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Can I do it? There we go. Yeah, I'm just telling her that, I mean, I work around, as Rita knows,

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from having been through it last fall slash, you know, the last part of last year, I work around

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the big holidays, like Thanksgiving, Christmas, stuff like that. But otherwise, especially over,

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if it's going to be over six weeks, I just, I just have to pick my times and then just tell

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everybody who this is what we're doing, if you want to join us during this particular program,

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this is what we got. So because otherwise, it's just too many, it's because what I'm having to

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work around already is four time zones, just within the contiguous United States, and then

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not to mention the international. So I threw in an international rest group this time as well.

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So I often meet with them an additional time at three o'clock p.m., you know, on Tuesday. And so

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when it just kind of hits on on holidays, and just like, you know what, we're just going to call it good.

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I suppose that if it is just like vitally important to someone that they just,

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that they have their Super Bowl party tonight, they can do that. But I was like, you know,

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the rest of us, we're just going to meet as usual. Yeah, all of my and my parties in there,

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we've also been celebrating my husband's birthday. And then it's not today, but it was the

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celebration today, because everybody was all together. And also, so my husband is half Cuban.

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So they have Noche Buena, Noche Buena, Noche Buena. I don't remember, Noche Buena, maybe.

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It always sounds like Noche Buena when they say it, but I bet you it's Noche Buena. Anyway,

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which is basically their Christmas. It happens on Christmas Eve, it's a really big dinner.

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And it's always bigger than Christmas. And it's the night before. Well, so it's such a big deal

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that because we were all able to be together this Christmas, because we were with my family,

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they waited to celebrate until we could all be together. So we were all together. And we had a

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whole, I don't know how many people we had, 11, 10 people over something like that all together.

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And so we celebrated that and then Super Bowl. So it was a lot of kinds of stuff. So anyway,

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but yeah, we've been having a good time, been eating really well, and just having some deep

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theological, or not deep theological, but deep like personal relationship with God,

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discussions and stuff. So anyway, so I've been enjoying everybody's journey shares.

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Love it. And let's see, I was, I watched, saw Renata, and I was sad that I had not been able

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to get at the Fireside Chat, the last one that we did so that she could have known

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that we had been talking about her and been so excited and motivated and inspired by the fact

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that she was jumping on live. Because she talked in her, if y'all have seen it, her most recent

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journey share, I think it's the most recent, that she talked about, I think it was,

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yep, she posted it yesterday, maybe, or two days ago, about the fact that she had done her very

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next live, the one that she'd been nervous about, and basically kind of response from it. And she

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said that even one person had approached her personally, and meaning like in person, and said

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that, hey, you know, can you explain to me more about this experience that you've had of shifting

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into rest, and how the lady began to, after she heard Renata's side, she began to talk about like,

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well, I've learned this from psychology about, you know, and then, and I don't remember,

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she was asking like, Renata's like perspective on it, or whatever, but Renata was sharing the

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fact that she's noticed the same thing that some of us have noticed that, you know, it's,

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that it is something that most people just don't understand, which is why whenever people

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contact me about, about, you know, being mentored into shifting into rest, I always greatly

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emphasize the group version, as opposed to just doing a series of private sessions with me,

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because the community aspect is so important. Just this thing of like, knowing that, okay,

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I'm not the only one who's going through this. I've got other people that I can talk to,

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and that I can hear from, I can hear their stories, that understand the same language,

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they've got the same heart, they've got the same excitement, they've got the same desire to pursue

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the Lord, and something that we can't seem to find elsewhere. Yes, it does exist elsewhere,

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obviously, but we, we, we, the world, including a lot of the church is just filled with focusing

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so much on principles, and on knowledge, and learning more, and even learning more about God,

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it's all about the knowledge. And, and we can feel very

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condemned and ashamed and frightened by what it is we don't know. And then as Renata experienced

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that people can feel very offended if they feel that that you are expressing something that they

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can't understand and therefore they can feel they can feel offended that you're looking down on them

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because that's how they're taking it remember is that like oh well are you saying you're saying

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that you're smarter because you know something I don't and you can hear that they're still caught

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up in this whole idea that that they and that they're judged by what it is that they know

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and what it is that they don't and then they're judging you accordingly as well and so they're

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feeling like hey you're judging me because I don't know something you're going no no that's

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the whole point it's it's like it doesn't matter but you know what it is you think that you know

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or you don't know that's not it at all we can be free from that so many ways she was experiencing

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that and talking about struggle of like you know wanting to share things with other people

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that we that we've just learned people have to have it where the lord just has to have revealed

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that that truth to them as reveal our need for it kind of like you know the lord has to reveal

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to us our need of the savior the lord has to reveal to us our need for rest because otherwise

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we we can have this we can have this dissatisfaction we can have a frustration but we don't know

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what it is connected to and then the world and even the church is very ready to tell you all

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kinds of things that they think that you need more of in your life that will that will fill

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that need that'll make you feel better but we've all pursued all those things and we knew that it

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didn't work and that's why we're here we're like well i've tried it all and it doesn't work but

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everyone else when i continue to ask them hey what should i do they keep all saying the exact same

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thing i've tried it all and and it just and it doesn't satisfy there there's something in us

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that knows there's more there has to be more um but anyway but uh a lot of people are still

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pursuing all those other things and feeling like they either are or should be getting satisfaction

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from them so when we talk to other people that rest most people just don't understand

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you know most spouses you know even don't understand when people um join the rest intensive

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a lot of people um but most people struggle with the fact that their spouses are sometimes um

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very supportive you know especially if you're changing then your spouse is very supportive

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because they love the change that they're seeing in you they love that you're finding peace and joy

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that you've been looking for and they notice uh they notice the changes but they can't understand

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what you're saying you know and that can feel lonely and it can feel frustrating because you

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desire to share this amazing thing that has touched you so much and then but they're either

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uninterested or they're getting frustrated because they just don't understand so they

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start shutting down so and that's just and that's about you know let alone any of these other other

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people that we run into so anyway she was very sweetly yeah and opening up and expressing that

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uh-huh the um i feel now this is just me i'm not blaming anybody i take full responsibility but i

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feel like that's what led me to striving is that i was uh listening to a lot of people and they

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always like you need to do this this and that and i was trying so hard to do everything that i was

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supposed to do you know for deliverance for healing and there was always something and and oh no you

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have that so you need to do this and and i think that doing all that following all those they're in

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the bible so they're good right but that's what led me into striving so yeah me trying to do it

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and do it and do it and and um it's it's when i stopped here when i heard you for the first time

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i was like oh my god you know this is all that i've been going through and nobody has ever spoke

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about this like you have yeah i've never heard anybody you know and it was everything that i was

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feeling you know and nobody i have never heard anybody and so it was just to me it was just like

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wow mind-blowing that um and god had spoken to me about rest and when the in the back in the old

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testament with the israelites when he told them that that they did they couldn't enter in and the

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holy spirit kept dropping that verse in me that they couldn't enter in because of the unbelief

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because of the rest they couldn't enter rest so they couldn't enter in the

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on a slam because they had that unbelief. But then it mentioned

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some versions and do rest. They say they couldn't enter the

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rest. And I was like, how do you do that? I know it's an

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unbelief, but how do you do that? And nobody, I couldn't I

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couldn't get that answer until I heard you. So I'm very good.

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Good. Yeah, sorry. I'm hot. I have to take that off. Yeah. And

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I know it. It's anyway, yeah, it's it is very freeing. When,

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when we hear it, that I had, you know, you talking about the

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fact that you're saying, you know, well, I've just never

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heard this before. And, and, and then also the fact that I was

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saying, you know, well, the Lord just has to kind of open it up

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that open, openness that to be able to see it in here, it has

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to open our spiritual eyes and ears under to be able to hear

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and to understand. Whenever I post stuff, for instance, on my

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personal page, I post stuff about what it is that I believe

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I post stuff about the rest. And I put, you know, I introduce

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people or, you know, invite people to join the rest

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intensive or whatever. And I'll start talking about what it is

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that I believe, you know, about like, for instance, spiritual

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embody or whatever, I very rarely get any. I'm very rarely

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challenged. And which I appreciate a very rarely

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challenged on my on my page. And I know that a lot of people

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don't experience that a lot of people, you know, are really

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challenged, you know, on their Facebook pages. And I'm like,

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I'm sorry, I really don't experience much of that. And for

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which I've been very grateful, but every now and then I am. And

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I had this man the other time challenged me on it. I don't

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know, informatics. And, in fact, we don't even have any

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mutual friends on Facebook that he found me apparently

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apparently, liked what it is that I had to say until I

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finally said something that he's like, wait a minute. I'm just

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not so sure about that. And, and so I shut it down really

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quickly, because I mean, I wasn't mean or anything, but I

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just, I just, you know, answer just questions like, well, this

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sounds, you know, wrong, and I'm like, well, actually, you know,

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this is that. And he wasn't gonna let it go. And he's like,

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Well, no, you're wrong. But you know, I'm telling this, you

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know, I just kind of like stopped right there, because

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it's like, I'm just very uninterested in being

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challenged. Because the thing is that all I'm doing is I am

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putting a voice out there of Hey, everyone, this is what I

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believe, just to simply attract the people who that resonates

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with, if it doesn't resonate with them, they can just go

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somewhere else. I'm really not interested on my private page,

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to defend and whatever. Some people have that in that

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interest, that heart to debate and to and to like, I don't

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know, just open, I don't know, maybe with prayer and, and

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trying with logic and being real good apologist to try to

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convince somebody of something I'm like, I have no desire to

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try. It's just, this is what I believe if you resonate with it,

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you know, just hear that there's somebody else that who

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believes like you, and then we can talk, right. So, but it's

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something that most people don't understand. And most people just

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just don't can't hear what you're saying. And so I just had

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to learn and so I find it really interesting. So you'll notice

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that a lot of people will go out and they'll either try to teach

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this, when they when they after they go through the rest

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intensive program, they'll try to find someone they'll try to

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like, some people are coaches, and we'll go through this

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program. And then they'll, they'll want to start

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incorporate, incorporating some of the stuff that they learned

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about rest, you know, in their in their coaching groups, you

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know, start teaching other people about how they can be

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healed, you know, through this. And, and then there are other

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people who just go and they just talk about it to their spouses,

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or they try to share it with their best friend or their small

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group or their or whatever. And, or, you know, like, like a

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Renata or not, it's felt like she was supposed to in her

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journey to the Lord, she felt like she was supposed to maybe

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start overcoming some of this stuff by her fear of man, by

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having to make these lives and everybody has their own journey

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with the Lord. And that's what she felt like she was supposed

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to do. But we all discovered the same thing. And that's the fact

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that other people just can't hear it unless the Lord has

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opened the eyes of their, their spirit and the ears of their

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spirit to be able to receive it and understand. So they,

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sometimes people get surprised at, at how little response,

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especially favorable response that they get when they start

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talking about it. I even had one coach of actually a couple of

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coaches. And they were that joined together after they'd

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gone through actually, they were in person, they were in person

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at this conference, you know, that y'all watch that for over

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that during the rest.

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retreat, they were live, in person, and three people were two of them were coaches, and they were live there and they were just so amazed, and so transformed in their relationship award by what it is that they learned and went through and everything

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that they decided to do a their, their own.

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How do you put it, they already had a big following. And so they decided to do a special.

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Like, I don't know what teaching or whatever specifically about rest and about what it is that they learned.

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And I could tell that they were and I don't remember how I found this out but I could tell that they were very surprised at how little response that they got how few people wanted to join.

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And these are people that already have a following they already like the you know these people already like these coaches they already follow them and everything and I'm talking like, I don't know, like, more, a lot more than, than follow me,

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like a lot. And then you had to those people so I mean they had that they had themselves a following.

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And they had very little positive response because people can't understand.

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They just can't get it so anyway, just a play doesn't mean that we shouldn't share it with you know with people or whatever but just so that you don't for two things one don't get discouraged.

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And if you and by feeling like alone, and then also feel very honored and very grateful that God has opened your eyes to this, to understand, to be aware of the need, and then to have been shown by God, what will satisfy that need that he would

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move you that he would favor you by moving you into greater freedom. So this struggle that we have of like all of what it is that we're encountering right now the struggle the pain the, the, you know, crossing certain thresholds of letting certain things go dying to

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going through grief you know all of that is hard as it is, it is a, it is, you're in a place of very high favor with the Lord that he's like, I want to invite you into more love and freedom and I have shown you now how to do that, as opposed to wanting

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more and more freedom and then you struggling to know how to make the transition.

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Anyway, just encourage you and all that I was just thinking about all this because I had watched for an audit thing recently, and, and she had just expressed you know that, you know, a bit of the disheartening in the person's response, especially that the person

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And so what I always do because she had asked this so I'll, I'll, I'll insert the first question, and an answer here to start us off so you'll be thinking of what questions you'll have, but this is something that she had mentioned that she said oh I thought about

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that maybe mission is on a fireside chat. So I'll answer it in this one real quick and birdwatch.

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But she was wondering what do you do when people respond when people get offended or people respond, or when you're trying to share this with other people and they just don't understand.

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For one thing, I just kind of lobbed things out there of what it is, for one thing I, I own it myself.

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And we so so own it is in like this isn't some concept that you've learned, and you're passing along this really cool thing that you heard about.

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First of all, own it between you and the Lord. And then that's all you'll need. Like okay, I'm satisfied. This is enough. Sure, you know, do I want more do I want more for them absolutely but this is that this is enough God has given me piece and parcel of

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for me to share, you know, between he and I, and so I love that and I'm so grateful. And then just live from that owning it like okay, then you know what conversations just naturally come out, as opposed to having an agenda.

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And then when you interact with someone of, of wanting to convince them of something, because that never goes good.

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So I always tell people that when you interact with people, especially like when I, when I go move into like the program don't like the rest lifestyle which is moving like even deeper into learning to operate even deeper measures of rest of various areas of life

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relationship stuff or whatever. One of the things I talked about is it's very important to not have an agenda when you interact with another human being to not be trying to convince them of something or to get them to feel a particular way, meaning like even positive things like

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I want them to know this about between them and the Lord I want them to feel loved. I want them to feel this I want them to know this.

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That usually leads to subconscious manipulation on our part.

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We desire greater love and freedom for them.

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But what we have a tendency to do out of that, you know, wonderful, you know, love and desiring and freedom for them.

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We end up trying to push and then there ends up becoming a bit of desperateness that can affect and manipulate the delivery.

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So it's important that when we're talking to people about like, say, for instance, rest, I only talk to people that I feel the Lord wants me to.

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And I usually and this is what I do for a living.

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Understand this is like what some people talk about, like in their job.

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This is my job.

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And, you know, you always want to you want to always want to make sure that people know what you need to do just in case somebody out there needs what it is that you have.

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I very, very, very, very, very, very, very rarely tell anybody what I do unless they ask.

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Like, we could be going around the room and everybody's just saying, oh, I do this.

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I do this.

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Somebody could come up to me and introduce themselves.

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Well, my name's Ashley and I live here.

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And I don't even tell them what it is that I do until they ask.

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Now, every now and then, every now and I will every now.

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So I mean, like, my point is, like, I don't even tell other people what it is that I do.

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It's like just allow the Lord to and the Holy Spirit to do stuff without you instead of having an agenda of I want them to know this because I care about them.

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No, you're the Lord's given to him in him.

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And then I just I usually will usually let them pull questions and information out of me because usually I find that they that they don't really want to know and they don't understand or they just get offended or they think that they already know.

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And, oh, I know. Isn't it great to know about the Lord's rest and I look at their life and I'm going, we're not talking.

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Anyway, so that's what I do.

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I don't usually have conversations, honestly, with people about about what it means to operate in the Lord's rest.

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We're talking like friends of mine.

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I don't talk to most people about what it is that I believe and whatever.

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And, and these are friends or family, a lot of family, my, my, a lot of my close family doesn't even know what it is that I believe and what it is that I teach, you know, and, and not and I don't hide it.

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They don't ask. They're not, they're not particularly interested right.

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So anyway, that helps that helps me avoid situations of people being offended with me, because I don't, I don't share it unless the Lord tells me to, but then if I do find myself in a situation in which you know there's more and more coming out and people are asking

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questions, whatever they they're, you can tell that especially people challenge me on it.

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They don't actually want to know.

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They're just wanting to challenge there's something about themselves that they're wanting to make to feel secure. So, I'm very interested in those conversations so I just kind of just let the thing go because I know that it's not really there, even though they're asking

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questions, they're not actually interested in, in the truth of what it is that I believe or in the, or in the actual truth.

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So I just kind of let that go but I would say that the biggest thing without even knowing well do they have an agenda, are they insecure.

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The, the big thing that I always just keep in mind is to not have an agenda to try to convince somebody that what I believe is true, or that it's right.

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I just simply own it for myself, and just thoroughly enjoy the fact that this is how I live life. And I am so satisfied, and I am just so content.

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whatever. And I just, and I, and if I, and if the message of what it is that I believe that I've received from the Lord meaning like me personally between me and the Lord and that you personally have received between you and your work.

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If it's, if it's a message of freedom.

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So then they have that message as well. So I let them experience freedom in being with me, freedom to believe very different from me and freedom to be loved.

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you know, by me, while they're believing differently, without me finding them to be a challenge

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that I need to contend with.

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If I want them to experience when they're with me, the truth of what it is that I speak,

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even without me speaking it, so in other words, I don't even even if I'm not teaching them

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about rest, even if I'm talking about rest, even if I'm not even bringing up the subject

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about freedom, because they haven't asked, I want them when they're with me to always

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experience the truth of rest and freedom, because that's how I choose to receive them,

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because that's how I believe that the world works.

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and what it is that I believe and what the Lord and the fact that that we're unified

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with the Lord, that we're actually discussing the message itself, I want to always make

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sure that, you know, I really, again, I keep going back to this, that I'm owning it.

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This is really what I believe it's not a concept, I actually live this thing out, I actually

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believe I actually consider it to be reality.

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they may not.

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what it is that they believe in, if they're challenging me or whatever, I don't make a

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big deal about the fact that what they and I believe is different, or make a big deal

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about or even say anything about mine being right.

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fact that they have something that they so strongly believe in.

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What is it that I want them to think what I want them to know, I can't do that.

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of themselves, or I don't know, it's very insecure, what it is they believe, well, then

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In reality, not not what does God say about them, and therefore some intellectual concept?

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relationship with him, and how he interacts with me, how does that being that I'm in personal

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intimate relationship with him?

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I'm seeing them in through the eyes of the spirit.

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like that I interact with, I, I see that, oh, my goodness, they have so much to give.

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can tell that God's excited about how enthusiastic that they are about the truth.

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you know, truth and all of that.

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I actually have to believe it.

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I can't try to convince them that they're loved.

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I if I want something for someone else, I'm the one who has to give it.

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He said, you give yours.

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There's always abundance in the kingdom.

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you have two coats and they have none, God says, give them a coat.

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So it's the same thing about like love or, you know, or if they're insecure or, you know,

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if they don't feel affirmed, we can't send them off to the Bible and say, hey, by the way, God

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says, you know, God says this and oh, you can go read here.

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them off. You know, wishing them well, telling them that you'll pray for them. God says, no,

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you give it to them. If I love them, and you're me, in other words, you're my body,

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I'm your head, you're my body, you love them. Don't send them off to me and send them away

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without it. Just like they come to you, let them leave you change, let them leave you having

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received what it is that they needed. So anyway, so she had asked, and in her, in her journey,

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sure, you know, I could answer that question. So there we go. Hopefully,

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so someone thought of a question, something come up this past week, or

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spirit is, the purpose is to be in relationship, our soul, our soul, or this mind, all of that

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is the purpose is to choose, and our flesh is to create, right. And so I know our emotions are

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a part of like that soul part of us. Like, I guess in this whole rest thing,

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how do they, I just, you know, how you have moments where you're like, you let your negative emotions

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run you, right, instead of like operating out of the spirit. But, and I know like a purpose of them

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can be like, sometimes you're like, okay, like when you feel triggered, or you feel something,

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you'd be like, Oh, okay, that's a signal that something is going on wrong. You know what I mean?

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Like, okay, that's a sign. So I guess maybe if you could speak more to like, I just feel like,

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like, I just feel like, okay, I've had some definitely like victory. So I don't feel like

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my emotions are running me, which is like a blessing. I'm like, thank you, Lord. But if they

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if it ever feels like, okay, I'm back in that space where my emotions are just like, you know

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what I mean? Like, I've started journaling just all of my all of my stuff. Thank you, Karen. Thank

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you all. Like, it was just great. It's like, the good, the bad, the ugly, just, just put it all

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out there. And it's been so great. But I just kind of I don't know, maybe I just kind of want to know

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like, if you can just tell me more about like, what is their purpose? Because I don't want to

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be subject to the negative ones. You know what I mean? Yeah, yeah. So it's important, like you said

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to realize that it's just the thermometer. Okay, well, first of all, before we realized it's the

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thermometer, it's important to remember that your emotions are good. So even anger, all of that good

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stuff is weird as it is to think about even jealousy. So I know that that sounds really weird.

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wrong with it, right? So now, yes, God tells us not to be jealous, you know, of other people and

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whatever. But that, but my point, understand is the emotion itself is not bad. So, so don't

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condemn yourself for the fact that you feel something. Don't think, oh, my word, this feeling

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is bad. It's an enemy, I have to get rid of this thing. You know, like, oh, that anger, don't,

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don't villainize the actual feeling and the actual emotion. So that is extremely important.

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you know, how you even go through this process of learning about rest, just accept yourself,

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wherever it is that you are on the journey and stop getting like, upset yourself thinking, well,

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I shouldn't be here, I should be further along to that. Stop resisting and just let it be. And then

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you'll go through it faster. It's the same idea with these emotions. It's like the, that's why I

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say that the important thing to first remember is to not bring shame and condemnation on yourself

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and villainize the actual feeling or villainize yourself for the fact that you are feeling

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the negative thing right now. So that's most important because then you won't,

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you're, because remember that you're going to be, if you villainize something,

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you're actually empowering it. I know that that sounds really weird, but that we are,

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we, we think of it like this very powerful entity that we're having to combat. And that's going to

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simply just, it's just going to empower it in our lives. We actually are giving it some kind of like

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of being like this entity that, like I said, that we're just, that is important enough

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and powerful enough that it's an actual combatant, you know, it's like, oh my goodness, it's

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requiring anything of us.

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bad, because then we tend to subconsciously empower it.

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all of that good stuff.

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So it'll be easier to pass if you don't think of it as, if you, I don't know, kind of like

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honor it, understand that it has a right, it's a precious thing, it's a precious aspect

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of you that has a right to have a voice.

395
00:36:09.440 --> 00:36:16.000
God doesn't squelch it, push it like a bug, it's just awful, it's just a peon and it's

396
00:36:16.000 --> 00:36:21.160
a nothing and it's whatever he, everything that he created is significant and should

397
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be honored.

398
00:36:22.160 --> 00:36:26.120
And so we should do the same thing with our emotions, we should treat them with respect,

399
00:36:26.120 --> 00:36:29.800
we should treat them with honor, not more respect, more honor than the rest of us.

400
00:36:29.800 --> 00:36:37.280
I'm just saying it as its own entity, I know I said it can be damaging to think of it like

401
00:36:37.280 --> 00:36:41.360
an entity, but just go with me here, I'm trying to express it as best as I can in my limited

402
00:36:41.360 --> 00:36:42.360
English.

403
00:36:43.360 --> 00:36:52.280
It's good to just, it needs to, we need to honor every aspect of ourselves, including

404
00:36:52.280 --> 00:36:53.280
the emotions.

405
00:36:53.280 --> 00:36:59.880
So anyway, all of those things are, will be helpful in not allowing ourselves and giving

406
00:36:59.880 --> 00:37:05.280
in to being ruled by the negative emotions, we'll be now viewing them differently, we'll

407
00:37:05.280 --> 00:37:10.800
now no longer be viewing them as some way that indicates that we should be ashamed or

408
00:37:10.800 --> 00:37:15.840
that we should feel condemnation, that we should feel bad, we no longer will be villainizing

409
00:37:15.840 --> 00:37:20.880
them as if, oh my word, the anger is bad, or it's saying something bad about me, you

410
00:37:20.880 --> 00:37:24.240
know, you just start releasing all of that stuff.

411
00:37:24.240 --> 00:37:31.040
And it's, and it suddenly diffuses and neutralizes the situation tremendously.

412
00:37:31.040 --> 00:37:34.400
But in addition to that, you're still gonna, you're still gonna battle, even if you do

413
00:37:34.400 --> 00:37:38.040
all of that stuff, you're still going to battle, you know, the fact that, oh, well, my goodness,

414
00:37:38.040 --> 00:37:39.040
yeah, but I'm still angry.

415
00:37:39.040 --> 00:37:40.040
Why?

416
00:37:40.280 --> 00:37:41.280
Because it's a thermometer.

417
00:37:41.280 --> 00:37:45.720
It's telling you that there's something it is that you're actually believing about God

418
00:37:45.720 --> 00:37:46.720
that isn't true.

419
00:37:46.720 --> 00:37:50.840
Usually, God says that there is such a thing as righteous anger, that if we're not talking

420
00:37:50.840 --> 00:37:54.120
about that, and if we're talking about like the majority of the time in which we find

421
00:37:54.120 --> 00:38:01.840
ourselves angry, usually because we're feeling afraid, we're feeling like we have someone

422
00:38:01.840 --> 00:38:07.920
interacted with us, you know, unjustly, and we didn't deserve that we went revenge or

423
00:38:07.920 --> 00:38:08.920
whatever.

424
00:38:08.920 --> 00:38:11.960
But usually, in situations like that, we're still going to be battling it.

425
00:38:11.960 --> 00:38:12.960
Why?

426
00:38:12.960 --> 00:38:17.000
Because we have we have an underlying belief that's prompting the actual feeling.

427
00:38:17.000 --> 00:38:19.720
So that's what it is that we need to be focusing on.

428
00:38:19.720 --> 00:38:24.040
It's like what pain is pain in our physical body is simply telling us that something's

429
00:38:24.040 --> 00:38:28.920
wrong, but the pain itself isn't bad, and it shouldn't be villainized.

430
00:38:28.920 --> 00:38:31.240
We don't want to shoot the messenger.

431
00:38:31.240 --> 00:38:37.000
So anyway, all of that being said, as far as the negative emotions, remember that when

432
00:38:37.080 --> 00:38:43.120
you're feeling it, what caused the negative emotions and what triggered the negative emotions

433
00:38:43.120 --> 00:38:48.520
that's always there, it's just that it brought you were brought into a particular situation

434
00:38:48.520 --> 00:38:53.080
in which the negative in which that which is already there was triggered and brought

435
00:38:53.080 --> 00:38:54.080
to the surface.

436
00:38:54.080 --> 00:38:58.480
I think always a good thing because when it's brought to the surface, it now has the opportunity

437
00:38:58.480 --> 00:38:59.480
to be let go.

438
00:38:59.480 --> 00:39:04.600
If it's under the surface, and you're not feeling those feelings, then sometimes it's

439
00:39:04.600 --> 00:39:07.720
hard to let something go.

440
00:39:07.720 --> 00:39:12.360
And so always, as great as it is, think of like those times in which you're feeling negative

441
00:39:12.360 --> 00:39:17.480
feelings as actually being a good thing and a good opportunity that you are being provided

442
00:39:17.480 --> 00:39:22.960
of, oh, my goodness, so I'm always battling this, not the feeling, but what the feeling

443
00:39:22.960 --> 00:39:28.240
is being triggered by, I'm always battling this, I'm always, I'm always being enslaved

444
00:39:28.240 --> 00:39:33.000
to this, it's always limiting me, whether or not I'm aware of it, it's always is, but

445
00:39:33.000 --> 00:39:39.080
now that I'm feeling it, now's my opportunity to be free from it and to let it go.

446
00:39:39.080 --> 00:39:46.000
So you can start kind of weird thinking about it, but you can start being excited about

447
00:39:46.000 --> 00:39:55.640
those situations, because you are now being given opportunity to be freer in the next

448
00:39:55.640 --> 00:39:59.320
moment than you have been for the previous 30 plus years.

449
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:02.680
It's like now is the time.

450
00:40:02.680 --> 00:40:07.400
So anyway, if that's what you choose, if that's the choice that you choose to make in that

451
00:40:07.400 --> 00:40:09.400
moment, you can do that.

452
00:40:09.400 --> 00:40:15.140
But it is important to let all of those emotions come up and to fully feel them.

453
00:40:15.140 --> 00:40:18.760
So when you have those negative emotions, it's important to allow yourself to fully

454
00:40:18.760 --> 00:40:20.080
feel them.

455
00:40:20.080 --> 00:40:24.680
Always do it though with the Lord, because if you're not doing it with the Lord, we have

456
00:40:24.680 --> 00:40:26.280
a tendency to feed on them.

457
00:40:26.280 --> 00:40:31.240
We have a tendency to mold them around and around, like, yes, I am angry, and I'm like,

458
00:40:31.240 --> 00:40:32.640
yeah, this is why I'm angry.

459
00:40:32.640 --> 00:40:35.080
And we think that, oh, I'm fully feeling them.

460
00:40:35.080 --> 00:40:37.000
No, we're feeding on it.

461
00:40:37.000 --> 00:40:40.000
We're just getting really upset about this thing.

462
00:40:40.000 --> 00:40:47.280
But if you actually be angry with God, like what we've talked about before, you actually

463
00:40:47.280 --> 00:40:49.800
allow yourself, okay, I'm really angry.

464
00:40:49.800 --> 00:40:53.160
And I'm just using anger as an example of an emotion.

465
00:40:53.160 --> 00:40:54.160
I'm really angry.

466
00:40:54.600 --> 00:40:59.120
Now I'm going to go into the presence of God like that, meaning like you're actually going

467
00:40:59.120 --> 00:41:00.120
to bring it to him.

468
00:41:00.120 --> 00:41:05.200
You're going to walk into the throne room like that, okay, good God, I'm really mad.

469
00:41:05.200 --> 00:41:09.080
Because remember, what do you do?

470
00:41:09.080 --> 00:41:12.380
Where do you go when you are like really upset about something?

471
00:41:12.380 --> 00:41:18.560
You go to where you feel it's safe to be while you're like that.

472
00:41:18.560 --> 00:41:26.040
So trust that God is the safe environment for you to be in while you're angry.

473
00:41:26.040 --> 00:41:35.360
Consider him a safe environment when you are the most, yeah, the most vulnerable, but also

474
00:41:35.360 --> 00:41:40.040
when you are feeling the most vulnerable because you're feeling the worst about yourself, like

475
00:41:40.040 --> 00:41:42.040
I really don't feel good.

476
00:41:42.040 --> 00:41:50.360
So when you feel really bad, when you feel really bad about yourself, or you're just

477
00:41:50.360 --> 00:41:54.000
angry, and so therefore you just feel bad because you're like, well, I don't like feeling

478
00:41:54.000 --> 00:41:56.920
anger and this is awful, and I'm just mad, and it feels awful.

479
00:41:56.920 --> 00:41:59.800
I'd much rather feel love than anger.

480
00:41:59.800 --> 00:42:02.880
You're not feeling good.

481
00:42:02.880 --> 00:42:09.480
Always make a habit of going into the presence of God and saying, okay, God, all right, God,

482
00:42:09.480 --> 00:42:10.480
you're a safe place.

483
00:42:10.480 --> 00:42:11.480
Here I am.

484
00:42:11.920 --> 00:42:14.920
And I'm just angry.

485
00:42:14.920 --> 00:42:22.720
Don't throw the things at him because that'll just, that'll exacerbate the problem, and

486
00:42:22.720 --> 00:42:27.040
don't just justify yourself to the Lord.

487
00:42:27.040 --> 00:42:30.440
Don't do those kinds of things because if you justify yourself to the Lord, all that

488
00:42:30.440 --> 00:42:39.960
that's doing is exceeding it, but just simply go to the Lord, consider it to be a safe environment,

489
00:42:40.440 --> 00:42:52.160
and again, in that safe environment, there we go, so in that safe environment, again,

490
00:42:52.160 --> 00:42:59.880
you just kind of face those emotions like, okay, I am really, it's almost like you're

491
00:42:59.880 --> 00:43:05.360
just taking a look at yourself, and you're just, and you're not trying to escape the

492
00:43:05.360 --> 00:43:07.560
fact that you feel this way.

493
00:43:07.560 --> 00:43:10.920
You're just honest with God about how it is that you feel.

494
00:43:10.920 --> 00:43:16.080
God, I would actually, you know, I'm really wanting to hurt that person right now.

495
00:43:16.080 --> 00:43:20.440
You're, see, understand, you're not feeding right now, like, oh my word, I just really

496
00:43:20.440 --> 00:43:24.600
want to hurt this person, and you're also not throwing in an accusation against the

497
00:43:24.600 --> 00:43:29.280
Lord, like, Lord, this is just how I feel, and you know, you were there protecting me,

498
00:43:29.280 --> 00:43:33.000
so you're not doing either one of those, but you are being honest about it.

499
00:43:33.000 --> 00:43:36.160
You're just like, you know, I'm, how is it actually that I'm feeling?

500
00:43:36.160 --> 00:43:40.560
You know what, I'm actually feeling it to the point that I want to hurt them, and so

501
00:43:40.560 --> 00:43:46.680
you're like, oh, wow, it's almost like this realization or this understanding of yourself,

502
00:43:46.680 --> 00:43:52.840
and just a second, I wanted to see, I wrote something down in my, the other day that I

503
00:43:52.840 --> 00:44:00.080
was, when I was doing this training the past few days, because I was struggling in an environment

504
00:44:00.080 --> 00:44:06.000
of healing that focuses on inner healing, I was having some stuff being triggered, and

505
00:44:06.080 --> 00:44:16.080
so I'm like, okay, I know to let these emotions come up and out, and, oh my goodness, oh,

506
00:44:16.080 --> 00:44:20.520
and so I wrote something down that I thought, oh, that is such a fascinating way to kind

507
00:44:20.520 --> 00:44:30.320
of see that in, in a moment when I'm, when I'm presenting my feelings before the Lord.

508
00:44:30.320 --> 00:44:36.720
This is like a really powerful way to deal with the feelings before the Lord, because

509
00:44:36.720 --> 00:44:39.600
I had to do it, and, and I'm not seeing it.

510
00:44:39.600 --> 00:44:40.600
I wrote it somewhere.

511
00:44:40.600 --> 00:44:44.440
I'm going to have to find it, but one of the things that basically the essence of it, if

512
00:44:44.440 --> 00:44:52.000
I remember correctly, was just that honesty of it, of just, because it's almost like if

513
00:44:52.000 --> 00:44:59.600
you realize that you don't have to run away from the feeling itself, it gives you a safety

514
00:44:59.600 --> 00:45:00.100
to just.

515
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:07.280
Sit with the feeling and really truly be honest about it because you don't have to worry about like not looking at it

516
00:45:07.680 --> 00:45:11.240
Because it's gonna say something about you and you're not supposed to feel that way

517
00:45:11.240 --> 00:45:15.720
Anyway, so you keep like trying to not look at it, but you're feeling it

518
00:45:15.720 --> 00:45:22.160
Anyway, it gives it gives you you are giving yourself permission to not be afraid of it

519
00:45:22.160 --> 00:45:26.920
and for you to not be afraid because it's going to say something about you or

520
00:45:27.320 --> 00:45:31.960
As soon as you feel it then God's gonna God's gonna condemn you for it

521
00:45:31.960 --> 00:45:38.480
He's gonna punish you or whatever if you realize no God's gonna let you sit with it. You're like, okay, you're here and you're angry

522
00:45:38.600 --> 00:45:39.520
Okay

523
00:45:39.520 --> 00:45:41.520
Let's sit with the anger for a bit

524
00:45:41.720 --> 00:45:45.840
And you think about the anger and you talk about the anger you talk about how you're feeling

525
00:45:45.840 --> 00:45:50.080
Does that you just kind of it almost allows you to observe it like a third person?

526
00:45:50.520 --> 00:45:53.880
Because you're and I noticed that I could be honest with the Lord

527
00:45:54.360 --> 00:46:00.920
Because I realized that my that the truth that my truth of how I was feeling

528
00:46:02.160 --> 00:46:05.400
He wasn't threatened by and he wasn't gonna make me get rid of it

529
00:46:07.080 --> 00:46:09.080
He's just like no

530
00:46:09.360 --> 00:46:13.840
Like well then Lord, honestly, this is how I feel like, okay, there we go

531
00:46:13.840 --> 00:46:16.200
and how else do you feel and what do you because

532
00:46:16.880 --> 00:46:20.840
He wasn't he knew that that that's not how he identified me

533
00:46:21.400 --> 00:46:26.640
And so he's like actually I'm not afraid of it so we don't have to get rid of it right now

534
00:46:27.240 --> 00:46:28.920
It's just sit for a second

535
00:46:28.920 --> 00:46:34.360
Let's just talk about so with soon as I realized that he wasn't threatened by it and I didn't have to be threatened

536
00:46:34.680 --> 00:46:39.200
By what's gonna God's gonna do as soon as I am really honest about

537
00:46:39.960 --> 00:46:45.840
How deep this anger goes, you know if there was no threat from him or me

538
00:46:46.680 --> 00:46:48.840
When I was honest about it, I'm like, okay

539
00:46:49.600 --> 00:46:51.120
Then it

540
00:46:51.120 --> 00:46:57.920
Neutralized the power of my feelings and then they could go and I could I could choose to release them because I was now ruling

541
00:46:58.320 --> 00:47:05.080
over myself and I didn't have to be afraid at the effects of my feel and that the effects

542
00:47:05.760 --> 00:47:12.240
That my feelings were going to have on me the effects of how my feelings were going to affect my relationship with God

543
00:47:13.840 --> 00:47:17.240
Or how he was going to you respond to me

544
00:47:17.840 --> 00:47:25.120
That I could they they they were just something that was there and so we could just talk about this thing that

545
00:47:25.400 --> 00:47:27.320
dare

546
00:47:27.320 --> 00:47:33.600
It changed everything and it also meant that I was able to process through things faster

547
00:47:33.600 --> 00:47:36.680
And then I'm like, okay. Yeah, I really don't want this anymore

548
00:47:37.800 --> 00:47:44.080
But when I felt threatened by it when I've had a hard time looking at it when I had a hard time being honest with

549
00:47:44.120 --> 00:47:45.160
Myself

550
00:47:45.160 --> 00:47:49.280
About it when I felt that I wasn't allowed to be angry and again

551
00:47:49.280 --> 00:47:52.720
I'm just using anger as an example of any emotion would you be taking forward?

552
00:47:53.040 --> 00:47:59.520
When I thought that I couldn't be angry that I wanted to avoid God because I wanted to allow myself the luxury

553
00:47:59.960 --> 00:48:05.600
The very dirty luxury of sitting with it as long as I could before I had to let it go

554
00:48:06.320 --> 00:48:12.880
But if I just was allowed to bring that into the presence of God and be angry in the presence of God

555
00:48:14.200 --> 00:48:20.760
And feel it then I allow it then it was no longer a dirty pleasure that I wanted

556
00:48:22.320 --> 00:48:25.920
I'm like, okay. Well then if this is all that it is

557
00:48:25.920 --> 00:48:32.280
It's almost like it made it really powerless and it made it very uninteresting all of a sudden. I was like, okay

558
00:48:32.280 --> 00:48:39.120
I can have it. So it's almost like the forbidden fruit if it's forbidden. We really want it, but if it's not forbidden

559
00:48:40.120 --> 00:48:42.520
It's really fun. We don't want it anymore

560
00:48:42.520 --> 00:48:48.640
And that's what I found with my feelings if I no longer considered them forbidden in the presence of God

561
00:48:49.680 --> 00:48:52.960
Then they could became very uninteresting very fast

562
00:48:54.240 --> 00:48:58.760
Because I realized in the presence of God that they really had no power and couldn't give me anything that I wanted

563
00:48:59.200 --> 00:49:01.760
God is like hey you want that thing you can have it

564
00:49:02.400 --> 00:49:05.200
What would just sit with it together you tell me all about it?

565
00:49:06.200 --> 00:49:12.360
And because I could have it I was like, well, this is boring now, I want to see more

566
00:49:12.360 --> 00:49:18.520
You know, I now felt I was now became much more aware of how I was enslaved by it

567
00:49:19.200 --> 00:49:24.960
Because it no longer as like a forbidden fruit can give me something that I'm not that I'm being denied

568
00:49:25.160 --> 00:49:29.760
If I wasn't being denied it I now had it and could tell it could no longer give me anything

569
00:49:31.120 --> 00:49:33.160
You're just neutralizing its power

570
00:49:34.160 --> 00:49:39.960
So, I know I talked a lot, but you know me I talk in lots of context so like paint a full picture

571
00:49:40.400 --> 00:49:44.720
So did that help? It did. Thank you so much. Okay, you're welcome

572
00:49:45.320 --> 00:49:50.360
I've talked, Rita will tell you, I've talked a lot about negative emotions, especially even in this past

573
00:49:50.960 --> 00:49:56.080
Rest intensive and so in fact, I did a little mini teaching on it

574
00:49:56.080 --> 00:49:59.680
And so I'll try to find that and post that as well. So it'll be right under the one that was

575
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:01.520
how to process grief and rest.

576
00:50:01.520 --> 00:50:03.080
I'll post it right under there.

577
00:50:06.080 --> 00:50:09.080
All right, so does anyone have anything else?

578
00:50:09.080 --> 00:50:10.040
Do we even have time left?

579
00:50:10.040 --> 00:50:11.740
Oh, wow, we have like five minutes.

580
00:50:11.740 --> 00:50:13.640
Does anyone have anything?

581
00:50:13.640 --> 00:50:14.480
I thought-

582
00:50:14.480 --> 00:50:15.840
I have a question if we have time.

583
00:50:15.840 --> 00:50:16.800
Oh, yeah, hey, Karen.

584
00:50:16.800 --> 00:50:17.640
Yeah.

585
00:50:17.640 --> 00:50:21.040
Hi, how are you doing?

586
00:50:21.040 --> 00:50:22.140
Good, how are you?

587
00:50:23.360 --> 00:50:25.960
I'm pretty good, just resting a little

588
00:50:25.960 --> 00:50:30.960
and the Super Bowl's on, yeah, I've got it on silent

589
00:50:31.960 --> 00:50:34.320
but I'm peeking at it a little bit.

590
00:50:34.320 --> 00:50:35.840
Yes, well, lucky you.

591
00:50:35.840 --> 00:50:38.160
Okay, are my Chiefs winning?

592
00:50:38.160 --> 00:50:41.560
They're winning by, no, they, oh, no.

593
00:50:41.560 --> 00:50:44.320
They just, Philadelphia just tied it up just now

594
00:50:44.320 --> 00:50:46.240
as we, and you asked-

595
00:50:46.240 --> 00:50:47.480
They've been doing that.

596
00:50:47.480 --> 00:50:49.320
They've all been going back and forth and back and forth.

597
00:50:49.320 --> 00:50:53.640
It's tied and there's five minutes, 15 seconds left, so.

598
00:50:55.960 --> 00:50:57.760
Come on, Chiefs, you can do it.

599
00:50:57.760 --> 00:50:59.920
Right, go for them.

600
00:50:59.920 --> 00:51:02.000
Yeah, I didn't watch it until a while ago

601
00:51:02.000 --> 00:51:04.880
but now I've got it on with no volume, okay.

602
00:51:04.880 --> 00:51:09.300
So, well, my question is, do you have any tips on,

603
00:51:11.040 --> 00:51:15.040
you know, trying to, when you did the exercise,

604
00:51:15.040 --> 00:51:18.600
I think it's in the first rest meeting,

605
00:51:18.600 --> 00:51:21.560
asking the Father or the Lord or Holy Spirit to come

606
00:51:21.560 --> 00:51:26.160
and just be with you and help be vulnerable

607
00:51:26.160 --> 00:51:29.880
and let his love in and, you know, any tips on that?

608
00:51:29.880 --> 00:51:31.680
Because like the first night I did it,

609
00:51:31.680 --> 00:51:35.760
it's just like he came and rest and almost paralyzed me,

610
00:51:35.760 --> 00:51:38.880
you know, just with his love in a good way.

611
00:51:38.880 --> 00:51:41.360
And that was the night we did the intensive.

612
00:51:41.360 --> 00:51:43.760
And he sometimes, just by his grace,

613
00:51:43.760 --> 00:51:45.200
he'll just do that sometimes.

614
00:51:45.200 --> 00:51:48.840
I can be sitting at home, I can be at a service,

615
00:51:48.840 --> 00:51:51.280
I can be in my bed and he'll just come,

616
00:51:52.320 --> 00:51:54.840
which is so, I think it's just so special.

617
00:51:54.840 --> 00:51:58.320
And I think that's what he's probably doing at that time.

618
00:51:58.320 --> 00:52:00.220
And he used to do it to me at the altar

619
00:52:00.220 --> 00:52:02.000
when I was first new at church.

620
00:52:03.920 --> 00:52:08.400
But, and then I've tried to do it a few other nights

621
00:52:08.400 --> 00:52:11.940
and kind of had a little bit of a hard time.

622
00:52:11.940 --> 00:52:13.640
Now I did have a little bit,

623
00:52:13.640 --> 00:52:16.520
I was having a hard time sleeping again up early

624
00:52:16.520 --> 00:52:19.560
this morning, so I did it again early this morning.

625
00:52:19.560 --> 00:52:22.160
And I feel like, and I'm trying to engage father now

626
00:52:22.160 --> 00:52:24.960
because I realized that's who I've had a problem with.

627
00:52:24.960 --> 00:52:25.800
I've not.

628
00:52:25.800 --> 00:52:27.560
That's people do, yeah.

629
00:52:27.560 --> 00:52:30.480
So I felt like I did have a little bit

630
00:52:30.480 --> 00:52:31.720
of a breakthrough this morning.

631
00:52:31.720 --> 00:52:33.840
I felt like father started talking to me

632
00:52:33.840 --> 00:52:37.280
and just kind of saying, hey, I'm here.

633
00:52:37.280 --> 00:52:38.400
I'm always here.

634
00:52:39.560 --> 00:52:41.440
And you know, I'm with you.

635
00:52:41.440 --> 00:52:44.600
And so I had a little bit of a breakthrough.

636
00:52:44.920 --> 00:52:45.920
Good.

637
00:52:45.920 --> 00:52:48.280
So I just wanted to know if you had any other tips

638
00:52:48.280 --> 00:52:50.120
or is just anything.

639
00:52:53.200 --> 00:52:54.040
Yeah.

640
00:52:55.240 --> 00:52:56.280
Yes.

641
00:52:56.280 --> 00:53:00.000
So it would be to let God go.

642
00:53:02.520 --> 00:53:04.520
So you know how we have to let everything go.

643
00:53:04.520 --> 00:53:08.160
We even have to let God go and we can't hold

644
00:53:08.160 --> 00:53:13.160
because what we'll do is we'll confuse a seeking after him,

645
00:53:13.400 --> 00:53:18.200
a desperation or whatever as Godly.

646
00:53:18.200 --> 00:53:22.080
When a lot of times what we do is we end up accusing him

647
00:53:22.080 --> 00:53:25.360
for not coming, accusing him for not showing up.

648
00:53:25.360 --> 00:53:30.360
And so what I've learned to do is should just release

649
00:53:30.640 --> 00:53:35.080
a God, any expectations of holding any expectations

650
00:53:35.080 --> 00:53:38.960
over God's head of how I want him to appear,

651
00:53:38.960 --> 00:53:40.440
what I want from him.

652
00:53:40.440 --> 00:53:41.280
I want to see him.

653
00:53:41.280 --> 00:53:42.640
I want to experience him.

654
00:53:43.080 --> 00:53:43.920
I want to whatever.

655
00:53:43.920 --> 00:53:45.280
It's not that we can't want it.

656
00:53:45.280 --> 00:53:47.560
What I'm saying is we need to stop like holding it

657
00:53:47.560 --> 00:53:49.960
against him that something hasn't happened

658
00:53:49.960 --> 00:53:53.120
or in desperation trying to pull emotionally

659
00:53:53.120 --> 00:53:54.920
something from him.

660
00:53:54.920 --> 00:53:58.640
And then just simply open ourselves up to God.

661
00:53:58.640 --> 00:54:02.480
I want you and I'm asking you to show up

662
00:54:03.760 --> 00:54:08.760
and to reveal your, to show up to me in my life,

663
00:54:09.240 --> 00:54:11.880
whether Lord that be visually or a feeling

664
00:54:11.880 --> 00:54:15.320
or the, or I don't know, hearing something

665
00:54:15.320 --> 00:54:18.520
or smelling something or an experience or no experience

666
00:54:18.520 --> 00:54:23.520
or just show up according to who it is that you are

667
00:54:25.760 --> 00:54:29.000
and how you want to express yourself to me.

668
00:54:29.000 --> 00:54:32.360
So God, I'm just watching for you.

669
00:54:32.360 --> 00:54:35.520
I'm not pulling something from you.

670
00:54:35.520 --> 00:54:37.400
Like I want to see you.

671
00:54:37.400 --> 00:54:39.160
I want to feel you.

672
00:54:39.160 --> 00:54:41.800
I want to experience you.

673
00:54:42.600 --> 00:54:46.280
It's just, you know, God, I choose, I open myself up to you.

674
00:54:46.280 --> 00:54:49.600
And then I just watch expectantly

675
00:54:49.600 --> 00:54:51.840
for however you express yourself.

676
00:54:51.840 --> 00:54:54.440
And the expression could be very surprising

677
00:54:54.440 --> 00:54:56.640
when it could be the fact that we are,

678
00:54:57.640 --> 00:55:00.240
we're sitting there, you know, closing our eyes.

679
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:03.800
eyes and wanting to see the Lord. And we don't see him. We even

680
00:55:03.800 --> 00:55:06.840
close our eyes, you know, perfectly picture our room. We

681
00:55:06.840 --> 00:55:10.280
asked Jesus to appear, you know, wherever he is in the room, and

682
00:55:10.280 --> 00:55:13.140
he didn't appear. And we're like, well, Lord, that's about

683
00:55:13.140 --> 00:55:17.160
as easy as I can make it. And he still didn't do it, you know. So

684
00:55:17.160 --> 00:55:19.920
you just kind of release God whatsoever, just say, God, I

685
00:55:19.920 --> 00:55:26.560
just enjoy you. And I, I am, and I'm enjoying you by choice. I'm

686
00:55:26.560 --> 00:55:30.400
enjoying choosing the fact that you are real and that you are

687
00:55:30.400 --> 00:55:33.040
who you say that you are. And I don't even fully know who that

688
00:55:33.040 --> 00:55:36.600
is. But whatever that is, Lord, I'm choosing that unknown. And

689
00:55:36.600 --> 00:55:39.040
I just ask that you can that you show up in my life. And then

690
00:55:39.040 --> 00:55:41.720
all of a sudden, you get the doorbell rings, you go to the

691
00:55:41.720 --> 00:55:45.640
doorbell, and you interact with somebody, it could be a postman

692
00:55:45.640 --> 00:55:49.760
or whatever. That's God showing up in a very unique way. You

693
00:55:49.760 --> 00:55:53.720
know, as weird as that sounds, you the there's, you know, you

694
00:55:53.720 --> 00:55:56.520
might get it, you got it, you got a package from someone, you

695
00:55:56.520 --> 00:56:01.480
got, and I don't know, you got to interact with, with the

696
00:56:01.480 --> 00:56:04.440
postman to see an aspect of someone that God actually

697
00:56:04.440 --> 00:56:07.800
thought of before the world began. And then you got to

698
00:56:07.800 --> 00:56:11.640
finally meet him. I mean, and you just and so what I did is I

699
00:56:11.640 --> 00:56:16.280
began to just receive the Lord wherever it is that I went in

700
00:56:16.280 --> 00:56:20.400
whatever it was that I was experiencing. And then God began

701
00:56:20.400 --> 00:56:23.400
to show up more and more. And I began to receive more and more

702
00:56:23.400 --> 00:56:26.400
of his goodness in my life, my life began to change, I began to

703
00:56:26.400 --> 00:56:30.880
have so many more opportunities. And God began to like, bring in

704
00:56:30.880 --> 00:56:34.400
finances in very unique ways and all because I wasn't putting any

705
00:56:34.400 --> 00:56:37.440
stipulations on how he should show up or how I was to

706
00:56:37.440 --> 00:56:42.000
experience him or whatever. And there's nothing wrong with

707
00:56:42.000 --> 00:56:44.800
asking for specific types of experiences, because I did that

708
00:56:44.800 --> 00:56:47.200
I asked Sam, I asked to hear him, I asked to see him in my

709
00:56:47.200 --> 00:56:50.080
dreams, I asked him to do whatever. But I don't hold it

710
00:56:50.080 --> 00:56:54.280
against him. If it doesn't happen, I'm just expecting him

711
00:56:54.280 --> 00:56:58.880
to show up in my life. And so I'm always I'm always receiving

712
00:56:58.880 --> 00:57:05.720
what happens as him being good. And as him being loving, and as

713
00:57:05.720 --> 00:57:09.680
him being whatever, then, because we're now removing those

714
00:57:09.680 --> 00:57:14.400
stipulations off, it's removing the resistance to us being able

715
00:57:14.400 --> 00:57:18.160
to see him to us being able to experience because sometimes the

716
00:57:18.160 --> 00:57:21.480
reason why we're not experiencing, experiencing him

717
00:57:21.480 --> 00:57:25.040
or seeing him or whatever, is because we have a subconscious

718
00:57:25.040 --> 00:57:31.760
expectation of or a desperation. And that that really strong

719
00:57:31.760 --> 00:57:35.720
desire actually can be resistance. We think it's a

720
00:57:35.720 --> 00:57:39.160
pulling it towards us as if it's a good thing. But actually

721
00:57:39.200 --> 00:57:43.040
anything that requires any kind of sweat or strife, even an

722
00:57:43.040 --> 00:57:48.000
emotional one, is resistance. So remember that God wants to

723
00:57:48.000 --> 00:57:53.880
show up for you more than you want him to. So our job is to

724
00:57:53.880 --> 00:57:59.040
not resist. Our job is to believe is to simply receive is

725
00:57:59.040 --> 00:58:06.920
to just watch for to anticipate, to expect, but not to, to expect

726
00:58:06.920 --> 00:58:13.920
as in to anticipate, but not to, to draw or to pull or to hold

727
00:58:13.920 --> 00:58:19.920
against or, or whatever. Does that make sense? Okay. Okay.

728
00:58:20.240 --> 00:58:23.760
Yeah, quick question, if you don't mind. Yeah. Do you have

729
00:58:23.760 --> 00:58:27.160
any other tips of probably the kind of the same thing letting

730
00:58:27.160 --> 00:58:30.600
go about resting at night? I told you I've been having

731
00:58:30.600 --> 00:58:31.760
problems. Oh, yeah.

732
00:58:33.480 --> 00:58:38.840
Getting Yeah. Yes. So one of the things now some of these things

733
00:58:38.840 --> 00:58:40.960
are going to be very practical are going to sound very

734
00:58:40.960 --> 00:58:45.640
practical. But I do mean then other practical things that

735
00:58:45.640 --> 00:58:49.400
you're taking your body through, but as an expression of what

736
00:58:49.400 --> 00:58:54.200
you're choosing in your soul. So what you do is you choose the

737
00:58:54.200 --> 00:58:57.880
value of yourself. Like you're important. You in other words,

738
00:58:57.880 --> 00:59:00.200
you're important, your significance to God, you are

739
00:59:00.200 --> 00:59:03.400
valuable in the way that he says that you are. Remember that God

740
00:59:03.400 --> 00:59:06.480
is who he says that he is to the degree he says he is that. And

741
00:59:06.480 --> 00:59:10.280
we're called to choose that we are who he says that we are, to

742
00:59:10.280 --> 00:59:14.240
the degree he says that we're that. So make yourself, you

743
00:59:14.240 --> 00:59:17.800
know, meaning like yourself, you and God, I don't mean you by

744
00:59:17.800 --> 00:59:21.400
yourself, you know, that you and God are the most valuable thing

745
00:59:21.400 --> 00:59:24.080
to yourself at night. We're supposed to do this all day,

746
00:59:24.080 --> 00:59:27.680
every day, but specifically at night. And then I would choose

747
00:59:27.680 --> 00:59:33.960
this a routine of things that you really enjoy doing before

748
00:59:33.960 --> 00:59:36.920
bed. And I don't know if you want to give yourself an hour, I

749
00:59:36.920 --> 00:59:39.400
don't know if you want to give yourself 30 minutes, whatever it

750
00:59:39.400 --> 00:59:41.560
is, but there's a certain routine that we do, you know,

751
00:59:41.560 --> 00:59:44.320
just to get ready for bed. And we all don't like doing it. We

752
00:59:44.320 --> 00:59:46.360
have to do right, we have to take a shower, we have to brush

753
00:59:46.360 --> 00:59:49.400
our teeth, we have to do whatever, right? Well, if you

754
00:59:49.400 --> 00:59:54.560
play some music that that has that has a tendency to be kind

755
00:59:54.560 --> 00:59:56.640
of slow, like, say, for instance, soaking music or

756
00:59:56.640 --> 01:00:00.000
whatever, it'll provide a particular atmosphere.

757
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:04.880
that you'll then end up like following in your actions like say for instance if it's a very slow

758
01:00:04.880 --> 01:00:11.440
cadence then it'll usually cause you to brush your teeth slower so you start doing things that

759
01:00:11.440 --> 01:00:16.640
are slower and while you're doing them this is where the whole choosing yourself comes in while

760
01:00:16.640 --> 01:00:22.960
you're doing them you put yourself in the moment you don't try to solve any problems about work or

761
01:00:22.960 --> 01:00:28.560
your relationship with god or try to trust and have faith in him about anything you just enjoy

762
01:00:28.560 --> 01:00:36.640
the moment receive appreciate god by appreciating the moment that you're in because he created the

763
01:00:36.640 --> 01:00:41.680
moments of your life to work the way that they do that when you brush your teeth what's happening

764
01:00:42.320 --> 01:00:46.240
you know you know with the with the toothpaste with your toothbrush and with how you're the

765
01:00:46.240 --> 01:00:49.920
fact that your arm moves the way that it does and the fact that all the physics are working the way

766
01:00:49.920 --> 01:00:56.160
that they do god's the one who created it like that so you just fully enjoying the relaxation

767
01:00:56.160 --> 01:01:01.520
of the moment instead of being instead of being frustrated with it like this is really annoying

768
01:01:01.520 --> 01:01:08.320
that i have to spend two minutes of my day doing this very dull thing you know and i just do it

769
01:01:08.320 --> 01:01:12.240
out of habit but my goodness i'd rather be doing something else with my time you know instead of

770
01:01:12.240 --> 01:01:18.000
seeing it as kind of like this enemy that because again that's a bit of resistance fully fully

771
01:01:18.000 --> 01:01:26.320
appreciate you know the moment just enjoy it choose that that moment is valuable for simply

772
01:01:26.320 --> 01:01:32.640
what it is don't make it to be any more important or anything different than just what the heck it

773
01:01:32.640 --> 01:01:37.120
is right and the same thing with the shower the same thing with getting ready create a bit of

774
01:01:37.120 --> 01:01:43.920
routine because there's a bit of for a few reasons one thing there's a bit of um and find value in

775
01:01:43.920 --> 01:01:48.720
the routine like enjoy yourself and love on yourself in the routine you're brushing your

776
01:01:48.720 --> 01:01:54.480
teeth because you love you you're enjoying you then go pick go get your pajamas because

777
01:01:55.360 --> 01:02:00.640
you know i i like pajamas i i could have gotten anything else but these are the pajamas that i

778
01:02:00.640 --> 01:02:05.200
have if by the way this is a much longer discussion but if you don't like your pajamas

779
01:02:05.200 --> 01:02:10.480
if they're very uninteresting to you go buy pajamas that bring you joy because you're worth it

780
01:02:11.120 --> 01:02:17.040
enjoy your life enjoy the mundane little things those are supposed to be special

781
01:02:17.600 --> 01:02:22.560
those are supposed to be interesting god's like i want you to enjoy me i created amazing things

782
01:02:22.560 --> 01:02:28.560
and you got those from walmart why why didn't you get these other things you know because you like

783
01:02:28.560 --> 01:02:36.000
these why don't you get these you know so know that you're worth investing in that your moments

784
01:02:36.000 --> 01:02:40.560
are important because you are what makes them important you're the one going through the moment

785
01:02:41.280 --> 01:02:46.160
so you're not it's you enjoying yourself as you do it that'll begin to relax you because

786
01:02:46.160 --> 01:02:51.760
you're pulling away from from all of these things that are pulling on you and you're choosing to cut

787
01:02:51.760 --> 01:02:59.120
away so that's really what you're doing with the routine is you're trying to cut away from and cut

788
01:02:59.200 --> 01:03:05.680
off everything else that wants to try to pull on you it doesn't have a right to you you have you

789
01:03:05.680 --> 01:03:13.200
are more valuable than all of those things and um so i would do you know stuff like that um and then

790
01:03:13.200 --> 01:03:18.080
just just have a particular time that you cut everything off of like okay there's no more

791
01:03:18.080 --> 01:03:23.840
problem solving for tomorrow there's no more um there's no more problem solving of like even like

792
01:03:23.840 --> 01:03:27.520
trying to have faith in god and trying to believe in and trying to whatever you know there's no more

793
01:03:27.520 --> 01:03:32.880
growth right now you know consciously there's always subconscious growth you're still shifting

794
01:03:32.880 --> 01:03:41.360
you know there's no more anything no god doesn't need any more of you today he wants you to enjoy

795
01:03:41.360 --> 01:03:46.800
he wants to be able to enjoy you and he wants you to enjoy him so just enjoy him don't try to learn

796
01:03:46.800 --> 01:03:52.320
don't try to grow don't try to expand don't try to be better for tomorrow there's plenty of time

797
01:03:52.320 --> 01:03:59.760
tomorrow to grow so if you start doing all of that uh that that will help a lot i promise um

798
01:03:59.760 --> 01:04:04.560
and then um one more thing that i thought of like in choosing yourself especially if you give yourself

799
01:04:04.560 --> 01:04:10.080
like an hour or whatever pick your favorite some of your absolute hands-down favorite things to do

800
01:04:10.080 --> 01:04:14.480
and to do those during that time as long as they're not stimulating like if you have like a

801
01:04:14.480 --> 01:04:18.880
guilty pleasure books that you enjoy reading i think guilty pleasure is in like i don't know about

802
01:04:18.880 --> 01:04:23.360
you but i always feel a little like i'm i love reading fiction books but i always feel like it's

803
01:04:23.360 --> 01:04:31.040
a waste of time it's not but i feel like it is so if you do the like some of your favorite things

804
01:04:31.040 --> 01:04:35.520
at night during that time you'll look forward to it you'll look forward to going to bed you'll

805
01:04:35.520 --> 01:04:41.280
you'll anticipate this because the entire time of getting ready for bed and then finally going to

806
01:04:41.280 --> 01:04:45.760
sleep is all about you it's not about anything you have to accomplish it's not about anything

807
01:04:45.760 --> 01:04:50.640
better you have to be for the word you know it's not any you know you're not trying to make your

808
01:04:50.640 --> 01:04:55.840
life better and to and to like i said solving problems or solving the financial problems or

809
01:04:55.840 --> 01:04:59.760
figuring anything out that's all that's all for some other time

810
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:04.060
Um, have faith, have enough faith in God.

811
01:05:04.060 --> 01:05:08.700
If he says that you're valuable, that that's what you need to spend time on and that God

812
01:05:08.700 --> 01:05:17.420
will go and then entrust everything else that has to be solved into God's hands, as opposed

813
01:05:17.420 --> 01:05:21.540
to thinking that you have to carry it.

814
01:05:21.540 --> 01:05:26.980
If God says that you don't have to carry it, actually act on it and stop carrying it.

815
01:05:26.980 --> 01:05:28.060
And so put it aside.

816
01:05:28.060 --> 01:05:30.940
And so anyway, that's, that's what I would do.

817
01:05:30.940 --> 01:05:34.420
And like I said, that has to, that has to go into your laying down as well.

818
01:05:34.420 --> 01:05:38.460
It's not like, okay, well I can just spend time on myself while I'm enjoying my routine.

819
01:05:38.460 --> 01:05:41.980
But once I actually put my head on the pillow, turn the light out, well then my mind starts

820
01:05:41.980 --> 01:05:45.980
going, no, I've very rarely had a difficult time.

821
01:05:45.980 --> 01:05:50.700
I'm going to sleep in my life and I didn't understand other people that did, and, but

822
01:05:50.700 --> 01:05:54.580
I didn't know what I was doing until I got older when I got older and I started hearing

823
01:05:54.580 --> 01:05:57.500
other people that had a hard time going to sleep.

824
01:05:57.500 --> 01:06:02.580
I started figuring, I started hearing why they did, I finally realized, oh, I'm not

825
01:06:02.580 --> 01:06:03.580
doing that.

826
01:06:03.580 --> 01:06:05.980
See, they're all thinking, they're all trying to problem solve.

827
01:06:05.980 --> 01:06:11.340
Well, when I went to bed, as much of a driver is that I am in life and as much of a problem

828
01:06:11.340 --> 01:06:13.060
solver, that was literally my career.

829
01:06:13.060 --> 01:06:18.540
I literally was hired to solve quote unquote impossible problems.

830
01:06:18.540 --> 01:06:22.540
And I always had this thing of like, okay, if I've decided it's time to go to bed, that

831
01:06:22.540 --> 01:06:25.220
I can't do anything.

832
01:06:25.220 --> 01:06:26.220
I'm going to bed.

833
01:06:26.220 --> 01:06:27.220
I'm not eating.

834
01:06:27.940 --> 01:06:28.940
I'm not driving.

835
01:06:28.940 --> 01:06:30.620
I'm going to bed.

836
01:06:30.620 --> 01:06:34.220
So why on earth do I think if I'm not doing anything else, that I'm going to start thinking?

837
01:06:34.220 --> 01:06:36.540
I'm like, no, that's something I have to do.

838
01:06:36.540 --> 01:06:40.340
And that's, you can't think and sleep at the same time, so to speak.

839
01:06:40.340 --> 01:06:42.220
I mean, like think consciously.

840
01:06:42.220 --> 01:06:43.900
So we're just like, this is what I've decided.

841
01:06:43.900 --> 01:06:45.300
If I decide to eat, then I'm going to eat.

842
01:06:45.300 --> 01:06:48.620
But if I've decided I'm going to sleep, that's what I'm doing.

843
01:06:48.620 --> 01:06:52.820
So if I did, if I'm, if I'm thinking that I'm not sleeping, so why on earth am I lying

844
01:06:52.820 --> 01:06:53.820
down with the lights off?

845
01:06:53.820 --> 01:06:56.020
It's like, what have I decided to do right now?

846
01:06:56.020 --> 01:06:57.580
I've decided to go to sleep.

847
01:06:57.580 --> 01:07:02.260
So I, I've always kind of thought of it as a one, as a one thing I'm doing, I'm, I'm

848
01:07:02.260 --> 01:07:03.260
sleeping.

849
01:07:03.260 --> 01:07:04.260
So therefore there's no thinking.

850
01:07:04.260 --> 01:07:05.260
So there's no problem solving.

851
01:07:05.260 --> 01:07:11.580
So that, so I very rarely had an issue with that, but I realized that that's not what

852
01:07:11.580 --> 01:07:12.580
other people did.

853
01:07:12.580 --> 01:07:15.020
But anyway, just definitely helpful for you.

854
01:07:15.020 --> 01:07:18.580
You remember, choose yourself from the time that you start your routine at night, all

855
01:07:18.580 --> 01:07:22.980
the way through going to bed before, you know, and then including until you get up the next

856
01:07:22.980 --> 01:07:23.980
morning at your alarm.

857
01:07:23.980 --> 01:07:28.140
Even if you wake up in the middle of the night, it's not a time to problem solve your

858
01:07:28.140 --> 01:07:29.140
time.

859
01:07:29.140 --> 01:07:30.140
Here we go.

860
01:07:30.140 --> 01:07:33.860
The chiefs just, we were about to win.

861
01:07:33.860 --> 01:07:38.220
The chiefs just scored three and there's only 11 seconds left.

862
01:07:38.220 --> 01:07:40.860
They, they took it down and ran the time out.

863
01:07:40.860 --> 01:07:41.860
I'm sorry.

864
01:07:41.860 --> 01:07:42.860
I'm sorry.

865
01:07:42.860 --> 01:07:43.860
Sorry.

866
01:07:43.860 --> 01:07:44.860
Sorry.

867
01:07:44.860 --> 01:07:45.860
Sorry.

868
01:07:45.860 --> 01:07:46.860
Sorry.

869
01:07:46.860 --> 01:07:47.860
I had to tell you.

870
01:07:47.860 --> 01:07:48.860
I appreciate it.

871
01:07:48.860 --> 01:07:49.860
Thank you.

872
01:07:49.860 --> 01:07:53.500
I don't think I'm resisting sleeping.

873
01:07:53.500 --> 01:07:57.180
And so even, even when I wake up, what did you say to do if you wake up?

874
01:07:57.180 --> 01:08:00.420
Because I'm saying, yeah, same thing.

875
01:08:00.420 --> 01:08:04.940
It's like, remember that it's still your, it's still you, you're the most important

876
01:08:04.940 --> 01:08:05.940
thing.

877
01:08:05.940 --> 01:08:06.940
Not everything that has to be solved.

878
01:08:06.940 --> 01:08:10.980
And that has not everyone that has to be solved and something that you have to do something

879
01:08:10.980 --> 01:08:12.540
that's being required of you.

880
01:08:12.540 --> 01:08:15.340
Something that's being pulled on from you.

881
01:08:15.340 --> 01:08:17.220
It's just, it's you right now.

882
01:08:17.220 --> 01:08:18.220
You get to sleep.

883
01:08:18.220 --> 01:08:20.220
You get to do nothing but sleep.

884
01:08:20.220 --> 01:08:25.260
You know, in other words, think of it as selfish, but without the negative part of selfishness.

885
01:08:25.260 --> 01:08:26.260
Yeah.

886
01:08:26.260 --> 01:08:27.260
Yeah.

887
01:08:27.260 --> 01:08:28.260
Think of yourself as valuable.

888
01:08:28.260 --> 01:08:29.260
Yeah.

889
01:08:29.260 --> 01:08:30.260
That's good.

890
01:08:30.260 --> 01:08:33.899
Cause sometimes I'll lay there and then I get this, it's, it's a cortisol issue too.

891
01:08:33.899 --> 01:08:39.300
I've stayed up so late when I worked evenings for a long time, it's like I flipped my cortisol.

892
01:08:39.300 --> 01:08:42.140
So if I go past a certain time, it kicks back in.

893
01:08:42.140 --> 01:08:44.500
So I don't really want to be awake.

894
01:08:44.500 --> 01:08:50.620
And I've done all the things and I've got on nice music, but next thing, you know, I'm,

895
01:08:50.620 --> 01:08:57.700
I'm awake and that's my issue to kind of, so, but these are helpful.

896
01:08:57.700 --> 01:09:01.340
These are, these are helpful and I'm, I'm trusting God he's helping me.

897
01:09:01.340 --> 01:09:07.420
And I've got, I'm working with a naturopathic doctor and taking some cortisol stuff.

898
01:09:07.420 --> 01:09:11.859
I'm trusting God he's, he's helping me with this, but I just thought your tips would be

899
01:09:11.859 --> 01:09:12.859
helpful.

900
01:09:12.859 --> 01:09:13.859
Good.

901
01:09:14.220 --> 01:09:18.380
And the other thing would be, if you put something by the side of your bed, so if something comes

902
01:09:18.380 --> 01:09:21.819
up now, this may not be an issue of thinking of something, but if it does, if it comes

903
01:09:21.819 --> 01:09:27.300
up in the middle of the night, always, if you have something by your bed, then if you're

904
01:09:27.300 --> 01:09:30.180
thinking about something, you're like, Oh my goodness, I'm not supposed to be thinking

905
01:09:30.180 --> 01:09:31.540
about that.

906
01:09:31.540 --> 01:09:38.460
Go and, and write it, just, just write down the thought to get it out of your head.

907
01:09:38.460 --> 01:09:41.500
So you can remember it tomorrow and then go back to sleep.

908
01:09:41.500 --> 01:09:45.180
That'll help a lot as well because it's you're, you're taking it out of your head and you're

909
01:09:45.180 --> 01:09:49.979
putting it somewhere where you're not having to be subconsciously responsible to try to

910
01:09:49.979 --> 01:09:50.979
remember it tomorrow.

911
01:09:50.979 --> 01:09:51.979
But that's just another little thing.

912
01:09:51.979 --> 01:09:52.979
Yeah.

913
01:09:52.979 --> 01:09:53.979
Okay.

914
01:09:53.979 --> 01:09:56.980
I think we're down to eight seconds.

915
01:09:56.980 --> 01:09:59.980
I think they're just, I think they've about.

916
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:02.080
I want it here, we hope.

917
01:10:02.080 --> 01:10:03.680
Let's see what happens real quick.

918
01:10:06.080 --> 01:10:08.720
Well, I'll watch it together if I curiously do care.

919
01:10:11.280 --> 01:10:13.920
They're hugging, I think it's over.

920
01:10:13.920 --> 01:10:16.800
Oh, okay, yeah, they've decided that,

921
01:10:16.800 --> 01:10:18.360
okay, let's just call it,

922
01:10:18.360 --> 01:10:20.520
which I've never understood that rule.

923
01:10:20.520 --> 01:10:21.360
I mean, neither.

924
01:10:21.360 --> 01:10:22.400
Like, how do they know?

925
01:10:22.400 --> 01:10:24.400
How do they know when they can call it?

926
01:10:24.400 --> 01:10:26.360
How do they know when it's not too close?

927
01:10:26.360 --> 01:10:29.400
Yeah, they said, they won, the Chiefs won!

928
01:10:29.400 --> 01:10:30.720
Woo-hoo!

929
01:10:30.720 --> 01:10:31.960
Yay!

930
01:10:31.960 --> 01:10:36.520
They won, that's exciting.

931
01:10:36.520 --> 01:10:37.360
That's exciting.

932
01:10:37.360 --> 01:10:40.600
If some of y'all are Philadelphia fans, I'm so sorry.

933
01:10:40.600 --> 01:10:41.440
Yeah.

934
01:10:41.440 --> 01:10:43.240
For me to be excited and throw my excitement

935
01:10:43.240 --> 01:10:46.120
in anybody's face, I just, I'm very excited.

936
01:10:46.120 --> 01:10:49.080
My homes went to the college that I,

937
01:10:49.080 --> 01:10:51.960
that my family's like hometown college.

938
01:10:51.960 --> 01:10:54.920
So I grew up, I actually would watch him play live

939
01:10:54.920 --> 01:10:56.360
when he was in college.

940
01:10:56.360 --> 01:10:57.760
So it was always fun.

941
01:10:57.760 --> 01:10:58.600
It was like, oh my word,

942
01:10:58.600 --> 01:11:00.720
that kid is so much fun to watch.

943
01:11:00.720 --> 01:11:04.080
And all of a sudden he gets famous around the nation

944
01:11:04.080 --> 01:11:05.320
and then the Chiefs pick him up.

945
01:11:05.320 --> 01:11:07.760
So our entire hometown is now Chiefs fans

946
01:11:07.760 --> 01:11:09.080
because they have my home.

947
01:11:10.160 --> 01:11:12.240
He just had fireworks go off here at my,

948
01:11:12.240 --> 01:11:14.560
someone's shooting off fireworks here.

949
01:11:14.560 --> 01:11:16.200
Yeah, cause y'all are close to,

950
01:11:16.200 --> 01:11:18.400
y'all are close to Kansas City, yeah.

951
01:11:18.400 --> 01:11:20.080
Couple hours away, but you know,

952
01:11:20.080 --> 01:11:21.800
the other thing is, I don't know if y'all know this,

953
01:11:21.800 --> 01:11:23.360
but there's prophecies.

954
01:11:23.360 --> 01:11:25.800
Bob Jones had prophecies about when the Chiefs

955
01:11:25.800 --> 01:11:26.800
won a certain thing,

956
01:11:26.800 --> 01:11:29.760
that that's when the glory was really gonna fall.

957
01:11:29.760 --> 01:11:31.920
True, yeah, he did, yeah.

958
01:11:31.920 --> 01:11:36.200
So exciting about, that's pretty exciting, you know?

959
01:11:36.200 --> 01:11:37.120
Yeah.

960
01:11:37.120 --> 01:11:40.440
Yeah, that element kind of helps.

961
01:11:40.440 --> 01:11:41.280
Yeah.

962
01:11:42.120 --> 01:11:42.960
So.

963
01:11:43.920 --> 01:11:46.240
Okay, everybody, it's good to be with y'all

964
01:11:46.240 --> 01:11:48.440
on such an exciting night.

965
01:11:48.440 --> 01:11:50.720
Loved all of y'all's Journey Seers.

966
01:11:51.880 --> 01:11:54.680
If y'all have any more, you know, for this week,

967
01:11:54.680 --> 01:11:57.000
I will look forward to those.

968
01:11:57.000 --> 01:11:59.960
You're welcome, and I will post the thing soon

969
01:11:59.960 --> 01:12:03.080
about the negative emotions, Tammy.

970
01:12:03.080 --> 01:12:03.920
So.

971
01:12:03.920 --> 01:12:04.760
Good to see you all.

972
01:12:04.760 --> 01:12:06.080
And when is this one posted?

973
01:12:06.080 --> 01:12:07.400
Is it posted right away?

974
01:12:08.280 --> 01:12:10.640
No, I have to wait for it to process.

975
01:12:10.640 --> 01:12:12.400
So as soon as the thing is over,

976
01:12:12.400 --> 01:12:15.080
it has to process before it lets me download it.

977
01:12:15.080 --> 01:12:17.560
So we'll probably get it uploaded tomorrow.

978
01:12:17.560 --> 01:12:18.800
Okay.

979
01:12:18.800 --> 01:12:20.000
All right.

980
01:12:20.000 --> 01:12:20.840
Thank you.

981
01:12:20.840 --> 01:12:23.480
Okay, see y'all later, bye.

982
01:12:23.480 --> 01:12:25.520
Shalom, thank you all.

983
01:12:25.520 --> 01:12:26.360
Shalom.

984
01:12:27.560 --> 01:12:28.880
Thank you, what was in the chat too?

985
01:12:28.880 --> 01:12:30.360
How do I say what's in the chat?

986
01:12:30.360 --> 01:12:32.960
Everybody's comments were helpful.

987
01:12:33.880 --> 01:12:37.280
Well, you just, you touch the screen

988
01:12:37.280 --> 01:12:39.960
and then right below, you'll see participants

989
01:12:39.960 --> 01:12:41.560
or chat or something, click on that,

990
01:12:41.560 --> 01:12:42.720
and then you'll see it.

991
01:12:44.440 --> 01:12:48.160
There's a, there's a way to save it, but,

992
01:12:48.160 --> 01:12:49.000
well, you know what?

993
01:12:49.000 --> 01:12:51.480
I'm just gonna, I'm just gonna screenshot it.

994
01:12:51.480 --> 01:12:52.720
That's a good idea.

995
01:12:52.840 --> 01:12:54.520
I did, okay.

996
01:12:54.520 --> 01:12:55.360
All right.

997
01:12:55.360 --> 01:12:57.360
Okay, have a good night, Karen.

998
01:12:57.360 --> 01:12:58.200
Thank you.

999
01:12:58.200 --> 01:12:59.040
Bye.

1000
01:12:59.040 --> 01:12:59.880
Bye.