I don't know, between 25 and 30 people, but it was completely different people than were
at my last one, like a whole different set of people.
That's amazing.
How did they respond?
How did you feel?
I felt like it went really well.
It was pretty fun.
I spent the time to create like a presentation on Canva, so I had a bunch of slides to look
at.
It was a little better than just looking at a talking head.
That was a little stressful because at the last minute, I didn't think about how smoothly
that was going to go.
That might sound super easy to you, but to actually share it and stuff, and I got too
stressed out.
It worked, but I couldn't do the restream.
I just threw that whole thing away because I didn't want to have to figure out that too.
When you have too many, like if you don't have someone managing the techie back end
for you, I do feel like that's a little bit stressful.
I just ran, because I remember when we talked last week, we were running a challenge the
same week.
We were running a workshop, and I was running the challenge.
I did a challenge Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, and we had a bonus day on Friday.
I used restream, and I could not imagine teaching, having to be the one teaching, and making
sure that the restream is running correctly and sent to all the places this is running.
You're accepting the people, and you're sharing your screen.
You're making sure.
Yeah.
I couldn't do it.
I didn't want to take that on.
Yeah.
No, it is a lot, and it is doable, but it is helpful when you have someone that's able
to, like if you had someone that you're like, how kind of Sally helped manage your comments
during what, one workshop or two workshops?
Yeah, she did.
Yeah.
Like having someone like that, they can also come in and help with your, more so with your
tech stuff, because I didn't have to do any of the teaching.
I was just on making sure the restream was running and making sure that everything else
was up and running.
Yeah.
Until then, they started being like, Macy, can you share the slides one more time?
And it was like, I was zero percent prepared, and I went, and I was like scurrying and running
to try to find my Google Drive and share the slides.
And he was like, she must not be in here, and I'm like, you just on the, off the cuff
decided to tell me to start sharing the slides.
I was like, here I am, scribbling.
Did you do slides from, through Canva?
How did you do slides?
We had someone who, I just did Google, like a Google slide show.
I created them so much prettier.
They were like an ugly, just a general, because we had someone who created slides for us,
but the homeboy didn't create like slides that were editable.
He created something in his own platform and screenshotted it and dropped it into my Google
thing.
So then when I went to go change some details, I was like, excuse me, this is, this does
not work.
So then I recreated a really last minute, like not, Canva is a great option.
Like I know that Marcella uses Canva to, you use Canva to make your, your 30-day journal.
And I'm like, I feel like that is a great, easy solution, especially they have templates
that work.
They have a lot of stuff that you can just.
It worked well.
And I figured out how to share it on the full screen.
But then when I went back, cause I was trying to get the replay up on my group page, my
tribe social group page, and when Zoom recorded it, it didn't record my face.
So you could only see the slides and hear a voice, but it, for some reason it didn't
record my face in there.
I don't know why it does that.
It does do that.
It's not a you problem.
It's a Zoom problem.
As soon as you share the screen, it removes your face from it.
And it's the presentation is what is for work.
So that's kind of what, yeah, because I was nervous because I wasn't pinned.
Our two speakers were pinned.
So like Zoom has an option that I could come in here and I could, I could share the screen
and I think I can share it and I can choose.
I wonder if I can show you all this.
If you were to hit share, you can share like content only.
It pulls up a presenter layout.
It's like content only.
You can share it as a background.
So like here, let me show you.
So like when I'm sharing, I turn into a weird talking head and you can see like my
background.
Uh-huh. Isn't that kind of weird? A little bit, but at least you can see you. It's an option.
And what is that called? It's called a background. So whenever you share, it'll open up and let me.
Is that on Zoom or on Canva? On Zoom. Yeah. Oh, okay. On Zoom, as soon as you hit share,
it'll pull up and it sucks because I literally can't show you because Zoom doesn't let me here.
Let me drop down. That's okay. But it shows you. It'll make it to where it's like over your
shoulder. It'll make it to where I think I could do side by side. So like now I'm here
and the shared screen is next to me. It should be. Oh, okay. Okay. So it has a couple of like
little weird. And can you do that before your meeting starts or you have to do it while you're
in the meeting? So whenever you're in the meeting and you're in Zoom and you go to hit share,
you would just, I just dropped in the picture in the chat. So when you hit share,
this is the screen you'll see on the right. While it's a lovely picture of my right hand side,
you'll see it says content only as background over the shoulder side by side. Okay. So you can
adjust your share view as you're getting ready to go share. Okay. So it's something to play with
you could probably go into your own Zoom and yeah, I'm like test everything first. Okay.
Test everything except I freaking my, this is my story of the week. I was live onto a very public
man, public figure, like the challenge that we're running. This man has thousands and thousands and
thousands of views, followers of subscribers. And I'm over here. I go to hit start live to test it
thinking I would have the option for it to, for it to start my live on Zoom and then for it to
show and restream that live. And normally you can hit start streaming, but it just sent it to
YouTube and people are like, it's like 15 minutes before we're starting. So there's people who are
on and waiting for the challenge to start and people are eager and they're always just kind
of waiting. And so I'm literally, I'm sitting there and I'm like, the Lord's words were not
coming out of my mouth because I'm like, Oh shoot, I need to turn this off. This is not okay.
And I'm literally like, how the heck do I turn this off? And I'm, it's just me sitting here
freaking live on Chris Vallotton's YouTube. And I'm literally like,
and I'm like, Oh no, there's watching me. And so I'm turning off the live. I'm texting his,
his chief of staff and like, can you log into his YouTube and delete the live?
Pretty cool. This is no embarrassing, but it was live for like 25 seconds while I was in the
realness of that was my flounder of this. Well, yeah, I'm worried about that too,
because if you go do that, yeah, it could be live. And yeah, sometimes I don't really know
what it's going to end up on, on the other end. Sometimes I'm like, I don't know.
Yeah. It was a, it was a learning experience and I will never do it again.
Gosh. Well, I'm sure that happens. I'm sure that happens.
It's nice to know that you're human. Like the rest of us.
Exactly. Exactly.
It's funny. Cause I'm like, I know how to do it all. And I like, I'm like, I can teach you,
I can show you, but I hadn't had to do it on my own for normally it's like Bruce is running it
and I'm running it with him or like, we're not using it. Restream. I'm like running the way
that I did restream this time was different. And I'm just like, Oh my goodness. So that was
a fun experiment that I did live to a hundred thousand subscribers.
Anyways. Okay. Holly. So you had your workshop. It went well. Yeah. Did you end up offering
anything or did you just teach, do your workshop, leave it at that?
No, I wasn't really offering. I had a few people that joined that hadn't joined my group yet. And
but I wasn't really trying to offer anything or sell anything. I just want people to get
interested in what I'm talking about and to show up more and to just kind of build the group. And
like we talked about, I'll start charging eventually, but I want to get like some really
good content on there. Yeah. I think that's good. I think, and how did you end up promoting it?
Because I'm getting most of my people. I don't think I'm getting anyone from social media.
It's all just email, emailing.
Oh, I've gotten people, and it's like I said, I had about 20 people last time, a little
more this time, but different groups, there was not, I don't think there was anyone on
this one that was there in the last one.
So different people.
That's exciting.
So there's people out there that are getting, you know, they're interested, but yeah, yeah.
That's exciting.
I think it's fun when there's no one that was on the last one.
I'm like, cause typically you get your loyalists who succeed, you get your loyalists who show
up to everything that you do.
So like we have people in our challenges that literally are on, they've already taken what
we do.
Like what we do is probably the same teaching.
We just changed the title and kind of shifted around so it doesn't look exactly the same,
but like it's basically the same and they show up and are so excited every time.
But it's like, they're a, they're a follower of you.
And so they're excited.
So it's always fun when you get some new people and it's like, this is an entirely new group
because normally it's like, oh, these are normally my, like my little group that follows
me and all the things that I do.
Exactly.
Holly, so was it like a one, a one hour workshop that you did?
Yeah, it was an hour and a half.
Hour and a half.
Okay.
Yeah.
And I did like, I tried to keep the teaching really short.
I did like 20 minutes of teaching.
I did like some activations that took about 15 or 20 minutes and then the rest of it was
just Q&A.
Okay.
And you did that, you restreamed it to YouTube?
No, I was telling her I didn't.
I was going to, but it was so stressful because you can't start the restream until you start
your Zoom and it was just too much to think about.
And I was already stressed about getting, I created a presentation on Canva and I was,
I was working on getting that up on the screen and that was a little, didn't go as easily
as I thought.
And I just threw the whole restream out.
I was like, I couldn't, I couldn't figure all that out in that, at that pressure moment
right before I went on.
Okay.
I was just curious.
Okay.
I think that might, yeah.
I don't know.
I don't know what I'm doing.
Okay.
Yeah.
I'm just getting inspired.
And yeah, but like, but like what Macy said, I can't really practice the restream because
if you do it, you're live on there.
So I can't just like, I don't know.
I haven't done like a practice run.
Well, I did try to do a practice run and it didn't go, it didn't run.
So the practice run I discovered that I can do is I set up on, because I have my personal
YouTube, I ended up setting up and linking because absolutely no one is on my personal
YouTube.
So if I hit go live, that doesn't matter.
If you set it up and add it as a channel, as your personal YouTube, not like your prosper
things one, then you can do a practice and you can practice on that one, go live on that
one and then you can start.
So that's kind of how I've learned is like, okay, I have a test account for everything.
Even when I'm doing like when I'm showing you guys things in tribe in the backend, most
of the time I'm on a test account so that we can make sure like, okay, if I were to
do anything, it doesn't actually affect anything real.
It's just a trial.
Yeah.
That's a good idea.
That's a great idea.
Yeah.
Um, Marcella, how was your cruise?
Oh, it was so divine.
When I tell you I'm still like tripping, God has me tripped out.
I'm like, if ever in my life have I been tripped out positively, I've been tripped out negatively.
This trip was absolutely divine from start to finish.
Um, I was in the room with, um, women from all over the world.
I was like at one point saying, how did I, how did I get in this room?
I don't even know how I got in this room.
Um, yeah, it was just so defined.
I ended up having my roommate, I've been blessing my roommate every time I tell this story because
I don't know, you know, I don't know what was happening on her end, but she could not
make the flight to, and I think she was from like, I don't know, I think Brazil somewhere.
Um, and so I ended up having my whole room to myself on a ship.
Like it was like, oh, then somebody, I'm in line getting ready to board the ship.
And one of my hard feeling clients cashed out to me a hundred bucks.
I was like, I'm, I'm, I was literally going on this trip with like no money, no, I did
not need any money.
And I got that.
I mean, when I say it was a, it was a God trip, it was, so I'm still like tripping out.
Like, Lord, like, wow, like I'm praying over here about this.
And then you give me this.
I'm like, like, wow.
Like, okay.
What does that mean?
I'm always searching for what does that mean?
What's the name Lord?
When he gives you something good, like what is, was it, you know, it's sad to say.
Can I just be honest, you guys are my family by now, you guys are.
Like, you get so used to the struggle, just unconsciously, subconsciously, you get used
to the struggle and he does something so kind, so gracious.
All I had to do was say yes.
I didn't have to do anything.
I just saw it on, you know, I don't even know, I don't know Charissa Monroe.
I don't know her personally.
There's no relationship.
There's no, there's no invitation from somebody else that walks me in.
All God.
So I was, you know, yeah, I was really blown away.
Yeah, it's just his goodness and receiving it, you know, and it was just so good to reach
her retreat.
Her content was great.
Only one missing part that I would have loved for her to do because it was so much, so much
work processing kind of work, exercises.
I felt like the Lord was saying to me that he was cleaning up some old, old, deep, deep
things even before my parents passing, just some old things on this level to take me to
the next level.
I felt like that's what this was.
And so receiving that, being in the place to receive it, and then she didn't have like
a heart healing prayer component.
So like by the third session, we were like raw, like naked.
And I was like, oh, this would be great for a heart healing session because it was, I
mean, we were just all like, I mean, the exercise, I was not gunning for the microphone
to talk.
I was like, but I had to talk.
So I was like, one of the last people to talk, I was like, I'm going to just say out loud,
I don't want to do this.
I was so resistant.
And but yeah, I would have loved for her to have some type of healing balm kind of thing.
So if anything, if I was to say, oh, that was a missing component.
So I don't know what that's about.
I've talked to Jesus about it.
I don't know if the Lord is saying you, you might want, I don't know.
So yeah, that's where I'm at.
And then now I'm just trying to get my whole life here.
Like what are we doing?
It's almost the end of the year.
Like what are we doing?
I don't know what I'm doing anymore.
Yeah.
I love that.
I think even you asking like, Lord, what the heck am I doing here?
Like why am I here?
But the fact that like your roommate didn't show up, bless her, hope that her, sorry that
her life didn't turn out the way it should and that she wasn't on the boat.
But like, yay for you.
We celebrate the other people's.
I was doing a little holy dance in my room by myself.
I was like, when it was selling, I was like, ooh.
That's so funny.
I'm like, but the fact that even like, okay, God, why am I here?
Like you were meant to be there.
It was every single thing fell into line.
There was a purpose for you to be there.
There was a purpose for like, like you said, just kind of to like clean house.
Like there's like old stuff that you need to deal with and like you were able to have
the Lord start processing that with you there and like, even for you to be able to see.
And I know that it's because we, a lot of times what our passion is and what we're working,
we see like, oh my goodness, this is such a needed component and everything realistically,
we all have something that someone else is doing that they don't have and that we could
bring to the table.
Yeah.
And so it's like one of those things, like your, your eyes and your mind and your heart
are on heart healing.
And so you're like, this is so needed.
And then you see like, oh, there's actually a lot of value in what you did didn't have.
Like there's, it could have been a little bit more.
So it's like, I think that's fun to be able to start seeing that and to see that there's
a need for what you have and what the Lord has put on your heart.
Because it's kind of like, like you said, well, okay, what am I doing now?
Like, okay.
You're able to see, you were just on a boat with however many women, like there is a heart
healing need that is not being either.
There's not necessarily training for it, which we know that Elise and Turok do the training
for the heart healing, but like they're only two people.
Like that's why the Lord has told you to do it because it's like, we all have things,
we all have things that we're supposed to be doing and we're supposed to be teaching.
And it's like, you're supposed to bring something to the table and it's, she didn't have it.
And now you're like, wait, I have this, I have this that I'm able to bring to the table.
So I think it's looking at like, oh, actually what I'm doing is correct.
The mind, like there's a missing piece where I'm trying to go is the correct direction.
And now figuring out, okay, what do you want to do?
I think that's what I keep asking you all.
What do you want to be doing?
Yeah.
And I think, too, I know one of the things that I did walk away with at the very end
was the possibility of what I could do.
I think sometimes it was just getting in the room.
So my pastor says, he has a phrase that he has been saying, exposure brings expectations.
And so as I was exposed, and I've been exposed to so many different kinds of rooms in this
season of my life that I didn't anticipate, I think it's still, it's like God is saying,
you're still thinking too small.
You're still thinking little, like insignificant, like it's, you know what I mean?
Like it's just not, it's like brought, I feel like he, take the limits off, Marcella.
You can do it so many different ways.
And so I did embrace that, I'm still embracing it.
I will say this, I did get a chance to kind of schedule some few little repurposed reels
just to kind of keep traction going.
And so my YouTube channel did go from 235 to 249 subscribers.
And so that was great.
I was happy about that.
And I just focused on YouTube, but I think it went up a little bit on Instagram, but
I didn't, I focused on YouTube.
So I was happy about that.
And a couple of, these little few little second things were like 1.5 K views and I'm
like, oh, okay.
So yeah, yeah, I can, I see so much of what I, what I, yeah, the possibilities are endless.
The doors that, it's just me getting out of my head, yeah, yeah.
That's where he's been kind of nudging me.
Like, you know, you can, you can step out in the ocean.
Yeah.
Literally.
I think it's, it's fun because I think it is, it does feel like a dreaming season just
a little bit.
Like it's like, okay, no, we actually, there is a need.
There's a financial need.
There's a like, what the heck am I doing?
Lord, show me what the heck I'm supposed to be doing type of need.
But it's also like, I think beautiful that he was able to actually show you like, cause
I think we start to get into our head, Lord, are you actually providing, Lord, do I need
to start doing like, okay, I feel like I heard that I'm supposed to be doing this or not
doing this.
I feel like I'm not supposed to have a conventional job.
I feel like I'm not supposed to have this or that.
And you're like, but Lord, what the heck am I doing?
There's no, like, there's not provision.
There's not this, there's not that.
And you're like, okay.
And so then you start to doubt.
And then for him to beautifully show up with like providing in full, providing you a room
by yourself, someone, one of your clients sending you money for your trip.
Like I think it's those little reminders of like, no, no, you're doing the right thing.
You're on the right path.
I have you in the right place and I'm still providing and I'm still good and I'm still
gracious.
And so like, I feel like it's been a really beautiful, like even just to watch it because
I think honestly, so many people are in the same place.
I'm like, I have, I don't know why, like every conversation I have, I feel like with people,
it's people being like, I feel like the Lord just has me doing this.
I feel like the Lord has me not working, has me in a season of rest, has me in a season
of not on the grind, has me doing something and just maintaining something over here.
And like, he's kept it provided from like, for like the, to keep you at base level, but
there's no extra extravagant anything.
So I think it's interesting.
It is, it is a weird season of like the Lord kind of keeping things at bay.
So it's, it's almost more of an exciting, like, okay, everyone, not everyone, not everyone.
Some people we celebrate everything that they're experiencing, what they're going through,
but it's like, okay, it's actually really exciting for me to look at like, what's on
the other Lord, what do you have for us around the corner?
Because there's too many people, there's too many powerful, highly called people that are
going through this, that you're like, there has to be some, like, there has to be something
huge on the other side.
So it's amazing.
And I'm just reading, um, Japs, uh, testimony and I keep running into people.
God keeps connecting me with testimonies of supernatural provision.
That is really, so I, I came off the ship saying I, I, it was.
just, you know, I know it was Holy Spirit because it wasn't me. I felt like the trip was a
precursor for what is to come. And I wonder, I've been talking the last few days since I've been
home, I don't want to get emotional. Sometimes we have to learn to receive
on one level to get to the next. That's right. So here I'm reading, you know, reading this,
and I think, you know, if I can be transparent, I mean, I've been so raw on this cruise,
I came home being transparent about everything. Like, in this space and not having it shared
with anybody, it's just me and feeling very vulnerable and realizing, like, I have a
no, I'm reframing that. I'm learning to receive from the Lord. I've been, you know, my pre-life
was, I was the giver, I was the one, I was like, let me bless you, let me do, I've been that. And
now it's like, flip, flip, flip, you know, and yeah, so. Let me just affirm that because,
and I don't have time to tell you the stories, but the truth is, is that the Lord places us in
situations sometimes for us just to receive, you know, and I've been there and I've told
people, look, I know what it's like to be fed by ravens, okay, because we have gotten up,
you know, in the morning and suddenly there was meat in the freezer that was not there the day
before. Okay. I've lived through that. Okay. You know, I was, you know, I've watched as God has
just, just really quick. My very first trip to New York, it was a business trip,
you know, for the company. And the one thing I wanted to do, and this was years and years and
years ago, but I wanted to go see on Broadway, Jelly's Last Jam, which was the story of Jelly
Roll Martin. And it was Gregory Hines and Savvy, very young Savvy and Glover at the time. And,
and so I thought, you know, that would just really be nice. Bottom line is, you know,
it's been sold out for, for months. I go to TKTS because occasionally they, what they do is sell
tickets for that night or that afternoon that haven't been sold yet. And when I asked for the
tickets, I got there the first thing in the morning, the lady actually laughed at me because
it's been sold out for months. So it's like, okay. So I just go through, I'm, you know, shopping
around Times Square and seeing everything for the first time. And I come by the theater as they are
in, okay, for the afternoon show. And, and I just watch everybody go in and I'm just standing there.
I said, well, it would have been nice. And this guy walks up to me and goes, do you want to see
the show? I said, yeah. He goes, well, I got one ticket left. You can, you know, I'll sell it to
you for 20 bucks. So he tells, he sells me the ticket. And again, my first time in New York,
I think that I must have, you know, sucker planted on my forehead or something,
but I hand the lady the ticket and I'm carrying bags because I've been shopping, right?
And she starts, she takes me into the theater and I'm thinking it's going to be up in the
nosebleed section. So, but I'm happy. I'm just getting to see it.
And we start walking down the aisle, down, down, down, down, third row, dead center,
okay, to, to the theater. And both Gregory Hines and Savin Glover are, are doing the matinee.
And I'm just like, Lord, what, what, you know, why? And, and what I heard very distinctly,
just because I love you. Okay. There is, there's one seat dead center. People are sitting here.
People are sitting here. I'm just trying to stuff my bags underneath my seat. So I'm not blocking
anybody. And that was, you know, and that was just God saying, you know, just cause I love you.
And he does that. Okay. You know, and, and so just to affirm that and believe me,
I have more and more and more stories that I could share with you about God's provision
and learning to live in it. And what people are learning to do now is to do just that.
Okay. It's not worrying about everything that's going on around, but just abiding in the provision
of God. So with that, I actually have to go, but I will catch the rest of the recording tonight.
And I just want you to know, Macy, I told you that, you know, that I wanted you to hold me
accountable. You've actually been holding me accountable. I've gotten so much done. It's,
it's incredible, but I will write that up and put that in just so that, you know.
Yes, please do. I was gonna, I was gonna, you got on the call today and I was like,
woo. Oh yeah, exactly. But they're on the other call now. So I got to run, but love.
You all, and let's see, we have, what, two more weeks?
One more week?
No, like two more weeks, I think it's two more weeks.
Okay, all right, I will absolutely do what I can.
So, love you all, and I'll see you later.
Bless me, bless me.
Yeah, that's great.
I think it's such a good reminder,
like Holly put in the chat, like, you are worthy.
And it's, we all are, like, even Yap,
with you guys getting, like, that is amazing.
For you to even say that, like,
for you to go out there and say that we could move
and buy a house outright, and not have to rent,
like, the Lord is so kind, and we are so worthy.
I had a necklace, I have, I actually have a tattoo
that says worthy on the back of my arm,
and I had a necklace for a really long time,
and then I switched it to a tattoo,
because I'm like, it needs to be a reminder,
like, we need to be reminded all the time.
We are worthy of receiving things from man,
and from God, because we are usually,
it is, we are usually, like, like you said,
you normally are the one that's blessing everyone's socks off
and giving to everyone, and like,
and you're not in that season, and like, that's okay.
It's okay for you to be shown,
and for you to be lavished on by the Lord,
because I'm like, I have someone very close in my life
who's literally like, our mortgage is 15, 20 grand,
and we are making enough money to maybe pay our mortgage.
We have other bills that need to be paid.
We scraped together every penny from every account
that we had to go pay our car payment this month.
Like, Lord, last season, and the wife made a comment
of like, well, maybe we already had our,
like, maybe we already had our season of wealth,
and you're like, no, that's not how that works,
and just trying to remind ourselves, like, okay,
there's a good transition of like, okay,
we were able to, by our work,
make those things happen at some point,
and now we're able to step into a place of like,
okay, let's let the Lord, like, we say, Lord, I trust you.
We say, Lord, I give you my everything.
I give you my, like, I trust you with my finances.
I trust you.
Like, you say the freaking declarations,
or some churches do the declarations offering prayer,
and you're like, Lord, I give you my finances.
The whole purpose of tithing,
it's the whole purpose of giving an offering
is like, one, generosity, but two, like, to show the Lord,
Lord, what I have is yours,
and then for him to be like, okay, all right,
and then holding us to that and changing the season,
and it doesn't mean that you're in a season of like,
I'm never gonna be provided for in a normal way again,
but it's just like that short season of like,
let me bless you.
Let me show you that you're worthy
of me actually providing for you upfront,
and choosing, like, the season doesn't look the same,
and that's okay.
It doesn't mean like, we live long lives.
I mean, they're really short lives
in comparison to eternity, but like, we live long lives.
There are seasons.
It could be a year season.
It could be, and for right now,
it feels like it's a really long, deep, hard, and it is,
but it could be you could look back at yourselves
in six months and be like, what the heck, God?
So, yeah.
Well, this is so encouraging and so exciting,
just in general.
I feel like that everyone, I'm like,
there's such a little amount of us in here,
but just like in general to be like,
it's encouraging to get to hear
even that like, that's why we're so big on the testimony,
because whenever you hear other testimonies,
it's like, wow, that's so amazing.
Like, look what God is doing in everyone's lives
in different capacities,
but like, the Lord is radically blessing, like, all of us,
and it's fun to get to hear it
because you would have absolutely no idea otherwise.
And then also, like, when you share the testimony,
it opens up the, kind of opens up the gates
for others to be able to receive the testimony
for themselves as well, and to show like,
wow, God, it is possible for me to receive
a chunk of money that pays for a house.
Like, wow, God, it is possible for me to receive a free cruise
and have be blown away more than I thought it,
like, get out of it more than you thought
you were even going to get out of it, like, so.
Yes, does anyone else have any thoughts?
So I do have a question, if I can add,
because I do want to, like, share it as a testimony
on my social media channels.
So I'm trying to,
You know, I'm such a processor, so, you know, it takes me a minute to come out of the clouds
and be like, okay, how do I share this?
So yeah, I guess that's my question, like, how do I nutshell, what do I do, how do I,
I don't even know how to do it.
I don't even know what I should share.
What do you guys think?
Because I do want to share it and I did take pictures and yeah, I did talk, you know, talk
a little bit, you know, kind of, I wrote some things and then sharing with the other ladies.
I mean, not only, you know, we're a good group of ladies that have stayed connected.
Some of them came here because my, you know, walking distance, so they, four of the ladies
came here and hung out until their flights because some of them had late, late, late
flights and yeah.
So anyway, ideas.
I think, and anyone is free to share what your thoughts are, I feel like it's fun to
get to, like, it is fun to get to share those things and hear those things.
And I don't think, because then I think there's the, the thought process of like, am I going
to share too many details?
Like do I not want to share too many details?
But I think like give a general, you could do a video, you could even just, you could
do, I don't know how much work you want to put into it, but you could do a video and
add in some of the, like, as you're talking and sharing your story, kind of add in some
of the pictures that you're doing, or you could just do a photo carousel and you could
just choose to do a photo carousel and write a little, like, testimony.
You could write the, like, fun testimony for this month and share a little bit of the story.
But you could also do that, you, I mean, I'm gonna be honest, you could do both.
Why not?
Why not do a photo carousel, post five to ten photos on whatever, and then you can utilize
it for different, for like, Instagram and Facebook would probably be photos, you're
not gonna, I mean, you can do on TikTok, you can do those, not, I don't think on YouTube
you can.
But you can post the photos and you could give a written testimony, and that'll kind
of help you give a little bit better of like, because I know you script out a lot of your
stuff, and you would be writing it out anyways.
So why not take what you've written and post it, and you could always add music into the,
when you make a post, how you can just, if you do a photo post, you can add music into
it.
So you could always just add music so it plays while people scroll through.
And then you could go through and share, like, I had an exciting testimony that I want to
share, blah blah blah, share your testimony.
Like, you can also change it into, like, receive testimony for yourself, we share so you can
receive and so that you can, you can kind of take it in that, or just share it flat
out, share your testimony.
Why not?
I think it's fun.
Does anyone else have any thoughts?
No?
No one else has thoughts?
Okay.
I actually kind of missed the question.
I caught a little bit of it, but.
She wants to share her testimony on the internet, and was asking about how we, if that feels
like a good idea, or if that sounds like, or what ideas could be around posting it.
I liked your idea of doing both.
Doing, like, the photos with the written testimony, and then just doing, like, maybe
shortening, doing, like, a really short, brief spoken testimony.
Do both.
Mm-hmm.
Yeah.
Yeah, because I feel, I feel such a, I mean, just because it was, because I'm over here
praying about, I'm over here talking to him about this, and then he does this, I feel
like it's something to be, especially in this time we're living in.
And I think you can, I think you can tie in, you can be, I think, as vulnerable, because
it's the internet.
It's like, okay, we're not trying to share our, share, like, there's different things
you share in a smaller, intimate group of people that you've, like, walked with for
the last year, versus what you share out in open on the internet, and I think we can test,
like, what do we feel like, because sometimes the Lord's like, actually, I do feel like
you're supposed to share a little bit more detail than you're putting out.
And I think you'll know as you're writing it out, I think you'll know what you're supposed
to share in it, and what you're not.
Yeah.
But I think it's, it's a good, I think, also a reflection of being able to actually sit
and write it down and reflect, and I'm sure, I'm like, I feel like you probably journal
in general, or you write out your thoughts, or you.
Like, I think writing some things out,
it'll help you process it a little bit better.
And the Lord will probably show you
and speak to you through that as well.
Like, I feel like a lot of times,
even whenever we get, like I had,
I went to this back in 2020, right before COVID happened.
I went to the Send in Brazil and was able to,
I was halfway through the trip
and it was such a jam packed,
like the busiest ministry trip.
And even the leaders of the trip were like,
I've run ministry trips for years.
I worked with YWAM and with this and with that.
And like, I've never had such a jam packed ministry trip.
And like, for you to be able to go into something
and be like, the Lord did so much.
But then you get into the motions of life
and you're like, oh yeah, that did happen.
And so then I had to stop in the middle of the trip
and the Lord was like, you need to start writing down
what's been happening every day and what's been happening.
So you can actually go back and look back
and like, I'm gonna speak to you through like,
oh wow, doesn't that challenge a mindset
that you had about this?
And doesn't that challenge what you're doing?
Because I know a lot of it is probably especially in,
if the Lord's bringing up healing things in you
and brought especially, like you can get caught up
in the like, oh, she day freaking one,
you guys were vulnerable and emotional
and like, your heart was on your sleeve
and you're processing a lot
and more vulnerable than you thought.
And then you get caught up in like, oh yeah,
I have to remember the Lord did so much
and you can get caught in the emotions
and writing it out helps to make it more practical.
And then you can also look through it and be like,
okay, Lord, what did you do?
And he'll kind of highlight some things
and I'll probably highlight some things in the writing
that you should emphasize on in your video.
I like it.
I mean, I'm gonna do it.
I feel very pulled to do it, so.
Yeah.
No, I think that's good.
And Yap, he was saying that the experience
has been to focus on one clear part of the testimony
so you can keep it short and keep it like,
I feel like it's the same thing in prophecy.
Keep it short, keep it powerful,
keep it to where people can actually grasp onto it.
I think that's a really good,
like don't make it a 10 minute.
If you feel like you're supposed to do it,
well, you could do a five minute.
You could do a one minute.
Why not?
Get as much out of it.
There's so many aspects to this, like to-
I'm so verbose.
My whole thing is, let me just stay
within that six to seven minute.
And I haven't even done it yet.
I'm just like, I did it before
when I started with Bruce and Lindsay
and it seems so easy.
Well, looking back, it seems so easy.
Now that I'm here, I've done so much short form content
to do something longer now.
It's like, pull my teeth out.
Isn't that funny?
And I talk so much and I'm like,
Marcella, I don't know why you're tripping.
Like, I'm talking to myself saying it.
Why are you tripping?
I have a little thing too.
Cause I tend to also not be able
to really write it very well.
But when I'm speaking, I can get the words out.
Like it makes sense.
But so I told Sally this,
I just like ramble and then have my computer dictate
what I'm saying or I record it.
But now I'll just have chat GPT make a summary
because otherwise I'm gonna have, like you said,
I'm gonna have, I'm pretty good with video,
but it's giving me so much text.
So you can have chat GPT, yeah,
that's a really good idea, I think.
And then you can also like do it again
based on the chat summary
and kind of tweak it.
But it kind of helps if you do it a couple of times,
you can, in your mind, it gets a little bit more clear
and then you can get to the point.
So anyway, that's one of my golden keys
that I learned for myself.
What do you record it on first?
Well, I just usually do dictate on my computer, on my phone.
Oh, on your phone.
What do you call it?
It types out what you speak.
Oh, I don't know what that is.
I, yeah.
I'd like to know.
Yeah, I do talk into my smart recorder.
This button, oh my gosh.
Oh, the microphone, yeah.
Microphone button.
I like that, yeah, yeah, yeah, okay.
If you tap it, I'm gonna start talking
and then it's gonna start writing out next to me
and then you can keep talking.
It'll keep on typing and you can keep on going
and it'll-
Wait, but what are you on?
What are you, are you on?
You do that on literally anything,
on your texts, in your notes.
Notes is probably like, you'd probably go at it
because you're trying to put the thoughts together,
but putting it in your notes makes it really-
Easy, but you can do that in text.
So like even if-
I don't see a microphone on mine.
Let me see.
You have a note section on your phone?
At the bottom.
Wait, go back.
At the very, very bottom.
Oh, the very bottom.
And then there's that.
So Bruce had told us in Kingdom Messengers about Otter.
And I do use Otter because,
and I just use the free version
and it'll transcribe up to 30 minutes.
And I do use that for a lot of the things,
but I haven't done it yet for my long form.
So I do, that's a reminder.
Yeah.
I'll have to go back.
Thank you.
That's great.
Cause that's very helpful.
And then it'll transcribe it and you can, yeah.
Yeah, that's nice.
Are you all external processors?
Are you internal processors?
I'm both.
Both, yeah.
I'm more internal than I am external,
but given a safe space to talk openly,
which I'm learning to do more of that
since I've been in this group and some of my other groups.
Otherwise I would not.
I would just be in my journal,
just typing away, me and Jesus talking, you know.
But since I've been here,
I'm trusting the safe spaces, the rooms that I'm in.
Yeah, same here.
I'm more internal, but I found that
if I do too much internal processing,
I start to feel like I'm gonna explode.
Like it's just builds up, builds up, builds up.
And I have to verbalize it.
I have to get it out to somebody.
I am the same.
That's very funny.
I'm the same.
I'm literally like, I could internally process,
but I feel like as I start to externally process,
then you're like, oh,
maybe I'm more of an external processor than I thought.
Cause like, I'm trying to think my dad
is an external processor.
And it's like,
I feel like when you're an external processor,
the thoughts that come out of your mouth,
like usually if you're an internal processor,
you think it through in your head
before it comes out of your mouth, just a little bit.
Unless you type really fast.
And then you start to go into the process of like,
oh, I can actually, I thought about it just a little bit
and then I can talk it out after I've thought it through.
No, no.
This man is like, the thought comes to his head,
it comes out of his mouth, he processes it.
And then he's like, all right, I'm done.
And we'll move on.
And all of us who are internally processing
what he's externally processing,
or like if you're a doer and you go into doing
and like, he's like, oh, I have this idea.
And I have this idea.
And I want to do this and this.
And I don't want to do this and this.
And oh, let's do this.
And you're like, okay, how can I make that happen?
And then he's like, I was just processing, it's done.
And you're like, yeah, so internal,
we're all internal processors.
But here's the thing, I think for me too,
I think there is a fear of judgment
that I know God is helping me with.
Because I'm of the generation where you are,
children were to be seen and not heard.
But I was a thinker and a processor.
So I learned that's where my journals came from.
And my parents, old school,
they didn't like for you to express yourself.
What do you mean when you wrote this in your journal?
And I was saying, it's a journal.
So over the years, over the years,
I became, if I said some things out loud,
it got judged or it got criticized,
or some things, some backlash.
I learned to, because I'm an extrovert,
I learned to keep my thoughts to myself,
or think them through, or not say anything.
And I feel like God is liberating me
in this season of my life.
And am I heading to 60?
He's freeing me.
He has so much life left.
And so much left.
I'm not even left, it's just getting going.
It's true.
And there's so many things I think it's fun to get to see.
I mean, we can be in this process for,
I mean, I feel like life,
probably until the day we die is a process.
We don't have it all figured out,
probably until I'm like,
my grandparents are 75, 75,
and trying to figure out like,
all right, what are we doing?
I'm bored.
I don't wanna sit.
Like, you're expected to be old,
and sit, and not work, not do anything.
And it's like, some people love that.
But I'm like, they're like, I'm bored.
I wanna go do something.
I'm like, I think life is a process.
What are we doing with our lives until,
it'll probably change over, and over, and over, and over,
until we die.
All right, enough of internal, external.
Does anyone have anything I can?
help them with or anything that they need any, um, anything on?
No? No? No? Marcella, you're gonna do some more video stuff as you're back,
now that you've been back processing video. I know that we had talked about
you taking a break and not doing anything, but are you going
to start putting content out kind of like Holly
was saying, like just trying to get content out?
You have content out? Are you going to start planning for a little, a little
60, 60 minute workshop? Yeah, that's why I was so interested in what Holly, Holly, um,
shared earlier. Um, yeah, I'm just now, I just have to, so I'm such a thinker in my head,
you know, I just got, it has to be right. Um, so I'm just trying to figure out how to do it.
I did see that Zoom does let you stream to YouTube. I haven't set it up to know that. And,
you know, right now I'm all things free. So whatever free, and I know one more,
there was StreamYard. Is anybody still using StreamYard? Has that gone away or?
My assumption is people use StreamYard. Okay. I only want to stream to, I only want to stream to,
to YouTube and maybe do clips on the other, um, you know, small, the small clips, but kind of,
I really want to go back to the beginning of starting with Kingdom Messenger.
I feel like I'm being called to do that. I feel like that's where he gave me this whole
finding me with Dr. Marcella and all this growth and stuff. And so I feel called to go back there
and just, um, put the focus there and not on the short content. The short content was easy,
quick, um, and it's great. I've learned a lot. Um, you know, I tell Bruce all the time,
I'm kind of, I didn't know I was such a techie. I'm turning into a little tech person. Um, I
yeah, I am thinking about what Holly was saying, like a 60, 90 minute workshop, you know, around
declaring God's word and its impact. I think it's necessary. I think it's needed. I do have several
people that have given me comments of them doing the journal, the process of it, what has caused
them to think about the word in a way that they haven't done before. And I'm like, that's my
area that God has gifted me with. So. Hey, Marcella, you might just want to just do it and
try it. Cause I, the first, this, uh, uh, Thursday was my third workshop on my first one. I had two
people and that was it, but it was fine because I was figuring everything out. And then, um,
the second one, I had like 20 people. And then the third one I had like,
I don't know, between 25 and 30 people, but a different set of people.
So you kind of just have to start doing it and, um, you know, you just kind of have to go for it.
Yeah, I think so. I feel that seems so scary.
It is scary. It's really scary, but you kind of just go, you just got to go.
Go. I received that and I am going, I will go.
Good. You will go. I will hold you to it.
Macy, I only need to stream to my YouTube too. So maybe I don't need to use a restream
because it won't let me, restream won't let me stream to
Instagram or Facebook because I don't have enough followers.
You can do, I think, yeah, because we're now past the point of Instagram and Facebook being
a struggle. And I think that's a new, like Bruce was saying, I think that's a new thing
because that was not the thing. If you go into, so whenever you're in your own personal YouTube,
go to the bottom, how you would go live stream, you would hit more.
If you go to live stream and then you can hit live on YouTube.
And then I think it'll have you log into your YouTube and probably set up a live,
but you could do it that way. I would probably Google
how to live stream from Zoom to YouTube.
Yeah, I think I Googled that, how to live stream from Zoom to YouTube.
And it did give me this, and I got to go back to it. It was like maybe last month sometime
when we were talking about it. It's a little blurry now, but yeah, I Googled it and it showed
me that you can directly go live from Zoom to YouTube. That's why I was just going to make it
easier myself and then keep the recording and then just chop it up and just do what I'm going to do
with it. So I know it's possible. I know there were Google instructions.
There's instructions I just dropped. What I think is them.
Okay.
I could be wrong, but if you search something of that nature, it should come up.
But whatever you're going for.
And I copied it and pasted and I pasted in my notes, so I know I have it.
I just got to go back in and set to set it up.
Yeah.
And I think you doing, I think just Holly is right.
Get out there and do what you want.
Because you're going to overthink it.
And I think you're going to have, I think taking it back to our six chunks of 10 minutes.
Yeah.
Start with an hour.
Don't start with a 90 minute.
Don't overwhelm yourself.
If you start with a 90 minute, you're going to overwhelm yourself and not do it.
Yeah.
Start with your hour.
Break it into your 10, 10 minutes.
You don't even have to.
I'm like, if it is easier for you, do your first one.
And I, Bruce would probably shoot me if he heard me telling you to do one and not make
an offer.
Oh yeah.
I plan to make an offer.
Okay.
I'm like, you could do one.
And if you want to do your first one and just be used to teaching first, you could do one
and just teach for your, or talk for your first 60 minute one.
And then your next one, you could teach.
Bruce would shoot me if you ever heard me say that.
He'd be like, why the heck are you doing a workshop without making an offer?
But I feel like the, let me find it in my notes.
I feel like you doing, what would we say?
Intro, sharing, sharing, sharing, offer, closing.
I feel like that makes it easier to digest, at least in your mind and your heart.
And you just go ahead and do it.
It doesn't need to be overproduced.
You don't need to have a huge landing page.
You don't need to have a huge anything for it.
Just use sign up registration page.
Like literally, if you wanted to use the, just the zoom registration, if you want to
make it really, really simple.
Okay.
And I know that you like building, like, I feel like you have time and you like building
those things out.
So like you could build a registration funnel type page type.
Oh, okay.
If you want to.
Go landing page.
Yeah, if I want.
And I may just use, I was just sitting here thinking, you know, and Holly was sharing
about it, like just going to the people that have signed up.
You know, the people that I have on mailing lists, so just kind of going back to, I have,
I have two different groups.
So I have the, my first group are the people who signed up for my heart healing sessions.
They got heart healing sessions and I have the new group, they got the journal.
I'm now thinking I got an old, old, old group.
I don't, you know, there's some people on there that I might want to just say, hey guys,
you know, that is, you know, followed me years ago and other things I've done.
Hey, this is what I'm doing.
You want to jump into a workshop with me around the word of God.
I just want to do like a little cute title.
I'll come up with something and just kind of get, cause I want to get talking to build
something, create something.
I feel like I'm doing all the talking today.
Let me shut up.
No, we have three minutes left.
You're fine.
We've all taken turns.
I mean, we meaning you all have all taken turns as the weeks have gone.
I've had a year of you all taking turns.
So it's okay.
The Lord is due.
I'm like, I don't be afraid to be like, the Lord's done a lot on you this last week.
The Lord is, I feel like the last, well, I'm trying to think, when did you get back last
week?
I'm trying to become a lip reader.
That's what I'm trying to do right now.
Cause you're muted.
I'm sorry.
I'm just talking.
It says you're, you're, you're unmuted.
Um, I got back last Tuesday.
Yeah.
Last Tuesday.
My days have been a blur.
I just realized it's November.
It's funny when you're on there, you just lose track of everything.
And so it kind of took me a minute to relax because I had people that kind of, you know,
like I said, that stayed and I was up and down.
Some of them were leaving in the middle of the night and seeing them out and then the
next day and yeah.
So anyway, I think my, my, I think I'm landed right now.
I think I'm finally.
Good.
Do you ever want to tell us about your testimony?
True.
Was that for me?
Yeah.
Well, uh, yeah, we, it was just crazy.
It feels like God has been saying to me personally, in any case, like he's been speaking some
things about that.
I knew I kind of needed to do, or I didn't really know, but I ended up doing them kind
of like, it feels like God's been saying, you've been, you've been trying to do a lot
on the outside.
Like someone spoke to me once that I see you
as like a superhero, but you're in a transparent suit.
And so it's like, it's about the secret identity,
not about the public identity.
You should work on the secret identity.
So like the boring stuff of life sort of like become,
you know, who Superman is behind the scenes sort of.
So anyway, I really started getting into that
and I just really felt like, you know,
that had to do with a lot of downstairs stuff.
What I kind of shared about even earlier with Pedro
about just working normal jobs and everything,
instead of kind of like finding a way
to circumvent that for some reason, you know.
I mean, it's maybe not a lot of stuff that other people
have is very familiar to them.
It's kind of strange maybe, but anyway,
so I really did my best with that.
And I also just feel like that was kind of a reaction
that God gave like this.
He was so, you know, whenever you take a little step,
he's like so generous, you know, to bless you.
And like I said, we'd been looking for a house
and everything, and it was just,
God wasn't doing anything.
It seemed like, but we felt like we were sowing seeds.
And then, yeah, I'm not gonna say who it was,
but it was just so overwhelming.
Called me up and said,
hey, we thought that maybe the best way
we could help you get a house is by giving you this.
And I was just, you know, we were,
I accidentally filmed myself
while I was listening to the phone call.
Oh, that's great.
Yeah, my facial expression was really funny.
So anyway, that's kind of what I wanted to share about that.
Yeah, and it was overwhelming, so.
I can imagine that's overwhelming,
but that's so exciting.
Like, I feel like I have absolutely no words
because that's amazing.
And like-
That's how we feel.
Yeah, I'm like, would you ever have expected that?
Probably not.
Would you ever look at your life and be like,
we were given the money to buy a house?
But it's like-
No, right, I mean, it's like more than we could ever ask
for, think, or imagine, you know?
Yeah, and it's more fun
because now you get to actually dream,
like instead of kind of, like I said,
it's kind of, it feels like it's a dreaming season
for a lot of people where it's like,
oh, what do you actually want to be doing?
Where do you want to go?
What do you want, like, where do you want to buy a house?
Do you now don't feel like you have to be stuck
in a certain place?
Like, where do you want to go?
And so I feel like it is fun
that you even get to be in that position now
to be able to, like, you guys get to dream together
of what you want to be doing, where you want to go,
what type of people you want to be around.
So I think that's cool.
That's cool, yeah.
Wow.
Yeah, okay, everybody.
It is one o'clock.
We have, today was supposed to be Lindsey, not me.
And then we have one more week after that,
and my goal still is to have Bruce and Lindsey
be on together for our last week.
So it will be the 18th.
So please, if you need anything, pull on me.
I'm doing a work session on Friday with Cindy.
Yeah, doing a work session on Friday with Cindy.
So I'm still open and available,
but I'm not sure if I'll be able to do it.
I hope you all have a great week,
and we will see you, hopefully, next week.
Really nice to listen to all you guys.
Yeah.
Yeah, it's been a fun session.
Thanks for the ideas.
Okay, bye guys.