WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.480 --> 00:00:02.660 - Good morning. 2 00:00:02.660 --> 00:00:03.840 - Hello, hello. 3 00:00:03.840 --> 00:00:05.320 It's so good to see faces. 4 00:00:05.320 --> 00:00:08.480 I see Sarah and Laura and Rachel, Rachel, 5 00:00:08.480 --> 00:00:09.920 on her walking pad. 6 00:00:09.920 --> 00:00:11.680 It's always getting those steps in. 7 00:00:11.680 --> 00:00:14.280 Happy July. 8 00:00:14.280 --> 00:00:19.400 We are so excited for the July mentorship call. 9 00:00:19.400 --> 00:00:20.720 We're so excited to be with you. 10 00:00:20.720 --> 00:00:23.600 We wanted to have fun with this call 11 00:00:23.600 --> 00:00:25.920 and do something a little differently 12 00:00:25.920 --> 00:00:27.120 than we've done in the past. 13 00:00:27.120 --> 00:00:30.840 We want to have more conversation with you guys. 14 00:00:30.840 --> 00:00:33.800 We really do value community. 15 00:00:33.800 --> 00:00:37.160 We want to build the community inside uplift. 16 00:00:37.160 --> 00:00:39.640 And we thought it would be fun today 17 00:00:39.640 --> 00:00:42.640 to start off the call and ask 18 00:00:42.640 --> 00:00:45.880 what you feel like God has been doing in your life lately. 19 00:00:45.880 --> 00:00:49.080 I'll go first. 20 00:00:49.080 --> 00:00:51.120 It's funny, I didn't actually think of the answer 21 00:00:51.120 --> 00:00:52.160 when I thought of the question. 22 00:00:52.160 --> 00:00:53.660 So let me think for a second. 23 00:00:53.660 --> 00:00:54.500 What? 24 00:00:54.500 --> 00:00:59.180 - I feel like God has been teaching me 25 00:00:59.180 --> 00:01:01.060 to be in the moment. 26 00:01:01.060 --> 00:01:03.540 I am very future focused. 27 00:01:03.540 --> 00:01:06.380 And being in the moment is hard for me 28 00:01:06.380 --> 00:01:09.200 'cause there's always a plan and something new to do. 29 00:01:09.200 --> 00:01:11.460 We thought in our family 30 00:01:11.460 --> 00:01:13.840 that we were getting one new golden retriever puppy. 31 00:01:13.840 --> 00:01:15.900 We have a five year old golden retriever 32 00:01:15.900 --> 00:01:19.660 and we accidentally got two golden retriever puppies. 33 00:01:19.660 --> 00:01:22.580 There was an extra one with a deformed paw 34 00:01:22.580 --> 00:01:23.660 and we fell in love with her. 35 00:01:23.660 --> 00:01:26.440 And she was left behind in another litter. 36 00:01:26.440 --> 00:01:28.940 And my husband said that we were taking them both. 37 00:01:28.940 --> 00:01:31.860 So was two golden? - So we went in to spend. 38 00:01:31.860 --> 00:01:35.140 - Yeah, with two golden, and I was like, yes, 39 00:01:35.140 --> 00:01:37.120 'cause he didn't even really want another dog. 40 00:01:37.120 --> 00:01:38.020 Now we have three. 41 00:01:38.020 --> 00:01:42.820 With two, it's like newborn twins, 42 00:01:42.820 --> 00:01:46.660 but if those twins were mobile and dangerous, right? 43 00:01:46.660 --> 00:01:51.500 And so most of my life where I'm not working right now 44 00:01:51.500 --> 00:01:54.380 is just completely in the moment. 45 00:01:54.380 --> 00:01:57.180 And we're taking them out to go potty every 30 minutes. 46 00:01:57.180 --> 00:02:01.140 And I go outside and gosh, okay, 47 00:02:01.140 --> 00:02:01.980 I'm getting emotional. 48 00:02:01.980 --> 00:02:03.740 I didn't expect to get emotional. 49 00:02:03.740 --> 00:02:05.860 During the day, the hummingbirds are all flying around. 50 00:02:05.860 --> 00:02:07.420 And I always look at the sky and say, 51 00:02:07.420 --> 00:02:09.060 thank you God for these puppies. 52 00:02:09.060 --> 00:02:11.420 Help me to do a good job with these puppies. 53 00:02:11.420 --> 00:02:13.460 And then I thank them for other things in my life. 54 00:02:13.460 --> 00:02:15.740 And then at night, I take them out 55 00:02:15.740 --> 00:02:17.580 and the fireflies are out. 56 00:02:17.580 --> 00:02:19.900 And I go, oh, thank you God for the fireflies 57 00:02:19.900 --> 00:02:20.740 and the puppies. 58 00:02:20.740 --> 00:02:23.740 And I don't know a single time, 59 00:02:23.740 --> 00:02:25.180 except for when I've had a newborn 60 00:02:25.180 --> 00:02:27.140 that I've been so in the moment. 61 00:02:27.140 --> 00:02:28.900 And it's delightful. 62 00:02:28.900 --> 00:02:30.580 It's just what I needed. 63 00:02:30.580 --> 00:02:32.660 I didn't expect to get emotional. 64 00:02:32.660 --> 00:02:35.540 So for me, God's teaching me to enjoy the moment 65 00:02:35.540 --> 00:02:38.900 and to, for a girl who's a dreamer, 66 00:02:38.900 --> 00:02:40.940 and we're gonna talk about dreams today, 67 00:02:40.940 --> 00:02:42.520 which are very important, 68 00:02:42.520 --> 00:02:49.460 it's good that maybe 1/1000 of the time 69 00:02:50.460 --> 00:02:53.140 I'm in the moment, that's really different. 70 00:02:53.140 --> 00:02:56.940 - That's really sweet. 71 00:02:56.940 --> 00:03:00.300 I want you to bring the puppies on camera. 72 00:03:00.300 --> 00:03:02.100 - Yeah, I would think they're napping right now. 73 00:03:02.100 --> 00:03:05.020 And I'm not waking either of those velociraptors 74 00:03:05.020 --> 00:03:06.300 'cause it's a lot. 75 00:03:06.300 --> 00:03:08.500 - A little sweet. 76 00:03:08.500 --> 00:03:09.340 - Yeah. 77 00:03:09.340 --> 00:03:11.540 - Oh my gosh. 78 00:03:11.540 --> 00:03:15.980 So my thread, as I was thinking about your question, 79 00:03:15.980 --> 00:03:17.580 was almost identical to yours. 80 00:03:17.580 --> 00:03:19.780 And you'll see why in just a second. 81 00:03:19.780 --> 00:03:22.020 So it is also dog-related. 82 00:03:22.020 --> 00:03:25.140 And it is also presence-related. 83 00:03:25.140 --> 00:03:28.300 So we have a 10-year-old dog 84 00:03:28.300 --> 00:03:31.140 who is senior in all of the best ways. 85 00:03:31.140 --> 00:03:33.780 She does still think she's a lap dog and a puppy. 86 00:03:33.780 --> 00:03:34.940 Sometimes she's 80 pounds. 87 00:03:34.940 --> 00:03:36.620 She's never been a lap dog. 88 00:03:36.620 --> 00:03:39.980 Girl does not know her own girth. 89 00:03:39.980 --> 00:03:43.180 But Nick and I have been talking about what do we do 90 00:03:43.180 --> 00:03:45.660 when this dog is done? 91 00:03:45.660 --> 00:03:47.900 We can't say when she does 'cause that hurts too much. 92 00:03:47.900 --> 00:03:50.820 So when this dog is done, that's what we call it. 93 00:03:50.820 --> 00:03:52.380 When this dog is done, what will we do? 94 00:03:52.380 --> 00:03:54.820 We used to have a cat and we've talked about cats 95 00:03:54.820 --> 00:03:58.580 and I'm firmly anti-liter box and we live in Maine. 96 00:03:58.580 --> 00:04:00.260 So it's not like we can train this cat 97 00:04:00.260 --> 00:04:04.700 to go outside in 12-inch snow in the winter. 98 00:04:04.700 --> 00:04:05.740 That's not gonna work. 99 00:04:05.740 --> 00:04:08.580 And I was talking to Ryan, who is my 15-year-old 100 00:04:08.580 --> 00:04:10.660 about this while I was taking him to work the other day. 101 00:04:10.660 --> 00:04:13.340 And he got so mad. 102 00:04:13.340 --> 00:04:15.420 And I was like, dude, you've been trying to get us 103 00:04:15.420 --> 00:04:18.180 to get another dog forever. 104 00:04:18.180 --> 00:04:19.820 Why are you so upset by this? 105 00:04:19.820 --> 00:04:22.340 And he was like, why are you doing this? 106 00:04:22.340 --> 00:04:24.180 She isn't gone yet. 107 00:04:24.180 --> 00:04:27.260 Why can't you just love the dog you have now? 108 00:04:27.260 --> 00:04:32.260 And I was like, Lord, was that you? 109 00:04:32.260 --> 00:04:35.340 And it gave me this whole, like, 110 00:04:35.340 --> 00:04:37.220 I've been thinking about it all week. 111 00:04:37.220 --> 00:04:40.060 It gave me this whole thread about how many things 112 00:04:40.060 --> 00:04:42.580 do I move on from before they're done? 113 00:04:43.420 --> 00:04:44.740 - Yeah. 114 00:04:44.740 --> 00:04:47.740 - So the idea of being present in the moment that you're in 115 00:04:47.740 --> 00:04:50.660 is something I'm thinking about this week too. 116 00:04:50.660 --> 00:04:53.980 Thanks to, I guess, my 15-year-old and the Holy Spirit. 117 00:04:53.980 --> 00:04:55.740 - That's so good. 118 00:04:55.740 --> 00:04:58.060 - Really good. 119 00:05:04.760 --> 00:05:08.400 - Oh, I literally, literally I do. 120 00:05:08.400 --> 00:05:09.900 I go, Maisie. 121 00:05:09.900 --> 00:05:12.280 My, okay, so what we're talking about 122 00:05:12.280 --> 00:05:13.480 with the Lord's TGS, right? 123 00:05:13.480 --> 00:05:15.100 That's the prompt. 124 00:05:15.100 --> 00:05:17.440 So I just found out that my dog, 125 00:05:17.440 --> 00:05:20.280 that's like, if she's, I think she's 14, 126 00:05:20.280 --> 00:05:23.880 we just found out she has terminal heart failure, 127 00:05:23.880 --> 00:05:26.520 basically last week or the week before. 128 00:05:26.520 --> 00:05:30.600 But I was able to bring, we were going to put her down, 129 00:05:30.600 --> 00:05:32.060 but my husband decided he was like, 130 00:05:32.060 --> 00:05:34.120 "Why don't you have her come and stay with us?" 131 00:05:34.120 --> 00:05:35.520 'Cause she was with my parents. 132 00:05:35.520 --> 00:05:37.880 So he's like, "Why don't you have her come stay with us 133 00:05:37.880 --> 00:05:39.240 "for the next week?" 134 00:05:39.240 --> 00:05:40.780 So you get some time with her. 135 00:05:40.780 --> 00:05:43.600 And so I was able to bring her here, 136 00:05:43.600 --> 00:05:44.880 which we're not allowed to have pets 137 00:05:44.880 --> 00:05:47.200 and everyone was totally okay with it. 138 00:05:47.200 --> 00:05:50.320 But I was able to bring her here. 139 00:05:50.320 --> 00:05:52.960 And I feel like that week, the Lord was like, 140 00:05:52.960 --> 00:05:56.360 "It's okay to grieve, even though you're wanting 141 00:05:56.360 --> 00:05:58.920 "to enjoy your time with her." 142 00:05:58.920 --> 00:06:00.920 'Cause I really, I don't think anyone, 143 00:06:00.920 --> 00:06:05.600 I haven't really had anyone or anything like die. 144 00:06:05.600 --> 00:06:08.840 So I was like, "Well, this is sad, 145 00:06:08.840 --> 00:06:11.880 "but it was really sweet because I got to my husband." 146 00:06:11.880 --> 00:06:13.160 I was like, "But also enjoy your time." 147 00:06:13.160 --> 00:06:15.680 So I went and took her to all of my favorite 148 00:06:15.680 --> 00:06:16.600 'cause I lived in San Diego. 149 00:06:16.600 --> 00:06:18.040 So I was like, I took her to the beach 150 00:06:18.040 --> 00:06:19.480 and I took her to do all of the things 151 00:06:19.480 --> 00:06:20.720 and I just carried her the whole time 152 00:06:20.720 --> 00:06:23.840 'cause her heart's having a hard time working. 153 00:06:23.840 --> 00:06:26.200 But it was really sweet that I was able to like, 154 00:06:26.200 --> 00:06:28.280 the Lord was like, "I want you to be present 155 00:06:28.280 --> 00:06:32.680 "in your time with her, but also like learn how to enjoy it, 156 00:06:32.680 --> 00:06:34.080 "even in the sadness of it." 157 00:06:34.080 --> 00:06:36.720 So that's what the Lord's been teaching me, 158 00:06:36.720 --> 00:06:39.480 but it just tied into the thread of everyone's dogs. 159 00:06:39.480 --> 00:06:41.640 - Dude, that makes me cry. 160 00:06:41.640 --> 00:06:45.160 - Natalie, I'm so sorry (laughs) 161 00:06:45.160 --> 00:06:46.760 anyways. 162 00:06:46.760 --> 00:06:47.760 - So sweet. 163 00:06:47.760 --> 00:06:51.840 I love how God uses all sorts of things to teach us. 164 00:06:51.840 --> 00:06:54.760 - Lily did it. - We're happy as our wreck. 165 00:06:54.760 --> 00:06:56.500 We are gonna get to mentorship. 166 00:06:56.500 --> 00:07:01.640 The first we need to cry apparently. (laughs) 167 00:07:01.640 --> 00:07:03.040 Oh, it's really good. 168 00:07:03.040 --> 00:07:07.320 Lindsay, give us another talking point 169 00:07:07.320 --> 00:07:08.960 so I can pull myself together. 170 00:07:08.960 --> 00:07:11.160 - So, and I saw Lily jumped on kind of in the middle of it. 171 00:07:11.160 --> 00:07:12.760 So I can't-- - Oh, hi. 172 00:07:12.760 --> 00:07:15.920 - Hey, Lily, we are talking about what is the Lord, 173 00:07:15.920 --> 00:07:18.840 you know, teaching us in the season 174 00:07:18.840 --> 00:07:21.280 and so far the thread between Ali 175 00:07:21.280 --> 00:07:26.280 and Ashley and Macy, he has utilized their beloved pets 176 00:07:26.280 --> 00:07:28.960 to teach them about being present 177 00:07:28.960 --> 00:07:30.960 and helping them practice that. 178 00:07:30.960 --> 00:07:35.360 And so I will, I love my dog too. 179 00:07:35.360 --> 00:07:37.400 I will take it in another direction. 180 00:07:37.400 --> 00:07:40.880 The best part about this is before Ali and I started the call, 181 00:07:40.880 --> 00:07:43.480 we're like, let's just start it lighthearted. 182 00:07:43.480 --> 00:07:44.320 Let's keep it light. - Okay. 183 00:07:44.320 --> 00:07:46.960 - And then Ali immediately starts weeping over her new puppies. 184 00:07:46.960 --> 00:07:48.600 (laughs) 185 00:07:48.600 --> 00:07:49.440 So. 186 00:07:50.520 --> 00:07:51.760 - I know, what are you gonna do? 187 00:07:51.760 --> 00:07:52.600 - I know, what are you gonna do? 188 00:07:52.600 --> 00:07:53.680 - Yeah. 189 00:07:53.680 --> 00:07:57.640 - But on that vein, the Lord has been teaching me 190 00:07:57.640 --> 00:08:01.480 and inviting me into lightheartedness. 191 00:08:01.480 --> 00:08:06.480 And so I, you know, tend to be deep and go serious 192 00:08:06.480 --> 00:08:12.320 and right before the new year, I had a mentor. 193 00:08:12.320 --> 00:08:15.480 We were in a session and we were talking 194 00:08:15.480 --> 00:08:18.640 and he looked at me and he said, "Okay, now I want you 195 00:08:18.640 --> 00:08:21.160 to answer me like you're not on a podcast." 196 00:08:21.160 --> 00:08:24.720 And it was kind-hearted the way he said it, 197 00:08:24.720 --> 00:08:27.920 but it woke me up to this, you know, 198 00:08:27.920 --> 00:08:29.520 we've been talking a lot in this community 199 00:08:29.520 --> 00:08:32.240 around performance, right, performative faith 200 00:08:32.240 --> 00:08:35.559 and feeling like we always sometimes have to be on. 201 00:08:35.559 --> 00:08:38.600 And it was just an awakening for me 202 00:08:38.600 --> 00:08:42.280 of recognizing that I feel in control 203 00:08:42.280 --> 00:08:44.280 if I can articulate a thing well. 204 00:08:44.280 --> 00:08:45.720 And communication's part of my gift, 205 00:08:45.720 --> 00:08:48.200 so I'm not dismissing that or diminishing that. 206 00:08:48.200 --> 00:08:49.960 And he wasn't either. 207 00:08:49.960 --> 00:08:53.680 But he was giving me permission to expand my horizons 208 00:08:53.680 --> 00:08:57.320 beyond what I could articulate in the moment perfectly, right? 209 00:08:57.320 --> 00:08:59.720 Or something that I felt proud of. 210 00:08:59.720 --> 00:09:01.360 So even being on a call like this 211 00:09:01.360 --> 00:09:04.600 and we're just, you know, asking a simple question, 212 00:09:04.600 --> 00:09:06.360 just to share from your heart what is Lord teaching you, 213 00:09:06.360 --> 00:09:10.480 I would find myself internally, if I was being honest, 214 00:09:10.480 --> 00:09:15.440 you know, buckling up because I wanna sound profound 215 00:09:15.440 --> 00:09:17.040 and I wanna do a good job. 216 00:09:17.040 --> 00:09:19.280 And I wanna make sure I make sense to people 217 00:09:19.280 --> 00:09:20.120 and all of those things. 218 00:09:20.120 --> 00:09:23.960 And so since that conversation, in many different ways, 219 00:09:23.960 --> 00:09:27.000 the Lord has been inviting me to a journey of lightheartedness 220 00:09:27.000 --> 00:09:30.760 and deeper realms of joy and fun. 221 00:09:30.760 --> 00:09:35.040 And you think that would be an easy journey. 222 00:09:35.040 --> 00:09:36.440 (laughs) 223 00:09:36.440 --> 00:09:39.960 - As an Enneagram one, fun is the very last thing 224 00:09:39.960 --> 00:09:41.160 I ever think about. 225 00:09:41.160 --> 00:09:42.600 So I would love for you to tell me 226 00:09:42.600 --> 00:09:44.640 what's fun for you right now. 227 00:09:44.640 --> 00:09:48.440 What's fun for me right now is I is play. 228 00:09:48.440 --> 00:09:50.280 So play used to be painful for me, 229 00:09:50.280 --> 00:09:52.320 not because of any trauma or tragedy. 230 00:09:52.320 --> 00:09:57.280 I just, I think I was, you know, matured quite quickly 231 00:09:57.280 --> 00:09:59.800 in childhood and I, 232 00:10:09.000 --> 00:10:11.000 Because I like tidy and I like order. 233 00:10:11.000 --> 00:10:17.000 And so that has been an opportunity for me to practice fun and light-heartedness. 234 00:10:17.000 --> 00:10:24.000 And just allowing there to be some mess and untidiness in my life and it not be the end of the world. 235 00:10:24.000 --> 00:10:29.000 But to answer your question honestly, so that's something I'm just practicing. 236 00:10:29.000 --> 00:10:32.000 But I don't have a hobby right now. 237 00:10:32.000 --> 00:10:35.000 And I'm like, I need a hobby. 238 00:10:35.000 --> 00:10:40.000 So I've purchased a grain mill. 239 00:10:40.000 --> 00:10:43.000 And I'm going to learn how to make bread. 240 00:10:43.000 --> 00:10:49.000 Because it's something that's off the screen and it's something that has nothing to do with, you know, my work or. 241 00:10:49.000 --> 00:10:54.000 And so I'm really excited. So I have the wheat berries coming this weekend. 242 00:10:54.000 --> 00:11:00.000 I joined a co-op in my area, so I'm hoping to like connect with some other bread makers in here. 243 00:11:00.000 --> 00:11:02.000 And here's what's so key. 244 00:11:02.000 --> 00:11:04.000 That is so fun. 245 00:11:04.000 --> 00:11:10.000 Here's what's so key. I don't think I'm going to do a good job at first, right? 246 00:11:10.000 --> 00:11:14.000 Like this is not something that I can guarantee I'm going to knock out of the park and that's okay. 247 00:11:14.000 --> 00:11:20.000 So that's part of it too. It's like we're just going to get our hands dirty and we're going to experiment and make a mess. 248 00:11:20.000 --> 00:11:23.000 Because it is a messy thing to do in the kitchen. 249 00:11:23.000 --> 00:11:27.000 And so that's that's a hobby that I'm trying and we'll see how it goes. 250 00:11:27.000 --> 00:11:29.000 Can I share my new hobby? 251 00:11:29.000 --> 00:11:32.000 Oh, my goodness. My sister-in-law does this. 252 00:11:32.000 --> 00:11:35.000 I'm learning to do needlepoint. 253 00:11:35.000 --> 00:11:43.000 I guess we're calling this embroidery. I understand in the sewing community not knowing the difference between needlepoint and embroidery is a cardinal sin. 254 00:11:43.000 --> 00:11:49.000 However, I still don't because I'm a beginner and being a beginner at things is the worst. 255 00:11:49.000 --> 00:11:54.000 So I've been working on this for many, many moons. 256 00:11:54.000 --> 00:12:07.000 But to your point, having a hobby that's not a screen that I'm not already good at, that I'm having to challenge myself to be a beginner at has been incredibly good for me. 257 00:12:07.000 --> 00:12:11.000 I love how we were turning to be lifestyle of our grandmothers. 258 00:12:11.000 --> 00:12:12.000 Yeah. 259 00:12:12.000 --> 00:12:15.000 We're going to bake bread. We're going to sew. 260 00:12:15.000 --> 00:12:20.000 We're going to make sour dough. We're going to quilt all the things. 261 00:12:20.000 --> 00:12:22.000 Okay, Rachel. 262 00:12:22.000 --> 00:12:26.000 Do you want to jump in? 263 00:12:26.000 --> 00:12:28.000 Oh, there you go. 264 00:12:28.000 --> 00:12:34.000 Um, God has been teaching me to be patient. 265 00:12:34.000 --> 00:12:59.000 I, um, at the end of January, like I dove into what I thought was just a funk and couldn't get out of it and ended up finding a therapist and getting an app that's supposed to help with my mental health and seeing a nutritionist. 266 00:12:59.000 --> 00:13:07.000 Um, so now I have a whole team of people trying to keep me alive and healthy. 267 00:13:07.000 --> 00:13:25.000 And, you know, I just severely burned out and suddenly I had anxiety that I had never dealt with and feeling from all of that takes time and I'm not a patient person. 268 00:13:25.000 --> 00:13:29.000 And I want it to just be fixed. 269 00:13:29.000 --> 00:13:33.000 I want to be able to take a bubble bath and everything be okay. 270 00:13:33.000 --> 00:13:37.000 And that's, that's not how it works. 271 00:13:37.000 --> 00:13:42.000 And it's a process. 272 00:13:42.000 --> 00:13:49.000 And God is teaching me that one that he's in control and I'm not. 273 00:13:49.000 --> 00:13:56.000 And that his timing is what's going to happen, not mine. 274 00:13:56.000 --> 00:14:09.000 Um, so just patience with, with myself and with this healing journey and really in every aspect of my life. 275 00:14:09.000 --> 00:14:18.000 Um, to be patient and trust, trust in him and not myself. 276 00:14:18.000 --> 00:14:21.000 So. 277 00:14:21.000 --> 00:14:26.000 Thank you for sharing, Rachel. It's so vulnerable and so honest. 278 00:14:26.000 --> 00:14:38.000 And I think it's a situation that most of us, if we haven't gone through it, we've gone through something similar and we can go, Oh, yeah. 279 00:14:38.000 --> 00:14:46.000 Yeah. Thank you for sharing. Good job. 280 00:14:46.000 --> 00:14:53.000 Talk to me. 281 00:14:53.000 --> 00:14:59.000 Um, I, I'm wearing soft monkey on my head because I took a fall this week and hit my head. 282 00:15:07.680 --> 00:15:14.320 granted. That same day we had a lady in our church who passed away. Her husband had been 283 00:15:14.320 --> 00:15:22.400 caregiving for her for quite a while. And just to get the we're in a what's up thread with our 284 00:15:22.400 --> 00:15:29.120 church and just to get that news on the same day. It was just a reminder that I'm very blessed to be 285 00:15:29.120 --> 00:15:36.640 here. And each day that I have is just a gift and I want to sort it well. And so that's kind of where 286 00:15:36.640 --> 00:15:43.360 I am this week is just thinking about, you know, every moment, every moment matters and I'm trying 287 00:15:43.360 --> 00:15:53.600 to use it as best as I can. I'm so glad you're with us today. Yeah, I am too. And then the next day 288 00:15:53.600 --> 00:15:59.760 my husband fell at work. So I told him he's Simpateko. You know, we are one flesh. So 289 00:15:59.760 --> 00:16:03.280 we can wrap ourselves in bubble wrap. I think that's what's 290 00:16:03.280 --> 00:16:13.360 Lily, the one thing I noticed as you're telling this, these hard stories, you have such a genuine 291 00:16:13.360 --> 00:16:20.320 smile and like the laugh and it just shows you have such a healthy perspective in the middle 292 00:16:20.320 --> 00:16:25.680 of things being tough and like you're radiant in the middle of things being tough. Well, thank you, 293 00:16:25.680 --> 00:16:32.560 Ali. I it's just a reminder that Jesus is our joy and you know, every day is just an opportunity 294 00:16:32.560 --> 00:16:38.480 to lean into him as Lindsay's been encouraging us to do. And that's really ministered to me, 295 00:16:38.480 --> 00:16:42.800 Lindsay, those words from Isaiah that you've shared and even today of the video you shared 296 00:16:42.800 --> 00:16:47.440 yesterday was so encouraging. It's such a word I needed right now for this season. So thanks so much. 297 00:16:47.440 --> 00:16:56.720 It's great to have you guys in my ear. Thank you, Lily. Sarah or Laura, either one, you can jump in. 298 00:16:56.720 --> 00:17:08.400 I can go. So I feel like this in the season, God's just teaching me about peace, but like 299 00:17:08.400 --> 00:17:16.880 my sort of default is to curate it for myself. Like, what can I set up around the house 300 00:17:16.880 --> 00:17:22.160 and try to create peace? But it's like no matter this, it's like the circumstances in your life, 301 00:17:22.160 --> 00:17:27.920 you can't. I can't create peace, right? And then I think Lindsay, you had said it and I keep being 302 00:17:27.920 --> 00:17:34.400 reminded about what Jesus says is like, you know, the world is going to wish you peace, right? And 303 00:17:34.400 --> 00:17:40.240 then but only peace comes from Jesus. So I think I'm just trying to like get an understanding of 304 00:17:40.240 --> 00:17:46.160 like, what is Jesus's peace feel like in the midst of, you know, for me personally, my daughter, 305 00:17:46.160 --> 00:17:53.040 I have a 16 going on 17 year old daughter, you know, and so it's challenging raising a teenager 306 00:17:53.040 --> 00:17:59.040 who is strong willed and the two of us are always butting heads and then, you know, it's work the 307 00:17:59.040 --> 00:18:05.600 stress of work and trying to show up and do a good job. I'm a virtual assistant, remote worker, you know, 308 00:18:05.600 --> 00:18:11.840 and so just trying to like do all the things there and, you know, just manage the schedule, 309 00:18:11.840 --> 00:18:15.360 manage my house, you know, and be a good wife and all the things. So 310 00:18:15.360 --> 00:18:24.560 I love that you're so intentional about it. Like, you're a part of this community. 311 00:18:24.560 --> 00:18:32.640 You are constantly learning new things. You're making the investment in yourself and your future 312 00:18:32.640 --> 00:18:37.920 and your joy and your relationship with God. And that means so much. Thank you. 313 00:18:37.920 --> 00:18:44.320 I'm really excited for you, Sarah, because this was the pursuit that I went on a few years ago 314 00:18:44.320 --> 00:18:51.120 around peace that changed my life, changed my journey, my understanding of the Lord. So it's a 315 00:18:51.120 --> 00:18:58.800 worthy pursuit. And I love that we've been spending time as a community this month in the revelation 316 00:18:58.800 --> 00:19:06.640 of peace and perfect peace. And Isaiah 26, 3 became an anchor for me in a really tough season that 317 00:19:06.640 --> 00:19:13.360 sounds similar to actually Rachel's season. I had a very similar health journey, mental health, 318 00:19:13.360 --> 00:19:19.200 physical health, emotional health, where I just crashed out and burned out and had to pursue help 319 00:19:19.200 --> 00:19:25.760 intentionally for the first time, like professional health. And it was scary. And in that journey, 320 00:19:25.760 --> 00:19:33.840 the Lord met me with his revelation of perfect peace. And I was transformed because, and as we've 321 00:19:33.840 --> 00:19:40.720 been learning in this community this month, it's not just a feeling, though it does inform our feelings, 322 00:19:40.720 --> 00:19:48.560 but it is an inner resilience that is tied only solely to the Lord, who the Lord is, his nature, 323 00:19:48.560 --> 00:19:55.840 his character, who he says he is, his word. And that is what builds this resilience in us 324 00:19:55.840 --> 00:19:59.840 against the trouble that we find in this world, because like Jesus said, in this world, 325 00:20:06.240 --> 00:20:13.680 maybe I wouldn't have said it this way, been pursuing a perfect life. If I could just calm down 326 00:20:13.680 --> 00:20:22.400 the circumstances around me, you know, calm down myself, get healing, get wholeness, not have any 327 00:20:22.400 --> 00:20:28.160 conflicts with people, not offend people, you know, all the things we do to feel like we're being 328 00:20:28.160 --> 00:20:34.000 faithful and we're being good for God. The Lord had to strip me all of that. And it was a painful 329 00:20:34.000 --> 00:20:42.160 season that Hebrews 12 talks about where discipline, the painful in the moment brings righteousness and 330 00:20:42.160 --> 00:20:48.080 peace. And that was my journey. And I love that you're on that journey to Sarah. So thank you for 331 00:20:48.080 --> 00:20:58.240 sharing. Thank you, Lindsay, for I keep preaching. We love it. We love it. Laura slash mom. I can't 332 00:20:58.240 --> 00:21:08.720 call you Laura. Can you hear me? Yes. I am not sure if it's you're good. I'm learning all the 333 00:21:08.720 --> 00:21:17.600 technology. I am in a season where I talked about stripped down only have the ability to do certain 334 00:21:17.600 --> 00:21:23.120 things. And so one of the, one of the things that I'm practicing right now, which is kind of exciting 335 00:21:23.120 --> 00:21:30.240 when you've been in the journey for a long time with the Lord, a lot of stuff becomes cliche, 336 00:21:30.240 --> 00:21:35.920 you know, verses and stuff like that, you know, you just, and so I am practicing 337 00:21:35.920 --> 00:21:45.600 revisiting those and making my reality. For instance, the casting, casting our cares on him 338 00:21:45.600 --> 00:21:51.360 because he cares for us. I listened to something that Lindsay said a while back where that word 339 00:21:51.360 --> 00:22:00.880 casting was translated to hurling. Do you remember saying that? And so I'm doing that each day, 340 00:22:00.880 --> 00:22:09.840 because it's like literally all I can do. And, and trusting. So what that looks like is I'm on my 341 00:22:09.840 --> 00:22:17.920 walk praying. First part of first leg of it is always gratitude for the day before, not, you know, 342 00:22:17.920 --> 00:22:26.800 and how he orchestrated the entire day. Because, and so I'm part of that is I, the planning, 343 00:22:26.800 --> 00:22:30.800 the confusion, trying, you know, a lot of moving parts, different, different people with different 344 00:22:30.800 --> 00:22:36.240 needs and stuff like that. And I'm just like, say, Lord, this is your burden. I'm asking, you know, 345 00:22:36.240 --> 00:22:43.520 like, I'm hurling it, casting it. And I'm absolutely on board to partner, however you would 346 00:22:43.520 --> 00:22:51.760 use me in that. And that has really served me. And I've never even memorized the verse before, 347 00:22:51.760 --> 00:22:55.280 talked about the verse before, but after doing it for so many years, it's kind of like, 348 00:22:55.280 --> 00:23:00.800 kind of in the background, but you're not actually doing it. You're just claiming it. So I'm practicing 349 00:23:00.800 --> 00:23:08.720 that and it's working well. And it's kind of turned into a bit of a excitement about how the day is 350 00:23:08.720 --> 00:23:14.400 going to go because I do that first thing in the morning. And I've come to crave it. 351 00:23:14.400 --> 00:23:22.080 Rather than having it like a to-do list, you know, like, oh, I have to check this off that because I 352 00:23:22.080 --> 00:23:28.800 obviously, you know, we all think of like, if we do this, this and this, then we'll get this. But 353 00:23:28.800 --> 00:23:35.360 now it's kind of like, I'm kind of running to it like water. Like, this is on my mind and I'm 354 00:23:35.360 --> 00:23:43.600 excited to cast it. And then to see what the outcome's going to be. I love that. What's that? 355 00:23:43.600 --> 00:23:52.080 Well, thank you, everyone, for sharing. I love hearing. I love, I love also seeing the threads of 356 00:23:52.080 --> 00:23:56.400 similarity. I think that's always, I always say, God is so kind to give us each other. And it's 357 00:23:56.400 --> 00:24:01.920 for moments like this too. Oh, you too, not just me. And sometimes can just feel like a bubble of 358 00:24:01.920 --> 00:24:08.320 isolation. And it's so helpful to just connect in with others in the body of Christ and realize, 359 00:24:08.320 --> 00:24:11.920 oh, wow, there's like a, there's a similar theme and people are learning similar things. Or people 360 00:24:11.920 --> 00:24:18.080 have testimonies in these areas. And I can look to that victory testimony meaning do it again. 361 00:24:18.080 --> 00:24:21.840 So it means do it again. So I can claim that for me, do it again. 362 00:24:23.600 --> 00:24:27.840 Okay, Ali, what do you think? Because we were talking, you know, there's, we're going to kind 363 00:24:27.840 --> 00:24:33.440 of see where this went today. We had a few ideas. But what do you think in? Yeah, I mean, you have 364 00:24:33.440 --> 00:24:40.640 such a great word to bring. We, I know on behalf of me, I want to hear it. 365 00:24:40.640 --> 00:24:46.720 Well, I think we'll keep the conversation going because I do especially hearing now where people 366 00:24:46.720 --> 00:24:52.480 are at and what the Lord is teaching. Yeah. There's a lot of goodness that can be shared both ways. 367 00:24:52.480 --> 00:24:56.720 Yeah, I don't want to fill the talking. But in the vein of, okay, the Lord is teaching me light 368 00:24:56.720 --> 00:24:59.840 heartedness and to have fun again. 369 00:25:01.800 --> 00:25:03.520 I'm still very serious about it. 370 00:25:03.520 --> 00:25:05.660 So I know there's lots to learn and that's okay. 371 00:25:05.660 --> 00:25:07.160 There's no condemnation. 372 00:25:07.160 --> 00:25:10.000 I just recognize there's a lot in this journey ahead 373 00:25:10.000 --> 00:25:12.240 and I'm really excited because I know deep down 374 00:25:12.240 --> 00:25:15.000 this isn't just the Lord's desire for me. 375 00:25:15.000 --> 00:25:17.600 We, our desires are commingling. 376 00:25:17.600 --> 00:25:19.720 So there's a scripture where it talks about 377 00:25:19.720 --> 00:25:21.080 and I'm sure you've heard it before 378 00:25:21.080 --> 00:25:22.240 to light yourself in the Lord 379 00:25:22.240 --> 00:25:24.560 and he will give you the desires of your heart. 380 00:25:24.560 --> 00:25:26.600 Some scholars say, well that means 381 00:25:26.600 --> 00:25:28.520 he's gonna give you his desires. 382 00:25:28.520 --> 00:25:31.340 Some scholars say, no, no, the way it's translated 383 00:25:31.340 --> 00:25:34.660 actually means the desires you have, he's gonna give you. 384 00:25:34.660 --> 00:25:36.160 Both could be right. 385 00:25:36.160 --> 00:25:38.800 Here's what gets me every time. 386 00:25:38.800 --> 00:25:42.680 The creator of the universe, Alpha Omega, 387 00:25:42.680 --> 00:25:48.920 Sovereign God is intimately connected to desires 388 00:25:48.920 --> 00:25:51.520 swirling in my heart, right? 389 00:25:51.520 --> 00:25:53.760 Whether that's him planting desires, 390 00:25:53.760 --> 00:25:57.840 whether that's him bringing out desires in my heart, 391 00:25:57.840 --> 00:25:59.440 refining desires out of my heart. 392 00:25:59.440 --> 00:26:02.280 Isn't it just amazing that there would be such an intimacy 393 00:26:02.280 --> 00:26:06.040 and closeness with what's happening in our hearts? 394 00:26:06.040 --> 00:26:08.680 He's a good God, he's a good father. 395 00:26:08.680 --> 00:26:11.640 He could have been, he had every right 396 00:26:11.640 --> 00:26:13.960 to be anything he wanted to be to us. 397 00:26:13.960 --> 00:26:16.440 He could be dictator, he could be master, 398 00:26:16.440 --> 00:26:18.320 he could be tyrant. 399 00:26:18.320 --> 00:26:20.480 He's a creator of the universe. 400 00:26:20.480 --> 00:26:24.140 But he chose to be called father. 401 00:26:27.040 --> 00:26:29.560 That boggles my mind. 402 00:26:29.560 --> 00:26:30.960 I'll never get over that. 403 00:26:30.960 --> 00:26:33.440 He chose to be father. 404 00:26:33.440 --> 00:26:38.440 And so we get to relate to him as a much loved child. 405 00:26:38.440 --> 00:26:45.680 So in this vein of lightheartedness and having fun 406 00:26:45.680 --> 00:26:48.480 and recognizing, oh, this is a desire in me too. 407 00:26:48.480 --> 00:26:50.680 I really love the depth. 408 00:26:50.680 --> 00:26:52.200 I don't think that's going anywhere. 409 00:26:52.200 --> 00:26:54.680 I think that's part of his wiring of who I am. 410 00:26:54.680 --> 00:26:56.520 It's nothing that I despise about myself, 411 00:26:56.520 --> 00:27:00.240 but there is an expansion of my identity 412 00:27:00.240 --> 00:27:04.280 that I get to discover, and it's fun. 413 00:27:04.280 --> 00:27:06.120 So halfway through the year, 414 00:27:06.120 --> 00:27:08.600 or not halfway through the year, April, 415 00:27:08.600 --> 00:27:11.320 I am planning a trip for my family. 416 00:27:11.320 --> 00:27:13.600 My husband and I are planning this dream vacation 417 00:27:13.600 --> 00:27:15.800 for our girls and us to go on 418 00:27:15.800 --> 00:27:18.280 to celebrate my five year old's birthday 419 00:27:18.280 --> 00:27:22.560 and we're days out from this beautiful vacation 420 00:27:22.560 --> 00:27:27.120 and I can only feel dread because I'm in the logistics. 421 00:27:27.120 --> 00:27:28.840 Like, have I packed? 422 00:27:28.840 --> 00:27:31.640 And we can blame mental load of mothers. 423 00:27:31.640 --> 00:27:32.680 I think that's a really real thing, 424 00:27:32.680 --> 00:27:34.800 but I have an amazing partner in my husband. 425 00:27:34.800 --> 00:27:37.600 Like he booked the travel and the hotels and the planes. 426 00:27:37.600 --> 00:27:39.200 So it wasn't even that it was all on me. 427 00:27:39.200 --> 00:27:42.160 We were very much sharing the load here, 428 00:27:42.160 --> 00:27:45.520 but I could not get out of this funk of dreading. 429 00:27:45.520 --> 00:27:49.080 It just wanting to get through it and be done with it. 430 00:27:49.080 --> 00:27:53.360 And the Lord met me in that swirl, and he said, 431 00:27:53.360 --> 00:27:55.000 I really do, I feel like it was the Lord 432 00:27:55.000 --> 00:27:58.120 because I don't think I would have come up with this on my own. 433 00:27:58.120 --> 00:28:02.400 And he said, "Linds, are you enduring life, 434 00:28:02.400 --> 00:28:03.880 "or are you enjoying it?" 435 00:28:03.880 --> 00:28:09.600 And like the trip ahead represented so many areas of my life, 436 00:28:09.600 --> 00:28:12.440 you know, building a mentorship community 437 00:28:12.440 --> 00:28:14.120 with my dear friend. 438 00:28:14.120 --> 00:28:17.120 What an amazing privilege and dream come true. 439 00:28:17.120 --> 00:28:18.920 But of course, I'm like thinking about all the work 440 00:28:18.920 --> 00:28:19.840 that has to be done, right? 441 00:28:19.840 --> 00:28:22.320 And am I doing a good job and am I serving well? 442 00:28:22.320 --> 00:28:25.640 And you know, I'm focusing on the responsibility, 443 00:28:25.640 --> 00:28:27.560 wanting to control the outcome 444 00:28:27.560 --> 00:28:30.760 and completely missing out on the enjoyment 445 00:28:30.760 --> 00:28:32.280 of a dream come true. 446 00:28:32.280 --> 00:28:34.200 Same with this trip, I'm thinking, 447 00:28:34.200 --> 00:28:35.280 this is such a dream come true. 448 00:28:35.280 --> 00:28:39.400 Like we battled infertility for 10 years of our marriage. 449 00:28:39.400 --> 00:28:41.440 We have two beautiful girls. 450 00:28:41.440 --> 00:28:43.960 We get to take them on this wonderful vacation 451 00:28:43.960 --> 00:28:47.680 and I can only be stuck in thinking about 452 00:28:47.680 --> 00:28:49.640 the what ifs, the worst case scenarios 453 00:28:49.640 --> 00:28:51.960 and if I'm planned and prepared enough. 454 00:28:51.960 --> 00:28:55.040 As if like when we get there, if I forget one thing, 455 00:28:55.040 --> 00:28:57.640 it's gonna throw off the whole trip. 456 00:28:57.640 --> 00:28:58.880 So the Lord asked me that question 457 00:28:58.880 --> 00:29:01.920 and it really has followed me all year 458 00:29:01.920 --> 00:29:03.920 since that point in April. 459 00:29:03.920 --> 00:29:07.280 Are you enduring life, simply enduring it, 460 00:29:07.280 --> 00:29:09.480 or are you enjoying it? 461 00:29:09.480 --> 00:29:10.720 And I began to look through that lens 462 00:29:10.720 --> 00:29:12.560 of every area in my life. 463 00:29:12.560 --> 00:29:13.800 And here's the thing. 464 00:29:13.800 --> 00:29:17.840 If you're a person of high responsibility, 465 00:29:17.840 --> 00:29:19.880 if you're used to carrying the load, 466 00:29:19.880 --> 00:29:22.200 cushioning the blow for other people, 467 00:29:22.200 --> 00:29:24.720 feeling like it's up to you to control the outcomes, 468 00:29:24.720 --> 00:29:27.960 you will take a question, a kindhearted question 469 00:29:27.960 --> 00:29:31.000 from the Lord, a comment from a mentor 470 00:29:31.000 --> 00:29:34.040 who loves you dearly and wants the best for you. 471 00:29:34.040 --> 00:29:38.720 And you will start to make it into a project. 472 00:29:38.720 --> 00:29:41.320 Okay, now I have to figure this out. 473 00:29:41.320 --> 00:29:42.560 Now I have to get this right. 474 00:29:42.560 --> 00:29:46.160 Now I have to go have fun, be serious about having fun 475 00:29:46.160 --> 00:29:47.480 and enjoying life. 476 00:29:47.480 --> 00:29:49.880 And that wasn't what the Lord was doing. 477 00:29:49.880 --> 00:29:53.600 Often a question from the Lord is an invitation for expansion. 478 00:29:53.600 --> 00:29:57.540 And it's an invitation to go on a journey. 479 00:29:57.540 --> 00:30:00.200 And the point is not the destination. 480 00:30:03.000 --> 00:30:05.540 That's where the freedom begins. 481 00:30:05.540 --> 00:30:07.880 That's where the learning takes place. 482 00:30:07.880 --> 00:30:10.360 That's where we begin practicing truth and 483 00:30:10.360 --> 00:30:12.720 diplomacy, learning to trust the truth, 484 00:30:12.720 --> 00:30:14.680 learning to rest in him in a new way. 485 00:30:14.680 --> 00:30:18.120 So I know I shared, maybe not everyone has seen it, 486 00:30:18.120 --> 00:30:21.200 but I went live yesterday for our daily reflection, 487 00:30:21.200 --> 00:30:25.440 and I shared the verse in Isaiah, Isaiah 30, 15, 488 00:30:25.440 --> 00:30:27.560 and the Lord's talking to the nation of Judah, 489 00:30:27.560 --> 00:30:32.560 and he says, "In repentance and rest is your salvation. 490 00:30:32.560 --> 00:30:39.200 In quietness and trust is your strength, 491 00:30:39.200 --> 00:30:41.500 but you would have none of it. 492 00:30:41.500 --> 00:30:47.600 In repentance and rest is your salvation, 493 00:30:47.600 --> 00:30:51.240 in quietness and trust is your strength, 494 00:30:51.240 --> 00:30:53.000 but you would have none of it." 495 00:30:53.000 --> 00:30:56.240 And the background is, Judah was a nation 496 00:30:56.240 --> 00:31:00.960 that there was an empire, a Syria, 497 00:31:00.960 --> 00:31:02.960 I believe it was, that was pressing in, 498 00:31:02.960 --> 00:31:04.960 very powerful empire, coming again. 499 00:31:04.960 --> 00:31:08.560 I think King Hezekiah was the king at this time, 500 00:31:08.560 --> 00:31:09.800 who served the Lord faithfully. 501 00:31:09.800 --> 00:31:12.800 He was the first out of many generations 502 00:31:12.800 --> 00:31:14.480 to turn to the Lord. 503 00:31:14.480 --> 00:31:16.080 So he had that to his credit. 504 00:31:16.080 --> 00:31:17.280 There was a relationship there. 505 00:31:17.280 --> 00:31:18.200 There was connection. 506 00:31:18.200 --> 00:31:21.000 There was lived experience with the Lord 507 00:31:21.000 --> 00:31:23.200 that King Hezekiah had. 508 00:31:23.200 --> 00:31:25.920 And in the press, in the pressure 509 00:31:25.920 --> 00:31:29.280 of a very powerful empire coming against them. 510 00:31:29.280 --> 00:31:31.600 And so turning to the Lord, 511 00:31:31.600 --> 00:31:34.380 He went to Egypt to buy protection. 512 00:31:34.380 --> 00:31:39.280 And this is the question the Lord asks him in the nation. 513 00:31:39.280 --> 00:31:43.640 In repentance and in rest. 514 00:31:43.640 --> 00:31:48.040 That word repentance and other translations is in returning. 515 00:31:48.040 --> 00:31:49.840 So repentance being a turn, 516 00:31:49.840 --> 00:31:52.800 we know that metanoia in the New Testament means to change, 517 00:31:52.800 --> 00:31:55.840 to change your mind, to go in a different direction. 518 00:31:55.840 --> 00:31:58.320 It's not just apologizing or being sorry about something, 519 00:31:58.320 --> 00:32:01.880 but it is changing your mind and going in a new direction. 520 00:32:01.880 --> 00:32:05.320 So in returning to the Lord in rest, 521 00:32:05.320 --> 00:32:06.560 that was your salvation. 522 00:32:06.560 --> 00:32:08.960 In quietness and trust, that was your strength, 523 00:32:08.960 --> 00:32:10.480 but you would have none of it. 524 00:32:10.480 --> 00:32:12.960 And you would think the Lord would just smite them all 525 00:32:12.960 --> 00:32:15.080 at this point, 'cause He has long suffering, right? 526 00:32:15.080 --> 00:32:18.240 And this, these people, they have a history 527 00:32:18.240 --> 00:32:20.200 of just doing this over and over and over again. 528 00:32:20.200 --> 00:32:23.000 But then what happens in the same chapter, 529 00:32:23.000 --> 00:32:25.520 a few verses down, three verses later, 530 00:32:25.520 --> 00:32:29.480 it says, but the Lord longs to be gracious to you. 531 00:32:29.480 --> 00:32:34.240 Therefore He will rise and show you compassion. 532 00:32:34.240 --> 00:32:39.960 So there's an invitation here in the heavy things 533 00:32:39.960 --> 00:32:43.040 and the lighthearted things to return to rest 534 00:32:43.040 --> 00:32:47.120 and rest not necessarily being inactivity 535 00:32:47.120 --> 00:32:49.840 or not doing anything, just being passive. 536 00:32:49.840 --> 00:32:52.560 Rest is not an event in the kingdom. 537 00:32:52.560 --> 00:32:56.600 Rest is a lifestyle and it's a lifestyle of trust. 538 00:32:56.600 --> 00:33:00.520 So when Laura/Mom was sharing about this hurling, 539 00:33:00.520 --> 00:33:01.640 there's still things to be done. 540 00:33:01.640 --> 00:33:04.280 I heard her say, after the hurling, 541 00:33:04.280 --> 00:33:06.040 then there's this willingness to partner 542 00:33:06.040 --> 00:33:08.280 with however the Lord would lead that day. 543 00:33:08.280 --> 00:33:10.360 So it's not just sitting and doing nothing. 544 00:33:10.360 --> 00:33:11.480 Sometimes it is. 545 00:33:11.480 --> 00:33:14.360 Sometimes there's a stillness that needs to happen, right? 546 00:33:14.360 --> 00:33:17.840 But often there's a partnership and that's this shift. 547 00:33:18.760 --> 00:33:22.360 When we need that anchor, like, what does that even look like? 548 00:33:22.360 --> 00:33:26.360 It's the leaving behind performance 549 00:33:26.360 --> 00:33:28.160 and turning into partnership. 550 00:33:28.160 --> 00:33:33.240 And it is a partnership, if we go to Matthew 11, 551 00:33:33.240 --> 00:33:38.240 where Jesus says, my yoke is easy, my burden is light, 552 00:33:38.240 --> 00:33:41.920 He's carrying the weight of that yoke. 553 00:33:41.920 --> 00:33:44.800 He's the one doing the heavy lifting 554 00:33:44.800 --> 00:33:48.240 and His promise to us, 'cause He says, 555 00:33:48.240 --> 00:33:51.320 I am gentle and humble in heart 556 00:33:51.320 --> 00:33:55.320 and you will find rest for your souls. 557 00:33:55.320 --> 00:33:57.840 The promise is that in the partnership, 558 00:33:57.840 --> 00:34:02.840 in the leaning, in the trust, there's not a crushing. 559 00:34:02.840 --> 00:34:06.200 We won't be crushed by this yoke. 560 00:34:06.200 --> 00:34:12.280 And so I think that as I'm leaning into an invitation 561 00:34:12.280 --> 00:34:14.120 from the Lord that feels honestly, 562 00:34:14.120 --> 00:34:16.120 like it doesn't quite fit yet, 563 00:34:16.120 --> 00:34:18.400 it almost feels like at times there's days 564 00:34:18.400 --> 00:34:20.159 where it can feel like criticism. 565 00:34:20.159 --> 00:34:24.719 Oh, you're just saying I'm not fun, you know? 566 00:34:24.719 --> 00:34:27.000 But the reality is, is that there's an invitation 567 00:34:27.000 --> 00:34:31.440 for expansion and the difference, how I view him, 568 00:34:31.440 --> 00:34:33.239 is then how I view the invitation. 569 00:34:33.239 --> 00:34:36.600 If I think he's a heavy tax, tax master, 570 00:34:36.600 --> 00:34:41.239 if I think he is sitting there grading my performance, 571 00:34:41.239 --> 00:34:44.639 waiting to give me a gold star or an F, 572 00:34:44.639 --> 00:34:48.120 if I see him as an abusive father 573 00:34:48.120 --> 00:34:51.480 who causes bad things in my life to teach me a lesson, 574 00:34:51.480 --> 00:34:53.560 because I need to be taught a lesson, right? 575 00:34:53.560 --> 00:34:58.560 Those types of beliefs form how we view him 576 00:34:58.560 --> 00:35:00.320 and then form how we view him. 577 00:35:01.560 --> 00:35:06.440 So if we're finding ourselves feeling burned out 578 00:35:06.440 --> 00:35:09.320 and anxious, like I have found myself multiple times 579 00:35:09.320 --> 00:35:12.680 in seasons, it's not a condemnation. 580 00:35:12.680 --> 00:35:14.720 Oh, you've done wrong. 581 00:35:14.720 --> 00:35:17.520 I think that there's an invitation to repent 582 00:35:17.520 --> 00:35:21.320 and what I mean by repentance is this change, 583 00:35:21.320 --> 00:35:22.880 change our minds. 584 00:35:22.880 --> 00:35:26.760 So often we're given principles when it comes to like, 585 00:35:26.760 --> 00:35:29.600 hey, here's how to go improve our lives 586 00:35:29.600 --> 00:35:31.260 and principles are wonderful, 587 00:35:31.260 --> 00:35:33.440 but you cannot execute on principles 588 00:35:33.440 --> 00:35:35.620 if your mindset is not there yet. 589 00:35:35.620 --> 00:35:40.140 So to be new, we have to first believe new 590 00:35:40.140 --> 00:35:42.140 before we try to do new. 591 00:35:42.140 --> 00:35:45.960 And often we want to skip that stuff. 592 00:35:45.960 --> 00:35:48.380 Oh my gosh, I can't even. 593 00:35:48.380 --> 00:35:52.720 Okay, which one is this? 594 00:35:52.720 --> 00:35:54.480 - This is Penelope or Penny. 595 00:35:54.480 --> 00:35:57.360 So this is her normal paw. 596 00:35:57.360 --> 00:35:58.960 This is her special paw. 597 00:35:59.960 --> 00:36:02.520 - Penny, we love you so much. 598 00:36:02.520 --> 00:36:06.160 - She is just a big potato. 599 00:36:06.160 --> 00:36:07.800 Here, do you want to treat? 600 00:36:07.800 --> 00:36:10.120 She just lays around. 601 00:36:10.120 --> 00:36:12.840 Today's her first day in the harness. 602 00:36:12.840 --> 00:36:17.600 She wouldn't really put any weight on her special paw. 603 00:36:17.600 --> 00:36:19.800 Here, you want to lay like a baby for a minute. 604 00:36:19.800 --> 00:36:23.680 In the harness, but she's getting used to it. 605 00:36:23.680 --> 00:36:24.840 - Oh my goodness. 606 00:36:24.840 --> 00:36:26.680 - Yeah, the other one's a Velociraptor. 607 00:36:26.680 --> 00:36:28.080 She's a snuggler. 608 00:36:28.080 --> 00:36:30.720 Okay, not to interrupt, but my son texted and asked 609 00:36:30.720 --> 00:36:31.560 if I wanted one. 610 00:36:31.560 --> 00:36:32.680 I was like, yes. 611 00:36:32.680 --> 00:36:34.440 - I was completely disappointed when you shut up 612 00:36:34.440 --> 00:36:35.920 this morning and they weren't on camera. 613 00:36:35.920 --> 00:36:38.320 So I was hoping that they would make an appearance. 614 00:36:38.320 --> 00:36:40.960 - So yeah, so this is my baby. 615 00:36:40.960 --> 00:36:44.120 And I wish I could just put her in my pocket 616 00:36:44.120 --> 00:36:45.520 and take her with me all the time. 617 00:36:45.520 --> 00:36:46.920 But she's going to be huge. 618 00:36:46.920 --> 00:36:50.000 She'll be like 90 pounds, like my other golden. 619 00:36:50.000 --> 00:36:52.400 So she's cute. 620 00:36:52.400 --> 00:36:53.240 - Oh my goodness. 621 00:36:53.240 --> 00:36:54.800 I just love how you went from one dog 622 00:36:54.800 --> 00:36:56.200 and came back up to you. 623 00:36:56.200 --> 00:36:57.760 - I mean, when you started going. 624 00:36:57.760 --> 00:37:00.840 - Not the most enneagram seven thing a person could do. 625 00:37:00.840 --> 00:37:04.760 - When you find a dog with a special paw, right? 626 00:37:04.760 --> 00:37:06.920 I mean, we're going to take that dog 627 00:37:06.920 --> 00:37:08.600 and we're going to give her the best life ever. 628 00:37:08.600 --> 00:37:10.160 She's not sure about all the life. 629 00:37:10.160 --> 00:37:14.360 She just, the other one's just a Velociraptor. 630 00:37:14.360 --> 00:37:16.240 She wouldn't say in my arms that long. 631 00:37:16.240 --> 00:37:21.240 So I will tell you, Lindsey, if you don't mind me jumping in. 632 00:37:21.240 --> 00:37:27.400 For me, like my relationship with Joy and God, 633 00:37:27.400 --> 00:37:32.200 it's, he really took me into a season 634 00:37:32.200 --> 00:37:36.400 where he wanted me to feel joy in him 635 00:37:36.400 --> 00:37:37.560 and the things that he could give me 636 00:37:37.560 --> 00:37:39.520 'cause it was after a few years of everything 637 00:37:39.520 --> 00:37:42.960 just being really, really, really soul crushingly hard. 638 00:37:42.960 --> 00:37:47.960 And it was January, I think, of '22, maybe? 639 00:37:55.720 --> 00:37:59.840 I mean, those are some hard years, high during COVID. 640 00:37:59.840 --> 00:38:03.280 And I was on a roller coaster. 641 00:38:03.280 --> 00:38:06.160 I was on Mako at SeaWorld in Orlando. 642 00:38:06.160 --> 00:38:08.280 And can you guys hear her breathing? 643 00:38:08.280 --> 00:38:11.080 She's quite the panther, okay? 644 00:38:11.080 --> 00:38:12.720 - I love how many years you'll go. 645 00:38:12.720 --> 00:38:17.680 - And I just felt overwhelming joy. 646 00:38:17.680 --> 00:38:21.880 And I started that day on roller coasters, 647 00:38:21.880 --> 00:38:24.240 thanking God for my life and thanking God 648 00:38:24.240 --> 00:38:26.160 for the happiness that he brings me. 649 00:38:26.160 --> 00:38:32.000 And it was this invitation to enjoy life more 650 00:38:32.000 --> 00:38:34.200 even when life isn't perfect. 651 00:38:34.200 --> 00:38:38.880 And, you know, Brene Brown teaches about this concept 652 00:38:38.880 --> 00:38:40.320 of foreboding joy. 653 00:38:40.320 --> 00:38:42.360 Have you guys heard of that? 654 00:38:42.360 --> 00:38:44.480 Where I'm sure I'm gonna butcher it, 655 00:38:44.480 --> 00:38:50.400 but it is that this feeling of joy feels really dangerous, 656 00:38:50.400 --> 00:38:52.880 because if you let yourself feel joy, 657 00:38:53.880 --> 00:38:57.040 like what's gonna go wrong? 658 00:38:57.040 --> 00:38:59.480 It's like we've been trained, you know, 659 00:38:59.480 --> 00:39:03.040 when we see a happy family in a car and a TV show 660 00:39:03.040 --> 00:39:05.280 and they're driving home from a holiday party, 661 00:39:05.280 --> 00:39:06.360 the first thing we think is, 662 00:39:06.360 --> 00:39:08.520 well, that car's gonna crash. 663 00:39:08.520 --> 00:39:12.680 And, you know, it's just this foreboding joy. 664 00:39:12.680 --> 00:39:15.280 And I don't know if that's naturally in us 665 00:39:15.280 --> 00:39:18.440 or we've learned it from TV or TV started doing it 666 00:39:18.440 --> 00:39:19.920 because there you go, baby. 667 00:39:21.160 --> 00:39:24.400 Because it's just naturally a part of what we think about 668 00:39:24.400 --> 00:39:25.640 and what we worry about. 669 00:39:25.640 --> 00:39:31.840 So I think to some degree, letting ourselves feel joy, 670 00:39:31.840 --> 00:39:34.080 enjoy and the Lord feels really scary. 671 00:39:34.080 --> 00:39:40.800 Because we're always gonna have a storm. 672 00:39:40.800 --> 00:39:42.720 We're always gonna have something terrible happen. 673 00:39:42.720 --> 00:39:43.880 Like we're either in a storm 674 00:39:43.880 --> 00:39:45.080 or we're getting ready to be in a storm 675 00:39:45.080 --> 00:39:46.240 or recovering from a storm. 676 00:39:46.240 --> 00:39:47.400 It's just how it works. 677 00:39:48.840 --> 00:39:53.840 So allowing ourselves to go into a relationship with the Lord 678 00:39:53.840 --> 00:39:56.360 where he's taking us in a season 679 00:39:56.360 --> 00:40:00.200 where we can enjoy things more can seem really vulnerable. 680 00:40:06.800 --> 00:40:11.280 Not saying everyone else needs to ride them. For some people, it's the roller coaster of life 681 00:40:11.280 --> 00:40:16.400 and for Ali, it's a literal roller coaster. It's a literal. I get on roller coasters and I just, 682 00:40:16.400 --> 00:40:20.640 I thank God for life and how good he is to me. I think it's just the, 683 00:40:20.640 --> 00:40:25.520 it's the adrenaline because roller coasters are just an adrenaline and dopamine high. 684 00:40:27.200 --> 00:40:32.720 And I go straight to thank you, Lord, for being so amazing and getting me through so many terrible 685 00:40:32.720 --> 00:40:39.280 things. So not to jump in, but I don't know how long Penny will let me talk. 686 00:40:39.280 --> 00:40:45.840 Yeah. If anyone has anything they want to jump in and talk through, like, you know, if you have 687 00:40:45.840 --> 00:40:49.360 questions, if you have something to add, just unmute yourself and jump in. You don't have to be super 688 00:40:49.360 --> 00:40:58.560 polite. I will say, Ali, that I think that there is an narrative that joy is irresponsible. We don't 689 00:40:58.560 --> 00:41:07.680 say that way. But we, there is a suspicion and cynicalness around people who are joyful. 690 00:41:07.680 --> 00:41:15.120 Yeah. They're also, to your point earlier, Lindsey, is this idea that in order for you to be spiritual, 691 00:41:15.120 --> 00:41:22.800 you have to be serious. Yeah. And that if you are, if you are joyful, then you probably aren't close 692 00:41:22.800 --> 00:41:29.040 enough to Jesus because you don't understand the weight, the theological weight of your own salvation. 693 00:41:29.040 --> 00:41:36.560 Yeah. That's a great point, Ashley. That's a good point. I would love to, so, so naive. 694 00:41:36.560 --> 00:41:42.560 Have you ever been called naive? I have in certain seasons of my life. 695 00:41:43.680 --> 00:41:48.080 Because I am actually as serious as I am, I also am a natural exhorter, encourager. 696 00:41:48.080 --> 00:41:53.840 So it's where I go. Like when people are in hard places, I think there's wisdom on how to do that 697 00:41:53.840 --> 00:41:58.320 well. And you learn that over time. But people are like, you're just being naive. You don't know how 698 00:41:58.320 --> 00:42:09.600 bad this is. Interestingly enough, the root for naive is purehearted. I think that there's a purity 699 00:42:09.600 --> 00:42:17.920 of heart that Jesus offers us, that Jesus actually modeled in a literal storm when he slept through 700 00:42:17.920 --> 00:42:29.040 it on the boat, that again, it's inner resilience. It's a, it's a trust so unshakeable that you can be 701 00:42:29.040 --> 00:42:38.880 in a figurative storm, a literal storm, and remain at peace. Because you know, this is not 702 00:42:38.880 --> 00:42:45.200 going to take me out. And not just is not going to take me out, but I have authority over this. 703 00:42:45.200 --> 00:42:53.760 Amen. And Jesus gave us our authority. I mean, Jesus gave us his authority. 704 00:42:53.760 --> 00:43:01.280 So we can look into the storms of life, you know, like Ali's saying, the storm ahead, 705 00:43:01.280 --> 00:43:07.760 the storm behind that we're recovering from, the storm and maybe even people, people who we love 706 00:43:07.760 --> 00:43:17.440 life. And we can sink in and lean into who God is and who we are in him. 707 00:43:17.440 --> 00:43:26.960 What are you guys thinking? What are you ladies thinking? I say guys, but you know, I mean, ladies. 708 00:43:26.960 --> 00:43:33.600 Guys is everybody. I know y'all. I'm from the south. So I can say y'all. What y'all thinking? 709 00:43:35.680 --> 00:43:40.400 What does it look like in anyone else's life to make room for it? And is it scary? 710 00:43:40.400 --> 00:43:48.560 Or is it a concept you haven't really thought about much? Like, is it, is it new? 711 00:43:48.560 --> 00:43:54.560 I'm married to someone who is always waiting for the other shoe to drop. Lindsey, like, 712 00:43:54.560 --> 00:44:00.320 you're talking about the danger of joy, like, or like, if I'm so joyful, what will happen to all 713 00:44:00.320 --> 00:44:06.640 these other things? Like, I'm married to someone who lives in that space. And I am a person who 714 00:44:06.640 --> 00:44:10.480 really struggles with joy because there's so much work to do. I don't have time to be joyful. I've 715 00:44:10.480 --> 00:44:18.160 got to get all of this stuff done. So joy is really, really hard for me. And it is comical to me that 716 00:44:18.160 --> 00:44:28.400 my job is entirely joy rooted. Like, I'm forced to joy because I believe that Lord is kind enough 717 00:44:28.400 --> 00:44:34.080 to see me and say, Oh, Ashley, you won't do this by yourself. Let me help you here. Go be a travel 718 00:44:34.080 --> 00:44:41.120 agent and plan amazing trips for people so that they have joy. Like, I have to think about it all 719 00:44:41.120 --> 00:44:48.320 the time because it's my actual job. And I work for Ally, who is like joy on two feet. So 720 00:44:48.320 --> 00:44:55.680 exactly. So I think it's interesting that I find myself as a struggler, 721 00:44:56.480 --> 00:45:00.000 Is somebody who struggles with accessing joy and feeling your response? 722 00:45:05.680 --> 00:45:09.920 How kind. Yes. 723 00:45:09.920 --> 00:45:21.760 I think that one thing you said actually I talked about like 724 00:45:22.640 --> 00:45:29.920 comical and I think that right now especially in social media things are getting less and less 725 00:45:29.920 --> 00:45:36.160 comical and it's putting everyone a little bit on or a lot on edge it's like the minute we open up 726 00:45:36.160 --> 00:45:41.360 our screen we're reminded about all the all the things that are happening in the world which is 727 00:45:41.360 --> 00:45:46.640 honestly the amount of information was never meant for the human soul to carry we weren't we 728 00:45:46.640 --> 00:45:51.840 weren't made to know all the things that are happening everywhere all the time so we're dealing 729 00:45:51.840 --> 00:45:58.960 with that I think as a human race for the first time and in many ways those of us who are born for 730 00:45:58.960 --> 00:46:07.280 such a time as this are pioneering a path forward in a new era and a new age of information and 731 00:46:07.280 --> 00:46:14.880 technology that's rapidly accelerating and so why I I'm sharing that is because I have found that 732 00:46:14.880 --> 00:46:19.680 you know I want to share funny things on social media like oh just a meme like that's so funny 733 00:46:19.680 --> 00:46:24.240 but I immediately think okay is this going to offend anyone is there a joke that I don't 734 00:46:24.240 --> 00:46:28.800 understand is there an inside joke or like slang or something that I haven't been told yet like 735 00:46:28.800 --> 00:46:35.520 I'm you know I immediately kind of like get bound up in the what ifs and something that the Lord is 736 00:46:35.520 --> 00:46:41.120 you know pushing me towards is to really let go of that hyper vigilance 737 00:46:41.120 --> 00:46:49.040 and just like and I think Ali's a very good model of this honestly Ali you're someone who's very deep 738 00:46:49.040 --> 00:46:53.120 very you can go very serious go very deep like we're not sitting here talking about the weather 739 00:46:53.120 --> 00:46:59.520 but you model a light-heartedness and a letting go that I think the Lord is desiring for his people 740 00:46:59.520 --> 00:47:09.520 right now because it a light heart is a powerful one in a heavy world thank you I mean we a light 741 00:47:09.520 --> 00:47:18.880 heart is what rises above the heaviness like a balloon and to be another joy illustration 742 00:47:18.880 --> 00:47:25.120 and so I I feel like there's a practice ahead of us even in the week where we will and I'm asking 743 00:47:25.120 --> 00:47:29.600 Holy Spirit is like and this is nothing we have to over engineer or over curate but I have asked 744 00:47:29.600 --> 00:47:36.560 that Holy Spirit in my own life to give me wisdom to and just like wisdom being like give me the 745 00:47:36.560 --> 00:47:41.040 give me the check give me when I'm when I'm find myself into this like hyper vigilant state or I'm 746 00:47:41.040 --> 00:47:49.040 like not letting myself go and just be like make me aware of that so I can repent and make a change 747 00:47:49.040 --> 00:47:55.760 just change my mind so much of this journey is just making a change of mind and then I love how 748 00:47:55.760 --> 00:48:00.800 neuroscience again is backing all this up oh yeah that's neuro pathways you literally can change the 749 00:48:00.800 --> 00:48:07.600 road in your way of thinking years of rumination can change as we begin to change our mind and 750 00:48:07.600 --> 00:48:13.200 so an example of this is I'm on a group text for our small group these are no I don't know 751 00:48:13.200 --> 00:48:18.240 everyone yet we're in a new small group we're kind of still meeting each other it's a large group and 752 00:48:18.240 --> 00:48:27.200 I we all had to like to say what we were bringing tonight for dinner and you know there's this like 753 00:48:27.200 --> 00:48:34.320 explosive diarrhea situation happening you may have heard and so the host was like we're doing 754 00:48:34.320 --> 00:48:40.800 soup salads and sandwiches and I'm like there is a joke here guys like waiting to be had but you 755 00:48:40.800 --> 00:48:45.120 know I haven't met these people and I'm like I don't know and I just want to learn like just 756 00:48:45.120 --> 00:48:51.120 just let go just like have some fun like be light-hearted you know people are people 757 00:48:52.320 --> 00:48:57.440 and so I was like I'm gonna be bringing this quinoa salad and then in parentheses I'm like no lettuce 758 00:48:57.440 --> 00:49:01.520 if you know you know and people just thought that was hilarious you know it's like such a simple 759 00:49:01.520 --> 00:49:06.240 thing it's not like this like extremely funny joke but it was just something to like you know 760 00:49:06.240 --> 00:49:09.840 everyone's just like throwing it being kind of very serious and like I'll bring this I'll bring 761 00:49:09.840 --> 00:49:14.800 that and I'm like we just need some fun we need like a laugh like she said bring salads and like 762 00:49:14.800 --> 00:49:19.760 the CDC's like don't eat lettuce right now you know and so I think that there's gonna be 763 00:49:19.760 --> 00:49:24.240 opportunities it's not gonna look like alleys opportunities it's not gonna look like my 764 00:49:24.240 --> 00:49:29.040 opportunities but the Lord knows you so specifically and the Holy Spirit will meet you guys this week 765 00:49:29.040 --> 00:49:35.120 and just give you a simple check hey you want to change your mind about this do you want to try 766 00:49:35.120 --> 00:49:44.640 something new do you want to step out and I think as we allow ourselves to let go of hyper vigilance 767 00:49:44.640 --> 00:49:54.880 of old beliefs that tell us things like joy is irresponsible um not valued um anything that you 768 00:49:54.880 --> 00:49:59.840 might be believing as we begin to change our minds that is when expansion happens and that's 769 00:50:02.960 --> 00:50:04.200 whether it's in a mentorship group, 770 00:50:04.200 --> 00:50:05.520 whether it's in a counselor's session, 771 00:50:05.520 --> 00:50:07.400 whether it's in a doctor's office, 772 00:50:07.400 --> 00:50:09.640 we can begin to execute those things, 773 00:50:09.640 --> 00:50:13.560 implement those things in our life with wisdom and clarity 774 00:50:13.560 --> 00:50:16.200 and discipline in a whole new way 775 00:50:16.200 --> 00:50:18.640 because our minds have changed around it. 776 00:50:18.640 --> 00:50:23.240 So Rachel, I hear you. 777 00:50:23.240 --> 00:50:26.640 I feel that long journey of healing. 778 00:50:26.640 --> 00:50:28.840 Like I've been there and I understand 779 00:50:28.840 --> 00:50:32.280 and it is a long journey and I understand the impatience 780 00:50:32.280 --> 00:50:33.520 and the frustration of like, 781 00:50:33.520 --> 00:50:36.600 can we just be healed already? 782 00:50:36.600 --> 00:50:38.640 Can we just do that? 783 00:50:38.640 --> 00:50:42.040 And so perhaps a change of mind this week 784 00:50:42.040 --> 00:50:47.040 is I can handle this as long as it takes. 785 00:50:47.040 --> 00:50:54.000 Oh, I'm not waiting for God to show up. 786 00:50:54.000 --> 00:50:56.680 I'm waiting with him in this journey 787 00:50:56.680 --> 00:50:59.480 because he never leaves me nor forsakes me. 788 00:50:59.480 --> 00:51:02.200 You know, Sarah and parenting a teenager 789 00:51:02.200 --> 00:51:04.920 and who's becoming a woman and her own person, 790 00:51:04.920 --> 00:51:08.760 there's probably some new mindsets. 791 00:51:08.760 --> 00:51:09.760 Again, this is not like, 792 00:51:09.760 --> 00:51:12.280 oh, I am doing it all wrong, I need to change. 793 00:51:12.280 --> 00:51:14.640 It's just that I would like a change. 794 00:51:14.640 --> 00:51:16.200 I would like this to change, right? 795 00:51:16.200 --> 00:51:18.360 There's things, but there's things in front of us 796 00:51:18.360 --> 00:51:21.440 that we're saying, I wish this would be different. 797 00:51:21.440 --> 00:51:23.880 Anger is a good indicator, by the way, 798 00:51:23.880 --> 00:51:25.640 when you want something to be different. 799 00:51:25.640 --> 00:51:28.040 That's what anger is telling you. 800 00:51:28.040 --> 00:51:30.320 We sometimes try to avoid anger 801 00:51:30.320 --> 00:51:32.400 'cause it feels like a negative emotion. 802 00:51:32.400 --> 00:51:34.840 But anger is just simply telling you 803 00:51:34.840 --> 00:51:36.080 you want it to be different. 804 00:51:36.080 --> 00:51:39.280 So if anger's showing up in your journey, 805 00:51:39.280 --> 00:51:42.000 oh, I recognize that as I want this to be different. 806 00:51:42.000 --> 00:51:45.600 Holy Spirit, help me change my mind about this 807 00:51:45.600 --> 00:51:47.420 so there can be transformation. 808 00:51:47.420 --> 00:51:51.360 Lily, I'm seeing you sense something. 809 00:51:51.360 --> 00:51:56.360 I'm trying to, are you able to unmute yourself? 810 00:51:56.360 --> 00:51:58.400 - Yeah, it's not coming out. 811 00:51:58.400 --> 00:52:00.040 My best friend sent me a text yesterday. 812 00:52:00.040 --> 00:52:02.800 It was just something funny that tied into what you said. 813 00:52:02.800 --> 00:52:07.800 It said, I didn't survive Y2K, 9/11, swine flu, bird flu, 814 00:52:07.800 --> 00:52:11.600 multiple recessions, 815 00:52:11.600 --> 00:52:13.200 and that time I woke up in a corn field 816 00:52:13.200 --> 00:52:17.000 and COVID just to be taken out in 2026 by diarrhea lettuce. 817 00:52:20.000 --> 00:52:21.920 - That's great. - That's a great sound. 818 00:52:21.920 --> 00:52:23.720 I will not be taken out by lettuce. 819 00:52:23.720 --> 00:52:24.560 - No. 820 00:52:24.560 --> 00:52:27.240 I love that. 821 00:52:27.240 --> 00:52:28.300 - That's amazing. 822 00:52:28.300 --> 00:52:33.880 Well, awesome ladies, this has been such a fun call. 823 00:52:33.880 --> 00:52:35.760 Thank you, thank you for showing up live. 824 00:52:35.760 --> 00:52:40.860 Thank you for everyone watching the replay later. 825 00:52:40.860 --> 00:52:44.280 I think God has a lot for us 826 00:52:44.280 --> 00:52:47.680 in this journey with him. 827 00:52:47.680 --> 00:52:50.000 As Lindsay said, you know, it is the journey. 828 00:52:50.000 --> 00:52:52.080 It's what he's teaching us as we go. 829 00:52:52.080 --> 00:52:55.360 It's how he's forming us 830 00:52:55.360 --> 00:52:58.920 and all the good work that he's doing in us 831 00:52:58.920 --> 00:53:00.520 is to do good work for us. 832 00:53:00.520 --> 00:53:03.960 And it is a partnership, so thank you for leaning in. 833 00:53:03.960 --> 00:53:05.080 Thank you for investing. 834 00:53:05.080 --> 00:53:06.120 Thank you for doing the work. 835 00:53:06.120 --> 00:53:06.960 We're grateful. 836 00:53:06.960 --> 00:53:11.520 - And really quickly, I'm gonna pray for us. 837 00:53:11.520 --> 00:53:12.360 - Yeah. 838 00:53:12.360 --> 00:53:15.880 - It has to be a long career, but Holy Spirit, 839 00:53:15.880 --> 00:53:19.720 give us creative ideas this week 840 00:53:19.720 --> 00:53:21.480 on how we can change our mind 841 00:53:21.480 --> 00:53:24.560 about what we want changed in our lives 842 00:53:24.560 --> 00:53:28.240 and give us the courage to try, to step out, 843 00:53:28.240 --> 00:53:30.640 to let go, to try something new. 844 00:53:30.640 --> 00:53:33.480 In Jesus' name, amen. 845 00:53:33.480 --> 00:53:34.320 - Amen. 846 00:53:34.320 --> 00:53:38.520 All right, ladies, we will talk soon. 847 00:53:38.520 --> 00:53:40.040 I'll see you in the app. 848 00:53:40.040 --> 00:53:42.560 - Yep, we'll see you in the community. 849 00:53:42.560 --> 00:53:43.400 Bye, ladies.