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Hi ladies, welcome to our 8 p.m. evening session of heartwork tonight.

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So glad to be here with all of you.

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If you've never met me before, my name is Bethany Cooper.

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I'm one of the master heartwork coaches here in the community.

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I think some of you I met for the first time this afternoon.

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If you're new, you're joining us for the first time tonight.

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Would love for you to put that in the chat so that we can welcome you.

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Sorry, I'm just looking for something for a placeholder real quick and a book.

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So anyone new joining us tonight, so if you joined live session this afternoon, that technically

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was your first live session.

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If you're joining us again, welcome to all of our ladies joining us for another round

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of heartwork.

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Couple housekeeping things tonight, just as a reminder for you all, this is just a normal

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last year single community guideline.

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Even if it might be great content, it might be ministering to you, that's just not something

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we allow in our community.

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And so we take all of that down and it's not to offend you or upset you in any kind of

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Every few weeks mention that so that people don't get their feelings hurt.

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So if you're posting things, even a positive prophetic thought, if it's not from our community,

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we'll go ahead and take that down.

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But know that we love you and I'm so glad that those things are blessing you, but that's

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just a part of our community guidelines and things.

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Just because some things are more simple, but then sometimes people want to post sermons

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that stuff to make sure that it aligns with what we believe here in the community.

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Supernatural Saturday, if y'all didn't hear it yet, it is on What Does God Say?

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But man, it's packed full of so much more than that, so highly recommend you take a

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listen to that when you can.

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That's under the replay tab.

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If you didn't know, we put up what we call a weekly roll call post on Sundays.

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This is basically a recap of those Supernatural Saturday calls.

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If we do just a Saturday that's prayer, we don't tend to put those up for that, but those

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are not to take place of listening to the Supernatural Saturday.

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It's supposed to be kind of like an additional component to help you read and kind of process

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and meditate and help you just have some of the key takeaways that you can go back and

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reference in the days and weeks ahead.

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Again, welcome if you're just now joining us, so glad to have you here with us tonight.

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Please let me know in the chat if you're joining us for the first time, if this is

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your first live session.

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We want to welcome you.

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Again, welcome back to all my ladies that have been here before.

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All right, so Emma, first time, welcome.

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The only person I see on screen tonight is myself, so you all know what I'm about to

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say for those of you that have been here before.

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Would love to see you all come on screen and be here with me so I'm not staring at myself

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and your name on your screen.

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It really changes and transforms the experience of our HeartWork Live sessions, and so love

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to see you all come on screen.

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Thanks Kim and Catherine.

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I know sometimes people aren't able, so totally get that, but if you're able, would love to

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see you.

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So this evening, we're going to talk about submission.

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I'm going to go ahead and pray.

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I do have some other thoughts that I want to share with you before I dive into the submission,

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and so we're going to go ahead and get started right now.

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Father, thank you.

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Thank you for everything that you're doing in our hearts and our lives, God.

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We thank you for just grace and forgiveness in the difficult moments, God.

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We thank you for revealings, for healing that are already happening.

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God, we know that you're the one that brings supernatural revelation and insight and breakthrough.

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God, we know that your truth is what sets us free, but also Lord, our response to the

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truth.

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Lord, help us to hear what your spirit is saying louder than any voice of the enemy

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and to partner with that truth and to unlearn the negative lies and behaviors and mindsets

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that we've partnered with for some of us for many years, some of us our whole lives.

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Some of us grew up hearing certain things that just don't sound like heaven.

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So Lord, I pray that you would help us to come out of alignment and agreement with lies

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that don't sound like you, that do not emanate the heart and the mind of heaven, and I thank

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you that you would help us to come further into alignment with your truth, with your

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freedom, with your hope, with your life.

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God, we know that you are the one that transforms us from the inside out, and we're just asking

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you to have your way in our hearts, our minds, our bodies, our spirits, and our souls.

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Yes, Lord, help us to dial in tonight, to really hone in and hear and lean into what

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you're saying to us and help us to be able to apply it in the days to come.

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to come in Jesus name. So a couple things I shared with the ladies this afternoon, right

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before I logged in, I actually led the 1pm session today as well, for at least the beginning

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part because Andrea had an appointment. And where I sit here in the house to do my live

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sessions at this time, it kind of faces all of our front windows of our house and for

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a couple weeks now I haven't opened the windows just because people can kind of see right

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in too. But today I felt led earlier today to open the windows and I was just sitting

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here for a few minutes before the first live session and the way that our house is set

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up, we're literally across from an elementary school and where I'm looking when the windows

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open is like straight across to a playground. Now school is out for summer and so today

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the playground was empty you all, no activity over there. And literally I was just kind

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of contemplating that just a few weeks ago, maybe even a week ago, it was full. There

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were kids running around all over the place, screaming, chasing each other, one group after

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the other after the other when they would go to recess. Why am I sharing that with you

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tonight? Well here's why. As I was contemplating the change from just one week to the next

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and then I started thinking about the fact that right now the playground looks empty,

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seems empty, looks empty, it is empty when I'm looking at it. But the reality is that

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playground still has potential, it still has a purpose and so even though there's not kids

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running around on it right now, the playground still has the same purpose, it still has the

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same capabilities, it's just that the season is different right now. And I started thinking

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about how that can apply to our love stories, that so many of us are looking at our situations

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and we're looking at it and we're like, paraphrasing here, the playground's empty, my love story

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is empty, this is broken, I can't do this, God picks everybody else but he doesn't pick

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me. We're looking at this scenario and we're deciding that there's no potential there because

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all we can see is what our physical eyes see in that moment. But what I want to encourage

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you and ask you and invite you into tonight is to expand the way that you're looking at

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your life, at your heart healing journey, at the process that God has you in, your love

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story. Remember we believe, or excuse me, we become what we believe. So if you're believing

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that God's never going to come through for you, well isn't that kind of contradicting

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the whole journey of going towards your love story? And you're internally sabotaging your

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own love story because it says that we can't be double-minded, right? So tonight I want

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to invite you to come a little further out of double-mindedness, to really continue to

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ask the Lord to reveal the lies that you're believing that are causing you to think negative

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things about yourself, your love story, about God's promises for you, that are causing you

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to look at your story, to look at your life and see all the things that it's not versus

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what it is, what is happening, how far have you grown even in a day, maybe a week. Some

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of you have grown exponentially even in the few months' time that you've been here in

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the program. But so often we're looking at other people's lives and we're comparing ourselves

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to where they're at, what they have, and then we're partnering with the lie, we don't have

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it and maybe we're never going to have it, which is what the enemy wants us to do. I

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loved the powerful statement when Jackie was talking on Saturday, the reality is this,

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the enemy, when she was talking, if you all haven't heard it yet, again, just another

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plug, she was talking about how God was the one that created, the enemy can't create,

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and then God created us and he put everything in us that enables us to create things with

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our words, with the things that we do. And so why does the enemy try to get us to believe

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a lie and then speak a lie and partner with that? Well, because we're the only ones that

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can create something. And so if we're partnering with the lies and we're, we're speaking death,

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if you will, well, then we're creating something negative. And it's counter acting against

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the positive. Again, God understands why we can be double-minded at times. You know,

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the man in the Bible that said, I believe, help my unbelief. I believe that was written

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in there because God understands the reality of what we face. Jesus was always God, even

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though he came down in the form of man. We have to learn how to become like Christ. We

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have to learn how

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to think like Christ. So tonight, where do you need to come out of agreement with the lie that

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your season, your playground if you will, your love story isn't happening, isn't going to happen

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because you're looking at it right now and you're just looking at it from the lens of,

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I don't see anything working, I don't see anything happening. But the spirit is crying out to say,

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are you going to ask me, imagine the Holy Spirit asking you this, are you going to ask me to show

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you what I see for your love story, what I see for your life, what I see for your destiny,

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whose report are we going to believe, who are we going to partner with? And y'all, I'm not saying

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this is easy, okay? It is a battle for our minds, for our hope, for the promises that God has for

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us, but God hasn't put us in this battle to not be victorious. He gave us all the ability to be

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victorious. He sent Jesus, his one and only son to die on the cross, to shed his blood for our

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freedom, for our victory, and part of our journey of sanctification is learning how to become like

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Christ, but also learning how to apply the blood of Christ, the truth of the power of who he is

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to our life and our story. It's a learning, it's something that's going to take time.

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And so randomly enough, I've still been kind of struggling with sickness and getting over,

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and this afternoon I just felt like the poor ladies heard me just still so congested, so

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I decided to make a cup of tea for tonight, just in case if I'm having trouble, and just to clear

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up my throat and stuff. And I know this might seem like how does this connect, but I just didn't

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think this was an accident. My little teabag thing says the creation of a thousand forests

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is in one acorn. One acorn can create a whole forest, and I just stood there kind of thinking,

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well it's really the same thing regarding a positive thought. One positive thought

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could create a whole forest of growth in your life. So where do you need an upgrade in the

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revelation of God's plan, his thoughts towards you, your love story? Asking for the upgrades,

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lady. I can't do it without him. Even this afternoon I got so frustrated with something

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someone was doing, not in our community, outside of the community here, and even tonight I was just

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like, Lord, forgive me for being so frustrated, because that's not where I want to be. That's not

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where I want to live. Yes, I feel things, but man, I want my flesh under subjection.

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I want to think what God thinks. So as we talk tonight, we're going to talk about submission,

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and I didn't even make this connection until right now, but part of the way we learn to

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walk in submission is to also get our minds, our thoughts to submit to the truth of Christ. That's

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why the Bible talks about take every thought captive and make it obedient to Jesus Christ,

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to the truth of his word. So we partner with God in that process. Now that isn't exactly the angle

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that I was going to bring submission tonight, and I used that scripture this afternoon, but I didn't

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even think about the fact that that is us submitting to the word of God and the word of truth

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over ourselves and our life and our story. So tonight I just want to remind you that as we

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talk about submission, that God will not trespass in your life. He won't. What do I mean by that?

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Well, God is a gentleman, and the way that things work in the kingdom is even Jesus himself

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stands at the door of our hearts and he knocks. He asks for permission to enter.

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We invite him to come into our heart and lives and transform us.

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So he's not going to force his way on you. He's not going to force and kick down the door. He's

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going to ask you. He's going to knock on your heart, sometimes through those revealings for

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healing, and he's going to say, hey, hey, Tatiana, I know you feel weary and tired, but I have another

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revelation for you. I want to show you what the root of that weariness and despair, where that

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despair, where that comes from. And I want to set you free from that.

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Will you let me come into that despair in that place? I'm just, I'm just kind of riffing with

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this a little bit. I'm going with the flow of the spirit. I don't even know fully. She's

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been feeling those things, but I want you all to kind of make this real to you.

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Where has your struggle been?

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And where is God knocking on the door of your heart?

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And he's asking if he can come into that tender area, that painful memory,

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that trauma that you've been through.

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And it's up to you to give him permission to enter.

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We talk in this community a lot about do not enter signs on our heart.

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I want you to literally think about the fact that some of you, whether you

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realize it or not, have these, do not enter signs on your heart regarding

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even God connecting with you, let alone other people you're going on dates and

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you're trying to interact with the other, the men in the world, but you're kind of

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like, we've got these signs like F off, like literally on the inside of us

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because we don't like men or we believe that men are bad or that men are just

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out for one thing and all they want is our body.

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Well, yeah, some men act like that, but you know what?

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Some women act like that too.

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Truth.

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We hear it from our healthy men all the time too.

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So we can allow God to come in and work in those areas.

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Take down those signs.

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Stop believing all the things that are not true.

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God is a giver and one of the most beautiful gifts he has ever given us is

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free will free will to choose free will to partner with him.

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He respects our boundaries.

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He's not going to force things on us.

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And if that's something that you believe, I really want to encourage you to ask the

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Lord where that belief came from.

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That God just forces you to do things.

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Y'all.

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Yes, we have consequences when we don't walk in God's will and

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plan when we choose sinful life.

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But so often we blame God and we say he's not good or that he forces us to do things.

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No, he's just inviting us into a healthier, abundant life.

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It's up to us whether we choose to do that and live that way or not.

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It is for our own good that he invites us into those things.

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Submission.

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Something I want to talk about.

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I think it's super important as we have this conversation is that there have been

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religious men and women in our lives that have weaponized the word submission.

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They've portrayed their thoughts and messages as from God himself, but they've

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actually been misrepresenting God as well as his heart and truth regarding

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what submit actually means.

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The Holy Spirit is the one who can help us have discernment to know what God's

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truth is about submission more and more and more in the days to come.

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But we must be willing to allow God to heal us from every area of the past where

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we have now created through partnering with the lies, misconceptions, and belief

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systems that are faulty and they're preventing us from living full, abundant,

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healthy, amazing lives.

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Colossians 3.21 in the NIV version says this, fathers do not embitter your

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children or they will become discouraged.

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I talk about this a lot because I think that it really matters.

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And this scripture, when it talks about provoke, it's to stir up, to excite, to

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stimulate, especially to anger.

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And I think it's important to point out that I don't, I'd have to actually look

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up to see what, you know, the Strong's Concordance says regarding fathers.

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But I just know that not only biological fathers or grandfathers, but fathers in

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the sense of spiritual fathers, like bosses that I've had, people that have

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been an authority over me.

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A lot of times I believe this also represents mothers, some mothers who have

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been walking in very masculine energy, very brazen, very harsh.

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I'm not saying moms weren't called to set healthy boundaries for their kids, but

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ladies, sometimes as moms, we, we kind of bring a heavy hand and we think we have

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to do that and it, it isn't actually true.

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It's us partnering with this masculine energy that was never intended for us.

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When it says that the kids will be discouraged if the fathers provoke them

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to anger, it actually means to be disheartened, to be dispirited, to be broken

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in spirit, to be dismayed.

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So I want to just ask you all to be thinking about in your life, have there ever been

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seasons or times where someone has said something to you, done something, wounded

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you in some way that was an authority over you, where they, you know, examples, I gave

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this.

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where I kept thinking of like times that I've heard people say like just shut up

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and listen or because I said so and they don't want to give any explanation to

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the kids and the kids aren't even meaning anything wrong by asking like

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hey what's what's going on with this or you know the kids are like why do I have

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to do this they're just curious but the parents are you know no and I'm not

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trying to judge because I think sometimes that happens when parents are

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just tired maybe they have an over curious kid and they're just tired of

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explaining I don't know where it comes from for some people but I'm just saying

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that that can be very damaging for children to be talked to that way one of

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the other things I gave as an example the company I used to work for my boss

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was a Christian nice guy did a lot of really great things but it kind of was a

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boys club where I worked and so the men I'm not saying women never got promoted

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and that I never got a raise but I definitely did not feel like women had

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the same opportunity for advancement there and I worked really really hard

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for them even the last year or so that I worked there I was promised a promotion

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a title change and then he never gave it to me so just I'm gonna have another

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example regarding the same man but I want you to think about this think about

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if I then projected that on to God because here's my boss saying here's

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gonna be this new title this new promotion I'm gonna give you and for a

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year and a half he dangled it kind of in front of me this is where a lot of

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people believe this is how they believe God is like this that he just dangles

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carrots in front of us but he's never gonna give it to us see if I had

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believed that God is the same way as he was then I probably would believe that

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the other thing on my last day there they threw me a party I was getting

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ready to move to Indiana Brian and I were definitely moving forward towards

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marriage and we wanted to be more intentional to date on a more regular

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basis and so I made the choice to move to Indiana and they threw me a going

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away party the plan was for me I offered to work long term for them hybrid they

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only were willing to do it for a few months which was great but in that I

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also kind of told them like what my plan was going forward I was gonna I was

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gonna launch out to do my own business I was gonna become a contractor and I was

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sharing freely because they weren't willing to allow me to work past a few

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more months and they knew that I was moving to grow in relationship with

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Brian and on my last day he made several statements in a room full of all of my

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colleagues he basically said Bethany's gonna go do something and you know try

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to do something on her own hopefully that will work out for her it was very

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demeaning and really treated me like I didn't know what I was doing and then he

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proceeded to go on and say and she's in this relationship and you know she's

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moving to another state she's hoping to get married hopefully that will work out

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for her in front of all these people this is this is a place where I worked

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for you all 12 years these people knew me they knew my character they knew my

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belief in Christ this wasn't just I just decided to do some whimsical thing

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anyways the reason I say that is that sometimes I think when we talk about harm

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and hurt from people in authority over us we tend to think of the really harsh

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mean things that people have said or done but that to me was so embarrassing

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and I really carried that for a long time so it's been four years since that

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time since that happened and you know I'm still continuing to heal from that

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I've had several dreams over the years helping me process it literally like two

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or three months ago I had a dream that I was in a courtroom with him and in the

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courtroom he was actually asking me to testify on their behalf very interesting

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and so you know as I continue to process this and really put that before the Lord

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and seek the Lord regarding okay God what are you trying to show me the

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reality is is God is showing me that there's still stuff on the inside that

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still needs worked out regarding that dynamic I was really let down by that

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because I looked up to him you know we put people on pedestals and we expect

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them to not make mistakes right and so I've had to learn how to extend grace to

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him I don't think he meant to be like I don't know that he meant to embarrass me

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but he did and there may come a day where I will write him a letter and tell

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him that is something I've been praying about so I want to circle back to you

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You don't have to say anything in the chat or anything right now, but I want you to be thinking

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about when were the times that someone, an authority over you, again this was a man,

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an authority over me that said something that I felt incredibly embarrassed by in front of a

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whole group of my colleagues. Maybe for you it's another scenario or another story. It could have

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been in elementary school. You know, you have to ask the Lord what those things are for you.

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But here's the thing, God is not like that. So it's important for us to grow in our understanding

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of God's character. Who is God? And what do we really believe about him? It's vital to our

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healing process and to step further into freedom and the fullness of God's plans and promises for

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our lives by understanding, okay God show me who you are more as love. God show me who you are as

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kind, as faithful, as good, as peace. Yeah, I know that when we get saved we believe these things. I

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think a lot of us learn them as we go, but I promise you if you will pray and ask God to show

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you these things more, he will. He's done it for me. I believe he'll do it for you as well. The

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word submission actually means to yield to the power of another, to yield, to let go in the process,

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to learn how to trust God more, to be willing to submit to the absolute and greater truth

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than what has happened or is happening in our lives right now. When we know the one we're

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submitting to and we trust them, key there, that is what can help us choose to submit to them.

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So who are we asking you to submit to? Number one, to God. The key is being rooted in his love though.

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Do you know that when we are full of the understanding of God's love for us, remember

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perfect love casts out all fear because fear has to do with torment. So if we're afraid to submit

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to God, if we're afraid to fully surrender our love story to God that letting him write the pen,

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well then that shows us that we need more understanding and revelation of his love

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because the love is what casts out the fear.

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So maybe some of you need, again, a fresh infusion of God's love, a fresh revelation of his love

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because out of the fullness, the filling of his love, then out of the overflow of that is when

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we should choose to submit. Now it is a choice that we make or can make. Again, God's not going

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to force you, but he wants us to choose out of a place and position of love and understanding.

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Submission is not about someone dominating us, controlling us, or us dominating and controlling

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other people. I have learned this more and more and more over the years. Submission is truly about

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total surrender and submission to one another, teamwork you all. Submission is truly about

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teamwork. Again, this isn't something you're going to do with someone you can't trust at all.

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This is about submitting in love to one another when you find a spirit mate that you can trust,

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someone that's healthy, that you can do life with. God has that for us. Again, like if God

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can do it for me, you all, he can do it for you. Revelation 3.20 says, behold, I stand at the door

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and knock. This is the scripture I was referencing earlier. If anyone hears my voice and opens the

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door, I will come into them and they will eat with me and he, I'm sorry, they, ah, I'm messing it up.

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I will come into him and eat with him and he with me. I was getting it all twisted there for a minute.

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I love to think about this perspective. I want you to think about maybe one of your

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most favorite dinners that you've had with a friend. You know, you're sharing a meal with

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someone 10, 10, like for me, this is me again. I'm not saying this is how it is for you all,

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but I tend to feel closer to people when I'm sharing a meal with them. We're bonding. We're

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growing together. I tend to let my guard down a little bit more, especially if they're people

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that I trust. And so when God is saying, Hey, like I'm standing at the door and I'm knocking,

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if you hear my voice and you open the door, I'm going to come in and I'm going to eat with you.

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And you're going to eat with me and we're going to have intimacy. We're going to have closeness.

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So in your heart healing process, we're going to encourage you to remember that God is a gentleman.

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He's not trying to plow the door down and force you into this process.

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He's inviting you into something wonderful and freeing and healing. Job 22 verse 21 in the NLT

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says this, submit to God and you will have peace. Then things will go well with you. Submit to God.

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and you will have peace, then things will go well with you.

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Peace here in the Hebrews word,

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it actually means to be in covenant of peace,

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to complete, to finish, to make whole, to restore.

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God is saying, if you will submit to me,

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I'm gonna come into covenant of peace with you.

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I promise to finish the work, to complete the work in you,

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to restore you to wholeness,

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then things will go well with you.

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Again, it's, do we trust that God's plan

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for us is really good?

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I know a lot of us say we do,

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but the way we're living life out,

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the things that we're doing and saying,

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sometimes they're telling a different story.

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trust God from the bottom of your heart.

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Don't try to figure out everything on your own.

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Listen for God's voice in everything that you do,

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everywhere that you go.

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He is the one who will keep you on track.

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Don't assume that you know it all.

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So ladies, we're gonna go into breakout session.

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This is your question for tonight.

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Do you struggle with submission and why?

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That's what we're gonna talk about with each other.

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If you don't struggle with submission at all,

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you can share that story because some people don't.

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Some people have really good experiences,

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really good home, they really understand

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what God's word says, God's love for them.

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So some of you all, if that's your story

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and that's where you're at,

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some of you are a little further along in the heart work,

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you can even say, this is what I felt and believed

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when I came in, this is where I'm at now.

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Whatever you feel led to share,

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I wanna encourage you to do that.

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God has something really great

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for the breakout sessions tonight.

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I'll be praying for all of you all when you go in there.

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Let me get these set up for ya.

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For those of you that are brand new,

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just know that if you get in a room

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or you're the only one that's in there,

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so just wait there, I'll move you around on the back end.

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I am gonna do three ladies per room.

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So keep it short, brief, and powerful, ladies.

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you can just get to know each other.

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Where are you from?

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What are some things you like to do?

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How's heart work going for ya?

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Whatever you wanna talk about, okay?

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So I'm putting seven minutes on the timer.

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Let's see, two, four, six.

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I kinda went quicker tonight, that was good.

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All right, here we go.

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Go ahead and click to join these rooms.

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Try to click those as quick as you can.

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All right, awesome.

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all the ladies have someone in their rooms.

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Father, thank you so much for this night.

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Thank you, God, for what you're doing

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in our hearts and our minds and our spirits.

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God, I thank you for just a reminder

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that you love us

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and that you're always working in our lives.

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And even when we can't see it, God, that you're working.

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Just like simple things,

433
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like you showed me that playground today

434
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to remind me, not just the ladies,

435
00:33:31.100 --> 00:33:34.060
that there's different seasons and times to things,

436
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but the potential doesn't leave.

437
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So God, we thank you for the promises

438
00:33:38.380 --> 00:33:39.460
and the plans that you have

439
00:33:39.460 --> 00:33:41.780
for every one of the ladies that are here live,

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those that are in the breakouts,

441
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those that are gonna watch the replay.

442
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God, I pray that you would just help them.

443
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Yes, Lord, that you would bring to life

444
00:33:51.060 --> 00:33:52.700
the plans and promises that you have

445
00:33:52.700 --> 00:33:55.380
for them more and more in the days to come.

446
00:33:55.380 --> 00:33:56.780
God, where there's been despair,

447
00:33:56.780 --> 00:33:58.060
where there's been hope deferred,

448
00:33:58.060 --> 00:33:59.980
God, we just ask you right now tonight

449
00:33:59.980 --> 00:34:03.380
to breathe fresh hope into them.

450
00:34:03.380 --> 00:34:05.860
God, we know that a tree of life can spring up

451
00:34:05.860 --> 00:34:06.980
and create all kinds of things.

452
00:34:06.980 --> 00:34:08.739
Just like I talked about with that quote,

453
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one acorn can create a whole forest, God.

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We thank you that you would help us

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00:34:13.100 --> 00:34:15.260
to receive a revelation truth,

456
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the freedom statement, if you will,

457
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that we can cling to tonight

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and in the days to come.

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And in the days to come

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so that we can be transformed from the inside out,

461
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that we can believe the new story

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00:34:27.659 --> 00:34:29.340
that you want us to partner with.

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God, we thank you that you would remove every obstacle.

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Yes, Lord.

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Every distraction, every barrier to our love story,

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to the fullness of your plans and promises

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00:34:40.739 --> 00:34:42.260
in every area of our lives,

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including our finances, our families.

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We thank you, God, for reconciliation.

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Lord, we thank you for healing,

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physically, mentally, emotionally,

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spiritually, financially.

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God, I thank you.

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What's coming up in my spirit is there's this thing in.

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um leadership circles uh let me just make sure sarah and tracy did you guys get kicked out

476
00:35:07.040 --> 00:35:10.640
you can unmute if you just joined i can put you in a room too

477
00:35:21.280 --> 00:35:23.680
are you waiting for me sarah to put you in a room sorry i'm just

478
00:35:24.640 --> 00:35:28.160
oh it's okay sorry i thought you were you might have been talking to one of the other ladies on

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00:35:28.240 --> 00:35:33.120
here so yeah i'm totally good to go in a room okay let me put you in this first one only two ladies

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in there awesome go ahead we have like five more minutes so where we just thank you that you um i

481
00:35:39.760 --> 00:35:44.320
don't even remember what i was praying but that's totally fine um but god that you're working in our

482
00:35:44.320 --> 00:35:52.000
lives we thank you that um yeah lord that you would just breathe life into every area that we

483
00:35:52.000 --> 00:35:58.000
have believed was dead god that there was no hope for us there we thank you god for reviving dreams

484
00:35:58.000 --> 00:36:03.360
and visions inside of us god that we would partner with your truth and that we would

485
00:36:04.000 --> 00:36:10.960
allow your love to come in and permeate our spirits i keep thinking of this today so i'm

486
00:36:10.960 --> 00:36:16.480
gonna say it out loud i might even said it earlier but an infusion of god's love into

487
00:36:16.480 --> 00:36:20.480
our spirits and i multiple times i've thought about like you know some people will go and

488
00:36:20.480 --> 00:36:26.960
they'll get hooked up to iv infusions of fluids or whatever different things i don't even know

489
00:36:26.960 --> 00:36:32.000
the medical terminology for it but that's what kept coming to me today infusions of his love

490
00:36:32.000 --> 00:36:37.680
and so lord we just thank you for the infusions of your love god that you would literally in in

491
00:36:37.680 --> 00:36:43.040
the spirit realm hook up to the ladies and help them to receive the fullness of your love

492
00:36:44.560 --> 00:36:51.520
god help them to um yeah just lay aside every wrong thought they've had of you every heart

493
00:36:51.520 --> 00:36:57.440
posture that isn't serving them well god because someone in their tangible their physical life

494
00:36:58.240 --> 00:37:03.920
lord taught them something or treated them poorly and then they were they reflected that onto you

495
00:37:03.920 --> 00:37:10.400
god we thank you that you are good that you are kind that you are faithful and that you will

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00:37:10.400 --> 00:37:18.080
continue to work in all of your plans and promises in all of our lives jeremiah 24 7 in the nlt says

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i will give them hearts that recognize me as the lord they will be my people and i will be their

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00:37:24.560 --> 00:37:31.120
god for they will return to me wholeheartedly there's that whole heart thing again so god we

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00:37:31.120 --> 00:37:37.360
just thank you that you would come in and place the balm of gilead upon all of our hearts minds

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00:37:37.360 --> 00:37:46.160
bodies spirits and souls god that you would fill every gap where there's a break breakdown in our

501
00:37:46.160 --> 00:37:51.120
foundation lord because of even our upbringing where there's just gaps lord i pray that you would

502
00:37:51.120 --> 00:38:00.800
help us to heal to be restored to be made whole god i thank you for truth and hope and life i

503
00:38:00.800 --> 00:38:07.600
thank you lord that you would help us or to just hear the heart of heaven over us that we would

504
00:38:07.600 --> 00:38:13.920
feel your pleasure with us god in the sense of that we are your daughters and you love us i

505
00:38:13.920 --> 00:38:21.200
thank you god that you um yeah lord help us to see ourselves through your eyes lord what you see

506
00:38:21.200 --> 00:38:27.760
what you think about us lord i thank you that we would no longer partner with the things that bring

507
00:38:27.760 --> 00:38:35.360
death in our thoughts in our lives i thank you god that you would help us to um yeah lord just

508
00:38:35.360 --> 00:38:41.600
continue to shed um i just kind of have the picture of like people that had a bunch of extra layers of

509
00:38:41.600 --> 00:38:48.480
clothing on um but the clothing was like all dirty and like torn up and had holes in it and so lord

510
00:38:48.480 --> 00:38:54.400
things that are not clean god i know that your word declares in psalm 51 create me a clean heart

511
00:38:54.400 --> 00:38:59.760
oh god and renew a steadfast spirit in me so lord help us to shed layers of clothing if you will

512
00:39:00.320 --> 00:39:07.040
things that don't serve us mindsets heart postures um lord even our unbelief or our lack of faith

513
00:39:07.040 --> 00:39:11.360
god i thank you that you say in your word that you will give you can and will give to us a measure

514
00:39:11.360 --> 00:39:15.120
of faith so god i pray that you would help us to have the courage to ask for what we need

515
00:39:16.480 --> 00:39:21.280
first john 320 says whenever our hearts make us feel guilty and remind us of our failures we know

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that god is much greater and more merciful than our conscience and he knows everything there is

517
00:39:27.200 --> 00:39:34.000
to know about us y'all he he saw everything and he still chose us he loves us unconditionally

518
00:39:34.640 --> 00:39:38.960
not height nor depth nor principality nor power nor things in the present or things to come can

519
00:39:39.040 --> 00:39:48.000
ever separate us from the love of god in christ jesus god is saying that you know he's gonna he

520
00:39:48.000 --> 00:39:55.040
promises in revelation 21 verse 4 that he'll wipe away every tear from their eyes and eliminate

521
00:39:55.040 --> 00:40:00.000
death entirely no one will mourn or weep any longer the pain of wounds will

522
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:03.360
will no longer exist for the old order I see.

523
00:40:03.360 --> 00:40:06.840
So even though we're not in heaven yet, you know, the Lord wants us to

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00:40:06.840 --> 00:40:11.360
experience the kingdom of heaven here on earth as he desires it in heaven.

525
00:40:11.760 --> 00:40:13.880
And so we are the vessels that that can come through.

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00:40:13.880 --> 00:40:19.260
So as we continue to heal, we can be kind of that vessel, that open door,

527
00:40:19.260 --> 00:40:24.520
if you will, to help other people also experience, you know, just the

528
00:40:24.520 --> 00:40:26.880
freedom and the wholeness of heaven.

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So we thank you, God, for continuing to work in us, this abundant blessing

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00:40:33.880 --> 00:40:37.760
and hope-filled plan and purpose you have for us.

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00:40:39.240 --> 00:40:46.360
James 4, 7 says, so then surrender to God, stand up to the devil and resist

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00:40:46.360 --> 00:40:50.120
him, and he will turn and run from you.

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00:40:50.440 --> 00:40:53.600
So earlier I was talking about taking captive every thought and

534
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making an obedient to Jesus Christ.

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I feel like the scripture really partners with, you know, our call

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00:40:59.360 --> 00:41:02.480
to stand in the authority God has already given us through the freedom

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00:41:02.480 --> 00:41:04.920
of Christ and what he died to give us.

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00:41:05.160 --> 00:41:09.920
But we have to make a stand and stand up to the devil, resist him,

539
00:41:10.280 --> 00:41:11.960
and he will run away from us.

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00:41:11.960 --> 00:41:13.040
He will flee from us.

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God in his word also declares that when the enemy comes in like a flood,

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that he would raise up a standard against him, against the enemy

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00:41:20.400 --> 00:41:22.080
and cause him to flee seven ways.

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So God has our back.

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00:41:23.520 --> 00:41:24.680
He's fighting for us.

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00:41:24.680 --> 00:41:28.800
He's warring on our behalf and has good things in store for us.

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00:41:29.120 --> 00:41:30.360
Welcome back, ladies.

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00:41:30.360 --> 00:41:31.600
So glad to have you here.

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00:41:32.080 --> 00:41:32.480
All right.

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00:41:32.480 --> 00:41:38.040
So just real quick, our activations for this week, number one, I want, I call

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this, start with your vertical submission.

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So I will put these up in the group.

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I will do that.

554
00:41:43.600 --> 00:41:44.440
I will try to do that.

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00:41:44.480 --> 00:41:46.040
Remember to do that as soon as I log off.

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00:41:46.040 --> 00:41:49.200
Sometimes I say that, and then y'all, I go off to the next thing and then

557
00:41:49.200 --> 00:41:50.360
y'all get it a couple of days later.

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00:41:50.360 --> 00:41:52.800
So I'm going to try to remember to do it as soon as I log off tonight.

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But the vertical submission is surrendering to God.

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Okay.

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00:41:56.520 --> 00:41:59.040
Remember submitting to God, surrendering to him.

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00:41:59.360 --> 00:42:03.320
So what you, if you're brand new, you're going to get out the submission

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00:42:03.320 --> 00:42:05.360
slip, permission slip is what we call it.

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00:42:05.360 --> 00:42:09.400
It's going to be in the welcome section, excuse me, or week one.

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00:42:10.000 --> 00:42:12.840
When y'all are in that welcome area, there's going to be

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00:42:12.840 --> 00:42:13.960
several worksheets in there.

567
00:42:13.960 --> 00:42:16.280
You don't have to do all those worksheets right out of the gate.

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00:42:16.920 --> 00:42:20.120
Every week has a worksheet with it for the most part.

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And so week one is that permission slip for ladies that have been here longer

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00:42:24.120 --> 00:42:26.520
than that, I want to encourage you to get it out, get a fresh one.

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00:42:26.520 --> 00:42:30.320
Some of y'all need to go ahead and just redo that and just see if something

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00:42:30.320 --> 00:42:32.920
new comes up in your spirit, that you're going to surrender and

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00:42:32.920 --> 00:42:34.960
just give up that all to the Lord.

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And then I encourage y'all to put these up, hang them up

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00:42:37.280 --> 00:42:38.560
where you can see them every day.

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00:42:39.520 --> 00:42:43.720
I prayed that, that permission slip prayer over myself almost every

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single day for months straight.

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And it was a game changer for me.

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So that's why I recommend it to people.

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It absolutely changed things for me.

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00:42:52.320 --> 00:42:52.640
All right.

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00:42:52.640 --> 00:42:55.360
Number two, again, some of y'all you've been here before.

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00:42:55.360 --> 00:42:57.760
If you've already done this activation, totally fine.

584
00:42:57.960 --> 00:42:59.040
You don't have to do it again.

585
00:42:59.280 --> 00:43:02.520
For those of you that are new, you are hearing it for the first time.

586
00:43:03.160 --> 00:43:06.680
We call this, um, why am I not seeing that?

587
00:43:06.680 --> 00:43:08.920
Hold on one second.

588
00:43:08.920 --> 00:43:10.640
It should be here where I can see it.

589
00:43:10.640 --> 00:43:14.200
I just want to make sure I didn't accidentally close it out.

590
00:43:14.240 --> 00:43:15.080
No, it's there.

591
00:43:16.920 --> 00:43:17.680
All right.

592
00:43:18.520 --> 00:43:19.960
Maybe it will show up now.

593
00:43:20.000 --> 00:43:20.480
Sorry.

594
00:43:20.520 --> 00:43:21.800
I don't know what you all are seeing.

595
00:43:22.640 --> 00:43:23.520
Give me one sec.

596
00:43:23.560 --> 00:43:24.080
Oh, there we go.

597
00:43:24.160 --> 00:43:24.520
Okay.

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00:43:26.080 --> 00:43:26.840
Alrighty.

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00:43:27.120 --> 00:43:28.520
Let me scroll up here.

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This is the one I want to show you.

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00:43:29.720 --> 00:43:32.080
This is called our roots and fruits activation.

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00:43:32.480 --> 00:43:35.440
I will put more details in that, that post.

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00:43:35.440 --> 00:43:38.360
It'll be under the announcements tab so y'all can get it there later.

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00:43:38.760 --> 00:43:42.240
But this is something we just ask you to take some time and pray.

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00:43:42.440 --> 00:43:43.760
You don't have to be super artsy.

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00:43:43.760 --> 00:43:46.120
Some of these you're going to see are more artsy because

607
00:43:46.120 --> 00:43:47.440
there are artistic people.

608
00:43:47.600 --> 00:43:49.040
Some people are less artsy.

609
00:43:49.080 --> 00:43:50.360
They're all amazing.

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00:43:50.400 --> 00:43:50.920
Okay.

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00:43:51.040 --> 00:43:52.160
We love all of them.

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00:43:52.200 --> 00:43:54.160
The point is doing the activation.

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00:43:54.200 --> 00:43:57.400
So I'm going, I'm going to give you a couple ideas of different

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00:43:57.400 --> 00:43:59.160
things people have done before.

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00:43:59.520 --> 00:44:02.800
And then when I encourage y'all to walk this out, however you feel

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00:44:02.800 --> 00:44:05.800
led and what comes to your spirit.

617
00:44:05.800 --> 00:44:10.000
So this one in particular, she, she posted this before she

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00:44:10.000 --> 00:44:11.440
did the top layer of the fruit.

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00:44:11.440 --> 00:44:14.000
So this is just kind of the bottom part of her tree.

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00:44:14.400 --> 00:44:18.240
So we believe, and you're going to read this and hear about this in the heart

621
00:44:18.240 --> 00:44:22.960
recourse, that we have healthy roots that lead to healthy fruit.

622
00:44:23.320 --> 00:44:27.000
We have unhealthy roots that lead to unhealthy fruit.

623
00:44:27.440 --> 00:44:31.000
Well, the lies that we believe are connected down in there with

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00:44:31.000 --> 00:44:32.720
that unhealthy, those unhealthy roots.

625
00:44:32.720 --> 00:44:33.240
Okay.

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00:44:33.520 --> 00:44:37.080
That's why we'll always encourage you all to pray and ask the Lord to reveal the

627
00:44:37.080 --> 00:44:43.600
root, the root time that you, the first time you believed the lie, whatever lie

628
00:44:43.600 --> 00:44:44.200
is revealed.

629
00:44:44.480 --> 00:44:47.400
So I'm going to show you real quick, something, a couple here, and then I'll

630
00:44:47.400 --> 00:44:51.400
move on this lady's, she wrote fear of rejection and a couple of the lies that

631
00:44:51.400 --> 00:44:53.760
she heard or has heard over her life.

632
00:44:53.760 --> 00:44:58.680
At the time she did, this was you are inconvenient hideout behind the scenes.

633
00:44:58.680 --> 00:44:59.760
You're left over your.

634
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.000
The most you'll ever be is extended family.

635
00:45:04.000 --> 00:45:07.160
You're shy, you're too weird, you're too quirky.

636
00:45:07.160 --> 00:45:08.200
Y'all see how this works?

637
00:45:08.200 --> 00:45:12.120
That goes into that lie that she is rejected by people,

638
00:45:12.120 --> 00:45:13.480
fear of rejection.

639
00:45:13.480 --> 00:45:15.160
So she's identifying the lies,

640
00:45:15.160 --> 00:45:16.080
and then you'll see on here,

641
00:45:16.080 --> 00:45:18.460
she does have some like relationship with Christ

642
00:45:18.460 --> 00:45:21.080
that's growing, that's a good route, okay?

643
00:45:21.080 --> 00:45:23.020
Here's the next one.

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00:45:23.020 --> 00:45:24.780
This lady is a teacher,

645
00:45:24.780 --> 00:45:28.120
and so she did hers more kind of teacher looking,

646
00:45:28.120 --> 00:45:31.480
and she focused in on three main things,

647
00:45:31.480 --> 00:45:34.360
childhood rejection, childhood abandonment,

648
00:45:34.360 --> 00:45:36.960
childhood perfectionism, and then she listed the lies.

649
00:45:36.960 --> 00:45:38.840
And then she kind of made this diagram

650
00:45:38.840 --> 00:45:41.160
of what she believed they led up to,

651
00:45:41.160 --> 00:45:44.040
adult perfectionism, adult abandonment, adult rejection,

652
00:45:44.040 --> 00:45:45.680
and all the things that go with that.

653
00:45:45.680 --> 00:45:48.920
And then she kept going up to the healing and forgiveness,

654
00:45:48.920 --> 00:45:52.640
to the truth statements, I'm worthy, I will find my husband.

655
00:45:52.640 --> 00:45:54.720
Again, this is just another example.

656
00:45:54.720 --> 00:45:56.000
You don't have to do all that.

657
00:45:56.000 --> 00:45:58.280
It can be just like this one too.

658
00:45:58.280 --> 00:46:00.020
This is amazing as well.

659
00:46:00.020 --> 00:46:02.960
This is showing you roots and fruits, good and bad.

660
00:46:02.960 --> 00:46:06.200
The ones on her chart that are the healthy fruit

661
00:46:06.200 --> 00:46:08.760
are the ones that have the leaves and the little flowers,

662
00:46:08.760 --> 00:46:10.760
where the other ones that don't have that

663
00:46:10.760 --> 00:46:14.040
are the unhealthy roots that are leading to unhealthy fruit.

664
00:46:14.040 --> 00:46:17.360
So for example, one of the things she wrote on there

665
00:46:17.360 --> 00:46:21.920
was unhealthy efficiency,

666
00:46:21.920 --> 00:46:25.700
and then that led up to the fruit distracted.

667
00:46:26.400 --> 00:46:27.400
See how this works, y'all?

668
00:46:27.400 --> 00:46:29.420
So she's praying and asking God,

669
00:46:29.420 --> 00:46:30.660
what are the unhealthy roots?

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00:46:30.660 --> 00:46:32.980
And sometimes we're gonna identify a lie

671
00:46:32.980 --> 00:46:34.660
before we can identify a root.

672
00:46:34.660 --> 00:46:37.020
Sometimes we might know the root before the lie.

673
00:46:37.020 --> 00:46:40.240
Be full of grace towards yourself in this process.

674
00:46:40.240 --> 00:46:41.740
This is a process, okay?

675
00:46:41.740 --> 00:46:43.660
Here's one that was done on a computer.

676
00:46:43.660 --> 00:46:44.940
This is great too.

677
00:46:44.940 --> 00:46:48.300
Again, this is about you all doing what works for you.

678
00:46:48.300 --> 00:46:52.180
The goal is to pray, talk with the Lord about it,

679
00:46:52.180 --> 00:46:54.220
get some of the stuff on the paper,

680
00:46:54.220 --> 00:46:56.260
and then you can always build on it from there.

681
00:46:56.260 --> 00:46:58.600
Here's another one done on the computer.

682
00:46:58.600 --> 00:47:01.420
This one here is one of the ladies in our community,

683
00:47:01.420 --> 00:47:04.060
super amazing artist as well.

684
00:47:04.060 --> 00:47:05.660
The reason I love to show this one

685
00:47:05.660 --> 00:47:08.520
is the way that she depicted the unhealthy roots and fruit.

686
00:47:08.520 --> 00:47:12.260
It's that kind of brown, blackish area on the far left there

687
00:47:12.260 --> 00:47:13.980
and then her healthy roots and fruit

688
00:47:13.980 --> 00:47:17.140
are the orange and yellow kind of color.

689
00:47:17.140 --> 00:47:19.380
And then she brought the Holy Spirit in there

690
00:47:19.380 --> 00:47:20.820
on the right side with the balloon.

691
00:47:20.820 --> 00:47:22.740
I just thought that was a cool depiction

692
00:47:22.740 --> 00:47:25.340
of the process of healing and the revealing of healing,

693
00:47:25.340 --> 00:47:27.380
of identifying those roots

694
00:47:27.380 --> 00:47:30.700
and asking the Holy Spirit to heal those and set you free.

695
00:47:30.700 --> 00:47:33.340
So once you do your activation,

696
00:47:33.340 --> 00:47:35.580
the goal would be to post it in the group

697
00:47:35.580 --> 00:47:36.940
under the community tab,

698
00:47:36.940 --> 00:47:39.700
and then we'll kind of give some feedback if needed.

699
00:47:39.700 --> 00:47:41.660
We might ask you questions or coach you on it.

700
00:47:41.660 --> 00:47:42.620
We might just cheer you on.

701
00:47:42.620 --> 00:47:45.500
It just depends on what we feel led to do.

702
00:47:45.500 --> 00:47:48.300
Okay, on that note, we're gonna do group coaching now.

703
00:47:48.300 --> 00:47:50.620
So if anyone feels led to share with the whole group

704
00:47:50.620 --> 00:47:53.900
what you shared in your breakout about submission,

705
00:47:53.900 --> 00:47:54.740
I would love to go ahead

706
00:47:54.740 --> 00:47:56.540
and get this part of it started tonight.

707
00:47:56.540 --> 00:47:57.980
Tatiana, go ahead.

708
00:48:04.140 --> 00:48:05.980
Lisa can go first, that's all right.

709
00:48:07.100 --> 00:48:08.140
Okay, that's fine.

710
00:48:09.260 --> 00:48:11.500
Lisa, I guess you're up first.

711
00:48:11.500 --> 00:48:15.440
Okay, yeah, so I was sharing with the gals that,

712
00:48:16.700 --> 00:48:19.220
yeah, I worked for a ministry

713
00:48:19.220 --> 00:48:23.940
and pretty quickly into it within the first couple months,

714
00:48:25.620 --> 00:48:29.300
my boss and her boss were getting let off at the airport

715
00:48:29.300 --> 00:48:31.020
and I was on the phone with my boss

716
00:48:31.020 --> 00:48:34.340
and I was like just giving her the quick overview

717
00:48:34.340 --> 00:48:36.380
of what I had done for them.

718
00:48:36.380 --> 00:48:38.540
Just, you know, it was something she needed to know.

719
00:48:38.540 --> 00:48:40.220
And she was really impressed.

720
00:48:40.220 --> 00:48:41.540
And she's like, Lisa, she's like,

721
00:48:41.540 --> 00:48:44.360
I'm gonna look for an executive position for you.

722
00:48:44.360 --> 00:48:47.700
And so I was like, wow, you know, okay, great.

723
00:48:48.380 --> 00:48:50.980
And then I think we had quarterly reviews

724
00:48:50.980 --> 00:48:52.580
because it seems like I went through

725
00:48:52.580 --> 00:48:54.060
three or four of them with them.

726
00:48:54.060 --> 00:48:57.740
But anyway, so my first quarterly review came up

727
00:48:57.740 --> 00:49:02.660
and when the review was almost over or was over,

728
00:49:02.660 --> 00:49:05.900
I said, hey, you know, I just wanted to bring up,

729
00:49:05.900 --> 00:49:08.900
you know, about the executive position

730
00:49:08.900 --> 00:49:10.940
because it wasn't addressed yet, you know.

731
00:49:10.940 --> 00:49:13.060
And then we were on a Zoom call

732
00:49:13.060 --> 00:49:15.860
and it was my boss and her boss.

733
00:49:15.860 --> 00:49:18.300
And her boss said, well, Lisa, she's like,

734
00:49:18.300 --> 00:49:20.220
I don't remember anything about this.

735
00:49:20.220 --> 00:49:22.500
Like, can you, you know, tell me more?

736
00:49:22.500 --> 00:49:25.580
And then basically I said, well, my boss said,

737
00:49:25.580 --> 00:49:27.940
oh no, I said that.

738
00:49:27.940 --> 00:49:29.380
So she, you know, said that.

739
00:49:29.380 --> 00:49:31.780
And so that was that.

740
00:49:31.780 --> 00:49:35.980
And then my next review came up

741
00:49:35.980 --> 00:49:40.460
and it still didn't happen.

742
00:49:40.460 --> 00:49:42.620
And I was frustrated.

743
00:49:42.620 --> 00:49:44.340
Maybe it was after the second review, I don't know.

744
00:49:44.340 --> 00:49:47.700
But anyway, so it kind of went back and forth for a while.

745
00:49:47.700 --> 00:49:50.020
And then actually one part I forgot to share

746
00:49:50.020 --> 00:49:52.340
during my meeting with the women

747
00:49:52.340 --> 00:49:55.100
is that I'd gone out to coffee with my boss.

748
00:49:55.100 --> 00:49:57.340
And this was actually really crazy.

749
00:49:57.340 --> 00:50:00.220
So we were sitting outside and she literally.

750
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.280
really leaned forward and said, Lisa, I never said this to you.

751
00:50:07.680 --> 00:50:12.000
After she in front of her own boss said that she said it. And

752
00:50:12.040 --> 00:50:15.120
I mean, like intimidating, like really in my face kind of thing

753
00:50:15.120 --> 00:50:18.120
right across this roundtable. And I just sat there and I was

754
00:50:18.120 --> 00:50:20.680
just like, I can't even believe this. Like, I don't even know

755
00:50:20.680 --> 00:50:24.800
what to say. Like, this is just unbelievable. So then long and

756
00:50:24.800 --> 00:50:29.360
short, it came up one more time. And I started doing a paper

757
00:50:29.360 --> 00:50:32.360
trail on email, you know, because I'm like, I'm covering

758
00:50:32.360 --> 00:50:35.720
myself, this is ridiculous. And I think that happened actually

759
00:50:35.720 --> 00:50:38.280
from the first time it wasn't ridiculous yet, because my boss

760
00:50:38.280 --> 00:50:41.440
said that she was actually the one that said it. So but now

761
00:50:41.440 --> 00:50:43.960
time has progressed. She's denied it and denied it in front

762
00:50:43.960 --> 00:50:48.240
of my face. And then there's like a second denial. And then

763
00:50:48.280 --> 00:50:52.800
it came up, I had another review. And her boss and me and

764
00:50:52.800 --> 00:50:56.800
my boss are on there. And her boss is just saying, like Lisa,

765
00:50:56.800 --> 00:51:03.440
this was never said. And I was like, it was said, you know, I

766
00:51:03.440 --> 00:51:07.720
stood my ground. And this it was like a 20 minute entanglement,

767
00:51:07.760 --> 00:51:12.960
you know, and, and I literally said, she started walking away

768
00:51:12.960 --> 00:51:16.640
in the room, her voice was getting more distant. And I

769
00:51:16.640 --> 00:51:21.040
just literally under my breath, I said, this is unbelievable. I

770
00:51:21.040 --> 00:51:26.120
said that out loud, you know, and disconnected the next day.

771
00:51:26.160 --> 00:51:29.320
I'm working from home the whole time. This is during COVID. The

772
00:51:29.320 --> 00:51:32.920
next day, I'm on my internet, you know, I'm on the computer,

773
00:51:32.920 --> 00:51:36.240
I'm doing work. And all of a sudden, my email account is like

774
00:51:36.240 --> 00:51:44.120
gone. And everything. So I call and they literally let me go.

775
00:51:44.800 --> 00:51:47.320
And they said nothing at all this work, I still have to do my

776
00:51:47.320 --> 00:51:49.800
time card, which by the way, took like an hour and a half to

777
00:51:49.800 --> 00:51:52.600
do because I was checking in and out every you know, I would I

778
00:51:52.600 --> 00:51:56.640
didn't. Yeah, it was like a ton. And then I had to turn in my

779
00:51:56.640 --> 00:52:01.360
computer. And I'm like, I can't believe this. I happened. My

780
00:52:01.360 --> 00:52:03.720
friend happened to call when this is going on. And she's

781
00:52:03.720 --> 00:52:06.080
like, Lisa, I'm getting at my spirit. Like you need to ask for

782
00:52:06.080 --> 00:52:09.040
a letter of recommendation. Like be when you turn in your

783
00:52:09.040 --> 00:52:12.320
computer. And like, I really didn't want to. But then I did.

784
00:52:12.320 --> 00:52:14.640
And I'm glad I did. But anyway, it's neither here nor there. I'm

785
00:52:14.640 --> 00:52:19.360
never going to use that person. It was really, it was really

786
00:52:19.360 --> 00:52:23.400
hard. And the lady who I turned my computer into clearly had no

787
00:52:23.400 --> 00:52:25.640
clue what was going on. And I wasn't going to say anything. I

788
00:52:25.640 --> 00:52:28.880
mean, my heart was like, I was like, I was traumatized.

789
00:52:28.880 --> 00:52:32.200
Honestly, it was really uncomfortable for me. And so

790
00:52:32.960 --> 00:52:37.600
yeah, and then fast forward, like a year later, this other

791
00:52:37.600 --> 00:52:40.480
gal that used to work for her, her mom had died. And so my

792
00:52:40.480 --> 00:52:43.160
whole that whole ministry that I worked for was actually at my

793
00:52:43.160 --> 00:52:46.680
church at the memorial. And my boss was there and all the

794
00:52:46.680 --> 00:52:49.200
people that I never got to say goodbye to didn't get to

795
00:52:49.320 --> 00:52:52.520
give an answer to what you know what I mean? Like nobody, not

796
00:52:52.520 --> 00:52:55.880
that I'm going to sit there and talk bad, you know, about, but

797
00:52:55.880 --> 00:52:58.720
it was just like, there was no closure for me whatsoever. And

798
00:52:58.720 --> 00:53:02.280
these people like we were close, you know, so that was really,

799
00:53:02.280 --> 00:53:07.520
really painful, really painful. And yeah, and then my boss was

800
00:53:07.520 --> 00:53:09.920
just like acting like nothing happened. Like she always did

801
00:53:09.920 --> 00:53:16.240
just super joyful. And oh, and I'm like, Hmm, really? Like I'm

802
00:53:16.240 --> 00:53:20.360
gonna ever ask you for help. You're kidding me. I'm sorry.

803
00:53:20.360 --> 00:53:21.040
That's just, you know,

804
00:53:21.040 --> 00:53:24.440
crazy. No, it's really crazy when this kind of stuff happens,

805
00:53:24.440 --> 00:53:29.040
because it's like, you know, the enemy is using these people to

806
00:53:29.080 --> 00:53:33.080
just kind of silence us to feed into the lies that were

807
00:53:33.080 --> 00:53:36.800
abandoned, were shut down, that when we voice our opinion or our

808
00:53:36.800 --> 00:53:40.240
thoughts, like, there's just no, like, people don't follow

809
00:53:40.240 --> 00:53:43.240
through on what they say, like all these lies, and he uses

810
00:53:43.240 --> 00:53:47.000
things like this, and people that function in these ways,

811
00:53:47.360 --> 00:53:50.640
where, I mean, there should have been a conversation, there

812
00:53:50.640 --> 00:53:53.680
should have been a notification versus just shutting someone out

813
00:53:53.720 --> 00:53:59.240
and down. But definitely, I'm sure you've worked through some

814
00:53:59.240 --> 00:54:02.360
of that already, but highly recommend just even as I was

815
00:54:02.360 --> 00:54:05.040
saying, like, working through the prior things with my former

816
00:54:05.040 --> 00:54:07.440
boss, you know, sometimes it shows up and you're just like,

817
00:54:07.480 --> 00:54:13.200
Oh, there's that thing again. Why is this coming up again? And

818
00:54:13.200 --> 00:54:15.920
so just want to encourage you just to pray into that and just

819
00:54:15.920 --> 00:54:20.520
make sure that, you know, if there's any other revelation, is

820
00:54:20.520 --> 00:54:22.800
there anything else that this connected to in your life where

821
00:54:22.800 --> 00:54:28.600
someone kind of just shut you down in a situation, you know,

822
00:54:28.600 --> 00:54:32.040
and really just lean into that. But I appreciate you sharing

823
00:54:32.040 --> 00:54:34.120
that. And this is a great example, too, of what I was

824
00:54:34.120 --> 00:54:36.440
saying, like, it doesn't always have to be even though it's

825
00:54:36.440 --> 00:54:40.600
saying fathers provoke, again, that scripture can be applied to

826
00:54:40.680 --> 00:54:46.360
these situations where anyone in authority over us has done

827
00:54:46.360 --> 00:54:51.920
something to provoke us right to bitterness to anger, to incite

828
00:54:51.920 --> 00:54:57.760
us on the inside. And so, yeah, I'm getting a revelation about

829
00:54:57.760 --> 00:55:00.080
something even this afternoon for myself as I say that.

830
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.040
right now. But like just these moments where the enemy is just really trying to get us to partner

831
00:55:05.040 --> 00:55:11.680
with those heart postures, right? And so when we release those to the Lord and just, God, I can't

832
00:55:11.680 --> 00:55:18.320
change this situation. I can't change this person. I'm really hurt by how they spoke or what they did

833
00:55:18.320 --> 00:55:24.320
or said. Maybe for you, I'm really hurt that she didn't acknowledge what the value that she saw in

834
00:55:24.320 --> 00:55:30.080
me. I mean, it'd be different if individuals in this situation, if they had said, I still

835
00:55:30.080 --> 00:55:35.040
see this value in you, but we're not going to be able to do this for you at this time. Totally

836
00:55:35.040 --> 00:55:38.960
different. I would have been, I would have totally been fine with that. Just give me the truth. You

837
00:55:38.960 --> 00:55:42.960
know what I mean? But to do that, like, I don't, yeah, it's weird. Cause I haven't thought about

838
00:55:42.960 --> 00:55:46.640
this for a really long time. And when you gave us the activation, you said, whatever comes to your

839
00:55:46.640 --> 00:55:50.320
mind, it was like the one of the first things, you know, I've had a lot of abuse from actually

840
00:55:50.320 --> 00:55:58.960
bosses. It's pretty crazy, you know, important, important to note here. So what that makes me

841
00:55:58.960 --> 00:56:07.040
think of Lisa is when I kept attracting the same kind of guy and even the same kind of employers,

842
00:56:08.480 --> 00:56:13.360
whether they were paid or even I worked in a volunteer position, I loved the role. I loved

843
00:56:13.360 --> 00:56:19.680
what I was doing, but I tended to be with people in relationship, in working situations, even

844
00:56:19.680 --> 00:56:25.920
volunteering situations at times where they would just take, take, take, take, take, take, take as

845
00:56:25.920 --> 00:56:32.560
much as they could take. But I was happy being a giver. I was just given, given, given, given away.

846
00:56:32.560 --> 00:56:38.640
And then I had to really slap stop and look at, okay, wait a minute. I'm the common denominator

847
00:56:38.640 --> 00:56:45.680
here. Yeah. You know, where we look at, okay, why am I attracting these people? These employers that

848
00:56:45.680 --> 00:56:49.440
are treating me this way, or these people in authority that are treating me this way,

849
00:56:49.440 --> 00:56:56.080
it's not our fault. Okay. But what I am saying is like, I had a lot more healing to do than I knew.

850
00:56:56.080 --> 00:57:03.040
And so going through that and really looking through that lens, it just, it just changed the

851
00:57:03.040 --> 00:57:07.600
way that I started approaching, you know, relationships and really tried to go in with

852
00:57:07.600 --> 00:57:12.480
a more whole heart and not expecting those kinds of things from individuals. I'm not saying it's

853
00:57:12.480 --> 00:57:18.880
easy. Cause I still can find myself in situations where, um, I, um, I don't know if you guys have

854
00:57:18.880 --> 00:57:24.480
ever heard of, um, strength finders. It's kind of like a Myers-Briggs or, but strength finders.

855
00:57:24.480 --> 00:57:29.520
I just, we took that for, we, all of our staff did that for the church. And one of my top

856
00:57:29.520 --> 00:57:35.840
strength finders is responsibility. You all, one of my top ones. Well, that's awesome,

857
00:57:35.840 --> 00:57:41.120
but it can get me into a lot of unbalanced situations because I have such a high level

858
00:57:41.120 --> 00:57:47.360
of responsibility. I don't want anyone to fail. And growing up in a household where I was told

859
00:57:47.360 --> 00:57:52.800
that I had to take responsibility for my brother's chores, or we would all get in trouble. Like if,

860
00:57:52.800 --> 00:57:57.520
if my mom came home and the chores for my brother weren't done, even if mine were done,

861
00:57:58.400 --> 00:58:03.600
we all got in trouble. So like, I know that's a simple example, but do you see how this then

862
00:58:03.600 --> 00:58:09.280
starts to invade all the other areas of our lives? Like we start taking responsibility and doing

863
00:58:09.280 --> 00:58:14.320
things for people that we don't need to be doing. And part of it, again, it's not coming from a bad

864
00:58:14.320 --> 00:58:22.320
place in my heart. I want to be helpful. I want us to look at, I want things to work well. I,

865
00:58:22.320 --> 00:58:27.680
you know, I am very good at administration and carrying things out. And, and so, um, I have a

866
00:58:27.680 --> 00:58:32.960
lot of other giftings too, but sometimes what can happen is because my administration gift

867
00:58:32.960 --> 00:58:38.960
and organization is really strong too. Some of my other giftings and things God is asking me to do,

868
00:58:38.960 --> 00:58:45.920
keep getting put on the back burner because I'm, I'm really, I'm comfortable and I can work really

869
00:58:45.920 --> 00:58:49.920
quickly and easily in this administration stuff. And so again, I don't know why I'm sharing that,

870
00:58:49.920 --> 00:58:56.960
but like I had, I've had to learn and look at even in this last year, where do I tend to shift

871
00:58:56.960 --> 00:59:03.760
into taking responsibility for things and then resenting people for it? And again, not that

872
00:59:03.760 --> 00:59:08.400
that's you at all, but this might be for somebody else in here, or that might watch the replay.

873
00:59:09.120 --> 00:59:13.760
Um, you know, God is inviting us to come out of those places and really look at, okay,

874
00:59:15.360 --> 00:59:21.200
where do I still need healing so that I don't keep taking responsibility for things that are

875
00:59:21.200 --> 00:59:28.480
not my risk there. I'm not responsible for them. So hope that's helpful, but let us know how that

876
00:59:28.480 --> 00:59:32.960
goes. Um, yeah, even as you process that a little more, cause I do think there might be some things

877
00:59:32.960 --> 00:59:38.240
there and I appreciate you sharing as always. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I just want to side note,

878
00:59:38.240 --> 00:59:43.680
it is always women and it's the root is my mom. I do know that much. Cause I've kind of looked at

879
00:59:43.680 --> 00:59:49.760
this before. So, but it's interesting. Cause like when you said like, Oh, that's something to look

880
00:59:49.760 --> 00:59:55.200
at. Cause it's repetitive, right? It's, it's happened a lot. It's really has and areas where

881
00:59:55.200 --> 00:59:59.840
I've started to shine, like people want to shut that down. And I'm like, and I never knew I didn't

882
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.880
get it. Now I'm older, I get it. Like, I'm like, Oh, that's not

883
01:00:02.880 --> 01:00:06.680
cool. You know? Yeah, anyway, not to carry on. But thank you

884
01:00:06.680 --> 01:00:07.120
so much.

885
01:00:07.120 --> 01:00:10.240
It's really good. And even honestly, just to add on that

886
01:00:10.240 --> 01:00:13.840
one other thing, and then I'll go over to Tatiana. Even the

887
01:00:13.840 --> 01:00:20.800
situation that I was navigating today. It was with this guy

888
01:00:20.840 --> 01:00:26.360
that he is a strong leader, I'm a strong leader, too. But he was

889
01:00:26.360 --> 01:00:31.200
never willing to work as a team. And when I would send him

890
01:00:31.200 --> 01:00:34.000
emails, like he would respond and he would be helpful, but

891
01:00:34.000 --> 01:00:36.960
then he would make these kind of undercutting passive aggressive

892
01:00:37.400 --> 01:00:43.120
statements as well. And he would basically like, Oh, this person

893
01:00:43.120 --> 01:00:45.720
is doing such a great job working, but he would never like

894
01:00:45.720 --> 01:00:49.640
work as a team with us. And it was like he would never just

895
01:00:49.760 --> 01:00:52.720
give me the respect, you know, like I was talking about

896
01:00:52.720 --> 01:00:55.880
earlier, submission is mutual respect. When you're a team with

897
01:00:55.880 --> 01:00:59.520
someone, there's a mutual, you know, healthy respect that

898
01:00:59.520 --> 01:01:03.160
should happen there. And, you know, I've really prayed into

899
01:01:03.160 --> 01:01:07.640
this a lot with this guy. I know that he has heart wounds with

900
01:01:07.640 --> 01:01:11.640
his mom. But one of the things why I'm saying this is I

901
01:01:11.640 --> 01:01:20.440
genuinely know that I am strong, and he doesn't like that. And so

902
01:01:20.440 --> 01:01:24.240
what he's trying, what he is the enemy, I have to always remember

903
01:01:24.240 --> 01:01:26.720
for all of us, we always have to remember this is the enemy

904
01:01:26.720 --> 01:01:29.760
working through these people. But this afternoon, I was

905
01:01:29.760 --> 01:01:33.240
thinking to myself, and ironically, you all even though

906
01:01:33.240 --> 01:01:36.200
this is going to blow your minds. So this situation is

907
01:01:36.200 --> 01:01:40.000
happening. And I was literally like, Okay, I am not bowing to

908
01:01:40.000 --> 01:01:42.840
the spirit of intimidation through this person. That's

909
01:01:42.840 --> 01:01:46.000
what's happening right now. I kid you not. I have not heard

910
01:01:46.000 --> 01:01:51.520
from my spiritual daughter's dad. I think he messaged not

911
01:01:51.520 --> 01:01:54.480
this past Mother's Day, but a year ago Mother's Day, and I

912
01:01:54.480 --> 01:01:58.800
just never responded. And it wasn't anything big, but it was

913
01:01:58.800 --> 01:02:02.880
just so weird. Out of nowhere, I get a text from him today, he

914
01:02:02.880 --> 01:02:06.240
got a piece of mail at his house, some kind of government

915
01:02:06.240 --> 01:02:10.000
lawsuit thing, not against me, but you know, like when your

916
01:02:10.040 --> 01:02:12.960
information is leaked, there's lawsuits, and then they, you

917
01:02:12.960 --> 01:02:15.120
know, got to send you the information. And he was just

918
01:02:15.120 --> 01:02:19.360
asking if I needed him to send that to me. And I didn't answer

919
01:02:19.360 --> 01:02:21.200
the text right away, because I thought, man, I don't even know

920
01:02:21.200 --> 01:02:23.840
if I want him to have my address. The reality is he can

921
01:02:23.840 --> 01:02:26.920
look at my address. It's no big deal. But why do I say that?

922
01:02:27.120 --> 01:02:30.440
Because I just thought it was so ironic, because I used to be so

923
01:02:30.440 --> 01:02:35.600
intimidated through him. That at the same around the same time

924
01:02:35.600 --> 01:02:39.000
that I was literally praying and saying, I am not going to bow to

925
01:02:39.000 --> 01:02:42.400
the spirit of intimidation through this other guy. I got

926
01:02:42.400 --> 01:02:46.360
the text from him. And so I didn't think that was an

927
01:02:46.360 --> 01:02:49.360
incidence you all, I didn't, I think that that was something

928
01:02:49.360 --> 01:02:53.640
that God was trying to show me that this is a spirit. This is a

929
01:02:53.640 --> 01:02:56.560
spirit of intimidation that's trying to work through different

930
01:02:56.560 --> 01:03:01.480
people. And it's not always just men. But it is men a lot or

931
01:03:01.480 --> 01:03:06.240
women that are very, you know, very strong willed, they don't

932
01:03:06.280 --> 01:03:10.120
like to like, very insecure, they don't they don't thrive

933
01:03:10.120 --> 01:03:13.800
around other strong women. I'm okay. Like when other women are

934
01:03:13.800 --> 01:03:16.240
strong, and I can work as a team with people that doesn't

935
01:03:16.240 --> 01:03:19.080
intimidate me, I've had to learn how to do that. I've had to

936
01:03:19.080 --> 01:03:23.640
heal a lot, but God has that for us, right? He has goodness

937
01:03:23.640 --> 01:03:27.640
and fullness. And we can, we can see someone else's strengths and

938
01:03:27.640 --> 01:03:30.720
bless those things in them versus feeling like we're less

939
01:03:30.720 --> 01:03:34.760
than or we have to grapple for some kind of like, I'm better

940
01:03:34.760 --> 01:03:40.760
than y'all. I'm not into that. Like, yeah, you go do you. I'm

941
01:03:40.760 --> 01:03:44.040
cool. We can work as a team, but I'm not gonna I'm not gonna have

942
01:03:44.040 --> 01:03:46.960
this power struggle. I just don't do that stuff. So I tend

943
01:03:46.960 --> 01:03:49.680
to back away from those kind of things. But anyways, hopefully

944
01:03:49.680 --> 01:03:52.680
this is helping someone. Lisa, thank you so much for sharing

945
01:03:52.680 --> 01:03:55.680
that with us. Let us know how that goes. As you like to spray

946
01:03:55.680 --> 01:03:56.800
into that a little more.

947
01:03:57.520 --> 01:04:01.160
Yeah, it sounds like to that's unhealed trauma when people get

948
01:04:01.160 --> 01:04:04.280
triggered like that, which is the sad part. But anyway, that's

949
01:04:04.280 --> 01:04:05.080
all my comments.

950
01:04:09.040 --> 01:04:10.880
You're welcome. Go ahead.

951
01:04:11.880 --> 01:04:17.880
Hey, okay, so you had like, sorry, if there's a lot of

952
01:04:17.880 --> 01:04:23.520
background noise right now, but um, you had said my name earlier

953
01:04:23.560 --> 01:04:29.080
and I was listening and it just caught my attention because the

954
01:04:29.080 --> 01:04:33.360
other day I was working on a revealing for healing that I

955
01:04:33.360 --> 01:04:39.280
think Andrea had given me like, a lot of time. And I was like,

956
01:04:39.720 --> 01:04:44.280
giving me like, but I'm sorry if you can hear people in the

957
01:04:44.280 --> 01:04:47.400
background. I can hardly hear them from my perspective, at

958
01:04:47.400 --> 01:04:50.400
least. Okay, good. Because somebody's like yelling right

959
01:04:50.400 --> 01:04:59.480
now. Um, but that's distracted me a lot. Um, so pretty much she

960
01:04:59.480 --> 01:04:59.960
had given me

961
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.320
Revealing for Healing, she's like, do this. And I've been

962
01:05:03.320 --> 01:05:05.960
working through it. And I didn't write down despair, but I wrote

963
01:05:05.960 --> 01:05:11.840
Dread. And the thing that came up for me in the Breakout Room

964
01:05:11.840 --> 01:05:15.080
was, like, I feel like, you know, we've talked about, like,

965
01:05:15.080 --> 01:05:17.880
my dad and everything, and I feel a lot better, like, in

966
01:05:17.880 --> 01:05:22.400
regards to that, and just not really, not necessarily

967
01:05:22.400 --> 01:05:25.640
struggling in that area with submission. And I feel like

968
01:05:26.240 --> 01:05:31.880
submission isn't a big struggle for me. And so what came up for

969
01:05:31.880 --> 01:05:36.520
me was that I tried to write down what you had said. But

970
01:05:36.520 --> 01:05:38.760
pretty much like Holy Spirit saying, like, I want to free

971
01:05:38.760 --> 01:05:44.360
you from that feeling of, like, despair. And to me, it's like,

972
01:05:44.400 --> 01:05:48.320
well, I want you to free me from this too. Like, so why are you

973
01:05:48.320 --> 01:05:53.160
not, you know, like, and I feel like I'm doing everything that

974
01:05:53.160 --> 01:05:56.800
like, I can, and I feel like I'm trying so hard. So it's

975
01:05:56.800 --> 01:06:00.960
like, what's the issue if you want to give this to me? And if

976
01:06:00.960 --> 01:06:05.840
I'm like, begging you for this thing, like, why are we still

977
01:06:05.840 --> 01:06:11.240
here in the same place? And, and I say that in regards to like,

978
01:06:11.280 --> 01:06:13.800
like the Revealing for Healing thing I was working through is,

979
01:06:13.840 --> 01:06:16.120
you know, I've mentioned, like, just struggling with intrusive

980
01:06:16.120 --> 01:06:20.640
thoughts. And it's just like, regarding that, it's like, I'm,

981
01:06:20.880 --> 01:06:23.840
I'm begging you, like, to give me the peace that you always

982
01:06:23.840 --> 01:06:27.880
talk about, like, please. And over and over, you're like,

983
01:06:28.680 --> 01:06:30.800
reminding me of the promises, like, I'm going to give this to

984
01:06:30.800 --> 01:06:34.160
you. And you had mentioned, like, kind of feeling like

985
01:06:34.560 --> 01:06:37.040
you're having the carrot dangled in front of you or something

986
01:06:37.040 --> 01:06:40.120
like that. And I feel like that it's like, but I know that

987
01:06:40.120 --> 01:06:43.480
that's not God's heart for me. Like, I know, He loves me. So I

988
01:06:43.480 --> 01:06:48.920
don't know. Like, what's, it's just like, it's like, we both

989
01:06:48.920 --> 01:06:52.160
want this. So what's, what's up with that? Like, I don't know.

990
01:06:52.680 --> 01:06:56.240
Yeah, this is such a good share, Tatiana. Thank you for trusting

991
01:06:56.240 --> 01:07:01.320
us with this. And, ladies, what I can say to you, Tatiana, and

992
01:07:01.320 --> 01:07:06.560
everyone else is, is that sometimes, like, I've been where

993
01:07:06.560 --> 01:07:12.040
you are, okay, before. And sometimes things don't make

994
01:07:12.040 --> 01:07:17.200
sense in the moment. But the more we heal and grow, we

995
01:07:17.200 --> 01:07:21.800
understand why we were still struggling to receive the

996
01:07:21.800 --> 01:07:25.520
breakthrough. Sometimes it's because the enemy doesn't want

997
01:07:25.520 --> 01:07:30.000
us to. And so he hinders it. And so God is saying, I'm sending

998
01:07:30.000 --> 01:07:33.320
this to you. And we're saying, I want it, I want it. But we're

999
01:07:33.320 --> 01:07:36.520
like, why isn't it coming? Well, you know, the Bible talks about

1000
01:07:36.520 --> 01:07:40.400
the Prince of Persia, who actually hindered the answer

1001
01:07:40.400 --> 01:07:42.920
from coming. And so I just really feel that for you,

1002
01:07:42.920 --> 01:07:47.000
Tatiana, that the enemy is, is playing a role here, that's

1003
01:07:47.000 --> 01:07:50.800
pretty significant. It's not your fault. Okay? It's not that

1004
01:07:50.800 --> 01:07:54.120
you're not doing a good enough job. It's not that you are

1005
01:07:54.160 --> 01:07:58.440
messing up the process. It's just that on your way through,

1006
01:07:58.680 --> 01:08:01.280
you're going to get there, the breakthrough is going to come,

1007
01:08:01.280 --> 01:08:06.240
the breakthrough came in that story. It just was delayed.

1008
01:08:06.440 --> 01:08:10.080
Okay. And in that meantime, in the in between, when we're

1009
01:08:10.080 --> 01:08:14.920
waiting for what's being delayed, so to speak, I will

1010
01:08:14.920 --> 01:08:18.120
tell you from my experience, that there's a lot of growth

1011
01:08:18.120 --> 01:08:22.680
that comes from that. It's not easy. It's not fun. God doesn't

1012
01:08:22.680 --> 01:08:27.200
want that for us. But even myself, I think back to just

1013
01:08:27.200 --> 01:08:30.479
crying out to God, just like when I just would feel so

1014
01:08:30.520 --> 01:08:35.120
lonely. And just like, God, I don't want to feel this lonely

1015
01:08:35.120 --> 01:08:38.880
anymore. Like I wasn't even about another person. Excuse me,

1016
01:08:38.880 --> 01:08:41.279
at that point, I just didn't want to feel the deep

1017
01:08:41.279 --> 01:08:48.479
loneliness when I was by myself. And I remember this one

1018
01:08:48.479 --> 01:08:51.160
day in particular, you I mean, I literally can remember I was

1019
01:08:51.160 --> 01:08:54.040
sitting in my apartment, I wish I could tell you everything that

1020
01:08:54.040 --> 01:08:58.600
God did in that moment. But honestly, I think what it was is

1021
01:08:58.600 --> 01:09:02.439
that for months leading up to that I was praying into it, I

1022
01:09:02.439 --> 01:09:06.120
was seeking God, I was declaring positive things, I stayed

1023
01:09:06.120 --> 01:09:12.120
faithful. And then one day, it was like something clicked. And

1024
01:09:12.120 --> 01:09:18.359
that thing lifted off of me. And I had to continue to walk that

1025
01:09:18.359 --> 01:09:23.520
out. But I'm telling you, I was different from that day on. And

1026
01:09:23.520 --> 01:09:26.600
I really just think that that's gonna that's, that's what you

1027
01:09:26.600 --> 01:09:30.720
have coming for you, is that the things that you've been doing,

1028
01:09:31.160 --> 01:09:34.760
the days that you've even cried out, like, again, his arm is not

1029
01:09:34.760 --> 01:09:38.840
too short. I know some of the ladies are putting some things

1030
01:09:38.840 --> 01:09:41.319
in there for you. And I appreciate that you all but just

1031
01:09:41.319 --> 01:09:44.000
in that whole, we want to be careful to not share too many

1032
01:09:44.000 --> 01:09:50.680
other resources. But um, I think the best thing that you can do

1033
01:09:50.720 --> 01:09:55.640
Tatiana is, there's a thing called soaking. I don't know if

1034
01:09:55.640 --> 01:09:59.960
you've ever heard of that. But one of the things I had to

1035
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:08.320
how to do was soak in God's presence and not do anything like not perform not try to pray enough

1036
01:10:08.320 --> 01:10:13.920
like in soaking um one of the things that they where i learned it at least i learned this at

1037
01:10:13.920 --> 01:10:17.840
toronto airport christian fellowship i went up there years ago when they were in the midst of

1038
01:10:17.840 --> 01:10:24.240
this big revival thing and they had this whole soaking session where they literally had us all

1039
01:10:24.320 --> 01:10:30.480
just in the sanctuary we all laid down on the floor people brought people that already knew

1040
01:10:30.480 --> 01:10:33.600
this was going to happen brought pillows and all kinds of things for this session

1041
01:10:34.320 --> 01:10:41.120
and so we lay down on the floor and the goal of it is your the you're supposed to try to clear your

1042
01:10:41.120 --> 01:10:50.480
mind for me y'all that is a hard thing my mind is going all the time i wake up even in the morning

1043
01:10:50.480 --> 01:10:55.200
sometimes just like my mind racing of all the things i have to get done especially when we

1044
01:10:55.200 --> 01:10:59.520
have a lot of activities going on in the church or you know last year single all at the same time

1045
01:11:00.080 --> 01:11:07.360
and so for me even back then it was a hard practice but what i found is that sometimes

1046
01:11:07.360 --> 01:11:13.920
i would lay there and honestly i would fall asleep sometimes i would lay there and i would

1047
01:11:13.920 --> 01:11:19.600
just like really like okay god i can't stop thinking of things can you help me like i'm

1048
01:11:19.600 --> 01:11:26.000
just being really honest and sometimes i would feel that that quietness come over my mind

1049
01:11:27.200 --> 01:11:32.320
and then what would happen is when you're soaking and you're allowing your mind to settle

1050
01:11:34.400 --> 01:11:38.000
you start to hear god speaking directly to you about some things

1051
01:11:39.680 --> 01:11:45.600
and so there's music that they play that was more like you know not a lot of words but it was like

1052
01:11:45.680 --> 01:11:50.480
really really beautiful and so i will post some songs in the group tonight ladies since i'm

1053
01:11:50.480 --> 01:11:56.800
talking i'm sharing this to tatiana but i believe this can benefit all of you um if i if i was in

1054
01:11:56.800 --> 01:12:02.080
person with you all we would do a live session on this really soon but what i can do is at least

1055
01:12:02.080 --> 01:12:08.240
post some songs that y'all can listen to and i would encourage y'all to practice doing this

1056
01:12:08.240 --> 01:12:14.000
you know to really just ask god to help quiet your minds and for some of you it is going to be hard

1057
01:12:14.000 --> 01:12:18.880
and you're going to have experiences like i did some of you haven't rested in a really long time

1058
01:12:18.880 --> 01:12:24.320
and you might fall asleep like real quick and that's okay and so i just want to encourage

1059
01:12:24.320 --> 01:12:30.240
you tatiana that i feel like your own like it's almost there it's almost there and i want to say

1060
01:12:30.240 --> 01:12:36.960
sweetie because i know you're you're one of my one of our young ones and i my my mom with my

1061
01:12:36.960 --> 01:12:41.840
girls is kicking in even though i'm not your mom or anything you know i catch myself saying

1062
01:12:41.840 --> 01:12:46.480
things like that just kind of out of like just talking to people in the day-to-day like people

1063
01:12:46.480 --> 01:12:52.000
that i know and just have a true heart for you and just seeing you get breakthrough and i know

1064
01:12:52.000 --> 01:12:58.640
that god is proud of you i really know that and you know sometimes too what the other thing that

1065
01:12:58.640 --> 01:13:05.600
i want to say is that you know when we hear things from god like i want to give this to you

1066
01:13:06.480 --> 01:13:12.800
and then we're like well i want it why can't i just have it here's one of the other shifts i

1067
01:13:12.800 --> 01:13:19.680
really want to encourage you to make part of the reason we hear god say i want to give this to you

1068
01:13:19.680 --> 01:13:27.680
versus i have already given this to you do you see the difference

1069
01:13:27.680 --> 01:13:28.720
do you see the difference

1070
01:13:30.960 --> 01:13:36.080
when we hear i want to give this to you there's still some level of us not believing

1071
01:13:36.640 --> 01:13:43.440
that it's already ours so when i was talking earlier and i know again it's really hard

1072
01:13:43.440 --> 01:13:49.200
because we have to deal with what's going on in the physical realm in the physical realm

1073
01:13:49.200 --> 01:13:53.520
we're dealing with the enemy and all the attacks and all the things that he's doing to hinder the

1074
01:13:53.520 --> 01:14:01.760
blessing of god but the reality is is that the the blessing the blood of christ and all of its

1075
01:14:01.760 --> 01:14:11.040
benefits was already given to us okay it's not again us striving to get it it's us partnering

1076
01:14:11.040 --> 01:14:18.080
with god but sometimes it's resting and i know that you're you've done a lot of work to try to

1077
01:14:18.080 --> 01:14:24.480
get better to heal to even like your school work to your singing and i just feel like god in this

1078
01:14:24.480 --> 01:14:30.080
season is saying it's time to rest okay and so i really want to encourage you to maybe do some

1079
01:14:30.080 --> 01:14:36.800
scripture reading on sabbath and solitude like what does god's words say about resting in him

1080
01:14:37.680 --> 01:14:41.680
versus you feeling like you have to earn and get something from him

1081
01:14:42.640 --> 01:14:50.960
for it to be yours does that make sense yeah yeah and again you're going to feel that tension

1082
01:14:50.960 --> 01:14:55.440
sometimes still but you're on your way i don't think it's going to be a lot longer for you

1083
01:14:56.160 --> 01:14:59.760
and i know that can sound really easy for someone who's not walking

1084
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:05.320
through it but I have my own battles and I know that sometimes even for me when

1085
01:15:05.320 --> 01:15:09.720
we're waiting for the promise to come when there's something you know even

1086
01:15:09.720 --> 01:15:12.760
physically things I've been battling like even being sick even though it's

1087
01:15:12.760 --> 01:15:18.720
only been two weeks y'all I'm like man okay I am ready to be over this I am so

1088
01:15:18.720 --> 01:15:23.500
ready to not feel sick or have congestion or have energy so I I get it

1089
01:15:23.500 --> 01:15:30.100
okay the in-between is really tough sometimes and then imagine like she's I

1090
01:15:30.100 --> 01:15:33.980
mean this is something she's been facing for a long time with these intrusive

1091
01:15:33.980 --> 01:15:38.620
thoughts and things the last thing I want to share is sometimes we can't

1092
01:15:38.620 --> 01:15:42.660
change our environment okay and I know that I've chatted with you a little bit

1093
01:15:42.660 --> 01:15:46.220
about that before I understand too because you're younger and things like

1094
01:15:46.220 --> 01:15:51.780
that you might not be able to move out of your current environment but you all

1095
01:15:51.780 --> 01:15:59.820
sometimes our environment is playing a role okay and so for those of you that

1096
01:15:59.820 --> 01:16:03.260
might struggle with some of those things that might be something you need to pray

1097
01:16:03.260 --> 01:16:12.460
about and sometimes we can't change that so we endure it until we can change that

1098
01:16:12.460 --> 01:16:18.300
okay and so unfortunately I think that that is kind of playing a role in your

1099
01:16:18.300 --> 01:16:21.420
life you know the environment even though you are getting along better with

1100
01:16:21.420 --> 01:16:25.860
your parents y'all have come a long way but I do think that there are things

1101
01:16:25.860 --> 01:16:29.660
that you know remember everything kind of comes from the top down in our

1102
01:16:29.660 --> 01:16:34.020
community you know same thing with our parents and our family and so if there

1103
01:16:34.020 --> 01:16:39.620
are things that they are allowing into their lives that is directly impacting

1104
01:16:39.620 --> 01:16:46.380
you as you're under their authority and in their home still yeah Roseanne Roseanne

1105
01:16:46.380 --> 01:16:49.580
said I heard a quote one time that King David persevered and turned his desert

1106
01:16:49.580 --> 01:16:54.580
of loneliness into a garden of solitude that's right yeah and even you know

1107
01:16:54.580 --> 01:16:57.700
Jackie referenced and you guys have probably heard me reference before when

1108
01:16:57.700 --> 01:17:03.420
David said why are you downcast on my soul hope in the Lord and so there there

1109
01:17:03.420 --> 01:17:13.340
is that the intrusive thoughts that can come and someone private message me yes

1110
01:17:13.340 --> 01:17:18.740
but I don't believe that's the case here for the private message I just got and

1111
01:17:18.740 --> 01:17:25.180
so yeah just just keep praying and look into that solitude and the rest and see

1112
01:17:25.180 --> 01:17:29.900
where God leads you with that you know a lot of times ladies to here's one other

1113
01:17:29.900 --> 01:17:35.220
thought that just came to me is that sometimes we can focus so much on what

1114
01:17:35.220 --> 01:17:39.340
the enemy is doing to us or the struggle that we're having that it can actually

1115
01:17:39.340 --> 01:17:44.140
cause that to increase and when we shift you know just like when I'll say to you

1116
01:17:44.140 --> 01:17:50.940
guys sometimes the best thing we can do is worship worship is warfare resting

1117
01:17:50.940 --> 01:17:56.260
is also warfare and we're not having to do any of the fighting because God's

1118
01:17:56.260 --> 01:18:00.700
fighting for us so Tatiana that's the last thing I want to just kind of remind

1119
01:18:00.700 --> 01:18:04.180
you is that God is fighting for you I know it might not feel like it sometimes

1120
01:18:04.180 --> 01:18:08.900
but that doesn't make it not true okay so if you can kind of just ask God to

1121
01:18:08.900 --> 01:18:13.860
give you an image of like in the Bible where I can't remember if it was Elisha

1122
01:18:13.860 --> 01:18:18.780
or Elijah but where he you know the servants all scared and Elisha's like

1123
01:18:18.780 --> 01:18:23.100
God opened his eyes and God opens the servants eyes and there's this host of

1124
01:18:23.100 --> 01:18:27.060
angel armies there to fight with them and so I just want to give you that

1125
01:18:27.060 --> 01:18:31.940
picture as well that the host of you know angel armies is fighting for you

1126
01:18:31.940 --> 01:18:37.380
and God is on your side thank you for sharing with us we're praying for you

1127
01:18:37.420 --> 01:18:43.820
thank you you're welcome joy go ahead

1128
01:18:45.820 --> 01:18:55.780
okay I had a similar experience as you experienced in public just recently so I

1129
01:18:55.780 --> 01:19:05.740
just know I was kind of a little bit embarrassed I was tears in my eyes then

1130
01:19:05.740 --> 01:19:16.460
I was talking to God got over it and then I don't feel hurt and I sent a

1131
01:19:16.460 --> 01:19:21.780
message to that the spiritual authority and he did not respond to me because I

1132
01:19:21.780 --> 01:19:29.940
I'm a kind of peacemaker you know in my past sometimes if people make sense to

1133
01:19:29.940 --> 01:19:35.660
me and I I went to them I said I'm sorry but actually they did wrong to me but I

1134
01:19:35.660 --> 01:19:41.620
rather to have a peace I just went there to try to reconcile I said sorry I'm

1135
01:19:41.620 --> 01:19:48.500
sorry actually they did but this time I left a message and he did not respond to

1136
01:19:48.500 --> 01:19:58.500
me so yeah did I have to I don't know whether I still you know even I don't

1137
01:19:58.500 --> 01:20:01.180
feel hurt

1138
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:02.800
I don't feel hurt at all, but I don't know.

1139
01:20:02.800 --> 01:20:05.200
Like you said, you said you mind,

1140
01:20:05.200 --> 01:20:07.240
you saw yourself in the court,

1141
01:20:07.240 --> 01:20:10.760
something I did not hear very, understand very well.

1142
01:20:10.760 --> 01:20:13.960
But I, I'm just so, I, sometimes I don't feel hurt,

1143
01:20:13.960 --> 01:20:15.960
but I, I want to God show me

1144
01:20:15.960 --> 01:20:17.920
whether it's still deep inside me,

1145
01:20:17.920 --> 01:20:21.520
still have something going on through past things.

1146
01:20:22.880 --> 01:20:27.360
So how can I detect, probably have to just like,

1147
01:20:27.360 --> 01:20:30.280
you're so, so can praise the Lord

1148
01:20:30.280 --> 01:20:32.200
and allow God to reveal to me

1149
01:20:32.200 --> 01:20:34.920
so I can get rid of every root of,

1150
01:20:36.280 --> 01:20:39.360
that one wants to get rid of it, yeah.

1151
01:20:41.160 --> 01:20:42.840
Yeah, Joy, Joy, that's,

1152
01:20:44.120 --> 01:20:46.080
it really is the best thing we can do

1153
01:20:46.080 --> 01:20:48.480
is pray, forgive these people.

1154
01:20:48.480 --> 01:20:52.320
You know, when people, interestingly enough,

1155
01:20:52.320 --> 01:20:54.160
the gentleman that I was talking about earlier,

1156
01:20:54.160 --> 01:20:56.000
he would do that too.

1157
01:20:56.000 --> 01:20:57.840
I would email him like business,

1158
01:20:57.840 --> 01:20:59.480
like church business questions,

1159
01:20:59.480 --> 01:21:03.520
and he literally wouldn't respond to me for like weeks.

1160
01:21:03.520 --> 01:21:06.120
But then my husband would send them an email

1161
01:21:06.120 --> 01:21:07.560
and he would respond to him.

1162
01:21:08.560 --> 01:21:11.440
And so there's that dynamic just kept happening

1163
01:21:11.440 --> 01:21:14.680
and it was making the whole team dynamic worse

1164
01:21:14.680 --> 01:21:17.120
every single time it happened.

1165
01:21:17.120 --> 01:21:19.720
And so what I will tell you is that,

1166
01:21:19.720 --> 01:21:20.920
you know, number one,

1167
01:21:20.920 --> 01:21:23.080
I think it's important for us to remember,

1168
01:21:24.000 --> 01:21:27.520
this is so much more about that guy than it is about me.

1169
01:21:28.640 --> 01:21:30.960
I'm not saying there's nothing I can't ever change,

1170
01:21:30.960 --> 01:21:33.280
but I wasn't doing anything wrong.

1171
01:21:33.280 --> 01:21:35.720
I was asking for clarification on things we needed

1172
01:21:35.720 --> 01:21:38.520
to do our finances for the church.

1173
01:21:40.520 --> 01:21:44.960
And for whatever reason, he was choosing to not respond.

1174
01:21:44.960 --> 01:21:45.800
Okay?

1175
01:21:46.840 --> 01:21:51.640
And so good job on not trying to get him to answer you.

1176
01:21:51.640 --> 01:21:53.720
Good job on just trying to move forward.

1177
01:21:53.720 --> 01:21:56.000
You know, forgive those people.

1178
01:21:56.000 --> 01:21:59.600
God ask us to forgive those people that harm us in any way.

1179
01:21:59.600 --> 01:22:01.080
And you know, this is tonight,

1180
01:22:01.080 --> 01:22:03.640
I feel like it's a good reminder you all

1181
01:22:03.640 --> 01:22:05.560
that it's in the small things

1182
01:22:05.560 --> 01:22:08.080
just as much as the big things that it matters

1183
01:22:08.080 --> 01:22:11.320
that we forgive people for offending us or,

1184
01:22:11.320 --> 01:22:13.160
you know, ignoring us.

1185
01:22:13.160 --> 01:22:15.480
I think that's a common thread that's coming out tonight

1186
01:22:15.480 --> 01:22:18.880
is that so many of us have even been ignored

1187
01:22:18.880 --> 01:22:21.000
by authority figures.

1188
01:22:21.000 --> 01:22:23.480
And that brings hurt as well.

1189
01:22:23.480 --> 01:22:25.880
Shut out, you know, like what happened to Lisa?

1190
01:22:25.880 --> 01:22:29.800
Like that kind of, those kinds of things are like very,

1191
01:22:29.800 --> 01:22:32.200
very like resounding in our spirits

1192
01:22:32.200 --> 01:22:34.200
because we're created for connection,

1193
01:22:34.200 --> 01:22:35.400
we're created for community.

1194
01:22:35.400 --> 01:22:38.560
So when someone literally on our end,

1195
01:22:38.560 --> 01:22:43.240
the way we believe it is, you know,

1196
01:22:43.240 --> 01:22:46.640
they're not responding to me, they're ignoring me, whatever.

1197
01:22:46.640 --> 01:22:49.720
I had a lady in one of the other groups

1198
01:22:49.760 --> 01:22:54.000
that, you know, for those of you that have been around,

1199
01:22:54.000 --> 01:22:55.720
we are very grateful for our app.

1200
01:22:55.720 --> 01:22:57.960
So I just wanna preface that,

1201
01:22:57.960 --> 01:22:59.680
but our app hasn't been functioning

1202
01:22:59.680 --> 01:23:02.160
the way it used to for a long time.

1203
01:23:02.160 --> 01:23:04.920
And it's really not an easy thing for our team

1204
01:23:04.920 --> 01:23:08.040
because like I'll come in and say something to you guys,

1205
01:23:08.040 --> 01:23:11.400
I'll comment or Andrea or Kelly will comment on your post.

1206
01:23:11.400 --> 01:23:13.680
And back in the day, when you guys would respond,

1207
01:23:13.680 --> 01:23:16.160
we would get this notification on the backend.

1208
01:23:16.160 --> 01:23:17.760
That's not happening anymore for us.

1209
01:23:17.760 --> 01:23:20.760
So sometimes we're not seeing your responses.

1210
01:23:20.760 --> 01:23:22.880
Well, anyway, saying that sometimes we also,

1211
01:23:22.880 --> 01:23:25.040
what can happen, and I don't want y'all to worry,

1212
01:23:25.040 --> 01:23:29.120
but if some of y'all post and we don't respond at all,

1213
01:23:29.120 --> 01:23:30.280
I just want you to know,

1214
01:23:30.280 --> 01:23:33.200
it's probably your post is in the ghost land.

1215
01:23:33.200 --> 01:23:34.320
That's what I call it.

1216
01:23:34.320 --> 01:23:36.000
It's in ghost land.

1217
01:23:36.000 --> 01:23:38.840
But anyways, I'm saying that to say this lady posted

1218
01:23:38.840 --> 01:23:43.240
and my other team members could not see her post.

1219
01:23:43.240 --> 01:23:44.800
I was really sick, you all know,

1220
01:23:44.800 --> 01:23:46.160
I was really sick that one week.

1221
01:23:46.160 --> 01:23:48.600
I only logged in to do what I had to do.

1222
01:23:48.600 --> 01:23:52.120
So I wasn't in that group looking at the post.

1223
01:23:53.040 --> 01:23:55.800
My team didn't see it because they couldn't see it

1224
01:23:55.800 --> 01:23:56.920
for whatever reason.

1225
01:23:56.920 --> 01:23:59.400
When I logged in after she complained,

1226
01:23:59.400 --> 01:24:01.440
she sent in an email.

1227
01:24:01.440 --> 01:24:04.480
And this is the reason I'm telling you this story

1228
01:24:04.480 --> 01:24:06.560
is because what she said in the email.

1229
01:24:07.680 --> 01:24:11.000
She said, I want to cancel my subscription

1230
01:24:11.000 --> 01:24:13.480
because I'm being stonewalled.

1231
01:24:14.480 --> 01:24:16.760
Okay, I'm not mocking her,

1232
01:24:16.760 --> 01:24:19.080
but the reason I'm giving this as an example

1233
01:24:19.080 --> 01:24:23.520
is because that is something she already believes

1234
01:24:23.520 --> 01:24:24.560
to be true.

1235
01:24:27.160 --> 01:24:30.040
Even myself, I'm even ministering to myself tonight.

1236
01:24:31.480 --> 01:24:35.000
I feel ignored in my life by men in authority,

1237
01:24:35.000 --> 01:24:39.800
including my dad when he left when I was little.

1238
01:24:39.800 --> 01:24:43.000
And so when I feel ignored now by men,

1239
01:24:43.880 --> 01:24:45.320
it goes even now.

1240
01:24:45.320 --> 01:24:47.360
Again, this is how revelation happens, y'all.

1241
01:24:47.360 --> 01:24:49.280
Sometimes I get revelation when I'm coaching you all,

1242
01:24:49.280 --> 01:24:50.280
just like right now.

1243
01:24:52.720 --> 01:24:56.320
So what we believe, we become,

1244
01:24:57.320 --> 01:24:58.960
and then we attract.

1245
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:12.000
So if I believe that men in power or authority or men that aren't healed ignore me or mistreat me, that's going to show up in all kinds of places, right?

1246
01:25:12.000 --> 01:25:20.000
Well, this woman unfortunately believes that she gets stonewalled by people, that people overlook her, that people, you know.

1247
01:25:20.000 --> 01:25:25.000
So when she complained, I went in and answered all of her posts, y'all, and she's fine and everything's good.

1248
01:25:25.000 --> 01:25:29.000
So I don't want y'all to think it's like an example for that reason.

1249
01:25:29.000 --> 01:25:33.000
And of course we don't want her to feel that way.

1250
01:25:33.000 --> 01:25:40.000
Do you think it's a coincidence that I also had to deal with someone in our church that believed the same thing this weekend?

1251
01:25:40.000 --> 01:25:46.000
She didn't sign up to receive our emails and then got mad because she didn't get an email from us.

1252
01:25:46.000 --> 01:25:51.000
We use an email marketing system. You have to sign up for it. We're not allowed to just email you.

1253
01:25:51.000 --> 01:25:55.000
But she came up, she was so mad.

1254
01:25:55.000 --> 01:25:58.000
And I told the afternoon group, she came up to me and this is literally what she said.

1255
01:25:58.000 --> 01:26:04.000
I already gave Courtney, Courtney's our office coordinator, a piece of my mind and I'm going to give you a piece of my mind now too.

1256
01:26:04.000 --> 01:26:09.000
That is how she started the conversation. Y'all can imagine how that went.

1257
01:26:09.000 --> 01:26:13.000
And y'all, it was all over an email.

1258
01:26:13.000 --> 01:26:19.000
One email that she didn't get that was not intentional, that she didn't get it.

1259
01:26:19.000 --> 01:26:24.000
What are we believing in our hearts about things? About ourselves?

1260
01:26:24.000 --> 01:26:29.000
And that's causing us to get triggered and have these big explosive reactions.

1261
01:26:29.000 --> 01:26:34.000
And God's just trying to help us dial it in tonight.

1262
01:26:34.000 --> 01:26:39.000
To submit to Him, to surrender these situations to Him, to allow Him to come in and heal.

1263
01:26:39.000 --> 01:26:46.000
So joy back to you. I think it's great that you're willing to just pray into this and make sure that that's not in your heart

1264
01:26:46.000 --> 01:26:51.000
or causing any negativity in there. That's part of the revealing for healing process.

1265
01:26:51.000 --> 01:26:54.000
Just keep moving forward. You're doing a great job.

1266
01:26:54.000 --> 01:26:58.000
Yeah. And also I shared with the person in the breakout room.

1267
01:26:58.000 --> 01:27:04.000
I said, I learned to just quickly put in my heart, no matter what happens, just in Thanksgiving.

1268
01:27:04.000 --> 01:27:11.000
I focus my gaze on Him and stay Thanksgiving because God calls all things work together for good.

1269
01:27:11.000 --> 01:27:14.000
Benefit those who love Him and according to purpose.

1270
01:27:14.000 --> 01:27:19.000
I have to immediately shift into praise or shift into Thanksgiving.

1271
01:27:19.000 --> 01:27:25.000
So when I do that, the disappointment hurts. We're not easily slicking.

1272
01:27:25.000 --> 01:27:33.000
At the moment, at the second, if I do not, of course, that time, I mean, I did not.

1273
01:27:33.000 --> 01:27:37.000
I really am kind of embarrassed. So that's why I was in tears.

1274
01:27:38.000 --> 01:27:39.000
At the beginning, I did not.

1275
01:27:39.000 --> 01:27:43.000
And it's okay for us to feel that. I want to make sure that you hear that part of joy.

1276
01:27:43.000 --> 01:27:48.000
So maybe not allow yourself to feel it. Well, we're going to feel things in that moment,

1277
01:27:48.000 --> 01:27:54.000
but maybe feel it more when you're by yourself so you can process that with the Lord.

1278
01:27:54.000 --> 01:27:59.000
For anybody that's hearing this, it's really important for us to feel the feels and not just shove those down

1279
01:27:59.000 --> 01:28:03.000
because sometimes what can happen too, which is really good that you just shift to being thankful.

1280
01:28:03.000 --> 01:28:06.000
And that's an amazing character trait in you.

1281
01:28:06.000 --> 01:28:11.000
But sometimes what can happen too is if we shift too quickly to that,

1282
01:28:11.000 --> 01:28:16.000
before we have those revealings for healing and we feel those emotions that we're having,

1283
01:28:16.000 --> 01:28:22.000
we can actually suppress those things and those can kind of come up later on.

1284
01:28:22.000 --> 01:28:25.000
And so just make sure because you are, you're a joy-filled person.

1285
01:28:25.000 --> 01:28:28.000
You are like what your name declares.

1286
01:28:29.000 --> 01:28:34.000
And so you tend to really shift into that. And that's an amazing, like I said, character trait.

1287
01:28:34.000 --> 01:28:39.000
Just make sure you're not dismissing your feelings in the process.

1288
01:28:39.000 --> 01:28:42.000
And not that you are, but just saying that for everyone as well.

1289
01:28:42.000 --> 01:28:45.000
Thank you so much for sharing. I'm going to go ahead and go to Sarah.

1290
01:28:45.000 --> 01:28:48.000
We have just a few minutes left tonight.

1291
01:28:48.000 --> 01:28:49.000
Okay. Thank you.

1292
01:28:49.000 --> 01:28:50.000
You're welcome.

1293
01:28:53.000 --> 01:28:56.000
Thank you, Bethany. I'll make this super quick.

1294
01:28:57.000 --> 01:28:59.000
First thing I have is a really quick question.

1295
01:28:59.000 --> 01:29:02.000
And this actually ties into my share because I got here, as you saw, very late.

1296
01:29:02.000 --> 01:29:05.000
And I totally missed like whatever the topic was tonight.

1297
01:29:07.000 --> 01:29:12.000
But I put the share in the chat just and sometimes I see people do that.

1298
01:29:12.000 --> 01:29:15.000
And I've done that in the past. And I just wanted to confirm,

1299
01:29:15.000 --> 01:29:19.000
are there things that the team would rather we didn't like,

1300
01:29:19.000 --> 01:29:24.000
like you were saying outside materials and stuff like for like copyright purposes and things like that?

1301
01:29:24.000 --> 01:29:28.000
Yeah. So in the announcement tonight, housekeeping, every couple of weeks,

1302
01:29:28.000 --> 01:29:29.000
I'll circle back to housekeeping,

1303
01:29:29.000 --> 01:29:33.000
which you wouldn't have heard just because of the timing you were able to get on

1304
01:29:33.000 --> 01:29:34.000
tonight. And just so y'all know,

1305
01:29:34.000 --> 01:29:37.000
it's okay if you can't be here for the whole session,

1306
01:29:37.000 --> 01:29:40.000
I would much rather you all just log in and be here when you can,

1307
01:29:40.000 --> 01:29:43.000
obviously, if you can be here for the whole thing. Awesome.

1308
01:29:43.000 --> 01:29:46.000
But you can always go back and catch the replay for the part that you weren't

1309
01:29:46.000 --> 01:29:49.000
here. So just want to make sure everybody knows that like,

1310
01:29:49.000 --> 01:29:52.000
I'm never going to be like, Oh my gosh, you're showing up late.

1311
01:29:52.000 --> 01:29:54.000
Like I don't think that ever.

1312
01:29:54.000 --> 01:29:59.000
So I would rather y'all come and be here for any part of the sessions when you

1313
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:07.240
can. But one of the things is we do any outside material, so any outside ministry

1314
01:30:07.240 --> 01:30:13.280
stuff, devotions, business stuff, even people like, you know, TikToks that just

1315
01:30:13.280 --> 01:30:18.720
share, even if it is really awesome, we actually remove all of that stuff from

1316
01:30:18.720 --> 01:30:25.280
our group when anybody posts it because we don't have the time to vet all that

1317
01:30:25.280 --> 01:30:32.000
stuff out. So I'm very familiar with Derrick Prince and his content, but the

1318
01:30:32.000 --> 01:30:37.640
reality is, is we just do it across the board. And we do that because also, and

1319
01:30:37.640 --> 01:30:43.400
here's some of the stuff, sometimes people ask about like satanic stuff and

1320
01:30:43.400 --> 01:30:49.680
things like that. One of the things we've even had to have had to curb in our post

1321
01:30:49.680 --> 01:30:54.400
with people, like when you all submit posts to the groups, is if it goes too

1322
01:30:54.400 --> 01:31:00.480
much into that stuff, there's people coming in from all different belief

1323
01:31:00.480 --> 01:31:04.600
systems. Some people that aren't even Christians yet or have very little

1324
01:31:04.600 --> 01:31:08.320
knowledge of that stuff. And so if we start going too far into that kind of

1325
01:31:08.320 --> 01:31:13.560
content, it can get very scary for people. It doesn't mean we don't believe in some

1326
01:31:13.560 --> 01:31:19.920
of that stuff, but that isn't our calling in this group, you know. And so we just

1327
01:31:19.920 --> 01:31:24.240
try to even just really put guardrails against that. Some of the other things

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we've had to really put guardrails against recently is people's stance on,

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you know, COVID shots or vaccinations or like, and this is a real thing that

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people are facing even in the dating world. And we do address it, but we just

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don't allow post in the group because there's a lot of controversy, just like

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we don't allow political post in the group. So we just really protect the

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01:31:49.600 --> 01:31:55.200
group community to focus on what we're here for. Does that make sense? And even

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though again, that I'm sure that will help her a lot, Sarah, and I know I can

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01:31:59.360 --> 01:32:03.360
tell like you have a heart just to serve from things that have helped you. But to

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01:32:03.360 --> 01:32:08.280
answer your question, yeah, we will. And even I've noticed one of the ladies has

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put up just a simple prophetic, it looks like it might be like a terror, a daily

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01:32:12.160 --> 01:32:18.120
terror counter thing, prophetic thought for the day. And they've been good. But

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because I'm just trying to be consistent with what our, our community policy is,

1340
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I've just taken those down. So that's not to offend her or anyone else. It's

1341
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just Yeah, across the board. We just that's something that we do here.

1342
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Right? Yeah. And I just want to I'll make it super quick, because we're just over

1343
01:32:37.400 --> 01:32:44.080
the 630. But I had, um, as soon as as you said that I suddenly had, I

1344
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recognize that I work as a counselor. So I do this stuff all the time. This

1345
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emotional trigger that came up, and it went straight back to these religious

1346
01:32:51.680 --> 01:32:55.600
communities that I had been in. And I was spirit filled, but didn't understand it

1347
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was like, you know, I was like, Why don't they all see this? This doesn't make

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sense. But I hit, what do you want to call it? It's like those unspoken rules

1349
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that they had in those communities. And then there was a lot of, you know,

1350
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obviously stuff in the spiritual realm behind the scenes, I couldn't see at the

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time. And I had that trigger come up as soon as I was like, Oh, my gosh, you know,

1352
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like, I felt so dumb. I felt silly. And it's not like I, it makes 100% like,

1353
01:33:21.560 --> 01:33:28.120
sense when you at all. Yeah, yeah. Yeah. So I totally 100% understand that. And

1354
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then well, and then because of that, like, I've actually had pain. I've

1355
01:33:32.360 --> 01:33:34.880
actually put it in the chat before for healing. And people are like, What is

1356
01:33:34.880 --> 01:33:39.960
that pisoas? But it's the psoas muscle. And the Lord gave me a dream. And I saw

1357
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two men in the dream that I think refer to I don't know if it's like a evil

1358
01:33:43.440 --> 01:33:49.160
spirit or something. But it is getting heat now, as I've come back to that

1359
01:33:49.160 --> 01:33:54.440
trigger. So I think it's connected to that. Um, and so I felt so I felt so

1360
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silly. You know, I was like, Oh, I want to do is help. And I just made a blunder.

1361
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I crossed the line. And I was like, Wait, this is going back to that trigger. Um,

1362
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yes. And that's what I'll be processing tonight.

1363
01:34:06.360 --> 01:34:09.720
Yeah, and it is good. And I love that you're bringing this up. Because just so

1364
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you all know, um, no one's ever in trouble. Okay. Um, and the way that I

1365
01:34:17.080 --> 01:34:21.200
look at it is, I don't even look at it, like, even though I'm saying, okay, this

1366
01:34:21.200 --> 01:34:26.000
is kind of our guardrail here. I want you to think of it when we say that more

1367
01:34:26.000 --> 01:34:30.200
as a like, you're not like, I'm not like, hey, you're breaking the rules. It's

1368
01:34:30.200 --> 01:34:34.680
more like, hey, just, you know, just to keep a guardrail there. Because some

1369
01:34:34.680 --> 01:34:40.280
people too, they will, they will listen to some of those things. And they may

1370
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not have the capacity to understand them on their own. And my pastoral heart.

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01:34:47.040 --> 01:34:50.880
That's something I see a lot in our community. And it's not that other

1372
01:34:50.880 --> 01:34:55.160
people intend that I know, even when I share stuff back in the day, I remember

1373
01:34:55.160 --> 01:34:58.640
this young lady, I was discipling, I was sharing some stuff with her, and she

1374
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just wasn't ready.

1375
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She wasn't ready for what I was sharing with her.

1376
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And, uh, and so that's probably why I tend to be cautious about it as well.

1377
01:35:07.920 --> 01:35:12.920
Um, but just know that we appreciate you and I can see that your heart is to

1378
01:35:12.920 --> 01:35:14.840
love and to serve and to help people.

1379
01:35:14.840 --> 01:35:16.360
And that's a great thing.

1380
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So don't, don't believe any lies of the enemy.

1381
01:35:19.880 --> 01:35:21.760
You know, I don't think anything bad.

1382
01:35:21.760 --> 01:35:24.160
I thought it was really beautiful that you were willing to help

1383
01:35:24.160 --> 01:35:25.280
your sister is what I thought.

1384
01:35:25.980 --> 01:35:29.520
But I just wanted just so people knew, um, again, cause some people

1385
01:35:29.520 --> 01:35:31.560
didn't hear the beginning and I knew that.

1386
01:35:31.600 --> 01:35:33.160
And so, just so people would know.

1387
01:35:33.520 --> 01:35:36.160
Um, so lean into that for sure.

1388
01:35:36.480 --> 01:35:40.040
And make sure that the Lord is revealing to you.

1389
01:35:40.120 --> 01:35:43.280
Um, if you're feeling that in your body as well, to me, that's a double

1390
01:35:43.280 --> 01:35:47.040
confirmation that there's something that the Lord's wanting to heal there.

1391
01:35:47.040 --> 01:35:52.680
So that's probably why this all happened tonight, you know, um, because I've

1392
01:35:52.680 --> 01:35:56.200
seen even people post things before and it's not even intentional, but sometimes

1393
01:35:56.200 --> 01:36:00.160
I'm just in the flow and I'm not able to stop because I'm afraid I'm going

1394
01:36:00.160 --> 01:36:03.000
to lose my thought to say something about what's posted in the chat.

1395
01:36:03.000 --> 01:36:05.760
But tonight I just felt like I had the capacity to do it.

1396
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And so ladies, this is how even heart healing happens.

1397
01:36:08.960 --> 01:36:12.880
Like I said, sometimes it's just like, as we're going, as we're

1398
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in the middle of something.

1399
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Um, and so praying for you about that and that you will just see you're a

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01:36:19.240 --> 01:36:20.760
valuable part of this community.

1401
01:36:20.800 --> 01:36:25.680
And we, we are so glad that you're here because you all, I will say

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as we close tonight, one of the really cool things, Jackie used to say this all

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01:36:30.160 --> 01:36:35.040
the time when, um, I was just beginning in the heartwork and praying and, and

1404
01:36:35.040 --> 01:36:40.920
we'd go to the prayer calls and she would say, um, for us to kind of just

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01:36:40.920 --> 01:36:46.000
pause and think about the people that are right here in this moment, in this,

1406
01:36:46.080 --> 01:36:50.200
the certain heart attitudes and postures that we're in, like how this

1407
01:36:50.200 --> 01:36:52.080
moment will never happen again.

1408
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And it's a really beautiful thing just to think about and contemplate, like all

1409
01:36:55.760 --> 01:36:59.760
the ladies that were on live tonight, like we're never all going to be in the

1410
01:36:59.760 --> 01:37:02.320
same place in our hearts and our thoughts.

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01:37:02.320 --> 01:37:06.160
And just even being here all at the same time, like, you know, even last week

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01:37:06.160 --> 01:37:10.440
we have some ladies that have moved on to phase two and so they're still in

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01:37:10.440 --> 01:37:12.320
the community, but they're not here tonight.

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01:37:12.320 --> 01:37:14.120
You know, you see how things change.

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And so thank you all for being here tonight, praying that God blesses

1416
01:37:17.560 --> 01:37:19.640
you, continues to encourage you.

1417
01:37:19.640 --> 01:37:21.680
Helps you know that you're seen and loved.

1418
01:37:21.920 --> 01:37:25.760
You're a valuable part of this community and we're really grateful that you're on

1419
01:37:25.760 --> 01:37:28.280
this journey for yourself, but also with us.

1420
01:37:28.280 --> 01:37:29.120
So let me pray us out.

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Father, thank you.

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01:37:31.400 --> 01:37:32.840
Thank you for everything you're doing.

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01:37:33.160 --> 01:37:35.800
God, thank you for every lady that's here tonight.

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01:37:35.800 --> 01:37:40.000
Thank you for the plan and the promise that you have for their lives.

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01:37:40.040 --> 01:37:42.000
Lord, again, just thank you for their love story.

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01:37:42.480 --> 01:37:44.720
We thank you for revealings for healing that are happening.

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01:37:44.720 --> 01:37:47.920
We thank you for breakthrough where there's been obstacles, where there's

1428
01:37:47.920 --> 01:37:52.000
been even like Sarah sharing things that we've experienced before that are coming

1429
01:37:52.000 --> 01:37:55.760
up, even as our things are unfolding tonight, God, we just, we just speak

1430
01:37:55.760 --> 01:37:58.600
Pete, uh, peace and healing over those areas.

1431
01:37:58.600 --> 01:38:04.920
God, yes, Lord, we're asking for the, the oil of heaven to wash over us from

1432
01:38:04.920 --> 01:38:07.000
the top of our head to the bottom of our feet.

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01:38:09.520 --> 01:38:13.120
Father, I thank you that you would just heal us in ways that only

1434
01:38:13.120 --> 01:38:14.400
you can do supernaturally.

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01:38:14.400 --> 01:38:18.720
God, even some of us have strived for years to get breakthrough God, and you

1436
01:38:18.720 --> 01:38:22.360
can like just continue to work that out in us, and we just thank you that

1437
01:38:22.360 --> 01:38:26.560
you'll give us the ability to trust you in the process, Lord, help us to

1438
01:38:26.560 --> 01:38:30.920
have the courage to surrender our hearts and our lives and our attitudes, our

1439
01:38:30.920 --> 01:38:37.000
mindsets to you, we just thank you for, for going into our timelines and healing

1440
01:38:37.000 --> 01:38:40.000
our family of origin stories where it's needed as well.

1441
01:38:40.680 --> 01:38:42.920
And I just pray that you would give these ladies, sailor rest and

1442
01:38:42.920 --> 01:38:46.400
help them just to experience your love in a fresh, intangible way.

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01:38:46.960 --> 01:38:50.760
More and more and more in the days to come in Jesus name, amen.

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01:38:51.080 --> 01:38:52.440
God bless you all.

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01:38:52.600 --> 01:38:54.680
It was been so fun to be here tonight.

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01:38:54.720 --> 01:38:57.640
I'll see you guys again next Monday evening.

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01:38:57.640 --> 01:38:58.960
Have a good night, everyone.

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01:38:59.880 --> 01:39:00.640
Thank you.

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Thank you.