WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:11.960 Hi ladies. Welcome. Happy Monday evening. Thank you, Amanda, letting me know. Glad you're 2 00:00:11.960 --> 00:00:18.240 still here with us. Welcome for another heartwork session. This is what we call our heart check-ins. 3 00:00:18.240 --> 00:00:22.640 I normally just call them heartwork live sessions, but heart check-in is the same thing. So if 4 00:00:22.640 --> 00:00:27.120 you're wondering, they are the same. If you did not meet me before, I'm Bethany Cooper. 5 00:00:27.120 --> 00:00:30.840 I'm one of the master heartwork coaches here in our community. So glad to have you joining 6 00:00:30.840 --> 00:00:35.560 us tonight. Do we have anyone that this is your first live session? You've never been 7 00:00:35.560 --> 00:00:39.080 here with us before. I'll probably ask this again later if we have a bunch more ladies 8 00:00:39.080 --> 00:00:46.840 jump on. Anyone brand new? Welcome back to all my ladies rejoining. So good to see all 9 00:00:46.840 --> 00:00:52.200 of y'all again. Oh, I don't know, Debra. I don't hear an echo. Does anyone else hear 10 00:00:52.200 --> 00:00:59.880 an echo? Okay. Debra, it might just be like you might be getting feedback based on how 11 00:00:59.880 --> 00:01:07.000 you have your tech set up potentially. Because sometimes that'll happen for me on occasion 12 00:01:07.000 --> 00:01:12.520 when someone else is unmuted and they're talking, I might have my mic set up like the volume 13 00:01:12.520 --> 00:01:16.800 on my mic a little loud. Yeah. But welcome. So glad to have you guys here with us. Hopefully 14 00:01:16.800 --> 00:01:22.020 you had a wonderful 4th of July weekend. I know that holidays can always be kind of tricky 15 00:01:22.020 --> 00:01:27.620 depending on what your support system looks like. And so if you guys had a hard time navigating 16 00:01:27.620 --> 00:01:31.420 that, please do let us know if there's anything we can do to help you coach through any dynamics 17 00:01:31.420 --> 00:01:35.980 you encountered. Some people have a really hard time going around family and all of those 18 00:01:35.980 --> 00:01:42.620 kind of things. I want to just remind you all, I love to do this reminder in our housekeeping 19 00:01:42.620 --> 00:01:48.740 because this is so relevant in our culture, the whole FOMO, like the fear of missing out 20 00:01:48.740 --> 00:01:53.820 on something, right? And so the reason I try to bring it up in the HeartWork is that 21 00:01:53.820 --> 00:01:59.980 sometimes what can happen is people will join the HeartWork program. They'll sign up to 22 00:01:59.980 --> 00:02:04.180 say they're going to start the program, they're going to do the course, and then they'll hear 23 00:02:04.180 --> 00:02:09.139 about something else, another course, another Bible study. They'll hear about something 24 00:02:09.139 --> 00:02:13.220 going on with their sisters and they just, you know, not knocking that we need to spend 25 00:02:13.220 --> 00:02:18.100 time with our friends or our family and things like that. And maybe at some point do another 26 00:02:18.100 --> 00:02:23.260 course, but a lot of times the enemy will try to distract us with the fear of missing 27 00:02:23.260 --> 00:02:28.560 out on other things and we'll feel this need to act on something else right now. But the 28 00:02:28.560 --> 00:02:34.300 reality is, is God isn't going to ask us to sign up for things that like take us in opposite 29 00:02:34.300 --> 00:02:40.520 directions y'all, okay? So I really want you all to pray into, even in your own life outside 30 00:02:40.520 --> 00:02:48.240 of the HeartWork, how often is the enemy bringing things even that are good, okay? 31 00:02:48.240 --> 00:02:53.640 Because they can both be really good things. But what's the best thing in this season? 32 00:02:53.640 --> 00:02:58.640 I want you to think about what is your best yes in this season as you're here. I believe 33 00:02:58.640 --> 00:03:04.200 it's for you all to do the HeartWork, which is why God led you here. But again, so often 34 00:03:04.200 --> 00:03:08.880 we get distracted and we get off course with things that come our way. I've done it myself 35 00:03:08.880 --> 00:03:15.720 as well at times. And so really want to encourage you to try to avoid the next shiny thing. 36 00:03:15.720 --> 00:03:19.120 You know, that's kind of the same thing as FOMO, like the next shiny thing pops up and 37 00:03:19.120 --> 00:03:25.400 we're afraid we're missing out. Or, you know, even as you're kind of journeying through, 38 00:03:25.400 --> 00:03:30.240 sometimes the guy that's the, what I want to say, the sexiest might not be the best 39 00:03:30.240 --> 00:03:35.440 guy for you, okay? So let's just put it in that terms too. So as you're going through, 40 00:03:35.440 --> 00:03:40.680 I want to encourage you to think of this quote. God spoke this to me through someone else. 41 00:03:40.680 --> 00:03:46.600 Honestly, I had the little quote in the person's name for the longest time set up by my computer 42 00:03:46.600 --> 00:03:50.860 area and I don't know where that is right now. So this is not my quote, so I cannot 43 00:03:50.860 --> 00:03:56.680 take credit for it, but it really ministered to me. And I saw this quote even after I was 44 00:03:56.680 --> 00:04:00.200 already married. But as some of you all, I've kind of been talking about this a little bit 45 00:04:00.200 --> 00:04:05.760 during our heartwork sessions. We have been wanting to get pregnant and sometimes just 46 00:04:05.760 --> 00:04:12.000 struggling with that. And this is what the quote says. I'm the perfect age for everything 47 00:04:12.000 --> 00:04:21.600 God has for me right now. I'm the perfect age for everything that God has for me right 48 00:04:21.600 --> 00:04:29.440 now. The reality is if we partner with, I missed out, I wasted all those years. This 49 00:04:29.440 --> 00:04:34.760 is never going to happen for me. This isn't the way I want it to be. Those things might 50 00:04:34.760 --> 00:04:39.160 somewhat be true as far as this might not be how we thought it would unfold. We might 51 00:04:39.160 --> 00:04:42.160 not have thought we were going to get married and get divorced. We might not have thought 52 00:04:42.160 --> 00:04:47.720 we would never be married. Some of you all in your 40s, 50s, 60s, maybe older, some of 53 00:04:47.720 --> 00:04:51.880 you have gone through betrayal, whatever. Maybe some of you have lost spouses, whatever 54 00:04:51.880 --> 00:04:59.720 the dynamic is that you've gone through. The reality is, is that God is holding all things 55 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:03.080 in his hands, and he can work everything together for good. 56 00:05:03.480 --> 00:05:03.980 Okay. 57 00:05:05.060 --> 00:05:10.460 So if you partner with, I am the perfect age for everything God has for me right 58 00:05:10.460 --> 00:05:17.680 now, I believe it'll help you shift out of that fear posture of like times running 59 00:05:17.680 --> 00:05:22.940 out, which can lead so many of us to even step into dating with the panic button 60 00:05:22.940 --> 00:05:28.020 mode on the inside, every person we meet, we're, we're like, especially if we want 61 00:05:28.460 --> 00:05:32.380 a baby, like if you're, you know, in that age and you're still wanting that, we can 62 00:05:32.380 --> 00:05:36.220 kind of have this anxiousness, like we're looking for the man that's going to be 63 00:05:36.220 --> 00:05:39.760 our, not only our husband, but our baby daddy. 64 00:05:39.760 --> 00:05:43.660 And we're just, you know, that internal stuff, y'all that translates through when 65 00:05:43.660 --> 00:05:46.460 we're showing up to even just get to know a guy. 66 00:05:46.940 --> 00:05:52.420 So the more that we heal on the inside and trust in God's perfect timing, the 67 00:05:52.420 --> 00:05:57.280 more that we can just show up and be in a place of peace and really not let a lot 68 00:05:57.280 --> 00:06:00.320 of things distract us to find the person that God has for us. 69 00:06:00.560 --> 00:06:02.960 Amy, happy birthday tomorrow. 70 00:06:03.000 --> 00:06:03.720 Turning 50. 71 00:06:03.720 --> 00:06:04.320 That's awesome. 72 00:06:04.320 --> 00:06:07.000 My husband turned 50 this year, big birthday. 73 00:06:07.440 --> 00:06:08.520 That's so awesome. 74 00:06:08.720 --> 00:06:09.360 All right. 75 00:06:10.080 --> 00:06:12.320 Put in the chat and let us know what you're doing to celebrate. 76 00:06:12.800 --> 00:06:16.160 And the last housekeeping I have for you is Supernatural Saturday, 77 00:06:16.160 --> 00:06:17.880 doubly free and locked in. 78 00:06:18.040 --> 00:06:20.560 Are you doubly free and locked in, in this season? 79 00:06:20.800 --> 00:06:23.920 Are you locked in for what God has for you in the next six months? 80 00:06:24.240 --> 00:06:28.000 It was just reminding me too, how fast time can go, right? 81 00:06:28.320 --> 00:06:31.680 I feel like we just blinked and it had just turned 2026. 82 00:06:31.680 --> 00:06:37.120 I literally said to someone, I can't already believe it's, it's today is July 83 00:06:37.120 --> 00:06:39.760 6th already, you all, right? 84 00:06:40.000 --> 00:06:44.920 So we're already four days into the second half of the year. 85 00:06:45.880 --> 00:06:48.920 So let's make it the best that we can make it. 86 00:06:49.520 --> 00:06:49.960 All right. 87 00:06:49.960 --> 00:06:50.680 Let me pray for us. 88 00:06:50.680 --> 00:06:53.040 Father, thank you so much for all that you have for us. 89 00:06:54.520 --> 00:06:58.440 I thank you, God, that you would help us to hear a fresh man, a word from 90 00:06:58.440 --> 00:07:02.040 heaven tonight, that you would meet each lady right where she's at. 91 00:07:02.360 --> 00:07:05.360 God, those that are here live, those that are going to watch the replay, God, 92 00:07:05.360 --> 00:07:10.040 that you would help them to connect with you, to have divine inspiration, to 93 00:07:10.040 --> 00:07:13.360 bring things out of darkness into the light, help them to see themselves 94 00:07:13.360 --> 00:07:15.040 the way that you see them, God. 95 00:07:15.280 --> 00:07:18.520 We thank you that you are renewing and transforming our minds that 96 00:07:18.520 --> 00:07:20.160 all things are passing away. 97 00:07:20.360 --> 00:07:22.600 And behold, everything is becoming new. 98 00:07:23.360 --> 00:07:27.160 God, let us not fear because fear is false evidence appearing real, but help 99 00:07:27.160 --> 00:07:30.960 us to become more and more grounded in your love because your love is what, 100 00:07:31.240 --> 00:07:36.360 what you declare perfect love, cast out all fear because fear has to do with 101 00:07:36.360 --> 00:07:40.280 torment, help us to partner with the truth that you're a good father who 102 00:07:40.280 --> 00:07:44.680 brings good gifts to your children, including us, we thank you for all that 103 00:07:44.680 --> 00:07:46.400 you're going to do in our hearts and our lives. 104 00:07:47.120 --> 00:07:50.560 Um, we thank you for supernatural breakthrough and healing and 105 00:07:50.560 --> 00:07:52.600 release tonight in Jesus name. 106 00:07:52.920 --> 00:07:53.600 Amen. 107 00:07:54.320 --> 00:07:56.560 Tonight, we are talking about the real you. 108 00:07:56.960 --> 00:08:00.160 Um, some of you are just now let's also do this. 109 00:08:00.160 --> 00:08:01.560 Cause a couple more ladies have joined. 110 00:08:01.560 --> 00:08:02.400 I just want to make sure. 111 00:08:02.400 --> 00:08:03.320 Is there anyone here? 112 00:08:03.320 --> 00:08:05.320 That's for your first time tonight. 113 00:08:05.320 --> 00:08:08.320 You've never been on a live session before anyone brand new. 114 00:08:08.560 --> 00:08:12.520 Let me know in the chat, um, tonight we're talking. 115 00:08:12.520 --> 00:08:14.440 So Melissa, welcome for your first time. 116 00:08:14.440 --> 00:08:15.480 That's awesome. 117 00:08:15.520 --> 00:08:16.240 Hello. 118 00:08:16.680 --> 00:08:18.520 So glad to have you here with us. 119 00:08:18.680 --> 00:08:19.280 All right. 120 00:08:19.320 --> 00:08:20.040 All right. 121 00:08:20.160 --> 00:08:22.040 Is Audrey, Adriana new? 122 00:08:22.120 --> 00:08:22.720 I think too. 123 00:08:22.720 --> 00:08:23.880 Maybe she's raising her hand. 124 00:08:23.880 --> 00:08:24.640 Welcome. 125 00:08:25.080 --> 00:08:26.600 So excited to have you all here. 126 00:08:26.840 --> 00:08:27.200 All right. 127 00:08:27.200 --> 00:08:31.880 So the real you, for those of you that are brand new, this is content from week 128 00:08:31.880 --> 00:08:37.000 five in the book, um, and the coursework, but I don't want you to worry because 129 00:08:37.039 --> 00:08:41.760 the way that our program is built as we coach on whatever topic we are coaching 130 00:08:41.760 --> 00:08:44.280 on for that week, no matter what week you're on. 131 00:08:44.320 --> 00:08:49.040 So the, what I try to encourage our ladies that are brand new when I coach 132 00:08:49.040 --> 00:08:53.360 on the real you is that you, and even for our ladies that have been here for a 133 00:08:53.360 --> 00:08:59.880 while, sometimes y'all may not feel this way yet, but the, the great thing is 134 00:08:59.880 --> 00:09:01.600 that the seeds are getting planted. 135 00:09:02.560 --> 00:09:08.000 And as I said, just in that quote, you're the perfect age for everything right now. 136 00:09:08.040 --> 00:09:10.720 You're in the right moment at the right time right now. 137 00:09:11.000 --> 00:09:16.080 So God intended for you to be here tonight at this time with this session 138 00:09:16.320 --> 00:09:20.600 and to receive what you need for your particular heart healing journey. 139 00:09:20.920 --> 00:09:24.680 And so, um, I just always try to encourage those of you that are new, 140 00:09:24.680 --> 00:09:27.760 because sometimes people can feel like, well, I don't feel like any of those 141 00:09:27.760 --> 00:09:32.000 things yet, and that's okay because we grow into this more and more, 142 00:09:32.040 --> 00:09:33.480 no matter what week we're on. 143 00:09:33.520 --> 00:09:34.040 Okay. 144 00:09:34.320 --> 00:09:38.760 So encouraging you all to give yourself a lot of grace, the real you. 145 00:09:38.760 --> 00:09:39.840 What does that even mean? 146 00:09:39.920 --> 00:09:45.000 So when we talk about the real you in this community, your true God given 147 00:09:45.000 --> 00:09:47.160 identity, that's what we're talking about. 148 00:09:47.360 --> 00:09:48.560 They mean the same thing. 149 00:09:49.160 --> 00:09:54.720 And so I want you to think about, and most of us don't know what this is yet, 150 00:09:54.720 --> 00:10:00.000 really, but when God created you, by the way, he was so excited the day 151 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:06.960 He was creating you. He was so happy. He was so joy-filled when he was creating you. 152 00:10:06.960 --> 00:10:13.840 You may or may not believe that, but it is true. He thought about you. He predestined and put 153 00:10:13.840 --> 00:10:20.240 things in you that he wanted to specifically be planted and used so that you could bring 154 00:10:20.240 --> 00:10:27.600 the God colors out into the world, the way that only you can. And this is true. 155 00:10:28.400 --> 00:10:33.760 So as God was creating you and he's super happy and he's full of love and he's putting all these 156 00:10:33.760 --> 00:10:40.960 amazing things in you and in us, that is the moment when everything that was like your true 157 00:10:40.960 --> 00:10:46.480 identity, the fullness of who God originally created you to be, those moments before trauma 158 00:10:46.480 --> 00:10:51.840 and wounds ever entered your life. So this is like, most of us don't even know that person yet, 159 00:10:52.800 --> 00:10:59.280 but we will. And the more that we grow in our healing, the more that we step into understanding 160 00:10:59.280 --> 00:11:05.120 God and his character and all of his truth, you know, greater upgrades and revelation come every 161 00:11:05.120 --> 00:11:11.680 single day if we're posturing for that. But God wants to take you further and further into the 162 00:11:11.680 --> 00:11:16.400 fullness of who he originally created you to be. So when you all hear me say that to you during 163 00:11:16.480 --> 00:11:22.000 lives or even in a response in a text, the reason I'm saying that is because I want you to remember 164 00:11:22.000 --> 00:11:28.160 that you're growing as you're going. This isn't like a, I got to get to some destination and if 165 00:11:28.160 --> 00:11:34.560 I don't get there by a certain time, like I'm not good enough. No, this is about us growing as we're 166 00:11:34.560 --> 00:11:41.280 going, like to continue to keep moving and knowing that God will continue to heal us as we go, as we 167 00:11:41.280 --> 00:11:50.080 keep seeking him for that. So I want you to think about this question. Who told you that you were naked? 168 00:11:53.280 --> 00:11:59.600 And what I mean specifically by that is that, you know, we're going to go into the Genesis 169 00:11:59.600 --> 00:12:04.800 chapter 3 story here for just a moment. Verse 8 through 11, this is what it says. 170 00:12:04.800 --> 00:12:08.800 Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the 171 00:12:08.800 --> 00:12:13.680 cool of the day and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. But the Lord God 172 00:12:13.680 --> 00:12:22.160 called to the man, where are you? Adam answered, I heard you in the garden and I was afraid 173 00:12:23.120 --> 00:12:32.080 because I was naked. So I hid. Verse 11, God saying back to Adam, who told you that you were naked? 174 00:12:32.080 --> 00:12:37.600 Have you eaten from the tree that I commanded you to not eat from? And I love to pose this question 175 00:12:37.600 --> 00:12:43.120 because this is something that God actually spoke to me personally. When he was giving me some 176 00:12:43.120 --> 00:12:49.280 healing and revelation, he started talking to me about, you know, who told you that? Who told you 177 00:12:49.280 --> 00:12:55.200 that? You know, this whole, who told you you were naked? Who told me that I had to be afraid, if you 178 00:12:55.200 --> 00:13:01.120 will, of God in the garden? You know, that even the worst parts of myself, that I don't have to hide 179 00:13:01.120 --> 00:13:06.800 those from him, but the enemy tries to cause us to believe that we do. So if you're battling with 180 00:13:06.800 --> 00:13:11.120 shame or guilt or condemnation, like this is an amazing scripture for you to consider. 181 00:13:12.640 --> 00:13:20.960 Adam and Eve hid. Well, why? Think about it. Because they were feeling shame the first time 182 00:13:20.960 --> 00:13:28.880 ever in the Bible, that shame appears. But God goes on, if you all, you know, continue to read 183 00:13:28.880 --> 00:13:38.160 that story, he not only calls them out, but he covers them. Right? So I want you to think about 184 00:13:38.160 --> 00:13:43.280 that as you're in the heart healing process. Like some of you all, God is going to ask you to do a 185 00:13:43.280 --> 00:13:47.600 post and get really vulnerable with some things that you've been struggling with, things that you 186 00:13:47.600 --> 00:13:53.040 want to leave behind, things that you don't want to carry into tomorrow with you. And I want to 187 00:13:53.040 --> 00:14:00.640 encourage you to not be afraid to allow people to see you, like to see even the hard parts and to 188 00:14:00.640 --> 00:14:07.520 allow yourself to experience for maybe the first time for some of you ever to be fully seen and 189 00:14:07.520 --> 00:14:15.440 fully loved and accepted without judgment. That is what happens in this community over and over and 190 00:14:15.440 --> 00:14:20.240 over again. I've had women confess things that they've not confessed to anyone else. And I want 191 00:14:20.240 --> 00:14:25.200 you to know that this is a safe space for you. If that is something that God leads you to do, 192 00:14:25.200 --> 00:14:30.240 I want you to know we're going to care for you. And we're going to encourage you to heal and grow 193 00:14:30.240 --> 00:14:35.120 from that. But this is a place where you can express that if that does apply to you at any time. 194 00:14:36.960 --> 00:14:41.840 I want to encourage you in the coming out of hiding, the showing up fully in the world. Well, 195 00:14:41.840 --> 00:14:46.880 how do we become the real us? Well, we learn how to actually not hide parts of ourselves. 196 00:14:46.880 --> 00:14:50.640 And even right now, I hear the Lord saying, like, there's parts of some of you where, 197 00:14:50.640 --> 00:14:55.280 you know, you were, I just keep seeing someone singing. I don't know if any of you all, 198 00:14:55.280 --> 00:14:59.760 maybe you love to sing as a kid and someone said something to you and you just started 199 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:04.080 shutting down your voice, um, I feel like you're going to sing again. 200 00:15:04.160 --> 00:15:04.800 I don't know. 201 00:15:04.800 --> 00:15:06.300 Again, I don't know who that's for. 202 00:15:06.300 --> 00:15:10.840 Again, it could be someone on the replay or that we'll watch this later, but God 203 00:15:10.840 --> 00:15:13.100 sees you and he wants you to sing again. 204 00:15:13.120 --> 00:15:17.960 But part of that process will be healing from the things that were said to you. 205 00:15:18.700 --> 00:15:23.080 When you were trying to sing and just be yourself and, and you were just trying to 206 00:15:23.080 --> 00:15:26.280 be full of joy or maybe for you, it's dancing. 207 00:15:26.280 --> 00:15:29.200 I don't know, like whatever that thing is for you. 208 00:15:30.720 --> 00:15:34.760 That got squashed by someone else, whether it was a parent, a former spouse, 209 00:15:34.760 --> 00:15:42.000 maybe it was a teacher, some people that are, you know, really jokesters and 210 00:15:42.000 --> 00:15:47.580 silly are that way, but also some people become that way because that is their 211 00:15:47.580 --> 00:15:52.280 coping mechanism regarding the pain that they've been through. 212 00:15:52.280 --> 00:15:54.520 So they shift into like comedy and things. 213 00:15:54.520 --> 00:15:56.280 Some people are just naturally funny. 214 00:15:56.640 --> 00:16:00.360 Um, and I do think that that is a part of the way God puts that stuff in 215 00:16:00.360 --> 00:16:02.480 people, because I think God is fun. 216 00:16:02.920 --> 00:16:03.400 I do. 217 00:16:03.400 --> 00:16:08.040 I think he has a fun personality and he wants to show that to people in the world. 218 00:16:08.360 --> 00:16:12.800 But if that stuff was squashed, even down in you, again, these are just 219 00:16:12.800 --> 00:16:18.760 ideas, maybe for you, it's something else, but I really want you to pray into how 220 00:16:18.760 --> 00:16:24.920 can you start to show up more and be yourself to allow those things that were 221 00:16:24.920 --> 00:16:30.280 pushed down by other people to come out to play again, coming out of hiding is 222 00:16:30.280 --> 00:16:32.200 this is the actual definition of it. 223 00:16:32.920 --> 00:16:39.760 Being authentic, present, engaged in life, intentionally choosing to be fully 224 00:16:39.760 --> 00:16:44.680 present in the moment, recognizing your true self and actively participating in 225 00:16:44.680 --> 00:16:51.640 life with purpose and intention, not holding anything back. 226 00:16:52.160 --> 00:16:55.360 How many of you shrank back because you're afraid that someone's 227 00:16:55.360 --> 00:16:56.680 not going to like your opinion? 228 00:16:57.240 --> 00:17:00.800 I know that that happens on a re on the regular with people. 229 00:17:02.880 --> 00:17:05.440 When we show up as our authentic selves, we often give other people 230 00:17:05.440 --> 00:17:07.520 permission to do the same. 231 00:17:07.839 --> 00:17:11.599 We're all on a journey every single day to grow into the understanding of who God 232 00:17:11.599 --> 00:17:14.640 originally created us to be before those trauma and wounds. 233 00:17:14.640 --> 00:17:18.599 And so again, remember it's grace after grace, after grace, you're growing as 234 00:17:18.720 --> 00:17:21.319 after grace, after grace, you're growing as you're going. 235 00:17:21.680 --> 00:17:24.560 Is there any part of yourself where you do tend to hold back? 236 00:17:24.599 --> 00:17:28.960 As I was talking about with people, even when they're safe people, this isn't 237 00:17:28.960 --> 00:17:31.080 just toxic people that we hold back. 238 00:17:31.280 --> 00:17:35.080 Some of us hold back parts of ourselves, even around safe people. 239 00:17:35.440 --> 00:17:38.400 Um, and what else is coming up in my spirit is I have this friend. 240 00:17:39.400 --> 00:17:43.120 She actually originally was in the program and over the years, um, have 241 00:17:43.120 --> 00:17:46.920 spent a lot of time with her and, uh, coached her quite a bit. 242 00:17:47.240 --> 00:17:55.800 And one of the things that she said to me when we were coaching is that, um, she 243 00:17:55.800 --> 00:18:00.720 used to love to read books, but got teased for it as a kid. 244 00:18:00.760 --> 00:18:04.720 And, and part of the reason she started reading the books was a coping mechanism 245 00:18:04.720 --> 00:18:05.080 herself. 246 00:18:05.080 --> 00:18:10.920 She didn't know it as a kid, but she like isolated and withdrew and would 247 00:18:10.920 --> 00:18:14.840 start reading, reading, reading, and the other kids would like make fun of her. 248 00:18:15.120 --> 00:18:18.360 And so she kind of coined herself as weird. 249 00:18:18.960 --> 00:18:21.840 She believed the lie from the enemy that she was weird. 250 00:18:22.400 --> 00:18:25.760 And so we were coaching this one time and she's like, I know this is really weird. 251 00:18:25.760 --> 00:18:28.400 And she was like talking about something about reading books. 252 00:18:28.920 --> 00:18:31.560 And I was like, let's, let's, let's go back there for a minute. 253 00:18:32.200 --> 00:18:33.240 Why is that weird? 254 00:18:33.800 --> 00:18:34.800 I don't think it's weird. 255 00:18:36.120 --> 00:18:40.800 And it like stopped her in her tracks because where did that come from? 256 00:18:41.480 --> 00:18:45.560 So that's how we got to the unpacking it that even when she was younger, when she 257 00:18:45.560 --> 00:18:50.080 first experienced some pretty major trauma, that was one of the coping 258 00:18:50.080 --> 00:18:55.760 mechanisms that she started utilizing and then got made fun of for that part. 259 00:18:55.760 --> 00:18:58.600 Like she didn't interact with other kids a lot. 260 00:18:59.240 --> 00:19:01.560 And again, like she kind of was an outsider. 261 00:19:02.960 --> 00:19:06.680 She struggled to kind of fully show up in the world. 262 00:19:06.960 --> 00:19:09.960 And so for some of you, those are the kinds of things that I believe the Lord 263 00:19:09.960 --> 00:19:14.760 wants to reveal that, you know, these, these mechanisms started to happen at a 264 00:19:14.760 --> 00:19:19.520 young age and maybe other people didn't fully understand us, or maybe we struggled 265 00:19:19.520 --> 00:19:20.880 to connect with people. 266 00:19:21.120 --> 00:19:25.440 And so we, the enemy labeled us and we partnered with him. 267 00:19:25.440 --> 00:19:27.080 We believed the lie. 268 00:19:27.640 --> 00:19:31.440 And we started calling ourselves stupid, weird. 269 00:19:31.800 --> 00:19:32.760 I'm just shy. 270 00:19:33.000 --> 00:19:33.600 I'm just shy. 271 00:19:33.600 --> 00:19:35.960 You guys don't know how many times I hear people say that. 272 00:19:36.720 --> 00:19:41.080 Do I believe that some people have aspects of themselves that maybe they are more 273 00:19:41.080 --> 00:19:41.600 reserved? 274 00:19:41.680 --> 00:19:42.440 Sure. 275 00:19:42.880 --> 00:19:50.680 But I've coached long enough to know now that shy is also a coping mechanism. 276 00:19:50.680 --> 00:19:52.440 It's a learned behavior. 277 00:19:55.680 --> 00:19:59.520 And so what would happen if we just started not questioning everything, but like 278 00:19:59.520 --> 00:20:00.040 questioning. 279 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:04.960 thing like, okay, when did I start becoming shy? When did I 280 00:20:10.200 --> 00:20:15.400 didn't mean to be? Or did you create me to be something 281 00:20:15.400 --> 00:20:19.280 different or something more? And excuse me, and I'm just not 282 00:20:19.280 --> 00:20:23.080 living into that. Because of pain or trauma or things people 283 00:20:23.080 --> 00:20:27.440 said to me, doubts I've had about myself. Again, this is 284 00:20:27.440 --> 00:20:30.160 about us stepping into the real us. But first, we have to 285 00:20:30.160 --> 00:20:34.920 discover where are we not fully living? Where are we not really 286 00:20:34.920 --> 00:20:41.520 alive? And in our world today, here's the reality as well. We 287 00:20:41.520 --> 00:20:44.780 live in this online world, right? We can show up in these 288 00:20:44.780 --> 00:20:51.160 live sessions and be alive, and fun and smile and be happy. But 289 00:20:51.160 --> 00:20:54.480 then when we have to encounter people in the real world, we're 290 00:20:54.480 --> 00:20:57.320 like, Oh, I don't know about you guys. But the more that I'm 291 00:20:57.320 --> 00:21:01.140 only online working from home, I go out and all of a sudden 292 00:21:01.140 --> 00:21:04.160 something that used to feel normal and common, all of a 293 00:21:04.160 --> 00:21:08.560 sudden feels a little like, Oh, this is kind of I haven't been 294 00:21:08.560 --> 00:21:12.120 out to a store in a long time. I just buy everything from Amazon 295 00:21:12.120 --> 00:21:15.560 y'all just have it shipped to my house. I don't even I just order 296 00:21:15.560 --> 00:21:18.040 my groceries. My husband goes and picks them up and we bring 297 00:21:18.040 --> 00:21:20.960 them home. Like, you know, and I'm not saying those are bad 298 00:21:20.960 --> 00:21:23.900 things. I'm so grateful that I can order my groceries and we 299 00:21:23.900 --> 00:21:29.860 can pick them up because it saves me time. But see how we're 300 00:21:29.860 --> 00:21:33.340 kind of leaning into that and then we start to struggle. So 301 00:21:33.340 --> 00:21:37.780 even as young kids think about it, if we pulled back in any way 302 00:21:38.060 --> 00:21:43.100 and then we try to reengage so many times, most likely we had 303 00:21:43.100 --> 00:21:46.580 some level of awkwardness or I don't know about this. And if 304 00:21:46.620 --> 00:21:50.940 anyone said anything to us, that was remotely negative, it 305 00:21:50.940 --> 00:21:57.460 reinforced our fear internally that we were having. I know, I 306 00:21:57.460 --> 00:22:00.260 know this to be true, because I've lived it. And I feel like 307 00:22:00.260 --> 00:22:04.620 God just has me kind of honing in on this tonight. So if any of 308 00:22:04.620 --> 00:22:07.440 you had boyfriends, this is kind of coming up in my spirit to 309 00:22:07.740 --> 00:22:13.500 boyfriends in high school. Something happened that you got 310 00:22:13.500 --> 00:22:16.660 embarrassed in front of other people. I don't I don't know 311 00:22:16.700 --> 00:22:19.440 what the dynamic is. I remember I don't know if I've ever told 312 00:22:19.440 --> 00:22:22.480 this story. But it's coming up in my spirit. So I'm just going 313 00:22:22.480 --> 00:22:26.200 to share it quickly. I was at I was with a bunch of friends in 314 00:22:26.200 --> 00:22:30.040 high school. And back back in the day, you know, I think I 315 00:22:30.040 --> 00:22:32.080 don't know if kids still play this or not. I don't even know 316 00:22:32.080 --> 00:22:35.800 they just play online games, I think. But um, you know, we were 317 00:22:35.800 --> 00:22:39.320 playing truth or dare. And I didn't really want to play but 318 00:22:39.320 --> 00:22:42.120 everybody else was playing. And so I'm in this group of people 319 00:22:42.120 --> 00:22:46.840 and somebody dared me to do something and I had to stand up 320 00:22:46.840 --> 00:22:52.280 to do it. And this girl that was supposed to be my best 321 00:22:52.280 --> 00:22:59.800 friend pulled my shorts down in front of everyone. Y'all I was 322 00:22:59.840 --> 00:23:04.600 mortified. There were boys in this circle of people. That was 323 00:23:04.600 --> 00:23:07.840 definitely not something that I thought was funny. They were all 324 00:23:07.840 --> 00:23:13.360 laughing. They thought it was hilarious. And I got so mad. I 325 00:23:13.360 --> 00:23:16.160 ended up storming out of the house. It was pouring down rain 326 00:23:16.160 --> 00:23:19.200 literally I was walking down the street crying in the pouring 327 00:23:19.200 --> 00:23:21.680 rain and my friends are driving the car trying to get me back 328 00:23:21.680 --> 00:23:25.320 in. I'm like, No, like I'm not going back there. Like I was so 329 00:23:25.560 --> 00:23:29.760 mad. And I'm sharing this story because it's the same friend I 330 00:23:29.760 --> 00:23:33.880 tell another story about in one of our other sessions that 331 00:23:34.320 --> 00:23:38.200 shoved me into a bathroom at one point, put a ball down my shirt 332 00:23:38.200 --> 00:23:40.920 and then told another boy to go after the ball. So this was a 333 00:23:40.920 --> 00:23:46.240 friend that for some reason, the enemy really used her to 334 00:23:46.240 --> 00:23:51.400 like, put me in these really awkward situations. And it had 335 00:23:51.400 --> 00:23:57.320 sexual nature connected to it, right. And because of the abuse 336 00:23:57.320 --> 00:24:00.240 and the things I had gone through, like when she pulled my 337 00:24:00.240 --> 00:24:04.400 pants down in front of everyone, like it just like went into all 338 00:24:04.640 --> 00:24:09.360 the trauma. And so that's why like I just had to like I now 339 00:24:09.360 --> 00:24:13.200 hindsight, I had a panic attack, I could not, like I 340 00:24:13.200 --> 00:24:16.920 could not even deal with what was happening in that place. And 341 00:24:16.920 --> 00:24:20.200 so I'm, again, I literally don't think in five years I've ever 342 00:24:20.200 --> 00:24:24.160 told that story. So it is clearly for someone I want you 343 00:24:24.160 --> 00:24:28.320 to know that God has helped me process those things. And know 344 00:24:28.320 --> 00:24:33.880 that I was not weird. I wasn't the one that was doing something 345 00:24:33.880 --> 00:24:38.280 that was weird that night. And I won't even label her as weird. I 346 00:24:38.280 --> 00:24:41.880 don't know why she did it. Probably to get a rise out of 347 00:24:41.880 --> 00:24:46.000 everybody. I don't know. Maybe it was to embarrass me. I don't 348 00:24:46.000 --> 00:24:49.000 know if my she was supposed to be my best friend. I don't know 349 00:24:49.000 --> 00:24:52.600 if she just wanted to bring me down a level. I really don't 350 00:24:52.600 --> 00:24:55.480 know the intention of her heart, but it's okay. I don't have to. 351 00:24:56.160 --> 00:24:59.960 I really don't have to know. All I know is that in that moment, I 352 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:06.360 I remember feeling weird because I was walking in the rain and I just could not like, I couldn't 353 00:25:06.360 --> 00:25:13.040 let any of my friends kind of get close to me in that moment because it didn't feel safe. 354 00:25:13.040 --> 00:25:18.200 And so back then, I didn't know how to even deal with that because then I have to go back 355 00:25:18.200 --> 00:25:21.080 around all those people and try to act normal, right? 356 00:25:21.080 --> 00:25:23.520 But I didn't feel normal. 357 00:25:23.520 --> 00:25:24.920 I felt weird. 358 00:25:24.920 --> 00:25:27.000 I felt strange. 359 00:25:27.000 --> 00:25:29.800 And I felt embarrassed at the core, right? 360 00:25:29.800 --> 00:25:31.360 And not loved. 361 00:25:31.360 --> 00:25:36.640 And so we have to work through these things and I could have very easily went into hiding. 362 00:25:36.640 --> 00:25:42.000 I will tell you that I was not as close to that friend after that because that again, 363 00:25:42.000 --> 00:25:44.480 that was the second incident with her. 364 00:25:44.480 --> 00:25:47.760 And there were a lot of other things that were going on in that relationship and friendship 365 00:25:47.760 --> 00:25:49.960 is not healthy. 366 00:25:49.960 --> 00:25:55.840 And so I learned how to make other healthier friends. 367 00:25:55.840 --> 00:25:58.400 And I pulled back from that friendship. 368 00:25:58.400 --> 00:26:00.680 There's a song and I'll post this one again. 369 00:26:00.680 --> 00:26:03.800 I don't know if you guys got to hear the one from last week that I put up in the group, 370 00:26:03.800 --> 00:26:06.400 but it is there if you didn't get a chance to hear it. 371 00:26:06.400 --> 00:26:09.020 Zach Williams, Fear is a Liar. 372 00:26:09.020 --> 00:26:13.160 But the one for this week is Out of Hiding by Stephanie Gretzinger. 373 00:26:13.160 --> 00:26:15.480 And it's literally all about coming out of hiding. 374 00:26:15.480 --> 00:26:16.760 I'm going to put the link up. 375 00:26:16.760 --> 00:26:18.400 You guys can listen to it. 376 00:26:18.400 --> 00:26:24.080 What it meant like meditate as you're hearing God speak to you again, what ways do you need 377 00:26:24.080 --> 00:26:25.280 to come out of hiding? 378 00:26:25.280 --> 00:26:30.240 What areas and stories do you have like mine that even like that, like I don't think about 379 00:26:30.240 --> 00:26:36.560 that story very often, but here it is tonight, right? 380 00:26:36.560 --> 00:26:41.400 But I can also bless those people and know that that's all a part of my story and that 381 00:26:41.400 --> 00:26:45.280 I have learned to overcome even those difficult moments. 382 00:26:45.280 --> 00:26:49.240 So what you align with matters, ladies, okay? 383 00:26:49.240 --> 00:26:51.040 That's kind of the point I'm getting at. 384 00:26:51.040 --> 00:26:54.400 That night, I didn't know how to not align with that I'm weird. 385 00:26:54.400 --> 00:26:58.200 This is like, you know, all these negative things that I was hearing. 386 00:26:58.200 --> 00:27:03.640 But as I started healing over these, you know, however many years since then, I've learned 387 00:27:03.640 --> 00:27:06.240 that again, that was a coping mechanism. 388 00:27:06.240 --> 00:27:12.840 I actually like had a normal response to something that was traumatic to me because it also linked 389 00:27:12.840 --> 00:27:16.400 to my other trauma. 390 00:27:16.400 --> 00:27:20.800 And so I stopped judging myself. 391 00:27:20.800 --> 00:27:24.280 And I think that's really important for so many of you is like, how much grace are you 392 00:27:24.280 --> 00:27:26.040 extending to yourself? 393 00:27:26.040 --> 00:27:30.040 Are you being really hard on yourself all the time? 394 00:27:30.040 --> 00:27:35.840 Or are you saying, hey, like, man, and like going back to the younger version, like that's 395 00:27:35.840 --> 00:27:40.000 what I had to do go back to that younger version of myself and just love myself when other 396 00:27:40.000 --> 00:27:43.280 people weren't loving me. 397 00:27:43.280 --> 00:27:47.160 And really honor myself in that moment. 398 00:27:47.160 --> 00:27:52.160 And love myself out of hiding and into wholeness into the light. 399 00:27:52.160 --> 00:27:55.480 So what are what are your thoughts right now currently aligning with? 400 00:27:55.480 --> 00:27:58.920 Do you tell yourself that you're stupid? 401 00:27:58.920 --> 00:28:01.140 I don't know if you guys have ever done this. 402 00:28:01.140 --> 00:28:02.320 So y'all can raise your hand. 403 00:28:02.320 --> 00:28:03.480 Let's we'll get everybody. 404 00:28:03.480 --> 00:28:05.400 Let's see how many people do this. 405 00:28:05.400 --> 00:28:09.360 Okay, I have improved so much on this you all. 406 00:28:09.360 --> 00:28:15.400 But how many of you in this zoom room have ever run into a wall and told the wall you're 407 00:28:15.400 --> 00:28:19.760 sorry, anyone, anyone? 408 00:28:19.760 --> 00:28:25.120 I got a couple people that are saying, yep, I've done it. 409 00:28:25.120 --> 00:28:28.400 I used to do it all the time. 410 00:28:28.400 --> 00:28:32.940 I have no clue why I was telling a wall that I was sorry. 411 00:28:32.940 --> 00:28:38.320 But I was running into, you know, things and like, not even realizing I was saying I was 412 00:28:38.320 --> 00:28:39.320 sorry to all. 413 00:28:39.320 --> 00:28:41.400 Well, this seems like such a silly thing. 414 00:28:41.400 --> 00:28:42.920 But here's the reality. 415 00:28:42.920 --> 00:28:45.840 It wasn't just the wall. 416 00:28:45.840 --> 00:28:51.480 I was apologizing for things that I didn't even do. 417 00:28:51.480 --> 00:28:56.200 Apologizing for other people taking their responsibilities on myself. 418 00:28:56.200 --> 00:29:03.040 And I just did it so much that it also came out when I would run into the wall. 419 00:29:03.920 --> 00:29:06.600 Basically, I was sorry for existing. 420 00:29:09.600 --> 00:29:11.840 That's the reality, some of us, that's where we're at. 421 00:29:13.560 --> 00:29:18.920 But we have to be willing to really look at like, I'm just asking you all to take a really 422 00:29:18.920 --> 00:29:19.800 good look at your heart. 423 00:29:20.840 --> 00:29:27.080 And you want to allow the Lord again, we're not digging, but we are really asking the 424 00:29:27.080 --> 00:29:30.640 Lord to reveal every area for healing and it's perfect timing. 425 00:29:30.680 --> 00:29:39.120 Kind of like no holds barred, like go all in and just be open to letting God open the 426 00:29:39.120 --> 00:29:42.040 Pandora's box and don't be afraid, if you will. 427 00:29:43.200 --> 00:29:45.000 Because it's going to set you free. 428 00:29:45.440 --> 00:29:49.480 And these stories, these things that I'm telling you tonight, these are these are all 429 00:29:49.480 --> 00:29:50.720 different little things, but you know what? 430 00:29:50.720 --> 00:29:52.800 They all added up to big things. 431 00:29:54.400 --> 00:29:59.280 And so when we allow God to heal even the little things, the things that we might even 432 00:29:59.280 --> 00:30:00.080 think, well, that's. 433 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:05.500 That's kind of silly. That's just something I say. My family has always done that or said that. 434 00:30:05.500 --> 00:30:13.000 Well, is that what God wants you to say and continue to claim over yourself and your family? 435 00:30:13.000 --> 00:30:19.000 You know, like we partner with, you know, I've just always been in debt. 436 00:30:19.000 --> 00:30:21.000 But God has more for you. 437 00:30:21.000 --> 00:30:25.500 So come out of hiding. What are, you know, again, what are your thoughts currently aligning with? 438 00:30:25.500 --> 00:30:30.000 Are they aligning with heaven and the sound of heaven, the thoughts of heaven? 439 00:30:30.000 --> 00:30:33.000 And you might say, well, I don't even know for sure what heaven is saying. 440 00:30:33.000 --> 00:30:41.500 Well, the word of God is a great place to start because it is the heart of the Father expressed through the living word. 441 00:30:41.500 --> 00:30:44.500 And it is definitely the voice of heaven. 442 00:30:44.500 --> 00:30:49.500 So here's the reality, ladies. I don't know if you knew this or not, but you are a supernova. 443 00:30:49.500 --> 00:30:51.500 Yes, you. 444 00:30:51.500 --> 00:31:00.500 So Catherine, you are a supernova. Tatiana, Amy, Melissa, Diana, almost said Diana. 445 00:31:00.500 --> 00:31:04.500 So sorry. All of you all, all of you beautiful ladies are supernovas. 446 00:31:04.500 --> 00:31:11.500 And so what that means is you are, you're literally carrying something inside of yourself to change the world. 447 00:31:11.500 --> 00:31:14.500 And some of us, you know, we get overwhelmed with that thought. 448 00:31:14.500 --> 00:31:18.500 And so I want to remind you, changing the world can be one person at a time. 449 00:31:18.500 --> 00:31:21.500 And that one, that first person can be you. 450 00:31:21.500 --> 00:31:27.500 And the more that you heal and grow, what will happen is organically, you're going to impact the people around you. 451 00:31:27.500 --> 00:31:32.500 Matthew 5 verses 14 through 16 in the message translation says this. 452 00:31:32.500 --> 00:31:36.500 Here's another way to put it. You're here to be light, bringing out the God colors in the world. 453 00:31:36.500 --> 00:31:39.500 God is not a secret to be kept. We're going public with this. 454 00:31:39.500 --> 00:31:41.500 As public as a city on a hill. 455 00:31:41.500 --> 00:31:45.500 If I make you light bearers, you don't think I'm going to hide you under a bucket, do you? 456 00:31:45.500 --> 00:31:47.500 I'm putting you on a light stand. 457 00:31:47.500 --> 00:31:56.500 Now that I've put you there on a hilltop, on a light stand, shine, keep open house, be generous with your lives. 458 00:31:56.500 --> 00:32:04.500 By opening up to others, you'll prompt people to open up with God, this generous father in heaven. 459 00:32:04.500 --> 00:32:06.500 Did you catch that? 460 00:32:06.500 --> 00:32:12.500 By opening up to others, you'll prompt people to open up with God. 461 00:32:12.500 --> 00:32:14.500 Keep open house, ladies. 462 00:32:14.500 --> 00:32:17.500 Romans 8, 37 through 39 says this. 463 00:32:17.500 --> 00:32:20.500 Know in all these things, we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 464 00:32:20.500 --> 00:32:33.500 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, nor the present nor the future, nor any powers, not height nor depth, nor principalities nor powers, not anything in the present, remember? 465 00:32:33.500 --> 00:32:40.500 Nothing in all of creation will be able to separate us from the love of God in Christ Jesus, our Lord. 466 00:32:40.500 --> 00:32:44.500 But so often we believe the lie that he has left us. 467 00:32:44.500 --> 00:32:45.500 He's forsaken us. 468 00:32:45.500 --> 00:32:47.500 He's not going to fulfill his promise. 469 00:32:47.500 --> 00:32:48.500 He's a liar. 470 00:32:48.500 --> 00:32:49.500 He dangles carrots. 471 00:32:49.500 --> 00:32:51.500 He's a trickster. 472 00:32:51.500 --> 00:32:55.500 Y'all, tricksters don't love. 473 00:32:55.500 --> 00:32:58.500 God himself is love. 474 00:32:58.500 --> 00:33:01.500 He cannot deny who he is. 475 00:33:01.500 --> 00:33:05.500 His love does not stop for you. 476 00:33:05.500 --> 00:33:09.500 It is unconditional, ever flowing. 477 00:33:09.500 --> 00:33:28.500 It's us learning how to receive his love, to receive his healing, and step into that place where we see things differently because we see them through the lens of love versus rejection and abandonment and whatever other negative thing there is. 478 00:33:28.500 --> 00:33:31.500 So if God is for you, who can be against you? 479 00:33:31.500 --> 00:33:36.500 If God is for your love story, who can be against it, ladies? 480 00:33:36.500 --> 00:33:40.500 But see, again, we partner with all the doubt, the unbelief. 481 00:33:40.500 --> 00:33:48.500 And again, I understand why we do, but at some point we have to get to the place where we choose to stop partnering with that stuff. 482 00:33:48.500 --> 00:33:49.500 It's time. 483 00:33:49.500 --> 00:33:55.500 It's time for you to step into the fullness of everything God has for you. 484 00:33:55.500 --> 00:33:57.500 So it is your time, ladies. 485 00:33:58.500 --> 00:34:08.500 So I want you to just write on your papers if you are able, if you're somewhere where you have paper, or on your phone, if you're driving, obviously don't do this, but just listen and go back and do it later. 486 00:34:08.500 --> 00:34:13.500 I want you to write, it's your time. 487 00:34:13.500 --> 00:34:16.500 And I want you to write your full name. 488 00:34:16.500 --> 00:34:19.500 It's your time, Ariane. 489 00:34:19.500 --> 00:34:22.500 It's your time, Amy Groves. 490 00:34:22.500 --> 00:34:24.500 It's your time, Amanda Morrison. 491 00:34:24.500 --> 00:34:27.500 That's how I want y'all to do it for yourself. 492 00:34:27.500 --> 00:34:33.500 And I really would love for y'all to, even this week, I just feel like this is going to help some of y'all, write it out and put it up. 493 00:34:33.500 --> 00:34:37.500 Remind yourself, it's your time, Melissa. 494 00:34:37.500 --> 00:34:43.500 But put your last name, too, so you're kind of declaring it, the fullness of who you are. 495 00:34:43.500 --> 00:34:47.500 It's time for the princesses on the inside of you to awaken. 496 00:34:47.500 --> 00:34:51.500 And so I'm going to give you your first activation for this week as well. 497 00:34:51.500 --> 00:34:53.500 We're going to do two. 498 00:34:54.500 --> 00:34:56.500 We're going to do two. 499 00:34:56.500 --> 00:34:58.500 We're going to do two. 500 00:34:58.500 --> 00:35:00.500 We're going to do two. 501 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:04.320 out when we do this session. And I feel led to do it again. So I 502 00:35:04.320 --> 00:35:08.960 want to encourage you all to get some princess gear. So I want 503 00:35:08.960 --> 00:35:12.840 you to really pray and ask God what you're supposed to get. It 504 00:35:12.840 --> 00:35:19.040 might be a tiara, it might be, you know, a veil that makes you 505 00:35:19.040 --> 00:35:22.480 feel like a princess, it might be really sparkly shoes, like 506 00:35:22.480 --> 00:35:26.220 you get to decide. I do feel like there's something about 507 00:35:26.220 --> 00:35:29.200 getting a tiara and putting it on and seeing yourself with it 508 00:35:29.200 --> 00:35:32.180 on. Some of our ladies that are here right now have done this 509 00:35:32.180 --> 00:35:36.460 already. And so even if you are one of those ladies, put in the 510 00:35:36.460 --> 00:35:40.360 chat, like tell the ladies, how did that go for you? How did 511 00:35:40.360 --> 00:35:43.580 that help you? What were some things you felt, you know, and I 512 00:35:43.580 --> 00:35:46.020 know sometimes we can hear these things and just feel kind of 513 00:35:46.020 --> 00:35:49.780 silly, but you all, there's something about like, the 514 00:35:49.780 --> 00:35:57.700 reality of okay, going from I'm a daughter to I'm a princess. 515 00:35:58.640 --> 00:36:01.760 And in our culture today, a lot of people are all like, queen 516 00:36:01.760 --> 00:36:07.560 this, queen that. And I'm not, I'm not mocking that. But so 517 00:36:07.560 --> 00:36:10.480 many people are trying to be queens, and they've not even 518 00:36:10.480 --> 00:36:14.160 learned to be a princess or a daughter. Y'all, we can't be a 519 00:36:14.160 --> 00:36:20.740 queen and stand in authority and command things, you know, like 520 00:36:20.740 --> 00:36:25.440 the Bible declares, if we don't even connect as a daughter. Do 521 00:36:25.540 --> 00:36:32.300 you see how that just doesn't work? It'd be like back in the 522 00:36:32.300 --> 00:36:35.100 day, you know, they have this signet ring to seal something. 523 00:36:37.140 --> 00:36:40.260 It would be like trying to sign a letter with no signet ring. 524 00:36:42.780 --> 00:36:46.660 And God wants you to start with the basics, daughter, princess, 525 00:36:46.820 --> 00:36:50.140 start to feel what like, okay, look at myself as a princess, 526 00:36:50.140 --> 00:36:54.460 start to understand that God declares that you as a spirit 527 00:36:54.460 --> 00:36:58.440 maid as a wife, when a man finds a wife, he found has found 528 00:36:58.440 --> 00:37:04.360 a good thing. Like you crown his life with goodness. But if you 529 00:37:04.360 --> 00:37:07.480 don't believe that, you know, for yourself about yourself, 530 00:37:08.520 --> 00:37:11.920 well, then you're probably going to pick a guy that doesn't treat 531 00:37:11.920 --> 00:37:18.080 you that way. Do you see how that works? All right, Ephesians 532 00:37:18.080 --> 00:37:24.000 514 says this, awake, awake, O sleeper, and rise from the dead 533 00:37:24.020 --> 00:37:29.520 and Christ will shine on you awaken to true love's kiss, the 534 00:37:29.520 --> 00:37:33.360 kiss from heaven awakening you to deeper understanding deeper 535 00:37:33.360 --> 00:37:38.180 revelation of who God is his true plan for you awakening to 536 00:37:38.180 --> 00:37:41.860 your true God given identity that awakening to restoration 537 00:37:41.860 --> 00:37:44.940 that rebuilding of God, what he's doing in your life, 538 00:37:45.360 --> 00:37:49.380 awakening to big bold future like the dreams awakening within 539 00:37:49.380 --> 00:37:53.540 you. But also the dreams that y'all have had a kind of touch 540 00:37:53.540 --> 00:37:58.340 on this earlier, childhood dreams coming back to life, new 541 00:37:58.340 --> 00:38:02.540 dreams being birthed. Some of y'all have contemplated and, and 542 00:38:02.540 --> 00:38:07.600 thought about starting something new. Something you've always 543 00:38:07.600 --> 00:38:10.480 dreamed on, but something always convinces you you're not good 544 00:38:10.480 --> 00:38:14.420 enough. And God may lead you to start to step into that in the 545 00:38:14.420 --> 00:38:18.820 future. We all have to choose what to believe. So the question 546 00:38:18.820 --> 00:38:21.980 is, again, you know, what are you going to choose to believe 547 00:38:21.980 --> 00:38:25.940 like, whose report? Do you believe? Do you believe the 548 00:38:25.940 --> 00:38:29.020 report of the Lord and his love for you? Or do you believe the 549 00:38:29.020 --> 00:38:33.000 report of the enemy declaring things over you? So in our 550 00:38:33.000 --> 00:38:37.260 world, we also have a lot of like things where they get us 551 00:38:37.260 --> 00:38:40.860 off track and three things that I found for women. And this 552 00:38:40.860 --> 00:38:43.860 happens with men to you all. It's not just women, but I coach 553 00:38:43.860 --> 00:38:49.020 women, most of the time. In here, the three things are 554 00:38:49.020 --> 00:38:55.340 comparison, competition, or imitation. And sometimes the 555 00:38:55.340 --> 00:38:58.940 enemy will use one of these, sometimes he'll use all of them 556 00:38:58.980 --> 00:39:02.740 sometimes different seasons, I'll sense him attacking, you 557 00:39:02.740 --> 00:39:07.380 know, a different way than he did in the prior season. And so 558 00:39:07.380 --> 00:39:09.620 tonight, the question for you when you go into breakout 559 00:39:10.180 --> 00:39:15.460 session here in a moment is, which one of these is the enemy 560 00:39:15.460 --> 00:39:19.140 using in your life right now to challenge the real you from 561 00:39:19.140 --> 00:39:24.140 showing up? Comparison, competition, or imitation? It 562 00:39:24.140 --> 00:39:26.940 can be all three. So whatever your answer is, it's totally 563 00:39:26.940 --> 00:39:32.940 fine. But typically, I find that most women have one of these 564 00:39:32.940 --> 00:39:36.940 things showing up. We live in a social media driven worlds. 565 00:39:38.140 --> 00:39:44.300 There's a lot of people that daily are on line comparing 566 00:39:44.300 --> 00:39:48.460 themselves to someone's highlight reel. You have no clue 567 00:39:48.460 --> 00:39:51.740 what's going on behind the scenes there. Okay, remember 568 00:39:51.740 --> 00:39:55.140 that. Remember that. All right, here we go. I'm going to get 569 00:39:55.140 --> 00:39:56.460 breakout sessions ready. 570 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:08.640 We're just going to do a quick one tonight, ladies, okay? 571 00:40:08.640 --> 00:40:09.640 So like five minutes. 572 00:40:09.640 --> 00:40:10.640 So short, brief, and powerful. 573 00:40:10.640 --> 00:40:11.640 Let's see here. 574 00:40:11.640 --> 00:40:12.640 Who do I got in the rooms? 575 00:40:12.640 --> 00:40:23.640 I'm going to take it down. 576 00:40:23.640 --> 00:40:28.240 Hey, Bethany, someone's wanting you to repeat the assignment again. 577 00:40:28.240 --> 00:40:29.240 Oh, sure. 578 00:40:29.480 --> 00:40:30.480 Yeah, Alina. 579 00:40:30.480 --> 00:40:31.480 Awesome. 580 00:40:31.480 --> 00:40:37.360 So basically, comparison, competition, or imitation. 581 00:40:37.360 --> 00:40:44.720 Out of those three things, what is the enemy using to like war against the real you in 582 00:40:44.720 --> 00:40:45.720 this season? 583 00:40:45.720 --> 00:40:50.520 Like, is he using competition, getting you to compare yourself with other people, trying 584 00:40:50.520 --> 00:40:55.480 to convince you that, you know, you can't be good or whatever that is, but that comparison, 585 00:40:55.480 --> 00:40:56.480 competition, or imitation? 586 00:40:56.480 --> 00:40:57.480 All right, ladies. 587 00:40:57.960 --> 00:41:00.920 I'm going to go ahead and click this so that you can join. 588 00:41:00.920 --> 00:41:01.920 Go ahead. 589 00:41:01.920 --> 00:41:02.920 Five minutes. 590 00:41:02.920 --> 00:41:05.120 So try to click and join those as quick as you can. 591 00:41:05.120 --> 00:41:07.720 Keep those short, brief, and powerful. 592 00:41:07.720 --> 00:41:09.720 Father, thank you so much. 593 00:41:09.720 --> 00:41:12.680 As the ladies are joining these rooms, we thank you for the conversations that we're 594 00:41:12.680 --> 00:41:14.280 already having tonight. 595 00:41:14.280 --> 00:41:19.440 We thank you for leading us into fullness and truth and hope. 596 00:41:19.440 --> 00:41:23.440 Father, we just ask you to help us to hear what your spirit is saying. 597 00:41:23.840 --> 00:41:28.200 God, that we would trust you more and more and more in the days ahead. 598 00:41:28.200 --> 00:41:36.320 We thank you, God, for removing every false thought, every word spoken over us that was 599 00:41:36.320 --> 00:41:43.080 limiting, you know, by other people, as well as us partnering with limiting belief systems 600 00:41:43.080 --> 00:41:44.600 and thoughts about ourselves. 601 00:41:44.600 --> 00:41:48.320 God, we thank you that you're healing us from the inside out. 602 00:41:48.320 --> 00:41:52.600 We thank you, God, that you are redeeming the time and you're restoring every broken 603 00:41:52.600 --> 00:41:54.600 and fallen place in our lives. 604 00:41:54.600 --> 00:42:01.200 We thank you that, you know, you are leading us into wide open spaces and that you're continuing 605 00:42:01.200 --> 00:42:06.400 to help us to know more every day what your spirit is saying about us. 606 00:42:06.400 --> 00:42:12.840 We thank you, God, for, yeah, Lord, changing the lens that we see ourselves through. 607 00:42:12.840 --> 00:42:18.000 We know that, God, you've seen every aspect of our journeys. 608 00:42:18.000 --> 00:42:24.280 I thank you, God, that you'll help us to just continue to surrender the pen to you, 609 00:42:24.280 --> 00:42:30.480 to trust, God, that you're doing a good work in our lives and that you're not gonna quit. 610 00:42:30.480 --> 00:42:36.640 You're gonna keep working on us and building us up to step into the plan and the purpose 611 00:42:36.640 --> 00:42:38.280 that you have for us, Lord. 612 00:42:38.280 --> 00:42:40.000 Help us to not give up. 613 00:42:40.000 --> 00:42:43.120 Help us to not quit before we get to the finish lines, if you will. 614 00:42:43.440 --> 00:42:48.920 God, I thank you that you would just continue to renew the connection with you, first and foremost, 615 00:42:48.920 --> 00:42:55.040 that you would even like in Revelation, ladies, it talks about, you know, returning to our first love. 616 00:42:55.040 --> 00:43:00.360 And we do believe that God has a love story for you, but we believe the love story is the cherry on top. 617 00:43:00.360 --> 00:43:05.800 We genuinely believe that your relationship with the Lord is the most important thing. 618 00:43:05.800 --> 00:43:11.240 And the more that you heal and grow in your relationship with the Lord, we truly believe that God will. 619 00:43:11.240 --> 00:43:14.120 And you partner with him in the process of the things he's leading you to do. 620 00:43:14.120 --> 00:43:15.920 That's kind of key. 621 00:43:15.920 --> 00:43:20.680 The more that you will step into the fullness of God's plan for you, including that love story, 622 00:43:20.680 --> 00:43:22.120 that is possible for you. 623 00:43:22.120 --> 00:43:28.120 So no matter what you experienced in the past, God can rewrite your story. 624 00:43:28.120 --> 00:43:31.240 Genesis 50-20, this is kind of what I was referring to earlier. 625 00:43:31.240 --> 00:43:33.560 You intended harm to harm me. 626 00:43:33.560 --> 00:43:37.600 And in this scripture, it's not talking like God was trying to harm him. 627 00:43:37.600 --> 00:43:40.600 Joseph was talking to, like, his brothers. 628 00:43:40.600 --> 00:43:49.600 This was in the moment where Joseph's brothers had come back, you know, and this is when he, like, was talking to them and revealed who he was. 629 00:43:49.600 --> 00:43:53.600 You intended to harm me, but God intended it all for good. 630 00:43:53.600 --> 00:43:59.000 He brought me to this position so I could save the lives of many people. 631 00:43:59.000 --> 00:44:07.000 I just want to encourage you again, just that God didn't intend the pain to happen in your life. 632 00:44:07.000 --> 00:44:14.000 But God can use the pain for purpose as we give it to him and as we surrender the pen completely. 633 00:44:14.000 --> 00:44:23.000 That came up twice, so I feel like that's a word for somebody tonight that you're really still struggling with that surrendering the pen because you're trying to do it in your own strength. 634 00:44:23.000 --> 00:44:27.000 Just remember that that's why this super, God's super meets our natural. 635 00:44:27.000 --> 00:44:36.000 It's leaning into the supernatural presence of God, the power of the Holy Spirit that can guide us and help us every step of the way. 636 00:44:36.000 --> 00:44:38.000 And here's the other thing. 637 00:44:38.000 --> 00:44:46.000 Some of us are so afraid to move forward because we're trying to do something perfect, and the story can unfold as we go. 638 00:44:46.000 --> 00:45:00.000 So even as I was saying we're growing as we're going, you know, I can remember back in the day, I used to be so afraid of getting out of the boat because I was so afraid to make the wrong move. 639 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:04.200 And I can remember talking to a friend of mine and she said Bethany 640 00:45:04.200 --> 00:45:06.320 don't you think God's big enough to like 641 00:45:06.480 --> 00:45:10.280 Pick you back up out of the water and put you back in the boat if it is the wrong choice 642 00:45:10.280 --> 00:45:15.400 And I was just like oh my gosh, you're so right, but you know, I'm not trying to oversimplify it 643 00:45:15.400 --> 00:45:22.360 But so often, you know, we don't move we don't make a move because we're afraid to make the wrong move 644 00:45:23.080 --> 00:45:26.040 And a lot of times when because you know, like for me 645 00:45:26.040 --> 00:45:30.400 I had made some wrong decisions and so that that fed more into that 646 00:45:30.560 --> 00:45:35.160 But the more I've made healthy decisions the more confidence I've like God has restored 647 00:45:35.400 --> 00:45:42.800 Like in me for myself towards myself. And so I believe the same can happen for you all as well. Isaiah 61 says this 648 00:45:43.640 --> 00:45:48.360 The spirit of the Sovereign Lord is upon me for the Lord has anointed me to bring good news to the poor 649 00:45:48.480 --> 00:45:55.000 He has sent me to comfort the brokenhearted and to proclaim that captives will be released and prisoners will be freed 650 00:45:55.360 --> 00:46:00.760 He has sent me to tell those who mourn that the time of the Lord's favor has come and with it the day of God's 651 00:46:00.760 --> 00:46:05.440 Anger against their enemies. Sorry ladies. That's popping a reminder for me 652 00:46:08.800 --> 00:46:10.840 To all who mourn in Israel 653 00:46:10.840 --> 00:46:18.360 He will give a crown of beauty for ashes a joyous blessing instead of mourning festive praise instead of despair in their righteousness 654 00:46:18.360 --> 00:46:22.000 They will be like great oaks that the Lord has planted for his glory 655 00:46:22.920 --> 00:46:30.360 They will rebuild the ancient ruins repairing cities destroyed long ago, they will revive them though they have been deserted for many 656 00:46:31.360 --> 00:46:33.360 generations 657 00:46:33.600 --> 00:46:39.280 James 1 2 through 4 says this my fellow believers when it seems as though you are facing nothing but difficulties 658 00:46:39.400 --> 00:46:44.120 See it as an invaluable opportunity opportunity greatest joy that you can 659 00:46:44.680 --> 00:46:51.720 for you know that when your faith is tested it stirs a power within you to endure all things and then as your endurance grows 660 00:46:51.720 --> 00:46:53.720 Even stronger it will release 661 00:46:54.360 --> 00:47:00.160 perfection into every part of your being until there is nothing missing and nothing lacking in 662 00:47:00.600 --> 00:47:04.480 Jesus name y'all nothing missing nothing lacking completely whole 663 00:47:05.000 --> 00:47:08.240 Lacking no good thing is something I pray over myself and my family 664 00:47:08.680 --> 00:47:15.360 Daily, I pray that when I pray the armor of God unto us and I really believe it does make a difference 665 00:47:15.360 --> 00:47:17.760 So I want to encourage you all to really consider that 666 00:47:18.440 --> 00:47:23.360 For yourselves as well. Alright, so welcome back. I'm gonna really quick you quickly 667 00:47:24.080 --> 00:47:26.080 Tell you our second 668 00:47:26.640 --> 00:47:31.640 Activation for this week for those of you that have already done this as always you don't have to redo it 669 00:47:32.280 --> 00:47:35.520 If you want to repost it and show the ladies that are here now 670 00:47:36.480 --> 00:47:43.600 Your silhouette you can do that, but it is called the silhouette activation and I will put the instructions up in the group tonight 671 00:47:44.480 --> 00:47:48.680 It'll explain it more in depth, but basically and I'll show you some examples 672 00:47:48.680 --> 00:47:54.080 But again as I show you the examples you have to promise that you're not going to compare yourself to other people 673 00:47:54.080 --> 00:48:00.880 You're just gonna allow God to show you what to do for yourself and just know that everybody does different stuff and it's all good 674 00:48:00.880 --> 00:48:06.360 It's all okay, but here's what I try to encourage everyone to do and you don't have to be artists to do this ladies 675 00:48:06.520 --> 00:48:13.000 Okay, I've had ladies create an image using a computer and then write the words on it. Okay, so be very open-minded 676 00:48:13.600 --> 00:48:15.840 About how this will go for you. I 677 00:48:16.960 --> 00:48:20.040 Want you to pray and draw a silhouette of yourself 678 00:48:20.600 --> 00:48:24.440 You can even use a photo of yourself that you love if that's what you want to do 679 00:48:24.640 --> 00:48:29.080 For those of you that love to draw get creative and I'll show you some examples 680 00:48:29.800 --> 00:48:34.800 And everybody hey, just so y'all know every version of this is creative 681 00:48:34.800 --> 00:48:40.720 Even if you're not someone that is an artist and loves to draw even those that are just putting their heart out there 682 00:48:40.720 --> 00:48:44.400 That's all creativeness. Alright, so what you're gonna do though with this 683 00:48:45.400 --> 00:48:47.320 The key is to take quick action 684 00:48:47.320 --> 00:48:52.880 Okay, so don't let's not partner with having to have it perfect or worrying about what people will think 685 00:48:53.320 --> 00:48:55.320 Remember, we're gonna come out of comparison 686 00:48:55.680 --> 00:49:01.040 All right, so you're gonna pray and ask the Lord to reveal his heart to you 687 00:49:01.640 --> 00:49:04.520 What is the truth? He wants you to hear about yourself 688 00:49:05.040 --> 00:49:07.040 So this is the thing God 689 00:49:07.480 --> 00:49:10.480 Who do you say that I am 690 00:49:11.920 --> 00:49:13.560 and 691 00:49:13.560 --> 00:49:17.040 What I want you to do. I want you to have a paper ready 692 00:49:17.040 --> 00:49:22.520 Okay, so this is something that really want you to kind of be already like in an intentional space God 693 00:49:22.520 --> 00:49:27.600 Who do you say that I am and I want you to write down everything that comes up in your spirit 694 00:49:27.600 --> 00:49:33.400 If anything is negative, it doesn't go on that paper. I want you to write it on a separate paper and 695 00:49:34.000 --> 00:49:38.840 Then you're gonna cross that out because we know that God doesn't say anything negative about you 696 00:49:39.600 --> 00:49:44.480 You're gonna cross that out and you're gonna ask God to show you what the truth is to replace the lie 697 00:49:45.120 --> 00:49:52.040 Because that's the enemy still getting in there and speaking to you about who you are. Okay, he's informing your thoughts 698 00:49:53.080 --> 00:50:00.120 You're gonna write down those images and words once you have them only the positive ones will go on to 699 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.800 to your silhouette picture. 700 00:50:01.800 --> 00:50:03.280 And again, I'll show you some examples 701 00:50:03.280 --> 00:50:05.280 so you guys, this'll come together here. 702 00:50:05.280 --> 00:50:07.180 The ones that are negative, 703 00:50:07.180 --> 00:50:09.960 some of y'all might have to work through that a little bit 704 00:50:09.960 --> 00:50:11.640 because even as you write the negative 705 00:50:11.640 --> 00:50:13.240 and try to replace it with the truth, 706 00:50:13.240 --> 00:50:17.060 you might not hear something positive for a little bit. 707 00:50:17.060 --> 00:50:20.320 But just keep doing it and see where that leads you, okay? 708 00:50:20.320 --> 00:50:21.720 Because that might even be a revealing 709 00:50:21.720 --> 00:50:24.040 for healing in and of itself. 710 00:50:24.040 --> 00:50:27.200 But go through that process until you get something positive 711 00:50:27.200 --> 00:50:29.120 and then you can write the positive. 712 00:50:29.120 --> 00:50:31.240 But if, you know, some of those might lead you guys 713 00:50:31.240 --> 00:50:34.440 into, you know, a week of processing, who knows? 714 00:50:34.440 --> 00:50:37.160 So it's okay if those don't go on there at this time 715 00:50:37.160 --> 00:50:39.160 and you circle back in a few weeks and add it. 716 00:50:39.160 --> 00:50:41.540 So don't feel like you have to wait to post it 717 00:50:41.540 --> 00:50:44.080 if you're processing some of those. 718 00:50:44.080 --> 00:50:46.840 So again, only positive words are gonna go on your silhouette 719 00:50:46.840 --> 00:50:48.160 and then I want you to, 720 00:50:48.160 --> 00:50:50.080 I wanna encourage you all to post them in the group. 721 00:50:50.080 --> 00:50:52.040 This is where, again, like some weeks 722 00:50:52.040 --> 00:50:53.400 our group is just gonna light up 723 00:50:53.400 --> 00:50:55.000 and it's gonna be really full of life 724 00:50:55.000 --> 00:50:58.240 and it's gonna feel so good to see each other's silhouettes. 725 00:50:58.320 --> 00:51:00.120 Okay, on that note, I'm gonna show you 726 00:51:00.120 --> 00:51:02.920 some of your sisters who've gone before you 727 00:51:02.920 --> 00:51:04.000 who have done this. 728 00:51:04.000 --> 00:51:07.400 I'm gonna try to talk quickly about some of these. 729 00:51:07.400 --> 00:51:10.840 This is a young lady that went through our program. 730 00:51:10.840 --> 00:51:13.640 She did not like to look at herself at all, 731 00:51:13.640 --> 00:51:16.320 not in the mirror, not on the screen. 732 00:51:16.320 --> 00:51:20.040 And when she did this activation, 733 00:51:20.040 --> 00:51:24.400 the flowers represent God changing her view of herself, 734 00:51:24.400 --> 00:51:25.380 you all. 735 00:51:25.380 --> 00:51:26.680 So this is where it's important 736 00:51:26.680 --> 00:51:29.000 just to trust the Lord in your process. 737 00:51:29.000 --> 00:51:31.560 She just, that was something that came up in her spirit 738 00:51:31.560 --> 00:51:34.480 as she was doing the silhouette activation. 739 00:51:34.480 --> 00:51:35.680 And so she did it. 740 00:51:35.680 --> 00:51:38.600 And as she was drawing the flowers, 741 00:51:38.600 --> 00:51:39.440 she actually said, 742 00:51:39.440 --> 00:51:43.400 I felt like God was healing me on the inside. 743 00:51:43.400 --> 00:51:46.280 And so these are the words that she heard. 744 00:51:46.280 --> 00:51:48.880 You guys can kind of see some of those there. 745 00:51:48.880 --> 00:51:51.320 But again, you're hearing God for yourself. 746 00:51:51.320 --> 00:51:54.440 And so what is God saying to you as you do this? 747 00:51:54.440 --> 00:51:55.400 Here's another one. 748 00:51:56.360 --> 00:51:57.360 So cool. 749 00:51:57.360 --> 00:51:58.240 Love all of these. 750 00:51:58.240 --> 00:51:59.520 These are so amazing. 751 00:51:59.520 --> 00:52:00.520 So she wrote on there, 752 00:52:00.520 --> 00:52:02.060 who does God say I am? 753 00:52:02.980 --> 00:52:04.360 So that that would remind her. 754 00:52:04.360 --> 00:52:07.040 And she has this life coming, 755 00:52:07.040 --> 00:52:10.200 this growth and thing flourishing out of her mind. 756 00:52:11.320 --> 00:52:15.040 Hers had to do a lot with her mind being healed and restored. 757 00:52:15.040 --> 00:52:18.040 So that's just how she felt led to share that and express it. 758 00:52:18.040 --> 00:52:19.000 And as you notice here, 759 00:52:19.000 --> 00:52:23.400 some are up on her mind area and some are on her body. 760 00:52:23.440 --> 00:52:25.840 So again, trust the Lord in all of that. 761 00:52:25.840 --> 00:52:28.480 Here's one where she's wearing a crown, princess. 762 00:52:28.480 --> 00:52:29.900 She's got really beautiful lips. 763 00:52:29.900 --> 00:52:33.320 She's got all these amazing words all over herself. 764 00:52:33.320 --> 00:52:34.640 One of hers here, 765 00:52:34.640 --> 00:52:36.960 and this like stood out to me 766 00:52:36.960 --> 00:52:38.320 and standing out again tonight, 767 00:52:38.320 --> 00:52:40.520 but well taken care of. 768 00:52:41.400 --> 00:52:43.480 That was something that she heard and she wrote down. 769 00:52:43.480 --> 00:52:44.960 And she put that on one cheek 770 00:52:44.960 --> 00:52:47.600 and the apple of his eye on the other cheek. 771 00:52:47.600 --> 00:52:49.840 So again, trust where you're writing them 772 00:52:49.840 --> 00:52:51.220 because even in that you all, 773 00:52:51.220 --> 00:52:53.260 if you start to look into this stuff, 774 00:52:54.120 --> 00:52:55.140 don't overthink it as you're doing it. 775 00:52:55.140 --> 00:52:57.540 Allow yourself to just get it on the paper 776 00:52:57.540 --> 00:52:59.260 and then look into some of that stuff. 777 00:52:59.260 --> 00:53:01.440 And we can help you a little bit with that, 778 00:53:01.440 --> 00:53:04.280 but it's really a fun journey as you let the Lord lead you 779 00:53:04.280 --> 00:53:06.180 to understand what these things mean. 780 00:53:06.180 --> 00:53:07.180 Here's another one. 781 00:53:07.180 --> 00:53:08.820 Again, absolutely beautiful. 782 00:53:08.820 --> 00:53:11.520 She did the pencil and then did the words over top, 783 00:53:12.580 --> 00:53:13.980 titled it, The Real Me. 784 00:53:13.980 --> 00:53:14.860 Here's one. 785 00:53:14.860 --> 00:53:16.860 She didn't put any eyes or face in that. 786 00:53:16.860 --> 00:53:19.260 You all, again, this is totally fine. 787 00:53:19.260 --> 00:53:20.900 This is beautiful and perfect. 788 00:53:20.900 --> 00:53:22.540 She put words in different colors 789 00:53:22.540 --> 00:53:24.780 and she felt led to highlight certain ones. 790 00:53:24.780 --> 00:53:27.260 Those were two that she just really felt 791 00:53:27.260 --> 00:53:30.140 like she didn't believe yet. 792 00:53:30.140 --> 00:53:32.800 And so God was like telling her to pray into those more. 793 00:53:32.800 --> 00:53:34.600 So that's why she highlighted those. 794 00:53:35.980 --> 00:53:37.940 Here's another one. 795 00:53:37.940 --> 00:53:40.580 I'm gonna start to go through these a little quicker. 796 00:53:41.620 --> 00:53:43.260 Here's another one for you. 797 00:53:45.180 --> 00:53:47.700 Again, however you all do this, this is your thing. 798 00:53:47.700 --> 00:53:49.740 Now this one, I leave this for the end 799 00:53:49.740 --> 00:53:51.760 because she's actually an artist. 800 00:53:51.760 --> 00:53:53.300 I don't want people to get intimidated, 801 00:53:53.300 --> 00:53:56.320 but I do think it's pretty incredible 802 00:53:56.320 --> 00:53:58.160 like just seeing her creative expression 803 00:53:58.160 --> 00:54:00.400 as an artist in this. 804 00:54:00.400 --> 00:54:03.680 And this was a really healing process for her as well. 805 00:54:03.680 --> 00:54:06.520 So I love all of them. 806 00:54:06.520 --> 00:54:07.880 I think they're all amazing. 807 00:54:07.880 --> 00:54:10.380 I love seeing them and praying over you all. 808 00:54:10.380 --> 00:54:13.440 And when I am in the group coaching and my team, 809 00:54:13.440 --> 00:54:15.920 I've been teaching my team to do the same thing 810 00:54:15.920 --> 00:54:18.480 is that we will look at them and really pray over them. 811 00:54:18.480 --> 00:54:20.460 And if there's certain words that stand out, 812 00:54:20.460 --> 00:54:21.460 we're probably gonna coach you 813 00:54:21.460 --> 00:54:23.100 on those a little bit as well. 814 00:54:23.100 --> 00:54:26.500 So you can expect that, but don't hold back, okay? 815 00:54:26.500 --> 00:54:30.060 If I can encourage you in anything, don't hold back. 816 00:54:30.060 --> 00:54:31.040 Here's the reality. 817 00:54:31.040 --> 00:54:33.540 God is gonna tell you who you are. 818 00:54:33.540 --> 00:54:35.360 You may not believe all of them. 819 00:54:36.620 --> 00:54:38.820 I really wanna encourage you to write the things 820 00:54:38.820 --> 00:54:42.680 that you don't even believe yet, okay? 821 00:54:42.680 --> 00:54:44.940 Again, this is a part of you healing. 822 00:54:44.940 --> 00:54:48.740 Part of healing is acknowledging where you are right now. 823 00:54:48.740 --> 00:54:50.500 Even if you don't feel those things, 824 00:54:50.500 --> 00:54:53.140 God is saying, this is who I say that you are. 825 00:54:54.060 --> 00:54:56.500 In addition, you guys have heard this song, 826 00:54:56.500 --> 00:54:57.900 obviously, probably a lot. 827 00:54:57.900 --> 00:55:00.020 But in addition. 828 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.880 to that coming out of hiding song that I mentioned, you know, that Lauren Daigle song comes to mind as 829 00:55:04.880 --> 00:55:12.880 well. I think it is Who You Say I Am or something like that. But it's, you know, she has a couple 830 00:55:12.880 --> 00:55:18.480 like Child of God, she has a couple that are like very identity, like driven, if you all want to 831 00:55:18.480 --> 00:55:22.560 consider listening to those, you might not like those artists. But maybe if you don't like them, 832 00:55:22.560 --> 00:55:28.000 you'll find another artist that you love that have songs in those themes. Okay. So those are 833 00:55:28.000 --> 00:55:32.800 the activations. Remember the princess and princess gear. And hey, you all, the goal isn't 834 00:55:32.800 --> 00:55:39.600 to just buy the princess gear. It's to take a photo of yourself representing the princess gear 835 00:55:39.600 --> 00:55:44.400 and putting them in the group. And again, you know, these are the these are the moments like 836 00:55:44.400 --> 00:55:48.800 you're going to cherish this stuff. When you look back, if you actually step in and do it, 837 00:55:48.800 --> 00:55:54.400 you're going to be like, man, I did that. And your sisters are going to cheer you on. It's a great 838 00:55:54.400 --> 00:55:59.120 experience. If you choose to step into that. Alright, so let's go ahead to go to Catherine 839 00:55:59.120 --> 00:56:12.240 first. Hi, Catherine. Hey, hello. Well, mine, I was saying is comparison a lot. And lately, 840 00:56:12.240 --> 00:56:17.760 I'm really, really, really struggling. This has been a trial I've been going through over a month. 841 00:56:18.720 --> 00:56:26.160 And I think I really had a moment yesterday of I just broke down and sobbed like no tomorrow. 842 00:56:26.160 --> 00:56:32.000 I had a prayer time in one of the churches I was going to before my dad got our family church. 843 00:56:32.800 --> 00:56:38.080 And they have prayer time once a month, first Sunday at night, it doesn't interfere with 844 00:56:38.080 --> 00:56:46.720 anything my dad and I are doing at our church. So I go and I lost it. I am absolutely 100% 845 00:56:46.880 --> 00:56:54.000 convinced that not having a reliable car that I can't even drive 13 miles away from my home 846 00:56:54.000 --> 00:57:00.320 without saying my engine is overheating. And the fact that I am dirt poor, I'm dealing with so much 847 00:57:00.320 --> 00:57:06.800 debt. It's going to keep me away from my spirit mate. It's bad enough that this is like a real 848 00:57:06.800 --> 00:57:12.000 thing that I have to deal with. And I don't like having to worry about what if the engine overheats 849 00:57:12.000 --> 00:57:16.640 just going the very little distance to work? Or what do I do when they asked me to go to the 850 00:57:16.640 --> 00:57:24.880 Sydney site? That's about 40 some odd minutes away. And I also couldn't even go and see fireworks 13 851 00:57:24.880 --> 00:57:30.880 miles away on the fourth without a problem. But it's literally I'm like afraid it's literally 852 00:57:30.880 --> 00:57:38.000 going to keep me away from my spirit mate. Because I feel like I am never worth it for a guy to go out 853 00:57:38.000 --> 00:57:45.760 of his way for me. I feel like I have to do everything. And it's not only with that. But I 854 00:57:45.760 --> 00:57:51.840 mean, I've even misunderstood a friend up here upstate because I'm so used to having the friends 855 00:57:51.840 --> 00:57:57.920 where I had to do everything and God forbid I need something or I can't do something. It's always a 856 00:57:57.920 --> 00:58:06.400 thing. But it seems like the help is never there for me when I need it. But I'm always giving that 857 00:58:06.400 --> 00:58:10.880 help and wouldn't think twice when it's someone else going through it. And that's a huge thing I'm 858 00:58:10.880 --> 00:58:20.160 going through a lot lately. Thank you for sharing that. So the first thing I'm writing this down. 859 00:58:21.920 --> 00:58:25.360 The first thing I'm going to ask you to do, Catherine, and I know this sounds so simple, 860 00:58:25.360 --> 00:58:30.480 and this is for everyone else, you guys might have some things that sound similar in your dialogue 861 00:58:30.480 --> 00:58:35.440 at times, but on that help is never there for me when I need it. That would be something I 862 00:58:35.440 --> 00:58:40.480 would encourage you to write down as a negative thing that you're hearing, right? As we're talking 863 00:58:40.480 --> 00:58:45.360 about this silhouette, crossing that out. And what literally what's the opposite of that? 864 00:58:46.640 --> 00:58:53.200 Help is there for me when I need it. Yeah, you know, and again, it doesn't mean that we don't 865 00:58:53.200 --> 00:58:57.760 feel things in real life, right? We're going to go through things where yes, there are hardships. 866 00:58:58.880 --> 00:59:04.320 You know, I had a car repaid back in the day when I was married. That was not because of me. 867 00:59:04.320 --> 00:59:09.760 That was because of decisions my ex-husband was making. And I was going through a lot of stuff 868 00:59:09.760 --> 00:59:16.880 because of the bad decisions he was making. Was that really, really hard? 100%. But I had to learn 869 00:59:16.880 --> 00:59:22.480 how to not partner with like God wasn't doing that to me. And not that you're saying that, but like 870 00:59:22.480 --> 00:59:28.640 deep down. Again, we will partner with stuff like this, not just because we don't think people will 871 00:59:28.640 --> 00:59:34.240 show up, but we don't think God's going to show up. And if we think that a car not running can 872 00:59:34.240 --> 00:59:38.720 keep us from our spirit mate, well, literally, if we even just went out on a walk, here's the 873 00:59:38.720 --> 00:59:42.960 reality. I'm not saying it's, it's not, I'm not saying it's just going to happen like this. But 874 00:59:42.960 --> 00:59:50.240 here is the honest reality. You could just go for a walk to a park one day and meet someone that 875 00:59:50.240 --> 00:59:55.920 could be your spirit mate. I mean, but we don't we we kind of don't think like that most of the 876 00:59:55.920 --> 00:59:59.840 time. We think it's going to always be hard or that, you know, 877 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:02.840 Oh, it always has to be how other people have met people. 878 01:00:02.840 --> 01:00:05.880 Now, a lot of people are meeting their spirit mates online. 879 01:00:05.880 --> 01:00:10.520 A lot of people are driving to dates, but again, it, you said it yourself. 880 01:00:10.800 --> 01:00:17.480 I don't believe I'm worth a guy driving to me or that he would even want to. 881 01:00:17.480 --> 01:00:21.520 So Catherine, you already know where you need to do the heart work, girl. 882 01:00:22.060 --> 01:00:26.800 You need to get in there and get to that core of again, like who am I? 883 01:00:26.840 --> 01:00:28.500 You might even need to revisit this. 884 01:00:28.500 --> 01:00:31.060 Like, even though you've done the silhouette and just sit back with your 885 01:00:31.060 --> 01:00:35.580 silhouette, is there anything new coming to you, but really take some more time 886 01:00:35.900 --> 01:00:40.300 to meditate on the good things that God has already said about you and really 887 01:00:40.300 --> 01:00:44.660 keep getting those down in the core of your being again, ladies, the more that 888 01:00:44.660 --> 01:00:49.060 we believe that God loves us, the more that we understand the character of God 889 01:00:49.300 --> 01:00:57.460 and his attributes, and that we believe those are available to us, the less we 890 01:00:57.460 --> 01:01:01.900 will believe the lies when they come, even when something bad is happening. 891 01:01:02.180 --> 01:01:05.740 I've been prepping for our kids lesson this Sunday. 892 01:01:05.780 --> 01:01:06.940 I'm so excited. 893 01:01:07.180 --> 01:01:11.540 And this is, it's coming up in my spirit because, um, I'm going to talk to the 894 01:01:11.540 --> 01:01:18.260 kids about, um, loving, even when it's hard and the craft that we're going to 895 01:01:18.260 --> 01:01:22.700 make, and this is why I want to talk about this, it's going to, the bottom 896 01:01:22.700 --> 01:01:26.940 half is going to be like a plate, but we're going to color it black, but then 897 01:01:26.940 --> 01:01:32.020 we're going to put a sunshine at the top of it and a cross and birds, and it's 898 01:01:32.020 --> 01:01:37.580 going to represent that hope can still happen even in the darkness and that, 899 01:01:37.580 --> 01:01:41.580 you know, as Jesus is coming back, we always, no matter what we go through, 900 01:01:41.580 --> 01:01:43.180 ladies, we always have hope. 901 01:01:43.620 --> 01:01:48.020 We always have hope, but it's whether or not we partner with, I have no hope. 902 01:01:48.020 --> 01:01:48.700 I have no hope. 903 01:01:48.700 --> 01:01:49.260 I have no hope. 904 01:01:49.260 --> 01:01:50.020 Nothing's changing. 905 01:01:50.020 --> 01:01:50.300 Nothing. 906 01:01:50.900 --> 01:01:54.620 Like the more that we partner with that, the more that's going to be the outcome. 907 01:01:55.580 --> 01:01:59.700 So that's why we have to look at what are, where are our current thoughts leading us? 908 01:01:59.900 --> 01:02:01.660 What is our current dialogue? 909 01:02:02.300 --> 01:02:06.460 If I'm believing that I'm never going to find someone who will even drive 910 01:02:06.460 --> 01:02:13.180 anywhere to come and meet me, let alone pay for my date, well, then we're going 911 01:02:13.180 --> 01:02:18.580 to attract a bunch of takers, aren't we typically, yeah, that's what's going to 912 01:02:18.580 --> 01:02:18.980 happen. 913 01:02:19.260 --> 01:02:21.860 So again, you already, you're recognizing it. 914 01:02:21.860 --> 01:02:23.700 So I want you to see the growth in yourself. 915 01:02:24.100 --> 01:02:24.580 Okay. 916 01:02:24.700 --> 01:02:27.300 You're recognizing the lies. 917 01:02:27.620 --> 01:02:31.380 You're recognizing the areas that you need healing. 918 01:02:32.180 --> 01:02:36.380 And so it's just continuing to put the heartwork principles and 919 01:02:36.380 --> 01:02:37.460 tools that you've learned. 920 01:02:37.460 --> 01:02:38.980 Keep putting those to practice. 921 01:02:39.340 --> 01:02:41.260 Keep allowing God to heal you. 922 01:02:42.060 --> 01:02:47.380 Um, you know, afraid that a car is going to keep you from your spirit mate is just 923 01:02:47.380 --> 01:02:52.660 really, you know, believing that nothing's ever going to change for you too. 924 01:02:53.660 --> 01:03:00.700 And so the other part of that too, is I just found out today. 925 01:03:00.700 --> 01:03:04.660 I mean, I knew I owed more than it was worth, but I didn't know it was this bad. 926 01:03:05.140 --> 01:03:10.340 I owe like 5,000, about $5,235 more than it's worth. 927 01:03:10.700 --> 01:03:14.940 And believe me, I thought of voluntarily letting it get repoed. 928 01:03:15.420 --> 01:03:16.460 I don't know what else to do. 929 01:03:16.860 --> 01:03:20.740 I really thought of doing it because I need something that works. 930 01:03:21.100 --> 01:03:24.380 I don't want to pay another dime on something that doesn't work. 931 01:03:24.580 --> 01:03:26.900 I thought of voluntarily surrendering it. 932 01:03:27.340 --> 01:03:32.900 When we, when we chatted about this, uh, the car, like a month or two ago, um, 933 01:03:32.900 --> 01:03:37.220 when I mentioned about working with a financial person that can kind of help 934 01:03:37.220 --> 01:03:42.820 you, um, like really like what I would consider doing is talking to like a 935 01:03:42.820 --> 01:03:44.540 financial coach, okay. 936 01:03:44.780 --> 01:03:48.900 Where they're really helping you get into the nitty gritty of your finances. 937 01:03:49.660 --> 01:03:50.860 What do you have in savings? 938 01:03:50.860 --> 01:03:51.380 What do you make? 939 01:03:51.380 --> 01:03:55.820 All that kind of stuff, because I feel like you need an outside reinforcement 940 01:03:55.820 --> 01:03:59.020 to help you work through this more in depth, where they can really see the 941 01:03:59.020 --> 01:04:01.900 full picture organically of your situation. 942 01:04:02.460 --> 01:04:05.820 And there are church organizations that have that. 943 01:04:05.820 --> 01:04:09.300 You might even want to look into, I don't know that Dave Ramsey has it, but 944 01:04:09.300 --> 01:04:13.300 they might be able to refer you to someone that does do it. 945 01:04:13.740 --> 01:04:17.580 Um, and you know, that might even be able to do that online. 946 01:04:17.580 --> 01:04:19.700 There are people that help people for free. 947 01:04:19.940 --> 01:04:23.540 So not everybody, you know, charges for that kind of stuff. 948 01:04:23.940 --> 01:04:27.940 Um, so Catherine, I would really encourage you to look into doing that 949 01:04:27.940 --> 01:04:32.460 because the only way ladies that we're going to be able to change, like our 950 01:04:32.460 --> 01:04:35.900 circumstances is for us to change something that we're doing. 951 01:04:37.660 --> 01:04:41.420 So for example, back in the day, I don't know if you guys ever have been in this 952 01:04:41.420 --> 01:04:47.060 place, but I used to say that I couldn't put money in my 401k this is many, many 953 01:04:47.060 --> 01:04:51.780 years ago because I just didn't even see how we were going to be able to 954 01:04:51.780 --> 01:04:53.260 not have that money for a bill. 955 01:04:53.900 --> 01:04:56.620 Like I didn't even feel like I could put $25 in there. 956 01:04:57.020 --> 01:04:59.860 And literally my boss and his wife talked to me about it. 957 01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.520 multiple times, and I just kept saying I couldn't do it. 958 01:05:04.520 --> 01:05:07.280 Well, you know what's really interesting 959 01:05:07.280 --> 01:05:11.640 is many years later, I was in a worse financial position 960 01:05:11.640 --> 01:05:13.860 and I finally just chose to do it. 961 01:05:14.880 --> 01:05:16.680 And you wanna know what's really interesting 962 01:05:16.680 --> 01:05:19.480 is I figured out how to live on what was left. 963 01:05:20.800 --> 01:05:24.760 And I started saving money in my 401k and it kept growing. 964 01:05:25.900 --> 01:05:27.520 We have to start somewhere, ladies. 965 01:05:27.520 --> 01:05:29.700 So maybe, and Catherine, I'm not saying 966 01:05:29.700 --> 01:05:31.980 this applies to you at all, but like for me, 967 01:05:31.980 --> 01:05:36.080 some of the things I cut out going to get coffee 968 01:05:36.080 --> 01:05:38.680 at Starbucks or whatever, I think there are things 969 01:05:38.680 --> 01:05:41.000 that we can shift sometimes. 970 01:05:41.000 --> 01:05:43.220 Again, not saying that applies to Catherine, 971 01:05:43.220 --> 01:05:45.880 but in saying this for everybody right now. 972 01:05:45.880 --> 01:05:47.800 So what are the areas where we can make 973 01:05:47.800 --> 01:05:49.700 a different financial decision to save 974 01:05:49.700 --> 01:05:53.200 a little bit more money or put more money towards the car? 975 01:05:53.200 --> 01:05:55.580 But again, a financial coach could definitely work 976 01:05:55.580 --> 01:05:58.140 with you more in depth, because I feel like 977 01:05:58.140 --> 01:06:00.460 that is really what you need right now. 978 01:06:00.460 --> 01:06:03.380 You need somebody that can really see the full picture 979 01:06:03.380 --> 01:06:06.660 of your finances and can really sit with you 980 01:06:06.660 --> 01:06:11.020 and help you make a very wise decision regarding this car. 981 01:06:11.020 --> 01:06:15.100 Yeah, and that's definitely what I need big time. 982 01:06:15.100 --> 01:06:18.100 I was saying that is definitely what I need 100% big time. 983 01:06:18.100 --> 01:06:19.940 And when I tried to call someone that, 984 01:06:19.940 --> 01:06:22.580 like my union covered the benefits, 985 01:06:22.580 --> 01:06:24.680 I didn't find it helpful with them. 986 01:06:24.680 --> 01:06:27.120 I don't think they're the right ones, 987 01:06:27.120 --> 01:06:29.480 because their kind of attitude was, 988 01:06:29.480 --> 01:06:31.600 there's nothing I could do about the auto loan. 989 01:06:31.600 --> 01:06:34.480 Even if you sat there and took out a personal loan 990 01:06:34.480 --> 01:06:36.640 and there's nothing we can do with it. 991 01:06:36.640 --> 01:06:37.920 We can help with the credit cards, 992 01:06:37.920 --> 01:06:38.840 but we can't help with that. 993 01:06:38.840 --> 01:06:41.760 Because yes, there's been a lot of the repairs 994 01:06:41.760 --> 01:06:43.560 thrown on a credit card. 995 01:06:43.560 --> 01:06:45.720 But I need something, but yeah, 996 01:06:45.720 --> 01:06:48.440 I need somebody that can cover all of that. 997 01:06:48.440 --> 01:06:51.100 So I need help finding the right one. 998 01:06:51.100 --> 01:06:54.320 I'll look at some options for you, Catherine, tomorrow. 999 01:06:54.960 --> 01:06:55.800 Thank you. 1000 01:06:55.800 --> 01:06:59.240 And I will send you an email through our admin team, 1001 01:06:59.240 --> 01:07:01.200 because this is something we've directed people 1002 01:07:01.200 --> 01:07:03.960 to some resources before. 1003 01:07:03.960 --> 01:07:06.600 But yeah, definitely look into that when I send the email 1004 01:07:06.600 --> 01:07:09.000 and hopefully you'll be able to step towards that 1005 01:07:09.000 --> 01:07:10.160 a little bit more. 1006 01:07:10.160 --> 01:07:14.000 But really work on the core things in your heart as well. 1007 01:07:14.000 --> 01:07:14.840 Okay? 1008 01:07:14.840 --> 01:07:16.480 Thank you, but that's definitely what I need. 1009 01:07:16.480 --> 01:07:18.240 And then those are gonna be the right resources 1010 01:07:18.240 --> 01:07:20.240 because I need help finding the right one. 1011 01:07:20.240 --> 01:07:21.080 Thank you. 1012 01:07:21.080 --> 01:07:22.200 You're welcome. 1013 01:07:23.200 --> 01:07:25.200 When I was working on my finances, 1014 01:07:25.200 --> 01:07:27.440 one time I started turning lights off when I left a room. 1015 01:07:27.440 --> 01:07:28.280 Yep. 1016 01:07:28.280 --> 01:07:30.000 My electric bill was 20 less a month. 1017 01:07:30.000 --> 01:07:32.000 That is 100%, Roseanne. 1018 01:07:32.000 --> 01:07:32.920 Yes. 1019 01:07:32.920 --> 01:07:34.820 Sometimes it is small shifts. 1020 01:07:34.820 --> 01:07:36.120 There's things that we can do, 1021 01:07:36.120 --> 01:07:37.840 but we have to get resourceful. 1022 01:07:37.840 --> 01:07:39.920 And sometimes it is talking to people 1023 01:07:39.920 --> 01:07:42.200 and finding out what's helped them as well. 1024 01:07:42.200 --> 01:07:45.320 Lisa, would love to hear what you have to say. 1025 01:07:45.320 --> 01:07:46.160 Thank you. 1026 01:07:46.160 --> 01:07:49.160 Yeah, I just have to tell you, I'm pretty nervous. 1027 01:07:50.160 --> 01:07:51.880 But that's actually a good thing. 1028 01:07:53.880 --> 01:07:58.000 So during the breakout session, 1029 01:07:58.000 --> 01:08:01.120 I first thought it was comparison, 1030 01:08:01.120 --> 01:08:02.920 and then I realized it was competition. 1031 01:08:02.920 --> 01:08:05.320 And how that came up was actually 1032 01:08:06.840 --> 01:08:08.880 just kind of remembering some childhood stuff 1033 01:08:08.880 --> 01:08:12.320 with this best friend, my childhood best friend 1034 01:08:12.320 --> 01:08:14.480 who I've talked about before on calls, 1035 01:08:14.480 --> 01:08:16.479 excuse me, where I recently reconnected with her 1036 01:08:16.479 --> 01:08:18.920 at our high school reunion a few years ago. 1037 01:08:19.680 --> 01:08:22.600 And I think it's really interesting 1038 01:08:22.600 --> 01:08:25.720 because I do remember in that one conversation with you 1039 01:08:25.720 --> 01:08:28.279 where you're like, this is coming up for a reason, Lisa. 1040 01:08:28.279 --> 01:08:30.479 And I don't remember what you thought the reason was, 1041 01:08:30.479 --> 01:08:32.760 but I'm hoping that God reveals some more. 1042 01:08:32.760 --> 01:08:37.680 So basically, first the comparison was, 1043 01:08:37.680 --> 01:08:39.880 like if I'm online, I'll compare myself 1044 01:08:39.880 --> 01:08:42.399 to how other women look and all that thing. 1045 01:08:42.399 --> 01:08:44.240 So it's about beauty. 1046 01:08:44.240 --> 01:08:46.680 And then the other thing that happens 1047 01:08:46.680 --> 01:08:50.439 is there's a podcast that I'm wanting to start, 1048 01:08:50.439 --> 01:08:52.120 but it's just not the timing right now 1049 01:08:52.120 --> 01:08:54.800 because I'm needing to get financially secure 1050 01:08:54.800 --> 01:08:56.960 and take care of some other things first. 1051 01:08:56.960 --> 01:08:59.120 And so if I see somebody kind of doing 1052 01:08:59.120 --> 01:09:00.680 what I'm looking to do, 1053 01:09:00.680 --> 01:09:04.319 I'll feel like someone beat me to the punch type of thing. 1054 01:09:04.319 --> 01:09:08.399 And I feel there's a competition there. 1055 01:09:08.399 --> 01:09:10.359 We're like, oh, that was my idea. 1056 01:09:11.800 --> 01:09:13.840 But the thing is there's room for everybody in the world. 1057 01:09:13.840 --> 01:09:15.000 Do you know what I mean? 1058 01:09:15.000 --> 01:09:17.720 I know that here, I know that. 1059 01:09:17.720 --> 01:09:21.640 But what's interesting is that that conversation 1060 01:09:21.640 --> 01:09:25.040 then led to in the breakout session of, 1061 01:09:25.040 --> 01:09:27.439 so when I was younger, like seven, eight, nine, 1062 01:09:27.439 --> 01:09:29.240 maybe up to even 12, 1063 01:09:29.240 --> 01:09:32.200 my mom worked for a clothing department store 1064 01:09:32.200 --> 01:09:35.399 and my mom was very connected with the local photographer 1065 01:09:35.399 --> 01:09:36.520 for one of the newspapers. 1066 01:09:36.520 --> 01:09:38.520 We had two newspapers in our town. 1067 01:09:38.520 --> 01:09:42.520 And so consequently, I got asked to model a lot 1068 01:09:42.520 --> 01:09:45.319 for the store and I would be in the newspaper. 1069 01:09:45.319 --> 01:09:46.920 Well, my best friend one time 1070 01:09:46.920 --> 01:09:49.240 got asked to model for the newspaper 1071 01:09:49.240 --> 01:09:52.000 and you would have thought I like died. 1072 01:09:52.000 --> 01:09:53.840 I was like, what? 1073 01:09:53.840 --> 01:09:55.120 That was my job. 1074 01:09:55.120 --> 01:09:56.120 She can't have that. 1075 01:09:56.120 --> 01:09:58.400 Like it was my whole identity 1076 01:09:58.400 --> 01:10:00.280 was wrapped up in this wreckage. 1077 01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.880 ignition, you know, and, and also I wasn't saved. We I didn't 1078 01:10:02.880 --> 01:10:07.760 grow up with my family being saved. Um, yeah, so I mean, 1079 01:10:07.760 --> 01:10:12.880 anyway, so, um, and then I remember one time, journaling 1080 01:10:12.880 --> 01:10:16.960 some thoughts out this was years ago about the same friend. And I 1081 01:10:16.960 --> 01:10:21.080 remember saying, I was so vivid in my mind where I said, I feel 1082 01:10:21.080 --> 01:10:25.200 like I'm a balloon floating on the water, like, that's me, like 1083 01:10:25.200 --> 01:10:28.320 just my spirit. But I always felt like she was trying to 1084 01:10:28.320 --> 01:10:31.440 push me down underwater, like submerge me like I could never 1085 01:10:31.440 --> 01:10:34.960 shine. Like I was like, she just couldn't be okay with that. 1086 01:10:35.000 --> 01:10:39.240 And, you know, she's a ballet dancer, she's been teaching for 1087 01:10:39.280 --> 01:10:43.560 decades, and her identity is definitely not that not that 1088 01:10:43.560 --> 01:10:46.160 just because you're a dancer, it means your identity has to be 1089 01:10:46.160 --> 01:10:49.800 wrapped up in your body. By default, it's very common, you 1090 01:10:49.800 --> 01:10:52.600 know, because there's so much emphasis placed on everything 1091 01:10:52.600 --> 01:10:56.800 about you, your looks, your tone, everything. And so I 1092 01:10:56.800 --> 01:10:58.880 noticed, like, every time I'm around her, ever since we 1093 01:10:58.880 --> 01:11:02.160 reconnected, I constantly feel like I'm being checked out, 1094 01:11:02.160 --> 01:11:05.000 like, you know, like, sized up, or you know what I mean? Like 1095 01:11:05.000 --> 01:11:07.400 judged, right? And then she always I don't think there's 1096 01:11:07.400 --> 01:11:10.600 been one conversation where she hasn't brought up her body or 1097 01:11:10.600 --> 01:11:13.760 somebody else's body. And I just like, I can't handle it. You 1098 01:11:13.760 --> 01:11:16.440 know, I haven't said anything, because I realized it's a 1099 01:11:16.440 --> 01:11:19.520 trigger within me. And there's healing that I need to handle. 1100 01:11:19.920 --> 01:11:23.760 Um, you know what I'm saying? So it's just interesting, though, 1101 01:11:23.760 --> 01:11:28.520 because it just comes up a lot, comes up a lot. 1102 01:11:29.240 --> 01:11:33.600 Yeah, I will say to, you know, the reason she's saying things 1103 01:11:33.600 --> 01:11:36.080 a lot is because she probably is struggling with body image 1104 01:11:36.080 --> 01:11:40.240 herself. I think, you know, and it's unfortunate, but a lot of 1105 01:11:40.240 --> 01:11:43.800 us do that, you know, or we might even instead of saying 1106 01:11:43.800 --> 01:11:46.320 things about other people, we're commenting about something 1107 01:11:46.320 --> 01:11:50.800 that's wrong with us, you know, like, whether it's we're too 1108 01:11:50.800 --> 01:11:54.040 heavy, we're this or that, you know, comparing ourselves. And 1109 01:11:54.040 --> 01:11:57.680 so not that you don't know that, but just as a reminder, that's 1110 01:11:57.680 --> 01:12:01.200 probably why she's doing that. But as you're processing, you 1111 01:12:01.200 --> 01:12:03.400 know, when these things are coming up in you, I think this 1112 01:12:03.400 --> 01:12:05.800 balloon thing is very interesting. And it kind of 1113 01:12:05.800 --> 01:12:09.280 catches my attention, Lisa, as you're talking. I mean, how long 1114 01:12:09.280 --> 01:12:15.120 have you felt like that came to mind for you about her about the 1115 01:12:15.120 --> 01:12:18.480 two of you all? Is this a new thing? 1116 01:12:19.040 --> 01:12:23.400 Like a new? No, no, I wrote that years ago. I wrote that years 1117 01:12:23.400 --> 01:12:27.600 ago. And it's almost Yeah, it's like, if I shine, she can't 1118 01:12:27.600 --> 01:12:29.880 handle it. You know what I mean? And I'm not a competitor. I'm 1119 01:12:29.880 --> 01:12:32.480 not trying to like, I'm just not that type of person. I'm not 1120 01:12:32.480 --> 01:12:34.720 like, Oh, look at me. And then some, you know, I'm not that's 1121 01:12:34.720 --> 01:12:40.760 just not who I am. Right? I and I Yeah. And yeah, I, I 1122 01:12:40.760 --> 01:12:43.880 definitely I think I know some of the root of where her stuff 1123 01:12:43.880 --> 01:12:46.200 comes from, you know what I mean? So that's good for me to 1124 01:12:46.200 --> 01:12:48.920 understand. It doesn't make it easy, though, for me to be 1125 01:12:48.920 --> 01:12:52.280 around her. Like, I really want been paying attention lately and 1126 01:12:52.280 --> 01:12:55.560 been like, you know, is I mean, yes, just because we were 1127 01:12:55.560 --> 01:12:58.400 friends growing up doesn't mean we have to, you know, you know, 1128 01:12:58.400 --> 01:13:01.960 have that again. Yeah. And we are very different people. You 1129 01:13:01.960 --> 01:13:04.400 know, we are very different people like she's not saved. I 1130 01:13:04.400 --> 01:13:08.320 am. And you know, by just by that alone, we, you know, we 1131 01:13:08.320 --> 01:13:09.320 think very differently. 1132 01:13:09.600 --> 01:13:12.880 It's good for us to be around unbelievers, but we need to go 1133 01:13:13.120 --> 01:13:17.440 them with the mindset that we are ministering, like, not that 1134 01:13:17.440 --> 01:13:19.720 we're always trying to convert them, but like that we are 1135 01:13:19.720 --> 01:13:24.280 going in, like with a ministry mindset. So we're not expecting 1136 01:13:24.280 --> 01:13:28.520 them to be like us, or talk like us or act. And I don't mean that 1137 01:13:28.520 --> 01:13:31.360 like, they're not good enough or any of those kind of things. But 1138 01:13:31.600 --> 01:13:34.840 you know, sometimes we go in with a Christian mindset, with 1139 01:13:34.840 --> 01:13:37.520 someone that's non Christian, we expect them to be like us talk 1140 01:13:37.520 --> 01:13:42.600 like us think like us. And they don't, right. Number two thing 1141 01:13:42.600 --> 01:13:44.960 that comes to mind is you're talking a little bit more about 1142 01:13:44.960 --> 01:13:48.360 this. And I keep going back to the word always as well. It just 1143 01:13:48.360 --> 01:13:53.480 makes me think about even when we get in arguments with our 1144 01:13:53.480 --> 01:13:57.560 spouse, one of the key things they say is to fight fair. And 1145 01:13:57.560 --> 01:14:00.880 one of the ways you fight fair is to really be aware of when 1146 01:14:00.880 --> 01:14:05.680 you say they always do that, or they never do that. And really 1147 01:14:05.680 --> 01:14:10.880 start identifying, okay, if is it really true that they always 1148 01:14:10.880 --> 01:14:13.800 do that? Now, she probably does, you know, maybe mentioned 1149 01:14:13.800 --> 01:14:17.720 it, maybe mentioned it a lot. But I got some feedback. 1150 01:14:30.640 --> 01:14:32.560 All right, let's see if that's better. Let's see if that's 1151 01:14:32.560 --> 01:14:37.400 better. I'm gonna mute you just for a second, Lisa, I think I'm 1152 01:14:37.400 --> 01:14:39.800 for whatever reason that just started kicking in feedback from 1153 01:14:39.800 --> 01:14:42.080 you. So just unmute yourself when you're ready to talk again. 1154 01:14:42.520 --> 01:14:46.200 But, um, you know, it tells us to really be aware of when we 1155 01:14:46.200 --> 01:14:52.200 make those kind of statements. Because we're, we're basically 1156 01:14:52.200 --> 01:14:57.520 kind of putting someone into a like, they can never change kind 1157 01:14:57.520 --> 01:15:00.120 of thing. And we need 1158 01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:05.200 to look at those statements as well, because it's a signal that something needs to change. 1159 01:15:06.080 --> 01:15:12.720 So whether it's, you know, that we just don't jive well with that person, or is God trying to 1160 01:15:12.720 --> 01:15:17.840 show us something in ourselves that's getting pulled out when we're around those people. 1161 01:15:18.400 --> 01:15:24.000 So you're mentioning, you know, you started with, I tend to compare myself online when I see other 1162 01:15:24.000 --> 01:15:30.320 women that I think, you know, regarding their beauty. But then your friend came up, and I 1163 01:15:30.320 --> 01:15:36.960 almost wonder if it's a both and tonight. You know, where it is both, like, okay, this is something 1164 01:15:36.960 --> 01:15:43.600 I'm still struggling with myself. And when I'm around this person, it's getting activated more. 1165 01:15:45.680 --> 01:15:53.360 Do you see what I'm saying? So for example, a spirit of lust has tried to attack me my entire 1166 01:15:53.360 --> 01:16:04.080 life, literally. When I get around people that are carrying that spirit, I get attacked by that 1167 01:16:04.080 --> 01:16:13.920 spirit more. So for example, I went to a this group, we went to this Bible study with this 1168 01:16:13.920 --> 01:16:20.400 group of people like a week ago. And I realized that three times now that we've gone to that 1169 01:16:20.400 --> 01:16:26.560 place, the enemy has bombarded me with thoughts, lustful things that I don't even think about. 1170 01:16:27.600 --> 01:16:32.240 And the first couple times I kept thinking, what the heck is wrong with me? Like I started 1171 01:16:32.240 --> 01:16:37.840 owning them like they were my thoughts. They weren't the enemy was assaulting me. 1172 01:16:38.800 --> 01:16:45.680 But it was getting activated by the area that I was in the principalities in that place, but also 1173 01:16:45.680 --> 01:16:51.600 the spirit that some of these other people were walking in. Because they had their I'm just I'm 1174 01:16:51.600 --> 01:16:58.160 pretty confident one or two people probably are battling with some level of sex addiction or 1175 01:16:58.160 --> 01:17:04.160 something that that were attending this group. I'm saying that to you to say this, you're already 1176 01:17:04.160 --> 01:17:09.280 struggling with some of this stuff internally, your own body image, your own beauty. And so 1177 01:17:09.280 --> 01:17:15.360 you're getting around her and she's struggling with it. And so it's almost like it's like the 1178 01:17:15.360 --> 01:17:19.360 opposite of you know, when Elizabeth and Mary came together and the babies left within them, 1179 01:17:19.360 --> 01:17:25.120 and it was like a good thing. It's kind of the same concept. But it's like, when when we're having 1180 01:17:25.120 --> 01:17:29.280 these internal struggles and that spirit, and we're carrying that and they're carrying that 1181 01:17:29.280 --> 01:17:32.960 when gets around each other, it's just kind of like triggering each other triggering each other. 1182 01:17:32.960 --> 01:17:38.080 Does that make sense? I feel like that was probably an easier way to I wish I would have said that 1183 01:17:38.080 --> 01:17:45.040 first. But you know, so I would encourage you a make sure you have your armor on before you go 1184 01:17:45.040 --> 01:17:51.040 spend time with her if you're going to spend time with her. Be keep working on your your internal 1185 01:17:51.040 --> 01:17:56.000 things regarding your own body image, your own like worth and value regarding your beauty and 1186 01:17:56.000 --> 01:18:03.680 things. So that no matter where she's at, at some point, I believe that you can be around her and be 1187 01:18:03.680 --> 01:18:16.080 at peace. I do. Yeah. Yeah, thank you so much. Because I think too. Yeah, it's interesting because 1188 01:18:16.080 --> 01:18:20.880 I live alone. You know what I mean? And so, you know, when you're not I mean, I'm around people, 1189 01:18:20.880 --> 01:18:25.440 of course, but really, you know, like, I'm not working right now either. So yeah, I have a lot 1190 01:18:25.440 --> 01:18:30.160 of time on my hands where I'm solo. And I think just reconnecting with her and then being around 1191 01:18:30.160 --> 01:18:36.240 her more, it's just, you know, and I do agree with everything that you've said. And I also see 1192 01:18:36.240 --> 01:18:44.720 that because not that there has to be a reason, but I can tell that, like my just, just my being 1193 01:18:44.720 --> 01:18:48.720 in general, over the past two years, it's just been really challenging financially. And I can 1194 01:18:48.720 --> 01:18:54.560 tell that, like, my light isn't shining as much, you know what I mean? Like, I do. And, and it's 1195 01:18:54.560 --> 01:18:57.760 okay. Like, you know, I mean, of course, I don't want to stay there. But you know, I'm not going 1196 01:18:57.760 --> 01:19:01.920 to be hard on myself for the fact that it's just been what it's been. And I'm in a journey and I'm 1197 01:19:01.920 --> 01:19:08.480 learning and you know, God's it's going to work itself out. I do believe you know, I do. Yeah, 1198 01:19:08.480 --> 01:19:13.680 so I don't know what else I want to say about that. But yeah, but and I also wanted to say, 1199 01:19:13.680 --> 01:19:18.000 you know, just because somebody is not saved doesn't mean like, there are many great unsaved 1200 01:19:18.000 --> 01:19:22.560 people out there that are like, so loving, you know what I mean? So I kind of wanted to say that 1201 01:19:22.560 --> 01:19:28.000 just to, because I didn't want people thinking like, you know, I'm not, you know what I mean? 1202 01:19:28.000 --> 01:19:33.280 I'm not saying I'm just generally speaking. Yeah, I think just generally speaking, you know, like, 1203 01:19:33.280 --> 01:19:38.080 if somebody is not saved, they live a different, you know, lifestyle, in general, for the most 1204 01:19:38.080 --> 01:19:42.800 part, right? It's common, right? I don't think that came across wrong at all. And I wasn't saying 1205 01:19:42.800 --> 01:19:48.720 it in a negative way, either. It's just the reality of ministry and, you know, walking in the world 1206 01:19:48.720 --> 01:19:52.560 today is there's people that are Christian, there's people that are non Christian. And, 1207 01:19:52.560 --> 01:19:58.080 you know, yeah. So we look forward to hearing kind of how this goes as you, you know, really pray into 1208 01:19:58.800 --> 01:19:59.840 if God is in 1209 01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:05.200 Encouraging you to spend time with her in this season. I do think that having that discernment in that answer will be good 1210 01:20:05.920 --> 01:20:11.840 But yeah, I think you're gonna continue to get breakthrough. You're asking God really good questions and you're asking good questions tonight 1211 01:20:12.040 --> 01:20:14.120 so let us know how that goes and 1212 01:20:15.120 --> 01:20:17.120 Okay. Thank you so much for sharing 1213 01:20:17.600 --> 01:20:23.920 Yeah, nothing. I did have one last question though. Um, I don't know if you recall how a 1214 01:20:24.520 --> 01:20:28.880 While back that you had said, oh there's a reason why she's in your life again 1215 01:20:28.880 --> 01:20:33.720 I don't know if you remember ever saying that to me and I'm just curious if you do remember 1216 01:20:33.720 --> 01:20:35.720 Do you know why you thought that I? 1217 01:20:36.080 --> 01:20:40.720 Mean, I think she's pulling things out of you that need healed as my general answer 1218 01:20:40.720 --> 01:20:42.720 But I have no clue why I said it to you that night 1219 01:20:43.360 --> 01:20:49.920 Ladies half the time I'd get off these calls and I couldn't tell you unless I went back and watched the replay 1220 01:20:50.840 --> 01:20:55.840 But even then I you know, my I'm going with what I feel like God is bringing up in my spirit 1221 01:20:55.840 --> 01:20:57.680 But even hearing you talk tonight 1222 01:20:57.680 --> 01:21:04.240 I I do think that there are things that God is revealing to you by being around her 1223 01:21:04.680 --> 01:21:06.780 That that do need help, you know 1224 01:21:07.560 --> 01:21:10.400 Could he reveal it to you another way for sure? 1225 01:21:10.600 --> 01:21:16.480 So it's not like you have to keep going around her and if you don't you're not gonna get healed, you know, I'm saying 1226 01:21:17.040 --> 01:21:22.080 Yeah, you'll still walk into healing because I promise you if it's not her 1227 01:21:22.640 --> 01:21:28.160 Someone else is gonna come across your path and God will use them to help you know where you need to heal, too 1228 01:21:28.400 --> 01:21:33.040 So that's just how it works. It's not necessarily it has to always happen through her 1229 01:21:33.120 --> 01:21:36.800 But I just believe that through her coming back into your life 1230 01:21:37.320 --> 01:21:42.240 Things have been getting revealed that needed to be. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah 1231 01:21:42.240 --> 01:21:44.880 It's like when things aren't healed God if he can't get you one way 1232 01:21:44.880 --> 01:21:51.000 He'll get to you another because he loves us right? He doesn't want us to be feeling like that or carrying that. Yes 1233 01:21:51.320 --> 01:21:53.320 Okay 1234 01:21:53.400 --> 01:21:59.760 Yeah, thank you so much Bethany I really appreciate it you're welcome Lisa, thank you so much Tatiana go ahead 1235 01:22:02.200 --> 01:22:07.040 Hey, I wasn't really planning on sharing bows like if there's time 1236 01:22:08.520 --> 01:22:13.480 But okay, so when you were talking I had there's three memories that like came to my mind 1237 01:22:13.480 --> 01:22:19.200 And so I wouldn't necessarily say like imitation or like the two other words 1238 01:22:19.480 --> 01:22:21.320 Like resonated it with me tonight 1239 01:22:21.320 --> 01:22:26.920 but you talked about like when you were a kid and you were kind of just like living life freely and then something happened and 1240 01:22:27.560 --> 01:22:33.320 for me, I noticed that like I definitely pulled back like, um 1241 01:22:34.000 --> 01:22:37.480 I've always known that I'm like a very expressive person like I'm very social 1242 01:22:37.480 --> 01:22:40.680 I love like just to talk to people and like laugh and 1243 01:22:41.280 --> 01:22:45.000 Like just be goofy and like not care about what anybody thinks 1244 01:22:45.600 --> 01:22:48.120 And I was that way like in elementary 1245 01:22:49.040 --> 01:22:52.680 At my elementary school specifically at my church I was not like that 1246 01:22:53.760 --> 01:22:55.760 but like I 1247 01:22:56.080 --> 01:23:02.880 Felt like in that time of my life, like I got along so well with everybody and I felt like everybody liked me 1248 01:23:03.880 --> 01:23:07.760 Just because like I was always myself like, you know, you're gonna laugh with me, you know 1249 01:23:07.760 --> 01:23:09.760 I'm gonna do something so goofy and 1250 01:23:10.320 --> 01:23:12.320 I had a memory that came to my mind 1251 01:23:13.000 --> 01:23:16.420 Which was I want to say was a probably like in around the time 1252 01:23:17.020 --> 01:23:22.300 But I was just in my kitchen and like dancing like nobody's watching literally and then 1253 01:23:22.700 --> 01:23:27.580 my dad had come up the stairs and like he saw me and he just like started laughing and 1254 01:23:29.340 --> 01:23:35.820 From that moment on like I because usually like at home like I'm always singing like even now 1255 01:23:35.820 --> 01:23:38.060 I feel like it's easier for me to just sing like 1256 01:23:38.620 --> 01:23:43.780 whenever like my family will tell me to be quiet sometimes cuz I'm just always singing but 1257 01:23:44.740 --> 01:23:46.740 Dancing no like from that moment on 1258 01:23:47.140 --> 01:23:49.140 Like I only dance in my room by myself 1259 01:23:49.540 --> 01:23:53.540 but I like, you know, I make music I perform and so 1260 01:23:54.140 --> 01:23:56.140 one of the things is like 1261 01:23:56.940 --> 01:24:02.940 Recently, I've started performing more like salsa music and it's so it's like I have to get up there and dance and like really worth 1262 01:24:02.940 --> 01:24:10.380 The crowd but I feel like I hold back so much and it wants to come out like it feels kind of like, um 1263 01:24:11.380 --> 01:24:14.940 All I can think of is when Jeremiah saying like the word was like 1264 01:24:15.540 --> 01:24:20.820 Burning in my heart and like I couldn't hold it back and it feels like it's like a leaping inside of me like wants to 1265 01:24:20.820 --> 01:24:23.380 Come out, but part of me is just like no like stick in there 1266 01:24:24.820 --> 01:24:27.060 So it's like I can dance but maybe like not 1267 01:24:28.060 --> 01:24:33.540 Exactly as much as I want to yeah, so let me ask you this when your dad laughed 1268 01:24:33.660 --> 01:24:36.980 Was it kind of like a mocking laugh? 1269 01:24:36.980 --> 01:24:40.540 Or was it a laugh like he thought it was cute that you know 1270 01:24:40.540 --> 01:24:44.740 Like as your dad like some some parents like I can even think of like times 1271 01:24:44.740 --> 01:24:49.660 I saw my girls doing something and I would like laugh, but I wasn't laughing at them 1272 01:24:49.660 --> 01:24:52.180 I was laughing because I thought they were adorable 1273 01:24:52.340 --> 01:24:59.500 So did you feel like your dad was laughing at you like as in he thought it was silly or? 1274 01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.000 Or did you feel like he was laughing in adoration? 1275 01:25:04.000 --> 01:25:05.000 Mm-hmm. 1276 01:25:05.000 --> 01:25:11.720 Okay, this is really interesting because, like, up until, because you know, like, what 1277 01:25:11.720 --> 01:25:14.880 I've shared with my dad, like, a lot of things have changed. 1278 01:25:14.880 --> 01:25:19.600 And before that, like, perspective shift, in my head, I was always like, oh, he was 1279 01:25:19.600 --> 01:25:21.640 laughing at me. 1280 01:25:21.640 --> 01:25:28.520 And now I feel like, oh, my gosh, I want to cry, like, I think it was a laugh of, like, 1281 01:25:28.520 --> 01:25:32.400 like, like, look at how beautiful my daughter is. 1282 01:25:32.400 --> 01:25:38.560 And yeah, I think that that was one, like, a big thing that has shifted for me was like, 1283 01:25:38.560 --> 01:25:43.040 I always felt like, because my dad is very intimidating. 1284 01:25:43.040 --> 01:25:49.280 And so I always felt like he was a very judgy person, just because I saw him judging other 1285 01:25:49.280 --> 01:25:50.280 people. 1286 01:25:50.280 --> 01:25:56.200 And just because, like, my dad is really good at, like, reading people. 1287 01:25:56.200 --> 01:25:59.560 And so he's always kind of like sizing people up. 1288 01:25:59.560 --> 01:26:04.880 But most of that is just like, to protect my family, I feel like, you know, he's just 1289 01:26:04.880 --> 01:26:06.000 always kind of watching. 1290 01:26:06.000 --> 01:26:11.000 But then sometimes it does go like, into like, hey, like, you're just, you're just criticizing 1291 01:26:11.000 --> 01:26:12.120 them now. 1292 01:26:12.120 --> 01:26:15.720 And so I feel like I kind of internalize that. 1293 01:26:15.720 --> 01:26:18.200 But that's never how he's looked at me. 1294 01:26:18.200 --> 01:26:23.760 Yeah, I think genuinely, the reason I asked you that question is I really wondered if 1295 01:26:24.000 --> 01:26:26.800 he wasn't making fun of you. 1296 01:26:26.800 --> 01:26:32.000 I wrote this down as you were talking, I think that genuinely, this is from the Lord to help 1297 01:26:32.000 --> 01:26:33.960 you continue to process this. 1298 01:26:33.960 --> 01:26:38.520 I think that you help bring childlikeness out of your dad. 1299 01:26:38.520 --> 01:26:42.720 I think that when he sees you, or when he saw you in that moment, you interpreted it 1300 01:26:42.720 --> 01:26:48.600 like you had to be, it's kind of like, same thing, they were in the garden, you know, 1301 01:26:48.600 --> 01:26:51.760 now their situation was different, you weren't doing anything wrong, they ate at the tree. 1302 01:26:51.760 --> 01:26:53.120 So that's the difference there. 1303 01:26:53.120 --> 01:26:54.720 But they were hiding. 1304 01:26:54.720 --> 01:26:57.800 And God's like, why, you know, why are you hiding? 1305 01:26:57.800 --> 01:27:02.400 And so in that moment, it's kind of like, the enemy lied to you and try to get you to 1306 01:27:02.400 --> 01:27:09.040 believe that there was a reason you had to feel shame for dancing like nobody was watching 1307 01:27:09.040 --> 01:27:11.120 because somebody was watching. 1308 01:27:11.120 --> 01:27:15.440 And then when your dad laughed, whatever the enemy said to you in that moment, you partnered 1309 01:27:15.440 --> 01:27:16.440 with that. 1310 01:27:16.440 --> 01:27:21.440 And so I would encourage you to ask, ask the Lord to reveal what what it was that the enemy 1311 01:27:21.440 --> 01:27:23.480 said to you in that moment, too. 1312 01:27:23.480 --> 01:27:26.960 And just see if anything does come up, don't don't pressure yourself about it. 1313 01:27:26.960 --> 01:27:30.360 If it comes up, it comes up at the dozen, it doesn't, because I still think you can 1314 01:27:30.360 --> 01:27:35.880 get massive healing because you're already processing it tonight live with us here. 1315 01:27:35.880 --> 01:27:37.040 And really lean into this. 1316 01:27:37.040 --> 01:27:43.320 My dad adores me, my dad, I, I bring out childlikeness in my dad, and he loves it, like, just keep 1317 01:27:43.320 --> 01:27:47.320 partnering with these things that God is showing you already about your dad. 1318 01:27:47.320 --> 01:27:53.560 And honestly, I would even ask him if he remembers when that happened. 1319 01:27:53.560 --> 01:28:01.920 Okay, and just tell him like, this is something that I, I felt like maybe you thought, you 1320 01:28:01.920 --> 01:28:05.160 know, whatever, whatever it is that you thought now pray about that. 1321 01:28:05.160 --> 01:28:09.520 Because if you don't need to say something, don't but just, you may want to consider that 1322 01:28:09.520 --> 01:28:12.880 because it could be another healing moment for the two of you all. 1323 01:28:12.880 --> 01:28:13.880 Okay. 1324 01:28:13.880 --> 01:28:14.880 Yeah. 1325 01:28:14.880 --> 01:28:16.280 And you can heal without that. 1326 01:28:16.280 --> 01:28:18.760 That's why I want to encourage you to pray first before you do it. 1327 01:28:18.760 --> 01:28:21.040 But I think that you're just continuing. 1328 01:28:21.040 --> 01:28:26.640 It's really exciting to watch you continuing to see the truth about your dad's perspective 1329 01:28:26.640 --> 01:28:28.640 of you. 1330 01:28:28.640 --> 01:28:33.920 Because this is also helping you realize that's how God feels about you too. 1331 01:28:33.920 --> 01:28:36.880 Yeah, it's really awesome. 1332 01:28:36.880 --> 01:28:38.720 Thank you for sharing that with us. 1333 01:28:38.720 --> 01:28:39.720 You're welcome. 1334 01:28:39.720 --> 01:28:40.720 Ariane. 1335 01:28:40.720 --> 01:28:41.720 Hi. 1336 01:28:41.720 --> 01:28:57.000 Oh, you're still muted. 1337 01:28:57.000 --> 01:28:58.000 Can you hear me? 1338 01:28:58.000 --> 01:28:59.000 You're still muted. 1339 01:28:59.000 --> 01:29:02.480 Yeah, I could have. 1340 01:29:02.480 --> 01:29:03.480 You got it. 1341 01:29:03.480 --> 01:29:04.480 Okay. 1342 01:29:04.480 --> 01:29:05.480 Yeah. 1343 01:29:05.480 --> 01:29:13.800 Um, few things I said in the group that I was like competition, but like silent or passive 1344 01:29:13.800 --> 01:29:20.600 competition, like analyzing and then I want to do better not to get criticized. 1345 01:29:20.600 --> 01:29:29.560 But something happened Saturday as Jackie talked about God saying seek my face. 1346 01:29:29.560 --> 01:29:36.920 And I think I talked about it also in the past with you that my mom would say when I 1347 01:29:36.920 --> 01:29:40.080 was a child, like, you know, disappear from my sight. 1348 01:29:40.080 --> 01:29:41.080 Like I don't want to see you. 1349 01:29:41.080 --> 01:29:46.920 I don't want to whatever with angry. 1350 01:29:46.920 --> 01:29:51.400 And it's wow, like God says the opposite seek my face. 1351 01:29:51.400 --> 01:29:55.240 So it was very revelation. 1352 01:29:55.240 --> 01:29:57.980 But it's still I want to hide. 1353 01:29:57.980 --> 01:30:00.060 If I go somewhere, even though like for. 1354 01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:05.220 people want to pray for me and I'm completely off the charts and I'm crying and then people 1355 01:30:05.220 --> 01:30:11.180 come and I'm really like, don't look at me like I have, uh, I call this, this disease 1356 01:30:11.180 --> 01:30:20.800 in the Bible that they, uh, Oh, like leprosy or what? Right. That's how I feel. Um, wow. 1357 01:30:20.800 --> 01:30:27.400 And then I get awareness more like, you know, the things my mom punished me for or did not 1358 01:30:27.440 --> 01:30:33.840 accept me is for normal things. It's not that I did something wrong. Right. So I have a 1359 01:30:33.840 --> 01:30:39.680 lot of, um, the shame you talk about, like you were, um, you know, you didn't want to 1360 01:30:39.680 --> 01:30:45.640 go in the, in the, you didn't want to help from your friends. That's how I feel. I'm, 1361 01:30:45.760 --> 01:30:53.840 I'm completely shut up. And I, I don't know. And then I get aware that the normal things 1362 01:30:53.840 --> 01:31:01.080 became abnormal to me. So I, it wasn't, it was a hot heat wave over here and people 1363 01:31:01.080 --> 01:31:06.280 dress, you know, in shorts and some of them don't even know what to wear, but I see a 1364 01:31:06.280 --> 01:31:11.840 girl and she's happy and she's on the, with the ears and, and I'm thinking like she's 1365 01:31:11.840 --> 01:31:17.600 talking to her friends, whatever. I don't know. But, and this is, this happens. It's 1366 01:31:17.600 --> 01:31:24.520 like a default. Like, okay, so it's not for you. There is no reason that it was not that 1367 01:31:24.520 --> 01:31:30.960 she was very beautiful or very, it's not for you. And this is what I hear so often. And 1368 01:31:30.960 --> 01:31:37.000 you say, yeah, it's not from God, but it's so much by default. Yeah. When people are 1369 01:31:37.000 --> 01:31:44.200 happy or, um, you know, um, I remember when I got divorced, you know, you see couples 1370 01:31:44.200 --> 01:31:47.040 and they put their arm around them. It's like, yeah, it's not for you. You don't have 1371 01:31:47.040 --> 01:31:55.280 it. It's like my safety place. I don't know, but I don't know how to get out of it. And 1372 01:31:55.280 --> 01:32:03.680 I, I could cry for days, but it's, it's not, yeah. I don't want to reach the normal. 1373 01:32:03.920 --> 01:32:11.480 Yeah. Have you ever done where like, and when I say this, it's not because I don't think 1374 01:32:11.480 --> 01:32:17.000 you can do it on your own, but sometimes, you know, ladies, we need intensive, like 1375 01:32:17.360 --> 01:32:22.400 where we go somewhere for like a retreat place, but for like an extended amount of 1376 01:32:22.400 --> 01:32:31.840 time, where it's just all healing, it's all peaceful. There's no toxicity coming into 1377 01:32:31.840 --> 01:32:38.440 our space. Um, have you ever considered doing something like that, Ariane? Like where you 1378 01:32:38.440 --> 01:32:47.040 just literally have, you know, several months where you're just in a peaceful setting. I 1379 01:32:47.040 --> 01:32:52.600 just feel like, you know, your body tries to convince you that you're still in flight 1380 01:32:52.600 --> 01:32:57.920 mode. And that's why some of your defaults are, you know, the reality is, is like, we 1381 01:32:57.920 --> 01:33:05.280 can't just change our brain, right? We have to like partner with God in the rewiring and 1382 01:33:05.280 --> 01:33:10.880 some of that has to be a supernatural work. Some of that just, you know, the more we heal 1383 01:33:10.880 --> 01:33:19.320 will happen over time. You know, you have been through so much that it is, it doesn't 1384 01:33:19.320 --> 01:33:24.840 surprise me that that's your default. Even still, you've been doing a great job. I, the 1385 01:33:24.840 --> 01:33:31.040 reality is that you're just continuing to heal and it just is going to take time. Um, the 1386 01:33:31.040 --> 01:33:36.120 other thing is that, um, when you said that, don't look at me, like kind of that, that 1387 01:33:36.120 --> 01:33:42.200 comes up for you. Um, you know, the reality is, is that, you know, even when you tell 1388 01:33:42.200 --> 01:33:48.040 us that you struggle with these things, we see you and we love you. It's, it's in person 1389 01:33:48.080 --> 01:33:56.640 allowing people to see you in the realness of who you are and realize that some, let 1390 01:33:56.640 --> 01:34:04.200 me say it this way too. Some people are going to love me and some people aren't right. That 1391 01:34:04.200 --> 01:34:14.640 is just life. I want everyone to love me. I also struggle with people pleasing. So that's 1392 01:34:14.640 --> 01:34:18.760 something I grew up in my life. Like I wanted everybody to be peaceful and happy and it 1393 01:34:18.760 --> 01:34:26.120 wasn't any of that. But the reality is I've had to just learn that it's really, it's not 1394 01:34:26.120 --> 01:34:33.240 easy, but I've just learned like, it's okay if everybody doesn't love Bethany. Now I think 1395 01:34:33.240 --> 01:34:40.160 I'm pretty lovable and I think they're crazy for not loving me. Um, you know, but I just 1396 01:34:40.160 --> 01:34:46.960 have had to choose to be okay. Even if they don't, because there's five other people who 1397 01:34:46.960 --> 01:34:55.040 do so to speak, you know, and so I can focus on the people that do love me and accept me 1398 01:34:55.040 --> 01:35:00.080 and give me the space to heal and grow and focus on those people. 1399 01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:05.060 versus the ones that don't and and that's not an easy thing especially when 1400 01:35:05.060 --> 01:35:10.680 you know you were kind of programmed to believe by the people around you that 1401 01:35:10.680 --> 01:35:15.880 you don't matter so part of you like you're turning in your healing process 1402 01:35:15.880 --> 01:35:19.040 you're kind of turning the big ship if you will you're kind of turning 1403 01:35:19.040 --> 01:35:23.400 something that was sailing a big ship this way you're through the Holy Spirit 1404 01:35:23.400 --> 01:35:29.240 he's helping you turn that ship to go in a different direction and retraining our 1405 01:35:29.240 --> 01:35:35.240 brain takes time 30 days of thinking the same thought over and over and over 1406 01:35:35.240 --> 01:35:40.440 again at least so again I'm not saying this is easy but I want to encourage you 1407 01:35:40.440 --> 01:35:45.760 to write down the thoughts that you said tonight don't look at me your mom used 1408 01:35:45.760 --> 01:35:50.840 to say disappear from my sight and then I forget what the third one was that you 1409 01:35:50.840 --> 01:35:54.240 said but those three things I want to encourage you to write those down but 1410 01:35:54.240 --> 01:35:58.880 then write just kind of like when I was telling one of the other ladies write 1411 01:35:58.880 --> 01:36:04.880 the opposite of it so like seek my face God is saying to you hey come close to 1412 01:36:04.880 --> 01:36:12.080 me do you know that God says he'll even like make a bet like bed in hell to come 1413 01:36:12.080 --> 01:36:19.720 be with us and find us and bring us back to him he's not I mean he doesn't even 1414 01:36:19.720 --> 01:36:24.260 burn up with that stuff cuz he's light right but here's the reality is he will 1415 01:36:24.260 --> 01:36:33.620 go after us because he loves us so much so what's the opposite of don't look at 1416 01:36:33.620 --> 01:36:42.460 me it's hey everybody see me because I matter or whatever the opposite is that 1417 01:36:42.460 --> 01:36:46.260 God gives you but that's you know we have to break it down ladies and really 1418 01:36:46.260 --> 01:36:50.660 get to the kind of the nitty-gritty of some of this stuff but then don't just 1419 01:36:50.660 --> 01:36:56.540 do it for one night put it up where you can see it tell yourself remind yourself 1420 01:36:56.540 --> 01:37:00.980 you know I always say speaking out loud over yourself speaking the word of God 1421 01:37:00.980 --> 01:37:07.500 out loud over yourself is a game changer okay so are you on keep doing keep doing 1422 01:37:07.500 --> 01:37:10.660 what you're doing I'm so glad that you were here tonight it's been awesome to 1423 01:37:10.660 --> 01:37:16.100 see you I actually have to close our session down I'm really trying to start 1424 01:37:16.100 --> 01:37:22.500 ending us at an hour and 15 to an hour and a half at the latest and whatnot so 1425 01:37:22.500 --> 01:37:26.660 I'm so glad to hear from all of you tonight but I am gonna pray us out 1426 01:37:26.660 --> 01:37:31.260 Deborah I see your hand up now as well if you can put your post in the group 1427 01:37:31.260 --> 01:37:35.340 and then I can respond to you there I'd be so grateful for that father thank you 1428 01:37:35.340 --> 01:37:39.220 so much for this night God we thank you for all the revealings for healing that 1429 01:37:39.220 --> 01:37:43.380 are happening we thank you for change and transformation God we pray that you 1430 01:37:43.380 --> 01:37:46.780 would just take these truths to the core of who we are God that you would 1431 01:37:46.780 --> 01:37:50.860 help us to see the real us who you originally created us to be without any 1432 01:37:50.860 --> 01:37:56.300 blemish without any fault God without any shame guilt condemnation like the 1433 01:37:56.300 --> 01:38:01.540 pureness the innocence being restored God we thank you for just that you would 1434 01:38:01.540 --> 01:38:05.500 just come tonight God the great physician that you would work in our 1435 01:38:05.500 --> 01:38:09.740 hearts in our lives supernaturally in ways that we could not even do it 1436 01:38:09.740 --> 01:38:13.100 ourselves God that people will literally wake up tomorrow like 1437 01:38:13.100 --> 01:38:17.140 something has broken off of them that they'll just they'll feel freedom in 1438 01:38:17.140 --> 01:38:22.940 their spirit in Jesus name amen amen amen God bless you all have a good night 1439 01:38:22.940 --> 01:38:27.220 everyone I'll see you in the groups good night