WEBVTT

1
00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:14.480
Hello. Good evening. Happy Monday. Welcome, welcome. If you're new and you're joining

2
00:00:14.480 --> 00:00:18.680
us for the first time, we'd love for you to put that in the chat for us so we can welcome

3
00:00:18.680 --> 00:00:24.440
you. Welcome back to all my ladies that have been here before. We'd love to invite all

4
00:00:24.440 --> 00:00:29.580
of you as always to come on screen so that I can see you, that the other sisters can

5
00:00:29.580 --> 00:00:34.580
see you. Hi, Debra. I thought you looked like a new lovely face. Welcome for your first

6
00:00:34.580 --> 00:00:40.260
live session and to the community as well. We're so glad to have you here with us. And

7
00:00:40.260 --> 00:00:47.900
as you all continue, let's see, Diana is new as well. Welcome, Diana. Anna is her first

8
00:00:47.900 --> 00:00:53.980
time connecting week one of heartwork. Hello, Anna. Welcome. All right. Just waiting for

9
00:00:53.980 --> 00:00:58.180
some ladies that are able to also join us on screen. So why do we do that? Remember,

10
00:00:58.180 --> 00:01:03.020
ladies, we're coming out of hiding in this season as we do our heartwork. And so showing

11
00:01:03.020 --> 00:01:07.660
up online, kind of planning for that ahead of time would be really good. In the future,

12
00:01:07.660 --> 00:01:12.060
I know that we all have really busy lives. I do too. But just like I'm showing up on

13
00:01:12.060 --> 00:01:17.740
screen so you can see me as I coach you. I love to see you while you're here. Now, obviously,

14
00:01:17.740 --> 00:01:21.740
that's not a guilt thing or to shame you. I know some of you might be at work listening.

15
00:01:21.740 --> 00:01:26.060
There might be people driving or you might be eating. I totally get it. But I do want

16
00:01:26.060 --> 00:01:31.980
you all to try to plan as much as possible to be here on live camera with us when we

17
00:01:31.980 --> 00:01:37.660
go live, whether it's 1 p.m. or 8 p.m. as much as you can. All right. So some additional

18
00:01:37.660 --> 00:01:42.340
housekeeping items for us tonight. So one of the big things I try to circle back to

19
00:01:42.340 --> 00:01:46.700
this every couple of weeks, and it's important in this process, is that we don't want to

20
00:01:46.700 --> 00:01:51.460
just sign up. We want to show up. And that's in everything in our lives. And I find myself

21
00:01:51.460 --> 00:01:57.000
struggling with this as well. I even bought a little mini course on how to do some social

22
00:01:57.000 --> 00:02:01.060
media Instagram reels that are kind of the ones that are getting people's clicks and

23
00:02:01.060 --> 00:02:06.500
all that lately. Signed up for that two days ago, and I have yet to log in and check that

24
00:02:06.500 --> 00:02:11.380
out. So I know it's a real struggle in our world because there's so much information.

25
00:02:11.380 --> 00:02:16.620
There's so many distractions. I'm reading a book right now. How to, what does it say?

26
00:02:16.620 --> 00:02:21.020
How to lead in a world of distraction. And it's really interesting how much I've been

27
00:02:21.020 --> 00:02:26.860
distracted from reading the book. So I want you to know that I get it, and I'm here with

28
00:02:26.860 --> 00:02:33.340
you in it. But when we show up for ourselves, that's when we can really experience the heart

29
00:02:33.340 --> 00:02:38.620
change that is needed. In this season, God led you here so that you could get breakthrough

30
00:02:38.620 --> 00:02:43.540
so that your life doesn't stay the same that it's been. Whatever cycle, habit, or hangup

31
00:02:43.540 --> 00:02:47.580
that you're trying to break free from, even if you came in here for your love story, we

32
00:02:47.580 --> 00:02:53.380
know that the love story is the cherry on top. So we believe that all the other transformation

33
00:02:53.380 --> 00:03:00.140
that you're about to receive or are receiving, that's the core stuff, the reason why God

34
00:03:00.140 --> 00:03:06.060
led you here. So show up for yourself because you matter. You are your best investment.

35
00:03:06.060 --> 00:03:09.740
So however much you put into this is what you're going to get out of it. Promise you

36
00:03:09.740 --> 00:03:13.540
that. All right. So we want to encourage you, as I was saying about the screens come

37
00:03:13.540 --> 00:03:17.620
out of hiding. It's not just about screens. It's about posting. It's about interacting

38
00:03:17.620 --> 00:03:23.900
with the team, with the content, with each other, asking questions. Don't, there is never

39
00:03:23.900 --> 00:03:29.980
a silly or dumb question. Just okay, ladies, so just get that out of your minds. Anytime

40
00:03:29.980 --> 00:03:33.620
you have questions, you might not understand something that's being asked in the coursework.

41
00:03:33.620 --> 00:03:37.620
You might not understand something we say during the live session. You might not understand

42
00:03:37.620 --> 00:03:41.380
something that the Lord is revealing to you. So the best thing you can do is come into

43
00:03:41.380 --> 00:03:45.540
the group, ask us about it, let myself and the team come around you and answer those

44
00:03:45.540 --> 00:03:52.380
for you and help you go on your way a little more successful. All right. Heart posture

45
00:03:52.380 --> 00:03:57.460
is also really key in this. And I love to talk about this very briefly because in the

46
00:03:57.460 --> 00:04:02.860
heart healing journey, we want to remain teachable. No matter how much counseling you've got,

47
00:04:02.860 --> 00:04:06.740
no matter if you have a counseling, coaching, psychology degree, no matter if you've been

48
00:04:06.740 --> 00:04:10.780
in ministry your entire life, you're prophetic, whatever your role is, maybe you don't do

49
00:04:10.780 --> 00:04:16.620
any of those things, but you're super successful boss, babe, teacher, stay at home mom, whatever

50
00:04:16.620 --> 00:04:21.680
that looks like for you. A lot of times what can happen is people come into this community

51
00:04:21.680 --> 00:04:26.420
and they think they have all the answers already. I've already, I've actually had people tell

52
00:04:26.420 --> 00:04:31.260
me I've already learned this somewhere else. Well, there might be similarities and some

53
00:04:31.260 --> 00:04:36.460
of the content for those of you that have been through extensive heart healing programs,

54
00:04:36.460 --> 00:04:41.700
but I promise you if you will remain teachable and open, there is a supernatural grace and

55
00:04:41.700 --> 00:04:46.300
blessing on this program that I have not experienced anywhere else. And I'm not just saying that

56
00:04:46.300 --> 00:04:50.540
because I coach here. I've gone through the program, went through this program back in

57
00:04:50.540 --> 00:04:54.780
2021. I'm one of the success stories from the program. I've been married almost four

58
00:04:54.780 --> 00:04:59.780
years and I've been coaching with this group and an organization for

59
00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:07.500
Let's see, 2026 was five years, so five years exactly in May.

60
00:05:07.500 --> 00:05:12.600
And so it's been a good run and I have seen pretty much everything at this point.

61
00:05:12.600 --> 00:05:16.260
So I'm here to cheer you on, but I'm also going to be here to encourage you to let go

62
00:05:16.260 --> 00:05:21.460
of potentially stubborn heart attitudes at times.

63
00:05:21.460 --> 00:05:26.220
We don't need, you know, this is the thing, we don't know what we don't know.

64
00:05:26.220 --> 00:05:32.720
And sometimes we can't see what is causing us to be stuck, but God will bring the teacher.

65
00:05:32.720 --> 00:05:35.280
Remember when the students are ready, the teacher arrives.

66
00:05:35.280 --> 00:05:41.000
Well, in different seasons, when we enter that kind of space and there's a grace on

67
00:05:41.000 --> 00:05:45.660
it, God is going to try to get to us what we need, where maybe we haven't been able

68
00:05:45.660 --> 00:05:47.500
to receive it or hear it before.

69
00:05:47.500 --> 00:05:55.000
So stay open, let go of any stubborn like mindsets, heart postures, and even, hey, being

70
00:05:55.000 --> 00:05:56.520
easily offended.

71
00:05:56.520 --> 00:05:57.580
Let's let go of that.

72
00:05:57.580 --> 00:06:04.360
Let's let go all that here in the heart work and beyond, because you all, we have so much

73
00:06:04.360 --> 00:06:06.320
happening in the world.

74
00:06:06.320 --> 00:06:12.120
If we allow it, we could easily get offended every single day and just be mad all the time.

75
00:06:12.120 --> 00:06:13.900
But God has called us to be different.

76
00:06:13.900 --> 00:06:15.440
He called us to be a light.

77
00:06:15.440 --> 00:06:18.000
You know, that city set on a hill, right?

78
00:06:18.000 --> 00:06:19.000
So this is a part of it.

79
00:06:19.000 --> 00:06:20.000
We learn how to heal.

80
00:06:20.000 --> 00:06:21.200
We learn how to grow.

81
00:06:21.200 --> 00:06:23.880
We learn how to respond versus react.

82
00:06:23.880 --> 00:06:24.880
Okay?

83
00:06:25.760 --> 00:06:26.760
So that's going to be a part of your journey as well.

84
00:06:26.760 --> 00:06:27.760
Replays.

85
00:06:27.760 --> 00:06:28.760
Replays.

86
00:06:28.760 --> 00:06:30.960
If you didn't know, there's a replay tab in the Last Year Single app.

87
00:06:30.960 --> 00:06:35.160
When you click on that, the replays that are going to be there are things like Supernatural

88
00:06:35.160 --> 00:06:36.160
Saturday.

89
00:06:36.160 --> 00:06:38.680
We had a prophetic ministry night last night.

90
00:06:38.680 --> 00:06:39.680
Totally awesome.

91
00:06:39.680 --> 00:06:43.040
I think, not just because I was leading it, but God just really showed up pretty cool

92
00:06:43.040 --> 00:06:44.040
ways.

93
00:06:44.040 --> 00:06:46.080
That replay should be there for you today.

94
00:06:46.080 --> 00:06:48.240
If it's not already, it will be.

95
00:06:48.240 --> 00:06:52.880
And then also, live sessions like this, the heart check-in.

96
00:06:52.880 --> 00:06:56.800
And then you'll find your coursework under the Courses tab.

97
00:06:56.800 --> 00:06:57.800
Okay?

98
00:06:57.800 --> 00:07:00.800
So if you're not sure where to find that, you're going to click on that Courses tab.

99
00:07:00.800 --> 00:07:01.840
Everything will be there.

100
00:07:01.840 --> 00:07:05.440
When you go to create a post in the group, you're going to click on the Community tab

101
00:07:05.440 --> 00:07:06.920
and create a post.

102
00:07:06.920 --> 00:07:11.600
If you just have a question for the coaches, if you click the Ask a Coach tab, that will

103
00:07:11.600 --> 00:07:13.960
kind of put it in a little different area for it.

104
00:07:13.960 --> 00:07:16.360
We check all the tabs, just so you all know.

105
00:07:16.360 --> 00:07:20.160
But sometimes that can kind of get it in front of us a little quicker if you have a question.

106
00:07:20.160 --> 00:07:21.160
All right.

107
00:07:21.160 --> 00:07:22.160
So let's pray for us.

108
00:07:22.160 --> 00:07:23.800
And we're going to jump into our content for tonight.

109
00:07:23.800 --> 00:07:27.800
Father, thank you so much for this amazing night to be here with all of these women.

110
00:07:27.800 --> 00:07:31.200
God, I thank you that you've called them here for such a time as this.

111
00:07:31.200 --> 00:07:36.800
God, I know that each one of us has had journeys long before we came to this point.

112
00:07:36.800 --> 00:07:38.200
God, you know it all.

113
00:07:38.200 --> 00:07:41.680
You know the hard things, the impossible things.

114
00:07:41.680 --> 00:07:43.960
You know the victories along the way.

115
00:07:43.960 --> 00:07:49.080
God, you know all the people that were involved in every story, every setback, every wrong

116
00:07:49.080 --> 00:07:50.080
decision.

117
00:07:50.080 --> 00:07:51.080
God, we thank you for grace.

118
00:07:51.080 --> 00:07:52.600
God, we thank you for the power of your Spirit that's so efficient, that's here with us tonight.

119
00:07:52.600 --> 00:07:57.800
God, that you are the amazing grace that washes over us, that you set us free.

120
00:07:57.800 --> 00:08:01.960
God, we thank you for just binding and breaking every attack of the enemy, that you would

121
00:08:01.960 --> 00:08:04.480
just remove guilt, remove shame.

122
00:08:04.480 --> 00:08:08.960
God, that you would enlighten us and bring those things that are in darkness to the light.

123
00:08:08.960 --> 00:08:11.520
Help us to hear what your Spirit is saying loud and clear.

124
00:08:11.520 --> 00:08:16.560
God, I thank you for aha moments and quick connections in the spirit realm tonight, that

125
00:08:16.560 --> 00:08:21.160
you would help us to overcome fear, anxiety, dread, panic disorders.

126
00:08:21.160 --> 00:08:26.920
God, that you would help us to understand where the root of these things has began in

127
00:08:26.920 --> 00:08:32.120
us so that we can break free, that we can replace the lies with the truth.

128
00:08:32.120 --> 00:08:35.480
We just thank you, Holy Spirit, for being here to make it all possible, that you are

129
00:08:35.480 --> 00:08:40.159
our helper, you're our guide, and you're our ever-present help in this moment and in the

130
00:08:40.159 --> 00:08:41.159
days to come.

131
00:08:41.159 --> 00:08:42.679
In Jesus' name, amen.

132
00:08:42.679 --> 00:08:46.320
So tonight, ladies, we're talking about overcoming fear and anxiety.

133
00:08:47.080 --> 00:08:50.040
And as we start to talk about this, I'd just like to touch on this quickly, the reminder

134
00:08:50.040 --> 00:08:54.440
that our hearts are easily impressionable, okay?

135
00:08:54.440 --> 00:09:00.320
So what we're listening to, what we're taking in, what we've grown up in for years.

136
00:09:00.320 --> 00:09:06.120
You know, if your parents or someone that you were around a lot were very anxious, panicky

137
00:09:06.120 --> 00:09:14.080
people, fear-driven, even in their conversation about money, whatever that looks like, a lot

138
00:09:14.080 --> 00:09:20.720
of times what can happen are these subconscious belief systems that we pick up, what we would

139
00:09:20.720 --> 00:09:27.400
call here as limiting belief systems or orphan mentalities, scarcity mindsets, right?

140
00:09:27.400 --> 00:09:31.960
They come in and they kind of live underneath the surface in our subconscious, but then

141
00:09:31.960 --> 00:09:36.600
we're living it out by how we're acting and how we're showing up in everyday life, including

142
00:09:36.600 --> 00:09:41.760
believing there's no good men out there, or I'm too old, there's no way that this can

143
00:09:41.760 --> 00:09:43.440
still happen for me.

144
00:09:43.480 --> 00:09:46.200
So remember that dialogue that you're hearing.

145
00:09:46.200 --> 00:09:47.760
I made too many mistakes before.

146
00:09:47.760 --> 00:09:50.240
We talked about that last week, didn't we, ladies?

147
00:09:50.240 --> 00:09:51.240
Yeah.

148
00:09:51.240 --> 00:09:52.960
I was caught up in this other thing too long.

149
00:09:52.960 --> 00:09:58.240
I've wasted too much time, but God is the rewriter of our stories and he is redirecting

150
00:09:58.240 --> 00:09:59.720
your path.

151
00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:04.000
this night, but in the days to come, and He can do something supernatural in you.

152
00:10:04.000 --> 00:10:10.000
But again, it's what is our level of expectancy? And for some of you that feel very hopeless in

153
00:10:10.000 --> 00:10:14.560
this season, or you came into this community feeling hopeless, God's going to recharge and

154
00:10:14.560 --> 00:10:18.800
fill your tank of hope, I promise you, if you'll allow Him. But you have to acknowledge where

155
00:10:18.800 --> 00:10:24.320
you're at. What is your starting point? Where are you at the beginning? Maybe you've been

156
00:10:24.320 --> 00:10:29.360
here for weeks or months, but where are you tonight? What is it that you need from God?

157
00:10:30.960 --> 00:10:34.960
What are you expecting Him to do in you? So what I want to encourage you all to do,

158
00:10:34.960 --> 00:10:39.120
even if you didn't come here like this tonight, okay, you can start right now. You can shift in

159
00:10:39.120 --> 00:10:43.280
your heart, but also every week, I really want to encourage you before you come to pray over

160
00:10:43.280 --> 00:10:49.840
yourself, and really ask God to help you expect for Him to do something supernatural in you every

161
00:10:49.840 --> 00:10:54.960
time you come. Every live call that you're on, every replay that you listen to, that you go in

162
00:10:54.960 --> 00:10:59.120
believing that God is going to meet you there, and He's going to say something for you. He's

163
00:10:59.200 --> 00:11:02.560
going to connect the dot that you need Him to connect. He's going to set you free in ways you

164
00:11:02.560 --> 00:11:09.680
need it. Ladies, it's time. It's time for us to stop just accepting mediocre when we go to places

165
00:11:09.680 --> 00:11:16.960
and spaces, including church, right? We have to go in. Do we read the Bible with an expectation

166
00:11:16.960 --> 00:11:23.360
that God is going to meet us there? And do we actually, you know, believe that when we pray

167
00:11:23.360 --> 00:11:28.000
that He hears us? These are the kind of things I want to encourage you to start challenging

168
00:11:28.000 --> 00:11:33.120
yourself in. Now, I'm not saying every single time I'm reading my Bible, it's not like heaven

169
00:11:33.120 --> 00:11:39.440
opens, and like God is just audibly speaking to me. But you all, I'm telling you, He speaks often

170
00:11:39.440 --> 00:11:46.000
through that still small voice, and He'll speak to you the same way as well. Why am I connecting

171
00:11:46.000 --> 00:11:50.240
that with overcoming fear and anxiety? Well, because in order to overcome these things,

172
00:11:50.320 --> 00:11:57.200
we have to learn the voice of the Father more. We have to partner with the truth of heaven

173
00:11:57.760 --> 00:12:04.160
more. And the only way to do those things is to unlearn some of the old ways of thinking,

174
00:12:04.160 --> 00:12:10.000
stinking thinking, if you will, and heart postures that we've been living in for far too long.

175
00:12:11.840 --> 00:12:17.040
So if our hearts are easily highly impressionable, that means anything that comes into it. Think of

176
00:12:17.360 --> 00:12:23.520
just even if you were to push your finger into like a mold or a clay thing that was easily moldable,

177
00:12:23.520 --> 00:12:26.880
you know, you're going to start to see your thumbprint in there, right? Well, that's the

178
00:12:26.880 --> 00:12:31.840
same kind of concept I want you to think about regarding your heart. Where the pressure is

179
00:12:31.840 --> 00:12:39.440
applied, something is going to leave an imprint. Don't we want it to be the good pressure, the

180
00:12:39.440 --> 00:12:44.720
good change of heaven and the things that God is doing to transform us? Remember, it says,

181
00:12:44.720 --> 00:12:50.880
by the transforming of our minds, old things are passing away. Behold, everything is becoming new.

182
00:12:50.880 --> 00:12:56.800
That's a mind and heart connection. Our hearts and minds are connected. They're one. So in Proverbs

183
00:12:56.800 --> 00:13:02.640
4, 23, it says, keep your heart with all vigilance, for from it flows the springs of life.

184
00:13:03.920 --> 00:13:09.120
Vigilance here is actually, if you go through and you look at a couple of the different

185
00:13:09.200 --> 00:13:17.120
words that come up here, it's alertly watchful as to avoid danger. I want you to understand that

186
00:13:17.120 --> 00:13:21.520
the enemy, even last night we addressed it again on the Prophetic Ministry Night, he is always

187
00:13:21.520 --> 00:13:26.800
looking for those whom he can devour, those he can convince that you're no good, that nothing's ever

188
00:13:26.800 --> 00:13:31.520
going to work out for you, that, you know, there's nothing good that ever is going to happen for you.

189
00:13:31.520 --> 00:13:36.560
Whatever, again, those lies are, those belief systems, and he's trying to convince you to

190
00:13:36.560 --> 00:13:41.680
partake. If you think of this, like even, I don't know why this is coming to my mind, but Alice in

191
00:13:41.680 --> 00:13:46.000
Wonderland, and you know, she ate the cake and then something happened, right? So he's like trying to

192
00:13:46.000 --> 00:13:52.080
get us to eat the cake, so to speak, but it's not a good cake because it makes us shrink down, if you

193
00:13:52.080 --> 00:13:57.360
will, and not live into the fullness of who God originally created us to be, to the full potential

194
00:13:57.360 --> 00:14:03.040
of who he's called us to be. God gave us authority, and in order to stand in authority, we have to

195
00:14:03.040 --> 00:14:08.080
learn the truth about who he is, and that comes as we heal in our hearts more and more, but it also

196
00:14:08.080 --> 00:14:13.520
comes as we study who he is. When we really seek out the scriptures to know his character,

197
00:14:14.720 --> 00:14:21.760
the more we know God as love, the more we know God is faithful, good, all these things, the more we

198
00:14:21.760 --> 00:14:29.520
will be able to believe the things that he says to us. Fear is false evidence appearing real. I want

199
00:14:29.520 --> 00:14:35.440
you guys to remember that. Write it down, whatever you need to do, so that anytime a fear comes to you,

200
00:14:35.440 --> 00:14:41.120
that you can ask the Lord, okay, what is the false evidence that is appearing real right now?

201
00:14:43.520 --> 00:14:50.960
And then anxiety is fueled by fears and what-if statements, so fear and anxiety are always, they

202
00:14:50.960 --> 00:14:56.560
tend to partner together. Same thing with dread and worry and panic. They all kind of hang out,

203
00:14:56.560 --> 00:14:59.840
if you will, and congregate. If you can imagine a group of people you-

204
00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:03.480
walk into some place and you're like, oh, I see that group of people.

205
00:15:03.480 --> 00:15:06.320
Yeah, that's fear. That's anxiety. That's dread, panic, worry.

206
00:15:06.320 --> 00:15:08.520
They're all hanging out in a big old group together.

207
00:15:08.520 --> 00:15:12.440
And if one of them gets their foot in the door with you, guess what?

208
00:15:12.440 --> 00:15:15.480
The spirits will all start to congregate, if you will.

209
00:15:15.720 --> 00:15:20.440
They'll start to follow and figure out which which way they can get in to your mind.

210
00:15:21.680 --> 00:15:26.400
So where is anxiety fueled by fear and what if thoughts?

211
00:15:26.520 --> 00:15:28.720
Where is it plaguing you today?

212
00:15:28.720 --> 00:15:30.760
Let's go ahead and activate you on to see in the chat.

213
00:15:30.760 --> 00:15:34.840
What's a fear that you've had in the last week or the last day?

214
00:15:34.920 --> 00:15:37.720
Whatever is easier for you to remember and recall.

215
00:15:37.720 --> 00:15:39.040
Go ahead and put that in the chat for me.

216
00:15:41.760 --> 00:15:45.120
A fear that you've had, whether it's been a fleeting thought

217
00:15:45.120 --> 00:15:48.320
or something that you were thinking about for a while.

218
00:15:49.080 --> 00:15:51.480
Kay, Juliana says that I will be alone forever.

219
00:15:52.840 --> 00:15:54.960
Being stalked by my ex again.

220
00:15:54.960 --> 00:15:59.440
So sorry to hear that and family dynamics during vacation, OK?

221
00:16:03.680 --> 00:16:06.520
Is that vacation coming up, Tara, is that one that happened?

222
00:16:06.520 --> 00:16:09.440
What if I fail or this isn't the direction God wants me to go?

223
00:16:09.440 --> 00:16:13.160
New job path, dread about the future, fear of not being accepted

224
00:16:13.160 --> 00:16:15.520
back into an old group, being lonely all the time.

225
00:16:15.760 --> 00:16:17.320
People think I'm stupid. I'm too much.

226
00:16:17.320 --> 00:16:18.400
People don't like me.

227
00:16:18.400 --> 00:16:22.040
I won't be able to stick with a new nutrition program judged for my decisions.

228
00:16:22.640 --> 00:16:24.640
OK, so that that's coming up in a few days.

229
00:16:24.640 --> 00:16:25.560
We'll pray over that.

230
00:16:25.560 --> 00:16:28.080
If I if I can recall it by the end tonight,

231
00:16:28.760 --> 00:16:30.320
we'll pray over that before we jump off.

232
00:16:30.320 --> 00:16:32.840
New not job, not getting the job contract.

233
00:16:32.840 --> 00:16:35.040
I want fear about not being able to afford a car.

234
00:16:35.320 --> 00:16:36.880
OK, a lot of really good ones.

235
00:16:36.880 --> 00:16:38.800
If you think of more, go and put those in the chat,

236
00:16:38.800 --> 00:16:39.760
because here's what I know.

237
00:16:39.760 --> 00:16:43.440
Also, when we get them out of us and we get out of those fears,

238
00:16:43.440 --> 00:16:46.160
out of the darkness, into the light, they get revealed, right?

239
00:16:46.360 --> 00:16:48.880
Well, light and darkness don't coexist together.

240
00:16:48.880 --> 00:16:50.520
The light overtakes the darkness.

241
00:16:50.520 --> 00:16:53.560
So when we bring those things out to the surface and we acknowledge

242
00:16:53.840 --> 00:16:57.880
that we're having them, even in that, they start to loosen their grip.

243
00:16:59.280 --> 00:17:03.480
Not able to retire, not capable to do job task, fear, end up same cycle

244
00:17:03.480 --> 00:17:07.480
and busy for serving and not fixing my own matters like decluttering finances.

245
00:17:07.520 --> 00:17:10.000
All right. I'm going to keep going.

246
00:17:10.000 --> 00:17:14.319
Trauma that happened to us isn't what stops us from living an amazing life, ladies.

247
00:17:15.000 --> 00:17:18.760
But it's the lies we believe as a result of the trauma,

248
00:17:19.440 --> 00:17:22.319
fears and anxiety feed off of these lies.

249
00:17:23.920 --> 00:17:27.800
OK, so this is why it's important for you to get to the root.

250
00:17:27.839 --> 00:17:30.240
Where did this start?

251
00:17:30.760 --> 00:17:33.960
So when we say to you, ask God really good questions.

252
00:17:33.960 --> 00:17:37.160
Jack even talked about it this past Saturday during Supernatural Saturday.

253
00:17:37.160 --> 00:17:39.040
We want you to pause.

254
00:17:39.040 --> 00:17:41.040
God, where is this fear coming from?

255
00:17:42.200 --> 00:17:45.720
That will stop just being like, this is just how I've always been.

256
00:17:45.880 --> 00:17:47.840
This is what I've always been afraid of.

257
00:17:47.840 --> 00:17:50.240
You know, even if it's something we've always known, ladies,

258
00:17:50.240 --> 00:17:52.120
that doesn't mean that is how God created us.

259
00:17:52.120 --> 00:17:55.800
Do you know that God didn't create us with fear inside of us?

260
00:17:57.360 --> 00:18:01.120
That is something that we have learned.

261
00:18:01.120 --> 00:18:04.520
Anxiousness and worry, that is something we have learned.

262
00:18:05.720 --> 00:18:08.000
From trauma, from other people.

263
00:18:09.360 --> 00:18:12.040
Partnering with lies and allowing it to become a habit

264
00:18:12.040 --> 00:18:16.240
that we even are like constantly worrying.

265
00:18:16.400 --> 00:18:21.240
Y'all, if worry is overtaking your mind, I promise you,

266
00:18:21.240 --> 00:18:23.120
that is not how God wants you to live.

267
00:18:23.120 --> 00:18:25.280
He wants you to go ahead and start to stop that cycle

268
00:18:25.280 --> 00:18:27.400
and and come out of agreement with that.

269
00:18:27.400 --> 00:18:31.080
And it's, you know, shifting lanes, if you will.

270
00:18:31.840 --> 00:18:36.480
In regards to healing our minds, it takes some intentionality.

271
00:18:37.480 --> 00:18:41.040
Remember, you've been creating the neural pathways in your brain

272
00:18:41.840 --> 00:18:44.120
for a long time now.

273
00:18:44.160 --> 00:18:46.440
Do you know it takes at least 30 days of thinking

274
00:18:46.440 --> 00:18:49.840
the same positive thought for that to create a new neural pathway?

275
00:18:52.240 --> 00:18:54.360
So don't give up on yourself, OK?

276
00:18:55.280 --> 00:18:58.080
Even if you're like, I've tried this before, but it didn't work.

277
00:18:58.080 --> 00:19:02.360
Well, you might have got to day 10 and given up. OK.

278
00:19:03.200 --> 00:19:04.360
So let's do our best.

279
00:19:04.360 --> 00:19:07.600
Again, this is where God's supernatural ability can empower us.

280
00:19:08.040 --> 00:19:11.720
But we also have to grow in our ability that, you know, the spirit of

281
00:19:12.280 --> 00:19:14.360
the fruits of the spirit and talks about self-control.

282
00:19:14.360 --> 00:19:19.080
Well, we can allow ourselves to walk in self-control regarding our minds, too.

283
00:19:19.640 --> 00:19:22.240
And when we need the help of the Holy Spirit, he's here.

284
00:19:22.280 --> 00:19:26.760
The same power there is Jesus from the dead can help us get control of our minds.

285
00:19:27.640 --> 00:19:30.560
When we have problem areas, these areas where we're always stuck,

286
00:19:30.600 --> 00:19:33.600
that is a signal right then and there we can say, OK,

287
00:19:33.840 --> 00:19:35.240
this is somewhere where I feel stuck.

288
00:19:35.240 --> 00:19:37.480
If you keep saying, I'm just stuck, I'm just stuck.

289
00:19:37.480 --> 00:19:40.400
I never you know, I have a lady right now. I've been coaching her.

290
00:19:40.600 --> 00:19:43.440
She said that she gets to about day three.

291
00:19:44.800 --> 00:19:46.320
And then they always back off.

292
00:19:46.320 --> 00:19:48.640
She's like, I've been going through this cycle over and over.

293
00:19:48.640 --> 00:19:50.920
And so she's like, I'm stuck here.

294
00:19:50.920 --> 00:19:53.240
Well, part of it, I'm not saying that's not true,

295
00:19:53.520 --> 00:19:56.040
but part of the struggle is that she keeps saying she's stuck.

296
00:19:56.800 --> 00:20:00.040
No, we need to look at, OK, that that might be happening.

297
00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:05.200
in the physical realm, but God what's underneath the surface that is causing

298
00:20:05.200 --> 00:20:13.480
that cycle? When's the first time I ever felt stuck in this way? And let him show

299
00:20:13.480 --> 00:20:17.200
you that underneath the surface. And remember, even if he shows you something

300
00:20:17.200 --> 00:20:20.320
recent, there might be other things underneath of that, but you just might

301
00:20:20.320 --> 00:20:25.080
not have the capacity right now for that to be revealed. So trust the Lord in this

302
00:20:25.080 --> 00:20:29.400
process. We don't get out our shovels and dig. We allow the revealings for healing

303
00:20:29.400 --> 00:20:36.720
to happen. All right. Yes, I want to read a part of this little thing to you all.

304
00:20:36.720 --> 00:20:41.440
So when we go through situations, I want you to really start to think about, as

305
00:20:41.440 --> 00:20:44.640
I'm talking to you about this tonight, and yes we're talking about fear and

306
00:20:44.640 --> 00:20:49.040
anxiety, but let's also think about cycles in our lives that maybe again

307
00:20:49.040 --> 00:20:54.200
we've just accepted like, oh this is just how it is. Everybody goes through this. I

308
00:20:54.200 --> 00:20:57.840
had a friend come stay with me for a few days and one of the things, and I'm not

309
00:20:57.840 --> 00:21:01.600
saying this is bad, but this is something we learn in the church and so

310
00:21:01.600 --> 00:21:06.200
I want to point this out. She was just trying to talk about the struggle that

311
00:21:06.200 --> 00:21:11.280
she's having in her marriage right now, but then every time she would say

312
00:21:11.280 --> 00:21:14.960
something she's like, but I know other people have it worse than me. It was like

313
00:21:14.960 --> 00:21:18.960
a default mechanism, right? Because she was feeling guilty for saying that she's

314
00:21:18.960 --> 00:21:24.480
actually struggling in her marriage and the situation she's going through. God

315
00:21:24.520 --> 00:21:29.440
isn't asking us to like always deflect and be like, but I know other people have

316
00:21:29.440 --> 00:21:35.040
it worse so I should be just grateful. No, like we have to feel the feels. We have

317
00:21:35.040 --> 00:21:39.520
to get to the root of what is causing this stuff in us and yes we can

318
00:21:39.520 --> 00:21:42.560
acknowledge that other people struggle in different ways and maybe even

319
00:21:42.560 --> 00:21:47.040
sometimes what we would consider worse ways around the world, but sometimes that

320
00:21:47.040 --> 00:21:51.360
is a pattern that needs to get broken and honestly you know in the body of

321
00:21:51.360 --> 00:21:56.000
Christ so many of us learn false humility. We learn this defection, like

322
00:21:56.000 --> 00:22:01.080
that deflecting, deflecting, deflecting because we're told we're not allowed to

323
00:22:01.080 --> 00:22:09.600
you know think on our negative things too long, right? But you all, how do we heal if

324
00:22:09.600 --> 00:22:15.200
we don't even look at it? I'm not saying stay there for a lot you know for good,

325
00:22:15.200 --> 00:22:19.440
but we need to be willing to take a good look at what's going on, what led us to

326
00:22:19.440 --> 00:22:23.720
where we are, and how does God want to break this cycle so that we don't

327
00:22:23.720 --> 00:22:29.040
continue to end up here? Even a lot of Christians are just literally so bound

328
00:22:29.040 --> 00:22:33.080
and they're so angry and they're so unhappy. Why would non-believers want to

329
00:22:33.080 --> 00:22:39.520
be a part of the church? But we can be a part of the change that lasts, that

330
00:22:39.520 --> 00:22:43.320
movement of kingdom family and marriages that would invite other people and

331
00:22:43.320 --> 00:22:47.520
encourage other people be like, man I want that kind of marriage. I want that

332
00:22:47.520 --> 00:22:52.080
kind of community. I want that kind of transformation. And that's gonna happen

333
00:22:52.080 --> 00:22:55.240
to so many of you even through the heart work. People are gonna start to say, hey

334
00:22:55.240 --> 00:22:58.680
what's going on with you? I noticed something different and that's gonna be

335
00:22:58.680 --> 00:23:04.520
a good thing. Some of you will start to like have a new glow, a new look come

336
00:23:04.520 --> 00:23:09.200
over you. Believe it because it's about to happen to you. All right, the biggest

337
00:23:09.200 --> 00:23:13.800
lie that you may believe in life is that your life is normal. Many people, this is

338
00:23:13.800 --> 00:23:17.880
from the heart work book, many people that live broken lives believe that it's

339
00:23:17.880 --> 00:23:23.080
reasonable to live that way. They have inherited that emotional debt or trauma

340
00:23:23.080 --> 00:23:26.920
from their family and they think it's normal to be overweight, unhappy, to be

341
00:23:26.920 --> 00:23:30.960
unfaithful, to be in a relationship where someone mistreats you, or to be sick all

342
00:23:30.960 --> 00:23:34.280
the time. They think it's okay to have massive amounts of debt and spend all

343
00:23:34.280 --> 00:23:38.920
their energy trying to figure out how to pay the bills. Or even a more severe

344
00:23:38.920 --> 00:23:44.960
deception like it's normal to abuse and hurt others or yourself. Jackie says I

345
00:23:44.960 --> 00:23:48.080
knew someone like that. They thought it was normal to be molested by family

346
00:23:48.080 --> 00:23:53.120
members because it's all they had ever known. When they were confronted by an

347
00:23:53.120 --> 00:23:58.040
outsider about the abuse they said that happens in everyone's family, doesn't it?

348
00:23:58.040 --> 00:24:03.640
No, it does not. Maybe you have been confronted by people in your life,

349
00:24:03.640 --> 00:24:07.640
friends, co-workers, even family that are trying to get you to see how dysfunctional

350
00:24:07.640 --> 00:24:13.200
an area of your life has become. I've done this for over for people over the

351
00:24:13.200 --> 00:24:16.840
years. Some people call it an intervention. It's a reality check when

352
00:24:16.840 --> 00:24:20.480
someone is so deep in a lie that their behavior has become dangerous to others

353
00:24:20.480 --> 00:24:26.080
or themselves. The desired outcome is that the person will wake up and see

354
00:24:26.080 --> 00:24:30.760
what they are doing and ask for help.

355
00:24:30.920 --> 00:24:35.320
So I want to encourage you tonight. Like where is it that you need to just kind

356
00:24:35.320 --> 00:24:40.520
of dial back and ask God for help and then also come into the community and

357
00:24:40.520 --> 00:24:45.280
say, hey, this is where I'm still struggling in this cycle, you know? And

358
00:24:45.280 --> 00:24:50.840
sometimes you're gonna be asking, you know, a similar thing a couple times. Last

359
00:24:50.840 --> 00:24:54.560
week I mentioned about people that are saying the same thing. That is like

360
00:24:54.560 --> 00:24:57.920
where someone's still in that place, you know, a year from now because we need to

361
00:24:57.920 --> 00:25:01.920
look at that and, okay, why aren't they getting that?

362
00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:03.160
breakthrough yet. It doesn't necessarily mean it's your fault, but there might be

363
00:25:03.160 --> 00:25:07.680
something else we need to focus on. And you get freedom and breakthrough there

364
00:25:07.680 --> 00:25:11.360
first, and then that creates the freedom and breakthrough in that thing you're

365
00:25:11.360 --> 00:25:15.720
not able to figure out right now. But here's the reason I said that. Some of

366
00:25:15.720 --> 00:25:21.720
you do need to just kind of process and unpack. I know Tatiana shared in the

367
00:25:21.720 --> 00:25:25.120
group, you all didn't see it this past week, she's been really praying about

368
00:25:25.120 --> 00:25:29.000
this situation with her dad. And when she came into the community, we've been

369
00:25:29.000 --> 00:25:33.320
coaching her on that. Y'all, she got some major breakthrough. She has a major

370
00:25:33.320 --> 00:25:37.040
breakthrough, and it's exciting. So we want you to know we're cheering you on,

371
00:25:37.040 --> 00:25:41.040
we're praying. And just let me say this, I hope it goes well for her from here on

372
00:25:41.040 --> 00:25:46.000
out with her dad, but there's ebbs and flows, you all, from my experience as we

373
00:25:46.000 --> 00:25:50.000
continue to walk the healing out. It doesn't mean it's going to be perfect,

374
00:25:50.000 --> 00:25:54.160
and we shouldn't expect that from other people. We shouldn't expect that from

375
00:25:54.240 --> 00:25:58.960
ourselves. Now we can strive for excellence, we can strive to make the

376
00:25:58.960 --> 00:26:04.200
choices according to what the Lord says, but he's not asking us to be perfect.

377
00:26:04.200 --> 00:26:10.480
There's one person that's perfect, and his name is Jesus Christ. But so many of

378
00:26:10.480 --> 00:26:14.000
you are holding other people to levels and standards of perfection as well as

379
00:26:14.000 --> 00:26:17.240
yourself, and you don't have grace for yourself, therefore you don't have grace

380
00:26:17.240 --> 00:26:23.560
for other people. And a lot of that is rooted in fear. That's how I'm connecting

381
00:26:23.560 --> 00:26:27.600
it tonight. Did you know that the reason we hold people to such high standards is

382
00:26:27.600 --> 00:26:31.880
often, and ourselves as well, is often like walls that we're putting up because

383
00:26:31.880 --> 00:26:36.600
we're afraid of getting hurt, we're afraid of something that may or may not

384
00:26:36.600 --> 00:26:40.960
happen again. There's that anxiety, what if this? What if that? What if this? And so

385
00:26:40.960 --> 00:26:44.480
we build all these walls to try to protect ourselves. Well Jackie talks

386
00:26:44.480 --> 00:26:47.880
about what happens when we build walls. For my ladies that have been here for

387
00:26:47.880 --> 00:26:54.840
a while, anybody know the answer? Thieves will try to scale the walls, you all. So

388
00:26:54.840 --> 00:27:00.040
let's not build walls, let's continue to surrender the pen, surrender to the Lord,

389
00:27:00.040 --> 00:27:05.560
and trust him in the process. Okay, so as you're processing these lies, I want you

390
00:27:05.560 --> 00:27:10.600
to, excuse me, and fears are rising up, I want you to pause and ask two things.

391
00:27:10.600 --> 00:27:15.720
Remember, false evidence appearing real. So you're asking the Lord, what is false

392
00:27:15.920 --> 00:27:19.520
evidence appearing real right now? And the other way to do this is, what are the

393
00:27:19.520 --> 00:27:24.800
facts? What are the facts in this situation right now? And just looking at

394
00:27:24.800 --> 00:27:28.680
it logically. And number two, what is true? Because if you're looking at what

395
00:27:28.680 --> 00:27:33.200
is true, you should be able to automatically identify what is false.

396
00:27:33.200 --> 00:27:38.440
Right? Alright, everybody tracking with me? So we can overcome the fears the more

397
00:27:38.440 --> 00:27:44.760
we heal and become rooted in God's love and faithfulness to us. Are you someone

398
00:27:44.760 --> 00:27:50.360
who is always waiting for the other shoe to drop? Something's going really

399
00:27:50.360 --> 00:27:53.840
well, and you're just constantly like, this isn't gonna last, this isn't gonna

400
00:27:53.840 --> 00:27:58.240
last. This guy's not really good. Where is the stuff that's hiding that's not

401
00:27:58.240 --> 00:28:04.040
good? You know, that kind of thought and process. God is wanting to reveal these

402
00:28:04.040 --> 00:28:07.600
things where we believe in the worst case scenario instead of the best case

403
00:28:07.600 --> 00:28:14.040
scenario. And you know, last night, it kind of came out in the chat. And as one

404
00:28:14.080 --> 00:28:18.840
of the ladies was releasing a word, and this is so true as well. A lot of

405
00:28:18.840 --> 00:28:23.200
churches and denominations will talk a lot about generational curses. And y'all,

406
00:28:23.200 --> 00:28:28.240
they are true. It's in the Bible. You can read it. But not many talk about

407
00:28:28.240 --> 00:28:32.520
generational blessings. And until I came into this community, honestly, I focused

408
00:28:32.520 --> 00:28:37.000
a lot on overcoming generational curses. And I needed to do that. I needed to

409
00:28:37.000 --> 00:28:40.440
understand that. But y'all, the more I focused on believing for the

410
00:28:40.440 --> 00:28:44.840
generational blessings to be released, as I partner with God, the less I'm

411
00:28:44.840 --> 00:28:49.880
scared about that stuff all the time and consumed by it. What we focus on is

412
00:28:49.880 --> 00:28:59.760
going to grow. So what are you focusing on? Y'all, I know things are hard. We

413
00:28:59.760 --> 00:29:04.440
have people in relationships around us that are toxic. Things are like hard in

414
00:29:04.440 --> 00:29:09.040
society or people around us. But what we focus on is going to grow. So what are

415
00:29:09.040 --> 00:29:12.720
you focusing on right now? Like, are you focusing on the heart work and all the

416
00:29:12.720 --> 00:29:16.800
good things that God is doing in you? Even when he's revealing the hard stuff

417
00:29:16.800 --> 00:29:21.560
that needs healing? There's still so much good in that. Do you know how kind God is

418
00:29:21.560 --> 00:29:30.200
to reveal these things to us? It's a good Father that does that. All right, let's

419
00:29:30.200 --> 00:29:33.640
keep going. Maybe you hear a siren and think something happened to the person

420
00:29:33.640 --> 00:29:37.840
you love. This is that best or that worst case scenario kind of concept. Someone

421
00:29:37.840 --> 00:29:40.720
doesn't respond to your text in the time frame that you think they should,

422
00:29:40.720 --> 00:29:44.560
and you might start thinking like, they're mad at me. They don't care about

423
00:29:44.560 --> 00:29:49.600
me. They must be talking to someone else. I'm never a priority. I'm not pretty

424
00:29:49.600 --> 00:29:53.680
enough or good enough or whatever that line is that you start telling yourself

425
00:29:53.680 --> 00:29:59.440
because the enemy is lying to you and you start to partner with those lies. But

426
00:29:59.440 --> 00:30:02.000
even again...

427
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:03.440
And what are the thoughts that you're having? Where are they rooted?

428
00:30:03.440 --> 00:30:06.840
Are they rooted in fear, doubt, unbelief?

429
00:30:06.840 --> 00:30:09.840
Are they rooted in your past pain and wounds?

430
00:30:09.840 --> 00:30:12.120
Or are they rooted in the love of God?

431
00:30:12.120 --> 00:30:15.240
Remember, perfect love casts out all fear,

432
00:30:15.240 --> 00:30:19.560
because fear has to do with torment, right?

433
00:30:19.560 --> 00:30:22.040
1 John 4.18 in the Amplified Version says this,

434
00:30:22.040 --> 00:30:25.480
There is no fear in love. Dread does not exist.

435
00:30:25.480 --> 00:30:29.600
But perfect, complete, full-grown love drives out fear,

436
00:30:29.640 --> 00:30:34.280
because fear involves the expectation of divine punishment.

437
00:30:34.280 --> 00:30:36.360
So the one who is afraid of God's judgment

438
00:30:36.360 --> 00:30:39.600
is not perfected in love,

439
00:30:39.600 --> 00:30:40.920
which means has not grown

440
00:30:40.920 --> 00:30:44.640
into a sufficient understanding of God's love.

441
00:30:44.640 --> 00:30:47.400
So it's the same scripture I just quoted to you,

442
00:30:47.400 --> 00:30:48.920
but this is the Amplified Version.

443
00:30:48.920 --> 00:30:52.720
I really wanna encourage y'all to really meditate on that.

444
00:30:52.720 --> 00:30:56.520
It's basically saying, if we partner with fear,

445
00:30:56.520 --> 00:30:58.480
if we have a lot of anxiety and fear,

446
00:30:58.480 --> 00:31:03.480
and that rules our lives or is in us at all,

447
00:31:03.800 --> 00:31:06.440
y'all, that we've not been perfected in love,

448
00:31:06.440 --> 00:31:08.760
that we've not grown into a sufficient understanding

449
00:31:08.760 --> 00:31:12.240
of God's love for us and to us.

450
00:31:13.680 --> 00:31:15.440
There's a song, I'm not gonna read it to you tonight,

451
00:31:15.440 --> 00:31:16.440
but I really wanna encourage y'all

452
00:31:16.440 --> 00:31:17.720
to listen to it this week.

453
00:31:17.720 --> 00:31:19.080
And I'll try to remember to put it up

454
00:31:19.080 --> 00:31:20.600
in the group tonight as well.

455
00:31:20.600 --> 00:31:23.160
"'Fear is a Liar' by Zach Williams.

456
00:31:23.160 --> 00:31:24.400
It's really powerful.

457
00:31:24.400 --> 00:31:25.680
And even if you've heard it before,

458
00:31:25.680 --> 00:31:27.400
I really wanna encourage you to listen again

459
00:31:27.400 --> 00:31:30.320
with new ears, a fresh heart,

460
00:31:30.320 --> 00:31:32.720
and allow the Lord to just really speak to you

461
00:31:32.720 --> 00:31:37.600
about overcoming the fears in your life in the days ahead.

462
00:31:37.600 --> 00:31:39.040
All right.

463
00:31:39.040 --> 00:31:40.960
So I'm going to go ahead and encourage you.

464
00:31:40.960 --> 00:31:42.080
I'm gonna read one more scripture

465
00:31:42.080 --> 00:31:45.160
and then we're gonna get ready for a breakout session.

466
00:31:45.160 --> 00:31:47.120
It's Hebrews 12, one.

467
00:31:47.120 --> 00:31:49.120
It says, therefore, since we are surrounded

468
00:31:49.120 --> 00:31:50.640
by such a great cloud of witnesses,

469
00:31:50.640 --> 00:31:53.120
let us throw off everything that hinders

470
00:31:53.120 --> 00:31:55.420
and the sin that so easily entangles

471
00:31:55.420 --> 00:31:57.460
and let us run with perseverance,

472
00:31:57.460 --> 00:32:00.100
the race marked out for us.

473
00:32:00.100 --> 00:32:03.460
So here is your breakout question tonight.

474
00:32:03.460 --> 00:32:08.020
Oh, the song and artist, Shekinah, is Zach Williams.

475
00:32:08.020 --> 00:32:11.660
And the song is Fear is a Liar.

476
00:32:13.500 --> 00:32:15.060
If anyone's super tech savvy

477
00:32:15.060 --> 00:32:17.060
and you wanna grab that link and put it in the chat

478
00:32:17.060 --> 00:32:19.260
and ladies can grab it, that's cool too.

479
00:32:20.140 --> 00:32:23.100
Totally have permission to do that if you want to.

480
00:32:23.100 --> 00:32:25.420
But the breakout question for tonight

481
00:32:25.420 --> 00:32:28.380
is what fear are you going to ask God

482
00:32:28.380 --> 00:32:30.400
to help you with tonight?

483
00:32:30.400 --> 00:32:31.580
What fear are you gonna give him?

484
00:32:31.580 --> 00:32:34.100
What fear are you gonna go to him and talk to him about?

485
00:32:34.100 --> 00:32:36.180
And I wanna encourage you to talk to your sister

486
00:32:36.180 --> 00:32:38.860
in the breakout session or sisters first

487
00:32:38.860 --> 00:32:40.300
and then we'll go from there.

488
00:32:40.300 --> 00:32:41.180
When y'all come back,

489
00:32:41.180 --> 00:32:43.540
we'll do some coaching around this as well.

490
00:32:45.100 --> 00:32:47.900
Let me go ahead and get these groups set up real quick.

491
00:32:49.380 --> 00:32:50.780
Totally fine, Amy.

492
00:32:50.780 --> 00:32:52.700
Thank you for letting me know.

493
00:32:53.200 --> 00:32:54.040
If you get a prompt,

494
00:32:54.040 --> 00:32:55.780
just don't accept it to go into the room.

495
00:32:57.300 --> 00:32:58.140
All right.

496
00:33:02.100 --> 00:33:04.460
Okay, for our new ladies, what's gonna happen?

497
00:33:04.460 --> 00:33:07.300
In a moment here, you're gonna get a prompt on your screen

498
00:33:07.300 --> 00:33:08.940
if you're not familiar with Zoom.

499
00:33:08.940 --> 00:33:11.740
And when it says to enter the,

500
00:33:11.740 --> 00:33:13.460
sorry, the breakout room,

501
00:33:13.460 --> 00:33:14.420
go ahead and click on that

502
00:33:14.420 --> 00:33:16.020
and it'll take you right into the room.

503
00:33:16.020 --> 00:33:18.320
If you're in there and somebody isn't talking

504
00:33:18.320 --> 00:33:20.620
or you're just like, I don't know if I'm here by myself,

505
00:33:20.620 --> 00:33:21.820
just hang out there for a minute

506
00:33:21.820 --> 00:33:23.380
because I can see on the back end

507
00:33:23.380 --> 00:33:24.540
and I'll move you around

508
00:33:24.540 --> 00:33:26.420
if I see that nobody else joined you in that room

509
00:33:26.420 --> 00:33:27.940
because we do have some people traveling

510
00:33:27.940 --> 00:33:29.620
and things it looks like tonight.

511
00:33:29.620 --> 00:33:31.040
All right, go ahead and click to join those

512
00:33:31.040 --> 00:33:31.880
as quick as you can.

513
00:33:31.880 --> 00:33:34.180
You have seven minutes to talk about

514
00:33:34.180 --> 00:33:35.900
what is the fear that you're asking God

515
00:33:35.900 --> 00:33:37.140
to help you with tonight.

516
00:33:41.000 --> 00:33:41.840
All right.

517
00:33:44.060 --> 00:33:46.320
As soon as we get people situated,

518
00:33:46.320 --> 00:33:49.040
as long as I have two people in every room.

519
00:33:49.160 --> 00:33:50.000
Eight.

520
00:33:58.280 --> 00:33:59.760
All right, perfect.

521
00:33:59.760 --> 00:34:00.920
Father, thank you so much

522
00:34:00.920 --> 00:34:02.240
for everything you're doing tonight.

523
00:34:02.240 --> 00:34:04.960
God, I thank you for removing fear,

524
00:34:05.920 --> 00:34:09.000
anxiety, dread, worry, panic disorders,

525
00:34:09.000 --> 00:34:12.420
God, anything that we grew up understanding

526
00:34:12.420 --> 00:34:15.360
because of people that spoke things around us

527
00:34:15.360 --> 00:34:18.080
or even misunderstanding where fear took root

528
00:34:18.080 --> 00:34:23.040
because we misinterpreted something that was happening.

529
00:34:23.040 --> 00:34:24.480
God, I pray that you would just reveal

530
00:34:24.480 --> 00:34:25.920
these areas for healing,

531
00:34:25.920 --> 00:34:27.639
that you would help people connect the dots.

532
00:34:27.639 --> 00:34:29.360
Roseanne, did you get kicked out?

533
00:34:31.440 --> 00:34:33.520
No, I was trying to turn my microphone on

534
00:34:33.520 --> 00:34:34.800
and I hit the wrong button.

535
00:34:34.800 --> 00:34:36.360
Totally fine, let me just get you,

536
00:34:36.360 --> 00:34:38.400
hold on one second, let me find what group.

537
00:34:40.560 --> 00:34:43.199
Okay, we're talking about

538
00:34:43.199 --> 00:34:44.440
what fear are you going to ask God

539
00:34:44.440 --> 00:34:46.000
to help you with tonight, okay?

540
00:34:46.000 --> 00:34:46.840
Okay.

541
00:34:46.840 --> 00:34:47.840
There you go.

542
00:34:48.639 --> 00:34:49.600
You're welcome.

543
00:34:49.600 --> 00:34:50.560
So Father, we just thank you

544
00:34:50.560 --> 00:34:52.639
that you would just continue this work in our hearts,

545
00:34:52.639 --> 00:34:54.719
God, that you would again,

546
00:34:54.719 --> 00:34:56.840
just Lord, go into the crevices

547
00:34:56.840 --> 00:34:58.040
in the parts of our soul

548
00:34:58.040 --> 00:35:00.440
that we don't even know we need healing in, God.

549
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:02.920
that you would bring to our remembrance situations

550
00:35:02.920 --> 00:35:06.760
and dynamics of things that happened even long ago,

551
00:35:06.760 --> 00:35:10.000
maybe for some preschool, maybe for some in the womb,

552
00:35:10.000 --> 00:35:12.320
some in elementary, high school,

553
00:35:12.320 --> 00:35:15.200
whatever that looks like, God, we thank you.

554
00:35:15.200 --> 00:35:18.280
I just even saw a flash of someone just riding in a car

555
00:35:18.280 --> 00:35:20.200
where a parent was driving recklessly.

556
00:35:20.200 --> 00:35:23.200
God, I pray that you just heal that person

557
00:35:23.200 --> 00:35:24.720
and heal that memory.

558
00:35:26.040 --> 00:35:27.840
I thank you, God, that you would just continue

559
00:35:27.840 --> 00:35:31.040
to help us to hear the whispers of your heart over us, God,

560
00:35:31.040 --> 00:35:33.600
that you would just remind us that we can be still

561
00:35:33.600 --> 00:35:37.040
and know that you are God and that you are for us

562
00:35:37.040 --> 00:35:40.400
so no weapon can be formed against us.

563
00:35:40.400 --> 00:35:44.760
And if they are formed against us, they cannot prosper.

564
00:35:44.760 --> 00:35:46.400
We thank you, God, that you're continuing

565
00:35:46.400 --> 00:35:50.200
to help us to partner with you in truth.

566
00:35:50.200 --> 00:35:52.320
Proverbs 18.21 says,

567
00:35:52.320 --> 00:35:54.560
"'Death and life are in the power of the tongue,

568
00:35:54.560 --> 00:35:57.200
"'and those who love it will eat its fruit.'"

569
00:35:57.200 --> 00:35:58.240
It's just a reminder

570
00:35:58.240 --> 00:36:01.280
that we have to remember this process, okay?

571
00:36:01.280 --> 00:36:04.000
The process is, first, we believe the lie.

572
00:36:04.000 --> 00:36:06.840
So we believe things like, I'm abandoned.

573
00:36:06.840 --> 00:36:09.720
Then it's, number two, next, we speak the lie.

574
00:36:09.720 --> 00:36:11.880
Nobody is ever there for me.

575
00:36:11.880 --> 00:36:14.880
Number three, finally, we become the lie.

576
00:36:14.880 --> 00:36:17.520
Behavior towards isolation and withdrawal from others

577
00:36:17.520 --> 00:36:21.240
creates a false sense of abandonment.

578
00:36:21.240 --> 00:36:24.280
So remember, we gotta go back to the beginning.

579
00:36:24.280 --> 00:36:26.040
When was the first time we were abandoned?

580
00:36:26.080 --> 00:36:27.560
Now, yours might not be abandonment.

581
00:36:27.560 --> 00:36:31.400
Yours might be neglect.

582
00:36:31.400 --> 00:36:33.800
It might be abuse.

583
00:36:33.800 --> 00:36:36.200
It might be betrayal, whatever that looks like for you,

584
00:36:36.200 --> 00:36:39.600
but that you would go back to the original situation.

585
00:36:39.600 --> 00:36:40.680
And if you don't know what that is,

586
00:36:40.680 --> 00:36:43.320
that you would ask the Lord to reveal that to you

587
00:36:43.320 --> 00:36:47.080
in his perfect timing and trust him with the delivery

588
00:36:47.080 --> 00:36:49.720
of that and the timing of that delivery.

589
00:36:49.720 --> 00:36:53.400
God is good and he has good things in store for you.

590
00:36:53.400 --> 00:36:55.480
I'm just gonna continue to read a couple of scriptures

591
00:36:55.880 --> 00:36:57.400
and continue to pray.

592
00:36:57.400 --> 00:37:00.400
Ephesians 6, 12 is a good reminder.

593
00:37:00.400 --> 00:37:03.120
For we are not fighting against flesh and blood enemies,

594
00:37:03.120 --> 00:37:06.480
but against evil rulers and authorities of the unseen world,

595
00:37:06.480 --> 00:37:08.400
against mighty powers in this dark world

596
00:37:08.400 --> 00:37:12.040
and against evil spirits in the heavenly places.

597
00:37:13.160 --> 00:37:15.280
God, I thank you that you would help us to remember

598
00:37:15.280 --> 00:37:16.480
just when things are happening,

599
00:37:16.480 --> 00:37:20.440
how much the enemy, even now that he is against us,

600
00:37:20.440 --> 00:37:21.600
that he's trying to hinder us

601
00:37:21.600 --> 00:37:23.520
from even healing and moving forward.

602
00:37:23.520 --> 00:37:24.720
He's trying to convince us

603
00:37:24.720 --> 00:37:27.640
that we have not made any progress for some people.

604
00:37:27.640 --> 00:37:29.760
God, he, yes, Lord.

605
00:37:29.760 --> 00:37:31.240
I just saw almost as if someone

606
00:37:31.240 --> 00:37:34.040
was just constantly like looking down, like everywhere.

607
00:37:34.040 --> 00:37:36.120
Maybe they're not physically, but emotionally,

608
00:37:36.120 --> 00:37:37.560
they're just looking down at the ground.

609
00:37:37.560 --> 00:37:38.720
They are never confident.

610
00:37:38.720 --> 00:37:42.000
So Lord, we just speak confidence into these ladies.

611
00:37:42.000 --> 00:37:43.960
Yes, Lord, I thank you that you would just continue

612
00:37:43.960 --> 00:37:46.480
to help them strengthen up in their backbone, Lord.

613
00:37:46.480 --> 00:37:49.280
Not out of aggressiveness or that kind of thing,

614
00:37:49.280 --> 00:37:51.080
but just a strength that comes

615
00:37:51.080 --> 00:37:52.480
through their identity in Christ,

616
00:37:52.480 --> 00:37:54.920
like a confidence with their shoulders back,

617
00:37:54.920 --> 00:37:56.200
their head held high, God,

618
00:37:56.200 --> 00:37:58.600
that they would be able to look at other people

619
00:37:58.600 --> 00:38:00.600
and look at you and know, God,

620
00:38:00.600 --> 00:38:03.440
that you are doing something good in them and for them, God,

621
00:38:03.440 --> 00:38:06.240
that you are working all things together

622
00:38:06.240 --> 00:38:08.800
to save many people alive, including them,

623
00:38:08.800 --> 00:38:10.480
that you have a plan and a purpose for them,

624
00:38:10.480 --> 00:38:13.440
that you predestined them for.

625
00:38:13.440 --> 00:38:14.800
And Lord, I thank you that you would help them

626
00:38:14.800 --> 00:38:16.240
to step further into the fullness

627
00:38:16.240 --> 00:38:20.120
of who you originally created them to be long ago,

628
00:38:20.120 --> 00:38:22.240
and that they would step into that more and more

629
00:38:22.880 --> 00:38:23.720
every single day.

630
00:38:23.720 --> 00:38:26.480
First Peter 5.8, here's another one about this warning,

631
00:38:26.480 --> 00:38:29.880
just really being aware of what the enemy's tactics are.

632
00:38:29.880 --> 00:38:32.480
It says, stay alert, watch out for your great enemy,

633
00:38:32.480 --> 00:38:33.320
the devil.

634
00:38:33.320 --> 00:38:35.840
He prowls around like a roaring lion

635
00:38:35.840 --> 00:38:37.200
looking for someone to devour.

636
00:38:37.200 --> 00:38:40.120
What's really important there is he prowls around

637
00:38:40.120 --> 00:38:42.640
like a lion, but he's not a lion, y'all.

638
00:38:42.640 --> 00:38:44.400
The lion of the tribe of Judah is the one

639
00:38:44.400 --> 00:38:47.880
that has authority, and that is God, Jesus.

640
00:38:47.880 --> 00:38:50.200
They're the ones in the Holy Spirit that are strong

641
00:38:50.200 --> 00:38:52.440
and that they are the ones that conquer.

642
00:38:52.440 --> 00:38:55.440
And any time where we feel like the enemy is winning,

643
00:38:55.440 --> 00:38:57.840
we need to hide in the presence of the Lord.

644
00:38:57.840 --> 00:39:00.880
Psalm 91 talks about that we would hide

645
00:39:00.880 --> 00:39:02.200
under the shadow of his wings

646
00:39:02.200 --> 00:39:04.200
and in the presence of the Almighty.

647
00:39:05.440 --> 00:39:06.480
And so I wanna encourage you

648
00:39:06.480 --> 00:39:08.440
to really lean into that this week,

649
00:39:08.440 --> 00:39:10.200
lean into God protecting you,

650
00:39:10.200 --> 00:39:11.920
lean into God covering you,

651
00:39:11.920 --> 00:39:14.600
no matter what comes your way, that he is for you,

652
00:39:14.600 --> 00:39:17.360
so who can be against you?

653
00:39:17.360 --> 00:39:21.040
Psalm 119, 165 in the Passion Translation says this,

654
00:39:21.040 --> 00:39:23.120
there is such a great peace and wellbeing

655
00:39:23.120 --> 00:39:26.480
that comes to the lovers of your word

656
00:39:26.480 --> 00:39:28.560
and they will never be offended.

657
00:39:31.040 --> 00:39:33.040
So Lord, I thank you that you would just help us,

658
00:39:33.040 --> 00:39:35.920
Lord God, to have softened hearts.

659
00:39:35.920 --> 00:39:40.920
God, where the enemy created hardened hearts in us

660
00:39:41.440 --> 00:39:43.040
and callousness and walls,

661
00:39:43.040 --> 00:39:44.760
Lord, as self-protection mechanisms,

662
00:39:44.800 --> 00:39:47.960
God, I ask you to soften us from the inside out,

663
00:39:49.120 --> 00:39:51.520
that you would help us to recognize offense

664
00:39:51.520 --> 00:39:52.640
when it tries to come in

665
00:39:52.640 --> 00:39:54.680
and that we would recognize it quickly

666
00:39:54.680 --> 00:39:57.680
and that we would just partner with you, God,

667
00:39:57.680 --> 00:39:58.880
in seeing this situation,

668
00:39:58.880 --> 00:40:00.320
that we would ask you to...

669
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:06.800
Show us people through your eyes show us the situation through your eyes Lord and even when people are doing things that are offensive

670
00:40:07.000 --> 00:40:12.120
God that we would allow you to help us to rise up above those things just like last night

671
00:40:12.120 --> 00:40:16.760
There was a word delivered about being like an eagle and eagles rise into a new perspective

672
00:40:16.840 --> 00:40:21.440
And they don't even really mess around with the storm, but they use the storm to soar higher

673
00:40:21.440 --> 00:40:26.920
They catch the wind if you will there's actually a song it just came up in my spirit as I said that it's called catch

674
00:40:26.920 --> 00:40:28.920
the wind it's by

675
00:40:30.240 --> 00:40:34.240
Jennifer Helser, what's her husband's name, but it's a husband and wife duo

676
00:40:35.360 --> 00:40:41.120
Really awesome song as well. If you're just feeling that like that pressure of the enemy man

677
00:40:41.120 --> 00:40:48.160
That's I don't know that song got me through so many hard times and say when I like catch the wind

678
00:40:48.640 --> 00:40:51.440
That we would catch the wind of God and last night was you know?

679
00:40:51.440 --> 00:40:58.000
We kicked off the prophetic ministry night with a word God gave me about a west wind arising and so there's that connection

680
00:40:58.000 --> 00:41:02.440
I'm seeing in the spirit realm tonight as well, and so I want to encourage y'all to check those out

681
00:41:02.480 --> 00:41:04.640
Welcome back as you're starting to come back

682
00:41:06.000 --> 00:41:08.000
Let's see here

683
00:41:08.080 --> 00:41:11.040
I don't know why this thing is popping up what I'm gonna say. Okay there we go

684
00:41:11.760 --> 00:41:14.360
Welcome back everyone hello. Hello. Hello

685
00:41:15.360 --> 00:41:18.440
Keep coming in I think we've got everyone back now

686
00:41:19.800 --> 00:41:23.040
All right, so your activations for this week ladies

687
00:41:23.040 --> 00:41:25.360
I'm gonna go over those real quick for those of you that are new

688
00:41:25.560 --> 00:41:30.640
Then what I will do is open it up for anyone that wants to share with the whole group what you shared in the private

689
00:41:30.640 --> 00:41:32.720
Group, and then we'll do some potential

690
00:41:33.320 --> 00:41:38.280
Coaching around that depending on what you share and so if you would like to share you can go ahead and put your hand up

691
00:41:38.280 --> 00:41:40.240
Now even while I'm talking

692
00:41:40.240 --> 00:41:46.400
About our activations for this week so every time we do a live session. I give at least one activation

693
00:41:47.120 --> 00:41:49.400
Sometimes I'll give to you this week. I am giving two

694
00:41:50.080 --> 00:41:56.360
And these are in addition to your homework and stuff, so it's not mandatory, but as you apply them

695
00:41:57.080 --> 00:42:02.520
Maybe you even some ladies can kind of put in the chat if they've helped them that have already done these activations

696
00:42:02.520 --> 00:42:05.060
But I really do believe that they continue to kind of

697
00:42:05.640 --> 00:42:12.440
Stoke the fire if you will and motivate you in that heart healing process, okay, so number one activation I

698
00:42:13.440 --> 00:42:15.440
Want to encourage you this week to practice?

699
00:42:16.400 --> 00:42:18.400
receiving

700
00:42:18.800 --> 00:42:22.280
So what I mean by that I'm going to give you some examples, okay?

701
00:42:22.280 --> 00:42:25.520
You can do something different you need to pray ultimately and say God

702
00:42:25.840 --> 00:42:29.240
How should I practice receiving this week and let them talk to you?

703
00:42:29.240 --> 00:42:36.240
But I'm just going to give you all a couple ideas, and you can use whatever you want all right number one accept physical assistance

704
00:42:37.400 --> 00:42:40.200
Let someone carry your heavy heavy grocery bags

705
00:42:40.960 --> 00:42:44.280
Let someone help you move furniture or reach something

706
00:42:44.280 --> 00:42:48.760
That's high on a shelf and instead of I don't know if y'all have ever done this so I'm super short

707
00:42:48.760 --> 00:42:50.920
I'm 5'4 so a lot of times

708
00:42:50.920 --> 00:42:55.700
I can't reach the top shelf and I would sit I would try to climb on the shelves y'all sometimes

709
00:42:55.700 --> 00:43:00.880
I know it's really really crazy those things could have fallen on me instead of asking for help now sometimes

710
00:43:00.880 --> 00:43:04.480
I would look around and there'd be no one I'd be like shoot. What do I do now, but?

711
00:43:05.360 --> 00:43:10.680
You know what we should do. We should go looking for someone that can help us all right

712
00:43:10.800 --> 00:43:14.920
So we're going to practice receiving help so even if you could manage yourself

713
00:43:14.920 --> 00:43:18.680
Maybe you're not a little short person like me, and you're tall and you could totally get it by yourself

714
00:43:18.880 --> 00:43:22.360
I want to encourage you all to to yes

715
00:43:23.200 --> 00:43:29.000
You're not trying to necessarily flirt with a guy that has kids and all that, but hey, it's good practice, sir

716
00:43:29.200 --> 00:43:32.240
Would you mind to help me reach that from that shelf up there?

717
00:43:32.240 --> 00:43:36.120
Yes, we want you to practice those kind of things as well, and it's not just about men

718
00:43:36.120 --> 00:43:38.960
It's even asking women for help some of you all do not like women

719
00:43:39.480 --> 00:43:41.080
You don't and

720
00:43:41.080 --> 00:43:45.760
So the last person you want to ask for help is another female even my friend that was down here

721
00:43:45.760 --> 00:43:47.760
She's like I just get along better with men

722
00:43:48.120 --> 00:43:49.320
well

723
00:43:49.320 --> 00:43:51.960
That happened because somewhere along the way

724
00:43:52.760 --> 00:43:54.760
women hurt her

725
00:43:56.000 --> 00:43:57.200
Y'all that's true

726
00:43:57.200 --> 00:44:03.080
I'm not saying people don't make friends easier with certain people and certain personalities and certain types it is true

727
00:44:03.160 --> 00:44:10.520
So I'm not saying it's like always that but a lot of times that is what's under underneath the surface there all right, so

728
00:44:11.160 --> 00:44:16.640
You're gonna accept physical assistance number to ask for skill-based help. Okay, so what I mean by that

729
00:44:17.360 --> 00:44:25.440
Request that a friend teach you something that they are good at whether it's a new recipe how to change your car's oil

730
00:44:26.080 --> 00:44:29.480
Using a software program, or maybe it's a craft technique

731
00:44:29.920 --> 00:44:35.080
This is gonna help you create meaningful connection while practicing vulnerability and

732
00:44:35.840 --> 00:44:38.080
Admitting that you don't know everything

733
00:44:39.520 --> 00:44:44.200
It's good practice for us. It's humbling when we can say I don't know how to do this

734
00:44:44.200 --> 00:44:50.920
I would really love for you to teach me this all right number three let other people handle logistics

735
00:44:51.720 --> 00:44:56.760
Even if you are map queen, and you never need help getting anywhere

736
00:44:56.760 --> 00:44:59.780
You don't need help packing your you know

737
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.280
your suitcase, unloading your suitcase,

738
00:45:02.280 --> 00:45:03.840
you can just take yourself to the airport,

739
00:45:03.840 --> 00:45:05.520
pay for parking, take the shuttle.

740
00:45:05.520 --> 00:45:11.840
Y'all, okay, this is the season for you to let people help you.

741
00:45:11.840 --> 00:45:14.320
So here are some examples.

742
00:45:14.320 --> 00:45:17.360
Allow friends or family to pick you up from the airport,

743
00:45:17.360 --> 00:45:20.440
to bring you dinner when you're overwhelmed,

744
00:45:20.440 --> 00:45:23.480
or help plan an event you're hosting.

745
00:45:23.480 --> 00:45:26.520
These acts of service require you to release

746
00:45:26.520 --> 00:45:30.200
control and trust other people to care for you.

747
00:45:30.200 --> 00:45:32.120
Now, I will tell you,

748
00:45:32.120 --> 00:45:35.000
this is what I get kicked back on a lot.

749
00:45:35.000 --> 00:45:37.320
I've asked people for help for years

750
00:45:37.320 --> 00:45:40.200
and no one ever is willing to help me.

751
00:45:40.200 --> 00:45:43.120
I'm not saying it's not true in the past,

752
00:45:43.120 --> 00:45:45.480
but you are different now.

753
00:45:45.480 --> 00:45:48.960
Do you believe you're different now?

754
00:45:49.320 --> 00:45:53.080
So let's not partner with,

755
00:45:53.080 --> 00:45:56.040
if you ask somebody and they can't do it,

756
00:45:56.160 --> 00:45:57.760
nobody ever wants to help me.

757
00:45:57.760 --> 00:45:59.320
Let's not partner with that.

758
00:45:59.320 --> 00:46:02.360
That's the enemy inviting you to partner with that lie again.

759
00:46:02.360 --> 00:46:03.360
Let's partner with,

760
00:46:04.280 --> 00:46:06.000
thank you so much for even considering it.

761
00:46:06.000 --> 00:46:08.440
And then you ask someone else,

762
00:46:08.440 --> 00:46:11.040
because maybe that's not the person God has

763
00:46:11.040 --> 00:46:13.520
for you to help you that week.

764
00:46:13.520 --> 00:46:15.280
Do you see how that works?

765
00:46:15.280 --> 00:46:18.000
Total shift, all right?

766
00:46:18.000 --> 00:46:20.640
Number five, is it five, four?

767
00:46:20.640 --> 00:46:21.800
I can't remember, I lost count.

768
00:46:21.800 --> 00:46:24.400
All right, here's the last one on this one.

769
00:46:24.400 --> 00:46:26.600
Accept emotional support.

770
00:46:26.600 --> 00:46:30.000
When someone offers to listen or ask how you're doing,

771
00:46:30.000 --> 00:46:31.920
actually share what's on your heart

772
00:46:31.920 --> 00:46:34.640
instead of deflecting with, I'm fine.

773
00:46:36.120 --> 00:46:38.760
Let them pray for you, offer encouragement,

774
00:46:38.760 --> 00:46:40.840
or simply sit with you in difficult moments

775
00:46:40.840 --> 00:46:44.040
without feeling you need to reciprocate immediately.

776
00:46:44.880 --> 00:46:47.600
Now here's the caveat on this one.

777
00:46:47.600 --> 00:46:50.880
Don't do this with someone who is already maxed out

778
00:46:50.880 --> 00:46:52.840
in their own life.

779
00:46:54.600 --> 00:46:56.760
Don't do this with someone who's toxic.

780
00:46:58.200 --> 00:47:00.760
Toxic people will not have the capacity

781
00:47:00.760 --> 00:47:03.880
nor will they want to listen to anything you have to say,

782
00:47:03.880 --> 00:47:05.440
because typically toxic people

783
00:47:05.440 --> 00:47:08.760
are very focused on themselves, okay?

784
00:47:08.760 --> 00:47:10.320
So let's not go to those people

785
00:47:10.320 --> 00:47:13.280
to try to share our deep heart things.

786
00:47:13.280 --> 00:47:14.520
Let's find somebody safe.

787
00:47:14.520 --> 00:47:17.480
So if that's here in this community,

788
00:47:17.480 --> 00:47:19.600
come here and post in the community.

789
00:47:19.600 --> 00:47:22.000
Create a post, tell us how you're feeling.

790
00:47:22.000 --> 00:47:23.440
What are you processing?

791
00:47:24.640 --> 00:47:26.480
Let us come around you.

792
00:47:26.480 --> 00:47:27.920
But I do want you all to practice this

793
00:47:27.920 --> 00:47:30.760
as much as you can in person with people too, okay?

794
00:47:30.760 --> 00:47:34.520
All right, so the key to all of these is starting small

795
00:47:34.520 --> 00:47:37.360
and recognizing that receiving gracefully

796
00:47:37.360 --> 00:47:41.280
is actually a gift that you give to other people.

797
00:47:41.280 --> 00:47:45.600
It allows them to express love and feel valued.

798
00:47:45.600 --> 00:47:47.680
As women practice this,

799
00:47:47.680 --> 00:47:50.200
they often discover it deepens relationships

800
00:47:50.200 --> 00:47:53.560
and creates space for others to step in

801
00:47:53.560 --> 00:47:56.840
to their God-given desire to serve and protect.

802
00:47:57.880 --> 00:48:00.160
Whether you have experienced this yet or not,

803
00:48:00.160 --> 00:48:05.040
men that are healthy desire to be chivalrous.

804
00:48:05.040 --> 00:48:06.840
They want to take care of you.

805
00:48:07.960 --> 00:48:10.360
So if you don't need to be taken care of,

806
00:48:10.360 --> 00:48:13.600
if you're just like, I got this, I can do this myself,

807
00:48:13.600 --> 00:48:15.960
I can carry the 20 bags of groceries.

808
00:48:15.960 --> 00:48:17.560
Y'all, that was me.

809
00:48:17.560 --> 00:48:20.320
I would carry up three flights of stairs,

810
00:48:20.320 --> 00:48:22.600
all of my groceries, as many as I could carry,

811
00:48:22.600 --> 00:48:25.200
because I didn't want to have to make multiple trips.

812
00:48:26.800 --> 00:48:29.200
Do you know, I literally never even thought

813
00:48:29.200 --> 00:48:32.560
about actually asking someone to help me around me

814
00:48:32.560 --> 00:48:33.920
because I was single.

815
00:48:33.920 --> 00:48:35.760
I just got, I have to do this myself.

816
00:48:37.280 --> 00:48:40.880
And even when I was dating people and married,

817
00:48:40.880 --> 00:48:43.680
I wouldn't even go in.

818
00:48:43.680 --> 00:48:44.920
And sometimes that came

819
00:48:44.920 --> 00:48:47.680
because they were not people that were helpful, okay?

820
00:48:49.080 --> 00:48:49.920
Right?

821
00:48:49.920 --> 00:48:50.960
But let's not partner with,

822
00:48:50.960 --> 00:48:52.400
well, everybody's like those people.

823
00:48:53.200 --> 00:48:54.960
See, we make these sweeping statements

824
00:48:54.960 --> 00:48:56.080
that everybody's like that.

825
00:48:56.080 --> 00:48:58.680
Every man is like, no, they're not.

826
00:48:58.680 --> 00:48:59.800
No, they're not.

827
00:48:59.800 --> 00:49:00.960
So we got to come out of that stuff.

828
00:49:00.960 --> 00:49:01.960
Okay.

829
00:49:01.960 --> 00:49:03.880
All of that was activation one.

830
00:49:03.880 --> 00:49:06.320
So it's just giving you different things to work on,

831
00:49:06.320 --> 00:49:07.600
pray and ask the Lord,

832
00:49:07.600 --> 00:49:09.360
which one you're supposed to work on this week

833
00:49:09.360 --> 00:49:10.200
and run with that.

834
00:49:10.200 --> 00:49:11.920
And then we want to hear about it.

835
00:49:11.920 --> 00:49:13.480
We want to know how it went.

836
00:49:13.480 --> 00:49:14.880
So come into the group and tell us.

837
00:49:14.880 --> 00:49:16.680
Okay, activation number two.

838
00:49:17.560 --> 00:49:19.160
It's all about letting go.

839
00:49:19.160 --> 00:49:21.520
So last week was supernatural surrender.

840
00:49:21.520 --> 00:49:23.440
So remember that was kind of our first step

841
00:49:23.440 --> 00:49:26.280
in surrendering the pen, partnering with surrender.

842
00:49:26.280 --> 00:49:28.480
If you weren't here last week, that's totally fine.

843
00:49:28.480 --> 00:49:30.800
You can go catch that replay if you want.

844
00:49:30.800 --> 00:49:33.080
It's in there under the replay tab.

845
00:49:33.080 --> 00:49:34.120
But this is the point.

846
00:49:34.120 --> 00:49:37.360
Lean further into this idea of supernatural surrender

847
00:49:37.360 --> 00:49:38.440
and letting go.

848
00:49:39.680 --> 00:49:42.480
So that you can receive the new.

849
00:49:42.480 --> 00:49:44.480
Do y'all know that we can't receive new

850
00:49:44.480 --> 00:49:47.160
if we don't have the capacity?

851
00:49:47.160 --> 00:49:49.560
So we have to let go of some things.

852
00:49:49.600 --> 00:49:52.200
So here's the question you're going to ask the Lord.

853
00:49:53.120 --> 00:49:55.080
What do you not want me to take

854
00:49:55.080 --> 00:49:57.600
into the rest of 2026 with me?

855
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:08.500
Lord, what do you not want me to take into the rest of 2026 with me?

856
00:50:08.500 --> 00:50:09.500
Here are some examples.

857
00:50:09.500 --> 00:50:12.880
Now, you guys come up with your own, but again, I'm just trying to kind of stir some stuff

858
00:50:12.880 --> 00:50:14.040
for you.

859
00:50:14.040 --> 00:50:19.440
Old mindsets, old heart postures, a relationship that is not healthy for you.

860
00:50:19.440 --> 00:50:20.440
That could be a friendship.

861
00:50:20.440 --> 00:50:22.040
It could be romantic.

862
00:50:22.040 --> 00:50:27.120
It could be even just right now, I have a young lady that she loves her parents, but

863
00:50:27.120 --> 00:50:32.000
they are toxic and they are hurting her, whether they mean to or not.

864
00:50:32.000 --> 00:50:37.440
So she is creating distance right now so that she can focus on getting healthy because she

865
00:50:37.440 --> 00:50:40.180
was constantly going through this like crazy cycle.

866
00:50:40.180 --> 00:50:43.600
Like every time she'd go around her parents, it would be like, we'd be starting all over

867
00:50:43.600 --> 00:50:45.800
again in the heart healing.

868
00:50:45.800 --> 00:50:50.560
She's not strong enough to be around them yet, though.

869
00:50:50.560 --> 00:50:52.700
Some of you, that's where you're at.

870
00:50:52.700 --> 00:50:57.500
And if you can't not be around your parents because you have to live with them right now,

871
00:50:57.500 --> 00:51:02.780
then we want to teach you some other kind of tools and things that you can implement.

872
00:51:02.780 --> 00:51:08.020
But in this case, she does not have to be around her parents on the regular right now.

873
00:51:08.020 --> 00:51:13.140
So it's good for her to create some space for her to heal, and then she starts to create

874
00:51:13.140 --> 00:51:14.140
some capacity.

875
00:51:14.140 --> 00:51:16.860
Do you see how that works?

876
00:51:16.860 --> 00:51:21.720
So write a list of the things that God tells you to let go of, pray and thank the Lord

877
00:51:21.720 --> 00:51:23.360
for helping you let go.

878
00:51:23.360 --> 00:51:26.520
Remember, you don't have to do this by yourself.

879
00:51:26.520 --> 00:51:29.540
This isn't you doing this in your own strength and striving.

880
00:51:29.540 --> 00:51:36.320
This is you saying, Lord, I need your help to let this go.

881
00:51:36.320 --> 00:51:39.720
And so what I like to do in this process, I encourage you all to do this.

882
00:51:39.720 --> 00:51:43.880
And I know I had somebody write into me about this before.

883
00:51:43.880 --> 00:51:47.000
So if this is not your thing, you do not have to do balloons.

884
00:51:47.000 --> 00:51:49.640
There's totally other things you could do.

885
00:51:49.640 --> 00:51:54.160
Some people got offended because it's environmentally not safe, which I guess I didn't know that

886
00:51:54.160 --> 00:51:55.160
really.

887
00:51:55.160 --> 00:51:59.560
But balloon releases can be very healing for people.

888
00:51:59.560 --> 00:52:05.760
So maybe you can find an environmentally friendly balloon and things like that.

889
00:52:05.760 --> 00:52:07.920
But this is one of the things we do.

890
00:52:07.920 --> 00:52:13.020
We get a balloon and you tie something on it that represents what you're letting go

891
00:52:13.020 --> 00:52:14.020
of.

892
00:52:14.020 --> 00:52:15.640
You could even just write a word on it.

893
00:52:15.640 --> 00:52:19.720
And nobody else, if they found it, would know what that even means.

894
00:52:19.720 --> 00:52:23.160
And I want you to pray about it before you release it.

895
00:52:23.160 --> 00:52:26.660
And then when you're ready, let it go.

896
00:52:26.660 --> 00:52:30.600
And thank God for that release, not only in that physical realm, but God is doing it in

897
00:52:30.600 --> 00:52:33.280
this supernatural realm as well.

898
00:52:33.280 --> 00:52:37.280
One of the other things you can do is write on that list of paper where you were writing

899
00:52:37.280 --> 00:52:39.320
of all the things to let go of.

900
00:52:39.320 --> 00:52:43.640
You can choose in a safe place to burn that and watch that list burn.

901
00:52:43.640 --> 00:52:44.880
And that's another release.

902
00:52:45.120 --> 00:52:51.640
I've had people go to the edge of water and they pray that release prayer and they skip

903
00:52:51.640 --> 00:52:53.760
stones as a sign of release.

904
00:52:53.760 --> 00:52:57.320
Again, you can do whatever works for you.

905
00:52:57.320 --> 00:52:58.800
These are just ideas, you all.

906
00:52:58.800 --> 00:53:03.320
But if any of those things offend you, just do something different.

907
00:53:03.320 --> 00:53:05.280
And remember, we're saying don't be easily offended.

908
00:53:05.280 --> 00:53:07.280
That was a part of tonight.

909
00:53:07.280 --> 00:53:09.000
But these are very, very healing.

910
00:53:09.000 --> 00:53:13.080
And then if that is something that you do, choose to do that activation.

911
00:53:13.080 --> 00:53:15.760
We love for you all to, again, take a photo.

912
00:53:15.760 --> 00:53:17.160
This isn't just for us.

913
00:53:17.160 --> 00:53:21.880
You're going to want to see some of this stuff when you look back even six months from now,

914
00:53:21.880 --> 00:53:25.080
like how much you've healed and grown.

915
00:53:25.080 --> 00:53:31.360
I have a lady that went through this letting go and she did the balloon.

916
00:53:31.360 --> 00:53:37.080
She is a widow and she was really having a hard time moving on from, you know, just her

917
00:53:37.080 --> 00:53:41.240
husband and feeling okay with even dating again.

918
00:53:41.240 --> 00:53:47.480
And so we did this release and let go with her and you all, she got five balloons.

919
00:53:47.480 --> 00:53:51.080
And that's the one thing I'll say to you, pray about if you're doing the balloon release,

920
00:53:51.080 --> 00:53:55.520
how many balloons you should have, what color should they be, and let it mean something

921
00:53:55.520 --> 00:53:56.520
to you.

922
00:53:56.520 --> 00:53:57.520
Okay?

923
00:53:57.520 --> 00:53:58.520
Same thing.

924
00:53:58.520 --> 00:54:00.920
You can do the same thing with the paper.

925
00:54:00.920 --> 00:54:04.080
It's just all what you feel led to do, but y'all, she did it.

926
00:54:04.080 --> 00:54:07.320
And I'm telling you what, I mean, she still had a lot of things to walk out, but she was

927
00:54:07.320 --> 00:54:10.220
different after that.

928
00:54:10.220 --> 00:54:11.660
So know that God will meet you there.

929
00:54:11.660 --> 00:54:12.660
All right.

930
00:54:12.660 --> 00:54:13.660
Those are the activations for this week.

931
00:54:13.660 --> 00:54:18.540
I'm going to go ahead and go to Tatiana to go ahead and share for us first tonight.

932
00:54:18.540 --> 00:54:19.540
Hello.

933
00:54:19.540 --> 00:54:23.060
Hey, I was actually going to ask if I can go last.

934
00:54:23.060 --> 00:54:24.580
Oh, you sure can.

935
00:54:24.580 --> 00:54:25.580
Okay.

936
00:54:25.580 --> 00:54:26.580
Thank you.

937
00:54:26.580 --> 00:54:27.580
You're welcome.

938
00:54:27.580 --> 00:54:28.580
Joy.

939
00:54:28.580 --> 00:54:29.580
Go ahead.

940
00:54:29.580 --> 00:54:30.580
All right.

941
00:54:30.580 --> 00:54:31.580
Okay.

942
00:54:31.580 --> 00:54:32.580
It's my turn.

943
00:54:32.580 --> 00:54:33.580
All right.

944
00:54:33.580 --> 00:54:41.820
I have something with the group saying that, um, um, I got text in the chat room as well.

945
00:54:41.820 --> 00:54:52.820
Um, just recently, uh, I served, there's a great need in my territory.

946
00:54:52.820 --> 00:54:59.820
There's a pastors, uh, got a cancer and got sick and attacks.

947
00:54:59.820 --> 00:55:00.820
Um, so I'm going to go ahead and share that with you.

948
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.200
So there's God's Apostle here and somebody found me so connect me with him.

949
00:55:00.820 --> 00:55:01.820
Okay.

950
00:55:01.820 --> 00:55:02.820
All right.

951
00:55:02.820 --> 00:55:02.820


952
00:55:05.200 --> 00:55:14.240
So I'm doing translation and to set up meetings and I see the fire really people's hope and

953
00:55:14.240 --> 00:55:21.360
confidence revived and church revived. So I'm doing this so because I'm doing this work so I

954
00:55:21.360 --> 00:55:30.960
have to temporarily put my own mattress like a decorators and other things on temporary

955
00:55:30.960 --> 00:55:37.520
put on home. So I'm counting the 10 few years ago I was desperate I say I want to do the

956
00:55:37.520 --> 00:55:42.640
decorative thing for several years now and I'm thinking I want to finish up as soon as possible

957
00:55:42.640 --> 00:55:47.840
before the my apartment to the flooring we're going to do the whole apartment flooring the

958
00:55:47.840 --> 00:55:53.600
change floor I have to empty this place and furnish and all the things and prepare for the

959
00:55:53.600 --> 00:56:04.720
flooring. So I'm just so why it seems like it happened again but one thing is good is that

960
00:56:04.720 --> 00:56:20.000
this apostle come to our territory so it's helped me with my fire for the Lord and before I was

961
00:56:20.000 --> 00:56:28.320
kind of you know but now I see ignited so I'm able to release my gifts like translation and

962
00:56:28.560 --> 00:56:36.960
and serve people serve the church anyway so it's kind of a kind of fire and my gifts it's more

963
00:56:36.960 --> 00:56:46.880
flourish. So but meanwhile I'm just I said did I repeat the same cycle before because I I confessed

964
00:56:46.880 --> 00:56:55.440
before I confessed before with people that because before that was all me like to do go to church

965
00:56:56.320 --> 00:57:02.880
four times and go to work and end up with a very late and work and just home just sleep

966
00:57:02.880 --> 00:57:11.840
and sometimes do not did not have enough sleep so I confessed several times I think.

967
00:57:13.040 --> 00:57:15.760
Let me ask you a question Joy I just want to make sure I'm following you okay

968
00:57:17.360 --> 00:57:23.440
so you were recently serving pastors an apostle came in town came to your territory you were

969
00:57:23.440 --> 00:57:28.400
helping do translation for them and the connection yeah connect yeah and connect them

970
00:57:29.040 --> 00:57:34.720
I wasn't sure I was understanding the flooring part. The flooring part is my apartment right

971
00:57:35.600 --> 00:57:44.000
for your apartment yeah the floor has to change okay and then you do feel like you're walking

972
00:57:44.000 --> 00:57:47.760
in your giftings more that you've gone through the heart healing but what are you afraid of

973
00:57:47.760 --> 00:57:51.040
that you the same cycle I know that you've mentioned certain things in the past but I'm

974
00:57:51.040 --> 00:57:58.160
not sure I understand what cycle you're afraid that you're repeating right now okay the cycle

975
00:57:58.160 --> 00:58:07.920
is that before the pattern was kind of end up doing a lot of work as I'm sorry oh please help

976
00:58:07.920 --> 00:58:15.680
me it was okay you're doing good anyway before I like to go to church three or four times

977
00:58:16.320 --> 00:58:21.280
but of course I know God used me mightily for the church for the kingdom God for the worship

978
00:58:21.280 --> 00:58:28.640
you know change in Amsterdam city and the territories God really used to make gifts so

979
00:58:28.640 --> 00:58:34.640
and also I work in the real estate company and because sometimes my brain was

980
00:58:36.160 --> 00:58:41.680
tired and also I did not have high efficiency so end up I have to do extra work after work

981
00:58:41.760 --> 00:58:48.400
I did not finish so I walk a long hours sometimes until 9 p.m 10 p.m I got home and just sleep

982
00:58:48.400 --> 00:58:54.560
and sometimes did not have enough sleep they did not take care of my eating okay I think I

983
00:58:54.560 --> 00:59:01.440
understand so you're struggling with work potentially taking over and you're not balancing

984
00:59:02.000 --> 00:59:08.480
yeah that's the key balance yes yes you got it you were you were doing a good job I just want

985
00:59:08.480 --> 00:59:13.600
to make sure I understand you so that we can kind of help you through that so remember before when

986
00:59:13.600 --> 00:59:19.920
I mentioned about like ladies if you struggle with keeping balance I do this too one of the things

987
00:59:19.920 --> 00:59:24.800
that I really find helpful I've gotten away from this but I need to get back to it so I got it out

988
00:59:24.800 --> 00:59:29.600
actually just a week ago I used to keep a paper calendar even though I keep a digital one I would

989
00:59:30.880 --> 00:59:37.040
keep a paper one that is hanging on the wall and and then literally I would block out parts of my

990
00:59:37.120 --> 00:59:44.320
day or a certain day of the week to just have time to work on stuff for myself because if I don't

991
00:59:44.320 --> 00:59:49.280
I'm a big giver so I tend to work work work work and do stuff for people you know work for last

992
00:59:49.280 --> 00:59:54.320
year single I work for the church there's always people that have needs we're in the fostering

993
00:59:54.320 --> 00:59:58.240
process you know to get licensed so there's just a lot of things that are going to always need my

994
00:59:58.240 --> 01:00:00.000
time but it's just like you

995
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:01.280
you know, on the airplane,

996
01:00:01.280 --> 01:00:04.480
we have to put the oxygen mask on ourself first.

997
01:00:04.480 --> 01:00:06.800
And so, Joy, I really wanna encourage you

998
01:00:06.800 --> 01:00:10.840
to get some kind of tracking system on paper

999
01:00:10.840 --> 01:00:12.020
where you can see it,

1000
01:00:12.020 --> 01:00:14.600
because I think that's what's gonna help you,

1001
01:00:14.600 --> 01:00:19.240
where you're really looking at how many hours,

1002
01:00:19.240 --> 01:00:21.060
you know, how many days,

1003
01:00:21.060 --> 01:00:24.520
and how much of those days was I, you know,

1004
01:00:24.520 --> 01:00:27.220
working, doing,

1005
01:00:27.220 --> 01:00:31.300
and how much time did I actually take to work on my heartwork

1006
01:00:31.300 --> 01:00:34.380
or whatever other things it is that, you know, the Lord,

1007
01:00:34.380 --> 01:00:35.460
maybe it's decluttering.

1008
01:00:35.460 --> 01:00:37.300
I think I saw, I don't know if that was last night,

1009
01:00:37.300 --> 01:00:39.340
you said that in the chat or tonight,

1010
01:00:39.340 --> 01:00:40.860
but that decluttering, you know,

1011
01:00:40.860 --> 01:00:43.500
those kinds of things that you've been trying to work on

1012
01:00:43.500 --> 01:00:44.980
and really hold yourself accountable.

1013
01:00:44.980 --> 01:00:47.280
And here's one of the things, you know,

1014
01:00:47.280 --> 01:00:49.940
people like Joy, they love to serve the Lord.

1015
01:00:49.940 --> 01:00:53.300
I love to serve the Lord too, and she's gifted to do so.

1016
01:00:53.300 --> 01:00:55.860
And so sometimes what can happen is that

1017
01:00:56.780 --> 01:01:00.940
we lose sight of our goals

1018
01:01:00.940 --> 01:01:03.620
in the midst of other people's needs.

1019
01:01:03.620 --> 01:01:06.900
And here's the parallel I'm gonna make, okay?

1020
01:01:06.900 --> 01:01:07.720
Guess what?

1021
01:01:07.720 --> 01:01:10.220
The same thing can happen in a romantic relationship

1022
01:01:10.220 --> 01:01:14.880
where you lose yourself completely in someone else, right?

1023
01:01:16.020 --> 01:01:20.020
So now Joy can practice setting healthy boundaries,

1024
01:01:20.020 --> 01:01:21.460
even regarding ministry,

1025
01:01:21.460 --> 01:01:24.540
even regarding time with the Lord, right?

1026
01:01:24.540 --> 01:01:26.520
It's not that we stop spending time with the Lord

1027
01:01:26.520 --> 01:01:27.900
when we go home,

1028
01:01:27.900 --> 01:01:29.460
but she doesn't need to work day and night,

1029
01:01:29.460 --> 01:01:31.300
day and night, day and night for three or four days

1030
01:01:31.300 --> 01:01:33.920
and then have no time to do anything else.

1031
01:01:33.920 --> 01:01:36.660
That's not healthy, that's not balanced.

1032
01:01:36.660 --> 01:01:37.780
And you know what?

1033
01:01:37.780 --> 01:01:39.300
Years ago, I had someone tell me,

1034
01:01:39.300 --> 01:01:41.500
cause I did all kinds of stuff for a church

1035
01:01:41.500 --> 01:01:44.200
and I did it all for free, really.

1036
01:01:45.060 --> 01:01:46.900
And I was okay doing that,

1037
01:01:46.900 --> 01:01:50.000
but until I met someone that said to me,

1038
01:01:50.920 --> 01:01:54.640
that church is actually abusing your giving,

1039
01:01:54.640 --> 01:01:56.360
like your heart of giving and serving.

1040
01:01:56.360 --> 01:01:58.160
And I was like, what?

1041
01:01:58.160 --> 01:01:59.000
And they're like,

1042
01:01:59.000 --> 01:02:01.640
they should never want to just have you do all of that.

1043
01:02:01.640 --> 01:02:04.240
Cause I was doing a lot for them for free.

1044
01:02:06.100 --> 01:02:08.100
But see, you know, back in the day,

1045
01:02:08.100 --> 01:02:10.320
that's kind of how I grew up in the church looking for it.

1046
01:02:10.320 --> 01:02:11.960
Now I'm not against people serving,

1047
01:02:11.960 --> 01:02:13.960
so please don't hear what I'm not saying, okay?

1048
01:02:13.960 --> 01:02:15.680
I've done it, I still do it.

1049
01:02:15.680 --> 01:02:17.560
I, you know, serve in the church,

1050
01:02:17.560 --> 01:02:18.720
I get paid a little bit,

1051
01:02:18.720 --> 01:02:20.520
but I serve and work way more hours

1052
01:02:20.520 --> 01:02:21.760
than what I get paid for.

1053
01:02:21.760 --> 01:02:23.480
And that's totally fine.

1054
01:02:23.480 --> 01:02:26.320
But the reason I'm saying that is that

1055
01:02:26.320 --> 01:02:30.640
sometimes we get our lives all out of balance.

1056
01:02:30.640 --> 01:02:33.520
We get sucked into being consumed by other people,

1057
01:02:33.520 --> 01:02:35.280
other things.

1058
01:02:35.280 --> 01:02:38.360
And some of you all will even do this in the heart work.

1059
01:02:38.360 --> 01:02:40.000
You'll come to only live sessions,

1060
01:02:40.000 --> 01:02:41.160
but never do your homework.

1061
01:02:41.160 --> 01:02:42.880
And the live sessions are amazing.

1062
01:02:42.880 --> 01:02:44.700
I know that they will help you,

1063
01:02:44.700 --> 01:02:46.840
but we built this curriculum

1064
01:02:46.840 --> 01:02:49.280
to all work cohesively together.

1065
01:02:50.280 --> 01:02:51.120
It's important.

1066
01:02:52.400 --> 01:02:54.360
You know, and the reality is,

1067
01:02:54.360 --> 01:02:56.440
is that sometimes even we,

1068
01:02:56.440 --> 01:02:59.360
like some of us don't work on our finances

1069
01:02:59.360 --> 01:03:02.560
because we're consumed with a bunch of other things.

1070
01:03:02.560 --> 01:03:06.800
And if we're always helping other people,

1071
01:03:06.800 --> 01:03:07.640
guess what?

1072
01:03:07.640 --> 01:03:09.600
We're actually never working on the healing

1073
01:03:09.600 --> 01:03:11.540
that is needed inside of us.

1074
01:03:12.960 --> 01:03:15.480
And so then we remain, what?

1075
01:03:15.480 --> 01:03:16.840
Stuck.

1076
01:03:16.840 --> 01:03:17.680
Don't we?

1077
01:03:19.080 --> 01:03:21.740
So I encourage you to start tracking this.

1078
01:03:21.740 --> 01:03:23.720
I think that will help you even as, you know,

1079
01:03:23.720 --> 01:03:28.160
you're continuing to work on your memory and communication.

1080
01:03:28.160 --> 01:03:30.500
I think this will be a good way for you to visually

1081
01:03:30.500 --> 01:03:33.120
like write it out and see it for yourself

1082
01:03:33.120 --> 01:03:35.700
as a form of communicating with yourself too.

1083
01:03:37.000 --> 01:03:37.840
Yeah.

1084
01:03:37.840 --> 01:03:40.120
And maybe come in, you know, in the group.

1085
01:03:40.120 --> 01:03:41.480
I know that you don't do it a lot.

1086
01:03:41.480 --> 01:03:43.060
In the beginning you did more,

1087
01:03:43.060 --> 01:03:44.880
but come in and kind of let us know,

1088
01:03:45.240 --> 01:03:48.720
maybe stay accountable to us, set a goal.

1089
01:03:48.720 --> 01:03:50.680
Okay, what's the max number of hours

1090
01:03:50.680 --> 01:03:52.720
you're going to serve in the church in this next week?

1091
01:03:52.720 --> 01:03:54.320
That's a healthy number.

1092
01:03:54.320 --> 01:03:55.840
Okay.

1093
01:03:55.840 --> 01:03:57.920
And then come in and tell us what that's going to be.

1094
01:03:57.920 --> 01:04:01.120
And then we can do a check-in with you the next week.

1095
01:04:01.120 --> 01:04:01.940
Okay.

1096
01:04:02.880 --> 01:04:03.720
All right.

1097
01:04:04.600 --> 01:04:05.680
I think that'll be really good.

1098
01:04:05.680 --> 01:04:08.120
I think that'll be a good goal for you, Joy.

1099
01:04:08.120 --> 01:04:08.960
All right.

1100
01:04:08.960 --> 01:04:10.040
Thank you so much.

1101
01:04:10.040 --> 01:04:11.080
Yeah, you're welcome.

1102
01:04:11.080 --> 01:04:11.920
Thank you for sharing.

1103
01:04:11.920 --> 01:04:12.960
Appreciate you.

1104
01:04:12.960 --> 01:04:14.160
Trina, go ahead.

1105
01:04:15.800 --> 01:04:17.320
Okay, interestingly enough,

1106
01:04:17.320 --> 01:04:19.800
this was not my fear that I named in the breakout rooms,

1107
01:04:19.800 --> 01:04:24.400
but it's a fear and it's, it might, well.

1108
01:04:24.400 --> 01:04:25.560
It's okay.

1109
01:04:25.560 --> 01:04:30.560
So I can feel immense fear about asking the Lord

1110
01:04:30.640 --> 01:04:34.360
what he wants me to take away from the rest of 2026.

1111
01:04:34.360 --> 01:04:36.160
And that's not even the fear.

1112
01:04:36.160 --> 01:04:40.640
The fear is, how do you know when you hear,

1113
01:04:40.640 --> 01:04:41.480
you know what I mean?

1114
01:04:41.480 --> 01:04:44.960
And like, I'm so impatient.

1115
01:04:44.960 --> 01:04:47.520
I mean, I'm like, when you said,

1116
01:04:47.520 --> 01:04:49.880
when you say let it be revealed and don't dig,

1117
01:04:51.000 --> 01:04:53.240
I mean, I'm a digger for sure.

1118
01:04:53.240 --> 01:04:57.680
And I'm like, how much time do you give him?

1119
01:04:57.680 --> 01:04:58.880
Like, when do you cut it off?

1120
01:04:58.880 --> 01:04:59.720
Did you miss it?

1121
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:06.560
just in my head about that. Yeah. All right. So I'm going to answer the first one first,

1122
01:05:06.560 --> 01:05:08.960
okay, because there's two things there that you mentioned. I love it.

1123
01:05:12.560 --> 01:05:14.960
So let me ask you a question, though, before I do.

1124
01:05:18.400 --> 01:05:25.200
On the immense fear, even thinking about asking the Lord what to take away for the rest of 2026,

1125
01:05:25.920 --> 01:05:32.800
what rises up? What do you hear? What lie are you hearing or lies when you think about

1126
01:05:33.440 --> 01:05:36.720
asking the Lord to take things away for 2026? What is the lie?

1127
01:05:38.240 --> 01:05:46.240
Can I start with the truth that I'm feeling? Sure. I think the truth is God is not going to

1128
01:05:46.240 --> 01:05:54.400
ask you to take away what's not right. He's going to be doing this for my good.

1129
01:05:55.840 --> 01:05:59.200
Don't think that your father is asking something that's not for your good, you know?

1130
01:05:59.760 --> 01:06:08.080
But I guess, yeah, it's that fear of like, but I want what I want. And I know that what you've

1131
01:06:08.080 --> 01:06:13.440
always given me is better. But it's really hard in the moment to trust that.

1132
01:06:15.360 --> 01:06:17.760
So what are you afraid he's going to ask you to let go of?

1133
01:06:18.960 --> 01:06:23.120
My ex. And we talked about him a little bit last week,

1134
01:06:23.120 --> 01:06:28.960
and even this treatment that was happening there. Right? Okay. So

1135
01:06:32.560 --> 01:06:38.400
do you ultimately really, and when I say this, I don't mean on a surface, like what you think I

1136
01:06:38.400 --> 01:06:47.360
want you to tell me, okay? Do you really believe that God is good? Yeah. Do you believe that he

1137
01:06:47.360 --> 01:06:55.520
has good things for you, Trina? Not just other people. Yeah. Okay. So if you know that,

1138
01:06:57.600 --> 01:07:02.800
there has to be a subconscious lie somewhere that is telling you the opposite.

1139
01:07:04.720 --> 01:07:10.080
Because if it was, if that wasn't the case, you wouldn't be afraid to let go of your ex.

1140
01:07:10.400 --> 01:07:15.840
Do you see how that works? Kind of why I'm saying that to you. So for example, when I was dating the

1141
01:07:15.840 --> 01:07:20.320
girl's dad, and that's the one I told you about you all last week, that I was with for six years.

1142
01:07:22.480 --> 01:07:24.560
I was afraid of losing the girls.

1143
01:07:27.520 --> 01:07:32.960
And I was afraid of losing that relationship too. But really underlying, it was the girls.

1144
01:07:33.520 --> 01:07:36.240
Because when I was married before I had a stepson.

1145
01:07:36.480 --> 01:07:42.640
I hadn't even filed for divorce yet. I had just separated and mentioned that I was going to file.

1146
01:07:43.200 --> 01:07:47.840
And as soon as I mentioned that I was going to file for divorce, he never let me see my stepson

1147
01:07:47.840 --> 01:07:55.920
again. And so I had not healed enough when I met my spiritual daughter's dad. And even when I met

1148
01:07:55.920 --> 01:08:00.800
him, I said, I didn't want to meet his kids for six months because I was trying to set a healthy

1149
01:08:00.800 --> 01:08:06.560
boundary for myself, because I had lost my stepson and it was painful. It was terribly, terribly,

1150
01:08:07.680 --> 01:08:11.200
terribly gut-wrenching and painful. And I didn't want to go through that again.

1151
01:08:11.200 --> 01:08:14.080
And I said, I was never going to date someone that had kids again, too.

1152
01:08:16.560 --> 01:08:22.399
And, you know, within a few days, he was sending me videos and pictures of his kids. Like one was

1153
01:08:22.399 --> 01:08:27.200
so cute. They're like, I can't wait to meet you. And they were little. And I was like, I can't wait

1154
01:08:27.359 --> 01:08:31.680
was so cute. They're like, I can't wait to meet you. And they were little and they,

1155
01:08:31.680 --> 01:08:36.560
the sweetest little voices and my heart started melting. And you know what happened?

1156
01:08:37.680 --> 01:08:44.479
I let go of my boundaries and I, I went ahead and met them. Do I regret it because they're amazing?

1157
01:08:44.479 --> 01:08:53.359
No, I love them. But you know what? I, I literally went against my own belief and feelings in that

1158
01:08:53.359 --> 01:08:59.840
moment. And I let my boundaries down and I let them plow right through those. Okay. So basically

1159
01:08:59.840 --> 01:09:06.560
I learned not to trust myself. The reason I'm telling you that story is because ultimately

1160
01:09:07.439 --> 01:09:14.479
the breaking up was really connected to, do I believe that there's somebody actually still

1161
01:09:14.560 --> 01:09:21.040
out there for me? That is good. And at the core, I wasn't sure.

1162
01:09:22.640 --> 01:09:27.680
Number two, I've been through this before. I cannot lose these girls

1163
01:09:29.279 --> 01:09:36.080
because I knew what that pain felt like. And I was terrified of feeling that pain again.

1164
01:09:38.560 --> 01:09:42.800
I didn't want to lose them. And, and the enemy literally like fed, what if, what if, what if,

1165
01:09:43.200 --> 01:09:52.080
what if all these things. And you know what was it hard when I broke up and parted ways? Yes,

1166
01:09:52.080 --> 01:09:55.840
because he tried to keep them from me, try to manipulate things. And,

1167
01:09:55.840 --> 01:09:59.840
but I just kept pressing on. I kept pressing on. They were thankful.

1168
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:04.320
old enough that at least the older Michaela could make some decisions a

1169
01:10:04.320 --> 01:10:08.520
little bit more on her own because she knew she knew what was going on she knew

1170
01:10:08.520 --> 01:10:15.400
her dad cheated she like she knew so anyways I'm saying that to you because

1171
01:10:15.400 --> 01:10:21.800
when I really got down to the core it was that I hadn't healed enough from my

1172
01:10:21.800 --> 01:10:27.320
stepson and losing him and then I went too quickly into that relationship got

1173
01:10:27.320 --> 01:10:33.400
too connected to the girls and I was terrified of that loss and that is what

1174
01:10:33.400 --> 01:10:41.320
kept me bound in that situation and so you know looking at the X and the whole

1175
01:10:41.320 --> 01:10:46.640
dynamic I think what I would encourage you to do is really look at what what

1176
01:10:46.640 --> 01:10:51.160
other things might be connected to that you know where there other people that

1177
01:10:51.160 --> 01:10:56.040
you dated even before him that you still need healing from because it seems to me

1178
01:10:56.040 --> 01:11:00.160
like there might be some extra things kind of connected to that it could be

1179
01:11:00.160 --> 01:11:03.880
just about him but I'm just thinking there might be a little bit more stacked

1180
01:11:03.880 --> 01:11:09.960
in there if you will some other reasons that create that fear you know that

1181
01:11:09.960 --> 01:11:17.040
illusion of a happy family broke breaking is a big deal right and when I

1182
01:11:17.040 --> 01:11:21.200
dated their dad he was really good at love-bombing me in the beginning and so

1183
01:11:21.200 --> 01:11:25.920
I had this whole fantasy of how things were gonna be and we were gonna be this

1184
01:11:25.960 --> 01:11:30.440
happy family and we're gonna live in this house and I just let things run

1185
01:11:30.440 --> 01:11:36.360
away with me and then you know that guy disappeared after like three weeks maybe

1186
01:11:36.360 --> 01:11:42.440
four max and that person never returned because he didn't even exist and I'm not

1187
01:11:42.440 --> 01:11:47.080
saying that's the case with your guy but I'm just saying sometimes it's because

1188
01:11:47.080 --> 01:11:52.000
we've bought into a fantasy we've we've really like we're waiting for that

1189
01:11:52.000 --> 01:11:55.960
person to come back and fight for us well they never wanted to fight for us

1190
01:11:55.960 --> 01:12:01.000
and be committed to begin with again I don't know if that resonates at all for

1191
01:12:01.000 --> 01:12:04.280
your guy but I'm just saying some things that are coming up in the spirit so if

1192
01:12:04.280 --> 01:12:08.240
it's not for you it might be for someone else here tonight but like you know we

1193
01:12:08.240 --> 01:12:13.680
have to really look at what's fueling the fear like what is it really is it

1194
01:12:13.680 --> 01:12:17.920
just that we don't want to let go of the ex or are there other things that we

1195
01:12:17.920 --> 01:12:21.960
thought we were gonna have that we feel like we're losing if we let go of that

1196
01:12:21.960 --> 01:12:30.680
person so another thing that connected for me was family his family was super

1197
01:12:30.680 --> 01:12:36.640
unhealthy but you know what they were still a family my mom was very unhappy

1198
01:12:36.640 --> 01:12:40.960
like unhealthy physically she didn't you know was not doing well I didn't know

1199
01:12:40.960 --> 01:12:44.320
how long she was gonna last my dad has never been in my life he's now deceased

1200
01:12:44.320 --> 01:12:48.640
but back then he was still alive I I'm not close to my siblings because of all

1201
01:12:48.640 --> 01:12:52.120
the things that have happened and so that that was kind of like my family

1202
01:12:52.120 --> 01:13:00.160
union right and so letting go of that relationship meant I was also letting go

1203
01:13:00.160 --> 01:13:07.360
even if they were super toxic and dysfunctional family that makes sense

1204
01:13:07.360 --> 01:13:11.520
everyone so let's look at the bigger picture of what's really keeping us from

1205
01:13:11.520 --> 01:13:15.320
letting go if we believe that God is good and has good things for us and

1206
01:13:15.320 --> 01:13:18.920
there's something underneath the surface that is subconsciously in there

1207
01:13:18.920 --> 01:13:24.120
that's kind of got us like what it makes me think of is like you know like if

1208
01:13:24.120 --> 01:13:28.960
someone were to like throw a hook out and it's hooked your hooked your ship so

1209
01:13:28.960 --> 01:13:33.000
to speak and you're just kind of stuck to it and until you get to the root of

1210
01:13:33.000 --> 01:13:36.200
what's what's that hook what's that thing that's kind of latched onto your

1211
01:13:36.200 --> 01:13:49.640
ship I'm making sense is anything coming up for you for me yeah yeah I I love

1212
01:13:49.640 --> 01:13:57.360
that and I want to take a dive into that I think my only other is just the how do

1213
01:13:57.360 --> 01:14:03.640
I know I'm hearing from God yeah yeah so let's let's look at that um I would

1214
01:14:03.640 --> 01:14:08.600
encourage you to go to the first time that you doubted that you heard from God

1215
01:14:08.600 --> 01:14:14.480
and ask him to heal that area whatever that is because a lot of times the reason

1216
01:14:14.480 --> 01:14:17.560
we doubt that we hear God is because at some point we thought we heard him and

1217
01:14:17.560 --> 01:14:24.840
then we made a wrong decision number two is if we read the Word of God that is

1218
01:14:24.840 --> 01:14:31.120
his voice and so the more that we read the word and I'm not super religious

1219
01:14:31.120 --> 01:14:34.480
about it but I do believe it effectively works memorizing the Word of

1220
01:14:34.480 --> 01:14:37.920
God and getting it down in us you know the Bible talks about writing it on the

1221
01:14:37.920 --> 01:14:44.240
tablets of our hearts well when it gets in us we start to know the voice of God

1222
01:14:44.240 --> 01:14:50.960
more I also am a big believer I grew up watching Joyce Meyer I know she's still

1223
01:14:50.960 --> 01:14:54.840
around but y'all I grew up in my faith watching her and she used to always you

1224
01:14:54.840 --> 01:14:57.600
know do this thing and the ladies that have been here for any amount of time

1225
01:14:57.600 --> 01:15:01.520
you've seen me do this before but I believe in this

1226
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:05.440
It really, it impacted me and I will tell everyone what I heard from her, but she used to do this

1227
01:15:05.440 --> 01:15:09.520
thing where she would touch her ears and she would say, you know, have everybody do it. I am a sheep,

1228
01:15:09.520 --> 01:15:14.720
I am his sheep and a sheep hears voice. And so I used to do that all the, all the time. You all,

1229
01:15:14.720 --> 01:15:19.440
I would be sitting at red lights. I, Bethany, my name was Stanko at that time. I, Bethany,

1230
01:15:19.440 --> 01:15:24.720
Stanko, I'm a sheep and I hear his voice and I would just do that all the time. I used to drive

1231
01:15:24.720 --> 01:15:30.560
around with scripture, scripture declarations in my car and I would just pray them out loud

1232
01:15:30.560 --> 01:15:36.560
over myself. Y'all, I was serious about this stuff and I wanted, and I still do. I probably

1233
01:15:36.560 --> 01:15:40.640
have those somewhere. I've moved so many times that they get packed away sometimes until I find

1234
01:15:40.640 --> 01:15:49.680
them again. But, you know, I used my drive time to listen to things that were of God, to pray things

1235
01:15:49.680 --> 01:15:57.920
over myself, to really allow myself to connect with God any way I can and could worship, you

1236
01:15:57.920 --> 01:16:04.400
know, whatever. And I think the more for me, again, everybody's different. Okay. So the way I hear God

1237
01:16:05.280 --> 01:16:10.720
might be different than the way you hear God, because he's also given you a divine personality

1238
01:16:10.720 --> 01:16:14.480
and, and the ways that he's going to connect with you that might be different than me. So

1239
01:16:14.480 --> 01:16:19.120
I don't necessarily have a formula to say, Hey, this is how you hear from God. Other than

1240
01:16:19.120 --> 01:16:24.320
reading the word, connecting with him, building relationship with him, growing and trusting

1241
01:16:24.320 --> 01:16:30.320
yourself, you know, again, healing in those times where you thought you heard him and something not

1242
01:16:30.320 --> 01:16:34.720
good happened, you know, because those are the times where we get really confused or we break

1243
01:16:34.720 --> 01:16:39.520
promises to ourselves. And the more we break promises to ourselves, we don't realize it,

1244
01:16:39.520 --> 01:16:44.000
but that actually breaks connection with the Lord too, because we're breaking a connection with

1245
01:16:44.000 --> 01:16:49.920
ourselves and God is in us. So every time we're breaking another promise, it's creating,

1246
01:16:49.920 --> 01:16:56.480
it's creating that disconnect, disconnect, disconnect. And so that reconnection, you know,

1247
01:16:56.480 --> 01:17:03.840
can happen so easily. And, and part of it, Trina, for me too, is faith, believing that I can hear

1248
01:17:03.840 --> 01:17:10.080
him. And if I have any confusion, all I need to do is say, Lord, I think this is what you're saying.

1249
01:17:10.880 --> 01:17:13.600
Is this you? These are the three things I say, God, is this you?

1250
01:17:15.280 --> 01:17:18.720
Is this the devil or is this me? Is this my own idea?

1251
01:17:21.440 --> 01:17:26.000
And when I ask him that I feel like for me, and I'm not always saying it's immediate. Okay. So I

1252
01:17:26.000 --> 01:17:30.960
don't want to give you that impression. Sometimes it's a week later. Sometimes it's a month later.

1253
01:17:30.960 --> 01:17:35.840
Y'all sometimes I have a dream and I don't know the understanding of that dream for many years,

1254
01:17:35.840 --> 01:17:40.400
sometimes ever. Same thing with, you know, certain things I feel like God is showing me.

1255
01:17:40.400 --> 01:17:47.200
Sometimes I don't know for a long time, but I do know this, that the more that I have believed that

1256
01:17:47.200 --> 01:17:51.600
God speaks to me, the more that I have claimed that stuff for myself, the more that I've

1257
01:17:51.600 --> 01:17:56.240
cultivated that. So I've read books about prayer and connecting with God. I've read books about

1258
01:17:56.240 --> 01:18:01.920
the prophetic, like all, like I grow in the gifts that enable us to hear. Does that make sense?

1259
01:18:02.880 --> 01:18:06.000
So for me, it's like all those things combined.

1260
01:18:07.600 --> 01:18:13.200
And that's how I have grown in my ability to hear the Lord. Do I make mistakes? Yeah, probably I do.

1261
01:18:14.400 --> 01:18:21.520
But you know what? More times than not, I've heard him and, and conveyed something accurately.

1262
01:18:21.520 --> 01:18:27.280
And when I walk in that, then I grow and I acknowledge the times that I've misheard him too.

1263
01:18:28.240 --> 01:18:33.680
And I apologize to him for mishearing him and ask him to help me hear him better in the future.

1264
01:18:33.680 --> 01:18:40.320
And that's how I've done it. And it's really helped me kind of run the race a little bit more free.

1265
01:18:42.560 --> 01:18:46.160
There's a little bit of push pull there because I love Joyce Meyer. And when she says,

1266
01:18:46.160 --> 01:18:51.120
step out and find out, sometimes you got to step out and find out like sometimes he's not

1267
01:18:51.840 --> 01:18:58.800
like until you just try. So that's what I worry too is like, how long do I wait? Should I step

1268
01:18:58.800 --> 01:19:05.440
out? You know? Well, and that is part of it. You know, I think where, again, if you continue to

1269
01:19:05.440 --> 01:19:12.720
grow and trusting yourself, I think you're going to question that less. Do I step out or do I not?

1270
01:19:12.720 --> 01:19:17.120
Because you all, the more you all get to know me, I'm a Hey, I'm going to just go for this.

1271
01:19:17.920 --> 01:19:26.240
I just, I, God has given me supernatural faith to just walk in things, but I prayed for a long

1272
01:19:26.240 --> 01:19:32.240
time for that, you know? And so the things that you're praying for now, hopefully you'll start

1273
01:19:32.240 --> 01:19:37.280
to grow in that and walk in that right now. But even if you, you walk in that five years from now,

1274
01:19:37.280 --> 01:19:43.360
isn't that worth it? It's going to be, it's going to be so worth it. So everything,

1275
01:19:43.360 --> 01:19:48.880
you know, that we pray and can connect with now is going to have a positive effect at some point.

1276
01:19:48.880 --> 01:19:50.240
Remember we reap what we sow.

1277
01:19:52.880 --> 01:19:57.760
So sowing into the spirit realm and sowing into truth is going to have a positive effect.

1278
01:19:59.520 --> 01:20:00.020
These are great.

1279
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:01.780
Great questions, there's so much more.

1280
01:20:01.780 --> 01:20:03.800
You know, I love to talk about prayer and all that.

1281
01:20:03.800 --> 01:20:05.080
I should talk to Jackie.

1282
01:20:05.080 --> 01:20:07.240
I think we need to do a session about it again

1283
01:20:07.240 --> 01:20:09.980
because prayer also connects with hearing from God

1284
01:20:09.980 --> 01:20:12.220
and helping people connect in that way.

1285
01:20:13.180 --> 01:20:14.420
But I will tell you one last thing

1286
01:20:14.420 --> 01:20:17.120
and then I'll go over to Tatiana.

1287
01:20:17.120 --> 01:20:20.360
But I think one of the other things

1288
01:20:20.360 --> 01:20:22.600
that's really important is praying out loud

1289
01:20:24.380 --> 01:20:25.880
and then sitting in stillness.

1290
01:20:25.880 --> 01:20:27.000
You know, those quiet times.

1291
01:20:27.000 --> 01:20:27.840
I don't know if you're like me,

1292
01:20:27.840 --> 01:20:30.400
I don't like a lot of quiet time.

1293
01:20:31.280 --> 01:20:32.960
I like to be busy.

1294
01:20:32.960 --> 01:20:33.780
But you know what?

1295
01:20:33.780 --> 01:20:36.460
I hear God a lot when I'm just quiet.

1296
01:20:38.600 --> 01:20:39.720
When I'm really quiet.

1297
01:20:40.800 --> 01:20:42.340
And I journal.

1298
01:20:42.340 --> 01:20:44.080
So again, I just do a lot of things

1299
01:20:44.080 --> 01:20:46.300
that cultivate that connection.

1300
01:20:48.320 --> 01:20:50.340
So try some things.

1301
01:20:50.340 --> 01:20:51.480
Ladies, this is for all of you.

1302
01:20:51.480 --> 01:20:53.380
Try some things.

1303
01:20:53.380 --> 01:20:55.160
And if that's not how you hear God,

1304
01:20:55.160 --> 01:20:57.480
try something different.

1305
01:20:58.120 --> 01:21:01.880
So some people hear God really clearly in nature.

1306
01:21:01.880 --> 01:21:03.920
Some people hear God really clearly

1307
01:21:03.920 --> 01:21:05.680
sitting on their front porch,

1308
01:21:05.680 --> 01:21:07.360
drinking a cup of coffee.

1309
01:21:07.360 --> 01:21:09.340
But you gotta find what works for you.

1310
01:21:11.040 --> 01:21:11.880
Yeah.

1311
01:21:13.720 --> 01:21:15.520
I think Joyce Meyer is also the one that said

1312
01:21:15.520 --> 01:21:17.600
that years ago that, you know,

1313
01:21:17.600 --> 01:21:19.160
God's like a radio frequency.

1314
01:21:19.160 --> 01:21:20.080
He's always talking.

1315
01:21:20.080 --> 01:21:21.140
It's whether or not we're tuned

1316
01:21:21.140 --> 01:21:23.380
into the right radio frequency to hear him.

1317
01:21:24.720 --> 01:21:26.820
And that always stood out to me too.

1318
01:21:26.860 --> 01:21:27.700
Yeah.

1319
01:21:28.860 --> 01:21:30.380
So it's kind of like dialing in

1320
01:21:30.380 --> 01:21:32.580
and just tuning the radio station

1321
01:21:32.580 --> 01:21:34.460
as you guys step out in this.

1322
01:21:34.460 --> 01:21:36.140
Such great questions.

1323
01:21:36.140 --> 01:21:37.860
Thank you so much.

1324
01:21:37.860 --> 01:21:39.660
Let us know as you continue to walk through

1325
01:21:39.660 --> 01:21:40.780
this stuff with the ex too,

1326
01:21:40.780 --> 01:21:41.980
because, you know, again,

1327
01:21:41.980 --> 01:21:44.740
accountability is everything.

1328
01:21:44.740 --> 01:21:45.860
Yeah.

1329
01:21:45.860 --> 01:21:49.660
Tatiana, it's your turn.

1330
01:21:50.820 --> 01:21:52.020
Yay.

1331
01:21:52.020 --> 01:21:55.940
I feel like, okay, so I'm just gonna be honest.

1332
01:21:57.580 --> 01:21:59.060
I really didn't want to share,

1333
01:21:59.060 --> 01:22:03.320
but I feel like I'm ready to share some of these things.

1334
01:22:05.180 --> 01:22:07.020
Okay, so my brain's kind of all over the place,

1335
01:22:07.020 --> 01:22:08.380
but I'm just gonna say the things

1336
01:22:08.380 --> 01:22:10.240
that have been coming to my mind.

1337
01:22:11.180 --> 01:22:14.140
Okay, so I kind of wanted to talk a little bit

1338
01:22:14.140 --> 01:22:16.160
about the intrusive thoughts.

1339
01:22:18.000 --> 01:22:22.060
What I've noticed, a pattern for me is like,

1340
01:22:22.060 --> 01:22:25.060
I just, oh, like here's something

1341
01:22:25.060 --> 01:22:28.700
that I've never struggled with in my life ever.

1342
01:22:28.700 --> 01:22:31.980
And my brain will go into panic mode

1343
01:22:31.980 --> 01:22:33.020
and it'll be like, oh my gosh,

1344
01:22:33.020 --> 01:22:34.580
like, what if that could be me?

1345
01:22:34.580 --> 01:22:36.380
Like, what if that's something that's hitting in my heart

1346
01:22:36.380 --> 01:22:39.860
and like one day, like it'll come up out of nowhere.

1347
01:22:39.860 --> 01:22:42.340
And I don't know why, like, I do that.

1348
01:22:42.340 --> 01:22:45.380
Like, it's like, I get so scared so easily

1349
01:22:45.380 --> 01:22:47.220
with something that has like,

1350
01:22:47.220 --> 01:22:49.540
never had anything to do with me.

1351
01:22:49.540 --> 01:22:54.540
And like, just because, you know,

1352
01:22:54.940 --> 01:22:57.500
how it's been going on for a long time.

1353
01:22:57.500 --> 01:22:58.740
Like, there's been a few times

1354
01:22:58.740 --> 01:23:00.420
where I've talked to my mom about these things,

1355
01:23:00.420 --> 01:23:03.780
like, you know, just kind of opening up about struggles.

1356
01:23:04.780 --> 01:23:08.220
And one thing that kind of came up is like,

1357
01:23:08.220 --> 01:23:11.860
she would tell me like, no te claves.

1358
01:23:11.860 --> 01:23:13.740
And in Spanish, a clave is like a nail,

1359
01:23:13.740 --> 01:23:16.820
like don't get stuck, like in that one thing.

1360
01:23:16.820 --> 01:23:20.180
And I feel like, I don't know why like my brain does that,

1361
01:23:20.180 --> 01:23:23.220
but it just get like stuck on one thing

1362
01:23:23.220 --> 01:23:25.740
and it'll just like fear, circle, fear, circle.

1363
01:23:25.740 --> 01:23:27.060
And then I just tell myself like,

1364
01:23:27.060 --> 01:23:29.300
okay, I'm just gonna wait it out.

1365
01:23:29.300 --> 01:23:31.860
And then it'll be over and then it'll be good.

1366
01:23:31.860 --> 01:23:34.820
But then it's like, something else,

1367
01:23:34.820 --> 01:23:37.460
I'll hear something else or I'll see something else.

1368
01:23:37.460 --> 01:23:39.260
And so I try to be like, really careful with myself

1369
01:23:39.260 --> 01:23:41.620
about like, not watching the news

1370
01:23:41.620 --> 01:23:44.180
or like, not scrolling on social media.

1371
01:23:44.180 --> 01:23:46.700
Like, since I've started the hard work,

1372
01:23:46.700 --> 01:23:48.300
I have not been on social media.

1373
01:23:48.820 --> 01:23:53.820
But even now I still feel like, I don't know,

1374
01:23:55.020 --> 01:23:56.540
like, I just hear things

1375
01:23:56.540 --> 01:23:59.060
and my brain would just kind of like spiral down.

1376
01:24:00.540 --> 01:24:02.420
And even like when I was younger,

1377
01:24:03.420 --> 01:24:07.020
probably like, I wanna say maybe second or third grade,

1378
01:24:08.060 --> 01:24:13.060
I started having like OCD tendencies

1379
01:24:13.060 --> 01:24:14.900
and not like perfectionism.

1380
01:24:14.900 --> 01:24:16.420
Like, it bothers me when people are like,

1381
01:24:16.420 --> 01:24:17.540
oh, I'm OCD.

1382
01:24:17.540 --> 01:24:19.340
They're just like a perfectionist or whatever.

1383
01:24:19.340 --> 01:24:21.900
Cause for me, it was like an actual thing.

1384
01:24:21.900 --> 01:24:25.700
Like I couldn't touch door handles

1385
01:24:25.700 --> 01:24:27.060
or like just weird little things.

1386
01:24:27.060 --> 01:24:29.540
Like I had to count a certain way on my hands.

1387
01:24:29.540 --> 01:24:32.500
And if not, it's like just anxiety.

1388
01:24:32.500 --> 01:24:36.340
And I feel like I've kind of, like that went away,

1389
01:24:36.340 --> 01:24:39.420
but then I've kind of seen it come back through this tour.

1390
01:24:39.420 --> 01:24:43.780
Like my brain just kind of gets fixated on one thing

1391
01:24:43.780 --> 01:24:45.540
and just like spirals down.

1392
01:24:47.060 --> 01:24:48.940
And yeah, and then like another thing

1393
01:24:48.940 --> 01:24:51.300
I wanted to mention too was

1394
01:24:51.300 --> 01:24:53.780
because like my mom's an immigrant

1395
01:24:53.780 --> 01:24:56.420
and my dad grew up very rough.

1396
01:24:56.420 --> 01:24:57.980
And so like knowing their stories,

1397
01:24:57.980 --> 01:25:00.100
knowing where they come from, like.

1398
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:06.040
I feel like I beat myself up about it because then I'm like this is so stupid like I don't

1399
01:25:06.040 --> 01:25:11.760
even sound like right in the head when I'm talking about even struggling with this because

1400
01:25:11.760 --> 01:25:16.920
it's like for everything that my parents went through like they've overcame so much and

1401
01:25:16.920 --> 01:25:25.600
so for me to get stuck in my head like it's just so stupid and and so yeah that's kind

1402
01:25:25.600 --> 01:25:37.960
of what came up for me today but I just I like it's so weird because I feel like like

1403
01:25:37.960 --> 01:25:43.200
I have I know I have a sound mind and like I speak that scripture all over myself all

1404
01:25:43.200 --> 01:25:50.440
the time I know you do but it's like when I'm going through these things like I feel

1405
01:25:50.440 --> 01:25:54.400
like it's almost like I'm looking at myself from the outside like girl like what are you

1406
01:25:54.400 --> 01:26:02.000
doing like this isn't even you know and so yeah that's kind of what came up today well

1407
01:26:02.000 --> 01:26:08.520
number one you're really brave Tatiana and this is something you've been you've been

1408
01:26:08.520 --> 01:26:14.560
fighting for a long time and you have gotten some victory over it but we just we have to

1409
01:26:14.560 --> 01:26:20.760
again help not help ask the Lord to help us understand again what that root is but here's

1410
01:26:20.760 --> 01:26:25.080
the thing I wrote down a couple things that came to mind as you were talking and I don't

1411
01:26:25.080 --> 01:26:29.680
know that I've ever had these thoughts as we as I've heard you share or as we've been

1412
01:26:29.680 --> 01:26:34.240
unpacking these so I feel like this is another layer to the healing that's gonna help you

1413
01:26:34.240 --> 01:26:41.600
break free from some of this stuff so I have a couple things the first thing is you kind

1414
01:26:41.600 --> 01:26:45.360
of mentioned a couple times and I understand why first and foremost I want you to hear

1415
01:26:45.360 --> 01:26:55.360
me say I understand why you feel the way you feel but I want to encourage you to not

1416
01:26:55.360 --> 01:27:00.960
think about about yourself or the things that you're fearing or your brain okay and here's

1417
01:27:00.960 --> 01:27:07.000
kind of what I mean you said I don't know why my brain does that it's so stupid that

1418
01:27:07.000 --> 01:27:12.240
I'm thinking these things and you said you know stuff about your brain a couple times

1419
01:27:12.280 --> 01:27:20.480
and so what I wrote down is she believes her brain is deceiving her and so I really want

1420
01:27:20.480 --> 01:27:25.720
to encourage you um it's interesting I just it's not the same but I had someone ask me

1421
01:27:25.720 --> 01:27:32.600
recently like do you believe your body is strong for you and it was my chiropractor

1422
01:27:32.600 --> 01:27:38.440
and she asked me that because I have gotten sick a lot in my life and I'm just tired of

1423
01:27:38.440 --> 01:27:45.080
being sick and tired and trying to figure out the root of why why I'm battling some of the

1424
01:27:45.080 --> 01:27:50.480
things I'm battling but the reality is is interestingly enough and I hope this will

1425
01:27:50.480 --> 01:27:56.960
make sense as I bring this together and here in a little bit when we had our in-home foster

1426
01:27:56.960 --> 01:28:02.640
licensing visit this woman was in our home and you have to tell them like everything about you

1427
01:28:02.640 --> 01:28:07.200
and so we had to do this family profile had to share a lot of my story even more than I've

1428
01:28:07.200 --> 01:28:14.360
told you all about the abuse and my dad and all kinds of stuff and she was sitting here in my home

1429
01:28:14.360 --> 01:28:19.960
and she said you know she was saying how you know blessed she was when she read it and just that

1430
01:28:19.960 --> 01:28:24.520
she was sorry that I went through those things and then she said you know it's really amazing

1431
01:28:24.520 --> 01:28:31.960
that you can live the life that you live and that you are as healthy as you are because a lot of

1432
01:28:31.960 --> 01:28:38.920
people that have been through the things that I've been through are not like able to function

1433
01:28:40.680 --> 01:28:45.240
and so it's by the grace of God that I am able to function the reason I'm saying that to you

1434
01:28:45.240 --> 01:28:52.120
is that I know that in my head but sometimes I forget that regarding my body physically when

1435
01:28:52.120 --> 01:28:57.800
I'm struggling that my body has literally been through a lot and my body at times is still

1436
01:28:57.800 --> 01:29:05.320
keeping score of the trauma even though my emotion and mental place is healed if that makes sense

1437
01:29:06.200 --> 01:29:11.800
and so I've had to learn and again even in this last week been processing forgiving myself

1438
01:29:12.760 --> 01:29:19.480
forgiving my body for times that I've gotten sick and I know that might seem like well isn't that

1439
01:29:19.480 --> 01:29:23.880
just you forgive like I didn't do anything wrong so my body didn't do anything wrong but there's

1440
01:29:23.880 --> 01:29:31.880
something about just giving that grace towards our body so I feel like part of you just kind of like

1441
01:29:32.680 --> 01:29:39.800
not partnering with my brain is tricking me or deceiving me or my brain is not good and it causes

1442
01:29:39.800 --> 01:29:45.800
you know where we think that it's bad does that make sense what I'm saying okay so that's kind

1443
01:29:45.800 --> 01:29:51.240
of number one and and I'm not saying that's going to be easy but where you start thanking your brain

1444
01:29:52.040 --> 01:29:54.120
because I'm going to tell you something here's the thing

1445
01:29:55.640 --> 01:29:59.800
thanking your brain for being strong and smart and

1446
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:07.200
having a lot of creativity and imagination. You are a very creative person, Tatiana. You are a

1447
01:30:07.200 --> 01:30:12.640
feeler. I would dare say that you probably have gifts of words of knowledge, discernment, prophetic,

1448
01:30:12.640 --> 01:30:18.800
probably that are going to come out at some point in your life. And I think these gifts have just

1449
01:30:18.800 --> 01:30:26.240
gotten overextended through trauma as a kid. And here's the thing, even though you did not

1450
01:30:26.240 --> 01:30:32.080
physically go through the same thing as your parents did, generationally those things have

1451
01:30:32.080 --> 01:30:36.720
gotten passed down to you. And so there are things that you're going to feel the effects of them in

1452
01:30:36.720 --> 01:30:43.200
the spirit sometimes, especially for people that are feelers. And I know that you are, like I know

1453
01:30:43.200 --> 01:30:48.560
that about you've been in the program long enough. You have a tender heart, you know, and these are

1454
01:30:48.560 --> 01:30:54.000
not, these are not bad things. These are really, really good things. But see, the enemy has

1455
01:30:54.000 --> 01:30:59.440
convinced you that they're bad because you get tripped up and you get stuck in these loops. And

1456
01:30:59.440 --> 01:31:04.720
so now your brain is deceiving you. It's bad, you know, it's, how did you say, I don't know why my

1457
01:31:04.720 --> 01:31:09.680
brain keeps doing this. So even though you might not be saying like, ah brain, you're so dumb.

1458
01:31:11.360 --> 01:31:17.680
In a sense, sometimes we are doing that when we're like, why am I thinking that again? So I don't

1459
01:31:17.680 --> 01:31:23.600
know. You guys have these inner dialogues. I know that I do. Sometimes back in the day way more than

1460
01:31:23.600 --> 01:31:32.160
I do now. But it's not stupid for you to think and feel these ways. Okay. So I really want to

1461
01:31:32.160 --> 01:31:36.560
encourage you just to keep extending grace to yourself. And then interestingly enough, I watched

1462
01:31:36.560 --> 01:31:41.920
this movie called The Help last night. I try to watch that movie once a year. I know this might

1463
01:31:41.920 --> 01:31:47.920
sound, hopefully it doesn't sound dumb to people that are African American or of other ethnicities,

1464
01:31:47.920 --> 01:31:53.840
but I try to remember like, and think about things that I don't understand.

1465
01:31:55.680 --> 01:32:00.080
I don't know what it would be like to go through what some of those people, and I know it's just a

1466
01:32:00.080 --> 01:32:06.720
movie, but I believe it tells there's like aspects of what it shows that are probably true. And I want

1467
01:32:06.720 --> 01:32:11.760
to understand, I want to have compassion and I have biracial nieces and nephews and, you know,

1468
01:32:11.760 --> 01:32:17.520
just things that I want to culturally like be aware of. So I'm saying that to you to say one

1469
01:32:17.520 --> 01:32:24.480
of the things that the one maid in there does, the lady that was hired help, is she takes care

1470
01:32:24.480 --> 01:32:32.960
of this little girl. And she has her repeat, you is kind, you is smart, and you is important,

1471
01:32:32.960 --> 01:32:37.440
over and over again. And that is exactly how she says it. And it's so cute. She has her say it that

1472
01:32:37.440 --> 01:32:44.480
way. But I want to give that to you tonight, because you are kind, you are smart, and you are

1473
01:32:44.480 --> 01:32:51.440
important, and your brain is clever. And it's smart, and it's wise, and it's creative. But see,

1474
01:32:51.440 --> 01:32:58.640
the enemy has you just believing that it's hurting you and it's deceiving you. And at times, it feels

1475
01:32:58.640 --> 01:33:04.000
that way. Because it's scary what you're going through. But I want you to know that this is not

1476
01:33:04.000 --> 01:33:09.360
your forever. I know I've told you that before. And it's hard because you're in it. But you you

1477
01:33:09.360 --> 01:33:15.600
are so much further than when you first came in this program. You are you are you are. And I feel

1478
01:33:15.600 --> 01:33:19.680
like you're going to continue to get the breakthroughs that's going to help your mind not

1479
01:33:19.680 --> 01:33:27.520
get stuck in those loops. And so the one thing that I think is important is to also ask God to

1480
01:33:27.520 --> 01:33:35.920
replace the trauma things with good thoughts. And I don't know how that, you know, will all play out.

1481
01:33:36.240 --> 01:33:40.720
But to the point that I would encourage you to ask God to do it supernaturally while you're

1482
01:33:40.720 --> 01:33:50.000
sleeping. Like almost as if God, thank you for rewiring my brain, not taking out the good parts,

1483
01:33:50.000 --> 01:33:55.520
okay, but rewiring it so that I don't get traumatized and get stuck in a loop over and

1484
01:33:55.520 --> 01:34:02.400
over and over again. You know, and really know, again, that he's going to meet you as you go.

1485
01:34:02.640 --> 01:34:06.960
And here's one last thing, ladies, I think is important to share.

1486
01:34:09.280 --> 01:34:14.640
I can remember wanting to get delivered out of situations and wanting it to be immediate. Like

1487
01:34:14.640 --> 01:34:20.320
just I don't want to deal with this anymore. And being frustrated when I when that wouldn't happen.

1488
01:34:22.240 --> 01:34:30.080
And so I clung to stories like Joseph. And stories where people endured and they kept faithful,

1489
01:34:30.080 --> 01:34:38.560
they remained steadfast. And the reason I say that is because sometimes we have to go through.

1490
01:34:40.160 --> 01:34:47.440
And when we go through, it's not going to be for nothing. So Tatiana, the things that you're going

1491
01:34:47.440 --> 01:34:51.120
through right now, I know this won't make it easier either. But I just want you to know,

1492
01:34:51.120 --> 01:34:56.880
I think there's going to be other people that the knowledge that you're gaining

1493
01:34:56.880 --> 01:34:59.920
from navigating this, you're going to be able to

1494
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:01.760
give that to someone else one day.

1495
01:35:03.840 --> 01:35:07.280
And I don't think that's why you're going through it necessarily, but God

1496
01:35:07.280 --> 01:35:10.680
will use it for good to save many people alive.

1497
01:35:10.680 --> 01:35:15.240
I think this is the enemy attacking you, that God is helping you navigate

1498
01:35:15.240 --> 01:35:17.280
it and, and will help you overcome it.

1499
01:35:17.840 --> 01:35:24.160
Um, and so, um, You know, a lot of times when we think negative, lady is one

1500
01:35:24.160 --> 01:35:25.920
of the things that we can do is worship.

1501
01:35:25.920 --> 01:35:29.400
And so Tatiana, when those negative loops start happening, and it might not

1502
01:35:29.400 --> 01:35:34.160
be easy to do this, but I want you to kind of have some worship ready, some

1503
01:35:34.160 --> 01:35:36.480
kind of worship ready that can help you shift out of that.

1504
01:35:36.880 --> 01:35:42.440
And so if those loops start happening and not necessarily, it might need to

1505
01:35:42.440 --> 01:35:48.040
be, um, well, Alina, yeah, but I don't want to lead her down that cause I

1506
01:35:48.040 --> 01:35:50.320
don't even know if that's really what's going on there.

1507
01:35:50.440 --> 01:35:56.160
Um, so I want you to like, maybe joy filled something that's like

1508
01:35:56.160 --> 01:35:58.440
the total opposite of fear.

1509
01:35:58.680 --> 01:35:59.180
Okay.

1510
01:36:00.200 --> 01:36:01.040
Might be love.

1511
01:36:01.040 --> 01:36:05.880
It might be joy, whatever kind of helps you shift into a place of feeling safe.

1512
01:36:08.760 --> 01:36:09.840
Does that make sense to you?

1513
01:36:10.840 --> 01:36:11.340
Yeah.

1514
01:36:11.760 --> 01:36:12.260
Okay.

1515
01:36:12.400 --> 01:36:14.680
So where you just let, and it might not work.

1516
01:36:14.720 --> 01:36:15.220
Okay.

1517
01:36:15.440 --> 01:36:16.200
But it might.

1518
01:36:16.320 --> 01:36:19.200
So let's just give that a try to, to see if that can help you

1519
01:36:19.200 --> 01:36:21.200
kind of shift out of the loop.

1520
01:36:21.240 --> 01:36:23.320
And if it doesn't work, don't beat yourself up.

1521
01:36:23.560 --> 01:36:24.060
Okay.

1522
01:36:24.400 --> 01:36:28.000
You're going to continue to be kind to yourself, speak good things over yourself.

1523
01:36:28.120 --> 01:36:33.960
Thank your brain for being able to think constructively, you know, and literally

1524
01:36:33.960 --> 01:36:39.080
just even like you can pray over your own mind, you know, ladies, I will put my

1525
01:36:39.080 --> 01:36:43.600
hand on my, my own mind and sometimes pray, God, thank you for helping me

1526
01:36:43.600 --> 01:36:45.080
have the mind of Christ right now.

1527
01:36:45.840 --> 01:36:47.360
The enemy's tormenting me the other day.

1528
01:36:47.360 --> 01:36:47.860
Okay.

1529
01:36:47.880 --> 01:36:48.520
Thank you, Lord.

1530
01:36:48.520 --> 01:36:49.720
This is the last thing I promise.

1531
01:36:50.040 --> 01:36:54.360
So I was sitting in a, um, Bible study and this is not the first

1532
01:36:54.360 --> 01:36:55.560
time this has happened, y'all.

1533
01:36:55.880 --> 01:37:01.800
And immediately all these really messed up, lustful thoughts came in my brain.

1534
01:37:01.960 --> 01:37:02.640
Choo choo.

1535
01:37:02.640 --> 01:37:06.400
Like crazy stuff that I don't even think about.

1536
01:37:08.120 --> 01:37:11.280
And I remember the first time, like just in my mind, not saying it out loud,

1537
01:37:11.280 --> 01:37:13.000
but like, what the heck is wrong with me?

1538
01:37:13.000 --> 01:37:14.360
Why am I thinking about this?

1539
01:37:14.360 --> 01:37:17.360
This is really messed up and just really being hard on myself.

1540
01:37:17.640 --> 01:37:19.360
And then the second time, kind of same thing.

1541
01:37:19.360 --> 01:37:23.960
Well, it happened again last Thursday and I caught on a lot quicker this time,

1542
01:37:23.960 --> 01:37:29.000
like, wait a minute, these are not my thoughts, literally in my head.

1543
01:37:29.000 --> 01:37:30.360
I'm like, these are not my thoughts.

1544
01:37:30.400 --> 01:37:32.400
And I just started praying, God, these are not my thoughts.

1545
01:37:32.440 --> 01:37:35.080
I pray that you would remove them, you know, cover my mind.

1546
01:37:35.080 --> 01:37:39.200
And I just started praying and they left.

1547
01:37:39.480 --> 01:37:43.240
Now they try to come back again, but then I just had to pray over myself.

1548
01:37:43.440 --> 01:37:48.520
And some of it is that we have to counteract the, the negative that is

1549
01:37:48.720 --> 01:37:50.440
the negative that is happening.

1550
01:37:52.000 --> 01:37:53.920
We got to stand up for ourselves, ladies.

1551
01:37:54.200 --> 01:37:59.400
And, and, you know, the intentionality that I have to have is legit because

1552
01:37:59.400 --> 01:38:03.360
there's something, I think there's a principality in that area because it's

1553
01:38:03.360 --> 01:38:05.440
45 minutes from where we're at right now.

1554
01:38:05.480 --> 01:38:09.480
It's at our other church and it's happened three times when I've been there.

1555
01:38:11.640 --> 01:38:12.000
Yeah.

1556
01:38:12.240 --> 01:38:17.480
So there might be certain things like when you're in certain places, Tatiana,

1557
01:38:17.480 --> 01:38:19.360
where you're recognizing that more.

1558
01:38:19.360 --> 01:38:21.080
So just try to stay really aware.

1559
01:38:21.400 --> 01:38:25.960
Uh, there was a scripture that I was reading when you guys were in the breakout.

1560
01:38:25.960 --> 01:38:26.720
This is what it says.

1561
01:38:26.720 --> 01:38:31.360
First Peter 5, 8, stay alert, watch out for your great enemy, the devil.

1562
01:38:31.440 --> 01:38:36.720
He prowls around like a roaring lion looking for someone to devour.

1563
01:38:37.960 --> 01:38:38.600
But guess what?

1564
01:38:38.600 --> 01:38:39.640
He's not the lion.

1565
01:38:40.280 --> 01:38:43.800
There's a lion of the tribe of Judah and he is the lion and he

1566
01:38:43.800 --> 01:38:45.360
already won the victory for you.

1567
01:38:45.440 --> 01:38:48.480
So we just have to pray that God will help you apply the blood

1568
01:38:48.480 --> 01:38:49.880
and walk into that victory.

1569
01:38:50.000 --> 01:38:50.480
Okay.

1570
01:38:51.280 --> 01:38:51.600
Okay.

1571
01:38:51.920 --> 01:38:52.440
All right.

1572
01:38:52.960 --> 01:38:56.080
And part of this lady is part of the coaching for Tatiana.

1573
01:38:56.080 --> 01:38:57.440
She lives with her parents.

1574
01:38:57.600 --> 01:39:01.160
Uh, there's some dynamics that I think the parents, not even that

1575
01:39:01.160 --> 01:39:04.040
they've done it intentionally, but they've brought some things into the home.

1576
01:39:04.400 --> 01:39:07.600
And so some of what she's overcoming is that some of it is heritage.

1577
01:39:07.600 --> 01:39:10.840
You all general, like cultural things that we encounter.

1578
01:39:10.880 --> 01:39:15.200
Even if we're in the U S that have come culturally with some of

1579
01:39:15.200 --> 01:39:18.680
the people that immigrated here, there's just a lot of dynamics going on.

1580
01:39:18.680 --> 01:39:22.440
So I know it can feel like, you know, I hope it didn't feel like I was

1581
01:39:22.440 --> 01:39:26.560
dismissing Alina, but I just, I know Tatiana's context and I know things

1582
01:39:26.560 --> 01:39:30.040
we've already kind of coached and work through and, you know, this has been a

1583
01:39:30.040 --> 01:39:34.040
process, so I just want to kind of redirect her to some other things to

1584
01:39:34.040 --> 01:39:38.600
see if that will work, uh, to help her continue to break free from this.

1585
01:39:38.920 --> 01:39:41.920
Um, but yeah, that can be true at times, Alina.

1586
01:39:41.920 --> 01:39:42.360
Okay.

1587
01:39:42.760 --> 01:39:43.160
All right.

1588
01:39:43.160 --> 01:39:44.920
We're going to go ahead and pray and close out father.

1589
01:39:44.920 --> 01:39:46.280
Thank you so much for this night.

1590
01:39:46.280 --> 01:39:48.360
We thank you God for everything that you've done already.

1591
01:39:48.360 --> 01:39:50.160
We thank you for healing and breakthroughs.

1592
01:39:50.560 --> 01:39:54.920
God, I pray and thank you for supernatural hazard hedges of protection

1593
01:39:54.920 --> 01:39:57.760
around these ladies that you're guarding and keeping watch over them.

1594
01:39:58.000 --> 01:40:00.040
That even when they are sleeping, you never.

1595
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:04.320
slumber, God. You're looking over them and smiling. You're protecting them. You're moving

1596
01:40:04.320 --> 01:40:08.080
things that the enemy is sending their way out of their way that will never hit them.

1597
01:40:08.080 --> 01:40:13.920
God, we thank you that, yes, Lord, that you would give them Salem rest. God, that they would wake

1598
01:40:13.920 --> 01:40:18.560
up refreshed for the day tomorrow. God, that you continue to reveal things for healing. Let your

1599
01:40:18.560 --> 01:40:24.560
will be done in their lives on earth this night as you desire in heaven. In Jesus name, amen.

1600
01:40:24.560 --> 01:40:28.000
God bless you all. I hope you have a good night, everyone. Bye-bye.

1601
01:40:28.000 --> 01:40:30.320
Bye-bye.