Hi, I'm just about to walk inside.
I just went up for a walk.
So I'm just entering my front door in like 30 seconds.
Now I'll just mute myself.
Don't you do things like, um, like you do like cold, like water
immersions and like apparently cold walks and cold.
I do.
Um, I usually do swim 365 days out of the year, but I've been
sick, so I haven't done it the past week.
Yeah.
So just, yeah.
Well, did you do any of the Wim Hof stuff?
Um, I didn't get into that.
Some of, uh, some of the guys that I swim with do that.
And they're just like, they are obsessed and they love it.
And, um, I don't know.
It makes me dizzy.
I'm just like, no.
Yeah.
I think I'm just going to go swim, you know, like that's fine.
But that's incredible because I would imagine it would be so cool.
Yeah.
And that's the thing.
So it's only about the breathing and I think that's why they do the Wim Hof
thing is just to like, get ready to get in the water and not freak out
and just continue to breathe.
But I'm like, well, I think there's, I mean, yeah.
Yeah.
Well, I take, I take cold showers and people think I'm crazy.
I mean, it's good to gain, to teach you, to gain control of yourself again,
kind of like the, the, um, exercise I talk about in session for the kingship
and releasing exercises about like where you're learning the whole point of it
is to teach you, you know, to just focus, to teach you that you are, or remind us,
you know, that we are, we govern our thoughts.
We're not victim to our feelings or what happens to us or the thoughts that come
at us, we can actually roll over them.
We don't have to be threatened by them.
But one of the ways that I began to practice that about the same time that I
began to practice the, the exercise that I give everybody, you know, about the
visual of like a blank screen, you know, or black blackness with like a dot that,
you know, I think of as light and I think of as Jesus and all of that.
Uh, in order for me to learn, to rule my thoughts, what I also began to do at the
same time is take cold showers.
And that really began to teach me how to, how to, uh, that I was,
how to rule over my own body.
Over the physical experience that was threatening to overwhelm me.
And, uh, and I began to do it actually, because I heard it was so good to,
um, fight inflammation, which you really have a lot of inflammation
when you wake up in the morning.
And, and you really want all that.
You really want to prompt your body to drain it.
And, uh, and so anyway, that's how I started.
But when I did it, I was also hearing that it's really, it's a really good
exercise to teach you to rule over.
And I was learning this from non-Christians to rule over your own, you know, your
own, um, physical experience so that, you know, that you're not victim to
or subject to what happens to you.
So anyway, um, uh, I just knew that most people think that I'm crazy because of
that, but normally if I hear someone like swimming in sub zero, what, uh, you
know, uh, a water or whatever, I'm, I naturally think, oh, they probably
learned that from Wim Hof.
Yeah, no, it is.
It is a big thing.
And everybody loves Wim Hof.
And I think it's interesting learning this cause I was just re, um, I was out
walking and I was listening to session five again.
And, um, so, so that's interesting too, cause that's kind of like living, I
don't know where that is living from, if that is like living from like the body
where, cause I guess he's known for like being so long in cold water and the way
he breathes and everything like deceased doesn't stick to his body, you know?
It's kind of like, so, so I don't think it's from the spirit, you know?
But it's like, yeah, similar to like the law of attraction and the fact that it's
a non-Christian who's discovered a principle by which God intended all humans
to be able to operate because he intended all humans to choose him as, as their
father, but yeah.
It's the non-believers that a lot of times have discovered,
oh, God has given us this gift and this ability to,
and this position in creation to plow over it,
to have dominion.
But it's sometimes the non-Christians
who are trying to take advantage of it,
but they're taking advantage of it
from a man-centric, egocentric perspective.
So in other words, it's the wrong source.
It's the tree of knowledge of good and evil
instead of the tree of life.
So it's not so much, again,
just like Jesus explained to the Pharisees,
it's not the action that's the problem.
It's the source from which the action comes.
And if you have the right source,
then there are certain actions you just flat out won't do.
And then there are other actions that you can do,
and you could be doing them in the spirit,
or you could be doing them out of the spirit.
And it takes the discernment of the Lord
to know the difference from which the,
and the source from which the action is coming,
as opposed to just judging something by the action.
It's not, it's the heart.
And yes, there are certain actions
that if you're doing it from the heart of God,
you flat out won't do.
So you can't judge simply by the action for everything.
So anyway, yeah, no, you're absolutely right.
So I was just curious
if you've had done any of the Wim Hof stuff.
So I haven't, I've heard him be interviewed,
and I was like, oh, this is interesting,
that he can do that,
that he can actually put sub-zero water,
and he can hold his body temperature.
That's wild, you know?
Because he's having diminished, you know,
but he's not doing it from the right spirit, it seems like.
I don't want to judge it.
But yeah, yeah, yeah, no, I don't know.
He's doing it from God.
Yeah, and I have no idea.
Yeah, yeah, I haven't gotten really into it.
I've tried it, as I said, but I got really dizzy,
and I'm like, well, it's just too much work.
Like, I'm not going to do that.
Yeah, I know, I had the same thing
with some of that breath work.
I'm like, this is just, this is a lot.
Yeah, oh my God.
I get dizzy too.
Yeah.
Well, I was just curious, so I'm like,
I don't know many people who swim in sub-zero weather,
you know, or sub-zero weather or sub-zero water.
And I'm like, I bet you that she's, you know,
well, at least I know that she's discovered
the benefits of, you know, of, you know, the cold,
you know, on the body,
how it can actually be very healing,
physical healing to the body.
So anyway, have you ever been with her, Renata?
I don't know, I had some years
that I did the cold finish of the shower.
Oh, yeah.
And I did that for years.
Like, I would end every shower with a cold shower.
And I think that was really good.
And then a couple of years ago, I kind of stopped.
I don't know why, but I think it was good.
Like just the end of the shower
with just like really like pretty cold water.
So now I'm just like, oh, I should start doing that again.
That was probably pretty good for my body.
I've noticed a huge, huge difference in my health
by doing it, strictly because they say
that inflammation is the root of so much disease
is because if there's inflammation in the body,
it's either holding a disease in
and trying to so-called fight it with inflammation
and it becomes chronic.
That's the problem.
There's nothing wrong with how God created the body
to inflame in order to deal with the problem.
It's when the body, you know, holds it as a chronic form
and in any way.
And so sometimes you have to begin to instruct the body.
Okay, there's a time for it.
Okay, that's great.
Now let it go.
And you have to kind of instruct it.
Okay, don't hold on to it.
And it has made a world of difference in my,
not my weight, but in my, well, I'm sure my weight as well
because obviously it'll hold on to water.
I'm sorry, it's telling me my, I need to plug in my phone,
but it'll hold water.
And then you can have, you know,
your scale is showing water weight.
But for me, the biggest difference that I discovered
is it would make my, I would go up at least one,
if not two sizes.
Well, maybe just one, but that's a lot.
That's all, it takes a lot of water,
especially for someone as tall as me to hold that,
to hold so much water that it changes my clothing size,
an entire size, you know?
So I've noticed that I can gain weight
without having as much,
I can gain more weight now without going up a size
than I used to, simply because I'm keeping
my inflammation down, which I find fascinating.
So anyway, that encourages me maybe
to start doing that again.
Now I'm like, I have to think about all the positive.
physical benefits that you guys mentioned.
Yeah, it is.
So anyway, I have to talk about that.
So how are y'all doing?
Yeah.
Yeah, I'm good.
Yeah.
I'm doing good.
I find I'm a bit frustrated.
Well, I find that I'm frustrated
and I can't pinpoint what it is.
Yeah.
So I think that's where I am.
I mean, there's a lot of things going on
on like so many different levels.
So, but I think listening to the session five again today,
it's like, I really want to live from that spirit realm.
You know, like that's where I want to be in everything.
So I have a new job and it's like so chaotic.
And I don't know,
the way God speaks to me,
he won't let me know, like see the full picture
cause I'll probably run ahead, you know, like so,
but it doesn't.
So he told me that the last job I had,
that I would exit cause I had a temporary position
and he said, you'll exit, you'll exit that job.
You'll exit that company from that job.
Okay.
This is like a whole long story
about like going to the States
and I won't go into like all of that,
but Renato knows, like in March last year,
he told me when I was crying my endless tears
going back from LA the nth time, you know,
and just like, oh, I have to give up America, it's my dream.
And then he's like, he told me,
I'm not asking you to give up your dream,
I'm asking you to surrender.
And so I feel like last year,
it's all been like on a journey,
which Renato knows as well,
of like trying to surrender, you know?
And I think that's how she encouraged me
to be a part of this because there's still something.
So I feel like I'm supposed to be where I am right now,
but I don't think it's for long.
I feel like there's gonna be like a sudden shift,
but I have no idea what it's about.
And I don't know that there is,
but I find myself being frustrated
and trying to shift into rest and like, okay,
well now I'm stressed
cause it's all these things that I don't know.
And then I'm like, how can I live from the spirit
and get knowledge on how to solve these problems?
And at the same time, just like trying to think,
okay, God, you placed me here for this time.
Like, how can I serve?
How can I like, what are you asking?
Like, why am I here?
And at the same time being like,
Jesus, please let me leave.
I want to, like you were talking about,
the purpose is not this and this and this,
it's about being loved and like being in the union.
And so, yeah.
I think my frustration, which is at my core,
which Renata knows is that I feel like
I'm just not satisfied,
which maybe I'd mentioned that before,
but it's like, I just don't feel like
I'm wherever I'm supposed to be, wherever that is.
And I don't know how to like let that go.
Because then I know,
oh, I have to let that go to be able to,
so I think I become like a pinball machine,
where it's like, I have this,
I used to have this expectation
of what I thought my life would look like.
And now it's kind of like, I've lost that.
So I don't feel like I'm holding on
to like this dream or something,
but I still have this discontent,
where I'm just like, ah, there has to be more to life.
Like this is just not very exciting.
So that's like a one part of it.
And then with regards to like my dad passing,
there's like probably a court case coming up with,
it has to do with entrapment.
And so there's like a lawsuit towards this one person.
And so there too, I'm like,
oh, how do I operate from the spirit in this?
Because I've definitely been like
mainly living body and soul.
So I've been like, that's me.
I mean, some part of it, I think like I tap into it
and I like wanna like live,
I'd like to think that I am,
but I've definitely been a lot of like,
oh, I'm breaking this and generational curses
and blah, blah, blah.
So, and as you say, it works, but it's a lot of work.
So I think I've just like, at one point,
I've just been like, you know what?
I'm just gonna, I'm tired.
I'm just like giving up.
I'm done.
Like I can't anymore.
So, yeah.
So I think I'm still where I'm like,
oh, I'm done, but I just wanna have this exciting life.
I know God has for me and I don't know how to access it because it doesn't feel like the life
I'm living right now, even though I'm super grateful for so many things. So yeah, I think
that's summed up where, where I am. Yeah. Well, those are some really, like I said,
you know, I think I've told you this before, you know, you, you are very insightful of what's
going on. It's a dissatisfaction of, you know, you're just like, but, but then we,
we condemn ourselves for being dissatisfied. You know, like what we talked about last time,
oh my word, but God gives me so many great opportunities and so many gifts and I should
be grateful. And so we're trying to talk ourselves out of it, but there's something in us that's
dissatisfied and there's, and what I think is important for us to realize is, or distinguish
is the difference between dissatisfied, because there's an aspect of dissatisfaction that's
actually, that's actually Godly. That's actually the fact that there, that our spirit and who it
is, that we are is more than what we're experiencing. And so that dissatisfaction
kind of draws us and leads us into the more that we were created for the more that God put out
there to be able to experience an environment in which to be able to engage in and whatever,
and to create the dissatisfaction of just like, you know, there's a soulish dissatisfaction
that we have to obviously be aware of, which is what we always try to be so conscious of.
And we just label all dissatisfaction as being from the soul. Well, this is probably just wrong
at me and this is just bad. Yeah, but why, but it's important for us to distinguish the difference
in the dissatisfaction. So my point to you is, I believe that your dissatisfaction is actually
indicative of the fact that you are meant for more. You're meant for more than what you're
experiencing right now. You're meant for more than the environment in which you're in. There's
aspects of yourself that are not being, that are not being allowed to be expressed
in where you are, but it doesn't mean that you're not where God wants you to be. It just means that
it's not a bad thing for you to be. It's not indicative as something bad or something negative
or, or wrong or selfish or soulful within you, like a negative soulful. There's nothing wrong
with our soul, but a negative, a negative soulful soul, soulish fear. And anyway, so it's,
I think that what you're, you're experiencing, like I said, is that you really are, is this,
this awareness and this, this connection somewhere out there with the fact that God intended you for
more, created you for more. It's almost like this space that's out there to be filled and
you're meant for that. And so anyway, I say all that as an encouragement to not get frustrated
with yourself as if, oh, well, I should be satisfied and I'm not, and Lord, I'm so sorry.
But to view it in the proper context of, okay, if I am meant for more, but I'm here, why,
why would God make the more and intend me for more and basically make the bigger or be able to
expand into more than what I'm being allowed to expand into? It's almost like you feel root bound.
It's like, yeah, but I'm like, I'm like pushing against the boundaries here. And it's obviously
because there are certain things in you that are to be developed, to be able to handle and hold
that, which you're going to move into, because think of a Prince or whatever, and God uses this
example in scripture. He says an heir, you know, or a Prince is intended to rule, but until he
can, until he's mature enough, he has to be governed by, he has to be taught by tutors and
governors. It doesn't mean that the tutors and governors have, have the, the, the right to rule
the kingdom. The Prince does, but he can't do it yet. So, and the, and the thing isn't that he's
childish. The thing is that he doesn't know, and he doesn't have the stability that is needed
in order to catch and to hold and to protect and to cover that which he was intended to rule.
Because with a rulership comes a tremendous amount of responsibility. So there are aspects of the,
of the creation that you were intended, you know, and of like a, like in the future, the way that
it might express itself as a particular job that you'll have, a particular people that you'll be over
that you'll be in relationship with, whether in a church
or personally or professionally, that there's
a way in which you're intended to bring the kingdom of God in.
And the hard part is, if you're intended to rule them,
it means that they're messy.
And that is really hard to rule and to cover and to guide
and to be a safe place for people who are so messy
that they view and interact with you as the enemy.
And how do you be the father, the mother, spiritually,
for them while they are treating you like the enemy?
It's to say, you have to be solid enough
in who it is that you are in the Lord
and very unthreatened by your environment,
very unthreatened by people, in order
to be able to hold the space for creation, meaning
including human souls, to be frustrated,
because it says that they are subjected to frustration,
to be frustrated, in order for you to also bring
the healing to that frustration.
And so anyway, so that's the thing,
is it's God strengthening you in Him
to be able to handle all of that.
And we know that, because we all talk about, well,
God's just trying to teach me a lesson.
But I think it's important that we
see that it's more than just how we viewed it in the past.
Well, God's teaching me a lesson, because how have we,
what is our worldly experience of learning,
of being taught a lesson by our teachers or by parents?
It sometimes wasn't in a very pleasant experience.
It was, sometimes it came with, depending
on the house someone grew up in, it could come with the spanking,
or it could come with time out, or it
could come with removal of emotional relationship,
or it could come with being, if you were in school,
if it happens in school, it could be isolation
from the classroom, it could be sent to the principal
in front of everybody.
In other words, shame and embarrassment.
So and that's what we think of when
we think of learning a lesson.
So that's what we have a tendency to think of,
and we think of, well, God's teaching me a lesson.
God intends me for more, but for right now, I'm learning lessons.
And we have a very negative and separation
between us and the one who's teaching us
perspective of learning lessons.
We learn, we're taught by the world
that you have to learn lessons, that lessons
mean you're in isolation.
That you have to learn something and be tested while you're
alone, and the master is just looking over you,
correcting you, and getting on to you.
When you're not getting it right,
simply telling you, you should know better,
I've taught you better, figure it out.
What did I tell you last time?
Try to remember.
And you're like, well, if I remembered,
I would have given that answer.
So apparently, I don't remember, and you're not
telling me the answer.
Anyway, our point is we can project all that onto God.
So that's what I find so important for us
to shift in our understanding of, OK, well,
if I'm dissatisfied, but God has me here.
So in other words, he needs me for more, but I'm here.
It's important that we understand a different,
have a different perspective of lessons
so that we actually find freedom where we are as opposed to,
well, right now, I'm just going through trial
until one day I endure long enough where I
can be relieved of the trials.
And that's really not what we're doing right now.
We have freedom now, but we don't see lessons as freedom.
Our experience of lessons is not in freedom,
and God's like, no, no, no, in your lessons,
you're still free.
You're a prince who's learning, not a servant or not a student.
Remember, he says, in those days,
you will no longer call, you will call me my husband.
You will no longer call me my master,
which is that relationship between a master and a student.
So anyway, just wanted to encourage you in that,
that where it is that you are is simply God always pointing out,
OK, you didn't know until this pain point came up.
You didn't know until you felt struggle
that you are always, whether or not you feel it,
you're always in a place of bondage.
You're always enslaved to something now,
and child, I meant you for more.
You're in, you're not, you're not experiencing freedom.
So, and this is highlighting an area in which you're not
experiencing freedom, which.
you like to experience freedom? We're not gaining more and more
of God, so to speak, because God's given us everything. But
what we're doing is he's inviting us to, how did I say
that, right? We're not receiving more and more of God is that
it's that we're getting to by, by, by releasing into freedom
and letting go of this thing that we're enslaved to that we
didn't know we were enslaved to. You know, we're simply
getting to experience more and more of freedom. But God still
talks to us whether or not we choose to shift into that
whether or not we choose to let go. He still talks to us. He
still loves us just as much. We're not gaining more of his
love. You'll have just as much of his love if you choose to
stay here and to stay in the pain and to continue to make
these decisions or you know, whatever they are. You continue
to have God talk to you. You continue to have him just as
much as he will here. You'll have him love you just as much
here as he will here is if you make this is if you stay where
you are in that particular area in which you're experiencing
pain and struggle or you move on. That doesn't change. We're
not getting more and more of God's pleasure. What we're
getting is we're getting more and we get to experience more
and more of it simply because we're stopping the resistance
to it, but we're not gaining any more of it. So basically
we're just giving ourselves access to more and more of it
and a manner of speaking. God isn't giving us more and more
access to it. We are claiming more and more access to it.
He's already given us all access. And so he's like, do you
want to grab do you want to take it or not? That's all we're
gaining. So we're not doing this in order to get something more
from God. You know, okay, Lord, you know, I know I'm supposed to
learn a lesson so that you'll do something for me. That's not
what it is. God's like, no, I've already given it all to you. But
the fact that you're holding on to this means you're not you're
resisting, not accessing. So if you let go of it and choose to
access it, now you've got it. So do you want it or not? But I'm
still here regardless. You know, I still love you just as much if
you choose to stay where you are or you choose to leave. I will
talk to you just as much here as I will here. The difference
is, is totally the choice is totally up to you. Do you want
to access it or not? But I'm still here regardless. It's
totally freeing. It's totally non obligatory. You know, so it's
a totally different perspective of, of being where it is that we
are and not being somewhere where we eventually want to be.
It we're here and it's not it's not an in a shaming or condemning
way. But we're here because this is all we can handle. This is
where we're currently enslaved to. This is how much we just
simply just don't know yet. And if Jesus wasn't above learning
and growing, neither are we. So there's nothing shameful, or
wrong, or quote unquote, I was gonna say immature. I mean, it
is immaturity, but it's not immaturity in the negative sense
that we always think of as immature. We always think, oh,
it's a bad thing to be immature. Why? There's nothing wrong with
being five. A five year old can be a five year old, we don't
think that they're wrong for being five. And yet we still
call it immature. Why? Because we're compared, it's simply a
relative term, we're just comparing it to 35. So compared
to 35, five is immature, but five isn't expected to be a 35
year old. Five is expected to be a five year old, you know. So in
that aspect, you know, we're just always just learning, you
know, more and more. And the whole point of learning is just
simply, child, would you like to move into more love and freedom
than you're experiencing right now? Because I've given it all
to you. Do you want to grab a hold of the axe? And do you want
to grab a hold of it and access it? So anyway, I see, so I'm
excited for you, because I see what it is that you described to
me, not just in what's going on internally, the fact that you
have so much insight, but also the positions that God has
placed you in and what he's entrusted you with, as being a
sign of tremendous, the fact that he trusts you, and the fact
that he's, and tremendous honor from him, and a very intentional
selection of you. And so it's like you have everything going
for you. And his focus is not on what you'll accomplish and how
it's going to help everybody else. His whole focus is you.
It's like, so this isn't and this isn't, hey, you need to be
better, you need to be older, you need to be more mature.
You're just like, you know, I met you for more love and
freedom. So would you like to move into it? It's, it's all for
the good. It's all because
He's like, Hey, I want you to experience more love.
I want you to experience more intimacy.
All of this stuff that you and I are going to do together.
That's just going to come from a results and natural flowing from
yours and my relationship.
But the point is you and my, you and me having fun and
enjoying our relationship.
The whole thing of what job that you have and how it impacts other people
and what your life experiences.
That's going to be a natural flowing that you don't have to work for from the fact
that you and I relate the way that we, that, that we do basically child.
I want to honor you with the greatest gift that I can give you access to the,
um, the God and King and creator of the, and the sustainer of the universe.
You get access to me.
So my gift is more and more access to me, you know, but, but based off of how much
you choose, you want to experience, but you have to let go of this.
If you want to rule it, we can't rule something that we need or that we use to
comfort us, um, because then we're empowering it.
We're saying we need it because we're in lack in a particular area.
We need comfort and this can give it to us.
So it's what's what Esau did when he sold his birthright.
That's what we're doing is we're selling our birthright to creation.
We're selling our power, so to speak.
And I don't mean power, like, like, you know, like we were talking about, like
a lot of direction and all of that, where they're empowering self, I'm
trying to empower the fact that if we're one with Christ, it's his power.
It's the it's God's power.
It's not our power.
We're not wielding it.
You know, it's just, you know, us being one with him, you know, how he chooses
to operate out of us in spirit, you know, that, um, we're giving that up.
We're selling our birthright as a son of God, as the son of the king of the
universe, and we're trading it for a bowl of soup, we're trading
it for something temporary.
I want comforts I want, you know, in, and by assurance, by using formulas in
order to ensure and to predict an outcome, you know, anyway, so talked a lot.
But does that resonate?
Does, is that helpful at all?
Does that speak to anything?
Oh, yeah, it's so helpful.
And it resonates a lot.
And I I'm like, yes, this is, but I still probably don't really know how.
Like some things are very practical for me.
Like I remember Diane Venora told me you can have nothing in common with Hollywood.
If you would ever be called to be there, not say like, that was my, at least my
dream before.
And I was like, oh, I get that.
It's a hard way to like, and now I'm like, oh, why would I ever want that?
You know what I mean?
So I'm like, oh, it's crazy to me how Renata and I were dreaming when we're
18, you know, and then where I am now.
And I was like, oh my gosh, why would I ever want that?
It's horrible.
Like, um, but, um, yeah, so I get it, but I still don't get it.
I'm like, I know the gift is to like, have more access to God and be in that.
And that's where I want to be.
I'm like, oh, what I want now is just to be in that union, you know, to like
where everything flows out and where we do things together and where it's just
like kind of fun.
And that's why I think I want to try to do what I said on my, on my share that I
was like, oh, I want to wake up and like have that encounter.
And then I want to go to bed to that.
Cause I just want to like meet God there, but then I get frustrated
because obviously it's not happening.
So I'm like, oh, um, but I'm trying.
So, um, I maybe I have to stop trying.
I don't know.
It really makes a lot of sense what you're saying.
And I, I get very impatient, so I just want everything to happen now.
Yeah.
But it's very encouraging.
Yeah.
Good.
And if it's any comfort, um, this is, uh, you're at a very normal place in, um,
right now, uh, a lot of people are actually, um, experiencing frustration
right now, it's very normal part of the process and the program and not, I'll
tell you, it's very normal because there's, there's a, there's a, um, what's
the word, not, not, I was looking for this word earlier today.
I was talking to my husband about some stuff and we were, and I was like, what
is that word it's, um, it's where things don't reconcile it's the, there's what
I referred to it earlier was, um, when I was talking with my husband, it's just
like this, this dissonance, you know, with this unalignment, you know, where
you've got, you've got the old and then you have the new and things aren't,
things aren't working because all we know is the old and our whole, our whole.
world, our whole paradigm, our whole understanding of God and
of ourselves and of, of like how this whole Christianity things
works and in our life and my dreams and is all built off of
this old structure, this old wineskin. And now there's a new
revelation that can't hold that in the old wineskin can't hold
the new revelation from the Lord. And so but we're like,
yeah, but where's the new wineskin that can hold a new
revelation? And and then to be able to switch from the old
wineskin to the new one, you know, it's just it's just
challenging. So it's very, it's very normal part of the process
of, of transitioning is always hard. There's the fact that
everything underneath this that we'd always relied on to kind
of stabilize this is shifting, because what God wants to do is
to shake that which is shakable within us so that nothing so
that what remains is that which is unshakable. And so it's not
that he's trying to take the things that are shakable and
make them unshakable. Those things just can't hold it. He's
trying to remove them all together, and replace them with
the things that are actually unshakable. And so anyway, so
just, you know, like, just as an encouragement, the frustration
is a very normal part of the process. Now, I don't know, I've
never had a child, but this is what I understand from having
heard so much, you know, as we all as we women all have about
what it's like to have a child. And you know why they talk about
the importance of Lamaze breathing and everything,
because the important thing is they say is to relax, because as
much as your body is going through a stretching, and it's,
it's act, your body knows what it's doing. And the more that
you relax, and the more that you just let it do its thing, the
easier that it is on your body, and the easier it is on you. And
because basically, when we when what we're doing is we don't
relax as we're resisting, we're resisting what's normal, we're
resisting the natural process. And we keep thinking because
there's pain, that there's something wrong. And really,
it's, it sounds very counter. And that's why they have to
teach people prior to them being in labor, how to do Lamaze
breathing, because at the time of is not the time. You've got
to practice it and be familiar with it. So when it's crucial to
actually execute it, you're you already familiar enough with it
that you can make an intentional choice, I'm going to go and go
with this, as opposed to what everything seems to be,
everything in me wants to respond in a totally different
way. It's making a very intentional and choice,
intentional, intentional choice to act very counter to what the
experience naturally wants to bring up within us. So with
frustration, and like shifting in some things with the Lord,
especially when we're like, God, you know, I'm moving into an
unknown, which again, is faith, right? Moving into this unknown,
it's always unknown. And because even if God tells us what the
thing is that we're moving to, there, the fact that, how would
I put that the fact that it's safe, and that we're going to be
provided for there, and that everything that's going to work
out is something that we're unsure of, is something that we
can't see. And so it's still faith. Even if God tells us
point blank, hey, look, you're going to start this business,
you're going to do this, you're going to go here, whatever. Why
do we still wonder, why do we say, why is it still hard to
step out on it? Because so often we think, Oh, look, God, just to
tell me that no, no, even when we know, there's still an
element of the spiritual and the emotional, that's unknown. And
that's apparently what really drives us. It's not the, hey, we
have an actual definitive, you know, that we could like, that
we can articulate is the fact emotionally and spiritually,
we're just kind of like, Yeah, but can I can I trust it?
Right? Anyway, so the thing is that when we're in this, in
this place of frustration, the fastest way to shift into rest
the fast, because you could use this with anything that we're
trying to learn the Lord, but we're, you know, we're all
learning about rest. So we're talking about that rest, faith
in God, trying to understand this new perspective, like
choosing this new perspective of who God really is. And I don't
mean, because I said it, I mean, because based off of what
you personally are experiencing and feeling in your spirit
between you and God, that is what you cling to, not because
somebody said something, because that won't hold up in, you know,
in dire situations in which you're going through a lot of
pain, or someone you know, is going through a lot of pain,
remembering Ashley said, ain't gonna do a daggum thing for you.
So, but between what you experience, you know, between
in the Lord, what you hear from him, you know, that is what's going to, uh, that's what you cling to.
But anyway, so whenever we're moving into some aspect in which we're supposed to have faith,
this unknown, we're moving towards this unknown. Uh, we can feel frustrated because we just don't
understand. We don't understand this thing that we're leaving. We don't understand how to leave.
We're not quite sure if God's telling us to leave and we're on other, we're supposed to go to,
there's just all of this unknown. And we just get frustrated. We want something to be known,
right? Because that's where we're good at. We're trying to find our stability and our
sense of assuredness and security is I want to just know something, just, just that Lord,
just give me some. And, um, and so the, the fastest way to go through it kind of like,
well, Ma's breathing with it in childbirth is to just let the process just, just let go and
stop resisting the process, stop resisting your, uh, because the frustration comes in the resistance.
So stop resisting, just allow it to allow it to be unknown. Allow, allow yourself this space
to be in a place where you can't figure it out, where you don't know, and you can't figure out
the answer. And you're just there. You're not leaving. You're not going. I mean, that's what
it can kind of feel like. I'm not leaving. I'm not going. I just, I'm just here, Lord. I'm in
no man's land and I've got no direction. Right. So basically kind of like allow everything around you
to shift without you, without requiring of you to, to know how it's supposed to shift
and to give every, to micromanage everything and tell it what, how it needs to shift.
And to, in other words, to have the process figured out, to know where you're, what you're
leaving or where you're going and how you're supposed to do it all. Just, just open yourself
to allow God to, to shift and to move things, to tell your spirit, your soul, and your body to
submit that to all come into alignment with your spirit and the spirit of God to move and to shift
and to shift and then let them do it without you knowing how, without you emotionally trying to
make it work without you physically trying to make it work without you mentally trying to figure it
out. What we're not, we're not used to that. We're used to being taught, especially in school.
Hey, look, the only, or, or even in church, Hey, the only way to move forward is you learn more
again, true knowledge. You learn more because that's your saving grace and that's what will fix
you. So if you're not moving or, or they'll say, you know, that you won't move unless you know,
that's bogus. So God wants us to learn to operate very differently. And now, Hey, I want, allow me
to move you without you knowing. In other words, without you knowing what to do and how to do it
and what's supposed to be going on. And God's like, trust me to have set everything up your
body, your soul, and your spirit to function without you consciously knowing how, you know,
and just let it new case in point. I went, saw a vision, um, where, uh, I saw, I saw a body
and I saw a wound out here and it kind of looked like a heart, you know, like a, like a, like an
actual literal heart. It didn't look like the, like the symbol heart. It looked like somebody's
actual pumping cart that was out here, but I could tell that it was a, it was wounded.
And so all of a sudden the body doubled and it was because, and I discovered this later,
I couldn't understand the vision when I saw it. It wasn't until after I was looking and I asked
God to walk me back through the vision that he explained it to me, to me that, and then I, you
know, basically that I understood it. And, but that's where the, it doubled in the soul caught
out of the body. And then it looked at the, uh, it looked the wound and, and, and held it and was
thinking, you know, okay, well, it kind of looks broken. And in my world, if a China blade is
broken, this is the soul, by the way, of a China plate is broken. Well, then you, you glue it.
So that's what it did. It kind of tried to apply glue and whatever. And then God was behind this,
this soul. And he looked over the, the, that person's shoulder at me and he said, Hey, tell
the man that that won't work. What he's doing won't work. So I told the man, so even though
God was behind his shoulder, I was the only one who could hear him. The man couldn't. So I had to,
I had to constantly, you know, interpret to this, uh, to this soul. It's like, Hey, and again,
this is just a vision. It's like, Hey, you know, that won't work. And the guys, oh, okay. Well,
what else do I know? Um, duct tape, you know? And so he tried to use duct tape or something. I don't
remember what else he did. He tried, but he tried a different method that you would use in the
physical realm to fix something. And God's in God again, looked over his shoulder and he said, tell
him that won't work either.
So I told him, I said, God says that won't work either.
So, so it goes, okay, well then I guess I don't know how to do it.
So it gets, it goes back into the body.
So it's now, so body and soul are now together again, and I'm
just seeing one man instead of two.
In other words, instead of duplicated, it was just one.
And then I saw that man come out from where God had been speaking.
So in other words, it was that man's spirit coming out of heaven and it, and
it came to the wound and it just held it.
It didn't fix it.
It just, I mean, meaning like it didn't try to tape it or glue it or do anything.
It didn't even talk to it, just held it.
And, and, but what I felt was that this, that this spirit knew it was a King.
It knew that it was, um, that I don't know that it could, that it
had Lordship over this soul, this, um, this wound.
And so all it did is hell is it held the wound and the wound healed and
immediately relaxed simply because the spirit presented itself simply
because the spirit said, Hey, look, this is me, I'm your King.
And I'm here.
I protect you.
I govern you.
I, I, I cover you.
You no longer have to do it for you.
And the soul and the, and the, and the wound just relaxed.
Meantime, the souls looking over and watching what the spirit's doing.
And he says, Oh, so that's how you do it.
So what I learned from the vision is that, is that our spirits know because
they have access to the Lord.
They have access to the spirit of wisdom, the spirit of understanding,
spirit of knowledge, the different spirits of the seven spirits of God.
And they know how to fix these things that we as in our souls.
We don't know how to fix.
We know that we're hurting.
We know that there's an issue.
We know there's some settings we're supposed to learn, but
we don't know how to do it.
And we think we're the ones responsible to fix it.
And we think that the only way we can fix it is to have to learn
something we don't currently know.
In other words, we're in lack and we need knowledge in order to be okay.
And in order to heal, in order to whatever, and this person's spirit
knew how to heal the wound simply by presenting itself.
And then the, and then the wound was okay.
And then the soul simply watched the spirit do it.
He said, Oh, apparently that's how you do it.
So the soul learned by watching its own spirit, um, heal the wound.
Um, so in other words, we, we don't have to, we don't have to fix everything.
We don't have to know how we don't have to, we don't, we're not dependent
on knowledge and on consciously understanding what God's doing, how
he's moving all of the pieces, our soul, our body, and our spirit know how to
shift all of the pieces and function according to the way God intended them
to healthily function without our, um, without our, uh, uh, soul having to
consciously know, or a mind consciously know how, so anyway, just say that as
an encouragement, you will ship it just like we're supposed to, you know,
shift into rest and operate in our finances and relationships and everything
in rest, we have to shift into rest with rest in other words, stop fighting
it and let it happen, make ourselves available, just, and, and I promise
you, that's how you shift is you, you allow you open yourself up to the
Lord, because remember it's who you naturally are, you intentionally
choose that you are who God says that you are, and then let who you naturally
are start operating and you'll start functioning in ways that you've
never learned how to function.
You, you just start doing it and you start discovering it because
you start actually doing it.
You start seeing it out, seeing it in your actions or in your decisions or
whatever you think, well, that's interesting.
I don't normally respond in that way.
Why?
Because you let go.
So who it is that you naturally are starts coming out.
So just FYI, the more that we stop requiring ourselves to figure it all
out, I mean, like desperately, there's nothing wrong with like thinking about
it and talking to the Lord about it.
All of that's normal part of relationship.
I'm talking about the desperateness and the frustration or the, or the
condemnation of aggravation, those are indicative of feeling threatened
and feeling like I'm responsible.
I won't get it unless I, unless I do these things, you know,
if you choose instead, no, that says it's already mine.
God says it's who I naturally am.
And to just rest in that in the end, expectantly watch it happen.
Let God be as big as he claims to be.
You know, anyway, is that helpful?
Mind-blowing. Amazing. Yes. I will go back and listen to this over and over.
And I'm glad it was helpful. Thank you. Yeah.
Oh no, go ahead. No, sorry. I was just saying it keeps, it keeps spinning. So I'm like,
oh, okay. Now I have to think like this and that. So it's great. Yeah. Thank you so much.
Yeah. You're welcome. Hey, I promise I haven't forgotten who we just started, started going.
And you know, me, once I get started, I'm like, oh, and oh, and I can say this. This
will hopefully be helpful. That's good. It's okay. It's yeah. Yeah. Yeah. It's interesting
to hear. Like some of the things definitely hit me too. And some of the things, yeah. Yeah. It's a,
it's really, really interesting to hear. And some of it reminds me of where I'm at and it's kind of
also answering a little bit of my things. I have some good things that are happening and some,
and that I want to share. And then there are some challenges and maybe you already are answering
some of them, but I feel like in a way I am struggling with moving into rest in like in a
different way than before, but in the same, so that's something that I'm going to share afterwards,
but then at the same time, I am also, I have also started walking in rest and started to kind of
more like create with God and do things with God. And just starting to really feel like I, what I
want to do is to make, give him joy. And I want to create with him. And I want to be like, I want to
be free from everything that's holding me down. And I realized a lot of it is fear of man in my
life and I want to communicate out. So what I had, I had like this idea and thought I have so many
things that's going on in my life and I feel God speak to me and I just want to do a Facebook live.
And of course I felt like really, that was crazy. And I thought I'm not going to do it. And it's
like, I don't know anyone that does it on my Facebook friends. So then I thought, and I had
this idea that I just want to do it five times and I want to be break free from fear of men.
And I want to create this with you, God. I just want to do this and I want to bring joy to your
heart more than to see what happens. So I just embarked on that journey and it's been, so I've
been doing that every Thursday and I've had, and it's just, it's just been very, very challenging
and very, very good. And I have gotten a lot of views. One of the posts got a lot of comments and
a lot of feedback and I don't know. So, but, but then it's kind of like, so one of them had
500 views. The other one had maybe 250 and then the other one, 150. And, but then, and I can tell
by the likes or the views that you can start measure whether or not it was good,
but I've had more and more the sense of that. It doesn't really matter. Like the most important
thing is that I'm actually creating something with God and I have something on my heart that
I want to say. So even in the beginning, when it was a little bit slow before people started to
look at it, I thought I made you happy. And it just brought a lot of joy to my heart. Like,
I was kind of like, God, that made you happy, right? That I shared about my journey.
And, and maybe no one's going to watch it or maybe they won't get anything out of it,
but that still made you happy. And I could feel like really deep joy of creating with God.
Even though it wouldn't mean anything to anyone else than him, you know, like, and, but of course
it's like, and then the next moment you're like, Oh, I don't know what are people going to say?
I'm so vulnerable. I share my heart. I share my wounds. I share my walk with God. I share.
So then you're like, yeah. So it's, it's like, it's like both, but I want to continue doing that
two more times. And I can feel like it's, it's really, really hard to do it.
But it's also very good. And after those two times, because that's what I had in my heart,
I'm going to do this five, five times. I don't know what to do, but I think it is,
it is kind of coming back because I used to be to blog and write quite a lot. And then I kind of
drew back. So it is a way to.
start using my gifts in communication through writing
or through having things on my heart or my life story,
which is pretty intense.
So that is something that's going on,
which is I'm walking in and finding victory
and a lot of challenges.
And the other two things that I wanted to mention
was probably the same thing a little bit like Annette,
that I struggle a lot with work and moving in to rest.
It's like another level, like, am I supposed to be here?
What am I doing here?
The students are rebelling.
And then I'm realizing more and more
that this is not an easy task.
I'm seeing more that there is actually a lot of issues
in the leadership, lots of my colleagues
are going on sick leave, it's unhealthy environment.
And also darkness, I sense more and more spiritual stuff.
The more I'm there that as I open the door in the morning,
I can feel like a spiritual darkness towards me.
And I'm realizing that there's been a lot of,
it's like an island where my dad grew up.
So I realized that there's been a lot of battle
in the island and it used to be Christian,
a lot of people believers,
and then things have switched and changed.
And then there's a lot of people have been praying,
but then I don't know what happened.
So, but I'm realizing more and more
that there's a lock to the backdrop here
that I'm just starting to hear people telling me
about what's going on in the island.
So, and so I'm realizing that I'm the only Christian here.
I haven't met, there's like 300 people.
I haven't met one colleague
or student that's a Christian and I wear a cross
and I've been talking about God to the students
and I'm kind of fishing all the time,
trying to find Christians to connect with
and not to be alone and to kind of, I don't know.
So I'm realizing it's a bigger and bigger thing.
And part of me wants to just out because it's too much
and everyone around me is getting sick
and I'm feeling it affecting my health physically
and emotionally.
And in another way, I felt God call me there
and then he must trust me that he knew
that it was gonna be a battle
and also may be a spiritual battle.
But it's my question I think is like
when I'm realizing all these things
and people around me are start failing me
in a way that they're getting sick
and then it affects me and the students.
I like, I seem to win one battle and then another pops up.
I have a student that's rebellious
and then I've done some things
and I've switched into rest
and I've changed my behavior towards him
and then he's totally changed.
So I see victories like that.
But then another one pop up
and there's rebellion there from that student.
So I see victories, but then, yeah.
So then I kind of part of me wanna just give up
and then now in February, March,
I have to choose whether or not
to stay another school year.
So another year and a half.
And in my flesh, I kind of wanna just quit
because it's too dark and it's too hard
and I can't see it improving.
But in another way, I'm thinking
that's exactly what rest is,
that I can be in turmoil and people being on sick leave
and bad leaders and all kinds of gossip
and bad things going on.
And I can still be at peace and rest
and do whatever God has me there for,
like for a time as this.
Maybe he wants to do something.
If something can change in that school,
it will affect the whole island
because it's lots of symptoms popping up
of a lot of healthy things going on
that I'm just starting to see.
So I'm kind of in my mind,
I know I can go through this in rest
even though the situation doesn't change.
But when it doesn't change, it feels very frustrating.
And I wanna kind of quit.
I wanna just give up.
So, and the last thing I can just mention quickly
and Annette is also going through these things.
And yeah, you can just choose
what you wanna comment on or not,
is that I wanna kind of use these Tuesdays
or ask for your feedback about weight,
like losing weight.
I think like long story short,
I put on 30 pounds and then I lost 20.
And then I have had like a walk of doing a lot of.
work to lose it and to keep it. And then I come to a point where
you kind of just, like you said, you've done so much by the tree
of life, like the tree of knowledge of good and evil. But
it's, and then you're sick of it. And you realize, I've done
everything in the book, and I've gone up and down and wait. And
I'm just sick of it. And I can't do it anymore. And I'm too
tired. I actually am not inspired to do all these laws
anymore. But the fact is that I am putting on weight. And how
can you do this in rest when I can't go? I just don't believe
in all the methods I've done the last 10 years, even though
it made me go down in weight, it still also made me go up or you
have to control everything in your life. And you're like, I
can't live like that control food like that, or have to work
out this much all the time. Like, it's impossible to live to
be free. And for me, in in that little corner, operating from
the tree of knowledge of good and evil. So try to Yeah, so
those three things are have been like, yeah, yeah, Annette, like
knows that I'm pretty structured. I like to have
points. These are the things that are walking through right
now. Yeah, yeah.
Well, by the way, I have time. And so I'll just answer these
questions. And then if y'all need to jump off, y'all just,
you know, and y'all just let me know. And that I'm happy to stay
on and make sure I answer these questions, though, or address,
you know, these things that you brought up. So you'll have to
remind me what they all are, because I'll get on a rabbit
trail and a thought process. And then I'm like, Okay, so remind
me of the second one. But first of all, start one place and
then work backwards. So the whole losing weight thing, and
actually, you know what, let me not start there. Let me start in
the middle one, because it has to do with I thought of this
when you were talking about, you know, your job currently. And
then you bring when you brought up the weight, I was like, wait
a minute, this this ties, it's the same answer. So and I know
that. So understand that the reason in the so let me back up
just a minute and pull out of everything for a second. Just
remind everybody. So in the rest intensive, I do things a bit
differently. I actually give people the real solution. But
the difficult thing is it can feel completely it completely
unrelated to the questions that someone brings up. Yeah, but how
do I do it here? Or, you know, whatever. And I'm like, okay, I
know that seems unrelated, but I promise you that it will fix
this. And I know this from personal experience, and having
walked other people through it as well. This is the thing that
would fix all of these things. So just just hear me and know
that I promise I am addressing these things. But I'm very
aware, it can feel frustrating, really irrelevant, but I promise
you, it's the actual thing that is effective in fixing this for
good, not kind of like, oh, it'll just make it feel better
for a while. No, it'll fix it for good. Because that's what so
much other like sometimes what is a counseling or or mentoring
can do is it just kind of like make someone feel better for a
little bit, but it wasn't it won't help something long term.
So anyway, just FYI, I really go for Hey, how can we like truly
transform from flesh into spirit, not just kind of like
cope for a bit, you know, so. So anyway, as far as like, you
know, the whole job thing, what it is that you're struggling
with, you know, and and is that is in you talked about, there
were so many different things that I could, I could address
about what you were saying. But one of the things is, you were
saying, you know, you would walk in and you just feel the you
feel the spiritual weight, you feel the spiritual darkness, you
also talked about how people are getting sick, people are taking
sick days, because either just like mental sick days, or
they're taking physical sick days. Neither way, you're saying
that you're also feeling the effects of it as well. I've been
in spiritual, I've been in a work environment like that, that
affected me spiritually. And I and for me, I'm not saying that
this is the exactly how it's affecting you. But this is how
it affected me. It was like a brain fog. I would say you're
saying that you would like feel it is a brain fog as well. I
would literally walk in like a fog. I feel like I'm in the fog
the whole day at work. Yes, that is spiritual. That's a spiritual
fear, be from leadership. In other words, that leaders are
either partnering with it, because that's how they have,
how would I put it, they're the ones who have the authority over
a place is leaders, what they allow in what they don't allow
in, you know, spiritually, and they're allowing things in that
they have no idea that they're allowing it, you know, they
don't do anything like that on purpose. Oh, I think my father
in law's home, he is, I think that that's a great
store opening below me. Anyway, so they, and that can then it's, it's get the leaders are the ones
who are leaders in like spiritual sense, professional sense, personal over a home.
They're the ones who are, let me check my battery. Yeah. They're the ones who are providing
spiritual covering, covering in so many ways, but spiritual covering as well for everybody
underneath that system that the leaders of like, and for your instances, a school,
and this is not me in any way trying to, you know, declare any kind of judgment or whatever
over people. I'm just talking about a principle here, right? That these are the principles by
which things work. And so anyway, it can, it creates an atmosphere because that's what's
being allowed. It's what's being allowed in and what's being allowed to stay.
Usually because people have no idea that they're doing it. Even Christians have no idea that
we're talking like even really mature Christians who go around and teach everybody else can do
this and be allowing evil spirits and, and like spirits of deception or gossip and slander, or
I don't know, bullying or whatever to go on in a specific environment. And they really have no idea
and that they're the ones who are allowing it point is it can create one of the things that
can happen is it can literally create a brain fog. And so I would, I, it took me a while because
again, because the brain fog, when I was with certain people, why I thought, why, why can't
we understand one another? Why, why does black sound like white when they're talking? And I'm
just like, this is really, really weird. And I thought maybe it's just me. Maybe I just can't
get with the program. Maybe I'm not smart enough. Maybe they know more than you do or whatever.
Finally, enough weird things started happening and enough negativity started happening that I
really began to wrestle it with the Lord. And so I had to, it wasn't until I noticed that when I was
home on weekends, it would clear up a little bit in the evenings, but usually it was the weekends
because I would have all a Friday afternoon, all the way through Monday morning, where I was
completely dissociated from that work environment that finally I would feel the fog lift and I could
see everything clearly until I walk in on Monday. And then I start questioning myself again.
And I'm like, why does everything seem so obviously clear on the weekend? But when I'm
actually going with everybody and I'm in someone's presence through the work day that I see everything
is totally, you know, I start questioning myself again. I start feeling crazy, right?
That's a spiritual brain fog. So anyway, point is that what I began to do is I really had to,
I mean, you have to intentionally work with the Lord on not succumbing to that very intentionally
because it's extremely powerful and you can absolutely do it because remember the kingdom
of God is not outside. Jesus said, the kingdom of God is within. If anyone tells you, look here and
there, there's the kingdom, they're wrong. He said, because the kingdom of heaven is within.
So you're bringing it with you and you have it within you. You're not, it's not something outside
of you that you're pulling on and trying to continue to have access to. So basically you're
just trying to build up your, and choose intentionally your identity enough with the Lord
that it pushes out and keeps at bay anything that would try to threaten you to deceive you
otherwise, that you're crazy and you start questioning you, start doubting you, et cetera.
So it takes a very intentional prayer. And, you know, and again, intentionally choosing that you
are who God says that you are to fight that kind of a thing. So just tell you that so that you can,
you know, intentionally do that in your times with the Lord and be very aware. But I am telling you
what, it can be so powerful that even though I would intentionally, I would pray. I would be
very intentionally, literally as the elevator doors were opening and I would be walking back
in, I'd be praying, okay, God, Lord, seriously, I'm going to keep my eyes on you all day. I'm
going to be very intentionally, you know, uh, spiritually, uh, focused on, on you and on who it
is that you say that I am. And, um, in order to keep all this stuff at bay. And I, I don't know
how to describe it. I was sometimes still succumb to it and not intentionally. It's just, it's that
powerful. So anyway, don't think you're crazy. It's it, it really is something outside and you
just choose between you and the Lord. Okay, Lord, I'm asking for, for your help in this. And, um,
and, uh, so with all of that.
There's a lot of background to say that the same thing with this, as long as, as well as the losing
weight, what I would recommend to y'all is to really focus not, uh, you know, in this whole
shifting into rest process, stop thinking for just a bit about the shifting into rest part,
because with that phrase is going to come all kinds of things that you associate with it. Oh,
well, I'm trying to get peace or I'm trying to get clarity into making a particular decision.
I'm like, there's, there's a whole bunch of stuff that we can associate with the phrase
shifting into rest or something I need to do. I'm working too hard. How do I stop? You know,
how do I stop trying to what, what I would recommend that you focus on. And this is what I
did. This is from personal experience. This is what did it for me is this is how I learned about
shifting into rest is because I did this first. It didn't come after I had to choose God and that
he was my highest value. Not that he should be that wouldn't work because he should be my whole
life. You know, no, no, meaning like my whole life. I thought, Oh, it should be. And so I'm
trying, I'm trying, I'm trying, trying, that wasn't working. I had to give up anything that
I wanted happening, including losing weight, including knowing the answer to a question,
knowing what decision I should make all kinds of things. I had to let it go and stop requiring
in my, of my relationship with the Lord that I get this out of it. I had to stop putting any
obligations on my relationship with the Lord. Well, I'm going to get this out of it. I'm going
to get this out of it. Eventually, you know, the Lord will do this. Eventually I'll get to the end.
Eventually I'll, I'll learn how to endure. I'll learn how to shift. You give it all up and you
choose God. I choose you. Not what I get out of it from you. And then choose yourself.
Meaning like you enjoy you, you chew, you think you honor, enjoy, give time to give attention to
the things that bring you life and excitement and a thrill and laughter. And I know that that
might sound weird, but what you're doing is, I mean, it can, can sound kind of like frivolous,
but what you're doing is you are actually teaching yourself to honor the, the value
that God placed on you and you're coming into agreement with it and you're acting on it.
So you're not just saying, Oh, I should know. You actually start stepping out on it.
Meaning like you're going to be, it means that you're now going to be giving time to things
that you used to think were frivolous because, well, you know what? I shouldn't be doing that.
I need to be doing this other step with my time. You need to start honoring this more and more
because you're trying to prove to yourself, you're, you're, you're choosing that, that you
are as valuable as God says that you are and that he enjoys you and that he delights in you. And
an indication of that is the life that you fill within you when you do particular things,
or when you spend time with particular people or you watch particular things or you whatever, right?
It's honor those things by spending time on them and actually act. And so don't just intentionally
choose it. Remember if you intentionally choose it, you'll act on it. And so that's what I mean
by proving it to yourself and acting on it. Remember without choosing it, in other words,
without having faith in it, won't, won't get anywhere because the only thing that will support
your action is if you actually had the faith first. So, but the thing is, if it really is faith
and it will be followed by action, cause just thinking that we should believe something, but
not actually acting on it really means we don't actually believe it. So it's that kind of a thing.
It's that, it's that two-sided coin. And so honor. So, so just can just choose. Don't, don't,
how do I put this? Let's start out like this instead of focusing so much on letting go
of stuff, just focus on choosing God instead of thinking, okay, well, how, you know, because
sometimes if we focus too much on the letting go, it's like focusing on the negative. And when,
when we start focusing on what it is that we want to escape from, we talked about this in the fireside
chat on, on Sunday, I don't know if y'all watch the recording, but we talked about this there
that if you focus that the more that you focus on the negative and what you want to escape from
the harder it is to escape because whatever you focus on, you feed. So instead of working so much
on, okay, what about, what am I holding on in life, holding on about my life, you know, and
wanting from God that I need to let go of, you know, instead of doing so much of that, that is
important, but instead of focusing on that, instead, choose, make God more and more valuable to you.
Use that and be drawn to the positive.
And by doing that, you'll naturally let go instead of having to intentionally
so much focus on the letting go part.
So do that make God bigger and more valuable to you.
And I mean, all day, every day, just, um, let me give you an example.
Uh, like as soon as you wake up in the morning, First thing, you know,
Oh my word, God is, God is so good.
I choose that.
He's good.
I choose that.
Okay.
Get up, take a shower.
I'm going to do this.
Why?
Because I'm loved.
So there's, there's no obstacle to me doing this.
There's nothing frustrating about it.
There's no obligation to it.
I'm loved.
I'm not threatened.
I'm okay.
It's make it simple.
Don't think about all of the reasons.
Yeah.
But, and what about, and just, just make your world and each moment very simple.
I mean, we're adults.
We all know what to do.
We've got a routine of like, okay, well, you get up and you get ready and
you take a shower and you make yourself presentable, and then you go and you do
your job, right?
You go to go to work, just go through the routine of being responsible, but
choose it now from a different source.
Choose to operate from a different source.
Choose to operate from a different motivation, a different reason, a
different paradigm, a different reality, a different value system.
God is good.
And God loves me and he delights in me just because I'm me and because I'm doing
this and he loves the fact that I'm engaging with and appreciating an aspect
of creation that he created, I'm taking a shower and I'm going through all of the
physics that it takes that are engaged with me, taking a shower, the water
falling, the way that it does.
I mean, I'm not saying you have to think specifically through all of
this, but it's what I did.
No, because I had to connect an ethereal concept of God to reality and the water
falling and the water falling through physical laws and processes gave me an
anchor by which I could understand.
God created that and therefore God delights in that.
And so if I delight in it, I'm delighting in and appreciating that
God expressed himself in this way.
It, it gave me an anchor point to connect with them.
So anyway, that's what I did.
And I was like, Oh, God appreciates and delights in the fact that I'm
delighting in something he created.
So I would just kind of continually do it.
I was very simple in it.
Choose God that he's, that he loves me and that I'm fine.
And that he talks to me and that he's looking on me, delighted in me.
I didn't muddy the waters by wondering what sins I had recently committed.
If there's anything I needed to be repenting for, if there's anything bad
I'm thinking about unintentionally, or that I'm what I'm about to go to.
What does God want me to do?
And what decisions does he want me to make?
And how do I need to be obedient?
I didn't muddy the waters with all that because I was struggling with
thinking all of those things and obeying God to believe him I'd abandoned
believing God in order to try to do all of this stuff.
So it was like, okay, Lord.
And I told him, Lord, Lord, this Lord, I can't do both.
I know you intended me to put you both, but right now I can't do both.
So in order to use, you didn't say that I have to obey you in order to please
you, but you did say I had to have faith in order to please you, that
it is without faith, it's impossible to please God.
So Lord, just to do this, I'm going to abandon this for a minute.
And I'm just going to focus on this.
It didn't mean I didn't obey him.
Remember that's my natural state.
It's my heart, but I couldn't focus on it anymore.
I couldn't worry to make sure that I was always keeping the balls in the air.
It's like, okay, I'll just, and I asked God, God, would you keep the
balls in the air while I'm trying to obey you by having faith in you?
Because I can't focus on both at once.
So anyway, um, and once you focus on this one, you'll be able to handle both, but
I couldn't handle this one.
If I was focused on this one first, I had to focus on this first.
And then God gave me the capacity, but anyway, so choose that.
And I would also choose delighting in me.
If he delights in me, why not me and delight in me and choose.
You remember you were the thing that God first entrusted you with
and God most entrust you with.
Even when you get married, even when you have children, God, you are still the
thing that God most entrusts you with.
Um, and, uh, it doesn't mean that obviously, you know, you don't sacrifice
yourself or your children and your husband and whatever, that's not what that means.
Remember, you can only do that.
If you have you to give.
It's what Jesus did.
Jesus is more valuable than we are.
Right.
And yet he sacrificed himself for us.
Right.
But the only way he could sacrifice himself is if he owns himself to sacrifice.
So it's the same thing for us.
So value yourself.
So value, God value, you choose that he delights in you and live like that all
day, every day and what you're doing.
And then you delight, you partner with him by you delighting in you.
And that can, that is a big risk because we're, we can see all of the negative.
And we're so afraid of the negative that we think is there that we won't even allow ourselves
to look at.
Right.
You know, so that's why it's a risk.
That's where you feel vulnerable.
That's why we don't want to do it is we're too afraid of what we'll find.
And we're too afraid of what things will go under and that'll make God mad at us.
Because we're not doing this trust that trust that God is bigger than being mad at you because
of something that you do or don't do.
Because babies don't do anything and they're just delighted, right?
And they know it, right?
We can be that with the Lord.
The Lord is the one who created it to be like that.
So we have to take him at his word and we have to choose and we have to act on it.
And I know that that again, that that might sound completely unrelatable to this, but
and also like, well, God requires me to make certain decisions and I want to know, you
know, I want him to clarify what he, you know, uh, what decisions he wants to me to
make here.
And I, you'll get that by choosing this, because by choosing this, you, you clear out all of
the white noise that is being created by, oh my word, I got to make a decision.
The desperateness and the striving and the sweat is creating a whole bunch of white noise.
That's drowning out God's voice.
So if you abandon it and you choose God, seek you first, the kingdom of God and his righteousness
and all these things will be added into you.
So where's, where is it?
Um, Renata, would you look up a verse for me really quick?
Uh, Hebrews 11, six, I believe, I believe that's it.
Um, because that is a verse that talks about the fact that if we choose God, then everything
else, then, then that's how we're called to, to please him.
I hope I'm remembering it right.
I think it's 11, six.
I'd look it up myself, but my phone is being used as a camera.
Hebrews 11, six.
Yes.
Without faith, it's impossible to please God.
For the one I'm translating from the Norwegian for the one that was before God must believe
that he is, and that he is the one that seeks him or like will reward one that seeks him.
Yes.
Reward the one that seeks him, not the principles of God, not how everything works, not what
we're supposed to do.
He who seeks him that he will reward those that seek God, not what they can get out of
him, not how he works, not to how, not how to obey him, not what he requires him.
His being his essence, you know, who is God, his character, you know, and, and, and that
kind of thing.
So anyway, that's what I would recommend.
That is what changed everything for me.
That's how God began to teach me about how to operate in rest is operating from rest
is operating from my assuredness and my security and being unified with him.
Having chosen him and because, and in the process of choosing him, I had to abandon
everything else, but the process wasn't abandoning everything else.
The process was having chosen him in having chosen him, everything else fell away.
So again, the whole point, even though I talk about the letting go, I talk about that because
people, people are grabbing a hold of this.
So this is what they see.
This, this makes more sense to them.
If one can choose God, you know, um, that, and without focusing on this, you will, huh?
I'm sorry.
I'm just getting some tablets that I'm yeah.
Oh, okay.
Um, that you, then you will choose them.
So anyway, uh, that's what I would recommend, um, because that will help clarify questions
about a job, like whether or not you should stay there because it shouldn't be about,
um, it shouldn't, uh, it will be easier to know what you should do if you're not focused
on, um, well, you know, I could see how God would have me here because I can still operate
in rest and therefore, you know, it's all okay and whatever.
Well, well, yes, absolutely.
And that is wonderful, but, but does God want you to be there?
Or like what you said, is it, am I seeing that God actually, that all of this, um, uh,
you know, that I am experiencing so much weight.
Are they, is this basically like one of those towns that, um, that the disciples went to
where they wouldn't receive them?
And so the disciples went and offered it.
And what did Jesus say?
He said, if they don't receive you will then leave and shake the dust of the town off of
your feet.
Is this one of those where God is like, Hey, you tried.
You offered your piece, it wasn't accepted.
So take it back with you.
Or is it that, hey, no, I want you, I want to, I want to reach this, this people.
And I want you to do it.
And I don't want you to take the, the obstacles as, and the resistance as any kind of a threat.
Which is it?
We can, we can see both.
Right.
But God's not a formula.
What does God want you to do?
So it's easier to actually hear what he wants us to do.
If we, if we release God, if we, if we, if we release the answer.
So in other words, okay, God, you could have me stay or you could have me leave.
I am open to either not.
Okay, God.
Yeah, Lord.
I'm willing.
I really don't want to, but Lord, if you want me to, I'll do it.
It's still create confusion because you're still no release.
There's still a resistance.
Like I'll do it more, but I don't want to, we actually have to release into it.
And like, okay, God.
I really will do whatever.
I no longer emotionally hold it against you.
Whichever one.
That you pick.
Then.
Then it's a lot easier to hear from God.
And anyway, and yeah, it's, it's a lot easier to hear from God.
It's a lot easier to hear, you know, the direction of what it is.
He really wants you to do because the, what the, the, the.
The waters aren't being muddied by your.
By your desperation or.
Or, or whatever, that it be a particular thing.
And there's nothing wrong with presenting to the Lord.
What it is you want.
But what's going to muddy the waters.
And what is a problem is if we can, if we hold that before the Lord,
like Lord, I really, really want you to do this.
And if you don't, well, then I'm really going to be hurt.
And it's going to cut. I don't want it to, I know I shouldn't,
but it really will damage Lord,
how I see you and whether or not I'm going to feel loved.
And then I'm going to feel scared.
And then I'm going to do that.
And it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a,
it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a, it's a,
it's a, it's a, it's a.
If it be your will.
I asked that this cut past for me, but your will not mind be done.
And it showed that he struggled. Right. But what did he do?
It says he never sinned. Therefore.
He always released it to the Lord.
Okay, Lord, what, you know, I, I, I.
I even emotionally allow myself or to be.
To be a.
Right.
And was, was, I was, I was trying to let go.
To emotionally release myself to whatever it is that you that you to
tell me that you want me to do.
And it's a lot easier to hear the Lord if we emotionally release it.
And remember what I've said.
What I've said before, I don't remember if I said it in this program yet,
but.
Oh, I think I did.
I think I did in one of the teachings and then Ron,
you've heard me say this multiple times.
That it's easier to hear our spirit.
If we, if our soul.
If we allow our soul to say what it is that we really want.
And what it is that we're really struggling with is presented,
not just to ourselves and we're honest with it, but also to the Lord.
This is what I think.
We allow our soul and what we really think to have it say.
Then it's a lot easier to hear our spirit because our soul has felt
like it was acknowledged and had a voice.
It's important to honor every aspect of ourselves and, you know,
what we've been through.
And what we've been through.
And what we've learned.
And, but our soul.
So often is not in alignment with our spirit.
And so let it have it say.
While it's learning.
And then,
and then hear the spirit and then the soul is eventually going to have
to make a decision.
Does it want to go with what it wants to do and what it vocal and,
and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and, and.
And so let it have it say.
It's not going to make the decision.
But let it have it say first.
The poor things, the one that's going to have to choose.
And I'm going to have to live with its decision.
So it really needs to be.
Felt safe enough.
To make the decision.
That it's honored that it's acknowledged that it's remembered that
it's decision is being made in light.
Of what it vocalized.
And then the last thing I wanted to say about the whole, this help,
this to this.
It's the same thing.
About losing weight.
When you're choosing.
Your value.
You're choosing to honor you.
You're you're building up the.
You, if you want to express it like this, it's muscle.
That's a value in yourself.
Then you will love every part of you.
You'll delight in every part of you.
And you.
will love and accept yourself exactly as you are without requiring it to change
and then stop making it change.
Um, and I do mean stop requiring anything of it.
If you can't exercise without, um, requiring it, uh, without, uh, holding
it over your body's head without seeing your body as an enemy, if you can't
diet and I mean like an extreme diet or whatever, uh, without holding it over
your, um, your body that, Hey, it needs to, it needs to respond to this.
It needs to lose weight because you're choosing this over choosing
what you really want to do.
And does it, uh, you know, well then, um, if you, if you are, um, if you
can't do that, then stop doing it.
Stop exercising, stop dieting.
I know that sounds drastic, but what you're doing is you were intent.
You're only doing that.
Trying to break, uh, your, um, uh, your, your habits of viewing your body and
interacting with your body conditionally, you're breaking off the conditions.
You stop putting conditions on it.
Like, okay, if I can't appropriately view my body and interact with my body,
doing these things without holding it over my body's head as conditions, then
I'm going to completely, I'm going to completely stop doing it because all
you're doing is you're trying to remove your association of those
things as being conditions.
You're just breaking a paradigm.
We're simply sorry for the barking dog.
You're just shifting paradigm.
You're not, not going to diet again or not exercise.
You're trying to, uh, again, act on your faith that, okay, if this is true, then I'm
going to prove to you body that I do love you and will fully accept you without
requiring of you to change.
And I hear that I'm, I'm even removing the conditions and in removing the
conditions, I now accept you fully as you are.
And you don't have to ever for the rest of my life, be any different.
You can't tell your body that without actually, um, uh, without like, um, I don't
know, emotionally, emotionally following up with it.
I mean, like you have to actually, truly believe it, choose it.
And then therefore feel it because your feelings will always follow what you
really believe.
So if you still struggle in your feelings, well, then it means that you're, that
your beliefs actually haven't, um, haven't changed.
Um, so, uh, anyway, so the, and then, then after you finally fully accept your
body, as it is not only will your body start dropping weight, probably without
you even doing anything.
Meaning like without you even knowing that you're doing anything because you'll
naturally start making different food choices.
Why?
Because you love you, you no longer hate you.
And you no longer, uh, you're no longer scared of you.
You're no longer scared of what, how your body's going to respond to a cookie.
You no longer have fear.
You're no longer the enemy that you have to constantly fight from the time you
get up to the time you go to bed, whether your body or your soul or whatever,
you're no longer a threat.
So if you're no longer a threat and you govern you, what do you want?
And so I found I had the biggest sweet tooth.
I mean, it's terrifying how much sugar that I used to be able to eat.
Truly.
It's beyond terrifying.
I mean, it's like, I was never bulimic, but it's kind of like what bulimics could
be capable, what could can do only.
I wouldn't throw up or anything, but I could eat a shocking amount of sugar.
I had that much of a, of a sweet tooth until I started to love myself until I
started to love my body.
And still I started to feel, uh, choose that I was safe with God and started
trying to create my own safety elsewhere in food or emotionally or whatever.
And then I naturally stopped wanting sugar because it, and it's not that I
thought sugar was bad.
It's like, I don't like how that makes me feel.
I don't like how this makes me feel.
I like how broccoli makes me feel, or I like how whatever makes me feel.
And then whenever I wanted a cookie, cause trust me, I'd still like to be, I
did one because I was no longer threatened by cookies.
It's no longer threatened by sweet.
So if you're no longer threatened, you find that you really don't want it.
And then sometimes you do.
And then every now and then you do want it and you let yourself eat it.
And, and your body's like, okay, now we can draw a drop weight because your
body really isn't responding to its environment as much as it's really
responding to your mind.
And, um, and whether or not it thinks that it's safe with you.
And then that's determining how it interacts with cookies or how it
interacts with water or how it interacts with sleep.
It's based off of how it feels.
Whether or not feel safe with you as to whether or not, as to how it determines
how it's going to interact with this.
So now I can eat, um, I can eat sweets and they not bother me.
They not affect me.
I mean, sometimes they do.
If I start, if I start going down that path again of like using it, start eating,
uh, you know, start being afraid and eating my feelings and doing all of that.
But again, the problem shifted to my soul, not my body.
And then my body all of a sudden gets scared of me again, you know?
Um, so, but the way to do that is to value you, because if you don't value
you, there's no basis on which for the body or you to feel safe with you.
So you have to be something great.
You have to be as great as God says that you are.
You have to enjoy you as much as God enjoys you.
You have to delight in you as much as God delights in you.
It's the only thing that's going to actually have any substance and any
where, where the body is going to take your kingship seriously is you
actually have to be a real King.
Meaning like you have to see that that's who you are and you have to value
yourself as that, and you have to delight and enjoy that.
I honestly enjoy myself more than anybody else.
Meaning like I enjoy me more than I enjoy anybody else.
And it's because I'm here.
God, I see aspects of myself.
I see, I see aspects of God in myself that I don't see in other people.
And I think I love that aspect of it.
It's amazing.
It's so much fun.
And Oh my goodness, I get to be with it 24, seven.
Isn't that great?
Aren't I just like the most lucky person ever?
That's how it feels because you, you, you, you discover more about God.
The more that you discover about yourself on my word, he created this and on my
word, he delights in this and Oh my goodness, isn't this fun, you know?
You know but I had, I had to choose that and trust me.
I was, you know, very, very, very, very, very, very, very insecure.
Thought I was a doormat thought God's purpose.
My God's purpose for me in life was to be the doormat for everybody else.
And that they had to, that my responsibility was to God was to help
everybody else accomplish what they wanted in their life, whether they
wanted more comfort, they wanted to be able to do things and we wanted to be
able to accomplish things that I was supposed to make those things happen for
them.
I know that might sound crazy, but I thought that that was my existence.
I thought that was my purpose.
And I thought that ever since I was a very, very little girl somehow got
messed, confused interpretation of instructions.
So anyway, is that helpful?
Yeah, that's very helpful.
Uh, I, I feel like, Oh my gosh, it's a big, I have a big job though.
Or I know that it's the journey and everything, but it's, it's really
encouraging.
And at the same time, I'm like, Oh my gosh, this is far away.
Well, just think of it as very, the reason I pointed out, you know, choose
God and choose yourself is make it very simple like that.
Choose the good things, choose love, choose freedom, choose, um, you know,
when God choose, um, choose, uh, the things that you delight in, choose all
that go through the routine that you know, to go through, well, you know, got
a job and got to accomplish all this, but in the middle of all that, always
choose love, always choose freedom.
Always choose, um, you know, God delights me, always choose to delight
in you, enjoy, enjoy yourself, enjoy the thing, enjoy actually doing the
things that you enjoy doing, let yourself do them.
And so make life simple in that aspect, as opposed to trying to obey him,
trying to shift into rest, trying to not work, trying, meaning like trying
to not strive, trying to not sweat, trying to not do this stuff, trying to
stop trying, just focus on, on the good things yet.
And I promise you, you will shift so much faster because that's
the root of the problem anyway.
Very helpful.
All right.
Well, good.
All right.
Well, I will let y'all go.
It's good to get to visit with y'all.
Yeah.
Thank you so much.
Wow.
I'm gonna have to listen to this all over again.
Cause it was so good.
We all do, including me.
Just remember the simple stuff.
If, if all of that, just find all of this stuff, all of those teachings
that I did, you know, the first seven sessions is being like a, you know,
just for a bit, just, you know, just sit there, you know, if you want to
listen to more of them, you know, or listen to them again, you know, just
absorb them and whatever, but again, remember, let your spirit and soul
and body naturally shift without you trying to make it happen just like
you're, you're, you're 95% of, of our decisions anyway, come from our
subconscious and I believe it's reflective of what's happening in the
spirit anyway, you know, meaning like spiritual aspects.
We can't see and just know that everything's going to change very naturally.
And so while God is changing them while he's shifting them, what you
intentionally focus on is not all of that stuff and trying to shift your
paradigm because God's going to shift your paradigm very naturally, you know,
as things adjust, because it'll happen as you choose him.
And then you choose to obey him and believe in him, not obey him.
I mean, well, it is obeying him, but let me choose a different word.
That will resonate a little differently.
We choose him and you, um, and you believe him, believe what he said about
you, that you really are that valuable.
And then act on that faith, act on that choice, act on that decision, act on that
intention, that God really is that what God said really is true by enjoying yourself.
That's the action that you follow the faith with enjoy yourself, put your money
where your mouth is by doing the stuff, doing the things that bring that light,
that, that life, that enjoyment, thoroughly enjoy the moment, you know, and whatever.
So just make all of it very simple, um, for a bit and don't worry about like
trying and, and I know it'll, it can well, I didn't know how it feels like to y'all.
If I were on y'all side, I would think that because I'm such a doer and I'm
like, yeah, but what do I do?
Give me something to grab ahold of.
I would think, yeah, but I'm afraid that if I focus only on that for a week, that
I will, um, I'll be a week behind in the rest of intensive, I promise you that is
not the case, you will, you will move faster through it by getting that right.
People that focus on the, all of the to-dos and the da da da, it takes
them longer, much longer.
I've done this for, I know that three years really isn't a very long time, but
trust me, I have gone through this with dozens and dozens of people that I'm
telling you that the people that, that focus on the big picture first, they're
the ones who ship the fastest, the most effectively in multiple areas of their
life, literally their world gets turned upside down because they change so much.
And they are, and they continually tell me, they even continue to reach out to
me to this day and will tell me over and over and over again for the past few
years, actually, I did not know life with God could be this good.
The people that choose this over focusing on all of this, they're the, they're those
people, these people, their, their road feels like they're plotting a bit harder
and longer, um, but everybody who comes in the Renston intensive has a tendency
to do this, that's why they're attracted to it, to the rest intensive, because I
about leading this lifestyle, like focus on what do I need to do?
What do I need to let go of how to, you know, I'm overanalyzing everything, tell
me what to do and tell me what to apply and tell me what formula to obey.
You know, we have a tendency to do this.
What I do with the rest intensive is invite us all, including me, because I'm
the, like the, like Paul says, you know, I'm the worst center of all of you.
I'm the worst at this and everybody, I had to choose.
I had to choose this and I invite everybody else.
Hey, everybody, there's actually a totally different way to live.
You know, instead of doing this, so we can't even shift into rest by using the
old method of do of overanalyzing that won't work anymore.
So anyway, I'll let y'all go.
Thank you so much.
It was just remember God is more good than we even know.
And we continue to get to discover that every single day.
That's his invitation to you is not to do better and to mature more, but I bet
every morning we wake up and his invitation is, I want you to know how much more good
I am than you believe yesterday.
When I, before you lay down to go to sleep, that's the limitation every day.
All right.
Well, I will see y'all later.
Have a good evening.
Have a great, yeah.
Have a great day.
Bye.