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Hey everyone, I wanted to jump in here and do my intro to the group.

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My name is Lindsay.

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I live in Atlanta, Georgia with my husband of 11 years and our daughter who is just turning

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18 months.

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She is our victory girl, our long awaited victory child.

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And like I said, I'm excited to be here because I feel like this is divine timing for me.

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I've known Ashley for a few years now.

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She's a dear friend and she is, I call her my mentor, my friend and my mentor because

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she has mentored me in this revelation of rest like no one else has.

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And I've learned so much from her and experienced so much breakthrough sitting under her ministry

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and mentorship.

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And I'm in a really interesting season.

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So Ashley told me, we don't do surface level here.

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This is about vulnerability and I know that that is something that I am learning to practice

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more and more in my life.

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And especially in this season, I feel like the Lord has me like an open heart surgery

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is the best way that I can describe it.

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I feel very exposed when it comes to just the things that he is removing from my life

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and healing in my heart and renewing in my mind.

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And I feel, at times I can't really articulate all that's happening, but I know that I'm

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being healed and I know that I should not jump off the table too quickly, right?

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Don't rush the process.

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And so I'm here in this group because I feel like there is treasure for me in the weeks

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ahead.

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That is a seal of what the Lord has been doing in me all year long.

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So for the last couple of years, my husband and I, we're in business together.

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So he used to be the entrepreneur.

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I had the nine to five.

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I felt very safe and comfortable in that space.

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And I always said I'd never marry an entrepreneur and then I did.

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And I said, well, I will never be an entrepreneur and now I am.

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And I'm loving this life of pioneering, but I used to be a very reluctant pioneer and

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the Lord has moved me from being a reluctant pioneer to a ready pioneer.

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And I know I'm in a season right now where he's moving me to become a resilient pioneer.

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So in that space of becoming, there's a lot that I'm learning and it hasn't been easy

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at all, but it's been very rewarding.

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So I have felt this year more than ever before that life is on top of me and I'm not on top

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of it.

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And it's been a really weird feeling for me.

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I think part of that is just the shift into motherhood.

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But also part of that is that my husband and I are now leading a growing movement.

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So there's this mantle of spiritual motherhood that I've taken on and it's been this expansion

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of who I am, but I've had to grow into it.

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I am growing into it.

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And so because of that, everything feels a little unsettled or more than a little.

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And that is why I'm pressing, I'm continuing to press into this revelation of rest.

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I feel like I have learned so much from Ashley already.

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I've never done the rest intensive, the full rest intensive.

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So she had hosted a mini one that I've been a part of, but this is my full rest intensive.

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And I just believe, I just know that there's a shift for me in this space and in this group.

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So I know that I sound even a little all over the place and I'm okay with that.

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I used to be very uneasy with not being able to fully articulate what I'm feeling or thinking.

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And because of that, I think in the past, I really held back from being vulnerable with

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other people.

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And I've been very guarded and very closed and sometimes even coming across as aloof.

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Not meaning to, it's not my heart, but I just felt like I was only as good as my ability

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to communicate and articulate and the Lord's removed that from me.

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And so that's kind of the unsettling right now is I feel like I'm in a space where I

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can't quite even articulate the season that I'm in and that in that unknowing, I've had

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to really press into a dependency of Him for even in the, in what I don't know, I've

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just kind of taken it day by day.

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So that's a little bit about me.

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I just feel like I'm in this really interesting space of, I've never been here before, right?

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And for someone who likes structure and organization and being able to articulate and communicate

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everything. I believe the Lord's removed that for a time, for a season, so that I

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grow a deeper dependency in him and I say yes to that. I make a powerful

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choice to say yes to that, to say yes to him and so I'm so excited. Part of my yes

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to him in the season is saying yes to this group and being a being an active

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participant even though I might come across as raw and and unsettled and all

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of those things. I know this is a really safe space. I really trust Ashley and

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that's why I know I can show up fully, be fully present because she is an

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incredibly powerful leader and I can see, you know, because I lead groups as

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well, the intention that she has put behind this group for our benefit is

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such a gift and so that's, I'm here as a participant and I'm fully

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ready to engage in this process with you all. Can't wait to meet you all soon.