WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:10.880 Okay, all right, so first of all, does anyone have any questions? 2 00:00:10.880 --> 00:00:15.160 If you don't have anything at this moment, I've got some questions that have come in 3 00:00:15.160 --> 00:00:17.080 and I can start with those. 4 00:00:17.080 --> 00:00:20.600 Does anyone have anything off the top of their head that they know of? 5 00:00:20.600 --> 00:00:23.240 They're pretty good. 6 00:00:23.240 --> 00:00:29.800 Okay, all right, so I'll start with these other questions then. 7 00:00:29.800 --> 00:00:35.760 And in the meantime, I'm just going to mute everyone because it helps on the recording 8 00:00:35.760 --> 00:00:41.920 for it to not feedback on the recording. 9 00:00:41.920 --> 00:00:45.840 Otherwise I don't care if anyone's muted or not, but I noticed two years ago when I started 10 00:00:45.840 --> 00:00:51.320 doing the rest intensive that the recording sounded really bad and I thought, why? 11 00:00:51.320 --> 00:00:55.920 And then I realized it's because people have me on their speaker and I have them on my 12 00:00:55.920 --> 00:01:01.560 speaker that the computer or zoom doesn't know who's the active speaker. 13 00:01:01.560 --> 00:01:05.000 And so it'll kind of like muffle the recording and then it's hard to hear people later when 14 00:01:05.000 --> 00:01:06.360 you rewatch it. 15 00:01:06.360 --> 00:01:11.960 Okay, so, um, let's see, here is the first question. 16 00:01:11.960 --> 00:01:13.520 Oops. 17 00:01:13.520 --> 00:01:18.480 Okay, uh, all right. 18 00:01:18.480 --> 00:01:19.720 So this is an interesting one. 19 00:01:19.720 --> 00:01:25.600 I've never gotten this before, and then I've gotten it twice in one week or at twice within 20 00:01:26.280 --> 00:01:32.000 like, I don't know, like 48 hours of each other once from someone I don't know on Facebook 21 00:01:32.000 --> 00:01:36.280 and then, um, that just, I don't know, follows me and then asked me this question. 22 00:01:36.280 --> 00:01:41.640 And then once from, um, a member of the rest intensive, they asked, I think I've, uh, let's 23 00:01:41.640 --> 00:01:49.880 see here, um, wondering, uh, saying that the, that the teaching, um, some of the stuff they're 24 00:01:49.880 --> 00:01:53.880 hearing in the teaching sounds Gnostic to them. 25 00:01:53.880 --> 00:01:58.200 And so they were, so they were wanting to, some clarification, they said it probably 26 00:01:58.200 --> 00:02:03.920 is, uh, let's see, I think it's because in other words, I think it sounds like this sounds 27 00:02:03.920 --> 00:02:08.199 like Gnosticism because it's so focused on the spirit and that the spiritual is seemingly 28 00:02:08.199 --> 00:02:14.600 quote better than the soul and body, for instance, the teaching about 30, 60 and a hundred fold. 29 00:02:14.600 --> 00:02:19.080 And what I've learned is a holistic view that the spiritual stuff is not more important 30 00:02:19.080 --> 00:02:20.080 than the body. 31 00:02:20.080 --> 00:02:23.720 And to not believe the Gnostic thought that makes the spiritual better and holier than 32 00:02:24.560 --> 00:02:26.560 the physical material and earthly needs. 33 00:02:26.560 --> 00:02:32.640 So, uh, Gnosticism, it can be a bit confusing because sometimes. 34 00:02:32.640 --> 00:02:35.640 It can be a, um, I don't know. 35 00:02:35.640 --> 00:02:40.160 It depends on who you talk to is what they think that it means, what it means to them. 36 00:02:40.160 --> 00:02:42.560 And not all Gnostics believe the same. 37 00:02:42.560 --> 00:02:49.680 Um, and, but the general, I like some Gnostics don't even believe that Jesus was the son 38 00:02:49.680 --> 00:02:55.880 of God and they don't believe in some Gnostics don't believe that he died on the cross. 39 00:02:55.880 --> 00:02:58.280 So I mean, but then other Gnostics do. 40 00:02:58.280 --> 00:03:03.760 And so anyway, it's, it's, it's a bit of a, it's a bit of a muddy, um, uh, what do you, 41 00:03:03.760 --> 00:03:04.760 what would you call it? 42 00:03:04.760 --> 00:03:10.240 A bit of a muddy word as far as like multiple people with multiple, very drastic and contrary 43 00:03:10.240 --> 00:03:12.880 beliefs will use this word. 44 00:03:12.880 --> 00:03:17.680 So anyway, from what it is that she's understood the word to mean, she says that this sounds 45 00:03:17.680 --> 00:03:18.680 like it. 46 00:03:18.680 --> 00:03:20.040 I don't know how to kind of explain. 47 00:03:20.040 --> 00:03:22.920 So this is absolutely not Gnosticism. 48 00:03:22.920 --> 00:03:27.920 So Gnosticism is actually the idea of kind of like a, what do they call it? 49 00:03:27.920 --> 00:03:32.800 Uh, uh, it's kind of like dualism or a dualistic divinity or something like that. 50 00:03:32.800 --> 00:03:38.400 In other words, multiple gods, or at least, or not multiple gods, sorry, where, um, where 51 00:03:38.400 --> 00:03:44.120 the, uh, the body and the spirit, from what I understand the body and the soul, and then 52 00:03:44.120 --> 00:03:51.120 the, and then the spirit are very, very separate and that the spirit is better and that creation 53 00:03:51.120 --> 00:03:54.400 and the body and soul are evil. 54 00:03:54.400 --> 00:03:58.100 And that the way that they were created, that the body and soul and the rest of their creation 55 00:03:58.100 --> 00:04:00.120 was created was by an error. 56 00:04:00.120 --> 00:04:07.640 Um, now, yes, I'm sure that some people who say who put, who, um, I'm sure that not everyone 57 00:04:07.640 --> 00:04:12.080 would define Gnosticism in that way, but if you look it up on like, say Britannica or 58 00:04:12.080 --> 00:04:20.360 some place that's, that's considered to be a very old, original, solid, uh, academic 59 00:04:20.360 --> 00:04:21.360 definition. 60 00:04:21.360 --> 00:04:24.320 In other words, it's been researched traditionally. 61 00:04:24.320 --> 00:04:28.960 This is what it's, what is, um, if they had to narrow down from their research, what it 62 00:04:28.960 --> 00:04:34.680 is that people believe that it means, this is what they say that it, that it is, whoop, 63 00:04:34.680 --> 00:04:36.960 something's going on downstairs underneath me. 64 00:04:36.960 --> 00:04:37.960 That's odd. 65 00:04:37.960 --> 00:04:43.760 Um, and, uh, anyway, it's that, uh, that, so that's not what we're talking about. 66 00:04:43.760 --> 00:04:49.360 We God created the soul and the body and created the rest of creation, obviously very much 67 00:04:49.360 --> 00:04:54.020 on purpose and the soul and the body are a good thing. 68 00:04:54.020 --> 00:04:57.960 God does not, they're not evil and God doesn't even mean to eradicate it. 69 00:04:57.960 --> 00:04:59.920 So a lot of times people think that. 70 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:10.000 You know, even if they're not Gnostics, you know, they're just, they're Christians, their Gnosticism was a heresy, by the way, that developed sometime, I think, in the second century. 71 00:05:10.000 --> 00:05:20.000 But, but the soul and the body and creation were created as good things. Remember that they were created before Adam ever fell. 72 00:05:20.000 --> 00:05:28.000 I mean, you know, that's how Adam was even around to be able to fall is because he actually existed as a soul and as the body as well as the spirit. 73 00:05:28.000 --> 00:05:34.000 And God intended for those things to always be good. They were created in his goodness and in his holiness. 74 00:05:34.000 --> 00:05:47.000 But then, obviously, when they fell, then they were now subject to corruption. They were subject to death, which is why God said that he didn't want them to eat from the tree of life, because if they ate from the tree of life in that state, 75 00:05:47.000 --> 00:05:56.000 then it meant that they would live eternally separated, because eating from the tree of life meant that they could have life eternal. 76 00:05:56.000 --> 00:06:02.000 And he was like, I don't want them to be able to have eternal life separated from me. 77 00:06:02.000 --> 00:06:22.000 Anyway, but what God wants to do when this was proven by Jesus's experience, in other words, by what Jesus did is Jesus overcame by actually overcoming the flesh, overcoming his soul and his body and aligning them back into agreement with what God says. 78 00:06:22.000 --> 00:06:45.000 So, in other words, the soul and the body had been trying to, you know, protect and provide for themselves. He required of them to come back and required of himself to come back into submission of the Lord and to come back into alignment with the spirit in order to believe what God says about himself and about them. 79 00:06:46.000 --> 00:07:01.000 And then by doing so, it transforms flesh from corrupted into eternal, because it transfers it from flesh that's subjected to death to actually being able to be transformed into spirit. 80 00:07:01.000 --> 00:07:18.000 And that's why when Jesus rose from the dead, he was still the same body that he died in, but now he had eternal life. And also I mean like his body did his body was eternal and his body wasn't wasn't subject like his literal fleshly body was not no longer subject to corruption. 81 00:07:18.000 --> 00:07:33.000 He could walk through walls, but he could also eat and he can walk if he chose to, he could use the door if he chose to, he could chose to operate according to the laws of physics, or choose to, to, you know, completely disregard them. 82 00:07:33.000 --> 00:07:44.000 So, anyway, the it's so as far as like the spirit being better in a manner of speaking, very generally, it is. 83 00:07:44.000 --> 00:07:52.000 There's nothing wrong with spirit soul or body. When God created it. Hey Rita. 84 00:07:53.000 --> 00:08:00.000 body as God created it, but the soul and body became corrupted to, to death. 85 00:08:00.000 --> 00:08:10.000 And then it became it says that our spirits died. In other words, there was like this, there's the separation that Jesus had to restore by his death. 86 00:08:10.000 --> 00:08:27.000 And so in that aspect, you know the spirit is better and the fact that it's, it's in agreement with the Lord, but it's not like, it's not that the spirit is good, and the soul and the body are bad. 87 00:08:28.000 --> 00:08:45.000 God only creates good things but the soul and the body currently are bearing the consequences of the wages of sin. In other words, death. And so what we're doing is we are following Jesus's example by overcoming the flesh, which means that simply we are choosing 88 00:08:45.000 --> 00:09:01.000 to no longer not believe God in our soul and our body we're choosing to believe God and come into alignment, and then it will simply transform our soul and our body, it won't eradicate them, and it won't obliterate them and then it'll be completely replaced 89 00:09:02.000 --> 00:09:04.000 that's like totally different. 90 00:09:04.000 --> 00:09:21.000 I mean God does use words like, oh, it'll be replaced and it'll be changed and stuff like that but it uses the same. It uses the same. It talks about the earth doing the same thing that the earth will change but how does it word it, it'll change as if it's like 91 00:09:21.000 --> 00:09:35.000 changing a garment. Remember, and so and we saw that by Jesus, by Jesus's example, that when the soul and the body change. In other words, when it goes through that transfiguration process. 92 00:09:36.000 --> 00:09:48.000 It's simply changing from flesh to spirit. It's not being obliterated. And then, I don't know replaced so that you now look like a totally different person. 93 00:09:48.000 --> 00:10:00.000 You know Jesus still looked the way that he did before, but there were certain elements about him that looked different and the fact that it was whatever aspect of him that was subject to corruption. 94 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:02.360 Transfigured into spirit. 95 00:10:03.160 --> 00:10:06.600 And then, and so in that aspect, it looked, I don't know, it looked 96 00:10:06.600 --> 00:10:09.060 different, kind of like, think of like, well, somebody who's been in the 97 00:10:09.060 --> 00:10:12.680 presence of the Lord or something like that, there's, there's an aspect of 98 00:10:12.680 --> 00:10:16.960 being different, but at the same time, we know that it was the same body he died 99 00:10:16.960 --> 00:10:22.080 in because he's, he pointed to his body and said, Hey, look, here are the wounds. 100 00:10:22.280 --> 00:10:27.400 It, he used his body to prove that it was him and not someone else. 101 00:10:28.000 --> 00:10:31.580 Because they knew that Jesus would have those things. 102 00:10:31.580 --> 00:10:35.520 And he said, I'm not a ghost look in order to prove to you. 103 00:10:35.520 --> 00:10:37.320 I'm not, I will eat. 104 00:10:37.420 --> 00:10:41.380 In other words, I will prove that this is a real body and that this is me. 105 00:10:41.380 --> 00:10:43.760 And look at the wounds in my hands and the wounds in my side. 106 00:10:43.760 --> 00:10:47.200 So we know that Jesus, who's always our example, who always goes first and 107 00:10:47.200 --> 00:10:50.900 therefore we're supposed to follow whatever he does, he was showing us, Hey, 108 00:10:50.900 --> 00:10:55.960 look, it's going to transfigure and transform your soul and your body, but 109 00:10:55.960 --> 00:10:59.680 you're not going to obliterate him as if they're evil, and then you're 110 00:10:59.680 --> 00:11:00.880 just going to get something else. 111 00:11:01.760 --> 00:11:02.720 It's just going to be transformed. 112 00:11:02.720 --> 00:11:09.560 So anyway hopefully that's hopefully that's helped clear, clarify some of that. 113 00:11:10.000 --> 00:11:12.800 And, and, oh yeah. 114 00:11:12.800 --> 00:11:15.440 And then also, you know, talking about like the spirit is the spiritual 115 00:11:15.440 --> 00:11:18.320 better and holier than the physical maternal and earthly needs. 116 00:11:18.900 --> 00:11:24.280 It's, I don't know, it's different, it's spiritual and things. 117 00:11:24.320 --> 00:11:27.480 And while there's nothing wrong, and it's very important to understand there's 118 00:11:27.480 --> 00:11:33.040 nothing wrong with the physical, the PR and I don't, from, from what we can 119 00:11:33.040 --> 00:11:37.880 understand from scripture, remember that the new millennium is going to exist on 120 00:11:37.880 --> 00:11:39.800 earth, we're still going to be here. 121 00:11:39.800 --> 00:11:40.880 It's not bad. 122 00:11:41.160 --> 00:11:43.320 Jesus came and he's going to come again. 123 00:11:43.620 --> 00:11:49.220 So there's nothing wrong with this earth, except the fact that it, because of Adam 124 00:11:49.220 --> 00:11:51.880 sin, it's now subject to corruption. 125 00:11:51.880 --> 00:11:53.780 And that's what has to be overcome. 126 00:11:53.780 --> 00:11:59.500 Let's have, let's transform it so that it no longer is subject to death and that it 127 00:11:59.500 --> 00:12:02.620 has, that it has eternal life, that it's more in alignment with the Lord, et cetera. 128 00:12:03.060 --> 00:12:08.780 So in that aspect, there's a, the spiritual is better, but it's only because 129 00:12:08.780 --> 00:12:14.680 it's currently that the earth and the physical is currently being, it is 130 00:12:14.680 --> 00:12:17.320 currently being subjected to frustration. 131 00:12:17.320 --> 00:12:18.700 It's being weighed down. 132 00:12:18.700 --> 00:12:19.700 It's being oppressed. 133 00:12:20.060 --> 00:12:25.260 But when it's in its free state, it's perfectly fine. 134 00:12:25.780 --> 00:12:33.200 So, um, anyway, uh, and the only thing that can transform and transfigure 135 00:12:33.200 --> 00:12:37.460 creation, including our soul or our body, you know, the rest of the earth is the 136 00:12:37.460 --> 00:12:41.100 only thing is, um, the spirit and presence of God. 137 00:12:41.740 --> 00:12:45.560 So in that aspect, if you think of like, like they're asking, you know, well, 138 00:12:45.560 --> 00:12:46.860 you're saying the spirit is better. 139 00:12:46.860 --> 00:12:48.300 Well, in a manner of speaking, it is. 140 00:12:48.620 --> 00:12:53.100 And the fact that it's this it's in the spirit where all of the power is and it 141 00:12:53.100 --> 00:12:58.500 comes in and it transforms the physical, the physical does not have the power to 142 00:12:58.500 --> 00:13:02.260 transform or give life to the spirit. 143 00:13:02.500 --> 00:13:03.980 It's this direction. 144 00:13:04.860 --> 00:13:11.960 So, um, but again, it's, there's nothing wrong with the physical is just 145 00:13:11.960 --> 00:13:13.420 currently subjected to frustration. 146 00:13:13.500 --> 00:13:19.300 So, uh, the next question is, um, that, uh, let's see here. 147 00:13:19.860 --> 00:13:20.460 Um, okay. 148 00:13:20.940 --> 00:13:26.180 Uh, she said that I said, union is more important than God's issues with your sin. 149 00:13:26.500 --> 00:13:26.700 Okay. 150 00:13:26.700 --> 00:13:32.420 So remember what, why I said it like that, the sin is very important to God, but 151 00:13:32.420 --> 00:13:35.440 here's why it's because sin creates separation. 152 00:13:35.940 --> 00:13:36.780 That's the point. 153 00:13:36.900 --> 00:13:39.620 It's not that sin by itself is an issue. 154 00:13:39.620 --> 00:13:40.360 God said, no, no, no. 155 00:13:40.360 --> 00:13:46.200 The point, the reason that sin exists, the whole thing that causes it to be an 156 00:13:46.200 --> 00:13:50.080 existence and be a problem is the fact that it creates separation. 157 00:13:50.080 --> 00:13:54.720 And that's the thing that's important to the Lord is just like, okay, since sin 158 00:13:54.720 --> 00:13:56.600 creates separation, sin is an issue. 159 00:13:57.320 --> 00:14:00.600 If sin didn't cause separation, it wouldn't be sin. 160 00:14:01.080 --> 00:14:04.120 It wouldn't exist as a thing, you know? 161 00:14:04.400 --> 00:14:08.360 So anyway, that's with the whole point that I was trying to make is it's not 162 00:14:08.360 --> 00:14:12.480 this whole thing of like, God just wants us to be good because he's got a standard. 163 00:14:12.480 --> 00:14:15.520 He's got a list of rules that he just kind of came up with out of his head. 164 00:14:15.520 --> 00:14:17.680 And he decided that he's going to force them on us. 165 00:14:17.960 --> 00:14:20.880 And then anything that we don't do, he's going to call it sin. 166 00:14:21.040 --> 00:14:21.440 Why? 167 00:14:21.440 --> 00:14:22.320 Just for the heck of it. 168 00:14:22.720 --> 00:14:24.920 He's got all these lists of dues and all these lists of don'ts. 169 00:14:24.920 --> 00:14:27.480 And when we do the don'ts, he's going to call that sin. 170 00:14:27.480 --> 00:14:28.000 You know why? 171 00:14:28.000 --> 00:14:30.720 Because he was bored and it stopped the case. 172 00:14:31.000 --> 00:14:34.080 He said, sin is an issue because sin creates separation. 173 00:14:34.760 --> 00:14:36.320 And he said, I don't want the separation. 174 00:14:36.320 --> 00:14:38.000 So therefore don't do this. 175 00:14:38.000 --> 00:14:40.160 That's why this is even a thing. 176 00:14:40.160 --> 00:14:42.640 So basically think of the definition of sin. 177 00:14:42.960 --> 00:14:46.800 The very essence of sin itself is something that creates separation from the Lord. 178 00:14:47.440 --> 00:14:52.000 That sin does not exist except for the fact that it creates separation. 179 00:14:52.000 --> 00:14:55.080 If it didn't create separation, sin wouldn't even exist as a thing. 180 00:14:55.800 --> 00:15:00.000 So anyway, so it says I can't. 181 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:12.000 Okay, so she said, I had totally had a revelation of what union with God is, and I totally believe that. I just can't seem to fully understand it, though, since so much in the New Testament is about repenting. 182 00:15:12.000 --> 00:15:25.000 And what Peter says to the people that gather after the resurrection is, repent. They don't even use the word union. Peter doesn't talk about union and separation, but for everyone to repent. Does this mean that for the first step? 183 00:15:25.000 --> 00:15:44.000 Does this mean that this is the first step to repent and then to come into the kingdom of God in union with Christ? Okay, so what we're doing, remember, with repent is repent is not making a payment for sin. 184 00:15:44.000 --> 00:15:50.000 And then we can have union with God. That's not what repentance is, because remember, it says that God repents. 185 00:15:50.000 --> 00:16:03.000 It says that twice in the Bible that God repented. God doesn't sin, so God can't be making payment for some sin that he's done. Repent simply means I was facing this direction, and now I'm facing this direction. 186 00:16:03.000 --> 00:16:12.000 I was doing this, and now I'm doing this. That's all that repent means. Repent means a turning away. Repent doesn't even mean turning away from sin. 187 00:16:12.000 --> 00:16:28.000 Repent means to simply turn away. And that's why it says that God repented. You know, when Moses talked to him, and then also when Jonah, when the city of Nineveh repented, it says that God repented. 188 00:16:29.000 --> 00:16:42.000 In other words, what it is that he was going to do, he decided, I'm not going to do that anymore. I'm not going to condemn you. I'm not going to punish you because you've repented. So I, too, am going to repent of what I was going to do. I was going to do this, and now I'm going to do this. 189 00:16:42.000 --> 00:16:52.000 So that's all it is. It's a turning. So when God is talking about us repenting, he's like, you're facing this direction. You're doing this. You're approaching it this way. 190 00:16:52.000 --> 00:17:01.000 You're in unbelief against me, because remember, that's what sin is. Sin is not doing something. Sin is unbelief. And then we do things because we don't believe. 191 00:17:01.000 --> 00:17:13.000 And that's what Jesus had to explain to the Pharisees, because the Pharisees thought it's all about what I do. And Jesus says, no, because even if you have anger in your heart, you've already murdered him. 192 00:17:14.000 --> 00:17:29.000 So he was saying, no, the sin is in the heart. The sin is what the action stems from. The sin is not the action itself. So anyway, so we're in unbelief, and God says, in order to be with me, in order to have union with me, just turn the other way. 193 00:17:29.000 --> 00:17:55.000 In other words, instead of choosing unbelief, choose belief. Instead of choosing separation, choose union. And that's it. But somehow we've made it. We've focused so much, and it's been focused on us so much, about like this thing of like all of these do's and don'ts that we have to remember and memorize, and all the bad things we need to be aware of to avoid, and all of the good things that we need to be looking for, making sure we don't miss. 194 00:17:56.000 --> 00:18:20.000 And that's really not the focus. Those things will naturally happen if we choose, instead of unbelief, we choose belief. Instead of separation from God and fear of God, we choose union, and we choose belief, and we choose faith, and we choose that God is safe. 195 00:18:20.000 --> 00:18:35.000 So that's what the repentance is. So the repentance is turning from separation to union. That's what repentance is. It's turning from unbelief to belief. 196 00:18:35.000 --> 00:18:53.000 And if you want to word it like this for ourselves, you know, as we're like, dare stepping our way through it, from sin into obedience, you know. But unfortunately, those words kind of conjure up all kinds of ideas in our mind of master and servant relationship. 197 00:18:53.000 --> 00:19:02.000 God says, no, in those days, he says this in Hosea, he said, in those days, you will no longer call me my, you will call me my husband, you will no longer call me my master. 198 00:19:02.000 --> 00:19:23.000 He says it's our relationship with him under the new cabinet has changed from obedience to a natural tendency to act like him, because we are of him, we're connected with him, we have relationship with him, you know, as a father and as a son. 199 00:19:23.000 --> 00:19:29.000 Let's see the next one. Thank you. 200 00:19:30.000 --> 00:19:33.000 My father in law take care of me. 201 00:19:33.000 --> 00:19:34.000 Thank you. 202 00:19:34.000 --> 00:19:37.000 Um, right. 203 00:19:37.000 --> 00:19:40.000 Um, see what's the next one. 204 00:19:40.000 --> 00:19:50.000 Um, uh, okay, so the next one was love being the thing everything in God's character is subjected to. 205 00:19:50.000 --> 00:20:00.000 And one example is that the Bible talks a lot more about holiness than love the creatures crying out holy holy holy when they behold the side of the Lord so I can't find this meaning like that. 206 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:03.340 that everything in God's character is subject to love. 207 00:20:03.340 --> 00:20:04.840 I can't find this in the Bible. 208 00:20:04.840 --> 00:20:06.580 And I do believe like you're saying 209 00:20:06.580 --> 00:20:08.960 that things from God don't all have to be in the Bible 210 00:20:08.960 --> 00:20:11.760 but still I would think it wouldn't be contrary to it. 211 00:20:11.760 --> 00:20:12.960 Absolutely. 212 00:20:12.960 --> 00:20:13.800 Yeah. 213 00:20:13.800 --> 00:20:17.040 No, nothing that God would reveal to us 214 00:20:17.040 --> 00:20:21.360 that God would reveal to us 215 00:20:21.360 --> 00:20:23.560 to expand our understanding of him 216 00:20:23.560 --> 00:20:25.340 would be contrary to scripture 217 00:20:25.340 --> 00:20:28.440 because God does not contradict himself. 218 00:20:28.440 --> 00:20:32.160 So these things though, him being holy 219 00:20:32.160 --> 00:20:36.120 and that being literally the only thing in the Bible 220 00:20:36.120 --> 00:20:37.840 by the way, the only time in the Bible 221 00:20:37.840 --> 00:20:40.080 that there are three words used together, 222 00:20:40.080 --> 00:20:41.400 holy, holy, holy, 223 00:20:41.400 --> 00:20:42.520 is the only time in the Bible 224 00:20:42.520 --> 00:20:44.080 that three words are used together. 225 00:20:44.080 --> 00:20:47.880 There's other times like barely, barely, or whatever. 226 00:20:47.880 --> 00:20:49.400 But that's just two words. 227 00:20:49.400 --> 00:20:52.180 The only time that one word is repeated three times 228 00:20:52.180 --> 00:20:53.200 is the holy, holy, holy. 229 00:20:53.200 --> 00:20:55.700 So it shows its tremendous significance 230 00:20:55.700 --> 00:20:58.700 especially because three is an important number to the Lord. 231 00:20:59.980 --> 00:21:03.720 But so this is not contrary to, 232 00:21:03.720 --> 00:21:07.480 this is not saying that other aspects of God's character 233 00:21:07.480 --> 00:21:11.980 are not important or even of less importance. 234 00:21:13.180 --> 00:21:15.380 Think of it kind of like this. 235 00:21:15.380 --> 00:21:17.860 It's like trying to understand the Trinity. 236 00:21:17.860 --> 00:21:19.660 You know how they're three, but they're one, 237 00:21:19.660 --> 00:21:22.420 but they're three, but they're one, you know. 238 00:21:22.420 --> 00:21:23.620 Think of it kind of like this. 239 00:21:23.620 --> 00:21:26.540 The various aspects of God are, 240 00:21:26.540 --> 00:21:30.100 they are so perfectly connected 241 00:21:30.100 --> 00:21:32.580 and dependent on each other sort of. 242 00:21:32.580 --> 00:21:36.100 It's like it's just, they're perfectly, 243 00:21:36.100 --> 00:21:38.820 they're in perfect relationship with one another. 244 00:21:38.820 --> 00:21:42.300 So what I mean when I'm saying that love is the very thing, 245 00:21:42.300 --> 00:21:45.600 is the thing that everything in God's character 246 00:21:45.600 --> 00:21:47.540 is subject to, 247 00:21:47.540 --> 00:21:51.580 it means that every aspect of God's character 248 00:21:51.580 --> 00:21:56.580 is done because of and through his love, 249 00:21:57.740 --> 00:22:01.500 his wrath, his holiness, everything. 250 00:22:01.500 --> 00:22:05.300 Because it says God is love. 251 00:22:05.300 --> 00:22:10.220 So think of it, holy is an adjective, but love is a noun. 252 00:22:10.220 --> 00:22:12.860 God, it says God is love. 253 00:22:12.860 --> 00:22:17.680 So God is actually love itself. 254 00:22:18.520 --> 00:22:21.960 And every other aspect of his character 255 00:22:21.960 --> 00:22:26.960 is always because of and through the fact that he is love. 256 00:22:27.840 --> 00:22:30.480 And that just emanates from him. 257 00:22:30.480 --> 00:22:31.840 He can't help it. 258 00:22:31.840 --> 00:22:36.840 So everything is done with that, what's that word? 259 00:22:37.320 --> 00:22:39.440 I can't think of a positive word. 260 00:22:39.440 --> 00:22:40.920 I can only think of the negative word that, 261 00:22:40.920 --> 00:22:44.120 you know, it's tainted, meaning like it's affected. 262 00:22:44.120 --> 00:22:49.120 Everything is affected by the fact that he is love. 263 00:22:50.000 --> 00:22:51.200 So you think about the fact, 264 00:22:51.200 --> 00:22:52.840 I know it's very challenging for us, 265 00:22:52.840 --> 00:22:54.880 but you think about the fact of everything 266 00:22:54.880 --> 00:22:57.120 it talks about in the Old Testament, 267 00:22:57.120 --> 00:23:00.280 where God told the Israelites to go 268 00:23:00.280 --> 00:23:04.820 and wipe out men, women, and children. 269 00:23:04.820 --> 00:23:06.960 I mean, can you imagine? 270 00:23:06.960 --> 00:23:08.640 I mean, we kind of read through that 271 00:23:08.640 --> 00:23:10.840 and we can kind of think, okay, well, you know, 272 00:23:10.840 --> 00:23:13.880 these are, it's hard enough for us to imagine God saying, 273 00:23:14.640 --> 00:23:17.080 go in and just wipe out all of the men, 274 00:23:17.080 --> 00:23:20.060 but oh my goodness, can you imagine these Israelite men 275 00:23:20.060 --> 00:23:22.360 going through and, 276 00:23:22.360 --> 00:23:25.400 because remember to kill people back then, 277 00:23:25.400 --> 00:23:27.600 you didn't throw a bomb in, 278 00:23:27.600 --> 00:23:29.860 they didn't have that kind of technology. 279 00:23:29.860 --> 00:23:32.360 You couldn't remove yourself 280 00:23:32.360 --> 00:23:34.040 from the person you were killing. 281 00:23:34.040 --> 00:23:36.060 It had to be done by hand. 282 00:23:36.060 --> 00:23:40.560 So imagine as a grown man, literally killing women, 283 00:23:41.560 --> 00:23:46.520 children, like little girls and little boys and babies. 284 00:23:46.520 --> 00:23:49.220 You have to do it by hand. 285 00:23:50.280 --> 00:23:54.920 And God said to, this is the God we follow, right? 286 00:23:54.920 --> 00:23:58.200 And again, just like I said, God does not contradict himself. 287 00:23:58.200 --> 00:23:59.660 God is still love. 288 00:23:59.660 --> 00:24:04.360 All of that is hard as it is for us to understand. 289 00:24:04.360 --> 00:24:09.360 All of that was done through the fact that he is love. 290 00:24:09.760 --> 00:24:12.360 Now, I don't mean, understand that there's, 291 00:24:12.360 --> 00:24:15.680 that he uses other words to express 292 00:24:15.680 --> 00:24:19.080 some of his ways of expressing his character. 293 00:24:19.080 --> 00:24:22.760 Like he uses the word wrath or, you know, 294 00:24:22.760 --> 00:24:25.200 or whatever he uses, you know, strength and might 295 00:24:25.200 --> 00:24:30.200 and coming against and wiping out and all of that. 296 00:24:30.760 --> 00:24:34.280 But understand that it's, 297 00:24:34.280 --> 00:24:37.240 that his love is not something that he, 298 00:24:37.240 --> 00:24:39.320 and this is the point that I'm trying to make. 299 00:24:40.160 --> 00:24:42.640 His love is not something he puts to the side 300 00:24:42.640 --> 00:24:46.200 in order to exact his wrath or, you know, 301 00:24:46.200 --> 00:24:47.840 exact other things that he's trying to do, 302 00:24:47.840 --> 00:24:50.560 coming against or giving instructions to people to, 303 00:24:50.560 --> 00:24:51.640 you know, to wipe out, you know, 304 00:24:51.640 --> 00:24:55.560 a whole and all of the Canaanites or whatever. 305 00:24:55.560 --> 00:24:58.360 Love isn't put aside. 306 00:24:58.360 --> 00:25:00.200 He being love. 307 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:06.240 says, okay, me being love, these are the things that are important to do, 308 00:25:06.880 --> 00:25:14.480 you know, or important to have done. And they're not done squelching my love or trying to ignore 309 00:25:14.480 --> 00:25:20.880 my love or putting it aside for a little bit so I can get something done. It's all other aspects 310 00:25:20.960 --> 00:25:28.320 are of his character and that his decisions are influenced by his love. 311 00:25:31.200 --> 00:25:34.400 Yeah, there's so many other ways I could express that. But anyway, 312 00:25:35.120 --> 00:25:40.800 so that's how I would answer that. Two more real quick. These, I think, are shorter. 313 00:25:40.800 --> 00:25:46.080 The context of the tree of life. I didn't catch what you said about us were being supposed to 314 00:25:46.080 --> 00:25:51.520 live by it. I just never heard that taught before. Okay. So think of it kind of like this 315 00:25:51.520 --> 00:25:55.280 is we know that we're not supposed to live according to the tree of knowledge of good and 316 00:25:55.280 --> 00:26:00.640 evil. Really what was going on there. Remember what I said about Roman seven, that is a holy 317 00:26:00.640 --> 00:26:05.440 tree. The tree of the knowledge of good and evil is like, is the law that there's nothing wrong 318 00:26:05.440 --> 00:26:10.240 with the law. It says in Roman seven, that the law is holy. There's nothing wrong with a lot. 319 00:26:10.240 --> 00:26:15.760 It doesn't even say the law is good. It says the law is holy. I mean, that's a really serious thing. 320 00:26:16.080 --> 00:26:21.120 So the tree of the knowledge of good and evil was a holy tree. So why was it a problem to eat from 321 00:26:21.120 --> 00:26:28.240 it? Because God, we never were told that it wasn't supposed to touch it. She said that, 322 00:26:28.240 --> 00:26:32.240 but it was never recorded that God said that. So obviously a lot of preachers say, oh, well, 323 00:26:32.240 --> 00:26:35.600 my goodness, you know what? She was taking what God said out of context. And she was saying 324 00:26:35.600 --> 00:26:40.880 something that God didn't say. All we know is it's not recorded. So it's not recorded anywhere 325 00:26:41.440 --> 00:26:46.400 that God really did say to not touch it. So all that we do know, all that we did hear God say 326 00:26:46.400 --> 00:26:52.400 that is recorded in scripture is him telling Adam and Eve, do not eat of the tree of the knowledge 327 00:26:52.400 --> 00:26:58.000 of good and evil. And remember why that's important is you are taking food and in order to use it as 328 00:26:58.000 --> 00:27:04.560 fuel. That's why we eat. You're using it as a source of energy on which you're depending 329 00:27:04.560 --> 00:27:11.920 and on which you can, that can kind of fuel you and kind of be your source of life in order to 330 00:27:11.920 --> 00:27:18.080 do something. That's the problem is we're relying on something outside of God in order to be 331 00:27:18.080 --> 00:27:25.200 sustained. Um, so it's not necessarily like, oh, so, so how would I wear this? The reason I compare 332 00:27:25.200 --> 00:27:29.120 it to the eating from the tree of the good knowledge of good and evil versus the tree of 333 00:27:29.120 --> 00:27:33.440 life. Fascinatingly, you remember, we don't even hear that the tree of life even exists 334 00:27:34.000 --> 00:27:39.840 until after the fall. So it's not even like, geez, God said, you can only eat from the tree of life 335 00:27:40.400 --> 00:27:44.000 or eat from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil. And don't eat from the tree of the knowledge 336 00:27:44.000 --> 00:27:48.720 of good and evil. These are the only two choices of food. Don't do this one only do this one. He 337 00:27:48.720 --> 00:27:54.640 didn't say that it was the tree of the knowledge of good and evil versus every other tree in the 338 00:27:54.640 --> 00:28:01.680 garden. The reason that I compare it to the tree of life is because we're eating from that, 339 00:28:01.680 --> 00:28:06.240 which allows us to live eternally. In other words, to have eternal union with the Lord. 340 00:28:07.120 --> 00:28:12.960 So, um, uh, anyway, that's why I, that's why I compare it. It's not that God said, 341 00:28:13.600 --> 00:28:18.320 you know, it's important for you to eat. Like it's not that he told Adam and Eve, Hey, 342 00:28:18.320 --> 00:28:22.640 you need to be eating from the tree of life. You didn't tell them that. In fact, as far as we know, 343 00:28:22.720 --> 00:28:27.360 they ate from the tree of life before they ate, um, from the tree of the knowledge of good and 344 00:28:27.360 --> 00:28:32.160 evil. The problem was, I mean, why not? I mean, am I going to split all those trees there? 345 00:28:32.160 --> 00:28:36.640 Surely they would have eaten from the tree of the life at some point, right? But the reason that 346 00:28:36.640 --> 00:28:42.480 they couldn't eat afterwards is because they would keep whatever it is that they got from the tree of 347 00:28:42.480 --> 00:28:46.160 the knowledge of good and evil, and God wanted them to be able to be redeemed from that. So 348 00:28:46.160 --> 00:28:51.360 anyway, the whole reason why I compare the two is just to kind of have is, is to understand that 349 00:28:51.360 --> 00:28:54.960 when you're eating from the tree of life, it's symbolized. And the fact that it's eternal life, 350 00:28:54.960 --> 00:29:00.320 what is the only way we can get eternal life through Jesus, through eating his flesh and 351 00:29:00.320 --> 00:29:05.440 drinking his blood. Remember that's how he words as taking the symbol of communion is that we're 352 00:29:05.440 --> 00:29:12.160 literally trying to partake of Christ himself. Remember because of how he phrased it, people got 353 00:29:12.160 --> 00:29:17.280 offended. They were like, well, oh my goodness, we're supposed to eat his flesh and drink his 354 00:29:17.280 --> 00:29:23.360 blood. And it says in the Bible that when Jesus said that disciples left him, some disciples left 355 00:29:23.360 --> 00:29:28.320 him. Then he turned to the other disciples and he asked her, are you going to leave me too? And they 356 00:29:28.320 --> 00:29:37.120 said, where else would we go? So you teacher are the only one that has truth. So anyway, God, that's 357 00:29:37.120 --> 00:29:42.640 why I use the tree of life because the whole point of the, of the difference between the true trees 358 00:29:42.640 --> 00:29:49.920 is not that one was holy, the tree of life, and then one was evil. It wasn't. Roman seven says 359 00:29:49.920 --> 00:29:58.320 that the law is holy. The problem is don't eat of it. But we do know that we are supposed to eat 360 00:29:58.320 --> 00:29:59.920 of the body of Christ that 361 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:06.080 gives us eternal life. So anyway, that's why I compare the two. The last one, the context of 362 00:30:06.080 --> 00:30:10.320 the Israelites rejecting the relationship with God and deciding to live according to the law of good 363 00:30:10.320 --> 00:30:16.240 and evil. I didn't catch where they rejected the relationship. Okay, so they rejected in Exodus, 364 00:30:16.240 --> 00:30:21.840 and I don't remember where that is in Exodus, but where they go, I don't remember which chapter, 365 00:30:21.840 --> 00:30:27.200 but they go to Mount Sinai and then God wants to make a covenant with them. Remember, he tells 366 00:30:27.200 --> 00:30:36.640 Moses, hey, in fact, this is after the Ten Commandments. This is after they have made the 367 00:30:36.640 --> 00:30:43.760 golden calf. This is after all of that. He tells Moses, hey, tell the Israelites to cleanse 368 00:30:43.760 --> 00:30:49.200 themselves, and I think he said for three days. It was three or seven, and I think it was for three. 369 00:30:49.200 --> 00:30:54.240 Anyway, he said, cleanse themselves, and they can't do these things. They need to do these 370 00:30:54.240 --> 00:30:58.480 things, and they can't, and they need to abstain from these things, and then have them come up, 371 00:30:58.480 --> 00:31:02.720 and then when they went up to the mountain, it went to the mountain. They were hearing thunder, 372 00:31:02.720 --> 00:31:10.080 and it scared some of them because I'm trying to remember. I thought that it said that some 373 00:31:10.080 --> 00:31:14.960 heard thunder. Some heard a voice. Some heard rumblings or something like that. Anyway, it 374 00:31:14.960 --> 00:31:22.640 scared them, and so they said, no, no, no. Moses, you go and hear from God. We're too scared, 375 00:31:23.360 --> 00:31:30.640 and you hear from God what he wants us to do, and then tell us what to do, and we'll do it, 376 00:31:30.640 --> 00:31:37.440 so that's where they rejected it because God was wanting to meet them directly, 377 00:31:37.440 --> 00:31:44.960 and it says that the Israelites got scared and said, no, Moses, you go, and then you tell us, 378 00:31:44.960 --> 00:31:51.920 so they said, Lord, we only want to interact with you through a mediary. That's rejecting 379 00:31:51.920 --> 00:31:57.360 the relationship and choosing rules instead. They did the same thing that Adam and Eve did. 380 00:31:57.360 --> 00:32:01.920 They chose, give me the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, Lord, and tell me what to follow. 381 00:32:01.920 --> 00:32:09.920 Tell me what to obey, and I'll do it, so anyway, okay, so that's answering those five questions, 382 00:32:10.480 --> 00:32:17.920 I guess. Is that five? Yeah, it's five, so after listening to all of that, has anyone 383 00:32:17.920 --> 00:32:24.400 come up with any other questions, or did my answers bring up anything? Does anyone have 384 00:32:24.400 --> 00:32:30.000 anything? Were those on the chat, all those questions, or were they? No, someone just 385 00:32:30.000 --> 00:32:35.840 sent them to me, so the rest retreat while we were going through the rest retreat. Okay, yeah, 386 00:32:35.840 --> 00:32:41.200 so I said, I'll answer these on the fireside chat since I don't answer questions in between 387 00:32:41.200 --> 00:32:45.680 the chats. We meet three times a week, you know, including the rest group, so people can 388 00:32:46.640 --> 00:32:50.640 can, like, write them places and whatever, and then just remind me during the rest, 389 00:32:50.640 --> 00:32:54.800 during the fireside chats or a rest group, and then that's where I can answer them so that 390 00:32:54.800 --> 00:33:00.800 everybody gets the benefit of the answer, so yeah, so yeah, so no, you didn't miss something. 391 00:33:00.800 --> 00:33:05.440 You're probably looking through the chat going, where are these questions? Yeah, okay, 392 00:33:07.120 --> 00:33:11.600 so I know that was a lot, but I had, like, several questions. I had five questions, 393 00:33:11.680 --> 00:33:18.320 and so that gave me the opportunity to get those answered, so does anyone have anything? 394 00:33:19.360 --> 00:33:25.120 It doesn't have to be, you know, about, like, the, you know, the teaching, you know, what was, 395 00:33:25.680 --> 00:33:31.120 like, oh, well, you said this, you know, nuance about the theology. I mean, it's just about, like, 396 00:33:31.120 --> 00:33:37.280 applying some of these tools or what it is that you're experiencing, like, and trying to get 397 00:33:37.280 --> 00:33:46.000 close to the Lord. Are you frustrated because it's not working, you know? Are you, you know, 398 00:33:46.000 --> 00:33:53.840 are you feeling close to him? Are you not feeling close to him? Are you getting frustrated? Are you 399 00:33:53.840 --> 00:33:58.560 being triggered? Have you been able to see the goodness of the Lord in a new way that 400 00:33:58.560 --> 00:34:00.720 you just hadn't noticed before? 401 00:34:10.080 --> 00:34:14.880 I've been struggling. I was, like, so trying the other day, but I guess I was struggling with just, 402 00:34:14.880 --> 00:34:25.520 like, say a spouse, okay? They are, you know, triggering you, and I was, like, I did so good 403 00:34:25.520 --> 00:34:29.840 the time before, but this time I was just, like, all in my emotions and feelings, and I just wanted 404 00:34:29.840 --> 00:34:33.920 to be there, you know? I just wanted to be there, and I was, like, okay, I could listen to some 405 00:34:33.920 --> 00:34:38.080 praising. Nope, don't want to really do that. I just needed to, I just wanted to be, just, like, 406 00:34:38.080 --> 00:34:41.040 be left alone, and it's because I didn't even choose Jesus. I was, like, thinking, I was, like, 407 00:34:42.080 --> 00:34:46.320 I just, I don't know, and I think that sometimes I get stuck, like, you know, sometimes it's just, 408 00:34:46.320 --> 00:34:53.600 like, I'll just go through my own little self, whatever, I don't know, self-soothing, but it 409 00:34:53.600 --> 00:34:57.840 really doesn't soothe, you know what I mean? No, it's very insightful. That's what it is, 410 00:34:57.840 --> 00:34:59.840 yeah, self-soothing. Go ahead. 411 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:03.080 And, but then it's like, I'll, I'll get, you know, stuck there. 412 00:35:03.080 --> 00:35:05.240 I'm like, okay, I know I need to like get out of this. 413 00:35:05.240 --> 00:35:07.320 Cause it was just like, oh, we'll just do this for a day. 414 00:35:07.320 --> 00:35:07.840 You know? 415 00:35:08.320 --> 00:35:12.760 Um, but I just don't, I don't want to go there, but I feel the right to like, 416 00:35:12.760 --> 00:35:17.560 since it was like, I know it's good to express your emotions, but it's just 417 00:35:17.560 --> 00:35:21.600 like, if you're getting, you're tired, like I'm legitimately tired of dealing 418 00:35:21.600 --> 00:35:23.880 with the same thing with the same person. 419 00:35:24.120 --> 00:35:24.800 You know what I'm saying? 420 00:35:25.320 --> 00:35:28.760 So it's like, what do you do? 421 00:35:28.760 --> 00:35:32.400 It's like, I'm just like, okay, Laura, I know I need to choose you, but like 422 00:35:32.400 --> 00:35:36.600 right now I'm all in my feelings and I just really want to be left alone and 423 00:35:36.600 --> 00:35:39.480 self-soothe, you know, like that's the real truth about it, you know? 424 00:35:39.720 --> 00:35:40.880 So, yeah. 425 00:35:41.680 --> 00:35:45.880 Um, uh, could you give me, now you don't have to like, tell me like 426 00:35:45.960 --> 00:35:49.240 what exactly is triggering you, but could you give me context about like, 427 00:35:49.240 --> 00:35:53.520 when you say that you just want to be in your emotions, meaning like you just 428 00:35:53.520 --> 00:35:58.040 like, say for instance, you're mad, are you saying I just want to feel mad and 429 00:35:58.040 --> 00:36:02.760 then feed on it, or are you saying that you're actually like deciding, okay, 430 00:36:02.760 --> 00:36:06.800 you know what, I'm going to be emotional to my spouse and I'm just going to, 431 00:36:07.040 --> 00:36:09.360 I'm just going to give into it and I'm going to have at it and I'm going to 432 00:36:09.360 --> 00:36:12.960 express it like, so what, like what, what are you talking about exactly? 433 00:36:14.720 --> 00:36:19.440 It's more like, um, like I expressed myself. 434 00:36:19.720 --> 00:36:22.480 In fact, we expressed myself during marriage counseling. 435 00:36:22.760 --> 00:36:23.360 It was all good. 436 00:36:23.400 --> 00:36:25.520 I mean, like formatted, you know what I'm saying? 437 00:36:27.080 --> 00:36:31.320 But even still after that, I don't know, I guess maybe I just felt, um, it 438 00:36:31.320 --> 00:36:35.720 wasn't like I was, I was upset and maybe angry, but I didn't express it. 439 00:36:35.720 --> 00:36:39.800 Like, I think when I get upset with people, I tend to just be more introverted. 440 00:36:39.800 --> 00:36:41.200 Like, I don't want to talk to nobody. 441 00:36:41.280 --> 00:36:42.680 I don't want, I'm good. 442 00:36:42.680 --> 00:36:43.600 Just leave me alone. 443 00:36:43.920 --> 00:36:47.440 I'm going to be in my own little, um, entertainment space and I'm 444 00:36:47.440 --> 00:36:51.640 going to self-soothe and hopefully when I wake up, I'll feel better. 445 00:36:52.000 --> 00:36:55.760 Yeah, it'll be just like that, but it doesn't usually work that way. 446 00:36:56.680 --> 00:36:57.520 No, you're right. 447 00:36:57.520 --> 00:36:57.840 Yeah. 448 00:36:58.080 --> 00:36:58.360 Okay. 449 00:36:58.360 --> 00:36:59.200 So that's helpful. 450 00:36:59.200 --> 00:37:07.480 So part of it is, um, we try to, um, uh, we try to avoid things 451 00:37:07.560 --> 00:37:09.560 in a, in as weird as it sounds. 452 00:37:09.600 --> 00:37:09.800 Okay. 453 00:37:09.800 --> 00:37:12.320 So there's a few different things that can be going on. 454 00:37:12.320 --> 00:37:15.520 And so I'm going to mention to you some of them, and then you can just decide 455 00:37:15.520 --> 00:37:19.480 what it is that seems to resonate with you're like, oh, that, that sounds about. 456 00:37:19.480 --> 00:37:19.720 Right. 457 00:37:19.720 --> 00:37:20.960 That sounds like what I feel. 458 00:37:21.440 --> 00:37:22.800 There can be an avoidance. 459 00:37:22.840 --> 00:37:26.160 I know that, that usually, and I know that you just mentioned going 460 00:37:26.160 --> 00:37:29.520 to sleep, like for the night, but what I used to do is when I used to feel 461 00:37:29.520 --> 00:37:32.320 really bad about things or really struggle with something, in fact, I 462 00:37:32.320 --> 00:37:39.480 still have this, um, this tendency to want to do this, um, and I just 463 00:37:39.480 --> 00:37:41.000 don't give into it like I used to. 464 00:37:41.000 --> 00:37:43.640 So it didn't come to mind as much, but I used to just take a 465 00:37:43.640 --> 00:37:46.480 nap because I was trying to escape. 466 00:37:47.480 --> 00:37:52.440 So, and here's the problem with escaping is it doesn't actually get dealt with. 467 00:37:53.040 --> 00:37:59.040 So the really good thing is that to know is that it's important for us to fully 468 00:37:59.040 --> 00:38:04.440 feel the emotions as opposed to what, I don't know if you grew up like this. 469 00:38:04.480 --> 00:38:07.240 I grew up feeling like I wasn't allowed to feel. 470 00:38:07.840 --> 00:38:10.240 And so I would just stifle the emotions. 471 00:38:10.560 --> 00:38:14.760 And I thought that if I stifled the emotions, then it changed my belief. 472 00:38:14.880 --> 00:38:19.480 Then it changed me from not believing God and not having faith and not being 473 00:38:19.480 --> 00:38:25.280 good and, you know, and sinning to not sinning because I just 474 00:38:25.280 --> 00:38:27.200 didn't allow myself to feel it. 475 00:38:28.200 --> 00:38:33.040 And so I thought if I didn't feel it, then I didn't believe it, or, you know, 476 00:38:33.040 --> 00:38:35.640 I wasn't struggling with unbelief and it's just not true. 477 00:38:35.640 --> 00:38:37.440 I was just stuffing it. 478 00:38:38.240 --> 00:38:42.960 And then it means that when we stuff it and we don't allow ourselves to fully 479 00:38:42.960 --> 00:38:47.200 face what it is, we really think what it is, we really believe what it, what 480 00:38:47.200 --> 00:38:51.360 really is bothering us, then it can manifest. 481 00:38:51.400 --> 00:38:58.200 Not only will it just stay, but it'll, it'll, it'll stay as poison and it will 482 00:38:58.200 --> 00:39:00.760 eventually manifest into worse things. 483 00:39:00.760 --> 00:39:06.200 And it can sometimes eventually over time manifest into physical, um, into 484 00:39:06.200 --> 00:39:08.840 physical diseases and issues and problems and whatever. 485 00:39:08.840 --> 00:39:13.400 Um, but even if we're not talking about that far, you're not, you're under. 486 00:39:14.320 --> 00:39:21.960 The enslavement of whatever it is that you don't let go and let, and, and allow 487 00:39:21.960 --> 00:39:28.000 to come out, so the good thing is that we can now know, all right, well, and again, 488 00:39:28.000 --> 00:39:29.520 I don't know how all y'all grew up. 489 00:39:29.560 --> 00:39:36.680 I grew up hearing that you're supposed to not feel that me interpreting what people 490 00:39:37.520 --> 00:39:39.920 were telling me as you're not supposed to feel. 491 00:39:40.080 --> 00:39:42.880 So I just, and if you don't feel, well, then you're not sending it. 492 00:39:42.880 --> 00:39:46.200 So I would like stop myself from feeling, but then it just 493 00:39:46.200 --> 00:39:48.000 makes you sicker, so to speak. 494 00:39:48.000 --> 00:39:51.800 So the good thing is I found out, oh no, I'm actually supposed to feel that's 495 00:39:51.800 --> 00:39:56.480 how I'm going to get healed, you know, for with the Lord, but the problem 496 00:39:56.480 --> 00:39:59.800 with that is you have to feel, and it feels. 497 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:04.560 pull. There's a reason why we don't want to feel that way. So one of the good things is, you know, 498 00:40:04.560 --> 00:40:08.400 like you're saying, you just kind of want to be in the emotion of it. You're just leave me alone. 499 00:40:08.400 --> 00:40:14.880 I just want to feel it out. So that's healthy. As long as we're letting it come up and out and 500 00:40:14.880 --> 00:40:23.680 we're facing it, not feeding it. If we're feeding on it and we're like justifying that, you know, 501 00:40:23.680 --> 00:40:27.760 how we reacted, how we feel, what they've done, the fact that we don't deserve that. 502 00:40:28.080 --> 00:40:34.240 Well, that's feeding on it. And again, that's, that's not just stifling it, 503 00:40:34.240 --> 00:40:40.240 it's actually making it bigger because we're feeding it. So it's important to distinguish 504 00:40:41.280 --> 00:40:48.240 when we're feeling our feelings, how to distinguish between whether we are letting it 505 00:40:48.240 --> 00:40:53.680 ourself, letting it come up and fully feel and fully facing it before the Lord so that it can 506 00:40:53.680 --> 00:41:01.440 come up and out versus I'm feeling it and I'm feeding on it. So, but it is good to feel it, 507 00:41:01.440 --> 00:41:06.000 not stifle it, but we just have to focus on, on the fact that we don't need to be feeding it. 508 00:41:06.000 --> 00:41:10.880 And one of the things that we need to do is, and so this is what I was thinking of also, 509 00:41:10.880 --> 00:41:16.800 when you were talking, there was a time where I was very, very, very, very, very, very, very upset 510 00:41:16.800 --> 00:41:21.040 at God. I mean, very upset at God. And this is somebody who was, again, didn't allow themselves 511 00:41:21.040 --> 00:41:25.520 to feel anything. I finally got to the point where I couldn't handle it anymore. It was like 512 00:41:25.520 --> 00:41:30.160 my emotions had been completely stuffed up to the point where I had no room left in me 513 00:41:30.160 --> 00:41:34.000 and everything was just, it was just on the surface and everything was coming out. 514 00:41:34.560 --> 00:41:38.880 And I was just really upset at God. I remember right where I was standing in my bedroom, 515 00:41:38.880 --> 00:41:43.360 probably like, I don't know, 14 years ago when I told it, when I was just talking to the Lord, 516 00:41:43.920 --> 00:41:50.800 I think I said something like, you know, well, Lord, I'm really mad at you. And he's, 517 00:41:50.800 --> 00:41:57.120 and he said, Ashley, he said, that is okay. He said, you and I can, we can work through that. 518 00:41:57.120 --> 00:42:01.920 So that I can work through that with you. That is just fine. And he wasn't saying it was okay 519 00:42:01.920 --> 00:42:06.400 that I was mad at him, but he was just saying, you know, I accept the fact that you were mad 520 00:42:06.400 --> 00:42:11.200 at me. He said, that is fine. He said, he said, we can do that together. We can walk through that 521 00:42:11.200 --> 00:42:15.760 together. We can struggle through that together. You can wrestle that out with me together. 522 00:42:15.760 --> 00:42:22.160 He said, but don't shut me out. And that's the phrase he used. He said, but don't shut me out 523 00:42:22.160 --> 00:42:30.160 again. Don't separate yourself. Don't turn your back on me and try and turn away from me and try 524 00:42:30.160 --> 00:42:38.160 to deal with it on your own in considering me to be the enemy. He's like, you can struggle with it, 525 00:42:38.160 --> 00:42:46.800 but struggle with me. And remember that. And so whenever, whenever you are struggling with 526 00:42:46.800 --> 00:42:52.400 anything with someone else, with the Lord, you know, whatever, because whenever we're struggling 527 00:42:52.400 --> 00:43:00.560 with something with someone else deep down, it's because there's a root unbelief between us and 528 00:43:00.560 --> 00:43:06.320 the Lord in which we don't feel safe. In other words, he's not our security in a way that we're 529 00:43:06.320 --> 00:43:11.520 trying to get our security elsewhere. And so anyway, it, everything ultimately comes back to 530 00:43:11.520 --> 00:43:15.120 the fact that we have to struggle through how we feel, you know, ultimately with the Lord. 531 00:43:15.840 --> 00:43:27.680 Um, and, uh, and so remember that God so treasures relationship with us that when he gave Israel 532 00:43:27.680 --> 00:43:33.200 their name, remember he gave the covenant to Abraham and it wasn't until three generations 533 00:43:33.200 --> 00:43:40.320 later, which in their, in their time was a long time later, you know, and it wasn't just like, 534 00:43:40.320 --> 00:43:44.240 Oh, our normal, like 20 or 40 years, it was a long time later because they all lived very long 535 00:43:45.120 --> 00:43:51.680 that he gave them, um, he gave Jacob the name Israel. And that's finally when he named his, 536 00:43:51.680 --> 00:43:56.240 God named his firstborn son. He could have named it anything. Cause you know, that God, 537 00:43:56.240 --> 00:44:02.160 um, considers names to be very important. I mean, my goodness, you know, like I said in, 538 00:44:02.160 --> 00:44:08.160 in the, um, in the, uh, in the teaching, you know, he changed Abraham's and Sarah's name 539 00:44:08.160 --> 00:44:14.240 from Abram and Sarah to Abraham and Sarah. And that was a big deal. I mean, period, 540 00:44:14.240 --> 00:44:17.280 let alone the fact of how old they were when they changed their names. 541 00:44:17.280 --> 00:44:22.960 And so names are very important. So God changed Jacob's name to Israel, meaning that every single 542 00:44:22.960 --> 00:44:27.440 time that someone declared that name, they were speaking and affirming that thing over the person 543 00:44:27.440 --> 00:44:38.880 over and over. And Israel means he, who struggles with God. So God finds struggle with him to be a 544 00:44:38.880 --> 00:44:46.880 place of intimacy with him in that while. So it's not that God loves us being mad. 545 00:44:48.800 --> 00:44:56.480 It's not that the, that our anger isn't rooted in sin. It doesn't mean that what it means is 546 00:44:56.480 --> 00:44:59.840 God is more focused on the union. 547 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:07.440 then he is on, you know, in a staying with him is struggling with him, then he is about what it is 548 00:45:07.440 --> 00:45:14.080 that we did, so to speak, he's like, first of all, he's like, that's important. But first of all, 549 00:45:14.080 --> 00:45:18.880 in order to actually deal with it, he said, choose me, you know, let's, let's stick together 550 00:45:18.880 --> 00:45:27.440 on this, wrestle this out face to face, Jacob wrestled with God and one, and the angel blessed 551 00:45:27.440 --> 00:45:34.160 him. That weird, it's really not what any of us would have expected. That's not the outcome. I 552 00:45:34.160 --> 00:45:38.240 expect every time I read the story, I'm like, surely there's a different outcome. So I always 553 00:45:38.240 --> 00:45:43.360 think it's just so odd. But since he wrestled with God, you know, the angel said, you know, 554 00:45:43.360 --> 00:45:49.760 I'll name you Israel, because you have wrestled with God in one. So anyway, my point is that God 555 00:45:49.760 --> 00:45:56.800 considers struggle to be a place of intimacy with him, that we're choosing to fight dadgum hard for 556 00:45:56.800 --> 00:46:05.280 that relationship. And he loves that he's like, in the midst of your struggle, that you're having 557 00:46:05.280 --> 00:46:13.200 with me, you're choosing me. So you're choosing me, even though you're you're struggling with, 558 00:46:13.920 --> 00:46:23.040 with feeling safe with me, with believing me, you choose me through that, you know, through that, 559 00:46:23.760 --> 00:46:29.840 through the fact that you're having a hard time with me. You know, you still choose me anyway, 560 00:46:29.840 --> 00:46:35.920 it's like, it's like, you know, you choosing your husband, even though, you know, you know, even in 561 00:46:35.920 --> 00:46:40.560 the middle of the two of y'all arguing and being very mad at each other, you're still there's still 562 00:46:40.560 --> 00:46:47.360 an element in which you, you have to continue to choose him anyway, as opposed to, you know, 563 00:46:47.360 --> 00:46:54.160 turning your back on him or whatever, and, and divorce him. Okay, well, that's that, you know, 564 00:46:54.160 --> 00:47:02.000 and so God loves that. So anyway, those things will help if, when you're struggling, when you're 565 00:47:02.000 --> 00:47:09.680 mad or whatever, if you do it with God, as opposed to, and, and, and trust and choosing that you're 566 00:47:09.760 --> 00:47:17.600 safe, struggling with him, as opposed to no, I'm mad. And God is probably just going to make me 567 00:47:17.600 --> 00:47:22.880 feel worse by telling me I shouldn't be mad. So I'm just going to, so let, to let myself be mad. 568 00:47:22.880 --> 00:47:29.440 I'm going to ignore God for a while. So I can be mad. No, be mad with God, go to God and be mad. 569 00:47:30.560 --> 00:47:36.720 Let him work through. God is big enough to handle you and your emotions, but he, that's what he 570 00:47:36.720 --> 00:47:43.120 wants to do. He's like, when you're struggling come to me, as opposed to what we thought of it 571 00:47:43.120 --> 00:47:51.200 and do that there, process that there, let me process that with you there. Let my love, you 572 00:47:51.200 --> 00:47:57.040 know, break down your walls there, but I can't do that. If you separate yourself from me, you're 573 00:47:57.040 --> 00:48:02.080 like, no, I'm going to shut God out because he won't let me be mad or he'll condemn me for being 574 00:48:02.080 --> 00:48:06.720 mad or he'll correct me and he'll get all onto me. And I already feel bad and I've already been, 575 00:48:06.720 --> 00:48:12.320 you know, attacked and told whatever by my spouse or by my friend or whatever. And I already feel 576 00:48:12.320 --> 00:48:16.720 bad and I don't want God to now be telling me more things I need to do and how I'm wrong right now. 577 00:48:17.760 --> 00:48:22.640 We need to trust him more than that. And the only way that he can prove to us that he really is 578 00:48:22.640 --> 00:48:28.080 trustworthy is when we put ourselves there. Not, okay, God, you're going to have to prove it to me. 579 00:48:28.080 --> 00:48:32.320 And then when you do, then I'll come. I was like, no, no, no. You've got to choose me first. 580 00:48:33.040 --> 00:48:40.000 And then I'll prove it to you when you're there. And you'll experience me that I accept you where 581 00:48:40.000 --> 00:48:45.760 you are. And it will no longer simply be something you've always heard that I accept you where you 582 00:48:45.760 --> 00:48:51.920 are. You will now know by experience, you will know between you and me that I always accept you 583 00:48:51.920 --> 00:48:55.520 where you are. So anyway, okay. Is that helpful? 584 00:48:58.160 --> 00:48:59.360 Rita. Yeah. Thank you. 585 00:49:04.960 --> 00:49:08.880 Right. What time is it? Well, we had just a few more minutes. Does anyone have anything? 586 00:49:08.880 --> 00:49:21.440 The last little bit. I came with five questions, though. I'm good. 587 00:49:22.000 --> 00:49:40.720 I found myself Monday. I mean, well, I've still been trying to practice. 588 00:49:40.720 --> 00:49:52.000 But, you know, I mean, I can, I can know the way to close your eyes. I know. 589 00:49:58.480 --> 00:50:06.000 No. 590 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:17.920 It's a bit muffled I can just barely make it out so I wasn't, I wasn't missing anything 591 00:50:17.920 --> 00:50:18.920 but yeah. 592 00:50:18.920 --> 00:50:19.920 Okay. 593 00:50:19.920 --> 00:50:20.920 There we go. 594 00:50:20.920 --> 00:50:21.920 That's better. 595 00:50:21.920 --> 00:50:22.920 On a blanket. 596 00:50:22.920 --> 00:50:23.920 Oh yeah, that's much better. 597 00:50:23.920 --> 00:50:24.920 Yeah. 598 00:50:24.920 --> 00:50:25.920 Oh good. 599 00:50:25.920 --> 00:50:26.920 Okay. 600 00:50:26.920 --> 00:50:27.920 Okay. 601 00:50:27.920 --> 00:50:28.920 Thank you. 602 00:50:28.920 --> 00:50:29.920 Thank you. 603 00:50:29.920 --> 00:50:32.240 Yeah, I was gonna say maybe the microphone was in the blanket but yeah. 604 00:50:32.240 --> 00:50:37.760 Okay, because I have to have the headset on again so having to do that but okay let me 605 00:50:37.760 --> 00:50:44.160 know if it gets if you can hear me okay, but I've been doing the practicing, you know, 606 00:50:44.160 --> 00:50:49.200 with God by him to come in. 607 00:50:49.200 --> 00:50:56.400 And you know I feel like it's not as much as the first as the first one we did it in 608 00:50:56.400 --> 00:51:02.760 the intensive you know I really felt the pain and, and I want to go back to that first one 609 00:51:02.760 --> 00:51:03.760 maybe kind of. 610 00:51:03.760 --> 00:51:09.280 I did go back to it once actually I think Sunday night, but just keep practicing it 611 00:51:09.280 --> 00:51:19.240 because, you know, that's really what we're doing is practicing right, you know, so I 612 00:51:19.240 --> 00:51:24.840 feel like you know it's been good I maybe I could say I've felt a little, a little, 613 00:51:24.840 --> 00:51:33.560 a little like, I don't know maybe a little more connected because I'm making an initiative 614 00:51:33.560 --> 00:51:42.040 to be connected, you know, and going back to those exercises, some of bringing myself 615 00:51:42.040 --> 00:51:46.680 back to identity, because I wrote something down during intensive there and I just kind 616 00:51:46.680 --> 00:51:52.760 of go to those words when I get when I get triggered now or, you know, it's just I think 617 00:51:52.760 --> 00:51:59.640 I wrote down something like, I mean, you know, we're connected we're all the Trinity 618 00:51:59.640 --> 00:52:00.640 we're all one. 619 00:52:00.640 --> 00:52:05.480 I'm seated with you in heavenly places therefore I'm always about my father's business, and 620 00:52:05.480 --> 00:52:08.520 it kind of centers me a little bit. 621 00:52:08.520 --> 00:52:14.760 However Monday, I was with my husband, and something little he did I just let it trigger 622 00:52:14.760 --> 00:52:16.000 me. 623 00:52:16.000 --> 00:52:21.040 And it was so minute really but I got in this group where I couldn't, I was like having 624 00:52:21.040 --> 00:52:25.520 a hard time getting out of it focusing on the little bit of a negative thing which really 625 00:52:25.520 --> 00:52:33.760 wasn't even a big deal but, man, it was like, it took me a while to get out of that loop. 626 00:52:33.760 --> 00:52:39.800 And I'm not even sure how I did it. 627 00:52:39.800 --> 00:52:47.160 But I think I did practice I started finally saying something, you know, with one of these 628 00:52:47.160 --> 00:52:53.240 exercises I don't remember which one but you know the choosing and the stop and, and, 629 00:52:53.240 --> 00:52:54.760 but wow. 630 00:52:54.760 --> 00:52:59.720 You know, it just, you know, sometimes, because if we don't like you said we can just get 631 00:52:59.720 --> 00:53:06.280 in that downward spiral, you know, can you can you hear me okay. 632 00:53:06.280 --> 00:53:07.280 Yeah. 633 00:53:07.280 --> 00:53:08.280 Okay. 634 00:53:08.280 --> 00:53:14.120 But I will say this, something I've been practicing for a while now, a couple other people I have 635 00:53:14.120 --> 00:53:18.640 done a little mentoring with each on that is putting stuffing, putting stuff in your 636 00:53:18.640 --> 00:53:22.440 feelings that's so important. 637 00:53:22.440 --> 00:53:31.240 In fact, a couple people that talk about, you should acknowledge them even if we know 638 00:53:31.240 --> 00:53:35.360 it's not from the spirit we know it's from the soul, but like you said because they can 639 00:53:35.360 --> 00:53:40.760 make you sick but but it's like embrace them, because they're your feelings, embrace them 640 00:53:40.760 --> 00:53:43.400 and I like to think about embracing them with the Lord. 641 00:53:43.400 --> 00:53:46.000 Yeah, knowledge them I even write them down. 642 00:53:46.000 --> 00:53:50.920 I'm having negative, and I get in a negative, I write them down. 643 00:53:50.920 --> 00:53:55.000 And then, you know, recognize they feel they're your feelings, they feel very personal, you 644 00:53:55.000 --> 00:53:58.480 can recognize you'd like to see that change. 645 00:53:58.480 --> 00:54:03.920 But also then just for now, let it go to the Lord, just for now. 646 00:54:03.920 --> 00:54:08.520 And then, I mean, if you need to forgive me to forgive someone or something, you can do 647 00:54:08.520 --> 00:54:09.520 that. 648 00:54:09.520 --> 00:54:10.520 You can let it go. 649 00:54:10.520 --> 00:54:16.280 And it just does something when you Yeah, that's been real helpful to me. 650 00:54:16.280 --> 00:54:19.120 I've been practicing that for a while. 651 00:54:19.120 --> 00:54:20.120 Good. 652 00:54:20.120 --> 00:54:21.120 Yeah. 653 00:54:21.120 --> 00:54:27.680 Um, yeah, talking about those embracing the feelings, it's important because there's nothing 654 00:54:27.680 --> 00:54:29.000 wrong with our feelings. 655 00:54:29.000 --> 00:54:31.760 In fact, it's not a sin to be feeling. 656 00:54:31.760 --> 00:54:34.800 So if we're feeling angry, that's not a sin. 657 00:54:34.800 --> 00:54:39.920 Now, what it's indicating is it's it's the all it is, is that the thermometer it's telling 658 00:54:39.920 --> 00:54:41.160 us something. 659 00:54:41.160 --> 00:54:45.480 So it's almost like shooting the messenger what why it didn't do anything. 660 00:54:45.480 --> 00:54:47.440 It's just telling you about it, right? 661 00:54:47.440 --> 00:54:51.160 So there's nothing wrong with the feeling so we shouldn't feel bad that we're feeling 662 00:54:51.160 --> 00:54:52.160 bad. 663 00:54:52.160 --> 00:54:53.160 I know it didn't feel good. 664 00:54:53.160 --> 00:54:58.240 But you know, we don't we don't need to feel bad is that the feelings are a problem. 665 00:54:58.240 --> 00:54:59.320 It's important for us to just 666 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.760 Like you said, you can think of it like embracing it because really what it is that you're doing, 667 00:55:03.760 --> 00:55:09.520 you know, when you think about like embracing the feelings is you are, you are being for you, 668 00:55:09.520 --> 00:55:15.600 what I just described that God says he wants to be for us, unconditional acceptance of us, 669 00:55:15.600 --> 00:55:22.320 where it is that we are, our body and our soul, including the feelings and belief, fear, all of 670 00:55:22.320 --> 00:55:28.640 that stuff needs to know that it's safe with us. That's the only way that it's going to feel safe 671 00:55:28.640 --> 00:55:35.840 enough to change. The reason that we feel the feelings that we do is because we're, we're 672 00:55:35.840 --> 00:55:40.720 afraid. We think that we're abandoned and alone and that our spirit's not there, or it can't be 673 00:55:40.720 --> 00:55:46.480 trusted or, you know, that God's not going to look out for us and God's not who he says he is. 674 00:55:46.480 --> 00:55:56.000 So what we need and it's going to keep acting like that until we accept it exactly where it is 675 00:55:56.000 --> 00:56:02.800 without requiring it to change. So I think that I mentioned that in the teaching as well. 676 00:56:03.520 --> 00:56:08.880 I don't remember how far I got into it, but about like losing weight, if it's same thing, 677 00:56:08.880 --> 00:56:14.480 the, if, if you're struggling to lose weight, the way to finally do it, like you can be exercising 678 00:56:14.480 --> 00:56:19.360 and eating all the right things and all of that, and just not be losing weight, but it will fall 679 00:56:19.360 --> 00:56:25.680 off. When you finally accept your body, the way that it is without ever requiring it to change. 680 00:56:25.680 --> 00:56:33.600 And I mean, like you basically have to emotionally, not, not mentally, but emotionally 681 00:56:33.600 --> 00:56:40.800 give up ever being different than what your body looks like right now. And I know that that's hard, 682 00:56:40.800 --> 00:56:49.440 but that's how your body finally feels safe is because it's safe with you right now. So it's 683 00:56:49.440 --> 00:56:55.760 like, okay, well, if I'm safe right now, well then surely, you know, if I change, I'll still 684 00:56:55.760 --> 00:57:01.760 be safe. It's not wanting to change because it's staying where it is because it thinks that that's 685 00:57:01.760 --> 00:57:08.960 its highest chance of survival and protecting itself. So we have to allow it to be safe there 686 00:57:08.960 --> 00:57:16.560 in order for it to be courageous enough and invent to, to be adventurous and try something else. 687 00:57:17.520 --> 00:57:24.320 And, um, so that's how I've lost weight and kept it off. And that's how, um, cause I've really 688 00:57:24.320 --> 00:57:28.880 struggled with my weight over the years. And then, um, there's somebody else in the rest intensive 689 00:57:28.880 --> 00:57:34.640 that has done the same thing, lost 31 pounds while she was pregnant and she couldn't lose it before. 690 00:57:34.640 --> 00:57:39.680 And while she was pregnant, she lost, I mean, how do you lose, you know, instead of gain during 691 00:57:39.680 --> 00:57:44.400 your pregnancy? I don't know. But anyway, she said, actually it happened when I finally accepted 692 00:57:44.400 --> 00:57:52.800 myself when I finally loved myself. And, and I was a safe place for me. I was safe for my body 693 00:57:52.800 --> 00:57:56.960 and my soul to be what they were and to love it unconditionally. So it's the same thing with the 694 00:57:56.960 --> 00:58:06.400 feelings is that you will feel safer to change too. Uh, cause that's why we get mad. That's why 695 00:58:06.400 --> 00:58:12.960 we get angry and all of that is, is we were afraid of something. So if we can be the safe place that 696 00:58:12.960 --> 00:58:17.680 we wish that our parents were, or that we wish that God was or whatever, we can be that safe 697 00:58:17.680 --> 00:58:23.280 place for us. I don't mean as opposed to God, but like teaching ourselves, you know, to be to 698 00:58:23.280 --> 00:58:31.440 ourselves, like God is to us, you know, then we'll finally start our, well, our feelings and, um, and 699 00:58:31.440 --> 00:58:39.520 our bodies will start changing because we no longer re we no longer accept it. Conditionally 700 00:58:39.520 --> 00:58:47.440 we accept it unconditionally. So anyway, truly huge, huge difference that, um, that it can begin 701 00:58:47.440 --> 00:58:57.200 to make. So I'm glad you brought that up, Karen. Thank you. All right. So I will, we'll go ahead 702 00:58:57.200 --> 00:59:04.720 and, um, go for the night and it was good to get to see everybody and I will see you all on Sunday 703 00:59:04.720 --> 00:59:10.000 night for the next fireside chat. And so I won't send out these reminders anymore. So I recommend 704 00:59:10.000 --> 00:59:15.520 that you, um, put them all in your phone. That's what I always do at the beginning of a rest 705 00:59:15.520 --> 00:59:20.640 intensive is I always put them in my, um, in my phone and I just say, Hey, this occurs for like 706 00:59:21.760 --> 00:59:27.840 six weeks till X date or whatever. And, um, and then I just set up like a reminder and all of 707 00:59:27.840 --> 00:59:32.240 that good stuff. So that, that helps me. But anyway, and I, and I'm the one who hosts the call 708 00:59:32.240 --> 00:59:38.720 and I do this all the time and I still have to, so anyway, but, um, I'll look forward to seeing 709 00:59:38.720 --> 00:59:43.440 you all on Sunday. If y'all think of questions, you know, as you go through, as you go through 710 00:59:43.440 --> 00:59:49.280 the week, then just remember to write them down or, or post them, you know, even in the discussion 711 00:59:49.280 --> 00:59:53.920 group or whatever. And, um, and then I can get, and then remind me of those during the first 712 00:59:53.920 --> 00:59:59.840 chat. And then we can talk about them then. So I have a question. Um, so we're not doing Sunday. 713 01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:06.240 at 10am anymore. But like for everybody to be in it or, or is 714 01:00:06.240 --> 01:00:07.680 that just that one week? 715 01:00:08.120 --> 01:00:11.400 Oh, yeah, that was just that one weekend. That was the rest 716 01:00:11.480 --> 01:00:14.040 retreat, you know, where we were doing all of the teachings on 717 01:00:14.040 --> 01:00:17.360 Saturday, and then on Sunday. And so that was just the first 718 01:00:17.360 --> 01:00:21.000 weekend. So from now till the end of the program, it's Sunday, 719 01:00:21.000 --> 01:00:26.080 Tuesday, and Thursday nights, and eight to two nine Central 720 01:00:26.080 --> 01:00:29.760 Standard Time. Y'all are all okay. Yeah. 721 01:00:30.320 --> 01:00:33.640 All right. All right. Okay, well, I will see y'all on 722 01:00:33.640 --> 01:00:34.920 Sunday, then. Okay. 723 01:00:35.880 --> 01:00:37.040 Good to see you guys. 724 01:00:37.760 --> 01:00:38.840 You too. 725 01:00:39.080 --> 01:00:39.960 Okay, blessing.