And good, good, good morning or afternoon or evening, depending when you're listening to this.
I'm so excited. We are in the series.
And I think we're on date nine, if I'm not mistaken, of the twelve on from pressure to partnership.
And we've been working through the PROSPER framework, P-R-O-S-P-E-R.
We're in the second P, which is purpose and identity.
And yesterday we talked, we covered a lot of the scriptures we'll review quickly today.
But actually, the order should be reversed, but it didn't work in my acronym.
It should be identity and purpose, right? Because our purpose comes from our identity.
And so we really saw some powerful things in scripture.
We're going to pick up where we left off from the power hour, went through the scriptures.
And we're going to do some some deep dives to see how this applies in our lives.
So welcome. Welcome. So glad that you're here.
And I'm so excited for this, this particular lesson.
So we got yesterday from Isaiah that God has called us by name.
We belong to him and our lives have been purposely planted to bear fruit.
So today we're going to go deeper.
Not only what am I doing, which is what we tend to focus on so much, right?
We're like human doings. What am I doing?
Instead, we're going to look at where am I coming from?
As I do it. Where am I coming from?
As I do it. So we can be building from imagined lack.
We can be building from fear of rejection or the need to prove or comparison or self protection or the belief that everything depends on us.
Or, or we can be building from belonging, from provision.
From daughterhood, from being a daughter of the most high God, from from wisdom.
From authority, from trust.
From partnership. Of course, we're talking about moving from pressure to partnership.
And so, Heavenly Father today, Holy Spirit.
Open our spiritual senses, open our minds.
Help us to see what we have not been seeing.
Give us clarity to truly understand this.
To truly know who you say we are.
And where we have been living from misperception.
Open our eyes, Lord. Open our spiritual ears.
Open our hearts that we might see.
May today be a day of transformation as we step into truth.
And the truth sets us free as we step into what you say.
As we step into what you see.
As we walk out what you've called us to walk out.
Father God, I just pray in Jesus name. Amen.
So Ephesians 2.10, we looked at yesterday.
Says we are God's workmanship created to do good works that he prepared in advance.
And yesterday we pointed out that the order in these verses matters.
The order.
So, we're God's workmanship.
Which we saw is the word poema, which means poetry.
We're God's poetry before we do his work.
We don't do his work to be his poetry.
We simply are. The fact that we're created in this image, we're called, we're dearly loved,
we're the temples of the Holy Spirit, all that happens before we do the work.
And that's very different how most of us live in society, right? And then we went into the
New Testament to John 15, and we saw that we're chosen, we're appointed, and we're planted to
bear fruit. So again, the order matters so much. We're chosen.
We're his poema before we work. We're purposely planted before we work. We don't work in order
to be chosen. We don't work in order to be his poema. We are his poema, and the work flows from
So when we're talking from pressure to partnership, pressure. Pressure happens
when we get that order wrong. When we reverse that order, you can count on pressure. Does that make
sense? It's so important to start having this awareness because we try to produce fruit in
order to prove that we belong. I'm working hard trying to prove I'm a Christian, which by the way,
Christian is a word that not only is it pretty messed up these days, but it's a word that came
after. They weren't even called Christians in the Bible. They were called followers of the way,
right? They did not do the work to prove that they were gods.
They did the work because they were driven and compelled by the fact that they were gods.
And so in our modern society, and maybe you were raised like I was, I was absolutely raised
that I earned my worth by how hard I work. I earned my worth. If I wanted to see my
dad grumpy and the scowl and not a happy dad, I didn't do enough.
The truth of the matter is that was so twisted that my younger, my late brother
actually used drugs to be able to do more to earn dad's approval.
And that's a model of our society as a whole. We measure our identity by results, by how much we do.
And so the key truth I want you to get here is that pressure increases
when we live from misperception, wrong perception. When you're feeling pressure,
you're out of alignment with the word, you're out of alignment with who God is and who God says
that you are. And so partnership, we're moving in this series from pressure to partnership.
Partnership, we walk in truth and we begin to agree with who God says that we are.
So misperception, a false identity, and I lived with many of these. A false identity might be
I'm alone. I picked that up very young, by the time I was probably eight years old.
I'm all alone. There's no one to help me. How many of you have heard this? If it's to be,
it's up to me. If it's to be, it's up to me. We even have slogans like that.
And then I had this perpetual sense of never doing enough and always being behind.
So I always felt like I'm behind. And we live by to-do lists. How many of you know,
that's why I created the Prosper Daily Planner, because to-do lists are just a mess.
They don't have any priority. They don't have any order. They just keep getting longer. And we do
like some of the easy stuff, but we put the hard stuff on the to-do list until tomorrow,
until tomorrow, until tomorrow. Like it's just completely doesn't work. That's part of why I
created that. So I'm not going to lie to you. I'm not going to lie to you. I'm not going to lie to
So we live by this identity that I'm alone, I'm behind.
And then there's always, I'm not enough.
I'm broken, I'm missing something.
I'm just not good enough.
I'm unsupported.
Another one, I'm running out of time.
Running out of time.
I have to make this happen.
I can't afford to fail.
And of course, this goes even deeper,
we've talked about it,
to the question of who or what is my source.
When I feel that, like if my retirement is my source
and I'm coming up on retirement age
and I don't have a retirement,
by George, I gotta make this happen
because that's my source.
I won't be provided for, I'm all alone.
And we just get all of this in our head.
But God says, you are mine.
Like do we ever let that sink in?
God says, I'm his.
What would life be like if we just walked around all day?
I'm yours, God.
You say, I'm yours, I'm yours, I'm your daughter, God.
And then the whole source and the whole responsibility
is taken off this pressure.
And it's like, you're a good, good father.
You've promised to lead me and guide me
and you're faithful and you're trustworthy.
And I can lean my full weight on you.
John 3, 16 says, God so loved the world
that he gave his only begotten son
that whosoever would believe should not perish
but have everlasting life.
We, in our modern culture of rationalism,
we think that means believe in our head.
Yeah, I believe.
That word actually in the original language
means lean your entire personality.
Like if I was doing this as a live class,
like I would, I'd lean completely on a wall
and put my entire weight trusting that wall will hold me.
That's what John 3, 16 means.
It doesn't mean intellectually.
Yeah, I believe in God, I believe in Jesus.
The Bible says, so do the demons.
The demons believe, it's not intellectual.
And so God says, you're mine, you're chosen.
Some kids grew up going, yeah, I'm an accident.
Mom and dad didn't plan on me, I was a whoops.
Not in the kingdom, not in God's eyes.
Maybe your parents thought so.
You were chosen before the foundation of the world.
You are my workmanship, my poema.
You're not alone, you're never alone.
David had to prove that.
He said, if I go to the ends of the earth,
if I make my bed in hell, even there you are with me.
David came to the discovery,
there's absolutely nowhere I can go that God is not.
Well, yeah, because the kingdom of God is within.
Christ within me, the hope of glory.
I'm the temple of the Holy Spirit.
How can I get away from that?
Wherever I go, there I am.
And there he is.
You're purposely planted, you're led,
you're equipped, you're anointed, you're appointed.
So let's do some deep dives.
The purpose of this one, we go much more immersive, okay?
You've got the scriptural foundation.
Let's go a little bit more immersive.
And the more you kind of dig into this,
the more it'll have impact.
So I want you to choose one area of pressure
in your life or business.
Pick one area, like money or clients or sales
or family or health or a decision
that should have happened by now, okay?
Choose a current area of pressure.
And I want you to write, the situation is,
and put that pressure there.
The situation is.
Is.
The situation is.
Okay, now.
I want you to ask.
What am I believing?
Is lacking.
Time money support.
Clients opportunity confidence experience.
Approval energy.
And I want you to write the perceived.
Lack is.
The perceived lack.
So the situation is.
The perceived.
Lack is.
And I want to clarify this ladies. I want to clarify this.
The circumstances may be real.
I'm not saying that the conditions are not present.
Okay, your bank account might be empty.
You know, your parents are on, you know, having trouble.
You're your marriages. I'm not saying that the.
Conditions or the circumstances are not real.
They're real. The question.
Is whether that circumstance has become the source.
Of your identity and decision making. Okay.
So that's what we're diving into.
So the situation is.
The perceived lack is.
And next.
In this situation.
I'm seeing myself as the woman.
Be honest here. Be brutally. Don't try to be.
Perfect Christian language and get the right answer.
You straight a students or don't try to like.
Do a, you know, I'm writing the perfect thing, right?
My teacher can come along and give me a gold star. That's not what I'm saying.
Okay, this is time to be no one's looking at this, but you, you can share to bless.
If you want, but this is just brutally honest.
So in this situation, I'm seeing myself.
As a woman who is.
For example, alone behind unqualified.
Unsupported responsible for everything.
Running out of time.
Right? Those kinds of things. I'm seeing myself.
As the woman who is.
Okay.
So next.
Question is around.
What does this identity cause me to do?
So, for example.
So, when I believe this about myself.
I don't have to do anything.
Okay.
So next question is around.
What does this identity cause me to do?
So, for example.
Does it cause me to rush or force things or overwork?
So under charge.
Over give delay compare control.
Okay.
So, when I believe this about myself, your next sentence.
When I believe this about myself.
I tend to do what?
Like in my case.
All over work.
If I believe that lack is there.
I'll believe I need to push harder all over work.
This girl can put in an 18 hour day. I mean.
Okay.
When I believe this about myself, I tend to.
Do what?
Okay.
I think I got it.
So.
sharing today. The whole concept is that there's an identity behind the pressure that we feel,
and it's usually a false identity, and it usually forms around a perceived lack. We believe we don't
have enough time, we don't have enough health, we don't have enough support, we don't have enough
money, we don't have enough energy, so we get an identity, a false identity that's creating
the pressure, and that false identity is coming from a perceived lack. In other words, the perceived
lack is that something essential is missing. I don't have any help. I don't have enough money.
There just isn't enough time, so something essential is missing, and the identity, therefore,
because I perceive this lack, I make a conclusion. For me, as a very young girl,
now this is unconscious, but we make these unconscious vows, right? We make these unconscious
vows. I've had a book sitting on my computer for a long time. I probably need to get with Linda and
just finish this thing, but it's called I Didn't Agree to That, the unconscious vows we make with
God, ourselves, and others, right? And so it's like, therefore, I'm all alone. I made the unconscious
vow. I'm not going to have a family like that. Therefore, I'm going to be the perfect mother,
perfect Christian. That's an unconscious vow that drives you. It's an unrealistic expectation
that we put on ourselves, and so we create this false identity, and so then the pressure response
is, I've got to force it. I've got to prove, or I've got to hide, or I've got to rescue,
or I've got to control, or I've got to overwork. It looks different for every woman, so
let me give you some examples of this, what it looks like, okay? So you could write down
the performer. One of the ways it comes out is the performer. I was a performer.
I must achieve in order to be valuable. That's the performer. I must achieve in order to be
valuable. So the result is things like perfectionism, overwork, fear of making a mistake,
difficulty resting. These are all the performer,
okay? The performer, I must achieve in order to be valuable.
So I overwork. I'm perfectionistic. I have a fear. It's difficult to make decisions, okay? Yeah,
me too, Amanda. Me too. That's why we recognize. We see each other, girl. Okay, then another one,
and you might be multiple of these. I'm multiple of these, okay? Another one is after the performer,
there's the rescuer. The rescuer. The rescuer says, I'm responsible for everyone's outcome.
I'm responsible to keep this family together. I'm responsible for my partner's health. I'm
responsible to keep my alcoholic relative from not drinking. That was me. I'm responsible to
keep them from committing suicide. I'm responsible to keep them from using drugs,
right? Whatever it is, okay? The rescuer. I'm responsible that my kids come out and turn out.
So the result of that one is overgiving and undercharging. There's a lot of guilt.
There's often resentment. There's very weak boundaries with the rescuer.
Yeah. Yeah. I'm a performer rescuer. I like cleaned house on these lists, right? I know,
Linda. That's why you're my sister. I cleaned house on these, okay? All right. Another one is
the orphan. The orphan. Again, I'm a straight A student. I'm all of these.
I'm an overachiever in all ways, right? So the orphan. I'm all alone and I must secure
my own future. I mean, ladies, I still struggle with this one because I'm single.
relatives have all passed away, man, what happens, right?
So the orphan, I'm alone.
I must secure my own future.
My parents didn't leave any kind of inheritance, like zero,
like start from the ground level.
Didn't take anything out of the divorce.
So yeah, the orphan, I'm all alone,
and I got to secure my future.
If it's to be, it's up to me.
And so the result of this one is control,
and there's this constant feeling of scarcity,
and there's a panic.
That's part of the pressure.
It can be like a panic, right?
There's like just this idea of carrying everything alone, OK?
And then there's the invisible one, the invisible one.
In this one, it's safer to hide than risk rejection, right?
Safer to hide, I know, I know.
So this often causes us to delay, undercharge,
avoid invitations.
And this is so common, as I coach, waiting for permission.
And we were taught this very young, right?
I mean, you don't even go to the bathroom
without asking permission in school.
Teacher, may I please go to the bathroom?
Like, we're so, mommy, may I please go here?
Like, we're so permissioned.
And then somehow, you magically, after 18,
or whenever you moved out, 17, in my case,
you're not supposed to ask permission anymore.
Suddenly, like, right?
And so many don't get out of that.
And so they stay as the invisible.
Like, they have so much trouble showing up online.
They have so much saying, this is what I do,
and this is how much it is.
OK?
We often work on that one.
OK, then there's the servant.
The servant.
And it's interesting, you can find all of these examples
in scripture.
They're all the way woven.
This is humanity from day one, right?
The servant, I must earn my place.
I must earn.
Nobody's going to hand you anything.
You earn it.
Any of you heard that growing up?
So the result, this is where it gets really muddied.
Right now, in our culture, love, and realizing
what a mess you are.
No, you're going to realize what a gift you are,
and who God made you, beautiful sister.
That's the whole point, is that these are all misperceptions.
They're not true.
OK?
So like, I'm smiling and teaching you.
I told you, I'm these things, right?
Like, I'll teach you, I'll teach you.
Like, absolutely.
But when awareness is the first step of transformation,
that you can go, ah, that's not what God says.
That's not what the word says.
Therefore, I'm no longer going to agree with that.
So we come out of agreement with these things, right?
We come out of agreement.
And so what I started to say with the servant,
this plays out in all areas of our life,
not just our financial life.
How many women, honestly, worked for love?
I'm not saying prostitution.
I'm saying you worked that hopefully you would
be good enough to be loved.
And relationships these days, I was having this conversation.
I get to have this wonderful three-hour drive
to San Francisco with a fellow counselor and just a biblical,
let's see what the Hebrew says kind of scholar dude.
But he's rough on the edges.
Like, he comes out of the desert storm
and has a mouth like a sailor.
But it's like, he's deep.
And we were talking about relationships
are so transactional.
And I'm not going to do this for you.
unless you do this, I expect you to do this, and I'm going to do this. And even, you know,
women are controlling and withholding sex, men are withholding and controlling commitment. And
we've just got all this transactional, like, manipulation to get the other person into line.
Right? And so it comes from this servant mentality that I have to work for love.
That I have to work to be loved. And there's guilt around rest. When you've got the servant one,
there's a lot of guilt around rest. I'll find myself just sitting down to rest, and I might
have already put in a 10-hour day, and it's like, I can't be doing that. There's so much
that needs to be done. I can't be doing that. I'm being irresponsible. Right? So it's programmed
into us. There's also, as a servant, there's a discomfort in receiving.
Let me help you. No, I'm good. Thank you so much. I'm okay.
Right? And there's a constant striving for approval.
So the key, like Collette, when you said I'm a mess, the key to understand is these are not
permanent labels. These didn't come from God. God never said this about you.
They're misperceptions. There's ways that we're seeing ourself. They're on, you know, these
inner vows, these expectations that we've put on ourselves. It's our false identity.
It's our way of seeing ourself that's not based on truth. That's why
the Bible says the truth will set you free. These are not true. And we come out of agreement
with them. So write this down. The false identity I most often move into is the false
identity I most often move into is the false identity I most often move into is
is it the performer, the rescuer, the orphan, the invisible one, the servant, the false identity
I most often move into is. And it causes me to do what? It causes me to
so the false identity, the misperception I most often move into is the performer.
It causes me to make myself sick over working, right? And then I want you to add to that.
It has cost me. Finish the sentence. It has cost me. So for example, it's cost me my peace.
It's cost me my health. It's cost me energy. It's cost me showing up in visibility.
It's cost me intimacy. It's cost me healthy boundaries. It's cost me
intimacy.
So do you remember yesterday we went into Luke 15 and we talked about the prodigal son?
And we all know this story. It's very familiar, but there's something that
most don't look at that I want you to see a little differently as you open your eyes and
have awareness. So when the younger son, you know, asked for his inheritance early
and he goes and he spends it all on crazy living. And so he ends up losing his money.
He ends up losing his position. He ends up losing his dignity. I mean,
a Jewish boy living with the pigs and eating with the pigs. He lost his sense of belonging.
And yet the turning point in all of this began before his circumstances.
changed. In other words, he was still in his conditions. This is super important. He was
still in his circumstances. He was still eating the carapods, living in the pig pen, muddy,
dirty, no dignity. He was still in that when something begins to change. And scripture
uses such powerful words. It says he came to himself. He came to himself. I always say
awareness is the first step to transformation. He had an awareness. He had an awakening.
He had an eye opening. He came to himself and he remembered. He began to remember some truths.
He remembered, wait a minute, I have a father. I'm not an orphan. I have a father and my father
has a house and there's provision in my father's house. I belong somewhere. I came from more
than this. But here's what I want you to catch that nobody really talks about much in this story.
His identity was still wounded. His identity was still wounded. So how do we know his identity
was still wounded? His self-talk. I love that the Bible gives us, it didn't pull it out. I love
that we know exactly what he was thinking and what he was saying. His self-talk. We got a glimpse
right into his self-talk and he starts rehearsing what he's going to do.
And he says, I'm, what are you going to say to his father? He's got it all planned. I'm
going to go to the father and this is what I'm going to say. I'm no longer worthy to be called
your son. Do you catch this? Sonship is tied with worthiness, right? I'm no longer worthy
to be called your son. Make me one of your hired servants. You see, he was still a son,
but he was thinking and operating like a servant.
He was still a son, but he was thinking and operating like a servant. That's the heart
of this whole lesson of what we're doing today. His circumstance has changed. We see he gets up,
he goes to the father, he meets the father. His circumstances change, but his identity has not.
Identity has not. And we see this all the time. You can win the lottery,
but you're still operating from a sense of lack and poverty. You can get married,
but you're still operating from working for love. So your circumstances, this is opposite of what
we believe and what the world thinks. We think when my conditions change, everything will be
better. If my circumstances change, if I can just get clients, if I can just get married, if I can
just get enough money. We think we're always trying to change circumstances thinking that's
going to change, but that's the fruit that's not the root. And so his circumstances changed,
but his identity has not. He was still a son while living as though he were an orphan.
And so his father begins to correct the misperception. And we see beautiful symbolism,
how the father is trying to correct the misperception. He puts the robe on him, the
royal robe on his son. He didn't say, take a shower and clean up your act, and then you can
wear this robe. You don't deserve to wear this robe. He didn't. He put the robe over his stinky
pig smelling. Remember to a Jew, to even touch a pig, to even be near a pig was absolute,
like the worst disgusting thing you can do. You were called unclean. You weren't allowed to
associate, but the father puts the robe on him. And the robe is saying, you know what?
Your worst season does not get to name you. Your worst season.
Your worst mistakes, your worst disappointments do not define you.
Your past does not define you.
So I want you to write here what mistake or what disappointment or what label have I allowed
to define me?
What mistake or disappointment have I allowed to define me?
What disappointment, what mistake have I allowed to define me, to become my identity?
And now write, what does the father say instead?
What does the father say instead?
So for example, I made a mistake, but I am not a mistake.
You hear the identity?
I made, and we have to teach our kids this.
You made a mistake, but you are not a mistake.
A disappointing result cannot cancel my calling.
The season is difficult, but difficulty is not my identity.
It's separating out what we do and who we are.
This is where we get confused.
And so the father continues.
He doesn't just put the robe on him.
He puts the ring on him.
The ring had like a stamp.
You could put it in hot wax and you could, you could, it's your authority.
You could make a decree.
So the ring said, you belong and you carry my name.
You smell like pig poop.
You spent all the money, but you belong and you carry my name.
And remember the father sees him at a distance and runs to him.
So write, where have I surrendered my voice, my authority, or my permission?
Where have I surrendered my voice, my authority, or permission?
Thank you.
I'm seeing all your great comments, Christine.
Thank you for sharing.
We're going to have some sharing time in just a minute.
Where have I surrendered?
And thank you, Colette.
Colette said, your teaching is rich.
I appreciate your insights so much.
Thank you.
You know, God had to reveal these things to me.
I had a lot.
I did it really wrong.
So that's why I'm aware of all this stuff, right?
I'm not coming from perfection.
Okay.
So where have I surrendered my voice, authority, or permission?
And so now I want you to write, because I belong to the father, I have permission to.
Finish that sentence.
Because I belong to the father, I have permission.
permission to. Because I belong to the Father, I have permission to. So, for example, because
I belong to the Father, I have permission to speak. I have permission to lead. I have
permission to charge appropriately. I have permission to set this boundary. I have permission
to ask for help. I have permission to rest. I have permission to obey what God is telling
me without everyone understanding. You know, some of you God made an entrepreneur and you
come from a family of employee that you're supposed to get a job and they don't understand
what you're doing and why you're struggling, right? Okay. Then the Father, which represents
God, puts sandals on his feet. Puts sandals on his feet. And the sandals say, you are
not here merely to work. You're family. You're not a slave. You're a son. So, I want you
to write, where have I been working for belonging rather than from belonging? Where have I been
working for belonging rather than from belonging? Yes, Christine, and you have so much beauty
to share. You have a lot of wisdom. So, yes, you do. So, where have I been working for
belonging rather than from belonging? And what would change if I truly knew I could
not lose my place in my Father's heart? In other words, if I truly knew there's nothing
I can do to make God love me less or make God love me more. His love is unconditional.
It's infinite. What would I change if I knew I could not lose my place in the Father's
heart? So, there's so much more I want to do, but we're running out of time. So, when
you remember who God says you are, go back through the verses yesterday. I have called
you by name. You're mine, Isaiah 43, 1. I've chosen you and purposely planted you, John
15, 16. We're his workmanship, Ephesians 2, 10. You've received the spirit of adoption,
Romans 8, 15. So, I want you to be very clear. The false identity says, and you complete
that blank, the false identity says, but God says, I am. And so, we start walking in the
truth that sets us free. The false identity says I have to work to be accepted. God says
I'm his. I'm chosen. I'm called by his name. I'm not alone. I'm led. I'm God's workmanship.
I'm purposely planted. I'm a daughter. I'm not a servant. I'm supported by the source
of wisdom and provision. I'm equipped for the step God is asking me to take. And then,
you just got to really get out of your head and into your heart. If I truly believe this,
what would become available to me? I'd be able to tap into courage, patience, wisdom,
creativity, boundaries, clarity, confidence, you know, all these things. So, from my true
identity, I now have access to. It's like the people you read about that they're actually
multi-millionaires. There's an account with their name on it, but they didn't know. And
they're living as beggars. They're living so miserly. They're living so poor, right?
I love the story of the man that spent all he had to get on the ship to come to America,
come to the new world from the old world, and he had packed his lunch, he had lots of
dried fish for the whole trip, and every night he would go sit outside and he would eat the
dried fish and drink the water, and he'd look and he could see the cabin where everybody
was dining in the candlelight and hear the clinking of the beautiful crystals and smell
the aroma of the food, but he was so grateful that, you know, he had his fish and he got
to go, and when they landed on the new world and the captain was out shaking everyone's
hand as they left, and the captain said to him, I noticed you never joined us in the
dining hall, you always just sat out and ate alone, and he said, yeah, I didn't have enough
money for that, I just had all the money I took just to get the ticket, and he said,
your ticket included that.
He was eating as a beggar, and how many of us are ticket as the daughter of the Most
High God includes infinite wisdom, infinite creativity, infinite resources, infinite,
and we're still walking around as beggars, we're still rehearsing like the prodigal son,
we're still working for the Father's approval and people's approval, we're still living
transactional lives, we're still beating ourselves up, not letting ourselves rest, not letting
ourselves speak up, still hiding, still undercharging, so I'd love to hear, can we have some, just
some quick interaction, can we have some quick comments, I'd love to hear from you,
what is coming up for you, share for the purpose of yourself and the purpose of each other,
love to hear from you, just unmute what's coming up for you, what's breaking off of
you, what are you having awareness, what are you stepping into, what are you going
to do different, let's let this thing really go deep in us, let this be a line in the sand.
I can share a little bit, a lot of things have broken off of me, but sometimes I notice
myself wanting to go back to that, especially being a rescuer, or because my husband drove
truck over the road for many years, so I had to do everything, like helping with our
son at eight years old, and just, I felt like a, you know, just being that single parent,
so that was a lot of stuff coming off of me, and I'm trying not to get emotional, because
I know he's done such a deep work, I've learned a lot in that, so now I'm just, there's just
that freedom now of like, you know what, I can ask for help, because I remember back
in the day, I was going to church, kind of new in my faith, and I heard the Holy Spirit
say, Jackie, you're wearing a mask, yeah, I'm like, whoa, yeah, and that's where it
kind of all started, yeah, like, let me tend to your heart, let me just, yeah, let's work
on this for today, yeah, beautiful, thank you for sharing, anything today that jumped
out at you fresh today?
For me?
Yeah.
So, for me, personally, I think the orphan spirit, now, let me say this, because I have
people in my circle, and it breaks my heart when they still have that, that mindset at
times, I guess, and it's like, no, you're not an orphan, because then I think of myself,
because my parents both died, like, two years apart, even though they weren't married, people
would say, you're, aren't you, like, you're an orphan, Jackie, I'm like, what?
That hit me hard.
Yeah.
Like, I would begin to bawl, and it's like, no, I'm not, I might feel like it a little
bit.
But I have God.
Yeah.
Beautiful.
Yeah.
Beautiful.
Okay, I'm done.
Beautiful.
Thank you for sharing.
Who else?
Did anything pop up for you today?
Did you get an aha?
Did you get an awareness today?
Did you get a reminder today?
Was this, was this fresh or new for any of you?
I will say something.
Yeah.
First of all, at the beginning, my computer was mute and unmute, so we're talking about
shooting.
Nerf darts around. I apologize for that. They're having a good time over here. But I wanted to say
I never really considered this, I guess, not just trying to do this with humans, but with God,
because what you just said, if I understood that I cannot cause God to love me more or less,
what would I do? That hit me real hard. I don't know what to do with that exactly, but
that is some amazing thought. Yeah, sit with that. Just sit with that. I love that.
Yeah. Beautiful. Thank you for sharing. Okay. Tracy says many areas came into or even further
into vision. Okay. Yeah, I think I'll share. I can really relate a lot to Jackie just for being a
single mom for so many years that I felt like it was my identity in me. I felt like I just had to
strive and hold everything together. I talked about rest, that I always felt guilty. Just having
everybody's approval, I think was the world way. I know now it's like, I know, and I've been working
on myself and it's coming off. But like Jackie said, you tend to go back to those old ways of
that old mindset. And sometimes you get trapped into it where you have to bring yourself back.
So for me right now, I'm working on a lot of reminders for myself of speaking the truth over
me and understanding my identity in Christ because I never understood that because I was so programmed
in the world for so many years and I wasn't aware to it. I just thought it was normal. I thought it
was the go-go pace all the time. I thought it was the hustle life. I thought it was because that's
what I was taught all my life. I didn't know any different. Yeah, I appreciate that. I know, me too.
And so that's why I say awareness is the first step to transformation. So what changes, because
a lot of these things we might know, but it's that moment by moment awareness. It's like I said
yesterday, what am I saying after the words I am, right? And what am I believing about this situation?
What am I believing about myself? And so because this whole series is from pressure to partnership,
pressure is the way, when you're feeling pressure, you know you're out of alignment.
You know you're out of alignment. So then it's like, wow, okay, I'm feeling pressure. What am I
believing? That there's not enough, that I have to do all of this, that the world's going to fall apart,
that, you know, I don't have help, that, right? So, so beautiful. Okay, Colette says, I agree with Jackie
and Amanda. The staying busy and pressure begins to seem like what is considered normal. Yes,
if you are talking and people go, how are you doing? And you go, oh, I am so busy. Well, you just got
like the badge of honor. You are, you are special, right? How crazy, where did that come from?
Where did that come from? The busyness. Did Jesus ever, ever, ever, I think the busiest man on the
planet, the most in demand man on the planet, did he ever walk around going, I am so busy. I don't
know how I'm going to do all of this. It's all up to me. I don't know how I'm going to get this done.
Do you people not see, why are you asking me, can you not see how busy I am?
Right? Because he understood his source was his father. And he said, I have to be about my father's
business. And he was very careful to do only what he saw the father doing. He'd be, father, is this
the right time? Is this the right place? Lazarus dies. And his closest friends, family, friends,
Mary and Martha are like distraught, sending word, Lazarus is sick, hurry up, come. And he doesn't
drop everything and run. He doesn't operate out of panic. He's not like, I got to get there. If I
don't do something, look, I'm going to let down my friends. My friend's going to die. I got to
do something. This is up to me. It says that he waited three days. The father hadn't released
him to go, even though there was an emergency. So much so that Lazarus dies and he gets there
and there's weeping.
Weeping and wailing and they say to him his best friends say to him if you just would have been here
Lazarus wouldn't have died
He didn't operate under emergency he didn't operate he operated in divine timing
Is that an amazing thought
You
How much more are we taking time to say Lord is this the right time is this the right place
Are you calling me to go now? I've gotten now more where I'm asking everything
Everything even the things I love Lord is it optimum for me to go dancing tonight?
Lord is it optimum for me to you know, whatever any of it?
Just ask
Talk to me about this situation. How do you see it Lord?
Because Jesus only did what he saw the father doing
Okay, we are over time
This has been so juicy and I'm so delighted to share this with you and I just pray it's blessed you so much and I
Pray you beautiful beautiful beautiful daughters of God will become aware
When you're feeling pressure
what identity are you coming from and
Is it lined up with scripture?
is it based on truth and
Remember we can always change that
We can step back in line every second and
It's a it's a two steps forward one step back. I go backwards, too
None of us have arrived but you end up having more steps forward than you do back
Until you step into the truth and the more time you're in the word
The more time your mind scripture. Isaiah 26 3 says he'll keep us in perfect
Peace whose mind is stayed on him because he trusts in him peace. That's
Opposite of pressure that's partnership. How does that peace come because my mind is fixed on him
What do you say about this my bank account looks empty the doctors say what do you say about this Lord?
What's the truth here?
That's freedom
All right. Let's head over to office hours blessings