Hello, welcome. I'm so glad to see all of you this evening.
Would love to have you all come on screen if you're able, if you're not able to because
you're eating or you're at work or whatever, totally understand. But I always like to remind
you all that this is a time of us practicing coming out of hiding, being seen, being known,
being heard, being loved. And the more that we practice that here in the heartwork, the more
that we're going to be able to do that in real life when we're meeting people as well as online
dating, potentially all kinds of things, but welcome. We're excited to dive into tonight's
session with you. My name is Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the heartwork master hardware coaches here.
I'm a trainer of heartwork coaches and other coaches. So it's kind of fun with the season
that we're in and the way that we're growing. We actually normally have Annette, who is one
our peer coaches here with us tonight, but she is in Canada right now visiting her husband.
For those of you that have joined for a few weeks, you know that they're making some progress on his
green card. So prayers going up for them in this season and this time. If you think of it, we would
greatly appreciate that for God's blessing and all green lights regarding the green card moving
forward. Praise the Lord. If you are brand new, if you've never been here before, you're joining for
your first live session tonight, we'd love for you to put that in the chat for us so we can welcome
you. I think maybe some of y'all were already chatting and welcoming people. So I love that.
So glad to see and hear that. If you are returning, welcome back as always. I'm seeing some familiar
faces. That's great. We always love to see that people are coming back. Bailey, welcome for your
first time, Amy G's first time, Anna's first time. That's awesome. I have three so far new ladies
tonight. A couple things just really quickly off the bat. Did I miss about something about not
being on screen? No, I was just inviting everyone to come on screen that could. And so a couple
housekeeping things. We on Saturday did a time of prayer because Jackie was not able to come on
Saturday, but she did a supernatural Sunday last night. It was recorded. And if I forgot to check
before I came on, but that should be up in the groups already. If it's not, it will be soon.
So definitely take a listen to that. She was talking about kind of the high level of it.
You know how it is. It'll be so good and rich. But the high level is an invitation into gifting
forgiveness this season. Giving the gift of forgiveness this season. It's going to be
really fantastic. Encourage you all to go ahead and check that out. When we put up the weekly
Roll Call post every Sunday, I want to encourage you all to go ahead and read that. That is typically
a recap of our normal Saturdays. And so I did do a recap of our prayer time. And I hope that that
blesses you and speaks to your heart. And we would love to have you kind of comment and let us know
what did that say to you if you were able to be there live or if you did hear that replay.
I think they might have taken that down today. So if you didn't hear it, it's okay.
But you can still comment on that post. A couple other things as we are leaning into tonight's
content. I'm going to go ahead and dive right into the real you and what does that mean and how do
we show up and step further into who God originally created us to be. But I want to start out first by
talking about capacity. I want to talk about capacity again. I've kind of been dropping
little seeds along the way the last few weeks regarding capacity. But this afternoon, or this
morning, excuse me, was talking to Jackie about a session that I'm going to be doing tomorrow
night for heart work in one of our other groups. And we were just, you know, kind of circling
around the concept of how oftentimes there are things in our hearts that block our love story.
It's not something we're doing intentionally. It's something subconscious in our hearts that
is blocking our love story. And a lot of time, y'all, unforgiveness is one of those blocks. People
don't realize how much unforgiveness stops the flow of the spirit in our lives in so many ways,
as well as the things that God wants to give us. And one of the things that that Jackie said, and
I loved it so much, but I even kind of felt like God was building on it in my heart and spirit
after she said it. And she said, you know, we have to have the capacity to receive.
And that is so true. But one of the things God was saying to me is we have to first
have the capacity to perceive it, and then the capacity to receive it. So I want you to start
thinking about what ways do you currently need God to shift your capacity, to increase your capacity
to perceive that God wants to help you, you know, not only forgive, but step into the
places and spaces that you need to heal and and get breakthrough and revelation so that you have
the capacity to receive everything God has for you. So often we believe that God is unwilling.
When we think of block, we tend to think that God is blocking it, that He's the one that's not
giving it to us. So often people believe He's dangling a carrot in front of them and He's
just tricking them. He's not going to actually fulfill His word. And so often it's just that we
don't know how to partner with Him in the process to receive what He has for us.
And one of the things I shared with the ladies this afternoon that I do feel led to share again
tonight is that years ago, I was still married and at the time, and it was not going well,
you all, it was at the time where I knew if I didn't get help and get out, it was it was going
to end really, really badly. And I was getting a lot of prayer back in the days for that. And
this woman, as I was up there for prayer, gives me this prophetic word about how God was going to
use me for marriage to impact and heal marriages and families. And I remember literally in my
spirit, kind of like I imagine, I mean, I don't know for sure, but I imagine I felt like Sarah
when she laughed when she heard that she was going to get pregnant, because to me, it was such
the opposite of what was going on in my life. And I remember kind of internally laughing, like,
how can this be? How can this be? So that's word number one. Another word that I received just in
general about God and what He was planting in me about the impact that He wanted me to have.
The first time someone prayed over me and they said that God was going to use me to reach
the nations. Y'all, I remember thinking, what in the world? How is that going to be possible?
I'm just little old me here in, at the time, Mentor, Ohio, which is a little suburb of Cleveland.
How am I going to be able to do that? And I'm planting these seeds because here's the thing,
y'all. Back then, I didn't have the capacity to receive what God was already planning to give me.
But along the way, over the years, God had to continue to prepare me. He had to continue to
literally shift my capacity to perceive what He was doing. And then day by day by day,
every single step that He led me to take, and I'm not saying I always did it perfectly, y'all,
but I just did my best, just taking in perfect action to partner with God. And here are a couple
things that happened that I believe are total fulfillment, not the fullness of it, but like
stepping towards what God wants to use me for. So several years later, I was already divorced
at this time, very, very single. It was after I broke up with my spiritual daughter's dad. So
y'all, I had been in another bad relationship for six years, broke up with him. Y'all, I had been
healing, but still in my mind, I was just like, okay, when this invitation came, I was serving
in a church that's very well known. And I was asked as a single person to help the married
conference, a conference for married people. Y'all, this stuff doesn't normally happen. Who
as a single person typically gets an invite to be on the team to build the marriage conference?
And so because of that, there was a lot of influence I was able to have. I was able to
share even the aspect of, hey, like we really need to have some kind of topic that supports
people that are being abused in relationships. This is real. What do they do? How do they
to get the help that they need as well? And so I started bringing some aspects to the conversation
that some of the other leaders hadn't been through that stuff. They hadn't walked in that path in
their marriages. And so they couldn't even comprehend some of the things that I was talking
about. And so you all, it was really awesome. We were able to bring other people on the team
that were couples that could minister directly in that vein. And God used that in a mighty way
to minister to a lot of married couples in all different places in space. And this was online.
So they were able to reach a lot of people. And then what happens is a couple years later,
God brings Jackie Dorman across my path. And I take the boot camp and I get into this community
and I've been serving and working in all of the things. I've been serving in ministry for a long
time. God has been preparing me and planning. And now here I am that I get to be a part of
this incredible movement. And we have, I mean, I believe we've just begun, but we've already
impacted so many people and you all, we are impacting people around the world and in different
nations. It's incredible. So I'm saying all this to say to you back way, way, way back when I
told you that I got that word about God, you know,
using me in marriage to help heal marriages and families.
Even before that, when I was married,
when I thought things were good,
my husband and I, ex-husband now,
but back then that was my husband.
I thought God was calling us to
like have our own church back then.
And I remember thinking, I'm so ready for this.
We've got this and all of the things.
And what I know now is that if God had given to me
what I thought I was ready for
at the time I thought I was ready for it,
it actually probably would have killed me.
Literally you all, I was not ready for the weight,
the mantle of that ministry.
It was many, many years later that God opened doors
of opportunity for me to lead people at a high scale,
a lot of people.
And so what I'm saying to you,
I kind of prepared all of that
is so that you understand that God is preparing you
for the mantle of marriage, okay?
And it's not to scare you, marriage is fun.
I love having my husband
and going through the things that we're going through.
But y'all, sometimes it is hard.
You're growing, you're stretching,
you're learning about someone else.
Sometimes it's all not like roses,
you know, we're leading a church, all kinds of stuff happens.
But what I do know is that God prepared him
and was making him healthy.
And God was preparing me and making me healthier.
And then God brought us together
and we could work as a team
to walk into the fullness of the things
that God has for us as a couple.
But praise the Lord, we prepared
so that we could stand up under the weight
of the mantle of marriage, okay?
And so as you're thinking about your life,
as you're thinking about what God has for you,
I want you to understand that your process is important.
Your healing is literally critical to your destiny.
And it doesn't mean that by the time you finish heartwork
that you literally like,
you can't have any ounce of healing still needed.
No, that's not what I'm saying.
You're gonna still heal when you get into relationship
and you date and you get engaged
and you go, you're planning the wedding.
Y'all, so many revealings for healing happening
when you have all the added stress
of even planning for fun things.
It's true.
And even long into marriage,
but that you would just really be open
to understanding that God is willing.
He is willing.
It's whether or not you perceive that he's willing
to bless you with a spirit mate
that is gonna be healthy
and that you'll wait until you find that person
that is that healthy spiritual DNA match for you
where you're literally coming together
and you're walking in unison together
and literally can run and be excited.
And one of the things that even came up
in the coaching this afternoon
that I feel is important to mention
is someone shared that they felt led
that God was telling them that they should heal first
because they were hearing and receiving
that God was gonna bring them into relationship
with someone that wasn't gonna be healed yet
and would need them to heal them.
Okay, you all.
The reason I wanna talk about this real quick
is because while I said to her,
I don't want it to sound like
I'm saying you don't hear from God,
but what's happening here
is you're hearing through a filter and a lens
that actually is not healthy.
Okay.
Y'all, in our community,
we encourage you all to date,
you know, and step into marriage
with someone who is healthy, okay?
Someone who is marriage-minded, masculine, they're mature.
It doesn't mean that you're going to,
like, they're gonna be perfect,
but they should be healthy.
They should have some level of heartwork
that they have done.
And so I really want you all to be careful.
And I can say this because I've been there, okay?
Back in the day, I'm a big helper, you all.
So guess what?
I loved to help the guys that I was dating.
And I attracted guys that always needed help.
They just either weren't, you know,
in my mind, they were, you know,
they weren't spiritual.
They were, or even if they said they were,
they really weren't.
And so then I had to help them be spiritual.
I had to help them.
I had to give them books
and I had to give them scripture and all the things.
Can anyone relate here?
I see some laughs.
I see some.
I think this is a really important conversation
to talk about.
So often we are focused on helping everybody else,
myself included, you all.
If you are a helper who often puts yourself last,
I'm gonna encourage you not only in the season,
but in the weeks and months ahead
that you will literally ask God to help you put yourself out.
yourself first. And that you'll set healthy boundaries and not
choose to take on the baggage of someone who is not healthy.
Okay, so those are some couple little things that I felt really
like lead and important to plant those seeds because here's the
other reality. Sometimes the truth is that we have FOMO. We
have a fear of missing out a fear of missing out on all kinds
of things. We're afraid we're going to miss our spirit mate.
We're afraid that if we don't keep dating this person that
they are presenting some things that aren't healthy, but well,
they have this and this and I feel really like I feel all this
electricity with them. Y'all we don't say it exactly like that.
But that's kind of when we say chemistry. Y'all we know what
that means. I'm not saying you won't have wonderful, beautiful
chemistry with your spirit mate. But I told the ladies this
afternoon when I first met Brian you all on our first date, I was
like, he's okay. That is literally the thought I had
when because he pulled up, you know, and, and he like saw me
sitting there and then he had to pull around to the back. So he
kind of said something to me. And then he came around. I mean,
he was dressed. Okay, he was dressed nice, but it wasn't
super. He wasn't dressed trendy, or anything like that. And you
all I don't know, like back in the day, I might have just been
like, yeah, nah, he's really nice, but he's not for me. But
you know what, I sat there that night and I heard the heart of
a man that loved the Lord. That was kind to other people. And
literally paid for me to be generous to someone else that
night in the coffee house. And I was like, Okay, this is a man I
want to get to know a little bit more. This is somebody I want
to, I want to think beyond whether or not his shirt is
trendy. And you all I'm not, I'm not a super like, judgy person
on that kind of stuff. But when you're dating, it is, you know,
you are kind of looking at everything about them and trying
to, can this fit? You know, I don't know. And but anyways, it
didn't take long for Brian to literally be set apart by the
Lord. Every time I went out on a date with anyone else, no one
else could compare to who he was and who he is. His character is
amazing. His heart is very kind. And he's very funny. Don't tell
him I said that. No, I laugh at him all the time. But the longer
you're married, sometimes those dad jokes, they get a little old
you all. But um, so I want you to really partner with even
though you're not dating right now, hopefully you're not
because you're in the heart work and we ask you to press pause on
that. And I know that can be tough, especially around
Christmastime. Y'all are gonna get that urge and that temptation
potentially to go back on the dating apps because you feel
lonely. But I want you to feel it. Okay? I want you to feel it
and let God heal it. Get to the root of where is that loneliness
really coming from? What's causing that to surface in you
that's leading you to that place? Another thing is a lot of
times during like y'all will sign up for the heart work and
some of you it happens right away right out of the gate. Some
of you it's a little further along something shiny, the enemy
will bring something very shiny into your path. And he will try
to lead you astray to go off and do something else. It even you
all I was joking, but literally, every day, there is a new course
that is a sponsored ad in Facebook multiple times, y'all
things that I even have talked to people about like that I want
information on. I literally we could turn around every single
day and purchase a course, right? But God led you here. So
if you're a learner, if you're someone who loves to learn, and
you love personal development, I'm going to encourage you stay
with this course, okay? And then when you finish here, then maybe
add other things if you feel led to do so. But let God really
help you focus in and even that you wouldn't read a bunch of
other books right now, that the heart work in the Bible would be
obviously the Bible first, but that those would be your primary
things that you're diving into what is the Lord saying to you
in this season? I want you to practice this quote with me. I'm
the perfect age for everything that God has for me right now.
I'm the perfect age for everything that God has for me
right now. You are in the perfect place and space for
everything that God has for you. I want you to understand
that God can redeem time, that he can restore years that you
think that you've lost because of something. For me, I felt
like I lost six years of my life because I was in that
relationship that long with my spiritual daughter's dad, but
God has absolutely been redeeming that time. So stay
Focus on your heart work, stay in the game and let's keep going.
Okay.
I have to officially pray.
I forgot to do that before I started jumping in and then we'll
keep going through the content.
Father, thank you so much.
God already.
I just sensed your presence here with us tonight.
I pray that you would help the ladies to receive everything that you have for them.
Help them to hear exactly what they need to hear to create momentum within them
to Lord that you would convict them in areas where they need to be convicted,
but Lord, that you would give them the grace and the enablement that your
power would help them to step forward into your plan and purpose for their
lives, God, that you would reveal any counterfeit identities, any filters
or blind spots that are causing them to hear even your voice incorrectly.
God to lead them astray.
Lord help them to Lord.
Yes.
That you would take their feet off of any pathways of pain that lead them
away from you and that you would put their feet back onto pathways that lead
directly into your heart, directly into your plan.
God, I thank you that you would help them to see the real them a little bit
more tonight, and I just thank you in advance for all that you're going to
accomplish in Jesus name.
Amen.
So we're talking about your true identity.
Some of you have heard this before, but I pray that you would just ask the Lord
to help you hear something fresh and new tonight.
If you've been here for this session content before, I want you to
think about your true identity.
The true identity again, as a reminder is who did God or excuse me, who
God originally created you to be before wounds or trauma ever entered your life.
Before you ever experienced anything bad, your true identity is
exactly the way God created you.
And for some of us, we've had stuff in our lives so long that we think
it is the way God created us.
I've, I've shared in my testimony before that I even had a mini argument with
God about, I've always been this way regarding anxiety because I couldn't
remember a day in my life that I didn't feel anxious, this has been years ago now.
And I, I literally was like, God, why did you make me this way?
And he said, I didn't.
I was like, wait a minute, but I've been like this forever.
And he said, Bethany, know that when I created you, that was not in you.
And it gave me a lot of revelation and understanding that the feelings of
anxiety that I have are different than who God created me to be.
But oftentimes I kind of brought those two together and I started basically
partnering with, in aligning with subconsciously, again, this was not
intentional, but partnering with, this is just who I am.
This is just how I've always been.
I don't know if I'm ever going to break free from this anxiety problem that I
struggle with, but God had a different plan and he was speaking truth.
And so in that, I want you all to be asking yourself who told you, and I'm
going to explain this, but who told you that you were naked?
So in my case, who told me that I was an anxious person who told me that I
was always going to have fear or that I would always struggle with lust
because those are things I thought too.
Growing up in a family that sexually abused me as a little girl, it came so
young that I didn't know how to have anything separate from that.
I'm not saying it's their fault that I chose to have sex outside of marriage,
you all, but I absolutely know that what I went through definitely led me down
that path.
And I didn't have the strength or the understanding, or even the knowledge of
how to stand up against the stuff that I was encountering in the spirit realm.
One attack after another, being raped in college, all kinds of things, you all.
And I remember thinking like, how can like this sexual stuff happen to one
person so many times in all these different forms and ways.
And again, yours might be different.
Yours might be financial problems.
Yours might be, you know, just constant anger in your family.
I don't know what your thing is.
But what I'm trying to say to you is that at some point in your journey, the
enemy lied to you and he told you that you were something that you are not.
And I want you to really be thinking about who told you that you were naked.
When was the first time that the enemy whispered those lies to you and you
believed them?
Genesis 3, 8 through 11 says this,
Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in
the garden in the cool of the day.
And they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden.
But the Lord God called to the man.
So he's calling to Adam and he's saying,
Where are you?" Adam answered and said this,
I heard you in the garden and I was afraid because I was naked
and so I hid. And he said, God saying to Adam, who told you
that you were naked? Have you eaten from the tree
that I commanded you not to eat from? So I'm using that scripture to kind of
build on the fact that when we go through these things,
oftentimes not only do we believe the lie, again, sometimes it's a
conscious thing and we don't mean to even believe the lie, but we do.
And then it leads us into pain, it leads us into unhealthy patterns
and choices, it leads us into hiding in so many ways.
So I want to encourage you tonight to come out of hiding.
Come out of hiding, come out of the shadows and allow yourself to be fully
known and choose to show up fully in this
world, fully in your life. The definition of what I'm asking you
to continue to do in the days ahead is this,
that you would be authentic, that you would be present,
that you would be engaged in life. Y'all engaged in life means we're not just
making it by, that you're feeling and experiencing joy,
that yes, you might also experience pain, but you're
fully alive, you're awakening and becoming more and more and more of
who God created you to be, that you would intentionally choose to
be fully present even, excuse me, even in this moment.
You know, I know how the enemy works because I've been through this too.
Some of you all will be on this session and you'll start getting text messages
from somebody, some disruption will happen, your kids will start needing you,
you know, the phone's ringing and somebody's got an emergency and yes,
you all, of course, if there is a massive
emergency, totally understand. But some of you, I want you to understand that this
is the enemy's plot, like it's his trap for you. I cannot tell
you how many times I would literally be on a live session,
have no communication with my spiritual daughter's dad,
and then guess who would text me when I would be on healing
sessions? Their dad. It was creepy, you all, but this is how
breaking soul ties works in the spirit. They don't even know why they're texting
at that time, but there's things going on
that the enemy is trying to keep you connected to people
that God is like, no, you need to not connect.
And so I got better and better and better at
not responding and giving myself permission to fully
be there, undistracted by that chaos. Fully showing up in the world also
means that we recognize our true self, that we actively are
participating in life with purpose and intention.
Not holding anything back. So I want you to ask yourself, you know,
think about the last week or two. Has there been any time or any situation
where you have held a part of yourself back? Maybe this is,
you know, you wanted to work on a project at work
and you wanted to go for it and get out of your comfort zone, but your
fear took over. Maybe it looked like, hey, you were in a difficult situation or
conversation. Maybe your friend hurt you, maybe a sister, maybe a mom.
And instead of actually saying, hey, when you said this,
I felt like sad. It hurt my feelings. You know, where you're speaking and
using your voice and allowing yourself to be heard
and allowing yourself to be understood, if that person is healthy, of course,
that you're talking to. Where have you been
holding something back? Maybe there's a gift or ability, something that God is
putting on your heart to go and do, but you haven't been doing it.
Because something in you says that you're not
enough or that you'll never measure up or whatever the dialogue
is for you. I just want you to be thinking about what
in your life causes you to pull back from relationship,
to pull back from things in the world and go back further into withdrawal,
isolation, pity. A lot of self-pity keeps people from
moving forward. It's real stuff, you all. A lot of times
we don't think about self-pity as a sin, but when we get into patterns of
self-pity and self-loathing and all this isolation,
it can lead to a lot of unhealthy mindsets and heart postures.
We're all on a journey every single day to grow in our understanding of who we
are in Christ, as well as who he originally created.
us to be. Again, be thinking about how you can come out of hiding. I'm going to read a couple
lyrics from a song called Out of Hiding by Stephanie Gretzinger, and this is what it says.
This is about like almost like her view of God speaking to her. It says,
Come out of hiding. You're safe here with me. There's no need to cover what I already see.
You've got your reasons, but I hold your peace. You've been on lockdown, but I hold the key.
Because I loved you before you knew it was love. And I saw it all, still I chose the cross.
And you were the one that I was thinking of when I rose from the grave. Now rid of the shackles,
my victory is yours. I tore the veil for you to come close. There's no reason for you to stand
at a distance anymore. You're not far from home. Y'all, some of you are putting up walls
with the Lord because you're afraid to come close to Him. You're afraid to let Him into me see,
to let you let Him see all the way into the inner places of your heart and your mind and your body
and your spirit and your soul. He wants to help you literally come out of that lockdown phase
that you've been in. What we align with matters. I want you to think about what thoughts you're
aligning with. And do they sound like heaven? Does it sound like heavenly ways of talking?
Just like I was saying, that woman was hearing that God was saying, I want you to heal so that
you can go get matched up with somebody that's not healthy and you can help them. A good father
would not match their daughter with someone that isn't healthy for them. I want y'all to think
about that. For some of you, you've seen good dads and you see how lovingly protective they
are of their daughters. They want their daughters to have the best. And God wants you to have the
best too. Feel the Holy Spirit on that. I want you to receive that. For some of you, you know,
it's again, I believe God is trying to help you change your mindsets about who the Father is.
As in God, the Father towards you, not just towards everybody else, but Deidre towards you,
Christina towards you, like God has good things for you, not just everybody else.
And he's saying that it's your time.
I want you to also understand that our words have power.
The things that we're thinking and speaking have power. So remember I said right at the beginning,
which is why I set the tone this evening with that. God wants to increase our capacity to perceive a
thing. You know, if you think of perceiving something, it's like in your mind's eye,
can you imagine yourself being given a spirit mate who's healthy? Can you imagine yourself
healthy enough and happy and living more fully and able to walk into that day just full of
lightness and joy and happiness? No more baggage holding you back. No more lies telling you that
you can't receive it or achieve it. I will tell you that getting to the marriage, just the wedding
day is not the goal. A healthy marriage and a healthy relationship is the goal.
Sometimes we find that people are just trying to hurry to get the spirit mate and hurry to the
wedding. And I get it. There's a lot of sexual pressure, right? But you all, I'm telling you,
the people that are struggling the most are the people that do not give themselves time as
individuals to heal. And then they don't give the relationship enough time to get it
a healthy foundation of getting to know the person.
Give yourself a blessing and allow yourself the time that you need.
God wants you to know tonight also, let's flip this a little bit. He wants you to know that you
are a super Nova. It's still a part of what we're talking about tonight. It's about that true
identity. But he literally, when he created you, I love to talk about this because it's so fun. I
just imagine like God creating each one of us. And you know, he's, he's like, Oh, I'm going to put
this amazing, joyful smile in Lisa. Everybody has a great smile in here, but I'm just going to go
with a couple of things coming up in my heart. And he's like, Oh, I'm going to put this little
bubbly spirit in Denise. And I'm going to throw this gift in her and I'm going to throw this
gift in her. And he's so excited. You all, when he's created us, I absolutely believe this with
all my heart that God was excited. And he's like, yes, and I'm going to put this ability in her.
And when, when she goes through this, this is how she's going to overcome it. And then she's
going to use her story.
To impact these people and you all this this amazing blessing of everything
That he dreamed up on of us and he said yes, and he celebrated the day that you entered the world
He always wanted you
God always wanted you
Whether or not your parents chose you or wanted you y'all I was an unplanned, baby
My mom was on birth control and got pregnant with me. I
Was even told by her that they did not want me
But you know what God?
Absolutely wanted me. He wanted me here and that's why I'm here. Praise the Lord for that. I'm so grateful
Even when life is hard
I am so grateful that God chose to allow me this opportunity to be in this world and
experience everything that I get to experience to feel the grass and and see a butterfly and to
Look at the sky and see the amazing sunshine and all of the things that we get the opportunity
I know those are just a couple small things, but I want I'm saying this stuff as the as I'm hoping it's awakening things in you
To cause you even if you don't feel that way ladies
Maybe you don't find the simple joy and seeing a butterfly right now because you feel sad or you feel hopeless
I don't know where you are tonight. But what I know is that it is possible. I
Didn't always feel that. I mean, I've always loved butterflies all and I've always loved to sit in the Sun
Genuinely as a kid. I used to just go sit in the backyard and
Even back then I didn't even know who I was praying to you all but I deep down
I believe I knew
Without knowing if that makes sense
And so there's always been this awe and wonder in me
But I would tell you that the more that we heal the more we start to really just wow
Like I get to be here. I get to be a part of this amazing thing. Look at tonight
How many of us are here?
58 people are here tonight
Y'all none of us will ever be at this same moment ever again that is here right now tonight
Every single person is here for a reason and God is working in your life
And he's he's preparing you just like Esther and he's saying daughter you need this
Daughter take the time to slow down. Let me give this to you. Let me prepare you in this way
Let me come in and place the balm of Gilead upon that wound
Yes, Lord
Because he doesn't want you to keep going with that stuff you were never intended to carry that baggage I
Hear the Lord saying that he's so sorry that you went through the things that you went through
I don't know who I'm speaking to right now, but I this is not in my notes y'all
But God wants you to know that he his heart was breaking when you were being abused or hurt in
some way shape or form and
He has so much better for you Matthew 5 14 through 16 the message translation says this here's another way to put it
You're here to be light bringing out the God colors in the world. God is not a secret to be kept
We're going public with this as public as a city on a hill if I make you light bearers
You don't think I'm gonna hide you under a bucket. Do you I'm putting you on a light stand now that I've put you
There on a hilltop on a light stand shine
Keep an open house be generous with your lives by opening up to others
You'll prompt people to open up with God
this generous Father in
Heaven Romans 8 37 through 39 says this know when all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us for I
Am convinced that neither death nor life neither angels nor demons nor the present nor the future nor any powers
Neither height nor depth nor anything else in all of creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is
In Christ Jesus our Lord if God is for you
Chrissy
Who can be against you?
What can hinder the fulfillment of God's promises in your life?
Same thing for Kelly same thing for Bambi same thing for
Elsie if God is for us
Who can be against us y'all yes, we're gonna face trials we're gonna face tribulations
There's gonna be things the enemy's gonna send to try to bring an obstacle
To hinder that promise from being fulfilled, but guess what?
We get to stand up against that stuff and say ha Jesus already won the victory
I get to step into that with him and he's gonna help me every step of the way. I
Thank you God for sending me a spirit mate
I thank you that you're
Highlighting me to him and him to me and you're taking me one step closer every single day to him
These are the things we partner with ladies as we move forward and we heal you may not
believe that yet and that's okay, you can borrow from my faith tonight.
I am a success story from this community, I absolutely know this stuff works.
We have several coaches that have come out of our community that now coach for us that
are success stories.
You all, we have tons of success stories.
So what would cause you to believe that it cannot happen for you?
Most importantly, again, we need to heal and become a healthy individual, us, so that we
can come together with another healthy individual to become a team and run the race together
to the supernatural spiritual DNA that's bringing us together.
It is your time.
It's time for you to awaken those princesses within you to understand that you are a co-heir
with Christ.
You are royalty in the kingdom of heaven.
I'm curious tonight how many of you truly partner with that you are a princess.
That God has abundance and it's not you get to go under the table and sit and beg for
crumbs and maybe God, maybe he'll just drop a couple crumbs down for you.
No, no, no.
God wants you to understand that he is sitting at the banquet table and he's got a seat right
next to himself.
And he's like, sweetheart, this is for you.
This seat is for you, but you know what?
I know how it goes.
You all I've come out of this stuff.
I literally in my subconscious, even when I didn't want to believed that I was that
person underneath the table that all I was ever going to get was crumbs.
And in my subconscious, I would convince myself that I had to settle for people that were
not God's best for me.
Ephesians 514 says a wake-a-wake-a-sleeper and rise up from the dead and Christ will
shine on you.
What are we be being awakened by will true love's kiss the kiss of heaven, like God coming
down and healing us from the inside out so that we can awaken more and more and more.
There was this sweet lady.
Her name's Lisa Grimm.
She's in heartwork as well.
She shared this testimony this afternoon.
And this is what she said you all as she's sharing something that God was doing in her
last night and speaking to her about her spirit mate.
She said this, I must be giving off this new aura too, because all of a sudden men are
coming up and actually talking to me.
It was so sweet the way she said it, but y'all this is a reality.
The more that you heal, the more his glory is going to be revealed in you and through
you and there are going to be people that are going to be like, hey, what's different?
What's different with you?
What's going on?
Like what, you know, they're going to be curious because they're going to see it.
They're going to hear the transformation in you as you continue to heal and shift.
I hope because it should, it should change the way that you're showing up in every relationship
in every place and space in your life.
It should be an automatic organic shift for you.
I want to encourage you all to watch a movie.
It is from Disney.
I don't know if anybody's against Disney.
If you are, I apologize, but it's a really cute movie.
It's called Wreck-It Ralph.
And I don't want to give away the story.
I hope that you'll understand it.
And if you take that invitation and watch that story, it's really, really a lovely,
a lovely movie about a princess realizing who she is, but it also is a story about the
things that tried to hinder her from knowing who she really was all along.
So I want you to watch it.
And if you do, I would love for you to do a post about it in the group and just let
me know if you know what I'm talking about.
Okay.
The movie is called Wreck-It Ralph.
And even if you've seen it before, I really encourage you to watch it again because you're
going to be looking hopefully through a new lens after tonight.
The lens of like, Hey, what, how does God want to speak to me through this movie?
I would love for you to pray before you watch it.
Yes, I absolutely believe God can use a Disney movie to speak to you.
God speaks to me through movies and TV shows and songs all the time.
You all, I believe he can speak to you too, but as you're doing this, as you are stepping
forward, God is awakening us again to our true identity.
The one that he gave us to restoration and not only to restoration, I really felt led
to add onto this, the reality of redemption, reconciliation, and also restitution.
Y'all restitution means everything that was stolen from you being given back to you, but
not just giving back the same amount a hundred fold.
And this isn't just a money principle, you all.
Did someone steal your time because they were unhealthy
and they were tricking you in some way, shape,
or form in a relationship?
Y'all, this is how we really think.
I understand it because I felt that way.
Presenting themselves as one person,
but they actually were someone totally different,
having a bunch of side relationships.
Even if that isn't your story,
the reality is, is we actually believe
that those people stole that stuff from us.
The reality is I chose to be with that person,
unfortunately, I chose to live
into some counterfeit identities.
Praise the Lord, I got out of that,
that Jesus broke me free from that.
And I learned how to not do that again.
But God absolutely has been not only restoring those years
that the locust has eaten and the moth has destroyed,
but God has given me restitution, you all.
So many different ways it's showing up in my life,
and he wants to give that to you too.
He also wants to awaken you to big, bold future.
He wants to awaken dreams within you.
Some of you all had dreams as children
that God is gonna start stirring up things in you.
Again, now some of those things,
I always say this caveat,
some of those things we can't do, okay?
Because of our age or the stage of life we're in.
I kind of made a joke this afternoon,
we're probably not gonna go be pro basketball players,
most of us, right?
That's an easy one,
but hopefully you can understand what I'm trying to say.
Some things we might not be able to do,
but there are a lot of things
that you dreamed about as children,
that God is like, yes, I wanna stir that up in you.
I want you to practice that
and allow that little girl dreamer of yourself,
that version of yourself to come out to play
and let's talk about these things.
That's what the Lord is saying to you.
And also some of you are gonna have new dreams,
new desires starting to bubble up inside of you.
Some of you are gonna be like,
man, I think God's leading me to go back to school
or I think God's leading me to take an art class
or a singing class or whatever.
I don't know what your thing is,
but God will start to stir this stuff up in you.
And I really wanna encourage you to not push that down.
I want you to write it down.
I want you to capture it.
And I want you to start to ask Him,
what's one step I can take towards this dream?
Maybe one of them in particular.
We all have to choose what we are going to believe.
What are you gonna believe tonight?
You know, there's that scripture that says,
whose report will you believe?
Are you gonna believe the report of the Lord
or are you gonna believe the report of the enemy
or that naysayer, that person that's always,
the enemy keeps using that person to stand there
when you're trying to cross the river
to get to the other side, to the promised land.
And that person is sitting there,
wah, wah, wah, wah, wah, wah.
Literally, y'all, that's what they really are.
They're just a voice.
They're just a voice that at some point,
God's gonna enable you to be like,
yep, you know what?
I love you, but that is not truth.
And I don't want you to say that to me anymore.
Now, again, they may or may not be healthy
to receive that.
They might react and blow up,
but praise the Lord, you get to set a healthy boundary
and say, yeah, you know what?
Maybe I should spend less time with that person.
Y'all didn't see the post that Jackie put up
on her social media.
She absolutely put one up on Instagram,
probably on Facebook too,
about how sometimes, you know,
God leads us to not be with people for a reason.
And sometimes it's a season.
So be praying into that for yourself.
All right, we're gonna go into breakout sessions.
This is what your question is tonight.
In what ways does the enemy challenge the real you?
Does he often use comparison, competition, or imitation,
or all of them, some of them?
You get to decide.
If it's more than one, that's okay.
And then how do these tend to show up in your life?
I'm gonna repeat the question again,
and then I'm gonna give you an example, okay?
In what ways does the enemy challenge the real you?
Does he often use comparison, competition, or imitation,
all of them, some of them?
And how do these tend to show up in your life?
So for example, if the enemy tends to challenge the real me
with comparison, every time I try to step forward,
he's always going to show me someone
that is further than I am and try to convince me
that I'm not good enough to become what they are.
For example, a published author.
I cannot tell you how many times the enemy has come to me
and said to me, you have nothing of value.
you to say, no one is going to buy your books. I'm not kidding you all. I've heard that so
many times. And so I'm getting stronger and stronger and stronger. The more that I really
pray into this and, and really get into the place with the Lord that he's showing me why
I have believed the enemy and literally shut down at times I would be writing and literally
get massive writer's block. And I felt like I couldn't move forward. That's how it's been
up in my life. So I don't know how it's showing up in your life, but I want you to talk to the
ladies that you're in the breakout session with. I am going to try to only put two people together
in a room. Um, because I re I love y'all to have a little bit more time with each other.
Um, but we'll see what we can do here. And if you get in the room, just remember, um, if somebody
isn't in there or they're not able to talk or whatever, I can move you all around. Um, and just
remember that some people have internet condition connection issues. Um, that's okay. Rosie,
if some of y'all can't join the breakout, it's totally fine. Um, if I have any coaches on here,
I can't see everyone. Um, don't receive, or don't accept that invitation to go into the breakout
room. All right, ladies, go ahead. And you have seven minutes. Go ahead and click to join that
as quick as you can.
Start to pray here in just a moment. I just need to move a couple people around here.
All right, father. Thank you so much. Thank you, God, for continuing to help us connect
and, and receive the revelation of heaven tonight for us over us. God, I thank you that you would
help us to hear what your spirit is saying. God, I thank you that we would not be afraid,
God, that we would walk into the fullness of everything that you have for us, Lord. I thank
you that you would help us to leave behind, you know, all of our fears and all of our anxieties
all the former things, Lord, where we've been held back in any way, shape or form.
Calandra, I'm trying to put you in a different room. I'm sorry, I have to move you again. So I
just sent you room 24. There you go. Thank you, Lord, for continuing to help all of our ladies
share and open up and have divine connections and friendships even coming out of tonight.
Bambi, I can't tell if you're stuck. Yeah, I'm stuck. The person, Peggy,
I'm muted. And I can't hardly hear you. Oh, Peggy was muted. Let me Oh, okay, I see you.
I think I might have. She might have dropped off. I'll just put you into a different room.
Here we go. Okay, thank you. You're welcome. Thank you.
All right. So Lord, I thank you just praying into those divine friendships. God, I thank you for
sisterhood. I thank you, God, that you have called us to come out of hiding and come into
community. I pray God that you would just continue to. Yes, Lord, just come in and just soothe
people's minds, their hearts, their spirits, their souls. Peggy, hi. I heard that you were having a
hard time on sharing because you were having a hard time on mute. Do you want to just stay here
in the main room? You can put it in the chat for me. If you can't share or you can unmute totally
fine either way. All right. So Lord, we just thank you that you would continue to minister
to all the broken and fallen places in our hearts and our lives. God, I thank you.
Yes, Lord, that you are making all things new, God, and that you're continuing to help us to
see things through a new lens, God, that you would give us your eyes to see and your ears to hear
what your spirit is saying to us and over us. God, I thank you that you would continue to
anoint our hearts. Yes, Lord, with fresh grace, fresh capacity. Yes, Lord, I thank you for strength
and endurance in this journey. God, I thank you. Yes, Lord, I thank you, God, that even in this
I'm looking at this scripture right now in the Heartwork Book, John 14, 12 from the Passion
Translation. And this is after she's talking about the supernova area. It says, I tell you this
timeless truth. The person who follows me in faith, believing in me will do the same mighty
miracles that I do even greater miracles than these because I go to be with my father. So
interesting. I literally just watched a devotional video a couple days ago.
from the chosen. And it came right after I was in a small group and we were talking about how
literally, you know, it says that we're going to do mightier works than Jesus did.
And the next day that video was of the disciples, like Jesus sitting with them,
talking to them about this, that, that truth alone, that he was going to have them do greater
miracles than he had done. And they were all like, what, what, like they couldn't believe it.
It was just kind of funny the way it displayed it, but so often, you know, it just made it so real.
Um, it had Matthew who was the tax collector at that time. He was like, wait, wait, did I
miss something? Did I miss some kind of meeting or, you know, it just in that moment where,
you know, I believe so often we hear things like that. We read things like that, but it's tough
for us to comprehend that God would allow us, he would enable us to be used in that way.
But praise the Lord. We can be used to be a vessel for God to work through into the lives of those
around us in every single way. Romans 8, 30 through 32 in the passion translation says this,
having determined our destiny ahead of time, there it is. You all, your destiny is determined
ahead of time. He called us to himself and transferred his perfect righteousness to
everyone he called and those who possess his perfect righteousness. He glorified with his son.
So what does all of this mean? If God has determined to stand with us, tell me who then
could ever stand against us. There's that thing that I was saying earlier for God has proved his
love by giving us his greatest treasure, the gift of his son. And since God freely offered him up
as a sacrifice for us, each one of us, he certainly won't withhold from us anything else he has to give.
Y'all sit in that, sit in that truth for a minute.
For God proved his love by giving us his greatest treasure, the gift of his son. Some of you all,
it's kind of like even you don't mean to, but in a sense you're like wanting God to prove that he
is faithful and that he will be faithful to you, but he's already proven himself faithful.
It's whether or not we believe that he is faithful.
He's already given us the evidence of it. And because he's given us this greatest gift,
his son, it's saying he's not going to withhold anything else from us. Now in that, again,
that caveat is if something isn't healthy for us, just like I was talking earlier
about the weight of the ministry. If God had given that to me back then, it would have crushed me.
If God had given me my spiritual daughter's dad and had him like nudged him to marry me,
gosh, so much would be different. Praise the Lord. He did not
bless that. He did not encourage that to be moved forward.
I want you to really continue to pray into all that God has for you in the days ahead. Ephesians
3, 17 through 19 in the NLT says this, then Christ will make his home in your hearts as you trust in
him. Your roots, let me click this button real quick, will grow down into God's love and keep
you strong. And may you have the power to understand as all God's people should how wide,
how long, how high, and how deep his love is. May you experience the love of Christ,
though it is too great to fully understand. Then you will be made complete with all the fullness
of life and power that comes from God. Father, I pray that and ask you, Lord, to just continue
to give us a revelation and a fresh way of your love tonight. God, if there's anything that hinders
us from being able to receive the revelation of your love, God, that you would remove those
barriers, God, and you would help us to just, again, that that capacity would increase for our
who you are, God, as love. Go ahead and try to mute yourselves for me as quick as y'all can. I'll
help you too if I can. All right, so I'm going to give you your activations first. Go ahead and raise
your hand if you're willing to share with the whole group what you shared in the breakout session. I
would love for you all to talk about the question that I gave you specifically tonight because
there's a lot of you that you need breakthrough regarding this so that you can continue to come
out of these counterfeit identities and step further into your real identity. And so we've
to get to the root of the comparison, the competition, or the imitation that you all
might be facing, okay? So let's talk about that first, and then if we have more time,
I can open it up for y'all to ask other questions. Here is activation number one.
I want you to activate the princess on the inside of you. We talked about this before. Some of you
are brand new, so you've never heard it. I want to encourage you to ask the Lord what you should do
to partner with the princess.
Awakening on the inside of you that you already are a princess.
You already are an heir of the fullness of God's blessings.
So maybe you're going to get a tiara.
Maybe you're going to buy a crown.
Maybe you're going to buy some fancy shoes or some really lovely
jewelry because that makes you feel regal here is going to be I already
put it up in the group this afternoon.
So you are will already see it there when you go there tonight.
If you haven't already seen it activation number one, there's five
areas, but I'm going to read three of them to you.
You can read the rest in there tonight, but this is number one.
This is some of the ways you can activate the princess on the inside
of you one.
I already started talking about.
Put on that tiara or that crown look at yourself in the mirror and say
I am a princess own it.
Talk about it.
See yourself in it, but also sit there and do your morning devotions
and your prayer time with it.
Get comfortable being a princess.
Let this physical reminder anchor you in the spiritual truth that you
Carol carry royal blood through Jesus Christ number to create a royal
morning ritual.
Start each day by looking in the mirror and speaking your identity
out loud.
Good morning, and I said this already kind of good morning princess
Anna.
You are chosen you are beloved you are set apart.
God is working on a spirit mate for you.
Follow this with reading scripture.
I added the spirit mate part y'all can add extra things if you want
follow this with reading scripture that affirms your identity like
Psalm 45 11 or first Peter 2 9.
This will rewire your mind to see yourself as God sees you number 3
dress like royalty from the inside out.
We got a dress like royalty on the inside.
What that means is we have to get to know who we are and believe in
who God has given us the identity of like the beautiful things that
he's put in us and then also on the outside dress like royalty.
So choose a piece of jewelry, maybe clothing item or accessory that
makes you feel regal and wear that as a princess reminder.
It could be our special ring and elegant scarf or even a beautiful
posture that you begin to walk in ladies.
How many of you walk around with your head down anyone here ever you
don't have to raise your digital hands.
So I don't lose these people put in the chat for me.
I just want to see any of you struggle with looking down all the time.
And if you apologize all the time, even when there's nothing to apologize
for let's step into a new posture in this season.
Let's lift our heads up.
Let's make eye contact with people.
Smile.
Let yourself be seen.
I'm going to keep going.
Let it prompt you throughout the day to carry yourself with the dignity
and confidence that belongs to you a daughter of the king.
And again, you can read the other two in there.
I didn't want to take too long, but I felt like I needed to read some
read some of those over you because of the power that is in them.
Just reading it out loud.
Now I want to talk about also this dressing like royalty even on the
outside.
Some of you have gotten very cozy wearing sweatpants and sweatshirts
and t-shirts all the time.
Okay, we're going to start coming out of that.
So you're going to activate the princess.
Am I saying you can never wear cozy things?
No, that's not what I'm saying.
But what I'm saying is some of you have never worn a dress.
Some of you used to wear dresses, but you don't anymore.
And you need to you need to allow the divine.
Feminine to wake up within you the princess who wears pretty frilly
and y'all everybody's feminine is different.
Okay, so maybe you don't like frilly.
I love a little even feminine top that has like almost like a little
hangover, you know sleeve that looks a little feminine.
I like things with a little bit of lace on them that look very
feminine.
I love a dangly earring.
I've been doing my having my nails done lately.
You all this is a part of me trying to pamper myself to the
things I ask you all to do.
I do try to work on them.
I really try to show up fully everywhere.
I go if I'm going out in public.
I try to think about like back when I was dating obviously not
now, but I would think about like man, I might run into a like a
really cute guy.
So I don't want to I don't want to just run out of the house all
the time with my hat on because I got into the place where I was
always wearing a hat, you know, and and so God was kind of
reminding me like hey, it's been a while since you curled your
hair and am I saying that that stuff like you can't meet your
spirit mate without that being done.
No, that's not what I'm saying.
But some of you.
you need to partner with us. It's going to help you. Because it even makes you feel better for
you. It's not just about someone else. So show up fully for yourself in this season.
And back in the day, I know some of you don't like to do this, but back in the day when I was
in this community, we would literally like, if we were getting dressed up to go out, even on a date,
or even to go out with friends, we would take a picture and share it in the chat. And we would
talk about our Divine Feminine waking up and being like, I went shopping and I got this really
cute dress. And this is what it looks like. And we just became sisters. And I know there's a lot
of people in here. And if you want to partner with, there's a lot of people in here. I don't
know if I can post that or, then that's your choice. But for those of you that post and engage
with each other, I 100% believe that God can grow sisterhood friendships in this community through,
you know, you all connecting. Okay. Activation number two is silhouette activation. Let me show
it to you really quick. The way this works is you're going to pray and you're going to ask God
to show you and tell you, who am I? Who am I God? And you're going to listen for what he's saying.
What words is he saying? What phrases is he saying? What colors is he telling you? You're
going to draw a little silhouette of yourself. You don't, you do not have to be an artist. I'm
going to show you several versions here tonight. You don't have to do it exactly like this pray
and follow the Holy spirit for yourself. Now, ladies, if you hear something negative,
it does not go on this silhouette. You're going to write that on a separate piece of paper
and you're going to cross that out. And you're going to actually ask the Lord
to give you the truth to replace that lie. Remember the revealing for healing cycle.
And if you haven't done that part yet, because you're brand new, it's okay. You'll get there
some point, but the revealing for healing cycle walks us through identifying the lies, but also
going all the way through to replace those with the truth. This first one here, I just want to
point out, she felt led to put flowers on her eyes. Part of that you all symbolized for her
that, you know, she did not like to see herself on camera on screen. And so God in the heart work
changed her view of herself. And so that's what these flowers represent for her. Okay. And she
blonde hair. So that's what that represents. Here's someone, this lady here, she was representing that
her mind was beginning to flourish. That's why she has like the plants and the life coming out
of her mind. Really, really beautiful. Awesome. Here's another one. She's wearing a crown. She's
got these beautiful bold lips and all these really powerful words about herself. It's really
important for y'all to lean in. Like I said, to what God is saying to you, this one is wonderful
as well. Very simple, not a lot of color. She titled it the real me. And then she wrote everything
that God was saying to her. And if some of you struggle, it's okay. Just continue to press
in and let God build it for you, but don't avoid this activation. Here's another one. Very, you
know, wonderful. She highlighted a couple words in yellow that really meant something in particular
to her. Here's one. She's got some freckles. Again, just trying to show you guys a couple
different ones here. She's wearing a crown and at the every point of the crown is a word.
There's different colors and expression. This lady here is an artist, so I don't want you to be
intimidated, but I love this. I think it's so powerful. I want you to see just her perspective
of what God was saying to her and doing in her. And then Nari, I don't know if she's here tonight,
but Nari, who has been live on this session, this is her silhouette that she just put up in the
this last week. You all, I don't know if you were here last week or two weeks ago when I gave her
the challenge to do this activation and she followed through on it. And it's absolutely
stunning and beautiful. And I'm so, so proud of her. And so I'm hoping if she's not here live
tonight, that she will see this and replay as I'm cheering her on with all of you. Okay. I know that
took a little bit of time. If you have any questions, I put that up again in the community
tab inside of the app group. Shakira, I would love to hear what you have to say.
Hi. Hi. So I was talking with Lisa and the main one for me is comparison.
Um, so we were talking about how, well, I talked about how I think the cause of the comparison is
just my parents and how they were really critical of me and themselves growing up. And it's been
a really hard habit to, to break. I think I mentioned to you once that I feared that,
uh, like if I married someone, it would
be hard for me to like not compare them to someone else or for me to not compare myself
to other people and I didn't want that so that was what I got. Okay I just saw your your post
in the chat too you said I'm too cold to wear dresses lol I want to get sweater dresses eventually
hey yeah that's if you live somewhere cold you can absolutely wear some jeans and some cute booties
and a cute little sweater and a jacket y'all I totally do yeah you can totally be funny I like
the whole work wear vibe and people are always asking me like do you have an interview and I
said no it's just not casual Friday so I do like I do like that yes yeah um on the comparison
um I do I do agree just knowing your story and things that you've shared that yeah growing up
that way here in the critical things want something I was listening to today really got
me thinking about our our own internal dialogue though while yes those other people and the things
they said actually a lot of times built that internal dialogue in us but it was saying
something like imagine someone following you around saying to you the things that you think
in your own head about yourself and some of us think some really hard things don't we
and if we heard someone following another person around saying those things out loud to that person
we would feel like it's abuse and so I'm saying that to you Shakira and everyone because again I
want you all to be thinking about what you're thinking about so are there mindsets and thoughts
that you have about yourself that are critical yeah all the time okay so what does that sound
like for you typically um well if I'm at work it's that you know I'm I'm not able to to understand
the information that I'm not valuable at my job and I could get let go at any moment or
I don't have enough value to be able to go somewhere else and then outside of that I guess
like I'll be critical about like oh I should you know I've been a Christian for this long I should
you know already be healed I should already you know have my act together I should I should
already know what my purpose is and what I want to do and and you know like how can I marry someone
if I don't even know what my purpose is and um like I used to be um well I have Invisalign now
but I used to you know talk like be like oh well if I don't have straight teeth then
then I won't you know attract anyone and yeah or my personality and and things like that like
lately I've been like well you know if you're too loud or I don't know obnoxious or whatever
so then this is why the silhouette ladies that I just showed you I really want to encourage you
all I know a lot of people get intimidated by that activation but I hope that you don't
I hope that all of you will really step into this because I'm going to tell you what
some of you are going to get set free massively by doing that activation Shakira you absolutely
need to do that activation if you have not done it have you done it I can't remember
you yeah it's been a little bit but I have I still have it okay you need to put that up where
you can see it every day okay because these are some pretty massive things that you're still
hearing and so when they are presenting themselves I want you to start tracking it okay is it at a
certain time of the day is it you know when does it happen after something else that you've
experienced so is there something triggering it is what I'm saying and where you're really
starting to identify what where is the pattern that is you know the open door to this stuff
because most likely there's a root like these are all really big ones for example
not able to understand the info that really stood out to me obviously not valuable you were saying
a job and other things but value and then when you started listing off all the other things
too loud you know I should know this I should know that you know there's other things there
but the core is your own value like towards yourself like how you view your own worth and
value and then um on the not able
to understand, I heard the Lord say to ask you, when is the first time
that you felt embarrassed for not understanding something?
I don't remember when, but I didn't like asking questions in school because I
didn't want to sound stupid. So why did you think you would sound stupid?
Well, I know that, like, specifically for high school, there were just, oh, I was in
classes with a lot of really smart people that just picked on things really easily.
Lots of them went to, like, Ivy League schools and stuff like that. And I guess
being put into that, I think even in middle school, there were some kids like
that. And even when I was in engineering school, I witnessed, like,
engineers, like, I would witness someone saying, like, oh, like, I'm helping this one girl out.
And I remember seeing this other guy, and he was like, what, is she stupid? And we're
taking, like, electrical engineering classes. And so I still kind of, like, experienced that
where I was asking a lot of questions. And the first review I got with my supervisor,
he was like, you're asking so many questions, but you're not remembering anything. Like,
someone said that you were asking questions and writing things down, but you're not remembering
anything. So, like, how, you know, how can you have value here if you're not,
you know, an expert on something here? And I had just started. So I feel like it just
keeps coming up. It comes, I feel like when I didn't get into the universities I wanted to,
or I haven't been able to, like, get through a program just smoothly.
So here's the thing, okay? So I want you to see something. So fear is immobilizing you.
It's causing you to freeze. Okay. And so as you continue to heal, and again, I want you to know
it's okay that it takes time. All right. I want you to really, I want you to really hear that
tonight. It's okay if it takes you time. The reason that you're forgetting stuff or not
retaining it, and I want you to flip the perspective, even though they said you were not
remembering things, the truth is you didn't have the capacity to retain it.
I believe that 100%, Shakira. I think that you are smart, but I think your internal dialogue
is convincing you that you're not capable of running with the big dogs, if you will.
Because you even said I was in, you basically said you were in an environment with high achievers,
and you, like, felt like, you know, you didn't even want to ask things out loud because you
were afraid that you were going to look stupid. So that tells me that started long before you
were even in that class. So it's getting to the root of, yeah, it's getting to the root of when
did I first start believing the lie that I am stupid, I'm slow, I'm not as smart as other people,
and all those things are kind of hanging out together. And as you identify that first thing,
and I don't want you to focus on anything else, because I don't want you to get overwhelmed.
So just focus on that this week, and let's see what comes up.
Because, I mean, you're, like, even in here, like, you're very intelligent, even when you're speaking
and talking about things. So this isn't about you not being capable of something. This is fear is
immobilizing you, and the fear is coming out of, like, the lie that you believe you're stupid,
or you're not capable of something. And that lie began somewhere. Yes, and Denise just said it,
electrical engineering is no joke. It is hard stuff. And so it keeps coming up. Shakira, too,
I just want you to kind of breathe with this. It keeps coming up because there's a wound that needs
healed. And I believe that as you continue to heal, and you get set free from that stuff,
that you're going to, like, soar. And I think it's going to be a totally different experience for you
at some point in the days ahead. And so pray into that this week, and come in the group,
and let us know kind of what comes up for you, and let's see where that might lead you to go.
Okay. All right. Try doing.
but you told me last time,
and I tried listening to a song about grace,
and it was still kind of hard,
but I kind of paired that too with,
whenever I thought a negative thought,
I tried to say like two things I'm grateful for.
So I tried to pair it with that.
So I think that was kind of helpful, but.
Keep practicing that, okay ladies?
So this is a muscle that's really hard for her, okay?
So Shakira, for those of you that don't know her,
grew up in a lot of very critical environments
with her parents and other things.
And so basically it's created a stronghold.
And so strongholds are created
because a wound happens back here,
and then another wound, like, and we believe a lie,
and then another wound happens,
and then it looks and sounds similar
to this thing back here.
And so that reinforces that lie.
So now that's two together.
And think of it, every time something else happens
and it sounds similar and we believe that lie,
it reinforces it another time.
And so this is just a stronghold
that's being broken down, Shakira, okay?
And over time, you're literally gonna be set free
completely from that stronghold.
And you're gonna be able to go
and help other people be set free too.
But for those of you, I think I started saying that
because I gave her the activation
to listen to songs about grace,
to read scriptures about grace
so that she would practice giving herself grace.
And so she's doing it, but like the only way,
you know, we build muscles
is by continuing to lift the weights, you all.
So keep doing that too.
So you're gonna pray into where did the lie begin
that you are stupid
or that you can't like understand something
and then keep listening to the songs about grace
and really meditating on God's goodness towards you.
All right?
Okay, thank you.
Awesome, you're welcome.
Thank you for sharing.
Is it Kanye?
Did I say it right?
You can call me Kanye, that's the nickname.
Kanye, all right, thank you.
Yeah, I just wanted to say everything that Shakira,
everything you were saying,
it sounded exactly like me almost.
It was crazy.
Even down to the engineering school
because that same experience.
But yeah, what I was talking about in my group with Glenna,
my partner, was, you know,
areas that I think I feel maybe the enemy
is challenging my identity.
I think it comes up with comparison
and maybe competition a little bit,
but not necessarily like overt competition all the time.
But comparison, yeah,
like I can say at least a little bit of a testimony
is that going through this heart work
is that I feel like it's been getting better
and that I've been engaging with that less,
that bad line of thinking,
but definitely super, super critical of myself.
And I know that stems from also growing up
in a critical household.
I love my parents,
but they had very high standards and very critical.
So my inner dialogue to myself is pretty harsh.
And I think I also end up judging other people
pretty harshly too.
And I really wanna get away from that.
But even just recently,
like an example of this comparison thing,
I was sharing with Glenna that on Sunday,
something was happening at church
and they were like,
somebody that serves on the worship team with me,
people were like, oh, complimenting them,
whatever, giving them a compliment,
like just nice general things.
And I could feel a little twinge inside.
I'm like, why do I care?
Like, this has nothing to do with me.
Why am I feeling a type of way
when this is about somebody else, it's their moment,
like it has nothing to do with me.
And in the past, I think it would have been,
I would have spiraled for much longer.
So thank God that I'm moving past that,
but I at least did recognize it.
And I was like, no, I'm not gonna go down that path.
I'm not gonna give that thought anymore.
I'm not gonna give it any more attention, so to speak.
But that has been, I think, me in the past a lot where,
yeah, man, I can just get caught up
in these negative cycles.
And I'm like, why do I care so much?
Like, anyway, yeah, that's it.
I love it.
And hey, I just wanna say,
you're not alone in the,
sorry, I lost you on my screen.
Oh, I don't know where you are.
Oh, I see you now.
Where someone gives someone else a compliment
and all of a sudden we somehow feel like
there's something lacking in us
or like that we're wanting that attention.
And that's what came up in my spirit for you
is that I really-
want you to pray into, you know, I use this example a lot, that
another woman's, and it's not the same as what you're saying
here, but I'm just using this as an example. Another woman's
beauty does not have to diminish my beauty. But so often, we walk
into a room and we think someone else is more beautiful than us.
And all of a sudden, we don't believe that we are
beautiful. And why does that happen? There's something about
that person, something that we love something about them, or
we, like for me, I'm just gonna be real honest, you all. So back
in the day, as you guys know, I was sexually abused my breath. I
don't have very big breasts. My brothers used to literally make
fun of me all the time. They would even like make fun of me
in front of my mom and my mom never like, told them to stop.
It was really kind of messed up anyways. And so that's that,
like for a long, long time, that was always like, this massive
insecurity in me. And I had a friend growing up, she had
really big breasts and people made fun of her, but I always
wanted to be like her in that way. Even though I didn't
understand the pain that she was going through. Because all I
knew was the pain I was going through. And so even as an adult
woman, I would always be so self conscious going to the beach,
and there'd be women, you know, and comparing myself to them.
And so I know that's not exactly what you brought up. But I felt
led to mention that because I think so many of us struggle
with that, in one way, shape or form, where we're walking into
situations and scenarios. And we hear someone compliment another
woman on her looks or her shirt or her voice and how she's
saying and we automatically, there's, again, we might not be
able to recognize it. But there's this drop in our hearts.
Like, why aren't they complimenting me? Is there
something lacking in me? Did I not sing as good? Like, I don't
know if that's what you were hearing. But like, typically,
we'll start to kind of go and thankfully, I love that you said
that you're seeing this growth in yourself. And so I hope you
take time to really celebrate yourself tonight at some point,
maybe even right after you hang up. But like, we're genuinely
you all I believe in hugging ourselves. Actually, I haven't
even done it for a long time. So I might need to do that tonight
too. But literally where you just pause and like hug
yourself. And just say Connie, like you're doing great. You've
come so far look at how much you've grown in the last few
because you are recognizing and you didn't go as far down the
trail as it used to take you praise the Lord for that. But if
it's still there, there's probably still some root inside
of there, where you don't feel as seen when other people are
seen. Does that make sense? What I'm saying? Yeah. Okay. And so
just I want to encourage you to ask the Lord to reveal to you
is there any time where what I'm hearing in the spirit is
that where you felt like you were in the shadow of someone
else? Okay, that's what I heard specifically. So I don't know
what that will mean for you as you pray into that. But that's
what I heard. And so I just want to give that to you. And let's
just see where it leads you. Is there any time that you ever
Lord, when was the first time if if there was ever any, that I
felt like I was in the shadow of someone else, I wasn't as
good as them, or they were getting all the attention and I
wasn't. And so I felt like I wasn't seen, I wasn't heard, I
wasn't acknowledged, whatever. Again, it may not be any of
those things. But let's just see where that takes you. Okay. Is
anything coming up for you as I've been saying that?
I think a little bit with family, not not my immediate
family, but like extended family a little bit. I have two, I
have two older sisters. And I feel like growing up and even
even now full adulthood, there's still feels like there's
comparison happening there. And that, like, I'm the least one or
whatever. And it was more it felt like when I think back on
it felt more pronounced when I was a kid. And now I'm an adult
that I'm trying to hope believe that that's not really people's
intention, or that's the case. But yeah, it's still pops up.
And like things will happen that I'm like, Oh, see, it's
confirming it. But I don't want to believe that, you know, I
don't want to agree. Yeah. But the reality is our
subconscious. Do you see how that what you just said is so
important, ladies, I want you all to kind of pay attention to
this. So when something happens, let's call it a triggering
moment. Your subconscious is diverting to, oh, see, that just
proves what I've already been telling you. Now you're getting
stronger, and you're starting to resist that. But that tells me
that in your subconscious somewhere, you you said, I'm the
least one somewhere in your subconscious, you believe that
you are less than someone else. Okay. And that's why your
initial, like initial, like those right to that, okay, the
more that you heal, your go to will actually become something
else. It will be like, I am I am valuable just as much as, as so
and so or, and it's not a comparison thing. It's just
really recognizing that each one of you, each one of us is
absolutely valuable, and so worthy of just being known and
existing in this world. Kind of like what I was saying earlier,
when God was creating us, he was like, yes. I just love thinking
about that even talking every time I do this session, and I
talk about that. It helps me heal more. So I hope it helps
you all heal more. And I would love for you to pray into that.
And let's just see kind of where the Lord leads you. Okay.
Will do. Thank you so much.
You're welcome. Thank you so much for sharing. And I think I
forgot to say thank you to Shakira if I didn't say that
already. Roseanne Korgel. Did I say your last name right?
Yes. Awesome. Go ahead.
So what I shared in the breakout group was that the what the
enemy uses to try to come against my identity or challenge
my identity as comparison. And the lie that he says in me, and
I'm realizing more and more how far back this goes in my life is
that I'm not enough. And, you know, like, being single, I'm
not pretty enough. I'm not, you know, smart enough. I don't, I'm
not gregarious or outgoing enough. I'm not popular enough,
all those things. And even last week at work, something
happened. And I was out for the week of Thanksgiving, and there
were some changes that were made and responsibilities that I had
been responsible for got shifted. And there was an email
that was sent to more than me that my name was mentioned in
being needing improvement in an area. And it kind of grabbed
onto that, you know, I'm not enough. And so I was cycling
through my thoughts all weekend about it and trying to, you
know, really, I was like trying to figure out a good comeback
to my, to my boss. And I listened to a teaching of a man
and he was talking about as believers, if we're, you know,
that we can be unoffendable. Yeah, if we're walking in, you
know, maturity and love, then we can become unoffendable. And so
I was like, Okay, God, I can't, I can't stay in this. And so I
was able to forgive my boss and you know, some of my other
people that were involved, and kind of got through that. But
what I shared with Anna is what I as I've been thinking about,
you know, why do I get into that place so often is that I have a
sister that's 18 months older than me. And so we kind of grew
up together. And my mom, a lot of times we, we were involved in
a lot of the same things. My mom was sewed our clothes. And so
we were dressed alike, same outfit, different fabrics. And
so I realized that I grew up not it wasn't intended, I don't
think. But I grew up in that atmosphere where it was easy to
fall into comparison. And I've done some, you know, a couple
years ago, I really was really praying through this how long
I've been trying to work on it, praying through it and realizing
that the roots of it, I think, go all the way back to the
garden when the enemy said to Eve, you can be like God, like
drawing her into that game of comparison, comparing herself
with God. So anyway, that's what I share.
It's really, really good. And there's some really important
things that you're mentioning in here. I want to pose a question
to you. You handled that really, really well, by the way, way to
go on forgiving.
keeping short accounts. Remember that offense is an opportunity for an upgrade.
So yes, being unoffendable is a sign of maturity, but it is also these moments where God can teach
us so much about ourselves as well as Him and other people. But this is my question for you.
Why does needing improvement mean that you're not enough?
And we ought to think about that. If that was you getting that message, again, yes,
she's getting triggered because of the core wounds that are going on in her heart,
but I want you all to see something in this. We receive, again, we're receiving everything
through these filters and these blind spots, and so that's why it's hurting us when we hear it.
But the reality is that all of us need improvement. We all do. Hopefully we're
growing every day by day by day. The thing that hurts is that someone else is telling us
that we need improvement. And in that case, they said it in an email and other people were copied.
And so there's this shame aspect, I think, that's probably come into play here.
And so I want you just to be thinking about kind of what I'm saying.
Even though I think his approach could have been different 100%,
I know in most companies, every single year we get a performance review and they tell us things
that we did great. They tell us areas that they think we can improve and all the things.
I have even had moments where they would say things I needed to improve, but man,
I would work my guts out. And so I'd think like, why aren't we focusing more on that?
But inside of that needing improvement, there was something that caused me to not focus on
all the positive things that they said. And I would hone in on the area that they said I wasn't
good enough. And that's basically kind of what I hear you saying. Okay. And so at the core,
it's because again, and you're already kind of on this path where you're understanding this,
but at the core, it's because we don't believe it's okay to make a mistake.
We don't believe it's okay to need to grow. Society kind of gives us this idea that people
have to have arrived, you know, and when we get a certain degree, we've arrived or,
you know, when we get married now we've arrived. So when we're single, we're less than,
I literally was just talking about this today regarding something else.
And I don't know if any of you on here will relate to me, but I, I have been a step-mom.
I've been a spiritual mom. And all that means to me, you all is my spiritual daughters. I dated
their dad for six years. I've loved them like they're mine. I never tried to become their mom.
I never, because they had a mom, but I absolutely have loved them with a mothering spirit and been
there and fought for them and still fight for them. Y'all I had Dylan, my stepson. He was just
a baby little tiny infant cared for him day in and day out. When he was with my at the time,
ex-husband at one point, his mom up and literally abandoned him and left and went to another state.
He was with us full time. I held him when he cried because his mom wasn't there. Y'all,
I absolutely have been a mom, but you cannot imagine how many times people tell me
when you have your own baby one day and you act like you become a mom, then you'll understand.
I mean, I literally cannot tell you. I had someone tell me the other day
and you all, I don't think that some of these people are trying to offend me,
but they're offending me. They said to me, you know, when you have your own biological baby,
you're just going to want to sit there and stare at them and because you're just going to love
them so much. Y'all, I'm not saying that's not true, but you know what that did to me?
It put me in this spot of what if, what if God chooses to have me adopt a kid? So what,
then I'm not going to want to stare at them and love them. Why is there this divide in our society
that causes people to say things that literally in my mind, here it is, y'all,
that I think is so stupid. I don't think they're stupid, but I think what they're saying is stupid
and it's infuriating because somewhere, somewhere along the way, somebody decides
that if you don't have a bio baby, you cannot experience the bond that they experience.
Well, it's not good. Yeah. So I'm giving that to you because when they said that to me,
man, it wounded me deeply. And then it caused me to sit there and think about the fact like,
what? I believe God's going to do a miracle. I do. There's a lot of things God needs to work out,
but I sat there thinking to myself, what if that never happens for me?
So God, do I not get to experience this really amazing love bond that I'm hearing about?
So it automatically put me in a place where someone was saying I'm already lacking because
I'm not a bio mom. Do y'all hear what I'm saying? I know that she's talking about this
work scenario and how, when they said something, it led to her feeling like something was missing
in her because they said she needed improvement. This person was saying to me what they were
saying. I get it. I get it. I do think there's probably this amazing, all of you moms on here
that have had bio children, you probably know what she was talking about. But you know what
I believe? I believe God can give me a supernatural bond that is just like that. That's what I believe
because I have these amazing spiritual daughters that you all like, there's this bond with them
that is amazing and wonderful. And I'm so blessed that I get to have that. Now they weren't babies
when they came into my life, but I think it's all about what we perceive about a situation.
So I hope that that's helping all of you stretch a little bit tonight,
that you'll not let what other people say cause you to think that you're less than in some way.
Hmm.
We can grow, we can stretch, we can go through difficulty and we can rise. Do you know what
I literally, this morning I sat and thought to myself, well, shoot, I think I have another book
idea. I literally had that thought because somebody needs to stand up for all the moms
that can't have bio kids. Somebody needs to be a voice for the foster moms and the,
Ooh, I feel the Holy spirit and the moms that adopt and the spiritual moms and the
grandmas that are taking care of their, their grandkids. And, and I am not minimizing bio moms
either. And this is where I kind of was going earlier. Why does one have to minimize the other?
If one woman is beautiful, can't the other one also be beautiful?
If one kind of mom can experience this really beautiful bond, can't another one also
experience that? I believe we should pray for that stuff.
We can rise and choose to not be offended. I love how you've handled this situation,
I think it's pretty amazing. And I pray that this, even just me talking about this stuff tonight
will stir in you more and more and more and help you get to the root of the matter in you,
that the place that the first time that you believed the lie, that you weren't enough.
And when you said the thing, one last thing I want to say, and I know I went long on that,
but I hope it really helps some people. As you were talking about your sister and how your mom
dressed you alike and all the things, I kind of got the sense of that you really struggled to
have your own identity on some level. And so what I want you to ask the Lord is I want you to ask
the Lord to help you really define your identity separate from your sister. Like who is Roseanne?
Again, who does God say you are, but not like through the eyes of who your sister is, who is
Roseanne separate from, I don't know your sister's name from your sister. Okay. Awesome. All right.
You're welcome. Thank you for sharing that with us. I know I went really long. I'm going to take
one more. I'm not going to be able to take all of you. We're already at nine 45. I apologize,
but you can either come next week and ask me your question,
or you can come into the group and give me your question. I'm going to actually have Rosanna.
share. I've never heard from her. And so I would love for her
to be able to have an opportunity to share tonight.
Hi, hi. How are you? Good. How are you? I am well. Thank you so
much. I've enjoyed listening to all of you. This has been really
good. The thing that I I struggle with as well as the
common denominator is comparison. I struggle with
comparison. I know this may sound so silly, but with
technology, I get very intimidated by it. And I, I am
a new teacher. And my friend is an experienced seasoned teacher
for 10 years. And she's like, Oh, let's make your meet the
teacher and all these things. She's like, how's all the stuff?
And I'm like, ah, like, I'm always intimidated by my
husband. I'm a widow. My husband was the technical one. He had
all this stuff. And I've always just my some of my cousins are
very good at it. My sister, one of them are very good at it. And
I just I get scared. And so I feel like I'm less than with
that. And then I think with what Roseanne was saying, I would
compare myself to other girls in school. And I think I'm the I'm
a daughter of immigrants. And so I was in a predominantly white
area, and there were not many Hispanic girls around. And so
when I see all the blonde hair, blue eyed girls, and the Disney
princesses, all these things, like I really tried to put
myself there. And I thought, oh, blonde hair, and I had brown
eyes, but the blonde hair or the all these other princesses that
didn't look like me, you know, I really, it really put me in type
of like, oh, I'm not I don't look like these princesses. And
so I think I still struggle with comparison of what other what
beauty looks like. And so I've been praying that the Lord will
help me to see I have been praying a lot. Show me how you
see me. And I know don't mean that actually in a physical
sense. But as I'm saying it out loud, I think I need to hear
that as well. Like what he sees in me as beautiful. Yes, outside,
but I really need to hear from the inside, what he sees. And so
like, I think I saw a couple women saying, the critics, yes,
Jasmine was one of them. She was one of the first ones that I was
like, Oh, and then I'm Colombian. I'm Colombian and
Italian. So when Encanto came out, I was like, and then Moana,
even though I'm not Polynesian. Yes, yeah, I'm seeing it. I know
that little girl. I'm 42. And I was like, Yes. Oh, my gosh. And
then Columbia, it's like, so random. Like, how do you?
Anyway, I don't know. I think you're just doing a little thing
for me and my sisters. No, brown girls. Hey, thank you. This is
super important conversation right now. And you know, I want
you to know, even as you're telling me that God has been
really showing me I put together curriculum for our Children's
Church and Toddlers Church. And I create these little visual
story images for the kids or like cards, cue cards that we're
teaching them stuff on. And one of the things that I have grown
a lot in, and I want to say that when I was younger minister, I
didn't always think about this stuff. And I really wish I had
sooner. But I'm very aware of the fact that we are a
multicultural church. And even if we weren't, I would probably
still do this. But I have, I have pictures of kids of all
and, you know, ethnicities. And I think it's so important. So I
just want to say that as, as we're all here tonight, hearing
this conversation, I want to invite all of you to really
start to shift the way that you think and say, you know, things
and, you know, not excluding people of different ethnicities
in in your description of, of something, whatever that looks
like for you, maybe you don't teach a kids class, but maybe it
show up for you somehow in some way. And you'll remember what
I'm saying to you right now. But regarding you, Rosanna, a couple
things. First and foremost, when you started, you said this
might sound really silly. Okay. I want you to know it wasn't
silly at all. And I think it's really important for you to know
that what you're saying is important. Okay. And there are a
lot of people that struggle with technology. Okay, we can probably
have people even put it in the chat in here. Some of our ladies
have really had to press through as my Eloy is Eloy still on
here. She's had to fight, fight, fight to get through all the
tech issues. And she's doing great. But it took her a little
while to get there. And so I just want you to know that
you're not alone in that. Number two, you said, I'm so sorry, by
the way about your husband that passed away. And but you said he
was the
technical one. And so it sounds like you know, you've had these
people surrounding you that have these skills and abilities. And
that might not be your strength, but you have a lot of other
strengths. And so I don't want you to be embarrassed about this
area that you are struggling in. And we can all as I was talking
about to Rosie, and we can all grow. Okay, so maybe just what
is one skill that you can develop, you don't have to become
a pro at tech. Okay, I don't want you to put that expectation
on yourself unless you want to become one. But take one step to
grow in your confidence in this area. Okay? Because what I think
has happened is sometimes ladies, what will happen is when
we're struggling with something, we will just let the other
person take the lead in that thing. Don't we do that? And I'm
not saying that's not okay. But even my husband, I'm going to
tell on him. Nobody let him watch this replay. No, I'm
kidding. And when we first got married, one of our biggest
struggles was that he was not very good at cleaning. Like
anything you all and this was not something I knew before we
were already married and living together. And, and I'm not
saying this to be picky, but like little simple things like, I
would be like, don't you see that, like, messiness right
there? Like, just y'all not not diminishing him. But like, we
would literally have conversations and he would say,
you know, that's just not how it was when I grew up, you know, I
mean, and this is real stuff. And sometimes the clothes didn't
get washed, and he would have to dig through these clothes pile
that was shoved in a closet just to find a shirt to wear and it
clean. So I'm not, I'm not, I'm not mocking that. That's hard.
But what I am saying is he would kind of say, well, I'm just not
good at this. And I'll be like, well, I know, but like, I'm not
good at some other things. But I feel like I'm coming alongside
of you and being a team. So I need you to try to work at this
a little bit. And I, you know, I really worked on because his ex
wife used to be really mean to him, she would ask him to help
clean and then she would pick everything apart. And so I've
been very intentional to not do that. To just thank him for what
he cleans, even if you all sometimes it's not as clean as I
might do it. But not not just be thankful. But I'm saying that to
you to say this. He could have just continued in that path of
I'm not good at this. But he chose to take my little
challenge. And again, I wasn't being mean to him. I gave him
space to share. But I also gave him like that invitation to Hey,
like, I need help with this. I really could use your help. And
I know that you might feel insecure because of what you've
been through. But like, I'm not going to treat you the way she
treated you or whatever. And so really working at not being
behind the scenes of someone else. And and really owning kind
of where you're at the giving yourself grace to move forward
in that thing. So that's number one. Number two, well, that's
number two, because I mentioned about the silly thing. So I want
you to really be be paying attention, Rosanna, to how often
do you have thoughts like, oh, this is silly, because the
opposite of this is silly is, this is stupid. And sometimes we
say, well, this is, I know this is silly, but it's because we
internally actually don't know what people are going to think
about what we're about to say. So I would even ask you to
consider asking the Lord, was there any time that someone else
put you down? Because you weren't as techie as them? Or
because you had a harder time picking that up. And then the
last thing I felt led to mention is you said, in the
struggle of, and it's, and you know, I imagine, I mean, I've
not been through what you went through being an immigrant and
then being in a place where everyone was Caucasian and blonde
hair, blue eyes, and the whole stigma, and everything. But you
said this, that you've been asking the Lord, what does
beauty look like? And as soon as you said that multiple times, I
felt the Holy Spirit every time I heard what God was saying in
response to what you were saying. And this is what he told
me to tell you. Beauty looks like you. You're what beauty
looks like, Rosanna. So when you look in the mirror, I feel the
Holy Spirit again. I love it. When you look in the mirror, I
want you to start saying
I, Rosanna, am what beauty looks like.
You are beauty.
Y'all, this has been a core theme tonight, and I had no intention of going into this
place.
Yeah, you guys can, you guys can all do that.
Every time I coach, if I say something to someone else, you can grab that thing for
yourself.
I hope that you all are practicing that.
But God said that specifically to you tonight, Rosanna.
So anytime that question comes up for you in the future, I want you to know that God
is saying over you that you are what beauty looks like.
And the more that you receive that, the more that you're going to believe it, and you're
going to be able to walk in it.
And another woman's beauty is not going to diminish yours anymore.
And it's not going to make you question, well, what is beauty?
Because you're just going to know it's you.
And for those of you that don't think that about yourself at all, I really want to encourage
you to take on activation number three.
It's come up twice today, so I'm just going to, I'm going to, I can't go in and update
the post, but those that watch this replay or those that are here tonight can just hear
it and walk with it.
I call it the mirror activation, where you literally stand in front of the mirror and
you not just thank God for how he created you and all of that, but I want you to think
of the places of yourself that you actually don't like.
And some of you, hopefully, you're like, I feel great about myself.
Every way I've been created, I like my hair, I like my nose, I like my whatever.
And if that's where you're at, that is awesome.
I don't know many people that are in that place, but if you're there, I think that's
great. But this is what I want you to do.
If there are any parts of yourself that you typically put down.
My butt's too big, y'all, that's something I, if I gain weight anywhere, it's my thighs
and well, in my 46 year old years, my stomach, I don't know what is going on.
I feel like I sleep and don't eat and I something's going on there, I'm gaining weight
and I'm not even trying to.
I'm joking about it tonight, but it's real.
You all. I don't know, I've never been this heavy in my life.
Anyways, so imagine I don't love looking in the mirror right now.
I don't. I'm being transparent, but this is what we need to do.
And I'm going to remind myself this week as well.
I'm going to do this with you all.
You're going to stand in front of the mirror and you're going to see yourself.
Yep, even the parts that you don't like, and I want you to thank God for them.
I want you to thank God for the way that you are.
Now, I have some people that are like, you know, why don't you just let your hair go
natural? And I'm like, well, I got a gazillion grays and I don't want to see them.
So I'm not doing that.
And I'm not being you all.
I just don't want to look really old.
I like I like feeling young, I lost a lot of my childhood, so I'm not trying to I'm not
trying to look advanced in my age, I'm trying to look younger.
So praise the Lord for hair color.
I'm so grateful.
So I want you all to just really embrace who you are and really own that you are beauty,
that you represent the feminine heart of the father.
And he loves you immensely.
So I'm going to pray us out, Rosanna, thank you for sharing that with us.
We're praying for you.
I'm praying for all of you, for my two ladies, Bambi and Catherine.
I'm sorry I didn't get to tonight.
Please come and post in the group or like I said, we will be live again next week.
You can share them. And if you raise your hands next week, I'll have you go first.
OK, let me pray for us.
Father, thank you so much for just your goodness.
Thank you, Lord. Even in the coaching and the things that were coming up, so much came
up tonight that was never mentioned this afternoon.
God, because you are doing something specific for this group of ladies that are here
tonight. God, those that are going to watch the replay.
God, I pray that you would just continue to remove every lie and replace it with the
truth. God, I thank you for revealings, for healing that are going to continue to
happen. And God, I'm asking for acceleration in their healing.
God, I'm asking for supernatural empowerment, God, that you would come in and
shatter and break off every chain.
God, where some of them have felt like they're still going around the mountain or
they're having a hard time receiving revelation or receiving breakthrough.
God, I thank you that.
This week is gonna be a week of change, God,
that you're gonna continue to help them understand
the revelation of who you are as love.
God, I thank you that you'll help them
to become more and more rooted and grounded in your love,
God, and that they would hear fully and clearly,
God, who you say that they are.
Help them to not believe the lies of the enemy,
but to believe your truth.
In Jesus name, amen.
God bless you all.
We love you and we'll see you in the group, okay?
Have a good night, everyone.
Bye-bye.