WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:04.520 Welcome to Supernatural Saturday. 2 00:00:04.520 --> 00:00:06.480 If it's your first Saturday with us, welcome. 3 00:00:06.480 --> 00:00:08.360 We're so glad you're here. 4 00:00:08.360 --> 00:00:12.000 This is the session every week where we lean into heaven. 5 00:00:12.000 --> 00:00:13.440 What is God saying? 6 00:00:13.440 --> 00:00:19.400 What is on his heart for his people, his children, and what is the current prophetic reality? 7 00:00:19.400 --> 00:00:24.920 So we have a good time, lots of revelation, lots of activation on Saturdays. 8 00:00:24.920 --> 00:00:29.080 I am currently in Austin, Texas, where the whole city is shut down because it's going 9 00:00:29.080 --> 00:00:31.960 to get a little cold, right? 10 00:00:31.960 --> 00:00:37.560 It's going to get below 32 degrees and it's raining, which means there might be a little 11 00:00:37.560 --> 00:00:38.560 ice. 12 00:00:38.560 --> 00:00:43.440 And people, I'm telling you, the grocery stores are cleaned out. 13 00:00:43.440 --> 00:00:46.080 It looks like COVID, right? 14 00:00:46.080 --> 00:00:47.280 There's no toilet paper. 15 00:00:47.280 --> 00:00:48.280 There's no meat. 16 00:00:48.280 --> 00:00:49.280 There's no bananas. 17 00:00:49.280 --> 00:00:50.280 Why? 18 00:00:50.280 --> 00:00:51.280 Why? 19 00:00:51.280 --> 00:00:53.080 What are people doing with these bananas? 20 00:00:53.080 --> 00:00:57.240 I want to know what's going on. 21 00:00:57.240 --> 00:00:59.160 There's no bananas in the entire city. 22 00:00:59.160 --> 00:01:04.680 I want to know why bananas, why? 23 00:01:04.680 --> 00:01:09.280 Why are people stockpiling bananas? 24 00:01:09.280 --> 00:01:11.120 What's happening? 25 00:01:11.120 --> 00:01:17.600 And you guys, the hilariousness of this is that it's one day and then the next day it's 26 00:01:17.600 --> 00:01:19.080 going to be 55 degrees. 27 00:01:19.080 --> 00:01:22.640 You know what doesn't survive in 55 degrees? 28 00:01:22.640 --> 00:01:25.480 Snow, ice. 29 00:01:25.480 --> 00:01:32.960 Coming from the Midwest where this is called Thursday, I'm just really confused as to what's 30 00:01:32.960 --> 00:01:34.640 going on here. 31 00:01:34.640 --> 00:01:38.480 So we all get a snow day, I guess. 32 00:01:38.480 --> 00:01:45.000 And because everything was going to be closed, we were forced to go out and, you know, make 33 00:01:45.000 --> 00:01:47.200 sure that we have enough food. 34 00:01:47.200 --> 00:01:48.800 And so that's what's up. 35 00:01:48.800 --> 00:01:52.920 All right, you guys, we're going to have fun today on Supernatural Saturday. 36 00:01:52.920 --> 00:02:01.640 Now I want to be sensitive to the fact that there's some more scandals, some more church 37 00:02:01.640 --> 00:02:04.520 scandals that are hitting the news and the media right now. 38 00:02:04.520 --> 00:02:07.280 Guys, we've had so many. 39 00:02:07.280 --> 00:02:08.280 We've had so many. 40 00:02:08.280 --> 00:02:09.280 It started all the way back. 41 00:02:09.280 --> 00:02:15.000 Remember Hillsong, Australia-based church and big church, mega church, and obviously 42 00:02:15.000 --> 00:02:18.240 there's some Hillsong branches here in the States. 43 00:02:18.240 --> 00:02:19.720 But they had that big scandal. 44 00:02:19.720 --> 00:02:25.440 They made huge documentaries about, you know, I think the pastor's name is Brian something, 45 00:02:25.440 --> 00:02:31.560 you know, they made a huge documentary about that and about all of the scandals with that 46 00:02:31.560 --> 00:02:32.560 whole organization. 47 00:02:32.560 --> 00:02:36.640 And a lot of good music comes out of that church, Hillsong music. 48 00:02:36.640 --> 00:02:41.480 And so a lot of people were shook with that. 49 00:02:41.480 --> 00:02:44.560 And then it just keeps going, right? 50 00:02:44.560 --> 00:02:46.420 Because you know why it's going to keep going? 51 00:02:46.420 --> 00:02:52.100 Because we are in a season, we're in an era, okay? 52 00:02:52.100 --> 00:02:55.180 And I believe we started in this era in 2010. 53 00:02:55.180 --> 00:03:01.260 God spoke to me at the beginning of the year in 2010 and told me that the shaking was beginning. 54 00:03:01.260 --> 00:03:03.020 And I'm like, well, what does that mean? 55 00:03:03.020 --> 00:03:10.500 And he said, it means that everything that's out of alignment is going to start to shake. 56 00:03:10.500 --> 00:03:15.460 All the industries, all the spheres of influence, it's going to start shaking. 57 00:03:15.500 --> 00:03:16.500 Why? 58 00:03:16.500 --> 00:03:24.100 Because the rest of the scripture says, so that what cannot be shaken has room to remain. 59 00:03:24.100 --> 00:03:27.220 It's a good news, friends, not bad news. 60 00:03:27.220 --> 00:03:30.140 It's not doomsday. 61 00:03:30.140 --> 00:03:32.700 It's God putting things into alignment. 62 00:03:32.700 --> 00:03:37.500 And honestly, in a lot of ways, friends, what it is, is it's God hearing the cries of the 63 00:03:37.500 --> 00:03:39.380 victims out there. 64 00:03:39.380 --> 00:03:42.380 The ones that we don't know about. 65 00:03:42.380 --> 00:03:47.340 It's him hearing their cries and it's him bringing them justice. 66 00:03:47.340 --> 00:03:48.660 That's really what's happening. 67 00:03:48.660 --> 00:03:51.020 And so what did we start seeing starting in 2010? 68 00:03:51.020 --> 00:03:53.260 We saw governments toppling. 69 00:03:53.260 --> 00:03:57.260 We saw all kinds of industries in this country starting to fall apart. 70 00:03:57.260 --> 00:04:00.340 We saw the healthcare industry starting to fall apart. 71 00:04:00.340 --> 00:04:03.620 We saw a lot of economic industries starting to fall apart. 72 00:04:03.620 --> 00:04:06.940 We saw Hollywood, remember, Hollywood started falling apart. 73 00:04:06.940 --> 00:04:08.180 Remember the Me Too movement? 74 00:04:08.180 --> 00:04:09.180 Remember all that? 75 00:04:09.180 --> 00:04:10.180 There was a reckoning. 76 00:04:10.180 --> 00:04:11.180 There's a reckoning, friends. 77 00:04:11.180 --> 00:04:16.300 There's a reckoning and it's okay. 78 00:04:16.300 --> 00:04:20.620 For those of you that get afraid when you see these things, you shouldn't be afraid 79 00:04:20.620 --> 00:04:26.580 when you see these things because Jesus said, when you see these things, just know that 80 00:04:26.580 --> 00:04:29.860 we're in the end days. 81 00:04:29.860 --> 00:04:31.700 We're in the end days. 82 00:04:31.700 --> 00:04:32.980 How long do the end days last? 83 00:04:32.980 --> 00:04:34.220 Well, I don't know. 84 00:04:34.220 --> 00:04:38.020 They've definitely been lasting for a long time. 85 00:04:38.020 --> 00:04:42.980 The signs that Jesus talked about with his disciples, they were like, how will we know? 86 00:04:42.980 --> 00:04:46.420 Well, obviously they're not going to know because they're not going to be alive on earth 87 00:04:46.420 --> 00:04:47.420 anymore. 88 00:04:47.420 --> 00:04:54.540 But he said for the purpose, in my opinion, for perpetuity that all of us coming after 89 00:04:54.540 --> 00:04:58.180 would see his words. 90 00:04:58.180 --> 00:04:59.900 He said, this is what will be a sign. 91 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:01.880 that the end of the age has come. 92 00:05:01.880 --> 00:05:03.440 And there's a whole list of things. 93 00:05:03.440 --> 00:05:06.280 And friends, that list has been accurate 94 00:05:06.280 --> 00:05:09.340 of our society for generations. 95 00:05:11.080 --> 00:05:12.760 Wars and rumors of wars 96 00:05:12.760 --> 00:05:15.060 and children being disobedient to parents 97 00:05:15.060 --> 00:05:19.640 and scoffers and rebukers and all the things, friends. 98 00:05:21.400 --> 00:05:23.440 It's definitely been true for many, many, many, 99 00:05:23.440 --> 00:05:27.120 many, many, many, many, many, many, many, many decades. 100 00:05:27.120 --> 00:05:28.700 And so that being said, 101 00:05:29.700 --> 00:05:31.440 this is just more of that. 102 00:05:33.060 --> 00:05:36.620 But the good news is that in the shaking, 103 00:05:36.620 --> 00:05:38.580 the people that have built their house 104 00:05:38.580 --> 00:05:41.620 on the solid rock, friends, 105 00:05:42.500 --> 00:05:46.480 those of you that have founded your lives on Jesus 106 00:05:49.200 --> 00:05:52.060 and on his words and on his grace and on his mercy 107 00:05:52.060 --> 00:05:55.180 and on his power, the power of the Holy Spirit. 108 00:05:55.180 --> 00:05:57.200 Yeah, we're gonna see the shaking. 109 00:05:57.200 --> 00:05:58.720 We're gonna be in the shaking, 110 00:05:58.720 --> 00:06:02.340 but we are not going to be fully shaken. 111 00:06:05.920 --> 00:06:07.280 I wanna remind you that it says 112 00:06:07.280 --> 00:06:09.080 that the storm beat against that house, 113 00:06:09.080 --> 00:06:11.940 just like it did against the house on the sand. 114 00:06:11.940 --> 00:06:13.640 It's not that there's not gonna be wind. 115 00:06:13.640 --> 00:06:15.720 It's not that there's not gonna be rain. 116 00:06:15.720 --> 00:06:17.760 It's not that there's not gonna be storms, 117 00:06:17.760 --> 00:06:19.880 but the house doesn't fall. 118 00:06:19.880 --> 00:06:22.640 That's the part of the story that you need to focus on. 119 00:06:25.360 --> 00:06:26.560 So guess what? 120 00:06:26.560 --> 00:06:28.840 When everyone else's house is on the sand 121 00:06:28.840 --> 00:06:31.360 and it's in shambles because they've never been taught 122 00:06:31.360 --> 00:06:34.060 how to build their house on the rock 123 00:06:34.060 --> 00:06:35.880 and they see your house still standing 124 00:06:35.880 --> 00:06:38.820 after storm, after storm, after storm, after storm, 125 00:06:38.820 --> 00:06:41.300 people are gonna start getting curious 126 00:06:41.300 --> 00:06:43.420 as to why your house is still up. 127 00:06:45.200 --> 00:06:47.920 And so that creates an opportunity for you to do what? 128 00:06:47.920 --> 00:06:49.160 To be a witness. 129 00:06:49.160 --> 00:06:50.800 That creates an opportunity for you 130 00:06:50.800 --> 00:06:52.680 to show people the love of God. 131 00:06:52.680 --> 00:06:55.160 That creates an opportunity for you to be blessed, 132 00:06:55.160 --> 00:06:56.360 to be a blessing. 133 00:06:56.360 --> 00:06:57.200 Amen? 134 00:06:58.560 --> 00:06:59.400 Doesn't it? 135 00:07:00.760 --> 00:07:01.960 It does. 136 00:07:01.960 --> 00:07:03.840 And so we're not gonna worry about this, 137 00:07:03.840 --> 00:07:08.240 but Hillsong turned into IHOP, turned into Morningstar, 138 00:07:08.240 --> 00:07:12.040 turned into Gateway, turned into, 139 00:07:12.040 --> 00:07:13.920 the list goes on and on of, 140 00:07:15.880 --> 00:07:18.360 my husband would call it Church Incorporated, 141 00:07:19.240 --> 00:07:22.520 but Church Incorporated just starting to shake. 142 00:07:22.520 --> 00:07:25.480 Businesses, churches that have become businesses, 143 00:07:25.480 --> 00:07:28.720 but a lot of people have held Bethel Church 144 00:07:28.720 --> 00:07:32.940 as kind of like the sacred Holy Grail. 145 00:07:34.840 --> 00:07:37.520 Like, oh, Bethel, that's a culture of honor. 146 00:07:37.520 --> 00:07:39.480 That's amazing. 147 00:07:39.480 --> 00:07:40.440 It's incredible. 148 00:07:40.440 --> 00:07:45.360 You know, nothing can ever touch that. 149 00:07:45.360 --> 00:07:48.200 And it's being touched, y'all. 150 00:07:49.200 --> 00:07:51.640 There's some stuff circulating. 151 00:07:51.640 --> 00:07:55.080 There's some voices beginning to get louder and louder 152 00:07:55.080 --> 00:07:58.840 saying, hey, I was victimized. 153 00:08:00.520 --> 00:08:01.920 This happened to me. 154 00:08:02.880 --> 00:08:04.480 Nobody did anything about it. 155 00:08:06.440 --> 00:08:11.000 And so I just want to tell all of you 156 00:08:11.000 --> 00:08:16.000 something that I learned the hard way 20 years ago. 157 00:08:18.800 --> 00:08:23.000 When my pastor went to prison, people fail. 158 00:08:24.920 --> 00:08:27.280 Now, this is not an indictment against Bethel. 159 00:08:27.280 --> 00:08:29.560 I actually know the leaders that are being accused 160 00:08:29.560 --> 00:08:33.159 of apathy, being accused of inaction. 161 00:08:33.159 --> 00:08:34.600 I know them personally. 162 00:08:35.500 --> 00:08:37.820 I've been on Chris Allison's podcast. 163 00:08:37.820 --> 00:08:38.659 I know him. 164 00:08:38.659 --> 00:08:39.960 I consider him a friend. 165 00:08:43.460 --> 00:08:45.120 And I just want to say this. 166 00:08:45.120 --> 00:08:46.460 People are not perfect. 167 00:08:46.500 --> 00:08:49.540 I have no idea what the truth is in this situation. 168 00:08:50.500 --> 00:08:53.460 I have no idea what the truth is in the accusations. 169 00:08:53.460 --> 00:08:54.480 I don't know. 170 00:08:56.500 --> 00:08:59.000 But I do know that a lot of people 171 00:08:59.000 --> 00:09:03.060 have felt spiritually abused in their lifetime. 172 00:09:03.060 --> 00:09:05.300 Just raise your hand if you've ever felt spiritually abused, 173 00:09:05.300 --> 00:09:08.960 if you've ever felt like you poured into something, 174 00:09:08.960 --> 00:09:11.020 people made promises to you, 175 00:09:11.020 --> 00:09:13.420 people used spiritual language to try to get you 176 00:09:13.420 --> 00:09:16.220 to do something that wasn't good for you. 177 00:09:16.900 --> 00:09:19.540 Whatever it is, whatever happened, 178 00:09:19.540 --> 00:09:22.140 you felt ostracized, you felt rejected 179 00:09:22.140 --> 00:09:25.820 by what's supposed to be the family of God, 180 00:09:25.820 --> 00:09:28.580 whatever, for whatever reason, 181 00:09:28.580 --> 00:09:31.260 maybe even felt spiritually abused by your own family 182 00:09:31.260 --> 00:09:34.860 because they used religious language to try to control you, 183 00:09:34.860 --> 00:09:37.140 to try to get you to do what they wanted you to do, 184 00:09:37.140 --> 00:09:40.880 try to get you to be obedient by threatening you with God. 185 00:09:42.340 --> 00:09:44.460 Raise your hand if you've ever felt 186 00:09:44.460 --> 00:09:48.340 any kind of spiritual hurt 187 00:09:50.180 --> 00:09:52.360 coming from people that you trusted. 188 00:09:55.220 --> 00:09:56.880 It's a lot of hands up, you guys. 189 00:09:58.100 --> 00:10:00.060 And tomorrow night, just to remind- 190 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:04.480 to you is our last Sunday of the month. Can you believe it? January is already over and we're 191 00:10:04.480 --> 00:10:11.680 going to be having our community night. That's a community ministry night, and we will be talking 192 00:10:11.680 --> 00:10:15.360 more about spiritual abuse. I was going to do Supernatural Saturday on it, but I felt like 193 00:10:15.360 --> 00:10:20.240 Holy Spirit was taking me in a different direction. But we will do some ministry for those of you that 194 00:10:20.240 --> 00:10:25.760 have your hands up, because I believe that the Lord wants you to be fully free from this. Because 195 00:10:25.760 --> 00:10:29.200 once again, I learned 20 years ago the hard way, you guys. I had a nervous breakdown. 196 00:10:30.560 --> 00:10:35.760 I had a nervous breakdown. And I want to let you know that I have a book that's going to come out 197 00:10:35.760 --> 00:10:41.840 sometime this year called My Pastor Went to Prison, how I had to lose my religion to find my faith. 198 00:10:44.960 --> 00:10:50.880 I'm writing that book, and my husband is writing a companion book to that book called Church 199 00:10:50.880 --> 00:11:01.040 Incorporated. So we want to minister to people. I saw people literally lose their lives because 200 00:11:01.040 --> 00:11:09.200 my pastor went to prison. I made it out. I was on leadership. I was very close to the family. 201 00:11:09.840 --> 00:11:16.240 When I tell you that I was shooketh, I was shooketh to the core. But thank God my house was 202 00:11:16.240 --> 00:11:26.720 on the rock. Friends, I want to tell you that I don't even know if we know our houses are on 203 00:11:26.720 --> 00:11:32.160 the rock until the storm comes. I don't even know if there's any other way to test whether or not 204 00:11:32.160 --> 00:11:40.480 your house is on the rock. But what I do know is that I'm still standing. There were some things, 205 00:11:40.480 --> 00:11:44.800 I think, that needed to be rebuilt. There were probably some parts of my house that were on 206 00:11:44.800 --> 00:11:50.080 sinking sand. Because when we put people on pedestals, friends, we're setting them up. 207 00:11:50.720 --> 00:11:55.760 We're setting them up for failure. We're setting them up for a fall. And with the fall, we will 208 00:11:55.760 --> 00:12:04.240 fall too. Understand? So people do not belong on pedestals. Remember, God is always the source. 209 00:12:05.120 --> 00:12:09.280 He's the head of the human resource department, and He will send human resources 210 00:12:10.240 --> 00:12:16.880 for seasons, for reasons, sometimes for life. Not very often. You're going to have very few lifers, 211 00:12:18.720 --> 00:12:24.000 very few witnesses to your life. Your spouse will be one of those people, and hopefully, 212 00:12:24.560 --> 00:12:29.840 you'll die a day apart from each other. Wouldn't that be beautiful? But even losing them 213 00:12:30.640 --> 00:12:38.160 is a very huge probability, not just a possibility. So the one constant that we have 214 00:12:39.280 --> 00:12:44.400 is God. And we experience God through people. So this is where the rub comes in. We experience 215 00:12:44.400 --> 00:12:49.040 God through people. Yes, we experience God in our prayer time. We experience His presence. 216 00:12:49.040 --> 00:12:54.480 We experience Him through worship. Yes, we do experience Him supernaturally, spiritually. 217 00:12:54.480 --> 00:12:58.880 But a lot of times, we experience Him through people. He sends someone with a word. He sends 218 00:12:58.880 --> 00:13:05.520 someone with a comforting hug. He sends someone with encouragement or help. We experience Him 219 00:13:05.520 --> 00:13:10.960 through people, right? And so we need to have people. You know what happens when you've been 220 00:13:10.960 --> 00:13:16.560 spiritually abused or you have felt spiritually rejected or hurt? You will pull away from that, 221 00:13:16.560 --> 00:13:21.520 and it is a lifeline. And that is what the enemy wants you to do. And so we will talk more about 222 00:13:21.520 --> 00:13:26.240 that tomorrow, about coming back into community or common unity with the people of faith. 223 00:13:26.800 --> 00:13:30.720 You have to trust again, but you don't have to trust people. You have to trust God. 224 00:13:31.200 --> 00:13:37.040 And when you trust God, God will put you in a place where you can trust people. 225 00:13:40.080 --> 00:13:42.240 We don't worship people. People fail. 226 00:13:46.000 --> 00:13:50.080 We don't give people blind trust just because they have the word pastor before their name. 227 00:13:50.480 --> 00:13:58.080 We are discerning, and we allow God to give us the right amount of trust that's appropriate 228 00:13:58.080 --> 00:14:06.480 for the situation. Amen? Amen. Amen, amen, amen. So we'll talk more about that tomorrow night in 229 00:14:06.480 --> 00:14:11.680 ministry for those of you that are hurting with that. Remember, you guys, people have agendas, 230 00:14:11.680 --> 00:14:16.800 and so there's all kinds of people talking about this Bethel thing right now, 231 00:14:16.800 --> 00:14:20.480 of people talking about this Bethel thing right now. Like I said, 232 00:14:20.480 --> 00:14:25.200 Bethel is the church that's being focused on right now. I will tell you one thing that I learned when 233 00:14:25.200 --> 00:14:29.360 my pastor went to prison, that just because someone does something wrong doesn't mean that 234 00:14:29.360 --> 00:14:37.600 you forget everything that they did right. People fail. People miss the mark. Once again, I don't 235 00:14:37.600 --> 00:14:42.480 know what's true in this situation. I'm not privy to it, so I have no idea. But I have learned to 236 00:14:42.480 --> 00:14:48.960 take everything with a grain of salt. I have learned to take everything into consideration. 237 00:14:48.960 --> 00:14:54.480 I have learned to live a nonjudgmental life because I know the word declares that I will 238 00:14:54.480 --> 00:14:59.920 be judged by the same measure I judge others. And so 239 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:03.180 But it's important because I'm not part of it 240 00:15:03.180 --> 00:15:05.300 and I don't know the truth. 241 00:15:05.300 --> 00:15:09.820 And the truth is oftentimes in people's memories, 242 00:15:09.820 --> 00:15:14.820 very relative, and as they recount what has happened, 243 00:15:14.940 --> 00:15:16.700 because you remember, we see through filters 244 00:15:16.700 --> 00:15:21.060 and blind spots and lenses that are oftentimes dirty. 245 00:15:21.060 --> 00:15:23.400 And so it's important to take all that into consideration. 246 00:15:23.400 --> 00:15:25.300 There's always a why behind the what. 247 00:15:26.660 --> 00:15:29.360 And I do know that showing up with mercy and grace 248 00:15:29.400 --> 00:15:31.040 is always the right response. 249 00:15:32.680 --> 00:15:34.880 So that's what I have to say about that. 250 00:15:34.880 --> 00:15:36.760 So if you are hurting, I promise you, 251 00:15:36.760 --> 00:15:38.580 we will do more ministry tomorrow night. 252 00:15:38.580 --> 00:15:39.960 All right, but tonight, today, 253 00:15:39.960 --> 00:15:44.960 I want to talk about something super fun and that's shame. 254 00:15:45.320 --> 00:15:46.640 Doesn't that sound fun? 255 00:15:48.740 --> 00:15:50.320 This is what was on my heart. 256 00:15:50.320 --> 00:15:53.080 This is what I felt like God wanted us to go after. 257 00:15:53.080 --> 00:15:54.660 Because you guys, I don't know if you noticed, 258 00:15:54.660 --> 00:15:56.560 but since this year started, we've been building, 259 00:15:56.560 --> 00:15:57.880 we've been going somewhere. 260 00:15:59.360 --> 00:16:02.080 We got some incredible words at the end of last year 261 00:16:02.080 --> 00:16:03.680 about the siege being over, 262 00:16:03.680 --> 00:16:05.320 about it being a season 263 00:16:05.320 --> 00:16:07.760 where we don't have to make do anymore, 264 00:16:07.760 --> 00:16:10.560 that there's going to be an abundance, a free flow, 265 00:16:10.560 --> 00:16:12.800 that hose is unkinked. 266 00:16:12.800 --> 00:16:14.320 And we've started seeing breakthroughs. 267 00:16:14.320 --> 00:16:15.840 A lot of people have testimonies 268 00:16:15.840 --> 00:16:18.920 of long awaited prayers being answered, 269 00:16:18.920 --> 00:16:21.560 including myself with my homeless brother 270 00:16:21.560 --> 00:16:23.000 and other things that have happened. 271 00:16:23.000 --> 00:16:25.480 And just so excited about those testimonies. 272 00:16:25.480 --> 00:16:27.960 And then it being a season of firsts. 273 00:16:27.960 --> 00:16:29.600 And you guys know that I didn't even tell 274 00:16:29.600 --> 00:16:31.560 one of my closest friends that word, 275 00:16:32.920 --> 00:16:35.360 the season of firsts word that God gave me. 276 00:16:35.360 --> 00:16:37.880 And in my birthday card on January 16th, 277 00:16:37.880 --> 00:16:40.840 or I think it was like the 13th that I had dinner with her, 278 00:16:40.840 --> 00:16:43.600 she wrote that she felt like this year 279 00:16:43.600 --> 00:16:46.000 was going to be a season of first fruits for me. 280 00:16:47.080 --> 00:16:49.040 She totally confirmed that word. 281 00:16:49.040 --> 00:16:50.440 And that's not just a Jackie word, 282 00:16:50.440 --> 00:16:51.680 that's an all of us word. 283 00:16:51.680 --> 00:16:53.800 So you guys, the season of firsts. 284 00:16:53.800 --> 00:16:55.880 And remember, you have to activate that. 285 00:16:56.880 --> 00:16:58.920 You can do that by just doing some silly things 286 00:16:58.920 --> 00:17:00.200 that you've never done before. 287 00:17:00.200 --> 00:17:02.440 Just go out and, you know, 288 00:17:02.440 --> 00:17:04.200 go someplace you've never gone before, 289 00:17:04.200 --> 00:17:05.760 do something you've never done before. 290 00:17:05.760 --> 00:17:08.880 Just by, that's a way of just activating and believing, 291 00:17:08.880 --> 00:17:11.119 saying, hey God, I believe you, 292 00:17:11.119 --> 00:17:13.359 that this is a season of first times. 293 00:17:13.359 --> 00:17:16.440 And good, good first times, not bad first times. 294 00:17:16.440 --> 00:17:18.000 And so exciting stuff. 295 00:17:18.880 --> 00:17:21.200 Exciting, exciting, exciting, exciting. 296 00:17:21.200 --> 00:17:23.520 So as we move forward into this word, 297 00:17:23.800 --> 00:17:26.720 I just want to let you know that God's building. 298 00:17:26.720 --> 00:17:28.880 Oh, and then last week, last week was powerful. 299 00:17:28.880 --> 00:17:30.400 If you didn't hear it, you guys, 300 00:17:30.400 --> 00:17:32.560 there's been a lot of really powerful 301 00:17:32.560 --> 00:17:34.480 Supernatural Saturdays. 302 00:17:34.480 --> 00:17:35.880 Remember Kizazad? 303 00:17:35.880 --> 00:17:38.240 Is someone trying to Kizazad you? 304 00:17:38.240 --> 00:17:39.680 The story of the prodigal son. 305 00:17:39.680 --> 00:17:41.520 If you didn't hear that Supernatural Saturday, 306 00:17:41.520 --> 00:17:43.640 you definitely need to go find that one 307 00:17:43.640 --> 00:17:46.480 because that one's really, really powerful. 308 00:17:46.480 --> 00:17:48.440 So I'm just remembering all the different ones 309 00:17:48.440 --> 00:17:49.280 that have happened 310 00:17:49.280 --> 00:17:53.120 and Holy Spirit has just been pouring out upon us, 311 00:17:53.120 --> 00:17:54.760 pouring out upon us. 312 00:17:54.760 --> 00:17:56.440 And so last week was really powerful 313 00:17:56.440 --> 00:17:59.480 because it was about how our gifts have been overextended 314 00:17:59.480 --> 00:18:01.040 and they've become weakness, 315 00:18:01.040 --> 00:18:02.440 but how God wants to, 316 00:18:02.440 --> 00:18:04.800 and this is the year that he is going to 317 00:18:04.800 --> 00:18:06.560 make them gifts again. 318 00:18:06.560 --> 00:18:08.480 Like they're going to be gifts in our lives 319 00:18:08.480 --> 00:18:10.240 and not liabilities any longer. 320 00:18:10.240 --> 00:18:11.480 So if you haven't heard that one, 321 00:18:11.480 --> 00:18:13.120 please go listen to that as well. 322 00:18:13.120 --> 00:18:14.720 So building on that, 323 00:18:14.720 --> 00:18:16.240 what we have to get rid of 324 00:18:16.240 --> 00:18:18.240 or what we have to allow to be removed 325 00:18:18.240 --> 00:18:19.880 from our lives is shame. 326 00:18:20.720 --> 00:18:22.000 I know you've heard this saying, 327 00:18:22.000 --> 00:18:23.760 but I'm going to go ahead and say it now. 328 00:18:23.760 --> 00:18:26.440 Guilt tells you that you've done something wrong. 329 00:18:26.440 --> 00:18:28.400 You know, you feel guilty when you've made a mistake, 330 00:18:28.400 --> 00:18:30.360 you sinned, you've done something wrong, 331 00:18:30.360 --> 00:18:33.280 but shame tells you that you are wrong. 332 00:18:33.280 --> 00:18:35.200 Guilt tells you that you've done something bad 333 00:18:35.200 --> 00:18:37.160 and shame tells you that you are bad. 334 00:18:38.040 --> 00:18:39.680 Those are very different things. 335 00:18:41.320 --> 00:18:42.640 And what I know about shame, 336 00:18:42.640 --> 00:18:45.760 because I carried shame all of my life. 337 00:18:45.760 --> 00:18:47.320 I carried shame all of my life 338 00:18:47.320 --> 00:18:49.160 because when I came into this world, 339 00:18:49.160 --> 00:18:51.480 I was born into a very broken place 340 00:18:51.480 --> 00:18:54.560 with broken people doing very broken things. 341 00:18:54.560 --> 00:18:56.240 And when those things were done to me, 342 00:18:56.240 --> 00:18:58.120 specifically being sexually abused 343 00:18:58.120 --> 00:18:59.920 by the time I was two or three years old 344 00:18:59.920 --> 00:19:03.640 and going forward for almost a decade of my life, 345 00:19:03.640 --> 00:19:06.120 I was always carrying shame. 346 00:19:07.360 --> 00:19:11.840 I was always carrying, you know, I'm bad, I'm bad. 347 00:19:11.840 --> 00:19:14.360 And you know what you do when you think you're bad? 348 00:19:14.360 --> 00:19:15.600 You do bad things. 349 00:19:17.000 --> 00:19:18.760 That's what happens. 350 00:19:18.760 --> 00:19:19.800 You get in trouble. 351 00:19:19.800 --> 00:19:21.440 I was always in trouble as a child. 352 00:19:22.200 --> 00:19:23.040 I was always up to something. 353 00:19:23.040 --> 00:19:24.040 I was always doing something 354 00:19:24.040 --> 00:19:25.560 that I wasn't supposed to be doing. 355 00:19:25.560 --> 00:19:26.400 I was lying. 356 00:19:26.400 --> 00:19:28.080 I was manipulating. 357 00:19:28.080 --> 00:19:29.760 I was mischievous. 358 00:19:29.760 --> 00:19:33.280 I was rebellious. 359 00:19:33.280 --> 00:19:35.120 I obviously didn't trust any adults. 360 00:19:35.120 --> 00:19:35.960 I mean, why would I? 361 00:19:35.960 --> 00:19:38.640 I was being raised in an environment 362 00:19:38.640 --> 00:19:40.520 where adults were not trustworthy 363 00:19:40.520 --> 00:19:42.960 and that they were dangerous and unsafe people. 364 00:19:42.960 --> 00:19:45.200 And basically from a very young age, 365 00:19:45.200 --> 00:19:47.440 I realized that nobody was driving the bus. 366 00:19:47.960 --> 00:19:51.160 And so what happens then is that you become very independent. 367 00:19:51.160 --> 00:19:53.320 You become very self-sufficient. 368 00:19:53.320 --> 00:19:55.640 You don't ask anyone for anything. 369 00:19:55.640 --> 00:19:59.240 And deep down inside, you don't think that you're safe. 370 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:09.600 you deserve anything anyway. Anyone else relate to any of that? So I know all about shame. 371 00:20:09.600 --> 00:20:15.260 And shame will definitely lead you down some very dark alleys, doing some things that cause 372 00:20:15.260 --> 00:20:20.800 more shame. The one thing that I learned about shame after I became a believer is that shame 373 00:20:20.800 --> 00:20:26.520 likes to reproduce itself. So we have shame because of whatever the thing is in our lives. 374 00:20:26.520 --> 00:20:29.920 We're carrying shame. We feel like we're bad. We feel like we're damaged. We feel like we're 375 00:20:30.400 --> 00:20:38.560 disqualified, unredeemable. And it's funny because you can think the opposite about everybody else. 376 00:20:38.560 --> 00:20:43.240 You can think that they're qualified, they're loved, they're redeemed. You can even be a 377 00:20:43.240 --> 00:20:49.640 minister and hold high levels of shame. You believe the finished work of the cross works, 378 00:20:49.640 --> 00:20:55.640 it just doesn't work for you. And it's unconscious. It's not like a conscious thought always, right? 379 00:20:55.640 --> 00:21:01.000 So we're carrying these levels of shame and they like to reproduce themselves. So shame 380 00:21:01.000 --> 00:21:07.520 reproduces itself over and over and over and over again. So if you have it, it likes to like draw 381 00:21:07.520 --> 00:21:15.120 in more of itself. So if you're operating in shame, oftentimes you'll end up doing things 382 00:21:15.120 --> 00:21:24.800 that you're ashamed of. And that's where we have to break out of that. So today's Supernatural 383 00:21:24.800 --> 00:21:30.080 Saturday is just about that very thing. How shame is a thief. God really put this on my 384 00:21:30.080 --> 00:21:35.240 heart because I was watching someone who was living in regret. And you guys, regret's not 385 00:21:35.240 --> 00:21:41.560 necessarily a terrible emotion, but if you stay there, if you stay in regret, oftentimes it is 386 00:21:41.560 --> 00:21:49.200 going to turn to shame. It's good to see that, hey, this wasn't my best decision. It's good to 387 00:21:49.200 --> 00:21:53.440 be able to be self-aware that way. It's good to know that, hey, I could have done better, 388 00:21:53.680 --> 00:21:58.200 I shouldn't have done this. This didn't turn out right. I did this for the wrong reasons or the 389 00:21:58.200 --> 00:22:04.840 wrong motivations. That's good. That's self-aware. And that awareness should lead to repentance, 390 00:22:04.840 --> 00:22:10.000 but it doesn't lead to repentance if you don't believe God is good. I can prove that to you in 391 00:22:10.000 --> 00:22:16.160 the Word of God. The Bible says it's the goodness of God that leads people to repentance. And we 392 00:22:16.160 --> 00:22:21.360 all make mistakes, friends. We all sin. There's not one person on this call this morning or in 393 00:22:21.360 --> 00:22:29.640 the world walking around that has not sinned and that does not on a regular basis make mistakes or 394 00:22:29.640 --> 00:22:34.840 do something that I call unworthy of you. By the way, that's what I call sin, doing something 395 00:22:34.840 --> 00:22:45.920 that's unworthy of who you are. Oftentimes sin is born out of fear. Fear of what? Fear that God's 396 00:22:45.920 --> 00:22:52.640 not good. Fear that you have to go get it yourself if you're gonna get it. And then we go about it 397 00:22:52.640 --> 00:22:59.720 in ways that cause us to feel ashamed. I wish I wouldn't have done that that way. Guys, I know 398 00:22:59.720 --> 00:23:06.480 people that are still carrying their V cards, they're still virgins, okay? They're now upwards 399 00:23:06.480 --> 00:23:12.440 in their 40s. They've never been married, obviously, and they've never even really been 400 00:23:12.440 --> 00:23:20.680 close to being married. And they are so angry about it that in order to punish God for not 401 00:23:20.680 --> 00:23:25.200 giving them what they've been praying for all their lives, they go out and punish themselves 402 00:23:25.200 --> 00:23:33.120 by being promiscuous. Oh, okay, God, you're not gonna give me a husband or wife? Oh, I'm gonna 403 00:23:33.120 --> 00:23:41.320 show you. I'm gonna go out and have sex with a bunch of people. How do you like that? A lot 404 00:23:41.320 --> 00:23:46.000 of people do that, friends. They do very self-destructive things because they've been 405 00:23:46.000 --> 00:23:52.240 waiting for such a long time because unfortunately the church age teaches you to wait, teaches you to 406 00:23:52.240 --> 00:24:04.560 go sit in some dark room and hope that heaven pulls your number from the holy lottery. It's 407 00:24:04.560 --> 00:24:10.880 bad teaching, you guys. And can I tell you that I think bad teaching actually leads to sin because 408 00:24:10.960 --> 00:24:17.400 it gets people so frustrated and so messed up and so turned upside down. They literally think 409 00:24:17.400 --> 00:24:24.240 that God's holding out on them because they're fed this steady diet of, He's almost here. It's 410 00:24:24.240 --> 00:24:29.920 almost here. It's almost here. God, God, you're waiting. Don't give up. Don't give up. No, 411 00:24:29.920 --> 00:24:37.160 you're not waiting on God. You're not waiting on God. Everything has been available since the 412 00:24:37.160 --> 00:24:46.280 finished work of the cross. We have to take action. We have to take imperfect action. That's 413 00:24:46.280 --> 00:24:52.560 not striving. I wish this theology of striving never was a thing because what it's doing is 414 00:24:52.560 --> 00:24:56.200 it's keeping people from acting in faith because faith without works is dead. 415 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:04.040 Now, there are some heart motivations that come into play when we talk about this. 416 00:25:04.040 --> 00:25:06.040 There are people who are desperate. 417 00:25:06.040 --> 00:25:14.480 There are people who have idolized something as the magic bullet of happiness, and they're 418 00:25:14.480 --> 00:25:19.400 striving continually to get it, and they get themselves in bad places. 419 00:25:19.400 --> 00:25:21.960 Let's just take this area, love life. 420 00:25:21.960 --> 00:25:28.200 They're looking for love in all the wrong places because they just want it at any cost. 421 00:25:28.200 --> 00:25:31.280 That's what we do in the first phase of Last Year Single. 422 00:25:31.280 --> 00:25:33.720 We help get that out of you. 423 00:25:33.720 --> 00:25:37.760 When you come in here, we help put you back into alignment with the understanding that 424 00:25:37.760 --> 00:25:39.880 you've been created to have this desire. 425 00:25:39.880 --> 00:25:40.880 That's why you have it. 426 00:25:40.880 --> 00:25:41.880 It's not a bad thing. 427 00:25:41.880 --> 00:25:45.680 It's nothing to be ashamed of. 428 00:25:45.680 --> 00:25:46.760 You don't have to strive. 429 00:25:46.760 --> 00:25:49.560 You don't have to try to make it happen yourself. 430 00:25:49.560 --> 00:25:53.480 You do have to participate in your love story. 431 00:25:53.480 --> 00:25:55.680 But oftentimes, people are doing one or the other. 432 00:25:55.680 --> 00:26:00.240 They're either going full throttle, 100 miles an hour down a dead-end road because their 433 00:26:00.240 --> 00:26:05.400 heart is super codependent and just looking, looking, looking for anyone who will take 434 00:26:05.400 --> 00:26:06.400 them in. 435 00:26:06.400 --> 00:26:10.960 Or they're on the whole other side of the spectrum where they're just sitting in the 436 00:26:10.960 --> 00:26:17.680 dark waiting room, just waiting sorrowfully, not understanding why this is happening for 437 00:26:17.680 --> 00:26:22.520 everyone else but them because they've been faithful and they love God and they're a good 438 00:26:22.520 --> 00:26:27.320 person and they've done everything right, everything the way that they're supposed to 439 00:26:27.320 --> 00:26:34.400 do it, and they haven't tried to make it happen themselves, and yet it's still not happening. 440 00:26:34.400 --> 00:26:36.760 And then everybody else is in the middle somewhere. 441 00:26:36.760 --> 00:26:40.400 Those are the two spectrums, and then everyone else is in the middle somewhere. 442 00:26:40.400 --> 00:26:43.600 No, you guys. 443 00:26:43.600 --> 00:26:45.520 These theologies are theologies of man. 444 00:26:45.520 --> 00:26:49.000 They're not theologies of God and they're not biblical. 445 00:26:49.000 --> 00:26:55.080 The waiting theology was taken from one scripture in the Bible out of context. 446 00:26:55.080 --> 00:26:59.720 It's not a thing. 447 00:26:59.720 --> 00:27:03.320 You have a very limited amount of time on earth, and I know today's Supernatural Saturday 448 00:27:03.320 --> 00:27:07.320 is about shame, but I'm just going to follow the Holy Spirit and this is where he's going. 449 00:27:07.320 --> 00:27:10.560 You have a very limited amount of time on earth. 450 00:27:10.560 --> 00:27:13.680 Most people are only going to live 4,000 weeks. 451 00:27:13.680 --> 00:27:17.080 Please take that in. 452 00:27:17.080 --> 00:27:21.320 Somewhere around 4,000 weeks. 453 00:27:21.320 --> 00:27:26.640 That's about 80 years old, in case you're trying to do the math. 454 00:27:26.640 --> 00:27:28.360 That's it. 455 00:27:28.360 --> 00:27:30.040 Somewhere around there. 456 00:27:30.040 --> 00:27:33.780 The human lifespan, somewhere around there. 457 00:27:33.780 --> 00:27:36.100 Some less, some a little more. 458 00:27:36.100 --> 00:27:40.180 Some people make it all the way up to 100, whatever, they're the anomaly, but you understand 459 00:27:40.180 --> 00:27:41.180 what I'm saying. 460 00:27:41.180 --> 00:27:45.700 You have a limited amount of time on earth. 461 00:27:45.700 --> 00:27:52.620 God isn't going to sit you for decades and decades and decades in some waiting room. 462 00:27:52.620 --> 00:27:57.740 This is your only earth experience and the things we're talking about today, right now, 463 00:27:57.740 --> 00:28:05.180 specifically marriage, relationship, it's only for earth. 464 00:28:05.180 --> 00:28:06.820 And you know what it's for? 465 00:28:06.820 --> 00:28:12.940 It's to help you to understand the love of God. 466 00:28:12.940 --> 00:28:16.060 You know what you will not need help understanding in heaven? 467 00:28:16.060 --> 00:28:21.380 The love of God. 468 00:28:21.380 --> 00:28:22.500 It is to refine you. 469 00:28:22.500 --> 00:28:29.560 I call it God's maturity plan for mankind. 470 00:28:29.560 --> 00:28:35.460 If marriage is doing what it's supposed to be doing, it will make you a better person. 471 00:28:35.460 --> 00:28:37.760 It will make you more patient. 472 00:28:37.760 --> 00:28:51.120 It will make you more kind, loving, caring, selfless, right? 473 00:28:51.120 --> 00:28:52.480 It'll teach you how to partner. 474 00:28:52.480 --> 00:28:54.880 It'll teach you how to play well with others. 475 00:28:54.880 --> 00:29:03.920 That's why it really just gets on my nerves that people put such an emphasis on sexual 476 00:29:03.920 --> 00:29:06.160 attraction when it comes to getting married. 477 00:29:06.160 --> 00:29:12.360 Yeah, sex is good friends, but sex is the purpose of sex is to cause there to be a deeper 478 00:29:12.360 --> 00:29:20.080 intimacy with you and the person that you have partnered with. 479 00:29:20.080 --> 00:29:21.440 That's the whole purpose of it. 480 00:29:21.440 --> 00:29:31.040 And of course, babies, it creates a deeper intimacy. 481 00:29:31.040 --> 00:29:32.740 It's not the first thing. 482 00:29:32.740 --> 00:29:34.800 It's not the main thing. 483 00:29:34.820 --> 00:29:38.820 It's actually a tool for all the main things to get better. 484 00:29:48.320 --> 00:29:49.320 We're not going to get into that. 485 00:29:51.320 --> 00:29:53.960 All right, so shame is a thief, you guys. 486 00:29:53.960 --> 00:29:54.960 It's a thief. 487 00:29:54.960 --> 00:29:55.960 What's it stealing? 488 00:29:55.960 --> 00:29:56.960 It's stealing a lot of stuff. 489 00:29:56.960 --> 00:29:57.960 It's stealing your voice. 490 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:08.080 A lot of times I see it steal people's boldness and I don't mean boldness with humans, I mean 491 00:30:08.080 --> 00:30:10.360 boldness with God. 492 00:30:10.360 --> 00:30:13.420 Because once again, the thing that brings people to repentance is the goodness of God. 493 00:30:13.420 --> 00:30:17.340 They believe that God is good and that is why they come to Him in repentance. 494 00:30:17.340 --> 00:30:20.280 They realize they've been on their own road doing their own thing and they want to turn 495 00:30:20.280 --> 00:30:28.560 around, they want to do things God's way because they know that He's a good Father. 496 00:30:28.560 --> 00:30:31.960 But shame will keep you hiding from God. 497 00:30:31.960 --> 00:30:34.640 And we're going to visit that in a second, we'll visit it from the very beginning because 498 00:30:34.640 --> 00:30:36.440 shame entered the earth. 499 00:30:36.440 --> 00:30:40.640 The ability to feel ashamed entered the earth with original sins, so we'll look at that. 500 00:30:40.640 --> 00:30:45.520 So it might steal your voice, you know, your voice meaning you're speaking up for yourself, 501 00:30:45.520 --> 00:30:48.960 using your voice, using your gifts, your talents, that's what I mean when I say voice. 502 00:30:48.960 --> 00:30:52.480 It might steal your boldness, your boldness specifically with God. 503 00:30:52.480 --> 00:30:55.020 And it might steal some of your blessings too. 504 00:30:55.020 --> 00:30:56.600 Because God is always blessing us. 505 00:30:56.600 --> 00:30:59.760 One thing that I know about the Father is He's always blessing us. 506 00:30:59.760 --> 00:31:04.000 And so if you do not feel blessed, if you feel like it's been a long time since you've 507 00:31:04.000 --> 00:31:08.480 been blessed, you're probably dealing with some kind of inability to receive. 508 00:31:08.480 --> 00:31:13.200 Guys, this is all food for thought. 509 00:31:13.200 --> 00:31:21.880 I know Supernatural Saturdays are a lot, a lot to take in. 510 00:31:21.880 --> 00:31:25.000 But first and foremost, we just have to remember, and this is the one thing that I want you 511 00:31:25.000 --> 00:31:30.920 to really, really take in right now, go ahead and close your eyes if that's what helps you 512 00:31:30.920 --> 00:31:34.360 really listen and focus. 513 00:31:34.360 --> 00:31:38.640 Shame is not an emotion. 514 00:31:38.640 --> 00:31:43.880 I was, I think I went on a rabbit trail, but I was talking about how I see a lot of people, 515 00:31:43.880 --> 00:31:50.600 they're choosing regret and shame over God's bigger plan. 516 00:31:50.600 --> 00:31:54.100 You guys, for every mistake that you have made in your life, any mistake, doesn't matter 517 00:31:54.200 --> 00:31:57.820 how recent it is, God has a bigger plan. 518 00:31:57.820 --> 00:32:02.300 When we release those mistakes in repentance, we get to be part of the bigger plan. 519 00:32:02.300 --> 00:32:03.620 God will use it to your good. 520 00:32:03.620 --> 00:32:07.340 Romans 828 is a real thing. 521 00:32:07.340 --> 00:32:08.340 It's a real thing. 522 00:32:08.340 --> 00:32:16.380 But when we hold on to regret, when we hold on to guilt and we let it turn into shame, 523 00:32:16.380 --> 00:32:18.520 that is blocking God's plan. 524 00:32:18.520 --> 00:32:27.520 It's not that he doesn't want to, Romans 828 you, it's that you're not allowing him to. 525 00:32:27.520 --> 00:32:28.520 You're not. 526 00:32:28.520 --> 00:32:29.520 So close your eyes. 527 00:32:29.520 --> 00:32:31.640 Shame is not an emotion. 528 00:32:31.640 --> 00:32:41.020 It's a strategy, a strategy of the kingdom of darkness from the very beginning to keep 529 00:32:41.020 --> 00:32:46.040 us from doing and being what God created us to do and be. 530 00:32:46.040 --> 00:32:47.240 It's not an emotion, you guys. 531 00:32:47.240 --> 00:32:51.520 It's not an emotion, not like happiness or peace or joy. 532 00:32:51.520 --> 00:32:53.200 Shame is a strategy. 533 00:32:53.200 --> 00:32:56.040 It's a demonic strategy. 534 00:32:56.040 --> 00:32:59.520 And it doesn't just make you feel bad. 535 00:32:59.520 --> 00:33:03.880 It does make you feel bad, but it also makes you feel small. 536 00:33:03.880 --> 00:33:04.880 It makes you quiet. 537 00:33:04.880 --> 00:33:06.720 It makes you hesitant. 538 00:33:06.720 --> 00:33:09.600 It makes you ashamed to ask or receive anything from God. 539 00:33:09.600 --> 00:33:14.920 It makes you ashamed to hope. 540 00:33:14.920 --> 00:33:16.020 These are things. 541 00:33:16.020 --> 00:33:18.820 If you're carrying shame around with you, you're not going to ask. 542 00:33:18.820 --> 00:33:20.580 You're not going to ask for help. 543 00:33:20.580 --> 00:33:23.800 You're not going to receive because you don't think you deserve it. 544 00:33:23.800 --> 00:33:30.500 You're not going to hope that things are going to get better. 545 00:33:30.500 --> 00:33:31.980 That's why it's a strategy of the devil. 546 00:33:31.980 --> 00:33:32.980 Think about it. 547 00:33:32.980 --> 00:33:34.700 The devil doesn't have to come after you. 548 00:33:34.700 --> 00:33:38.980 The kingdom of darkness doesn't have to come after you and try to destroy you because you're 549 00:33:38.980 --> 00:33:43.540 just going to destroy yourself. 550 00:33:43.540 --> 00:33:47.900 You're just going to self-limit. 551 00:33:47.900 --> 00:33:51.260 The prison door is open, but you're just going to sit in the cell because that's what shame 552 00:33:51.260 --> 00:33:52.260 tells you to do. 553 00:33:52.260 --> 00:33:55.980 It's been unlocked since the finished work of the cross. 554 00:33:55.980 --> 00:33:59.780 The door is open, but when we have shame, we will self-punish. 555 00:33:59.780 --> 00:34:01.420 Does that make sense? 556 00:34:01.420 --> 00:34:04.820 And you'll see it in your decisions, the people that you choose to be around, the things that 557 00:34:04.820 --> 00:34:07.740 you put up with, the things that you eat and put in your body. 558 00:34:07.740 --> 00:34:11.420 Yes, friends, that's not fat that you're carrying around. 559 00:34:11.420 --> 00:34:15.340 That's shame. 560 00:34:15.340 --> 00:34:17.380 You're continually punishing yourself. 561 00:34:17.380 --> 00:34:19.900 You're doing bad things to yourself. 562 00:34:19.900 --> 00:34:26.659 You're killing yourself slowly. 563 00:34:26.659 --> 00:34:32.219 By the people that you date, by the relationships you entertain, by the friends that you have, 564 00:34:32.219 --> 00:34:33.860 you want to have a shame indicator. 565 00:34:33.860 --> 00:34:36.380 Do you have friends that are users? 566 00:34:36.380 --> 00:34:37.860 Are you surrounded by takers? 567 00:34:37.860 --> 00:34:40.820 You're the only giver in the group? 568 00:34:40.820 --> 00:34:48.540 That's shame. 569 00:34:48.540 --> 00:34:51.940 That's you trying to prove that you're a good person. 570 00:34:51.940 --> 00:34:54.420 Well, I'm just so loyal. 571 00:34:54.420 --> 00:34:57.420 No, you're shamed. 572 00:34:57.420 --> 00:35:00.020 Well, I'm just so... 573 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:10.040 Jackie, you don't understand. No. You don't love yourself. I hope this is 574 00:35:10.040 --> 00:35:15.160 hidden for someone. God wants to break you out of this. Prison door is open and 575 00:35:15.160 --> 00:35:22.220 this really matters. Let's look at Genesis. Before the fall, before original 576 00:35:22.220 --> 00:35:25.720 sin, before the eating of the fruit, before the whole debacle, you see that 577 00:35:25.720 --> 00:35:32.560 they were naked and unashamed. They were free, you guys. They had no burden of 578 00:35:32.560 --> 00:35:37.320 guilt upon them. They had, you know, they were the, you know, the eternal sunshine 579 00:35:37.320 --> 00:35:44.200 of the spotless mind. They were fully seen. They were fully provided for by God. 580 00:35:44.200 --> 00:35:49.400 They were in full connection with Father, Son, and Holy Spirit in the garden, 581 00:35:49.400 --> 00:35:58.360 walking with God and talking with God. Can you even imagine? But then after sin, 582 00:35:58.920 --> 00:36:05.360 their eyes are opened, right? That's what the Bible says, but not in a good way. 583 00:36:05.360 --> 00:36:08.680 This is why God didn't even want them to eat from that tree, you guys, because he 584 00:36:08.680 --> 00:36:13.920 did not want them to experience this. 585 00:36:14.400 --> 00:36:19.880 Shame entered, and what happens then? Hiding begins, doesn't it? Immediately 586 00:36:19.880 --> 00:36:28.440 when shame enters, people begin to hide, don't they? They begin to hide. So sin did not 587 00:36:28.440 --> 00:36:33.560 cause God to withdraw. God was still, he met them. He still came like, hey, let's 588 00:36:33.560 --> 00:36:40.280 have our evening stroll, right? Sin didn't cause God to withdraw from them. Shame 589 00:36:40.360 --> 00:36:44.680 caused them to withdraw from God. It caused them to hide. 590 00:36:49.240 --> 00:36:53.880 Caused them to hide, you guys. And this really matters, and the reason why it matters is 591 00:36:53.880 --> 00:37:00.040 because God came looking for them. He came looking for them, and he's looking for you 592 00:37:00.040 --> 00:37:06.200 right now, but shame convinces us to run and hide. Convinces us that we're not worthy 593 00:37:06.280 --> 00:37:11.800 of God looking for us. It convinces us that what we've done is unredeemable or what's 594 00:37:11.800 --> 00:37:15.800 been done to us. A lot of us are carrying secondhand shame because of something that 595 00:37:15.800 --> 00:37:24.080 someone else has done to us that now has become our identity. When we're in relationship 596 00:37:24.080 --> 00:37:31.120 with the abusers, users, losers, beaters, cheaters, a lot of times we take on the identity 597 00:37:31.200 --> 00:37:37.600 of the lied to, the cheated on, the abused. We take on the identity of that. And so it's 598 00:37:37.600 --> 00:37:39.680 their shame, but now we've taken it on. 599 00:37:46.800 --> 00:37:48.000 It's really important, you guys. 600 00:37:51.880 --> 00:37:56.240 This is why a lot of people will cut and run from a potential relationship because they're 601 00:37:56.240 --> 00:38:00.240 carrying shame that won't allow them to go any deeper and let anyone actually really 602 00:38:00.320 --> 00:38:04.240 see them because you're convinced that if they really see you, they're not going to 603 00:38:04.240 --> 00:38:08.320 like you. And that might really be an unconscious thought, not something that you consciously 604 00:38:08.320 --> 00:38:14.560 think, but it's there. It's there. A lot of people are carrying shame around like a low 605 00:38:14.560 --> 00:38:22.640 level fever, like a low grade fever. You don't really know what's wrong. You just know that 606 00:38:22.640 --> 00:38:29.120 you're tired, right? When we have a high fever, a lot of times we're, you know, if it's acute, 607 00:38:29.120 --> 00:38:34.640 it's dramatic, right? But a low grade fever, it's not acute, it's not dramatic. We're not 608 00:38:34.640 --> 00:38:40.240 having a full breakdown. Low grade fevers don't usually send us to the ER, but they 609 00:38:40.240 --> 00:38:51.040 just slowly drain our strengths, don't they? Slowly drain our strength. And friends, for 610 00:38:51.040 --> 00:38:54.640 those of you that have a high grade fever, like you're dealing with not low grade shame, 611 00:38:54.640 --> 00:38:59.120 you're dealing with high grade shame. You usually look for medication. So you're always 612 00:38:59.120 --> 00:39:07.280 doing something to try to medicate it instead of allowing it to just be taken away. But 613 00:39:07.280 --> 00:39:12.240 let's talk about that low grade shame because I think that more people have that than anything 614 00:39:12.240 --> 00:39:18.360 else. And what happens with that is we just adapt to it. We learn to live with it. Remember, 615 00:39:18.360 --> 00:39:23.280 it's not sending us to the ER. We're not having a nervous breakdown. We're not in the psychiatrist 616 00:39:23.280 --> 00:39:30.040 office, but we're constantly living with self-doubt. We're muting our desires. We're 617 00:39:30.040 --> 00:39:34.200 just convincing ourselves that we don't deserve to want those things. So we don't want them 618 00:39:34.200 --> 00:39:39.160 or at least we don't go after them. We might have those desires, but we don't go after 619 00:39:39.160 --> 00:39:45.080 those desires. We lower our expectations for sure. Anytime there is an opportunity or an 620 00:39:45.080 --> 00:39:51.480 open door, we hesitate. Instead of running through it, we hesitate. We become indecisive 621 00:39:51.480 --> 00:39:59.520 because we have a difficult time receiving love, money, favor. 622 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:01.000 Rest. 623 00:40:01.000 --> 00:40:02.000 Come on. 624 00:40:02.000 --> 00:40:03.560 I want to see it in the chat right now. 625 00:40:03.560 --> 00:40:04.560 Am I talking to you? 626 00:40:04.560 --> 00:40:06.280 You're like, man, I didn't know it was shame. 627 00:40:06.280 --> 00:40:11.640 Jackie, you're diagnosing me right now, but I do have a difficult time receiving love, 628 00:40:11.640 --> 00:40:15.760 favor, rest, opportunities. 629 00:40:15.760 --> 00:40:18.000 If something comes, I always think that it's too good to be true. 630 00:40:18.000 --> 00:40:24.480 I don't act upon it immediately because I'm afraid of being disappointed. 631 00:40:24.480 --> 00:40:31.360 Guys, when we have this chronic shame, we don't necessarily feel broken because we've 632 00:40:31.360 --> 00:40:32.440 learned to adapt to it. 633 00:40:32.440 --> 00:40:35.840 We just feel tired. 634 00:40:35.840 --> 00:40:36.960 We just feel hopeless. 635 00:40:36.960 --> 00:40:37.960 We feel small. 636 00:40:37.960 --> 00:40:39.760 We feel a little bit behind everybody else. 637 00:40:39.760 --> 00:40:53.800 We feel disconnected, and if we don't allow God to heal it, then we'll just continue to 638 00:40:53.800 --> 00:40:55.480 medicate it, you guys, and what do we do? 639 00:40:55.480 --> 00:40:56.480 How do we do that? 640 00:40:56.480 --> 00:41:00.800 We just stay busy, so you don't have to think about it, right? 641 00:41:00.800 --> 00:41:01.800 I see people nodding their heads. 642 00:41:01.800 --> 00:41:04.080 You just stay busy. 643 00:41:04.080 --> 00:41:09.880 Years ago, God gave me an acronym for the word busy, B-U-S-Y, and it's being under Satan's 644 00:41:09.880 --> 00:41:14.240 yoke because I was always busy. 645 00:41:14.240 --> 00:41:19.720 I was always busy, you guys, because I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts. 646 00:41:19.720 --> 00:41:24.960 I always stayed busy so I wouldn't have to worry or think or be anxious. 647 00:41:24.960 --> 00:41:25.960 I didn't know how to rest. 648 00:41:25.960 --> 00:41:29.200 I didn't know how to meditate. 649 00:41:29.200 --> 00:41:30.600 I didn't know how to do those things. 650 00:41:30.600 --> 00:41:31.600 Busy, busy, busy. 651 00:41:31.600 --> 00:41:32.600 Calendar's full. 652 00:41:32.600 --> 00:41:39.840 I don't want to even take one moment to even think about what I'm thinking about, so we 653 00:41:39.840 --> 00:41:41.720 medicate like that sometimes. 654 00:41:41.720 --> 00:41:43.520 We overfunction. 655 00:41:43.520 --> 00:41:47.920 So many of us overfunction, and we wonder why we have nervous breakdowns and physical 656 00:41:47.920 --> 00:41:54.280 breakdowns, especially when we get into midlife and our hormones start going nuts. 657 00:41:54.280 --> 00:41:57.000 Gentlemen, that's for you, too. 658 00:41:57.000 --> 00:42:00.360 Overfunctioning, you will hit a brick wall eventually. 659 00:42:00.360 --> 00:42:02.280 Perfectionism is another way we deal with shame, you guys. 660 00:42:02.280 --> 00:42:06.840 If I'm perfect, then people have to accept me and they won't know just how messed up 661 00:42:06.840 --> 00:42:08.520 I am. 662 00:42:08.520 --> 00:42:13.240 So we go into the realm of perfectionism, trying to get everything done, doing too much 663 00:42:13.360 --> 00:42:18.160 for too many people, trying to do it perfectly, trying to achieve. 664 00:42:18.160 --> 00:42:29.760 Some other symptoms of low-grade chronic shame are self-deprecating talk, humor. 665 00:42:29.760 --> 00:42:33.400 You have a lot of spirituality without intimacy with God. 666 00:42:33.400 --> 00:42:35.960 You do all the things, but you don't really feel God's presence. 667 00:42:35.960 --> 00:42:37.200 You don't feel Him close to you. 668 00:42:37.200 --> 00:42:40.280 You're spiritual, but you're not intimate with God because you're not letting Him get 669 00:42:40.280 --> 00:42:42.160 close. 670 00:42:42.160 --> 00:42:46.200 A lot of people pride themselves, especially women, pride themselves on being low-maintenance. 671 00:42:46.200 --> 00:42:47.760 Oh, I don't eat a lot. 672 00:42:47.760 --> 00:42:49.400 Yeah, that's called shame. 673 00:42:49.400 --> 00:42:52.200 Oh, no, no, you don't understand, Jackie. 674 00:42:52.200 --> 00:42:55.360 I'm just a low-maintenance woman, no. 675 00:42:55.360 --> 00:42:57.960 You don't think that you deserve a lot. 676 00:42:57.960 --> 00:43:01.920 And the problem with this is that when you see other people not being low-maintenance, 677 00:43:01.920 --> 00:43:03.200 you're going to start judging them. 678 00:43:03.200 --> 00:43:05.640 Well, why does she have to have that car or that purse? 679 00:43:05.640 --> 00:43:08.120 Or why does she have to have her hair done every month? 680 00:43:08.120 --> 00:43:09.120 You know, why does it... 681 00:43:09.120 --> 00:43:12.720 Because she loves herself, that's why. 682 00:43:12.720 --> 00:43:16.160 She thinks that she's worth it in a lot of cases. 683 00:43:16.160 --> 00:43:21.600 I mean, sometimes people are trying to compensate for shame that way with labels and expensive 684 00:43:21.600 --> 00:43:23.080 things. 685 00:43:23.080 --> 00:43:29.880 But a lot of people just like to treat themselves because they like themselves. 686 00:43:29.880 --> 00:43:33.880 And if it's been a long time since you treated yourself because you like yourself and you 687 00:43:33.880 --> 00:43:38.440 think that you're worthy of being treated well, then we need to talk about that because 688 00:43:38.760 --> 00:43:41.800 that's chronic shame probably. 689 00:43:41.800 --> 00:43:48.760 People that never ask for help, these are all symptoms, you guys. 690 00:43:48.760 --> 00:43:51.100 These are medicators for chronic shame. 691 00:43:51.100 --> 00:43:55.680 And medication is not going to cure this low-grade fever. 692 00:43:55.680 --> 00:43:59.760 It's just going to keep you functional, probably enough to survive in the moment, but it's 693 00:43:59.760 --> 00:44:02.120 never going to make you well enough to thrive. 694 00:44:02.120 --> 00:44:03.120 Please take that in. 695 00:44:03.280 --> 00:44:08.640 It might keep you functional enough to survive, but it is never going to make you well enough 696 00:44:08.640 --> 00:44:12.480 to thrive. 697 00:44:12.480 --> 00:44:15.200 We don't want to survive anymore. 698 00:44:15.200 --> 00:44:19.640 We want to thrive, don't we? 699 00:44:19.640 --> 00:44:22.800 And chronic shame is not going to ruin your life overnight. 700 00:44:22.800 --> 00:44:28.280 A lot of people carry chronic shame. 701 00:44:28.280 --> 00:44:33.200 But it does something even more dangerous. 702 00:44:33.200 --> 00:44:45.400 It quietly makes you negotiate your destiny by settling. 703 00:44:45.400 --> 00:44:56.120 Come on, y'all, take it in. 704 00:44:56.120 --> 00:44:58.040 A lot of you are getting an aha moment right now. 705 00:44:58.040 --> 00:45:00.040 You're like, oh my gosh, I see that. 706 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:05.840 this. I see this happening to me. Jackie, you're putting a name on it. It's shame. 707 00:45:12.240 --> 00:45:16.720 That's why the scripture in the New Testament said that he would be our God and we would be 708 00:45:16.720 --> 00:45:19.360 his people and we would never be ashamed again. 709 00:45:19.360 --> 00:45:30.720 Shame is a choice, you guys. It's a choice. We're all going to mess up. We're all going 710 00:45:30.720 --> 00:45:36.560 to make mistakes. You do not have to beat yourself up, punish yourself up chronically for that. 711 00:45:38.720 --> 00:45:43.120 Jesus died for that on the cross. Repentance leads to change. 712 00:45:43.120 --> 00:45:53.520 The word itself means to turn around. It leads to a turnaround. Shame doesn't. 713 00:45:56.880 --> 00:46:01.360 Shame leads to you going down, negotiating your destiny downward. 714 00:46:01.920 --> 00:46:06.160 You're going to settle for less than what you're capable of, less than what God created you for. 715 00:46:06.160 --> 00:46:08.400 You're probably going to stay silent when you should speak up. 716 00:46:08.400 --> 00:46:14.400 You might pass on opportunities, especially opportunities that require people to get to 717 00:46:14.400 --> 00:46:17.840 know you and see you. Anything that requires visibility, you're going to pass on that. 718 00:46:19.760 --> 00:46:23.920 Because remember, you're hiding. You're hiding in plain sight, but you're still hiding. 719 00:46:29.920 --> 00:46:32.000 You're going to downplay yourself constantly. 720 00:46:32.560 --> 00:46:34.640 You're going to always think that you're disqualified 721 00:46:36.000 --> 00:46:38.080 instead of just giving it a shot, just trying. 722 00:46:45.440 --> 00:46:49.040 And you guys, oftentimes we'll see someone living some big, bold moment. 723 00:46:50.320 --> 00:46:54.320 They'll be doing something and we'll have secondhand embarrassment for them. 724 00:46:54.320 --> 00:47:00.080 And I really thought about this because this is what came into my spirit. God showed me that, 725 00:47:00.080 --> 00:47:06.080 like, hey, someone will be doing something super bold, super scary. They'll be asking for a favor. 726 00:47:06.080 --> 00:47:10.400 They'll be asking for this or that. And we're just happening to be standing around, like, 727 00:47:10.400 --> 00:47:15.600 seeing them, like they're asking for something that they're not supposed to be asking for. 728 00:47:16.640 --> 00:47:20.560 They're asking for a free upgrade at the car rental company. 729 00:47:20.560 --> 00:47:25.840 They're asking for a free upgrade at the car rental counter, or they're doing whatever they're 730 00:47:25.840 --> 00:47:32.800 doing. And oftentimes when someone's doing that or someone's wearing some bold outfit that we think is 731 00:47:32.800 --> 00:47:38.000 too young for them or whatever, and we see them walking by, the thought that comes into our minds 732 00:47:38.000 --> 00:47:44.560 and the thought and the saying that people say to describe that is, that person has no shame. 733 00:47:45.040 --> 00:47:46.080 You guys ever thought of that? 734 00:47:48.640 --> 00:47:57.520 That person has no shame. Oh my gosh, that person has no shame. As if that's a bad thing. 735 00:48:02.320 --> 00:48:02.820 Right? 736 00:48:06.480 --> 00:48:06.980 Wow. 737 00:48:07.540 --> 00:48:11.620 We say it like it's a sin. We say it like it's an insult. Oh, they have no shame. 738 00:48:11.620 --> 00:48:14.980 What we actually mean is that they're not self-policing themselves. They're not shrinking. 739 00:48:14.980 --> 00:48:16.980 They're not apologizing for existing. 740 00:48:20.260 --> 00:48:23.460 Yeah, some of those people are cracked for sure, but that's not the point. 741 00:48:26.820 --> 00:48:27.620 That's not the point. 742 00:48:28.580 --> 00:48:35.620 Romans 8 tells us what? There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus. 743 00:48:35.620 --> 00:48:39.620 Condemnation is just an ugly stepsister of shame. Same thing. 744 00:48:44.580 --> 00:48:48.180 Maybe I should say an ugly stepbrother. Gentlemen, we'll let you in on that. 745 00:48:49.140 --> 00:48:51.940 Why can only women be ugly? Men are certainly very ugly as well. 746 00:48:55.540 --> 00:49:01.220 And when I say ugly, I mean inside. You guys, tell me in the comments if you think I should 747 00:49:01.220 --> 00:49:09.140 do this or not, but, and gentlemen, please weigh in, but there is no condemnation to those who are 748 00:49:09.220 --> 00:49:13.220 You guys, tell me in the comments if you think I should do this or not, 749 00:49:13.220 --> 00:49:22.580 but, and gentlemen, please weigh in, but there's a lot of men acting badly on my Instagram and they 750 00:49:22.580 --> 00:49:27.860 comment the most atrocious things. And I don't know if you guys remember this Jimmy Kimball 751 00:49:27.860 --> 00:49:33.780 skit from years ago where he had celebrities read mean tweets about themselves. I was thinking about 752 00:49:33.780 --> 00:49:39.620 just doing, you know, reading mean comments from men on a reel on my Instagram. And I don't want 753 00:49:39.620 --> 00:49:44.100 to offend men. I'm not trying to say all men are like this, but I am kind of putting on a warning 754 00:49:44.100 --> 00:49:49.940 like, hey, stay away from men like this. But also I think that good men are not threatened by bad 755 00:49:49.940 --> 00:49:54.420 men. I think that good men should actually be even more angry that men are acting like this. 756 00:49:54.420 --> 00:49:58.580 What do you guys think? Gentlemen, especially you guys, please put in the comments. And of course, 757 00:49:58.580 --> 00:49:59.700 it's not going to be super serious. 758 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.360 I'm going to make it funny, but gentlemen, 759 00:50:05.120 --> 00:50:08.720 how do you feel about your counterparts acting? I mean, you guys, 760 00:50:08.760 --> 00:50:11.320 these comments are crazy 761 00:50:13.800 --> 00:50:16.520 and I would do it for women too, if I had crazy comments for women, 762 00:50:16.520 --> 00:50:18.680 but I don't, I have some religious comments from women, 763 00:50:18.680 --> 00:50:20.200 but not any crazy ones. 764 00:50:22.760 --> 00:50:25.040 Brandon's like, you're just going to attract more bad men. 765 00:50:25.360 --> 00:50:26.200 Yeah. 766 00:50:27.440 --> 00:50:28.240 But I think even, 767 00:50:28.240 --> 00:50:32.640 I think good men should be even more mad about this than women should be. 768 00:50:33.800 --> 00:50:36.360 I mean, in my opinion, I'm not a man, so I don't know. 769 00:50:37.800 --> 00:50:39.320 All right, I'm going to read the comments in a second. 770 00:50:40.760 --> 00:50:43.320 I want to get through this because this is important, you guys. 771 00:50:46.400 --> 00:50:48.720 So we say that that person has no shame. 772 00:50:48.720 --> 00:50:52.920 Sometimes what we're saying is that, you know, that person's bold, you know, 773 00:50:52.920 --> 00:50:55.760 they're taking up space. They're living out loud. 774 00:50:57.760 --> 00:51:00.720 They're not over explaining or pre apologizing. You guys, 775 00:51:00.720 --> 00:51:04.440 these are all signs that you're carrying shame for existing when you're 776 00:51:04.440 --> 00:51:08.840 constantly over explaining yourself or apologizing all the time. 777 00:51:09.400 --> 00:51:12.160 If you're one of those people who's constantly throughout your day, 778 00:51:12.160 --> 00:51:15.360 you're going down the aisle and you know, someone's trying to get by. 779 00:51:15.360 --> 00:51:20.040 You're like, Oh, I'm sorry. Why are you sorry? You're allowed to be here. 780 00:51:20.440 --> 00:51:23.960 You're allowed to take up space. You're not sorry. 781 00:51:24.600 --> 00:51:27.920 Stop saying you're sorry. Stop it. It's not polite. 782 00:51:29.960 --> 00:51:32.960 It's minimizing of self and women, 783 00:51:32.960 --> 00:51:37.480 especially have been taught to be as small as you can be. 784 00:51:42.120 --> 00:51:43.360 Stop saying you're sorry. 785 00:51:43.360 --> 00:51:48.360 If you bump into someone accidentally, don't say, I'm sorry. Say, 786 00:51:48.360 --> 00:51:53.360 I didn't see you there. I didn't mean to bump into you. 787 00:51:56.360 --> 00:52:00.360 I didn't mean to do that. You don't have to say I'm sorry all the time. 788 00:52:03.360 --> 00:52:08.360 Yes. Excuse me. Pardon me. 789 00:52:09.360 --> 00:52:10.800 Excuse me. Pardon me. 790 00:52:15.760 --> 00:52:20.240 I want you to take I'm sorry out of your vocabulary unless you really are sorry 791 00:52:20.240 --> 00:52:24.660 and need to be sorry. Who's going to have a hard time with this? 792 00:52:24.880 --> 00:52:28.520 Who am I talking to? That says I'm sorry. Continuously, 793 00:52:30.440 --> 00:52:33.240 always over apologizing and pre apologizing 794 00:52:33.240 --> 00:52:37.120 for all kinds of things. 795 00:52:50.160 --> 00:52:54.880 God wants us to walk in confidence. You guys in sonship. Yes, ladies, 796 00:52:54.880 --> 00:52:57.840 you too in faith, in alignment, 797 00:52:57.840 --> 00:53:02.840 not going through life cautiously and sheepishly and full of all kinds of 798 00:53:06.880 --> 00:53:09.040 self-hatred, but boldly, 799 00:53:16.320 --> 00:53:17.160 boldly. 800 00:53:20.240 --> 00:53:23.520 Oftentimes you guys, we call bold people entitled or arrogant, 801 00:53:24.520 --> 00:53:28.280 maybe shameless. Maybe we use the word shameless when the truth is that they're 802 00:53:28.280 --> 00:53:32.240 just not negotiating with their worth. A lot of these bold people, 803 00:53:32.520 --> 00:53:36.040 they just believe that they have a mission in life. 804 00:53:36.040 --> 00:53:37.280 They believe that they're, 805 00:53:37.640 --> 00:53:40.920 that they can have certain things and they're going after those things. 806 00:53:42.080 --> 00:53:45.000 Religion is one thing that will keep shame on you. 807 00:53:45.920 --> 00:53:50.000 Religion will keep shame on you because the kingdom and the kingdom, 808 00:53:50.000 --> 00:53:53.400 remember Jesus didn't come to teach about the church. When I, 809 00:53:53.440 --> 00:53:56.520 when I'm talking about the church, I'm talking about the Jews, their temple, 810 00:53:56.520 --> 00:54:00.840 their synagogues. He didn't come to teach about the law. Okay. 811 00:54:00.840 --> 00:54:04.840 So in our, in present day, the church age would kind of be the law. 812 00:54:04.840 --> 00:54:06.680 It would be the synagogues. It would be the temple. 813 00:54:06.840 --> 00:54:09.320 He had served his purpose for a certain amount of time, but you guys, 814 00:54:09.320 --> 00:54:11.160 there's new information available. 815 00:54:12.040 --> 00:54:16.880 Jesus came to talk about and preach and demonstrate the kingdom of God. 816 00:54:17.880 --> 00:54:19.960 There was a new operating system available. 817 00:54:20.800 --> 00:54:22.600 There was a lot of shame tied to the law. 818 00:54:22.600 --> 00:54:25.440 There was a lot of regret and guilt tied to the law. 819 00:54:25.720 --> 00:54:29.520 And a lot of us are still living under that in our current church systems. 820 00:54:29.520 --> 00:54:30.800 We're still living under that. 821 00:54:34.000 --> 00:54:37.520 And so if you go to church and you leave church and whatever was said there, 822 00:54:37.520 --> 00:54:41.080 you leave feeling kind of guilty and ashamed. You're in the wrong place, 823 00:54:41.080 --> 00:54:44.480 friend. You should learn. You should leave feeling free. 824 00:54:45.480 --> 00:54:49.120 You should leave feeling empowered to go and do good works, 825 00:54:49.560 --> 00:54:51.520 whether you deserve to do them or not. 826 00:54:52.840 --> 00:54:57.200 Because Jesus preached a kingdom that said, ask and seek and knock. 827 00:54:58.840 --> 00:54:59.680 Shame whispers. 828 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.000 Don't be a bother, don't bother. 829 00:55:05.000 --> 00:55:10.240 But faith tells you that God is generous. 830 00:55:10.240 --> 00:55:17.840 You're not putting God out by asking Him to bless you. 831 00:55:17.840 --> 00:55:24.000 He's not like your family that only has money to buy one kid a new pair of shoes and the 832 00:55:24.000 --> 00:55:28.120 rest of you are going to have to wear the shoes from last year's school year. 833 00:55:28.120 --> 00:55:32.040 It's not your turn for a new pair of shoes, it's your sister Sally's turn for a new pair 834 00:55:32.040 --> 00:55:33.040 of shoes. 835 00:55:33.040 --> 00:55:37.920 You guys, that's not our Father in heaven. 836 00:55:37.920 --> 00:55:42.640 There's an endless amount of resources. 837 00:55:42.640 --> 00:55:47.800 Everyone gets a new pair of shoes. 838 00:55:47.800 --> 00:55:54.760 And I've always said that if God was a woman, He would not be wearing sensible shoes. 839 00:55:54.760 --> 00:55:59.880 He would not be wearing sensible shoes. 840 00:55:59.880 --> 00:56:01.600 He'd be wearing extravagant shoes. 841 00:56:01.600 --> 00:56:02.720 God's extravagant, you guys. 842 00:56:02.720 --> 00:56:06.000 All you have to do to understand that is look at nature. 843 00:56:06.000 --> 00:56:13.600 God is extravagant, is He not? 844 00:56:13.600 --> 00:56:14.600 He's extravagant. 845 00:56:14.600 --> 00:56:17.640 All right, let's do an activation. 846 00:56:17.640 --> 00:56:31.560 Put your hand on your chest, put your hand over your heart, shame, get off me. 847 00:56:31.560 --> 00:56:39.200 People have said shame on you and now we're saying shame off you. 848 00:56:39.200 --> 00:56:43.560 Shame you're not my identity. 849 00:56:43.560 --> 00:56:48.960 I do not need to punish myself. 850 00:56:48.960 --> 00:56:54.680 Jesus took my punishment for me. 851 00:56:54.680 --> 00:57:02.320 I agree with the blood of Jesus. 852 00:57:02.320 --> 00:57:16.560 I receive, as of right now, everything that God has been trying to and wants to give me. 853 00:57:16.560 --> 00:57:25.480 Friends, you don't ever have to feel worthy. 854 00:57:25.480 --> 00:57:30.320 God already said you are and He's waiting for you to agree with Him. 855 00:57:30.320 --> 00:57:32.040 It's not a feeling. 856 00:57:32.040 --> 00:57:35.680 It's a confession. 857 00:57:35.680 --> 00:57:44.480 It's a declaration. 858 00:57:44.480 --> 00:57:46.200 It's a mindset. 859 00:57:46.200 --> 00:57:47.200 Let that sit. 860 00:57:47.200 --> 00:57:49.840 All right, so here's your homework. 861 00:57:49.840 --> 00:57:53.760 I want you to pray into this, okay? 862 00:57:53.760 --> 00:57:56.720 Because if shame is still speaking louder than the cross, you're listening to the wrong 863 00:57:56.720 --> 00:57:58.960 voice. 864 00:57:58.960 --> 00:58:05.120 And one thing we need to understand is we cannot do what we've been called to do and 865 00:58:05.120 --> 00:58:08.720 really honor the finished work of the cross in Jesus while we're partnering with shame. 866 00:58:08.720 --> 00:58:10.400 One of those things has to go. 867 00:58:10.400 --> 00:58:13.120 So here's the question that I want you to leave Supernatural Saturday with and I want 868 00:58:13.120 --> 00:58:14.640 you to pray into. 869 00:58:14.640 --> 00:58:22.200 What have I been refusing to receive because I decided I don't deserve it? 870 00:58:22.200 --> 00:58:28.400 Remember, it's an unconscious thing oftentimes. 871 00:58:28.400 --> 00:58:33.640 What's God been trying to give me that I'm not receiving because I'm operating with low-grade 872 00:58:33.640 --> 00:58:35.640 chronic shame? 873 00:58:35.640 --> 00:58:39.840 All right, y'all. 874 00:58:39.840 --> 00:58:49.520 Father God, we thank you that Jesus came and He died so that we can live shame-free. 875 00:58:49.520 --> 00:58:50.520 He took our shame. 876 00:58:50.520 --> 00:58:57.840 In fact, He said on the cross, it says that when He was on the cross, He endured. 877 00:58:57.840 --> 00:59:05.120 He endured the cross, despising the shame, which means He did not partner with it. 878 00:59:05.120 --> 00:59:06.920 He did not agree with it. 879 00:59:06.920 --> 00:59:08.400 He overcame it. 880 00:59:08.400 --> 00:59:09.400 Woo! 881 00:59:09.400 --> 00:59:11.660 Come on, Jesus. 882 00:59:11.660 --> 00:59:16.400 You endured the cross, you endured the punishment, but you did not come into agreement with the 883 00:59:16.400 --> 00:59:18.720 shame. 884 00:59:18.720 --> 00:59:20.100 You despised it. 885 00:59:20.100 --> 00:59:23.600 You did not partner with it. 886 00:59:23.600 --> 00:59:26.760 You did not partner with it. 887 00:59:26.760 --> 00:59:28.840 Thank you, Jesus. 888 00:59:28.840 --> 00:59:31.920 And we are not called to partner with it either. 889 00:59:31.920 --> 00:59:35.680 You guys, a death on a cross was a shameful death. 890 00:59:35.680 --> 00:59:40.440 Jesus endured it for our sake, but He did not accept the shame of it. 891 00:59:40.440 --> 00:59:43.600 Do you understand what that scripture says? 892 00:59:43.600 --> 00:59:46.080 You want to know why He didn't accept the shame? 893 00:59:46.080 --> 00:59:54.720 Because He's Jesus, and He died for you and also as you, so guess who else is not supposed 894 00:59:54.720 --> 00:59:57.280 to be accepting shame? 895 00:59:57.280 --> 00:59:58.280 You. 896 00:59:58.280 --> 00:59:59.280 Lil' Ol' You. 897 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.480 I love y'all. 898 01:00:03.480 --> 01:00:04.480 Go in peace. 899 01:00:04.480 --> 01:00:05.480 Shalom, shalom. 900 01:00:05.480 --> 01:00:06.640 Answer the question. 901 01:00:06.640 --> 01:00:07.640 Pray into it. 902 01:00:07.640 --> 01:00:08.640 There's freedom available. 903 01:00:08.640 --> 01:00:09.280 I'll see you soon.