Happy Mother's Day in Norway. So I guess I'll be doing a two-for-one again today
because I've been picking sugar cookies. They're really good. The reason I was actually showing
the sugar cookies is because I had a super inspiring rest group with Renata and Ashley
on Wednesday and I was supposed to jump on and share but I didn't. It was just really good in
learning or getting perspective on how to be at rest in the here and now even though
you're longing for slash have an inner drive slash have an inner knowing that
you're made for more, created for more, and that more is to come but for right now
you just need to like surrender and be free. So I was super inspired about that
and I guess since Wednesday, no it's Tuesday, so I guess since Tuesday I've been trying to
remind myself about that. Also Ashley was saying what brings you joy like do more of that.
So cooking and baking in particular makes me happy but on the flip side I've always had
a strenuous relationship with my body as most of us probably have and with an eating disorder way
back and still like trying to navigate everything and I've had success in like counting calories but
then since losing my dad I've gained weight whereas I was hoping I would lose weight because
that's what happened when I had a previous crisis where I had called off a wedding. I dropped a lot
of weight whereas this time around I gained weight and so I am now trying to not try and I'm
navigating that in like how to just release and let go and try to be like that balloon
with both my work and with the weight. So I think those are like my main two things.
I am trying to find freedom in and rest in currently. So that's where I'm at. I guess
that's my two for one. I did enjoy dinner at my mom's today because it's Mother's Day in Norway
and I baked sugar cookies for her and my sister-in-law and my sister and then there's
more to spare for Valentine's Day on Tuesday where I'll give out some Valentine's goodies to
um like the swim community that I have where I live and possibly some of my co-workers although
we're giving out love hearts to all of them. So yeah I guess that's where I'm at. I'm trying to
let go and live in freedom and necessarily not being happy with nine to five and the job that I
have but learning to be at peace where I am letting go of needing to understand and just
trusting God that he will take me where I need to be when I need to be there because he's in control
and same thing about um the weight trying to let go um and not control it.
Probably will have to have another chat about that. Hope you're all having a great Sunday. I
think it's Super Bowl Sunday so yay team whoever you're rooting for. I hope it's gonna be an
amazing halftime show with Rihanna and that you're enjoying friends and family time with
loads of snacks. So bye!