hi guys um so i did an audio uh journey share the first time just because i didn't feel like
getting all cutesy for the camera but and it was my very first one so i babystepped my way into it
so now i'm doing a video share so anyway um i am going to decide i was trying to think should i do
this chronologically or just do like praise reports and struggles um i decided just to do
it chronologically um so um and there's ups and downs so chronologically left off uh at the last
journey share just saying that i was just really excited for my weekend with friends um kim rita
and i went to one of our friend kim's house and for uh sleepover and it was so wonderful was so
rejuvenating um we were able to just really catch up and share our hearts and struggles but it was
just really great to just talk about the goodness of the lord and it's like we had church it was
super rejuvenating so i felt like my old self and um really um that dark cloud had lifted um even
that day getting ready it had afterwards i was just like my tank was really full had a wonderful
day of um worship on sunday and um it was it was good so um you might have understood from my last
journey here i think the the season that i'm in right now is twofold one of which is struggles
with my relationship with my husband um and i just feel personally i feel like i've kind of been in
an abusive emotionally abusive relationship with a lot of control and manipulation over the last
three years and some change that we've been married and um like i really lost a lot of myself
and just lost my voice and so i have it now um and now i'm just like i'm just no nonsense about
anything that i feel like is control and manipulation so talk to our marriage council a
little bit more about it but we've had a rocky weekend even after my wonderful day with my
friends and evening with my friends a rocky weekend of ups and downs um and so we were
you know anyway so i part of me is like i should do these journey shares when i'm in a happy mood
like right after so you see that this one's going to be a mesh of like oh this is wonderful but also
like you know just triggered again by we had another conflict in so i'm just kind of out and
about doing my own thing now and running some errands before going back and celebrating
valentine's day um so anyway um with him i just heard a wonderful song that just came through
on my um spotify just that really encouraged me and that encouraged me to just go ahead and
do my journey share before it got too late and it says nothing can take away my hallelujah
nothing can take away my hallelujah no darkness there's no man and it goes on and that just
really resonated with me in this moment um i was sitting in the car at legacy west and
i guess plano frisco whatever in the garage just journaling my thoughts like i've learned how to do
as a prayer to god and um just to get it all out and to be able to feel those emotions that i'm
feeling currently and when that song came on it just really helped to in that moment just even
just like remind me like of the cross of god and how really i'm okay in him no matter the ups and
downs of my emotions so that really was a great anchor um and just hearing that song a few times
really helped to to lift the cloud um and put me in a better place so i just wanted to share that
with you guys um and i'm excited to be on this journey and i know i'm making progress and i'm
excited to share it with you guys so i know next time i'll be able to share testimony have a good