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Hey, Alana, how are you?

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Oh, I can't hear you. It says you're muted.

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I'm good. I was actually, I tried to get on like four times and I was almost going to write a comment that I couldn't get on. I don't think you were on yet, so I think it just wasn't working.

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Yeah, sorry about that. I'm having problems with my internet, so I'm having to, anyway, change what I was going to do. So, here we go.

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Are you, is it because you're at your friends?

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No, I have my own internet, so I'm trying to get my little thing at, there we go, my little stand. No, I have my own hotspot and for some reason it's telling me, sorry, I can't see me, it's telling me that it's not, that there's no service.

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Oh, interesting.

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So, I don't know if there's some reason, because I've been using it today.

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Oops.

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So, I'm going to have to look into that.

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Hi, everybody.

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Oh, someone.

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It's Amy.

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Oh, hey, Amy.

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Oh my goodness, everybody's on. Let's see, Catherine, Steph.

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Hey, everybody.

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I'm just going to say hi and then turn off my video and sound because I'm making peach cobbler.

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Oh, okay.

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Where do you live?

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Peach cobbler, is that what you said?

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Yeah, Texas.

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Oh, that's not fair.

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Oh, Texas, it's a little far and I can't cross the border, so I guess.

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Where are you, Alana?

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I'm in Canada, Ontario.

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Oh, very cool. I kind of wish I was up there, nice and cool.

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Oh, yeah, well, I love Texas. Where are you in Texas?

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In the Dallas area.

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Oh, I love, Ashley and I have had this conversation.

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My husband and I dream about moving to Texas in that area, like Plano, which is kind of just.

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I'm just in Plano in Allen. I really like it.

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I just moved to this area. I've been in the Dallas area, but I moved here, so.

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It's a great, oh, we loved it there.

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So, we play around with the dream of maybe moving there.

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It is a little bit difficult when you're Canadian.

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You want to move to the U.S.

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Yeah.

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So.

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I had some friends here years ago that were Canadians that moved here for a while.

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They ended up moving back, though, to Canada.

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Oh, yeah?

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Yeah.

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I'm just having all kinds of interesting issues today.

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I'm going to listen.

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Oh, yay.

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It says my Internet is now connected.

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But, so, usually I'm on my computer.

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Let's see.

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Now I can see everybody.

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I was going to say, usually I'm on my computer.

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And, but, so, that's what took me a while to get on.

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I was like, why won't it let me on?

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The Internet says it wasn't happy, so I couldn't get on my computer.

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So, I'm going to get on my phone.

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Okay.

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So, I'm on my phone.

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Let me make sure that I am good here.

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What is it doing?

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Come on.

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Oh, good.

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So, I'm on.

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Okay.

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Yes.

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So, it is Alana's first time.

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And it's Catherine's first time.

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Hey, how are you doing, Catherine?

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I'm good.

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Oh, let me turn on the light.

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Good.

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Yeah.

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It's been a good day.

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It's been a good day.

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Yeah.

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I'm from Texas as well.

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So, connection.

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I lived in the Dallas area, but.

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Oh, my gosh.

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Everybody on this thing is from Texas.

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This is amazing.

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I'm in California now.

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I like California too.

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I'm happy.

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I like Texas.

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I want to move to either.

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Texas is first and then California would be second.

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I love Canada, but I really like the heat.

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You like the heat?

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I love the heat.

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I love it.

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I could live in the heat all year round easily.

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You are one of those places.

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I will take the heat over the cold.

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Pardon?

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I will take the heat over the cold.

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I will take the heat over the cold.

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If you are having a hard time getting your bones and can't get it out,

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that is miserable.

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I will take the heat over the cold.

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In Turkey, it can get up to 120 degree weather

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over the cold. I hear you. Yeah, because it would also get cold in Turkey and not

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extremely cold. We're not talking Canada here. We're talking like, I don't know, we

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get into the 20s or 30s, 20s, where I was, but the problem is you couldn't get away

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from the cold. So, oops, now it's saying that I need to plug my phone in. I

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might need to switch to my computer just because it's gonna be easier. Anyway, so

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let's see. I'm having all kinds of fun little things today. Let's see, I might

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have to leave. Oh, is it going to make me end the meeting? No, DASA, uh-uh, just a

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second. Let me see. Okay, no. Okay, so I'm gonna leave the meeting and then I'm

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going to come back in on my computer because I think that that's going to be

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best. So, I will be right back.

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See, I'm going to sign. Let's see. Oh, so, Amy, I'm gonna sign you the host. Just, I'll

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be right back. Where are you from in California? Where do you live there? I'm

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in Redding, which is Northern California. Do you go to Bethel? Yeah, yeah, I go to

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Bethel. I came out here for their School of Ministry and now I'm in their

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Conservatory of the Arts. What do you do? Do you play an instrument or do you sing?

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It's actually like an acting school, so I did an acting certificate last year

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and then this year I'm doing a screenwriting program. Yeah, so all things

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entertainment. How do you like it? Oh gosh, I love it. If it wasn't for the insane

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heat, this would be the most amazing place to live ever, so you would probably

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love it, but it does get like really, really hot in the summer, but other

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than that, it's really, it's pretty amazing. Oh yeah, I'd love, we, I'll go and visit

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one day. I'd love to go to Redding and go to Bethel and experience it. I've gone to

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Bethel concerts and conferences. I went, one thing I love about Dallas is lots

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last summer, I went to their Have and Come conference in Dallas and it was

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amazing. Yeah, that's awesome. Yeah, I was at the one in 2018. That's kind of how I

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ended up out here. Oh wow, that's amazing. Yeah, I like what they're doing a lot. I

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love their music too and I sing for my church, like I sing on the worship team,

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so I just love that kind of music and yeah, it's my thing, so. Awesome. Yeah, it's

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neat. Well, I am not pleased with this because, let's see, recurring meetings start, because I

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can't see, okay, so I can now see, okay, well now I can see y'all. I'm thinking

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that my internet on my computer is struggling, so, because it's freezing

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y'all, which means it might be freezing me, and so I'm wondering if I just need

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to figure out how to switch back to my phone. I'm not used to having as much

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trouble. You always freeze in lovely positions, though. I don't know how you do

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it, but every time you freeze, you look so nice. Oh, there she froze.

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Oh, I am seriously going to have to switch to my, to my phone, back to my

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phone. So, I'm going to have to work out my, whatever issues are

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going on with the internet. So, does anyone, let's see who is on here. I'm trying to

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remember who I see is on here. So, yeah, and Amy, I hate to ask you this, would you

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mind going in there when you get a chance and remaking me the host of my own Zoom meeting?

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That let's go to participants. I'll just go to participants and then just make me host

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So I had to make you host in order for me to leave, but it wouldn't. So it wouldn't end it meeting.

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I switched it back to you.

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Thank you.

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You're welcome.

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I like control.

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So I do, by the way, mute anybody who's not talking so that because I've noticed that it'll create a whole bunch of feedback in the recording. So nobody be offended.

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Okay.

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Oh, cute.

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All right, there we go. So you'll need to just unmute yourselves. If y'all have a question or and say something. So, okay, so now that we're actually finally getting into this what 15 minutes into the call and

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For one thing, wanted to let everybody know. So y'all already know that Alana and Catherine are new as the last time that we were on a call. And so this is their first time joining us and I've been telling him and how much fun it is to be on a call with them.

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And how much we enjoy getting on these calls and because we can just all and whoever is able to join via video or just join the zoom period to join the zoom meeting period.

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That we enjoy getting to hear updates from each other or just being able to interact and we have a lot of fun. We, we do laugh a lot. I've noticed.

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But anyway, does anyone have anything that has come up this this past week or anything sent that they haven't updated us on

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That has just, I don't know, the Lord has revealed something to y'all about

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How to move into rest and a greater measure or how to apply something that y'all had on that you'd applied in another area and the worst now showing you how to do it in this area and

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I don't know any updates or any questions that anybody has that they've been thinking about and going through the teachings or life experiences.

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Hey,

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Anyone have anything. If not, I'm gonna have to come up with something.

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I have to think of what I've been talking to people about this week. Oh, I think I've got something if nobody else does.

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Well, I would talk about the you and I have chatted a little bit about this, but the whole thing about control.

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And how God has been kind of showing me again. He shows me this a lot. I think I've kind of got a good handle on it. And then he shows me again that

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I'm trying to control a little too much. So this week he was showing me that like in big ways that I was really struggling when things were not going the way they were planned to go. And so I chatted with you a little bit about it. I chatted with

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Another friend of mine about it and gain some really interesting insight around where that comes from that desire for control and

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You know, one of the reasons I chose to take this rest intensive was to figure out how to

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Be in a space of rest and trust and faith, instead of trying to manipulate things so that they all work out the way that I want them to work out and therefore I feel good because nothing's out of sorts.

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And I have a four year old. So there's, you know, every day.

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Things are always, you know, out of control to a certain degree, because you never know what you're going to get.

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And it's, you know, it kind of goes down to that to write like the parenting aspect. I'd love to be a mom who's more at rest and less focused on her showing up in a way that

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Works for me, but to be okay with the way she shows up regardless. Yeah. Oh, that's perfect. Yeah. I love how you

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How you also brought in the whole parenting thing. That's something that I've been I've been around some people with children lately like

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Like several tiny children know all at once. And every now and then I it'll either be my nieces and and and nephew, or it'll be a friend or whatever. And so I happen to have been around recently and wasn't watching how they were handling it and I noticed that it was just a lot of stress, simple, not by the fact that things were going bad, they just were not going the way someone thought they should go.

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It shouldn't be like this, like the children were sick and there were those constant, you know, you know, mommy. I'm not feeling good. And they were really just wanting attention and then no no mommy this and no mommy that and no mommy that and no mommy this and no mommy that

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I didn't know the other child's doing something and then the baby's crying and and everyone was fine, essentially, but the problem. And so I was looking at the situation watching. Well, you know, yeah, there's people can look at it as a chaos as as

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As everyone needs something, but really, if you thought about the situation because everyone's like talking all at once. You're like, oh, we shouldn't be

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But if you just look at the situation. Well, nothing's wrong. Everything's fine. No one's dying. It's all okay. And they're all going to be okay, but it was the sense that it shouldn't be like this. And I was watching that build up in the mother.

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Word and it but if so, I thought, oh, this is such a so neat because what I have the opportunity to do because I was, I was in the middle of all of this going on and the kids were looking at me as well.

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You know, they were wanting my attention and wanting to do that. And so I'm having to like

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Go between one child and another and both of them are wanting attention.

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And there was constant noise. And so that this is a great opportunity to just shift into rest because I was, I was noticing that that, you know, we typically think

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That there should be order. There's something that's out of order. There is something that going on that shouldn't be. So I thought, no.

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I can just let go of the fact that I believe that it shouldn't be like this. I just let go of this fact.

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It doesn't mean that we can't like try to calm everyone down and give people what they need and whatever. But it was just, they were just

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They were just moments and literally they were like several few hours in which we were going through all of this.

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But I could be and I would, and I would shift into a place of rest, while there was all of this going on around me. And that was being required of me like all of these demands that were being required of me.

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And in this situation, and I would just able to shift into rest. And then I noticed that when the children will be around me versus their mother, they would calm down.

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Because I would be in rest when they would come in and they tag team. Oh, actually, this actually this actually this and actually this and whoever it was that I was paying attention to the other one wanted in on it.

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And it was, it was just constant. And so because I was at rest, they calmed down and then eventually they calmed down to the point they went away from me.

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Because they're like, okay, now I'm fine. I didn't need me to calm them down anymore. They had calmed down and now they could go entertain themselves.

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And so, but I noticed that that whenever they were around somebody that had the emotion that was all stirred up, they would get stirred up.

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And then they and they and they wouldn't stop and they would continue to come after the matter or whoever else, you know, looking for looking for peace and looking for stability and the emotion from the mom.

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And the and the and the spiritual frustration that she was in spiritual meaning like even stuff that she wasn't saying or doing or whatever this state that she was in inside

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Is what was is what they were receiving and so and they may and continue to create more and more chaos and more and more turmoil, because they just couldn't settle down.

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So anyways, that I think that's interesting that you brought that up. So one of the things that you'll notice that when

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When you go through the rest intensive that one of the things that I talked about about a very practical thing that we do in order to shift into rest like literally immediately in a moment.

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Is to let go of the idea that things shouldn't be the way that they are because that's what's creating our struggle. And that's what's creating our resistance. It shouldn't be like this.

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Now we're not making it now when we shift into rest and we let go of the sense of entitlement, our sense of entitlement that it shouldn't be whatever way that it

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It is in the moment and whatever's going on, whether someone said something to us or someone's acting a particular way or someone's not acting a particular way or whatever, whether it be about parenting or marriage or business or whatever.

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If we just let go of our sense of entitlement that it shouldn't be that way.

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Will immediately shift into rest, but what we're not doing at the time is we're not creating judgment and we are

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We're not, we're not determining whether what the truth is in this situation. We're not saying by by letting go. We're not saying, oh, it's okay that this is happening.

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And it should be happening like this. And this is the truth. We're not saying that at all. We're not making any judgment. We're not saying it's truth.

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We're not saying it's false. We're not saying anything. We're just like letting go of our sense of entitlement that it should not be the way that it is.

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And as soon as we do that, as soon as we let go, we shift into rest. So the storm can continue to go on around us. But once we shift into rest.

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Then we now are should have shifted into a position in where we are acknowledging that we're spirit was one with Christ. Therefore, we're perfect or holy or

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righteous, we know all things, and we're above everything else. We're above Satan, we're in a

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higher position, and because we're above everything, and because we're operating according

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to him, because we now believe that we are sons of God, and we understand that we're in that

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position of power and authority, we now have the opportunity to standing in our position

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to tell creation, which includes other people's souls, to calm down. Even without saying

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something out of our mouth, the intention that a son of God brings into a

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situation will calm everything down. So that's what I was doing, that's what I was doing with

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the children that I was around, and I was around them today, and that's what I was having

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to do with them, is it wasn't anything that I said to the children. In fact, everything that

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they were asking me for, I was giving them, I was constantly answering them every time. I

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didn't ever tell them, wait just a second, let me get back to you in a minute, or whatever. I've

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done that before, so I'm not saying that's wrong. I'm just saying that in the situation, it was

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constant, and I was just answering them, whatever, but because I was in a place of rest, they eventually

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caught that intention, and they calmed down, and they went away to entertain themselves. They no

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longer needed me. So anyway, that's a really good example of a situation that so many people,

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especially moms, find themselves in, that we think life shouldn't be like this, and it's saying

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something about me as a mother, it's saying something about my children, my children shouldn't

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be like this, and all of a sudden we see them, you know, 10, 20 years from now in jail, you know,

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really they're just three, and they're just thrown in bed, you know, it's, yeah, and so it's

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like bringing everything back into perspective, but so that's a really practical way in which we

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walk out shifting, living in, that we can walk out living in rest, in very, in daily

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life situations, where we give up a sense of control. We don't have control over our children,

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we just don't. They're their own people, and they determine how they want to take what mom said,

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so, and they have their own little personality, and each one that comes out is different from the

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next person, so anyway, that, that's a really, that's a really neat thing that, that you were

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filling the Lord, and revealing to you some, some ways in which he was saying, you actually have the

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opportunity to live in greater freedom. I didn't mean for you to have to live like this, and you

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can now live, you can now live, you have the opportunity to live in more freedom than this,

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wouldn't you like to, because that's all that God is ever saying, is, is always that we have the

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opportunity to, to have something better and more than what we have. It's never a condemnation of

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where we are, but that we're in a place of lack, that we shouldn't be where we are. He's just like,

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oh yeah, you're fine where you are, and wouldn't you like something more, wouldn't you like something

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better? And so, it's always the kindness of God that leads to us being able to release control.

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So, I don't, I don't know if that makes sense, because I know that, I know that you just joined

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today and hadn't gotten an opportunity to watch some of the sessions, so I'm not sure if I just,

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if you feel like I just threw you into the deep end of the pool, so I'm sorry. You know me,

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I live in the deep end of the pool. I'm, yeah, I'm at the bottom of the ocean most of the time.

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I'm good. I, well, yeah, no, it was great, and I watched your love lesson, the first one. Okay,

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so you watched that one, okay. Yeah, so I've gotten a little bit of an idea, but you and I

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have had lots of conversations too, so I feel like, yeah, I understand, and part of it is,

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cognitively I understand, at a heart level, it is going to maybe take a little bit of time to

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drop down and actually practice it, because, you know, being grounded when it's easy

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is no problem. Being grounded and at rest when things are chaotic is always the opportunity for

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growth, right, and yeah, so I like what you're saying, and that we don't have to, it doesn't

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have to look a certain way, and that pressure we put on ourselves, or at least me, I can speak from

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I, the pressure I put on myself to be that mother that's going to raise her daughter really well,

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and then it's like, I have to do this, and I get, right, and it's not, it's like, how do you

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actually just let go of control and say, it's okay, whatever, you know, it's hard to know the

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balance, right? Yeah, yeah, so we're not, we're not, we're not, not guiding our children anymore,

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but we're releasing this, we're releasing the struggle that we're holding against

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whatever's going on, because once we release it,

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Then, like I said, we can shift into, we're shifting then into a position of the spirit

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from which we can tell creation what it needs to do and it will respond. But when we're down

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there with it battling, meaning we're not in a state of rest, then it's at least 10 times harder

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to get an effect if we have any effect whatsoever. So, which it depends on the situation as to

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whether or not we have an effect. But usually, we just work really hard and we have an effect

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on our children and all that good stuff. But if we just let go of that sense of entitlement,

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we have the greatest opportunity to actually execute and get done what it is that we are not

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get done, but to impart into our children the spiritual lessons and the spiritual understanding

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that they need and need to actually receive from us. Because the majority of what it is that

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they're doing is actually from very natural human nature response that they feel that they're not

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protected or provided for in some way. They don't feel safe and so they're doing something.

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because they're not acting appropriately, like they're screaming or they are constantly begging

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for attention and they won't leave us alone or whatever, there's an area in which they're trying

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to learn how to express themselves. And they're not really sure how. It's like learning to use

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arms or legs. And so that just is like this guiding process. But then there's this other

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aspect to it in which like if they're insatiable, if they're screaming about something,

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or whatever, that is a normal human tendency of anybody at any age. And children just

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happen to express it screaming and adults express it using different expressions

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that we're terrified. And we feel that we're alone, that we feel that we're abandoned. And we feel like

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this is the only way that I can move into self-preservation mode is if I scream, I know that

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I'll get this. If I do this, then I know that this will happen or whatever. So it's if we are

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able to shift into our spirit and be able to provide them with the sense of identity, protection,

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and provision where they can begin to believe, oh, you know, God is that I'm not alone.

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I'm not unsafe. I'm not whatever. The behavior issues start to leave. And that's the same for

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children as it is for adults. If we understand who it is that we are, our behavior goes away.

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And then we don't even have to address the behavior. So I'm not saying that children's

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behavior shouldn't be addressed because there's, so it's not like, oh, they can just do whatever

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they want and I just need to address their identity. Then their behavior can be addressed.

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But for us to focus on the behavior isn't dealing with the root issue. So, and they're just,

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and children are just little people. They're just little adults and we all act the same way.

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I mean, people act the same way at 44 that they do when they're four, except that we just,

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we have more mature ways of expressing it, but it's the same fears and the same childishness.

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Oh yeah. I think that people have,

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making sure that I haven't like missed a comment that someone said. Oh, there it goes. Yeah. Y'all

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just, y'all are just commiserating with each other. I know that we don't, we don't control

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other people. We don't control children. We can't control ourselves. I mean, my goodness, how much,

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how good have we done controlling ourselves? Remember even Paul talks about the fact that,

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why am I doing things I don't want to do? And I'm not doing things that I want to do. And,

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you know, that's ourselves, let alone somebody else. But anyway.

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That's good. So it's kind of like the way I'm a visual person. So I'm imagining kind of like

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floating above the situation in the spirit and not being in the chaos, but kind of rising above

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the chaos. Is that kind of a, a bit of a picture? I'm not sure.

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Oh, well, okay. Sort of. Let me see if I can, if I can explain this better. Okay. So there's two

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pictures that I can give you. So there's, there's operating, you know, basically where we believe

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that we've been abandoned and alone, which is we believe that we're operating out of what I refer

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to as the soul realm or the body realm. I say, I refer to it as if I came up with the idea. So

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that's what I, that's what I heard. And I've heard from a teacher that I follow and that's

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the way he expresses it. So, and it makes such clear, gives me such a clear picture that that's

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what I use for, for the rest intensive is to just.

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just draw it like your spirit realm, soul realm, the body realm. So when we're operating out of

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the body or the soul, in other words, it create an aspect of creation and an aspect of ourselves

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that was created because our spirits were not created. Our spirits came out of God and he's

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not created. So our spirits are not created, but our soul and our body were created.

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And anyway, so when we operate out of the solar body realm, that's a reference to the fact that

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we believe that we've been abandoned and alone, that God leaves us in a place of lack, that he's

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not fully providing for protecting us. And instead he's requiring that we somehow man up and pick

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ourselves up by our own bootstraps and accomplish something for him, accomplish something that we

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need to give him, get ourselves to a certain point or our children to a certain point or

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a spouse to a certain point where we're finally acceptable to him. And even though we know not

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to talk like that, our lives show that we actually believe it. And so, so by talking about the fact

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that we're shifting into the spirit, it means that we're finally acknowledging that we are spirit.

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So it's not really coming out and above this situation, but it means that we're not affected

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by the situation. It means we can be smack dab in the middle of it, but it doesn't affect us.

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It's not a threat. So it's one picture in the fact that we are spirit. So when I say that

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we're shifting into this spirit, it means that we're just shifting our consciousness to acknowledge

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I am spirit. I'm not soul. I'm not body. I'm not, I'm not able to die. I'm actually spirit,

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which can't ever die. So it's just an acknowledgement. And then the other picture is the

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idea that when Jesus was in the boat, and I use this one constantly when I talk about this,

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I need to come up, I need to think of some more examples in scripture to give a bit of variety

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to talk about. But in script, in three of the gospels, it references the time where Jesus

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calmed the wind and the waves, where he was in the boat asleep and the wind and the waves are

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crashing. And it says in all three accounts, all three gospels, it says that the, that the waves

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were coming up over the boat and, and Jesus was asleep on a cushion in the stern. It mentions

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that, that cushion in the stern in one of the, in one of the gospels, but in all three of the

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gospels, it talks about the fact that the water was so bad. It was coming over into the boat.

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In other words, Jesus was getting wet while he was sleeping and he was apparently finding no reason

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whatsoever to get up and change the situation because he wasn't threatened by the situation.

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He was basically acting as if it can do whatever it wants. I don't need to change the storm.

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I don't need to tell it to do something different. Just, it can do whatever it wants to do.

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It's in turmoil. It's in chaos. It's afraid. It can do whatever it wants, but it can't threaten me.

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It was a spiritual, it was a physical picture of the fact that his soul was at rest.

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He knew that it wasn't a threat to him, but the disciples on the other hand, were seeing the

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threat. They're like, we're, we're under threat. Lord, you do not care for us. What are you going

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to do? And so he gets up and he calms the situation. And that he was, and he was doing

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two different things. He was telling, he was, he was saying for one, that, Hey, y'all have

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the authority to be able to do this. You have the authority to be able to tell creation to,

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to what it is that you want it to do, to take authority over creation and take dominion.

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That was one of the things. The other thing that he was trying to say is, look, because you can

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take authority and dominion over creation, it's not a threat to you. So you don't always have to

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change the situation. It doesn't matter what the situation is doing. You don't have to change it

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in order to be at rest. I was at rest while it was going on. I didn't see a need to wake up and fix

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it. But since you're afraid, I'm trying to prove it to you in terms that you understand, because

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you only understand rest if your environment's at rest. So we'll, we'll command the environment

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to be at rest. And now don't you see that you can command it at any time. So therefore it's never a

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threat to you. So that was, um, that says a, uh, a, an example in scripture of the fact that we

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don't have to, that the outside circumstances do not dictate how we need to react or respond.

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They can't, they don't say anything about who it is that we are or what it is that we need to do or,

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um, uh, or, uh, that they don't dictate to us whether or not we're under threat or what the

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truth is. We tell it what we want it to do. And we tell it how it needs to respond. And we don't

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even have to do it because Jesus didn't even find a need to calm the storm. Like, ah, just let it

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storm. Let it do its own thing. He didn't save the, uh,

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They all wanted him to save it from Roman rule.

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This doesn't even need to be a discussion.

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Inside, you believe that you're enslaved.

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that you're enslaved outwardly.

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that you're enslaved in the soul and the spirit,

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and you're acting like that.

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He said, that's the threat.

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That's what we have to get rid of.

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that when they shift into rest, that it

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means that we won't go through struggles anymore,

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or that we always command the struggles to go away.

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That's not always true.

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It just means that they're not a threat to us anymore.

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we also can, if it's within the father's heart,

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command it to calm down, and command it to change,

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and command it to be different.

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We can declare that someone be healed.

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We can declare that we are to be healed.

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I mean, to manifest healing, be free from cancer,

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that we can even declare money to appear on our bank account.

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talk to their cell phone and tell it to charge,

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But that's a process that we have to,

397
00:36:46.640 --> 00:36:50.560
that's a shifting of our understanding

398
00:36:50.560 --> 00:36:54.760
to come into agreement with who it is that God says that we are.

399
00:36:54.760 --> 00:36:56.600
And the more that we've come into agreement

400
00:36:56.600 --> 00:36:58.840
with who it is that God says that we are,

401
00:36:58.840 --> 00:37:03.920
the more that we then can command creation

402
00:37:03.920 --> 00:37:06.760
according to what we understand the father's heart desires

403
00:37:06.760 --> 00:37:10.000
creation to be released from frustration,

404
00:37:10.000 --> 00:37:12.120
because it's currently in frustration.

405
00:37:12.120 --> 00:37:14.480
I really feel like I just gave a lot there.

406
00:37:14.480 --> 00:37:15.240
Sorry.

407
00:37:15.240 --> 00:37:18.920
For me, it's just, I've been talking about this so much,

408
00:37:18.920 --> 00:37:24.000
and in living this so much, that it just kind of fills my life.

409
00:37:24.000 --> 00:37:25.720
And so I just start talking, and then I realize,

410
00:37:25.720 --> 00:37:29.480
I don't know if I just gave you an entire elephant

411
00:37:29.480 --> 00:37:31.600
and told you to swallow it.

412
00:37:31.600 --> 00:37:33.000
I'm sorry.

413
00:37:33.000 --> 00:37:34.680
And anyway, that's the answer.

414
00:37:34.680 --> 00:37:37.680
So if this doesn't make sense, just periodically,

415
00:37:37.680 --> 00:37:43.160
just re-watch this, and you'll gain more and more layers

416
00:37:43.160 --> 00:37:46.720
of understanding.

417
00:37:47.720 --> 00:37:49.360
That makes total sense to me.

418
00:37:49.360 --> 00:37:54.880
I mean, I think it's a process, but what you're talking about

419
00:37:54.880 --> 00:37:58.280
sounds a lot like it's reminding me of how I felt.

420
00:37:58.280 --> 00:38:00.240
So I recently, you and I have talked about,

421
00:38:00.240 --> 00:38:03.880
I recently had to make a decision about which direction I was going to go.

422
00:38:03.880 --> 00:38:09.560
And there was just, I could feel when I was in control,

423
00:38:09.560 --> 00:38:13.440
and then I could feel when I just let go and allowed

424
00:38:13.440 --> 00:38:17.200
it to unfold the way it was going to unfold.

425
00:38:17.200 --> 00:38:24.200
And not that I surrendered all desire or wanting

426
00:38:24.200 --> 00:38:28.200
it to be a good conclusion.

427
00:38:28.200 --> 00:38:32.080
But I kind of just was like, OK, this isn't going the way

428
00:38:32.080 --> 00:38:37.120
that I expected, but we're just going to roll with it.

429
00:38:37.120 --> 00:38:39.040
And yeah.

430
00:38:39.040 --> 00:38:41.920
And I also really loved what you said about,

431
00:38:41.920 --> 00:38:45.560
I know it sounds like, whoa, but like commanding money

432
00:38:45.560 --> 00:38:47.640
to come into your bank account or that.

433
00:38:47.640 --> 00:38:50.400
I've been experimenting with just being really direct with God

434
00:38:50.400 --> 00:38:53.240
and asking him for very specific things.

435
00:38:53.240 --> 00:38:57.680
And especially financially, mostly just jobs.

436
00:38:57.680 --> 00:38:59.600
Like I've been telling him what kind of jobs I wanted

437
00:38:59.600 --> 00:39:00.560
and that kind of thing.

438
00:39:00.560 --> 00:39:04.360
And it's been surprising to me how quickly he's answered.

439
00:39:04.360 --> 00:39:07.480
Like I said to him like one morning, I would

440
00:39:07.480 --> 00:39:09.040
love to get some more jobs like this.

441
00:39:09.040 --> 00:39:13.040
And like a friend of mine texted me like 10 minutes later.

442
00:39:13.040 --> 00:39:16.040
And so it's been really, it's been interesting to kind

443
00:39:16.040 --> 00:39:20.960
of like realize that we have so much more authority,

444
00:39:20.960 --> 00:39:23.280
I think, than we realize.

445
00:39:23.280 --> 00:39:24.400
So.

446
00:39:24.400 --> 00:39:25.840
Yes, we do.

447
00:39:25.840 --> 00:39:30.760
And the more authority that we can.

448
00:39:30.760 --> 00:39:32.880
OK, so let me back up.

449
00:39:32.880 --> 00:39:35.760
We have everything now.

450
00:39:35.760 --> 00:39:43.120
We don't have to, how would I read this?

451
00:39:43.120 --> 00:39:47.120
When, as the son of God, we've been given everything now.

452
00:39:47.120 --> 00:39:50.640
But we do not get to operate in everything

453
00:39:50.640 --> 00:39:54.800
until we can, until we grow into it, so to speak.

454
00:39:54.800 --> 00:40:00.480
So in the way that I've seen it pictured.

455
00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:01.680
because I was talking to Jesus.

456
00:40:01.680 --> 00:40:03.280
Well, I wasn't talking to Jesus about this.

457
00:40:03.280 --> 00:40:04.560
I was talking to him about something else.

458
00:40:04.560 --> 00:40:06.240
I was approaching him about something.

459
00:40:06.240 --> 00:40:07.080
And I was just,

460
00:40:07.080 --> 00:40:08.840
and he started just showing me various pictures.

461
00:40:08.840 --> 00:40:11.080
And so one of the things that he showed me is

462
00:40:11.080 --> 00:40:13.560
I had this brown mantle on,

463
00:40:13.560 --> 00:40:16.760
and he took it from me.

464
00:40:16.760 --> 00:40:18.600
And it's because I opened the mantle

465
00:40:18.600 --> 00:40:20.600
and there were some things inside,

466
00:40:20.600 --> 00:40:23.120
like drawings on it

467
00:40:23.120 --> 00:40:27.240
that were to represent things of who it is that I was

468
00:40:27.240 --> 00:40:29.400
and things that it is that he'd given me.

469
00:40:30.040 --> 00:40:32.040
But there were,

470
00:40:33.000 --> 00:40:34.520
not all of it, it was interesting,

471
00:40:34.520 --> 00:40:36.720
not all of it could fit inside the mantle.

472
00:40:36.720 --> 00:40:39.920
So in this robe, this mantle over me,

473
00:40:39.920 --> 00:40:42.840
and like I said, it was like this brown cloak looking thing.

474
00:40:42.840 --> 00:40:46.160
And he took it off of me,

475
00:40:46.160 --> 00:40:47.320
which was interesting because I thought,

476
00:40:47.320 --> 00:40:49.360
oh, I thought that would have been given to me if I got,

477
00:40:49.360 --> 00:40:50.360
but I don't know.

478
00:40:50.360 --> 00:40:52.040
Anyway, he took it off of me

479
00:40:52.040 --> 00:40:55.440
and then he put a long mantle on me,

480
00:40:55.440 --> 00:40:57.320
like one of the coronation robes.

481
00:40:57.320 --> 00:40:59.600
Like think of like the picture of the coronation robe

482
00:41:00.240 --> 00:41:03.960
that we've seen that belongs to Queen Elizabeth II.

483
00:41:03.960 --> 00:41:07.120
And I mean, telling you, that thing is six yards long.

484
00:41:07.120 --> 00:41:11.400
And I don't remember, it's at least a yard wide, at least.

485
00:41:11.400 --> 00:41:16.280
And that thing is velvet and that's real ermine lined.

486
00:41:16.280 --> 00:41:18.360
And in other words, all of that fur

487
00:41:18.360 --> 00:41:23.360
and the square footage of it is so large

488
00:41:24.160 --> 00:41:25.640
that it's extremely heavy

489
00:41:25.640 --> 00:41:28.880
and she can't even drag it on the floor.

490
00:41:28.880 --> 00:41:29.960
Her ladies in waiting,

491
00:41:29.960 --> 00:41:32.120
like I think that there's like four or six of them

492
00:41:32.120 --> 00:41:35.920
have to carry, they all have to carry a portion of it.

493
00:41:35.920 --> 00:41:37.600
It does not drag on the ground.

494
00:41:37.600 --> 00:41:39.720
They carry a portion of it, that thing is really heavy.

495
00:41:39.720 --> 00:41:41.200
So that is the picture that I saw.

496
00:41:41.200 --> 00:41:45.200
I saw that I looked about the size of a four-year-old

497
00:41:45.200 --> 00:41:46.360
and I was standing next to Jesus

498
00:41:46.360 --> 00:41:48.120
and I looked about the size of a four-year-old

499
00:41:48.120 --> 00:41:50.960
and he gave me this mantle and it was a full mantle,

500
00:41:50.960 --> 00:41:53.680
like the one like Queen Elizabeth would wear,

501
00:41:53.680 --> 00:41:55.080
really, really, really long,

502
00:41:55.080 --> 00:41:56.600
but on the size of a four-year-old.

503
00:41:56.600 --> 00:41:59.800
So what he showed me is I was bearing the weight

504
00:41:59.800 --> 00:42:01.720
of what he had given me as a son of God.

505
00:42:01.720 --> 00:42:05.520
He'd given the entire thing to me, the entire thing.

506
00:42:05.520 --> 00:42:07.800
But the only amount that I was bearing,

507
00:42:07.800 --> 00:42:10.600
in other words, the only amount that I was operating in

508
00:42:10.600 --> 00:42:15.280
at that time was what the part of the mantle

509
00:42:15.280 --> 00:42:16.880
that was on my shoulders

510
00:42:16.880 --> 00:42:20.000
and going from my shoulders down to the ground.

511
00:42:20.000 --> 00:42:21.680
Because once it hit the ground,

512
00:42:21.680 --> 00:42:25.320
the ground was bearing the weight of the rest of the mantle.

513
00:42:25.320 --> 00:42:28.000
But it was mine and it wasn't anybody else's.

514
00:42:28.000 --> 00:42:32.880
God didn't keep adding bits of material onto the mantle.

515
00:42:32.880 --> 00:42:36.600
I got the full thing at the very beginning,

516
00:42:36.600 --> 00:42:41.600
but I was only bearing the amount of weight of the mantle

517
00:42:43.360 --> 00:42:45.920
relative to my size and strength.

518
00:42:45.920 --> 00:42:49.640
So as I grew taller, though, the mantle,

519
00:42:49.640 --> 00:42:51.560
I would pull up more and more of the mantle

520
00:42:51.560 --> 00:42:52.560
because I'm getting taller,

521
00:42:52.560 --> 00:42:55.720
so obviously more and more is being picked up off the floor

522
00:42:55.720 --> 00:43:00.720
because it was related to how much I was growing.

523
00:43:01.360 --> 00:43:03.680
So how much I was spiritually growing,

524
00:43:03.680 --> 00:43:06.360
I was naturally receiving more and more of the mantle.

525
00:43:06.360 --> 00:43:09.000
I didn't even have to ask Jesus for it.

526
00:43:09.000 --> 00:43:12.320
I didn't have to ask Jesus to remember

527
00:43:12.320 --> 00:43:14.320
that I'm more spiritually mature this year

528
00:43:14.320 --> 00:43:15.280
than I was last year,

529
00:43:15.280 --> 00:43:18.400
so can I have more responsibility and can I have whatever?

530
00:43:19.240 --> 00:43:23.640
But it was just naturally coming with the territory.

531
00:43:23.640 --> 00:43:27.480
I was naturally pulling up more of it as I got taller.

532
00:43:28.360 --> 00:43:30.840
So I thought, okay, finally that makes sense

533
00:43:30.840 --> 00:43:32.320
because I wasn't understanding

534
00:43:32.320 --> 00:43:37.320
how I was given everything at the beginning,

535
00:43:37.440 --> 00:43:40.080
and yet I felt like I'm not getting to operate

536
00:43:40.080 --> 00:43:40.960
in all of it.

537
00:43:40.960 --> 00:43:42.280
I'm like, how can I have it all

538
00:43:42.280 --> 00:43:43.680
but I don't get to operate in all of it?

539
00:43:43.680 --> 00:43:45.200
That didn't make any sense.

540
00:43:45.200 --> 00:43:47.760
Why do people keep telling me, like preachers or whatever,

541
00:43:47.800 --> 00:43:49.440
keep saying things like,

542
00:43:49.440 --> 00:43:54.440
well, the more you prove yourself to the Lord,

543
00:43:57.200 --> 00:43:59.360
the more he gives you.

544
00:43:59.360 --> 00:44:01.120
It's like, I thought I was given everything,

545
00:44:01.120 --> 00:44:02.720
so I don't understand this.

546
00:44:02.720 --> 00:44:04.320
So finally when I saw the picture,

547
00:44:04.320 --> 00:44:06.640
I'm like, now that makes sense.

548
00:44:06.640 --> 00:44:07.760
Now that makes sense.

549
00:44:07.760 --> 00:44:12.760
I have all of it, but I grow into bearing the portion of it

550
00:44:13.760 --> 00:44:18.760
that is relative to the strength that I have built up,

551
00:44:18.760 --> 00:44:20.520
the spiritual maturity, the height,

552
00:44:20.520 --> 00:44:22.880
or whatever that I've built up to that point.

553
00:44:22.880 --> 00:44:24.200
So my point in saying all that

554
00:44:24.200 --> 00:44:26.160
is that our Father governs us

555
00:44:26.160 --> 00:44:29.200
into understanding more and more

556
00:44:29.200 --> 00:44:33.080
how to operate in the power and the authority

557
00:44:33.080 --> 00:44:36.280
of our position, to be able to declare certain things,

558
00:44:36.280 --> 00:44:37.720
to be able to whatever.

559
00:44:37.720 --> 00:44:42.440
And he desires us to try and to practice,

560
00:44:42.440 --> 00:44:44.240
which is what you're doing,

561
00:44:44.240 --> 00:44:47.280
to be talking to him and asking him for things

562
00:44:47.280 --> 00:44:49.680
and saying, oh Lord, this is what it,

563
00:44:49.680 --> 00:44:52.760
I'm bringing myself to the table in relationship with you.

564
00:44:52.760 --> 00:44:55.000
It's relationships, it's a two-way street.

565
00:44:55.000 --> 00:44:59.080
You tell me what you want and what you desire of my life.

566
00:44:59.080 --> 00:45:00.160
This is what I'm at.

567
00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:10.000
This is what I would like. So let's communicate. Let's talk about this Lord, you know, what is it that we want to do together and how should it manifest into reality?

568
00:45:10.000 --> 00:45:27.000
This is the type of job that I want. And this is why I want it. So what do you think about it? And to be able to do it together and, and to just kind of learn in, in how to build intimacy of relationship with him by, again, by bringing ourselves to the table.

569
00:45:27.000 --> 00:45:41.000
I think that's wonderful. What you're doing. I was not brave enough to do that. I was, I growing up, I was always just this neat little servant. Yes, sir. I will do whatever you want. And I have no, I have no desires and I have no wishes.

570
00:45:42.000 --> 00:46:01.000
That was me like six months ago. This has been a season with the Lord where he's been telling me over and over again, I need you to tell me what you want. Like, I'm not going to know I gave you what you want unless you actually vocalize it.

571
00:46:02.000 --> 00:46:26.000
Yes, exactly. No, that's good. Because what it means in the fact that you're doing it means that you are choosing to, that, that you're choosing to trust your father. In other words, he's gaining your trust. And I don't mean that, that he, uh, that he did anything wrong in order to lose your trust. I'm saying that, you know, we all understand that, that it's us.

572
00:46:26.000 --> 00:46:39.000
That's not believing him. But the point is, he's trying to woo you to himself and you are allowing yourself to be wooed. You're allowing yourself to choose to trust him. So you're like, okay, the Lord, here's what I want.

573
00:46:40.000 --> 00:47:01.000
Here's, here's what I'm thinking. Here's whatever, as opposed to just being afraid because he tried to woo me too. And I, I didn't take it. So that's wonderful that he desires us to do that. He desires us to declare to him who he is because we're feeding those words back to him. He wants us to say how to tell him, Lord, I believe you're this good.

574
00:47:01.000 --> 00:47:13.000
And like that, and he's just like, that's what I want to hear. I want to hear how good you think I am. How, how love, how much love that you think that I am, that I'm willing to give to you and be able to claim it.

575
00:47:13.000 --> 00:47:42.000
It's a very intimate thing. Like, like a husband and a wife. It's very intimate thing for that. He would call you the one who's one with asking to, to declare that he has those things. He likes to be loved on and be made much of just like husbands do just like you do, you know, he does as well. That's why he gave us that picture. We're really funny. We don't, he doesn't need us necessarily.

576
00:47:43.000 --> 00:48:04.000
He doesn't need us in the way that we think of as need, because we attribute the fact that we always attribute the picture of need with a sense of lack. And we understand that God's not lacking. So therefore we don't believe that he needs anything. That need to the Lord does not meet, does not result from lack.

577
00:48:05.000 --> 00:48:27.000
He desires to be affected by us and he created us in such a way that he, that he would be affected by us and that he would need us, but he doesn't need us because he's in a place of lack, just like he doesn't want us to need him, like as in desire him, because we believe that we're in a place of lack.

578
00:48:28.000 --> 00:48:47.000
I don't know if that sounded a little esoterical for tonight's discussion. That was a little deep, but there you go. But anyway, I was just trying to commend you for the intimacy of relationship that you are choosing to, that you're choosing to step out in with the Lord, because most people aren't that brave.

579
00:48:48.000 --> 00:48:49.000
Thank you.

580
00:48:50.000 --> 00:48:51.000
I didn't know that.

581
00:48:52.000 --> 00:49:01.000
So does anyone have anything, Steph? You've been talking. Oh, Holly, you're unmuted. Did you have something?

582
00:49:02.000 --> 00:49:10.000
Yeah, I was wondering if you, first of all, hey to the new people. How are you ladies? I'm so glad y'all are here. I'm excited about that.

583
00:49:11.000 --> 00:49:36.000
Okay. So I was wondering if you could expand on the idea of God supplying us and giving us what we want, but in relationship to others, like I'm thinking of like who I'm surrounded with.

584
00:49:36.000 --> 00:50:00.000
So we've had a lot of like family get togethers lately. So my in-laws who are wonderful, amazing people, but just have very different like family priorities than I do, how to get what I want and what I need with other personalities in the room, or even that you live with or that you work with or whatever, that God meets our needs.

585
00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:03.280
in the middle of other people's free will.

586
00:50:03.280 --> 00:50:06.000
I've been wrestling with the Lord about that

587
00:50:06.000 --> 00:50:11.000
and trying to walk in my authority in that

588
00:50:11.960 --> 00:50:16.960
and have really stumbled this week on getting revelation

589
00:50:17.760 --> 00:50:22.760
and kind of going back to like belief systems of old wounds

590
00:50:23.760 --> 00:50:26.320
of like, I just can't have what I want

591
00:50:26.320 --> 00:50:29.760
because I'm not the biggest personality in the room.

592
00:50:29.880 --> 00:50:34.880
And even though it's really important to me

593
00:50:35.000 --> 00:50:37.640
and it's a good thing and it's not like a,

594
00:50:39.520 --> 00:50:40.560
I'm not like the whiny-

595
00:50:40.560 --> 00:50:41.400
Not selfish.

596
00:50:41.400 --> 00:50:43.480
Corner, yeah, it's not selfish.

597
00:50:44.840 --> 00:50:48.520
But I just, I can't have it when these people are around

598
00:50:48.520 --> 00:50:53.520
and the only out I see to that is either to insist on it,

599
00:50:55.720 --> 00:50:57.360
like which is not gonna go well

600
00:50:57.360 --> 00:50:59.400
with a bunch of other adults, you know,

601
00:51:00.040 --> 00:51:05.040
or to like separate myself to go get what I want,

602
00:51:05.640 --> 00:51:10.200
which I don't, like none of that I'm at peace with.

603
00:51:10.200 --> 00:51:12.440
I know that there is provision

604
00:51:12.440 --> 00:51:14.520
in the middle of tough personalities,

605
00:51:14.520 --> 00:51:17.360
but I'm just stuck at that this week.

606
00:51:20.040 --> 00:51:22.240
So I'm assuming that this is a bit different

607
00:51:22.240 --> 00:51:25.160
than what we were talking about last week

608
00:51:25.160 --> 00:51:27.560
and then not you and I, but on the community Q&A

609
00:51:27.560 --> 00:51:29.720
and that I did a live on about the sovereignty

610
00:51:29.720 --> 00:51:33.840
versus our free will versus other people's effect

611
00:51:33.840 --> 00:51:36.000
and other people's ability to affect that.

612
00:51:36.000 --> 00:51:38.000
I'm assuming we're talking about something different than that

613
00:51:38.000 --> 00:51:38.920
or what?

614
00:51:38.920 --> 00:51:41.920
I haven't, I'm sorry, I haven't caught up on that yet.

615
00:51:41.920 --> 00:51:42.760
No, that's okay.

616
00:51:42.760 --> 00:51:44.840
I'm just, I didn't wanna answer something

617
00:51:44.840 --> 00:51:46.720
that you're like, no, no, no, I got that one

618
00:51:46.720 --> 00:51:48.640
and that didn't answer my question.

619
00:51:48.640 --> 00:51:52.120
And maybe I need to go listen to those

620
00:51:52.120 --> 00:51:55.520
and then I can call you later this weekend.

621
00:51:55.520 --> 00:51:56.680
No, no, it's fine.

622
00:51:57.120 --> 00:51:59.360
Again, I was just wanted to understand

623
00:51:59.360 --> 00:52:01.840
if maybe that hadn't answered your question.

624
00:52:01.840 --> 00:52:03.920
So you're just like, I needed,

625
00:52:03.920 --> 00:52:07.000
you needed me to mention, I don't know,

626
00:52:07.000 --> 00:52:08.720
come at it from a different angle.

627
00:52:09.880 --> 00:52:12.360
So I think maybe I understand what you're talking about.

628
00:52:12.360 --> 00:52:16.520
So you're talking about how you can be provided for,

629
00:52:17.520 --> 00:52:20.760
okay, let me start out saying this

630
00:52:20.760 --> 00:52:23.080
and you can tell and give me feedback

631
00:52:23.080 --> 00:52:24.720
and let me know if this is heading in the direction

632
00:52:24.720 --> 00:52:26.280
that you're kind of thinking.

633
00:52:26.880 --> 00:52:28.160
I don't know if this is answering your question.

634
00:52:29.200 --> 00:52:33.200
We talked, I think it was in the community Q&A last time,

635
00:52:33.200 --> 00:52:36.000
maybe I even mentioned it in the live

636
00:52:36.000 --> 00:52:38.040
that I was referencing just now,

637
00:52:38.040 --> 00:52:42.880
but that if we, if when God says that,

638
00:52:42.880 --> 00:52:44.600
yes, in fact, I know that I did.

639
00:52:44.600 --> 00:52:48.880
When God is, wants to provide something for us,

640
00:52:48.880 --> 00:52:50.840
whether it be something that he's told us

641
00:52:50.840 --> 00:52:52.920
or whether it's something that we've asked of him

642
00:52:52.920 --> 00:52:57.920
or whatever, if God, other people cannot affect

643
00:52:58.280 --> 00:53:01.680
God's providing that thing for us.

644
00:53:01.680 --> 00:53:04.920
They can just affect how it manifests sometimes

645
00:53:04.920 --> 00:53:07.040
if they choose to kind of step in the way.

646
00:53:07.040 --> 00:53:08.200
Let's say for instance,

647
00:53:10.520 --> 00:53:13.880
the example that I used was of Joseph,

648
00:53:13.880 --> 00:53:16.560
the fact that God had given Joseph all of those dreams

649
00:53:16.560 --> 00:53:18.160
and then his brother stepped in

650
00:53:18.160 --> 00:53:19.920
and then they sold him into slavery and all of that.

651
00:53:19.920 --> 00:53:24.320
Well, it looked for at least a decade, if not two,

652
00:53:24.320 --> 00:53:26.280
that that was just not gonna happen.

653
00:53:26.280 --> 00:53:27.760
And so it looks like, okay,

654
00:53:27.760 --> 00:53:31.760
well, did other people's will and desire,

655
00:53:31.760 --> 00:53:34.760
were they, was it forced on the situation?

656
00:53:34.760 --> 00:53:39.400
And then, and God didn't, was in thwarted God's ability

657
00:53:39.400 --> 00:53:43.920
to fulfill the promise that he'd made to Joseph.

658
00:53:43.920 --> 00:53:48.920
And the thing is that, and the answer is no, absolutely not.

659
00:53:49.080 --> 00:53:52.320
It can affect how it might manifest

660
00:53:52.320 --> 00:53:56.200
because when other people choose to be a part

661
00:53:56.200 --> 00:53:59.000
of what it is that God wants to do and fulfill,

662
00:53:59.000 --> 00:54:02.560
it's going to look different than it does

663
00:54:02.560 --> 00:54:05.200
if they choose to not be a part of it.

664
00:54:05.200 --> 00:54:06.600
So kind of like a business partner,

665
00:54:06.600 --> 00:54:10.160
God promises something to you as for business,

666
00:54:10.160 --> 00:54:13.160
but then your business partner or your husband,

667
00:54:13.160 --> 00:54:14.400
cause I understand for instance,

668
00:54:14.400 --> 00:54:15.760
that you and your husband are doing

669
00:54:15.760 --> 00:54:18.840
the snow cone business together.

670
00:54:19.120 --> 00:54:22.720
Say for instance, if God gives you a promise

671
00:54:22.720 --> 00:54:25.560
about the business, but then your husband

672
00:54:25.560 --> 00:54:27.760
isn't in agreement with that,

673
00:54:27.760 --> 00:54:31.160
well, can he thwart the fact that God had promised,

674
00:54:31.160 --> 00:54:32.640
can he thwart the fulfillment of it?

675
00:54:32.640 --> 00:54:34.120
And the answer is no.

676
00:54:34.120 --> 00:54:38.680
But what it can do is his desire to not agree with it,

677
00:54:38.680 --> 00:54:41.520
and I'm making up a story, I'm making up a total scenario,

678
00:54:41.520 --> 00:54:45.800
but his ability, his choosing to not agree with that

679
00:54:45.800 --> 00:54:49.560
and to not cooperate, for lack of a better phrase,

680
00:54:49.560 --> 00:54:51.920
that it's coming into agreement,

681
00:54:51.920 --> 00:54:55.240
then it can affect how it manifests.

682
00:54:56.640 --> 00:55:01.640
But it will not thwart God's promise.

683
00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.560
promise because you are more important to him. You are so important to him that

684
00:55:05.560 --> 00:55:11.400
God doesn't allow anything to separate us from him. And he, because he's

685
00:55:11.400 --> 00:55:16.200
extremely jealous and he won't allow parents to get in the way of his

686
00:55:16.200 --> 00:55:20.960
connection with someone, you know, that with his child. He won't allow a spouse

687
00:55:20.960 --> 00:55:24.160
to get in the way. He won't allow Satan to get in the way because it says that

688
00:55:24.160 --> 00:55:27.160
nothing, you know, not principalities, nor powers, nor things in heaven, or things

689
00:55:27.600 --> 00:55:32.280
nothing can separate us from the love of God. So nothing can thwart the fact that

690
00:55:32.280 --> 00:55:37.120
if God wants to do something, meaning if you, as a son, choose to ask him, Lord, I

691
00:55:37.120 --> 00:55:42.760
need this. I'm asking this as your son. I'm desiring you to come through for me.

692
00:55:42.760 --> 00:55:47.080
You know, I need this. I want this. Whatever. I'm asking for you to meet me

693
00:55:47.080 --> 00:55:51.120
and show me that I'm not abandoned. I'm asking for you to support me. Whatever it

694
00:55:51.120 --> 00:55:55.200
is, whether you've asked him or he's come up with the idea, whatever it is that

695
00:55:55.200 --> 00:56:02.560
y'all agree on, no one can thwart it. So there's that.

696
00:56:02.560 --> 00:56:08.080
Another picture that I wanted to mention is God can provide it in

697
00:56:08.080 --> 00:56:14.120
what God's way of providing it can look very different than our limited

698
00:56:14.120 --> 00:56:18.960
understanding of provision. For instance, if we believe, and this is the example

699
00:56:19.000 --> 00:56:25.640
that I gave in the teaching, if we're hungry, or if, say, for

700
00:56:25.640 --> 00:56:29.280
instance, that we're struggling with money, and we see our pantry getting

701
00:56:29.280 --> 00:56:33.120
really, really low, and we have nothing but mustard left in our pantry, and it's

702
00:56:33.120 --> 00:56:37.320
literally the only thing that we have, and we're thinking, okay, Lord,

703
00:56:37.320 --> 00:56:44.000
can you please send me a client so that I can have money so that I can buy food?

704
00:56:44.000 --> 00:56:48.200
Because our thought is, why do we think that we need food? We think that we

705
00:56:48.200 --> 00:56:52.600
need food in order to stay alive, in order to not be hungry or whatever.

706
00:56:52.600 --> 00:56:56.000
So we think it's very, very important. We think it's a need. Okay, well, how do I

707
00:56:56.000 --> 00:57:00.560
fulfill that need? How do you get food? You get food from money. Okay, and

708
00:57:00.560 --> 00:57:03.240
how do I get money? I get money from a client. So, Lord, please give me a client.

709
00:57:03.240 --> 00:57:07.720
Please give me money. Please give me food. God may not choose to provide in any of

710
00:57:07.720 --> 00:57:12.760
those ways, but he will always provide. So he may just provide by

711
00:57:12.760 --> 00:57:17.440
sustaining your body where you don't become hungry, and your body doesn't need

712
00:57:17.440 --> 00:57:23.440
the food. So he actually provided, but it was very, very different from any

713
00:57:23.440 --> 00:57:27.080
of the other scenarios that we came up with that we thought provision looked

714
00:57:27.080 --> 00:57:32.440
like, but he will always provide. So that's another thing to think about, is

715
00:57:32.440 --> 00:57:36.920
that he will always provide for us, but it may not always look like he'll never

716
00:57:36.920 --> 00:57:42.080
abandon us. He'll never leave us in a place of lack. It may just not. We have to

717
00:57:42.080 --> 00:57:51.440
be more open to, he invites us to receive his provision however it is he

718
00:57:51.440 --> 00:57:58.160
chooses to present it. So I mentioned that, and also the fact that nobody

719
00:57:58.160 --> 00:58:04.600
can get in the way of him providing that for us, and how he provides it might

720
00:58:04.600 --> 00:58:10.960
look a little different than we might expect. Does that answer any of it at all?

721
00:58:10.960 --> 00:58:18.120
Yeah, I think it helps a lot for sure. I have just been, and I have not gotten on this

722
00:58:18.120 --> 00:58:21.960
call, and I haven't updated for like weeks and weeks, but the last time I was

723
00:58:21.960 --> 00:58:28.160
on here I was talking about like my mom's health, yes, and walking in dominion over

724
00:58:28.160 --> 00:58:34.120
that, and my mom had her surgery three weeks ago, and she is so good. She's doing

725
00:58:34.680 --> 00:58:40.840
well, but I also really feel like if I had not listened to the Lord, and like

726
00:58:40.840 --> 00:58:45.960
commanded her body, and commanded her health, and commanded that that surgery

727
00:58:45.960 --> 00:58:49.440
came place, because that was, it wasn't like a supernatural healing. It was like

728
00:58:49.440 --> 00:58:53.560
the Lord was like, this is the surgeon, this is what we're doing, we're going this

729
00:58:53.560 --> 00:58:57.400
direction. Like I feel like if I would not have done it, I think she would have

730
00:58:57.400 --> 00:59:06.240
died for sure, and anyway, and so I'm feeling very, I mean I'm a little fiery

731
00:59:06.240 --> 00:59:11.000
anyway, but I'm also feeling very bold in a lot of these things, and so then when

732
00:59:11.000 --> 00:59:16.600
it comes up to the this issue of like I'm not with these personalities around,

733
00:59:16.600 --> 00:59:20.800
like I'm not gonna get what I want, there is something rising up inside of me

734
00:59:20.800 --> 00:59:26.400
that's like I will move you out of my way, but like when you bring up Joseph

735
00:59:26.400 --> 00:59:32.720
in prison, and yes the purposes of his life were not thwarted, but I'm like I'm

736
00:59:32.720 --> 00:59:37.680
not going to prison because you're in my way, or I'm not like I'm not getting

737
00:59:37.680 --> 00:59:43.520
something delayed because you in my way. I'll pick you up and move you, like so

738
00:59:43.520 --> 00:59:50.240
I'm working that out with the Lord, because it seems so rude to me. I just

739
00:59:50.240 --> 01:00:01.400
really want to be good a guy to people also, but I'm tired of, I'm tired of

740
01:00:00.000 --> 01:00:05.220
of accepting lack when I think I've really had provision in my life, but I've accepted

741
01:00:05.220 --> 01:00:15.560
lack because of like stronger personalities. And I've accepted like just going without

742
01:00:15.560 --> 01:00:22.440
when I could have had it, but I was like, well, okay, that's fine. You know? And I think

743
01:00:22.440 --> 01:00:28.600
like you were saying, Ashley, like, like feeling like it was the holier thing to give up what

744
01:00:28.600 --> 01:00:33.560
you wanted for someone else. And that kind of thing. It's such a, like the, like more

745
01:00:33.560 --> 01:00:41.200
of a whole mentality of works when it's like consider others above yourself and yeah, yes.

746
01:00:41.200 --> 01:00:45.880
But when it's something that you need or your heart's desire, you don't put away your relationship

747
01:00:45.880 --> 01:00:50.520
with the Lord to put somebody else first. Right? Like you don't give up your heart's

748
01:00:50.520 --> 01:00:54.640
desire for someone else's like preferences type of a thing. And so just like working

749
01:00:54.640 --> 01:00:57.920
that out. I mean, even like working that out in marriage, I have such a wonderful

750
01:00:57.920 --> 01:01:03.760
husband, but, and, but like sometimes I'm like, man, you are really spoiled rotten and

751
01:01:03.760 --> 01:01:14.000
that's my fault, you know? And so, um, I don't know, just walking that, um, through and,

752
01:01:14.000 --> 01:01:21.160
and just really trying to, yeah. To see, to see what that looks like with like with authority.

753
01:01:22.160 --> 01:01:28.440
Yeah. Am I rambling? I feel like I'm rambling. No, no, all of that makes sense. So, um, yeah,

754
01:01:28.440 --> 01:01:33.040
for, so one of the things is again, you know, making sure that we're, um, being in a place

755
01:01:33.040 --> 01:01:39.160
of, uh, being in a place of rest. Um, we understand that we're not, we're not in,

756
01:01:39.160 --> 01:01:44.520
we're not being threatened. It can feel like we're being threatened. It's like they are,

757
01:01:44.520 --> 01:01:48.960
you know, I'm going to move you out of the way and you're in the way that that's this

758
01:01:48.960 --> 01:01:52.640
feeling that we're, that we're threatened. And why do we feel it? We threatened. It means

759
01:01:52.640 --> 01:01:57.280
that we feel that we're in a place of luck and that God is not going to provide or protect

760
01:01:57.280 --> 01:02:02.960
us. And therefore it's up to us to create it. It's up to us to grab hold of this situation

761
01:02:02.960 --> 01:02:08.840
before the whole dadgum thing falls apart, you know? And so it's, so it doesn't mean

762
01:02:08.840 --> 01:02:13.400
that God won't have us do something. My point is that if we shift into rest and remember,

763
01:02:13.400 --> 01:02:18.200
okay, wait a minute, I'm not under threat. So now that I'm not under threat and now that

764
01:02:18.200 --> 01:02:23.800
God will, God will fight my battles for me. And God is the one who can move in and intervene

765
01:02:23.800 --> 01:02:28.360
in spiritual and supernatural ways where I don't have to say anything and I don't have

766
01:02:28.360 --> 01:02:33.320
to do anything and he'll change the whole situation for me. So now that I know that

767
01:02:33.320 --> 01:02:38.720
and now that I actually believe it and I just let go and I, uh, that what, what is that

768
01:02:38.720 --> 01:02:44.520
that cliche? Oh, I haven't, I haven't heard that in a while. The let go and let God, um,

769
01:02:44.520 --> 01:02:49.720
which really, you know, a majority of people just took that as giving up, which is very

770
01:02:49.720 --> 01:02:54.920
sad. But anyway, so just, just letting go and understanding, okay, God's going to provide

771
01:02:54.920 --> 01:02:59.200
for and protect me. Now that I know that God's going to provide for and protect me, what

772
01:02:59.200 --> 01:03:04.240
do, do he and I want to do together? What is in the father's heart and what now do I

773
01:03:04.240 --> 01:03:09.720
do? Is there some activity that he wants me to do? Does, does taking dominion over the

774
01:03:09.720 --> 01:03:15.400
situation mean to actually say something? Does it mean in this situation in the father's

775
01:03:15.400 --> 01:03:19.640
heart, now that I know that I'm not under threat, now that I'm in a place of rest, I

776
01:03:19.640 --> 01:03:24.920
can see things from his perspective, from the perspective of, because being one with

777
01:03:24.920 --> 01:03:32.280
God, I am love. I am goodness. I am righteousness. And that is what comes out of me. I am a life

778
01:03:32.280 --> 01:03:38.720
giving spirit. So now that I know I'm a life giving spirit and, and I'm, I act and look

779
01:03:38.720 --> 01:03:43.880
just like my father, what does my father, what is my father's heart in this situation?

780
01:03:43.880 --> 01:03:49.840
And is my father's heart in the situation to speak a particular truth that, um, that,

781
01:03:49.840 --> 01:03:57.800
uh, but obviously in love and righteousness and whatever that to someone else that, Hey,

782
01:03:57.800 --> 01:04:02.000
you know, you're, you're not gonna, and bad way to phrase this, but you're not going to

783
01:04:02.000 --> 01:04:06.600
put up with this. And, and this is going to be a different way. Not that you're not going

784
01:04:06.600 --> 01:04:10.080
to put up with it, but that's the old, that's the old mindset version of what it is I'm

785
01:04:10.080 --> 01:04:14.960
talking about. Basically that we're just let people know where, you know, what it is that

786
01:04:14.960 --> 01:04:20.200
we are and are not going to allow, you know, or that they can do, you know, whatever, but

787
01:04:20.200 --> 01:04:23.960
you're not going to be a part. They're begging you and they're pressuring you to be a part

788
01:04:23.960 --> 01:04:29.040
of something. I'm not going to be a part. So I'm, so when I talk about moving into rest

789
01:04:29.040 --> 01:04:32.680
and the fact that God is going to provide for and protect us, it does not mean that

790
01:04:32.680 --> 01:04:39.520
he won't have us be a part of something he wants to actually have said and done in the

791
01:04:39.520 --> 01:04:45.120
physical world. But if we say, and we do it from a place of, of our soul, from our body,

792
01:04:45.120 --> 01:04:52.880
where we believe that it's up to us, that's when things can get, that's when we have inserted

793
01:04:52.880 --> 01:05:00.000
something into this situation that can create more chaos, more, um, uh, relational discord.

794
01:05:00.000 --> 01:05:03.240
or destruction, in other words.

795
01:05:03.240 --> 01:05:07.480
So I just wanted to point out that shifting into rest

796
01:05:07.480 --> 01:05:09.040
and believing and trusting the Father

797
01:05:09.040 --> 01:05:10.100
that the Father's gonna provide

798
01:05:10.100 --> 01:05:12.840
does not mean that we're not going to say or do things,

799
01:05:12.840 --> 01:05:15.080
but it means that we're gonna say or do it

800
01:05:15.080 --> 01:05:16.920
from the Father's heart.

801
01:05:16.920 --> 01:05:18.920
And the only way we can get into the Father's heart,

802
01:05:18.920 --> 01:05:21.400
which is everything is said and done from love and truth,

803
01:05:21.400 --> 01:05:24.600
God's Jesus spoke some very serious words to the Pharisees.

804
01:05:24.600 --> 01:05:26.440
He called them vipers, for goodness sake.

805
01:05:26.440 --> 01:05:28.320
So if Jesus can call them vipers,

806
01:05:28.320 --> 01:05:30.880
and he can overturn the tables

807
01:05:30.880 --> 01:05:33.120
of the money changers in the temple,

808
01:05:33.120 --> 01:05:35.280
he might call us to do certain things.

809
01:05:35.280 --> 01:05:38.120
But the important thing is doing it from the Father's heart,

810
01:05:38.120 --> 01:05:40.800
from which vantage point, from which perspective

811
01:05:40.800 --> 01:05:45.480
that a spiritual power and dominion

812
01:05:45.480 --> 01:05:49.000
and the releasing of creation from frustration

813
01:05:49.000 --> 01:05:52.520
and from chaos and from fear is what will come,

814
01:05:52.520 --> 01:05:56.360
as opposed to us being down in the middle of creation

815
01:05:56.360 --> 01:05:58.000
as another creature,

816
01:05:58.000 --> 01:06:00.960
dicking it out and may the best man,

817
01:06:00.960 --> 01:06:03.200
may the best and most powerful man win.

818
01:06:03.200 --> 01:06:04.920
There's no life in it.

819
01:06:04.920 --> 01:06:05.800
There's no spirit.

820
01:06:05.800 --> 01:06:07.560
There's no heart of God in it.

821
01:06:07.560 --> 01:06:09.800
And it's from the tree of the knowledge of good and evil,

822
01:06:09.800 --> 01:06:11.840
and that can bring nothing but death.

823
01:06:11.840 --> 01:06:14.560
So I wanted to point out that rest does not mean

824
01:06:14.560 --> 01:06:16.240
that he won't have you say or do something.

825
01:06:16.240 --> 01:06:18.800
It means that it'll be from a different heart.

826
01:06:18.800 --> 01:06:19.840
Yeah.

827
01:06:19.840 --> 01:06:22.680
Yeah, I'm fine with saying and doing things.

828
01:06:22.680 --> 01:06:24.560
I don't like, that's not,

829
01:06:25.520 --> 01:06:28.480
like I don't feel timid about that kind of thing.

830
01:06:28.480 --> 01:06:33.480
I just, I don't know.

831
01:06:33.720 --> 01:06:34.560
I think-

832
01:06:34.560 --> 01:06:36.960
I just didn't want you to think that I was saying that.

833
01:06:36.960 --> 01:06:37.800
No.

834
01:06:37.800 --> 01:06:40.560
Resting in the Lord meant that you don't say or do things.

835
01:06:40.560 --> 01:06:41.400
Yes.

836
01:06:41.400 --> 01:06:42.240
Yes.

837
01:06:42.240 --> 01:06:46.440
I think too, like I'm more of a naturally like content

838
01:06:46.440 --> 01:06:47.720
and happy person.

839
01:06:47.720 --> 01:06:50.760
So I'm like, well, okay, well, that's fine too.

840
01:06:50.760 --> 01:06:53.920
But there are some certain situations

841
01:06:53.920 --> 01:06:55.360
with certain people that I'm like,

842
01:06:55.360 --> 01:06:58.160
man, when you are around,

843
01:06:58.160 --> 01:07:03.160
I never get like what I would like in big scenarios.

844
01:07:04.360 --> 01:07:05.200
You know?

845
01:07:05.200 --> 01:07:06.040
Yeah, I know.

846
01:07:06.040 --> 01:07:06.880
I know.

847
01:07:06.880 --> 01:07:07.720
Yeah.

848
01:07:07.720 --> 01:07:08.560
Yeah.

849
01:07:09.480 --> 01:07:11.400
Oh, I wanted to say, Katherine,

850
01:07:11.400 --> 01:07:13.400
you asked me like if it's a question of boundaries.

851
01:07:13.400 --> 01:07:16.280
I don't think so.

852
01:07:16.280 --> 01:07:18.440
I would have certainly said that about myself,

853
01:07:18.440 --> 01:07:21.360
like in my teens or early 20s or something like that.

854
01:07:21.360 --> 01:07:26.360
But I'm pretty firm about stuff like that.

855
01:07:27.760 --> 01:07:28.920
So I think it's okay.

856
01:07:28.920 --> 01:07:30.240
I don't think it's boundaries.

857
01:07:30.240 --> 01:07:31.400
I think it's,

858
01:07:33.320 --> 01:07:35.240
well, I guess I'm just not sure, am I?

859
01:07:36.960 --> 01:07:37.920
So.

860
01:07:37.920 --> 01:07:40.600
Did you get my, I sent you a message,

861
01:07:40.600 --> 01:07:41.440
but I didn't-

862
01:07:41.440 --> 01:07:42.280
Yes, I saw that too.

863
01:07:42.280 --> 01:07:44.760
And I don't mind talking about that.

864
01:07:44.760 --> 01:07:48.040
So Elaine, do you say Elena?

865
01:07:48.040 --> 01:07:49.160
No, Alana.

866
01:07:49.160 --> 01:07:50.000
Alana.

867
01:07:50.000 --> 01:07:51.080
Okay, thank you.

868
01:07:51.800 --> 01:07:53.080
Okay, so Alana asked me,

869
01:07:53.080 --> 01:07:57.120
she was curious when in my life have I not felt provided for

870
01:07:57.120 --> 01:07:58.600
or listened to?

871
01:07:58.600 --> 01:07:59.720
Is this feeling a pattern

872
01:07:59.720 --> 01:08:01.560
that's come up throughout your life?

873
01:08:01.560 --> 01:08:02.400
Yeah.

874
01:08:02.400 --> 01:08:04.000
Yeah, I would say for sure.

875
01:08:04.000 --> 01:08:05.760
Like, yes, definitely.

876
01:08:07.200 --> 01:08:09.800
I also feel like I've dealt with it a lot

877
01:08:09.800 --> 01:08:12.720
and I've had a lot of freedom from it,

878
01:08:12.720 --> 01:08:15.200
especially like money-wise,

879
01:08:15.200 --> 01:08:20.200
like a poverty mentality or not being heard.

880
01:08:20.960 --> 01:08:25.960
I've always been in like more like masculine

881
01:08:26.040 --> 01:08:27.479
business arenas and jobs.

882
01:08:27.479 --> 01:08:29.680
Like I've always kind of been surrounded by men.

883
01:08:29.680 --> 01:08:34.479
So have felt unhurt about that,

884
01:08:34.479 --> 01:08:37.840
but have dealt with it like, you know, that kind of thing.

885
01:08:39.640 --> 01:08:42.279
So yeah, I think it's a pattern.

886
01:08:42.279 --> 01:08:45.960
And what I really see in this scenario

887
01:08:45.960 --> 01:08:49.520
is that it has become more of a wound.

888
01:08:49.560 --> 01:08:50.800
So instead of something like,

889
01:08:50.800 --> 01:08:53.319
okay, I'm just gonna have to speak up for myself,

890
01:08:53.319 --> 01:08:55.640
which is what my dad taught me to speak up for myself.

891
01:08:55.640 --> 01:08:59.680
So I have very strong, loving, supportive father figure.

892
01:09:02.000 --> 01:09:06.319
But now in my husband's family, he has to,

893
01:09:06.319 --> 01:09:09.479
and not to give too many like family details

894
01:09:09.479 --> 01:09:11.279
that are like, you know, drag y'all into this,

895
01:09:11.279 --> 01:09:13.880
but like, so my two sister-in-laws

896
01:09:13.880 --> 01:09:16.279
are more of like a spirit of Jezebel

897
01:09:16.279 --> 01:09:20.080
and maybe even like a spirit of Leviathan.

898
01:09:20.080 --> 01:09:22.880
Whatever you say, they hear it differently

899
01:09:22.880 --> 01:09:26.640
and you be danged if you do not go,

900
01:09:26.640 --> 01:09:28.560
and they will make your life miserable

901
01:09:28.560 --> 01:09:30.600
if you don't go along with them.

902
01:09:30.600 --> 01:09:34.520
So then I'm coming in as a similar age female

903
01:09:34.520 --> 01:09:36.880
asking for things from my husband

904
01:09:36.880 --> 01:09:40.880
or from my in-laws in various situations.

905
01:09:40.880 --> 01:09:43.399
But if I press the issue,

906
01:09:43.399 --> 01:09:47.279
all their wounds show up from dealing with the sister.

907
01:09:47.279 --> 01:09:49.359
So then it feels like this is not worth it

908
01:09:49.359 --> 01:09:52.000
to wound them or to hurt them in these ways.

909
01:09:52.000 --> 01:09:54.240
They have no skillset to deal with this.

910
01:09:54.240 --> 01:09:57.280
They have no inner healing to like get over this.

911
01:09:57.280 --> 01:09:58.720
It'll ruin our relationship

912
01:09:58.720 --> 01:10:00.680
because they won't know how to respond.

913
01:10:00.000 --> 01:10:05.000
to me in love, it won't matter what I do afterwards, like it's just going to blow up for them.

914
01:10:05.000 --> 01:10:11.160
And I really love them and don't want to blow things up and don't need, I don't, okay, I

915
01:10:11.160 --> 01:10:12.160
don't need this.

916
01:10:12.160 --> 01:10:13.160
I don't need to blow this up.

917
01:10:13.160 --> 01:10:15.160
Why would I, why would I make this an issue?

918
01:10:15.160 --> 01:10:20.800
But then walking away from it and internally being like, man, I really wanted that scenario

919
01:10:20.800 --> 01:10:24.440
to play out or that was actually really important to me.

920
01:10:24.440 --> 01:10:29.080
And I felt like the Lord handed it to me, but I looked at them and went, okay, okay,

921
01:10:29.080 --> 01:10:30.080
that's fine.

922
01:10:30.080 --> 01:10:31.080
You know?

923
01:10:31.080 --> 01:10:37.920
So wanting to not walk in that anymore and being like, things might blow up a few times

924
01:10:37.920 --> 01:10:42.400
and that might give, give opportunity for them to have inner healing and you know, that

925
01:10:42.400 --> 01:10:43.400
kind of a thing.

926
01:10:43.400 --> 01:10:51.920
And so, um, wanting to walk through that really well, but also in my spirit, man, just being

927
01:10:51.920 --> 01:10:54.760
like, and I'm done with this.

928
01:10:54.760 --> 01:10:55.840
Okay.

929
01:10:55.840 --> 01:10:56.840
See you guys later.

930
01:10:57.240 --> 01:11:01.760
I just need to walk in my authority and walk with the Lord in this and get what's needed

931
01:11:01.760 --> 01:11:04.120
because I think it's heavier.

932
01:11:04.120 --> 01:11:05.120
Okay.

933
01:11:05.120 --> 01:11:06.120
Anyway.

934
01:11:06.120 --> 01:11:08.280
So that's sort of the basics of that.

935
01:11:08.280 --> 01:11:16.000
And so I think now it's turned into a wound and, um.

936
01:11:16.000 --> 01:11:21.120
Do you feel like you can't use your voice or speak your truth when you're around them?

937
01:11:21.120 --> 01:11:24.000
No, no, I can.

938
01:11:24.000 --> 01:11:31.480
But I know that when they hear it, they feel instead of like, oh, this is important to

939
01:11:31.480 --> 01:11:32.480
Holly.

940
01:11:32.480 --> 01:11:33.480
Okay.

941
01:11:33.480 --> 01:11:35.920
It's like, oh dear God.

942
01:11:35.920 --> 01:11:37.000
Okay.

943
01:11:37.000 --> 01:11:41.360
Everybody do what she says or else not because I've ever treated them like that.

944
01:11:41.360 --> 01:11:47.440
I have not, but because they have been treated like that by their own daughters.

945
01:11:47.440 --> 01:11:53.960
And so I come in as the daughter and so it's, that's the only sound they hear.

946
01:11:54.920 --> 01:11:57.200
It's the only decibel they hear is like demand.

947
01:11:57.200 --> 01:12:02.120
And then it turns into eggshells for a year and you're like, I feel like I'm constantly

948
01:12:02.120 --> 01:12:09.200
trying to restore something for them just because of whatever I said a year ago.

949
01:12:09.200 --> 01:12:10.200
Yeah.

950
01:12:10.200 --> 01:12:14.600
Um, so I don't know if you saw in the chat, but I, I've had quite a bit of experience

951
01:12:14.600 --> 01:12:15.600
with that spirit.

952
01:12:15.600 --> 01:12:17.720
Like, yeah, Leviathan.

953
01:12:17.720 --> 01:12:18.720
Yes.

954
01:12:18.720 --> 01:12:23.920
Um, my mom carries both of them very intensely and your intro video.

955
01:12:24.880 --> 01:12:25.880
Yeah.

956
01:12:25.880 --> 01:12:26.880
Yeah.

957
01:12:26.880 --> 01:12:27.880
Okay.

958
01:12:27.880 --> 01:12:31.200
Um, so I was just going to say the only thing that I, the only way I've ever found success

959
01:12:31.200 --> 01:12:34.960
or I'll just tell you what the Lord told me that like, got me to leave that situation.

960
01:12:34.960 --> 01:12:42.120
I'm not saying you need to leave this situation, but the message was like, he told me she needs

961
01:12:42.120 --> 01:12:43.760
to learn to rely on me.

962
01:12:43.760 --> 01:12:49.080
And it was the message of like, you have to let go of trying to manage her world.

963
01:12:50.080 --> 01:12:54.120
So what I hear a little bit and you being like, if I say this, they're going to take

964
01:12:54.120 --> 01:12:59.760
it that way is you're, you're, you're keeping them from hurt.

965
01:12:59.760 --> 01:13:06.200
And that is, I mean, Ashley, you can correct me if I'm like overstepping here, but that's

966
01:13:06.200 --> 01:13:10.160
where it's not your responsibility.

967
01:13:10.160 --> 01:13:15.360
And that doesn't mean you are snotty, but you don't seem like that kind of a person.

968
01:13:15.360 --> 01:13:22.640
Like it doesn't mean that you have to go in hard and heavy, but you, you just are who

969
01:13:22.640 --> 01:13:24.360
you are.

970
01:13:24.360 --> 01:13:31.800
And then the chips, like not you, not honoring your heart is kind of like you trying to control

971
01:13:31.800 --> 01:13:37.840
the situation by not rocking the boat instead of letting yourself fully show up.

972
01:13:37.840 --> 01:13:44.720
And then whatever happens happens, which I know is hard because it was chaos, especially

973
01:13:44.720 --> 01:13:45.720
with that spirit.

974
01:13:45.720 --> 01:13:46.720
Yes.

975
01:13:46.720 --> 01:13:57.440
But yeah, I think you can just let go and you have the right to say what you want and

976
01:13:57.440 --> 01:14:04.720
what you need, especially if it's like, and you know, like for me, it was always when

977
01:14:04.720 --> 01:14:08.120
I walked away and I felt violated.

978
01:14:08.120 --> 01:14:12.840
That was when I gave away something that I shouldn't have given away.

979
01:14:12.840 --> 01:14:14.920
You know, there are things that don't matter.

980
01:14:14.920 --> 01:14:20.320
Like what we have for dinner or whatever, you know, like if it's something that is really

981
01:14:20.320 --> 01:14:25.720
close to your heart and you have like almost cried three times, you know, like, I just

982
01:14:25.720 --> 01:14:30.960
think the Lord doesn't want you to, to be in that spot.

983
01:14:30.960 --> 01:14:31.960
Yeah.

984
01:14:31.960 --> 01:14:37.640
That's why I was asking about your voice, because when Ashley was talking, I felt like

985
01:14:37.640 --> 01:14:42.520
one thing she was saying, like maybe you feel confident using your voice, but in that situation,

986
01:14:43.200 --> 01:14:46.280
I don't know, maybe not as confident using your voice because you're afraid of rocking

987
01:14:46.280 --> 01:14:50.680
the boat and you want to keep the peace in a sense, which is nice, but it's at your own

988
01:14:50.680 --> 01:14:51.680
expense.

989
01:14:51.680 --> 01:14:57.560
So when Ashley was saying about, and I can't word it in the exact same way, but kind of

990
01:14:57.560 --> 01:15:00.040
like going into that spirit realm and like.

991
01:15:00.000 --> 01:15:02.840
like sort of, I would say, in my words,

992
01:15:02.840 --> 01:15:04.420
like kind of talking to God about it

993
01:15:04.420 --> 01:15:07.180
and asking him for his wisdom in those situations

994
01:15:07.180 --> 01:15:10.460
and what he would have you say or be like

995
01:15:10.460 --> 01:15:11.600
or do or whatever it is.

996
01:15:11.600 --> 01:15:14.820
And Ashley could probably explain it way better than me,

997
01:15:14.820 --> 01:15:17.620
but you said something along those lines, right, Ashley?

998
01:15:18.860 --> 01:15:22.020
About which piece specifically?

999
01:15:22.020 --> 01:15:23.780
About asking God about it?

1000
01:15:23.780 --> 01:15:26.940
Kind of like, yeah, going to the Lord and just saying,

1001
01:15:26.940 --> 01:15:29.860
here's where I'm at, here's what I'm feeling,

1002
01:15:29.900 --> 01:15:34.820
and what would you have me do or be or say,

1003
01:15:34.820 --> 01:15:37.460
or kind of going into that,

1004
01:15:37.460 --> 01:15:40.700
just kind of consulting the Spirit and asking.

1005
01:15:40.700 --> 01:15:43.020
I don't know how you would word it, though.

1006
01:15:43.020 --> 01:15:45.580
Yeah, so like what you're talking about,

1007
01:15:45.580 --> 01:15:48.340
where you, because we're one with the Father's heart,

1008
01:15:48.340 --> 01:15:49.580
or one with the Father,

1009
01:15:49.580 --> 01:15:54.340
and in relationship, we each bring ourselves to the table.

1010
01:15:54.340 --> 01:15:56.740
So we bring ourselves to the Lord, he brings him,

1011
01:15:56.740 --> 01:15:58.020
so we listen to himself,

1012
01:15:58.020 --> 01:16:01.260
so we listen to what is in the heart of the Father.

1013
01:16:01.260 --> 01:16:03.140
And because we're shifted into rest,

1014
01:16:03.140 --> 01:16:04.880
meaning that we're now abiding in him,

1015
01:16:04.880 --> 01:16:06.540
fully understanding we're one with him,

1016
01:16:06.540 --> 01:16:10.380
we sense what his character is

1017
01:16:10.380 --> 01:16:12.860
and how he feels about the situation,

1018
01:16:12.860 --> 01:16:15.980
what he desires as an outcome of the situation,

1019
01:16:15.980 --> 01:16:18.700
not even just long-term, but in the moment,

1020
01:16:18.700 --> 01:16:21.780
what is his heart for currently the situation,

1021
01:16:21.780 --> 01:16:26.100
that how things need to manifest as heaven into earth,

1022
01:16:26.140 --> 01:16:31.100
and what part that he desires you, Holly,

1023
01:16:31.100 --> 01:16:35.420
to partake in how it manifests into heaven into earth,

1024
01:16:35.420 --> 01:16:37.500
because it says that heaven is the Lord's

1025
01:16:37.500 --> 01:16:38.980
and the earth was given to man.

1026
01:16:38.980 --> 01:16:41.860
So he desires you to manifest that heaven into earth.

1027
01:16:41.860 --> 01:16:43.380
So what is it that your heart,

1028
01:16:43.380 --> 01:16:45.900
that your Father's heart desires you to manifest

1029
01:16:45.900 --> 01:16:48.980
into the, of what's in heaven into the earth,

1030
01:16:48.980 --> 01:16:52.020
and then to speak, or to do, or to say, or whatever.

1031
01:16:52.020 --> 01:16:53.780
But it's interesting, in the chat,

1032
01:16:53.780 --> 01:16:56.700
Steph, you brought up a really neat, neat story.

1033
01:16:56.700 --> 01:16:58.420
I was very excited for you.

1034
01:16:58.420 --> 01:17:00.420
She was talking about the fact that,

1035
01:17:00.420 --> 01:17:05.420
and that sometimes we're used in our families

1036
01:17:06.020 --> 01:17:09.100
as a catalyst, where we look like the bad guy.

1037
01:17:10.020 --> 01:17:11.300
We look like the bad guy

1038
01:17:11.300 --> 01:17:13.980
because we're the one that rocked the boat.

1039
01:17:13.980 --> 01:17:17.660
And there are several ways, actually, in my family,

1040
01:17:17.660 --> 01:17:21.580
that I was shocked to discover that I'm seen

1041
01:17:21.580 --> 01:17:23.580
as someone who rocks the boat in the family.

1042
01:17:24.380 --> 01:17:25.820
And I'm like, me?

1043
01:17:25.820 --> 01:17:28.100
But apparently I'm the one seen like that.

1044
01:17:28.100 --> 01:17:29.940
But, for various things.

1045
01:17:29.940 --> 01:17:32.420
But it can, that that person who does that,

1046
01:17:32.420 --> 01:17:36.700
and can, what does it say?

1047
01:17:36.700 --> 01:17:38.020
Steph says she's a hurricane

1048
01:17:38.020 --> 01:17:40.500
when it comes to rocking the boat in her family.

1049
01:17:40.500 --> 01:17:42.580
Because Steph is really brave,

1050
01:17:42.580 --> 01:17:44.940
and it took her a very long time,

1051
01:17:44.940 --> 01:17:46.460
in the conversations that I've had with her,

1052
01:17:46.460 --> 01:17:48.620
it took her a very long time to get to the point

1053
01:17:48.620 --> 01:17:50.980
where she was finally willing to do that.

1054
01:17:50.980 --> 01:17:52.980
But anyway, the thing that she was just wanting

1055
01:17:52.980 --> 01:17:55.100
to encourage us with is the fact

1056
01:17:55.100 --> 01:17:58.660
that sometimes we're used, and I think I used this,

1057
01:17:58.660 --> 01:18:01.140
oh yeah, did I use this, that term with you,

1058
01:18:01.140 --> 01:18:02.540
Steph, when I was talking to you,

1059
01:18:02.540 --> 01:18:04.540
about that we're used as a catalyst.

1060
01:18:04.540 --> 01:18:08.180
We're used as the thing that's dropped in the,

1061
01:18:08.180 --> 01:18:11.580
that's my list of, I know, that a catalyst,

1062
01:18:11.580 --> 01:18:13.380
we're so often used as a son of God,

1063
01:18:13.380 --> 01:18:14.700
as a catalyst in the situation.

1064
01:18:14.700 --> 01:18:16.660
Okay, so I did, so I talked to you about that.

1065
01:18:16.660 --> 01:18:19.340
Because that was something the Lord used with me.

1066
01:18:19.340 --> 01:18:21.700
I was in a situation where I was just,

1067
01:18:21.700 --> 01:18:25.500
everything was blowing up, and I was in the middle of it.

1068
01:18:25.500 --> 01:18:28.820
And I thought, how on earth did someone like me,

1069
01:18:28.820 --> 01:18:32.140
who didn't do anything, how on earth is everybody

1070
01:18:32.140 --> 01:18:34.220
looking at me, like the storm is blowing up,

1071
01:18:34.220 --> 01:18:37.980
and it's revolving around me, and I didn't do anything.

1072
01:18:37.980 --> 01:18:40.100
Someone else instigated it, and it looked at me,

1073
01:18:40.100 --> 01:18:41.660
and everybody else looked at me,

1074
01:18:41.660 --> 01:18:43.580
and like, what's going on, Lord?

1075
01:18:43.580 --> 01:18:45.860
And it's like, Lord, this isn't fair,

1076
01:18:45.860 --> 01:18:47.580
why am I being villainized, et cetera.

1077
01:18:47.580 --> 01:18:50.700
And for the first time, this was several years ago,

1078
01:18:50.700 --> 01:18:51.860
the Lord told me, he said, Ashley,

1079
01:18:51.860 --> 01:18:54.660
because I put you in this situation as a catalyst.

1080
01:18:54.660 --> 01:18:58.340
He said, the issue was already there.

1081
01:18:58.340 --> 01:19:00.780
The issue was always there, it had nothing to do with you,

1082
01:19:00.780 --> 01:19:03.020
it was in all of these other people.

1083
01:19:03.020 --> 01:19:05.180
But he said, I dropped you into it,

1084
01:19:05.180 --> 01:19:08.540
because he said, I knew I had prepared you as a catalyst,

1085
01:19:08.540 --> 01:19:13.100
meaning as a metal, or as an element,

1086
01:19:13.100 --> 01:19:16.140
that could not, that could be inserted in the situation

1087
01:19:16.140 --> 01:19:19.180
without being corrupted by the situation.

1088
01:19:19.620 --> 01:19:22.860
Because he said, I needed a trigger to trigger everybody,

1089
01:19:22.860 --> 01:19:26.140
because no matter what, no matter how bad things

1090
01:19:26.140 --> 01:19:27.900
were getting in their situation,

1091
01:19:27.900 --> 01:19:31.220
they weren't, things weren't coming to a head.

1092
01:19:31.220 --> 01:19:33.340
They weren't fixing it, they weren't changing it,

1093
01:19:33.340 --> 01:19:35.060
and so he said, I dropped you in it,

1094
01:19:35.060 --> 01:19:36.700
because I knew that you could be put

1095
01:19:36.700 --> 01:19:39.100
in the middle of a situation, and you wouldn't be affected,

1096
01:19:39.100 --> 01:19:42.540
but it would finally be the thing that triggered everybody.

1097
01:19:42.540 --> 01:19:44.980
So, so I was talking to Steph about that

1098
01:19:44.980 --> 01:19:47.620
when she was struggling, you know, issues with her family,

1099
01:19:47.620 --> 01:19:50.380
and she's just like, I'm just frustrated, Ashley,

1100
01:19:50.380 --> 01:19:52.500
this isn't fair, you know,

1101
01:19:52.500 --> 01:19:53.900
these aren't the words that she used,

1102
01:19:53.900 --> 01:19:55.220
I'm just like talking about like,

1103
01:19:55.220 --> 01:19:56.980
because we had multiple conversations

1104
01:19:56.980 --> 01:19:58.340
for multiple hours, you know, about this,

1105
01:19:58.340 --> 01:20:00.380
but I'm just kind of like summing it up.

1106
01:20:00.000 --> 01:20:02.680
It's like, why am I seen as the bad guy?

1107
01:20:02.680 --> 01:20:05.440
Why did I, why didn't somebody else bring this up?

1108
01:20:05.440 --> 01:20:07.360
Why does it have to be me that brings it up?

1109
01:20:07.360 --> 01:20:08.640
Because now everyone's looking at me

1110
01:20:08.640 --> 01:20:11.040
as if I've caused the problem,

1111
01:20:11.040 --> 01:20:14.320
based off of the fact that everybody else has these issues.

1112
01:20:14.320 --> 01:20:18.320
And because I'm the one who's drawing,

1113
01:20:18.320 --> 01:20:21.000
and I'm the one who's shedding light

1114
01:20:21.000 --> 01:20:22.800
on the fact that there's these issues.

1115
01:20:22.800 --> 01:20:24.740
I'm the one that sees the problem,

1116
01:20:24.740 --> 01:20:27.280
when they're the ones who are all creating the problem.

1117
01:20:27.280 --> 01:20:28.520
So, you know, why me?

1118
01:20:28.520 --> 01:20:30.320
And so I was encouraging Rose,

1119
01:20:30.320 --> 01:20:33.120
because God knew that he could put you in it,

1120
01:20:33.120 --> 01:20:35.000
and he could protect you,

1121
01:20:35.000 --> 01:20:38.400
and you could be unaffected by everybody else's,

1122
01:20:38.400 --> 01:20:41.000
their turmoil, their unsettledness,

1123
01:20:41.000 --> 01:20:44.960
their venom, and all of that.

1124
01:20:44.960 --> 01:20:49.160
But it can feel unfair when you're in it,

1125
01:20:49.160 --> 01:20:51.960
and you're not the problem.

1126
01:20:51.960 --> 01:20:55.560
So just as a reminder of what a catalyst is, chemically,

1127
01:20:55.560 --> 01:20:58.120
catalyst is a thing that you put into a substance,

1128
01:20:58.720 --> 01:20:59.560
like say, for instance,

1129
01:20:59.560 --> 01:21:01.680
you have two atoms, sodium and chloride,

1130
01:21:02.600 --> 01:21:04.440
have sodium and chloride,

1131
01:21:04.440 --> 01:21:05.760
and until you combine them,

1132
01:21:05.760 --> 01:21:09.480
and I don't remember if this is the exact two elements

1133
01:21:09.480 --> 01:21:11.040
that have to have a catalyst.

1134
01:21:11.040 --> 01:21:11.920
There are certain elements

1135
01:21:11.920 --> 01:21:14.520
that can literally be side by side in each other,

1136
01:21:14.520 --> 01:21:16.720
each other in a beaker or in a jar,

1137
01:21:16.720 --> 01:21:19.360
and they will not interact.

1138
01:21:19.360 --> 01:21:20.880
They just sit next to each other.

1139
01:21:20.880 --> 01:21:23.400
You'd have a pile of sodium,

1140
01:21:23.400 --> 01:21:25.960
or certain atoms in another pile

1141
01:21:25.960 --> 01:21:28.080
of different element and atoms.

1142
01:21:28.920 --> 01:21:30.400
But when you put a catalyst in the middle of them,

1143
01:21:30.400 --> 01:21:31.560
all of a sudden it triggers them

1144
01:21:31.560 --> 01:21:33.520
so that there's two elements

1145
01:21:33.520 --> 01:21:36.200
who've been sitting there perfectly fine together,

1146
01:21:36.200 --> 01:21:38.880
all of a sudden interact with each other,

1147
01:21:38.880 --> 01:21:41.240
and they become a totally different substance.

1148
01:21:41.240 --> 01:21:43.000
And you pull the catalyst out,

1149
01:21:43.000 --> 01:21:45.240
and it's completely unaffected.

1150
01:21:45.240 --> 01:21:47.880
So it's not like the catalyst ions

1151
01:21:47.880 --> 01:21:50.720
that were the totally third element

1152
01:21:50.720 --> 01:21:52.360
that you've added to the whole situation.

1153
01:21:52.360 --> 01:21:53.440
It's not that.

1154
01:21:53.440 --> 01:21:58.000
They combine molecules and get separated and all of that.

1155
01:21:58.680 --> 01:22:01.680
It's that the two things

1156
01:22:01.680 --> 01:22:03.880
that were already present interacted,

1157
01:22:03.880 --> 01:22:05.240
and then you pull the catalyst out,

1158
01:22:05.240 --> 01:22:06.480
and it's unaffected.

1159
01:22:06.480 --> 01:22:10.280
And then the whole situation and environment was changed

1160
01:22:10.280 --> 01:22:13.520
simply because the catalyst was present.

1161
01:22:13.520 --> 01:22:15.640
And that is what so many people,

1162
01:22:15.640 --> 01:22:17.720
like you, Holly, maybe,

1163
01:22:17.720 --> 01:22:19.480
are being called to by the Lord to do that.

1164
01:22:19.480 --> 01:22:21.160
I was called to do that in my family.

1165
01:22:21.160 --> 01:22:23.000
Steph's called that to do it in hers.

1166
01:22:24.480 --> 01:22:27.920
And so I just wanna encourage you that it's a great,

1167
01:22:28.760 --> 01:22:32.560
it means that you,

1168
01:22:32.560 --> 01:22:35.480
if the Lord does call you to do that,

1169
01:22:35.480 --> 01:22:38.400
it's hard to be in that situation.

1170
01:22:38.400 --> 01:22:41.680
But know that it's, yes, it's an honor,

1171
01:22:41.680 --> 01:22:44.720
but it's a compliment

1172
01:22:45.720 --> 01:22:49.480
that you are prepared by the Lord

1173
01:22:49.480 --> 01:22:51.920
that he's like, I know I can trust Holly.

1174
01:22:51.920 --> 01:22:56.320
I can trust my reputation in Holly's hands in that family.

1175
01:22:56.320 --> 01:22:57.560
Because when they look at Holly,

1176
01:22:58.200 --> 01:22:59.040
they see God.

1177
01:22:59.040 --> 01:22:59.880
When they look at Holly,

1178
01:22:59.880 --> 01:23:00.720
they see the Father's heart

1179
01:23:00.720 --> 01:23:01.840
in a way that they haven't seen it.

1180
01:23:01.840 --> 01:23:03.600
You know, like acting out in real life.

1181
01:23:03.600 --> 01:23:05.040
They hear about it from a preacher.

1182
01:23:05.040 --> 01:23:06.960
They hear about it here, that, and the other.

1183
01:23:06.960 --> 01:23:08.160
They read about it in the Bible.

1184
01:23:08.160 --> 01:23:10.360
But to watch it in living form,

1185
01:23:10.360 --> 01:23:13.600
and to see what Jesus would do if he was in their midst

1186
01:23:13.600 --> 01:23:15.760
when all of that was going on.

1187
01:23:15.760 --> 01:23:18.120
And to know that he can trust his reputation

1188
01:23:18.120 --> 01:23:20.000
in your hands and in your actions,

1189
01:23:20.000 --> 01:23:24.400
and that he will protect you where you are unaffected,

1190
01:23:24.400 --> 01:23:26.120
no matter what goes on around you,

1191
01:23:26.120 --> 01:23:28.200
because you're choosing to lean on him.

1192
01:23:29.240 --> 01:23:32.160
Now, you have to do it in the middle of it,

1193
01:23:32.160 --> 01:23:34.440
and you might have to learn like I did

1194
01:23:34.440 --> 01:23:36.080
when I'm in the middle of it.

1195
01:23:36.080 --> 01:23:38.480
I'm like, Lord, I'm not prepared for this.

1196
01:23:38.480 --> 01:23:40.680
And he said, you're prepared enough

1197
01:23:40.680 --> 01:23:43.640
to always look at me while you're in it,

1198
01:23:43.640 --> 01:23:46.080
to know what I'm gonna ask you to do next.

1199
01:23:46.080 --> 01:23:47.200
He said, no, you're not prepared

1200
01:23:47.200 --> 01:23:48.320
as if you've done this before,

1201
01:23:48.320 --> 01:23:50.800
and as if you can walk away and handle it on your own,

1202
01:23:50.800 --> 01:23:52.640
and say, I'll see you, Lord, on the other side.

1203
01:23:52.640 --> 01:23:53.600
He's like, no, no, no.

1204
01:23:53.600 --> 01:23:55.960
But you're prepared enough to look at me

1205
01:23:56.800 --> 01:24:00.320
and be sustained by me in a very unfamiliar situation

1206
01:24:00.320 --> 01:24:01.360
while you're going through it,

1207
01:24:01.360 --> 01:24:04.400
so that you will be pulled out unaffected.

1208
01:24:04.400 --> 01:24:07.600
But he said, finally, I will trigger the healing

1209
01:24:07.600 --> 01:24:09.560
that I desire for those people.

1210
01:24:09.560 --> 01:24:11.080
That that might be what he's calling you to.

1211
01:24:11.080 --> 01:24:12.960
I'm not declaring that that's what it is,

1212
01:24:12.960 --> 01:24:14.800
but I just wanted to give you an encouragement.

1213
01:24:14.800 --> 01:24:17.960
And Steph, thank you so very much for bringing that up.

1214
01:24:17.960 --> 01:24:22.200
And so Steph put in the chat that for months,

1215
01:24:22.200 --> 01:24:24.640
Steph has been the only one to do that in your family.

1216
01:24:24.640 --> 01:24:27.480
And finally, because of Steph's actions

1217
01:24:27.480 --> 01:24:30.720
and how her sister got courage to stand up

1218
01:24:30.720 --> 01:24:32.120
and to do the same thing.

1219
01:24:32.120 --> 01:24:34.720
Just, what did you say, last week, I guess?

1220
01:24:34.720 --> 01:24:36.240
Anyway, that's wonderful.

1221
01:24:36.240 --> 01:24:38.040
So anyway, just as an encouragement.

1222
01:24:39.160 --> 01:24:40.000
Thank you.

1223
01:24:40.000 --> 01:24:42.320
No, I actually have like a word

1224
01:24:44.120 --> 01:24:46.520
that I am to be like a catalyst of change

1225
01:24:46.520 --> 01:24:48.880
in my husband's family, kind of thing.

1226
01:24:48.880 --> 01:24:50.560
And when you said that word, I was like,

1227
01:24:50.560 --> 01:24:52.000
oh, I forgot about that.

1228
01:24:52.600 --> 01:24:54.680
I forgot about that word.

1229
01:24:56.680 --> 01:24:59.240
But there are so many deaf personalities

1230
01:24:59.240 --> 01:25:00.080
that are part of.

1231
01:25:00.000 --> 01:25:04.200
me is like, you know what, this is your shit storm and you can

1232
01:25:04.200 --> 01:25:08.640
handle it yourself. And I don't usually say bad words. But part

1233
01:25:08.640 --> 01:25:13.280
of me is like this. I do not want to do. But I'm sorry.

1234
01:25:13.920 --> 01:25:18.120
Stories. Yeah, I that's right. Steps. You remember that one

1235
01:25:18.120 --> 01:25:20.720
night I like told y'all a bunch of stories.

1236
01:25:20.720 --> 01:25:30.640
It's recorded. It's somewhere in the page. You're Oh, gosh, it

1237
01:25:30.640 --> 01:25:33.040
should not be please take that down. Someone will find that

1238
01:25:33.040 --> 01:25:39.120
and I'll get Chris over it. No, I'm surprised. Um, no. Yeah, I

1239
01:25:39.120 --> 01:25:41.960
think you're right. I think there might to, you know,

1240
01:25:41.960 --> 01:25:45.320
because it's 2020 be like something brewing there in the

1241
01:25:45.320 --> 01:25:49.120
family and the Lord's like, and I need you to deal with this

1242
01:25:49.120 --> 01:25:52.440
really quick because I'm about to ask something more of you

1243
01:25:52.440 --> 01:25:57.040
that you, you know, I'm like, okay. But anyway, thank you.

1244
01:25:57.080 --> 01:25:58.280
Thank you all so much.

1245
01:25:58.680 --> 01:26:01.720
You're welcome. I'm sorry. It's been hard. But thanks for

1246
01:26:01.720 --> 01:26:06.480
bringing it up. And, and, and I'm glad that your mom's better.

1247
01:26:06.520 --> 01:26:11.120
That's wonderful. And yeah, in spiritually, I'm in that

1248
01:26:11.120 --> 01:26:14.040
situation. Yeah, it's been pretty remarkable.

1249
01:26:14.800 --> 01:26:17.560
There's been some I need to write a post. There's been some

1250
01:26:17.560 --> 01:26:20.800
really cool ways the Lord showed me to walk in dominion

1251
01:26:20.800 --> 01:26:27.200
and, and, and stuff like that. So I will, I will do an update.

1252
01:26:27.560 --> 01:26:30.240
Yeah, please do because that's, that's always encouraging,

1253
01:26:31.040 --> 01:26:33.720
encouraging for people to seek, you know, middle of the

1254
01:26:33.720 --> 01:26:36.760
struggle so that they don't feel alone. And then, okay, this is

1255
01:26:36.760 --> 01:26:39.400
what it looked like when I was going through it. And then this

1256
01:26:39.400 --> 01:26:42.760
is what it and this is what how the Lord decided to prove it

1257
01:26:42.760 --> 01:26:46.200
because it's so often like I was talking about with the whole

1258
01:26:46.200 --> 01:26:48.880
food situation, you know, Lord, I need food, you know, will you

1259
01:26:48.880 --> 01:26:52.280
give me money and where you've been clients, etc. The way that

1260
01:26:52.280 --> 01:26:54.760
the Lord ends up providing, we can look at it and go, Oh, my

1261
01:26:54.760 --> 01:26:57.360
word, wow, that was him providing, but I would have

1262
01:26:57.360 --> 01:27:00.400
never guessed that this is how we work it out. But in the

1263
01:27:00.400 --> 01:27:05.280
middle of it, I'm gonna happen. But so yeah, it's always very

1264
01:27:05.280 --> 01:27:07.960
encouraging, because it just it builds up all of our faith,

1265
01:27:07.960 --> 01:27:11.880
because we can look at each other's stories and claim them

1266
01:27:11.880 --> 01:27:14.320
for ourselves. And I know that I've talked about this many

1267
01:27:14.320 --> 01:27:17.280
times. So when I hear other people's stories, and I'm going

1268
01:27:17.280 --> 01:27:20.480
through something, I will tell myself, Ashley, yeah, but you

1269
01:27:20.480 --> 01:27:23.520
remember when God did such and such for you, and I relay

1270
01:27:23.520 --> 01:27:28.040
somebody else's story that they've told me. And anyway,

1271
01:27:29.000 --> 01:27:32.680
which is anyone, and we sometimes that by the way, Alana

1272
01:27:32.680 --> 01:27:35.520
and Catherine, sometimes we go over an hour just because it's

1273
01:27:35.520 --> 01:27:39.560
fun to hang out. So or sometimes just because questions and

1274
01:27:39.560 --> 01:27:43.200
answers go a long time. And so I just like to as long as I have

1275
01:27:43.200 --> 01:27:45.720
the time, I like to give everybody that space. But just

1276
01:27:45.720 --> 01:27:48.680
wanted to make sure that y'all know, if ever y'all, you know,

1277
01:27:48.720 --> 01:27:52.400
y'all get on, you're always welcome to leave whenever y'all

1278
01:27:52.480 --> 01:27:55.000
y'all need to. And we had to hop off, you know, some people have

1279
01:27:55.000 --> 01:27:57.280
to get off like right up the hour, because that's all that

1280
01:27:57.280 --> 01:27:59.600
they set aside time for. But I just wanted to make sure.

1281
01:28:00.120 --> 01:28:05.640
I actually just sent a message just to Holly, I realized it was

1282
01:28:05.640 --> 01:28:09.080
just to her not to everybody. But it said, it's 1030pm here.

1283
01:28:09.080 --> 01:28:13.880
So I'm gonna get going to bed. Yeah, spend time with all of

1284
01:28:13.880 --> 01:28:16.280
you. It's just my time difference is a little different

1285
01:28:16.280 --> 01:28:21.400
in my bedtime is has passed. So it is time to get some rest.

1286
01:28:21.440 --> 01:28:22.720
Lena, where do you live?

1287
01:28:23.160 --> 01:28:24.800
I am in Ontario, Canada.

1288
01:28:25.160 --> 01:28:27.160
Oh, my goodness. Okay, awesome.

1289
01:28:28.760 --> 01:28:30.000
California or where?

1290
01:28:30.800 --> 01:28:33.040
No, I do not live in California.

1291
01:28:35.840 --> 01:28:38.680
If I did, though, it would be in Reading, that would be the only

1292
01:28:38.680 --> 01:28:42.280
place that I would step foot. But no, I'm like 1000 miles

1293
01:28:42.280 --> 01:28:43.880
south of you in North Carolina.

1294
01:28:46.640 --> 01:28:47.680
Oh, is it?

1295
01:28:47.720 --> 01:28:49.440
I knew your accent was familiar.

1296
01:28:51.480 --> 01:28:53.800
That's, that's on my bucket list. North Carolina.

1297
01:28:55.000 --> 01:28:58.920
Client there in Charlotte, so I'd love to visit one day.

1298
01:28:59.080 --> 01:29:01.240
Yeah. North Carolina. Are you in Holly?

1299
01:29:01.320 --> 01:29:05.000
Pinehurst. It's a little town south of Raleigh.

1300
01:29:06.080 --> 01:29:07.880
Hmm. The golf courses.

1301
01:29:07.920 --> 01:29:08.960
Yes.

1302
01:29:09.760 --> 01:29:11.160
Oh, my gosh, that's gorgeous.

1303
01:29:11.400 --> 01:29:14.040
It really is. It really is.

1304
01:29:14.560 --> 01:29:16.280
I visited there when I was a little girl.

1305
01:29:16.440 --> 01:29:20.040
Mm hmm. It's worth it. It's like a it's like a Hallmark movie.

1306
01:29:20.200 --> 01:29:22.160
Yeah, for sure. Yeah.

1307
01:29:22.640 --> 01:29:23.480
Hi, Lena.

1308
01:29:23.560 --> 01:29:24.200
Hi.

1309
01:29:24.200 --> 01:29:25.800
Oh, I said it wrong again.

1310
01:29:25.840 --> 01:29:27.160
It's okay. It's Alana.

1311
01:29:27.200 --> 01:29:28.240
Alana.

1312
01:29:28.280 --> 01:29:30.560
It takes some practice. It's okay. I'll be around.

1313
01:29:33.320 --> 01:29:34.560
All right. Bye.

1314
01:29:34.600 --> 01:29:35.280
Bye.

1315
01:29:35.960 --> 01:29:37.880
I was going to say I need to get going, too.

1316
01:29:37.880 --> 01:29:40.240
I haven't eaten dinner yet, so I'm starving.

1317
01:29:40.720 --> 01:29:42.600
Yes. Yeah. Go eat.

1318
01:29:42.640 --> 01:29:44.800
It was good to get to have you on.

1319
01:29:44.800 --> 01:29:45.800
Thanks so much. Now.

1320
01:29:45.840 --> 01:29:50.240
Yes. So Catherine is our our first West Coast person.

1321
01:29:50.240 --> 01:29:53.120
So her time difference is like really different than everybody.

1322
01:29:53.120 --> 01:29:56.160
So most people that get on here, it is nine o'clock by the time

1323
01:29:56.160 --> 01:29:58.400
they get on here and get their kids off the bed and everything.

1324
01:29:58.400 --> 01:30:00.000
So you're our first six o'clock.

1325
01:30:00.000 --> 01:30:15.880
person. Yeah, so much admiration for y'all. I know. Thank you. I received that. Well before

1326
01:30:15.880 --> 01:30:21.680
we jump, before the rest of us jump off, did anybody have anything that they, that we didn't

1327
01:30:21.680 --> 01:30:31.360
cover that, or any question before we jump off? Everybody good? Steph, are you good? Thanks for

1328
01:30:31.360 --> 01:30:36.040
chiming in on the, on the chat and catching us up on that update. That is huge. That is really

1329
01:30:36.040 --> 01:30:45.440
huge. That was a big deal. I was pretty proud of her. Yes. How'd it go? How is she? She said she's

1330
01:30:45.440 --> 01:30:53.240
okay. So I'm like, but are you? She's like, yeah, I'm good. I'm good. So, which I ran into my mom two days

1331
01:30:53.240 --> 01:31:01.280
later and she was just, oh yeah, all is well. I'm like, yeah, I know it is. But yeah, but it's just one of

1332
01:31:01.280 --> 01:31:07.560
those things that there's a black and white hard line drawn and no compromise and she finally spoke

1333
01:31:07.680 --> 01:31:16.040
up. So I was pretty proud of her. Yeah, that'll hopefully bring some healing. Yeah. And even when

1334
01:31:16.040 --> 01:31:21.480
I, like I ran into my mom at the pharmacy of all places and I'm never in there, but I had to stop

1335
01:31:21.480 --> 01:31:27.680
the other day after an appointment and she was very welcoming, totally fine. Anytime that they've

1336
01:31:27.680 --> 01:31:32.880
spoken to me, they've been very reserved, like on good behavior. They're not trashing people. They're

1337
01:31:32.880 --> 01:31:40.880
not being mean or rude. I'm like, this is nice. So we've only spoken probably still fewer than 10

1338
01:31:40.880 --> 01:31:48.440
times since Christmas, but at least it's been civil. It's been nice. So I don't know if you guys

1339
01:31:48.440 --> 01:31:52.720
can hear me. I'm trying to be quiet. Dan and Emma fell asleep across from me. So I've been sitting in

1340
01:31:52.720 --> 01:32:00.080
the dark kind of hiding out. Yeah, no, we can hear you. And can you believe everything that has

1341
01:32:00.080 --> 01:32:09.040
happened in your family since you spoke up in, wasn't it December? Yeah. Yeah. Christmas Eve of all

1342
01:32:09.040 --> 01:32:17.480
times is like perfect timing. Yeah. But yeah, it's different. So hopefully things will kind of level

1343
01:32:17.480 --> 01:32:26.120
out moving forward. So we'll see. Good. I'm glad. I know I actually six months, all of this is very

1344
01:32:26.120 --> 01:32:33.400
fast for so much to be happening, you know, and especially in a family that has this much water

1345
01:32:33.400 --> 01:32:41.520
into the bridge in this one direction, you know, so this is really, really good. Really good. Yeah.

1346
01:32:41.520 --> 01:32:50.480
I'm excited. Yeah. And the kids are watching. They're watching, but they're still not the older

1347
01:32:50.480 --> 01:32:56.200
to still they don't don't want to go around. They don't want to interact much, but they do. And

1348
01:32:56.200 --> 01:33:03.680
they're respectful. And that's all I fire of them. Yeah, yeah, obviously. But and they'll see over

1349
01:33:03.680 --> 01:33:11.840
time, they'll see and how the adults and how the adults choose to and demonstrate for them

1350
01:33:11.840 --> 01:33:18.400
reconciliation and restoration in a healthy way, you know, according to whatever it is that the

1351
01:33:18.400 --> 01:33:25.640
Lord does in, you know, your parents lives and to and what people allow to happen, etc. But they'll

1352
01:33:25.640 --> 01:33:31.840
they'll see and, you know, they'll they'll start to see no healthy interactions between other people,

1353
01:33:31.840 --> 01:33:40.240
like what's acceptable and what's not acceptable and, and how you can and you can know what it is

1354
01:33:40.240 --> 01:33:48.520
that you and what what were I don't know who the Lord says it is that we are and how it is that we

1355
01:33:48.520 --> 01:33:54.760
actually live that out in reality. So as opposed to just all of the nice things that people say

1356
01:33:54.760 --> 01:34:00.000
in church, and we have no idea how to live them and we either live in this a doormat, or we live

1357
01:34:00.000 --> 01:34:06.800
them and we live them and very bringing tremendous amount of judgment and harshness and our interactions

1358
01:34:06.800 --> 01:34:13.160
to one another. And the Lord's like, No, neither one of those are my heart, or coming out. Yeah,

1359
01:34:13.160 --> 01:34:19.880
I was raised as a doormat. So and my girls aren't being raised that way. Yeah, especially the one

1360
01:34:19.880 --> 01:34:26.760
I'm like, Okay, you need to kind of rein it in a little bit. But like the 12 year old literally

1361
01:34:26.760 --> 01:34:33.080
sent her younger sisters on a snipe hunt today to get them out of her hair. And Bailey's like,

1362
01:34:33.240 --> 01:34:37.560
Oh, yeah, Bailey said, Mom, is that real? It's like, well, I've heard of snipe hunting,

1363
01:34:37.560 --> 01:34:42.560
but I've never done it. Because it's like, yes, please. Of course, Emma was all about it. She's

1364
01:34:42.560 --> 01:34:50.920
like, and so they were all through the house. They didn't find one, obviously. But yeah, I heard your

1365
01:34:50.920 --> 01:34:59.880
I read your post. It's been a day. It's been a week. Yeah. Oh, yeah. And that's part of why I

1366
01:35:00.000 --> 01:35:05.920
Camera office because my resting face is more like a resting wrench face. I'm kind of like, okay, I'm here. I'm just, yeah.

1367
01:35:06.560 --> 01:35:08.160
We're glad I know, but

1368
01:35:09.160 --> 01:35:18.320
I didn't know what to do when you weren't on when I first got on there. It's like that this. I don't know. I feel like a fish out of water were step, but a lot of us. Yeah.

1369
01:35:19.960 --> 01:35:26.280
I was looking at the clock of like, oh my gosh. So yeah, they kind of got away from me. I was sewing. I've been sewing all week.

1370
01:35:26.720 --> 01:35:32.320
So I have one more dress to make. That'll be four dresses in a week and I haven't sewn clothing and years so

1371
01:35:33.600 --> 01:35:34.920
That yeah huge

1372
01:35:35.000 --> 01:35:50.160
Man, I haven't sewn in a few months and and I miss it. So I have one of those full on like dress forms and I used to go to and I periodically I'll give myself a treat and I'll buy us sewing lessons that teach that

1373
01:35:50.960 --> 01:35:55.520
From a guy here in town that learned open tour in from it.

1374
01:35:56.640 --> 01:36:04.920
From in Paris and stuff like that. And so teach me how to like do like really nice stuff and they may he and his partner like

1375
01:36:04.920 --> 01:36:13.560
Crew so really, really nice clothes for like some wealthy people in Dallas and stuff. And so it's a lot of fun to learn all of that, but anyway.

1376
01:36:13.920 --> 01:36:22.840
But yeah, so I miss them. I miss them. But when I come to when I come to visit all probably have my knitting, at least with me, even though I want how I selling

1377
01:36:23.440 --> 01:36:30.480
And I'll have my knitting. I'll show you what it is that I've made. So I'm making myself a sweater right now. So

1378
01:36:30.600 --> 01:36:34.960
Ashley, didn't you have your sewing machine and your form in college.

1379
01:36:36.400 --> 01:36:39.560
No, I didn't have a form in college. Did somebody else

1380
01:36:41.040 --> 01:36:46.800
I thought you had your sewing machine and you're like bust thing. I'm a jig. I remember it.

1381
01:36:47.480 --> 01:36:51.760
Well, it must not have been a real dress form. I may have had like a statue best

1382
01:36:51.920 --> 01:36:52.560
Yeah.

1383
01:36:53.120 --> 01:36:53.560
Maybe

1384
01:36:53.880 --> 01:36:54.320
Yeah.

1385
01:36:55.000 --> 01:36:57.720
Oh, okay. All right. Maybe so. Yeah.

1386
01:36:58.960 --> 01:37:01.840
Yeah, I don't. I know I love sewing.

1387
01:37:03.200 --> 01:37:04.880
But how are you doing

1388
01:37:10.080 --> 01:37:11.600
Did someone say, How am I doing

1389
01:37:11.800 --> 01:37:12.840
Yeah, how you doing

1390
01:37:13.520 --> 01:37:18.000
I'm good. I got I jumped off because the peach cobbler was ready.

1391
01:37:18.520 --> 01:37:23.960
And we ate it. And then I thought, well, let me just see if they're still on here and you guys are still on here. So

1392
01:37:24.160 --> 01:37:29.960
Yeah, I'm glad. Yeah, I think Cheryl Reese did that the other day. She got really late and

1393
01:37:32.320 --> 01:37:35.000
So yeah, periodically yard. So anyway,

1394
01:37:36.280 --> 01:37:37.920
Well, I just want to check in.

1395
01:37:38.480 --> 01:37:38.960
What

1396
01:37:39.360 --> 01:37:41.840
I hopped off just before nine and then I just hopped back on.

1397
01:37:44.440 --> 01:37:52.000
Yeah, well, does anyone have anything before we were calling tonight, but they needed to make sure that was said

1398
01:37:56.440 --> 01:38:05.880
Well, it's always good to see y'all hope y'all have a good night. I'm in Louisiana. I didn't make sure y'all knew that people keep asking me where I am. I'm Louisiana, then go to Arkansas.

1399
01:38:06.520 --> 01:38:08.800
Are you coming in North Carolina, Ashley.

1400
01:38:09.000 --> 01:38:10.480
Absolutely.

1401
01:38:10.560 --> 01:38:11.120
Do it.

1402
01:38:12.280 --> 01:38:13.520
To see y'all.

1403
01:38:13.640 --> 01:38:15.320
I'm very excited to come.

1404
01:38:15.560 --> 01:38:20.320
Good. Good. I will look forward to it for me. I'm leaving, Amy. I'm going to visit everybody else.

1405
01:38:22.240 --> 01:38:25.200
We've had a lot of good times together. So

1406
01:38:26.160 --> 01:38:26.680
That's right.

1407
01:38:27.480 --> 01:38:32.520
I will. I'll see her in two weeks, though, because I have to go back to Dallas for conference.

1408
01:38:32.520 --> 01:38:40.120
And then head out again. But anyway, but yeah, I've got a couple of people actually to visit North Carolina. You're one of them. Holly and then I have and

1409
01:38:41.560 --> 01:38:53.240
I have that gentleman and that didn't interview me and the black gentleman Julius and to do this. He is. He's a pastor, as well as a

1410
01:38:53.400 --> 01:39:02.680
Leader of I think he started Christians in the marketplace and he did the my first he he was the first person to interview me

1411
01:39:02.920 --> 01:39:12.200
So I'm going to go visit he and his wife and they live in North Carolina as well. But I don't remember where they live in relationship to where y'all are. So I have to look all that up on the map that

1412
01:39:12.200 --> 01:39:21.800
Yeah, I'm not sure yet what I'm going to be in North Carolina, but I'll keep up updated when I've had that way. So, and then, and then eventually Western Virginia West Virginia.

1413
01:39:22.320 --> 01:39:25.960
Has to do. Yeah, I may have to delay it till spring.

1414
01:39:27.080 --> 01:39:36.040
We are going to do our addition, which is exciting, but I also am scheduling surgery, I guess. I have a lot of. Yeah, we're doing

1415
01:39:36.040 --> 01:39:46.840
Some more testing at the end of the month to decide if it's an ablation or a full hysterectomy, or I guess it'd be a partial hysterectomy. So I don't know what I'm in for, but it's kind of been a rocky week.

1416
01:39:47.480 --> 01:39:56.360
Oh, I'm sorry. Yeah, that's down. Yeah, all of that. I worked for someone that struggled with that kind of thing. And it was

1417
01:39:57.640 --> 01:39:58.440
Yeah, it was

1418
01:39:58.440 --> 01:39:59.320
It was

1419
01:40:00.000 --> 01:40:07.200
awful. I can't imagine actually two people, two people that were on my team, my business team.

1420
01:40:10.160 --> 01:40:17.440
They asked me the other day, what's that? Oh, my mom just had a full histerectomy. So

1421
01:40:18.080 --> 01:40:24.720
they did hers lap laparoscopically, like tiny cuts. And she was like up and walking around

1422
01:40:24.720 --> 01:40:29.840
like it was a day surgery. Came home that night. I was like, is this real?

1423
01:40:31.360 --> 01:40:38.400
So that's reassuring. Yeah. Well, I hope it goes well and easy for you.

1424
01:40:40.160 --> 01:40:46.240
Yeah, I think 26 is when I go for all my scans and ultrasounds. And with family history,

1425
01:40:46.240 --> 01:40:50.560
I lost an aunt to breast cancer. So that's automatic mammograms and ultrasounds there.

1426
01:40:50.560 --> 01:40:56.000
And then my mom with her endometrial carcinoma. And I'm like, I'm pushing him going, hey,

1427
01:40:56.000 --> 01:40:59.040
what about this? What about that? Can we just take it out and be done with it? And he's like,

1428
01:40:59.040 --> 01:41:05.120
oh, we can do such and such. And we bantered back and forth. And this last month, I thought I had

1429
01:41:05.120 --> 01:41:11.680
COVID. And it's an every month thing that I get like the flu. I was 101, fever, chills,

1430
01:41:12.800 --> 01:41:16.960
nausea, the whole nine yards. And then once things started, it just instantly disappeared.

1431
01:41:17.520 --> 01:41:22.880
And it's every month. And then it's, it's pretty bad. I'm literally homebound for that week,

1432
01:41:22.880 --> 01:41:28.160
or at least for the first three or four days. And I said, I can't live like this. I've got

1433
01:41:28.160 --> 01:41:32.800
to get my life back. Yeah. I literally have my calendar blocked off every month. Like,

1434
01:41:32.800 --> 01:41:39.280
no, don't schedule anything this week. So yeah, Dan literally told me you're going to go where

1435
01:41:39.280 --> 01:41:44.400
I'm going to make you go. I'm going to take you to your appointment. So, so I went and I'm sitting

1436
01:41:44.400 --> 01:41:48.960
there. It's like, I feel really stupid wearing nothing but a gown and a mask. Hurry up, get this

1437
01:41:48.960 --> 01:41:53.920
over with. Then he had to deliver a baby. So I waited in my gown and my mask for an hour for him

1438
01:41:53.920 --> 01:42:00.080
to come back. I was there two hours. So it's like, when do I get dressed and leave? Can I just sneak

1439
01:42:00.080 --> 01:42:11.280
out? But yeah, it's been a fun week. It's therapeutic. Yeah. Yeah. Okay. I mean, it is

1440
01:42:11.280 --> 01:42:16.400
what it is, but it's still kind of, kind of rough. It's the mental part of it, I think.

1441
01:42:19.120 --> 01:42:21.760
Yeah. Yeah, it is. Yeah. I'm sorry.

1442
01:42:24.960 --> 01:42:32.320
All right. Well, it's good to see y'all. Okay. Yeah. Please do let us know. Make sure we have

1443
01:42:32.320 --> 01:42:39.040
the updates. Yeah, well, I may just hide if I'm in a mood like I was tonight. I'll hide until I

1444
01:42:39.280 --> 01:42:49.680
turn the camera on. Yeah, you can do that. It's just life. Yeah. Well, I always know that I'm

1445
01:42:49.680 --> 01:42:55.520
available if you need to reach out about anything. I know we've talked about Marco Polo. Are you on

1446
01:42:55.520 --> 01:43:00.480
Marco Polo? I know we're not connected on it. I started to sign up one night and I started

1447
01:43:00.480 --> 01:43:04.320
reading the terms and conditions and like a few hours later, I woke up and I was still on the

1448
01:43:04.320 --> 01:43:10.640
terms page. I'm like, okay. So, I never did completely sign up. So, I'm going to forget

1449
01:43:10.640 --> 01:43:17.200
about it. Steph, you got to do it. Marco Polo is the greatest invention in the world. Actually,

1450
01:43:17.200 --> 01:43:22.640
I didn't know you were on it. Okay. I'm going to send you a polo tonight. Good. Connect.

1451
01:43:23.600 --> 01:43:29.200
Good. Yeah. Do you have my email? Do you have my new address? My new phone number?

1452
01:43:30.080 --> 01:43:36.560
Um, yeah. I'm this. Do you have my phone number? Yeah. Okay. All right. Oh, yeah. Are we connected?

1453
01:43:37.680 --> 01:43:41.200
Yeah, we are. That's right. Yeah. We've talked on the phone. What am I thinking about?

1454
01:43:41.200 --> 01:43:46.640
So, we usually connect via Facebook Messenger. So, I forgot that we've also called.

1455
01:43:47.760 --> 01:43:52.720
So, yeah. Okay. Good. All right. Yeah. Please do. That's my favorite way to connect with people is

1456
01:43:52.720 --> 01:43:59.760
Marco Polo. So, and Priscilla, and Carrie, and I, and Cheryl Flair, and in fact, Cheryl Flair,

1457
01:43:59.760 --> 01:44:06.080
and she, I know she hasn't been on these community Q&As since she joined, but she,

1458
01:44:06.080 --> 01:44:10.320
I got a notification that she Marco Polo'd me while we've been on here. So, I'm going to go

1459
01:44:10.320 --> 01:44:14.800
watch her Marco Polo. So, it's my favorite way to stay connected with people because I get video.

1460
01:44:16.080 --> 01:44:20.800
I've not met her. I've never met her, but she's a cheerleader. Like, she's really,

1461
01:44:20.800 --> 01:44:28.480
really supportive. Oh, I know she is. She's extremely encouraging. She's really, really sweet.

1462
01:44:28.480 --> 01:44:34.800
It's just her spirit and her heart. And she is, she is the one that Cheryl Reese and Carrie

1463
01:44:37.440 --> 01:44:43.520
Beeler, Beiler, I think it's Beiler, are under in Young Living. So, she recruited

1464
01:44:44.160 --> 01:44:50.800
Cheryl Reese and Carrie. So, that's how I met Cheryl and Carrie is I was on a,

1465
01:44:51.440 --> 01:44:58.720
and Cheryl Flair was a client and, well, obviously a friend from college and a client,

1466
01:44:58.720 --> 01:44:59.920
and then she asked me to

1467
01:45:00.000 --> 01:45:04.100
to do a talk for her team.

1468
01:45:04.100 --> 01:45:06.940
And so, and Carrie and Cheryl were on there.

1469
01:45:06.940 --> 01:45:09.940
Of course, I'd actually met Carrie on something else

1470
01:45:09.940 --> 01:45:11.300
that we've done for Young with Lily.

1471
01:45:11.300 --> 01:45:13.860
Anyway, that's how I met them.

1472
01:45:13.860 --> 01:45:17.020
And then they became part of the rest intensive.

1473
01:45:17.020 --> 01:45:18.940
So that's how I met them all.

1474
01:45:18.940 --> 01:45:20.940
But yeah, yeah, Cheryl's really, really sweet.

1475
01:45:20.940 --> 01:45:22.060
So I went to college with her

1476
01:45:22.060 --> 01:45:23.260
at Pensacola Christian College

1477
01:45:23.260 --> 01:45:25.100
before I transferred to La Turner University

1478
01:45:25.100 --> 01:45:26.620
and met Holly.

1479
01:45:26.620 --> 01:45:29.460
So anyway, yeah, she's really sweet.

1480
01:45:30.120 --> 01:45:31.960
And of course, when you listen to her,

1481
01:45:31.960 --> 01:45:35.740
when you listen to her member intro,

1482
01:45:35.740 --> 01:45:37.260
she's got a really sweet,

1483
01:45:37.260 --> 01:45:39.160
hear her voice is really sweet voice.

1484
01:45:40.300 --> 01:45:41.500
I missed a lot of the intros.

1485
01:45:41.500 --> 01:45:43.180
I'll have to go back and watch them.

1486
01:45:43.180 --> 01:45:45.500
And I'm very careful not to have any of my dateras

1487
01:45:45.500 --> 01:45:47.220
sitting around with all the Young with Lily people.

1488
01:45:47.220 --> 01:45:48.820
Oh, that is so funny.

1489
01:45:48.820 --> 01:45:50.540
If they would, they're not offended,

1490
01:45:50.540 --> 01:45:51.620
you know, they're not offended.

1491
01:45:51.620 --> 01:45:52.700
It's no big deal.

1492
01:45:52.700 --> 01:45:55.060
Some of my uplines are, oh my goodness.

1493
01:45:55.060 --> 01:45:57.300
Well, some people are, but Cheryl, Carrie

1494
01:45:57.620 --> 01:45:59.460
and the other Cheryl, they're all just,

1495
01:45:59.460 --> 01:46:01.300
you know, they're fine with it.

1496
01:46:01.300 --> 01:46:05.900
You know, I'm sure they all have people in their lives

1497
01:46:05.900 --> 01:46:08.980
that have datera.

1498
01:46:08.980 --> 01:46:11.100
Like I had people in my, I used him living,

1499
01:46:11.100 --> 01:46:13.380
but my sister-in-law used datera.

1500
01:46:13.380 --> 01:46:15.580
You know, everybody just does whatever.

1501
01:46:15.580 --> 01:46:16.420
No big deal.

1502
01:46:16.420 --> 01:46:18.180
But what was I gonna say about that?

1503
01:46:18.180 --> 01:46:19.980
And we were talking about that

1504
01:46:19.980 --> 01:46:22.060
before we talked about the datera.

1505
01:46:22.060 --> 01:46:23.660
I was gonna mention something.

1506
01:46:23.660 --> 01:46:27.180
And it was something.

1507
01:46:28.020 --> 01:46:29.340
Oh, thank you, the member intros.

1508
01:46:29.340 --> 01:46:31.180
So if you look at the,

1509
01:46:31.180 --> 01:46:34.860
if you look at the, what is it called?

1510
01:46:34.860 --> 01:46:39.860
The post topics, there'll be things like journey sharing.

1511
01:46:41.340 --> 01:46:42.180
What else do we have?

1512
01:46:42.180 --> 01:46:45.340
Encouragement, member intros, community Q&As,

1513
01:46:45.340 --> 01:46:47.380
whatever, and you can just click on those bubbles

1514
01:46:47.380 --> 01:46:49.620
and then it'll filter the page

1515
01:46:49.620 --> 01:46:51.260
to only show you those things.

1516
01:46:51.260 --> 01:46:52.620
So if you click on member intros,

1517
01:46:52.620 --> 01:46:54.780
it'll pull up all of the member intros.

1518
01:46:54.780 --> 01:46:56.460
So all of the lives that people have done

1519
01:46:56.460 --> 01:46:58.300
to introduce themselves to the group.

1520
01:46:58.300 --> 01:47:00.660
But Priscilla's and Renee's are still over

1521
01:47:00.660 --> 01:47:03.420
in the other group, and I need to pull those over.

1522
01:47:03.420 --> 01:47:05.180
But everybody else's are in this group.

1523
01:47:05.180 --> 01:47:08.740
So, but that's how you can get to know everybody.

1524
01:47:09.580 --> 01:47:12.020
So anyway, but that's how to find them.

1525
01:47:12.020 --> 01:47:14.100
Yeah, same thing with community Q&As.

1526
01:47:14.100 --> 01:47:16.500
Now the community Q&As, Susan gave me the idea

1527
01:47:16.500 --> 01:47:20.500
to go ahead and like create a unit for the community Q&As.

1528
01:47:20.500 --> 01:47:23.020
I wanted to save the units for just the teachings,

1529
01:47:23.020 --> 01:47:25.300
but the community Q&A is really,

1530
01:47:25.300 --> 01:47:26.540
so much of it is teaching anyway.

1531
01:47:26.540 --> 01:47:28.540
So I'll just do that.

1532
01:47:28.540 --> 01:47:31.220
And then also whenever y'all post anything

1533
01:47:31.220 --> 01:47:33.620
where y'all are like posting updates,

1534
01:47:33.620 --> 01:47:36.060
or you're posting, well, yeah,

1535
01:47:36.060 --> 01:47:37.420
updates of like your struggles

1536
01:47:37.420 --> 01:47:41.020
or updates of like testimonies

1537
01:47:41.020 --> 01:47:43.020
of how the Lord has, you know,

1538
01:47:43.020 --> 01:47:44.540
proven his character in a particular way

1539
01:47:44.540 --> 01:47:46.380
or manifested his character,

1540
01:47:46.380 --> 01:47:48.660
then I tag those as journey sharing.

1541
01:47:48.660 --> 01:47:51.260
So there's like 80 something of those

1542
01:47:51.260 --> 01:47:54.140
that everybody, you know, combined that everybody has done.

1543
01:47:54.140 --> 01:47:55.780
So I just see if you click on those,

1544
01:47:55.780 --> 01:47:57.700
the everybody's updates and stuff

1545
01:47:57.700 --> 01:48:00.380
that they've been posting over the past several months.

1546
01:48:00.380 --> 01:48:02.500
And then there's encouragement,

1547
01:48:02.500 --> 01:48:05.700
which is anything that I post, that's not a teaching.

1548
01:48:05.700 --> 01:48:08.580
And then there's one for just rest intensive series period.

1549
01:48:08.580 --> 01:48:11.100
And of course, all those you can go in the unit and see,

1550
01:48:11.100 --> 01:48:13.460
and then any additional teachings or just teachings

1551
01:48:13.460 --> 01:48:14.900
and click on those and you'll see all those,

1552
01:48:14.900 --> 01:48:17.620
but those you can see in the units as well.

1553
01:48:17.620 --> 01:48:20.340
So there'll be a quiz on this later.

1554
01:48:21.300 --> 01:48:26.300
Yeah, I can see, I can see Amy, you know, just zoning out.

1555
01:48:27.620 --> 01:48:29.780
So I had to like it or not, it's a big quiz.

1556
01:48:29.780 --> 01:48:32.620
It's like, actually, whenever I was looking,

1557
01:48:32.620 --> 01:48:33.860
I was like, oh, look at all this.

1558
01:48:33.860 --> 01:48:35.660
She's got it all organized.

1559
01:48:35.660 --> 01:48:37.020
That's pretty cool.

1560
01:48:37.020 --> 01:48:41.100
Yeah, so anyway, so I will let y'all go,

1561
01:48:41.100 --> 01:48:42.700
but it's good to see all of y'all

1562
01:48:42.700 --> 01:48:45.460
and I'll hopefully see y'all next week.

1563
01:48:45.460 --> 01:48:46.980
If y'all need anything, reach out to me.

1564
01:48:46.980 --> 01:48:50.260
I'm very excited I'm getting a Marco Polo from you, Holly.

1565
01:48:51.100 --> 01:48:53.620
I didn't find a Marco Polo because you talked about it,

1566
01:48:53.620 --> 01:48:55.460
but I haven't started using it.

1567
01:48:56.340 --> 01:48:57.660
I know you haven't either.

1568
01:48:57.660 --> 01:49:00.380
You and I just always either text or get on Facebook.

1569
01:49:00.380 --> 01:49:03.940
So yes, Marco Polo, I like it because it's video.

1570
01:49:03.940 --> 01:49:05.700
I like it so much better than anything else.

1571
01:49:05.700 --> 01:49:06.540
Anyway.

1572
01:49:06.540 --> 01:49:07.700
I always hide from video.

1573
01:49:08.740 --> 01:49:09.580
You hide from video.

1574
01:49:09.580 --> 01:49:11.660
Oh, but you're so good on video.

1575
01:49:11.660 --> 01:49:14.100
Yeah, I'm telling you, just like,

1576
01:49:14.100 --> 01:49:15.740
we're the clean court.

1577
01:49:15.740 --> 01:49:16.780
No, no, no, no.

1578
01:49:16.780 --> 01:49:18.980
That's the thing about Marco Polo.

1579
01:49:18.980 --> 01:49:20.740
You gotta let it fly.

1580
01:49:20.740 --> 01:49:21.580
You do it.

1581
01:49:21.580 --> 01:49:23.860
No makeup on, while you're putting your makeup on,

1582
01:49:23.860 --> 01:49:24.700
it doesn't matter.

1583
01:49:24.700 --> 01:49:25.740
These are your girlfriends,

1584
01:49:25.740 --> 01:49:27.180
you're whoever you're talking to.

1585
01:49:27.180 --> 01:49:29.340
Like, whatever you're wearing,

1586
01:49:29.340 --> 01:49:31.620
whatever you're doing, that's it.

1587
01:49:31.620 --> 01:49:33.300
Whatever my kid is not wearing

1588
01:49:33.300 --> 01:49:35.300
and whatever the dog is doing.

1589
01:49:35.300 --> 01:49:37.380
Or not doing, that's right.

1590
01:49:37.380 --> 01:49:39.620
It's between you and your friend.

1591
01:49:39.620 --> 01:49:40.460
I do it.

1592
01:49:40.460 --> 01:49:41.300
I have a friend of mine.

1593
01:49:41.300 --> 01:49:42.460
She and I talk and visit,

1594
01:49:42.460 --> 01:49:45.620
not while we're doing our makeup.

1595
01:49:45.620 --> 01:49:46.460
Mm-hmm.

1596
01:49:47.300 --> 01:49:48.140
Yeah.

1597
01:49:49.140 --> 01:49:51.060
It's just, it's casual.

1598
01:49:51.060 --> 01:49:52.500
Yeah. It's casual.

1599
01:49:52.500 --> 01:49:53.660
You gotta get, yeah.

1600
01:49:53.660 --> 01:49:54.580
You can't like,

1601
01:49:54.580 --> 01:49:55.820
cause you know, you turn on the video

1602
01:49:55.820 --> 01:49:59.060
and you like look at yourself and you're like, oh.

1603
01:49:59.060 --> 01:50:00.260
But you're like, nope.

1604
01:50:00.000 --> 01:50:08.200
I'm doing it. That's right. My daughter uses it a lot with her friends. They have

1605
01:50:08.200 --> 01:50:14.320
like a group. Can you do like a group? Videos for each other from her old

1606
01:50:14.320 --> 01:50:22.240
college roommates and so they keep up with each other that way. Yeah. That's

1607
01:50:22.240 --> 01:50:27.680
kind of neat to have a group and you can all watch the video whenever. Yeah, that's

1608
01:50:27.680 --> 01:50:38.920
kind of neat. Yeah. All right. Close it down. Good to see y'all. Sleep tight.

1609
01:50:38.920 --> 01:50:42.520
Honestly. Bye.