WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:03.480 Oh, don't forget to start. Yeah, there. Thank you. 2 00:00:06.680 --> 00:00:11.880 Me and I have been on for about 15 minutes. I told her, I said, remind me to start the recording at the right time. 3 00:00:12.880 --> 00:00:13.440 So, 4 00:00:14.760 --> 00:00:20.200 So the way that if you if y'all make biscuits from scratch the ways to make them them. 5 00:00:20.200 --> 00:00:36.560 And get to give them the same texture is like Popeye's or or McDonald's is to replace the milk with mayonnaise. If you do that, how they get that that's how they get that texture. 6 00:00:37.600 --> 00:00:38.320 Yeah, I'm 7 00:00:38.600 --> 00:00:42.560 A little terrifying when you consider how much fat, it is, but it's also really good. 8 00:00:44.440 --> 00:00:46.080 Treats. You know, you've got your 9 00:00:46.400 --> 00:00:54.680 Seed oatmeal, but then we feed ourselves brownies to this is in the brownies category feature stop a tree by 10 00:00:55.480 --> 00:00:58.840 By making that the biscuits of mayonnaise instead of with them. 11 00:00:59.520 --> 00:01:15.080 Instead of with milk. That's how that's how they get that Christmas. Also, if you again not healthy, but if you fry things like if you fry eggs or pan toast or I don't know, whatever else in a pan with just a little bit of mayonnaise on top of it. 12 00:01:15.080 --> 00:01:27.080 A little bit of mayonnaise instead of the butter, then it, it, it, it has a very interesting flavor to it as well as it kind of like crisps at the edge in a different way than butter. Now, you know, 13 00:01:27.840 --> 00:01:41.400 I know it's not healthy, just like, just like, you know, certain it's not one of the oils. That's good. Once it has been heated, but we don't always eat stuff that's good for us. Sometimes we eat stuff that just tastes good. 14 00:01:41.760 --> 00:01:47.800 So that's in your taste good category. That's a no. We're pretty extra hard over this one. 15 00:01:49.880 --> 00:01:52.120 Before we eat it anyway. 16 00:01:53.720 --> 00:01:54.000 Well, 17 00:01:55.120 --> 00:02:04.120 Substituting the mayonnaise for the milk. We know fat doesn't make you fat carbs makes you fat. So eat all the man you want. 18 00:02:05.120 --> 00:02:11.120 I like it. Yeah, because I'm trying to remember when I was on the Atkins diet, many, many years ago. 19 00:02:14.200 --> 00:02:25.640 I lost about 30 pounds in three months. So it works, but it doesn't deal with your, it doesn't deal with the emotional reason why you're eating. So I had to 20 00:02:26.640 --> 00:02:39.840 The pounds again. So I had I gained and lost 40 pounds twice in my life and gained it gained 40 pounds my freshman year of Pensacola Christian College lost it all that summer regained it 21 00:02:40.880 --> 00:02:50.120 Regained it back slower, but I still regained it in that I lost it slower. And that time I in this time I've dealt with the emotional reason why I was eating so 22 00:02:51.040 --> 00:02:56.680 But yeah, I can study it. My, my point saying all that is on the Atkins diet, you know, you can eat all of that fat. 23 00:02:57.200 --> 00:03:11.320 And you eat fat, but you don't eat carbs. And so there were all kinds of things that I could eat. And I think one of them was mayonnaise and like cheese and lots of me bacon. It was a really nice. 24 00:03:12.320 --> 00:03:22.000 For a southern girl, though, but I was surprised at how much I miss bread or even vegetables, fruits. That was hard, but that's 25 00:03:23.480 --> 00:03:25.200 Go. Hey, Holly. 26 00:03:25.440 --> 00:03:27.000 Hey, how are you 27 00:03:27.400 --> 00:03:28.240 Are you 28 00:03:28.440 --> 00:03:29.560 Good. Thank you. 29 00:03:30.280 --> 00:03:31.400 I like your shirt. 30 00:03:32.680 --> 00:03:33.280 Is it called 31 00:03:33.520 --> 00:03:36.440 It's an entire velour track suit. 32 00:03:36.960 --> 00:03:37.880 Whoo. 33 00:03:40.320 --> 00:03:43.560 Cannot pass that velvet. If I see it anywhere. I can 34 00:03:46.280 --> 00:03:50.440 Seriously, because I look straight out of the 80s, but I don't care. 35 00:03:51.520 --> 00:03:52.320 You look really 36 00:03:57.480 --> 00:04:03.360 I have a friend who does if she can't pass that glitter anything 37 00:04:04.200 --> 00:04:04.520 You know, 38 00:04:05.520 --> 00:04:05.960 Yeah. 39 00:04:06.640 --> 00:04:12.560 Yeah. So anyway, um, so does anyone have 40 00:04:15.080 --> 00:04:26.480 And does anyone have any questions. We hadn't even started with the question checks. I've just been waiting for people to hop on. Anyone have anything that they had thought of that they wanted to 41 00:04:27.360 --> 00:04:39.240 Talk about actually before we get into that I can start and I was noticing that 42 00:04:40.440 --> 00:04:48.040 Oh, and it's interesting, you know, so far, everybody that's on here is it was in April intensive and so I was noticing that 43 00:04:48.040 --> 00:04:59.400 I was, you know, how we're all learning how to operate in a greater and greater measures of rest. So this is one of my areas in which the Lord had to stretch me a bit. 44 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:04.560 To me that, okay, actually, we're just not operating in as much rest as you had hoped. 45 00:05:05.340 --> 00:05:22.400 And in all areas. And so with the April intensive what I done, you know, and creating all those lives and this Q AMP. A's is I had wanted so much to make sure that everyone felt safe in the group to just be able to express whatever they wanted in full transparency to allow themselves to shift 46 00:05:23.080 --> 00:05:31.160 And and I didn't even want to ask anyone if they would be willing. If I transferred over the lives and Q AMP. A's. 47 00:05:31.680 --> 00:05:36.040 Because even though they wouldn't be transferring posts or anything like that. I didn't even want to ask 48 00:05:36.360 --> 00:05:45.560 Well, what the Lord showed me. And so I was just redoing all of the teachings, which has put a great amount of them, which I've greatly, greatly struggled with. 49 00:05:45.880 --> 00:05:53.720 Because I'm redoing things that I've already done, meaning that I couldn't spend time answering 50 00:05:54.240 --> 00:06:03.000 The questions that people have come up with, like, for instance, Holly. I remember you asked me a question, either last week or week before last. So it may have been two weeks ago, yikes. 51 00:06:03.440 --> 00:06:10.720 That you would ask a question and I still remember it. I still remember I need to answer all the questions because it was a good question that everyone needs to 52 00:06:11.440 --> 00:06:17.840 That we all can benefit from and and and private questions that people have asked me in their 53 00:06:18.200 --> 00:06:28.240 In their sessions with me. I wanted to answer those in the group as well. Now, not telling anybody, you know, obviously who asked the question, but just the fact that everyone could benefit from the answer. 54 00:06:28.840 --> 00:06:36.360 And I have not been able to get to any of those because I'm trying to make sure that anybody who's coming into the intensive has 55 00:06:36.600 --> 00:06:45.120 Everything they need when they need it. And I'm like down found myself down to the wire in making sure that they have everything that they 56 00:06:45.360 --> 00:06:54.160 That they need from me in order to complete the things that they committed to, which are things like watching certain number, not a certain number, but 57 00:06:54.520 --> 00:07:02.400 Certain teachings by a certain time, you know, when first week, etc. So finally, the Lord. I was just really, really struggling 58 00:07:03.120 --> 00:07:12.840 For the past. I don't know. I guess it's been two weeks at two, three weeks, something like that. And I was just talking to the Lord about it and you just showed me Ashley, you're, you're doing it again. 59 00:07:13.360 --> 00:07:23.880 You're doing what you've done for literally decades, which is you figure out what is the hardest path for you to walk and you determine that that was the righteous one. 60 00:07:33.400 --> 00:07:33.400 61 00:07:43.080 --> 00:07:48.360 Hey there. Sorry about that. Okay, so I'm apparently my zoom kicked me off. 62 00:07:49.560 --> 00:07:59.280 It does that every now and then. So we're back. Anyway, so he would just reminded me, actually, you know, you in the past you to you take the hardest path and you determine what's the right path. 63 00:07:59.760 --> 00:08:05.280 You, you determine that by which one's the hardest. And so instead of just asking everyone 64 00:08:05.840 --> 00:08:15.320 Hey, what would y'all think about if I transferred over some of the lives in the Q AMP. A's because then I would be able to have, I would be able to use the lives that I use for y'all's teaching 65 00:08:15.720 --> 00:08:25.680 I would just already I would be able to hit the ground running and be able to have everything set up and then just be able to continue by adding by being able to spend my time answering 66 00:08:26.120 --> 00:08:32.520 New questions. In other words, going into more advanced teaching instead of just just instead of recovering old material. 67 00:08:33.360 --> 00:08:48.040 And I just didn't want to ask. I didn't want to ask that of y'all. I made an assumption on my part that y'all and that I didn't want to put y'all in a position where you might want to say no, but didn't feel 68 00:08:48.400 --> 00:08:58.360 Didn't feel that you could. And so the problem with that is I'm taking on the burden of a responsibility that should be someone else's 69 00:08:58.680 --> 00:09:08.080 It's someone else's right to make a decision for their own life and I have taken that on and it is seen as a it's seen as a selfless thing. 70 00:09:08.400 --> 00:09:18.960 It is seen as a righteous thing according to the world and it's wrong. It's flat out wrong. It's wrong. And quite honestly, it's disrespectful. It's disrespectful for us to 71 00:09:20.000 --> 00:09:31.840 And for us to assume that someone else cannot make that kind of a decision for themselves and be able to draw a healthy boundary for themselves, etc. And so I 72 00:09:32.360 --> 00:09:51.280 I took on I assumed something and I decided I didn't want to ask. And that's, and that's not, it's not an appropriate way to interact in a relationship, whether it's, you know, whether it's a client relationship or a spouse relationship or even children relationship with children. 73 00:09:51.760 --> 00:10:00.040 So, and then it ends up taking them what we end up doing a lot of times people as you know as moms have a very difficult 74 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:10.860 Time with that we end up taking on things for our children or our spouses that don't belong to us. And we think that it's selfless and it's actually disrespectful. 75 00:10:11.220 --> 00:10:27.480 Because we're making decisions for other people think about, for instance, if someone is making a decision for like, say, for instance, you've got a couple that aren't married and one of them believes that they are holding someone else back by 76 00:10:28.480 --> 00:10:39.240 By not expressing their feelings and the fact that they really truly love someone because they feel that, oh, if I let them know how much I love them. And if I asked them to marry me or whatever. 77 00:10:39.520 --> 00:10:44.240 That were if I show them how much I care that they're going to feel the pressure 78 00:10:44.760 --> 00:10:51.720 Or and then they're going to end up making a decision that wouldn't serve them in the long run, because in the long run, it would have been better. 79 00:10:52.000 --> 00:11:01.320 If I let him go to college and do this or let him pursue this career, etc. And it's actually being very disrespectful to not allow someone else to make the decision for their lives. 80 00:11:01.840 --> 00:11:16.440 So anyway, I realized that that's what I did. And I mean, nobody's meaning to be disrespectful. No one's meaning to do it that way. You know, you're trying to do it in a way in trying to 81 00:11:17.080 --> 00:11:28.920 I'm trying to carry something for someone else so that you can relieve someone else of the pressure so that you can protect someone 82 00:11:29.520 --> 00:11:36.160 What we end up doing is we end up protecting them from their right to make their own decision and and all of that so 83 00:11:36.960 --> 00:11:45.480 And it wasn't anything that I was trying to do to anybody. I was ending up just making it harder on myself is what I was doing instead of asking y'all. I was like, I don't want to ask 84 00:11:46.160 --> 00:11:55.320 So I thought, I will just, I will just redo all of that redo all the teachings and I realized, oh my word. I've just been under a tremendous amount of pressure. 85 00:11:55.560 --> 00:12:04.160 And I didn't allow myself and I couldn't seem to find a place of rest and the Lord was was used it in my life to reveal to me. 86 00:12:04.560 --> 00:12:14.800 Ashley, you are you're taking you're making things too hard on yourself. I provided an opportunity for you and you didn't take it. 87 00:12:15.880 --> 00:12:20.760 And you try to judge more righteously than God. 88 00:12:21.800 --> 00:12:27.680 And so anyway, I just wanted to say there's nothing wrong with like if y'all at all said, hey, look, you know, 89 00:12:28.000 --> 00:12:34.600 No, thanks for just not and you know we prefer to keep that private. There's nothing wrong with that. The problem is I made the decision. 90 00:12:35.640 --> 00:12:41.720 And anyway, nothing wrong with making a decision. It's not, I wasn't like doing anything mean to y'all. 91 00:12:42.480 --> 00:12:47.120 But I was making it harder myself and I wasn't allowing 92 00:12:47.640 --> 00:12:52.440 Other people to make that decision in their own lives, which increases the health of a relationship. 93 00:12:52.760 --> 00:13:01.760 If, if people can be transparent with one another. And so then I ended up creating a whole bunch of trouble for myself and the Lord used it to say, hey, actually, you know, 94 00:13:02.280 --> 00:13:11.960 This, this is you need to operate more from a place of rest and you can't seem to find rest. You made the wrong, not the wrong decision, but you that you 95 00:13:12.320 --> 00:13:18.280 You started this struggle way back here way back to three weeks ago, whenever that was 96 00:13:18.800 --> 00:13:28.600 And anyway, so I just wanted to let y'all know. And that is something that I learned and I learned it. I think last night I was processing this with a friend of mine. It's like 97 00:13:29.040 --> 00:13:38.440 She asked me, well, actually, what do you think is triggered the fact that you are that you can't seem to get into get get into a place of rest. 98 00:13:38.960 --> 00:13:49.320 I said, you know what, it's, it's not a new thing. It's been going on for a few weeks. And as I was trying to explain to her my situation. All of a sudden, I answered my own question. 99 00:13:49.760 --> 00:13:59.320 I was like, I know what's going on. So, and it's like, I know now what to do. So then I reached out to all of y'all and obey the Lord. And anyway, so we're all still learning 100 00:14:00.040 --> 00:14:13.160 We can take greater and greater measures of rest and discovering where it is that we think that we're standing in our identity. We think that we're standing in rest and then we end up into realizing that we're not so 101 00:14:13.960 --> 00:14:25.840 Um, so I just thought, I hope, I hope that that would be helpful. And another thing that I wanted to mention was and to just remind everybody that 102 00:14:26.520 --> 00:14:34.880 And because it was just something that started coming up in some of my client sessions. I just wanted to remind everyone that that 103 00:14:36.000 --> 00:14:43.880 The reason that we're all on this journey is because wherever we are because all of us are in different levels of this journey. 104 00:14:44.240 --> 00:14:54.120 We're the, the reason why we're attracted to this message that we're hearing from the Lord. The reason that I'm attracted to it. The reason that y'all were attracted to it and you decided to jump into it with the Lord. 105 00:14:54.120 --> 00:15:00.040 Is the fact that whatever you've been doing so far is not allowing you to manifest what 106 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:07.980 It is that you want to manifest in your life like a certain level of peace or a certain level of rest or moving into greater understanding of X, Y, and Z. 107 00:15:08.580 --> 00:15:22.540 And all of us are at different levels in that. But the reason that we're here is because there's something that we want that whatever we're doing so far and whatever perspective in which we have approached the Lord so far is 108 00:15:23.080 --> 00:15:32.680 has served us by allowing us to get to this point, but it's not allowing us to move past this point. And that means that there's something that we're not 109 00:15:33.160 --> 00:15:43.080 that we're not understanding or we're not meaning that we're not believing about the Lord. And so I just want to encourage us all, because I have to do the same thing, 110 00:15:44.080 --> 00:15:45.420 that 111 00:15:46.560 --> 00:15:56.160 to, I just want to encourage us that to leave whatever it is that we've been doing and how it's worked in the past and leave it, leave it at the door. 112 00:15:56.760 --> 00:16:01.960 And understand that the new things that the Lord moves us into and the new revelations 113 00:16:02.400 --> 00:16:12.680 are going to be just that. They're going to be new and we're not going to sometimes understand how to reconcile them with what it is that we've done so far. 114 00:16:13.280 --> 00:16:22.000 Because we believed certain things. And now it's like, well, wait a minute. These are just, these are new things. And I'm not sure how that reconciles with this. Exactly. 115 00:16:22.760 --> 00:16:30.800 Exactly. That served us to this point. And so it no longer serves us beyond this point. And so we now have to 116 00:16:31.120 --> 00:16:39.400 we now have to leave certain things at the door and understand that there are things that we are going to struggle in trying to reconcile. 117 00:16:39.760 --> 00:16:45.920 And think about like a, like the fact that when you're talking to a two year old, you have to talk in very black and white terms. 118 00:16:46.240 --> 00:16:54.840 To the point where if a 55 year old, I don't know why I'm picking this two ages. I'm always talking about two year olds and 55 year old, but you know 55 year old can 119 00:16:55.600 --> 00:17:06.480 if they hear someone talking to a two year old and they don't know that someone, they hear someone in another room talking to a two year old, but they don't know that they're talking to a two year old, they just hear somebody talking 120 00:17:06.839 --> 00:17:14.920 And they hear them giving instruction. Well, then the 55 year old is going, that's not accurate. That's not right. That's not accounting for all of these situations. 121 00:17:15.280 --> 00:17:19.599 But then when they walk in the room and they realize, oh, well, they're just talking to a two year old. 122 00:17:19.800 --> 00:17:25.680 All of this sudden what the person was saying makes sense because you can only talk to the two year old in certain terms. 123 00:17:25.960 --> 00:17:34.960 And you can't reveal everything to them. So one of the struggles that we have when we're moving from two to five to 10 to 15 or whatever. 124 00:17:35.320 --> 00:17:46.480 Is there are things that we used to believe were true that served us to getting to that age that allowed us to operate and function and successfully at that point. 125 00:17:46.800 --> 00:17:55.360 That we now have to leave in order to move beyond that point in order to move from 10 years old into a teenager. 126 00:17:56.240 --> 00:18:08.760 There are things that we thought were true that we're now understanding that we kind of have to really shift our perspective and how to view that truth in order to progress further and 127 00:18:09.280 --> 00:18:19.840 And so that was just something that I've been thinking about in some of the sessions that have been with various various people because, you know, I'm in sessions with them with y'all and then and then one on one client. 128 00:18:20.680 --> 00:18:30.880 That I was just talking and I was realizing it kept this idea kept coming up where people are frustrated if something doesn't is something new doesn't reconcile 129 00:18:31.440 --> 00:18:37.520 And they keep expecting it to it won't always. Now, nothing will contract should contradict the Bible. 130 00:18:38.000 --> 00:18:44.120 But just know that what we have learned this far is like what a two year old knows or what a five year old knows 131 00:18:44.560 --> 00:18:52.040 Very black can see life is very black and white terms that we have to be willing to mold and expand 132 00:18:53.000 --> 00:19:03.880 What we used to believe about something as as true and now understand what it's going to look very, very different. It means that it's going to take on a lot more color, a lot more depth. 133 00:19:04.240 --> 00:19:16.320 But we are going to struggle with trying to reconcile some of it because we in the past, we understood in part. So now what we're trying to do is according to First Corinthians is we're trying to 134 00:19:16.720 --> 00:19:29.600 Then for now I know in part, but then shall I know even is also I have known. In other words, that we're actually going to come into a greater and greater fullness of what it means to look truth and God in the face. 135 00:19:30.040 --> 00:19:36.040 As opposed to being seen through a glass darkly well well it looks like this and it looks like that. 136 00:19:36.560 --> 00:19:44.400 Well, when we come face to face with the thing which if we come to sharply face to face with thing we reject it because it's too overwhelming. 137 00:19:44.840 --> 00:19:55.760 And we don't know how to consume it. So God has to slowly progress us from viewing something as a shadow, which is 2D distorted image into the actual 3D. 138 00:19:55.760 --> 00:19:59.720 Technicolor version where if we go too fast is 139 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:04.480 loads our senses and we don't know how to consume it and we don't have a grip for it. 140 00:20:04.480 --> 00:20:11.760 God traverses us through that process and that means that we need to be open to experiencing 141 00:20:11.760 --> 00:20:18.160 new and receiving new revelations of him in that thinking of realizing that we're going 142 00:20:18.160 --> 00:20:26.480 to traverse our understanding and our change of perception of what is truth in a very similar 143 00:20:26.480 --> 00:20:27.480 fashion. 144 00:20:28.360 --> 00:20:33.560 We're like, wait a minute, this doesn't reconcile because if you look at the end, the 3D Technicolor 145 00:20:33.560 --> 00:20:39.080 version and compare it to what we used to always know is the shadow and the 2D version 146 00:20:39.080 --> 00:20:46.280 and the distorted version, we don't even understand how that could possibly, you know, how you 147 00:20:46.280 --> 00:20:51.600 could have even gotten the shadow from the Technicolor version because they're just so, 148 00:20:51.600 --> 00:20:52.600 so very different. 149 00:20:52.600 --> 00:20:56.520 So anyway, I just wanted to encourage us in that we'll be able, I've noticed that those 150 00:20:56.520 --> 00:21:03.800 who shift faster are those who are willing to let go of those old mindsets more readily, 151 00:21:03.800 --> 00:21:05.360 who allow themselves to be more vulnerable. 152 00:21:05.360 --> 00:21:10.680 They're the ones who, when I've worked with, when I've interacted with them, they shift 153 00:21:10.680 --> 00:21:15.720 10 times faster than everyone else, 10 times faster. 154 00:21:15.720 --> 00:21:16.720 I've watched it repeatedly. 155 00:21:16.720 --> 00:21:17.720 I've watched it in my own life. 156 00:21:17.720 --> 00:21:18.720 I watched it in other people's lives. 157 00:21:18.720 --> 00:21:19.720 So anyway, just wanted to encourage everybody in that. 158 00:21:19.720 --> 00:21:20.720 Don't know who needed to hear that. 159 00:21:20.720 --> 00:21:21.720 Maybe it was just me. 160 00:21:22.720 --> 00:21:28.720 So does anyone have anything that they wanted to start out with? 161 00:21:28.720 --> 00:21:31.720 Oh, I've got some chats. 162 00:21:31.720 --> 00:21:35.720 Did somebody, we can call it the Martyrdom Syndrome. 163 00:21:35.720 --> 00:21:36.720 Yes. 164 00:21:36.720 --> 00:21:37.720 I don't need another. 165 00:21:37.720 --> 00:21:38.720 We don't need another Jesus. 166 00:21:38.720 --> 00:21:39.720 Leave me alone. 167 00:21:39.720 --> 00:21:40.720 Love it. 168 00:21:40.720 --> 00:21:41.720 That's really good. 169 00:21:42.720 --> 00:21:45.720 Alright, so did anyone have any questions? 170 00:21:45.720 --> 00:22:00.720 Because those were two things that I thought about today that I thought, well, everyone 171 00:22:00.720 --> 00:22:01.720 thinks of their questions. 172 00:22:01.720 --> 00:22:07.720 We'll start out with those things. 173 00:22:07.720 --> 00:22:21.080 So is this a night I'm just going to hear myself talk? 174 00:22:21.080 --> 00:22:22.080 I can do that. 175 00:22:22.080 --> 00:22:29.120 I could, I can go on for a long time. 176 00:22:29.120 --> 00:22:35.240 Or does anyone have anything that maybe they were, I don't know, thinking about this week 177 00:22:35.240 --> 00:22:42.400 or that the Lord has been revealing to them or a way in which they felt a breakthrough 178 00:22:42.400 --> 00:22:43.400 perhaps. 179 00:22:43.400 --> 00:22:49.920 They began to see how they were operating in rest and in greater measure or in a different 180 00:22:49.920 --> 00:22:54.920 area that they hadn't thought of applying it in and the Lord just revealed that. 181 00:22:54.920 --> 00:22:55.920 Anybody have anything? 182 00:22:55.920 --> 00:22:56.920 I appreciate it. 183 00:22:56.920 --> 00:22:57.920 Yeah, I appreciate your, y'all's posts. 184 00:22:57.920 --> 00:22:58.920 Several of y'all made posts today. 185 00:22:58.920 --> 00:22:59.920 And I think the most recent one was Amy's. 186 00:22:59.920 --> 00:23:06.240 I, as she was telling me about something and I encouraged her, oh my word, you're going 187 00:23:06.240 --> 00:23:07.240 to put that on Facebook. 188 00:23:07.240 --> 00:23:16.320 So appreciate y'all taking the time to do that and encourage one another. 189 00:23:16.320 --> 00:23:21.960 I can share a little bit about what we talked about today, Ashley, and in our one-on-one 190 00:23:21.960 --> 00:23:36.600 consultation about just recognizing old patterns of the way I react to certain situations. 191 00:23:36.600 --> 00:23:40.920 Not with other people, just decisions about my own life. 192 00:23:40.920 --> 00:23:45.040 And I would brush it off saying, oh, that's just a formula. 193 00:23:45.040 --> 00:23:46.280 God's going to fix this for me. 194 00:23:46.280 --> 00:23:51.400 It's kind of like the guy sitting on his roof, you know, praying for, you know, it's 195 00:23:51.400 --> 00:23:57.200 flooding and the floods coming up higher and he's praying for God to send, you know, to 196 00:23:57.200 --> 00:23:58.200 rescue him. 197 00:23:58.200 --> 00:24:02.480 And a boat comes along and he says, no, no, no, God's going to rescue me. 198 00:24:02.480 --> 00:24:05.320 And then, and then another boat, you go, no, no, no, God's going to rescue me. 199 00:24:05.320 --> 00:24:06.320 And then the helicopter. 200 00:24:06.320 --> 00:24:08.880 And he says, no, no, no, God's going to rescue me. 201 00:24:08.880 --> 00:24:12.480 And he gets, you know, he drowns and goes to heaven and he says, why didn't you rescue 202 00:24:12.480 --> 00:24:13.480 me? 203 00:24:13.480 --> 00:24:14.880 And he said, I sent two boats and a helicopter. 204 00:24:14.880 --> 00:24:22.040 So I would typically see those boats as no, no, no, no, no, God's going to rescue me. 205 00:24:22.040 --> 00:24:27.880 And so in talking to it, and then it was just like that, that situation came up again. 206 00:24:27.880 --> 00:24:33.680 And I was like, when I, when I kind of went to brush it aside going, no, no, no, no, God's 207 00:24:33.680 --> 00:24:35.280 going to rescue me. 208 00:24:35.280 --> 00:24:38.640 And there was kind of a check in my spirit. 209 00:24:38.640 --> 00:24:42.120 And it was kind of like the Lord was saying, pay attention. 210 00:24:42.120 --> 00:24:44.320 And I thought exactly what you said, Ashley. 211 00:24:44.760 --> 00:24:49.720 I thought, you know what, this problem has been around for many years. 212 00:24:49.720 --> 00:24:55.120 And I've always had this attitude, and it hasn't served me. 213 00:24:55.120 --> 00:24:59.800 And so I thought maybe I need to reconsider my response. 214 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:04.080 to the boat and so I talked to Ashley about it today 215 00:25:04.080 --> 00:25:07.440 and you know it's kind of like you said even while you're talking 216 00:25:07.440 --> 00:25:11.840 you figure it out for yourself like I was acting like a spoiled two-year-old 217 00:25:11.840 --> 00:25:15.920 that just wanted you know daddy to make everything 218 00:25:15.920 --> 00:25:19.520 better and I didn't want to grow up and you know 219 00:25:19.520 --> 00:25:22.640 co-labor with him and be part of the solution 220 00:25:22.640 --> 00:25:25.840 and so um that was real eye-opening for me 221 00:25:25.840 --> 00:25:31.520 and just confirmed it wasn't yeah I mean it was really um really 222 00:25:31.520 --> 00:25:34.240 because you know I always say you know God doesn't 223 00:25:34.240 --> 00:25:38.000 uh raise spoiled children you know that he 224 00:25:38.000 --> 00:25:41.680 he wants us to be responsible and grow up 225 00:25:41.680 --> 00:25:45.040 and I was acting like a spoiled child in this area 226 00:25:45.040 --> 00:25:49.440 for a very long time so anyway that was um that was really good 227 00:25:49.440 --> 00:25:53.520 that helped me to I really feel like that kind of opened a window 228 00:25:53.520 --> 00:25:57.120 of understanding in me and shifted me to a new perspective 229 00:25:57.120 --> 00:26:03.280 to see myself in the way that you know that I always think we should be even 230 00:26:03.280 --> 00:26:05.600 though it's hard to see yourself sometimes 231 00:26:05.600 --> 00:26:10.080 but I was able to see and it was it was you know I could feel the Lord just go 232 00:26:10.080 --> 00:26:12.880 wait a minute wait a minute this is your typical 233 00:26:12.880 --> 00:26:18.080 response is that that been serving you 234 00:26:18.080 --> 00:26:21.920 so that was good that was really good yeah good I'm glad I'm glad that you 235 00:26:21.920 --> 00:26:26.080 brought that up um so um what what um Amy and I were 236 00:26:26.080 --> 00:26:31.440 talking about is the fact that when God presents a worldly solution we 237 00:26:31.440 --> 00:26:34.080 tend to we tend to write it off oh well that's 238 00:26:34.080 --> 00:26:37.600 a worldly solution it's that's got to be of the body or of 239 00:26:37.600 --> 00:26:42.080 the soul and that's just can't be it can't be just or right and and no 240 00:26:42.080 --> 00:26:45.440 God works with it what he doesn't want us to do 241 00:26:45.440 --> 00:26:50.880 is to think that that's what's that that is our solution in other words that that 242 00:26:50.880 --> 00:26:55.520 is the thing that will provide for us he wants us to rely on him 243 00:26:55.520 --> 00:26:58.880 to provide for us and just enjoy the journey of going 244 00:26:58.880 --> 00:27:02.560 through the actions like with our business to understand 245 00:27:02.560 --> 00:27:08.240 that he's the source of our clients he's the source of our profits and yet 246 00:27:08.240 --> 00:27:12.000 we still do the activities of business why 247 00:27:12.000 --> 00:27:15.520 not to get the result anymore because that's what the world does the world 248 00:27:15.520 --> 00:27:18.560 thinks that it's everything that they're doing that's actually creating the 249 00:27:18.560 --> 00:27:22.720 result but instead God's like no no I still want you to do the activities of 250 00:27:22.720 --> 00:27:26.400 business but it's because I want to I want you 251 00:27:26.400 --> 00:27:31.040 to co-labor with me and and join with me on um in 252 00:27:31.040 --> 00:27:37.520 in in uh kind of like dancing together let's just enjoy doing this 253 00:27:37.520 --> 00:27:41.440 together let's enjoy doing the activity it's not what's going to create the 254 00:27:41.440 --> 00:27:44.640 result because me me the Lord's saying the Lord's saying 255 00:27:44.640 --> 00:27:48.000 you know me as God I'm the one who's providing the result 256 00:27:48.000 --> 00:27:51.680 but I want to do the activities together and I want us to 257 00:27:51.680 --> 00:27:55.600 enjoy doing something together it's like dancing together 258 00:27:55.600 --> 00:27:58.880 or going on a picnic together or whatever it's 259 00:27:58.880 --> 00:28:02.000 you're just you're just enjoying one another's company 260 00:28:02.000 --> 00:28:05.120 only you're actually doing work you're doing 261 00:28:05.120 --> 00:28:08.800 business related activities or you're washing dishes 262 00:28:08.800 --> 00:28:13.040 or you're cleaning the house it's doing it together with God 263 00:28:13.040 --> 00:28:17.120 because we're we're maturing in our spiritual walk and relationship with 264 00:28:17.120 --> 00:28:20.640 him enough that we're collaborating with him as 265 00:28:20.640 --> 00:28:25.360 opposed to being a two-year-old who's made a mess and isn't big enough 266 00:28:25.360 --> 00:28:29.360 to clean the mess that he's made say for instance he breaks the vase 267 00:28:29.360 --> 00:28:32.640 when he breaks the vase there's glass all over the floor you don't have your 268 00:28:32.640 --> 00:28:37.200 two-year-old help you you know he's not he can't do that yet 269 00:28:37.200 --> 00:28:40.800 so but he's just he's the one who created the mess right 270 00:28:40.800 --> 00:28:44.560 so you're just like okay you know just make sure that he is in a safe spot 271 00:28:44.560 --> 00:28:49.360 and then you clean up the mess but when you're 55 272 00:28:49.360 --> 00:28:53.920 you clean up the mess your mom doesn't send you to your room so that she cleans 273 00:28:53.920 --> 00:28:56.400 up the mess she's like no let's let's do this together 274 00:28:56.400 --> 00:28:59.280 like for instance you know if your husband breaks something or your wife 275 00:28:59.280 --> 00:29:02.720 breaks something you know um well everybody on this calls 276 00:29:02.720 --> 00:29:05.600 a calls a a wife so we'll just go with that so 277 00:29:05.600 --> 00:29:09.200 your your husband breaks something or you break something and y'all clean it 278 00:29:09.200 --> 00:29:13.120 up together right it's just why either one of you 279 00:29:13.120 --> 00:29:16.480 has the ability to do it by yourselves and yet god's like 280 00:29:16.480 --> 00:29:20.160 hey you know i want to do stuff together with you you know just like 281 00:29:20.160 --> 00:29:24.400 just like a spouse let's just do this together why for the purpose of doing it 282 00:29:24.400 --> 00:29:27.360 together we're just doing the activity we're 283 00:29:27.360 --> 00:29:32.720 spending time we're co-laboring it's our spirit you know flowing um flowing 284 00:29:32.720 --> 00:29:36.720 together with his spirit and everything's undulating in a in an 285 00:29:36.720 --> 00:29:41.920 ever-flowing dance so that's what um what amy and i were talking about today 286 00:29:42.480 --> 00:29:47.840 is um understanding when god is as we grow in our spiritual maturity 287 00:29:47.840 --> 00:29:51.680 god is providing us opportunities to co-labor with him 288 00:29:51.680 --> 00:29:57.040 but it's not working for a result we're not working for our own result 289 00:29:57.040 --> 00:30:01.840 was that a prophetic statement about me 290 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:13.600 No, hey, look, the Lord wants to take that. I will be one day. The Lord did tell me I was going to marry one day. That was like 10 years ago. So I was like, at least I know that you didn't tell me when. So that's really cute. 291 00:30:14.720 --> 00:30:27.280 Anyway, so that's what Amy and I were talking about. And so I'm really glad that you brought that up, Amy, because that I figured that that would be, you know, because it's very helpful. I would imagine to all of us to understand 292 00:30:27.920 --> 00:30:42.320 that to not disregard a solution that we are used to viewing as worldly and thinking that it's unspiritual. Our God created everything, therefore everything's spiritual. 293 00:30:42.680 --> 00:30:52.400 The thing that we're talking about in making sure that we operate out of our identity is making sure that we understand the results always come from God. 294 00:30:52.640 --> 00:30:58.720 And we need to allow all of the results to come from God, instead of trying to create the results ourselves. 295 00:30:59.320 --> 00:31:14.280 And we need to rely on Him as the source by operating out of the tree of life, instead of insisting on doing everything out of our own strength and power and creating our own results by operating according to the tree of the knowledge of good and evil, because we know 296 00:31:14.600 --> 00:31:24.960 the good things that we're supposed to do and the bad things we're supposed to avoid. Again, the problem with that is you have to know both good and evil in order to know what to do in order to know what to avoid. 297 00:31:25.520 --> 00:31:34.640 And in the spirit, you don't have to, you don't have to know those things. So anyway, but thanks for bringing that up. Appreciate it. That's a good thought. 298 00:31:36.560 --> 00:31:37.320 Yeah, you're welcome. 299 00:31:38.320 --> 00:31:50.880 I think I just see. Oh, Priscilla's on now. Hey, Priscilla. How you doing? I always like to say hi to everybody. Hey. Hey, I'm good. How are you? Doing good. Good. 300 00:31:53.680 --> 00:31:57.080 So does anyone have anything else? 301 00:31:57.920 --> 00:32:01.200 You may not want to leave me alone to talk because I could fill the time. 302 00:32:04.720 --> 00:32:07.360 I think that y'all hear enough of it already on the line. 303 00:32:07.480 --> 00:32:23.800 So anybody else have anything that happened this week, or any breakthrough that they felt 304 00:32:25.800 --> 00:32:27.440 and that the Lord gave them. 305 00:32:28.160 --> 00:32:32.360 Anything at all, any? 306 00:32:32.360 --> 00:32:52.360 Well, I posted it on the Facebook just right before, I don't know if y'all saw it, but I have really not been working because I haven't felt, I work for a company, but I'm 100% commission, and I have to find all my own clients. 307 00:32:52.360 --> 00:32:58.360 And so, a lot like y'all do your oil businesses and stuff like that, and all the different things so. 308 00:32:59.360 --> 00:33:04.360 But I hadn't felt compelled to do anything for the last couple of weeks. 309 00:33:04.360 --> 00:33:13.360 So I hadn't been, I mean, my days were full, my daughter's home, and my son's home obviously from school, and we've been busy. 310 00:33:13.360 --> 00:33:20.360 But I've just been taking each day as it comes, and I hadn't been doing anything to drum up any business. 311 00:33:21.360 --> 00:33:33.360 And I had two people today just really believing that God, and knowing that He brings me what I need when I need it. 312 00:33:33.360 --> 00:33:40.360 And I had recognized that before I started this intensive, but you still feel like you should be doing something, right? 313 00:33:40.360 --> 00:33:43.360 So, but God was always faithful. 314 00:33:43.360 --> 00:33:47.360 And so I had a measure of that working before this. 315 00:33:47.360 --> 00:33:51.360 But anyway, so I haven't been doing anything for at least two weeks, if not more. 316 00:33:51.360 --> 00:33:56.360 And today I had two random people reach out to me asking for my services. 317 00:33:56.360 --> 00:34:01.360 And that's a lot, you know, I don't get two people a day. 318 00:34:01.360 --> 00:34:05.360 And so yeah, they were both referrals. 319 00:34:06.360 --> 00:34:18.360 And so yeah, but I didn't, I had never contacted them or anything, done anything to, to connect with them. 320 00:34:18.360 --> 00:34:24.360 They just had gotten my number from people that knew what I did and reached out to me. 321 00:34:24.360 --> 00:34:25.360 So that was really neat. 322 00:34:25.360 --> 00:34:28.360 I was like, okay, well, I guess I'm going to work for a couple days now. 323 00:34:29.360 --> 00:34:34.360 But it's just really cool just to, just to flow with God and not stress over it. 324 00:34:34.360 --> 00:34:38.360 And it's been really, it's been really nice. 325 00:34:38.360 --> 00:34:41.360 Yeah, good. 326 00:34:41.360 --> 00:34:42.360 Yeah, that's exciting to hear. 327 00:34:42.360 --> 00:34:56.360 And then y'all, I know that y'all have talked, y'all have talked, y'all heard Cheryl's introduction live talking about how she had, how she and I talked a few months ago. 328 00:34:56.360 --> 00:34:59.360 I don't know if it was, I don't remember what month it was. 329 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:11.120 Anyway, a while back, and it was before the April Intensive, and I told her, I said, it 330 00:35:11.120 --> 00:35:17.880 kind of offhandedly, I said, hey, by the way, Cheryl, you know, I was encouraging her in 331 00:35:17.880 --> 00:35:18.880 something. 332 00:35:18.880 --> 00:35:25.640 And I said, you do know that God can provide for a business in all kinds of ways, and he 333 00:35:25.640 --> 00:35:29.040 can do it in network marketing, even without people. 334 00:35:29.280 --> 00:35:32.120 And she's like, really, how does that work? 335 00:35:32.360 --> 00:35:33.840 And I told her, I said, I don't know. 336 00:35:34.120 --> 00:35:35.280 All I know is it works. 337 00:35:36.120 --> 00:35:41.720 In other words, I don't know the how, because I just know that with God, all things are 338 00:35:41.720 --> 00:35:46.600 possible. And so it was one of those things where I said in my spirit, and I didn't know 339 00:35:47.400 --> 00:35:52.400 until I said it, you know, I've told you many times, I go back and I listen to my own 340 00:35:52.400 --> 00:35:54.760 teachings, because then I'm like, I learned things. 341 00:35:54.920 --> 00:36:00.880 Because if I'm just flowing in the spirit, I'm saying things I didn't know, I knew, and 342 00:36:00.880 --> 00:36:04.000 then I go back and listen to and I'm like, oh, my word, I didn't know that. 343 00:36:04.200 --> 00:36:09.520 So I start implementing them in my own life, because I don't I've never articulated 344 00:36:09.520 --> 00:36:12.680 certain ways in which my spirit flows. 345 00:36:13.120 --> 00:36:16.480 And sometimes you just go by the flow of your spirit. 346 00:36:16.480 --> 00:36:18.200 And then someone asks you, well, how do you do that? 347 00:36:18.200 --> 00:36:19.520 And you think, I don't know. 348 00:36:19.520 --> 00:36:20.680 I just I don't know. 349 00:36:20.680 --> 00:36:22.280 I just I just know it and I just do it. 350 00:36:22.520 --> 00:36:23.920 And they'll ask me to explain it. 351 00:36:23.920 --> 00:36:25.280 And I don't know. 352 00:36:25.280 --> 00:36:26.240 I don't know how to explain it. 353 00:36:26.240 --> 00:36:27.400 I don't know how to articulate it. 354 00:36:27.600 --> 00:36:31.040 So when I'm just flowing in the spirit, the spirit articulates it. 355 00:36:31.200 --> 00:36:36.240 And then my conscious begins to be able to consume it in the way that it understands. 356 00:36:36.240 --> 00:36:37.920 So it's really, really fascinating. 357 00:36:37.920 --> 00:36:41.760 So that was just one of the moments I just kind of like drop this this whole thing. 358 00:36:41.760 --> 00:36:47.480 And I said, oh, by the way, did you know that God can create can can build your business 359 00:36:47.480 --> 00:36:52.240 without people? So so she went to and she talks about this, obviously. 360 00:36:52.240 --> 00:36:56.440 In her introduction, she she went to the Lord and said, Lord, I'd really like to see that. 361 00:36:57.040 --> 00:37:01.360 I'd really like to see your character manifest in that way. 362 00:37:01.680 --> 00:37:06.000 And so sure enough, I don't even remember how fast it was. 363 00:37:06.000 --> 00:37:09.440 It was within it was within a week or two. 364 00:37:09.440 --> 00:37:12.560 And it may have been within days that the Lord did it. 365 00:37:13.520 --> 00:37:17.160 All of a sudden, she just had these things just come drop in her lap. 366 00:37:17.160 --> 00:37:20.040 And she's thinking it's so she she messaged me. 367 00:37:20.120 --> 00:37:22.600 She said, oh, my goodness, actually, it's true. 368 00:37:22.880 --> 00:37:26.960 And I thought, well, I want to know, you know, how did that work? 369 00:37:27.200 --> 00:37:29.520 I did. In other words, like how did it manifest? 370 00:37:29.880 --> 00:37:31.880 And so she explained it. 371 00:37:31.920 --> 00:37:33.280 I just thought that is so neat. 372 00:37:34.200 --> 00:37:36.240 It was just something that I knew of God. 373 00:37:36.240 --> 00:37:40.600 And I just and he'll manifest in different ways depending on the situation and the people. 374 00:37:40.600 --> 00:37:42.720 But anyway, it's really exciting. 375 00:37:42.720 --> 00:37:49.240 And so you're in your story, Amy, you know, about how we're just just without us, without 376 00:37:49.240 --> 00:37:53.280 us laboring, we're just supposed to and meaning like working for it. 377 00:37:53.280 --> 00:37:57.640 We're thinking like, well, we're the ones who are actually creating the results, bringing 378 00:37:57.640 --> 00:38:03.800 the clients, doing all the activities that actually, you know, X plus Y equals Z, you 379 00:38:03.800 --> 00:38:10.200 know. And so we think that if we remove the Y, then X plus nothing doesn't equal Z 380 00:38:10.200 --> 00:38:14.960 anymore. And God's like, no, it'll still equal Z because I make it equal Z because that 381 00:38:14.960 --> 00:38:18.320 isn't because he's like, OK, look, we're not going to operate according to the formula 382 00:38:18.320 --> 00:38:22.480 anymore. We're going to operate according to the fact that I'm a good father and I'm 383 00:38:22.480 --> 00:38:23.480 going to give you gifts. 384 00:38:23.840 --> 00:38:28.160 But in order for you to be able to receive gifts, you have to be able to release the 385 00:38:28.160 --> 00:38:32.560 resistance that the state of resistance that we're in to receiving the gift. 386 00:38:32.680 --> 00:38:37.040 And once we release that, well, then it brings it then we're able to receive the gift. 387 00:38:37.240 --> 00:38:42.040 If we insist on staying in a state of resistance because we just can't believe that God's 388 00:38:42.040 --> 00:38:47.600 as good as he says that he is, then not understanding that we're intentionally staying in 389 00:38:47.600 --> 00:38:52.040 a state of resistance, understand, because nobody on this call in, you know, 390 00:38:52.040 --> 00:38:56.480 intentionally is resisting against that, understands that what it is that we're doing is 391 00:38:56.480 --> 00:38:57.880 intentionally resisting God. 392 00:38:58.160 --> 00:39:05.000 We're in a state of self-preservation, self-protection, self-provision and 393 00:39:06.280 --> 00:39:11.320 anyway, and trying to create our own our own sense of an identity. 394 00:39:11.560 --> 00:39:17.560 But anyway, if we're in that state, if we insist on staying in the state of resistance, 395 00:39:17.760 --> 00:39:22.360 even if it's unintentional, it means that we're insisting on that. 396 00:39:22.360 --> 00:39:24.000 We're like, I'll do it myself. 397 00:39:24.520 --> 00:39:25.920 I'm going to follow this formula. 398 00:39:25.920 --> 00:39:27.720 I'm going to sense it. I'm going to insist it. 399 00:39:27.720 --> 00:39:29.680 The X plus Y equals Z. 400 00:39:30.960 --> 00:39:32.040 Anyway, there you go. 401 00:39:35.640 --> 00:39:37.000 So any. 402 00:39:38.760 --> 00:39:39.920 Thing else. 403 00:39:41.280 --> 00:39:42.520 I wanted to cover. 404 00:39:48.320 --> 00:39:51.080 Am I going to have to start coming to the calls with material? 405 00:39:52.720 --> 00:39:54.360 OK, I'll say something, Ashley. 406 00:39:54.360 --> 00:39:56.480 How's that? Yeah, great, Holly. 407 00:39:56.640 --> 00:40:00.000 OK, so I think it was two weeks ago it was. 408 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:08.160 the Friday before Mother's Day, I had a big job to do for a florist in town and I decorated 409 00:40:08.160 --> 00:40:16.000 like their whole building and stuff like that. And the small businesses, I live in like, 410 00:40:16.000 --> 00:40:25.520 like a triangle of small towns and the local business loyalty is very strong. And I think 411 00:40:25.520 --> 00:40:30.640 most of the local businesses are doing pretty good even in the middle of the shutdown. But 412 00:40:32.240 --> 00:40:37.760 they've all taken, of course, major, major hits just from being closed. And so I did this 413 00:40:37.760 --> 00:40:45.680 florist shop. And we're I'm in North Carolina. So a lot of things are reopening like last weekend. 414 00:40:45.680 --> 00:40:50.720 And I think so from that florist job two weeks ago, and I put this in a post that I made today, 415 00:40:50.720 --> 00:41:03.600 I got 20 jobs within 48 hours. And I was excited, but I do not like to be busy. Like that is not my 416 00:41:03.600 --> 00:41:11.120 natural like thing. But I just I left this part out of my post because I was like, how long am 417 00:41:11.120 --> 00:41:20.320 I going to make this post? But my husband Frank and I had asked the Lord for more provision for 418 00:41:20.320 --> 00:41:26.160 this new little business that we're starting. We're, we're, we're redoing a horse trailer and 419 00:41:26.160 --> 00:41:30.960 we're making it like a shaved ice trailer. So it's just going to be like extra income. 420 00:41:32.880 --> 00:41:37.520 Like it for spring and summer. It's not like a, it's not like a whole big thing. And we're going 421 00:41:37.520 --> 00:41:40.960 to get a manager and somebody else is going to take care of it. And that kind of thing is he has 422 00:41:40.960 --> 00:41:48.480 a full time job and we have two wild Indians for children and stuff like that. So but so we had 423 00:41:48.480 --> 00:41:53.440 asked for more provision for this. So all of these jobs came in and a lot of them were last minute 424 00:41:54.000 --> 00:42:00.400 and a few of them were large. And one of them was for a company downtown that has been on like 425 00:42:00.400 --> 00:42:07.520 shark tank and they have like 30,000 Instagram followers and I'm like nobody from nowhere. So I 426 00:42:07.520 --> 00:42:15.520 was like, I was jumping up and down in the living room, but then it like set in and I was like, 427 00:42:15.520 --> 00:42:24.640 oh shoot. So I was so stressed all week, but I kept telling myself an old thought process of, 428 00:42:24.640 --> 00:42:30.080 well, I asked for this. I asked for this provision and he has provided it for us. 429 00:42:30.720 --> 00:42:36.160 And so like, suck it up buttercup. Cause like you talked about Amy, like I'm not a two-year-old 430 00:42:36.160 --> 00:42:40.880 and I can work hard and I'm not going to have a fit in the middle of a pandemic when nobody has a 431 00:42:40.880 --> 00:42:46.640 job and I have more than enough and I'm going to sit here and whine about it. No, hush and get to 432 00:42:46.640 --> 00:42:54.640 work. But it like did not serve me well. And I was like, so stressed. I told Eric, I was like, 433 00:42:54.640 --> 00:43:00.080 I can feel the cortisol levels in my brain. And I did not even know that was a thing, but I read 434 00:43:00.080 --> 00:43:04.480 an article about it and I'm telling you, it's real. I can like, I can feel it. It's not healthy. 435 00:43:04.880 --> 00:43:14.160 So like this whole thing and I would be like driving in the car, like, God, where is my 436 00:43:14.160 --> 00:43:21.120 peace? Where is my rest? Like, I'm not going to work for it, but like, what do I do right now? 437 00:43:21.120 --> 00:43:27.920 Because I'm, this is, this is just way too much. And, and of course I said yes to every job and 438 00:43:27.920 --> 00:43:31.520 I really have strong boundaries and I don't have a problem saying no, but again, like I 439 00:43:31.520 --> 00:43:37.760 asked for this. And so, um, a couple of nights I was just so frazzled. I went to bed and, 440 00:43:38.960 --> 00:43:44.000 um, just was like, soul, you need to rest. You're safe. And like, spirit, 441 00:43:44.640 --> 00:43:51.760 turn your face towards heaven and receive all that you can like in the next three hours that 442 00:43:51.760 --> 00:43:58.160 you get to sleep or whatever it was. And, um, I don't know what shifted for me, but I had, 443 00:43:58.400 --> 00:44:03.840 so last week I had one or two jobs every day and this week I had two or three jobs every day. 444 00:44:04.640 --> 00:44:08.480 And I have not, I've had tons of peace this week and I've not been stressed and, 445 00:44:09.120 --> 00:44:14.560 and it's different. Um, like the jobs are a little different like here and there. And so 446 00:44:14.560 --> 00:44:18.640 that could be it. I don't have like anybody famous I'm doing anything for. 447 00:44:19.600 --> 00:44:25.680 Um, but I just had so much peace and I'm not even really sure what the shift is. I think it just, 448 00:44:25.680 --> 00:44:31.600 I think the Lord just did it supernaturally in my spirit, but I've had all kinds of hangups with 449 00:44:32.640 --> 00:44:38.400 provision and a poverty mentality and like condemnation over finances. I mean, like that is, 450 00:44:39.280 --> 00:44:48.240 has been a rough spot for me in my life. And, um, I don't know, I don't exactly know, but I'm 451 00:44:48.240 --> 00:44:52.480 so grateful because I can feel that there's been a shift, but I have no words or revel 452 00:44:52.480 --> 00:44:57.840 necessarily like revelation for it, except that this week I've been able to work hard 453 00:44:57.840 --> 00:44:59.840 and my attitude has been. 454 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:03.020 what do they say, an attitude of gratitude or whatever. 455 00:45:03.020 --> 00:45:05.740 And I felt a lot better about it, 456 00:45:05.740 --> 00:45:10.740 but there has been just as much circumstantially. 457 00:45:10.940 --> 00:45:13.220 And I think even the shift last week 458 00:45:13.220 --> 00:45:14.820 that I don't even know what it was, 459 00:45:14.820 --> 00:45:17.060 has really opened up for the Lord. 460 00:45:17.060 --> 00:45:18.100 I shared this in my post, 461 00:45:18.100 --> 00:45:20.300 like there's been some stuff in our marriage, 462 00:45:20.300 --> 00:45:24.340 like old stuff that has like sort of reared its head. 463 00:45:24.340 --> 00:45:27.180 And that the Lord has said, like, you need to grieve this. 464 00:45:27.180 --> 00:45:31.120 Like you need to, like this idea that you had, 465 00:45:31.120 --> 00:45:32.280 and not about our whole marriage, 466 00:45:32.280 --> 00:45:34.320 but like just about this set, this spot, 467 00:45:34.320 --> 00:45:37.280 like this is dead, it is in the ground. 468 00:45:37.280 --> 00:45:39.680 And you're like out there with a shovel. 469 00:45:39.680 --> 00:45:41.720 Like, I just need to see the corpse. 470 00:45:41.720 --> 00:45:44.680 I just need to see it to make sure it's dead 471 00:45:44.680 --> 00:45:45.840 before I move on. 472 00:45:45.840 --> 00:45:47.440 I'm a very loyal person. 473 00:45:47.440 --> 00:45:49.760 And like, you know, and I feel like the Lord is like, 474 00:45:49.760 --> 00:45:52.800 you about to get scarred if you see this, you know, 475 00:45:52.800 --> 00:45:54.680 like do not go here. 476 00:45:54.680 --> 00:45:56.060 This thing is dead. 477 00:45:56.060 --> 00:45:58.660 Like just grieve it and move on. 478 00:45:58.660 --> 00:46:01.740 Like give yourself some time to grieve and to be sad 479 00:46:01.740 --> 00:46:02.800 and to move on. 480 00:46:03.780 --> 00:46:06.100 And I think whatever shift happened last week 481 00:46:06.100 --> 00:46:10.780 with my mentality of work and provision and whatever. 482 00:46:10.780 --> 00:46:13.140 And I did feel the Lord tell me a little bit like, 483 00:46:13.140 --> 00:46:16.420 I set a buffet in front of you and you ate it all. 484 00:46:16.420 --> 00:46:18.580 And that's not what I was going for. 485 00:46:18.580 --> 00:46:20.460 I just, you asked for more provision. 486 00:46:20.460 --> 00:46:22.340 I was like, take your pick. 487 00:46:22.340 --> 00:46:23.940 And you ate the whole buffet. 488 00:46:24.940 --> 00:46:27.220 And I'm like, well, that sounds like me. 489 00:46:27.220 --> 00:46:29.060 I am always hungry, but. 490 00:46:31.580 --> 00:46:32.500 I don't know if Ashley, 491 00:46:32.500 --> 00:46:34.700 I don't know if we shared any meals in college, 492 00:46:34.700 --> 00:46:36.740 but I could pack, I don't know what it is. 493 00:46:36.740 --> 00:46:37.900 I can pack it away. 494 00:46:37.900 --> 00:46:39.340 But. 495 00:46:39.340 --> 00:46:41.340 In fact, one of my favorite memories of you 496 00:46:41.340 --> 00:46:43.700 is I had to do it for tea one day. 497 00:46:43.700 --> 00:46:44.620 Do you remember? 498 00:46:44.620 --> 00:46:45.620 Yes, I do. 499 00:46:46.980 --> 00:46:48.340 Anyway, sorry, go ahead. 500 00:46:48.340 --> 00:46:50.220 No, you tell, you can tell it. 501 00:46:50.220 --> 00:46:52.620 I'm sure I ate all the cookies that there were. 502 00:46:52.640 --> 00:46:54.760 I probably left none for anyone. 503 00:46:56.640 --> 00:46:59.120 Oh, yeah, for those of y'all who don't know, 504 00:47:00.040 --> 00:47:04.880 Holly is a very beautiful woman inside and out. 505 00:47:04.880 --> 00:47:08.120 And she's been in many beauty pageants and everything. 506 00:47:08.120 --> 00:47:08.960 So no, I. 507 00:47:08.960 --> 00:47:10.400 Yeah, because I was poor 508 00:47:10.400 --> 00:47:12.920 and I needed to put myself through college. 509 00:47:15.120 --> 00:47:17.120 That's why I was doing beauty pageants. 510 00:47:18.760 --> 00:47:20.400 She was very good at it, everyone. 511 00:47:20.400 --> 00:47:22.600 Oh my gosh, oh my gosh. 512 00:47:23.420 --> 00:47:26.740 No, no, she always had very healthy eating habits, 513 00:47:26.740 --> 00:47:28.060 much more than I did. 514 00:47:28.060 --> 00:47:30.260 Oh my word, I had so much weight on in college. 515 00:47:30.260 --> 00:47:34.340 But anyway, so back to your thoughts and how you do it. 516 00:47:34.340 --> 00:47:36.500 So funny, that's so funny. 517 00:47:36.500 --> 00:47:38.780 Anyway, I feel like whatever shift I had, 518 00:47:38.780 --> 00:47:40.260 like in the work mentality 519 00:47:40.260 --> 00:47:42.640 and whatever has somehow manifested this weekend, 520 00:47:42.640 --> 00:47:44.740 just more peace and that kind of a thing. 521 00:47:44.740 --> 00:47:48.100 But I feel like it left room in my soul 522 00:47:48.100 --> 00:47:50.540 to deal with other junk that the Lord was like, 523 00:47:50.540 --> 00:47:51.780 we need to deal with this. 524 00:47:51.800 --> 00:47:53.520 We need to talk about this. 525 00:47:53.520 --> 00:47:55.120 But there's room for it now 526 00:47:55.120 --> 00:47:58.800 because I'm not just like so focused 527 00:47:58.800 --> 00:48:00.200 on working in that condition. 528 00:48:00.200 --> 00:48:03.920 So those are big shifts 529 00:48:03.920 --> 00:48:06.920 because I didn't know how deep they were. 530 00:48:06.920 --> 00:48:09.080 And I'm just trusting the Lord 531 00:48:09.080 --> 00:48:12.080 that like this marriage stuff will be really, 532 00:48:12.080 --> 00:48:13.680 we're not like in a crisis mode, 533 00:48:13.680 --> 00:48:15.720 but you know how like stuff pops up 534 00:48:15.720 --> 00:48:17.720 and you're like, oh, that again? 535 00:48:19.080 --> 00:48:21.400 And so I think that's where, thank you. 536 00:48:21.940 --> 00:48:23.500 See, I know you know, thank you. 537 00:48:23.500 --> 00:48:26.140 And sometimes I wonder, like, I'm like, 538 00:48:26.140 --> 00:48:28.820 this is gonna be the thing that does it in. 539 00:48:28.820 --> 00:48:32.980 This thing, you know, but I feel like the Lord's like, 540 00:48:32.980 --> 00:48:34.380 no, this thing is dead. 541 00:48:34.380 --> 00:48:36.620 You're the only one that doesn't realize it. 542 00:48:37.540 --> 00:48:40.260 Anyway, so it's been a good week, 543 00:48:40.260 --> 00:48:43.140 but it's also, I don't know. 544 00:48:43.140 --> 00:48:46.660 And I like to journal 545 00:48:46.660 --> 00:48:48.860 and I like to understand what the Lord is doing 546 00:48:48.860 --> 00:48:50.580 and I wanna like meditate on it. 547 00:48:50.760 --> 00:48:52.680 Like it's a big, I'm very sentimental 548 00:48:52.680 --> 00:48:54.560 and like that's all a big deal for me. 549 00:48:54.560 --> 00:48:58.000 And I'm wondering in like this season of freedom 550 00:48:58.000 --> 00:48:59.280 and then the new business opening 551 00:48:59.280 --> 00:49:02.120 and what that's gonna take if the Lord is like, 552 00:49:02.120 --> 00:49:05.720 like we need to bypass some of your monuments 553 00:49:05.720 --> 00:49:07.280 and some of your milestones 554 00:49:07.280 --> 00:49:10.780 and just like do the finished work of Christ 555 00:49:10.780 --> 00:49:13.480 and let it manifest so that you can 556 00:49:13.480 --> 00:49:15.780 start really walking in it 557 00:49:15.780 --> 00:49:19.820 and not be growing and operating at the same time. 558 00:49:19.840 --> 00:49:22.440 So I don't know, it's interesting. 559 00:49:22.440 --> 00:49:23.520 Yeah, that's really good. 560 00:49:23.520 --> 00:49:25.200 And I like the point that you bring up, 561 00:49:25.200 --> 00:49:28.600 you know, the fact that old things wear their ugly heads 562 00:49:28.600 --> 00:49:30.640 that we think that we've already dealt with. 563 00:49:30.640 --> 00:49:34.120 And often what it can be is the way that we dealt with them, 564 00:49:34.120 --> 00:49:37.680 dealt with them to a certain extent, 565 00:49:37.680 --> 00:49:38.840 but it didn't finish it 566 00:49:38.840 --> 00:49:41.800 because we weren't in a place of rest yet. 567 00:49:41.800 --> 00:49:44.200 So therefore, okay, now that we're talking about rest, 568 00:49:44.200 --> 00:49:46.000 okay, now everything that you did, 569 00:49:46.000 --> 00:49:47.480 you got to a certain point and he's like, 570 00:49:47.480 --> 00:49:50.300 but I need to push it past to that other point, 571 00:49:50.300 --> 00:49:53.380 which is just healthy where we just receive it as a gift 572 00:49:53.380 --> 00:49:56.260 and allows the thing to finally truly die 573 00:49:56.260 --> 00:49:59.340 because the death that we did in it, 574 00:49:59.340 --> 00:50:00.180 we had to work. 575 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:06.040 And God's like, okay, but that in itself leads to death and therefore it doesn't provide 576 00:50:06.040 --> 00:50:07.240 a finished work. 577 00:50:07.240 --> 00:50:11.000 So I think that that's absolutely fascinating what you thought it, where you said, you know, 578 00:50:11.000 --> 00:50:15.960 that you felt that God was like bringing back, like taking you past certain monuments and 579 00:50:15.960 --> 00:50:16.960 certain milestones. 580 00:50:16.960 --> 00:50:22.360 And then, you know, I have heard this from people repeatedly. 581 00:50:22.360 --> 00:50:28.400 And I tell the, I tell people the same thing when they, when they ask me about my own experience 582 00:50:28.400 --> 00:50:30.480 is it's true. 583 00:50:30.480 --> 00:50:34.760 We're just like, well, I, I've heard so many times, I don't know how it happened. 584 00:50:34.760 --> 00:50:35.760 I don't know how it happened. 585 00:50:35.760 --> 00:50:40.520 I mean, that's, that's the thing is we think that I grew up in church and I, and I, and 586 00:50:40.520 --> 00:50:44.800 I say that, you know, trying to not, not put it on other people, but I assume that most 587 00:50:44.800 --> 00:50:50.080 other people have, have walked through this as well, where we were taught and we all believed 588 00:50:50.080 --> 00:50:53.840 in the people who taught us, they were taught that and the people who, you know, said that 589 00:50:54.840 --> 00:51:01.640 et cetera, that we have to understand, and we have to know, and we have to consume, and 590 00:51:01.640 --> 00:51:05.760 we have to be able to articulate something in order for it to be real. 591 00:51:05.760 --> 00:51:11.120 And in order for us to actually shift, and we don't, that's the other thing about the 592 00:51:11.120 --> 00:51:17.640 gift is that it's just a gift and we don't have to understand how it happened or, or 593 00:51:17.640 --> 00:51:18.640 whatever. 594 00:51:18.640 --> 00:51:21.600 And we want to create kind of like a formula out of it and like, oh, how can I do this 595 00:51:21.600 --> 00:51:22.600 again in another area? 596 00:51:23.360 --> 00:51:25.880 And it was like, I was like, no, no, no, you don't have to know. 597 00:51:25.880 --> 00:51:31.520 And it can, so it's really strange for things to happen where we're like, I don't know how 598 00:51:31.520 --> 00:51:32.520 that happened. 599 00:51:32.520 --> 00:51:34.240 I didn't know how I shifted. 600 00:51:34.240 --> 00:51:36.040 I don't know what it is I did. 601 00:51:36.040 --> 00:51:38.040 I don't know what it is that I believed. 602 00:51:38.040 --> 00:51:41.840 I know that God supernaturally did it, but I don't really know what it is that I did 603 00:51:41.840 --> 00:51:45.720 to instigate the supernatural work. 604 00:51:45.720 --> 00:51:47.760 And it's, and it's exciting. 605 00:51:47.760 --> 00:51:53.160 And that's part of the rest is it's just like, you know, we just, we just believe the Lord 606 00:51:53.160 --> 00:51:57.320 and we believe his character and he comes in and does stuff and we tell our spirit, 607 00:51:57.320 --> 00:52:00.520 hey spirit, you know, you know, all things. 608 00:52:00.520 --> 00:52:05.080 And so you come in and do the work and then it's when our spirit is doing the work or 609 00:52:05.080 --> 00:52:10.520 after it's done the work that our soul can look in on it and, and go, huh. 610 00:52:10.520 --> 00:52:11.960 So that's how you do it. 611 00:52:11.960 --> 00:52:16.440 So we didn't have to know it beforehand and we don't even have to know it during. 612 00:52:16.440 --> 00:52:21.920 And so anyway, that's always, that's always personally very exciting for me, um, to just 613 00:52:21.920 --> 00:52:28.000 watch myself shift and like, I don't even know how that happened, but yeah, that's really 614 00:52:28.000 --> 00:52:29.000 great. 615 00:52:29.000 --> 00:52:30.000 It's exciting. 616 00:52:30.000 --> 00:52:33.960 And like I mentioned, you know, as a comment on your post, it, um, you know, you're really 617 00:52:33.960 --> 00:52:38.120 taking the journey, you know, everything, you know, that y'all all talk about the things 618 00:52:38.120 --> 00:52:41.440 that you mentioned about, oh, I did this, I did this, and then this happened. 619 00:52:41.440 --> 00:52:46.080 I don't mean did as in work, but yeah, this is the process that I went through. 620 00:52:46.080 --> 00:52:52.280 And then this is how it manifested is it's wonderful to hear because it's, it's encouraging 621 00:52:52.280 --> 00:52:55.440 to me that it's like, oh, they get it. 622 00:52:55.440 --> 00:53:00.880 They're actually doing it because the spirit is grabbing a hold of it and, and taking them 623 00:53:00.880 --> 00:53:07.480 seriously and then walking, walking y'all through it, um, as a, and so it gives me encouragement 624 00:53:07.480 --> 00:53:13.680 to know that, uh, uh, that I don't know, you know, that it's not just all something 625 00:53:13.680 --> 00:53:18.400 that, that the, in other words, that, that y'all are serious and, you know, just like 626 00:53:18.400 --> 00:53:22.680 I'm serious with the Lord and we're just, we're just really, truly doing this together 627 00:53:22.680 --> 00:53:28.240 as opposed to just, I don't know, wanting something to be true, but not willing to, 628 00:53:28.240 --> 00:53:35.040 um, actually, um, take it seriously before the Lord and actually shift. 629 00:53:36.000 --> 00:53:40.400 In other words, that we think in other, in other words, actually seeing that we're applying 630 00:53:40.400 --> 00:53:44.920 it as opposed to simply listening to teachings, kind of like we listened to a pastor and we 631 00:53:44.920 --> 00:53:48.200 all leave church thinking I've got it now. 632 00:53:48.200 --> 00:53:49.200 I got it. 633 00:53:49.200 --> 00:53:50.200 Right. 634 00:53:50.200 --> 00:53:51.200 The same. 635 00:53:51.200 --> 00:53:52.200 Yeah. 636 00:53:52.200 --> 00:53:53.200 We're the same by lunch. 637 00:53:53.200 --> 00:53:54.200 Yeah. 638 00:53:54.200 --> 00:54:00.760 So, but to see, so y'all's testimonies are wonderful to hear because I'm like, okay, 639 00:54:00.760 --> 00:54:04.680 they really are getting it to enough to be able to sink their teeth into where the Lord 640 00:54:04.680 --> 00:54:06.600 sees, okay, they are taking it seriously. 641 00:54:06.600 --> 00:54:10.680 Therefore, I will collaborate with them and we will, we will move them into a place of 642 00:54:10.680 --> 00:54:11.680 rest. 643 00:54:11.680 --> 00:54:12.680 So it's wonderful. 644 00:54:12.680 --> 00:54:13.680 Thank you. 645 00:54:13.680 --> 00:54:14.680 Yeah. 646 00:54:14.680 --> 00:54:15.680 Thank you, Holly. 647 00:54:15.680 --> 00:54:16.680 Appreciate it. 648 00:54:16.680 --> 00:54:21.560 Well, it is, it's been an hour. 649 00:54:21.560 --> 00:54:23.680 It's nine our time, 10 y'all's. 650 00:54:23.680 --> 00:54:29.400 Does anyone have any last thing before we jump off? 651 00:54:30.400 --> 00:54:34.400 Let's see if I'm missing any fun stuff in the chat. 652 00:54:39.400 --> 00:54:44.600 I'm still laughing about, about yours, Holly, that you shout, I don't need another Jesus 653 00:54:44.600 --> 00:54:45.600 sleeve. 654 00:54:45.600 --> 00:54:46.600 Yeah. 655 00:54:46.600 --> 00:54:47.600 Yeah. 656 00:54:47.600 --> 00:54:52.760 Both Frank and I, like, I'll be like, well, I just went ahead and, you know, ordered 657 00:54:52.760 --> 00:54:54.600 you these or, you know, dah, dah. 658 00:54:54.600 --> 00:54:56.840 And he'll be like, I can, I got it. 659 00:54:56.840 --> 00:54:58.480 I can order my own jeans. 660 00:54:58.480 --> 00:54:59.480 It's fine. 661 00:54:59.480 --> 00:55:00.480 All right. 662 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:02.520 You know, and I'm like, I'm just trying to help. 663 00:55:00.480 --> 00:55:00.480 664 00:55:02.520 --> 00:55:04.160 And he'd be like, I don't need another Jesus. 665 00:55:04.160 --> 00:55:05.760 Stop martyring yourself. 666 00:55:05.760 --> 00:55:08.200 And so we do it back and forth to each other 667 00:55:08.200 --> 00:55:12.800 because my mother-in-law, who is wonderful to, 668 00:55:13.640 --> 00:55:14.480 who said this? 669 00:55:14.480 --> 00:55:16.720 I feel like somebody else said this, maybe not. 670 00:55:16.720 --> 00:55:18.600 But I don't know if you guys see the Enneagram, 671 00:55:18.600 --> 00:55:22.200 but she is like a full-fledged two on the Enneagram. 672 00:55:22.200 --> 00:55:26.120 So all she wants to do is please you and make you happy 673 00:55:26.120 --> 00:55:27.640 and make your decisions for you 674 00:55:27.640 --> 00:55:29.480 so you don't have to think or whatever. 675 00:55:29.480 --> 00:55:33.600 And so then when Frank and I got married, 676 00:55:33.600 --> 00:55:36.480 he'd be like, well, I set my dish 677 00:55:36.480 --> 00:55:37.880 right next to the dishwasher. 678 00:55:37.880 --> 00:55:39.880 And I'd be like, time me, ready? 679 00:55:39.880 --> 00:55:41.680 One, two, there it is. 680 00:55:41.680 --> 00:55:43.200 See, you could do it yourself. 681 00:55:43.200 --> 00:55:45.440 Like, how, why would I do this for you? 682 00:55:45.440 --> 00:55:49.280 Like, anyway, so we, yes, yes, thank you. 683 00:55:49.280 --> 00:55:53.000 And so we joke about stuff like that, 684 00:55:53.000 --> 00:55:53.960 but every once in a while, 685 00:55:53.960 --> 00:55:55.560 because his parents live an hour away, 686 00:55:55.560 --> 00:55:57.920 he'll be like, let's ask my mom to do it. 687 00:55:57.920 --> 00:56:00.040 And I'll be like, no, no, 688 00:56:00.040 --> 00:56:03.520 we cannot take advantage of her martyr syndrome 689 00:56:03.520 --> 00:56:04.960 to do this for everybody. 690 00:56:04.960 --> 00:56:06.760 Like, this is not healthy. 691 00:56:06.760 --> 00:56:07.960 And so, I don't know. 692 00:56:07.960 --> 00:56:11.680 So it really runs deep in his family because my family, 693 00:56:11.680 --> 00:56:13.760 I mean, I remember getting spanked 694 00:56:13.760 --> 00:56:15.520 for not putting dishes in the dishwasher, 695 00:56:15.520 --> 00:56:16.880 like in elementary school. 696 00:56:16.880 --> 00:56:18.080 I remember my dad being like, 697 00:56:18.080 --> 00:56:20.280 why would you ask your mother? 698 00:56:20.280 --> 00:56:21.320 It's so funny. 699 00:56:21.320 --> 00:56:22.560 Why would you ask your mother 700 00:56:22.560 --> 00:56:24.280 to touch something you ate off of? 701 00:56:24.280 --> 00:56:26.960 You put it in the dishwasher yourself. 702 00:56:26.960 --> 00:56:29.920 Which I have never heard anybody else's family 703 00:56:29.920 --> 00:56:31.080 say something like that. 704 00:56:31.080 --> 00:56:32.920 But now, my kids will be like, 705 00:56:32.920 --> 00:56:33.960 you left it in the sink. 706 00:56:33.960 --> 00:56:35.360 My six year old, not my two year old, 707 00:56:35.360 --> 00:56:36.800 because I don't want him touching anything. 708 00:56:36.800 --> 00:56:38.680 But like, my six year old will be like, 709 00:56:38.680 --> 00:56:39.760 you left it in the sink. 710 00:56:39.760 --> 00:56:42.200 And I'm like, you ate off of this. 711 00:56:42.200 --> 00:56:43.280 Listen to me. 712 00:56:43.280 --> 00:56:45.320 We love and respect one another. 713 00:56:45.320 --> 00:56:46.760 Your spit touches something. 714 00:56:46.760 --> 00:56:48.120 You handle it yourself. 715 00:56:48.120 --> 00:56:50.320 Like, I don't, mm-mm. 716 00:56:50.320 --> 00:56:52.120 He's like, this will take everywhere. 717 00:56:52.120 --> 00:56:55.560 Is I think we're, I think everyone thinks 718 00:56:55.560 --> 00:56:57.480 that we're insane, but it's like, 719 00:56:57.480 --> 00:56:58.840 we might be, it's good. 720 00:56:58.840 --> 00:57:01.600 I feel like a fun family to me. 721 00:57:01.600 --> 00:57:02.440 Yeah, yes. 722 00:57:02.440 --> 00:57:03.280 Fun and loud. 723 00:57:03.280 --> 00:57:04.240 Here we are. 724 00:57:04.240 --> 00:57:05.360 Yeah. 725 00:57:05.360 --> 00:57:06.440 Man, I thought that was funny. 726 00:57:06.440 --> 00:57:07.920 It's like, I don't need another Jesus. 727 00:57:07.920 --> 00:57:08.800 That's pretty cute. 728 00:57:08.800 --> 00:57:09.640 Yeah. 729 00:57:11.440 --> 00:57:12.760 All right, you're using it. 730 00:57:12.760 --> 00:57:15.080 Yeah, so you're starting to trend, Tali. 731 00:57:15.080 --> 00:57:17.520 Priscilla says she's gonna use that one with her kids. 732 00:57:17.520 --> 00:57:18.920 Okay, yeah. 733 00:57:18.920 --> 00:57:19.760 Yeah. 734 00:57:19.760 --> 00:57:21.640 By the way, Priscilla, that was a really cute post 735 00:57:21.640 --> 00:57:23.440 that you posted on your personal profile today 736 00:57:23.440 --> 00:57:28.440 about where you left Montgomery to not eat the ice cream. 737 00:57:28.720 --> 00:57:29.560 So I used it for both of you. 738 00:57:29.560 --> 00:57:31.760 And then you had to announce to everybody, 739 00:57:31.760 --> 00:57:34.360 by the way, there's, what is it called? 740 00:57:34.360 --> 00:57:38.800 There's a one-boy humor in it, 741 00:57:38.800 --> 00:57:41.160 or I don't remember what you said. 742 00:57:41.160 --> 00:57:42.680 Yeah, graphic language. 743 00:57:42.680 --> 00:57:45.720 Yeah, it's one-boy graphic language. 744 00:57:45.720 --> 00:57:47.280 And I was like, what does this mean? 745 00:57:47.280 --> 00:57:48.840 And then I listened to it and I'm like, 746 00:57:48.840 --> 00:57:50.520 that graphic language, yeah. 747 00:57:50.520 --> 00:57:51.360 Yes. 748 00:57:51.360 --> 00:57:54.200 It's a great moment to post that. 749 00:57:56.200 --> 00:57:58.400 When you have kids like mine, you just, 750 00:57:58.400 --> 00:58:00.440 you don't pretend like you have it all together 751 00:58:00.440 --> 00:58:02.960 because they make sure that everyone knows 752 00:58:02.960 --> 00:58:04.040 that it's not true. 753 00:58:05.840 --> 00:58:06.880 I'm with you, Priscilla. 754 00:58:06.880 --> 00:58:09.360 I always tell people like, I really love Jesus, 755 00:58:09.360 --> 00:58:12.280 but after I had my second child, I was like, 756 00:58:12.280 --> 00:58:17.280 now I swear, I'm so free, I swear now. 757 00:58:17.400 --> 00:58:19.320 I'm so free, I swear now. 758 00:58:19.320 --> 00:58:21.640 Oh, like, not really. 759 00:58:21.640 --> 00:58:23.360 You know what I'm saying? 760 00:58:23.360 --> 00:58:25.680 I'm not like a sailor, but every once in a while, 761 00:58:25.680 --> 00:58:27.440 like it slips and I'm like, well, 762 00:58:27.440 --> 00:58:29.560 I guess I felt free in Jesus to do that. 763 00:58:33.840 --> 00:58:36.800 Yeah, don't ask me why, but both my kids are still up. 764 00:58:36.800 --> 00:58:38.120 It's like, they know. 765 00:58:38.120 --> 00:58:39.760 They know when we have these lives, 766 00:58:39.760 --> 00:58:41.120 there's something internally. 767 00:58:41.120 --> 00:58:43.120 They have a shift in the wrong direction 768 00:58:43.120 --> 00:58:45.720 and they just don't, so. 769 00:58:45.760 --> 00:58:48.040 They feel the presence of the Lord and they wanna be it. 770 00:58:48.040 --> 00:58:49.040 That's what we do. 771 00:58:49.040 --> 00:58:50.560 No, I think that's the thing. 772 00:58:50.560 --> 00:58:54.360 Like, if I wake up early to read or to do something like 773 00:58:54.360 --> 00:58:56.800 that, it's like my kids' spirits wake up 774 00:58:56.800 --> 00:58:58.800 and they're like, something's happening. 775 00:58:58.800 --> 00:59:00.560 We have to, and I'm like, it's Jesus. 776 00:59:00.560 --> 00:59:02.440 It's Jesus, you feel. 777 00:59:02.440 --> 00:59:03.480 Leave me alone. 778 00:59:06.920 --> 00:59:08.760 Same story, different house. 779 00:59:08.760 --> 00:59:09.600 Yes! 780 00:59:09.720 --> 00:59:10.560 Ah! 781 00:59:12.560 --> 00:59:15.560 Well, good to see all of y'all. 782 00:59:15.560 --> 00:59:20.560 I will, I'll be posting some new teachings and stuff 783 00:59:21.240 --> 00:59:23.480 now that I'm transferring the old lives over. 784 00:59:23.480 --> 00:59:26.680 I'm gonna use those teachings, just chop them up 785 00:59:26.680 --> 00:59:28.560 and then put them into the, into the, 786 00:59:31.560 --> 00:59:34.120 and then I'll be able to focus more of my lives on, 787 00:59:34.120 --> 00:59:36.080 instead of the core teachings, 788 00:59:36.120 --> 00:59:37.960 I'll be able to focus my lives on the, 789 00:59:39.920 --> 00:59:40.760 on like, 790 00:59:44.320 --> 00:59:45.760 good to see all of y'all. 791 00:59:45.760 --> 00:59:47.160 Y'all have a good night. 792 00:59:47.160 --> 00:59:48.000 Bye.