Hey everybody! So I was gonna try to do this video from the peace and comfort of my super
cozy little room that I live in and we have spotty reception and it just wouldn't record
so here I am in my car. Hi, my name is Catherine. This is my intro. I live in Redding, California,
which is Northern California. I moved out here about 2 years ago to attend Bethel School
of Supernatural Ministry and then found, through that I kind of rediscovered my original love
which was performing arts and everything acting, dance, and writing. Yeah, so last year I attended
Bethel's Conservatory of the Arts studying acting and dance and this year I'm going to be attending
the conservatory again studying screenwriting. I'm a writer primarily, right now at least,
although don't ask me to pick between writing, acting, and dancing because I can't and I'm
told to learn that. But this is a season where he's really breathing on the writing and so I
feel a responsibility to steward that well so I chose the screenwriting program. So yeah,
I am called to the entertainment industry. I have a really really burning passion to create content
that is just excellent and that tells stories of redemption and brings people into encounters
with Jesus but is not Christian. So I have a very evangelistic heart and the entertainment
industry is just how I express that. Also, I'm an entrepreneur by nature. I've always been a
starter. I've always been like an income, like I started a catering business when I was like
my mid-twenties and had that for about nine years and I've started a whole bunch of other
things since then. But entrepreneurially, I feel very called to create a like an artist recovery
program for artists who have been hurt, specifically for artists such as myself. So to tell you a
little bit of my backstory, I grew up in a very abusive home. My mom is narcissistic so she was
abusive verbally, sexually, emotionally, physically, financially, spiritually, all the ways. She kind
of checked all the boxes all by herself, which has been hard to deal with. So because of that,
I didn't leave until I was... I just feel like you guys can't see me. There we go. Because of that,
I didn't leave until I was 34 years old, which was six years ago. And so a lot of my story is
kind of being on hold for 34 years and then the last six years being God-like, restoring all the
things that were stolen from me and all the time and all the life experiences that I should have
gotten to have and kind of giving me my twenties in a weird way and a lot of healing. It's been
the most beautiful six years of my life, but also the most difficult because it literally felt like
I was in the intensive care unit for a long time. But the great thing is I know that I know that I
know that God gave me that story so that I would have authority over it. And the industry, the cool
thing is I just recently connected the dots and the industry that I'm called into is full of people
who have been wounded the same way that I have been. And two years ago, that's actually what God
told me that got me out to Bethel was that he was sending me to the people that had been wounded
the way that I had. So anyway, my heart burns, especially for artists who have never been,
oh say hi to that guy. Artists who've never been able to function in their art. It is a soul-crushing
thing for an artist to not be an artist and it just makes you dead inside. And so I'm still on
the journey of what that looks like. I'm working part-time jobs right now. I'm cleaning Airbnbs and
doing some DoorDash and maybe some copywriting and whatever I can to pay the bills. But finding the
joy of my art has been like the biggest restoration in the last couple of years. So what brought me to
the rest intensive was a recommendation from my friend Elizabeth. But for the last couple of years,
the Lord has really, especially since I got to Bethel, I have encountered the love of the
Father in ways that I have never encountered before.
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I have felt him physically in my body like whenever his he's present. I I have physical manifestations
I just get this intense sweet heat in my back
I've started to see visions like I he's just encountered me in
So many beautiful ways in the last couple of years and just loved away
like I just feel like I've been in a love bubble with Jesus and the father for the last couple of years and
He's really been telling me especially the last two years so much like to rest like that is my job like resting is my
job, so
I
haven't worked until
Recently actually for about almost two years and the Lord just like supernaturally provided
He literally like it was it was him giving me a chance to just sort of fall apart and actually
process everything that had happened to me as a kid and
Things that I had just never
Never dealt with it was just like he was like, okay stop and this is your job for two years
and recently I felt a really big shift like that season was done and
Not that there aren't still things to process, but my legs not broken anymore if that makes sense
and so I'm starting to work again and
Just really have my eye on the prize like I
My dream is opening a production company and Holly look prefer for preferably in Hollywood
And just with a team of people and we produce
movies TV shows dance shows
Music hopefully like all kinds of different things that are again
Not Christian just excellent and that we all kind of get to like shift in roles in the company
The Lord actually said to me at the beginning of the summer. He was like what if play created well
and
I was like, oh, I'm intrigued by that idea. And a lot of times we talk about acting and dance as play like
They even call that the stage like the play space
So yeah, I'm just that's my goal is opening that company getting my movies written and produced
Those are long-term goals though. And so I'm very interested in how the Lord wants to get me from there to here to there
some other ideas that I have though as well or like I have a call on a burn to do like consulting with women who
And maybe even men I can basically like not to be arrogant
But I can smell a narcissistic wound 50 miles away and I can really help you figure out like what's holding you back
And just kind of like break mindsets off of people
So I have a heart to do some consulting but also would love to come up with like a course or something that would walk
people through
Just
Understanding what's happened on the inside of them because what happens with narcissistic abuse is you blame yours?
well any kind of abuse really but you blame yourself so much and
Decide that you're the problem
That it it
can sometimes keep you from seeing that every
Unhealthy way that you're reacting is actually the normal reaction to a situation. That was completely non-normal
And I just loved that light bulb a moment like I had it with a friend of mine the other day
who like did not know that she had been in a series of narcissistic relationships her whole life and
She just curiously asked me like well, what does that look like? And I start describing it and she's like, oh my god
That's my ex-fiance. And
Then I was just like, okay, but you don't normally fall for one unless there was one in your childhood
So was one of your parents and she was like, oh my gosh dad and like three and a half hours later
We've debriefed like I've given her all the information that's swimming around up here
not all of it, but as much as I thought she could handle and she literally like pieces of her
Life were making sense to her
Areas that she struggled with and couldn't feel like she could get any traction and like all that
So I just love that light bulb moment and I love being able to help people on the journey of recovering their power
So I feel very called to do that in some sort of capacity
I'm single. No kids never been married. So if you know of anyone
What else
I think that's about it. I love I'm a super outdoorsy person. I love being active
I like walk slash run at least five miles a day normally today. I didn't um
What else love to swim I love to dance I love to I'm like I love activity of any kind pretty much
love hiking
Love Southern California
What else
Yeah, I think I think that's me
I oh, I guess my testimony like as far as like getting to know Jesus aside from the whole mom thing. I
The way I came to know the Lord was in preschool. My mom sent me to
Moody Bible Institute in Chicago
Which was super ironic because she was not a Christian and she literally walked me in there and was like no
I don't want you sending my daughter home with any Christian guilt trips
And I they just introduced me to the father and introduced me to Jesus and I just believed like I don't have a very dramatic
Testimony, I've just always believed and I used to feel like that was
Not strong enough and recently I've come to really appreciate how amazing that is
He's just always been a part of my life and he's my best friend. So
Yeah, pretty in love with him
That's it I'm super super excited to be here I can't wait to meet everybody and
Yeah excited for the journey, okay, bye