WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:08.560 All right. Welcome to Men's Heart Shaking Monday, July 13th. Good to see you guys here. 2 00:00:08.560 --> 00:00:16.040 I mean, Kenton, Dan, Thomas, Christopher, Jesse. I'm supposed to be Jackie, I guess. 3 00:00:16.040 --> 00:00:21.440 David Henshaw and iPhone 15. There we go. We got everybody in the house. 4 00:00:21.440 --> 00:00:23.440 iPhone 15 is Kevin. 5 00:00:23.440 --> 00:00:29.320 Yeah, I know. Kevin, I don't know if you knew that. That was basically what your thing was 6 00:00:29.320 --> 00:00:30.320 saying there. 7 00:00:30.320 --> 00:00:34.720 Yeah, I'll have to go ahead and change it. I ran over my other phone with my excavator, 8 00:00:34.720 --> 00:00:36.920 so this here's a new one. 9 00:00:36.920 --> 00:00:37.920 Stuff happens, right? 10 00:00:37.920 --> 00:00:38.920 Yeah, yeah. 11 00:00:38.920 --> 00:00:46.240 All right, everybody. Let's get into this heart check-in. I want to tell you up front 12 00:00:46.240 --> 00:00:52.120 here, we'll be probably a little short tonight. Jackie will probably hop on here in just a 13 00:00:52.120 --> 00:00:59.440 few minutes, too. But anyway, I want to encourage you, there is going to be ... This Thursday, 14 00:00:59.440 --> 00:01:07.200 there's going to be a session. It's an Ask Jackie slash Modern Dating Sucks book club 15 00:01:07.200 --> 00:01:15.520 sort of like content. Coaching, personal questions, Ask Jackie, all that kind of stuff is really 16 00:01:15.520 --> 00:01:22.040 important if you're interested and wanting to dive into some of that content. That is 17 00:01:22.040 --> 00:01:28.040 going to be, I think this month, it's going to be this coming Thursday. So definitely 18 00:01:28.040 --> 00:01:33.920 look out for that. I wanted to remind you of that as well. So make sure that you're 19 00:01:33.920 --> 00:01:39.320 on there if you can be. 20 00:01:39.320 --> 00:01:43.760 It's funny because we always have a different group of guys every Monday. It's kind of funny 21 00:01:43.800 --> 00:01:51.840 how random our little group here seems to be Monday to Monday. I know I'm not down here 22 00:01:51.840 --> 00:01:56.240 a lot, but I've been traveling a lot, doing a lot of things. So it's been crazy. Just 23 00:01:56.240 --> 00:02:02.160 got back, just literally got back into town 30 minutes ago from Abilene, Texas. I don't 24 00:02:02.160 --> 00:02:04.800 know if anybody's ever been to Abilene, Texas. 25 00:02:04.800 --> 00:02:05.800 Yep. 26 00:02:05.800 --> 00:02:15.480 Don't go. If you can all help it. It's nothing really to see, not really exciting. The comment 27 00:02:15.480 --> 00:02:22.360 that I had in my head to anybody that asked was, in order to live in Abilene, Texas, you 28 00:02:22.360 --> 00:02:30.240 have to really, really, really, really want to be there. I don't know why. That's all 29 00:02:30.240 --> 00:02:39.920 I can say about it. It's as if, it's as if that city has been revitalized, you know, 30 00:02:39.920 --> 00:02:47.160 after like 20, 23 years, 25 years, something like that. Revitalized four different times 31 00:02:47.160 --> 00:02:54.560 and completely forgotten each time. Like, I don't know how a city can get as, it's just 32 00:02:54.560 --> 00:02:58.440 strange. I don't know. It's small and it's just kind of weird. And I don't know. 33 00:02:58.440 --> 00:02:59.920 There's some good people there. 34 00:02:59.920 --> 00:03:04.120 I'm kind of being really hard. Thomas, I know you're always going to bring it back 35 00:03:04.120 --> 00:03:09.880 to, you know, something positive and kind and that's always good. I like that about 36 00:03:09.880 --> 00:03:10.880 you. 37 00:03:10.880 --> 00:03:15.560 Abilene made it into Ella Langley's hit song. 38 00:03:15.560 --> 00:03:20.400 That's the thing right now. That's the hot thing. Should have never taken him to back 39 00:03:20.400 --> 00:03:21.400 to Abilene. 40 00:03:21.400 --> 00:03:22.400 Yeah. 41 00:03:22.400 --> 00:03:23.400 I get it. And it's true. 42 00:03:23.400 --> 00:03:24.960 There's something about it. 43 00:03:25.200 --> 00:03:29.880 Yeah. And there must be a honky tonk there or something. One thing is there is about 44 00:03:29.880 --> 00:03:35.440 20 miles out of town. There's a huge complex of data centers that are going in there. So 45 00:03:35.440 --> 00:03:41.400 that's, it's kind of changing the complexity of the city a little bit in terms of workers 46 00:03:41.400 --> 00:03:45.880 coming in and different people running those facilities. So maybe, maybe there's a little 47 00:03:45.880 --> 00:03:50.960 bit of resurgence coming back. Hopefully, maybe it'll boost the economy a little bit. 48 00:03:50.960 --> 00:03:59.360 Anyway, so, so anyway, so guys, let's get into it. Who, who's got something to share 49 00:03:59.360 --> 00:04:05.480 tonight? Got to bring to the table. What's going on? Haven't heard from a lot of you 50 00:04:05.480 --> 00:04:11.920 in just a moment. So give me what you got. Let's, let's talk. 51 00:04:11.920 --> 00:04:19.600 It's been a crazy couple of weeks. 52 00:04:19.600 --> 00:04:20.600 Go ahead. 53 00:04:20.600 --> 00:04:25.040 Yeah, it's been, it's been a crazy couple of weeks for me. 54 00:04:25.040 --> 00:04:26.040 Okay. 55 00:04:26.040 --> 00:04:34.920 So, so it's like two weeks ago out of the blue, somebody from this last year single 56 00:04:34.920 --> 00:04:44.040 community reached out to me. This was, my coach was like, just have like a short list 57 00:04:44.040 --> 00:04:50.720 of like names and then just proactively like reach out. And one of them did respond back 58 00:04:50.720 --> 00:04:59.040 to me, wanted to give it a shot. So, you know, we've been texting, that'd be like video calls. 59 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:06.080 we finally met each other like on Friday in New York City, it went really good and 60 00:05:06.720 --> 00:05:12.480 oh but it's yeah but it's one of those things that I guess she thought that she was ready for 61 00:05:12.480 --> 00:05:20.000 another like long distance relationship thing and she's not so so we had like how long is it 62 00:05:20.000 --> 00:05:26.720 so are you in Connecticut is that what CT is yeah okay so like two hour difference two three hour 63 00:05:27.520 --> 00:05:34.720 yeah because she lived in she lived somewhere in Pennsylvania she's not too far from an Amtrak so 64 00:05:34.720 --> 00:05:40.240 she was able to like take the train an hour into New York City yeah which means she did another 65 00:05:40.240 --> 00:05:46.800 hour she would have been in my neck of the woods and I kind of get it because where she lives 66 00:05:46.800 --> 00:05:51.360 there's not like I guess I really should she had has been long distance like two hours or longer 67 00:05:52.080 --> 00:05:58.160 so it's I guess after a while you just get tired of the constant like texting and video calls you 68 00:05:58.160 --> 00:06:04.960 want to meet somebody like local so you can like do a face-to-face kind of thing I yeah I get it 69 00:06:04.960 --> 00:06:14.240 but I guess the encouraging thing is it ain't me I'm not the problem like she went out of her way 70 00:06:14.240 --> 00:06:21.040 to point out like I'm chock full of green flags it's just her okay I'm just gonna take that for 71 00:06:21.040 --> 00:06:27.600 what it is that's discouraging as that is but yeah some encouragement there and some validation 72 00:06:27.600 --> 00:06:36.480 um how in your journey up into last year single and then even within last year single what is 73 00:06:36.480 --> 00:06:43.760 your remind me of your relationship uh history real quick are you have you been married divorced 74 00:06:43.760 --> 00:06:51.600 what is it none none actually yeah never married never divorced no kids or nothing 75 00:06:51.600 --> 00:06:58.560 okay all right and okay and then long time relationship I think the longest I've gone 76 00:06:58.560 --> 00:07:04.480 was like three months it's never gone longer than that I see okay so you know sometimes people that 77 00:07:04.480 --> 00:07:10.800 have never been married um they kind of had a one relationship or a couple relationship that maybe 78 00:07:10.800 --> 00:07:16.000 went you know a year two or whatever like we're heading that way but just never got to that point 79 00:07:16.000 --> 00:07:24.080 so that's why it's why we're asking so okay yeah so that's good validation um and your dating 80 00:07:24.080 --> 00:07:29.040 history I mean have you dated a lot or not really done a bunch of that been kind of busy working 81 00:07:29.040 --> 00:07:37.120 doing whatever life I have been busy with life and just doing a lot of healing by the time I got 82 00:07:37.120 --> 00:07:43.600 right into that in my head I was like on the I was like approaching 40 and then 83 00:07:44.560 --> 00:07:50.080 COVID happened and that's dating landscape changed all of a sudden it's a red flag 84 00:07:50.080 --> 00:07:56.800 to never had a serious relationship before age 40 so here I am yeah yeah yeah no okay that's good 85 00:07:56.800 --> 00:08:01.280 information anybody have some feedback uh I like the fact that you know you got validated in that 86 00:08:01.280 --> 00:08:08.000 sense I love that thank you it's just one of those things it's been like a crazy long time 87 00:08:08.000 --> 00:08:14.480 the dating apps don't work well for me no it took this long just to get some kind of response back 88 00:08:14.480 --> 00:08:19.040 from anybody so I'd imagine it's probably gonna be another few years before the next opportunity 89 00:08:19.040 --> 00:08:26.080 comes but right just try to stay positive no yeah no it doesn't have to be that long I believe in 90 00:08:26.080 --> 00:08:34.000 you um I mean it's a lot of things in your control and a lot of things outside of your 91 00:08:34.000 --> 00:08:40.000 control and it sounds like you did the best you knew how with what was in your control this time 92 00:08:41.120 --> 00:08:46.320 and uh I don't know I'm really feeling that verse from Ecclesiastes that talks about not despising 93 00:08:46.320 --> 00:08:52.960 the day of small beginnings oh yeah and um I don't know I'm I'm excited for you to build on 94 00:08:52.960 --> 00:08:58.880 to build on this but that's that's an opinion I you know not not not really like a question 95 00:08:58.880 --> 00:09:05.120 so I think that's great feedback yeah and I would agree with that because uh Dan I think um 96 00:09:05.680 --> 00:09:13.120 were you spotlighted at one time on no not yet okay um there was I have seen you a lot in the 97 00:09:13.120 --> 00:09:18.960 community and and not just on the guys calls but on some other calls and I'm pretty and I'm I'm 98 00:09:19.680 --> 00:09:23.280 I feel like you have a good rapport because I feel like some of the engagement you've done 99 00:09:23.280 --> 00:09:28.640 even say it's like some chatting sort of things that you have done you've got sort of a good 100 00:09:28.640 --> 00:09:33.120 rapport with sort of the community in general so I think you've kind of known there so that's that's 101 00:09:33.120 --> 00:09:40.400 a good thing so I agree with Thomas let's celebrate the win let's celebrate great beginning small 102 00:09:40.400 --> 00:09:47.760 beginning but I don't think it has to be a long time between now and the next time I mean you 103 00:09:47.760 --> 00:09:55.520 you might be surprised that getting involved with a community like this a either from within 104 00:09:55.520 --> 00:09:59.920 the community or tangent to the community you might find 105 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:03.400 Find some, some, some real activity going on there. 106 00:10:03.400 --> 00:10:06.160 So I think it's a very hopeful season for you. 107 00:10:07.640 --> 00:10:08.080 Thank you. 108 00:10:08.640 --> 00:10:08.880 Yeah. 109 00:10:08.880 --> 00:10:09.200 Yeah. 110 00:10:10.920 --> 00:10:11.280 Who else? 111 00:10:11.280 --> 00:10:12.000 Anybody else? 112 00:10:14.920 --> 00:10:15.840 Yeah, I can share a little. 113 00:10:16.280 --> 00:10:16.880 Oh, go ahead. 114 00:10:20.480 --> 00:10:21.200 Can you guys hear me? 115 00:10:21.200 --> 00:10:21.520 Okay. 116 00:10:21.520 --> 00:10:22.200 I'm driving. 117 00:10:24.600 --> 00:10:24.800 Yeah. 118 00:10:24.800 --> 00:10:26.440 Jesse, we can hear you. 119 00:10:26.520 --> 00:10:26.960 Okay. 120 00:10:26.960 --> 00:10:30.280 Um, good to see you guys again. 121 00:10:30.280 --> 00:10:37.640 It's been a bit, um, I just, I just finished up like a season that I felt 122 00:10:37.640 --> 00:10:40.840 like the Lord had led me into, and I was just trying to be obedient to 123 00:10:40.840 --> 00:10:42.520 what I thought he was saying. 124 00:10:43.200 --> 00:10:44.360 I had met a girl. 125 00:10:45.440 --> 00:10:50.160 I felt like the Lord was leading me just to disconnect and from pursuing a 126 00:10:50.160 --> 00:10:55.040 relationship for a season and like get off the one app that I was on. 127 00:10:55.920 --> 00:10:59.840 Um, but prior to that, I connected with someone on that app and we were 128 00:10:59.840 --> 00:11:02.960 chatting for about four weeks and it was really good. 129 00:11:02.960 --> 00:11:04.320 She's a really great girl. 130 00:11:05.200 --> 00:11:11.120 Um, just, yeah, a lot to like about her, but I was like, I was just feeling 131 00:11:11.120 --> 00:11:14.720 convicted and like the Lord was leading me off and here I connected with someone 132 00:11:15.200 --> 00:11:16.960 and I just felt like I needed to. 133 00:11:18.200 --> 00:11:20.240 Um, I just let her know. 134 00:11:20.240 --> 00:11:23.240 I said, Hey, I just feel like this is what the Lord is saying right now. 135 00:11:23.240 --> 00:11:24.320 I just need to take a break. 136 00:11:24.320 --> 00:11:29.440 And anyhow, that ended last Sunday or last Monday on the sixth. 137 00:11:30.000 --> 00:11:38.000 Um, so I'm kind of back, back in the game, uh, or whatever you want to call it. 138 00:11:38.760 --> 00:11:49.600 Um, but so I did connect with someone, um, online and yeah, I'm just trying to, 139 00:11:50.480 --> 00:11:53.040 I don't know, like I'm kind of an all or nothing personality. 140 00:11:53.040 --> 00:12:02.320 So like, it's hard for me to, I'm learning to like navigate this dating 141 00:12:02.480 --> 00:12:07.440 thing, you know, and not go like all in and not, and not then feel like I need 142 00:12:07.440 --> 00:12:11.120 to pull back and like, just be me and the Lord again and just kind of like 143 00:12:11.520 --> 00:12:13.520 walk with the Lord in it, you know? 144 00:12:13.920 --> 00:12:20.040 You know, and, and like, like this girl I'm talking to, like, I was really 145 00:12:20.040 --> 00:12:21.600 excited when I saw her profile. 146 00:12:22.360 --> 00:12:29.400 Um, I'm, I'm still interested, but it's not, I don't know. 147 00:12:29.400 --> 00:12:30.640 I don't know if it's going to go anywhere. 148 00:12:30.640 --> 00:12:36.840 So I'm not sure like when to like, you know, kind of cut ties or not. 149 00:12:37.160 --> 00:12:40.000 Um, I don't know how much time to give it, how much effort to give it. 150 00:12:40.880 --> 00:12:49.680 Um, but anyhow, the main thing is I'm back, I'm back in, and, um, you know, 151 00:12:49.800 --> 00:12:56.000 a season of being open to, to, um, connecting with women, you know, 152 00:12:56.160 --> 00:13:00.280 when you said, when you said it ended last Sunday or whenever it was like, 153 00:13:00.720 --> 00:13:01.800 what was it that ended? 154 00:13:01.800 --> 00:13:02.840 You, you were just talking 155 00:13:02.840 --> 00:13:07.240 my, my season of just focusing on the Lord and this season. 156 00:13:07.280 --> 00:13:07.560 Okay. 157 00:13:07.560 --> 00:13:07.920 Got it. 158 00:13:08.200 --> 00:13:12.080 I wanted to make sure I was clear on what it was that was, I got it. 159 00:13:12.400 --> 00:13:12.720 Yeah. 160 00:13:12.720 --> 00:13:13.080 Yeah. 161 00:13:13.440 --> 00:13:13.800 Okay. 162 00:13:15.000 --> 00:13:15.440 Well, yeah. 163 00:13:15.440 --> 00:13:18.160 I mean, I think it's kind of interesting. 164 00:13:18.160 --> 00:13:24.400 Like you said, you're interested, like you're, I think you said you 165 00:13:24.400 --> 00:13:28.680 were like into, or something, I don't know, into this girl or this lady. 166 00:13:29.360 --> 00:13:32.960 Um, and you're not sure if you should pursue it. 167 00:13:34.280 --> 00:13:34.960 Like, okay. 168 00:13:34.960 --> 00:13:42.680 So after meeting her, like she has, she's like, she's from a really good family 169 00:13:42.680 --> 00:13:48.080 and she's like, her dad's a pastor and she's, has a really sincere faith, but 170 00:13:48.760 --> 00:13:54.640 she, um, her husband cheated on her and, um, she wanted to work it out, 171 00:13:54.640 --> 00:13:55.680 but he wasn't interested. 172 00:13:55.680 --> 00:14:00.560 So they, they divorced like three years ago and then she met someone 173 00:14:01.240 --> 00:14:03.440 and they moved in together. 174 00:14:04.440 --> 00:14:10.160 And then, um, it wasn't working out and she's like, this is not working. 175 00:14:10.160 --> 00:14:11.640 And so they broke up. 176 00:14:12.040 --> 00:14:16.680 And then in that same week, she found out she was pregnant from said Bella. 177 00:14:18.120 --> 00:14:23.040 And I'm like, okay, like this is, this is a born again, woman of God. 178 00:14:23.400 --> 00:14:28.560 But yet she, she found herself in that situation here. 179 00:14:28.560 --> 00:14:29.800 I'm done driving now. 180 00:14:30.680 --> 00:14:34.200 And I'm just, I feel like I need to like talk to her more about that 181 00:14:34.200 --> 00:14:41.320 because I don't know, it just seems like that if you make, like, it's one thing 182 00:14:41.320 --> 00:14:45.200 to like be tempted in the moment and like go too far, but it's another thing 183 00:14:45.200 --> 00:14:50.560 to make the decision to move in with, with your boyfriend, like that's very 184 00:14:50.560 --> 00:14:56.000 premeditated and like, how could you, in my opinion, like, how could you do that 185 00:14:57.160 --> 00:14:58.800 when you have the spirit of God living in you? 186 00:14:58.800 --> 00:15:00.080 But. 187 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:05.680 Yeah, well, I mean a lot of people a lot of people do a lot of things for a lot of reasons. I mean 188 00:15:06.440 --> 00:15:09.400 Like the the how could you sort of thing? It's like well 189 00:15:10.000 --> 00:15:12.000 Well, I mean, yeah 190 00:15:12.000 --> 00:15:17.200 I know what I mean, but I mean it's definitely worth 191 00:15:18.000 --> 00:15:19.400 like 192 00:15:19.400 --> 00:15:26.720 How how she was divorced three years ago, but then within the first year it seems like I don't know. I'm just sorry 193 00:15:27.680 --> 00:15:29.680 but then the first 194 00:15:31.000 --> 00:15:35.260 All right, I don't have to get the phone disconnected from the car 195 00:15:40.800 --> 00:15:43.960 Can you hear me we can't hear you but can you hear me? 196 00:15:47.600 --> 00:15:51.000 He's getting his tech worked out you are currently muted 197 00:15:52.320 --> 00:15:59.280 Yeah, you can't currently mute there Jesse now you guys I'm gonna leave and come back. I'm gonna leave. Okay, that's cool 198 00:15:59.280 --> 00:16:01.280 That's cool, Jesse 199 00:16:01.280 --> 00:16:04.320 Can you guys hear this equipment or not? I got on me. No 200 00:16:05.080 --> 00:16:07.160 No, you can't hear anything on there 201 00:16:08.920 --> 00:16:15.000 Yeah, anybody I mean like I feel like with Jesse's situation I wanted to come back someone to hear kind of like what's going on 202 00:16:15.000 --> 00:16:16.200 but um 203 00:16:16.200 --> 00:16:21.960 So we'll just move on to somebody else for now, but who's got something David Hinshaw. You just came on camera there. We got man 204 00:16:23.320 --> 00:16:27.060 Yeah, I was just gonna say real quick with that situation with Jesse 205 00:16:27.060 --> 00:16:31.740 I just see like I think her heart was extremely broken over the marriage 206 00:16:32.100 --> 00:16:36.580 Sure, and that was like a huge open door for me to come in and just wreak havoc 207 00:16:36.580 --> 00:16:40.900 I don't know. That's just what I'm sensing. But yeah, I mean, yeah 208 00:16:40.900 --> 00:16:44.420 I mean, like I said, a lot of people do a lot of things for a lot of reasons 209 00:16:45.420 --> 00:16:47.420 and 210 00:16:48.540 --> 00:16:50.540 It is true it's just like 211 00:16:51.540 --> 00:16:53.100 You know 212 00:16:53.100 --> 00:16:55.980 What somebody does prior to you even knowing them? 213 00:16:56.580 --> 00:17:01.860 Like definitely plays into the future, but at the same time it's just like 214 00:17:03.020 --> 00:17:05.020 unpacking the the circumstances 215 00:17:06.700 --> 00:17:11.380 The residual being that she she have she has this child, is that correct? Yeah. Yeah 216 00:17:11.380 --> 00:17:18.140 She has like a 16 month old child and this is and this child is her only child or it's her only child 217 00:17:18.140 --> 00:17:20.140 Yeah, her and her husband couldn't get pregnant 218 00:17:20.140 --> 00:17:22.859 They're married nine years couldn't get pregnant 219 00:17:23.500 --> 00:17:28.099 Then she is with this guy and they break up and she's pregnant 220 00:17:28.740 --> 00:17:32.100 With his child. Yeah crazy. Yeah 221 00:17:32.780 --> 00:17:34.780 Yeah, that's that's very 222 00:17:35.100 --> 00:17:39.300 It's very difficult and that's a that's a really difficult situation to be in 223 00:17:40.380 --> 00:17:43.180 because it does say a lot about like 224 00:17:43.820 --> 00:17:45.820 You know 225 00:17:45.860 --> 00:17:51.060 What her choices are and were at the time and like I said people do things for a lot of different reasons 226 00:17:51.580 --> 00:17:55.500 Right, but it's been some time. I guess the really the biggest thing is 227 00:17:56.940 --> 00:18:02.780 You know, where is she now in terms of you know, what does she want to do with her life? 228 00:18:02.780 --> 00:18:06.180 I mean, obviously she has settled into the fact that she has this child 229 00:18:06.180 --> 00:18:10.700 so basically it's not really any different than somebody who's single and has a 230 00:18:11.300 --> 00:18:17.900 Child from previous relationship at this point right something still going on that just is you know 231 00:18:19.380 --> 00:18:24.540 Not healthy, but if she's in a healthy space and a healthy place and she's like look at that was a while ago 232 00:18:24.540 --> 00:18:30.220 Even though it seems recent history. That was you know more than a couple years ago and 233 00:18:30.900 --> 00:18:38.060 I'm in a different place and I'm ready to you know, move my life forward. So that's really the greater conversation 234 00:18:38.140 --> 00:18:40.140 Yeah, obviously there are those 235 00:18:41.700 --> 00:18:45.820 Realities that you would have to deal with basically, okay. This is a person's been in 236 00:18:46.420 --> 00:18:49.020 Previous relationship previously married has a child 237 00:18:50.580 --> 00:18:55.380 So forth. Yeah, so how do you how do you I know you've got several children 238 00:18:56.140 --> 00:19:00.980 Yeah, a whole brood of children. And so how does it how would you feel just normally? 239 00:19:02.620 --> 00:19:05.740 Connecting with somebody already has children regardless of 240 00:19:06.660 --> 00:19:08.340 the situation 241 00:19:08.340 --> 00:19:15.860 Yeah, I'm and I mean, I'm definitely open to it for sure. You were already open to that. I'm open to it. Yeah, but I 242 00:19:16.780 --> 00:19:22.420 Guess I haven't really gotten and I'm not serious with her. But as I'm thinking about 243 00:19:23.780 --> 00:19:29.660 You know continuing communicating with her. I'm like, I guess I'm thinking about a little bit more. I'm like that is a big 244 00:19:31.300 --> 00:19:35.140 It is a big consideration to raise I mean I would be 245 00:19:35.740 --> 00:19:42.580 if it would move forward and we would like get married like I would be helping to raise this this boy, you know that 246 00:19:43.620 --> 00:19:45.620 that um 247 00:19:47.380 --> 00:19:49.220 Yeah it 248 00:19:49.220 --> 00:19:52.500 It's just I mean we think you know, it's making me think more 249 00:19:52.500 --> 00:19:54.900 Do you know you think you know until it's you think you know 250 00:19:54.900 --> 00:20:00.020 You have the answer till it's right in front of you and it requires a deeper answer. And so that's something that 251 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:01.920 I am thinking about a little bit more now. 252 00:20:01.920 --> 00:20:04.280 It's like, how do I feel about that? 253 00:20:04.280 --> 00:20:09.040 You know, I know it's definitely a big possibility 254 00:20:09.040 --> 00:20:14.040 that I'm going to, whoever I connect with will, 255 00:20:14.040 --> 00:20:17.320 there's a good chance that they will have children. 256 00:20:17.320 --> 00:20:18.760 You know, maybe not, but. 257 00:20:20.800 --> 00:20:23.080 What was it that caused you to be interested 258 00:20:23.080 --> 00:20:24.440 in this woman that you know? 259 00:20:24.440 --> 00:20:25.960 I mean, how did you meet her? 260 00:20:25.960 --> 00:20:26.880 It was just through an app. 261 00:20:26.880 --> 00:20:28.620 Like, we don't, we're just chatting a little bit. 262 00:20:28.620 --> 00:20:30.800 Like, we haven't even chatted that much, but. 263 00:20:30.800 --> 00:20:32.140 Do you not really know her? 264 00:20:32.140 --> 00:20:36.220 I don't know her that well, but she definitely, 265 00:20:36.220 --> 00:20:39.740 like, we align spiritually and like our theology is very, 266 00:20:39.740 --> 00:20:44.140 like, she's like, her dad's a Pentecostal pastor 267 00:20:44.140 --> 00:20:48.740 and like, she sings, she leads worship at their church, 268 00:20:48.740 --> 00:20:52.380 you know, so she, there's a lot of like, 269 00:20:53.260 --> 00:20:57.520 we have in common from like a belief standpoint 270 00:20:57.520 --> 00:21:00.680 and what our expectations are in that realm. 271 00:21:00.680 --> 00:21:03.960 And anyhow, it's more of a side note. 272 00:21:03.960 --> 00:21:06.440 It's not really a main topic to talk about. 273 00:21:06.440 --> 00:21:11.440 The main topic was, I'm just, I'm open to, 274 00:21:11.560 --> 00:21:14.940 you know, I'm, you know, I'm looking to date again. 275 00:21:14.940 --> 00:21:17.360 So that's the topic, so. 276 00:21:17.360 --> 00:21:19.000 That's awesome, that's great for you. 277 00:21:19.000 --> 00:21:20.240 I love that. 278 00:21:20.240 --> 00:21:21.680 I love that you're open. 279 00:21:21.680 --> 00:21:26.040 Yeah, I don't think I would kind of just push back on, 280 00:21:26.040 --> 00:21:29.640 not even really hard, but just kind of like, you know, 281 00:21:31.680 --> 00:21:36.680 I feel bad for the fact that you feel like 282 00:21:37.100 --> 00:21:38.560 you have to like push and pull. 283 00:21:38.560 --> 00:21:42.320 It's like start and stop, start and stop, start and stop. 284 00:21:42.320 --> 00:21:45.840 And so I'm just wondering if there's something there 285 00:21:45.840 --> 00:21:50.480 that you feel like, like, why did you, 286 00:21:50.480 --> 00:21:52.120 I mean, is it like overwhelming? 287 00:21:52.120 --> 00:21:53.840 Is there other things going on in like life? 288 00:21:53.840 --> 00:21:55.480 And so just like, life is hard. 289 00:21:55.880 --> 00:21:57.560 And so it's kind of like, hey, I just, I'm just like, 290 00:21:57.560 --> 00:21:59.640 I don't have the capacity for that 291 00:21:59.640 --> 00:22:01.720 in terms of like trying to do the dating thing. 292 00:22:01.720 --> 00:22:03.080 And then I've just got to sort of reset. 293 00:22:03.080 --> 00:22:04.440 Is that kind of like the pattern 294 00:22:04.440 --> 00:22:07.680 or is it something else there that you feel like 295 00:22:07.680 --> 00:22:09.920 is something that you would want to work through 296 00:22:09.920 --> 00:22:11.280 so that you don't feel like you have to start 297 00:22:11.280 --> 00:22:12.440 and stop all the time? 298 00:22:12.440 --> 00:22:13.280 Yeah. 299 00:22:13.280 --> 00:22:15.000 That's the thing I think probably is the biggest question. 300 00:22:15.000 --> 00:22:17.440 Yeah, that's a good question. 301 00:22:17.440 --> 00:22:22.000 So like how it happened, like I really truly felt like 302 00:22:22.000 --> 00:22:26.000 I wasn't necessarily looking to not be dating, 303 00:22:26.000 --> 00:22:30.440 but I just really felt like the Lord led me into a season 304 00:22:30.440 --> 00:22:32.120 of just really focusing on him. 305 00:22:33.960 --> 00:22:36.120 And I was talking to a girl at the time 306 00:22:36.120 --> 00:22:38.600 and I really thought there could be something there, 307 00:22:38.600 --> 00:22:41.240 but I was just trusting the Lord. 308 00:22:41.240 --> 00:22:42.960 And so that's why I did that. 309 00:22:42.960 --> 00:22:46.000 But in general, I am an all or nothing type personality. 310 00:22:46.000 --> 00:22:50.320 And I just know I need to work on just kind of like, 311 00:22:51.320 --> 00:22:54.640 yeah, just meeting, allowing the Lord to like walk me 312 00:22:54.640 --> 00:22:56.560 through things in the moment, which he has, 313 00:22:56.560 --> 00:23:01.520 but like in the season I'm in, you know, and I don't know. 314 00:23:01.520 --> 00:23:06.520 I think part of it too is like, I have a hard time, 315 00:23:06.840 --> 00:23:08.680 like I don't want to like hurt people either. 316 00:23:08.680 --> 00:23:13.680 Like, so like I've met different girls that are great girls. 317 00:23:14.200 --> 00:23:15.720 And if the Lord's like, that's the one for you, 318 00:23:15.720 --> 00:23:16.760 I would be happy with it. 319 00:23:16.800 --> 00:23:21.480 But I just feel like, I guess I'm still learning 320 00:23:21.480 --> 00:23:24.640 like really what I'm aiming for. 321 00:23:24.640 --> 00:23:25.480 Yeah. 322 00:23:25.480 --> 00:23:27.480 So in that process, I'm like, well, 323 00:23:27.480 --> 00:23:30.760 do I like date to learn that and just kind of like 324 00:23:31.800 --> 00:23:35.680 meet people and then like say thanks, but no thanks 325 00:23:35.680 --> 00:23:39.920 or do I kind of figure out more exactly 326 00:23:39.920 --> 00:23:42.840 what I'm looking for and then pursue that only 327 00:23:42.840 --> 00:23:44.360 or early on that? 328 00:23:45.360 --> 00:23:47.480 I think a couple of things and I think, 329 00:23:47.480 --> 00:23:50.080 and please anybody else chime in if you've got something 330 00:23:50.080 --> 00:23:53.560 because I think I will say this. 331 00:23:53.560 --> 00:23:58.160 I think every man, every man is, 332 00:24:00.640 --> 00:24:04.240 especially if you have some sort of conscientiousness 333 00:24:04.240 --> 00:24:05.360 about your life. 334 00:24:05.360 --> 00:24:09.360 There are a lot of guys that are just going through life 335 00:24:09.360 --> 00:24:11.680 at their own speed, at their own desire, 336 00:24:11.680 --> 00:24:13.600 at their own just, it's all about me. 337 00:24:13.720 --> 00:24:15.680 I'm just trying to get my thing. 338 00:24:15.680 --> 00:24:20.680 And I would say most of those individuals aren't yielding 339 00:24:21.040 --> 00:24:25.520 to probably a lot of, 340 00:24:27.840 --> 00:24:31.080 if you're not making space to sort of like hear the voice 341 00:24:31.080 --> 00:24:33.120 of the Lord leading you in things, 342 00:24:33.120 --> 00:24:35.960 there's a way to be strong in your faith 343 00:24:35.960 --> 00:24:38.640 and way to be like in agreement with what God's doing 344 00:24:38.640 --> 00:24:41.640 in your life and you're going after things. 345 00:24:41.640 --> 00:24:43.680 And then being in still alignment with the Lord 346 00:24:43.680 --> 00:24:47.440 and getting reset and refreshed and getting re-fired, 347 00:24:47.440 --> 00:24:52.440 all that versus the stereotypical guy that's out there 348 00:24:52.960 --> 00:24:54.400 just trying to get his thing. 349 00:24:55.320 --> 00:24:57.920 Whereas like he's not paying attention to God at all, 350 00:24:57.920 --> 00:24:59.600 not paying attention to anybody else, 351 00:24:59.600 --> 00:25:00.440 not paying. 352 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:07.200 attention to, you know, any sincerity or value around him in terms of relationships, that 353 00:25:07.200 --> 00:25:08.600 kind of thing, that guy. 354 00:25:08.600 --> 00:25:14.280 So I don't think any of us are that guy, the stereotypical type A, just trying to get his 355 00:25:14.280 --> 00:25:15.280 sort of guy. 356 00:25:15.280 --> 00:25:17.200 I don't think any of us are that. 357 00:25:17.200 --> 00:25:24.720 So having said that, I think we are sort of like that first guy who is, I feel like guys 358 00:25:24.720 --> 00:25:30.780 who have any kind of conscientiousness about, you know, doing good things with their life 359 00:25:30.780 --> 00:25:35.720 struggle between like, oh, I've got to reset and I've got to like the start and stop thing. 360 00:25:35.720 --> 00:25:38.920 Like I'm doing really good, but then something happens and I feel like I'm out of balance. 361 00:25:38.920 --> 00:25:43.840 And so therefore I've got to like pull back and I've got to like, you know, whether it's 362 00:25:43.840 --> 00:25:51.560 whether it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a, whether it's a behavior thing that you feel like is 363 00:25:51.560 --> 00:25:56.920 like not worthy, or if it's just something you just don't feel confident in, like maybe 364 00:25:56.920 --> 00:25:58.560 it's just a loss of confidence. 365 00:25:58.560 --> 00:26:02.120 Maybe, you know, you're just not like, I don't know who I am. 366 00:26:02.120 --> 00:26:07.360 So I think getting clarity is really, really important. 367 00:26:07.360 --> 00:26:11.760 So if you're like, I just need to get clear on what it is I want, what I'm going after, 368 00:26:11.760 --> 00:26:18.560 I think that is definitely for sure something because getting clarity really helps you to 369 00:26:18.560 --> 00:26:24.360 combat that starting and stopping, especially regardless of whether it's relationships or 370 00:26:24.360 --> 00:26:29.520 your career or your health or whatever it is that you're going after. 371 00:26:29.520 --> 00:26:33.200 You don't want to like, like start and stop, start and stop. 372 00:26:33.200 --> 00:26:40.800 Now in the same way, if you're trying to just, you know, motivate yourself to achieve a goal 373 00:26:40.800 --> 00:26:46.320 and you have to continue, like, I'm not against starting as many times as you need to start. 374 00:26:46.320 --> 00:26:49.760 If you're trying to develop a new habit, if you're trying to develop a new regime or 375 00:26:49.760 --> 00:26:54.120 a new regiment or a new routine, you got to start and start and start and start as many 376 00:26:54.120 --> 00:26:57.360 times as you can to make that thing a habit, especially if it's something good you're trying 377 00:26:57.360 --> 00:27:00.360 to train in your life, that's a different thing. 378 00:27:00.360 --> 00:27:04.120 But if you feel like you're like starting and stopping in terms of the things that you 379 00:27:04.120 --> 00:27:10.840 have a strong desire for, i.e. family and like something that you want to establish, 380 00:27:10.840 --> 00:27:15.480 then I think it's probably a moment of clarity that you need to have as far as like really 381 00:27:15.480 --> 00:27:19.960 spending some time and you don't need to spend like weeks and months. 382 00:27:19.960 --> 00:27:22.000 It may just be a weekend. 383 00:27:22.000 --> 00:27:26.960 It may be a full 24 hour period where you're like getting really intentional about, Hey, 384 00:27:26.960 --> 00:27:29.400 what is it that I want? 385 00:27:29.400 --> 00:27:34.920 Like I'd be honest, you know, I want this, I want, you know, and that's, and it's more 386 00:27:34.920 --> 00:27:38.320 than just, I want to be married and have a great woman. 387 00:27:38.320 --> 00:27:43.560 Like be very specific about what it is you want and be very honest. 388 00:27:43.560 --> 00:27:49.440 That's the other thing, because if you're struggling with something, then the honesty 389 00:27:49.440 --> 00:27:54.060 that you have in that moment of getting clarity, you need the voice that as well. 390 00:27:54.060 --> 00:27:59.880 Like look, Lord, I want this, but I'm struggling because I feel like my desires may be, you 391 00:27:59.880 --> 00:28:05.320 know, leading me in another direction that I don't want either, but I really want value. 392 00:28:05.320 --> 00:28:07.800 I want a marriage and I want this, I want those things. 393 00:28:07.800 --> 00:28:14.040 And so I want to develop those patterns of behavior, patterns of thinking, patterns of 394 00:28:14.040 --> 00:28:18.600 a spiritual awareness that lead me into those goals and those things that I want and having 395 00:28:18.600 --> 00:28:24.160 clarity on those goals and having clarity on what it is that you want. 396 00:28:24.160 --> 00:28:28.200 That's the, I think the modern dating sucks book is really great at that because it has 397 00:28:28.200 --> 00:28:35.920 a huge section constantly talking about getting clear, getting clear, getting clarity on what 398 00:28:35.920 --> 00:28:40.800 you want out of a relationship and what kind of relationship and the specifics of that 399 00:28:40.800 --> 00:28:44.360 relationship and how it connects to your life. 400 00:28:44.360 --> 00:28:49.320 I think that's probably one of the greatest things you can do in this season of searching 401 00:28:49.320 --> 00:28:56.320 is get clarity because then you don't have to date and always discovering, well, I mean, 402 00:28:56.320 --> 00:29:02.000 you are discovering, but what I'm saying is you don't have to date like without intention. 403 00:29:02.000 --> 00:29:06.000 It's easier to date because once you have clarity and you're going out on dates and 404 00:29:06.000 --> 00:29:11.280 you're like, oh, this isn't lining up with the clarity that I've had with the, and I 405 00:29:11.280 --> 00:29:17.300 think there's a lot of things, especially in the book that gives you the difference 406 00:29:17.300 --> 00:29:21.400 between things that are non-negotiables and things that are preferences. 407 00:29:21.400 --> 00:29:24.040 That's another thing to get clarity on. 408 00:29:24.040 --> 00:29:26.420 What's the difference between those two things? 409 00:29:26.420 --> 00:29:33.980 What is lots of things that people put up as preferences are actually non-negotiables 410 00:29:33.980 --> 00:29:34.980 and vice versa. 411 00:29:34.980 --> 00:29:39.380 Lots of things that people put up as non-negotiables are really not non-negotiables, they're just 412 00:29:39.380 --> 00:29:43.460 preferences, but you think they're very important. 413 00:29:43.460 --> 00:29:50.340 Getting clarity even on that is very important in order to move forward and have confidence 414 00:29:50.340 --> 00:29:51.340 in moving forward. 415 00:29:51.340 --> 00:29:52.340 Does that make sense? 416 00:29:53.340 --> 00:29:55.340 Yeah, that makes sense. 417 00:29:55.340 --> 00:29:56.340 Yeah. 418 00:29:56.340 --> 00:30:00.020 So, and I think that will help you do. 419 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:06.240 you know, kind of go away from the starting and stopping, you know, 420 00:30:07.880 --> 00:30:11.040 God's like, no start, no stop, no start, no stop. 421 00:30:11.040 --> 00:30:12.400 Like that doesn't make any sense. 422 00:30:12.400 --> 00:30:17.280 That seems like I'm there's like a confidence thing or a clarity issue or 423 00:30:17.280 --> 00:30:18.120 whatever. 424 00:30:19.280 --> 00:30:22.400 Yeah. And I haven't done a ton of that last year I did in April. 425 00:30:22.400 --> 00:30:24.480 I started dating like March and April. 426 00:30:24.480 --> 00:30:27.920 I dated like a lot and I was worn out and, 427 00:30:28.040 --> 00:30:30.320 and overwhelmed and I had to just retreat. 428 00:30:30.720 --> 00:30:34.920 Yeah. And I get it. And I'm, and I'm not talking, I mean, I'm just talking, 429 00:30:36.200 --> 00:30:40.360 I think a lot of guys, a lot of guys deal with this. 430 00:30:40.360 --> 00:30:42.400 I'm starting and stopping. 431 00:30:42.520 --> 00:30:46.520 That's kind of why I'm addressing this broadly is because I think a lot of guys 432 00:30:46.520 --> 00:30:49.440 are like, I feel good this week and I'm really going after it. 433 00:30:49.440 --> 00:30:50.560 And then next week it's like, Oh, 434 00:30:50.560 --> 00:30:52.680 I lost my confidence and something happened and whatever. 435 00:30:52.680 --> 00:30:57.480 And I feel like I should pull back and that starting and stopping is just 436 00:30:58.000 --> 00:31:00.120 kind of a time waster. And it's, 437 00:31:00.120 --> 00:31:03.640 and it's not really the mind of God because I don't really think God's like, 438 00:31:03.960 --> 00:31:07.840 go stop, go stop. Like, I don't think it's that kind of thing. 439 00:31:07.840 --> 00:31:08.720 I think it's something that's, 440 00:31:08.760 --> 00:31:13.440 we're getting in our way somehow and it could be an issue of clarity and it's 441 00:31:13.440 --> 00:31:16.800 not something that's wrong with you. It that's life, bro. That is like, 442 00:31:16.800 --> 00:31:20.840 that's how this world works. But the, the, 443 00:31:20.840 --> 00:31:25.480 the thing what's great about being a son of God is that you're called 444 00:31:26.040 --> 00:31:31.040 to, to be a part of the kingdom that has resources. 445 00:31:31.960 --> 00:31:35.600 So you, you have this inroad to be able to have clarity, 446 00:31:35.600 --> 00:31:40.240 to be able to have truth, to be able to have a North star, to be able to have, 447 00:31:41.240 --> 00:31:45.840 you know, intentionality, a purpose, instead of just wondering, you know, 448 00:31:45.840 --> 00:31:49.240 what am I, what am I doing? What am I here for? What do I want? You know, 449 00:31:51.480 --> 00:31:53.960 I hope that helps because I think getting clarity, 450 00:31:53.960 --> 00:31:58.000 I think is probably your, your, the thing that could help you out the most. 451 00:31:58.200 --> 00:32:01.240 And sometimes it's just a long weekend, you know, 452 00:32:01.760 --> 00:32:05.320 sometimes you take a long weekend, you know, like, you know what, 453 00:32:05.320 --> 00:32:09.240 I'm going to set aside a long weekend and I'm going to really kind of get some 454 00:32:09.240 --> 00:32:13.040 clarity. I'm going to pursue in prayer and I'm going to pursue in my heart and 455 00:32:13.040 --> 00:32:16.040 mind. I'm going to journal, write some things down. I'm going to get some, 456 00:32:16.360 --> 00:32:20.840 some resources that you're working through. Yeah. Yeah. Very helpful. 457 00:32:21.160 --> 00:32:24.920 Yeah, it's good. And I did get clarity even recently, 458 00:32:25.080 --> 00:32:29.120 like even specifically like today or in yesterday. 459 00:32:29.200 --> 00:32:32.360 So even further clutter clarity. So it's good. That's good. 460 00:32:33.120 --> 00:32:37.320 Yeah. I love it. Awesome. Thanks, Jesse, for, um, 461 00:32:37.360 --> 00:32:40.680 sharing your heart and sharing what's going on with you. 462 00:32:42.040 --> 00:32:43.440 Who else hit anybody else? 463 00:32:43.680 --> 00:32:47.000 I kind of resonate with that sort of getting clarity thing. Yeah. 464 00:32:48.400 --> 00:32:49.240 Yeah. 465 00:32:51.440 --> 00:32:55.440 And not, not just clarity start, start at all. I mean, I, I haven't, 466 00:32:55.600 --> 00:32:56.960 I haven't probably dated in 467 00:32:59.520 --> 00:33:02.360 eight years, 10 years. I don't know a long time. 468 00:33:03.920 --> 00:33:07.600 I mean, I do live in a small town and I am in Alaska, but 469 00:33:09.000 --> 00:33:13.920 I mean, I've always been open to it. If somebody comes along, great. 470 00:33:13.960 --> 00:33:18.320 But, uh, with, with my work and stuff, 471 00:33:19.200 --> 00:33:22.880 I don't really have time to go look either right now. 472 00:33:22.880 --> 00:33:24.840 We're working a six 12. So. 473 00:33:25.560 --> 00:33:28.920 Yeah. Wow. I, um, I met, 474 00:33:28.920 --> 00:33:33.040 I just met a lady from Alaska, uh, 475 00:33:33.440 --> 00:33:35.520 in California a couple of weeks ago. 476 00:33:35.680 --> 00:33:38.520 She was a new member of our, the mastermind that I'm a part of. 477 00:33:38.520 --> 00:33:43.240 And she told me she was from a little town and I'm trying to find it on the 478 00:33:43.240 --> 00:33:47.360 map right here. Boy, that was a really weird town. 479 00:33:49.320 --> 00:33:51.440 She said it was way on the Eastern end. 480 00:33:53.600 --> 00:33:54.440 There's a Yakut. 481 00:33:54.440 --> 00:33:57.200 She out like him. Oh, yeah. I could take, yeah. 482 00:33:57.640 --> 00:34:00.920 Is, or maybe it's another little town. I'm not really sure, but she has. 483 00:34:01.840 --> 00:34:02.680 Fly in only. 484 00:34:04.000 --> 00:34:05.840 Fly. Oh, fly in only. Maybe it's. 485 00:34:07.120 --> 00:34:11.760 Might be able to get to my boat. I can't remember. I've been there once or twice. 486 00:34:12.280 --> 00:34:13.360 Really? Wow. 487 00:34:13.360 --> 00:34:17.000 Uh, I, I get to go a lot of places with my job. So. 488 00:34:17.040 --> 00:34:18.600 It might not be that far remote. 489 00:34:18.679 --> 00:34:23.199 It just seemed like it was a little less like not flying necessarily, but, 490 00:34:23.199 --> 00:34:26.639 um, yeah, I can't remember the name of the town. Anyway, 491 00:34:26.639 --> 00:34:30.080 this site was interesting. Somebody said they were from Alaska and she's recently 492 00:34:30.080 --> 00:34:32.120 widowed. Um, 493 00:34:32.199 --> 00:34:37.040 she owns a store and she owns a grocery store and a hardware store in town that 494 00:34:37.040 --> 00:34:40.520 her husband started, or I guess her husband's father started. 495 00:34:41.159 --> 00:34:43.600 And it's been a part of the family business. And so she's kind of like, 496 00:34:43.719 --> 00:34:45.760 kind of coming up to try in the last couple of years, 497 00:34:45.760 --> 00:34:50.000 trying to come up and trying to lead that and kind of discover what she's going 498 00:34:50.000 --> 00:34:51.520 to do with it. So. 499 00:34:52.520 --> 00:34:55.360 I just, I don't know where to start. I mean, I don't, 500 00:34:56.120 --> 00:34:58.480 I don't know if I should, you know, first of all, 501 00:34:58.480 --> 00:35:00.560 I don't know if I should get in that position. 502 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:07.120 I should start pursuing a relationship even though I'm working so many hours or, or, you 503 00:35:00.920 --> 00:35:03.760 Yeah. It's a little bit of a, 504 00:35:03.760 --> 00:35:06.200 it's a little bit of a struggle to get in that position. 505 00:35:07.120 --> 00:35:13.560 know, and just, it'll be just what it is, you know, but I'm not real trusting of the 506 00:35:07.600 --> 00:35:08.200 Yeah. 507 00:35:13.560 --> 00:35:22.360 dating apps either because all, all I've had, uh, probably 98% of the women that I've connected 508 00:35:22.360 --> 00:35:29.800 with online always end up asking for money and that's a, that's a problem. 509 00:35:29.800 --> 00:35:32.160 And if I say no, that's pretty much it. 510 00:35:32.160 --> 00:35:37.760 I mean, they'll butter me up for months and months cause I'm right out front when he asked 511 00:35:37.760 --> 00:35:43.040 me for money, we're done talking, you know, my, my son's been in a relationship for four 512 00:35:43.040 --> 00:35:44.040 years. 513 00:35:44.040 --> 00:35:45.040 His girlfriend don't ask him for money. 514 00:35:45.040 --> 00:35:52.080 I just, uh, you know, I haven't even met you in person yet, you know? 515 00:35:52.080 --> 00:35:54.680 And I think, I think that's a fair point. 516 00:35:54.680 --> 00:35:55.680 Yeah. 517 00:35:55.680 --> 00:35:56.680 Yeah. 518 00:35:56.680 --> 00:35:57.680 That's rough. 519 00:35:57.680 --> 00:35:58.680 There's a lot of that going on there on those apps. 520 00:35:58.760 --> 00:36:01.760 Um, yeah, getting Kevin, uh, for sure. 521 00:36:01.760 --> 00:36:06.560 Um, yeah, I'm with you as far as, you know, just like what to do and getting clarity. 522 00:36:06.560 --> 00:36:11.920 I think that's definitely something in your situation that, um, you know, you're going 523 00:36:11.920 --> 00:36:14.520 to have to really ask the Lord, like, what, you know, what do you want me to do here? 524 00:36:14.520 --> 00:36:19.800 Like, how can I get clarity on what it is that, that I want here? 525 00:36:19.800 --> 00:36:22.920 And right now, I mean, I feel like, I feel like in your situation, you feel like you 526 00:36:22.920 --> 00:36:26.440 have to work a lot because, you know, it's what you got to do to make a living. 527 00:36:26.440 --> 00:36:27.440 So I get it. 528 00:36:27.440 --> 00:36:28.440 Yeah. 529 00:36:28.440 --> 00:36:29.440 Yeah. 530 00:36:29.440 --> 00:36:41.000 And in the summer, November until May, you know, so, which is when I started this was 531 00:36:41.000 --> 00:36:42.200 while I was out there. 532 00:36:42.200 --> 00:36:44.440 You might be able to find a seasonal woman there's, there's for sure. 533 00:36:44.440 --> 00:36:47.520 I mean, I don't mean a seasonal, just a woman for the season. 534 00:36:47.520 --> 00:36:51.000 What I mean is like a woman who understands the seasons, like, you know, somebody who's 535 00:36:51.000 --> 00:36:56.640 native to that sort of life can understand that and appreciate it and, you know, and 536 00:36:56.840 --> 00:36:57.840 believe that. 537 00:36:57.840 --> 00:36:58.840 So yeah, definitely get clarity there. 538 00:36:58.840 --> 00:37:04.160 David, you got your hand raised, which you have a, yeah, I just wanted to share real 539 00:37:04.160 --> 00:37:05.160 quick two weeks ago. 540 00:37:05.160 --> 00:37:09.520 I got in a car accident and I'm still dealing with the aftermath of that, like injuries 541 00:37:09.520 --> 00:37:10.520 and all that. 542 00:37:10.520 --> 00:37:14.880 I heard about that and I'm sorry that that happened. 543 00:37:14.880 --> 00:37:15.880 Thank you. 544 00:37:15.880 --> 00:37:16.880 I appreciate it. 545 00:37:16.880 --> 00:37:19.560 The car got totaled. 546 00:37:19.560 --> 00:37:26.480 So basically I'm in a place where I can't really get a car until things get settled. 547 00:37:27.320 --> 00:37:30.600 I'm going through a lawyer because the person who's hit me was driving a company vehicle. 548 00:37:30.600 --> 00:37:31.600 Oh wow. 549 00:37:31.600 --> 00:37:38.000 So, I mean, so I have a potential for a case there, but like if my injuries aren't like 550 00:37:38.000 --> 00:37:42.880 significant enough, then there's basically no case and it just ends with no, no, you 551 00:37:42.880 --> 00:37:47.640 know, financial compensation, unfortunately on that car, I was backwards on the boom, 552 00:37:47.640 --> 00:37:49.800 so it's not even going to pay it off. 553 00:37:49.800 --> 00:37:59.160 So, um, so yeah, so, um, but I guess getting to the theme of tonight, um, I've been wanting 554 00:37:59.160 --> 00:38:06.760 to head down to, you know, Nashville area, Franklin, see, uh, Renee, she was going to 555 00:38:06.760 --> 00:38:10.560 set me up with seeing a bunch of people and I just feel like it's kind of like both are 556 00:38:10.560 --> 00:38:11.560 going on. 557 00:38:11.560 --> 00:38:15.040 I feel like maybe it's not the right time yet, like putting the cart before the horse, 558 00:38:15.040 --> 00:38:17.480 but I also feel like it's warfare too. 559 00:38:17.480 --> 00:38:18.480 Like I just keep getting blocked. 560 00:38:18.480 --> 00:38:24.040 It's like, like no matter what I do, I cannot, it feels like I cannot leave this place. 561 00:38:24.040 --> 00:38:27.880 Like I've been wanting to take like a trip outside of Pennsylvania for like a year and 562 00:38:27.880 --> 00:38:30.400 a half now and it just hasn't happened. 563 00:38:30.400 --> 00:38:32.800 So there's always, always something coming up. 564 00:38:32.800 --> 00:38:38.120 So, but I mean, I'm in a very different place now than I was even four months ago. 565 00:38:38.120 --> 00:38:42.400 So a year ago, you know, it, it stunk, but like I wasn't really in a place to even do 566 00:38:42.400 --> 00:38:44.920 something like that, you know, just, just take a trip. 567 00:38:44.920 --> 00:38:45.920 Yeah. 568 00:38:45.920 --> 00:38:46.920 Yeah. 569 00:38:47.920 --> 00:38:51.960 So, yeah, that's for sure. 570 00:38:53.080 --> 00:38:59.480 Well, I, I just, I just pray, I just agree with you and pray that this financial situation 571 00:38:59.480 --> 00:39:03.560 with the car, whatever's going to happen legally or insurance wise or whatever, that that happens 572 00:39:03.560 --> 00:39:08.120 quickly and it happens in your favor so that you can make an advancement here. 573 00:39:08.120 --> 00:39:13.240 Because I mean, I, I agree with you, like, yeah, what a time for something like this 574 00:39:13.240 --> 00:39:18.600 to happen, but I believe this is something that's, it can still be opportunity. 575 00:39:18.600 --> 00:39:20.080 God's, God's a miracle worker. 576 00:39:20.080 --> 00:39:24.440 He's amazing at making things work out in your favor. 577 00:39:24.440 --> 00:39:27.680 And so I just agree with you that's going to happen so that you can still continue to 578 00:39:27.680 --> 00:39:28.680 move forward. 579 00:39:28.680 --> 00:39:32.680 Because I think that would be a great idea for you to go down and check out Nashville 580 00:39:32.680 --> 00:39:34.160 and get introduced. 581 00:39:34.160 --> 00:39:38.120 And that's an awesome, that's an awesome invitation. 582 00:39:38.120 --> 00:39:41.560 So I pray that you're going to be able to be able to take advantage of that. 583 00:39:42.560 --> 00:39:43.560 Thank you. 584 00:39:43.560 --> 00:39:44.560 I appreciate that. 585 00:39:44.560 --> 00:39:45.560 Yeah, for sure. 586 00:39:45.560 --> 00:39:48.560 Who else has got something on here, guys? 587 00:39:51.560 --> 00:39:53.560 I'm happy to share a little. 588 00:39:53.560 --> 00:39:56.560 Yeah, it's been a while since I've seen all of you. 589 00:39:56.560 --> 00:39:59.560 I've been just. 590 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:07.380 I, I, I've been working on productivity stuff and I learned that if we have 168 591 00:40:07.380 --> 00:40:12.660 hours per week and we sleep eight hours a night, um, then we have 112 hours left. 592 00:40:13.460 --> 00:40:17.460 And figuring out what do you do with those 112 hours? 593 00:40:17.580 --> 00:40:21.780 Um, I'm really running into a lot of my limitations in some really great ways. 594 00:40:22.740 --> 00:40:25.900 And, uh, it's forcing me to start being more creative. 595 00:40:26.220 --> 00:40:31.980 Um, uh, since last time I've been here, um, some highlights are, um, I've been 596 00:40:31.980 --> 00:40:33.460 continuing to do scuba stuff. 597 00:40:33.480 --> 00:40:37.300 I just finished my wreck diver, um, like shipwreck certification. 598 00:40:37.740 --> 00:40:38.100 Oh, wow. 599 00:40:38.980 --> 00:40:45.380 Um, uh, had, um, my second ever guitar performance in Hollywood. 600 00:40:45.820 --> 00:40:46.100 Wow. 601 00:40:46.220 --> 00:40:52.820 Um, uh, a few weeks ago with the school of rock band, like adult band, uh, yeah. 602 00:40:53.780 --> 00:41:00.780 And then, um, uh, and then, um, I think, yeah, working on poetry, writing, you 603 00:41:00.780 --> 00:41:01.980 know, all that kind of stuff more. 604 00:41:01.980 --> 00:41:05.580 And I feel like God invited me to meet him at the Raphael art 605 00:41:05.580 --> 00:41:06.940 exhibit at the New York Met. 606 00:41:06.980 --> 00:41:13.220 So I went out there, um, and, um, it was, it was really inspiring that Raphael's 607 00:41:13.220 --> 00:41:16.900 teacher talked about art had the potential to help people pray and 608 00:41:16.900 --> 00:41:18.340 experience spiritual delight. 609 00:41:18.900 --> 00:41:19.380 Oh, wow. 610 00:41:19.460 --> 00:41:23.180 That's not that, you know, I'd been really struggling with how to create 611 00:41:23.180 --> 00:41:25.820 something positive from art instead of negative. 612 00:41:26.420 --> 00:41:28.300 Um, so it was tremendously helpful. 613 00:41:28.300 --> 00:41:38.020 I would say romantically, um, I had felt, I felt just the, just this deep 614 00:41:38.060 --> 00:41:45.500 longing for just getting things more in a place of togetherness in, in, in the 615 00:41:45.500 --> 00:41:50.740 sense of my life, like getting my life kind of on, on track and, but this, this 616 00:41:50.740 --> 00:41:56.420 last week, um, I was on hinge and I was so happy, um, there, there are all these, 617 00:41:56.460 --> 00:42:01.300 you know, the people behind the Rose gates, um, that, uh, sometimes I 618 00:42:01.300 --> 00:42:05.620 disqualify myself for, and I've been, I've been working on being more playful 619 00:42:05.620 --> 00:42:09.500 on, on the apps with some mixed amount of success. 620 00:42:09.980 --> 00:42:17.140 Um, and, uh, I feel like I really reached a place of not disqualifying myself as 621 00:42:17.140 --> 00:42:21.660 much, like when I see someone that I think is really amazing, I, in the past, 622 00:42:21.660 --> 00:42:24.540 I've tended to think like, oh, they're, you know, they're too amazing. 623 00:42:24.540 --> 00:42:28.700 They're not going to want to, I think, I think that, um, this last week I was 624 00:42:28.700 --> 00:42:33.140 really grateful to reach a place of saying like, well, you know, it seems 625 00:42:33.140 --> 00:42:36.460 like people who are on these apps really want to be in a relationship. 626 00:42:37.140 --> 00:42:42.020 And I'm going to start letting the ladies decide whether or not they want to share 627 00:42:42.020 --> 00:42:44.060 time with me instead of disqualifying myself. 628 00:42:44.700 --> 00:42:45.860 Yeah, absolutely. 629 00:42:45.900 --> 00:42:47.740 So, so I'm really grateful for that. 630 00:42:47.780 --> 00:42:49.940 It feels like a move in a good direction. 631 00:42:49.980 --> 00:42:53.180 And I think that, that like you were talking about David, David, there's 632 00:42:53.180 --> 00:42:57.420 something I think about getting in touch with, um, your heart. 633 00:42:57.500 --> 00:42:59.020 That's something that. 634 00:42:59.980 --> 00:43:03.500 You know, every day, you know, I know, I know that's a lot of journey for all of 635 00:43:03.500 --> 00:43:09.420 us, but I feel like there's a lot of conflict if you are saying, well, I need 636 00:43:09.420 --> 00:43:13.340 to disqualify myself from what my heart is saying that it wants. 637 00:43:14.060 --> 00:43:14.500 Yeah. 638 00:43:15.020 --> 00:43:17.060 Um, so yeah, that's a good way to put that. 639 00:43:18.100 --> 00:43:22.420 Um, so grateful to be getting rid of a little bit more conflict. 640 00:43:22.780 --> 00:43:28.740 Um, I think today also I was reading about Solomon and him building the 641 00:43:28.740 --> 00:43:34.740 temple and just feeling despair just at not doing great things like him or David 642 00:43:34.740 --> 00:43:36.340 or Abraham Lincoln or whoever. 643 00:43:37.020 --> 00:43:37.380 Yeah. 644 00:43:38.820 --> 00:43:45.180 Like we probably don't have enough information to accurately judge ourselves 645 00:43:45.180 --> 00:43:46.700 in comparison with other people. 646 00:43:47.420 --> 00:43:52.340 And so to try to see that, and I felt like when I keep myself in that comparison 647 00:43:52.340 --> 00:43:58.460 mode, it causes me to view members of the body of Christ as competitors instead 648 00:43:58.500 --> 00:44:04.020 of like, who's going to be closest to God, kind of a thing instead of service 649 00:44:04.020 --> 00:44:07.140 oriented and, um, in partnership. 650 00:44:07.980 --> 00:44:12.180 So you tend to have that sort of mindset sometimes in terms of like hierarchy, 651 00:44:12.820 --> 00:44:16.900 like where kind of does fitting people where they kind of like fit, like not 652 00:44:16.900 --> 00:44:20.620 trying to judge, but I'm just trying to say, you have a tendency to like categorize. 653 00:44:21.260 --> 00:44:26.020 I have a tendency to view myself negatively and view other people positively. 654 00:44:26.180 --> 00:44:26.500 Okay. 655 00:44:26.940 --> 00:44:32.260 And compare my kind of what I project to be my weaknesses compared to what I 656 00:44:32.260 --> 00:44:36.260 perceive to be their strengths, which are probably a hundred percent accurate. 657 00:44:36.980 --> 00:44:37.580 Well, yeah. 658 00:44:37.580 --> 00:44:41.060 I've heard comparing weaknesses to strengths, totally opposite. 659 00:44:41.060 --> 00:44:42.820 That's like, yeah, a hundred percent. 660 00:44:42.820 --> 00:44:43.740 You're going to lose every time. 661 00:44:45.100 --> 00:44:45.860 Well, yeah. 662 00:44:45.860 --> 00:44:49.180 You know, and, and it can be inspiring, but it turns out I think 663 00:44:49.180 --> 00:44:50.700 there's different kinds of inspiring. 664 00:44:51.100 --> 00:44:53.700 So there's like, I don't know if any of you have been reading like Blake 665 00:44:53.740 --> 00:44:57.620 Healy's like veil series, but he talks about like watching two people running 666 00:44:57.620 --> 00:45:00.020 in the park and one of them is being prodded. 667 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.700 by a demon, you know, like, you're not good enough, 668 00:45:02.700 --> 00:45:03.540 you have to run. 669 00:45:03.540 --> 00:45:05.600 And then the other one is running like with angels 670 00:45:05.600 --> 00:45:07.880 and like from a place of celebration and care 671 00:45:07.880 --> 00:45:08.720 and that kind of stuff. 672 00:45:08.720 --> 00:45:13.200 So I think I've been working a lot more on like, 673 00:45:13.200 --> 00:45:15.640 how am I doing what I'm doing? 674 00:45:15.640 --> 00:45:16.480 Yeah. 675 00:45:16.480 --> 00:45:17.300 I think so. 676 00:45:17.300 --> 00:45:20.480 Like motivation for why? 677 00:45:20.480 --> 00:45:21.400 Yeah, I hope so. 678 00:45:21.400 --> 00:45:22.680 Yeah. 679 00:45:22.680 --> 00:45:24.440 Yeah, it's like, what are we trying to accomplish? 680 00:45:24.440 --> 00:45:26.520 Like with this mentality here? 681 00:45:26.520 --> 00:45:29.840 Yeah, why are we doing 682 00:45:29.840 --> 00:45:32.720 what we're doing, but also why are we doing it this way? 683 00:45:32.720 --> 00:45:36.280 You know, like, yeah. 684 00:45:36.280 --> 00:45:37.120 I like that. 685 00:45:37.120 --> 00:45:39.440 I love the fact that you're, 686 00:45:40.440 --> 00:45:43.680 I love the fact that you're trying to do 687 00:45:43.680 --> 00:45:45.680 the comparison game less 688 00:45:45.680 --> 00:45:47.480 and that you're also seeing the value 689 00:45:47.480 --> 00:45:50.620 because as far as I've known you on these Zooms, 690 00:45:50.620 --> 00:45:53.220 I think you're pretty incredible, fascinating dude. 691 00:45:53.220 --> 00:45:55.660 So I'm just surprised that you have this sense 692 00:45:55.660 --> 00:45:58.480 of kind of like, I'm surprised, but I'm not surprised. 693 00:45:58.480 --> 00:45:59.320 Like I get it. 694 00:45:59.800 --> 00:46:01.720 I understand there's a lot of people that are like, 695 00:46:01.720 --> 00:46:03.680 you know, they don't, you know, 696 00:46:03.680 --> 00:46:07.520 from whether it's a sort of a wound from childhood 697 00:46:07.520 --> 00:46:09.240 or wound from like, just kind of growing up, 698 00:46:09.240 --> 00:46:12.060 the environment, you can basically be an amazing person, 699 00:46:12.060 --> 00:46:16.000 but being nurtured all of your life in a situation 700 00:46:16.000 --> 00:46:17.240 where, you know, you're never good enough, 701 00:46:17.240 --> 00:46:18.320 you're never this, you're never that. 702 00:46:18.320 --> 00:46:20.380 So you develop that script and I get it. 703 00:46:21.520 --> 00:46:24.080 So, but I love the fact that you're coming out of that 704 00:46:24.080 --> 00:46:26.920 and that is like, you're just becoming more aware 705 00:46:26.920 --> 00:46:27.960 and giving the space. 706 00:46:27.960 --> 00:46:29.400 Like, I love that about the dating thing. 707 00:46:29.400 --> 00:46:34.400 Like, I'm just gonna let this person decide more on where, 708 00:46:35.320 --> 00:46:38.120 you know, whether they want more from me 709 00:46:38.120 --> 00:46:41.400 because I've got more, there is more there. 710 00:46:41.400 --> 00:46:45.120 Like I can be delightful for days. 711 00:46:45.120 --> 00:46:47.440 You know, I can be delightful for an hour, 712 00:46:47.440 --> 00:46:48.720 two hours or whatever it is. 713 00:46:48.720 --> 00:46:50.240 Like I can, I can do it. 714 00:46:50.240 --> 00:46:52.260 And so I love the fact that you're feeling yourself 715 00:46:52.260 --> 00:46:53.100 with that. 716 00:46:53.460 --> 00:46:57.900 Um, remind me where, and like where, 717 00:46:57.900 --> 00:46:59.340 what part of California again? 718 00:46:59.340 --> 00:47:00.580 All right, are you in LA? 719 00:47:00.580 --> 00:47:02.860 I know you're in LA, but like what part of LA? 720 00:47:02.860 --> 00:47:04.140 Santa Monica. 721 00:47:04.140 --> 00:47:04.980 Oh, Santa Monica. 722 00:47:04.980 --> 00:47:05.800 Okay. 723 00:47:05.800 --> 00:47:06.900 Yeah. 724 00:47:06.900 --> 00:47:08.980 We were, we were just there in that area, 725 00:47:08.980 --> 00:47:12.220 but we went, we went to Santa Monica just for the evening 726 00:47:12.220 --> 00:47:14.980 and we were like, you just kind of like trying to go 727 00:47:14.980 --> 00:47:18.900 to the pier and bikes for a moment on the beach. 728 00:47:18.900 --> 00:47:22.180 But I, I, we're coming back to that area 729 00:47:22.220 --> 00:47:24.260 and I definitely, I definitely want to be intentional 730 00:47:24.260 --> 00:47:27.420 about getting with you because I'd love to have dinner 731 00:47:27.420 --> 00:47:30.780 and, you know, eat up and have coffee or something. 732 00:47:30.780 --> 00:47:31.700 That'd be great. 733 00:47:31.700 --> 00:47:32.540 Yeah. 734 00:47:32.540 --> 00:47:34.260 Do you want, do you want me to email you? 735 00:47:34.260 --> 00:47:35.100 Do you want to email me? 736 00:47:35.100 --> 00:47:36.780 What would, what would work best for that? 737 00:47:36.780 --> 00:47:40.180 Yeah. I just, I have, um, I don't know if I, 738 00:47:40.180 --> 00:47:41.860 you have my email, right? 739 00:47:41.860 --> 00:47:43.580 Uh, I think so. 740 00:47:43.580 --> 00:47:47.300 It's like David, David at JaneMedia.org. 741 00:47:47.300 --> 00:47:50.980 Jane Media, J-A-N-E, yeah. 742 00:47:50.980 --> 00:47:51.820 What's that? 743 00:47:53.140 --> 00:47:53.980 Who? 744 00:47:55.220 --> 00:47:56.420 This is Thomas. 745 00:47:56.420 --> 00:48:00.420 No, um, Silverman, he's been around for a long time, 746 00:48:00.420 --> 00:48:03.540 but we have a mastermind sent at that time. 747 00:48:03.540 --> 00:48:06.180 Is it a guy that works in the industry? 748 00:48:06.180 --> 00:48:07.900 Oh, Matthew Silverman. 749 00:48:07.900 --> 00:48:08.740 Yeah, yeah, yeah. 750 00:48:08.740 --> 00:48:09.900 So make sure you say that on there. 751 00:48:09.900 --> 00:48:10.740 For sure, yeah. 752 00:48:10.740 --> 00:48:11.940 Matthew's, he's not on here tonight, 753 00:48:11.940 --> 00:48:13.300 but yeah, Matthew for sure too. 754 00:48:13.300 --> 00:48:15.300 Matthew's in that area as well. 755 00:48:15.300 --> 00:48:16.140 Oh really? 756 00:48:16.140 --> 00:48:17.300 Yeah, you didn't know that. 757 00:48:17.300 --> 00:48:19.580 Yeah. He's in the, he's in the Hollywood area. 758 00:48:20.540 --> 00:48:25.540 He's, um, like a car, um, graphics, uh, 759 00:48:25.940 --> 00:48:28.780 I, and a butcher or whatever it is. 760 00:48:28.780 --> 00:48:32.340 He's, I'm just going to simplify, but he's, he does like, 761 00:48:32.340 --> 00:48:33.260 uh, animation. 762 00:48:33.260 --> 00:48:34.100 That's what it is. 763 00:48:34.100 --> 00:48:35.460 He's in the animation sort of thing. 764 00:48:35.460 --> 00:48:36.460 And he's like been, you know, 765 00:48:36.460 --> 00:48:38.740 trying to get into back into the industry. 766 00:48:38.740 --> 00:48:40.660 It's a very, very competitive. 767 00:48:40.660 --> 00:48:41.500 Yes, it is. 768 00:48:43.300 --> 00:48:44.260 All right. 769 00:48:44.260 --> 00:48:46.020 So good, good, good guys. 770 00:48:46.020 --> 00:48:46.860 Who else? 771 00:48:46.860 --> 00:48:47.860 Tim, you're on video. 772 00:48:47.860 --> 00:48:49.460 You got something you got on video? 773 00:48:50.340 --> 00:48:51.180 You got to want to share tonight. 774 00:48:52.860 --> 00:48:55.420 Um, what are we sharing? 775 00:48:55.420 --> 00:48:56.260 I missed the meeting. 776 00:48:56.260 --> 00:48:57.100 Oh, we're just like anything. 777 00:48:57.100 --> 00:48:59.180 We, we just happen to be on a theme of kind of like 778 00:48:59.180 --> 00:49:01.060 talking about like getting clarity and, but, 779 00:49:01.060 --> 00:49:03.100 but just kind of updating us on like, you know, 780 00:49:03.100 --> 00:49:04.700 what's been going on with you and, 781 00:49:04.700 --> 00:49:07.860 and anything that's on your heart you want to share? 782 00:49:07.860 --> 00:49:10.700 Mostly just work is what's going on with me. 783 00:49:10.700 --> 00:49:13.380 Um, since a bunch of people on this week 784 00:49:13.380 --> 00:49:16.180 were not on last week's call, but were on previous weeks, 785 00:49:16.180 --> 00:49:19.900 I will update you that absolutely massive 786 00:49:19.900 --> 00:49:22.580 quarter million dollar window project I had going at work. 787 00:49:22.580 --> 00:49:24.700 I have a verbal commitment on, 788 00:49:24.700 --> 00:49:29.380 and I finally today got the final subcontractor bid. 789 00:49:29.380 --> 00:49:30.740 So I'm going to be able to send that 790 00:49:30.740 --> 00:49:33.220 to the homeowner tomorrow. 791 00:49:33.220 --> 00:49:35.900 And I should get a signature later this week. 792 00:49:35.900 --> 00:49:37.020 Awesome. 793 00:49:37.020 --> 00:49:38.660 Great, great. 794 00:49:38.660 --> 00:49:39.500 I love that. 795 00:49:39.500 --> 00:49:42.260 It's always good when you have a win in business 796 00:49:42.260 --> 00:49:45.060 and it makes you feel like it's good. 797 00:49:45.060 --> 00:49:46.820 And of course the cast associated, 798 00:49:46.820 --> 00:49:47.740 that's always good as well. 799 00:49:47.740 --> 00:49:50.620 So are you commission based? 800 00:49:50.620 --> 00:49:51.700 Yeah. 801 00:49:51.700 --> 00:49:53.140 Like a hundred percent commission or? 802 00:49:53.140 --> 00:49:54.940 Yep. One hundred percent commission. 803 00:49:54.940 --> 00:49:55.780 Wow. Yeah. 804 00:49:55.780 --> 00:49:57.420 That's high stakes right there for sure. 805 00:49:57.420 --> 00:50:00.220 Yeah. This will be the biggest paycheck I've ever seen. 806 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:05.720 Awesome good for you, man. That's awesome. What are you gonna? Do you have any plans what you're gonna do? 807 00:50:06.400 --> 00:50:08.400 Have an emergency fund. Ah 808 00:50:09.240 --> 00:50:10.720 Good good 809 00:50:10.720 --> 00:50:17.080 That's awesome. How responsible of you now? You do need to take a small portion of that and 810 00:50:18.080 --> 00:50:22.520 Celebrate. Okay. Yeah, just whatever it is that you deem 811 00:50:23.440 --> 00:50:27.060 worthy I'm thinking about getting some like 812 00:50:27.740 --> 00:50:31.980 Ride rep for my mountain bike maybe a new handlebar and some new pedals nice 813 00:50:33.100 --> 00:50:37.500 Definitely definitely take yourself out to dinner and have a have a great have a nice dinner 814 00:50:38.140 --> 00:50:42.140 Okay. Yeah for sure. It's always good. Good good thing to do 815 00:50:43.660 --> 00:50:47.180 Okay, man, awesome great win I love that Tim thanks for sharing that 816 00:50:48.940 --> 00:50:53.780 Relationship front anything going on there? No, nothing new. Nothing new. Okay, and 817 00:50:54.500 --> 00:50:56.500 And 818 00:50:56.740 --> 00:51:00.380 Christopher I know I don't Chris there was the other Christopher was on here 819 00:51:00.380 --> 00:51:05.080 He was on it earlier. So I was gonna get to him, but he kind of popped off look like so I think Christopher 820 00:51:07.780 --> 00:51:13.820 Had like he was pursuing a relationship but that kind of went a different direction a 821 00:51:14.340 --> 00:51:17.300 couple weeks ago and so I just kind of wanted to hear an update on that, but 822 00:51:17.940 --> 00:51:20.380 I'm gonna miss out that I have to follow up on them some other way 823 00:51:21.100 --> 00:51:23.100 All right. Anybody else got anything? 824 00:51:24.260 --> 00:51:25.380 Mm-hmm 825 00:51:25.380 --> 00:51:31.620 Christopher de Lucia, do you have anything to share? I don't know if you're able to I know you're at work a lot sometimes or 826 00:51:34.460 --> 00:51:37.900 Nothing really happening I was getting ready to go see somebody this 827 00:51:38.420 --> 00:51:44.060 This weekend, but she thought I wasn't being intentional. So we're kind of out of contact. Oh 828 00:51:45.740 --> 00:51:48.900 Like you weren't intentional enough is that basically what she was saying? 829 00:51:48.900 --> 00:51:51.820 I I guess I you know what I had to give her wasn't enough 830 00:51:52.060 --> 00:51:57.020 I was already I was already hip deep in a couple of other things. I was doing so I wasn't yeah 831 00:51:57.020 --> 00:51:59.020 Yeah, you know I wasn't 832 00:51:59.460 --> 00:52:05.060 Intentional enough to drop everything I had going on to plan something out with a woman. I don't know 833 00:52:05.060 --> 00:52:07.740 So yeah now, I mean it could be difficult 834 00:52:07.740 --> 00:52:10.940 especially when you've got things going on to explain that to somebody who's 835 00:52:11.620 --> 00:52:14.900 doesn't understand your life, you know, so that's that could be challenging and 836 00:52:16.380 --> 00:52:20.100 Hopefully some people would give you a grace for that, but I guess not 837 00:52:21.100 --> 00:52:23.100 Sorry to hear that 838 00:52:24.460 --> 00:52:26.460 Yeah, sorry to hear that 839 00:52:28.500 --> 00:52:35.420 Okay, I think that's everybody everybody got good shared and I think I love that and 840 00:52:38.300 --> 00:52:42.500 I'll remind you to have Jackie shouted for the other room Thursday. So again Thursday 841 00:52:42.500 --> 00:52:47.420 It's gonna be a good session. If you want some coaching some hot seating some 842 00:52:48.100 --> 00:52:53.260 More information about modern dating sex, but it's also gonna be asked Jackie as well. So 843 00:52:54.140 --> 00:53:00.620 Definitely check that out in the app 7 p.m. Central on Thursday if you can be there, so 844 00:53:02.380 --> 00:53:04.540 But yeah, yes, go ahead Jesse 845 00:53:05.140 --> 00:53:10.620 Can I ask a question about a girl in the in the community or should I email that? 846 00:53:10.620 --> 00:53:17.320 I mean, I mean like ask a question about if anyone knows her if anyone knows anything about her. Oh, who is it? 847 00:53:17.940 --> 00:53:19.940 Autumn Horton. Oh 848 00:53:21.740 --> 00:53:23.420 Jackie knows her 849 00:53:23.420 --> 00:53:25.860 Thanks. Well, okay. Yeah, I'm sure she 850 00:53:26.500 --> 00:53:30.140 I've seen I've seen the name. I don't know. I don't know who she is 851 00:53:30.140 --> 00:53:33.780 But I think you don't know about autumn Jackie wants to know I 852 00:53:34.620 --> 00:53:39.020 Don't I mean, I don't know. I mean she seems like 853 00:53:39.700 --> 00:53:42.380 Interesting for sure seems she seems pleasant 854 00:53:42.500 --> 00:53:48.380 Yeah, you can you can message Jackie or send us the email and so she can send us an email 855 00:53:49.380 --> 00:53:51.380 at Jackie dorm comm and then 856 00:53:52.100 --> 00:53:54.100 Jackie can pick that up and kind of like 857 00:53:54.580 --> 00:53:59.500 You know make it make a connection if if or, you know in an interaction if that's what you want 858 00:53:59.500 --> 00:54:02.020 Or that's what she wants. She kind of does that 859 00:54:03.060 --> 00:54:05.060 Okay, so 860 00:54:05.580 --> 00:54:07.580 All right. I think I heard 861 00:54:07.580 --> 00:54:11.020 So yeah, I can do that. I think I think you've dm'd her before 862 00:54:11.020 --> 00:54:13.020 Yeah, thank you. Jackie that is 863 00:54:13.620 --> 00:54:15.060 Okay 864 00:54:15.060 --> 00:54:17.540 All right. Sounds good guys. God bless 865 00:54:18.820 --> 00:54:21.220 Thanks for being here tonight. I I 866 00:54:21.900 --> 00:54:26.580 Speak blessings and life health wealth and prosperity over you in Jesus name 867 00:54:26.580 --> 00:54:30.540 I thank you right now Lord for these men who are pursuing after righteousness 868 00:54:31.060 --> 00:54:37.500 Who are pursuing clarity in their lives in their jobs their careers their relationships? 869 00:54:37.500 --> 00:54:43.420 I thank you Lord for these good men. I thank you. We need more men that are good men and that 870 00:54:44.300 --> 00:54:46.300 That want to raise up a righteous seed 871 00:54:46.460 --> 00:54:52.580 And so I just I just give you praise for it in Jesus name and what you're doing in each and every one of these 872 00:54:52.780 --> 00:54:54.780 guys life in Jesus name 873 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.040 Amen. Amen. All right, guys. God bless. Have a great, great rest of your evening.