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All right, welcome to Supernatural Saturday.

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I am so glad that you are here joining me.

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I am not at home this morning.

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I am out in the middle of nowhere.

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You're like, Jackie, you're always somewhere, you're always on an adventure, not really.

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But I am today and what I'm at is I am at an inner healing retreat.

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It's not a silent retreat, but it's kind of close to that type of vibe where I have come

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to really just focus on some areas in my own heart that I want to have healed.

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They only take five people at a time and it's out in the middle of nowhere, as I said, and

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it's very secluded and it's very quiet and it's very country and it's very contemplative.

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Getting out of the big city, getting out of the noise, getting out of the rush of every

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day is important a lot.

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And friends, for those of you that have been around for a while, you know that I committed

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to trying to sabbatical.

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If you've been around since last summer, you know that I took a sabbatical last summer.

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I wish that I could say that I did it voluntarily, but I did it because I crashed out.

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I crashed out and I was kind of forced.

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It was a forced sabbatical.

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I had no choice but to take a sabbatical because I was burnt out.

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And some of you probably feel that way as well.

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You're like, Jackie, I need a sabbatical.

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And friends, there's lots of ways to take a sabbatical.

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Basically the bottom line when it comes to sabbatical is you have to carve out time where

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you are doing nothing except just being.

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That's what sabbatical is all about.

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You know, we are creatures of doing, aren't we?

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We're not human beings.

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We're human doings.

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And we're always doing, doing, doing, doing, doing, doing.

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Even those of you that know how to rest, you're usually doing because we're performing rest.

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We're not really resting.

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We're performing rest, right?

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It's still doing.

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And the reason why is because we have been matched with a generation.

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All of you have been born into a culture that's all about doing.

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What have you done?

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What have you done today?

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Think about it.

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You get together with people and they'll say, oh, what did you do today?

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And then you list off all the things that you did today.

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And there's nothing wrong with doing as long as we understand that our doing is not our

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who-ing.

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Our who is more important than our do.

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And so it's good to carve out some time where you just sit with your who for a while and

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you sit with the one that you are, whose you are too.

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Not just your who, knowing who you are, but knowing whose you are.

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Sitting with that.

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And I call that sabbatical.

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So whether that's just a couple hours a week where you're sabbaticaling, maybe it's a day

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of the week.

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I know some people, their day off, they try to, if they have the weekend off, they try

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to make one of those days a day where they're just sitting a little bit, being quiet a little

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bit more, just being in that place of repose a little bit more.

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And there's a lot of things that have come to try to steal sabbatical from us.

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Things that try to medicate us, try to numb our minds, entertainment on demand, obviously

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social media is one of those things.

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But it's really important, friends, that we just get outside and touch some grass.

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I feel one of the greatest places to sabbatical is outside, outdoors.

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And it's because you are in the beauty of nature, you're in the quiet of nature.

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If you can get to a place where there's not a lot of people, maybe going to a crowded

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park is not the prescription that I'm talking about right now.

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But going someplace where you can just be alone or partially alone with your thoughts

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and with God, that will regenerate you so fast, that will rejuvenate you so fast.

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You feel tired, you feel burnout, you feel mentally exhausted, you feel like hope has

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left the chat.

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That is going to bring a lot back.

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So that's not what I'm going to talk to you guys about today.

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I am doing that.

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I just want to let you guys know that that's what I'm doing this weekend.

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I'm sabbatical.

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I've had this plan since last summer.

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So this trip was planned since last summer and here I am.

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And I'm by myself, you know, David's not with me here at the retreat.

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You know, he's somewhere in this city that I'm in, but he is not with me.

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And so I'm just having some time, some space, creating some space where I can just be.

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You know, be with God, be with here with my thoughts, be with some unhealed trauma from

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my mother's passing.

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That's one of the main things that I'm working on getting through and getting over and fully

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releasing.

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For those of you that have lost a parent, you know that that grief is an, it's an odd

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duck, isn't it?

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Grief.

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As soon as you feel like, oh, I'm good, you know, I feel like I've released this.

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I feel like I've come to terms with this.

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I feel like I've come to that level of grief.

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You know, they say there's these stages of grief.

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You feel like you got to acceptance.

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You've got to that stage of acceptance where you finally understand and you can release

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it and you can move on.

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And then, you know, you're right back to bargaining.

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You're right back to anger.

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You're right back to denial.

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You're right.

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It's like, oh, wait a second.

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This happened six years ago.

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Shouldn't I be over this by now?

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So for those of you that you had some kind of traumatic loss, whether it was the loss

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of a loved one, whether it was a loss of a relationship of any kind, whether it was

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a loss of a job or a career, it doesn't matter what it was.

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You had a great, a great loss that caused a great grief and a trauma.

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And sometimes you revisit that even when you feel like you should be over it.

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There is no timeline to this.

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You know, I remember back in the day, people would say, well, you know, in the Hebrew,

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the Hebrew nation in the olden days, back then, they only gave you 30 days to grieve.

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And then you had to, you know, you can sit in sackcloth and ashes for 30 days, but then

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you had to suck it up, buttercup.

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And you know, I understand we got to move forward, but at the same time, you know, God

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is with us.

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He's the good shepherd.

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Jesus is the good shepherd and he is shepherding us.

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And when we're hurt, he's carrying us.

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You know, when we're injured, when we're hurting, he's helping us.

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He's with us and he's close to us in a special way.

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And so if anyone thinks, well, you know, you should be over this by now, now you're just

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becoming a victim.

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I don't know.

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You could be.

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I mean, you have to pray into that.

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Some of us do take on a victim mentality, but at the same time, I do believe that God

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is close to those that are brokenhearted and the crushed in spirit.

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Isn't that what the Bible says?

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It is.

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So if that's for you today, then take it.

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But I'm here to move forward in some areas, especially that area, and to really look at

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why I might be holding on to it longer than I need to and why it might be deeply bothering

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me still.

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And it's really interesting because the people at this retreat don't know about any of the

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things that have to do with my mother and I.

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They don't even know me and they definitely don't know her.

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But one of my mother's favorite songs at the end of her life, one of the things that she

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listened to on repeat, one of the things that brought her comfort was music.

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At the end of her life, she was suffering greatly and she was leaving this life.

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And we had a playlist for her and she would lay that phone on her chest at nighttime because

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that was particularly when she would feel scared and she would feel sad.

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And she would just listen to it on repeat all night long.

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She would sleep with that music playing and it was a whole playlist of all different types

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of songs that were popular in that year, 2019 and 2020.

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And one of those songs was a song that I'm sure is familiar to all of you.

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And that song is the song Waymaker.

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Raise your hand if you know this song.

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For those of you that don't, you may have heard it before.

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It just says, he's a waymaker, miracle worker, promise keeper, light in the darkness.

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That is who you are.

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Like you're singing it to God, that is who you are.

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So that was one of her favorite, favorite songs.

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In fact, I would say it was her most favorite song.

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And today here at the retreat, the retreat just started yesterday, today at the retreat

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this morning in our morning devotion worship, that was the song that they played.

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Of all the songs that they could pick, you know, of all the gin joints and all the world,

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you know, you walk in here, you know, it's like, that's the song that they played.

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And I was like, okay, God, I see you.

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I see you.

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I see you seeing me.

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And somebody needs to know that God sees them this morning.

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And this is where I want to go with Supernatural Saturday.

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So don't leave.

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Stay here because God sees you.

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God showed me by them picking that song out of the huge catalog of songs that they could

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have chosen, the huge Christian music library that exists on this earth.

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They chose that song.

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And apparently that's the song they always play on the first morning of retreat because

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they love it.

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And because I forget what she said before she started playing it.

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But the bottom line is, is that God's like, okay, little girl, I see what you've come

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here for.

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I see what you need.

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And we're going to start here.

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We're going to start with me giving a confirmation by playing your mother's favorite song that

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I know that you're here to be released from the pain that you're carrying from your mother,

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the pain that you're carrying from her.

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And so I want to do a supernatural Saturday this morning on this song just for a few minutes

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with you guys.

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I won't keep you for long this morning.

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I just want us to kind of dig into this because some of us need hope.

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And while that song was playing this morning, I was sitting there, the lights were dimmed.

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It was a comfortable room environment.

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And I just started talking to God as soon as, I got to be honest with you, as soon as

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the song came on and I heard it, a little bit of anger came up in my heart, a little

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bit of disappointment came up in my heart.

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Come on, we're going to get really real this morning.

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Because my mom was wanting him to be her way maker and her miracle worker to keep his promises.

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She was trusting him and I'm so proud of her.

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Even though she didn't live necessarily as a believer all of her life, you know, she

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had been in the church as a young person, but there was a lot of spiritual abuse in

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the church that she was raised in and she didn't raise us in church.

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And there's a lot of different reasons I think that that happened.

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But, you know, when I was a little bit older and gone from the house, you know, she started

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attending church kind of sporadically again.

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And then at the end of her life, you know, when she was diagnosed and she was sick, you

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know, she really pressed into her faith.

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She really did.

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And she really trusted God and those four years of a lot of suffering that she experienced.

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But we also saw a lot of miracles.

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We also saw a lot of grace.

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There was a lot of healing that happened in our family and in my relationship with my

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mom specifically.

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And there's a lot to be thankful for.

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But I just got to tell you that I'm so proud of her.

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She could have complained.

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She could have felt sorry for herself.

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She could have put on, you know, the shoes of the victim.

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She could have done that, but she didn't.

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She didn't do that.

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And that was her favorite song and she sang it and she loved it and she listened to it

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and so many other songs that just worshiped God.

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And she continued to trust Him until the moment that, you know, He took her to be with

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Him.

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But when I heard that song this morning, and I haven't heard it in a long time, I think

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I've purposely avoided any of that music from that time period because it just brings back

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a lot of, you know, hard things.

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But when that song came on this morning and that was a song that they intentionally chose

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and played, I was like, oh, great.

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I wasn't processing it as, oh, okay, God, you see me, you're confirming that you're

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going to heal me of this residue that I'm carrying of grief.

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I didn't immediately process it that way.

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Isn't it funny how a lot of times we will, you know, misinterpret or misunderstand what

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it is that God's trying to do or trying to say to us, and it's because we're offended.

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Friends, we have to be careful allowing our hearts to be offended because offense will

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cause you to have a filter that doesn't allow you to see the goodness of God and what He's

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trying to do.

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And so I immediately put up my guard when that song came on.

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Immediately I began to harden my heart a little bit and to begin to get offended.

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Thankfully, just a few seconds later, I began to talk to the Lord and I began to soften

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my heart and I began to relax in the moment and I began to release that pain that was

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starting to rear up inside of me.

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And I began to cry.

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And I said, you know, God, she, she trusted you to be her way maker.

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And, you know, there's that little edge in my words of, and you didn't, and you didn't

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come through.

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You didn't save her.

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But in that same moment, and then I remembered all the times that I called her and all the

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times I prayed over her and all the words that I gave her and all the words that people

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gave me that I then gave to her because, you know, so many supernatural things happened.

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And then there was this little thought in my mind that, oh, you know, I gave her so

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much false hope.

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this is what God's.

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said to me. He said, Jackie, there's no such thing as false hope.

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He said, hope can never be false. He said it can only be misplaced.

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Come on, you guys. He said, there's no such thing as false hope.

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Hope can never be false. It can only be misplaced.

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Hope in me.

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And I want to release that over you guys this morning and over myself.

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Don't hope in your marriage that's coming.

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I'm not saying that none of these things aren't going to happen,

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but your hope can never be put in these things. You know that, right?

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Don't hope in your future spouse. Don't hope in your paycheck.

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Don't hope in anything except Jesus. Hope can never be false.

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It can only be misplaced. Come on.

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I see a theme because yesterday on our way here, there was nothing,

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nothing except country roads and a back country road.

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There was no freeways to get here. It was a long ride.

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And there was barely any gas stations along this route.

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And we stopped because I had to go to the bathroom.

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And I'm like, if I don't go now, huh, there might not be,

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I might be going on the side of the road later.

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So we stopped at this gas station and everyone had the same idea.

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There was a line for the women's bathroom.

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And there was a lady in front of the gas station.

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And there was a lady in front of me, an older lady in line.

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And she turned around and her, and her t-shirt said,

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in Christ alone, my hope is found.

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Come on, you guys, I release it over you.

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In Christ alone, my hope is found.

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Your hope is not ever going to return void when it is placed in the right place.

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And here's the thing, you know, I wanted a different outcome for my mom.

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I want her to be fully healed.

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I want her to live a vibrant life on earth with her children and her

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grandchildren and all the things.

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But, you know, I have no idea the conversations that she and God had.

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And so often we, we just take up an offense for someone else.

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Don't we?

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We become offended because we think that God should have done something

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different for someone else.

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That's not even us having no idea what that relationship on the inside

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looks like between them and God.

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And what they've talked about and what the hopes and dreams of their heart is.

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God has shared some things with me since my mom passed away six years ago about

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her own heart and about her weariness of this life and about the suffering that

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she experienced here that had nothing to do with the sickness that she had

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at the end of her life.

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And I can't even pretend to understand my mother's torment.

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I'm just an outsider looking in, thinking that I know something.

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My friends, hope can never be false.

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Hope can never be false.

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You guys know, if you know me, if you've met me in person, you probably know

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that I have hope tattooed on my hand.

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Not a big tattoo tattoo, but I have hope tattooed on my hand.

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And the reason why is because I believe I have been created to hand out hope to

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people.

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I'm definitely what we talk about when we say a hope dealer.

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And so of course it's important to me to not think that I'm giving anyone false

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hope.

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Right?

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But it's up to people to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to, to,

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to people to take the hope that is being extended to them and place it in the right

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place.

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So I want to go through the lyrics of this song this morning and I want you to begin

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to take what you need.

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Have you ever seen those papers that are up on bulletin boards and maybe taped to a

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poll outside on a street where it just says, you know, take one and it's a sheet of

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paper and it has some kind of message on it, some kind of events, some kind of

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thing.

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And then at the bottom, it's cut into little like a fringe and then you just rip

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off one of the little things on the bottom.

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Like take what you need, like take one, take this phone number.

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If you're interested in what this this poster says, you can take a little piece of

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that poster that has the information that you need on it in order to get access to

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whatever that thing is.

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So that's what we're going to do this morning.

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Take what you need.

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Whatever it is that you need, you're going to take.

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And so we're going to start right here.

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So for those of you that don't know that song, I'm going to go ahead and really

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encourage you to go listen to it.

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Because some of you have spent many, many, many weeks,

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maybe months, maybe even years

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asking God to change your circumstances.

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But today we're gonna talk about

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something different than that.

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We're gonna talk about what if our breakthrough

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doesn't begin with our circumstances changing?

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What if it begins with us just remembering who God is?

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It's easy to forget.

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And this song reminds us,

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he's a way maker, a miracle worker, a promise keeper,

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a light in the darkness, that is who you are.

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Right, it's not saying that is what you do,

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it's saying that is who you are.

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So here's our first activation for today's call.

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Which one of those four things of God,

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of who he is, his character,

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do you need God to be for you right now?

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Do you need a way maker?

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Do you need a miracle worker?

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Do you need a promise keeper?

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Do you need a light in your darkness?

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Go ahead and put it in the chat.

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What do you need?

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Someone's like, I'll take all four, baby.

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Seriously though, I want you to pick one.

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Of course we need him to be all four,

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but I want you to pick one that really resonates

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with where you are right now in life.

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What do you need God to be?

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Do you need him to light the path in front of you?

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Do you feel like it's dark?

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Do you feel confused?

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Do you feel lost?

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Do you need a light in the darkness?

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Do you have some promises that are as heavy on your heart

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and you just need him to keep his promise to you

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in whatever area, whatever prophetic word,

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whatever promise that you've received?

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Do you need a way to be made out of no way?

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Are you in a very difficult place

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and do you need that proverbial red seed apart

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and for God to make a way out of no way?

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Do you need a miracle?

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Do you straight up need a miracle?

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A miracle in a relationship, a miracle in your finances.

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A miracle is something that makes no sense.

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There's no way that it could have happened.

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It's one of those things that you look at

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and you're just like, everybody looks at it

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and they're like, this is impossible.

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Like this, this doesn't make any sense.

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I have no idea how this happened.

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Come on.

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No idea.

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Trina, don't be afraid to pick.

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Friends, there's no scarcity in the kingdom of God.

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Just because you're declaring that you need him to show up

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in a certain place in his personality and character

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in your life right now,

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you're not negating the rest of the things.

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You're not saying, yeah, you know,

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I'll pick one and I'll do without the rest.

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That's not what we're saying.

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We're just declaring this right now.

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I need a promise keeper.

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I need a way maker.

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I need a way maker.

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Okay, all right.

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So let's talk about some of these.

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Let's talk about a way maker.

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I mean, look in the word.

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You guys, the word is what we have to go on.

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And if you've not been in your word for a while,

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I wanna encourage you to get in your word.

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Not into some podcast, not into some sermon on YouTube,

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into the word yourself.

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You'd be amazed at what God can show you.

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You're like, well, Jackie, I'm no theologian.

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I don't even know what I'm reading.

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I don't care.

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Holy Spirit is with you and Holy Spirit is a theologian.

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Holy Spirit will, you know, he is the spirit of truth.

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He is the teacher.

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He will come and he will show you what you need to see.

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You will see things in a different way,

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in a different light than you've ever seen them before.

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You will understand things that you never understood

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if you will just give it a chance.

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But if we do get in the word of God,

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we see that God specializes in places that are hard.

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Doesn't he?

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In places where there's no clear paved path.

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Because if there was already a path,

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then we wouldn't need a way maker.

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We wouldn't need a way maker.

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This is why I think it's Matthew 7, 11 says

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that we should ask, seek and knock.

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What are we doing?

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We're staring at closed doors.

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We could be wondering why God hasn't opened that door yet,

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but maybe he's not opening that door

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because there's an entirely different door.

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And you're not gonna know

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if you don't knock on a lot of doors.

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One of them's gonna open because he's a way maker.

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You see in the Word of God that there's a lot of things that should have been obstacles

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in people's lives, but it wasn't.

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The Red Sea wasn't even an obstacle.

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We just talked about that.

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It became a highway, didn't it?

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Oftentimes, I have seen that God doesn't actually remove the impossible.

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He just walks you right through it.

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He makes a way.

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He makes a way through it.

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I know that we would like to not come to it.

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I'm sure that they didn't want to come to the Red Sea.

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It wasn't a punishment, you guys.

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The Red Sea wasn't a punishment.

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It was meant to be the second experience because he just delivered them out of Egypt.

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He had made a way for them.

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That was a miracle, right?

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And then he brought them to the Red Sea.

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He brought them to a place where he was about to show them more about who he was and what

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he could do.

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That was important.

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It wasn't a punishment.

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A lot of times we get to these Red Seas in our lives and we're like, oh, I took a wrong

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turn somewhere.

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God's mad at me.

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This is some kind of punishment.

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Now I'm trapped.

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Now I'm stuck.

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That's not what's going on.

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God wants to walk you through.

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So for those of you that chose that, or maybe you didn't choose it, but ask yourself right

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now, where have I convinced myself that there's just no way?

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Go ahead and put it in the chat.

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Where have I convinced myself that there's just, I can't get there from here.

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I can't get there from here.

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Maybe your excuses, I'm too old, it's too late, I should have started earlier, I can't

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retire because I should have started saving money when I was a lot younger than I am.

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Blah, blah, blah, blah.

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Where have you convinced yourself that there's just no way?

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Can't afford to go back to school.

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Don't have the time.

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Lots of people putting up a lot of stuff about debt.

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I want you to, whatever it is that you're writing down, I know you're writing it in

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the chat.

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Hopefully you have a pen and paper somewhere.

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Hopefully you journal during Supernatural Saturday, because it doesn't matter what I'm

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saying.

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It doesn't matter what the replay says.

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It matters what God is saying to you while I'm talking.

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That is the treasure.

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And so hopefully you're writing those treasured thoughts down somewhere so that you can go

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back and look at them again.

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For those of you that are doing that, write underneath whatever you just wrote.

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I want you to write, God is already making a way, even if I can't see it.

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Isn't that what the song says?

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Even when I can't see it, you're working.

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You never stop.

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You never stop working.

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00:28:29.960 --> 00:28:34.200
Romans 8.28 tells us that he's going to work all things to our good.

480
00:28:34.200 --> 00:28:37.480
And that means that if it hasn't worked to your good yet, that means it's not over yet.

481
00:28:37.480 --> 00:28:41.000
The story's not over yet, right?

482
00:28:41.000 --> 00:28:42.760
So miracle worker.

483
00:28:42.760 --> 00:28:44.300
Let's go to the second one here.

484
00:28:44.300 --> 00:28:45.300
Miracle worker.

485
00:28:45.300 --> 00:28:51.140
Let's think about the miracles in the Bible.

486
00:28:51.140 --> 00:28:52.740
Remember we're going to go back to the word.

487
00:28:52.740 --> 00:28:56.060
I feel like God wants us all to go back to study hall in this season of life.

488
00:28:56.060 --> 00:28:57.060
We got to go back to the word.

489
00:28:57.060 --> 00:28:58.060
What does the word say?

490
00:28:58.060 --> 00:28:59.940
It doesn't really matter what you think.

491
00:28:59.940 --> 00:29:03.140
It matters what's the word say.

492
00:29:03.140 --> 00:29:04.380
It's not about what you believe.

493
00:29:04.380 --> 00:29:06.740
It's about, you know, it's not about what God can do.

494
00:29:06.740 --> 00:29:08.740
It's about what you believe he can do.

495
00:29:08.740 --> 00:29:10.340
And so it's like, what does the word say?

496
00:29:10.340 --> 00:29:13.060
Let's see what he did for others.

497
00:29:13.060 --> 00:29:17.220
The people in the word of God that are mentioned in the word of God, the stories that are in

498
00:29:17.220 --> 00:29:20.380
the word of God, these people are regular people.

499
00:29:20.380 --> 00:29:22.500
They're flawed people.

500
00:29:22.500 --> 00:29:23.580
They're not better than you.

501
00:29:23.580 --> 00:29:25.140
They're not different than you.

502
00:29:25.140 --> 00:29:29.520
That's what I love about it.

503
00:29:29.520 --> 00:29:35.060
And all of the miracles that we see, let's think about the miracles that we see.

504
00:29:35.060 --> 00:29:38.620
Most of them started with some kind of insufficiency, right?

505
00:29:38.620 --> 00:29:44.300
The loaves and fishes, the one with the issue of blood, the doctors couldn't fix her.

506
00:29:44.300 --> 00:29:48.620
There was an insufficiency there.

507
00:29:48.620 --> 00:29:56.380
See the widow, the cruise of oil that didn't fail, the famine, all the things, right?

508
00:29:56.380 --> 00:30:00.060
Five loaves, two fish, empty jars, dead dreams.

509
00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:16.160
Miracles tend to start with what we could never get our hands on.

510
00:30:16.160 --> 00:30:17.900
We don't have the resources.

511
00:30:17.900 --> 00:30:18.960
We can't fix this.

512
00:30:18.960 --> 00:30:23.560
This is unfixable.

513
00:30:23.560 --> 00:30:35.520
What about promise keepers?

514
00:30:35.520 --> 00:30:39.140
And this is where I get stuck, because I know that God can, but I don't always believe

515
00:30:39.140 --> 00:30:40.140
He will.

516
00:30:40.140 --> 00:30:43.380
And maybe that's where you guys are as well.

517
00:30:43.380 --> 00:30:47.740
In my past, I have believed that I wasn't good enough, not ready enough, not mature

518
00:30:47.740 --> 00:30:48.740
enough.

519
00:30:48.740 --> 00:30:49.740
I hadn't earned it yet.

520
00:30:49.740 --> 00:30:53.460
I have let go of a lot of those ideas.

521
00:30:53.460 --> 00:30:58.560
But when time goes on and nothing's happening in the areas of our promises, we start to

522
00:30:58.560 --> 00:31:03.320
believe that maybe they're not going to actually come to pass, right?

523
00:31:03.320 --> 00:31:06.140
It makes us question those promises.

524
00:31:06.140 --> 00:31:08.320
And most of the promises are not miracle level.

525
00:31:08.320 --> 00:31:10.660
They're just things that could easily happen.

526
00:31:10.660 --> 00:31:14.760
Like all of you are here because you believe that God has given you a promise of marriage.

527
00:31:14.760 --> 00:31:15.760
That's not a miracle situation.

528
00:31:15.760 --> 00:31:18.420
Now, some of you will be like, but Jackie, it's 2026.

529
00:31:18.420 --> 00:31:19.420
It is a miracle.

530
00:31:19.420 --> 00:31:20.420
Yeah.

531
00:31:20.420 --> 00:31:27.500
And I know because it happens every day, literally, thousands of people are going to get married

532
00:31:27.500 --> 00:31:29.120
today.

533
00:31:29.120 --> 00:31:31.760
Why not you?

534
00:31:31.760 --> 00:31:37.580
But when it doesn't happen, that makes us doubt.

535
00:31:37.580 --> 00:31:41.840
But we have to understand that there are things that we have to participate in, and all of

536
00:31:41.840 --> 00:31:44.680
you are here because you're participating in those promises.

537
00:31:44.680 --> 00:31:48.880
But even when we participate in those promises, sometimes it doesn't happen the way that we

538
00:31:48.880 --> 00:31:52.100
think it should or when we think it should.

539
00:31:52.100 --> 00:31:57.460
But when we look back at the word of God, we see that God has never broken his word

540
00:31:57.460 --> 00:31:58.460
not once.

541
00:31:58.460 --> 00:32:08.940
So I want you to put in the chat right now, what have my actions, I'm trying to word this,

542
00:32:08.940 --> 00:32:13.420
I'm trying to think, because I don't want you to say just what have I stopped believing,

543
00:32:13.420 --> 00:32:16.420
but what have my actions said that I stopped believing?

544
00:32:16.480 --> 00:32:19.280
Because remember, God does his part, but we do our part.

545
00:32:19.280 --> 00:32:21.360
And so when we stop believing, we start doubting.

546
00:32:21.360 --> 00:32:26.880
One of the first things that we do is we stop participating, we stop partnering with God.

547
00:32:26.880 --> 00:32:33.760
So if I was looking at your life and looking at the actions that you take every day, where

548
00:32:33.760 --> 00:32:41.700
would I see that you have stopped partnering actively with a promise?

549
00:32:41.700 --> 00:32:44.920
Which means that you're in doubt right now that it's going to come to pass.

550
00:32:44.920 --> 00:32:47.060
You've kind of just sort of given up on that.

551
00:32:47.060 --> 00:32:49.980
Where would I see that in your life?

552
00:32:49.980 --> 00:32:55.100
What promise have you quietly stopped believing and taking action on?

553
00:32:55.100 --> 00:32:56.220
Go ahead and put that in the chat.

554
00:33:14.920 --> 00:33:44.220
I'm just going to activate a couple of people here just really quickly.

555
00:33:45.220 --> 00:33:51.720
So Jamie is saying that he would allow my speaking ministry to come or to never come.

556
00:33:51.720 --> 00:33:52.720
Here's the thing.

557
00:33:52.720 --> 00:33:59.400
If any of you are like Jamie, you feel your promises to speak and you feel called to speak,

558
00:33:59.400 --> 00:34:06.120
I want to give you advice, practical advice from someone who does speak, obviously, and

559
00:34:06.120 --> 00:34:08.280
that is to speak.

560
00:34:08.280 --> 00:34:10.639
I remember a young woman asked me one time.

561
00:34:10.699 --> 00:34:16.340
I was at a speaking engagement, ironically, and afterwards, this young woman came up to

562
00:34:16.340 --> 00:34:20.540
me and she goes, oh, you know, I have a call of God in my life to speak and blah, blah,

563
00:34:20.540 --> 00:34:22.620
blah, blah, and da, da, da, da.

564
00:34:22.620 --> 00:34:24.260
And I was like, oh yeah, that's awesome.

565
00:34:24.260 --> 00:34:26.179
And she's like, well, can I ask you something?

566
00:34:26.179 --> 00:34:27.980
And I was just like, yeah.

567
00:34:27.980 --> 00:34:32.540
And she was like, how do I, you know, how do I, you know, get on?

568
00:34:32.540 --> 00:34:36.420
You know, I think that she said that the promise of God was that she would speak at, you know,

569
00:34:36.420 --> 00:34:42.159
in arenas and in stadiums and on big stages and, you know, you know, stuff like that bombastic

570
00:34:42.159 --> 00:34:44.880
kind of promise.

571
00:34:44.880 --> 00:34:45.880
And I was like, great.

572
00:34:45.880 --> 00:34:47.280
You know, that's amazing.

573
00:34:47.280 --> 00:34:51.480
And she's like, well, you know, how, you know, how do I, how do I get there?

574
00:34:51.480 --> 00:34:57.320
And I said to her, very simply, I said, well, what would you speak about on those stages

575
00:34:57.320 --> 00:34:59.320
and in those stadiums and arenas?

576
00:34:59.320 --> 00:35:00.000
And I forget what she.

577
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:06.240
said. I wish I remembered, but your girl doesn't always remember details. So forgive me for that.

578
00:35:06.240 --> 00:35:10.320
But whatever she said was something like, you know, God's love or, you know, this,

579
00:35:10.320 --> 00:35:14.640
I just don't remember what it was, but she said it to me. And then I said back to her,

580
00:35:15.520 --> 00:35:20.720
okay, who have you told that to today? And she was like, what do you mean? I was like,

581
00:35:20.720 --> 00:35:26.800
if you would speak on big stages and arenas and stadiums about this, who have you spoken

582
00:35:27.360 --> 00:35:33.680
about this to today? And she's, well, nobody. And I was like, well, that's where you start.

583
00:35:35.120 --> 00:35:39.280
If this truly is the passion of your heart, if this is truly the message of your life,

584
00:35:40.560 --> 00:35:44.320
then there shouldn't be a day that goes by that you're not sharing it with someone,

585
00:35:44.320 --> 00:35:48.880
the person sitting next to you in the DMV, the person on the bus, the person here,

586
00:35:48.880 --> 00:35:53.680
your person in your class. Now I'm talking about proselytizing or trying to shove the gospel down

587
00:35:53.680 --> 00:35:57.840
people's throats. But you know, what she wanted to talk about was more about like her testimony,

588
00:35:57.840 --> 00:36:02.960
what God did for her. You should be telling that everywhere, every day to somebody. And guess what?

589
00:36:02.960 --> 00:36:09.840
When that happens, doors start opening for you. God's the way maker. Doors start opening for you.

590
00:36:09.840 --> 00:36:14.560
But you know, we always want to start at the end of the promise. That's why you guys are here. A lot

591
00:36:14.560 --> 00:36:19.200
of you, all of you have a promise of marriage over your life, but it doesn't start at the altar.

592
00:36:19.840 --> 00:36:23.600
It starts at you preparing your heart, you making space, you making room.

593
00:36:24.240 --> 00:36:28.480
You know, he's a way maker, but you have to be a room maker. So you're doing that. That's what

594
00:36:28.480 --> 00:36:34.480
you're doing here. You're doing the work. You're finding out why you've been attracting the wrong

595
00:36:34.480 --> 00:36:41.360
people. You're taking a deeper look at your objections to relationship. You know, I post a

596
00:36:41.360 --> 00:36:46.320
lot of things on my Instagram. A lot of people have a lot of deal breakers that are just things they

597
00:36:46.320 --> 00:36:50.160
don't like to do. They don't want to drive across town. They don't want to deal with traffic. It's

598
00:36:50.160 --> 00:36:53.760
like, oh, that can't be my love story because it's inconvenient. Well, I'm going to tell you

599
00:36:53.760 --> 00:37:01.920
something right now. Your love story is going to be inconvenient. It is. I happen to know Jamie,

600
00:37:01.920 --> 00:37:06.320
and she's amazing. And you know what? There's a lot of people that could learn a lot from her.

601
00:37:06.320 --> 00:37:12.160
And the bottom line is, is that you have to just begin to speak anywhere and everywhere you can,

602
00:37:12.160 --> 00:37:17.440
even if you have to set up your own speaking engagement, meaning that, and I've done all this,

603
00:37:17.440 --> 00:37:23.840
friends, meaning you take the free room at the library and you invite anyone who wants to come

604
00:37:23.840 --> 00:37:28.960
in here. You're like, how do you do that? Put a poster up at a coffee shop. Maybe only three

605
00:37:28.960 --> 00:37:33.280
people come, but who cares? Is this about numbers? Is this about you doing what it is that you're

606
00:37:33.280 --> 00:37:40.320
called to do? I think I've told this story many, many times, but I used to have a prayer call.

607
00:37:41.120 --> 00:37:48.080
There's 202 of you on here listening to me right now, but I used to do this 15 years ago

608
00:37:49.040 --> 00:37:54.560
and nobody came. And the only way that the free conference call number would record the call

609
00:37:54.560 --> 00:37:58.400
so that I could put it up on my Facebook so people could listen to it and replay,

610
00:37:58.400 --> 00:38:03.760
because there were some replay listeners, was if one other person besides me joined the call.

611
00:38:03.760 --> 00:38:08.720
And so my husband would call in from a different number and join the call simply so that I could

612
00:38:08.720 --> 00:38:15.120
record it. Sometimes you got to start where you got to start. And if you're not willing to start

613
00:38:15.120 --> 00:38:18.640
there, and I'm not saying this to Jamie, I'm saying this to all of you. If you're not willing

614
00:38:18.640 --> 00:38:22.000
to start there, I know so many people who don't want to date. They don't even want to go on one

615
00:38:22.000 --> 00:38:26.960
date. They want God to door dash their husband or wife right to their front door. I'm sorry,

616
00:38:26.960 --> 00:38:35.440
friends, that's not the way it works. It's the pregnancy that creates the parent.

617
00:38:36.000 --> 00:38:40.560
The process is important. Some people's processes are longer than others. Some people make their

618
00:38:40.560 --> 00:38:49.920
processes longer. Inadvertently, the surrender is a portion of this, but I'm telling you. So I told

619
00:38:49.920 --> 00:38:53.040
that girl, who are you saying this today? She said, no one. I said, well, that's where you start.

620
00:38:54.640 --> 00:38:57.360
That's where you start. Because if you're really passionate about this,

621
00:38:57.360 --> 00:39:04.560
if you really care about this thing and you want everyone to know what it is that you have to share

622
00:39:05.360 --> 00:39:08.240
from your heart, then that would look like something.

623
00:39:12.880 --> 00:39:14.560
That would look like something, wouldn't it?

624
00:39:20.400 --> 00:39:24.800
Some of you have other talents and gifts that you're waiting for someone else to recognize

625
00:39:24.800 --> 00:39:30.000
and give you permission to use. You're good at creating something or making something or art

626
00:39:30.000 --> 00:39:35.600
or something and you're waiting for an opportunity, a door to open, God to make a way for

627
00:39:35.600 --> 00:39:43.520
you to use this gift talent thing in a bigger or deeper way. No, God already made the way for you

628
00:39:43.520 --> 00:39:49.360
when he gave you the desire and he gave you the talent. You make the way. You take the way.

629
00:39:53.200 --> 00:39:58.960
Start creating it and giving it away. Yeah, you know, it costs some money to coach with me now,

630
00:39:58.960 --> 00:40:00.000
but I used to coach for

631
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:08.640
free. I used to coach for free. How would anyone know that I could coach if I started charging

632
00:40:08.640 --> 00:40:14.160
money for it immediately when I didn't have any reputation as a coach? I knew that I was a good

633
00:40:14.160 --> 00:40:20.240
coach. I knew that I was a wise counsel. I knew that God had given me wisdom beyond human reasoning

634
00:40:20.240 --> 00:40:24.880
in areas where people would get breakthrough. How did I know that? Because I was always helping

635
00:40:24.880 --> 00:40:29.760
people. I was always coaching them. I was always prophesying. I was always doing things that were

636
00:40:29.760 --> 00:40:35.440
causing people to get married. And so then what did I do with that? I began to give it away and

637
00:40:35.440 --> 00:40:39.600
give it away and give it away until I was in a place where I had a lot of street cred.

638
00:40:41.440 --> 00:40:46.720
I had a lot of people who said I helped them get married. I had a lot of people that I had

639
00:40:46.720 --> 00:40:51.440
match made. I had a lot of people that were looking back to me as the point where heaven

640
00:40:51.440 --> 00:40:56.880
met earth and helped them step into their love story. And then it became a business tree.

641
00:40:57.760 --> 00:41:01.840
It was a ministry that became a business tree, but I didn't charge for it right out of the gate.

642
00:41:03.200 --> 00:41:08.320
And I just want you guys to know this. What you guys have here and what we provide for you here

643
00:41:08.320 --> 00:41:13.600
is extensive and it's very successful and it's very supernatural, but we still charge

644
00:41:13.600 --> 00:41:18.960
the least amount of money for it than anybody else out there. When I first started doing this,

645
00:41:18.960 --> 00:41:25.280
there were no other programs that were even similar at all to ours. And now there's many,

646
00:41:25.280 --> 00:41:29.920
and they charge thousands and thousands of dollars up front for you to join those ministries

647
00:41:29.920 --> 00:41:36.880
or businesses. And they do not have even an iota of the success stories that we do.

648
00:41:37.520 --> 00:41:43.520
So it's not about money, friends. If you make it about money, you make it about fame. You make it

649
00:41:43.520 --> 00:41:47.280
about significance like that girl was. She didn't realize that that's what she was doing, but she

650
00:41:47.280 --> 00:41:52.800
was making it about her significance. Not understanding that it's about the simplicity

651
00:41:52.800 --> 00:41:58.880
of your message, not about the significance that you may someday acquire from that message.

652
00:42:05.600 --> 00:42:06.320
Let's keep going.

653
00:42:10.240 --> 00:42:16.560
You guys put up where you stop believing and that's great. I thank you for doing it because

654
00:42:16.560 --> 00:42:23.680
healing begins with honesty. It does. We got to get honest. God's not afraid of our honesty.

655
00:42:24.880 --> 00:42:26.640
So let's talk about light in the darkness.

656
00:42:29.440 --> 00:42:33.520
Darkness isn't something that we fight against. David's on here. I see that he's on here,

657
00:42:33.520 --> 00:42:39.600
my husband, and I used to talk about this a lot. I actually made a little photo quote that I put up.

658
00:42:39.600 --> 00:42:43.760
You guys have been doing this for a long time. I've been doing this all the way back to,

659
00:42:44.320 --> 00:42:53.120
I don't know, 2007, 2008. And I just want to say that one of the things that I put up was a little

660
00:42:53.120 --> 00:42:59.520
photo quote that said, you don't have to fight the darkness, just turn on the light. You don't

661
00:42:59.520 --> 00:43:03.840
have to fight the darkness, just be the light. Because I saw so many Christians out there trying

662
00:43:03.840 --> 00:43:08.000
to fight against evil and fight the darkness. And you could be trying to fight the darkness in your

663
00:43:08.000 --> 00:43:14.720
own life, but you don't have to fight darkness because darkness is no match for light.

664
00:43:15.920 --> 00:43:20.080
And I used to, when I used to speak this message, I used to say, Hey, have you ever gone into a dark

665
00:43:20.080 --> 00:43:24.960
room and flipped on the light switch? And when you flipped on the light switch, there was this moment

666
00:43:24.960 --> 00:43:31.280
where you heard this tussling and this racket and all this crazy commotion. And then finally the

667
00:43:31.280 --> 00:43:36.960
light comes on. That's what is that? That's darkness and light fighting and wrestling to

668
00:43:36.960 --> 00:43:41.760
see who's going to win before the light finally comes on. No, that never happens. You want to

669
00:43:41.760 --> 00:43:51.520
know why? Because darkness is no match for light. It's no match for light. You turn on the light

670
00:43:51.520 --> 00:43:55.840
switch and the light comes on, the darkness flees immediately. Darkness is not something that you

671
00:43:55.840 --> 00:44:00.640
fight. And some of you have spent months, maybe even years trying to wrestle with the darkness

672
00:44:00.640 --> 00:44:05.360
in your life, wrestling with fear, anxiety, confusion. But instead of that, you just need

673
00:44:05.360 --> 00:44:22.960
to invite more light. Get in the word. Get in the truth. Even the tiniest little bit of light

674
00:44:22.960 --> 00:44:27.520
penetrates the darkness, doesn't it? Think about it. You're laying in a dark room. You're trying

675
00:44:27.520 --> 00:44:33.040
to go to sleep like I was last night in this room that I'm not used to. And there was a teeny tiny

676
00:44:33.040 --> 00:44:39.920
little light on the smoke detector, tiniest, tiniest little light. But you would have thought

677
00:44:39.920 --> 00:44:46.160
that it was a big, huge lighthouse light in this room because it was keeping me from going to sleep

678
00:44:46.160 --> 00:44:50.960
because my eyes just kept getting drawn to it. Even though the room was pitch black,

679
00:44:50.960 --> 00:44:57.840
that light was shining bright.

680
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:13.100
And then the bridge of the song is already something that I quoted, but I love, even

681
00:45:13.100 --> 00:45:14.620
when I don't see it, you're working.

682
00:45:14.620 --> 00:45:16.900
Even when I don't feel it, you're working.

683
00:45:16.900 --> 00:45:18.260
You never stop.

684
00:45:18.260 --> 00:45:21.900
You never stop working.

685
00:45:21.900 --> 00:45:26.240
You never stop working.

686
00:45:26.240 --> 00:45:31.780
And the Word of God tells us that, you know, faith walks without sight.

687
00:45:31.780 --> 00:45:35.040
We walk by faith and not by sight, right?

688
00:45:35.040 --> 00:45:36.480
Not by feelings.

689
00:45:36.480 --> 00:45:37.480
And we don't like that.

690
00:45:37.480 --> 00:45:38.480
That's not fun.

691
00:45:38.480 --> 00:45:46.920
But when we know his character, that's when we can have more confidence in that faith

692
00:45:46.920 --> 00:45:49.200
walk.

693
00:45:49.200 --> 00:46:00.040
When we know how big he is and when we know that our hope is never false, it's always

694
00:46:00.040 --> 00:46:05.160
just misplaced because we've put it in ourselves, we put it in our abilities, we put it in some

695
00:46:05.160 --> 00:46:06.760
other human being.

696
00:46:06.760 --> 00:46:10.360
Our hope is in the wrong thing.

697
00:46:10.360 --> 00:46:16.800
I remember, you guys, years ago, I struggled with severe panic disorder in my 20s.

698
00:46:16.800 --> 00:46:19.440
You guys, I couldn't leave my house.

699
00:46:19.440 --> 00:46:24.760
The only place that I could leave my house to go to was my job, which was at my church.

700
00:46:24.760 --> 00:46:26.760
And that's it.

701
00:46:26.760 --> 00:46:32.840
I lived my life in a five-mile-square radius of my house for over a decade.

702
00:46:32.840 --> 00:46:37.800
My biggest desire in those days, in my 20s, was that I could just be a normal person and

703
00:46:37.800 --> 00:46:39.800
go to the grocery store.

704
00:46:39.800 --> 00:46:42.400
That's all I wanted.

705
00:46:42.400 --> 00:46:47.240
I just wanted to be able to go to the grocery store like a normal person.

706
00:46:47.240 --> 00:46:48.760
But my adrenals were fried.

707
00:46:48.760 --> 00:46:50.400
I had severe OCD.

708
00:46:50.400 --> 00:46:55.840
I had severe panic attacks and panic disorder and agoraphobia.

709
00:46:55.840 --> 00:46:56.840
And I was just a mess.

710
00:46:56.840 --> 00:46:58.680
And I was a believer, obviously.

711
00:46:58.680 --> 00:47:06.920
I had become a believer at 22, but, you know, my body was wrecked from trauma and it was

712
00:47:06.920 --> 00:47:07.920
going to take years.

713
00:47:07.920 --> 00:47:12.080
It was going to take years to recover, you guys.

714
00:47:12.760 --> 00:47:15.760
I wish I could tell you that my recovery happened quickly, but it didn't.

715
00:47:15.760 --> 00:47:19.400
It took me years to recover, but I did recover.

716
00:47:19.400 --> 00:47:20.400
I did recover.

717
00:47:20.400 --> 00:47:21.400
I can travel now.

718
00:47:21.400 --> 00:47:22.400
I can go on airplanes.

719
00:47:22.400 --> 00:47:23.400
I can go places.

720
00:47:23.400 --> 00:47:27.640
Right now, I'm by myself at this place, you know, with strangers.

721
00:47:27.640 --> 00:47:29.560
I would have never been able to do that in my 20s.

722
00:47:29.560 --> 00:47:33.180
And so for those of you that think that this is going to be the rest of your life, whatever

723
00:47:33.180 --> 00:47:35.200
situation you're in, no, it's not.

724
00:47:35.200 --> 00:47:39.640
It's not going to be the rest of your life.

725
00:47:39.640 --> 00:47:43.040
But I just remember that I was in the car and I was trying to get from point A to point

726
00:47:43.040 --> 00:47:47.280
B. I was trying to get from my house to my job at the church.

727
00:47:47.280 --> 00:47:51.360
And like I said, this was the only commute that I could really do.

728
00:47:51.360 --> 00:47:56.520
But the unthinkable happened.

729
00:47:56.520 --> 00:48:02.380
There was an accident on the road and I ended up in bumper to bumper parking lot type traffic

730
00:48:02.380 --> 00:48:03.380
on my route.

731
00:48:03.380 --> 00:48:09.320
Now, you guys, I was only able to do this because I had done it many, many times and

732
00:48:10.000 --> 00:48:15.520
it took exactly 15 minutes and I could just make it.

733
00:48:15.520 --> 00:48:17.160
This is back before cell phones.

734
00:48:17.160 --> 00:48:21.080
This is back before, you know, all the things.

735
00:48:21.080 --> 00:48:25.480
Just me alone in my car trying to get from point A to point B. But now there's an obstacle

736
00:48:25.480 --> 00:48:28.080
in the way.

737
00:48:28.080 --> 00:48:31.000
There's an accident and the traffic's not moving.

738
00:48:31.000 --> 00:48:36.560
So something that would have taken 15 minutes and I could barely, barely do the 15 minutes

739
00:48:36.720 --> 00:48:40.360
was now going to take, I don't know, an hour, an hour and a half.

740
00:48:40.360 --> 00:48:43.240
I think I was in the car for two hours.

741
00:48:43.240 --> 00:48:44.920
And I started to flip out, you guys.

742
00:48:44.920 --> 00:48:48.400
I started to, my adrenaline, my fight or flight started to spike.

743
00:48:48.400 --> 00:48:50.120
I started to have a panic attack.

744
00:48:50.120 --> 00:48:53.400
And you guys, I don't know if you've ever had panic attacks, but the kind of panic attacks

745
00:48:53.400 --> 00:48:57.820
that I had were out of body experiences that were very, very scary.

746
00:48:57.820 --> 00:48:58.820
You feel like you're dying.

747
00:48:58.820 --> 00:49:06.200
I mean, I can't tell you how many times I called the squad in my twenties thinking that

748
00:49:06.200 --> 00:49:07.200
I was dying.

749
00:49:07.200 --> 00:49:08.200
Okay.

750
00:49:08.200 --> 00:49:17.000
And I remember as this starts to happen, God just says to me, He said, what are you trying

751
00:49:17.000 --> 00:49:18.000
to get to?

752
00:49:18.000 --> 00:49:20.160
And I was like, I'm trying to get to the church.

753
00:49:20.160 --> 00:49:23.600
I'm trying to get to where the people, you know, the people that I trusted were there.

754
00:49:23.600 --> 00:49:27.120
The people that I worked with, my pastor was probably working in his office.

755
00:49:27.120 --> 00:49:31.520
You know, he's like, well, and this is what he said to me, he said, well, if you're dying,

756
00:49:31.520 --> 00:49:35.840
he's like, how are they going to help you?

757
00:49:35.840 --> 00:49:36.840
And I was like, what?

758
00:49:36.840 --> 00:49:44.200
He's like, yeah, you know, if you're dying, if this truly is an emergency, he said, how

759
00:49:44.200 --> 00:49:50.680
are humans going to help you?

760
00:49:50.680 --> 00:49:54.080
And I started to deescalate a little bit.

761
00:49:54.080 --> 00:49:59.600
And I started to realize that, you know what, if I really am in this serious situation that

762
00:49:59.600 --> 00:50:00.600
my body is in, I'm going to die.

763
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.240
he's telling me that I'm in,

764
00:50:00.600 --> 00:50:01.600
I'm going to die.

765
00:50:01.240 --> 00:50:05.080
if I'm really in this serious emergency situation,

766
00:50:01.600 --> 00:50:02.600
I'm going to die.

767
00:50:02.600 --> 00:50:03.600
I'm going to die.

768
00:50:03.600 --> 00:50:04.600
I'm going to die.

769
00:50:04.600 --> 00:50:05.600
I'm going to die.

770
00:50:05.080 --> 00:50:08.360
you know, human help can do very little,

771
00:50:09.760 --> 00:50:11.000
kind of a crapshoot.

772
00:50:12.660 --> 00:50:14.180
And he showed me that day in the car

773
00:50:14.180 --> 00:50:15.980
that my hope was in the wrong thing.

774
00:50:18.260 --> 00:50:19.740
My comfort was in the wrong thing.

775
00:50:19.740 --> 00:50:22.620
My security was in the wrong thing.

776
00:50:22.620 --> 00:50:26.340
It was in the limited ability of human beings.

777
00:50:26.340 --> 00:50:28.580
Yeah, you know, sometimes humans get to the scene

778
00:50:28.580 --> 00:50:30.840
and they can help and other times they can't.

779
00:50:35.020 --> 00:50:37.060
Another person that's at this healing retreat right now

780
00:50:37.060 --> 00:50:39.580
is an EMT and she was just talking about last night,

781
00:50:39.580 --> 00:50:42.300
you know, getting to the scene of some boy

782
00:50:42.300 --> 00:50:45.780
who was doing something he shouldn't have been doing

783
00:50:45.780 --> 00:50:47.780
and she couldn't save him and he died.

784
00:50:52.420 --> 00:50:54.260
Humans are great when they're great.

785
00:50:54.260 --> 00:50:56.020
They're great for what they're great for,

786
00:50:56.020 --> 00:50:58.140
but they can't be our source.

787
00:50:58.220 --> 00:51:00.540
And in that moment in the car,

788
00:51:00.540 --> 00:51:01.980
I was delivered of something.

789
00:51:01.980 --> 00:51:05.020
I was delivered of misplacing my trust,

790
00:51:05.020 --> 00:51:06.480
misplacing my hope.

791
00:51:08.300 --> 00:51:10.100
There was a type of supernatural surrender

792
00:51:10.100 --> 00:51:11.260
that came over me

793
00:51:12.660 --> 00:51:14.840
because God had already been teaching me the hard work.

794
00:51:14.840 --> 00:51:16.420
So when you guys read that part in the book

795
00:51:16.420 --> 00:51:17.660
about supernatural surrender,

796
00:51:17.660 --> 00:51:21.300
just know that I lived it, baby, okay?

797
00:51:22.780 --> 00:51:24.780
I was the first student.

798
00:51:24.780 --> 00:51:26.500
I didn't get that from somebody else

799
00:51:26.500 --> 00:51:27.700
or somebody else's teaching.

800
00:51:28.220 --> 00:51:31.440
I got it straight from heaven as a download.

801
00:51:37.380 --> 00:51:38.660
And I know that you guys are all here

802
00:51:38.660 --> 00:51:40.900
because, you know, I do carry an anointing

803
00:51:40.900 --> 00:51:42.460
in the area of people's love stories.

804
00:51:42.460 --> 00:51:45.980
God has gifted this movement with the ability

805
00:51:45.980 --> 00:51:48.020
to supernaturally help people here.

806
00:51:48.020 --> 00:51:49.580
But please don't get it twisted.

807
00:51:49.580 --> 00:51:51.620
Your matchmaker is always gonna be God.

808
00:51:55.420 --> 00:51:56.940
We're just his little helpers.

809
00:51:58.660 --> 00:51:59.900
So at the end of the day,

810
00:51:59.900 --> 00:52:02.840
I just want you to know that your hope is in him.

811
00:52:03.820 --> 00:52:05.220
Your hope is in him.

812
00:52:06.580 --> 00:52:08.560
And every day when you get up in the morning,

813
00:52:08.560 --> 00:52:09.700
that's what you should be saying.

814
00:52:09.700 --> 00:52:10.540
You should be saying,

815
00:52:10.540 --> 00:52:12.820
hey, there's all these things that I want.

816
00:52:12.820 --> 00:52:15.140
There's all these things that I'm hoping for.

817
00:52:15.140 --> 00:52:17.120
But my hope is in you, Jesus.

818
00:52:20.820 --> 00:52:22.020
My hope is in you.

819
00:52:28.700 --> 00:52:29.940
Because either this is gonna happen

820
00:52:29.940 --> 00:52:31.700
or something better is gonna happen.

821
00:52:33.820 --> 00:52:34.940
Because you know me.

822
00:52:37.260 --> 00:52:38.740
Now, friends, having your hope in him

823
00:52:38.740 --> 00:52:41.660
is not an excuse for apathy.

824
00:52:41.660 --> 00:52:42.860
You've gotta do your part.

825
00:52:42.860 --> 00:52:44.740
And that's a different Supernatural Saturday Call.

826
00:52:44.740 --> 00:52:46.380
And we've had it many times.

827
00:52:46.380 --> 00:52:47.940
You've gotta do your part.

828
00:52:47.940 --> 00:52:48.900
You've gotta show up.

829
00:52:48.900 --> 00:52:51.140
You've gotta take imperfect action.

830
00:52:51.140 --> 00:52:53.340
In fact, that proves that your hope is in Jesus.

831
00:52:53.340 --> 00:52:54.180
You're like, well, Jackie,

832
00:52:54.180 --> 00:52:55.460
doesn't that put my hope in myself?

833
00:52:55.460 --> 00:52:56.300
No, it doesn't.

834
00:52:56.300 --> 00:52:57.500
Doesn't that put my hope in myself?

835
00:52:57.500 --> 00:52:58.340
No.

836
00:52:59.980 --> 00:53:02.680
It doesn't put your hope in yourself.

837
00:53:02.680 --> 00:53:04.740
This is not a passive faith model.

838
00:53:04.740 --> 00:53:07.840
This is a faith without action is dead religion model.

839
00:53:09.700 --> 00:53:13.520
Faith without corresponding action is just dead religion.

840
00:53:13.520 --> 00:53:15.980
It's just you saying that you believe something

841
00:53:15.980 --> 00:53:17.340
that you really don't believe

842
00:53:17.340 --> 00:53:19.100
because your actions say you don't.

843
00:53:19.100 --> 00:53:24.100
Now, some of you have the cart before the horse.

844
00:53:26.980 --> 00:53:27.940
I feel that in the spirit.

845
00:53:27.940 --> 00:53:29.460
So I'm just gonna release that over you guys.

846
00:53:29.460 --> 00:53:31.580
Some of you have the cart before the horse.

847
00:53:31.580 --> 00:53:33.540
So let's get the horse before the cart.

848
00:53:34.860 --> 00:53:35.860
Pray into that word.

849
00:53:35.860 --> 00:53:38.220
Say, hey, do I have any carts before the horse?

850
00:53:39.500 --> 00:53:41.940
Some of you are trying to do something that comes later.

851
00:53:41.940 --> 00:53:42.980
There's something that comes

852
00:53:42.980 --> 00:53:44.900
before what you're doing right now.

853
00:53:44.900 --> 00:53:47.540
The reason why what you're doing right now is not succeeding

854
00:53:47.540 --> 00:53:50.760
is because there's something that comes before it.

855
00:53:52.820 --> 00:53:54.120
It's like a recipe.

856
00:53:55.260 --> 00:53:56.580
You know all the ingredients,

857
00:53:56.580 --> 00:53:59.500
but you've skipped to the ingredients that come later

858
00:53:59.500 --> 00:54:02.240
instead of the ingredients that have to go first.

859
00:54:08.580 --> 00:54:12.920
There's an order to things, right?

860
00:54:14.660 --> 00:54:16.380
And for those of us that don't like rules,

861
00:54:16.380 --> 00:54:18.460
we don't really like that very much, do we?

862
00:54:18.460 --> 00:54:20.620
We're like, I'll just do it however I want.

863
00:54:22.380 --> 00:54:24.000
This is the destination.

864
00:54:25.220 --> 00:54:27.180
Why can't I just show up over here?

865
00:54:29.820 --> 00:54:31.920
This is where I'm trying to get to anyway.

866
00:54:36.740 --> 00:54:38.220
It's kind of like back in the olden days,

867
00:54:38.220 --> 00:54:39.620
you guys, when we played video games.

868
00:54:39.620 --> 00:54:41.740
I don't know if any of you are this generation with me,

869
00:54:41.740 --> 00:54:43.580
but there were several video games

870
00:54:43.580 --> 00:54:46.060
where you could get to a certain place,

871
00:54:46.740 --> 00:54:49.580
but unless you had picked up certain tools along the way,

872
00:54:49.580 --> 00:54:50.760
when you got to that place,

873
00:54:50.760 --> 00:54:53.460
you couldn't do what you needed to do to win the game.

874
00:54:56.720 --> 00:55:00.060
Like Indiana Jones comes to mind, that video game.

875
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.360
Yeah, you could get to the Temple of Doom, you could get there, but you couldn't dig

876
00:55:03.360 --> 00:55:05.760
if you hadn't gone and found the shovel first.

877
00:55:05.760 --> 00:55:10.480
Like, there were things that you had to do before you got to the place.

878
00:55:10.480 --> 00:55:14.140
And it was kind of deceiving because in the video game, you could see where you needed

879
00:55:14.140 --> 00:55:17.400
to go to, and you could go there, you could just go in there.

880
00:55:17.400 --> 00:55:20.280
You go into that place.

881
00:55:20.280 --> 00:55:24.320
The problem is, is that you couldn't do anything in there because you didn't have what you

882
00:55:24.320 --> 00:55:26.480
needed to be in there.

883
00:55:26.480 --> 00:55:28.680
And this is what we do so often.

884
00:55:28.680 --> 00:55:33.920
We try to just skip to the end.

885
00:55:33.920 --> 00:55:38.000
So I want you to really pray today, right now.

886
00:55:38.000 --> 00:55:39.000
Start right now.

887
00:55:39.000 --> 00:55:44.000
And then when we get off the call, spend a few more minutes and just say, Hey God, order

888
00:55:44.000 --> 00:55:48.360
my steps in your word.

889
00:55:48.360 --> 00:55:50.200
Speak to me in this season.

890
00:55:50.200 --> 00:55:54.620
Show me where I've misplaced my hope.

891
00:55:54.620 --> 00:55:58.980
Show me where I have apathy and I'm not participating.

892
00:55:58.980 --> 00:56:03.860
You are the way maker, but I still got to walk it out.

893
00:56:03.860 --> 00:56:08.640
You are the miracle worker, but I still have to give you my loaves and fishes.

894
00:56:08.640 --> 00:56:13.420
You are the promise keeper, but I have to participate in the promise.

895
00:56:13.420 --> 00:56:20.060
You are the light in the darkness, but I got to switch on the switch.

896
00:56:20.060 --> 00:56:23.700
You are all those things, but I have a part to play in that.

897
00:56:23.780 --> 00:56:33.180
So show me, teach me, show me, heal me, grow me, show me.

898
00:56:33.180 --> 00:56:34.500
Something might come to mind.

899
00:56:34.500 --> 00:56:38.340
You might remember something that you've been working on.

900
00:56:38.340 --> 00:56:42.500
A scripture might come to mind.

901
00:56:42.500 --> 00:56:45.140
You might feel just a knowing in your heart.

902
00:56:45.140 --> 00:56:51.360
And if none of that stuff happens, continue to pray that prayer until you see something.

903
00:56:51.360 --> 00:56:54.080
You get an aha moment because you will.

904
00:56:54.080 --> 00:56:56.840
Don't give up in that moment.

905
00:56:56.840 --> 00:57:00.400
It might happen later on today when you're out and about.

906
00:57:00.400 --> 00:57:07.720
You might see something and be like, oh yeah, that happens to me all the time.

907
00:57:07.720 --> 00:57:10.480
Continue to press into that question until it's answered.

908
00:57:10.480 --> 00:57:12.200
So Father God, I thank you for your sons and daughters.

909
00:57:12.200 --> 00:57:13.320
I thank you for this time together.

910
00:57:13.320 --> 00:57:17.720
I thank you that you are all of those things and more, that you are El Roy.

911
00:57:17.720 --> 00:57:19.840
You are the God that sees us.

912
00:57:19.840 --> 00:57:20.840
You see us.

913
00:57:20.840 --> 00:57:21.840
You love us.

914
00:57:21.840 --> 00:57:22.840
You're with us.

915
00:57:22.840 --> 00:57:23.840
You're for us.

916
00:57:23.840 --> 00:57:24.840
Life is for us.

917
00:57:24.840 --> 00:57:29.840
There's no point in time when you are saying, hey kid, good luck.

918
00:57:29.840 --> 00:57:31.120
I hope you make it.

919
00:57:31.120 --> 00:57:32.600
That is not what your word says.

920
00:57:32.600 --> 00:57:35.360
Your word says that you are with us like a good shepherd.

921
00:57:35.360 --> 00:57:36.360
You are leading us.

922
00:57:36.360 --> 00:57:37.360
You're guiding us.

923
00:57:37.360 --> 00:57:38.360
You're loving us.

924
00:57:38.360 --> 00:57:39.360
You're protecting us.

925
00:57:39.360 --> 00:57:40.360
You're bringing healing to us.

926
00:57:40.360 --> 00:57:41.920
You're bringing comfort to us.

927
00:57:41.920 --> 00:57:43.760
And so you are that God.

928
00:57:43.760 --> 00:57:47.560
And so we declare that right now over ourselves, over each other.

929
00:57:47.560 --> 00:57:52.520
We're not going to believe anymore that somehow the deck has been stacked against us.

930
00:57:52.520 --> 00:57:58.360
That's not a thing because you are the house and the house always wins and we are the children

931
00:57:58.360 --> 00:57:59.360
of the house.

932
00:57:59.360 --> 00:58:01.520
And that means we always win.

933
00:58:01.520 --> 00:58:05.520
And so Lord, we just declare that right now, that we are winners, that we are not losers,

934
00:58:05.520 --> 00:58:10.200
that we are the head, that we are not the tail, that we are above and we are never beneath.

935
00:58:10.200 --> 00:58:14.200
And so Lord, if we've been living beneath, if we've been living below, we don't have

936
00:58:14.200 --> 00:58:16.120
to live there anymore.

937
00:58:16.120 --> 00:58:19.840
Show us why we have chosen this status in life.

938
00:58:19.840 --> 00:58:21.920
Show us why we believe what we believe.

939
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Teach us and show us and heal us and grow us.

940
00:58:25.160 --> 00:58:28.440
It's time for the children of God to arise.

941
00:58:28.440 --> 00:58:32.040
It's time for us to step into the promises that you've given us because they're not about

942
00:58:32.040 --> 00:58:33.040
us.

943
00:58:33.040 --> 00:58:34.040
They're about lineage and legacy.

944
00:58:34.040 --> 00:58:37.480
We think they're about us, but they're really about what you want to accomplish in the earth

945
00:58:37.480 --> 00:58:39.480
through us.

946
00:58:39.480 --> 00:58:41.420
And so there's no time like the present.

947
00:58:41.420 --> 00:58:46.040
We know that you are not dawdling, that you are not hindering us, that you are not holding

948
00:58:46.040 --> 00:58:47.160
out on us.

949
00:58:47.160 --> 00:58:52.640
And so we have to release whatever it is that we're holding onto instead of you so we can

950
00:58:52.640 --> 00:58:54.440
accelerate and expand.

951
00:58:54.440 --> 00:58:55.440
Let it be so.

952
00:58:55.440 --> 00:58:57.640
Isaiah 54 in full effect.

953
00:58:57.640 --> 00:58:58.640
It's time.

954
00:58:58.640 --> 00:58:59.640
In Jesus name.

955
00:58:59.640 --> 00:59:00.640
Amen.

956
00:59:00.640 --> 00:59:01.640
All right.

957
00:59:01.640 --> 00:59:02.640
I love y'all.

958
00:59:02.640 --> 00:59:02.640