I'm going to share my screen.
Hey everyone.
Good to see you.
Happy New Year.
2023.
Let's go.
We were like we're gonna do super low key New Year's Eve, and it was about, I think it's about 830, and the power, like in our town that we're here like went out.
It was like out for an hour. So like this is a really low key New Year's Eve but thankfully we weren't at the restaurant so we weren't at like a party we're just like sitting on the couch like well, I think the Lord is telling us to just soak up
the rest.
And then it came back on but like an hour later but I mean I didn't even make it till midnight, I was like, I feel like it's just a prophetic word to me that like I'm going to have a just a year of a really healthy relationship with time, and not
feeling pressured to do all the things all the time so that's wonderful.
Only make sure that we're live. Yes, we are.
I've been having some really and I'm sure you guys have to just conversations with the Lord about what he has in store for this new year and it's actually been fun for me to there's a few prophets that I trust and follow and just to see what
they've been what they've been posting. And there's one guy, Nate Johnston who had posted something recently and I just thought it was really just a very fun confirmation because it was a wonderful word that he shared about revolutionaries and but one
that this is a year of advancement, which is what we've been speaking as a community so I thought oh that's really fun like I don't know this guy personally I just also miss things but it seems like Holy Spirit is highlighting, even that posture of advancing
into something to others so that was pretty cool.
And we can also share you guys know that, you know, the, the vibe for these calls as you can share as well so if you feel like there's things of the Lord sharing with you about this year.
I would love to hear it but what I was talking to the Lord about, you know what I'm wanting to do a better practice of is not forgetting all that he's already spoken, right, because it's it's tempting sometimes to get into a rhythm of constantly
looking for the next word from God always looking for a fresh word, and while we're sitting on sometimes years of prophetic words that he shared with us and so that's something that I wanted to be more aware of in my walk with him of not always looking
for the next new word, but also revisiting what he's spoken and treasuring his word treasuring up his word over my life but also what I feel like he's speaking over our community, my family, etc.
And so, so I was doing that on the 31st even just, you know, remind the Lord was reminding me because I even asked the Holy Spirit sometimes Lord, bring to my remembrance, what has been spoken because I know that that so much has been spoken
or I don't write it down or maybe I don't know where to reference it, you know.
And so, the Lord was bringing me, you know, back to that prayer that we've been praying kind of throughout our prophetic calls together I think I mentioned it on our very first I didn't get a chance to go back and watch but the very first one that we did
when we were even doing eight week intensive together and doing these weekly calls and that was Lord, make what is real realized. And it's just been the cry of my heart this year, you know.
And so I was having a conversation with him and one thing that he told me that we're kind of conversing about was you know every anxiety, every sadness, every grief that we face here on earth is be it's attached to an experience that we have that is
not true to the kingdom of God.
And it's in our, we know it, like we, you know, we talked about this as well.
Something that I'm, I'm, I'm believing more of and I'm my, you know, searching scripture for two is I feel like we're not just learning the truth for the first time but we're being coming reacquainted with what we already know to be true, because our spirits
that are alive in Christ formed, you know, before even time began know the truth and their mind, as we become spirit led, we're walking in that union with Christ we're becoming reminded of what we always know to be true but our, our creation bears witness
to it right so our bodies and our souls, you know when we experience sadness or grief, it's, it's because we know some things. This isn't the way it's supposed to be right we're experiencing something that's not aligning with what we know even if we can't
fully articulate it in the natural, what we know to be true, true to the kingdom of God, it does not mean that what we experience is
not real. So I know that there have even there's been theologies built off of
these kind of like, let's live in denial of the negativity in life. And that's
not healthy either. So I'm not saying it's not real, you know, we experienced
real greed, we are we experience humanity, right? But it's, it's, there
is a greater reality that we're a part of. And that is what we are learning as
sons and daughters of God to walk in fully is that greater reality become
fully aware of that greater reality. And that is what I believe is overcoming.
That's how we become more than a conqueror. That is how we acquaint
ourselves with that victory in Jesus and walk victoriously. It doesn't mean
that we don't experience those experiences that seem disconnected and
misaligned with the kingdom, but we are learning to realign. And then and so my
prayer has been Lord make what is real, realized. And it was just this like,
little nudge, it wasn't even this explosive conversation, but just, it was
like he was reminding me of something I already knew to be true. But I wasn't
making the connection each time I had prayed this prayer throughout the year.
And that is that revealing what is real so that it can be realized is no longer
just the privilege of Jesus, the beloved Son of God, it is the privilege of all
the sons of God. So it's as if we I am my answer to my own prayer. This is this
is what I'm walking out with the Lord, is that he has given me and he's given
you the honor and the privilege of being able to be here in the midst of all
these experiences that are misaligned with what is true, and reveal what is
real, so that it can be realized, and not just understood, from a head
knowledge point of view, but actually be experienced from a heart spirit level
point of view. So, so that's what we've been talking about. And I believe that's
going to continue. And I how this connects to you, is I believe that this
is what the Lord has been building in our community all along, is people who
are who are aware of that adventure that they get to be on with the Lord.
And as we show up in people's screens, as we show up in people's lives in the
various forms that we we choose to do that, and are walking, you know,
choosing, actively choosing to do that in different ways, it's, that's what
we're doing, we get to reveal what is real, so that it can be realized. And the
only way that we can do that is we have to receive that revelation first. And
when we, when we, when we have, you know, so when we come to a new year, I'm
already having some of these conversations with just my friends,
right? It's like, I was just at dinner with some of my girlfriends here. And
the conversation led towards, okay, what are you so glad to be over about this
past year? What are you happy to be releasing and no longer bringing any new
year, like people are having those dialogues in their heads, or they're
having the dialogues with each other of like, what are you so glad about, to be
over? And what are you hoping for the new year, like, it's kind of where
people's attention is, where their awareness is focused. And obviously,
those things as we're thinking about the last year of our life, or maybe even
the last season, maybe some of you are feeling like there's a real season
shift, like it's not just a new year, but it's a new season that we're walking
into. And so Bruce and I are feeling personally, maybe you guys are feeling
that as well, is it's easy to sometimes go into a mode of, I'm so glad that's
over. And it builds this weird, like avoidance thing in our like, Oh, I never
want that to happen again. Or I never want to be that person or I want to, you
know, so the the focus becomes situational, or the focus might even
become beyond ourself, right? Like, how do I never make how do I what do I need
to do to make sure that never happens again, or we want to change. And I felt
such a freedom from the Lord in the conversation that I was having to release
myself of the pressure to need to now strategize a new season, strategize a
new situation, strategize a new me, you know, like, and like, okay, what do I
have to do? Because I felt like there was this invitation from the Lord, based
on that conversation that we had had about the prayer, that what I get to do
what I get to walk fully in in this next season, and in this new year, is a
deeper discovery of who he is. And it and I can, I can, I can let go of the need
to control behaviors, even even my own, right? Because sometimes it's not, I'm
not saying those things are not bad, like, hey, I want to, I want to kick this
habit, or I don't want to have this
thought anymore, the stronghold. But that's not the focus. That's not the road to true freedom.
Because it's a self-sustained something. And it doesn't require partnership.
More importantly, it doesn't require dependency on him.
And he was re-inviting me to this posture, if you will, this dependency on,
hey, this isn't about you now rallying to make something happen. This is about a deeper lean on
me. Fall back further into who I am, and you will discover and experience what is real.
You will realize what is real. It's not a structure. It's not a strategy. All those
things are helpful, but they're just tools, right? We can't now serve those things and expect those
things to be the thing that brings breakthrough, that brings freedom, that brings greater impact,
that brings revelation. Those things do not replace the Holy Spirit in our lives ever.
And this should be, I don't even know if I'm articulating this well, but I'm trying to
articulate the freedom that I felt because I am someone personally, I'll tell on myself,
that carries a really high sense of responsibility all the time. And that's like not a good thing.
It just leads to a lot of angst, a lot of pressure that's not from heaven.
And so there's just this new sense of freedom, as I was talking to the Lord about this,
so what I'm trying to say, and hopefully this will help you, maybe you guys are walking into
this year and you feel a greater sense of purpose, like, oh wow, this is what this year is
going to be about. Calling, we have different words for it, right? This is what the Lord has
for me, this is what we're going to be doing. But I think for the first time in a long time,
or maybe for the first time ever, I'm realizing that that does not require
me to now do something more, right? It's a different, it's like,
before it was like, okay, like, let's make, how do we make that happen? Like, let's call a meeting,
let's make, let's call in the resources. And it was like, hey, Linz, lean back, lean back.
It's not an activity, but the activity that you will have will be
like a life-given breath from me. That's kind of how I felt. So I know that all of you guys
are leaders, you're people of, you carry a lot of responsibilities. And I thought that might be
helpful as we like go into this call, that if you receive a word tonight and you're like, wow,
that's amazing, it should not induce more pressure on you to now go do more things, right? Does that
make sense? I'm seeing some nods. I think you guys are following me. It was really freeing.
Maybe this is like basic one-on-one for some of you guys, but for me, I just felt like
this is going to take some practice for me. Because I'm not even sure I know what this looks
like yet. Because I'm so used to like now going and hitting the whiteboard, right? And like,
okay, let's make a plan, let's do this. And it almost feels irresponsible and like irreverent
that I don't do that immediately, right? But I just say, okay, Lord, I'm going to let you,
I'm going to let you do it. And I'm going to only move when I feel your breath on something.
And I'm not going to create or conjure up a pressure so that I feel that I matter more,
that I'm taking this more seriously, that I'm not disappointing you or going to let you down.
Like we're breaking that free. And it's going to be wild. It's going to feel so different,
but it's going to be really freeing. But at first it might feel even, it might not even feel freeing
because it might feel like I don't even know how to, this is so against my mode of operation,
right? So I don't even know what that looks like. Guys, to be quite honest, I don't know what that
means for Kingdom Messengers. I don't even know yet. I don't, it's not like, oh, I had this
eight-step plan. I'm throwing the eight-step plan away. Like I only want to, I'm not following
the pressure anymore. This is something I've been practicing in different areas, right? Like we've,
I've talked about this. This is part of my learning to live a lifestyle of peace. So it's
not that it's like, but, but to apply it to, Lord, I've received a word from you.
I'm not going to try to make it happen and I'm not going to allow myself to get into
angst about the outcome.
I'm going to release that to you, the result.
I'm going to release that to you.
Why is that important?
Because of the trust factor, because that's going to take a tremendous amount of trust
for me.
I'm already feeling it, guys, because I've received some words even recently like, hey,
there's going to be some windows of opportunity coming to you.
There's going to be some clear like, and I can feel myself almost like, oh, wow, that's
like a heavy thing because now I've got to be on the lookout for the right opportunities
at the right time and make sure that I don't miss it.
We can go there.
We can go there so easily.
We can strip the word of God that he gives us from the delight from it because we immediately
go into like, I better not screw this up.
And it's like day two of the new year.
And we can like give ourselves to the okay, well, vacation's over.
I've got to hit the ground running.
Look at all these amazing people doing amazing things online.
I better like keep up, right?
And we've just, that is not trust.
That's not trust.
And he takes trust very seriously.
He takes it very seriously because it's, it's in that trust that the relationship is built
and he takes our relationship with him very seriously and ministries and businesses and
empires and kingdoms of this world are actually all replaceable.
It can be torn down.
It can be rebuilt, but you and I are not replaceable to the Lord.
So it, we matter more to God than what we build for God.
And I know I'm preaching to the choir, but there's big things coming.
So let's receive those big things with hearts filled with trust.
And from that place, we are going to, we are going to experience like never before
the joy and peace in believing.
I was so taken by that scripture again today.
It's a scripture I've quoted multiple times, but I'm just reminded of the timeline of that
word.
Let me see if I can find it and read it to you guys.
Because it's not, it's like a present thing.
No, I put, I picked a good one, but that's not the right one.
Are you looking at, do you know which verse that is?
13.
I just have all these different translations pulled up.
Hold on.
I'll read New King James Version.
It says, now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing that you
may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.
So what caught me again, what caught me afresh I'll say is the in believing.
It's not the joy and peace because you, you believe this thing and now it came to pass.
It's the in believing.
It's the, the act, the present action of believing it hasn't maybe happened yet, but it's the
joy and peace in the process with the Lord.
And he, he's with us in that journey.
And there's, there's joy and peace to be had in that now before the thing manifest, if
it ever manifest the way that we want it to, the way that we want to, the way that we want
to prescribe it to, I need it to happen this way.
It's the joy and peace in believing that we may abound in hope by the power of the Holy
Spirit.
So that's just what I'm carrying in my, my heart as we enter into this call, because
I felt like, Hey, we're all on the cusp of something.
We're all carrying weighty things, good things, weighty mandates, weighty instruction, waiting,
weighty direction, weighty purpose and calling, um, weighty words.
And um, it's not meant to weigh us down.
It's not meant to weigh us down.
It's meant to nourish this relationship that we're in.
I just don't want to live another year of letting the weightiness that he's given me
and entrusted me with deplete from that relationship. It's not that he's causing
any depletion, but it's how I choose to respond or interact. It's choosing what it's me deciding
what I'm going to believe about his affection for me, his heart towards me. I can allow that to,
I can allow a misdefinition to construct this weird picture that actually depletes life from
me, makes me feel more tired at the end of the day or end of the season or end of the year.
Even though there's so many amazing things that he's spoken or that he's done,
I'm interpreting it through a lens of scarcity that he never intended.
And I think that happens, at least for me, when I start to feel this responsibility
to strategize and construct an outcome or deconstruct what has happened in a situation
and feeling like it should have happened a different way. It wasn't supposed to happen
this way. It's okay to experience grief for loss and even if that's a loss of maybe an ideal that
you were carrying for a person or for a situation. That's okay. It's okay to feel it. It's not okay
to feed it. It's not okay for that to be the lens in which we view the Lord or view our futures or
even view our present. And so as we close out a year, it's something that sometimes people do
is they begin to deconstruct the year and decide what they're carrying and what they're carrying in
and what they're not carrying into it. And that's okay unless that replaces, it becomes our source
for how we're going to feel about this past year, how we're going to walk into the new year.
We don't have to walk into the new year with any fear, with any feeling of I need to avoid this.
I need to make sure that I protect myself from this person or these types of people or make
sure the situation never happens again. Because all of that is coming from a place where we feel
the need to protect ourselves, to defend ourselves, to create our reality. And the beauty is we belong
to a greater reality that has been divinely designed by the master designer, creator of the
universe, and we can trust him. We can trust him. And when we're in that space, it's very easy to
realize what is real. To see it clearly, to hear his voice, the voice of another we don't hear,
we don't follow. So that's my prayer for us as a community, as we enter this new year,
is that's how we walk in fully, releasing ourselves from any pressure to construct
something, to make something happen. I think goal-making is great. I think some people thrive
off of it, and it's how they connect with the Lord. So I'm not downing that at all,
but it can't replace him in our lives. It can't now be the thing that we serve, the thing that
we're constantly focused on, the thing we're constantly fixated on, the thing that makes us
feel good about ourselves or bad about ourselves because we haven't hit a goal. That can't be the
thing. It can't be our God. And the past can't be our God, and the past circumstances can't be our
God. And the way we presently feel about the world, ourselves, can't be our God. Our God is
our God. And we're walking into the future boldly with him. And it's going to be wild, wildly good.
So Father, we thank you for that. We thank you that you, we thank you for who you are.
We thank you that who you are is limitless. You're not bound to any definition, past, present,
or future. You're not bound to any kingdom. You're not bound to the state of the nation.
You're not bound to any relationship we have here or we don't have here on earth.
You are who you are. I am.
And Jesus, we thank you that you are who you are.
You're our head.
We thank you that we have a head that we can trust.
We thank you that you've made us a part of your body, that we're one with you,
that we're not separated.
We never will be separated.
That we don't have to fear being abandoned.
We don't have to fear loneliness because you're with us always because
you gave us yourself and that was your choice before it was ours and Holy
spirit.
We thank you that you lead us and guide us in all this truth.
That is no small task.
We trust you.
We thank you.
Holy spirit, that you are speaking right now, even to people who may be
completely unaware.
That's how good you are, how kind you are, how patient you are.
You, you, you, you're present, you're present, and because you're present, we
can be present and we don't have to fluctuate between the past and the fear
of the future and the discontentment of the present, but we can be alive in
Christ forever and always for all time in every time, but never bound by time.
And we thank you that you're going to speak to us tonight.
You're going to encourage us and the things that we can look forward to, the
things that we can look for now in the present that maybe we weren't aware of
or fully aware of.
You're going to open our eyes to those things.
We're not going to leave this call the same.
We're going to leave with more life, with more awareness, a deeper
thankfulness, because you're with us and you're speaking and you always, always,
always encourage us with the truth because the truth is encouraging.
It's emboldening, it's enlivening.
And we're never without it.
So I'm curious if anyone else has been talking to the Lord about this year,
anything that you're feeling that you're willing to share?
If it's super personal, that's fine.
Hey, Marian, I see your hand.
Yeah, actually I had talked to the Lord and really hadn't got very far at all until
Church Sunday and just one song came on and all of a sudden I had this strong sense
that we're an army and this is including us.
We're an army and this year is not about just holding your ground.
It's about taking ground and we're taking ground.
But I want to show you what I was seeing as this came together as you were speaking.
You know how a goose, geese fly, shape?
Well, there's a leader, but they switch up.
Really, they all know where they're going, but they go together.
And a few years back, God showed me in a stream a school of fish.
And, you know, they're so beautiful because they all swim in harmony.
There's a rock in the way they kind of go around it.
They're not following the leader.
They're just following instinct, if you like.
And where that's like that school of fish where we're all following the spirit.
And because he's leading us all in unity in the same kind of thing and the whole purpose
is we don't have to know where we're going.
I don't know where I'm going, but I'm following Jesus.
It's the same with all of us.
We're following the spirit and we don't have to know what the goal is.
It doesn't matter.
And the whole year and I just made a video about this.
The whole year is about seeking that deeper relationship, deeper intimacy, because when
we have that, we will know what his purpose is.
We'll know what his desires are and we will be following him more closely all the time.
And my sense is that as we go, it's like, Lindsay, you're leading, but you're following
the spirit, not following you.
We're following the spirit and you're teaching us what you've learned along the way.
The same way he's taking us into the digital landscape and we're going to take that
territory and we're not.
to do it by fighting. We're going to do it by just flowing in the spirit, and he's just going to
overflow everything else in there. And it's not something we have to know how to do.
And even at church, we have stopped having programs. The only program we have is youth
group, but we don't have programs. We're just following the spirit. And every Sunday morning,
if the spirit leads in a certain way, that's what we do. If it turns into a prayer meeting,
that's what we do. And I believe God's teaching the whole church to follow the leading of the
spirit, and that's how the kingdom is coming. And it's incredibly freeing. It's like you said,
being in this place of rest. Well, even today, I was thinking I should make some more videos.
And I did sit down to do it, but I still constantly have to say, no, I'm not going to
think about having to do that. I'm going to do what God's leading me to do right now
in the present, and trust that along the way, those videos will be there.
And I really feel that it's like he's brought us together, and he's training us together,
because everything we share is something that is going to help all of us.
And it's so freeing. So what you're saying about being real, knowing what is real,
we're bringing that into the digital landscape so other people know what's real.
We're sharing who we are and who he's created us to be.
So that's just, I feel, I'm so glad you brought all this up, because
that had not come together until this hour. Yeah.
So good. Amy.
Hi, everybody. Well, Lindsay, I mentioned to you in a comment about the Lord speaking something to
me on the 31st about, well, making what is real, realized. And I remember when you posted that
episode in Posture, but then I also remembered that, you know, at our, I think it was like
one of our very, very first weekly meetings when we were meeting for prophetic meetings.
And I had just this revelation from God, and I had not had a whole lot of time to, like, sit down
because of just people being around and, you know, grandkids demanding time. But I had this
revelation about the power of that prayer that God gave you and how, I mean, I can probably speak
for the rest of us, for the reasons Miriam just stated, that we've all embraced that prayer.
And I was looking back over the year, and I would have to read through my journals
to even come up with all the prayers, because, like, everything I write is a prayer.
But I had this awareness that I was walking in the answers to so many prayers.
The answers to so many prayers. And that one prayer to isolate, make what is real, realized,
it lives because it's his word. You know, he put that, he breathed that word into you,
and you breathed it out to us, and we're breathing it out to other people.
And I was, like, so overwhelmed by the power of a word that goes out that never goes away.
It's like, I mean, the scripture that came to my mind is that the increase of his government,
there will be no end. And so, and his word to me this year is, I mean, his word to me for many
years has been rest, rest, rest, but it's relax into his rest. And I felt like,
I could just relax into all the, I can't remember all the words that he's spoken over me
or all the prayers that I've spoken or written or breathed out,
but they're inspired by the Holy Spirit and they're eternal and their momentum
is, it will never stop. It's ever increasing and this morning I was thanking him for the quiet
and thanking him for rest and I feel like that the relaxing into him, because he is my rest,
I mean like rest is my home, that there is going to be a deeper intimacy,
not just for me, but for the Holy Spirit is drawing the bride into a deeper place of intimacy
and he's kissing her awake and making her alive to that and Psalm 23 came to me this morning as I
was, you know, it says he leads me beside still water and beside like streams and I thought of us
like as a group how he, and this is so much Marion, like so much affirmed by what you said,
that we live by the streams of water and I could see him giving us our breath, like he's
in the place of rest in Psalm 23. He is supplying the seed for the sower
and again Lindsay, I thought about Psalm 126 and I looked it up and I concluded this word
that God gave me by writing all of Psalm 126 from the Passion Translation and we're being, I mean like
our seeds are being, we're being led by the Spirit to, we don't have to go hunting for the streams,
like he's leading us, he's planting us, our roots are going deep, but our seeds are falling on
moist, prepared, readied by him soil and it just takes the pressure off.
So that was, I love that, in essence, yeah, thank you for sharing, that's good, Susie.
I so appreciate what you were sharing, I don't think I've posted for a month and I was
dealing with how do I feel about that, but I've got lots of ideas and I know that something's
got to, something's got to be really established in me right now first.
Anyway, so I was dealing with this and that trying and, you know, just need to, I don't want to waste
this advancement time and there's only four weeks left, I want to make the most of it and
but the Lord gave me, the word was interesting, he said instead of reaching, I'm going to be rejoicing.
And so that reaching just expresses a lot of it to me and absolutely the trust, realizing, oh Lord,
okay, I'm not going to whine or beat myself over how little trust I've had, but I am going to
rejoice in he's building up my trust, my confidence, and I came across, I think it's James 1,
20, that says, laying aside all dirtiness and all that remains of evil, and I thought, okay,
those are pretty intense, receive the word implanted, which is able to save your soul,
which has the power to save our soul. And I looked up that word implanted because I somehow,
I don't know if it's King James, it was engrafted and so I was always thought of engrafted.
No, this is implanted and it's the same word as Jesus talking about the seed on good soil,
but it's also the same word as Hebrews 12, where it says, be careful lest any root of bitterness
a spring up. So it is as a but it's this germination feeling
that we've got these seeds in us that we can't see. But we trust
the Lord that all of this is growing in us and it will come
to our awareness. And instead of reaching I'm going to be
rejoicing.
That's such a good choice. Such a good exchange, right? If you're
going to choose something choose rejoicing over reaching. Hey,
Tamara, I see your hand.
Oh my goodness, this has been incredible. And the Psalm 23. Oh
my gosh, that's my that's the passage of Scripture that the
Lord has highlighted to me is so familiar to me, my dad would
say it with us, we would recite it with him every night. So I
can quote it with my eyes closed. But the Lord is like, I
want to make it real to you now. You can quote it. You have a
general you have had knowledge of what it all means. But I want
to actually make it come alive. Because once you really receive
what I'm trying to tell you, you're, you're gonna walk
differently. It's like, I was asked to speak at my church on
New Year's Eve. And the Lord highlighted Psalm 23, verse
three, but and he highlighted just he restores my soul, just
that part. And he took me into a deep dive of what restores
actually mean and what your soul is and how it's your will your
your emotions, and you know, like just other things. It's not
just you being a living being, you know, it's way deeper than
that. And how he wants to take it back to the garden.
Basically, he's like, I want to restore that back. My original
intent is what I want to is what I want to do for you. And so I
think the Lord is really going to make that come alive for me
this year. Because I'm gonna be honest, I am, I guess a
recovering perform person, I do, like trying to work my way, work
my way, work my way, you know, into his favor. And so it's like
the Lord is having to reprogram me. And being a part of this
community, I'm, I'm getting a chance to learn a different
facet of God. And how he sees me. So for me, this is like just
transformational, like, you know, because I'm learning a
different way of knowing him, and how he actually sees me. And
that's causing me to be free. And I have to share this quick
testimony. There was, I've had like some, some sort of growth,
like a cyst thing on the back of my neck. And whenever I would
get stressed, it would grow big. I want to say like the largest
it's been, it's probably like almost the size of maybe like a
halo or like a small tangerine or something like it will
protrude out whenever I will be stressed. And whenever I'm not
stressed, it just seems like it goes back down. But it had gotten
like really big recently. And I'm like, okay, Lord, like
something has to get like, I'm a firm believer in healing. Like,
we're going to war on this thing. Like, you know, I'm your
girl, you know, to stand with you in faith. So I did pray with
someone about it. And it did go down. But can I tell you guys,
and this might be TMI, it literally drained out after a
prophetic call here, Lindsay, days later, when I reckon you
were talking about identity. And this was probably one of the
times I was boohoo and crying and just looking a fool on on
you know, but I didn't care. You know, but I literally felt heat
come on me. And it was like I was the Lord was it was all just
identity. You were just literally just talking about who
I was. And it was like things were shifting. Like it was
finally penetrating to me. Literally, like a day later, it
began to drain out. And over a course of days, it drained
completely out is gone now. That was just completely super
nice. And it was just all about that. That was the final key. I
did
pray with someone, we agreed in faith,
and it began to go down in size.
But after that prophetic call of that penetration
of who I am in Christ and my identity,
that's when the total healing came.
And so I just had to share that.
So the Lord is gonna make Psalm 23
come alive to me this year.
So I just wanted to share that.
Amazing, thank you, Lord, for that healing,
manifestation of healing,
manifestation of what is real, what is true,
and a reminder that creation responds to truth.
Our bodies respond to truth.
Our souls respond to truth.
Hey, Monica.
Hey, everybody.
It's so nice to see your faces.
I don't get to come on as often,
but I'm so happy to be here.
I wanted to share with you
everything you're saying, Lindsay,
is so palpable to me right now,
and not so much through me,
but actually through my husband.
So I think I've told you guys some experiences
of how just by opening the store
and different things that he's been doing,
his relationship, he's always wanted intimacy,
but he's always had tons of head knowledge,
but he hasn't felt the intimacy.
Well, let me tell you something,
and this goes just along with the letting go
and just literally letting God just move you.
So I think I might've told you guys
that he did a 21-day water fast.
Yeah, okay.
So after that, he can't put the Bible down.
I think I shared with you guys that.
And he has just been stepping
into all of these different areas
that he has never walked in before.
I mean, he played the piano during worship at church,
the last three Sundays,
and he plays classical piano.
He's never had to follow anybody,
but he's like, well, I'll just do it
because God is just calling me to do things.
So even if I'm scared, I'll do it.
Okay, so this is the part though
that I think will resonate with you guys.
On New Year's Eve, he told me,
you know what, starting tomorrow,
I want us to wake up early
and pray together in tongues.
And I looked at him and I said,
but you don't pray in tongues yet.
And he said, I know,
but I'm just gonna show up
and I'm going to speak out in English
the syllables that will just come.
And I just think that that obedience will be enough.
I don't know what's gonna happen,
but we'll just, I just wanna be part of it.
I don't wanna sit on the sidelines anymore.
I wanna show up.
And so sure enough, January 1st, yesterday in the morning,
we sit there, we say a prayer.
He prays a beautiful prayer over me.
And he goes, okay, why don't you start?
And so I just start.
And then all of a sudden I'm hearing him talk
and I could tell it was like English, right, syllables.
And then all of a sudden it just transforms.
And he is baptized in the Holy Ghost.
It's like, I can't put to words the,
I trust him, so I'm just gonna show up.
I have zero expectations.
I have zero of anything.
He's like in this space of,
I really don't know what's gonna happen
and it's better that way.
And I'm just gonna go into this area
and I'm just gonna be who he created me to be.
And I'm gonna discover who I am by discovering him.
And so for me, we've just been through
so many different transitions with this business.
Today we found out that most likely
we're going to be rebranding it to ourselves.
And so that's a whole other adventure that's coming.
But I truly believe that he's been preparing us
through all of these trials where we have no choice
but to trust in him, absolutely zero choice.
And then just letting it be where,
Lord, we're not even gonna worry about inventory.
We're not even gonna worry about what's next.
The worry has fled from my husband
who in 2020 would be glued to his phone
reading all the news about all of the things
and digging deeper into the conspiracy theories.
Just like reading it.
He's like, I wanna hear both sides.
I wanna hear everything so that I can kind of evaluate.
And it was stressing him out.
And now he's like, so if I lose my job,
what's the worst that could happen?
Like that kind of just transformation
is just blowing my mind right now.
And it's such an example to me of what you're talking about.
It's just letting him lead and us follow.
And I just feel so blessed to witness it
and then to be part of it
because he's been correcting me nonstop
these past few months and just leading.
And I found in my closet an actual prayer
that I had written out asking God to give him
the desires of his heart in intimacy with him.
And I had it like with a thumbtack
in the very back of my closet so nobody could see it.
And I found it the other day and I took it to him
and I'm like, look, everything that I asked the Lord for
has come true.
And this was like two years ago.
I'm like, everything has come true.
And he just, all he does is like,
he's just so like, okay, I guess, I guess, you know.
It's just the reality of God.
Like it's real, it's real to him now.
And so he can't stop pursuing the real.
And I think that's what he wants us all to do,
to continue pursuing the real in the very,
in very much in the unknown.
In the unknown is the safest place that we can be.
And that's what I'm like gleaning from him.
Like, let's just go into the unknown.
Let's step out.
Let's voice whatever we can in the moment
and let him take over is what it is.
I just wanted to share with you guys that,
because to me, it's just been just mind blowing.
Amazing.
I love that testimony.
That's incredible.
I love the joy that it's bringing you personally, Monica,
too, because that is, that's awesome as a wife
to be on the receiving end of that type of leadership.
That's awesome.
Amy, do you have your hand raised again
or is that just from previously?
I do, because I wanted to tack on one more thing.
So the thing, when I was praying this morning,
I had this like recognition that I was born into his rest.
Like rest is my home.
I mean, if I was created in his heart
from before the foundation of the world
and redeemed in Christ, I mean,
I was born into perfect love and perfect rest.
And what I was mainly thinking about was just quiet,
you know, and what God's word has to say about quiet.
And I kind of got tickled about the thought
of how religion will say,
well, have you done your quiet time today?
You know, like it's quiet is something we do
and yet it's the quietness of his rest
and of his presence that we hear best.
You know, the intimacy is cultivated, you know,
within our relationship.
And I thought of how gracious he is to meet us
in our efforts to go hunting for him, you know,
in whatever it is,
because I think about how my early quiet times,
you know, when I was young were so constructed
and it was a thing on a list that I checked off, you know.
But I had this realization that it's him all along
that's drawing us into the place of rest.
It's, we're not going there, we're being drawn by him
and he meets us however we show up.
He begins to cultivate that longing
for quiet places of rest, that longing for home,
the longing for a place where you're just loved
exactly where you are, for who you are.
And that's one of the most restful thoughts to me,
I think, that I've ever had.
It was up to him all along and he's just drawn me in,
you know, and it's continued.
and will continue to draw all of us in.
It's amazing.
It's not a place to get to,
it's a place we already are.
And if we're already there.
It's a person, it's him.
If we're already there, if we're already with him,
then what?
That's an exciting thought.
That's a restful thought.
Yeah, and it is making what is real, realized.
So can, I mean, like, it's just,
it is such a profound thing that he's doing
because we live and move and exist in him.
And just, he's increasing our awareness.
I love it.
Thank you for sharing.
Hey, Bridget.
Hi, happy new year to everybody.
So good to see you all.
And just to confirm basically everything that you're saying,
I felt like the focus for this year
was just to begin everything with rest.
And so many times when we don't start that
as our starting point, we can't actually see clearly.
And I think we, then we,
instead of resting and taking steps forward
with his permission, we become more reactionary.
And I think that's what my focus is really trying to be.
And we've been working on this for the last while
as my husband and myself, but I feel like,
especially as it comes to,
the temptation all the time is,
oh, I should be posting a video.
I should be commenting on this.
But it's like, take a moment, just take a rest.
And then say, okay, is this what you want me to do, Lord?
Or am I responding or reacting to the pressure around me?
And so, although I've got a lot of ambitions
this next few months of what I'm trying to get with content,
I know that I've got to always start every morning from,
okay, what do you want me to focus on, Lord, today?
And what is the permission he has given me to do?
And I think our mind and our spirit is so much easier
to hear and grasp what the Lord's asking us to do
when we're in that place of rest.
I think we just get to that.
And it doesn't have to be an hour-long rest.
It's just that moment, okay, Lord, where are we going today?
Or what's the next move?
Or is this something you're asking me to do?
Or is it more my reaction of,
I've identified so much with Lindsay
of feeling like you need to take care of everything.
And I've done that where I have done it
out of the Lord's place,
and I've done it with the Lord's permission.
And it's so different when we do respond
to the Lord and his permission.
There's just a natural joy and a grace that comes with that
as opposed to the heaviness
of carrying somebody else's problems.
So I think we're all on the same note with that.
Thanks, Lindsay, for encouraging all of us with that.
I miss you, by the way, especially.
I haven't seen you for about a month.
No, we've been away, but we'll be back soon.
Yeah, good.
Okay, thank you.
I'm so grateful that this is resonating with you all.
It's confirming.
It's always helpful when you bring something
and you're like, okay, shoo, it's resonating, right?
So I appreciate you each taking time to share
what the Lord's been doing, what he's been speaking.
Because now, because I think Amy was speaking about this,
like the word carries, now it's out, right?
The testimony is like in the airwaves,
like there's a marker there.
So it's important to share.
It's not, we're not just, it's not,
I'm having to remind myself
because there's certain structures
and religious things that we do,
like Amy was saying, like quiet times
that have stripped meaning from things.
And it's like, even sharing testimonies,
it's like, yeah, yeah, yeah, praise the Lord.
But like, no, like we, like this is, this is it, guys.
This is the point.
This is the power of community.
We get to come and share the beauty
and the wonder and the majesty with God.
Think of how many communities right now
are commiserating over the negativity going on
and the headlines and the news,
not the people of God.
They may, we may not.
That is not our function.
That should not be our focus.
So this is, this is not a throw away something.
I know you guys aren't treating it that way,
but I just, you know, so we can kind of go into pilot,
autopilot sometimes with these types of things.
And I think the Lord is wanting to breathe fresh life
on the things that religion has made just a stagnant system,
a stagnant formula that we do.
So the word that I want to share with you,
I mean, I shared some of it,
but what I want to release and what I feel,
and I'm trusting the spirit in you.
I know that you are.
all mature and you can take what I say and bring it before the Lord and ask,
how does this apply to me? Does it even apply to me? Um,
but this is what I'm sensing for our community as we head into the new year.
And I'll just be very honest with you guys,
because I know I can be is I do so with hesitancy,
not because I don't believe the word,
but I don't know what this looks like
because I haven't quite done this before.
And maybe when I've seen certain elements of it done,
it's maybe not been paired with wisdom.
And so I've seen kind of weird interpretations of it.
So I'm just being honest. Maybe, maybe,
maybe there's some fear there and that's okay.
I trust the Lord to cover me in that and for the Holy spirit to filter that
out. Um, but I'm going to share a few personal stories. I didn't,
I didn't really want to, cause I'm like, I don't want to make this about me,
but I felt like the Lord said, told me today,
as I was talking to him about what to share,
that it would help illustrate the word.
Um, so three things,
three situations that have the Lord has used in the
last week and a half, I might have the timeline a little bit off,
but recent to kind of bring this all unfold the word in
one word is flow. I'm going to unpack that. Okay.
The word is flow. So the first situation, and I'm going to give credit where,
where credits do these conversations,
cause I'm not self-made and the Lord has given me the gift of community
to pour into me and to help. So, um,
I have been struggling with reentering the
posture, the scene of posture.
So I took a sabbatical in the summer.
I had some plans for it that went awry because of some tech issues.
I was going to do a whole mentor series.
And some of the interviews that I'd recorded didn't record the way they're
supposed to. And then I just kind of didn't have the energy,
the time or the focus,
cause I'd already started my sabbatical and with the summer and stuff to fix it.
And I just kind of released it. It felt a little messy to me,
but I just felt like the Lord was like, just release it.
I was planning on coming back in the fall and, you know,
clips were still going up, but not the long episodes.
And I just kept coming across this barrier kind of internal.
Like I don't want to do this anymore. I do want to do it.
It kind of this weird tension. I do want to do it,
but I'm struggling to figure out how to do it, if that makes sense.
And it was hard because my numbers kept growing.
Even when I stopped posting like significantly doubled,
tripled my numbers. And so I'm like feeling the pressure.
Now there's all these people wanting to hear from me.
I feel like the Lord has given me this thing that I now need to steward.
And it was from as all this pressure, there was no delight in it.
And I was then feeling condemned for feeling condemned all the things.
And so Ashley, who's in our group, actually Nicole Perez, I'm I'm we're,
it's been a very interesting dynamic that we've had in the last couple of weeks,
the last eight weeks, because I've been a part of her intensive,
and she's been part of mine.
So we've been helping coach each other in different areas.
She's been wonderful. And I was explaining this to her.
Kind of embarrassed because she's in my group that I'm helping her do this
specific thing, right? Like, let's just be real. Like this is,
it's not like she's a part of my nutrition group and I'm struggling. It's like,
no, like I'm,
I'm trying to help you with this and I don't even want to do it anymore on my
end. And, but she was very gracious. She's incredibly mature. And she said,
here's what I feel like what's happened is when you started posture,
it was from the flow of your spirit,
you were showing up and you were flowing with the Lord.
You were sharing what you had for that day.
You didn't know what it was going to look like,
or what it's going to turn out to be.
You weren't really necessarily intently building something.
You were just doing your thing with the Lord. And from that abundance or,
you know, that overflow things are flowing.
And then like things do with most things,
a structure began to form.
I'm going to post this many times a day or this many times a week.
And it's going to look like this.
And here's what you can start expecting from me audience.
And then I began teaching it because it was actually helping other people,
right? Like, here, here's, that's what the people want to know.
What did you do? And, you know,
or then started working for them and a structure is formed, which is fine.
A structure is a tool until it's not until the structure is no longer
serving us. This is Ashley's words.
I thought it was brilliant that we start serving the structure.
So think about this with church culture, even, right? Like,
I love that Marian's sharing, like, Hey, we're,
we're releasing ourselves from the need to have a structure right now.
And maybe some of you guys heard that and thought, man,
that feels really messy.
Or I've been a part of movements like that in like, you know,
things go wrong or whatever, but like,
I really feel like this is something that it's very personal to me,
but I'm seeing other people talk about this,
other leaders of larger movements, even saying like,
we have to release this ourselves.
from the structure. We've made ourselves a slave to the structure, to the organization,
to the formula, to the thing. And we're no longer flowing. We're just serving the structure.
And so that's where I was with posture. I was like, man, you nailed it on the head.
Don't know how to fix that. But I, but I acknowledge, you know, I was telling you,
I acknowledge that was helpful. And then I was having a conversation with my mom.
And I can't remember if she was quoting someone or if this was an original quote,
but she said, you know, efficiency is the enemy of intimacy.
And I had to like sit with that for a second. It's like, I think that's true.
Efficiency is the enemy of intimacy. And she was talking about an example of, you know,
if Bruce, you know, surprised me with flowers, like, oh my gosh, it's amazing. And then he saw
how much joy it brought. And so the next month he got me flowers again. I'm like, oh my gosh,
it's so thoughtful that you went through the effort to give me flowers. And Bruce sees that
it brought me joy again. And so what, what then if Bruce says, you know what I'm going to do,
I'm going to put a, I'm going to get Lindsay a flower subscription and just put it on autopilot
and every month flowers show up at the door, but he has removed himself from the flow.
He's removed himself from the spontaneity of it. He's removed himself from having to think
about it thoughtful. Yes. That he thought, you know, what will bring Lindsay joy every month
flower showed up, but there's no longer an intimacy because there's no longer that engagement,
that involvement. It's just efficient. Efficiency is not bad, but it can be the
enemy of intimacy. If we let it, if it turns into a structure that we now
serve and the structure is no longer serving us and it's stopping the flow.
And so that has what I believe what happened with me with postures. I didn't feel the permission
to flow because I felt like I had to serve the structure that I had built. I need to show up
weekly. At least I need to post daily. I need to have something always to give. I need to be
commenting regularly. Right now. I do believe that this is a conversation from the mature
because I can't deny. And I don't think the Lord is asking me to that when people are starting out,
it's helpful to have a structure. It's helpful to have some steps, right?
Like if you're a new believer, it's helpful to like start a quiet time every day, right? It
doesn't mean that there's no intimacy, but if you're, if you've been doing this for 35 years
with the Lord, like you don't, you should not feel bound to a quiet time every day.
There needs to be a flow.
And so my honest conversation with the Lord today was release is releasing this word,
like going to create this blob effect where we all just kind of sit around and we're just happy
and content to like not do anything anymore until we feel the Lord's wind on something.
And then we don't do anything. But I, I think that is not, that's not even something we should
worry about as mature people and, and mature kingdom messengers. Right? So I consider you
guys a step above, like you're not entry level, right? You haven't been entry level for a long
time. So this is not like a community wide, like me getting on the kingdom master community,
but like everyone just flow. Right? Cause like some people need like a kick, a little bit of a,
Hey, step one, two, three, build those creative reps. But I think for us in this advancement
program, again, I'm not building elitism here, but you guys know what I'm talking about. Just
the longevity of it. And you've done it. And there's, I think the word, the believe the word,
I don't think I believe the word for us is flow is flow. And we, we, we need to make sure
that we're not serving a structure.
And I believe there's permission for us to trust the Lord to a level where we can,
if we even are, if we're like slightly feeling like we might be enslaving ourselves to a
structure, like kill it, he'll bring it back around if it's needed. Right? Like we can,
we don't have to like now sit for seven weeks and decide whether or not, like, is it, isn't it?
Like if you're feeling like I might be potentially be putting this above my
connectedness to the Lord, like kill it, kill it, try something else, try
something else.
It's okay.
There's permission there to do that.
So that's what I'm doing with posture.
And, and, and honestly, it's what we're going to be doing with kingdom messengers.
I wish I could tell you what that looks like TBD, but, um, I will not let
anything, I don't care how enormous the potential is for it to, to be get in
the way of my relationship and trust with the Lord.
Like, I just don't care.
I don't care if people know my name after I'm gone.
If it's going to come at the sacrifice of me, living a peace filled, rest
filled life with the Lord here.
And now I'm not waiting for heaven for that.
That's not what he intended.
He did not intend for me to drive myself into the ground, barely connected
to him, hanging on by a loose thread so that we can enjoy ourselves in heaven.
It's for the here and now.
And if I'm wrong, I want to go down making a call on his character, but
that is what he has intended.
He's that good.
He's that kind.
He's that faithful.
He's that loving then holding him at a distance because I have this weird
accusation that he is this semi abusive father who's only happy with
me when I'm getting good grades.
So I have to, I have to actively practice that guys, cause I don't
know what that looks like fully.
Cause I've always had this weird hook in me of needing to matter,
needing to make God look good.
And I know he's been peeling back the layers of that in his kindness at
a pace that I won't crush my soul.
But I feel like we're kicking it into gear and we're advancing something
pretty significant in 2023, and it's going to require me not being enslaved
to a structure, to a movement, to something that I've built, no matter
how grand or glorious, or even the potential of it could be, I just can't.
And I'm already feeling it day two.
I'm already feeling the pull of things.
Would it could have showed us with certain opportunities.
And I just have to trust that he's got me covered so that I feel like we're
at the threshold as a community of, there's just like this core group of
people who are pioneered this movement of kingdom messengers of, you know,
releasing ourselves from maybe any structures that we're feeling enslaved
by and flowing and being free to flow.
The third thing, it's not as significant as the other two interactions, but it
was just kind of sealed the deal for me.
It happened on New Year's Eve as I was scrolling when the power was out.
And I was just going Instagram and I noticed there was an influencer that
had read rather large following that was announcing that she was stepping
back from her platform, she was no longer going to be running her platforms in 2023.
I don't think she's a believer.
She didn't like mention any of that, but it was just interesting what she
phrased, cause she talked about how her, what she had built had become like
a sweater that didn't fit anymore.
And she was trying to continue to wear it and it was ill fitting and it was
uncomfortable and so she was taking the sweater off, like she was releasing
herself from the sweater, um, it just stood out to me because like I mentioned
you guys before, you know, it's interesting to me when I see certain
content creators, especially that, you know, even in the world that are just
coming to the end of themselves after building something pretty significant.
It's like, it all leads to death if it's not sourced by life himself.
And so it was just a reminder to me of that's not what we're doing here.
We're not building something unto our own glory and we're not building something
that we now have to self-sustain that kind of just crumbles because it becomes
a sweater that no longer fits.
And now we're, so it's not a, it's not something that we need to move in fear
about, but it's freedom, there's a freedom to flow, there's a freedom
for it to look different.
Then we need to, and to use Ashley's like terms, like release yourself
from the need to control the outcome.
It's not yours to build and you can apply that not just to your channels,
but to literally anything that's starting to feel like it doesn't quite fit anymore.
Yeah.
You know, the world would say, you know, stop, quit, cut that person out of your life.
But I feel like there's life to be had still, and the things that the world calls to give
up on, I just think it means doing something maybe differently.
And there's freedom in that.
And it's not doing something differently with an agenda to fix or create or control an outcome.
It's doing something differently in total trust and surrender, that we can walk free
of the need to create control of the outcome, because that is in the Lord's hand.
So that's what I feel like I had for you guys today, as we walk as our kind of our final
prophetic call for now, as far as we know, right?
I'm really excited.
I'm nervous, but not in a fearful way, just in a, this could get a little wild, Lord.
And it could feel unsafe.
There was a fourth thing.
It was just kind of fun.
But I don't know if you guys have ever read Chronicles of Narnia, but it's something,
there's this scene where they're talking about Aslan, and it's like, I'm going to maybe
misquote this, but the idea is Aslan is not safe, but he's good.
And Michelle Cuss, who was a part of our membership, had posted something about the last two years,
there's been this focus on stay safe, stay safe, stay safe.
It's kind of been the word that the world has been projecting.
And so she just, I thought it was cool, because she was like, let's like live dangerously.
And then she posted that, and guys, just to be honest, I would tell Michelle this, like,
I'm somebody who like, I crave safety.
And when I saw that post, I was like, oh, like, let's not like, okay, Michelle, let's
not get wild.
But there was something in my spirit that rose up and said, don't crave safety, crave
goodness.
There's going to be a lot of goodness to be had, and it might feel unsafe, because it's
not familiar, or it's unknown, feels a little wild, feels a little different.
And there's a lot of safety in formula, there's, well, I'll say this, there's a, whether it
could be a false sense of safety, but there's a feeling of safety when there's a formula,
when there's a structure.
And I think that's why so many good hearted people who love the Lord have put up with
some stuff for so long in, in the faith circles, like, why do we put up with that?
Why do we put up with religiosity, right?
This quasi kingdom, religious life.
And I think it's because it feels safe.
But the Lord's not calling us to live safe life, safe, safe lives, he's calling us live
good lives in his goodness.
So it's gonna be good, it just might not feel safe.
And that's okay.
Because we have a Holy Spirit, who's gonna lead us and guide us in truth.
And what I see for the broader, like bride and body of Christ, is there's going to be
this corporate sense of trust, trusting the spirit in each other.
That's going to bring a unity like never before.
Because what the Lord was showing me, you know, there's just such nitpickiness in the
body of Christ sometimes, like we pick on each other's theology and expressions of doing
this or that or whatever, and it causes so much tension, like it enlarges, especially
to the world looking from the outside looking in, like we just major on minor so often,
and it creates this really weird swells of like negativity and stuff.
And I was like, Lord, why is that?
And, you know, I first thought maybe it's because we can we just not trust each other?
Can we just not trust that like, if Marian wants to worship God, waving flags, I don't
know. And, you know, Monica wants to do the liturgy, that they're not it doesn't mean
they love God less, right?
Like this is, you know, what brings them life.
And like, maybe we don't have to nitpick or whatever.
I'm just pulling names, right?
Like, but the Lord said, it's not about trusting each other.
It's about you don't trust me in each other.
And if we just heighten our trust in the Lord, the unity flows so naturally, and I really
feel like this is coming to a head.
There's a lot of things that have surfaced in recent years in the body of Christ, like
things that people have been exposed.
Just, you know, so I share this with Marian on one of our calls.
I really feel like there's people from the back moving forward.
Like, I think that's happening at a rapid rate.
I think Kingdom Messengers is playing a part in that, which I'm really excited about that
we're.
bringing people kind of out of the background,
people that would just traditionally
like be in the background and support roles
and they're kind of bringing them to center stage in a way,
which was really cool.
I think that's happening largely.
And I think also what's happening is
as we were learning a level of trust in the Lord
that's actually going to fix
what we thought was distrust in each other.
So it's pretty exciting.
I think it's going to get wild
and I'm okay with that, I think.
But what's going to emerge is this beautiful bride
that trusts the spirit in each other.
And it's going to bring unity like never before.
So be on the lookout for that
and be on the lookout for how you can participate in that.
Like, again, with no agenda,
we don't have to now bring this,
like I'm doing this because I'm doing this
because I trust the Lord, that's enough.
I so want my motivations this year
to be grounded in who he is
versus who I think he wants me to be,
like, or who he needs me to be in certain things
to fix this person or fix that person
or fix the situation or fix this distorted view
that people have, like, it's too many layers, guys.
It's too, it's not what we were meant to carry.
Those things naturally,
I think things will naturally click into place
if we just focus on trusting the Lord
to the degree that he is who he says he is.
That's the depth.
Like, how deep would we go?
Who does he say he is?
And he says some pretty bold, outrageous,
extravagant, magnificent things about himself
that we have yet to trust.
It's going to be amazing, it's going to be wild.
So flow, flow.
I give you permission as your coach
who has given you structure from a pure heart,
I do believe that it has served us to a point,
but I don't want you ever to feel like you have to serve it.
That's the wrong,
the grace flowing in the wrong direction.
And I'm going, I'm going to model this.
So posture is back and I'm excited about it,
but I have no plan.
I don't know what it's going to look like.
I think it's going to be a mix of things.
And I'm going to challenge myself
to do things from a flow,
even if it's going to come across
not as polished as I would like.
Like someone once said,
and you guys know I use a teleprompter,
I'm not like secretive about that.
But someone just once said,
it's played in my head over and over again.
I just so love listening to Lindsay talk.
She never says, um, or ah.
Well, you haven't heard me.
I mean, you guys have,
because obviously there's no teleprompter now, right?
But I'm just thinking of the general posture audience.
Well, that's because I put a structure in place
that served me for a while until it didn't,
until that became the trophy of how polished it could be.
So, so Lindsay, what you're saying is
that the real is being realized in you.
100%, 100%.
I'm saying there's probably going to be
some lives taking place.
There's going to be some,
there's going to be some writing again.
It's going to be good.
It's going to be good guys.
And I hope you guys give yourselves the permission
to do that as well.
You are veteran, solid Kingdom Messengers in your own right.
And I'm so very proud of what you guys have built
and what you're continuing to build with the Lord.
I'm amazed.
I'm amazed that I get to do life with you guys,
that the Lord brought us together for such a time as this,
like such a gift to me, such a treasure.
You'll, you'll just never know,
like the healing that's taken place in my heart,
just because you guys are here and you've shared
and you've poured out yourself.
It's, I'm incredibly blessed.
Maybe one day I'll be able to tell you guys all the stories,
but we don't have, maybe you'll be in my book
when I have the time to write all the stories in the book,
but truly this is just the beginning.
Like the Lord has some incredible things
for each and every one of us.
And that's not hype.
That's not wishful thinking.
Like that's what he's showing me.
He's showing me.
And I know it's big because it's now beyond me, right?
I had that feeling of like, okay, Lord, it's beyond me.
That's, that's.
That's scary if you're wanting to control the outcome, but if you're willing to trust him with
it, it's like game on. Now, now it's just getting exciting. So I love you all. We'll be on, we'll
have our coaching call tomorrow. We still have a, we still have a month of this advancement program
and I love that this is how we're starting off the year. Like I think it's so cool how
the Lord set that up. So I'm excited. And this is a plug to, if you haven't already,
you know, book your calls with me, book your strategy calls. Some of you guys still have
two full strategy calls. This is the time to do it. Um, we're going to get like super in-depth
with what you guys are thinking, feeling, doing. Um, it's so don't hesitate to book those calls.
You can get the link in the kingdom messenger website, but all right. Thank you Lord for this
year ahead, this year of advancement. Amen. I'll see you guys tomorrow.