Good morning, everybody, or it's morning here.
I just wanted to jump on for my first journey share
just to say at the most amazing rest group
with Renata and Ashley yesterday,
just so many things clicked into place.
We were talking about weight and like losing weight.
I mean, yeah, it was just, I don't know.
I'm the bottom line is I woke up this morning
and I'm just so happy and I'm driving into work,
a work that I don't necessarily wanna be in,
but I'm so filled with joy and I'm at rest and peace
and just feel like invincible, not like that,
but just in the sense that, wow,
I'm really starting to grasp how good God is
and how for me he is and how I don't have to work for things
and he's gonna work it out all in his perfect timing
and I just get to enjoy.
So even today, like I started with looking myself
in the mirror and just speaking kindly to my body
because as y'all know, I go out for swims in the morning.
So I was like, I love you body, like you are amazing.
You, thank you for carrying me, like you're strong,
you're healthy, you look good.
I just wanted to like bless my body and I feel joyful
and wanting to just like start this health journey.
So I've gone from being super like tried every diet there is
and just been really hard on myself
and had an eating disorder.
And then I started on getting a health coach
and that was really great, but then I lost my dad
and then I kind of fell off the wagon
and I don't know, it's been like hard to get back.
And then after last rest group, I was like, oh great,
I can just command my body to like come into alignment
and I will be free and I don't have anything
and I won't have any struggles with food anymore.
And then after yesterday's fire,
like sorry, not fire chat, rest group,
I was like, oh, it doesn't work like that.
Like I'm not at that level of faith
and also I'm telling my body this in kindness
at the same time as I'm internally in my feelings
condemning it and not liking it.
So I'm like, oh, so Ashley brought that to mind
that, oh no, that has to be aligned first as well.
So I just feel a newfound sense of freedom
in going on this health journey,
continuing to go on the health journey,
like getting back into eating healthy and exercising,
but doing it with God from a place of rest
and not towards it and not towards like,
oh, I need this specific outcome,
but probably the outcome will come
just by me making good choices and hanging out.