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All right, all right. So, ladies, welcome. It's last year's single phase two, Love Story

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Accelerator. This is your one o'clock live check-in call. I'm Carla Johnson. I'm one

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of your coaches here at last year's single. This is the second phase. We call it Love

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Story Accelerator. This is that phase where we graduate you ladies to dating because in

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phase one, we asked you to just pump the brakes for a minute. And so when you enter

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phase two, we actually do encourage you ladies to start dating, but I want to reference and

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make sure that I communicate to all of you ladies, especially if you're brand new, which

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do we have anybody brand new to phase two? Anybody? Stacey. Okay. Hi, welcome. Good to

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see you. So good to see you. I'm so glad you're here with us. And it's so exciting

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to have you here. So yes. And Steph. Awesome. Yeah. So ladies, if you've been in phase one,

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like they've been telling you like no dating. And so here in phase two, we give you the

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pass now. And so, but I want to reassure you that just because we give you the permission

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and the pass, doesn't mean you're forced to. Okay. I know sometimes some ladies jump in and

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they're like, wait, I want to go back to phase one. I don't think I'm ready for dating. I want

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you ladies to keep in mind that we are all on our own journeys. Y'all are going to go at your own

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paces. Don't play the comparison game with your sister. That's, you know, here in the community.

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I myself, when I was in the program, I joined Jackie in 2020, the very beginning. And there

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were a lot of ladies that would come in after me and they were all getting engaged and married

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before I did. I actually took about a year before I actually went on like my first date of like a

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year after being in the community. It's still like, I still hadn't dated in like five or six

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years. Like it had been a while. So, and that was because God had me on a different journey, a

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different path. It wasn't necessarily a bad thing. I wouldn't encourage a lot of, some of that not

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dating was out of fear. And I can say that now. Some of it was also because God had me in a

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different season. And that was, you know, working on myself, especially lots of heartwork stuff, a

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lot of stuff around my identity, a lot of lies that I had to really break alignment with. And

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so, so if you're brand new, don't, don't feel like, you know, this is a comparison or anything

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like that. I know, I think I saw a couple people were sharing how they, they realized like, wait, I

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need to, I need to pause. And so we are totally okay if you need to pause dating. Because that

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happens too. Some ladies will jump in and, and they'll start dating and, you know, heartwork

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things will surface and things will get revealed and they realize, okay, God's revealing something

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here. And so I'm going to put a pause. I'm going to go sort that out. I'm going to go spend time

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with the Lord on that. And then healing comes and you get right back to starting. And yeah, so like

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Laura, Laura as well, she's, she was just like me, you know, she's been in the program for a minute

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and she didn't start dating until recently. And so that was at least a good solid year. And so

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thank you for sharing that, Laura. I really, really appreciate that. Cause yeah, I want to,

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I hope that just gives some of you ladies that are brand new to phase two, some encouragement

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or if you're watching in replay. So that is good. All right. A couple of housekeeping things.

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Ladies, don't forget to engage in the app. I've seen a lot of that happening. And so that's always

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good. I really love that. Um, if anybody still wants to get in on Jackie's last modern day

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sucks book club, this is the last one she's doing. Okay. It starts tomorrow. All right. I know a lot

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of you have already, um, a lot of you already done it, which was really great and successful.

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And I've heard from Jackie, there's a lot of relationships that have blossomed from people

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that have been in that book club and people are dating and all sorts of things. So, um, I definitely

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think that is a really good, uh, club if you can get in. Um, so that starts tomorrow. Um,

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just a heads up, ladies, I am going to be.

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leaving town I'm going to be doing a little bit of traveling but so I'll be

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slightly out of pocket but not completely okay so just if y'all can

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give me a little grace when we're in the app and things like that if I can't

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respond right away I would imagine everywhere on the app has good internet

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service so I always say that and then I'm like oh you know but yeah and then

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if anybody is in the Tampa Sarasota Florida area on the 20 I think it's 28th

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and 29th let me know let me post in the app because if I can try to meet up with

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any of you I'd be happy to do that I'm gonna go visit my mom and dad they

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they're in Ocala but then I'm also gonna visit some people because I lived

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in Sarasota before I got married so if you're in that area let me know and then

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I'll also be on the Gulf Coast in Alabama think near like mobile so if

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you're anywhere in that area I'm there from like the 30th until the 2nd so and

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our call for next week I will be in Alabama so like I said we're gonna pray

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that the hotel has really really good reception really really good internet

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which I don't see why it wouldn't because we're there for my husband's

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work conference and so I would imagine they would have to have really good

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internet so I don't see why I wouldn't be able to get that so all right just

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another quick reminder ladies definitely check out that resource tab

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I know a lot of ladies here in phase 2 and phase 3 and phase 1 they're getting

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a lot of really great things from the extra resource that is available for an

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extra purchase it is extra charge for one-on-one coaching so I've seen a lot

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of one-on-one coaching calls coming through and a lot of people are getting

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breakthrough from that so if that's something that you feel like the Lord is

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highlighting to you to go ahead and make that investment in yourself just know

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that that resource is in the resource tab and so you can connect with all of

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the coaches there pick whichever coaches highlighted to you or whichever coaches

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schedule works best for you and so keep that in mind and I do think Jackie even

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mentioned on Supernatural Saturday this week and the last week or so she's

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opening her own calendar for a personal coaching it is definitely an investment

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and she does take applications for that so again that is going to all be in the

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resource tab and so that's on her website so all right I think that's about

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it for our housekeeping items I'm gonna go ahead and pray for us and then we

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will get started for the day our theme today is going to be the kingdom is

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built on partnership ladies it's not built on striving all right and so I

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really want to put some focus on there I really sat a lot with Jackie's

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Supernatural Saturday and I just felt like it was really solid and so I just

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felt like the Lord was highlighting some really great stuff for us to be able to

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take what she released to us on Saturday and be able to utilize that

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with what we teach and the principles of phase two and how to apply that to

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dating or preparing for dating so I'm really excited for today so yeah let's

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go ahead and and pray us and it's good to see how many people we have on we've

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got 19 of us so good all right so Heavenly Father I just thank you I thank

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you for another Tuesday for us to gather together Lord I thank you for

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every woman that's on this call for this afternoon and I thank you for the ones

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that will be coming on ebony session tonight and the ones that are watching

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and replay Lord you see each and every single one of your daughters Lord and

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you love each and every one of us so deeply father and so I just thank you

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for that I thank you for that you've got our love stories written Lord and and

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that you know we just want to acknowledge that you are this author

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you're a perfect author of every happily ever after and every good story

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and it includes ours as well all right this isn't just being in a community

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where we celebrate other people but we also hold on to the promises that you

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have those blessings for us as well Lord I just invite you into this

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conversation today and and that your Holy Spirit be present teach us what do

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Teach us what you want us to learn, Father.

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Show us what you want us to see.

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Reveal anything that you just truly, lovingly want

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to grow in us.

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Gently, Lord, we know that you're a gentle Father.

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And just continue to give us hearts

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that are willing to receive your wisdom

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instead of rushing towards anything that, you know,

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we're trying to do in our own strength

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and try to force any certainty, Lord.

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Lord, I just thank you that you remind us

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that what we have here on earth

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is also what is in heaven, Lord.

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You say that, you know.

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So even though we live in this world,

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we don't have to be of this world,

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that whatever you have in the kingdom for us,

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we don't have to wait until we arrive to heaven, Lord.

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We can have that kingdom here right with us on earth, Lord.

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So just, I ask that you remind us

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and highlight that to us this week

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in ways that we can partner with your kingdom

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and not be of this world,

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be in this world, but not of this world, Lord.

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Lord, I thank you for last week

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and the steps and the rhythms that you've shown us

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that we can partner with you, Father.

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And I just wanna continue to keep highlighting that

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over the week and into this program

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as these ladies are just continuing to adopt that,

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that they're not striving,

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that they're partnering with you

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and the ways that they partner is just the,

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it's just one faithful step at a time, Father.

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Lord, I thank you that you just continue to remind us

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that our identity is in you.

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And when we have an identity in you, Lord,

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we get your inheritance.

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We don't have to strive for anything.

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We are not orphans, Lord,

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but that we can accept all your blessings.

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Everything that you have on this earth

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and in the kingdom is for us

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and that we get to fully accept.

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You're not holding out on any of us.

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It's an invitation.

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It is offered to each and every one of us.

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All we simply need to do is partner with you

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and accept those invitations

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and accept those blessings, Father.

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So Lord, I just ask that we surrender this time to you today

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and in the mighty name of Jesus, we thank you, amen.

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All right, and thank you.

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Yes, I hope safe travels.

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I don't, y'all, I don't really love traveling.

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I used to, I don't know why.

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I just, traveling is not my favorite.

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I think part of it is because I have three kids

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and so leaving them behind

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is just really nerve wracking for me.

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And I think I get so amped up

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on trying to prepare everything for them,

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which has been literally my last couple of days,

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getting all of the schedules and everything out.

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So anyway, let's go ahead and celebrate

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what I've been watching and seeing emerge in the community.

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One thing that I love, especially about our app,

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and like, as I take time to look through that is,

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especially over these last several months,

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really being able to witness each and every one of you,

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truly, this is not just about learning,

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it's about living it out.

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And I really do cherish that.

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I celebrate that because for several months,

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and this week was no different,

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I really do see a lot of that happening.

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Y'all are living out what you're learning, okay?

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It's not like, oh, I'm just taking information in,

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but continuing to do things the way that I used to do.

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I'm actually applying what I'm learning

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and I also don't have to do it perfectly.

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And you ladies are coming here each week after week

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and you're curious and you're engaged.

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You're inviting new things.

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I see women are dating,

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women that were like, I haven't dated in years.

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I see people that are slowing their paces down,

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really taking it slow.

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I was a zero to 100 really, really quick

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when I started dating.

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First date, I was like, kissin' bandit.

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I was like, awesome, there's a boy and I wanna kiss him.

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that was one thing that the Lord

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definitely put on my heart was like,

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okay, we're gonna pump the brakes a little bit here, Carla.

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You're getting a little anxious, a little ahead of yourself.

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I see even some of you ladies that are like,

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you have no problem pumping the brakes.

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It's hard to kind of get those engines started.

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no, I'm good, I'm good.

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okay, I think I'm ready to put my toe in the water.

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I think I'm feeling more confident, and so I'm seeing that confidence come out.

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I'm seeing so many of you really truly are seeking wisdom.

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Many, if not all of you, are really partnering with Holy Spirit and with God.

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You're not doing this alone.

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You're showing up here in community, but you're also showing up at the feet of Jesus.

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And so that is really exciting.

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And so I'm curious.

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I know I saw a few of ladies participate in the activation last week.

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And so I'm curious if anybody wants to unmute.

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We can take like one, two, maybe three ladies to share about the activation last week.

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It doesn't have to be long.

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Just what was your assignment last week and anything that God revealed to you?

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I'd love to hear y'all celebrate yourselves.

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Anybody want to share?

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Why is everybody so quiet?

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Anybody?

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Do we have any takers?

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Rebecca, thank you.

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Oh, no, you're like, no, I'm not.

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Does that hand raise for a question for later?

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The activation, Sarah, was, oh, you're not, you're muted, Rebecca.

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That might be why I can't hear you.

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There you go.

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I'm not going to share, so I don't know how to do the bottom buttons.

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Did you get to do the activation last week?

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I did.

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Well, I did it to the best of my ability.

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I had already sort of through another devotional sort of came up with some of, I already had

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that scripted sort of, and it sort of came, it sort of came with Saturdays too.

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Like I had already had it.

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So I mean, there was a lot of like activations, like truths.

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I love that.

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Cause it's confirmation.

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That's when you know the Lord is speaking because he's like making it very aware.

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And I need that because I will, like, I gotta have things over and over and over and over

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and over for me to remember it.

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But I think just trusting God in this process, I said that that's the biggest thing because

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I so want things to move faster and it's, it's like, it's barely taken steps forward.

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I love that.

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I love that.

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Which is good for me.

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And I just have to slow my roll.

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I've got to go, okay, you know, this is what it is right now.

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And I got to slow my roll and go let him pace at whatever pace he feels comfortable at.

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But yeah, there was a sort of a question and I can wait till the end to ask it too, but

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it's more related to, to like, how to, when do I start?

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And I guess it's a Holy Spirit led thing, but like, I want to be, he's been upfront

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and honest about a few things already, and we've only gone on like on two dates, but

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I'm just wondering when I should share my stumbles and falls and trips.

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And I think, did you, were you one that shared in the app?

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And I think you might've asked that question.

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Somebody did.

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Somebody asked a very similar question.

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That's me.

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That was me.

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And then, and then you did watch or you were on live last week, right?

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I think I was over in, in the, the night one with Ebony.

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Which I would imagine like Ebony probably went through many of those things.

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I mean, we kind of go from the same outline, but yeah, I think that teaching will help

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And then we definitely can unpack a little more when we open up for questions, but I

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think that was a good question.

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I really, really liked that.

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So I want to be authentic.

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You know, I definitely want to get to that for sure.

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So thank you for reminding me about that.

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So yeah, ladies, I love that.

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Cause Rebecca, you know, she shared something, she, she shared something and I really resonated

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with it was like, you know, slow in the roll, you know, or that pacing and it feels slow,

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you know, but one thing that God reminded me when Rebecca was sharing y'all is that

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when we try to rush the process, we actually can sometimes drag it out longer.

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Like we're actually making some progress.

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But in fact, one thing that I've noticed through my own walk and my own, I guess my journey

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in this, in this program.

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was that when I did slow down it might have felt like things were going slow but it actually

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allowed for things to fall together so that when the time was ready that's when things got

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accelerated and so I want I feel like this was a prompting because as Rebecca was sharing I was

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like oh I so relate to this and I think so many of you ladies can relate to it as well this this

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desire of like why is this taking so long right so I was in this community for like two years and

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like I said I had ladies that were joining after me you know I joined kind of in the beginning at

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the end of September beginning of October of 2020 and I had ladies that were you know joining

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in 2021 and 2022 that were getting engaged and married and I'm like wait a second I've been here

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since 2020 what's going on um and and thought I was you know faithfully walking the steps and

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doing what the Lord asked me to do and prompted me to do um but there were things that you know

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he still wanted to reveal to me and so it felt slow okay and then when when the pieces all started

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coming together and God's timing started to align y'all my love story was very accelerated I don't

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share it a lot okay I mean I share my love story but I don't share about the acceleration part

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um because that doesn't always happen for everybody's story but I was I met and married my

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husband in 12 months or less okay so that's actually what our community was called

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long before in the very very beginning we used to call it marrying 12 months or less

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I think it scared a lot of people especially once we started inviting men

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into the community and so we switched it to last year single um and so I was like there's no way

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like that actually that terminology freaked me out and I thought that's so like unhealthy you

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shouldn't be getting married you know meet somebody and get married in less than 12 months

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um but ladies it happened to me and it was literally a nine month period I met my husband

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um pretty early and then like from the moment we started uh dating to then when we got married was

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actually nine months so and I had it it was again I'm not going to get into that story um that's a

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story for another day but um I say that because I think we sometimes think well I don't want to

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slow the pacing down Carla I'm I'm on a time limit here but I really want to encourage you ladies that

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actually sometimes when we slow it down is actually how God can speed up the process

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really truly is what what can happen so um thank you so much for sharing that um did anybody else

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want to type in the chat what their activation was what their assignment was I'll just share

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a little bit mine was um my assignment last week and I wouldn't even say it was just last week it's

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been for several months is to release the outcome God is really stretching me there so um

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I was really thankful to be able to sit meditate and pray on that a lot um especially um you know

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releasing the outcome especially moving into this week when I'm leaving my kids with my in-laws

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and all the moving parts um it's can be a very interesting dynamic and I have three kids and

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they all have things that they gotta you know gotta be gotta places they gotta be especially

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my youngest he's in two sports and so he pretty much is always running to practice or scrimmage

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or something um at least a good solid five out of seven days so um lots of moving parts but

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anyway um so and then Jennifer just shared her her assignment was to go higher um and Jennifer

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I don't know if you saw I just recognized a few days ago you replied to your post and then I

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shared my um what the Lord was speaking to me when I was praying over you um and so I didn't

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know if you've gotten to say that where did you put it because I replied to where you added me

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where I added you when I saw your two individual replies yeah did you put it um I think I put it

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there okay when you when you said hey I I shared

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So it was the smaller one, and then I think it was the one where I shared about – because

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you said –

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You mean the – yeah.

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I think it's that one.

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I think that's where I posted it.

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I'll go look.

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So, it's long.

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I apologize.

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But I hope it maybe confirms some things that the Lord has been speaking to you, but definitely

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go check that out.

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So, ladies, as we were listening to – if you haven't listened to Jackie's Supernatural

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Saturday, I definitely strongly encourage you to do that.

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As I was doing that this week, it was – I honestly – I was floored.

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It was really, really, really helpful for me.

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And so, the more I sat with it, and that visual, the escalator, I just realized it's

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not just a picture about restoration.

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It is really a picture of how differently the kingdom operates from the world.

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And so, I really sat with that, and it just really reminded me that what's the difference

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between striving and partnering?

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Because I don't know about you all, but I can definitely fall into that trap of wanting

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to strive to do things on my own, kind of like what Rebecca had just shared.

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We don't want to slow down.

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We kind of want to see the certainty and the outcomes, and we want things to move quickly.

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And so, when we do that, we tend to start picking up things that are not ours.

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And so, that was really, really helpful for me.

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designed to carry people higher, which I think is really interesting, because that was Jennifer's

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activation and assignment last week.

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And so, I think that was really – when I saw that, I'm like, no way.

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But, ladies, when those things kind of get broken, when those escalators get broken – and

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if you listen to Supernatural Saturday, you know what I'm talking about, okay?

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Because Jackie talked about broken escalator.

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There was a broken escalator at this mall for eight years, all right?

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And so, you'll have to go listen to Supernatural Saturday.

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And what would happen – like, if she'd go up to this broken escalator, and she would

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just walk up it, because she just – it never worked.

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And so, I just realized, like, that was just really insightful.

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And then I'm thinking, okay, Lord, like, what do you want to show me here?

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And God specifically was just like, well, Carla, escalators aren't broken in the kingdom.

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Nothing in the kingdom's broken.

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And I was like, whoa, okay, all right.

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And he's like, and that doesn't necessarily mean that it doesn't require some effort,

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you know?

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And if you're climbing stairs, that requires a lot of effort, right, a lot of striving.

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But when the escalator's going, and it's not broken, right, it's – you step on,

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and it takes you up there, right?

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Now, something that I do sometimes, especially since I'm about to be traveling, you know,

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those little walking pathways that they're like escalators, but they're not stairs.

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If you start walking, it actually picks your pace up, because it's moving, and then you're

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moving.

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Same thing happens with escalators.

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You can still walk up an escalator.

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You don't have to strive.

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You don't have to, like, you know, if you need to catch your breath, like, you can stop,

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and it's still going to keep moving you.

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And so when you have that partnership, it, like, moves you even, it accelerates you,

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And so I thought that was interesting.

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And so he's like, well, that doesn't mean that there's not going to be effort, because

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Jesus still is going to call us to walk in obedience, right?

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We're still called to disciple others and bring people to Jesus.

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We're still called to carry and pick up and bear our own crosses, right?

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There's still some effort there, but we don't have to strive for things that he already

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is delivering for us, okay?

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And so it just, again, reminded me of how the kingdom just operates differently in the

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fact that the world tells us that we have to make things happen for ourselves, right?

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where the kingdom, we're called to abide in him, we're called to partner

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with him, we're called to trust in him. You know, it's easy to slip into that

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striving. It's easy just to go into the way that the world operates. You know,

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I've got to hurry the process along. I've got to perform a certain way. I've got to

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secure the outcome. But the kingdom, y'all, so much more peaceful, more calm. Okay.

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And so I want to ask you ladies, okay, and you don't have to, to, you can take a minute

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to think about this if you need to. I want you to ask yourself, which culture have you been dating

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from? Have you been dating from the world? Are you dating from the kingdom?

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What does that look like? How do those two things differ?

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Yeah, Nancy, I can repeat that. So how are, like, which culture are you dating from?

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Now, some of you might be like, well, Carla, I'm not dating at all. Okay. Well,

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how are you preparing for dating? Are you preparing to date in a worldly way

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or a kingdom way? Which one are you operating in?

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So sit with that a little bit. Okay. As I kind of navigate us through

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this teaching. And so, you know, Jackie did share on that Supernatural Saturday,

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she shared things that haven't worked will work again.

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You know, and she specifically talked about this escalator.

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Things that haven't worked will work again.

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What came to my mind was dating apps. Y'all, I did the dating apps. I did not want to do the dating

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apps again. I know a lot of you are probably right there with me, right? Like, uh, dating apps? No.

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The cool thing, though, is once I kind of was like, all right, I'm willing to partner with you

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on this. I partnered with God, not because he told me I was going to meet my spirit mate on an app

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on a dating site. Cause I hear that often too, is ladies will be like, well, God told me I wasn't

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going to meet my spirit mate on the dating app. And I'm like, I get that. Cause God didn't tell

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me that either. However, God was like, I'm not just asking you to go on the dating apps to go

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get your spirit mate. I actually am asking you to get on the dating apps because there's some

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things I want to reveal to you. And he's like, dating apps might not have worked.

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Before, but what were you using them for?

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Y'all I did start using dating apps and God actually allowed me getting on dating apps

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and meeting new people and going out on dates to reveal layers of my healing.

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And also to introduce me and remind me and give me hope that there were good men out there.

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I met a lot of really great men. They weren't my spirit mate.

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I even met some guys that didn't show up very well. And in the beginning,

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I'll be honest, ladies in the beginning, I had some offenses. Who can relate to me?

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How many of you have been on the apps right now? I've been on the apps for a minute.

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And some of the things that are happening and some of the men you're talking to and meeting

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are just like, you're just like, good, good goodness. Like what's out there?

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And it's a bit discouraging. Has anybody had that experience? Yeah. Yeah. I had that too.

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And y'all like, there were times that I was just like, these guys are like so inappropriate,

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and you know, and I came to community here, here last year, single with all my sisters,

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all my single sisters and Jackie. And I was like, and I shared with them like what I was

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going through and what I was going through. And I was like, you know what? I'm going to

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experiencing. I shared, I was very very honest and raw and vulnerable like you

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00:35:07.800 --> 00:35:12.680
know this is really upsetting me like I don't know what God wants me to see here

448
00:35:12.680 --> 00:35:21.080
and I was open to coaching I was open to you know Jackie ripping some band-aids

449
00:35:21.080 --> 00:35:25.840
off of me all right I can't say I did it gracefully all the time but I did do it

450
00:35:25.840 --> 00:35:33.960
the best I can yeah like oh you're so gorgeous you're so hot yeah yeah like

451
00:35:33.960 --> 00:35:41.320
sometimes you're like like but we have to ask ourselves like what could God be

452
00:35:41.320 --> 00:35:50.680
revealing that's happening in us that he wants us to heal or reveal cuz I was

453
00:35:50.680 --> 00:35:56.840
the same way I didn't like it when guys would like oh hey beautiful you know or

454
00:35:56.840 --> 00:36:06.200
certain things and I'm like dude I don't know you like that's you don't get to

455
00:36:06.200 --> 00:36:11.880
you know you don't get to do that and so but I realized it was actually like tied

456
00:36:11.880 --> 00:36:18.800
to other beliefs and other things that were planted from the past and once God

457
00:36:18.800 --> 00:36:23.120
kind of revealed to me he's like well Carla yeah some men are gonna be

458
00:36:23.120 --> 00:36:31.920
inappropriate but you can't fit them all in the same box he's like he he gave me

459
00:36:31.920 --> 00:36:38.680
the grace to see that some of these men they didn't have coaches like Jackie

460
00:36:40.080 --> 00:36:45.800
yeah that's on them it's not on us and in it and honestly it gave me some

461
00:36:45.840 --> 00:36:51.080
compassion to be like you know what some of these guys are really nice guys they

462
00:36:51.080 --> 00:37:02.560
just don't know or haven't experienced dating healthy women they've encountered

463
00:37:02.560 --> 00:37:10.880
some pretty toxic and unhealthy women and their dating relationships and so

464
00:37:10.880 --> 00:37:19.360
once I could kind of see that those those offenses didn't bother me anymore

465
00:37:19.360 --> 00:37:28.720
and so I was just like okay and then I started recognizing how God was showing

466
00:37:28.720 --> 00:37:36.480
me I wasn't attracted to those things before in the past I was in the past y'all

467
00:37:36.480 --> 00:37:41.600
I was attracted when guys called me gorgeous especially the guys that I

468
00:37:41.600 --> 00:37:47.880
thought were attractive guys that called me gorgeous that I didn't think we're

469
00:37:47.880 --> 00:37:53.560
very physically attracted I was grossed out by but then I had to ask myself well

470
00:37:53.560 --> 00:37:59.000
why is it that when this guy says I'm gorgeous I'm grossed out but when this

471
00:37:59.000 --> 00:38:06.880
hunky guy over here says I'm gorgeous I'm like oh my gosh

472
00:38:06.880 --> 00:38:14.520
yeah like and so God had to do a refining and a restoration in me and

473
00:38:14.520 --> 00:38:18.880
and really get me to look at that differently and heal those parts of me

474
00:38:18.880 --> 00:38:26.600
and so we just went off somewhere where my notes didn't take me so yeah I love

475
00:38:26.600 --> 00:38:37.720
that you know I I had the opportunity to show up differently I had done the

476
00:38:37.720 --> 00:38:43.960
apps before and they didn't work and y'all I did the apps again and guess

477
00:38:43.960 --> 00:38:50.200
what I didn't meet my husband on a dating app but God used those dating apps

478
00:38:50.200 --> 00:38:59.440
to prepare me so that when my husband was in front of me I was ready I was

479
00:38:59.440 --> 00:39:05.320
prepared I had done the healing because had I not done that healing I would have

480
00:39:05.320 --> 00:39:14.560
never picked my husband I would have never received him as a gift because

481
00:39:14.560 --> 00:39:21.080
there was heart stuff in me that needed to get worked out and so just because it

482
00:39:21.080 --> 00:39:27.840
didn't work then doesn't mean that it can't work now it will work again and

483
00:39:27.840 --> 00:39:31.120
you're not gonna have to try harder you're not gonna have to climb any

484
00:39:31.120 --> 00:39:35.240
faster you're not gonna have to like finally oh I'm doing it this right way

485
00:39:35.240 --> 00:39:39.640
that's not what that's about okay

486
00:39:39.800 --> 00:39:41.840
you

487
00:39:41.840 --> 00:39:47.320
scripture is that where I'm wanting to go next yeah I'm all over the place

488
00:39:47.320 --> 00:39:54.240
today I apologize I have no idea here we go all right the kingdom doesn't ask us

489
00:39:54.240 --> 00:40:02.040
to climb broken escalators because are there broken escalators in the kingdom

490
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:09.280
No, they're not, all right, but the kingdom does invite us to step on to the escalator

491
00:40:09.280 --> 00:40:15.720
that God's already put in motion, and we get to faithfully partner with him, and he gets

492
00:40:15.720 --> 00:40:21.880
to carry us where we can never go on our own.

493
00:40:21.880 --> 00:40:28.520
And so that reminds me that the kingdom isn't about striving, it's really about partnering.

494
00:40:28.520 --> 00:40:37.880
And so I want to bring up these scriptures, these were really highlighted to me, Matthew

495
00:40:37.880 --> 00:40:42.520
11, 28 to 30.

496
00:40:42.520 --> 00:40:46.760
We give him our burdens, right?

497
00:40:46.760 --> 00:40:54.320
We give him our stuff, and we can take rest, and he gives us his yoke, because it's easy,

498
00:40:54.320 --> 00:40:56.440
it's light.

499
00:40:56.440 --> 00:41:00.800
We don't have to strive, we don't have to work hard, but when we partner with him and

500
00:41:00.800 --> 00:41:04.200
he takes part of that yoke, guess what?

501
00:41:04.200 --> 00:41:08.400
He's going to bear more of the weight than we do.

502
00:41:08.400 --> 00:41:14.080
We're not going to have to work as hard, we're not going to have to strive.

503
00:41:14.080 --> 00:41:24.680
Peter tells us to cast all of our anxiety onto him, because he cares for us.

504
00:41:24.720 --> 00:41:31.040
I don't have to carry all of that anxiousness and anxiety about things.

505
00:41:31.040 --> 00:41:38.240
And so that's 1 Peter 5, 7, and then Solemnist says, reminds us that unless the Lord builds

506
00:41:38.240 --> 00:41:46.640
the house, those who build it in labor, build it labor in vain.

507
00:41:46.640 --> 00:41:47.640
That's Psalm 127, 1.

508
00:41:47.640 --> 00:41:51.200
All right, and so I want you ladies to notice a pattern here.

509
00:41:51.200 --> 00:41:56.040
God isn't removing any participation, but he is removing self-reliance.

510
00:41:56.040 --> 00:42:01.640
You don't have to rely on yourself.

511
00:42:01.640 --> 00:42:04.240
Will there be some self-awareness?

512
00:42:04.240 --> 00:42:05.840
Will there be some ownership?

513
00:42:05.840 --> 00:42:10.240
Yeah, that's part of partnering with him.

514
00:42:10.240 --> 00:42:15.840
But you're not going to be relying on yourself, you get to partner with him.

515
00:42:15.840 --> 00:42:21.180
And so you're still going to have some obedience, you're still going to have to take the next

516
00:42:21.180 --> 00:42:26.140
faithful step and really have that faith.

517
00:42:26.140 --> 00:42:30.740
And that doesn't always mean it's going to be easy, but it's a way lot easier when we're

518
00:42:30.740 --> 00:42:34.380
partnering with him because it's not going to be as heavy.

519
00:42:34.380 --> 00:42:41.500
And so a lot of times what I notice is that we're going to, we date like the escalator's

520
00:42:41.500 --> 00:42:42.500
broken.

521
00:42:42.500 --> 00:42:49.260
You're like, okay, Carla, what does that mean?

522
00:42:49.380 --> 00:42:54.820
You're climbing that escalator and it's broken, all right?

523
00:42:54.820 --> 00:43:04.420
And how that shows up in dating is, well, maybe if I text him one more time, well, maybe

524
00:43:04.420 --> 00:43:12.220
if I explained myself better, what if I perform a certain way?

525
00:43:12.220 --> 00:43:17.260
Like, gosh, I don't know how he's going to see me, so I got to really make sure that

526
00:43:17.260 --> 00:43:24.660
I show up and he really knows how I am.

527
00:43:24.660 --> 00:43:29.100
It shows up like, you got to do some convincing.

528
00:43:29.100 --> 00:43:34.300
You don't have to convince your spirit mate to be with you.

529
00:43:34.300 --> 00:43:37.100
There's no convincing.

530
00:43:37.100 --> 00:43:40.300
You know, it might want to even, oh, I've got to hurry this along.

531
00:43:40.300 --> 00:43:42.660
I've got to lock this in.

532
00:43:42.660 --> 00:43:47.700
I got to make that like, we've got to get into that exclusive relationship right out

533
00:43:47.700 --> 00:43:51.380
the gate, right?

534
00:43:51.380 --> 00:43:56.620
I was like, I got to be a kissing bandit, like right out the gate, first date, let's

535
00:43:56.620 --> 00:43:57.620
do it.

536
00:43:57.620 --> 00:44:04.620
That was never good for me though, you know, because I was trying to control the outcome.

537
00:44:04.620 --> 00:44:10.220
I thought, okay, well, if I get physical, if they can see me that, you know, oh, I'm

538
00:44:10.220 --> 00:44:16.540
a good kisser, I'm, you know, that maybe that's going to convince them, oh, this is,

539
00:44:16.540 --> 00:44:20.620
you know, this is the best kisser I've ever kissed, and so this must be my wife.

540
00:44:20.620 --> 00:44:24.860
Yeah, no, that's not how it works.

541
00:44:24.860 --> 00:44:28.540
And so, dating isn't like that.

542
00:44:28.540 --> 00:44:36.060
And so, I picture, the way I picture this is when we're partnering with God in our dating

543
00:44:36.060 --> 00:44:44.620
and we're not striving and trying to climb in dating, it really is like Jesus is right

544
00:44:44.620 --> 00:44:49.980
there saying, you know, right there by the escalator and he's like, hey, I never asked

545
00:44:49.980 --> 00:44:52.220
you to climb this.

546
00:44:52.220 --> 00:44:54.460
I just asked you to walk with me.

547
00:44:54.460 --> 00:44:58.300
Are you going to get on this escalator with me or not?

548
00:44:58.300 --> 00:45:00.540
Are you going to just like...

549
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:09.080
stare at it are you gonna get on he's like or do you think it's broken cuz if

550
00:45:09.080 --> 00:45:11.640
you're looking at the escalator in the world yeah it's broken if you're trying

551
00:45:11.640 --> 00:45:17.000
to to date in the worldly way yeah you're on the broken escalator he's

552
00:45:17.000 --> 00:45:25.240
like do you want to come over here to my kingdom on earth as it is in heaven and

553
00:45:25.240 --> 00:45:34.960
come on this escalator cuz I don't know much y'all but you know I didn't get

554
00:45:34.960 --> 00:45:43.760
married until I was 40 talk about striving for 40 years y'all my husband

555
00:45:43.760 --> 00:45:49.120
when he proposed to me he's like you've been roaming the desert for 40 years

556
00:45:49.120 --> 00:45:53.800
he's like are you ready to come into the promised land y'all my husband literally

557
00:45:53.800 --> 00:46:02.280
used those words to propose to me and I said yeah like I'm ready cuz this

558
00:46:02.280 --> 00:46:10.840
desert's hot I'm over it all right you know unfortunately I still like in in

559
00:46:10.840 --> 00:46:15.800
our you know we're about to celebrate three years here soon and you know man

560
00:46:15.800 --> 00:46:21.360
that's been an interesting thing too and and I still feel like there's times

561
00:46:21.360 --> 00:46:26.960
where I thought oh I arrived when really I was still Roman after we got

562
00:46:26.960 --> 00:46:32.640
married I was still Roman in in the desert because I was striving and trying

563
00:46:32.640 --> 00:46:37.640
to you know I thought I I had have certainty with what what marriage needed

564
00:46:37.640 --> 00:46:44.440
to look like and you know luckily the these last three years God has done such

565
00:46:44.440 --> 00:46:49.680
a great work in me I've been thankful to continue and to coach in this program

566
00:46:49.680 --> 00:46:56.840
which has actually been a very very big blessing so so yeah but yeah all of this

567
00:46:56.840 --> 00:47:01.760
ladies is connected to what we were teaching last week and that's you know

568
00:47:01.760 --> 00:47:08.920
that rhythm it's partner with God gather information stay curious notice what

569
00:47:08.920 --> 00:47:16.640
he's revealing take the next faithful step release the outcome and then repeat

570
00:47:16.680 --> 00:47:21.520
you're just gonna continue to do that all through your life and ladies I I

571
00:47:21.520 --> 00:47:30.520
thought that marriage and that engagement like that was it but what's

572
00:47:30.520 --> 00:47:35.840
interesting is if you ladies get in that rhythm that this is this is the process

573
00:47:35.840 --> 00:47:40.640
with every single assignment whether you're level one dating love whether

574
00:47:40.640 --> 00:47:45.600
you're exclusively dating whether your engagement or ladies when you step into

575
00:47:45.600 --> 00:47:50.640
marriage guess what you're gonna still use those same rhythms I've taken these

576
00:47:50.640 --> 00:48:00.200
last three years to realize I still have to use what this program in this

577
00:48:00.200 --> 00:48:07.800
community taught me and it was I'm still partnering with God just because I have

578
00:48:07.800 --> 00:48:16.360
a husband doesn't mean I arrived I'm still partnering with God God is still

579
00:48:16.360 --> 00:48:23.520
my source my husband's not my source and so I just really hope that helps you

580
00:48:23.520 --> 00:48:29.800
ladies kind of take a step back and like you know if you haven't watched

581
00:48:29.800 --> 00:48:35.360
Supernatural Saturday go and listen to it maybe listen to it again but I want

582
00:48:35.360 --> 00:48:38.280
you ladies to take a moment just to have some heartwork reflection right now

583
00:48:38.280 --> 00:48:43.400
and I want you to ask yourself something and I don't necessarily need you to

584
00:48:43.400 --> 00:48:50.360
answer too quickly okay you can sit with this this week but ask yourself like what

585
00:48:50.360 --> 00:48:56.920
burden have you been carrying that actually belongs to God

586
00:48:57.480 --> 00:49:06.280
is it you know having to know whether or not the guy's your husband on the first

587
00:49:06.280 --> 00:49:11.640
date or even before you even get on the first date y'all I did that I did that

588
00:49:11.640 --> 00:49:16.240
often I did the questions of like I don't know what if this guy's my husband

589
00:49:16.240 --> 00:49:25.400
y'all I met the person and I was asking that true story all right um some of them

590
00:49:25.400 --> 00:49:29.680
I felt like I had to convince you know when I'm one of the things that God had

591
00:49:29.680 --> 00:49:37.080
to work me on work through me was uh there were handfuls of Christian men

592
00:49:37.080 --> 00:49:44.320
that I felt rejected by because I was never married but I had a child I was a

593
00:49:44.320 --> 00:49:50.120
single mom and so there was some feelings of rejection that I had to kind

594
00:49:50.120 --> 00:49:56.120
of go sort with and so I thought I had to convince them of how godly and how

595
00:49:56.120 --> 00:50:01.840
you know you know what a believer I was right

596
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:04.800
You know, like I had to prove me being a Christian

597
00:50:04.800 --> 00:50:05.800
to some of these guys.

598
00:50:05.800 --> 00:50:08.200
I thought they were more self-righteous than me.

599
00:50:09.360 --> 00:50:12.600
Like, I had to prove my holiness to them.

600
00:50:14.200 --> 00:50:17.400
No, not at all.

601
00:50:19.080 --> 00:50:22.240
And so I want you ladies to be thinking about that,

602
00:50:23.880 --> 00:50:28.320
to think about what burden you've been carrying

603
00:50:28.320 --> 00:50:29.840
that's actually his.

604
00:50:30.880 --> 00:50:33.960
And I'll end with this as well.

605
00:50:33.960 --> 00:50:37.120
What God kind of highlighted to me was, you know,

606
00:50:37.120 --> 00:50:39.680
the word identity and inheritance.

607
00:50:39.680 --> 00:50:43.720
Y'all, orphans believe that they have to strive,

608
00:50:43.720 --> 00:50:44.960
that they deserve scraps.

609
00:50:44.960 --> 00:50:46.760
That's what they have to survive on.

610
00:50:50.200 --> 00:50:53.200
They have to strive because things aren't available to them.

611
00:50:54.360 --> 00:50:57.600
But ladies, daughters know that they have inheritance.

612
00:50:59.000 --> 00:51:01.520
They get to partner with their father.

613
00:51:01.520 --> 00:51:03.440
They get to trust his provision.

614
00:51:06.480 --> 00:51:11.400
That inheritance is already yours, okay?

615
00:51:11.400 --> 00:51:13.520
And so I just want you ladies to be reminded,

616
00:51:13.520 --> 00:51:17.360
like, you are daughters of a king, okay?

617
00:51:17.360 --> 00:51:19.840
You don't have to survive on scraps.

618
00:51:21.240 --> 00:51:26.040
He's inviting you to go on this journey with you, okay?

619
00:51:26.400 --> 00:51:31.400
Okay, and so I want you to step into that, ladies,

620
00:51:31.600 --> 00:51:33.400
and just remember, like, you know,

621
00:51:33.400 --> 00:51:38.400
this phase two isn't literally about dating perfectly

622
00:51:38.880 --> 00:51:42.400
because ladies, there's no such thing as dating perfectly.

623
00:51:42.400 --> 00:51:45.160
My husband and I didn't even date perfectly.

624
00:51:45.160 --> 00:51:47.000
You know, he was the guy

625
00:51:47.000 --> 00:51:51.440
that divulged way too much information early on.

626
00:51:52.360 --> 00:51:54.040
He was a deep diver.

627
00:51:54.040 --> 00:51:57.600
I was too, but I had heartwork.

628
00:51:57.600 --> 00:52:00.360
I had a good solid two years of Jackie's teaching,

629
00:52:00.360 --> 00:52:04.080
and I was like, this guy is like sharing stuff

630
00:52:04.080 --> 00:52:05.680
he should not be sharing.

631
00:52:07.000 --> 00:52:10.040
You know, he was a widow,

632
00:52:10.040 --> 00:52:14.280
and so he shared a lot about his late wife,

633
00:52:14.280 --> 00:52:18.880
and unfortunately, his situation was

634
00:52:18.880 --> 00:52:21.520
that the marriage was not a very good marriage.

635
00:52:21.560 --> 00:52:25.040
So he had a very unhealthy, toxic marriage for 11 years,

636
00:52:25.040 --> 00:52:28.880
and so he divulged a lot of that in the very beginning,

637
00:52:28.880 --> 00:52:30.520
and I remember thinking,

638
00:52:30.520 --> 00:52:32.920
she's not even here to defend herself.

639
00:52:32.920 --> 00:52:37.360
Like, I can't even go, like, fact-check this, you know?

640
00:52:37.360 --> 00:52:39.680
And so I remember going to Jackie and being like,

641
00:52:39.680 --> 00:52:41.440
I don't know, I don't know.

642
00:52:41.440 --> 00:52:42.680
Like, this is, you know,

643
00:52:42.680 --> 00:52:44.200
and Jackie finally had to be like,

644
00:52:44.200 --> 00:52:46.600
Carla, just go on the date.

645
00:52:46.600 --> 00:52:48.520
Stop overthinking it.

646
00:52:48.520 --> 00:52:50.120
Just go enjoy yourself.

647
00:52:50.880 --> 00:52:53.160
And I'm glad I listened to her.

648
00:52:53.160 --> 00:52:56.160
And so I didn't do it perfectly, okay,

649
00:52:56.160 --> 00:52:58.400
but it's not about dating perfectly.

650
00:52:58.400 --> 00:53:00.680
It's about partnering with God,

651
00:53:00.680 --> 00:53:02.720
and so God got to take me on that journey

652
00:53:02.720 --> 00:53:05.240
even when we were dating,

653
00:53:05.240 --> 00:53:06.920
because there was growing and revealing

654
00:53:06.920 --> 00:53:08.960
that happened in our dating as well,

655
00:53:08.960 --> 00:53:11.360
and then in our engagement, and then in our marriage,

656
00:53:11.360 --> 00:53:15.400
you know, so it's really,

657
00:53:15.400 --> 00:53:17.800
this is a phase where, yes,

658
00:53:17.800 --> 00:53:19.680
we're gonna give you some tips and tricks

659
00:53:20.200 --> 00:53:21.960
and things to do to date differently,

660
00:53:21.960 --> 00:53:25.320
but the bigger fruit, the bigger goal

661
00:53:25.320 --> 00:53:28.620
is to teach you that you're a daughter of a king,

662
00:53:28.620 --> 00:53:31.760
and daughters of kings date differently

663
00:53:31.760 --> 00:53:33.720
because they belong to a kingdom.

664
00:53:36.640 --> 00:53:38.200
And so that's what we're here for.

665
00:53:38.200 --> 00:53:41.120
So your activation this week,

666
00:53:41.120 --> 00:53:43.760
I'll post that in our chat.

667
00:53:43.760 --> 00:53:47.720
It's gonna be stairs versus escalators, okay?

668
00:53:47.720 --> 00:53:52.520
And so this, it literally,

669
00:53:52.520 --> 00:53:54.760
if you're dating, you're obviously gonna be able to do this.

670
00:53:54.760 --> 00:53:59.040
If you're not dating, you can still do this activation, okay?

671
00:53:59.040 --> 00:54:00.440
Some of you, if you're still just kind of

672
00:54:00.440 --> 00:54:01.560
sitting in heartwork,

673
00:54:01.560 --> 00:54:03.280
you're still gonna get to do this activation,

674
00:54:03.280 --> 00:54:06.320
so I want you to create two columns.

675
00:54:06.320 --> 00:54:08.800
And again, like, I like the creativeness

676
00:54:08.800 --> 00:54:12.700
because I saw some people share some graphics.

677
00:54:12.700 --> 00:54:14.800
Someone did their Jesus Cares board,

678
00:54:14.800 --> 00:54:16.480
which was really inspiring.

679
00:54:16.480 --> 00:54:20.360
And so you get to create however you want to,

680
00:54:20.360 --> 00:54:23.200
whether it's like a Canva graphic,

681
00:54:23.200 --> 00:54:27.760
or journal a page, or it's something that you doodle,

682
00:54:27.760 --> 00:54:30.480
whatever, however it fits your personality.

683
00:54:30.480 --> 00:54:35.480
You have two columns, and you're gonna take stairs,

684
00:54:36.820 --> 00:54:39.320
and you're gonna tell me what sounds like,

685
00:54:39.320 --> 00:54:40.940
what does striving sound like?

686
00:54:41.780 --> 00:54:44.780
So when you're taking the stairs, what does that look like?

687
00:54:47.060 --> 00:54:49.540
And I want you to give me examples.

688
00:54:49.540 --> 00:54:51.020
How have you been striving?

689
00:54:51.020 --> 00:54:53.260
How have you been taking the stairs?

690
00:54:54.180 --> 00:54:59.180
And then on the other side, I want you to give me examples.

691
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.200
I want you to ask yourself, what does partnership sound like?

692
00:55:03.200 --> 00:55:06.320
What would that look like instead?

693
00:55:06.320 --> 00:55:09.880
So you might have some examples of how

694
00:55:09.880 --> 00:55:11.400
you might have been striving.

695
00:55:11.400 --> 00:55:14.120
Now show me what that would look like if you were

696
00:55:14.120 --> 00:55:17.160
on an escalator in partnership.

697
00:55:17.160 --> 00:55:19.800
You may also give me examples of how you

698
00:55:19.800 --> 00:55:23.600
have been partnering with God.

699
00:55:23.600 --> 00:55:28.440
And so share that and say, this is what I'm doing differently

700
00:55:28.440 --> 00:55:33.000
now, especially since last year single.

701
00:55:33.000 --> 00:55:37.040
And then you can share how this is what I am doing now

702
00:55:37.040 --> 00:55:37.920
to partner.

703
00:55:37.920 --> 00:55:41.640
This is what I was doing before.

704
00:55:41.640 --> 00:55:45.640
And so I want you to share that in the community this week.

705
00:55:48.240 --> 00:55:51.640
And however you want to do that, however you want to share it,

706
00:55:51.640 --> 00:55:57.600
I love seeing all the creative things for sure.

707
00:55:57.600 --> 00:55:59.280
But let's go ahead and take questions.

708
00:55:59.280 --> 00:56:01.160
We've got a good solid 30 minutes.

709
00:56:01.160 --> 00:56:03.800
I know Rebecca wanted to kind of unpack some things.

710
00:56:03.800 --> 00:56:09.360
And actually, I know I responded to you, Rebecca, in the app.

711
00:56:09.360 --> 00:56:11.600
And so I want to see if I can pull that up.

712
00:56:14.720 --> 00:56:15.960
Where is it?

713
00:56:19.080 --> 00:56:23.080
Because it was just recent too.

714
00:56:23.080 --> 00:56:24.040
Oh, yeah, there it is.

715
00:56:28.600 --> 00:56:29.600
I think this is it.

716
00:56:33.840 --> 00:56:35.400
You want me to unmute myself?

717
00:56:35.400 --> 00:56:37.640
Yes, go ahead.

718
00:56:37.640 --> 00:56:39.320
Yeah, because I think I'm still looking.

719
00:56:39.320 --> 00:56:40.880
Do you remember when you posted that?

720
00:56:43.280 --> 00:56:47.000
I saw your answer, and then I reposted

721
00:56:47.000 --> 00:56:49.760
from what you had posted, like the response.

722
00:56:49.760 --> 00:56:52.560
This was, it was Saturday.

723
00:56:52.560 --> 00:56:55.960
OK, so it was like what, three or four days ago?

724
00:56:55.960 --> 00:56:57.880
Yeah, because it was last Saturday.

725
00:56:57.880 --> 00:57:00.240
OK.

726
00:57:00.240 --> 00:57:02.440
See, and now when I need to find it, I can't find it.

727
00:57:02.440 --> 00:57:03.640
That's how it always happens.

728
00:57:03.640 --> 00:57:06.640
It always happens.

729
00:57:06.640 --> 00:57:09.040
Like I'm sitting here thinking that was going to save us time.

730
00:57:09.040 --> 00:57:16.040
So that way, but I think you were asking specifically,

731
00:57:16.040 --> 00:57:23.320
like, OK, so now timing wise, at what point

732
00:57:23.360 --> 00:57:28.280
what point do I start sharing some of my stuff?

733
00:57:28.280 --> 00:57:30.440
And so that's why I think I directed you back

734
00:57:30.440 --> 00:57:35.920
to our teaching last week about the levels of dating,

735
00:57:35.920 --> 00:57:37.800
like level one.

736
00:57:37.800 --> 00:57:40.560
Level one is going to be more of that curiosity.

737
00:57:40.560 --> 00:57:43.840
Like you're just learning about a person.

738
00:57:43.840 --> 00:57:48.360
Like, do I want to know more about them?

739
00:57:48.360 --> 00:57:50.040
Is there something about them that I'm

740
00:57:50.040 --> 00:57:51.760
interested to learn more about?

741
00:57:51.760 --> 00:57:55.720
We're not asking if this person is my husband or not, OK?

742
00:57:55.720 --> 00:58:00.800
Then level two, those first like couple dates,

743
00:58:00.800 --> 00:58:04.240
that's where discernment comes into place.

744
00:58:04.240 --> 00:58:06.120
And so that's where you're like, OK,

745
00:58:06.120 --> 00:58:09.800
is there consistency happening?

746
00:58:09.800 --> 00:58:16.400
Like, are their words matching their actions?

747
00:58:16.400 --> 00:58:19.920
And now I'm taking information and like sitting

748
00:58:19.920 --> 00:58:25.320
with that information and saying, OK, does this align?

749
00:58:25.320 --> 00:58:27.600
Now I'm looking for discernment.

750
00:58:27.600 --> 00:58:33.440
And then that level three is, OK,

751
00:58:33.440 --> 00:58:35.840
that's when you can start saying, OK,

752
00:58:35.840 --> 00:58:38.360
how does this show up to look more

753
00:58:38.360 --> 00:58:40.880
like it's going towards an engagement

754
00:58:40.880 --> 00:58:42.240
or long-term relationship?

755
00:58:42.240 --> 00:58:44.440
It doesn't mean that you stop discerning things.

756
00:58:44.440 --> 00:58:46.640
It doesn't mean that, oh, just because you're

757
00:58:46.640 --> 00:58:48.320
an exclusive relationship, that person's

758
00:58:48.320 --> 00:58:50.720
going to be your husband.

759
00:58:50.720 --> 00:58:55.840
In fact, there's a lot of people that were in our Simbis class.

760
00:58:55.840 --> 00:58:58.440
Actually, my husband and I did Simbis with Jackie and David.

761
00:58:58.440 --> 00:59:02.560
And I think Bethany and Brian do the Simbis now.

762
00:59:02.560 --> 00:59:06.480
And we had several couples that were in there with us

763
00:59:06.480 --> 00:59:09.160
that actually ended up breaking up.

764
00:59:09.160 --> 00:59:12.440
And they were talking about engagement, OK?

765
00:59:12.440 --> 00:59:15.680
Well, I guess it's like I know he's been divorced.

766
00:59:15.680 --> 00:59:23.560
And he's been very, but I've not asked why or what happened.

767
00:59:23.560 --> 00:59:27.600
Or I know it was just a year ago.

768
00:59:27.600 --> 00:59:31.360
Remind me, how many dates have you guys been on?

769
00:59:31.360 --> 00:59:36.640
Two dates, but maybe about a month we've been sort of chatty.

770
00:59:36.640 --> 00:59:39.040
He's not really one to pick up the phone and call me.

771
00:59:39.040 --> 00:59:42.080
But we have gone out a couple of times.

772
00:59:42.080 --> 00:59:44.440
Do you have a third date planned?

773
00:59:44.480 --> 00:59:46.480
Yeah.

774
00:59:46.480 --> 00:59:49.080
Yeah, let's go on a date.

775
00:59:49.080 --> 00:59:51.240
Like, I think we're supposed to meet Sunday.

776
00:59:51.240 --> 00:59:53.200
But then even September 9th, I think

777
00:59:53.200 --> 00:59:56.560
we have something that we're planning to do together.

778
00:59:56.560 --> 00:59:58.480
OK, perfect.

779
00:59:58.480 --> 01:00:00.480
So yeah, see?

780
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:05.840
See how Sunday goes. See how September 9th goes. Still continue to gather information.

781
01:00:06.640 --> 01:00:10.720
Pray about it. Like, again, I think you shared earlier when you were sharing,

782
01:00:10.720 --> 01:00:15.520
like, it's a Holy Spirit thing. Yeah. Yeah. I mean, going to the Lord and being like,

783
01:00:15.520 --> 01:00:20.880
okay, Lord, I trust that you're going to reveal if the timing is right to have these kinds of

784
01:00:20.880 --> 01:00:26.400
conversations. And if you kind of go back and you listen to some of the replays and things,

785
01:00:26.400 --> 01:00:30.880
and even go back to look at some of the coaches notes that have been posted throughout the app,

786
01:00:32.160 --> 01:00:38.800
I think there'll be some revealing things there too, to be like, okay, like, this is how I can

787
01:00:38.800 --> 01:00:43.600
be partnering with God right now. I can be asking these certain questions. I can be,

788
01:00:45.120 --> 01:00:52.240
I wonder if I can pull up our notes. Well, I think the big reason I want to jump in,

789
01:00:52.880 --> 01:01:03.520
you know, and just rip the band-aids off is because I'm like, I have a feeling he's just

790
01:01:03.520 --> 01:01:11.280
been that steady, faithful person. And I'm not imperfect, but just steady and faithful,

791
01:01:11.280 --> 01:01:20.000
where I have made my fair share of mistakes. And even recently made my own fair share,

792
01:01:20.000 --> 01:01:26.240
you know, putting relationships above God and, you know, being, feeling rejected. And I mean,

793
01:01:26.240 --> 01:01:32.240
just, I can name a whole list of them, but I think I want him to know what my mistakes are.

794
01:01:32.240 --> 01:01:38.480
That way, if he's going to judge me and reject me, I'd rather have it now than

795
01:01:40.640 --> 01:01:45.920
in a couple of months when I gained feelings for him. You know what I mean? Yeah.

796
01:01:46.720 --> 01:01:53.040
I'd rather have rejection happen now than later. And I'm not saying later, I'm going to have

797
01:01:53.040 --> 01:01:58.320
feelings for him. Heck, you know, we've gone out twice and I'm not even sure I'm attracted to him.

798
01:02:00.640 --> 01:02:08.960
What I'm hearing is there's some fear and that's okay. Fear of not being good enough.

799
01:02:08.960 --> 01:02:13.760
Yeah. And you're, you're, you're sharing, I mean, you're being honest with that. Ladies,

800
01:02:13.760 --> 01:02:17.760
it's all about honesty and about being vulnerable in this community and, you know,

801
01:02:19.280 --> 01:02:23.840
yeah, this, well, I want him to know about my past now because

802
01:02:26.880 --> 01:02:31.680
there's something, because I heard you say, well, he's, I have a feeling he's faithful and steady.

803
01:02:32.320 --> 01:02:38.960
And so are you thinking that because that he's been faithful and steady,

804
01:02:38.960 --> 01:02:44.560
that he doesn't have mistakes in his life? Not to the, not to the extent that I've had.

805
01:02:45.520 --> 01:02:51.840
I don't think, but again, like, do you really know him well enough to know what his past is?

806
01:02:52.800 --> 01:02:57.760
I don't. Okay. Well, I know bits and pieces. I mean, you know,

807
01:02:57.760 --> 01:03:04.160
at a young age, she did camper's crusade for cry. So I know he, and that's his life,

808
01:03:04.160 --> 01:03:12.640
right. And, but I don't know the mistakes he's made along the journey, but I just feel like it's

809
01:03:12.640 --> 01:03:21.680
not crash and burn like I have. Well, and that's what I want to, I want you to kind of, this is

810
01:03:21.680 --> 01:03:27.200
more like, I think heartwork is being revealed. What's being revealed inside you. What beliefs

811
01:03:27.200 --> 01:03:33.200
are you starting to sense? Is there this feeling like I might not be good enough? Yeah. I might

812
01:03:33.200 --> 01:03:40.400
get rejected. Like this person over here, they've done these camp, you know, campus for crusade.

813
01:03:40.400 --> 01:03:47.200
And, you know, yeah, he might've made a mistake, but man, my mistakes are way worse. So how could

814
01:03:47.200 --> 01:03:57.280
someone like that really love me? Yeah. Right. Yeah. I like Rebecca, I'm sure this is giving a

815
01:03:57.280 --> 01:04:04.480
lot of women that are on this call right now are listening into replay. They are feeling

816
01:04:05.440 --> 01:04:14.400
everything that you're describing because they experienced it too. And how do I know? Cause I did,

817
01:04:18.000 --> 01:04:20.560
you know how I told you, I was like, there was these Christian guys that just,

818
01:04:21.120 --> 01:04:26.160
they, I felt like I wasn't good enough for them because I had a kid out of wedlock.

819
01:04:26.160 --> 01:04:32.880
Me too. I did too. He's 32 now, but yeah. And I thought, who's going to accept me?

820
01:04:34.960 --> 01:04:43.040
Who's going, what godly man is going to choose a late third. Cause this is,

821
01:04:43.040 --> 01:04:49.680
it was like when I was in the late thirties to marry 58, you know,

822
01:04:50.640 --> 01:04:57.280
why hasn't she been in have been married. And that's another one. I, how many of you

823
01:04:58.960 --> 01:04:59.840
don't enjoy the

824
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.920
question of, well, have you been married before?

825
01:05:03.920 --> 01:05:06.600
Or, well, why have, why are you not married?

826
01:05:08.440 --> 01:05:12.000
That triggers some of y'all that triggered me.

827
01:05:14.080 --> 01:05:16.200
I didn't like to answer that question.

828
01:05:16.360 --> 01:05:20.520
Like I get ladies, like the last three years I've been

829
01:05:20.520 --> 01:05:21.920
coaching in this community.

830
01:05:22.160 --> 01:05:23.120
That's a big one.

831
01:05:23.760 --> 01:05:29.880
How Carla, how do I answer when a guy asked me why I'm not married?

832
01:05:30.920 --> 01:05:35.720
Or why I've, why have I been divorced or why was I divorced?

833
01:05:35.880 --> 01:05:37.320
What happened in that?

834
01:05:38.720 --> 01:05:43.520
And then we think that we have to divulge all that information.

835
01:05:45.680 --> 01:05:48.600
You want to know what happens

836
01:05:52.400 --> 01:05:57.880
when you start healing, when God starts revealing that and you

837
01:05:57.880 --> 01:06:02.280
start getting some healing, those questions and those worries and those

838
01:06:02.280 --> 01:06:05.480
fears, they don't carry the same weight anymore.

839
01:06:07.680 --> 01:06:08.360
Why?

840
01:06:09.520 --> 01:06:11.320
Cause you've put that on the Lord.

841
01:06:12.440 --> 01:06:14.200
You've been partnering with him.

842
01:06:16.320 --> 01:06:16.760
Okay.

843
01:06:19.560 --> 01:06:25.600
Me being a single mom and having a child out of wedlock didn't mean that there

844
01:06:25.600 --> 01:06:31.440
were not times where I still felt like I wasn't good enough, but when I was

845
01:06:31.440 --> 01:06:36.400
partnering with God, even in the moments where sometimes that I would want to

846
01:06:36.400 --> 01:06:43.680
pick that back up, I would be reminded that no, God's been working on my healing

847
01:06:43.680 --> 01:06:49.800
in this, and then I could start picking up the truth, walking that out.

848
01:06:51.240 --> 01:06:54.320
It didn't mean that there weren't times that I thought, Oh, I'm just not good

849
01:06:54.360 --> 01:06:54.680
enough.

850
01:06:54.960 --> 01:06:59.120
Y'all I'm going to be real candid with you.

851
01:06:59.120 --> 01:07:02.400
I've been married for almost three years and there've been times in my marriages,

852
01:07:02.440 --> 01:07:08.560
my marriages, I've only been married once in my marriage where I'm thinking maybe

853
01:07:08.560 --> 01:07:11.200
I'm not, maybe I'm not good enough to be married.

854
01:07:14.360 --> 01:07:17.640
Maybe my husband deserves a better wife.

855
01:07:19.360 --> 01:07:22.920
I still got some stuff that I've got to heal from.

856
01:07:23.600 --> 01:07:24.240
All right.

857
01:07:24.960 --> 01:07:29.040
Nevermind the fact that I can look at my husband and know he's got things that he

858
01:07:29.040 --> 01:07:31.880
needs to heal on, but I can give him grace and space to do that.

859
01:07:32.080 --> 01:07:37.640
God forbid he gives me the same in return because he does, but I sometimes don't

860
01:07:37.640 --> 01:07:38.920
think that I deserve it.

861
01:07:41.760 --> 01:07:45.600
So just because that stuff comes up, doesn't mean that we like, I don't want

862
01:07:45.600 --> 01:07:51.400
you to think, well, I have to be fully healed in order to do this.

863
01:07:51.560 --> 01:07:53.320
You get to walk this with the Lord.

864
01:07:53.320 --> 01:07:54.600
You get a partner with him.

865
01:07:57.600 --> 01:07:58.920
And so you get to ask God, okay.

866
01:07:58.920 --> 01:08:01.680
Like what do I share?

867
01:08:02.560 --> 01:08:03.840
How much do I share?

868
01:08:05.320 --> 01:08:10.440
I mean, it could be simple as, you know, this is, I don't know his name.

869
01:08:10.440 --> 01:08:14.200
Like you can say, Hey John, like, you know, I really don't say that.

870
01:08:14.600 --> 01:08:15.480
That was my ex.

871
01:08:15.560 --> 01:08:15.800
Okay.

872
01:08:15.800 --> 01:08:19.920
Well, we're not saying that I'm just taking good commenting.

873
01:08:20.439 --> 01:08:29.200
Um, I'm like Earl, like, Hey Earl.

874
01:08:29.240 --> 01:08:34.479
Um, I have really been enjoying getting to know you and I really admire the

875
01:08:34.479 --> 01:08:35.920
things that I'm learning about you.

876
01:08:35.920 --> 01:08:41.880
And, um, I, I appreciate the dates that we've been on and, you know,

877
01:08:43.319 --> 01:08:44.800
can I share something with you?

878
01:08:45.520 --> 01:08:49.560
There's times that I admire some of the things that you've accomplished

879
01:08:50.160 --> 01:08:56.560
and, you know, I wonder to myself, I'm like, if I told you some things about

880
01:08:56.560 --> 01:09:04.880
my past, I don't know if you necessarily, if you'd want to get to know me anymore.

881
01:09:05.200 --> 01:09:07.120
Like you can be honest about that.

882
01:09:07.120 --> 01:09:12.560
Now that doesn't mean that you're going to sit there and offer all the things

883
01:09:12.560 --> 01:09:18.240
that you've made mistakes on, but you can communicate to him like, you know,

884
01:09:19.240 --> 01:09:21.840
there's some intimidation that I've got going on right now.

885
01:09:22.200 --> 01:09:25.600
Like you're, I really see that you're a really intentional,

886
01:09:25.600 --> 01:09:28.279
integrous, like person.

887
01:09:28.279 --> 01:09:30.080
It seems like you're very faithful.

888
01:09:30.399 --> 01:09:32.120
I admire that.

889
01:09:32.520 --> 01:09:41.920
Um, and so I'm just curious, like what that, what's, what's your view on, you

890
01:09:41.920 --> 01:09:46.399
know, people, you know, accepting people.

891
01:09:46.560 --> 01:09:50.960
Like, I mean, there's ways that like, God can give you those words on how to do it.

892
01:09:51.200 --> 01:09:59.120
But again, I want to encourage that you sit with him so that when you show up in

893
01:09:59.120 --> 01:10:00.080
the conversation.

894
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:07.320
It's not coming from a place of inadequacy where you feel like you're not good enough

895
01:10:07.320 --> 01:10:14.200
and you're trying to like tell them, oh, I don't know if I'm good enough for you.

896
01:10:14.200 --> 01:10:15.200
But get curious.

897
01:10:15.200 --> 01:10:26.000
Be like, hey, have you ever, you know, had friends or anybody in your life or people

898
01:10:26.000 --> 01:10:33.280
at church or whatever that, you know, have been like, how do you handle that?

899
01:10:33.280 --> 01:10:37.600
Like how do you handle people that might not have walked a godly Christian life like you

900
01:10:37.600 --> 01:10:38.600
have?

901
01:10:38.600 --> 01:10:40.000
Have you ever encountered that?

902
01:10:40.000 --> 01:10:44.100
Like what has God shown you through the years?

903
01:10:44.100 --> 01:10:49.300
Is there been any growing in you and your heart?

904
01:10:49.300 --> 01:10:56.980
You can ask some curious questions and it doesn't have to be super, super personal where

905
01:10:56.980 --> 01:11:01.200
you're sharing like your deepest, darkest secrets and you don't have to invite him to

906
01:11:01.200 --> 01:11:04.340
share his deepest, darkest secrets either.

907
01:11:04.340 --> 01:11:08.100
You just said something and I didn't get it all written down and I thought it was very

908
01:11:08.100 --> 01:11:09.100
good.

909
01:11:09.100 --> 01:11:17.720
You said something like how something about seeing somebody, I mean, coming across somebody

910
01:11:17.920 --> 01:11:20.920
in the church that hasn't walked out.

911
01:11:20.920 --> 01:11:26.400
That maybe didn't know Christ before.

912
01:11:26.400 --> 01:11:29.480
Maybe had made some mistakes in their life.

913
01:11:29.480 --> 01:11:30.880
Have you ever encountered that?

914
01:11:30.880 --> 01:11:33.600
And if so, like how have you handled that?

915
01:11:33.600 --> 01:11:37.280
That might be a good question.

916
01:11:37.280 --> 01:11:38.640
Let me ask you this, Rebecca.

917
01:11:38.640 --> 01:11:50.520
Have you ever encountered someone in your walk that maybe wasn't walking with Jesus?

918
01:11:50.520 --> 01:11:51.920
And I'm all about grace.

919
01:11:51.920 --> 01:11:53.240
Let me tell you that right now.

920
01:11:53.240 --> 01:11:54.240
That's my middle name.

921
01:11:54.240 --> 01:11:59.720
I mean, not literally my middle name, but yeah, God would call me grace.

922
01:11:59.720 --> 01:12:05.320
And so you get to share and that's maybe the invitation that you offer.

923
01:12:05.440 --> 01:12:11.360
You ask him that question, how do you operate in grace?

924
01:12:11.360 --> 01:12:14.120
What does that look like to you?

925
01:12:14.120 --> 01:12:21.280
Have you ever encountered someone that maybe wasn't walking with the Lord before and now

926
01:12:21.280 --> 01:12:23.480
they are?

927
01:12:23.480 --> 01:12:31.560
So when you meet people that have a past, because people come through those church doors

928
01:12:31.720 --> 01:12:37.760
all the time, ladies, that have past.

929
01:12:37.760 --> 01:12:41.800
And I know that's a big question in the church because people are like, oh, I have to be

930
01:12:41.800 --> 01:12:46.240
clean in order to get into church, right?

931
01:12:46.240 --> 01:12:48.960
But that's not the invitation.

932
01:12:48.960 --> 01:12:52.400
How do like, I know I get challenged with that all the time.

933
01:12:52.400 --> 01:12:53.880
I actually go to it.

934
01:12:53.880 --> 01:12:55.040
My church is a church plant.

935
01:12:55.040 --> 01:12:59.160
So we are constantly bringing people in and we're growing.

936
01:12:59.160 --> 01:13:06.440
And it's important for us to help people feel like there is grace and they are seen

937
01:13:06.440 --> 01:13:11.200
and they are loved regardless of what their past look like.

938
01:13:11.200 --> 01:13:16.120
We want people to know that they are loved by Jesus no matter what.

939
01:13:16.120 --> 01:13:22.760
And so maybe that's a question that you get to ask this gentleman, like, hey, you know,

940
01:13:22.760 --> 01:13:26.320
I've been thinking grace is really important to me.

941
01:13:26.480 --> 01:13:32.080
And God's really shown me that my walk with him has been so full of grace.

942
01:13:32.080 --> 01:13:36.200
And I'm curious what that looks like for you.

943
01:13:36.200 --> 01:13:43.400
How do you show up when people need grace?

944
01:13:43.400 --> 01:13:45.320
Have you experienced that?

945
01:13:45.320 --> 01:13:48.640
Can you tell me about a time where maybe you didn't give someone grace and you wish you

946
01:13:48.640 --> 01:13:49.640
did?

947
01:13:49.640 --> 01:13:55.160
Can you tell me about a time where you really felt like you did a really good job of offering

948
01:13:55.160 --> 01:13:58.360
grace to somebody?

949
01:13:58.360 --> 01:14:03.280
And then that curiosity gives you information.

950
01:14:03.280 --> 01:14:07.400
And then recognize what's happening inside your heart.

951
01:14:07.400 --> 01:14:08.760
What's going on in your head?

952
01:14:08.760 --> 01:14:12.560
What are going on in your thoughts?

953
01:14:12.560 --> 01:14:13.880
I really want.

954
01:14:13.880 --> 01:14:15.600
I'm like pinning all this down.

955
01:14:15.600 --> 01:14:16.600
Okay.

956
01:14:16.600 --> 01:14:18.760
And this will be a replay too.

957
01:14:18.760 --> 01:14:24.480
So if you have to like fast forward and like and take notes, I know I have to do that because

958
01:14:24.520 --> 01:14:31.960
I have to listen to replays frequently to make sure that I got all the things down.

959
01:14:31.960 --> 01:14:34.280
Because a lot of times, like when you said you're like, you just said something and I'm

960
01:14:34.280 --> 01:14:40.520
like, I don't remember what I just said, because a lot of times I like when I coach ladies

961
01:14:40.520 --> 01:14:46.320
and this is just a little fun fact about me, like before I get on these calls, like I really

962
01:14:46.320 --> 01:14:49.680
do spend time with the Lord and ask Holy Spirit to speak through me.

963
01:14:49.680 --> 01:14:54.440
And there are so many times I get off a call and I'm like, I have no idea what I just said.

964
01:14:55.440 --> 01:14:58.440
Because it wasn't me.

965
01:14:58.440 --> 01:14:59.440
It isn't.

966
01:14:59.440 --> 01:15:00.440
A lot of times.

967
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:02.880
things are not, it's downloads.

968
01:15:00.440 --> 01:15:00.440


969
01:15:02.880 --> 01:15:04.200
You know, obviously I have notes

970
01:15:04.200 --> 01:15:06.480
so that I kind of stay on track,

971
01:15:06.480 --> 01:15:09.480
but there's a lot of times that things are not in my notes

972
01:15:09.480 --> 01:15:12.360
that God just shares.

973
01:15:12.360 --> 01:15:16.920
And so don't feel like, if I didn't remember,

974
01:15:16.920 --> 01:15:18.100
like just be like, oh, well,

975
01:15:18.100 --> 01:15:19.800
good thing that this is in replay.

976
01:15:21.600 --> 01:15:23.200
But I thought that was a really, really good question.

977
01:15:23.200 --> 01:15:27.760
I really, really think that resonated with a lot of ladies.

978
01:15:28.760 --> 01:15:31.840
I like the response on how I can bring it up

979
01:15:31.840 --> 01:15:36.840
without actually seeing if I could trust him with it.

980
01:15:39.440 --> 01:15:40.440
Yeah, and there's no shame.

981
01:15:40.440 --> 01:15:43.040
Like you don't have to carry the shame with it.

982
01:15:43.040 --> 01:15:43.880
Yeah.

983
01:15:43.880 --> 01:15:45.800
When we operate in that fear,

984
01:15:45.800 --> 01:15:49.000
that's when shame and condemnation and guilt show up

985
01:15:49.000 --> 01:15:50.480
and we feel like we're inadequate.

986
01:15:50.480 --> 01:15:52.480
Like we have to perform,

987
01:15:52.480 --> 01:15:53.960
like that's that worldly dating

988
01:15:53.960 --> 01:15:55.600
that we talked about earlier.

989
01:15:56.520 --> 01:15:58.400
Well, when we're partnering with God,

990
01:15:59.480 --> 01:16:01.040
well, we don't have to strive.

991
01:16:01.040 --> 01:16:04.800
We don't have to make someone know us any better.

992
01:16:04.800 --> 01:16:08.320
We get to get curious and we get to partner with God.

993
01:16:08.320 --> 01:16:10.160
And I think that's the bigger invitation

994
01:16:10.160 --> 01:16:14.320
is regardless of what this gentleman,

995
01:16:14.320 --> 01:16:15.960
what the outcome of, you know,

996
01:16:15.960 --> 01:16:19.600
you getting to know this gentleman is,

997
01:16:19.600 --> 01:16:23.040
the bigger blessing is that God's revealing something

998
01:16:23.160 --> 01:16:28.160
to you that is gonna give you breakthrough

999
01:16:28.920 --> 01:16:31.120
and freedom and growth.

1000
01:16:32.160 --> 01:16:34.520
And that is so much more valuable

1001
01:16:34.520 --> 01:16:36.760
than what a husband is gonna offer you.

1002
01:16:38.160 --> 01:16:39.000
Yeah.

1003
01:16:39.000 --> 01:16:40.240
I mean, truly ladies,

1004
01:16:41.400 --> 01:16:43.800
like you don't have to sit and operate Rebecca

1005
01:16:43.800 --> 01:16:47.720
in a place of, I'm not good enough.

1006
01:16:47.720 --> 01:16:50.280
I'm not gonna be accepted because of the things

1007
01:16:50.280 --> 01:16:52.840
I've done in my past and the mistakes I've made.

1008
01:16:53.680 --> 01:16:57.920
Jesus doesn't require us to do anything.

1009
01:16:57.920 --> 01:17:00.680
Like that grace is just given.

1010
01:17:00.680 --> 01:17:05.680
And ladies, your spirit mate will have grace for you.

1011
01:17:09.320 --> 01:17:12.360
And that peace that you get

1012
01:17:12.360 --> 01:17:14.640
is going to be the confirmation

1013
01:17:14.640 --> 01:17:19.640
that God has his hand on that relationship

1014
01:17:20.640 --> 01:17:23.880
and blesses that marriage

1015
01:17:23.880 --> 01:17:28.760
because he's showing you and confirming to you.

1016
01:17:30.840 --> 01:17:33.280
You're walking with me.

1017
01:17:33.280 --> 01:17:36.040
This is fruit from walking with me.

1018
01:17:36.040 --> 01:17:37.680
I have good fruit for you.

1019
01:17:39.120 --> 01:17:42.760
You don't have to pick up the shame

1020
01:17:42.760 --> 01:17:45.400
and condemnation and the rotten fruit

1021
01:17:45.400 --> 01:17:46.880
because you're trying to operate

1022
01:17:46.880 --> 01:17:49.000
and I'm just not good enough.

1023
01:17:49.040 --> 01:17:50.560
Oh, these mistakes.

1024
01:17:50.560 --> 01:17:52.680
I'm not gonna get a Christian man

1025
01:17:52.680 --> 01:17:54.680
that's a really good, faithful Christian man

1026
01:17:54.680 --> 01:17:57.240
because I made all these mistakes.

1027
01:17:57.240 --> 01:18:00.040
So I have to accept the scraps.

1028
01:18:00.040 --> 01:18:01.800
No, no ma'am, you don't.

1029
01:18:03.240 --> 01:18:04.080
No, you don't.

1030
01:18:06.000 --> 01:18:10.520
You get to step in the inheritance that God has given you.

1031
01:18:13.080 --> 01:18:14.240
Okay.

1032
01:18:14.240 --> 01:18:15.680
Thank you so much.

1033
01:18:15.680 --> 01:18:16.520
All right.

1034
01:18:16.520 --> 01:18:18.520
I got Sarah and then I got Jennifer.

1035
01:18:19.040 --> 01:18:19.960
And I think that's all the hands I see.

1036
01:18:19.960 --> 01:18:23.720
So I'm gonna let Sarah go and then Jennifer go.

1037
01:18:23.720 --> 01:18:24.760
So Sarah, how are you?

1038
01:18:24.760 --> 01:18:26.320
Good to see you.

1039
01:18:26.320 --> 01:18:27.160
You too.

1040
01:18:27.160 --> 01:18:28.000
Hi, Carla.

1041
01:18:28.000 --> 01:18:29.160
Hi, everybody.

1042
01:18:29.160 --> 01:18:32.240
I had a question for Ebony last week

1043
01:18:32.240 --> 01:18:37.240
about a guy who, his name is Ice Cream Guy.

1044
01:18:37.600 --> 01:18:41.680
And he, we went out for ice cream for our first date,

1045
01:18:42.640 --> 01:18:43.640
first and only date so far.

1046
01:18:43.680 --> 01:18:48.680
But he, it was interesting, he was wearing a cross necklace.

1047
01:18:49.040 --> 01:18:51.400
So I was able to kind of bring it up naturally.

1048
01:18:51.400 --> 01:18:53.360
Question about ice cream and stuff.

1049
01:18:53.360 --> 01:18:54.200
I love it.

1050
01:18:55.720 --> 01:18:59.200
So it sounds like he grew up, like his mom is Catholic,

1051
01:18:59.200 --> 01:19:01.800
but I think he, I don't know that he's Catholic.

1052
01:19:01.800 --> 01:19:04.160
He's maybe nominal Catholic, you know?

1053
01:19:05.440 --> 01:19:09.920
And so, and I wasn't really seeing fruit, I guess.

1054
01:19:09.920 --> 01:19:12.040
And I don't mean to judge prematurely,

1055
01:19:12.040 --> 01:19:13.800
but I just, you know,

1056
01:19:13.800 --> 01:19:15.800
but I probably was judging prematurely.

1057
01:19:17.560 --> 01:19:20.600
So I talked to Ebony and I was like,

1058
01:19:20.600 --> 01:19:24.240
Ebony, you know what, last week, like, what do you think,

1059
01:19:24.240 --> 01:19:26.560
if I don't feel like he's a Christian,

1060
01:19:26.560 --> 01:19:30.200
I'm not seeing fruit, what can I, you know,

1061
01:19:30.200 --> 01:19:33.360
just kind of like let him know or what?

1062
01:19:33.360 --> 01:19:36.560
Cause he wanted me to call him and I was like, oh,

1063
01:19:36.560 --> 01:19:38.080
you know, she's like, why don't you want to call him?

1064
01:19:38.080 --> 01:19:40.480
Like he said, you can call me, you know?

1065
01:19:40.520 --> 01:19:43.080
And I'm just like, oh, you know, cause of that.

1066
01:19:43.080 --> 01:19:46.720
And so Ebony's like, well, if you don't feel like he's,

1067
01:19:46.720 --> 01:19:50.360
you know, a Christian or nothing's going to happen from it,

1068
01:19:50.360 --> 01:19:52.080
then you can let him know, hey, you know,

1069
01:19:52.080 --> 01:19:53.040
we're of different faiths and stuff.

1070
01:19:53.040 --> 01:19:56.200
So I did that and he, and then he pushed back

1071
01:19:56.200 --> 01:19:57.720
and I didn't expect him to push back.

1072
01:19:57.720 --> 01:20:00.000
And cause he did share with me a miracle, you know,

1073
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:04.440
that God, that God has done miracles in his life, but I just don't know that he's like

1074
01:20:04.440 --> 01:20:11.920
walking with him daily type thing, you know, and so I didn't expect the pushback and so

1075
01:20:11.920 --> 01:20:16.240
I said okay, so we're, we'll keep trying this then, you know, we'll keep kind of getting

1076
01:20:16.240 --> 01:20:21.680
to know each other and he's like yeah, and so he has been, he really has shown up like

1077
01:20:21.680 --> 01:20:25.840
unlike I would say any other guy that I've been talking to through Facebook dating, he's

1078
01:20:25.840 --> 01:20:36.320
really shown up and, you know, mature, masculine, marriage-minded and so now I'm finding myself,

1079
01:20:36.320 --> 01:20:40.600
it's tricky because now I'm like I want to tell him everything but he's like not, you

1080
01:20:40.600 --> 01:20:45.520
know, I don't know where he's at exactly, so I'm trying to like pace myself and it's

1081
01:20:45.520 --> 01:20:47.160
hard and all of that.

1082
01:20:47.160 --> 01:20:54.160
Okay, so this is really good, Sarah, this is really good, okay, and I'm gonna challenge

1083
01:20:54.160 --> 01:20:55.160
you.

1084
01:20:55.160 --> 01:20:56.160
Are you up for the challenge?

1085
01:20:56.160 --> 01:21:00.000
Everybody shares this with me, she's like Carly, you're always, I sometimes feel like

1086
01:21:00.000 --> 01:21:03.840
she and I like we're good cop, bad cop and she's always the good cop and I'm the bad

1087
01:21:03.840 --> 01:21:04.840
cop.

1088
01:21:04.840 --> 01:21:11.560
Carly, you always put it on the ladies and I'm like I do, I know, so I challenge you

1089
01:21:11.560 --> 01:21:12.560
if you're up for it.

1090
01:21:12.560 --> 01:21:14.560
I'm up for it.

1091
01:21:14.560 --> 01:21:20.080
Okay, I'm gonna challenge you to go back and reflect on some of these teachings that we've

1092
01:21:20.080 --> 01:21:29.320
given you ladies about early stages of dating, okay, you've gone on, you said you've gone

1093
01:21:29.320 --> 01:21:32.440
on one date, ice cream?

1094
01:21:32.440 --> 01:21:33.440
Ice cream, yeah.

1095
01:21:33.440 --> 01:21:37.880
And then there's been some exchanges whether it's, you know, messaging or calling or whatever,

1096
01:21:37.880 --> 01:21:38.880
right?

1097
01:21:38.880 --> 01:21:42.240
Yeah, lots of phone calls, I would say probably eight phone calls.

1098
01:21:42.240 --> 01:21:46.780
Okay, good and so you're like well, I just don't know if he's, you know, really walking

1099
01:21:46.780 --> 01:21:49.360
with the Lord.

1100
01:21:49.360 --> 01:22:03.200
So is that a level one information or is that a level later, level two, level three?

1101
01:22:03.200 --> 01:22:06.040
What level of relationship is that question?

1102
01:22:06.040 --> 01:22:08.000
What's your walk with the Lord?

1103
01:22:08.000 --> 01:22:18.600
I need to see that consistently, consistency in dating shows up in what level?

1104
01:22:18.600 --> 01:22:19.600
Would that be level three?

1105
01:22:19.600 --> 01:22:23.280
Two to three, later two.

1106
01:22:23.280 --> 01:22:27.080
So you're still in those level one, level two, like you're still just trying to get

1107
01:22:27.080 --> 01:22:34.280
to know, you're trying to answer a like a level, late level two, level three question.

1108
01:22:34.280 --> 01:22:35.280
Yeah.

1109
01:22:35.280 --> 01:22:42.400
Okay, now it doesn't mean that you're not collecting information.

1110
01:22:42.400 --> 01:22:46.680
You are collecting information, that information is valuable, okay, you had the cross necklace

1111
01:22:46.680 --> 01:22:47.680
on.

1112
01:22:47.760 --> 01:22:49.760
So there's some faith there.

1113
01:22:49.760 --> 01:22:56.160
You don't know what that looks like, so you're gonna go and date and see what that looks

1114
01:22:56.160 --> 01:23:01.880
like and I heard you say, well, I'm not seeing any fruit.

1115
01:23:01.880 --> 01:23:06.160
There's probably some premature judgment and you were honest about that.

1116
01:23:06.160 --> 01:23:13.720
I don't think there's anything like, we've all done it, like, yeah, girl, I'll do it.

1117
01:23:13.800 --> 01:23:19.520
I have to check myself, but then I heard you show up towards the end and you're like, well,

1118
01:23:19.520 --> 01:23:24.440
I wasn't expecting him to push back.

1119
01:23:24.440 --> 01:23:28.120
And there's a thing that he is, there is some fruit.

1120
01:23:28.120 --> 01:23:32.440
You're seeing some maturity, you're seeing some masculinity, you are seeing some marriage

1121
01:23:32.440 --> 01:23:34.800
mindedness.

1122
01:23:34.800 --> 01:23:39.480
So is there fruit?

1123
01:23:39.480 --> 01:23:41.200
I guess so, yeah.

1124
01:23:41.200 --> 01:23:42.920
There's some fruit.

1125
01:23:42.920 --> 01:23:48.400
Are you gonna know whether or not this guy is your husband or not?

1126
01:23:48.400 --> 01:23:49.400
That's the problem.

1127
01:23:49.400 --> 01:23:52.720
I'm like, ah, my mind, my emotions.

1128
01:23:52.720 --> 01:24:00.360
So that's what I want you, are you being invited right now by the Lord with these circumstances

1129
01:24:00.360 --> 01:24:04.200
and these situations that you're finding yourself in?

1130
01:24:04.200 --> 01:24:06.440
Is he revealing something to you?

1131
01:24:06.440 --> 01:24:09.000
Is this been a pattern?

1132
01:24:09.000 --> 01:24:13.680
Is there been that like rushing, I need to find out what their walk is like, where does

1133
01:24:13.680 --> 01:24:14.680
that come from?

1134
01:24:14.680 --> 01:24:18.240
Is that rooted in fear?

1135
01:24:18.240 --> 01:24:21.880
Or I mean, it could be a combination of both.

1136
01:24:21.880 --> 01:24:22.880
Yeah.

1137
01:24:22.880 --> 01:24:27.760
Well, obviously, ladies, we want to walk with someone who is, you know, got a relationship

1138
01:24:27.760 --> 01:24:29.680
with the Lord.

1139
01:24:29.680 --> 01:24:38.200
But ladies, we don't get to see that fruit always right away.

1140
01:24:38.200 --> 01:24:46.160
When you plant a seed in the ground and it sprouts and it becomes, you know, an apple

1141
01:24:46.160 --> 01:24:50.200
tree or an orange tree.

1142
01:24:50.200 --> 01:24:58.520
Do you see the fruit right away?

1143
01:24:58.520 --> 01:24:59.520
Do we see the fruit?

1144
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:05.400
No, sometimes there's gonna move my car. I'm still with me. Okay, you're good. There's

1145
01:25:05.400 --> 01:25:12.760
still a process. Ladies, every every Sarah, I don't know if you have you watched the replay

1146
01:25:12.760 --> 01:25:16.300
from last week. I said you said you had the question with Ebony. Did you get to watch

1147
01:25:16.300 --> 01:25:23.620
the one o'clock replay? Um, I did not rewatch it. I was in with Ebony last week, but I did

1148
01:25:23.620 --> 01:25:28.320
not re rewatch it yet. And I need to go back because it was a lot of good stuff in there.

1149
01:25:28.640 --> 01:25:33.880
Pray about watching the one o'clock because I really did dive deep about the levels of

1150
01:25:33.880 --> 01:25:42.600
relationship and the assignments that are for each level. Okay, that goes for any of you

1151
01:25:42.600 --> 01:25:50.600
ladies, if you were not on the one o'clock last week, or you might have jumped into the

1152
01:25:50.720 --> 01:25:55.040
the eight o'clock or you watch the eight o'clock and didn't get to watch the one pray

1153
01:25:55.040 --> 01:25:59.040
about whether or not you might want to pick up and watch the one o'clock as well, because

1154
01:25:59.960 --> 01:26:06.800
I spent a really significant time of level one. What does that look like? What's your

1155
01:26:06.800 --> 01:26:14.920
assignment look like? The rhythm, the process is the same. Yeah, partner with God, gather

1156
01:26:14.920 --> 01:26:21.680
information, like, all of that still is the same, but then it's, it looks different in

1157
01:26:21.680 --> 01:26:29.200
each level. And so yeah, level one is going to be more of that curiosity is you're getting

1158
01:26:29.200 --> 01:26:35.600
into level two after, you know, let's say dates after at least three or four dates, then

1159
01:26:35.600 --> 01:26:42.960
there's more of a Okay, now I need to, is there it now I'm going to get to use some

1160
01:26:42.960 --> 01:26:51.040
discernment. Yeah, you're looking for consistency. And so we don't want to put the

1161
01:26:51.040 --> 01:26:58.960
cart before the horse. Yeah, it doesn't mean that. I don't know what this guy's walk is. You

1162
01:26:58.960 --> 01:27:05.440
don't know what this guy. We hope it walks well. I mean, it's same like what Rebecca

1163
01:27:05.440 --> 01:27:11.560
says, like, let's, let's put kind of where she's at, where she's getting fearful. What

1164
01:27:11.560 --> 01:27:20.840
if he doesn't believe that she's as faithful and as committed in her walk? Should he dump

1165
01:27:20.840 --> 01:27:28.640
her? Not say like dump, like, you know, but should he stop getting to know her? Does how

1166
01:27:28.640 --> 01:27:34.560
she show how she showed up in her past? Does that reflect where she's going and what God's

1167
01:27:34.560 --> 01:27:40.840
calling her to? Same thing with this guy. You don't know what his walk is. You don't

1168
01:27:40.840 --> 01:27:46.600
know what his walk is going to look like. You're looking. You're looking for how is

1169
01:27:46.600 --> 01:27:54.440
he showing up? I don't see his walk in his past. But what do I see now?

1170
01:27:54.440 --> 01:27:59.560
Right, if I guess I'm just I just feel like I'm being pulled in like he's like, call me

1171
01:27:59.560 --> 01:28:04.120
or like he's like, yesterday we he called me in the morning and he's like, call me tonight.

1172
01:28:04.120 --> 01:28:09.880
I'm just like, we already talked today. Okay. So I was like, I'll call you. I said, I'll

1173
01:28:09.880 --> 01:28:12.840
call you another day this week. I texted message him. I was like, I'll call you another

1174
01:28:12.840 --> 01:28:15.960
day this week, you know, for me to kind of pacing, but then I ended up messaging him

1175
01:28:15.960 --> 01:28:21.400
last night and I'm like, I ended up, you know, sharing something and then yeah, so then it.

1176
01:28:21.400 --> 01:28:26.560
So I want you to spend time. Okay. Cause remember this, this phase ladies, this is good. This

1177
01:28:26.560 --> 01:28:31.560
is so good. I'm so glad you're sharing. I think this is going to give ladies so much,

1178
01:28:31.560 --> 01:28:37.120
so much help and so much wisdom. It's not just about discovering more about them. It's

1179
01:28:37.120 --> 01:28:42.480
also about sitting and discovering stuff within your heart too. Like what's, what's coming up?

1180
01:28:42.480 --> 01:28:48.080
Like, you're like, okay. Like I just talked to you today. I don't know. Sit with that. Yeah.

1181
01:28:48.880 --> 01:28:53.840
Yeah. Ask the Lord. Okay. Lord, what is this? What am I feeling? Like, what is what's going

1182
01:28:53.840 --> 01:29:03.200
on here? What's being revealed? Lord, show me, show me more and, and, and, and sit there like,

1183
01:29:03.760 --> 01:29:14.080
what is it? Is there a, am I agitated? Am I annoyed? Am I concerned or worried? Like,

1184
01:29:14.080 --> 01:29:20.960
does this remind me of something like the constant having to call? Does this make me feel like I'm

1185
01:29:20.960 --> 01:29:28.240
having to be the one to lead? Like, what does that look like? And ask the Lord, like, what are you

1186
01:29:28.240 --> 01:29:37.840
revealing to me that you want me to be partnered with you in and to continue to learn more about

1187
01:29:37.840 --> 01:29:46.560
this person that I'm getting to know? So this is what I'm saying, ladies, you may have to go on

1188
01:29:46.560 --> 01:29:53.600
some dates with some guys that aren't your, aren't your spirit mate. You may have to go out with them

1189
01:29:53.600 --> 01:29:59.840
a couple times and you're just like, oh, they're not my spirit mate. Okay. But what can God, God

1190
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:07.120
use? What if God has an invitation for you to get to know somebody because you

1191
01:30:07.120 --> 01:30:10.860
getting to know someone is gonna help you get to know areas in your heart that

1192
01:30:10.860 --> 01:30:15.920
needs to be revealed before your husband can come in the picture? Y'all, I would

1193
01:30:15.920 --> 01:30:23.280
not have chosen my husband. I would have literally cut and run. Y'all, I wanted to

1194
01:30:23.280 --> 01:30:30.600
cut and run. But luckily I had enough of the wisdom in this program of like, okay

1195
01:30:30.600 --> 01:30:34.160
Karla, just go enjoy yourself. I would have cut and run. If I met him a year

1196
01:30:34.160 --> 01:30:40.760
earlier, I wouldn't have given him a second glance. I really wouldn't have. But

1197
01:30:40.760 --> 01:30:43.560
I had to go through a lot of like dating some other people. There was another guy

1198
01:30:43.560 --> 01:30:50.000
that I didn't know if I should still continue to date and I didn't know if I

1199
01:30:50.000 --> 01:30:53.440
should break things off with him. And I had to go to the Lord with that one. Like

1200
01:30:53.440 --> 01:30:59.440
we had three or four dates and I'm like, well, it's a yes until it's a no, but how

1201
01:30:59.440 --> 01:31:05.560
do I know if it's a no? And I sat with some kind of like discomfort for a

1202
01:31:05.560 --> 01:31:09.680
couple weeks while I was trying to decide about this guy. And then I made a

1203
01:31:09.680 --> 01:31:16.220
decision and then I didn't have like, there was times in that year until I met

1204
01:31:16.220 --> 01:31:21.580
my husband that I was like, oh, did I, did I make a mistake? There was times Jackie

1205
01:31:21.580 --> 01:31:25.780
would even ask about that guy. And I'm like, oh, maybe that's, maybe I'm supposed

1206
01:31:25.780 --> 01:31:29.420
to reach out to him. But the way that I prayed and I went to the Lord, the Lord

1207
01:31:29.420 --> 01:31:35.700
was like, no, Karla, I told you I would bring it. You don't have to operate in

1208
01:31:35.700 --> 01:31:39.100
anything. And I was like, okay, I'm going to sit back then. I'm going to trust you

1209
01:31:39.100 --> 01:31:45.180
with this. And if I didn't go through that process, I would have never looked

1210
01:31:45.220 --> 01:31:49.380
at my husband. Never would never go. I would never gone on a date. I actually

1211
01:31:49.380 --> 01:31:54.860
wanted to cancel our first date. Because I heard on the phone that he had cats

1212
01:31:54.860 --> 01:32:00.580
and I don't like cats y'all. I was like, I don't know. I don't know if I could

1213
01:32:00.580 --> 01:32:02.500
marry someone who has cats.

1214
01:32:02.620 --> 01:32:04.860
I'll try not to be offended, Karla.

1215
01:32:07.540 --> 01:32:12.780
I had I had to learn to live with cats for a little bit. But um, yeah, and so

1216
01:32:12.780 --> 01:32:16.900
and yeah, I was I was a little scared for you know, I had some things I had to

1217
01:32:16.900 --> 01:32:28.380
work on. So um, all that to say is, ladies, there is a process to every

1218
01:32:28.380 --> 01:32:40.340
promise. And do not ignore the invitation for every situation that God

1219
01:32:40.340 --> 01:32:44.380
is bringing you in even all the the dates with the guys that are not your

1220
01:32:44.380 --> 01:32:50.300
husband. Invite and accept those invitations to grow and heal and what

1221
01:32:50.300 --> 01:32:57.620
God wants to do in your heart through every single one of those interactions.

1222
01:33:00.820 --> 01:33:07.060
I kind of like that he pushed back a little bit. And that he's showing up

1223
01:33:07.060 --> 01:33:13.580
because that's one thing that you said, well, he's showing up more than others.

1224
01:33:14.620 --> 01:33:19.780
And yeah, you said, Oh, mature, masculine. Well, there's some fruit

1225
01:33:19.780 --> 01:33:26.660
right there. Yeah. So there's a little scary too. Because like you said, like

1226
01:33:26.660 --> 01:33:30.460
it's a process and it's like vulnerabilities and things that I haven't

1227
01:33:30.860 --> 01:33:37.020
felt these things in a long time. And so it leaves me like nervous and just

1228
01:33:37.020 --> 01:33:41.460
uncomfortable. It was funny because after our first date, I was like, I was

1229
01:33:41.460 --> 01:33:43.580
like, there's no way we're gonna be going on another date. There's no way

1230
01:33:43.580 --> 01:33:47.300
he's gonna want to, you know, so at one point, there's like that awkward kind of,

1231
01:33:47.620 --> 01:33:52.620
we don't know what to say. And then, and I was so exhausted after the date,

1232
01:33:52.660 --> 01:33:56.980
literally, I slept a couple probably an hour or so. I was so tired, and it was

1233
01:33:56.980 --> 01:34:02.780
just a draining, you know, but then, but then he asked me out. He says, Let's go

1234
01:34:02.780 --> 01:34:05.140
get him. Let's go do something. What do you want? Where do you want to eat? And

1235
01:34:05.140 --> 01:34:08.540
I was like, hamburgers. And so yeah, so he's planning a hamburgers date.

1236
01:34:09.180 --> 01:34:15.420
I love it. Yeah. So just, yeah, again, just this is this is low key, low stakes,

1237
01:34:15.420 --> 01:34:18.780
you're just getting to know him, you're getting to know yourself, you're getting

1238
01:34:18.780 --> 01:34:22.900
just, you're inviting God be like, Okay, I'm on this journey with you, God,

1239
01:34:22.900 --> 01:34:28.460
you're gonna do some incredible healing things in me. So I'm up for it. However

1240
01:34:28.460 --> 01:34:34.500
you want to do it, God only do what you can do, right? God is like, let God be

1241
01:34:34.500 --> 01:34:37.860
the one to do only what he can do. Yeah.

1242
01:34:39.780 --> 01:34:44.780
Thank you so much for sharing. Thank you. You're welcome. Jennifer, I'm excited to

1243
01:34:44.780 --> 01:34:46.540
get to you. What's your question?

1244
01:34:47.540 --> 01:34:50.220
You're excited. I am excited.

1245
01:34:52.980 --> 01:34:59.020
I feel like some of it is, like weaved from what I've been listening to and

1246
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:04.520
sort of a little bit already because one of the things I'm noticing too with with this

1247
01:35:04.520 --> 01:35:13.800
new revealing of the inadequacy piece and then realizing how because I was reading your

1248
01:35:13.800 --> 01:35:20.000
your reply on my iPad as I've been listening because I felt the same thing where it definitely

1249
01:35:20.000 --> 01:35:25.160
has different roots from the abandonment of my dad to the bullying of school and then

1250
01:35:25.160 --> 01:35:31.480
the alopecia and all that but then like where you said you know he may want to just focus

1251
01:35:31.480 --> 01:35:36.640
on my identity right now but then I've also noticed even like through heart work still

1252
01:35:36.640 --> 01:35:42.880
feeling that tension of but but I want to find this person how do I hold the tension

1253
01:35:42.880 --> 01:35:53.240
of you know being in this part of the season where like one of the questions I ask is you

1254
01:35:53.240 --> 01:35:57.440
know well how many more tears do I have to cry before I reach the harvest when does the

1255
01:35:57.440 --> 01:36:07.120
tears stop for the harvest to come so my question is you know how what is the best way to still

1256
01:36:07.120 --> 01:36:12.000
I guess carry that tension to where I feel the longing getting stronger and I'm still

1257
01:36:12.000 --> 01:36:19.520
seeing nothing but but then it's layered with you know I don't feel called to do online

1258
01:36:19.520 --> 01:36:25.000
dating I never have yeah and then even in this moment sometimes I think about it I still

1259
01:36:25.000 --> 01:36:30.640
feel it's a no and I'm like okay but is that really God or is that me because of fear but

1260
01:36:30.640 --> 01:36:34.440
then I I really because sometimes I've had a moment where I'm like well maybe I should

1261
01:36:34.440 --> 01:36:40.600
just step out again and try it but then I just feel something on the inside of me so

1262
01:36:40.600 --> 01:36:45.320
I'm not sure I'm still trying to discern if that's just God having me sit for a little

1263
01:36:45.320 --> 01:36:52.200
bit more and then holding that tension and then versus you know it's you know feeling

1264
01:36:52.200 --> 01:36:55.720
that long and getting stronger I don't know if it's making sense at all I think I'm right

1265
01:36:55.720 --> 01:37:01.120
no you're making you are making absolute sense absolutely I think a lot of people relating to

1266
01:37:01.120 --> 01:37:09.880
that like I I am definitely relating to so much of what you shared in this process because when

1267
01:37:10.040 --> 01:37:16.960
I've been here too that you know this tension like I just want this and especially when you

1268
01:37:16.960 --> 01:37:24.680
said like Lord how many more tears do I have to shed to get this harvest mm-hmm like I you know

1269
01:37:24.680 --> 01:37:35.320
I remember just sitting and just crying heartbroken yeah heartbroken I mean I had a young

1270
01:37:35.320 --> 01:37:40.680
you know son and there were just times like I couldn't even hide it from him like mommy you

1271
01:37:40.680 --> 01:37:48.120
know why are you crying and I'm like cuz I I just I know God's promised a husband for your mom and

1272
01:37:48.120 --> 01:37:54.360
and I know like you want a dad I just I'm feeling discouraged I feel like when's God's gonna show

1273
01:37:54.360 --> 01:38:01.400
up I mean I would be honest with my son yeah I've been realizing too there's still discouragement as

1274
01:38:01.400 --> 01:38:09.480
well since I since I have not had there like almost very little dating experience with no

1275
01:38:09.480 --> 01:38:15.080
relationship experience so it's it's still realizing well I think I'm still discouraged

1276
01:38:15.080 --> 01:38:23.440
by it too yeah I still think and that's okay um I would love to say oh like that just gets lifted

1277
01:38:23.440 --> 01:38:31.000
no yeah man I could have if I could have literally I mean I almost wish I journaled through I mean

1278
01:38:31.960 --> 01:38:38.200
we did a lot of live videos because we didn't have this app we actually had Facebook and so

1279
01:38:38.200 --> 01:38:43.480
we would just go live in Facebook and so now it's like Facebook has erased all of our videos and so

1280
01:38:44.760 --> 01:38:51.400
I'm sad that I can't go back and watch me processing through all of this but man if

1281
01:38:51.400 --> 01:38:57.160
there was a way that I could have captured that and been able to invite you ladies in

1282
01:38:57.160 --> 01:39:05.320
that journey with me I would I mean that's always my heart um as a coach um is being able to

1283
01:39:07.080 --> 01:39:17.320
take my walk and and pour that back into y'all and and there's just so many I mean

1284
01:39:18.520 --> 01:39:25.000
right before I met my husband even like I was done I was like I don't want to do this anymore

1285
01:39:25.000 --> 01:39:30.040
I mean our our group was much smaller than what it is now and so you know I had you know

1286
01:39:31.080 --> 01:39:36.360
had been talking with Jackie and and Jackie had to hunt me down basically and I was just like

1287
01:39:36.360 --> 01:39:44.600
Jackie I'm so done with this like she knew the discouragement was strong and I I feel sometimes

1288
01:39:44.600 --> 01:39:56.120
too like like I still feel like I'm not excited or hopeful even though I've been

1289
01:39:56.120 --> 01:39:59.800
working and progressing like even with the therapy outside of this before I joined

1290
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:05.440
program. It's just, I still sense that too. It's like, why am I not excited? People say,

1291
01:40:05.440 --> 01:40:11.600
get excited for what the Lord's doing. I'm good. Just right here. Yeah. Well, well, and I mean,

1292
01:40:11.600 --> 01:40:17.360
I'm going to ask you, is there fear of that excitement? Because are you afraid? Like,

1293
01:40:17.360 --> 01:40:21.360
I don't want to get excited for something because I don't know if it's going to happen. Do you still

1294
01:40:22.160 --> 01:40:26.640
think that there's a, I don't deny that. Cause I still struggle with that too. Cause I even

1295
01:40:26.640 --> 01:40:32.560
talk about that in therapy sometimes. Cause when I like with each year that has passed,

1296
01:40:32.560 --> 01:40:36.720
if I'm going to be 40 in February and I'm still single, it's like, yeah,

1297
01:40:37.440 --> 01:40:43.360
I don't know how to get excited. Yeah, girl. That was, that was, that was me. I was like

1298
01:40:44.080 --> 01:40:49.120
40. Like I didn't think it was going to happen. And I was finally like,

1299
01:40:50.080 --> 01:40:58.880
I'm done. I'm given up on this. And the things that when you were sharing your questions and

1300
01:40:58.880 --> 01:41:09.120
things that I wrote down, um, surrender. Yeah. And I wish there was a practical way of just

1301
01:41:09.120 --> 01:41:17.520
showing, like telling you this is how you surrender. Um, it looks differently for everybody.

1302
01:41:17.680 --> 01:41:23.040
It's a daily walk. It really is. It is a, like when we talk about supernatural surrender,

1303
01:41:23.040 --> 01:41:28.000
it is a supernatural center surrender. Like there's some things that you can't like,

1304
01:41:28.000 --> 01:41:34.560
you can't do in your own, like there's, you can do your natural and God's got to put a super on it.

1305
01:41:35.120 --> 01:41:40.000
Does that make sense? Yeah. And so I'm hearing that I'm also, um,

1306
01:41:40.160 --> 01:41:46.080
again, going back to that, how many more tears do I have to shed in order to get that harvest?

1307
01:41:46.080 --> 01:41:53.200
Um, that really resonated with me because, and what I really felt the Lord highlight when you

1308
01:41:53.200 --> 01:42:03.040
were saying that, and that I recall, um, in my journey and my walk and my testimony. Um,

1309
01:42:03.520 --> 01:42:07.520
and I hope this gives encouragement to you and other ladies. Um,

1310
01:42:13.120 --> 01:42:21.280
when things are planted, what do plants need in order to grow water?

1311
01:42:22.720 --> 01:42:24.080
Where do you think those come from?

1312
01:42:28.160 --> 01:42:31.440
Where do you think that comes from in our, our own walk in our own journey?

1313
01:42:34.000 --> 01:42:38.400
Um, our tears, your tears. And so

1314
01:42:43.360 --> 01:42:49.520
I know, I just, I so know how you're just like, I don't know how many more tears I can shed,

1315
01:42:50.640 --> 01:42:55.360
but if I can just encourage you that if there's more tears that you're shedding,

1316
01:42:56.240 --> 01:42:57.840
know that they're being put to use.

1317
01:43:01.680 --> 01:43:07.520
That it actually requires a lot of water, a lot of nourishment, a lot of sunlight

1318
01:43:08.800 --> 01:43:20.880
in order to get that abundant harvest. You want the water. Some plants actually need a lot of water

1319
01:43:21.520 --> 01:43:31.600
in order to be as fruitful and abundant. And so I wish that was a more encouraging response.

1320
01:43:33.360 --> 01:43:45.040
Um, but what I will say is it's testimonies like yours that are really impactful to the kingdom.

1321
01:43:45.920 --> 01:43:55.600
God will use all of it. And it just really highlights again, to me, what I shared with you

1322
01:43:55.600 --> 01:44:04.000
about the roots and that pressure that when all that pressure, it's kind of like closing off that

1323
01:44:04.000 --> 01:44:08.560
road. Like if you think about a hose, like a garden hose, if there's so much pressure on it,

1324
01:44:09.520 --> 01:44:15.520
like no water's coming through. When you start releasing, when you start lifting all of that

1325
01:44:15.520 --> 01:44:22.080
pressure and then untangling the hose from all the kinks that are in it, all those,

1326
01:44:24.160 --> 01:44:29.280
all those lies and all those, you know, hurts and those wounds that have happened through the years.

1327
01:44:29.280 --> 01:44:36.000
And once God starts revealing and starts like showing you those things. And again, I say this

1328
01:44:36.000 --> 01:44:46.080
because, um, and I share this at the beginning is we think it's taking a really long time

1329
01:44:46.080 --> 01:44:52.080
and we feel like, but it needs to happen faster, but it's in the slowness of actually having to

1330
01:44:52.080 --> 01:44:58.480
work out all the kinks and, and to relieve all that pressure. Because once, once that last kink

1331
01:44:58.480 --> 01:44:59.760
is out of the hose.

1332
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:02.000
It's like waterfall.

1333
01:45:02.000 --> 01:45:03.000
Mm-hmm.

1334
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And once all that pressure starts coming off

1335
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and God starts really revealing

1336
01:45:08.000 --> 01:45:14.000
and all of the roots are actually able to access the source

1337
01:45:14.000 --> 01:45:17.000
and hang on to those truths,

1338
01:45:17.000 --> 01:45:22.000
the process might feel like it's taking a really long time,

1339
01:45:22.000 --> 01:45:27.000
but I really feel

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like the word that has been over this movement

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since I've been in this program with the exhilaration

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and that that can be part of your story too.

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That it might feel like it's not going fast,

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but if you just sit with the Lord

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and really practice that supernatural surrender

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and get that like you've done such a beautiful job

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of just being so vulnerable

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and being so open here in community.

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And as you do that,

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I think it really is inviting so much more healing.

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I've seen a huge difference.

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I've seen a real growth.

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And once all of that pressure comes off,

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I think it's, I mean, that flower that I was talking about.

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Yeah.

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Girl, like it is going to blossom so beautifully

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and the fragrance that's going to come off of it.

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I mean, you are going to impact so many people with your story.

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And so when you have those tears,

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hold on to the truth.

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Like when, you know, go through the heartwork process.

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What lie am I believing?

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And Lord, what do you say?

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Okay.

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My tears say that this is never going to happen.

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I'm discouraged.

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No, no, no, no, Lord.

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I'm going to start partnering with you in a line in your word.

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You don't let anything go unused.

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Every tear that I shed,

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you are going to use for the garden of my love story.

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And so, yeah, I might be crying right now, Lord, but Lord,

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let the tears come, let them flow.

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Because the more, more tears that I cry,

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the more water that gets put on this seed and this plant and,

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and the more tears that happen, you know what?

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The bigger and the more fragrant, fragrant, my flower,

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like it's going to just explode.

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It's sitting in those moments and saying, you know what?

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You're right. God, I am in a place of discouragement right now.

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And we ladies,

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we can come to the Lord and be completely real and honest with them,

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with our feelings.

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I don't want you ladies to think like you're doing something wrong.

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If you're discouraged.

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What David did in Psalms. It's like his personal journal. Yeah.

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Ladies, we're, we're going to experience discouragement.

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The thing is, is when we embrace.

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That even in our discouragement,

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we have a father that we get to go to and literally lay it at his feet

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and he hears us and he loves us and he sees us and he doesn't waste

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anything.

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And so I would love, like I said, I would love to say like,

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Oh, like it just goes away.

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And here's the perfect thing that you need to do.

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I wish it was that easy, but if it was, it wouldn't be this,

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it wouldn't be as worth it.

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It wouldn't. And I like, I think I share this maybe even last week,

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like how.

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I started,

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especially after coming in to this community, being a coach.

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It could have been really easy for me to get really bitter and resentful

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01:49:02.000 --> 01:49:06.000
of like the long process that it took for me to find my spirit mate.

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And I,

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God began to show me gratitude in the,

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in the struggle and the journey because he used that to call me to

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something higher

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and to a bigger purpose.

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And that is to

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share my testimony,

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to give hope and encouragement.

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And had I not gone through the hard seasons,

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he couldn't have used me

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to help others.

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And so he had a bigger purpose.

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He used me to do something for him,

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to help others.

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And so he had a bigger purpose that he's like, well, Carla, I don't.

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I know you don't like to feel the pain right now, but Carla, I promise you, this pain is

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actually going to be used for my kingdom and it's going to call you to something higher

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and it's not going to be about you.

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It's going to be about bringing people to me and bringing people into the kingdom and

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showing people what it is to have relationship with me and what that looks like, what supernatural

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01:50:23.300 --> 01:50:28.540
surrender looks like, what partnering with the Lord looks like, even in those seasons

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where it feels bare and like nothing's growing.

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He's like, I'm going to take those ashes and I'm going to turn them into something beautiful.

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But we're with you.

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We are right here with you and just keep sharing, keep coming with the vulnerability, keep coming

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01:51:00.020 --> 01:51:05.580
and keep showing up with what you're going through because Jennifer, I think it's leading

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a lot of other ladies in this community to break through as well.

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And the celebration that we're all going to get to experience with your love story is

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just going to make it all that more sweeter.

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01:51:21.480 --> 01:51:23.520
That fruit is going to be so sweet.

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That'll be nice.

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And I'm going to share this and I know I'm kind of over on time here.

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I'm going to share this because this just came into my spirit.

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Thank you, Jesus.

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The reason my story had to be so hard is because I had to get to this moment where I had Jackie

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01:51:48.240 --> 01:51:53.320
tell me, Carla, I know you don't have the faith and the hope and stuff, but she's like,

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01:51:53.320 --> 01:51:56.440
borrow my faith.

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01:51:56.440 --> 01:51:57.600
I had none.

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01:51:57.600 --> 01:52:02.600
I mean, I had very little.

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01:52:02.600 --> 01:52:14.240
And I carry that moment when she shared that with me over three years ago.

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01:52:14.240 --> 01:52:19.360
And I actually, I know Laura is not on here, but she was at the retreat last year in Austin.

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01:52:19.360 --> 01:52:37.320
I shared this with the ladies at the Airbnb that the reason, the reason that I'm thankful

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is because Jackie allowed me to borrow her faith so that I could let others borrow my

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01:52:47.440 --> 01:52:53.480
faith for them.

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01:52:53.480 --> 01:53:04.000
And so you borrow my faith for you, Jennifer, how do you do that?

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01:53:04.000 --> 01:53:11.760
You show up every day, one day at a time, get in the word, speak his word over your

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life.

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01:53:13.240 --> 01:53:14.240
Get honest with him.

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01:53:14.680 --> 01:53:23.520
You do not have to deny the discouragement and the pain, go to him with your tears, sit

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01:53:23.520 --> 01:53:41.640
with him, let him reveal himself to you, and then ask him to start showing you how he sees

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01:53:41.640 --> 01:53:47.880
you.

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01:53:47.880 --> 01:53:53.320
And you've got this community that's, we're not, we're not letting you, we're not letting

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01:53:53.320 --> 01:53:55.760
you fall.

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01:53:55.760 --> 01:53:56.760
We're here.

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01:53:56.760 --> 01:53:58.940
You have us to lean on.

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01:53:58.940 --> 01:54:03.840
That's what makes this community so special.

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We get to do it together.

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We need community.

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It's got what God has created us for, this relationship and community.

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01:54:15.040 --> 01:54:20.400
We're here to pray you through those hard times when you feel like I, like I have nothing

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01:54:20.400 --> 01:54:26.600
else left to give, well, let us bear those burdens for you.

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Let us go pray in the spirit for you.

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Like I was very blessed last week when you shared and I got to spend time with the Lord

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and like he revealed so many things and, and the things that he revealed to me was a blessing

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to me too.

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And I was like, okay, I'm going to give this to her, but I'm like, I was thankful because

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I felt like the Lord gave me something too.

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So I just, yeah, just, just know you're not alone.

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Okay.

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I know that breakthrough is coming.

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coming even in these seasons and all will be restored nothing is wasted in the kingdom

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okay okay all right ladies thank you so much i appreciate you all um definitely hop on

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01:55:20.960 --> 01:55:28.160
uh ebony's call tonight if you can um if you didn't get to watch last week's uh replay

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01:55:28.160 --> 01:55:33.440
definitely check that out or if you were at ebony's and whatever just be wherever god is

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01:55:33.440 --> 01:55:38.080
leading you to watch replays definitely do that so i'm gonna close this out real quick in prayer

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so heavenly father i just thank you for all that you're doing in this community lord thank you for

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01:55:45.520 --> 01:55:51.680
reminding us to continue to partner with you that we don't have to strive that we don't have to

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01:55:51.680 --> 01:55:59.680
carry burdens um that we can hand them to you that we actually get to lean on each other we

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01:55:59.680 --> 01:56:05.840
get to carry each other's burdens um you don't ask us to carry it alone lord i just ask that

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01:56:05.840 --> 01:56:12.400
you continue to reveal places where we've been been striving and climbing these broken stairs

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01:56:12.400 --> 01:56:18.640
and broken escalators um and just continue to keep inviting us to step into your grace father

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01:56:19.280 --> 01:56:23.920
step into your kingdom and that kingdom can be here on earth as it is in heaven father

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01:56:24.880 --> 01:56:31.360
teach us to recognize your voice over any fears um that we don't have to rely on ourselves that

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we can trust in you um that there's no anxiousness in your kingdom lord but there's just peace

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01:56:38.880 --> 01:56:45.840
um and understanding and wisdom and and just goodness lord um just continue

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to highlight each and every single woman on this calls identity

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01:56:54.560 --> 01:57:00.240
that it's not found in dating it's not found in waiting and it's not found in marriage either lord

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01:57:00.240 --> 01:57:10.640
it's found in you it's found in the fact that we are beloved daughters of you who is king and we

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01:57:10.640 --> 01:57:17.680
can accept your inheritance and all the goodness that comes with being the daughter to a king

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father lord i thank you for your kindness i thank you for your leadership i thank you for your

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01:57:22.560 --> 01:57:30.080
wisdom i thank you for your love and your grace and your mercy lord i just continue to walk in

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this this stories in each one of these stories lord and we just give it all to you in jesus name

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amen all right ladies um have a wonderful tuesday and i'll see you next week