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Hey, Amy.
Good to see you.
Did you have a good holiday?
Good Thanksgiving?
I did.
It was wonderful.
Yeah, we got to travel to Nashville.
Our baby is contemplating a move to Nashville and she had been there for two months.
And so it was our off year, you know, where everybody was at their in-laws and she's not
married yet.
So we did Nashville.
Nashville's fun.
Yeah.
Bruce's youngest brother lives there.
Oh, he does?
Yeah.
The only drawback to Nashville is that this time of year it gets dark at 4.30, earlier
than 4.30.
Dark.
Really?
Mm-hmm.
So they're on the western edge of the central time zone.
Okay.
I never put that together.
I mean, I knew that they were an hour behind us, we're Eastern time here in Georgia.
That makes sense.
That would make sense.
Yeah.
Because it gets, it's good to start.
It's dark here right now, around 5.30 now.
So it's okay, because we're going to hit that December 21st and then the days start to get
long again.
We're just on that trajectory.
That's right.
All right.
I see Susie's joining.
So, you know, it hit me.
I mean, obviously I knew this because of the calendar, but it hit me like, this is our
final like prayer call for the year.
And you know, it was just like, oh my gosh, like 2023 is right around the corner.
Like I knew that, but I just went back to, at the December of last year, getting on talking
to our community about this is going to be a year of breakthrough.
And it's like, oh my goodness, here we are.
We're crowning that year of breakthrough.
And of course, what's so cool about breakthrough is that the breakthrough itself is not the
end of the story.
Right.
Because then we advance past that breakthrough.
So I feel like the Lord has really set us up.
I mean, even that word advancement, I feel is like so pregnant with possibility for us
as a group and us as individuals as we go into 2023.
And so I'm so excited for that.
So I just thought, you know, we needed to start this call with that reminder and that
marker of this has been our year of breakthrough.
And sometimes, you know, when we think about breakthrough, we think about this like forced
impact, but I would be curious and I'm planning on talking to the Lord about this as we kind
of wrap what Bruce and I like to do at the end of our year, which we've learned from
Bruce's parents, Bridget and Dionne, is to take some time to really capture the testimonies
of the year and review those those testimonies of the year, because it's amazing how much
you forget.
And because, you know, we're looking for that, we're looking for that big.
big impact. And of course, there's that in our year. But I
think that there's also been, for lack of a better term, of a
better term, these like mini breakthroughs. And so I would
encourage you guys to even have that conversation with the Lord
about, hey, Lord, like, bring back to my remembrance, all the
breakthrough from this year, because that's the treasure that
I'm going to be advancing in. And again, it's external
territory. It's also, I think, more importantly, internal
territory, like what are what have I become this year? What is
the deeper awareness that I've grown? And what have I
discovered about you that I'm now beginning, I have territory
to explore, because discovery is like the starting point, right?
And then we get to explore all of that means. So I'm pretty
excited about that. I've been reading. And of course, you
know, it's that time of year, right. But I've been reading
Luke chapter one. And I'm always reminded, every December, I find
myself in Luke one, like most of us do. And we're like reading
through the Christmas story and stuff. And it is such a
powerful chapter, because you've got the birth of john the
baptist, and all that the angel speaking to his father, and just
the things that are said about that. And then obviously, the
angel speaking to Mary, and so a very familiar script, verse that
I'm sure you're familiar with, but I just was so taken by it
again, was Luke one verses 37 and 38. And this is when the
angels talking to Mary, and he's telling her what's about to
happen to her, he's saying, you know, earlier in the verse in
that the chapter is saying the Holy Spirit is going to come on
you, the power of the Most High will overshadow you so that the
Holy One will be to be born will be called the Son of God. And
then he says, even Elizabeth, your relative, who's old in age
was going to have a child. And she's been unable to conceive,
she's in her sixth month. And so he's telling her this, and he
says in verse 37. It's many, there's different translations
of this. So some translations say, you know, nothing is
impossible for God, the NIV says it this way, it says for no word
from God will ever fail. No word from God will ever fail. And the
word to us as a community at the beginning of the year was this
will be a year of breakthrough. And maybe we're here at the
final chapter of this year. And we're like, I don't know if that
was true. Like maybe I maybe I can't pinpoint what the exact
breakthrough was, or I don't feel like I've broken through
or I still feel like I'm in a place of resistance. I want to
encourage you to embrace what the angel said to Mary, no word
from God will ever fail. If he said it, it's as good as done.
And I was reading this in the mirror translation, you guys
know, I like to, you know, cross reference that translation. And
the author of that translation said something interesting that
I had never made the connection for it. Maybe this is common
knowledge, but I just never made the connection that the angel
was quoting to Mary, or reminding Mary of what was said
to Sarah in Genesis 1814. When the angel says is nothing is, I
think it's poses a question I should probably go there and I
don't want to, we have time, I don't want to mess it up. But
in 18, let me find it, I should have highlighted it. It says
because she's, he's saying to Abraham, the Lord, the Lord's
visiting with Abraham. And he says, Why did Sarah laugh? And
why does she say, Well, I really have a child now that I'm too
old. And then the Lord asked this question of Abraham, is
anything too hard for the Lord? Is anything too hard for the
Lord? And so the author of the mirror translation was saying
that the angel was quoting to Mary when you're saying no word
from God will ever fail. He was actually quoting and reminding
Mary of a story she was probably familiar with. And then I love
what Francois says. He says, this is reminding Mary of God's
conversation with Abraham when Sarah laughed in unbelief, and
her laughter of unbelief was turned into laughter of delight.
And, you know, we know from Scripture, that joy is our
strength, that laughter is medicine. And when we are in a
place of resistance, or we're in a place of unbelief, when we're
feeling that there's shame, right, that feeling of shame,
laughter is mockery. Laughter is embarrassment, laughter is a
coping mechanism. But actually, as people of the kingdom, we are
called to the laughter of delight. And so I believe,
because the Word says that the Lord crowns our year with
goodness.
that December will be filled with laughter of delight for us
as we advance into 2023.
And anything that the enemy tried to use with us this year
to mock us, to embarrass us, to shame us,
it's those areas that the Lord is turning
into a place of laughter of delight.
Because it's not about avoiding those hard places,
it's about breaking through them.
And we've had a challenging week,
just we came back from Thanksgiving week and we were sick.
Hannah got sick, then Bruce got sick,
and I was, my immune system,
my mighty immune system was fighting it off
for all of it, all it was worth.
But you know, when you have like a household
full of sickness, you get into this routine
where it's like kind of every day just is the same
because you can't really go anywhere
and you're just kind of surviving and you're resting
and you're taking your meds, right?
And you get to this place like day six or seven
where you're like, will I ever be,
will anything ever be normal again?
And you know, it's crazy talk, right?
Because you're like, sure, we have been through this before.
It's just a cold, right?
It's just the flu.
But you just get to this place
because there's been this monotony
of the same thing day in, day out,
where you just begin to like think,
will it ever be the same again?
And the Lord in his kindness used that small illustration
from our, you know, from not a horrible,
you know, just, it was just a cold, right?
It wasn't like life or death or anything like that,
but he used it in his kindness to speak a big truth to me.
And he says, you know, when we have these seasons
of, it seems like we're just trying to survive
and we find ourselves in this place
of will it ever be normal again
or we'll ever get out of this,
we see ourselves in this pit of stuckness.
And the Lord's like, it's not reality.
Remember, we prayed since the summer,
the prayer with us was, Lord, make what is real, realized.
That has been my continual prayer for me and for us,
make what is real, realized.
And so the Lord was utilizing this space and time for us,
this last seven days of just total will.
And he said, you're never stuck.
You might be going through a valley, but there's movement.
Not because you said, but because I said.
We're going places, we're going somewhere.
Transformation is happening, exchange is taking place.
There's always an instead, Romans 8, 28,
everything can be turned for our benefit.
So there's no stuckness, there's always breakthrough.
There's always a breaking through that's taking place
and there's an advancement that's taking place
out of that breakthrough, big, small.
And so I just wanna remind us,
that's the word of the Lord to us.
This is a year of breakthrough
and he's gonna crown this year with goodness.
I think that for us, joy is our strength.
We know that, right?
Like it's not just for us, but for this group,
I just felt very strongly,
like there's something connected to our ability
to embrace joy, look for that, expect that laughter
of delight that's going to break
through the final resistance.
Yeah, so I see you guys nodding your heads.
You're welcome to unmute if there's anything
that's resonating or anything you wanna add
or share to that.
You guys know this is open.
This isn't me just talking to you guys,
but so I wanna start praying into that tonight
and kind of use our time together tonight
to call that forth.
Our spirits know the truth by default.
Our spirits knows what is true,
operates in the truth
because our spirit is connected to Christ, right?
There's no coming out of that new creation self.
Our bodies and our souls are catching up.
So we're gonna lead our bodies and souls
as we walk into this final chapter of the year
and we walk into the new year,
we're gonna lead them into the truth.
And so all that to say is we've got to engage them
in the truth, engage our thoughts and our emotions
and our bodies in the joy and the laughter
and the delight, right?
So like, and this is, I'm someone who,
like I gotta teach, I've gotta break
through some seriousness, you know?
Like it's just, my body and my soul need to catch up
with what my spirit's already operating in,
which is this joy and this laughter.
And so, so Father, we thank you.
We thank you for your word.
We thank you that you declared over us
and over our year, over the season together
that this would be a year of breakthrough.
And we say yes and amen as we've continued in this year
in the big and the small breakthroughs, Lord,
we say yes and amen.
And it's okay if we don't feel it yet, if we don't see it yet, if we might feel like we
haven't fully experienced yet, because we know the truth and we know that no word from you
will ever fail. Nothing is impossible for you. I thought this was really interesting.
The Lord just brought this to my remembrance. So we were watching over the Thanksgiving week,
we were watching a little bit of the World Cup, the soccer or football, depending on where you're
from, World Cup, and Adidas as a major sponsor, and they had this huge banner across like the
different advertisements on the field, and it said, impossible is nothing. I just love that.
Creation speaks, guys, the rocks cry out. Impossible is nothing. So yeah, Lord, thank
you for that remembrance, bringing that to my remembrance. Impossible is nothing.
Nothing is impossible for you.
Jesus, we thank you that we are one with you, that our spirits know, intimately know the truth
and are operating in that truth because of you, because you made us one with you.
And Jesus, I thank you for that you came. This is such an interesting, you know,
there's no coincidence, you know, we are celebrating a season. We're celebrating the
beginning, the new beginning of you coming to earth at the ending of our year. You crown our
year with goodness, with the remembrance that you came and that you didn't leave us and you're
never forsaking us, that we are now hidden in you and that you are living in us and there's no
separation. And Holy Spirit, we thank you that you are leading us and guiding us in this truth.
We continue to ask for liberal amounts of wisdom.
We thank you that knowledge and understanding are ours,
but it's okay if we don't know everything because we know you.
We can release ourselves from the pressure of having to have it all figured out, of having to
have everything, know everything, being able to articulate everything perfectly. We just have to
know you. You're the gift, you're the helper, you're the advocate, you're our comforter and that's enough.
Our futures are not unknown, they're just unseen. And in the unseenness, in that gap of what we
can't see right now, we've been given the gift, the faith of God to fill that gap.
So there are no gaps, there's only fullness. Thank you, Lord.
So I don't know who this like word is for specifically, maybe it's for many people that
are on this call or might be watching the replay. But it was something that came to
our conversation I was having with the Lord today. So I'm just going to speak it out and you can
receive it if you want. And I'm not, I know better, so I'm not going to like point out age, but I do
feel like it was for people in, I think it could be for any of us, but it's for people who are feeling
aged out. You could be 35 like me and feel aged out of things. I'm starting to feel more and more
of that gap between me and the next generation, if that makes sense. Like the relevance is
dwindling, it feels to me in many ways. And so anyway, what the word was, what the conversation
was with the Lord is that some of us are feeling the weight of, I should have known better sooner.
We're discovering things now in our walk with God. Again, you could be 65 or you could be 25
listening to this, but it's the feeling, it's not really age specific. It's just the feeling of
there has been longevity with the Lord. And there's things that you're only discovering
now for the first time. And there's a temptation to feel upset or bitter or resentful or shameful
because of that. Because you're like, I should have known this sooner. And the temptation is to
focus on quote unquote, time wasted. But what was really interesting with the Lord when I was
talking to me about is like, he was reminding me of the way that he looks at time is not the way
that we sometimes relate with time because we relate with time very linear, very chronologically
here on earth, because that's the way that the world does it. But that's not how he,
he's not bound by time. So he views time very differently. He takes his time.
You know, he's, he's not, he's not rushed.
And I felt like what he was showing me, I'm going to see if I can articulate this because
it was an internal conversation, but that there's things for each generation to overcome
and then hand over to the next generation.
And we've heard it said before, like I've heard it said by spiritual fathers, we want
our ceiling to be the next generation's floor, right?
So it's that picture, right?
But there was, there's a need for the, that, for the, for, you know, whatever generation
you're in, it takes time to discover things so that it doesn't take time for the next
generation.
So we accelerate things for the next generation, but the tension is the next generation can
operate quicker in certain truths that have taken us decades to realize.
And the temptation is to feel like we should have picked it up as, as quick as they did.
So I think about things like, I'm trying to think of examples, like that have happened
globally in the church, like the grace message, right?
Like when the grace message arose, there was an older generation that had lived decades
under a different revelation, and then all of a sudden it was like, boom.
And then you had, you know, like millennials like me being like, kind of growing up in
it like, well, duh, of course, like it's, of course it's grace.
How could you believe something different?
Right.
And, and sometimes that, that exchange isn't always mature, right?
Cause you're dealing with a younger generation who lacks, sometimes they have the energy,
but maybe not the wisdom of being able to receive fully that gift of thank, thank God
it took you decades to discover and then mature in this.
And then you just, and then it's just a gift from you.
Right.
And then, and that generation will have their thing, right?
That they'll hand on to the next generation.
But the point is, is that if there's a temptation for anyone listening about anything, it could
be, it could be big truths.
It could just be things that maybe you're, you're dealing with, with friend groups, church
communities, even family, right?
Like there's this temptation to think, man, if I had known this sooner than, you know,
fill in the blank, whatever you think that would have fixed, whatever problems you think
that would have solved, whatever pain you think that would have helped you avoid or
others avoid.
But the Lord wants to remind us that like, there's a reason why it takes time and you're
not behind, you're right where you need to be because as much as there's things that
you're contributing globally to the body of Christ and the communities that you're a part
of the faith communities of families, a part of everything comes back to your individual
journey with the Lord.
That's what he's most occupied by.
It's that internal territory, like the whole reason we're here.
Some people might argue this, that's okay.
But I believe the whole reason we're here is to have that relationship with the Lord, to
develop a relationship with our Lord, for us to real, to make what, for him to make what is
real realized to us and for us to remember what we've always known to be true, even before
we were in our mother's womb.
And so that's enough.
And so you can release yourself from the pressure of all the shoulds, it should have been
this way, or I should have done it this way, because even, even if that's true, he covers
us, we're covered.
Not hidden because he's ashamed of us, covered like a loving father.
He covers us, and so you can release all the shoulds.
I just felt like, I mean, I might even share that with the greater group later in a
different call, but I just felt like that was for this advancement group because we have so
many different generations and age groups represented.
But what's so sweet to me about our group is the longevity that we all represents,
because we've all, even, even those of us who are younger, I say younger because that's
relative, but we all, we all bring this longevity with the Lord.
And what I love about this group is there's a humility in us that we can still be new at
it. Like no one is resistant to that in our group, like, oh my gosh, like I'm just
discovering for the first time and we come with this delight, like don't ever use, lose
that childlike wonder.
Don't ever lose that childlike wonder.
So the Lord just wants to remind you, I don't think it's specifically, I think it's for
many, but that's the word I kind of wanted to bring to this call.
I felt like the Lord said, like, it's OK that it took time, that it's taking time.
There's no wasted time.
This is about you and me and the journey that we're on.
and the fruit of that other generations peers even some of our spiritual
fathers and mothers will eat of because that's how good God is the fruit kind of
goes all around right but don't worry about the time it takes or the time it
took the sweetness is that you took him at his word you pursued him you're
continuing to do that continuing to steward that relationship and that's
that's that's his delight that's his delight so father we thank you for that
word we thank you for just a reminder that you're not bound by time and
neither are we time is a gift it's not a bad thing it's not a negative thing it's
a gift that you've given us here on earth it's a boundary that falls in
pleasant places for your your people and we're thankful that you allow us to take
our time that we're not up against time we're not running out of time there's
nothing to fear because you are with us we have everything we need including the
time that we need for what it is that you would like for us to accomplish what
you like for us to experience you would like for us to discover and explore here
on earth and I thank you for the fruit of this group and everyone that's on
this call right now Amy and Bridget and Susie and Tamara and I don't know who
iPhone is again but iPhone and anyone who's listening on Facebook and we
watching the replay Lord what we are your people and we delight in you and
you delight in us and I thank you for the fruit that is represented the fruit
that we have yet to bear the fruit that we have bore the fruit that we are
bearing now in our relationship and are abiding with you it's not a bitter fruit
it's a ripe sweet fruit that people eat of and they taste and know your goodness
from it Lord I thank you for the year that is ahead I thank you that we can
walk boldly into the year full of confidence full of expectation full of
anticipation that we can leave any fear any anxiety any trepidation behind that
we don't have to bring any of that negativity into the new year that we
stand strong in you that even in our weakness your power is made perfect
there's literally no gaps there's no gaps there's only you we have everything
we need I Lord I know that represented here tonight are probably needs and
there's prayer requests and there's desires of our hearts that we are
desperate to see there's there's things that we there's longings and there's
prayers and Lord you know you know what they are you know you know the details
of those requests and those needs even even better than we do Lord give us eyes
to see what it is that you're doing give us ears to hear what it is that you're
saying remove resistance from us remove any make known to us what you what is
make known to us Lord what is important to you lead us and guide us in that
truth Bill Johnson said something you guys I
think you know that Bruce 910 Bethel writing online it's our church home and
Bill saying yesterday Sunday he was sharing and something he said so stuck
with me he said surrender will take you everywhere you need to go surrender will
take you everywhere you need to go and it's a letting go you know we have we
all have probably our definition of what surrender is our stories of surrender
but just it's this release that I feel like the Lord is wanting us to like a
like a like a deeper level of release that requires that you know delight of
belief just like a letting go like if we find ourselves like feeling stuck if
we find ourselves feeling burdened by again the shoulds the could have all
those things like just to release just a letting go and and it coming from a
place of not defeat we're not defeated it's coming from a place of trust new
levels of trust I know Amy has been on this journey of rest me to Amy and it's
it's you know it's it's let it's a letting go it's not necessarily in an
activity you have something to add Amy I really do because you know I'm
navigating rest and I'm
walking into breakthrough.
And I knew that there were going to be lots of,
you know, I was going to get lots of wonderful practice.
And I've felt the Lord pulling me back a little bit
on my pod, I mean, like on my daily reels.
I mean, like not as much grace as, you know,
to flow in that, but there's a whole lot of other things,
you know, that are filling my time too.
And so this was just yesterday.
I woke up and in the night,
I was aware that I was having this dialogue,
but it wasn't with the Lord, it was with my audience.
And so I brought that to him and I could just sense
in my spirit that he was saying,
I really, really, really mean this
about rest and delight.
And there are things that I need you to hear from me
and I want that dialogue to be us.
And so I, you know, I was just being honest with him,
putting it out there for him.
And I felt squeezed between a rock and a hard place.
And I told, I knew that sometime back, you know, years back,
but he basically gave me a key to get out
between the rock and the hard place,
because he said, I'm in there.
And I know he's the rock.
And it was like, I could identify that the hard place
was my own resistance.
And what he spoke to me, you know, as I was like here,
you know, just surrendering that
and what goes along with that, you know,
like, who's going to take care of my people?
Not that, but you know, but you know,
those kinds of thoughts, you know, fear of man,
just several things that would try to peck at your mind
in the surrender.
And he's never shown me this before,
but he said, when the hard place goes,
you'll find yourself in the cleft of the rock
where you'll get to see my glory and my goodness.
And where there really is,
where there is just that sweetest place of delight and joy.
So.
It's a beautiful promise.
I know it is.
So I'm like, okay, you know, and you know,
I know I'll see many more rocks and hard places,
but to know that there's a better place in the cleft,
you know, that it really is about surrendering
when I'm bumping up again.
What a shift for you, because, you know,
you've shared a lot of what you've walked through,
what you're walking out of
when it comes to perfectionism and performance,
like to have that picture of like a new way
of moving forward, where maybe before you just stayed,
you know, you stayed stuck, quote unquote,
with that resistance, trying to keep it all together.
Yeah.
And it's like,
and it's like, there's a new way.
Yeah.
That's very cool.
That's very powerful.
I love that.
Thank you for sharing.
Could you pray?
Cause I feel like there's probably other people.
I mean, myself included that, that spoke to,
and we're like, you know, just pray that
however you feel led, but that we could all walk in that,
in the fullness of that promise.
Yes, I will.
Father, I thank you.
I thank you for your goodness and your glory.
And Lord, truly, truly, everything,
everything that comes to us is you.
And you so want to share yourself with us.
And I thank you, Lord, as Lindsay said,
that we're covered, even in what we might be experiencing
as friction or resistance or a tight space,
that you are the rock and you fill the space, Lord.
And you show us what the other side is.
And so, Lord, I pray for an opening of all of our eyes
to see when we come into those spots,
that we know that there is that beautiful divine exchange.
We're like literally on the.
threshold of it. And it looks like yielding to you. It looks
like surrender. And I thank you, God, for your grace, the grace
that covers us when we're pushing up against the hard
place, and the grace that you give us Lord to release. And I
pray God, just for a, just a release from your hand of the
ability to release that grace, the power to release Lord so we
can hide in the cleft of the rock where you were you hid
Moses and, and, and let him behold your glory and your
goodness. And Lord, we get to behold from within the
revelation of your Holy Spirit. We live, we live in a better
day. We get to host your glory in us. And so Lord, open our
eyes. And as we draw near to the end of the year, Lord, I pray
that you would open our eyes to see what you have been doing.
All the things that you've done in each of our lives, Lord, that
we would, that we would connect with you on those things and
offer up thanksgiving, and praise to you, and anticipation,
expectation of how you're going to develop those things, Lord,
and how those things are going to bear more fruit and richer
fruit in our lives. So I just thank you Lord for pouring out
on us tonight in Jesus name.
So I was going to read you guys a so going back to Luke one, I
made a note in my Bible. This is why journaling is important
because if I had made this on my phone, I might not have ever
revisited it again. But I actually hand wrote in my Bible,
December 17 2019. And I was jotting down when the angel
speaking to to Zachariah about John's birth got kind of
prophesying it. And he talks about how you will have joy and
gladness and many will rejoice at his birth. And this was
December 2019. And what I didn't know at the time was that
this was going to be my final Christmas without a baby in it.
Because we found out we were pregnant with Hannah in
January. So I mean, in July, I'm sorry. And so we were expecting
her she was very much in our lives by December 2020, even
though she hadn't been born yet. So I didn't know. So again,
guys, your future's not unknown. It's just unseen. I had I what I
did not see yet was that this was gonna be my final Christmas
when I you know, circled Luke 114, you will have joy and
gladness and many will rejoice at his birth. And it was cool. I
just found that I saw that note. And I was like, wow, I did not
realize that when that promise just kind of spoke to me. I
don't even know if I was thinking about a baby. I just
you know, that's just what this what the verse was about. But
joy and gladness, joy and gladness. And so this is where
we get to dream where we get to just allow ourselves to
prophetically flow internally. What what would December 2023
look like? If the deepest desire of your heart was birthed next
year? This time next year, if you're, you know, checking out
Luke one, and you've got a little notation in your Bible,
what would it look like? Do we even know what that desire is?
You know, sometimes we don't even give ourselves the grace
and the space to just allow ourselves to desire. So I just
want to take I just want to take a few minutes, it might be a
little awkward and take some silence, you can close your
eyes, you can turn off your camera, even if you need to
focus. Just allow Monica's joining, I'll let her join.
Maybe she's been listening on Facebook. Just allow yourself to
prophetically dream a little bit of what would it look like?
What would it feel like? What would it be like? What would it
what would it look like if this time next year, my deepest
desire had been birthed?
You
have the space and the grace to say, okay, what would those,
what would it look like? What are those deep desires? Um,
maybe for some of you, there was an external focus,
which is totally fine. Like there was for me, I'm like, oh,
I would love this to be happening financially in our business.
And I would love to be working on this project. That's great.
But the Lord was also like, okay, now what, what, what internally,
who do you want to be this time next year?
Um, like if the deepest,
what is the deepest desires of your heart for who, who Lindsay is,
how Lindsay shows up in this world?
What does it look like in your inner world?
What is the deepest desires there? What does that internal territory look like?
It's a great conversation to have. What is the internal territory?
What is the external territory? Going back to Luke,
going back to the Christmas story
in Luke two, first 19.
Um, you know, all the things are happening,
all the logistics of the birth and people coming and people going.
And there's just this like beautiful, like
little pause of a scene in the midst of all the things happening, you know,
the angels and the shepherds and everything. And it says,
Mary treasured up all these things and pondered them in her heart.
And so what I would love to encourage us to do is do that.
Like take some time this month after, you know,
this is just the start of a, of a conversation with the Lord.
What would it look like if this time, if this time next year,
the deepest desires of my heart were birthed?
What would it look like? What it would feel, what would it feel like?
What would it feel like to be a part of a conversation with the Lord?
What would it look like? What it would feel, what would it feel like?
Who would I be? How would I show up?
What would my inner world look like? What my external world look like?
Allowing ourselves to even be open to that possibility
attracts heaven's dialogue about that possibility.
Meaning when we become, when we, when we choose, like,
I'm going to dream about this. I'm going to pray about this.
I'm going to prophesy about this. I'm going to have conversations with the Lord.
It's amazing to me what begins to open up the things I start to take notice of,
right? Perhaps this has happened to you.
The universe gets a lot of credit for it, but it's the wrong,
you're giving the universe a lot of credit for something that the Lord,
the Lord is right. It's just that you have, you have made a choice.
Your will has opened up the possibility of conversation. So now heaven's like,
Oh, and this and this, and let's talk about this and let me show you this.
And here's a scripture verse. And here's a promise that confirms that.
And here's a conversation with a friend that confirms that.
And here's some dialogue in this TV show that you're watching that confirms that,
right? Like, it's amazing
how the Lord will use kind of all of creation to confirm his word.
When you have, instead of kind of going from passive mode,
we just start to go into receiving mode. Of course, like, Lord,
I'm going to be open to this. I mean, open to this conversation.
I'm going to be open to this pot,
to this possibility and I'm going to be open to the promise that with you,
nothing is impossible. I'm going to be opened up to that. I'm not,
I'm going to release. I'm like, Amy said, I'm going to let go.
I'm going to release the resistance in my own head and heart. That's going to say,
but what about this? What about that?
I'm going to recognize that I don't,
it's not my sole responsibility to look out for all the loopholes and all the
what ifs and protect myself from worst case scenarios,
because I have a Holy spirit who's my helper and my advocate who's leading me
and guiding me into all truth.
And it's Holy spirit's responsibility to lead me and guide me in that.
It's not my responsibility to protect myself in the midst of walking out the
promises of God and allowing myself to explore possibility
and push my boundaries into pleasant places.
Right. So just ponder them in your heart and,
and maybe, and this is not like a mandatory thing, but for me,
this is helpful because I have a tendency to, you know,
like need to articulate it immediately. Just ponder it.
Just let it be between you and the Lord for a little bit.
It doesn't have to be secretive.
It doesn't have to be mean you can't talk to the people you love and trust,
but just take some time. Cause you have the time.
As we talked about earlier on this call, you have the time.
You don't have to rush it. You don't have to be like, Oh my gosh,
this is what it is. Now let's make it happen. Just ponder it.
Allow the Lord to speak to you. However he wants to speak to you.
I mean, you can be bold like Gideon and throw out a fleece if you want, but,
but maybe we can just.
trust the Lord enough to say, Lord, I know you well enough to know that you're always
speaking and that you're more invested in me hearing what you have to say than I am
sometimes.
And I trust you to cover me in what may have been blind spots in the past or resistance
in the past or ways that I haven't been open to hearing you before.
Just know that I'm choosing you, Lord, and I'm trusting that you're going to speak to
me however you want to speak to me and that I will have eyes to see it and I will have
ears to hear it.
Because I'm choosing to be open to it.
I'm open to possibilities and I'm open to it looking maybe different than I thought
it needed to look and I'm open to it looking different than other people think it needs
to look because everyone gets really excited for you sometimes.
And it can be this and it can be that.
And sometimes that's helpful.
Sometimes it's just overwhelming and distracting.
It's like, no, no, no, I just need to take a second.
I'm going to treasure this up in my heart.
I'm going to ponder it.
The Lord's crowning this year with goodness.
This is not a heavy thing.
It doesn't have to be a heavy thing.
It can be a delightful thing.
It can be a lot of laughter, a lot of joy, because the expectation and the responsibility
is placed in the one who can actually carry it.
It's not on us.
It's on him.
We are joyfully participating and partnering, but we do not have to carry the responsibility
of making it happen.
We can release control to him.
We can release the outcome to him.
That's scary.
You know, when you're reading, when you're reading the Christmas story, there are so
many moments where heaven shows up, right?
Like tangible heaven, angels show up.
And what do they say?
Do not fear.
This is, this is good news, joy and gladness.
This is good stuff.
Joy.
And they say it to John.
I mean, not John.
They say it to Zachariah, John's father, joy and gladness.
People are going to be rejoicing.
They say it to Mary.
Do not fear.
To the shepherds, do not fear.
To Joseph, do not fear.
This is good stuff.
This is, this is good stuff, weighty, weighty stuff, not heavy, not crushing.
Only crushing to the enemy.
Only a crushing blow to the enemy, not to us, not to us.
So father, we thank you.
We thank you for your word that never fails.
We thank you that you are a good father who is intricately involved with the desires of
our heart.
Like that blows me away, that the creator of the universe, God himself, the beginning
and the end, the great I am, is intricately involved in the desires of my heart, how valuable
I must be.
And so Lord, with that, I'm opening myself up to possibilities and I'll allow you guys
to do the same for yourself.
If you want to say yes to this, I'm opening myself up to the possibilities of experiencing
the birthing of the deepest desires of my heart.
Knowing Lord that you cover me fully, that I am in the fullness of Christ, that I have
been brought to fullness in Christ.
There's no gaps.
There's nothing lacking.
There's no soul scraping that needs to take place.
There's no fear of me, you know, missing the mark, not getting it right.
The desires of my heart being evil, that is old.
I'm a new creation in Christ.
His desires are my desires.
My desires are his desires.
That's what I choose to believe.
That is what I'm opening myself up to.
I'm opening myself up to all the possibilities that can be placed within that existence.
So Lord, I thank you that that is possible and because that is possible, nothing is impossible.
Nothing is impossible.
That is what we are walking out of 2022 fully embracing and what we are walking into 2023
fully experiencing.
Thank you, Lord. Does anybody else have anything that is resonating that they want to share?
Hey, Bridget, I see that hand, you can unmute yourself.
Thank you. Yeah, this was very encouraging. Thanks, Lindsay. This morning, Dion and I were
listening to one of Graham's talks, and I don't know what the title was, but it was good. But
the thing that really got to me, which I'm sure if you've listened to Graham, you've heard it,
and that is that anytime you go into a situation, good or bad, you ask the Lord,
who is he going to be to you in this situation? And, you know, he gave so many wonderful examples
of just going into tough situations and how the Lord wants to get excited with us as we get into
those new situations that are good and positive. But then in the difficult situations, you know,
who is he going to be in that difficult situation that he couldn't be in another one. So if you're
living in peace, you don't understand how he can be a peace to you in your times of trouble,
because you have to be in trouble to have the peace. And so just this morning, we were, you
know, Dion and I were talking about that, what would it look like if we truly did believe that
every situation we enter into, we are going hand in hand with the Lord. And it reminded me of my
friend, one of my best friends was divorced and single for 21 years. And then she got married to
an amazing man. And but for the first few months, she just was so used to being so independent and
taking care of the house and taking care of her car. And he kept on her new husband kept on saying,
you know, I want to help you. And that's what the picture I got that the Lord is standing there
wanting to step in and enjoy things with us, but also to, you know, get in and be something that we
can't experience in another situation. So, you know, as we think of the next year and things that
we, you know, we, things that we want to become and see, we must remember, and I just want to
encourage us, I think you said this in a different way, Lindsay, but we're not going into this alone,
we're going into it with him living inside us. And he's like standing there saying, I'm so excited
for this year with you. And, you know, just to enter it like my friend with her new husband,
you know, he's waiting to be there to help us in every situation. It's just a matter of, you know,
it's not like he's just sitting on our shoulder and, you know, ignoring him. He wants to be part
of it for the difficult times and the celebration times as well. That's really good. That's a great
reminder. Yeah. I just have to chime in. And I first just have to thank you, Lord. This is
so timely. Thank you for your goodness. Oh, you're so good to us. You're so good to me.
And I just thank you that, like, when I get stuck, or when I feel like I'm stuck, here you come.
And you just come just sit next to me as I'm just wallowing.
And as I'm just stuck in my thoughts, and you just come just plop down next to me,
and just listen and sit with me. And you're there. And then you help me up.
Off that step. And so I just thank you. And on this night, I receive,
Lord, I just receive the ability to receive, to not have to figure it out, work it out,
figure it out again. I have to say that again. Because of all you know me, God, you know that
I'm always the one in my family, Lord, trying to figure it out, trying to make it happen,
trying to work it out. And I just get to be your daughter. And I get to have you hold my hand
through each door, through each new possibility, through the words that you've spoken over my life.
And all of my sisters that are on this line. And for those that are watching,
Lord, I thank you that we get to hold your hand, that you are a part of this.
And you're not separated from us. And that yeah, even if we're just sitting on the step,
like we lost our best friend, here you come just to sit down beside us and just be with us.
And you help us up off the step. You don't leave us there. So I just want to thank you. I just
thank you for coming alongside me, for coming alongside us, wherever we are in our journeys
of seeing the dreams that you've placed in our hearts and the visions and the sure words that
have been spoken to us, either directly from you or through another.
the man or woman of God, or even a child, Lord,
that no matter where we are in that process,
you are so close and you come by.
Each time we might trip up and get stuck,
you come by just in the nick of time.
So yes, I do complain about your timing from time to time,
but you are so perfectly on time every single time.
So I'm just gonna publicly say that and say, thank you.
Amen and amen.
I love how you modeled for us
that laughter of delight, Tamera.
Like, oh yeah, sometimes I, ha, ha, ha.
Sometimes I get caught up in the time.
That's kind of funny.
Like that is the posture, guys.
That is the, that's what it looks like.
I love that.
Hey, Susie.
I'm excited because it's like,
I have spent decades not really trusting God
and trying to make things happen
because I didn't really trust him.
And then, okay, coming back again, okay.
With just not getting postings done
and not really believing that the Holy Spirit does care
and he is gonna tell me what he wants to me say,
just all of that.
And saying, Lord, who are you gonna be for me in this?
And him just saying, I'm gonna be your faith.
I'm gonna be your faith.
We're gonna do this.
And my dream at the end of the year
is there will be no doubt.
I know, I know now.
God's got a postcard that he's handing me
to hand to other people.
Let's just do it and not worry about it.
And I was talking to somebody,
wise old man who's not necessarily a Christian kind of,
and I said something about my inability or something.
He said, but that's not true.
It was like, what?
That's not true.
And it just really gave me that awareness.
I'm gonna be doing that
when these different thoughts come up.
I don't need to talk about them.
You're talking about figuring it out.
I don't need to talk about it.
That's not true.
And I don't know if anybody else is going through this.
I am making a shift,
working with this man, helping me to see who I am
and that I am a pursuer of truth, wanting what's right.
The other side of that is really uncomfortable
when things are wrong.
And how do you have that peace?
And the word he gave,
anyway, it's about God's varied,
a rich longing for his divine order.
And it was a new thought for me of not my order,
not my idea of anything that it's like,
that's all I thought and to realize, oh no, divine order.
And I get to say, yes, thank you to divine order
when I don't know what it is, but I know he's doing it.
And there's no wrong in divine order.
And I think what you were saying too,
and I had a couple instances of being able to see,
oh yeah, this really, really bad situation
wasn't really bad.
God did something with it and it was good.
And to be free from even thinking about wrong,
I mean, that blows my mind.
But like you were saying, Bridget,
how about if we just believe that God is there with us
every single moment?
I mean, what he says, all it is is what he says.
What he said, we can take it to the bank
because he said it.
We're not making it up, he said it.
Oh, so good, it's powerful.
Thank you for sharing that, Susie.
I love that, that you have that deep desire
for justice, for goodness.
That's a God idea, not a Susie idea.
But what's so cool is that that desire for you,
that need, he can fill it.
I love that.
Just one little thing, a situation
that would have distressed me, I'm getting peace in.
And so, ongoing thing, getting peace in it.
And I just felt God saying, okay, this is nice.
How about if we start changing the atmosphere here?
Oh, yeah.
I like that.
You're going to shift some atmospheres, Susie.
Peace is good.
And I, you know, you know, hear me right.
Peace is good, but let's go on the offensive spiritually and fill this
place with glory and God's divine order.
I am so excited about finding out what God's divine order means.
Yeah.
Bring us back a report.
I'm sure he's showing everybody, but
in his own way, you're going from, from feeling that pressure to keep the
peace and you're coming up powerfully and boldly, and you're starting to make
peace, that's the difference.
You're not a peacekeeper, you're a peacemaker.
And that requires some drive and some shifting.
Peace is a driver.
Drives things out, drives things in.
Can come across, can be, can be, is extremely aggressive to the enemy's camp,
but extremely gentle to the people of God.
That's peace.
That's very cool.
Well, I know we're coming in for a landing.
We might end it a little bit early tonight.
Um, but does anyone else have anything they want to share before I close this out?
I think everyone has shared except for mine.
And I know Monica's on the, on the clock.
So it's cool that she could join us for a little bit, but, um, I want to bless you
guys as we go into this final month, this final chapter of 2022, I mean, can you
even believe it?
I mean, in many ways, I feel like I was, we were getting on here with you guys,
with the members in April saying like April is going to be a powerful month.
And it was, I think it, I think it launched us into many things personally,
corporately, but here we are in December ready to take on a new year, but we don't
have to rush it.
We can take our time in December, take our time, soak it up, enjoy it, ponder in your
heart, the things that God's going to be speaking to you about that deep desire.
Um, you guys know, Ashley Perez, who's in our group.
She is in a, she leads a group that I'm a part of.
And she said something that was so brilliant.
I love the way she put it.
She was talking about need and desire.
Cause the question came up in the group about that.
And she was saying, if you're, if you're feeling like I don't quite know, like if
you're, if you leave tonight and you're like, I'm not really quite sure if I've
like pinpointed, like what it is for me and you're wanting some clarity on that.
There was two questions that she said, she said, um, and I'm paraphrasing because I
was, you know, in that mode where I was listening, but also trying to take notes.
But so I'm going back and I'm going to watch the replay of it.
She says, you know, what do you have a deep desire for others to know or
for, to teach other people?
Like what, like for Susie, you're like, I want people to know the truth, right?
Like I have a deep passion to like, bring that to other people.
And what do you long for others to know?
Like, how do you long, long for others to know you by like, I know for me, I mean,
and this looks different cause there's deep desires in my heart that don't
necessarily fit into this mold.
Right.
But for me, like, that was what peace was.
That was like, for me, I was like, I want others to know me as a peaceful person
and I want to bring peace to other people.
And what she's, what she said was so interesting.
What she said often it's that deep passion in us that is, that sometimes
comes from a place of, of, we did not have that from others.
Like it was, it was a, it was a gap, so to speak within our own story or
perceived gap within our own story.
Others weren't that for us, or we weren't, we don't feel like we've
got that from earthly means.
And so that is so that people who are very justice driven, for example,
sometimes it's because they did not have a voice speaking for their justice.
They did not have someone defending them.
So they have a deep desire.
Um, all that to say, to wrap this up, God fills that need.
Some of us walk our whole entire lives with that need, not
realizing that he fills that need.
Like really like not in theory, not because we have a scripture verse
to like place in that gap, but like we can actually walk out of a wounding,
a generational wounding for some of us that goes generations back.
We can walk out of that wounding simply by knowing the need is
filled.
It's already, it's already filled.
My emotions might be catching up to that.
My thoughts might be catching up to that.
My physical body and some of the symptoms that it might have been
manifesting because of that feeling of need might be catching up to that, but
it's, it's a need that's already filled.
And.
When we recognize that, that so what I love what Susie was talking about,
cause Susie, I feel like you've walked, I'm using you as an example.
You've walked that out with the Lord.
You've walked that realization with the Lord, Lee is filling.
And now you're coming to a place where from that, from that knowing of him,
sorry, guys, I'm sort of covering.
Now others will be blessed.
Sorry.
I almost made it through the entire call, but you hear what I'm saying?
Now there's external territory to take place.
Now there's an external expression of that internal truth, but we're not,
we're not walking wounded, trying to fill other people's wounds or
heal other people's wounds while we're still bleeding out.
We're recognizing the Lord is the Lord has filled the need.
Whatever that need is, whatever that desire is.
And now an manifestation of that, and that doesn't just manifest
and necessarily a ministry movement.
Sometimes that manifest manifest in home life.
Sometimes that manifest in just financial provision and, and blessing
in favor and conversations with people in, um, connections and networks.
It's pretty cool.
So anyway, the Lord brought that to my remembrance that
Ashley was talking about that.
All right, let's pray.
I'd love to close this out.
So father, thank you.
Thank you.
We bask in the goodness of who you are, Lord.
It's not about the stuff.
It's not about the outcomes.
It's not about the positive circumstances, overcoming
the negative circumstances.
It's you, you're the gift.
Our knowing you are experiencing you.
That's enough.
And it's not a constellation prize.
It is a grand trophy.
It is our prize, our pleasure and our portion.
It's our inheritance.
And we bask in it, Lord.
We love you, Lord.
We love how you love us.
We love how you delight in us.
We thank you for your favor upon us, your smile upon us.
We thank you that we start every day fresh in you, that your mercies and
compassion is new every morning, limitless, never running out, never running dry.
We thank you that we have your joy.
We have your fullness.
We thank you that we have your likeness, that we're being made into your image,
that, that there is, there is literally a dream in your heart, Lord, that there
would not be a recognizable difference in us and you, between us and you, that
we would, we would become so like you that there would be no recognizable difference.
Say la.
Lord, thank you for this year.
Thank you for everything that you have poured out for us in this year.
Thank you for even the things that we don't yet recognize or see in the natural,
that our spirit knows to be true.
Lord, we thank you for all the protection and the provision that
we might not have even perceived.
But we know that there was so much goodness saturating every part of our
lives that we just, our, our natural brains didn't even comprehend the amount
of goodness that we were saturated in, that we are saturated in, that we
will continue to be saturated in.
And that's okay.
Our spirits know the truth and our spirits are making known the truth,
partnering with the Holy Spirit and making known the truth to every part of our being.
Lord, we thank you that you have placed us in this point in time for such a time as
this, there's no coincidence.
We are, our feet are on the ground that it, that you meant for it to be.
We are touching the people that you meant for us to touch, that you planned for us
to touch, we are connected to the people you want us to be connected with.
We are open to the possibilities, Lord.
We are open to that conversation with you.
Show us, give us eyes to see, give us ears to hear.
I pray for each and everyone on this call
and in our advancement group
and in our larger community, Lord,
as we celebrate this beautiful time of year,
these precious, precious holy days.
Lord, I pray that you would just saturate it with your joy,
that no matter what the family dynamics may be,
or maybe there's people that are missing this year,
maybe there's people that are experiencing grief,
Lord, I just pray that you would meet them in that place
and show yourself to them and open their eyes
and open their ears so they can experience you
like never before.
You know what it is that they need,
you've already filled that need.
Make what is real, realize to them.
May this Christmas be filled with a tangible sense
of your goodness and your presence
and your favor like never before.
I know the circumstances will look different for everyone
and it may not be what we want,
but Lord, you are what we need,
and you're enough, you're enough.
Teach us to let go, teach us how to surrender,
teach us how to trust.
Lord, help us remove any unbelief
so that just like Susie declared,
there is no more doubt.
And we pray all these things in the precious name
and nature of Jesus, amen, amen.
Lindsay, one thing I wanted to,
I love that when you said no recognizable difference
between us and Jesus, you know,
because we wonder, okay, how does that all work?
I had a friend who talked about Jesus is ice cream
and I'm the Susie flavor of Jesus.
I like that.
Jesus is ice cream.
Susie, I will never forget that.
Yeah, so we're all a different flavor of Jesus.
I love that, I love that.
It's true.
It's all, we're all unique expressions of one beloved son.
It's pretty powerful.
He's the head, we're the body, it makes sense.
I love you guys so much.
We'll be on the call tomorrow.
Thank you so much for joining, bringing your strength
and I will see you guys later this week, tomorrow, okay.
Bye.