I'm gonna kind of segue us into talking about two things that one of which I've
talked about a bit in my coaching program but there's there's additional
layers of that that the Lord has had me learn and walk out this past year that I
have not been sharing and because again I want to only speak what it is that I
own and and then but before that we're actually going to start with something
that I have never talked about and it's again something that the Lord has had me
that has been teaching me and having me walk out practically you know putting my
life on the line you know my faith on the line risking things and it wasn't
until December where I went through a very major threshold shift another one
and it was it was very challenging very difficult a new way excuse me a new way
to trust the Lord a new way to believe that he was more love and more good than
I had that I had agreed with him thus far that he was and then he was able to
manifest into my life because I chose it before I saw it and I chose it in very I
won't I won't you know believe I won't take time to tell you this story but it
was a very extreme situation and from by the worldly standards by the world
standards it was it was way past deadline way past and so what so there's
so I want to give that as an encouragement to you that just because
God that when God says that he's our protector in our provision it does not
always mean that our deadline or that a deadline that the world gives us maybe
our make something up I don't know just some decision that we have to make a
that some deadline that a person gives us of actually I need a decision by the
state or the bank tells me actually this is the deadline for this payment or the
insurance says this is a deadline for what for whatever that does not dictate
my life yes there is there is and there's wisdom it to operate according
to those things my point is that if God is calling you to remember that you are
always protected for and provided by him it will come it will manifest itself in
a variety of ways very often it will look in the form of a manifested wisdom
as in you meet those deadlines but just because the deadline passes does not
mean anything contrary to about the character of God than what he has
declared because God God's character is not determined by an arbitrary deadline
so yes I live in faith I am I live being believing that I am sustained by the fact
that God loves me being sustained by the character of God and even my
deadlines pass and I'm still declaring that what my God says is true remember
what Shadrach Meshach and Abednego said they said Abednego they said you know
even that our God will deliver us from the fire and even if he doesn't so it
wasn't what it was that God was going to save them from or a deadline that we
tell him that we need him to meet because we thought that that was a
standard he was holding us to in order to be a responsible citizen or whatever
that that God's character is not determined by those things and we do we
it's very very very important that we do not hold God our belief in God's
character hostage to the manifestation don't hold God's character hostage to
that and another thing don't hold your relationship with him which is what he
values above everything else don't hold your relationship with him at ransom
until he meets your demands and that includes don't throw God's words and
promises back at him as I know you must show me this about yourself you're the
one Lord who said this I am waiting for your word you have said this to me and I
am withholding myself from you remember it talking and I don't remember which
book it is talking about the importance of that a man and woman might withhold
themselves for a certain amount of time that it is very important that they
always come back together and that they do not allow that time to be too long
again God does not like separation between us and him and he doesn't want
us to withhold him and to use his relationship our relationship with him
as a as a bartering chip or up for ransom until he until we until he
this word in a way that we approve of and that meets our standards. He gets to dictate
everything. He gets to dictate the word. He gets to dictate what we're about to talk about
in the second session, which is dreams and visions and how they manifest. And he also
gets to dictate how it actually happens. We're going to talk about now how we get to partner
with God to actually create. That's what we're talking about in this section, is how do we
partner with God to actually create something on this earth? Adam partnered with him in
the creation of the animals and the fact that, yes, God created them. He spoke them into
being, but then Adam helped him. He called Adam to help him by saying, I want you to
partner with me and I want you to name them. Within the name that you give them is going
to is carried an identity that you're speaking over them that for the rest, however many
thousands of years that these lines of animals live, they will carry out that identity, that
characteristic based on what it is that you're speaking over them. So we too are co-creators
with God and we're going to talk about that today. We're very used to New Agers and people
of other religions talking about manifestation. Manifestation is not a bad word. It simply
means to create something. It simply means to finally see something that was once invisible
and now see it as visible. And we get to partner with the Lord in that. We don't get to decide
on our own apart from God. Well, this is what I want to do, which is why all those other
religions when they begin to manifest things and the things that they teach, they're using
real principles of God, which is why they work. But they're doing it according to the
tree of the knowledge of good and evil. They're doing it according to man worship. And if
I just zero in on my target and I determine and I speak affirmations that I want this
thing to happen, then I'm going to manifest it and make it happen. It does work, but remember
it's in separation, therefore it leads to nothing but death. That's why God wants us
to have no part of it. So when there's manifestations that are being talked about in books, I don't
know, mindset coaches or whoever, I mean like secular mindset coaches, we wonder, so why
is this thing bad? That's why we're not to have any part of it. It's done from a place
of separation. It is not done from one's identity in Christ where one is in the blood
of Christ, operating in the blood of Christ at that moment, not simply because of the
blood of Christ. No, in the blood of Christ at that moment, together with God, choosing,
co-laboring together, conjoined wills to manifest their relationship and make it visible in
some unique form, which ends up being in a variety of forms that we refer to as creation.
He speaks something into existence, and he uses us to partner with him to do that. And
that I wanted to talk about first before we start talking in the second session about
goals, dreams, and visions, because this is the power through which when we partner with
the Lord, the dreams and the visions and the goals actually manifest. When God gives us
a goal, a dream, or a vision, then we don't just wait for the Lord. Okay, Lord, so you're
going to do it. Well, why aren't you doing it yet? Seventeen years later, we're still
standing there going, God, why haven't you done it yet? God's like, because you're supposed
to do it with me. We're supposed to do it together. The whole aspect of you living life,
the whole point of you living life, so to speak, when you're going through life, what
it is that I want you to do is I want you to do, this is a process and a journey of
you developing your relationship with me, and you standing there waiting for me is not
relationship. And it's not developing. So the result, God says, hey, by the way, that
thing is coming, but it's coming when you and I together, join together, take a journey,
and just letting you know this is where we're going to end up. This is going to be the result.
That is a promise, a goal, a dream, a vision of what something is that you and the Father
and the physical manifestation into creation that God foretells you that is going to happen
is actually a promise to you of the aspect of your relationship that will be developed
up to that point. So it's God's promise.
that you will mature, and you will be victorious enough that when the two, to
choose him, so you can be assured of the fact that God has promised you that
you'll be victorious, and that you'll make the right decisions, and that you'll
you'll risk having faith with him. And that's what that, and that's what that
goal or that vision is. He's saying, you will choose me enough that together, that
over time, together, that will eventually be the visible expression of how you and
I have matured together as a unique being. So that, that's the goals and the
dreams and visions, but what is the, what's the, the power, what's the source
behind it? So first of all, let's start with, well I just wanted, the reason I
wanted to show this really fast is what I was just saying, that, that the, that
our, remember that our purpose, that the purpose for which we were created was to
have, have a relationship with the Lord, was, that's why we were taken out of him
and put back into him before creation ever, you know, existed. Then our destiny,
once creation existed, our destiny was to manifest who it is that he and we were
in the invisible, and actually make it visible. So he created a realm that was
visible for the purpose of, and which is our, which defined our destiny to, meaning
our destiny related to the earth, not the destiny of our existence. Destiny of our
existence, meaning the purpose of our existence is for relationship. When I'm
talking about destiny, I wanted to use a different word than, than purpose, so that
we understand it's destiny, in other words, the, why God created the earth.
Because if God, if the whole purpose is relationship between us and God, then why
did we need the earth? That's this extra, that's this additional thing that God
said, let's take what you and I have together, and let's actually make it
visible. Let's change the form. Let's grow it and develop it enough where we take
it from 1D to 2D to 3D. That's what creation is. It is basically taking God
and, and ourselves, and that, and the development of that relationship, and it
is, it's moving it into another dimension. What is that doing? It's
expanding us. It's expanding the Father, and it's expanding us. We're, well, we're,
we're expanding it, and so it's not expanding us, but that was just a real
quick way of saying it, but we're expanding, and as we're expanding, it's
being created. So remember that the universe is always expanding, scientists
have discovered. That is a type and shadow of the fact that God himself, who
we already know is infinite, and no, we can't fully understand it. It's like
understanding, trying to figure out the Trinity. Even though he's infinite, he's
also ever-expanding, meaning we're never going to get to the end of him. If we're
of a character in the essence and the DNA of God, it means, and we're also in
God, it means that we will continue to expand for eternity. But anyway, so, so our
destiny is to make the invisible of our relationship actually visible. When you
and God come together in a visible form, what do you look like? What do you look
like as a song? And that would be a song that you would write. What do you look
like as a piece of art? What does an expression of you look like? And I
don't mean just you, an expression of you, just one out of the multifacets that make
up you, and you and the Lord. What does that look like as a piece of art? These,
all of these things here are, all of these pictures here are actual visible
expressions of the artist joined together with God in the spirit seeking
to make that thing visible, that aspect of themselves, themselves visible. Anyway,
so that, that our, the manifestation of our spirit, of our, the relationship of
our spirits will take on a variety of forms in creation. So you're not just
going to create, your relationship isn't going to create one thing, in creation
it's going to take all kinds of forms. And when he made creation, he said, you
are going to have dominion over it, and I want you to connect. I want you to
connect earth and heaven, so you will be of both heaven and earth, just like Jesus
was. Jesus had, was born of spirit. Remember he, that the Holy Spirit joined
together with Mary's womb, so she provided the, the humanity, and then God
provided, God provided the spirit, and then Jesus, just as an example to us, at
every level, as he always is, he bridged heaven and earth. He was made of, so to
speak, he consisted of heaven and earth. He bridged the gap. So, and we do the same
thing. We need to love creation. We're of it.
We're above it, but we, it's not this other thing that, well, it's just this, it's just
this other, I don't know how to describe it, it's, it's, we need to understand that there
is a connection, and there's an essence of ourselves as well that is of that which creation
itself is of.
We thankfully are over it, so it doesn't ever, we're not ever controlled by it, determined
by it, or identified by it, but this allows us to be a king over it because we're of it.
Just like Moses was allowed to be the, the leader of the children of Israel because he
was a Jew, however, how did the Lord prepare him?
He did not allow him to grow up to be a slave.
If you are a slave, you cannot save other slaves.
Moses could not grow up as a slave, instead he grew up in the royal household, and he
was sent off in preparation as a pioneer into the wilderness, and then called back to save
a people that he was connected to, because he bridged, he was connected to them, literally
in physical, physical form, but he never lived as them underneath that slavery, but because
of his connection with them, he had the authority by God to be able to lead them out of slavery.
We're doing the same thing with creation.
We are of it, but we were never enslaved.
Very important.
A slave cannot lead other slaves into freedom, so anyway, drawing all kinds of connections
here, so that's what we're going to be talking about, is the, how we are joining together
with God in our destiny of manifesting the invisible and actually making it visible.
By visible, we also mean the soul as well, and people who can see into other realms have
seen the soul.
In fact, I was talking to someone yesterday, or the day before, here, at this conference.
I'll leave it to them to share as to who they are, if they want, but I was talking
to someone a couple of days ago that said, actually, I've seen my soul, and so she described
to me what it looked like, and she said that it looked like, in Frozen II, she said, actually,
you know where all of the colors are, there's so many colors, and they're like twirling?
She said, it's like that, only they're colors I've never seen before, so people can actually
see into the soul.
We can see into the spirit as well, but I'm just pointing that out.
We're also talking about anything that happens in the metaphysical, we're manifesting that,
we can manifest down into the soul as well, and that's the realm of like our emotions,
our thoughts, ideas, concepts, spiritual laws, we're over spiritual laws, we're not governed
by them.
We're in relationship, governing spiritual laws and earthly laws, so we actually will
help, and by doing that, we actually help identify earthly laws and spiritual laws.
That's what Jesus did when he was talking to the wind and the waves.
He identified him.
He's like, this is what I want you to do.
I know who you are, and now that I know who you are, I'm giving you instruction, and I
need you to act appropriately.
He governed over them.
He didn't say that they were bad.
He didn't say they were wrong.
He didn't say, I need you to change.
He said, no, be yourselves, but do it in order.
Do it this way, because he, as a sovereign king in the spirit, was seeing in the spirit,
knew what needed to be done, and was telling it how to come into alignment, and then he
looks back at his disciples, asking, why did you wake me up?
You could have done the same thing.
Okay, so now let's actually get into, I finally figured out how to turn this around on my
own.
I felt very powerful.
It does not take much.
Okay, so what do I want to start with?
Let's start with what creation actually means.
How creation happens.
So, here is, let me just write it like this.
So, here is masculine, feminine, God, his bride, pictured here and manifested into the
invisible form as a type in shadow, as a man and a woman.
Order, I see, is there anything else?
Oh. Fascinatingly also spirit and waters.
Remember the, that the, that Genesis 1, 1, that this,
or Genesis 1, 2, whichever, that the spirit hovered
over the waters, and the spirit hovered over Mary.
So, just wanted to point,
to draw some different connections there for us.
So, we're co-creators with Christ, just, and he,
and he exemplified this as the type in shadow between a man
and a woman, they can come together and create something.
They can create a new human being.
That when, at the moment of conception, a soul,
a human soul that is, that is, that has a spirit
in heaven is, is all conjoined.
So, they are co-creating.
Now, as, as we know, that do, in physically, like if you think
of physical anatomy, it's very obvious
that the masculine is meant to initiate,
and the woman to receive.
Same thing with us in the Lord.
God always initiates.
That is his role, it's his character,
it's his essence, it's his being.
Remember, this is, this is a conference about rest.
We're at rest.
We don't initiate.
We don't, we don't start the thing.
We receive.
So, there's initiation, and then receptivity.
But, in that receptivity, what is very important, so a lot
of people get that, really like, well, I can't do this.
You know, God's going to be, going to have
to be the one to do it, especially if we're talking
about something that we think of in terms of like, oh,
well, that's impossible, right?
Well, God's going to have to do that.
I can't do that.
I mean, it's very obvious that I'm limited, and da, da, da,
da, we need to stop talking like that,
and you stop thinking like that.
We're free from that.
I don't mean that we need to be condemned,
like, oh, we need to stop.
No, no, no, you don't have to.
You do not have to live into that oppression,
and because you actually aren't there.
So, you don't have to subject yourself to something
that you're not enslaved to.
But, anyway, here's the very important point
that I want to make, and that is the fact
that when the co-creators come together,
that while the man initiates, in other words, the masculine God,
while he initiates, what does he initiate with?
Word. How does God give himself to his bride?
Word. And so, he gives word.
What are we, what is the bride responsible for?
How does she interact with word?
How does she receive word?
She's called to receive, and the receptivity is belief or faith.
So, it's, you know, it's faith.
In other words, even if you feel like whatever it is
that you've identified with thus far in your life is belief,
understand that that's not belief, and we need
to upgrade our understanding of what belief is.
It's actually faith where you don't feel,
you may not feel anything, but you choose it anyway,
because God said it.
And how do you know what to choose,
and how do you know what you have permission to execute
or to come up with or whatever?
God said it first.
Whatever God said, you've got permission to step out on,
even if it's never been done before, because you're meant
to make something happen that's never been seen before.
So, you can't be waiting for something that's waiting on you
in order to even exist.
So, God provides the word, initiates with word.
We respond in faith, and then, excuse me, a being
or an aspect of creation is created.
Now, it hasn't been born yet,
so the seed is planted within the woman.
In order for it to actually become a baby, though,
what has to happen?
This is the very, very important point.
The woman also has to provide a seed.
Yes, the man initiates, but the woman has to provide a seed.
So, she receives very effortlessly, right?
We receive from the Lord very effortlessly,
but we do have a contribution.
So, if you've been wondering why something
that God has promised you hasn't manifested in your life yet,
you have a contribution.
What that means is you have a say.
You have decisions that God would like to know
your opinion about.
Now, He's going to father you into that.
So, say, for instance, you have a 35-year-old.
old man and a five-year-old son, and they're going to do something together, well, whose
opinion weighs the most in the conversation? Well, the 35-year-old man does, simply because
the 35-year-old father, he knows more about, like, all of the things that he has to think
about. What do you want to do today? Oh, I want to go to Disney World. Well, I'm sorry,
son, we live in Seattle, so we can't do that. You know, we can't go there today. But the
five-year-old's just like, well, I don't know, why not? So the father far outweighs because
he can see more, he understands more. However, what the father is wanting the child to do
is he doesn't want his child to remain like that for forever. He wants to know his child's
opinion. It's very important that we allow our children to express their opinion, to
let them, to give them confidence that what comes out of them is good, as opposed to always
suppressing and saying, no, that's bad, bad idea, da-da-da-da. We guide it, though, but
we don't speak in condemnation, where they could possibly internalize it out of, oh,
that came out of me, or I want that, therefore, me wanting that or me thinking that is bad
because that came out of me, and I'm bad, therefore, et cetera. So anyway, God wants
to actually, just like that example I was saying earlier, the father doesn't want his
five-year-old to stay five forever. He wants to develop a relationship with him and guide
him and raise him to the point that his son can grow up and mature, understand how to
make decisions, not the decisions he would make, but decisions according to how it is
that God has called that young man's spirit to manifest into the earth. He desires, a
father really unconditionally loves and desires his son to manifest that, and so he's guiding
his son into how to mature enough to the point to be able to make those types of decisions.
So when a 35-year-old man and now, excuse me, would that be 60, 70-year-old man, is
that right? Did I do the right math? And a 70-year-old father, or no, no, it's 65-year-old
father, now that they're 35 and 65, if they talk about what restaurant they want to go
to, they have equal weight in the conversation because the father helped mature the son to
that point in order to be able to enjoy his son at a more intimate level, where instead
of there being so much from the parent to the child, the child has been raised to give
to the father. Fathers raise the sons that save them. Because, and here's why, because
I just dropped that bomb right in the middle there, so I need to explain it. Okay, so we
are a single body of Christ from Adam all the way till, you know, whoever, however long.
We're one single body in Christ, and each generation is given particular responsibilities
and given ways, given things from the Lord that they learn and that they are called to
believe God in, step out in so that creation now can manifest that. That then, all of those
hard choices that your parents made, we should honor them for because their ceiling is the
floor that enables us to stand where we are. But what does that mean? That doesn't mean
that we're only supported by the parents. Why are we being supported by the parents
and what it is that they accomplished and what it is that they believed about God that
was true, that we now get to benefit from and our grandparents and our great-grandparents?
The whole point of that is, okay, let's get the next generation higher, and we're just
going to use higher in terms of this aspect of like ceiling and floor, so we'll just talk
about it that way. Let's get the next generation higher and higher and higher and higher so
that they can finally be the one to reach the banana so that, or all of the bananas,
so that we can all eat. That's what we're doing. We're working together, so what it
is that you, the new things of the Lord that you step into that your parents don't understand,
don't condemn them for that. They believed things about God that their parents didn't,
and they enabled you to stand where you are, and so now God's revealing amazing new things.
For instance, you know, here right now, here on the earth, and He's revealing new things
to us these days, and what that means is that because we're now, we are receiving that,
that revelation, we're called to step out in it,
receiving that word, we received the word,
we're receiving the revelation,
we're called to step out on it in faith
so that something can manifest
that will release creation from frustration.
What is the creation that we're releasing from frustration
when we're stepping out and believing God
in a new way than our parents did?
We're releasing our parents from frustration.
Fathers raise their own saviors.
I don't mean a savior like Jesus Christ,
I mean just someone who helps them.
So our fathers were so used to being supported by them,
right, so used to that,
that they're the ones who are doing everything, whatever.
They're doing that in the Lord's eyes,
the way that the Lord sees it is they're doing that
in order for us to eventually be able
to give them what it is that in the Lord
they have allowed us to reach.
It's very important that we honor them
for what it is that, for how it is
that our generation is where it is
and what it is that we know.
And it's very easy for us to look back,
especially as God is loosening our holds of legalism,
et cetera, how do you think that we got to the point
that we can receive the word that we're now able to receive?
All of those decisions that they made prior to this
to believe God to the level that they did,
including if we would define it by the word,
by the words of traditionalist religion
or legalism or whatever, it enabled us to be here.
And why are we here?
We're here to save them, not condemn them.
Remember what I was talking about with my coworker?
That's why I chose to do that.
I didn't know that, I just knew it in my spirit
that that's what I needed to do.
But it's like the longer that,
the more that the Lord reveals to us,
we now realize, oh, that's the spiritual principle
that was in play.
In other words, somebody that is hurting me
or anything like that,
and then instead of just protecting myself from him
and condemning him, I'm called to actually save someone
who's trying to destroy me.
That's what Jesus did.
He actually died at the hands of those
he was trying to save.
We are always called to act just like our Father,
but he always does it first,
initiates, receives.
We're supposed to echo, for lack of a better phrase.
He does it, and then we follow his example
multiple ways.
Anyway, we contribute a seed,
and the Lord, excuse me, wants us,
just like that example between a father and a son,
he is trying to raise us up to the point
where whatever seed it is that we're contributing,
it carries a greater and greater weight
as he teaches us how to mature and makes decisions
that when he and we counsel together,
it bears greater and greater weight in the conversation,
and it helps determine more and more
what it is that the two of us decide to do together.
And here's why.
It's not because we're gaining more and more power
relative to God.
It's not that.
It's that God, because we look just like him,
because he's the only thing that he finds safe
because he's uncorrupted, right?
Because we look more and more like him,
we are now safe enough for him
to be more and more vulnerable with,
more and more intimate with,
and now he honors us by allowing him,
allowing God of the universe to be vulnerable enough
to the point that he allows us to actually bear more weight
in the decision of what it is that we're going to do,
as opposed to always superseding all of our decisions
and like, no, we're not gonna do that.
And I know this because I'm currently living it
in a particular measure.
Very, you know, not in the measure that other people are.
My point is that, and we'll be talking about this later
when we talk about the goals and dreams and visions,
how to make decisions where you're coming up
with your own ideas and presenting them to God,
as opposed to standing around waiting for him
to tell you what it is that he wants you
to do with your life.
What business do you want me to have, God?
Oh God, it's been three weeks.
You still haven't told me.
God's like, well, where's your ideas?
What do you want to do?
What are your thoughts?
Let's talk about this.
And then the more mature that we become in the Lord,
not the older we get in physical,
the more mature we become in the Lord,
the more weight that it adds to the,
to the discussion, but we do have a contribution.
Very important for us to realize
that we don't need to be standing around
waiting for the Lord.
Standing around waiting for the Lord is not action,
and faith without action is dead.
So if we're waiting, we haven't believed.
If we're waiting, we haven't had faith.
I mean, there's such a thing as waiting on the Lord, yes,
but that's because he creates the result.
So I'm not talking contrary to scripture.
I'm talking about the fact if we're waiting around
and we're just like, well God, why haven't you done this yet?
God, why haven't you done this yet?
There's no action to say, we're actually accusing him
instead of believing him.
And so therefore, we're actually not having faith.
And that's the type of waiting that I was talking about
that we shouldn't be doing.
And okay, in talking about how to,
the energy, life force, whatever,
I don't know how to word it,
that needs to come from us,
needs to come from us as part of the seed of our contribution
is in our will.
It's in our will.
In other words, our intention.
God wants us, well, let me add another word.
God wants us to decide.
Have a will, have an opinion.
Don't be rigid about it, but have an opinion.
Want something, desire something.
We're afraid of desiring things.
I know this from personal experience.
We're afraid of desiring things
because we're afraid of being told no
or we're afraid of being disappointed.
I actually got to the point where I wasn't seeing
the gifts, certain gifts and dreams
that I asked the Lord for manifest in my life.
And so I thought, okay, and in fact, all of them
felt like I was being denied all of them for decades.
And no, that is not an exaggeration.
If you want specifics, just come and ask me.
All of that is very, very true.
All of these gifts for decades
and they weren't manifesting.
And so I thought that, okay, apparently that doesn't work.
Apparently me wanting something doesn't work.
So maybe the rule is, maybe the trick is
to not ever want anything.
So I stifled my dreams.
So when God began to heal me and identified me
and I found my identity in him,
he had to begin to heal me to be able to dream
because dreaming was very scary.
Dreaming according to the laws and rules
in which that I had accused God of operating by
meant if I dreamed it, if I wanted it,
if I desired it, it was guaranteed
that he would ask me to sacrifice it and give it up.
If I wanted it, it was always bad.
If I wanted it, it meant that it was always
from a wicked and sinful place.
I know it makes no sense to probably some of you,
hopefully that have had a much more healthier perspective
of the Lord than I have had growing up,
but that was how extreme that I got.
I told you, I'm a very, very extreme person,
just like one end or the other.
So thankfully the Lord's brought me a lot more into balance.
But the Lord wants us, let me, excuse me.
Let me also write one more thing.
I'll write it down here.
I'm sorry, I know it's gonna be small,
but I'm just gonna, well, I'll just write it over here.
Another thing that I just mentioned,
he wants us to desire.
Wants us to will, intend, decide, and desire.
Don't remember, God is a safe place with which to dream.
Don't keep yourself from dreams
because you want,
because you're afraid of being disappointed.
The expectation of being disappointed
is accusation against God.
My God is not good.
My God is not loving.
So now when my desires don't happen the way that I want,
I don't accuse God.
I'm like, oh, but my God's still loving
and my God's still good.
But I had to develop to that point.
My relationship with him had to develop to the point
where I continued to choose repeatedly
regardless of the physical manifestation
or the emotional manifestation or whatever
that no, it doesn't matter what my God said is true.
I don't care that it looks like.
the opposite is happening and that everybody else in my life
is saying that the opposite is happening
and that I am acting like a fool, God said.
And I have done that repeatedly to the point where now,
if God gives me the dies, God gives,
excuse me, God gives me huge desires of my heart, huge.
He gives me beyond what I desire
because he's teaching me, no, Ashley, that's all you wanted?
Mm-mm, I'll give you more than that,
I'll give you more than that, I'll give you more than that.
I wanna show you who it is that I am.
So he gives me huge desires of my heart.
So I, and I know in my relationship with him,
not because he's manifested it and proved it to me,
but how the relationship,
how our relationship has developed,
it has developed in such a way that now my focus
is not on the desires of my heart,
it's on how loving and how good my God is.
Regardless of how all over here,
the desires of my heart are being manifested
and I'm enjoying them and I'm living in them,
but the importance is what is that saying about my God
and that is what my whole, so focus is.
So that when the desire,
what I think of as the desire of my heart doesn't manifest,
I don't notice because it's not what I'm looking at anyway.
I'm still growing and learning in that,
which is why I can still be triggered
and I can still shift into fear.
I'm just saying that I actually have seen this actually,
I actually have lived this out to a particular measure
and God is continuing to increase me
about how much more good he is than I have
as opposed to how I have accused him thus far.
So anyway, so God wants to have will intention and desire.
So how do we actually do this?
Because it all sounds great.
It sounds very, but it all sounds very esoterical.
So how do we put hands and feet to this thing?
Excuse me.
For the sake of time, we're not gonna do an exercise,
but I'll walk us through this
and then I recommend that you go
and do this on your own and begin to practice.
This is one of the ways,
some of the exercises that we have done,
they've already began to teach us how to find our intention,
especially that very first one where I said,
you know, where we were learning how to focus,
because when you intend to do something,
you have to laser sharp focus in on something
and determine that that thing is going to happen
in order for it to actually happen.
Meaning that your intention is to be sure.
If your intention is sure, it can be the grain,
it could be the size of a mustard seed.
That's why God said that the faith of a mustard seed
is all that's required to move mountains.
The size doesn't matter.
The power is in the intention of a son of God
being sent forth, not in some size.
Size doesn't matter.
Size is completely irrelevant in the situation.
That's why God was talking about, you know,
the faith of a mustard seed.
Part of faith that,
because intention goes back to everything,
in order to have part of our faith,
especially when there's something that we had to let go of
and had to release in order to choose God, right?
And you're like, okay, well, it looks like the manifestation
is exact opposite of what God's saying,
so I'm having to make a painful struggle
of a decision to actually choose.
In that, in order to choose, we had to have intention.
We're already acting in intention.
The problem is that we're doing it on autopilot
and we don't know what the heck the thing is,
so we don't know how to control it.
It's like a baby being born, you know,
with arms and legs and flails it all around
and doesn't know how to control its body
and it's constant and then has,
and it takes a while for it to learn,
this is what I want to do.
And then tells its arms and hands and fingers,
do this, reach out and grab.
That, he found his intention, that is intention,
and he found his intention and he began to zero in on it.
But, so we have to understand
that we have to find that intention.
Now we move our arms and hands and legs
and all of that on autopilot that we don't know
what's that thing in me that's actually intention
so that I can grab it and direct it somewhere.
We need to, because we need to know where it is
and what it feels like so we can actually,
when we make a determination, we can say,
God has said this, I receive it,
therefore God, let's together do it.
How do you know, I mean, you can't go in that direction
if you don't know your intention,
if you don't know where it is.
where your intention is, you can't direct it.
So it's very important to be able to,
quote unquote, isolate it.
Figure out what is that thing in me that's intention,
so I can zero in on it and point it towards something
if I want somebody's healing.
That is how people are healed,
is others have found their intention
and they're choosing in that intention,
having faith that receives the word of God,
saying that we have all been healed
and that God desire, meaning healed in the spirit,
and that God desires all of creation
to manifest the healing.
In other words, manifest order.
And so they receive that word and then someone is healed.
So word combined with the seed of faith
that simply receives actually creates,
is what causes healing.
You know, you wonder why you haven't been healed
or someone else hasn't been healed or whatever.
And like, well, if God could heal them
and wanted them healed, then he would have by now.
No, that's like, do this thing with me.
You can do this.
Mine is the heavens, I gave the earth to you.
You do it.
Stop asking me to do the things that I told you,
I gave you the ability to, and then I commanded you,
go and do.
He commanded his disciples to heal,
and I'm just using healing as an example.
He commanded his disciples to heal
and sent them out by themselves without him
to heal and to cast out demons
before Jesus ever died on the cross.
Healing was here on earth before Jesus died,
but there's an aspect of the fact that it was still under,
everything was still subject to decay,
subject to death, whatever.
So by Jesus's stripes, we were healed
and we could all claim healing.
But anyway, God wants to mature us to the point.
He's like, do this thing with me.
Make creation, including the redemption of your bodies,
the hope for which we were saved in Romans eight,
make it visible, make it happen.
Let's do this thing.
That's creating.
So we need to have that intention
that we'll be able to decide.
And we need to be able to,
so in order to start all of this,
we need to be, excuse me,
we need to be able to, excuse me,
we need to be able to isolate it so we can direct it.
So just some ideas to kind of think about.
Like I said, that first exercise that we did,
I think it was the first night.
No, it was the second day, sorry.
The second day we focused on the light.
Focused on that light in order to teach us
that we are not subject to our environment.
We have an authority and can exert our own will.
That's what you were doing in that exercise.
You were practicing,
determining what it is that you wanted to do
and insisting that everything about you went with it.
So we're starting to kind of identify our intention.
Another thing that's very important with intention
when learning about it,
when learning how to isolate it,
is to be present.
We do not realize how much we disassociate in life.
There's a lot in which currently
all of us are disassociating from this room
and disassociating from this environment.
And we don't realize that we're doing it.
That's why when you hear,
sorry to bring up this example,
but you remember how we all watch movies or whatever,
or maybe you've been to these types of yoga classes
where they talk about, okay, focus on your breath.
Now feel this.
Now what do you smell?
Now what do you whatever, what is it doing?
The whole point is bring you back to the present.
Take you out from the fact that we're always disassociating
from wherever it is that we are.
We think that we're thinking about it.
Well, I know I'm in a room
and I know I'm with all these people,
so obviously I'm present.
You know, I'm not thinking about my house right now.
I'm thinking about right now.
But there's an aspect in which
we're disassociating from the table.
You're disassociating from what your clothes feel like
because you're so used to it.
So a way to start zeroing in a bit more on our intention
is to practice stopping periodically and being present.
Feel things.
It's almost like make a connection with you,
with a different aspect of you.
Your body's still you.
Yeah, the state of our identity is in our spirit, but you know.
It's still, we're still unified with our body, and you connect with it,
and then you connect with how it is that you feel.
Don't, a lot of things that we, a lot of ways that we disassociate with is how we feel.
If we feel a particular way, we think we shouldn't feel that way, and we try to get out of it,
or we try to ignore that we're feeling that way, and we try to act like we're not feeling that way.
It's, your feelings are there whether or not you're paying attention to them.
Pay attention to them.
Give honor to your feelings.
They will go away faster, and you will deal with them faster,
especially if they're things like anger, grief, whatever.
You will deal with them faster if you honor and acknowledge them.
Your soul is crying out for attention.
It's like a child.
It's just yap, yap, yap, yap, yap, yap, yap, yap, yap, yap, yap.
So, and that's what those emotions are, and that's why you're like, why won't these emotions stop?
Why can't I get over this?
Why, you know, how long was this going to, this thing last?
No matter how hard I try, I can't get over my anger, da, da, da, da.
It's because we're continually trying to disassociate from it,
thinking that that's actually, that we're actually doing a good thing and believing God.
Disassociating from it and denying reality doesn't ever help anything.
Allow your soul to have it say, honor your feeling, and by honor it, I don't mean think,
oh, this is a good thing that I'm feeling angry in this situation,
because the situation that you're in may not be a good reason to be angry.
And your anger might actually be manifestation of the fact that you're in,
that you're in sin of unbelief, because you've got some accusation
about God believing you're abandoned and alone in that moment, and you're angry.
You know, but that, that, that, you know, that, that's neither here nor there.
You are angry.
That is you.
There's nothing wrong with you, and there's nothing wrong with you while you're angry.
There's nothing wrong with you.
You're not evil.
You're not wicked.
You're not bad.
You're not condemned.
So if you're angry, think, you know, focus on that.
Okay. Because once you focus on a child and give them the attention, they stop yapping.
But they're going to yap until you give them the attention.
The soul is like a child.
Remember, our soul is being matured, and then, and then our spirit is like a parent or like a king.
You know, so that, so the, it's, it's important to, to allow something by,
but when I say honor, I don't mean honor like it's in, like I mentioned earlier.
I don't mean honor like it, and think that it's good, or declare over it.
Oh, you are a good thing, and this is good that you're angry right now.
And I don't mean that.
I mean honor it by, by treating it with dignity.
It's trying to talk, and it's valuable.
Show it that it's valuable by letting it talk.
It will have its say, and after it's had its say, it will quiet down and go away.
It's really weird how that works, but it does.
We'll be talking about that in just, in just a little bit when we talk about making decisions.
But letting your soul have its say first and quiet so that you can finally hear the voice of the Lord.
What else did I want to say about that?
I think that that's it.
I just wanted to say, you know, as a, as a practice, I recommend, you know,
you stop periodically and, and, and practice bringing yourself back to the present.
How do I emotionally feel at the moment?
You know, I can feel the floor.
I can feel my shoes.
I can feel what fabric everything is made of.
Just kind of connect with things, because, because your body is you.
We don't want to dissociate from our body, because whatever it is that we disassociate from,
there's no reason, it's no wonder that it feels abandoned and alone.
We're always trying to disassociate from it.
We are abandoning it.
Stop abandoning it.
Stop abandoning yourself.
Nothing's wrong with you.
There's no part of you that there's anything wrong with.
And, and start making connections with it.
You will like yourself more.
You will enjoy yourself more.
You will, in, in fact, several years ago, my past, I had a, I was at a church, I don't know,
just eight, nine years ago, something like that.
And my pastor spoke from the pulpit, and he said, and he said, Ashley, all the way in the back.
Because I used to worship in the back, because I needed lots of room.
And, and, and he would say, Ashley, way in the back.
He said, God very rarely gives me prophecies about people, but God told me something.
He said for me to tell you that he wants you to take the phrase, you are fearfully
and wonderfully made, and he said he wants you to flip them.
Because he says that, that you are, what did he say?
You are constantly wish, thinking that something's wrong with you,
and wishing that you acted different.
were different and acted more like other people or something like that. In other
words, that something was wrong with you. He said, God has said to tell you to take
that verse, you're fearfully and wonderfully made, flip it and say you are
and know that I'm declaring over you, you are wonderfully and
fearfully made. For in understanding how wonderful that you are, that is how you
will come to know me. Again, enjoyment of the bride. This is an expression of the
goodness of God. This is an aspect of what the goodness of God looks like when
it's been made visible in creation. So I have to figure out what is that and so
as I become more familiar with it, there's something in my soul and in my
spirit that realizes, oh, okay, so this is what my body is, this is what my soul is,
this is what it thinks, this is how it feels, this is the its opinions. Okay,
that's very interesting and we see all of the nuances and the depth and breadth
and all of that. We also become more familiar with our spirit and from that
we realize you learn about the Creator by looking at the creation, so
to speak, in the fact that we're not saying that creation tells us the truth
about whether God is love or goodness, you know, as far as like whether or not
we're supposed to have faith. I mean in the fact that God even says in the Bible,
he said, look at creation and you will know me. He said, I made it as a visible
expression of me. It may act in chaos that's not like me, but a camel
is amazing and a lily is amazing and birds, I made them so that
they can fly and defy gravity. That is me. You learn about who it is that I am,
you learn that I am a God of variety, that I am very creative, that I am good
because I take care of the sparrows while nobody else even knows
they're alive. He even said that he rains in the desert in order to
take care of animals that we don't even know exist, so he said, look at creation
in that aspect. He said, and then he said, and you'll learn about me. He said the
same thing and he told me that. He said, Ashley, stop thinking that you're
bad and trying to get away from yourself and trying to change yourself and
thinking that you're bad and like, I'm so sorry God. You know, if I am,
I need to be different. I need to be different. I need to change and
whatever. God said, no, no, no. Learn who it is that you are and then discover that
and you'll realize that is a good thing and therefore you'll know that the
creator of that thing must be really, really good. So he said, you will
come to understand by understanding that you are wonderfully made, you will come
to fear me. Fear is actually not fear as in being afraid. Fear is
intimacy with the Lord. Okay, so we're gonna have a 10-minute break and, okay,
so it is 2.42, so let's meet up at 2.55. So let's do that at 2.55 and then
we're gonna talk about goals, dreams, and visions. After that, by the way, and
that's going to be our last session, but as an additional session, what we're
going to do is we are going to have a testimony time. Nobody has to, but I was
wondering, I would really, what it is that you have experienced with
the Lord in your own relationship with him is, it can be, will be extremely
encouraging to the rest of the body of Christ and it will build their faith and
so I have, you know, in my coaching program, I encourage people to
post their testimonies whenever something happens where they believe the
character of the Lord and stood on that regardless of what it looked like,
things were manifesting. If God said it, I'm gonna choose it's true and then I
ask them, you know, will you please give those testimonies of when they actually
see the character of God manifest in such a way that their faith grows and they're
like, see, my God really is like that and that their belief in God helped manifest
the proof that he was who they already first believed that he was. They had to
believe it first before it could actually manifest. I actually had a
prophetic dream about that three nights ago.
And I was trying to understand, I was like, Lord, what does this prophetic dream mean?
And he said, sorry, let me look it up.
And he said that, oh, I'm looking at the wrong thing.
He said that we're being urged to stop limiting what we experience as being only natural causes
and continually dismissing things.
Oh, well, you know, that was probably just the air conditioner turning on,
and that's why I got goosebumps.
That wasn't the Holy Spirit.
That wasn't me.
That wasn't me shifting.
That wasn't me feeling my spirit.
That wasn't me whatever, you know, whatever we might say.
And just using that as an example.
Urge us to stop limiting what we experience as being only natural causes
and instead choose that it is supernatural.
Because in the dream, I was seeing something.
I was seeing what, I was looking up at the clouds, and the clouds,
you know how the clouds will take shape?
Well, they were taking shape, and I thought, okay, wait a minute.
That looks really real, but I can't figure out, is that a cloud that just looks like that shape?
Or is that, am I actually looking into another realm?
And this was in my dream.
It was like the clouds parted, and I could see this other world in there.
And so, I thought, well, I don't know.
So, what it is that I did is, in the dream, I and the people I was with,
I was just with a group of people.
I don't know who they were, but with a group of people, maybe they were all y'all.
I don't know.
We were always with a group of people, and we were looking at all that, and we were going,
I don't know, is that natural, or is that supernatural?
And so, what are we doing?
We're waiting for proof.
We're waiting for it to prove.
What can we see that will prove to us whether it's natural or supernatural?
And so, in the dream, I was like, mm-mm, I want to believe that my God is as loving
and as good and as supernatural and as amazing as he is.
So, not knowing whether I'm right or wrong, I'm going to choose that that actually is supernatural
because what I am, this is what we're about to talk about in a second.
I am looking for the character of my God, and I believe it's there.
And as soon as I determined in the dream that that thing was actually supernatural,
it actually became very, very clear.
And it was very obvious, and in no uncertain terms, that it was a real city in another realm.
And this, again, was the dream.
So, you know, I'm seeing, like, clouds, and I'm looking into another realm.
But it wouldn't be, it was, like, fuzzy, and you know how clouds don't look perfectly shaped.
They don't have straight lines.
So, you kind of get this idea, kind of like a Van Gogh impressionistic idea of, like,
some kind of a thing going on, and that's what was going on.
And then, as soon as I determined, no, no, I'm going to believe my God before he tells me.
I'm going to believe and risk in something, believing that that is his word.
And I am going to receive it first, and then he can guide me as a good father
and let me know whether or not I'm right.
So, it's like you're making a guess, only you're risking your life on it.
So, because you think that that's God's word.
You're not picking whatever it is that you want to risk your life on.
You're finding, where do I hear or feel God's word?
So, I felt God's word, and I was like, you know what, I actually am going to choose to believe,
and I'm going to stop doubting.
I'm going to choose to believe that actually is supernatural.
And as soon as I did, it revealed itself, and it made itself so clear
that it was a city in another realm.
But I had to choose first before it would feel safe enough with me to actually reveal itself.
A lot of times, that's the way people see angels.
If you, some people have just seen angels their whole lives.
I think that's amazing.
That would be wonderful.
I am not aware that I've seen an angel.
People see them in different forms.
Some people see them as like orbs and, you know, like, in other words,
like a blue light, or there's a blue light in the corner, or there's a whatever.
Other people, there was a lady that I talked to just recently,
literally sees them like holograms everywhere.
In fact, I was with her, and she looked at me, and she said, by the way, your angel says hi.
Really? She said, yeah.
So, anyway, I was like, okay, I've never had anybody tell me that they've seen my angel.
But my point in saying that, while some people just seem to just kind of come by it naturally
because they haven't squelched it and suppressed it.
Me, apparently, you know, I squelched it and suppressed it, and now I don't know how to see them.
They say that in order to start seeing them is there, is to actually acknowledge that they're there.
You don't know where they are, but remember, they're spirits.
So, you just, God says that he's given us angels.
He's, you know, we'll send his angels, you know, as.
over thee and he sends ministering angels and there's cherubim and there's seraphim,
there's all kinds of angels it talks about in the Bible. So he's the one who said it
first so we can believe that there are angels and he says that angels have appeared to people
both in the Old Testament as well as I believe in the New Testament. But anyway, I mean,
I don't doubt at all that there are angels and I've never seen one, but I'm not getting
to see them. So I was always wondering, how do you do that? And I've been told what you
do is you have to acknowledge them first so that you believe in them and that you're honoring
them, not serving them. Honoring, treating with dignity as opposed to disassociating
and ignoring and disregarding. And they said that, and then they recommended, you know,
talking to them and whatever. And so I've tried that. I've tried to do that, you know,
periodically. And anyway, I was actually told recently by someone, someone said something.
They said, Ashley, God told me they had no idea that I've been wanting to see angels.
They had no idea. This is somebody who didn't know me from Adam. They actually hardly, they
didn't even know my name. And they told me, they said, Ashley, by the way, you know, I
know you're visiting here, here at church. Well, they didn't say Ashley, but they were
like, I just want to let you know, God has said that you will get to see into the spirit
realm and you will get to see angels. And I'm like, I have been asking for that. And
they had no idea. So, so in other words, we can do this thing. My whole point of this
whole thing is that these are God's, these are things that God has said in his word that
he gives to us. So how do we begin to experience it? Any of them, whether you're talking about
visibly seeing something like an angel, or you're talking about seeing something manifest
into your life, like a desire of your heart or a business or a goal or a dream or whatever,
whatever it is, we actually have to acknowledge the truth of it first before it manifests.
We have to have the faith first and remember faith without acting on it and risking ourselves,
including our emotions and our, and, and the risk of disappointment, that's worse. That's
real faith. And then things who began to reveal themselves to us, revelations of the Lord,
new things, new things that new, you want to learn the Lord in greater intimacy. You
want more revelation of scripture and, well, I don't know what, what does Matthew 8 really
mean? And you want those types of things from the Lord. You have to believe it first and
you have to believe it's your inheritance and you have to move forward to it, move forward
in anticipation and expectation as opposed to not expecting it. Something that you don't
expect. I mean, like very clearly, like God said that you can't expect it. You're like,
oh, I'm afraid of being disappointed, so I'm not going to expect it. Expectation, it's
waiting on your expectation. In other words, on your anticipation, because expectation
and anticipation is part of, part of faith. So whole lot there. So we'll take a, so we're
not going to be able to get back at 2.50, 2.55, but hey, you got a, you got a real fun
story about angels. So we'll get back together at 3.05, 3.05, talk about goals, dreams, and
visions. And then we'll have, after that we'll have a break and then we'll have testimony
time. Depending on how that goes, we might also have a Q and A in there. If anybody has
any questions, nobody may have questions. You may feel like you've been drinking from
a fire hose and you're just like, Ashley, I'm still back at, you know, Thursday night
at 7.05. I don't know what you've said since then. It's just all a wash. But if you have
any questions, hopefully we'll have some time for Q and A, but I would, I wanted to let
you know about the testimony time ahead of time. I know that it might feel vulnerable
to actually mention, you know, speaking to the microphone and all of that. Now you don't
have to move. You know, you can stay where you are. I can take the microphone to you,
but I would really, really ask you to see if you, if you can, can give of yourself invulnerability
and share something of, of, of, of your, your experience with the Lord and, and, and, and
maybe something that you've, that you've experienced in a vision or a dream while you
were here, because y'all have shared them with me privately, so I know of them. Some
of you haven't shared things privately with me. Some of you have. You absolutely do not
have to. You absolutely do not have to. It is your, it is your free will. I just wanted
to let you know of the value of what it is that you have, and it is very, very important.
And you speaking it can actually
transform someone else's life, because you're a son of God speaking what it is that you owned and you experienced with your God
so it's of spirit. So anyway, if you would like to, you are welcome to, you do not have to. If people do not have a
lot of testimonies, then we would have time for Q&A. Whenever those are done, we will close the conference.
So anyway, we'll meet back here at 3.05.