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Hello, welcome. Welcome. As you're logging in so excited for y'all to be here tonight

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so good to see you. Hello. I see Jenna and I see someone joining with Jenna is that your

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kiddo? It's always fun to see. Hello. Welcome. As you guys are logging in just trying to

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say hi for a couple seconds as people are joining. And I'm going to go ahead and dive

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in and get us started. We have a lot to cover tonight as always. Welcome back if you've

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joined us before if this is your first night here if you've never been in a live session

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with you know myself or Andrea on a Monday would love for you to let us know this is

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your first time so that we can welcome you and give you a little shout out. And we are

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so glad that you're here that you're a part of this community. I think Charlene Are you

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saying it's your first time? If so, welcome for your first time. God is definitely on

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the move in our community. It's been an awesome journey these last five years. And so we believe

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that God is getting ready to do even more than what we've seen him do before. And you

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all we've seen a lot of supernatural breakthrough and healings and amazing kingdom families

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and marriages coming out of our community. And we believe that that is possible for you.

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And that God brought you here at this appointed time for his purpose in your life. And so

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I want to encourage you all as we start tonight. Again, welcome to everyone logging in. Awesome,

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Charlene, so glad that you're joining us for your first time tonight. A couple housekeeping

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things as we get started. I want to encourage you all to not get FOMO. Okay, so sometimes

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when we have you know, the joint sessions like Supernatural Saturday or Sunday night

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activations, you might hear about other things going on in different phases of the community.

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And I want to encourage you don't feel like oh my gosh, I'm missing out on that and try

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to rush through your heartwork because I promise it's not going to benefit you to do

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that. We want to encourage you to take at least one week of one week per week of content

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no less than that, but you can take more than that. Okay, for some of you because of things

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you've been through, we would encourage you to take longer than that five weeks and really

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just pray into your process. We've had a couple people even recently, you know, do the five

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weeks and then actually felt led to go back to the beginning and do it over and God was

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doing a really amazing work things that they didn't have uncovered in the first time around.

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God was uncovering that in the second time around, because we only have so much capacity.

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All right. And the same applies to our healing process. So we only have capacity to retain

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or uncover or heal things based on where we are at. So don't don't worry about, you know,

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like enjoy and be excited about what's to come. But don't feel like oh my gosh, I'm

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missing out. So again, hurry along. Same thing on regarding, you know, sometimes the

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enemy will use the shiny things to distract us. And he'll be like, hey, you should go

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do this course or that course. And hey, you should go do this study. And we want to encourage

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you all during this hard work time to really obviously I'm not saying move away from reading

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your Bible and having a quiet time. That's awesome. You should totally do that. But what

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I'm trying to say is sometimes what can happen is as soon as we make the decision or even

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just in the beginning of our decision of heartwork to commit to our heart healing journey

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and our heart healing process, the enemy will come with distractions of all different kinds

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of other things and and try to convince us that it would be better for us to go do that.

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And some of that also is some of our self protection mechanisms that we've learned along

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the way you all one of them is avoidance. Another is procrastination. And so sometimes

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we'll be like, I know I need to really do my heartwork. But I don't, I don't really

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want to. Like, that's the reality. We have that feeling sometimes. And sometimes it's

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a subconscious thing in us because we've learned over time to suppress and push things down.

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And so in the heartwork process, hopefully you're going to learn. And even if you've

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done a lot of healing things before you came in here, I 100% believe that God is going

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to give you fresh revelation, fresh insight that he's going to connect dots that you haven't

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been able to connect before. But it's about your heart. It's about your expectancy when

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you come here, like you can borrow from my expectancy, that's fine. But I'm going to

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tell you what, if you come with expectancy to receive what you need, and not just come

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to the live sessions, which is amazing. We want you all to come here. But to do the work,

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do the reading, watch the videos, you know, do the journal prompts, do the activations

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and really show up fully for yourself. And come expecting every single time every single

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time you sit down to journal, like it doesn't always have

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to be a big earth-shattering thing, but the reality is, is the more that we

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expect, y'all, the more we receive. If we don't ask for it, how can we receive it?

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If we don't come expecting that God has something for us, then we'll come and go

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and come and go, whether that's here in a live session or in church or in small

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group, and nothing will ever change. So come expecting. Don't allow the enemy to

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distract you. I want to really encourage you. I found this quote, and I don't know,

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even almost like a year ago, I think, and I just loved it. It says, I'm in, I'm the

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perfect age for everything God has for me right now. I'm the perfect age for

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everything God has for me right now. And for so many of you, you're partnering

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with, I've missed the boat. It's too late for me. And even though you're here, you

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believe God has a spirit mate for you, there's still these underlying things

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trying to convince you that you've missed out on something. And I just want

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to help you understand tonight that that is not truth from heaven. God wants to

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help you heal. He wants to help you step into healthy relationship, and he wants

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to help you also just step into freedom in every area of your life. We believe in

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this community that the spirit mate is the cherry on top. God wants you to be

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completely liberated and set free in every area of your life. He has abundance

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and overflow for you. We have Supernatural Saturday from this past

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Saturday. If y'all didn't hear it, it is so, like, I was taking so many notes of

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things that I need to get done, things that I've been putting off, not even

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intentionally. But as Jackie was sharing, it's a grace time. There's grace for us

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right now to get things done in this season so that we can receive what God

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has for us in the next season. So you all, guess what? Your primary thing, I mean,

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you're going to have personal things too, I'm sure, okay? But one of your primary

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things to get done in this season is heartwork. It's to allow yourself to heal.

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For some of you, again, it's not just coming and being here, it's giving

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yourself permission to move forward in the heartwork, okay? To keep moving and

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not become stagnant in an area. A lot of times what can happen is, I even, what

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comes to mind is, we had a lady a while back, she really was struggling to move

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into week four. Week four in our program is forgiveness, y'all. And she just did

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not want to forgive her ex-husband. She wanted to, but she really didn't want to

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on the inside. And so the whole, there was this whole internal struggle going on in

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her, and when she finally chose to forgive him, you all, guess what happened? She was

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able to get through that week four, and then week five, and then she was able to

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move on. But it took her many months to just choose to do week four. Y'all,

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forgiveness is a choice. We're not doing forgiveness tonight, but I felt led to say

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it. So I believe that's for somebody, whether you're here live, or you're going

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to watch the replay. Don't wait. We don't know what tomorrow is going to bring you

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all, okay? I'm not trying to scare you, but we don't know. So let's forgive people.

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Let's release this stuff. Let's move forward in our lives so that we can live

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the best life that God has for us. All right. So as we go into tonight, our

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content tonight, let me pray for us. Father, thank you so much for everything

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you have for us. God, I thank you that you have kingdom revelation for us

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tonight. God, I pray that you would remove barriers, that you would remove

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obstacles, that you would remove fear, any doubt or unbelief that's on the inside

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of us. God, I pray that if there's anything that has caused us to be shut

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down, to be isolated, to literally internally vow that we will never come

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out of that thing or be that person or, you know, stand up in that way. God, I

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pray that you would just remove all of those bondages, all of those shackles.

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God, that you would remove mindsets that limit us. God, we're asking for your

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healing to be placed upon us, within us. God, that you would heal us from the

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inside out. Lord, we thank you for sending Jesus. And Jesus, we thank you

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for coming. We thank you for dying on the cross and shedding your blood for the

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forgiveness of our sins, for our healing, for our redemption, for the

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redemption and reconciliation in our families. God, that there are things that

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you want to change in us so that it can create a ripple effect around us. We

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thank you, Holy Spirit, for being here with us tonight. We ask you to weave in

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and out of every aspect of the coaching and the conversations, connect all the

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dots that need to be connected tonight. And we just thank you for continuing to

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help us to receive a greater revelation and a greater truth of who you are,

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Jesus, and the freedom that your blood gave us. Help us to learn how to apply

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the blood a little bit more tonight. In Jesus' name. Amen.

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So tonight we're talking about the real you.

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For some of you, it's your first week,

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it's your first live session.

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You might need to receive this in layers

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because this is typically something we, in the past,

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would have talked about in week five.

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But I believe that God has each one of you, again,

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coming in at the right time.

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So you are where you need to be tonight

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to hear this revelation and truth.

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But I don't want it to intimidate you

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because you might hear some of this and be like,

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yeah, I don't feel that at all.

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Well, it's probably because you're in week one.

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Some of you that are several weeks in,

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hopefully by now you're starting to feel

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a little bit more free,

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you're starting to feel a little bit more momentum,

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you're starting to see things a little bit differently

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than when you came in several weeks ago.

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The real you is who did God originally create you to be

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before trauma or wounds or any kind of damage

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ever entered your life?

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That is the real you.

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And so every day we want to pray and ask the Lord

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to help us step further into the fullness of that person,

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who he originally created us to be.

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And how do we show up in ways that are limiting us

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from being who he actually has created us to be?

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And we're gonna get into this in a little bit,

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but there's aspects, again, I keep hearing,

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like certain people just have shoved things down

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about their personality,

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and there's just this dullness to who you are

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because of things that somebody said to you or did to you.

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And the Lord wants to awaken you

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in every aspect of your being tonight.

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Your true identity, when we talk about that,

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last week we started touching on,

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or maybe a few weeks ago,

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I can't remember when I read it to you all,

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but when God met Adam and Eve in the garden,

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he created them in this dynamic

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to have this supernatural relationship with him

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that was almost effortless, if you will.

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And then sin entered by them choosing to follow the serpent

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and take and eat of the fruit.

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And then we find, and I'm gonna read this to you,

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in Genesis chapter three, eight through 11,

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my question for you, before we go into this,

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is who told you that you were naked?

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I want you to apply it to whatever has been said to you

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that pushes you down, that holds you back,

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that internally tells you that you cannot move forward,

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whatever that looks like and sounds like for you,

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that is your naked, if you will.

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So who told you that you were naked?

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Who told you that you were stupid?

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Who told you that you couldn't do this job or that job?

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have a successful relationship?

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Where did these lies come from?

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Because God never intended us to live a life

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underneath of rubble and mess, never feeling victorious,

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watching everybody else succeed

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and looking from the outside thinking,

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man, I wish I had that life.

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God wants to teach us how to not only live,

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but to enjoy our life, to be healed in such a way

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that we're actually like, oh my gosh,

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I can't believe this is my life.

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yeah, I don't know if that day's ever gonna come for me.

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with that kind of thought

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and those kind of thinking patterns

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because that is the enemy trying to keep you

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in stinking thinking and probably patterns and behaviors

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that were learned from family dynamics

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and things that were passed down,

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even thoughts that were passed down for generations.

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Here's Genesis 3, eight through 11.

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This is what it says.

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Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God,

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excuse me, as he was walking in the garden

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in the cool of the day,

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and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden

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but the Lord God called to the man and said, where are you?

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And this is how Adam answers.

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He answered, I heard you in the garden and I was afraid

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because I was naked, so I hid.

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And he said, God saying to Adam,

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who told you that you were naked?

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Have you eaten from the tree

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that I commanded you not to eat from?

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Okay, so here we have this whole dynamic coming into play.

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Not only was there separation

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because of what they chose to do,

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but something my husband just preached last weekend.

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I never, like I knew this was here,

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but the way he said it, I was like,

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whoa, this is when fear first entered.

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Y'all, fear for the first time

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enters the world in this dynamic here.

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Adam's saying, and I was afraid because I was naked.

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the shame and all the things started entering

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and that fed into the fear which caused him to go.

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where are you hiding?

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I love to do this. How many people have

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played hide and seek before?

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Just raise your hand. Any hide and seekers?

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I used to love to play this. I don't know if the kids still

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get out and play anymore. I feel like they're

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inside all the time, but like

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you know when you're hiding and someone's

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like, come out, come out, wherever you are.

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find you.

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That is what the Lord is saying tonight.

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He's like, hey, come

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out, come out, wherever you are.

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we've shut down and we've pulled away,

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we've gone into isolation, we've

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partnered with the lie that we're

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shy, that we can't do it,

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and God is saying it's time.

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It's time to arise

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and step further into the fullness

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of who I created you to be,

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to show up fully in the world.

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pressed down by religion

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and the way

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that the body of Christ has

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told you that you should function

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even being single.

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when you look in the mirror.

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of the enemy bringing condemnation and guilt

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and shame and all the brokenness that he

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brings, every single day

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offers it to us, but we have a choice

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in whom we're

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going to believe. Are we going to believe the report

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of the Lord? Are we going to believe what the

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enemy has to say about us

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and about our situations, about our

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families? Y'all, I know

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the struggle is real.

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going on in the world every

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single day. Are we

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going to choose to partner with breakdown

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and destruction and pain

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and just everybody fighting

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and arguing and who's side?

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Lord, what are you saying?

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going.

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One of the definitions of coming out of

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hiding is being authentic,

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being present,

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being engaged in life,

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intentionally choosing to be

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fully present in the moment.

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How many of you, when you're

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in those situations, you

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actually are like, you're there,

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but you're not really there

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because your mind is somewhere else

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or you're there and you just

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have all these insecurities surfacing

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in you. So it's

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like this struggle to actually

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Am I the only one that's ever had that?

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real struggle. Women walk into

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a room with other women and what happens?

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comparing yourself to other people.

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They're prettier, they're taller, they're this, they're that.

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They have a great personality. I don't have that.

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plan.

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God is saying, hey, I want you to

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see your

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worth and your value. You're all

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beautiful. You all bring something awesome

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to the table. And instead of

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comparing and tearing each other down,

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that we would start to become more and more unified

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as sisters.

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Cheering each other on

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to victory. Really,

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truly celebrating when another sister

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gets engaged or another sister

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starts dating or another sister

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gets the job she's been praying

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for. We don't know how long someone's

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been praying for something before they walk in the door

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here.

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clip from here on

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forward that we know of.

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someone has cried. So let's

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just release all of that.

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Even in the heart work process,

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you'll be surprised. Some of

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you, the enemy's going to be like,

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she's getting breakthrough. You're not getting breakthrough like

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that. Something must be wrong with you.

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That's not true.

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Every person processes

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differently. Every person receives

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differently. So just

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allow yourself to breathe

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and just let your

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process be what your process

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is. If

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you need something more,

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like you're

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just something else that you need or want,

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then I encourage you

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to come into the group and talk about it.

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Because guess what?

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The things that we bring into the light,

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that's where we get breakthrough.

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The enemy is going to try to be like,

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yeah, don't say that in the group.

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I would never

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come in to say that because they're going to think

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this, they're going to think that. Some of y'all will put

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things up in the group and then you'll take them

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down because you'll start to battle fear and shame

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and all kinds of other stuff. Don't do that.

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Leave it up. Leave it up. I promise

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you, you're going to be surprised.

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We've had women confess abortions.

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confessed that they

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had affairs with married men. I mean, just name it. You all,

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were

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sexually abused.

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we've had it in here. I promise you. I've seen, I can't say I've

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confess that they were

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seen everything, but I've seen a lot and I've coached a lot and

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I've been here five years and I've never praised the Lord. And

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I believe this will continue. We have never had another woman put

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down like someone else when they shared their confession. It's

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never happened. Praise the Lord for that. Yes. Yes, yes, yes.

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Our Downey, get it out of the dark. All right, I'm going to

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keep going. Being into your true self is recognizing, or excuse

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me, coming out of hiding is recognizing your true self.

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Again, not your perception, not the way you look at yourself,

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but God, how do you see me? Actively participating in life

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with purpose and intention, not holding anything back. When we

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show up as our authentic selves, we are often give other people

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permission to do the same as well. We're all on a journey

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every single day to grow in our understanding of who we are in

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Christ, as well as who he originally created us to be

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before the trauma or wounds ever entered our story. We're all on

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this journey together. So again, is there any part of

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yourself? Go ahead and I'm gonna have you start to put some stuff

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in the chat. I want to engage you a little bit here. Let's

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just kind of I like to kind of hone in. And maybe you don't

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have something from the last week or two, but maybe something

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from a month ago or a year ago comes to mind whatever comes to

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mind for you. But I like to try to hone in because sometimes

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that does help people in the last few weeks or again,

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whatever the timeframe is for you. Is there any part of

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yourself where you tended to hold back with people? Even when

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they were safe people, you still held a part of yourself back? If

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so, I would love for you to put in the chat. What was that

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situation for you? Where did you just like you're like, man, you

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know, I'm trying to give you all examples like I wanted to be

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bubbly and I wanted to feel happy, but I just I don't know.

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Or maybe you went I don't know if you guys ever struggle with

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this, like you changed five times because every outfit you

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put on you just didn't like the way does anybody else have that

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happen? Lately, the age I'm at and the things I'm going

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through, I'm finding that this is happening more and more for

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me. Five outfits, five changes the other day just to get one

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outfit and I still wasn't even like, that's awesome. But I was

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like, I got to wear something we got to go. And so hey, you all

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sometimes we have to press through the physical stuff. But

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the reality is, is God wants to help us get through this stuff

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on the inside as well so that we can deal with this stuff when it

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comes up like that. Thankfully, I didn't sit like I was

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frustrated, but I didn't sit and put myself down the rest of the

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night. I just I was like, well, it is what it is. This is my

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struggle right now. Praise the Lord. This is not my forever.

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And I still look nice. And I just chose to move on. Alright,

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so maybe you're not like me, maybe yours is something else.

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Let's see true personality. Okay, so tell me more. Audrey

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put in the chat. What part of your personality have you been

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holding back? Okay, every Sunday morning, Chrissy. All right.

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Tell me more about this in the chat. Can't go in our birthday

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seats. No, we can't. No, we can't. That would not have been

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fun for anybody. All right. Um, let's see here. Kim said I

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change clothes often. I also don't speak up when I have

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something good to say just because I'm always sorry I did

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afterwards because I feel like I don't express myself well. Okay.

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So for any of you can thanks for sharing that. For whatever you

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put in the chat, I want to encourage you this week to work

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on the opposite. So for example, this week, Kim, your assignment

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would be to speak up every time God gives you something to say.

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And don't partner with the guilt or the shame. Like the feeling

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sorry is coming from you actually believe you don't have

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something of value to share, even though in your mind, your

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mind is telling you you do. But somewhere in your subconscious

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and your soul. Old lies and old tapes are playing after you

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speak. Okay, so really, really kind of lean into that. All

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right. Audrey said bubbly, funny, playful, not always

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cooperative, former people pleaser. Okay, so that's all

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right. That's awesome. So as you've been quieting your voice

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a little bit more, I want to encourage you to allow your

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bubbly, funny, playful side to come out to play more this week.

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Okay, so see how we're going to do the opposite this week. So

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really pray into how can I allow that to come out and not hold

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that back? All right, too many emotions or feels or

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sensitive or intense, okay?

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So on that, Pauline, I really wanna encourage you,

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when people feel like they have too many emotions,

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it might actually be because you didn't learn

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how to process your emotions as a kid.

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Or like, I actually was just doing this training last night.

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Sometimes kids are just more intense

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in the way they handle their emotions

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or the things they're going through.

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It's not a bad thing.

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We just need to be able to channel

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and receive the fun side of ourselves as well.

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And so I wanna encourage you to partner with

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that your emotions are all important,

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but that in the days ahead,

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God's gonna teach you how to have fun

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in the midst of struggles as well.

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And so I really wanna encourage you to invite that in.

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Let's see here.

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Al said, I can never show up in group settings.

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I tend to become invisible and can't find my voice.

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So Alice, do you know what your assignment is?

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Your assignment is, even if you feel like being a wallflower

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in a group setting, y'all sometimes I tend to be the person

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you might not, you might be surprised by this.

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I am not the person that goes right into the center

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of the group and is extroverted.

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I'm actually pretty introverted.

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I can be extroverted.

484
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I love to speak.

485
00:26:10.880 --> 00:26:14.680
I love to coach, but I definitely tend to kind of look

486
00:26:14.680 --> 00:26:16.720
around the room and find some people,

487
00:26:16.720 --> 00:26:18.540
but I can't always do that.

488
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So sometimes there's dynamics where I need to go right

489
00:26:21.200 --> 00:26:23.880
into the middle of the crowd and be more extroverted.

490
00:26:23.880 --> 00:26:26.420
And so I have to kind of go against the norm

491
00:26:26.420 --> 00:26:30.960
or the grain in me and put myself out there

492
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and trust that God will kind of work in that.

493
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And I, he's always shown up for me.

494
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So Alice, that's your assignment.

495
00:26:37.600 --> 00:26:40.080
Try and look through these, hold back from being direct

496
00:26:40.080 --> 00:26:42.940
when I need to stand up for myself or someone else, my mom.

497
00:26:42.940 --> 00:26:45.840
Okay, so Daisy, let's, as you're working through,

498
00:26:45.840 --> 00:26:48.280
hopefully heart healing regarding your mom,

499
00:26:49.240 --> 00:26:52.240
I wanna encourage you, I'm actually getting the sense

500
00:26:52.240 --> 00:26:54.840
for you to write a letter.

501
00:26:56.440 --> 00:26:57.800
You may not give this to your mom,

502
00:26:57.800 --> 00:26:59.540
but I want you to write a letter

503
00:26:59.540 --> 00:27:02.320
and actually be fully truthful in the letter.

504
00:27:02.320 --> 00:27:04.760
Even if we, it would look ugly

505
00:27:04.760 --> 00:27:06.020
if we actually said these things,

506
00:27:06.020 --> 00:27:08.440
I'm not necessarily telling you to go say these things

507
00:27:08.440 --> 00:27:11.080
to your mom, but I think the Lord wants to help you really

508
00:27:11.080 --> 00:27:13.240
work through some of the pain and things.

509
00:27:13.240 --> 00:27:18.080
And sometimes the only way to get there is to fully face

510
00:27:18.080 --> 00:27:20.240
how we really feel, okay?

511
00:27:20.240 --> 00:27:22.480
And then God will help you process through that more.

512
00:27:22.480 --> 00:27:24.920
And as you write that letter, I have a feeling,

513
00:27:24.920 --> 00:27:26.420
if you need some more coaching on that,

514
00:27:26.420 --> 00:27:28.400
come into the group about that.

515
00:27:28.400 --> 00:27:31.000
All right, Megan said, my voice, try to listen to others,

516
00:27:31.000 --> 00:27:33.160
but sometimes struggle in group settings of contributing,

517
00:27:33.160 --> 00:27:35.000
just waiting for right moment or silence.

518
00:27:35.000 --> 00:27:37.680
Yeah, bolder friends dominate.

519
00:27:37.680 --> 00:27:42.680
And so I'm gonna encourage you when, okay,

520
00:27:43.560 --> 00:27:47.560
so not only when you're with your bolder friends, Megan,

521
00:27:47.560 --> 00:27:50.880
but sometimes we get around people that are opposite of us

522
00:27:50.880 --> 00:27:54.400
so that we actually don't have to show up in a sense.

523
00:27:54.400 --> 00:27:56.880
So if you're surrounded by a bunch of bold people,

524
00:27:56.880 --> 00:27:59.480
well, you're probably gonna keep doing that pattern

525
00:27:59.480 --> 00:28:02.840
unless you really learn how to use your voice and speak up.

526
00:28:02.840 --> 00:28:05.000
You might need to like really practice

527
00:28:05.000 --> 00:28:08.320
when you're around your quiet friends

528
00:28:08.320 --> 00:28:10.960
and get your confidence build up and using your voice

529
00:28:10.960 --> 00:28:14.440
and then start practicing with some of those bolder friends.

530
00:28:14.440 --> 00:28:16.680
So basically everybody I'm doing the opposite

531
00:28:16.680 --> 00:28:18.160
of what I'm seeing in the chat here.

532
00:28:18.160 --> 00:28:22.880
So for the most part, Edwidge says,

533
00:28:22.880 --> 00:28:24.720
I need to stop being afraid to challenge people

534
00:28:24.720 --> 00:28:27.360
who have opinions on situations that differ from

535
00:28:27.360 --> 00:28:28.920
and just to protect their feelings.

536
00:28:28.920 --> 00:28:31.080
Yeah, and sometimes, you know,

537
00:28:31.080 --> 00:28:34.120
it is us praying and discerning the right time

538
00:28:34.120 --> 00:28:35.200
to release our thoughts.

539
00:28:35.200 --> 00:28:39.080
Sometimes we have revelation and insight

540
00:28:39.080 --> 00:28:40.440
and we need to pray into something

541
00:28:40.440 --> 00:28:43.160
before we go and challenge people.

542
00:28:43.160 --> 00:28:44.560
But yeah, if that's been something

543
00:28:44.560 --> 00:28:46.200
where you really pull back,

544
00:28:46.200 --> 00:28:48.880
would totally encourage you to work on that.

545
00:28:50.040 --> 00:28:52.040
If I'm around dominate A type personalities,

546
00:28:52.040 --> 00:28:53.560
I tend to reduce myself.

547
00:28:53.560 --> 00:28:56.940
So several people reducing themselves around other people

548
00:28:56.940 --> 00:28:59.560
that are more exuberant or things like that.

549
00:28:59.560 --> 00:29:02.400
Again, ladies, what's the opposite?

550
00:29:02.400 --> 00:29:03.240
What's the opposite?

551
00:29:03.240 --> 00:29:04.320
The opposite would be like,

552
00:29:04.320 --> 00:29:06.760
hey, don't pull back when you're around those people.

553
00:29:06.760 --> 00:29:10.720
So what would it look like for you to step forward

554
00:29:10.720 --> 00:29:12.840
instead of pulling back?

555
00:29:12.840 --> 00:29:15.280
Okay, Chrissy says, I'm unhappy with my body.

556
00:29:15.280 --> 00:29:17.280
I was gaining momentum and working out

557
00:29:17.280 --> 00:29:20.160
and walking every day until I moved into my parents' house.

558
00:29:20.160 --> 00:29:21.760
No longer had any place to put my workout.

559
00:29:21.760 --> 00:29:23.520
Yeah, I can totally relate to that.

560
00:29:23.520 --> 00:29:25.440
We don't have any space here at our house

561
00:29:25.440 --> 00:29:28.020
for workout equipment, so it's all in the garage.

562
00:29:29.320 --> 00:29:30.160
All right.

563
00:29:31.160 --> 00:29:34.920
Okay, I totally can relate on a lot of those levels.

564
00:29:34.920 --> 00:29:37.640
Some of it, again, has to be mental,

565
00:29:37.640 --> 00:29:39.640
you know, showing up and really just choosing

566
00:29:39.640 --> 00:29:42.640
to move forward irregardless.

567
00:29:43.400 --> 00:29:46.000
But maybe there's another way that you can kind of

568
00:29:46.000 --> 00:29:47.560
build that back into your life.

569
00:29:47.560 --> 00:29:49.120
So you're already doing the walking.

570
00:29:49.120 --> 00:29:54.120
Maybe in this season, it might be a gym membership.

571
00:29:55.000 --> 00:29:56.520
I don't know what your finances are.

572
00:29:56.520 --> 00:29:58.960
Might be like finding a place that has,

573
00:29:58.960 --> 00:30:00.520
there's some churches that do.

574
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.400
like you know you just make a donation and they have like dance classes and stuff like that

575
00:30:04.400 --> 00:30:09.200
there might might be some place to look into in that regard but also working on the underlying

576
00:30:09.200 --> 00:30:14.720
body image issues as at least from my experience I feel like God always leads me back to that place

577
00:30:15.280 --> 00:30:17.120
all right Peggy said she's doing good

578
00:30:20.320 --> 00:30:25.520
Daisy you're adding to okay so maybe maybe part of your letter is expressing to your mom

579
00:30:25.520 --> 00:30:32.960
how you feel and underneath of hatred you all is anger and frustration and sadness

580
00:30:33.680 --> 00:30:40.080
sadness is always at the bottom so Daisy not only you know the the hatred feelings let's process

581
00:30:40.080 --> 00:30:44.560
through all the feelings that you have when you see that happening with your stepdad and the way

582
00:30:44.560 --> 00:30:48.400
you treat your mom okay a couple more here and then I'm going to move forward Hannah says sharing

583
00:30:48.400 --> 00:30:53.200
vulnerable thoughts or feelings with close family or friends due to being burned by people in the

584
00:30:53.200 --> 00:31:01.280
past all right well here's the thing Hannah pray into are those people safe people that you shared

585
00:31:01.280 --> 00:31:06.560
those things with or were they not safe people or maybe you just didn't know until that all happened

586
00:31:06.560 --> 00:31:11.200
but even our family sometimes is not the safest place I'm going to encourage you all even in the

587
00:31:11.200 --> 00:31:17.920
heart work process as well as when you move forward in the program you I I would not recommend that

588
00:31:17.920 --> 00:31:22.800
you share your journey with everybody because there are going to be a lot of naysayers they're

589
00:31:22.800 --> 00:31:27.200
going to be people that have all kinds of opinions you don't need to hear that right now

590
00:31:27.200 --> 00:31:31.680
you need to hear from supportive people that have been on the journey that are on the journey so

591
00:31:31.680 --> 00:31:36.800
come here when you're processing stuff and let us process with you if you have a few friends

592
00:31:36.800 --> 00:31:40.880
that are going to cheer you on that's awesome those are safe people but not everybody is

593
00:31:40.880 --> 00:31:44.640
going to be your cheerleader you're going to have some border bullies and people that don't

594
00:31:44.640 --> 00:31:49.040
actually want you to heal and move forward you know why because they like it that you're not

595
00:31:49.040 --> 00:31:55.360
healthy they I like I know that's like wait people don't people like that I'm not healthy

596
00:31:55.360 --> 00:32:01.360
yeah they they don't mean to but they have stuff in them that needs healed too and so they would

597
00:32:01.360 --> 00:32:08.080
rather you stay the way that you are because when you start changing guess what when we start

598
00:32:08.080 --> 00:32:13.440
changing it causes other people to come to a crossroad and then they have to choose are they

599
00:32:13.440 --> 00:32:18.160
going to stay the same or are they going to change as well not everybody wants to move forward with

600
00:32:18.160 --> 00:32:23.600
us so that's where the border bullies often come in okay Rebecca says when I recently confronted

601
00:32:23.600 --> 00:32:30.240
something which was unjust um I was proud I did but then I was frustrated that ended up being too

602
00:32:30.240 --> 00:32:39.520
nice and think um meant the injustice wasn't addressed okay yeah so maybe sometimes we start

603
00:32:39.520 --> 00:32:43.920
sharing and we have this initial boldness and then we start to feel afraid and then we kind of like

604
00:32:43.920 --> 00:32:50.560
backpedal a little bit that can happen and so I would just encourage you like a you didn't do

605
00:32:50.560 --> 00:32:54.400
anything wrong but forgive yourself if there's something that you're like oh I wish I would have

606
00:32:54.400 --> 00:32:58.640
done that or I wish I would have said this just kind of forgive yourself and move forward so that

607
00:32:58.640 --> 00:33:03.600
you can start working on okay how do you want to show up differently next time and actually write

608
00:33:03.600 --> 00:33:08.080
yourself a little note about it and I would put that in your heart hopefully you guys have some

609
00:33:08.080 --> 00:33:13.840
kind of heartwork journal um like I had a binder that I put all of my worksheets and all of my

610
00:33:13.840 --> 00:33:19.280
little journal notes in and I still refer back to that sometimes when I go before I go to coach

611
00:33:19.280 --> 00:33:25.200
because that that was the raw stuff back then all right I'm gonna keep moving forward we have a

612
00:33:25.200 --> 00:33:29.680
just a song I'm gonna just tell you about it for time's sake tonight or maybe I will still

613
00:33:29.680 --> 00:33:34.800
read this I'll hustle it's not the whole song it's like one of my favorite songs it's called

614
00:33:34.800 --> 00:33:40.880
come out of excuse me it's just called out of hiding by Stephanie Gretzinger it's a beautiful

615
00:33:40.880 --> 00:33:46.160
song and it goes really well with our content tonight it says come out of hiding you're safe

616
00:33:46.160 --> 00:33:52.880
here with me so almost like as if God is singing this to her okay there's no need to cover what I

617
00:33:52.880 --> 00:34:00.000
already see you've got your reasons but I hold your peace you've been on lockdown and I hold

618
00:34:00.000 --> 00:34:05.840
the key because I loved you before you knew it was love and I saw it all still I chose the cross

619
00:34:05.840 --> 00:34:11.280
and you were the one that I was thinking of when I rose from the grave now rid of the shackles my

620
00:34:11.280 --> 00:34:18.560
victory is yours I tore the veil for you to come close there's no reason to stand at a distance

621
00:34:18.560 --> 00:34:25.920
anymore you're not far from home so that's the reality of everything I've been saying like Jesus

622
00:34:25.920 --> 00:34:32.880
died he shed his blood for us to be free for us to have victory so we fight from victory not for

623
00:34:32.880 --> 00:34:40.560
it ladies but it's it's our heart healing is what helps us to step into that more and more and more

624
00:34:40.560 --> 00:34:46.400
when we align with what we align with matters so what are your thoughts telling you where are your

625
00:34:46.400 --> 00:34:53.040
thoughts aligning right now are your thoughts aligning with heaven in and what heaven sounds

626
00:34:53.040 --> 00:34:57.120
like and maybe if you're like me you're like well what does heaven actually sound like because we

627
00:34:57.120 --> 00:34:59.920
don't know right we've never been there but if you just read your

628
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:09.280
Bible, you start to learn the verbiage in the heart of heaven. God has something new for us.

629
00:35:10.640 --> 00:35:16.640
Every single one of you, whether you believe it or not yet tonight, the reality is is that you are

630
00:35:16.640 --> 00:35:23.840
a supernova. You're carrying something amazing and incredible on the inside of you that can change

631
00:35:24.400 --> 00:35:30.880
the world. Some of you will change one person at a time. Some of you will change groups of people.

632
00:35:31.920 --> 00:35:36.720
I don't know what your calling is, but I know that God has something beautiful and amazing

633
00:35:36.720 --> 00:35:42.960
on the inside of you that matters to this world. Matthew 5, 14 through 16, the message version

634
00:35:42.960 --> 00:35:47.520
says this. Here's another way to put it. You're here to be light, bringing out the God colors

635
00:35:47.520 --> 00:35:53.200
in the world. God is not a secret to be kept. We're going public with this as public as a city

636
00:35:53.200 --> 00:35:59.680
on a hill. If I make you lightbearers, you don't think I'm going to hide you under a bucket then,

637
00:35:59.680 --> 00:36:05.680
do you? I'm putting you on a light stand now, like putting you out there basically. He's saying,

638
00:36:05.680 --> 00:36:12.240
now that I've put you there on that hilltop on that light stand, shine. Keep open house.

639
00:36:12.880 --> 00:36:18.640
Be generous with your lives. By opening up to other people, you'll prompt people to open up

640
00:36:18.640 --> 00:36:27.440
with God, this generous father in heaven. Y'all keep open house. Think about that just for a minute.

641
00:36:29.440 --> 00:36:38.480
Love is a risk, isn't it? It is. I remember when I was in my heart healing process and I had started

642
00:36:38.480 --> 00:36:43.200
dating again and I met Brian. And even before I met Brian, there were several layers of dealing

643
00:36:43.200 --> 00:36:47.760
with the whole love is a risk and being afraid to actually step into relationship again. But when I

644
00:36:47.760 --> 00:36:55.360
started dating Brian, my now husband, and the reality of, gosh, I really like this guy.

645
00:36:56.720 --> 00:37:03.760
And what if it doesn't work out? It became very real. And I had to face love is a risk on a whole

646
00:37:03.760 --> 00:37:10.560
new level. Loving even friends and family, it's all a risk. But man, when it's great, it's worth it.

647
00:37:12.880 --> 00:37:15.680
So where are you not keeping open house?

648
00:37:18.720 --> 00:37:25.840
You know, that that verse said, excuse me, you've been on lockdown. And he says, I hold the key.

649
00:37:25.840 --> 00:37:31.200
Here's the reality. I think I even said this last week. Many of you are sitting in a prison that

650
00:37:31.200 --> 00:37:35.440
you've created for yourself or religion has created for you. But God already unlocked the

651
00:37:35.440 --> 00:37:43.440
door and the door to the gate of the prison is open. He's already opened it. He did that through

652
00:37:43.920 --> 00:37:52.080
Jesus Christ. It's whether or not we have that revelation, so that we can walk out of the prison.

653
00:37:54.560 --> 00:38:03.200
Back in the day, when I was growing up, my great grandma had this music box. And it had this,

654
00:38:03.200 --> 00:38:07.680
it was a round music box and had this like cage on the top of it. And there was this bird on the

655
00:38:07.680 --> 00:38:12.640
inside. And the bird had this like little, it almost looked like a little cane, but it just

656
00:38:12.640 --> 00:38:17.440
is what helped it stop. But as the music would play, it would kind of go around. And then sometimes

657
00:38:17.440 --> 00:38:23.760
it would spin, but it was this bird in this cage. And after, like, I played that all the time,

658
00:38:24.320 --> 00:38:29.920
when I felt afraid or when I felt sad, or I miss my dad, my dad was gone most of my life,

659
00:38:29.920 --> 00:38:34.800
he was in prison for a lot of it. And then even when he was out, he didn't really ever come back

660
00:38:34.800 --> 00:38:39.280
to take care of our family, got a new family. And so there's just a lot of brokenness. But that

661
00:38:39.280 --> 00:38:45.040
music box, it brought this soothing thing to my soul. And I didn't even know it at the time. But

662
00:38:45.040 --> 00:38:50.320
then after I gave my life to the Lord, and I went on this retreat, and God really ministered to me

663
00:38:50.320 --> 00:38:57.520
and set me free there. During that time, I saw this image of this mouse in a cage. And all of a

664
00:38:57.520 --> 00:39:04.000
sudden, I had this revelation of like, wow, I used to like love this music box with this bird in this

665
00:39:04.000 --> 00:39:13.040
cage and how representative that was of my life back then. I felt trapped. And this bird was just

666
00:39:13.040 --> 00:39:19.440
kind of dancing and it was in the cage. And it was just living life in the cage. But God showed me

667
00:39:19.440 --> 00:39:24.560
at that same retreat, after he showed me the image of the mouse cowering inside of a cage,

668
00:39:25.520 --> 00:39:31.760
I the next vision he showed me was of a little girl skipping down this like stone lane. And she

669
00:39:31.760 --> 00:39:38.160
was happy. And he was showing me that's who I that's who I was. But I was functioning and

670
00:39:38.160 --> 00:39:45.040
operating like I was the mouse inside the cage cowering down. And it's because I needed healing

671
00:39:45.040 --> 00:39:49.680
to step into the little girl that was skipping down the lane. Do you understand what I'm saying?

672
00:39:51.600 --> 00:39:58.000
Some of you actually still feel like the mouse or whatever your thing is inside of the cage.

673
00:39:58.000 --> 00:40:00.240
And God is trying to say to you tonight

674
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.900
Then if you don't fully believe it yet,

675
00:40:02.900 --> 00:40:05.860
you might not feel like the girl skipping down the road

676
00:40:05.860 --> 00:40:07.100
or that girl that feels free,

677
00:40:07.100 --> 00:40:08.640
whatever that image is for you.

678
00:40:08.640 --> 00:40:09.900
Maybe it's a girl dancing,

679
00:40:09.900 --> 00:40:12.860
maybe it's a girl painting or whatever,

680
00:40:12.860 --> 00:40:17.860
but that sense of freedom and liberty and joy,

681
00:40:18.240 --> 00:40:20.460
that is what God has for us.

682
00:40:20.460 --> 00:40:22.500
Romans 8, 37 through 39 says,

683
00:40:22.500 --> 00:40:25.580
"'No, in all these things we are more than conquerors

684
00:40:25.580 --> 00:40:26.660
"'through him who loved us,

685
00:40:26.660 --> 00:40:28.600
"'for I am convinced that neither death nor life,

686
00:40:28.600 --> 00:40:30.240
"'neither angels nor demons,

687
00:40:30.240 --> 00:40:31.680
"'neither the present nor the future,

688
00:40:31.680 --> 00:40:33.760
"'nor any powers nor height nor depth,

689
00:40:33.760 --> 00:40:36.800
"'nor anything else in all of creation

690
00:40:36.800 --> 00:40:39.220
"'will be able to separate us from the love of God

691
00:40:39.220 --> 00:40:41.480
"'that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.'"

692
00:40:41.480 --> 00:40:43.040
So again, think about this.

693
00:40:43.040 --> 00:40:46.920
If God is for us, who can be against us?

694
00:40:46.920 --> 00:40:50.620
If God is for you, Hannah, who can be against you?

695
00:40:51.540 --> 00:40:53.200
No one.

696
00:40:53.200 --> 00:40:56.440
Nothing the enemy sends our way can stop us.

697
00:40:56.440 --> 00:41:00.560
If we choose to say, I'm not gonna believe your lies,

698
00:41:00.560 --> 00:41:03.400
I'm gonna keep going, I'm gonna learn how to keep healing,

699
00:41:03.400 --> 00:41:05.200
and I'm gonna keep moving forward,

700
00:41:05.200 --> 00:41:07.320
and that's for everybody.

701
00:41:07.320 --> 00:41:08.400
Y'all, I think maybe by now,

702
00:41:08.400 --> 00:41:09.920
if you don't know, you're brand new here,

703
00:41:09.920 --> 00:41:11.840
sometimes I just feel led to say someone's name,

704
00:41:11.840 --> 00:41:14.000
and I just trust the Holy Spirit with that.

705
00:41:15.780 --> 00:41:17.680
But God is saying all of your names.

706
00:41:17.680 --> 00:41:20.660
So don't take that personally, receive it for yourself.

707
00:41:21.520 --> 00:41:22.680
It's your time.

708
00:41:23.740 --> 00:41:25.040
It's your time.

709
00:41:26.560 --> 00:41:27.880
Your time for what?

710
00:41:27.880 --> 00:41:30.580
You might be asking, what is it my time for?

711
00:41:30.580 --> 00:41:32.880
Well, not only is it your time,

712
00:41:32.880 --> 00:41:35.480
we believe, eventually, for your spirit mate relationship

713
00:41:35.480 --> 00:41:38.380
for y'all to meet, but we believe it's your time

714
00:41:38.380 --> 00:41:42.100
for the princesses on the inside of you to awaken.

715
00:41:43.280 --> 00:41:45.480
I've been talking to people almost about

716
00:41:45.480 --> 00:41:47.040
the same amount of time, a little over a year,

717
00:41:47.040 --> 00:41:51.040
about this concept as well, and I'm not knocking this.

718
00:41:51.040 --> 00:41:53.760
So if y'all have said this about yourself or friends

719
00:41:53.760 --> 00:41:56.160
or people have said this to you, I'm not knocking it.

720
00:41:56.880 --> 00:41:58.840
But God has started giving me this revelation

721
00:41:58.840 --> 00:42:01.240
about some of the stuff we talk about in our society,

722
00:42:01.240 --> 00:42:04.480
like queen, that's his queen.

723
00:42:04.480 --> 00:42:06.400
You're my queen, I'm a queen.

724
00:42:06.400 --> 00:42:08.560
And again, I'm not knocking that,

725
00:42:08.560 --> 00:42:11.680
but the reality is is there's a lot of queens out there,

726
00:42:11.680 --> 00:42:15.000
people saying they're queens, people being called queens

727
00:42:15.000 --> 00:42:19.500
that literally have never even learned how to be a princess.

728
00:42:22.320 --> 00:42:23.840
We're skipping steps.

729
00:42:24.840 --> 00:42:27.160
We're skipping steps.

730
00:42:27.160 --> 00:42:30.600
So God wants you to learn how to be a daughter

731
00:42:32.160 --> 00:42:35.060
so that you can learn how to be a princess

732
00:42:35.060 --> 00:42:37.500
so that you can grow into a queen.

733
00:42:38.400 --> 00:42:39.700
Does everybody understand?

734
00:42:40.680 --> 00:42:43.760
It's really important because if we don't know

735
00:42:43.760 --> 00:42:47.400
how to function as a daughter that's loved,

736
00:42:47.400 --> 00:42:50.160
well, we're gonna struggle to function as a princess

737
00:42:50.160 --> 00:42:53.800
and believe that we deserve to be at the king's table,

738
00:42:54.640 --> 00:42:56.160
to be at the king's table.

739
00:42:56.160 --> 00:42:58.440
I just taught the little kids in our church yesterday

740
00:42:58.440 --> 00:43:00.280
about Mephibosheth.

741
00:43:00.280 --> 00:43:01.120
You don't know the story.

742
00:43:01.120 --> 00:43:03.240
Mephibosheth is Jonathan's son.

743
00:43:04.320 --> 00:43:07.920
Jonathan and David made a promise to each other.

744
00:43:07.920 --> 00:43:11.320
Jonathan's dad was King Saul who chased David down.

745
00:43:11.320 --> 00:43:14.600
Mephibosheth was dropped after Jonathan,

746
00:43:14.600 --> 00:43:17.960
I think it was after Jonathan died and they were fleeing.

747
00:43:17.960 --> 00:43:20.600
The nurse's aide dropped him accidentally

748
00:43:20.600 --> 00:43:21.800
and he became lame.

749
00:43:21.800 --> 00:43:26.400
At the time when one king no longer was ruling

750
00:43:26.400 --> 00:43:28.800
and a new king moved into ruling,

751
00:43:28.800 --> 00:43:31.680
the new king would typically get rid of,

752
00:43:31.680 --> 00:43:36.680
literally kill the prior king and their family.

753
00:43:38.000 --> 00:43:40.240
But because David and Jonathan made a pact,

754
00:43:40.240 --> 00:43:45.240
they made a promise, David remembered that

755
00:43:45.480 --> 00:43:47.800
and then he went and looked for anybody

756
00:43:47.800 --> 00:43:51.160
that was related to Jonathan and found Mephibosheth.

757
00:43:52.240 --> 00:43:54.440
And not only did he find him,

758
00:43:54.440 --> 00:43:58.360
y'all know the story, he brought him to his kingdom.

759
00:43:58.360 --> 00:44:00.040
And he didn't just bring him to his kingdom

760
00:44:00.040 --> 00:44:03.000
and put him in the slave area in the prison.

761
00:44:03.000 --> 00:44:05.040
What did he do with him?

762
00:44:05.040 --> 00:44:07.920
He brought him to his table and treated him,

763
00:44:07.920 --> 00:44:11.040
the Bible says, like one of his sons.

764
00:44:13.360 --> 00:44:16.240
The same is true for some of you tonight.

765
00:44:16.240 --> 00:44:19.800
You might feel like you're that person that's been lame,

766
00:44:19.800 --> 00:44:21.960
disabled in some way, shape or form,

767
00:44:21.960 --> 00:44:24.240
or like stuck and you just can't move forward.

768
00:44:24.240 --> 00:44:26.700
And you're just feel like God has forgotten you,

769
00:44:26.700 --> 00:44:27.920
but he hasn't.

770
00:44:27.920 --> 00:44:32.360
And he's sending David, if you will, through me tonight,

771
00:44:32.360 --> 00:44:33.720
praise the Lord.

772
00:44:33.720 --> 00:44:36.160
And he's saying, hey, I'm come looking for you.

773
00:44:37.240 --> 00:44:40.440
I'm coming, I'm coming looking for you

774
00:44:40.440 --> 00:44:43.740
because you are not where you belong.

775
00:44:43.740 --> 00:44:46.160
You belong at my table.

776
00:44:46.160 --> 00:44:47.820
You belong in my kingdom.

777
00:44:48.660 --> 00:44:50.560
I have good things for you.

778
00:44:52.180 --> 00:44:56.020
David had plenty and he allowed Mephibosheth

779
00:44:56.020 --> 00:44:58.960
to come and partake of what he had.

780
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.380
He didn't withhold anything from him.

781
00:45:02.380 --> 00:45:06.000
Now, on the flip side, if you're like me,

782
00:45:06.000 --> 00:45:09.540
sometimes you're asking and begging for something

783
00:45:09.540 --> 00:45:11.460
that isn't good for you.

784
00:45:13.180 --> 00:45:16.060
I pleaded and I begged for my spiritual daughter's dad.

785
00:45:16.060 --> 00:45:18.300
I wanted him to marry me.

786
00:45:18.300 --> 00:45:20.980
In the beginning, I thought he was like,

787
00:45:20.980 --> 00:45:22.940
he was the guy the first two weeks.

788
00:45:22.940 --> 00:45:24.260
That's about how long it lasted you all,

789
00:45:24.260 --> 00:45:26.600
but I dated him for six years.

790
00:45:26.600 --> 00:45:27.440
I'm not joking.

791
00:45:27.440 --> 00:45:28.320
Y'all think I'm joking?

792
00:45:28.320 --> 00:45:29.820
I'm not.

793
00:45:30.180 --> 00:45:33.020
The guy I saw for the first two or three weeks,

794
00:45:33.020 --> 00:45:36.060
I waited and waited for that guy to come back.

795
00:45:37.220 --> 00:45:40.340
Because I was convinced that was a real person.

796
00:45:40.340 --> 00:45:42.720
He was a real person, but he was pretending.

797
00:45:43.580 --> 00:45:46.500
He was not being who he truly was.

798
00:45:46.500 --> 00:45:49.420
He was putting on a facade to rope me in.

799
00:45:51.180 --> 00:45:54.820
So, it took me a while to see through all that stuff

800
00:45:54.820 --> 00:45:58.600
and kind of get all the cobwebs off my brain

801
00:45:58.600 --> 00:46:01.000
from all the distortion and things he was saying to me.

802
00:46:01.000 --> 00:46:04.240
And then I started waking up like, wait a minute,

803
00:46:05.280 --> 00:46:07.020
this isn't my family.

804
00:46:07.020 --> 00:46:09.160
This isn't where I belong.

805
00:46:09.160 --> 00:46:10.920
This is not what God has for me.

806
00:46:12.480 --> 00:46:14.380
Was it hard for me to leave that relationship?

807
00:46:14.380 --> 00:46:16.320
You better believe it was.

808
00:46:16.320 --> 00:46:17.160
Why?

809
00:46:17.160 --> 00:46:18.560
Why was it hard if somebody was mistreating me,

810
00:46:18.560 --> 00:46:21.120
cheating on me, all these things he was doing?

811
00:46:21.120 --> 00:46:23.680
Well, it was because I loved his daughters

812
00:46:23.680 --> 00:46:26.920
and I still was waiting for the guy the first few weeks

813
00:46:26.920 --> 00:46:29.600
that I thought was real to come back.

814
00:46:29.600 --> 00:46:32.560
It's a messed up cycle that we can get in sometimes.

815
00:46:32.560 --> 00:46:35.280
But when I finally was like, look, okay,

816
00:46:35.280 --> 00:46:37.280
that guy was not real.

817
00:46:37.280 --> 00:46:40.360
And I started educating myself on all the dynamics

818
00:46:40.360 --> 00:46:42.280
of what I was going through.

819
00:46:42.280 --> 00:46:44.800
God was helping me get revelation

820
00:46:44.800 --> 00:46:48.180
so I could walk away from that and walk into freedom.

821
00:46:49.320 --> 00:46:53.420
And the freedom meant I had to take a chance.

822
00:46:53.420 --> 00:46:56.840
I had to risk losing his girls

823
00:46:57.680 --> 00:47:00.000
because I wasn't their bio mom.

824
00:47:00.000 --> 00:47:01.520
I had no rights to them.

825
00:47:01.520 --> 00:47:03.080
I had already lost my stepson

826
00:47:03.080 --> 00:47:05.040
when I filed for divorce many years ago.

827
00:47:05.040 --> 00:47:08.220
So I was terrified of losing the girls.

828
00:47:09.180 --> 00:47:13.600
But I had to make a decision

829
00:47:13.600 --> 00:47:16.080
that I was gonna actually choose

830
00:47:16.080 --> 00:47:19.200
to invest in my own health and healing.

831
00:47:19.200 --> 00:47:21.080
And then I would be a much healthier woman

832
00:47:21.080 --> 00:47:23.400
for those girls, no matter what.

833
00:47:23.400 --> 00:47:25.980
And I just prayed and believed that God would defend me

834
00:47:25.980 --> 00:47:27.660
and make a way for me to be in their lives.

835
00:47:27.660 --> 00:47:30.780
And y'all, I'm still in their life today.

836
00:47:30.780 --> 00:47:32.880
They were in our wedding.

837
00:47:32.880 --> 00:47:34.780
Their dad tried to fight against that too,

838
00:47:34.780 --> 00:47:36.160
but you know what?

839
00:47:36.160 --> 00:47:38.580
The devil is a liar.

840
00:47:38.580 --> 00:47:41.300
And my girls came and they were in our wedding

841
00:47:41.300 --> 00:47:43.580
and they had a great time.

842
00:47:43.580 --> 00:47:45.660
And they come visit and we go visit them

843
00:47:45.660 --> 00:47:46.920
and they love Brian.

844
00:47:48.300 --> 00:47:52.580
So whoever that's for tonight, the devil is a liar.

845
00:47:52.580 --> 00:47:54.440
You don't need to stay in these old patterns

846
00:47:54.440 --> 00:47:59.240
and old ways and old relationships that do not serve you.

847
00:47:59.240 --> 00:48:03.240
They hurt you and tear you down and take you backwards.

848
00:48:04.240 --> 00:48:05.480
Ephesians 5, 14 says,

849
00:48:05.480 --> 00:48:07.740
"'Awake, awake, O sleeper, and rise up from the dead

850
00:48:07.740 --> 00:48:11.040
"'and Christ will shine on you.'

851
00:48:11.040 --> 00:48:11.880
"'Awaken by what?

852
00:48:11.880 --> 00:48:14.960
"'True love's kiss, like heaven is saying tonight.

853
00:48:14.960 --> 00:48:18.120
"'Hey, come, come higher, go deeper

854
00:48:18.120 --> 00:48:20.080
"'in the understanding of God's love for you.

855
00:48:20.080 --> 00:48:23.780
"'I want you to awaken to your true God-given identity.

856
00:48:23.780 --> 00:48:25.640
"'Again, who you were originally created to be

857
00:48:25.640 --> 00:48:29.380
"'before wounds or trauma ever entered your life.

858
00:48:29.380 --> 00:48:32.940
"'Awaken to restoration and beautiful things

859
00:48:32.940 --> 00:48:34.660
"'that God has more for you

860
00:48:34.660 --> 00:48:37.260
"'than what you have experienced in the past.'"

861
00:48:37.260 --> 00:48:40.820
God wants to awaken you to a big, bold, beautiful future.

862
00:48:40.820 --> 00:48:42.420
You're gonna have dreams awakening in you.

863
00:48:42.420 --> 00:48:45.660
Some of you, you're gonna have dreams in daytime,

864
00:48:45.660 --> 00:48:47.460
you're gonna have dreams in the nighttime

865
00:48:47.460 --> 00:48:50.300
that are like actual dreams that you're dreaming.

866
00:48:50.300 --> 00:48:53.180
Some of you are gonna have childhood dreams coming back

867
00:48:53.540 --> 00:48:56.100
like things that you always wanted to do,

868
00:48:56.100 --> 00:48:58.620
but at some point, someone told you you couldn't do it

869
00:48:58.620 --> 00:48:59.660
and you just quit.

870
00:48:59.660 --> 00:49:01.260
Now, some dreams you all, like,

871
00:49:01.260 --> 00:49:02.860
I don't know if you're like me,

872
00:49:02.860 --> 00:49:05.220
I can't play softball anymore.

873
00:49:05.220 --> 00:49:06.540
I love to be athletic.

874
00:49:06.540 --> 00:49:07.720
Maybe I'll play again one day,

875
00:49:07.720 --> 00:49:09.180
but I'm just not there right now.

876
00:49:09.180 --> 00:49:11.980
There's some things we might not be able to do again, right?

877
00:49:11.980 --> 00:49:16.180
But there are some things you can absolutely still do.

878
00:49:16.180 --> 00:49:18.020
You're not too old for school.

879
00:49:18.020 --> 00:49:19.340
I don't believe in that.

880
00:49:20.300 --> 00:49:22.960
And new dreams are gonna be given to some of you.

881
00:49:23.900 --> 00:49:25.420
Some of you are gonna start like,

882
00:49:25.420 --> 00:49:27.380
oh my gosh, I have this idea

883
00:49:27.380 --> 00:49:29.620
to maybe go take a cooking class

884
00:49:29.620 --> 00:49:33.660
and become a bakery chef or baker.

885
00:49:33.660 --> 00:49:34.540
It's a baker.

886
00:49:34.540 --> 00:49:36.340
If you have a bakery, you're a baker.

887
00:49:36.340 --> 00:49:37.740
You get what I'm saying, right?

888
00:49:37.740 --> 00:49:39.600
Some of you, and I wanna encourage you,

889
00:49:39.600 --> 00:49:41.540
when you have those ideas come to you,

890
00:49:41.540 --> 00:49:44.180
don't squash those down like, well, that's so dumb.

891
00:49:44.180 --> 00:49:45.740
Why would I even think of that?

892
00:49:46.740 --> 00:49:49.620
Allow those things to bubble up and start to form.

893
00:49:49.620 --> 00:49:51.900
Even if you never go down that road,

894
00:49:51.900 --> 00:49:53.660
write that stuff down.

895
00:49:53.660 --> 00:49:55.620
Thank God for the idea.

896
00:49:55.620 --> 00:49:58.220
Like, Lord, that's so awesome.

897
00:49:59.380 --> 00:50:00.220
Is that something?

898
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.360
you really want me to do? And hey, guess what? Even if it's not your end,

899
00:50:04.440 --> 00:50:05.760
longterm goal,

900
00:50:06.120 --> 00:50:10.240
do you know that even just doing it is not going to harm you unless it's

901
00:50:10.240 --> 00:50:13.440
something harmful, obviously. But I'm, I'm trying to give the example of like,

902
00:50:13.680 --> 00:50:18.360
if you get this idea, even if it feels out of left field, follow it,

903
00:50:18.380 --> 00:50:20.000
let's see where it takes you.

904
00:50:20.280 --> 00:50:25.240
And we don't need God to tell us to do every single little thing because

905
00:50:25.240 --> 00:50:28.120
most likely he's giving us the idea anyways.

906
00:50:28.840 --> 00:50:33.120
So just give it a try. Some of you need to take an art class.

907
00:50:33.120 --> 00:50:36.760
You've kind of always wanted to give it a try, but something inside of you,

908
00:50:36.760 --> 00:50:38.720
you see someone else that's an artist and you're like, yeah,

909
00:50:38.840 --> 00:50:43.200
I can't do it like that. And so you just don't do it at all. But for me,

910
00:50:43.240 --> 00:50:44.960
I don't know about you guys. Again, some of this stuff,

911
00:50:45.080 --> 00:50:48.080
like I'm not an artist that paints every day, but I actually love to paint.

912
00:50:48.120 --> 00:50:53.000
I actually love doing art, anything with my hands. But, um,

913
00:50:53.020 --> 00:50:57.680
when I was a kid, I was in an art class. The teacher was amazing.

914
00:50:57.680 --> 00:50:59.920
I looked up to her. I didn't really know her very well,

915
00:50:59.920 --> 00:51:03.840
but everybody spoke so highly of her. Well, then I took her art class.

916
00:51:05.400 --> 00:51:10.240
And I remember, I just remember in particular, this one day,

917
00:51:10.240 --> 00:51:12.920
this one assignment, I was really struggling with it.

918
00:51:13.440 --> 00:51:17.440
And I remember that she wrote something on my paper and said something to me out

919
00:51:17.440 --> 00:51:21.000
loud, basically that I was never going to be able to be very good at doing art

920
00:51:21.960 --> 00:51:25.160
essentially. And I just quit. I never,

921
00:51:25.320 --> 00:51:27.480
I didn't draw again for many,

922
00:51:27.520 --> 00:51:31.960
many years until I left office work,

923
00:51:32.040 --> 00:51:36.520
went to hair school and in hair school,

924
00:51:36.760 --> 00:51:41.560
they started having us mix color and drawing and all kinds of things to

925
00:51:41.560 --> 00:51:45.040
get our creative juices flowing. And y'all,

926
00:51:45.040 --> 00:51:49.600
I started to paint again and I started to draw again and God

927
00:51:49.600 --> 00:51:54.280
healed that stuff from the past. That was important for that to heal.

928
00:51:54.280 --> 00:51:58.400
That woman said something to me that God never intended to be said to me.

929
00:51:59.400 --> 00:52:03.040
The creative in me, while I might not be an everyday artist,

930
00:52:03.040 --> 00:52:07.760
that that awakening in me brings a lot of other things to life and fruition in

931
00:52:07.760 --> 00:52:10.480
me. So again, I don't know who this is for,

932
00:52:10.480 --> 00:52:14.000
but I believe God wants you to whatever that thing is you've been thinking about

933
00:52:14.400 --> 00:52:18.760
that you would start to play and try that and, and just see where that takes you.

934
00:52:19.760 --> 00:52:22.520
We all have to choose what we're going to believe. Again,

935
00:52:22.560 --> 00:52:25.080
remember whose report are you going to believe? All right,

936
00:52:25.080 --> 00:52:28.200
I'm going to get you ready for breakout sessions. It's going to be really great.

937
00:52:28.640 --> 00:52:31.080
You know, please don't a bunch of people log off because you're scared of

938
00:52:31.080 --> 00:52:33.680
breakouts. Okay. If you really have to go or you're at work,

939
00:52:33.680 --> 00:52:34.920
we totally understand.

940
00:52:35.240 --> 00:52:38.680
But I tend to have people log off as soon as I mentioned breakouts.

941
00:52:38.680 --> 00:52:42.640
And I don't want you to miss this because this is an opportunity for you to

942
00:52:42.640 --> 00:52:46.200
connect with your sisters on the same journey with you. It's really important.

943
00:52:46.520 --> 00:52:48.400
Okay. Here's your question.

944
00:52:49.400 --> 00:52:52.880
In what ways does the enemy challenge the real you?

945
00:52:53.400 --> 00:52:57.080
Does he often use comparison, competition,

946
00:52:57.360 --> 00:53:01.360
or imitation? He might use all of those or a combination of those as well.

947
00:53:01.360 --> 00:53:04.520
So don't feel like there's a right or wrong answer to this. Okay.

948
00:53:05.000 --> 00:53:07.920
And then how do those show up in your life? So for example, again,

949
00:53:07.920 --> 00:53:09.480
I'm going to read the question to you again.

950
00:53:09.880 --> 00:53:14.560
In what ways does the enemy challenge the real you?

951
00:53:15.280 --> 00:53:19.800
Comparison, competition, or imitation.

952
00:53:20.120 --> 00:53:22.440
And then how do those show up in your life? So for example,

953
00:53:22.440 --> 00:53:26.680
if you struggle with comparison, how does that show up in your life today?

954
00:53:27.160 --> 00:53:32.160
Does everyone understand? Yeah. Okay. All right.

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Let's see here. If I can get these real quick, we'll give you seven minutes.

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So you have time to share. And then if you have,

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after you talk about that question, take some time to get to know each other.

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Where are you from? What brought you to the community? Have some fun with this.

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Okay. And once I get you in the rooms, if you get in there, you're by yourself.

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I'll move you guys around as quick as I can. I can. So go ahead and, okay,

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I've got you seven minutes. Go ahead and click to join those.

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Those are popping up on your screen so that you can join.

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Praying for you all.

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Ariane, you can stay here in the main room.

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If you don't want to go into breakout tonight.

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I'll move a couple of people around and then I'll start to pray here.

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All right, Father, thank you so much for everything you're doing in our lives.

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God, we thank you for, I'm hearing in my spirit, a turnaround spirit.

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We thank you, Lord, that you would just encounter us in supernatural ways.

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What comes to mind as well as God.

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is Paul when he was on, well he was actually Saul on the road to Damascus and God encountered him

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and that's when the transformation happened and he became Paul. So Lord we just thank you for

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divine transformation and healing. God we thank you that you would give us greater revelation,

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that you would give us insight, that you would Lord help us to step further into the revelation

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of who you originally created us to be. All the things hopefully Lord that are getting stirred

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up within the ladies tonight, God I pray that you would make it more and more real to them

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every single day. Lord we thank you that in Philippians 1 6 it says there's never been the

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slightest doubt in my mind that the God who started this great work in you would keep at it

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and bring it to a flourishing finish on the very day Christ Jesus appears. So Lord we thank you

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that you give us the promise that the work that you've started in us you're not ever going to

981
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give up on that. You're not going to ever give up on us. You're going to keep working in our lives.

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You're going to keep showing up God. You're going to keep leading us to greater truth and greater

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revelation. Hebrews 10 25 says this, this is not the time to pull away and neglect meeting together

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as some have formed the habit of doing because we need each other. In fact we should come together

985
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even more frequently eager to encourage and urge each other onward as we anticipate that day

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dawning. So praise the Lord you guys are here tonight those watching the replay some of you

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I know you can't be here because of time differences or schedules but if you're catching

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this replay and and maybe you could have been here tonight but for some reason you just got

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nervous and avoided it we want to encourage you to come and and come into the fellowship of meeting

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together. You know here we are we're we're not in person but it's still just as powerful on

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the live as you know we connect as sisters and community together. Ephesians 4 21 through 24

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says since you have heard about Jesus and have learned the truth that comes from him

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throw off your old sinful nature and your former way of life which is corrupted by lust and

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deception instead let the spirit renew your thoughts and attitudes put on your new nature

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created to be like God truly righteous and holy. So Lord we just thank you that you would help us to

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lay aside every weight that so easily ensnares us so that we can press on toward the high calling

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of God for our lives. God that we would you know allow the sinful fleshly nature in us to be

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removed. God that um yeah Lord that we would not walk after the flesh but we would walk after the

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things of the spirit. We thank you that your your spirit is what brings truth and revelation we know

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your truth is what sets us free so God I pray that you would lead us further into all truth

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and anoint us for all of our lives and walk in calling and lead us deeper into Jesus and the

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revelation of who he is tonight we thank you for the conversations happening in the rooms we thank

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you for those that are processing even the questions here in the main room or that are

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going to be on the replay Lord I pray that you would help them Lord to hear all the ways that

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you want to help waken them up the areas where the enemy tries to challenge the real you that

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you create or the real them that you created them to be whether that's comparison or competition or

1007
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imitation God that they don't need to be fake or show up in ways with mask and hide from who you

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originally created them to be they don't need to shrink down when other people are if you will

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large in a room God we thank you that you have given us a voice that matters in this world and

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I pray that you would show us how to use that and Lord also how to um wield the sword of the spirit

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which to me is different than what I was praying but that's what came to mind so that we would

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wield our tongues that we would know when to speak and when to be silent Lord and I thank you

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Lord um yeah Lord speak Lord for your servants are listening we're listening for you Lord I pray that

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you would give us ears to hear while your spirit is saying you're in your word declares that your

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sheep know your voice and and I believe that we are your sheep for all those that have accepted

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Jesus as our Lord and Savior the word declares we are his sheep so praise the Lord that we can

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hear him and that we can increase in our ability to hear him more and more and more every single day

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um yeah so good so many good things God is doing he's moving and he's shaking um this just stood

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out to me I was going through flipping for these scriptures um to keep us going here for a little

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bit but it says this boundaries are about identity that really stood out to me boundaries help us to

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tell other people's what we like and don't like what we want and don't want what we will allow

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and what we will not allow in the relationship so here's the thing another thing and I might

1023
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have to circle back to this because it's so important to the process that for all of us

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um to find out who we are so many of us don't even know what we like and so then when we're

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trying to think of dates or things that we want to do or that person asks us what are some of

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the things you like doing we're like

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I don't know some of you have been so in like even a lot of single parents get stuck in this place where you're just working and taking care of your kids and so a lot of our single parents have kind of forgotten what they even enjoy doing for themselves.

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And that can happen to anybody so even if you're not a single parent that could be happening to you, where again maybe just things along the way they really shoved that stuff down in us.

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And so we haven't been living into that we haven't been practicing it so again it's allowing God to awaken us and help us to step into that plan and that purpose that he has for us.

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Psalm 147 3-4 says this, He heals the wounds of every shattered heart. He sets his stars in place calling them all by their names.

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I love this scripture just in general but it's such a good reminder that God also knows all of our names.

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He calls us by name and so wherever you are know that God sees you he knows every need that you have.

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I just pray over all the Jesus Cares boards represented by those here tonight those that are going to watch the replay and those that might not ever come that Jesus you see every care that's on those boards and we thank you that you're coming and you're moving in every one of those areas.

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I thank you for surprises coming from heaven more and more and more in the days ahead that there would be an acceleration Lord and even as Amos 9 13-15 where it talks about the and suddenly is like one thing happening on the heels of another on another that those would be good things and that we would really know God that we are your daughters who live in the land of the living that good things will start to chase us down that we will no longer believe bad things are going to be chasing us down.

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In Jesus name welcome back so glad that you're here when you guys go in there.

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I pray I read scripture. I do whatever the Lord leads me to do. So if you ever all want to go back and catch that you can it might encourage you and you don't have to necessarily even listen to the whole session.

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You can just fast forward. We're at 9 o'clock. So it's about an hour in to the session or so.

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Welcome back. So I'm going to encourage you on just a moment to sorry I forgot to pull something up on my screen to share with us what you shared in your breakout but I do want to just really quickly your activation for this week share it with you. Here we go.

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It is the silhouette. It is circling back around for those of you that haven't done it yet. It is here again. It is your time. I know the last couple of times we've done this some people that had not done it in the past did step into it.

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I always try to remind everybody don't compare yourself. There's all different ways to do this. There's not like just be you. Okay. Just be you how you feel. We've had some women do these on computers.

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I was even thinking this afternoon if you get really intimidated and I'll show you some that are very simple here in a minute too. But if you get really intimidated and are like I'm not somebody who can draw. Do you know that you can literally go find a little like a little princess coloring book and put a piece of paper on top of one of the coloring pages and just do an outline of a princess and then put yourself on there.

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Okay. So I'm giving you an easy way. There should be no reason that you don't do it. Okay. So these are just a couple ladies that have gone through hard work. This first one was a young lady. I love to show you guys all of these. There's something really beautiful and special about every single one.

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This one in particular she really struggled to see herself in the mirror as well as on screen. And as she did this process. So what we ask you guys to do. Sorry I forgot to explain this. So the way we do this is you're going to pray and you're going to ask God who do you say that I am. You're asking God who do you say that I am. You're going to write down all of the positive things on your silhouette.

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If you hear anything negative it does not go on the silhouette. You're going to put that on a separate piece of paper and then you're going to ask God to help you know the truth to replace that lie. Some of you all are going to have to process that through several times until you get to the positive thing. That revealing for healing cycle will help you do that. But once you get to the positive then you can put that on your silhouette. Nothing negative goes on the silhouette. Okay.

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Alright so she felt led to draw these flowers over her eyes to symbolize that she was going to start to see herself like with fresh eyes. With new life if you will.

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Alright here's another one. She says right on here who does God say I am. And she drew that lively green growing from her head. I just thought that was so cool because her mind was being renewed and she was starting to think a lot more positively about herself.

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And I love on her one arm it says mother in Israel. Powerful. And also the other thing you all when you do this process please please please do not limit what you can.

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here okay so if you hear something even if you don't believe it right now if it's a positive

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thing i want you to put it on this paper on your silhouette okay because some of you all again

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01:05:11.280 --> 01:05:16.880
you're going to grow into really receiving and walking in these things here's one we talk a lot

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about practicing being princesses this is your second activation there's two this week so the

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first one's the silhouette the second one is to hey we're going to partner with princess some of

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you all already have your crowns because you've heard this conversation before but i want to

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encourage you all to pray about what does god want you to do to invest in partnering with i

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am a princess of the king maybe you're going to feel led to buy a tiara maybe you're going to feel

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led to buy some fancy shoes because that makes you feel like a princess maybe it's going to be

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some kind of pretty robe or literally a veil i don't know whatever you feel led to do all kinds

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of people have done different things i want to encourage you to do that and then actually

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01:05:58.640 --> 01:06:04.960
practice where if you get a tiara practice wearing it we had a lady um in one of our groups that she

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when she did this activation she recorded practicing walking down the aisle when she got

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married it was so awesome do what god shows you to do and show up courageous and you're just going

1062
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to be amazed at how many people are just going to be set free from that too here's another one

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beautiful simple she did the silhouette and the pencil and then did all of the real me and she

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wrote all the things that god was saying to her hope dealer daughter of the most high there's tons

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of peacemaker tons of things on here here's another one simple beautiful she she wrote in

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here and i love that you know there's different colors which meant different things to her and

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then a couple of them are highlighted that all meant something to her again follow the holy

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spirit for yourself i'm going to go a little quicker here here's another one really awesome

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freckles really you know leaning into her identity and embracing everything about herself

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here's another one with a princess crown she had a thought for every diadem like every jewel that's

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on the top of that crown i thought that was really cool and over her eyes it says imaginative

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quiet sensitive really awesome here's one this lady is more of an artist so don't get intimidated

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but i do love to show you all some of the different ones really beautiful powerful for her

1074
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and then naomi i don't know if you all remember she just recently moved into phase two she had

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heard this activation several times and had shied away from it but she finally did it and it is

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powerful this looks like her it's really awesome so again do what you feel led to do simple artistic

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whatever is your thing do your thing okay we're going to celebrate you when you do it then you

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want to post it in the group that's how i got those pictures um and we want to celebrate with

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you and cheer you on okay i know there were a couple ladies that were here this after in the

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afternoon session and you did not get to share um so i don't know if tatiana or lisa grim are here

1081
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tonight if you are i would love to have you share tonight and then if you're not if there's any other

1082
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ladies that are willing to share what you shared in your private breakout session now if you if

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people did go in the afternoon i would rather you all wait so ladies that can you know haven't had

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an opportunity to go tonight can go so grace go ahead i saw your hand up as well oh thank you if

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the other ladies are here they can definitely go first no no that's okay um so i met with cindy

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and um at first when you asked the question i wasn't really sure what to say because i couldn't

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really um think of anything um but then as we were talking i realized that one of the ways that um

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i feel like i experienced this opposition is through um the voice of accusation and in

1089
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particular accusing thoughts in my head and i was saying to cindy cindy that um

1090
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often it will start off as a voice of accusation and then i'll kind of just take over

1091
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and make it my own and all actually become more my thoughts then um then the the voice

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of accusation that it starts off being in the beginning okay so this is this is really good

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insight one of the things i want to say though is i i understand what you're saying that like if

1094
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at first it's from the enemy but then the way you're interpreting it is you take over but what's

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happening is you're partnering with the lie so that's what's happening so we partner with the

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lie and then that's where we start kind of living into that like it is true okay so let's talk about

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this the voice of accusation what is it saying to you um okay okay so one example that i'll bring

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to mind yeah as i've been doing the book and going through the course and everything i keep having

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memories that i hadn't had before and just i'll be asking i'll be going through the revealing

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for healing and asking the holy spirit where did this come from and one um key thing that

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I keep hearing, as a new memory will pop up,

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is just this theme of not being chosen,

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or other people get to have these things,

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but I don't get to have these things.

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And before doing this course,

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I didn't realize that that was something

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that I'd really agreed with,

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but it's been really helpful

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to have all these new memories pop up

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of times when I've done that

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and made an agreement with that.

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And so I can see that that's an example of a lie,

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and then I can see how I've partnered with it.

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And even though it's been so good

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having the Revealing for Healing journey

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and going through that,

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I feel like at the moment I'm in the stage

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where I notice a lie, I ask the Holy Spirit,

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like, what do we do with this?

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And now I'm in a place where we're waiting

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for that truth to come through.

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Okay, and that is such a good point, Grace.

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And for anybody else that's kind of in that place

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that she's talking about,

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sometimes it's not an automatic thing, right?

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And that can get tricky sometimes.

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But what I can say is just continue to pray into that.

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Sometimes you're gonna get that answer in another phase.

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And I don't wanna disappoint you all,

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because I know we always, we want it right now, don't we?

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But know that when God brings it to the surface,

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it's gonna be the right timing for you.

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But on that, when you said memories

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that you haven't had before, that's very common.

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If there's any overwhelm setting in,

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make sure you're really praying around

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what's leading to the overwhelm.

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But I wanna kind of process this with you

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if you're okay with that.

1140
01:11:31.560 --> 01:11:32.400
Okay.

1141
01:11:32.400 --> 01:11:33.220
Yeah, sure.

1142
01:11:33.220 --> 01:11:34.640
So the not being chosen,

1143
01:11:34.640 --> 01:11:38.200
or other people get to have these things, but I don't.

1144
01:11:38.200 --> 01:11:41.200
Do you remember like any time when you were a kid

1145
01:11:41.200 --> 01:11:46.200
where there was something that you really wanted or needed?

1146
01:11:46.240 --> 01:11:49.720
I might even lean more towards the need in my spirit

1147
01:11:49.720 --> 01:11:51.060
when I said that to you.

1148
01:11:51.060 --> 01:11:52.160
But it can be either or,

1149
01:11:52.160 --> 01:11:55.200
where you felt like you got passed over.

1150
01:11:56.040 --> 01:11:56.880
Yeah.

1151
01:11:56.880 --> 01:11:58.280
So birthdays were a big thing.

1152
01:11:58.280 --> 01:12:01.400
And even now, anytime a birthday comes,

1153
01:12:01.400 --> 01:12:02.800
like I had this looming sense

1154
01:12:02.800 --> 01:12:05.720
because I came from a really poor family

1155
01:12:05.720 --> 01:12:09.520
and my dad was away and then ended up leaving the family.

1156
01:12:09.520 --> 01:12:11.160
But we went to a private school,

1157
01:12:11.160 --> 01:12:13.140
which I don't know how that happened.

1158
01:12:13.140 --> 01:12:16.520
So I was around people who were like celebrated and loved.

1159
01:12:16.520 --> 01:12:19.480
And like when their birthdays came, it was a big deal.

1160
01:12:19.480 --> 01:12:21.440
And when my birthday came

1161
01:12:21.440 --> 01:12:24.240
and it was so apparent that we couldn't do anything,

1162
01:12:25.240 --> 01:12:26.440
so my birthday's in February,

1163
01:12:26.440 --> 01:12:28.320
so we have Christmas and then my brother's birthday

1164
01:12:28.320 --> 01:12:29.960
and then my birthday.

1165
01:12:29.960 --> 01:12:33.600
And I was born in New Zealand and school starts in February.

1166
01:12:33.600 --> 01:12:35.560
So by the time my birthday came,

1167
01:12:35.560 --> 01:12:37.000
there was literally nothing in the bank.

1168
01:12:37.000 --> 01:12:39.440
We'd already been through Christmas, my brother's birthday,

1169
01:12:39.440 --> 01:12:40.800
and then we had to buy uniforms

1170
01:12:40.800 --> 01:12:42.120
and all this stuff to school.

1171
01:12:42.120 --> 01:12:43.520
So there was nothing left.

1172
01:12:43.520 --> 01:12:47.920
And so as I've been going through the course and the book,

1173
01:12:47.920 --> 01:12:49.240
the Holy Spirit has been revealing

1174
01:12:49.240 --> 01:12:51.560
that one of the lies that I made an agreement with

1175
01:12:51.560 --> 01:12:54.520
was just like, other people get to do these things.

1176
01:12:54.520 --> 01:12:56.280
I don't at the moment,

1177
01:12:56.280 --> 01:12:59.240
but one day when I'm older and I'm an adult,

1178
01:12:59.240 --> 01:13:00.520
finally, I'll be loved enough.

1179
01:13:00.520 --> 01:13:03.640
Like finally, it will be my time to shine.

1180
01:13:03.640 --> 01:13:04.720
Yeah.

1181
01:13:04.720 --> 01:13:05.560
So, okay.

1182
01:13:05.560 --> 01:13:07.080
So here's the reality,

1183
01:13:07.080 --> 01:13:10.200
is that A, you did experience those things,

1184
01:13:10.200 --> 01:13:13.080
but, and I know that you probably know these things

1185
01:13:13.080 --> 01:13:16.400
in your head, because I heard you just expressing them.

1186
01:13:16.400 --> 01:13:18.040
Your mom had you in private school.

1187
01:13:18.040 --> 01:13:20.440
You're like, how did that even happen, right?

1188
01:13:20.480 --> 01:13:24.680
And so the enemy wanted you to believe

1189
01:13:24.680 --> 01:13:26.040
that you were just like,

1190
01:13:26.040 --> 01:13:27.400
even though like you're saying it

1191
01:13:27.400 --> 01:13:29.760
in the same language essentially,

1192
01:13:29.760 --> 01:13:31.280
but by the time it got to your birthday,

1193
01:13:31.280 --> 01:13:34.160
you just got passed over, right?

1194
01:13:34.160 --> 01:13:37.640
And so what we need the Lord to do is come into a memory

1195
01:13:37.640 --> 01:13:40.880
when you were a little girl in that situation.

1196
01:13:40.880 --> 01:13:44.000
And so I wanna encourage you to ask the Lord this week,

1197
01:13:44.000 --> 01:13:46.320
tonight, start talking to him about it tonight,

1198
01:13:46.320 --> 01:13:50.400
and genuinely ask Jesus to show you where he was

1199
01:13:51.360 --> 01:13:53.200
like when your birthday came.

1200
01:13:53.200 --> 01:13:54.040
Okay, that's great.

1201
01:13:54.040 --> 01:13:55.320
When you didn't feel celebrated,

1202
01:13:55.320 --> 01:13:58.000
because the reality is you all, this is the truth.

1203
01:13:58.000 --> 01:14:00.040
Jesus was with us.

1204
01:14:01.920 --> 01:14:03.600
I feel the Holy Spirit even saying this to you.

1205
01:14:03.600 --> 01:14:06.560
So like when we ask him, okay, Jesus,

1206
01:14:06.560 --> 01:14:07.720
this was really painful.

1207
01:14:07.720 --> 01:14:09.400
Like, where were you?

1208
01:14:09.400 --> 01:14:11.840
Will you tell me what you have to say?

1209
01:14:11.840 --> 01:14:14.480
And will you help me see what you want me to see

1210
01:14:14.480 --> 01:14:16.400
about that situation?

1211
01:14:16.400 --> 01:14:18.440
And just, you know, really, again, this,

1212
01:14:18.480 --> 01:14:20.680
and ladies, this takes time, okay?

1213
01:14:20.680 --> 01:14:22.080
Some of you are gonna pray,

1214
01:14:22.080 --> 01:14:24.560
and you might be like, I don't hear anything.

1215
01:14:24.560 --> 01:14:26.840
Please don't believe the lie that it's not working for you.

1216
01:14:26.840 --> 01:14:29.360
Sometimes it just takes time, okay?

1217
01:14:29.360 --> 01:14:32.680
But praying it and just writing down anything,

1218
01:14:32.680 --> 01:14:35.760
even if you have a little inkling of something,

1219
01:14:35.760 --> 01:14:39.120
just write that down and just continue to pray into it

1220
01:14:39.120 --> 01:14:41.400
and see where the Lord will take that for you.

1221
01:14:42.320 --> 01:14:44.680
I had this happen years ago,

1222
01:14:44.680 --> 01:14:48.840
and that's why I don't truly lead the session,

1223
01:14:48.840 --> 01:14:52.320
but I encourage you all to pray into those kinds of things

1224
01:14:52.320 --> 01:14:55.800
because I had prayed for years for deliverance

1225
01:14:55.800 --> 01:14:59.960
in some areas, and I went through a special prayer time

1226
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:01.640
This is what the person had me do.

1227
01:15:02.160 --> 01:15:07.960
And I did it specifically regarding the day I was born because my mom and dad,

1228
01:15:07.980 --> 01:15:10.060
my mom got pregnant with me on birth control.

1229
01:15:10.060 --> 01:15:11.480
She did not want another kid.

1230
01:15:11.480 --> 01:15:15.360
My dad left when she like, literally after she had me, she

1231
01:15:15.360 --> 01:15:16.600
wasn't even out of the hospital.

1232
01:15:16.600 --> 01:15:19.000
He took the car and left.

1233
01:15:19.520 --> 01:15:21.240
My mom had no way to even get home.

1234
01:15:21.480 --> 01:15:24.680
So how fun was that for me as a baby?

1235
01:15:25.040 --> 01:15:26.720
Probably not that fun, right?

1236
01:15:27.120 --> 01:15:29.240
But the reality is, is I grew up.

1237
01:15:29.240 --> 01:15:32.560
And at one point as a teenager, my mom, that's how I know this.

1238
01:15:32.560 --> 01:15:34.560
My mom told me these things.

1239
01:15:35.400 --> 01:15:38.480
I never wanted you, you know?

1240
01:15:38.480 --> 01:15:40.580
And so that like scarred me deeply.

1241
01:15:40.580 --> 01:15:43.400
But the reality is, is I probably already knew that as a kid.

1242
01:15:44.440 --> 01:15:48.600
And so when she said it, when I was a teenager, it went into my core.

1243
01:15:49.680 --> 01:15:50.120
Right.

1244
01:15:50.560 --> 01:15:55.200
And so I needed Jesus to heal that time when I was born.

1245
01:15:55.560 --> 01:15:59.000
And when I prayed, you all, I don't even fully remember.

1246
01:15:59.000 --> 01:16:01.960
I wish, like, if I could find the journal, it'd be so amazing to share that

1247
01:16:01.960 --> 01:16:03.240
with you all in one of these sessions.

1248
01:16:03.240 --> 01:16:08.440
But I just remember like hearing what Jesus said the day I was born and like

1249
01:16:08.440 --> 01:16:13.560
he's, he was celebrating in the hospital room, you all like, I, I literally had

1250
01:16:13.560 --> 01:16:19.880
this image and, and just everything in that moment changed for me because the

1251
01:16:19.880 --> 01:16:24.720
reality was it didn't matter if my parents didn't plan me like Jesus was

1252
01:16:24.720 --> 01:16:29.320
literally having a celebration and he was helping bring me out of the womb.

1253
01:16:29.320 --> 01:16:30.440
And he was excited.

1254
01:16:30.440 --> 01:16:31.080
I was here.

1255
01:16:31.280 --> 01:16:35.840
Like that was the vision I had and it's changed everything for me.

1256
01:16:36.240 --> 01:16:40.720
And so when we invite him to come, Jesus to reveal where he's at in those kinds

1257
01:16:40.720 --> 01:16:45.840
of situations, it can, it can literally flip the whole script and that brings

1258
01:16:45.840 --> 01:16:48.280
the truth into the core of that area.

1259
01:16:48.280 --> 01:16:50.360
And so really want to encourage you to pray into that this week.

1260
01:16:50.360 --> 01:16:55.000
Would love to hear whether it's next week, live session, or even in the, in

1261
01:16:55.000 --> 01:16:59.680
the community group, would love to hear what he says to you and if it's not

1262
01:16:59.680 --> 01:17:01.800
right away, that's totally fine.

1263
01:17:02.240 --> 01:17:06.040
You can always come back and tell me in some future time or something in

1264
01:17:06.040 --> 01:17:12.760
some way when God shows you, but pray into that and then also, um, the other

1265
01:17:12.760 --> 01:17:18.840
thing that came up in my spirit, um, was have you ever, even though it wasn't

1266
01:17:18.840 --> 01:17:23.200
your brother's fault, have you ever processed forgiving your brother for his

1267
01:17:23.200 --> 01:17:27.880
birthday coming before yours and him getting presents when you didn't?

1268
01:17:29.240 --> 01:17:31.360
No, that's never even crossed my mind.

1269
01:17:31.400 --> 01:17:33.720
Um, but yeah, that is good.

1270
01:17:33.760 --> 01:17:34.080
Yeah.

1271
01:17:34.120 --> 01:17:34.400
Yeah.

1272
01:17:34.400 --> 01:17:37.960
I think if you do that, I think that's also going to partner with the freedom

1273
01:17:37.960 --> 01:17:43.240
in this, because the reality is, is that you, cause you said it a couple times

1274
01:17:43.240 --> 01:17:48.640
Christmas came, then my brother's birthday and then mine, but nothing was left for

1275
01:17:48.680 --> 01:17:48.960
me.

1276
01:17:49.320 --> 01:17:55.520
And so typically as children, we, whether we want to or not, we're going to resent

1277
01:17:55.560 --> 01:17:58.360
the people who did get the gifts.

1278
01:17:58.400 --> 01:17:58.880
Right.

1279
01:17:59.720 --> 01:18:03.080
And then we're going to blame them because it's their fault.

1280
01:18:03.120 --> 01:18:04.480
We're getting passed over.

1281
01:18:04.560 --> 01:18:07.240
There's nothing left for us because it's, they got it.

1282
01:18:07.280 --> 01:18:10.240
Even if we got something for Christmas, the reality is a brother got

1283
01:18:10.240 --> 01:18:14.480
presents and then we got nothing less, less than whatever that looks like.

1284
01:18:14.760 --> 01:18:15.000
Yeah.

1285
01:18:15.000 --> 01:18:17.440
So I really want to encourage you to process that.

1286
01:18:17.480 --> 01:18:21.360
And, um, and you might need to forgive your mom for that too, even though she

1287
01:18:21.360 --> 01:18:25.120
might've been doing the best that she could have just forgiving both of them

1288
01:18:25.120 --> 01:18:27.600
in that process and let's see where that leads you as well.

1289
01:18:28.560 --> 01:18:28.840
Yeah.

1290
01:18:28.880 --> 01:18:29.600
Thank you so much.

1291
01:18:29.600 --> 01:18:30.880
I really appreciate that.

1292
01:18:30.960 --> 01:18:31.480
You're welcome.

1293
01:18:31.480 --> 01:18:32.120
My pleasure.

1294
01:18:32.360 --> 01:18:33.600
Love hearing you tonight.

1295
01:18:33.640 --> 01:18:34.360
Appreciate that.

1296
01:18:34.720 --> 01:18:36.160
Tatiana, go ahead.

1297
01:18:39.400 --> 01:18:40.800
Hey, hi.

1298
01:18:41.720 --> 01:18:44.160
Earlier, cause I was on earlier.

1299
01:18:44.240 --> 01:18:48.200
Um, the thing that came up for me was jealousy.

1300
01:18:48.200 --> 01:18:54.680
Like, I feel like recently there's been a situation where I felt just

1301
01:18:54.680 --> 01:19:00.640
jealous of one of my friends and I feel like I need to compete.

1302
01:19:00.640 --> 01:19:03.560
Like there's not enough space for everybody to be great.

1303
01:19:03.600 --> 01:19:07.760
Even though like, I know that's not true and I've heard it over and

1304
01:19:07.760 --> 01:19:09.280
over that's, but that's not true.

1305
01:19:09.280 --> 01:19:15.040
But like, I don't know why I still feel like if I'm not at a certain level,

1306
01:19:15.040 --> 01:19:20.640
like I'm less than or yeah, it kind of just like, there's not enough for everybody.

1307
01:19:21.920 --> 01:19:22.240
Yeah.

1308
01:19:22.240 --> 01:19:23.600
So let me ask you a question.

1309
01:19:23.600 --> 01:19:27.640
I know that you get along with your mom, but have you ever felt like

1310
01:19:27.640 --> 01:19:29.360
you and your mom compete for space?

1311
01:19:33.000 --> 01:19:36.520
Or attention, like your dad's attention or space or anything like that?

1312
01:19:37.040 --> 01:19:39.760
No, no, yeah, no.

1313
01:19:40.080 --> 01:19:40.400
Okay.

1314
01:19:40.560 --> 01:19:41.200
That's a good thing.

1315
01:19:41.200 --> 01:19:45.120
I'm just trying to make sure there's not, not some kind of connection there to mom.

1316
01:19:45.600 --> 01:19:48.080
Um, does mom have friends that are girls?

1317
01:19:49.400 --> 01:19:49.880
Okay.

1318
01:19:50.400 --> 01:19:53.400
So this could just be the enemy attacking you.

1319
01:19:53.720 --> 01:19:54.040
Okay.

1320
01:19:54.040 --> 01:19:55.680
It could be totally separate from it.

1321
01:19:55.680 --> 01:19:59.600
It might not have anything to do with your family line, but it could just be

1322
01:19:59.600 --> 01:20:02.200
the enemy attacking you and your mom.

1323
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:06.000
Um, so what is happening when you feel like there might not be enough space for you all?

1324
01:20:06.000 --> 01:20:10.000
Is there anything in particular that she's doing?

1325
01:20:10.000 --> 01:20:15.000
Um, the thing that came to my mind is, is singing.

1326
01:20:15.000 --> 01:20:21.000
So like, it's always been my dream since I was a kid to like, to be a professional singer.

1327
01:20:21.000 --> 01:20:29.000
Um, and I just decided that like, you know, I'm in college and I just decided I want to double major and I want to audition for vocal performance.

1328
01:20:29.000 --> 01:20:32.000
And this friend in particular, we got really close.

1329
01:20:32.000 --> 01:20:39.000
And like, um, it's been one of those things that like, I've seen how God is healing me and how God is healing her in our relationship.

1330
01:20:39.000 --> 01:20:41.000
So it's like, it's been a really good thing.

1331
01:20:41.000 --> 01:20:43.000
Um, and she's a senior.

1332
01:20:43.000 --> 01:20:50.000
So this year she's like doing everything like we're both audio production majors and she's like recording, mixing, mastering.

1333
01:20:50.000 --> 01:20:57.000
And then I know she had been taking vocal lessons, but then I heard her sing the other day and I was like, oh my gosh, like she's so good.

1334
01:20:57.000 --> 01:21:03.000
Um, and like part of me was happy for her, but then the other part of me was like, dang, like she can do everything.

1335
01:21:03.000 --> 01:21:12.000
And like, I barely know how to do anything in terms of like skill level within our major at school.

1336
01:21:12.000 --> 01:21:17.000
So, yeah, it was just when I heard her sing, I was, that's when I got jealous.

1337
01:21:17.000 --> 01:21:18.000
That's okay. This is helpful.

1338
01:21:18.000 --> 01:21:19.000
So, okay.

1339
01:21:19.000 --> 01:21:23.000
So she's a senior and you're what grade?

1340
01:21:23.000 --> 01:21:24.000
I'm in my second year.

1341
01:21:25.000 --> 01:21:26.000
Sophomore.

1342
01:21:26.000 --> 01:21:27.000
Right?

1343
01:21:27.000 --> 01:21:28.000
Okay.

1344
01:21:28.000 --> 01:21:29.000
So let's just kind of break this down.

1345
01:21:29.000 --> 01:21:34.000
And I know you probably know this, but it's helpful, at least from my perspective, when people walk me through this stuff.

1346
01:21:34.000 --> 01:21:39.000
A, she's probably been in the class in that structure longer.

1347
01:21:39.000 --> 01:21:40.000
Yes or no?

1348
01:21:40.000 --> 01:21:41.000
Yeah.

1349
01:21:41.000 --> 01:21:42.000
Okay.

1350
01:21:42.000 --> 01:21:46.000
So she's had more time to develop her skill and work on these things.

1351
01:21:46.000 --> 01:21:53.000
So we're just, remember last week when I talked about, well, you might not have been here, but last week I talked about, you know,

1352
01:21:53.000 --> 01:21:54.000
the facts.

1353
01:21:54.000 --> 01:21:55.000
What's true?

1354
01:21:55.000 --> 01:21:56.000
What are the facts?

1355
01:21:56.000 --> 01:22:00.000
Well, the facts are, is your friend has been in this program longer.

1356
01:22:00.000 --> 01:22:02.000
So she has more time to develop the skill.

1357
01:22:02.000 --> 01:22:08.000
And so immediately the enemy is trying to get you to compare yourself to someone where it's not apples to apples.

1358
01:22:08.000 --> 01:22:09.000
Number one.

1359
01:22:09.000 --> 01:22:10.000
Okay.

1360
01:22:10.000 --> 01:22:14.000
And not that we should compare it all, but I just want you guys to start looking at it kind of from that.

1361
01:22:14.000 --> 01:22:16.000
Like, this is the enemy's tactic.

1362
01:22:16.000 --> 01:22:19.000
He tries to get us to compare ourselves to people.

1363
01:22:19.000 --> 01:22:23.000
Like, I have people right now that come in to the church, newly saved.

1364
01:22:23.000 --> 01:22:28.000
They look at my life and my journey and are hard on themselves because they're not being like how I am.

1365
01:22:28.000 --> 01:22:30.000
And I'm like, whoa, whoa, whoa.

1366
01:22:30.000 --> 01:22:32.000
I've been saved since 1998.

1367
01:22:32.000 --> 01:22:34.000
It's been a long time.

1368
01:22:34.000 --> 01:22:38.000
28 years I've been walking this journey.

1369
01:22:38.000 --> 01:22:43.000
There's no way you're going to, like, your walk's not going to look like mine right now.

1370
01:22:43.000 --> 01:22:48.000
You got to learn how to crawl before you can walk and run, you know, all these things.

1371
01:22:48.000 --> 01:22:52.000
And so sometimes it's just kind of looking at the things through that lens, number one.

1372
01:22:52.000 --> 01:22:58.000
But the other thing is I kept seeing, like, what I want you to do.

1373
01:22:58.000 --> 01:23:02.000
And this might sound so simple, but I feel like it's going to really help you.

1374
01:23:02.000 --> 01:23:03.000
Okay.

1375
01:23:03.000 --> 01:23:07.000
On a piece of paper, I want you to draw two squares.

1376
01:23:07.000 --> 01:23:09.000
Okay.

1377
01:23:09.000 --> 01:23:12.000
And I want you to draw your friend in one.

1378
01:23:12.000 --> 01:23:13.000
And you can stick figure it.

1379
01:23:13.000 --> 01:23:15.000
It doesn't have to be a really massive drawing.

1380
01:23:15.000 --> 01:23:17.000
Okay.

1381
01:23:17.000 --> 01:23:21.000
And I want you to write the things that are great about her.

1382
01:23:21.000 --> 01:23:24.000
But then I want you to draw yourself in the other one.

1383
01:23:24.000 --> 01:23:27.000
And then I want you to write the things that are great about you.

1384
01:23:27.000 --> 01:23:34.000
And while those two are in separate boxes, they're on the same page.

1385
01:23:34.000 --> 01:23:36.000
And I want you to kind of use this as a visual.

1386
01:23:36.000 --> 01:23:44.000
Even again, I know you know this, but just as that reminder that there is enough space for greatness everywhere.

1387
01:23:44.000 --> 01:23:49.000
Like, she can be great without making you less.

1388
01:23:49.000 --> 01:23:50.000
Right?

1389
01:23:50.000 --> 01:23:53.000
So you guys can exist side by side, if you will.

1390
01:23:53.000 --> 01:23:56.000
That's why I want you to put them on one paper.

1391
01:23:56.000 --> 01:24:04.000
You both can be great and have wonderful things about yourself and exist at the same time without making each other less than.

1392
01:24:05.000 --> 01:24:06.000
Okay.

1393
01:24:06.000 --> 01:24:09.000
And I want you to write the things that are great about her.

1394
01:24:09.000 --> 01:24:12.000
And then I want you to write the things that are great about you.

1395
01:24:12.000 --> 01:24:13.000
Does that make sense?

1396
01:24:13.000 --> 01:24:17.000
And the enemy, you know, jealousy breeds on fear.

1397
01:24:17.000 --> 01:24:23.000
And one of the things you said is she can do everything and I can't do anything.

1398
01:24:23.000 --> 01:24:32.000
So fear is false evidence appearing real.

1399
01:24:32.000 --> 01:24:36.000
And then you can be a great person.

1400
01:24:36.000 --> 01:24:41.000
So I want you to write the things that are great about you and that you can do anything.

1401
01:24:41.000 --> 01:24:45.000
And then the enemy, you know, jealousy breeds on fear.

1402
01:24:45.000 --> 01:24:50.000
And one of the things you said is she can do everything and I can't do anything.

1403
01:24:50.000 --> 01:24:52.000
So fear is false evidence appearing real.

1404
01:24:52.000 --> 01:24:54.000
And one of the things you said is she can do everything and I can't do anything.

1405
01:24:54.000 --> 01:24:59.000
So fear is false evidence.

1406
01:24:59.000 --> 01:25:00.000
And one of the things you said is she can do everything and I can't do anything.

1407
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:00.000


1408
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:08.560
makes you less. It's like the story I've told before, like when, you know, years ago, I would

1409
01:25:08.560 --> 01:25:14.640
be driving and the enemy would like every time I would see another woman and it would typically be

1410
01:25:14.640 --> 01:25:20.480
women that had like, and I'm just gonna be real honest, bigger breast or some like blonde hair

1411
01:25:20.480 --> 01:25:25.040
or something pretty about themselves that I always felt like I didn't have. And my brothers used to

1412
01:25:25.040 --> 01:25:29.760
make fun of me about my boobs. And then my ex-husband said stuff like, and I saw, I always

1413
01:25:29.760 --> 01:25:35.520
felt like really insecure about that because I'm not like super busty. And so when I would see these

1414
01:25:35.520 --> 01:25:41.680
women, when I would be driving, I would automatically like in that moment, I thought they were my own

1415
01:25:41.680 --> 01:25:46.720
thoughts. Like I think something negative about them. And then I'd be thinking and then I'd be

1416
01:25:46.720 --> 01:25:50.320
like, what the heck? Why am I even thinking that? I don't even know that woman. Like that,

1417
01:25:50.320 --> 01:25:55.120
like it wasn't even like how I functioned. And so it took me a while to catch on

1418
01:25:56.640 --> 01:26:01.280
that then there would be other times I'd be driving home and the same thing would happen.

1419
01:26:02.480 --> 01:26:10.080
And then I started catching on like, Oh, this is the enemy attacking my mind and getting me to

1420
01:26:10.080 --> 01:26:15.440
think about negative things about women. When I started praying into it, what God showed me is

1421
01:26:15.440 --> 01:26:21.120
the reason the enemy was doing that is because God was calling me to help women heal

1422
01:26:22.480 --> 01:26:29.120
and thrive and grow. And if I was sitting there in that season of my life, if I would have kept

1423
01:26:29.120 --> 01:26:32.800
putting other women down, that could have, I'm not saying I wouldn't still be here today,

1424
01:26:34.240 --> 01:26:39.840
but I definitely think, you know, the enemy will always try to, you know, get us to partner with

1425
01:26:39.840 --> 01:26:44.720
the opposite of what God has for us. God, God wanted to lead me into this place where I could

1426
01:26:44.720 --> 01:26:49.440
bless women and help them and love them. And you can be great and I can be great and we can be

1427
01:26:49.440 --> 01:26:55.840
great together. And you being great doesn't mean I'm not great. And you being beautiful doesn't

1428
01:26:55.840 --> 01:27:02.720
mean I'm not beautiful. But see, the thing is, is I had to heal in my heart more because the way the

1429
01:27:02.720 --> 01:27:11.840
enemy was able to get his foot in the door is because I had insecurities. So if you're feeling

1430
01:27:11.840 --> 01:27:16.800
insecure about your voice and your gifts and your talents, I think just talk to the Lord about that.

1431
01:27:18.560 --> 01:27:23.680
Yeah. And growing in confidence, not just in your identity in Christ as a daughter, as you know,

1432
01:27:23.680 --> 01:27:28.960
princess, but like, you know, who are you in your identity as a musician? And like, what does God

1433
01:27:28.960 --> 01:27:34.080
say, you know, on your silhouette, you might want to write some things about what does God have to

1434
01:27:34.080 --> 01:27:42.960
say about you as a musician? Okay. Okay. Yes. Thank you so much. You're welcome. Thank you for

1435
01:27:42.960 --> 01:27:51.760
sharing. Um, L Renee, I always forget what your first name is. I'm sorry. It's Renee. My first

1436
01:27:51.760 --> 01:27:56.240
name is Lorena. But Lorena. All right. That's what I was. That's what I was referring to.

1437
01:27:56.240 --> 01:28:06.640
So I was debating, I have like 50 things going on. Um, okay, recently, I thought this didn't

1438
01:28:06.640 --> 01:28:11.680
bother me, but it does. So my family, I have an engineering background, but I have like three

1439
01:28:11.680 --> 01:28:19.040
degrees. So I don't say I don't talk about the degrees, I don't try to, I'm very probably

1440
01:28:20.240 --> 01:28:24.800
low key false humility, because I try not to, I don't really talk about it or anything.

1441
01:28:25.680 --> 01:28:32.800
But just for an example, I was sitting and I said, I call it a dumb blind moment or whatever,

1442
01:28:32.800 --> 01:28:38.240
if I have a question about something, everybody looks at me, I'm just talking about family and

1443
01:28:38.240 --> 01:28:43.040
some of my close friends, they're like, I can't believe you have an engineering degree. And you

1444
01:28:43.040 --> 01:28:50.880
don't know that they'll say things like that to me. And I'm like, I was trying to for a while,

1445
01:28:50.880 --> 01:28:55.120
I just kind of let it go and didn't say anything, but it was really bothering me.

1446
01:28:55.120 --> 01:28:59.520
And I just realized how much the other day when my friend said it to me, I came over and fixed

1447
01:28:59.520 --> 01:29:04.880
her TV. And then something we were talking about something. And then she says, I can't believe that

1448
01:29:04.880 --> 01:29:09.600
you're an engineer. Like, I'm supposed to know everything. And I'm, I'm like, I don't know

1449
01:29:09.600 --> 01:29:15.920
everything. And part of it too, is in our family, we all have roles, we have a medical person,

1450
01:29:15.920 --> 01:29:20.720
we have an attorney, we have engineers. So I'm the technical person, and I'm supposed to know

1451
01:29:20.720 --> 01:29:27.520
all about computers and whatever. And I don't, and I say that I don't, but the expectation is

1452
01:29:27.520 --> 01:29:34.480
still there. But, but Sunday, when she said that to me, it kind of felt like a punch in the gut.

1453
01:29:34.480 --> 01:29:40.800
And I don't know if it had just been building up. And this was kind of like a last straw, or

1454
01:29:40.800 --> 01:29:45.760
maybe I'm just more aware because I tried to just ignore it. And it has been bothering,

1455
01:29:45.760 --> 01:29:50.960
but you know how you just like, Oh, whatever. But that thing really bothers me.

1456
01:29:50.960 --> 01:29:56.640
Yeah. Well, number one, I'm just going to say, I'm not saying every time, but just hearing about

1457
01:29:56.640 --> 01:29:59.920
the dynamic with your friend. I think some of these people are

1458
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:09.600
saying that out of their own insecurity, honestly, um, you know, sometimes like when I first met

1459
01:30:09.600 --> 01:30:16.320
Brian, he has like three degrees. He has his MDiv, which is like a really high, like theological,

1460
01:30:16.320 --> 01:30:22.080
like degree. It's like really, really, he's a doctor. And so, um, I remember feeling intimidated

1461
01:30:22.080 --> 01:30:27.360
a little bit and I'm, I'm really smart. I know that I'm really smart, smart, but like,

1462
01:30:27.360 --> 01:30:33.120
for whatever reason, I felt this intimidation come on me and I had to recognize that was from

1463
01:30:33.120 --> 01:30:39.360
the devil. Like the enemy was trying to make me insecure so that I would not like go forward in

1464
01:30:39.360 --> 01:30:46.400
that relationship and that I would feel less than now. I handled that in a healthy way. Thank,

1465
01:30:46.400 --> 01:30:53.200
thank the Lord for that because I had grown a lot by that point. But if I had, I don't know that I

1466
01:30:53.200 --> 01:30:59.440
would have ever said what your friend said to someone like to you, but people will say things

1467
01:30:59.440 --> 01:31:05.760
out of their insecurity to like put you down in a moment where they kind of feel like they have the

1468
01:31:05.760 --> 01:31:12.160
upper hand. Does that make sense? And so even in your family, you said there's these expectations

1469
01:31:12.160 --> 01:31:15.600
like, you know, medical and technical and you're an engineer and you should know this and that.

1470
01:31:15.600 --> 01:31:19.840
So I would encourage you like, you know, with your friend, you're going to want to forgive her.

1471
01:31:19.840 --> 01:31:24.160
You're going to want to process a forgiveness prayer sheet, but I would like, did you say

1472
01:31:24.160 --> 01:31:30.080
anything to her when she said that? No, I just laughed it off. That's what I've been doing for

1473
01:31:30.080 --> 01:31:36.800
like years. I'm just like, whatever. All right. I mean, cause I feel like if I respond to it,

1474
01:31:36.800 --> 01:31:42.400
it's feeding into what they're saying. Well, it's not. And so that's the lie of the enemy.

1475
01:31:42.400 --> 01:31:46.320
Hold on one second. I'm just writing this. So I don't forget. So here's the thing,

1476
01:31:46.880 --> 01:31:55.120
just laughing it off is agreeing with them. Okay. And so I want to encourage you in the days ahead,

1477
01:31:55.120 --> 01:32:01.280
you don't have to react and be mean to them, but you can just say, Hey, when you just said that,

1478
01:32:02.160 --> 01:32:08.400
that really hurt my feelings. And if they react and they make it a big deal, well,

1479
01:32:08.400 --> 01:32:12.320
then that might not be the, you might not be able to have a healthy conversation at that point.

1480
01:32:12.320 --> 01:32:17.760
But I think just you standing up for yourself and letting people know that that isn't how you

1481
01:32:17.760 --> 01:32:22.240
want to be like, you don't want people to talk to you that way. I think that's really important

1482
01:32:23.040 --> 01:32:30.080
because the reality is like, I coach people all the time. Does that mean I know everything there

1483
01:32:30.080 --> 01:32:35.440
is to know about coaching someone? Heck no. Do you know how many different people there are

1484
01:32:35.440 --> 01:32:40.400
in the world and how many different complex things there are? I'm not always going to know

1485
01:32:40.400 --> 01:32:48.640
what to do in every single situation. And that's why I'm a coach and they might need a counselor

1486
01:32:48.640 --> 01:32:55.920
or a psychiatrist, you know, like, it doesn't make me less smart because I don't know something

1487
01:32:55.920 --> 01:33:03.360
about everything, you know, like everything about something. But if people can, just like I said,

1488
01:33:03.360 --> 01:33:09.920
like, if that enemy can get in there and intimidate us and then say things to us like that,

1489
01:33:10.000 --> 01:33:14.880
and then we just laugh it off, well, we're dismissing a part of ourselves when we do that,

1490
01:33:14.880 --> 01:33:21.680
because that actually hurt your feelings, right? Your feelings matter and your voice matters. So

1491
01:33:22.720 --> 01:33:27.760
as you start approaching this from the, and remember, you're just owning your feelings.

1492
01:33:27.760 --> 01:33:33.440
Okay. So you don't have to say like, we don't want to say things to them. Like you made me

1493
01:33:33.920 --> 01:33:38.400
angry or you made me sad. We want to say, Hey, when you just said that,

1494
01:33:40.160 --> 01:33:48.960
that hurt my feelings because, you know, I am really smart, but I don't, I don't love the

1495
01:33:48.960 --> 01:33:53.600
pressure of feeling like I have to know everything, you know, whatever it is for you that you need to

1496
01:33:53.600 --> 01:34:00.960
express, but I'm just trying to give you some ideas and just pray about whether or not you

1497
01:34:00.960 --> 01:34:04.720
still need to have that conversation with that friend, even though that's already happened and

1498
01:34:04.720 --> 01:34:11.200
y'all have moved on, because if the resentment keeps growing and you don't deal with that

1499
01:34:11.200 --> 01:34:17.520
situation, um, the next time it happens, there may come a day you might, you know, like for years,

1500
01:34:17.520 --> 01:34:22.800
you said, I've been, I've been just laughing it off for years, but now you're seeing this

1501
01:34:22.800 --> 01:34:29.120
resentment building. Right. So that's what we would call an underneath the surface, like a landmine,

1502
01:34:29.120 --> 01:34:36.960
a volcano, if you will. Okay. So pray into that process of forgiveness, prayer sheet,

1503
01:34:36.960 --> 01:34:41.760
forgive your friend for doing that, forgive family members for doing that. And then also forgive

1504
01:34:41.760 --> 01:34:47.120
yourself for laughing it off because you're actually denying your own feelings when you do

1505
01:34:47.120 --> 01:34:54.880
that. So you need to forgive yourself for that. Yeah. And one more thing, I, I, I felt like, uh,

1506
01:34:54.880 --> 01:34:58.800
uh, again, kind of with the dimension almost,

1507
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:05.160
hesitant, because it made me hesitant to say stuff now,

1508
01:35:05.160 --> 01:35:07.720
almost, or ask the question.

1509
01:35:07.720 --> 01:35:09.720
I mean, if I don't know, I'm going to ask.

1510
01:35:09.720 --> 01:35:12.840
And then I'm still getting the feedback.

1511
01:35:12.840 --> 01:35:15.920
You should know that, that sort of thing.

1512
01:35:15.920 --> 01:35:18.000
So ask them a question next time.

1513
01:35:18.000 --> 01:35:21.280
Ask them, and we can kind of talk about this in the group

1514
01:35:21.280 --> 01:35:22.280
if you want to do a post.

1515
01:35:22.280 --> 01:35:25.520
And I can kind of brainstorm some more ideas with you.

1516
01:35:25.520 --> 01:35:28.000
But I would ask, I would just pause and say,

1517
01:35:28.000 --> 01:35:32.040
hey, why do you think I should know that?

1518
01:35:32.040 --> 01:35:33.720
And let's just see what they say.

1519
01:35:33.720 --> 01:35:35.520
Now, again, you might not like their answer,

1520
01:35:35.520 --> 01:35:39.160
but at least I feel like there can be this dialogue happening.

1521
01:35:39.160 --> 01:35:41.720
But then the other side of this, again, the reason

1522
01:35:41.720 --> 01:35:46.240
that this is such an important thing

1523
01:35:46.240 --> 01:35:50.560
is because, again, when you're laughing it off

1524
01:35:50.560 --> 01:35:52.720
and you're diminishing your voice,

1525
01:35:52.720 --> 01:35:56.200
you're partnering with your voice doesn't matter.

1526
01:35:56.200 --> 01:35:58.720
And so now when the situations are happening,

1527
01:35:58.720 --> 01:36:00.400
you're starting to feel that desire

1528
01:36:00.400 --> 01:36:01.680
to not say anything at all.

1529
01:36:05.120 --> 01:36:06.680
I really believe this.

1530
01:36:06.680 --> 01:36:10.720
Even if it doesn't go great, once you stand up for yourself

1531
01:36:10.720 --> 01:36:14.520
and actually voice how you felt in that situation,

1532
01:36:14.520 --> 01:36:16.800
you're going to start to gain a little more courage,

1533
01:36:16.800 --> 01:36:18.960
and your voice will start to get stronger.

1534
01:36:18.960 --> 01:36:20.600
And then you can come into the group.

1535
01:36:20.600 --> 01:36:22.520
And even if it goes great, awesome.

1536
01:36:22.520 --> 01:36:24.640
If it doesn't go great, you can talk to us about it,

1537
01:36:24.640 --> 01:36:26.600
and we'll coach you through that.

1538
01:36:26.600 --> 01:36:31.040
This is why the community is so important, ladies, truly.

1539
01:36:31.040 --> 01:36:34.640
Because you're navigating a situation you haven't really

1540
01:36:34.640 --> 01:36:38.560
navigated before because your habit has been to laugh it off.

1541
01:36:38.560 --> 01:36:41.240
So you're going to have to learn a new normal,

1542
01:36:41.240 --> 01:36:46.120
and you're going to create a new brain pathway in doing that.

1543
01:36:46.120 --> 01:36:47.040
OK.

1544
01:36:47.040 --> 01:36:47.760
Yeah.

1545
01:36:47.760 --> 01:36:48.480
Thank you.

1546
01:36:48.480 --> 01:36:50.280
You're welcome.

1547
01:36:50.280 --> 01:36:50.840
Great, Cher.

1548
01:36:50.840 --> 01:36:53.680
It is 937.

1549
01:36:53.680 --> 01:36:54.280
Go ahead.

1550
01:36:54.280 --> 01:36:56.480
If you all have to jump off, we totally understand.

1551
01:36:56.480 --> 01:36:58.160
I'm going to take Wendy one more,

1552
01:36:58.160 --> 01:37:00.360
but I will have like five minutes, Wendy.

1553
01:37:00.360 --> 01:37:03.040
So try to keep it short, brief, and powerful for me,

1554
01:37:03.040 --> 01:37:06.000
and we'll go from there.

1555
01:37:06.000 --> 01:37:07.240
I'm usually pretty good.

1556
01:37:07.240 --> 01:37:11.160
Mine's comparison, and I feel like I'm always in competition

1557
01:37:11.160 --> 01:37:12.360
with my sister.

1558
01:37:12.360 --> 01:37:16.840
My parents teamed us up.

1559
01:37:16.840 --> 01:37:19.600
We were trained to be pit bulls against each other.

1560
01:37:19.600 --> 01:37:22.680
They teamed up to encourage that.

1561
01:37:22.680 --> 01:37:26.440
And I find in the church, I have a hard time with some women

1562
01:37:26.440 --> 01:37:29.600
because I feel like as they get to know me,

1563
01:37:29.600 --> 01:37:31.840
they always are expecting me to be

1564
01:37:31.840 --> 01:37:34.680
the mom in the relationship or the big sister.

1565
01:37:34.680 --> 01:37:37.200
And they're older than me, so it's

1566
01:37:37.200 --> 01:37:42.040
kind of that's the comparison kind of thing.

1567
01:37:42.040 --> 01:37:45.040
And my sister always makes snide remarks

1568
01:37:45.040 --> 01:37:47.120
when we have conversations, but I don't really

1569
01:37:47.120 --> 01:37:48.680
talk to her that much.

1570
01:37:48.680 --> 01:37:52.440
Yeah, I remember you mentioned about your sister and your mom.

1571
01:37:52.760 --> 01:37:54.000
That can be a tough dynamic.

1572
01:37:54.000 --> 01:37:57.920
So as we've talked about in previous sessions,

1573
01:37:57.920 --> 01:38:00.280
as you're forgiving your mom and your sister

1574
01:38:00.280 --> 01:38:02.360
and you're continuing to work through the heart healing

1575
01:38:02.360 --> 01:38:05.880
connected to them, that's going to change the dynamic of how

1576
01:38:05.880 --> 01:38:07.080
women show up with you.

1577
01:38:07.080 --> 01:38:09.760
So right now, the people that are coming

1578
01:38:09.760 --> 01:38:11.640
and you're having this hard time with them,

1579
01:38:11.640 --> 01:38:13.840
they want to kind of put you into the mom role

1580
01:38:13.840 --> 01:38:15.320
or the big sister role.

1581
01:38:15.320 --> 01:38:19.960
That's happening because of the unforgiveness and things

1582
01:38:19.960 --> 01:38:23.000
with mom and sister.

1583
01:38:23.000 --> 01:38:26.000
And so unfortunately, because even for example,

1584
01:38:26.000 --> 01:38:27.920
in the past when I used to attract

1585
01:38:27.920 --> 01:38:30.880
men that would cheat on me or men that were alcoholics

1586
01:38:30.880 --> 01:38:33.000
or had some form of addiction, it

1587
01:38:33.000 --> 01:38:35.320
was because I still needed more healing regarding

1588
01:38:35.320 --> 01:38:39.000
my dad being an addict, my dad cheating on our family,

1589
01:38:39.000 --> 01:38:39.800
and I needed.

1590
01:38:39.800 --> 01:38:41.920
And I didn't even know, honestly,

1591
01:38:41.920 --> 01:38:43.920
because I had processed it before.

1592
01:38:43.920 --> 01:38:46.440
There were just other layers that I didn't know

1593
01:38:46.440 --> 01:38:51.520
were there until I think it was the third time I listened

1594
01:38:51.520 --> 01:38:54.280
to the soul ties video that I got more revelation regarding

1595
01:38:54.280 --> 01:38:56.920
my dad and that whole dynamic as well as other things.

1596
01:38:56.920 --> 01:38:58.720
But I'm just giving you an example.

1597
01:38:58.720 --> 01:39:01.840
Sometimes we're like, oh, I processed that already.

1598
01:39:01.840 --> 01:39:02.400
I'm good.

1599
01:39:02.400 --> 01:39:05.280
But the reality is these entanglements

1600
01:39:05.280 --> 01:39:09.800
happen in the spirit realm or will attract

1601
01:39:09.800 --> 01:39:13.160
these unhealthy people if we have actually

1602
01:39:13.160 --> 01:39:14.880
these helper dynamics in us.

1603
01:39:14.880 --> 01:39:17.120
So maybe it might be that you have

1604
01:39:17.120 --> 01:39:19.600
to start setting more boundaries with these women, even

1605
01:39:19.600 --> 01:39:22.760
in church, like just really being open to Lord,

1606
01:39:22.760 --> 01:39:28.080
like asking him, OK, when this dynamic happens,

1607
01:39:28.080 --> 01:39:30.360
what are the similarities that are showing up

1608
01:39:30.360 --> 01:39:32.680
with these women at church compared to what happened

1609
01:39:32.680 --> 01:39:34.360
with my mom and my sister?

1610
01:39:34.360 --> 01:39:38.280
And are there any boundaries I need to set and put in place

1611
01:39:38.280 --> 01:39:40.720
so that I'm not attracting people that

1612
01:39:40.720 --> 01:39:42.120
want to put me into this role?

1613
01:39:42.160 --> 01:39:46.440
And also, do I need to show up differently in relationships

1614
01:39:46.440 --> 01:39:52.520
so that I don't step into mom or big sister role?

1615
01:39:52.520 --> 01:39:55.320
Because even with it, these will be good practice for anybody

1616
01:39:55.320 --> 01:39:58.040
that understands or resonates with this.

1617
01:39:58.040 --> 01:40:00.840
When you step into your spirit mate relationship,

1618
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:08.000
Some of you all are going to have to be careful to not attract little boys who want to just be taken care of if you are always momming everyone, okay?

1619
01:40:00.840 --> 01:40:03.040
you're going to have a lot more of a relationship

1620
01:40:03.040 --> 01:40:04.640
with your mom or big sister.

1621
01:40:04.640 --> 01:40:06.960
You're going to have a lot more of a relationship

1622
01:40:06.960 --> 01:40:08.640
with your mom or big sister.

1623
01:40:08.000 --> 01:40:12.000
And you might not even mean to, you might just slip right into it.

1624
01:40:12.000 --> 01:40:21.000
Just like I was kind of talking about with Renee, you know, we have to learn new habits and we have to train our brain and we have to show up differently.

1625
01:40:21.000 --> 01:40:27.000
And if we've had tendencies, and I know with things your mom went through and the stuff you've told me about your sisters,

1626
01:40:27.000 --> 01:40:32.000
there's been a lot of dynamics where you had to be the mom, right?

1627
01:40:32.000 --> 01:40:43.000
And so, again, like that forgiving and continuing to process the layers to all of those dynamics with your mom and your sisters, and your family even,

1628
01:40:43.000 --> 01:40:49.000
it's going to keep breaking that free, but you'll have to also shift in the way that you show up.

1629
01:40:49.000 --> 01:41:00.000
So I had to stop trying to, for example, when I would date guys, I would see red flags and I would just keep going.

1630
01:41:00.000 --> 01:41:04.000
And I would attract these guys that always wanted me to take care of them.

1631
01:41:04.000 --> 01:41:12.000
Well, the last time around, you better believe there were guys that came knocking, like, that I even went on a date with the one guy,

1632
01:41:12.000 --> 01:41:18.000
and on that date, praise the Lord, it became very apparent, like, this dynamic would never work.

1633
01:41:18.000 --> 01:41:22.000
Like, I'm going to end up momming this guy. Like, I just knew.

1634
01:41:22.000 --> 01:41:29.000
And because he just was super unhealthy, he had a lot of baby mama drama, which is what I attracted in the past both times.

1635
01:41:29.000 --> 01:41:37.000
And so, you know, I had to shift and like, okay, that is not a healthy person for me to keep talking to.

1636
01:41:37.000 --> 01:41:41.000
And I had to move on from that. And so, same kind of thing goes with friends.

1637
01:41:41.000 --> 01:41:51.000
Like, if they are unhealthy or you're stepping into something unhealthy, well, we've got to make shifts there so that we don't keep attracting the same

1638
01:41:51.000 --> 01:41:54.000
and hanging out with the same kind of people.

1639
01:41:54.000 --> 01:42:00.000
So shifts on both sides probably needs to happen, but it starts on the inside of us.

1640
01:42:00.000 --> 01:42:01.000
Okay.

1641
01:42:01.000 --> 01:42:06.000
Yep. You're doing great. Great job on showing up. Thank you so much for sharing and appreciate you.

1642
01:42:06.000 --> 01:42:09.000
Let me pray for us. Ladies, it's been a great night.

1643
01:42:09.000 --> 01:42:12.000
Hopefully, God is blessing you tremendously.

1644
01:42:12.000 --> 01:42:15.000
Father, thank you. Thank you for everything that you've done tonight.

1645
01:42:15.000 --> 01:42:18.000
Thank you for the revelation and the truth that you brought forth.

1646
01:42:18.000 --> 01:42:21.000
I pray that you would just continue to accelerate these ladies' healing.

1647
01:42:21.000 --> 01:42:24.000
God, bring redemption where redemption is needed.

1648
01:42:24.000 --> 01:42:31.000
God, that you would bring, yeah, Lord, the balm of Gilead and just place it upon every wound.

1649
01:42:32.000 --> 01:42:36.000
God, that you would give them an upgrade in revelation and understanding.

1650
01:42:36.000 --> 01:42:42.000
God, that you would call them higher into their intimate relationship that you desire to have with them.

1651
01:42:42.000 --> 01:42:44.000
Give them a fresh revelation, Lord.

1652
01:42:44.000 --> 01:42:46.000
Bless them while they sleep.

1653
01:42:46.000 --> 01:42:49.000
Help them to wake up refreshed for their day tomorrow.

1654
01:42:49.000 --> 01:42:53.000
Guard and keep watch over them. Protect them and keep them safe, Father.

1655
01:42:53.000 --> 01:42:56.000
We just thank you in advance for all these things in Jesus' name.

1656
01:42:56.000 --> 01:42:59.000
And before you all go, I'm going to read the declaration over you.

1657
01:42:59.000 --> 01:43:02.000
I love to do this at the end of all these sessions.

1658
01:43:02.000 --> 01:43:08.000
So I encourage you all to just close your eyes and let me speak this truth over you as you go forth tonight.

1659
01:43:08.000 --> 01:43:17.000
I am a world changer, an atmosphere shifter, a light bearer, a truth teller, and a hope dealer.

1660
01:43:17.000 --> 01:43:21.000
My heart is awakening. It's my time to be made whole.

1661
01:43:21.000 --> 01:43:23.000
I contain the beauty of all creation.

1662
01:43:23.000 --> 01:43:27.000
The mysteries of the entire universe reside inside of me.

1663
01:43:28.000 --> 01:43:32.000
I am the image of the almighty God, the offspring of the great I am.

1664
01:43:32.000 --> 01:43:34.000
I am a beloved daughter of God.

1665
01:43:34.000 --> 01:43:38.000
My original heart is one of love, joy, peace, hope, and innocence.

1666
01:43:38.000 --> 01:43:41.000
I was created for community.

1667
01:43:41.000 --> 01:43:43.000
I am accepted in the family of God.

1668
01:43:43.000 --> 01:43:45.000
I have been created to prosper.

1669
01:43:45.000 --> 01:43:50.000
I will not be anyone besides who love God the Father has made me to be.

1670
01:43:50.000 --> 01:43:58.000
From this moment forward, every day when I look in the mirror, I'm going to see more and more and more of what God sees.

1671
01:43:58.000 --> 01:44:01.000
In Jesus' name, amen.

1672
01:44:01.000 --> 01:44:04.000
Be blessed, ladies. Have an awesome night.

1673
01:44:04.000 --> 01:44:06.000
Love you all. Bye.

1674
01:44:06.000 --> 01:44:08.000
God bless.