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hi guys um so i did an audio uh journey share the first time just because i didn't feel like

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getting all cutesy for the camera but and it was my very first one so i babystepped my way into it

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so now i'm doing a video share so anyway um i am going to decide i was trying to think should i do

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this chronologically or just do like praise reports and struggles um i decided just to do

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it chronologically um so um and there's ups and downs so chronologically left off uh at the last

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journey share just saying that i was just really excited for my weekend with friends um kim rita

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and i went to one of our friend kim's house and for uh sleepover and it was so wonderful was so

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rejuvenating um we were able to just really catch up and share our hearts and struggles but it was

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just really great to just talk about the goodness of the lord and it's like we had church it was

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super rejuvenating so i felt like my old self and um really um that dark cloud had lifted um even

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that day getting ready it had afterwards i was just like my tank was really full had a wonderful

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day of um worship on sunday and um it was it was good so um you might have understood from my last

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journey here i think the the season that i'm in right now is twofold one of which is struggles

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with my relationship with my husband um and i just feel personally i feel like i've kind of been in

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an abusive emotionally abusive relationship with a lot of control and manipulation over the last

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three years and some change that we've been married and um like i really lost a lot of myself

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and just lost my voice and so i have it now um and now i'm just like i'm just no nonsense about

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anything that i feel like is control and manipulation so talk to our marriage council a

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little bit more about it but we've had a rocky weekend even after my wonderful day with my

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friends and evening with my friends a rocky weekend of ups and downs um and so we were

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you know anyway so i part of me is like i should do these journey shares when i'm in a happy mood

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like right after so you see that this one's going to be a mesh of like oh this is wonderful but also

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like you know just triggered again by we had another conflict in so i'm just kind of out and

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about doing my own thing now and running some errands before going back and celebrating

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valentine's day um so anyway um with him i just heard a wonderful song that just came through

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on my um spotify just that really encouraged me and that encouraged me to just go ahead and

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do my journey share before it got too late and it says nothing can take away my hallelujah

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nothing can take away my hallelujah no darkness there's no man and it goes on and that just

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really resonated with me in this moment um i was sitting in the car at legacy west and

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i guess plano frisco whatever in the garage just journaling my thoughts like i've learned how to do

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as a prayer to god and um just to get it all out and to be able to feel those emotions that i'm

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feeling currently and when that song came on it just really helped to in that moment just even

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just like remind me like of the cross of god and how really i'm okay in him no matter the ups and

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downs of my emotions so that really was a great anchor um and just hearing that song a few times

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really helped to to lift the cloud um and put me in a better place so i just wanted to share that

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with you guys um and i'm excited to be on this journey and i know i'm making progress and i'm

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excited to share it with you guys so i know next time i'll be able to share testimony have a good