Hi everyone, I'm taking a couple minutes here straight from the kitchen. I'm still
in my old apron, but I just thought I would sit down and post a video because
writing a post out just isn't working right now. So I've been really quiet here
over the weekend because I have just been so exhausted. Eric has not been
sleeping well and so I feel very behind in sleep and honestly I was just feeling
so overwhelmed, super behind in everything, laundry, dishes, food, you name
it, and I was just really struggling with knowing kind of what the right
approach is or the mentality is to my feelings and my current state in life
because I'm sure a lot of you moms can relate that a lot of times there just
doesn't seem to be a time for rest. There's demands on us, there's
expectations. If we falter behind, you know, then the whole ship sinks or so it
feels sometimes and I knew that it wasn't about trying to enter into rest
war or like trying to focus really hard to, you know, do more emotionally or like
applying actions to more areas in my life as far as trying to enter into rest,
but I was just really struggling because I was falling behind in sleep. I felt so
overwhelmed with my housework and, you know, currently being pregnant and stuff.
Everything just looks so much bigger and I was talking with Ashley this
afternoon and she was just able to bring me so much wise counsel. She always does
and what she had to say just really, really encouraged my heart and she just
put into perspective so well the resistance, I think that was the word she
used, of what is going on and how the expectations that are there in my life
in the first place is what's bringing that feeling of overwhelm, you know,
expecting Eric to sleep through the night, you know, having these
expectations of my house being clean and the laundry being done and, you know,
all those things are good and right, but when they become an expectation or a
standard that we set for ourselves, that is when we feel overwhelmed and it just
brought so much peace into my heart knowing that I can face reality, that I
can accept the fact that Eric isn't sleeping well and that, you know, to be
aware, basically to not deny reality and the fact that I'm falling behind, but to
not set that standard for myself for just something else to do, something else
to attain to and it was just really, really good. I can't remember all she
said, but it was just so what I needed right now in the time of life that I'm
in because a lot of times I feel like how can I enter into rest without trying
to enter into rest, but at the same time how can I enter into rest when there's
so many demands and so many things in my life that need my energy and my time
and attention and need an action, but the things she had to say were just very,
very good and I'm very encouraged. So, I'm sorry Eric is upstairs throwing
something. So, anyway, that has just been a little bit of my weekend and the
beginning of my week. It was super overwhelming and super hectic, but just
talking to Ashley puts everything into perspective again. So, anyway, I just
thought I would share and give a little update. I hope you all are doing well.