Welcome to Supernatural Saturday.
Better late than never.
We are here today.
And it's going to be a short one today, you guys, because I'm traveling.
I'm out in California.
And what am I doing out here?
Well, I hope to have a few days of vacation.
My youngest child and her husband are with us, but I'm out here to get a deposit.
Because it's really important that we all get deposits.
And I know you're like, well, Jackie, you know a lot already.
Yeah, that's how I know a lot already.
Because I do not, I take every opportunity to get a deposit.
I do not think that I'm above deposits.
And the reason why I say that is I have had leaders in my life that thought that they
got too big for their britches, as my grandpa would say.
They got a little too big for their britches, okay?
That's what my grandpa would say when we were little kids and we were running around and
he would tell us something and we would talk back.
He'd say, excuse me, you're getting a little too big for your britches there, right?
And I have known people.
I have known leaders.
Perhaps you're a leader at your work or at your church.
Maybe you're the leader in your family.
You know, in my family, a lot of people look to me for answers about things.
Not just my children, but my extended family.
The bottom line is, is that just because we lead people and we should all be leading
someone and your cat doesn't count, okay?
Your cat, your dog, they don't count.
We should all be leading someone and we probably all are.
People are looking up to us.
People that you don't even realize are looking up to you are looking up to you.
So as we're leading people, we should also be allowing people to lead us.
We all need to be led, all of us.
And so I'm out here getting a deposit because I'm not too big for my britches and I know
that I need to continue, like continuing education, right?
When you're in any kind of field of work, you get continuing education.
If you're a stylist, they make you do so many hours of continuing education.
If you are a medical professional, a doctor, a nurse, they make you do so many hours of
continuing education.
If you're a teacher, they make you do so many hours of continuing education.
Why?
Because they don't want you to get stale.
They don't want you to get dull.
They want you to stay sharp like a knife.
All of you that have knives at home that you've never sharpened, guess what?
Those knives are pretty dull, aren't they?
They are.
You've been opening packages with them.
You've been cutting roast with them.
You've been doing all kinds of stuff with them and they get really dull.
You guys, I will grab any sharp object when I'm opening a package, it doesn't matter
what it is.
A car key, check, a knife, check, the end of a separation comb, check.
I've done it all.
If you don't sharpen it, the knives, they will get dull and then they won't cut anything.
You guys, the last thing that any of us wants to be is dull, right?
We do not want to be dull.
So I'm out here getting poured into and I'm very thankful that I have people in my life
that I can look up to that are further ahead on the road than me in areas.
Now this same group of people that I come out here once a year to gather with and pour
into each other, it's reciprocal.
So they have some things that they pour into me that they're way ahead on the road than
I am and then I have some things to pour into them.
I have some spiritual truth to pour into them.
I'm kind of known as the prophet of this group.
So I bring a lot of the spiritual upgrade here to this same group that is helping me
to upgrade and that's beautiful and that's the way it should be.
Now there are obviously relationships in your life where you don't feel like you can give
a lot back in that season and that's okay.
You can pay it forward, but then there'll be other relationships where they have a lot
to offer you and you have a lot to offer them and those are the relationships that we want
most of all.
Those are the relationships that we're looking for.
All right, so we're going to have a grab bag this morning of a bunch of different things,
but I will tell you that God was speaking to me and he was talking to me about the year
And I just want to release this over you and I think this will encourage a lot of you.
But the beginning and really this didn't start in 2026, it really started in 2025, but a
lot of people have been going through some chaotic stuff, some confusing stuff maybe.
Perhaps you keep waiting for things to get better.
You keep waiting for things to get easier.
And the Lord really
It was showing me that the second half of this year, which by the way, starts July 2nd.
So this coming week, we're going to hit the halfway point.
We're going to hit the tipping point, if you will, of 2026.
The second half of this year is going to be a more accelerated portion of time.
The first half of this year, hopefully, now I can't say that this applies to you
because I don't know what you've been doing.
I don't live in your house.
I don't know what you've been doing.
Okay, so I'll put that disclaimer on this.
But the first half of this year for a lot of people has been a time of pruning.
It's been a time of aligning.
It's been a time of making some decisions.
It may have even been a time of being sick and tired of being sick and tired.
And making a decision that, hey, I'm not going to live like this anymore.
I'm going to do something different.
I definitely know that that has been my situation.
There have been some things that I put off.
I put off last year.
I put off the year before last year, so 24.
I put off last year.
And at the beginning of this year, I'm like, I'm not going to put this off anymore.
And then I asked myself the even deeper question, why, Jackie, are you putting this off?
What are you afraid of?
And friends, anytime you're hesitating to do something, you need to ask yourself that question.
Why?
Why am I hesitating to do this?
Why am I, what am I afraid of?
What's causing me to not be able to go forward here?
Remember, I teach you in heart work that the most important thing you can do is ask questions.
I know that we're all out here to get answers, but you're never going to get answers until you start asking the right questions.
And the right questions are vulnerable questions.
They're really honest questions.
You're not trying to word it in a way that doesn't make you feel embarrassed.
It doesn't make you feel less than.
It doesn't make you feel behind.
You're not trying to word it in a way that, you know, doesn't make you feel like a bad person or someone who's in sin.
Just get honest.
You're not asking this to a human.
I mean, God may lead you to ask it to another human, but right now you're just asking it to God.
Hey, God, why do I do this?
Why am I like this?
I think I talked about this maybe a couple years ago on Supernatural Saturday, but I'll go ahead and repeat it right now.
I have had a real problem with fear since I was a child.
And for those of you that know my story, you can see why.
I came into this world running for my life.
I was born into a place of complete fear and distrust and danger.
And so my nervous system, as we know now, we know that we have these things called nervous systems.
It was dysregulated from day one.
From day one, my little body didn't know what to do or who to trust, could not relax, couldn't calm down.
And so I had a real issue with fear.
And when I came to Jesus in my 20s, it didn't magically get better.
Because God had to teach me via his spirit, how to trust, how to relax, how to let things go.
And I'd love to tell you that I don't deal with anxiety anymore, but it's not true.
But I do know that when I deal with anxiety now, when it comes, when I start to feel that familiar feeling of tension and,
you know, just evil foreboding, there's really no other word for it.
When I feel that coming, I start to get curious instead of afraid.
When I feel those feelings, I get curious about it.
Like, hey, what's triggering this right now?
Why all of a sudden do I feel like this?
Why all of a sudden am I not sleeping at night?
I'm laying here awake, worrying about this.
Like what has changed?
What is it that's triggering this right now?
I'm laying here awake, worrying about this.
Like what has changed?
What has shifted?
God's still the same, isn't he?
Yes, yesterday, today, and forever.
Have my circumstances changed?
No, not really.
Am I forecasting some sort of doom and gloom that's coming?
Yeah, I am.
But why?
Why am I doing that?
And you start asking yourself those questions and you'll be amazed at the answers that start coming.
You're like, Jackie, what would be the good of asking a question?
Because that's how you get an answer.
And the answers come in the craziest ways.
They just start showing up, don't they?
They start showing up in something that you read or something that you see or something that someone else tells you.
Not because you asked another human person the question, but because you asked it to God.
You asked it to God.
You asked him out loud.
You gave him permission to give you wisdom.
You gave him permission.
in to bring the truth.
And when you do that, the truth starts coming.
It starts coming.
It starts showing up.
And then it's up to you whether or not you're going to embrace it.
Are you going to embrace the truth?
Are you going to accept the truth?
Because I'm going to tell you a lot of times the truth is not something that you want to
hear.
Is that true?
Remember that old saying, the truth will set you free, but first it's going to piss you
off.
Yeah, it is.
Just so you know.
Because the truth about yourself isn't always easy to hear.
I remember one time I was told the truth about myself, and this just happened to be being
told to me by another human, a person.
And I didn't like it.
I didn't like what was being said.
Because I had already been working on that area of myself for a long time, for what
felt like forever.
And this was kind of a pastor figure in my life, and he said, well, blah, blah, blah.
And I was like, are you kidding me?
Literally, you guys, that was my response.
In his office, in my late 20s, I'm like, are you kidding me right now?
He said what he said.
And I was like, how?
How can that be true?
I have been working on this area for years, and you're basically telling me that I'm making
no progress.
It was so frustrating.
And I will tell you, I was so disrespectful in that moment, and I did not care.
Because I was really angry.
I was really angry because I felt like I wasn't making any progress, any noticeable progress.
I had surrendered that area.
I had asked God for help in that area.
I had gone into the prayer lines and been prayed for.
I had fasted.
I had read the Bible.
I had done the things.
But what I hadn't done is I hadn't surrendered to let God do the work.
I was still trying to fix myself.
And that was the thing, y'all.
I was trying to fix myself.
So I'm going to save you guys a lot of trouble, just to let you know, you can't fix yourself.
But when you find out the truth about yourself, you can surrender that to God, and you can
say, hey, I don't want to live like this.
I don't want to be like this.
So I'm giving you permission.
Remember, supernatural surrender is the first thing we do in heart work.
Look, there's some more complicated inner healings out there.
I'll be honest with you.
There's some more complicated inner healings, meaning that you got to take an inventory
of your whole family genealogy.
You got to go to the courts of heaven.
You got to go to some big, huge courtroom.
And for those of you that are into the courts of heaven, I'm not knocking it.
I'm just telling you that there's more complicated stuff out there.
But the heart work works because it's very simple.
It puts all the emphasis on God and not on you.
Remember, we don't get out the shovel.
We don't start digging, looking for all the problems with us.
We give permission.
That permission slip at the beginning is there for a reason.
And if you have to dig out your heart work and you have to re-sign that permission slip,
so to speak, in the spirit realm, if you have to re-sign it every day, and you can print
it out and re-sign it physically, but what I mean is that if you have to give God permission
every single day to teach you, show you, heal you, grow you, then so be it.
And honestly, that's not a bad practice.
But it can't become a ritual.
It can't just become something that you say, like grace over your food, right?
Some chant, I remember we had little graces.
My mom's last husband that she married before she passed was a Catholic, and he had a little
prayer for everything.
Teach me, show me, heal me, grow me can't be just something that you recite.
It has to be something that you really mean.
You're asking God, you're saying, I'm open to being taught.
Even if it means that you have to tell me I'm too big for my britches.
I'm open to being shown what's in the way or the way, the way, the way to go.
I'm open to healing, even in the places that I've been guarding.
Yeah, that's right.
We guard our hurting places.
We guard those places.
And even though we're saying that we want healing in those places, a lot of times we're
the one that's in the way of that healing.
We're the one that's blocking that healing.
Because we don't want anyone or anything to touch it.
You ever do that when you were a little kid, you had a boo-boo, and here comes help.
Here comes mom, dad, aunt, uncle, you know, grandma, grandpa, whoever, babysitter, and
they're like, let me look at it, and you're like, no.
Let me clean it.
No, no, no.
We won't let them touch the boo-boo.
We won't let them see the boo-boo.
Why?
Because it hurts.
It hurts already, and now we think it's going to hurt more if we let anyone help it or fix
it.
So when you say heal me, sometimes you're signing up for some more pain.
In fact, oftentimes it's going to hurt to heal.
And I promise you that at the beginning of hard work, I say, hey, listen, I'm not promising
you that this is going to feel good, especially if you've been putting it off.
I'm not promising you that you're not going to experience some pain, physical pain, emotional
pain, spiritual pain, psychological pain.
Not going to promise you that you're not going to relive some things, because some people,
they compartmentalize.
As soon as something happens, they're like, oh, I don't like that.
I'm going to come over here, I'm going to stick this in this box, and I'm never going
to look at it again.
And I was always amazed at those people.
I was like, wow, how can they do that?
How can they disassociate like that?
But friends, just because it's out of sight does not mean it's out of heart.
And whatever's in the heart is what's going to give you the quality of your life.
Out of the quality of your heart comes the quality of your life.
So we have to diffuse these bombs before they go off.
And so when we're saying, heal me, we're giving God permission to get in those boxes.
We're giving him permission to bring that stuff to the surface.
I'll never forget the day that I went down to the altar.
I was in so much pain, so much pain emotionally.
I had so many things going on.
This was about 15 years ago.
And I raised my hands at the altar in a church service, and I just said, you know, I forget
what song was playing, but I was like, God, I want you to do that.
Oh, it was like, it was that song, you know, actually, it's probably about 10 years ago.
And it was that song, you go before I know, you've even gone to win my war, you come back
with the head of my enemy, and you call it my victory.
And I'm like, God, I need you to bring me the head of my enemies.
And not humans, guys, I'm talking about the things that were tormenting me.
And God said, I'd love to do that.
He's like, but you have to step out of the way.
And I'm like, what?
Here I am thinking I'm having this beautiful worship moment with God where I'm going to
get all emotional, and I'm going to say emotional things that you could write in some, you know,
really sad session of poetry.
And I'm like, God, like, like, like, David, oh, my soul is tormented.
You know, I'm out there being dramatic and doing the things and God's like, oh, hey,
I'd love to do that.
But you got to step out of the way, I got to step out of the way.
What do you mean?
And he's like, you're guarding these areas, the areas that you're being tormented in,
you're guarding them.
You're standing in the way of deliverance for yourself, because you don't want these
areas touched.
You say you do, but you're not allowing them to be vacated.
You're not allowing these squatters to be evicted.
And what he was mainly talking about was the spirit of fear, fear of man, fear of all kinds
of stuff.
He was talking about rejection that I was holding on to from childhood.
He's like, oh, yeah, you know, you become a refuge of rejection, like you.
And so we have to look at that when that happens.
We can't just say things to say things.
We have to make sure that we're following that up with real action.
I was guarding those places.
I was familiar with that pain and torment, and therefore I was allowing it to stay.
I didn't know that, not consciously, but I did after that moment.
And so my prayers started changing and my actions started changing.
And then grow me, of course.
Anyone else ever have growing pains when you're a kid, especially in your shins and your legs,
your arms?
I did, because I'm 5'10".
Maybe some of y'all didn't grow enough to have a growing pain, but I did.
I was like Gumby.
It's like five, eight by the fifth grade.
I know about some growing pains, but friends, when we do grow, regardless of
what it, what that means, whether it's physically as a child, whether it's
growing in a role at work, some of you have taken on big things, not just in
your jobs, but in your ministries, you've taken on big things in your families.
That stuff will stretch you and being stretched does not feel fun.
Does it?
It doesn't feel fun.
Being stretched hurts.
And so when you're saying, teach me, show me, heal me, grow me, you are
giving God permission to stretch you.
And what does that mean?
That means that you're going to be out of your comfort zone.
You're going to be put in situations that make you feel uncomfortable, that
make you feel unqualified, disqualified, even maybe not just unqualified, maybe
disqualified, some of you don't realize it, but your divorce has given you a
pervasive sense of disqualification.
You say that you don't believe what the church says about divorce.
You say that you don't believe that your divorce was your fault because, you
know, you're still blaming the other person because they were the bigger
villain, they were the bigger villain in the story, but inside your heart, you
still have adopted disqualification.
And you know who can sense it?
Everybody you go on a date with or don't go on a date with.
It's part of the reason why you're not on dates.
And it's part of the reason why your dates don't work out because you're
actually telling people that you're damaged goods.
You don't know you are, but you are.
Come on.
That's a word for someone.
And that's all right.
And some of you have disqualified yourself for other reasons.
And listen, I'm not saying that you don't need to get healthy.
You know that that's not my mantra.
Some of you just had a girl's night with Renee and hopefully she talked about
health and wellness and different things.
And I'm telling you right now, you do need to get healthy.
Gentlemen, ladies, you do.
In fact, this group that is pouring into me and I'm pouring into them that I come
out here once a year to have these upgrade times with everyone here is trying to get
healthy together because we're all kind of in the same age bracket, forties,
fifties, and we know that if you don't do something about it now, it's not
going to get easier later.
You got to do it.
And so you've disqualified yourself.
Look, you've given up on yourself, but you want someone else to believe in you.
You've given up on yourself, but you want someone else to come and sign up.
Does that make any sense?
That's not really good sales tactic.
Come buy my thing that I don't even believe in.
My middle son-in-law, my middle daughter, she married a guy who went to business
school, he went to college for business.
And then when he graduated, he ended up his first job, promise you,
selling tools at Home Depot.
If you've ever seen those pop-ups at Home Depot, a certain brand of tools will
have a pop-up and then they'll have their, you know, their power tools out
and different things.
Well, you know, my middle son-in-law had never used a power tool in his life.
And he's out there trying to sell power tools to men that use power tools.
And he definitely did not believe in his product because he had never vetted his
product out.
And I went to Home Depot a couple of times because they lived in Austin at the
time.
And I would just go by, you know, say hi to him, whatever, bring him something.
Cause I knew it was a really boring job and I knew he didn't like it.
And it was very apparent.
He wasn't selling any tools.
And the reason why is because he didn't like it.
He didn't want to sell it.
Some of you, your only problem in your singleness, and hopefully you're reading
my book, Modern Dating Sucks, even if you didn't join the book club, you're
reading the book, has a lot of really good field experience, really good advice in
this book, practical advice on how to change this whole situation and have a
summer of love.
But some of you have to start believing in your product before you get back out
there.
Because you guys, when we are dating, we are selling ourselves.
We are selling ourselves.
Because you guys, when we are dating, we are selling ourselves.
We are, whether you like it or not, you are.
And if you don't believe in yourself, you're not going to be a good salesperson.
What you're really hoping for is someone to come along and see things in you that
you don't even see in yourself.
You're hoping to be rescued still.
That's what you're looking for.
You're looking for someone to come and to see how lovable and how amazing.
you are and just against all odds choose you, turn off the TV, turn it off because I'm going
to tell you right now, anyone, the majority of the time, there might be an exception to
this, but the majority of the time that someone comes and they show up and they start inflating
your ego and start telling you how wonderful you are and you don't even know that about
yourself, you have low self-esteem, but they start esteeming you, it's because they want
something and it's not going to turn out well.
They can see an easy mark.
They can see an easy mark from a mile away and ladies, this especially applies to you.
Women with low self-esteem attract predators and you better hear me.
Women with low self-esteem attract predators.
I had a client, some of you were here when she was in this program.
She was one of the hardest clients I've ever had.
I've had three hard, hard, hard clients.
She was one of the hardest students that then became a private coaching client that I ever
had because she was so negative.
She had been obese since she was a kid.
She had been overweight since she was a kid and now she was a grown woman and she was
bordering on obese, probably not just overweight and she was convinced that she could not lose
weight, that she had some kind of metabolism problem, this, that, the other.
Okay, she was successful in other areas of her life.
She was successful in her career, different things.
She was divorced.
She had been married, divorced.
The man had cheated on her, wasn't a good situation.
She had grown adult children and she did not believe that there were men out there that
did not, that wanted women that looked like her for anything more than sex.
She said, I've never had any luck dating any man because all they want is sex immediately.
I meet them on a dating app.
They immediately start talking about sex to me.
They immediately start talking this and that, completely disrespectful, blah, blah, blah,
blah, blah, and it's because I'm fat.
That's what she told me.
I said, no, no, it's not because you're fat.
I said, cause listen, friends, once again, you got to take care of yourself.
Great.
You got to love yourself.
Great.
Whatever that looks like for you, it needs to start happening.
But she had this negative attitude and because of the things that had happened to her, she
did not love herself.
She deeply disliked herself.
I'm not going to say she hated herself, but she deeply disliked herself.
And so during coaching, I focused on heart work.
I focused on her childhood.
I focused on the abandonment that she went through.
I focused on the things behind the things because a lot of times it's not fat friends,
it's hurt.
That's what's happening here.
Your body's holding on to weight, emotional weight and physical weight.
And we started working and it was hard for me, you guys, because she was very, very negative
and it was like me in that pastor's office.
She just wouldn't see the light.
She refused to see it.
It's like, oh no.
And so I felt like every single conversation was like that Groundhog Days movie.
I'm saying the same thing over and over again and she's not getting it.
But then something started to shift.
Something started to happen.
I started to see difference in her.
I started to see her attitude start to change.
And guess what?
She started to lose a few pounds.
Did she become like a skinny legend?
No, she didn't become a skinny legend.
In fact, even now, she's married by the way, even now she's definitely overweight, but
she started looking different.
She started glowing.
Her attitude towards men started changing.
They weren't all animals.
And I told her, look, I'm just going to tell you right now, I have clients that are overweight,
maybe even morbidly overweight that have gotten married through this program.
So what you're saying doesn't add up.
I know that you believe that men only want beautiful, thin women.
That's the only women that they want.
And the guys that come trying to date women like you are just bad guys who just want sex
and just want to use and abuse you.
But the reason why she was attracting those men was because she didn't believe that she
had any value.
So she was attracting people that believed that she only had one value.
She believed that, therefore she was attracting it.
And as she began to change, what she attracted began to change.
And then she attracted her now husband, who was kind and gentle and wonderful from the
very beginning.
They are now married.
He's also a wonderful bonus dad to her adult children who have no relationship with their
biological father.
And she just posted, I haven't seen her in a while.
just posted on one of my Instagram posts the other day,
talking about how happily married
and how wonderful her life is.
Come on, y'all.
Listen up.
Being fat's not gonna keep you
from a love story,
but what you believe about yourself
that's making you fat just might.
Are you hearing me?
Gentlemen, being broke is not gonna keep you
from a love story,
but what you believe about yourself
and your finances just might.
You see how I did the looks for the girls
and the money for the guys?
Because men will be as big as a house
and be like, I'm sexy and I know it.
They do not care, y'all.
They do not care.
Let me tell you how much they don't care.
They have other fish to fry.
That ain't one of their fish.
Come on, friends.
God has a good plan for you,
not just your love life,
all areas of your life.
So teach me, show me, heal me, grow me.
I didn't know what we're gonna talk about today.
I was just gonna let God lead,
which is what we should always do.
Let Holy Spirit lead us along here today.
This is a really good message.
You gotta grab ahold of it.
And there's something in this message
for every one of you.
Every one of you, there's something here
for you to grab ahold of.
Because guess what?
July 2nd is coming.
It's coming real soon.
It's just a couple days away.
And the second half of this year
can look very different than the first half of this year.
Very, very different.
And you're like, well, but Jackie,
I'm one of those people that you said
this might not apply to
because I haven't pruned
and I haven't really focused on getting into alignment
in 25 and the beginning of 26.
There's still time.
You're like, wait, wait, what do you mean?
The second half of the year is next week.
So?
A day is 1,000 years to God.
Come on, y'all.
Don't limit God.
It can simply be about you just getting your heart
into alignment with this.
I'm not gonna fight you anymore, God.
I'm not gonna have it my way,
which by the way, look at how that's working out for you.
That's what I was doing.
I was doing it in some health things.
I was like, no, I'm stubborn.
I'm gonna do it my way.
Guess what?
My way sucks.
And I finally surrendered it
and I started to see some quick progress.
And you might have to do it every day, friends,
that whole permission,
that whole teach me, show me, heal me, grow me.
So for those of you that have been around for a while,
go dig out your heart workbook,
go find that permission slip,
sign it in the spirit realm.
Say, hey, God, once again,
I'm giving you permission for this.
And for those of you that are in heart work right now,
welcome.
We're so glad you're here.
And guess what?
This is gonna be the best half year of your life
because the more that we give God permission,
the more he does.
The more we allow God, the more he does.
Because it's never been about what God can do.
It's about what we believe he can do.
And that belief has action.
You can't just say you believe it.
It has to look like something.
If you believe something's true,
it looks like something.
And so Father God, I thank you for this morning.
I thank for each and every one of these people here,
your sons and your daughters.
I thank you, God, that you are for us.
You are not against us.
And that means life is for us.
It's not against us.
And if there's any area of our life
where we feel like things are extra hard,
it's because our hearts are extra hard in those areas.
And so Lord, we're asking God that you would soften
our hearts so that we could see truth.
We can see our part and then we can surrender our part
so that you can do your part.
Lord, you've created us to prosper.
Even as our soul prospers and our soul has prospered
in Christ Jesus and the finished work of the cross.
And there's no reason why our lives,
every area of our life should not be abundant
so that we can be blessed to be a blessing.
And so Lord, we're declaring that upon ourselves now.
Blessed with more than enough in every area of our life
so that we can show people what it looks like
to be a son and daughter of God.
We thank you, God, that the rough spots,
the hard spots, the blind spots
that you would reveal and heal God.
And we thank you for it in Jesus name, amen.
I love y'all, I'll see you soon.