Hi everyone. Happy Sunday. I just thought I would hop on here really quickly to say hi
and share kind of a few God moments for me the last few weeks. I don't know, it's just
been so good the last few weeks, just realizing that everything's okay all over again, you
know, and then experiencing it, you know, like the hard part of choosing it and then
just experiencing it. And so I just wanted to share a few things that we've experienced
the last few weeks just by means of encouragement, I guess, and just knowing that this place
in God truly does exist because if you would have told me two years ago that my life looks
like this or that my relationship with the Lord looks like this, I wouldn't have believed
you that this kind of life can exist, this side of heaven. And so just as a means of
encouragement for any of you who might be frustrated by the process or might be frustrated
with yourselves, feeling like you're just the odd one out that's not going to get it
and that, you know, it's just this formula that doesn't, that has one kind of like clause
in it and that clause applies to you and you're just afraid that you don't get it,
that I just wanted to share just kind of my journey the last few weeks just as a way to
encourage anyone because if I can live this life, then truly anyone can because I am not
one of those people that understand and get things easily on an academic level or really
understand things in school. Like I was never one of those kids that was just really smart
and really took off and was like, oh, well, if you can do this, well, then I'm going to
be able to do this and all these things. I was very held back, a very fearful child,
and so just to be able to live this life and work it out is truly, you know, anyone can
with a life of this level. So anyway, we are currently in Maine and I'm going to see if
I can turn my camera off because sitting here on the last evening of the year and everything
is so still and I just want to encourage you, let's just set the record for something still.
Let's just make the entry count so that you all can just get a glimpse of the epic view
of Maine. That's just the key. Anyway, so one of the stories this week, we came down here,
we were originally going to be down here for a day longer than what we are now, so we were
going to go home on Tuesday and then suddenly came up and now we have to go home on Monday
and so originally when I found out that it was kind of like, almost like a double booking
situation, there was an event that I had to be at on Tuesday and I told Josh, I'm like,
I should have known that this event was coming up on Tuesday and I did know it, I just had
no idea that our dates were overlapping. So he was like, oh, you know, no big deal, like
we'll just pack the day early. So we're packing up a day early and in my mind I was like,
we booked the Airbnb, we can't get a refund for the night, you know, the night that we're
going home early, and in my mind I was like, you know, darn it, I should have known better,
like we should not book the Airbnb another day, like we're going to have to pay another,
you know, however much it is a night. I'm like, that's going to be wasted, like it's
going to be sitting open, or it's going to be sitting empty and it's because of me that
we wasted all this money for the night that we're not going to be able to stay here.
And, you know, this was a few weeks ago, I was just like wrestling with it and just
beating myself up about it, and somehow I'm like, you know what, I'm not in, we're not
in line financially, whether, you know, whether that means that we actually have money in
the bank account or not, but because of who we are, we are not working in any way. And
so I just kind of walked myself through this in like three seconds and I'm like, whoa,
like, I'm not, I'm not subject to any kind of, you know, including this. So, if it just
so happened that we overbooked, then there's that time that there's literally nothing I
can do about it, so I just was like, what? There's no point in getting upset about it,
there's no point in beating myself up that we are going to waste a lot of money.
$100 for a night, I was like, we did it.
So anyway, the crazy thing is that we invited people to come down here with us,
just like we invited them to be our guests here for a few nights.
So they came and spent, I think, two, it was two nights,
and we totally, like, we invited them to come as a guest,
not expecting that they would come and, like, pay their share right anyways.
And so on the evening that they left, the gentleman that was here,
he put down some money, and he was like,
he just really appreciates that we would invite them,
and put down money for helping, like, just as a, like,
kind of a monetary gesture of how much it meant to them
that we would invite them to come up here and spend time with us.
And would you believe that it covered the cost of their meeting
for the night that they went?
And then they almost dove down to the dollar.
It's not just barely enough to cover this, and it took kind of a minute.
And I was just like, oh, my goodness.
Like, here it is all over again.
Like, it is all over again.
And I just don't like to be here and allow myself to realize that
that we overbooked the Airbnb and all this stuff,
but that literally, like, it was, yeah, the liberty,
it was almost double what we would have paid for the night.
And so it's just like, I mean, it's not just getting by, you know,
but it's abundance.
And anyway, it was just one of those moments where I was just like,
God, how are you this good?
How do you see me to this extent?
And then another quick, really random story.
Last week, so we got our gym, or we got our garage floor redone.
It was old cracked cement, and we wanted to put, like, a coating down
so that we can kind of have, like, a gym out there
and have a nice floor for the kids to ride their bikes and stuff on.
Anyway, we had got, like, an estimate from one guy,
and we were just like, somebody just doesn't sit right.
He was the same guy that did our cement outback,
and we're like, well, just give us an estimate.
But it just didn't sit right.
And we were like, well, why is this not feeling right?
This is just so odd.
And so I was driving down the road one day,
and I see this big, huge box trailer outside the road,
and it was, like, it said absolute epoxy.
And I'm like, that's it?
That's who I'm supposed to get to do our garage?
And I had no idea.
I didn't know this guy.
I had no idea who he was or, like, any of his work or nothing.
And I was like, okay, I'm just going to, like, just sit in bed
and hope that I call Josh right now.
Because Josh was kind of the one hitting up the, you know, the gym.
He was, like, the one contacting people or hitting up the floor for the gym.
He pays us back for all of the muscle and everything.
Yes.
Exactly.
That's amazing.
So, anyway, he – Josh is the one, like, hitting up all the garage stuff.
And I'm just sharing this because this is literally, like, how our lives are now.
Like, since rest.
These are things that just randomly happen to us.
And, I mean, not randomly.
I mean, this is literally the life that we get to experience with the Lord.
And so I saw the box, like, the box show.
I'm like, that's the guy that we've got to work with.
That's the guy.
And so I just let it sit up.
And if I think about it, I might talk to Josh about it later.
And a few hours later, I get a notification, like, we have shared Google Maps
or shared Google Calendar on our phone,
and I get a notification that said epoxy estimate.
Okay, that's really strange.
I went – I came home and later, using my ask Josh, I'm like, hey, I saw that, you know,
we have that estimate for the garage floor.
I'm like, do you know, do you remember the name of the company that you got?
And he was like, yeah.
I was like, I was driving down the road and I saw this big box trailer called Absolute Epoxy.
And I was like, I knew that that's the guy that's supposed to get to our garage.
And I'm like, I'm not making this up.
And I was like, I literally had the same experience.
I drove past the box trailer that said Absolute Epoxy.
I'm like, I know that that's the guy that's supposed to get our garage from.
And he was like, what?
I was like, that's so crazy.
So anyway, long story short, he was – ended up being like a much more affordable option.
But the quality that he did the garage with, the garage floor with, was insane.
It came in three days all by himself and had the whole entire garage floor done.
And it turns out that the other company that we had worked with previously,
quality wasn't near what we had hoped for, uh, paid for, because, uh, you know, I don't
know what the reasons were, but we were just not happy with the quality that we had paid
for the previous company to do our Cnet work, so all that to say, like, if there was no
rhyme or reason, I didn't need to load up all these companies and rep all these companies
and be like, you know, we're, we're spending a good amount to get our craft store done,
like, we should know what we're doing, we need to know that we're gonna put our money
into the right place, you know, make sure that we're doing the right thing, you know,
like, we just need to be happy.
The guy who came out earlier came out and gave us an estimate, and he was the same guy
that came out and, like, did the job, and everything was amazing.
We made an amazing company, so we were so excited about it, like, we were so inspired
about it.
So anyway, I just wanted to share those two stories that happened in the last two weeks
because it's just things like that where you're just like, God, this is you, like,
this is the life that we experience with you, and it's so, so incredibly good.
Um, so anyway, I, this is gonna be really long, and it's starting to get cold as the
sun is setting, um, but I just wanted to hop on and share these things as a means of encouragement
that this is what, this is, this is what life is for, and that you guys are in it, like,
you guys are literally doing it.
You are doing it, and that there's nothing, there's nothing that you guys are doing wrong,
or there's nothing that is wrong with you all.
Like, I remember going through it a couple years ago, like, I am through this, um, but
I just, I have loved watching all of your journeys so far, and reading all the, um,
you know, all the testimonies and stuff like that, but just wanted to hop on here and just
share that this life is possible, and that the degree that we accept God's love is the
degree that we, to which we experience Him, or at least that's how it's been for me and
on my journey.
But it's receding, it's receding just that so hard because we don't feel like we're part
of it.
Um, so anyway, I hope you all are having a wonderful Saturday, and I will talk to you
later.
Bye.