Welcome to Supernatural Saturday.
If it's your first Saturday with us, welcome.
We're so glad you're here.
This is the session every week where we lean into heaven.
What is God saying?
What is on his heart for his people, his children, and what is the current prophetic reality?
So we have a good time, lots of revelation, lots of activation on Saturdays.
I am currently in Austin, Texas, where the whole city is shut down because it's going
to get a little cold, right?
It's going to get below 32 degrees and it's raining, which means there might be a little
ice.
And people, I'm telling you, the grocery stores are cleaned out.
It looks like COVID, right?
There's no toilet paper.
There's no meat.
There's no bananas.
Why?
What are people doing with these bananas?
I want to know what's going on.
There's no bananas in the entire city.
I want to know why bananas, why?
Why are people stockpiling bananas?
What's happening?
And you guys, the hilariousness of this is that it's one day and then the next day it's
going to be 55 degrees.
You know what doesn't survive in 55 degrees?
Snow, ice.
Coming from the Midwest where this is called Thursday, I'm just really confused as to what's
going on here.
So we all get a snow day, I guess.
And because everything was going to be closed, we were forced to go out and, you know, make
sure that we have enough food.
And so that's what's up.
All right.
You guys, we're going to have fun today on Supernatural Saturday.
Now I want to be sensitive to the fact that there's some more scandals, some more church
scandals that are hitting the news and the media right now.
Guys, we've had so many.
We've had so many.
It started all the way back.
Remember Hillsong, Australia-based church and big church, mega church, and obviously
there's some Hillsong branches here in the States.
But they had that big scandal.
They made huge documentaries about, you know, I think the pastor's name is Brian something.
You know, they made a huge documentary about that and about all of the scandals with that
whole organization.
And a lot of good music comes out of that church, Hillsong music.
And so a lot of people were shook with that.
And then it just keeps going, right?
Because you know why it's going to keep going?
Because we are in a season, we're in an era, okay?
And I believe we started in this era in 2010.
God spoke to me at the beginning of the year in 2010 and told me that the shaking was beginning.
And I'm like, well, what does that mean?
And he said, it means that everything that's out of alignment is going to start to shake.
All the industries, all the spheres of influence, it's going to start shaking.
Why?
Because the rest of the scripture says, so that what cannot be shaken has room to remain.
It's a good news, friends, not bad news.
It's not doomsday.
It's God putting things into alignment.
And honestly, in a lot of ways, friends, what it is, is it's God hearing the cries of the
victims out there.
The ones that we don't know about.
It's him hearing their cries and it's him bringing them justice.
That's really what's happening.
And so what did we start seeing starting in 2010?
We saw governments toppling.
We saw all kinds of industries in this country starting to fall apart.
We saw the healthcare industry starting to fall apart.
We saw a lot of economic industries starting to fall apart.
We saw Hollywood, remember, Hollywood started falling apart.
Remember the Me Too movement?
Remember all that?
There was a reckoning.
There's a reckoning, friends.
There's a reckoning and it's okay.
For those of you that get afraid when you see these things, you shouldn't be afraid
when you see these things because Jesus said, when you see these things, just know that
we're in the end days.
We're in the end days.
How long do the end days last?
Well, I don't know.
They've definitely been lasting for a long time.
The signs that Jesus talked about with his disciples, they were like, how will we know?
Well, obviously they're not going to know because they're not going to be alive on earth
anymore.
But he said for the purpose, in my opinion, for perpetuity that all of us coming after
would see his words.
He said, this is what will be a sign.
that the end of the age has come.
And there's a whole list of things.
And friends, that list has been accurate
of our society for generations.
Wars and rumors of wars
and children being disobedient to parents
and scoffers and rebukers and all the things, friends.
It's definitely been true for many, many, many,
many, many, many, many, many, many, many, many decades.
And so that being said,
this is just more of that.
But the good news is that in the shaking,
the people that have built their house
on the solid rock, friends,
those of you that have founded your lives on Jesus
and on his words and on his grace and on his mercy
and on his power, the power of the Holy Spirit.
Yeah, we're gonna see the shaking.
We're gonna be in the shaking,
but we are not going to be fully shaken.
I wanna remind you that it says
that the storm beat against that house,
just like it did against the house on the sand.
It's not that there's not gonna be wind.
It's not that there's not gonna be rain.
It's not that there's not gonna be storms,
but the house doesn't fall.
That's the part of the story that you need to focus on.
So guess what?
When everyone else's house is on the sand
and it's in shambles because they've never been taught
how to build their house on the rock
and they see your house still standing
after storm, after storm, after storm, after storm,
people are gonna start getting curious
as to why your house is still up.
And so that creates an opportunity for you to do what?
To be a witness.
That creates an opportunity for you
to show people the love of God.
That creates an opportunity for you to be blessed,
to be a blessing.
Amen?
Doesn't it?
It does.
And so we're not gonna worry about this,
but Hillsong turned into IHOP, turned into Morningstar,
turned into Gateway, turned into,
the list goes on and on of,
my husband would call it Church Incorporated,
but Church Incorporated just starting to shake.
Businesses, churches that have become businesses,
but a lot of people have held Bethel Church
as kind of like the sacred Holy Grail.
Like, oh, Bethel, that's a culture of honor.
That's amazing.
It's incredible.
You know, nothing can ever touch that.
And it's being touched, y'all.
There's some stuff circulating.
There's some voices beginning to get louder and louder
saying, hey, I was victimized.
This happened to me.
Nobody did anything about it.
And so I just want to tell all of you
something that I learned the hard way 20 years ago.
When my pastor went to prison, people fail.
Now, this is not an indictment against Bethel.
I actually know the leaders that are being accused
of apathy, being accused of inaction.
I know them personally.
I've been on Chris Allison's podcast.
I know him.
I consider him a friend.
And I just want to say this.
People are not perfect.
I have no idea what the truth is in this situation.
I have no idea what the truth is in the accusations.
I don't know.
But I do know that a lot of people
have felt spiritually abused in their lifetime.
Just raise your hand if you've ever felt spiritually abused,
if you've ever felt like you poured into something,
people made promises to you,
people used spiritual language to try to get you
to do something that wasn't good for you.
Whatever it is, whatever happened,
you felt ostracized, you felt rejected
by what's supposed to be the family of God,
whatever, for whatever reason,
maybe even felt spiritually abused by your own family
because they used religious language to try to control you,
to try to get you to do what they wanted you to do,
try to get you to be obedient by threatening you with God.
Raise your hand if you've ever felt
any kind of spiritual hurt
coming from people that you trusted.
It's a lot of hands up, you guys.
And tomorrow night, just to remind-
to you is our last Sunday of the month. Can you believe it? January is already over and we're
going to be having our community night. That's a community ministry night, and we will be talking
more about spiritual abuse. I was going to do Supernatural Saturday on it, but I felt like
Holy Spirit was taking me in a different direction. But we will do some ministry for those of you that
have your hands up, because I believe that the Lord wants you to be fully free from this. Because
once again, I learned 20 years ago the hard way, you guys. I had a nervous breakdown.
I had a nervous breakdown. And I want to let you know that I have a book that's going to come out
sometime this year called My Pastor Went to Prison, how I had to lose my religion to find my faith.
I'm writing that book, and my husband is writing a companion book to that book called Church
Incorporated. So we want to minister to people. I saw people literally lose their lives because
my pastor went to prison. I made it out. I was on leadership. I was very close to the family.
When I tell you that I was shooketh, I was shooketh to the core. But thank God my house was on the
rock. Friends, I want to tell you that I don't even know if we know our houses are on the rock
until the storm comes. I don't even know if there's any other way to test whether or not
your house is on the rock. But what I do know is that I'm still standing.
There were some things I think that needed to be rebuilt. There were probably some parts of
my house that were on sinking sand. Because when we put people on pedestals, friends,
we're setting them up. We're setting them up for failure. We're setting them up for a fall.
And with the fall, we will fall too. Understand? So people do not belong on pedestals.
Remember, God is always the source. He's the head of the human resource department,
and he will send human resources for seasons, for reasons, sometimes for life.
Not very often. You're going to have very few lifers, very few witnesses to your life.
Your spouse will be one of those people, and hopefully you'll die a day apart from each other.
Wouldn't that be beautiful? But even losing them is a very huge probability, not just a possibility.
The one constant that we have is God. And we experience God through people. So this is where
the rub comes in. We experience God through people. Yes, we experience God in our prayer
time. We experience his presence. We experience him through worship. Yes, we do experience him
supernaturally, spiritually. But a lot of times we experience him through people.
He sends someone with a word. He sends someone with a comforting hug. He sends someone with
encouragement or help. We experience him through people, right? And so we need to have people.
You know what happens when you've been spiritually abused or you have felt spiritually rejected or
hurt? You will pull away from that. And it is a lifeline. And that is what the enemy wants you to
do. And so we will talk more about that tomorrow, about coming back into community or common unity
with the people of faith. You have to trust again, but you don't have to trust people.
You have to trust God. And when you trust God, God will put you in a place where you can trust people.
We don't worship people. People fail.
We don't give people blind trust just because they have the word pastor before their name.
We are discerning and we allow God to give us the right amount of trust that's appropriate for the situation. Amen.
Amen. Amen. Amen. Amen. So we'll talk more about that tomorrow night in ministry for those of you
that are hurting with that. Remember, you guys, people have agendas. And so there's all kinds
of people talking about this Bethel thing right now. Like I said, Bethel is the church that's being focused on right now. I will tell you one thing that I learned when my pastor went to prison, that just because someone does something wrong, doesn't mean that you forget everything that they did right.
People fail. People miss the mark. Once again, I don't know what's true in this situation. I'm not privy to it. So I have no idea. But I have learned to take everything that I've learned and I'm not privy to it.
But I have learned to take everything with a grain of salt. I have learned to take everything
into consideration. I have learned to live a non-judgmental life because I
know the word declares that I will be judged by the same measure I judge others.
And so
But it's important because I'm not part of it
and I don't know the truth.
And the truth is oftentimes in people's memories,
very relative, and as they recount what has happened,
because you remember, we see through filters
and blind spots and lenses that are oftentimes dirty.
And so it's important to take all that into consideration.
There's always a why behind the what.
And I do know that showing up with mercy and grace
is always the right response.
So that's what I have to say about that.
So if you are hurting, I promise you,
we will do more ministry tomorrow night.
All right, but tonight, today,
I wanna talk about something super fun,
and that's shame.
Doesn't that sound fun?
This is what was on my heart.
This is what I felt like God wanted us to go after.
Because you guys, I don't know if you noticed,
but since this year started, we've been building,
we've been going somewhere.
We got some incredible words at the end of last year
about the siege being over,
about it being a season
where we don't have to make do anymore,
that there's going to be an abundance, a free flow,
that hose is unkinked.
And we've started seeing breakthroughs.
A lot of people have testimonies
of long-awaited prayers being answered,
including myself with my homeless brother,
and other things that have happened,
and just so excited about those testimonies.
And then it being a season of firsts.
And you guys know that I didn't even tell
one of my closest friends that word,
the season of firsts word that God gave me.
And in my birthday card on January 16th,
or I think it was like the 13th that I had dinner with her,
she wrote that she felt like this year
was gonna be a season of first fruits for me.
She totally confirmed that word.
And that's not just a Jackie word,
that's an all of us word.
So you guys, the season of firsts.
And remember, you have to activate that.
You can do that by just doing some silly things
that you've never done before.
Just go out and, you know,
go someplace you've never gone before,
do something you've never done before,
just by, that's a way of just activating and believing,
saying, hey God, I believe you,
that this is a season of first times.
And good, good first times, not bad first times.
And so exciting stuff.
Exciting, exciting, exciting, exciting.
So as we move forward into this word,
I just wanna let you know that God's building.
Oh, and then last week, last week was powerful.
If you didn't hear it, you guys,
there's been a lot of really powerful
supernatural Saturdays.
Remember Kizazad?
Is someone trying to Kizazad you?
The story of the prodigal son?
If you didn't hear that supernatural Saturday,
you definitely need to go find that one,
because that one's really, really powerful.
So I'm just remembering all the different ones
that have happened,
and Holy Spirit has just been pouring out upon us,
pouring out upon us.
And so last week was really powerful,
because it was about how our gifts have been overextended
and they've become weakness,
but how God wants to, and this is the year
that he is going to make them gifts again.
Like they're going to be gifts in our lives
and not liabilities any longer.
So if you haven't heard that one,
please go listen to that as well.
So building on that, what we have to get rid of,
or what we have to allow to be removed from our lives
is shame.
I know you've heard this saying,
but I'm going to go ahead and say it now.
Guilt tells you that you've done something wrong.
You know, you feel guilty when you've made a mistake,
you sinned, you've done something wrong,
but shame tells you that you are wrong.
Guilt tells you that you've done something bad
and shame tells you that you are bad.
Those are very different things.
And what I know about shame,
because I carried shame all of my life.
I carried shame all of my life,
because when I came into this world,
I was born into a very broken place
with broken people doing very broken things.
And when those things were done to me,
specifically being sexually abused
by the time I was two or three years old
and going forward for almost a decade of my life,
I was always carrying shame.
I was always carrying, you know, I'm bad, I'm bad.
And you know what you do when you think you're bad?
You do bad things.
So that's what happens.
You get in trouble.
I was always in trouble as a child.
I was always up to something.
I was always doing something
that I wasn't supposed to be doing.
I was lying, I was manipulating, I was mischievous.
I was rebellious.
I obviously didn't trust any adults.
I mean, why would I?
I was being raised in an environment
where adults were not trustworthy
and that they were dangerous and unsafe people.
And basically from a very young age,
I realized that nobody was driving the bus.
And so what happens then is that you become very independent.
You become very self-sufficient.
You don't ask anyone for anything.
And deep down inside, you don't think
you deserve anything anyway. Anyone else relate to any of that? So I know all about shame.
And shame will definitely lead you down some very dark alleys, doing some things that cause
more shame. The one thing that I learned about shame after I became a believer is that shame
likes to reproduce itself. So we have shame because of whatever the thing is in our lives.
We're carrying shame. We feel like we're bad. We feel like we're damaged. We feel like we're
disqualified, unredeemable. And it's funny because you can think the opposite about everybody else.
You can think that they're qualified, they're loved, they're redeemed. You can even be a
minister and hold high levels of shame. You believe the finished work of the cross works,
it just doesn't work for you. And it's unconscious. It's not like a conscious thought always, right?
So we're carrying these levels of shame and they like to reproduce themselves. So shame
reproduces itself over and over and over and over again. So if you have it, it likes to like draw
in more of itself. So if you're operating in shame, oftentimes you'll end up doing things
that you're ashamed of. And that's where we have to break out of that. So today's Supernatural
Saturday is just about that very thing. How shame is a thief. God really put this on my
heart because I was watching someone who was living in regret. And you guys, regret's not
necessarily a terrible emotion, but if you stay there, if you stay in regret, oftentimes it is
going to turn to shame. It's good to see that, hey, this wasn't my best decision. It's good to
be able to be self-aware that way. It's good to know that, hey, I could have done better,
I shouldn't have done this. This didn't turn out right. I did this for the wrong reasons or the
wrong motivations. That's good. That's self-aware. And that awareness should lead to repentance,
but it doesn't lead to repentance if you don't believe God is good. I can prove that to you in
the Word of God. The Bible says it's the goodness of God that leads people to repentance. And we
all make mistakes, friends. We all sin. There's not one person on this call this morning or in
the world walking around that has not sinned and that does not on a regular basis make mistakes or
do something that I call unworthy of you. By the way, that's what I call sin, doing something
that's unworthy of who you are. Oftentimes sin is born out of fear. Fear of what? Fear that God's
not good. Fear that you have to go get it yourself if you're gonna get it. And then we go about it
in ways that cause us to feel ashamed. I wish I wouldn't have done that that way. Guys, I know
people that are still carrying their V cards, they're still virgins, okay? They're now upwards
in their 40s. They've never been married, obviously, and they've never even really been
close to being married. And they are so angry about it that in order to punish God for not
giving them what they've been praying for all their lives, they go out and punish themselves
by being promiscuous. Oh, okay, God, you're not gonna give me a husband or wife? Oh, I'm gonna
show you. I'm gonna go out and have sex with a bunch of people. How do you like that? A lot
of people do that, friends. They do very self-destructive things because they've been
waiting for such a long time because unfortunately the church age teaches you to wait, teaches you to
go sit in some dark room and hope that heaven pulls your number from the holy lottery. It's
bad teaching, you guys. And can I tell you that I think bad teaching actually leads to sin because
it gets people so frustrated and so messed up and so turned upside down. They literally think
that God's holding out on them because they're fed this steady diet of, He's almost here. It's
almost here. It's almost here. God, God, you're waiting. Don't give up. Don't give up. No,
you're not waiting on God. You're not waiting on God. Everything has been available since the
finished work of the cross. We have to take action. We have to take imperfect action. That's
not striving. I wish this theology of striving never was a thing because what it's doing is
it's keeping people from acting in faith because faith without works is dead.
Now, there are some heart motivations that come into play when we talk about this.
There are people who are desperate.
There are people who have idolized something as the magic bullet of happiness, and they're
striving continually to get it, and they get themselves in bad places.
Let's just take this area, love life.
They're looking for love in all the wrong places because they just want it at any cost.
That's what we do in the first phase of Last Year Single.
We help get that out of you.
When you come in here, we help put you back into alignment with the understanding that
you've been created to have this desire.
That's why you have it.
It's not a bad thing.
It's nothing to be ashamed of.
You don't have to strive.
You don't have to try to make it happen yourself.
You do have to participate in your love story.
But oftentimes, people are doing one or the other.
They're either going full throttle, 100 miles an hour down a dead-end road because their
heart is super codependent and just looking, looking, looking for anyone who will take
them in, or they're on the whole other side of the spectrum where they're just sitting
in the dark waiting room, just waiting sorrowfully, not understanding why this is happening for
everyone else but them because they've been faithful and they love God and they're a good
person and they've done everything right, everything the way that they're supposed to
do it, and they haven't tried to make it happen themselves, and yet it's still not happening.
And then everybody else is in the middle somewhere.
Those are the two spectrums, and then everyone else is in the middle somewhere.
No, you guys.
These theologies are theologies of man.
They're not theologies of God.
They're not biblical.
The waiting theology was taken from one scripture in the Bible out of context.
It's not a thing.
You have a very limited amount of time on earth, and I know today's Supernatural Saturday
is about shame, but I'm just going to follow the Holy Spirit, and this is where he's going.
You have a very limited amount of time on earth.
Most people are only going to live 4,000 weeks.
Please take that in.
Somewhere around 4,000 weeks.
That's about 80 years old, in case you're trying to do the math.
That's it.
Somewhere around there.
The human lifespan, somewhere around there.
Some less, some a little more.
Some people make it all the way up to 100, whatever, they're the anomaly, but you understand
what I'm saying.
You have a limited amount of time on earth.
God isn't going to sit you for decades and decades and decades in some waiting room.
This is your only earth experience, and the things we're talking about today, right now,
specifically marriage, relationship, it's only for earth.
And you know what it's for?
It's to help you to understand the love of God.
You know what you will not need help understanding in heaven?
The love of God.
It is to refine you.
I call it God's maturity plan for mankind.
If marriage is doing what it's supposed to be doing, it will make you a better person.
It will make you more patient.
It will make you more kind, loving, caring, selfless, right?
It'll teach you how to partner.
It'll teach you how to play well with others.
That's why it really just gets on my nerves that people put such an emphasis on sexual
attraction when it comes to getting married.
Yeah, sex is good friends, but sex is the purpose of sex is to cause there to be a deeper
intimacy with you and the person that you have partnered with.
That's the whole purpose of it.
And of course, babies, it creates a deeper intimacy.
It's not the first thing.
It's not the main thing.
It's actually a tool for all the main things to get better.
We're not going to get into that.
All right, so shame is a thief, you guys.
It's a thief.
What's it stealing?
It's stealing a lot of stuff.
It's stealing your voice.
A lot of times, I see it steal people's boldness,
and I don't mean boldness with humans,
I mean boldness with God.
Because once again,
the thing that brings people to repentance
is the goodness of God.
They believe that God is good,
and that is why they come to Him in repentance.
They realize they've been on their own road,
doing their own thing,
and they want to turn around,
they want to do things God's way,
because they know that He's a good Father.
But shame will keep you hiding from God,
and we're gonna visit that in a second.
We'll visit it from the very beginning,
because shame entered the earth.
The ability to feel ashamed entered the earth
with original sins, so we'll look at that.
So it might steal your voice,
your voice meaning speaking up for yourself,
using your voice, using your gifts, your talents,
that's what I mean when I say voice.
It might steal your boldness,
your boldness specifically with God,
and it might steal some of your blessings too,
because God is always blessing us.
One thing that I know about the Father
is He's always blessing us,
and so if you do not feel blessed,
if you feel like it's been a long time
since you've been blessed,
you're probably dealing with some kind of
inability to receive.
Guys, this is all food for thought.
I know Supernatural Saturdays are a lot,
a lot to take in.
But first and foremost, we just have to remember,
and this is the one thing that I want you
to really, really take in right now.
Go ahead and close your eyes
if that's what helps you really listen and focus.
Shame is not an emotion.
I was, I think I went on a rabbit trail,
but I was talking about how I see a lot of people,
they're choosing regret and shame
over God's bigger picture.
God's bigger plan.
You guys, for every mistake that you have made in your life,
any mistake, it doesn't matter how recent it is,
God has a bigger plan.
When we release those mistakes in repentance,
we get to be part of the bigger plan.
God will use it to your good.
Romans 8, 28 is a real thing.
It's a real thing.
But when we hold on to regret,
when we hold on to guilt and we let it turn into shame,
that is blocking God's plan.
It's not that he doesn't want to, Romans 8, 28, you,
it's that you're not allowing him to.
You're not.
So close your eyes.
Shame is not an emotion.
It's a strategy.
A strategy of the kingdom of darkness
from the very beginning
to keep us from doing and being
what God created us to do and be.
It's not an emotion, you guys.
It's not an emotion.
Not like happiness or peace or joy.
Shame is a strategy.
It's a demonic strategy.
And it doesn't just make you feel bad.
It does make you feel bad,
but it also makes you feel small.
It makes you quiet.
It makes you hesitant.
It makes you ashamed to ask or receive anything from God.
It makes you ashamed to hope.
These are things,
if you're carrying shame around with you,
you're not going to ask.
You're not going to ask for help.
You're not going to receive
because you don't think you deserve it.
You're not going to hope
that things are going to get better.
That's why it's a strategy of the devil.
Think about it.
The devil doesn't have to come after you.
The kingdom of darkness doesn't have to come after you
and try to destroy you
because you're just going to destroy yourself.
You're just going to self-limit.
The prison door is open,
but you're just going to sit in the cell
because that's what shame tells you to do.
It's been unlocked since the finished work of the cross.
The door is open.
But when we have shame, we will self-punish.
Does that make sense?
And you'll see it in your decisions,
the people that you choose to be around,
the things that you put up with,
the things that you eat and put in your body.
Yes, friends, that's not fat
that you're carrying around with you.
That's not fat that you're carrying around.
That's shame.
You're continually punishing yourself.
You're doing bad things to yourself.
You're killing yourself slowly.
By the people that you date,
by the relationships you entertain,
by the friends that you have.
You want to have a shame indicator.
Do you have friends that are users?
Are you surrounded by takers?
You're the only giver in the group?
That's shame.
That's you trying to prove that you're a good person.
Well, I'm just so loyal.
No, you're shamed.
Well, I'm just so.
Jackie, you don't understand. No. You don't love yourself. I hope this is
hidden for someone. God wants to break you out of this. Prison door is open and
this really matters. Let's look at Genesis. Before the fall, before original
sin, before the eating of the fruit, before the whole debacle, you see that
they were naked and unashamed. They were free, you guys. They had no burden of
guilt upon them. They had, you know, they were the, you know, the eternal sunshine
of the spotless mind. They were fully seen. They were fully provided for by God.
They were in full connection with Father, Son, and Holy Spirit in the garden,
walking with God and talking with God. Can you even imagine? But then after sin,
their eyes are opened, right? That's what the Bible says, but not in a good way.
This is why God didn't even want them to eat from that tree, you guys, because he
did not want them to experience this.
Shame entered, and what happens then? Hiding begins, doesn't it? Immediately
when shame enters, people begin to hide, don't they? They begin to hide. So sin did not
cause God to withdraw. God was still, he met them. He still came like, hey, let's
have our evening stroll, right? Sin didn't cause God to withdraw from them. Shame
caused them to withdraw from God. It caused them to hide.
Caused them to hide, you guys. And this really matters, and the reason why it matters is
because God came looking for them. He came looking for them, and he's looking for you
right now, but shame convinces us to run and hide. Convinces us that we're not worthy of
God looking for us. It convinces us that what we've done is unredeemable or what's
been done to us. A lot of us are carrying secondhand shame because of something that
someone else has done to us that now has become our identity. When we're in relationship
with the abusers, users, losers, beaters, cheaters, a lot of times we take on the identity
of the lied to, the cheated on, the abused. We take on the identity of that. And so it's
their shame, but now we've taken it on.
It's really important, you guys. This is why a lot of people will cut and run from a potential
relationship because they're carrying shame that won't allow them to go any deeper and
let anyone actually really see them because you're convinced that if they really see you,
they're not going to like you. And that might really be an unconscious thought, not something
that you consciously think, but it's there. It's there. A lot of people are carrying shame
around like a low-level fever, like a low-grade fever. You don't really know what's wrong.
You just know that you're tired, right? When we have a high fever, a lot of times we are,
if it's acute, it's dramatic, right? But a low-grade fever, it's not acute, it's not dramatic.
We're not having a full breakdown. Low-grade fevers don't usually send us to the ER,
but they just slowly drain our strength, don't they? Slowly drain our strength.
And friends, for those of you that have a high-grade fever, like you're dealing with
not low-grade shame, you're dealing with high-grade shame, you usually look for medication.
So you're always doing something to try to medicate it instead of allowing it to just be taken away.
But let's talk about that low-grade shame, because I think that more people have that
than anything else. And what happens with that is we just adapt to it. We learn to live with it.
Remember, it's not sending us to the ER. We're not having a nervous breakdown. We're not in
the psychiatrist's office, but we're constantly living with self-doubt. We're muting our desires.
We're just convincing ourselves that we don't deserve to want those things, so we don't want
them, or at least we don't go after them. We might have those desires, but we don't go after those
desires. We lower our expectations, for sure. Anytime there is an opportunity or an open door,
we hesitate. Instead of running through it, we hesitate. We become indecisive,
because we have a difficult time receiving love, money, favor.
Rest.
Come on.
I want to see it in the chat right now.
Am I talking to you?
You're like, man, I didn't know it was shame.
Jackie, you're diagnosing me right now, but I do have a difficult time receiving love,
favor, rest, opportunities.
If something comes, I always think that it's too good to be true.
I don't act upon it immediately because I'm afraid of being disappointed.
Guys, when we have this chronic shame, we don't necessarily feel broken because we've
learned to adapt to it.
We just feel tired.
We just feel hopeless.
We feel small.
We feel a little bit behind everybody else.
We feel disconnected, and if we don't allow God to heal it, then we'll just continue to
medicate it, you guys, and what do we do?
How do we do that?
We just stay busy, so you don't have to think about it, right?
I see people nodding their heads.
You just stay busy.
Years ago, God gave me an acronym for the word busy, B-U-S-Y, and it's being under Satan's
yoke because I was always busy.
I was always busy, you guys, because I didn't want to be alone with my thoughts.
I always stayed busy so I wouldn't have to worry or think or be anxious.
I didn't know how to rest.
I didn't know how to meditate.
I didn't know how to do those things.
Busy, busy, busy.
Calendar's full.
I don't want to even take one moment to even think about what I'm thinking about, so we
medicate like that sometimes.
We overfunction.
So many of us overfunction, and we wonder why we have nervous breakdowns and physical
breakdowns, especially when we get into midlife and our hormones start going nuts.
Gentlemen, that's for you, too.
Overfunctioning, you will hit a brick wall eventually.
Perfectionism is another way we deal with shame, you guys.
If I'm perfect, then people have to accept me and they won't know just how messed up
I am.
So we go into the realm of perfectionism, trying to get everything done, doing too much
for too many people, trying to do it perfectly, trying to achieve.
Some other symptoms of low-grade chronic shame are self-deprecating talk, humor.
You have a lot of spirituality without intimacy with God.
You do all the things, but you don't really feel God's presence.
You don't feel Him close to you.
You're spiritual, but you're not intimate with God because you're not letting Him get
close.
A lot of people pride themselves, especially women, pride themselves on being low-maintenance.
Oh, I don't eat a lot.
Yeah, that's called shame.
Oh, no, no, you don't understand, Jackie.
I'm just a low-maintenance woman, no.
You don't think that you deserve a lot.
And the problem with this is that when you see other people not being low-maintenance,
you're going to start judging them.
Well, why does she have to have that car or that purse?
Or why does she have to have her hair done every month?
You know, why does it...
Because she loves herself, that's why.
She thinks that she's worth it in a lot of cases.
I mean, sometimes people are trying to compensate for shame that way with labels and expensive
things.
But a lot of people just like to treat themselves because they like themselves.
And if it's been a long time since you treated yourself because you like yourself and you
think that you're worthy of being treated well, then we need to talk about that because
that's chronic shame probably.
People that never ask for help, these are all symptoms, you guys.
These are medicators for chronic shame.
And medication is not going to cure this low-grade fever.
It's just going to keep you functional, probably enough to survive in the moment, but it's
never going to make you well enough to thrive.
Please take that in.
It might keep you functional enough to survive, but it is never going to make you well enough
to thrive.
We don't want to survive anymore.
We want to thrive, don't we?
And chronic shame is not going to ruin your life overnight.
A lot of people carry chronic shame.
But it does something even more dangerous.
It quietly makes you negotiate your destiny by settling.
Come on, y'all, take it in.
A lot of you are getting an aha moment right now.
You're like, oh my gosh, I see that.
this. I see this happening to me. Jackie, you're putting a name on it. It's shame.
That's why the scripture in the New Testament said that he would be our God and we would be
his people and we would never be ashamed again.
Shame is a choice, you guys. It's a choice. We're all going to mess up. We're all going
to make mistakes. You do not have to beat yourself up, punish yourself up chronically for that.
Jesus died for that on the cross. Repentance leads to change.
The word itself means to turn around. It leads to a turnaround. Shame doesn't.
Shame leads to you going down, negotiating your destiny downward.
You're going to settle for less than what you're capable of, less than what God created you for.
You're probably going to stay silent when you should speak up.
You might pass on opportunities, especially opportunities that require people to get to
know you and see you. Anything that requires visibility, you're going to pass on that.
Because remember, you're hiding. You're hiding in plain sight, but you're still hiding.
You're going to downplay yourself constantly.
You're going to always think that you're disqualified
instead of just giving it a shot, just trying.
And you guys, oftentimes we'll see someone living some big, bold moment.
They'll be doing something and we'll have secondhand embarrassment for them.
And I really thought about this because this is what came into my spirit. God showed me that,
like, hey, someone will be doing something super bold, super scary. They'll be asking for a favor.
They'll be asking for this or that. And we're just happening to be standing around, like,
seeing them, like they're asking for something that they're not supposed to be asking for.
They're asking for a free upgrade at the car rental company.
They're asking for a free upgrade at the car rental counter or they're doing whatever they're
doing. And oftentimes when someone's doing that or someone's wearing some bold outfit that we
think is too young for them or whatever, and we see them walking by, the thought that comes into
our minds and the thought and the saying that people say to describe that is, that person has
no shame. You guys ever thought of that? That person has no shame. Oh my gosh, that person has
no shame. As if that's a bad thing. Right? Wow. We say it like it's a sin. We say it like it's
an insult. Oh, they have no shame. What we actually mean is that they're not self-policing
themselves. They're not shrinking. They're not apologizing for existing.
Yeah, some of those people are cracked for sure, but that's not the point.
That's not the point.
Romans 8 tells us what? There is therefore now no condemnation to those who are in Christ Jesus.
Condemnation is just an ugly stepsister of shame. Same thing.
Maybe I should say an ugly stepbrother. Gentlemen, we'll let you in on that.
Why can only women be ugly? Men are certainly very ugly as well.
And when I say ugly, I mean inside. You guys, tell me in the comments if you think I should
do this or not, but, and gentlemen, please weigh in, but there's a lot of men acting badly
on my Instagram and they comment the most atrocious things. And I don't know if you
guys remember this Jimmy Kimball skit from years ago where he had celebrities read mean tweets
about themselves. I was thinking about just doing, you know, reading mean comments from men
on a reel on my Instagram. And I don't want to offend men. I'm not trying to say all men are
like this, but I am kind of putting on a warning, like, Hey, stay away from men like this. But also
I think that good men are not threatened by bad men. I think that good men should actually be
even more angry that men are acting like this. What do you guys think? Gentlemen, especially you
guys, please put it in the comments. And of course it's not going to be super serious.
I'm going to make it funny, but gentlemen,
how do you feel about your counterparts acting? I mean, you guys,
these comments are crazy
and I would do it for women too, if I had crazy comments for women,
but I don't, I have some religious comments from women,
but not any crazy ones.
Brandon's like, you're just going to attract more bad men.
Yeah.
But I think even,
I think good men should be even more mad about this than women should be.
I mean, in my opinion, I'm not a man, so I don't know.
All right, I'm going to read the comments in a second.
I want to get through this because this is important, you guys.
So we say that that person has no shame.
Sometimes what we're saying is that, you know, that person's bold, you know,
they're taking up space. They're living out loud.
They're not over explaining or pre apologizing. You guys,
these are all signs that you're carrying shame for existing when you're
constantly over explaining yourself or apologizing all the time.
If you're one of those people who's constantly throughout your day,
you're going down the aisle and you know, someone's trying to get by and you're
like, Oh, I'm sorry. Why are you sorry? You're allowed to be here.
You're allowed to take up space. You're not sorry.
Stop saying you're sorry. Stop it. It's not polite.
It's minimizing of self and women,
especially have been taught to be as small as you can be.
Stop saying you're sorry.
If you bump into someone accidentally, don't say, I'm sorry. Say,
I didn't see you there. I didn't mean to bump into you.
I didn't mean to do that. You don't have to say I'm sorry all the time.
Yes. Excuse me. Pardon me.
I want you to take I'm sorry out of your vocabulary unless you really are
sorry and need to be sorry.
Who's going to have a hard time with this?
Who am I talking to that says I'm sorry continuously?
Always over apologizing and pre apologizing for all kinds of things.
God wants us to walk in confidence. You guys in sonship. Yes, ladies,
you too in faith in alignment.
God wants us to walk in confidence.
You want to walk in trust in God.
Yes, ladies, you too in faith in alignment,
not going through life cautiously and sheepishly and full of all kinds of
self-hatred, but boldly,
boldly.
Oftentimes you guys, we call bold people entitled or arrogant,
maybe shameless. Maybe we use the word shameless.
When the truth is that they're just not negotiating with their worth.
A lot of these bold people,
they just believe that they have a mission in life.
They believe that they're,
that they can have certain things and they're going after those things.
Religion is one thing that will keep shame on you.
Religion will keep shame on you because the kingdom and the kingdom,
remember Jesus didn't come to teach about the church.
When I, when I'm talking about the church, I'm talking about the Jews,
their temple, their synagogues. He didn't come to teach about the law.
Okay. So in our, in present day,
the church age would kind of be the law would be the synagogues.
It would be the temple.
He had served his purpose for a certain amount of time, but you guys,
there's new information available.
Jesus came to talk about and preach and demonstrate the kingdom of God.
There was a new operating system available.
There was a lot of shame tied to the law.
There was a lot of regret and guilt tied to the law.
And a lot of us are still living under that in our current church systems.
We're still living under that.
And so if you go to church and you leave church and whatever was said there,
you leave fear.
And so if you go to church and you leave church and whatever was said there,
you leave feeling kind of guilty and ashamed.
You're in the wrong place, friend.
You should learn. You should leave feeling free.
You should leave feeling empowered to go and do good works,
whether you deserve to do them or not.
Because Jesus preached a kingdom that said, ask and seek and knock.
Shame whispers.
Don't be a bother, don't bother.
But faith tells you that God is generous.
You're not putting God out by asking Him to bless you.
He's not like your family that only has money to buy one kid a new pair of shoes and the
rest of you are going to have to wear the shoes from last year's school year.
It's not your turn for a new pair of shoes, it's your sister Sally's turn for a new pair
of shoes.
You guys, that's not our Father in heaven.
There's an endless amount of resources.
Everyone gets a new pair of shoes.
And I've always said that if God was a woman, He would not be wearing sensible shoes.
He would not be wearing sensible shoes.
He'd be wearing extravagant shoes.
God's extravagant, you guys.
All you have to do to understand that is look at nature.
God is extravagant, is He not?
He's extravagant.
All right, let's do an activation.
Put your hand on your chest, put your hand over your heart, shame, get off me.
People have said shame on you and now we're saying shame off you.
Shame you're not my identity.
I do not need to punish myself.
Jesus took my punishment for me.
I agree with the blood of Jesus.
I receive, as of right now, everything that God has been trying to and wants to give me.
Friends, you don't ever have to feel worthy.
God already said you are and He's waiting for you to agree with Him.
It's not a feeling.
It's a confession.
It's a declaration.
It's a mindset.
Let that sit.
All right, so here's your homework.
I want you to pray into this, okay?
Because if shame is still speaking louder than the cross, you're listening to the wrong
voice.
And one thing we need to understand is we cannot do what we've been called to do and
really honor the finished work of the cross in Jesus while we're partnering with shame.
One of those things has to go.
So here's the question that I want you to leave Supernatural Saturday with and I want
you to pray into.
What have I been refusing to receive because I decided I don't deserve it?
Remember, it's an unconscious thing oftentimes.
What's God been trying to give me that I'm not receiving because I'm operating with low-grade
chronic shame?
All right, y'all.
Father God, we thank you that Jesus came and He died so that we can live shame-free.
He took our shame.
In fact, He said on the cross, it says that when He was on the cross, He endured.
He endured the cross, despising the shame, which means He did not partner with it.
He did not agree with it.
He overcame it.
Woo!
Come on, Jesus.
You endured the cross, you endured the punishment, but you did not come into agreement with the
shame.
You despised it.
You did not partner with it.
Thank you, Jesus.
And we are not called to partner with it either.
You guys, a death on a cross was a shameful death.
Jesus endured it for our sake, but He did not accept the shame of it.
Do you understand what that scripture says?
You want to know why He didn't accept the shame?
Because He's Jesus, and He died for you and also as you, so guess who else is not supposed
to be accepting shame?
You.
Lil' Ol' You.
I love y'all.
Go in peace.
Shalom, shalom.
Answer the question.
Pray into it.
There's freedom available.
I'll see you soon.