WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:12.800 All right, family, are we happening? 2 00:00:12.800 --> 00:00:15.680 I think we must be about live now. 3 00:00:15.680 --> 00:00:16.680 Yeah. 4 00:00:16.680 --> 00:00:17.680 We're rocking. 5 00:00:17.680 --> 00:00:24.440 It is happening, it is on session number 14. 6 00:00:24.440 --> 00:00:25.440 This is wild. 7 00:00:25.440 --> 00:00:28.520 We are nearly halfway in the Kingdom Business Summit. 8 00:00:28.520 --> 00:00:31.880 Seb, how are you feeling? 9 00:00:31.880 --> 00:00:34.080 I'm doing great, I'm doing great. 10 00:00:34.080 --> 00:00:43.280 My office where I'm sitting, the sun rises behind me, but then it sets right in front 11 00:00:43.280 --> 00:00:44.280 of me. 12 00:00:44.280 --> 00:00:50.280 So the sun is about to get to that point where it's going to be streaming on my face, vitamin 13 00:00:50.280 --> 00:00:51.280 D on my face. 14 00:00:51.280 --> 00:00:53.480 I am excited about that. 15 00:00:53.480 --> 00:00:55.040 That is very cool. 16 00:00:55.040 --> 00:01:04.080 But we are outrageously honored with all the beautiful people that we've had on this journey. 17 00:01:04.080 --> 00:01:13.400 And it's so precious and special for us to be able to host Marina with us today, someone 18 00:01:13.400 --> 00:01:21.600 who we've had just such beautiful adventures together around the world and deep journeys 19 00:01:21.600 --> 00:01:24.560 into God. 20 00:01:24.560 --> 00:01:32.200 We lived in the same town together for a bunch of times, for several years, building ministry 21 00:01:32.200 --> 00:01:38.920 together and leading missions together and dreaming together and taking outrageous risks 22 00:01:38.920 --> 00:01:42.320 and seeing God come through with amazing breakthroughs. 23 00:01:42.320 --> 00:01:49.200 And it really is an honor and delight to welcome you, Marina, to be sharing with us today. 24 00:01:49.200 --> 00:01:50.200 Thank you. 25 00:01:50.200 --> 00:01:51.200 Thank you, Benji. 26 00:01:51.800 --> 00:01:57.760 It's such an honor to be here, to connect with all of you guys. 27 00:01:57.760 --> 00:02:09.960 Something that I've always loved and appreciated about who you are, Marina, is your capacity 28 00:02:09.960 --> 00:02:17.720 to embrace the process of the renewing of your mind. 29 00:02:17.720 --> 00:02:28.640 It's like poetry in motion when someone masters a principle from heaven. 30 00:02:28.640 --> 00:02:34.480 And seeing you mastering this process of the renewing of your mind, it really has been 31 00:02:34.480 --> 00:02:35.480 like that. 32 00:02:35.480 --> 00:02:40.440 It's been like poetry in motion watching it because you see your life and how it's like 33 00:02:40.440 --> 00:02:48.080 the journey that it's come on and the beauty that you carry and the beauty that you radiate 34 00:02:48.080 --> 00:02:49.080 is just so beautiful. 35 00:02:49.080 --> 00:02:54.920 I think that when people see the atmosphere that you carry, the goodness and the light 36 00:02:54.920 --> 00:03:02.000 that you radiate all around you, they would never be able to imagine where your journey 37 00:03:02.000 --> 00:03:08.160 began or what you've walked through in your life because you're just radiating the atmosphere 38 00:03:08.160 --> 00:03:09.160 of heaven. 39 00:03:09.160 --> 00:03:13.400 And I'm so excited to hear your story and so delighted for people to be able to connect 40 00:03:13.400 --> 00:03:14.400 with you more. 41 00:03:14.400 --> 00:03:15.400 Thank you. 42 00:03:15.400 --> 00:03:16.400 Thank you. 43 00:03:16.400 --> 00:03:22.080 And I've had that actually said before that people would come and say, there is no way 44 00:03:22.080 --> 00:03:23.760 you've been through that. 45 00:03:23.760 --> 00:03:27.240 How can you even share that without weeping your eyes out? 46 00:03:27.240 --> 00:03:34.440 And that's the transformational and empowering healing of Jesus. 47 00:03:34.440 --> 00:03:36.840 He's the only one who can do that. 48 00:03:37.520 --> 00:03:39.160 Thank you for all your encouraging words. 49 00:03:39.160 --> 00:03:46.800 You're always, always, as long as I've known you, never heard a bad word towards myself 50 00:03:46.800 --> 00:03:47.800 or other people. 51 00:03:47.800 --> 00:03:49.800 It's been always very, very encouraging. 52 00:03:49.800 --> 00:03:50.800 Thank you, Benji. 53 00:03:50.800 --> 00:03:51.800 Thank you. 54 00:03:51.800 --> 00:03:52.800 Oh, thanks so much. 55 00:03:52.800 --> 00:04:02.640 Well, how about you pray for us now and then we are going to jump into a really powerful 56 00:04:02.640 --> 00:04:03.640 story. 57 00:04:03.640 --> 00:04:05.080 So everyone, brace yourself. 58 00:04:05.080 --> 00:04:11.680 This is going to be a roller coaster of goodness and chaos and redemption. 59 00:04:11.680 --> 00:04:18.640 And you're going to see just the power of just the redeeming power of Jesus at work 60 00:04:18.640 --> 00:04:19.640 in this story. 61 00:04:19.640 --> 00:04:22.400 So Marina, why don't you take it away? 62 00:04:22.400 --> 00:04:23.400 Thank you. 63 00:04:23.400 --> 00:04:24.400 Yes. 64 00:04:24.400 --> 00:04:32.400 Well, I bless you, everyone who is connected and everyone who's going to watch later. 65 00:04:32.400 --> 00:04:40.200 I bless you with certainty and faith in the powerful name of Yeshua HaMashiach, Lord, 66 00:04:40.200 --> 00:04:45.680 King of Kings and Elohim of Elohim, Jesus Christ bless you with faith. 67 00:04:45.680 --> 00:04:52.800 May God reveal to you everything you need to know to come into the fullness of who you 68 00:04:52.800 --> 00:04:55.920 created to be. 69 00:04:55.920 --> 00:05:00.040 May he bless you with the blessings that reveal. 70 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:09.560 His true nature. His character. I bless your soul. I bless your spirit. I bless your mind. 71 00:05:09.560 --> 00:05:18.200 I bless your body. I bless your family. I bless your home. I bless your town. I bless 72 00:05:18.200 --> 00:05:27.800 the country that you live in. May God reveal to you the depth of His love for you. May 73 00:05:27.800 --> 00:05:39.200 He plant the seed of truth in your spirit that will deliver you. May He reveal to you 74 00:05:39.200 --> 00:05:49.400 the true nature of who He is, the good, good Papa. I bless you in the name of Yeshua HaMashiach. 75 00:05:49.400 --> 00:05:56.840 And I decree and declare abundance in every sphere of your life, in your finances, in 76 00:05:56.840 --> 00:06:02.440 your relationships, in your marriage, in your relationships with your children. I bless 77 00:06:02.440 --> 00:06:13.040 you. And I seal that with the name of Yeshua HaMashiach. Thank you, Abba. Thank you, Yeshua, 78 00:06:13.040 --> 00:06:23.440 your good, good Papa. Your good Papa will love you. We delight in you. 79 00:06:23.440 --> 00:06:35.800 Wow. Good. So good. I love it. I love it. I love it. It's amazing. I, you know, I, I've 80 00:06:35.800 --> 00:06:41.280 heard a lot, a little bit about your story. And I've heard the, you know, some of the 81 00:06:41.280 --> 00:06:46.080 impacts of the journey that you've been on. And I'm sure we'll, we'll, we'll get into 82 00:06:46.080 --> 00:06:53.880 the detail. But the, you know, we're in this Kingdom Business Summit. And, you know, one 83 00:06:53.880 --> 00:07:00.600 of the themes that's been so prevalent through this whole thing is that the world is going 84 00:07:00.600 --> 00:07:10.320 a little crazy. And the global financial markets are doing crazy things. Inflation here in 85 00:07:10.320 --> 00:07:18.120 the US and in New Zealand is rocking around like 7%. And, which is crazy. You know, it's 86 00:07:18.120 --> 00:07:24.760 a high for us for a while. And I know inflation had a huge, huge impact on your journey, and 87 00:07:24.760 --> 00:07:29.040 your childhood as well. And I'd love for you to just speak to that the impact of inflation, 88 00:07:29.040 --> 00:07:36.720 the impact of government overreach and inside these dynamics, how's that been? How have 89 00:07:36.720 --> 00:07:41.280 you navigated that? What happened? And start us off there. And maybe we could go further 90 00:07:41.280 --> 00:07:42.280 from there. 91 00:07:42.280 --> 00:07:47.000 Oh, we'll definitely go further from there. But I want to start with one of my... 92 00:07:47.000 --> 00:07:51.440 Oh, hey, I'm just, I'm just going to interrupt there. Just so we've got lots of people saying 93 00:07:51.440 --> 00:07:57.160 hello, and thanks for your beautiful prayer. So everyone, great to be with you. And if 94 00:07:57.160 --> 00:08:01.360 you haven't yet say hi to Marina, whether in the right now or in the future, just say 95 00:08:01.360 --> 00:08:05.600 hi. So yeah, lots of people saying hi, and they love you. And thanks for your prayer. 96 00:08:05.600 --> 00:08:11.000 Thanks. I just wanted to let you know, people are excited and checking with us. 97 00:08:11.000 --> 00:08:17.480 Hi, guys. And I want to start with one of my favorite quotes that says that in life 98 00:08:17.480 --> 00:08:26.600 more often than not, the greatest pain becomes the greatest strength that empowers us to 99 00:08:26.600 --> 00:08:32.240 serve others. Now repeat that in life more often than not, the greatest pain will become 100 00:08:32.280 --> 00:08:38.320 the greatest strength that will empower us to serve others. And I've seen that in my 101 00:08:38.320 --> 00:08:47.280 life. I've seen that in so many of my friends' lives. And that's very empowering to know 102 00:08:47.280 --> 00:08:53.120 that your past does not equal your present or even your future. Right. And also Isaiah 103 00:08:53.120 --> 00:08:59.360 64, that's been like a cornerstone for me. No eyes have seen and no ears have heard what 104 00:08:59.520 --> 00:09:07.920 prepared for those who wait on him or another translation says, who loves him, you know, 105 00:09:07.920 --> 00:09:14.880 or another translation says, God will work on your behalf, as you wait for him as you 106 00:09:14.880 --> 00:09:21.600 love him. And that's become such an evident, evident truth in my life that back when I 107 00:09:21.600 --> 00:09:28.720 did not even have capacity to dream and lived in such deep poverty and brokenness and, and 108 00:09:28.720 --> 00:09:36.960 pain to now, where not only there's been such a transformational healing in my life, but 109 00:09:36.960 --> 00:09:45.600 also Jesus empowered me to serve others. And that's been an incredible journey. And I will 110 00:09:45.600 --> 00:09:53.120 take you on, you know, I will share with you some of the horrific realities of inflation and poverty, 111 00:09:53.120 --> 00:09:59.840 but not for not so we dwell on it and not so we feel pity, you know, or necessary source. 112 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:02.800 sadness because that's a reality for so many people. 113 00:10:02.800 --> 00:10:07.200 But the reason I share that it's to testify 114 00:10:07.200 --> 00:10:13.960 of the empowering transformational love of Jesus 115 00:10:13.960 --> 00:10:17.160 because he's the only one who can take someone 116 00:10:17.160 --> 00:10:26.440 in communistic and Muslim, very crazy, environment and poverty 117 00:10:26.440 --> 00:10:29.200 and to bring care to the place of empowerment. 118 00:10:29.200 --> 00:10:31.960 So just to reiterate, I will take 119 00:10:31.960 --> 00:10:36.200 you on the journey of there is realities, broken realities, 120 00:10:36.200 --> 00:10:42.800 but we will come to now where what Jesus have done. 121 00:10:42.800 --> 00:10:46.000 So back to your question, Seth, I 122 00:10:46.000 --> 00:10:47.640 wouldn't even know where to begin, 123 00:10:47.640 --> 00:10:50.840 but I feel like I need to just talk 124 00:10:50.840 --> 00:10:53.200 a little bit about the cycles of brokenness 125 00:10:53.200 --> 00:10:57.480 because very often when we look at the life of one person, 126 00:10:57.480 --> 00:11:00.560 you can trace it to so many generations 127 00:11:00.560 --> 00:11:02.320 in that cycle of brokenness. 128 00:11:02.320 --> 00:11:09.080 And at least the cycle is broken by this cycle of love. 129 00:11:09.080 --> 00:11:11.200 It's curious to generations and generations. 130 00:11:11.200 --> 00:11:15.840 And that's when I look even back to my grandma, 131 00:11:15.840 --> 00:11:18.280 and she grew up in an orphanage. 132 00:11:18.280 --> 00:11:21.400 And she was the only survivor of nine children. 133 00:11:21.400 --> 00:11:24.520 So when she, I'm going to just fast forward, 134 00:11:24.560 --> 00:11:31.120 when she ended up in orphanage, and that's during the war, 135 00:11:31.120 --> 00:11:34.360 when she came out, none of her siblings were around 136 00:11:34.360 --> 00:11:39.280 and none of her parents or grandparents, everyone perished 137 00:11:39.280 --> 00:11:41.520 and she couldn't find anyone. 138 00:11:41.520 --> 00:11:43.320 And that's on my maternal side. 139 00:11:43.320 --> 00:11:45.800 I don't know much about my father's side 140 00:11:45.800 --> 00:11:50.040 other than they are descended from Persia, from Iran. 141 00:11:50.040 --> 00:11:54.080 So then fast forward, she marries, 142 00:11:54.080 --> 00:11:55.880 she had four children. 143 00:11:55.880 --> 00:11:58.800 Her husband was very abusive. 144 00:11:58.800 --> 00:12:01.160 She was brutally abusive, actually. 145 00:12:01.160 --> 00:12:04.040 Like he would pour hot water over her, beat her up, 146 00:12:04.040 --> 00:12:06.560 just insane stuff, right? 147 00:12:06.560 --> 00:12:09.560 And she ended up living on the streets with four children. 148 00:12:09.560 --> 00:12:12.760 And my oldest child, my aunt, 149 00:12:12.760 --> 00:12:17.920 she used to tell me stories how they would sit 150 00:12:17.920 --> 00:12:19.680 at Russian Orthodox churches, 151 00:12:19.680 --> 00:12:22.640 and that's back in Tajikistan, and beg. 152 00:12:22.640 --> 00:12:24.960 And sometimes people would give some food or clothing, 153 00:12:24.960 --> 00:12:26.760 and sometimes people would take them in as well. 154 00:12:26.760 --> 00:12:31.120 So by now she would have four girls, four little children. 155 00:12:31.120 --> 00:12:33.760 And when people would take them in for a little bit, 156 00:12:33.760 --> 00:12:37.280 then they will kick them out 157 00:12:37.280 --> 00:12:41.040 because taking care of mom with four little children, 158 00:12:41.040 --> 00:12:42.440 that's a challenge. 159 00:12:42.440 --> 00:12:46.800 And at some point she was living with the elderly. 160 00:12:48.360 --> 00:12:50.600 I'm probably diversing a little bit from your questions, 161 00:12:50.600 --> 00:12:52.320 but I feel like I need to share that. 162 00:12:53.000 --> 00:12:57.080 To live with an elderly lady with four kids. 163 00:12:57.080 --> 00:13:01.080 And the time came where the lady asked her to leave again. 164 00:13:01.080 --> 00:13:02.920 They got in an argument and a fight. 165 00:13:02.920 --> 00:13:07.240 My grandma hit her and the lady died. 166 00:13:07.240 --> 00:13:09.640 So grandma went to the prison 167 00:13:09.640 --> 00:13:13.400 and four little children went into orphanages. 168 00:13:13.400 --> 00:13:16.360 This whole orphanage thing is like, it's a pattern. 169 00:13:16.360 --> 00:13:18.800 It used to be a pattern and cycles of this, 170 00:13:18.800 --> 00:13:21.520 of this sweet thing, you know, brokenness. 171 00:13:21.520 --> 00:13:23.280 So all kids goes into orphanages. 172 00:13:23.280 --> 00:13:26.080 Now I'm gonna go back to my mom. 173 00:13:26.080 --> 00:13:26.960 So she comes out. 174 00:13:26.960 --> 00:13:30.000 She'd been abused since she was a little kid, 175 00:13:30.000 --> 00:13:31.720 sexually abused, physically abused, 176 00:13:31.720 --> 00:13:35.800 and ended up marrying my dad, 18 years older than her, 177 00:13:35.800 --> 00:13:37.720 had me and my sister, 178 00:13:37.720 --> 00:13:41.160 and then ends up living that toxic relationship 179 00:13:41.160 --> 00:13:43.600 and remarrying again and having my brother. 180 00:13:43.600 --> 00:13:47.480 So now she has three children, little children, 181 00:13:47.960 --> 00:13:51.680 and then my stepdad ends up in the prison. 182 00:13:51.680 --> 00:13:56.680 And at the same time, the Soviet Union collapses. 183 00:13:58.040 --> 00:14:01.320 And probably a lot of, you know- 184 00:14:01.320 --> 00:14:05.080 Just to clarify for people, like where were you born? 185 00:14:05.080 --> 00:14:06.240 Where did you grow up? 186 00:14:07.160 --> 00:14:08.320 Oh, I omitted that. 187 00:14:08.320 --> 00:14:11.440 That's probably a very important part. 188 00:14:11.440 --> 00:14:12.760 Tajikistan. 189 00:14:12.760 --> 00:14:14.720 So that's where I am. 190 00:14:14.720 --> 00:14:16.840 Help us track and where's, yeah, yeah. 191 00:14:17.200 --> 00:14:18.040 I think that's where you were going, 192 00:14:18.040 --> 00:14:20.000 but where is Tajikistan? 193 00:14:20.000 --> 00:14:22.800 It's West of China, North of Afghanistan. 194 00:14:22.800 --> 00:14:23.640 It's inland. 195 00:14:23.640 --> 00:14:25.520 And you've heard probably of all the stunts, 196 00:14:25.520 --> 00:14:27.920 especially recently, Afghanistan in the news, 197 00:14:27.920 --> 00:14:29.280 Kazakhstan in the news. 198 00:14:29.280 --> 00:14:31.080 So we're right in the middle of that. 199 00:14:31.080 --> 00:14:34.280 So we'll have Uzbekistan around us, Kazakhstan, 200 00:14:34.280 --> 00:14:36.560 actually China as well, and Afghanistan. 201 00:14:36.560 --> 00:14:39.360 So those, that gives you a little bit of picture. 202 00:14:39.360 --> 00:14:42.440 So Tajikistan used to be actually Persia, 203 00:14:42.520 --> 00:14:46.840 and then the Russians came and took over 204 00:14:46.840 --> 00:14:49.720 and been in the country for over a hundred years. 205 00:14:49.720 --> 00:14:53.680 So it's quite culturally also a challenging place 206 00:14:53.680 --> 00:14:55.960 because Persians, and then, you know, 207 00:14:55.960 --> 00:14:58.160 very much influenced by Russian culture. 208 00:14:58.160 --> 00:15:00.160 So you would sometimes meet Tajiks who- 209 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:06.960 don't actually even speak Tajiks, or half who don't speak, you know, the language of the land. 210 00:15:07.920 --> 00:15:13.280 So yeah, so Soviet Union collapses, because Tajikistan was part of Soviet Union's collapses, 211 00:15:13.280 --> 00:15:18.320 and that brings cultural, economical, and political chaos. 212 00:15:20.320 --> 00:15:27.440 Absolutely, because the struggle for power, that it's a Muslim country, right, and radical Islam, 213 00:15:27.440 --> 00:15:34.560 Islamists want to take over, and put hijab on women, and bring Shia law, hardcore Shia law, 214 00:15:35.120 --> 00:15:40.320 and then there's a fight for that, plus culturally, okay, are we Tajiks, plus we have all this 215 00:15:40.880 --> 00:15:45.200 Russian influence, who we are, so then discrimination against Russian begins, 216 00:15:45.200 --> 00:15:51.280 or even, you know, pure Tajik, that begins, and of course, economically, and I was about 217 00:15:51.280 --> 00:15:56.320 seven, eight years old, we would get up early, like at three or four o'clock, and sometimes all 218 00:15:56.320 --> 00:16:00.160 night, we would stand in a queue, so we just received a small piece of bread, that's how 219 00:16:01.840 --> 00:16:07.760 we were struggling, we would get little tickets for each family, how much bread you allowed, and 220 00:16:07.760 --> 00:16:15.600 bread was so fluffy, you could just put it in a little bowl, so no flour, we were just in poverty, 221 00:16:17.200 --> 00:16:22.960 it was very, very challenging time, and of course, by then, my stepfather ended up in the prison, 222 00:16:22.960 --> 00:16:30.400 actually, he just went and stole something to feed us, right, and got caught, and now there's 223 00:16:30.400 --> 00:16:37.920 still aspects of Shia law, the punishment increases the crime by much, here in New Zealand, 224 00:16:37.920 --> 00:16:42.560 you probably just do a community service, when Tajikistan, you go to prison for years, 225 00:16:42.560 --> 00:16:49.520 so my mom left in this situation with, you know, no job, people started losing the jobs, factory 226 00:16:49.520 --> 00:16:56.320 was shutting down, people were leaving the country, especially Russians, and she loses her job, 227 00:16:57.680 --> 00:17:03.680 and my stepfather in the prison, three little kids, it was just an absolute chaos, and I just 228 00:17:03.680 --> 00:17:09.280 remember snippets of it, because I think a lot of it as a survival mechanism, I just blocked it 229 00:17:09.280 --> 00:17:16.960 to survive, and then long story short, she started drinking heavily, it amazes me how in poverty, 230 00:17:16.960 --> 00:17:21.359 you know, you might not be able to find bread, but you always find alcohol, I just, 231 00:17:22.880 --> 00:17:31.200 and she got, you know, she got involved with wrong crowds, some of them were part of 232 00:17:31.200 --> 00:17:38.160 organized gangs and mafia, and she turned into prostitution, and that was horrific, because 233 00:17:38.160 --> 00:17:45.040 actually, we lived in one bedroom, which we had just one room in the kitchen, and our home turned into 234 00:17:45.040 --> 00:17:59.200 a brothel, and for me being, by then, I probably was 10, 11, I lived in such a denial, like part of me 235 00:17:59.840 --> 00:18:07.360 seeing all this men coming in and abusing my mom, realized that something is wrong, and part of me, 236 00:18:07.360 --> 00:18:12.560 I just denied it, I was like, that can't be reality, and of course, my sister and brother 237 00:18:12.560 --> 00:18:22.160 was little, so at school, and on the streets, it's a small city, people got to know very quickly who my 238 00:18:22.160 --> 00:18:27.040 mom became, so we would be called daughter of a prostitute, or son of a prostitute, sometimes the 239 00:18:27.040 --> 00:18:32.800 boys would throw stones at us, we were constantly getting in a fight, so streets became toxic, and 240 00:18:32.800 --> 00:18:40.480 dangerous, and scary, and home was the same, my mom would drink, because of the shame and the pain, 241 00:18:40.480 --> 00:18:46.720 what she had to do, sacrifice herself, she could have sold us, and parents did that, but she 242 00:18:46.720 --> 00:18:51.920 sacrificed herself to feed us, and it wasn't even a lot of money, that's the crazy thing, we still lived 243 00:18:51.920 --> 00:18:57.600 in poverty, but that was just for us to survive, we sold pretty much everything we own, I mean, we 244 00:18:57.600 --> 00:19:04.560 didn't own a lot, but we sleep on the floors, we didn't have no beds, no couch, nothing at home, 245 00:19:05.360 --> 00:19:10.880 and sometimes she'd close us in the kitchen, and men would come into the living room, so we would 246 00:19:10.880 --> 00:19:16.880 constantly live in this environment, and I remember, I may, and actually remember the conversation, 247 00:19:16.880 --> 00:19:21.520 he looked at me, and she said, well, he said, well, she's of age, I'll give you one sheep for her, 248 00:19:22.480 --> 00:19:27.600 so that's kind of environment for lives, and of course, now that she's also drinking, 249 00:19:28.400 --> 00:19:35.520 that anger and rage that she lived with, plus all the pain from the past, started affecting 250 00:19:37.920 --> 00:19:44.720 how she treated us, so she started beating us, abusing us, so that was the reality of, you know, 251 00:19:44.720 --> 00:19:51.600 cycles of brokenness, by the time I was 12, I already tried to commit suicide twice, 252 00:19:51.600 --> 00:19:57.040 it was just darkened, and yeah, so this is just a snippet of, I'm not going to go into too much 253 00:19:57.040 --> 00:19:59.760 detail, so yeah, some of the abuse that we 254 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:04.440 experience as little kids because, yeah, too much of it. 255 00:20:04.440 --> 00:20:05.280 Yeah. 256 00:20:05.280 --> 00:20:07.520 So that's, if that's answering your question, 257 00:20:07.520 --> 00:20:09.280 that's a long answer to your question, Seth, 258 00:20:09.280 --> 00:20:14.280 how inflation poverty can and very often will affect 259 00:20:17.600 --> 00:20:21.800 the extent of to which parents will go 260 00:20:21.800 --> 00:20:24.840 to protect their children or provide for their children. 261 00:20:24.840 --> 00:20:28.000 But the thing is it didn't necessarily protect us. 262 00:20:28.000 --> 00:20:31.480 It's hurt us significantly, but people say, 263 00:20:31.480 --> 00:20:34.080 oh, well, she had a choice. 264 00:20:34.080 --> 00:20:35.680 No, she didn't have a choice. 265 00:20:35.680 --> 00:20:38.240 The other alternative would be to let us starve to death 266 00:20:38.240 --> 00:20:41.000 or to sell us, but there wasn't a lot of choice. 267 00:20:41.000 --> 00:20:41.840 Yeah. 268 00:20:41.840 --> 00:20:45.320 I mean, this is, to me, this is so key in, 269 00:20:45.320 --> 00:20:48.720 I mean, this is actually a key part of the process 270 00:20:48.720 --> 00:20:49.800 of discipling nations. 271 00:20:49.800 --> 00:20:51.240 And when we're talking kingdom business, 272 00:20:51.240 --> 00:20:54.480 sometimes people don't realize the value 273 00:20:54.480 --> 00:20:58.880 of prospering businesses, you know, 274 00:20:58.880 --> 00:21:01.760 without prospering businesses, without an economy, 275 00:21:01.760 --> 00:21:06.760 nations fall into complete collapse, economic collapse. 276 00:21:07.160 --> 00:21:10.080 And that means something for the people 277 00:21:10.080 --> 00:21:12.440 that are a part of that economy. 278 00:21:12.440 --> 00:21:17.440 So I guess that, you know, like the process, 279 00:21:19.040 --> 00:21:24.040 it really highlights the value of kingdom business. 280 00:21:24.040 --> 00:21:29.040 It really highlights that value of how critical economics is 281 00:21:31.880 --> 00:21:33.520 to the process of discipling nations. 282 00:21:33.520 --> 00:21:35.920 Because if you get that wrong, 283 00:21:35.920 --> 00:21:39.880 like the Soviet Union collapsed, when they got that wrong, 284 00:21:39.880 --> 00:21:42.000 the collateral damage was fall out 285 00:21:42.000 --> 00:21:44.400 for tens of millions of people. 286 00:21:44.400 --> 00:21:46.480 I mean, millions and millions of people 287 00:21:46.480 --> 00:21:49.040 just crashed into poverty 288 00:21:49.040 --> 00:21:51.160 because they got the economics wrong. 289 00:21:51.160 --> 00:21:54.960 So there is a lot at play here, 290 00:21:54.960 --> 00:21:59.960 and I think it should cause us to be really conscious 291 00:22:01.000 --> 00:22:03.080 and engaged with what's happening right now. 292 00:22:03.080 --> 00:22:06.720 Because we're seeing inflation rising and rising right now. 293 00:22:06.720 --> 00:22:08.200 We have to be conscious of the fact, 294 00:22:08.200 --> 00:22:12.520 okay, hey, this is a really disturbing trend. 295 00:22:12.520 --> 00:22:13.800 We've seen it in other nations. 296 00:22:13.800 --> 00:22:16.800 We've seen it in history of what this actually ends up meaning 297 00:22:16.800 --> 00:22:20.800 for individuals as things collapse around them. 298 00:22:21.440 --> 00:22:25.800 So Marina, I just want to touch a little bit more 299 00:22:25.800 --> 00:22:29.120 on just a couple of other parts of your story. 300 00:22:29.120 --> 00:22:31.760 And then I want to bring it into now 301 00:22:31.760 --> 00:22:34.280 how you're actually bringing reformation. 302 00:22:34.280 --> 00:22:37.480 Because we talked yesterday about these three principles 303 00:22:37.480 --> 00:22:41.160 of Jesus's economic training plan for us. 304 00:22:41.160 --> 00:22:45.400 One is alignment so that we have purity of heart and mind. 305 00:22:45.400 --> 00:22:47.520 You know, because if we don't have purity of heart, 306 00:22:47.520 --> 00:22:49.760 you know, then greed will rule over us 307 00:22:49.760 --> 00:22:51.880 and if we don't have, you know, 308 00:22:51.880 --> 00:22:54.240 an understanding of economics, you know, 309 00:22:54.240 --> 00:22:57.640 and economic principles, then money will rule over us 310 00:22:57.640 --> 00:22:59.400 because we just won't have any. 311 00:23:00.320 --> 00:23:01.920 You know, so money can rule over us 312 00:23:01.920 --> 00:23:03.760 either through having our, you know, 313 00:23:03.760 --> 00:23:06.240 like it becoming an idol 314 00:23:06.240 --> 00:23:08.000 or just because we simply don't have any 315 00:23:08.000 --> 00:23:09.960 and it forces us into situations 316 00:23:09.960 --> 00:23:12.160 or it just rules over us in that way. 317 00:23:12.160 --> 00:23:14.840 So money can rule over you because it, you know, 318 00:23:14.840 --> 00:23:17.360 it becomes an idol or because you just don't have anything 319 00:23:17.360 --> 00:23:18.960 and it controls you. 320 00:23:18.960 --> 00:23:20.120 So we talked about that. 321 00:23:20.120 --> 00:23:21.880 We talked about assignment 322 00:23:21.880 --> 00:23:26.320 that we have a sacred financial assignment on our lives, 323 00:23:26.320 --> 00:23:30.560 which is to steward what we've been given 324 00:23:30.560 --> 00:23:32.760 to produce multiplication. 325 00:23:32.760 --> 00:23:34.360 And then the third part is reformation. 326 00:23:34.360 --> 00:23:35.880 And what reformation is, 327 00:23:35.880 --> 00:23:38.080 is reformation, financial reformation, 328 00:23:38.080 --> 00:23:39.600 which leads to discipling nations 329 00:23:39.600 --> 00:23:42.200 actually starts on a one-on-one basis. 330 00:23:42.200 --> 00:23:43.400 It starts with me going, 331 00:23:43.400 --> 00:23:47.040 hey, how can I create opportunities 332 00:23:47.040 --> 00:23:48.960 for the people around me? 333 00:23:48.960 --> 00:23:51.600 And this to me is like actually so much 334 00:23:51.600 --> 00:23:52.920 of the heart of the kingdom, 335 00:23:52.920 --> 00:23:55.560 so much of the heart of what fathering looks like 336 00:23:55.560 --> 00:23:56.840 and sonship looks like. 337 00:23:56.840 --> 00:23:59.040 One of the things the Lord said to me in Te Ano 338 00:23:59.040 --> 00:24:02.120 is that fathers create opportunities. 339 00:24:03.440 --> 00:24:04.720 And that right there, 340 00:24:04.720 --> 00:24:07.240 that's enterprise in action. 341 00:24:07.240 --> 00:24:09.760 And that's one of the elements of reformation 342 00:24:09.760 --> 00:24:11.680 of how, you know, 343 00:24:11.680 --> 00:24:15.920 how Jesus teaches us financial wisdom 344 00:24:15.920 --> 00:24:18.640 is first, make sure you're in alignment 345 00:24:18.640 --> 00:24:20.920 and you've got a pure heart 346 00:24:20.920 --> 00:24:23.000 and you understand financial principles 347 00:24:23.000 --> 00:24:24.200 so that you're not in poverty 348 00:24:24.200 --> 00:24:27.360 and you're not serving money as an idol. 349 00:24:27.360 --> 00:24:30.680 Then understand, learn how to steward the economics 350 00:24:30.680 --> 00:24:33.280 and become a great steward so you can multiply 351 00:24:33.280 --> 00:24:36.120 and then bring other people into your world, 352 00:24:36.120 --> 00:24:37.600 whether it's by teaching, 353 00:24:37.600 --> 00:24:39.920 whether it's by creating an opportunity for them 354 00:24:39.920 --> 00:24:40.760 or something. 355 00:24:40.760 --> 00:24:42.200 So we're gonna jump into this in a moment 356 00:24:42.200 --> 00:24:44.040 of how you've actually flipped the script 357 00:24:44.040 --> 00:24:45.080 and how you're now in a place 358 00:24:45.240 --> 00:24:47.120 where you're actually creating opportunity. 359 00:24:47.120 --> 00:24:51.440 But take me back to a couple of key points. 360 00:24:51.440 --> 00:24:53.000 Oh, there's three key points 361 00:24:53.000 --> 00:24:54.880 that are probably gonna be quite big points here, 362 00:24:54.880 --> 00:24:59.320 but you mentioned something crazy right now. 363 00:24:59.320 --> 00:25:00.480 By the time you were... 364 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:03.240 Well, did you say you'd already tried to commit suicide twice? 365 00:25:03.640 --> 00:25:07.680 Yeah. So I'd love to hear about that, because you were. 366 00:25:08.400 --> 00:25:09.960 So, yeah, I mean, let's start there. 367 00:25:09.960 --> 00:25:10.760 Like what happened? 368 00:25:10.760 --> 00:25:15.120 You were on your way to commit suicide and something happened. 369 00:25:15.600 --> 00:25:16.560 Yeah. Third attempt. 370 00:25:16.560 --> 00:25:18.680 Well, my first attempt was mercury. 371 00:25:19.000 --> 00:25:21.680 I actually learned that if you saved, if you break. 372 00:25:23.080 --> 00:25:24.960 Yeah, my first attempt was like, oh, no, no, no. 373 00:25:25.000 --> 00:25:27.760 That's my third attempt. Yeah. 374 00:25:27.760 --> 00:25:29.120 You know, I tried to cut myself. 375 00:25:29.120 --> 00:25:31.920 I tried to drown myself. I would meditate on suicide. 376 00:25:31.920 --> 00:25:37.640 And I mean, how does 12, 13 year old come to such deep darkness 377 00:25:37.640 --> 00:25:41.960 and no hope, you know, where teenagers play and dream 378 00:25:41.960 --> 00:25:44.720 and and, you know, do all of this cool things? 379 00:25:44.760 --> 00:25:48.640 How does a bond come when I look at 13, 12 year old now? 380 00:25:48.640 --> 00:25:52.720 And I'm like, I was 12, 13 when I already that's consuming me. 381 00:25:52.720 --> 00:25:57.120 Well, because everywhere I went and everywhere I look, I saw brokenness. 382 00:25:57.440 --> 00:26:01.120 Well, of course, the the the impact of 383 00:26:01.480 --> 00:26:04.480 subterranean collapsing and the cycles of my family. 384 00:26:04.720 --> 00:26:05.960 The home was not safe. 385 00:26:05.960 --> 00:26:07.320 My mom mostly was drunk. 386 00:26:07.320 --> 00:26:10.920 And it was always man was beating the verbal, emotional 387 00:26:11.120 --> 00:26:15.840 on all aspects of abuse at school in a school was sort of almost a safe place. 388 00:26:15.840 --> 00:26:20.520 But I'm not really, you know, the streets were not. 389 00:26:20.840 --> 00:26:23.040 So anywhere I went, it was dark. 390 00:26:23.040 --> 00:26:24.520 It was it was scary. 391 00:26:24.520 --> 00:26:27.160 And also girls my age already start 392 00:26:27.960 --> 00:26:30.600 sleeping around in traffic. 393 00:26:30.600 --> 00:26:33.080 And so I knew it's coming my way. 394 00:26:33.080 --> 00:26:36.920 Already men who would come to my house looked at me and ask questions. 395 00:26:37.160 --> 00:26:39.040 So I lived in so much fear. 396 00:26:39.040 --> 00:26:42.680 That was my greatest fear, that something sexually would happen to me as well. 397 00:26:43.040 --> 00:26:46.240 So that's why I thought the only way out is to kill myself 398 00:26:46.240 --> 00:26:47.560 because there is no purpose. 399 00:26:47.560 --> 00:26:49.640 There is no reason to leave. 400 00:26:49.640 --> 00:26:52.800 And I remember like just a few months before my third attempt, 401 00:26:52.800 --> 00:26:56.720 which would have been fatal because I've done my to the best of my ability 402 00:26:56.720 --> 00:26:59.400 research and I saved enough mercury to poison myself. 403 00:26:59.600 --> 00:27:02.800 How do I now looking back like, wow, that's quite creative. 404 00:27:03.320 --> 00:27:07.640 But I remember December 31st. 405 00:27:07.640 --> 00:27:13.120 I was hanging out with with people, with my with my peers late at night. 406 00:27:13.120 --> 00:27:14.640 Twelve one o'clock. It's a new year. 407 00:27:14.640 --> 00:27:17.000 If it's a big celebration there, people are drunk. 408 00:27:17.000 --> 00:27:19.120 We're walking from one place to another. 409 00:27:19.120 --> 00:27:23.040 And I remember looking at the sky and just feeling that 410 00:27:23.040 --> 00:27:25.240 this the heavens were calling me. 411 00:27:25.240 --> 00:27:28.440 You know, I just feel like there is something bigger. 412 00:27:28.440 --> 00:27:32.320 And remember, I'm a communistic country, Muslim country. 413 00:27:32.520 --> 00:27:36.560 No, like no capacity or not capacity, 414 00:27:36.560 --> 00:27:41.560 but no preconceived notions of who God and I mean how nothing. 415 00:27:42.880 --> 00:27:47.200 But I just felt this call like I knew there is something more to life. 416 00:27:47.200 --> 00:27:49.200 There is something bigger. 417 00:27:49.200 --> 00:27:52.720 I remember looking at the sky at night and almost wanting to weep. 418 00:27:52.720 --> 00:27:55.160 But I had no idea how to get there. 419 00:27:55.160 --> 00:27:56.560 And I think that was my another thing. 420 00:27:56.560 --> 00:27:58.840 I know there is something, but I don't know what to do. 421 00:27:59.520 --> 00:28:03.400 And that's kind of led me to like I you know, there's not a choice. 422 00:28:03.400 --> 00:28:08.600 So on the day I wrote my mom a letter when I was in March 17th, 423 00:28:09.800 --> 00:28:13.080 1997, I wrote my mom a letter explaining why and what 424 00:28:13.480 --> 00:28:15.840 and went to school to say goodbye to to 425 00:28:17.800 --> 00:28:21.800 not directly going to school to just as my last day. 426 00:28:21.800 --> 00:28:24.720 And I was on my way from school back home 427 00:28:25.120 --> 00:28:28.280 because I hid all this mercury in the matching box. 428 00:28:29.120 --> 00:28:31.160 And a girl invited me to church. 429 00:28:31.160 --> 00:28:35.760 And I vaguely heard that there are some Koreans, some crazy people somewhere, 430 00:28:35.760 --> 00:28:38.120 you know, but nothing really of much. 431 00:28:38.120 --> 00:28:40.000 I just heard some of my friends went to church, 432 00:28:40.000 --> 00:28:41.600 but didn't have a concept what it is. 433 00:28:41.600 --> 00:28:44.680 So she invited me to church and I was like, not really, 434 00:28:44.680 --> 00:28:48.240 because I thought Russian Orthodox, you know, what you see on TV, 435 00:28:49.120 --> 00:28:53.640 dark, gloomy candles, ladies with, you know, head covering. 436 00:28:53.960 --> 00:28:56.680 No, but something inside of me pulled me to. 437 00:28:56.720 --> 00:29:00.720 So I just went to her and I remember getting into the bus, 438 00:29:00.960 --> 00:29:06.560 coming to to this massive building where the South Korean doesn't 439 00:29:06.680 --> 00:29:09.920 want to collapse all the South Koreans missionaries on fire. 440 00:29:09.920 --> 00:29:10.800 They were on fire. 441 00:29:10.800 --> 00:29:13.720 I mean, and you met some some of the South Koreans when they pray, 442 00:29:13.720 --> 00:29:16.480 the wall shake literally the frequency in the room. 443 00:29:17.000 --> 00:29:21.560 And you had to be so on fire because the atmosphere in the country was chaos. 444 00:29:22.040 --> 00:29:25.760 So I walk in and there's just, you know, nothing what I imagined. 445 00:29:26.040 --> 00:29:29.600 There's some people in front of worship and we're sitting 446 00:29:29.920 --> 00:29:32.080 and they start worshiping. 447 00:29:32.480 --> 00:29:35.080 And I remember I have no greed 448 00:29:35.720 --> 00:29:38.280 for what Christianity, who Jesus God is nothing. 449 00:29:38.280 --> 00:29:41.480 I had some experience of spiritual experiences before. 450 00:29:41.960 --> 00:29:46.640 But as I said, and as they started singing, I felt the present 451 00:29:47.000 --> 00:29:49.160 come and set by me. 452 00:29:49.440 --> 00:29:51.720 And now I can, of course, put words. 453 00:29:51.720 --> 00:29:53.640 It was Papa. It was my Abba. 454 00:29:53.640 --> 00:29:58.040 He put his hand over me as I wept and wept and wept. 455 00:29:59.560 --> 00:29:59.960 And he. 456 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:03.520 He said, it's okay, you're mine, you're gonna be fine. 457 00:30:03.520 --> 00:30:05.280 It's gonna be all right now. 458 00:30:05.280 --> 00:30:07.160 In Russian, he spoke in Russian to me. 459 00:30:07.160 --> 00:30:08.520 He said, Marina. 460 00:30:08.520 --> 00:30:09.520 So, 461 00:30:09.520 --> 00:30:13.880 So, he just start pouring. 462 00:30:13.880 --> 00:30:15.920 It was just a couple of sentences really, 463 00:30:15.920 --> 00:30:20.920 but the feeling and the reality of it 464 00:30:21.600 --> 00:30:25.440 is so real that no one could ever convince me otherwise. 465 00:30:25.440 --> 00:30:28.600 You know, I experienced Abba's love. 466 00:30:28.600 --> 00:30:29.440 Wow. 467 00:30:29.520 --> 00:30:30.760 Such a deep level. 468 00:30:30.760 --> 00:30:33.200 And that was the moment for me, you know? 469 00:30:33.200 --> 00:30:34.960 And I had that moment. 470 00:30:34.960 --> 00:30:36.480 That was the moment for me. 471 00:30:36.480 --> 00:30:37.680 And ever since then, 472 00:30:37.680 --> 00:30:40.720 just having the revelation who Jesus is 473 00:30:40.720 --> 00:30:45.120 and the transformational healing power, 474 00:30:45.120 --> 00:30:46.840 I've never looked back, never looked back. 475 00:30:46.840 --> 00:30:49.680 I've passionately fell in love with Jesus. 476 00:30:49.680 --> 00:30:50.920 And I remember, you know, 477 00:30:50.920 --> 00:30:52.760 cause I was fiery afterwards. 478 00:30:52.760 --> 00:30:54.280 And I remember someone told me that, 479 00:30:54.280 --> 00:30:55.800 oh, it will subside, you know, 480 00:30:55.800 --> 00:30:57.720 as you grow and mature, it will subside. 481 00:30:57.720 --> 00:30:59.560 You're a bit too far, you know? 482 00:30:59.560 --> 00:31:01.600 And actually it's increased, you know? 483 00:31:01.600 --> 00:31:04.600 Come on, come on. 484 00:31:04.600 --> 00:31:06.960 I become more crazy and more in love 485 00:31:06.960 --> 00:31:08.800 and more on fire for him. 486 00:31:08.800 --> 00:31:10.760 And it's definitely still a journey 487 00:31:10.760 --> 00:31:12.000 and always will be a journey, 488 00:31:12.000 --> 00:31:14.280 but I absolutely in love with Jesus. 489 00:31:14.280 --> 00:31:15.120 Yeah. 490 00:31:15.120 --> 00:31:18.240 Come on, that's wild. 491 00:31:18.240 --> 00:31:21.360 So, you know, but it wasn't all roses, you know? 492 00:31:21.360 --> 00:31:23.600 Like it wasn't all roses after that. 493 00:31:23.600 --> 00:31:25.480 You encountered Jesus, 494 00:31:25.480 --> 00:31:27.280 encountered love for the first time. 495 00:31:27.840 --> 00:31:30.760 You cancel suicide plans, 496 00:31:32.000 --> 00:31:34.640 but still after that, still things got pretty hectic. 497 00:31:34.640 --> 00:31:37.600 I mean, you had times living on the streets. 498 00:31:38.400 --> 00:31:39.680 Yeah. 499 00:31:39.680 --> 00:31:41.680 I mean, times that were really, really challenging. 500 00:31:41.680 --> 00:31:44.080 I mean, you, you yourself almost got trafficked. 501 00:31:46.360 --> 00:31:47.280 Yes. 502 00:31:47.280 --> 00:31:48.960 Before I knew what trafficked was, 503 00:31:48.960 --> 00:31:50.800 yeah, that was a crazy story. 504 00:31:50.800 --> 00:31:52.160 And my family was affected. 505 00:31:52.160 --> 00:31:54.720 My sister was trafficked, my brother was trafficked. 506 00:31:54.720 --> 00:31:56.760 I mean, this is very, very close home. 507 00:31:57.920 --> 00:32:01.720 My mom was a victim of a sexual exploitation. 508 00:32:01.720 --> 00:32:03.560 And then of course, living in poverty, 509 00:32:03.560 --> 00:32:04.760 you are so vulnerable. 510 00:32:04.760 --> 00:32:06.440 And as an older sister, 511 00:32:06.440 --> 00:32:07.920 I've always was in a position, 512 00:32:07.920 --> 00:32:09.320 I need to provide for my family. 513 00:32:09.320 --> 00:32:10.360 I need to provide for my family. 514 00:32:10.360 --> 00:32:12.600 So my best friend, Yulia, 515 00:32:13.680 --> 00:32:15.800 who actually was trafficked herself to Israel. 516 00:32:15.800 --> 00:32:19.560 And when she came back, she managed to escape. 517 00:32:19.560 --> 00:32:21.640 She died shortly after. 518 00:32:21.640 --> 00:32:22.840 That's another horrific story. 519 00:32:22.840 --> 00:32:26.400 But she said, oh, I have a job 520 00:32:26.440 --> 00:32:27.720 because I've always looked for a job. 521 00:32:27.720 --> 00:32:29.560 I worked as long as I remember. 522 00:32:29.560 --> 00:32:31.400 You know, it was something, 523 00:32:31.400 --> 00:32:32.600 trying to bring a little bit home. 524 00:32:32.600 --> 00:32:37.240 And my best friend, she introduced me to him. 525 00:32:37.240 --> 00:32:38.640 And she said, oh, he has a job. 526 00:32:38.640 --> 00:32:39.880 It's a really well-paid job. 527 00:32:39.880 --> 00:32:41.680 You wouldn't even have to do much. 528 00:32:41.680 --> 00:32:44.200 Okay, so I meet with this, looking back, 529 00:32:44.200 --> 00:32:46.240 really dodgy guy. 530 00:32:46.240 --> 00:32:48.680 And he said, oh, I have a package for you. 531 00:32:48.680 --> 00:32:51.840 All you need to do is take this package 532 00:32:51.840 --> 00:32:55.440 and I will put you on the train to Moscow. 533 00:32:55.440 --> 00:32:58.160 You will deliver the package hand-to-hand. 534 00:32:58.160 --> 00:33:00.360 They will put you back on a train and you'll come back 535 00:33:00.360 --> 00:33:01.920 and I'll give you this amount of money. 536 00:33:01.920 --> 00:33:04.000 And I was like, whoa, that's amazing. 537 00:33:04.000 --> 00:33:05.280 That's so, yeah, I can do that. 538 00:33:05.280 --> 00:33:06.840 It was a little bit scary. 539 00:33:06.840 --> 00:33:08.880 I've never been out of the country. 540 00:33:08.880 --> 00:33:11.040 But looking back, I'm thinking, 541 00:33:11.040 --> 00:33:12.240 living in such a brokenness, 542 00:33:12.240 --> 00:33:14.240 as a kid, you still want to trust. 543 00:33:14.240 --> 00:33:17.280 You still think, oh, you know, nothing will happen to me. 544 00:33:17.280 --> 00:33:19.000 This is my best friend. 545 00:33:19.000 --> 00:33:19.960 No way. 546 00:33:21.960 --> 00:33:25.040 Anyways, so the man, and of course by then 547 00:33:25.600 --> 00:33:26.440 I already lived in the streets. 548 00:33:26.440 --> 00:33:28.160 My mom actually kicked me out for going to church. 549 00:33:28.160 --> 00:33:29.120 That's not a long story. 550 00:33:29.120 --> 00:33:31.240 But I lived in the streets, went from home to home 551 00:33:31.240 --> 00:33:34.880 and lived literally on the roofs of the building 552 00:33:34.880 --> 00:33:36.680 to stay safe. 553 00:33:36.680 --> 00:33:39.520 And so I was quite desperate. 554 00:33:39.520 --> 00:33:40.840 So he takes me home. 555 00:33:40.840 --> 00:33:42.320 He get, you know, we get in the car. 556 00:33:42.320 --> 00:33:43.720 He's like, oh, I'll get you some clothes. 557 00:33:43.720 --> 00:33:45.400 Cause I looked like, you know, 558 00:33:45.400 --> 00:33:47.400 someone who lived on the streets, obviously. 559 00:33:47.400 --> 00:33:49.440 So he takes me to the market, get me some clothes. 560 00:33:49.440 --> 00:33:52.040 And I remember how uncomfortable I was in the clothes 561 00:33:52.040 --> 00:33:53.800 because the skirt was too short 562 00:33:53.800 --> 00:33:55.720 and I didn't dress like that, you know? 563 00:33:55.720 --> 00:33:58.280 So I already started feeling like, oh. 564 00:33:58.280 --> 00:34:00.960 And then he brings me home. 565 00:34:00.960 --> 00:34:03.320 And of course I think that there would be wife, children. 566 00:34:03.320 --> 00:34:05.320 This is an adult man. 567 00:34:05.320 --> 00:34:06.160 Well, there wasn't. 568 00:34:06.160 --> 00:34:08.560 So we're sitting there, you start cooking. 569 00:34:08.560 --> 00:34:09.679 There wasn't wife. 570 00:34:09.679 --> 00:34:10.960 Anyways, long story short, 571 00:34:10.960 --> 00:34:14.360 that night he was trying to sexually abuse me. 572 00:34:14.360 --> 00:34:16.520 But I've never heard this story before in my life. 573 00:34:16.520 --> 00:34:19.880 He actually physically could not do anything to me. 574 00:34:19.880 --> 00:34:21.159 I remember freezing. 575 00:34:21.159 --> 00:34:23.239 It was so paralyzed with fear. 576 00:34:23.679 --> 00:34:24.679 I couldn't even scream. 577 00:34:24.679 --> 00:34:26.320 I remember hearing people outside. 578 00:34:26.320 --> 00:34:28.440 It was late at night, men walking. 579 00:34:28.440 --> 00:34:31.760 And I said, maybe I can scream for help. 580 00:34:31.760 --> 00:34:34.480 But then I thought, what if this man are bad as well? 581 00:34:34.480 --> 00:34:36.040 Because this person is bad. 582 00:34:36.040 --> 00:34:37.600 Maybe they're bad as well. 583 00:34:37.600 --> 00:34:40.000 I was paralyzed with fear, 584 00:34:40.000 --> 00:34:41.800 but physically he couldn't do anything. 585 00:34:41.800 --> 00:34:43.719 And in the morning, he just let me go. 586 00:34:43.719 --> 00:34:45.239 He just, I just go home. 587 00:34:45.239 --> 00:34:47.199 Later on, what I realized that the package 588 00:34:47.199 --> 00:34:50.280 that I was trying would have been delivering was me. 589 00:34:50.280 --> 00:34:51.719 I was the package. 590 00:34:51.760 --> 00:34:53.239 So that's whole story. 591 00:34:53.239 --> 00:34:56.719 I just be really intrigued by this. 592 00:34:56.719 --> 00:34:58.400 What do you mean he physically couldn't do anything? 593 00:34:58.400 --> 00:34:59.800 Like what happened? 594 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:02.360 nothing was happening to his junk. 595 00:35:02.360 --> 00:35:04.280 And so he couldn't get an erection. 596 00:35:04.280 --> 00:35:05.280 No, he couldn't. 597 00:35:05.280 --> 00:35:08.720 So of course at that point, I mean, I'm a kid, 598 00:35:08.720 --> 00:35:12.200 nothing sexually have happened to me before. 599 00:35:12.200 --> 00:35:13.760 I lived in fear, 600 00:35:13.760 --> 00:35:16.680 like conscious of things around me happening, 601 00:35:16.680 --> 00:35:21.120 but I was so, I was like a little, you know, wolf. 602 00:35:21.120 --> 00:35:23.120 I would just run from men. 603 00:35:23.120 --> 00:35:27.200 I actually, I hated anyone who, you know, who was man, boy, 604 00:35:27.200 --> 00:35:28.920 I would fight all the time. 605 00:35:28.920 --> 00:35:33.040 So I wasn't this flirtatious, you know, and yeah. 606 00:35:33.040 --> 00:35:37.560 But so he actually tried, but couldn't do anything. 607 00:35:38.400 --> 00:35:41.120 That's some of like, when I look back, 608 00:35:41.120 --> 00:35:43.120 of course I blogged that out of my memory 609 00:35:43.120 --> 00:35:45.680 because the pattern is when some, 610 00:35:45.680 --> 00:35:49.240 when sexual abuse happened to a girl or a boy, 611 00:35:49.240 --> 00:35:52.120 it's, you know, you feel dirty. 612 00:35:52.120 --> 00:35:53.920 You feel that you've done something wrong. 613 00:35:53.920 --> 00:35:55.400 You feel guilty, you know? 614 00:35:55.400 --> 00:35:58.720 So subconsciously you just put this back. 615 00:35:59.520 --> 00:36:01.760 As a shame thing and blogging, 616 00:36:01.760 --> 00:36:03.920 that's what happened to me for many, many years. 617 00:36:03.920 --> 00:36:07.200 I was just in the back until things start clicking 618 00:36:07.200 --> 00:36:10.840 and Jesus started healing my heart and my memory 619 00:36:10.840 --> 00:36:14.240 bringing and showing me where he was, you know, 620 00:36:14.240 --> 00:36:16.280 it's so powerful. 621 00:36:16.280 --> 00:36:19.160 Now that was before, I want to point out, 622 00:36:19.160 --> 00:36:21.200 I had an encounter with God. 623 00:36:21.200 --> 00:36:26.200 I didn't pray, you know, that was before, I was about 12. 624 00:36:26.240 --> 00:36:27.080 So- 625 00:36:27.080 --> 00:36:29.600 The trafficking story was? 626 00:36:29.600 --> 00:36:30.440 Yes. 627 00:36:30.440 --> 00:36:31.280 Oh, wow. 628 00:36:31.280 --> 00:36:32.840 So you were, that was crazy. 629 00:36:32.840 --> 00:36:34.320 Before I became, 630 00:36:34.320 --> 00:36:39.080 before I had an actual conscious experience with God. 631 00:36:39.080 --> 00:36:41.440 So Jesus, the reason the memory came, 632 00:36:41.440 --> 00:36:44.840 because he was showing me all the times 633 00:36:44.840 --> 00:36:46.920 that he was right there. 634 00:36:46.920 --> 00:36:49.640 Because this story is such a pivotal moment in my life, 635 00:36:49.640 --> 00:36:51.640 just saying, I've never heard of abuse, 636 00:36:51.640 --> 00:36:53.440 like in the middle of the abuse, 637 00:36:53.440 --> 00:36:55.240 he was probably wanting to break me 638 00:36:55.240 --> 00:36:57.680 and then send me to Moscow, you know, 639 00:36:57.680 --> 00:37:00.080 that he physically could not do anything. 640 00:37:00.080 --> 00:37:01.600 And he just sent me away. 641 00:37:03.080 --> 00:37:06.480 And I remember just blocking it, 642 00:37:06.480 --> 00:37:09.400 just blocking it as something, yeah. 643 00:37:09.400 --> 00:37:10.240 Yeah, totally. 644 00:37:10.240 --> 00:37:13.200 The hand of God on you right there, protecting you. 645 00:37:13.200 --> 00:37:16.200 And so I just want to touch on one more thing 646 00:37:16.200 --> 00:37:18.160 and then we're going to get into how things are, 647 00:37:18.160 --> 00:37:19.480 how you're really flipping the script 648 00:37:19.480 --> 00:37:20.840 in this space right now. 649 00:37:20.840 --> 00:37:24.320 But what happened to your mom 650 00:37:24.320 --> 00:37:29.320 after this whole lifestyle of exploitation and alcohol? 651 00:37:33.440 --> 00:37:34.280 What happened? 652 00:37:37.120 --> 00:37:38.120 I just want to point out 653 00:37:38.120 --> 00:37:41.040 that my mom was truly a phenomenal woman. 654 00:37:41.040 --> 00:37:42.440 I want to honor her, 655 00:37:42.440 --> 00:37:45.560 but she sacrificed herself to protect us. 656 00:37:45.560 --> 00:37:48.640 I remember no one ever, she would beat us up, 657 00:37:48.640 --> 00:37:52.520 but no one ever was allowed to touch us, ever. 658 00:37:52.520 --> 00:37:54.520 She was a very powerful woman. 659 00:37:55.440 --> 00:38:00.440 And I remember crying to God and asking God, 660 00:38:00.920 --> 00:38:02.120 give me my mom back, 661 00:38:02.120 --> 00:38:04.560 because seeing what alcohol and that shame 662 00:38:04.560 --> 00:38:06.800 and that brokenness was doing to her, 663 00:38:06.800 --> 00:38:09.000 it was unprecedented. 664 00:38:11.120 --> 00:38:13.280 It was just nothing that I've ever seen. 665 00:38:13.280 --> 00:38:15.800 She was turning into almost a monster, 666 00:38:15.800 --> 00:38:17.320 you know, right in front of us. 667 00:38:17.360 --> 00:38:18.920 And then your drink, of course, 668 00:38:18.920 --> 00:38:20.400 did not that and would cry. 669 00:38:20.400 --> 00:38:25.400 It was just, but she at age 43, 670 00:38:26.080 --> 00:38:29.080 actually, I left home when I was 16 for good. 671 00:38:29.080 --> 00:38:33.680 I left and moved to Russia and then Norway and traveled. 672 00:38:33.680 --> 00:38:35.640 That's a long story, but I'm not going to go there. 673 00:38:35.640 --> 00:38:38.480 But I remember coming back 674 00:38:38.480 --> 00:38:40.520 and I was helping my family as much as I could, 675 00:38:40.520 --> 00:38:41.360 sending money. 676 00:38:41.360 --> 00:38:46.360 And when I was 18, I felt like I need to come back home. 677 00:38:46.400 --> 00:38:51.000 And by then her liver deteriorated, she was dying. 678 00:38:51.000 --> 00:38:53.600 And she died in agony. 679 00:38:53.600 --> 00:38:55.800 And that's another like a massive trauma 680 00:38:55.800 --> 00:38:57.480 that I still dealing through 681 00:38:57.480 --> 00:39:00.640 because there was no assistance at all. 682 00:39:00.640 --> 00:39:01.480 You know, when I came, 683 00:39:01.480 --> 00:39:03.320 I didn't have money to help her, 684 00:39:03.320 --> 00:39:04.640 to put her in the hospital. 685 00:39:04.640 --> 00:39:07.160 And she was from hospital in and out, 686 00:39:07.160 --> 00:39:09.360 but, you know, always went back drinking. 687 00:39:09.360 --> 00:39:11.360 So there was nothing left from her liver. 688 00:39:11.360 --> 00:39:13.440 She died in absolute agony. 689 00:39:14.320 --> 00:39:19.320 And she had experience with Jesus. 690 00:39:20.640 --> 00:39:23.400 I have no doubt that she's with Jesus now. 691 00:39:23.400 --> 00:39:25.760 Absolutely no doubt that she's with Jesus. 692 00:39:25.760 --> 00:39:30.760 It's like this, you know, hero who managed to raise us up 693 00:39:31.600 --> 00:39:34.120 in one of the most horrific environments. 694 00:39:34.120 --> 00:39:35.800 Yeah, there. 695 00:39:35.800 --> 00:39:37.560 And she had encounters with Jesus 696 00:39:37.560 --> 00:39:42.560 and some amazing things happened in and out in the process. 697 00:39:43.800 --> 00:39:46.120 But she died a very, very painful death. 698 00:39:46.120 --> 00:39:47.720 That was in my arms. 699 00:39:47.720 --> 00:39:49.680 Yeah, she was bleeding all over 700 00:39:49.680 --> 00:39:52.360 and there's nothing anyone could do. 701 00:39:52.360 --> 00:39:56.680 Yeah, so it was really, really traumatic. 702 00:39:56.680 --> 00:39:58.320 Wow, that is wild. 703 00:39:58.320 --> 00:40:00.040 Now I'm gonna do a screenshot. 704 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.760 just now because you've come out of this place and now completely flipped the script 705 00:40:06.720 --> 00:40:14.080 and what is this that you're building right here? I see March 2017, February 2022, 706 00:40:14.720 --> 00:40:22.400 what is this? What's going on here? So a number of years ago I've founded a ministry called 707 00:40:22.400 --> 00:40:29.120 Invest in a Life and the mission of Invest in a Life is to empower and equip individuals by 708 00:40:29.120 --> 00:40:34.480 providing necessary resources for them to thrive and become leaders and catalysts of positive 709 00:40:34.480 --> 00:40:41.280 change. So not just hands out, actually training people and it's focused on survivors of sexual 710 00:40:41.280 --> 00:40:48.560 exploitation, human trafficking, women and children at this stage. Now when I left Tajikistan 711 00:40:48.560 --> 00:40:56.240 I never ever ever wanted to go back, I never wanted to do anything with survivors of human 712 00:40:56.240 --> 00:41:00.160 trafficking or anything to do with men or women who've been through that, I was way too close home 713 00:41:00.720 --> 00:41:07.040 and then had a powerful encounter again, Holy Spirit softened my heart, spoke to my heart, it was 714 00:41:08.160 --> 00:41:13.360 that story is worth writing a book on just how amazing Holy Spirit is. He never is like okay 715 00:41:13.360 --> 00:41:18.640 you're doing this because it's good for a character, just come like a loving papa would give me a hug 716 00:41:18.640 --> 00:41:24.960 and just I want to partner with you. So Jesus invited me to partner with him to go back and to 717 00:41:25.520 --> 00:41:32.480 build a home for people like my mom and people like my sister who had no one actually no one to 718 00:41:32.480 --> 00:41:39.600 turn to for help. There was no government agency or a non-profit or even churches had no idea what 719 00:41:39.600 --> 00:41:44.720 to do with people like my mom or my sister you know with that situation. So now I'm partnering 720 00:41:44.720 --> 00:41:53.040 with Jesus to building this home, it's called House of Shalom, a safe place where women and 721 00:41:53.040 --> 00:41:59.520 children can come find refuge, heal, restore and be empowered and equipped to integrate back into 722 00:41:59.520 --> 00:42:08.320 society. So back in 2007 actually, at 2017 there was this building that he showed me and at first 723 00:42:08.320 --> 00:42:12.640 I was like there's no way like I was still you know just living day-to-day pretty much 724 00:42:13.200 --> 00:42:21.200 and he gave me Haggai too, it's an amazing story and every story is amazing and gave me strategies 725 00:42:21.200 --> 00:42:27.520 how to pursue that and brought people my way who was on fire as well as like yes let's do it and 726 00:42:27.520 --> 00:42:33.520 some of the people is Benji and Alana right here and then John, Stephan, John and Fiona just want 727 00:42:33.520 --> 00:42:39.280 to honor you so much guys who just came along is like yeah let's do this absolutely let's do that 728 00:42:39.280 --> 00:42:47.280 and so within five years we've raised roughly two hundred thousand dollars and this is a massive 729 00:42:47.280 --> 00:42:53.840 house as well and I came to this place but this is just part of our ministry you know we have 730 00:42:53.840 --> 00:43:00.000 emergency funds, we have an amazing team on the ground that works and empowering people and help 731 00:43:00.000 --> 00:43:09.040 them with because our main thing is to providing resources most of all why people in 732 00:43:09.680 --> 00:43:14.480 people in poverty are so vulnerable when they can't feed their children this is our weak part 733 00:43:14.480 --> 00:43:19.920 you know if I can't feed my daughter there's nothing I would do wouldn't do right so I think 734 00:43:19.920 --> 00:43:25.680 providing medical assistance, paying for their bills you know things like that so that's 735 00:43:25.680 --> 00:43:32.880 very very practical you know a love that is an action first so a lot of people see that 736 00:43:32.880 --> 00:43:37.520 they're like wow awesome you know let's build it but this is just part of our project so 737 00:43:37.520 --> 00:43:43.520 there's that going on on the side as well with micro loans and helping people to start businesses 738 00:43:43.520 --> 00:43:50.640 and things like that yeah so that's that's to present here. It's so exciting and we are going 739 00:43:50.640 --> 00:43:56.960 to hear more about this going forward in the future I'm really excited about journeying 740 00:43:56.960 --> 00:44:01.920 you know journeying together as Raising Royalty with you and it's been cool right from the start 741 00:44:01.920 --> 00:44:07.680 I mean this is this is something I love I remember the day you know that we kind of just 742 00:44:08.640 --> 00:44:14.320 remember there in the church we're in the cafe there with the crew and we had that service it 743 00:44:14.320 --> 00:44:18.640 was kind of like should we go all in on this guys and everyone's like yeah and you know we didn't 744 00:44:18.640 --> 00:44:24.320 really have you know cash floating around none of us had cash in those days all of us had like next 745 00:44:24.320 --> 00:44:30.800 to nothing in those days and we're all like you know what yes and we make this massive all-in yes 746 00:44:30.800 --> 00:44:35.840 and take some big risk and get in there and I mean this building some people say I mean depending on 747 00:44:35.840 --> 00:44:42.080 how you sleep people then you could accommodate nearly 50 people yeah absolutely and then there's 748 00:44:42.080 --> 00:44:47.600 also a second house there that's built there's all these other ministries that you've got happening 749 00:44:47.600 --> 00:44:53.600 alongside it as well I've got a team there in Tajikistan and so really this is so beautiful 750 00:44:53.600 --> 00:44:59.600 of you know along these conversations around legacy around actually bringing 751 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.840 Explanation, Discipling Nations, it always starts somewhere. 752 00:45:02.840 --> 00:45:03.960 It starts with something. 753 00:45:03.960 --> 00:45:05.280 It looks like something. 754 00:45:05.280 --> 00:45:06.280 Love looks like something. 755 00:45:06.280 --> 00:45:11.760 And it's so beautiful to see this because, I mean, is there anything else like this 756 00:45:11.760 --> 00:45:15.280 even in that city or in the nation that we even know about? 757 00:45:16.720 --> 00:45:22.920 There's only one home in the capital that can host 12 people, and they are heavily 758 00:45:22.920 --> 00:45:24.200 monitored by the government. 759 00:45:24.440 --> 00:45:30.120 So even though the leaders are Christians, they're not allowed to bring Jesus into 760 00:45:30.120 --> 00:45:33.880 conversation. I mean, how can you even operate without Jesus? 761 00:45:34.480 --> 00:45:36.840 So there's only one that I know of to date. 762 00:45:36.840 --> 00:45:37.960 I might be wrong. 763 00:45:37.960 --> 00:45:39.480 There might be something more. 764 00:45:39.720 --> 00:45:45.640 But hence why we're not registering as non-profit or we're going to stay low. 765 00:45:45.640 --> 00:45:47.640 This is going to be just a family living there. 766 00:45:47.800 --> 00:45:54.600 So we can actually do what we designed to do and not work around what government 767 00:45:54.600 --> 00:45:55.600 tells us what to do. 768 00:45:55.920 --> 00:46:01.560 Yeah. I mean, very difficult context to be working in, in the context of an Islamic 769 00:46:01.560 --> 00:46:07.280 nation, KGB dynamics, all of those things really tense. 770 00:46:07.280 --> 00:46:11.880 So we're so delighted, Marina, and what you're doing, really excited going forward 771 00:46:11.880 --> 00:46:14.320 is raising royalty to be partnering with this more. 772 00:46:14.320 --> 00:46:18.680 And so cool to see, you know, it has been love and action. 773 00:46:18.680 --> 00:46:19.680 It has been a battle. 774 00:46:19.680 --> 00:46:24.160 It has been step by step, but you're seeing God just keep breaking through. 775 00:46:24.400 --> 00:46:28.760 And I mean, it's just looking amazing what you've built over there. 776 00:46:28.760 --> 00:46:30.040 It's starting to really come alive. 777 00:46:31.480 --> 00:46:37.320 Absolutely. And we also take teams every year from New Zealand and whoever wants to 778 00:46:37.320 --> 00:46:42.080 come to Tajikistan to minister, because one of the things is we are a bridge between 779 00:46:42.080 --> 00:46:46.120 resources, you know, so we take teams every year to Tajikistan. 780 00:46:46.120 --> 00:46:49.040 We had some real cool adventures with Kiwis. 781 00:46:49.040 --> 00:46:50.040 Yeah, totally. 782 00:46:51.160 --> 00:46:53.840 So I just want to invite people as well to come along. 783 00:46:54.040 --> 00:46:55.240 Oh, yes. 784 00:46:55.240 --> 00:46:56.680 It's so fun as well. 785 00:46:56.680 --> 00:47:01.520 It's not, I really love this quote by Frederick Buchner that I want to just read. 786 00:47:01.520 --> 00:47:07.640 The place God calls you to is the place where your deep gladness and the world's deep 787 00:47:07.680 --> 00:47:12.360 hunger meet. Deep gladness and the world's deep hunger meet. 788 00:47:12.360 --> 00:47:16.480 So it's actually so fun to be part of this. 789 00:47:16.640 --> 00:47:17.880 It's so life giving. 790 00:47:18.800 --> 00:47:22.800 So, yeah, it's a cool thing to come and come and partake in this. 791 00:47:22.800 --> 00:47:25.680 Come on. Well, that's an exciting invitation, isn't it? 792 00:47:26.440 --> 00:47:30.800 As the world opens up again, let's all go to Tajikistan. 793 00:47:30.800 --> 00:47:33.080 Let's hang out there. Let's impact lives. 794 00:47:33.080 --> 00:47:34.840 Let's build this. We're going to see. 795 00:47:35.440 --> 00:47:40.320 Yeah, I mean, one thought that I have, you know, in the process of building and fighting 796 00:47:40.320 --> 00:47:46.520 for something like this is how much will it impact the kids who were on the street, you 797 00:47:46.520 --> 00:47:51.640 know, with their mom when they get to go and live in the House of Shalom and get looked 798 00:47:51.640 --> 00:47:54.280 after? Yeah, yeah. 799 00:47:54.960 --> 00:47:56.720 Amazing. Amazing. 800 00:47:56.720 --> 00:48:02.000 I love it. I love that this is the space that we're in and so much of discipleship of 801 00:48:02.000 --> 00:48:07.640 nations has been in this conversation with God very, very 802 00:48:07.640 --> 00:48:11.600 intentionally recently about, you know, the difference between discipleship of nations 803 00:48:11.600 --> 00:48:17.440 always and, you know, discipleship of the one, you know, Heidi Baker talks a lot about 804 00:48:17.440 --> 00:48:18.560 stopping for the one. 805 00:48:19.400 --> 00:48:24.520 But really it is, you know, it's it's a journey of stopping for the one leads to the 806 00:48:24.520 --> 00:48:25.960 discipleship of the nations. 807 00:48:25.960 --> 00:48:30.800 But it's also the discipleship of the nations that creates a platform for the one to be 808 00:48:30.800 --> 00:48:35.600 stopped for. And and that's totally what what's happening here. 809 00:48:35.600 --> 00:48:38.280 So I'm excited, really excited for this. 810 00:48:38.320 --> 00:48:39.320 So very cool. 811 00:48:40.120 --> 00:48:44.400 Yeah, beautiful. And I think, I mean, your story is so powerful as well, because 812 00:48:44.400 --> 00:48:48.560 sometimes Christians sometimes wear poverty as a badge of honor. 813 00:48:48.560 --> 00:48:54.160 And it's really, really important to highlight testimonies like yours, because poverty 814 00:48:54.160 --> 00:48:57.920 is a curse that Satan uses to destroy people. 815 00:49:01.800 --> 00:49:04.160 And yeah, so I love what you've done. 816 00:49:04.160 --> 00:49:06.480 I love that you've brought abundance into your world. 817 00:49:06.480 --> 00:49:07.920 I love that you flip the script. 818 00:49:07.920 --> 00:49:11.680 You're creating a legacy for generations to come there. 819 00:49:11.960 --> 00:49:16.320 And we're really excited, you know, going forward, partnering together more and and 820 00:49:16.440 --> 00:49:21.000 chuck your hand up if you like the idea of going to Tajikistan with Marina, helping 821 00:49:21.000 --> 00:49:22.480 build the House of Shalom together. 822 00:49:22.480 --> 00:49:25.400 I mean, that sounds like a wild amount of fun to me. 823 00:49:25.400 --> 00:49:26.760 I look forward to seeing you guys there. 824 00:49:26.760 --> 00:49:32.000 Let's go and hang out in Tajikistan together and and be a part of building the House 825 00:49:32.000 --> 00:49:37.160 of Shalom together. So, Marina, why don't you pray for us to wrap up and people 826 00:49:37.160 --> 00:49:38.680 absolutely loving your story. 827 00:49:39.000 --> 00:49:41.320 They're so delighted and grateful for what you're sharing. 828 00:49:41.320 --> 00:49:42.400 So thank you so much. 829 00:49:42.400 --> 00:49:45.160 And everyone say thanks, Marina. 830 00:49:45.160 --> 00:49:49.080 And we'll let you pray and we'll close it up there. 831 00:49:50.120 --> 00:49:51.800 Well, Jesus, thank you. 832 00:49:51.800 --> 00:49:52.840 We acknowledge you. 833 00:49:52.840 --> 00:49:59.800 Thank you for igniting our hearts with love and empowering us to love ourselves. 834 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:08.720 love one another. Thank you for increasing our capacity to dream. Thank you for empowering 835 00:50:08.720 --> 00:50:14.480 us. So I bless you. I bless everyone who's watching, who will be watching. I bless you 836 00:50:14.480 --> 00:50:21.280 in certainty and faith in the name of Yeshua HaMashiach that he will reveal to you everything 837 00:50:21.280 --> 00:50:28.080 you need to know to come to the fullness of who he created you to be. I bless your mind. 838 00:50:28.080 --> 00:50:36.160 I bless your spirit. I bless your soul. I bless your finances. May God bless you with 839 00:50:36.160 --> 00:50:47.520 all the blessings that will reveal the amazing nature of who he is, a loving papa who delights 840 00:50:47.520 --> 00:51:00.320 in you, who loves you. In the precious name of Yeshua, I pray. Amen. Amen. Well, thank you so 841 00:51:00.320 --> 00:51:11.040 much. So blessed. Love you. And we will be live with Kelly in just a couple of minutes. So Kelly 842 00:51:11.040 --> 00:51:17.920 is going to share with us some of these real critical steps in the process of changing 843 00:51:17.920 --> 00:51:23.040 mindsets, which is as well critical in your journey and every single person that we've had share. 844 00:51:24.160 --> 00:51:28.000 The mindset transformation has been so critical. So Kelly is going to be talking with us 845 00:51:28.800 --> 00:51:33.760 in just a couple of minutes about how to actually make those mindset changes from, 846 00:51:33.760 --> 00:51:37.600 you know, from orphan mindsets to royal mindsets. You can actually start 847 00:51:38.080 --> 00:51:44.480 making transition in your life into a world of abundance. So Marina, thank you so much. We love 848 00:51:44.480 --> 00:51:51.600 you and we're excited to share the journey together with you. So bless you and see you later. Bye-bye.