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Hello, how are you doing?

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Can you hear me?

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Yes.

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Get that down.

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Perfect.

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Yeah, I decided to go ahead and have my other computer up today like I did the other day, just in case.

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If so that it won't like shut off the, the meeting, if my computer dies. So speaking of that

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I need to do a couple of things. Let's see. I think that's still yeah that's still hooked to the internet.

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I think. Let me see here more let's make that a

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must make me the host really quick.

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Toast.

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Perfect.

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Switch from Wi Fi.

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Did she go away.

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Free.

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All right, can y'all hear me now.

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Yes. Good. All right. So, I needed to make I realized that I was on Wi Fi and the Wi Fi here isn't very strong.

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So I had to switch over to a landline.

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So, but I did it without dropping the call.

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So how are y'all doing. Y'all doing okay.

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Yeah, good.

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Y'all, y'all survived drinking from a fire hose.

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So impressive.

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Okay.

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It's really fun. I got to meet with. Let's see my code.

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I got to meet with Annette and Renata today at three Eastern Standard Time because you know that's when the international rest group is.

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And because it's just an easier time for them.

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And so I was able to do a rest group with them earlier.

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Yes. So I think all we need.

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Hopefully Liberty will finally be able to make it and then.

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And then, Diana.

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Garza. So, Diana Marty, my friend, you know she just messaged me this evening and said that that she's not going to be able to continue right now but she wants to, you know, to look at some stuff on her own.

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And, and so anyway and probably, I don't know. So, just kind of maybe pick this up later, and her, she had, she had some stuff that she's been through recently with her family that she's trying to navigate through she said so.

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So anyway, so she will no longer be with us very sadly, but Diana Garza will be.

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All right, but while we'll hopefully they'll be able to join in a minute so does anyone have.

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And well, say that see normally what I would do is for the rest group. We want to break out but there's only three of you.

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There's no breakout. So what I'm going to do is I'm just going to you know it's just like our discussion called, you know, our discussion groups where we were on where we were all together for the sessions and then we break up in the discussion

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and then y'all would just kind of share what's on your heart. So what you'll be what the rest groups are like every Tuesday night is gives everyone a chance to just share where it is that there are that they are on their journey right now, like in other

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words how they've been processing this with the Lord.

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And then of course as you continue to go on, you'll notice that there are some struggles that you'll run into where you'll as you realize more and more about what it actually requires of you to step into rest and you try to learn how to do it in different areas

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you try to apply it, you'll run into walls to run into struggles or run into resistance. And so, and then of course it's, then we have to navigate that process with the Lord of finally feeling safe and

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enough in certain areas of our lives to finally say yes to him, to finally move, to finally

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choose that he's safe.

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And so anyway, that's just what all that this time is, is just to, um, uh, to just update

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everyone on, you know, any struggles that you're coming through, what it is that you're

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talking to the Lord about related to it, um, you know, and be honest about, you know, your

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feelings, uh, between you and the Lord and, um, and then obviously any victories that

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you've noticed, like, okay, well, such and such situation came up and, um, and I realized,

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okay, I was not in rest.

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And so I shifted into rest, I applied such and such a tool or whatever.

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And um, and then, and then the Lord showed up in this way, or I've never, or finally

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everything within me went still.

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Now I finally know what I was just talking about.

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Um, and Renata, um, had a really neat, um, update to give us, um, earlier on her, on

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the international rest group.

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And then I'm going to post those recordings as well.

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So just like I'm going to post these recordings so that everyone can watch them and if they

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need to, um, cause normally y'all are going to be in separate rest groups.

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And so I've been told in the past that people miss, you know, being in one rest group while

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other people in the, in the program or in another rest group updating everybody and

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they don't get to hear the updates.

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So I'm trying to provide all of the recordings in here, meaning that y'all are going to get

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to hear the recordings of the international group as well.

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And they all get to, um, hear yours too.

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So Renata was sharing in there as you'll hear when I'm able to get that updated, that she

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said that exactly what, what I've explained before.

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And it's always so much fun to get to hear someone else articulate that that is their

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exact experience where she said, I didn't realize that all I had to do was choose.

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She said, I thought I had to try.

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I thought I had to believe, I thought I had to change and all of that wasn't working.

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And all of a sudden I choose and it works.

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I choose that God loves me.

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And I finally began to feel that he loves me, but the feelings didn't come until after

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she chose.

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So anyway, that was a really neat update, um, uh, that she gave to Annette and I, when

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we were all together.

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Um, so anyway, so it's stuff like that, that y'all can just, uh, share and talk about,

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and then we'll do that for about, um, I'll pull everybody in probably about, um, 20 minutes

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till, um, so that, and then during that time we can, um, uh, y'all can ask me any questions

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that may have come up while y'all are talking, like say for instance, you know, that, you

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know, well, you know, I'm struggling with this and I didn't really know how to do that

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or actually said this before, and I don't really understand.

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So this is the time to also at the end, uh, you know, the 20 minutes before the top of

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the hour, that'll be like, when to ask me some questions.

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Um, and, um, and there was one more thing I was going to say, what was it?

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Um, oh, also, so part of the purpose of this time, and this is actually why I developed

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Um, people like the community aspect of it.

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In fact, you can ask Rita for some people, this is their, tonight is their favorite part

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of the program when they get to get together with everybody else who's learning to live

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like they are, because they feel normal, they're like, oh, I'm hearing so-and-so talk

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about this.

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That's how I felt this week.

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Or, you know, that's how I, how I struggled with it last week that, but I never knew to

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articulate it like that until so-and-so said those words and all of a sudden, oh my word.

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That's what the words that I'd use.

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So sometimes that's pretty helpful, encouraging, and, um, people move further faster in the

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rest intensive when they do it as a group, because they're able to learn from each other

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and you help each other articulate what's actually going on again, so that they can

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shift faster.

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So part of this whole process is as you're, as you're updating each other on how you're

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navigating this with the Lord, then the other people in the group can maybe be able to highlight

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things that you don't see like, oh, well, so, you know, you were struggling in this

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Do you think, what do you think it was that maybe you weren't, you know, that you were

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struggling to believe about the Lord?

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Do you think, you know, does this ring a bell or does this spring a bell?

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And then just, because sometimes it's easier to pick those things out and to recognize

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them in other people that, you know, in other people's situation than in our own, because

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we're not as emotionally invested as in our own.

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So that can sometimes be beneficial.

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So with that, I do want to explain though, how it's done.

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It's a help to each other.

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We're not giving advice to each other unless someone blatantly asks for it.

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And I've never heard anybody ask for it.

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So just FYI, because again, we want everyone to feel safe to share because everyone is

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being very vulnerable.

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This isn't a time I'm not talking about each other opening them that each of us is opening

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ourselves up to receiving advice that we're not asking for.

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What we're doing is we're collectively just sharing, Hey, look, this is my journey, you

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know, individually, you know, this is my journey.

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And then collectively just kind of discussing, okay, well, we all go through that.

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So what aspect of that, how do we get it to that place of unrest?

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What is it that we're not believing about God when we get there?

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And then what do we think that we could do to, what could we apply in order to shift

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out of it or, you know, whatever, um, or you'll be able to say, Oh yeah, that happened to

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me last week.

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This is what I did.

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This is what worked.

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So this is a, a collective group support time, not a giving of advice or teaching or anything

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like that.

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So just FYI, because we want it to all feel very safe for each other to kind of share.

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Okay.

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So I'm just going to pull myself off of, um, I'll still be here, but I'll be off of microphone

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and a video.

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So y'all just feel free to chat and then, um, I'll pop on about like 20 to the top of

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the hour.

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Hi everyone.

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Hi guys.

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You look so comfy, Karen.

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I had to lay down, I just, my sinuses were kind of bothering me and laying down, palms

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and down.

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So I said, I'm just going to get all ready and lay down for this.

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I have my robe on like Rita today.

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Oh, good.

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You got your robe on?

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There you go.

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I was going to put my blue robe on too, but I thought, well, I've got jammies in my covers.

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So that's, yeah.

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Well, I guess I can say a little bit if you want me to start.

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Sure.

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Well, I have had a few chances to apply like the fusing.

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I'm going through a lot of stuff right now.

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Working on my marriage.

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My husband and I had split up and we're back together.

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And I'm going through a lot of healing stuff.

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So I've had the chance to just use this.

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Okay.

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I can, I can stop, you know, or I can, I can.

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And what I, what I've done a couple of times, at least that I can think of is

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gone back to, I wrote a little something as to help me go back to my identity and God.

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And I wrote something like, you know, I'm in, I'm in you, you're in me, we are one.

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You know, and I'm seated in heavenly places.

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That's my identity. And so therefore I'm always about my father's business.

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And I was able to do that.

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At least twice.

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And kind of bring me back to a, because I kind of got triggered.

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And it helped bring me back to a better place.

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I've had a lot of triggering lately. Let me tell you.

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Working, working.

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Yeah, I've gone through a lot of went through a lot of stuff and a lot of some physical stuff to working with a natural path doctor in the last year.

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So yeah, that was real helpful.

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That was helpful.

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Read through my notes that I took.

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And even told one of my friends about it.

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And even to my, my natural path doctor has also become a friend and we had a session today on the phone and I told her a little bit about it.

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About the whole dress intensive.

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also, I practice again just kind of inviting God to come.

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I tried that.

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Again, was it last night and I didn't have so much of a feeling of.

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Of.

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I like I did the first, the first day of the exercise.

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I'm just practicing, you know, and today was kind of a good mental health day for me, in a way because I had a massage and a session with my natural path doctor and I, my work from this morning but I'm blessed to work from home.

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I'm blessed to work from home.

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But during my massage, I always welcome God's healing angels and my massage therapist is

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a friend of mine.

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He's awesome.

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He's done massage for like 40 years plus, but I was just, I was just inviting God to

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come during my massage too.

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And I, and one thing someone told me that, uh, that does Oaks Rising Ministry, we were

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talking one day and they were telling me that you can invite, even during a massage,

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like if you have areas of trouble, you can invite God to, you know, you could just bring

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him into that area and just release those traumas to God.

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Just saying, you know, Lord, if there's something like, if there's a trauma in this area, you

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know, release it to God.

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So today I was, I did that, but I also just in my own quietly, myself just invited God

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to just come during the massage and, you know, help me, help me to let down these walls,

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you know, and, um, really kind of felt that he, I felt, um, a peace, a peace and just

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knowing that there are tools, you know, it's been, I think a big help because I've gone

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through a lot these last couple of years, it's probably been some of the most stressful.

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It seems like that I have my life, but, uh, so getting school, you know, it's just, it's just so,

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it's so good.

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And I was looking forward to this night of, you know, of, uh, I didn't know exactly how

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it would go, but it's been able to share how, how it's impacting our lives.

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Um, and yeah, yeah, it's, it's, um, I've got a few little health issues going on and stuff.

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And so maybe feels a little vulnerable, you know, it's kind of, but yet it's also in another

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sense.

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It's, um, it's comforting to know that there's always company, company, comforting to know

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there's solutions and, and, uh, you know, that we're not, we're not alone, you know,

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we have, we have each other and, um, we have that, of course, first, but we have each other

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and others are going through different things, but also some things are similar.

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And, um, it was just such a recognition.

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I mean, such a, um, kind of an eye-opener too.

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So I got to listen to this session, but it's been two years ago.

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And, and, uh, you know, it was like a fire hose and not applying your lives.

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Was awesome.

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But just the recognition that, oh, that's part of the biggest, really explain things.

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I've had these walls up.

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Of course, God, you know, because I really have been seeing even recently more and more

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how much I've tried to control my life and keep things in, you know, this as much as

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I can, you know, uh, control my environment.

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And, and, and so this brings even more, uh, you know, these balls, these balls that, that

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God wants to just, uh, help me to let his love really come in and, uh, and help, and

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help me.

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So, yeah.

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So it's good.

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Feels good.

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Feels good.

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It's kind of comforting.

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I'll just pass it on to one of you.

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Thanks for listening.

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Yeah, no, that's good.

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You sound nice and relaxed.

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I needed it because my nose has been, and my sinus is, that's another thing I've been,

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it's been being healed, but the massage kind of got them worked up and I was just, um,

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yeah, so, so yeah, I'm glad I'm, I'm glad I'm relaxed.

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That's great, Karen.

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Thank you for sharing.

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I mean, you want to go, Tammy?

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I mean, you can go, I don't.

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I could, but you can go.

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You go.

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OK.

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OK, so I guess the testimony I have

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is really just being able to experience him more.

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And it's really great.

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So I guess a breakthrough of sorts

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is just because when Ashley was talking about no shame

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and no condemnation, and she was going through the six tools,

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that was just really powerful.

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And I was able to choose that.

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It was yesterday.

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Yes, it was yesterday.

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So Karen, I understand with marriage, whatever,

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and it's just like, they're the old person.

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They're going to say, do whatever they want to do.

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You know what I mean?

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or whatever.

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And I just was kind of like, he was just saying things.

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And I just was like, you know what?

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I just started to imagine Jesus.

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And it was just like, he put his hands on each side of my cheeks

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and was just kind of like, look at me.

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Just like, look at me.

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It was all this noise.

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It was like, the shame.

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He wouldn't feel the shame, condemnation off to the side.

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My husband and I just was like, he was just like, no,

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look at me.

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And it was just kind of like noise, just noise.

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You know what I mean?

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And so it's so good because now I'm like, I don't have to like,

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I'm not going to, Jesus doesn't give me

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shame and condemnation.

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He just tells me to stop.

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And I'm like, so I'm not going to do that to myself.

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And I'm not going to accept it from anybody else.

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You know what I mean?

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So it just teaches me what real love is and what to accept

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and what's not OK.

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You know what I mean?

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I just felt really loved in the moment by Christ.

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And it was like, my heart was protected despite the things

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that were coming at me.

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And it was good.

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And I think another thing that I'm working through

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is during my quiet time, I read 1 Corinthians 13,

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the chapter about love.

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So I'm going to read a couple of verses every day.

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Just so, because for me now, I'm like, OK, God.

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I know that people aren't going to always love me

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the way that I should be loved or love me

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the way you love me.

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I don't love people perfectly either.

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But it's like, how can I walk in a way where I'm not,

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I want to be Jesus to other people

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in that I'm loving them the way that he loves me,

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even when I'm not necessarily being loved that way.

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So it's kind of like, OK, Lord, well,

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teach me what real love is and show me

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how I can emulate you.

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Because I love how gentle you are with me.

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I love how kind and caring you are with me in my heart.

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So I don't want to hold a fence in my heart.

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And I want to be able to love like he does,

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even when I'm not necessarily receiving it.

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Because he does that to us, for us.

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He's never like, no, he never rejects us.

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And so I want to do that.

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And I just realized that, just in how I talk sometimes,

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it's like I will, I'll be holding, I'll be upset.

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Or it's not, I don't know if it's a grudge,

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but I guess it is kind of a grudge.

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I realized that, even when I was talking

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to Ashley the very first time before I started,

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like the little 30-minute thing just

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to see if this was right for us.

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And I was like, I thought about it afterwards.

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I was like, huh, I feel like I'm holding some things,

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even how I'm speaking.

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And so, Rita, remember that book that you

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suggested a long time ago in community group

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about unoffendable or whatever like that?

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So I started listening to the Audible.

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And I was like, OK, this is really good.

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But it's like, I want to start walking that out,

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where it's like I'm not bringing shame and condemnation

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to others.

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I'm not holding grudges against other people for whatever it is.

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And so I just feel really light and open.

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And I know that I'm in rest.

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And the tools that I've enacted has helped me tremendously.

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And even if my brain starts to swirl

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with the negative loop of thoughts,

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it's like I can just, like I've told myself a couple of times

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in the last couple of days, just stop.

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And I'm like, OK, just stop.

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I have the ability to choose not to think these thoughts.

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You know what I mean?

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That's not what it is.

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And so it's really good.

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And then I think the final thing is my dad and I,

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sometimes we connect.

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And he called today.

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It was a snow day in Texas.

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And he was walking.

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So.

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we were talking about Abide a couple weeks ago

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and sharing books we read or whatever, whatever.

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It was good.

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But anyway, he was talking about some stuff

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and I just was like, like, it's one spirit, you know?

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And so it was like really right on the same pathway.

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And I'm just excited because I get to live this new life

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with like a experience and understand who God is

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and share that with others.

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And like Eva, I told my dad about, you know,

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the whole face thing with Jesus holding my hands.

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He was like, oh, Tam, that's so good.

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I'm gonna, he has a friend accountability partner

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and he's like, oh yeah, I'm gonna tell Josh about that.

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So it was just like, it's just so,

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it's so rich to be able to like share and, you know,

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walk this life along other believers

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and just even little things like, you know,

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sometimes we'll speak things when we don't know

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before we really understand.

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Like, I'm just a baby trying to understand this now,

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but I'm like, oh, okay.

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So I'm like, he's like, you know,

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like if you're talking about, you know, yeah, you know,

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just the sin that's in us, you know,

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I just gotta fight it.

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And I'm just like, no dad,

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we're like the righteousness of God in Christ Jesus.

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Like you gotta choose to declare that that's who you are.

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Like, you don't, we're not,

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we're not declaring that that's the old nature.

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We're born again, we're new.

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Like, you know what I mean?

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It's like, as Christians, these old things that we say

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just to like, no, like reframe it,

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but just like in a, like a loving, just gentle,

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like, oh, I understand this.

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Let me share this with, you know?

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So, because I've been doing,

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I've done that so many years

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and I'm just really excited just to have a happy, peaceful,

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and just know that it's how I respond to things, you know,

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and I have the choice.

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So those are my testimonies.

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That's awesome.

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Thank you.

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Yeah.

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Yeah.

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Thank you.

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That is good.

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I feel like I'm forgetful,

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but I need to start journaling so I can remember stuff

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or remember things that happened.

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But, you know, it, you know, God's just good that,

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you know, I get to go through this again.

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And I, you know, on my way to work on Monday,

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I was just like feeling all this anxiety again.

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And I'm just like, Lord,

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well, first I told myself to stop.

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And well, no, I was like, I, you know, I'm in Christ

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and he's in me and we're abiding.

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And I was like, I need to stop.

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And yeah, it's good.

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I get, I guess I get rest.

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And then when I get to work, I just forget everything.

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Like, I just feel like I'm not inviting him in my moments.

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And I think that's why I just,

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I'm kind of staying in the same place.

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And not to be like condemning myself for where I'm at.

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It's just like, I feel like the Lord's like,

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no, you need to stay here with me and grow.

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And just, and do it.

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I don't know.

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I just feel like I'm just kind of go through the motions,

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especially when I get busy.

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And so I think this time at home,

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because we're snowed in, I was like, Lord, this is a gift.

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It's just me and you.

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And yeah, so just trying to slow it down at home.

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I think, yeah, it's going to help me out.

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But I also did the, cause the, you know,

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I felt like, I don't know.

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I just, I feel like anytime I have anxiety,

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I'm like, where is this from?

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Why am I even feeling this way?

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And I can't really,

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I don't know if I can really identify it,

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but I'm sure it's like fear of man

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or something like that.

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Yeah.

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But the tools definitely help.

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Cause I did the whole pulling it out of my chest thing too.

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I just imagined it being this entity

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that I could pull out and like remove it for myself.

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So yeah, just remembering to use the tools

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is just helping me.

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I guess with my negative emotions, and then, I don't know, Sunday went by fast.

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I don't feel like there's a lot I can share of what's gone on in between, and I've definitely

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been trying to sit with God, and I keep, I'm like, Lord, I want to see your eyeball.

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I can't force it.

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I've never even seen him in an image, but I'm just like, I'm believing you're here.

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I guess the next thing, instead of believing or feeling the belief, I'm going to be like,

478
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you are right here, and we are going to do this thing, and I need to let go of what I

479
00:30:51.800 --> 00:30:58.440
expect to come because he has come to me a couple times, but I'm just like, yes, I want

480
00:30:58.440 --> 00:31:10.160
that, Lord, and I feel like I'm trying to force it, and, yeah, so, okay, that's it.

481
00:31:10.160 --> 00:31:11.160
Thank you, Rita.

482
00:31:11.160 --> 00:31:12.160
That's good, Rita.

483
00:31:12.160 --> 00:31:13.160
Thank you.

484
00:31:13.160 --> 00:31:14.160
Thank you.

485
00:31:14.160 --> 00:31:25.320
I can relate to some, we'll call it anxiety in the past, I like to say, I don't like,

486
00:31:25.480 --> 00:31:30.520
it's just kind of a little fun thing I say, and I'll say it's in the past kind of saying

487
00:31:30.520 --> 00:31:43.880
it's behind me, but I can relate to a lot of that in the past, and we're getting tools

488
00:31:43.880 --> 00:31:51.880
here to help, and that's just, like I said a while ago, I think it's just comforting

489
00:31:51.880 --> 00:32:05.320
to know, isn't it, that we have tools, and something else you said, I was thinking about,

490
00:32:05.320 --> 00:32:18.200
now it's not coming to me, but I was going to comment on, but it'll come back, it's,

491
00:32:18.200 --> 00:32:30.280
I don't know if it was, but Lord, help me remember what it was, I don't know, it's not

492
00:32:30.280 --> 00:32:39.560
coming back now, so I'll pass on and see if Tammy's got a comment, if it comes back, I'll

493
00:32:39.560 --> 00:32:48.160
let you know, okay, yeah, I don't know, I think I, one, one thing that is just, it's

494
00:32:49.120 --> 00:32:52.880
I don't know if this is unsolicited advice, tell me if it's wrong, but I know, because,

495
00:32:52.880 --> 00:32:58.000
you know, the longest, I was like, it didn't help, like, I couldn't, I couldn't experience

496
00:32:58.000 --> 00:33:03.120
him or imagine him, but I decided to figure out, like, what would I want him to look like for me,

497
00:33:03.120 --> 00:33:10.800
so, like, what I experienced, like, she said, use your imagination, so he's African-American,

498
00:33:10.960 --> 00:33:22.080
he's got locks, that's my Jesus, I love it, so now, like, I have something to,

499
00:33:22.800 --> 00:33:27.680
you know, like, to fit, so, I don't know, like, it's, it just is like a reference point in my

500
00:33:27.680 --> 00:33:35.600
mind, you know, because, you know, he's spiritual, he's not, he's not a body in the same sense as us

501
00:33:35.600 --> 00:33:42.320
anymore, you know, like, he was on earth, so, it's, you know, like, I'm like, that's the Jesus

502
00:33:42.320 --> 00:33:47.040
I feel comfortable with, you know what I mean, and that's all good, he loves variety and creation,

503
00:33:47.040 --> 00:33:52.160
he created all of us, so I know he's cool with that, too, so. I love it, that's good,

504
00:33:53.840 --> 00:33:58.320
that's, that's what I was gonna say something about that, I was gonna say, Rita, sometimes

505
00:33:58.960 --> 00:34:03.200
I get, I get glimpses of something, I'm not, I have, I'm not like this huge seer,

506
00:34:03.840 --> 00:34:08.320
you know, but I'll get glimpses of things, just, and that's kind of the way I see it, so

507
00:34:08.320 --> 00:34:14.000
I'll get glimpses of his eyes, you know, but it's not like I'm sitting there staring at him for,

508
00:34:15.040 --> 00:34:19.280
you know, for minutes or whatever, but I'll just get glimpses of, like, and for me,

509
00:34:19.280 --> 00:34:23.679
Tammy, and I think you're right, I think people do see Jesus the way that they, they want to see

510
00:34:23.679 --> 00:34:27.520
him, and the way they should see him, and it's different for everybody, and I like how you put

511
00:34:27.520 --> 00:34:35.679
it, you know, he's a black Jesus with these locks, yes, he's gorgeous, that's right, that's

512
00:34:35.679 --> 00:34:41.199
cool, that's so cool, and you know, and I just see, I've seen, you know, like, kind of blue eyes,

513
00:34:42.800 --> 00:34:48.960
but I've also seen, like, fire for just, it's just like a glimpse, you know, and I did see that the

514
00:34:48.960 --> 00:34:54.480
other day when we did the exercise for just, just for, and I see that sometimes when I,

515
00:34:54.480 --> 00:35:00.240
when I just pray, and I just, just kind of say, you know,

516
00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.680
Um, I just want to see your, see your face, Jesus.

517
00:35:03.680 --> 00:35:05.160
And I'll just get that little glimpse.

518
00:35:05.600 --> 00:35:11.000
And, and it's not like I have the whole, you know, yet, maybe that'll, maybe that'll come.

519
00:35:11.000 --> 00:35:11.440
I don't know.

520
00:35:11.440 --> 00:35:12.760
I don't really worry about it though.

521
00:35:12.760 --> 00:35:16.880
Cause for now a glimpse is good or whatever we have, you know, it's good.

522
00:35:17.680 --> 00:35:19.600
And so, so yeah.

523
00:35:20.480 --> 00:35:20.680
Yeah.

524
00:35:20.680 --> 00:35:27.840
Or if we don't see him, it's that we can just know he's there, you know, he's always, you

525
00:35:27.840 --> 00:35:32.680
know, we're, we're learning more and more and just practicing that he's, he's always

526
00:35:32.720 --> 00:35:39.440
with us and, and I think that's the thing I've been missing is, is really knowing

527
00:35:39.440 --> 00:35:44.480
that, you know, you know it, but to know it and to get it in here.

528
00:35:45.480 --> 00:35:52.120
And, um, you know, I believe this intent is going to be helpful to know it more,

529
00:35:52.720 --> 00:35:55.200
you know, and to enter that rest.

530
00:35:55.240 --> 00:35:57.040
Cause I feel like I've been at unrest.

531
00:35:58.400 --> 00:36:04.320
Um, I've had seasons of maybe a little more rest, but, but really deep down, if I

532
00:36:04.320 --> 00:36:06.960
look at it, there's been a lot of unrest.

533
00:36:07.600 --> 00:36:10.120
So, so yeah.

534
00:36:11.360 --> 00:36:11.520
Yeah.

535
00:36:11.520 --> 00:36:17.800
I think we're going to know, we're going to know that rest more and that he's with us.

536
00:36:19.040 --> 00:36:20.680
Cause that's what brings us rest, right?

537
00:36:22.200 --> 00:36:22.600
Yes.

538
00:36:22.640 --> 00:36:23.160
I like that.

539
00:36:23.160 --> 00:36:23.440
Him.

540
00:36:23.480 --> 00:36:23.800
Yeah.

541
00:36:25.440 --> 00:36:25.720
Yeah.

542
00:36:25.720 --> 00:36:26.040
Yeah.

543
00:36:26.560 --> 00:36:27.200
I agree.

544
00:36:27.520 --> 00:36:30.760
My dad, he was like, Tammy, he was like, it just, it's like, you're, it's like a

545
00:36:30.760 --> 00:36:31.560
deeper level.

546
00:36:31.560 --> 00:36:33.120
Like you're on a deeper level with it.

547
00:36:33.120 --> 00:36:34.760
And I'm just like, yeah, I know.

548
00:36:34.760 --> 00:36:36.600
It's so, so good.

549
00:36:37.400 --> 00:36:37.960
Yeah.

550
00:36:38.640 --> 00:36:39.720
I'm really excited.

551
00:36:40.280 --> 00:36:40.760
Yeah.

552
00:36:41.400 --> 00:36:45.160
Oh, y'all forgot to tell you when he touched my face, he was like, who do I say

553
00:36:45.160 --> 00:36:45.560
you are?

554
00:36:45.560 --> 00:36:48.560
I was like, girl, right.

555
00:36:48.560 --> 00:36:50.640
It's like, cause other people is like condom date.

556
00:36:50.640 --> 00:36:51.080
You know what I mean?

557
00:36:51.080 --> 00:36:54.200
It's like, no, we're focused on who do I say you are.

558
00:36:54.320 --> 00:36:55.040
You know what I mean?

559
00:36:55.040 --> 00:37:00.480
It was just like, it's this, these, and then when you have these moments, it's

560
00:37:00.480 --> 00:37:01.360
just like, I don't know.

561
00:37:01.360 --> 00:37:03.000
It just feels so tangible.

562
00:37:03.000 --> 00:37:04.080
You know, it's like a difference.

563
00:37:04.080 --> 00:37:06.240
It's like, oh, reading about him in your word.

564
00:37:06.240 --> 00:37:07.960
But it's like, I had a personal experience.

565
00:37:08.120 --> 00:37:10.680
Sometimes I don't even want to tell other people, you know, like, it's like,

566
00:37:10.920 --> 00:37:14.080
because it's just like between us two, but you know, I need to share, cause I

567
00:37:14.080 --> 00:37:16.160
can't help but share when good things happen to me.

568
00:37:16.480 --> 00:37:20.160
But like, sometimes it'd be like, you know, when you like with your boo, you

569
00:37:20.160 --> 00:37:21.760
don't want to be like, you can't tell all yet.

570
00:37:22.360 --> 00:37:22.960
You know what I'm saying?

571
00:37:25.560 --> 00:37:25.760
Yeah.

572
00:37:27.760 --> 00:37:28.600
That's so good.

573
00:37:28.600 --> 00:37:33.120
Terry said, who do I say you are?

574
00:37:34.400 --> 00:37:35.360
Oh, that's so good.

575
00:37:37.200 --> 00:37:37.720
So good.

576
00:37:39.240 --> 00:37:39.560
Yeah.

577
00:37:39.720 --> 00:37:40.680
Thank you for sharing.

578
00:37:43.480 --> 00:37:44.640
Is it just my internet?

579
00:37:47.720 --> 00:37:48.440
Is it where Rita?

580
00:37:49.280 --> 00:37:51.320
Is it just my internet that's cutting out?

581
00:37:52.160 --> 00:37:52.640
Yeah.

582
00:37:52.640 --> 00:37:53.680
Mine's okay.

583
00:37:55.160 --> 00:37:55.360
Then.

584
00:37:55.360 --> 00:37:55.840
Okay.

585
00:37:59.280 --> 00:37:59.960
Yeah.

586
00:38:00.080 --> 00:38:06.000
Um, I guess I'm gonna have you guys, I'm going to say it out loud so I can be

587
00:38:06.000 --> 00:38:06.640
accountable.

588
00:38:07.040 --> 00:38:12.840
I I'm pretty sure last time, um, you know, I guess during the rest thing, Jesus

589
00:38:12.840 --> 00:38:17.400
said, draw my eyeballs, like, like try to draw him first.

590
00:38:17.400 --> 00:38:19.360
I was like, oh, and I never did.

591
00:38:19.440 --> 00:38:21.640
So maybe that'll help me get an image of him.

592
00:38:22.280 --> 00:38:25.080
Oh, cool.

593
00:38:26.800 --> 00:38:27.000
Yeah.

594
00:38:27.000 --> 00:38:29.360
That's a great, you were artiste Rita.

595
00:38:30.840 --> 00:38:33.640
When I was a babe, when I was a baby, I used to draw.

596
00:38:34.280 --> 00:38:34.960
Oh, cool.

597
00:38:35.440 --> 00:38:36.800
Let me send you Rita.

598
00:38:38.360 --> 00:38:41.800
So let it come back out, girl.

599
00:38:42.320 --> 00:38:42.960
Yes.

600
00:38:42.960 --> 00:38:43.880
I agree, Karen.

601
00:38:44.160 --> 00:38:50.120
There's, um, uh, some, there's, there's a man who tries to help people with this,

602
00:38:50.120 --> 00:38:55.080
um, with, uh, trying to see Jesus because some people come to him and they're like,

603
00:38:55.200 --> 00:38:58.240
cause he's like, Hey, you know, just close your eyes, you know, and allow the Lord

604
00:38:58.240 --> 00:39:01.800
to come to you and you just accept him, you know, is how he shows up.

605
00:39:01.800 --> 00:39:03.800
And cause people will just see him in various ways.

606
00:39:03.800 --> 00:39:07.880
Some people see him, you know, in the typical, like Israeli garb from back then.

607
00:39:07.880 --> 00:39:11.680
And then other people see him, you know, with like, you know, like, you know,

608
00:39:11.680 --> 00:39:16.960
just close your eyes and just let him show you just appear to you as he wants to.

609
00:39:17.960 --> 00:39:21.120
And, uh, but some people have a hard time seeing him.

610
00:39:21.120 --> 00:39:25.960
So what he suggests to do is to give yourself an anchor point of memorizing

611
00:39:25.960 --> 00:39:29.120
whatever room that you're in, you know, like sitting there and like memorizing

612
00:39:29.120 --> 00:39:32.800
your room for a second, like getting a real good sense, you know, that you

613
00:39:32.800 --> 00:39:33.680
know, where everything is.

614
00:39:33.680 --> 00:39:33.880
Okay.

615
00:39:33.880 --> 00:39:34.960
There's a plant in the corner.

616
00:39:34.960 --> 00:39:35.520
There's a door.

617
00:39:35.520 --> 00:39:36.160
There's a window.

618
00:39:36.160 --> 00:39:36.720
There's a door.

619
00:39:36.720 --> 00:39:37.240
There's a door.

620
00:39:37.240 --> 00:39:37.760
There's a window.

621
00:39:37.760 --> 00:39:38.240
There's a door.

622
00:39:38.240 --> 00:39:38.760
There's a window.

623
00:39:38.760 --> 00:39:39.240
There's a door.

624
00:39:39.240 --> 00:39:39.760
There's a window.

625
00:39:39.760 --> 00:39:40.240
There's a door.

626
00:39:40.240 --> 00:39:40.760
There's a window.

627
00:39:41.200 --> 00:39:45.000
There's a door over there or whatever, and then closing your eyes and

628
00:39:45.000 --> 00:39:47.840
then repicturing it in your mind.

629
00:39:48.200 --> 00:39:54.080
So this, this really helps people, um, uh, also who don't have a very

630
00:39:54.080 --> 00:39:59.520
strong imagination because they squelched it so early, um, because

631
00:39:59.520 --> 00:40:00.160
imagination,

632
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.240
It's very normal for us. It's very normal for kids. They have no problem imagining things

633
00:40:04.240 --> 00:40:09.200
unless they've, they were taught to squelch it because they were constantly ridiculed or,

634
00:40:09.840 --> 00:40:16.320
or even hurt, you know, and punished for talking about, well, you know, things that aren't real,

635
00:40:16.320 --> 00:40:20.480
you know? And so anyway, my point is, this is one of the things that he does for people who

636
00:40:20.480 --> 00:40:25.120
struggle with imagination. He is like, we're talking about people that even go to that

637
00:40:25.120 --> 00:40:29.360
extreme, but say they're not struggling with the imagination, but they can't see Jesus.

638
00:40:29.360 --> 00:40:33.280
They can see the room or they can see something that can't see Jesus. So he says,

639
00:40:33.280 --> 00:40:38.480
picture your room. So give yourself an anger point and then ask Jesus, okay, Jesus, where are you?

640
00:40:39.360 --> 00:40:44.560
So in your mind's eye, you're looking at the whole room and then you just see where he pops up.

641
00:40:45.200 --> 00:40:50.400
See, for me, he popped up over here, but for you, he might pop up, you know, sitting down on the

642
00:40:50.400 --> 00:40:56.480
coffee table facing you, or, you know, facing the other direction on the coffee table, or you might

643
00:40:56.480 --> 00:41:01.600
appear to standing on the couch. I mean, and then, and you just kind of like go from there.

644
00:41:01.600 --> 00:41:06.400
So it gives you an anchor point to start with of like, okay, this, I know in this, I can force

645
00:41:06.400 --> 00:41:13.760
myself to picture because I'm picturing something that I can actually see. And then you try to use

646
00:41:13.760 --> 00:41:19.440
that to picture something that you've never seen, just Jesus, you know? So anyway, it's kind of like

647
00:41:19.440 --> 00:41:24.160
stair-stepping your way through it. So that sometimes helps people to finally be able to see

648
00:41:24.160 --> 00:41:29.680
him. And like I said, in the video, you know, the teaching, sometimes I see his eyes and sometimes

649
00:41:29.680 --> 00:41:36.160
I don't. So I just, like I said, I just kind of mentioned the whole eye thing, just because I

650
00:41:36.160 --> 00:41:41.920
noticed that it's when I looked in his eyes that I felt loved. And because it gave me an anchor point

651
00:41:41.920 --> 00:41:46.800
for it, because eyes have always been very important to me. And then I noticed that I was

652
00:41:46.800 --> 00:41:52.240
getting flooded and with emotion. And so I learned that I kept trying to like break away and whatever.

653
00:41:52.240 --> 00:41:57.840
So I began to realize what ways I was trying to keep myself from the Lord, what things I was doing

654
00:41:57.840 --> 00:42:02.800
that were actually evidencing resistance. So I bring those things up to kind of help somebody

655
00:42:02.800 --> 00:42:06.800
else who may not be able to figure out how to articulate that that's what they're struggling with.

656
00:42:07.360 --> 00:42:12.800
But I don't ever want anyone to feel bad because they can't see Jesus's eyes. I'll be able to do

657
00:42:12.800 --> 00:42:19.520
it. I don't, I don't sometimes. And so anyway, maybe, maybe that'll help. And then I thought

658
00:42:19.520 --> 00:42:25.920
it was great where you said that Jesus invited you to draw them. So just draw what his eyes look

659
00:42:25.920 --> 00:42:34.720
like. So anyway, I think that's a great idea because it's not us imagining and us, you know,

660
00:42:34.720 --> 00:42:42.000
drawing an idea of what he can look like. Isn't sacrilegious because, I mean, you think of all

661
00:42:42.000 --> 00:42:47.120
of the different artists who've tried to depict Jesus. It's just an artistic expression and a

662
00:42:47.120 --> 00:42:54.240
representation, you know, so, um, is all that it is. And he's just like, find some aspect that

663
00:42:54.240 --> 00:43:01.760
enables you to connect with me. If, if what I'm asking of you feels like too big of a jump,

664
00:43:01.760 --> 00:43:07.920
too big of a leap, what can you do towards it? You know, just kind of like work that way. So,

665
00:43:09.200 --> 00:43:14.080
so anyway, if that's helpful at all. So that's what I do when I have, when I struggle to see

666
00:43:14.080 --> 00:43:19.360
Jesus at all, is I pick, is I go through that exercise that that man said, and I see the whole

667
00:43:19.360 --> 00:43:24.400
room. And because there are certain times in my life in which my imagination is more exercised

668
00:43:24.400 --> 00:43:29.600
than at others. And if it hasn't been exercised in a while, I have to go back to, okay, memorize

669
00:43:29.600 --> 00:43:35.360
another room. I'm in the close my eyes and then repicture it. I give myself a definitive to

670
00:43:35.360 --> 00:43:41.360
picture my mind. And then I allow something that's not definitive, which is Jesus to kind of like to,

671
00:43:41.360 --> 00:43:45.680
to appear. Okay. Well, where is he in the room? He's going to be, he's going to appear as a man.

672
00:43:46.240 --> 00:43:51.840
So where would that be? You know, do you see pop up over there? Does he pop over there or,

673
00:43:52.480 --> 00:44:00.400
or where is he behind you or something? So, so does anyone have any questions?

674
00:44:02.160 --> 00:44:08.160
So, or I don't know any thoughts, anything that they hadn't shared yet, or any thoughts and

675
00:44:08.160 --> 00:44:14.320
having gone through all of the, all of the stuff on Saturday and Sunday. Does anyone have anything?

676
00:44:17.280 --> 00:44:22.640
Um, I guess I'm one of the videos, you know, you said our prayer isn't

677
00:44:24.160 --> 00:44:31.520
anything we're lacking, so we're not really asking for anything, but it's more like him showing us

678
00:44:31.680 --> 00:44:40.320
that we have it or, yeah, so we can ask, but what we're asking for is we're asking for something

679
00:44:40.320 --> 00:44:44.880
that we already have, as opposed to asking for something, thinking we don't have it.

680
00:44:44.880 --> 00:44:48.000
So I know that that sounds a little weird, but think about the fact that we,

681
00:44:48.720 --> 00:44:53.040
we have access to something, but we don't know what it is and we don't know where it is

682
00:44:53.600 --> 00:44:59.920
and how to utilize it and how to, how to, how to operate in it. And, and we're

683
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:02.640
what to do with it when we have it, you know, that kind of that.

684
00:45:02.640 --> 00:45:07.680
So we're asking, in other words, we're, we're curious, we're asking questions,

685
00:45:08.400 --> 00:45:16.160
but it's in faith as opposed to, and believing that if that we already have it and that God is

686
00:45:16.160 --> 00:45:21.200
good and he's not withholding something from us, you know, that kind of a thing it's approaching

687
00:45:21.200 --> 00:45:29.680
God be in belief and expectancy, as opposed to, I don't have it, he hasn't given it,

688
00:45:29.680 --> 00:45:38.240
or he's withheld it. And therefore I I'm in lack and I need to get. So we still ask,

689
00:45:38.240 --> 00:45:43.280
but we're asking from a perspective of expectation that we already have it,

690
00:45:43.280 --> 00:45:47.680
which is coming into agreement with God, as opposed to, I don't have it God.

691
00:45:47.680 --> 00:45:54.560
So therefore what you said isn't true and you're not good because you haven't given it to me yet,

692
00:45:54.560 --> 00:46:00.960
or you're withholding, or I'm in, I'm in need that hasn't been provided for all of those

693
00:46:00.960 --> 00:46:06.960
things are the opposite of what God said. So we're, we're still asking, we're just doing it

694
00:46:06.960 --> 00:46:13.760
from a new perspective. We're doing it from the perspective of, of agreement with God,

695
00:46:13.760 --> 00:46:21.760
as opposed to disagreement is if we're kind of like, as if we're appealing to him to save us,

696
00:46:21.760 --> 00:46:28.480
because we're abandoned, we're alone, and this is an issue and you need to fix it. We're not asking

697
00:46:28.480 --> 00:46:33.600
God to fix something. We're asking him, he's already, he's already provided. He's already

698
00:46:33.600 --> 00:46:39.120
has us an environment of provision protection. We're asking how to engage with that. We're asking

699
00:46:39.680 --> 00:46:44.960
Lord, who, who, who have you already made me to be? And how do I rise up into that a bit more?

700
00:46:44.960 --> 00:46:50.800
How do I, how do I mature a bit more Lord in this, in this situation? How do I rule,

701
00:46:50.800 --> 00:46:58.320
how do I learn to rule a bit more or, you know, yeah. Anyway, does that, is that helpful at all?

702
00:46:58.320 --> 00:47:05.440
Yes. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. And it really is very it might sound like, just like this little

703
00:47:06.400 --> 00:47:11.200
detailed nuance, but it makes all the difference in the world. It completely changes the, it

704
00:47:11.200 --> 00:47:19.360
actually gives prayers power. Because remember that, that things manifest into creation. Remember,

705
00:47:19.360 --> 00:47:23.040
you know, Tammy was asking questions about manifestation and like co-creating with the

706
00:47:23.040 --> 00:47:31.440
Lord and everything. We back on, I think it was Sunday, you know, it's, it's, we're actively

707
00:47:32.400 --> 00:47:38.320
engaging with something by agreement with God about it. And that's how we can, that's how the

708
00:47:38.320 --> 00:47:46.640
thing can finally show up. So we still need to ask. In fact, there was a verse, man, there was

709
00:47:46.640 --> 00:47:52.560
a verse that I wrote down that I thought, oh, my word about asking that I thought was so powerful.

710
00:47:52.560 --> 00:48:00.080
Oh, if, if I abide in you and you abide in me, I think this is John. I mean, meaning like the book

711
00:48:00.080 --> 00:48:07.040
of John, but Jesus is saying, if you, if I abide in you and you abided me, you can ask what you

712
00:48:07.040 --> 00:48:10.800
will and I will give it to you. Or my father would give it to you or something like that.

713
00:48:11.360 --> 00:48:17.280
So what was the condition? The condition was union. That if you agree with the fact and you

714
00:48:17.280 --> 00:48:22.080
choose the fact that you're in union with me, if you abide in me and I abide in you, then ask of me

715
00:48:22.800 --> 00:48:26.640
and I will give it to you or ask of me or whatever you ask of me, my father would give to you. I

716
00:48:26.640 --> 00:48:32.160
don't remember what she said, bother me, but whatever it was, that was the condition of getting

717
00:48:32.160 --> 00:48:41.120
our answer to our ask of getting what it is that we asked for is simply abiding in that union.

718
00:48:41.120 --> 00:48:46.160
And remember, that's why we're at rest and why we already have everything every anyway.

719
00:48:47.120 --> 00:48:53.280
And so what we're is because we're in him. So when we're asking for something from the position of

720
00:48:53.280 --> 00:48:59.600
being in him and abiding in him means that we already have what we're asking for. So we're just

721
00:48:59.600 --> 00:49:04.240
trying to learn, how do I engage with this thing? What is it that I already have? Like a baby

722
00:49:04.240 --> 00:49:08.720
discovering that it has hands. Well, it's always had hands, but now it's realizing it has hands,

723
00:49:08.720 --> 00:49:13.760
but now even though it realizes it has hands, it still doesn't know what it does. What does the

724
00:49:13.760 --> 00:49:19.120
hand do? You know, what's it called? What does it actually fully look like? And so it'll study it

725
00:49:19.120 --> 00:49:22.480
for a while. What does it taste like? And I'll stick it in his mouth. And I'm like, you know,

726
00:49:22.480 --> 00:49:26.560
what is all of this? And, and then they'll, and then they figure out, well, what can it do? Well,

727
00:49:26.560 --> 00:49:31.440
it can, it can open and close and it can grab things and it can bring it to me. And so there's

728
00:49:31.440 --> 00:49:38.480
this development process. And so that's what our asking is. Um, you, we do it from that place of

729
00:49:38.480 --> 00:49:43.840
union, uh, place of abiding, knowing we already have the things and now we're just asking Lord,

730
00:49:43.840 --> 00:49:49.280
how do I, what is this thing? How do I engage with it? But all from the perspective of

731
00:49:49.280 --> 00:49:56.720
anticipation, expectation, excitement, expecting the goodness of the Lord in the answer.

732
00:49:56.720 --> 00:49:59.840
Oh my goodness. This is so exciting. What is it?

733
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:07.160
You know, and that's honestly how I, I know I'm very expressive, how I can get with the

734
00:50:07.160 --> 00:50:08.160
Lord.

735
00:50:08.160 --> 00:50:15.320
I'm just like, I wonder what it is, you know, and then the more that I expect that it's

736
00:50:15.320 --> 00:50:17.640
like that, the more that's how it shows up.

737
00:50:17.640 --> 00:50:20.040
It shows that, that exciting.

738
00:50:20.040 --> 00:50:21.040
Why?

739
00:50:21.040 --> 00:50:22.200
Because I'm, that's what I'm looking for.

740
00:50:22.200 --> 00:50:24.400
I'm looking for the goodness of my God.

741
00:50:24.400 --> 00:50:25.840
I'm looking for his love.

742
00:50:25.840 --> 00:50:33.160
I'm looking for something that brings me into, that allows me to exercise in it, that allows

743
00:50:33.160 --> 00:50:38.840
me to experience more of his love, that allows me to experience and live in a greater fullness

744
00:50:38.840 --> 00:50:40.600
of his freedom.

745
00:50:40.600 --> 00:50:48.000
And so when he showed, when he shows up, sorry, okay, I was thinking it was my, is my computer.

746
00:50:48.000 --> 00:50:49.440
No, it's fine.

747
00:50:49.440 --> 00:50:56.760
Um, uh, uh, and then anyway, so what it is that I'm expecting of God's character, that's

748
00:50:56.760 --> 00:50:58.120
what shows up.

749
00:50:58.120 --> 00:51:03.160
And then when it shows up, I can see it a lot more, a lot easier.

750
00:51:03.160 --> 00:51:08.960
I recognize it because I'm, I'm looking in the direction and see if I'm looking for something

751
00:51:08.960 --> 00:51:13.400
over here and God shows up over here, I can't see it.

752
00:51:13.400 --> 00:51:18.120
So he's given it and he's doing it and it's all great, but I cannot see it because I'm

753
00:51:18.120 --> 00:51:19.120
focused over here.

754
00:51:19.120 --> 00:51:22.200
But if he tells me, no, Ashley, no, that I'm good.

755
00:51:22.200 --> 00:51:23.200
No, that I'm loved.

756
00:51:23.200 --> 00:51:25.240
And I'm like, okay, that's what I'm looking at.

757
00:51:25.240 --> 00:51:26.600
That's what I'm looking for.

758
00:51:26.600 --> 00:51:28.640
Then I can see it when it shows up.

759
00:51:28.640 --> 00:51:32.680
Um, so anyway, so is that helpful?

760
00:51:32.680 --> 00:51:33.680
Good.

761
00:51:33.680 --> 00:51:34.680
Yeah.

762
00:51:34.680 --> 00:51:35.680
Good.

763
00:51:35.680 --> 00:51:36.680
So.

764
00:51:36.680 --> 00:51:39.680
Can I say something?

765
00:51:39.680 --> 00:51:40.680
Yeah.

766
00:51:40.680 --> 00:51:50.160
I heard one of my friends just say the other day, um, I, I don't think I said this over

767
00:51:50.160 --> 00:51:51.160
the weekend, but maybe I did.

768
00:51:51.160 --> 00:51:56.280
Um, they just said something like, well, I can't wait to see how God's going to work

769
00:51:56.280 --> 00:51:57.280
that out.

770
00:51:57.280 --> 00:52:02.960
And it was kind of a, uh, and so I've had some tough situations at my job lately.

771
00:52:02.960 --> 00:52:06.560
And so that's how I've just been, well, God, I can't wait to see how you're going to work

772
00:52:06.560 --> 00:52:08.400
this out.

773
00:52:08.400 --> 00:52:09.800
And I think I'm going to add to it.

774
00:52:09.800 --> 00:52:14.480
I just can't wait to see how, because you love me so much, how good this is going to

775
00:52:14.480 --> 00:52:15.480
work out for me.

776
00:52:15.480 --> 00:52:20.320
That just came to me when you were saying that, because I've, and it's just like another,

777
00:52:20.320 --> 00:52:27.000
another real tough situation came up just, just Friday and it got confirmed yesterday

778
00:52:27.000 --> 00:52:28.000
morning.

779
00:52:28.000 --> 00:52:29.000
Pretty, you know, another one.

780
00:52:29.000 --> 00:52:32.960
And I'm like, okay, God, can't wait to see how much you love me and how you're going

781
00:52:32.960 --> 00:52:33.960
to work this out.

782
00:52:34.960 --> 00:52:45.080
And my behalf and my clients, we have, you know, yeah, yeah.

783
00:52:45.080 --> 00:52:48.680
Because what we're choosing is we're not choosing the manifestation.

784
00:52:48.680 --> 00:52:51.560
We're not choosing, oh, this is how God will work it out.

785
00:52:51.560 --> 00:52:52.560
We're choosing that.

786
00:52:52.560 --> 00:52:53.560
God's good.

787
00:52:53.560 --> 00:52:54.560
Yeah.

788
00:52:54.560 --> 00:52:58.340
And God, I fully expect you to be good, but what does goodness look like?

789
00:52:58.340 --> 00:53:02.240
What do you and your sovereign will choose goodness to look like in this situation?

790
00:53:02.520 --> 00:53:08.880
In Jesus, this situation, he was scourged and he died, and that was how God chose to

791
00:53:08.880 --> 00:53:09.880
show his love.

792
00:53:09.880 --> 00:53:14.880
So what we're doing is we're not, we're not hanging our hat.

793
00:53:14.880 --> 00:53:18.320
And this is what I was talking also to Renata and Annette about.

794
00:53:18.320 --> 00:53:26.840
We're not hanging our hat on and looking for having and having faith in how it manifests.

795
00:53:26.840 --> 00:53:36.160
We're having faith in choosing instead, God being who he is, regardless of how that manifests.

796
00:53:36.160 --> 00:53:40.120
And anyway, that makes all the difference in the world.

797
00:53:40.120 --> 00:53:46.880
It's much more powerful position from which to pray, like we were talking about with Rita.

798
00:53:46.880 --> 00:53:52.520
And then we can also, it's the only position from which we can rule is if we choose that

799
00:53:52.520 --> 00:54:00.560
God is something and we receive, however, he chooses to manifest who he is as a, instead

800
00:54:00.560 --> 00:54:04.940
of choosing that, we want a specific manifestation.

801
00:54:04.940 --> 00:54:09.960
We want his goodness to manifest like this, but then that's going to keep getting us the

802
00:54:09.960 --> 00:54:12.480
life that we've been living this far.

803
00:54:12.480 --> 00:54:18.720
And meaning like the different struggles or, or pain and, and whatever, and lack of rest

804
00:54:18.720 --> 00:54:23.520
and lack of freedom that we've been into that we've been living in is if we are looking

805
00:54:23.520 --> 00:54:29.160
for that manifestation, well, if God is, you know, I believe that God wants good things

806
00:54:29.160 --> 00:54:31.480
for me, therefore he'll do this.

807
00:54:31.480 --> 00:54:37.160
That's like, no, no, just believe that I provide for you and I protect you and you're never

808
00:54:37.160 --> 00:54:42.000
in lack and you're always in abundance, you know, and, and that I'm good and that I'm

809
00:54:42.000 --> 00:54:45.240
faithful and that I'm, you know, all of these things.

810
00:54:45.240 --> 00:54:48.500
And then watch how I show up like that.

811
00:54:48.500 --> 00:54:54.460
Watch what faithfulness looks like in your situation or protection or provision or whatever.

812
00:54:54.460 --> 00:54:59.180
And I say that we were talking with, I was talking with her net, Renette, Annette and

813
00:54:59.180 --> 00:55:00.060
Renata about.

814
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:04.860
Um, promises like promises that are unfulfilled or whatever it was like, the focus is not

815
00:55:04.860 --> 00:55:05.860
on the promise.

816
00:55:05.860 --> 00:55:07.620
It's on the one who made the promise.

817
00:55:07.620 --> 00:55:11.800
We actually released the promise to the Lord, like, or a prophecy or whatever.

818
00:55:11.800 --> 00:55:15.380
We don't hang on to it like this because then we kill it.

819
00:55:15.380 --> 00:55:20.360
So we have to just allow the Lord, allow it to just experience it as if you, we have our

820
00:55:20.360 --> 00:55:26.280
hands in the river and then just allow, and then just experience the water of the spirit

821
00:55:26.280 --> 00:55:29.820
as it passes through and rolls all over our fingers and everything.

822
00:55:29.820 --> 00:55:33.660
We get to experience so much more of the river, but as soon as we decide that we like

823
00:55:33.660 --> 00:55:38.140
a specific aspect of the spirit, oh, I love this promise, or I love this prophecy.

824
00:55:38.140 --> 00:55:43.020
And as soon as we do this and to start using an accusation against the Lord, like, Lord,

825
00:55:43.020 --> 00:55:44.660
why haven't you accomplished this yet?

826
00:55:44.660 --> 00:55:48.300
You're the one who gave me this promise, or you're the one who prophesied this.

827
00:55:48.300 --> 00:55:53.180
We start taking this beautiful gift that God gave us of this promise in this, in this prophecy

828
00:55:53.180 --> 00:55:57.580
that was strictly given to us in order for the Lord to communicate to us how much we

829
00:55:57.580 --> 00:56:01.740
mean to him or how good he is or something about himself.

830
00:56:01.740 --> 00:56:05.700
But instead we've chosen this, not what it says about God as the thing that we're focusing

831
00:56:05.700 --> 00:56:06.700
on.

832
00:56:06.700 --> 00:56:11.700
And then because we're doing this, we kill it and God's like, okay, we've missed the

833
00:56:11.700 --> 00:56:12.700
whole point.

834
00:56:12.700 --> 00:56:16.620
So it's always important that even with promises that we release them and that we just hold

835
00:56:16.620 --> 00:56:17.620
them very loosely.

836
00:56:17.620 --> 00:56:20.420
And God says, he makes a promise and promise or prophecy.

837
00:56:20.420 --> 00:56:21.420
Okay.

838
00:56:21.420 --> 00:56:25.420
Then you know what, Lord, I will just partner with you and then I'll just watch and experience

839
00:56:25.420 --> 00:56:30.620
and let it happen and dah, dah, dah, as opposed to, okay, excellent.

840
00:56:30.620 --> 00:56:31.620
This is great.

841
00:56:31.620 --> 00:56:32.620
I like that one.

842
00:56:32.620 --> 00:56:35.180
I'm going to claim that one and I'm going to, you know, drive it.

843
00:56:35.180 --> 00:56:39.060
And unfortunately that's where some of the whole, um, that's where I believe some of

844
00:56:39.060 --> 00:56:45.540
the word of faith can get screwy is where we're not having faith in God.

845
00:56:45.540 --> 00:56:53.740
We're having faith in an outcome and we are driving the outcome as opposed to having faith

846
00:56:53.740 --> 00:56:55.860
out of relationship with God.

847
00:56:55.860 --> 00:57:02.140
And there's no difference between driving to an outcome, um, for Christians than there

848
00:57:02.140 --> 00:57:08.700
is in doing it, uh, under the law of attraction as a new wager or whatever, because it's taking

849
00:57:08.700 --> 00:57:11.460
God out of the equation.

850
00:57:11.460 --> 00:57:17.180
Even if we put a godly stamp on it and say, well, God prophesied or God promised.

851
00:57:17.180 --> 00:57:21.620
Remember that's what Abraham did with, or Sarah, I did with, um, for Abraham.

852
00:57:21.620 --> 00:57:26.860
Well, Abraham was party to it too, obviously, but it was Sarah's idea of like, Hey, you

853
00:57:26.860 --> 00:57:35.900
know, giving a hack Hagar, uh, and to Abraham in order to try to fulfill God's promise.

854
00:57:35.900 --> 00:57:38.300
It leaves God completely out of the equation anyway.

855
00:57:38.300 --> 00:57:44.460
So even with promises that God's made, it's like, yeah, don't, don't focus on the promise,

856
00:57:44.460 --> 00:57:46.260
you know, focus on me.

857
00:57:46.260 --> 00:57:51.500
And then because the fact that I said it, in other words, word that gave that promise

858
00:57:52.380 --> 00:57:56.700
everything that can carry out that word and cause that word to happen.

859
00:57:56.700 --> 00:57:58.220
So anyway, you're right.

860
00:57:58.220 --> 00:57:59.220
Yeah.

861
00:57:59.220 --> 00:58:04.900
Makes all the difference in the world being into anticipating an outcome, because what

862
00:58:04.900 --> 00:58:09.140
it is that we're going to see, what it is that we're going to get is not an outcome.

863
00:58:09.140 --> 00:58:12.700
What we're going to get is we're going to get peace and parcel of God himself.

864
00:58:12.700 --> 00:58:14.780
We're going to actually see something of him.

865
00:58:14.780 --> 00:58:17.140
We're going to experience something of him.

866
00:58:17.140 --> 00:58:21.980
We're going to have something of him, not, Oh, this thing is going to happen.

867
00:58:21.980 --> 00:58:26.140
It's a total different shift of switching.

868
00:58:26.140 --> 00:58:34.260
It's a total change in value system, valuing God over what happens, choosing God over a

869
00:58:34.260 --> 00:58:36.140
lifestyle or whatever.

870
00:58:36.140 --> 00:58:42.900
So, yeah, that makes sense that I wish you would have taken a couple of notes on that

871
00:58:42.900 --> 00:58:43.900
one.

872
00:58:43.900 --> 00:58:44.900
Well, you'll have the recording.

873
00:58:44.900 --> 00:58:50.380
He's in God over the outcome.

874
00:58:50.380 --> 00:58:51.380
Yes.

875
00:58:51.380 --> 00:58:52.380
Yeah.

876
00:58:52.380 --> 00:58:53.380
Yeah.

877
00:58:53.380 --> 00:58:54.380
She's in God over the outcome.

878
00:58:54.380 --> 00:58:55.380
So important.

879
00:58:55.380 --> 00:58:58.380
That was the pivotal choice that I made.

880
00:58:58.380 --> 00:59:02.260
Um, and, uh, that I call it Rita's heard me talk about it.

881
00:59:02.260 --> 00:59:05.940
It's called the ultimate choice, you know, where you choose God over the outcome, you

882
00:59:05.940 --> 00:59:10.420
choose God over the lifestyle and, um, and say, God, I just choose that you be who you

883
00:59:10.420 --> 00:59:11.700
are.

884
00:59:11.700 --> 00:59:15.020
And I don't know who that is, but I'm choosing it without knowing what it is.

885
00:59:15.020 --> 00:59:16.020
That's faith.

886
00:59:16.020 --> 00:59:20.740
I mean, God, whatever that is, I ask that you manifest that into my life.

887
00:59:20.740 --> 00:59:24.180
And that can make, and your goodness can make my life look however you want.

888
00:59:24.180 --> 00:59:26.420
And I saw what it made Jesus's life look like.

889
00:59:26.420 --> 00:59:31.740
I just ask that you be who you are and that that inner earth in a physical sense to create

890
00:59:31.740 --> 00:59:32.740
my life.

891
00:59:32.740 --> 00:59:38.700
And, um, and anyway, that every, everything changes after that point, but yeah, we have

892
00:59:38.700 --> 00:59:44.060
to continually choose him over the outcome, him and his character over the manifestation

893
00:59:44.060 --> 00:59:45.060
of his character.

894
00:59:45.060 --> 00:59:50.980
In other words, his character instead of the manifestation of his character, but we get

895
00:59:50.980 --> 00:59:55.740
focused on the manifestation on, well, what, what is it going to, what kind of an experience

896
00:59:55.740 --> 00:59:56.740
is it going to give me?

897
00:59:56.740 --> 00:59:58.580
I was like, no, no, no.

898
00:59:58.580 --> 00:59:59.940
Choose me over.

899
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:07.040
you experience me only then can I entrust you with actually experiencing me is I need

900
01:00:07.040 --> 01:00:11.480
to know that you'll choose me first, because I need you to choose me before I reveal myself

901
01:00:11.480 --> 01:00:12.480
to you.

902
01:00:12.480 --> 01:00:16.200
I need to know that I can entrust you with who I really am.

903
01:00:16.200 --> 01:00:24.040
So I'm not going to even reveal myself until you shoot until you choose to receive me blindly.

904
01:00:24.040 --> 01:00:27.320
And then I'll show up and then I'll reveal myself, then I'll show you who it is that

905
01:00:27.320 --> 01:00:28.320
I really am.

906
01:00:28.320 --> 01:00:29.320
So, yeah.

907
01:00:29.320 --> 01:00:30.320
Oh, wow.

908
01:00:30.320 --> 01:00:31.320
So it is 10 o'clock.

909
01:00:31.320 --> 01:00:32.320
Good.

910
01:00:32.320 --> 01:00:33.320
It was helpful.

911
01:00:33.320 --> 01:00:34.320
Let me ask a quick question.

912
01:00:34.320 --> 01:00:35.320
Yeah.

913
01:00:35.320 --> 01:00:40.320
The steps, there were six of them, right?

914
01:00:40.320 --> 01:00:42.880
Uh, no, there are five.

915
01:00:42.880 --> 01:00:45.520
Well, there, I only talked about five.

916
01:00:45.520 --> 01:00:46.520
Technically there are six.

917
01:00:46.520 --> 01:00:50.440
The sixth one was on another video that was that was in the next session that goes to

918
01:00:50.440 --> 01:00:51.960
the rest lifestyle group.

919
01:00:51.960 --> 01:00:52.960
Okay.

920
01:00:52.960 --> 01:00:54.680
That one is basically what is that one?

921
01:00:54.680 --> 01:00:58.360
Oh, that one is basically talking to your spirit, soul, and body.

922
01:00:58.360 --> 01:00:59.360
Okay.

923
01:00:59.360 --> 01:01:05.360
And, um, and, uh, and trusting that they, that God has equipped them to shift without

924
01:01:05.360 --> 01:01:06.360
your consciousness.

925
01:01:06.360 --> 01:01:07.360
Okay.

926
01:01:07.360 --> 01:01:08.360
And what was five?

927
01:01:08.360 --> 01:01:14.960
I don't know that I wrote it down in front of it to declare and, and go where your soul

928
01:01:14.960 --> 01:01:16.520
finds peace.

929
01:01:16.520 --> 01:01:21.200
So if you can't choose that God is who he says that he is to the degree, he says he

930
01:01:21.200 --> 01:01:23.360
is that that's fine.

931
01:01:23.360 --> 01:01:27.080
Just choose that he is that to whatever degree you can.

932
01:01:27.080 --> 01:01:34.400
And then the rest of it, uh, declare that, that what he says about himself is true, that

933
01:01:34.400 --> 01:01:40.020
he really is that good, declare it, but you're having a hard time, like actually choosing

934
01:01:40.020 --> 01:01:42.880
it to that degree to actually act on it.

935
01:01:42.880 --> 01:01:46.560
You're not quite there yet, but you'll act on it to the degree that you really do have

936
01:01:46.560 --> 01:01:48.320
faith in the rest of it.

937
01:01:48.320 --> 01:01:50.160
You go where your soul finds peace.

938
01:01:50.160 --> 01:01:58.640
So, um, trying to think, uh, in other words, you, you think, okay, well, um, uh, like,

939
01:01:58.640 --> 01:02:03.480
I don't know if you can't, how, how would I put this?

940
01:02:03.480 --> 01:02:04.480
Okay.

941
01:02:04.480 --> 01:02:08.920
Say for instance, that, uh, you feel that God is, and I'm just going to use money as

942
01:02:08.920 --> 01:02:17.120
an example that, um, because this is how God taught me this, that, um, you have, um, I

943
01:02:18.120 --> 01:02:23.280
don't know, he, you have only $50 left in the bank and he, oh, and I think, yeah, I

944
01:02:23.280 --> 01:02:25.240
think that this is, yeah, this is my example.

945
01:02:25.240 --> 01:02:27.520
I think I had $50 in the bank at the time.

946
01:02:27.520 --> 01:02:31.200
Like I literally have $50 to my name, no credit cards or anything to back me up.

947
01:02:31.200 --> 01:02:34.240
I was just $50 and I needed to buy food with it.

948
01:02:34.240 --> 01:02:37.480
I didn't know when the next money was coming in, that kind of thing.

949
01:02:37.480 --> 01:02:42.840
So I had $50 and I needed to buy a fan because my central air went out.

950
01:02:42.840 --> 01:02:44.840
I think it was in the middle of summer.

951
01:02:44.840 --> 01:02:51.200
So I went to Walmart and I was looking back and forth between, I think like a, a $10 fan

952
01:02:51.200 --> 01:02:55.040
and then like a $16 fan, $17 fan, something like that.

953
01:02:55.040 --> 01:02:57.040
I don't remember exactly.

954
01:02:57.040 --> 01:03:03.280
And, um, and so that, that $7 difference isn't, you know, very much, but it is when you only

955
01:03:03.280 --> 01:03:06.600
have $50, that's a big difference.

956
01:03:06.600 --> 01:03:07.600
That's a huge ratio.

957
01:03:07.600 --> 01:03:10.160
You know, it's kind of like a child who's only two years old.

958
01:03:10.160 --> 01:03:12.680
Well, one year to us isn't a very big deal for him.

959
01:03:12.680 --> 01:03:13.680
That's half of his life.

960
01:03:13.680 --> 01:03:16.680
You know, it's, it's just kind of, it's all relative.

961
01:03:16.680 --> 01:03:22.600
So it was a very big deal to, because I wasn't sure it was like, Lord, what's the responsible

962
01:03:22.600 --> 01:03:23.600
decision?

963
01:03:23.600 --> 01:03:28.960
Um, so this is a $10 fan, but my concern about it, Lord, is that it can't do X, Y, and Z.

964
01:03:28.960 --> 01:03:29.960
It's not very big.

965
01:03:29.960 --> 01:03:33.280
Um, therefore I don't know that it's going to actually blow through my whole apartment,

966
01:03:33.280 --> 01:03:37.280
you know, but it is cheaper and it would probably do, I mean, Hey, it's better than nothing.

967
01:03:37.280 --> 01:03:38.280
Right.

968
01:03:38.280 --> 01:03:42.560
Or should I get this, this fancier fan that has this extra little like feature on it that

969
01:03:42.560 --> 01:03:47.440
I would just really like, yeah, but Lord, you know, that's probably not responsible.

970
01:03:47.440 --> 01:03:52.600
I could make do with this one, but I knew I said, Ashley, your God is bigger than that.

971
01:03:52.600 --> 01:03:53.600
And he's good.

972
01:03:53.600 --> 01:03:54.600
And he's kinder than that.

973
01:03:54.600 --> 01:03:56.020
And he's good.

974
01:03:56.020 --> 01:04:02.040
So I, and, um, so I just, but I was trying to learn this, I was trying to learn Lord,

975
01:04:02.040 --> 01:04:08.440
how do we make these decisions with, I'm used to making them from using certain logic, you

976
01:04:08.440 --> 01:04:11.960
know, but it doesn't include having to have any faith.

977
01:04:12.360 --> 01:04:15.200
But you're telling me that without faith, it's impossible to please you.

978
01:04:15.200 --> 01:04:16.360
So what do I do?

979
01:04:16.360 --> 01:04:21.680
Where does logic come in in making decisions when you also tell me to live by faith, like,

980
01:04:21.680 --> 01:04:24.640
like how to, how do these two work together?

981
01:04:24.640 --> 01:04:29.880
And so what I did is I just, I just figured out, okay, well, where does my, what is my

982
01:04:29.880 --> 01:04:30.880
soul think?

983
01:04:30.880 --> 01:04:36.240
Well, my soul is very, very afraid of making a buying the big fan, even though my soul

984
01:04:36.240 --> 01:04:41.520
wants the big fan, you know, it probably feels, it feels more safe and more comfortable, you

985
01:04:42.080 --> 01:04:48.240
know, as far as like, you know, the out output, but the amount of money scares me.

986
01:04:48.240 --> 01:04:52.200
I mean, like really scared my soul because like, I don't know the next time I'm going

987
01:04:52.200 --> 01:04:55.320
to get money and I need money for food, you know?

988
01:04:55.320 --> 01:04:59.760
So my, what my soul wanted was my soul wanted the cheap fan.

989
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.560
I asked, okay, so after I let my soul have it say, it was mad and it was scared and it

990
01:05:04.560 --> 01:05:05.560
was whatever.

991
01:05:05.560 --> 01:05:06.560
Okay.

992
01:05:06.560 --> 01:05:07.560
Now I know how I feel now.

993
01:05:07.560 --> 01:05:08.560
What does my spirit think?

994
01:05:08.560 --> 01:05:12.680
And because my soul got to talk for a while, it was now quiet because I let it have it

995
01:05:12.680 --> 01:05:18.020
say, I let it have its voice and I gave it an acknowledgement that it was valuable.

996
01:05:18.020 --> 01:05:21.120
So now that it felt valuable and heard it was quiet.

997
01:05:21.120 --> 01:05:25.640
And then I can more clearly hear my spirit because I let my soul talk first, you try

998
01:05:25.640 --> 01:05:29.760
to let your spirit talk first, the soul will be yapping over it.

999
01:05:30.520 --> 01:05:34.760
So tell your spirit who's much more mature to quiet down and let your soul have its little

1000
01:05:34.760 --> 01:05:39.280
say, reveal to yourself what it is you really think and feel about the Lord and about the

1001
01:05:39.280 --> 01:05:42.600
situation because all you're doing is you're acknowledging something that's there.

1002
01:05:42.600 --> 01:05:43.880
You're not feeding anything.

1003
01:05:43.880 --> 01:05:47.080
You're just acknowledging it to yourself so that you can actually deal with it because

1004
01:05:47.080 --> 01:05:49.120
you can't deal with something that you won't let come up.

1005
01:05:49.120 --> 01:05:50.840
So anyway, let it come up.

1006
01:05:50.840 --> 01:05:53.360
Now I know then now it'll be quiet.

1007
01:05:53.360 --> 01:05:54.360
You'll be really shocked.

1008
01:05:54.360 --> 01:05:55.360
It'll be quiet.

1009
01:05:55.360 --> 01:05:59.000
And then you let your spirit talk and then you find out what is your spirit?

1010
01:05:59.000 --> 01:06:00.000
What is your spirit?

1011
01:06:00.000 --> 01:06:01.000
Feel the freedom in the Lord.

1012
01:06:01.000 --> 01:06:03.480
And does it feel it over here or does it feel it over here?

1013
01:06:03.480 --> 01:06:07.320
Because God might say this one, but no, you know, actually, I know all of these things

1014
01:06:07.320 --> 01:06:11.080
that I need you to have money for the next few days that you don't even know are going

1015
01:06:11.080 --> 01:06:17.480
to come up and I'm guiding you to this decision, but, um, or he could say, no, I say, I want

1016
01:06:17.480 --> 01:06:18.880
you to believe me like this.

1017
01:06:18.880 --> 01:06:20.760
Am I this good?

1018
01:06:20.760 --> 01:06:25.720
Like, like, because you think you think that this sounds like good for me.

1019
01:06:25.720 --> 01:06:26.720
Do you believe that I'm as good?

1020
01:06:26.720 --> 01:06:27.720
Yeah, Lord, I do.

1021
01:06:27.720 --> 01:06:28.720
Okay.

1022
01:06:29.440 --> 01:06:34.760
Well, you know, where do you feel that your spirit is feeling freedom to open up?

1023
01:06:34.760 --> 01:06:39.040
God could pick either one, but which one is he doing now?

1024
01:06:39.040 --> 01:06:40.520
So that's what you're feeling into.

1025
01:06:40.520 --> 01:06:45.160
You're feeling into the freedom of the choice that you're being given in your unique moment

1026
01:06:45.160 --> 01:06:49.760
in your unique situation by the Lord, not, Oh, God would always choose the more expensive

1027
01:06:49.760 --> 01:06:50.760
options.

1028
01:06:50.760 --> 01:06:51.760
No, not necessarily.

1029
01:06:51.760 --> 01:06:56.920
There's a reason why we choose this one because God taught us those logical principles of

1030
01:06:56.920 --> 01:06:57.920
finance.

1031
01:06:58.120 --> 01:07:00.800
Those are God given and God made.

1032
01:07:00.800 --> 01:07:01.800
So, okay.

1033
01:07:01.800 --> 01:07:05.680
If they're both good God, and if you both made up, if you made up both of them, which

1034
01:07:05.680 --> 01:07:07.120
one do I pick right now?

1035
01:07:07.120 --> 01:07:09.560
So anyway, you just kind of feel like that.

1036
01:07:09.560 --> 01:07:17.240
And, um, and then, so what I, so my point is, that's what I mean, where you choose what,

1037
01:07:17.240 --> 01:07:22.920
if you have enough faith for where it is that your spirit is feeling the freedom is say,

1038
01:07:22.920 --> 01:07:25.680
for instance, my spirit felt the freedom here.

1039
01:07:25.680 --> 01:07:26.680
Okay.

1040
01:07:26.680 --> 01:07:30.600
So it's great that I now know where my spirit is willing to go.

1041
01:07:30.600 --> 01:07:33.800
Is my soul willing to go there?

1042
01:07:33.800 --> 01:07:36.680
Is it willing to make that huge leap?

1043
01:07:36.680 --> 01:07:42.240
Because if it's not there, I can't make that leap because I don't believe in it.

1044
01:07:42.240 --> 01:07:49.320
So therefore there's nothing to hold me up because faith is, is like coming to the edge

1045
01:07:49.320 --> 01:07:51.240
of this cliff here.

1046
01:07:51.240 --> 01:07:55.880
And then you have faith in, say, say God says something and you have faith in it.

1047
01:07:56.080 --> 01:08:00.600
What that does is it creates a step for you to step out on.

1048
01:08:00.600 --> 01:08:04.280
When you step off of this ledge, you step off the ledge, you know, like this into the

1049
01:08:04.280 --> 01:08:09.920
great unknown, and there's nothing there until your faith created a step.

1050
01:08:09.920 --> 01:08:12.360
And now you can step onto something.

1051
01:08:12.360 --> 01:08:18.160
But if we step out on something that God said, but we don't believe it, there's no step created

1052
01:08:18.160 --> 01:08:19.200
and we do fall.

1053
01:08:19.200 --> 01:08:23.560
And we bear the consequences of the fact that we don't have faith now.

1054
01:08:23.560 --> 01:08:27.800
And so what we've done in the past is we've assumed when we've done stuff like that, like,

1055
01:08:27.800 --> 01:08:28.800
okay, God, fine.

1056
01:08:28.800 --> 01:08:32.680
If you just say, so I'm going to do it, you know, if we do that and we're not preparing

1057
01:08:32.680 --> 01:08:39.920
ourselves with faith first, then, and we, and we fall to, you know, to bad consequences.

1058
01:08:39.920 --> 01:08:43.960
We keep blaming God, see, either I didn't hear God, right.

1059
01:08:43.960 --> 01:08:45.680
Or he didn't speak, right.

1060
01:08:45.680 --> 01:08:47.920
In other words, that's not true.

1061
01:08:47.920 --> 01:08:49.160
Whatever it is he said, isn't true.

1062
01:08:49.160 --> 01:08:50.720
And God's like, no, no, no, no, no.

1063
01:08:50.720 --> 01:08:52.040
Neither one of those is the case.

1064
01:08:52.040 --> 01:08:58.720
So the thing is that what creates the step is you believing that that's what I said and

1065
01:08:58.720 --> 01:09:01.319
that it's actually true.

1066
01:09:01.319 --> 01:09:09.240
So anyway, so my, my point is if we have faith enough to actually step, if we have enough

1067
01:09:09.240 --> 01:09:16.160
faith to create that step, then when we act on that, we'll land on something, we'll land

1068
01:09:16.160 --> 01:09:19.880
on our feet because God says that it was true.

1069
01:09:19.880 --> 01:09:28.359
But if we don't have, if our soul can't have that much faith in God yet, then we don't

1070
01:09:28.359 --> 01:09:31.540
want to step out into nothingness.

1071
01:09:31.540 --> 01:09:35.560
So what we need to do is we need to say, God, I'm just not there yet, but I declare that

1072
01:09:35.560 --> 01:09:37.960
you are who you say that you are declare.

1073
01:09:37.960 --> 01:09:41.399
So I can't choose that you are that, but I can declare it.

1074
01:09:41.399 --> 01:09:42.399
And you know what?

1075
01:09:42.399 --> 01:09:43.399
That is better than what I've been doing.

1076
01:09:43.399 --> 01:09:46.120
Cause in the past, I've been calling you a liar.

1077
01:09:46.120 --> 01:09:50.000
So I'm going, I'm moving it, I'm moving a bit, uh, moving forward.

1078
01:09:50.000 --> 01:09:51.000
So I can't make it.

1079
01:09:51.000 --> 01:09:57.680
I can't make this huge gap leap, you know, to having faith, but I can move a step further

1080
01:09:57.680 --> 01:09:58.780
than what I've been doing.

1081
01:09:58.780 --> 01:10:00.040
I will declare.

1082
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:08.480
And I will choose in that my choose my willingness for believing what it is that you've said,

1083
01:10:08.480 --> 01:10:11.440
even though I can't actually choose that it's true.

1084
01:10:11.440 --> 01:10:15.060
I can desire to believe that of you.

1085
01:10:15.060 --> 01:10:18.120
So it's something I declare that if you say that this is who you are, then that's who

1086
01:10:18.120 --> 01:10:19.120
you are.

1087
01:10:19.120 --> 01:10:20.120
Then what are you at?

1088
01:10:20.120 --> 01:10:21.200
How do you act?

1089
01:10:21.200 --> 01:10:26.120
So you've made a choice, you're going to declare it, but do you go with your spirit or do you

1090
01:10:26.120 --> 01:10:27.120
go with your soul?

1091
01:10:27.120 --> 01:10:30.840
If you don't have enough faith to go with your spirit, so you go with your soul.

1092
01:10:30.840 --> 01:10:33.480
So where does your soul get peace?

1093
01:10:33.480 --> 01:10:35.200
Which fan should you buy?

1094
01:10:35.200 --> 01:10:41.360
If you were too scared, if your spirit feels the freedom, but your soul just, just can't,

1095
01:10:41.360 --> 01:10:43.880
just can't do it by the cheaper fan.

1096
01:10:43.880 --> 01:10:45.640
But here's the cool thing.

1097
01:10:45.640 --> 01:10:49.840
When you buy the cheaper fan, you're still not doing what you used to do.

1098
01:10:49.840 --> 01:10:53.000
Remember you're going, you're, you're making at least one step closer.

1099
01:10:53.000 --> 01:10:54.400
You're, you're making progress.

1100
01:10:54.680 --> 01:10:59.120
So you've declared that God is as good as he says that he is.

1101
01:10:59.120 --> 01:11:03.240
And you're receiving that in the fan, he in the, in the fan, you're picking, you're not

1102
01:11:03.240 --> 01:11:06.560
picking the fan because you don't believe God.

1103
01:11:06.560 --> 01:11:13.800
You choose to pick the fan because God's that good God, you are so good that you've created

1104
01:11:13.800 --> 01:11:19.360
this fan and you've given me the opportunity and the money to be able to buy it, to take

1105
01:11:19.360 --> 01:11:21.960
care of the fact that I'm hot.

1106
01:11:21.960 --> 01:11:26.840
And you know, my, my central air went out and I needed, I needed some way to keep the

1107
01:11:26.840 --> 01:11:32.080
air going and you're providing me with enough money to purchase one.

1108
01:11:32.080 --> 01:11:35.360
So you receive what your soul chooses.

1109
01:11:35.360 --> 01:11:41.280
You receive it declaring that that is the manifestation of who God says that he was.

1110
01:11:41.280 --> 01:11:44.040
Does that make sense?

1111
01:11:44.040 --> 01:11:45.280
Yeah.

1112
01:11:45.280 --> 01:11:50.440
Huge difference in what we've in, in both of those in choosing and going where your

1113
01:11:50.440 --> 01:11:55.400
spirit finds peace or declaring and going where your soul finds peace, huge difference

1114
01:11:55.400 --> 01:11:58.820
in either one of those from what we've been doing, which is.

1115
01:11:58.820 --> 01:11:59.900
I don't believe God.

1116
01:11:59.900 --> 01:12:03.440
And so I'm going to go save myself in both of these.

1117
01:12:03.440 --> 01:12:08.480
We're still declaring that God is who he says that he is and that he's manifesting it in

1118
01:12:08.480 --> 01:12:10.320
the gift that we receive from him.

1119
01:12:10.320 --> 01:12:14.280
So think about, for instance, the story of the prodigal son, how the prodigal son asked

1120
01:12:14.280 --> 01:12:16.120
the father for the inheritance.

1121
01:12:16.120 --> 01:12:20.520
The father gave it to him and we call that enabling.

1122
01:12:20.520 --> 01:12:23.440
I mean, we saw what the prodigal son did with that.

1123
01:12:23.440 --> 01:12:28.760
The father didn't have to give him the inheritance, but he's thought, I want my son to be able

1124
01:12:28.760 --> 01:12:32.800
to provide for, protect and comfort himself.

1125
01:12:32.800 --> 01:12:37.060
So I'm going to enable him to do that.

1126
01:12:37.060 --> 01:12:42.040
So that's what God does when he gives us money or jobs or whatever that we're doing all by

1127
01:12:42.200 --> 01:12:47.040
The sweat of our brow is he saying, okay, if they want to provide for themselves, instead

1128
01:12:47.040 --> 01:12:51.920
of letting me provide for them, like for me, provide for them by finding them a job and

1129
01:12:51.920 --> 01:12:57.520
me provide for them by, if they want to try to do it all themselves, that's fine.

1130
01:12:57.520 --> 01:13:04.260
I am going to create a system and a means by which they can do that.

1131
01:13:04.260 --> 01:13:09.840
So again, we call that enabling, but for him, he calls it love because again, the kindness

1132
01:13:09.840 --> 01:13:12.080
of God leads to repentance.

1133
01:13:12.080 --> 01:13:16.760
So what we're doing is we're helping ourselves on that faith because we're like in every

1134
01:13:16.760 --> 01:13:22.320
step that we take, we're like, God is this good that he would provide me with the opportunity

1135
01:13:22.320 --> 01:13:26.840
to work and sweat to get this for myself.

1136
01:13:26.840 --> 01:13:28.340
So it's still a step.

1137
01:13:28.340 --> 01:13:31.640
It's still a step closer towards believing God, because we're saying, God, you're this

1138
01:13:31.640 --> 01:13:32.640
good.

1139
01:13:32.640 --> 01:13:36.200
I can't believe you're this good yet, but I do believe you're this good, which is better

1140
01:13:36.200 --> 01:13:37.640
than what we were believing.

1141
01:13:37.640 --> 01:13:39.120
So that's how we make progress.

1142
01:13:39.400 --> 01:13:43.440
So that's what the number five was declaring and go where your soul finds peace.

1143
01:13:43.440 --> 01:13:44.440
That makes sense.

1144
01:13:44.440 --> 01:13:45.440
Yeah.

1145
01:13:45.440 --> 01:13:51.040
And then just to clarify real quick, number one was the no shame, no condemnation, right?

1146
01:13:51.040 --> 01:13:52.040
Yeah.

1147
01:13:52.040 --> 01:13:55.120
Number two, is that choosing union and identity?

1148
01:13:55.120 --> 01:13:59.040
No, that's stop, you know, telling your soul and your body to stop.

1149
01:13:59.040 --> 01:14:00.040
That's what I had.

1150
01:14:00.040 --> 01:14:02.040
And number three is no judgment.

1151
01:14:02.040 --> 01:14:03.040
Correct.

1152
01:14:03.040 --> 01:14:08.920
And then number four is, is choose and go and act where your spirit finds peace.

1153
01:14:08.920 --> 01:14:09.920
Okay.

1154
01:14:09.920 --> 01:14:14.560
And then five was declare and act on what your soul finds peace.

1155
01:14:14.560 --> 01:14:15.560
Okay.

1156
01:14:15.560 --> 01:14:16.560
Okay.

1157
01:14:16.560 --> 01:14:17.560
Okay.

1158
01:14:17.560 --> 01:14:23.320
And then number six was the talking to spirit, soul and body, which isn't another one.

1159
01:14:23.320 --> 01:14:29.280
I think I ended up splitting that up at the conference because because it was a much larger

1160
01:14:29.280 --> 01:14:33.240
subject that I kind of wanted to spend like an entire session, just unpacking that one.

1161
01:14:33.240 --> 01:14:39.680
So that's why it's kind of on a separate little deal, but yeah, even the five or, you know,

1162
01:14:39.680 --> 01:14:40.960
be able to take care of things.

1163
01:14:40.960 --> 01:14:43.040
So at least they do for me.

1164
01:14:43.040 --> 01:14:44.040
Okay.

1165
01:14:44.040 --> 01:14:45.040
Okay.

1166
01:14:45.040 --> 01:14:46.040
Thank you.

1167
01:14:46.040 --> 01:14:47.040
You're welcome.

1168
01:14:47.040 --> 01:14:50.320
Well, it was good to see everybody tonight.

1169
01:14:50.320 --> 01:14:54.560
And I guess the next time I see you, I'm going to be in Florida, I guess.

1170
01:14:54.560 --> 01:14:55.840
Are you really?

1171
01:14:55.840 --> 01:14:56.840
Yes.

1172
01:14:56.840 --> 01:14:57.840
I'm going to be in Florida.

1173
01:14:57.840 --> 01:14:58.840
The current plan is to go tomorrow.

1174
01:14:58.840 --> 01:14:59.840
And then I.

1175
01:14:59.840 --> 01:15:00.840
Okay.

1176
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:05.940
I started an inner healing training Thursday, and I have to hurry and make it out at the

1177
01:15:00.840 --> 01:15:00.840


1178
01:15:05.940 --> 01:15:11.500
end of the, at the end of the night so I can get back for our nine o'clock meeting on Thursday.

1179
01:15:11.500 --> 01:15:12.500
So awesome.

1180
01:15:12.500 --> 01:15:13.500
Yes.

1181
01:15:13.500 --> 01:15:14.500
Yes.

1182
01:15:14.500 --> 01:15:15.500
Yes.

1183
01:15:15.500 --> 01:15:23.180
I'm looking forward to it and hopefully we'll feel more, even more equipped and so, okay,

1184
01:15:23.180 --> 01:15:24.980
well, I will let y'all go.

1185
01:15:24.980 --> 01:15:33.040
I hope that y'all have a good evening and let's see, just check to do a couple of journey

1186
01:15:33.040 --> 01:15:34.040
shares this week.

1187
01:15:34.040 --> 01:15:36.920
Y'all do get to choose which days that you do them.

1188
01:15:36.920 --> 01:15:43.420
You don't have to do them on Tuesdays and, and what is it Mondays and Wednesdays, but

1189
01:15:43.420 --> 01:15:46.580
in fact, it'd probably be better if you like, kind of like spread it out.

1190
01:15:46.580 --> 01:15:51.100
But I thought, well, if I, if I at least, you know, fill in a Monday and a Wednesday,

1191
01:15:51.100 --> 01:15:55.720
they have something that they remember, you know, without even having to look at the platform,

1192
01:15:55.720 --> 01:15:59.040
they have something every day from Sunday to Thursday, and they have nothing Friday

1193
01:15:59.040 --> 01:16:00.520
and Saturday.

1194
01:16:00.520 --> 01:16:01.760
That's how my mind works.

1195
01:16:01.760 --> 01:16:06.840
Y'all can do whatever you want, but anyway, go ahead.

1196
01:16:06.840 --> 01:16:09.320
So that's just to put something in there.

1197
01:16:09.320 --> 01:16:10.320
Yeah.

1198
01:16:10.320 --> 01:16:11.840
To put it on the discussion board.

1199
01:16:11.840 --> 01:16:15.280
It's as if you were posting it on Facebook, but it's on the platform.

1200
01:16:15.280 --> 01:16:20.080
It's not on the Facebook group and just scroll through and all of those previous posts are

1201
01:16:20.080 --> 01:16:21.720
all journey shares.

1202
01:16:21.720 --> 01:16:24.060
So just kind of see how other people are doing them.

1203
01:16:24.060 --> 01:16:29.380
Some people post videos, some people post three sentences, you know, some people write

1204
01:16:29.380 --> 01:16:35.260
huge, several, a huge thing with several paragraphs, just depends on whatever you want to do.

1205
01:16:35.260 --> 01:16:41.140
But the whole point you'll read in there about the point of a journey share what's, you know,

1206
01:16:41.140 --> 01:16:45.820
what to include, what to not include, basically like don't complain, but be honest, you know,

1207
01:16:45.820 --> 01:16:46.820
that kind of a thing.

1208
01:16:47.080 --> 01:16:51.520
So anyway, so if you click on one of the things that it says, like journey share, like say

1209
01:16:51.520 --> 01:16:56.240
February 1st journey share or something like that, if you click on it, what'll appear is

1210
01:16:56.240 --> 01:17:00.560
an explanation of some things to keep in mind in doing a journey share.

1211
01:17:00.560 --> 01:17:04.360
Then you go back to the discussion tab, which is where you, if you scroll through, you can

1212
01:17:04.360 --> 01:17:09.160
see all those other posts people have made like a, like a Facebook newsfeed, and then

1213
01:17:09.160 --> 01:17:11.800
you just make a post in there.

1214
01:17:11.800 --> 01:17:12.800
So yeah.

1215
01:17:12.800 --> 01:17:13.800
Okay.

1216
01:17:13.800 --> 01:17:14.800
Okay.

1217
01:17:14.800 --> 01:17:18.980
One quick thing, Tammy, Rita, you're snowed in, in Texas.

1218
01:17:18.980 --> 01:17:21.360
I got to ask you that.

1219
01:17:21.360 --> 01:17:26.320
How much snow did you get?

1220
01:17:26.320 --> 01:17:28.960
Just to warn y'all, you're talking to someone in Missouri.

1221
01:17:28.960 --> 01:17:34.800
He really knows what snow is, understand we Texans, we get any, if it's in the air, we're

1222
01:17:34.800 --> 01:17:35.800
like snow day.

1223
01:17:35.800 --> 01:17:36.800
Shut it down.

1224
01:17:36.800 --> 01:17:37.800
I like it.

1225
01:17:37.800 --> 01:17:38.800
Yeah.

1226
01:17:38.800 --> 01:17:39.800
So how much did you get?

1227
01:17:39.800 --> 01:17:43.280
I want to know.

1228
01:17:43.280 --> 01:17:44.960
They called it thundersleet.

1229
01:17:44.960 --> 01:17:47.160
So it's just like a sheet of ice.

1230
01:17:47.160 --> 01:17:48.160
Yeah.

1231
01:17:48.160 --> 01:17:49.160
Okay.

1232
01:17:49.160 --> 01:17:50.160
Okay.

1233
01:17:50.160 --> 01:17:53.520
More ice than snow, I think.

1234
01:17:53.520 --> 01:17:57.240
We're not good at, Texans don't know how to drive in snow and ice.

1235
01:17:57.240 --> 01:17:59.520
So it's like a whole thing.

1236
01:17:59.520 --> 01:18:03.200
And we're having flashbacks from two years ago, which we call snowmageddon, where it

1237
01:18:03.200 --> 01:18:08.880
really was shut down, like my house flooded, it was a hot mess because the pipes broke

1238
01:18:08.880 --> 01:18:10.200
and you know.

1239
01:18:10.200 --> 01:18:15.480
I remember that we had a little snow, a little south of here too, perhaps a quarter of the

1240
01:18:15.480 --> 01:18:22.760
state or so had ice yesterday, but yeah, so it must've been something that went through.

1241
01:18:22.760 --> 01:18:23.760
Okay.

1242
01:18:23.760 --> 01:18:24.760
I just wondered.

1243
01:18:24.760 --> 01:18:25.760
Okay.

1244
01:18:25.760 --> 01:18:26.760
Yeah.

1245
01:18:26.760 --> 01:18:27.760
It's a storm called Mara.

1246
01:18:27.760 --> 01:18:29.880
What's it called?

1247
01:18:29.880 --> 01:18:31.320
What's the storm called?

1248
01:18:31.320 --> 01:18:32.320
It's a storm.

1249
01:18:32.320 --> 01:18:33.320
Like it's got a name.

1250
01:18:33.320 --> 01:18:34.320
Oh, wow.

1251
01:18:34.320 --> 01:18:35.320
Yeah.

1252
01:18:35.320 --> 01:18:40.160
It's blowing across, it's this big ice storm that's just blowing across, I don't know.

1253
01:18:41.120 --> 01:18:47.080
Texas and Arkansas and I don't know, just going, but yeah, it's a, I don't remember.

1254
01:18:47.080 --> 01:18:54.400
I think my mom said at nine, at nine 30 this morning or eight, eight 30 this morning, it

1255
01:18:54.400 --> 01:19:00.080
was a half a sheet, a half an inch of ice on the road and it was thundering, like we

1256
01:19:00.080 --> 01:19:06.840
just said, and it was, it was raining ice where it was snowing in Texas, yeah.

1257
01:19:06.840 --> 01:19:10.240
In Dallas where they are and where my family is, yeah.

1258
01:19:10.240 --> 01:19:11.240
That's wow.

1259
01:19:11.240 --> 01:19:12.240
That is a lot.

1260
01:19:12.240 --> 01:19:13.240
That's yeah.

1261
01:19:13.240 --> 01:19:20.440
Well, I'm partnering with, I'm partnering with the weather to be warmer in mid Missouri.

1262
01:19:20.440 --> 01:19:21.440
Yeah.

1263
01:19:21.440 --> 01:19:22.440
There you go.

1264
01:19:22.440 --> 01:19:23.440
Yeah.

1265
01:19:23.440 --> 01:19:26.520
And we've had a pretty good, we've had a pretty good winter really.

1266
01:19:26.520 --> 01:19:27.520
Yeah.

1267
01:19:27.520 --> 01:19:28.520
Yeah.

1268
01:19:28.520 --> 01:19:29.520
So, so yeah.

1269
01:19:29.520 --> 01:19:30.520
And yeah.

1270
01:19:30.520 --> 01:19:31.520
And I hope, yeah.

1271
01:19:31.520 --> 01:19:33.680
I hope nobody was hurt or anything.

1272
01:19:33.680 --> 01:19:36.120
I just, that's the only, yeah.

1273
01:19:36.400 --> 01:19:41.200
Now people are stuck on like major highways between here in Louisiana and Arkansas.

1274
01:19:41.200 --> 01:19:45.600
I mean, like just hacked and just sitting on the road in the middle of nowhere is just

1275
01:19:45.600 --> 01:19:46.600
wish.

1276
01:19:46.600 --> 01:19:47.600
Oh my gosh.

1277
01:19:47.600 --> 01:19:48.600
I know.

1278
01:19:48.600 --> 01:19:49.600
I know.

1279
01:19:49.600 --> 01:19:50.600
Mercy, mercy, mercy.

1280
01:19:50.600 --> 01:19:51.600
Okay.

1281
01:19:51.600 --> 01:19:52.600
All right.

1282
01:19:52.600 --> 01:19:58.600
Well, y'all have a good night and I will see y'all Thursday.

1283
01:19:58.600 --> 01:19:59.600
Okay.

1284
01:19:59.600 --> 01:20:00.600
Bye.

1285
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:01.960
If y'all have any questions, by the way,

1286
01:20:00.600 --> 01:20:00.600


1287
01:20:01.960 --> 01:20:04.480
y'all make sure to keep note of them.

1288
01:20:04.480 --> 01:20:06.960
And I'm trying to think of like where you could post them.

1289
01:20:06.960 --> 01:20:09.480
I meant to have a place for you to post like questions

1290
01:20:09.480 --> 01:20:10.680
as you think of them,

1291
01:20:10.680 --> 01:20:13.200
because I don't answer questions in between times,

1292
01:20:13.200 --> 01:20:14.800
but I do, but you'll have them

1293
01:20:14.800 --> 01:20:16.440
while you're thinking of them.

1294
01:20:16.440 --> 01:20:20.320
And then you can ask them in the Fireside Chats.

1295
01:20:20.320 --> 01:20:22.400
So anyway, just FYI.

1296
01:20:22.400 --> 01:20:26.160
Okay, and blessings on your travel.

1297
01:20:26.160 --> 01:20:29.280
Thank you, I appreciate it.

1298
01:20:29.640 --> 01:20:30.760
Bye guys.

1299
01:20:30.760 --> 01:20:31.600
Bye guys.

1300
01:20:31.600 --> 01:20:32.440
Bye.

1301
01:20:32.440 --> 01:20:33.280
Good to see you.

1302
01:20:33.280 --> 01:20:34.120
Bye bye.

1303
01:20:34.120 --> 01:20:34.960
You too.