Y'all, I was eight or nine years old.
My mom was gone at the hospital a lot.
I went to the hospital.
It was very scary seeing my sister, her head's all bandaged.
You know, my brothers all like huddled in this, you know,
coma, he's got all these things and cords.
And then even after he came out of the coma,
and even after my sister came out of the hospital,
she had to have like,
we had to have someone come up to the house and tutor her
because she couldn't go back to school for a long time.
My brother had to go to rehab
because he literally, when he came out of the coma,
didn't remember how to do anything anymore.
Legitimately, y'all.
He had to go to a place to learn how to do everything again.
So this was in another town, another city,
and my mom had to go with him.
So who do you think was with me
if my mom was a single mom and my dad was gone?
Well, thankfully I was able to stay with my grandparents,
but even though I know my mom now,
I'm old enough to understand now,
my mom had to go and take care of my brother.
My mom had to go to the hospital and take care of my sister.
And I could even kind of comprehend it back then,
but the reality is I believe the lie that I was abandoned
and I wasn't as important as my siblings.
Now that's not truth,
but I'm just telling you the lie of the enemy
that he presented to me.
And I was not in a place
to be able to fight that stuff off.
I was just a little kid.
And so maybe your situations aren't the same as that.
Maybe you went through something different,
but some of you, your families went through things.
And when that happened, you were young
and you also believed some lies
that came into the core of your identity
that are still impacting you today.
Who or what are you currently getting your identity from?
Number two, is it something
that people said to you or about you?
So what have people said to you and over you?
Is there anyone that's ever said
that you're never gonna get married?
Or I've had women in this community tell me
that someone said they're an old maid and they were young.
Y'all, they weren't even older.
Someone said this over them 20, 30 some years ago.
And guess what?
Unfortunately, because they didn't forgive that,
they didn't even know until God brought it up.
But because they didn't know to forgive that person,
they've subconsciously been partnering with that.
Do you see how this stuff works?
So what are some things that people have said over you?
I want you to be jotting things down as they come to mind.
Maybe an ex, y'all are fighting
and they're just saying horrible, mean things over you.
Maybe it was your mom growing up.
You'll never amount to anything.
I don't know why.
I just always say whatever comes up in my spirit.
So I don't know if someone's mom or dad said that to you,
but you are amounting to something
and you've always been worth it.
You've always been worth it.
Number three, are you getting your identity
from things that the enemy says about you?
Yes, those people were being used by the enemy,
but I also like to bring some differentiation to this
because sometimes we hear things directly
from the voice of the enemy in our mind,
in our subconscious, in our spirit, in the soul area,
and we don't always know how to fight that stuff off.
I've had people just talk to me a little bit even about
when depression and suicidal thoughts come out of nowhere.
Some people have never had any thought about suicide
and then all of a sudden,
here's these really crazy thoughts
that they don't even matter and why are they even here
and all of these things.
That is from the enemy,
directly from the enemy to assault your mind
and to steal your life.
Or are you getting your identity
from who God says that you are?
I wanna encourage you,
we're gonna build on what I had you do earlier in the chat.
I want you to now write down two to three words or phrases
that come to mind right now about who you are.
Don't hold anything back,
write down exactly what you hear or think.
Who are you?
And you can write this on your paper,
you can put it in the chat
if you want two to three words or phrases.
And as you're doing that,
I want you to start thinking about.
your root system, I likened it to this.
If you guys can kind of imagine, here's the soil, okay?
I'm gonna pretend my hand is the soil.
And everything underneath there,
the roots underneath of there
are all attached up into that soil.
And I want you to be thinking about the things
that go into your soil.
What are the nutrients in your life?
You know, what are the things that you're allowing
to come into your mind, your ears, your heart?
You know, is it TV shows that are toxic
or filling you with a bunch of hatred
and just chaos in the world?
Is it people that you're surrounding yourself
with friends or family members
that just really don't have anything good to say
and they're not people that build you up,
but they're just, they tend to be negative.
Or maybe you might be some of the lucky ones
or really blessed ones who tend to surround yourself
with some really amazing people and that's awesome.
But I want you to be thinking about that soil
and how important the soil is, remember?
Everything, the roots are all connected up into here.
Now we have unhealthy roots and we have healthy roots.
And we're gonna talk about that a little more here.
But everything in the soil, you all, everything in here,
everything that's in here eventually
is going to come out of where?
Our mouths.
Our heart, out of the overflow of the heart,
the mouth speaks.
And even if we don't speak it out of our mouths,
you all, we think it and we tend to act on it.
So what have you been acting on this week?
Your thoughts that are out of the overflow of your heart
that haven't led you in a heavenly direction?
Okay, because I asked you,
go ahead and put down who you think you are,
but now let's unpack it a little more.
Do your thoughts about yourself line up
with heaven's heart and thoughts about you?
And maybe you're like, I don't know.
What is heaven saying about me?
Well, we can look directly to the word of God for that,
but we can also ask God to give us something fresh
every single day from the heart of heaven for us.
Luke 6.45 in the NLT version says this,
a good person produces good things
from the treasury of a good heart.
And an evil person produces evil things
from the treasury of an evil heart.
What you say flows from what is in your heart.
Anybody said anything negative in the last week?
Anybody thought anything negative in the last week?
See, we all tend to do this,
but so often we're just kind of going about our life
and we're not slowing down and actually thinking about
where did that thought come from?
So I want you to start doing that.
I want you to start slowing down
and really looking at where are the thoughts coming from
that you're having?
Is it coming from the heart of the father?
Is it coming from a wound that you've been through?
Is it coming from something that someone has said over you
that you are now partnering with?
Are your roots giving you life
or are they causing you to decay slowly or quickly?
And how can you tell what's in your roots?
Well, we're gonna look at the fruit in our lives.
And I'm gonna read some things to you
to help you kind of start to like,
no, okay, what is the fruit?
What are the roots?
This is from the heart workbook.
Excuse me, I got to turn to here.
And I try to tell you all the chapters
just because my physical book pages
are different than your ebook, but it's in chapter five.
And this is what it says, fruits versus roots.
Fruits are the emotional or physical manifestations
and the subsequent actions, okay?
That's really key.
Fruits are the emotional or physical manifestations
and then that those actions,
remember the actions are part of it
that you have been taking as a result
of what you actually believe in your heart.
Fruits may include sickness, self-pity,
a victim mentality, despair, suicidal tendencies,
disgust and judgment.
Just a side note, if you have a problem with judging others,
it's because you have a fragmented heart.
A judgmental heart is a hurting heart.
I'm gonna throw out here as well.
I didn't say it this afternoon,
but if you get offended at the drop of a hat, ladies,
that's a heart issue in you.
We should not be so easily offended all the time.
And if we are, we need to be willing to look at
what's going on underneath the surface here.
What's causing that offense?
I'm not saying that there's not things
that other people don't do.
That they shouldn't that we get offended by but there are some people literally on a dime. They're offended
They're offended about this and this and this it's like constant if that's you again, there's no shame
There's no judgment, but I just want you to be willing to be honest with yourself
Some more fruits that we can look at our obesity perversion
addiction sexual dysfunction
Hopelessness, so if you're someone where you just you never have hope you really really struggle with that hopelessness again
That's a fruit of what's going on in the heart hatred self-hatred. Just so you know all forms of hatred begin with self
Hatred you cannot hate someone else without hating yourself first
Here are some others
abrasiveness short-temper irritability jealousy envy
competitiveness comparing
gossiping
Backstabbing being unhappy ungratefulness
Selfishness having a poverty mentality if you are habitually negative unfaithful or have any form of dis disease
disconnection
Discontent and disappointment you are suffering from a broken heart
And we could keep going on ladies. Someone asked me this afternoon. Well, is there don't all people have these things?
Well, yeah, I think to some degree we do
But here's the thing if we were like it's different if you go through something and you feel disappointment in that moment
compared to living in a heart posture of
disappointment
Where that is the lot that you're living in. Do you understand what I'm saying?
If you tend to think negative things a lot of the time
There's a reason that that is where you're currently at but that is not God's heart for you
God has a plan for goodness and fullness and fun and joy all the fruits of the Spirit love and joy
peace kindness
goodness, so if we're living in negativity and
criticalness y'all that is not that is not us flowing in the fruits of the Spirit and
Really we might want to ask
When is the last time I've been filled up with the Holy Spirit?
You might be running on empty maybe a little past empty
Okay, so let's be looking at those things and really ask the Lord to reveal areas for healing that are needed
I'm gonna have a net share what God has put on her heart for tonight for us as well
Thanks, Bethany
One of the things I did heart work I started in the group in
2020
So I have been in process for a while, but when I was thinking back
And one of the big things that God really did in my heart
When I was in the heart work portion was the verse that's
Mentioned actually multiple times in the word, but it says love your neighbor as yourself
and
For the first time that really sunk down. I understand we're supposed to love other people. I knew that
But I heard what felt like for the first time the love yourself
and
that really took me some time to process through because I really had a
deeply fragmented heart and
To say
Self-criticism and self-hatred was rampant in my mind
Towards myself
But I would try to
Be kind and show love to other people, but we can't give to other people what we don't have ourselves
and I wasn't truly walking in the confidence and the assurance and the faith of
the love that God has for me to allow that to flow out freely to other people and so
Honestly ladies the conversations that I would have with myself and the things that I would say to my own self in my head
I would never say to anybody else
Never I wouldn't speak those things over anybody, but I was okay speaking them over myself
Because I didn't even realize it and so when I was going through my heart work
It brought up it that came to the surface for me almost immediately and it hit I have been in process
Since then and in any much. What is it that Joyce Meyer says?
I may not be where I want to be but thank God. I'm not where I used to be
and
that that rings true in this situation because I'm able to recognize it now and
Step out of agreement when those thoughts come up or when I start saying things to myself
That really I wouldn't say to anybody else. So why am I speaking them over myself?
When God, I'm a creation of God,
I'm fearfully and wonderfully made.
I'm a daughter of the King.
He has given me gifts and talents.
I truly believe all of that.
And so those things that I was speaking over my own self,
now I come in alignment with what God says about me
and it has shifted my mindset
and enabled me to really truly,
I mean, it's what enables me to be here in the group.
And I hear your posts and your struggles
and the things that you're sharing
with kindness and compassion and grace
because I've been there or I experience it.
And I know what God can do in all of our hearts
when we're in alignment with what he has to say
because that has proven true in my own life,
especially in that particular area.
So that's my wisdom from the net.
Life experience.
I love that.
It made me think about,
I don't know if y'all have ever seen the movie, The Help.
That movie just blessed my heart
to seeing all the whole thing just in general.
But the part that I wanna share tonight
that came up in my spirit as you were talking in that,
it's literally my favorite scene in the whole movie.
And it's when the main character in the movie
is caring for one of the little children
and she's in the bedroom
and having the little girl repeat after her.
And she says, you is kind, you is smart, you is important.
And it's the cutest scene ever, but this is the thing.
The reason it impacted me the most
is I was just thinking, here is this woman
planting these powerful seeds in this little girl
that could change their trajectory.
And it was one of those moments where I'm like,
I could just imagine that being me.
That makes sense.
And so I want you to be thinking about, even in that regard,
not only who are the people that spoke negatively over you,
but I feel the Lord kind of prompting me
to get you all to also think about
some of the people that have spoken positively
over your life.
I think that we need to also do that this week
because sometimes it can get really tough
when you think on all the negative things.
So I always like to bring balance there as well.
But that scene came to my mind
and that little girl and the tapes and the things.
And when I saw that movie for the first time,
literally you all, it impacted me so much
that I made signs and I put them up in my girls,
my spiritual daughters bathrooms.
And I used to say that to them all the time.
And I still will text it to them from time to time
or send them that movie scene
because I think we all need to remember
those simple kind of words like that,
that you're kind, that you're smart,
that you're important, your dreams matter.
Like God cares about the things that you care about.
And even when the enemy comes in like a flood
that God wants to and is raising up
that standard against him.
We're gonna go ahead and talk a little bit about vows
before I get you guys ready
for the breakout session tonight,
specifically inner vows.
So not the vows when you go to the altar,
we're not talking about that tonight.
We're gonna talk about inner vows.
Those are a determination set in our mind
and our heart to protect us from pain.
It's basically something subconsciously
that we have done typically a determination
set in our mind and heart to protect us from pain.
Most often when we go through trauma
or difficult situations,
there are vows that we make on the inside.
And I'm gonna go through some of those here
in a little bit, but those show up later in our lives.
And sometimes we are stuck currently without knowing it
because we made a vow in the past
and that thing right now is hidden.
And so Romans 12, two says,
do not conform to the pattern of this world,
but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.
Remember your mind and your heart are connected.
Then you will be able to test what God's will is,
his good, pleasing and perfect will.
Yeah, I want you to understand a lot of times
this just that reminder that we don't believe
that God is a good father
because so often we need our mind and our heart
renewed and transformed.
This is not about behavior modification, ladies.
It's about literally shifting our heart's healing
on the inside and that that is what is causing
the changed long-term like behaviors
in the ways that we're living.
Okay, so we're not trying to just be good.
Okay, everyone understand? All right, I'm going to keep going.
The soil in our hearts is super important. So this is from I believe chapter eight. Yep,
thriving, not surviving. That's the name of the chapter. It's okay, if you're brand new,
and you're not in that chapter yet, you can just hear what we're saying tonight and absorb it.
And it will help you even maybe process that a little bit more when you get to that point.
But I want to read this to you. This is about inner vowels. And this is what it says. But
even though you won't be able to replace the actual events that happened in our lives,
so we can't go back and change anything. We can't change things we did, we can't change
things people did to us. But we can replace the lies we believed. And most importantly,
the vows that we made as a result of those things. When we experience these hurts in life,
they make us sad. And when we're sad, that's when anger shows up. Think about it this way,
you think of kind of like a, like a tower of emotions, sadness is underneath, always. Okay.
And then you have anger or frustration, flip those sometimes people feel frustration before
they feel anger, rage is all the way at the top. Okay. So if you're feeling any kind of rage,
anger, frustration, underneath that surface, somewhere is sadness. So we want to get to the
what, where is the sadness? When, when was I hurt? When did I experience brokenness? Okay,
remember that as I keep going, anger is always the defender. And some of you all when you get to
some of those final weeks, we have that self preservation techniques, sheet avoidance came
up this afternoon. avoidance is something that we can do as a self protection mechanism as well.
All right. So anger is always the defender, it always shows up when those wounded, vulnerable
parts of our heart feel threatened. So that is when we tend to make vows. When anger is around,
we feel strong. And we start to make these inner vows, nobody's ever going to hurt me again.
I don't care about anybody. I can't trust anybody. I will never turn out like my mother or father.
I won't be made a fool anymore. Nobody is ever going to tell me what to do. I can't tell anybody
about this. I will be perfect from now on so that nobody can reject me. We make a decision
to harden our hearts and it makes sense at that moment. We think if we make these vows and build
these walls around our hearts, we can keep all of the bad things out. But unfortunately,
walls are good at keeping things out but they are not good at letting things in.
And to stop surviving and start thriving, we're going to have to let a lot of things
into our hearts, ladies. As the lies and their corresponding vows are emerging,
we have to replace them with the greater truth of God's Word. Okay, we have to replace these
vows and these lies we've been believing with the greater truth of God's Word. I'm going to give you
a couple more inner vows. These are things I thought of as well. In addition to that,
it might sound something like, I'll never date or marry a Larry again. Maybe it's not Larry for you.
Maybe it's John. Maybe it's Andrew. I don't know what the name might be. Maybe it's I'll never
date or marry a man with a certain ethnicity. Maybe I'll never date or marry a man with a
certain type of job or I'm never going to let my guard down ever again. Do you ever make statements
like that, ladies? I want you to be asking the Lord to reveal to you if there's any inner vows
that you've made. And maybe your inner vow sounds different than the ones I've already read tonight.
Here are some other things. Do you ever make statements with words that include always,
never, nobody ever picks me? I'm going to go into some of these. Always or never, they always do
that. Maybe somebody always leaves you out. Maybe somebody always is quiet when you come into the
room. We got to look at where's that coming from. I always get passed over. Men never come through
for me. Men never pick me. Men never pick heavier women or thin women. Pick it, you know, because
it's not just women that are heavier set that think these things. Some of our very skinny women
think that they're never going to get picked because they're too skinny. Y'all, it's the enemy
just is so busy, busy, busy trying to get us to believe whatever lie that he's selling us today.
I'm never seen or I'm never noticed. My voice doesn't ever matter.
Okay, the always and never statements are signals that we have inner vows at work.
So if you're not sure what your inner vow is,
Might have been or might be I want you to start with where are you making statements?
with always or never
Maybe yours is this is never really gonna happen for me
And I know there's people that have said that
But I want to encourage you to come out of agreement and alignment with that tonight
So I'm gonna get you ready for your breakout session
Your question tonight. You can answer either one. Okay, because we're talking about
I'm sorry, I gotta find my question. We're talking about
These negative roots and the fruits that show up in our lives
We're talking about that tonight and we're also talking about inner vowel so you can talk about either one of those
Do you have an inner vowel that's coming up in your spirit that God's revealing to you tonight?
Do you have unhealthy negative roots that are just creating this really unhealthy fruit in your life
And is that what you want to talk about? So the choice is yours tonight ladies. You can talk about whichever one you want
All right
Let me get these ready
All right
I'm gonna give you seven minutes
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Give me one minute ladies have someone I'm gonna bump them around
All right, father we just thank you so much for what you're doing even right now in the breakout rooms
Thank you for revealing for healing that are happening. Thank you for helping ladies get connected
We thank you God for truth and hope and life
Coming into every area God. We thank you for just bringing
hope and
Grace in the midst of the hardest places of our hearts God
we thank you that you would just kind of till those areas tonight and help us to come into greater revelation and freedom and
Insight we thank you God for helping us to see what we can't see if there's inner vows
Calandra, did you get kicked out?
Are you oh, no one's in your room. Do you want to go into a room?
Are you just okay because I know you were in the afternoon session
Okay, all right
So father we just thank you that you would come in and just bring
revelation to the areas of brokenness of the past where we've created these
These vows and we partnered with these lies that keep us bound and stuck in ways that we can't even comprehend
But Lord, you know at all, you know our beginning from all the way to where we are
You know everything in between and I thank you Lord that you would just come in and continue to reveal these areas for healing
that you would bring just
Lord that you cause things just to bubble up to the surface and that your your truth and your enlightenment will
yes, Lord that they would just come and
Bring freedom and truth to the hearts and the minds of those as they remember them as they believe them God
We thank you that you would just areas where women have felt stuck for a long time
God that you would just connect dots really quickly that it would be like a
supernatural acceleration of healing and breakthrough we thank you that even in
Revelation 12 9 through 11, it says then I heard a triumphant voice in heaven proclaiming now power and salvation are set in place in the
kingdom reign of our God and the ruling authority of his anointed one are
Established for the accuser of our brothers and sisters who relentlessly accused them day and night before our God
Has now been defeated cast out once and for all we thank you God that you are for once and for all
Defeating the enemy in our lives that we are no longer going to be captive or
Slaves to the weights of these unhealthy heart past heart postures
mindsets belief systems the negative
You know lies that the enemy is just trying to say
Hey
Come take this bait and come come feel like and believe that you've got to compare yourself to other people that you're never gonna measure
up
That you're never going to be enough and God is saying you are enough because I make you enough
Allow yourself to become more rooted and grounded in the love of the father in my heart for you
And as you get to know my love more and more and more i'm gonna
Cause these areas in your life to flourish in ways that you could never ask think or imagine and God is lovingly
Calling us into abundance in and hope in joy
Psalm 147 3 through 4 in the passion translation says he heals the wounds of every shattered heart
He sets his stars in place calling them all
by their names
I love this scripture because it always reminds me of the truth that if god
Cares about naming every star about setting them all in place
How could he not care about me?
How could he not care about you
He cares. He's like such an intentional god that he literally positioned all the things where they are
And he gave them a name
He could have just literally just called them stars or he could have called them nothing at all
A little twinkle up there, you know, like he literally
called things
their names and and even gave us a name and
So many times we don't even fully understand or comprehend his goodness towards us and so tonight let it be a reminder
that he
Loves us that he's working in the little things. He's working in the big things and everything in between
and that he's he's literally
Um calling us further into the fullness of his plans and promises for us every single day
Ephesians 3 20 through 21 in the passion translation says this
Never doubt god's mighty power to work in you
And accomplish all this
He will achieve infinitely more than your greatest request
Your most unbelievable dream and exceed your wildest imagination
He will outdo them all for his miraculous power constantly
energizes you
Don't you love that he will achieve infinitely more
Than your greatest request and so many times people are like well
I've asked god for things for a long time and he's not coming through for me
well, maybe it's because
A what we're asking for actually will harm us you all I I begged and I pleaded for that prior relationship
I thought I wanted to marry that guy you all I did
Praise god god loved me enough to keep that guy from me and he never asked me to marry him
Because it would have been a disaster
Literally y'all there's no way I would have been happy in that
He cheated on me over and over and over and over and over again
And yeah, if that was happening in my dating relationship, it was gonna happen in the marriage
And so god loved me enough
He protected me and led me into a wide open space you all with a beautiful brian waiting for me
And so I just love thinking about that like god loved me so much that he prepared brian for me
And god is preparing your spirit mate for you
As well romans 8 30 through 32 says having determined our destiny ahead of time
He called us to himself and transferred his perfect righteousness to everyone
He called and those who possess his perfect righteousness. He
Co-glorified with his son. I gotta let let these all come back
So what does all this mean if god has determined to stand with us tell me
Who then can ever stand against us for god has proved his love by giving us his greatest treasure
The gift of his son and since god freely offered him up as the sacrifice for us all
He certainly won't withhold from us anything else he has to give
So does that sound like a god that's a trickster that withholds blessings from us he gave us his son
He won't withhold from us ladies
He won't withhold his good things. Okay. I think I have everyone back. Welcome back
I'm going to go over the activations for this week really quickly
And then i'm going to go ahead and come to you for our group coaching time and so activation number one
I want to encourage you all to track your thoughts this week. Okay, so I want you to be paying attention to
Your thoughts how many negative thoughts are you having?
How many positive thoughts are you having?
What you know how many times have you not caught your thought and it's taking you down the road for a mile or two?
or three or four
Maybe 20 miles y'all if you're like me
Sometimes i'm all the way down the road and i'm like, whoa, wait a minute. Wait a minute. That isn't
That isn't the lord. That isn't god's truth for me. How did I get all the way over here? Oh
It started with that initial thought and then I believed that lie and I went with that for a little while
So, you know that you're not alone and that God wants to help you the Bible says he it encourages us to take every thought captive
every thought captive ladies and make it obedient to Jesus Christ and according to the word of truth and
Lord I like to add in quickly Lord help me to quickly take those thoughts captive and make them obedient to your truth
But we have to know the truth in order to make our thoughts obedient to the truth, right?
So if you want to know the truth read scripture read some scriptures. Jesus's words are full of truth in life
Activation number two. I like to call it roots and fruits roots and fruits
So I want to encourage you to do this drawing remember I always love to remind you all you don't have to be artist
It literally can be super simple
The goal is to get it on to the paper
Okay
That's the goal. The goal is to get your roots and your fruits onto the paper
Every single one of us has unhealthy roots
Unhealthy fruit good roots and good fruit. Some of you have some really good things happen in your life right now
We want to know about those two, but I'm gonna show you some examples again
You don't have to do yours like this, but I just do this to help you all. Can you all see my screen there?
Yeah, all right awesome, okay, this one's an example here of a lady
Um, she worked on the fruits or excuse me the roots
Um, and she identified good roots and and unhealthy roots and then also some root wounds
Um, she didn't go into all of the fruits, but that's okay again. This is for you
It's for you to whatever you feel comfortable doing or feel led. But again, these are just ideas. Here's another one
One of the things that she did is she identified on the tree trunk areas what the unhealthy
Roots were and then she on some of them if you can see on the far left the fear of rejection
She has lies that she was believing connected to the fear of rejection a couple of them
I can't read them all but you are inconvenient
Hide out behind the scenes
So basically she was believing the lie that she just that's who she is
I just hide out behind the scenes and I I don't like to be seen and all these kind of things and that wasn't true
And God was calling her out of that. Okay, I'm gonna keep going
This lady was is a teacher if you can't tell I love this. This was her personality coming out here. Very descriptive a
Presentation board, but she has childhood perfectionism childhood abandonment childhood rejection
Those are three big areas and then that led up into adult perfectionism abandonment and rejection
But then she also has the lies connected to those. Okay ladies again, these are just things but she also put in there on their truth
I love this. I will find my husband. I am worthy. I deserve God's best
Again make this your own pray and let the Holy Spirit lead you some of this ladies these activations
It's about you growing in your ability to trust
That God is leading you. Okay. Here's another one
Super simple super beautiful. I love this. She has the negative
roots and fruit and the positive roots and fruit and the ones that are positive roots and fruit have the
Leaves in the color growing on them the ones that aren't don't have that again
Super simple, but beautiful and perfect you guys can do it that way if you want you can do it on a computer
Here's an example
Great another great one. These are all awesome. Here's another one on a computer
She didn't label all of her roots. She just put the the things on up at the top again
You guys can just do whatever you want. This lady is more creative
And so on the far left side left side
She did it all kind of in black or the like the dark browns
Those are the unhealthy roots and fruit and then the ones that are yellow in orange are the healthy and then she put in there
The Holy Spirit because the Holy Spirit's working in those. Okay. So again do whatever you feel led to do. The goal is to
take quick action
Take quick action on the activation and when you're finished with it to post it into the group and share that with us
We would love to see it. All right, I'm gonna go come over to Alice first Alice
I would love to hear what you have to say tonight
Hi, how are you good so
Mm-hmm. This is something that I guess I have been struggling with for a while and
I was telling the girls that is
I'm not exactly sure if this is just
things
that people said over me or it's also my own projection, but I'm having a hard time currently
doing things and there are these words that keep floating in to my head that
I can't do. I keep failing because I was a failure in the past.
So I never finished a university degree. I did four years of conservatory as a
pianist. I did one year of medical school. I did one year of psychology over the internet
and when I came to the United States, I got a radiology technician certificate and
a paralegal one, but I never actually finished my education and it's still a big
big problem. I mean, I'm close to 50 and my mother still talks about it and you guys
already know that I'm staying calm with the non-patients, but God has been
working. I see him working. I mean, he provided financially for me in an absolutely fantastic way
and I know that you guys prayed for me for that. I see him working in me and then somehow,
even though I keep telling myself that I am his daughter, that I am precious, that I am made whole,
I still find myself so fatigued, so exhausted and not able to feel like I
become successful, you know? So Alice, thank you for sharing that. When is the first time
that you didn't finish something? Like, could be even when you were little. When's the first time
you didn't finish something?
Well, I mean, so because I was playing the piano even when I was a kid,
I guess I never finished playing the piano in church. There was the pastor's brother
was the guy that was playing the piano and he was gone for like a week or two because he was
either on vacation or something. I don't know. He wasn't there. So they asked me and I played and it
made me so happy to do that for God and then he came back and I mean, the way he looked at me
kind of like, I'm going to kill you if you ever play again. You're not going to come
take this away from me. So that was, I've never played piano in church ever again.
I mean, that was just, that was done, you know? So are you saying that you didn't play again
because you were afraid of getting hurt? I mean, I don't think that he would have,
you know, physically hurt me, but I've never felt at home in that church and it was,
you know, it was a Baptist church. It was under communism. I mean, we were all persecuted, right?
But it just, I got to know God not through that church. It was me and him, you know, and
and my grandparents. So did you want to keep playing and you chose not to because of that?
I didn't have room to do that. I mean, it was, it was made very clear that I wasn't welcome,
you know? Okay. Have you ever forgiven that man or those people? Yes, I did. Oh, I went through
my list. I did. I did. I went through everyone that I could remember. Yeah, I did. Okay. Awesome.
That's, that's the starting point, number one. But one of the other things I want to encourage,
you know, you or anyone else that struggles with finishing, it's really interesting.
I'm not even kidding this afternoon. I actually spoke this over myself. I am a finisher.
I want you all to really partner with that. I am a finisher.
You know, so often the enemy will try to convince us that it
If we haven't finished something else, that we're definitely not going to be able to finish
another thing.
And then if that pile just keeps growing, the shame keeps growing.
And I think what's happening here is that, you know, part of it is maybe you were just
trying to figure out who you were.
And the shame though, that's kind of coming in and messing with your mind about this stuff
is that, you know, you're just never enough.
You're never finishing.
You're not doing this.
You're not doing that.
But what about that you did start and that God can help, you know, if there's one that
you need to finish that he'll give you the capacity in the endowment of power and enablement
to finish.
But you have like, we have to come out of alignment and agreement with the lie that
we can't or won't finish something and partner with, I can finish.
I am a finisher.
And then choose to take action or a step towards finishing that thing that we feel called or
led to do.
And so my question for you, out of those things that you went to school for, were there any
that you felt like really, or even the piano, because it sounds like you really loved that.
Are there any of those that you can take a step towards this week, just to see what might,
you know, what God might say to you about it or how he might want you to help or to
help you walk that out?
Or is there any of those that you just, man, when you did them, you felt passion, you felt
alive, you felt joy.
I did.
I mean, I, OK, so I interrupted my, my, my piano career because I, I was told that I
had a scholarship here in the United States.
And it was a lie when I came here.
I mean, and this was, again, done through the church.
When I came here, I didn't even have a place to stay.
So I kind of backpacked through the East Coast of the United States, which is absolutely
crazy, if you can even imagine that.
But I ended up actually staying with this Jewish lady, a connection through, you know,
my parents in Atlanta, Georgia.
And I did actually, I went to Georgia State and I auditioned.
And I did get a scholarship, but it was starting the next, like, summer or fall.
And, and I was in, in December, November, December was when I had the audition.
So then I would have had to wait six months.
But when I came here to the United States, I came as a Canadian citizen, so I couldn't
stay over six months.
So then I left, I went to Canada.
Very long story short, I went back to Romania and I started both.
I started going back for piano and I started my, my medical school.
And while I was in Georgia, I applied for the green card to come to the United States.
And I won, but the people that received that mail that I received, that I won the green
card lottery, didn't tell me.
So when they finally told me, I had, I don't know, two months left until I had the
interview at the embassy.
So I, my mom just, sorry.
It's OK, I'm going to have you pause there for a sec.
Have you ever considered, like, giving piano lessons?
I live in the hill country, like really out in the boonies.
OK, do you have a car?
I do, yeah.
OK, so you could travel to where people are that need piano lessons?
Yeah, I never thought about that.
Yeah, I feel like, I feel like maybe part of the thing, and it doesn't mean that you're not
going to have a different career in piano, but I think if that is something that brings
you joy, maybe just shifting the way that you're trying to accomplish it right now is
going to be key for you.
And so, I mean, I have I have literally when we were in our church in Indiana.
The guy there that played, I mean, he had like a grand piano.
I mean, he was amazing, but that was what he did for a part-time job is he gave people
piano lessons and he's fabulous.
And so I want to encourage you to pray into that because I feel like, you know, sometimes
ladies, if the door we're knocking on over and over and over and over isn't working,
it doesn't mean that it won't ever work, but maybe we need to shift the door that we're
knocking on right now and take the other door that might potentially be there to get to
the long-term goal, right?
And so I would just say, you know, as I said earlier, partnering with, I am a finisher,
okay?
You can be a finisher.
And maybe you weren't called to do those other school things, but maybe you were doing that
just as a way to potentially create money or whatever, you know, kind of makes me think
of Abraham and Sarah.
Sometimes ladies, we try to make our own solutions, don't we?
Right.
And I'm not saying that's true for you, Alice, but that's what comes to mind.
Sometimes we do kind of go in all these different directions, trying to figure out the solution
for ourselves when maybe it's right in front of us.
And so just be praying into that, Alice.
I think, you know, people in this day and time, you make some business cards, you put
some flyers out there on social media, ads are super cheap on Facebook, literally promise
you that we do it all the time.
And you could put your name and stuff out there and potentially get clients and teach
people how to play piano.
And that might open a door to other things that you don't even see yet.
And again, I'm not saying you have to do that.
Do not, please do not write in if it doesn't work out.
Bethany told me I have to do this.
No, I'm just saying, explore that.
Explore that and let's see where that might take you from here on out.
Sounds good.
Awesome.
Thanks for sharing that with us.
Alana, go ahead.
Oh, you're muted if you're talking.
I'm sorry.
I can tell she's working on it.
I'm sorry.
Thank you for your patience.
It can be tricky.
It was a big deal for me to figure out how to raise my hand.
It's all right.
You're doing great.
How are you?
Yeah, pretty good.
Last night I did the silhouette activation and I posted that and I think it was a good
activity for me because last week I felt I had trouble seeing that I was more valuable
than like, you know, or precious than like rubies or something like that.
So I did that and when I was doing the words that I believed I felt the words like I felt
used like and damaged were words that came to mind or dirty.
So I crossed those out on my activation or and I started writing words that like beautiful
but that was harder or precious that was harder or cherished words that were harder for me
to believe.
And so what I realized is like I drew on my picture like my heart with like bricks in
front of it because I've been told since I was a long time that I have walls built up
around me and I didn't always know why or what and I just knew that the blood of God
would break that down and one of the reasons I wanted to share why I felt dirty and stuff
that came to mind because I've been falling asleep fine, but then I'll wake up at like
four or something and so I journaled and I did a forgiveness thing for myself.
But when I I traveled on Safari and I've traveled around the world multiple times.
I've been really blessed that way and and I was traveling and I would my tour guide
sometimes I was in you know, I was in a group and I would hook up with the tour guide because
I was lonely and I was just I don't know.
I just had a discontented heart and I would and one of them, you know in Tanzania was
was married and so, you know, and then and then I crossed the border because it's cross
the border in Kenya and I did the same thing like it was in two weeks and that was two
different partners.
It was awful and there's been other countries too, you know, and I just feel like who would
want that?
who, you know, I thank God, I don't have any STDs or anything like that. And I've changed who I am. But, um, I just, I feel so ashamed and shame about that. Um, and not knowing how many partners I've had, I'm not doing that anymore. And so I wrote a forgiveness
to, um, I'm embarrassed to tell somebody in the future that I don't even know. I don't necessarily have to go there, but I don't know, guys. And that's so I'm shamed about that. I'm guilty about that. And I forgave myself, you know, I tried and I, I've kind of done this one before, but I could see it was like a deeper level. So I knew I had to do it about that particular thing. But I've just been, um, you know, I've been on the final week for a bit, you know,
and I just am like, I think I should stay maybe because I still am struggling feeling I'm treasured. And so I wrote that I'm treasured. And I wrote that and I'm going to hang it by my bed. Yeah. So I just was, I wanted to admit that to you guys. Um, yeah,
you know, I'm not, I'm not, I'm not going to tell you how I feel right now. Um, but again, I want you to just be aware of what led to those decisions, because that's what we need to get to the root of. Okay. Um, you mentioned, you know, some loneliness or, you know, kind of things that you were feeling. Um, but I believe God wants to come in and heal the, like the core of who you are. Um, you know, we don't, I'm not excusing any of our behaviors, any of us that have made unhealthy choices, but the reality is this ladies, like there's a reason that we give into type of, um,
temptation. It is our flesh, but there are also times where we believe a lie or we don't value ourself because of something else we've been through.
And that can lead us into these kinds of decisions and whatnot, but whether you feel it or believe it or not yet, there is absolutely someone out there that will love you 100%, no matter what your past is.
And I'll tell you this ladies, again, I know that I mentioned this to you before, and you kind of referenced it. You don't have to sit and tell someone, everyone that you've been with, you don't have to tell someone that you forget the people, you know, that's real.
And if you're with someone that's wanting you to tell them all that stuff, that's not healthy. I'm just going to tell you that right now. Okay.
Is it, um, when I was doing my activation last night, I was doing it, but I wasn't necessarily feeling like I wasn't crying while I was doing it. So I knew there was more. And I knew maybe I was just waiting for this group. Is that weird to not, you know,
No, here again, remember it. You're not, you guys aren't weird. Okay. Some of you are going to have emotion when you do this stuff. Some of you are going to have no emotion at the time, but the emotion might come up for you at a different time, like tonight or another time, you know, it's about what is God trying to do in you.
And when you're doing some of that, you might feel a little numb, Alana, because of, you know, the shame and the guilt can cause us to push people away, including even like, um, this is going to sound kind of funny, but this is where people can come in and not that you have this at all. I don't think you have a split personality, but this is where people can start kind of separating inside of themselves from themselves in a sense, because it's like, you know, that you're
there doing that thing. But has anyone ever had an experience where, you know, you're kind of you're there, but you almost feel like you're looking down at the situation? Anyone else ever had that? Well, that's where we literally are. We're actually like, we don't really want to be there in that moment in that situation, even sometimes the ones that we've chosen. And so we will kind of, in a sense, separate from that moment. And that's how that kind of stuff will happen.
And so I want to encourage you just to continue to really love on yourself. Well,
continue to follow the Holy Spirit in this process. He'll show you when you're ready.
to move forward, ladies, okay?
It's okay if you get to week five
and you just are like, you know what?
I'm not sure I'm ready.
I've had some ladies, Nadine,
who just moved forward like a week or so ago,
she stayed in and when she got to week five,
she felt led to go back to the beginning and start over.
And she really was glad that she did
because there were things that God revealed her,
to her the second time through
that she didn't have revealed in the first time.
So that might be something you wanna consider, Alana,
if you're still feeling some numbness
when you're going through these processes
or things like that,
or really, really struggling with the shame and the guilt,
which it sounds like is what's happening.
Because again, ladies, remember that healing happens
in layers and so does forgiveness.
So if we've got all these kind of things stacked up,
I'm kind of pretending like this is all kind of stuff
stacked up in my heart and soul.
Well, round one, sometimes of heart work,
we'll kind of get the top layers off
or a couple of the top layers.
But some of us might need a little bit more time
to get into the stuff that's underneath here.
Does that make sense, everyone?
All right, so Alana, great job.
I'm so excited for you.
I'm so glad that you wrote
the forgiveness prayer sheet for yourself,
that you did the silhouette,
even if you didn't feel something,
you still did it and that matters.
And so let's just keep praying into some things.
The last thing I wanted to say though to you
before I go on to Megan Gaston is,
you said, someone told me that I have walls around my heart.
And that might be true,
but I want to encourage you
to come out of agreement with that, okay?
Because I believe that God is taking those bricks down
and that you don't have a wall around your heart anymore.
I'm gonna tell you what,
somebody who has a wall around their heart
isn't gonna confess what you just did in our group.
All right?
Thank each of you that said something to me
that was really great, thank you.
You're welcome.
This is where the magic happens, ladies.
This is a safe place
and we have confessions that happen all the time
and it helps people move forward
in ways that you can't even imagine.
So everybody that's here tonight,
we may not ever all be here,
all these same people like this ever again.
And so those of you that are here,
I believe that God is really ministering
not only to Alana, but to you in this process
and just knowing that you're safe here too.
All right, Megan, go ahead and share with us.
We'd love to hear from you.
I kind of wanted to start off
with like a little bit of a praise report.
So like this weekend,
I got to have a bit of time to do some more of my hard work
and God really just stirred in me.
There was like a question about like, what do you want?
And like, there was this part of me
that really thought about the children I would have one day
and that's like a dream I've really like shoved away.
So it was just really precious
just to have that time with God
and for it to just come forth.
And it was just really, really special.
And then I had gone up for prayer on Sunday
just to really break off like just this fear of abandonment.
And one of the ladies, she actually is in this program,
she's in phase two that I got to pray with
because she kind of knew some of the things going on,
but she just really felt about God's adoption
and wanted me to kind of like
sign the adoption papers with God.
So I got to do that, which was just a really great moment.
But then when I got home,
of course the enemy tries to come in and attack,
but there was like this job I had applied for
and had done some interviews,
which I'll tie in a little bit in a second too.
And it said that they reopened it again
cause I haven't heard anything back.
So it caused like all this fear and like let down and stuff.
And so I tried to like take the thoughts captive
and was like, okay, I'm gonna focus on the promises
that God has given me and try to like capture those.
And then one of the big things that kept trying to replay,
which kind of ties into what you shared a bit tonight
was like, what's something that someone's spoken over you?
And like recently, one of the things that was said
was that I'm too shy.
And like my work, they just feel like
they don't want me to progress
because they think I'm too shy.
And so then when I was interviewing for this other job,
they kind of were asking about like how I'm going
and stuff.
And I felt like that word wanted to come forth,
but I tried to like.
Flip and I said, I'm more reserved,
but I feel like the enemy really like attacked me
because I used that word.
So that's kind of like all the things
I've kind of been going on right now,
but I was like, so tonight when you said that word shy,
I was like, oh, that's definitely like spot on.
So when is the first time that you partnered with I'm shy
or I'm more reserved?
I definitely think more in my like,
like between like 10 and early teens.
I think especially when that was like the first,
we've moved a lot, but that was like the first move
that was like really conscious for me
because when we moved to Scotland, I was two,
but then when we moved back to Ireland
and did a different part, I was eight and a half.
So for me, this was like the first conscious move
where I also had to change schools and start over.
And that's, I think when I started to get a lot more
reserved and shy and I got bullied a lot around that age,
especially from like 10 all the way up to like 14, 15.
And so very much I kind of enforced being even more shy.
So let me ask you a question.
Have you ever sat and thought about the girl,
the little girl part of you,
like who you were before that move happened
and parts of yourself that may be shut down
during that time?
No, I haven't yet.
I think that that's what I would like you to do this week
and really ask the Lord to show you parts of yourself
that shut down because of the move and the bullying
and all the things that were happening in that time.
Because as I heard you describing it,
it sounds like you shut down parts of your personality
and you might be more reserved.
There's nothing wrong with that ladies,
but I have a feeling that you're actually more bubbly
and kind of just a very, very friendly person,
which to me, I'm not saying people can't be shy,
but typically again, us partnering with shy
versus being an introvert, there's a difference.
You know, where we just become labeled then,
but it oftentimes is because at some point,
like in this situation, something happened
and then you kind of went into isolation
if you think about it, right?
That is totally different than being introverted
and choosing to go in and get recharged
and then go back out.
I don't just stop being around people.
I don't stop coaching.
I don't stop doing the things God has called me to do.
But y'all, you know, I've had people speak over me.
I had one of my closest friends say, you're too serious.
And y'all, I say things all the time.
I think I'm funny.
Now, everybody might not always think I'm funny,
but I think I'm funny.
But some of that has come because I've just allowed myself,
like I remember literally where we were
when she said it to me.
And I was just like, I don't receive that.
Like, I don't need to be like this person or that person.
I can just be myself and I think people are gonna like me.
Now, I've grown a lot since then,
but some of it is we have to reject.
We have to reject that stuff
that's not supposed to be honest
that other people have said
or that we've even partnered with and agreed with.
So let's start with that time
when you were eight and a half or so
and see what the Lord wants to reveal
from those memories in that time.
You know, forgiving people that bullied you,
Megan, is gonna be an important part of that.
So you might wanna pray
into some forgiveness prayer sheets, okay?
All right, awesome.
Thanks for sharing that.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
Mikayla Martin, go ahead.
Yeah, one thing that I've kind of been thinking about
and I really appreciate everything that everyone's shared.
It was very, very relatable and thank you for sharing.
One thing I've kind of been thinking about myself
just this week, just reflecting is,
it's kind of like what Megan was saying.
This shyness or this kind of reservedness
that I don't think was really a part of my true personality
when I was a child.
And I think I developed it kind of later on
by some perceived rejection.
And I just have thought like,
and when I say like,
I feel like I'm such a terrible flirt.
Not like flirting in a bad kind of way,
but I feel like with men,
I just struggle
to interact with them in a way that is like open and carefree and just kind of like inviting.
And it's just, you know, I was telling with my partner, like, you know, guys, I just look down
at my shoes, you know, like I'll smile and then look down and it's, you know, it's like, I struggle
with this fear of like, you know, being too flirty or like, or flirting with a guy and he's not
interested in me. So then it's like this perceived rejection kind of thing. And I've just realized
that that has so kind of just, it's kind of, and that and other things, it's like, it's made my
world kind of small. Like, sometimes I still have, like, almost like fear of talking to people,
sometimes even in public. And I don't think people would really see me that way. But it's like these
thoughts that kind of just start bombarding my mind of even at work, like, oh, people don't
listen to you or they think your opinions of nothing or whatever. And it's just these things
that kind of, it just makes my world kind of small. So I actually realized like this past weekend, like,
you know, even things on social media, like I don't share a lot on social media and my
privacy settings are like up all the way because I work in a public school. And in a way though,
it's like, it's kind of kept me boxed in from even other people seeing about my life, you know?
And so I think that's something God's been kind of showing me. It's like a fear of rejection or
people attacking me or disliking me or whatever. And so it's just made me kind of make my world
smaller. So I think God's been showing me. Thank you for sharing that. I'm just curious. I don't,
I don't know why I'm having this thought. It might not have anything to do with you. It could
be somebody else in the room tonight, honestly. But did you ever see your mom flirting with guys
and didn't like it or did you ever? No, she was like the opposite. Like I never even really saw
her flirt with my dad. Like she was like abused as a kid and she was like very not that way at all.
She really didn't like male attention. Do you know anything about her mom?
Her mom was kind of similar, honestly, very hard kind of personality towards her husband
and they got divorced and she was not the most, I would say carefree kind of, you know,
yeah, like not, I wouldn't say flirty, but like almost the opposite. Kind of like hard,
like they were kind of men bashers. I hate to say that, but. No, it's okay. Yeah. It's so weird. So
I saw total opposite. So I'm very intrigued why that's what I saw, but it does help me kind of
some of the like things that you're having to overcome though. Because it's not this here,
like the more I asked you, you're like, okay, grandma actually was harsh towards men. Mom kind
of was too. Mom went through some hard things. All of this is stuff you've grown up with,
you know? And so even when you might be normal, okay. And just trying to flirt or interact,
there's subconscious things happening underneath the surface because of things that you've heard
or seen or witnessed. And that's what I kind of saw was, which is, again, it's very interesting
that I could see someone flirting and then there was a perception happening, but it actually was
the opposite. You're saying that mom didn't even flirt with dad. And so I'm kind of curious about
this, you know, what does it look like now for you to have a healthy relationship and flirt when
that was never something that happened? And so I think that's the opposite, kind of that balancing
thing that's happening. You're learning how to do something that you've never witnessed. You've
never learned it from your biological family, but it is possible. So I want to encourage you. So
you said you struggle to look at men in the eye and you struggle just talking to people in general.
So here are two assignments for you this week. You don't have to try to flirt with guys, okay?
But I do want you to practice when you're walking by guys, whether it's at work, on the street,
in a store, that you practice looking at them in the eye and just say hello. Okay? You don't have
to do anything else. We need to get you to a place where you're practicing just these basic, like,
interactions with men, looking them in the eye, saying hello. So you might say, well,
I might not see men. Guess what? You can take a field trip to Home Depot and walk around the
store even if you don't buy anything. This is how, ladies, we go practice this stuff. So if this is
standing out to anyone else, I want to encourage you to take the assignment as well. It's a great
practice. We used to do this all the time back when I was in the
group, going through boot camp and things, but that's assignment number one.
Assignment number two, you said you have a fear of talking to people, you know, and things,
so I want you to practice when you're out and about in a place where it's not someone
you know.
Just it can be a simple thing.
You're asking them for directions, you're asking them for, you know, what'd you do this
weekend, if it's a person that you do know, where you're just having, again, these basic
conversations and you may have those fears rise up in you again, but remember, fear is
false evidence appearing real.
We need to get to the root of what's causing the fear, but also go against the fear to
overcome it.
So to get out there and face the fear and do the opposite of it, okay?
So instead of pulling back and not engaging and not talking to people, you're going to
go out into the community and you may even want to just research just something fun to
go do, you know, to take some of that pressure off.
As far as talking to people, you know, maybe you go to a craft show or something and you
walk around the booths and you inquire at a couple of people's booths.
I'm kind of just making this stuff up as I'm going, but that could be a great way to get
out and just practice talking to people.
You know, where you're talking about their art, you know, what do you like about something
that they made?
And then just know that as you do that, pay attention to any of the things that you're
hearing that are negative, any of the lies that are surfacing.
And then when you have those, come back into the group and do a post about it and then
we can kind of start unpacking where those lies came from for you.
Okay.
Yeah, that's great.
Yeah, I think it's going to be really, really good practice for you all.
And yeah, some people I saw Yesenia said, I don't have experience flirting.
I don't know how to at all.
And some people have had the same experience.
They don't know.
And as you guys go through the remainder of our program, if you choose to stay in the
program, we actually have some content on flirting and the power of woo and all kinds
of stuff.
You know, Jackie's super creative with some of the titles.
We have content on sex within marriage and all of that as well.
So want you to know, we have plenty of content to help you guys with pretty much anything
you can think of.
But yeah, Michaela, try those out and then let me know, or you know, Annette or Andrea
may answer you, but let us know how that goes.
Okay.
Awesome.
All right, Emily Darling, and I know we're at 933.
So if anyone needs to log out, totally understand.
God bless you.
If you go, I'm going to let Emily Darling go and Catherine Clark and then we'll close
down for the night.
I think one of the biggest things that I've been struggling with lately, and this past
month has been a struggle in general, just because I've been transitioning from living
in a previous apartment with a roommate and to being by myself in a room in a apartment
by myself.
And, but one of the things that I've always struggled with is the perfection to avoid
rejection.
Like my heart just like immediately contracted.
And then after that, and just sharing with, or hearing Karen and Alice as well, I think
something else that came up was I've always been partnering with I'm strong enough.
I don't need any help and I definitely don't need to be married or need a man in my life.
And I ironically saw an Instagram post by a guy who's in his early thirties talking
about how like he's struggling being a single male and if he's ever going to get married.
And I said, I just basically said something super supportive.
Like I'm 35, I've already been diagnosed with fertility issues.
Like I understand, like it's a great, it can feel like a grieving process.
And literally some person I've never met and have no idea because obviously it's a public
Instagram post said exactly that, that you're a strong, independent woman, you don't need
no man.
And I was like, that is what, like, what does that have anything to do with anything?
Well, I mean, that's somebody just using that as a platform, you know, because
Right.
But like all the other posts around that like were a bunch of women and like the for whatever reason
based on the handle I would assume is a man but who knows picked mine it just was so random to me
that it would just be mine. Well it's not really random okay so here's what's happening ladies when
we are postured in a certain way in our hearts we actually attract that stuff to ourselves
okay so for example when I didn't walk in my value and worth I attracted takers I attracted
people that walked in narcissistic tendencies and all these things and so I have we have to
kind of look at what is it that's in our heart what are we posturing in that's drawing that
stuff to us so I'm not saying it's your fault I'm just saying that what is it the areas that
need healed in your heart it it unfortunately does attract that stuff to us and so you know
I want to encourage you to come out of agreement with you know the lies that you know you're just
better off single that you know you don't need people's help so your assignment right out of
the gate I'm giving assignments as we close tonight who else wants to go but I want to
ask the Lord who do I need to ask for help and what do I need to ask them to help me with
who do I need to ask for help and what do I need to ask them to help me with and even if you can
do it yourself that you won't do it yourself but you'll actually ask them to help you I've had a
couple ladies that have taken me up on this assignment and they instead of driving themselves
to the airport felt led to ask someone to drive them to the airport one lady felt led to ask
someone to help her with piano lessons you know just all kinds of stuff and so there's something
about coming out of agreement with the lie that I don't need anybody's help and I've just got this
myself because we all need community we all need people God created us for family you are and so
the enemy's tactic is to try to get us out of that and to go into isolation and withdrawal
and just these places and heart postures and you know again you I'm all about being a strong woman
okay I am but in our culture it's gotten so out of balance that it's just this whole feminist
movement and and now our you know our tv shows for years have made men look like they're stupid
like they don't have a brain that we don't the women don't need the men the men are just these
toys and get out of here kind of even the kids like get out of here dad kind of behavior you
know let's not like let's really look at how are we partnering with that kind of stuff in our hearts
you know so as always when is the first time that you partnered with the lie I don't need help
I couldn't even tell you but my inkling would be sometime in my childhood
um and so you want to pray into that it's okay if you don't know tonight because sometimes you
all don't know right then and I don't want you to force something I want you to really pray into that
and ask the Lord to reveal to you when is the first time you agreed with the lie
I don't need anybody's help yeah I think yeah
um I know I can feel it in my spirit it's it's stemming from every time I've asked for help as
a kid it was never given or at least it wasn't given in the way that I was hoping it would be
and so then I was just like well if people aren't gonna help me though either the way I
needed or whatever then I can just do it by myself or they'd force help on me and I wanted
to do something by myself like okay and so there might be some forgiveness prayer sheets to do
oh 100 yeah so um this seems like it's leading into some places where forgiving those that didn't
help you or they didn't help you in the way that you had hoped but also forgiving the times where
it was forced on you versus allowing you to develop your confidence in certain ways or to
be able just to try something on your own and see how it went um and then again just keep praying
into that that's a great start I have a feeling that there's going to be more um and the I don't
need a man also pray into that one typically that that actually I've been able I feel like
um how I had done said that in the past
Um, but not like, so when that person or bought or whatever, put that there, I was like, that's
not true.
Like, you know, if God calls me to singleness, then he will, but that's not true.
And I don't feel that call.
So yeah.
But you said that tonight, so I want you to pray into it because again, ladies, this can
come from somewhere like maybe somebody else was saying it, you know, growing up, um, maybe
somebody else has said it to you as a friend, maybe someone that they're, you know, even
people in church, you all, they think they're being helpful.
And sometimes they're saying stuff that is not helpful at all.
And it's actually, whether you realize it or not, it's pushing you backwards in the
spirit, right?
So we gotta be really aware.
And again, we don't have to receive every word that someone says to us.
We don't have to receive things that people say that are not in alignment with God's plan
and purpose for us.
So be praying into those practice, asking people for help, and let's see how that goes
this week.
Sounds good.
Awesome.
Thank you for sharing.
Catherine Clark, go ahead.
Okay.
I got the, I got the, I got the unmute button working.
Yeah, I just like felt it strong on my heart to get it out and like let it out with, um,
like some of what I was sharing for Saturday, Supernatural Saturday, because, um, now that
we're in the heart work part of this tonight, it's just a ladies, there's the hard part
of it to really discuss.
Um, October is a very triggering month for me because four years ago, my son's father
asked for a divorce and told me he was gay and all of that.
And um, I guess I realized at the time I kind of just focused on my son, focused on work,
focused on and kind of put my, I had to be do, do, do, go, go, go, because I just didn't
want to, I didn't want to deal with any of the emotions.
And, um, I knew in the back of my head, turning 40 was going to be very difficult.
Um, of course his dad had to say something to me about it and throw in my face and my
40th birthday, of course.
And, and I, I sworn to this day, I say my ex ruined my birthday month four years ago.
I still say it over and over, but I turned 40 on Friday.
So I'm October 3rd and he threw in my face the divorce, which of course, by the way,
I had to pay for it.
Um, I want a real marriage.
I want a real godly marriage.
I don't want a paper marriage.
Um, this man wanted to divorce, but didn't want to pay for it.
So I had to pay for that.
And right.
He threw it in my face and then threw it in my face about my last name.
So when you say he threw it in your face, can you tell me like, what did he say to you?
He was acting like, Oh, I enjoyed being married to you, which I'm like, that's a lie
from him big time.
No, he did not.
That's a lie.
And he was asking about me changing my last name back.
And my thought was it's so annoying paying for things to change my name.
I mean, I'd rather just keep the last name until I remarry because I kind of think the
way my mom thought, like, well, at least I can have the same last name as my kid.
So it's really for our son.
And just cause I don't want to pay for things all over again.
And I'm like, there is a part of me that believes that God has somebody for me.
But of course, when he threw all of that, you know, I heard the lies too.
I'm like, does God have someone for me?
I hope he wouldn't call me to singleness.
And all of that was scaring me.
But, you know, I was very upset about turning 40.
And although God brought me in the spring, in the summer, into, yeah, late summer, a
little bit more where I want to be in life for turning 40, which is at least having my
own apartment, my own place.
Yeah. So I'm better than I thought I would have been this time last year, turning 40.
I'm not exactly everywhere I want to be yet.
And that's with that godly husband.
And I feel like Satan kind of used my ex to throw that dig in my face.
And I bawled Friday night.
And I'm actually glad I had a good female friend sleep over that night because I was
in no place of being alone with those thoughts.
Because all.
all those old depression thoughts and everything
from the divorce, everything came back.
And I'm like, that was a good time
to have company overnight.
Catherine, how old is your son?
Well, now he's turning seven tomorrow.
Okay.
And all of this with us splitting up
was sadly around my son's birthday,
around the seventh, it really started going.
And then on the 17th of October of 2021, that was it.
Yeah.
So around this time, yeah, it's a trigger.
Around this time, it's a trigger.
The reason I was asking is I was trying to determine
if you had to continue keeping contact with the ex.
So your son is young, so understand keeping that contact.
But here's the thing I want to say to all of you
that have to be in these situations with your exes.
You do not have to respond
to every text message they send you.
I realized that, and I also realized
maybe I should have just blocked his number
just for my birthday, at least.
Yeah, I mean, yeah, or you might even have a friend
keep your phone on your birthday
and help you monitor things like that
or things where you're just setting some guardrails
in place to protect yourself.
It sounds like he's in a toxic place
and potentially may like to aggravate.
The other thing I want to just touch on really quick
is I think it's totally fine
if you keep your name the way it is.
And if you want to keep your name the way it is,
it doesn't matter what he wants, right?
And so I think it's really important for you all
to continue to stand on your strength.
What is it that you want?
If you want to have the last name that your son has for now
until you get remarried, that's fine, that's great.
Just because you got divorced
doesn't mean you have to change your name
back to what it was.
I did the same thing.
I had my name as Stanko,
that's what my former married name was.
And I kept it that way because I wanted my stepson
to be able to find me if that day in time ever came
and you all did.
And so I felt led to do that and that's what I walked in.
And then when I got married, I changed my name,
praise the Lord, I'm not a Stanko anymore, I'm a Cooper.
And I felt so good about that.
And my stepson is way beyond age
and he had made contact by that point.
And so I just wanna encourage you, Catherine,
to continue to stand in who you are called to be
and who God says you are
and the things he's leading you to do.
I'm sorry to hear that happened on your birthday.
I'm gonna encourage you though
to take your birthday back, okay?
So what I mean by that ladies
is we wanna reclaim territory.
We wanna reclaim these things.
And I understand, I understand why it can be triggering
in October, but you have a whole month of October
to celebrate yourself.
And so let's take this stuff back, ladies.
We don't gotta just sit down and be triggered
and unhappy the whole month
because of what someone did to us.
And I'm not minimizing anything that you've been through.
It sounds like you've been through a whole lot
and I'm so sorry about that.
But you know what?
The same truth of when we love ourselves really well,
we're gonna be able to love other people well.
So I wanna encourage you this month
to find some ways to like really just pray,
Lord, how can I reclaim October
to be a month that is full of life
and happiness for myself,
no matter what my ex says or does.
Y'all, I cannot tell you how many crazy text messages
I got from my ex-husband, emails out the wazoo.
I mean, that man used to send me so much crazy stuff.
Same thing with my spiritual daughter's dad.
And you know what?
I just quit responding, y'all.
If it wasn't about the girls, I didn't respond.
And sometimes he would even try to use that
to get his foot in the door
and just start saying all kinds of nonsense.
Well, guess what?
Soon as the nonsense started, see you later.
I don't gotta engage in that stuff and you don't either, okay?
And so I had to make those choices to not engage
and really protect my mind and my heart.
And yeah, I reclaimed New York
because I went there and had an amazing time.
He went there to try to hook up with some lady
and then I found out about it.
And so for years, I never wore my I love New York T-shirt.
And then one day the Lord was like,
why aren't you wearing that?
Literally, the Lord's just like,
why aren't you wearing that?
And I'm like, well, Lord, he took that from me.
And the Lord said to me, take it back.
That's exactly what the Holy Spirit said to me.
Take it back, take it back.
I had an amazing time in New York.
So why did I let that guy
and his foolishness take that from me?
So I started wearing that shirt again
and I started celebrating the fun time I had there
and standing in that.
And so ladies.
Sometimes we got to go and, you know, go back and reclaim the territory.
Go do some fun things.
So I really want you to pray into that, Catherine.
It doesn't have to cost a lot of money either.
Maybe go to a new place that you've never been.
Maybe go, um, you know, try on some fun dresses and, and really just
allow yourself to feel celebrated.
Um, one of the things I did when I was in my bootcamp and going through this
whole process of celebrating myself is I just started buying myself flowers
on a regular basis because I love flowers and it felt great.
And yes, you all, I was one of those people that, you know, the
guys would never send me flowers.
I'd be at work and these other, this one woman literally got
flowers every month, y'all.
It was like a dagger.
It was like torture.
And every time she would get them, the enemy be like, you never get flowers.
Literally.
I can't tell you how many times the enemy would say that to me.
And so, um, then when I would get them, it would be because they did something
wrong, so that made it even worse.
And guess what?
When I started buying myself flowers, I was like, you know what?
This is pretty awesome.
I like myself.
I feel good about these flowers.
And I just started reclaiming all of that.
And you know what?
Guess what?
One of the first things Brian brought me, one of the first gifts he
brought me when we were dating.
This really beautiful bundle of flowers, you all.
So I just want you to know what, how we treat ourselves can set the groundwork
for how someone else will hopefully treat us in the future and so love
yourself really well, Catherine this month, take some, if you need to take
some bubble baths, have a friend come over and watch your son, get some
candles out, take a really nice, like sudsy bath, really relaxed ladies.
Again, it's about us.
Like what makes us feel safe?
What makes us feel happy?
What makes us feel loved?
What makes us feel celebrated and doing those things.
So maybe your thing isn't candles on, but that was something that I, that was
something I did because I felt so at peace and restful when I would do that.
And I'd play music and calming, but yeah, pray and see what that is for
you and take some steps into that.
I mean, even as we're talking and like all of this, like, I just feel like
this strong desire, cause it's like, I mean, I'm declaring, like, there's
a reason I'm here in, in the program, in, in the program.
And like, I really do believe God has my spirit made through this.
And I picture, I picture how caverns in my head, because I now live near how
caverns, because I moved up here in the summer and there's that heart shaped
stone, and then there's always that story with the Tory guy, if you're not
married, you step on the heart, you're married in a year, if you're married,
you get a second honeymoon.
And I'm like, my son's never been.
So I feel like I got to go there and step on that heart in October.
I'm thinking like, I do have to go this month and claim it back.
That's true.
I think you should.
I think you should now ladies.
Okay.
Here, let me just say this.
This is about activating her faith.
So I think you are hearing that from the Lord.
I think that you should go and activate your faith, but don't put a lot of
pressure on yourself that it has to happen in a certain timeframe.
Okay.
Of course we believe this is your all's last year single, but it's not so much
about finishing the program and meeting someone and getting married in the year.
This is about what is your process and what is God trying to bring breakthrough
and freedom and bring you into healing.
And so I totally think you should take your son and go explore that area and
have some fun and really embrace what God is even doing in you tonight through,
through what you've shared.
Um, you know, and just pray more into again this month, like how can I love
myself?
Well, how can I celebrate who I am?
God, you created me.
You formed me.
You didn't mess up.
You have good plans for me, you know, where you're really just partnering
with all of those truths.
It's, it's really transformative ladies.
When we do this, it really, really is.
All right, ladies, Catherine, thanks again for sharing.
I'm going to go ahead and pray us out and really pray a blessing as we close
father.
Thank you so much for everything that you've done in our lives tonight.
Thank you for those that are going to hear the replay.
Um, and just God, thank you for breakthrough.
Thank you for liberation and freedom for the captives.
God, where there's been weights of heaviness and oppression and
discouragement on any of us.
God, we thank you right now that you'll break those in the spirit realm.
God, that you'll do a supernatural work.
Even as we sleep, we thank you for the truth that you are the great physician.
Nothing is too hard for you.
We thank you that you would breathe life into the plans.
the promises that you have for us, Lord,
where we tend to struggle with doubt or unbelief, God,
we thank you for a fresh impartation of faith.
We thank you, God, for coming into every area
where there's brokenness, where there's pain,
God, and bringing light and healing and grace,
God, that we would be so rooted and grounded in your love
that we would overflow with it onto other people
and that it would organically happen,
that people around us would be like,
hey, what's going on with you?
I noticed something's different, God,
because your glory would be shining in us and through us
to all of those around us.
We thank you for transforming us and healing us
from the inside out, God,
and leading us into wide open spaces,
into all the new things that you have for us.
Help us to receive it all with joy, Lord,
in Jesus' name, amen, amen.
God bless you all.
We'll see you in the group.
I hope you guys have a great night.
Bye-bye.
Bye.