Hi everyone, welcome, happy Monday, it's good to see you all, so glad to have you here joining
us tonight.
I'm going to go ahead and do our housekeeping and then I'll do my little welcome because
then I think we might have some new ladies on if they're not on already, but we'll go
ahead and kind of wait for that.
If you've not met me before, my name is Bethany Cooper, I'm one of the Master Heartwork Coaches
here in the community and I love what I do, I love that I get to be here with all of you
and I'm expecting God to do some really supernatural things, I always am, but I just felt like
led even in my reminder post tonight, like if we expect big, I think it pushes us out
of our comfort zones or invites us out of our comfort zones is maybe a better way to
say it, to believe that God, you know, the God that created heaven and earth, He created
everything, nothing is too hard for Him.
And I know it can be tough, we can feel the obstacles in the physical realm and feel discouraged
and look at what's not working, but I want to invite you tonight, even before we get
into the content and the housekeeping, just to start to open your heart to letting go
of focusing on the things that aren't working and allow God to show you what is working.
Allow God to show you the things that are shifting, allow God to show you even the growth
within yourself since you started this journey.
So often we look at again, even in ourselves, like, I'm not this, I'm not that, I wanted
to do this, or I should have noticed this, or, and we look at what we didn't see or what
we're not doing or what we haven't accomplished versus what we have.
And so I want to encourage you to do that starting tonight a little bit more every day
in the days ahead.
We encourage you all, don't just sign up for this program, but show up and even myself,
okay?
I have a program I signed up for and haven't started it yet.
I signed up like three or four weeks ago.
So I'm guilty too.
And I want to encourage you all to kind of continue to come out of that.
Those of you that come every week, I know you're showing up, want to encourage all those
that might watch this replay, or you might even be afraid to post in a group because
you're like, I don't know these people.
I don't want to confess things to people I don't know.
The reality is, is you're confessing them to the Lord in the group for group accountability.
It raises the bar a little bit when we confess our sins one to another.
And that's a different session, but we want you to not just sign up, but to show up and
you're not shining, showing up for us.
You're showing up for yourself.
And it's basically like you acknowledging that you matter.
Every post you make matters.
Every shift in your heart matters.
And when you show up and post in the group, here's the reality is that between you and
God, you're saying, this is what God is doing in my life, or this is the area I'm still
struggling and I want to have revelation.
I want to have insight to break free.
And I'm not willing to settle for less than that.
And I'm willing to get out of my comfort zone.
For those that might even be kind of, you've been here for weeks and maybe you're just
not sure that you want to post or can you post, that's not my thing.
I hear that a lot, you all.
That's just not my thing.
Well, here's the reality.
At some point, we believed that and we partnered with that.
And that's why we lived that out.
But what if I said to you tonight that it is your thing and that you can choose to allow
God to help you come into community with other people in this group, your sister squad.
See, back in the day, we used to be like, hey, this is your sister squad.
This is your bridal party.
We used to talk about it all the time.
And people, we've really gotten away from that.
Like these are people that you can connect with if you desire to and grow on your journeys
together into your plan and purpose.
Some of the people that were in my bridal party, I was in their wedding.
You know, like we're friends today.
We walk on this journey together.
And so I want to encourage you all to keep showing up.
Come out of hiding, post in the group, turn your cameras on.
Yes, I want to invite some of you tonight to turn your cameras on.
I want you all to come expecting to turn your cameras on every single week.
You don't have to have makeup on.
I don't care what you look like.
If you're not driving, you're not eating, you're not exercising, preferably while you're
doing this.
That's kind of distracting, but I love that you listen in.
You know, again, we can't make you all do these things, but I'm telling you that if
you will do them here, then you're going to be more comfortable doing them in future
sessions on Supernatural Saturday when you're dating online.
If you're sick, yeah, you know, totally understand.
Don't want anyone to feel like, okay, because she said it, I'm guilted into doing it.
No, but I want you to understand it's an invitation.
This is just an invitation between you and the Lord.
And it is amazing to see your faces.
I love it.
It's one of my favorite things when we're on here
and I can see you all.
I actually was looking over some old videos today
from way back when I started coaching.
And as soon as I like pushed play
and I saw some of those faces of those ladies,
I mean, this was back in 2021, you all.
And I was like, oh, I remember her.
I remember things we talked about.
I remember things we coached on.
And just to see where they are now,
like genuinely, we love to see you all.
All right, so that's enough on that.
Heart posture while you're in this course is also key.
What do I mean by that?
I mean, come in with your heart completely open,
be teachable, be able to allow God to soften your heart.
I say this especially for, well, for everyone,
but especially those that maybe you are
from counseling professions,
maybe you're from ministry backgrounds,
or just people that have gone through a lot of healing
and counseling and deliverance programs and SOZOs
and all of that stuff, which is amazing.
But what I want you to believe for while you're here
is that God has something new to say to you
while you're here.
That's why he brought you here.
We believe there is a supernatural grace upon our community
that people get breakthroughs here
that even though they've been in counseling for,
you know, some people had gone through,
they'd have been in counseling for years,
and it's not discrediting the work of the counselor,
everybody plays a part.
But when they've come through,
there's just this breakthrough
and this revelation and dots are connected.
So I want you to believe for those things
no matter how much you know
when you enter the door, so to speak.
All right, Supernatural Saturday from this past Saturday,
do you believe that I love you was the message.
So powerful because, you know, if you guys remember,
and even tonight we're gonna talk a little bit about this
and kind of the flip side,
but I have been saying for weeks,
the more we know the love of the Father,
the more freedom we will experience,
the more truth and revelation we will experience.
So when I saw that Jackie actually wasn't on live on Saturday
because we were out of town,
but when I saw that she did a message on that,
and I read through all the notes of the session,
I was like, man, I hope people really dial into this.
So ladies, I wanna encourage you, listen to the replay,
maybe listen to it more than once, you know,
really let that soak in and really get to the root of,
do you really believe that God loves you
and that he has good things for your life?
All right, let me pray for us.
Father, thank you so much for this night.
God, thank you for everything you're doing already.
God, we're just asking you to come in
and just till the ground of our hearts.
Lord, I pray that you would soften our hearts,
that you would remove calluses, that you would remove pain.
God, we ask you to remove bondages and chains from the past
and fears and anxieties that we have lived in.
God, even ones we don't even acknowledge or know are there.
God, I pray for revealings, for healing.
God, that you would bring things
from the darkness into the light.
God, you are more powerful, more able.
You are a mighty God, everlasting father.
God, you are the prince of peace.
We ask for your peace to come where there's been tremors,
where there's been, you know,
even just in the physical or supernatural realm,
just like a physical earthquake can happen.
God, sometimes we have these quakes in our soul
from things that we've been through.
God, I thank you that you would just repair the breach.
God, that you would mend the foundation of their hearts,
their minds, their bodies, their spirits, their souls.
God, that you would literally set them free
in ways they never could have asked for,
thought of, or imagined.
God, that you would, yes, Lord,
that you would, any words that they've heard
that have caused them to fear or trauma that they've seen
or experienced that has caused fear or anxiety,
God, we just say peace to those areas.
In Jesus' name, we thank you, God,
that you administer hope and life and truth.
Jesus, you are the light of the world,
and we ask you to bring your light tonight
in a supernatural way.
Let it be powerful, let it be known.
Help them to know you more, Jesus, amen.
All right, I forgot my new,
because I was like, I'm gonna go into housekeeping,
and then I kind of got on a roll there.
So I wanna say hello to all of my first new ladies.
Anybody new, you've never joined a live session here before.
Cindy, hi.
Anyone else joining this as your first live session,
you can put that in the chat.
I see Jennifer McFarlane, I think,
waving her hand as well.
If anyone else I didn't see,
put that in the chat for me.
Welcome, we're so glad that you're here.
Is that Janelle?
I think it says.
And then for all of my ladies returning, hello.
It's so great to see you all again.
So glad to have you joining.
Let's see, Rachel, looks like. Oh, she'll be on in a few. Okay. Awesome. Ari, welcome, welcome, welcome.
We are so glad that you are here. We've been praying for all of you.
Consistently, you all, we pray for God to draw people into our community,
for God to bring healing to lives across the world, across the nation.
And so know that you are here at this appointed time for what God has for you.
Looks like Kim's is new. We have a lot of new ladies tonight. That's awesome.
All right. So tonight's session is on overcoming fear and anxiety.
We're going to work on overcoming fear and anxiety.
And we're going to talk about the different ways that this shows up in our lives and holds us back.
Sometimes they're known things. Sometimes they are unknown things.
But before we talk about that, I just want to remind you all that your hearts are highly impressionable.
Okay. So everything that you sow into your heart, remember what is put into our hearts is going to get reproduced.
So wouldn't it be important for us to guard our hearts, to protect what's going in there?
You know, a lot of times back in the day, at least when I was growing up in my faith and in my walk with the Lord,
people will be like careful little eyes, what you see, careful little ears, what you hear,
you know, really paying attention to things that are coming into our minds, into our ears, you know,
and really thinking about what we're thinking about. And so I want to start there tonight.
I want you to be thinking about what have you actually been thinking about?
What has been, you know, having the priority real estate spot in your mind?
Let's just think about the last week. Okay.
I want you to put in the chat for me. What is a fear? If you've had more than one, totally fine.
But what's the first one that comes to mind, fear or anxious thought that you've had in the last week?
And what was it about fear or anxious thought that you've had in the last week?
And what was that about for you? As those come in, I'll start to kind of read those out.
As you guys are writing those, I want to read the scripture Proverbs 423.
And this is what it says. Keep your heart with all vigilance for from it flows the springs of life.
Vigilance in the, you know, the definition is the quality or state of being vigilant.
So I look at that, you know, these words all go together, but vigilant means alertly watchful standing on watch you all.
It's like having a guard dog or a guard literally at the door of your house.
And we know that the heart represents the house, so to speak. And, and oftentimes we don't have anything guarding it.
We're just letting everything in even our minds. What's what about the mind gate, right?
To avoid danger, being vigilant means we're like on guard, we're watching to avoid danger.
So how often is, you know, the stuff coming into our minds and, and you all this isn't to shame you or guilt you.
I have it happen to where the enemy just comes in and sends these thoughts and I start thinking on them.
We start thinking on them. And before we realize it, we're down the road.
And sometimes we're around the block. We're like on a two hour drive, maybe two or three days in.
And then it's like, oh my gosh, I didn't even realize I was believing the lies that the enemy said to me.
All right. So let me look at some of these things that are coming in.
Thanks for sharing for everyone that puts them in.
Fear of failing at work. That I will continue to be alone. That I might have to have a root canal.
Valid. Yes. Dental work. Y'all, it's not my friend either.
But I actually have a lot of fear and anxiety when I go to the dentist.
Anxious about sharing the news of my divorce with people. Yes. Okay. We'll be praying for you about that.
What's my next step? Will I ever feel better?
Did I miss God earlier? And if I did, how can I catch up now?
I'm turning 40 soon. Will I be able to have children?
Fear of being misunderstood. Fear of not being liked by people.
And the fear of being stuck in areas of struggle. Fear of not being good enough.
How will the dating process work after heart work?
And how my heart will process all without being hurt? Yes.
Fear I will run out of money before my pension funds are in my account.
Fear I will never marry and or be alone.
My son, Bradley, finances around school. Not losing weight to look better.
Fear I am falling behind in LYS.
And, sorry, I don't know why I can't do to a deadline in another area of my life that needs attention.
And this deadline came on quickly.
Same as Jennifer. Getting married late. Not being able to have bio children.
When will the other shoe drop? Yes. These are so good, ladies.
These are so good and real.
When will the other issue come up? Letting people down and them having a lesser opinion of me.
Fear that I'm not really who God says I am.
Fear of not finding fulfilling work, bad decisions and mistakes that I made in my life,
having chronic anxiety, is it ever going to go away? Can I trust again? Will I ever be loved?
These are real. These are things that like literally the enemy sends an onslaught of
thoughts on a regular basis to our minds. And so I want you just even right now,
just extend some grace to yourself tonight. Sometimes it's hard work to resist the enemy
and the thoughts that he sends our way. And I want you to really center yourself. I want you
to kind of imagine God just coming up to you. I know it can be hard for us to imagine this stuff,
especially if we didn't have good relationships with our fathers. But some of you did have good
relationships with your father. So hopefully we can all just kind of imagine this right now.
Maybe even just if it helps you imagine somebody that, you know, was kind of like a fatherly
figure or a friend that's a guy when they hug you, just it just feels kindness. It feels loving
and thoughtful. And I want you just to imagine obviously God is not man, but I want you just
to imagine that same feeling, but like multiply it by like a million trillion. God hugging you
right now, just right in the middle of these fears and just saying, daughter, it's OK. I've
got you. I've got you. And I'm not going to let you fall. Yeah. Ladies, he's not disappointed in
you. I feel the Holy Spirit, so I'm going to linger here for a minute. The father has you
and he's not going to fail you. Now, some of you might be like, well, I'm afraid I'm going to fail.
I saw that in the chat. What if we make a mistake again? Well, is God not big enough
to help us get back on track? Do we think that we can miss the promises of God?
I think we do often think that. But you know what? Here's the truth.
Y'all, I still think back all the time to the fact that I dated my spiritual daughter's dad
for six years. When I ended that relationship, man, I was like, I lost all that time.
And I was so disappointed, like I felt like I missed things with God because of that.
But here's the reality. God is the redeemer of our timelines.
Y'all, I healed. I grew. I learned things. And God used all of that. He worked it all together
for good. And he led me to Brian, who I'm now married to. I've been married for almost four
years. And we are having an incredible journey. If God can do it for me, He can do it for you.
If God can do it for me, He can do it for you. It doesn't matter what your age is. It doesn't.
So it starts with our hearts. What do we believe? Fear is false evidence appearing real.
So when we have these fears that y'all wrote in the chat, I want you to maybe note that on your
paper, whatever you wrote down in the chat, put that down on your paper, even if you have to
scroll back up because maybe you already forgot what you wrote in there, I'm not sure,
but that you would jot it down and then write next to it or under it, fear,
false evidence appearing real. So where is the enemy trying to convince me of something that
isn't real in this thing that I'm afraid of? Sometimes we got to work it backwards, right?
We got to start with, okay, what are the thoughts that I'm having? And then how is the enemy making
that look real and enlarging that versus God being bigger than my fear? Anxiety is fueled by fear.
So they partner together a lot of the time, you all. So people that tend to struggle with a lot
of fear tend to also have anxieties. And some people now will feel anxious more than others,
but there are still people that struggle with anxiousness and anxious thoughts,
but they just know how to control it a little more.
But at the root, those things go together a lot of the time. And anxiety, anxious thoughts are
fueled by a lot of what if, what if this, what if that, what if this, what if that.
So tonight I want to just encourage you to allow God to quiet all of those things.
Again, kind of helping you guys.
Some of the things that I did even as we started to have you pause and just imagine God hugging you and saying, I've got you.
I'm doing some of those things as the Holy Spirit was leading,
but I feel like God is giving that to all of us,
myself included, as a tool that we can literally all week long center ourselves in.
When something comes up and we start to feel that fear rising or we're triggered or whatever that looks like for you,
that you would just pause and, yeah, Lord, I remember.
I remember that you've got me.
Maybe for you it's God taking you by the hand versus a hug.
Maybe that's where you're at.
But whatever is safe for you, whatever feels believable for you, start there.
And connecting with God in that way will enable you to kind of downshift out of fear mode.
Trauma that happened to us isn't what stops us from living an amazing life,
but it's the lies we believe as a result of those traumas.
That's the thing that we have to get to.
So in this community, in this program, a lot of times we're going to ask you,
okay, I want to encourage you to pray and ask the Lord to reveal the root.
What that means, it's the root lie that we're believing because of the trauma that we've been through.
Fears and anxiety feed off of the lies.
So when you guys read the HeartWork book, some of you aren't this far in,
but it's going to talk about Beezlebub and how he's the Lord of the flies.
And this is in another session, so I'm not going to go into it too far,
but it just came up in my spirit again, so I'm just going to mention it.
But the flies look for a source of food, right, an open wound.
And so the enemy is always looking for the open wound.
He's trying to figure out how can he get you to believe his lie and eat of the fruit, if you will.
Yes, the weak spots. He wants to get you off track.
Y'all, I can't tell you how much resistance we have experienced in the last year and a half, two years,
and last year single, same thing here in our church.
And yes, there's always resistance, but I'm telling you, when you're going in the right direction,
understand the enemy will want you to not go in that direction.
And he will try to war against it.
He will try to distract you from going in the right direction.
I just did this little exercise with our kids here at the church yesterday.
I taped a green line down on the floor, and the green line was the line that represented going home,
going to the Lord, being on track with the Lord and what he has for their life.
And then offshoots of that were red tape.
And when they would get to the red tape, I would have them stop, and I would give them a scenario.
The red tape represented temptation.
So I want you to kind of even be thinking about this in regards to fear.
The red lines tonight are like the fears, the anxious thoughts.
So we're walking down the path towards God, and we're going on our way, and then all of a sudden we're disrupted
because the fear is coming in, anxious thoughts are coming in, but here's the reality.
In that moment, we have a choice.
We have a choice to partner with the lie or to resist the lie and say, you know,
not today, devil, not today.
And I know that sounds so simple.
I'm not trying to say it's easy.
I'm just trying to say that we do have the ability to resist the devil, the Bible says, and he will flee from us.
And then we can keep going on the path that God has for us.
When we have problem areas and areas that we constantly feel stuck, even when it comes to lies we believe, fears, anxious thoughts,
if you tend to see the same fears coming up over and over, even if they look a little different, sound a little different,
but the common, like, thread is similar, that is a signal to you that that is an area you are believing lies.
And the enemy is trying to just keep you stuck in there, going around the same mountain over and over and over.
But when we get revelation of truth, guess what?
The truth of the word is what sets us free.
That's what brings liberty.
That's what brings transformation.
So soaking in the truth of God's love for you truly will start to cause these ripple effects in the spirit,
and you will start to see things differently.
I'm just going to read a couple things very briefly from the HeartWork book.
This is just from chapter, I try to always tell you, from the HeartWomb chapter in chapter 5.
Five, and this is what it says.
Not everyone sees the dysfunction in their life
as a problem.
The biggest lie that you might believe in life
is that your life is normal.
Many people that live broken lives
believe it's reasonable to live that way.
They have inherited an emotional debt or trauma
from their family, and they think it's normal.
Normal to be overweight, normal to be unhappy,
to be unfaithful, normal to be in a relationship
where someone mistreats you.
Normal to be sick all the time.
They think it's okay to have massive amounts of debt
and spend all of their energy trying to figure out
how to pay the bills.
Or even more deception than that,
that it's normal to abuse and hurt others or yourself.
When they are confronted, here's another one, sorry,
they thought it was normal to be molested by family members
because it's all they had ever known.
When they were confronted by an outsider about the abuse,
they said that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it?
No, it doesn't.
So maybe some of you have been confronted by friends,
coworkers, people in the community, coaches like myself,
that are saying, hey, I wanna encourage you
to really look at this area of your heart and your life.
I know most of you have come in
because you're trying to learn how to walk
in a healthier path to meet your spirit mate,
and that is what led me here as well.
But I'll tell you what, man,
God upgraded every area of my life as I allowed him to.
He wanted to heal my view of money.
He wanted to heal my view of my limiting belief systems
and the way I was looking at God's provision for me.
He wanted to heal my job and career area
and how it's functioning in there.
He wanted to work myself to death, work myself to the bone
and always feel like I could never get ahead,
never get ahead, everybody always holding me back.
There was a lot of things that I needed,
a higher revelation, a higher understanding,
so that I could receive everything that God had for me.
So my question for you tonight as well is,
what area are you trying to convince yourself,
well, this is just normal?
My family's always been in debt,
so this is just how it goes, you know?
Well, you serve a God of the kingdom.
I'm not saying that every person is meant to,
you know, live a certain way.
Some people, you know, you go as a missionary,
there's all different, you have to raise funds.
But what I am saying is that I think God is wanting us
to shift the way that we look at our finances,
how we approach them, how we steward them, and that matters.
Maybe it's your friendships.
Maybe you just think it's normal that your friends
kind of like, don't really act like they care about you
and mistreat you.
And you're just always trying to be the one
like keeping the peace.
No, like God wants good friendships for you.
But sometimes we have to let go of the old
so that we can receive the new.
All right, we're gonna keep going.
So I want you to, as you're going through
some of these things in your life
and these lies are entering in and these fears are there
and they're evident and they're present,
I want you to ask yourself two questions.
And this is how you kind of get to the root
of the false evidence appearing real as well.
Number one, what are the facts in this situation?
What are the facts?
And if you're not sure, these are the kind of things
you can even come into the group and you can ask us like,
hey, this is something I'm processing.
Like I'm having a hard time looking to see
what the facts of this are.
We can help you with that.
Number two, what is true?
Like what's really true about this?
And again, you're looking at it also like
where's the enemy tricking me
and making something false look real?
This is gonna help your discernment levels grow, ladies.
Okay?
We can overcome fears the more that we heal
and the more rooted we become in God's love
and faithfulness to us,
which is what I've been alluding to tonight already.
Are you someone who is always waiting
for the other shoe to drop?
Someone mentioned that in the chat earlier.
Always thinking something bad is gonna come
and it might be right around the corner.
You tend to think of the worst case scenario
instead of the best case scenario.
What comes to mind, and I don't say this all the time,
but it just came up in my spirit.
Some of us have the Eeyore spirit.
That's what I call it.
You know, like Winnie the Pooh and Eeyore.
Eeyore was never happy.
It didn't matter what was going on.
Pooh's bouncing around, or Tigger's bouncing around.
all over the place full of joy and then you have poo. Isn't that the total opposites, right?
But God didn't intend for us to constantly always, I mean obviously he wants us to have joy, but
I feel like poo was kind of like the middle, that middle person, if you will, and then you
have piglet there too. But we were never intended to be eeyores, which some people turn into that
when fears that are based in lies are unresolved because they start to turn into hopelessness and
you know that depression and despair. God does not want that for his kids. Okay, let's keep going.
Are you someone that you hear a siren and you think something happened to someone you love?
And here's the reality ladies, this stuff happens because something happened to us or someone we
loved and it got stored in our subconscious that we need to be afraid when we hear a siren.
And it's not just because COPS TV is on shows. This is typically, I mean yeah that can do it to
you, but typically this happens because of things that you have experienced.
Let's go this direction as well. Someone doesn't respond to a text message that you sent in the
time frame you think that they should have responded to you by. What are the first thoughts
that you have? I want you to think about it. These are some things I wrote down. Are they mad at me?
I guess they really don't care about me because if they did they would have responded by now.
Are they ignoring my text? He must be talking to someone else.
I'm not pretty enough or good enough to get his attention.
It can go on and on and on. They're avoiding me. People don't like me. I'm not important.
What are the things that you tend to believe if you text someone? In our modern society literally
we have turned into a group of people that if someone texts, if we text someone and they don't
respond immediately or even within an hour, let's say that, we'll stretch it a little bit.
We have some people that they will just continue to message and continue to message and continue
to message. Whether it's a friend or it's a guy they're dating or whatever that scenario is. Maybe
it's their parent and that you all is called anxious attachment. It's called not being able
to trust that when that person is able to respond to you they will. We've turned into a very
self-centered like everything is about me when I want it and how I want it versus,
huh, I bet they're in a meeting or something. Or maybe they're just having a bad day.
Or maybe they're really busy and they just feel overwhelmed. You know, like we think the worst.
Why don't we think the best? The Bible says that we should believe the best in each other. Like,
you know, you believe the best in me, I believe the best in you. Same thing kind of happens in
the group. People will post and because they're already afraid to post, if the post isn't responded
to in the time frame that they want it to be, they will delete it or they will email us and
ask why their post wasn't responded to. No joke you all. In the time frame they thought, now we do
our best to respond to you all within like 12 to 24 hours. On the weekends it's going to be a
little bit longer because we do give our team some breaks. But here's the reality. What is going on
inside of us that causes us to believe that they're just not responding to us? Because even in
our app, unfortunately, there's so many things I love about our app, but the notifications,
seeing when somebody responds to you, it is, it's just not great. Okay. We're just going to call it
out what it is. But sometimes we actually do respond to people and then they never even see
our comments back as coaches or you guys, I comment to you, then you come back. But let's
just really like get to the root of, okay, what's really getting stirred up in me? Even when things
like this happen and allow God to heal us to such a place to know that, hey, I really believe this
coach has my best interest in mind. I believe this sister in Christ has, you know, my best, whatever
that scenario is, my coworker. Now, someone that's super unhealthy, y'all, that's different. We're not
talking about that right now. Okay. We're talking about in a healthy, safe context. Okay. All right.
Let's keep going. So where are your thoughts rooted? Are they rooted in fear, doubt, unbelief,
insecurity, pain, wounds, or are they rooted in?
in love. 1 John 4.18 in the amplified version says this,
there is no fear in love. Dread does not exist. But perfect,
complete, full grown love drives out fear, because fear involves
the expectation of divine punishment. So the one who is
afraid of God's judgment is not perfected in love has not grown
sufficient, excuse me, grown into a sufficient understanding
of God's love. Basically, it's saying like, if we are afraid,
we have not grown into a sufficient understanding of
God's love. Again, that's 1 John 4.18 in the amplified version, I
encourage you guys to meditate on that this week and really,
like ask the Lord like, God helped me to grow more in the
understanding of your love for me. God that you have my back.
That he had just us in on every side. John 3.16 for God so loved
the world that he gave his only begotten son that whoever
believes in him should not perish but have everlasting
life. He sent his one and only son for us. What makes us think
he won't pour out a blessing that which we could not contain
in other areas of our lives. He gave his son he literally gave
his son up for us. I'm going to read a couple lyrics from a song
called fear is a liar. This is so powerful. This song if you
guys get a chance, definitely encourage you to listen to it.
But this is what it says. And this is talking about fear lying
to us. That's the name of the song. But I want you to
understand that in the context of what I'm about to read to
you. So when he when I when I'm referencing he right here, this
is when fear when he when he told you you're not good enough
when he told you you're not right. When he told you you're
not strong enough to put up a good fight. When he told you
you're not worthy when he told you you're not loved. When he
told you you're not beautiful, you'll never be enough. Fear he
is a liar. He will take your breath, stop you in your steps
fear he is a liar. He will rob your rest steal your happiness
cast your fear in the fire. Because fear he is a liar. When
he told you you were troubled you'll forever be alone. When he
told you you should run away you'll never find a home. When
he told you you were dirty and you should be ashamed when he
told you you could be the one that grace could never change.
Oh fear he is a liar he will take your breath stop you in
your steps fear he is a liar. He will rob your rest steal your
happiness cast your fear in the fire. Because fear he is a liar.
You know, there's that song it just came to mind about, you
know, how there's another man in the fire. Like I want you all to
even just imagine like, you know, it's you and your fears.
And the fears are the fire. And God is right there with you in
the midst of all of that says different version of what I was
saying earlier. Hebrews 12, one says, therefore, since we are
surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off
everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles
and let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us. You
know, some of the fears that I've had to work through and
anxieties. Years ago, I was really, really afraid of the
dark was huge, massive one for me. It came out of all the the
sexual abuse. I didn't understand this until many years
later, but all the sexual abuse. A lot of it happened in our
basement. And I would feel this deep fear when I would be in the
basement having to come up the stairs and the lights were off
and just to like run up the stairs really fast. And then
even like, in our house, we had this kitchen that kind of came
up from the stairs and went around to the living room. But
off of there was this other room that had all these windows and I
had a lot of fear of people looking in the windows at me,
which it all makes sense again, now hindsight. But as a young
girl, I I had no clue why I thought people were looking in
the windows at me. But I was literally afraid when it would
get dark out at night that people were looking in the
windows at me. And so I would run from one side of the kitchen
to the other. I would hide literally and sit in front of
chairs at night. Excuse me sit in front of chairs at night just
trying to like huddle down so that if someone looked in the
window, they couldn't see me. These are real things like this
is how I live for a long time. Until, you know, I got a little
older gave my life to
faced and started learning that this was a spirit of fear that had been coming against
me and that I had to take a stand against it.
And you all literally, I, you know, I had to learn, um, when that fear would come on
me that I could not continue to give into it.
So even as a doll, after I got married the first time, I remember I was living in a duplex,
but again, this happened a lot of times at night.
Um, I'm not saying it never happened in the day, but mostly at night.
But I would feel that fear come on me.
And that just like, Oh my God, I gotta run up the stairs.
I gotta run.
Like, just like something was near me, but nobody was in the room.
This was all spiritual warfare against me and I would resist it.
And I just kept praying that scripture over myself.
I don't have a spirit of fear.
I have a spirit of love and power in a sound mind, but I would put my name in it.
My name used to be Bethany Cooper or Bethany Stanko back then.
I, Bethany Stanko, don't have a spirit of fear.
I have a spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind.
But here's the other thing I did.
I made myself walk slow.
I know these sound like little things you all, but these were things that set me
free because eventually I didn't feel that anymore.
The enemy figured out that he could no longer control me or manipulate me through
that spirit of fear anymore.
And he left many years later when I was dating my spiritual daughter's dad.
This is long after my divorce.
And I found out he was cheating on me with multiple women.
Um, I had what I now know as a panic attack and, you know, was praying and just
angry with God and all kinds of things crying.
And I remember that, that anxiety and that panic entering back in.
And I started like, it was like worse than it used to be before.
And I remember one day asking God, why did you make me this way?
And he said, I didn't.
That's what he said to me.
I said, yes, you did.
I've been like this as long as I can remember.
And he said, no, Bethany, when I made you, I did not put that in you.
That's there because of what you went through and what you believed, because
you didn't know how to defend yourself as a kid.
And the reason it entered back in when I went through those betrayals is because,
um, those betrayals, it was the current situation, but it linked right back to
when my dad was cheating on my mom and he left us and, you know, my dad leaving us.
Opened a massive door for the enemy to use my brothers to sexually abuse us.
Because nobody was around.
And even when my mom was around, she wasn't paying attention.
So I don't know what your situation is.
Maybe it's none of those things.
Maybe you don't really struggle with fear, anxiety, and that's totally okay.
But you might come across someone one day that does.
So I hope that you're tucking this information away if that's the case.
But for some of you, maybe it's just the constant, like nagging thoughts.
That nothing is ever going to change for you.
You're always going to attract unhealthy guys.
You know, these are all different kinds of fears that we can experience.
So I'm going to open up the breakout rooms for you here in a moment.
Here is your question to talk about in the room tonight.
What fear are you going to ask God to help you with?
So it could be the one you put in the chat already.
It could be something totally different.
It could be something that you're not aware of.
All right, let me get these rooms ready for y'all.
All right.
I'm going to give you guys nine minutes.
That should be about three minutes, two and a half minutes.
So I'm going to give you guys nine minutes to think about what you're going to ask God to help you with.
And then I'm going to open up the breakout rooms for you here in a moment.
So I'm going to give you guys nine minutes to think about what you're going to ask God to help you with.
Three minutes, two and a half to three minutes each.
Make sure you talk about this first.
Okay.
Talk about what the fear is.
Maybe even talk about like, where do you think this fear entered for you?
Okay, let's focus there first.
If you have extra time after all two to three people in your room have shared, then get to get to know each other a little bit.
Where did you know? Where are you from?
What led you here? What are you believing for this week?
Let's talk about a positive.
But first talk about what fear are you going to ask God to help you with tonight?
And when do you think that fear entered your life?
Okay, those are on the screen for you to go ahead and accept to join those rooms.
And as you all are joining those, I'll move people around if needed.
And then I'll start to pray.
All right, Lord, we just thank you for this day.
We thank you for everything you're doing tonight.
All right, we got two there.
We thank you for the healing that is happening.
God, we ask for greater revelation and truth to enter into every breakout room, even into
this room as I'm praying.
Those that are going to watch the replay, God, we know that you're renewing us from
the inside out.
God, that you're transforming us and shifting.
We thank you that shackles are falling off of our minds, our hearts, our bodies, our
spirits, our souls.
I thank you, God, that you're inviting us into greater revelation, greater truth.
Yes, Lord, we just ask you to breathe over these ladies and help them to receive an upgrade
of the revelation of your love for them tonight.
We thank you that you'll lead them into all truth, God, that you'll anoint them for all
of their lives and walk and calling, and that you'll lead them deeper into Jesus right now,
Lord.
We just thank you, God, that you are redeeming their timelines, that you're going into the
deepest places of their souls, God, in your breathing life, and you're speaking hope.
God, we thank you, God.
Yes, Lord, no longer will they die in these areas.
No longer will they be stuck.
God, we thank you for dislodging things that need dislodged.
We thank you, God, that even people that I just saw in the spirit, like a revelation
of a ship getting hooked to the dock, but the person didn't even know it was hooked
to the dock.
So every time they tried to pull away, they just have felt held back, but it was like
this mysterious thing hooked them.
So Lord, we just thank you that nothing is mysterious to you, that all things are known
by you.
So we thank you that you would bring the revelation of what they need and how they need it to
them.
We know that the enemy, he tries to be sneaky, and he tries to come in in different ways
and hinder us, but God, we thank you that you are the one that raises up a standard
against him, and that when the enemy comes in like a flood, you cause him to flee in
seven ways, God, that you are greater than anything the enemy could ever bring against
us, God.
We thank you.
Yes, Lord.
We just declare life and hope and truth.
Yeah, Lord.
I just continue to see little plants and sprouts coming up through the earth.
God, we know that Isaiah 43, 19 says, you know, behold, I'm doing something new.
Can you not perceive it?
I'm bringing streams in the wastelands and rivers in the desert.
God, we thank you for new life.
We thank you for sprouts coming up, Lord, where we didn't even know that they could
come up.
We thank you that you are the one that enables us to see ourselves in ways that we've never
seen ourselves before.
God, I thank you that you would just, yeah, Lord, just remove, like I literally saw caps
for minds being removed, and so Lord, we just thank you that you would help us to, as caps
are being removed, those are representing negative thoughts, negative perceptions, orphan
mentalities, limiting belief systems.
We just say go in Jesus' name, and we thank you for the revelation of heaven that is coming
tonight.
Yes, Lord, we thank you for divine oil flowing from heaven, washing over every one of those
here in this HeartWork course live tonight, those catching the replay.
We thank you, God, that just like it came down the beard of Aaron, so it will be so
for them, that it will go into every area.
And we know, Lord, just like the examples that Jackie gives in the HeartWork book where
the gold goes in and it fills all the cracks, and God, that that is your glory being revealed
in us and through us.
God, we thank you that you would help them to, Lord, receive your truth in the full measure
of grace that you have set aside for them.
We know, Lord, that, yeah, Lord, that you would just guard their hearts and their minds
through Christ Jesus and help them to partner with you in that.
God, that they would, yes, Lord, help them to be able to quickly, quickly, quickly discern
the lies of the enemy, that they will start to pick up on those things faster and be able
to cast those things down and choose rather to believe what the Word of God says about
them and about their lives.
And, God, we know that greater is he that is in us than he that is in the world.
So we thank you for the same power that rose Jesus Christ from the dead is living in us
and operates through us, that his blood covers every pain, every broken area.
Yes, Lord, we thank you that we can be in relationship with you because Jesus came and
he died so that we could be in relationship.
So we thank you for intimacy with you, God.
I thank you that these ladies will no longer hide or resist intimate time studying your
word, reading devotions, worshiping God.
They will have a friend.
hunger, and thirst for your righteousness, for your word, God.
Let it be new. Let it be fun.
Let it bring revival in their hearts, God, and we thank you for a place of rest.
Then in the midst of it all, God, that you would teach them your rest.
God, that they can rest in you because they can trust you.
You are trustworthy, God. You're not a liar.
Yes, Lord. Yes, Lord.
Where parents or people in authority have lied to them, God, we just ask for healing in those areas.
God, help them to forgive people that have betrayed them and deceived them in any way.
We thank you, God, that you would help them to walk into the fullness of all that you have for them.
God, including forgiveness, including healing, including, yes, Lord, complete restoration.
Complete restoration, nothing missing, nothing lacking, nothing broken.
Yes, Lord, I thank you that we are not too broken for a spirit mate.
Lord, help them to receive it.
Yes, Lord, we thank you.
We thank you that we're not too broken.
Yes, Lord, to be a daughter of the King.
Lord, where they feel like they're still on the outside, like an orphan in those orphan mentalities, begging to get in and the gate is closed.
God, we thank you that you give them the revelation that the gate is open to them.
And that they can walk right in and they can sit with you and they can dine with you, God.
And help them to understand what that means.
God, that they have full access to you.
So, Lord, if there's women that have at any time been ignored by fathers, been ignored by even bosses, like I was talking about earlier, where they work and they work and they work and they feel like nobody notices or that they miss out on the promotion or the things that they're trying so hard for, God, I speak favor with God and man over their lives.
I thank you that you will help us to not partner with the lie that we're not seen, that we're not heard, that we're not loved.
I thank you, God, that we will see the truth in every situation, God, that you will lift veils of deception off of our minds, off of our hearts.
Yes, Lord, we thank you for truth that illuminates the darkness, that darkness cannot remain where the light is.
So, God, we thank you for bringing the light.
Jesus, thank you that you are the light.
Holy Spirit, we thank you that you're here.
We thank you that you're moving and just coming in and speaking truth to us in love.
Yes, Lord, help us to hear through new ears, to see through fresh eyes.
Thank you, Lord.
Thank you, Lord, for the upgrade and reminder that we are princesses, God, that we are heirs of the kingdom.
Thank you, Lord.
Yes, Lord, I thank you that we will hear.
Yeah, I just keep hearing, hear and see truth, hear and see truth.
And so, Lord, help us to continue to partner with that and to know that you're working all things together for good, to save many people alive and to heal our lives.
Isaiah 40, 31 says, but those who hope in the Lord will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles.
They will run and not grow weary.
They will walk and not be faint.
I thank you, Lord, that you, yeah, I just ask you to continue to breathe on every fear, every anxious thought, and that you would just bring calm.
That you would bring resolve in their spirits.
Yes, Lord, that's a word that he would bring resolve into our spirits that we would not quit.
Before we receive the promise.
Proverbs 23, 23 in the Passion Translation says, embrace the truth and hold it close.
Don't let go of wisdom, instruction and life-giving understanding.
Welcome back, ladies.
Praise in the Lord.
That was really good.
So glad you guys are here.
Um, okay.
I think I saw that.
Okay.
So welcome back.
I'm going to go over the activations for this week really quickly.
And then we're going to do the group coaching.
So if you are willing to share with the whole group what you shared in the breakout,
we'd love for you to go ahead and raise your hand.
If you're someone that shared in the afternoon session, I'm going to ask for you to hold your
share so that the ladies tonight that may not have already gotten a chance to share can go ahead and.
share. But here's the activations for this week. Number one, we're going to practice receiving.
Okay, we're going to practice receiving. Here are some practical ways that I want you to practice
this in your lives, okay? And you don't have to remember all of this because I'm going to put it
in the group for you guys so you can grab it from there. But I'm just going to read these for you.
Accept physical assistance from someone. So let someone carry something for you. Grocery bags
maybe help you move furniture. Reach something off of a high shelf when you're at the store.
Even if you could manage to do these things by yourself. This builds comfort with receiving
practical support and allows others to feel helpful and needed as well. You're going to
practice accepting physical help. All right, number two, ask for skill-based help. So you're
going to ask people for skill-based help. Request a friend to teach you something that they're good
at. Okay, doesn't mean you have to learn it all, how to do it all. But this is somebody that knows
something and you're like, wow, that's really awesome that they know how to do that. I would
love to learn how to do that. Whether it's a new recipe, maybe it's how to change the oil in your
car, maybe it's how to run a new software program. We have ladies all the time, okay, that come into
the program and they tell us, I'm not techie. Y'all, here's the thing. We don't all have to be
tech mastermind people, but we can learn how to grow, right? There's this awesome search engine
called Google. And guess what? These days you can say, tell me how to do this and it will tell you
step by step how to do it. There's no reason we can't learn, okay? But if in this case, you're
going to ask a person, okay? So maybe you know someone who's really techie and they can show you
how to do it. Maybe it's a craft technique. What this is going to do is going to help you practice
creating meaningful connection while practicing being vulnerable because you're going to admit,
hey, I don't know how to do this. Can you teach me? Can you help me? Here's another one. Let other
people handle logistics for you. Ooh, this is a good one because guess what? Some of y'all are
going to meet a spirit mate one day and they're going to want to plan a date or whatever. And for
the control freaks in the room, you're not going to want to let anybody plan anything for you.
You got to be in charge of everything. I've been there too. I like to know where we're going, when
we're going, how we're getting there. I want to plan things. So I have a hard time letting other
people, but it's good things to practice. So allow friends or family to pick you up from the airport,
maybe bring you dinner when you're overwhelmed. Maybe it's helping you plan an event that you're
hosting. These are acts of service and they require all of us to release control and trust
other people to care for us. Again, there's so many other examples, but those are just a few.
Accepting emotional support. When someone offers to listen or ask how you're doing,
actually share what's on your heart instead of deflecting with, I'm fine. Now, here's the caveat
to this one. If they are not a safe person and they don't tend to be someone who is willing to
actually listen, like you kind of know they don't really care, even though they're asking you how
you're doing, I wouldn't recommend it to share with them how you're really doing because you're
going to probably end up feeling rejected. So let's share with people that are safe and
actually do tend to be caring. Let them pray for you, offer encouragement, or simply sit with you
in a difficult moment without feeling you need to reciprocate immediately. I want some of y'all to
really practice because you're going to need this if you have chivalrous men, because guess what
chivalrous men want to do? They want to fix it. Whatever your problem is, they want to fix it.
They want to help you. So my husband and I have learned this. I tell him, hey, I just want you
to listen, okay? Like, I don't need you to fix this. I just need to share something
that I'm going through and I just, you know, need you to pray for me, but I don't need you to fix it.
And that is, you know, if he has a dream and he doesn't want me to interpret it for him,
he tells me, hey, I had a dream, but I don't need you to interpret it. Like literally because
what happens is because God gives me interpretation of things a lot, I start interpreting it and he
might not want that. He might just want to share about his dream. But see, this is how we start
practicing vulnerability and letting people in. The key is to start small, recognize that you can
receive gracefully and know that it's a gift to you.
as well as it is to other people, okay?
Activation number two, letting go.
So the first one is receiving, okay?
It's receiving and being vulnerable.
The second is letting go.
So I want you to lean further
into that supernatural surrender
that we worked on starting last week, right?
We're surrendering, we're casting our cares on Jesus,
we're letting them go.
And this is what I want you to ask,
the Lord specifically.
What do you, Lord, not want me to take
into the rest of 2026 with me?
What do you, Lord, not want me to take
into the rest of 2026 with me?
Here are some examples.
Old mindsets, old heart postures,
a relationship that is not healthy for you.
It could be romantic, it could be friendship,
it could be a coworking relationship,
it could be a business partnership.
Old habits.
Y'all, it could be photos in your phone
of evidence you have that you don't need
because you're not in a court case that you need it for.
But you're keeping that evidence of that thing
that person said wrong, did wrong,
whatever that looks like.
Maybe it's old photos of boyfriends.
We went through this a couple of weeks ago
and Tatiana, God brought something to her mind right away
when I was coaching her.
And she went and got rid of that thing that God brought up.
I don't know what's happened since then or how that went,
but you could just kind of feel it when that came up for her
and then how God used that.
And so here's the thing,
when we do the letting go practice,
y'all, I do believe in caring for the environment.
So I hope the balloon thing doesn't offend anyone.
You can totally pick something different.
Because I had people complain before
when I brought up the balloon thing.
If that's not your thing,
I'm giving multiple options.
You can pick the other option if that's what you prefer.
So option number one,
write a list of the things that you're gonna let go of.
Maybe you're gonna let go of an offense or whatever.
You're gonna write that list out.
You're gonna pray and you're gonna thank the Lord
for helping you let these things go
and helping you release them to him.
And then in a safe place, you're gonna burn that thing.
You're gonna burn it.
You're gonna get rid of it and you're gonna let it go.
I had a lady that did this activation
and literally she was standing there recording it.
She's praying as she was setting it on fire
and she put it in this bowl.
And literally as she came to the part,
she said, Holy Spirit,
and literally the wind picked up
and like it literally blew the thing away.
It was so cool.
So I encourage you all to record this process for yourself
so that you can remember it.
It could be a photo, could it be a video.
And just hold onto that as a memory for yourself
that you were letting those things go.
Number two, this is still part of the letting go.
Balloon release.
Get a balloon or balloons, whatever you feel led.
I always encourage people to pray even.
Is there a certain color of balloon?
Does it represent something for you?
I had a lady buy heart balloons
because she was letting go
and releasing her husband that had passed away.
Because she wanted to believe for a spirit mate,
but she really hadn't fully let him go.
That's real.
That's really real.
Tie something on it that represents what you're letting go.
I don't encourage you to write your list
and attach it to the balloons
because if your balloons pop
and they fall in your neighbor's yard,
you might not want your neighbor to have that, okay?
I know, like Karen's laughing,
this stuff happens to people, so that's why I say it.
But maybe you still burn that list
or you rip it up or whatever.
I've had people also go to like a lake
and pick up a stone and skip a stone.
This is about you praying.
I'm giving you ideas,
but if God is showing you something different to do,
go with what God is showing you and trust that
because there's something in that for you.
Okay, awesome.
So excited to hear what God has to say to all of you tonight.
I'm gonna get through as many as I can tonight.
Cherish, go ahead.
Okay, I think I'm gonna try to move quickly.
I see there's a lot of hands up,
so I want everybody to have time.
I wanted to speak because
when you started talking about fear,
I had just had a situation today,
so I had to go off camera
because I just started boohooing.
I have wrestled with fear since I was a little girl,
specifically job fear has really set in in 2022,
have a very, I would say aggressive boss
that likes to go off on people.
And being.
single parent, there's like a real fear of failing and, you
know, losing that income. And I've was just more frustrated
than anything tonight, because I've had so much freedom in
this. I've even had God show me in dreams of that he's setting
me free from this. And then over the weekend, I was on my
birthday trip on the weekend and in the hot springs and relaxing
and in the evening, I had a nightmare that was so egregious.
My friend was scared, I guess I was screaming in my dream, or in
real life. And she was like, ma'am, that is not normal. And
so just today, I was just so frustrated, because I'm like, I
will, you know, take an authority, and I have, you know,
worked really hard to operate in peace. And even the stress and
the anxiety of my job, just letting that, you know, just
putting that at the feet of Jesus. And so to have another
experience was very frustrating for me. So when you first
started talking about overcoming fear, I just texted her, I was
like, well, guess what we're talking about tonight. So yeah,
just not sure. I feel like I've had so many, like breakthroughs,
and then something else happens. And I'm right there again, where
I'm afraid of being homeless, or not having food in the fridge,
or something like that, or just failing miserably at work.
So let me ask you a question, Cherish, when this happens, and
you struggle with the fear on one in one way or another, what
is it that you're hearing about yourself? Like, because it
sounds like you struggle to give yourself grace when this stuff
happens, like you feel like you're failing, even in the fact
that you're facing fear again? Is that correct?
Yes. Okay, fear again.
Okay, here's the thing, though. That's not true. Okay. Fear has
to do with torment. Okay. And it's the enemy that is
tormenting you. So sometimes it is because, you know, there's a
shift happening, something's getting unearthed. It's
sometimes just he attacks us, because he's trying to keep us
from moving forward, or, or leading us to believe we're not
making progress, which is what it sounds like you're kind of
teetering back and forth with every time something like this
happens. It's like, Oh, my gosh, I guess I'm not free from this
thing again. You know, and I get that I totally do. Here's what
came to me when you were talking, though. Um, you know, I
have a feeling that this is a generational thing. This isn't
just a you thing, which is why it seems stronger and harder to
break. But once you break through this thing, it's not
like it's never going to come back. That's the reality. I just
want you to know that but it may not come back in the same way.
You may not have the same experiences forever with this.
But the reality is, is the enemy will always come back and see if
he can get back in the door, like he will. And so just know
that, okay, upfront, I don't think it's going to do you any
good to try to convince you that you're never going to battle
this again, because I have had fear, try to come back, anxiety,
try to come back after we moved to Florida, I've been fine for
years. And so it's realizing the enemy, you know, the Bible talks
about how he'll go away, right? When we clean the house, he goes
away. Well, guess what he does? When he comes back, he brings
spirits with him. He sees what what's in the house, he sees if
the house is clean, can I get in here, basically, he wants to
know if he can come back and inhabit the house. And so when
this happens, when we start beating ourself up, then because
of it, it actually opens the door more to him.
Okay, and it's not your fault. But that's what's happening
subconsciously. So understand that you are, you're trusting
the Lord to break, not just this, this spirit of fear battle
in your life, I really believe somebody in your family line
also battled this. And, you know, it got passed down. And
that's why the weight of it feels bigger. Now, I would
encourage you to come into the group and put in there what the
nightmare was. And if you can get that in there tonight, I'll,
I'll see it first thing tomorrow morning. And I'll make a point
to go in and look for it. Because I feel like some other
things are going to be revealed through whatever is in that
dream. Okay. A lot of times, ladies, I'm not saying dreams
are always like, everything, okay. But the reality is, is,
you know, sometimes the enemy is just assaulting us in a dream.
Okay, there's that. But a lot of the time, dreams that we have
are actually were like our spirit and our soul is trying to
resolve stuff within us. Okay. So whatever was in the dream,
even though it was a nightmare, again, it could have been the
enemy. Once I see what happened in the dream, I'll know if this
was just the enemy.
attacking you or if this is something that's like something that's disrupted in your spirit and it's
trying to bring forth revelation so you can be free from it. So go ahead and do that for me.
I'll be praying for you about this. We'll be praying for you. Ladies will be praying for her
right. We're going to all agree to pray for her to break free from this. But I really want you to
work on not condemning yourself. Yeah, somebody just wrote it in there. Not condemning yourself
for like when it happens. Just know like, hey, if the enemy is warring against me,
I'm moving forward. Praise the Lord. Okay, kind of just saying that over yourself. If the enemy
is warring against me, I'm moving forward. Praise the Lord. Okay. Thank you. You're welcome. Ladies,
I want you to think about what I was saying to to cherish here. And I want you to think about
people that, you know, go to war. You know, there's different platoons. Let's just say I'm
not versed in this stuff, but I know enough that there's different, you know, if you will, platoons,
different people, different groups that once the first group goes out, if they're not victorious,
the second group is sent out, right? And then if they're not victorious, what happens? There's
another group sent out. Even back in the Bible, when you read, that's how they fought.
So why would we think the enemy is any different? We don't have to be afraid of him,
but we need to be alert and mindful and understand innocent as doves, wise as a serpent.
God can give us the wisdom. We don't have to focus on the devil. We focus on the Lord. We
worship him. We speak truth. We break free. But we don't need to condemn ourselves and beat
ourselves up when we struggle. Okay. Everyone good on that? All right. Awesome. Thanks for sharing
church. Appreciate you, Karen. Go ahead. Okay. So what I shared in our breaker room,
when you asked about what to ask God for help with. So the first time I shared in the group
here about a month ago, it's like my first time actually speaking out about the abuses in my
families. And one specific one that I shared was about my granddaughter, something happening to
her, because it was their first time being left alone with her older brother. And so I chose not
to go on this trip because of that. So this time, I'm going to be going on this trip next week.
And so I feel like I'm processing a lot from the last call. And I'll get this with this call. So
like the last one, what I got from it was like, I have to learn how to just relate in health
relationships, and that God does want me to enjoy myself. And so being able to just truly enjoy that
and to not feel guilt, because this was like a bucket list of my mom's to go also to Europe.
And also, you talked about performance and like this past week or so I've just been consumed with
my outfits when I shouldn't even be like so overly consumed with that. And so when you talk
about the activation for this week with receiving, it's like going to help you prepare for the trip
as well. So I feel like there's a lot of connection in the past couple of calls. So I think that's
the main thing is like, not just with the trip, I think in general, just to have let go that fear
that I have over my granddaughter. Yes, Karen, this is awesome. I feel like just so much confidence
is coming forth and what you're saying. I feel like you're positioning yourself for purpose,
like you're already kind of like prepared mentally to go on this trip and go in with a different
heart posture, I guess is what I'm trying to say to you, which is a huge win. I love that. I love
that you're already kind of saying, Okay, I'm going to go on this trip, I'm not going to receive
guilt, I'm going to enjoy it, I'm going to, you know, so that's all ladies, this is how we give
ourselves permission, right? We give ourselves permission to enjoy life. I literally was just
coaching someone through that's about to do a session with me this week. So I sent her some
prep questions. And one of the things that I addressed in there was that the guy that she's
dating, she said that he often says he feels guilty for like, about to step into good things
because his parents are getting older and dying. And so he's really wrestling with that. And so I
want to encourage all of you, if that's something you wrestle with, that you would give yourself
permission to live. And here's one of the other things I just that the Lord brought to mind.
So when Brian asked me to marry him in May of 22, he asked me to marry him on the 19th.
On May 26, my mom passed away.
just a few weeks later. And when that happened, I started feeling this inner turmoil of feeling
guilty when I would be planning my wedding and feel happy because the enemy was trying to tell
me I shouldn't feel happy. Your mom died. You should be sad. And so through that, I prayed a
lot. And what God taught me is that it could be both and. I could feel joy and sadness at the
same time and be good. And so the reason I bring that up is that you can feel both and. Not guilt,
but if there is any grief or sadness you feel, remember, feel the feels so that God can heal
those. But hopefully you experience tons of joy and those things don't come. But I do want you
to know or anyone else on here that sometimes we do feel both and, and that's totally okay too.
And so on the outfits, totally ask someone for help. That's a great opportunity for you.
I'm excited. So when are you going on your trip? It's going to be the 28th and I come back on the
ninth. So it's a long trip for me. I mean, like I've been in conferences for like three days.
So to be with women, it's like, I can't go hide in the room. Like to really.
That's awesome. So we can't wait to hear how that goes. That's exciting. We'll be praying
for you about that as well. Karen, thank you so much for sharing with us. Thank you.
You're welcome. Lisa, go ahead.
Okay. I'm probably going to cry.
Sorry. It's all right.
We're not rushing.
I've been so excited about what God is doing to me while I've been in this community
and I had on my Jesus care board. So I was, I was born with a very rare birth defect.
And one of the components of it is I was born without a right breast and I never had
surgery. And so I had put on the Jesus care board last fall, you know, the decision of whether I
would ever have surgery or not. And there's a lot behind why I would think I didn't at all, but
so that I had been sitting on my Jesus care board.
And over the last several months, the Lord has been just
preparing me. Like I've been increased interest in my movement, getting a little more weight,
just very all healthy, just out of pure love. And I wasn't even, I hadn't even thought about
this on my Jesus care board and Easter Sunday during worship. I felt the Lord save me.
It's time. And I knew exactly what he was talking about because I had not even made a decision
whether to have breast surgery or not. And so I was so excited. I had, it wasn't even in my,
I hadn't even asking him or seeking him. And so Easter Sunday, I was excited. I shared it
with dear loved friends and all. And the next week I started making phone calls because not
every surgeon knows how to hand, this is a very rare, and I reached out to, there's a few here
on the East coast and I'm not hearing back from them. And so I'm like, Oh God, Lisa, who's going
to do surgery on you at your age? And so now I'm sort of like angry that I even let myself get,
you know, and so just I'm, I'm letting the fear,
you know, not hearing back from all these plastic surgeons that specialize in this birth defect
and I'm just letting it go to my head.
Thank you for sharing that with us and trusting us with the vulnerability of that. And I think,
yes, a hundred percent, the enemy is trying to convince you this isn't going to happen
and that you allowed to get your hope up and it's just not going to work.
Um, you know, it's crazy. Sometimes you don't hear from doctors and then all of a sudden it's like
the floodgates open. And so, um, just even ourselves, you know, we were, um, you know,
I'll share vulnerably with you. We were going and talking to fertility doctors and all kinds of
things. And it took me a while to hear back from the doctor we ended up seeing. And so I want to
encourage you, let's keep, you know, knocking on the
door, let's keep trusting the Lord. And walking this out
either way, he's going to heal you grow you teach you and show
you some things. But I'm the fact that you was a Lisa, who's
going to do surgery on you at this age. Now, that's that's
partnering, even kind of like the other thing that's probably
going to trail behind that if you're not careful is how are
you going to find a spirit mate at this age?
But see, that's not that. That's the thing. This is the first
time I've let my age I've been so excited.
No, I'm saying to you, I'm saying the enemy is going to try
to start out to you. Yeah. And so just be careful on that. And
so I love that you're recognizing this. Remember to
use the revealing for healing cycle. Okay, so revealing for
healing, you want to go all the way to the truth. Okay, he's
trying to break the enemy is trying to bring up old trauma.
So I don't know if there's things that you encountered over
the years because of you know, the struggle there. So just make
sure maybe this is another revealing for healing. So
additional healing happens there. But definitely go all the
way through to the truth. You know, you might need to call
those doctors again. Maybe they're not the right doctors.
You know, you just never know why, but just let's keep walking
it out. But thank you for trusting us. We're going to pray
for I'm going to before everyone gets off, I'm going to
pray and for fear to be gone and whatnot. But I would encourage
you if you have time Lisa to listen to when you guys were in
the breakout, the time that I was praying and some things that
I saw in the spirit because I feel like there's some things in
there that might minister you specifically in this area as
well. Thank you. I will. You're welcome. You're welcome. Ladies,
this is real, right? These are the things we battle and then
the enemy tries and tries to assault us in those areas. Okay.
So another great example of that. Lisa, other Lisa medics, I
forgot earlier, there's two leases.
That's okay. I realized really quickly when she started talking
I was like, Oh, that's not me. Um, yeah. So thank you everybody
for sharing. I know that's, it's, yeah, it's vulnerable. So I
kind of think I figured things out as I was sitting here, but I
will say it anyway, because I'm always open to coaching. Um, so
the thing that is really repetitive with me that I'm
really catching on to is that I go into striving mode. And I
know what it comes from. It comes from staying back in first
grade, and being very traumatized by that. And there's
just this thing, like, I don't think of it consciously, but I
know the driving force behind it is I cannot fail. So I have to,
I have to work really hard and just make sure this thing gets
done. So the current thing that's happening that brought
this up for me during the session is that I am getting
together a resume because a friend of mine has a contact
that is doing exactly what I want to step into. Aside from
my coaching business, this is just stability, okay, for
housing. It's a long story. But anyway, I'm basically applying
to be a home steward. So because I have a lot of experience and
not from dog sitting, and then I lived with a family for three
years, I was their dog nanny, and they were semi retired, so
they would travel every other month. And I did that for three
years. And then I came back two years later, when they sold
their house, and then I oversaw contractors and all sorts of
stuff, right. So I am primed for this position. And it's going to
take the the pressure off of my financial situation so that I
can watch my launch my coaching business. So I'm just saying all
of that to tell you that I feel like this is like, I'm amazed
because I learned that I could literally make 90 to $140,000 a
year, being a home steward in this town an hour away from
where I live. It's like a place I've always loved. And it's
exciting. So there's a lot to all of that. I feel like it's a
breakthrough, like I'll finally build a breakthrough financially
for the first time in my entire life. I have hope you guys like,
if you knew all these years that I've been going through, it's
all been hand to mouth. I'm 61. It's been my hope got deferred,
and it really affected me. And so for this to come up is just
like an amazing opportunity, like amazing. I can't even
believe it can happen. I'm so excited, right? So of course,
there's a lot of drive in me to really get this thing polished,
you know, this resume, and it's exciting, but I'm like, I turned
it into my friend. And I only reconnected with her a year ago.
Before that, I had not talked to her for 45 years. I didn't even
know where she lived. So we grew up on the same street.
yeah, and she lives where I want to go. So anyway, she was just
making some suggestions to the resume. And saying that, you
know, I've got all these dog sitting things, which help
because it shows trust and longevity. But there's a lot of
repeating kind of phrases that are used with that during these
other two homes that actually lived in longer term. Yeah. And
so, but I'm concerned that by taking her, she wants me to kind
of put it under all one title, but I'm afraid it's gonna, it's
gonna not work well, because it's gonna come across like I
lived in these other homes, and I didn't. So I'm trying to
figure that out. So anyway, I put a lot of pressure on myself
to get that done. Because I know she's got this friend that she
had texted like a week ago, saying, Hey, I have this girl,
Lisa, but she hadn't heard back from her yet, two days after she
had reached out, but I don't know if she's heard back from
her before yet since then, but I've literally spent over a
week. Yeah, let me hear you. Oh, yeah, go ahead. So how does
how does the putting pressure on yourself show up for you? In
like a brief, abbreviated way? Yeah. Okay. Um,
the pressure showed up in this situation, because I've been
working on already for eight days. And then I didn't know how
to fix it yet. And then I had to be on this call. And so I felt
like I was putting more pressure on myself. I'm like,
well, do I give up the call? I don't know. And then I'm like, I
just literally asked chat GPT helped me with a quick text
message to send to my friend that addresses these things,
because I couldn't even think, you know, is that pressure? I
think, I think one of the things too, is for anyone that
struggles with, you know, just kind of like that, you're
looking at something, you're afraid it's not going to be
perfect, because underlying, you know, here's the reality, you
want that you really want that job. And so there's this fear
of if it's not perfect, what is the fear? I'm not going to get
the job. Right? Yeah. And I don't want to misrepresent
myself. Like, it's like, you know what I mean? But here's the
thing. I don't think you're going to intentionally
misrepresent yourself. And most people would understand why you
categorize those things together. But I want you to kind
of look at what is the motivator? What's the fear
driving the actions or the inactions or the over analysis,
paralysis, if you will, and partner with Lord, thank you
that you're going to show me how to do the resume, and you're
going to enable me to trust you when I send it. Okay, if this
job is the job you have for me, that you're going to give me
favor with God and with man, and by the time it reaches those
people, there'll be favor all over it. I know that sounds
simple, but like literally, we, we can partner with these things
and choose to believe again, believe the best and not the
worst. And understand that no matter what God has his best
plan for us. And so I want to encourage you to partner with
God, thank you, that you're going to show me how to do this
that I'm going to be able to do it without striving, I'm not
going to have stress, because ultimately, I trust that you are
going to go before me in this situation. Okay, so you're doing
great. I'm excited. I can't wait to hear what happens with that.
And I would say, set a deadline, give yourself a deadline, don't
keep pushing this pressure on yourself. You know, you do it to
the best of your ability, and send that thing on like just
don't overanalyze it. And let's see what God wants to do with
that. Because sometimes ladies, this is how we fight. Remember,
I said earlier, I had to war against that fear come on me.
Well, what I wanted to do was run. And the Lord was like, go
slow, go slow and declare this over yourself. So you're wanting
to go slow and overanalyze and I'm not saying do it super fast.
So it's not good, but like, it might be a good practice for you
to go ahead and kind of button that thing up and just get it on
into the mail, email. Yeah, yeah, I was literally feeling like
they said, you just have to have good enough. Do you know what I
mean? Set a timer. Ladies, this for myself too. Sometimes I have
to set timers for myself, because myself when I'm doing
things because if I don't, then I can get into perfectionism and
things like that in that over analysis as well. So we can war
against those things. We can resist the devil and his
temptations to get us kind of swirling around. Right. And and
step into God, thank you. Thank you that you are providing
your, you know, you've brought this opportunity in my lap. I
trust that if this is your will for me, God, that you're going
to give me favor with these people.
And Jesus name, you know, so love that.
Can't wait to hear how it goes.
Appreciate what you shared tonight
and keep us posted on that, okay?
Okay, I will.
Thank you so much, Bethany.
Awesome, you're welcome.
Renee, go ahead.
Yes, can you hear me?
Yes, ma'am.
So the group was good.
As the person I was paired with was talking,
her situation made me think of another one.
I went in thinking one thing,
I was going to school as one thing
and then started talking about another thing.
But basically the situation was,
I have an Amazon business
and I got flagged for one of the products
and basically they shut me down.
And so I could prove whatever.
And I did not want to tell anybody
that my business got shut down, basically.
And I felt like ashamed.
And I really was like,
I really don't want to share this with anyone.
One person in particular.
And I was so excited about the business.
I did all the right things.
And I mean, there's another aspect of the door closing
on me as well.
And feeling fear of failure.
I think it was fear.
I think I was afraid to show people that like,
I don't know if it's fear of man so much
as presenting myself as a failure.
I'm that do it, just do it person.
I'm accomplisher.
I'm a striver.
I'm all the things.
And I really, I felt ashamed.
That's the only emotion I could associate with how I felt.
And I did not want anyone to know.
And I thought, this is strange.
This is really like, what is this about, Lord?
And so he said, oh, I just said to the person,
oh my gosh, I'm going to have to sit back
and think about this a little bit
because this is not anything to feel ashamed of.
It's just, it's business.
It happened.
You got to move on.
You got to recalibrate and move forward.
I know all this, but I still don't want to share it.
Well, look at it.
You're sharing it out loud.
I know.
Praise the Lord.
So you're warring against that.
And I think that's amazing.
Because here's the reality.
It's exactly what you just said.
Mistakes happen.
Okay, business things happen.
It doesn't, I think the thing that you really want
to look at here in this share, Renee,
is what is it that you think people would believe
about you that's, you know,
like a negative thing if they knew?
It's kind of like, sometimes I'll talk to you guys
about if they really knew everything about me,
would they still love me?
Would people think I'm a good business owner?
Would people think I, you know, I don't know.
I'm not trying to say what your fears are
or thoughts that you were having,
but a lot of times those will fuel things like that
where the enemy will try to get us into shutdown
instead of actually, you know, talking to people
and learning how to work through it, right?
But here you are, you're talking about it
on the coaching session.
So I feel like you're just like, no devil.
I'm not going to stay in this place.
I'm going to share this.
I'm going to learn, I'm going to grow
because that doesn't define you.
I don't think anything negative.
Like you had a product that they were like, hey,
and they're looking it out.
You know, sometimes I have friends
that have literally gotten their Facebook accounts taken down
and we still, to this day, don't know why.
They were not doing anything wrong legitimately.
And so, you know, there's that too.
So just keep pushing through
and let's see how God helps you work through this.
And I'm so glad that you shared
and that God is giving you those revelations,
but definitely asking the Lord, what is this about?
I think that's a great start,
but asking him what are the lies that I was believing
that were keeping me from sharing it with people?
Because you did it tonight,
but let's look at what were the lies
that were actually keeping you from doing that,
you know, initially.
Okay.
Thank you.
You're welcome.
Thanks for sharing.
Appreciate you.
We are at 934.
So I am going to do, let's see.
I have Kaylee, Wendy, Amanda, and Arianne.
If y'all need to jump off, totally understand.
Don't want anyone to feel like you have to stay,
but definitely want to go ahead and let these ladies share.
And so if I have to, if we get too far into the night,
then I'm going to probably do like a quick,
I might even have you all share quickly.
And then I might just do like a round robin
and coach you all kind of at the same time.
We'll see how it goes here.
But Kaylee, go ahead and share.
I also don't want y'all to feel super rushed either.
So.
Okay.
Hi, I'm Kaylee.
It's my first time like being like fully present on the Zoom.
So it feels.
really good to be here because sometimes I'm like just getting to go leaving the gym or doing this
and that but I'm like no I'm gonna like lock in like let's do this. I love it. But like my comment
it's well does it have to be answering your question or can it be something like that's on
my heart that I want to share? Um yeah it normally we do what you shared in the breakout but it's
okay for you to share. Okay um so uh I feel like I lost my train of thought or I guess
maybe two things um the the fear I think well the one that I shared about I feel like I have
a lot of fears but um like feeling like I'm stuck in uh stuck in certain things like um
with a struggle of weight loss with um feeling struck like financially and with um just like
um I'm just like afraid that that I won't get to do the dream to do and um
yeah um and like that I won't be able to move forward in certain areas
um and I guess the other thing that uh is heavy on my heart um
uh like there there's someone a friend that I have that like uh a while ago like we were
talking and like like talking to get to know each other a guy friend um and then we never like went
out on a date and then we you know kind of stopped talking and then like he recently reached out to
me and I was like hey like it's good to hear from you and like I told him about how I'm doing this
program and like uh that I would be interested to reconnect but like I kind of have to put a pause
for a few weeks and then like I want to come back and like he's like yeah that's great like I respect
that um you know uh let's like re-re-center and then uh the next that was Friday and then Saturday
he messages me like hey like you know I know we we taught we said that we're not going to talk
but I wanted he wanted prayer because his sister had this really um uh bad health thing happen to
her and um and she passed away yesterday and um and um it's like
like she's around my age and um she has um she has four kids and and before she passed
away like she was pregnant and they were able to save her baby and
I don't know it's just
it's a lot I just I feel like the Lord has me on assignment and that the Lord has given me
prophetic like gifting and like intercessory gifting and like mercy and and so I I want to
like honor us like not talking or not like pursuing dating but also like be willing to provide a
little bit of like support for him and like yeah prayer and a little bit of scripture here and
there but um but it just feels really heavy and like heavy in my spirit because like his family's
really close and um he he told me like you know his sister's one of his best friends and they
were really close yeah yeah that's really hard and I you know I think you know I wrote in here
balance when you were talking I think that it sounds like if you can kind of keep that balance
in your heart I normally wouldn't recommend for people to stay connected especially if you had a
romantic interest but this is kind of a special situation you know his sister passed away but I
think setting really healthy boundaries for yourself because what can happen is that can
turn into a tricky situation because if you're being his emotional support um you guys could
easily get connected emotionally through this trauma okay versus through
who, um, him actually pursuing you from a healthy place.
Okay.
Um, what I would really recommend is for you, like you can pray for him, but I
would just not try to fill that void for him.
And I know that can be really, um, because it sounds like you're a helper.
And oftentimes people that have mercy gifts and helper gifts, they can get very
overextended and, and not realize it.
And then they get very entangled with people.
And so what I want you to ask yourself as you're processing this again, it doesn't
mean you can't say anything kind to him or send him a prayer, but you can do that
without, you know, him thinking he can just come and text you anytime.
Okay.
Um, but what I want you to ask yourself in this is, um, what do I want for myself
in a relationship?
Okay.
And, you know, just thinking about, you know, do you want someone to lovingly
pursue you when the time is right?
Do you want someone that, you know, is marriage minded, which means that they
know they want to get married and they want to date with intentionality.
You know, do you want someone that has the capacity and space in
their heart and life right now?
You know, and I say those things because what can happen, and this is how, and
I'm not saying this would happen, but I feel like it's important kind of this,
with this dynamic brought up for me to talk about it for a moment.
Um, situationships can happen out of stuff like this, because you guys were
kind of close before, and then you stopped talking and then he popped back up.
And I'm not saying you guys, you know, maybe there is more to this one day,
but it sounds like, you know, you're in this place of healing and then this
situation is happening and it is a very sad thing.
It's very sad.
It's very hard.
Um, and I could see the enemy really using that to pull you right in.
Okay.
And so that's why I'm saying to you just, you know, it doesn't mean I'm
saying you can't talk to him at all, but just have very good boundaries
and keep that perspective in your mind.
You do not have to be his savior.
You do not have to be his lifeline.
You don't even have to be the person to comfort him in this season.
You don't, you know, and again, I'm not saying, and then that might
sound harsh to people already.
Yes.
And, and the reality of this is that people need to get their main source from the
Lord and then, you know, counselors and other people, and, and oftentimes
ladies and gentlemen do this too.
Unfortunately, we will, we will feel that deep need to help someone and
we'll just lay aside our own needs to go help them.
And again, just that balance is going to be key for you because you're in a season
of taking care of yourself right now.
And so of course the enemy would want to draw you away from that
to go take care of someone else.
Does that make sense?
Yeah.
Feel that a lot.
Yeah.
And it like, and like, I can't keep moving forward in what I, my goals are.
If I keep like taking detours on this.
Yeah, that's right.
Yep.
And, and you matter just as much as everybody else.
So like, I don't remember if I said it last week or the week before, but just
that reminder of when we're on airplanes, you know, they remind us all the time,
put on our oxygen mask first before we would put it on our kids or whatever.
And there's a reason for that.
So you're in this place right now where it's going to be really important for you
to put that oxygen mask on yourself to really lean into, okay, the lies where
the enemy is saying you want, you're, you're probably not going to get to
accomplish your dreams.
Like, what are the lies that are fueling that in your life, in your mind?
And where did those begin?
What's the root of that?
Um, and, and lean into that a little more, but I feel like I've given you, I
don't want to give you too much.
Um, I feel like you shared very courageously and you were
very honest about this guy.
A lot of, there's a lot of women that would never even say that happened.
Um, and again, we're going to just be praying for you.
I really am sorry about him and his sister and his family.
Uh, it's heartbreaking, uh, for her kids.
Um, but believing that God will, will see them through.
And I'll try to try to remember to cover that before we close tonight as well.
Oh, thank you so much for sharing with us. And hey, I
also just say, I love absolutely love that you said tonight, I
decided I'm gonna lock in. And I'm gonna be all here. Ladies,
did you? That was powerful. I'm gonna lock in. Even that even
that you said something really powerful. Not that it's bad that
you were coming from the gym, it was still good that you were
listening in. But even that the enemy tries to keep us so busy
so that we're not fully engaged in a course or something. Just
like I said, I bought a course I haven't worked on it yet. Why?
Because I've been sick. Like literally, the enemy has been
just sending constant things. So I were against this stuff too.
So ladies, I'm right there with you. Let's all lock in. Let's
lock in this week and keep showing up way to go. I love
that so much. Thank you so much. You're welcome. Wendy, go
ahead.
When if you're talking, we can't hear you.
I see you moving slightly, but I don't hear you.
Okay, we'll come right back to you. We'll come right back
because I can't hear you. Amanda, go ahead.
So, um, there's some things that I've been working through. And I
know that they are lies. Um, like, uh, my roots and fruits
tree, like there was some clear prophetic things. The Lord
to me through drawing lately, like even tonight, I was just
drawing and writing out scriptures and stuff. So that's
been really powerful. And so I know that, like, he keeps
speaking to me in truth. Um, I still feel overwhelmed.
Hopelessness is one of the things. Okay, I have some
hopelessness there. Um, but I'm not going to lie. I'm not going
to have some hopelessness there. Um, so, and it's kind of like,
I think what I feel like that, like, I was one of the ones it
was like, waiting for the other shoe to drop. Like, I've been
through this before. I've been through all of these things
before. How many layers do I have to get through? Um, to have
freedom? It's kind of the thing, like, when will I be
able to break free? And so like I said, I know, like, the Lord
has just been speaking so much through drawing really has been
one of the things just come out through writing, my hand is just
flowing. I still war within my mind of just hopelessness. And
it's a big battle. So.
So interesting. As you were sharing, I saw two things very
similar, but I want to share both. I saw a balloon with a
hole in it, but the balloon wasn't deflating. It just had a
hole in it. So it was a slow leak is what I heard the Lord
say. It was a slow leak. And then I saw a tire with a hole in
it. Very similar slow leak. And so I'm just going to pray for
you. And because I feel like this ties, it was as you were
talking about the hopelessness, I feel like there's kind of been
this hole that's causing this slow leak. So when you get hope
filled up, then it's like the slow leak that keeps leaking out.
And we need to understand what the hole is. We need to God to
reveal like what's creating that hole. It's not something you're
doing intentionally, Amanda. It could even just be like, it
makes me think up to like how the glory of the Lord is our
rear guard. Like sometimes things come in through the
backside. And we don't even know or the side, you know, when they
didn't have the protectors on the side of the armor, and
people would kind of stab through the side. It makes me
think of like something unknown, like you didn't even know it, it
hurt you when it happened. But I feel like it's what's draining
that in you. And so let me just pray for you. And let's see if
anything comes up. And even if you think it's small, let's just
you know, want to encourage you to share you see something you
hear something you know, and if nothing comes up tonight, and it
comes up in the days ahead, totally fine to share it in the
group, then. So Father, we just thank you so much that you know
the source of all the hopelessness that she has been
Amanda has been battling God, Lord, the balloon, the tire,
they had these slow leaks, God, and I believe that you're just
trying to say there's a source of the the leak of the hope in
her. So God, I thank you that you would reveal the source God
that you would show that
that wound or that area, that the brokenness from the past that has come in God and it's
created this hole that she doesn't even recognize is there. So Lord, I pray that you would reveal
these things, make them known to her, God, if it's a situation like, I don't know, even Lord,
maybe something happened in high school and she's long forgotten it or something in elementary
school, God, but whatever is causing her hope to fall short or to leak out God or for her to
feel like she can never actually walk in the fullness of the full measure of your hope, God,
I thank you that you would restore all the broken and fallen places in her that lead her to that
place and we just believe it, God, in Jesus' name and we declare supernatural healing and breakthrough,
break her anointing, be upon Amanda Morrison tonight, that she will no longer continue to
fight hopelessness, that she will be someone that walks in victory in the fullness of your hope
from day to day in Jesus' name, amen. And I just want to see if there's anything, and again,
no pressure if nothing came up, but is there anything that came to mind while I was praying
for you? Some things that came to mind, I want to do some revealing for healing kind of stuff,
some generational things came up, things that I may not have realized, there's some stuff that
I know and there's some little glimmers of things like things that were spoken out when I was young.
My grandmother, safety in men has been coming up lately and some other revealing like,
I think it's a message in my mind that's a block there that no man is safe.
Okay, so you're saying a lot of really important things here, Amanda, so I would encourage you
to continue kind of pulling this thread because I think the Lord's leading you into revelation here
because you were very confident. You're like, I think this is generational,
and knowing that your grandma must have been saying things to you that you heard,
is there any other things that you were going to say? I couldn't tell there.
Well, it was like, and then I'd have some like revealing for healing things like where my mind,
I realized like my dad wasn't safe in some ways, like he didn't ever physically harm me, but
he would go through bouts of depression and so neglect, like he just wasn't available.
That wasn't safe. Okay. Abandonment, you know, kind of thing. It could be that. Yeah. Okay, so
I also want you to pray and ask God to, I'm not saying that's not true about your dad, but I feel
specifically led to ask you to pray and ask the Lord to show you his perspective of your dad.
Okay. And just see what he shows you. I think that there's a new revelation he wants to bring
you about your dad. And it might even be before you were old enough to recognize that he wasn't
safe in some of those ways before some wounding came into his life that caused him to kind of
be in that depressive state. I feel like there's something God wants to show you about who your dad
really is and was before that stuff entered his life. It doesn't mean that he wasn't walking in
those things, but there is additional identity factors that, that the Lord wants you to understand
about your dad. And I feel like it's, it's going to bring connection in this generational stuff
that you're talking about as well. Yeah. And you can come in as God has shown you more stuff,
just come into the group and talk to us about it and let's see where this continues to unfold.
And I want you to really partner with Amanda. I can tell this has been a battle for a while,
but I want you to know there's going to come a day where this is going to come to an end for you
as far as like, you're not going to feel hopeless all the time.
Is that hard for you to believe when I say that to you? Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
So what I want you to do is ask the Lord when you were a kid,
when was a time that you were full of hope?
That something happened that it depleted your hope kind of like it could have been something
fast that depleted your hope or like that slow leak that I've been talking about
and see what God shows you regarding that as well.
Because we got to get to the root of when you lost hope for the first time.
Okay. Definition. That was one of the pictures that I drew like the self portrait. It's a girl
dancing. Yeah. That was a hopeful girl. It is. And I think, okay, so here's the thing. That's
a prophetic message for you. That's how God sees you. And that's what he wants to help you walk
into more and more and more.
And again, it's kind of like what I was saying earlier, it doesn't mean we're not going to have to fight the enemy regarding these things again.
But the reality is, is you're going to gain knowledge and wisdom as you're figuring this thing out.
And I'm just going to speak this over you. I heard it twice, so that's why I'm going to say it.
I feel like God's confirming the word to speak over you.
I think you're going to help other people break free from hopelessness as well, Amanda, because you're gaining really important revelation in this process.
And the things that you've been walking through over the years, so really just continue to believe that God has greater for you, that he has greater for you.
And that each step of the way, he's giving you a nugget. He's giving you a nugget. You're learning something.
And it's not your job to save them, to break them out. He's the breaker.
But even when I prayed over you, specifically, that God would bring his breaker anointing, it's him doing it in you.
He is your hope of glory. He is your hope. But it's learning how to live in that hope, too.
So I gave you a couple things. You might even want to go back and listen to this part of the replay so you can catch several of those things.
But definitely pray into those. Let's see what happens, what else starts to unfold, okay?
Okay. Thank you.
You're welcome.
Arianne, hi.
You're still muted.
You might be having connection issues. I'm not having a storm here, but maybe.
I might have lost her.
Shoot. All right, well.
Wendy, is your thing working?
I'm ready. I'm ready. I got it together. I'm sorry.
It's all right. Go ahead.
Say to Arianne, because I can tell she's not frozen. You froze on us, so I'll come right back to you, okay?
I don't know if she can hear me. Go ahead, Wendy.
I've been having trouble with friendships. I got depressed this last week about something.
And I think I didn't do some good things, you know, like against somebody that hurt me.
And I figured out what it was.
I tend to run away from things a lot.
And I was planning a trip, because I said, I'm burned out. I better go and go on a trip.
And the next morning, I was like, oh, that's what it was.
It was because you felt like this person didn't want to take responsibility for some advice that they gave you.
And you took their advice, and then she doesn't want to acknowledge it.
And I guess I'm just learning that I really need to just focus on myself and what I want and just move on.
You know, maybe this is not the right friend or the right person to be in my life.
Not because they're a bad person, but because it's just not my direction.
Yes, that could be true.
God could also be using this to reveal to you the importance of forgiving people, even if they make mistakes and giving advice.
But yeah, definitely pray into that.
I feel like this kind of parallels in the past, like, you know, entanglements or things that you had with siblings.
And now you have friendships.
You said plural, so I don't know if you're having some struggles in multiple friendships.
Okay, so if you see any of us, if any of us see similar patterns showing up over and over in different areas,
so not just familial relationships, but friendships, then that's something that we need to pay attention to.
So, for example, even though people were doing things that were mistreating me,
like my ex-husband, like my spiritual daughter's dad, like another guy I dated,
the reality was, is I was attracting the same kind of person.
Okay?
I was choosing to allow those people to mistreat me.
And so I had to look at, I was the common denominator there.
Right?
Yes, I'm doing.
Yeah, and I had to look at, okay, where do I need to heal and grow?
And it might be like, you might need to like shift some of the friends that you have, Wendy.
You might have to shift how you react when someone does something that ends up hurting you in some way, shape, or form.
You know, do we retaliate when people do something?
Do we love them?
Do we forgive?
Or do we hold offense and, you know, react versus respond?
And so really looking at what's the common thread?
What is God trying to show you?
I love that.
you saw that you were running. And so hopefully you're resisting that desire or urge to run.
And instead, you know, maybe God's asking you to process this and stay, you know. So whether that
means stay in the friendship or stay in the moment, you'll have to kind of flesh that out
with the Lord. But I want to encourage you to keep looking at, you know, that similarity there and see
what the Lord might be trying to heal in you and grow in you so that you don't have those same kind
of struggles in friendships and relationships. Okay. I've just started the forgiveness. I've
started thinking about doing a forgiveness parachute on her. So I've started that process
in the mindset. That's awesome. That's a great start. Let us know how that goes for you. Okay.
Okay, thanks. All right. You're welcome. Thank you for sharing. Arianne.
You froze on us. There you go. Yeah, you told me. Okay. I don't you heard anything I said,
or I start over? No, we heard nothing. You heard nothing. That's bad. Okay. Um,
yeah, I think I said it in the past too. I don't feel competent.
Um, I get stuck in certain situations that happen, I get a lot of stress. And then I,
I don't know how to get out of it. And how to, I think it's a thought of while we were talking,
like, the fear of there is no backup. There was nobody I could lean on. And I don't know how to
get out. The last time it happened, okay, I'm now in the States. I had a trip with three with three
flights. I'm at my son's place. But there's so many red flags. And I, I don't know how to handle
it. I'm just I need some duct tape, something like that. Um, I had three flights coming here.
And then there was two delays and two changes. And and I had like 37 hours. So my my thing is,
is this a medical situation? Because I have bills for stress, but I'm just recently so I
or is it spiritual? Probably both because, you know, it's hanging in the situation like I feel
incompetent when I don't know how to respond, right? I don't know how to get back on track.
Um, yeah, I get blinded. And then I feel incompetent for anything, actually,
because it's so basic. And so primarily.
Okay. It's okay. I was just making sure you were you were not gonna didn't have anything else you
wanted to say? Well, we know, number one, we know that you're not incompetent. Okay,
because you're really smart. We have conversations on a regular basis,
you hold very healthy conversation, you know how to process things that are emotional,
people that were incompetent would not be able to do those things are on Okay, so we can reject
that lie right out of the gate. Okay. And I know that you guys I never try to minimize because for
some people, these are these are very hard things because they've been told by other people in their
life that they are incompetent. But that's not true. So this is a part of you learning how to
have a new tape system in your, you know, and back in the day, there used to be cassette tapes,
we were talking about that a couple of us this weekend, there's, there's no more cassettes. But
for those of you that know what cassettes are, you got to put a new cassette tape in your tape
player so that you hear a new message, right? Um, you know, here's the reality, I think,
you know, when you have all those flight delays, and all that time, pretty much,
everyone would be really tired with that. Okay. And so I don't want you to believe the lie that
you're like this. Like you have all these physical failures, like your body is terrible. Like,
you are Yes, I think that your body endures stress just from things that you've talked to me about
before during sessions. And you are learning how your body is learning how to be stronger.
As you're, you know, processing emotional wounding and the things from the past you've been through
so much. So it's very common for our bodies, you know, to not know how to handle stress,
like some other people. But the reality is, that's a long time, I would be exhausted if that was me.
So I want you to know, like, I don't think there's something massively wrong with you,
because you're tired. And is it attacking of the enemy, it might be, it could just be that,
you know, you had a really rough trip. And unfortunately, things didn't go like peacefully.
Like they
might have at other times. But I want to kind of encourage you for whatever reason, because a lot
of times I might be like, Yeah, I think the enemy, you know, was warring, but I just feel led to
actually ask you to not partner with that. Because I think this was just the mishaps of travel that
happens sometimes. And sometimes we need to not make everything I mean, everything is spiritual.
Okay, you guys, everything is spiritual. But I think there are times we need to not over
spiritualize something because it actually gives the enemy more authority than he needs to be given.
Okay, but I like to have a grip on it. Like, yeah, it became a drama in the airport. Really?
I mean, oh, I, I can imagine I if that again, if that were me, and I had three flights,
and there were a bunch of delays, I think that would have felt like some drama for me too.
And so I think it's just our yarn, like, reminding yourself that even though those
are things that you went through that you can return to a place of peace inside of yourself
in your mind, you're not going to partner with I'm incompetent, because that's not true about you.
Right. I think I have a problem to go back to there. As now I am here.
I say this nice. I asked for help, and then I get like, dismissed or no time. Actually,
that's a lot of stress. There's a lot of stress here. Okay. So yesterday, I just took,
I don't want to be here. That's it. It's the same thing as before I think come back,
like, I want to disappear. And it's a mistake. And there's no place.
I don't know how to be me. Maybe I don't know. So I just took a walk. I got lost here. But
and I missed church. But do you and your son get along?
Basically, yes. But he also has a lot of pain from the past from my, my raising him. Yeah,
by myself. Yeah. So it's gonna be normal to not feel comfortable when you are with someone that
they they've been hurt by choices that have been made. And you guys have to process things. That's
gonna be hard for anybody. But it's it I do think it probably is a good thing you're there. I think
that allowing God to continue to heal you in this process versus kind of like what I was saying to
Wendy, instead of us running, we feel it. Remember, we feel the feel so that God can heal the field.
So we feel what's happening in this moment in this situation. And we say, Lord, what are you
trying to show me through this right now? Is it that I need to forgive my son because he's upset
Is it that I need to forgive my son because he's upset with me? And he you know, I don't know what's
happening. But just is it that I need to give my son grace because of what happened and give myself
grace as well. I don't need to disappear. I matter and God you created me and you wanted me to be on
the earth. And so I'm not going to partner with that lie and go into hiding. While I'm here in
this tough situation. Do you all see how that works? Like the enemy will want us when we're in
a difficult situation. I even feel this when people we have issues with people in the church.
I don't want to see those people. I will even like, I don't want to have to get up on the stage
and talk today because you know, I have all these but I have to resist that stuff. I have to decide
that I'm not going to go into hiding. I'm not going to allow the enemy to intimidate me or even
my own internal thoughts about myself or other people to intimidate me.
Am I kind of out of balance that I only have because I'm so limited that I know I go with
the family and that's not supportive. Okay, he lives together.
I think I think the tough thing is that your family has a lot of brokenness, Arianne,
and it takes time to heal. It takes time for reconciliation. And not every family is going to
be back like is going to know how to become like a happy family, if you will. So for example,
I don't spend a lot of time with my siblings. My both of my parents are already passed away. I
don't have any grandparents left. I have my two brothers and my sister and all three of those
people abused me in my life repeatedly. I don't feel like I've prayed a lot through this. I go
around them at certain times, like when my dad passed away, my niece is going to get married,
most likely I'm going to go for her wedding. But I don't feel called to be around them all the time.
That's just something between me and the Lord. Everybody's walk is
different. And so I think it is important for you to pray and ask the Lord what his plan and
direction is for you, and then be confident in walking that out. But if you just feel like running,
we have to remember that our feelings don't belong in the driver's seat.
Okay, so you can remember, I'm saying that we can stand in the midst of hardship,
feel it, but not partner with, I need to disappear. I shouldn't be here. I can't handle this. We need
to say, you know, God, I thank you that you're going to give me the grace to walk through this
and learn how to become stronger as I go. This is about you learning how to become stronger
and heal. Yeah. He also lives now with a, I mean, engaged, but she's controlling. He just follows
me where I go, what I eat, where I sleep, anything. It's, and he, he loves her. Okay.
Yeah, you might have to set some boundaries there if she's following you into where you sleep. But
if she's just trying to get to know you, that's different, you know, unhealthy, controlling.
Okay. Well then maybe just, you know, you might need to set some healthy boundaries with her in
a kind way. Okay. And, uh, we will be praying for you about that. I I'm trusting the Lord will show
you how to navigate this. How long are you visiting? Um, 20 days. So I have another big week.
Yeah. Okay. All right. Well, let's, let's believe that God is going to give you the grace
and the courage to be there and walk this out and be a light for, for Christ while you're there.
Okay. Yeah. All right. You're welcome. We're going to be praying for you. I'm going to go
ahead and pray us out. Ladies. Father, thank you so much for this night. We thank you God,
for everything that's already been accomplished, the things that are still going to be accomplished
in the days to come. God, we thank you for revealings, for healing happening one after
another, after another, after another God, we thank you that you would bind the strong man in
our hearts, in our lives, that you would break every spirit of fear off of us in Jesus name.
And by the power of your blood, Jesus, that we would not be attacked by anxious thoughts or
anxiety attacks, despair, panic, dread, worry. We just say be gone in Jesus name.
And we declare that we will be filled with a spirit of love and of power and of a sound mind.
And we thank you Jesus for loosing that into our lives. We thank you Lord for lifting up this
family where he lost his sister and those kids have lost their mom. We ask you to comfort them
and keep them to be near to them. Your word declares that you are near to the brokenhearted
and those who are crushed in spirit. So God, thank you that that's the truth for that family
tonight. Be close to us as well. Protect us and keep us safe in Jesus name. Amen. Amen.
We went extra long tonight. We won't always do that, but I just felt led to go ahead and
let everybody go tonight. Bless you all. We'll be back again. Live next week.
We'll be from eight to nine 30 next week. Okay. Have a good night, everyone. Bye-bye.