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Hey, everyone, and welcome to Supernatural Saturday.

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Today is going to be a great day.

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We are going to talk about something that I think is going to be so freeing, so releasing,

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so empowering for all of us, and we're going to get there in just a second.

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But I want to make a few announcements this morning, a lot of really cool things happening.

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We are finishing up the Heartwork for Couples curriculum today, and we're going to have

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that out there.

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So if you know a couple, a married couple, we're going to start out with just married

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couples, because if you're dating and you're engaged and you need the course, you need

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this course.

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I know what's in the course.

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Specifically, I know what's in there.

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So if you need this course already and you're dating and engaged, then you ought to break

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up, okay?

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Because this is going to help you to remember why you're together in the first place.

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It's going to help you to get on the same page with mission, because marriages are for

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ministry.

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Not inside the church building ministry, but ministry, the ministry of reconciliation to

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the world.

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One can't, but two can.

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And so it's going to remind you of those things.

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It's going to reconnect you.

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It's going to help you to do the things that you need to do in order to be the spirit mate

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power couple that God has for you to be.

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And so if you know a married couple that is a candidate for this, please share it.

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Please share it with them.

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You can sow into your future marriage by sowing into someone else's marriage.

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You know that someone that's struggling, it doesn't have to be someone that's struggling,

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just someone who's been married for a long time.

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They probably need this if they've been married for a long time.

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I know that you guys don't want to hear this because you haven't been married yet.

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Some of you have never been married yet, but marriage is hard, okay?

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It is.

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It's hard.

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And it's even harder if your heart is hard.

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And so this is going to help people to remember what God had planned for their amazing partnership

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in the first place.

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And it's going to be very powerful.

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So anyway, that's coming out probably on Monday is when we'll begin to release that.

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We might even release it to our community today or tomorrow, but we'll release it to

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the world on Monday and that's going to be exciting.

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And that is leading the way into our couples membership.

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So a lot of people get married here, as you know, 1600 plus people, and we need a place

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for them to continue to be in community with us because they want to be.

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In fact, some of you that are listening right now are married, but you just couldn't, you

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couldn't leave because you love us so much.

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And so we have a place called Spirit Mates, the Spirit Mate community, and that is going

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to be for seriously dating couples, engaged folks, and married people that came in through

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this community.

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It won't be open to the public.

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It'll just be open to us.

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And that will be a great place for people to continue to grow together within this community.

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And it's going to be exciting.

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So much, so much is happening, friends.

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We're releasing our retreat schedule for 2026.

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So many of you are like, Hey, why can't you just release stuff earlier so that I can plan,

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get off work.

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I'd really like to come, but it's always too, too short a notice.

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Well guess what?

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It's a whole year's notice.

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I'm going to release our retreat schedule.

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We are having a huge retreat in Austin.

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For those of you that wanted to come to Austin, but it was capped at, I think we had 20-ish

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women.

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Not this year.

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This year, our women's retreat in Austin is going to be for 40 or more people.

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We're actually going to be staying at a really amazing hotel instead of just that.

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The house is what causes us to have to cap it.

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So we're going to have a bigger retreat with even more incredible activities.

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So excited about the Austin retreat.

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This will be our third annual Austin retreat that we've had in five years.

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This will be our third one and it's going to be great.

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So if you've always wanted to come to that particular retreat, you're in luck because

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we are opening it to more and more people.

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It's going to be less expensive and it's going to be shorter, a little shorter, just a long

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weekend, but also opening it up to more people.

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And then we have retreats in Florida.

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We have a retreat in New York.

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We have a retreat in California.

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We have a retreat, I'm trying to think, we may or may not do our Columbia retreat again

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this year.

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I got to talk to the organizers of that and see, but we are going to be releasing that

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retreat schedule very soon on JackieDorman.com.

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There is a entire event retreats page.

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We are also going to be having a couple of singles conferences.

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Oh, Tennessee is another retreat destination, but we're going to be having a conference

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in Tennessee.

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We're going to be having a conference in Florida.

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We're going to be having a conference in Austin.

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And I am going to be speaking at a couple of conferences up in the East in New Jersey,

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New York, Long Island.

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So lots of exciting things coming for 2026, lots of opportunities for you to get together

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in person and also.

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to meet a spirit mate. So very excited about all of those things. And you guys will always be given

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the first opportunity to register. We will never make things public before all of you get an

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opportunity to register for every event, every retreat. And if it sells out within our community,

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then it sells out within our community and we will not post it elsewhere. All right, let's get

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started. Father God, we're so thankful for your goodness and your love. We are so thankful, God,

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that we have been born for such a time as this, that we are living on the earth during these days.

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We're not going to focus on the hardness of these days. We're not going to focus

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on the fear that's coming from the culture. We are going to focus on your promises. We're going

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to focus on your truth. We're going to focus on what you said we could do if we partnered with

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you. And so God, we are very excited about our futures. We're excited about the future of your

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kingdom on earth. And we partner with you today. And we say, yes, we give you our yes today.

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We don't give you the rest of us. We give you the best of us today. And we say, whatever it is, God,

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wherever you want to send us, whatever you want to do, let it be done in Jesus name. Amen.

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All right, friends, when I first met Jesus in my 20s, I was really wondering why all the people

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our age, the age that I am now, the age that all of you guys are, we'll call it old enough to know

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better. You want to call it old enough to know better? I wondered why all the people that were

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older in the church seemed so bored. I was so excited about Jesus, just as I still am, as you

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can see. I was so excited to go out there and tell everybody about Jesus. I don't consider myself

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necessarily an evangelist, but I was very excited to win souls. I was very excited to win souls.

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I was so thankful for all that God had delivered me from and that he had helped me through,

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even though I was only 22 years old, I'd had a rough life already, a rough 22 years. And I was

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so thankful for all the things that God was doing in my life and just being free. I was so thankful

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to be free and I wanted to tell everybody. And I just didn't understand why everybody was just

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patty-caking for Jesus, just barely dragging through the door of the church, sitting around,

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not enthusiastic, no zeal anymore about the kingdom of God. And religion is part of that.

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But I will tell you the other part of that is that those people were twice my age and they

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had seen a lot. They had seen a lot of life, but also they had seen a lot of disappointment.

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I think the church age promised people a lot of things, but didn't tell them about the process.

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There was a lot of name it and claim it, blab it and grab it kind of theology back then,

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but people didn't understand how to walk that out and actually make it a reality. And so they

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began to believe that God was holding out on them at some point. And I want you just really

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be honest with me this morning, because we're going to go somewhere incredible. And I believe

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there's going to be a lot of breakthrough, but raise your hand if at some point in time,

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maybe right now, maybe yesterday, maybe last year, you've really not just felt disappointed,

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but you have felt like God has not made good on promises or that somehow you're being held out on.

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This is not the time to lie to yourself or God because He already knows you.

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And even if you didn't say it out loud, He can see your heart.

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So if you felt left out, left behind, forgotten, forsaken, let's get the hands up.

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If even for a brief second, you felt like shaking your hand at the heavens like Bruce Almighty and

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saying, smite me almighty, smite her. Let's see your hand.

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There's quite a bit of people who don't have their hands up. And I just want to say for the

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record, I don't believe you. But at the same time, there's no shame in admitting that we are human

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beings. You see, every single person in the Bible have some sketchy moments with God where they're

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really not sure what's going on. And, you know, the Bible just gives us the facts, just the facts,

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please, only the facts. It doesn't really get into the nuances of human dynamics and how those

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humans felt. It doesn't get in deep into their feelings. The only person that we get deep into

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the fields with is David in the Psalms. No one else. It tells us what Gideon did,

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but it doesn't tell us how he felt about it.

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It tells us what Moses and Joshua and Abraham did,

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but it doesn't tell us really how they felt about it.

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It tells us that Mary says,

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well, I'm gonna ponder this in my heart,

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but it doesn't tell us what happened the days after that

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and the weeks after that and the months after that.

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And when she started showing with a pregnancy,

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it doesn't tell us about the complex human emotions

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that she was having about the situation.

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Amen?

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But you know what the Bible does say?

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It says that God knows our form.

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And I want you to take that in right now.

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It's really important that you understand that

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before we go where we're about to go.

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God knows our form.

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What does that mean?

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He knows your humanity.

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He knows you're human.

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He knows the frailty of your form is what the Bible says.

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Friends, the human part of us is frail.

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The soul and flesh part of us is frail.

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It is.

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It's delicate.

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It's weak.

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The spirit part of us is strong when we feed it.

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A lot of us sow a lot to our soul and flesh parts

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and we become strong for a few minutes in ourselves,

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but we know that strength in ourselves doesn't last long,

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does it?

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It's not by might or power, but by his spirit.

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So we have to continue to sow to the spirit.

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And there's a Supernatural Saturday, maybe last year,

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where I talked all about sowing to the spirit

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and not the flesh.

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So we're not gonna fully get into that idea or unpack it,

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but we are gonna unpack the idea that God understands

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how you are made because he made you.

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And so while you beat yourself up for your humanness,

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because somehow you think you're supposed to be

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the spiritual superhero, well, you're not.

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You're a human.

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But I need to be like Jesus, Jackie.

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Well, Jesus was all human and all God.

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So no, you don't, because you're not.

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What you need to do is surrender to Jesus

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and let him live through you as much as possible.

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But you know what?

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You're not gonna get it fully right.

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You're never gonna get it fully right.

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We have to release that frailty and that weakness to God.

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And that's why the Bible says that in our weakness,

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his strength is made perfect.

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I want someone to take that in this morning.

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It's really important,

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because you're really hard on yourself.

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You're really hard on yourself.

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And the problem with you being hard on yourself

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is that when we're hard on ourselves,

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eventually we're hard on others.

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You may not see it.

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You just may think you have high standards.

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You just may think that you have strong boundaries.

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You may just think whatever it is that you think,

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but however you treat yourself is often how we treat others

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because whoever God is to us, he will be through us.

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I don't remember if it was Tozer or Spurgeon

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or one of the forefathers of the faith,

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but somebody said that what you believe about God

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is the most important thing about you.

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What you believe about him.

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Not what's true, but what you believe about him,

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because your belief makes it true for you.

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And if you believe that God is watching you

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and expecting perfection,

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then that is how you're gonna live your life

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and it's gonna be a hard life.

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Go ahead and put your hands down.

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So the reason why I asked if any of us,

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remember, I had a whole church full of people

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when I was in my 20s that seemed pretty burnt out.

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They seemed pretty burnt out.

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And now I understand because I am almost 51 years old.

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Seems like just yesterday, y'all,

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we were talking about me turning 50

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and now I'm gonna be turning 51 in just like three months.

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What the hey, what's happened?

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Time is marching on.

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But now I get it.

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I understand it.

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I understand it.

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I understand all of the ups and downs.

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And of course, I'd already experienced way too much life,

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even at 22.

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I'd already experienced more things

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than a lot of people will ever go through

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in their life at that age.

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And I get it.

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I understand.

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But I believe that God wants to give us

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some pep in our step today.

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Do you guys want some pep back in your step?

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I gotta report something before I get into this.

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I gotta tell you the siege is over.

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No, we're not talking about that today,

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but if you're brand new to Supernatural Saturday,

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please go back and listen to the last

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three or four Supernatural Saturdays.

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The word of the hour is that the siege is over.

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that the supernatural supply lines are open,

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that breakthrough is here.

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And we have had report after report after report.

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And in my own life, you guys,

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if you've been around here for any length of time,

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you know that I have a homeless, mentally ill brother.

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He is my only brother.

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I have two brothers, but he is my only brother

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that has the same mom and dad as me.

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Right, Jake and Jackie.

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From the very beginning, it was Jake and Jackie.

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And he's 18 months older than me,

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so practically an Irish twin.

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And he has been sick since he was in his early 20s.

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In fact, at the same time that I was meeting Jesus

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and coming up out of all of the debauchery

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that I was in in my life,

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running around since I was a teenager,

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living on my own, couch surfing, doing drugs,

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trying to make a way in the world,

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trying to figure things out,

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experiencing every type of abuse possible,

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foster homes, girls' homes, all the things.

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My brother stayed at home, turned 18,

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moved to Colorado, became a snowboard instructor

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up on the mountains in Breckenridge,

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and he had some really serious things happen up there.

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Not fully, fully sure what all happened up there.

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I know he had a really bad accident.

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I think he had a traumatic brain injury.

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There were a couple things that happened,

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but all I know is that about the time

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that I met Jesus at 22, he would have been almost 24,

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he started having this mental health breakdown,

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this psychotic break.

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And he's been like this, you guys, for almost 30 years now.

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And it's really hard to see your loved one

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year after year after year after year after year

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not have a home.

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He's not an addict.

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He doesn't have any of those issues

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that a lot of homeless people have,

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but he does have the mental health issues,

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and because of that, he's just not able

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to stay anywhere for any length of time

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without the voices in his head telling him

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that he's unsafe.

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A lot of paranoia, a lot of stuff.

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Long story short, he has lived in a car

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for many, many, many years now,

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and he did live on my property last year,

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because you guys that have been around for a while

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know that he was run over by a car

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when he was on his bicycle.

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Three months in the hospital, seven surgeries.

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Definitely should have lost his leg and maybe his arm,

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but he didn't, but now he's crippled.

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And because of that, it slowed him down a little bit,

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but he's still been living in his car.

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Couldn't stay here, couldn't live in the house,

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couldn't stay.

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Had his own house here on my property.

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The first building on my property,

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he was living there all by himself.

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Only made it here a year before the paranoia set in,

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and that always happens to him

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when he's around in proximity to people.

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But what you don't know is that every year

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we have tried to get him to use the money

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that my mother left for him

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that he doesn't have access to

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unless he buys a house with it.

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That's all it's for.

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It's just to give him a place so he's not homeless.

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Every year, year after year after year,

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it looked like, oh, maybe this time,

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maybe he'll buy a trailer, maybe he'll buy an RV.

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Maybe he'll allow us to at least lease for him

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a long-term apartment, anything, something, whatever.

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It doesn't matter.

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Well, I'm excited to tell you that my brother

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closes on his very first home

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that he's ever had in his whole life in 10 days.

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Jesus.

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Come on.

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When I tell you that this is a miracle of miracles,

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you would have to understand all of the conversations,

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all of the near-success moments when it looked like,

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okay, yeah, we'll buy this trailer or this camper,

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and then the very next day, you get the phone call,

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you get the email, no, I changed my mind,

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it doesn't make any sense, I don't wanna do it

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because of paranoia, because of fear,

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because of whatever reason.

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You guys, the siege is over.

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I don't care what your circumstances

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have been trying to say to you.

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I want you to detach from any outcome

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of what you think it needs to look like

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and understand that God's abundant blessings

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are flowing in your life, not tomorrow, now.

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Now.

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And that brings me to today's subject.

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So my brother, that brother, he fathered twin children.

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Now you can imagine that those kids

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had a very interesting life

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for the first few years of life.

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They lived in a tent with my brother

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and this woman who is their mother,

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and they were grossly neglected,

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and it was very abusive in a neglect sort of way.

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And so my mother took charge of them

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when she was still alive and she began to raise them.

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Fast forward, she passed away,

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My little brother, same mom, different dad, he took charge of them because they lived

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down there near him in Florida.

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And so when my mom passed, we wanted those kids to continue on.

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They were going into high school and we just wanted them to have a pretty normal life.

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And so he took charge of them.

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He's in his 30s.

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And then they graduated last year and this is their first year of college.

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So I say all that to say what I'm about to say.

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So I set the stage for you.

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So I'm giving my husband a report in the car the other day about my niece and nephew and

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how they're doing in college.

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I'm giving my husband, David, a report like, oh, hey, Asher's doing great in his engineering

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program and, you know, making lots of friends.

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I'm giving a report.

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And then all of a sudden, out of nowhere, you guys, I get hit with the sadness.

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This deep, deep sadness and disappointment.

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And it's going to sound so silly because I'm almost a 51-year-old woman, but I'm going

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to say it out loud because that is the subject of today's Supernatural Saturday.

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I felt really sad that I was never going to experience what it was like to be an 18-year-old

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at college.

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And then all of a sudden it snowballed into I didn't get to graduate from high school

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because the dysfunction of my family.

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I was an emancipated minor at the time that people graduate from high school.

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I was just living on my own trying to survive.

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So I didn't get to walk across the stage and wear the gown and accept the diploma.

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And I'm smart, as you guys know.

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And I would have done well.

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I got really good grades.

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I would have done well had I graduated from high school.

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I didn't get to apply to colleges.

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I didn't get to have the thrill of a college of my choice accepting me.

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I didn't get to pledge.

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I didn't get to be in a sorority, which I'm sure I would have done all of that.

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I also am a very athletic woman.

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I was really good at sports.

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And because I dropped out of high school, I dropped out of sports.

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When I tell you that I probably could have gotten a scholarship for sports, I'm not lying.

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I could have went to college on a volleyball scholarship or a basketball scholarship.

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When I played on the teams, I was always first string.

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I was always point guard.

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I was always, you know, I was always some of the best of the best.

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But I didn't get to live that life.

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I didn't get to walk that out.

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You guys tracking with me?

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I was scouted by a modeling agency when I was 18 years old.

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I won a big modeling competition.

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There was agencies, big agencies that wanted to sign me.

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I would have moved to Miami.

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I would have gone to Milan.

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I would have moved to New York City.

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But because of the state of my mental health in the situation that I was in, living with

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a boyfriend, 18 years old, already been on my own for several years, I didn't have the

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capacity to receive those opportunities.

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So all of a sudden in this moment, when I'm talking about my niece and nephew, all the

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things that I will never get to do, I want to make sure that you understand that today's

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Supernatural Saturday is about grieving the things that you will never have.

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Some of you wanted to be married by the time you were 22 years old.

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You wanted to be a young mom.

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You're not going to get that.

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You're not going to get it.

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It's not going to happen.

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That dream is done.

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Right?

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Some of you wanted to, maybe your dream was like my husband.

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Both of his fathers, his father and his stepfather, bonus father, both of them Air Force pilots.

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David wanted to be an Air Force pilot.

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That was his first dream.

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That was his dream.

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That's what his daddies did.

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And that's what he wanted to do.

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And he grew up hoping and wanting to do that.

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And guess what?

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When he became an adolescent, he started to have ear problems to the point where they

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had to put tubes in his ears.

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And as soon as that happened, his chances of ever becoming a pilot were done.

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You can't become a pilot with tubes in your ears.

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All of us have these things.

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All of us.

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So I began to grieve the dreams.

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I began to feel the ache and the sadness of never being able to go to college as a young

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person.

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I know I could go back to college now.

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And just so you guys know, I did get my GED and I did go to college, but it's not the

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same.

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I'm never going to go to college as a young person.

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I'm never going to experience that.

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I'm never going to join a sorority.

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I'm never going to be a collegiate athlete, or really any kind of athlete besides a weekend

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warrior.

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I'm not going to be a model in New York City.

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I'm not going to...

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How about this?

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I'm never going to have a normal family.

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I'm never going to have a mom, you guys.

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I don't have a mom.

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I know people say, well, God can send you someone like a mom.

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No.

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I will not have a mom on this earth.

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Sure, I have lots of amazing women in my life.

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Guess what?

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They're not.

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They're not my mom.

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Let's just get real.

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Can we just get real for a second?

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When I see all my friends that have amazing relationships with their mothers, and they're

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going on vacations together, and they're going shopping together, and they look just alike,

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and they act just alike, and they're like, oh, yeah, my mom's mini me, even though you're

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55 years old.

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I will not have that on this earth.

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And you know what else I won't have?

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I won't have a father, because I don't have one of those either.

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You're like, Jackie, this is a really depressing Supernatural Saturday.

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But it isn't.

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It isn't.

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Because I believe that the Lord wants to give us some space this morning to grieve what

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isn't going to be so that we can begin to make room for what is going to be.

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Come on, you guys.

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Every one of us has a version of a life that we thought we could have or we would have

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that we didn't have.

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Every one of us does.

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And I want to just let you know that your grief this morning does not make you ungrateful.

487
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It makes you human.

488
00:26:49.160 --> 00:26:50.160
It makes you human.

489
00:26:50.400 --> 00:26:54.440
I believe that God wants to invite us into a holy grief, plus a holy release, plus a

490
00:26:54.440 --> 00:26:58.440
holy replacement today.

491
00:26:58.440 --> 00:27:06.080
And here's the thing, you know, God wrote a book about us.

492
00:27:06.080 --> 00:27:07.080
We all know that.

493
00:27:07.080 --> 00:27:08.080
Psalm 139.

494
00:27:08.080 --> 00:27:09.080
It's part of your heart work.

495
00:27:09.080 --> 00:27:14.040
And you should have done that when you came into the community.

496
00:27:14.040 --> 00:27:17.480
And a lot of the things that we dream for ourselves are not necessarily what God has

497
00:27:17.480 --> 00:27:18.480
dreamed for us.

498
00:27:18.480 --> 00:27:20.520
There are things that we come into this culture.

499
00:27:20.520 --> 00:27:22.280
We come into the families that we come into.

500
00:27:22.280 --> 00:27:24.920
There are things that other people have dreamed for us.

501
00:27:24.920 --> 00:27:30.000
There are things that we think that we should do.

502
00:27:30.000 --> 00:27:36.480
And not every lost dream was a lost dream of God.

503
00:27:36.480 --> 00:27:39.760
And also not every lost dream was our fault.

504
00:27:39.760 --> 00:27:43.040
A lot of us have dreams that were stolen by trauma.

505
00:27:43.040 --> 00:27:44.680
Some were blocked by religion.

506
00:27:45.400 --> 00:27:50.320
Guys, I want to tell you that modeling opportunity circled back around in my early 20s after

507
00:27:50.320 --> 00:27:53.040
I met Jesus.

508
00:27:53.040 --> 00:27:56.600
Everywhere I go, it was almost always that I was being recruited to model because at

509
00:27:56.600 --> 00:28:00.200
the time you had to be tall to be a model.

510
00:28:00.200 --> 00:28:01.740
And I'm 5'10".

511
00:28:01.740 --> 00:28:05.400
And so everywhere I go, there'd be some scout scouting me.

512
00:28:05.400 --> 00:28:09.760
And so that opportunity that I had when I won that contest at 18 circled back around

513
00:28:09.760 --> 00:28:13.400
in my early 20s, but then it was blocked by religion.

514
00:28:13.400 --> 00:28:19.320
By that time, I was a believer and the voices around me said, oh, Christian people aren't

515
00:28:19.320 --> 00:28:21.600
models.

516
00:28:21.600 --> 00:28:23.040
You can't be a Christian model.

517
00:28:23.040 --> 00:28:24.720
There's no such thing as a Christian model.

518
00:28:24.720 --> 00:28:26.040
Well, you guys, you know what?

519
00:28:26.040 --> 00:28:27.040
That's not true.

520
00:28:27.040 --> 00:28:29.040
But I didn't know that back then.

521
00:28:29.040 --> 00:28:34.480
So some of you have had ideas, callings, things that you wanted to do that were blocked by

522
00:28:34.480 --> 00:28:38.040
some religious voice that just said, that's not appropriate.

523
00:28:38.040 --> 00:28:41.000
Maybe you wanted to be an actor or an actress.

524
00:28:41.000 --> 00:28:45.660
Maybe you wanted to go work in an industry that people thought was not a Christian industry

525
00:28:45.660 --> 00:28:47.440
in some way, shape or form.

526
00:28:47.440 --> 00:28:54.360
And there was a whole era of time when church folk thought the only vocation that you could

527
00:28:54.360 --> 00:28:59.720
have as a saved person was church ministry.

528
00:28:59.720 --> 00:29:05.920
If you were going to do something worthy with your one and only life, you're going to become

529
00:29:05.920 --> 00:29:12.000
a pastor or a preacher or some sort of missionary or something.

530
00:29:12.000 --> 00:29:18.560
But we're not all called to use our gifts inside a building.

531
00:29:18.560 --> 00:29:20.640
We're not.

532
00:29:20.640 --> 00:29:23.920
Some of you growing up in the church, you wanted to be a pastor's wife.

533
00:29:23.920 --> 00:29:27.520
You thought that was the highest vocation that you could possibly have.

534
00:29:27.520 --> 00:29:33.760
You wanted to be the person who was chosen for that noble profession.

535
00:29:33.760 --> 00:29:36.240
And you weren't.

536
00:29:36.240 --> 00:29:37.240
And thank God.

537
00:29:37.240 --> 00:29:42.720
Because first of all, there's no such thing as a pastor's wife, just want to let you know.

538
00:29:42.720 --> 00:29:45.120
There's pastors.

539
00:29:45.120 --> 00:29:48.840
And if you don't have a pastoring gift, you best not marry someone who does.

540
00:29:48.840 --> 00:29:52.440
It's really not a great combination.

541
00:29:52.440 --> 00:29:59.280
So either have a complimentary gift to that, like a full-time ministry gift.

542
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:02.000
Have that gift yourself

543
00:30:04.320 --> 00:30:10.700
Some of you this is good, this is good some of you are old enough that you were blocked by your gender

544
00:30:12.560 --> 00:30:15.800
There are things that you wanted to do that women just simply didn't do

545
00:30:16.200 --> 00:30:22.880
Or men simply didn't do you were blocked by the time that you grew up in and what culture thought about gender roles

546
00:30:24.760 --> 00:30:27.020
That's real that's a real thing

547
00:30:30.080 --> 00:30:32.080
So

548
00:30:32.220 --> 00:30:35.620
Let's look at Isaiah 43 verses 18 through 19

549
00:30:37.680 --> 00:30:42.720
It says forget the former things because I am doing a new thing

550
00:30:45.000 --> 00:30:52.480
Whoo like it here's Psalm 34 verse 18. The Lord is close to the broken-hearted

551
00:30:54.640 --> 00:30:56.640
Just want to release that over you guys I

552
00:30:57.480 --> 00:31:00.280
Did a whole teaching on this next one I did a whole teaching

553
00:31:01.280 --> 00:31:06.600
Because I love it so much and maybe I'll bring that teaching back and resurrect it, but Joel chapter 2

554
00:31:08.280 --> 00:31:14.360
I'll just share with you verse 25. God says and I will restore the years I

555
00:31:16.240 --> 00:31:18.840
Will restore the years says the Lord and

556
00:31:20.040 --> 00:31:23.160
Then it goes on to say about all the things that devoured

557
00:31:23.720 --> 00:31:26.240
That potential during those time frames

558
00:31:27.920 --> 00:31:31.360
And you guys I know a lot of people think oh when God says gonna restore the years

559
00:31:31.360 --> 00:31:34.400
It's gonna restore those years to my life. He's gonna give me more years to live

560
00:31:34.400 --> 00:31:40.160
He's going to give me my youth. My youth will be restored like the Eagles and yeah, all that could be true

561
00:31:40.440 --> 00:31:47.800
But I really believe what that scripture is really saying is that all of the harvest that you should have had during those years

562
00:31:48.160 --> 00:31:50.160
Will be restored to you

563
00:31:53.920 --> 00:31:58.720
Because God can bend time and God can accelerate time God can accelerate harvest

564
00:31:59.360 --> 00:32:01.520
He can give back to us what has been stolen

565
00:32:02.320 --> 00:32:04.320
with interest

566
00:32:05.080 --> 00:32:08.880
Because that's God's nature. He's a restorer. He's a Redeemer

567
00:32:10.200 --> 00:32:12.800
Think about God throughout the Bible

568
00:32:13.080 --> 00:32:17.720
this is how we learn about how who God is through the Logos through the written word and

569
00:32:17.960 --> 00:32:19.480
Then the other ways that you know

570
00:32:19.480 --> 00:32:26.000
God's character is through the raw through that through the Rhema through the spoken word from him to you and through watching each other's lives

571
00:32:26.360 --> 00:32:30.400
Do you know that you learn about who God is by watching who he is to other people?

572
00:32:30.400 --> 00:32:35.640
And that's why it's so important friends that you give a good representation of your good and loving father

573
00:32:36.160 --> 00:32:38.160
Who is the giver of good and perfect gifts?

574
00:32:38.760 --> 00:32:41.640
Because people are learning about God through you

575
00:32:44.440 --> 00:32:46.120
We learn

576
00:32:46.120 --> 00:32:50.960
But think about him he's a restorer of fortunes. He's a restorer of life. He's a Redeemer

577
00:32:52.280 --> 00:32:54.280
Romans 8 28

578
00:32:55.000 --> 00:33:02.160
He works things out to the good he's a Redeemer of people of lineages of legacies of situations. He's also a renamer

579
00:33:03.360 --> 00:33:09.760
Whatever you've been living under if you've been living under a reproach all of your life because of whatever you were born out of wedlock

580
00:33:09.760 --> 00:33:13.640
Or you got divorced back when people weren't allowed to get divorced

581
00:33:13.800 --> 00:33:17.360
Maybe you you maybe you committed adultery and had an affair

582
00:33:18.080 --> 00:33:22.680
Perhaps you know you think of yourself as the villain of the story because of mistakes that you've made

583
00:33:22.680 --> 00:33:27.440
Well, God's a renamer. He wants to rename you in this season. He wants to give you a different identity

584
00:33:29.360 --> 00:33:35.560
Maybe you see yourself as forsaken or forgotten. Maybe you were the wife the woman who was scorned

585
00:33:36.240 --> 00:33:38.520
Put away left abandoned

586
00:33:39.720 --> 00:33:41.720
cheated on

587
00:33:44.520 --> 00:33:46.640
Maybe like me you've been carrying that

588
00:33:48.440 --> 00:33:50.440
The moniker of orphan

589
00:33:52.040 --> 00:33:54.040
God wants to rename us

590
00:33:55.480 --> 00:33:59.800
But for today's purposes for this morning's purposes he also wants to re-dream us

591
00:34:01.400 --> 00:34:03.400
Do you believe that God wants to re-dream you

592
00:34:05.920 --> 00:34:07.040
Or

593
00:34:07.040 --> 00:34:11.239
Are you like the people sitting in that church when I was a 22 year old new believer?

594
00:34:11.239 --> 00:34:14.560
You've just become real cynical about the promises of God

595
00:34:15.040 --> 00:34:17.679
That's really an honest question that you need to ask yourself right now

596
00:34:18.159 --> 00:34:23.840
Because a lot of you have a lot of circumstances right now that could cause you to be real cynical if you chose to be

597
00:34:28.239 --> 00:34:30.239
I get it

598
00:34:32.000 --> 00:34:32.520
I

599
00:34:32.520 --> 00:34:38.679
understand you guys and I know I show up with a lot of pep in my step for these supernatural Saturdays because I'm operating in a

600
00:34:38.679 --> 00:34:40.360
Gift that God has given me

601
00:34:40.360 --> 00:34:46.440
But I have issues I have problems. I have things going on in my life right now that are not fun or good

602
00:34:48.280 --> 00:34:50.280
That are not what I signed up for I

603
00:34:51.920 --> 00:34:56.159
Get it, but we can choose to be cynical or we can choose

604
00:34:58.400 --> 00:35:00.400
To come to the dream giver

605
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:02.000
and let him re-dream us this morning.

606
00:35:04.400 --> 00:35:08.760
I just told you how I had a massive pity party for myself

607
00:35:08.760 --> 00:35:11.180
the other day when I was thinking about all the things

608
00:35:11.180 --> 00:35:13.380
I would never have or never do in this life.

609
00:35:15.760 --> 00:35:18.920
It didn't last long, you guys, but it did happen.

610
00:35:23.440 --> 00:35:24.280
And I just wanna let you know,

611
00:35:24.280 --> 00:35:26.520
grieving is not being unfaithful to God.

612
00:35:28.000 --> 00:35:28.840
It's okay.

613
00:35:30.520 --> 00:35:33.060
Acknowledging loss is not ingratitude.

614
00:35:34.120 --> 00:35:36.600
In fact, I believe it's spiritual maturity.

615
00:35:38.760 --> 00:35:41.160
God doesn't want you to fake it till you make it.

616
00:35:44.640 --> 00:35:47.340
He wants you to admit to him that you're disappointed,

617
00:35:49.680 --> 00:35:51.580
that your expectations were not met.

618
00:35:55.120 --> 00:35:57.600
He's even not afraid of you saying,

619
00:35:57.680 --> 00:36:00.640
why is this happening for everybody else but not for me?

620
00:36:00.640 --> 00:36:02.240
Whatever the thing is.

621
00:36:02.240 --> 00:36:04.480
Why does it seem like everybody else has enough money

622
00:36:04.480 --> 00:36:08.680
to get by during this uncertain economic time?

623
00:36:08.680 --> 00:36:12.560
Why does it seem that everybody else is healthy?

624
00:36:12.560 --> 00:36:13.680
Why am I sick?

625
00:36:17.160 --> 00:36:20.240
Why have I been driving this car for 20 years

626
00:36:20.240 --> 00:36:21.280
held together with

627
00:36:25.280 --> 00:36:27.340
dental floss and duct tape?

628
00:36:28.520 --> 00:36:29.360
Why?

629
00:36:33.560 --> 00:36:35.560
Y'all, I've driven every kind of job,

630
00:36:35.560 --> 00:36:37.000
every kind of car you can think of.

631
00:36:37.000 --> 00:36:38.800
I just wanna tell you that right now.

632
00:36:38.800 --> 00:36:40.260
When I was a young person,

633
00:36:41.600 --> 00:36:44.640
my boyfriend was a mechanic and I lived with him

634
00:36:45.540 --> 00:36:47.280
when I was a teenager because I didn't have

635
00:36:47.280 --> 00:36:48.840
anywhere else to live.

636
00:36:48.840 --> 00:36:53.840
And he had all manner of crazy cars in the backyard

637
00:36:53.860 --> 00:36:57.460
and in the front yard at all different levels

638
00:36:58.300 --> 00:36:59.740
of being taken apart.

639
00:36:59.740 --> 00:37:01.780
You know, those families that you drove by

640
00:37:01.780 --> 00:37:03.180
and you like kind of shook your head,

641
00:37:03.180 --> 00:37:06.380
you're like hillbillies or rednecks or, you know,

642
00:37:06.380 --> 00:37:08.340
trailer trash or whatever you thought they were.

643
00:37:08.340 --> 00:37:10.080
Well, that's what this family was.

644
00:37:12.580 --> 00:37:15.500
His mom was a single mom and all five of her adult children

645
00:37:15.500 --> 00:37:17.100
still lived in the house with her,

646
00:37:17.100 --> 00:37:19.880
with their significant others that they weren't married to

647
00:37:19.880 --> 00:37:21.900
and had all kinds of kids running around

648
00:37:21.900 --> 00:37:24.060
that were out of wedlock and all the crazy.

649
00:37:24.060 --> 00:37:25.260
And if I would have stayed there,

650
00:37:25.260 --> 00:37:27.160
that's what would have happened to me.

651
00:37:28.020 --> 00:37:30.540
I was only there for two years and one day God woke me up

652
00:37:30.540 --> 00:37:33.620
even though I didn't know God yet, but he knew me.

653
00:37:33.620 --> 00:37:35.800
One day I woke up and I didn't know it was God,

654
00:37:35.800 --> 00:37:37.460
but I just knew I had to get out of there.

655
00:37:37.460 --> 00:37:39.820
I didn't know how, but I needed to

656
00:37:39.820 --> 00:37:41.260
and that this wasn't my life

657
00:37:41.260 --> 00:37:43.420
and this is not where I was supposed to be.

658
00:37:44.380 --> 00:37:45.920
That's all I knew.

659
00:37:45.920 --> 00:37:47.580
But back to the car situation,

660
00:37:47.580 --> 00:37:49.820
his name was Jerry and he's no longer alive.

661
00:37:49.820 --> 00:37:52.160
He went to heaven because of drug abuse.

662
00:37:53.780 --> 00:37:56.260
He did meet Jesus before then and I'm so thankful

663
00:37:56.300 --> 00:37:58.620
and he's also the father of my daughter, Abigail,

664
00:37:58.620 --> 00:37:59.900
who's in heaven with him.

665
00:38:02.540 --> 00:38:05.380
Lots of things happened to me as a young person, friends.

666
00:38:05.380 --> 00:38:08.100
I've had a lot of experiences,

667
00:38:09.840 --> 00:38:11.980
but I drove a lot of weird cars.

668
00:38:13.620 --> 00:38:16.180
I drove cars that you could see yourself in

669
00:38:16.180 --> 00:38:18.420
from the outside, meaning when you're driving by,

670
00:38:18.420 --> 00:38:19.980
people could see you sitting in the car

671
00:38:19.980 --> 00:38:21.380
because they were so rusty.

672
00:38:22.420 --> 00:38:23.780
The doors were so rusted out,

673
00:38:23.780 --> 00:38:26.020
you could see the person sitting in the car,

674
00:38:26.780 --> 00:38:28.100
like sitting on the seat, their body.

675
00:38:28.100 --> 00:38:30.900
I've driven cars where there's no seat.

676
00:38:30.900 --> 00:38:32.080
There's no seat.

677
00:38:32.080 --> 00:38:34.580
You had to put some couch cushions from the house

678
00:38:34.580 --> 00:38:36.660
in the car because there was no seat

679
00:38:36.660 --> 00:38:40.000
and you needed something to sit on so that you could drive.

680
00:38:42.660 --> 00:38:44.900
I've driven cars with no catalytic converters

681
00:38:44.900 --> 00:38:47.380
that are so loud that they could wake the dead.

682
00:38:47.380 --> 00:38:49.860
I've driven every kind of car you can think of.

683
00:38:51.220 --> 00:38:54.240
And so when I think of a car being held together

684
00:38:54.240 --> 00:38:57.680
with fishing wire or dental floss and duct tape,

685
00:38:57.680 --> 00:38:59.980
I'm like, oh yeah, I know that car.

686
00:39:01.680 --> 00:39:03.640
And the funny thing is, is that my boyfriend's name

687
00:39:03.640 --> 00:39:06.280
was Jerry and you know the whole saying Jerry rigged.

688
00:39:06.280 --> 00:39:08.640
Well, he knew how to Jerry rig some stuff up.

689
00:39:11.380 --> 00:39:12.840
Pretty talented, honestly.

690
00:39:14.080 --> 00:39:16.520
But I want you to kind of revisit

691
00:39:16.520 --> 00:39:19.480
some of your origin story and the dreams maybe

692
00:39:19.480 --> 00:39:21.800
that you had of getting out of that

693
00:39:21.800 --> 00:39:23.320
and being the first person in your family

694
00:39:23.320 --> 00:39:25.040
to go to college or the first person

695
00:39:25.040 --> 00:39:26.800
in your family to own a house.

696
00:39:26.800 --> 00:39:28.280
And maybe that hasn't happened,

697
00:39:28.280 --> 00:39:30.660
but those are not dreams that are dead.

698
00:39:30.660 --> 00:39:33.960
Those are dreams that could still be resurrected.

699
00:39:33.960 --> 00:39:36.640
But old dreams can also become idols, friends.

700
00:39:36.640 --> 00:39:39.620
And not because they were bad, but because we treat them

701
00:39:39.620 --> 00:39:42.960
like they're the only way our life could have been good.

702
00:39:45.680 --> 00:39:48.240
Please get ahold of that this morning.

703
00:39:48.240 --> 00:39:52.600
We treat those dreams as if the ship has sailed out of port

704
00:39:52.640 --> 00:39:54.860
and there's nothing good coming back in.

705
00:39:55.920 --> 00:39:57.200
We missed our boat.

706
00:39:58.120 --> 00:40:00.320
Friends, you cannot miss your boat because.

707
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.160
You are the captain of the boat.

708
00:40:04.600 --> 00:40:06.080
You are the captain.

709
00:40:07.240 --> 00:40:08.520
That thing that didn't happen

710
00:40:08.520 --> 00:40:10.300
and now it's impossible for it to happen,

711
00:40:10.300 --> 00:40:11.880
you're not gonna be a prima ballerina.

712
00:40:11.880 --> 00:40:13.240
I'm sorry, you're not.

713
00:40:15.360 --> 00:40:16.440
I'm sorry.

714
00:40:17.480 --> 00:40:20.080
But that's not the only way our life could have been good.

715
00:40:20.080 --> 00:40:22.800
Yes, I'm not gonna have a beautiful mother

716
00:40:22.800 --> 00:40:24.960
that I share DNA with that I look like

717
00:40:24.960 --> 00:40:28.760
that is my best friend and that we travel the world together

718
00:40:28.800 --> 00:40:30.880
and we're into all kinds of shenanigans.

719
00:40:30.880 --> 00:40:34.200
But that's not the only way my life could be good.

720
00:40:39.160 --> 00:40:40.760
That one still kinda hurts.

721
00:40:44.200 --> 00:40:45.120
But you know what?

722
00:40:46.520 --> 00:40:49.720
I do have a daughter that looks just like me,

723
00:40:49.720 --> 00:40:51.280
that shares my DNA,

724
00:40:51.280 --> 00:40:54.120
that I have all kinds of shenanigans with.

725
00:40:54.120 --> 00:40:57.620
So I don't have the mother, but I am the mother.

726
00:40:59.320 --> 00:41:00.160
I'm sorry.

727
00:41:03.920 --> 00:41:06.260
Friends, you need to know that your soul realm,

728
00:41:06.260 --> 00:41:08.880
the soul realm where you're holding all of this

729
00:41:08.880 --> 00:41:10.280
would have, could have, should have,

730
00:41:10.280 --> 00:41:13.320
it's in your soul realm that you're holding onto it.

731
00:41:13.320 --> 00:41:16.760
And your soul realm has limited emotional real estate,

732
00:41:16.760 --> 00:41:20.200
friends, we cannot hold onto the life

733
00:41:20.200 --> 00:41:21.960
that we wish we would have had

734
00:41:21.960 --> 00:41:24.080
and still have open hands to receive

735
00:41:24.080 --> 00:41:27.200
the life that God is trying to hand to us.

736
00:41:28.760 --> 00:41:33.760
Unmet dreams can hide in our hearts

737
00:41:36.360 --> 00:41:38.660
and they can show up as all kinds of things

738
00:41:38.660 --> 00:41:42.360
like resentment and comparison and jealousy,

739
00:41:43.760 --> 00:41:45.080
late bloomer shame.

740
00:41:45.080 --> 00:41:46.480
Some of you are late bloomers

741
00:41:46.480 --> 00:41:48.360
and you got a lot of shame attached to that.

742
00:41:48.360 --> 00:41:50.400
I should be further along by now.

743
00:41:50.400 --> 00:41:52.760
I should have more money in my savings by now.

744
00:41:52.760 --> 00:41:54.880
I should have a 401k by now.

745
00:41:54.880 --> 00:41:57.760
I should, I've already been planning for retirement by now.

746
00:41:57.760 --> 00:41:59.080
I should be married by now.

747
00:41:59.080 --> 00:42:01.380
I should have had kids by now.

748
00:42:01.380 --> 00:42:04.440
You can be holding onto that late bloomer shame

749
00:42:04.440 --> 00:42:07.040
and it's taking up valuable real estate in your heart,

750
00:42:07.040 --> 00:42:11.440
regret, self-blame, anger towards other people

751
00:42:11.440 --> 00:42:14.540
that have caused you to be in the state that you're in,

752
00:42:15.640 --> 00:42:17.000
feeling behind.

753
00:42:18.080 --> 00:42:20.160
Some of you have the fear of starting over again.

754
00:42:20.160 --> 00:42:22.160
You tried before, you don't wanna try again

755
00:42:22.160 --> 00:42:23.520
because it didn't work out.

756
00:42:24.520 --> 00:42:29.080
And all of these things must be released

757
00:42:29.080 --> 00:42:32.540
in order to make space for what God wants to invite us into.

758
00:42:34.720 --> 00:42:36.240
He wants to invite us this morning

759
00:42:36.240 --> 00:42:38.040
into dreaming a new dream with him.

760
00:42:41.340 --> 00:42:43.440
There are things that we didn't get to do,

761
00:42:45.600 --> 00:42:48.320
but there are still things that we can do.

762
00:42:48.320 --> 00:42:51.000
I want you to say that over yourself right now.

763
00:42:51.000 --> 00:42:53.140
There are things that I didn't get to do,

764
00:42:55.160 --> 00:42:57.360
but there are things that I still can do.

765
00:43:01.600 --> 00:43:03.600
Yeah, you're not gonna be 18 in a dorm again.

766
00:43:03.600 --> 00:43:05.600
Well, probably, thank God, right?

767
00:43:05.600 --> 00:43:07.000
It might probably not been as good

768
00:43:07.000 --> 00:43:08.500
as we thought it was gonna be.

769
00:43:09.400 --> 00:43:12.440
But we can still build a life of friendship.

770
00:43:13.320 --> 00:43:15.240
You know, what do we associate with college days?

771
00:43:15.240 --> 00:43:18.080
Friends and fun.

772
00:43:21.600 --> 00:43:23.600
I don't think we have anyone here that's this age,

773
00:43:23.600 --> 00:43:24.520
so I'm gonna say this one.

774
00:43:24.520 --> 00:43:26.620
You're not gonna be the 20-year-old bride.

775
00:43:27.800 --> 00:43:29.360
Some of us were the 20-year-old bride

776
00:43:29.360 --> 00:43:30.280
and that didn't work out.

777
00:43:30.280 --> 00:43:32.540
That's how old I was when I got married.

778
00:43:33.720 --> 00:43:35.840
But we can still have a healed, healthy,

779
00:43:35.840 --> 00:43:37.300
and beautiful love story,

780
00:43:38.200 --> 00:43:39.880
even if we didn't get married at the age

781
00:43:39.880 --> 00:43:41.080
that we thought we would.

782
00:43:43.560 --> 00:43:44.920
Some of you, there's some of,

783
00:43:44.920 --> 00:43:48.280
we do have people in our community that are youngish.

784
00:43:48.280 --> 00:43:51.360
They're in their early 20s, mid-20s.

785
00:43:51.360 --> 00:43:54.120
But for some of you, you're not gonna be the young mom.

786
00:43:55.040 --> 00:43:59.400
But you can become a joyful, intentional, and healed,

787
00:43:59.400 --> 00:44:02.160
which is the most important part of momming.

788
00:44:03.600 --> 00:44:05.760
Mom, grandmother, mentor,

789
00:44:05.760 --> 00:44:08.440
something to use that mother gift.

790
00:44:08.440 --> 00:44:10.220
Yeah, I'm not gonna be a model in New York City,

791
00:44:10.220 --> 00:44:11.060
but you know what?

792
00:44:11.060 --> 00:44:15.520
I can become a faith and fashion influencer.

793
00:44:15.520 --> 00:44:17.600
I still love fashion.

794
00:44:17.600 --> 00:44:19.360
I still love what I love.

795
00:44:21.160 --> 00:44:23.340
I can influence all us 50-year-old ladies

796
00:44:23.340 --> 00:44:26.200
on what to wear and what to buy and what to look like.

797
00:44:26.200 --> 00:44:28.760
Because all a model is is a role model, right?

798
00:44:28.760 --> 00:44:30.360
I can still be a role model, can't I?

799
00:44:30.360 --> 00:44:32.220
Aren't I already a role model?

800
00:44:37.180 --> 00:44:39.100
God is not limited by time.

801
00:44:40.240 --> 00:44:41.280
Only we are.

802
00:44:41.280 --> 00:44:42.600
Come on, get ahold of this right now.

803
00:44:42.600 --> 00:44:45.080
Everyone's gotta get ahold of this, me included.

804
00:44:45.080 --> 00:44:46.760
God is not limited by time.

805
00:44:46.760 --> 00:44:49.600
We are the ones that limit ourselves by time.

806
00:44:49.600 --> 00:44:52.840
We are the ones that limit ourselves by age.

807
00:44:52.840 --> 00:44:53.720
We are.

808
00:44:53.720 --> 00:44:56.100
God's not panicking about our ages.

809
00:44:56.100 --> 00:44:58.360
He's not intimidated by our past.

810
00:44:58.360 --> 00:45:00.560
He's not intimidated by missed opportunities.

811
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.880
communities. He's not intimidated by dead dreams.

812
00:45:05.200 --> 00:45:09.760
God specializes in after the deadline miracles, friends.

813
00:45:13.840 --> 00:45:17.720
So yes, your old dream is over. Grieve it.

814
00:45:19.440 --> 00:45:20.360
Go ahead and grieve it.

815
00:45:20.400 --> 00:45:23.120
Some of you haven't even taken the opportunity to admit to yourself that

816
00:45:23.120 --> 00:45:28.080
you're super disappointed about it and it's taking up real estate in your heart.

817
00:45:29.080 --> 00:45:31.960
So yes, the old dream is over, but the new dream is waiting.

818
00:45:32.000 --> 00:45:36.640
We have an invitation to it this morning and right now we're in the holy middle.

819
00:45:36.640 --> 00:45:40.640
We're in this middle area where we have to release what wasn't,

820
00:45:41.680 --> 00:45:45.160
what didn't happen so that we can receive what still can be.

821
00:45:48.080 --> 00:45:49.640
All right, so let's do some activations.

822
00:45:51.760 --> 00:45:55.000
All right, if you have some paper, if not, close your eyes, think it up.

823
00:45:55.640 --> 00:45:57.520
I want you to think about,

824
00:45:57.560 --> 00:46:00.240
you guys can do some more activations with this tomorrow night.

825
00:46:00.280 --> 00:46:03.880
I'll give Candy my prompts. I'll give her

826
00:46:05.440 --> 00:46:07.440
the questions that I'm about to ask you guys.

827
00:46:08.600 --> 00:46:10.720
What did you want that you never got to have?

828
00:46:12.520 --> 00:46:14.200
And for some of you, it's still possible.

829
00:46:15.240 --> 00:46:18.520
Those roller skates that you didn't get at your 10th birthday party,

830
00:46:18.560 --> 00:46:19.960
you can still have those.

831
00:46:19.960 --> 00:46:22.840
Some of you wanted to learn a musical instrument. It's not too late.

832
00:46:23.840 --> 00:46:26.280
You're mad at your parents because they didn't fix your teeth.

833
00:46:26.320 --> 00:46:28.520
Invisalign's available, friends.

834
00:46:32.720 --> 00:46:34.600
What did you want that you never got?

835
00:46:37.200 --> 00:46:40.440
What did you want to be that you never,

836
00:46:41.560 --> 00:46:42.800
that you haven't become?

837
00:46:42.840 --> 00:46:44.680
What do you want to be that you haven't become?

838
00:46:45.520 --> 00:46:49.480
And what version of your life did you imagine

839
00:46:51.440 --> 00:46:52.360
that hasn't come true?

840
00:46:56.440 --> 00:46:59.200
I want you to think through those things. What did I want to have

841
00:47:00.840 --> 00:47:03.480
that I didn't have? And for right now, friends, let's, let's,

842
00:47:03.520 --> 00:47:06.040
let's focus on the things that I didn't have.

843
00:47:06.080 --> 00:47:09.920
I want you to think about what did I want to have that I didn't have?

844
00:47:09.960 --> 00:47:13.200
And for right now, friends, let's, let's, let's focus on the things that I didn't

845
00:47:13.400 --> 00:47:16.120
have. And for right now, friends, let's, let's,

846
00:47:16.160 --> 00:47:19.320
let's focus on things that we're not going to get. Like you wanted,

847
00:47:19.360 --> 00:47:23.240
you wanted a car, you wanted a driver's license when you were 16.

848
00:47:23.240 --> 00:47:25.240
You wanted a car when you were 18.

849
00:47:25.280 --> 00:47:30.280
You wanted to go overseas to school when you were in college.

850
00:47:31.320 --> 00:47:34.200
You want to go on that foreign exchange student program. You know,

851
00:47:34.200 --> 00:47:38.480
you want it to, you want it to do sports, but you had an injury, you know,

852
00:47:38.480 --> 00:47:42.440
whatever it is that you wanted, but it's not going to happen in that way.

853
00:47:43.400 --> 00:47:44.760
You want it to become a doctor

854
00:47:47.880 --> 00:47:51.840
traditionally, go to medical school, school, do all the things,

855
00:47:52.640 --> 00:47:54.360
but you just couldn't learn the stuff.

856
00:47:54.400 --> 00:47:56.120
You just couldn't retain the information.

857
00:47:56.120 --> 00:47:58.040
It just wasn't the right field for you.

858
00:47:58.560 --> 00:48:01.680
Possibly had a learning disability or maybe you were in an accident or

859
00:48:01.680 --> 00:48:04.920
possibly your mental health kept you from finishing school. Like me,

860
00:48:05.120 --> 00:48:06.280
it doesn't matter what it was.

861
00:48:07.280 --> 00:48:11.960
And I want you to go ahead and, and just bring that before the Lord.

862
00:48:12.840 --> 00:48:17.760
And it's okay to grieve it. It's okay to grieve it.

863
00:48:22.560 --> 00:48:25.720
Some of you wanted your marriage to be reconciled and you fought for it and you

864
00:48:25.720 --> 00:48:30.760
prayed for it. You believed God for it. You held space for it.

865
00:48:32.920 --> 00:48:34.560
And your spouse did not come back.

866
00:48:36.640 --> 00:48:39.800
They didn't come back. There's nothing you could do about it.

867
00:48:39.800 --> 00:48:43.800
You couldn't control it. You wanted your children to be raised

868
00:48:45.080 --> 00:48:49.400
with both their parents. You were willing to forgive.

869
00:48:49.400 --> 00:48:51.920
You were willing to take back, but they, they weren't,

870
00:48:52.000 --> 00:48:56.800
they weren't willing to reconcile even though they were the

871
00:48:56.800 --> 00:49:00.640
person who didn't want, who, who left in the first place.

872
00:49:01.640 --> 00:49:02.480
Acknowledge friends,

873
00:49:02.480 --> 00:49:07.480
acknowledge the grief that you carry about the things that

874
00:49:07.480 --> 00:49:10.720
didn't happen the way you wanted them to. I'm giving you some time. Go ahead.

875
00:49:12.160 --> 00:49:13.880
Go ahead and put them up in the chat if you want.

876
00:49:21.280 --> 00:49:23.920
I'm going to give you some time to think about what you want to do next.

877
00:49:23.920 --> 00:49:26.320
I'm going to give you some time to think about what you want to do next.

878
00:49:27.120 --> 00:49:28.520
Go ahead and put your hands together.

879
00:49:33.720 --> 00:49:34.320
Yeah.

880
00:49:42.440 --> 00:49:43.800
How's it going?

881
00:49:47.320 --> 00:49:48.280
Your tea?

882
00:49:48.280 --> 00:49:57.280
Come on, it's time to break agreement.

883
00:49:59.080 --> 00:50:00.080
We're going to grieve it.

884
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:08.000
And then we're going to break agreement with the lies that we believe because of it.

885
00:50:08.000 --> 00:50:14.120
Yeah, I also I wanted my grandparents to be at my wedding.

886
00:50:14.120 --> 00:50:15.120
Yeah, that's real.

887
00:50:15.120 --> 00:50:19.520
Some of you wanted your dad to walk you down the aisle when you got married and he's passed

888
00:50:19.520 --> 00:50:23.280
now.

889
00:50:23.280 --> 00:50:26.640
You're not going to have your dad walk you down the aisle.

890
00:50:26.640 --> 00:50:30.720
Some of you wanted your mom to be at your side when you gave birth to your first child,

891
00:50:30.720 --> 00:50:32.640
but she's not on earth anymore.

892
00:50:57.640 --> 00:50:59.600
So many things, friends.

893
00:50:59.600 --> 00:51:01.200
Look at everyone putting stuff up.

894
00:51:01.200 --> 00:51:02.200
This is really powerful.

895
00:51:02.200 --> 00:51:07.320
It's really important because what we're doing is we're freeing up emotional real estate.

896
00:51:07.320 --> 00:51:08.520
We're grieving this thing.

897
00:51:08.520 --> 00:51:11.760
We're admitting that we're super disappointed about it.

898
00:51:11.760 --> 00:51:15.360
We're admitting that life hasn't turned out the way that we wanted it to or even the way

899
00:51:15.360 --> 00:51:17.540
that we thought it would.

900
00:51:17.540 --> 00:51:21.120
And we're making space for what is still possible.

901
00:51:27.640 --> 00:51:34.520
So, any of these things that are carrying the lie that it's too late, that you've missed

902
00:51:34.520 --> 00:51:40.200
your chance, that you're behind, that you're damaged, that this was your only shot at happiness

903
00:51:40.200 --> 00:51:44.440
is if this thing happened the way that you wanted it to and in the timing that you wanted

904
00:51:44.440 --> 00:51:46.100
it to happen.

905
00:51:46.100 --> 00:51:51.600
If you're carrying any lie believing that because you're not going to have that thing,

906
00:51:51.600 --> 00:51:54.880
you can't have a good life, I want you to release it this morning.

907
00:51:57.640 --> 00:51:59.640
Release it.

908
00:52:02.640 --> 00:52:07.140
I know this is what you wanted, and I know it would have been great.

909
00:52:07.140 --> 00:52:09.800
Some of these things that you guys are putting up, it would have been wonderful if that would

910
00:52:09.800 --> 00:52:10.800
have happened.

911
00:52:10.800 --> 00:52:12.560
These are not bad things.

912
00:52:12.560 --> 00:52:20.640
It wasn't bad to want these things, but now we have to release these things, the ones

913
00:52:20.640 --> 00:52:21.640
that are impossible.

914
00:52:21.640 --> 00:52:25.240
We're like, well, God is the God of the impossible.

915
00:52:26.240 --> 00:52:30.720
Your parent is in heaven, so they're not going to be physically at your wedding, but guess

916
00:52:30.720 --> 00:52:31.720
what?

917
00:52:31.720 --> 00:52:34.200
There's a great cloud of witnesses.

918
00:52:34.200 --> 00:52:38.680
I do believe that they're still with us in ways that we don't understand because we have

919
00:52:38.680 --> 00:52:47.360
not seen into that other dimension, but the way that you wanted it to happen is not going

920
00:52:47.360 --> 00:52:52.240
to happen, and so we need to release that and grieve it and make space.

921
00:52:55.240 --> 00:53:06.400
All right, and you guys, I'm not going to force you to grieve these things in five minutes

922
00:53:06.400 --> 00:53:11.880
on this call, so please do this work after this call is over, but I want to get moving

923
00:53:11.880 --> 00:53:20.440
forward here because I want to extend the invitation to dream with God this morning.

924
00:53:20.440 --> 00:53:22.000
So I want you to ask God now.

925
00:53:22.000 --> 00:53:33.700
I want you to ask him, God, what is possible now?

926
00:53:33.700 --> 00:53:39.640
What is the dream for my next decade of life, for my next couple years of life?

927
00:53:39.640 --> 00:53:41.920
What is the dream for now?

928
00:53:41.920 --> 00:53:46.520
What is the dream for this season?

929
00:53:46.520 --> 00:54:10.000
What's he saying to you?

930
00:54:10.000 --> 00:54:15.800
I believe that God is releasing new vision over all of us, new dreams, and you might

931
00:54:15.800 --> 00:54:17.280
not get it on this call this morning.

932
00:54:17.280 --> 00:54:18.280
You might get it tonight.

933
00:54:18.280 --> 00:54:23.160
You might get it in the morning when you wake up tomorrow.

934
00:54:23.160 --> 00:54:26.640
You might get it in a new opportunity that you didn't see coming, and you're like, wow,

935
00:54:26.640 --> 00:54:32.120
I think that God's saying that this could be the beginning of a new dream, a new friendship

936
00:54:32.120 --> 00:54:35.120
that comes out of nowhere.

937
00:54:35.120 --> 00:54:44.000
So Father, we thank you right now for new vision, new opportunities, Lord, new identities,

938
00:54:44.000 --> 00:54:47.320
new hope coming into our hearts.

939
00:54:47.320 --> 00:54:53.320
We thank you for new relationships, new territory, new possibilities, God, new things.

940
00:54:53.320 --> 00:54:55.640
You're doing a new thing.

941
00:54:55.640 --> 00:54:59.840
We're letting go of the past and we're stretching our hands forth to the future.

942
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:14.440
Some of you on here are married, and marriage is not what you expected it to be.

943
00:55:14.440 --> 00:55:16.120
It's harder than you thought it was going to be.

944
00:55:16.120 --> 00:55:19.160
Blended families are harder than you thought they were going to be, and so you're kind

945
00:55:19.160 --> 00:55:20.160
of grieving.

946
00:55:20.160 --> 00:55:23.480
You know, you were waiting for the dream of being married for so long, and now that you

947
00:55:23.480 --> 00:55:27.440
are married, it doesn't look anything like you imagined it to be, and you need to grieve

948
00:55:27.440 --> 00:55:28.440
that.

949
00:55:28.920 --> 00:55:42.560
It's okay to grieve that and to release it so that God can show you new stuff.

950
00:55:42.560 --> 00:55:48.080
And listen, friends, I want us all to understand that the stuff that we're grieving, the stuff

951
00:55:48.080 --> 00:55:54.000
that we're releasing, it's not that we're going to settle for something second best

952
00:55:54.000 --> 00:55:55.280
to that.

953
00:55:55.280 --> 00:56:00.120
I know that we think that that was the best that could have happened, and now we'll never

954
00:56:00.120 --> 00:56:01.120
have the best.

955
00:56:01.120 --> 00:56:03.000
We'll never have God's best for us on the earth.

956
00:56:03.000 --> 00:56:06.640
We'll never have what this life has to offer that is good.

957
00:56:06.640 --> 00:56:08.400
We'll have to just settle for leftovers.

958
00:56:08.400 --> 00:56:10.520
We'll have to settle for second helpings.

959
00:56:10.520 --> 00:56:17.200
We'll have to settle for, you know, not second helpings, you know, seconds.

960
00:56:17.200 --> 00:56:21.040
I don't know.

961
00:56:21.040 --> 00:56:24.800
But your future is not smaller than the dream that you lost.

962
00:56:24.800 --> 00:56:25.800
It's not.

963
00:56:25.800 --> 00:56:26.800
It's just different.

964
00:56:26.800 --> 00:56:28.880
I want you to say that over myself.

965
00:56:28.880 --> 00:56:35.200
The dream that I'm grieving is not better than the dream God is giving me right now.

966
00:56:35.200 --> 00:56:39.280
It's just different.

967
00:56:39.280 --> 00:56:47.320
It's just different.

968
00:56:47.320 --> 00:56:51.440
Here's some declarations that I have written down that you guys can do if you want.

969
00:56:51.440 --> 00:56:56.200
I release God right now the life that I didn't get.

970
00:56:56.200 --> 00:57:03.320
I bless the younger version of myself who did the best they could.

971
00:57:03.320 --> 00:57:07.440
I receive the life God is still writing for me.

972
00:57:07.440 --> 00:57:12.440
I receive the story that God is still writing for me.

973
00:57:12.440 --> 00:57:13.920
It's not too late for me.

974
00:57:13.920 --> 00:57:20.360
Come on, say it.

975
00:57:20.360 --> 00:57:25.720
My future is bigger than my past.

976
00:57:25.720 --> 00:57:28.080
And the last one I have written down that I love the best.

977
00:57:28.080 --> 00:57:34.320
I give God permission to surprise me again.

978
00:57:34.320 --> 00:57:37.960
I give God permission to surprise me.

979
00:57:37.960 --> 00:57:45.080
Friends, it's not possible to miss out on destiny.

980
00:57:45.080 --> 00:57:46.560
It's just different.

981
00:57:46.560 --> 00:57:50.300
The destiny is just different.

982
00:57:50.300 --> 00:57:52.140
We didn't miss our boat.

983
00:57:52.140 --> 00:57:58.300
You missed a boat, but it wasn't the boat.

984
00:57:58.300 --> 00:58:02.180
There's plenty of boats that come into your harbor every single day, but when we're all

985
00:58:02.180 --> 00:58:08.620
caught up in the boat that left without us, we might not see the new boats.

986
00:58:08.620 --> 00:58:12.740
And all of the boats that are pulling into port, there's an invitation for you to become

987
00:58:12.740 --> 00:58:21.740
the captain of them.

988
00:58:21.740 --> 00:58:24.780
We are not behind friends.

989
00:58:24.780 --> 00:58:29.980
I believe that we can be right on time in this season and we can be built for this season.

990
00:58:29.980 --> 00:58:32.100
I believe that we're all end time people.

991
00:58:32.100 --> 00:58:38.580
God has matched us with this day and age that we live in.

992
00:58:38.580 --> 00:58:42.360
So let's grieve the lives that we didn't have so that we can embrace the life that God still

993
00:58:42.360 --> 00:58:46.080
has for us.

994
00:58:46.080 --> 00:58:47.080
He does.

995
00:58:47.080 --> 00:58:48.880
He still has an amazing life for us.

996
00:58:48.880 --> 00:58:53.040
Let our declaration be that the next decade of our life is going to hold what our childhood

997
00:58:53.040 --> 00:58:57.120
and 20s could not carry.

998
00:58:57.120 --> 00:59:02.840
I know we always think of our teen years and our childhood and our 20s with so much nostalgia

999
00:59:02.840 --> 00:59:05.720
and that was when life was supposed to be the best.

1000
00:59:05.720 --> 00:59:10.080
No, that's not true.

1001
00:59:10.080 --> 00:59:14.000
That's just when we're trying to figure it out.

1002
00:59:14.000 --> 00:59:22.580
Your wisdom and your experiences, right now you can carry what you could have never carried

1003
00:59:22.580 --> 00:59:24.700
back then.

1004
00:59:24.700 --> 00:59:30.000
God can trust you with what you could have never been trusted with back then.

1005
00:59:30.000 --> 00:59:31.320
And so Lord, we thank you.

1006
00:59:31.320 --> 00:59:33.120
We seal today in God.

1007
00:59:33.120 --> 00:59:38.040
We ask that you continue to reveal and heal any grief that we're carrying from missed

1008
00:59:38.080 --> 00:59:42.520
opportunities, from destinies that we wish we would have had, from dreams that we think

1009
00:59:42.520 --> 00:59:43.520
died.

1010
00:59:45.080 --> 00:59:49.240
Any disappointment that we're carrying, any regret that we're carrying, Lord, we pray

1011
00:59:49.240 --> 00:59:53.040
that you would reveal it to heal it, Lord, and you would replace it.

1012
00:59:53.040 --> 00:59:58.320
Once we grieve it, once we release it to you, the would have and could have's and should

1013
00:59:58.320 --> 01:00:00.120
have's, Lord, that you replace it.

1014
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:05.000
Place it with the can-nows, will-nows, have-nows.

1015
01:00:05.360 --> 01:00:07.080
Yes, Lord.

1016
01:00:07.080 --> 01:00:10.520
We thank you for it in Jesus' name.

1017
01:00:10.520 --> 01:00:14.000
Let the rest of our lives be the best of our lives.

1018
01:00:14.000 --> 01:00:15.160
Amen.

1019
01:00:15.160 --> 01:00:16.600
I love all of you.

1020
01:00:16.600 --> 01:00:17.440
Bless you.

1021
01:00:17.440 --> 01:00:18.920
Have a supernatural Saturday.