WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:09.160 Hi everyone, I just watched the rest group from last week, your guys' rest group, not 2 00:00:09.160 --> 00:00:13.880 the international one and it was so fun to hear your stories and what had 3 00:00:13.880 --> 00:00:22.360 happened with you guys the last week, all four of you. It was very exciting and I so 4 00:00:22.360 --> 00:00:29.640 hear you guys on, I don't know, everything from journaling to you Rita coming to 5 00:00:29.640 --> 00:00:33.920 work and you just like go on autopilot until something happens and you realize 6 00:00:33.920 --> 00:00:40.200 you're out of rest and yeah so I can totally relate to some of the things 7 00:00:40.200 --> 00:00:47.720 you're saying and I would love to meet you on a weekend when I'm available. I 8 00:00:47.720 --> 00:00:54.160 would love to meet you. I watch all of your rest groups and I watch your 9 00:00:54.160 --> 00:01:03.360 journal sharing, journey sharing and yeah yes I find it really fun to see what's 10 00:01:03.360 --> 00:01:08.680 going on in your lives and I've been in rest intensive, this is my second time 11 00:01:08.680 --> 00:01:18.400 like for Rita and there has happened a lot of great things in my life that I 12 00:01:18.400 --> 00:01:24.240 think is, it's not just by chance, I think it's related to being a part of 13 00:01:24.240 --> 00:01:34.600 this group. One of them is that I, like I told you last time, I'm having these 14 00:01:34.600 --> 00:01:39.560 Facebook lives that I don't think I would have even dared think the thought 15 00:01:39.560 --> 00:01:45.320 of doing if I had gone through this and thought that I want to co-create with 16 00:01:45.360 --> 00:01:50.920 God and this is on my heart and my life is changing and I want to tell someone 17 00:01:50.920 --> 00:01:58.800 and also it's been a little bit hectic because something really, I am a singer 18 00:01:58.800 --> 00:02:03.480 but I moved to a new city so I don't have any connections, I don't know any 19 00:02:03.480 --> 00:02:12.200 musicians, any people like that so I'm totally new but then suddenly in the 20 00:02:12.200 --> 00:02:18.000 course of two weeks things just opened up and I was asked to do three things 21 00:02:18.000 --> 00:02:28.240 one was to direct a choir in my school which of 90 pupils where I'm a teacher 22 00:02:28.240 --> 00:02:35.720 and it's been a big job and we're having a concert this Thursday and I feel just 23 00:02:36.440 --> 00:02:42.240 I don't know yeah and the other thing is that I've been asked to help lead 24 00:02:42.240 --> 00:02:49.280 worship and in a prayer and worship meeting that goes every other Monday and 25 00:02:49.280 --> 00:02:55.760 also there's gonna be the biggest thing yet is what I was asked these things are 26 00:02:55.760 --> 00:02:59.960 kind of coming a little bit out of the blue is to sing in actually the 27 00:02:59.960 --> 00:03:05.320 cathedral of the city like the Norway's biggest city to have be a part of a 28 00:03:05.320 --> 00:03:13.640 concert and be one of the lead singers in a concert in the Bergen Cathedral 29 00:03:13.640 --> 00:03:18.120 actually so it's and it's it's kind of a little bit some of these things are a 30 00:03:18.120 --> 00:03:25.360 bit crazy and I'm like this is not by chance that these things are happening 31 00:03:25.360 --> 00:03:30.960 in my life and like I said I don't have any connections and maybe it is because 32 00:03:31.160 --> 00:03:37.640 and now the Lord knows that I'm ready to take on this musical responsibilities 33 00:03:37.640 --> 00:03:44.120 and that I actually can be in rest going through it because I do feel anxiety 34 00:03:44.120 --> 00:03:51.880 about this big concert and about leading directing this choir of choir of 90 and 35 00:03:51.960 --> 00:04:00.600 but I just feel like I've stepped into walking in rest and then God is I don't 36 00:04:00.600 --> 00:04:07.400 know that I feel like I can carry maybe heavier things on my shoulder because 37 00:04:07.400 --> 00:04:15.720 I'm learning to live in rest does that make sense and what I am challenged by 38 00:04:15.720 --> 00:04:23.840 is still emotional I think it's having good and bad emotions and being able to 39 00:04:23.840 --> 00:04:29.520 handle the hard ones every time I have struggle with emotions that I don't like 40 00:04:29.520 --> 00:04:35.040 I feel I need to get out of them or I feel like something's wrong and going 41 00:04:35.040 --> 00:04:42.320 through hard and challenging emotions like anger sadness feeling bitter 42 00:04:42.320 --> 00:04:51.400 resentment or just like anxiety it's like I don't know I still struggle with 43 00:04:51.400 --> 00:04:58.920 that I feel like my mood like is a little bit 44 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:07.960 I don't know. It's just to go through emotions with challenging emotions and 45 00:05:07.960 --> 00:05:16.440 to find rest in it. Like I'm going in and out of rest and I think you know like 46 00:05:16.440 --> 00:05:20.360 rest is a place in God and you can live there. I don't feel like I'm 47 00:05:20.360 --> 00:05:27.180 living in it. I feel I still go a lot in and out of it and then when something 48 00:05:27.180 --> 00:05:34.100 happens or I'm triggered I easily fall out of it or and I think that is 49 00:05:34.100 --> 00:05:39.100 something I still that I still really find challenging to have more consistency 50 00:05:39.100 --> 00:05:44.620 and living in rest and not be rattled by so many emotions or if it's more that I 51 00:05:44.620 --> 00:05:50.580 need to just accept it that my emotions go a bit up and down and to not be 52 00:05:50.580 --> 00:05:56.700 stressed that oh no I'm not in rest I'm feeling stressed and so I don't know if 53 00:05:56.700 --> 00:06:05.380 it's just accept my emotions or if it is that I could actually live more in 54 00:06:05.380 --> 00:06:18.220 rest through them. Yeah so that was what I was thinking about today. Thank you so 55 00:06:18.220 --> 00:06:25.060 much for listening to me and I'll talk to you again hopefully soon.