So now we know, all right, I'm so glad.
Thank you all so much for speaking up.
You felt the same way as me.
That's what I would want in your situation.
Let's all be together.
Okay, so I'm just gonna jump off microphone and video
and y'all just catch up with each other.
And, you know, remember that this is basically a,
basically a journey share.
Remember, you're just keep catching people up on,
hey, you know, this is how I'm feeling.
This is what I'm walking through with me in the Lord.
And, and then you just kind of, you know,
we can ask each other questions like,
so why do you think that, you know,
because basically what you're doing
is you're trying to recognize unrest
and how we get into unrest in those situations.
And then how it is that we can,
and not really necessarily how we get into
those situations of unrest,
but basically recognizing them.
What exactly is going on?
Like, and you work kind of like together,
you just kind of discuss together,
throw out ideas like, oh, what do you think about this?
Do you think the reason that you felt that way
is because this happened or, you know, was it,
is it fear that you're actually feeling, you know,
or is it whatever, because remember that this is,
even though we all have our individual experiences of,
and our lives look very unique,
everything that we're dealing with at the root
is the same thing.
We're all dealing with the same spiritual issues.
We're all dealing with fear from fear of God.
We're all dealing with fear of man.
We're all dealing with anxiety.
We're all dealing with wounds from parents
or from school teachers or from, you know,
spouses or from, I don't know,
I don't know, anxiety or struggle with children.
I don't know, whatever it is.
And so, but the thing is that we're all facing
the fact that we're insecure,
that we don't feel that we can trust God,
that we tried before and we saw how that went.
And so now we're afraid.
We all don't want to admit it,
but really that's, we're all dealing with the same thing.
We just all have individual situations
that are triggering it.
And sometimes because the situations look so unique,
we have a difficult time discovering
and finding the common root of it.
So anyway, we can all, we're all in the same position.
We're just all expressing our various unique triggers.
And then we, and then together, you know,
y'all just talk about, okay, well,
how would we shift out of rest
when we're feeling fear of the Lord,
when we are struggling to feel safe with Him,
if we don't feel His love and we don't, you know,
how, what is it that we could do
to try to develop that intimacy?
You know, that kind of a thing.
So, all right.
Well, I hope that y'all have a good time,
you know, catching up
and y'all just decide who gets to start.
If y'all can't decide, start alphabetically by first name.
Hey guys.
Hi, putting on my headphones so I can hear my work.
I work from home and I'm putting on my work headphones.
I really like them.
They're really, I can hear very well, so.
Well, I'm on my computer rather than my phone tonight
so I can hear a little better, so.
Well, Diana, you started talking about your headphones.
I thought you were going to transition it to earphones.
She does start with a D,
so she'd have to go first anyway.
Yeah, we're starting alphabetical order.
Okay, I'll share.
I haven't really done my journey, sure,
because it's been a hard week and I had to,
I saw this meme on Facebook.
It said, it's been a long week
and it's just only Tuesday, right?
It feels like we should be further along in the week.
And, but I'm trying to think,
I've been just listening to some of her videos
and I'm trying to really shift
into more intimate relationship with God, right?
Which is what this is to me all about, right?
Which is what I think we all desire
is to get closer to him and have a, to really know him.
And so that's my desire.
And I've just been like, God,
I'm trying to shut out distractions
and not people per se, not responsibilities
and all of that, but yeah, just try to stay focused.
And I'm thinking to myself, okay, so this is six weeks
and of course I don't want this just.
to be six weeks, but, you know, if I'm not doing it now, when,
you know, it's like, that's the reason I signed up. It's
because I wanted something to shift in my life, I wanted a
breakthrough, I wanted, I want to get closer to God, I went and
so trying to not trying to do or strive or doing all that,
because that's what I'm trying to get out of. But trying to
just spend time with God, like last night, I watched her video
about where she talks about the the those releasing exercises
where you put on the instrumental music, and that was
so good, because I needed it, where you go into that the data,
you know, and you so I did that last night, and I just felt real
at peace. And I did it right before I went to sleep. And so,
you know, just trying to not give God not feeling pressured,
or because sometimes I would feel guilty of Oh, God, I didn't
spend time with you today, or I'm not giving you the first
hour of the day, or I'm not, you know, doing what I should and
all that. Shouldn't shouldn't, like says, shouldn't shouldn't
and, and I don't want to get into that legalism, I want to be
free from all of that. But at the same time, I want to not
draw closer. So how do I do that? How do I get out of the
religious monotony, but yet, you know, stay, you know, draw
closer to him. So that's, it's not really a struggle. It's a
joy because I've been thinking about it today. And, and it's,
it's, it's a joy really to to know him and to experience him.
And so that's, so that's, that's what I've been doing. I
don't know. That's just what I've been thinking about today
and focusing on and trying to not make it about the
shouldn't shouldn't but make it about God. And, and so it's
kind of hard when when you've been in church and for a long
time and you like I'm talking about me when I I just
automatically revert to okay, I'm gonna pray and I know I'm
gonna fast and I'm gonna read my Bible and it's just like, those
are all good things, like she said, but not do it. Like, like
a out of obligation or just because I do a checkmark
checkmark checkmark, you know, so that's that's been a struggle
for me. So thank you for sharing. That was 10 minutes.
That's good. That was good. Thank you.
Next.
Oops.
I mean, can I ask, I know you asked Ashley earlier about
breathing and getting into that calm theta, like you're, I guess
getting practice and being successful. Is that kind of what
you said when you
me? Yeah, yeah. Yes, I was just because I have such a stressful
job. You know, I deal with customers all day. And the
elderly, I work with people with Medicare. And I don't know if
you know, but they're like over 65. And mostly, mostly over 65.
And so I, my job requires a lot of patience and a lot of
compassion. And so I, it's hard sometimes, you know, because
they get upset and like that, but it's stressful. And so at
the end of the day, I want to be able to just kind of relax
and, and go into that, that she talks about. And I'm telling
you, I listened to that video. And that song she played, I
have to I have to ask what song is that in the video, but
immediately, I was just like, just feeling that just such a
peace came over me. I was like, I don't know, it's just not the
song, but that the music was so relaxing. It was just so good.
Yeah. I think I'm gonna make it I'm gonna try to do that. You
know, at the end of the, you know, the day just, you know,
sleep.
I think I need one of those video or you know, the that
soundtrack or whatever, too.
Yeah, yeah.
Well,
Do you want me to go?
Okay.
I listened to that too.
I think it's.
Well I listened to part of.
I think it's a rest group one and the rest group. Is it three or four the one that King's Kings and.
And, yes, that one.
Yeah, I in fact I saved them so I could get back to me easier.
Yeah, it's one in four I think but one of them does the meditations like you're talking about. And that is that music and that you guys yeah that is so good.
It is so good. And I did I did it yesterday. I did the 10 minute one yesterday and then today I went back and did the 10 minute and then she does another 10 minute.
And it was a different music but they're both really good.
And yeah, yeah because that's when I heard her talking about.
Well, several things have opened up for me in the last couple of days I will have to tell you that but when I heard her talking about meditation helps traumas all the way back to age three that the theta, when you drop down to theta, you can actually
help heal traumas, even things that sleep can't do because your body's busy when you sleep, I guess.
And that you can heal traumas I'm like whoa this and now I understand why so many people are kind of teaching on meditation you know and I've done a tiny bit of it but I was like, I really need to go back and listen to that video so I did and I did it
yesterday and today and then I also did the other one which was what I'm why am I having a hard time remembering the other one was, what's the other one is it in the exercise in it besides the meditation is the gosh I'm having a hard time remembering now, but the
exercise but there's, there's a kind of exercise in it to all think of it in a minute, but really to be honest and I finally did a short video you guys were tonight right before we came on.
I saw that. Yes, that was good.
Did you listen to it.
And I did a short discussion the other night because she actually said that's important so, but I have really realized what she talked about you guys about the fact that we have the walls up.
The walls are walls up from letting God's love in oh that's the other one is practicing letting God's love in where she, she did that and I've been trying to practice that some at night with not huge success but I still say it's just, I guess I'll say it's
just because I'm still practicing. And so we'll call it a success but boy I tell you it's been yesterday I just really realized that I have not been vulnerable either with the Lord.
When Ashley was talking about that and so I sat down and wrote yesterday and, and just avoid some things just kind of came out that I, you know, and I just embrace the feelings with the Lord.
That's one thing I've been learning to do this last year is it's not stuff feelings but embrace them with the Lord, and then write them out if you can and let them go to the Lord.
So you get them out you don't stuff them, but boy did I did I embrace some things, just to get transparent that,
you know, and it was it was, it was, it was good you know but I.
I didn't realize all this so this is a real eye opener you know, and,
you know, and then today I really kind of did it again. I did some more writing today,
feeling like I just need to keep keep this journey on and being vulnerable with the Lord and, and,
you know, and it's.
I just also realize it is it's kind of hard because I realized to I've been on this healing journey for a long time I don't know about you guys but I started on it like over 20 years ago and really got started getting more inner healing.
Gosh over 15.
Over 15 years ago so it's kind of like another thing hit me a while ago it was kind of hard was, you know, wondering how much how much progress have I really made because, because here I find myself here after doing it you guys I do more work than hardly
anybody I know.
I've done, you know, a lot of different stuff.
I'm still doing in fact I have another session tomorrow with with the Oaks rising, which has been real helpful too but but this thing. This is really, I think this is really.
Really good stuff to the two things of not being vulnerable with the Lord and then the one that hit me again after reading some Ashley's comments I think is where I read them maybe even her comment back to my discussion was that we have accusations against the Lord.
And I didn't realize that. So I went today you guys and I wrote the accusations.
And they just came out things I didn't even know even like came out of me was like, Lord, I guess I have an accusation why you, why, why, you know, why didn't you heal my mother, who had mental illness most of my life, and it came out.
And why didn't you heal their marriage.
And these things just started coming out.
And, and, and, you know, those are the first two things I remember.
And, wow, you know, although it's it's really hard kind of hard stuff to, to do this stuff but it's.
I can see where it's it's freeing, you know is going to be freeing to get these things out because these must be buried so far in there.
Because I didn't know I still had accusation against the Lord about my mother and, and my mom and dad's marriage I didn't know that.
And many times as I've forgiven my mother and layer these onions and onions and my father and, and it's like whoa. Okay.
So, so it was kind of good. I didn't have a lot of my calendar today and then I ended up with a couple things later but I, I had, I had the whole morning and, and then,
I've prepared some food this week even some extra foods are foods ready and I still think I, and I got to do my meditation and then I finally did these accusations so.
So anyway, I just feel like this is a really, you know, a really going to be really helpful.
Although I also you know my relationship with my husband just to be vulnerable with you all has been on again off again it's not been good.
So, it's just even from the start it's kind of a long story but he was married 30 years and his wife passed, and I knew both of them and then we started dating.
Shortly after his wife passed and Ashley met him.
He was at the address rest conference with me. First conference we went to together. And then we ended up getting married pretty shortly after and it was just, it just was really pretty hard out of the shoot off and on.
And, you know, good in ways but hard in ways and then the next year turned out to be like the most last year was the most stressful year, or actually they know the year we got married all kinds of things happened and my whole family turned against me sued me.
And I didn't fight them, but so I lost really connection with my family and all these.
Anyway, other stuff happened. And so finally Ken and I split up.
And actually and I don't even know if Ashley knows this, but actually actually I'm just going to be vulnerable actually, I was so hurt by some things and just miscommunications and stuff that I divorced, I filed for divorce.
And then about six months later, we got back together last fall, and we kind of both agreed to do whatever it took. But, you know, that's kind of not, it's kind of like we've done some things and the hard part is I think we do love each other but it.
So some things we agreed to do just aren't aren't all hat aren't really happening. And so I just kind of feel like this is a time I need to just work on this journey here of letting God's love in more.
So, I don't know what's going to happen with my relationship and kind of even in these last couple of days I've just kind of been like, you know, I think I was trying to control things I was trying to probably codependence showed up again in my life which I didn't, I thought
I'd done work on and so I'm just facing a lot of things.
Right now, and in some financial stuff.
But I, I'm hopeful, because this is I think going to be.
I'm really glad I took I'm really glad that I'm on this journey with you guys.
isn't the rest intensive. So I feel like I'm on the right path.
And I just gonna have to let things go to God and let their
relationship go to God. And, and you know what, it's, it's, it's
in, it's really in his hands. So. So anyway, thanks for
listening. Thanks for sharing. Yes, thanks for sharing that,
Karen. Yeah. Oh, can I ask, um, so when you brought up, when
you're having your time with the Lord and the accusations were
coming up, like, how did you, I guess, engage the Lord with that?
Or did you just ask him if there's accusations or? Well,
let's see, I am. Um, what I did, I'm looking here. I just I
write that's I learned a long time journal. I journal a lot. I
took a class or I heard a class like 20 over 20 years ago. I
still remember a lady named Linda Makovitz taught a class.
If you don't know if you're hearing from God, or want to
hear from God, just write it down, ask him a question. And
you're more apt to stop and listen, if you do it on paper,
that if you just ask him a question, you'll go on to the
next thought. And it was like a 30 minute class changed my life
forever. And I've passed that little tip on to so many people.
And I just start would start asking him questions. But you'd
be amazed, you know, sometimes I'd get one word, sometimes two
words, and next thing you know, you get longer, blah, blah, blah.
So I learned, I write. And so I just said, I believe I'm holding
accusations against you, God. And I'm so sorry, forgive me,
this came up in my heart. And then, and then it just flew out
of me. That's all I said. And it flew out of me, you didn't hear
my mom, or their marriage. And I've felt alone, and not love
most of my life. I took on codependency tendencies,
because I took on taking care of my mom, because she had mental
illness. And to maybe to have someone to love me or care for,
I guess. And, you know, and I feel like I've done it again. So
it just came out of me. But that's how I've learned is by
writing. So that's how I started it. And I have this beautiful
journal, my friend paints prophetic journals in Kansas
City. Yes, you just give her your name, and she'll, the Lord
will show her a journal that's for you. And then she she gives
you a prophetic word inside of it. And this is they've been
really good, because they just draw, then they just draw you to
them. So writing is how I that's how I started it. So thank you.
Yeah, appreciate that.
Sure.
Oh, it's my turn.
Rita, Rita.
I know. I'm always like, what am I going to share? I need to,
okay, I need to write it down. Um, but so I do need help,
because my dad's older. And I was like, I, um, you know, I've
had conversations with him recently, and they're just
unpleasant. And, you know, you forgive them. And you don't
want to, you know, have hard, hard feelings. But I just have
this thing, like, I don't even want to talk to him. And like, I
need to, I guess, process that with the Lord. But today, I
guess, let me just start from the beginning. So I needed to
start back to the beginning. I mean, actually keep saying,
like, love is foundational, and no condemnation, you know, so
you can receive freedom a lot sooner. And today, when I was
getting anxious about work, and I'm like, why am I feeling
anxious? And it's because, you know, I'm, I'm kind of a
supervisor. Well, that's my title. I'm a supervisor. So
they're asking me questions, we got new tasks, everybody had to
be done by the end of the day. And I was like, but I have my
own stuff to do, and get done by the end of the day. And I just
like, I could feel the panic coming on. Or the anxiety, I
don't do panics. Yet. I don't want to. But and then I just
said, Lord, you love me. And I just, all I care is that you
love me.
And I just realized, like, at the beginning of this,
today, you know, us logging in, I was like,
Lord, I did get all my stuff done before.
Yeah, before the end of the day,
because yesterday I didn't,
and I was feeling, you know, unhappy about it.
But just today I was like, oh my gosh.
I mean, the anxiety went away too,
and I didn't, you know, really realize that.
But because I'm, you know, trying to receive his love,
and then I still have to get up
because someone's calling me or something.
And I just, you know, but I'm just grateful that,
yeah, I can just always turn to him.
And yeah, I need to see that more in my journey.
But yeah, that's kind of it for now, yeah.
Thank you, Rita.
Yeah, thank you, Raze.
What do you do during the day?
Like, when you're, what did you do to, like,
shift out and shift into rest during the workday?
Is there a specific thing that you do or a tool that you use?
Um, yeah, I mean, definitely acknowledging where my state,
I mean, in the beginning of the day, I try to, you know,
I do the exercise of I'm abiding and, you know,
trying to, you know, be in my union
and just be reminded of that in the beginning of the day.
But then once you get to work,
I feel like I go into autopilot
until something triggers my emotion.
And then when I'm, yeah, when I'm not happy,
then I'll just, like, why am I feeling like this?
And I'm like, oh, I just need to turn to your love.
And I just say, like, Lord, you love me
and you delight in me.
And you love that I'm doing this with you and whatever.
And then my tasks are very tedious or menial.
I mean, I just, they're not fun,
just a lot of data entry and stuff,
but just telling him he's doing it with me
and that he loves me while I do it.
So that's pretty much how I get
over the mundane-ness of my job.
Yeah. That's good.
I love that, Rita.
Sorry.
That's from Ashley.
Hey.
Thanks for sharing.
Yeah.
Okay. I guess it's my turn.
So I don't know.
Should I start with, okay, I'll start,
like, I'll do a mixture.
Start with the praise report from last time.
So I was, I guess I mentioned, shared with you guys
that I was just like, I was triggered by my husband.
And so I asked Ashley just about like,
okay, what do you do?
Because I was realizing that I self-soothed.
And so she talked about like, it's okay to like,
she used the Bible verse or area about wrestling with God,
about Jacob wrestling with God.
And it's like, okay.
Cause I think for me, I realized it's like,
if I have feelings that aren't pretty,
you know what I mean?
Like, it's like, no, I'm offended.
You did this to me.
And no, I don't feel like forgiving you.
You know what I mean?
Like, I'm over your nonsense.
Like, that was the state that I was in.
And so, like, I was like,
I didn't feel like I could really bring that to God.
Cause I'm like, it wasn't loving.
I know it wasn't Christ-like, you know what I mean?
Like, but I was like, that's how I was feeling, you know?
And so having her say, like, it's okay to like,
bring, you know, your feelings to God,
like that helped me to like,
I talked it out with him in my head and I was like,
okay, okay.
So then I felt better about it.
And then I brought it to my husband
and he received it really well.
It was a good conversation.
You know, they've been getting, you know,
it could be, girl, you never know what you're gonna get.
So anyway, it was a good conversation.
God's been working on them.
So it's definitely improvement overall,
as far as progress, but still.
So that was good.
And I guess, but even, I think just being in that like,
place of like, not wanting to deal with the world,
like I kind of like, realized that I try to self-suit
by just like, escaping the world.
Like, nope, I don't want to deal with it.
Like, I'll just turn the show on
and I'll live in this fantasy world and whatever.
You know what I mean?
And before when I had like a nine to five,
it was like, okay, well you got to get up.
Like, you just got to get to moving, you know?
And now I'm like, okay, I don't have to go nowhere.
Like.
You know, no one's telling me I'm so it's bad. But anyway, um, it's good, though, because I like,
it's good, though, because I realized that this has still been like my mode of operating for a
really long time. And because I had those things in place, like, you got to go to work at a certain
time, like that would cause you to like, it would cause me not to dwell on it and to be able to like
move on, so to speak, but it wasn't like moving on in a healthy way. You know what I mean? It was
still like, I really wasn't dealing where you just move past it, you know? So I'm glad that I'm,
I have this time because I can, like, I can't blame my unhealthy habits or unhealthy choices
on anybody, but me, they're my choices, you know what I mean? So, um, it's good, because I'm having
to come to terms with that, because I've realized that, like, I guess, I know I isolate from people,
but I guess I just realized, too, like, while one hears that, I also isolate from God. Like,
I don't want to talk to him either, you know? It's like, I don't feel like, I feel loved. I don't feel
like he loves me, just doesn't love me. I don't feel that. I do just, just feel like I guess I
have to figure things out on my own, and then that's where, like, the, the mind, the, like,
negative, like, the circling, looping thoughts or whatever will go on until, like, I'm
broken out of that. So my wonderful, delightful friend, Kim, who told me about this program,
and she's, she's been through this, and so she just, like, God just puts me on her heart,
and she will be like, Tim, are you okay? Like, I just, like, what's going on? And so she called
me, and I had opened up to her before, just about just really, like, feeling really dark feelings,
and she was just really, like, it was really great, and God used her to kind of help to transition me
out of that, and I wasn't quite in that same place, but I definitely was going there again,
and I'm just, like, I'm so thankful for my friends, but also, I'm like, okay, Timmy,
you need to choose better, like, enough's enough, like, you can't have your friends be, like, calling
you all the time, because you need to get your stuff together, and I know that might sound like,
oh, well, it's not work, I just need to choose better, like, if you know better, choose better,
like, period, you know, and so that's kind of, like, so her and her husband interceded for me
that night, and I felt a lot better after we talked, and then that evening, and in this morning,
that was, like, yesterday, so I felt better. I, today, I went to volunteer at a school, I was,
like, really excited to volunteer at the library at a school, so that was great, so it was good to,
like, have a purpose, and have somewhere to go, and, you know, and so that's good, so I'm going
to make sure that I integrate that more, so I just, I've definitely had a much better day, and
you know, even my friend Kim, she was, like, you know, you just got it, your job is to choose to
believe, and I was, like, okay, okay, so I texted back, I choose to believe, so, like, that was a
declaration, so I'm looking forward to just being, like, going, progressing, and just getting out of
these loops that I recognize about myself, and just being more consistent about choosing God, so
thanks for listening, and Karen, thank you so much for those tips about, like, journaling, I wrote
those down, like, and I realized, too, there's, like, I don't feel like I really have accusations
against God so much, it's, like, I have accusations against myself sometimes, it's, like, well, you
should have known better, you know what I mean, it's, like, so it's just, so that was really helpful
for me, because I think that'll add another layer, and just consistency on, like, doing those things
so I can be aware of my feelings, and then I can present them to God, and we can just keep this
process moving in a positive way, so thank you, yeah, thank you, thanks for sharing, and that's
good, thank you, and I didn't think I had accusations, really, either, but then once she said it, I thought,
once I read that, in that discussion, I thought, I wonder if I have accusations,
and that's why, that's why I found journaling to be so, so helpful, it's, I get so much more
out if I, if I write my feelings out, or anything, and it's, it's, it's, it's become a habit,
it changed my life, I remember always wanting to spend time with God, talk to God, and, you know,
but then work got in the way, you know, everything in the world, and then, but when I started writing,
is really when I started hearing from God more, and even, I remember one time, he wrote, like,
trust, trust, and obey, he said it every,
day for like two weeks to me, that's it, trust and obey,
trust and obey, trust and obey. And then I get believe and
receive, believe and receive, believe in us, and be over and
over and over. And then, you know, and then one day, I'd get
like two paragraphs and go, whoa. And then, you know, like
this lady said, if you find out you're not really hearing from a
God, and it's just you. So what have you lost? You're, you're at
least, but you'll find some patterns and see some things
where it really was God after a while. And so it really has been
helpful. And it doesn't hurt to have a nice journal. Y'all
should get yourselves one.
What is that painting behind you? What is that painting?
But any journals work? I believe me, I have a ton of just, you
know, $2 general journals work. Um, yeah, that is the seven
spirits of God. Painting a pastor painted. Yeah. Wow. I
like I've been really thank you. Thank you. Yeah. Yeah. So
it's, it's something funny that I just read. Yeah, we're talking
about your significant other. It says female dragonflies will
fake their own death to avoid mating with unwanted males. I
thought that was so funny.
flies will fake their own death to avoid mating with unwanted
males.
Oh, you went you went you're you're muted now, Diana.
I said that to me was like, well, that's a smart dragon.
That's the funniest thing I've heard. Oh my gosh, girl.
Oh my word. Well, I have just been over here to thank you,
milord. I'm like, Lord, they're doing it. Y'all have made a
huge transition for the last time. Excellent. Great. So I'm
so excited. Okay. And let me put my other camera back on just a
second. Let's see. Oh, my word. Oh my goodness. Here we go.
Right. So that's great. I am so excited for all of the
breakthroughs that y'all have been receiving from the Lord,
you know, Rita, you said that you're choosing the Lord,
you're like, Okay, I am doing mundane tasks, and the Lord is
delighting in me while I'm doing them. That's great. Seriously,
that will, that will transform everything to understand that
God delights in us. And in us when we're when we feel when we
have when we struggle to and to connect what we're doing with a
contribution. And I understand that you know that you're
contributing, but there's a reason why you feel that it's
mundane, meaning like, it's not bringing life to you. And so
that's what I'm talking about. It's not like you can't like
have a have a definitive outcome that you can point to. It's that
in you, you don't feel like life is coming out of you. So
emotionally, we have a difficult time connecting that with God
being, you know, God, the lighting in us, with we feel
happy, if we feel alive, it's easier for us to translate at
that as Oh, God is happy with me too. But when we're struggling,
because we don't have that that fire within us. And who was I
talking to? Oh, I was talking to Annette, she in the in the
rest intensive, you'll the rest intensive in the rest group that
y'all see when I get that uploaded earlier this afternoon,
she was talking about the same thing about this idea, or I was
talking the same thing about talking this about the same
thing to her, this idea that of, of, of connecting with the fact
that God delights in us, regardless of what we're doing,
and just bringing it back to that point. And oh, you know
what, I'm wrong, it was related to something that Renata said,
but it was, I was obviously Annette and Renata, Renata were
both on the call. And so I was talking to both of them about
this and kind of like trying to encourage them. And I encourage
all of y'all to watch it when I get it uploaded, because it's
basically simplifying what it is that we should focus on right
now, if we're having a difficult time letting things go, just
focus on you, and, and choosing God, and on choosing to believe
what he says about you choosing to that God delights in you, and
therefore you delight in the thing that God delights in. And
by doing that, you'll be shocked at how easy it is to let things
go, because you'll effortlessly let things go by trying to
choose this. And anyway, so Rita, you're
Doing it, that's wonderful, I'm so excited for you.
So I've been with Rita for a while now, you know,
so I always get really excited when I see these new ways
in which she's going deeper and deeper and deeper.
And see, you know, she's going through the rest intensive,
you know, for, it's the rest intensive specifically,
she's going through the second time, why?
Because you can use the exact same principles
to go deeper than you did before.
You know, use them to go to this level.
And once you hit this level, you're like, okay,
I'm going to use the exact same principles to go deeper.
And now, because now you can,
now you can see a deeper level to which they apply.
I mean, Karen, oh, my word,
just like open up the floodgates.
I'm so excited, seriously,
complete transformation is now available.
It's all the difference in the world
in being able, in what we have accessible to us
simply by being vulnerable to the Lord.
We don't have to be vulnerable to other people
in order to do that.
But we don't, if we're not vulnerable with other people,
typically it means that we're not vulnerable to the Lord.
There's no way to be vulnerable to the Lord
and not vulnerable to other people.
There's just no way whatsoever.
So I think that it's wonderful.
I'm so excited for you because after last time,
I was like, Lord, I really hope that she has the courage
because it's like, everything's on the other side.
Freedom's on the other side.
Everything she wants from God is on the other side.
So I'm so excited because each of us here,
we're on our own journey of what we want with our father.
The rest of us just have the privilege
of getting to be part of someone else's journey,
get to be encouraged by someone else's journey.
But each of us is on our own individual relationship
with the Lord where the Lord is very jealous of it.
It's he and us.
The rest of us are just honored
to get to just have like a front row seat
and to be encouraged by being allowed the privilege
of access to watch someone else's journey
and to hopefully be pushed further along the path
and encouraged further along in the path
by simply being, like I said,
being exposed to the courage that someone else has.
And so anyway, I'm excited for the breakthrough
that you had with the Lord.
I think that that was great,
what you were talking about a lot about riding the step down
and how things just naturally just started flowing out
of you between you and the Lord.
Like, okay, Lord, I'm gonna be honest.
And the Lord's like, okay, see, I always knew it was there,
but now we can deal with it.
Now you can be free.
You know, now you don't have to be
under that bondage anymore.
Oh, they're excited for you.
That's huge, that's huge.
And Diana, oh my word, you know,
everything it is that you've been going through this week,
I'm so sorry, you know, it's just been a big,
it's been a lot, it's been heavy,
but you've also been experiencing the deeper,
more intimate communication, you know, with the Lord,
the deeper intimacy,
because you were wanting to hear more from him
and go deeper into his heart.
And boom, already, immediately,
he just started opening himself up to you.
He's like, I'm excited.
I'm excited for what you're experiencing.
And speaking of that, I'd forgotten,
let me write that down.
There was, you were talking last time
about the fact that God was processing with you
through grief, you know, some stuff.
And there was a post that I made about the time,
actually, that I, in fact, it was,
it was the time that I did this recording
for the Interest Rest Conference,
you know, that y'all were watching.
I was going through the grieving process
of having to let my dog go to another home.
So I let her go to a friend,
a mutual friend of Karen's and mine, Adrienne Kimmons.
She and her husband take in special needs dogs,
or in my case, just a senior dog.
And I'd had her for nine years.
This was my little child.
In fact, I even had a dream about her.
And I don't know how to express to you.
I have a picture of her next to, on my nightstand.
And it's the only picture on my nightstand.
I mean, I, you know, I loved my little girl.
She was so special, and the Lord healed me
so much through her.
So when the Lord tells me that while she's living
to pass her on to someone else
because he wants me to go travel overseas, you know,
with him, it, it, I struggled so much.
And it broke my heart to such a degree
that it wasn't until, I think it was,
It wasn't until she passed away a week before my husband and I got married that I finally
could talk about her without crying.
I mean, just talk about her, you know, and I'd, and I'd been separated from her for a
year by that point.
And I up to that point had not been able to even talk about it without crying or think
about her without crying.
So I was, she meant a lot to me.
And so the Lord had me let go of a being, no, it's not a human, but a being that while
she was still living and I, and she wasn't with me anymore.
And that was a very unique kind of a grief for her to still be existing, but me to not
get to have her, me to not get to access her and me not having been married at the time
or having children for nine years, being with this little companion would, and then
all of a sudden be separated from her.
Oh my word.
It was, I was shocked at how hard that it was and how attached I was to an animal.
It wasn't even a human.
I mean, and I thought I was doing a good job of being like separated and understanding
she's an animal.
You know, I didn't like people calling her by my last name and stuff like that.
I'm like, no, no, no.
She didn't have my last name, but I am telling you what I was connected to her.
So I did, so the Lord kind of watched me through this process of how to grieve with
grieve over something with the Lord in rest.
And I did a video, um, I think just, uh, maybe just a few days after I finished this conference,
you know, the NRS rest conference where I did this, the, um, the, of the recordings
that we're watching.
And so I'll try to find that and post that for you, um, just for you to watch.
It may not, you might be able to find some kind of, uh, of meat in there of like a principle
because the whole point is the principle of how to grieve something with God in rest,
in rest.
It's, it's an animal, it's not a person, but the whole point of it, what, or that's what
prompted me.
But remember, we all go through our own unique situations and it was the principle of, of
like the accusations that came up between me to God, because I was grieving to anyone.
I'll try to post that in the group, um, you know, and, um, yes, we look at you, like I
said, just like I was telling all of the others you're doing it, you are, you're facing it,
you know, and you have decided that, okay, you know, maybe I can trust God with my emotions.
Maybe I can trust God when I feel the most vulnerable, when I feel the most, like my
feelings aren't.
And I thought that, yeah, I loved how you worded it.
They're not pretty.
You know, when I don't feel like I've got something beautiful and put together, you
know, to give to the Lord, to offer to the Lord is like, okay, Lord doesn't take me as
I am.
And, and you're choosing to trust that he's safe, that he's a safe place when you're the
most vulnerable, because we're the most vulnerable when we feel like we don't have anything that
we're, we feel like we're coming with nothing, but us, nothing was just our raw selves.
We're not, we don't, we don't even have it almost like it's like, we don't even have
a sense of self.
We don't have a sense of like, of anything valuable that we can contribute.
And so the Lord, what the Lord does when we come to him in that most vulnerable state
is he proves to us experientially, in other words, by actually experiencing the fact that
he finds value when we've brought nothing that we understand as value.
And then he shows us, no, the raw essence, that's where the value is.
And we can tell ourselves that all we want, but it's not until we actually come to him
with nothing, but our raw selves, that we find out that he really does value the raw
self and not the other stuff.
I mean, like he doesn't even value the other stuff at all that, that other stuff that he
talks about that we keep attributing value to is the, is the stuff that he says is supposed
to come naturally out of, in other words, be the expression of our raw selves.
All he cares about is the raw self, not the expression.
The expression is just something that he talks to us about of something we can expect to
see when we are our raw selves, but it's our raw self that has the value, not what it expresses,
not the goodness that it expresses, not the obedience that it expresses, but the raw self
that the obedience comes out of.
That is what has the value.
So anyway, but I'm excited for everyone.
That's great.
Does anyone have let me check the time really quick.
Oh, we are almost done.
So you have just a few minutes, but does anyone have any questions?
You know, anything kind of like they've been running into kind of any
obstacles or hurdles or just wondering.
Oh, and while y'all are thinking of that.
So be thinking of that.
Are you thinking of that?
I heard y'all talking about really enjoying that.
Song.
I don't know which song that y'all were referencing.
And I'm trying to remember if it was two or three that were in that,
in that session.
But.
How many were there? Were there two or three?
Do you remember?
No, I don't know.
The second one, I'm going to have to go back and,
and remind myself of it. But the first one.
The first one is called a finding rest.
That's the name of that song.
Finding rest.
Yeah. So I'm going to try to find that and put it on a playlist.
And give y'all access to the playlist.
So it's something I've been meaning to do for a while.
And with everything that I have going on, in other words,
multiple things that I'm trying to add to the platform to make it more
robust.
That's one of the things on the list.
I'll try to bump it up on the list is, is creating that playlist.
And so anyway, that one very.
Absolutely.
It's called finding rest and the, and another one, and I don't.
I think that.
I think that it was the one that accompanied.
On the love affair when, you know, where it's like, I said, you know,
look for, look for Jesus, you know, ask Jesus where he is.
You know, the very first session.
And I had an instrumental going.
And I was like, you know, I don't know.
I'm not sure.
But I think that that one was the one that's called be still and no.
Again, the whole, you know, letting go, whatever.
So all of these things were just very.
Absolutely.
And no, I didn't write these songs.
They were great.
And then what I would do is I found these songs and I've listened to
them and I thought.
That if it sounded like what.
If I felt like it had this spirit of what its title implied,
then I included it.
And there were some that talked about rest. I'm listening to,
and I'm going, that doesn't sound like rest.
You know, then I didn't play it at the, at the, at the conference,
but if it did.
And that thought, okay, no, that has,
that has what it is that I'm looking for.
That really does have that note of rest within it.
Anyway, so.
Okay.
So we really are at time, but.
Does anyone have any question before we jump off?
I have a quick question. I don't know if it's possible,
but you know how we were supposed to all meet one Saturday.
And it was before it really kicked off.
And.
Was Norway there too.
I was just wondering if there was a time we could all be here.
Yeah.
Well, we can do that.
And.
Yeah, I can put that together and see if.
And see if that's possible for everyone's schedules. Yes.
So the one that we were all that we all met together was the.
Not last weekend, but the one before.
Was that right?
Yeah.
Yeah, not last weekend, but the one before,
but the one before.
Yeah.
I know where it was like several hour when that.
Annette and Renata were there for all of Saturday in the part of
Sunday.
So, and so they were there during the discussion groups,
but I suppose we all just come split out and then we very rarely were
all together. We were a little bit, but not much.
So what I can do is I can see.
So I can see if I can see if we can all get together.
That's kind of a good question.
I'm going to go back to my, my minutes.
I'm going to go back to my last rest intensive. Maybe they can,
you know, even though it's very late.
They could jump in. So we'll see.
So that is really good to know that everybody wants to see if we can
all get together because they are really a lot of fun.
The two of them.
And so it would be fun.
So, but yeah, I'll look into that.
See if we can do that. That would be fun.
Yeah.
I'm going to look into that.
Yeah.
On one of the weekend days. So, oh, okay.
Yeah. Not just, yeah.
Not just to like.
But I don't know if that was available. I've just,
I just put it out there and y'all can think about it or if it doesn't
Everyone wants to see if we can do that, because it is the most fun if we're all there. Otherwise, you know, I get to meet with everybody, but everybody's kind of segmented.
fit the schedule, then it's fine.
Okay. All right.
Well, that's good.
All right. Well, I will look into that.
All right.
Oh, good. All right. Well, I will look into that. Anything else before we jump off? We're all good?
Okay, y'all are easy. Okay, well, don't forget the journey shares, everyone.
Okay, I'll work on it.
A little something to do, have to do, but I am telling you what, it makes all the difference. I promise you, I promise you, I promise you.
And so if I were to show you the number of posts and how vulnerable they were for certain people that have gone the farthest, the fastest, you know, you would, you would all want to do
journey shares. So I'll try to say again, I'm going to continue as we talk about stuff. I'm going to try to share other people's journey shares that I think would be especially encouraging.
And then you can see how other people have like opened themselves up. And then these people are people that have like really transitioned very far, very fast and have owned it
between them and the Lord. And they're people that I still have connection with or, you know,
and seeing what it is that they're doing. And they really have owned it. So it really is. It's very real. It's not inspirational. It's them owning it and then actually transforming their relationship with the Lord. So anyway, okay, well, love you all. And I will see you on Thursday.
Thank you.
Okay, Shalom.
Shalom.