WEBVTT 1 00:00:00.000 --> 00:00:27.000 Hey, hi, how are you doing? 2 00:00:27.000 --> 00:00:29.000 I'm doing all right. 3 00:00:30.000 --> 00:00:32.000 Oh, the Christmas tree. 4 00:00:32.000 --> 00:00:33.000 I know. 5 00:00:33.000 --> 00:00:38.000 I'm at my mother-in-law's house, and she kept it up so that, 6 00:00:38.000 --> 00:00:43.000 so that when we all got together, since we didn't celebrate Christmas 7 00:00:43.000 --> 00:00:46.000 this year together because we were with my folks, 8 00:00:46.000 --> 00:00:50.000 she kept it up so that we could all have a special kind of like 9 00:00:50.000 --> 00:00:55.000 Christmas atmosphere when we were all together this time. 10 00:00:55.000 --> 00:00:58.000 So in February, yeah. 11 00:00:58.000 --> 00:00:59.000 Oh, yeah. 12 00:00:59.000 --> 00:01:03.000 So in fact, we actually helped her put it up at Thanksgiving. 13 00:01:03.000 --> 00:01:05.000 Oh my gosh. 14 00:01:05.000 --> 00:01:07.000 So what she did, she was very clever. 15 00:01:07.000 --> 00:01:10.000 She put all kinds of decorations on it, 16 00:01:10.000 --> 00:01:14.000 which you probably can't see very well for like my husband's 50th 17 00:01:14.000 --> 00:01:15.000 birthday that's coming up. 18 00:01:15.000 --> 00:01:17.000 So we were all able to celebrate as a family. 19 00:01:17.000 --> 00:01:19.000 So that was fun. 20 00:01:19.000 --> 00:01:21.000 Oh, how sweet. 21 00:01:21.000 --> 00:01:23.000 Yeah, that was fun. 22 00:01:23.000 --> 00:01:26.000 So anyway, I realized that right before I jumped on, I was like, 23 00:01:26.000 --> 00:01:29.000 Oh, the Christmas tree will be in the back. 24 00:01:29.000 --> 00:01:30.000 Yeah. 25 00:01:30.000 --> 00:01:32.000 It's also I'm here in Florida. 26 00:01:32.000 --> 00:01:36.000 So there's like, like lake back there. 27 00:01:36.000 --> 00:01:38.000 Well, I think it's the lake. 28 00:01:38.000 --> 00:01:42.000 I don't know. It's like the pond really. It's a small bit. 29 00:01:42.000 --> 00:01:46.000 It's really nice to have all of these backyards lead up to it. 30 00:01:46.000 --> 00:01:51.000 In fact, Ed and I are very fortunate. Both of our parents live on water. 31 00:01:52.000 --> 00:01:56.000 So it's kind of nice. 32 00:01:56.000 --> 00:01:57.000 Wow. 33 00:01:57.000 --> 00:01:58.000 It looks great. 34 00:01:58.000 --> 00:02:00.000 Yes. 35 00:02:00.000 --> 00:02:03.000 It's very pretty today. 36 00:02:03.000 --> 00:02:05.000 You know, we're down in Florida. So it's very summery. 37 00:02:05.000 --> 00:02:07.000 I don't know what the temperature is. 38 00:02:07.000 --> 00:02:08.000 I definitely don't know what it is. 39 00:02:08.000 --> 00:02:10.000 I think it's. 40 00:02:10.000 --> 00:02:11.000 It was in the seventies. 41 00:02:11.000 --> 00:02:13.000 That's right. 42 00:02:13.000 --> 00:02:17.000 So obviously it's Valentine's day. 43 00:02:18.000 --> 00:02:23.000 Yeah. 44 00:02:23.000 --> 00:02:27.000 You know, and after our time together, so that's going to be really fun. 45 00:02:27.000 --> 00:02:28.000 Yeah. 46 00:02:28.000 --> 00:02:30.000 So anyway, and I'm going to. 47 00:02:30.000 --> 00:02:35.000 Okay. 48 00:02:35.000 --> 00:02:37.000 That would have been very loud if I'd actually. 49 00:02:37.000 --> 00:02:41.000 Yeah. 50 00:02:41.000 --> 00:02:43.000 How are y'all doing? 51 00:02:44.000 --> 00:02:50.000 I'm very, very busy. 52 00:02:50.000 --> 00:02:51.000 I'm like, I'm sorry, 53 00:02:51.000 --> 00:02:53.000 I'm going to have to keep moving because I have to be outside because 54 00:02:53.000 --> 00:02:55.000 I'm at a birthday party. 55 00:02:55.000 --> 00:02:58.000 And so it's too loud inside, but it was too cold to sit down. So. 56 00:02:58.000 --> 00:02:59.000 Yeah. 57 00:02:59.000 --> 00:03:03.000 No, no, no. 58 00:03:03.000 --> 00:03:05.000 Yeah, no, it's been a very busy day. 59 00:03:05.000 --> 00:03:10.000 At this new job. 60 00:03:11.000 --> 00:03:13.000 Yeah. 61 00:03:13.000 --> 00:03:16.000 I. 62 00:03:16.000 --> 00:03:21.000 I attended a seminar today. 63 00:03:21.000 --> 00:03:23.000 Yeah. So it was like a full day, but you know how it is. 64 00:03:23.000 --> 00:03:24.000 Some people are like, 65 00:03:24.000 --> 00:03:25.000 They're trying to be at this. 66 00:03:25.000 --> 00:03:30.000 And then people are. 67 00:03:30.000 --> 00:03:33.000 Jumping in on the zoom and asking things, but. 68 00:03:33.000 --> 00:03:35.000 It's been good. 69 00:03:36.000 --> 00:03:40.000 Yeah. 70 00:03:40.000 --> 00:03:44.000 And we had a Valentine love hearts giveaway. 71 00:03:44.000 --> 00:03:50.000 So, yeah. 72 00:03:50.000 --> 00:03:52.000 I was excited to see, I don't know if you saw my comments. 73 00:03:52.000 --> 00:03:55.000 I was excited to see that you had this. 74 00:03:55.000 --> 00:03:59.000 You just chosen. Okay. All right. 75 00:03:59.000 --> 00:04:01.000 Then I'm going, if God says that I'm worth it, 76 00:04:01.000 --> 00:04:03.000 then I'm going to act like it. And what are some things that. 77 00:04:04.000 --> 00:04:05.000 You know, I've done. 78 00:04:05.000 --> 00:04:07.000 I've done. 79 00:04:07.000 --> 00:04:11.000 You know, a very. 80 00:04:11.000 --> 00:04:14.000 Joy-filled expression of me to enter earth. 81 00:04:14.000 --> 00:04:20.000 You know, and to actually. 82 00:04:20.000 --> 00:04:24.000 Actually be positive things that I do to create the life that I 83 00:04:24.000 --> 00:04:25.000 experienced. 84 00:04:25.000 --> 00:04:26.000 And you chose to do it. 85 00:04:26.000 --> 00:04:27.000 I thought it was great. 86 00:04:27.000 --> 00:04:28.000 Yeah. 87 00:04:28.000 --> 00:04:29.000 Because. 88 00:04:30.000 --> 00:04:31.000 Yeah. 89 00:04:31.000 --> 00:04:32.000 You know, 90 00:04:32.000 --> 00:04:37.000 I think it's important to do stuff like that. 91 00:04:37.000 --> 00:04:38.000 And in theory, it all sounds nice, 92 00:04:38.000 --> 00:04:40.000 but we haven't been giving ourself permission that. 93 00:04:40.000 --> 00:04:41.000 For so long. 94 00:04:41.000 --> 00:04:43.000 That so often. 95 00:04:43.000 --> 00:04:45.000 Quite honestly, most people don't do. 96 00:04:45.000 --> 00:04:49.000 Don't follow through with it. 97 00:04:49.000 --> 00:04:51.000 I'll tell him, Hey, look, do this and do that. 98 00:04:51.000 --> 00:04:53.000 I think people forget that it's a mentorship program. 99 00:04:53.000 --> 00:04:55.000 Like a church service, like. 100 00:04:55.000 --> 00:04:57.000 Oh, that sounded great. But I'm like, no, no, no, no. 101 00:04:57.000 --> 00:04:58.000 You don't have to. 102 00:04:58.000 --> 00:05:01.000 You don't have to be a mentor. 103 00:05:00.000 --> 00:05:01.000 Do something. 104 00:05:01.000 --> 00:05:03.000 A coach for you to actually do. 105 00:05:01.000 --> 00:05:02.000 Do something. 106 00:05:02.000 --> 00:05:03.000 Do it. 107 00:05:03.000 --> 00:05:04.000 Why? 108 00:05:04.000 --> 00:05:05.000 Because it works. 109 00:05:05.000 --> 00:05:06.000 Yeah. 110 00:05:06.000 --> 00:05:07.000 Yeah. 111 00:05:07.000 --> 00:05:08.000 It's not just for yourself. 112 00:05:08.000 --> 00:05:09.520 Everybody has their own hobbies. 113 00:05:09.520 --> 00:05:13.040 They have enough hobbies without having to join a breast cancer program to add another 114 00:05:13.040 --> 00:05:14.040 one. 115 00:05:14.040 --> 00:05:15.040 I'm like, no, no, no. 116 00:05:15.040 --> 00:05:16.760 This is for it to work. 117 00:05:16.760 --> 00:05:20.680 This is for it to help you get the change in your life that you want. 118 00:05:20.680 --> 00:05:25.080 And so do it because if you want a result out of it, you tell me the result that you 119 00:05:25.080 --> 00:05:26.080 want. 120 00:05:26.080 --> 00:05:27.080 This is the thing that'll help you. 121 00:05:27.080 --> 00:05:28.080 Yeah. 122 00:05:28.080 --> 00:05:29.080 Yeah. 123 00:05:29.080 --> 00:05:30.080 Yeah. 124 00:05:30.080 --> 00:05:31.080 Yeah. 125 00:05:31.080 --> 00:05:32.080 Yeah. 126 00:05:32.080 --> 00:05:33.080 Yeah. 127 00:05:33.080 --> 00:05:34.080 Yeah. 128 00:05:34.080 --> 00:05:35.080 Yeah. 129 00:05:35.080 --> 00:05:36.080 Yeah. 130 00:05:36.080 --> 00:05:37.080 Yeah. 131 00:05:37.080 --> 00:05:38.080 Yeah. 132 00:05:38.080 --> 00:05:39.080 I do. 133 00:05:39.080 --> 00:05:40.080 I do. 134 00:05:40.080 --> 00:05:41.080 I really do. 135 00:05:41.080 --> 00:05:43.080 I was excited to hear about the room. 136 00:05:43.080 --> 00:05:44.080 Oh my gosh. 137 00:05:44.080 --> 00:05:45.080 Yeah. 138 00:05:45.080 --> 00:05:46.960 It's not finished yet, but I've been talking about it for months. 139 00:05:46.960 --> 00:05:51.480 So I'm like, Nope, it's getting done day by day. 140 00:05:51.480 --> 00:05:57.560 So for you, it is, I've noticed. 141 00:05:57.560 --> 00:05:58.560 I've noticed. 142 00:05:58.560 --> 00:05:59.560 That's a thing for me. 143 00:05:59.560 --> 00:06:00.560 Renata knows this too. 144 00:06:00.560 --> 00:06:05.960 It's like, I think it generally goes back to not, not being satisfied. 145 00:06:05.960 --> 00:06:06.960 And then it's the weight. 146 00:06:06.960 --> 00:06:11.640 And then if I'm chaotic, I don't know how you both are, but if things are chaotic around 147 00:06:11.640 --> 00:06:16.760 me, you can tell by coming into my house because it does not look good. 148 00:06:16.760 --> 00:06:19.160 It's like so messy everywhere. 149 00:06:19.160 --> 00:06:25.240 And so I know when I start cleaning, I'm like, okay, I'm actually doing more than just cleaning. 150 00:06:25.240 --> 00:06:26.240 Yeah. 151 00:06:26.240 --> 00:06:27.240 Yeah. 152 00:06:27.920 --> 00:06:28.920 It's the same with like, yeah. 153 00:06:28.920 --> 00:06:29.920 No, go ahead. 154 00:06:29.920 --> 00:06:30.920 Sorry. 155 00:06:30.920 --> 00:06:31.920 No, no. 156 00:06:31.920 --> 00:06:34.080 I was going to say, it's the same when I lost weight. 157 00:06:34.080 --> 00:06:40.520 I saw that that was like, oh, I started to get like traumatized, like feelings coming 158 00:06:40.520 --> 00:06:41.520 up. 159 00:06:41.520 --> 00:06:48.240 And then I was like, oh, then just God showed me, oh, but it's because you used it as protection, 160 00:06:48.240 --> 00:06:49.240 you know? 161 00:06:49.240 --> 00:06:54.240 So when, when you lose the protection, the physical protection, the feelings have nowhere 162 00:06:54.240 --> 00:06:55.240 to hide. 163 00:06:55.240 --> 00:07:01.680 So you have to deal with them or you can eat again and gain weight. 164 00:07:01.680 --> 00:07:03.280 So yeah. 165 00:07:03.280 --> 00:07:05.200 Recurring themes of my life. 166 00:07:05.200 --> 00:07:06.200 Yeah. 167 00:07:06.200 --> 00:07:07.200 Yeah. 168 00:07:07.200 --> 00:07:08.200 Yeah. 169 00:07:08.200 --> 00:07:13.080 And yeah, speaking of all of that, there was something I was going to mention about you 170 00:07:13.080 --> 00:07:17.920 when you talked about, you said, well, you expected that when you went through the grief 171 00:07:17.920 --> 00:07:22.520 of losing your father, that you expected to lose weight because you said that's what happened 172 00:07:22.520 --> 00:07:27.080 last time you were in a very intense, stressful situation. 173 00:07:27.080 --> 00:07:31.800 And I don't know for sure because you know, everyone, everyone's different, but what popped, 174 00:07:31.800 --> 00:07:36.360 what occurred to me and as a possibility, and then of course you ping this off of your 175 00:07:36.360 --> 00:07:41.400 own spirit to determine whether or not this is true for you, but it's possible is that 176 00:07:41.400 --> 00:07:46.040 back then there was an aspect of your self esteem that was hit. 177 00:07:46.040 --> 00:07:51.600 And a lot of times what we do as women is instead of choosing self comfort, we turn 178 00:07:51.680 --> 00:07:52.680 against ourselves. 179 00:07:52.680 --> 00:07:57.520 I mean, both is turning against ourselves, eating too much or not enough, but the not 180 00:07:57.520 --> 00:07:59.960 enough as a result of not feeling good about ourselves. 181 00:07:59.960 --> 00:08:07.720 So we, I mean, so we subconsciously try to make ourselves better in the way that we psychologically 182 00:08:07.720 --> 00:08:08.760 see it. 183 00:08:08.760 --> 00:08:13.240 And so we don't eat because we don't think that as that we're not, we think that there's 184 00:08:13.240 --> 00:08:18.200 something wrong with us as we are against subconsciously, or we at least use our bodies 185 00:08:18.200 --> 00:08:20.440 as like the thing that we blame. 186 00:08:20.440 --> 00:08:24.520 And then, and then you reduce it while with the grief, there wasn't anything personally 187 00:08:24.520 --> 00:08:26.760 back to you that you were affected by. 188 00:08:26.760 --> 00:08:29.960 And so it was just so, but you needed the comfort. 189 00:08:29.960 --> 00:08:34.360 So then we end up eating now, it could be, I could be completely wrong, but that is one 190 00:08:34.360 --> 00:08:39.840 of the reasons that is something that at least some people in your situation, why it would 191 00:08:39.840 --> 00:08:44.280 have been different, the different responses in each situation. 192 00:08:44.280 --> 00:08:49.120 And I know for myself, that's how it's been for me sometimes is that it's based off of 193 00:08:49.120 --> 00:08:52.520 our, am I trying to comfort or am I trying to fix? 194 00:08:52.520 --> 00:08:53.920 And I'm not even trying to do it. 195 00:08:53.920 --> 00:08:58.440 I'm not trying to gain weight, I'm not trying to lose weight, but it, it's the consciously 196 00:08:58.440 --> 00:08:59.440 what's going on. 197 00:08:59.440 --> 00:09:06.280 Am I a problem that I'm trying to fix, like in my own mind, or am I, you know, my emotions 198 00:09:06.280 --> 00:09:11.040 or am, you know, or am I just trying to, everything's going on chaotic around me. 199 00:09:11.040 --> 00:09:15.120 So I'm trying to gain some form of control and I can control what I eat. 200 00:09:15.120 --> 00:09:20.240 In other words, I'm going to eat more if, if everything's being taken from me, how can 201 00:09:20.240 --> 00:09:27.200 I get, so especially in a loss, something's taken, how can I, how can I, what can I grab 202 00:09:27.200 --> 00:09:28.640 and bring towards me again? 203 00:09:28.640 --> 00:09:30.280 Anyway, everybody's different. 204 00:09:30.280 --> 00:09:32.640 No, it makes total sense. 205 00:09:32.640 --> 00:09:33.640 Yeah. 206 00:09:33.640 --> 00:09:40.360 So I just, I didn't, I think that makes total sense because yeah, both how can I get with 207 00:09:40.360 --> 00:09:43.400 grief and then also being in a chaotic, like new job. 208 00:09:43.400 --> 00:09:50.880 So I do, I said on my thing that you both saw where I'm like, okay, I'm trying to like 209 00:09:50.880 --> 00:09:51.880 adapt. 210 00:09:51.880 --> 00:09:52.880 Like, how is this how I do it? 211 00:09:52.880 --> 00:09:53.880 Do I speak to my body? 212 00:09:53.880 --> 00:09:57.720 Do I, but I don't know if I'm at the level of faith because right now I don't feel like 213 00:09:57.720 --> 00:09:59.960 I'm, I don't right now. 214 00:10:00.000 --> 00:10:09.680 not losing weight, you know. So I still feel like, oh, I need to be mindful. I got, 215 00:10:10.240 --> 00:10:19.280 what's a win though? I got joyful about, how can I say this? I've had this eating program before 216 00:10:19.840 --> 00:10:24.880 and I looked at it and it was mainly like pescatarian. Anyways, I looked at it and I 217 00:10:24.880 --> 00:10:30.960 became joyful thinking, oh, I can actually do this and it won't be stressful. Like I'm motivated. 218 00:10:32.000 --> 00:10:37.120 But that's still like living on the second level. So I'm trying to do both. I'm trying to both 219 00:10:37.120 --> 00:10:44.800 be like, oh, maybe I can do that until I get my faith level up to, you know, the spirit where I 220 00:10:44.800 --> 00:10:49.840 can actually, cause I try to speak, like I speak in authority, but with kindness, but I don't know 221 00:10:49.840 --> 00:10:54.800 if I have the level of faith for, I don't know how that's supposed to work, that the weight 222 00:10:55.360 --> 00:11:00.480 magically drops, you know, like in one of, we've heard in like meetings, you know, where people 223 00:11:00.480 --> 00:11:05.120 come in with gray hair and walk out with brown hair and they lose 10 pounds, you know, in the 224 00:11:05.120 --> 00:11:10.960 meeting. I don't, I don't know what it looks like when you like align with the spirit, but. 225 00:11:10.960 --> 00:11:16.560 Yeah. No, I think that what you're doing is great. It's perfect because that, and that's what I try 226 00:11:16.560 --> 00:11:20.800 to encourage people in is so often we think, oh my goodness, you know, I don't want to be here. 227 00:11:20.800 --> 00:11:26.160 I want to be here. So they try to figure out, well, how do I be all in here? But the point is 228 00:11:26.160 --> 00:11:31.120 that they're not at the level. Like you've realized you're not to the point where you can do that. 229 00:11:31.120 --> 00:11:36.640 There's, you can do it more than you could yesterday. So that's where, that's where we're 230 00:11:36.640 --> 00:11:43.680 supposed to live is what level of, to what degree can you agree with God and agree with him to that 231 00:11:43.680 --> 00:11:48.960 degree, choose to that degree. In other words, have faith in him to that degree. And then the 232 00:11:48.960 --> 00:11:56.000 rest of it, except as a good gift from a kind father who loves you, who allows you to use this 233 00:11:56.000 --> 00:12:02.800 tool with this, this diet, this motivation, this whatever, because God's gifts are not bad. 234 00:12:03.520 --> 00:12:11.520 And it's just, in fact, God's Jesus himself still used the tools. He still ate and he still did 235 00:12:11.520 --> 00:12:17.600 whatever that the difference was he had learned that he did. He wasn't subject to them. So God 236 00:12:17.600 --> 00:12:23.520 isn't going to get us to the point where we, I mean, I could be wrong, but he talks, even he 237 00:12:23.520 --> 00:12:27.280 talks for instance, about the marriage, separate the land, you know, my goodness. So apparently 238 00:12:27.280 --> 00:12:32.880 food is great and food is very important, but he wants us to learn how to enjoy it without relying 239 00:12:32.880 --> 00:12:39.520 on it. So the whole thing is that it's not like, like even using the tool, like a diet is bad. 240 00:12:39.680 --> 00:12:46.000 It's just my science and the way that I created the body to work and respond to food or whatever. 241 00:12:46.000 --> 00:12:50.160 I'm the one who created it to work like that. And I don't create bad things. So, 242 00:12:52.000 --> 00:12:57.520 so, so in other words, don't villainize. So that's one of the big things is don't villainize 243 00:12:57.520 --> 00:13:03.200 whatever it is that you're doing. So have faith and choose God to the degree that you believe 244 00:13:03.200 --> 00:13:08.320 that you can. And the rest of it, you're like, okay, God, I can only believe you to this degree 245 00:13:08.320 --> 00:13:14.720 right now, but it's more, more than I used to. And the part that I'm going to be doing 246 00:13:15.760 --> 00:13:20.800 that is feels like the old stuff I used to do. You're now going to be doing it from a different 247 00:13:20.800 --> 00:13:28.960 source. So what I recommend is you do rest tool, rest shifting tool, number five, remember, which 248 00:13:28.960 --> 00:13:35.360 is the number four is choose. In other words, have faith and go where your spirit finds peace. 249 00:13:35.360 --> 00:13:42.080 In other words, that's the, that is having faith on something and acting on it. But then what about 250 00:13:42.080 --> 00:13:46.160 the rest of it? What about the rest of the degree to which you can't shift into rest? You know, 251 00:13:46.160 --> 00:13:50.560 you can, it allows you to rest it to shift into rest a bit more, but what about the rest of it? 252 00:13:50.560 --> 00:13:56.160 Well, the rest of it go again to the next one, which is declare what God said is true. Since 253 00:13:56.160 --> 00:13:59.920 you can't choose it and you can't have faith in it, you did it to whatever degree you could. 254 00:13:59.920 --> 00:14:04.880 Now, how do you get the rest of it? You declare that what God said about himself and about you is 255 00:14:04.960 --> 00:14:12.640 true and then go where your soul finds peace. But the way that this is different is that meaning 256 00:14:12.640 --> 00:14:20.080 like than you've done in the past is that you act instead of using this tool because God's not 257 00:14:20.080 --> 00:14:25.040 helping you in that area. So you have to do it yourself. That's how we've done it in the past. 258 00:14:25.760 --> 00:14:29.680 Instead, we change our perspective of like, okay, God, I'm going to get a bit closer to 259 00:14:29.760 --> 00:14:36.160 eventually being able to choose and have faith in this area. So my meat, my middle step is taking 260 00:14:36.160 --> 00:14:43.680 this tool and choosing to receive it as your gift that you gave to me, as opposed to I'm doing it 261 00:14:43.680 --> 00:14:50.160 because you're not doing anything instead. No, God is being who he says that he is. And that's 262 00:14:50.160 --> 00:14:57.280 where he gave this to me. He gave me this tool to love on me, to help me, to give me a means by 263 00:14:57.280 --> 00:14:59.920 that I could grab and protect. 264 00:15:00.000 --> 00:15:04.880 myself. So receive it as him giving it to you, receive it as 265 00:15:04.880 --> 00:15:08.440 him being good. So basically, my point is, think about like, for 266 00:15:08.440 --> 00:15:11.540 instance, if we're talking about like the goodness of God, okay, 267 00:15:11.540 --> 00:15:14.720 well, God, I can believe that you're good to this degree. So 268 00:15:14.720 --> 00:15:16.720 I'm going to believe it, I'm going to choose it, I'm going to 269 00:15:16.720 --> 00:15:20.680 act on it. But God, I'm struggling to believe that 270 00:15:20.680 --> 00:15:23.680 you're good to this degree. So what do I do about the extra 271 00:15:23.680 --> 00:15:26.440 bit, that extra bit, you're like, okay, God, instead of me 272 00:15:26.440 --> 00:15:31.680 turning to a diet, to fix myself, because these are all 273 00:15:31.680 --> 00:15:35.680 the things that I use myself, you know, to fix myself, you 274 00:15:35.680 --> 00:15:38.680 know, because you're not helping me, because you're not being 275 00:15:38.680 --> 00:15:41.840 good and helping me, I'm going to choose this instead of that, 276 00:15:41.840 --> 00:15:46.000 Lord, I'm choosing that you are giving me this diet to do and 277 00:15:46.000 --> 00:15:50.680 allowing my body to respond to it. Because you're who I'm 278 00:15:50.680 --> 00:15:53.520 asking you to be, I'm asking you to be good, I'm asking you to 279 00:15:53.520 --> 00:15:58.560 help me. And so you came in. So you actually received it as him 280 00:15:58.600 --> 00:16:03.120 answering your prayer, instead of choosing it, because he's not 281 00:16:03.120 --> 00:16:06.280 answering your prayer. Totally different. Totally different. 282 00:16:06.360 --> 00:16:07.320 Yeah, yeah. 283 00:16:07.600 --> 00:16:11.280 Oh, that's so good. How are you doing? And yeah, yeah, thanks. 284 00:16:11.280 --> 00:16:15.000 Yeah. I, I'm interested to hear how you're doing in that too, 285 00:16:15.000 --> 00:16:17.240 Renata, because you mentioned that the last time. 286 00:16:17.880 --> 00:16:22.840 This is so good, Annette and Ashley, I have been dying to 287 00:16:22.840 --> 00:16:27.640 come out, come up tonight to and this is like, I wanted to share 288 00:16:27.640 --> 00:16:30.200 some things. But this is one of the things that I wanted to 289 00:16:30.200 --> 00:16:35.040 share is that I'm struggling so much with weight. So Annette, 290 00:16:35.040 --> 00:16:39.000 you're bringing it up. It's so great. And my perspective is, 291 00:16:39.040 --> 00:16:43.320 and I'm, I'm putting on weight. And Annette is really good with 292 00:16:43.320 --> 00:16:47.040 lots of things in this, but I haven't worked out for half a 293 00:16:47.040 --> 00:16:51.560 year. Like, not even once. I've gone for several walks, several 294 00:16:51.560 --> 00:16:55.760 times a week, but I haven't worked out. And with me, the 295 00:16:55.760 --> 00:17:02.880 issue is that I for 14 years have lost weight, and gained it 296 00:17:02.880 --> 00:17:05.960 and then kept it off. And like, and I've used like, Annette and 297 00:17:05.960 --> 00:17:08.680 I have talked about it. It's been different kind of diet, 298 00:17:08.680 --> 00:17:11.720 it's been different kind of workout. And I've always been 299 00:17:11.720 --> 00:17:15.560 really motivated and disciplined. Annette knows this, 300 00:17:15.560 --> 00:17:20.880 like I go by myself, and then I've held it up for a while, 301 00:17:20.880 --> 00:17:23.280 and then something happened. And I gained and then disciplined 302 00:17:23.280 --> 00:17:27.200 and do the whole old thing again, and again. And what 303 00:17:27.200 --> 00:17:30.440 happened is that one of the things that are great is that 304 00:17:30.440 --> 00:17:34.080 I'm doing better, like my life is in a much better place than 305 00:17:34.080 --> 00:17:38.480 it has been for years. But also, I've been in so much pain, 306 00:17:38.840 --> 00:17:42.680 physically and mentally for so many years, that now that I'm 307 00:17:42.680 --> 00:17:48.360 doing better, it's like I can't handle pain and disciplining 308 00:17:48.360 --> 00:17:52.720 myself and, and going into different regimes of things 309 00:17:52.720 --> 00:17:55.480 anymore. And I think it's because I've been disciplining 310 00:17:55.480 --> 00:17:58.800 myself so much on a mental level, like for my emotions and 311 00:17:58.800 --> 00:18:02.280 my mental health, and physically with weight and other things in 312 00:18:02.280 --> 00:18:06.320 my life to actually just survive in my life. And now that I'm 313 00:18:06.320 --> 00:18:10.360 doing better, I just want to do good. I can't force my body to 314 00:18:10.560 --> 00:18:14.240 do anything. I just want, I just want to be in rest and have 315 00:18:14.240 --> 00:18:16.880 peace. And I want to eat what I want to eat. If I don't want to 316 00:18:16.880 --> 00:18:20.320 work out, I don't want to work out. I just want to and I'm just 317 00:18:20.320 --> 00:18:25.880 want to enjoy actually being horrible. And the bad thing 318 00:18:25.880 --> 00:18:26.520 though, is that... 319 00:18:27.000 --> 00:18:28.240 Sign me up for that. 320 00:18:29.400 --> 00:18:32.400 I'm not working out. I'm not telling myself that I love my 321 00:18:32.400 --> 00:18:36.440 body. But and that the thing that you said about accepting my 322 00:18:36.440 --> 00:18:40.400 body, even if it doesn't lose weight, but I don't think like 323 00:18:40.400 --> 00:18:43.440 and I said that my level of faith is actually at that 324 00:18:43.440 --> 00:18:45.800 point. So it's not working. 325 00:18:47.480 --> 00:18:48.440 Bummer, huh? 326 00:18:50.480 --> 00:18:54.080 The old mode of disciplining myself, but also it's like I'm 327 00:18:54.080 --> 00:18:57.600 learning about living in rest. And I want to do it differently. 328 00:18:57.600 --> 00:19:00.560 I want to do it in a new way, something that I don't have to 329 00:19:00.560 --> 00:19:03.880 go up and down for the next 20 years of my life. And like 330 00:19:03.920 --> 00:19:07.240 weight being an issue for another 14 years of my life. I'm 331 00:19:07.240 --> 00:19:10.960 like, I want to live and rest and I want to eat to do that 332 00:19:10.960 --> 00:19:16.760 healthy and I want to want to exercise. But now I just can't 333 00:19:16.800 --> 00:19:20.440 seem to discipline myself in anything with weight and what 334 00:19:20.440 --> 00:19:24.720 happens? I gain and then I start panicking and stressing out 335 00:19:24.720 --> 00:19:28.520 about it. But I don't have the level of discipline that I 336 00:19:28.520 --> 00:19:31.960 actually believe that I can go through a hard diet or workout 337 00:19:31.960 --> 00:19:35.560 program. Again, and at the same time, I don't know if I believe 338 00:19:35.560 --> 00:19:38.680 in it, in the things that you've taught us, actually, that you 339 00:19:38.680 --> 00:19:43.240 can actually live and rest in this area. So you guys are 340 00:19:43.240 --> 00:19:46.400 talking about this, it's just like, it's so good, because it's 341 00:19:46.400 --> 00:19:49.520 exactly what has been on my mind that I one of the things that I 342 00:19:49.520 --> 00:19:54.040 really wanted to get help and share tonight, because I feel 343 00:19:54.040 --> 00:19:54.560 really good. 344 00:19:56.600 --> 00:19:59.760 At least it helped me when you actually said that all you can 345 00:19:59.760 --> 00:20:00.040 use 346 00:20:00.000 --> 00:20:06.640 the tool when you don't have the faith for it yet. You know what I mean? Like, as you know, Renata, 347 00:20:06.640 --> 00:20:13.440 I've been a tiny bit frustrated at my life for the last years, but now I'm getting words to it 348 00:20:13.440 --> 00:20:20.400 because I'm like, oh, I get why. It's because my spirit knows I'm supposed to live on the third 349 00:20:20.400 --> 00:20:26.800 level, and I get frustrated because I know I'm living on level one and two, but I want to live 350 00:20:26.800 --> 00:20:31.920 from level three, but I don't know how to access it. So that's what you're saying now. It's like, 351 00:20:31.920 --> 00:20:36.000 oh, but I want this. I just want to be there and speak, and it drops, you know? 352 00:20:37.520 --> 00:20:42.480 One day, it's going to happen. Yes. Well, you remember what Paul says. He says, 353 00:20:42.480 --> 00:20:47.520 I do what I don't want to do, you know, what I do want to do. I don't remember how he would say, 354 00:20:47.520 --> 00:20:52.560 you know, what do I do? I don't do what I, you know, don't do. I wish I would, whatever, 355 00:20:52.560 --> 00:20:57.280 you know, and he just, like, it's just battling with himself. It's because, you know, we're both 356 00:20:57.280 --> 00:21:06.400 spirit and soul, and so we just have this, there's this, there's this struggle between the two, 357 00:21:06.400 --> 00:21:12.480 and even Jesus struggled, and that he just always let the spirit win because he learned things by 358 00:21:12.480 --> 00:21:18.160 the things that he, he learned obedience by the things that he suffered. The suffering that God 359 00:21:18.160 --> 00:21:23.680 himself doesn't suffer, so when he was in a physical form, why did he suffer? He suffered 360 00:21:23.680 --> 00:21:29.680 because there was opposition between the soul and the spirit. It says that the spirit wars, 361 00:21:29.680 --> 00:21:38.880 or the soul wars against the spirit, and, and spirit wars against the flesh. So anyway, that's 362 00:21:38.880 --> 00:21:43.760 all very, you know, normal human experience, but that's what it is that we're doing, is that's what 363 00:21:43.760 --> 00:21:53.360 the overcoming is, and that's what Jesus did. It's, it's actually overcoming our, our, our, 364 00:21:54.640 --> 00:22:01.360 our temptation to choose to protect and provide for ourself, you know, and to not believe God, 365 00:22:01.360 --> 00:22:09.280 you know, etc. And you know what you were talking about, Renata, about the, about having a hard time 366 00:22:10.000 --> 00:22:16.240 once you've learned, you know, about rest, and, and how much easier that life can be. 367 00:22:17.200 --> 00:22:21.360 What we have a tendency to do, and it's fascinating that you're bringing this up, 368 00:22:21.360 --> 00:22:30.400 because a lot of people don't, again, have this insight to realize that they eventually get to 369 00:22:30.400 --> 00:22:39.360 this point. So, and that is that, that we, we get to the point where we're, where we've, 370 00:22:40.000 --> 00:22:46.560 we realize that there's this other way to live, but we don't know how to, how to experience and 371 00:22:46.560 --> 00:22:53.920 go through pain in a different way. Like, because we're just so used to going through it, in the 372 00:22:54.880 --> 00:23:01.680 unrest, how do you go through it in rest? We're only used to dealing with it from a particular 373 00:23:01.680 --> 00:23:08.880 perspective. So we think that, we're thinking, I don't want to go back. So there's a measure in 374 00:23:08.880 --> 00:23:15.920 which we're, where you're actually traumatized from your experience with pain, with your, 375 00:23:15.920 --> 00:23:23.360 your experience with discipline, your experience, you know, with a, with a, with struggle, 376 00:23:23.360 --> 00:23:27.600 and, and all of that, because there's nothing wrong with discipline, and discipline is a godly 377 00:23:27.600 --> 00:23:33.360 thing, and it can be gone through in rest. But a lot of times what we've done is, if we have, 378 00:23:33.360 --> 00:23:41.920 is if we have approached discipline with sweat, you know, and effort, then we're afraid of 379 00:23:41.920 --> 00:23:47.120 discipline. And discipline isn't wrong, it's just that we've approached it from the hard, 380 00:23:47.120 --> 00:23:53.120 from the hard direction, and we can actually approach it in rest. We can approach it where 381 00:23:53.120 --> 00:23:58.720 we're not, see, a lot of times with discipline, we're approaching ourselves as this enemy we're 382 00:23:58.720 --> 00:24:04.160 trying to fight and conquer. Like, okay, look, get with the program, you know, I don't know what's 383 00:24:04.160 --> 00:24:09.600 wrong with you, but we can, you know, you're acting in a way that mentally I do not agree with, 384 00:24:10.160 --> 00:24:16.240 and, and you're fighting yourself, as opposed to choosing something for yourself. 385 00:24:17.200 --> 00:24:21.440 So it's kind of view, so what we've done in the past with, with discipline, like say, 386 00:24:21.440 --> 00:24:25.680 for instance, discipline to exercise, or discipline to only eat particular things, 387 00:24:25.680 --> 00:24:32.080 or whatever, or do not eat particular things, is thinking of ourselves as wanting to do something 388 00:24:32.080 --> 00:24:36.320 really, really bad, or not wanting to do something like exercise really, really, really bad, 389 00:24:36.320 --> 00:24:41.520 and we're just gonna make ourselves do it. You know, that is approaching it from a perspective 390 00:24:41.520 --> 00:24:47.120 that we're an enemy, that we're having to fight that, as opposed to thinking, no, 391 00:24:47.120 --> 00:24:52.560 this is something I am choosing for me, because this is something that I want in my life. 392 00:24:52.560 --> 00:24:59.760 So instead of viewing, instead of viewing life from this perspective of, of a victim. 393 00:25:00.000 --> 00:25:07.760 of like I have to respond as if our lives are created by how we have to be 394 00:25:07.760 --> 00:25:12.600 flexible to respond to what happens to us, what comes at us. Okay, I'm in this 395 00:25:12.600 --> 00:25:18.280 situation, now I have to do, now it's, now this thing that's happening is making me 396 00:25:18.280 --> 00:25:21.920 do something I really don't want to do, but now I have to do it because this 397 00:25:21.920 --> 00:25:26.800 thing happened to me or whatever, including ourselves. You know, I've now 398 00:25:26.800 --> 00:25:30.520 found myself in this situation, I'm now weighing something I don't want to weigh, 399 00:25:30.520 --> 00:25:36.800 or I'm now doing, you know, whatever, you know, and, and, or my body is now has 400 00:25:36.800 --> 00:25:41.560 this, this sickness or this whatever, and I don't like it, now I'm being made to, I 401 00:25:41.560 --> 00:25:47.800 have to, whatever. That is a, that, you're right, that makes, that is a lot harder of 402 00:25:47.800 --> 00:25:54.640 a motivation and approach to discipline versus choosing, you know, what kind of a 403 00:25:54.640 --> 00:25:59.680 life do I want to create for myself? Is that what I have? No. Okay, well then 404 00:25:59.680 --> 00:26:05.440 create it, and then how can I, how do I create the type of life that I want for 405 00:26:05.440 --> 00:26:10.320 me? Well, I exercise, you know, I eat these things, and I don't eat these things, and 406 00:26:10.320 --> 00:26:14.520 I whatever, because what you're doing, you're deciding on the offensive, in 407 00:26:14.520 --> 00:26:18.680 other words, creatively, you're co-creating with God, this is what I want 408 00:26:18.680 --> 00:26:22.560 to do, in other words, this is what I want to create, this is how I want to move 409 00:26:22.560 --> 00:26:27.920 forward, this is what I want to bring into the earth and make out of my life, 410 00:26:27.920 --> 00:26:34.560 as opposed to thinking that our life is going to happen because of how hard we 411 00:26:34.560 --> 00:26:40.800 fight all the things that are coming against it. This is exhausting. So if we 412 00:26:40.800 --> 00:26:47.640 change our approach to discipline, if we change our approach to the exercise, our 413 00:26:47.640 --> 00:26:53.720 approach to the diet, our approach to what we used to find to be so hard, if we 414 00:26:53.720 --> 00:26:59.680 approach it now from rest, then we end up doing the things that we need to do 415 00:26:59.680 --> 00:27:05.320 because they're good things that enable us to co-create with the Lord in a 416 00:27:05.320 --> 00:27:09.360 very positive way and bring new things of the Spirit of Heaven into the earth. 417 00:27:10.120 --> 00:27:18.120 That's a lot, it makes it a lot easier and more fun to live life and to get up 418 00:27:18.120 --> 00:27:20.560 in the morning to do all these things that originally we didn't want to do, 419 00:27:21.080 --> 00:27:25.280 than to do it from, you know, from the way that we used to do it. It's like, oh, I 420 00:27:25.280 --> 00:27:26.920 have to, it's a perspective. 421 00:27:26.920 --> 00:27:27.960 Can I ask a question? 422 00:27:28.400 --> 00:27:28.800 No. 423 00:27:29.080 --> 00:27:36.000 What about if you, because when I had to lose lost before, I had to live on such 424 00:27:36.200 --> 00:27:41.200 an element that it's not, that you're almost a little bit starving or you're 425 00:27:41.280 --> 00:27:48.200 under so much pressure. Could it be that it is like your body's fighting against 426 00:27:48.200 --> 00:27:53.360 yourself? That's why I think I started to get into it again. But I probably was 427 00:27:53.400 --> 00:27:56.560 approaching discipline from maybe like the wrong place, just like you're 428 00:27:56.560 --> 00:28:00.720 explaining right now. And I'm thinking like, because in my mind, I'm like, if 429 00:28:00.760 --> 00:28:06.120 I'm going to lose like I've done before, I have to have this extreme, limited 430 00:28:06.520 --> 00:28:12.240 lifestyle with eating so little. And that's what I'm dreading. And now that 431 00:28:12.240 --> 00:28:17.440 I'm actually doing better, I just don't believe in it enough to want to go back 432 00:28:17.440 --> 00:28:21.880 there. But that's my only solution in my mind, because that's how I lost in the 433 00:28:21.880 --> 00:28:22.440 past. 434 00:28:22.680 --> 00:28:28.280 But I have a comment there, because that's, it's kind of like we're in this 435 00:28:28.280 --> 00:28:33.480 grief with mentorship. So I have a health coach, you know, where they gave 436 00:28:33.480 --> 00:28:36.640 me this is the exercise. And they're like, What do you want? I like I hate 437 00:28:36.640 --> 00:28:40.600 working out the least minimum, like give me the least I have to do. That's what I 438 00:28:40.600 --> 00:28:44.040 want to do. So they gave me that. So that's why I'm like, Oh, I can build on 439 00:28:44.040 --> 00:28:51.880 this, I actually feel like, you know, I'm succeeding. And they give you food to 440 00:28:51.880 --> 00:28:56.880 eat based on calories depends on how much I mean, there's a billion different 441 00:28:56.880 --> 00:29:00.120 ways. So you'll have to ask God, like, what's the right thing for you? This 442 00:29:00.120 --> 00:29:03.480 worked for me, it's still counting calories. A lot of people are like, if 443 00:29:03.480 --> 00:29:10.560 you just eat wholesome food, then you'll use we're different. So but but they go 444 00:29:10.560 --> 00:29:15.320 by, but regardless of what you choose, I think you will be led to some sort of 445 00:29:15.320 --> 00:29:22.600 like 8020 where you like, you know, 80%, you have to watch, you know, because we 446 00:29:22.600 --> 00:29:28.360 have to and everything in life. But it's also enjoying and making room to go 447 00:29:28.360 --> 00:29:33.400 with parties and have cake and you know, like and you can still lose weight while 448 00:29:33.400 --> 00:29:38.680 enjoying life and eating a lot of good food and not starving yourself. 449 00:29:40.120 --> 00:29:47.320 Yeah, yeah. And, and that remember that one of the ladies in the rest 450 00:29:47.320 --> 00:29:51.240 intensives gone through and she was just struggling to lose weight. I mean, she 451 00:29:51.240 --> 00:29:56.760 was trying everything. And she was, you know, exercise really, really, really 452 00:29:56.760 --> 00:29:59.960 hard and she had reduced her her calorie count. 453 00:30:00.000 --> 00:30:04.120 really, really small and, and only eating new things and not eating new things and 454 00:30:04.120 --> 00:30:07.860 all this stuff, and she was exhausted with the amount of work and other words, 455 00:30:07.860 --> 00:30:11.640 effort she was putting into it, mental, emotional, physical, whatever, into all 456 00:30:11.640 --> 00:30:14.920 of this, and she's like, actually, even like that, she had it, she had a 457 00:30:14.920 --> 00:30:19.160 nutritionist and she said, actually, even my nutritionist is surprised that I'm 458 00:30:19.160 --> 00:30:23.120 just not that I'm holding onto it and I'm not losing it and she didn't know why. 459 00:30:23.160 --> 00:30:26.640 And I suggested, well, and I think that you could be, you know, give, give 460 00:30:26.840 --> 00:30:28.160 this testimony before or not. 461 00:30:28.720 --> 00:30:33.920 She said, and I was in so she was asking me, do you, how do you, you know, how can 462 00:30:33.920 --> 00:30:34.720 I do this and rest? 463 00:30:34.720 --> 00:30:36.280 Because this is just a part of my life. 464 00:30:36.280 --> 00:30:42.080 It's just not fun, but I'm putting forth a lot of exertion and, and, and I said, 465 00:30:42.080 --> 00:30:47.120 well, I said, it's important to, to love yourself, to love your body. 466 00:30:47.120 --> 00:30:52.640 I said, that's how I started gaining control over my weight is when I owned, 467 00:30:53.000 --> 00:30:57.040 not just when I owned my own body, but I, when I say own my own body, I mean, like 468 00:30:57.040 --> 00:31:04.280 I owned it by and delighted in it, like this is mine and I like it and I choose, 469 00:31:04.360 --> 00:31:05.400 I choose it. 470 00:31:06.240 --> 00:31:07.960 I, it wasn't thrust on me. 471 00:31:08.760 --> 00:31:10.480 I choose it, you know? 472 00:31:10.800 --> 00:31:17.960 And, and then, and I accepted it as it was without requiring it to be different 473 00:31:18.320 --> 00:31:22.960 ever without requiring to ever lose weight and for it to ever look any different than 474 00:31:22.960 --> 00:31:23.280 it did. 475 00:31:24.360 --> 00:31:30.080 And we can tell our bodies that as much as we want, but our bodies know whether or 476 00:31:30.080 --> 00:31:31.040 not we believe it. 477 00:31:31.200 --> 00:31:35.520 It knows whether or not we are really accepting it because that's an emotional, 478 00:31:35.600 --> 00:31:39.720 um, kind of like a spiritual energy that it's receiving from it. 479 00:31:40.160 --> 00:31:43.360 And that's what it's taking its instruction from, not what words we say. 480 00:31:44.120 --> 00:31:48.840 So, because our word, unless our words actually are backing up what it is that we 481 00:31:48.840 --> 00:31:52.000 really believe, but if our words are saying one thing, but really how we feel is 482 00:31:52.000 --> 00:31:52.680 totally different. 483 00:31:52.680 --> 00:31:54.680 Well, then, you know, what we believe is really different. 484 00:31:54.680 --> 00:31:57.400 Well, then our bodies know which message to be taking. 485 00:31:57.880 --> 00:32:02.960 Um, so anyway, when I did that, then, and then she did the same thing when she did 486 00:32:02.960 --> 00:32:03.240 that. 487 00:32:03.240 --> 00:32:08.760 And when I did that, that our body started dropping weight with more food, less 488 00:32:08.760 --> 00:32:15.280 exercise, because our bodies, basically it's like our bodies are following what it 489 00:32:15.280 --> 00:32:16.120 is that we do. 490 00:32:16.880 --> 00:32:20.800 And then, and I was telling a group that my goodness, it was probably back, uh, 491 00:32:21.800 --> 00:32:24.840 about two years ago, I was telling them this on a fireside chat. 492 00:32:25.440 --> 00:32:29.680 Um, and, uh, I mean, cause I've talked to people a lot about this, but I just 493 00:32:29.680 --> 00:32:31.600 happened to come across this fireside chat the other day. 494 00:32:31.640 --> 00:32:37.640 Um, and, uh, and in it, I was explaining, you know, our bodies hold our bodies, hold 495 00:32:37.640 --> 00:32:41.000 on to things like we do our bodies, follow our beliefs. 496 00:32:41.000 --> 00:32:45.080 So in our beliefs, if we're holding on to things, our bodies are holding on to things 497 00:32:45.080 --> 00:32:48.440 because that's the instruction that we're giving it is that we think that we're in 498 00:32:48.440 --> 00:32:48.760 lack. 499 00:32:48.760 --> 00:32:51.480 We have this poverty mentality about life in general. 500 00:32:51.800 --> 00:32:53.640 And so our body is doing the same thing. 501 00:32:53.640 --> 00:32:54.720 It's trying to conserve. 502 00:32:54.720 --> 00:32:57.120 It's trying to get, it's trying to hold on to. 503 00:32:57.600 --> 00:33:01.840 And so the more that we just receive ourselves exactly as we are, and we don't feel 504 00:33:01.840 --> 00:33:04.880 threatened by life, we don't feel threatened by God. 505 00:33:04.880 --> 00:33:09.240 We don't, we especially don't feel threatened by ourselves, you know, and, and 506 00:33:09.240 --> 00:33:11.400 stop trying to disassociate from ourselves. 507 00:33:11.880 --> 00:33:14.280 Then the more there are bodies like, Oh, okay. 508 00:33:14.280 --> 00:33:18.800 So you really are serious that I really don't ever have to change. 509 00:33:18.960 --> 00:33:19.920 You really are. 510 00:33:19.960 --> 00:33:24.080 I can just stay like me, you know, for the rest of our lives. 511 00:33:24.520 --> 00:33:30.400 And you really finally you're accepting that and you like it because if we accept 512 00:33:30.400 --> 00:33:33.320 it and, and we don't like it, it means we're giving up. 513 00:33:34.320 --> 00:33:38.880 And that won't change anything because our body still thinks it's not good enough for 514 00:33:38.880 --> 00:33:39.080 us. 515 00:33:39.480 --> 00:33:44.880 So if we actually choose ourselves without requiring anything more of ourselves than 516 00:33:45.320 --> 00:33:49.200 just, then just to who it is that we currently are and how we're currently 517 00:33:49.200 --> 00:33:50.120 expressing ourselves. 518 00:33:50.720 --> 00:33:56.120 If we do that, then our bodies will finally feel safe enough to come into alignment 519 00:33:56.120 --> 00:34:01.720 with, with the truth of who it is that God says that we are, because we're letting it 520 00:34:02.040 --> 00:34:03.560 be okay where it is. 521 00:34:03.920 --> 00:34:09.760 So anyway, once you do that, well, then your body starts dropping weight without 522 00:34:10.120 --> 00:34:15.320 needing as much exercise and without needing as, as much reduced calorie count 523 00:34:15.800 --> 00:34:18.440 because your body isn't holding. 524 00:34:19.239 --> 00:34:24.320 So if you're doing a lot of that exercise and you're doing a lot of reducing 525 00:34:24.320 --> 00:34:27.880 calories and your body's still holding on to things, it's an emotional issue. 526 00:34:28.600 --> 00:34:30.440 It's a, it's a, it's an emotional issue. 527 00:34:30.440 --> 00:34:31.560 It's a spiritual issue. 528 00:34:31.560 --> 00:34:39.159 Your body is in conservation survival mode against you because you are battling it 529 00:34:39.159 --> 00:34:41.560 and fighting it as an enemy by exercising. 530 00:34:41.840 --> 00:34:44.679 You're fighting it as an enemy by refusing to feed it. 531 00:34:45.520 --> 00:34:47.480 But that's how it's taking it. 532 00:34:49.760 --> 00:34:54.800 When you're not working out and you're eating more than you should, like not, 533 00:34:57.880 --> 00:35:00.160 no, I'm just like, it's, I think it's. 534 00:35:00.000 --> 00:35:07.600 just so interesting to hear because I've been doing exactly like the opposite, like I've been 535 00:35:08.400 --> 00:35:14.160 not accepting, but I've been telling my body like drop this, like I respect you, I do this, 536 00:35:14.880 --> 00:35:18.880 but I haven't been feeling it. And I think when I've been doing the discipline thing 537 00:35:19.520 --> 00:35:26.720 and I've started to lose weight, I've actually started to accept it, but I haven't known that 538 00:35:26.720 --> 00:35:31.840 I've done it. So then it's dropped more, but now that I have been going through grief and stress 539 00:35:31.840 --> 00:35:38.400 and going up, then I start like punishing it subconsciously. I'm just like, I'm not happy 540 00:35:38.400 --> 00:35:45.040 with you. So even now, if I'm trying to eat right or if I'm trying to work out, then I can't because 541 00:35:45.040 --> 00:35:50.160 it still keeps gaining. And I think it's because of what Ashley is saying, like it knows that I 542 00:35:50.160 --> 00:35:58.080 don't like it, you know? But how do you start liking it? And what about now I eat too much 543 00:35:58.080 --> 00:36:05.760 and I don't exercise? Like, can you just continue that, but just tell yourself that you choose to 544 00:36:05.760 --> 00:36:14.400 love yourself and that, but doesn't it have to do with something? I have a suggestion. 545 00:36:15.280 --> 00:36:19.040 I have a suggestion. And then Ashley, you can say if it's a good suggestion or not, 546 00:36:19.600 --> 00:36:23.040 but I think we should hold each other accountable because we're friends. 547 00:36:23.760 --> 00:36:29.920 So, and by that, I mean, like, I mean, it's still going to be the loss of physics until 548 00:36:30.880 --> 00:36:35.040 we have the faith level to live from spirit and you can command your body to drop weight. 549 00:36:35.040 --> 00:36:41.360 If you don't, if you're not at that level, I'm not at that level. And I don't work out and I just 550 00:36:41.360 --> 00:36:48.240 continue to eat. I'm going to lose, I'm going to gain weight. Like, I mean, that's just too much 551 00:36:48.240 --> 00:36:55.920 calories. I mean, it's just a lot, but what I would like for both of us is to find joy in the 552 00:36:55.920 --> 00:37:05.440 discipline and to like, look at like to what I want to do is I want to try to find, so this is 553 00:37:05.440 --> 00:37:09.280 why, because I'm like, maybe you want to do the same. And if you do, we can hold each other 554 00:37:09.280 --> 00:37:13.920 accountable. So that's why I'm saying it. I think I need to practice to look at myself in the mirror 555 00:37:13.920 --> 00:37:20.320 and actually speak kindly to my body. And, and actually like when I wanted to forgive before, 556 00:37:20.320 --> 00:37:24.960 and if, even if I didn't believe it, I was like, I forgive, I forgive. So I have to look at myself 557 00:37:24.960 --> 00:37:31.760 and actually start telling my body. I like it until I believe it, you know, like until I actually 558 00:37:31.760 --> 00:37:37.920 believe it. That's good. Cause that's the same as like getting up in the morning and swimming or 559 00:37:37.920 --> 00:37:43.040 whatever. I'm going to have to do that until I believe it. And then I'm going to have to like, 560 00:37:43.040 --> 00:37:47.280 Oh, but in the meantime, and then I have to practice being on the spirit level, but 561 00:37:47.280 --> 00:37:52.400 also knowing that, Oh, actually I have to do some work here, but I can do the work from rest, 562 00:37:53.440 --> 00:37:59.200 knowing that God has given me these tools. And so that's where I need to like, hold myself 563 00:37:59.200 --> 00:38:04.240 accountable. Am I good at like remembering that? So I'm not trying to do it by myself, 564 00:38:04.240 --> 00:38:10.080 but remembering like, Oh, I can actually ask God to help me. I can ask Holy spirit to help me 565 00:38:10.080 --> 00:38:16.960 like, Oh, this is a difficult day or like, Oh, help me get to the gym or, you know? So we still 566 00:38:16.960 --> 00:38:22.160 do it, but from a place of rest and from like a place of learning how to love our bodies. 567 00:38:23.120 --> 00:38:28.400 Do what? So we still do what? Like, like you go on your soul fight and rest. Like I would 568 00:38:29.200 --> 00:38:35.760 so in something like a diet or a workout that I actually can believe in, even if it's very small, 569 00:38:35.760 --> 00:38:43.120 or what do you mean? I think so for me, I know. Cause I've tried so many things. So now I know 570 00:38:43.120 --> 00:38:49.520 for me, my body likes better if I eat more pescatarian and I have like, I have like a 571 00:38:49.520 --> 00:38:54.240 food thing. So I want to continue doing that. And I want to continue going back to the exercise 572 00:38:54.240 --> 00:38:58.880 because I haven't been doing it for a while and going on my steps. But in addition to that, 573 00:38:59.520 --> 00:39:05.120 I want to tell my body, I love it. And then I want to remind myself that I'm doing this from rest 574 00:39:05.680 --> 00:39:12.400 and I'm not doing it from works. So what I've done this past week is cause I've kind of like, 575 00:39:12.400 --> 00:39:16.800 like you I've been wanting this. Oh, it's great. I can just like live from the spirit. I can just 576 00:39:16.800 --> 00:39:21.520 tell my body to drop this weight and it's magically going to happen. And finally I'm free. 577 00:39:22.000 --> 00:39:27.200 Never. And I never have to think about worrying about food again, and I can just eat whatever, 578 00:39:27.200 --> 00:39:31.920 and I will never have a problem with food. And hopefully I will never have a problem with food, 579 00:39:31.920 --> 00:39:36.240 but that's not where I'm at right now. So obviously then I've been gaining weight because 580 00:39:36.240 --> 00:39:41.440 I've just been doing whatever I want. At the same time, I've been declaring to my body in kindness 581 00:39:41.440 --> 00:39:47.440 to drop the weight at the same time as I've been emotionally not liking it and actually being mad 582 00:39:47.440 --> 00:39:53.200 at it for gaining weight and continue to doing that. So I'm really glad we had this talk. I don't 583 00:39:53.200 --> 00:39:59.760 know. It's like, but I don't know if it makes, is it something, but I guess, yeah. 584 00:40:00.000 --> 00:40:05.880 I don't know how does it sound to I don't know if it makes sense in my head, but I don't know if it makes sense in your head. 585 00:40:07.920 --> 00:40:10.040 or yeah or what Ashley things. 586 00:40:11.480 --> 00:40:11.960 Oh me. 587 00:40:13.440 --> 00:40:21.760 Yes, I think that's great I think it's super reminds that you, there was something that you mentioned just now reminded me as. 588 00:40:21.760 --> 00:40:34.720 And my sister on a fire on one of these fireside chats and again if I can say this because it's public information because y'all have access to the fireside chat so even the past one, I would say the squirrel. 589 00:40:35.920 --> 00:40:46.400 Building and that she mentioned in a fireside chat she said, you know, and of course she wasn't talking about losing weight, though she was talking about but it's the same subject she was talking about. 590 00:40:47.000 --> 00:40:52.760 Well, I think what you're talking about wait, maybe she was talking about wait anyway she was talking about way or she was talking about some of their aspects. 591 00:40:53.120 --> 00:41:01.840 Of the physical healing that she was needing and she said, you know i've been realizing that I have been talking to my body and viewing it as if it was its fault. 592 00:41:02.960 --> 00:41:13.040 it's like that's a really good way to phrase it is instead of like you know over the enemy or whatever, sometimes we have a difficult time connecting with that, but when she said it phrased it like that i'm like that kind of really drove at home. 593 00:41:13.040 --> 00:41:19.640 she's like i've been viewing it and talking to it as if it was its fault and like if it was a child or whatever, and so. 594 00:41:20.360 --> 00:41:34.960 Anyway, that was just something that I was reminded of when you were talking, but no, I think that that's great and and so one of the things that you can do and we're not a disconnects with something else that you had said. 595 00:41:35.400 --> 00:41:41.720 And about the about the discipline and all of that and just basically the trauma. 596 00:41:42.360 --> 00:41:52.880 Of hey i've been there before, and I want to go back and so, therefore, I wanted to have nothing whatsoever to do with exercise or nothing whatsoever to do with diet, because it's kind of like all or nothing. 597 00:41:53.240 --> 00:42:04.080 You know you're probably like me, you know my pendulum seems to swing all to the to all the experience i'm either this way or i'm way over here, you know and God wants to bring me to balance, you know. 598 00:42:05.200 --> 00:42:14.120 That just interestingly, just as a fascinating picture for golf and times when we have a tendency to do this and God teaches us something and we swing way over here. 599 00:42:14.560 --> 00:42:17.880 be okay with yourself and understand that you'll probably swing back this way. 600 00:42:18.400 --> 00:42:25.920 And then you'll swing back this way, but you notice that you're slowly getting to Center so anyway, so just understand if y'all are like me, which it sounds like y'all are. 601 00:42:26.200 --> 00:42:34.120 You know you're very willing to go to extreme just under just just recognize where it is that you are on the journey and that and and. 602 00:42:34.560 --> 00:42:42.480 and understand that God is okay with you, while you're slowly because, even though yeah you're more extreme than you should be you're not doing this anymore. 603 00:42:42.840 --> 00:42:47.680 So you're you are you're you're getting there, you know you're in a process, so anyway, going back to. 604 00:42:48.440 --> 00:43:01.520 What you're talking about about this like this terror of going back to the plan and dieting and and and exercise, one of the ways that you can begin to get over that is choose something that you that. 605 00:43:02.600 --> 00:43:05.040 That you can connect with. 606 00:43:05.760 --> 00:43:15.440 Being able to enjoy and to be giving yourself because you know, I was talking about the fact that hey it's important to just switch our approach to discipline. 607 00:43:15.680 --> 00:43:23.640 Instead of like oh it's something I have to do with something that's being forced on me, and now I have to respond to this thing I didn't even want to happen, you know to me. 608 00:43:24.400 --> 00:43:29.480 Instead of that if you're wanting to now approach things from the perspective of what do I want to create. 609 00:43:30.480 --> 00:43:35.320 In my life, what do I want to create me and the Lord together, what do we want to create our life to be. 610 00:43:36.920 --> 00:43:45.200 In order to start kind of transitioning into that perspective start small start with okay like maybe like running. 611 00:43:45.640 --> 00:43:55.160 Getting on the treadmill and running like four miles, maybe you used to do that and i'm just making something up like say, for instance, but that's what you used to do, and it used to take you like half an hour, an hour or whatever. 612 00:43:55.720 --> 00:44:05.080 To run this one mile at you know, four and a half miles an hour or whatever and you're just like you know what so don't think that you have to go from from nothing. 613 00:44:05.720 --> 00:44:18.440 To that because why because you're traumatized by that, so it might be too much faith for you right now might be too much where you just like Lord I can't do that. 614 00:44:18.960 --> 00:44:32.320 And be in rest I can't believe you to that extent yet okay so start instead of being nothing start doing something that will actually enable you to. 615 00:44:33.080 --> 00:44:43.320 To choose it because you are creating your life, as opposed to approaching it from the perspective of you have to, for instance, if you enjoy walking make your. 616 00:44:43.320 --> 00:45:00.000 Do make yourself do that every day, but, but a distance that pushes you, but that you enjoy so or get on the treadmill you could even if you wanted to do that, but just do it for 15 minutes or just do it in front of the. 617 00:45:00.000 --> 00:45:06.480 television or do it, I don't know, do something that makes you think that makes you that makes 618 00:45:06.480 --> 00:45:11.600 it easier for you to connect with. I am doing this because I choose. I am doing this because 619 00:45:11.600 --> 00:45:19.440 I am trying to create a positive, bigger, broader, bolder, richer life for myself because I want it. 620 00:45:20.240 --> 00:45:24.080 And this is how this is the modality that I'm going to choose in order to do it in. 621 00:45:24.080 --> 00:45:31.520 And so you choose an exercise that enables you to enjoy you. I don't know, dancing or playing 622 00:45:31.520 --> 00:45:36.480 volleyball or something that is easier for you, more easy for you to connect with fun 623 00:45:37.520 --> 00:45:42.240 as opposed to something else. And then only do it for a certain length of time and you don't 624 00:45:42.240 --> 00:45:47.520 have to do it for the hour that you used to do it for. Just do it for 15 minutes or do it for 30 625 00:45:47.520 --> 00:45:52.800 or run for 15 minutes if you used to run for an hour and then walk for the next 15 and do it all 626 00:45:52.800 --> 00:45:57.280 in front of the television. You know, in other words, don't make everything, don't make it all 627 00:45:57.280 --> 00:46:06.400 so hard. So that'll help you get over the trauma that exercise is bad and or exercise is always 628 00:46:06.400 --> 00:46:10.960 the thing that you don't want to do. Exercise is where you're hard on yourself, where you have to 629 00:46:10.960 --> 00:46:17.360 hate yourself, where you have to hate how you feel, you have to dread the experience. So start, 630 00:46:17.360 --> 00:46:21.760 so it's the same thing like what I was talking to Annette about earlier about like 631 00:46:23.520 --> 00:46:29.360 choose to what degree that you can and then declare the rest. So that's what you're doing 632 00:46:29.360 --> 00:46:36.640 here. Do what it is that you can do that enables you to believe God, that enables you to say God 633 00:46:36.640 --> 00:46:42.640 says that you were to be delighted in. What do you need to do in order to actually act on 634 00:46:43.440 --> 00:46:50.640 on believing him that you were to be delighted in, that you were good, that you're enjoyable, 635 00:46:50.640 --> 00:46:56.000 that to enjoy yourself, not just the fact that you're enjoyable. No, no, no. God says 636 00:46:56.000 --> 00:47:02.720 enjoy yourself. Don't believe that you're enjoyable. Enjoy it. Don't believe that you're 637 00:47:02.720 --> 00:47:09.040 supposed to love yourself and believe that you're good. No, no, no. Love you. Actually do the thing. 638 00:47:09.040 --> 00:47:13.440 So what would help you actually act on it? What would help you enjoy you? 639 00:47:13.440 --> 00:47:18.640 What would help you love on yourself? What would help you do that? And then just start 640 00:47:18.640 --> 00:47:28.240 doing what you can to actually obey him. That's what I did when I chose the Lord about loving. 641 00:47:29.360 --> 00:47:34.640 Oh, no, sorry, not loving. Okay, let me use a different example where it says that God 642 00:47:34.640 --> 00:47:40.720 accepted me no matter what, even when I sinned and how I kept using apology as a means by which 643 00:47:40.720 --> 00:47:45.360 I would pay God to reconnect with him. So say, for instance, I felt like God would separate 644 00:47:45.360 --> 00:47:49.920 himself from me and not talk to me if I sinned. And so I was trying to get over that. And I was 645 00:47:49.920 --> 00:47:57.440 like, okay, God, I can't seem to apologize to you without considering it a payment that I'm making 646 00:47:57.440 --> 00:48:05.680 to you. So Lord, the only way that I can get myself to finally believe you is if I don't 647 00:48:05.680 --> 00:48:13.920 apologize. So God, I caught myself in the middle of sinning. Okay, so I'm not going to let myself 648 00:48:13.920 --> 00:48:21.520 apologize to the Lord. I'm going to ask him for something. And I would just basically, I was in 649 00:48:21.520 --> 00:48:26.480 those moments, I was asking God, God, would you please take care of me in this area that I thought 650 00:48:26.480 --> 00:48:31.520 that I had to like cover and protect? And like, I had to apologize and I had to make sure you were 651 00:48:31.520 --> 00:48:35.120 okay. And I had to make sure I wasn't in sin and your presence and all this other stuff, you know, 652 00:48:36.320 --> 00:48:40.160 can you just take care of that for a second? Because I can't take care of that and try to 653 00:48:40.160 --> 00:48:46.080 believe you. I've tried that Lord and all I end up doing is this and not obeying you. Because you 654 00:48:46.080 --> 00:48:52.160 called me in order to obey you. You said that obeying is basically believing. And God, I can't 655 00:48:52.160 --> 00:48:58.000 obey you because I can't find myself, I can't believe you and do this too. So God, I'm going to 656 00:48:58.000 --> 00:49:04.640 abandon this so that I can finally obey you by believing you. So do that kind of a thing. Think, 657 00:49:04.640 --> 00:49:11.280 okay, well, what do I need to do in order to finally obey God? If he says that I'm good, 658 00:49:11.840 --> 00:49:16.960 that I'm, that I'm lovable, and that I'm to be delighted in by actually loving myself, 659 00:49:16.960 --> 00:49:22.240 enjoying myself and delighting in myself. What do I need to do to finally obey God by doing those 660 00:49:22.240 --> 00:49:27.440 things by loving on me by delighting in me by enjoying my own company? What do I need to do? 661 00:49:28.080 --> 00:49:33.200 So you're doing it because those that that's like actions that you're taking in order to finally 662 00:49:33.200 --> 00:49:37.680 obey God. You're trying to think of it this way. You're trying to obey God by doing all those 663 00:49:37.680 --> 00:49:42.560 other things. And it's not working. You don't feel like you're in obedience. You feel like by doing 664 00:49:42.640 --> 00:49:48.240 all those things, you keep failing. That's how we feel. We can like, I'm doing things to obey you, 665 00:49:48.240 --> 00:49:54.400 but I don't feel like I'm obeying you. Then abandon them. It's just like, okay, what did 666 00:49:54.400 --> 00:49:59.920 you say to do? You said to believe. Okay, what do I have to do that will finally help me believe? 667 00:50:00.000 --> 00:50:06.320 So, so I did the drastic things like that and to start breaking off those old mindsets 668 00:50:06.320 --> 00:50:12.480 of, you know, that I would be trauma that I was traumatized by, like, by all of these 669 00:50:12.480 --> 00:50:13.880 other things I kept trying to do. 670 00:50:13.880 --> 00:50:14.880 Is that making sense? 671 00:50:14.880 --> 00:50:16.880 It makes a lot of sense. 672 00:50:16.880 --> 00:50:17.880 Okay. 673 00:50:17.880 --> 00:50:18.880 It's really good. 674 00:50:18.880 --> 00:50:24.160 The only thing is that I, I find comfort in eating that so you're like, what do you want 675 00:50:24.160 --> 00:50:25.160 to do? 676 00:50:25.160 --> 00:50:26.520 Well, I want to eat. 677 00:50:26.520 --> 00:50:27.520 That's how I feel good. 678 00:50:28.000 --> 00:50:29.000 I don't know. 679 00:50:29.000 --> 00:50:30.000 Maybe it is. 680 00:50:30.000 --> 00:50:34.800 I don't know why, because I haven't, I think I also like Annette sometimes eat my emotions 681 00:50:34.800 --> 00:50:38.800 or find some sort of comfort in it. 682 00:50:38.800 --> 00:50:42.200 But it's like when you're talking now, I'm like, it makes a sense. 683 00:50:42.200 --> 00:50:46.200 And then you're saying the thing about delighting and I'm like, well, I delighted foods and 684 00:50:46.200 --> 00:50:48.800 eating things that I shouldn't do. 685 00:50:48.800 --> 00:50:53.200 And, and then I'm like, but I can't do that. 686 00:50:53.200 --> 00:50:54.200 Yes. 687 00:50:54.200 --> 00:50:55.200 Okay. 688 00:50:55.200 --> 00:50:56.200 Very good point. 689 00:50:56.200 --> 00:50:57.200 Okay. 690 00:50:57.880 --> 00:50:58.880 So a couple of things. 691 00:50:58.880 --> 00:51:02.880 First of all, you said it, man, I wish I could remember how you phrased it, but basically 692 00:51:02.880 --> 00:51:06.680 you were saying, you know, that you were, uh, you know, delight in myself while I delight 693 00:51:06.680 --> 00:51:07.680 in food. 694 00:51:07.680 --> 00:51:08.680 Exactly. 695 00:51:08.680 --> 00:51:11.480 We are a couple of things. 696 00:51:11.480 --> 00:51:17.160 One, we need to be delighting in ourselves, not food, which I know that I know that that's 697 00:51:17.160 --> 00:51:23.120 what you meant, but I think it was a bit of a Freudian slip because we do that we're instead 698 00:51:23.120 --> 00:51:25.200 of delighting in ourselves, we're delighting in food. 699 00:51:25.200 --> 00:51:26.680 We don't need to do that. 700 00:51:27.160 --> 00:51:28.160 We're trying to give ourselves comfort. 701 00:51:28.160 --> 00:51:33.840 But so here's what the problem with it, we're disassociating from ourselves. 702 00:51:33.840 --> 00:51:37.760 And so that's part of a problem we need to, we need to actually associate with ourselves 703 00:51:37.760 --> 00:51:38.760 instead of disassociate. 704 00:51:38.760 --> 00:51:40.440 But here's the other thing. 705 00:51:40.440 --> 00:51:43.880 Sometimes we eat, um, in order to get comfort. 706 00:51:43.880 --> 00:51:48.660 So what I would suggest is, and I've done this myself, if there's, if there's something 707 00:51:48.660 --> 00:51:54.560 that I have a tendency to do, um, when some kind of an addiction, like for instance, eating, 708 00:51:54.560 --> 00:51:59.680 you know, or whatever, when, um, in order, in order to make myself feel comforted or 709 00:51:59.680 --> 00:52:08.200 to feel better, I give, I give myself a specific thing to do that I enjoy that I do when I 710 00:52:08.200 --> 00:52:09.200 want to do the other thing. 711 00:52:09.200 --> 00:52:13.200 Like, say for instance, if I want to eat, I think of some other things that I really, 712 00:52:13.200 --> 00:52:17.000 really enjoy doing, especially one that I don't let myself do because I really, really 713 00:52:17.000 --> 00:52:18.000 enjoy it. 714 00:52:18.000 --> 00:52:21.680 I don't know what it would be reading a book, probably like reading some fiction book or 715 00:52:21.680 --> 00:52:24.240 sitting down and watching a 30 minute show. 716 00:52:24.920 --> 00:52:32.280 I don't know, but I let my, I pick something that I, that I let myself do, um, when I want, 717 00:52:32.280 --> 00:52:34.560 when I'm being tempted to do the other. 718 00:52:34.560 --> 00:52:40.680 So, so it gives you a way in which you're able to delight, to give yourself some kind 719 00:52:40.680 --> 00:52:47.760 of a, of a way in which you are expressing life that God has given you to like basically 720 00:52:47.760 --> 00:52:51.640 something that you recognize that you absolutely delight in that makes you feel so excited 721 00:52:51.640 --> 00:52:58.040 and so happy, but it's not self-destructive like eating is so, and it's like something 722 00:52:58.040 --> 00:53:02.000 like reading and it will be, and you give yourself a time limit, like something like 723 00:53:02.000 --> 00:53:05.760 something very harmless, like 15 minutes, you know, you're not sitting down for five 724 00:53:05.760 --> 00:53:11.160 hours when you should be working, you know, it's just for like 15 minutes and, and whatever. 725 00:53:11.160 --> 00:53:17.040 And it has to be something that you really, really, really like, because it has to overpower 726 00:53:17.040 --> 00:53:18.640 the food. 727 00:53:18.640 --> 00:53:21.520 It has to be something because you're replacing it. 728 00:53:21.520 --> 00:53:26.680 Otherwise you're going to have no desire to replace this thing with, you know, to replace 729 00:53:26.680 --> 00:53:30.600 food with this thing, because food is still so much more interesting. 730 00:53:30.600 --> 00:53:33.960 It has to be something that you really, really, really, really like and really enjoy. 731 00:53:33.960 --> 00:53:38.000 And I don't know if it's like watching 15 minutes of your favorite show that you literally 732 00:53:38.000 --> 00:53:45.200 do not let yourself watch unless you want to eat or read the book, or could be like 733 00:53:45.200 --> 00:53:51.320 scrolling through Facebook because maybe you just really enjoy that or it's perusing 734 00:53:51.320 --> 00:53:52.320 things on Pinterest. 735 00:53:52.320 --> 00:53:55.160 I have no idea, but, but pick something. 736 00:53:55.160 --> 00:53:59.400 So what you're doing, and here's the important thing, you're not trading one addiction for 737 00:53:59.400 --> 00:54:02.920 another because that, that just won't help this situation. 738 00:54:02.920 --> 00:54:09.800 What you're doing is you are having to pick something that lets you feel like you, that 739 00:54:09.800 --> 00:54:15.040 lets you kind of like, you remember how I talked about, uh, where whenever we do certain 740 00:54:15.040 --> 00:54:20.920 things, something within our, our spirit just lights up and it's almost like we, we, we've 741 00:54:20.920 --> 00:54:25.680 got like a Christmas tree inside of us and it's like shining out through our pores. 742 00:54:25.680 --> 00:54:26.680 That's what it leads. 743 00:54:26.680 --> 00:54:33.080 It feels like to me when I'm doing my absolute favorite thing, you know, and, and so that's 744 00:54:33.080 --> 00:54:38.680 what lets you know that there's an aspect of a deep aspect of who it is you are, that 745 00:54:38.680 --> 00:54:39.680 you're expressing. 746 00:54:39.680 --> 00:54:45.200 Like it's a deep aspect, in other words, of your spirit, not just something that's kind 747 00:54:45.200 --> 00:54:46.200 of nice. 748 00:54:46.200 --> 00:54:51.080 No, it's a, if there's some way in which you are connecting with a deep part of yourself, 749 00:54:51.080 --> 00:54:56.040 I'm talking about picking something like that up because then what you're trading the food 750 00:54:56.040 --> 00:54:59.920 for is you're trading it for actually expressing. 751 00:55:00.000 --> 00:55:05.040 and delighting in and focusing and putting attention on something that really is you 752 00:55:05.600 --> 00:55:12.000 being more of you into the world. And so you're, so that keeps you from trading in 753 00:55:12.000 --> 00:55:18.720 trading one addiction for another, like, well, instead of eating all, I don't know what you do. 754 00:55:18.720 --> 00:55:26.960 I don't know. Binge watch stranger things. I'm making something up. It be something that makes 755 00:55:26.960 --> 00:55:33.840 you feel, I don't know, like, I don't know that I think it just makes you feel very uniquely like 756 00:55:33.840 --> 00:55:39.280 you almost like when you're doing it and you feel the pleasure of God. You feel, I don't know, 757 00:55:39.280 --> 00:55:47.760 they're like life fires up within you. For me, it's sewing. I love it. Like sewing clothes. 758 00:55:47.760 --> 00:55:53.760 And I know that that sounds really weird. It's surprising even to me. But I tell you, 759 00:55:54.320 --> 00:56:02.480 I light up inside and I even find it odd that I have noticed that I feel a different way when 760 00:56:02.480 --> 00:56:08.560 I'm sewing clothes than I do, or even just looking through books that inspire me to sew clothes. 761 00:56:09.280 --> 00:56:14.320 I just get so excited in a totally different way than when I'm reading a book, totally different 762 00:56:14.320 --> 00:56:17.840 way than when I'm cooking and baking because I enjoy all those things too. I'm telling you what, 763 00:56:17.840 --> 00:56:23.120 it is very unique. I feel like I'm connecting with a core aspect of me. And that's what I'm 764 00:56:23.120 --> 00:56:29.200 saying. It's important to begin to switch to an addiction of trying to comfort oneself 765 00:56:29.840 --> 00:56:38.320 to actually delighting in you expressing you because that other is giving to you so that you 766 00:56:38.320 --> 00:56:44.000 don't have to do anything. And what we need to be getting our life from instead is allow is 767 00:56:44.000 --> 00:56:49.680 accessing the spirit of God within us and letting it flow out. So find those things that let you 768 00:56:49.680 --> 00:56:56.320 connect to that light within you that you're now pulling out and you're getting more life from 769 00:56:56.320 --> 00:57:01.280 instead of I don't want to have to do anything and I want it to feed me. That's eating from the tree 770 00:57:01.280 --> 00:57:07.920 of knowledge that's using something that is corrupted as a fake counterfeit source of fuel 771 00:57:07.920 --> 00:57:16.320 or energy instead of using God's spirit flowing out of us as our source of more energy. Does that 772 00:57:16.320 --> 00:57:23.200 make sense? It's so good. And it's good to like create instead something that where you create 773 00:57:23.200 --> 00:57:29.200 instead of just being like sewing instead of yeah. Oh my goodness. I could speak about this for hours 774 00:57:29.200 --> 00:57:36.640 and listen to you guys talk. I'm gonna head back into the party. Okay. And I want you to be able 775 00:57:36.640 --> 00:57:44.880 to go on your Valentine's walk with your family. But it was so great to see you guys and I can't 776 00:57:44.880 --> 00:57:50.720 wait for next week and yeah. So let's keep each other accountable and let's talk. Let's do it. 777 00:57:50.720 --> 00:57:56.240 All right. Thanks guys. Thank you so much. It was amazing. All right. You're welcome. 778 00:57:59.120 --> 00:58:04.560 Happy Valentine's Day.