Hi Elizabeth.
Hey, how are you?
Doing good.
What are you up to?
Are you at the place where you work?
No, I'm actually not.
I'm grabbing some guacamole and tacos.
Nice.
I'm sorry.
I'm like, I meant to be done by now and turn into a later night.
So I'm in line.
No, that's fine.
No worries.
Yeah.
It's like a mom and pop shop.
It's pretty easy.
Like, I was like, if I need to order real quick,
I'm going to sit outside and listen because they have a nice patio that I
can mute it if I need to.
Yeah.
Good.
How are you doing?
Tonight, your first night.
Yes.
I'm so excited.
Good.
Well, I'm excited for everybody to get to meet you and get to meet
everybody.
Hey, Carrie.
How you doing?
Good. Hey, I am actually upstairs organizing my office right now.
So.
If you wonder why it's like really weird lighting up here and I keep
walking back and forth.
That is why.
Good. Well, I loved your posts today.
It was today. Yeah.
I'm so happy to hear that.
I'm so happy to hear that you're doing better. I know it's hard.
No, one can do it for us. No one can like.
It's just something we have to walk through together.
So I just try to be there in support and encourage and let them know,
Hey, look seriously.
It's really nice. But it's like, no, no, it goes as far as we,
as we can take it. So it's anyway.
So I was, I'm so excited that, that, um,
you and the Lord moved to a deeper level. It's like, God, just constantly,
like I always say, just moves us into invites us into something that we
think, Oh my word, Lord, this is such a nightmare. And God's like, no,
no, no. I want you to know that, that even in this place,
this is where your freedom is. And I want to prove it to you.
My internet kicked me off anyway. So I don't think,
I want to prove it to you so that you know, this is, um, you know,
you can have freedom to this extent.
And then I'm not living here. So yay.
I've been just thinking about you and I'm like,
not sounding good the past few weeks.
It was just, yeah, I had never experienced anything like that.
Like as far as I just thought, you know,
it's always holier to just surrender and like totally like not ever think
about it again. You know what I mean?
Like I'm like, I'm like, I'm just like, I'm just like,
I'm like I'm not like in that, in the house situation specifically.
And I mean, I still don't know why my piece is,
is to keep believing God for the house. I still don't understand it.
All I know is that I feel like I'm back in that place of rest and that's
all.
All I care.
I know.
It was insane. Like this, this couple of weeks I was like,
I don't even remember what I feel.
I was like two weeks of, of like this striving or like,
not the striving, but the struggle,
like the intense struggle I was like, yes.
How in the world did I live like this my whole life?
And not have like,
Major health problems or something.
I know. But, but you remember though,
you were on that call with, with Cheryl.
You think about the health that you've had to already overcome.
Three years ago.
Wasn't it.
Was it about the colon cleanse?
Wasn't it like a really long time ago?
Yes.
It was with Cheryl and we were talking about.
Like trying to come up with ideas about.
The colon cleanse, I think.
Yes, exactly.
And so you remember all of that colon cleanse, you know,
the colon cleansing and all of that.
That results from that results from stress, anxiety,
this feeling where we're out of control.
We're constantly having to be vigilant.
And usually issues with the gut stem from our.
That's what the gut health, gut issues come from.
And so that's where my team runs.
So when you were talking about, you're like, how did I live this whole life and
not, and not have health issues you did.
That was it.
God gave us both tools through which we were able to, even before we learned
about rest, because I, whoops, God, um, began to heal me from, from with the
gut cleanse before I even learned about rest as well.
And he gives us those tools in order to provide us a means by, in, in the, uh,
in the realms in which we're choosing to operate, um, uh, ways in which to, um,
to be, to, uh, be free in a way.
Now we're not able to be free completely.
And the fact that we're still living in fear and whatnot, but we can be, we can
live in more relief from those symptoms and the manifestations, you know, that
have resulted.
So you did, it, it, it, it, it did.
It did got, it got in there just like it did for me.
But yeah, it's nice.
Isn't it?
Once we, uh, realized, oh my word, I don't have to live like this.
I don't have to live with the, with we, uh, the things that, that, um, uh, that
caused the manifestations that I was, um, eventually experiencing, like you're
getting rid of the root.
So anyway, yeah, yeah.
So I'm still working on a lot of, of my gut cleansing from my, um, cause I'm
about three quarters of the way through.
Oh, interestingly, I do not know how long it took you, but for me, I did not start
seeing results for literally 12 months.
Why you know how you're supposed to see results?
Well, I started seeing certain results, like in my skin and whatever, but you
know how, what you're supposed to actually see, which I will save everyone.
12 months.
And it didn't finish for 18 months.
So for six months, it was going, you know, from the 12 months to the eight,
six F to the 18 months, it was, it was going through a process of like actually
finally getting some results.
Um, and then though I am about three quarters to four fifths cleanse, um, but
I still have that last, that last bit.
So, and I'm just asking the Lord, okay, Lord, now that I know about rest, I would
like to be able to move into a greater measure of that rest of being able to,
um, to heal and maintain the healing of my gut through no longer through, uh,
healing the root cause of why, of why, uh, what was creating the issue in the
first place, I feel like I'm in constant vigilance and then my, my gut, you know,
as a response, anyway, but until, until then, I'm, I'm, I'm taking advantage of
the bodily realm and using actual essential oil tools.
Can you guys fill me in a little bit on what you're referring to?
Like referring to the gut stuff.
Can you fill me in a little bit?
Yeah.
So, um, uh, it was, uh, just where your microbiome gets off and, um, and it, and
they say the majority of issues in the body stem from, from, uh, uh, bad gut
health, like, I don't remember what percentage, which I'm totally familiar
with gut, gut issues and health.
I was just wondering about like the cleanse that you guys are referring
to and like what, what you're, what you mean?
And yeah, it's, it's a, it's a young living, uh, it's a young living cleanse.
And so they have a trio of three things that you use.
And, um, and so you can just go through, um, uh, go through all that.
Uh, uh, Cheryl in here.
Um, Cheryl Reese, Cheryl Flair and Carrie, um, Carrie here.
Um, how do you pronounce your last name?
Is it Beeler?
Sorry.
Beeler.
I'm like, you're like talking and it's like not going anywhere.
Beeler.
Okay.
Sorry.
So the three of them are on a young living team.
And so you just contact any one of them and they can give you more
information about that specifically.
Um, but, uh, but yeah, so, you know, all of the stress, anxiety,
vigilance, constantly feeling like you're living under threat.
Our body will manifest that.
And then, um, the gut is, you know, the, our, what did they call that?
Our, I think they call it actually our first brain.
They say that our, that our, the brain in our head actually gets its original.
Um, it gets a lot of instruction, so to speak.
So, um, it's really, really major, um, component of, um, of our health.
And, um, one of the ways in which we manifest, uh, the, the, our state of
unrest gets manifested into the gut.
So, um, yeah.
But so the young living stuff helps me and carry with that before we started
learning about having to live before we started learning about the root cause
of how it's manifesting in the body.
Yeah.
So interesting.
Yeah, I'm totally with you.
I'm very holistic minded, so I've done a lot of nutrition, but I have a lot
of healing that I need and I actually hit this place of, um, yeah, having
to almost let go of how intense.
I was focusing on like the nutritional side of gut healing to like deal
with the emotional, spiritual stuff.
Yeah.
Um, not that it's separate, but just that, like, I was focused so much
because I had a business with my ex-husband for, uh, nutrition and
chiropractic and oils and all that.
So it was like, we had all that, but the unrest and the stress and the
lack of emotional, spiritual health was so detrimental that it was like,
it was like, we're doing all, making all these efforts, spending
all this money in this area.
But so, but that doesn't mean that it's not really important
and I need to pick it back up.
It's just like, it feels like whack-a-mole sometimes.
Yeah.
Correct.
It's, um, it's the, it's, uh, the secondary level, um, when the root where
if the root cause isn't healed, the things are going to continue to manifest.
Even so we're just, we're just managing symptoms.
So managing symptoms is a gift from the Lord to be able to do, but it's
not dealing with the root issues.
So we continually are finding ourselves managing that.
That's what I'm doing with my guest is I'm managing it because in that area of
my life, God's still having to move me into greater and greater measures of rest.
So until then, God gives me the grace to be able to go where my faith is at.
And my faith currently is at the place where I still need to go ahead
and use some tools.
So anyway, yeah.
That's really good.
Hey, Amy.
How you doing?
I'm good.
I've been here for a while.
I know.
I'm sorry.
We were in the middle of the conversation.
That's okay.
No, I didn't know you, you knew I had been here for a while.
Yes, yes.
I, yeah, I can, I can see you.
So I have to pop in here and show you guys.
I was, I was in the middle of a live tonight in my business and Eric comes
up the stairs with these flowers, nearly melted me into a puddle.
I just think they're so beautiful.
So they're gorgeous.
I need to take them downstairs before they die.
Yeah.
Beautiful, beautiful, beautiful summer bouquet with all of that, that red and
the, and the sunflowers is a really, we live right in the heart of Amish country
in Lancaster, and so there's all kinds of like produce stands and like all
kinds of, you know, little red barns full of stuff.
So he was over there this evening, got watermelon and produce and
picked up a bouquet too.
I guess so.
And it's a very many, one of the many perks of living in Amish County is that
there's so many farmers and so many produce stands and so nice, like literally
just a couple of miles down the road.
So much homegrown stuff.
Yeah.
Which Amish County do you live in or like what, what Amish area do you live in?
We live in Lancaster County, Pennsylvania.
Okay.
Wow.
I live, well, my family's from an Amish town.
They're not Amish, but they live for like the past 50 years.
My grandparents have been in a small town in Illinois.
That's a lot of Amish.
So yeah.
Okay.
Yeah.
That's seriously, there's, there's a big like colony or whatever, kind of a
settlement of Amish and Mennonite in Illinois too.
Yeah.
Those are beautiful.
Hey Steph.
I can't hear who's talking.
I can't see who is talking.
Yeah.
She's off video.
That's Lisbeth.
She's new.
And so this is her first night being able to jump on.
She was, I think she was on vacation or basically last, last week.
So this is her first week getting to jump on.
Okay.
Hey guys.
There she is.
She's making us jealous because she's eating guacamole and tacos.
The guacamole, you guys eat it all day, every day.
I'm so good.
Yeah.
So does, it's good to see everybody.
I'm glad so many of y'all were able to jump on and I was excited that it, that
Lisbeth could jump on so that y'all could get to meet her.
She's so much fun.
I just love her spirit.
Does anyone have any questions or anything that they wanted to bring up?
Anything that they've been thinking about that the Lord's just kind of been
working, uh, been through.
I'm just going to jump right in here.
Cause I thought about this right when we were talking about the whole house stuff.
Um, but I was wondering, um, about Eric when, like, for instance, when.
Children are born sick
like how do you
How do you go about?
Like are there rude things in him that like transferred probably transferred through me during pregnancy
But how do you go about?
finding healing
For situations like that when it's an infant or he's like two years old
So I don't think he's operating in high stress or you know a place of unrest
I mean, you know, he's very innocent in other words, you know what I mean? Just do does my question make sense?
So I think I understand what you're saying, but I don't understand the question. So we were asking what specifically I was asking
how you would
Go about getting to the root cause of his health issues
Because I know for us. Yeah for us. He's got like food allergies and
All kinds of stuff he was basically born with like an extremely bad egg allergy and
So for us is like for me as a human like I know that my health problems
They probably took years and years and years to you know
Manifest or whatever from stress and all that stuff
But then when there's just a baby born into the world that hasn't had time to accumulate all that
How do you do you just treat it? Like right now we're just treating it naturally and it's taking a really really long time
So, I just don't know like are there things I could be doing spiritually like
Speaking over him. I mean, I don't know. I just I would like to know your opinion on that. Does that make sense?
So basically, how can I help him heal?
spiritually
If there is a lack there spiritually
Yeah, no, no, you're writing because all sickness that the ultimate root is spiritual. So he's received
Records from like that through you and through your husband
Because of the records that you've inherited from your parents or your grandparents and things that they didn't overcome
That got transferred down whether or not they actually manifested in their life
you know a lot of times their records came from like their previous generation something that they didn't deal with and and
Conquer for lack of a better phrase before it was transferred in the DNA to subsequent generations
So it's just something that is just worn into the generational line
And and there are ways to that obviously every generation including, you know
You're see including Eric can overcome it and one of the things that we can do as parents is we can speak over them
We have a specific measure of authority that we can take
over
over our children over those that that are under our protection and
And
and you can you can you can you I
You can speak over him and instead of you can pray for him
Obviously, you can ask the Lord to reveal things to you, etc
So that's not a problem
But in addition to that very powerfully we can command things we can declare things
We can declare over him what things are actually true about his body because in his spirit
He's perfect in spirit. He's one with God. He's fully righteous. He's fully healed
So it's speaking over him and not just verbally
But internally and with intention that such-and-such is true about his body. So I do that with people
that don't even know that I am necessarily that I'm praying for them because or
Or thinking and remembering their illness, etc
Because I don't even have to speak to someone directly. I just
Intentionally speak to that. I mean meaning like with them present in the room
I just send out an intention, you know with my spirit that hey
You know and I and I address their spirit and I'll say okay or their soul or their body
I've done all three and and just say okay
This is who you are and I'm declaring this and standing in my place as the Son of God and I'm declaring that this is
Who you are and this is who your spirit is and I'm giving you instruction to manifest that I'm telling you
You know kind of like how I how I recommend that we talk to our own soul in our own spirit
Hey, there's no reason for us to be afraid
and then
there's no reason there so in invite allow the spirit to come in and to
To heal the trauma or whatever we can do that over people as over other people as well
We can talk to their soul and we can talk to their body whether or not they're present with this in the room or whether
We're talking to them on zoom
I mean like I could be lying in bed at night and
Sometimes I'll start talking to someone's body or start talking to someone's soul because it's all intention in this spirit. Anyway, we're not limited by the physical
So I just wanted to mention that you don't have to always say things
out loud. Of course, that is wonderful. And it's a leverage for our soul to help us,
to help us kind of like sink our teeth into the fact that yes, I am believing this. Yes,
I am declaring this and I'm declaring it over his body. I'm telling his body, I'm giving it
instruction. If he is not old enough to give an instruction himself, I'm doing so. And I'm
reminding his body, Hey, look, this is who you are. So manifest it. You have not only permission,
you have command to manifest the truth and to no longer manifest a lie, no longer manifest
what actually isn't true about you, et cetera. So yeah, you can absolutely declare those things
from the standpoint that he already is healed. Not that he will be healed because that's
acknowledging the fact that, Oh, you're not someplace where you should be. But instead,
actually always addressing it in, in present terms that no, this is who you already are.
Um, uh, so does that answer your question or did you have an extended?
Yeah, that makes, that makes a lot of sense. Cause I felt in the past,
certain times, like when he's got a hold of food, he's allergic to like, it makes me freak out and
be like all panicky. I'm like, don't eat that. You're going to get sick. And I've been thinking
about it recently. I'm like, how much of me being an anxious mom and holding on to the fact that he
has that allergy is still limiting him in his healing journey. So, um, I mean the whole thought
of like the whole thought of that is completely foreign to me. Cause I've never, I've never
thought about like, you know, his spirit isn't sick. Like who he is in God is perfectly,
it's perfectly normal and healthy. Um, but yeah, that totally answers my question. It's very helpful.
Yeah. Good, good. But yeah. Yeah. Just knowing who it is that he is and being able to declare that
and nothing wrong with using anything natural, you know, nothing wrong with doing, um, you know,
using the essential oils and, and steering clear of the things that, that he's reacted to in the
past. But, but yeah, there's no reason that even if he gets a hold of anything, there's no reason
to bring fear into the equation. Meaning like fear is only, only stems from a lie. So addressing the
fact he's just eaten something and, and going through maybe going through the normal steps of,
okay, this is what we do, but removing the fear out of the equation will reduce the power
of that allergy and all of that, that, um, is against him because the, because that, because
you as the higher, so to speak, you as a very, um, as a very powerful authority in the situation
has the authority to reduce the amount of fear that is, um, uh, instead of feeding the fear of
this, of the, of the environment. Sorry. Uh, I think that I, I think that I kind of went through
the back door there, but hopefully that made sense. So yeah. So did anyone else have something?
I do. Um, am I muted? Yeah, you're unmuted. Yeah, you're good. I can hear you.
Um, I was going to ask you about free will. I hear people talk about free will all the time
and, um, how do you reconcile that with the sovereignty of God and, um,
you know, and then you've said you're exactly where you're supposed to be. So that sounds like
no matter what I do, I'm where I'm supposed to be. So, I mean, I just can't reconcile all that.
If God is sovereign, then how much free will do I have? And do I have free will? And as Paul says,
we're a slave to righteousness or a slave to sin. So that doesn't sound like free will. Um,
so, and then, and then also, um, um, oh, what was the other thing? Um, anyway, but basically that,
that, um, yeah, so I feel like looking at my past and seeing times where I made a choice that, um,
it's almost like here that, like, I can look back and see that we make choices based out of
where we are and, um, based out of our brokenness. And it's actually a path to our healing because,
um,
the brokenness is manifesting in the decision.
So it's showing us the result of our brokenness.
Does that make any sense?
Like the things we choose are coming out
of the broken places in us.
And so, or the, you know, unhealthy choices
or maybe looking back saying,
oh, I wish I hadn't done that.
So, I don't know.
I just feel like, I don't,
I'd like to hear your explanation of free will
and how it reconciles with the sovereignty of God
and examples from the Bible.
So when you talk,
how do you define the sovereignty of God?
That'll help me.
Well, that he's sovereign.
His will prevails, you know,
just like you've said, if he says something,
then he's gonna do it.
And so where do we come in in all that?
I mean, you look at,
I don't think that anything has that,
like Adam and Eve eating from the tree.
Like God didn't go, oh darn, I didn't see that coming.
You know, it's like actually was probably part
of his plan A, you know, I don't know.
I don't know for sure, but yeah.
So I just, you know, God is sovereign.
I don't know.
I'd like to hear you speak on this,
how the sovereignty of God,
what your explanation is of the sovereignty of God
and how that reconciles with man's free will.
So the, yes, God is sovereign.
However, he does not,
he doesn't violate our free will.
And he invites us to bring ourselves to the table.
So because it's part of relationship,
there's relationship isn't relationship unless it's,
unless, you know, both parties are,
are, you know, bringing themselves to the table.
I know I keep saying that.
So he won't violate it.
And yet that's because he's chosen that relationship
is that important to him.
But as far as, you know, the fact that,
yeah, God's will is done
when he's declared something, et cetera.
But what he's doing is he's fathering us.
And we're young, we're young in the faith,
you know, as we start out.
And then he fathers us into co-laboring with him
in co-making a decision.
It kind of like, I mean, kind of like a child
when a child is very, very young,
like even think a baby, a baby.
So whose will prevails ultimately?
The parents.
And yet we can't violate a baby's free will
unless we're starting to get into witchcraft
or manipulation or abuse, et cetera.
And so it's kind of like that.
However, as the baby gets older,
well then we desire to have
a more intimate relationship with them.
We're fathering the baby into as they get older
to know how to make their own decisions,
how to execute on their free will,
how to foster that free will into something beneficial
that's not destructive to themselves or to other people.
And then as they do that,
we have more and more special relationship
and an intimacy of relationship
that's developed with that being
than we had when it was a baby.
Why?
Because as it's older,
it can bring more and more of itself to the table
because it's been fathered into how to handle itself,
to know who it is, to be able to eventually
when they are an adult,
just like their parent is an adult,
that they're on an even playing field.
And so the other person's will isn't being violated
unless they want to violate the relationship
because relationship is a two-way street.
And yet, going back to the Lord,
yeah, God is always sovereign,
but he doesn't use his sovereignty
in order to violate our free will.
And yeah, that's the simplest way I can think of
to describe it and to explain it.
Is there something that you're thinking of particularly
that just kind of bothers you?
Like you were talking about the fact of,
oh, well, if I look in the past,
so it sounded like maybe,
and then you were talking about brokenness,
like, oh, well,
and so I was wondering what your concern was
in looking at the past.
Were you thinking, oh my goodness,
I had all of this brokenness.
Should I bear the responsibility of what it is that I did?
Or it was that God kind of like a similar to a Calvinistic fatalistic approach of,
well, you know, this is just kind of the way that it was.
And I didn't have any, any say in it.
I was just kind of wondering where you were coming from.
No, it wasn't that at all.
Just using the past as an example.
My, so are you, so you're saying,
so we wouldn't even come to the Lord except he draws us.
So everything starts with God.
And so we're in the equation, like, yeah,
after you have surrendered your life to the Lord,
if you do that, like, see, I didn't even do that.
The Lord just overwhelmed me.
So it's really hard for me to understand.
People say they surrendered to the Lord.
In my case, that was like saying I surrendered to a tidal wave.
Literally, I didn't have any choice.
And I'm glad I don't, I'm not like, oh God, you violated my will.
I mean, I was seeking him, but it was only because he was drawing me.
And so, but you still chose, you still chose the tidal wave.
Some people don't choose the tidal wave.
So you don't see how you did it.
I'm not using that example lightly.
I didn't choose anything.
I might've chosen to respond to him wooing me in that I was seeking him,
but that was only because he was drawing me.
That's what Jesus said.
So none of my salvation, I didn't bring anything to the table.
I don't believe we choose God.
We can't choose God.
If we're fallen, how do we choose God?
We don't, we can't.
So he has to draw us.
And so it's all him.
He initiates all of it.
So, I mean, that's just, I, that has been my experience,
and that's my understanding of what the scripture says.
So I just, I'm just trying to seek free will.
I mean, I don't know where, I don't think that that plays into salvation.
I don't think anyone who encounters the love of God can refuse it,
but I'm not really talking about salvation.
I'm just trying to understand, you know,
what you're saying about free will is all in context of sonship.
So I'm already a son.
So I choose whether or not to co-labor with God.
So is that the extent of free will that when you say free will,
what you're talking about?
So free will is strictly in relationship to co-laboring with God?
Right.
And decision making, that kind of stuff.
Yeah.
So I was actually extending it beyond what I,
it sounds like you take free will.
So I was extending it across everything, including salvation.
Now, yes, there is a very interesting component in the fact that,
so in other words, my point is that you and I might see it a bit differently,
which is perfectly fine.
I was just letting you know you were asking, you know, what I was addressing.
I'm literally addressing the whole thing,
which sounds like it might be more extensive than the way that you see it.
So, but yes, there is a sovereignty of God and God does initiate everything,
which is really, really sweet and really special.
So he initiates everything and then we choose whether or not we want to respond to it.
Now, eventually it can get to the point where we all choose to what level that we're
going, that we're willing to hold out before we choose him in response.
That's what I mean by choose him.
I don't mean we initiate.
I mean that, I mean that we respond because that's a choice.
So he may, he chose us and then we decide whether or not we choose him.
It's not that we're choosing him first.
So you choose him back and it depends on how far, and everyone's different.
So some people, he might pursue him this much and they immediately choose him.
Other people, he goes this far and they still resist and they still resist and they still,
and then finally, you know, then they respond.
And so my personal belief is that it's kind of like that,
that's the whole sovereignty where it sometimes gets a little confusing.
I believe that he can, in a way, win in the end without going into all the details
of why I believe that, the win in the end.
So in other words, his sovereignty and his, and his will,
and the fact that he's decided how it's going to be and we can't help but respond is true.
But I believe that there is, the choice comes as far as like how quickly we choose him.
Like, is it pretty soon or do we hold out really hard and far against him?
Some people, because they say,
and this is what I personally believe,
I don't know this 100 percent for sure,
but this is what I personally believe based off of stories that I've heard,
that talk about whether or not,
talk about free will all the way going to the end of life,
that people choose that are given.
I believe that Jesus presents himself to everybody right before they die,
if they haven't chosen him yet and they have the opportunity to choose him.
I've talked to a variety of people that believe that to varying degrees.
But the point is that there are some people that still reject him at that point.
God says that even in the Bible,
even in Revelation,
he says that when people present,
they're presented with everything.
I mean, it's like they're face-to-face with Jesus.
Jesus is like, hey, will you accept me?
They're like, no. Then they go off and they rebel,
and they rebel against the city of Zion,
they rebel against the people of the Lord,
and they still absolutely refuse in the face of it.
There's a choice in that.
Then in the between time is the co-laboring with God.
Regardless, it's always an aspect of something that we're choosing in our relationship with him,
whether we're choosing to partner with him period,
or we're already in partnership with him and we are deciding about how to make a decision.
Should I buy a house?
Should I get into such and such a relationship?
Should I have children?
What should I name my child?
Should I start using essential oils?
Should I not use essential oils?
Should I start a coffee shop?
It's all God desires,
the type of relationship with him in which we are co-laboring,
and we can bring ourselves to the table or not.
We can just say, well, I'm just a servant, Lord, whatever you want.
God's like, okay, I'll tell you what I want.
But what I would really like is this whole relationship where
you're mentioning what it is that you would like,
where you're bringing your desires,
and he gives us that opportunity.
I spent the majority of my life not even telling him what it is that I wanted.
I just thought, well, it's the sovereignty of God prevails.
What I want, I'm a worm.
What I want doesn't matter,
and then whatever you want, God.
Then he eventually had to tell me, no, Ashley,
I do value what you have to bring,
and I desire that to be part of the decision together.
But he wouldn't, what do you call that?
I've lost the word that I've been using,
but anyway, overpower my will.
He does as a loving and protective parent,
keep me from destroying myself.
He does that, but he doesn't violate my will,
but he will protect me from destroying myself ultimately.
Okay. Well, I think I figured out what my question is.
Okay. So all of those come together to this question.
Can anyone resist the will of God?
Okay.
Yeah. I mean, aren't there scriptures that say no one can?
Yeah. So that's why I started kind of going backwards from that.
Do we really have free will?
God always gets his way, not in an overpowering way.
It might not be like, for example,
the first generation that didn't enter the promised land.
Well, then it was the next generation.
So he always gets his way, but anyway.
But the question is, in our individual lives,
if he has, you know, ordained something to be,
has he revealed something to us?
Can anyone resist his will?
Yeah. Okay. Good point.
So we cannot thwart something that God has decided that he wants to do.
If we do not partner with him in the way that he desires us to partner with him,
he will find another way to do it.
And because he, remember, we were talking about this the other day
when we were talking about, you know, God giving us,
like someone saying that God had promised them
that they were going to get married to a specific person,
or, you know, that God had promised them a specific house or whatever.
Well, we were talking about the fact that other people's wills
are involved in all of that,
whether it be the sellers of the house or the other person, you know,
That's a great point.
this person would be marrying that God promised,
I'm just going to skip it.
you know, person A that they would marry person B.
Well, did, is person B's will is involved in that as well.
And so God, if God made a promise to us,
even if other people's wills are involved,
God's promise to us absolutely 100% will never be thwarted.
If we choose to stand on his promise,
it cannot be thwarted by someone else ever, period.
It's just that it won't always manifest in the way
that we maybe had anticipated it would,
but it will always manifest.
Case in point, what you brought up
was a really good example in the Bible
where God had promised Abraham, Isaac, and Jacob,
hey, you know, I'm gonna leave,
bring your people out of Egypt,
and then I promise I'm gonna give them to,
allow them to conquer the promised land,
I'm gonna give it to them, et cetera.
Well, you know, they had the opportunity to step into that,
and they said no, and God's like, fine,
I'm not gonna make you.
You have the opportunity to receive it
because I've already given it to you,
but I'm not gonna make you receive it.
I'm not gonna violate your will.
You've made a choice, so you go on.
However, my promise still stands,
and I will make sure that my word is always kept.
And so I'm just going to wait
until someone is willing to receive it,
to partner with me to receive it.
But I'm going to continue to look for
and prepare people in the earth
that will, through that art,
that desire to see my promise manifested in their life
and partner with it.
That was a perfect example.
Did I answer the question?
Yeah, yeah.
Okay.
So, hey, Susan, glad you were able to jump on.
Let's see, I think I missed something somewhere.
Yeah, I know, sorry, I was just looking at the chats.
Yeah, the fact that we were taught that we were just worms.
Yeah, I know.
I was never given that word, but that's how I felt.
So, and did anyone have another, any other question?
Hey, Renee, you're on, how are you?
It's a pretty profile picture you've got.
Hey, sorry, I had to run an errand for,
so I had to have you on,
or I had to have my picture on,
because I was in safe driving mode, so.
That's good, that's good, yeah.
I don't even know, oh, no, I do have a picture.
I was gonna say, I don't even know if I have a picture,
well, mine's off, but yeah.
Yeah, well, good, it's good to see you.
It was fun to see you in person the other day at,
for those of you who don't know,
so Amy, Renee and I all live in the area,
and Amy, you know, obviously just moved into her new house,
so she had a housewarming party,
and Renee and I had already had lunch together
several weeks ago,
but she and I got to see each other again
at Amy's housewarming, so.
Yeah, I even liked Amy's house better in person
than I did in the pictures that I saw,
so I really liked it.
Yeah, it's so pretty.
Yeah, pretty.
Yeah, thanks for coming, you guys,
and that was a far piece for you, Renee.
I appreciate you coming all the way over.
I would miss it, of course, I wouldn't miss it.
I'd miss it.
Okay, so does anyone have anything
in the last several minutes before we jump off?
Question or anything, Laura's been just,
I don't know, kind of, I mean, tossing around with the Lord,
and while y'all are, while y'all come up with something,
I'm trying to think if there was anything for me.
He was, is working on moving me
into a greater measure of rest today,
which I was able to finally shift into.
I'd been struggling with something recently,
and I don't even really know how to name it,
but just struggling, you know,
just very foundational things, you know,
provision, protection, identity, all of the basic ones,
and he was just having me face a deeper level of it,
so today, I really got down to,
okay, what is it that I need to do?
What am I, and not from a level of,
okay, let's figure all of this out,
and what's really going on, and whatever.
It was more of an understanding.
of, okay, what's going on is in like, am I in a state of, I'm obviously in a state of
resistance.
You know, I'm, what lie am I believing about the Lord?
And I realized, I don't believe he's going to protect me.
I don't believe he's going to provide for me in such and such an area.
I thought I'm in a state of resistance so that, okay, I know what to do.
So, so I was out and, and, and, uh, finally got down to kind of like that place of my
soul and just had to let it go.
And what I did is I chose, so you remember, there's the thing of like, we have to see
it to believe it.
And that's the state that I was in.
I was like looking for proof, but it's such a habit.
I don't realize that that's what I'm doing.
I don't know if y'all experienced this.
I, I, I know all of this stuff in my head and yet I, I'm continually finding myself
doing it in different areas and, and I have to realize what is it that I'm doing?
I thought I'm waiting for proof.
That's why I haven't shifted yet in this one area of just waiting for proof.
And cause I didn't know, why am I struggling?
I know better than this.
Why am I struggling?
I was waiting for proof, apparently emotional, uh, scriptural, whatever.
Then I was waiting for that.
So I could believe in that.
So I could finally act on it.
And finally I realized what was going on.
I thought, Ashley, you know what to do.
You choose first, you choose it.
So I, so I wrote it down to remind myself what it was I was choosing this morning and
let's see if I could, I'll, I'll tell you what it was, but I wrote down, I told myself
and I wrote it down as a note so that I would see it when I opened my phone.
Um, uh, so I, because I was just feeling, um, uh, it would just kind of like, uh, the
way that we all have our struggles and the way that, um, I, that I grew up, there were
certain needs and that I had in certain lives that I had believed about myself.
And there were certain, therefore certain desires that I had.
So in other words, I was very much loved, um, by people growing up and yet I was continually
risk, the continually received the things that I saw and heard as lies about myself
that I wasn't worthy of, of love that I, um, uh, that I couldn't expect to be enjoyed or
cherished or, or whatever, even though I was given all of those things.
And now hindsight's 20, 20, I look back, I'm like, Oh my word, my life was full of that.
At the time I received a lie, I didn't receive the truth.
And so that was something that I was struggling with because it was what I was feeling like
in the, in the, in the natural, I projected that onto the Lord.
That's how I began to understand the Lord.
So I'm like, okay, if I can't expect it from people, I absolutely can expect it from the
Lord.
So I realized that's my issue there.
So I told the Lord today, I said, okay, I choose to believe that God, that God, you
know, you Lord chose, I choose to believe that God loves and comforts and treasures
me as much as I desire a person to, um, because I was struggling to, I was, I found myself
in, in, um, not traps, well, they were traps, but in, um, choices that I was making, trying
to comfort something in me that God intended to provide for me.
And I knew I was using substitutes.
We do that with all kinds of things.
We do that with buying things.
We do that with food.
We do that with relationships.
We do that with all kinds of stuff.
And, um, uh, so anyway, I, I needed to believe that because I felt alone, I felt it was,
it's a mode of self comfort because I wasn't receiving comfort from the Lord because I
was, I was not receiving it.
He was giving it.
I wasn't receiving it.
And so I, anyway, I just told the Lord is that I, okay, Lord, I'm not, I'm not waiting
for proof.
I'm not waiting to believe it.
I'm actively choosing this.
I'm choosing that.
It's my reality.
I'm choosing that.
This is who you are.
And I choose to believe that God loves and comforts and treasures me as much as I desire
someone to.
And I shifted.
All I did was choose.
That was it.
So, um, which is really nice.
So once I chose it, I'm already believing it, but I'm coming, I know that God's going
to continue to, to grow me to the point where I will, um, where I will believe it even more
again.
It's effortless.
I'm not trying to believe it.
All I did is I had to choose.
That was the thing that I had to do, but I know that I'm going to come to believe it
more and more.
And as I believe it, I'm going to see it manifest, um, and, and, um, actually see proof of it,
proof in scripture that that is true, but also proof in, in how it re it.
manifest into reality.
Because see, yesterday, and I just want to mention this
as an encouragement to y'all, part of the struggle
is that I was waiting in anticipation
that for something to happen yesterday,
that, you know, talking about like,
for instance, you, Carrie, you know, the house.
I know, I'm sorry, I know we keep bringing up that example,
but hey, it's a great example,
and you know, you've written posts about it and whatever,
so it's kind of like a good one page for us to all be on.
Where we were like, okay, Lord,
I'm wanting to believe you for this thing right here.
Well, there was something that I was believing the Lord for.
I was trying not to, I was like,
no, Lord, you'll just provide for me.
I don't know how you'll provide for me,
you'll provide for me.
But I expected that it would manifest
in this particular way, because I didn't see
how him not coming through in this way
could in any way be good.
I knew better than that,
but I didn't believe better than that, right?
And do you know what happened?
That thing fell through.
It did not manifest.
Now, God did still provide for me,
but it was not in the way I was expecting at all.
I'm like, Lord, that still create,
that still, it's like it felt, how would I read this?
It provided for me.
Okay, think of it like this.
Think of like you wanted something,
I'm trying to use an example.
Think of the fact that you, I don't know,
you want food, right?
You need money to buy food.
That's the thing, you want money to buy food,
that was not my issue.
But, and you're like, okay, Lord,
I'm believing you for some money,
so I can go and buy food.
And instead, God doesn't give you money.
And the time comes and goes, he didn't give you money.
Instead, he just made you not be hungry.
So, you're like, okay, well, Lord, you provided for me.
And yet, what was gonna make me feel comforted
was according to my old mindset,
I believe that provision, Lord,
is you giving me money or giving me food,
and you didn't give me either.
Instead, you just made me not hungry.
So yes, technically, Lord, I agree.
That was providing for me.
And yet, if this mindset shift of,
yeah, but God, you didn't give me food.
And so, what we can do is we can look at that and think,
and take that into our future and go and see,
sometimes he falls through,
and sometimes he's not faithful.
And sometimes he doesn't come through
and manifest in a particular way.
So, is this one of the chosen times or not
in which he's going to come through?
And we get scared in anticipation of something.
So, that's what happened to me yesterday.
Okay, Lord, he provided for me,
but it was not in the way
that my old paradigm understood provision.
And so, he's trying to shift me
into a new way of choosing to perceive provision.
So, today, I was really going to him.
I was like, okay, Lord,
I know I'm really struggling with you,
and I'm sorry, but I'm afraid.
I don't feel that you love me.
I don't feel that I can expect to be comforted.
I'm terrified.
I'm all of these things I was telling him.
And I suddenly realized, okay,
I was looking at the physical world
to tell me whether or not God would provide for me.
And when it manifested the way it did yesterday,
that did not make me feel comfortable.
It did not make me feel safe.
So, God is always good.
So, therefore, I need to stop looking
at the wind and the waves, and I need to choose.
God, I choose that you love me,
that you comfort me, and that you treasure me.
So, anyway, I shifted like that.
Like you were talking about, Keri,
all of a sudden, you move into this place of rest,
and you're like, I thought I was living a nightmare,
and I'm finding myself at complete rest
in the middle of my nightmare.
So, for what it's worth, hopefully,
that's encouraging to y'all.
So, Elizabeth, did you say that you had a question?
Yeah, but I don't wanna keep us, either,
if you need to wrap it up.
No, we're fine.
We're not on a strict time limit.
Whenever people need to get, if we go over,
people just leave whenever they need to leave.
So, you just go ahead.
That's how I run my Zooms, too.
That works well.
Okay, so, I guess I'm curious,
because all you ladies are here live,
and have, I think most of you have been
through the initial intensive part of the rest,
the four weeks.
I'm guessing most of you have been through the four weeks.
And I'm brand new to the four weeks,
and I'm in the, how do we shift here,
phase of what does it even mean to shift into rest,
but knowing that that's the call,
knowing that that's exactly where God has me,
and what he's doing on every level,
not just because I'm here.
as of this community and this intensive, but including it,
but also literally on every level and every relationship,
it's being confirmed over and over
that this is where he has me.
So it's like a now moment, right?
It's a, you know, when you get a now word
where you're like, this is for right now,
it's one of those.
And so I feel like,
now I'm trying to think of good analogies
because Ashley's is so great.
You're like, you keep coming up
with these amazing analogies,
but like say my daughter's in the store
and I sent her in alone
and she knows that she's looking for
like the little ice cream shop within the store, right?
Cause big stores a lot of times
have little separate places.
And so she knows she's like looking for the ice cream shop,
but like she has no,
like she has never had ice cream before.
Okay, I'm trying here.
Just bear with me.
Like she's never had ice cream before
and she is excited about it.
And she knows that that's what she's there for.
But she like goes up to the ice cream shop
and she's just like,
I have no idea where to start.
Like, what do I, how do I choose here?
Like, how do I even know what I like?
Like, what does it look like for me to be satisfied
by this amazing thing I've heard about?
That's so amazing.
Okay, so say that's the analogy.
It's like, that's how I feel a bit with rest
because it's so foreign.
And it's been such a long time coming
that everyone talks about it.
Like, I feel like I see all these believers
that are operating from this place
and a lot that aren't as well,
but it has felt so elusive.
And so like for everyone else but me,
and why can I not grab hold of this?
And so there's been so much striving.
So I guess my question is,
what does it look like in the beginning stages of shifting,
even in the practical, like I'm asking the Lord,
do you want me to fast from this?
Like I'm already fasting sugar
but just to be honest with you guys,
because I have no reason to brag about fasting.
It's not something that, I've never done like a sugar fast.
I've never even fasted for more than three days.
And I don't know why I'm doing it
except that it's part of this season of praying and fasting.
And so other than that,
it's like, do I wanna be on social media?
Is there some kind of balance Lord
about how much I'm on social media?
Like I have no idea how long the season is
where he's calling me to pause from so much,
like where I basically my whole life is on pause
with the Lord right now for what he's doing
except for my part-time job
and everything else with my business,
with my children, with my, how I spend my time,
with my relationships, with what I'm involved in,
that's all up for consideration with the Lord of like,
what does this look like to shift from exhaustion?
I'm exhausted.
I'm completely exhausted into rest.
And I mean, being physically, emotionally,
in every way tired,
but also not wanting to disconnect from everyone,
in the wrong places,
because I do still need community
and relationships through this,
but I don't wanna be so busy
that I miss the chance to shift to rest.
Yeah.
Yeah, no, it's a good question.
So the thing is that rest is strictly,
rest is not inactivity.
Rest is a place.
It is a place in the spirit.
It's a place in God, abiding in God.
And from that place, we do everything.
From that place of rest, we have relationships
and we interact in those relationships.
From that place of rest, we work.
We go to a job.
We make decisions about what to do with our children.
We spend time with our children.
We, I don't know, we buy things.
We decide whether or not to buy a house,
all kinds of things.
Everything is from that place.
So it's not inactivity.
It is, we're used to doing everything
with a lot of work, a lot of angst, a lot of effort.
And so now we're learning how to do the same things
only in a place of rest,
understanding that God will provide the result.
I no longer have to work for it.
I no longer have to create a result in a relationship.
I no longer have to create a profit in a business.
I know, you know, the burden, the weight,
and the responsibility is not on me.
And sorry, let me look something up.
It's not on me anymore.
And so it's, so have you watched the session
on the two trees yet?
Yeah, you're on mute. There you go. Okay, sorry I'm trying to plug in because my
phone's getting to the dead zone this late at night. Can you hear me? Yeah, yeah.
Okay, I can't hear you as well. Oh, okay, have you watched the Two Trees yet
session? Two Trees, that's the one I've got to watch because that that was the
big revelation this first week was that and it's funny because I mean yes we
talked about it briefly but it was not because we talked about it it was like
the revelation came simultaneously like like we were talking about it but not
really just mentioning it and God was showing me that my pattern is trying to
figure out so much anxiety over trying to figure out what's happened in the
past and what's going on and what's good and what's bad and if I'm good and bad
and it's like the same thing as the tree of the knowledge of good and evil like I
saw that that was the exact pattern and cycle that had me completely wrecked in
anxiety. Yes, yeah, so that that will be a really good one. I reckon I always
recommend that people watch them in the order that I put them in just because
I've noticed from historically listening to people that is the order that made
the most sense and helped them grab a hold in and and actually shift into
into rest faster but but yes when you get to those two trees that's that's
helpful because it shows that we do the same things but we need to understand
that we do them from the tree of life meaning out of relationship with God
which is the place of rest as opposed to doing it believing we're on our own
we're abandoned by God we got to figure it all out ourselves according to this
arbitrary list of what is good and what is evil and then in there I talk about
the fact that Eve didn't choose the tree because she was interested in doing in
rebelling against the Lord that she was interested in in doing something evil
no she was interested in doing something good she was she wanted to do good for
the Lord and she wanted you to be right and shoot because the what Satan tempted
her with was not doing evil Satan tempted her with wouldn't you like to be
as wise as God wise is a good thing wisdom is a good thing people who want to
do evil things have no interest whatsoever in wisdom so she wanted
something something good but she wanted to choose it on her own she wanted to
she felt that she had to operate apart from God because she thought God was
holding out on her therefore that she wasn't protected or provided for in some
way and oh my goodness I need to make sure that I keep up I need to make sure
that I do the right thing so I and I'm alone and abandoned to do it and to
figure it out on my own and then she made a choice we've lived our whole life
like that we've created our relationships off of that we have
struggled to develop our businesses or our ideas for our ministry or whatever
based off of the fact that we thought we were by ourselves and so it's
shifting from believing that we're by ourselves and that the responsibility of
the result relies completely on us shifting into no trusting that giving up
control of the result and control of how we get there and just putting it
completely in the hands of the Lord so we no longer bear the responsibility and
now all we all we have to do is just focus on having the relationship with
the Lord in which we can enjoy doing the activities with him we can enjoy the
dance with him the undulation but we no longer have to carry the burden of it
because Christ says you know get lay your yoke upon it lay your burden upon
me because for you know and they and then he talks in another verse about the
fact of in another passage about the fact that you know my yoke is easy and
my burden is light because he's the one he says I want to provide the result you
no longer have to so that's the difference between how it is that we've
been living life which we associate busyness and activity with not rest and
it's not true the reason that we've done that is we don't know how to do and not
be and not and not be working like working like strife anxiety God wants to
show us how to do without working for it without putting forth all of this
effort and this energy and and what I so Carrie mentioned she said yes there's
been days when I'm busier and more productive than I've ever been in my
life but my soul is at rest and I'm not stressed it's just it just flows and the
steps at the same thing and and I remember when a way as both of them as
they were walking on this journey and how they shifted into rest and it's one
of those things where kind of like salvation if you tell somebody out about
salvation how wonderful
What is to someone on the outside?
They're like, I don't understand until you experience it.
And you're thinking, Oh my word, how do I describe this to someone else?
It's the same thing with rest.
Once you shift into it, you're going, Oh my word.
This is amazing.
I didn't know I could feel like this.
How do I explain it to someone else?
If you go back and watch the test, these ladies testimonials in, um, if you go
back through my Facebook page and you look through their testimonials that
they, that they posted, they all have the same problem that I did.
And that is trying to explain what happened to their life.
Or if, uh, if you've watched the chosen in, in Mary, Mary Magdalene
mentions, you know, when she's talking to Nicodemus, she, he says, well,
what on earth happened to you?
Last time I saw you, you were possessed with demons.
And she said, I don't know what happened.
She said, all I know is that I used to be different, but, um, or I used to
be one way, but now I'm different.
And the thing that happened in between was him.
That is the best that all of us have come up with and how to describe what
it's like to operate out of rest to op because it's an, it's, it's a, it's a
place, it's an abiding in him in which we've discovered in which we now
realize that we're positioned in him.
We have a particular identity and therefore there's nothing left to do.
He's done everything.
We're already in a position.
We're not attaining to anything anymore.
We're no longer responsible for our results.
We just focus on him.
The hard part is we have to give up control and we have to trust that he has
our back, that he's going to protect and provide for us and we no longer have to.
That's the choice that we're making.
And Steph says, I remember thinking, oh, oh, I've missed some memo.
Okay.
So yes, so Steph, Steph will be the first one to tell you because she, uh, that she
was, and some of the other ladies, you know, we're, we're, we're, we're getting
it and the, and then she was like, I don't understand, you know, I feel like
I'm, I'm missing this.
That's what she's saying.
She's like, I felt like I missed something.
But then all of a sudden she and I had a conversation and I'm telling
you what she switched like that.
I mean, it was like literally in, in, I don't know, Steph, you'll have to remind
me, it was something like basically in a moment, she went from our conversation,
got off the, got off the phone and totally changed from that point forward.
She says her husband has commented on how much more I enjoy what I'm doing.
It's so good to be at rest, niche down and focus on what gives me
peace as I follow is leading in my business.
So, um, yeah.
So anyway, it's one of those things that you'll, that I explain in the sessions,
how to actually shift into rest, like what you can actually do.
And then if you have any questions, just feel free to call me and I can
actually walk you through how to, how to actually do it because that's
my, my point of this rest intensive.
It is to help people actually live this, not learn about it, not gain more
information, but actually enable them to do it, provide the supportive
environment that they can live it and make it real.
Um, and, uh, anyway, so you know, you can do that, but once you do that,
which I can help kind of help you understand kind of how to walk through.
Um, then, um, uh, then you'll, you, it's something that you experience
between the Lord and you, because when you're in the place of rest, you've
now positioned yourself in him.
You've positioned for yourself in him.
You thought, and all of a sudden you have this, this understanding that
comes over you and you realize, oh my word, this is rest.
Why did I not know that this thing existed, but to try to
describe it to someone else is.
It's hard.
It's like trying to describe love to somebody else until someone's been in
love and they're like, oh my word, this is what it feels like, but to try to
describe it is very challenging.
Wow.
Sounds amazing.
Thank you.
Yeah, you're welcome.
But yeah, there are some practical things that you can do.
So it's not like this magical, like theoretical thing that, oh my word.
I I've I'm blindly having to stumble around and hoping I'm
going to land in it somewhere.
No, there's a way that I give people.
Um, and I, uh, that I help people kind of grasp solid things that, that kind
of allow people to sink their teeth into something, to actually move towards it.
But then the, then they land in it.
And then when they land it, it's like, oh, this is what it's like.
And then I'm going to be fascinated to discover if you think of a way to be able
to describe it, once you land in it.
Oh, everybody.
It's so easy.
This is how you describe it because the rest of us have been able to do it.
It feels so good.
You're just kind of like, how do you, how do you put this into words?
So how do you put a life transformed?
How do you describe a life transformed?
It's such a.
Amen.
Is there anywhere that you tell your story, Ashley, of how you even got here?
Like how you shifted into rest and how, why you created this?
Is there anywhere that you share that?
The closest that I can think of.
Um,
I probably should do a testimonial video.
I have some, okay, so if you go back
and you look at some of the interviews
that people have done with me,
I describe some of it there in videos,
but otherwise you can go to a post that I made
in which, I don't know, it's just a picture of me.
You have to scroll pretty far down, maybe around in March.
I posted it somewhere in March and it's a long post
and there I give a brief testimony of how I did,
but it's related specifically to business.
It doesn't go as far back as the fact that
the reason that I evident that that worked out
and that I struggled in rest and business
is because maybe shifting into rest and business
is because it was a deep issue
that I had dealt with my whole life.
So that I didn't go into.
I just talk about it from the start
like right out of business, right out of the gate.
But that's close.
But I've had multiple people ask me for it
and so I should probably come up with a better video.
I'd love to hear your story,
like the parts that are the missing,
like the more intimate.
What you just described is maybe not in the rest
of your testimonials sometimes.
Probably not, probably not.
Yeah, maybe I should do one and post it in the group.
Haven't thought about that.
So I guess I just thought that it wouldn't be
very interesting to people
because it wasn't personal to them.
But I think that I'm not crediting the power
of somebody else's testimony.
But I do try to use examples from my own life
in order to help people understand
like I did at the beginning of this call.
Or no, just actually I think right before your message,
message or question.
Give people an understanding of,
hey, look, I'm still walking through this.
I haven't arrived.
And he continues to move me in greater and greater measures.
But I do that to help people understand
that this is, to see their situation
in light of a larger context.
They can hear other people's stories in this community.
They can hear me talk about things periodically.
And so they have some kind of place
to understand the uniqueness of their situation,
which is a good and beautiful thing
in their relationship with the Lord.
But to also see how that is related to,
and it's kind of like the similarities and differences
between what their personal unique experience looks like
compared to mine or somebody else's in the group.
But I didn't want to focus on my own personal experience
too much because that doesn't mean,
it's an example and it's an idea for someone,
but it doesn't help somebody else shift into rest.
It lets somebody know that they can,
if they choose to believe that,
hey, if Ashley can do it, I could do it.
But otherwise I just kind of figured that well at them.
It's just personal to Ashley and that's not my experience.
I would challenge that because like you said,
I would challenge that because I think it's actually
has a lot of power to transform,
to hear someone else's journey,
especially when it's so different and so rare
to operate from this place that you have a story
of doing that and then feeling led to help others do that.
Like all of those details of how you went
from where you were to now would be,
I feel like really impactful.
So no pressure, no special time that you have to do it,
but I just want you to know it would mean,
it would actually mean a lot more than you might realize
to those of us who've been living,
for me, 35 years from a place of anxiety and striving
and not feeling worthy.
Like it's a big deal to hear stories like yours, so.
Oh, good.
Okay, well, that's encouraging.
I appreciate it.
Yeah, I'm sorry I had to move around there.
My computer was dying, so I had to,
she's drinking very loudly.
So I had to plug in my computer before it died,
but thanks for letting me know,
which is so funny because I was just talking
to a friend of mine about that the other day,
whose testimony has really helped me.
And I remember their story sometime that they'll tell me,
that they've told me before.
And I was in a similar situation
and I was telling them the other day,
I'm like, oh my word, your story was so helpful
because I was in a similar situation.
And what helped me know how to handle that situation
is I remembered your story.
And so I, it's so funny that I didn't,
that I didn't see the similarity for myself.
I just noticed that I appreciated someone else's,
but I guess I figured that people wouldn't be,
my story wouldn't be.
Helpful to others, which I think is really funny.
But I thought that that thanks for letting for letting me know that would be helpful.
So,
Just encourage you that you can start looking at and let's just say if I miss this thing.
You don't even know my favorite color. Oh my word. What is my favorite color. I don't think I have a favorite color. I like too many different colors. I'm very particular about shades of color.
So funny. Yeah. Oh, I'm so glad I know I love all of y'all. Y'all are fun just encourages you that you can but have to make the journey. Yes.
Yeah.
Look, good. Is there anything that someone anyone else has before we jump off. Sorry, my little dog. No. Have y'all seen my little dog at some of you have that this is my little dog.
She doesn't like to look at the camera. He's weak girl. She
Yeah, it does.
She
School.
She was there for two weeks. I guess she's she's been back for a couple of weeks. Yeah. You see, Amy.
And and that was a really neat and neat experience that I'll be able to tell that I'll tell y'all someday about her going to be at school and how the Lord
made provision for that, how he guided me to what obedient school. She needed to go to that the package, etc. By following where my piece was that because
And it was not, I couldn't. I didn't make the decision based off of the way that when normally would
And I was like, no. So, you know, not to make decisions like that anymore. I mean, in that same way anymore. You know how to now make decisions from
And where your pieces at so I've been had to step out in faith and and do that. So anyway, but that'll be another fun story sometimes. But yeah, she's she has
Learned all kinds of neat little things. So she now walks. She now heels and very beautifully on a leash. She doesn't bark at people and dogs.
She used to see what else she she comes when called she's she's an impressive little girl and she is like 10 or 11 years old. So all dogs can learn new tricks. Can't say yes, they can. Yeah. Anyway, so does anyone have anything before we for a jump off.
That was funny when you said your dog heels. I was like,
She heals like
That's
No, I heal.
Like you're speaking healing power over her like she heals quickly because you speak life over her. And then I realized
The final option.
Yeah, I'm trying to think I have prayed over her because she was abused before I got her. So I have prayed over her and she's healed tremendously as a result and of
Not being so afraid of people and dogs, even before she went to a beating school. I mean, she made the largest transformation just by me praying and but but yeah, she doesn't
Does feel
She has killed. Absolutely. But yeah.
Well, it's good to get to visit with everybody and I'm trying to think next week. Okay, this is very interesting. So I was supposed to head out to start traveling next week that fell through the last minute.
Because the lady that I was supposed to my friend of mine that I was supposed to go visit. She's been sick. The past several days, she told me. And so she thought, um, I'm in the hot spot in Texas for the virus. So let me go get myself tested. She tested positive.
So, um, I won't be won't be able to visit her until maybe August or something like that. So I think the first place I'll go is either Arkansas or Louisiana and then I'll and then I'll come back here for a
Healing conference and then heading out on my longer journey. So anyway, that is my update. So I plan to still be here in DFW for next week.
That was just a plan that just recently happened. So, anyway.
Okay, but I might be in a different room. So you might have a different background, other than the door.
Is Rafi I might be with my brother and sister in law.
Well, it's good to get to see everybody y'all make sure to reach out if y'all have anything. I have some of y'all that are reaching out online Marco Polo and letting me know. And, you know, we always in the middle of struggling with something.
And and I've had some of those this week come through. And so I always love getting to visit with y'all. Don't forget, if you get a chance to post in the group and
You know, even though those of you who who passed the four weeks just to
You know, kind of, you know, like what Carrie did give an update give encouragement of, hey, look, this is what it looks like. Because you remember that so few of us.
Are actually walking out this this journey and we hope more people will as they're hearing the same message from their father, like we are at how we can move into rest that and so if everybody had a chance.
You know, you can just talk about and you can be real and just say, oh, I'm in the middle of this or that or the other, or God's been showing me this that or the other, or
Hey, here's, here's a really encouraging testimony that I wanted to share. So anyway, I was looking to hear him.
Well, I will see y'all later. Y'all have a good night.
So good to be with you, girl.
You all
All right.
Bless you.
Night.