WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:11.960 Hello. Good evening, everyone. Welcome to our evening session of HeartWork for this 2 00:00:11.960 --> 00:00:19.280 week. So glad to have you all joining us tonight. I see some of y'all already on screen. Hello. 3 00:00:19.280 --> 00:00:23.880 Hello. If you can come on screen, we'd love to see you. If you're new and you're joining 4 00:00:23.880 --> 00:00:28.020 us for the first time tonight, as in you've just joined the community, you've never been 5 00:00:28.020 --> 00:00:32.980 on a live session with us before, say hi to us. Let us know you're new so we can welcome 6 00:00:32.980 --> 00:00:38.660 you not only into the session tonight, but into the community. And we want to know who 7 00:00:38.660 --> 00:00:44.480 you are. For those of you rejoining us, coming back, it's great to have you with us tonight. 8 00:00:44.480 --> 00:00:48.620 My name is Bethany Cooper. I'm one of the master HeartWork coaches here in the community. 9 00:00:48.620 --> 00:00:54.940 And one of the success stories of the community, God's been doing a lot in my life in the last 10 00:00:54.940 --> 00:01:00.700 five and a half years. I can't believe it. Almost. Is that right? Something like that. 11 00:01:00.700 --> 00:01:05.980 But we're glad that you're here. And we want to hear from you not only tonight, but also 12 00:01:05.980 --> 00:01:11.620 in the group. I know we talked a few months ago about moving us over to the Facebook group. 13 00:01:11.620 --> 00:01:15.420 We are going to start moving on that a little more quickly in the next few weeks, you all. 14 00:01:15.420 --> 00:01:22.980 So we're just really looking forward to having it feel a little bit easier for y'all to communicate 15 00:01:22.980 --> 00:01:29.860 and catch up and see our responses, us see your responses, all of the things. So be looking 16 00:01:29.860 --> 00:01:35.180 forward to that. Don't worry about asking about it. As soon as it's ready to go, you 17 00:01:35.180 --> 00:01:40.260 guys are going to know it's ready. So just wait for us to announce it. And then we'll 18 00:01:40.260 --> 00:01:44.500 let you know how to get over there. And we'll put a link in the resources tab here. So it 19 00:01:44.500 --> 00:01:50.540 should be super easy for you to find it. But looking forward to that coming here in the 20 00:01:50.540 --> 00:01:55.220 next few weeks. So why do we encourage you to post in this group? Why do we encourage 21 00:01:55.220 --> 00:02:00.380 you to come on camera? Well, we believe hurt in community, healed in community, hurt in 22 00:02:00.380 --> 00:02:05.660 relationship, healed in relationship, part of the goal of the heartwork process. Obviously, 23 00:02:05.660 --> 00:02:10.580 there's a lot to it. But one of the things that we really want to help you do is come 24 00:02:10.580 --> 00:02:16.340 out of hiding, allow yourself to be seen, known and loved, heard, know that your voice 25 00:02:17.340 --> 00:02:23.580 you know, long time ago, you might be surprised what's still underneath the surface that has 26 00:02:23.580 --> 00:02:28.340 in many different ways caused you to back off from feeling like you have something valid 27 00:02:28.340 --> 00:02:34.580 to say or that what is on your heart actually matters. So that can show up in lots and lots 28 00:02:34.580 --> 00:02:41.220 of ways. One of the things that I often see in people that are really struggling with 29 00:02:41.220 --> 00:02:47.620 isolation or withdraws that they don't ever come on camera. I had a lady say to us, to me 30 00:02:47.620 --> 00:02:51.700 in our church not that long ago, we were at an event and she had sat all the way in the 31 00:02:51.700 --> 00:02:55.620 back and we had these round tables set up in the front where everybody was sitting for 32 00:02:55.620 --> 00:03:00.220 this class thing we were doing. And I went over and I just said, Hey, do you want to 33 00:03:00.220 --> 00:03:05.780 come join us? You know, we're all sitting up at the tables, you know, and she said, Oh, 34 00:03:05.820 --> 00:03:12.260 I'm, I'm just a wall. She actually used the verbiage. I'm a wallflower. I prefer not to 35 00:03:12.260 --> 00:03:17.100 be seen. And I said, Well, we're all sitting up at these tables. I kind of tried to encourage 36 00:03:17.100 --> 00:03:22.620 again, and she did come and but she still sat towards the back, which that's fine. It's 37 00:03:22.620 --> 00:03:28.260 not about pressuring you all. But the reason I bring that up is that, you know, I've learned 38 00:03:28.260 --> 00:03:35.300 from Jackie years ago, and I see it since I've been coaching so many times, that at 39 00:03:35.300 --> 00:03:41.860 some point, we believe the lie that we were a wallflower that we were better, you know, 40 00:03:41.860 --> 00:03:47.740 to maybe be seen but not heard. And, and so we kind of stay on the outskirts, if you will, 41 00:03:47.740 --> 00:03:52.340 we're in a community, but we don't fully engage, we don't fully connect with our other 42 00:03:52.340 --> 00:03:56.780 sisters. And we don't even sometimes take the full advantage of the things that we sign 43 00:03:56.780 --> 00:04:00.940 up for, right. And so we want to encourage you, like, don't just sit at the back of the 44 00:04:00.940 --> 00:04:06.300 room, if you will, come up and sit at the table with us. You know, when there's opportunities 45 00:04:06.300 --> 00:04:11.020 for you to get coaching in the group, you know, via text or on these live sessions, 46 00:04:11.020 --> 00:04:15.500 when I encourage you to, even when it's scary to ask the questions, because you all there 47 00:04:15.500 --> 00:04:20.940 are no dumb questions, I promise you, I promise you, every question matters. All right. 48 00:04:21.459 --> 00:04:26.340 distractions are going to come for you. Old guys are going to resurface. It's true. It 49 00:04:26.340 --> 00:04:31.660 happens all the time. Kids are going to start having problems. Some of you all I hope this 50 00:04:31.660 --> 00:04:36.980 doesn't happen to you, but you might face sickness arising. I don't know if you all 51 00:04:36.980 --> 00:04:41.020 have ever, you know, had something really important coming up. And then all of a sudden, 52 00:04:41.020 --> 00:04:44.300 you're sick out of nowhere. Well, I had that happen just this last week, we were getting 53 00:04:44.300 --> 00:04:49.100 ready. I was preaching on Sunday yesterday, my husband got really sick, I caught whatever 54 00:04:49.100 --> 00:04:53.780 he had. And so it was a ripple effect that can happen. That might happen for you in the 55 00:04:54.100 --> 00:04:59.020 I want to encourage you that even though the enemy might be trying to hinder you from healing 56 00:04:59.020 --> 00:05:00.060 in your heart and your love. 57 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:05.160 life, that you can stay focused. Don't give up. Every day, just 58 00:05:05.160 --> 00:05:08.800 take one step. That's what I try to encourage everybody. If we 59 00:05:08.800 --> 00:05:11.900 will just take that imperfect action, and I like to break it 60 00:05:11.900 --> 00:05:15.840 down into the, what can you do today to invest in your 61 00:05:15.840 --> 00:05:18.760 heartwork? Just, just one thing. If you can do more than one 62 00:05:18.760 --> 00:05:22.160 thing, awesome. But so many people will start to feel 63 00:05:22.160 --> 00:05:24.460 overwhelmed and then just shut down. But if we can just 64 00:05:24.460 --> 00:05:29.080 remember, God, I know that the same power that rose Jesus from 65 00:05:29.080 --> 00:05:35.200 the dead is available to me. Help me to tap into that power 66 00:05:35.560 --> 00:05:38.960 today to work on my heartwork and stay focused and not get 67 00:05:38.960 --> 00:05:41.920 distracted. So I want you all to kind of practice praying and 68 00:05:41.920 --> 00:05:45.440 inviting the Holy Spirit that is available to you to be your 69 00:05:45.440 --> 00:05:48.920 partner in this journey. He's your comforter. He's your 70 00:05:48.920 --> 00:05:52.200 counselor. He's your guide. He knows where to lead you and how 71 00:05:52.200 --> 00:05:55.840 to lead you and how quick to take you or slow to take you and 72 00:05:56.000 --> 00:05:59.720 all of the things. All right. The last housekeeping I have for 73 00:05:59.720 --> 00:06:03.960 you tonight is our Supernatural Saturday. Prophecy is a guide 74 00:06:03.960 --> 00:06:08.560 post, not a map. Wow. So many tools were given out on 75 00:06:08.560 --> 00:06:12.240 Saturday. If you didn't hear that replay, if you go into the 76 00:06:12.240 --> 00:06:16.120 Last Year Single app under the replays area, that tab there, 77 00:06:16.120 --> 00:06:19.440 you're going to find that replay. Definitely listen to it 78 00:06:19.480 --> 00:06:21.880 once, if not more than once, because there was a lot of 79 00:06:21.880 --> 00:06:25.160 things mentioned in there that are going to be really helpful 80 00:06:25.160 --> 00:06:28.640 to you, including that prophecy should line up with the Word of 81 00:06:28.640 --> 00:06:32.120 God. It should line up with what God is already saying to you. 82 00:06:32.560 --> 00:06:36.080 Just giving you a little teaser. There's a lot of goodness and 83 00:06:36.080 --> 00:06:38.800 truth packed in that. I hope you'll check it out. Let me go 84 00:06:38.800 --> 00:06:41.320 ahead and pray for us. And we're going to jump right in tonight. 85 00:06:41.640 --> 00:06:44.360 Father, thank you so much for everything that you're doing in 86 00:06:44.360 --> 00:06:47.520 our lives. God, we thank you for all of the revealings for 87 00:06:47.520 --> 00:06:49.600 healing that are going to happen. We thank you, God, that 88 00:06:49.600 --> 00:06:54.000 you can take all of the things out of darkness in our hearts 89 00:06:54.000 --> 00:06:56.880 and our lives and bring them to the surface at the appointed 90 00:06:56.880 --> 00:07:00.240 time, God, that you are the great dot connector. Nothing is 91 00:07:00.240 --> 00:07:04.320 too hard for you. God, I thank you that we won't despise the 92 00:07:04.320 --> 00:07:08.680 day of small beginnings, that we won't minimize any aspect of our 93 00:07:08.680 --> 00:07:11.480 heart work, God, that some days we're going to feel big 94 00:07:11.480 --> 00:07:14.640 breakthroughs and other days we might not, but God, it's all 95 00:07:14.840 --> 00:07:18.920 worth it. God, I thank you that in the still quiet moments that 96 00:07:18.920 --> 00:07:23.040 you would just come and minister to every wound in every area 97 00:07:23.040 --> 00:07:26.920 that has tripped them up in the past, God, that you would remove 98 00:07:26.960 --> 00:07:29.840 obstacles, God, that you would help them to hear what your 99 00:07:29.840 --> 00:07:32.960 spirit is saying louder than any voice of the enemy. Holy Spirit, 100 00:07:32.960 --> 00:07:36.320 I thank you for coming. We invite you to come and be with 101 00:07:36.320 --> 00:07:39.840 us here tonight, that you would guide our conversation and every 102 00:07:39.840 --> 00:07:43.800 aspect of the session that you would, Lord, help me to decrease 103 00:07:43.800 --> 00:07:48.240 so that you can increase and make yourself known. Lord, we 104 00:07:48.240 --> 00:07:52.680 thank you that you care about all of us and you have a divine 105 00:07:52.680 --> 00:07:55.960 plan and purpose for us. God, I pray that you would lead us all 106 00:07:56.000 --> 00:07:59.160 into the fullness of your plan for us a little bit more tonight 107 00:07:59.280 --> 00:08:04.920 in Jesus name. Amen. I'm so excited tonight to talk about 108 00:08:04.920 --> 00:08:08.040 supernatural surrender. A little bit later after your breakout 109 00:08:08.040 --> 00:08:11.040 session, I am going to touch on the Jesus Cares Board and that 110 00:08:11.040 --> 00:08:14.120 aspect of supernatural surrender, because I want to 111 00:08:14.120 --> 00:08:16.920 show you guys a couple pictures and ideas, but I just don't want 112 00:08:16.920 --> 00:08:19.240 to distract you right in the beginning where you start 113 00:08:19.240 --> 00:08:24.280 thinking too far into that. But in our community, Jackie, God 114 00:08:24.280 --> 00:08:28.760 led Jackie to basically do a Jesus Cares Board years ago, and 115 00:08:28.760 --> 00:08:30.920 she started using it, implementing it, and that has 116 00:08:30.920 --> 00:08:34.039 taught so many people in our community. And then now we are 117 00:08:34.039 --> 00:08:39.200 teaching other people as well. It's all about praying and asking 118 00:08:39.200 --> 00:08:45.120 God, asking Jesus like to take the cares off of us and put them 119 00:08:45.120 --> 00:08:49.000 on him, but it's actively doing it. So it's not just praying, 120 00:08:49.000 --> 00:08:52.800 but it's taking it, writing it out on a post-it note, and put 121 00:08:52.800 --> 00:08:55.840 it in up on that board, if you will. And I'm going to show you 122 00:08:55.840 --> 00:08:57.920 that you can do your board all different kinds of ways. And 123 00:08:57.920 --> 00:09:00.720 again, we'll dive into that a little bit more later tonight. 124 00:09:01.240 --> 00:09:05.200 So supernatural surrender is all about letting God add his super 125 00:09:05.200 --> 00:09:09.240 to our natural every single day that we are partnering with him 126 00:09:09.560 --> 00:09:13.520 in the journey, including surrendering the pen completely 127 00:09:13.520 --> 00:09:18.720 to him. We want to encourage you to release it all to allow 128 00:09:18.720 --> 00:09:22.840 something to move freely, to act freely in and through you, 129 00:09:23.160 --> 00:09:26.480 where in the past, you might have tried to Jesus, you know, 130 00:09:26.480 --> 00:09:29.160 take the wheel, where you're like giving it to him, then 131 00:09:29.160 --> 00:09:31.240 you're taking it back, you're giving it to him, and then 132 00:09:31.240 --> 00:09:34.040 you're taking it back. Why do we do that? Well, we tend to do 133 00:09:34.040 --> 00:09:37.120 that when we think that God isn't moving quick enough, 134 00:09:37.120 --> 00:09:42.080 right? Or that he's not doing it the way that we thought he would 135 00:09:42.080 --> 00:09:46.360 or wanted him to, or however that looks for everyone. It's a 136 00:09:46.360 --> 00:09:51.560 little bit different, right? We bring into every relationship, 137 00:09:51.560 --> 00:09:56.000 including our relationship with God, our history, the backstory 138 00:09:56.000 --> 00:09:59.280 behind us, how our parents raised us, the ways we learn to 139 00:09:59.280 --> 00:10:00.000 think, the way 140 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:03.440 that we learn to live in everything. 141 00:10:03.440 --> 00:10:06.160 And so tonight, we want you just to kind of partner 142 00:10:06.160 --> 00:10:10.000 with the truth from John 15, verses four through five. 143 00:10:10.000 --> 00:10:11.360 It's all about God saying, 144 00:10:11.360 --> 00:10:15.920 remain in me as I also remain in you. 145 00:10:15.920 --> 00:10:17.820 No branch can bear fruit by itself. 146 00:10:17.820 --> 00:10:19.920 It must remain in the vine. 147 00:10:19.920 --> 00:10:21.540 Jesus was actually talking at this time, 148 00:10:21.540 --> 00:10:23.680 but we know that God, the Father, Jesus Christ, 149 00:10:23.680 --> 00:10:26.120 and the Holy Spirit are all one, you all. 150 00:10:26.120 --> 00:10:29.400 So if Jesus is saying, hey, remain in me 151 00:10:29.440 --> 00:10:31.000 as I remain in you, 152 00:10:31.880 --> 00:10:34.040 he's saying to us that we're gonna, 153 00:10:34.040 --> 00:10:36.240 he's inviting us to do the same thing. 154 00:10:36.240 --> 00:10:39.280 Be with me like I am with my Father. 155 00:10:39.280 --> 00:10:41.740 That's what this scripture, there's so much more to it, 156 00:10:41.740 --> 00:10:45.460 but it's basically continuing to say over and over, 157 00:10:45.460 --> 00:10:48.560 like, you can't bear fruit unless you remain in me. 158 00:10:48.560 --> 00:10:50.800 I'm the vine, you're the branches. 159 00:10:50.800 --> 00:10:53.480 If you remain in me, then I'm gonna remain in you. 160 00:10:54.480 --> 00:10:56.440 And then you'll bear much fruit. 161 00:10:56.440 --> 00:10:59.160 So isn't it much greater to bear fruit 162 00:10:59.160 --> 00:11:01.040 versus walking away and feeling like 163 00:11:01.040 --> 00:11:03.280 we're not bearing anything? 164 00:11:03.280 --> 00:11:05.560 I know that I've had areas of my life before 165 00:11:05.560 --> 00:11:08.080 where I was just like, man, I just, 166 00:11:08.080 --> 00:11:09.880 nothing's happening there. 167 00:11:09.880 --> 00:11:11.920 I'm praying and I'm praying and I'm praying 168 00:11:11.920 --> 00:11:14.820 and nothing, just nothing's happening. 169 00:11:14.820 --> 00:11:16.600 But here's the reality. 170 00:11:16.600 --> 00:11:21.600 I had an incorrect heart posture and perspective 171 00:11:21.740 --> 00:11:23.920 when I was looking at some of those situations. 172 00:11:23.920 --> 00:11:25.200 I needed some more healing 173 00:11:25.200 --> 00:11:27.900 that I didn't even know what I needed. 174 00:11:29.120 --> 00:11:31.240 We don't know what we don't know until we know it. 175 00:11:31.240 --> 00:11:33.360 And so God is gonna continue to help you 176 00:11:33.360 --> 00:11:36.080 as you surrender to him to see even blind spots, 177 00:11:36.080 --> 00:11:41.080 filters, things that have been holding you up in the past. 178 00:11:41.100 --> 00:11:42.620 Remember that God is a gentleman, 179 00:11:42.620 --> 00:11:45.080 so he's not gonna force his way in on you. 180 00:11:46.280 --> 00:11:51.280 I always like to liken it to a do not enter sign. 181 00:11:51.400 --> 00:11:52.360 That's the way at least, 182 00:11:52.360 --> 00:11:55.080 these are the kind of ways I relate to God. 183 00:11:55.080 --> 00:11:57.760 I literally one time was praying and it was like, 184 00:11:57.760 --> 00:12:01.200 God was like, you gotta do not enter sign in there 185 00:12:01.200 --> 00:12:02.680 and certain areas of your heart. 186 00:12:02.680 --> 00:12:05.240 It wasn't something I was even doing intentionally. 187 00:12:05.240 --> 00:12:09.080 It was literally just what was there 188 00:12:09.080 --> 00:12:12.480 because of what I had been through, right? 189 00:12:12.480 --> 00:12:14.760 And so little by little, 190 00:12:15.600 --> 00:12:18.260 he just kept inviting me to take the sign down. 191 00:12:18.260 --> 00:12:19.760 And some of that do not enter 192 00:12:19.760 --> 00:12:21.420 came through the revelation of listening 193 00:12:21.420 --> 00:12:24.620 to things that Jackie was saying through the empowerment 194 00:12:24.620 --> 00:12:26.780 and the leading of the Holy Spirit 195 00:12:26.780 --> 00:12:29.220 in this course years ago when I took it. 196 00:12:30.220 --> 00:12:34.100 And so oftentimes the reason we erect those signs 197 00:12:34.100 --> 00:12:36.080 is because we're scared somewhere. 198 00:12:37.040 --> 00:12:39.220 We're scared the little girl on the inside of us 199 00:12:39.220 --> 00:12:42.820 is still broken in some way, shape or form. 200 00:12:42.820 --> 00:12:45.040 And she's not sure it's safe to come out. 201 00:12:45.040 --> 00:12:49.860 And so the Holy Spirit, he's in there calling out 202 00:12:49.900 --> 00:12:53.620 and he's like, come out, come out wherever you are. 203 00:12:53.620 --> 00:12:55.780 And I know that's kind of like a kid's game, right? 204 00:12:55.780 --> 00:12:57.560 We used to play hide and seek 205 00:12:57.560 --> 00:12:59.620 and we would call out to one another 206 00:12:59.620 --> 00:13:01.700 to get people to come out of hiding. 207 00:13:03.280 --> 00:13:05.860 And the Holy Spirit is saying the same thing to us. 208 00:13:05.860 --> 00:13:10.860 He's asking us, will you come out so that you can be found? 209 00:13:12.980 --> 00:13:17.020 It's about giving God permission to access our hearts. 210 00:13:17.980 --> 00:13:20.020 Remember, he's not gonna force his way in 211 00:13:20.020 --> 00:13:22.740 so he has to get in somehow. 212 00:13:22.740 --> 00:13:23.780 Well, it's just the same thing 213 00:13:23.780 --> 00:13:26.500 when we accept Jesus as our savior, 214 00:13:26.500 --> 00:13:29.820 he doesn't come in, force us into relationship. 215 00:13:29.820 --> 00:13:32.460 No, we choose. 216 00:13:32.460 --> 00:13:36.880 We pray and we invite him to come in and live in us, right? 217 00:13:38.220 --> 00:13:40.780 So don't you think it's the same process 218 00:13:40.780 --> 00:13:42.580 when it comes to your heart healing? 219 00:13:44.340 --> 00:13:45.220 Now, I will tell you, 220 00:13:45.220 --> 00:13:48.460 God is gonna lovingly continue to nudge you 221 00:13:48.460 --> 00:13:52.180 and try to lead you towards what is best for you. 222 00:13:52.180 --> 00:13:53.540 And if you're like me, 223 00:13:53.540 --> 00:13:56.500 sometimes you think you know what's best for you 224 00:13:56.500 --> 00:13:59.420 and it's absolutely not good for you at all. 225 00:14:00.700 --> 00:14:02.300 I've talked about my prior relationship. 226 00:14:02.300 --> 00:14:04.720 I've had, you know, I was married before you all. 227 00:14:04.720 --> 00:14:07.100 I was married to my ex-husband for 12 years 228 00:14:08.020 --> 00:14:09.800 and it was not good, most of it. 229 00:14:10.660 --> 00:14:12.380 But I did not believe in divorce 230 00:14:12.380 --> 00:14:15.140 and I believed in just continuing to pray 231 00:14:15.980 --> 00:14:16.820 and those are all very noble things. 232 00:14:16.820 --> 00:14:20.100 And I'm not mad that I continue to believe 233 00:14:20.100 --> 00:14:21.500 for that to change. 234 00:14:21.500 --> 00:14:23.140 I'm glad I did. 235 00:14:23.140 --> 00:14:26.540 Because when I finally chose to leave, 236 00:14:26.540 --> 00:14:28.260 when it was abusive 237 00:14:28.260 --> 00:14:30.660 and it was becoming more and more destructive, 238 00:14:31.540 --> 00:14:35.420 I finally, I really knew I did everything that I could. 239 00:14:35.420 --> 00:14:37.060 And so I had peace. 240 00:14:37.060 --> 00:14:40.160 But praise God, he came on a rescue mission for me. 241 00:14:40.160 --> 00:14:43.100 Because I was crying out to him for a while, 242 00:14:43.100 --> 00:14:45.980 like, God help me, I don't, I'm trying, 243 00:14:45.980 --> 00:14:47.560 I don't know what to do. 244 00:14:47.560 --> 00:14:49.700 And he heard me and he answered me. 245 00:14:51.300 --> 00:14:54.300 But you know, I had to be willing 246 00:14:54.300 --> 00:14:57.160 to go on the journey that he took me on to. 247 00:14:57.160 --> 00:14:59.320 I went to some classes, 248 00:14:59.320 --> 00:15:00.160 overcoming power. 249 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:03.760 and your relationships, I talked to a social worker. 250 00:15:03.760 --> 00:15:06.560 I mean, things I never thought I would have been doing, 251 00:15:06.560 --> 00:15:07.720 you all. 252 00:15:07.720 --> 00:15:11.320 That wasn't the picture I had planned when I got married. 253 00:15:11.320 --> 00:15:14.360 Sitting in a class with a bunch of women 254 00:15:14.360 --> 00:15:17.040 talking about the different ways 255 00:15:17.040 --> 00:15:19.840 their spouses were abusing them. 256 00:15:19.840 --> 00:15:22.200 Not the picture I had planned. 257 00:15:22.200 --> 00:15:25.320 But, you know, in the middle of that, 258 00:15:25.320 --> 00:15:26.560 God shined his light. 259 00:15:26.560 --> 00:15:27.920 Not only was he helping me, 260 00:15:27.920 --> 00:15:30.120 but I ended up meeting another woman. 261 00:15:30.120 --> 00:15:33.600 And as I was getting help, 262 00:15:33.600 --> 00:15:37.400 God led me to help her get out of her situation too. 263 00:15:37.400 --> 00:15:38.920 And that's how God works sometimes. 264 00:15:38.920 --> 00:15:41.320 And I believe that's part of what this community does 265 00:15:41.320 --> 00:15:42.960 in a sense, you know, 266 00:15:42.960 --> 00:15:45.200 not that you all are getting necessarily out of marriages, 267 00:15:45.200 --> 00:15:47.440 but you're getting out of these places in your heart 268 00:15:47.440 --> 00:15:51.840 that have kept you in bondage and fear. 269 00:15:51.840 --> 00:15:53.000 Revelation 3.20 says, 270 00:15:54.000 --> 00:15:57.000 You know, here's this amazing picture of God saying, 271 00:15:57.000 --> 00:15:59.720 like, hey, I'm standing at the door. 272 00:15:59.720 --> 00:16:01.440 I'm knocking on your heart. 273 00:16:01.440 --> 00:16:04.400 Will you choose to let me come in? 274 00:16:04.400 --> 00:16:07.040 If you hear my voice and open the door, 275 00:16:07.040 --> 00:16:09.720 not only is he gonna come in, but he's gonna sup with us. 276 00:16:09.720 --> 00:16:11.200 He's gonna have a meal. 277 00:16:11.200 --> 00:16:12.520 He wants to have fellowship. 278 00:16:12.520 --> 00:16:14.520 He wants to have intimacy. 279 00:16:14.520 --> 00:16:15.760 Just like, you know, 280 00:16:15.760 --> 00:16:18.240 if you're in a situation where you're in a relationship 281 00:16:18.240 --> 00:16:20.600 and you're in a situation where you're in a relationship 282 00:16:20.840 --> 00:16:22.840 he wants to have intimacy, 283 00:16:22.840 --> 00:16:25.200 just like Jesus is one with him. 284 00:16:25.200 --> 00:16:28.520 You know, he wants us to also be one with them. 285 00:16:29.960 --> 00:16:31.760 Andrea was coaching this afternoon 286 00:16:31.760 --> 00:16:33.480 and I loved the way she said something 287 00:16:33.480 --> 00:16:37.360 about supernatural surrender being active trust. 288 00:16:37.360 --> 00:16:38.840 And I was like, man, that's really good. 289 00:16:38.840 --> 00:16:40.200 I don't know if she heard that from Jackie 290 00:16:40.200 --> 00:16:41.560 or that God just gave her that, 291 00:16:41.560 --> 00:16:45.080 but that was, it was really powerful when she said it. 292 00:16:45.080 --> 00:16:47.160 And so I want you to be thinking about 293 00:16:47.160 --> 00:16:51.520 how can you actively trust God tonight? 294 00:16:51.520 --> 00:16:53.960 Asking God the same thing tomorrow. 295 00:16:53.960 --> 00:16:58.480 What does it look like to literally picture 296 00:16:58.480 --> 00:17:01.840 giving the things that you are worried about to him, 297 00:17:01.840 --> 00:17:03.160 you know, putting them on your board, 298 00:17:03.160 --> 00:17:05.319 but also even after it's on the board, 299 00:17:05.319 --> 00:17:08.000 looking at the board and reminding yourself, 300 00:17:08.000 --> 00:17:11.599 Jesus, thank you that you're working on these situations 301 00:17:11.599 --> 00:17:13.160 and call him out by name. 302 00:17:13.160 --> 00:17:15.640 Jesus, thank you that right now 303 00:17:15.640 --> 00:17:19.240 you're sitting at the right hand of the father interceding. 304 00:17:19.240 --> 00:17:21.040 Let's say one of the things on my board 305 00:17:21.040 --> 00:17:22.800 is Michaela and Olivia Scott. 306 00:17:22.800 --> 00:17:25.440 Those are my spiritual daughters. 307 00:17:25.440 --> 00:17:26.680 Thank you that right now, 308 00:17:26.680 --> 00:17:29.480 I believe that you are bringing the light of the world 309 00:17:29.480 --> 00:17:31.880 into the great darkness that they are encountering, 310 00:17:31.880 --> 00:17:33.680 that you're gonna bring them out of that darkness 311 00:17:33.680 --> 00:17:36.600 into the light and that they are going to be transformed 312 00:17:36.600 --> 00:17:39.920 and they are going to ask for me in my house, 313 00:17:39.920 --> 00:17:41.720 serve the Lord. 314 00:17:41.720 --> 00:17:44.640 You know, that we start really leaning into 315 00:17:44.640 --> 00:17:48.760 that I can't control their decisions, 316 00:17:50.240 --> 00:17:55.240 but I can't carry the weight of all of that either. 317 00:17:55.400 --> 00:17:56.520 I gotta give it to him. 318 00:17:56.520 --> 00:17:58.480 I gotta trust him. 319 00:17:58.480 --> 00:17:59.800 And I think back, 320 00:17:59.800 --> 00:18:04.280 I wonder what it was like for my mom or my family 321 00:18:04.280 --> 00:18:05.920 or my friends. 322 00:18:05.920 --> 00:18:09.880 Some of my friends begged me to leave that relationship 323 00:18:09.880 --> 00:18:12.000 with the girl's dad and I just stayed. 324 00:18:12.920 --> 00:18:14.400 And it was really bad. 325 00:18:15.400 --> 00:18:18.440 And so people were praying for me, 326 00:18:18.440 --> 00:18:19.960 just like I'm praying for my girls. 327 00:18:19.960 --> 00:18:21.480 And so whatever that thing is for you, 328 00:18:21.480 --> 00:18:24.880 I wanna encourage you to really lean into like 329 00:18:24.880 --> 00:18:27.520 the Lord helping you surrender that tonight. 330 00:18:27.520 --> 00:18:29.080 And some of you, you're gonna be like, 331 00:18:29.080 --> 00:18:30.840 well, I've surrendered this thing 332 00:18:30.840 --> 00:18:32.680 over and over and over again. 333 00:18:32.680 --> 00:18:34.640 And I wanna encourage you. 334 00:18:34.640 --> 00:18:35.480 You know, I've been reading, 335 00:18:35.480 --> 00:18:37.240 I'm not gonna talk about the name of the book 336 00:18:37.240 --> 00:18:39.480 cause we focus on the heart work while y'all are here, 337 00:18:39.480 --> 00:18:41.080 but I've been reading this book 338 00:18:41.080 --> 00:18:42.600 and how to pray for your loved ones. 339 00:18:42.600 --> 00:18:44.920 And it's restoring my hope 340 00:18:44.920 --> 00:18:47.720 because just like all of you, sometimes, 341 00:18:47.720 --> 00:18:50.400 even if you wanna relate this to your love story, 342 00:18:50.400 --> 00:18:52.160 right now I'm talking about interceding 343 00:18:52.160 --> 00:18:54.520 and praying for lost loved ones, 344 00:18:54.520 --> 00:18:57.200 but doesn't it get at points weary? 345 00:18:57.200 --> 00:19:00.040 You feel weary when you're praying for transformation, 346 00:19:00.040 --> 00:19:02.160 you're praying for change, 347 00:19:02.160 --> 00:19:05.960 but the physical isn't lining up, right? 348 00:19:07.040 --> 00:19:10.120 But sometimes we've gotta ask God to renew our hope, 349 00:19:10.120 --> 00:19:11.160 to fill our hope tank, 350 00:19:11.160 --> 00:19:14.320 to give us a fresh revelation, a fresh understanding 351 00:19:14.320 --> 00:19:18.040 so that we can partner back in unison with him 352 00:19:18.040 --> 00:19:20.840 to keep believing for that thing to change 353 00:19:20.840 --> 00:19:23.840 because he is a good father who has good gifts for us. 354 00:19:23.840 --> 00:19:26.400 And sometimes we're just not in alignment 355 00:19:26.400 --> 00:19:28.040 or the other person isn't, 356 00:19:28.880 --> 00:19:30.600 but that doesn't mean that he's not working. 357 00:19:30.600 --> 00:19:31.840 It doesn't mean that he's not trying 358 00:19:31.840 --> 00:19:33.680 to line things up for us. 359 00:19:34.640 --> 00:19:39.640 I 100% know that long before I officially 360 00:19:40.360 --> 00:19:42.560 gave my life to Jesus Christ, 361 00:19:43.800 --> 00:19:45.520 that he was wooing me and drawing me. 362 00:19:45.520 --> 00:19:48.800 You all, as a little girl, I can remember. 363 00:19:48.800 --> 00:19:53.680 Now, back then, I don't know if I knew 100% 364 00:19:53.680 --> 00:19:54.640 if I was praying to God, 365 00:19:54.640 --> 00:19:58.240 but I also remember being in VBS 366 00:19:58.240 --> 00:20:03.000 and I cannot tell you how much I was moved by that. 367 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:04.740 tell you what happened, but I specifically remember where I was sitting. 368 00:20:03.000 --> 00:20:05.760 And I can't tell you how much I was moved 369 00:20:05.140 --> 00:20:08.580 We were at the school and we were at these tables back behind this school and 370 00:20:08.580 --> 00:20:09.820 the sun was shining. 371 00:20:10.460 --> 00:20:14.940 And I remember knowing that I had heard from God, 372 00:20:15.820 --> 00:20:18.660 have no clue what was said or any of those things. 373 00:20:19.020 --> 00:20:21.960 And that I just felt different from other kids, 374 00:20:21.960 --> 00:20:23.700 but it didn't feel like a bad different. 375 00:20:25.560 --> 00:20:29.040 And then years later, just sitting in the sun and I was drawing. 376 00:20:29.040 --> 00:20:32.360 And I just kept looking up at the sun and y'all, and I'm not trying to sound 377 00:20:32.360 --> 00:20:33.640 kooky, but I just, 378 00:20:34.000 --> 00:20:38.240 I just felt this connection and it wasn't with the sun. 379 00:20:38.240 --> 00:20:42.840 You all pay, not the physical sun as in the 380 00:20:42.840 --> 00:20:47.000 sunlight. But I believe I, I knew that there, God was, 381 00:20:47.240 --> 00:20:50.100 he was there and I just felt connected to him. 382 00:20:50.100 --> 00:20:54.560 And there are other times like I was going to church with my mom. 383 00:20:54.560 --> 00:20:59.000 At one point I had my Bible and, and I was highlighting scriptures. 384 00:20:59.000 --> 00:21:01.640 I wasn't doing that because anybody told me to, 385 00:21:01.840 --> 00:21:05.120 there were things the preacher was saying. And I was like, wow, 386 00:21:05.120 --> 00:21:08.920 that that's speaking to me. Now I didn't have that language back then, 387 00:21:11.160 --> 00:21:16.120 but I knew there was something God was, God was calling out to 388 00:21:16.120 --> 00:21:20.440 me. I mean, I was young then. 389 00:21:20.800 --> 00:21:24.280 I didn't give my life to the Lord until I was 20. 390 00:21:24.840 --> 00:21:26.200 That was 20 years old. 391 00:21:26.960 --> 00:21:29.800 Praise the Lord that I finally did, but it took a while, 392 00:21:29.840 --> 00:21:34.240 but God was wooing me and calling me that whole time 393 00:21:34.440 --> 00:21:39.040 and pursuing me. And so for some of you that 394 00:21:39.040 --> 00:21:42.960 you're like, I've been praying for a husband for 20 years. 395 00:21:43.760 --> 00:21:46.920 I want you to understand it's similar to what I just explained to you. 396 00:21:46.920 --> 00:21:52.000 God is wooing you and he's drawing you to the fullness of his promise for you. 397 00:21:52.040 --> 00:21:57.040 Some of you have chosen one bad guy after another and God's not mad at you. 398 00:21:57.040 --> 00:22:02.040 I did it too, but he's trying to help you learn how to choose better, 399 00:22:05.040 --> 00:22:09.400 to learn how to know that you're worth, I feel the Holy spirit. Yep. 400 00:22:09.400 --> 00:22:12.400 To know that you are worth someone who is great, 401 00:22:12.400 --> 00:22:15.400 who will love the fullness of who you are, 402 00:22:15.400 --> 00:22:18.320 not just for what your body can give them, 403 00:22:18.320 --> 00:22:23.320 y'all, our bodies change. It's real. 404 00:22:23.320 --> 00:22:27.320 And guess what? If, if it's all wrapped up in the physical, 405 00:22:27.320 --> 00:22:31.320 what are we going to do when that's not able to function the same? 406 00:22:31.320 --> 00:22:36.320 Or, you know, my husband had a surgery not long after we got married and guess 407 00:22:36.320 --> 00:22:40.320 what? We couldn't have sex for a while because of that. 408 00:22:41.320 --> 00:22:44.320 And so if it was all about the physical, 409 00:22:44.320 --> 00:22:49.320 what are we going to do then? It has to be about more than that. 410 00:22:51.320 --> 00:22:52.320 And so the Lord is, 411 00:22:52.320 --> 00:22:57.320 he's trying to teach us tools and boundaries and security in Christ to know 412 00:22:59.320 --> 00:23:02.320 who you are, to know your value and your worth. 413 00:23:04.320 --> 00:23:08.320 There's this story about, you know, this guy years ago, 414 00:23:08.320 --> 00:23:11.320 I was at a retreat and he was talking to this guy, 415 00:23:11.320 --> 00:23:14.320 years ago I was at a retreat and he was talking about, 416 00:23:14.320 --> 00:23:17.320 and I'm probably going to muck this up a little bit, 417 00:23:17.320 --> 00:23:21.320 but he was talking about, you know, the cows and back in the day, 418 00:23:21.320 --> 00:23:25.320 you know, it was a big deal for someone to come and buy cows. 419 00:23:26.320 --> 00:23:30.320 They had to have a lot of money to do that. And, uh, 420 00:23:31.320 --> 00:23:35.320 I remember sitting in this retreat and listening in this preacher was telling 421 00:23:35.320 --> 00:23:38.320 this story. And again, I'm not going to, I'm not going to do it any justice, 422 00:23:38.320 --> 00:23:42.320 but I just, the glimpse of what I remember is he was talking about how 423 00:23:44.320 --> 00:23:47.320 the guy was saying, I'll give you weight. 424 00:23:47.320 --> 00:23:50.320 Like he wanted to double and triple the price of what it was, 425 00:23:50.320 --> 00:23:54.320 what he would have paid for the cows, for the daughter. 426 00:23:56.320 --> 00:23:57.320 And that's how precious, 427 00:23:57.320 --> 00:24:02.320 like she was worth so much more than all like the fullness of what they would 428 00:24:03.320 --> 00:24:07.320 have paid back then and how he was willing, 429 00:24:07.320 --> 00:24:12.320 like he wanted to pay above and beyond that because that's how valuable she was. 430 00:24:15.320 --> 00:24:19.320 And you might hear that and think, well, you know, paying for a woman, what? 431 00:24:20.320 --> 00:24:24.320 Well, they did that back then. Okay. So it wasn't weird back then, 432 00:24:25.320 --> 00:24:28.320 but it's more about the point of what I'm trying to say is like, 433 00:24:29.320 --> 00:24:34.320 God sees our value all the time and he can show an healthy man how to see that 434 00:24:34.320 --> 00:24:39.320 value too. But if you don't see that value, if I don't see that value, well, 435 00:24:39.320 --> 00:24:44.320 then we're going to keep choosing people that treat us with less than that 436 00:24:44.320 --> 00:24:47.320 value. So it has to start with us. 437 00:24:47.320 --> 00:24:52.320 It has to start with how we view ourselves, how we posture ourselves. 438 00:24:52.320 --> 00:24:54.320 Are we going to settle for less? 439 00:24:55.320 --> 00:24:58.320 Are we going to just wait for God to drop him on our shoulders? 440 00:24:58.320 --> 00:25:01.320 Are we going to just wait for God to drop him on our shoulders? 441 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:05.040 doorstep. Y'all, I totally wanted God to bring him right to my door. I did. I didn't want to 442 00:25:05.040 --> 00:25:12.000 have to do anything. That did not happen. I actually, God led me to go right back. 443 00:25:12.880 --> 00:25:18.400 Yes, the 10 Cow Bride. I don't, yes, whoever personal, it says personal phone. I'm not sure 444 00:25:18.400 --> 00:25:24.960 what your name is, but that is the story. Yes. So if y'all want to look it up, it's the 10 Cow Bride. 445 00:25:25.520 --> 00:25:32.240 So if I messed it up really bad, forgive me. But, um, where was I going? I'm sorry. That 446 00:25:32.240 --> 00:25:36.960 totally got me that, that I got all excited about that. I don't know. I'll remember later 447 00:25:36.960 --> 00:25:42.000 if it's important, but I'm trying to just get to that you and I, hopefully we see our value. 448 00:25:42.560 --> 00:25:46.720 And this is where surrendering the pen is going to be really, really important. 449 00:25:47.440 --> 00:25:53.360 Oh, dropping a man at my door. Audrey, Audrey, thank you so much. Yes. No, God did not drop 450 00:25:53.360 --> 00:25:59.600 the person at my door. Um, actually God led me to go back online, which is what I did not want 451 00:25:59.600 --> 00:26:06.960 to do because I met the girl's dad that way. And so I swore that I would never date online ever 452 00:26:06.960 --> 00:26:13.280 again, because dating online, it's just creepers and users and cheaters. That is what I believed. 453 00:26:13.840 --> 00:26:21.120 Well, I got some healing and through Jackie continuing to nudge me, I went back online 454 00:26:22.080 --> 00:26:25.680 and I'm not saying it's going to be like this for everyone, but I'm not joking when I say this, 455 00:26:25.680 --> 00:26:34.880 I went back, I went online on September 4th on September 6th. God told me to change my demographics 456 00:26:34.880 --> 00:26:39.680 because I was only willing to go two and a half hours. I was not moving. That was the other thing 457 00:26:39.680 --> 00:26:48.240 I said, it was not moving. I told the Lord over and over. Oh, he's so funny. 458 00:26:48.480 --> 00:26:53.280 He told me to change my demographics. And I did. And that same day, Brian reached out to me 459 00:26:54.320 --> 00:27:02.880 and, uh, he asked me my non-negotiables and I was like, what? This guy's asking me the same thing 460 00:27:02.880 --> 00:27:07.920 Jackie talks about. I mean, I'd never heard anybody ever say that before. And, uh, I had 461 00:27:07.920 --> 00:27:12.800 gone on dates before this y'all couple, not a lot, but a couple, but by this time I'd already, 462 00:27:12.880 --> 00:27:17.920 not a lot, but a couple, but by this time I'd already, I kind of gotten my practice a little 463 00:27:17.920 --> 00:27:24.080 bit, figured out a little more what I was looking for. Um, but I told him, you know, 464 00:27:24.080 --> 00:27:28.880 my number one is God, God, non-negotiable. And I said, if you want to know anymore after Jackie's 465 00:27:28.880 --> 00:27:33.760 coaching, if you want to know the others, uh, we could get together and talk about it in person. 466 00:27:33.760 --> 00:27:39.280 And he said, how about this Sunday? And so you all, he drove four and a half hours to have coffee 467 00:27:39.280 --> 00:27:47.040 with me. He did. And, uh, we dated ever since. And I'm his wife. I've been his wife for several 468 00:27:47.040 --> 00:27:56.160 years now. And, you know, it was definitely a supernatural story. Um, again, not everybody's 469 00:27:56.160 --> 00:28:04.880 is going to happen that quick or like that. We did get married a year later, but I definitely know I 470 00:28:04.880 --> 00:28:12.080 had to surrender to what God was saying. Not only just because Jackie was nudging me, I actually 471 00:28:12.080 --> 00:28:15.840 knew in my heart. Cause at first, the first couple of times she was like, you need to do this. I'm 472 00:28:15.840 --> 00:28:21.600 like, no, I don't think, I don't think I'm ready. And then when she finally came back around, I was 473 00:28:21.600 --> 00:28:28.880 like, you know, I think you're right. I think it is time. And even in the changing my demographic, 474 00:28:29.840 --> 00:28:38.640 Brian didn't live in my state. I had no intention of moving, but God led me to follow, follow him 475 00:28:38.640 --> 00:28:44.240 first and foremost. And, you know, God has led me through every step of the way. And so when we 476 00:28:44.240 --> 00:28:48.800 surrender the pen, man, God writes some great stories. Doesn't make it always easy, but it's 477 00:28:48.800 --> 00:28:53.440 definitely worth it. So I want you to be thinking about areas where you're, you know, maybe you've 478 00:28:53.520 --> 00:28:59.600 been partnering with, you know, like when we're toddlers, this thing that we develop inside of us, 479 00:28:59.600 --> 00:29:04.880 you know, that partners with our flesh that says, I do it myself. I'm going to do it myself. 480 00:29:05.680 --> 00:29:11.120 I don't need anybody's help. How many of you, even as single ladies have partnered with, 481 00:29:11.120 --> 00:29:18.480 I don't need anybody to help me. I've got this. Anybody? Yeah. Hi, Christie. I see you, 482 00:29:18.480 --> 00:29:21.680 Michelle, raising her hand. I think I saw a couple other hands going up. 483 00:29:23.280 --> 00:29:27.760 We have to come out of alignment with that. And so that wasn't in my notes for tonight. So if 484 00:29:27.760 --> 00:29:32.480 that's something that you tend to say to yourself, even when people try to hold the door for you, 485 00:29:33.120 --> 00:29:36.400 even ladies or gentlemen, other people that you don't know, they're trying to help you. And you're 486 00:29:36.400 --> 00:29:44.000 like, no, I got it. We got to stop that. Let's receive from people. If somebody wants to buy 487 00:29:44.000 --> 00:29:52.080 you lunch after church, I would love that. Don't feel guilty. Receive it. Practice receiving, 488 00:29:52.080 --> 00:29:57.600 because you know what, when you meet a man who walks in chivalry, guess what, ladies, 489 00:29:58.480 --> 00:29:59.840 they want to take care. 490 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:05.400 of you. They want to hold the door for you. They want to open the car door. They 491 00:30:05.400 --> 00:30:09.960 want to carry your food. At least this is my my experience with Brian. I had never 492 00:30:09.960 --> 00:30:15.680 gone through this before. I remember the first time he just was so excited to 493 00:30:15.680 --> 00:30:21.800 carry my shopping bags. I was like, I can carry them. He's like, I know but I want 494 00:30:21.800 --> 00:30:28.380 to. I'm like giddy excited to carry my shopping bags. What does this have to do 495 00:30:28.380 --> 00:30:33.860 with supernatural surrender? Well I had to surrender to my ability to do 496 00:30:33.860 --> 00:30:42.180 everything myself. I grew up in a home where you know I really couldn't rely on 497 00:30:42.180 --> 00:30:48.380 other people. I learned very young if it's gonna get done I'm gonna have to do 498 00:30:48.380 --> 00:30:54.380 it. When my brother wouldn't do his chores my mom would get so mad about the 499 00:30:54.380 --> 00:30:57.900 chores not being done that it didn't matter that he didn't do them. We all 500 00:30:57.900 --> 00:31:02.780 got in trouble for it. So it started turning into I had to become responsible 501 00:31:02.780 --> 00:31:09.180 for my brother who was four years older than me to make sure he did his chores. 502 00:31:09.180 --> 00:31:15.980 That he got out of bed wasn't an easy task. I know this again is a small 503 00:31:15.980 --> 00:31:23.180 example but I have a high responsibility within me like it's in a 504 00:31:23.180 --> 00:31:28.580 strength finders. It's like one of my top things. Well that got overextended in 505 00:31:28.580 --> 00:31:33.900 my childhood and I still have to really watch that as an adult because the enemy 506 00:31:33.900 --> 00:31:39.180 loves to try to lead me to feel responsible for everybody else's stuff 507 00:31:39.180 --> 00:31:46.700 including my own. So I have to even surrender that stuff to the Lord. Do you 508 00:31:46.700 --> 00:31:51.660 see how this supernatural surrender works in all different aspects ladies? We 509 00:31:51.660 --> 00:31:54.900 don't have to do it ourselves. God never intended for us to do it ourselves. He 510 00:31:54.900 --> 00:32:01.380 intended for us to be in family and community, friendship, relationship. So get 511 00:32:01.380 --> 00:32:10.020 good at thank you so much that would be lovely. Smiling, thank you. You know just 512 00:32:10.020 --> 00:32:15.100 receiving and and letting yourself be loved on it's it's a wonderful thing. One 513 00:32:15.100 --> 00:32:18.940 of the main reasons we don't want to depend on anyone else is because we 514 00:32:18.940 --> 00:32:24.500 don't want to be disappointed. I want you to think back. I'm gonna go ahead and 515 00:32:24.500 --> 00:32:29.460 activate you. I want you to think back and it's okay if you're not a hundred 516 00:32:29.460 --> 00:32:32.740 percent sure if it's the first time ever but I just want to kind of get you guys 517 00:32:32.740 --> 00:32:37.180 engaged with me a little bit. I want you to pause where you're at and ask the 518 00:32:37.180 --> 00:32:43.580 Lord when was the first time I was disappointed and whatever pops up in 519 00:32:43.580 --> 00:32:47.140 your mind it doesn't matter if it's the exact first time ever put that in the 520 00:32:47.140 --> 00:32:55.620 chat for me. When was the first time Lord that I was disappointed and someone 521 00:32:55.620 --> 00:33:01.540 and something whatever that is for you go ahead and put that in the chat for us 522 00:33:01.540 --> 00:33:06.820 and as you're doing that I'm gonna keep kind of chatting but be thinking about 523 00:33:06.820 --> 00:33:09.700 that and if it doesn't come to you right away that's okay just start putting it 524 00:33:09.700 --> 00:33:14.200 in there when you when it comes to you. I want you to remember that control is an 525 00:33:14.200 --> 00:33:18.280 illusion ladies and out of control can be a good and even healthy place to be. 526 00:33:18.280 --> 00:33:22.840 If we want to be real we're never really in control of anything except ourselves 527 00:33:22.840 --> 00:33:29.520 our beliefs and our response. The more hurt we are the more we try to control 528 00:33:29.520 --> 00:33:36.080 our environment. Keep everybody right where we want them so they cannot hurt 529 00:33:36.080 --> 00:33:42.080 us but when we do that we cannot live abundantly right? We have to make a 530 00:33:42.080 --> 00:33:46.440 decision. Are we ready to surrender? Are we ready to wave the white flag and say 531 00:33:46.440 --> 00:33:52.160 God I cannot do it. I've tried. I'm sorry that I've tried to do it on my own. I'm 532 00:33:52.160 --> 00:33:57.520 sorry that I've tried to think I can do better than you. God I I'm yielding to 533 00:33:57.520 --> 00:34:05.720 you. I give up and I choose to surrender it all. Is that where you're at tonight? 534 00:34:05.720 --> 00:34:10.920 Because some of you are like yes yes I'm all there and then tomorrow something's 535 00:34:10.920 --> 00:34:17.400 gonna happen and you're gonna be like God why is this happening? You know 536 00:34:17.400 --> 00:34:20.400 you're gonna be upset with him because it's not happening fast enough or 537 00:34:20.400 --> 00:34:24.000 whatever and it might not be tomorrow. I'm kind of a you know exaggerating but 538 00:34:24.000 --> 00:34:29.159 it might be a week from now. Yeah so some of these are coming in the chat. I'm 539 00:34:29.159 --> 00:34:35.080 gonna go ahead and I'm gonna try to grab as many of them as I can. So our downy 540 00:34:35.080 --> 00:34:38.040 when you put three to four years old make sure you ask the Lord. You might 541 00:34:38.080 --> 00:34:42.159 know what it is but ask the Lord what the situation was and I'm activating you 542 00:34:42.159 --> 00:34:44.800 all in this for a purpose. We're gonna I'm gonna talk about it here in just a 543 00:34:44.800 --> 00:34:49.080 minute. Chrissy says I have a feeling it was in kindergarten, had something to do 544 00:34:49.080 --> 00:34:54.080 with my dad, elementary, seven years old, at ballet class. Everyone else got to go 545 00:34:54.080 --> 00:34:56.840 to their parents but I had to keep on dancing. I felt that I was a 546 00:34:56.840 --> 00:35:01.560 disappointment because I could not finish. 547 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.680 was five. That's huge. That is probably connected is some 548 00:35:04.680 --> 00:35:07.640 significant things we've been coaching you on Megan. Okay, so 549 00:35:07.640 --> 00:35:10.680 I think that's a really important one. Seventh grade. 550 00:35:11.400 --> 00:35:13.840 Jamie says when my mom got a ticket and didn't have enough 551 00:35:13.840 --> 00:35:16.640 cash to take us to the movie and get burgers as we planned. We 552 00:35:16.640 --> 00:35:20.200 never got to do that kind of thing. So we were so excited. I 553 00:35:20.200 --> 00:35:26.000 saw so much pain on her and was so disappointed. So that Jamie 554 00:35:26.000 --> 00:35:29.320 think about that too. So that's two layers of disappointment. 555 00:35:29.320 --> 00:35:31.800 Not only did you feel but you saw her feeling that 556 00:35:31.800 --> 00:35:34.200 disappointment so that there might be some kind of 557 00:35:34.200 --> 00:35:37.560 generational not even just in that moment, but generational 558 00:35:37.840 --> 00:35:41.960 layers of disappointment when you saw mom disappointed, that 559 00:35:41.960 --> 00:35:45.040 God's just highlighting that to me. So I would encourage you to 560 00:35:45.040 --> 00:35:47.480 lean into that a little bit. Grace says when I was a little 561 00:35:47.480 --> 00:35:50.240 girl, and my dad would tell me that he would take me on 562 00:35:50.240 --> 00:35:55.720 adventures in the car with him, but he wouldn't show up. Grace, 563 00:35:55.720 --> 00:35:59.800 I'm so sorry that that happened. My dad used to say he was going 564 00:35:59.800 --> 00:36:02.360 to come to my plays in high school and he didn't show up 565 00:36:02.360 --> 00:36:06.600 either. And man that hurt me so much. So I resonate with what 566 00:36:06.600 --> 00:36:08.840 you shared in there. And if anyone else had that kind of 567 00:36:08.840 --> 00:36:12.720 stuff happen. I knew that God's heart is sorry. He's sad that 568 00:36:12.760 --> 00:36:17.120 that broke his heart when your heart was breaking. And he loves 569 00:36:17.120 --> 00:36:23.440 you so much. Kristen says when my cousin and my cousin and 570 00:36:23.440 --> 00:36:26.600 sister and I all received the same present at Christmas from 571 00:36:26.600 --> 00:36:29.920 my grandma. But my cousin had gum and candy and hers and my 572 00:36:29.920 --> 00:36:33.560 sister and I did not. I was so looking forward to the treat 573 00:36:33.560 --> 00:36:37.960 since my cousin opened her present first. These things that 574 00:36:37.960 --> 00:36:41.800 seem like they're small deals, ladies. These end up being big 575 00:36:41.800 --> 00:36:45.400 things when they haven't been healed and dealt with. Sally 576 00:36:45.400 --> 00:36:49.600 said my father died when I was young, and so much, so much 577 00:36:49.600 --> 00:36:52.400 heartbreak and sadness. Ladies, make sure you lean into these. 578 00:36:52.400 --> 00:36:54.920 Remember what you wrote down tonight. Spend some time this 579 00:36:54.920 --> 00:36:57.960 week with the Lord. Jennifer says when I was 25, when I 580 00:36:57.960 --> 00:37:00.600 directly asked for something, I think that's what you mean, 581 00:37:00.600 --> 00:37:04.480 Jennifer, Sandra, as a toddler, I wanted to help mom in the 582 00:37:04.480 --> 00:37:09.120 kitchen and she wouldn't let me. My dad's wife, telling me they 583 00:37:09.120 --> 00:37:11.840 had a gift for me to travel to Europe all expenses paid, but 584 00:37:11.840 --> 00:37:15.120 because I had used remaining scholarship money to you hustle 585 00:37:15.120 --> 00:37:18.800 Europe that that they wouldn't be gifting this trip to me. That 586 00:37:18.800 --> 00:37:21.480 was not my dad's character. The trip was supposed to be my 587 00:37:21.480 --> 00:37:24.920 graduation gift from university. Eloise says first 588 00:37:24.920 --> 00:37:27.680 time I was disappointed as a child always felt unseen and 589 00:37:27.680 --> 00:37:30.640 unheard and not celebrated, which is something that you 590 00:37:30.640 --> 00:37:34.280 often struggle with still in in in the groups and things that 591 00:37:34.280 --> 00:37:38.200 you've been in. But we know that people have changed then and 592 00:37:38.200 --> 00:37:40.840 actually said, How can we celebrate you? Praise the Lord. 593 00:37:40.840 --> 00:37:44.360 That's some breakthrough. Eloise is experiencing that we've been 594 00:37:44.360 --> 00:37:47.600 praying for. Nikki said when one of my team members rejected me, 595 00:37:47.600 --> 00:37:51.800 she didn't want to be paired with me. Trisha first big 596 00:37:51.840 --> 00:37:54.600 disappointment was my first day of college many years ago, I had 597 00:37:54.600 --> 00:37:58.120 to buy all my books and carry them all to my dorm, which was a 598 00:37:58.120 --> 00:38:01.680 few blocks away by myself, I felt very alone and decided I 599 00:38:01.680 --> 00:38:04.920 need to do everything on my own. Hannah, not the first memory, 600 00:38:04.920 --> 00:38:08.000 but not getting to go to high school with my friends since it 601 00:38:08.000 --> 00:38:10.920 was a different district, Jenna, so many things I can't even 602 00:38:10.920 --> 00:38:14.040 pinpoint. Peggy, my older brother sexually abused me when 603 00:38:14.040 --> 00:38:17.240 I was a preschooler and told me I was never to tell anyone and I 604 00:38:17.240 --> 00:38:20.200 didn't. He gave me money to stay silent. So I had to lie 605 00:38:20.200 --> 00:38:24.040 about how I got the money. Michelle, I'm going to do my 606 00:38:24.040 --> 00:38:26.720 best to read all these and then we're going to move forward from 607 00:38:26.720 --> 00:38:29.720 here. I do not recall the context. But I remember clearly 608 00:38:29.720 --> 00:38:32.600 as a three to four year old or so but I kept repeating in my 609 00:38:32.600 --> 00:38:37.280 mind. But Daddy, Daddy, I'm just a little girl. I'm just a little 610 00:38:37.280 --> 00:38:42.520 girl. And when I think back to this, I just want to cry. Chrissy 611 00:38:42.520 --> 00:38:45.080 says junior high in high school couldn't lean on parents 612 00:38:45.080 --> 00:38:48.240 emotionally moving a lot in junior high, especially parents 613 00:38:48.240 --> 00:38:51.200 were missionaries and a lot of moves. Dad had to be gone a lot 614 00:38:51.200 --> 00:38:56.520 in those years, felt like I had to just deal and handle things, 615 00:38:56.680 --> 00:39:01.080 social things, emotional things myself. Jessica says seventh 616 00:39:01.080 --> 00:39:04.160 grade, the whole class ganged up on me in the playground and it 617 00:39:04.160 --> 00:39:07.040 was it was not my fault. I was accused of taking someone's 618 00:39:07.040 --> 00:39:10.440 headphones. The teacher placed me in front of the class to 619 00:39:10.440 --> 00:39:14.080 explain bullying is not acceptable. I cried so much in 620 00:39:14.080 --> 00:39:18.640 front of all of them. My mom put violent men in front of me. 621 00:39:19.120 --> 00:39:21.840 Stepfather compared me with a different girl and praise her 622 00:39:21.840 --> 00:39:25.080 over me. I have a twin brother and growing up I always tried my 623 00:39:25.080 --> 00:39:28.360 best to earn love and get attention because my brother 624 00:39:28.520 --> 00:39:32.240 would get the attention. So I felt like I was never enough and 625 00:39:32.240 --> 00:39:36.240 tried to earn my parents love. Ex husband insecurity looked down 626 00:39:36.240 --> 00:39:40.680 devalued and degraded and spoke negative about me. And then Jody 627 00:39:40.680 --> 00:39:44.360 says disappointed my parents never understood or comforted 628 00:39:44.800 --> 00:39:49.440 me. I had you all do that and I read them out loud because I 629 00:39:49.440 --> 00:39:54.240 want you to know that these are valid things that God wants to 630 00:39:54.240 --> 00:39:57.320 place the balm of Gilead upon every one of these wounds 631 00:39:57.320 --> 00:39:59.960 tonight. I did not have any of 632 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.460 planned. So I just want you to know like this is something God led me to do as I 633 00:40:05.460 --> 00:40:10.400 was reading that in the book. He's going after the truth that you're seeing 634 00:40:10.400 --> 00:40:15.240 tonight that keeps coming up in my spirit. So as you continue to surrender 635 00:40:15.240 --> 00:40:18.480 these things, I saw Roseanne put one in here the first time I remember being 636 00:40:18.480 --> 00:40:22.880 disappointed when I was in the third grade when my baby sister was born. She 637 00:40:22.880 --> 00:40:26.520 did not come get to come home with my mom because, sorry that just bumped 638 00:40:26.520 --> 00:40:32.480 around, because she was a premature baby. Scary, right? As kids we don't understand 639 00:40:32.480 --> 00:40:36.320 this stuff. Tammy being abused by a trusted adult that formed my thoughts 640 00:40:36.320 --> 00:40:43.720 about what men are very young still struggle with it. Lisa says important 641 00:40:43.720 --> 00:40:47.000 note that I left out the Europe trip was something I did not know about that they 642 00:40:47.000 --> 00:40:50.920 were planning to give me. Gotcha. My dad's wife told me after the fact. 643 00:40:50.920 --> 00:40:54.480 Constant disappointment. Can't remember the first time. Christmas, my birthdays, 644 00:40:54.480 --> 00:40:59.000 graduations and on and on. When I was in the third grade I made a card for my 645 00:40:59.000 --> 00:41:02.480 teacher. The other students thought I that I had told her about the party my 646 00:41:02.480 --> 00:41:05.160 classroom was planning. I didn't even know about it. After school they all 647 00:41:05.160 --> 00:41:09.160 ganged up on me and started to hit me. Thank God my mom intervened and my 648 00:41:09.160 --> 00:41:13.160 teacher dealt with the students. If you guys feel led to put more in you can. I'm 649 00:41:13.160 --> 00:41:16.760 probably not going to keep pausing but I did want to just honor those additional 650 00:41:16.760 --> 00:41:21.320 couple people. And so the other thing I was going to say why I felt led to do 651 00:41:21.320 --> 00:41:26.060 that is that not only to have you all put them in the chat to help you process 652 00:41:26.060 --> 00:41:31.640 that and start to think about those things but hearing what each other have 653 00:41:31.640 --> 00:41:36.560 been through it also can help bring things to surface in you. And because 654 00:41:36.560 --> 00:41:40.560 we're in the heart work and I believe God wants to accelerate even that heart 655 00:41:40.560 --> 00:41:44.880 healing process for you sometimes hearing again the stories of other 656 00:41:44.880 --> 00:41:48.320 people who are like oh my gosh I went through something like that too or I 657 00:41:48.680 --> 00:41:53.200 remember this now because you heard something from someone else. And so as 658 00:41:53.200 --> 00:41:59.080 you are facing these disappointments rising to the surface tonight absolutely 659 00:41:59.080 --> 00:42:03.160 want to encourage you all to utilize that forgiveness prayer sheet. You can 660 00:42:03.160 --> 00:42:07.160 find that no matter what week you're on under the welcome tab in the heart 661 00:42:07.160 --> 00:42:12.640 recourse. You're going to go ahead and forgive those people that hurt you. 662 00:42:12.640 --> 00:42:16.240 Forgive those people that disappointed you. And I want you to be specific. I 663 00:42:16.280 --> 00:42:21.880 want you to write out what what you put in the chat here tonight and forgive 664 00:42:21.880 --> 00:42:27.320 those people and allow God to come in and heal these areas in your heart and 665 00:42:27.320 --> 00:42:32.880 your life. I want to show you some practical ways we tend to say I'm just 666 00:42:32.880 --> 00:42:36.720 going to do it myself God I've got this. These are how these show up in our daily 667 00:42:36.720 --> 00:42:40.400 lives. I'm going to give you a couple tonight relationship areas controlling 668 00:42:40.400 --> 00:42:43.840 conversations or outcomes during conflict rather than seeking God's 669 00:42:44.160 --> 00:42:48.920 wisdom first. Making major relationship decisions without prayer or godly 670 00:42:48.920 --> 00:42:54.360 counsel. Trying to earn love through performance instead of resting in God's 671 00:42:54.360 --> 00:42:58.880 unconditional love. In the financial and career area it can show up like this 672 00:42:58.880 --> 00:43:02.520 making financial decisions based solely on our own understanding again without 673 00:43:02.520 --> 00:43:06.960 seeking God's direction. Hoarding resources out of fear instead of 674 00:43:06.960 --> 00:43:14.800 trusting God as our provider. Parenting and family trying to control our 675 00:43:14.800 --> 00:43:20.200 children's every choice instead of training them and trusting God with 676 00:43:20.200 --> 00:43:25.080 their hearts. Training them to trust God with their hearts that sounded funny 677 00:43:25.080 --> 00:43:30.640 when I said it. Fixing every problem for our kids rather than allowing them to 678 00:43:30.640 --> 00:43:37.320 learn and grow through challenges. I know that we all love our kids but in 679 00:43:37.320 --> 00:43:43.600 our world in our society so many people have become helicopter parents right? Our 680 00:43:43.600 --> 00:43:50.040 kids have not been developing in the same way being able to make decisions. So 681 00:43:50.040 --> 00:43:56.480 many young kids are struggling to make decisions at all. Personal growth 682 00:43:56.480 --> 00:43:59.360 white-knuckling through bad habits instead of inviting God into the 683 00:43:59.400 --> 00:44:07.640 transformation process. Do you have any bad habits ladies? Are you trying to face 684 00:44:07.640 --> 00:44:12.880 these alone? I'm not saying it's always going to be an easy solution but I even 685 00:44:12.880 --> 00:44:17.480 recently some of the challenges I'm going through with the weight gain is 686 00:44:17.480 --> 00:44:21.720 hormonal. Some of it I don't even know. I feel like it's some of it's the enemy 687 00:44:21.720 --> 00:44:26.560 just warring against me as I'm trying like I'm going to chiropractors, I'm 688 00:44:26.560 --> 00:44:30.600 taking supplements, I'm walking, I'm doing I'm eating healthy, I'm doing all 689 00:44:30.600 --> 00:44:35.200 the things and I'm like feels like it's all attracting to me what is happening 690 00:44:35.200 --> 00:44:42.080 and I'm making light of it a little bit but it's a real struggle and I've had 691 00:44:42.080 --> 00:44:45.920 this posted up I don't have it right now because I'm in a different room tonight 692 00:44:45.920 --> 00:44:53.240 but that when I feel overwhelmed that I will turn to God before I turn to food 693 00:44:53.320 --> 00:44:57.880 for comfort and that's what I wrote out on a post-it note and so I would see 694 00:44:57.880 --> 00:45:01.720 that every day like hanging up it's 695 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:01.560 It's like right on my ring light. 696 00:45:02.000 --> 00:45:05.280 Um, and so when I would sit at my desk, that ring light just sits right there in 697 00:45:05.280 --> 00:45:05.560 front. 698 00:45:06.040 --> 00:45:10.800 And so maybe yours is not that maybe it's something else, but where you are just 699 00:45:10.800 --> 00:45:16.280 going to choose to not white knuckle it anymore, but to ask God to supernaturally 700 00:45:16.280 --> 00:45:21.000 surrender that process to him and ask him to help you because we have to be 701 00:45:21.000 --> 00:45:25.440 intentional about these things, trying to heal our own emotional wounds without 702 00:45:25.440 --> 00:45:29.520 letting God into the painful places, comparing our journey to others, trying 703 00:45:29.520 --> 00:45:34.120 to fast track our growth, some of the other white knuckling, you know, through 704 00:45:34.120 --> 00:45:34.720 bad habits. 705 00:45:34.720 --> 00:45:38.200 Remember, we're not looking for short, short term behavior change ladies. 706 00:45:38.960 --> 00:45:39.160 Okay. 707 00:45:39.160 --> 00:45:42.040 We're not, we don't want you to come in here and be like, you got to get all 708 00:45:42.040 --> 00:45:42.920 cleaned up. 709 00:45:43.880 --> 00:45:48.200 No, like, of course I would love, I want you all to break free. 710 00:45:48.400 --> 00:45:49.600 I want to see you grow. 711 00:45:49.600 --> 00:45:52.520 I want to see you heal, but I don't want it to be fake. 712 00:45:52.960 --> 00:45:56.120 You don't need to perform for me or anybody else in here. 713 00:45:58.120 --> 00:45:58.640 Okay. 714 00:45:59.760 --> 00:46:04.160 The best thing you can do is be real with yourself and be real with each 715 00:46:04.160 --> 00:46:09.800 other and the process with the Lord, even being real with the Lord and, and 716 00:46:09.800 --> 00:46:11.840 asking him a lot of really good questions. 717 00:46:11.840 --> 00:46:15.200 When something comes up in your spirit, please don't think things are too 718 00:46:15.200 --> 00:46:16.920 small and be like, well, that's weird. 719 00:46:17.360 --> 00:46:19.080 That's how we tend to treat ourselves. 720 00:46:19.440 --> 00:46:23.720 If we haven't learned how to treat ourselves while growing up, if a thought 721 00:46:23.720 --> 00:46:29.000 bubbles up in your spirit, I want you to like, pause like, oh, well, I haven't 722 00:46:29.000 --> 00:46:30.440 thought of that in a long time. 723 00:46:31.000 --> 00:46:33.320 Lord, are you trying to show me something through that? 724 00:46:35.760 --> 00:46:38.760 If you start seeing the same scripture over and over, there might be something 725 00:46:38.760 --> 00:46:40.800 God's trying to say to you through that scripture. 726 00:46:41.400 --> 00:46:43.960 Those are the kinds of things you want to lean into and you want to ask the 727 00:46:43.960 --> 00:46:46.920 Lord to search you and know you. 728 00:46:48.400 --> 00:46:48.920 Right. 729 00:46:49.760 --> 00:46:52.080 Creating you a clean heart, creating me a clean heart. 730 00:46:52.080 --> 00:46:56.600 Oh God, renew a steadfast spirit in me that he would cleanse us from all 731 00:46:56.600 --> 00:47:00.840 unrighteousness and that he would heal us in the depths of our souls. 732 00:47:00.840 --> 00:47:06.200 John 14, 25 through 27 says this, all this I've spoken while still with you, 733 00:47:06.200 --> 00:47:11.600 but the advocate, the Holy Spirit, whom the father will send in my name. 734 00:47:11.600 --> 00:47:15.440 This is Jesus talking, will teach you all things and will remind you of 735 00:47:15.440 --> 00:47:16.640 everything I've said to you. 736 00:47:16.640 --> 00:47:18.680 Peace I leave with you. 737 00:47:19.240 --> 00:47:20.840 My peace I give you. 738 00:47:21.640 --> 00:47:23.840 I do not give to you as the world gives. 739 00:47:24.400 --> 00:47:29.200 Do not let your hearts be troubled and do not be afraid. 740 00:47:30.360 --> 00:47:35.120 I want to remind you all in this process, it's called supernatural surrender. 741 00:47:35.720 --> 00:47:39.360 It's not called, get your shovels out and it's time to dig. 742 00:47:40.080 --> 00:47:40.640 Okay. 743 00:47:41.680 --> 00:47:43.040 What do I mean by that? 744 00:47:43.600 --> 00:47:47.280 I mean, literally, I don't want you to go digging for answers. 745 00:47:47.280 --> 00:47:50.800 I don't want you calling out all of your aunts and all your moms and, you 746 00:47:50.800 --> 00:47:55.760 know, all the things trying to piece it all together for yourself. 747 00:47:56.560 --> 00:47:59.600 If God does lead you to have a conversation, that's fine. 748 00:48:00.000 --> 00:48:04.480 But what I have found in myself, I did this years ago as well. 749 00:48:04.880 --> 00:48:06.200 It doesn't end up well. 750 00:48:06.200 --> 00:48:11.880 You all, I started asking all kinds of questions, talking to my aunt, talking 751 00:48:11.880 --> 00:48:16.160 to my sister, trying to figure out where all the cracks were because I 752 00:48:16.160 --> 00:48:18.160 wanted it all healed at one time. 753 00:48:18.360 --> 00:48:19.080 I'm not kidding. 754 00:48:19.320 --> 00:48:20.720 I was a little detective. 755 00:48:22.240 --> 00:48:23.240 I love detective shows. 756 00:48:23.240 --> 00:48:28.000 You all, my husband and I, it's so funny watching the show. 757 00:48:28.000 --> 00:48:30.800 We were watching this little, uh, shoot. 758 00:48:30.800 --> 00:48:33.640 I forget even a little teeny bopper investigator show. 759 00:48:33.640 --> 00:48:36.240 Literally he, he was making fun of me at first. 760 00:48:36.240 --> 00:48:37.880 You're watching another teeny bopper show. 761 00:48:37.880 --> 00:48:40.400 And, and before long, he sucked into it with me. 762 00:48:40.400 --> 00:48:41.320 I'm like, uh-huh. 763 00:48:41.360 --> 00:48:42.080 You like it too. 764 00:48:42.360 --> 00:48:47.800 But I'm bringing that up because we are teasing each other because he got 765 00:48:47.800 --> 00:48:51.240 something right last night about the investigative show and I got 766 00:48:51.240 --> 00:48:56.120 something right tonight, but I'm saying that because I, I even remember 767 00:48:56.120 --> 00:48:57.080 like, that's how I felt. 768 00:48:57.080 --> 00:48:59.360 I was like, I'm going to, I'm going to figure this out. 769 00:49:00.360 --> 00:49:01.480 I'm going to piece it all together. 770 00:49:01.480 --> 00:49:04.120 I'm going to finally break the code in our family. 771 00:49:06.000 --> 00:49:08.320 And, uh, it didn't go well. 772 00:49:08.320 --> 00:49:12.680 I ended up having a lot of pain because the things that I unsurfaced, I was not 773 00:49:12.680 --> 00:49:15.880 ready for, it was way bigger than I even knew. 774 00:49:16.880 --> 00:49:18.960 And so I want to encourage you, please don't do that. 775 00:49:19.080 --> 00:49:19.600 Okay. 776 00:49:20.160 --> 00:49:23.880 You're going to pray and you're going to ask the Lord to reveal things for 777 00:49:23.880 --> 00:49:24.320 healing. 778 00:49:24.320 --> 00:49:29.640 And you're going to trust that what he reveals at the right time is what you 779 00:49:29.640 --> 00:49:30.880 need to know at that time. 780 00:49:31.400 --> 00:49:36.440 And you know, there might come a day when he will reveal more to you and maybe he 781 00:49:36.440 --> 00:49:40.000 won't y'all there's huge chunks of my life that I don't remember. 782 00:49:40.680 --> 00:49:41.560 And you know what? 783 00:49:42.160 --> 00:49:43.680 I'm kind of good with that now. 784 00:49:44.440 --> 00:49:48.440 If there's anything God wants me to remember, he'll show me. 785 00:49:50.360 --> 00:49:54.800 And it is kind of sad because I think, oh, well, I literally don't remember like 786 00:49:54.800 --> 00:49:59.000 anything from when I was little from this age to this age, literally. 787 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:07.280 I have pictures to prove things, but I don't remember that. I don't remember those things. 788 00:50:08.800 --> 00:50:15.360 But God is protecting me and I know that. Okay, back then I didn't understand that. So, 789 00:50:16.480 --> 00:50:21.280 don't dig. You want to pull the thread. Okay, so when I was talking earlier, 790 00:50:21.280 --> 00:50:26.960 this is the little thing I've kind of coined is pull the thread. When a memory comes up 791 00:50:27.680 --> 00:50:31.600 that you don't push it down, you just kind of lightly like pull the thread. Okay, 792 00:50:31.600 --> 00:50:37.600 Lord, what is this about? Is there anything you want to show me connected to this? And that's 793 00:50:37.600 --> 00:50:42.320 what I mean by pulling thread. If you've ever pulled a thread in your shirt, it starts to 794 00:50:42.320 --> 00:50:49.040 unravel other things at times, right? Okay, so that's what I mean by that. If you haven't already 795 00:50:49.040 --> 00:50:53.920 done so throughout, you know, all of this process, maybe you just started yesterday, 796 00:50:53.920 --> 00:51:00.000 maybe you're three or four weeks in, that every day that you would, this is going to be part of 797 00:51:00.000 --> 00:51:05.040 our activations for this week, you would get that permission slip out. That's also under the welcome 798 00:51:05.040 --> 00:51:11.360 tab, the welcome area inside the Heart Work Core. Sorry, I said the welcome tab. That you print that 799 00:51:11.360 --> 00:51:16.880 permission slip out, you'll literally fill it out, genuinely put it up somewhere where you see it 800 00:51:16.880 --> 00:51:23.440 every day you will, and pray it out loud over yourself every day. Because it's an every day 801 00:51:23.440 --> 00:51:28.480 surrendering the pen. It's an everyday partnering with God, okay? All right, I'm going to put you 802 00:51:28.480 --> 00:51:35.920 on breakout session. The question tonight is, what are some things God is nudging you to surrender 803 00:51:35.920 --> 00:51:40.320 tonight? And you're just going to open up and talk to your sisters. I'm going to probably pair you 804 00:51:40.320 --> 00:51:45.760 two to a room. If you can't go into breakouts, please put that in the chat. And then I'll move 805 00:51:45.760 --> 00:51:50.400 people around. So if you get into your room and the other person doesn't show up, just wait for a 806 00:51:50.400 --> 00:51:57.600 few minutes. I'll try to move all of you as quickly as I can, all right? Totally fine, Lizzie. 807 00:51:59.360 --> 00:52:04.640 All right, I have some people already jumping off. All right, I'm losing some people here. 808 00:52:05.920 --> 00:52:08.720 Sorry y'all, I gotta keep adjusting this as people are jumping off. 809 00:52:10.640 --> 00:52:15.280 Some people can't do breakouts, and some people are afraid to do breakouts. Please don't leave 810 00:52:15.360 --> 00:52:19.520 if you're afraid. Let's press into it. Okay, let's do it afraid. 811 00:52:21.520 --> 00:52:26.640 All right, we're going to do six minutes. Go ahead and click to join those rooms as quick as you can. 812 00:52:28.800 --> 00:52:32.320 And it's totally fine if you can't do the breakout. You guys can stay here in the main room 813 00:52:33.120 --> 00:52:40.400 while I'm praying. All right, I gotta wait to see if these people get in there. Okay, here we go. 814 00:52:41.360 --> 00:52:45.680 As soon as I get everyone situated, I will start to pray for us. 815 00:52:51.280 --> 00:52:52.720 Who is that? That's nine. 816 00:52:55.840 --> 00:53:00.640 All right, Father, thank you so much for everything that you're already doing tonight. 817 00:53:00.640 --> 00:53:06.160 Thank you for even just showing me to pause and focus on the area of disappointment. 818 00:53:06.720 --> 00:53:12.560 God, I'm asking you to heal every area where there's been disappointment, even shame or guilt 819 00:53:13.600 --> 00:53:18.640 over different things, maybe even seeing things other kids had and that they couldn't have. 820 00:53:19.920 --> 00:53:22.800 I know that was some of the things in the chat. Lord, I thank you for 821 00:53:22.800 --> 00:53:26.480 revealing these things for healing. God, I'm asking you to give all the ladies that are 822 00:53:26.480 --> 00:53:31.360 talking right now about what they need to surrender tonight and in the days to come. 823 00:53:32.320 --> 00:53:37.280 And even those that are here in the main room, those that are going to watch the replay, 824 00:53:38.400 --> 00:53:44.880 that you would just help them to experience the fullness of your presence, the fullness of your 825 00:53:44.880 --> 00:53:51.760 joy, God, that you would help them to remember that. I just keep hearing that song, this is 826 00:53:51.760 --> 00:54:00.160 amazing, Grace. So that's for somebody tonight. I don't like to sing. I used to love to sing in the 827 00:54:00.160 --> 00:54:06.640 choir, but I don't like to sing by myself. But that goes on to say, this is unfailing love. 828 00:54:06.640 --> 00:54:13.360 I don't remember that you would take my place right up on the cross. It says something like that. 829 00:54:14.960 --> 00:54:18.720 I love that song, but that literally just came up in my spirit. So praise the Lord, 830 00:54:18.720 --> 00:54:24.720 that's for someone. The reminder tonight is that, you know, he took our place. He already 831 00:54:24.720 --> 00:54:31.600 bore the debt on the cross. He literally bought our freedom when he died for us. And he made a 832 00:54:31.600 --> 00:54:38.000 way for us to walk into healing, into redemption, into freedom. And so basically what we have to do 833 00:54:38.000 --> 00:54:43.760 on the earth is we have to walk it out to catch the physical realm up with the spiritual realm. 834 00:54:43.760 --> 00:54:49.760 It's already done. It's already done. Our healing is already done. The blessing of the promise of 835 00:54:49.840 --> 00:54:54.560 God's spirit made for you and who is best for you. He can help you walk that out. 836 00:54:55.600 --> 00:54:59.280 And we don't have to over-spiritualize it or make it too supernatural. 837 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.280 we just day by day by day. 838 00:55:02.280 --> 00:55:04.120 That's how I walked mine out every day. 839 00:55:04.120 --> 00:55:06.000 I was like, God, what can I do today? 840 00:55:06.000 --> 00:55:09.120 I mean, literal things that he would lead me to even pray. 841 00:55:09.980 --> 00:55:11.840 I remember the first time he said, 842 00:55:11.840 --> 00:55:14.800 say over yourself, I am a bride. 843 00:55:14.800 --> 00:55:17.040 And so in my house, in my apartment, 844 00:55:17.040 --> 00:55:17.880 that's what I had at the time. 845 00:55:17.880 --> 00:55:21.080 I'd walk around and I would say, I am a bride. 846 00:55:21.080 --> 00:55:23.440 I, Bethany Stanko, I'm a bride. 847 00:55:23.440 --> 00:55:25.400 God, I thank you that I'm a bride. 848 00:55:25.400 --> 00:55:27.840 And I just started speaking over my spirit 849 00:55:27.880 --> 00:55:30.080 because that's what God told me to do. 850 00:55:30.080 --> 00:55:32.400 Maybe that's not what God will lead you to do, 851 00:55:32.400 --> 00:55:35.540 but this is where asking God and being in the word, 852 00:55:35.540 --> 00:55:37.280 there were things I would be reading scripture 853 00:55:37.280 --> 00:55:38.400 and he would say something to me. 854 00:55:38.400 --> 00:55:41.000 He'd say, profess this over yourself. 855 00:55:41.000 --> 00:55:42.720 And I would write it out and I'd hang it up 856 00:55:42.720 --> 00:55:45.320 and I would start declaring that thing over myself. 857 00:55:46.280 --> 00:55:48.520 I remember one time Jackie talked about, 858 00:55:49.640 --> 00:55:54.640 coming out of agreement with independence 859 00:55:54.960 --> 00:55:58.680 and coming into agreement with dependence on God. 860 00:55:58.680 --> 00:56:00.040 Wrote that on a sticky note 861 00:56:00.040 --> 00:56:02.000 because that spoke to me a lot too. 862 00:56:02.000 --> 00:56:03.680 Because I'm misindependent. 863 00:56:03.680 --> 00:56:05.400 I can do it myself. 864 00:56:05.400 --> 00:56:07.080 I prided myself on that. 865 00:56:07.080 --> 00:56:10.040 But you know what, really underneath of that pride, 866 00:56:10.040 --> 00:56:12.120 and I wasn't trying to be prideful, 867 00:56:12.960 --> 00:56:17.400 but underneath that pride was really pain and sadness 868 00:56:17.400 --> 00:56:21.560 because people weren't there for me. 869 00:56:21.560 --> 00:56:23.860 Not everybody, but the people that, you know, 870 00:56:23.900 --> 00:56:25.780 that I would consider my mom and my dad, 871 00:56:25.780 --> 00:56:28.900 the people that I really needed to be there. 872 00:56:28.900 --> 00:56:31.200 And it wasn't that my mom completely abandoned me, 873 00:56:31.200 --> 00:56:33.140 but she neglected me a lot. 874 00:56:34.900 --> 00:56:36.760 But she was pretty broken too. 875 00:56:36.760 --> 00:56:38.860 And I have a lot of love for her. 876 00:56:38.860 --> 00:56:41.020 My mom passed away in 2022. 877 00:56:42.100 --> 00:56:44.020 And I'm thankful for all the good things 878 00:56:44.020 --> 00:56:45.180 that she did for me too. 879 00:56:45.180 --> 00:56:50.180 So let's be thankful for whatever God is showing us tonight. 880 00:56:50.340 --> 00:56:53.460 Even in that, maybe it's supernaturally surrendering, 881 00:56:54.580 --> 00:56:59.380 anger, sadness, upset towards parents or guardians 882 00:56:59.380 --> 00:57:01.380 or brothers and sisters who let us down. 883 00:57:01.380 --> 00:57:03.900 So Father, I just pray over that right now. 884 00:57:03.900 --> 00:57:05.340 Father, I thank you that you would help us 885 00:57:05.340 --> 00:57:07.360 to surrender these things. 886 00:57:08.580 --> 00:57:11.940 I'm hearing too, the people that have harmed us, 887 00:57:11.940 --> 00:57:15.780 abusers, people that have walked out on us. 888 00:57:15.780 --> 00:57:17.900 God, I thank you that you would heal 889 00:57:17.940 --> 00:57:20.900 the depths of our heart and souls in these areas, God, 890 00:57:20.900 --> 00:57:23.060 where there have been these chasms 891 00:57:23.060 --> 00:57:25.300 and the crevices of our soul. 892 00:57:25.300 --> 00:57:28.480 They're harboring resentment and bitterness, God. 893 00:57:29.420 --> 00:57:31.700 I just ask you Holy Spirit to release right now 894 00:57:31.700 --> 00:57:34.900 in the name of Jesus Christ, a spirit of forgiveness, 895 00:57:34.900 --> 00:57:38.700 a spirit of healing, a spirit of reconciliation. 896 00:57:38.700 --> 00:57:42.660 Yes, Lord, I declare a reckoning in the spirit realm. 897 00:57:42.660 --> 00:57:44.480 God, that you would loose angels 898 00:57:44.480 --> 00:57:46.700 to come in war on our behalf. 899 00:57:46.700 --> 00:57:49.500 God, that you would send warring angels 900 00:57:49.500 --> 00:57:51.940 for everybody that's a part of the heart work, 901 00:57:51.940 --> 00:57:55.420 this community, God, that you would just literally continue 902 00:57:55.420 --> 00:57:59.220 to help us to have nighttime dreams, daydreams, God, 903 00:57:59.220 --> 00:58:00.900 that we would have divine connection 904 00:58:00.900 --> 00:58:03.300 and revelation with you. 905 00:58:03.300 --> 00:58:06.620 God, I thank you that you would help us to definitely, 906 00:58:06.620 --> 00:58:09.220 yes, Lord, literally have a divine channel, 907 00:58:09.220 --> 00:58:11.900 like pick up the phone and Lord, I can hear you, 908 00:58:11.900 --> 00:58:13.940 where there's been things that have been hindering 909 00:58:13.940 --> 00:58:15.740 our ability to hear you, God. 910 00:58:15.740 --> 00:58:17.900 Maybe some people think they can't even hear you, 911 00:58:17.900 --> 00:58:19.260 God, at all. 912 00:58:19.260 --> 00:58:21.880 I pray that you would surprise them with fun things 913 00:58:21.880 --> 00:58:24.000 that all of a sudden they would just start to recognize, 914 00:58:24.000 --> 00:58:26.660 like even in scripture, like, oh, God, 915 00:58:26.660 --> 00:58:28.860 you're speaking to me through that right now. 916 00:58:28.860 --> 00:58:30.980 Or something that they read in a book 917 00:58:30.980 --> 00:58:32.620 or something that someone says to them 918 00:58:32.620 --> 00:58:34.320 or a sermon that they hear, God, 919 00:58:34.320 --> 00:58:36.900 that they would start to know that you love them, 920 00:58:36.900 --> 00:58:39.660 that you speak, you're always speaking, God, 921 00:58:39.660 --> 00:58:44.660 and you're excited for them to have a two-way conversation. 922 00:58:44.660 --> 00:58:46.460 So Lord, we just thank you for that blessing. 923 00:58:46.460 --> 00:58:49.340 We thank you, God, for the ability 924 00:58:49.340 --> 00:58:53.300 to supernaturally surrender in every area of our lives, 925 00:58:53.300 --> 00:58:55.820 that everything that has been broken in the past, 926 00:58:55.820 --> 00:58:58.680 God, is gonna be restored. 927 00:58:58.680 --> 00:59:02.900 I thank you, God, for reminding us of all the good things 928 00:59:02.900 --> 00:59:04.260 that have happened in the past, 929 00:59:04.260 --> 00:59:06.940 the good things that are still yet to come, 930 00:59:06.940 --> 00:59:10.980 that we would, yeah, Lord, receive a fresh word from heaven 931 00:59:10.980 --> 00:59:15.140 and declare, God, your goodness and your mercy 932 00:59:16.260 --> 00:59:18.260 and the full measure of your grace 933 00:59:18.260 --> 00:59:20.580 over our lives and other people. 934 00:59:20.580 --> 00:59:21.580 In Jesus' name. 935 00:59:21.580 --> 00:59:23.800 I'm looking for something real quick, ladies, 936 00:59:23.800 --> 00:59:27.200 because I wanna bring something up and show you. 937 00:59:27.200 --> 00:59:28.940 And I thought I had it somewhere else 938 00:59:28.940 --> 00:59:29.940 and I could not find it. 939 00:59:29.940 --> 00:59:32.120 So give me one second. 940 00:59:33.580 --> 00:59:34.420 Here we go. 941 00:59:41.980 --> 00:59:44.400 Gotta share my screen with you. 942 00:59:45.660 --> 00:59:46.780 All right, I'm gonna talk real quick 943 00:59:46.780 --> 00:59:48.560 about the Jesus Cares Board. 944 00:59:48.560 --> 00:59:50.260 Everybody's boards are different. 945 00:59:50.260 --> 00:59:52.820 So yours does not have to look like this, 946 00:59:52.820 --> 00:59:55.700 but this is an example of one of our ladies. 947 00:59:55.700 --> 00:59:58.660 She felt led to do Post-it Notes that were heart-shaped. 948 00:59:58.660 --> 00:59:59.820 You can do whatever you want. 949 00:59:59.820 --> 01:00:01.860 She felt led to do a lot of things. 950 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:04.240 beltlet to put scriptures. You don't have to do that if you don't want. This is, again, 951 01:00:01.860 --> 01:00:04.860 She felt led to do a lot of things that were heart-shaped. 952 01:00:04.240 --> 01:00:07.960 tonight I'm just showing you some different aspects, ladies, of what you can do because 953 01:00:04.860 --> 01:00:07.860 She felt led to do a lot of things that were heart-shaped. 954 01:00:07.860 --> 01:00:10.860 She felt led to do a lot of things that were heart-shaped. 955 01:00:07.960 --> 01:00:14.960 I want you to see how simple it is, okay? This lady just used a board that she put in 956 01:00:14.960 --> 01:00:21.200 her kitchen and had her Post-Its on there. I do want to encourage you all, while family 957 01:00:21.200 --> 01:00:24.880 is good, okay, there's nothing wrong with that. She didn't do anything wrong, okay? 958 01:00:24.880 --> 01:00:28.720 You guys are never going to get in trouble, okay? So those of you that got in trouble 959 01:00:28.880 --> 01:00:32.960 for assignments in school and you're afraid to turn anything in, it's not going to be 960 01:00:32.960 --> 01:00:37.840 like that here, okay? I might encourage you to stretch a little bit more. In this case, 961 01:00:37.840 --> 01:00:42.900 that's why I want to point this out. Now, she might have had kids in her home, too, 962 01:00:42.900 --> 01:00:46.280 so that might be why she didn't list these things out. I don't know. But I'm just using 963 01:00:46.280 --> 01:00:52.680 this as an example. I want to encourage you all to get specific. Like, if you have needs 964 01:00:52.680 --> 01:00:58.120 in your family, like, what are they specifically? Like, what area do you need Jesus to work 965 01:00:58.120 --> 01:01:02.920 in your family right now? What area in your health or your finances, okay? 966 01:01:02.920 --> 01:01:06.520 All right, here's another one. Again, I'm going to kind of go through these kind of 967 01:01:06.520 --> 01:01:10.800 quick. I just want to plant some seeds for you. This one is, this one excites, they all 968 01:01:10.800 --> 01:01:15.080 excite me, but this one, I remember when I first saw it, she put herself on Jesus Cares 969 01:01:15.080 --> 01:01:22.080 Board. I loved this. I was like, I never thought of that. I think this is great. She just wanted 970 01:01:22.080 --> 01:01:25.600 to remember every day that when she looked at her Jesus Cares Board that she could trust 971 01:01:25.600 --> 01:01:32.040 Jesus with herself. Even though all those things have to do with her, that she actually 972 01:01:32.040 --> 01:01:37.640 could trust him with herself. The reason I wanted to show you this one, again, another 973 01:01:37.640 --> 01:01:41.620 example, different words and things she put on here, but at the bottom, she put these 974 01:01:41.620 --> 01:01:47.400 two little heart boxes. Can you all see that? Let me make that a little bigger. One for 975 01:01:47.400 --> 01:01:52.920 childhood and one for adult. She had kids in her home, and she did not want her kids 976 01:01:52.920 --> 01:01:59.920 to see these private areas, so she made these little boxes and put the note things inside 977 01:02:00.440 --> 01:02:06.080 the box. I was like, that is so creative. She knew what those represented, and I thought 978 01:02:06.080 --> 01:02:11.280 that was great. This lady just used a door in her house. Great, this is perfect. They're 979 01:02:11.280 --> 01:02:16.720 all amazing ladies. Here's another one, the last one I was going to show you. Again, some 980 01:02:16.720 --> 01:02:21.120 people are scrapbookers, so they have some of that kind of stuff. They really feel led 981 01:02:21.120 --> 01:02:26.800 to make it a little more creative. There's no right or wrong. Everybody's is going to 982 01:02:26.800 --> 01:02:33.800 be amazing and great. The point is to do it. Let's not wait for it to be perfect. Again, 983 01:02:35.280 --> 01:02:40.220 you're going to learn more about it as you go. The goal, one of your first activations 984 01:02:40.220 --> 01:02:45.480 for this week is to A, do the permission slip that I already talked about. Number two is 985 01:02:45.480 --> 01:02:50.240 to do your Jesus Cares Board. Some of you that are in here, if you've already done your 986 01:02:50.240 --> 01:02:54.720 Jesus Cares Board, I want to encourage you to pray and ask the Lord if there's anything 987 01:02:54.720 --> 01:02:59.840 new you need to put on there. Is there anything on there that God already answered? Now you 988 01:02:59.840 --> 01:03:05.680 can put it under your Answered Prayers area. I started taking my Answered Prayers off and 989 01:03:05.680 --> 01:03:09.640 putting them on a different sheet of paper that I have hanging up in my office. I love 990 01:03:09.640 --> 01:03:16.640 to just go stand and look at that paper sometimes. Yes, God did that. God answered that. It encourages 991 01:03:16.960 --> 01:03:22.320 me. That's something I started doing. I hope if you choose to do that, it encourages you 992 01:03:22.320 --> 01:03:28.440 too. I'll put these in the group for you all. I call them morning and evening surrender 993 01:03:28.440 --> 01:03:32.840 moments. In the morning, before getting out of bed, place your hand on your heart and 994 01:03:32.840 --> 01:03:38.840 ask, Holy Spirit, what am I trying to control today that belongs to you? Then speak it out. 995 01:03:38.840 --> 01:03:45.360 I surrender my need to control whatever it is today. Before you go to bed, put your hand 996 01:03:45.360 --> 01:03:52.880 on your heart. Ask the Lord, what did I pick back up today that I had given to you? Then 997 01:03:52.880 --> 01:03:59.280 resurrender it. Jesus, I place whatever it is back into your hands before I go to sleep 998 01:03:59.280 --> 01:04:04.600 tonight. I think I even need to do this. It's been a while since I did this, but even reading 999 01:04:04.600 --> 01:04:08.460 it out loud, sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night with things on my mind. Anybody 1000 01:04:08.460 --> 01:04:13.200 else relate to that? This might be one of those ways we can really work on releasing 1001 01:04:13.200 --> 01:04:17.960 these things off of us before we go to bed. They also say if you just write a couple things 1002 01:04:17.960 --> 01:04:21.760 that are on your mind before you go to bed. I saw a lot of people shaking their heads 1003 01:04:21.760 --> 01:04:25.400 about waking up in the middle of the night, but if we write those things down, that might 1004 01:04:25.400 --> 01:04:31.320 be helpful. Some of it too, for the ladies that are probably around my age, it's our 1005 01:04:31.320 --> 01:04:38.200 bodies. Unfortunately, there's not much we can do about that right now. I would love 1006 01:04:38.280 --> 01:04:43.840 for you, whoever is willing, to share with the whole group what you shared in your private 1007 01:04:43.840 --> 01:04:50.680 breakout session about what is God nudging you to surrender to Him tonight. Joy's going 1008 01:04:50.680 --> 01:04:57.280 to go first. Is there anyone else? Joy's going to go, but if you want to also go after Joy, 1009 01:04:57.280 --> 01:05:00.040 you can raise your hand. We have until 9.30 tonight, ladies. 1010 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.800 Okay, Joy, what are you gonna surrender tonight? 1011 01:05:05.560 --> 01:05:09.900 I want to surrender my will and the time, 1012 01:05:10.800 --> 01:05:13.320 plans, balance, emotion. 1013 01:05:13.320 --> 01:05:18.320 I told that to, yeah, sister in the breakout room. 1014 01:05:20.200 --> 01:05:22.080 I want to surrender, but the thing, 1015 01:05:22.080 --> 01:05:26.200 I decide to surrender, but then I think sometimes 1016 01:05:26.200 --> 01:05:31.200 my will really, maybe because the past wounds and trauma, 1017 01:05:32.520 --> 01:05:37.520 so I have like a whole, sometimes I desire something. 1018 01:05:39.760 --> 01:05:42.440 With them, I would desire to spend time with Laurie 1019 01:05:42.440 --> 01:05:46.560 and to spend the time to know him and see his face 1020 01:05:46.560 --> 01:05:48.020 and declutter my room. 1021 01:05:48.960 --> 01:05:51.120 I just want to use the time, 1022 01:05:51.120 --> 01:05:55.680 and, but I did not search for job, 1023 01:05:55.720 --> 01:05:59.020 because right now I don't have the work permit right now. 1024 01:05:59.020 --> 01:06:04.020 So I have to really to wait to seek for a job, 1025 01:06:05.880 --> 01:06:08.960 but I do need money to pay rent, 1026 01:06:08.960 --> 01:06:12.880 and so I have to really to help myself. 1027 01:06:12.880 --> 01:06:15.880 I need God's help to help me to surrender my will, 1028 01:06:15.880 --> 01:06:20.880 my time, my schedule, my emotion, my finance, my plan. 1029 01:06:21.360 --> 01:06:22.960 I just need help. 1030 01:06:22.960 --> 01:06:27.000 Sometimes I don't want to say I have a strong will 1031 01:06:27.000 --> 01:06:30.360 or strong desire, but I just need help. 1032 01:06:30.360 --> 01:06:31.400 I want to surrender. 1033 01:06:31.400 --> 01:06:34.080 I want to align God's perfect will and plan. 1034 01:06:34.080 --> 01:06:38.440 I want it, but then there's a war between, 1035 01:06:38.440 --> 01:06:42.080 battle between two, and sometimes I need to know, 1036 01:06:42.080 --> 01:06:45.720 is this your desire or is my own fresh desire 1037 01:06:45.720 --> 01:06:47.620 or my own hard desire? 1038 01:06:47.620 --> 01:06:50.780 So clarity needed, yeah. 1039 01:06:50.780 --> 01:06:52.020 It's really good, Joy. 1040 01:06:52.020 --> 01:06:53.700 One of the things as you were talking, 1041 01:06:53.700 --> 01:06:55.740 I was just thinking about years ago, 1042 01:06:57.540 --> 01:06:59.180 as a parent, I was reading, 1043 01:06:59.180 --> 01:07:01.380 I don't even remember what it's exactly called, 1044 01:07:01.380 --> 01:07:03.620 but it was about like when you have strong-willed children, 1045 01:07:03.620 --> 01:07:05.620 how to not break that in them, you know, 1046 01:07:05.620 --> 01:07:09.420 because that's actually a gift that God puts in us. 1047 01:07:09.420 --> 01:07:14.140 And so we want to surrender, 1048 01:07:14.140 --> 01:07:17.300 and we want to be willing to be made willing 1049 01:07:17.300 --> 01:07:19.380 to do what the Lord is leading us to do, right, 1050 01:07:19.380 --> 01:07:20.540 and follow through. 1051 01:07:21.500 --> 01:07:22.500 But when you said, 1052 01:07:22.500 --> 01:07:24.860 I don't know if I'm strong-willed or what, 1053 01:07:24.860 --> 01:07:26.540 I just heard persistence. 1054 01:07:26.540 --> 01:07:29.340 And we talk a lot, like Jackie has shared, 1055 01:07:29.340 --> 01:07:33.060 if we have a gift and it gets overextended, right, 1056 01:07:33.060 --> 01:07:35.700 it can lead us in the opposite direction. 1057 01:07:35.700 --> 01:07:38.060 And so I think maybe with some of the things 1058 01:07:38.060 --> 01:07:39.480 you've had to go through, 1059 01:07:40.420 --> 01:07:44.540 that you've developed this persistence within yourself, 1060 01:07:44.540 --> 01:07:47.260 you know, this self-reliance. 1061 01:07:47.260 --> 01:07:49.380 When you all were in the breakout sessions, 1062 01:07:49.380 --> 01:07:51.580 one of the things that came up, 1063 01:07:51.580 --> 01:07:53.300 you know, different things bubble up in my spirit. 1064 01:07:53.300 --> 01:07:55.940 Sometimes I pray, sometimes I talk, 1065 01:07:55.940 --> 01:07:58.480 but it was something that Jackie said, 1066 01:07:58.480 --> 01:08:00.300 and I put it on a Post-it note years ago, 1067 01:08:00.300 --> 01:08:02.300 and she said to pray, 1068 01:08:02.300 --> 01:08:05.660 to come out of alignment with independence, 1069 01:08:06.660 --> 01:08:11.660 and to come into alignment with dependence on God. 1070 01:08:12.380 --> 01:08:16.040 And so one of the ways I think that you or anyone else 1071 01:08:16.040 --> 01:08:20.080 that is struggling with this self-will, if you will, 1072 01:08:20.080 --> 01:08:21.680 a lot of wills in there, 1073 01:08:21.680 --> 01:08:26.359 is to pray to become more dependent on God, 1074 01:08:27.279 --> 01:08:31.359 and to walk out the things that he is leading us to do. 1075 01:08:31.359 --> 01:08:34.060 And so I wanna encourage you to also pray 1076 01:08:34.060 --> 01:08:38.560 that if that persistence in you that is a good quality, 1077 01:08:38.560 --> 01:08:41.140 because it's that fighter in you that keeps going, 1078 01:08:41.140 --> 01:08:42.899 no matter what you've been through, 1079 01:08:43.859 --> 01:08:46.859 if that's gotten overextended at all, 1080 01:08:46.859 --> 01:08:50.859 that God would bring that back into balance, 1081 01:08:50.859 --> 01:08:52.220 and really help you in the days ahead. 1082 01:08:52.220 --> 01:08:53.560 And yeah, I love that. 1083 01:08:53.560 --> 01:08:58.260 Let us all, when I say this, I'm like, 1084 01:08:58.260 --> 01:08:59.220 ooh, do I wanna say it? 1085 01:08:59.220 --> 01:09:01.720 Because it means I'm declaring it over myself too. 1086 01:09:02.979 --> 01:09:05.660 Let us all surrender our calendars. 1087 01:09:06.819 --> 01:09:08.140 What's that look like? 1088 01:09:10.300 --> 01:09:12.260 Even sometimes, ladies, I've been, 1089 01:09:12.660 --> 01:09:14.060 this is one of the ways I've even, 1090 01:09:14.060 --> 01:09:16.779 it might not sound like surrender, but it really is. 1091 01:09:16.779 --> 01:09:18.859 I've been putting blocks of time 1092 01:09:18.859 --> 01:09:21.740 for rest and recovery on my calendar. 1093 01:09:21.740 --> 01:09:24.540 I've literally been scheduling it in there, 1094 01:09:24.540 --> 01:09:28.700 because I'm working with Last Year Single, 1095 01:09:28.700 --> 01:09:31.340 I'm helping run a church with my husband, 1096 01:09:31.340 --> 01:09:32.620 I'm trying to write a book, 1097 01:09:32.620 --> 01:09:35.340 I have all these things that we're trying to do right now, 1098 01:09:35.340 --> 01:09:37.300 and it's all great stuff, 1099 01:09:38.300 --> 01:09:43.300 but I gotta make sure that I have enough of me left, right? 1100 01:09:43.740 --> 01:09:44.859 I wanna rest. 1101 01:09:45.859 --> 01:09:49.500 And so some of you might need to surrender 1102 01:09:49.500 --> 01:09:51.100 some things on your calendar 1103 01:09:51.100 --> 01:09:53.899 that are taking up the calendar right now, 1104 01:09:53.899 --> 01:09:55.140 and say no to some people. 1105 01:09:55.140 --> 01:09:56.980 Do you know how many people want, 1106 01:09:56.980 --> 01:09:58.180 and I don't mean this privately, 1107 01:09:58.180 --> 01:10:00.080 so many people want my time, but like, 1108 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:06.000 Like genuinely, I have to like, even when it's urgent for them, sometimes I have to say, 1109 01:10:06.000 --> 01:10:09.000 Hey, I love you, but I can't do this right now. 1110 01:10:09.000 --> 01:10:16.000 You know, and I'm learning how to do that at the church, even like a lot of expectations on a pastor's wife. 1111 01:10:16.000 --> 01:10:22.000 But praise the Lord, I'm learning how to lovingly be like, that's a great idea. 1112 01:10:22.000 --> 01:10:24.000 I don't think I'm going to do that right now. 1113 01:10:25.000 --> 01:10:31.000 You know, so again, I don't know who I'm giving these things to, but this isn't just about pastor's wives. 1114 01:10:31.000 --> 01:10:35.000 This is about having boundaries, right? 1115 01:10:35.000 --> 01:10:40.000 So as we have boundaries and we heal, we can come into this balance. 1116 01:10:40.000 --> 01:10:43.000 We come out of the overextension and whatever those gifts are. 1117 01:10:43.000 --> 01:10:48.000 We create space on our calendars for us to connect with God. 1118 01:10:48.000 --> 01:10:53.000 I've been doing these little diamond paintings and I just feel so peaceful when I'm doing them. 1119 01:10:53.000 --> 01:10:57.000 I don't have to think, I don't have to have an answer for anybody. 1120 01:10:57.000 --> 01:11:00.000 I just think I take the little thing and I put it on there. 1121 01:11:00.000 --> 01:11:02.000 I don't know if y'all have ever seen those. 1122 01:11:02.000 --> 01:11:03.000 It's very tedious. 1123 01:11:03.000 --> 01:11:12.000 And at first I was like, I don't know if I'm going to like this, but there's something about this calmness that I'm feeling in myself that I'm really liking. 1124 01:11:12.000 --> 01:11:15.000 And so find some things like that for yourself. 1125 01:11:15.000 --> 01:11:18.000 I know like, how does that connect to strong will? 1126 01:11:19.000 --> 01:11:23.000 If you know me, I love to take time. 1127 01:11:23.000 --> 01:11:24.000 I'm a puzzle girl. 1128 01:11:24.000 --> 01:11:36.000 Y'all, I love to do things to just kind of shift down, but to do things where I'm not constantly having my brain going or working and doing things is a whole other story. 1129 01:11:36.000 --> 01:11:41.000 So this diamond painting stuff, I'm not having to think. 1130 01:11:41.000 --> 01:11:46.000 I'm not having to overwork my mental or emotional state. 1131 01:11:46.000 --> 01:11:48.000 Does that make sense? 1132 01:11:48.000 --> 01:11:52.000 And even in that, I am surrendering. 1133 01:11:52.000 --> 01:12:02.000 So for some of you boss babes, you've just worked forever or your parents, you know, maybe you just, some of you don't feel good enough ever. 1134 01:12:02.000 --> 01:12:12.000 Those are the kind, maybe for you, it's not going to be diamond painting, but yeah, I see someone saying coloring books, you know, find the stuff that's going to bring, bring your stress level down. 1135 01:12:12.000 --> 01:12:13.000 All right. 1136 01:12:13.000 --> 01:12:14.000 Okay. 1137 01:12:14.000 --> 01:12:17.000 Chrissy. 1138 01:12:17.000 --> 01:12:21.000 Oh, before, before that, I didn't quickly mention one thing. 1139 01:12:21.000 --> 01:12:25.000 Yesterday I spoke to a sister from Virginia. 1140 01:12:26.000 --> 01:12:32.000 And she said she has, she has a mentioned big house. 1141 01:12:32.000 --> 01:12:45.000 He said you can just, just no longer move out the current space where I live and move to her place, Virginia. 1142 01:12:45.000 --> 01:12:54.000 And so, but, and she has a, she partnered with somebody have a restaurant. 1143 01:12:54.000 --> 01:12:57.000 And she said, maybe you can walk a restaurant to help me. 1144 01:12:57.000 --> 01:13:04.000 But then I have, it's kind of tempting for me to try. 1145 01:13:04.000 --> 01:13:12.000 But I mean, then I know in the church, I was, I was worship kind of leader, you know, kind. 1146 01:13:12.000 --> 01:13:18.000 So I'm people, several people told me, he said, I said, I must be able to worship. 1147 01:13:18.000 --> 01:13:24.000 So I know that at one time, several years ago, I left that church and something happened to that church, you know. 1148 01:13:24.000 --> 01:13:25.000 Okay. 1149 01:13:25.000 --> 01:13:26.000 But remember, that's God's church. 1150 01:13:26.000 --> 01:13:27.000 Okay. 1151 01:13:27.000 --> 01:13:30.000 God is in charge of the atmosphere there, sweetie. 1152 01:13:30.000 --> 01:13:31.000 Okay. 1153 01:13:31.000 --> 01:13:33.000 So you don't have to take responsibility for that. 1154 01:13:33.000 --> 01:13:37.000 If God is calling you and leading you to a place of provision, which is what you've been praying for. 1155 01:13:38.000 --> 01:13:44.000 I want to encourage you, you know, read your word, really, you know, step into the answer. 1156 01:13:44.000 --> 01:13:51.000 If that's the provision and the answer that you've been praying for, you don't need to keep looking back at this other thing again. 1157 01:13:51.000 --> 01:14:03.000 If something happens just because we're not in a place, well, then that church, I'm going to say this lovingly, hasn't raised up enough other people to do the ministry of Christ in that place. 1158 01:14:03.000 --> 01:14:04.000 Okay. 1159 01:14:04.000 --> 01:14:07.000 So that can get into a whole savior complex. 1160 01:14:07.000 --> 01:14:11.000 If we're not careful, it's really important to not get caught up in that kind of stuff. 1161 01:14:11.000 --> 01:14:14.000 So Joy, thank you so much for sharing. 1162 01:14:14.000 --> 01:14:16.000 We can chat more about that. 1163 01:14:16.000 --> 01:14:19.000 If you post in the group, we can chat more about that there. 1164 01:14:19.000 --> 01:14:20.000 Okay. 1165 01:14:20.000 --> 01:14:21.000 All right. 1166 01:14:21.000 --> 01:14:22.000 Awesome. 1167 01:14:22.000 --> 01:14:23.000 Thank you. 1168 01:14:23.000 --> 01:14:27.000 Chrissy, go ahead. 1169 01:14:27.000 --> 01:14:30.000 Okay. 1170 01:14:31.000 --> 01:14:39.000 So I, I really, I mean, you called me, you were, you said my name while you were talking about it, but being hyper independent. 1171 01:14:39.000 --> 01:14:41.000 I mean, that's for sure. 1172 01:14:41.000 --> 01:14:44.000 I have, and I shared this with Cindy. 1173 01:14:44.000 --> 01:14:49.000 I have worked on that a lot over the years. 1174 01:14:50.000 --> 01:14:53.000 And, and, and I'm like, I'm trying to be more like Jesus. 1175 01:14:53.000 --> 01:14:57.000 And like, like little things like that, accepting somebody's, you know, 1176 01:14:57.000 --> 01:15:00.000 lunch offer or somebody to open the door, 1177 01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:02.000 help me with my groceries or something. 1178 01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:02.800 they've been kind of bringing that back up again. 1179 01:15:02.000 --> 01:15:03.000 But. 1180 01:15:02.800 --> 01:15:04.720 And I just had a conversation with my mom, 1181 01:15:04.720 --> 01:15:06.600 I'm pretty sure it was yesterday, 1182 01:15:06.600 --> 01:15:08.680 might've been day four, I don't know, 1183 01:15:08.680 --> 01:15:10.120 days run by together, 1184 01:15:12.160 --> 01:15:16.000 specifically about that and like picking back up 1185 01:15:16.000 --> 01:15:18.700 that hyper responsibility, 1186 01:15:20.720 --> 01:15:22.880 but because it looks different 1187 01:15:22.880 --> 01:15:26.080 than it did the first time around, 1188 01:15:26.080 --> 01:15:27.920 I didn't pick up on that. 1189 01:15:28.920 --> 01:15:30.320 Yeah, and make sure you're just being 1190 01:15:30.320 --> 01:15:31.960 really gracious towards yourself, 1191 01:15:31.960 --> 01:15:34.880 not that you're not, but just for you or anyone else, 1192 01:15:34.880 --> 01:15:38.640 when something trips us up again, 1193 01:15:38.640 --> 01:15:41.200 sometimes we can have a tendency to be like, 1194 01:15:41.200 --> 01:15:42.400 why didn't I catch that sooner? 1195 01:15:42.400 --> 01:15:45.200 You know, kind of be like hard on ourself a little bit. 1196 01:15:45.200 --> 01:15:47.280 And so what I wanna encourage you in 1197 01:15:47.280 --> 01:15:51.000 is that you're learning the different things 1198 01:15:51.000 --> 01:15:52.800 that the tactics of the enemy, 1199 01:15:52.800 --> 01:15:54.880 and not that you're gonna focus on him, 1200 01:15:54.880 --> 01:15:56.240 but it's gonna be really helpful 1201 01:15:56.360 --> 01:15:57.680 because before long, 1202 01:15:57.680 --> 01:16:00.280 he's not gonna be able to trip you up with it, okay? 1203 01:16:00.280 --> 01:16:03.640 So you're learning some important things along the way. 1204 01:16:03.640 --> 01:16:06.640 This week, I wanna encourage you 1205 01:16:06.640 --> 01:16:10.200 to do some things opposite, okay? 1206 01:16:10.200 --> 01:16:12.920 So if you were feeling, tell me again, 1207 01:16:12.920 --> 01:16:15.000 the last thing that where you were stepping back 1208 01:16:15.000 --> 01:16:15.960 into doing some things, 1209 01:16:15.960 --> 01:16:17.080 what were some things you were doing 1210 01:16:17.080 --> 01:16:19.320 to be hyper responsible? 1211 01:16:19.320 --> 01:16:22.040 What were things you were picking up for other people? 1212 01:16:22.040 --> 01:16:26.080 I was, I think mainly with this women's ministry 1213 01:16:26.920 --> 01:16:27.960 that I had stepped into, 1214 01:16:27.960 --> 01:16:29.400 like I stepped into at first 1215 01:16:29.400 --> 01:16:34.240 because I just kind of secluded myself 1216 01:16:34.240 --> 01:16:35.720 and I had to step out 1217 01:16:35.720 --> 01:16:37.680 and they were doing a Bible study on Daniel, 1218 01:16:37.680 --> 01:16:39.120 so it picked me up. 1219 01:16:39.120 --> 01:16:42.280 But then I started picking up everything 1220 01:16:42.280 --> 01:16:43.720 and I became a board member 1221 01:16:43.720 --> 01:16:44.920 and I have to go to meetings 1222 01:16:44.920 --> 01:16:46.160 and then I have to go to this meeting 1223 01:16:46.160 --> 01:16:47.280 and we're doing a 5K 1224 01:16:47.280 --> 01:16:49.800 and every time I go in there, 1225 01:16:50.880 --> 01:16:54.080 somehow end up facing the leader 1226 01:16:54.120 --> 01:16:58.360 and I can feel her looking to me 1227 01:16:58.360 --> 01:17:00.440 to give her the next mark, 1228 01:17:00.440 --> 01:17:02.160 like to lead her in something. 1229 01:17:02.160 --> 01:17:05.800 And I will constantly sit in the room, 1230 01:17:05.800 --> 01:17:08.240 whatever we're doing with my head down 1231 01:17:08.240 --> 01:17:10.160 so she doesn't look at me. 1232 01:17:10.160 --> 01:17:11.720 So I don't catch eyes with her 1233 01:17:11.720 --> 01:17:14.000 because I don't want to do any of that. 1234 01:17:14.000 --> 01:17:17.280 Like I don't want to have that, 1235 01:17:17.280 --> 01:17:19.520 but then I started doing, 1236 01:17:19.520 --> 01:17:21.480 I was doing like three studies at once 1237 01:17:21.480 --> 01:17:22.880 and I was going to a different church 1238 01:17:22.920 --> 01:17:24.040 and then this other church 1239 01:17:24.040 --> 01:17:25.680 and I just, I was like, 1240 01:17:26.840 --> 01:17:27.920 God said I was hiding, 1241 01:17:27.920 --> 01:17:29.320 so I kind of like, 1242 01:17:29.320 --> 01:17:30.600 I was like, oh, okay, well, if I'm hiding, 1243 01:17:30.600 --> 01:17:33.440 I gotta go do this, this and this everywhere. 1244 01:17:33.440 --> 01:17:36.680 Well, okay, so let's talk this through a little bit more. 1245 01:17:36.680 --> 01:17:38.200 So God did lead you out of hiding, 1246 01:17:38.200 --> 01:17:39.920 but here's the tricky thing. 1247 01:17:41.400 --> 01:17:43.240 And I understand why, okay? 1248 01:17:45.480 --> 01:17:48.080 I can walk into a room and start talking 1249 01:17:48.080 --> 01:17:51.280 and even when we first moved here to Florida, 1250 01:17:51.320 --> 01:17:53.880 I said to them for months, 1251 01:17:53.880 --> 01:17:56.000 I have a full-time job, 1252 01:17:56.000 --> 01:17:58.200 I'm not gonna work for the church right now. 1253 01:17:58.200 --> 01:17:59.480 You know, I literally, 1254 01:17:59.480 --> 01:18:01.600 and I didn't for a while, 1255 01:18:01.600 --> 01:18:03.640 but before long they were kept kind of, 1256 01:18:03.640 --> 01:18:04.480 when are you gonna do? 1257 01:18:04.480 --> 01:18:06.680 When are you gonna do that? 1258 01:18:06.680 --> 01:18:08.560 Because I would talk about ideas and stuff 1259 01:18:08.560 --> 01:18:09.800 and they were just getting excited, 1260 01:18:09.800 --> 01:18:11.880 but I'm saying all that to say 1261 01:18:11.880 --> 01:18:14.400 is that it's up to us to set the boundaries, 1262 01:18:14.400 --> 01:18:17.440 no matter if these people come calling or not, if you will. 1263 01:18:17.440 --> 01:18:20.920 And so something that I really want you to work on 1264 01:18:21.560 --> 01:18:23.480 is don't avoid eye contact, 1265 01:18:23.480 --> 01:18:25.040 even when it feels awkward 1266 01:18:25.040 --> 01:18:27.160 and you know she wants something from you 1267 01:18:27.160 --> 01:18:29.000 or the enemy does, 1268 01:18:29.000 --> 01:18:32.160 because remember this is how the enemy is working 1269 01:18:32.160 --> 01:18:34.000 to get you out of balance. 1270 01:18:34.000 --> 01:18:37.120 And so I want you to kind of stand firm 1271 01:18:37.120 --> 01:18:41.160 and feel that tension and don't run away from it, okay? 1272 01:18:41.160 --> 01:18:43.000 Because what needs to happen is 1273 01:18:43.000 --> 01:18:45.240 if that woman then asks you to do something 1274 01:18:45.240 --> 01:18:48.720 and you already know that you shouldn't, 1275 01:18:48.720 --> 01:18:51.600 then it's about practicing using your voice 1276 01:18:51.600 --> 01:18:53.760 to set a healthy boundary. 1277 01:18:53.760 --> 01:18:55.800 And I think that's gonna be a really important factor 1278 01:18:55.800 --> 01:18:57.800 for you, because even though you're a strong leader, 1279 01:18:57.800 --> 01:19:00.720 I'm just getting the sense that it's almost like, 1280 01:19:00.720 --> 01:19:03.040 well, if they ask me, then I have to do it. 1281 01:19:03.960 --> 01:19:06.400 Or if I see a need, then I have to, 1282 01:19:06.400 --> 01:19:08.960 somebody's got to fill that need, you know? 1283 01:19:08.960 --> 01:19:10.840 And we don't always have to do that. 1284 01:19:10.840 --> 01:19:12.600 And sometimes when we don't, 1285 01:19:12.600 --> 01:19:15.520 someone else will eventually rise up. 1286 01:19:16.480 --> 01:19:20.360 And so practice maintaining eye contact even again, 1287 01:19:20.360 --> 01:19:22.760 even when if it feels awkward, 1288 01:19:22.760 --> 01:19:24.480 if she asks you to do something, 1289 01:19:24.480 --> 01:19:27.640 if you're already maxed out, get really good at, 1290 01:19:27.640 --> 01:19:30.280 thank you so much for asking, 1291 01:19:30.280 --> 01:19:33.440 but the Lord is not leading me to do that right now. 1292 01:19:33.440 --> 01:19:35.200 And here's the thing, 1293 01:19:35.200 --> 01:19:37.080 some of those people are gonna push back, 1294 01:19:37.080 --> 01:19:38.760 ladies, not just talking to Chrissy, 1295 01:19:38.760 --> 01:19:40.440 some of y'all might go through this too. 1296 01:19:40.440 --> 01:19:42.000 They might push back and be like, 1297 01:19:42.000 --> 01:19:45.500 well, I believe the Lord is telling me that you should. 1298 01:19:46.340 --> 01:19:48.540 No joke, I've been in that situation before. 1299 01:19:48.540 --> 01:19:51.980 I see some people laughing, so maybe you relate as well. 1300 01:19:51.980 --> 01:19:53.380 And I love it. 1301 01:19:53.380 --> 01:19:55.060 And this was my mentor years ago, 1302 01:19:55.060 --> 01:19:57.020 literally, and I still to this day, 1303 01:19:57.020 --> 01:19:59.500 like genuinely she changed my life. 1304 01:19:59.500 --> 01:20:00.340 I'm so. 1305 01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:06.600 grateful for her. Her name is Carol. But in this situation, it wasn't her finest moment. 1306 01:20:06.600 --> 01:20:11.680 And when she said that to me, and I said, well, that's great and all, but God isn't 1307 01:20:11.680 --> 01:20:17.720 telling me that. And I stood up for myself. I wouldn't have done that in the past. But 1308 01:20:17.720 --> 01:20:24.720 God wasn't telling me that. Yes, being voluntold, that is exactly right. And y'all, I was, I 1309 01:20:24.720 --> 01:20:29.520 was not someone, I helped in all, I mean, I helped to redo bathrooms at that church. 1310 01:20:29.520 --> 01:20:34.080 I had already been helping in the nursery, and I did not feel called to that. And I love 1311 01:20:34.080 --> 01:20:41.480 kids, you all. I love kids. But I felt like I was out of place in that season of my life 1312 01:20:41.480 --> 01:20:46.080 being in the Sunday school room every Sunday night, or the nursery, excuse me, every Sunday 1313 01:20:46.080 --> 01:20:54.080 night. But I had to, the point of that was I had to learn how to stand up for myself. 1314 01:20:54.080 --> 01:21:00.520 It was a game changer. Okay. Because I needed to be in a different place. God actually had 1315 01:21:00.520 --> 01:21:07.240 something else he wanted me to do. And it was okay that she didn't see that. I saw it. 1316 01:21:07.240 --> 01:21:12.840 And I knew where God was leading me. So Chrissy, practice that. All right. And let us know 1317 01:21:12.840 --> 01:21:16.640 how that goes. Because again, sometimes it's going to feel awkward and it's okay to come 1318 01:21:16.640 --> 01:21:20.040 and tell us like, Hey, I tried to practice this. And, and then she started saying all 1319 01:21:20.040 --> 01:21:24.440 this stuff. And then I still felt cornered. And I felt like I had to say, yes, it like 1320 01:21:24.440 --> 01:21:27.920 come and tell on yourself if that happens, because that's how we're going to be able 1321 01:21:27.920 --> 01:21:33.080 to coach you through it of like, okay, this is some verbiage or, or whatever that you 1322 01:21:33.080 --> 01:21:39.080 might be able to do in the meantime. But also let's ask God to reveal when is the first 1323 01:21:39.080 --> 01:21:47.200 time you were supposed to say no to someone and you didn't, you know, where we get to 1324 01:21:47.200 --> 01:21:52.600 the root of where those boundaries kind of got blown past and get some healing in those 1325 01:21:52.600 --> 01:22:00.840 areas. Does that make sense? Yeah. Now we had a meeting just yesterday and I, my dad 1326 01:22:00.840 --> 01:22:06.080 asked me when I got home, he's like, did you stand, did you stand up for yourself? I said, 1327 01:22:06.080 --> 01:22:13.960 I said yes. I think I did well, I did catch myself a couple of times, like really staring 1328 01:22:13.960 --> 01:22:22.440 into my, so do you feel afraid to let people down, Chrissy? Uh, yeah. Okay. So that's people 1329 01:22:22.440 --> 01:22:27.680 pleasing at work at, at its finest. Okay. People pleasing comes out of all different 1330 01:22:27.680 --> 01:22:34.960 kinds of things, but it, a lot of times really thrives in a root of rejection. And so if, 1331 01:22:34.960 --> 01:22:41.000 if even though it, a lot of times it's subconscious ladies in us, we can fear that someone will 1332 01:22:41.080 --> 01:22:47.120 reject us if we say no to them. And so we will back away from having boundaries and things. 1333 01:22:47.120 --> 01:22:55.160 And so, um, way to go on practicing, keep doing it and keep us posted on how that goes. 1334 01:22:55.160 --> 01:22:58.840 And let's see if, you know, what might be tied to maybe a roots of rejection and that 1335 01:22:58.840 --> 01:23:04.040 other stuff I mentioned to you. Okay. That, um, we're quick question, the activation earlier 1336 01:23:04.040 --> 01:23:11.240 before this breakout room. Can we post that in the chat as well on the app? Oh yeah. You guys 1337 01:23:11.240 --> 01:23:16.360 can post anything that, that I activate you guys in anything that you put in this chat. You can 1338 01:23:16.360 --> 01:23:21.960 absolutely put that in the group and we can coach you more on that as well. Okay. Thank you. Yeah. 1339 01:23:21.960 --> 01:23:30.920 You're welcome. Great question. Megan, go ahead. Hi. Hi. Um, for me, one of the things that I was 1340 01:23:30.920 --> 01:23:38.120 really thinking about was with surrender was, um, I think fear with trusting God, I've been 1341 01:23:38.120 --> 01:23:45.480 very much noticing I've been in kind of like a state of paralysis when it comes to, um, trying 1342 01:23:45.480 --> 01:23:53.160 to move forward. Like whenever I try to apply for jobs or look at things and like even trying to 1343 01:23:53.160 --> 01:24:00.600 figure out where I'm supposed to be going, like I feel a release to move forward. And it was like 1344 01:24:00.600 --> 01:24:06.040 kind of a word for the year was to keep moving forward. But it's like every time I try to do 1345 01:24:06.040 --> 01:24:14.920 something about it, I keep getting feeling really stuck. And, um, it's like this trust part has been 1346 01:24:14.920 --> 01:24:21.960 really hard. Like I just, I see God do it for other people that I really don't see for myself. 1347 01:24:21.960 --> 01:24:29.000 And so it's like, I'm really genuinely happy for other people. And I do know God does move and has 1348 01:24:29.000 --> 01:24:35.480 good things, but like my heart really can't accept that. Well, part of it too. I'm trying to 1349 01:24:35.480 --> 01:24:41.880 find right now. I was trying to remember what you said about the disappointment here. Mine was the 1350 01:24:41.880 --> 01:24:49.080 ballet class. Yeah. Yeah. I found you finally. Okay. So I, for some reason, I feel like those 1351 01:24:49.080 --> 01:24:57.720 might be linked up somewhere, you know, there's, there's this deep, um, like when you share, I can 1352 01:24:57.720 --> 01:24:59.880 sense this level of, 1353 01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:07.000 Almost disappointment in yourself. I don't know. Does that resonate for you? 1354 01:25:07.000 --> 01:25:08.000 Yeah. 1355 01:25:08.000 --> 01:25:14.000 Yeah. And so that kind of makes me think of analysis paralysis too. 1356 01:25:14.000 --> 01:25:18.000 Sometimes we're analyzing things so much that we don't do anything. 1357 01:25:18.000 --> 01:25:20.000 Sometimes it's religion. 1358 01:25:20.000 --> 01:25:25.000 You know, we've learned so much religion that we're afraid to get out of the boat at all, 1359 01:25:25.000 --> 01:25:29.000 because if we mess up, then that's it, right? 1360 01:25:29.000 --> 01:25:31.000 We think we have failed. 1361 01:25:31.000 --> 01:25:36.000 But I'm going to give to you what someone said to me years ago. 1362 01:25:36.000 --> 01:25:40.000 And, you know, we'll have to study the word out together to see if it's biblically sound. 1363 01:25:40.000 --> 01:25:43.000 But it really set me free years ago. So I hope it blesses you. 1364 01:25:43.000 --> 01:25:48.000 But she said, you know, do you think God's not big enough to catch you if you get out of the boat? 1365 01:25:48.000 --> 01:25:54.000 Like basically saying, like, if you step out of the boat, even if it's a mistake, 1366 01:25:54.000 --> 01:25:58.000 do you think God's not big enough to, like, catch you and recorrect that? 1367 01:25:58.000 --> 01:26:03.000 You know, and so I do think that that shows up with you, Megan. 1368 01:26:03.000 --> 01:26:05.000 I think that you're really afraid to make a mistake. 1369 01:26:05.000 --> 01:26:10.000 And so that's where you start to fall into that paralysis and overwhelm. 1370 01:26:10.000 --> 01:26:15.000 And then what happens is then you cycle into the little girl aspects of the disappointment, 1371 01:26:15.000 --> 01:26:19.000 you know, that we see showing up in what came up in your spirit tonight. 1372 01:26:19.000 --> 01:26:25.000 And so, you know, I'm looking forward to the day when you feel really proud of yourself. 1373 01:26:25.000 --> 01:26:28.000 And I think that that day can be now. 1374 01:26:28.000 --> 01:26:37.000 But it's the inner dialogue of shaming yourself and the things that are going through your mind. 1375 01:26:37.000 --> 01:26:43.000 Really getting a hold of your thoughts is going to be really critical for you. 1376 01:26:43.000 --> 01:26:47.000 And even that, I want you to know, ladies, this is really important. 1377 01:26:47.000 --> 01:26:50.000 Not every thought is our own. 1378 01:26:51.000 --> 01:26:56.000 You know, sometimes we go through seasons, too, where the enemy is just assaulting our mind 1379 01:26:56.000 --> 01:27:01.000 and assaulting our mind and assault because he's trying to wear us down. 1380 01:27:01.000 --> 01:27:06.000 And so if that's happening to you, I want to encourage you, like, get prayer. 1381 01:27:06.000 --> 01:27:11.000 Get around some people, you know, that can pray over you, anoint you, 1382 01:27:11.000 --> 01:27:18.000 and, like, help you continue to, like, have some accountability and love in the process. 1383 01:27:19.000 --> 01:27:24.000 And so the step forward for you, like, literally to partner is... 1384 01:27:27.000 --> 01:27:33.000 I really think that I would encourage you to actually, like, you're looking for a place to... 1385 01:27:33.000 --> 01:27:37.000 a new job and a place to live or just a new job? 1386 01:27:37.000 --> 01:27:38.000 Both. 1387 01:27:38.000 --> 01:27:41.000 Both, right. I didn't know if I heard you correctly. 1388 01:27:41.000 --> 01:27:44.000 All right. So, I mean, I want you... 1389 01:27:44.000 --> 01:27:48.000 What does it look like for you to dream about the job that you want? 1390 01:27:48.000 --> 01:27:52.000 What does it look like for you to dream a little bit about the place that you want to end up living? 1391 01:27:52.000 --> 01:27:57.000 You know, part of it, sometimes, ladies, is that we don't even allow a dream to form. 1392 01:27:57.000 --> 01:28:01.000 And then we're afraid it won't even actually happen. 1393 01:28:01.000 --> 01:28:03.000 And so then we don't even let ourselves dream. 1394 01:28:03.000 --> 01:28:06.000 So if we can't even dream about it... 1395 01:28:06.000 --> 01:28:08.000 Yeah, it's like this whole big cycle thing. 1396 01:28:08.000 --> 01:28:11.000 If we can't dream about it, then oftentimes we can't stop to do it. 1397 01:28:11.000 --> 01:28:15.000 And faith without works is dead. It takes both, right? 1398 01:28:15.000 --> 01:28:18.000 We have to have faith. That's where the dream... 1399 01:28:18.000 --> 01:28:22.000 Like, what do we believe? You know, what are we praying for? 1400 01:28:22.000 --> 01:28:24.000 What are we excited about? What would we love to have? 1401 01:28:24.000 --> 01:28:27.000 Those things might not always come, right? 1402 01:28:27.000 --> 01:28:33.000 But the dream board I made for my wedding, I ended up getting a dress almost exactly like... 1403 01:28:33.000 --> 01:28:38.000 And I didn't even remember that, like, it didn't even dawn on me that I picked a dress 1404 01:28:38.000 --> 01:28:43.000 that looked like all these pictures I had put in my dream board for my wedding 1405 01:28:43.000 --> 01:28:48.000 until, like, months after when I was going back through that board, just kind of reminiscing. 1406 01:28:48.000 --> 01:28:56.000 And so praying over your life, you know, really taking hold of your mind. 1407 01:28:56.000 --> 01:29:00.000 You know, when you have the permission slip that you would, you know, pray 1408 01:29:00.000 --> 01:29:05.000 and just, God, I just surrender my mind to you today. 1409 01:29:05.000 --> 01:29:09.000 You know, will you guard my mind and my heart through Christ Jesus? 1410 01:29:09.000 --> 01:29:14.000 I plead the blood of Jesus Christ over my mind that you would help me to walk in boldness and courage 1411 01:29:14.000 --> 01:29:21.000 to remember that I'm not a disappointment and that you're with me everywhere I go. 1412 01:29:21.000 --> 01:29:26.000 The Bible says that he's a lamp unto our feet and a light unto our path. 1413 01:29:26.000 --> 01:29:31.000 And so he is showing us ways to go, but so often we're like, I can't. 1414 01:29:31.000 --> 01:29:35.000 And if that shows up in us, ladies, I'm not saying fear is legit, okay? 1415 01:29:35.000 --> 01:29:41.000 We're all going to feel afraid of things at some point or scared to do something. 1416 01:29:41.000 --> 01:29:47.000 But fear, deep fear and panic, that is a whole other ballgame. 1417 01:29:47.000 --> 01:29:52.000 That's probably connected to a spirit of fear that got a root in there at some point. 1418 01:29:52.000 --> 01:29:56.000 And if that's the case, then we need to ask God, when did that take root? 1419 01:29:56.000 --> 01:29:59.000 Because it's time for us to overcome that stuff. 1420 01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:05.760 about praying for your lost loved ones. I was talking about the different aspects of how 1421 01:30:05.760 --> 01:30:10.640 strongholds are formed and principalities and things like that impact people from believing 1422 01:30:11.680 --> 01:30:17.760 is very helpful. Just kind of understand the process and the breakdown of how the enemy uses 1423 01:30:17.760 --> 01:30:21.840 those things. And again, it doesn't focus too much on the enemy, but it's just kind of helping 1424 01:30:22.960 --> 01:30:29.520 me understand, oh yeah, there's layers to this. So we got to pray through layers for people, 1425 01:30:29.520 --> 01:30:35.360 you know, so same thing here. Yeah, you've got this. You can do this. 1426 01:30:37.680 --> 01:30:40.880 You're welcome. Yeah. Thank you for sharing. Audrey, go ahead. 1427 01:30:42.000 --> 01:30:46.160 And then right after Audrey, we're going to be done for tonight. Just so everyone knows, 1428 01:30:46.160 --> 01:30:50.480 Audrey, you don't have to rush through, but I just want kind of to set the expectation. 1429 01:30:50.480 --> 01:30:55.920 It is 9 31. So if anyone needs to log off, it's been so great to be with you tonight and we 1430 01:30:55.920 --> 01:31:02.800 bless you and we'll see you soon. Audrey, go ahead. Okay. Thank you. This one was quite hard 1431 01:31:02.800 --> 01:31:07.200 for me. I couldn't even write it on the chat, but the thing that came in my heart as part of first 1432 01:31:07.200 --> 01:31:12.560 disappointment I ever experienced was being molested by a trusted friend when I was seven. 1433 01:31:13.200 --> 01:31:17.760 And before then I was really carefree. I loved the people around me. I thought everybody loved 1434 01:31:17.760 --> 01:31:22.480 me. But when that happened, I could no longer trust people, especially those from the men 1435 01:31:22.480 --> 01:31:27.760 category. Like I was even afraid of my own brothers. At least for me, I had nothing to do 1436 01:31:27.760 --> 01:31:34.240 with it. So I just became very guarded. And I felt like I lost, it just went over my body. My body 1437 01:31:34.240 --> 01:31:41.120 was not mine. So growing up, I was really guarded. I just wanted to hide or disappear. Eventually, 1438 01:31:41.120 --> 01:31:46.240 I ended up becoming friends with somebody that I consider him to be my best friend. And I got 1439 01:31:46.240 --> 01:31:50.960 married to him because he was the only person I could trust after like 20 plus years. And we got 1440 01:31:50.960 --> 01:31:56.800 married and it ended up being the worst decision ever. It ended up being worse than whatever 1441 01:31:56.800 --> 01:32:00.960 happened the first time. So God had to come up with a rescue mission to get me out of that 1442 01:32:00.960 --> 01:32:08.160 marriage last year too. So I feel like the men I've trusted so far have broken that trust. 1443 01:32:09.440 --> 01:32:17.520 And I think God wants to hit that part. Yeah, I can relate to what you're saying. And I don't 1444 01:32:17.520 --> 01:32:22.000 know, Audrey, if you know this part of my story, but I was sexually abused by both of my brothers 1445 01:32:22.000 --> 01:32:29.920 and my sister actually. And so I really resonate on so many levels with what you're sharing. 1446 01:32:31.680 --> 01:32:36.800 And I do want you to know that you can find somebody good and you can attract good people. 1447 01:32:37.840 --> 01:32:44.320 Part of that is us healing on the inside so that the thieves aren't attracted to us. When we're 1448 01:32:44.320 --> 01:32:49.120 big givers, takers come our way. And we don't have to be afraid of that, ladies, but we have 1449 01:32:49.120 --> 01:32:57.040 to understand it, right? And not fall prey to that. And so what I would recommend for tonight, 1450 01:32:57.040 --> 01:33:05.040 when you were talking about before that, I was very carefree. Before that, you know, 1451 01:33:05.040 --> 01:33:11.840 or after that, excuse me, you became very guarded. And so, you know, what comes to mind is innocence 1452 01:33:11.840 --> 01:33:19.600 being restored to you. And I believe God wants to really help that. And I think that He wants to go, 1453 01:33:19.600 --> 01:33:26.080 I, you know, I try to be very careful in the way of leading people in this. But, you know, 1454 01:33:26.080 --> 01:33:34.720 Jesus wants to meet you right where you were at as a little girl, when you were seven. And He wants 1455 01:33:34.720 --> 01:33:43.040 to heal the core of that part of your life. And not only heal you, but, you know, what the Lord 1456 01:33:43.040 --> 01:33:48.880 showed me years ago is there's this convergence that He wants to have happen. There's the little 1457 01:33:48.880 --> 01:33:53.120 version of us that was broken and destroyed by these different dynamics and situations. And 1458 01:33:53.120 --> 01:33:59.520 there's this grown-up version of us, and He wants those to come back together. So we can be whole. 1459 01:33:59.520 --> 01:34:05.120 That's part of being completely whole, lacking no good thing, ladies, is for this convergence. 1460 01:34:07.360 --> 01:34:13.360 For our identity to be restored. You said I was, before that, I was carefree. I was bubbly. 1461 01:34:14.080 --> 01:34:18.160 I think that you are still those things, but they're hidden under the rubble right now. 1462 01:34:18.720 --> 01:34:26.240 And God wants to heal you. And, and I don't know what cartoon this was. I'm sorry. I'm laughing. 1463 01:34:26.240 --> 01:34:31.360 I just saw this visual. Sometimes God is so funny, you all. He's being so serious right now. 1464 01:34:31.360 --> 01:34:38.960 And there's this cartoon back in the day. Some of y'all might have to help me. Was he called Mighty 1465 01:34:38.960 --> 01:34:44.160 Dog? Where there would be this rubble, and he was that white dog. And he would, he was like a super 1466 01:34:44.160 --> 01:34:48.400 dog. And he would come up under. Am I imagining something or making something up? I feel like I 1467 01:34:48.400 --> 01:34:59.840 saw this when I was little. And that is what I saw. Underdog. Yes. Yes. Somebody knows what I've seen. 1468 01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:09.480 Audrey, I just saw that image for you, that literally Jesus has already, He's like, if you will, bear with me, 1469 01:35:09.480 --> 01:35:17.800 underdog in this situation, like all the rubble, all the mess from this dynamic when you were seven, 1470 01:35:17.800 --> 01:35:28.000 that feels like it's still over you, and even regarding this marriage, like literally, almost as if you are under there, okay? 1471 01:35:28.000 --> 01:35:36.000 I want it kind of like you and anyone else this is resonating with, like under the rubble, imagine Jesus, He's holding you, 1472 01:35:36.000 --> 01:35:42.000 and then all of a sudden, whether it's superman or underdog, you can pick which one you want, but like, 1473 01:35:42.000 --> 01:35:49.000 that Jesus is literally going to take you through all the rubble, and He's just going to carry you right out of there, 1474 01:35:49.000 --> 01:35:54.000 and everything that's been holding you back, and ladies, I know sometimes it can be like, well, I have forgiven, 1475 01:35:54.000 --> 01:36:02.000 I've processed that situation before, and I still feel stuck by this, but here's the thing, when we enter a new revelation or a new, 1476 01:36:02.000 --> 01:36:10.000 like we're here, you are not the same today as you were yesterday, and tomorrow, hopefully because you're healing more and more and more, 1477 01:36:10.000 --> 01:36:19.000 you're going to be different tomorrow than you are today, and so every single day, we literally can receive fresh revelation, 1478 01:36:19.000 --> 01:36:27.000 layers of healing, layers of forgiveness, forgiveness is not a one-time thing, for some situations, yeah, it's not that big of a deal, 1479 01:36:27.000 --> 01:36:34.000 I forgive that person, and I can walk on, but the ones where there's been a stronghold, well, think about that, 1480 01:36:34.000 --> 01:36:42.000 I was literally just talking about strongholds and how they have layers, so if a stronghold has layers, 1481 01:36:43.000 --> 01:36:49.000 why would we believe the lie of the enemy, that there's something wrong with us, or we messed up somehow, 1482 01:36:49.000 --> 01:36:58.000 that when we chose to forgive, and we're facing that situation again, that we did something wrong, we didn't get it right, 1483 01:36:58.000 --> 01:37:07.000 but that's not true, it's just that forgiveness happens in layers too, as we have, even though it's the same situation, 1484 01:37:07.000 --> 01:37:13.000 this is what I try to tell people, I want to encourage you, if you can imagine someone popping the hood of a car, 1485 01:37:13.000 --> 01:37:18.000 but they don't open the car hood all the way, but they just kind of peek up under the hood a little bit, 1486 01:37:18.000 --> 01:37:22.000 it's like when that situation comes back up, that you would just ask the Lord, 1487 01:37:22.000 --> 01:37:28.000 Lord, I know that I've forgiven them of this, I've processed this with you before, but you're bringing it up, 1488 01:37:29.000 --> 01:37:36.000 once I've come into the heart work again, is there new information that you want me to know? 1489 01:37:38.000 --> 01:37:44.000 And I believe part of that information and revelation, I really think it's centered around your innocence being restored, 1490 01:37:44.000 --> 01:37:52.000 I really do, and you might have heard that word before, but I feel like even in the understanding of how God wants to do that in your life, 1491 01:37:52.000 --> 01:37:58.000 I think that's the revelation that's going to be new for you, I think it's going to be different than how you thought, 1492 01:37:58.000 --> 01:38:07.000 but in a good way, you don't have to be afraid of it, and so as you have this situation, like I said, go ahead and pray through that, 1493 01:38:07.000 --> 01:38:14.000 ask the Lord, regarding the marriage, that might have re-triggered that old stuff somehow, 1494 01:38:15.000 --> 01:38:22.000 you might need to forgive yourself for some things, just process that out, and like I told the other ladies, 1495 01:38:22.000 --> 01:38:26.000 if you have more questions, you can come into the group, and we'll give you some feedback, 1496 01:38:26.000 --> 01:38:33.000 I know that some of you responded to me the other day, because I was preaching on Sunday, I was really slammed on Saturday, 1497 01:38:33.000 --> 01:38:41.000 so tomorrow I'll be in responding, and I was worn out yesterday, I did good, but I was worn out last night, 1498 01:38:41.000 --> 01:38:47.000 so Lisa, I know I owe you a couple of responses, I think there's a couple of other people, 1499 01:38:47.000 --> 01:38:54.000 so I will be back in there tomorrow, and responding to those responses, but Audrey, that was a great share, 1500 01:38:54.000 --> 01:38:58.000 thank you for having courage and trusting us with that part of your story, 1501 01:38:58.000 --> 01:39:07.000 praying for you to receive all that God has for you in this new innocence chapter. 1502 01:39:07.000 --> 01:39:09.000 Amen, thank you. 1503 01:39:09.000 --> 01:39:10.000 You're welcome. 1504 01:39:10.000 --> 01:39:16.000 God is so great at rewriting stories, ladies, He really, really is. 1505 01:39:16.000 --> 01:39:20.000 Alright, so remember, the disappointment areas, let's spend some time on those this week, 1506 01:39:20.000 --> 01:39:23.000 and see what God wants to heal in those too, alright? 1507 01:39:23.000 --> 01:39:26.000 Let me pray for us, Father, thank you so much for this night, 1508 01:39:26.000 --> 01:39:32.000 God, I thank you that you have brought us here for such a time as this. 1509 01:39:32.000 --> 01:39:35.000 Lord, if there's any rocks that need unturned, so to speak, 1510 01:39:35.000 --> 01:39:38.000 God, I pray that you would be the one to turn them over. 1511 01:39:38.000 --> 01:39:46.000 We're asking for divine revealings for healing to happen, and suddenlies to happen, 1512 01:39:46.000 --> 01:39:49.000 breakthroughs after breakthroughs after breakthroughs, 1513 01:39:49.000 --> 01:39:56.000 God, we thank you for your supernatural spirit and your presence here, 1514 01:39:56.000 --> 01:40:00.000 we know that we can't do anything apart from you, God, we ask you to help us. 1515 01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:03.280 Give us courage to trust you in this process. 1516 01:40:03.280 --> 01:40:07.040 Guard and protect and keep watch over us and our families tonight and in the days to come. 1517 01:40:07.840 --> 01:40:10.000 In Jesus name, amen. 1518 01:40:10.000 --> 01:40:11.360 God bless you all. 1519 01:40:11.360 --> 01:40:14.320 We'll be seeing you in the group and I'll talk to y'all soon. 1520 01:40:15.600 --> 01:40:16.480 Bye-bye, everyone. 1521 01:40:17.360 --> 01:40:17.860 Bye. 1522 01:40:18.160 --> 01:40:19.360 It was wonderful. 1523 01:40:19.360 --> 01:40:19.920 Good night, everyone.