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I'm going to change my name so it doesn't say Bruce Van Zalem.

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Hi, Xavier.

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Can you guys hear me okay. Yes. Okay. The mic is just

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there's more talking away not realizing that I was muted.

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Okay, can I tell you a funny story. I recorded, like I had a couple hour recording session, only to discover that the mic was on me at the whole time.

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Yeah, this is new. I should tell you, I've done that more than once.

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I was like, yeah, we're back and I am no longer a master I am a baby bird and all over again.

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It was a good opportunity to remain steady and my identity and not worry about the fact that it felt like I wasted hours I was like this is just a dress rehearsal.

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We will try again.

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Well I don't know when you did it but I just did it last week so there you go.

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What happens especially with this mic is, I think I hit a hit a button when I was moving it. Yeah, like, and then I just never tested it again.

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That's exactly what I did.

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Hey Marcella How are you.

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So glad to see you back.

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Yeah.

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I was in your neck of the woods but unfortunately I get to see you and Callie.

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Oh, I know I know I know it just, it just did not. It just wasn't gonna work this year you know so it's a lot of little changes for me, but things are on are on a upswing and I'm excited about that.

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I love just I kind of popped in when you were talking about.

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I think you were saying you were recording and the mic was on mute.

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Yeah, yeah.

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You know some things you just don't outgrow you just it's gonna happen every now and then because it's technology and.

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But I just chose to, I'm like hey it's time with the Lord it's time honing my, my message it's building a muscle again it is kind of funny coming back into it all and realizing like, just like as if I hadn't gone to the gym and worked out for a really long time, like, I got some sore muscles, doing some lifting, but it's good to be back.

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You know, you are you guys are fearless leaders, and I mean I really would not have been here at all I just marvel every time I think about it I just marvel like oh god I just heard your voice in the dark, and there was Lindsay there was Bruce and all the tech, all the things that I know how to do and it's like, I can't even believe how I got here but I've been loosening.

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I feel like Jesus has been like helped me to loosen my perfectionism things of, you know, just grabbing I've been grabbing the phone and just recording and doing some things and I'm like, oh my god I guess it's time to leave the comfort zone and just jump out there so I really appreciated your video that you did.

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Right from the gym.

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Beautiful to me. So, hey,

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No, I appreciate you saying that yeah and here's what was so interesting about them we'll talk a little bit about that because I know we all have our wins and we're moving forward, me included like I'm on this journey with you guys.

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But up until that point I tried a few times to do more of the studio set again, even tried to bring in the teleprompter and it just did not feel.

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I didn't I didn't it just did not feel peaceful it did not, it wasn't that it was like oh this is hard I have to learn how to do it again it was like this does this does not feel like the new wine skin that you know like that was the word that I had when the Lord was like hey when you do come back it's going to be a new wine skin.

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And like didn't feel that way. And then sure enough like I was leaving the gym and I just felt like he said go.

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And it felt so natural, even though it wasn't natural, if that makes sense like I don't really do that. I haven't really done the car side like let's just get up and talk, but it felt like something.

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I felt really proud of it, even though I'm like that was not perfect at all you know that wasn't my standard quote unquote.

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And so I think there's something to that, as we're following the leading of the Lord and the sensitivity of spirit and also just, you know, I see Holly jumped on here.

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The word that Holly shared with our group about courage and taking the action has really just, I mean that was, it was such an activating word for me in this season of, it's not going to maybe look the way that I think it needs to look, but it doesn't lack power or effectiveness because of it.

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Like you're saying letting go of that control Marcella and and being open, not in defeat, but in really true surrender.

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is such a game changer. So and I even wonder because I like went back then I went back to

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the studio later that day and I'm like okay let's like flush this out and have an episode and then

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like there was a muted mic so I'm like okay look but it doesn't mean we stop going so I think that

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sometimes we take those things as a sign in the wrong direction like against our identity we're

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gonna talk a little about that today of like woe is me that was wasted time you know we take on

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of almost like a victim in those those scenarios and I just chose to like not even be sad about it

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I was like this is a dress rehearsal this is not wasted time and like maybe this just means like

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the studio set is not it it's not where the lord like has me right now it needs to be a little bit

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more on the go um so yeah we can jump into that but I want to hear from you like how's how are

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you guys doing any wins any blocks like where are we at um I guess I'll go I don't have any major

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wins this week um I will share some some good news um I shared it with Macy I'm still still

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reeling about it um so a few weeks ago I'll try to share this real quick I won't go through all

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the details you know I just tell a story that's why that's why I like a script because I go all

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over the place but anyway God is in all the detail and um but um I had been designed I had

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been you know I've been really working these it's been six years since my parents passed and I've

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just been you know going going going with everything that God has been giving me but I

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needed a break and I was like God I haven't been on a vacation I haven't been anywhere I just need

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a little break I just need a little break and I see these ships go by and I used to cruise a lot

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I see that I go one day I'm going on a boat ride one day I'm going back on the ship one day one day

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one day it was all this thing but I just kept declaring and so I saw on social media a couple

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of weeks ago somebody was having a retreat this is Dr. Miles Monroe's daughter she's having this

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rest reset retreat and I just happened to catch it just scrolling should have been sleep but I

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was scrolling and um she was giving away one seat and so at first I would have never jumped for

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it but it's leaving right here like like 15 minutes walk 15 minute walk from my house so

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when I saw that it was leaving out of Los Angeles I went wait a second and then I looked at the the

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chat just I said let me see how many people has put in for this this giveaway I put in for the

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giveaway it's like maybe 29 people that's all there's a chance there's a chance so I go and I

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put giveaway in there she sends me all the information and then I get a notice that she

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had picked a winner and I said oh okay lord I guess it wasn't meant for me keep going and I

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just keep going two days later I get an email that says hey we're extending you are you still

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interested we're extending an offer to you to go on this cruise three thousand dollar value for

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$300 I was like oh my gosh I said but but lord I don't even have the $300

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I said so might as well say three thousand so anyway long story short um I was like god I just

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have to be honest but I don't want to sound poor mouth I don't want to sound you know what I'm

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saying like I'm asking for something I just want to be honest and say thank you and I was really

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appreciative because I felt like it was finally an open door you know when you've been kind of

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like not getting those doors open like you want to you kind of feel like god is you know is there

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anything that's going to open up when is it going to open for me and I just so I got excited and it

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was around young young kapoor I don't know if I ever say that right and it basically had just had

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this whole lesson with us and so I was embracing that and talking with the lord and expecting you

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keeping my expectation of him up so I send the message back and she voicemails me voice text me

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and says Marcella that is what's holding you back and you want to go you just have to get to the

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port we're going to take that those fees away I have a whole six day cruise guys

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that's amazing so excited I'm still like just like really and it's literally like

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it's going to take me 15 minutes to walk to the port so I'm just excited so anyway my wins are

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just keeping going and getting things set up and just embracing god's goodness and I'm excited

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about this journey I'm still posting where I can I'm still talking about the declaration journal

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I've gotten several people that says that have told me how much the journal is really helping me

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which has really encouraged me so I'm just kind of promoting that and now shifting into also kind of

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take kind of taking the side now where where people are hindered in their belief with god

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or those struggles I'm kind of writing things with my own journey like where

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I've come into agreement with lies from the enemy unconsciously and how God is like fleshing

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those things out.

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And so I've been writing some things this morning about that, that I'm going to record

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and kind of lean into now going from there to heart healing and you need help in this

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area.

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So that's, that's my focus.

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So I hope I didn't take too much time.

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I tried to say all of that.

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That was awesome.

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That's great.

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And I love, like, I love what you're building because you're building a couple of different

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places for people to connect with you a couple of different levels.

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So like sometimes those, and I'm making this up, it's, but like the levels of approachability,

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like some people, like we, we even said with short form content, some people are only going

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to give me 30 seconds before they give you 30 minutes.

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You know, some people are going to download the journal before they book a session, but

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you have places for them to grow with you and they're like connection points, which

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is really great.

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Xavier, how are you doing?

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I am doing and doing great.

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And I can totally relate to what you were saying.

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And obviously what you said in the car, I mean, that inspired me because I wrote this

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whole lengthy thing and then I hit send and then I looked at it and went, oh my gosh,

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I really just went, you know, running off at the mouth because it was so, you know,

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it was just such an inspiration and spoke to me because the Lord's been, you know, been

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telling me the same thing.

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I was so encouraged by your comment, by the way.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Thank you for your comment.

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That meant a lot.

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It was, well, I'm glad, I'm glad it wasn't too much.

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I just looked at it because I was just typing away.

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I said, this is so good.

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And so, and, um, but I, I had a similar thing happen also, you know, trying to shoot, to

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shoot a video, went, shot the video, got it done, went through the whole thing, went back

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to play it and then realized there was nothing there.

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Same thing.

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I hit mute on the mic and just didn't have it.

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I mean, it was, it was just like, okay, that was fine.

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It was just practice.

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I just needed to, you know, need it, needed to go with it.

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It didn't set, you know, set me off.

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And I've been feeling the same thing.

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It's just, you know, you just kind of have to let go and just, and just do it.

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So I've gotten the landing page for the book done.

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You know, when you mentioned wins, I said, I haven't checked my email today.

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I heard I got a win from Ingram spark, so they've accepted the book.

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And so that's great.

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And so we've got, you know, the distribution going and I'm redoing my, my web page altogether

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just to make it short and concise and, and, and directed, you know, towards the book and

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towards the coaching and the same thing yesterday, I worked for two hours just trying to get

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these, you know, hero things right.

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And just get the whole thing done.

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And I get up this morning and it's all gone.

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There's nothing there.

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And, and I'm like, okay, I knew I saved it.

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I know I went through.

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All right, Lord.

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So obviously something wasn't right.

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So we're just going to start over.

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And I'm just going to, to, you know, just going to let you go and, and do that.

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And when I should have been working on something else, I worked for an hour this morning and

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knock the whole thing out.

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So, you know, it's just, that's just the way that it goes and I'm just learning to go with

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Just learning to let the Lord and, and say, okay, this is what it's going to be.

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Since we've had some similar hiccups, you and I, something that I've been encouraging

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myself in and strengthening myself and the Lord in is that again, the new wineskin is

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important.

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I think because sometimes we know too much and we're relying on that, you know, I kind

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of go, you think back the knowledge, the knowledge of good and evil, that tree, sometimes we're

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eating of that and operating from the knowledge base versus the source of life.

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And cause I know you're very knowledgeable in tech, you know, you have, we have similar,

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way more than me.

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I know you could like, you know, vibe, but sometimes it's like, you know, it's, we know

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too much.

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We have, we think there's, we could do so many things where the Lord is asking for like,

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let's plant some seeds of newness.

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Like that was me in the car, like no makeup, no mic, no teleprompter, right?

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Like let's just, again, feeling very much like a baby bird and from a place of not

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recklessness, but like, let's explore.

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Cause I think from that place, we can also build a dependency and a radical trust in

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the Lord that we can't build in our knowledge base because there's a little bit, there's

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a little bit too much of a dependency on what we know.

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And that's where, for me, that's been my journey is that's where perfectionist perfectionism

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creeps in and performance creeps in because I know that I must be acting on all of these

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things and it has to look a certain way.

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And the Lord's like, not really.

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And this comes back to the identity conversation that we've been having.

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I definitely want to touch on that today because it all stems from two things, who we believe

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God is and who we believe we are.

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And everything flows from that.

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But thank you for sharing.

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I'm really excited about the book and that's a huge win.

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Do you have a publication date?

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So it's actually already available on Amazon.

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I don't have the date yet for Ingram.

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Okay, okay.

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So they're both gonna be print on demands.

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So as far as that goes, I've got,

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I don't know, 30 copies coming into the house

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sometime this week, just so that I've got them

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and got them with me and can send them out to friends

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and whatnot.

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That's super, I'll get it on Amazon.

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It's going well.

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The other thing I have to tell you is because

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the biggest thing I've struggled with is,

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you mentioned knowing so much.

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Well, the Lord has downloaded so much

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that that's all that I've spent most of my life

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trying to share with people.

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And it took me a long time to realize

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that it wasn't about what the Lord was teaching me.

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It was about cultivating the relationship.

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Yeah.

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And so I got that, but the hardest thing for me

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has always been sharing myself.

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There's a chapter in the book about me

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and that was a huge, huge win.

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And then now I'm working with Sally,

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and it's all about the story.

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And I'm having to pull myself out of,

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way out of my comfort zone to talk about myself

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because it's always been, nobody wants to hear about me.

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That has nothing to do with anything.

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And the Lord-

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That is such a religious lie.

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Yes, exactly.

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It absolutely is.

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And I know better, and the Lord has shown me,

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it's like, the world is going to be changed,

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it says, by the blood of the lamb

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and the word of their testimony.

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It's our stories, it's our testimonies

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that are going to actually affect change in the world.

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And so I'm getting, the Lord is really,

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has been pushing me out of this space for some time now.

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But for whatever reason, that really struck me

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when I saw your post, okay, and your video,

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it was just being yourself.

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And it rang so true, and it wasn't anything

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that I didn't know in my head,

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but that finally struck my heart.

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That's really interesting.

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You know, I've gone back-

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We'll be that for each other.

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Yeah, you know, I just wanted to share,

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that's what made such a huge difference to me.

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And so, and it's really kind of opened me up.

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And so now there's less trepidation

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marching in that direction.

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Yeah, and like, let it be a sign in a wonder.

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I've, you know, I was, I mentioned this

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on a call a while back, like deeply affected

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by the assassination of Charlie Kirk personally,

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deeply affected me.

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I had to sit with that for a second

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and really lead my soul back to wholeness in that moment.

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But what was a sign and a wonder to me

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were other voices that were speaking truth

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in the midst of a really chaotic time, right?

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And we can pinpoint this all in our story.

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It was someone that said something

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that maybe we already knew,

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but it was them voicing it that activated something in us.

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This is, I always say this,

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God is so kind to give us the gift of each other.

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We're not meant to walk this journey alone.

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And there is an activation that happens

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within the ironing, sharpening iron

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and the two or three or more gathering, all of that.

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So I'm just grateful to hear that something I did

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activated something in you.

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It did.

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Holly, let's hear from you.

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Like, how are things going?

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Hi, I don't know what- Wind, blocks?

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Yeah, I don't know what video they're referring to.

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Did I miss something?

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So I went, so I went, I'm back.

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I'm back, Holly.

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Yes.

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On my channels.

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Yay, you.

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Last Friday-

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What's your channel?

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It's just your name, right?

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It's just my name now.

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So on Instagram, it's lindsay.vanzale.

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And then YouTube, it's lindsay.vanzale.

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And then, so I know I told you guys

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that I switched from Posture Podcast to it being my name.

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But yeah, I did it from the car, after the gym.

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No makeup, no shower, no teleprompter.

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Just a prompting, right?

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Oh, that's great.

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Well, I had some wins.

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I had a really good meeting with Macy

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and she helped me kind of get a good flow.

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I kind of had all these things

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that were just kind of scattered about

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and helped me kind of get everything into a good flow.

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So I feel really good about that.

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And I've been feeling for a while,

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like that I needed to go back to YouTube.

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And I haven't done YouTube since, you know,

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back in Kingdom Messengers when we started.

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It was a long time ago.

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And for some reason I've been getting views there

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and I don't even post on Instagram.

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So it was kind of funny

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that I keep getting these notifications

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that I have all these views

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and I'm thinking that's interesting.

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So I was just telling Macy

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that I feel like I wanna go back to YouTube

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and I really enjoy kind of teaching and training.

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and educating and helping people to understand just a new paradigm, not a new, but a different

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paradigm of how we function as God-created, remarkable human beings.

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And I had this lady call me.

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She reached out to me this week and she said she has been watching all my YouTube.

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She's from New Jersey and she wanted to connect.

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So we had a phone call yesterday and she was just so encouraging.

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She said, I've watched all your YouTubes and I was so thankful to find you and it's helped

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me so much.

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And I don't know, it was just, it was just a good encouragement to me to that.

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Yeah.

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Okay.

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I want to go back and do YouTube.

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And she said, you know, you're an unveiler of truth and I've been trying to put my prophetic

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words together, like you said a while back, but I just haven't been able to find them.

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I have stuff in so many different journals in different places and I haven't really had

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the time to go through.

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So I feel like I got my prophetic, I got a new prophetic word.

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I haven't had a prophetic word in a really long time.

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So that was really nice.

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Yeah.

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That's about it.

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Those are my wins.

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Woo-hoo.

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I love, Lindsay has disappeared.

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I don't know.

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She's gone.

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That happens when you're a mama.

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Apparently.

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I don't know.

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Let me, let me.

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She's, she's gone.

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She's, she's not even on the call.

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I don't know where she went.

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Oh yeah.

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She dropped off the call.

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She dropped off and then she came back and then she dropped off.

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Oh, I didn't even see.

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And just so you know, so I have to drop off in a few minutes.

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So if I suddenly disappear, I'm just.

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Suddenly disappear.

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It's on purpose.

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Right.

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Let me, sorry guys.

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Let me check in for two.

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I just want to say, while you're doing that, Macy, I just feel so encouraged with this group and to hear.

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I always hear everybody's journey.

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I feel like we're really all in the same space, you know, with that, with what God has given us.

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And it's just, I just feel so encouraged.

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So when I hear Xavier, how you're coming along, it's amazing.

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I love all that.

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I need to get my book done.

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Me too.

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I feel I need to get my book done too.

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Yeah, I just feel like.

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You're an inspiration Xavier.

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Yes, yes, absolutely.

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Well, if it's any consolation, I've probably been working on that book a whole lot longer than you guys have.

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It would not come together.

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So, I mean.

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But it's done and that's good.

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I love that.

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What happened was the Lord moved us and we knew that we were in for a new season, but he moved us to a place.

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I think I might have mentioned it.

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Nothing went the way that was planned and everything went the way that it was supposed to.

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And we landed in a perfect spot and a perfect place.

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I got the book finished in six months after we moved here.

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I mean, that was so that was all God.

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It was just the matter of what the timing was.

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You know, it would not come together.

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And, you know, I know part of it was me being stubborn.

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But it would just not it would just not come together.

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And when the time was right, then it did.

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And I was just, you know, as shocked as anyone.

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And it's like, okay, get it up on Amazon.

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And I'm just stumbling through everything, teaching myself the whole nine yards and then the same thing.

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And, you know, sort of have it.

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It's so good.

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It's there now and it'll soon be on Ingram, which will help get it into the bookstores.

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So that's yeah.

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You know, what's the name of it again?

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It's out of religion and into relationship.

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Right.

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God beyond the church walls.

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So, you know, it is.

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I'm sure you guys know my heart is always been for those.

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I call the de-churched.

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There she is.

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Sorry, guys.

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No, no.

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That's all right.

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Glad you're back.

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So yeah, so it's all gone well.

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It's just, you know, got God's timing and just let him take the lead.

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And Holly, I just I missed your whole most of your update, but you're saying you're getting back onto YouTube.

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Yeah, I've been feeling that for a little while.

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And then I had a really good meeting with Macy and just she kind of helped me get my all these things that I had scattered kind of into a good flow that I can actually do and take on.

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And so that was really good.

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And then did you hear the part about the lady that contacted me now?

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Oh, so after my meeting with Macy and I just decided I think I really want to do.

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I was trying to do coaching, but I was I don't want to do coaching.

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That's not really what I want to do right now.

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And that's why I've been dragging my feet because I don't want to do it.

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And so then I really.

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realized that I kind of want to go back to YouTube because I've been getting a lot of

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views.

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I haven't done YouTube since Kingdom Messenger days, but I still get a lot of views and I

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get notifications about it all the time.

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So after I decided that, this lady reached out to me and emailed me and she said she

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wanted to connect.

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So I had a phone call with her and she said she's been watched all my YouTubes and she's

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so happy that she found me and they've really helped her.

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And she's kind of been on a similar journey into the, she had a lot of gut issues and

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stuff and kind of went into the holistic world and started finding all this new information

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out.

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And she was so excited.

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And it just really encouraged me because I don't know, it was just a confirmation that

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I was kind of on the right track and it was, she said, you're, you're an unveiler of truth.

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And I was like, yeah, cause I've been, I've been trying to get my prophetic words together.

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Like you said a while ago, but they're kind of scattered in a bunch of journals in different

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places.

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Some are on cassette tapes and I don't, I couldn't even find them and I hadn't had the

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time to go back through and, and find all my words, but I thought, oh, there's my prophetic

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word.

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I got a new prophetic word and I haven't had a prophetic word in a really long time.

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So it was really sweet.

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It just, I felt really encouraged and I'm excited to get going on YouTube again.

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Awesome.

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I'm excited for that too.

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Yeah.

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I think, and I saw Marcella in the chat said you're focusing on YouTube as well.

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I still think it's the best investment of time amongst any of the social media channels

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because there is a losslessness to it in the way that the algorithm works and the way that

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they still serve up videos that might be two, three, four years old.

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We don't see that on the other platforms where it's a very like now and present, you know,

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whatever is like the, like the most present thing.

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So I'm glad that you're getting back on there.

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Yeah.

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And I'm still getting views as well.

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I mean, we all are because of the way I think that the algorithm, so it's a great place

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to invest your time.

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I love that you got an identity statement.

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Yeah.

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I got the identity statement.

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Yes.

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I'm an unbiller of truth.

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And that resin, when she said that, I was like, yes, that's it.

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Yes.

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And that's, that's, that's how we confirm the word, right?

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It has to be confirmed in us.

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It's not just somebody speaking it over us, but it's the Holy Spirit confirming it in

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us and it's resonating.

461
00:27:11.760 --> 00:27:14.700
And those are the words that we hold on to that we steward.

462
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And I want to talk a little bit about that today because the Lord has had me in Hebrews

463
00:27:19.760 --> 00:27:21.240
11 and Hebrews 12.

464
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And those are the scriptures.

465
00:27:22.740 --> 00:27:26.120
He, those are the chapters he's had me in and then Friday happened.

466
00:27:26.200 --> 00:27:26.460
Right.

467
00:27:26.460 --> 00:27:29.000
So I think that there is a, I don't think it's a coincidence.

468
00:27:29.100 --> 00:27:32.300
I think those, those were some building blocks for where I'm heading.

469
00:27:32.320 --> 00:27:37.220
And I think even as a group where we're heading and then I would even proclaim and declare

470
00:27:37.220 --> 00:27:38.740
where the body of Christ is heading.

471
00:27:38.740 --> 00:27:44.020
Cause the Roman, I mean, I'm Hebrews 11 is talking about like the hall of faith, right?

472
00:27:44.020 --> 00:27:48.380
Like the hall of famers, so to speak of those who walked the faith journey and received

473
00:27:48.380 --> 00:27:49.080
the promise.

474
00:27:49.820 --> 00:27:53.980
And then Hebrews 12 is a really interesting chapter because it talks about, we have a

475
00:27:53.980 --> 00:27:58.200
cloud of witnesses, Jesus being the author perfecter of our faith.

476
00:27:58.820 --> 00:28:06.080
And then it goes into this beautifully challenging passage on discipline and how the father disciplines

477
00:28:06.160 --> 00:28:06.740
us.

478
00:28:07.300 --> 00:28:12.380
And when we receive that discipline, how it, it's not always pleasant in the moment, but,

479
00:28:12.380 --> 00:28:15.900
and he disciplines us because he disciplines those he loves just like a good dad, right?

480
00:28:15.980 --> 00:28:17.020
Like this isn't punishment.

481
00:28:17.680 --> 00:28:19.140
This isn't taking a beating.

482
00:28:19.400 --> 00:28:20.400
This is a sharpening.

483
00:28:20.840 --> 00:28:26.160
It's a honing in and it's a discipline that produces righteousness and peace in our lives.

484
00:28:26.180 --> 00:28:32.100
So it's like, really, it's just a really profoundly beautiful, like building two building blocks

485
00:28:32.520 --> 00:28:32.940
there.

486
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But, so I want to talk a little bit about the day because I think it connects with that

487
00:28:42.360 --> 00:28:45.460
I will continue that this is the mindset shift we must take.

488
00:28:45.720 --> 00:28:51.980
It has to be around us truly owning our identity, knowing who God is, knowing who we are in

489
00:28:51.980 --> 00:28:57.380
him, because from that place produces faith and action.

490
00:28:58.560 --> 00:29:02.120
Like works attached to our faith so that our faith is not ineffective.

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00:29:02.780 --> 00:29:08.200
As James would say, we'll see you later, Xavier, I know you can only ask, but we're recording

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00:29:08.200 --> 00:29:09.960
this so you can rewatch it.

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But, so let me pull up my notes on this because one of the questions that I've been stirred

494
00:29:17.920 --> 00:29:19.540
with and I have to give Graham Cook credit.

495
00:29:19.820 --> 00:29:28.880
He's been a mentor to me from near and far, but this is a question that he has spoken

496
00:29:28.980 --> 00:29:33.840
in some of his things, but the question is, when is a prophetic word fulfilled?

497
00:29:36.120 --> 00:29:37.580
When is a prophetic word fulfilled?

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00:29:37.580 --> 00:29:45.420
Is it fulfilled when it happens or is it fulfilled when God says it and we believe him?

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00:29:46.960 --> 00:29:47.660
When is it fulfilled?

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00:29:47.900 --> 00:29:55.300
So going into Hebrews 11, we see it says in verse one, faith is confidence in what we

501
00:29:55.300 --> 00:29:58.800
hope for and assurance about what we do not see.

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00:29:59.900 --> 00:29:59.980
There's

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00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.960
Scripture is supporting the weightiness of God's Word.

504
00:30:05.340 --> 00:30:09.140
Isaiah 55 talks about how God's Word accomplishes His purpose.

505
00:30:09.280 --> 00:30:10.660
It does not return to Him void.

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00:30:11.320 --> 00:30:14.860
Romans 4 talks about how God calls things that do not

507
00:30:14.860 --> 00:30:16.780
exist as though they do.

508
00:30:17.620 --> 00:30:20.840
So He calls things into existence by His Word.

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00:30:21.040 --> 00:30:24.500
And then Isaiah 66, which is a really beautiful chapter

510
00:30:24.500 --> 00:30:29.820
as well, actually speaks to the mother heart of God,

511
00:30:29.820 --> 00:30:30.780
which is really fascinating.

512
00:30:30.980 --> 00:30:35.540
But He states, He says, shall I bring to birth and not deliver?

513
00:30:37.560 --> 00:30:39.740
So He takes His Word seriously.

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00:30:40.060 --> 00:30:43.800
And when He says it, is it true when it happens

515
00:30:43.800 --> 00:30:45.300
or is it true when He says it?

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00:30:47.260 --> 00:30:50.400
So I would say it's true when He says it,

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00:30:50.400 --> 00:30:51.920
because His Word carries the weight.

518
00:30:52.200 --> 00:30:54.600
His Word carries that activation,

519
00:30:55.320 --> 00:30:58.280
bringing things into existence, creating an entire universe

520
00:30:58.280 --> 00:30:59.340
by His Word.

521
00:30:59.620 --> 00:31:01.500
So if we take it that seriously, then

522
00:31:01.500 --> 00:31:06.680
when He speaks prophetically over us and He says,

523
00:31:06.900 --> 00:31:09.280
you are this, it's already true.

524
00:31:10.640 --> 00:31:12.820
You're not even becoming it.

525
00:31:13.280 --> 00:31:15.400
What's becoming is the manifestation,

526
00:31:16.040 --> 00:31:18.300
but it's already true.

527
00:31:19.120 --> 00:31:22.920
And what the activating point is,

528
00:31:22.920 --> 00:31:28.600
and I would again use Hebrews 11 to support this idea,

529
00:31:28.820 --> 00:31:33.180
is that when we believe it, is that manifestation

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00:31:33.180 --> 00:31:34.320
starts to unfold.

531
00:31:35.240 --> 00:31:37.600
Even if it's not yet in our circumstances,

532
00:31:38.060 --> 00:31:39.880
it's happened in the spiritual realm

533
00:31:39.880 --> 00:31:41.500
and it's happened within us.

534
00:31:41.920 --> 00:31:45.920
So examples that are listed in Hebrews 11, Abraham and Sarah,

535
00:31:46.760 --> 00:31:48.060
very classic example.

536
00:31:49.000 --> 00:31:51.520
They're renamed before the promise is manifested.

537
00:31:51.520 --> 00:31:53.740
He says, you are a father of many nations,

538
00:31:54.880 --> 00:31:58.920
no children yet, barren, barren wife, old age,

539
00:31:59.120 --> 00:32:03.100
like not even in the natural possible.

540
00:32:03.860 --> 00:32:06.520
But he names him, this is important,

541
00:32:07.280 --> 00:32:07.760
father of many nations.

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00:32:07.920 --> 00:32:12.420
So then every time after that moment when Abraham is,

543
00:32:12.460 --> 00:32:16.240
like his name is spoken, he is reminded of what is true.

544
00:32:16.620 --> 00:32:18.040
I'm a father of many nations.

545
00:32:19.260 --> 00:32:21.220
So it's like, what are we calling ourselves?

546
00:32:21.220 --> 00:32:23.320
So for me, I'm just using myself as an example,

547
00:32:23.540 --> 00:32:26.280
but we all probably think about this in your own context.

548
00:32:26.880 --> 00:32:28.900
When I revisited my prophetic words,

549
00:32:28.980 --> 00:32:31.700
there are many prophetic words around being a mother

550
00:32:32.220 --> 00:32:33.860
to multiple generations.

551
00:32:35.860 --> 00:32:38.760
And I can't say that I, so when I received those words,

552
00:32:38.760 --> 00:32:40.260
I was not even a biological mother.

553
00:32:40.360 --> 00:32:41.840
In fact, I was in the middle of dealing

554
00:32:42.060 --> 00:32:44.540
with unexplained infertility when I received those words,

555
00:32:44.600 --> 00:32:45.240
except for one.

556
00:32:45.320 --> 00:32:47.000
One came after Hannah was born.

557
00:32:47.080 --> 00:32:48.340
That was really significant as well.

558
00:32:48.340 --> 00:32:53.280
But the mother word started before I had physical children.

559
00:32:53.500 --> 00:32:56.240
And when I would say I was at a chronological age

560
00:32:56.620 --> 00:32:59.380
where it did not even seem wise.

561
00:32:59.460 --> 00:33:01.320
Like I'm in my late 20s and it's like,

562
00:33:01.420 --> 00:33:03.120
you are a mother of multiple generations.

563
00:33:03.200 --> 00:33:05.960
And I'm like, who, like what 40-year-old, what 50-year-old,

564
00:33:06.080 --> 00:33:08.020
what 60-year-old in their right mind

565
00:33:08.020 --> 00:33:11.520
is going to look to me as a mother, right?

566
00:33:11.680 --> 00:33:12.000
Yeah.

567
00:33:12.260 --> 00:33:16.160
Well, yeah, Marcella's like, I mean, I love that.

568
00:33:16.160 --> 00:33:19.800
But when the word was spoken, it wasn't yet manifest,

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00:33:19.940 --> 00:33:20.780
but it was true.

570
00:33:21.600 --> 00:33:26.520
But what is needed is the seed to be received.

571
00:33:27.300 --> 00:33:29.440
So the word of God being the seed,

572
00:33:30.420 --> 00:33:32.440
us being the recipient of that seed,

573
00:33:32.540 --> 00:33:34.560
and then something becomes manifest.

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00:33:34.760 --> 00:33:37.940
It might still be in the gestation period, right?

575
00:33:37.940 --> 00:33:39.420
Like it might still be in the womb

576
00:33:39.880 --> 00:33:42.980
and growing and developing and not yet birthed.

577
00:33:42.980 --> 00:33:45.840
But does he bring to birth and not deliver

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00:33:46.280 --> 00:33:48.720
is what Isaiah 66 talks about.

579
00:33:49.560 --> 00:33:51.720
So I had to begin to, in my mind,

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00:33:52.020 --> 00:33:53.260
renew my mind to that truth.

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00:33:53.400 --> 00:33:54.180
I am a mother.

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00:33:54.960 --> 00:33:57.480
My mouth, I had to start speaking,

583
00:33:58.260 --> 00:34:00.020
even if I sounded silly.

584
00:34:00.260 --> 00:34:03.260
So the way that I, so one of the words was, you know,

585
00:34:03.260 --> 00:34:03.680
you're a Deborah.

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00:34:04.720 --> 00:34:08.900
And Deborah in Judges 5, there is a verse where she says,

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00:34:08.900 --> 00:34:13.719
she declares, village life had ceased until I, Deborah,

588
00:34:13.940 --> 00:34:15.480
I arose as a mother.

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00:34:16.699 --> 00:34:20.460
So she is taking that identity of statement.

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00:34:20.699 --> 00:34:21.920
She is declaring it.

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00:34:21.920 --> 00:34:24.699
And then we see what unfolds in her life.

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00:34:24.780 --> 00:34:26.800
She's a seed of wisdom for the nation of Israel.

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00:34:27.040 --> 00:34:30.719
She also is a activator to a general

594
00:34:30.719 --> 00:34:34.739
who's hesitant to go to war on Israel's behalf and says,

595
00:34:34.800 --> 00:34:36.340
okay, I'm going to go with you then.

596
00:34:36.340 --> 00:34:38.219
I'm going to take your hand and do this together.

597
00:34:40.000 --> 00:34:43.159
And then there was 40 years of peace for Israel

598
00:34:43.659 --> 00:34:45.980
because Deborah arose as a mother.

599
00:34:47.260 --> 00:34:49.560
She arose in her full identity,

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00:34:50.320 --> 00:34:53.340
receiving the word from the Lord and began to walk in it.

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00:34:53.380 --> 00:34:54.540
And things began to manifest.

602
00:34:54.980 --> 00:34:56.800
We see Gideon, of course.

603
00:34:57.139 --> 00:34:58.440
Gideon's one that we use a lot of,

604
00:34:58.460 --> 00:34:59.840
but it's really important because

605
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.360
God addressed him by his calling, not his circumstance.

606
00:35:03.580 --> 00:35:04.620
We know this, right?

607
00:35:04.620 --> 00:35:06.920
Man of valor or mighty warrior.

608
00:35:07.560 --> 00:35:09.780
And Gideon obviously had to receive that word

609
00:35:09.780 --> 00:35:12.360
and step into it, even if he did so hesitantly at first

610
00:35:12.360 --> 00:35:13.760
and needed a lot of proof, right?

611
00:35:13.760 --> 00:35:15.120
The Lord was really patient with him.

612
00:35:15.160 --> 00:35:19.280
But what is so fascinating here is God sees us

613
00:35:19.280 --> 00:35:22.560
at the outcome level, not at the current struggle.

614
00:35:23.200 --> 00:35:26.220
So when I was called a mother prophetically,

615
00:35:26.920 --> 00:35:29.240
God was relating to me as such.

616
00:35:29.760 --> 00:35:32.280
He wasn't waiting to relate to me later in the future

617
00:35:32.280 --> 00:35:33.760
sometime when it became manifest.

618
00:35:34.440 --> 00:35:34.580
Why?

619
00:35:34.940 --> 00:35:36.680
Because it's already true.

620
00:35:38.380 --> 00:35:39.840
And God, he's a God of truth.

621
00:35:39.940 --> 00:35:46.440
So he operates by truth in his word, as should we, right?

622
00:35:47.060 --> 00:35:49.240
Mary, of course, I love her example.

623
00:35:49.800 --> 00:35:52.740
Cause she says, according to your word, be it unto me.

624
00:35:52.960 --> 00:35:59.220
And knowing that she faced, I mean, potential death, right?

625
00:36:00.140 --> 00:36:03.460
Historically speaking, her receiving a seed

626
00:36:03.820 --> 00:36:06.360
to become pregnant as an unmarried woman,

627
00:36:07.080 --> 00:36:10.340
she was willing to declare and receive that word

628
00:36:10.400 --> 00:36:13.840
in the face of what would be a misunderstanding

629
00:36:13.840 --> 00:36:15.240
to the point of death, right?

630
00:36:15.240 --> 00:36:17.580
So not like, oh, people are not gonna be nice to me anymore,

631
00:36:18.140 --> 00:36:20.560
but the Lord is gonna have to work this out

632
00:36:20.560 --> 00:36:22.800
to save my life in order to birth this child.

633
00:36:24.360 --> 00:36:26.800
And she said, according to your word, be it unto me.

634
00:36:29.380 --> 00:36:32.040
Moses, so Graham talks about Moses

635
00:36:32.040 --> 00:36:35.200
and he talks about how, think about Moses' journey

636
00:36:35.200 --> 00:36:37.580
from the wilderness back to Egypt, right?

637
00:36:37.900 --> 00:36:41.300
Like back to Egypt, after being in the wilderness,

638
00:36:42.200 --> 00:36:44.920
escaping Egypt, coming back,

639
00:36:45.120 --> 00:36:46.800
after even having the conversation with the Lord

640
00:36:46.800 --> 00:36:48.540
being like, I'm not the one.

641
00:36:49.100 --> 00:36:50.760
You're wanting me to be your mouthpiece

642
00:36:50.760 --> 00:36:52.600
and I can't get a word out without stuttering.

643
00:36:53.320 --> 00:36:55.340
And he's walking back to the wilderness

644
00:36:55.340 --> 00:36:57.220
and Graham points out, he said,

645
00:36:57.900 --> 00:37:01.560
I can see him getting taller within himself

646
00:37:01.900 --> 00:37:04.620
as he continues to walk from wilderness to Egypt

647
00:37:04.740 --> 00:37:06.640
to do what God asked him to do,

648
00:37:06.720 --> 00:37:08.680
because what God spoke was true.

649
00:37:09.140 --> 00:37:11.340
And I think about, we have those moments, right?

650
00:37:11.340 --> 00:37:12.820
Where we're coming out of a wilderness

651
00:37:13.340 --> 00:37:14.920
back into some of the places

652
00:37:14.920 --> 00:37:18.540
that we did not want to ever face again, right?

653
00:37:18.540 --> 00:37:21.380
Sometimes he brings us back to those pain points

654
00:37:21.740 --> 00:37:24.300
because there's an overcoming that's about to take place.

655
00:37:24.300 --> 00:37:26.840
There's a deliverance that's about to take place,

656
00:37:27.400 --> 00:37:30.320
but we must walk back to that place

657
00:37:30.320 --> 00:37:33.580
in full authority of what he said is true

658
00:37:33.580 --> 00:37:36.740
and get taller within ourselves as we do that.

659
00:37:36.940 --> 00:37:40.740
As we renew our minds, as we receive clarity on the word

660
00:37:40.740 --> 00:37:43.400
and even not clarity to make a move,

661
00:37:43.420 --> 00:37:46.000
but clarity coming as we take the steps, right?

662
00:37:46.060 --> 00:37:50.420
So then we go into Hebrews 12 and it says,

663
00:37:50.940 --> 00:37:52.500
therefore, since we are surrounded

664
00:37:53.220 --> 00:37:54.880
by such a great cloud of witnesses,

665
00:37:55.180 --> 00:37:56.300
who are these cloud of witnesses?

666
00:37:56.540 --> 00:37:59.940
These are people who received the promise

667
00:37:59.940 --> 00:38:01.860
and lived from its reality.

668
00:38:02.580 --> 00:38:03.600
And interestingly enough,

669
00:38:03.660 --> 00:38:05.080
it says they didn't actually receive

670
00:38:05.080 --> 00:38:06.320
the full manifestation of the promise.

671
00:38:06.320 --> 00:38:08.500
They didn't see the full manifestation of the promise

672
00:38:08.500 --> 00:38:10.220
before in their lifetimes.

673
00:38:11.040 --> 00:38:15.560
But we now get to eat of the fruit of their obedience

674
00:38:15.900 --> 00:38:18.840
and their belief in the word of God over their lives.

675
00:38:18.840 --> 00:38:19.620
It's really powerful.

676
00:38:19.700 --> 00:38:21.960
And then they are in this great cloud of witnesses.

677
00:38:21.960 --> 00:38:26.180
So then it says, let us throw off everything that hinders

678
00:38:26.820 --> 00:38:30.620
and run with perseverance the race marked out for us,

679
00:38:30.840 --> 00:38:32.060
fixing our eyes on Jesus.

680
00:38:32.380 --> 00:38:34.600
Now, I love how Brian Simmons puts it

681
00:38:34.600 --> 00:38:36.200
in his Passion Translation.

682
00:38:36.660 --> 00:38:37.980
Let me pull that up because it was,

683
00:38:38.000 --> 00:38:39.060
this is a familiar verse.

684
00:38:39.180 --> 00:38:40.820
So sometimes when it's familiar, we kind of like,

685
00:38:41.040 --> 00:38:42.020
oh yeah, I know that one.

686
00:38:42.160 --> 00:38:44.060
But I was reading it in the Passion Translation

687
00:38:44.060 --> 00:38:45.220
and I was so taken.

688
00:38:45.300 --> 00:38:46.340
Oh, I got to pull it up on my phone

689
00:38:46.340 --> 00:38:47.820
because that's where I've got it.

690
00:38:49.100 --> 00:38:51.160
And I think this was for me.

691
00:38:51.160 --> 00:38:52.660
It might also be for you.

692
00:38:52.780 --> 00:38:54.280
But some of the things I've walked out

693
00:38:54.280 --> 00:38:55.380
in the last couple of weeks,

694
00:38:55.640 --> 00:38:58.100
the way in which this was worded was really fascinating.

695
00:38:58.280 --> 00:38:59.820
So he's talking about, for all of us,

696
00:38:59.820 --> 00:39:01.100
we have this great cloud of witnesses

697
00:39:01.100 --> 00:39:02.500
who encircle us like clouds.

698
00:39:02.560 --> 00:39:03.620
And then he says it this way,

699
00:39:03.620 --> 00:39:05.360
instead of throwing off every hindrance,

700
00:39:05.460 --> 00:39:07.380
this is how Brian Simmons translated it.

701
00:39:07.380 --> 00:39:11.240
He said, so we must let go of every wound

702
00:39:11.760 --> 00:39:16.160
that has pierced us and the sin we fall so easily into.

703
00:39:16.500 --> 00:39:18.960
Then we'll be able to run life's marathon race

704
00:39:18.960 --> 00:39:20.360
with passion and determination

705
00:39:20.360 --> 00:39:23.460
for the path has been marked out before us.

706
00:39:23.920 --> 00:39:26.020
And he talks about, I mean,

707
00:39:26.020 --> 00:39:29.380
Hebrews talks about after that,

708
00:39:29.420 --> 00:39:31.260
how Jesus is the author perfecter of our faith.

709
00:39:31.260 --> 00:39:32.200
But this was really interesting

710
00:39:32.200 --> 00:39:35.680
because the word wound was really fascinating to me

711
00:39:35.680 --> 00:39:37.460
because we all have our wounds, right?

712
00:39:37.580 --> 00:39:40.020
And we're healing or we have healed.

713
00:39:40.080 --> 00:39:43.260
But sometimes if we don't let go

714
00:39:43.260 --> 00:39:45.300
the wounds that have pierced us,

715
00:39:45.300 --> 00:39:48.360
we unintentionally allow those things to come in

716
00:39:48.360 --> 00:39:51.240
and distort the word that's been spoken.

717
00:39:52.160 --> 00:39:53.960
Only we have the authority to let that happen.

718
00:39:54.220 --> 00:39:56.780
Satan's not crafty and like pulling one on us, by the way.

719
00:39:56.880 --> 00:39:58.100
I don't, that's not my theology.

720
00:39:58.280 --> 00:39:59.980
Like we have the authority and the victory in Christ.

721
00:40:00.460 --> 00:40:04.380
but we can sometimes give authority away

722
00:40:04.760 --> 00:40:08.600
for there to be a distorted view of our identity.

723
00:40:08.980 --> 00:40:12.160
And oftentimes it comes through hurts and pains, right?

724
00:40:12.160 --> 00:40:13.020
It's like, ouch, that hurt.

725
00:40:13.100 --> 00:40:14.200
I don't want to do that again.

726
00:40:14.760 --> 00:40:16.860
I don't want to let these people in again.

727
00:40:17.420 --> 00:40:19.000
I don't want to do it this way anymore

728
00:40:19.000 --> 00:40:21.080
because last time I did that, I was super burnt out.

729
00:40:21.120 --> 00:40:23.680
But if we let go of every wound that's pierced us,

730
00:40:23.680 --> 00:40:26.360
and then it talks about how Jesus is the author

731
00:40:26.360 --> 00:40:27.260
and perfecter of our faith.

732
00:40:27.280 --> 00:40:29.000
And his example is this.

733
00:40:29.520 --> 00:40:33.100
Because his heart was focused on the joy of knowing

734
00:40:33.100 --> 00:40:36.580
that you would be his, traditional translation says,

735
00:40:37.320 --> 00:40:40.880
because of the joy before him, he endured the cross.

736
00:40:41.180 --> 00:40:42.420
Brian Simmons, I love that he says,

737
00:40:43.740 --> 00:40:45.800
because his heart was focused on the joy of knowing

738
00:40:45.800 --> 00:40:49.200
that you would be his, he endured the agony of the cross

739
00:40:49.200 --> 00:40:51.020
and conquered its humiliation.

740
00:40:52.100 --> 00:40:55.700
Hurt and humiliation often are entangled together, right?

741
00:40:55.700 --> 00:40:57.340
Like we're hurt because we're humiliated.

742
00:40:57.340 --> 00:40:58.860
We're humiliated by the hurt.

743
00:40:59.280 --> 00:41:02.520
We're trying to no longer let that happen again, right?

744
00:41:02.920 --> 00:41:06.560
And now sits exalted at the right hand of the throne of God.

745
00:41:08.500 --> 00:41:12.180
And then it also talks about, carefully consider

746
00:41:12.280 --> 00:41:16.260
how Jesus faced such intense opposition

747
00:41:16.680 --> 00:41:19.920
from sinners who oppose their own souls,

748
00:41:21.060 --> 00:41:23.820
that you won't become worn down

749
00:41:23.820 --> 00:41:25.920
and cave in under life's pressures.

750
00:41:25.920 --> 00:41:28.000
I think this was really important

751
00:41:28.000 --> 00:41:30.140
in a very politically heated moment,

752
00:41:31.100 --> 00:41:34.640
where there's hostility and there's anger

753
00:41:34.640 --> 00:41:36.200
and there's people that are working

754
00:41:36.200 --> 00:41:41.680
almost against their own souls to hurt each other with words

755
00:41:41.680 --> 00:41:43.620
or physically hurt each other.

756
00:41:44.080 --> 00:41:47.260
And it's like, Jesus is still our example in this

757
00:41:47.260 --> 00:41:49.280
because he endured the hostility.

758
00:41:50.420 --> 00:41:53.260
And it says to carefully consider

759
00:41:53.260 --> 00:41:56.140
how Jesus faced that hostility

760
00:41:56.140 --> 00:41:58.900
so that you won't become worn down

761
00:41:58.900 --> 00:42:00.840
and cave in under life's pressures.

762
00:42:01.760 --> 00:42:03.500
It's a really beautiful truth.

763
00:42:03.600 --> 00:42:05.340
And it all comes down to identity.

764
00:42:05.400 --> 00:42:07.920
And it first comes down to the word, right?

765
00:42:07.920 --> 00:42:08.960
Like that is the root.

766
00:42:09.320 --> 00:42:11.800
What, and this was straight from the garden.

767
00:42:12.060 --> 00:42:13.980
Did he really say that?

768
00:42:15.020 --> 00:42:16.620
Is he who he says he is?

769
00:42:17.200 --> 00:42:19.740
That's the question still marked on human hearts.

770
00:42:20.540 --> 00:42:24.220
So easily proven by the word and the nature of God

771
00:42:24.700 --> 00:42:27.140
and what activates that in our lives,

772
00:42:27.460 --> 00:42:28.520
Graham would say it this way,

773
00:42:28.800 --> 00:42:29.440
which I'm like, oh,

774
00:42:29.440 --> 00:42:31.180
I don't know if I would have said it that way,

775
00:42:31.220 --> 00:42:33.300
but I think I can agree with it.

776
00:42:33.300 --> 00:42:35.620
Every personal prophetic promise is conditional.

777
00:42:36.580 --> 00:42:37.400
It's not sovereign.

778
00:42:38.320 --> 00:42:40.080
And it's conditional on what?

779
00:42:40.080 --> 00:42:40.720
Our agreement.

780
00:42:42.740 --> 00:42:43.900
It's conditional on our agreement.

781
00:42:44.040 --> 00:42:47.060
So it's not a guarantee in that it's going to happen

782
00:42:47.060 --> 00:42:49.420
if you're sitting and doing nothing

783
00:42:49.420 --> 00:42:50.880
or I would say,

784
00:42:50.980 --> 00:42:53.440
if you're choosing to be unbelieving about it

785
00:42:53.840 --> 00:42:57.240
and self-doubting about it or God doubting about it.

786
00:42:57.740 --> 00:42:59.320
This is a huge challenge for me.

787
00:42:59.420 --> 00:43:00.660
Cause it's like,

788
00:43:00.800 --> 00:43:03.240
I don't know if I've shared this before.

789
00:43:03.320 --> 00:43:06.640
I think I have, but like in a prophetic community,

790
00:43:07.720 --> 00:43:10.260
sometimes we can get very comfortable

791
00:43:10.780 --> 00:43:14.360
sitting in the words, not activating them

792
00:43:15.160 --> 00:43:18.420
because we're surrounded by so many words.

793
00:43:18.420 --> 00:43:19.040
It's kind of like,

794
00:43:19.060 --> 00:43:20.340
just give me the next fresh word

795
00:43:20.340 --> 00:43:21.960
and send me to the next prophetic conference

796
00:43:21.960 --> 00:43:22.820
and send me to the next,

797
00:43:22.980 --> 00:43:25.540
when the guest speaker comes and he's giving words out,

798
00:43:25.700 --> 00:43:27.820
and we love that and it's really life-giving

799
00:43:27.820 --> 00:43:29.200
and there's nothing wrong with that.

800
00:43:29.560 --> 00:43:32.500
The wrongness comes when we're sitting there

801
00:43:32.980 --> 00:43:35.500
still needing another word to agree

802
00:43:35.580 --> 00:43:37.400
with what God has already spoken

803
00:43:38.460 --> 00:43:41.280
and refusing to be activated by what has spoken.

804
00:43:42.060 --> 00:43:44.940
So in my former life and career,

805
00:43:44.960 --> 00:43:47.200
I worked with a lot of more mainstream,

806
00:43:47.200 --> 00:43:49.600
large multi-campus churches

807
00:43:50.520 --> 00:43:53.020
and theologically speaking,

808
00:43:53.300 --> 00:43:55.040
these churches, we all believed in Jesus, obviously,

809
00:43:55.200 --> 00:43:59.060
but usually it came down to areas of contention

810
00:43:59.060 --> 00:44:01.360
around like Holy Spirit, moving today,

811
00:44:01.760 --> 00:44:03.460
prophetic, all of that stuff, right?

812
00:44:04.960 --> 00:44:07.560
So I would sit with some pastors who,

813
00:44:07.580 --> 00:44:10.400
I mean, would have 30, 35, 40 campuses,

814
00:44:10.720 --> 00:44:11.500
have done a lot.

815
00:44:11.540 --> 00:44:13.180
And they would tell me,

816
00:44:13.840 --> 00:44:15.880
I've only really heard God speak to me

817
00:44:15.880 --> 00:44:17.020
once or twice in my life.

818
00:44:18.220 --> 00:44:18.860
And you're like,

819
00:44:19.540 --> 00:44:20.920
and some of them like,

820
00:44:21.140 --> 00:44:21.940
and I don't really think,

821
00:44:22.120 --> 00:44:23.580
I think that's how he works.

822
00:44:23.680 --> 00:44:24.980
Like, I don't think he speaks regularly.

823
00:44:25.020 --> 00:44:27.560
And you're like, ah, I can't get over there, right?

824
00:44:27.560 --> 00:44:30.120
And your heart wants to just reject everything.

825
00:44:30.280 --> 00:44:33.100
But the Holy Spirit met me in those conversations and said,

826
00:44:33.340 --> 00:44:37.120
but look at what they've built and acted on

827
00:44:37.120 --> 00:44:39.380
and agreed with based on what they only think

828
00:44:39.380 --> 00:44:41.080
has been one or two words from me.

829
00:44:43.400 --> 00:44:45.440
There's something honorable there, right?

830
00:44:45.920 --> 00:44:47.660
They didn't need, quote unquote, much.

831
00:44:47.900 --> 00:44:48.920
Now we could argue and say,

832
00:44:49.020 --> 00:44:49.980
hey, the Holy Spirit was speaking

833
00:44:49.980 --> 00:44:50.900
through all different things

834
00:44:50.900 --> 00:44:52.400
that maybe they didn't recognize, right?

835
00:44:52.420 --> 00:44:54.500
Because the Holy Spirit's always leading us and guiding us.

836
00:44:54.700 --> 00:44:56.680
And the Lord doesn't just remain silent

837
00:44:56.680 --> 00:44:57.900
and just only speak to us once.

838
00:44:58.020 --> 00:44:59.980
But maybe they're only aware of one or two words.

839
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.520
where they're like, that was the Lord, he told me to plant this church, or he told me to do this,

840
00:45:04.580 --> 00:45:12.020
right? But they are so faithful to the one or two words where they feel like God has spoken,

841
00:45:12.940 --> 00:45:18.920
and they moved on it, first in agreement in their own heads and hearts that, okay, I'm this man,

842
00:45:18.940 --> 00:45:24.380
or I'm this woman that God says I am, I'm going to do these things, and I'm going to move on that

843
00:45:25.100 --> 00:45:30.220
for years, for decades, right? Where I can look at my own journey and say, hey,

844
00:45:30.220 --> 00:45:35.760
there's things that I sat on because I was self-doubting, I was God-doubting,

845
00:45:36.860 --> 00:45:44.120
and I was just looking for the next word. I just needed another confirmation. I think God is a good

846
00:45:44.120 --> 00:45:48.540
dad, and he's really faithful to us, and he'll continue to speak and give us opportunities to

847
00:45:48.580 --> 00:45:56.280
say yes, but why not just say yes now and take one step in the direction of what is already true

848
00:45:56.280 --> 00:46:03.080
about our identities? So for me this week on Friday, it was like, hey, I'm going to record

849
00:46:03.300 --> 00:46:10.600
something in my car because I feel the go. I hope that what I say is what needs to be said.

850
00:46:10.940 --> 00:46:16.040
I'm not going to overthink it, and I'm not going to sit in a place of humiliation

851
00:46:16.700 --> 00:46:22.360
or rehearse past hurts where I've gotten it wrong or people thought I've gotten it wrong.

852
00:46:22.400 --> 00:46:26.280
I'm going to move on what the Lord has said, and I'm going to trust that he's going to meet me there,

853
00:46:26.440 --> 00:46:30.860
and then I'm going to take the next move and the next move and the next move, and I'm doing so from

854
00:46:30.860 --> 00:46:36.300
a place of trusting who he is. He'll cover me. My heart is pure. He'll cover me if I make

855
00:46:36.300 --> 00:46:41.160
a misstep, and then who I am. I'm a mother in the spirit to multiple generations, and I need to be

856
00:46:41.260 --> 00:46:49.620
mothering, and that starts with my voice, a nurturing voice, a voice of comfort, a voice of

857
00:46:49.620 --> 00:46:55.540
correction at times. I don't know the whole picture, but I know I'm coming back with more

858
00:46:55.540 --> 00:47:01.540
of a fire. I know that I need to be praying for courage. That's something the Lord has really

859
00:47:01.540 --> 00:47:05.400
impressed upon me, and get your community to be praying with you for courage right now,

860
00:47:06.100 --> 00:47:09.720
and I don't know what it's all going to look like. I don't have a blueprint, but I'm going

861
00:47:09.720 --> 00:47:14.960
to take the next step, and when there's mishaps, when the mic doesn't record, when it doesn't go

862
00:47:14.960 --> 00:47:19.860
the way I want, when my makeup's not done and I feel like I need to record right now, I'm going

863
00:47:19.860 --> 00:47:31.880
to take the step because I want to take his word so seriously. I want to take him seriously, right?

864
00:47:32.880 --> 00:47:39.040
I love him. He loves me. I want to work from that place of delight and tender love and expression,

865
00:47:39.040 --> 00:47:48.160
and I don't want to keep it to myself. I think all of us in our own ways have felt the

866
00:47:50.820 --> 00:47:59.500
discontent, the holy discontent of there's more. There's something more here, and we don't want

867
00:47:59.500 --> 00:48:05.520
the enemy to taint that with toil. I know we've talked about that, and a way to steward the more

868
00:48:06.080 --> 00:48:11.740
in a place of holy discontentment that doesn't let self-doubt come in or God-doubt come in

869
00:48:11.840 --> 00:48:17.780
is to stay steady in what he has spoken, and if you don't have more that you can

870
00:48:17.920 --> 00:48:22.640
pick up on being spoken, work on the word that has been spoken. Some of these words

871
00:48:22.980 --> 00:48:31.500
are a decade old for me, and I'm like, it's still true. I'm stepping out on this word.

872
00:48:32.140 --> 00:48:37.020
I am a mother. I'm a Deborah. That was another thing. I'm a Deborah. I must arise as a mother

873
00:48:37.020 --> 00:48:41.500
because something will be activated. Something will happen. There's something missing. Village

874
00:48:41.500 --> 00:48:48.620
life has ceased in some area that when I arise as a mother, that's going to change. I don't know

875
00:48:48.620 --> 00:48:52.960
what that is. Would be nice, but maybe not. Maybe if I didn't know what it is, it would feel

876
00:48:52.960 --> 00:48:58.600
intimidating. Maybe it's the Lord's kindness that he's like holding it for later, but I must arise,

877
00:48:58.600 --> 00:49:06.620
you must too. A voice of truth, a heart healer. Those things must arise.

878
00:49:08.040 --> 00:49:15.220
Hebrews 12 through 13, it's like what is the action required? Strengthen your feeble arms

879
00:49:15.220 --> 00:49:21.860
and weak knees. Make level paths for your feet. There's practical action when you feel weak.

880
00:49:21.860 --> 00:49:28.580
We act from our future self, not our current limitations. That is what the Hall of Faithers

881
00:49:28.540 --> 00:49:35.360
did. They started to act. Again, there was some wobbly moments. They didn't do it perfectly.

882
00:49:35.580 --> 00:49:38.580
Think about Gideon. Think about Abraham. He tried to take things into his own hands.

883
00:49:38.980 --> 00:49:45.660
That did not work out. I'm not saying, so don't be hard on yourself. This is a journey. This is

884
00:49:45.660 --> 00:49:50.480
a relational journey. There will be some ebbs and flows. Delight in that as well. There's going to

885
00:49:50.480 --> 00:49:57.280
be some discipline as Hebrews 12 talks about. It might not always be pleasant, but as you receive

886
00:49:57.280 --> 00:49:59.800
it, there will be produced.

887
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:08.820
righteousness, and peace in your life. So this is a good thing. So we are bringing in the future

888
00:50:08.820 --> 00:50:16.380
into the now. We are relating to ourselves first, our thoughts, our emotions, relining those things

889
00:50:16.380 --> 00:50:22.520
with what is true, relating to God in that way, the things we speak. I mean, I'm talking about

890
00:50:22.520 --> 00:50:29.160
being a Deborah to people who are probably just like a little bit like, okay, that's okay. It's

891
00:50:29.160 --> 00:50:33.940
I kind of have to get a little bit crazy about it because I need to, there needs to be some

892
00:50:33.900 --> 00:50:39.820
convincing. And I realized because I'm an internal processor, it has to be some, it has to be an

893
00:50:39.820 --> 00:50:44.700
outward expression for me, like conversationally, not just like when it happens, I'll be like, see,

894
00:50:44.800 --> 00:50:48.820
that's what it was. It's like, no, I'm having conversations now with people saying, well,

895
00:50:48.820 --> 00:50:53.520
I know that there's a Deborah anointing on me. I know I'm rising up as a mother. And like,

896
00:50:53.520 --> 00:50:58.140
I don't care if that sounds weird or sounds pompous or I know my heart. Right. And I've

897
00:50:58.140 --> 00:51:02.240
people around me that are speaking into me. I've got mentors, there's discipline, you know,

898
00:51:02.240 --> 00:51:05.560
there's things happening. They're sharpening their hand. I wouldn't say it that way. I wouldn't talk

899
00:51:05.560 --> 00:51:11.060
about it this way. That's okay. I'm learning. I'm not letting old hurts from old wounds or like

900
00:51:11.060 --> 00:51:15.240
whether old father, mother wounds, like come into the conversations, like in the here and now and

901
00:51:15.240 --> 00:51:20.240
being like, oh, you're just like, so-and-so, you know, it's like, no, like I'm pressing in,

902
00:51:20.620 --> 00:51:25.640
I'm pressing in, I'm pressing in. Something that Graham talks about often is like,

903
00:51:25.640 --> 00:51:31.820
read the word back to the Lord. Read it back to God. Hey, Lord, you said, hey, Lord, you said,

904
00:51:32.700 --> 00:51:36.280
do you remember that? And not from the same, not from a place of like begging or desperation,

905
00:51:36.440 --> 00:51:42.320
but like to have a conversation. Hey, Lord, remember 10 years ago when you said through

906
00:51:42.320 --> 00:51:47.780
three different people that I had this Deborah anointing? Can we talk about that? Like what's

907
00:51:47.780 --> 00:51:52.040
on your heart for that? What does that look like? Are there any practical steps I can take?

908
00:51:52.040 --> 00:51:56.400
Is there any, is there any people in my life that also share that anointing that I'm in

909
00:51:56.400 --> 00:52:01.500
conversation with? Like, and then, you know, ask those clarifying questions. You don't have to sit

910
00:52:02.200 --> 00:52:07.600
in confusion. You might not have the full picture. You might not have the full answer, but it doesn't

911
00:52:07.600 --> 00:52:12.160
mean you can't have a conversation about it. It doesn't mean that you can't press in. I think this

912
00:52:12.160 --> 00:52:18.200
for me was important because there was some passivity. I didn't realize that I was in because

913
00:52:18.200 --> 00:52:24.080
I was like, well, I'm going to let it unfold. And again, I don't want to look crazy. I don't want

914
00:52:24.080 --> 00:52:28.200
to look pompous. I don't want to look arrogant, which is all like pride. That's all. Yeah. I'm

915
00:52:28.200 --> 00:52:31.940
trying not to be prideful. I'm being prideful by trying not to be prideful. Right. And it's like,

916
00:52:31.940 --> 00:52:37.020
no, I need to seek out some things. Like the Lord is like, we see this in scripture, like,

917
00:52:37.180 --> 00:52:40.860
seek me, you'll find me. Seek me with all your heart. You'll find me. You know, it talks about

918
00:52:40.860 --> 00:52:46.760
the glory of God is to hide a matter of the glory of Kings is to seek it out. Embrace that mystery,

919
00:52:47.580 --> 00:52:50.060
press in doesn't mean settle for the mystery.

920
00:52:51.740 --> 00:52:56.760
Means embrace it and press in and have some conversation and, you know, seek it out

921
00:52:58.360 --> 00:53:02.160
and practice that identity. That's why I think that identity statements like, hey, like I need

922
00:53:02.160 --> 00:53:07.760
to have, like, I, I need to change my Instagram bio. Like, you know, I need to write this on the

923
00:53:07.620 --> 00:53:13.220
mirror. Like it needs to be ever before me right now. That's how much I want to take it seriously.

924
00:53:13.220 --> 00:53:18.580
We take scripture seriously often in those ways. Like, Hey, this first really speaks to me. I'm

925
00:53:18.580 --> 00:53:22.320
going to memorize it, which is awesome. You know, I'm going to put it on my mirror. I'm going to put

926
00:53:22.320 --> 00:53:31.020
it on my dash. Let's take the Ramah word of God seriously as well. Okay. I'm going to arise as a

927
00:53:31.020 --> 00:53:33.880
mother. I'm gonna put that on my mirror. I'm gonna put that on my Instagram bio. It's okay. People

928
00:53:33.880 --> 00:53:39.180
don't fully understand it. It's okay. It's a prophetic act for me to step out into something

929
00:53:40.200 --> 00:53:44.980
and whatever it is for you, you know, make a t-shirt, buy a hat, but it's that important.

930
00:53:46.200 --> 00:53:52.520
And Lord, what are some ways that even creatively I can agree with this word? I can step out and

931
00:53:52.320 --> 00:53:57.940
agree. He's opening my eyes to things of like, even just practicing. Like, obviously I can,

932
00:53:57.940 --> 00:54:03.400
I can expand into motherhood over my two girls. That's the most important, but also he's placed

933
00:54:03.400 --> 00:54:08.420
some people in my life, like in my immediate local community. And there just, there needs to

934
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be some nurture. So why not? Here's some opportunities for the few around you that

935
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are just needing some nurture right now. And, and, and don't do it from a scarcity mindset.

936
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So I've, this is like, you know, a safe space, but like, I'm in a place right now where local

937
00:54:25.220 --> 00:54:28.540
community feels a bit dried up because the people that I have friendship with, like,

938
00:54:28.540 --> 00:54:32.640
everyone seems to be in crisis and I don't want to like have, I don't want to add to their weight.

939
00:54:32.880 --> 00:54:37.460
Right. So there's lots of ways you can unpack that, but there's a scarcity mentality in me.

940
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It's like, Hey, am I just going to be like giving out in this season? Like,

941
00:54:40.660 --> 00:54:44.700
am I going to have any friends like speaking into me? And he's like, what if that's,

942
00:54:44.820 --> 00:54:54.060
what if it's true? Can I not satisfy? Can I not pour into you? Like, why, why does that matter?

943
00:54:56.880 --> 00:54:59.980
And it's okay to answer. It doesn't mean it doesn't matter. Well, it matters.

944
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because like I would love a friend like I would love I would love some ironing

945
00:55:03.880 --> 00:55:09.460
sharpening iron okay I'll take care of it and it's timing I got it I see you

946
00:55:09.940 --> 00:55:15.540
but don't let that stop you from walking in what I've called you to like your

947
00:55:15.540 --> 00:55:23.600
mother you have it to give right so yeah I know we're coming up we have like

948
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three minutes but I see you some I see some shaking heads I think this is

949
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resonating I would really encourage like read Hebrews 11 and 12 and get

950
00:55:34.400 --> 00:55:39.060
your own application for it you know look at the identity statements like

951
00:55:39.060 --> 00:55:43.680
write it out it could just be a sentence like Kali you just got the one you got

952
00:55:43.680 --> 00:55:46.940
that one thing from that woman like and that deeply resonated and I'm sure if

953
00:55:46.940 --> 00:55:49.600
you unearthed other prophetic words there would be connection points but

954
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like hey that's the word go that's the word go and make it make it make it

955
00:55:57.100 --> 00:56:05.360
your goal to agree like every thought every word right like take the thoughts

956
00:56:05.360 --> 00:56:11.100
captive that are not agreeing with that word the self-doubt the God doubt and

957
00:56:11.300 --> 00:56:17.600
move and see what starts to become manifest by just acting on it one step

958
00:56:17.600 --> 00:56:22.280
at a time the first step is thinking it you know I think it's Paul that writes I

959
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believe therefore I speak I don't want to take that out of context but it just

960
00:56:26.000 --> 00:56:28.580
came to my mind like I believe therefore I speak so I put you believe

961
00:56:28.860 --> 00:56:35.660
it speak it live it act it out think it meditate on it and I believe there'll

962
00:56:35.660 --> 00:56:41.500
be movement from that may see you too this is your yeah you're totally right

963
00:56:41.500 --> 00:56:46.500
Lindsay that was that was really good really timely message that's kind of why

964
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I shared it because I didn't want to be like I don't know there's a there's a

965
00:56:50.880 --> 00:56:52.960
little bit of thoughts that come up let's like oh you don't need to like

966
00:56:53.080 --> 00:56:57.240
brag about yourself or something but I wanted to speak it out because I this

967
00:56:57.240 --> 00:57:00.640
whole time we've been you were saying to get an identity statement I just hadn't

968
00:57:01.260 --> 00:57:04.640
been able to I just I don't know just the time and finding everything but I

969
00:57:04.640 --> 00:57:09.140
just got it just came to me out of nowhere and it was it was like the like

970
00:57:09.140 --> 00:57:13.980
the exact match I mean I felt like it just like matched me yeah words and

971
00:57:13.980 --> 00:57:21.200
everything and so yeah just think it agree it speak it feel it believe it

972
00:57:21.280 --> 00:57:27.140
feel it that's a good one that's a big one too yeah I'm aligned those emotions

973
00:57:27.200 --> 00:57:30.240
with you know you won't always you won't always feel it at first but doesn't mean

974
00:57:30.240 --> 00:57:34.620
you won't ever feel it and it's like what that is a great practice what does

975
00:57:34.620 --> 00:57:38.880
it feel like like to your point to Holly something you spoke was talking about

976
00:57:38.880 --> 00:57:44.600
even just the science behind when we visualize something it says it's taken

977
00:57:44.840 --> 00:57:49.720
place yeah yeah it's as if it's which is very biblical because we just read it in

978
00:57:49.900 --> 00:57:54.960
Hebrews you know it's the confidence and the assurance of what yet we do not

979
00:57:55.120 --> 00:58:01.900
see yeah so I love that well I I love you guys I'm really excited to see

980
00:58:01.900 --> 00:58:07.040
what's birthed from this like keep us also like in between calls like keep us

981
00:58:07.040 --> 00:58:09.660
updated if there's like those wins and those steps that you're taking like hey

982
00:58:09.660 --> 00:58:13.600
this happened I had this conversation I like there's no bragging in this group I

983
00:58:13.600 --> 00:58:16.940
think that when we try not to brag it's like we're scheming and it's just

984
00:58:16.940 --> 00:58:21.380
driving right like this is the place to tell all this is the place to do it

985
00:58:21.380 --> 00:58:25.940
right so like do brag is what I mean to say like it's not bragging it's just

986
00:58:25.940 --> 00:58:30.620
for its testimony and it's going to be a sign and a wonder to all of us to like

987
00:58:30.620 --> 00:58:34.460
move us forward in this you're in the direction that we've been called so I

988
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love you I love you ladies and we will talk soon