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Hey everyone.

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Good to see you.

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Happy New Year.

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2023.

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Let's go.

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We were like we're gonna do super low key New Year's Eve, and it was about, I think it's about 830, and the power, like in our town that we're here like went out.

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It was like out for an hour. So like this is a really low key New Year's Eve but thankfully we weren't at the restaurant so we weren't at like a party we're just like sitting on the couch like well, I think the Lord is telling us to just soak up

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the rest.

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And then it came back on but like an hour later but I mean I didn't even make it till midnight, I was like, I feel like it's just a prophetic word to me that like I'm going to have a just a year of a really healthy relationship with time, and not

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feeling pressured to do all the things all the time so that's wonderful.

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Only make sure that we're live. Yes, we are.

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I've been having some really and I'm sure you guys have to just conversations with the Lord about what he has in store for this new year and it's actually been fun for me to there's a few prophets that I trust and follow and just to see what

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they've been what they've been posting. And there's one guy, Nate Johnston who had posted something recently and I just thought it was really just a very fun confirmation because it was a wonderful word that he shared about revolutionaries and but one

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that this is a year of advancement, which is what we've been speaking as a community so I thought oh that's really fun like I don't know this guy personally I just also miss things but it seems like Holy Spirit is highlighting, even that posture of advancing

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into something to others so that was pretty cool.

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And we can also share you guys know that, you know, the, the vibe for these calls as you can share as well so if you feel like there's things of the Lord sharing with you about this year.

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I would love to hear it but what I was talking to the Lord about, you know what I'm wanting to do a better practice of is not forgetting all that he's already spoken, right, because it's it's tempting sometimes to get into a rhythm of constantly

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looking for the next word from God always looking for a fresh word, and while we're sitting on sometimes years of prophetic words that he shared with us and so that's something that I wanted to be more aware of in my walk with him of not always looking

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for the next new word, but also revisiting what he's spoken and treasuring his word treasuring up his word over my life but also what I feel like he's speaking over our community, my family, etc.

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And so, so I was doing that on the 31st even just, you know, remind the Lord was reminding me because I even asked the Holy Spirit sometimes Lord, bring to my remembrance, what has been spoken because I know that that so much has been spoken

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or I don't write it down or maybe I don't know where to reference it, you know.

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And so, the Lord was bringing me, you know, back to that prayer that we've been praying kind of throughout our prophetic calls together I think I mentioned it on our very first I didn't get a chance to go back and watch but the very first one that we did

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when we were even doing eight week intensive together and doing these weekly calls and that was Lord, make what is real realized. And it's just been the cry of my heart this year, you know.

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And so I was having a conversation with him and one thing that he told me that we're kind of conversing about was you know every anxiety, every sadness, every grief that we face here on earth is be it's attached to an experience that we have that is

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not true to the kingdom of God.

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And it's in our, we know it, like we, you know, we talked about this as well.

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Something that I'm, I'm, I'm believing more of and I'm my, you know, searching scripture for two is I feel like we're not just learning the truth for the first time but we're being coming reacquainted with what we already know to be true, because our spirits

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that are alive in Christ formed, you know, before even time began know the truth and their mind, as we become spirit led, we're walking in that union with Christ we're becoming reminded of what we always know to be true but our, our creation bears witness

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to it right so our bodies and our souls, you know when we experience sadness or grief, it's, it's because we know some things. This isn't the way it's supposed to be right we're experiencing something that's not aligning with what we know even if we can't

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fully articulate it in the natural, what we know to be true, true to the kingdom of God, it does not mean that what we experience is

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not real. So I know that there have even there's been theologies built off of

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these kind of like, let's live in denial of the negativity in life. And that's

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not healthy either. So I'm not saying it's not real, you know, we experienced

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real greed, we are we experience humanity, right? But it's, it's, there

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is a greater reality that we're a part of. And that is what we are learning as

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sons and daughters of God to walk in fully is that greater reality become

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fully aware of that greater reality. And that is what I believe is overcoming.

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That's how we become more than a conqueror. That is how we acquaint

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ourselves with that victory in Jesus and walk victoriously. It doesn't mean

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that we don't experience those experiences that seem disconnected and

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misaligned with the kingdom, but we are learning to realign. And then and so my

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prayer has been Lord make what is real, realized. And it was just this like,

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little nudge, it wasn't even this explosive conversation, but just, it was

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like he was reminding me of something I already knew to be true. But I wasn't

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making the connection each time I had prayed this prayer throughout the year.

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And that is that revealing what is real so that it can be realized is no longer

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just the privilege of Jesus, the beloved Son of God, it is the privilege of all

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the sons of God. So it's as if we I am my answer to my own prayer. This is this

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is what I'm walking out with the Lord, is that he has given me and he's given

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you the honor and the privilege of being able to be here in the midst of all

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these experiences that are misaligned with what is true, and reveal what is

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real, so that it can be realized, and not just understood, from a head

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knowledge point of view, but actually be experienced from a heart spirit level

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point of view. So, so that's what we've been talking about. And I believe that's

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going to continue. And I how this connects to you, is I believe that this

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is what the Lord has been building in our community all along, is people who

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are who are aware of that adventure that they get to be on with the Lord.

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And as we show up in people's screens, as we show up in people's lives in the

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various forms that we we choose to do that, and are walking, you know,

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choosing, actively choosing to do that in different ways, it's, that's what

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we're doing, we get to reveal what is real, so that it can be realized. And the

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only way that we can do that is we have to receive that revelation first. And

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when we, when we, when we have, you know, so when we come to a new year, I'm

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already having some of these conversations with just my friends,

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right? It's like, I was just at dinner with some of my girlfriends here. And

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the conversation led towards, okay, what are you so glad to be over about this

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past year? What are you happy to be releasing and no longer bringing any new

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year, like people are having those dialogues in their heads, or they're

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having the dialogues with each other of like, what are you so glad about, to be

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over? And what are you hoping for the new year, like, it's kind of where

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people's attention is, where their awareness is focused. And obviously,

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those things as we're thinking about the last year of our life, or maybe even

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the last season, maybe some of you are feeling like there's a real season

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shift, like it's not just a new year, but it's a new season that we're walking

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into. And so Bruce and I are feeling personally, maybe you guys are feeling

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that as well, is it's easy to sometimes go into a mode of, I'm so glad that's

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over. And it builds this weird, like avoidance thing in our like, Oh, I never

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want that to happen again. Or I never want to be that person or I want to, you

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know, so the the focus becomes situational, or the focus might even

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become beyond ourself, right? Like, how do I never make how do I what do I need

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to do to make sure that never happens again, or we want to change. And I felt

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such a freedom from the Lord in the conversation that I was having to release

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myself of the pressure to need to now strategize a new season, strategize a

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new situation, strategize a new me, you know, like, and like, okay, what do I

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have to do? Because I felt like there was this invitation from the Lord, based

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on that conversation that we had had about the prayer, that what I get to do

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what I get to walk fully in in this next season, and in this new year, is a

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deeper discovery of who he is. And it and I can, I can, I can let go of the need

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to control behaviors, even even my own, right? Because sometimes it's not, I'm

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not saying those things are not bad, like, hey, I want to, I want to kick this

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habit, or I don't want to have this

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thought anymore, the stronghold. But that's not the focus. That's not the road to true freedom.

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Because it's a self-sustained something. And it doesn't require partnership.

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More importantly, it doesn't require dependency on him.

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And he was re-inviting me to this posture, if you will, this dependency on,

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hey, this isn't about you now rallying to make something happen. This is about a deeper lean on

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me. Fall back further into who I am, and you will discover and experience what is real.

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You will realize what is real. It's not a structure. It's not a strategy. All those

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things are helpful, but they're just tools, right? We can't now serve those things and expect those

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things to be the thing that brings breakthrough, that brings freedom, that brings greater impact,

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that brings revelation. Those things do not replace the Holy Spirit in our lives ever.

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And this should be, I don't even know if I'm articulating this well, but I'm trying to

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articulate the freedom that I felt because I am someone personally, I'll tell on myself,

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that carries a really high sense of responsibility all the time. And that's like not a good thing.

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It just leads to a lot of angst, a lot of pressure that's not from heaven.

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And so there's just this new sense of freedom, as I was talking to the Lord about this,

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so what I'm trying to say, and hopefully this will help you, maybe you guys are walking into

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this year and you feel a greater sense of purpose, like, oh wow, this is what this year is

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going to be about. Calling, we have different words for it, right? This is what the Lord has

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for me, this is what we're going to be doing. But I think for the first time in a long time,

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or maybe for the first time ever, I'm realizing that that does not require

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me to now do something more, right? It's a different, it's like,

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before it was like, okay, like, let's make, how do we make that happen? Like, let's call a meeting,

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let's make, let's call in the resources. And it was like, hey, Linz, lean back, lean back.

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It's not an activity, but the activity that you will have will be

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like a life-given breath from me. That's kind of how I felt. So I know that all of you guys

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are leaders, you're people of, you carry a lot of responsibilities. And I thought that might be

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helpful as we like go into this call, that if you receive a word tonight and you're like, wow,

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that's amazing, it should not induce more pressure on you to now go do more things, right? Does that

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make sense? I'm seeing some nods. I think you guys are following me. It was really freeing.

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Maybe this is like basic one-on-one for some of you guys, but for me, I just felt like

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this is going to take some practice for me. Because I'm not even sure I know what this looks

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like yet. Because I'm so used to like now going and hitting the whiteboard, right? And like,

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okay, let's make a plan, let's do this. And it almost feels irresponsible and like irreverent

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that I don't do that immediately, right? But I just say, okay, Lord, I'm going to let you,

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I'm going to let you do it. And I'm going to only move when I feel your breath on something.

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And I'm not going to create or conjure up a pressure so that I feel that I matter more,

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that I'm taking this more seriously, that I'm not disappointing you or going to let you down.

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Like we're breaking that free. And it's going to be wild. It's going to feel so different,

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but it's going to be really freeing. But at first it might feel even, it might not even feel freeing

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because it might feel like I don't even know how to, this is so against my mode of operation,

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right? So I don't even know what that looks like. Guys, to be quite honest, I don't know what that

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means for Kingdom Messengers. I don't even know yet. I don't, it's not like, oh, I had this

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eight-step plan. I'm throwing the eight-step plan away. Like I only want to, I'm not following

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the pressure anymore. This is something I've been practicing in different areas, right? Like we've,

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I've talked about this. This is part of my learning to live a lifestyle of peace. So it's

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not that it's like, but, but to apply it to, Lord, I've received a word from you.

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I'm not going to try to make it happen and I'm not going to allow myself to get into

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angst about the outcome.

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I'm going to release that to you, the result.

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I'm going to release that to you.

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Why is that important?

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Because of the trust factor, because that's going to take a tremendous amount of trust

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for me.

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I'm already feeling it, guys, because I've received some words even recently like, hey,

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there's going to be some windows of opportunity coming to you.

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There's going to be some clear like, and I can feel myself almost like, oh, wow, that's

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like a heavy thing because now I've got to be on the lookout for the right opportunities

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at the right time and make sure that I don't miss it.

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We can go there.

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We can go there so easily.

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We can strip the word of God that he gives us from the delight from it because we immediately

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go into like, I better not screw this up.

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And it's like day two of the new year.

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And we can like give ourselves to the okay, well, vacation's over.

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I've got to hit the ground running.

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Look at all these amazing people doing amazing things online.

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I better like keep up, right?

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And we've just, that is not trust.

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That's not trust.

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And he takes trust very seriously.

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He takes it very seriously because it's, it's in that trust that the relationship is built

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and he takes our relationship with him very seriously and ministries and businesses and

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empires and kingdoms of this world are actually all replaceable.

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It can be torn down.

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It can be rebuilt, but you and I are not replaceable to the Lord.

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So it, we matter more to God than what we build for God.

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And I know I'm preaching to the choir, but there's big things coming.

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So let's receive those big things with hearts filled with trust.

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And from that place, we are going to, we are going to experience like never before

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the joy and peace in believing.

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I was so taken by that scripture again today.

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It's a scripture I've quoted multiple times, but I'm just reminded of the timeline of that

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word.

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Let me see if I can find it and read it to you guys.

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Because it's not, it's like a present thing.

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No, I put, I picked a good one, but that's not the right one.

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Are you looking at, do you know which verse that is?

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13.

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I just have all these different translations pulled up.

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Hold on.

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I'll read New King James Version.

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It says, now may the God of hope fill you with all joy and peace in believing that you

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may abound in hope by the power of the Holy Spirit.

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So what caught me again, what caught me afresh I'll say is the in believing.

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It's not the joy and peace because you, you believe this thing and now it came to pass.

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It's the in believing.

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It's the, the act, the present action of believing it hasn't maybe happened yet, but it's the

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joy and peace in the process with the Lord.

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And he, he's with us in that journey.

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And there's, there's joy and peace to be had in that now before the thing manifest, if

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it ever manifest the way that we want it to, the way that we want to, the way that we want

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to prescribe it to, I need it to happen this way.

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It's the joy and peace in believing that we may abound in hope by the power of the Holy

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So that's just what I'm carrying in my, my heart as we enter into this call, because

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I felt like, Hey, we're all on the cusp of something.

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We're all carrying weighty things, good things, weighty mandates, weighty instruction, waiting,

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weighty direction, weighty purpose and calling, um, weighty words.

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And um, it's not meant to weigh us down.

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It's not meant to weigh us down.

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It's meant to nourish this relationship that we're in.

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I just don't want to live another year of letting the weightiness that he's given me

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and entrusted me with deplete from that relationship. It's not that he's causing

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any depletion, but it's how I choose to respond or interact. It's choosing what it's me deciding

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what I'm going to believe about his affection for me, his heart towards me. I can allow that to,

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I can allow a misdefinition to construct this weird picture that actually depletes life from

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me, makes me feel more tired at the end of the day or end of the season or end of the year.

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Even though there's so many amazing things that he's spoken or that he's done,

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I'm interpreting it through a lens of scarcity that he never intended.

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And I think that happens, at least for me, when I start to feel this responsibility

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to strategize and construct an outcome or deconstruct what has happened in a situation

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and feeling like it should have happened a different way. It wasn't supposed to happen

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this way. It's okay to experience grief for loss and even if that's a loss of maybe an ideal that

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you were carrying for a person or for a situation. That's okay. It's okay to feel it. It's not okay

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to feed it. It's not okay for that to be the lens in which we view the Lord or view our futures or

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even view our present. And so as we close out a year, it's something that sometimes people do

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is they begin to deconstruct the year and decide what they're carrying and what they're carrying in

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and what they're not carrying into it. And that's okay unless that replaces, it becomes our source

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for how we're going to feel about this past year, how we're going to walk into the new year.

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We don't have to walk into the new year with any fear, with any feeling of I need to avoid this.

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I need to make sure that I protect myself from this person or these types of people or make

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sure the situation never happens again. Because all of that is coming from a place where we feel

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the need to protect ourselves, to defend ourselves, to create our reality. And the beauty is we belong

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to a greater reality that has been divinely designed by the master designer, creator of the

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universe, and we can trust him. We can trust him. And when we're in that space, it's very easy to

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realize what is real. To see it clearly, to hear his voice, the voice of another we don't hear,

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we don't follow. So that's my prayer for us as a community, as we enter this new year,

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is that's how we walk in fully, releasing ourselves from any pressure to construct

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something, to make something happen. I think goal-making is great. I think some people thrive

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off of it, and it's how they connect with the Lord. So I'm not downing that at all,

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but it can't replace him in our lives. It can't now be the thing that we serve, the thing that

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we're constantly focused on, the thing we're constantly fixated on, the thing that makes us

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feel good about ourselves or bad about ourselves because we haven't hit a goal. That can't be the

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thing. It can't be our God. And the past can't be our God, and the past circumstances can't be our

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God. And the way we presently feel about the world, ourselves, can't be our God. Our God is

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our God. And we're walking into the future boldly with him. And it's going to be wild, wildly good.

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So Father, we thank you for that. We thank you that you, we thank you for who you are.

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We thank you that who you are is limitless. You're not bound to any definition, past, present,

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or future. You're not bound to any kingdom. You're not bound to the state of the nation.

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You're not bound to any relationship we have here or we don't have here on earth.

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You are who you are. I am.

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And Jesus, we thank you that you are who you are.

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You're our head.

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We thank you that we have a head that we can trust.

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We thank you that you've made us a part of your body, that we're one with you,

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that we're not separated.

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We never will be separated.

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That we don't have to fear being abandoned.

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We don't have to fear loneliness because you're with us always because

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you gave us yourself and that was your choice before it was ours and Holy

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We thank you that you lead us and guide us in all this truth.

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That is no small task.

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We trust you.

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Holy spirit, that you are speaking right now, even to people who may be

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completely unaware.

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That's how good you are, how kind you are, how patient you are.

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You, you, you, you're present, you're present, and because you're present, we

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can be present and we don't have to fluctuate between the past and the fear

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of the future and the discontentment of the present, but we can be alive in

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Christ forever and always for all time in every time, but never bound by time.

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And we thank you that you're going to speak to us tonight.

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You're going to encourage us and the things that we can look forward to, the

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things that we can look for now in the present that maybe we weren't aware of

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or fully aware of.

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You're going to open our eyes to those things.

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We're not going to leave this call the same.

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We're going to leave with more life, with more awareness, a deeper

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thankfulness, because you're with us and you're speaking and you always, always,

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always encourage us with the truth because the truth is encouraging.

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So I'm curious if anyone else has been talking to the Lord about this year,

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anything that you're feeling that you're willing to share?

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If it's super personal, that's fine.

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Hey, Marian, I see your hand.

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Yeah, actually I had talked to the Lord and really hadn't got very far at all until

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Church Sunday and just one song came on and all of a sudden I had this strong sense

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that we're an army and this is including us.

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We're an army and this year is not about just holding your ground.

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It's about taking ground and we're taking ground.

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But I want to show you what I was seeing as this came together as you were speaking.

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You know how a goose, geese fly, shape?

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Really, they all know where they're going, but they go together.

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And a few years back, God showed me in a stream a school of fish.

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And, you know, they're so beautiful because they all swim in harmony.

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There's a rock in the way they kind of go around it.

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They're not following the leader.

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They're just following instinct, if you like.

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And where that's like that school of fish where we're all following the spirit.

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And because he's leading us all in unity in the same kind of thing and the whole purpose

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is we don't have to know where we're going.

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I don't know where I'm going, but I'm following Jesus.

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It's the same with all of us.

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We're following the spirit and we don't have to know what the goal is.

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It doesn't matter.

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The whole year is about seeking that deeper relationship, deeper intimacy, because when

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we have that, we will know what his purpose is.

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We'll know what his desires are and we will be following him more closely all the time.

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And my sense is that as we go, it's like, Lindsay, you're leading, but you're following

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the spirit, not following you.

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We're following the spirit and you're teaching us what you've learned along the way.

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The same way he's taking us into the digital landscape and we're going to take that

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territory and we're not.

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to do it by fighting. We're going to do it by just flowing in the spirit, and he's just going to

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overflow everything else in there. And it's not something we have to know how to do.

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And even at church, we have stopped having programs. The only program we have is youth

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group, but we don't have programs. We're just following the spirit. And every Sunday morning,

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if the spirit leads in a certain way, that's what we do. If it turns into a prayer meeting,

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that's what we do. And I believe God's teaching the whole church to follow the leading of the

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spirit, and that's how the kingdom is coming. And it's incredibly freeing. It's like you said,

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being in this place of rest. Well, even today, I was thinking I should make some more videos.

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And I did sit down to do it, but I still constantly have to say, no, I'm not going to

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think about having to do that. I'm going to do what God's leading me to do right now

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in the present, and trust that along the way, those videos will be there.

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And I really feel that it's like he's brought us together, and he's training us together,

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because everything we share is something that is going to help all of us.

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And it's so freeing. So what you're saying about being real, knowing what is real,

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we're bringing that into the digital landscape so other people know what's real.

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We're sharing who we are and who he's created us to be.

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that had not come together until this hour. Yeah.

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Hi, everybody. Well, Lindsay, I mentioned to you in a comment about the Lord speaking something to

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me on the 31st about, well, making what is real, realized. And I remember when you posted that

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episode in Posture, but then I also remembered that, you know, at our, I think it was like

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one of our very, very first weekly meetings when we were meeting for prophetic meetings.

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And I had just this revelation from God, and I had not had a whole lot of time to, like, sit down

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because of just people being around and, you know, grandkids demanding time. But I had this

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revelation about the power of that prayer that God gave you and how, I mean, I can probably speak

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for the rest of us, for the reasons Miriam just stated, that we've all embraced that prayer.

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And I was looking back over the year, and I would have to read through my journals

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to even come up with all the prayers, because, like, everything I write is a prayer.

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The answers to so many prayers. And that one prayer to isolate, make what is real, realized,

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it lives because it's his word. You know, he put that, he breathed that word into you,

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and you breathed it out to us, and we're breathing it out to other people.

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It's like, I mean, the scripture that came to my mind is that the increase of his government,

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there will be no end. And so, and his word to me this year is, I mean, his word to me for many

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years has been rest, rest, rest, but it's relax into his rest. And I felt like,

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I could just relax into all the, I can't remember all the words that he's spoken over me

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or all the prayers that I've spoken or written or breathed out,

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but they're inspired by the Holy Spirit and they're eternal and their momentum

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is, it will never stop. It's ever increasing and this morning I was thanking him for the quiet

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and thanking him for rest and I feel like that the relaxing into him, because he is my rest,

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I mean like rest is my home, that there is going to be a deeper intimacy,

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not just for me, but for the Holy Spirit is drawing the bride into a deeper place of intimacy

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and he's kissing her awake and making her alive to that and Psalm 23 came to me this morning as I

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was, you know, it says he leads me beside still water and beside like streams and I thought of us

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like as a group how he, and this is so much Marion, like so much affirmed by what you said,

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that we live by the streams of water and I could see him giving us our breath, like he's

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in the place of rest in Psalm 23. He is supplying the seed for the sower

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and again Lindsay, I thought about Psalm 126 and I looked it up and I concluded this word

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that God gave me by writing all of Psalm 126 from the Passion Translation and we're being, I mean like

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our seeds are being, we're being led by the Spirit to, we don't have to go hunting for the streams,

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like he's leading us, he's planting us, our roots are going deep, but our seeds are falling on

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moist, prepared, readied by him soil and it just takes the pressure off.

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I so appreciate what you were sharing, I don't think I've posted for a month and I was

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dealing with how do I feel about that, but I've got lots of ideas and I know that something's

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got to, something's got to be really established in me right now first.

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this advancement time and there's only four weeks left, I want to make the most of it and

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but the Lord gave me, the word was interesting, he said instead of reaching, I'm going to be rejoicing.

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okay, I'm not going to whine or beat myself over how little trust I've had, but I am going to

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rejoice in he's building up my trust, my confidence, and I came across, I think it's James 1,

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20, that says, laying aside all dirtiness and all that remains of evil, and I thought, okay,

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those are pretty intense, receive the word implanted, which is able to save your soul,

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which has the power to save our soul. And I looked up that word implanted because I somehow,

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I don't know if it's King James, it was engrafted and so I was always thought of engrafted.

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a spring up. So it is as a but it's this germination feeling

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that we've got these seeds in us that we can't see. But we trust

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the Lord that all of this is growing in us and it will come

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to our awareness. And instead of reaching I'm going to be

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rejoicing.

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That's such a good choice. Such a good exchange, right? If you're

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going to choose something choose rejoicing over reaching. Hey,

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Tamara, I see your hand.

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Oh my goodness, this has been incredible. And the Psalm 23. Oh

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my gosh, that's my that's the passage of Scripture that the

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Lord has highlighted to me is so familiar to me, my dad would

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say it with us, we would recite it with him every night. So I

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can quote it with my eyes closed. But the Lord is like, I

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want to make it real to you now. You can quote it. You have a

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general you have had knowledge of what it all means. But I want

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to actually make it come alive. Because once you really receive

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what I'm trying to tell you, you're, you're gonna walk

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differently. It's like, I was asked to speak at my church on

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New Year's Eve. And the Lord highlighted Psalm 23, verse

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three, but and he highlighted just he restores my soul, just

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that part. And he took me into a deep dive of what restores

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actually mean and what your soul is and how it's your will your

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your emotions, and you know, like just other things. It's not

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just you being a living being, you know, it's way deeper than

404
00:41:57.600 --> 00:42:01.600
that. And how he wants to take it back to the garden.

405
00:42:01.600 --> 00:42:06.600
Basically, he's like, I want to restore that back. My original

406
00:42:06.720 --> 00:42:12.720
intent is what I want to is what I want to do for you. And so I

407
00:42:12.720 --> 00:42:15.760
think the Lord is really going to make that come alive for me

408
00:42:15.760 --> 00:42:20.360
this year. Because I'm gonna be honest, I am, I guess a

409
00:42:20.360 --> 00:42:27.720
recovering perform person, I do, like trying to work my way, work

410
00:42:27.720 --> 00:42:35.440
my way, work my way, you know, into his favor. And so it's like

411
00:42:35.480 --> 00:42:40.920
the Lord is having to reprogram me. And being a part of this

412
00:42:40.920 --> 00:42:45.040
community, I'm, I'm getting a chance to learn a different

413
00:42:45.040 --> 00:42:51.680
facet of God. And how he sees me. So for me, this is like just

414
00:42:51.680 --> 00:42:56.000
transformational, like, you know, because I'm learning a

415
00:42:56.000 --> 00:43:01.160
different way of knowing him, and how he actually sees me. And

416
00:43:01.160 --> 00:43:08.560
that's causing me to be free. And I have to share this quick

417
00:43:08.560 --> 00:43:15.680
testimony. There was, I've had like some, some sort of growth,

418
00:43:15.680 --> 00:43:19.640
like a cyst thing on the back of my neck. And whenever I would

419
00:43:19.640 --> 00:43:23.840
get stressed, it would grow big. I want to say like the largest

420
00:43:23.840 --> 00:43:26.760
it's been, it's probably like almost the size of maybe like a

421
00:43:27.000 --> 00:43:30.520
halo or like a small tangerine or something like it will

422
00:43:30.520 --> 00:43:35.280
protrude out whenever I will be stressed. And whenever I'm not

423
00:43:35.280 --> 00:43:39.560
stressed, it just seems like it goes back down. But it had gotten

424
00:43:39.560 --> 00:43:45.720
like really big recently. And I'm like, okay, Lord, like

425
00:43:45.840 --> 00:43:50.720
something has to get like, I'm a firm believer in healing. Like,

426
00:43:50.960 --> 00:43:54.760
we're going to war on this thing. Like, you know, I'm your

427
00:43:54.760 --> 00:43:59.840
girl, you know, to stand with you in faith. So I did pray with

428
00:43:59.840 --> 00:44:05.680
someone about it. And it did go down. But can I tell you guys,

429
00:44:05.680 --> 00:44:12.280
and this might be TMI, it literally drained out after a

430
00:44:12.280 --> 00:44:18.400
prophetic call here, Lindsay, days later, when I reckon you

431
00:44:18.400 --> 00:44:22.080
were talking about identity. And this was probably one of the

432
00:44:22.080 --> 00:44:25.480
times I was boohoo and crying and just looking a fool on on

433
00:44:26.200 --> 00:44:30.160
you know, but I didn't care. You know, but I literally felt heat

434
00:44:30.160 --> 00:44:34.840
come on me. And it was like I was the Lord was it was all just

435
00:44:34.880 --> 00:44:38.400
identity. You were just literally just talking about who

436
00:44:38.400 --> 00:44:41.760
I was. And it was like things were shifting. Like it was

437
00:44:41.760 --> 00:44:46.880
finally penetrating to me. Literally, like a day later, it

438
00:44:46.880 --> 00:44:50.760
began to drain out. And over a course of days, it drained

439
00:44:50.760 --> 00:44:55.600
completely out is gone now. That was just completely super

440
00:44:55.600 --> 00:44:59.640
nice. And it was just all about that. That was the final key. I

441
00:44:59.640 --> 00:45:00.000
did

442
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.640
pray with someone, we agreed in faith,

443
00:45:02.640 --> 00:45:05.780
and it began to go down in size.

444
00:45:05.780 --> 00:45:10.440
But after that prophetic call of that penetration

445
00:45:10.440 --> 00:45:14.120
of who I am in Christ and my identity,

446
00:45:14.120 --> 00:45:18.760
that's when the total healing came.

447
00:45:18.760 --> 00:45:20.880
And so I just had to share that.

448
00:45:20.880 --> 00:45:23.000
So the Lord is gonna make Psalm 23

449
00:45:23.000 --> 00:45:25.000
come alive to me this year.

450
00:45:25.000 --> 00:45:27.000
So I just wanted to share that.

451
00:45:27.000 --> 00:45:30.600
Amazing, thank you, Lord, for that healing,

452
00:45:30.600 --> 00:45:31.960
manifestation of healing,

453
00:45:31.960 --> 00:45:34.840
manifestation of what is real, what is true,

454
00:45:34.840 --> 00:45:38.440
and a reminder that creation responds to truth.

455
00:45:39.280 --> 00:45:41.160
Our bodies respond to truth.

456
00:45:41.160 --> 00:45:44.000
Our souls respond to truth.

457
00:45:44.000 --> 00:45:44.960
Hey, Monica.

458
00:45:47.120 --> 00:45:48.040
Hey, everybody.

459
00:45:48.040 --> 00:45:49.960
It's so nice to see your faces.

460
00:45:49.960 --> 00:45:51.760
I don't get to come on as often,

461
00:45:51.760 --> 00:45:54.280
but I'm so happy to be here.

462
00:45:54.280 --> 00:45:55.720
I wanted to share with you

463
00:45:55.720 --> 00:45:57.440
everything you're saying, Lindsay,

464
00:45:59.080 --> 00:46:02.960
is so palpable to me right now,

465
00:46:02.960 --> 00:46:05.200
and not so much through me,

466
00:46:05.200 --> 00:46:07.560
but actually through my husband.

467
00:46:07.560 --> 00:46:10.560
So I think I've told you guys some experiences

468
00:46:10.560 --> 00:46:13.320
of how just by opening the store

469
00:46:13.320 --> 00:46:15.000
and different things that he's been doing,

470
00:46:15.000 --> 00:46:18.560
his relationship, he's always wanted intimacy,

471
00:46:18.560 --> 00:46:21.200
but he's always had tons of head knowledge,

472
00:46:21.200 --> 00:46:22.960
but he hasn't felt the intimacy.

473
00:46:22.960 --> 00:46:24.200
Well, let me tell you something,

474
00:46:24.200 --> 00:46:28.600
and this goes just along with the letting go

475
00:46:28.600 --> 00:46:31.840
and just literally letting God just move you.

476
00:46:31.840 --> 00:46:34.760
So I think I might've told you guys

477
00:46:34.760 --> 00:46:36.960
that he did a 21-day water fast.

478
00:46:37.880 --> 00:46:38.720
Yeah, okay.

479
00:46:38.720 --> 00:46:41.840
So after that, he can't put the Bible down.

480
00:46:41.840 --> 00:46:43.800
I think I shared with you guys that.

481
00:46:43.800 --> 00:46:46.600
And he has just been stepping

482
00:46:46.600 --> 00:46:48.000
into all of these different areas

483
00:46:48.000 --> 00:46:50.680
that he has never walked in before.

484
00:46:50.680 --> 00:46:54.000
I mean, he played the piano during worship at church,

485
00:46:54.800 --> 00:46:56.120
the last three Sundays,

486
00:46:56.120 --> 00:46:58.000
and he plays classical piano.

487
00:46:58.000 --> 00:47:02.280
He's never had to follow anybody,

488
00:47:02.280 --> 00:47:05.120
but he's like, well, I'll just do it

489
00:47:05.120 --> 00:47:07.720
because God is just calling me to do things.

490
00:47:07.720 --> 00:47:09.840
So even if I'm scared, I'll do it.

491
00:47:09.840 --> 00:47:11.480
Okay, so this is the part though

492
00:47:11.480 --> 00:47:13.800
that I think will resonate with you guys.

493
00:47:14.680 --> 00:47:17.720
On New Year's Eve, he told me,

494
00:47:17.720 --> 00:47:20.280
you know what, starting tomorrow,

495
00:47:20.280 --> 00:47:23.000
I want us to wake up early

496
00:47:23.000 --> 00:47:26.080
and pray together in tongues.

497
00:47:28.320 --> 00:47:31.560
And I looked at him and I said,

498
00:47:31.560 --> 00:47:33.560
but you don't pray in tongues yet.

499
00:47:35.600 --> 00:47:38.520
And he said, I know,

500
00:47:38.520 --> 00:47:42.400
but I'm just gonna show up

501
00:47:42.400 --> 00:47:45.360
and I'm going to speak out in English

502
00:47:45.360 --> 00:47:48.440
the syllables that will just come.

503
00:47:48.440 --> 00:47:53.240
And I just think that that obedience will be enough.

504
00:47:53.240 --> 00:47:54.480
I don't know what's gonna happen,

505
00:47:54.480 --> 00:47:58.280
but we'll just, I just wanna be part of it.

506
00:47:58.280 --> 00:48:00.920
I don't wanna sit on the sidelines anymore.

507
00:48:00.920 --> 00:48:01.960
I wanna show up.

508
00:48:03.080 --> 00:48:07.800
And so sure enough, January 1st, yesterday in the morning,

509
00:48:07.800 --> 00:48:09.480
we sit there, we say a prayer.

510
00:48:09.480 --> 00:48:11.400
He prays a beautiful prayer over me.

511
00:48:11.400 --> 00:48:13.280
And he goes, okay, why don't you start?

512
00:48:13.280 --> 00:48:15.080
And so I just start.

513
00:48:15.080 --> 00:48:18.880
And then all of a sudden I'm hearing him talk

514
00:48:18.880 --> 00:48:22.640
and I could tell it was like English, right, syllables.

515
00:48:22.640 --> 00:48:25.600
And then all of a sudden it just transforms.

516
00:48:27.320 --> 00:48:29.720
And he is baptized in the Holy Ghost.

517
00:48:29.720 --> 00:48:34.720
It's like, I can't put to words the,

518
00:48:38.040 --> 00:48:41.320
I trust him, so I'm just gonna show up.

519
00:48:41.320 --> 00:48:43.640
I have zero expectations.

520
00:48:43.680 --> 00:48:46.400
I have zero of anything.

521
00:48:46.400 --> 00:48:49.680
He's like in this space of,

522
00:48:49.680 --> 00:48:51.360
I really don't know what's gonna happen

523
00:48:51.360 --> 00:48:53.400
and it's better that way.

524
00:48:53.400 --> 00:48:55.280
And I'm just gonna go into this area

525
00:48:55.280 --> 00:48:57.560
and I'm just gonna be who he created me to be.

526
00:48:57.560 --> 00:49:02.040
And I'm gonna discover who I am by discovering him.

527
00:49:03.160 --> 00:49:06.080
And so for me, we've just been through

528
00:49:06.080 --> 00:49:08.840
so many different transitions with this business.

529
00:49:09.720 --> 00:49:11.920
Today we found out that most likely

530
00:49:11.920 --> 00:49:14.320
we're going to be rebranding it to ourselves.

531
00:49:15.760 --> 00:49:20.760
And so that's a whole other adventure that's coming.

532
00:49:23.200 --> 00:49:27.040
But I truly believe that he's been preparing us

533
00:49:27.040 --> 00:49:30.120
through all of these trials where we have no choice

534
00:49:30.120 --> 00:49:33.480
but to trust in him, absolutely zero choice.

535
00:49:33.480 --> 00:49:36.160
And then just letting it be where,

536
00:49:36.160 --> 00:49:38.760
Lord, we're not even gonna worry about inventory.

537
00:49:38.760 --> 00:49:41.720
We're not even gonna worry about what's next.

538
00:49:42.120 --> 00:49:45.600
The worry has fled from my husband

539
00:49:45.600 --> 00:49:48.880
who in 2020 would be glued to his phone

540
00:49:48.880 --> 00:49:51.320
reading all the news about all of the things

541
00:49:51.320 --> 00:49:54.240
and digging deeper into the conspiracy theories.

542
00:49:54.240 --> 00:49:55.600
Just like reading it.

543
00:49:55.600 --> 00:49:56.880
He's like, I wanna hear both sides.

544
00:49:56.880 --> 00:50:00.040
I wanna hear everything so that I can kind of evaluate.

545
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.780
And it was stressing him out.

546
00:50:01.780 --> 00:50:05.620
And now he's like, so if I lose my job,

547
00:50:05.620 --> 00:50:08.220
what's the worst that could happen?

548
00:50:08.220 --> 00:50:12.180
Like that kind of just transformation

549
00:50:12.180 --> 00:50:14.240
is just blowing my mind right now.

550
00:50:14.240 --> 00:50:19.240
And it's such an example to me of what you're talking about.

551
00:50:19.660 --> 00:50:22.900
It's just letting him lead and us follow.

552
00:50:22.900 --> 00:50:26.300
And I just feel so blessed to witness it

553
00:50:26.300 --> 00:50:27.560
and then to be part of it

554
00:50:27.560 --> 00:50:29.560
because he's been correcting me nonstop

555
00:50:31.200 --> 00:50:34.520
these past few months and just leading.

556
00:50:34.520 --> 00:50:38.520
And I found in my closet an actual prayer

557
00:50:38.520 --> 00:50:43.520
that I had written out asking God to give him

558
00:50:46.120 --> 00:50:50.820
the desires of his heart in intimacy with him.

559
00:50:50.820 --> 00:50:54.040
And I had it like with a thumbtack

560
00:50:54.040 --> 00:50:57.000
in the very back of my closet so nobody could see it.

561
00:50:57.640 --> 00:51:00.360
And I found it the other day and I took it to him

562
00:51:00.360 --> 00:51:04.400
and I'm like, look, everything that I asked the Lord for

563
00:51:04.400 --> 00:51:05.760
has come true.

564
00:51:05.760 --> 00:51:07.560
And this was like two years ago.

565
00:51:08.440 --> 00:51:10.620
I'm like, everything has come true.

566
00:51:11.880 --> 00:51:13.840
And he just, all he does is like,

567
00:51:15.840 --> 00:51:19.600
he's just so like, okay, I guess, I guess, you know.

568
00:51:19.600 --> 00:51:21.560
It's just the reality of God.

569
00:51:21.560 --> 00:51:25.400
Like it's real, it's real to him now.

570
00:51:25.400 --> 00:51:27.640
And so he can't stop pursuing the real.

571
00:51:27.640 --> 00:51:29.680
And I think that's what he wants us all to do,

572
00:51:29.680 --> 00:51:34.560
to continue pursuing the real in the very,

573
00:51:34.560 --> 00:51:36.240
in very much in the unknown.

574
00:51:37.080 --> 00:51:40.440
In the unknown is the safest place that we can be.

575
00:51:40.440 --> 00:51:44.800
And that's what I'm like gleaning from him.

576
00:51:44.800 --> 00:51:47.480
Like, let's just go into the unknown.

577
00:51:47.480 --> 00:51:48.320
Let's step out.

578
00:51:48.320 --> 00:51:52.940
Let's voice whatever we can in the moment

579
00:51:52.940 --> 00:51:55.940
and let him take over is what it is.

580
00:51:55.940 --> 00:51:58.100
I just wanted to share with you guys that,

581
00:51:58.100 --> 00:52:01.220
because to me, it's just been just mind blowing.

582
00:52:01.220 --> 00:52:02.460
Amazing.

583
00:52:02.460 --> 00:52:04.540
I love that testimony.

584
00:52:04.540 --> 00:52:06.220
That's incredible.

585
00:52:06.220 --> 00:52:08.820
I love the joy that it's bringing you personally, Monica,

586
00:52:08.820 --> 00:52:12.760
too, because that is, that's awesome as a wife

587
00:52:12.760 --> 00:52:15.460
to be on the receiving end of that type of leadership.

588
00:52:16.540 --> 00:52:18.020
That's awesome.

589
00:52:18.020 --> 00:52:19.540
Amy, do you have your hand raised again

590
00:52:19.540 --> 00:52:21.900
or is that just from previously?

591
00:52:22.380 --> 00:52:25.360
I do, because I wanted to tack on one more thing.

592
00:52:28.060 --> 00:52:33.060
So the thing, when I was praying this morning,

593
00:52:36.580 --> 00:52:41.580
I had this like recognition that I was born into his rest.

594
00:52:46.460 --> 00:52:48.380
Like rest is my home.

595
00:52:48.380 --> 00:52:52.700
I mean, if I was created in his heart

596
00:52:52.700 --> 00:52:55.540
from before the foundation of the world

597
00:52:55.540 --> 00:52:59.260
and redeemed in Christ, I mean,

598
00:52:59.260 --> 00:53:02.260
I was born into perfect love and perfect rest.

599
00:53:03.500 --> 00:53:08.300
And what I was mainly thinking about was just quiet,

600
00:53:08.300 --> 00:53:11.720
you know, and what God's word has to say about quiet.

601
00:53:12.820 --> 00:53:15.980
And I kind of got tickled about the thought

602
00:53:15.980 --> 00:53:20.980
of how religion will say,

603
00:53:21.900 --> 00:53:24.100
well, have you done your quiet time today?

604
00:53:24.100 --> 00:53:27.180
You know, like it's quiet is something we do

605
00:53:28.860 --> 00:53:33.860
and yet it's the quietness of his rest

606
00:53:34.600 --> 00:53:37.540
and of his presence that we hear best.

607
00:53:37.540 --> 00:53:41.080
You know, the intimacy is cultivated, you know,

608
00:53:42.860 --> 00:53:44.440
within our relationship.

609
00:53:45.280 --> 00:53:50.280
And I thought of how gracious he is to meet us

610
00:53:51.920 --> 00:53:56.920
in our efforts to go hunting for him, you know,

611
00:53:57.200 --> 00:53:58.880
in whatever it is,

612
00:53:58.880 --> 00:54:01.360
because I think about how my early quiet times,

613
00:54:01.360 --> 00:54:04.440
you know, when I was young were so constructed

614
00:54:04.440 --> 00:54:08.480
and it was a thing on a list that I checked off, you know.

615
00:54:09.480 --> 00:54:14.480
But I had this realization that it's him all along

616
00:54:15.280 --> 00:54:17.880
that's drawing us into the place of rest.

617
00:54:19.200 --> 00:54:24.200
It's, we're not going there, we're being drawn by him

618
00:54:26.080 --> 00:54:28.840
and he meets us however we show up.

619
00:54:30.400 --> 00:54:33.040
He begins to cultivate that longing

620
00:54:33.040 --> 00:54:37.240
for quiet places of rest, that longing for home,

621
00:54:37.240 --> 00:54:41.920
the longing for a place where you're just loved

622
00:54:41.920 --> 00:54:44.920
exactly where you are, for who you are.

623
00:54:45.800 --> 00:54:50.800
And that's one of the most restful thoughts to me,

624
00:54:50.840 --> 00:54:52.420
I think, that I've ever had.

625
00:54:54.000 --> 00:54:58.320
It was up to him all along and he's just drawn me in,

626
00:54:58.320 --> 00:55:00.080
you know, and it's continued.

627
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.280
and will continue to draw all of us in.

628
00:55:07.680 --> 00:55:08.520
It's amazing.

629
00:55:08.520 --> 00:55:09.840
It's not a place to get to,

630
00:55:09.840 --> 00:55:11.840
it's a place we already are.

631
00:55:11.840 --> 00:55:12.680
And if we're already there.

632
00:55:12.680 --> 00:55:14.640
It's a person, it's him.

633
00:55:14.640 --> 00:55:17.600
If we're already there, if we're already with him,

634
00:55:17.600 --> 00:55:18.440
then what?

635
00:55:18.440 --> 00:55:19.880
That's an exciting thought.

636
00:55:19.880 --> 00:55:21.160
That's a restful thought.

637
00:55:22.000 --> 00:55:27.000
Yeah, and it is making what is real, realized.

638
00:55:30.240 --> 00:55:32.040
So can, I mean, like, it's just,

639
00:55:32.040 --> 00:55:37.040
it is such a profound thing that he's doing

640
00:55:37.920 --> 00:55:42.920
because we live and move and exist in him.

641
00:55:43.600 --> 00:55:45.960
And just, he's increasing our awareness.

642
00:55:49.120 --> 00:55:50.440
I love it.

643
00:55:50.440 --> 00:55:51.800
Thank you for sharing.

644
00:55:53.200 --> 00:55:54.040
Hey, Bridget.

645
00:55:57.480 --> 00:55:59.320
Hi, happy new year to everybody.

646
00:55:59.320 --> 00:56:00.840
So good to see you all.

647
00:56:00.840 --> 00:56:05.200
And just to confirm basically everything that you're saying,

648
00:56:05.200 --> 00:56:07.880
I felt like the focus for this year

649
00:56:07.880 --> 00:56:11.080
was just to begin everything with rest.

650
00:56:11.080 --> 00:56:14.760
And so many times when we don't start that

651
00:56:14.760 --> 00:56:18.040
as our starting point, we can't actually see clearly.

652
00:56:18.040 --> 00:56:19.640
And I think we, then we,

653
00:56:19.640 --> 00:56:22.120
instead of resting and taking steps forward

654
00:56:22.120 --> 00:56:25.400
with his permission, we become more reactionary.

655
00:56:25.400 --> 00:56:28.760
And I think that's what my focus is really trying to be.

656
00:56:29.200 --> 00:56:31.200
And we've been working on this for the last while

657
00:56:31.200 --> 00:56:34.200
as my husband and myself, but I feel like,

658
00:56:34.200 --> 00:56:36.160
especially as it comes to,

659
00:56:36.160 --> 00:56:39.000
the temptation all the time is,

660
00:56:39.000 --> 00:56:40.720
oh, I should be posting a video.

661
00:56:40.720 --> 00:56:42.000
I should be commenting on this.

662
00:56:42.000 --> 00:56:45.000
But it's like, take a moment, just take a rest.

663
00:56:45.000 --> 00:56:47.400
And then say, okay, is this what you want me to do, Lord?

664
00:56:47.400 --> 00:56:52.160
Or am I responding or reacting to the pressure around me?

665
00:56:52.160 --> 00:56:54.600
And so, although I've got a lot of ambitions

666
00:56:54.600 --> 00:56:58.560
this next few months of what I'm trying to get with content,

667
00:56:59.360 --> 00:57:01.480
I know that I've got to always start every morning from,

668
00:57:01.480 --> 00:57:03.960
okay, what do you want me to focus on, Lord, today?

669
00:57:03.960 --> 00:57:06.600
And what is the permission he has given me to do?

670
00:57:06.600 --> 00:57:11.360
And I think our mind and our spirit is so much easier

671
00:57:11.360 --> 00:57:13.880
to hear and grasp what the Lord's asking us to do

672
00:57:13.880 --> 00:57:15.160
when we're in that place of rest.

673
00:57:15.160 --> 00:57:16.600
I think we just get to that.

674
00:57:16.600 --> 00:57:19.360
And it doesn't have to be an hour-long rest.

675
00:57:19.360 --> 00:57:22.360
It's just that moment, okay, Lord, where are we going today?

676
00:57:22.360 --> 00:57:23.440
Or what's the next move?

677
00:57:23.440 --> 00:57:25.360
Or is this something you're asking me to do?

678
00:57:25.360 --> 00:57:27.640
Or is it more my reaction of,

679
00:57:27.640 --> 00:57:29.040
I've identified so much with Lindsay

680
00:57:29.040 --> 00:57:31.560
of feeling like you need to take care of everything.

681
00:57:31.560 --> 00:57:34.680
And I've done that where I have done it

682
00:57:34.680 --> 00:57:35.960
out of the Lord's place,

683
00:57:35.960 --> 00:57:38.200
and I've done it with the Lord's permission.

684
00:57:38.200 --> 00:57:40.240
And it's so different when we do respond

685
00:57:40.240 --> 00:57:43.280
to the Lord and his permission.

686
00:57:43.280 --> 00:57:46.240
There's just a natural joy and a grace that comes with that

687
00:57:46.240 --> 00:57:48.480
as opposed to the heaviness

688
00:57:48.480 --> 00:57:50.400
of carrying somebody else's problems.

689
00:57:50.400 --> 00:57:52.920
So I think we're all on the same note with that.

690
00:57:52.920 --> 00:57:56.720
Thanks, Lindsay, for encouraging all of us with that.

691
00:57:56.720 --> 00:57:59.360
I miss you, by the way, especially.

692
00:57:59.360 --> 00:58:01.400
I haven't seen you for about a month.

693
00:58:01.400 --> 00:58:03.720
No, we've been away, but we'll be back soon.

694
00:58:03.720 --> 00:58:04.560
Yeah, good.

695
00:58:05.560 --> 00:58:06.400
Okay, thank you.

696
00:58:08.720 --> 00:58:11.120
I'm so grateful that this is resonating with you all.

697
00:58:11.120 --> 00:58:11.960
It's confirming.

698
00:58:11.960 --> 00:58:14.000
It's always helpful when you bring something

699
00:58:14.000 --> 00:58:16.600
and you're like, okay, shoo, it's resonating, right?

700
00:58:18.480 --> 00:58:21.400
So I appreciate you each taking time to share

701
00:58:21.400 --> 00:58:24.000
what the Lord's been doing, what he's been speaking.

702
00:58:24.920 --> 00:58:28.440
Because now, because I think Amy was speaking about this,

703
00:58:28.440 --> 00:58:32.680
like the word carries, now it's out, right?

704
00:58:32.680 --> 00:58:35.360
The testimony is like in the airwaves,

705
00:58:35.360 --> 00:58:37.360
like there's a marker there.

706
00:58:37.360 --> 00:58:38.960
So it's important to share.

707
00:58:38.960 --> 00:58:40.720
It's not, we're not just, it's not,

708
00:58:42.040 --> 00:58:43.880
I'm having to remind myself

709
00:58:43.880 --> 00:58:46.720
because there's certain structures

710
00:58:46.720 --> 00:58:48.320
and religious things that we do,

711
00:58:48.320 --> 00:58:49.880
like Amy was saying, like quiet times

712
00:58:49.880 --> 00:58:53.600
that have stripped meaning from things.

713
00:58:54.200 --> 00:58:55.480
And it's like, even sharing testimonies,

714
00:58:55.480 --> 00:58:57.280
it's like, yeah, yeah, yeah, praise the Lord.

715
00:58:57.280 --> 00:59:01.760
But like, no, like we, like this is, this is it, guys.

716
00:59:03.840 --> 00:59:05.000
This is the point.

717
00:59:05.000 --> 00:59:06.640
This is the power of community.

718
00:59:06.640 --> 00:59:08.760
We get to come and share the beauty

719
00:59:08.760 --> 00:59:10.480
and the wonder and the majesty with God.

720
00:59:10.480 --> 00:59:13.280
Think of how many communities right now

721
00:59:13.280 --> 00:59:18.200
are commiserating over the negativity going on

722
00:59:18.200 --> 00:59:20.560
and the headlines and the news,

723
00:59:20.560 --> 00:59:22.560
not the people of God.

724
00:59:22.560 --> 00:59:24.840
They may, we may not.

725
00:59:24.840 --> 00:59:26.200
That is not our function.

726
00:59:26.200 --> 00:59:28.080
That should not be our focus.

727
00:59:28.080 --> 00:59:31.080
So this is, this is not a throw away something.

728
00:59:31.080 --> 00:59:32.400
I know you guys aren't treating it that way,

729
00:59:32.400 --> 00:59:35.720
but I just, you know, so we can kind of go into pilot,

730
00:59:35.720 --> 00:59:39.760
autopilot sometimes with these types of things.

731
00:59:39.760 --> 00:59:43.280
And I think the Lord is wanting to breathe fresh life

732
00:59:43.280 --> 00:59:48.280
on the things that religion has made just a stagnant system,

733
00:59:49.400 --> 00:59:51.640
a stagnant formula that we do.

734
00:59:51.680 --> 00:59:53.600
So the word that I want to share with you,

735
00:59:53.600 --> 00:59:54.560
I mean, I shared some of it,

736
00:59:54.560 --> 00:59:57.000
but what I want to release and what I feel,

737
00:59:57.000 --> 00:59:59.240
and I'm trusting the spirit in you.

738
00:59:59.240 --> 01:00:00.240
I know that you are.

739
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:03.920
all mature and you can take what I say and bring it before the Lord and ask,

740
01:00:04.200 --> 01:00:07.760
how does this apply to me? Does it even apply to me? Um,

741
01:00:08.000 --> 01:00:12.360
but this is what I'm sensing for our community as we head into the new year.

742
01:00:12.400 --> 01:00:14.400
And I'll just be very honest with you guys,

743
01:00:14.400 --> 01:00:18.720
because I know I can be is I do so with hesitancy,

744
01:00:18.960 --> 01:00:20.760
not because I don't believe the word,

745
01:00:21.000 --> 01:00:25.800
but I don't know what this looks like

746
01:00:26.200 --> 01:00:28.840
because I haven't quite done this before.

747
01:00:29.800 --> 01:00:33.080
And maybe when I've seen certain elements of it done,

748
01:00:33.360 --> 01:00:35.600
it's maybe not been paired with wisdom.

749
01:00:35.840 --> 01:00:39.160
And so I've seen kind of weird interpretations of it.

750
01:00:39.200 --> 01:00:40.480
So I'm just being honest. Maybe, maybe,

751
01:00:40.520 --> 01:00:42.080
maybe there's some fear there and that's okay.

752
01:00:42.080 --> 01:00:45.560
I trust the Lord to cover me in that and for the Holy spirit to filter that

753
01:00:45.560 --> 01:00:48.880
out. Um, but I'm going to share a few personal stories. I didn't,

754
01:00:48.920 --> 01:00:51.920
I didn't really want to, cause I'm like, I don't want to make this about me,

755
01:00:51.920 --> 01:00:54.320
but I felt like the Lord said, told me today,

756
01:00:54.320 --> 01:00:56.920
as I was talking to him about what to share,

757
01:00:56.920 --> 01:01:00.520
that it would help illustrate the word.

758
01:01:01.120 --> 01:01:04.520
Um, so three things,

759
01:01:04.560 --> 01:01:09.120
three situations that have the Lord has used in the

760
01:01:09.120 --> 01:01:12.640
last week and a half, I might have the timeline a little bit off,

761
01:01:12.640 --> 01:01:17.400
but recent to kind of bring this all unfold the word in

762
01:01:17.400 --> 01:01:20.840
one word is flow. I'm going to unpack that. Okay.

763
01:01:22.360 --> 01:01:26.160
The word is flow. So the first situation, and I'm going to give credit where,

764
01:01:26.160 --> 01:01:28.240
where credits do these conversations,

765
01:01:28.680 --> 01:01:32.480
cause I'm not self-made and the Lord has given me the gift of community

766
01:01:33.200 --> 01:01:36.040
to pour into me and to help. So, um,

767
01:01:36.160 --> 01:01:40.400
I have been struggling with reentering the

768
01:01:40.400 --> 01:01:42.560
posture, the scene of posture.

769
01:01:42.960 --> 01:01:44.880
So I took a sabbatical in the summer.

770
01:01:44.880 --> 01:01:48.000
I had some plans for it that went awry because of some tech issues.

771
01:01:48.000 --> 01:01:49.440
I was going to do a whole mentor series.

772
01:01:49.480 --> 01:01:52.440
And some of the interviews that I'd recorded didn't record the way they're

773
01:01:52.440 --> 01:01:54.600
supposed to. And then I just kind of didn't have the energy,

774
01:01:54.600 --> 01:01:55.560
the time or the focus,

775
01:01:55.560 --> 01:02:00.000
cause I'd already started my sabbatical and with the summer and stuff to fix it.

776
01:02:00.000 --> 01:02:03.160
And I just kind of released it. It felt a little messy to me,

777
01:02:03.160 --> 01:02:05.320
but I just felt like the Lord was like, just release it.

778
01:02:05.720 --> 01:02:08.680
I was planning on coming back in the fall and, you know,

779
01:02:08.800 --> 01:02:11.120
clips were still going up, but not the long episodes.

780
01:02:11.640 --> 01:02:15.360
And I just kept coming across this barrier kind of internal.

781
01:02:15.360 --> 01:02:19.200
Like I don't want to do this anymore. I do want to do it.

782
01:02:19.240 --> 01:02:21.120
It kind of this weird tension. I do want to do it,

783
01:02:21.400 --> 01:02:25.680
but I'm struggling to figure out how to do it, if that makes sense.

784
01:02:26.200 --> 01:02:28.800
And it was hard because my numbers kept growing.

785
01:02:29.400 --> 01:02:33.920
Even when I stopped posting like significantly doubled,

786
01:02:33.960 --> 01:02:36.880
tripled my numbers. And so I'm like feeling the pressure.

787
01:02:36.880 --> 01:02:40.680
Now there's all these people wanting to hear from me.

788
01:02:40.880 --> 01:02:44.440
I feel like the Lord has given me this thing that I now need to steward.

789
01:02:44.920 --> 01:02:48.200
And it was from as all this pressure, there was no delight in it.

790
01:02:48.240 --> 01:02:52.000
And I was then feeling condemned for feeling condemned all the things.

791
01:02:52.600 --> 01:02:56.880
And so Ashley, who's in our group, actually Nicole Perez, I'm I'm we're,

792
01:02:57.120 --> 01:03:00.600
it's been a very interesting dynamic that we've had in the last couple of weeks,

793
01:03:00.720 --> 01:03:03.400
the last eight weeks, because I've been a part of her intensive,

794
01:03:03.400 --> 01:03:04.040
and she's been part of mine.

795
01:03:04.040 --> 01:03:06.560
So we've been helping coach each other in different areas.

796
01:03:06.800 --> 01:03:10.040
She's been wonderful. And I was explaining this to her.

797
01:03:10.840 --> 01:03:14.440
Kind of embarrassed because she's in my group that I'm helping her do this

798
01:03:14.440 --> 01:03:17.240
specific thing, right? Like, let's just be real. Like this is,

799
01:03:17.680 --> 01:03:20.360
it's not like she's a part of my nutrition group and I'm struggling. It's like,

800
01:03:20.360 --> 01:03:21.920
no, like I'm,

801
01:03:21.960 --> 01:03:25.480
I'm trying to help you with this and I don't even want to do it anymore on my

802
01:03:25.480 --> 01:03:30.280
end. And, but she was very gracious. She's incredibly mature. And she said,

803
01:03:30.280 --> 01:03:33.280
here's what I feel like what's happened is when you started posture,

804
01:03:33.280 --> 01:03:35.280
it was from the flow of your spirit,

805
01:03:36.080 --> 01:03:38.480
you were showing up and you were flowing with the Lord.

806
01:03:38.480 --> 01:03:40.440
You were sharing what you had for that day.

807
01:03:40.440 --> 01:03:41.840
You didn't know what it was going to look like,

808
01:03:41.840 --> 01:03:42.880
or what it's going to turn out to be.

809
01:03:42.880 --> 01:03:46.440
You weren't really necessarily intently building something.

810
01:03:46.440 --> 01:03:50.440
You were just doing your thing with the Lord. And from that abundance or,

811
01:03:50.440 --> 01:03:52.040
you know, that overflow things are flowing.

812
01:03:52.600 --> 01:03:56.000
And then like things do with most things,

813
01:03:56.520 --> 01:03:58.080
a structure began to form.

814
01:03:58.840 --> 01:04:02.520
I'm going to post this many times a day or this many times a week.

815
01:04:02.520 --> 01:04:03.960
And it's going to look like this.

816
01:04:03.960 --> 01:04:06.680
And here's what you can start expecting from me audience.

817
01:04:06.680 --> 01:04:10.560
And then I began teaching it because it was actually helping other people,

818
01:04:10.560 --> 01:04:12.280
right? Like, here, here's, that's what the people want to know.

819
01:04:12.280 --> 01:04:13.400
What did you do? And, you know,

820
01:04:13.400 --> 01:04:16.440
or then started working for them and a structure is formed, which is fine.

821
01:04:16.480 --> 01:04:21.400
A structure is a tool until it's not until the structure is no longer

822
01:04:21.400 --> 01:04:23.680
serving us. This is Ashley's words.

823
01:04:23.720 --> 01:04:26.480
I thought it was brilliant that we start serving the structure.

824
01:04:28.160 --> 01:04:32.040
So think about this with church culture, even, right? Like,

825
01:04:32.040 --> 01:04:33.680
I love that Marian's sharing, like, Hey, we're,

826
01:04:33.760 --> 01:04:37.640
we're releasing ourselves from the need to have a structure right now.

827
01:04:37.960 --> 01:04:39.960
And maybe some of you guys heard that and thought, man,

828
01:04:40.000 --> 01:04:41.200
that feels really messy.

829
01:04:41.600 --> 01:04:44.800
Or I've been a part of movements like that in like, you know,

830
01:04:44.800 --> 01:04:46.560
things go wrong or whatever, but like,

831
01:04:46.880 --> 01:04:51.600
I really feel like this is something that it's very personal to me,

832
01:04:51.600 --> 01:04:54.320
but I'm seeing other people talk about this,

833
01:04:54.320 --> 01:04:58.080
other leaders of larger movements, even saying like,

834
01:04:58.680 --> 01:05:00.000
we have to release this ourselves.

835
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.080
from the structure. We've made ourselves a slave to the structure, to the organization,

836
01:05:04.080 --> 01:05:11.920
to the formula, to the thing. And we're no longer flowing. We're just serving the structure.

837
01:05:14.080 --> 01:05:17.200
And so that's where I was with posture. I was like, man, you nailed it on the head.

838
01:05:17.200 --> 01:05:23.040
Don't know how to fix that. But I, but I acknowledge, you know, I was telling you,

839
01:05:23.040 --> 01:05:26.800
I acknowledge that was helpful. And then I was having a conversation with my mom.

840
01:05:27.760 --> 01:05:32.320
And I can't remember if she was quoting someone or if this was an original quote,

841
01:05:32.320 --> 01:05:36.480
but she said, you know, efficiency is the enemy of intimacy.

842
01:05:40.480 --> 01:05:44.000
And I had to like sit with that for a second. It's like, I think that's true.

843
01:05:46.400 --> 01:05:53.040
Efficiency is the enemy of intimacy. And she was talking about an example of, you know,

844
01:05:53.040 --> 01:06:02.080
if Bruce, you know, surprised me with flowers, like, oh my gosh, it's amazing. And then he saw

845
01:06:02.080 --> 01:06:06.000
how much joy it brought. And so the next month he got me flowers again. I'm like, oh my gosh,

846
01:06:06.000 --> 01:06:09.840
it's so thoughtful that you went through the effort to give me flowers. And Bruce sees that

847
01:06:09.840 --> 01:06:13.680
it brought me joy again. And so what, what then if Bruce says, you know what I'm going to do,

848
01:06:14.480 --> 01:06:18.640
I'm going to put a, I'm going to get Lindsay a flower subscription and just put it on autopilot

849
01:06:19.600 --> 01:06:25.600
and every month flowers show up at the door, but he has removed himself from the flow.

850
01:06:26.720 --> 01:06:30.560
He's removed himself from the spontaneity of it. He's removed himself from having to think

851
01:06:30.560 --> 01:06:37.120
about it thoughtful. Yes. That he thought, you know, what will bring Lindsay joy every month

852
01:06:37.120 --> 01:06:44.160
flower showed up, but there's no longer an intimacy because there's no longer that engagement,

853
01:06:44.160 --> 01:06:52.880
that involvement. It's just efficient. Efficiency is not bad, but it can be the

854
01:06:52.880 --> 01:06:58.080
enemy of intimacy. If we let it, if it turns into a structure that we now

855
01:06:58.080 --> 01:07:04.080
serve and the structure is no longer serving us and it's stopping the flow.

856
01:07:07.120 --> 01:07:11.760
And so that has what I believe what happened with me with postures. I didn't feel the permission

857
01:07:12.720 --> 01:07:18.400
to flow because I felt like I had to serve the structure that I had built. I need to show up

858
01:07:18.400 --> 01:07:25.760
weekly. At least I need to post daily. I need to have something always to give. I need to be

859
01:07:25.760 --> 01:07:33.680
commenting regularly. Right now. I do believe that this is a conversation from the mature

860
01:07:35.200 --> 01:07:41.520
because I can't deny. And I don't think the Lord is asking me to that when people are starting out,

861
01:07:41.920 --> 01:07:46.560
it's helpful to have a structure. It's helpful to have some steps, right?

862
01:07:49.040 --> 01:07:55.360
Like if you're a new believer, it's helpful to like start a quiet time every day, right? It

863
01:07:55.360 --> 01:08:01.680
doesn't mean that there's no intimacy, but if you're, if you've been doing this for 35 years

864
01:08:01.680 --> 01:08:07.440
with the Lord, like you don't, you should not feel bound to a quiet time every day.

865
01:08:08.320 --> 01:08:09.600
There needs to be a flow.

866
01:08:12.320 --> 01:08:23.120
And so my honest conversation with the Lord today was release is releasing this word,

867
01:08:23.120 --> 01:08:28.399
like going to create this blob effect where we all just kind of sit around and we're just happy

868
01:08:28.399 --> 01:08:33.520
and content to like not do anything anymore until we feel the Lord's wind on something.

869
01:08:34.479 --> 01:08:43.680
And then we don't do anything. But I, I think that is not, that's not even something we should

870
01:08:43.680 --> 01:08:48.479
worry about as mature people and, and mature kingdom messengers. Right? So I consider you

871
01:08:48.479 --> 01:08:53.840
guys a step above, like you're not entry level, right? You haven't been entry level for a long

872
01:08:53.840 --> 01:08:58.000
time. So this is not like a community wide, like me getting on the kingdom master community,

873
01:08:58.000 --> 01:09:03.279
but like everyone just flow. Right? Cause like some people need like a kick, a little bit of a,

874
01:09:03.279 --> 01:09:09.279
Hey, step one, two, three, build those creative reps. But I think for us in this advancement

875
01:09:09.279 --> 01:09:13.600
program, again, I'm not building elitism here, but you guys know what I'm talking about. Just

876
01:09:13.600 --> 01:09:18.800
the longevity of it. And you've done it. And there's, I think the word, the believe the word,

877
01:09:18.800 --> 01:09:26.560
I don't think I believe the word for us is flow is flow. And we, we, we need to make sure

878
01:09:27.520 --> 01:09:30.560
that we're not serving a structure.

879
01:09:33.600 --> 01:09:39.200
And I believe there's permission for us to trust the Lord to a level where we can,

880
01:09:40.399 --> 01:09:47.439
if we even are, if we're like slightly feeling like we might be enslaving ourselves to a

881
01:09:47.439 --> 01:09:53.120
structure, like kill it, he'll bring it back around if it's needed. Right? Like we can,

882
01:09:53.120 --> 01:09:59.680
we don't have to like now sit for seven weeks and decide whether or not, like, is it, isn't it?

883
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:04.000
Like if you're feeling like I might be potentially be putting this above my

884
01:10:04.000 --> 01:10:10.680
connectedness to the Lord, like kill it, kill it, try something else, try

885
01:10:10.680 --> 01:10:11.160
something else.

886
01:10:11.160 --> 01:10:11.600
It's okay.

887
01:10:11.600 --> 01:10:12.960
There's permission there to do that.

888
01:10:13.560 --> 01:10:16.240
So that's what I'm doing with posture.

889
01:10:18.480 --> 01:10:22.920
And, and, and honestly, it's what we're going to be doing with kingdom messengers.

890
01:10:22.920 --> 01:10:34.080
I wish I could tell you what that looks like TBD, but, um, I will not let

891
01:10:34.080 --> 01:10:40.840
anything, I don't care how enormous the potential is for it to, to be get in

892
01:10:40.840 --> 01:10:44.720
the way of my relationship and trust with the Lord.

893
01:10:46.080 --> 01:10:47.080
Like, I just don't care.

894
01:10:47.080 --> 01:10:52.720
I don't care if people know my name after I'm gone.

895
01:10:53.480 --> 01:10:58.960
If it's going to come at the sacrifice of me, living a peace filled, rest

896
01:10:58.960 --> 01:11:00.440
filled life with the Lord here.

897
01:11:00.440 --> 01:11:02.600
And now I'm not waiting for heaven for that.

898
01:11:03.160 --> 01:11:04.480
That's not what he intended.

899
01:11:05.400 --> 01:11:09.520
He did not intend for me to drive myself into the ground, barely connected

900
01:11:09.520 --> 01:11:13.720
to him, hanging on by a loose thread so that we can enjoy ourselves in heaven.

901
01:11:15.800 --> 01:11:16.960
It's for the here and now.

902
01:11:16.960 --> 01:11:18.080
It's for the here and now.

903
01:11:19.080 --> 01:11:26.320
And if I'm wrong, I want to go down making a call on his character, but

904
01:11:26.320 --> 01:11:27.880
that is what he has intended.

905
01:11:27.880 --> 01:11:28.840
He's that good.

906
01:11:28.840 --> 01:11:29.680
He's that kind.

907
01:11:29.680 --> 01:11:30.560
He's that faithful.

908
01:11:30.560 --> 01:11:37.440
He's that loving then holding him at a distance because I have this weird

909
01:11:38.000 --> 01:11:43.320
accusation that he is this semi abusive father who's only happy with

910
01:11:43.320 --> 01:11:44.880
me when I'm getting good grades.

911
01:11:47.960 --> 01:11:51.240
So I have to, I have to actively practice that guys, cause I don't

912
01:11:51.240 --> 01:11:53.000
know what that looks like fully.

913
01:11:54.200 --> 01:11:58.040
Cause I've always had this weird hook in me of needing to matter,

914
01:11:59.040 --> 01:12:00.360
needing to make God look good.

915
01:12:00.400 --> 01:12:04.240
And I know he's been peeling back the layers of that in his kindness at

916
01:12:04.240 --> 01:12:06.160
a pace that I won't crush my soul.

917
01:12:07.680 --> 01:12:10.360
But I feel like we're kicking it into gear and we're advancing something

918
01:12:10.360 --> 01:12:15.640
pretty significant in 2023, and it's going to require me not being enslaved

919
01:12:15.640 --> 01:12:19.000
to a structure, to a movement, to something that I've built, no matter

920
01:12:19.000 --> 01:12:24.040
how grand or glorious, or even the potential of it could be, I just can't.

921
01:12:24.680 --> 01:12:26.360
And I'm already feeling it day two.

922
01:12:26.520 --> 01:12:29.080
I'm already feeling the pull of things.

923
01:12:29.120 --> 01:12:31.960
Would it could have showed us with certain opportunities.

924
01:12:32.520 --> 01:12:39.800
And I just have to trust that he's got me covered so that I feel like we're

925
01:12:39.800 --> 01:12:44.800
at the threshold as a community of, there's just like this core group of

926
01:12:44.800 --> 01:12:49.560
people who are pioneered this movement of kingdom messengers of, you know,

927
01:12:49.560 --> 01:12:52.960
releasing ourselves from maybe any structures that we're feeling enslaved

928
01:12:52.960 --> 01:12:55.680
by and flowing and being free to flow.

929
01:12:56.080 --> 01:12:59.800
The third thing, it's not as significant as the other two interactions, but it

930
01:12:59.800 --> 01:13:01.200
was just kind of sealed the deal for me.

931
01:13:01.200 --> 01:13:05.880
It happened on New Year's Eve as I was scrolling when the power was out.

932
01:13:06.600 --> 01:13:10.600
And I was just going Instagram and I noticed there was an influencer that

933
01:13:10.600 --> 01:13:13.600
had read rather large following that was announcing that she was stepping

934
01:13:13.600 --> 01:13:18.880
back from her platform, she was no longer going to be running her platforms in 2023.

935
01:13:20.400 --> 01:13:21.520
I don't think she's a believer.

936
01:13:21.520 --> 01:13:25.360
She didn't like mention any of that, but it was just interesting what she

937
01:13:25.360 --> 01:13:30.200
phrased, cause she talked about how her, what she had built had become like

938
01:13:30.200 --> 01:13:31.600
a sweater that didn't fit anymore.

939
01:13:33.520 --> 01:13:37.560
And she was trying to continue to wear it and it was ill fitting and it was

940
01:13:37.560 --> 01:13:41.680
uncomfortable and so she was taking the sweater off, like she was releasing

941
01:13:41.680 --> 01:13:47.760
herself from the sweater, um, it just stood out to me because like I mentioned

942
01:13:47.760 --> 01:13:50.720
you guys before, you know, it's interesting to me when I see certain

943
01:13:50.720 --> 01:13:54.160
content creators, especially that, you know, even in the world that are just

944
01:13:55.120 --> 01:13:58.960
coming to the end of themselves after building something pretty significant.

945
01:13:59.000 --> 01:14:03.240
It's like, it all leads to death if it's not sourced by life himself.

946
01:14:04.720 --> 01:14:09.880
And so it was just a reminder to me of that's not what we're doing here.

947
01:14:10.200 --> 01:14:14.200
We're not building something unto our own glory and we're not building something

948
01:14:14.200 --> 01:14:21.120
that we now have to self-sustain that kind of just crumbles because it becomes

949
01:14:21.120 --> 01:14:22.600
a sweater that no longer fits.

950
01:14:22.640 --> 01:14:29.880
And now we're, so it's not a, it's not something that we need to move in fear

951
01:14:29.880 --> 01:14:33.680
about, but it's freedom, there's a freedom to flow, there's a freedom

952
01:14:33.680 --> 01:14:36.320
for it to look different.

953
01:14:36.320 --> 01:14:41.240
Then we need to, and to use Ashley's like terms, like release yourself

954
01:14:41.240 --> 01:14:43.280
from the need to control the outcome.

955
01:14:46.080 --> 01:14:50.360
It's not yours to build and you can apply that not just to your channels,

956
01:14:50.360 --> 01:14:55.480
but to literally anything that's starting to feel like it doesn't quite fit anymore.

957
01:14:57.480 --> 01:14:57.760
Yeah.

958
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:11.840
You know, the world would say, you know, stop, quit, cut that person out of your life.

959
01:15:11.840 --> 01:15:18.480
But I feel like there's life to be had still, and the things that the world calls to give

960
01:15:18.480 --> 01:15:24.280
up on, I just think it means doing something maybe differently.

961
01:15:24.280 --> 01:15:27.600
And there's freedom in that.

962
01:15:27.600 --> 01:15:34.820
And it's not doing something differently with an agenda to fix or create or control an outcome.

963
01:15:34.820 --> 01:15:40.500
It's doing something differently in total trust and surrender, that we can walk free

964
01:15:40.500 --> 01:15:49.700
of the need to create control of the outcome, because that is in the Lord's hand.

965
01:15:49.700 --> 01:15:54.820
So that's what I feel like I had for you guys today, as we walk as our kind of our final

966
01:15:54.820 --> 01:15:59.500
prophetic call for now, as far as we know, right?

967
01:15:59.500 --> 01:16:01.180
I'm really excited.

968
01:16:01.180 --> 01:16:12.420
I'm nervous, but not in a fearful way, just in a, this could get a little wild, Lord.

969
01:16:12.420 --> 01:16:14.340
And it could feel unsafe.

970
01:16:14.340 --> 01:16:15.340
There was a fourth thing.

971
01:16:15.340 --> 01:16:16.340
It was just kind of fun.

972
01:16:16.340 --> 01:16:20.900
But I don't know if you guys have ever read Chronicles of Narnia, but it's something,

973
01:16:20.900 --> 01:16:26.100
there's this scene where they're talking about Aslan, and it's like, I'm going to maybe

974
01:16:26.100 --> 01:16:32.060
misquote this, but the idea is Aslan is not safe, but he's good.

975
01:16:32.060 --> 01:16:37.300
And Michelle Cuss, who was a part of our membership, had posted something about the last two years,

976
01:16:37.300 --> 01:16:40.420
there's been this focus on stay safe, stay safe, stay safe.

977
01:16:40.420 --> 01:16:43.820
It's kind of been the word that the world has been projecting.

978
01:16:43.820 --> 01:16:48.980
And so she just, I thought it was cool, because she was like, let's like live dangerously.

979
01:16:49.060 --> 01:16:53.980
And then she posted that, and guys, just to be honest, I would tell Michelle this, like,

980
01:16:53.980 --> 01:16:58.500
I'm somebody who like, I crave safety.

981
01:16:58.500 --> 01:17:01.860
And when I saw that post, I was like, oh, like, let's not like, okay, Michelle, let's

982
01:17:01.860 --> 01:17:02.900
not get wild.

983
01:17:02.900 --> 01:17:06.940
But there was something in my spirit that rose up and said, don't crave safety, crave

984
01:17:06.940 --> 01:17:07.940
goodness.

985
01:17:07.940 --> 01:17:15.580
There's going to be a lot of goodness to be had, and it might feel unsafe, because it's

986
01:17:15.580 --> 01:17:21.060
not familiar, or it's unknown, feels a little wild, feels a little different.

987
01:17:21.060 --> 01:17:25.180
And there's a lot of safety in formula, there's, well, I'll say this, there's a, whether it

988
01:17:25.180 --> 01:17:28.780
could be a false sense of safety, but there's a feeling of safety when there's a formula,

989
01:17:28.780 --> 01:17:30.340
when there's a structure.

990
01:17:30.340 --> 01:17:36.740
And I think that's why so many good hearted people who love the Lord have put up with

991
01:17:36.740 --> 01:17:41.580
some stuff for so long in, in the faith circles, like, why do we put up with that?

992
01:17:41.700 --> 01:17:45.940
Why do we put up with religiosity, right?

993
01:17:45.940 --> 01:17:51.500
This quasi kingdom, religious life.

994
01:17:51.500 --> 01:17:54.540
And I think it's because it feels safe.

995
01:17:54.540 --> 01:17:58.380
But the Lord's not calling us to live safe life, safe, safe lives, he's calling us live

996
01:17:58.380 --> 01:18:02.380
good lives in his goodness.

997
01:18:02.380 --> 01:18:04.260
So it's gonna be good, it just might not feel safe.

998
01:18:04.260 --> 01:18:05.260
And that's okay.

999
01:18:05.260 --> 01:18:08.900
Because we have a Holy Spirit, who's gonna lead us and guide us in truth.

1000
01:18:09.140 --> 01:18:14.660
And what I see for the broader, like bride and body of Christ, is there's going to be

1001
01:18:14.660 --> 01:18:24.780
this corporate sense of trust, trusting the spirit in each other.

1002
01:18:24.780 --> 01:18:29.380
That's going to bring a unity like never before.

1003
01:18:29.380 --> 01:18:33.180
Because what the Lord was showing me, you know, there's just such nitpickiness in the

1004
01:18:33.180 --> 01:18:37.500
body of Christ sometimes, like we pick on each other's theology and expressions of doing

1005
01:18:37.540 --> 01:18:44.740
this or that or whatever, and it causes so much tension, like it enlarges, especially

1006
01:18:44.740 --> 01:18:49.500
to the world looking from the outside looking in, like we just major on minor so often,

1007
01:18:49.500 --> 01:18:53.420
and it creates this really weird swells of like negativity and stuff.

1008
01:18:54.340 --> 01:18:56.540
And I was like, Lord, why is that?

1009
01:18:57.020 --> 01:19:01.620
And, you know, I first thought maybe it's because we can we just not trust each other?

1010
01:19:02.060 --> 01:19:06.860
Can we just not trust that like, if Marian wants to worship God, waving flags, I don't

1011
01:19:06.860 --> 01:19:12.980
know. And, you know, Monica wants to do the liturgy, that they're not it doesn't mean

1012
01:19:12.980 --> 01:19:14.460
they love God less, right?

1013
01:19:14.460 --> 01:19:16.540
Like this is, you know, what brings them life.

1014
01:19:16.540 --> 01:19:18.180
And like, maybe we don't have to nitpick or whatever.

1015
01:19:18.180 --> 01:19:19.660
I'm just pulling names, right?

1016
01:19:19.660 --> 01:19:23.340
Like, but the Lord said, it's not about trusting each other.

1017
01:19:23.340 --> 01:19:25.820
It's about you don't trust me in each other.

1018
01:19:27.340 --> 01:19:33.980
And if we just heighten our trust in the Lord, the unity flows so naturally, and I really

1019
01:19:33.980 --> 01:19:35.700
feel like this is coming to a head.

1020
01:19:35.700 --> 01:19:41.580
There's a lot of things that have surfaced in recent years in the body of Christ, like

1021
01:19:41.580 --> 01:19:43.420
things that people have been exposed.

1022
01:19:45.380 --> 01:19:49.300
Just, you know, so I share this with Marian on one of our calls.

1023
01:19:49.300 --> 01:19:52.420
I really feel like there's people from the back moving forward.

1024
01:19:53.300 --> 01:19:55.180
Like, I think that's happening at a rapid rate.

1025
01:19:55.180 --> 01:19:59.860
I think Kingdom Messengers is playing a part in that, which I'm really excited about that

1026
01:19:59.860 --> 01:19:59.980
we're.

1027
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:03.600
bringing people kind of out of the background,

1028
01:20:05.000 --> 01:20:06.640
people that would just traditionally

1029
01:20:06.640 --> 01:20:08.280
like be in the background and support roles

1030
01:20:08.280 --> 01:20:10.720
and they're kind of bringing them to center stage in a way,

1031
01:20:10.720 --> 01:20:11.540
which was really cool.

1032
01:20:11.540 --> 01:20:14.600
I think that's happening largely.

1033
01:20:14.600 --> 01:20:17.120
And I think also what's happening is

1034
01:20:17.120 --> 01:20:22.040
as we were learning a level of trust in the Lord

1035
01:20:22.040 --> 01:20:24.360
that's actually going to fix

1036
01:20:24.360 --> 01:20:26.520
what we thought was distrust in each other.

1037
01:20:28.520 --> 01:20:29.880
So it's pretty exciting.

1038
01:20:29.880 --> 01:20:31.280
I think it's going to get wild

1039
01:20:31.280 --> 01:20:33.060
and I'm okay with that, I think.

1040
01:20:35.000 --> 01:20:38.360
But what's going to emerge is this beautiful bride

1041
01:20:38.360 --> 01:20:41.560
that trusts the spirit in each other.

1042
01:20:41.560 --> 01:20:43.360
And it's going to bring unity like never before.

1043
01:20:43.360 --> 01:20:44.440
So be on the lookout for that

1044
01:20:44.440 --> 01:20:47.840
and be on the lookout for how you can participate in that.

1045
01:20:47.840 --> 01:20:50.120
Like, again, with no agenda,

1046
01:20:50.120 --> 01:20:51.880
we don't have to now bring this,

1047
01:20:51.880 --> 01:20:54.240
like I'm doing this because I'm doing this

1048
01:20:54.240 --> 01:20:56.240
because I trust the Lord, that's enough.

1049
01:20:57.240 --> 01:21:01.080
I so want my motivations this year

1050
01:21:01.080 --> 01:21:03.480
to be grounded in who he is

1051
01:21:03.480 --> 01:21:06.520
versus who I think he wants me to be,

1052
01:21:06.520 --> 01:21:08.400
like, or who he needs me to be in certain things

1053
01:21:08.400 --> 01:21:10.720
to fix this person or fix that person

1054
01:21:10.720 --> 01:21:14.100
or fix the situation or fix this distorted view

1055
01:21:14.100 --> 01:21:18.820
that people have, like, it's too many layers, guys.

1056
01:21:21.960 --> 01:21:25.060
It's too, it's not what we were meant to carry.

1057
01:21:26.320 --> 01:21:27.880
Those things naturally,

1058
01:21:27.880 --> 01:21:32.120
I think things will naturally click into place

1059
01:21:32.120 --> 01:21:34.040
if we just focus on trusting the Lord

1060
01:21:35.800 --> 01:21:40.800
to the degree that he is who he says he is.

1061
01:21:41.320 --> 01:21:43.160
That's the depth.

1062
01:21:43.160 --> 01:21:44.320
Like, how deep would we go?

1063
01:21:44.320 --> 01:21:45.960
Who does he say he is?

1064
01:21:45.960 --> 01:21:49.040
And he says some pretty bold, outrageous,

1065
01:21:49.040 --> 01:21:51.480
extravagant, magnificent things about himself

1066
01:21:51.480 --> 01:21:55.640
that we have yet to trust.

1067
01:21:57.120 --> 01:22:00.840
It's going to be amazing, it's going to be wild.

1068
01:22:00.840 --> 01:22:03.520
So flow, flow.

1069
01:22:03.520 --> 01:22:06.120
I give you permission as your coach

1070
01:22:06.120 --> 01:22:08.880
who has given you structure from a pure heart,

1071
01:22:08.880 --> 01:22:11.560
I do believe that it has served us to a point,

1072
01:22:11.560 --> 01:22:14.560
but I don't want you ever to feel like you have to serve it.

1073
01:22:17.080 --> 01:22:18.720
That's the wrong,

1074
01:22:18.720 --> 01:22:21.280
the grace flowing in the wrong direction.

1075
01:22:21.280 --> 01:22:25.840
And I'm going, I'm going to model this.

1076
01:22:26.600 --> 01:22:28.360
So posture is back and I'm excited about it,

1077
01:22:28.360 --> 01:22:29.600
but I have no plan.

1078
01:22:31.000 --> 01:22:33.000
I don't know what it's going to look like.

1079
01:22:33.000 --> 01:22:34.920
I think it's going to be a mix of things.

1080
01:22:34.920 --> 01:22:38.680
And I'm going to challenge myself

1081
01:22:38.680 --> 01:22:41.520
to do things from a flow,

1082
01:22:41.520 --> 01:22:43.880
even if it's going to come across

1083
01:22:43.880 --> 01:22:46.440
not as polished as I would like.

1084
01:22:49.880 --> 01:22:51.080
Like someone once said,

1085
01:22:51.080 --> 01:22:52.200
and you guys know I use a teleprompter,

1086
01:22:52.200 --> 01:22:54.280
I'm not like secretive about that.

1087
01:22:54.280 --> 01:22:55.800
But someone just once said,

1088
01:22:55.800 --> 01:22:58.400
it's played in my head over and over again.

1089
01:22:58.400 --> 01:23:00.040
I just so love listening to Lindsay talk.

1090
01:23:00.040 --> 01:23:01.840
She never says, um, or ah.

1091
01:23:03.440 --> 01:23:05.280
Well, you haven't heard me.

1092
01:23:05.280 --> 01:23:06.120
I mean, you guys have,

1093
01:23:06.120 --> 01:23:07.800
because obviously there's no teleprompter now, right?

1094
01:23:07.800 --> 01:23:09.720
But I'm just thinking of the general posture audience.

1095
01:23:09.720 --> 01:23:12.080
Well, that's because I put a structure in place

1096
01:23:12.080 --> 01:23:14.280
that served me for a while until it didn't,

1097
01:23:15.960 --> 01:23:20.960
until that became the trophy of how polished it could be.

1098
01:23:21.640 --> 01:23:24.440
So, so Lindsay, what you're saying is

1099
01:23:24.440 --> 01:23:27.640
that the real is being realized in you.

1100
01:23:27.640 --> 01:23:31.120
100%, 100%.

1101
01:23:31.120 --> 01:23:32.040
I'm saying there's probably going to be

1102
01:23:32.040 --> 01:23:34.120
some lives taking place.

1103
01:23:34.120 --> 01:23:35.920
There's going to be some,

1104
01:23:35.920 --> 01:23:37.760
there's going to be some writing again.

1105
01:23:37.760 --> 01:23:38.600
It's going to be good.

1106
01:23:38.600 --> 01:23:39.760
It's going to be good guys.

1107
01:23:39.760 --> 01:23:41.520
And I hope you guys give yourselves the permission

1108
01:23:41.520 --> 01:23:42.480
to do that as well.

1109
01:23:43.680 --> 01:23:48.680
You are veteran, solid Kingdom Messengers in your own right.

1110
01:23:49.560 --> 01:23:52.800
And I'm so very proud of what you guys have built

1111
01:23:52.800 --> 01:23:55.360
and what you're continuing to build with the Lord.

1112
01:23:57.760 --> 01:23:59.040
I'm amazed.

1113
01:23:59.040 --> 01:24:01.240
I'm amazed that I get to do life with you guys,

1114
01:24:01.240 --> 01:24:04.400
that the Lord brought us together for such a time as this,

1115
01:24:04.400 --> 01:24:07.880
like such a gift to me, such a treasure.

1116
01:24:07.880 --> 01:24:09.280
You'll, you'll just never know,

1117
01:24:09.280 --> 01:24:11.400
like the healing that's taken place in my heart,

1118
01:24:11.400 --> 01:24:13.760
just because you guys are here and you've shared

1119
01:24:13.760 --> 01:24:16.000
and you've poured out yourself.

1120
01:24:16.000 --> 01:24:17.400
It's, I'm incredibly blessed.

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Maybe one day I'll be able to tell you guys all the stories,

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but we don't have, maybe you'll be in my book

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when I have the time to write all the stories in the book,

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but truly this is just the beginning.

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Like the Lord has some incredible things

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for each and every one of us.

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And that's not hype.

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That's not wishful thinking.

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Like that's what he's showing me.

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He's showing me.

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And I know it's big because it's now beyond me, right?

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I had that feeling of like, okay, Lord, it's beyond me.

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That's, that's.

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That's scary if you're wanting to control the outcome, but if you're willing to trust him with

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it, it's like game on. Now, now it's just getting exciting. So I love you all. We'll be on, we'll

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have our coaching call tomorrow. We still have a, we still have a month of this advancement program

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and I love that this is how we're starting off the year. Like I think it's so cool how

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the Lord set that up. So I'm excited. And this is a plug to, if you haven't already,

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you know, book your calls with me, book your strategy calls. Some of you guys still have

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two full strategy calls. This is the time to do it. Um, we're going to get like super in-depth

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with what you guys are thinking, feeling, doing. Um, it's so don't hesitate to book those calls.

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You can get the link in the kingdom messenger website, but all right. Thank you Lord for this

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year ahead, this year of advancement. Amen. I'll see you guys tomorrow.